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Welcome to fucking Dandy land 
hosted by Rampage and Gemini. 

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What the fuck is up, everybody? 
Welcome back to Candyland, lick 

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it like a lollipop. 
We have an announcement. 

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The coolest thing has happened 
since last Wednesday. 

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So Jim and I was being a sneaky 
person for the last five months 

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and she had planned to surprise 
me. 

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So if you haven't seen the video
on Instagram or Facebook yet, go

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look at it. 
I was in utter disbelief and 

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shock. 
At 8:00 in the morning that Jim 

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and I was there. 
It was amazing. 

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And those of you that listen to 
the podcast, like I've been 

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telling her like I've been 
trolling her basically since 

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November being like, I'm going 
to come visit, you like? 

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Yeah, I'll come out. 
The reason that I said, like, 

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I'll buy my ticket and March and
I'll come out and may is because

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I said something on the podcast 
that to me, made it feel like I 

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gave it away. 
So I even this whole time was in

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my head thinking that Rampage 
About it. 

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I showed up this girl's face 
would turn ghost white mouth 

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wide open and she had no idea. 
No, I really didn't know at all,

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because just the whole 
situation, like, I just did not 

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know, and I'm glad that I didn't
know because honestly, I like 

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surprises, if they're done, 
right? 

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I don't like surprises that Phil
have asked, and this felt very 

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thought out, There's a lot of 
thought that went into like 

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keeping the secret. 
And anyways, I'm so excited that

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we finally got to see each other
in person. 

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And I feel like I was thinking 
about right before we started 

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recording like, I feel so much 
more connected with you now that

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we've like, met in person and 
like the it's exactly the same 

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in person as it is on the 
podcast. 

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Like you're my bitch. 
What's crazy? 

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Is that like all of this came 
together and I really did not 

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know and it was like, there was 
Was so many unexpected twists 

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and turns on our trip to Utah 
and this extremely grateful for 

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the opportunity because we did 
some stuff that like I know I'll

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never do again. 
Probably we did this Trail 

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called hell's revenge in Moab 
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And it was scary as shit and I 
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like these rocks are like 
Boulders, like it is not just 

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like a regular Trail like oh 
there's some mud and Rocks know 

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like there are crazy rocks that 
I don't even know who decided 

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that you could drive over them 
or that you could put any of 

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this together. 
But I want to point out that 

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someone was back there with, 
like, a 1970 Chevy truck. 

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And they were at the top of this
mountain and I just don't know 

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how they got up there because 
I'm telling you some of these 

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dips even on an ATV was like, 
scraping the bottom of the ATV. 

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So I just don't know how someone
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their catalytic converter. 
Her or something like that. 

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On some of these shows, normal 
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So these rocks. 
You guys, these are like, 

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straight up and down fucking 
rocks, Boulders that you're 

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going over and then we find out 
when we get to the fucking 

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bottom that the person who was 
driving us was in two-wheel 

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drive the whole time. 
They didn't even put it on in 

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four-wheel drive. 
This shit was sliding backwards 

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at one point. 
Like we made it out alive. 

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Shout out for making it out. 
It was literally one of those 

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things where Once you get back, 
there, there are so many ways 

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that you could get stuck or die.
I don't know why, or how they 

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just, let anyone who has a 
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Like you can go to a rental 
company and as long as you're 

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with in good standing of your 
driver's license and you've 

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never drove an ATV, they're 
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you. 
All you got to do is follow the 

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line of your tour guide. 
Baby, there is no line. 

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There is no line because there's
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There's Boulders. 
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There's dirt. 
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there is no line to follow and 
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there's no way in hell that I 
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as crazy back there as it really
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And it really is crazy. 
So this is what like, drove me 

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nuts about this is the person 
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y'all, this isn't just like 
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there's a couple of rocks and 
whatever. 

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I'm like, this is some shit I go
on YouTube. 

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I'm like look, literally the 
Coffee that sponsors. 

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Covenant of rejects is lost 
Trail coffee. 

