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Welcome back to Candyland, all 
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Polly and I haven't talked in 
literally weeks. 

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She went on a whole murder 
cruise. 

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We're about to be in for a wild 
ride, so hang on to your titties

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'cause it's about to get crazy. 
So for those that have me on 

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Facebook, there was a murder on 
my cruise ship. 

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We went on a cruise to Mexico 
and meanwhile everyone was like,

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be careful in Mexico, be careful
in Mexico. 

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No one said anything about what 
could actually happen on the 

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cruise ship and the way that 
they just give people unlimited 

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alcohol for literal days at a 
time blows my mind of like how 

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there's not more mishaps on 
these cruise ships. 

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I mean, of course, you know when
you start paying attention to 

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something, you start seeing news
and seeing things where in fact,

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yes, there is a lot of 
anomalies. 

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But basically the cruise was 
really, really good up until 

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this point of like the energy 
just shifted and we couldn't get

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off the boat. 
They delayed our stop 

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completely, cancelled it one day
and they said it was because we 

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had a medical emergency and we 
had a weather emergency. 

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But it was literally so wild to 
me because we were on the 7th 

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floor, me and juber, and the 
murder happened on the 8th 

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floor. 
And there was one night in 

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specific Monday night, and we 
could hear this banging and I'm 

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talking y'all it was like 
someone was up there moving 

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fucking furniture. 
Like to the point where like I'm

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not a hater but at two AMI was 
like, we need to call down there

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and like get something going 
here, 'cause it is so loud. 

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I mean, it was like, literally, 
like something was just banging 

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back and forth. 
And so we called down there, 

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They came up to our room and 
were like, we want to hear the 

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noise. 
Well, you could hear it. 

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They heard it. 
They were like, OK, we'll take 

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care of it. 
And so I don't know if that was 

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the murder because, like, it 
never happened again. 

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And the murder happened on 
Monday night. 

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You heard of murder? 
Literally. 

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Oh, this is the coolest 
adventure ever. 

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I want to go on a murder cruise.
What the fuck? 

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This sounds great. 
I mean, aside from being the 

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person who gets murdered, but 
like, what an adventure. 

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At this point, I feel like the 
universe was just giving me like

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really good content for the 
Internet. 

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Cause a lot of people thought 
that when I posted that there 

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was a murder on the cruise, that
I was just doing that for like 

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like a joke, or that I was 
talking about like a murder 

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mystery. 
Like no one really registered 

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that I'm actually saying someone
got murdered. 

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So we like to call this the 
unlimited alcohol package, in my

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opinion, because like a lot of 
people were fighting on the 

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cruise ship, like, not like 
strangers and strangers, but 

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like spouses, like husbands and 
wives, 'cause there's a casino 

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on the cruise ship, you can 
shop, you can buy Rolexes like 

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you can blow some money, like, 
for sure on these cruise ships, 

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they set it up like that, like 
they set it up like the only 

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thing to do is eat, drink and 
spend money. 

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So we heard this sound like, and
it wasn't just for a couple 

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hours, it was for like all 
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And the guy said that there was 
a maintenance issue and that 

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something was loose in our 
ceiling. 

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No, bro, Like we've been on this
ship for two nights already. 

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Like, this is the third night. 
I know for sure. 

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No, there's no way like there's 
no did. 

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You hear it after that night. 
No. 

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Never heard it again. 
Never heard it again. 

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So how we discovered there was a
murder is Tuesday, we couldn't 

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get off the boat. 
And so everyone was, you know, 

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drinking and eating and swimming
and like, we couldn't get off 

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the boat due to a weather issue.
But yet, Tuesday was the 

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prettiest day that we had on the
boat. 

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Like it was sunny, it wasn't 
windy. 

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It was like the prettiest day 
we've had. 

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Couldn't stop, but we had to go 
back to the port we came from on

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Monday and meet the Coast Guard 
and they kept saying that we had

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to drop off some medical 
emergencies. 

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So on the cruise ship we had a 
heart attack. 

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Someone died a second heart 
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The person had to go to the 
hospital and the third person 

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got their arm stuck in the 
elevator and it mangled their 

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arm like ripped off skin 
bleeding everywhere. 

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So we just thought it was 
because of that. 

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But the energy on Tuesday was so
different. 

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Like for one, Juber is never 
upset. 

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And she woke up and was like 
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I mean she was like slamming 
things and like was mad at like 

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7:00 in the morning. 
And I was like, what's wrong? 

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And she's like, we can't stop 
this as bullshit and all this. 

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And then I was like really sad 
on Monday night. 

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Like when all this was going 
down, I was really fucking sad 

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all of a sudden. 
Like I wanted to go home. 

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Wasn't having a good time 
anymore for absolutely no 

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reason. 
It was absolutely had the best 

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trip ever. 
So there was no reason I was 

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feeling these waves of sadness. 
But people started dying. 

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This man on the 8th floor 
literally murdered his wife with

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his bare hands. 
No weapon? 

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No. 
No rope. 

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No weapon. 
No. 

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No murder item? 
No. 

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Rope No weapon. 
He murdered her with his bare 

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hands. 
So what I believe that we heard 

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all fucking night was him 
slamming her back and forth 

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until she literally died. 
The whole night was what, like 

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just slamming her on the floor? 
It was like, it felt like 

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someone was moving furniture 
above your head, like, but 

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everything is bolted down. 
Like in that room you can't move

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anything because it's bolted 
down, right? 

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Like, it literally was like 
someone was taking something and

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slamming it back and forth 
against each wall. 

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And they said, Oh no, you're 
having a maintenance issue. 

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This is maintenances saying 
there's nothing going on above 

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you. 
I think we called. 

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They went up there, checked on 
the people. 

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He probably was like, oh, we're 
fine. 

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Proceeded to just continue to. 
I don't know, I don't know if he

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like if he strangled her, 
whatever he did, but he 

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literally killed this woman with
his bare hands, his wife. 

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Actually I saw. 
So then we found out from the 

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people in the pool, it was the 
room next door to them that this

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happened in the person got. 
Hurt. 

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Did they hear noises? 
So she's told me that she had 

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drank a lot that day and she had
a sound machine on, like, you 

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know, that you put on for, like 
babies or whatever. 

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And she said that she didn't 
hear anything. 

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But in her defense, the linen 
closet separated their two 

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rooms. 
You know. 

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You've got all the towels, 
absorbing sound and everything, 

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yeah? 
Or the linen closet for the 

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cleaning people was in between 
these two rooms. 

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But we went up there and, like, 
looked and they literally had 

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like, this lock box on the door 
handle with caution tape all 

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around it because they couldn't 
do anything to the room until we

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got back to the States. 
So the guy, what is so weird 

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about it is like he killed his 
wife, But like, did he go tell 

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someone or did they just 
discover her body? 

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Where was he at? 
Like, you know what I mean? 

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Like, they're, I mean, they take
your picture and they link it to

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like your own ID called your C 
pass, which has your credit card

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and everything linked to it. 
So you don't actually exchange 

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any money or credit cards on the
boat. 

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You have a sea pass. 
So I mean they would have known 

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what he looked like, but like, 
there's thousands of us on this 

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boat. 
Like what if he just killed her 

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and then went and killed someone
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Like, there's so many questions 
that I had, but we found out 

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that there was there's a jail 
cell room that's on the interior

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deck where it has like no 
windows or nothing. 

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And they had armed guards 
guarding the that room, which 

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this is like the bottom floor of
the boat where like the people 

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who work there and storage and 
freezers and food and things 

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like that is. 
But there's also a morgue. 

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So the reason we had to meet the
Coast Guard wasn't because of 

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the person who had the heart 
attack, It was for the body of 

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the woman. 
We gave her body to the Coast 

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Guard. 
So when they were saying we 

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couldn't stop in Costa Maya on 
Tuesday and we had to go back to

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Cozumel, where we came from, 
that's why. 

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Because we had a literal body 
that had been murdered on the 

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ship and they had to do 
something with it. 

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They had to give it to the Coast
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So I think the reason we didn't 
stop is because they were so 

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frantic about what happened the 
night before and that they came 

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on the intercom at like 6:30 in 
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Like we're not stopping it's 
weather. 

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But yet that was the nicest day 
of weather that we had, which is

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crazy because I think that's why
Juber was so upset and like 

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angry is because she was kind of
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Like we were right under that, 
like the floor above us never 

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made another peep after that 
happened, like I never heard 

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those noises again. 
So when the maintenance people 

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came and was like, we're going 
to check it out, the noise had 

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already stopped because he 
killed this woman. 

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Like, he already killed her. 
So now this noise has stopped. 

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But I think they were doing that
so we didn't get weird and ask 

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questions because it was like, 
more than just like someone's 

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rocking the boat having sex or 
something. 

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Like it was like a bank, like a 
literal, like banging. 

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And so that happened and the 
energy on Tuesday for everyone 

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was just really fucking weird. 
Everyone was arguing and 

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fighting and like, I wanted to 
go home even more on Tuesday. 

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Literally between Tuesday and 
Wednesday, I was like cutting 

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people off back home, completely
blocking people and following 

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people. 
Like, I was done with everybody.

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I was ready to just be done with
everybody. 

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Like, we were literally on 
Wednesday down at the front desk

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trying to change our flight to 
Thursday. 

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Like, as soon as we got off the 
boat, we were trying to change 

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our flight. 
That's how bad it was. 

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Like, that's how bad the energy 
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And what's crazy though is like 
I still had such a good time, I 

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would totally go on another 
cruise in a heartbeat. 

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I love the cruise life like 
cruising was so peaceful. 

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Because when you're on a boat, 
everything on land does not 

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matter. 
You can barely use your phone 

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like you have to turn off your 
cellular. 

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You have to put it on airplane 
mode. 

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Like you are not going to get 
text messages if you have an 

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iPhone or messenger. 
Like you can get those if you 

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paid for the Wi-Fi. 
But literally, like, it's $3 a 

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minute to talk to people. 
So, like, you're not talking to 

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nobody, you're not worried about
nobody, you're not like, worried

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about home. 
When you go on any other 

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vacation, it's still like a home
away from home, you know what I 

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mean? 
Like, you're still going to 

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check your e-mail, you're still 
going to think about work. 

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But when you're on a cruise 
ship, nothing else matters. 

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No, I can. 
I You know what? 

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I'm happy to do some type of 
vacation on land where I turn my

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phone off or where we don't have
reception in a mountain or some 

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shit. 
I kudos to you and your fucking 

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thing. 
I'm not doing cruises fucking 

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scare me. 
They terrify me. 

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Brian and I have talked about 
cruises before. 

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I'm like, I just Nope. 
And then I end up on the, I 

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think it's like the North Sea 
TikTok or some shit. 

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And that's where they've got 
like the Yo Ho Song and it's 

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like, have you seen that? 
It's like big ships out in like 

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these like crazy turbulent 
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whole, it's called the North 
Sea. 

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It's like a whole part of 
TikTok. 

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I don't do, I don't like the 
ocean. 

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I don't want to be in the ocean.
I don't go into the ocean to 

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swim. 
I'm not dipping my fucking baby 

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toe in it. 
I don't like the ocean. 

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I'm terrified of the fucking 
ocean. 

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That's like, not everybody's. 
Like, it's so majestic. 

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No, the fucking Kraken lives in 
there. 

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Only like, 15% of it has been 
discovered. 

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The shit that has been 
discovered looks fucked up. 

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I have no business being inside 
the motherfucking ocean. 

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So when you said you were going 
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those people that was like, be 
careful out there on those 

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streets, not because of Mexico, 
but because I was scared of you 

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in the water. 
Little did I know that it's the 

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vessel upon the water that had 
the fucking problems. 

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I I don't know. 
I'm so glad that you're able to,

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like, text me while you were 
gone, though, because I was, 

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like, so nervous about you. 
And so you just, like you would 

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just periodically, like, check 
in. 

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I was like, OK, cool, You're 
alive. 

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You're safe. 
You're good. 

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And I was over here, like, don't
think anything bad about the 

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ship. 
And then when you said that you 

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that the murder had happened or 
whatever, I was like, I would if

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I have to go on a cruise, I want
there to be a murder. 

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I mean, I don't want anybody I 
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it just, I don't know, a murder 
mystery cruise. 

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And you found you something 
about you and Juber. 

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You bitches always find the tea 
no matter where you're at. 

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I think it's because you're, 
like, so friendly and personable

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and you're so good at like, oh, 
my gosh, we're best friends now.

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But, like, I'm never going to 
talk to you again. 

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I think you just find all the 
tea. 

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Literally, they came to us with 
the T like, people are like, did

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you hear what happened? 
I was like, what happened? 

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They're like someone got 
murdered. 

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I was like. 
Stop. 

