Medically speaking, and I think the doctors would say that
you're, I think the correct word for what you have is is totally
Welcome to Splintered Spirits, the podcast hosted by me, Gary
and my nephew John Santa from Santa Paranormal, where we try
to answer the question, what are spirits?
Today's guest is someone who's been to the edge and back not
once, not twice, but 4 * 4 near death experiences.
I'm talking about the Pulaski psychic medium.
Amy Bulaski has survived cancer as a child, a traumatic
childbirth, and two intense surgical emergencies due to a
rare medical condition. Each near death experience
expanded her connection to the other side, sharpening her
ability to hear, see, and feel spirits.
Through the Pulaski experience, Amy teaches that spirit
communication is all about frequency tuning in more so than
reaching out. She's here to talk with us about
what death taught her, how vibration plays a role in the
spirit world, and what it really means to survive.
Amy shares stories about love, death, and suicide, so let that
be a warning for those easily triggered by such topics.
We're going to get into it all. Amy is a true survivor with a
spirit stronger than anything breaking through from the other
side. We are lucky to have her on the
podcast. Let's dive into the
conversation. I want to tell you really
quickly, Amy, how I discovered you because I'm new to this
whole paranormal world. Right.
I got into this with John. This is my nephew.
And. Oh, hi, nephew.
Yeah, I know people. I tell people I have a nephew in
the paranormal. I think it's a little kid.
And, like, no, he's no kid. He's an adult person.
He's he's an adult person and he's got a big tick Tock follow.
Sometimes I'm an adult person. Right, his maturity level,
there's a difference between maturity.
Right. Big kid right here.
That's it. It's exactly so, you know, and
I'm a, I'm a producer in LA, so I create shows and I wanted to
try to figure out how to make a format for a show around this
guy and what he does. And as I got into it, I was
like, let's start with the podcast and talking about spirit
communication and what we do. So I've been, I, we've had
several interviews with like academics and, and psychics and
authors and really getting, I'm getting into this space.
So I'm just sitting on my couch and I'm Herkel Dirkland's doom
scrolling on my phone, right? And, and, and, and you show up
and of course, look, the look is phenomenal, right?
The hair, the, the eyes are like, all right, who's this?
And then she starts talking about spirits.
I'm like, oh, she's in the tribe, right?
Like she's like, OK, let's see what's going on.
And then the attitude was like very East Coast.
I'm like, oh, OK. And I'm like, she's one of them.
I got to reach out. And then I started digging into
your story, Amy, And it's like I was just floored by it front on
all levels. So and and I think that's where
we want to get into this. And if I know you've talked
about a lot of this before, because I mean, the first thing
is, and as I was looking this up, medically speaking, and I
think the doctors would say that you're, I think the correct word
for what you have is, is totally fucked.
Is that right? Like, is that safe to say?
Like medically you have a very intense conditions going on.
In your life? Absolutely.
And has that with all these four
near death experiences, would you say that's brought you that
to strengthen your ability? Hell yeah, given you the
ability. Or strengthened.
OK, strengthened. So essentially, you know, I
mean, I guess, I guess gave everybody has this, everybody
has this. Oh my God, there's so many
people that gate keep this shit and like nobody can be a medium.
Sorry, can I curse on here? Is that OK?
Yeah, for sure. OK, OK, Thank you.
Yeah, well, everybody has the fucking ability and we all do it
all the time. Everybody communicates
telepathically. Everybody can feel.
But you, you just have to understand the language.
And that's where, like time and practice and all of that, you
know, begins. But yeah, like I said, when I
was little, I had cancer, right? So I lost my kidney.
It was the size of the tumor was the size of a basketball.
They found it at stage 3, going to stage 4.
And back then, what was that 1990 five?
They didn't know a whole lot about Wilms tumor nor had they
seen really anything that big. And I got this removed in
Houston, TX. So like at the best place right
at that point. And when they went and they, you
know, put me on the operating table, it essentially had so
much vasculature to it that when they were, you know, taking it
out, I bled to death. And so that was like my first
coating when I was 5 on the table.
I was in ICU for like another month afterwards they brought me
back, everything was fine. And then after that, you know, I
had chemotherapy, the whole 9 yards.
But I started seeing and feeling and experiencing rinsing things
and just having like, these weird situations.
And my dad was in the air. He's from New York, but my dad
is from like a little town in New York and Pennsylvania area.
They're kind of like both like Russian Jews that like, fled the
war, you know, came over here and he was in the military for
30 years. And so he's not woo woo.
And then my mom is a trigonometry professor, so she's
not woo woo. And so I just had kind of had
all these experiences and they're like, OK, that's weird,
you know? And then I just started
questioning it and asking, I guess maybe, you know, being a
little eccentric was interesting as well, right?
Because I was a musician, I started playing the violin.
After that, I started playing the piano.
I started playing guitar. Like I wanted to express this
energy in any way possible. And then I ended up after having
my second near death experience when I was what I was like 15 at
that point, that was due to what was that bacterial meningitis at
that point. I got it from my violin teacher,
didn't know about it, coded, took me to the emergency room,
whole 9 yards. Came back, things got crazier.
Started channeling in high school, picked up a new
instrument, learned it. I mean, all these are kind of
like tied together. Let me tell you off real quick
there. You said you started channeling
in high school. Yeah.
All right, so high school, high school's awkward enough for most
of us. What happens when you start?
What does that mean exactly? When you say I started
channelling in high school? Were you like doing readings for
your friends or this is like in the privacy of your own room and
you're sort of like, how did you get into a state of that?
How did that end up coming up? So essentially, when I was
probably, I think I, I don't know if I have the book in here
right now, but when I was in 9th grade, I started feeling and
seeing and experiencing all this shit, right?
And I didn't know where to turn to, right?
This was what, 2003? So the internet's not a really
big thing, you know, as far as like looking at stuff up.
And I'm only 14, so I don't know what the heck is going on.
And so I went to Barnes and Nobles and I got this book.
It was called, it's that dummies stuff.
Remember how they used to have like dummies for computers, but
it was like dummies for communicating with spirits?
And I was like, reading it, and I'm like, this is making
freaking sense. Like, what is this?
So I read the whole thing. It didn't match.
It was too woo woo. And so in high school, after
learning about that, I started just feeling.
I started feeling. And I would be in class, you
know, it's really quiet. Everybody's focusing.
And I would get something in my brain and I would just want to
know why. So I would turn around and I'd
be like, you know, is this person dead?
Like, did this happen? Did this happen yesterday to
you? And they're like, yeah, that's
weird, you know? But since I was an orchestra and
I was in volleyball in all of this, it was kind of taken
better because I was already like the friendly butterfly of
the whole group. So it was like, oh, that's Amy.
She's she's just eccentric. And then the big one came.
That was after my dear death experience.
I was actually in but. But Amy, did you consider
yourself eccentric or did you think it was like, did you know
what was going on? Did you just think like I'm or I
am talking to spirits? I knew it was coming.
I knew it was coming from somewhere, but I don't think
anybody fully knows 1000% of what it is until we get there,
right? It's, it's a, everything's a
spirit, everything's energy. I mean, you're a spirit and a
body at the same time. And I just know that I was
getting the, this information, these downloads, I would get all
these feelings, they would come up and then they would be
translated essentially into English.
And then I was correct. Like that's what was going on.
And then I really knew that there was a person like there,
there are spirits that want to try to get in contact with
people because they have things that are left unsaid.
And it kind of, they have to kind of smooth that out in order
for them to move up into the light.
And so I was in my history class in 11th grade.
Her name was Miss Fernandez. And she was very, very private.
She was like 65 at that point, you know, very, very private
woman. And we're sitting there and I
start getting this shaky feeling.
And now I know what that fucking shaky feeling is.
It's a spirit coming in and wanting to talk and they're
mixing with your energy, your vibration.
It's like overloading your system.
And so I'm like, Oh my God, what is this told me slight.
And then all of a sudden I started hearing like, talk to my
wife. Talk to my wife.
I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry.
She found me dead. And so at the very end of class,
I got up and I was like, Mr. Fernandez, I said, is your
husband past? Anyway, she just, like, breaks
down. She was out for two or three
days. We thought she was sick because,
you know, back then, it's not uncommon for your teachers to
leave. Like she was the head of the
history department. Whatever days did she get to
the? I actually got I think I got a C
because I skipped her Class A lot.
But anyways, no, it's just. I think that's deserve I think
that deserves an A bro right. I mean you saw your history
teacher that talk about knowing history about his dead husband
and like she should gave you the yet but go ahead.
Absolutely. But no, I told her and and I
said it's weird. He keeps talking about I think
you found found him dead. Anyways, yeah, she was at home.
She woke up and and he was dead in the bed next to he had a
heart attack. And so she had missed a couple
of days of school because of that.
But because she was the head of this history department, she
couldn't leave for a week. And so she came back and she was
still dealing with the grief, which was.