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They have a flavor helzer event 
like the people that I'm talking

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to like know what the fuck 
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like this is going to be an 
adventure like you should be an 

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experienced person going on 
these trails and this person's 

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like, oh, I know you do 
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You're watching is bullshit, 
that's all fucked up than fake 

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and then we get on the trail and
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going to be, well, I think the 
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watching And like us going out 
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the tour guide has a direct Rail
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hitting every spot back there, 
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hit every spot back there and 
even though we had a tour God he

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thought the person that was 
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they were doing but come to find
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They actually had not drove in a
TV in a long time and they 

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didn't even put it in four-wheel
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So the whole time I'm wondering 
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front of us are like spider 
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And while we're rolling 
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night, making the turns like 
they were and then we made it 

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all the way through the three, 
our Trail and the guys, like 

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turn your formal job off and no 
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And then later on the girl was 
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want to tell you all, but I 
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the whole time. 
Like, great, perfect. 

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I was just like, of course you 
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anyways, but, anyways, we did 
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Shockingly. 
We survived my favorite day of 

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the whole trip, though. 
It was Monday when you me and 

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Jackie spent the whole day. 
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First of all, we got that car 
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And then we went shopping at all
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And something that, and I 
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really loved was there was no 
feeling guilty about asking 

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questions, or wanting to do 
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suggested being like, no, I'm 
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Like there was never a point 
where I was like, It may cause 

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friction, if I tell Paige, I 
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tell Jackie like can we go back 
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So I can return this thing that 
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I found something better, you 
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I mean, I think traveling with 
people in general, can be 

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difficult, and I think that 
anyone that thinks they're best,

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friends are think they're going 
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they need to go on a week-long 
trip with that person, 

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regardless, because it doesn't 
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When you're cooped up in a cabin
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sticky and you know I think that
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30s. 
I haven't really experienced too

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many like falling out or like 
mean girl toxic situations with 

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people but being in a cabin with
people that you barely know for 

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a week is very trying and 
triggering and they always say 

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that. 
If you think you're healed, you 

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should go spend a week with your
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But also if you think that 
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you want to marry them, you 
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And a cabin with them. 
And I think that it can make or 

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break your relationship, 
depending on the situation. 

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I agree. 
And that's where I mean. 

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That's why I think I feel so 
much more connected with our 

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friendship. 
Now, to is, like, I've lived 

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with you inside of a tiny house 
and inside of Airbnb like we've 

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had now we've like actually been
put in Situation's where like 

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shit was fucked up and we had to
find Solutions and we had to 

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like control energy and like our
emotions and things and on 

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positive things too like we had 
experiences in that a TV, we've 

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gone on Hikes now and connected 
with like Mother Earth and 

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nature together and those 
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Were so beautiful. 
I remember, when we started that

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hike, I literally felt like, 
overwhelmed, by the energy 

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because I've never been 
somewhere, where I felt so small

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before, as I did on that, hike 
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honestly, I love Utah because 
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atmosphere and I know for people
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ranges and trees and stuff, Like
it's just so pretty out there 

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because it's just flat and like 
it was such a beautiful 

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experience. 
I went to Utah a couple of years

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ago and it was super 
transformative and it has been 

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one of the main places on my 
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So it's really cool that we were
able to share all of these new 

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and exciting experiences because
that ATV Rod really like, woke 

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me up of like, wow, like, wow, 
like there's people that do this

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all the time. 
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back here and shit. 
Like this is normal for people 

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to get out here and drink and 
like, do this. 

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And I'm like, wow, y'all are 
fucking crazy. 

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But I will say everyone in Utah 
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I think people just come out of 
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there because it's very normal. 
It's just like what? 

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Keys to he can go, he can go 
rock climbing, you know and I 

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think that a lot of people in 
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that live in more like City or 
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Militant type areas that are not
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different that is for someone 
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isn't exposed to that. 
So I am really glad that we did 

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it. 
The more that I think about it, 

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the more I'm like, wow I'll 
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again. 
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but the fact that they ranked 
that trail at a number to 

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difficulty and that they go all 
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me because there was so much 
going on back there, like people

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stuck People like, you know, 
slid off into holes and you look

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over at them and they just wait 
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their truck is smoking and that 
the tire is popped and that 

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their acid is buried in mud and 
rock, they're just like, oh it's

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fine. 
See y'all just crazy. 

