1 00:00:01,600 --> 00:00:03,720 Ladies and gents, it is corporate MILF. 2 00:00:03,720 --> 00:00:07,520 Back with another episode tonight I'm going to be giving 3 00:00:07,520 --> 00:00:13,640 you another perspective about face sitting and pussy worship 4 00:00:14,200 --> 00:00:19,760 and what kind of state of mind it will put the man into. 5 00:00:21,000 --> 00:00:28,040 I'm also going to walk through a sexy text chain and decode it 6 00:00:28,040 --> 00:00:30,640 for you. And I think that this is going 7 00:00:30,640 --> 00:00:38,040 to help the guys start to see how an alpha is able to position 8 00:00:38,040 --> 00:00:43,960 himself and then also, of course, how I am perceiving him. 9 00:00:43,960 --> 00:00:50,560 So I hope that this helps you guys to open up your minds to 10 00:00:50,560 --> 00:00:57,320 these phases of connecting with somebody for the first time and 11 00:00:57,320 --> 00:01:02,760 gently making them aware of your desires and of course theirs 12 00:01:02,760 --> 00:01:04,959 too. So I'm going to pop over to the 13 00:01:04,959 --> 00:01:07,560 text chain here and kind of go through it for you. 14 00:01:08,800 --> 00:01:15,360 Now this is with someone who I did connect with on Instagram. 15 00:01:15,720 --> 00:01:22,200 And the reason why this is interesting for me is because 16 00:01:23,040 --> 00:01:28,560 within the space of fandom, of course, I've had men explain to 17 00:01:28,560 --> 00:01:34,680 me many times their desires around face sitting, pussy 18 00:01:34,680 --> 00:01:42,000 worship and all the ways that they really just wanted to, you 19 00:01:42,000 --> 00:01:44,120 know, worship a goddess in the past. 20 00:01:44,280 --> 00:01:50,960 And I don't know that I fully had wrapped my mind around the 21 00:01:50,960 --> 00:01:55,120 power of that. And now that I'm having this 22 00:01:55,120 --> 00:02:00,680 connection with this person who I'm attracted to, I guess the 23 00:02:00,680 --> 00:02:02,960 difference is, you know, you have all these people saying 24 00:02:02,960 --> 00:02:04,680 like, hey, I want to worship your pussy. 25 00:02:04,680 --> 00:02:08,120 And it's like, cool. But like, I'm not going to like 26 00:02:08,120 --> 00:02:10,080 just do that with anybody, you know what I mean? 27 00:02:10,080 --> 00:02:14,040 So it's like hard for me to get my mind into a place where I can 28 00:02:15,880 --> 00:02:20,480 kind of take in the power of it. But in this case I am taking in 29 00:02:20,480 --> 00:02:23,960 the power with every fucking word he says because this man 30 00:02:25,000 --> 00:02:29,360 has my attention. So we start talking and somehow 31 00:02:29,360 --> 00:02:31,760 I must have asked them. We were on Instagram now we're 32 00:02:31,760 --> 00:02:33,640 on tech. So like I I'm kind of missing 33 00:02:33,640 --> 00:02:41,000 that the the lead up here. But I come to find out that he 34 00:02:41,000 --> 00:02:44,840 likes my ass. So when he texts me, he says, 35 00:02:44,880 --> 00:02:47,800 oh, hello, this is your new seat, check in. 36 00:02:48,360 --> 00:02:53,800 Now he's really planting seeds very slowly with me because I 37 00:02:53,800 --> 00:02:57,080 don't think that he knows my full background. 38 00:02:59,360 --> 00:03:04,760 He doesn't know that men have told me like the sickest shit. 39 00:03:05,200 --> 00:03:07,360 So I've kind of like heard a lot of things. 40 00:03:08,240 --> 00:03:12,320 So it's like, it's not going to scare me to hear it, but it's, 41 00:03:13,080 --> 00:03:17,160 there is a difference between hearing it and hearing it from 42 00:03:17,160 --> 00:03:20,400 someone who wants to do it specifically with you and like 43 00:03:20,400 --> 00:03:24,080 you want to do with them. So anyway, he's like, yeah, I'm, 44 00:03:24,080 --> 00:03:27,800 I'm watching your ass videos on repeat because at this point all 45 00:03:27,800 --> 00:03:31,600 he's seeing is just like kind of like the same stuff that I post 46 00:03:31,600 --> 00:03:34,440 on TikTok, which is like my gym workouts. 47 00:03:34,440 --> 00:03:40,400 OK, So he had said before, oh, I could scoop you up really 48 00:03:40,400 --> 00:03:44,440 easily, hold you nice and sweet, or I could just grab you, throw 49 00:03:44,440 --> 00:03:47,640 you over my shoulder and snack your ass while I carry you to 50 00:03:47,640 --> 00:03:50,760 where I want. So there's two sides of this 51 00:03:50,760 --> 00:03:54,680 That's so fucking hot. OK, so there's holding you nice 52 00:03:54,680 --> 00:04:01,120 and sweet, like to be held like a like a little, you know, cute 53 00:04:01,120 --> 00:04:05,640 animal like that he just scooped up and grabbed is like so hot. 54 00:04:06,440 --> 00:04:10,800 And then having a man like carry you around like he's totally in 55 00:04:10,800 --> 00:04:14,320 control and you're just there to play around is like really super 56 00:04:14,320 --> 00:04:16,560 hot. But see, I'm picking up on like 57 00:04:16,560 --> 00:04:19,279 the Super small things that he's saying right now because we're 58 00:04:19,279 --> 00:04:22,200 just starting to get to know each other. 59 00:04:23,320 --> 00:04:28,600 So he says, I want to snack your ass while I carry you to where I 60 00:04:28,600 --> 00:04:35,840 want. Now, I don't know that I would 61 00:04:35,840 --> 00:04:39,440 have really picked up on the significance of that before, 62 00:04:40,080 --> 00:04:45,720 before I understood what an incredible desire that is that a 63 00:04:45,720 --> 00:04:53,960 man may have to eat your ass. And I just sort of pick up on 64 00:04:53,960 --> 00:04:54,440 that. OK. 65 00:04:54,440 --> 00:04:58,200 So I sort of like, leave that moment there. 66 00:04:58,680 --> 00:05:02,800 And then he says, I'll be fantasizing about losing all my 67 00:05:02,800 --> 00:05:10,280 breath, which tells me that he likes to get smothered. 68 00:05:10,280 --> 00:05:16,440 So not only does he want to kind of do dirty things, but he is 69 00:05:16,440 --> 00:05:19,040 also saying here he wants to get smothered. 70 00:05:19,840 --> 00:05:22,800 That is different. That is different. 71 00:05:23,760 --> 00:05:25,440 So I'm, I'm not going to pause here. 72 00:05:25,440 --> 00:05:31,160 I'm just like scrolling through and kind of like trying to pick 73 00:05:31,160 --> 00:05:37,360 up on all the nuances here. He's also describing how, oh, 74 00:05:39,240 --> 00:05:43,040 oh, I asked him, like, what are you thinking when you're up 75 00:05:43,040 --> 00:05:44,400 there? Because I think this is like a 76 00:05:44,400 --> 00:05:48,680 huge fear for women is like, all right, fine, I'm up there. 77 00:05:48,680 --> 00:05:51,360 Like, let's say I'm sitting on your face or like, whatever. 78 00:05:52,080 --> 00:05:53,720 What are you even thinking about? 79 00:05:53,720 --> 00:05:55,640 Like what's happening in the man's mind? 80 00:05:56,480 --> 00:06:01,520 He says if you were up here and I was looking at you, I'd be 81 00:06:01,520 --> 00:06:05,240 thinking many things. My eyes would be going up and 82 00:06:05,240 --> 00:06:10,240 down your body, looking at every curve and muscle, memorizing 83 00:06:10,240 --> 00:06:14,960 every inch and getting turned on as my mind started to wander. 