Kind of. So Amy, I usually ask this.
I don't want to come back to something you said here in a
second, but I usually ask this at the top.
But I wanted to get into your story because it's so intense
and wonderful. But I usually ask this of all
our guests, what because of this, now, now that you're in
11th grade, you're, you're seeing this, you're talking to
it like an actual spirit and you're, you're, you're, you're
getting the feeling. What do you think spirits are?
It's really hard to describe a non physical thing in a physical
space. How do I say this?
I I'll give you a couple of theories.
One, this is kind of a dream. This is an illusion.
This is something that your consciousness creates so that
you can play out different scenarios.
Like the matrix of with your. Well, yeah, absolutely.
I mean, if you think about, you break it down, everything is
energy, everything is vibration, everything is frequency.
That's all it is. It's all in different tones,
which leads to densities. That's it.
And so as spirit, I think that's like the real, that's the real
and they're coming in and they're like dipping in into our
world. Cuz right now, remember, if you
think about quantum physics and like what they're discovering,
if you're looking around your room right now, nothing else
exists outside of it except for what you're viewing.
That's it. Matter only exists if you view
it like that is like a law that is now like solid.
It only exists. So everything if you have a
wife, if you have a kid, if you have a pet that's in the other
room, that is only a belief or an idea.
And you believe it's so strongly that when you go out in there,
then it manifests itself essentially because that matter
is being viewed. So spirits exist in between that
matrix. I don't have another word for
that. And outside of it as well.
And they come in and I guess they use the signals or the
frequencies in order to connect. That's that's where I'm at with
this. OK, All right.
So that's that's that's how you communicate with them.
That's HIG. Now you said you feel like you
know they're coming in or they're about to communicate you
with you when you start to shake.
Is that what you said? Like that's it.
That's that's that. Was back then, yeah.
So now, like if I'm out and about like I'm at a restaurant
or if I'm at the mall or if I'm, you know, like yesterday I went
and I got a facial. I wasn't feeling at all.
I was just kind of like, OK, enjoy the fucking facial Shut
up. Shut your brain up super hard to
do that, by the way, OK. But when when they do that,
it's, they come in, remember, everybody gives off a wave.
You, you, that's people call it an aura.
I don't care about aura. It's, it's your energy, it's
your frequency, it's your tone. And so they come in and they
interact with that and that leads to some sort of
disturbance and it interacts with your body.
That's it. And so for me, it would make me
slightly shake, not a lot, not like, but just like enough to be
highly annoying. And then there's like this
feeling of like, come on, come on, come on, freaking say it.
Freaking say it, freaking say it.
And then it's my choice to either continue ignoring it,
which I will continue to get that feeling gnawing in the back
of my brain, or I can stop. And it's almost like I shift my
focus in and then I start getting information.
That's it. Now, John, you have a similar
feeling when you feel. Wait, tell me.
Atmospheric. I describe it more as my
atmosphere and my general atmosphere.
Think of it like, think of it like you're in jello and
something hits that jello or enters that jello.
It shakes the entire thing. And I yeah, I'll feel it.
So I can feel what it is. Yeah.
So I can't tell what's in a
room. I can tell when something
enters. If it's up, I'm already in here
and I'm comfortable. You know it's existing.
Once something comes in, different story.
Correct it. Could be anything.
I could be, yeah, it could be anything.
The only time that you're going to feel it is if they want to
connect. That's it.
It's like John doesn't, John will say that he's not a psychic
or a medium, but I feel like he's just like a he's just, he's
interrupted. It's it's, you know, I think you
know, yeah, I, I've heard you say that before.
I want, I always compare it to sports or something, right.
I do think people, everyone has intuition, which is probably a
level of that of mediumship if you like, just to put a word on
it. But you know, no matter how much
I practice, I'm never going to throw a baseball at 98 miles an
hour. So I don't know if I would ever
achieve that role, you know, that heightened level.
And I think people who are like yourself, you.
Know if everybody which which I can definitely get behind
because magnetic fields are brains everything, right?
It then becomes, at what point do we stop calling it mediumship
and we call it just being a human being, you know?
And then we give that title to those that can actually, for
example, like yourself, Amy, that can communicate with
spirits rather than someone like me who won't hear a spirit
unless I, you know, fire up a device like Transcend theory or
Necro meter or Vox, you know? Yeah, yeah.
Well, like I look with that, like what he was saying, I like
to explain it that way as well. You know, not everybody's Tony
Hawk, but everybody can stand or get on the skateboard at some
point. Yeah, I'll.
Fall off my I can't. Yeah, me too.
Me too. I can sit on it, but I can't
stand up. We're shit so.
I'll sit on it, can't stand on it.
Yes, Yeah. No.
It's awful. Amy, you talk about vibrations
and frequency a lot, which is, which is a really interesting
sort of, I guess it's like a cabal in philosophy or like the
Hermetic principle of vibration. Like we're all this frequency,
we're all this vibe. And I don't know if when did,
was there a certain instance that you, when talking to
spirit, recognize that? Or was that something you read
and sort of flew, you know, got into like how did you put those
two belief systems together? What?
What was it that made you recognize that?
That's a great question. Nobody ever asked me that.
Yeah, that I choose to not read anything.
The only book that I've ever read was that other one, and I
thought it was full of horseshit.
So after that I chose to not read anything because I didn't
want anybody else's experience and opinions to falter, my own
or me to be influenced by it. I want it to be a pure.
Best way I can get it is scientific, you know, extraction
of what it is like. That's it.
And so when people ask me what books do you read?
And I'm like none, none. I just sit in my room and I be
weird and I try to figure it out.
That's it, right? So that's it.
But with with that, I think me being a musician for like my
whole life, number one has really helped me.
The one thing that I figured out was one, I used to write music
all the time. I still do it, but when I have
my nails on, I can't do it. So I write things on my piano,
my guitar, I layered it all together.
I put my violin on top of it like it's the whole thing.
But remember all that music that didn't either invokes feelings
or people write it because of a feeling, right?
So music, right? So if you're thinking about like
heavy metal rock music, what does that make you feel?
Aggression, anger, sometimes sadness.
Those are like lower vibration, sometimes hyped up, just
depending on on what your state is and what your tune matches
it. Usually if you're going through
and you're playing in a higher octave, that's light, that's
love, that's airy, that kind of brings your, it lifts you up.
528 Hertz. There you go, yes.
And then you have the middle, which is kind of like normal.
So like just the key of C, that's what all of our things
for, you know, casino, like Ding, Ding, Ding, Ding, all
that's done. It's kind of just keep you in
this meditative middle state. So after I started dissecting
that, I was like, holy fuck, okay, Even my voice, like when
people go and they talk, if I talk in the same tone down here
over and over and over again, it can put people in some sort of
meditative state and keep them there.
That's what is right. That's the whole thing.
So within all that, those are frequencies.
Then I noticed when I started channeling and like really,
really getting deep because I've been doing it for forever.
But when I started getting really deep into it, I noticed
that when spirits would come in, maybe they ended up, you know,
committing suicide or maybe they ended up dying of a drug
overdose because they were an addict for 20 years.
When they would show up, they would make me feel all those
same feelings that that music would make me feel in that
certain octave or that certain frequency.
So for there I would have to tune myself down or tune my
feelings down to that vibration or that level in order to
connect with them. That's it.
Got it. No, no, it's fascinating.
It's really an interesting take. And yeah, you know, John's
theory on spirits and is the one thing that I always found
interesting because we don't come at it from a religious
place like the soul in heaven or hell, is that we all have energy
in US, right? It's a, it's a fact, right?
Brain synapses, electrical energy.
And when we die, that energy has to go somewhere, but it can't,
it cannot be created or destroyed.
What happens is we think or he thinks, and what we're trying to
say is that consciousness, which we don't really know or
understand, is attached. The mind is attached to that
energy somehow, and then that spreads out.
So John believes we talk, he's talking to when he's talking to
memories of spirit in a sense, right?
That's sort of his like this is what he's, you know, right.
That's kind of what he believes he's speaking with, which is
just a fascinating thing. But it still plays into
frequency energy. Like when the way that spirit
boxes work is they're manipulating frequency, they're
manipulating energy. So that's kind of where that's
kind of where it comes from for him.
So it's it's a really interesting thing that you've
connected with. So that's so that's how you
connect. So has there ever been, you
know, do you have to get to a certain frequency to connect
with certain? People.
Spirit and have you ever, is there like a spec, you know, is
there a sort of a, a frequency you don't want to get to, to do
that? Is that hard for you?
You know what I mean? Does that make?
Does that question make sense? No, absolutely.
Can I take? Can I go back on John's take?
Yeah, real quick of it. So 50% of that is absolutely
correct. So spirits will come in and they
will hop in your body and they will make you view and
experience their memories because and they, they don't
remember everything. You don't remember everything
when you crossover, but you do remember key moments, things
that have like this emotional, like like deepness to it,
whether it be a good thing or a bad thing.