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It's just like they're built 
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It was funny when we went over 
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hill that we had to go in go 
through and we came out on the 

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other side. 
I could see this truck on this. 

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Like it was that truck that 
slid, but you could see it on 

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the side. 
Hi, hi. 

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Hi. 
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I'm like, how the fuck did they 
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And then they're like, oh, the 
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There were about to drive that 
to and I, my gloves were soaking

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fucking wet because I was 
hanging on to that bar so hard 

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the whole time, I will pull my 
cell phone out to like take 

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pictures of the surroundings, 
and I will be like this, like 

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taking a picture holding on 
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Like Did you know that you 
thumbs up to me? 

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I sums up to you. 
Yeah. 

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On the, on the screen just now a
thumbs-up came up in the corner.

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I didn't even touch the screen. 
Really? 

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I didn't even touch it. 
I'll spare is like go girl. 

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Barrett said thumbs up for you 
bitches? 

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I don't know. 
But I will say that I really 

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really enjoyed like the surprise
because as an adult I think we 

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get all the fun sucked out of 
like our birthdays and surprises

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because pretty much now like 
especially in my case, being 

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like an only child. 
And single and stuff like a 

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battle plan. 
Something for my birthday. 

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Nothing happens. 
Like, if I don't plan it, 

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nothing happens. 
So, you know, I thought it was 

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cool that for once, like, I 
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And I don't know, I guess it's 
because I wasn't speculating 

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that you were going to go to 
Utah with us because you don't 

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like hiking really. 
So like I never dreamed that, 

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you would even like even if you 
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I guess. 
So I just like block that option

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out of my head and just kind of 
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So like For once that I like ask
my cards like is Jim and I are 

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going to come to Utah or like 
you know, I just never asked. 

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I guess like that's kind of the 
sign of like don't closed mouth,

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don't get fed because I guess if
maybe I would have asked Spirit,

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they maybe would have told me. 
But it's like I didn't ask, I 

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didn't even think about it. 
I never even entertain the idea.

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So when it happened I was 
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shocked. 
I was like, there's no freaking 

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way that she's here right now, 
and it's crazy because Jackie 

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and me had like the same 
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And even though we like We 
weren't looking at each other. 

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We had like that same reaction 
and it was so funny because I 

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was like utterly surprised. 
I was like no fucking white like

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what? 
Hi, love that. 

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I got to cook for you on the 
trip. 

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Like it was really on the last 
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you would be like my inner child
needed this. 

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And I was like, I'm just here to
be your mother honestly. 

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Like I love feeling like 
nurtured and supported and stuff

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like that. 
Like when people are like oh 

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let's just stay home and cook or
I'll cook like I'm like shit. 

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Sign me up. 
Sign me up. 

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I mean I think oh, We're all 
like we got to experience a 

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whole different like lifestyle 
together because like that's 

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completely out of our elements 
but I'll be interested to like 

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hang out. 
We're like at least one of us is

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in our comfort zone. 
Like oh I know where we're going

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or oh, I know this or whatever. 
I will say that Utah, such a 

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beautiful place, but I think 
Nick's on my bucket list is 

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going to be like Montana or 
something like that to go 

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explore since I've been to Utah 
twice now. 

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And I've seen both Sides of the 
state. 

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But the one thing I love about 
Utah is their speed limits are 

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mainly 80. 
That it's like that here in 

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Idaho to two things, one, my dad
lives in Montana so I have like 

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the hookups in Montana to. 
I can't wait to take you. 

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I'm going to take you on a 
California coast trip and I'm 

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not talking dusty-ass, SoCal. 
We're going to go Monterey, 

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we're going to do Marina. 
We're going to do Big Sur. 

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I'm going to show you that whole
area because out of all the 

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places that I've ever lived 
That's my favorite place. 

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It's where I met my husband. 
It's we're like we had Mac and 

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our daughter. 
Like that is my spot. 

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I will show you everything. 
I know where the good places are

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to stay. 
I know where all the good places

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are to eat. 
I know every fucking thing I got

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married in Big Sur. 
I know the Redwood hikes and Big

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Sur. 
I know the restaurant down in 

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Big Sur. 
I fucking got you. 