84 00:06:15,720 --> 00:06:19,080 Then I'd be thinking about how bad I want to RIP off those skin 85 00:06:19,080 --> 00:06:22,440 tight pants off you because I'd be so curious to see what kind 86 00:06:22,440 --> 00:06:25,320 of thong you're wearing. And I'd be praying you just came 87 00:06:25,320 --> 00:06:27,480 from the gym where you got a hot and sweaty. 88 00:06:27,960 --> 00:06:31,000 So while I eat that thong off your body and chew on it like 89 00:06:31,000 --> 00:06:34,960 bubble gum, I could taste all of your juices and smells. 90 00:06:35,880 --> 00:06:39,960 So again, we're just beginning to get to know each other here. 91 00:06:40,760 --> 00:06:45,280 And what I'm picking up on here are a couple of things. 92 00:06:45,280 --> 00:06:49,720 So he's saying that I want you to be coming directly from the 93 00:06:49,720 --> 00:06:52,800 gym. And So what that tells me is 94 00:06:52,800 --> 00:06:56,520 like, so there's a lot of guys who would just like prefer you 95 00:06:56,520 --> 00:06:59,600 straight out of the shower, like they might be a little nervous 96 00:06:59,600 --> 00:07:04,160 to smell you. This guy, he wants to smell me. 97 00:07:04,160 --> 00:07:10,640 He wants my body odor. He like, wants to smell every 98 00:07:10,640 --> 00:07:12,520 single part of me. And then he's talking about 99 00:07:12,520 --> 00:07:18,840 chewing on my thong like bubble gum, which says to me like, he 100 00:07:18,840 --> 00:07:22,400 really, he's really into this. Like he wants to taste the 101 00:07:22,400 --> 00:07:25,000 juices and the smells. So like he's kind of setting the 102 00:07:25,000 --> 00:07:33,160 tone for what his desires are. And I'm loving this because this 103 00:07:33,160 --> 00:07:36,720 is a huge one for me. Like if I'm going to be with a 104 00:07:36,720 --> 00:07:41,520 partner, like the my fucking worst nightmare is like being 105 00:07:41,520 --> 00:07:45,680 with someone who's like not into me or like maybe they smell me 106 00:07:45,680 --> 00:07:50,640 and they're like turned off. Oh, that's such like a like for 107 00:07:50,640 --> 00:07:54,160 me, that's like horrifying, right. 108 00:07:55,040 --> 00:08:00,680 So I'm basking in the delight of this here because what it's 109 00:08:00,680 --> 00:08:03,560 telling me as a female is like, I can just relax. 110 00:08:03,560 --> 00:08:06,280 Like, I don't have to be perfect here. 111 00:08:06,280 --> 00:08:11,240 And in fact, he likes all of me for what I am. 112 00:08:11,240 --> 00:08:16,080 And like, that makes me feel more fully accepted. 113 00:08:16,920 --> 00:08:20,200 So that's like, huge to me. I love that. 114 00:08:20,640 --> 00:08:23,520 So anyway, so so again, we're kind of getting to know each 115 00:08:23,520 --> 00:08:25,280 other here. And he's like, do you like 116 00:08:25,280 --> 00:08:26,920 lingerie? I'm like, yeah, I love it. 117 00:08:27,200 --> 00:08:29,080 Would you like to show me what you like? 118 00:08:29,080 --> 00:08:32,120 And he's like a good answer. And he's like, how can I do 119 00:08:32,120 --> 00:08:34,000 that? And I said, well, you should 120 00:08:34,000 --> 00:08:36,000 definitely take me lingerie shopping. 121 00:08:36,400 --> 00:08:38,440 But until then, screenshots will do. 122 00:08:38,840 --> 00:08:41,520 Says, oh, man, this is bad. I'm hanging on to every word you 123 00:08:41,520 --> 00:08:44,080 say like a little schoolboy, you're dangerous. 124 00:08:44,080 --> 00:08:47,000 And I absolutely love it. Says I'm definitely taking 125 00:08:47,000 --> 00:08:51,120 lingerie shopping. Now what what I've done here is 126 00:08:51,120 --> 00:08:54,480 I've planted the seed that I do want him to take me shopping and 127 00:08:54,480 --> 00:08:58,720 that that would be fun for me, Although I'm not telling him 128 00:08:59,080 --> 00:09:02,840 that he has to do that in order to see me in lingerie, which I 129 00:09:02,840 --> 00:09:07,600 do say that to plenty of guys, right, because it's like, which 130 00:09:07,680 --> 00:09:13,120 barrier are you going to make them jump through in order to be 131 00:09:13,120 --> 00:09:15,680 with you? He's like, you keep telling me 132 00:09:15,680 --> 00:09:17,560 what I got to do to earn your attention. 133 00:09:17,560 --> 00:09:21,040 So he's like, you know, picking up on it and he's like, Oh my 134 00:09:21,040 --> 00:09:23,360 God, how you single? Are you smoking hot? 135 00:09:23,560 --> 00:09:25,360 He's like, do you do you intimidate men? 136 00:09:25,360 --> 00:09:30,400 And I was like, maybe he's like, are you not used to being with 137 00:09:30,440 --> 00:09:33,040 alpha man? And I'm like, no, I'm not. 138 00:09:33,160 --> 00:09:37,880 I was like, but I'm ready now. So the thing that makes me 139 00:09:38,520 --> 00:09:43,800 interested in him is that he's fucking jacked. 140 00:09:43,800 --> 00:09:48,040 First of all, he's huge. He's gorgeous. 141 00:09:48,040 --> 00:09:51,080 Like I'm extremely attracted to this guy. 142 00:09:51,680 --> 00:09:55,120 But the, the tone and the conversation and like what he's 143 00:09:55,120 --> 00:10:02,480 coming at me with right now is what's making me very attracted 144 00:10:02,480 --> 00:10:05,200 to him. Because you can also like chat 145 00:10:05,200 --> 00:10:08,600 with a guy who's like really hot and they're just fucking dumb as 146 00:10:08,600 --> 00:10:10,440 bricks. And they're so fucking boring. 147 00:10:10,440 --> 00:10:12,920 And they're like, hi, I fucking hate that. 148 00:10:12,920 --> 00:10:15,760 Like when guys just send me a note that says hi, God, it 149 00:10:15,760 --> 00:10:17,600 pisses me off. I'm like, you're wasting my 150 00:10:17,600 --> 00:10:19,920 fucking time and you're not interesting. 151 00:10:20,600 --> 00:10:23,120 Well, anyway, he is interesting. So I'm kind of running you 152 00:10:23,120 --> 00:10:24,720 through this. You guys can learn a few things 153 00:10:24,720 --> 00:10:28,440 and up your game. So he's kind of saying, Oh, this 154 00:10:28,440 --> 00:10:35,720 is interesting, Like I'm not used to being in the vicinity of 155 00:10:35,720 --> 00:10:39,600 dominant woman, you know, because I keep kind of switching 156 00:10:39,600 --> 00:10:43,480 on him so he sees that he can't fuck me over. 157 00:10:43,640 --> 00:10:46,920 That's kind of the point. And so I basically just say like 158 00:10:49,800 --> 00:10:53,920 we're talking about how I'm like whatever, hooking up, right. 159 00:10:53,920 --> 00:10:57,920 So he says I was saying I was going to dominate him and he's 160 00:10:57,920 --> 00:11:01,280 like, well, I'm skeptical. I'd certainly like to see you 161 00:11:01,280 --> 00:11:03,840 try to climb this mountain like a spider monkey and get me to 162 00:11:03,840 --> 00:11:07,000 submit. But I have a feeling my natural 163 00:11:07,000 --> 00:11:09,680 instincts would kick in before you knew it and I'd have you on 164 00:11:09,680 --> 00:11:13,320 your back as one of my hands pins down both your wrists above 165 00:11:13,320 --> 00:11:16,280 your head and my other hand Fernley around your neck, 166 00:11:16,280 --> 00:11:18,360 letting you know I'm about to have my way with you. 167 00:11:19,000 --> 00:11:22,640 Unless you're able to sit on a sit and smother my face first. 