And they're trying to show that to you in order for them to
like, release. There are some spirits that are
just residual energy. For some reason it gets trapped,
but it's not a conscious entity. Just kind of like if you walk
into a room after a fight, you can feel if you like you're just
like that room doesn't feel great.
It's because that energy like slogs off on you.
And the only way I can describe it is like an ether that's the
old 18. 100 we've had we've had some academics describe that.
Sorry to interrupt you. We've had some academics
describe that as more of like how they would define a
haunting. Most people, most people find a
haunting as an imprint. So like you could be alive and
leave your imprint on something and then that's, you know, it's
just repeats. It's like playing a tape over
and over and over again. It can't.
As opposed, right? As opposed to like an
apparition, which is what we would think.
Of as a ghoster. Right, exactly.
But sorry, but sorry, go ahead. No, no, no.
You're OK. So yeah.
So I they they do hop in your brain.
They do play with it. They do make you see, feel and
experience memories because they want to connect with you.
But remember too, the only memories that they can make you
see are things that you personally have seen, felt, and
experienced and done before. So they're going to take little
clips from all these different things that your brain has ever
accessed before, and they're going to smash it together to
try to talk about their experience, OK.
And how do you decipher what's what?
Oh, so let's get into that. All right.
Oh, this is so much fun. Oh, it's crazy.
Oh, it's such. A funny fuck, yeah.
Like, how do you know what you're hearing isn't a memory
versus an apparition versus you know, you're talking to the
right person, if you will, right?
Yeah, okay, so when you sit down with a client or when you sit
down with a person that wants to be channeled, whether it's a
client, friend, person that I go out and see, we'll get into how
everything happens for a reason and there's no chance and all
that stuff in a little bit. But essentially, if I'm sitting
down with a person, they have to be in the right energy and in
the right space. And I don't mean that they have
to be like or whatever it is, but they can't have any
distractions. It's you and me.
Get your kids out of the room, get the dogs out of the room.
I want you to be calm. Don't just get off of work.
I want you to be relaxed because you are the channel, whatever
frequency you are in. Like if you were in super deep
grief and your loved one just died, you're probably going to
be in a lower state than what they are.
So it's going to be more difficult, not impossible, but
more difficult for me need to connect because 50% of the
energy or the power is with you because we're all connected.
Like we just all, we just are because we're all each other.
And then essentially when you go in and you start feeling,
sometimes I'll go through and I'll just like feel and see
who's around. Other times my client will say,
you know, I want to channel like this is Friday.
She says, can I channel Richard? Richard is my dad, right?
So that's what she asked me. So I'm sitting there for a
second and I'm feeling, and the only way that I can, I'll tell
you what it feels like as a representation is it's almost
like it's going to sound so stupid, but echolocation, it's
like you're sending out a signal and you're trying to get it
back. You're sending out.
It's like ping, ping, ping, ping, ping.
And so I'm pinging at like the highest because I'm happy, I'm
light, I'm super excited to connect with her.
And I'm like, Richard, where are you at?
What are you doing? That's what it feels like in my
brain. And then I get nothing.
And I'm like, OK, maybe Richard's not here, right?
He's always here. There's a reason why she wants
to connect with him. Of course, Richard's fucking
here. And so then I go through and I'm
like, all right, well, maybe I'll make myself less happy.
So I get a little bit more melancholy.
And I'm like, hold on, let me adjust myself.
I calm down. I get kind of blah, like that
kind of feeling. And then I'm like, OK, Richard,
where are you at? And then all of a sudden, my
head. So you're feeling in the back of
your head. You feel like just something
show up. It's not.
You can't see anything. It's just like there's now
something in your space, like a circle or like a mass or
whatever it is. That's the only way I can
describe it. You can't see it with your eyes.
It's like you're feeling it. And then I'm like, OK, is this
Richard? And then all of a sudden he
shows me an image of and he makes me feel right here hurting
really, really bad. And I started rubbing it, and I
was like, he committed suicide, didn't he?
And she was like, yeah. And I said, I don't think he
shot himself. I did said he'd hang himself.
And she was like, yes. And then he references Mike or
Bubba, which is a client I had. There's a video of him.
Mike shot himself in his garage. He didn't hang himself.
I said that he'd do this in his garage.
And she starts crying. And she's like, yes.
And I was like, OK, well, he's coming to say I'm sorry.
So he's taking other sessions that I've had to try to talk
about his experience because I've personally never, you know,
done that to myself. So that's how they do that.
And then from there, when I'm asking questions, I said, so why
did you do this? Like literally in my brain, I'm
like, well, what's up? Why did you do this?
And so I'm, it's almost like I'm scanning every scenario that
I've ever seen or I could possibly think of to see if
he'll highlight one. So I'm like, were you and your
wife in a fight? He says, no, we're perfectly
fine. What about your kids?
No, we're perfectly fine. I'm like, were you just really
depressed? Nah, it was hard.
It was difficult, but you know, not crazy depression.
And then I said, so what's happening?
And then he gives me this feeling of coughing heavily and
he gives me the feeling of when I have people that die of long
COVID or die of like emphysema because like their lungs are
melting on the inside, like that whole thing or they start
bleeding or tuberculosis. And I was like, this is odd.
I said, did your dad have like long COVID?
And she goes, no. I said, he keeps making my lungs
burn. And he's sitting on the side of
the bed and he's coughing and he's complaining about that.
And she says, oh, he had bronchitis, but it had been
chronic for 10 years. And he had kept getting
bacterial infections and he was septic and nobody could do in
it. And his his inner lining of his
lungs had been eaten away from this.
And so he would cough up blood, but it wasn't tuberculosis.
And so he wrote this note saying he couldn't live with that pain
anymore and that's why he took his life.
Jesus Christ. So all right.
But Amy, OK, you have to get yourself into this place, to
talk to this person in order to help your client.
How do you protect yourself? You're always protected you.
Don't need how, how that can't like that can't be good
mentally, physically to get into that space.
That's such a dark space all the time.
No, I mean, am I wrong? I mean, is it like it's cool?
It's a story. It's not my story.
It's their story and it feels stressful.
It can be, but it's not when you realize that it's their story
and they went through it and that's the story that they have
with their person. It's not mine.
I'm here to give the message. I'm here to talk about.
I'm here to be the bridge between the two.
But I'm not here to like, take that and take it home with me.
Because remember, at the end of the day, all of us are going to
die no matter what is going to happen.
Did you always know that? Did you always That's that's a
very mature statement though from an adult person like when
you were younger was how do you not take something home so.
I used to get really sad. OK, so that so when did you OK,
that's so then how did you when did you make that turn?
When did you learn to and what did you do to say I have to stop
this here or I have to protect myself by doing this And what
was that? I when I.
Pinpoint it at all. Yeah, kinda a little bit.
So when I was 29, I had this, I was 30.
I can't remember which one it is.
I'm 36 now, so I'll be 37 in like a month.
And so about 7 years ago, like I had been living with this and
every single session I would cry.
And it, it was not, not in a bad way.
Or like after them, like I would like offload it, right?
Because you have kids drowning, you have people murder suicides,
you have, you know, grandma's passing away and the whole
family's around them and like, they can't say goodbye because
they have a tube down their throat.
Like you name it, every which way possible.
And I would take that and I would feel the sadness from my
client, the the loss of the other side.
But it's odd too, because then you're like, OK, well, they're
fine, right? So there is that, that silver
lining. But after a sessions, I would go
and I would sit in my bathtub and I would just feel like, Oh
my God, I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do.
And then at some point I had a feeling and it said, and this is
probably a download or spirit or God or whatever you want to call
it, or just my higher self, I don't know, it's all the same
thing. And it said, you know, remember,
it's just their story. You don't have to take it with
you. And I was like, but how do I not
take it with me? Like I was, I was getting their
pain and I was personalizing and I felt like it was my duty to
hold on to it, right? And it wasn't.
And so the the kicker was I had the session with this wonderful
woman. She wanted me to channel her two
dogs there named Kirby and Daisy.
I was just thinking, it's like, OK, both the dogs passed.
OK, they probably got put down. Whatever it is when I start.
Wait a second, you were channeling a dog?
Yeah, I channeled. You just cats I've done.
Dolphins I've had. Chickens I've had.
A potbelly pig I've had. That's outrageous, all right?
No. It's great.
I want it level. I want to hear.
Yeah. Like do you understand it as
English? Yeah, we'll talk about that.
So dogs are. You like, Are you like the
Doctor Doolittle of the dead? Or something.
Everybody can. Yes.
Because remember, we're all energy.
We'll talk about that just a second.
It's great. Yeah.