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Boo. 
She knows everything about Big 

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Sur. 
Honestly, this is the thing that

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I love is that That we both were
able to like experience life 

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together on a different level 
and element. 

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Because, like, even when I went 
to Utah before, like, I saw 

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people with the Jeeps and that 
you in, like all the things that

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they do. 
But never once was, I like, oh, 

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I'm going to rent one of those 
and go drive it off a cliff real

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quick, and see what happens 
because everyone else is doing, 

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you know, but legitimately some 
of the things that happened just

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have kept me. 
Like, I don't know, I think as 

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humans we getting our comfort 
zone and so I would never do 

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that or, you know, Oh whatever. 
And so I think it's cool that we

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were able to like break some 
personal barriers as well as 

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just barriers altogether because
I'll be honest. 

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Like I've never went anywhere 
with someone that I trust it 

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enough to drive on that thing 
that we just drove on like mmmm,

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no. 
I looking back on that trip, I 

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feel like I completely 
understand why Spirit made it 

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happen the way that it did. 
As far as like me being able to 

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go and I was even thinking on 
the trip like I booked that trip

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at a time when I didn't even 
know if I was going to be able 

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to afford to go. 
But I have the money at least 

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for my ticket and I would figure
it out and then I just might 

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income started increasing up to 
the point of going. 

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So I was able to do that trip. 
Without any kind of financial 

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stress on anything, all of the 
situations that came up. 

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I'm like, I could afford to get 
myself out of this situation. 

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I could afford to get myself a 
different plane ticket, a 

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different car, different place, 
you know, whatever it was. 

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And I feel like I was there for 
a reason to because I can't 

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imagine it just being you and 
Jackie with the way that the 

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trip went, I just can't imagine 
it only being you two in that 

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situation. 
And so I feel like there was a 

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reason that like it All 
transpired the way that it did. 

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So do you want to say that? 
There's a lot that changed with 

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this trip that was just 
shocking. 

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So we plan this trip back in 
November and the person who 

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invited us out to Utah lives in 
Utah and it was a mutual friend 

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of mine and Geminis. 
And of course we had never met 

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this person and I just want to 
say that I am the same fucking 

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person on the internet as I am 
in real life. 

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Like if you're listening to 
this, This and, you know me, 

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then you fucking know me and I 
don't make shit up. 

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Like, I'm not out here. 
Like, oh, I don't drink. 

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And then I'm at the bar every 
weekend and people see me. 

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I'm not on here saying one 
thing. 

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And then doing another, I'm not 
like, oh, I'm celibate, but I 

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actually have fuck buddies over 
here like no, like I am me. 

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I think sometimes I may put a 
more not I won't say like 

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watered down version of myself 
but I put like a more 

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presentable version of myself 
online because that's what 

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everyone does. 
It's our highlight reel like but

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I have gotten on their rough. 
Crying upset and like been 

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vulnerable as well. 
So I think there's a healthy mix

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of both on my social media, as 
well as like Gemini's complete 

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Tick-Tock. 
Following is relating with her 

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on a personal level. 
Like, my Tick-Tock following 

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wants a reading her Tick-Tock 
following actually fucks with 

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her and wants to see what she 
bought at a storage. 

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So you can't say this one's 
fake. 

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When there's 65,000, people want
to watch her, open up a fucking,

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t.j. 
Maxx bag, great. 

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But like this person that we met
with, Seemed or thought that we 

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were fake or acting phony from 
comparison to what we act 

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online. 
And what it really was in my 

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opinion is that this girl was 
more committed to Growing 

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friendships and bonds back in 
November, then she met her now, 

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husband like right after that or
around that time. 

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And I just think that the whole 
relationship personal life had 

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escalated for her, and Became a 
burden that the trip was still 

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going to happen and that she had
committed to all these things 

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with you and the surprise and 
driving to the airport to 

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different times and all of that 
stuff. 

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And so I don't want to begrudge 
her because I do think that she 

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at heart, maybe had good 
intentions in the beginning, but

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I just think that the intentions
turned a bit selfish towards the

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end and I think that she was 
self-sabotaging by trying to 

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push away these Bonds these 
friendships because now they 

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don't really matter to her like 
now she's got this husband, 

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she's all locked in with that. 
So I just think that at the end 

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of the day, making friends that 
live across, the country isn't a

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priority anymore, but the fact 
that me and this girl had a 

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Snapchat streak that was like, 
over 100 days meaning that we've

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snapped or talked every day for 
over 100 days, blows my mind 

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that when we get to Utah it's 
like this was a bad idea. 