168 00:11:22,640 --> 00:11:27,560 In that case, you'd own me. I'd be yes ma'am, ING and every 169 00:11:27,560 --> 00:11:29,000 other thing that you said and wanted. 170 00:11:29,640 --> 00:11:31,480 So here he's telling me two things. 171 00:11:32,920 --> 00:11:43,520 He's telling me how incredibly powerful it is for him to be 172 00:11:43,920 --> 00:11:48,320 like teased with my pussy and to like have me sit on his face and 173 00:11:48,320 --> 00:11:52,960 like how he would just be like completely incapacitated if I 174 00:11:52,960 --> 00:11:55,080 did that, right? Because he's like, he's like, 175 00:11:55,080 --> 00:11:58,600 I'm going to dominate you. But like, if you sit on my face, 176 00:11:58,600 --> 00:12:01,440 like I'm literally not going to be able to do anything. 177 00:12:02,080 --> 00:12:07,600 But then he's also saying I'd have you on your back as one of 178 00:12:07,600 --> 00:12:10,920 my hands pins down your wrists. So you're you. 179 00:12:10,960 --> 00:12:14,000 OK, Let me explain this. So you're using body force, like 180 00:12:14,000 --> 00:12:17,520 body physicality as the point of dominance. 181 00:12:17,520 --> 00:12:22,200 And so like, you can tie someone up, but I actually think it's 182 00:12:22,200 --> 00:12:28,040 hotter to be physically dominated because I'm being 183 00:12:28,040 --> 00:12:32,360 physically dominated with the man's strength, and it's his 184 00:12:32,360 --> 00:12:35,760 strength and power that turns me on specifically. 185 00:12:36,040 --> 00:12:38,320 There's a time and place for bondage, and we're going to get 186 00:12:38,320 --> 00:12:41,080 there. But right now, Oh my God, like 187 00:12:41,080 --> 00:12:44,720 this, that's probably like the first and easiest thing that you 188 00:12:44,720 --> 00:12:48,600 can kind of bring into the bedroom is like kind of these 189 00:12:48,600 --> 00:12:52,200 little tiny things that you can do to assert yourself. 190 00:12:52,600 --> 00:12:57,080 I do feel like this is a ladder. Like I feel like if you just go 191 00:12:57,080 --> 00:13:00,000 in hot and heavy and you're like wicked rough with somebody for 192 00:13:00,000 --> 00:13:02,600 the first time, like you might fucking scare the fuck out of 193 00:13:02,600 --> 00:13:04,560 her. OK, Like it depends on this 194 00:13:04,560 --> 00:13:06,520 chick. Like I feel like at least for 195 00:13:06,520 --> 00:13:16,280 me, like there definitely is a a process of trust that is built 196 00:13:16,280 --> 00:13:19,800 with each other through the small acts that build up 197 00:13:19,800 --> 00:13:22,480 overtime. So even you can see like with 198 00:13:22,480 --> 00:13:27,120 these cuck fantasies, like I do feel like we're kind of trying 199 00:13:27,120 --> 00:13:33,000 things in like a process that makes it, you know, OK. 200 00:13:33,000 --> 00:13:37,160 And I feel like I am so cautious because like I will just like 201 00:13:37,160 --> 00:13:40,600 dip my toe in like 20 times before I'm like, OK, I'll put my 202 00:13:40,600 --> 00:13:42,960 heel in now. Like now I'm comfortable enough 203 00:13:42,960 --> 00:13:49,160 to try this other thing. So for me like to be dominated 204 00:13:49,160 --> 00:13:52,760 like this with a man's power holding down my hands and then 205 00:13:52,760 --> 00:13:55,840 with his hand around your neck. So the way to do that guys, is 206 00:13:55,840 --> 00:13:58,800 so like if you have your hand around her neck and you're 207 00:13:58,800 --> 00:14:03,880 pushing forward and like if you push down on the front part of 208 00:14:03,880 --> 00:14:07,480 her neck, that's not great because that's like blocking her 209 00:14:07,480 --> 00:14:08,760 airway. And I don't, I don't know, I 210 00:14:08,760 --> 00:14:13,080 don't, that's kind of fucked up. I think like squeeze from the 211 00:14:13,360 --> 00:14:16,600 outsides, like so, so squeeze the outside of her neck kind of 212 00:14:16,640 --> 00:14:20,520 in, but do hold her up and off. Like I hate when it's like a 213 00:14:20,520 --> 00:14:23,880 barely squeeze. It's like I've just placed my 214 00:14:23,880 --> 00:14:26,880 fingertips over your neck. It's like you fucking pussy 215 00:14:27,120 --> 00:14:30,720 fucking squeeze, right. So you do kind of have to strike 216 00:14:30,720 --> 00:14:33,000 a nice little balance or it's just not going to have the 217 00:14:33,040 --> 00:14:36,000 effect that you want to have on the girl. 218 00:14:36,000 --> 00:14:38,320 It's like, fuck, can you fucking just do it? 219 00:14:38,880 --> 00:14:42,640 All right. So now I'm like completely lost 220 00:14:42,720 --> 00:14:51,320 within these fantasies and I'm like, wow, I'm totally lost in 221 00:14:51,320 --> 00:14:54,080 this fantasy. And I said, by the way, I won't 222 00:14:54,080 --> 00:14:57,240 have to try to make you submit. I'll just do it. 223 00:14:57,440 --> 00:15:00,080 And you'll be so lost in the pleasure that you won't even 224 00:15:00,080 --> 00:15:04,000 have realized that you're mine until you can no longer speak in 225 00:15:04,000 --> 00:15:09,040 your frozen and subspace. So here I'm addressing his sort 226 00:15:09,040 --> 00:15:13,400 of desire to have me own his face with my pussy. 227 00:15:14,280 --> 00:15:16,200 And he's like, Oh my God, that actually happens. 228 00:15:16,200 --> 00:15:19,200 Like, like, that would be fucking crazy. 229 00:15:19,200 --> 00:15:21,480 But I'm rooting for you. And I was like, now I'm rooting 230 00:15:21,480 --> 00:15:26,080 for myself too. He's like, so basically you 231 00:15:26,080 --> 00:15:29,960 Moonlight is a professional Dom. You have a slave tied up in your 232 00:15:29,960 --> 00:15:35,200 basement right now. Question mark this one. 233 00:15:35,200 --> 00:15:43,120 I was like, OK, I was like, how much of this has, how much has 234 00:15:43,120 --> 00:15:45,680 this guy been stalking me up into this point? 235 00:15:46,160 --> 00:15:50,240 This is this is where I'm like, OK, how much does he know about 236 00:15:50,240 --> 00:15:56,280 me? Like, does he know that I'd do 237 00:15:56,280 --> 00:16:00,680 some fandom or not? Like, or is he just picking up 238 00:16:00,680 --> 00:16:02,760 on like the things that I want to do to him? 239 00:16:03,240 --> 00:16:07,280 And also he's like, do you have a slave tied up in your basement 240 00:16:07,320 --> 00:16:09,200 right now? But he doesn't know how real 241 00:16:09,200 --> 00:16:13,800 that is. Because first of all, guys send 242 00:16:13,800 --> 00:16:17,120 me messages every day asking to be my slave, the record. 243 00:16:17,680 --> 00:16:23,080 But I've had detailed conversations with people who 244 00:16:23,120 --> 00:16:28,160 wanted to do this. I had a guy who wanted to come 245 00:16:28,160 --> 00:16:35,000 and remodel my house for me in exchange for me putting him in a 246 00:16:35,000 --> 00:16:39,960 dog cage, naked, tied up in my basement. 247 00:16:39,960 --> 00:16:43,320 Which by the way, I have one side of my basement that is 248 00:16:43,320 --> 00:16:46,400 finished and the other side is scary as fuck. 249 00:16:46,920 --> 00:16:50,880 It's like dark concrete. It's spider webby. 