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Now tell me about this and like,
honestly, like the thing about 

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the cruise that I truly liked a 
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actually the upper class, like 
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Like supposedly Carnival Cruises
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vibe. 
And like the people like, it's 

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cheaper, there's more people on 
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And they pulled up to the port 
that one day on Monday and it 

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was like a party. 
Like the party never stopped. 

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Even though people got off that 
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and they were outraging. 
And and Carnival also has like 

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roller coasters and really is 
geared towards like kids and 

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stuff too. 
A roller coaster on a ship. 

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I would totally ride it. 
I know I would, but this is 

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that's it. 
Yeah, you would. 

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I would totally, I would totally
do it. 

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I don't know. 
It just blows my mind that they 

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didn't disclose that even after 
we've gotten home. 

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My mom lives in Tampa and 
there's literally been nothing 

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about it on the news. 
And another thing that blows my 

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mind is that we were supposed to
get 2 ports and two full days at

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sea, but after this happened, we
barely got one port. 

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And then the day that we were 
supposed to get back was 

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Thursday. 
We were in Tampa at the port at 

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fucking like 11:30 on Wednesday 
night, like we were back in 

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Tampa, which pissed me off. 
But I know what it was like. 

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They needed to get the prisoner 
guy off the ship before people 

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woke up and before people got 
off the ship. 

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Like they had to get him off 
1st. 

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And I had been told by multiple 
people that, like, they give you

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these checkout times, but 
they're really flexible and that

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people are like lingering off 
the ship until like noon, bro. 

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Our scheduled time to get off 
the ship was 915. 

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I shit you not at 9:15. 
Like, we were like, you know, 

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gathering all of our stuff to 
open the door. 

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And someone with a key card 
scanned the door at 9:17 and 

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came in and said you all need to
vacate the premises now. 

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So we come down, tell me why. 
We are literally the last people

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off the ship. 
We get to like the customs 

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checkpoint. 
They don't check anything. 

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I didn't go through a medical 
detector, They didn't look at my

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bag. 
I could have brought literally 

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any fucking thing I wanted home 
from Mexico and no one checked 

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anything. 
Like they were so frantic and a 

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lot of the people were so worked
up it just no one, no one was 

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worried about it. 
Like, and it's so crazy because 

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I've been told by so many 
people, like just wait in your 

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room like an extra hour, you 
know, like, you know they they 

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don't get in any rush to get 
everyone off there. 

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They check everything with a 
fine tooth comb. 

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They didn't check shit. 
They did not check a damn thing.

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But for real Mexico, I felt very
safe. 

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I mean, Cozumel is like an 
island off of Mexico, so it 

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doesn't have like a huge cartel 
presence or like any of that. 

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It's more just like like a 
touristy tourist market. 

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But it's so crazy to me that one
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Mexican money pesos. 
That's crazy to me because 

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literally, like, they saw us and
they were like, they got money. 

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What? 
What you need, What you got, I 

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got you. 
You want to start a tequila? 

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I got you. 
Like everywhere you go. 

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Doesn't matter if it's a jewelry
store or clothing store, it does

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not matter. 
Everywhere you go, they give you

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shots at tequila, like 
everywhere. 

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And I don't know if it's just 
because, like, they want you to 

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get fucked up and spend money or
what. 

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But everywhere I went, I mean, 
I've declined a lot, but we went

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on a tour that took us to the 
tequila factory and they gave us

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like seven shots while we were 
there. 

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You got fucked up. 
I mean, I took them. 

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I didn't want to put. 
I mean, I. 

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Took them. 
But a lot of people, I don't 

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think, really speculate, like if
you don't like your significant 

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other at home on land, going and
staying in a closet sized room 

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with unlimited alcohol probably 
isn't going to be the best thing

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for your relationship. 
And I met a girl on the cruise 

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ship and the only reason I knew 
who she was is because one day 

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she was like yelling at her man,
like, fuck you and like going 

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off on him. 
And so she caught my eye. 

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But it was one of those 
situations that I could tell her

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and her friend were like and 
they were just there for the 

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free cruise. 
Like this isn't their 

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boyfriends, like when they get 
home, this isn't their people. 

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So then one night I never said 
anything to her that I heard 

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that conversation. 
But one night we did this little

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game show thing which was really
cool about the cruises. 

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Like every night they had 
interactive like game shows and 

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like different things for people
to like team up and and it was 

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really fun. 
So we had joined the team that 

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they were on and we exchanged 
Instagrams. 

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And I've now found out like, 
she's an only fans girl, a 

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content creator, had quite a bit
of followers, like 40,000 or 

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something. 
But I knew damn well like, this 

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ain't her Boo. 
No wonder she's like, fuck you, 

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you're getting on my nerves 
'cause she don't even really 

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like you. 
She's only here because you 

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brought her here for free and 
she does not like you because 

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like, I've watched her Instagram
since we got home and literally 

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it's only about her videos that 
she took on the trip, Videos 

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that she took in Mexico. 
No one else is in those, not 

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even her friend. 
But you know, it's a really cool

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place to network. 
There's a lot of different 

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energies, but majority are like 
older people, like a lot of 

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older people. 
And I've like, can really say 

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that the price that you pay and 
what you get to see, it would 

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have cost us way more to try to 
fly to Mexico, stay in Mexico 

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and all of that, like to just go
there and get back on the boat. 

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I felt very safe, like, I don't 
know if I would just, like want 

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to go to Mexico because of all 
of the violence and cartel and 

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all of that in the mainland. 
But excuse me, going to Cosmo 

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and going to, like, seeing 
everything. 

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Like we were on this open bus 
tour and like, the roof is open 

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and I had this hat on and I was 
holding it and still the wind 

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like grabbed it and took it off 
my head and it was gone. 

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I didn't say nothing to the bus 
driver because I'm just like 

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it's, you know, it's a bass pro 
So I'm like, no problem, We 

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drive probably 20 more minutes 
and we get to the tequila 

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factory or like the museum and 
literally a lady pulls up on a 

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moped and she has my hat in her 
hand. 

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And I wish I hadn't already 
spent all my money 'cause I 

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would have given her $20, which 
would have been 20 times $17.15.

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That's like two $300.00 for her.
I wish I could have done that, 

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but yeah, she brought it, 
followed the bus all the way to 

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our destination and gave me my 
hat. 

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So sweet. 
The whole time I'm trying to 

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like, 'cause it pissed me off at
first, like, I was pissed cause 

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like, you know, the hat's 
keeping the sun off my face. 

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Like, I was upset. 
And then I was like, OK, one 

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last thing for my suitcase. 
It's a $5 hat. 

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You can buy another one. 
Cause the other hat that I had 

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with me was like a one of one. 
Like, they only made like a 

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hundred of those, you know? 
It was like a specialty thing. 

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I'm like, at least it wasn't my 
holy center hat. 

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Like, I've got my bass pro I can
buy another one. 

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And then I was like, OK, it's 
just an offering. 

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I was like some some little kids
going to find that, like, no big

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deal. 
And then literally she pulls 

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right up with it. 
I was like, I fucking love 

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Mexico. 
That's so sweet. 

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I love that. 
That was such a really cool. 

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Thing This sounds like a dope 
trip. 

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Aside from the aside from the 
boat on the ocean, this would 

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have been a fun adventure. 
Honestly, I just feel like 

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people talked up how bad Mexico 
was and although like it's very 

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dirty and like ran down, it's 
still a very, very beautiful 

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place. 
And everyone was so nice. 

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And to just go there like 
literally like $100 of our money

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is like 1700 of theirs, 1700 
plus. 

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So it's just like you can do so 
fucking much. 

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But like the thing about Mexico 
that I will tell anyone who goes

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there, if you're going to buy 
something, tell them no 

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approximately 5 times and you'll
go from like $36,000 their money

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to like 1000 their money. 
Like they tell you a different 

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price, I think based on what 
they think you can pay. 

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And I've noticed that a lot that
a lot of places do that based on

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what they think you can pay. 
Like I went to that Oddities 

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Expo and this one guy had all 
this jewelry and there was like 

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no prices. 
And I had all my rings on and 

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stuff and he was like, you look 
like a ring girl. 

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And I was like, oh, I love 
rings. 

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I literally asked him what this 
price was and is a baby ass 

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ring. 
And he was like, oh, that one's 

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75. 
I was like cool, here you go, 

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take it back, you know what I 
mean? 

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But like I think sometimes, like
in general in Mexico, they just 

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tell you a price based on what 
they think you will pay or what 

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you can pay. 
Like if you negotiate with them,

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they are more than happy to, 
like, take it all the way down, 

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Like one minute it's 250, the 
next minute it's 80. 

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Well, and I mean where they're 
located too, you go into those 

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shops, those are probably shops 
that are frequented by tourists 

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often that go on these cruises 
or whatever. 

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So you know, that probably is 
their way of negotiating or 

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whatever. 
They know that there are people 

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that are going to pay it and 
they're going to be like, OK, 

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whatever and you know, and if 
they're willing to fucking pay 

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it, then pay it. 
How much in our money is Mexico 

449
00:25:11,280 --> 00:25:12,640
money? 
Like how much is our dollar 

450
00:25:12,640 --> 00:25:18,240
worth to what theirs is? 
$17.15 It changes daily, but at 

451
00:25:18,240 --> 00:25:22,080
that time the conversion was 
$17.15 is $1.00? 

452
00:25:25,320 --> 00:25:28,400
Yeah. 
So literally, like $100, like is

453
00:25:28,400 --> 00:25:30,200
gonna take you really far over 
there. 

454
00:25:30,440 --> 00:25:32,320
But The thing is, is like when 
you go to, we went to a 

455
00:25:32,320 --> 00:25:34,160
restaurant, which wasn't very 
good. 

456
00:25:35,080 --> 00:25:40,520
It was like, like the price for 
a meal was like 590 pesos. 

457
00:25:40,800 --> 00:25:43,280
Like, Can you imagine living 
there and you just want to go 

458
00:25:43,280 --> 00:25:46,720
get a meal with your family and 
they're like, that's 3000 pesos,

459
00:25:49,240 --> 00:25:54,280
Like a drink was like 600 pesos.
That's crazy. 

460
00:25:54,600 --> 00:26:01,120
Which is what, $6? 
No, 600 peso. 

461
00:26:01,120 --> 00:26:08,400
Yeah, I can't do math right now.
Divided by 171534 dollars, 3498 

462
00:26:08,400 --> 00:26:10,640
our money. 
And honestly I think there's 

463
00:26:10,640 --> 00:26:13,400
probably different menus like 
here's the tourist menu with the

464
00:26:13,400 --> 00:26:17,480
tourist prices and here's the 
actual menu for because like if 

465
00:26:17,480 --> 00:26:19,880
that's the case, like how do 
they afford to go out to eat? 

466
00:26:19,880 --> 00:26:22,000
Like how does this restaurant 
stay open? 

467
00:26:22,400 --> 00:26:24,480
Like what are they being paid? 
You know what I mean? 

468
00:26:24,480 --> 00:26:27,520
Like no wonder people come to 
America and they're happy to 

469
00:26:27,520 --> 00:26:31,680
work for really hard labor for 
like $15.00 an hour. 

470
00:26:31,680 --> 00:26:35,680
Cause 15 * 17 is a lot of their 
money. 

471
00:26:36,360 --> 00:26:38,240
No wonder, you know? 
Like, no wonder when people are 

472
00:26:38,240 --> 00:26:39,840
like no one wants to work 
anymore. 

473
00:26:41,280 --> 00:26:43,280
Y'all just don't wanna work, You
know what I mean? 

474
00:26:43,280 --> 00:26:47,600
Like there's work everywhere. 
And I'm not saying like people 

475
00:26:47,600 --> 00:26:49,920
shouldn't make more money, like 
they totally should if they're 

476
00:26:49,920 --> 00:26:54,040
skilled labor. 
But like, Hispanic people are 

477
00:26:54,040 --> 00:26:57,280
very, very methodical with what 
they're doing because they're 

478
00:26:57,280 --> 00:26:59,360
earning the money here and 
sending it back there and it's a

479
00:26:59,360 --> 00:27:02,640
lot of money back there. 
Well, and not just them, but 

480
00:27:02,640 --> 00:27:06,640
like you know, I think that 
people who come from immigrant 

481
00:27:06,640 --> 00:27:13,240
families in general always just 
have a different experience of 

482
00:27:13,240 --> 00:27:16,560
having absolutely nothing and 
having to work for like going to

483
00:27:16,560 --> 00:27:18,960
a new place and having to work 
for it. 

484
00:27:18,960 --> 00:27:21,760
And they usually have been put 
in positions where they have to 

485
00:27:21,760 --> 00:27:26,960
take, you know, under the table 
jobs or low paying, you know, 

486
00:27:26,960 --> 00:27:31,480
jobs depending on like their 
citizen status and stuff like 

487
00:27:31,480 --> 00:27:33,600
that. 
And there are people that, you 

488
00:27:33,600 --> 00:27:35,600
know, go and do those types of 
jobs and stuff. 