So keep going, channeling them. And I was like I said, what
happened to you? I was like, where was your mom
at? And there was this, this feeling
of this dog, he made me feel the feeling of like when you get a
puppy when they're little and you lift them up by the scruff
of their neck, right? Just to hold them to like put
them somewhere really quick. And he lifted it up.
And then he made me feel what it felt like when I had clients
that drowned. And then he made me feel like
this sinister, evil, dark feeling.
And I was like, OK. And then he keeps making me feel
this feeling of why don't you love me?
Why don't you love me? I love you.
And then death.
And I said, I said, did somebody like drowned him or did he get
like drowned in the bathtub? And I said, it's not you.
I said, who is the guy? Like who's bathing him?
I go, and why? Why is he so sad?
Essentially her boyfriend at the time, she broke up with him.
He broke into her apartment. He went in, grabbed that
singular dog and then essentially waterlogged it 100
times over. John, you just walked into a
story where she felt and channeled the dog that was
murdered by some girl's real jerk off ex-boyfriend.
Who would do that? Great.
Great place to just enter, you know.
Yeah, it's just wonderful. Yeah, yeah, I.
Hate that that story makes me like I get chill.
I've got literal chills because I don't like I can't watch any
movies where dogs or. Kids.
Yeah, yeah. Listen, I'm pretty sure we all
agree that anybody that does anything to innocent animals,
yeah, it's garbage. Complete, complete and under
garbage. But anyway.
True garbage. It's like so you felt that from
so. OK, so you got that feeling.
Yeah, that so it's it's kind of like ET then, is what you're
saying? Like my my obscure movie
references is like, no, Elliot Elliot doesn't, you know, but
it's like Elliot doesn't hear ET thoughts.
He feels ET feelings. Does that make sense?
That's what you're saying, But that's with animals.
That's with animals. That's with animals and people.
And so that's, that's how spirits talk.
And so he made me feel this up and down.
And then she says, yeah, he grabbed him and he kept, he
videoed it, all of it. By what?
That's the only way she could confirm it.
And he kept water locking it. And at the very end, he held him
under and he drowned to death. And then he went.
He got an iron to the other one and then pressed it on its face
until it dies. This is a psychopath.
He is and slammed it. So anyways, so with with our
session, Are you ready for this this work?
It's interesting. This is where it gets
interesting. Yeah, this is another one.
So this work, it's interesting. So she was asking me.
She was like, you know, what should I do about this?
She's like, the authorities in Chicago won't do anything.
And it happened like a month before.
And I said, I need you to go as far as you can, press charges,
write a book and make a big deal about it.
She ended up getting our session and posting it places.
She ended up writing a book. And this past year, he finally
went to prison. And she has a book and she has
the social media. Like, you could ask her about
this. Her name is Sarah Manos.
She's online, and she's one of my friends.
But she just had a baby. That's.
Nice. That is, well, that's I'm glad
it's got a happy ending to it. That is a crazy person.
Yeah, he was. Sorry, but I don't that after
that. Apologize, don't apologize.
It's like, I don't like hearing about like that's true garbage
to me. Like I would definitely, I'd run
over somebody who hurt a dog. I'd run over a person before I'd
run over a dog. You know what I mean?
Like, it's not, it's not a, it's really not a dark one, Sure, I
guess. OK.
Absolutely. You have a sibic of.
It I'm all back, I know. It's 9:30 in the morning for me.
Let's start the day with some darkness, I guess.
Yeah, go for it. Let's share it.
So this was probably my most I
didn't know what to do because by the way, I hate the term.
I'm an ethical medium. My God, you everybody should be
fucking ethical. Like what are you talking about?
Why are you labeling that yourself?
Either you do it or you don't. But anyways, I digress.
So with that, I'm going through and there's this lovely blonde
woman. She was probably about 2425.
I can't remember the guy's name. I don't think I want to remember
it, but I can remember exactly what he looked like and in my
head and the way he felt and he's in the best way I can
describe it as hell. Or what would be a lower
vibration, like the lowest vibrational state.
So she gives me his first name. I start feeling around.
I'm feeling in my upper octave. I don't feel anything, feel in
the middle and nothing's coming back on my little echolocation.
And so I start to get like, I was like, weird.
I was like, I don't feel him at all.
And she was like, well, he may be really frustrated.
And I'm like, oh, OK, interesting.
Because I'm like, well, why are you not here?
So I started adjusting myself to like, frustration.
And then I adjust myself to anger.
And the best way I can describe that it looks like in my brain
is there. He shows up.
It is an entire room of black. Everything is black.
And there's like a single light barely illuminating his face and
he's pacing back and forth and he's grunting and all I hear is
those little bitches got away. Those little bitches got away
and then I'm like OK, he's talking about like 2 bitches.
Maybe it's 2 girls cuz that's what I'm assuming right?
And I'm like I don't get. Bitches would be at least more
than one bitch. Yeah, would be exactly, exactly.
And so I was like odd. I said he keeps doing this and I
was, I asked him, I said, who is this person?
He says, oh, you're talking to my slut, like just said that.
How do I convey that to my client?
And so I like negate it. And I was like, so you and him
weren't married, you were dating.
That's kind of what I say. And she goes, yeah, we were
seeing each other. And then I go, why does he keep
referencing, like, these two bitches or maybe two people are
not with him, and he's angry. And she just, like, panics.
And I said, hold on. And so I start channeling.
I said, what happened to you? How did you get here?
And clearly, he's in a lower, lower state.
And then he makes me feel what it feels like to walk through
tall grass and have shorts on, like with the tall grass on my
legs. And I'm like, because we have
acreage. And so like I walk through that
shit all the time. And then he makes me hear like a
metal door opening ring. And then he shows me a head
exploding, which was very interesting.
And I said, so he committed suicide maybe outside or maybe
like a shed or like a metal building.
And she says yes. And I said it's weird.
He's talking about like I get the feeling of murder.
I go, but there's those people aren't here.
And he keeps referencing sons as well.
And she says, well, he got mad because his wife found out about
me and the wife was going to take the two boys.
And so he took them out early in the morning instead of going to
school, and he shot them both in the shed and then killed
himself. So she was wanting to see if he
loved her. And he was the absence of love
on every level. My God.
The two boys were in heaven, They're in a higher vibrational
state and he was mad about it but whatever, fuck him all.
Right. Listen, I don't know how you do
what you do. Do you have, do you have a
story? Is there any story in here
that's like a fun one? You know where it's like?
Yeah, listen. Yeah, well, I mean, it's all
about death, so. I know, but it's death like
something that's a little more Can we have like, can't we get a
story about like, you know, here's like an old couple that
were together for 50 years and then like, you know, it's like.
Don't you? Don't you have a notebook type
story where we can all like we feel warm inside?
OK, Are you ready? Are you ready?
Please. Sorry.
I may be chilling her soon because she's coming up in my
brain two or three times as a recent.
It's probably been three years at this point, I think.
OK, so #1 if. John's got a big anniversary he
just had, so a good love story might be a good way to Let's
hear a good love story. This is where it's at.
So I remember for me, the reason why somebody pops in my head is
because I'm probably either going to interact with them
soon, I'm going to get an e-mail from them, or I'm going to be
channeling them. So the reason why I'm choosing
this specific story is probably because I'm about to channel
them, which means when I figure it out, when that is, I will
e-mail you just to show you that, yes, that is a real thing.
OK. I love it.
So yeah. So anyways, I remember there's
this one time there was this woman, she was having a session
with me in her car and she wanted to channel somebody named
Dustin. She was like, I want to see if I
can get in contact with Dustin. I said, OK, so because I have a
lot of people that just want to get in contact with a single
specific person. And you can the reason why they
want to get in contact with that person is because that person is
wanting to get in contact with you.
And they've been trying. And now they're like, holy shit.
OK, at least we can do this now. So they're always going to show
up. So I sit down and I start
feeling. And in my brain, he shows up in
the passenger seat next to her and he's vaping.
I said, oh, I said, so he vapes. And she says, yeah, I said, this
is weird. I said, this is not your son,
right? I said he looks very young.
And she goes, oh, he's 20 years younger than me.
I was like, oh, OK. And I start feeling.
Oh, yeah, I start feeling. And I was like, what happened to
you? What's going on?
And he shows me this, like, whirlwind romance.
He makes me hear horses. He makes me see beautiful
forest. He makes me see a mean husband,
like somebody grumbling outside. And I was like, I was like, do
you look like, on a ranch or something?
And she goes, yeah, I said, so you have horses.
She was like, oh, we own an equestrian training center.
And he was one of the people that would help train the
horses. I was like, oh, shit.
And I was like, well, who is the angry husband?
I said, you're not married. She goes, yeah.
And I'm like, you know, I can't release this session because of
that, right? So essentially I'm like, oh,
this is so juicy. So anyways, I go through and I
ask him, I said, you know, what happened to you?
What's going on? And he makes me.
Do you remember the movie? God, what was it, Pearl Harbor?
