1 00:00:00,800 --> 00:00:03,400 Hello and welcome. Thank you so much for listening. 2 00:00:03,900 --> 00:00:09,500 My name is Renee Sills, I'll be your guide and host for the next 3 00:00:09,500 --> 00:00:12,200 little bit of time in this somatic meditation. 4 00:00:13,200 --> 00:00:17,100 Somatic meditation is a style or an approach to meditation that 5 00:00:17,100 --> 00:00:21,900 begins with the body. It is an inner inquiry into our 6 00:00:21,900 --> 00:00:25,300 felt sense. It's a way to access places in 7 00:00:25,300 --> 00:00:27,600 our unconscious and subconscious. 8 00:00:28,200 --> 00:00:32,800 It's creative and all Entry and guided visualization. 9 00:00:32,800 --> 00:00:37,000 As often as I use invitations for touch, or for movement or 10 00:00:37,000 --> 00:00:40,700 physical awareness, somatic meditation can be practiced at 11 00:00:40,700 --> 00:00:44,100 any time. It's something that you can give 12 00:00:44,100 --> 00:00:46,400 space and time to like, you are doing now. 13 00:00:46,400 --> 00:00:51,900 And these spaces and times than become points for your 14 00:00:51,900 --> 00:00:55,600 reflection in memory, and you can draw upon them at any other 15 00:00:55,600 --> 00:00:58,800 moment and you can incorporate somatic meditation into anything 16 00:00:58,800 --> 00:01:02,100 that you do. So, Attic is a word that means 17 00:01:02,100 --> 00:01:05,600 of the body and so as long as you're in your body you can 18 00:01:05,700 --> 00:01:10,800 meditate with it, you can come deeply into your felt sense and 19 00:01:12,100 --> 00:01:16,700 there's a lot of wisdom. So the wisdom of many, many 20 00:01:16,700 --> 00:01:23,200 Traditions points to this inner landscape as being a reflection 21 00:01:23,200 --> 00:01:26,700 of the outer landscape. And of course, we know now 22 00:01:26,700 --> 00:01:31,500 through quantum physics and science That a lot of what 23 00:01:31,500 --> 00:01:36,700 happens in the molecules and the DNA of our bodies is reflected 24 00:01:36,700 --> 00:01:40,800 and replicated in the molecules and DNA of other bodies. 25 00:01:40,800 --> 00:01:44,400 And in the phenomenal world and the wisdom of yoga, we learn 26 00:01:44,400 --> 00:01:49,500 that we can understand the mystery of the universe by 27 00:01:49,500 --> 00:01:53,800 seeking to understand ourselves. And that's really what somatic 28 00:01:53,800 --> 00:01:57,200 meditation is. It is listening. 29 00:01:57,300 --> 00:02:01,400 It's deep listening. So today's meditation Station is 30 00:02:01,400 --> 00:02:03,600 the beginning of a series of meditations. 31 00:02:03,600 --> 00:02:07,300 That I'll be offering throughout the course of 2019 and I'm 32 00:02:07,300 --> 00:02:11,000 recording this meditation on January, fifth. 2019, the year 33 00:02:11,000 --> 00:02:15,100 has just begun today is a new moon and also a solar eclipse in 34 00:02:15,100 --> 00:02:19,800 the sign Capricorn. I am an astrologer and a lot of 35 00:02:19,800 --> 00:02:22,300 my meditations are based in astrology. 36 00:02:22,300 --> 00:02:25,500 Thinking about what's happening at the current moment of 37 00:02:25,500 --> 00:02:27,400 Consciousness. So if you're interested in 38 00:02:27,400 --> 00:02:31,400 learning more about this moment, I just finished Creating the 39 00:02:31,400 --> 00:02:35,600 2019 look ahead and you can find that link to this meditation or 40 00:02:35,600 --> 00:02:40,100 from embodied astrology.com. 2019. 41 00:02:40,100 --> 00:02:44,000 Here we are. It is an important moment on the 42 00:02:44,000 --> 00:02:46,800 planet. Humanity has reached a Tipping 43 00:02:46,800 --> 00:02:52,400 Point in terms of climate, in terms of human rights, in terms 44 00:02:52,400 --> 00:02:57,900 of our relationships with one another, we're really in a 45 00:02:57,900 --> 00:03:01,100 moment of deep change and it is a precipice of something. 46 00:03:01,100 --> 00:03:04,700 And we don't yet know which direction it's going to go but 47 00:03:04,700 --> 00:03:10,200 we will find out in the next year or two years And which 48 00:03:10,200 --> 00:03:13,500 direction we go. I don't know, but I have a lot 49 00:03:13,500 --> 00:03:17,700 of Hope and I also have a lot of fear and I think that's probably 50 00:03:17,700 --> 00:03:19,500 true for most people at this time. 51 00:03:21,100 --> 00:03:25,100 I know that Collective change is birthed from the change in 52 00:03:25,100 --> 00:03:29,300 individuals and any offering that I have in these meditations 53 00:03:29,400 --> 00:03:33,900 is meant for that to turn the tide towards what I believe. 54 00:03:35,100 --> 00:03:39,100 We really need to change into which is a global culture. 