489
00:27:35,600 --> 00:27:38,960
When people say there's not 
jobs, no, there's jobs that you 

490
00:27:38,960 --> 00:27:41,320
think are beneath you. 
And there are people who are 

491
00:27:41,320 --> 00:27:44,760
saying I'm willing to take what 
nobody else is taking because I 

492
00:27:44,760 --> 00:27:48,200
need to get something. 
Literally, though, And that's 

493
00:27:48,200 --> 00:27:52,120
what's crazy about the universe 
and about the alignment of like,

494
00:27:53,120 --> 00:27:56,360
if you want to work for it, it 
really is available to you. 

495
00:27:56,360 --> 00:27:59,200
I think a lot of people are just
in limiting beliefs and 

496
00:27:59,200 --> 00:28:01,960
mindsets. 
Like there is someone out there 

497
00:28:01,960 --> 00:28:04,400
somewhere that will pay for your
skills and your talents. 

498
00:28:04,400 --> 00:28:07,800
Whether you make art or music or
have some type of service that 

499
00:28:07,800 --> 00:28:09,640
you offer. 
You can build a freaking house. 

500
00:28:09,640 --> 00:28:14,440
You know, like people will pay 
quality labor for whatever it 

501
00:28:14,440 --> 00:28:16,080
is. 
And like, I've I know we've 

502
00:28:16,080 --> 00:28:18,880
talked about this a lot about 
like spiritual practitioners, 

503
00:28:18,880 --> 00:28:22,920
like taking advantage of people 
charging like 10 and $15,000 to 

504
00:28:22,920 --> 00:28:26,000
work with them for a month. 
But at the same time, another 

505
00:28:26,000 --> 00:28:29,640
perspective of that is like, if 
a lawyer charges $1000 an hour, 

506
00:28:29,640 --> 00:28:32,280
no one bats an eye. 
Like no one bats an eye. 

507
00:28:32,520 --> 00:28:35,560
So like, why can't a spiritual 
practitioner who is elevated, 

508
00:28:35,560 --> 00:28:38,160
skilled and in their power 
charge that? 

509
00:28:38,440 --> 00:28:41,440
I mean it's their prerogative 
but like I don't think it's fair

510
00:28:41,440 --> 00:28:44,600
to say like, well, lawyers can 
make $1000 an hour but spiritual

511
00:28:44,600 --> 00:28:47,000
people can't. 
Or you know what I mean. 

512
00:28:47,000 --> 00:28:51,000
Or like American people can make
this but immigrants can't or 

513
00:28:51,000 --> 00:28:53,520
whatever it is like there's 
always that double edged sword. 

514
00:28:53,520 --> 00:28:56,040
And like I started really re 
evaluating. 

515
00:28:56,040 --> 00:29:01,440
Like, I mean maybe one day I'll 
charge a lot for a workshop or 

516
00:29:01,440 --> 00:29:03,960
I'll or whatever. 
But at that point, like I know 

517
00:29:03,960 --> 00:29:06,440
it will be worth your money. 
Like I will feel in good 

518
00:29:06,440 --> 00:29:10,000
conscience and in good faith 
that that's a part of my story. 

519
00:29:10,360 --> 00:29:14,120
Because like you know, a lot of 
people just don't realize what 

520
00:29:14,120 --> 00:29:16,600
goes into the growth, into the 
elevation. 

521
00:29:16,600 --> 00:29:19,600
So like if a lawyer or a plastic
surgeon or someone else can 

522
00:29:19,600 --> 00:29:22,880
charge 1002 thousand $3000 an 
hour, why the fuck can't I? 

523
00:29:23,360 --> 00:29:26,600
You know, like, and that's The 
thing is like, I do keep my 

524
00:29:26,880 --> 00:29:29,440
services a little bit 
reasonable, but like, we're a 

525
00:29:29,440 --> 00:29:33,920
lot further than, like the ten 
dollar, $12.00 rereading days, 

526
00:29:33,920 --> 00:29:36,400
right? 
But like, I still want things to

527
00:29:36,400 --> 00:29:38,640
be accessible. 
I don't want to just completely 

528
00:29:38,640 --> 00:29:42,400
shut people completely out of 
the arena, but I've also thought

529
00:29:42,400 --> 00:29:48,160
about really transforming and 
offering for those that are 

530
00:29:48,320 --> 00:29:50,560
ready for that type of 
investment. 

531
00:29:50,840 --> 00:29:54,520
Not $10,000 but maybe like 1000 
or something like that, and 

532
00:29:54,520 --> 00:29:59,600
doing some type of container or 
workshop where you do get a 

533
00:29:59,600 --> 00:30:03,520
deeper connection with me. 
You know what I mean? 

534
00:30:03,520 --> 00:30:07,920
Like, right now I've built a lot
of bonds with people over the 

535
00:30:07,920 --> 00:30:10,240
time. 
But I do think that, like, I'm 

536
00:30:10,240 --> 00:30:13,920
being called to step up even 
more and teach even more and 

537
00:30:13,920 --> 00:30:16,040
share even more. 
So I don't know. 

538
00:30:16,040 --> 00:30:18,360
I'm just trying to, like, see 
things differently as far as, 

539
00:30:18,360 --> 00:30:21,680
like, some people do it, 'cause 
they're taking advantage of 

540
00:30:21,680 --> 00:30:23,160
others. 
Some people do it, 'cause 

541
00:30:23,160 --> 00:30:26,720
they're actually passionate and 
deserve that, You know what I 

542
00:30:26,720 --> 00:30:29,120
mean? 
Cause like even if a lawyer like

543
00:30:29,120 --> 00:30:33,400
you pay a lawyer and then if you
win they also get like 30% of 

544
00:30:33,400 --> 00:30:36,000
whatever the fuck you want to 
like you know what I mean? 

545
00:30:36,000 --> 00:30:38,800
Like it's not just like I paid 
you to do your job, now I get my

546
00:30:38,800 --> 00:30:41,440
settlement like no they also 
take 30K of your settlement. 

547
00:30:41,880 --> 00:30:45,520
That's why, like my lawyer, he 
works like pro bono until you 

548
00:30:45,520 --> 00:30:47,840
win. 
To prove that he'll put the 

549
00:30:47,840 --> 00:30:51,720
money in, but you're giving him 
is 30% or whatever it is. 

550
00:30:51,760 --> 00:30:54,400
You know what I mean? 
So, you know, I don't know. 

551
00:30:54,400 --> 00:30:56,640
Some people do it one way and 
some people do it another way. 

552
00:30:56,640 --> 00:30:59,760
But I definitely think a lot of 
people need to shift their 

553
00:30:59,760 --> 00:31:04,040
mindsets around skilled labor, 
because a lot of people dedicate

554
00:31:04,040 --> 00:31:06,560
their whole life to learning 
something and to absorbing 

555
00:31:06,560 --> 00:31:08,560
something and teaching it and 
sharing it. 

556
00:31:08,880 --> 00:31:11,000
And who's to say how much they 
can get paid for that? 

557
00:31:12,040 --> 00:31:16,080
Well, yeah. 
And also to, like I've been 

558
00:31:16,080 --> 00:31:18,960
looking into Tarot classes 
recently and I made a video 

559
00:31:18,960 --> 00:31:21,720
about it the other night, like 
asking does anybody have 

560
00:31:21,720 --> 00:31:23,960
somebody that they recommend as 
like a teacher? 

561
00:31:24,200 --> 00:31:27,560
And everywhere that I'm looking 
is like $1300.00 for the course.

562
00:31:27,560 --> 00:31:30,880
And I'm like, I'll pay that. 
Like I see value in this 

563
00:31:30,880 --> 00:31:32,960
service. 
But is that like a normal price 

564
00:31:32,960 --> 00:31:34,640
range? 
Like, you know, I don't, I don't

565
00:31:34,640 --> 00:31:37,160
even know what the price range 
for this type of class is. 

566
00:31:37,600 --> 00:31:43,040
And to me, when someone is it, 
it depends on what that person 

567
00:31:43,040 --> 00:31:46,160
is giving you, what information 
they're teaching you, what 

568
00:31:46,360 --> 00:31:50,200
experience they're offering to 
you with that money too. 

569
00:31:50,200 --> 00:31:52,880
Because that money is just like 
an energy exchange. 

570
00:31:52,880 --> 00:31:56,680
So if somebody is doing 
something where like they're 

571
00:31:56,680 --> 00:32:00,120
bringing like psychology degree 
into it and they do, you know, 

572
00:32:00,120 --> 00:32:02,480
they're doing energetic Reiki 
healing with you and they're 

573
00:32:02,720 --> 00:32:04,920
also, you know, bringing 
astrology into it. 

574
00:32:04,920 --> 00:32:06,720
And like just all of these 
different things. 

575
00:32:06,720 --> 00:32:10,600
If they've paid for these 
courses in this education for 

576
00:32:10,600 --> 00:32:15,080
themselves, like them charging 
that much and getting like 

577
00:32:15,080 --> 00:32:19,720
energetic reciprocation for all 
of the time and energy that they

578
00:32:19,720 --> 00:32:24,080
invested into being able to give
people that healing, I feel like

579
00:32:24,920 --> 00:32:27,960
that totally makes sense. 
There's certain people who I've 

580
00:32:27,960 --> 00:32:30,560
seen charge a whole lot of 
money, like there's a shaman 

581
00:32:30,560 --> 00:32:33,680
that I know that charges, like 
what I would consider to be like

582
00:32:34,200 --> 00:32:36,360
a lot of fucking money for a 
retreat. 

583
00:32:36,640 --> 00:32:39,360
But when you think about like 
the journeys that you're going 

584
00:32:39,360 --> 00:32:43,400
on for that retreat and the food
being provided for you and just 

585
00:32:43,440 --> 00:32:47,000
all of the different things that
go into it, I understand the 

586
00:32:47,000 --> 00:32:51,040
price. 
And I used to feel weird about 

587
00:32:51,040 --> 00:32:56,520
even just like when I elevated 
from that, like, you know, free 

588
00:32:56,520 --> 00:32:58,840
reading and like $10 reading or 
whatever. 

589
00:32:58,840 --> 00:33:00,200
And I was starting to charge 
more. 

590
00:33:00,200 --> 00:33:02,720
And I think you were somebody 
who was like, why are you 

591
00:33:02,880 --> 00:33:04,480
charging so little for these 
things? 

592
00:33:04,480 --> 00:33:06,760
Like, this is time and this is 
energy. 

593
00:33:07,240 --> 00:33:13,120
And somebody I I just thought 
that like, I was gonna screw 

594
00:33:13,120 --> 00:33:16,080
people over somehow if I charged
what my worth was. 

595
00:33:16,440 --> 00:33:20,320
And somebody was like, people 
will literally spend their money

596
00:33:20,320 --> 00:33:23,880
and go and get a new tattoo or 
go and get their nails done, or 

597
00:33:23,880 --> 00:33:26,400
they'll go to the hair salon or 
they'll go to a concert and 

598
00:33:26,400 --> 00:33:30,080
whatever, they will blow their 
money on what they find value 

599
00:33:30,080 --> 00:33:33,160
in. 
So some people are going to go 

600
00:33:33,160 --> 00:33:35,840
and they're going to spend money
on material things to look a 

601
00:33:35,840 --> 00:33:37,960
certain way. 
And some people are going to 

602
00:33:37,960 --> 00:33:42,200
invest in themselves spiritually
and work on like healing 

603
00:33:42,200 --> 00:33:44,360
themselves and what they're 
presenting on the inside. 

604
00:33:44,360 --> 00:33:49,320
And there's always plenty of 
people who are like in energetic

605
00:33:49,320 --> 00:33:53,400
flow of wanting to like give 
money for spiritual services or 

606
00:33:53,400 --> 00:33:58,680
whatever. 
And also too, when you do charge

607
00:33:59,440 --> 00:34:04,480
more for your time and energy, I
feel like people almost respect 

608
00:34:04,480 --> 00:34:08,639
your time and energy more. 
Where if they're like, well, I 

609
00:34:08,639 --> 00:34:12,120
only paid $40.00 for this. 
I feel like those people are 

610
00:34:12,120 --> 00:34:15,800
more like, I can't make my 
reading in 10 minutes. 

611
00:34:16,560 --> 00:34:20,639
Can you, like, call me tomorrow 
at 3:00 instead? 

612
00:34:20,840 --> 00:34:23,120
You know what I mean? 
Like, like I got those people a 

613
00:34:23,120 --> 00:34:27,520
lot or people who weren't really
interested in it and like didn't

614
00:34:27,520 --> 00:34:30,000
believe in anything that I was 
doing, but they were like, yeah,

615
00:34:30,000 --> 00:34:32,159
I had 20 bucks. 
So I just decided that, you 

616
00:34:32,159 --> 00:34:35,960
know, whatever. 
And so it also weeds that out 

617
00:34:35,960 --> 00:34:39,159
The more that you are having 
more clientele and stuff. 