Do you remember that movie? OK, So he makes me hear the song
The winner look back on these times.
And there's like a whole song that Faith Hill sings.
The airplanes are flying over. And like Josh Hartnett, like we
think or no, Ben Affleck goes down and like his airplane, like
the whole 9 yards or whatever it is.
And I'm like, he wasn't military, right?
She goes, no, I said it's weird that they keep referencing this
movie. They keep referencing planes in
like the specific area where the planes go down over in Japan.
And she says he died in the plane crash.
And I was like, oh, And I was like, is it a reason why he
talks about Josh Hartnett and Ben Affleck?
So there was two people. She goes, yeah, it was him.
It was his last flight to become a pilot and a private pilot.
And he was with his instructor. And I was like, oh, my God.
And so now I'm asking, I don't know where she lives at.
I'm like, where did this happen? Because I you, they can tell you
like, what the area looks like. They can show you what they were
seeing. You get these little last
snippets, pop pop pop of what happened.
That's why I'm asking him. And he shows me snippets of what
I've seen when I've looked at like documentaries of Canada,
but like the cruciferous forest, like the Super thick pine trees,
like super. And I was like, was this like
more like N like near Canada or like on the Canadian border?
And she said, yeah, it was on the border of what is it
Minnesota? I think that is Minnesota or
whatever it is, and she says. I'm not.
I'm not Magellan. I'm not good at geography.
I don't know her. It's OK, I have to remember
everything. And so sometimes they forget
some things. But she said that his what they
know is that it didn't install. They couldn't get it back up.
And he ended up crashing through a forest, these thick forests.
And in him they got impaled. Let's just say that.
Sure, OK. But as we're reading, as we're
in there and he's like having this feeling of like, I miss
you, I love you. I hear bop bop, bop bop, bop,
bop, bop, bop, like this knock. And she's like, Oh my God.
He was like, what are you doing out here?
Why are you hiding from me? And she puts the phone down.
It's her husband. It's her husband that came
outside to try to find her. And he's like, get the fuck
inside the house. And I'm like, whoa.
Anyways, it was the whole thing. But yeah, it's like a Bravo
episode. I like this one.
It was, it was a Bravo episode, but he ended up she was like,
I'm on the phone. She, I don't remember who she
said she was. It was like a family, remember?
And he said, we'll get back in here.
So essentially he went inside and we, you know, I calm myself
down and I go back into the session and I said, do you have
a little boy? She said, yes.
I said, weird. I said, he keeps showing that
he's playing with an airplane. I said, I don't know if your son
wants that be a pilot. And she goes, no.
She says right before he died, because he was about to get his
license, he gave him a set of little airplanes and he plays
with them every day. And he says, and he talks to
him. And I was like.
Oh, I thought you were going to say like the boy is actually
that guy's son. The pilot's son.
No, I don't. No, no, I wish.
I wish. That would have been juicy.
That would have been real juicy stuff, right?
Like that would have been nuts. I took that story in my own
place. Look, speaking, Speaking of
great love stories. So Amy, you're married, right?
Is that correct? So I, I am, I am curious to know
because of what you do for a living and because of all the
near death experiences in medical history.
And I I just got to know because your, your husband must be a St.
It's like, what do you tell your what do you tell him first, that
you talk to the dead or sickness and health is going to mean
could mean a hell of a lot in our lives together.
So, you know, you know, buckle up.
Like what do you say first this guy and then he sticks around
for? Buckle up, today's a bad one.
Let me tell you like, how do you, as I say, you like, I just
want to know from a personal, you know, experience, you know,
it's like, listen, two things about me.
You should know these two big things.
Yeah. It's OK, This is how what
happened. This is how it happened.
All right, so I got my first divorce and we Co parent great
now good guy. We have a son together.
He's 12, you know, wonderful. But then obviously got a
divorce. Didn't like what I did.
And so when I got a divorce when I was 26, I decided to go out
and play the field like I it was it was bad.
Wait A. Minute, Amy.
I'm sorry. I'm sorry to interrupt you.
He didn't like what you did. As in, he didn't.
He didn't. He didn't like it at all.
No, he told me that it was evil and it was the devil.
OK, he's one of. OK, he's one.
Of those, yeah. Yeah, one of those one.
Of those. Exactly, exactly.
And so we, it was, I didn't get a divorce because of that.
I got a divorce because essentially the abuse had been
going on for, you know, 5 or 6 years.
I was in a wheelchair, I couldn't walk.
He would tell me, oh, the only reason why you're staying with
me is for insurance and you can't leave me because if you
do, you're going to die. Ha ha, ha.
And so at that point I took that as a fucking challenge and I was
like, fuck you. Yes, I.
Like, like, I've getting the hell out, yeah.
Yeah, good for you. Exactly.
Yeah, good for you. That's what ended up happening.
Are you ready for the cool karma?
So he got remarried and his new wife has my disease.
That's weird. Wow, that's a little strange.
I. Think he has a type?
Yes, exactly. I agree with you on that
exactly. So I go, I go out and I play the
field and actually with what I do, it really helped me date,
which is interesting because I knew, I knew what people felt
like. I knew what their glances felt
like. I knew what to say and what to
do to kind of like pull them in or push them away.
It's a really weird thing. So there was be like a game.
I'd be like, OK, I like that person.
Yeah, I'm going to get them. All right, yes, OK, I got them.
Now I'm done. On to the next one like that.
It was, it was bad, OK, because I got a divorce.
So we'll leave it there. So it's actually, you get it.
There was a time period. It's OK.
There was a time period that for about two years, that's what I
did. And then I finally said, OK, you
need to chill out. Why are you dating all these
people? Why don't you find somebody that
loves you? Because at that point I'm like,
OK, I'm a medium. I'm chronically.
I'll, you know, I'm going to live in an apartment for the
rest of my life. Like I want to farm, but I can't
do it because I can't live more than 5 lbs whatever fucking.
And I essentially said, OK, now I'm going to turn into a
celibate nun, right? So, and so I went, I did.
So I cut everybody off and I wrote everybody's names down.
And I was like, well, what, why am I dating all these people?
And I realized it was because I liked something about them that
I wanted to find myself. That's it with each one of those
people, it was something that I was trying to find in myself.
That's it. So I started doing the inner
work and I started saying like, well, why?
Why did I date the doctor? Why did I date the lawyer?
Why did I date, you know, the accounts executive in in Dubai,
Like, why did this happen? Right?
It was because each one of these people had something
interesting. They didn't have it all.
So after doing that, I ended up getting on Tinder on accident
because my best friend put me on there because I was the one that
would help my friends get all their dates.
Like I would be the person behind the scenes and then when
they got the date, I'd give it to them.
Go have fun free right? And I ended up having my third
near death experience. I because of all funny story, my
bladder, my butt and my cooter fall out because my mesentery
fails. So I've had three different
surgeries to kind of tack them back up.
Have you ever sneezed at work and your asshole fell out?
That's fun. OK, Just FY That was the real
thing I had to tell my boss. That was very odd.
OK. And so with that.
Blew out your O-ring. Yes, yes, exactly.
And so I couldn't. I can't feel when I pee like
nothing because everything's been numb so much.
So I would get these really bad bladder infections that would
lead to a kidney infection and since I have only had one
kidney, if I didn't catch it early I was fucked.
So I essentially had septic shock.
I passed out at work. They put me on life support.
They brought me back. They were able to kill the
infection with vancomycin and all this stuff.
And I came out of it. I was in the hospital for
another week. And I came home and my best
friend said, hey, Amy, go ahead and get off a tender.
I got a date with this guy, I think his name is Michael.
And I go, OK. And I was curious.
I was just laying in bed because I'd like two or three more days
off from, like, recovery. And I was like, let's see who
messaged me on Tinder? Because remember, I'd swore
everybody off. And there was this one person
and he had a single profile picture.
And it said like, if you like street tacos and long walks on
the beach, and my profile said if you like tacos and like
Mexican food, like it was just super simple because I wasn't on
there to date. And I said hi, he said hi.
And then that was the end of it. So essentially what happened is
at that point time when I started dating, I didn't want
anybody to know anything about me if I if I didn't.
Well, yeah, like at what point of the conversation did you say
my asshole fell out and you're on an easy?
There's no school segue for that.
I know, I know. So we were actually eating
sushi. We were eating sushi.
And he was talking to, it was like our fifth date.
And he was like, you know, I really want this to go to the
next level. And he's the oldest of four
boys, OK. He hasn't had any kids.
He hasn't been married before. And I look at him and I go, I
know we get along really well. Is it?
But I have a couple of things that I have to tell you.
And he's like, what I said, I know you're the oldest.
I can't have kids because I had a total hysterectomy and he was
like relieved. He was like, well, that's great
because I don't want any. I was like, oh, wonderful.
Number two. I was like, I have a son and he
is 6 and he's like, OK, cool. I want to be a dad.