55 00:03:39,500 --> 00:03:44,400 Of compassion, dismantling of borders. 56 00:03:44,800 --> 00:03:48,300 And basically it, considering ourselves AS Global Citizens who 57 00:03:48,300 --> 00:03:53,600 are all working for resilience and sustainability, not just for 58 00:03:53,600 --> 00:03:56,700 ourselves and our families and immediate communities. 59 00:03:56,700 --> 00:04:01,300 But for the planet itself, So anything that I offer is coming 60 00:04:01,300 --> 00:04:06,200 from that space, I'm also a feminist I identify as queer. 61 00:04:06,600 --> 00:04:10,000 I'm really interested in dismantling oppression and 62 00:04:10,000 --> 00:04:12,900 oppressive structures. And so throughout this year, I'm 63 00:04:12,900 --> 00:04:15,800 going to be using the space to look at a lot of these 64 00:04:15,800 --> 00:04:18,300 structures. As they've been internalized in 65 00:04:18,300 --> 00:04:22,700 me and in our bodies, and today's meditation is on 66 00:04:22,700 --> 00:04:27,400 positioning and it is a meditation on arrival, where are 67 00:04:27,400 --> 00:04:29,300 we right now? And that's going to have a 68 00:04:29,600 --> 00:04:33,900 Answer for everybody. So you might want to have a pen 69 00:04:33,900 --> 00:04:36,800 and paper nearby. I'm going to ask some questions 70 00:04:36,800 --> 00:04:39,000 and give some space for reflection, and it may be 71 00:04:39,000 --> 00:04:43,000 helpful to write something down. So feel free to pause this 72 00:04:43,000 --> 00:04:46,900 recording and grab that if you need it, and then whenever 73 00:04:47,000 --> 00:04:53,600 you're ready, we'll begin. And let's begin in a comfortable 74 00:04:53,600 --> 00:04:57,700 situation. So you can lie down, you can set 75 00:04:57,700 --> 00:05:00,900 up, you can move around. However, your body needs to be 76 00:05:00,900 --> 00:05:03,100 right now, is the way that it should be. 77 00:05:04,300 --> 00:05:10,100 And please feel free to use any kinds of furniture or props that 78 00:05:10,100 --> 00:05:11,200 you have. You can make yourself 79 00:05:11,200 --> 00:05:13,000 comfortable with pillows and blankets. 80 00:05:13,000 --> 00:05:16,200 I myself am sitting on a chair at this moment, so do whatever 81 00:05:16,200 --> 00:05:25,900 you need to do. and then, when you're ready, Go ahead and start 82 00:05:25,900 --> 00:05:36,700 to take some deep breaths. Breath is pretty much. 83 00:05:37,100 --> 00:05:41,000 The only thing that we all have in common with one another. 84 00:05:42,200 --> 00:05:48,800 So we live in bodies and bodies, breathe Breath is something that 85 00:05:48,800 --> 00:05:51,800 we have in common, not just with other humans, but with other 86 00:05:51,800 --> 00:05:56,600 animals and with plant life, and even in a larger sense with the 87 00:05:56,600 --> 00:06:01,800 planet itself, there are larger phases and cycles of inhaling 88 00:06:01,800 --> 00:06:04,200 and expansion, and exhaling and contraction. 89 00:06:06,500 --> 00:06:11,800 So, as you breathe, as you inhale, and as you exhale, Just 90 00:06:11,800 --> 00:06:16,300 feel what that is. Feel what it is to be the 91 00:06:16,300 --> 00:06:25,800 recipient of your inhale. Feel what it is to contribute to 92 00:06:25,800 --> 00:06:35,100 the atmosphere with your exhale. With your inhalations to your 93 00:06:35,100 --> 00:06:38,700 taking into your body, the atmosphere around you. 94 00:06:38,700 --> 00:06:45,200 The air around you. With your exhales, you're 95 00:06:45,200 --> 00:06:49,200 releasing into the atmosphere around you into the air around 96 00:06:49,200 --> 00:06:52,700 you. And of course, air and 97 00:06:52,700 --> 00:06:59,400 atmosphere move. And the inhales of one person 98 00:06:59,400 --> 00:07:01,600 become the exhales of someone else. 99 00:07:02,700 --> 00:07:07,100 The exhales of plants provide our inhales are exhales provide 100 00:07:07,100 --> 00:07:09,900 their inhales. So the not on and on and on and 101 00:07:09,900 --> 00:07:14,600 on. So, when you take a breath in, 102 00:07:14,600 --> 00:07:19,800 what are you breathing in? When you take a breath out, what 103 00:07:19,800 --> 00:07:28,200 are you breathing out? And you might imagine now that 104 00:07:28,200 --> 00:07:31,900 as you inhale, you're inhaling the place that you're in. 105 00:07:34,100 --> 00:07:37,800 You can just start with your very immediate location. 106 00:07:38,600 --> 00:07:41,200 You're inhaling the air directly around your body. 107 00:07:45,800 --> 00:07:48,400 And as you exhale, your body is releasing. 