250 00:16:51,400 --> 00:16:54,960 There's bugs. And he's like, I'm like, what do 251 00:16:54,960 --> 00:16:56,080 you mean? Like how long? 252 00:16:57,000 --> 00:17:00,120 I'm like how long you want me to leave you down there for? 253 00:17:04,119 --> 00:17:06,240 He's like, whatever makes you happy. 254 00:17:06,640 --> 00:17:10,960 I'm like, what the fuck? So he's like, so you have a 255 00:17:10,960 --> 00:17:12,800 basement. You're, you know, a, a slave 256 00:17:12,800 --> 00:17:13,760 tied up in your basement right now. 257 00:17:13,760 --> 00:17:25,720 And I'm like, well, there could be anyway, so let's continue. 258 00:17:25,720 --> 00:17:29,720 I'm kind of like going back and forth with him now about how 259 00:17:30,480 --> 00:17:36,400 thinking about the weight of his body on me pinned my hands 260 00:17:36,400 --> 00:17:38,360 pinned with his hands around my neck. 261 00:17:38,360 --> 00:17:43,160 Like I'm kind of just explaining to him how much I would love 262 00:17:43,160 --> 00:17:47,040 that. So for me, that feeling of being 263 00:17:47,040 --> 00:17:55,240 like totally powerless and dominated by my man with his 264 00:17:55,240 --> 00:17:59,040 full weight of his body on me gives me such a release. 265 00:17:59,040 --> 00:18:01,960 It gives me so much comfort. It gives me, it like makes me 266 00:18:01,960 --> 00:18:06,120 want to cry with happiness because it's like the one moment 267 00:18:06,120 --> 00:18:12,120 in my life where I can just pretend for a minute that likes 268 00:18:12,720 --> 00:18:14,720 like I don't have to do this shit by myself. 269 00:18:14,920 --> 00:18:17,160 You know what I mean? Like someone's got my back. 270 00:18:17,200 --> 00:18:19,480 Like that's the way it makes me feel. 271 00:18:21,640 --> 00:18:24,160 He's like I'm thinking about that skin to skin contact. 272 00:18:24,200 --> 00:18:25,920 And I was like, you'll love my skin. 273 00:18:26,480 --> 00:18:30,000 It's the golden sheath. He's like, of course it is. 274 00:18:30,320 --> 00:18:33,240 A queen is always wrapped in gold. 275 00:18:33,280 --> 00:18:37,720 And I'm like, oh, I'm flattered because, you know, I love gold 276 00:18:38,680 --> 00:18:41,320 and I really do believe that my skin is gold. 277 00:18:42,080 --> 00:18:44,920 And he's like, now, now I have him wrapped around my finger, 278 00:18:44,920 --> 00:18:47,960 'cause he's like, wow, I could listen to you talk all night, 279 00:18:48,400 --> 00:18:51,160 read all your words over and over. 280 00:18:51,800 --> 00:18:54,520 I'm craving you. Keep it coming. 281 00:18:54,920 --> 00:18:58,480 You got me hooked. And so I'm like, you look pot as 282 00:18:58,480 --> 00:18:59,840 fuck. And so I asked him to send me 283 00:18:59,840 --> 00:19:06,640 this picture and it's like just his chest, like laying in bed. 284 00:19:07,560 --> 00:19:11,120 And he's like, I'm not going to explain what he's wearing 285 00:19:11,120 --> 00:19:14,400 because I don't want I don't want this man to be detected yet 286 00:19:14,400 --> 00:19:19,200 because I want him for myself. But his chest is out and it's 287 00:19:19,200 --> 00:19:24,600 got like the perfect length hair of like, first of all, let me 288 00:19:24,640 --> 00:19:28,240 just say guys don't turn me on very often. 289 00:19:29,640 --> 00:19:34,520 They don't, they don't. It's so hard to be turned on by 290 00:19:34,520 --> 00:19:40,360 a guy. But this guy is doing it for me. 291 00:19:42,600 --> 00:19:46,920 So I sent him a picture and it's like a really hot pic where 292 00:19:46,920 --> 00:19:50,920 like, like I'm covered. Like I'm wearing a tank top and 293 00:19:50,920 --> 00:19:53,320 you can fully see my nipples through it. 294 00:19:53,520 --> 00:19:55,720 And I'm kind of like leaning back a little bit. 295 00:19:55,720 --> 00:20:00,800 So like, it's a really nice view of the curves of my tits. 296 00:20:01,440 --> 00:20:04,880 And he's like, wow, beautiful. And he's like, I'm not even a 297 00:20:04,880 --> 00:20:07,520 boobs guy, but yours are perfect. 298 00:20:07,520 --> 00:20:11,840 I was like, you're not a boobs guy. 299 00:20:11,840 --> 00:20:15,480 That sucks. But I'm learning, I'm learning 300 00:20:15,480 --> 00:20:18,240 here what turns him on and I want to fucking know everything. 301 00:20:18,240 --> 00:20:22,880 And he's like, I'm an ass guy. And I'm like, OK, so like the 302 00:20:22,880 --> 00:20:27,440 next morning by the way, like while this is happening, I'm 303 00:20:27,440 --> 00:20:31,280 also learning something else through a different event that 304 00:20:31,280 --> 00:20:35,520 is occurring in my life. I'm learning something about 305 00:20:36,240 --> 00:20:41,120 pussy fetishing. So the next day, so basically 306 00:20:41,120 --> 00:20:44,280 like the way I'm trying to bring you up to speed with this story 307 00:20:44,280 --> 00:20:49,560 is that here I am sending here I am sending pictures that I think 308 00:20:49,560 --> 00:20:54,120 are hot of like my tits, OK, But like they're not out. 309 00:20:54,360 --> 00:20:56,680 Like they are covered. The nipple is covered. 310 00:20:57,000 --> 00:20:59,360 You can see the outline of my tit. 311 00:20:59,360 --> 00:21:00,920 And I'm like, yeah, this is so hot. 312 00:21:02,520 --> 00:21:04,040 Apparently I could have done more. 313 00:21:04,320 --> 00:21:09,520 So so I'm learning this and I'm learning OK. 314 00:21:09,520 --> 00:21:15,800 He's he's an ass guy. And so I was like, I'm a little 315 00:21:15,800 --> 00:21:18,480 disappointed. He's like, if you want me to tit 316 00:21:18,480 --> 00:21:20,920 be a tits guy, then I'm a tits guy. 317 00:21:21,760 --> 00:21:23,680 Your tits are really beautiful and sexy. 318 00:21:23,800 --> 00:21:26,400 They're perfect. This bookshire is turning me on 319 00:21:26,400 --> 00:21:29,280 like crazy. I want to suck, lick, kiss, bite 320 00:21:29,280 --> 00:21:31,400 those tits all day long and night. 321 00:21:32,000 --> 00:21:36,160 I want you to smother my face with those tits till I pass out, 322 00:21:36,480 --> 00:21:40,440 then grab my Dick and squeeze. Now he put that in quotes 323 00:21:40,440 --> 00:21:43,040 because I had told him I was going to do that to him earlier. 324 00:21:44,400 --> 00:21:52,880 And two things here. One, I'm learning that I need to 325 00:21:52,880 --> 00:21:56,680 up my game with my pussy and ass pics because the tits pics 326 00:21:56,680 --> 00:22:00,600 aren't really the thing that he is like going crazy over. 327 00:22:00,600 --> 00:22:02,560 But that's OK right? Because we're warming up to that 328 00:22:02,560 --> 00:22:07,760 moment, but I'm also seeing here that he wants me to smother his 329 00:22:07,760 --> 00:22:14,960 face with my tits till he passes out and let me see if I can kind 330 00:22:14,960 --> 00:22:17,480 of bring out the nuance there for people. 331 00:22:19,960 --> 00:22:26,240 There's a big fucking difference between when a guy is like 332 00:22:26,240 --> 00:22:29,720 fumbling around on your fucking tit like he has no fucking clue 333 00:22:29,720 --> 00:22:31,640 what he's doing. He's just fucking like squeezing 334 00:22:31,640 --> 00:22:33,760 it and shit and like doing random shit that doesn't feel 335 00:22:33,760 --> 00:22:39,320 good. And like someone who wants me to 336 00:22:39,320 --> 00:22:44,080 literally stick my nipple in their mouth and press my entire 337 00:22:44,080 --> 00:22:48,720 fucking tit onto his face and to the point where he can't fucking 338 00:22:48,720 --> 00:22:52,400 breathe. There's a difference there. 