This is great. We're past the baby face.
So I'm like, what the hell is this guy?
Like where is he coming from? And then as we keep going, I if
you've ever, and this sound weird, but if you ever touch me
or if you ever get a chance to hug me, I feel like an
orthopedic pillow. So I'm super soft.
I'm super squishy and everything is very bendy and stretchy and
everything like that because of my illness.
And so even my bones. And so when you touch me, I'm
very velvety and I go, you know why I'm so soft.
And he's like, yeah, I said, I have a connect the tissue
disorder and, you know, all these things have happened to
me. And at that point, he couldn't
see the scar on the back of my brain.
And he was like, well, I'll be there to help you.
And I'm like Jesus. Christ, this guy's a dream.
Yeah. Or I was just really good.
I don't know which one it was. It was probably both.
And so we went through and we talked about it.
And then on like the 5th date, I started talking about what I
did. And he was like, yeah, yeah,
yeah, sure, sure, sure. A lot of girls like crystals and
all that stuff. And I'm like, no, you don't need
any of that. That's all stupid, right?
And so then essentially he sat down one time with me and I
guess for like the first like 6 months, he, I didn't have him in
any sessions. I didn't really include him at
all. And then one day he said, is it
OK if I sit with you on your session?
Like, is it OK if I just listen in another room?
And I said, OK, So I asked my client.
And as he's sitting there, he starts to get really dizzy and
he gets up and I go, are you OK? And he goes, Amy, I feel sick.
And I go, why? And he was like, I don't know.
He's like, as soon as you started like doing whatever you
do, he was like, it was like the wind got pulled out of me or
something. And he's like, I don't want to
be here anymore. He was like, I'm not, not the
relationship, but like in the room.
And so he went to the other room and he felt like instantly
better. And I think for that experience,
he was like, OK, there's something going on.
It's weird. And then from there he started
seeing it. He started seeing the reviews,
he started hearing about it. He started, I started showing
him all the synchronicities, like how things work, how are
things connected, how like you're creating your own
reality, like all of that. And then from there, I'm really
just kind of like deep diving him into what it is and showing
him proof every step of the way. And now he's like, OK, it's
weird. I like it.
OK, good. But like that's essentially the
extent of it. Amy I love that story.
I love it so much. It's like a real human story.
You know what I really like too? But she said there at the end,
and this is what I tell people all the time, and people just
don't grasp it. I get asked a question, John,
how do you protect yourself? Why are you so calm?
Why are you so nonchalant when you're out here doing what
you're doing? And I always say I am the master
of my own reality. Yes, yes, absolutely.
Hands down, I'm the master of my own reality.
I'm glad you said that. That's, you know, a strong point
and a lot of people can't grasp it.
They and I, and I believe that just falls into why a lot of
people are so I guess, as you would say, closed off, if you
will, They just don't understand the concept.
It's like I'm the master of my reality.
My that's it, you know, yes and the story.
There's no other, you know. John, you've experienced like
feeling sick, right? I feel like that's something
that's. Happened.
Yeah, that's what they do. They hop in your body and they
make you get really nauseous. I projectile vomited during a
session one time. The one time.
I've. Your client just loved it.
When I go to when I go to a really, really haunted location
called Buck out here in New York, and after, after every
time I'm there, I just. And while I'm there, I
physically feel like I'm getting this shit kicked out of me.
So it's it, Yeah, yeah, it's it's insane.
It's just, it's constant. There's no, you know, there's no
if ands or buts about it. It's just no matter what part
I'm at, no matter what I'm doing that I.
Know, I think that if we were able to see what was happening
around us, I'd be a lot more afraid, but since I can only
feel it, I don't care. You can only feel it.
I think I see that's The funny thing.
I, I, I get angry a lot. You know how we all have our
demons and our issues? They.
Pull off your masculine energy. Yeah, I am just an angry, angry
soul. And I get, yeah.
So if I get knocked on my ass by a spirit, most people go and
run. I get up and start flipping out.
You know that's good. And that's good because the the
entities that you're talking to, they need that.
They need that pushback. And that's what I always tell
people I go, if you're dealing with a spirit that's an asshole,
you don't go and run and be afraid because they feed off of
that frequency. That's like their food, That's
their energy. So what you do like when I go
went to what is it Saint Album's insane Asylum in Virginia.
I don't know if you've ever been there, but that's a crazy place
there. Was this great?
Thing I've heard of it. I thought I've never been by
I've heard of it. Oh, it was great.
I went in there and there's this really, really angry guy in the
bottom. He like murdered all these
different women and then buried them on the property.
And everybody's like, why don't you go down in there?
They're like, it's too terrifying.
And so I walk in there, I'm like, what the fuck do you want?
Like that? And yes, you can feel this that
would come across, but they'll try to mess with you.
But they don't. And as soon as you start to have
fear, that's when they take over.
Yeah, Yep, yeah. So I always tell people intent
is everything. Intent is everything.
It's and I also, and I also love how you're like, you know,
crystals, you don't need that shit.
You know, while I'm while I'm live, they're beautiful, but you
don't need them while I'm live. I always, because people are
like you need the sage. You need.
No, no, no, no, I have I have a little song, you know, I
crystals, Jesus, salt and sage. I say to people, they some
people get offended by it, but you know what?
It's if they don't get it, they just don't understand it.
No, it doesn't. These don't do.
People are like, Oh my God, sorry, I thought I had a piece.
It's over there. People go, Oh my God, it changes
the the frequency or it helps power up.
You're putting your energy through that.
Like why don't you just like not dilute it and just use it?
Yeah, well, and that's the other thing.
If we scientifically dive into it, the purest crystals are the
are the are the the clearest. And people don't realize that
like scientifically the purest ones are the clearest.
So all these different, you know, Tiger's eye and this that
and the other for all these things.
It's like, wait a minute, that doesn't, that doesn't it just to
me, it doesn't make sense. So yeah, it's it's crazy, but
they're beautiful. Don't get me wrong.
I have crystals all over this place.
Not for any, you know, just because they're beautiful.
Because it's pretty. I agree.
What?
What were you going to say? I was I was just wanted to ask
you because you start talking about, you know how you're
dealing with people say this. If people say that and they push
you in one way or the other, look, you're running a very
successful business as well, right?
That's the thing that we, John will get a lot of heat for it,
you know, and he does get a lot of heat.
Oh, this is fake. This is shit.
You know, it's like all this stuff and it's like, yeah, we
always blow it up. I love the trolls.
He has moderators that kick him out and I would love to argue
with them all. The time.
And you have a massive audience. So just like you guys both have
a very big TikTok following, you know, and, and, and I'm curious
what you do or people are worse. In my opinion, people are worse
than spirits in a lot of ways. Reddit is like, I just started
getting to Reddit to promote, promote this thing.
They're so mean. How do you, what is it?
How do you balance that? How do you balance that sort of,
you know, or do you just, or is it just as simple as you just
ignore it, you know, but really you are trying to run a business
in terms of people hating on you, people faking it.
What is the what is the advice you give other people when it
comes to that sort of angle in, in your, in your practice,
really? OK OK but #1 I just want to let
you know I have a whole. So I always have these Yeti cups
and I made Chai tea. So I put a teaspoon or a
tablespoon of sugar, 2 tazo Chai tea bags, and like 1/4 cup of
whole milk. I have a whole Reddit on people
theorizing what's in my cup and they all think it's booze.
Oh my God, of course they do. Yeah, Reddit is a dark place.
It is, it's a very I don't do drugs, I don't drink or anything
like that. We have to talk about that.
OK, drugs in a second. But anyways, OK, so I I don't.
I love the guns, yes. Yes, we're going to talk about
that and why, how why some people feel that they need weed
or mushrooms to enlighten themselves, but then others that
they take it at lowers their vibrational state and it's
because we're all on different levels and different
frequencies. So when you're super anxious,
you're really uptight, you're really like in this reality
where you nothing else exists. When you do smoke a little bit
or when you do take something, it allows you to relax to level
up or like raise your vibration. But then as you do it, you get
used to that. So actually when you start
taking it, it actually brings you down in the long run.
So therefore you can't connect. So at some point you have to
realize that you don't need anything to connect because it
is just you. It was all inside of you to
begin with. But anyways, OK, going back to
the other thing, that's my, because I have a lot of
companies that are like shroom companies.
They're like, will you go through and promote us?
And I'm like, you don't need anything.
Sorry, can't do that for you. But going back to that, so
haters recently I had between 2025 hundred people on my live
every single night, which has been been pretty poppin, which
is great, which is cool, but it's not my job to teach people
that just want I like calling it throwing poo.
Essentially. They come up, I always like to
say it's like they have Tourettes.
You're vague and I'm like my God you angry?
Look, they repeat themselves over and over tails, and it's
like, yeah. I know.
So I get the comment and I pin it to the top and I go,
everybody, look at what this person said.