618
00:34:39,440 --> 00:34:43,360
I can't imagine being so booked 
and busy that you that your 

619
00:34:43,360 --> 00:34:47,280
stuff is that much. 
But imagine if like Bunny did 

620
00:34:47,440 --> 00:34:50,600
some type of a retreat. 
She'd have to charge a crazy ass

621
00:34:50,600 --> 00:34:54,360
amount of money to weed out a 
bunch of people because it would

622
00:34:54,360 --> 00:34:57,360
be astronomical, the amount of 
people that would try to go in 

623
00:34:57,360 --> 00:34:58,240
on that. 
You know what I mean? 

624
00:34:58,960 --> 00:35:00,800
Yeah, and I totally agree with 
that. 

625
00:35:00,800 --> 00:35:05,200
Like as I've elevated, I just 
reject a certain type of client 

626
00:35:05,200 --> 00:35:07,600
energetically. 
Like if you're not ready for 

627
00:35:07,600 --> 00:35:10,400
what is coming through and it's 
actually not going to benefit 

628
00:35:10,400 --> 00:35:11,760
you. 
I don't want your money. 

629
00:35:11,760 --> 00:35:13,600
I don't care if you see value in
it or not. 

630
00:35:13,600 --> 00:35:17,360
I don't want your money. 
I just feel like when we go 

631
00:35:17,360 --> 00:35:22,360
through an energetic contract is
like, I have a duty to provide 

632
00:35:22,360 --> 00:35:24,400
this service to people who are 
ready for it. 

633
00:35:24,400 --> 00:35:26,800
If you're not ready for it, just
'cause you have the money for 

634
00:35:26,800 --> 00:35:29,440
it, doesn't mean you're ready. 
You know, a lot of people think 

635
00:35:29,440 --> 00:35:32,400
they're ready to have a baby or 
they're ready to get married, or

636
00:35:32,400 --> 00:35:33,800
they're ready to do certain 
things. 

637
00:35:33,800 --> 00:35:36,760
And then I think that sometimes 
they don't realize the binding 

638
00:35:36,760 --> 00:35:41,520
contract, that that is where, 
like, now, like, I was choosing 

639
00:35:41,520 --> 00:35:44,000
to be with this person, but now 
I have to be with this person. 

640
00:35:44,200 --> 00:35:45,920
Now we have a kid, now we're 
married. 

641
00:35:45,920 --> 00:35:47,800
I have to be. 
I'm in debt with them. 

642
00:35:48,040 --> 00:35:50,840
I'm indebted to them. 
I owe them whatever it is. 

643
00:35:51,200 --> 00:35:54,600
And I think that I've just 
really started to like reject 

644
00:35:54,600 --> 00:35:57,600
certain things in my life 
throughout spirituality. 

645
00:35:57,800 --> 00:36:01,640
That's helped me not only like 
charge what I believe I I'm 

646
00:36:01,640 --> 00:36:06,520
worth, but also to like invest 
in other people that I see value

647
00:36:06,520 --> 00:36:09,960
in. 
Like, I am a jewelry person and 

648
00:36:09,960 --> 00:36:12,960
I like to buy like unique 
jewelry that's custom and that's

649
00:36:12,960 --> 00:36:15,520
one-of-a-kind. 
And like, it's never less than 

650
00:36:16,400 --> 00:36:19,800
$200 or whatever. 
For some people, like you spent 

651
00:36:19,800 --> 00:36:22,160
$200.00 on that, it sees no 
value for them. 

652
00:36:22,360 --> 00:36:24,880
But for me, I'm like, I'm 
building my family heirloom 

653
00:36:24,880 --> 00:36:28,120
collection. 
Like I'm building my heirlooms 

654
00:36:28,120 --> 00:36:31,760
that I'm going to have forever, 
then I'm going to pass on to 

655
00:36:31,760 --> 00:36:34,520
someone one day. 
And you know, what people see 

656
00:36:34,520 --> 00:36:37,280
value in and what other people 
see value in is two different 

657
00:36:37,280 --> 00:36:40,480
things. 
And I just personally don't want

658
00:36:41,080 --> 00:36:44,560
to be so readily available to 
everyone that, like you said, 

659
00:36:44,560 --> 00:36:48,800
they're wasting my time. 
It's been a long time since 

660
00:36:48,800 --> 00:36:51,920
people miss their appointments, 
or at least it and like, try to 

661
00:36:51,920 --> 00:36:55,000
reschedule in a timely manner. 
Because when you're spending 

662
00:36:55,000 --> 00:36:57,800
over $100 to connect with 
someone like, you better be 

663
00:36:57,800 --> 00:36:59,760
there. 
Like, for some people, this is 

664
00:36:59,760 --> 00:37:04,040
cutting out a concert or cutting
out Starbucks or cutting out, 

665
00:37:04,480 --> 00:37:06,960
going out to eat or whatever to 
get this reading. 

666
00:37:06,960 --> 00:37:10,320
So I do appreciate the people 
that do see a lot of value in it

667
00:37:10,320 --> 00:37:15,400
and don't waste my time. 
But also I've noticed like when 

668
00:37:15,400 --> 00:37:20,400
I do flash readings, things like
that, people get impatient. 

669
00:37:20,400 --> 00:37:22,360
Like they're like when am I 
going to get my reading, when am

670
00:37:22,360 --> 00:37:24,640
I going to get my reading? 
And that's almost like my 

671
00:37:24,640 --> 00:37:29,200
biggest pet peeve in general is 
like where it literally says 

672
00:37:29,560 --> 00:37:31,720
trust in divine timing. 
Like, I mean that. 

673
00:37:31,720 --> 00:37:34,040
Like, that's what I mean. 
Like, that's the contract that 

674
00:37:34,040 --> 00:37:36,520
I've set here. 
And you agreed upon that when 

675
00:37:36,520 --> 00:37:38,640
you clicked book. 
Like, you agreed. 

676
00:37:38,880 --> 00:37:42,120
And so I have noticed that, 
like, the people who pay more 

677
00:37:42,120 --> 00:37:46,360
never question the timing, the 
people who pay like the 50 for 

678
00:37:46,360 --> 00:37:49,240
the e-mail or whatever, they're 
always the ones that are like, 

679
00:37:49,640 --> 00:37:52,920
hey, just checking, did you 
forget me or did you forget my 

680
00:37:52,920 --> 00:37:55,000
reading? 
And I'm like, did you read the 

681
00:37:55,520 --> 00:37:58,640
the time print? 
And they're like, oh, I see now 

682
00:37:58,640 --> 00:38:01,480
that it says 72 hours after my 
reading time. 

683
00:38:01,800 --> 00:38:04,040
And I'm like, yeah, it's just 
three days. 

684
00:38:04,040 --> 00:38:06,200
Like the most time I make you 
wait is 3 days. 

685
00:38:06,200 --> 00:38:08,160
Like, it's not like I'm making 
you wait. 

686
00:38:08,160 --> 00:38:11,040
It's just that this is how my 
schedule is set up. 

687
00:38:11,400 --> 00:38:14,880
But I feel like with the monthly
readings, people are way more 

688
00:38:14,880 --> 00:38:16,760
patient because like they know 
it's coming. 

689
00:38:16,760 --> 00:38:18,560
They know it's going to come in 
divine timing. 

690
00:38:18,800 --> 00:38:21,400
I have less issues with like 
monthly clients as far as just 

691
00:38:21,400 --> 00:38:25,560
like random people, especially 
when I was really doing a lot of

692
00:38:25,640 --> 00:38:29,120
readings and things for TikTok, 
those people that were coming 

693
00:38:29,120 --> 00:38:33,160
from that were super pushy and 
even just like going live. 

694
00:38:33,160 --> 00:38:36,920
Recently I went live and there 
was like 300 people in my live 

695
00:38:37,000 --> 00:38:41,960
and it got into like is Joe 
coming back and is Steven here 

696
00:38:41,960 --> 00:38:45,560
and what's up here and you know 
should I move And constant 

697
00:38:45,560 --> 00:38:49,320
questions and so I don't know. 
I mean I'm grateful that people 

698
00:38:49,760 --> 00:38:53,240
see the vision and I'm also 
grateful that like I know when 

699
00:38:53,480 --> 00:38:56,760
to back up and kind of just 
reserve my energy rather than 

700
00:38:56,760 --> 00:38:58,680
trying to push forward. 
And people, please. 

701
00:39:00,120 --> 00:39:06,360
Yeah, I mean that's a a tough 
thing to figure out and I feel 

702
00:39:06,360 --> 00:39:09,200
like that's been a strong point 
that you've had for a long time 

703
00:39:09,200 --> 00:39:12,360
though is you knowing when like,
OK, well now I need to like have

704
00:39:12,360 --> 00:39:15,400
a boundary up, which is why. 
And you've helped me a lot with 

705
00:39:15,400 --> 00:39:17,800
that, which is one of the 
reasons why I think it's so 

706
00:39:17,800 --> 00:39:22,320
funny that, like, people think 
that I'm like the mean one or 

707
00:39:22,320 --> 00:39:25,120
like, the more assertive one, 
because you're such an assertive

708
00:39:25,120 --> 00:39:28,480
person. 
That's very like, no, this is 

709
00:39:28,480 --> 00:39:30,480
what you should be doing. 
You're not really doing this. 

710
00:39:30,480 --> 00:39:32,680
So like, maybe you could be 
doing this instead. 

711
00:39:33,000 --> 00:39:35,720
Or, like, I noticed this about 
the way that you're processing. 

712
00:39:35,720 --> 00:39:39,040
Maybe you want to do, like this 
and not in a pushy way, but 

713
00:39:39,040 --> 00:39:43,960
you're very helpful about it. 
And I like that, though, because

714
00:39:44,160 --> 00:39:48,200
I don't ever feel like when I'm 
telling you something that 

715
00:39:48,200 --> 00:39:50,360
you're taking it as, like, I'm 
complaining. 

716
00:39:50,360 --> 00:39:52,960
I feel like, you know that like 
if I'm talking to you about 

717
00:39:52,960 --> 00:39:56,640
something, I'm like I need a 
mindset shift or like I'm just 

718
00:39:56,640 --> 00:39:58,840
like communicating this out or 
whatever. 

719
00:39:59,120 --> 00:40:04,760
And it always feels like a safe 
place to just be like. 

720
00:40:05,240 --> 00:40:08,080
Processing this emotion right 
now we'll be getting over it. 

721
00:40:08,080 --> 00:40:12,000
Just need to like speak this out
loud and you're you're always, 

722
00:40:12,000 --> 00:40:15,400
you always got something to say.
Lately though you've been you've

723
00:40:15,400 --> 00:40:18,160
been like feistier and I'm like 
really liking it. 

724
00:40:18,160 --> 00:40:21,440
Like it's like it used to be 
like everything's going to be so

725
00:40:21,440 --> 00:40:23,040
peaceful and it's going to work 
out. 

726
00:40:23,280 --> 00:40:26,080
And sometimes now I get a a text
back that's like, no, it's 

727
00:40:26,080 --> 00:40:31,080
annoying for real. 
I mean, we'll just go into, like

728
00:40:31,080 --> 00:40:34,520
we are so appreciative of all of
the guests that have came on and

729
00:40:34,520 --> 00:40:37,280
like have honored their 
commitment. 

730
00:40:37,280 --> 00:40:42,800
But what we also find is like 
people only want to connect with

731
00:40:42,800 --> 00:40:45,760
like the big dogs so they can 
get something out of it. 

732
00:40:45,760 --> 00:40:49,040
They're like, oh, why would I 
pour into this podcast that 

733
00:40:49,360 --> 00:40:51,880
isn't that big? 
Why would I even really make 

734
00:40:51,880 --> 00:40:54,840
this a commitment? 
Or they'll do something like 

735
00:40:54,840 --> 00:40:58,000
where they commit to the date 
and time that they picked Y'all,

736
00:40:58,000 --> 00:41:00,400
like they picked this fucking 
day in this time. 

737
00:41:00,400 --> 00:41:03,640
And then the day before or two 
days before they'll be like, 

738
00:41:04,000 --> 00:41:08,720
yeah, something came up, could 
we do it tomorrow or can we do 

739
00:41:08,720 --> 00:41:13,480
it this day or whatever? 
And then I'm like, no, like we, 

740
00:41:13,720 --> 00:41:17,520
we picked this date weeks ago. 
We based both of our schedules 

741
00:41:17,520 --> 00:41:19,320
around this. 
Like, Jim and I has a whole 

742
00:41:19,320 --> 00:41:21,480
family. 
We both have day jobs. 

743
00:41:21,480 --> 00:41:24,600
She's got another podcast. 
We both have our own LLC's. 