339 00:22:56,280 --> 00:23:01,760 So now I'm like literally losing my fucking mind because now I've 340 00:23:01,760 --> 00:23:04,880 been texting with him and I'm like really turned on by him. 341 00:23:04,880 --> 00:23:11,480 I'm like genuinely lit up so far by this conversation. 342 00:23:12,160 --> 00:23:18,640 And at the same time, I'm not having sex because my man and I 343 00:23:18,640 --> 00:23:25,560 were kind of in this fight and I hadn't had sex in like a week. 344 00:23:26,920 --> 00:23:31,120 So like, the thought of this guy being like totally into doing 345 00:23:31,120 --> 00:23:38,400 all these things with me is like literally, he's like a fucking 346 00:23:38,400 --> 00:23:40,440 dream. He's literally like a fucking 347 00:23:40,440 --> 00:23:44,920 dream. So he sends me a screenshot of 348 00:23:44,920 --> 00:23:49,800 something I said to him and I'm going to reread it because the 349 00:23:49,800 --> 00:23:52,720 reason this is important to me to see these little things is 350 00:23:52,720 --> 00:23:56,840 like it's giving me hints at what he likes. 351 00:23:57,560 --> 00:23:59,520 So he says this is my quote to him. 352 00:23:59,520 --> 00:24:02,400 I said, by the way, I won't have to try to make you submit. 353 00:24:02,800 --> 00:24:04,960 I'll just do it. And you'll be so lost in the 354 00:24:04,960 --> 00:24:08,640 pleasure that you won't even have realized you're mine until 355 00:24:08,640 --> 00:24:11,800 you can no longer speak in your frozen and subspace. 356 00:24:12,280 --> 00:24:14,000 He's like, I'm going to print this out and hang it up like a 357 00:24:14,000 --> 00:24:16,360 poster. Probably the sexiest, sexiest 358 00:24:16,360 --> 00:24:18,480 text ever. I don't even know what it means, 359 00:24:18,480 --> 00:24:24,160 but I love it and see like that. I love that because I love a guy 360 00:24:24,160 --> 00:24:26,880 who's just like kind of can joke about it a little bit, you know. 361 00:24:27,800 --> 00:24:31,040 So anyway, then I'm sending him pictures and it's just basic 362 00:24:31,040 --> 00:24:35,160 stuff like literally just me and a hoodie me like at the gym. 363 00:24:35,480 --> 00:24:37,640 And he's like, I could get lost in those eyes. 364 00:24:37,640 --> 00:24:42,160 And you know, I'm sending him about like my, my workout, just 365 00:24:42,160 --> 00:24:46,200 like really basic shit. And then he's just like, save 366 00:24:46,200 --> 00:24:49,400 those panties and feed them to me after you left. 367 00:24:50,920 --> 00:24:57,080 And so now at this point, I am separately in another event that 368 00:24:57,080 --> 00:25:00,960 is going down in my head. I'm revved up. 369 00:25:01,960 --> 00:25:09,000 I am literally on a fucking high right now because of two other 370 00:25:09,000 --> 00:25:10,920 things that are going on in my life. 371 00:25:11,480 --> 00:25:18,080 And I have this man who is recently come into my life 372 00:25:18,440 --> 00:25:21,800 because I have been considering a new partner. 373 00:25:22,440 --> 00:25:25,680 So my eyes have been opened now. And so this isn't like just 374 00:25:25,680 --> 00:25:30,440 bullshit like I am actually texting with this person because 375 00:25:30,440 --> 00:25:37,480 I'm interested in him but meanwhile I am like literally 376 00:25:38,000 --> 00:25:41,760 losing my fucking mind over here because I'm so fucking horny. 377 00:25:41,760 --> 00:25:45,840 It's been like a week and it's not like any week. 378 00:25:48,480 --> 00:25:56,400 It's also with the energy combined of I may have lost my 379 00:25:56,400 --> 00:26:01,000 current sexual partner and I need to find another partner 380 00:26:02,160 --> 00:26:07,840 immediately. So not only am I sex starved, 381 00:26:08,720 --> 00:26:12,200 I'm sex revved up from these events that are occurring. 382 00:26:13,000 --> 00:26:23,760 And anyway, so so the next thing I say is I'm like, all right, 383 00:26:23,760 --> 00:26:25,760 I'm getting worked out because I'm putting myself back into 384 00:26:25,760 --> 00:26:28,080 that moment. I was like, what's something 385 00:26:28,080 --> 00:26:30,120 nasty you fantasize about with me? 386 00:26:31,200 --> 00:26:35,680 He's like, how nasty do you want it and how honest do you want me 387 00:26:35,680 --> 00:26:39,400 to be? And I'd say if there's any time 388 00:26:39,400 --> 00:26:42,640 for you to say something nasty in this, this is the one. 389 00:26:43,160 --> 00:26:46,600 And I want to know your true deep down desires, not something 390 00:26:46,600 --> 00:26:49,800 that's made-up or fabricated is something that's truly coming 391 00:26:49,800 --> 00:26:52,880 from you. I want to fucking know your 392 00:26:52,880 --> 00:26:56,680 darkest desires so I can hold it over your fucking head. 393 00:26:56,680 --> 00:27:00,720 I didn't tell him that, but anyway, he said all of the 394 00:27:00,720 --> 00:27:05,000 following would require you to be raw, fresh out of the gym. 395 00:27:06,200 --> 00:27:10,000 Lick the sweat off your feet, taste all of you. 396 00:27:10,520 --> 00:27:15,240 Lick the sweat out of your ass. Piss down my throat. 397 00:27:15,680 --> 00:27:19,560 I'll drink all of it. I want to taste all your juices. 398 00:27:20,560 --> 00:27:25,160 3 and honestly, all above. You can sit on my face all day 399 00:27:25,160 --> 00:27:28,560 every day, and I'd be the happiest man alive. 400 00:27:29,000 --> 00:27:30,840 He's like, those are the first three things that came to mind, 401 00:27:30,840 --> 00:27:32,440 but I'd legit do anything with you. 402 00:27:32,440 --> 00:27:34,800 I want to make your fantasies a reality. 403 00:27:38,080 --> 00:27:40,600 I said, oh, I'm very interested in all of that. 404 00:27:40,960 --> 00:27:42,960 He's like, so for me, the nastier the better. 405 00:27:42,960 --> 00:27:45,520 I didn't want to go too far and scare you away. 406 00:27:46,480 --> 00:27:52,160 So let's dissect this so you understand how I'm processing it 407 00:27:52,160 --> 00:27:56,840 on my end. So first he says raw, fresh out 408 00:27:56,840 --> 00:28:01,560 of the gym, again making the point that he wants to smell my 409 00:28:01,560 --> 00:28:05,880 actual real scent, The scent that comes from like when you've 410 00:28:05,880 --> 00:28:08,240 been walking around during the day and like your hormones are 411 00:28:08,240 --> 00:28:11,840 starting to mix together with like, the sweat that's coming 412 00:28:11,840 --> 00:28:14,920 out of your body and it creates this unique scent for each 413 00:28:14,920 --> 00:28:17,920 person. He says, lick the sweat off your 414 00:28:17,920 --> 00:28:20,440 feet. I'm thinking, oh, that's 415 00:28:20,480 --> 00:28:24,480 interesting. OK, I know he has a pussy 416 00:28:24,480 --> 00:28:27,360 fetish. I know he loves my ass. 417 00:28:27,880 --> 00:28:29,680 I know he's not really a tits guy. 418 00:28:29,680 --> 00:28:33,680 Like obviously he still loves my tits, but like he wants to lick 419 00:28:33,680 --> 00:28:37,040 the sweat off my feet. See he's a foot boy. 420 00:28:37,840 --> 00:28:40,400 He wants me to piss down his throat. 