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I don't even know why I did 
this. 

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You are so fucking nice and so 
classy about the way that you 

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say things because the way that 
the trip went was first of all 

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don't post people don't have 
people come to your state and 

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say that you're hosting people 
and you plan this trip and be 

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pissed off and telling everybody
how you're being used. 

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Because you're the fucking ride 
and they have to go to the 

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grocery store to get food at the
Airbnb because you all Greed 

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that you're going to be doing 
cooking and be a nightmare to 

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everybody. 
And then what got me was the 

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you're catering to page and by 
making dinner and its really 

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pissing me off. 
And, like, I made dinner, I 

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cleaned and it's like, I'm the 
person if I'm going to get up 

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and get a glass of water and 
you're sitting comfortable, I'm 

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going to be like, would you like
a glass of water? 

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I did that to every single 
person I was consistent just 

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because you decide that you want
to go on a spiritual retreat 

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with people. 
And you want to get fucking lid 

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off your ass on vodka doesn't 
mean that we did something wrong

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and if your reaction is to walk 
away from situations when you're

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upset, cool, then don't bring 
the situation back up after 

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you've walked away and expect 
for people to not have a problem

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with it. 
I'm also like, we all tried to 

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talk to her, she don't want 
that. 

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I'm the person who I don't want 
to make somebody else feel 

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uncomfortable. 
If I've already been Clear that 

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like I have an issue with a 
situation and you don't want to 

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discuss it resolve it. 
There's no way I can get out of 

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this situation because we're on 
a trip. 

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I'm not going to spend my time 
in a negative energy space and 

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project that onto you so that 
you're miserable. 

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I'm going to do my best to enjoy
my time with the other people 

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there and I don't know how 
that's fake and phony because if

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you want to talk and you want to
talk about it, I'm here we were 

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all here. 
We all were down to have a 

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conversation and furthermore If 
you're going to go on a trip 

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with people, whether you invited
them or not, if you're going to 

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be on the phone the whole time, 
don't fucking go, you should 

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have let us know that you would 
rather spend the time with your 

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husband and then to come on this
trip and get mad at all of us. 

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When we're all spending time 
together and you're on the phone

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and a loft the whole time and 
then you're upset, you don't 

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have bonding experiences. 
Well I think what upsets me 

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about it is like originally you 
know I just thought it was me 

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her and Jackie. 
So then we added you to the 

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equation and then she made it 
seem like you were doing all 

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this shit. 
That you weren't supposed to do,

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but yet she ate everything that 
you cook. 

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She never fucking cleaned a 
thing. 

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She literally was in and out of 
the cabin, all hours of the 

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night, she literally had told us
on the way there that when we 

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got back to her house, after the
cabin to not mention anything 

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that we done in her hometown, 
like don't mention anybody that 

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we met up with, if we ran into 
anybody, while we were down 

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there, don't mention In any 
names, don't tell him, don't 

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mention any guys and all this 
stuff and like for me, y'all 

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haven't even been married a 
whole month. 

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Like you at this point the 
beginning of the trip. 

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You've been married for three 
weeks and I just feel like that 

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doesn't really sound like a 
stable Foundation to be going 

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out with three strangers that 
you've met from the Internet or 

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whatever. 
And then to be like, wow fuck 

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this. 
I don't even want to be here but

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yet you're asking us. 
To lie and fabricate a story of 

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maybe what actually happened 
when we finally do meet your 

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husband in person. 
So after everybody had their fun

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out at the beginning of the 
cabin, we decided to make the 

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most of the last day that we 
had. 

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And we did the ATD and we had 
fun. 

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But that was only because we all
did with that person. 

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Wanted Jim. 
And I wanted to stay at the 

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cabin. 
She didn't want to go on the ATD

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whatsoever, but that was not 
going to fly. 

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You didn't go on that cat. 
If you didn't go on that ride, 

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she was going to make it where 
no one got to go. 