108 00:07:50,300 --> 00:07:53,300 And the air that you breathe out, Swirls and filters into the 109 00:07:53,300 --> 00:08:00,600 space around you. You're breathing in the energy 110 00:08:00,600 --> 00:08:04,500 of the room that you're in or the space that you're occupying. 111 00:08:06,600 --> 00:08:10,400 What's the vibe of this place? How does it feel? 112 00:08:12,300 --> 00:08:21,400 Receive that into your body. When you exhale, notice how your 113 00:08:21,400 --> 00:08:27,600 presence here changes the vibe. Maybe you are in a room that 114 00:08:27,600 --> 00:08:32,000 you've designed. You have to become this vibe in 115 00:08:32,000 --> 00:08:33,700 a lot of ways, you've created it. 116 00:08:35,299 --> 00:08:40,400 Maybe you're outside and your presence in the outside, space 117 00:08:40,700 --> 00:08:46,700 changes, the way that air flows. Changes the way that animals and 118 00:08:46,700 --> 00:08:52,200 people move. Brings awareness reduces 119 00:08:52,200 --> 00:08:58,600 awareness. So, as you inhale, allow 120 00:08:58,600 --> 00:09:05,000 yourself to be affected. And as you exhale acknowledge 121 00:09:05,000 --> 00:09:17,200 that you in turn affect. Bring your attention into your 122 00:09:17,200 --> 00:09:22,100 body as a general space. And you might choose to look at 123 00:09:22,100 --> 00:09:28,600 your body or to use your hands as well to touch your body if 124 00:09:28,600 --> 00:09:32,400 you're lying down, or if you're around tree or something that 125 00:09:32,400 --> 00:09:36,500 you want to lean on, you can use other bodies to inform your 126 00:09:36,500 --> 00:09:40,000 body, you might roll on the floor and feel your body weight. 127 00:09:40,100 --> 00:09:42,600 You might push into the back of your chair and feel the 128 00:09:42,600 --> 00:09:45,200 resistance of one form against another. 129 00:09:48,100 --> 00:09:50,700 And then wherever you happen to be feeling your body. 130 00:09:50,700 --> 00:09:55,600 Pause what your attention stay there, and then try and breathe 131 00:09:55,600 --> 00:10:01,900 into that space. And of course your lungs are 132 00:10:01,900 --> 00:10:05,900 where they are and so literally you may or may not be able to 133 00:10:05,900 --> 00:10:09,300 breathe into the space where your attention is but 134 00:10:09,300 --> 00:10:12,100 figuratively you can breathe into any space in your body. 135 00:10:13,400 --> 00:10:16,500 And so, wherever your attention is allow it to be a recipient of 136 00:10:16,508 --> 00:10:21,300 your breath. And as you inhale, you can feel 137 00:10:21,300 --> 00:10:23,700 the way that breath moves into a certain place that brings 138 00:10:23,700 --> 00:10:28,100 awareness. As you exhale, you can just ask 139 00:10:28,100 --> 00:10:32,500 for relaxation, a softening letting go. 140 00:10:35,600 --> 00:10:39,700 Can you find the expansion and contention condensing of your 141 00:10:39,700 --> 00:10:43,000 inhales and exhales in this space in your body? 142 00:10:55,500 --> 00:11:00,600 And then release that. And bring your attention to your 143 00:11:00,600 --> 00:11:04,500 body as a whole. And if you have a strong mental 144 00:11:04,500 --> 00:11:07,000 image, you might just see yourself in the shape that 145 00:11:07,000 --> 00:11:11,400 you're in right now. Using your hands and your touch 146 00:11:11,400 --> 00:11:16,300 is a great way to just brush over your skin and of caress, 147 00:11:16,300 --> 00:11:18,800 your body feel its shape feel its boundaries. 148 00:11:18,800 --> 00:11:24,900 And container, as you touch your body, stay in the literal, If 149 00:11:24,900 --> 00:11:28,400 you notice that your mind jumps off into a story about your 150 00:11:28,400 --> 00:11:32,400 body, what it feels like what it looks like etcetera, call it 151 00:11:32,400 --> 00:11:34,600 back. We're just thinking about the 152 00:11:34,600 --> 00:11:38,500 literal. Can you feel your skin, can you 153 00:11:38,500 --> 00:11:42,200 feel your bones? Can you feel your parameters? 154 00:11:43,500 --> 00:11:49,300 This is where the idea of you, begins and ends. your skin marks 155 00:11:49,300 --> 00:11:54,000 the place, where others, and therefore you perceive yourself 156 00:11:54,000 --> 00:11:59,900 as a separate being And your skin is the container for your 157 00:11:59,900 --> 00:12:03,000 inner body for all of your vital functions. 158 00:12:03,500 --> 00:12:06,900 All of what keeps you alive, your circulation, your breath, 159 00:12:06,900 --> 00:12:10,800 your digestion. And also for your inner 160 00:12:10,800 --> 00:12:13,500 experiences, all your feelings and your thoughts. 