421 00:28:40,920 --> 00:28:43,080 I'll drink all of it. I want to taste all of your 422 00:28:43,080 --> 00:28:45,360 juices. So that's fucking so hot. 423 00:28:45,360 --> 00:28:48,520 So like what's so crazy? If you go back into my Q&A, one 424 00:28:48,520 --> 00:28:52,760 of my Subs had asked me how I feel about this and at the time 425 00:28:52,760 --> 00:28:58,320 I did not have a good answer. But hearing this guy who I would 426 00:28:58,720 --> 00:29:05,920 like I'm really into want me to piss down his throat is so 427 00:29:05,920 --> 00:29:11,800 liberating for me because it's like saying I accept you for 428 00:29:12,000 --> 00:29:17,640 everything that you are and I want it and I want to be 429 00:29:17,640 --> 00:29:21,360 completely covered in you. Like Oh my God, that like 430 00:29:21,360 --> 00:29:23,800 literally it makes my heart so happy. 431 00:29:24,960 --> 00:29:27,560 And then he's like honestly all above you can sit on my face 432 00:29:27,560 --> 00:29:29,120 everyday and be happy as me alive. 433 00:29:29,120 --> 00:29:31,040 So that tells me like no time limit. 434 00:29:31,880 --> 00:29:37,160 I don't have to rush with him, which is something that I like 435 00:29:37,160 --> 00:29:39,960 also like gives me a real release and it like makes me 436 00:29:39,960 --> 00:29:43,960 happy and it makes me just like want to cry because like it's 437 00:29:43,960 --> 00:29:48,960 like such a deep desire and like these desires are usually 438 00:29:48,960 --> 00:29:51,920 mingled with like some kind of trauma or hurt or whatever. 439 00:29:52,320 --> 00:29:55,400 And everybody has like a different, you know, hurt. 440 00:29:55,720 --> 00:29:59,920 But for me, it's like so many years of not being desired. 441 00:30:00,280 --> 00:30:02,720 And even though I walk with confidence and I know I'm 442 00:30:02,720 --> 00:30:14,040 desired now, and I do have the incredible word is, but I am 443 00:30:14,040 --> 00:30:19,440 lucky enough to have sexual intimacy now, which I do find to 444 00:30:19,440 --> 00:30:25,440 be like an extreme blessing. I don't know where I was going 445 00:30:25,440 --> 00:30:28,120 with that. But anyway, OK, I want to get 446 00:30:28,120 --> 00:30:33,320 back into Oh my God, I said so anyway. 447 00:30:33,760 --> 00:30:39,040 So now I'm on the edge of my seat because there are events 448 00:30:39,040 --> 00:30:42,000 happening outside of this as well and I haven't had sex in a 449 00:30:42,000 --> 00:30:48,120 week and I'm actually starting to get like crazy over here and 450 00:30:48,120 --> 00:30:50,680 I'm like can you fucking start naming dates? 451 00:30:50,680 --> 00:30:54,480 So now we're just like now we're flirting. 452 00:30:54,480 --> 00:30:56,720 But he hasn't asked me out, which is starting to piss me 453 00:30:56,720 --> 00:31:01,240 off. OK like he hasn't said this is 454 00:31:01,240 --> 00:31:03,600 the date I want to hang out. Like can we do this? 455 00:31:03,720 --> 00:31:07,640 And I'm like what the fuck? So anyway, I'm like, I got a lot 456 00:31:07,640 --> 00:31:10,720 coming up so you better start naming dates. 457 00:31:11,520 --> 00:31:13,760 And he's like, I'm trying to get back there but he doesn't name a 458 00:31:13,760 --> 00:31:15,880 date until like fucking couple months away. 459 00:31:15,880 --> 00:31:20,880 And I was like, wait what? I have to wait that long and 460 00:31:20,880 --> 00:31:22,080 he's like, I'll see if I can come. 461 00:31:22,080 --> 00:31:24,200 Before I was like fuck, I'm like fuck. 462 00:31:24,200 --> 00:31:26,000 I'm literally like now I'm fucking freaking out. 463 00:31:26,000 --> 00:31:30,920 Like my entire body is like actually like shaking from the 464 00:31:30,920 --> 00:31:36,040 inside out because I'm like, I'm like I'm not going to be able to 465 00:31:36,040 --> 00:31:40,760 take out my sexual fury on him. Like I'm like, fuck, it's like 466 00:31:40,760 --> 00:31:49,400 not happening soon enough. And so, so I said, so I said, 467 00:31:49,400 --> 00:31:52,920 regardless, book me in. I'm going to kill you if you 468 00:31:52,920 --> 00:31:56,440 don't come see me sooner. And he's like, yes, ma'am, how 469 00:31:56,440 --> 00:31:58,920 are you going to kill me? I'm curious in the details. 470 00:31:58,920 --> 00:32:02,800 And I was laughing my fucking ass off because again, this is 471 00:32:02,800 --> 00:32:05,720 something I would not have picked up in the past. 472 00:32:05,720 --> 00:32:11,000 I would not have picked this up. And so let me describe this for 473 00:32:11,000 --> 00:32:14,840 people who have not sat in the position of being a dominatrix 474 00:32:15,360 --> 00:32:18,800 and hearing people's deepest, darkest fantasies. 475 00:32:19,600 --> 00:32:25,440 So many men want me to literally beat the fucking shit out of 476 00:32:25,440 --> 00:32:27,720 them. They literally want me to 477 00:32:27,720 --> 00:32:33,280 fucking strangle them, beat them up, kick their balls. 478 00:32:33,720 --> 00:32:39,040 Like really get at it. And if you're fucking lucky, 479 00:32:39,040 --> 00:32:43,960 I'll tell you a story about how I did that one night to a man. 480 00:32:44,280 --> 00:32:48,480 He said it was the best fucking night of his life. 481 00:32:49,640 --> 00:32:52,760 So anyway, he's like, how are you going to kill me? 482 00:32:52,760 --> 00:32:56,800 I'm curious in the details. And so I'm laughing because I'm 483 00:32:56,800 --> 00:32:58,760 like, OK, now I'm starting to get the picture. 484 00:32:59,400 --> 00:33:03,440 Like he's being very subtle. He's being very, very, very 485 00:33:03,440 --> 00:33:07,360 fucking subtle with what he's saying, but I'm picking up what 486 00:33:07,360 --> 00:33:11,040 he's putting down. And I was like, ah, you do like 487 00:33:11,040 --> 00:33:16,080 it rough and I'm here for it. I've never yet been able to 488 00:33:16,080 --> 00:33:19,120 unleash my full theory on anyone. 489 00:33:20,280 --> 00:33:24,480 And I tell you that right after I told you how I did beat the 490 00:33:24,480 --> 00:33:28,760 fucking piss out of that guy. But what I'm referring to is a 491 00:33:28,760 --> 00:33:32,320 little bit different. It's my real fury. 492 00:33:32,320 --> 00:33:36,600 It's like my real fucking fire that I want to breathe down 493 00:33:36,600 --> 00:33:40,320 someone's throat. I was like, we have a wrestling 494 00:33:40,320 --> 00:33:43,200 session. I want to beat you up with 495 00:33:43,200 --> 00:33:46,320 everything I have. And you just laugh and take 496 00:33:46,320 --> 00:33:51,440 control. So now we're just like laughing 497 00:33:51,440 --> 00:33:53,400 back and forth. And he's like, yeah, no, you can 498 00:33:53,400 --> 00:33:55,800 definitely take out your fury on me. 499 00:33:55,800 --> 00:33:58,360 He's like, he's like just curious. 