Isn't it phenomenal? Go check out their profile.
Bless them with love and kindness.
And so everybody. 'S like I bless you.
I love that idea. Yes, yes, and they're still.
Or they get, sometimes they get so frustrated if you do that to
them. Like I'll sing to them, right?
And I'll, I mean, I'll create whole songs around what they
say. And oh, they get so upset.
And and the community loves it. They love it.
And it's, and you're still
spreading positivity, if you will.
You're still being positive with it, you know?
Yeah, that's great. That's that's how you do.
You have you have to pin it, you have to bring that darkness to
light and then therefore it has no control over you, Right.
And then from there, you know, with, with people that that go,
Oh my God, read me now. I'm a cynic and I'm like, well,
I don't read cynics. You're not here for a session.
You're only here for like a negative attitude.
When you're ready and you want and there's like a willingness,
then yeah, absolutely. Let's do it.
I said. Or if you want to come and learn
and talk, I will answer every question and break it down as
logically as I can make it be with 1000% proof behind it.
I said please let me know so I give them all the options.
That's it. I love it's it's a great way to
to face it and I love that you pin the fact that you pin there.
That's great. That's.
So bad I. Love that so much.
You know, let Amy you've you've given us a a great amount of
your time and I'm I'm very thankful for John.
I don't know if you have any other, you know, I sort of want
I have one more question and John, if you have any other
questions for. Great, I want to hear what she
was going to say about the drug use and and all that, because
it's an interesting, it's there's mixed feelings within
every community about it, right? Of course, some people, you
know, it's very strange with me, like I do or I'm listen, I am,
I'm an avid believer in cannabis, all right?
I have a couple, I have a couple of things wrong with me and, you
know, a couple of talks here and there and those things go bye
bye. And they're manageable, you
know, which is yeah, yeah, which is great, which is great.
And, but like, you know, there are people now, you've probably
heard this before, you know, if you spirits, if you drink,
you're lowering your, your frequency and whatnot.
And but what I liked how you said is how some people it
brings it up, some people it brings it down.
Some people you know, and how and how you don't need it at
all. You know, I just thought it was
very interesting. So I want to hear you.
But what you were going to say because you were going to say
more and I just curious to that. Yeah.
So let's talk about alcohol. So essentially alcohol, if you
have like, especially if you're starting out, meeting ship or
starting out and feeling right, you have a single drink.
It relaxes you a little bit. So therefore you can feel things
more. That's why people become more
empathetic. They become more like, Oh my
God, I know they weren't feeling very well.
Especially if you're like a drunk girl, like that whole
thing. But then as soon as you have two
or three drinks, it's gone, right?
Because now you're inebriated, your inhibitions are gone and
you are now like a sitting in the lowest vibration of
yourself, which is kind of like this.
You're like in your body. And so from there, since you're
lowering your vibrational state, you're becoming your emotions
instead of being aware of them as a wave, you end up attracting
lower vibrational spirits that want to come and hang out with
you more just FY. And that also means other people
that are in that octave with you as well.
That's why some people only they have drinking friends and as
soon as you stop drinking, they kind of like disperse.
It's because you're not on the same vibration anymore.
That's it. You're not tuning to them.
And So what I say to kind of like get rid of alcohol
altogether. Abso fucking lutely 1000% and
people are like, well, I need it to relax.
No, you just haven't learned how to not have it.
You are in that same pattern over and over again and you
accept that that is your only pattern that you can use.
Change your fucking pattern. OK, and that's going to be a
little bit hard. And then also I have never, I
have so many people that die of suicide because of alcohol, so
many people that murder people because of alcohol, so many
people that die either in head on collisions, drunk driving,
whatever it is. That is what kills the most
people but yet is the most commonly used drug in the entire
world and is socially acceptable to be pushed on everybody
between 13 year olds all the way up to like 85 year olds.
Like why the fuck? Is true.
It's it's insane. It's insane.
We'll, we'll vilify cannabis, yes, but completely promote
vodka like it's, you know, it's, I know it completely blows my
mind and it always has, You know, things are starting to
shift a little bit, but you know, it's still, it's still.
So, hey, it's OK. Have a drink, but don't do that.
You know, it's, it's very, very odd.
I Yeah. Yes, I mean the canvas is
starting to get scary because of all the different levels and
we're we're fucking with the plant right now.
So now it's getting stronger. So therefore it's causing
symptoms of like pre onset dementia and Alzheimer's.
And so therefore people are getting used to it, they're
smoking it more. So now you're also putting
yourself in a lower vibrational state.
So at some point we just have to realize that it's OK to be
comfortable with ourselves and we all have to learn how to have
coping skills. And I think that if we all
started becoming more spiritually and learning how to
connect and learning how to really feel and not this woo woo
bullshit, then everybody would be a lot happier or a lot more
in a place of gratitude or content with their life.
And therefore we wouldn't need these things and we'd be a more
productive society and a better family anyways.
And. And and listen, I I agree.
And it's also a whole, you know, going towards the needing to do
it and the wanting, you know, and I'm not talking about
addiction with the want I'm talking about.
No, you know, like, like, oh, I need to do this.
And if I don't do this, I'm and yeah, no, it can get.
It can get you got crazy or a lot but.
Like with you, with pain management, with me with pain
management, we need stuff in order for us to kind of keep our
self level so that we don't drop down into depression, so that we
don't. So I'm not laying on the couch
24/7 and like dying. So I don't have to bust out my
wheelchair every single time I go outside.
So I don't have to use my handicap sign every time I go to
the grocery store. Like I want to walk like a
normal person. And so from that, that's OK.
But when we start going into excess and we start drugging
ourselves to get away from our feelings and understanding what
we truly are, that's the bad part.
That's the bad part. So your, your, your condition.
That's a genetic, right? It's a, it's a rare genetic
disorder. Yeah.
So it's so, so wild, you know, like, and how many people in
your family have have had it. So everybody's dead in my family
except for my mom and my sister, because they were all born in
like the 30s and the 20s. Like my dad was 56 when he had
me. So essentially, yeah, yeah.
So everybody's dead. So essentially I started having
all these issues and, you know, started getting surgeries when I
was like 2122, but nobody really knew what it was because nobody
had heard about it before. And then randomly I went in when
I was like 26 because I kept thinking that I kept having ear
infections over and over again, like and I was like what the
fuck? And so I went to the emergency
room, they did a brain scan to see if like it had gone into my
skull or something. And then they came out and they
were like, oh, you don't have an ear infection.
You have Chiari malformation. And I'm like, what is that?
And I looked it up and it's where your brain is getting
pushed out of your opening of your skull.
And it's. Yeah, there's the yes, yes, yes,
that's actually. And that actually goes back to
I'm into genetics and all that. Yes, actually, if I remember
correct, exactly a Neanderthal. Neanderthal genetics.
Yeah. And that's, that's wild.
Mental note Remember to tell John not to compare our guests,
especially the ladies, to Neanderthals.
And some of it could be like hell.
Yeah, I was in a wheelchair. I stopped.
I had to be on breathing like the whole 9 yards.
Like that's bad, bad, bad, bad. And so then I had that surgery.
And then after that, there was a nurse in my room, and she was
touching my arm. And she was like, do you have
Keller's Danlos syndrome? And I'm like, what is that?
And I looked it up and I mean, every, everything.
So I went and I got genetically tested.
Everything popped positive. And then from there, because
it's such the most classic case of his, they ended up sending me
around the United States to like, be on show so that other
geneticists could, like, see what it is.
Ended up dating one of them. That was interesting.
And that. That's weird.
But yeah. So I fall apart and then they
put me back together. Yeah, you don't know.
You don't know if he's touching you because you know he should
try to show you affection or if he's studying you.
That's what would happen. He would be like 00.
And I'm like, weird. Yeah, we.
Said so, yeah. So.
So yeah, you're basically fucked because of the past ancient
humans from back in the day. I love all that stuff, by the
way. That's just so wild.
Listen. And I, I think your attitude is
just amazing, you know, and, and, and, and I think a lot of
people really would benefit to look at you and go, hey, listen,
my life is fucked up. But guess what?
My life is beautiful at the same time.
And it's just awesome to see, you know, it's just awesome to,
to talk. You get this experience.
Thank you. Yeah, and what would you tell,
you know, thank you for your time and everything else.
And you know, I'm sure I know you have a busy schedule.
Like I just want to leave it. What would you because on that.
No, that's the perfect way to to wrap it up.
It's you are such a medical survivor.
You've seen survival on both sides of the realm, if you will.
You know what I mean? What, what would you tell people
or what's the best advice to give somebody from either
serious medical trauma or PTSD about how to get through it?
What should that? What is your message to them in
in that respect, knowing that you've seen both sides of it and
you talk to both sides? Absolutely.
Number one, you don't have to carry your trauma around like a
bag. It's not a Louis Vuitton.