161 00:12:19,400 --> 00:12:22,600 And then, as you breathe, can you imagine, can you feel your 162 00:12:22,600 --> 00:12:28,700 entire body expanding, and as you exhale, imagine and feel 163 00:12:28,700 --> 00:12:34,200 your entire body condensing. You can condense into whatever 164 00:12:34,200 --> 00:12:38,300 it is that feels like the center and so that might be the center 165 00:12:38,600 --> 00:12:41,600 behind your belly button. It might be the center at your 166 00:12:41,600 --> 00:12:44,600 spine. Might be the center around your 167 00:12:44,600 --> 00:12:47,700 skeleton. The skeletal outline or maybe 168 00:12:47,700 --> 00:12:52,500 the center of every cell and then, as you inhale, feel all of 169 00:12:52,500 --> 00:12:57,200 the tissues in your body expanding, And as you exhale, 170 00:12:57,200 --> 00:12:59,400 all of the tissues in your body condensing. 171 00:13:11,400 --> 00:13:15,600 So the remainder of this meditation, I'm going to be 172 00:13:15,600 --> 00:13:21,300 inviting some imaginations and voyages to other places other 173 00:13:21,300 --> 00:13:24,900 people other times. And if you get lost in the 174 00:13:24,900 --> 00:13:28,000 meditation, just come back to your body, come back to this 175 00:13:28,500 --> 00:13:32,000 presence, the feeling of your own touch the expansion and 176 00:13:32,000 --> 00:13:44,200 condensing of your breath. So now, let's bring hands or 177 00:13:44,200 --> 00:13:50,400 awareness to your belly button. One thing I'll just say before 178 00:13:50,400 --> 00:13:54,400 we begin as well as that if at any point this meditation brings 179 00:13:54,400 --> 00:13:58,000 up a lot of feelings and if the feelings are too much to handle 180 00:13:58,000 --> 00:14:01,500 in the moment just pause and again, come back to your body, 181 00:14:01,500 --> 00:14:05,200 come back to this simple just being with yourself. 182 00:14:08,600 --> 00:14:11,200 All right, so bring your attention to your belly button 183 00:14:12,100 --> 00:14:15,900 and if it's all right, wherever you are touch it. 184 00:14:16,200 --> 00:14:21,100 Touch the shape of your own belly button and then breathe 185 00:14:21,100 --> 00:14:24,000 into your belly button. Try and let your belly soften 186 00:14:24,000 --> 00:14:27,700 and expand as you inhale and as you exhale, feel your belly, 187 00:14:27,700 --> 00:14:33,400 drop back in. This is the place in your body 188 00:14:33,400 --> 00:14:40,200 where you had the first connection, So you and your 189 00:14:40,200 --> 00:14:45,600 biological mother share this. Space. 190 00:14:45,600 --> 00:14:52,700 This conduit and from her body, you received nourishment, And 191 00:14:52,700 --> 00:14:56,100 through this space through your umbilicus, You released by 192 00:14:56,100 --> 00:14:59,300 products. So when you are in the womb, you 193 00:14:59,300 --> 00:15:03,000 didn't breathe and your body released waste products, of 194 00:15:03,000 --> 00:15:06,700 course. Through peeing and stuff into 195 00:15:06,700 --> 00:15:10,400 your amniotic fluids, but a lot of what was released was 196 00:15:10,400 --> 00:15:13,200 released through the umbilicus, back into your mother's body and 197 00:15:13,200 --> 00:15:15,100 she processed that waste for you. 198 00:15:16,200 --> 00:15:19,500 It's pretty amazing. What mothers do and all that 199 00:15:19,500 --> 00:15:21,800 they give and all that they process. 200 00:15:24,400 --> 00:15:27,200 Regardless of the relationship that you've had with your 201 00:15:27,200 --> 00:15:32,100 biological mother. See if you can just breathe into 202 00:15:32,100 --> 00:15:38,400 that. Into that first connection of 203 00:15:38,500 --> 00:15:51,400 sharing and assimilation. Notice anything that arises for 204 00:15:51,400 --> 00:15:54,600 you and any associations, any feelings in your body, any 205 00:15:54,600 --> 00:16:08,200 emotional feelings. In the weeks and months and 206 00:16:08,200 --> 00:16:12,800 hours before you were born, you were a recipient of your 207 00:16:12,800 --> 00:16:16,100 mother's early, excuse me of your mother's environments. 208 00:16:16,100 --> 00:16:18,800 So you're early environments were her environment. 209 00:16:20,300 --> 00:16:23,000 Feelings that she was having sound, she was hearing 210 00:16:23,000 --> 00:16:28,500 movements, she was doing the first sense that we develop is 211 00:16:28,500 --> 00:16:34,000 the sense of movement actually is feeling ourselves kind of in 212 00:16:34,000 --> 00:16:39,500 the amniotic see and gravity shifting and we feel ourselves 213 00:16:40,100 --> 00:16:42,600 kind of a float and moving around. 