500 00:33:58,360 --> 00:34:01,400 Like what? He's like, tell me all about 501 00:34:01,400 --> 00:34:05,400 this built up fury that is so desperately dying to come out of 502 00:34:05,400 --> 00:34:08,000 you. And I said at this moment, it's 503 00:34:08,000 --> 00:34:11,520 literally screaming inside my entire body saying you need to 504 00:34:11,520 --> 00:34:14,679 get fucked right now. He's like, Yep, OK, cool. 505 00:34:14,679 --> 00:34:18,040 Multiple wrestling sessions, lingerie, blah, blah, blah, 506 00:34:18,040 --> 00:34:20,440 blah. So like, literally that day I 507 00:34:20,440 --> 00:34:25,480 happened to get a delivery from Miri Mir, which is this really 508 00:34:25,520 --> 00:34:30,360 beautiful luxury lingerie that I had just ordered because I'm 509 00:34:30,360 --> 00:34:36,080 having a photo shoot soon. And so I show him this lingerie 510 00:34:36,080 --> 00:34:37,719 and he's like, wait, what the fuck? 511 00:34:37,800 --> 00:34:41,000 Like because it's really hot. And it's like, how often does 512 00:34:41,000 --> 00:34:43,600 the girl you're talking to just happen to get like at the 513 00:34:43,600 --> 00:34:46,840 perfect timing, a delivery of lingerie? 514 00:34:47,880 --> 00:34:51,320 So I'm showing him this because I just want him to be like, 515 00:34:51,320 --> 00:34:55,440 wait, what? And then I switch and I switch 516 00:34:55,440 --> 00:34:58,160 because I can see what's happening here, like looking 517 00:34:58,160 --> 00:35:03,520 back, because I can tell I've now sort of because of another 518 00:35:03,520 --> 00:35:08,320 reason, had an emotional drop. And I said, there's something 519 00:35:08,320 --> 00:35:11,560 you should know about me. I'm going to tell you something 520 00:35:11,560 --> 00:35:14,080 about what turns me on. And then I want to hear 521 00:35:14,080 --> 00:35:17,880 something about you. I said I love starting slow with 522 00:35:17,880 --> 00:35:23,880 very gentle sensual touches. It drives me way more crazy to 523 00:35:23,880 --> 00:35:28,120 have that almost there type touch then full on in the 524 00:35:28,120 --> 00:35:31,600 beginning because it makes me just beg for more. 525 00:35:32,360 --> 00:35:35,680 I said do what you must with that information. 526 00:35:36,440 --> 00:35:39,000 And so I'm not going to read through his whole thing, but 527 00:35:39,000 --> 00:35:41,760 basically he's like, yeah, OK, So like I'm painting the picture 528 00:35:41,760 --> 00:35:48,920 here that like, even though like I can be dominant and he likes 529 00:35:48,920 --> 00:35:51,880 to do all this stuff, like pussy worship and all this stuff. 530 00:35:51,880 --> 00:35:56,680 You know what I fucking hate? I fucking hate like, rushing. 531 00:35:57,280 --> 00:36:00,160 I hate rushing to the point where it's like all hard and 532 00:36:00,160 --> 00:36:03,080 vicious and like, you know, in the movies when like, they just 533 00:36:03,080 --> 00:36:05,320 attack each other and they're kissing all hard and stuff like 534 00:36:05,320 --> 00:36:08,480 that. That's no, no, I'm not starting 535 00:36:08,480 --> 00:36:10,200 that way. I'm not starting that way. 536 00:36:10,200 --> 00:36:13,240 Like you need to fucking love on me a little bit. 537 00:36:13,240 --> 00:36:16,640 You know what I mean? No, like I want to feel loved. 538 00:36:16,640 --> 00:36:24,240 I want to feel both. So meanwhile, he's kind of 539 00:36:24,240 --> 00:36:26,200 pulling back his energy a little bit. 540 00:36:26,640 --> 00:36:31,680 OK, so we've had this like kind of, we're kind of like warming 541 00:36:31,680 --> 00:36:35,800 up here, like hot and heavy. And I'm like learning something 542 00:36:36,080 --> 00:36:40,600 about what turns guys on because of a different scenario. 543 00:36:41,240 --> 00:36:44,560 And I'm sort of testing this out on him. 544 00:36:45,400 --> 00:36:48,880 So he's like, yes, so I passed out and like whatever. 545 00:36:48,880 --> 00:36:50,880 I'm like, I fucking hate that when they're just like. 546 00:36:52,040 --> 00:36:54,760 And so I was like, I will get your attention. 547 00:36:55,720 --> 00:36:58,320 So I sent him a full body pic nude. 548 00:36:58,320 --> 00:37:01,960 This is the first time he's seeing my nipples like anything. 549 00:37:01,960 --> 00:37:03,920 But you can't really see my pussy in this one. 550 00:37:03,920 --> 00:37:06,200 Like it's a top down photo. So it's more pussy. 551 00:37:06,200 --> 00:37:07,800 I mean, it's more boobs and pussy. 552 00:37:08,520 --> 00:37:10,320 And then he's like, yeah, loving this. 553 00:37:10,320 --> 00:37:12,960 And then I send him like a real lame picture of my ass that's 554 00:37:12,960 --> 00:37:14,960 like, I'm fully covered. Like fully, fully, fully 555 00:37:14,960 --> 00:37:17,560 covered. But then I'm like, fuck it and 556 00:37:17,560 --> 00:37:21,720 send him this picture of me fully nude, like looking like 557 00:37:21,720 --> 00:37:25,200 I'm sitting down, like as if I'd be sitting on his face. 558 00:37:26,040 --> 00:37:29,880 And I said, should I hover or give you my full weight? 559 00:37:30,440 --> 00:37:33,200 So now I know I've got him. I'm like starting to get him 560 00:37:33,200 --> 00:37:37,520 here because I'm getting closer to his fantasy and he's like 561 00:37:37,520 --> 00:37:40,680 full weight always. This is an all caps. 562 00:37:40,680 --> 00:37:44,080 He's like every day every hour. God I want you so bad it hurts. 563 00:37:44,080 --> 00:37:49,240 OK so I am starting now to get him where it fucking hurts. 564 00:37:50,000 --> 00:37:59,520 I'm also in a revenge mood at this time, so I am definitely 565 00:37:59,520 --> 00:38:01,960 being edgier than what I would normally do. 566 00:38:02,520 --> 00:38:05,640 But you know when you get me at the right time and you just 567 00:38:05,640 --> 00:38:09,840 never know what I'm going to do. So I take this picture of myself 568 00:38:09,840 --> 00:38:13,920 where I am fully leaned over with my ass completely up in the 569 00:38:13,920 --> 00:38:18,240 air, like in front of a mirror in the way that the picture is 570 00:38:18,240 --> 00:38:22,360 facing is like so you can see the front of my body and you can 571 00:38:22,360 --> 00:38:25,640 see my ass and my pussy, but it's not really that clear. 572 00:38:25,640 --> 00:38:30,200 It's like a little bit, it's a little bit far away, but it's 573 00:38:30,200 --> 00:38:34,360 definitely like fully implied. And she he's just like now 574 00:38:34,360 --> 00:38:37,240 freaking out and he's like replying to us like this is 575 00:38:37,240 --> 00:38:38,800 mine. I'm going to eat and lick it 576 00:38:39,520 --> 00:38:42,680 all, all that. Like he's like, I need it daily. 577 00:38:42,680 --> 00:38:45,160 And I was like, good. And so like then he did 578 00:38:45,160 --> 00:38:48,360 something that like really made me fucking so happy. 579 00:38:48,360 --> 00:38:49,960 Oh my God. See, this is where your trauma 580 00:38:49,960 --> 00:38:54,440 can like really play into how you like get addicted to your 581 00:38:54,440 --> 00:38:57,440 new partner. And by the way, for a while, I 582 00:38:57,440 --> 00:39:00,840 didn't let myself get addicted to anybody because I just got so 583 00:39:00,840 --> 00:39:03,480 hurt from the previous one that like, I literally couldn't, I 584 00:39:03,480 --> 00:39:06,040 couldn't, I was like, so fucking, I was like on the edge 585 00:39:06,040 --> 00:39:10,080 every day, like about to cry. But I think I'm at the point 586 00:39:10,080 --> 00:39:11,720 where I can get addicted to somebody again. 