You can drop it at the door and check it.
You don't have to. That trauma does not make you,
You make you. And that trauma is in the past.
It's just, it's, it's part of what made you who you are right
now. But you don't have to hold on to
it. And that may be scary in its
sense. The other thing too is remember,
everything is happening to you for a reason.
But because we want to know about it now, we get upset as to
why we don't know the answer. But it could be that I know this
is going to sound weird, but it could be that you got your leg
blown off because there's people that you meet, you know, five
years down the line that want you to help them in Special
Olympics. So you can help train kids,
right? And you're like the most
motivational person. So maybe that is the reason why
it happened. So you can help these other five
kids not kill themselves because of their genetic condition that
they have and they want that. You don't know the answer.
You just have to go through and realize that life is beautiful.
This is just an experience. And then from there you go back
to the only thing I can call it is God or Source or the Matrix
or whatever it is to just enjoy your time.
And if if you need meds, take meds, you know that's OK.
Enjoy the beautiful moments, right?
Yes, exactly. Because they're fleeting,
they're quick, but every single beautiful moment leads to
another one. And even in those trials and
even in those tribulations, that can also be a beautiful moment.
And if you step outside of it kind of like instead of like
being knee deep in it, you step outside of it and you look at it
what it is and actually becomes very entertaining.
So, so real quick before before we go where if the viewer
listening right now and watching right now wants to find you,
where is the best? What should they check out?
The links? The best thing to catch you out
on? All of those things.
So my username on every platform is the THE Boleski BALESKY.
That's my dad's last name. So that's my maiden last name.
He was just FY. He was the last boy and the last
family member that came over from Russia.
They fled. Nobody had any other boys.
And so and I had I am the last of Seven Sisters.
So when he died, I was like, I want to make sure that like this
name leaves on. So then I went through and I
trademarked it with the US government.
And so now it's always here. There you go.
That's why that's my username. But yeah, if you want to look me
up on social media, the Baleski Experience, all the way across
the board, that's YouTube, that's Twitter, that's TikTok,
that's Instagram. And then also you can do the
Baleski Experience, which is my website, but you can also get to
that through any single one of my profiles as well, OK?
We'll. Definitely.
We'll definitely put up there. Amy, thank you so much.
I really appreciate it. We appreciate your time.
This is really fun. I hope you had.
Some fun doing it it was. Great I did I did if you ever
need me again, please let me know it.
It is so much fun to talk to y'all because it is it is How do
I say this? I love doing podcasts.
I love doing shows, but I also get into shows where they're
like, tell me how you quantum healed you'll.
Yeah, you know. And I'm like.
Sorry. No, we want to know like we want
to hear. Like for me, I am interested in
figuring out like what the hell John is talking to when he's
walking around. You know, we talked to locations
and cemeteries and it's like, I want to know.
And the best way to do it is to talk to people like yourself and
others who experience things to try to get, it's a data
collection, right? It's an experience collection.
And what is it that you experience?
What is he experienced to maybe trying to paint a picture for
people that have followed John and follow us or starting to
follow us about what our spirits?
What are we talking about? Can I?
Answer one thing for that. So I love going to cemeteries
because I live in the middle of nowhere, in between like 5
different little ghost towns out here in East Texas.
And the reason why I put this location is because of that,
essentially. And so I go out into the woods
by myself. My husband doesn't know where
the hell I'm at. And so people go, you know, oh,
are spirits just hanging out in cemeteries?
Well, maybe a couple, like one or two they do because that's
the last place that they left their body.
Maybe somebody fell off a roof, maybe somebody hung themselves.
And so they're hanging around because that's the only place
that they exist in the world. When you go to a cemetery and
you read a headstone, that's the only place, like I said, that
that person exists. Well, so when you're calling
that forward, Mary Sue, Martha, blah, blah, blah, you're
connecting with their energy and their vibration, and you can
pick up on a part of them that way.
So sometimes you're talking to memories or experiencing that.
Sometimes you are pulling forward a spirit from this other
area. Sometimes you're talking to a
spirit that's been hanging out the cemetery as well.
Yeah, that's what happens. Yeah, I mean, listen, the data
coincides with that. I can go.
And now, interesting enough, I don't say the name on the
headstones. I wait for the Spirit to tell me
who they are. I will, I will get, I'll get
all, all different types of spirits.
I'll get spirits that aren't around, you know, that aren't
from the cemetery. I'll get ones visiting, looking
for for loved ones, looking for people they knew.
I'll get all different types. It's not just, you know, stuck
to that cemetery. It's correct from all over.
You know, you can have one spirit buried in another place
and they'll still come looking for Mary Sue, for example.
Yes, yes. Now this is what I want you to
do. This is what I do sometimes on
the weekends. Obviously not like the last
three weekends, but I like to go to older cemeteries from like
probably 1850 and below. Now mind you, I'm in Texas,
right? So we don't.
We got found in an 18. 20 That's all I do.
I don't I don't do newer cemeteries for out of respect
for the living. Yeah, I agree.
That's exactly why I do it as well.
There's too many feelings to go along with that.
And so I. Want you to?
Go to one of these places, bring a notepad and like sit next to a
headstone and focus on it, call it forward and then just see
what you start to get and then write it down.
And then later on, maybe a week or two days later or whatever it
is, go online, go to likenewspapers.com, see if you
can find their information or something and then see if what
you're getting matches. And that's kind of how you flex
that muscle and grow that muscle.
You're like. It's like, hey, let me see what
I can, OK? Yeah, that's a really good way
to. Do I think you should do?
That too. Garry's been looking for so many
different ways to test to see if I.
Test this to test this guy. Yeah, yeah, yeah, for sure.
I I think, you know, here's one thing, Amy, too.
We say I'm sorry. We keep.
No, we keep. Talking for hours.
We keep finding cool things to talk about, but like one thing
we've tested because John, you know, John, when you jumped off,
I told her about, you know, the idea of memories and the theory
that we play in, in the world we play in.
We, we believe we have spoken to two different versions of the
same spirit, a younger version and an older spirit.
And we, we try to trick one once by telling them I was somebody
else in the one location to see if they called me something else
in a different one, but they knew who I was.
Like they said, they said I was uncle.
And we told this when I was his brother.
We told the other one I was the uncle, but then this one knew.
And we just to see if they're separated or connected, the two
different ages. So it's, it's it's, I don't know
if like if you've ever experienced anything like. 2.
Different versions of the same thing.
Yes, they can see everything from the top down.
So they know that you're in both.
They see it all, they see the whole thing.
They're not in just the spot with you, they're not in just
the spot with John. They're over the whole thing.
And so they're like, what is this dumb ass doing?
Why is he fucking lying to me? Like what is going on?
Like that's essentially what goes on.
He's like, of course, he's just like what?
That's the way it feels. And yes, when I go through and I
I'm channeling somebody, especially if it's like a kid,
like maybe I'm channeling like a 5 year old boy, right?
There's a reason why I'm saying this as well.
And so I'm going through and I'm channeling him and he shows up
and the first thing he shows up as he shows up like 22, right?
And I'm like, weird. I was like, you lost a son.
She's like, yeah. And I'm like, I was like, he's
showing up as like 22, I said, but he was younger, right?
And she goes, yeah. And as soon as I say that, he
like, morphs himself down in my brain is like being 5 or 6 or he
like compares my son to a time, you know, like younger, like a
memory from him. That's what they do.
And. And I go weird.
So he's like 5 or 6. She goes, yeah.
So he's like playing out both of these ages, but it's because he
died when he was 5 or 6, but now he would be aged up and he'd be
like 22. Just FY.
All right. Well, look, that's that's sort
of speaks to it sort of goes right along with what we're
trying to do, John. I mean, that's a good to have
other to have that experience happen to somebody else is
always it's validating. And if you ever want to, I am
planning on coming up to New York to do my next big event.
Like that whole thing. And I have to come up there to
go ghost hunting as well. And then I also have to go to
the Bel Air house in Ohio. And I told them that they can
lock me in that upstairs room because I don't give a shit.
And I have reached out to Matt Rife and I said sit me with the
Annabelle doll. It's fucking stupid.
And so because we're friends online, so yeah.
So if you ever wanted to do anything like that, please let
us know. Where in New York are you going
to be? I'm going to go to Buffalo.
OK, that's far free, a little bit far free, but.
That's, that's OK. But let me tell you, I'm in
Texas. It takes me, I have to drive 5
hours to go to my doctor's appointment.
New York is like a heart, right? So it doesn't matter the drive.
We'll definitely stay in touch. We'll definitely stay in touch
with Amy. This was a real, this was a real
treat. We're honored to have you on.
We really appreciate you taking the time For us.
It was it was fun. It's fun to get your whole
perspective and and hear your story.
I mean, your story is phenomenal.
It is. Thank you, thank you.
I love you guys and if you need me let me know.
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