214 00:16:42,600 --> 00:16:45,600 And we bump up against barriers of the uterine wall. 215 00:16:46,000 --> 00:16:51,300 We push against it and the pushing against Andrey's turns 216 00:16:51,300 --> 00:16:54,900 into the strengthening and the knowing of our own bodies. 217 00:16:55,700 --> 00:17:00,000 And as our bodies develop, we push more, we explore where we 218 00:17:00,000 --> 00:17:09,900 are. We move more and then imagine 219 00:17:09,900 --> 00:17:16,099 that these early experiences this moment in time when you 220 00:17:16,099 --> 00:17:20,000 were held in the body of your mother, when you were directly 221 00:17:20,000 --> 00:17:25,500 connected to her, Imagine that that still exists and now your 222 00:17:25,500 --> 00:17:29,500 mother is a baby and yes this is an imagination, it's not what 223 00:17:29,500 --> 00:17:33,600 actually happens. So you are in the inner body, 224 00:17:34,000 --> 00:17:36,600 the internal experience of your mother and she is in the 225 00:17:36,600 --> 00:17:40,200 internal experience of her mother and the connection that 226 00:17:40,200 --> 00:17:43,800 she had to her grandmother. And of course you've heard this 227 00:17:43,800 --> 00:17:49,300 before but all female babies are born with all the eggs they'll 228 00:17:49,300 --> 00:17:53,800 ever have. So If your mother was born with 229 00:17:53,800 --> 00:17:57,900 all the eggs she would ever had, and one of those was going to be 230 00:17:57,900 --> 00:18:03,200 you, there's some kind of cellular memory that you have of 231 00:18:03,200 --> 00:18:05,000 being alive in your grandmother's body. 232 00:18:06,000 --> 00:18:07,400 Okay? So that's what we're imagining 233 00:18:07,400 --> 00:18:11,700 right now is the emotional experiences that your 234 00:18:11,700 --> 00:18:15,200 grandmother was having when she was pregnant with your mom with 235 00:18:15,200 --> 00:18:23,100 your biological mother. And let's just breathe into that 236 00:18:23,100 --> 00:18:27,000 as resonance. And notice What feelings come up 237 00:18:27,000 --> 00:18:30,100 in your belly and in your womb space. 238 00:18:30,100 --> 00:18:34,300 So your chest space. And for all of us, regardless of 239 00:18:34,300 --> 00:18:37,200 our sex, regardless of gender, regardless of genitals and 240 00:18:37,200 --> 00:18:40,500 reproductive organs. This part of the body is the 241 00:18:40,500 --> 00:18:44,100 part of the body that energetically holds others, it's 242 00:18:44,100 --> 00:18:47,700 where we get corded and tied energetically and emotionally 243 00:18:47,700 --> 00:18:50,500 with other people. So as I'm talking about these 244 00:18:50,500 --> 00:18:53,500 relationships, I'm imagining that there's probably stuff 245 00:18:53,500 --> 00:18:55,700 that's coming up. Up pretty much for everyone. 246 00:18:58,000 --> 00:19:00,500 And whatever that stuff is, I don't know, it's some shirts the 247 00:19:00,500 --> 00:19:03,600 whole range, but can you just breathe into it? 248 00:19:03,600 --> 00:19:05,700 Can you soften it? Can you greet it? 249 00:19:07,000 --> 00:19:09,600 If you need to move in and out of awareness with the present 250 00:19:09,600 --> 00:19:12,400 moment, just noticing your environment, feeling your body 251 00:19:12,400 --> 00:19:16,500 now and then coming back into the memory, that's fine. 252 00:19:31,800 --> 00:19:36,700 And then, let's turn our attention towards the 253 00:19:37,600 --> 00:19:40,900 inheritances from our biological fathers. 254 00:19:43,200 --> 00:19:46,700 And of course, we're growing in the bodies of our mothers. 255 00:19:47,000 --> 00:19:52,300 But half of our DNA comes from the paternal source and whether 256 00:19:52,300 --> 00:19:57,900 or not your experience of your biological father was one that 257 00:19:57,900 --> 00:20:03,200 was present or loving or not his instincts. 258 00:20:03,200 --> 00:20:10,800 His traits Etc exist in you and they're alive in you. so let 259 00:20:10,800 --> 00:20:16,600 your attention spread out into all of your being Into your 260 00:20:16,600 --> 00:20:21,300 skin, into your bones and to all the soft tissues into your 261 00:20:21,300 --> 00:20:32,600 mannerisms and into your habits. You might know immediately or it 262 00:20:32,600 --> 00:20:36,900 may be less of a mental concept and more of a felt sense. 263 00:20:38,100 --> 00:20:41,200 Of your relationship and connection to your biological 264 00:20:41,200 --> 00:20:48,200 father and what he passed down. I recently met my half-brother 265 00:20:48,200 --> 00:20:53,100 who's my dad's son and they've never met and it's just really 266 00:20:53,100 --> 00:20:58,300 amazing to realize how much genetics are at play. 267 00:20:59,500 --> 00:21:02,200 My half-brother is the spitting image of my paternal. 