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And that's childish because 
like, we're grown adults and 

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we're not just nineteen twenty 
Twenty-One like she is literally

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closer to 40 than 30, I'm 
literally 30 Jackie's in her 

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30s. 
You're at your late 20s like 

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we're grown-ass adults. 
So I just don't get why a grown 

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adult can't make a grown-ass 
decision based on what they 

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actually want to do without 
making it. 

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Ruckus. 
And then another thing that 

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upset me was, like, majority of 
the things that she wanted to 

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complain. 
About were absolutely a product 

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of her being on the phone being 
absent and being drunk. 

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That's it really got me. 
Was I paid $60 for us to have 

444
00:25:09,600 --> 00:25:13,000
this portable fire pit. 
So you guys are going to enjoy 

445
00:25:13,000 --> 00:25:16,400
this fire pit and like, every 
night was making it a thing. 

446
00:25:16,600 --> 00:25:19,700
She sat out there for 10 
minutes, one night and made a 

447
00:25:19,708 --> 00:25:23,300
snore and lest and was talking 
to men on the phone and go in 

448
00:25:23,300 --> 00:25:26,000
and drive in and seeing dude, 
and whatever and having some 

449
00:25:26,000 --> 00:25:27,100
bullshit. 
Excuse. 

450
00:25:27,100 --> 00:25:29,300
So. 
And then we were the ones who 

451
00:25:29,300 --> 00:25:32,200
sat there and star gazed and 
laughed, and did all the things.

452
00:25:32,200 --> 00:25:34,700
How are you going to say that 
your left out of something? 

453
00:25:35,000 --> 00:25:38,400
You don't even put yourself into
how do you expect us to? 

454
00:25:39,600 --> 00:25:45,700
Also, by saying I paid for that 
we all split everything 100% 

455
00:25:45,700 --> 00:25:48,700
evenly on that trip, I split 
everything evenly before you 

456
00:25:48,700 --> 00:25:50,600
even know knew that I was coming
there. 

457
00:25:51,700 --> 00:25:56,400
Well and on top of that is like 
every time that something would 

458
00:25:56,400 --> 00:25:59,800
come up, she would be like oh, 
you can just pay me when we get 

459
00:25:59,800 --> 00:26:02,700
there and I would be like no and
I would just cash, I've heard 

460
00:26:02,700 --> 00:26:04,800
the money so like I cash that 
money. 

461
00:26:04,900 --> 00:26:08,700
Pay for groceries, the day we 
left at her house like gasps, 

462
00:26:08,700 --> 00:26:11,300
like all the things. 
So I don't get where there was 

463
00:26:11,300 --> 00:26:15,300
all this drama and like chaos or
disrespect from her end. 

464
00:26:15,300 --> 00:26:18,900
But I just want to say that I 
still had a really great trip 

465
00:26:18,900 --> 00:26:21,400
and I'm appreciative of 
everything that happened to get 

466
00:26:21,400 --> 00:26:24,400
us to this point because, you 
know, some of that was made 

467
00:26:24,400 --> 00:26:26,800
possible by her. 
But I think there was just like 

468
00:26:26,800 --> 00:26:32,200
some jealousy or maybe like she 
didn't feel included because the

469
00:26:32,200 --> 00:26:34,300
attention was now taken off of 
her. 

470
00:26:35,100 --> 00:26:37,400
I don't really know. 
Hi. 

471
00:26:39,100 --> 00:26:42,700
I agree with you that I think 
that she had those feelings of 

472
00:26:42,700 --> 00:26:45,800
jealousy, or whatever the 
attention not being on her. 

473
00:26:46,300 --> 00:26:51,900
What I don't understand is one y
+ 2. 

474
00:26:52,700 --> 00:26:56,600
If you have these other people 
consistently, because there were

475
00:26:56,600 --> 00:26:59,000
three of us who were 
consistently, like, would you 

476
00:26:59,000 --> 00:27:01,500
like to do this? 
We're thinking about doing this.

477
00:27:01,500 --> 00:27:03,700
Would you like to do this? 
How about we go here today? 

478
00:27:03,700 --> 00:27:06,500
How about we do this? 
What would you like for dinner? 