744
00:41:24,600 --> 00:41:28,440
Like, no, Like, I can't just do 
it tomorrow or I wouldn't have 

745
00:41:28,440 --> 00:41:32,320
picked the day that we picked or
let you pick that day. 

746
00:41:32,320 --> 00:41:35,440
And like, when we put you on the
schedule, we've committed to 

747
00:41:35,440 --> 00:41:37,320
that time. 
Like, I'm not booking readings, 

748
00:41:37,320 --> 00:41:40,400
I'm not scheduling clients, I'm 
not making dinner plans. 

749
00:41:40,400 --> 00:41:44,160
Like that's the time we picked 
and I expect you to honor that. 

750
00:41:44,840 --> 00:41:51,360
And we have people constantly 
who literally almost like just 

751
00:41:51,360 --> 00:41:55,400
waste our time completely by 
being wishy washy like. 

752
00:41:55,440 --> 00:41:58,400
And then when I come back, like,
OK, well this date works for us 

753
00:41:58,400 --> 00:42:00,000
and it's like 2 weeks in the 
future. 

754
00:42:00,000 --> 00:42:03,640
It's like I can't just get you 
in tomorrow or next week or 

755
00:42:04,160 --> 00:42:06,800
whatever, like. 
And then they always got like a 

756
00:42:06,800 --> 00:42:08,600
clap back. 
Oh, I have something that day. 

757
00:42:08,600 --> 00:42:10,800
Oh, I have the. 
OK, then like, do you want to do

758
00:42:10,800 --> 00:42:13,960
the interview or not, 'cause 
you're not putting this in a 

759
00:42:14,000 --> 00:42:19,720
concrete, committed zone. 
If I commit to plans, reading 

760
00:42:20,000 --> 00:42:22,840
whatever it is, I'm committed to
that. 

761
00:42:22,840 --> 00:42:25,440
Like if the energy changes or 
something changes, I'm going to 

762
00:42:25,440 --> 00:42:30,720
tell you I'm not going to like 
wait to last minute to the day 

763
00:42:30,720 --> 00:42:32,040
before. 
You know what I mean? 

764
00:42:32,040 --> 00:42:34,800
Like, that's what's so annoying 
is it's not like you told me a 

765
00:42:34,800 --> 00:42:37,080
week ago when you made these 
additional plans. 

766
00:42:37,320 --> 00:42:40,440
You waited to see if that those 
plans would go through and then 

767
00:42:40,440 --> 00:42:45,040
just ghost our plans. 
Or it doesn't even matter the 

768
00:42:45,040 --> 00:42:46,760
reschedule. 
There's been plenty of times 

769
00:42:46,760 --> 00:42:48,200
I've had to reschedule on 
something. 

770
00:42:48,360 --> 00:42:51,160
We reschedule with each other on
the podcast all the time when we

771
00:42:51,160 --> 00:42:53,080
have something scheduled and 
we're like, hey, you know, 

772
00:42:53,080 --> 00:42:55,160
whatever. 
Like if you want to reschedule, 

773
00:42:55,160 --> 00:42:57,480
cool beans. 
But it's the fact of, like, 

774
00:42:57,880 --> 00:43:02,080
literally not like a, a random 
thing that came up that can't be

775
00:43:02,080 --> 00:43:04,560
controlled. 
But like, I planned a vacation 

776
00:43:04,560 --> 00:43:07,600
that day with my friends, and 
I'm not going to have any cell 

777
00:43:07,600 --> 00:43:10,400
phone reception. 
Well, like, when did you plan 

778
00:43:10,400 --> 00:43:12,840
this vacation? 
And as you guys planned it, did 

779
00:43:12,840 --> 00:43:15,800
you And you look through your 
calendar, you didn't see that 

780
00:43:15,800 --> 00:43:18,320
you had the interview or you 
just said, oh, I'll reach out to

781
00:43:18,320 --> 00:43:21,360
those girls and then you waited 
the day before, like, what? 

782
00:43:21,360 --> 00:43:23,040
And that's just a hypothetical 
thing. 

783
00:43:23,040 --> 00:43:25,400
That's not calling anybody out. 
That's just a hypothetical 

784
00:43:25,400 --> 00:43:29,000
example. 
But like, I don't it it comes 

785
00:43:29,000 --> 00:43:31,600
across as rude. 
So then when we're like no 

786
00:43:31,600 --> 00:43:34,720
problem be super flexible about 
it and we reach out to you, then

787
00:43:34,720 --> 00:43:37,960
it's ghost. 
Or literally have it planned and

788
00:43:37,960 --> 00:43:43,160
then just don't answer the call.
Or we've had it planned before 

789
00:43:43,160 --> 00:43:46,560
and then randomly we try to 
confirm and they're like, what 

790
00:43:46,560 --> 00:43:49,160
time was it again? 
Like they didn't even put it in 

791
00:43:49,160 --> 00:43:52,360
their fucking calendar. 
Like that's just like, it's cool

792
00:43:52,360 --> 00:43:55,160
to keep your options open, but 
don't play with my time. 

793
00:43:55,160 --> 00:43:58,080
Because now where I'm like 
admiring your journey and 

794
00:43:58,080 --> 00:44:00,680
admiring your story. 
Now I'm like, I'm going to 

795
00:44:00,680 --> 00:44:03,240
unfollow you and when you write 
back I'm going to leave you on 

796
00:44:03,240 --> 00:44:04,840
red because you're getting on my
nerves. 

797
00:44:05,120 --> 00:44:07,800
Like that's how I am with 
anything, relationships, 

798
00:44:07,800 --> 00:44:09,600
friendships, business, 
partnerships. 

799
00:44:09,600 --> 00:44:12,400
Like, I will give you compassion
and grace. 

800
00:44:12,840 --> 00:44:14,600
Things are not perfect. 
Things change. 

801
00:44:14,600 --> 00:44:16,920
Schedules change, people change.
Whatever. 

802
00:44:17,240 --> 00:44:19,160
I will give you grace and 
compassion. 

803
00:44:19,520 --> 00:44:22,320
But when you pursue the 
situation, you pursue the 

804
00:44:22,320 --> 00:44:24,280
interview. 
You pursue me romantically. 

805
00:44:24,280 --> 00:44:27,600
You pursue a friendship. 
You make fucking plans and 

806
00:44:27,600 --> 00:44:31,000
pursue plans with me. 
And then you treat that like 

807
00:44:31,000 --> 00:44:33,920
it's an option on your roster of
options. 

808
00:44:34,240 --> 00:44:36,080
Fuck you now. 
I don't even like you. 

809
00:44:36,080 --> 00:44:39,880
Like now, where I admired your 
story, or I liked you, or had a 

810
00:44:39,880 --> 00:44:42,280
bond with you, now you're giving
me the ick. 

811
00:44:42,320 --> 00:44:46,080
Because if you can't keep your 
word about basic things, like 

812
00:44:46,080 --> 00:44:50,200
very basic commitments, you're 
not a loyal person and you're 

813
00:44:50,200 --> 00:44:53,600
not a you're not a real, 
committed person. 

814
00:44:53,600 --> 00:44:56,400
And I don't want someone who 
can't commit to anything like 

815
00:44:56,400 --> 00:44:59,560
whether it's a damn interview or
eating tacos on Tuesday. 

816
00:44:59,560 --> 00:45:05,400
Like if we make plans, you 
better be aware of how that 

817
00:45:05,400 --> 00:45:08,600
looks when you constantly change
those plans. 

818
00:45:08,640 --> 00:45:11,680
Like, it's cool something came 
up, I got to work today, my kids

819
00:45:11,680 --> 00:45:13,920
sick. 
I don't feel good, whatever. 

820
00:45:13,920 --> 00:45:15,880
Like I'm so flexible and 
compassionate. 

821
00:45:15,880 --> 00:45:19,880
But it's like when they continue
to pursue the objective with no 

822
00:45:19,880 --> 00:45:23,440
real plans of actually 
committing to that objective. 

823
00:45:23,720 --> 00:45:25,720
Because then they're like, oh, 
when can we reschedule? 

824
00:45:25,720 --> 00:45:29,400
And then they leave us on red or
they don't open the message at 

825
00:45:29,400 --> 00:45:31,760
all. 
So it gets buried in their DMS 

826
00:45:31,800 --> 00:45:33,680
somewhere. 
And like, I know we're all busy,

827
00:45:33,680 --> 00:45:36,840
life happens. 
But like, just honor your 

828
00:45:36,840 --> 00:45:39,000
commitments. 
And that that just really feeds 

829
00:45:39,000 --> 00:45:41,840
on to what Jim and I said about 
like charging your worth because

830
00:45:41,880 --> 00:45:43,200
people are not going to waste 
your time. 

831
00:45:43,200 --> 00:45:46,240
Like the girl that does my 
eyebrows, she used to do like 

832
00:45:46,240 --> 00:45:49,680
the 50% cancellation fee. 
So if you cancelled within 24 

833
00:45:49,680 --> 00:45:53,520
hours, she still got 50%. 
She changed that shit to 100%. 

834
00:45:53,680 --> 00:45:56,960
So it don't matter if you don't 
cancel 24 hours or greater. 

835
00:45:56,960 --> 00:45:59,360
So she could actually book that 
appointment. 

836
00:45:59,880 --> 00:46:02,200
You pay 100% of the service and 
guess what? 

837
00:46:03,400 --> 00:46:06,080
People fucking show up now. 
And that's the same thing with 

838
00:46:06,080 --> 00:46:08,520
my stuff. 
Like I've never had anyone just 

839
00:46:08,520 --> 00:46:12,520
ghost me unless it was a free 
consultation reading when I used

840
00:46:12,520 --> 00:46:15,360
to do free readings, had people 
ghost those all the time. 

841
00:46:15,640 --> 00:46:17,320
Treat it just like it was 
nothing. 

842
00:46:17,720 --> 00:46:22,320
But when it comes to, like, 
you're spending 7585 a $100 on 

843
00:46:22,320 --> 00:46:26,200
something, people show up and 
they have a good time and we we 

844
00:46:26,200 --> 00:46:28,200
connect and do what needs to 
happen. 

845
00:46:28,200 --> 00:46:32,960
But you know, that's why I like,
I don't know, I mean, y'all 

846
00:46:32,960 --> 00:46:35,080
better get it while it's hot, 
'cause like I may get on a 

847
00:46:35,080 --> 00:46:37,600
rampage this summer and up the 
price again, 'cause that's the 

848
00:46:37,600 --> 00:46:40,880
cool thing about being your own 
boss is like, if I want to raise

849
00:46:41,400 --> 00:46:43,840
whatever I want to raise, I 
don't got to ask permission. 

850
00:46:43,840 --> 00:46:46,000
Like, it's just like, I don't 
feel like fucking with $50 

851
00:46:46,000 --> 00:46:49,640
readings anymore because if they
try to rush me or I don't feel 

852
00:46:49,640 --> 00:46:52,080
like doing this anymore, I'm 
going to delete it off my site. 

853
00:46:52,080 --> 00:46:55,240
Like nothing is permanent. 
So like, get it while it's hot. 

854
00:46:55,240 --> 00:46:58,440
Like, take care of your business
because the offer won't always 

855
00:46:58,440 --> 00:47:01,040
be there. 
Romantically, businessly, 

856
00:47:01,040 --> 00:47:03,400
photonically, whatever it is, 
it's not always going to be on 

857
00:47:03,400 --> 00:47:05,960
the table. 
So either eat or get up. 

858
00:47:08,280 --> 00:47:10,000
Yeah, see, that's what I was 
talking about when I said you're

859
00:47:10,000 --> 00:47:12,600
all spicy now. 
I'll like it a lot. 

860
00:47:12,600 --> 00:47:14,120
I'm over here. 
Like, yes. 

861
00:47:14,600 --> 00:47:17,120
Fucking tell em. 
Polly Pocket Gangster Bitch 

862
00:47:17,160 --> 00:47:19,200
edition. 
Oh my gosh. 

863
00:47:20,040 --> 00:47:23,320
When I was talking to Jasmine 
and her friend Brian, I put it 

864
00:47:23,320 --> 00:47:25,080
up on. 
I'll have to send you the whole 

865
00:47:25,080 --> 00:47:29,520
video if you want to watch it. 
I put it up on my Patreon. 

866
00:47:29,720 --> 00:47:31,720
But we were talking. 
I took the clip out. 

867
00:47:31,720 --> 00:47:35,280
We were talking about you and he
was like, you call her Polly 

868
00:47:35,280 --> 00:47:38,920
Pocket and I was like, dude, 
like, she has the accessory, the

869
00:47:38,920 --> 00:47:41,240
purse, the outfit, the 
everything. 

870
00:47:41,240 --> 00:47:43,520
That the hair's on point. 
The nails are done. 

871
00:47:43,840 --> 00:47:47,440
The lipstick's done. 
Like, I'm like, she'll tell me 

872
00:47:48,240 --> 00:47:51,400
I'm about to look a mess on 
this, on this zoom. 