268 00:21:02,200 --> 00:21:06,900 Uncle looks a lot like my dad did at his age and there's so 269 00:21:06,900 --> 00:21:11,800 many similarities and my brother never grew up with that part of 270 00:21:12,000 --> 00:21:14,900 his family. But the similarities are there 271 00:21:14,900 --> 00:21:19,800 at the Tendencies are there. so, whether or not, you know, who 272 00:21:19,800 --> 00:21:23,500 this person is, or was And you feel him. 273 00:21:23,500 --> 00:21:27,100 Can you feel the way that he lives in you now? 274 00:21:34,200 --> 00:21:45,900 And imagining back to the fathers of your father and the 275 00:21:45,908 --> 00:21:57,400 paternal lines. And then you might allow your 276 00:21:57,400 --> 00:22:01,500 mind to imagine and I see this very clearly in my imagination 277 00:22:02,400 --> 00:22:07,400 as like a fractal. And the way that our lines and 278 00:22:07,400 --> 00:22:12,400 lineages come from small rivulets and then stream into 279 00:22:12,400 --> 00:22:15,300 these, you know, rivers of our own lives. 280 00:22:16,200 --> 00:22:21,200 And so, in your body right now, you contain, not only the DNA of 281 00:22:21,200 --> 00:22:24,700 your mother and father the emotional experiences of your 282 00:22:24,700 --> 00:22:28,500 mother and your grandmother. But all of the collected 283 00:22:28,500 --> 00:22:33,700 memories of your mothers fathers and your fathers mothers and 284 00:22:33,700 --> 00:22:39,400 back and back and back. Back that with each generation 285 00:22:39,400 --> 00:22:43,200 there is a passing down and it's not everything but it's a lot. 286 00:22:45,400 --> 00:22:48,500 It's not all the stories but it's the feelings of the 287 00:22:48,500 --> 00:22:50,600 stories. It's their residue. 288 00:22:51,200 --> 00:22:56,900 It's what gets retained. if there were people in your 289 00:22:56,900 --> 00:23:02,100 family's history who lived through a famine that memory is 290 00:23:02,100 --> 00:23:11,500 stored in your body somewhere, So, can you imagine this mapping 291 00:23:12,300 --> 00:23:15,700 of the mini streams that are pouring into the river of you? 292 00:23:17,600 --> 00:23:20,700 And you might know a lot of the stories you might not know any 293 00:23:20,700 --> 00:23:32,400 of them, you can imagine. You can feel and breathe in and 294 00:23:32,400 --> 00:23:37,100 feel the way that you collect them all and then breathe out. 295 00:23:39,700 --> 00:23:45,200 And feel how you as a product of all of your influences create in 296 00:23:45,200 --> 00:23:49,800 the world and you maybe a parent, you might have created 297 00:23:49,800 --> 00:23:56,100 another human being who's going to pass on these stories and 298 00:23:56,100 --> 00:23:58,800 memories as well and embody them. 299 00:24:00,600 --> 00:24:06,000 You might be an artist or a builder or an inventor. 300 00:24:07,200 --> 00:24:12,400 You might be someone who works with people is in relations. 301 00:24:14,500 --> 00:24:19,600 All the ways that you influence the world around, you are ways 302 00:24:19,600 --> 00:24:22,400 that you have been influenced by the world around you. 303 00:24:25,200 --> 00:24:29,100 Your preferences. Your privileges. 304 00:24:31,100 --> 00:24:34,600 What are the ways that you've been positioned by the people 305 00:24:34,600 --> 00:24:41,200 who came before you and this is where I'm going to invite you to 306 00:24:41,200 --> 00:24:44,000 either name. Things out loud. 307 00:24:45,200 --> 00:24:51,100 Or write things down. And the general question right 308 00:24:51,100 --> 00:24:57,400 now is what did you inherit? And you may have inherited what 309 00:24:57,400 --> 00:25:00,300 we often think of with inheritance, which is money or 310 00:25:00,300 --> 00:25:03,700 privilege resource. You may have also inherited 311 00:25:03,700 --> 00:25:09,700 debt. You've inherited anything that's 312 00:25:09,700 --> 00:25:13,400 associated with your cultural or ethnic identities. 313 00:25:16,100 --> 00:25:20,100 You've inherited the history of the country that you are born in 314 00:25:20,100 --> 00:25:21,600 and the countries where you live. 315 00:25:25,700 --> 00:25:30,400 You've inherited memories of your people embodied memories. 