587 00:39:12,920 --> 00:39:20,680 So he did something that really impressed me because the guy I 588 00:39:20,680 --> 00:39:24,320 had been dating before, he never claimed me. 589 00:39:24,320 --> 00:39:26,600 He never introduced me to anybody. 590 00:39:27,320 --> 00:39:32,920 And Oh my God, fuck. It's like I was like, so I was 591 00:39:32,920 --> 00:39:36,360 not in my goddess power, OK? Like basically the entire way I 592 00:39:36,360 --> 00:39:39,920 lived that relationship, I was like learning. 593 00:39:39,920 --> 00:39:44,400 I was in a learning phase and I was not confident. 594 00:39:44,400 --> 00:39:47,920 And this man played me like a fucking fiddle. 595 00:39:48,200 --> 00:39:50,360 Like a fucking fiddle. Anyway, the one thing I wanted 596 00:39:50,360 --> 00:39:54,360 him to do so bad is I had wanted him to put a picture of me on 597 00:39:54,360 --> 00:39:57,480 his phone so that everyone could see. 598 00:39:57,480 --> 00:40:00,480 Like so basically like he was boasting like who he was with, 599 00:40:00,920 --> 00:40:04,760 like he was proud of me, but also like I could claim him in 600 00:40:04,760 --> 00:40:09,040 that moment. And so he literally said, your 601 00:40:09,040 --> 00:40:11,680 ass is the most perfect thing I've ever seen. 602 00:40:11,680 --> 00:40:14,840 Please God, let me worship that, he said. 603 00:40:14,840 --> 00:40:18,000 Now the question is which one of these picks do I make my home 604 00:40:18,480 --> 00:40:27,840 screen background? He offered me the thing I had 605 00:40:27,840 --> 00:40:32,280 been begging another man to do for me and he offered it to me. 606 00:40:32,880 --> 00:40:36,120 But it was like, it's not just anyone. 607 00:40:36,120 --> 00:40:41,240 It's like he's the guy. He's the fucking guy who I want 608 00:40:41,280 --> 00:40:44,280 to do that. Like he's the guy who I'd want 609 00:40:44,280 --> 00:40:46,120 to have do that for me like that. 610 00:40:47,400 --> 00:40:53,320 Like I feel so good about them. So he then then he sent me a 611 00:40:53,320 --> 00:41:00,640 screenshot of me actually on his home screen as proof, as fucking 612 00:41:00,680 --> 00:41:08,640 proof that he did it. And I was like so, so happy 613 00:41:08,640 --> 00:41:10,960 about that. And I was like, please keep that 614 00:41:10,960 --> 00:41:13,800 on there until you get caught by somebody. 615 00:41:13,800 --> 00:41:16,000 By the way, the picture you put on me was like fully tits out. 616 00:41:16,000 --> 00:41:19,600 So it would be like him getting caught with tits on his phone. 617 00:41:22,160 --> 00:41:25,320 And I was like, you know, I love that you're a big, strong, 618 00:41:25,320 --> 00:41:29,440 fierce alpha and watching you melting my energy. 619 00:41:30,000 --> 00:41:32,600 That's what makes me horny. Like, that's what makes this 620 00:41:32,600 --> 00:41:36,000 really fun for me because it's not really fun for me to like 621 00:41:36,000 --> 00:41:39,040 fuck with a guy who's like really like I can fuck with him 622 00:41:39,040 --> 00:41:41,960 so easily. Like, what's the fun in that? 623 00:41:42,920 --> 00:41:46,320 So he liked that. And The thing is, is all these 624 00:41:46,320 --> 00:41:50,040 little seeds I planted do it on purpose because I want him to 625 00:41:50,040 --> 00:41:54,560 know this is the thing. I want him to know that the 626 00:41:54,560 --> 00:41:58,280 dynamic we are creating here is not about me dominating him. 627 00:41:58,760 --> 00:42:01,240 I want to know. I want him to know that I look 628 00:42:01,240 --> 00:42:07,000 up to him because he's the alpha and the reason why it's hot for 629 00:42:07,000 --> 00:42:09,920 me to dominate him is because it's him. 630 00:42:11,400 --> 00:42:19,320 So I'm really kind of explaining this to him, which is like my 631 00:42:19,320 --> 00:42:21,840 ultimate fantasy. Like even though I do all this 632 00:42:21,840 --> 00:42:26,920 weird shit and dominate guys, for me it's like the like if I 633 00:42:26,920 --> 00:42:30,200 dominate them like my ultimate fantasy is like for them to find 634 00:42:30,200 --> 00:42:33,680 a way to then like then take control back from me. 635 00:42:34,360 --> 00:42:38,240 So like my ultimate fantasy as a Dom is to be dominated. 636 00:42:38,760 --> 00:42:41,560 So like I'm ultimately looking for an alpha guy. 637 00:42:41,560 --> 00:42:45,440 I know that's ironic because like a lot of like betas will 638 00:42:45,440 --> 00:42:48,280 come to me because they want me to Dom them. 639 00:42:48,280 --> 00:42:49,720 But by the way, it's not just betas. 640 00:42:49,760 --> 00:42:54,480 Like that's such a, that's such like a basic way of looking at 641 00:42:54,480 --> 00:42:57,200 it because really like everyone likes to be dominated. 642 00:42:57,200 --> 00:43:00,440 And in fact, the more alpha you are, the more dominant, the more 643 00:43:00,880 --> 00:43:03,160 you probably like to be dominated because the less it 644 00:43:03,160 --> 00:43:04,560 actually occurs in your real life. 645 00:43:05,200 --> 00:43:07,680 So it's like a really fun release for you. 646 00:43:09,720 --> 00:43:17,560 Oh my God, so he is. We are going back and forth here 647 00:43:17,560 --> 00:43:24,800 quite a lot and there's actually so much more to this, but I'm 648 00:43:24,800 --> 00:43:30,920 actually going to pause on like that part of the thread and just 649 00:43:30,920 --> 00:43:33,880 try to very quickly weave in something for you here. 650 00:43:35,080 --> 00:43:41,720 As I am having this experience, this exchange with this person 651 00:43:41,720 --> 00:43:45,640 who I am genuinely attracted to and who's like everything he's 652 00:43:45,640 --> 00:43:51,640 saying is like lighting me up in real time, I'm able to more 653 00:43:51,640 --> 00:43:59,600 fully embody what it must feel like for him and also for me to 654 00:43:59,600 --> 00:44:02,960 have this experience. Like so for him, he's explaining 655 00:44:02,960 --> 00:44:06,200 I'm like, what does it feel like to you when I'm sitting on your 656 00:44:06,200 --> 00:44:12,240 face and he's like pure bliss. Like it is such a release for 657 00:44:12,240 --> 00:44:14,000 him. And like just being able to like 658 00:44:14,000 --> 00:44:19,080 literally be allowed or told like you have nothing else to do 659 00:44:19,080 --> 00:44:22,640 right now except stare at my pussy like that is such a 660 00:44:22,640 --> 00:44:26,560 release in a fetish for him. So now I'm starting to 661 00:44:26,560 --> 00:44:30,560 understand. And so he's fetishizing my 662 00:44:30,560 --> 00:44:33,280 pussy. And you know whose pussy I was 663 00:44:33,280 --> 00:44:38,200 fetishizing at the same time? The little goddess and training 664 00:44:38,200 --> 00:44:42,240 who my lover was fucking at the same moment. 665 00:44:47,360 --> 00:44:51,200 The story thickens. I'm going to pause there, my 666 00:44:51,200 --> 00:44:54,120 friends. It just keeps getting better and 667 00:44:54,120 --> 00:44:57,440 better. As always you can find me on 668 00:44:57,440 --> 00:45:02,560 TikTok at Corporate MILF only fans, at the real Jim Queen 669 00:45:03,000 --> 00:45:09,360 Instagram, at the real Jim Queen X at Fendom Jim Queen. 670 00:45:09,840 --> 00:45:13,200 As always, you are not allowed to come until I do.