873
00:47:51,600 --> 00:47:55,080
And then we get on the zoom and 
your fucking perfection. 

874
00:47:55,080 --> 00:47:57,280
Your eyebrows are done. 
Your titties are to the roof. 

875
00:47:57,280 --> 00:48:00,440
Like, you're ready to go. 
Absolutely not. 

876
00:48:00,480 --> 00:48:03,880
And so I was like, yeah, she's 
like a Polly Pocket. 

877
00:48:04,160 --> 00:48:07,920
And then Jasmine's like, she is,
Oh my God, she has a Polly 

878
00:48:07,920 --> 00:48:13,760
Pocket. 
So listen, I I love it. 

879
00:48:13,760 --> 00:48:17,200
I like it a lot. 
Also, I've been listening to 

880
00:48:17,200 --> 00:48:22,560
this book. 
It's called Existential Kink, 

881
00:48:23,480 --> 00:48:28,480
and it's a book that my friend 
Willow Moon recommended to me. 

882
00:48:29,320 --> 00:48:33,480
And it's basically like the 
underlying thing is all about, 

883
00:48:33,480 --> 00:48:38,160
like, how you secretly find 
pleasure in the things that you 

884
00:48:38,160 --> 00:48:42,440
don't like. 
And it's just like, it's a 

885
00:48:42,440 --> 00:48:45,320
fucking fascinating book and it 
has all these different mindset 

886
00:48:45,320 --> 00:48:50,080
things like shifts to things. 
And it's totally motivated me 

887
00:48:50,080 --> 00:48:53,280
for like, hello, losing weight 
before summer. 

888
00:48:53,840 --> 00:48:56,760
And like going back like I was 
on a journey before, but I 

889
00:48:56,760 --> 00:49:00,880
wasn't really, I don't know, I 
was on a journey before, but I 

890
00:49:00,880 --> 00:49:03,440
wasn't really working on, like 
the mental health aspect of 

891
00:49:03,440 --> 00:49:06,560
things. 
And I think that has a lot to do

892
00:49:06,560 --> 00:49:10,400
with like, ways that you treat 
your body, things that you put 

893
00:49:10,400 --> 00:49:13,560
in your body, ways that you see 
yourself. 

894
00:49:13,560 --> 00:49:16,040
So then you don't change your 
body because you think that 

895
00:49:16,040 --> 00:49:19,200
like, it's never attainable and 
like you're not worth it, just 

896
00:49:19,200 --> 00:49:23,080
like all these types of things. 
So, and I'm, I'm listening to 

897
00:49:23,080 --> 00:49:25,920
this book and I'm like absorbing
this information and I'm like, 

898
00:49:25,920 --> 00:49:29,360
OK, so like my weight loss 
journey is not going to be just 

899
00:49:29,360 --> 00:49:31,720
like a weight loss journey. 
Like I really need to focus on 

900
00:49:31,720 --> 00:49:33,920
like triggers and mental health 
and like different things. 

901
00:49:33,920 --> 00:49:35,880
So I'm thinking about how I'm 
going to do that. 

902
00:49:35,880 --> 00:49:41,040
And I'm scrolling Instagram and 
I find this trainer that's like 

903
00:49:41,520 --> 00:49:45,040
basically saying all of that, 
like how LinkedIn, your mental 

904
00:49:45,040 --> 00:49:48,320
health is and how during winter 
time people can go into like 

905
00:49:48,320 --> 00:49:52,440
really seasonal depression. 
And like your body wants to go 

906
00:49:52,440 --> 00:49:55,200
into hibernation and you know, 
like working on your mental 

907
00:49:55,200 --> 00:49:57,000
health and your physical and 
whatever. 

908
00:49:57,720 --> 00:50:00,800
And last time that I had tried 
to be with the trainer, I got 

909
00:50:00,800 --> 00:50:05,680
really frustrated because I went
into it telling her very 

910
00:50:05,680 --> 00:50:09,920
clearly, like, I want to learn 
about my body and learn how to, 

911
00:50:09,920 --> 00:50:11,640
like, take care of my body 
myself. 

912
00:50:11,640 --> 00:50:15,160
Like, I want to understand why 
you're choosing the foods that 

913
00:50:15,160 --> 00:50:17,880
you're choosing and like, what 
the macros are for that or like,

914
00:50:17,880 --> 00:50:20,080
whatever, so that, like, this 
can be something that's 

915
00:50:20,080 --> 00:50:23,360
sustainable when I'm not paying 
you anymore, right? 

916
00:50:23,360 --> 00:50:27,560
To, like, understand it. 
And she didn't give me any of 

917
00:50:27,560 --> 00:50:30,720
that type of information. 
And then the meals that she 

918
00:50:30,720 --> 00:50:34,000
would give me were like, they 
had been literally chosen for 

919
00:50:34,000 --> 00:50:35,800
somebody else. 
Like, I don't like eggs. 

920
00:50:36,120 --> 00:50:38,160
Every single meal had eggs in 
it. 

921
00:50:38,440 --> 00:50:41,120
And I'd be like, hey, like, I 
don't like eggs. 

922
00:50:41,560 --> 00:50:43,160
And she's like, oh, let me 
change that for you. 

923
00:50:43,200 --> 00:50:48,880
And she changed one thing about 
it and like one recipe or 

924
00:50:48,880 --> 00:50:50,400
whatever, and all the rest would
be eggs. 

925
00:50:50,400 --> 00:50:53,480
I just felt like I felt really 
frustrated and I paid a lot of 

926
00:50:53,480 --> 00:50:57,320
money for that. 
And the thing with me is like if

927
00:50:57,360 --> 00:51:03,480
I'm I'm wanting like a certain 
level of like support and also 

928
00:51:03,480 --> 00:51:07,200
somebody to like be accountable.
So and I don't like feeling 

929
00:51:07,200 --> 00:51:11,360
brushed off by things and so I 
felt super brushed off by that 

930
00:51:11,360 --> 00:51:13,360
and I'm hoping this will be a 
different experience. 

931
00:51:14,560 --> 00:51:17,560
Every time I get a trainer that 
says they give you a meal plan, 

932
00:51:17,560 --> 00:51:20,360
they do that shit, 'cause deep 
down, a lot of these trainers 

933
00:51:20,800 --> 00:51:23,600
have an exercise science 
associates and they have 

934
00:51:23,600 --> 00:51:26,960
absolutely nothing in nutrition 
because you've got to have a 

935
00:51:26,960 --> 00:51:30,560
bachelor's to really start 
taking nutrition and those types

936
00:51:30,560 --> 00:51:33,120
of classes. 
So every time I got a trainer, 

937
00:51:33,120 --> 00:51:36,920
like, yeah, they have some kind 
of thing or associates in 

938
00:51:36,920 --> 00:51:41,480
exercise science, but like, they
don't have any true knowing. 

939
00:51:41,480 --> 00:51:44,560
And like what I've learned is a 
lot of people just regurgitate 

940
00:51:44,560 --> 00:51:47,680
what worked for them. 
Like, that's where, like the 

941
00:51:47,680 --> 00:51:51,840
coaching, personal training, 
coaching and spirituality, 

942
00:51:51,840 --> 00:51:53,720
whatever. 
Like people are just giving you 

943
00:51:53,720 --> 00:51:56,320
what works for them. 
And I mean, I don't consider my 

944
00:51:56,480 --> 00:51:59,360
myself a coach, but I give 
people what worked for me. 

945
00:51:59,360 --> 00:52:02,320
Like, it may not work for you, 
but I do help tailor it 

946
00:52:02,320 --> 00:52:04,880
specifically to your needs. 
Like, I'm not going to give you 

947
00:52:05,200 --> 00:52:09,360
a bunch of affirmations about 
body dysmorphia like I had if 

948
00:52:09,360 --> 00:52:13,120
your real blocks are around 
abandonment or around 

949
00:52:13,120 --> 00:52:15,720
unworthiness, right? 
Like, I don't know. 

950
00:52:15,720 --> 00:52:20,280
I think nutrition is its own 
like arena, so hopefully they do

951
00:52:20,280 --> 00:52:22,760
do that for you. 
But I would just say like a lot 

952
00:52:22,760 --> 00:52:25,440
of times shit looks good on 
paper, but like, they have no 

953
00:52:25,440 --> 00:52:29,320
nutrition background whatsoever,
so they're I. 

954
00:52:29,400 --> 00:52:33,000
Work for a nutritionist though. 
So like, I've had like the 

955
00:52:33,000 --> 00:52:36,880
nutrition element of things for 
a long time and so I guess 

956
00:52:36,880 --> 00:52:38,320
that's where I got frustrated 
too. 

957
00:52:38,320 --> 00:52:40,840
Is like, I'm already working 
with the nutritionist. 

958
00:52:40,840 --> 00:52:44,400
So the information that I gave 
to that trainer was like, hey, 

959
00:52:45,040 --> 00:52:48,880
before I even signed up, I 
already have this person I'm 

960
00:52:48,880 --> 00:52:52,560
already working on like the 
nutrition side of things I'm 

961
00:52:52,560 --> 00:52:56,640
needing like the physical side 
of things and I don't know, I 

962
00:52:56,920 --> 00:53:02,480
anyways, it was yeah, makes me 
frustrated even like going back 

963
00:53:02,480 --> 00:53:05,600
and talking about it. 
I'm just like, it was a very 

964
00:53:05,600 --> 00:53:09,360
frustrating, like, experience. 
Mommy, That's kind of how I felt

965
00:53:09,360 --> 00:53:13,480
when I joined that container. 
She called it Illumination and 

966
00:53:13,480 --> 00:53:17,520
it was literally just a bunch of
sob story bitches to put in a 

967
00:53:17,520 --> 00:53:20,680
room and they she just charged 
us all to be there. 

968
00:53:20,680 --> 00:53:24,240
Like, I could literally go to a 
fucking AOL chat room and 

969
00:53:24,280 --> 00:53:26,400
receive. 
I can go to Reddit and get more,

970
00:53:26,640 --> 00:53:28,560
you know what I mean? 
Like it was like she charged us 

971
00:53:28,560 --> 00:53:32,240
all to basically be put in a 
room together where a lot of 

972
00:53:32,240 --> 00:53:35,480
people idolized her. 
And so then she used us as like 

973
00:53:35,480 --> 00:53:39,240
her, like Heitman, you know, 
like, oh, you're so great. 

974
00:53:39,280 --> 00:53:42,960
It's going so great. 
And like that girl, even though 

975
00:53:42,960 --> 00:53:45,960
I reached out to her and was 
like, I got nothing out of this.

976
00:53:45,960 --> 00:53:49,320
Like she asked for our feedback 
and I was like, like a month 

977
00:53:49,320 --> 00:53:51,480
left of the container. 
I was like, I'm not getting 

978
00:53:51,480 --> 00:53:53,600
anything out of this that I 
didn't already have. 

979
00:53:53,920 --> 00:53:55,680
And then she started saying, 
well, you were just more 

980
00:53:55,680 --> 00:53:58,120
advanced when you joined and 
maybe you should have considered

981
00:53:58,120 --> 00:54:01,720
that you're the one that said 
you had something to offer. 

982
00:54:01,720 --> 00:54:05,440
This is not what we got. 
And it was just shit. 

983
00:54:05,440 --> 00:54:07,600
It was just shit. 
And like, honestly, that's what 

984
00:54:07,880 --> 00:54:12,280
hinders me from charging people 
an X amount for a collective 

985
00:54:12,280 --> 00:54:18,680
journey while I do it on 
Patreon, like monthly with 

986
00:54:18,680 --> 00:54:23,120
certain people. 
Because it's definitely a lot of

987
00:54:23,120 --> 00:54:26,400
pressure to try to pull a bunch 
of people together and like, you

988
00:54:26,400 --> 00:54:28,760
know, the Discord and the 
community chats and things like 

989
00:54:28,760 --> 00:54:31,680
that are a little different. 
Like, they're not like you're 

990
00:54:31,680 --> 00:54:35,080
paying $2000 to be there. 
Like when you paid 11 and you 

991
00:54:35,080 --> 00:54:37,480
don't open it for two weeks, Not
a big deal. 

992
00:54:37,640 --> 00:54:41,040
You paid 1500, It's a big deal 
all of a sudden. 

993
00:54:41,040 --> 00:54:43,920
So that's what's made me 
uncomfortable is some of those 

994
00:54:43,920 --> 00:54:47,960
experiences that I've had with 
coaches or people, even personal

995
00:54:47,960 --> 00:54:51,480
trainers. 
Like, I just can't find people 

996
00:54:51,480 --> 00:54:54,680
that really have their shit in 
the way that I want it to be. 

997
00:54:55,280 --> 00:54:58,000
He's I'm like, I don't know, 
like I saw a guy today and he 

998
00:54:58,000 --> 00:55:00,680
like, he just looks like he 
works out all the time. 