316 00:25:33,800 --> 00:25:39,400 You've inherited belief systems about your priorities about what 317 00:25:39,400 --> 00:25:42,900 is good and what is bad? What is useful and what is not? 318 00:25:45,100 --> 00:25:49,900 So, take a few moments. if you wish pause the recording and 319 00:25:50,000 --> 00:25:54,000 right on what you have inherited, And then when you 320 00:25:54,000 --> 00:26:00,000 ready come back and I'm just going to keep going for now. so, 321 00:26:00,000 --> 00:26:05,200 as you feel all of the layers of inheritance, Can you feel the 322 00:26:05,200 --> 00:26:10,600 way that its residue that these moments of history and the 323 00:26:10,600 --> 00:26:17,500 accumulation of the momentum of all of your associations and the 324 00:26:17,500 --> 00:26:20,800 people in the places that you've come from have collected and 325 00:26:20,800 --> 00:26:26,900 paused and stalled in time? And, of course, now, you should 326 00:26:26,900 --> 00:26:30,700 have said this earlier, your biological inheritance through 327 00:26:30,700 --> 00:26:34,300 the DNA, and through the memories is very strong. 328 00:26:34,300 --> 00:26:37,700 It's very real, but if you are a person who is adopted, or who's 329 00:26:37,700 --> 00:26:40,800 lived a lot of your life with and not a family, that's not a 330 00:26:40,808 --> 00:26:44,500 biological origin. We're so sensitive, you've 331 00:26:44,500 --> 00:26:46,200 inherited a lot from them as well. 332 00:26:46,600 --> 00:26:49,500 And I am sorry, I didn't acknowledge that earlier, it's 333 00:26:49,500 --> 00:26:54,900 important. The ways that we inherit our 334 00:26:55,000 --> 00:26:58,800 residual, right? They leave a film and a trace 335 00:26:59,800 --> 00:27:04,100 and there is some this idea that I've carried for a long time 336 00:27:04,100 --> 00:27:07,100 that our bodies are layers of Frozen memories. 337 00:27:07,500 --> 00:27:11,600 They're frozen Shadows. And the ways that our bodies 338 00:27:11,600 --> 00:27:15,400 have built are the accumulated residue of all of the 339 00:27:15,400 --> 00:27:18,600 nourishment and the habits of our ancestral. 340 00:27:18,800 --> 00:27:23,400 Origins Whether or not our people had enough to eat eight 341 00:27:23,400 --> 00:27:27,300 hundred years ago, means something about the density of 342 00:27:27,300 --> 00:27:34,600 our bones or our immune systems. Now, Whether or not our people 343 00:27:34,600 --> 00:27:39,100 went through, you know, a big emotional crisis at some point 344 00:27:39,100 --> 00:27:41,800 will have a lot to do with how we respond to trauma and 345 00:27:41,800 --> 00:27:49,500 activation now. Breathe into your body as layers 346 00:27:49,500 --> 00:27:57,500 of Frozen Shadows. And then ask yourself how do you 347 00:27:57,500 --> 00:28:01,000 know yourself? In all of this. 348 00:28:03,500 --> 00:28:07,400 If we know that the phenomenal material world is a constant 349 00:28:07,400 --> 00:28:12,900 recycling of matter. That energy never ends it just 350 00:28:12,900 --> 00:28:19,100 changes form. And if we know that there is no 351 00:28:19,100 --> 00:28:23,300 new ideas, just the retelling of old ideas. 352 00:28:26,200 --> 00:28:29,300 And if we know that our preference is and belief systems 353 00:28:29,300 --> 00:28:34,900 and biases were formed because of the way that our people grew 354 00:28:34,900 --> 00:28:37,000 and our culture is grew around them. 355 00:28:38,900 --> 00:28:42,800 Then, who are you? What are you? 356 00:28:47,200 --> 00:28:54,200 Are you your name? Are you your gender? 357 00:28:58,900 --> 00:29:04,600 Are you even your body? And when you think about how 358 00:29:04,600 --> 00:29:09,800 quickly your body changes, And the association's you might make 359 00:29:09,900 --> 00:29:13,700 with your body in terms of how it looks or how it functions and 360 00:29:13,700 --> 00:29:19,500 therefore what or how you are the question of are you here? 361 00:29:19,500 --> 00:29:23,300 Body takes a lot of time to kind of sort through. 362 00:29:27,400 --> 00:29:31,200 Are you your passions? What are all the ways that you 363 00:29:31,200 --> 00:29:33,800 identify? How do you know yourself there? 364 00:29:40,500 --> 00:29:42,600 And this would be another moment to pause. 365 00:29:42,600 --> 00:29:49,000 If you choose and just reflect a little bit on who am I, what am 366 00:29:49,000 --> 00:29:53,200 I? And there's a line of 367 00:29:53,200 --> 00:29:57,600 questioning and philosophic thought that starts here. 368 00:29:59,100 --> 00:30:01,000 And basically, there's no answer. 369 00:30:02,300 --> 00:30:05,700 So all the things that you think you are, If You Really Turn to 370 00:30:05,700 --> 00:30:08,100 look at them, they are constructions. 371 00:30:08,400 --> 00:30:13,600 They are constructed ideas that were made by the human mind. 372 00:30:15,300 --> 00:30:20,400 And there's not very much that any of us can actually say that 373 00:30:20,400 --> 00:30:23,700 we are that is anything at all permanent. 374 00:30:25,800 --> 00:30:30,600 So you might say that, you are your body but your body, of 375 00:30:30,600 --> 00:30:33,900 course is always changing. And your body is the 376 00:30:33,900 --> 00:30:39,300 accumulation of the past as well as the influences of. 377 00:30:39,400 --> 00:30:44,900 Now, the foods you eat the toxins in the environment, the 378 00:30:46,000 --> 00:30:49,600 Stuff in the water. The emotional atmosphere. 379 00:30:54,400 --> 00:30:58,400 So what are you who are you? How do you know? 380 00:31:06,400 --> 00:31:13,300 And then if your eyes have been closed, open them again, and 381 00:31:13,300 --> 00:31:15,200 take a look around Wherever You Are. 382 00:31:17,900 --> 00:31:29,500 And once again, feel your inhale on your exhale. notice the way 383 00:31:29,500 --> 00:31:35,100 that you take in your environment, notice the way you 384 00:31:35,100 --> 00:31:42,700 affect your environment. What is the environment that 385 00:31:42,700 --> 00:31:47,100 you're taking in? And how are you uniquely 386 00:31:47,100 --> 00:31:52,400 affecting it? Our exhales release the 387 00:31:52,400 --> 00:31:57,000 byproducts of our bodies and their internal state of health 388 00:31:57,000 --> 00:32:01,100 or toxicity, as you breathe out, what are you breathing out into 389 00:32:01,600 --> 00:32:08,000 the general atmosphere? As you influence the space, what 390 00:32:08,000 --> 00:32:13,200 is the general influence of your emotional, mental and physical 391 00:32:13,200 --> 00:32:17,500 state upon that space? And how do you respond and 392 00:32:17,500 --> 00:32:19,400 internalize the space that you're in? 393 00:32:33,000 --> 00:32:36,400 This question of, who are you? And what are you is a 394 00:32:36,400 --> 00:32:40,600 never-ending question. And ideally, it's a question 395 00:32:40,600 --> 00:32:44,800 that has no answer. It is unanswerable when we think 396 00:32:44,800 --> 00:32:46,900 that we can answer it, we're confused. 397 00:32:47,700 --> 00:32:53,000 We've begun to identify with something that is incomplete and 398 00:32:53,000 --> 00:32:58,300 imperfect and impermanent. What we're made of is everything 399 00:32:58,300 --> 00:33:01,000 around us. It's the residue of everything 400 00:33:01,000 --> 00:33:05,500 that has been and of course each of us is part of the momentum 401 00:33:05,500 --> 00:33:11,700 that creates whatever will be. And in that there's perfection 402 00:33:12,000 --> 00:33:15,600 in that there's magic. And so that is also within you. 403 00:33:16,400 --> 00:33:20,100 And of course, magic can be used for good or ill, and that's also 404 00:33:20,700 --> 00:33:25,100 within you. This is the end of the 405 00:33:25,100 --> 00:33:30,500 meditation for today as I work through the next couple of 406 00:33:30,500 --> 00:33:34,100 months and the rest of 2019 I'll be looking at deeper layers of 407 00:33:34,100 --> 00:33:38,900 positioning, mine States and ideas about our identity and 408 00:33:38,900 --> 00:33:44,000 ways to work with them and inquire more deeply and maybe 409 00:33:44,000 --> 00:33:49,800 even to start to transform them. So I'll leave it with with this, 410 00:33:49,800 --> 00:33:55,700 just a general invitation that All of us, including me, spend 411 00:33:55,700 --> 00:33:59,200 time with this question of, where did I come from? 412 00:34:00,100 --> 00:34:02,800 What made me? What did I inherit? 413 00:34:04,000 --> 00:34:06,400 And then, who am I and what am I? 414 00:34:09,000 --> 00:34:13,300 I think those questions alone are pretty important space, to 415 00:34:13,300 --> 00:34:19,600 spend some time with right now. Thank you for participating. 416 00:34:19,600 --> 00:34:23,300 Thank you for listening if you're interested in where this 417 00:34:23,300 --> 00:34:25,800 meditation is coming from as a theme of course. 418 00:34:25,800 --> 00:34:28,500 Check in with the astrology for 2019. 419 00:34:29,400 --> 00:34:33,699 There are also lots of guided meditations that I offer a boned 420 00:34:33,699 --> 00:34:38,199 all different ideas and subjects and you can find them on 421 00:34:38,199 --> 00:34:43,300 Soundcloud and you can also ask for themes. 422 00:34:43,300 --> 00:34:46,600 You can ask for meditations or healing practices. 423 00:34:46,800 --> 00:34:50,500 And I also always welcome your feedback and comments and feel 424 00:34:50,500 --> 00:34:54,500 free to get in touch with me by commenting on the SoundCloud 425 00:34:54,500 --> 00:34:56,699 link or by reaching out and sending me an email. 426 00:34:58,300 --> 00:35:01,600 Thank you so much for listening. Wishing you all the best. 427 00:35:01,800 --> 00:35:02,500 Bye for now.