999
00:55:00,680 --> 00:55:03,560
And so everyone kept coming up 
to him, asking him questions at 

1000
00:55:03,560 --> 00:55:06,040
the gym like he was a trainer. 
Like, even though I know he's 

1001
00:55:06,040 --> 00:55:07,960
not, he just works out all the 
time. 

1002
00:55:08,240 --> 00:55:12,640
And it's just like a lot of the 
things that we need. 

1003
00:55:12,640 --> 00:55:14,840
It just is trial and error, 
right? 

1004
00:55:14,840 --> 00:55:17,480
Like just doing the things, 
doing the hard stuff, trying our

1005
00:55:17,480 --> 00:55:22,240
best, learning what we can. 
But sometimes, like coaches and 

1006
00:55:22,240 --> 00:55:25,560
especially in the spiritual 
arena, they're just scammy. 

1007
00:55:25,560 --> 00:55:28,680
They're all like if I read your 
post and every time you're 

1008
00:55:28,680 --> 00:55:31,840
trying to sell me something, I 
don't fuck with you. 

1009
00:55:36,440 --> 00:55:44,960
Yeah, I I feel like when I was 
first starting out on social 

1010
00:55:44,960 --> 00:55:49,080
media I did a lot of MLM which 
is like multi level marketing, 

1011
00:55:49,440 --> 00:55:53,440
so basically selling shit for 
other people's companies. 

1012
00:55:54,040 --> 00:55:58,040
And there are a lot of people 
that are my age and even a 

1013
00:55:58,040 --> 00:56:03,800
little bit older, well, our age 
that come from MLM backgrounds 

1014
00:56:03,800 --> 00:56:06,120
and then they end up starting 
their own businesses. 

1015
00:56:06,440 --> 00:56:10,480
And I've always, ever since I 
stopped doing those companies 

1016
00:56:10,480 --> 00:56:15,200
and I looked back, I'm always 
like they were literally fucking

1017
00:56:15,280 --> 00:56:18,560
just training you to be a slave 
and push sales for them. 

1018
00:56:18,960 --> 00:56:23,480
Like, I I literally had people 
above me and and these things 

1019
00:56:23,480 --> 00:56:26,880
that would be like, you guys are
just being lazy. 

1020
00:56:27,080 --> 00:56:29,440
You know I have all these girls 
underneath me. 

1021
00:56:29,440 --> 00:56:31,880
I did it. 
You guys should be doing it too,

1022
00:56:31,880 --> 00:56:34,800
like, you know, whatever. 
And the posts that they used to 

1023
00:56:34,800 --> 00:56:38,040
post, like they used to say fake
it till you make it so girls 

1024
00:56:38,040 --> 00:56:42,720
would be posting like get a 
$10,000 bonus and like whatever.

1025
00:56:42,720 --> 00:56:46,320
And you were told post like this
all the time like you're. 

1026
00:56:46,320 --> 00:56:49,480
I think it was like they had 
like a three, three rule. 

1027
00:56:49,480 --> 00:56:52,160
So you have to post 3 things 
about the business and three 

1028
00:56:52,160 --> 00:56:54,720
things about your personal life 
to like make people be your 

1029
00:56:54,720 --> 00:56:58,480
friend. 
And so whether or not people did

1030
00:56:58,480 --> 00:57:01,880
MLM businesses or they just had 
like a lot of people around them

1031
00:57:01,880 --> 00:57:07,360
that did it, there is a very 
specific, like, niche of people 

1032
00:57:07,600 --> 00:57:09,840
who were promoting like that on 
social media. 

1033
00:57:10,120 --> 00:57:13,160
And I almost wonder if some of 
the people who make all the 

1034
00:57:13,320 --> 00:57:16,880
posts the way that they are now 
is because they think that 

1035
00:57:16,880 --> 00:57:18,560
that's how, like they run their 
business. 

1036
00:57:18,560 --> 00:57:20,960
That's how they've seen people 
on their pages run their 

1037
00:57:20,960 --> 00:57:23,480
businesses. 
Like they think that that's 

1038
00:57:23,480 --> 00:57:27,000
going to get people's attention.
I think shout your fucking self 

1039
00:57:27,000 --> 00:57:30,080
out and share your stuff and 
talk about what you offer and 

1040
00:57:30,080 --> 00:57:31,360
what you do. 
Like, there's a reason that 

1041
00:57:31,360 --> 00:57:33,320
you're doing a business, you're 
going to sell yourself. 

1042
00:57:33,840 --> 00:57:37,800
But also I'd like to see about 
people's like lives and like 

1043
00:57:37,800 --> 00:57:39,880
different types of content in 
between. 

1044
00:57:39,880 --> 00:57:42,440
And I want to see something 
funny on your page or something 

1045
00:57:42,440 --> 00:57:45,560
that I relate to other than just
your service. 

1046
00:57:45,560 --> 00:57:48,520
Because then I'm like, I I don't
know anything about you. 

1047
00:57:48,520 --> 00:57:51,880
And that probably just bothers 
us because we do post other 

1048
00:57:51,880 --> 00:57:55,680
things about like our life and 
our world, and we're just like, 

1049
00:57:55,680 --> 00:57:58,400
so is your whole personality 
just trying to make money or are

1050
00:57:58,400 --> 00:58:00,640
you going to, you know, share 
anything about you? 

1051
00:58:01,760 --> 00:58:07,400
Yeah, I think that a lot of 
people like see influencers or 

1052
00:58:07,400 --> 00:58:09,560
people making money on the 
Internet and they think like, 

1053
00:58:09,560 --> 00:58:12,360
oh, I could do only fans or oh, 
I could do this, or oh, I could 

1054
00:58:12,360 --> 00:58:14,240
start a business. 
And then it's fucking hard. 

1055
00:58:14,240 --> 00:58:18,040
Like, I love whenever I see 
people like, downplay sex work, 

1056
00:58:18,320 --> 00:58:20,520
not realizing how fucking hard 
it is. 

1057
00:58:20,520 --> 00:58:24,400
Like very, very hard. 
Like you can be naturally sexy 

1058
00:58:24,400 --> 00:58:28,440
and naturally sexual and still 
not be good at only fans and 

1059
00:58:28,440 --> 00:58:31,520
still not be good. 
It it takes more than just being

1060
00:58:31,640 --> 00:58:35,480
pretty or being smart or being 
whatever to do certain things. 

1061
00:58:35,480 --> 00:58:39,200
And I just feel like so many 
people are like their their 

1062
00:58:39,320 --> 00:58:42,360
mission or their prerogative is 
like, you ain't shit without my 

1063
00:58:42,360 --> 00:58:45,720
service or you're not nothing if
you don't book this service kind

1064
00:58:45,720 --> 00:58:48,920
of thing. 
And that's like, I don't know, 

1065
00:58:48,960 --> 00:58:53,800
like Facebook and Instagram 
selling the blue check marks 

1066
00:58:53,800 --> 00:58:56,280
made everybody think that 
they're important, like that 

1067
00:58:56,280 --> 00:58:58,760
everyone has the capacity to 
feel important. 

1068
00:58:59,120 --> 00:59:01,640
And a lot of you all are not 
that important. 

1069
00:59:01,640 --> 00:59:03,720
And I don't mean that in a mean.
Way I mean. 

1070
00:59:04,160 --> 00:59:07,520
I don't mean that in a mean way.
I just mean like your ego has 

1071
00:59:07,520 --> 00:59:10,400
went through the roof because of
the Internet. 

1072
00:59:10,400 --> 00:59:14,440
And in real life, you need to 
focus on real cultivation of 

1073
00:59:14,440 --> 00:59:18,160
true friendships and connections
and partnerships and business 

1074
00:59:18,640 --> 00:59:21,560
associates. 
But like, this Internet shit is 

1075
00:59:21,560 --> 00:59:24,040
like a game. 
And y'all think because 

1076
00:59:24,040 --> 00:59:27,600
something gets a lot of likes or
views that it's legit or that 

1077
00:59:27,600 --> 00:59:31,240
it's good. 
And actually, Russ the rapper, I

1078
00:59:31,240 --> 00:59:34,880
admire a lot of his perspective.
He was saying earlier on threads

1079
00:59:34,880 --> 00:59:39,800
how this generation of people 
have no concept of what they do 

1080
00:59:39,800 --> 00:59:43,600
and don't like that they're only
attracted to like the hype, like

1081
00:59:43,840 --> 00:59:46,000
oh that got a lot of views, that
got a lot of likes. 

1082
00:59:46,000 --> 00:59:48,560
It must be good music. 
It must be good content. 

1083
00:59:48,840 --> 00:59:51,600
And I don't mean like, y'all 
aren't that important. 

1084
00:59:51,600 --> 00:59:55,280
I mean like you're giving your 
power away to the Internet and 

1085
00:59:55,280 --> 00:59:58,760
as soon as the electricity and 
the the lights go off, baby, who

1086
00:59:58,760 --> 01:00:01,240
are you? 
You're wrapped up in this 

1087
01:00:01,240 --> 01:00:06,200
illusion of what you present to 
the world, your your highs, your

1088
01:00:06,200 --> 01:00:09,560
wins, your gains. 
But like, what about that raw, 

1089
01:00:09,560 --> 01:00:15,400
authentic expression that really
does make songs and music and 

1090
01:00:15,400 --> 01:00:18,080
art and things? 
And it changed people's lives. 

1091
01:00:18,080 --> 01:00:21,280
Like, what about the impact? 
I guess like, you're not that 

1092
01:00:21,280 --> 01:00:24,280
important with your blue check 
mark bouncing around telling 

1093
01:00:24,280 --> 01:00:26,040
everyone they need your 
services. 

1094
01:00:26,920 --> 01:00:30,880
Because at the end of the day, 
are you living purposefully? 

1095
01:00:30,880 --> 01:00:34,200
Like, are you living virtuously 
or are you just wrapped in your 

1096
01:00:34,200 --> 01:00:35,880
Internet image? 
Is what I'm saying. 

1097
01:00:35,880 --> 01:00:39,640
Like, you're not that important 
except on the Internet. 

1098
01:00:40,160 --> 01:00:41,480
And then we go back to real 
life. 

1099
01:00:41,480 --> 01:00:44,520
And I promise you, like, you've 
got to set with yourself and 

1100
01:00:44,520 --> 01:00:47,840
you've got to acknowledge, like,
am I doing this for monetary 

1101
01:00:47,840 --> 01:00:51,480
gain, for ego recognition, for 
the hype? 

1102
01:00:51,480 --> 01:00:54,400
Or do I do this because I 
fucking love to do this? 

1103
01:00:54,400 --> 01:00:58,080
Like, you know, I'm just 
convinced that so many people 

1104
01:00:58,080 --> 01:01:01,320
are used to watching celebrities
do shit that really isn't in 

1105
01:01:01,320 --> 01:01:05,520
alignment with them to get 
famous, to to be known and to be

1106
01:01:05,520 --> 01:01:08,360
recognized. 
And they lose themselves in 

1107
01:01:08,360 --> 01:01:10,920
that. 
Like they may go win Grammys, 

1108
01:01:10,920 --> 01:01:13,840
but they sold their soul in some
way, shape or form to get there 

1109
01:01:13,840 --> 01:01:18,040
by compromising their beliefs 
and compromising their truth and

1110
01:01:18,040 --> 01:01:22,800
compromising their integrity. 
So I don't give a fuck about a 

1111
01:01:22,800 --> 01:01:25,600
blue check mark or thousands of 
followers or whatever. 

1112
01:01:25,600 --> 01:01:28,400
It is like if I connect with you
and ask you to come on the pod 

1113
01:01:28,400 --> 01:01:30,520
or ask you to collaborate or 
something like that. 

1114
01:01:30,760 --> 01:01:33,880
It has nothing to do with your 
following your blue check mark 

1115
01:01:33,880 --> 01:01:36,680
with your whatever. 
Cuz I see right through all 

1116
01:01:36,680 --> 01:01:38,120
that. 
I see through what people 

1117
01:01:38,120 --> 01:01:40,520
project. 
And that's why it's difficult 

1118
01:01:40,520 --> 01:01:42,760
for me to build new 
relationships, cause a lot of 

1119
01:01:42,760 --> 01:01:46,920
people, like the light that 
attracted them into my life is 

1120
01:01:46,920 --> 01:01:49,360
also the light that illuminates 
their shadows. 

1121
01:01:49,360 --> 01:01:52,280
And they're like, whoa, I'd 
rather not deal with this. 

1122
01:01:52,280 --> 01:01:54,320
I'd rather not be triggered by 
this. 

1123
01:01:54,640 --> 01:01:57,960
And they go back to complacency.
They go back to their comfort 

1124
01:01:57,960 --> 01:02:00,560
zone. 
They go back to the friends that

1125
01:02:01,560 --> 01:02:03,920
and encourage them to be the 
worst version of themselves. 

1126
01:02:04,160 --> 01:02:07,800
Because it's always been said 
that when you start growing and 

1127
01:02:07,800 --> 01:02:11,000
you start leveling up and 
elevating, people will 

1128
01:02:11,000 --> 01:02:15,200
automatically be removed from 
your life because they do not 

1129
01:02:15,280 --> 01:02:17,240
serve you. 
And that's where a lot of people

1130
01:02:17,240 --> 01:02:19,800
don't want to wake up because 
they're like, I don't want to 

1131
01:02:19,800 --> 01:02:24,240
disrupt my comfort zone. 
And so when I say like, you're 

1132
01:02:24,240 --> 01:02:27,160
not that important, I mean, who 
are you without the Internet? 

1133
01:02:27,400 --> 01:02:29,440
What is that blue check mark 
really do for you? 

1134
01:02:29,440 --> 01:02:32,440
Or what are them 100,000 
followers really do for you 

1135
01:02:32,720 --> 01:02:35,760
besides make you think that 
you're so special and that you 

1136
01:02:35,760 --> 01:02:38,800
have some magical power over 
other people? 

1137
01:02:38,800 --> 01:02:41,880
Like a lot of it is a 
competition and they have put us

1138
01:02:41,880 --> 01:02:45,520
on the Internet, shown us the 
likes, shown us the views so 

1139
01:02:45,520 --> 01:02:48,880
that we compete with the next 
motherfucker instead of just 

1140
01:02:48,880 --> 01:02:52,920
worrying about your own life and
your own integrity and your own 

1141
01:02:52,920 --> 01:02:54,840
purpose. 
People are over here trying to 

1142
01:02:54,840 --> 01:03:00,440
be something they're not. 
So if that offends you, so be 

1143
01:03:00,480 --> 01:03:02,920
it. 
Then you're not that important. 

1144
01:03:03,000 --> 01:03:06,440
I'm just kidding. 
No. 

1145
01:03:07,440 --> 01:03:10,760
When you break it down that way,
I I agree with what you're 

1146
01:03:10,760 --> 01:03:12,520
saying. 
I think that a lot of people, 

1147
01:03:12,760 --> 01:03:14,160
actually. 
I was watching this video on 

1148
01:03:14,160 --> 01:03:16,200
TikTok and this lady owns a 
restaurant. 

1149
01:03:16,200 --> 01:03:20,240
She was talking about how 
somebody came into her 

1150
01:03:20,240 --> 01:03:24,680
restaurant and was being super 
rude to the staff and was not 

1151
01:03:24,680 --> 01:03:27,320
kind. 
It was being very demanding and 

1152
01:03:27,320 --> 01:03:31,160
was asking people if they knew 
who she was and said that, you 

1153
01:03:31,160 --> 01:03:34,920
know, she was, you know, famous 
on TikTok or whatever. 

1154
01:03:34,920 --> 01:03:37,200
And the lady's like none of us 
knew her. 

1155
01:03:37,200 --> 01:03:41,280
I went to her profile and she 
had 900,000, you know, 907,000. 

1156
01:03:41,280 --> 01:03:43,640
She had almost 1,000,000 
followers and whatever. 

1157
01:03:43,640 --> 01:03:45,120
And she's like, but I didn't 
know her. 

1158
01:03:45,120 --> 01:03:49,520
And she was not a kind person. 
And the way that she was 

1159
01:03:49,520 --> 01:03:52,840
portraying herself online is not
the way that she was behaving 

1160
01:03:52,840 --> 01:03:56,000
inside of my restaurant and not 
reflecting, like the way that 

1161
01:03:56,000 --> 01:03:59,200
she was treating my staff. 
And she's like, you being 

1162
01:03:59,200 --> 01:04:02,280
somebody on the Internet doesn't
mean that you're a good person 

1163
01:04:02,280 --> 01:04:05,920
in person. 
And I was just like, damn, 

1164
01:04:07,760 --> 01:04:12,960
that's true though. 
I mean that's I that's even like

1165
01:04:12,960 --> 01:04:15,800
it is what we were talking about
before with like our experiences

1166
01:04:15,800 --> 01:04:20,120
with people sometimes like they 
portray themselves to be one way

1167
01:04:20,120 --> 01:04:22,640
and we're like wow, I fucking 
love that so much. 

1168
01:04:22,640 --> 01:04:24,480
That's dope. 
I'd love to get to know you and 

1169
01:04:24,480 --> 01:04:28,840
talk to you and then it's the 
energy of like you weren't 

1170
01:04:28,840 --> 01:04:32,480
important enough for me to keep 
this going with so. 

1171
01:04:33,000 --> 01:04:36,480
But if we had 500,000 followers 
and they thought they could 

1172
01:04:36,480 --> 01:04:39,320
level up because of us, then 
they're first in line. 

1173
01:04:39,640 --> 01:04:42,320
Like a lot of people don't 
answer the call until they think

1174
01:04:42,320 --> 01:04:44,320
you're going to give them 
something they don't already 

1175
01:04:44,320 --> 01:04:46,040
have. 
And that's why. 

1176
01:04:46,040 --> 01:04:50,080
Like if something has fell out 
of alignment, I no longer chase 

1177
01:04:50,080 --> 01:04:51,880
it. 
I'm just like, OK, bye. 

1178
01:04:52,080 --> 01:04:53,680
Like you didn't see value in it.
Bye. 

1179
01:04:53,680 --> 01:04:57,160
You didn't see value in me and 
my platform and this connection 

1180
01:04:57,160 --> 01:04:58,840
and this relationship and this 
friendship. 

1181
01:04:58,840 --> 01:05:01,880
Whatever it is, I'm like bye. 
And honestly, it starts giving 

1182
01:05:01,880 --> 01:05:04,600
me the ick because the things 
that I liked about you have now 

1183
01:05:04,600 --> 01:05:07,240
been proven that that's not 
really who you are, That's who 

1184
01:05:07,240 --> 01:05:10,240
you portray for the Internet or 
that's who you portray on your 

1185
01:05:10,240 --> 01:05:12,800
good days. 
You know, a lot of people will 

1186
01:05:12,800 --> 01:05:18,080
show you whatever version that 
they think they can manipulate 

1187
01:05:18,080 --> 01:05:22,760
you with normally, like, and the
Internet is like a glamour spell

1188
01:05:22,760 --> 01:05:27,480
on crack because it's edited, 
it's changed, it's manipulated, 

1189
01:05:27,480 --> 01:05:33,720
it's altered in some way to give
you the impression of wealth or 

1190
01:05:33,760 --> 01:05:38,520
or success or whatever. 
Yeah. 

1191
01:05:38,920 --> 01:05:41,160
Energy don't lie. 
I don't know. 

1192
01:05:41,160 --> 01:05:45,400
My thing is like, there's been 
plenty of times just going back 

1193
01:05:45,400 --> 01:05:47,120
on like what we were talking 
about earlier with like the 

1194
01:05:47,120 --> 01:05:49,960
cancelling and and whatever. 
There's been plenty of times 

1195
01:05:49,960 --> 01:05:52,760
when like I've cancelled and I 
haven't given enough notice or I

1196
01:05:52,760 --> 01:05:55,720
think about it later, but like 
in the moment, whatever. 

1197
01:05:55,960 --> 01:05:59,160
I haven't done things as 
inconsiderate as like directly 

1198
01:05:59,160 --> 01:06:04,760
saying I made other plans and 
not going to be able to do this.

1199
01:06:05,760 --> 01:06:09,680
But you know, so I try to have 
grace for people. 

1200
01:06:09,680 --> 01:06:15,560
And I just hope that when other 
people are like oh fuck, I, you 

1201
01:06:15,560 --> 01:06:18,920
know, I should have reached out 
to them or whatever have like 

1202
01:06:18,920 --> 01:06:22,960
heartfelt apologies about it or 
a recognition of like I wasted 

1203
01:06:22,960 --> 01:06:26,080
your time in some way or just 
like a follow up like that's. 

1204
01:06:26,160 --> 01:06:30,280
I just hope that that energy, 
like I'm still open for that 

1205
01:06:30,280 --> 01:06:34,040
energy and that shift to it of 
like I'd really like to do this,

1206
01:06:34,040 --> 01:06:37,680
Sorry, you know, whatever. 
I'm going to put that out into 

1207
01:06:37,680 --> 01:06:40,920
the universe. 
Oh, I like this card for us. 

1208
01:06:40,920 --> 01:06:43,000
I poured, I pulled the human 
design card. 

1209
01:06:43,000 --> 01:06:47,640
I got 38 for the portal. 
It's like a golden elevator. 

1210
01:06:50,720 --> 01:06:54,960
The sign is Capricorn, the gift 
is perseverance, and the shadow 

1211
01:06:54,960 --> 01:06:58,720
is struggle beyond. 
The shadow is a battleground for

1212
01:06:58,720 --> 01:07:02,120
the underdog. 
You possess the will, stamina, 

1213
01:07:02,120 --> 01:07:05,560
and invigoration to fight the 
good fight and to stand up for a

1214
01:07:05,560 --> 01:07:10,040
grand purpose greater than you. 
You are animated by your vision 

1215
01:07:10,040 --> 01:07:13,680
for a more unified world, and 
despite the incredible nature of

1216
01:07:13,680 --> 01:07:16,960
your objective, you come 
equipped with the unfailing 

1217
01:07:16,960 --> 01:07:20,600
armor of truth and perseverance,
which defeats the lower 

1218
01:07:20,600 --> 01:07:23,960
frequency expressions of fear, 
lack, and resignation. 

1219
01:07:24,560 --> 01:07:27,840
You know intuitively which 
movements and people deserve 

1220
01:07:27,840 --> 01:07:31,440
your energy. 
With joy and Fortitude you enter

1221
01:07:31,440 --> 01:07:35,400
the portal and you go up into a 
realm of expanded consciousness 

1222
01:07:35,760 --> 01:07:38,800
where every obstacle is a 
vehicle for transformation. 

1223
01:07:39,920 --> 01:07:43,800
And then the shadow is struggle.
The lower frequency 

1224
01:07:43,800 --> 01:07:47,360
manifestations of the shadow are
cloaked with struggle, whether 

1225
01:07:47,360 --> 01:07:51,720
internal, resulting in a lack 
purpose, action, or external, 

1226
01:07:51,720 --> 01:07:55,000
resulting resulting in an 
outward projection of fear. 

1227
01:07:55,440 --> 01:07:58,200
The difference between the 
Shadow and the Gift concerns the

1228
01:07:58,200 --> 01:08:01,560
nature of the fight within you. 
Are you striving towards 

1229
01:08:01,560 --> 01:08:04,840
oneness, utilizing your gifts 
and talents for a cause beyond 

1230
01:08:04,840 --> 01:08:07,080
yourself? 
Or are you unconsciously 

1231
01:08:07,080 --> 01:08:11,640
choosing separation and seeking 
self preservation at all costs? 

1232
01:08:12,040 --> 01:08:15,680
The Shadow keeps you guarded and
isolated as a defense strategy. 

1233
01:08:15,800 --> 01:08:19,000
You are unable or unwilling to 
see beyond your subjective 

1234
01:08:19,000 --> 01:08:21,560
lenses. 
Your themes are Ignition, 

1235
01:08:21,560 --> 01:08:24,520
perseverance, unification, and 
Determination. 

1236
01:08:26,040 --> 01:08:31,680
That's beautiful. 
We are so grateful for everyone 

1237
01:08:31,680 --> 01:08:36,960
and our candle collection is 
coming out this month. 

1238
01:08:37,520 --> 01:08:40,120
I'm burning Gemini right now, 
you guys. 

1239
01:08:40,120 --> 01:08:44,880
It's like there are. 
A lot of candles for the 

1240
01:08:44,880 --> 01:08:49,920
Candyland theme and we have 
special surprises that will come

1241
01:08:49,920 --> 01:08:53,240
in each package and we're just 
really grateful for this 

1242
01:08:53,240 --> 01:08:57,600
opportunity and we look forward 
to seeing you all next time in 

1243
01:08:57,600 --> 01:09:02,359
Candyland. 
Yeah, and also, if you're on the

1244
01:09:02,359 --> 01:09:06,439
top tier of my Patreon, so the 
Gifted Witch, you guys have the 

1245
01:09:06,479 --> 01:09:10,439
option to if for your monthly 
gift, one month you want to do 

1246
01:09:10,840 --> 01:09:12,600
candles. 
I'll send you some candles from 

1247
01:09:12,600 --> 01:09:14,200
the candle collection as your 
gift. 

1248
01:09:15,600 --> 01:09:19,800
Hell yeah, brother. 
Hell yeah, brother love. 

1249
01:09:19,800 --> 01:09:21,399
Y'all. 
Bye.