479
00:27:06,800 --> 00:27:10,300
What what what are you feeling? 
Ang and they literally 

480
00:27:10,300 --> 00:27:15,900
contribute absolutely nothing. 
They give you no, no nothing you

481
00:27:15,900 --> 00:27:18,300
say hey how can we resolve this?
Because you seem like you're 

482
00:27:18,300 --> 00:27:20,700
really frustrated and they yell 
and they don't want to 

483
00:27:20,708 --> 00:27:23,500
communicate, like that's 
something that they need to 

484
00:27:23,500 --> 00:27:26,300
figure out for themselves. 
And that's not on other people. 

485
00:27:26,300 --> 00:27:30,000
It's not our responsibility as 
three fucking adults to be like,

486
00:27:30,000 --> 00:27:32,300
I'm sorry, baby. 
Did you need me to say that 

487
00:27:32,300 --> 00:27:35,000
nicer to you, when you've been a
royal cut the whole time? 

488
00:27:36,100 --> 00:27:40,700
What's crazy is, like, I know 
that we're like, 50 episodes in 

489
00:27:40,800 --> 00:27:44,100
to our podcast. 
But I feel like Jim and I has 

490
00:27:44,100 --> 00:27:47,600
said this more than once that if
she don't fuck with you, she's 

491
00:27:47,600 --> 00:27:51,100
going to walk. 
You like you said that so many 

492
00:27:51,100 --> 00:27:54,200
times. 
And so, you know, I know that 

493
00:27:54,200 --> 00:27:57,800
this girl like, you know, maybe 
has her own perception of what 

494
00:27:57,800 --> 00:27:59,700
happened. 
But if you are listening or 

495
00:27:59,700 --> 00:28:04,100
you're going to, so listen to 
the podcast for one, you knew 

496
00:28:04,100 --> 00:28:07,500
none of us drink. 
And so the whole I'm only going 

497
00:28:07,500 --> 00:28:10,400
to bring a little wine. 
And so I can just have a glass 

498
00:28:10,400 --> 00:28:14,400
and the evening was a great 
story till you showed up with a 

499
00:28:14,400 --> 00:28:19,500
liter of vodka and drink two 
days. 

500
00:28:19,800 --> 00:28:22,300
Well, three nights, she drank it
in three nights. 

501
00:28:22,300 --> 00:28:28,100
So, you know, I just want to say
that that really was 

502
00:28:28,100 --> 00:28:33,300
disappointing because if I would
have known that even for one 

503
00:28:33,300 --> 00:28:37,000
minute, that was your intention.
I would have reconsidered, you 

504
00:28:37,000 --> 00:28:40,500
know, only having one car. 
Four hours from the airport and 

505
00:28:40,500 --> 00:28:42,700
City, you know, just different 
things. 

506
00:28:42,700 --> 00:28:46,200
That wouldn't have been a big 
argument at the time but it 

507
00:28:46,200 --> 00:28:49,700
would have been nice to know or 
to at least have awareness that 

508
00:28:49,700 --> 00:28:52,900
that could have been the new 
experience because I don't fuck 

509
00:28:52,900 --> 00:28:55,700
with people who have Ali drink. 
Like I'm cool with a drink or 

510
00:28:55,700 --> 00:29:00,100
two, like take the top off or 
whatever or drink with food, but

511
00:29:00,100 --> 00:29:04,500
I'm not cool with not eating all
day, drinking from one or two, 

512
00:29:04,500 --> 00:29:08,100
in the afternoon till 1:00 or 
2:00 in the morning and bitching

513
00:29:08,200 --> 00:29:10,400
and being Oppressed. 
And then the next day being 

514
00:29:10,400 --> 00:29:13,800
upset that you have a migraine 
and then blaming it on no sleep.

515
00:29:13,800 --> 00:29:16,800
When it's literally, because 
you're drinking alcohol, like 

516
00:29:16,800 --> 00:29:20,300
its water, you're not hydrating 
your body, you're not taking 

517
00:29:20,300 --> 00:29:22,900
care of yourself and maybe 
you're not sleeping as well. 

518
00:29:22,900 --> 00:29:25,600
But that headache is because 
you're dehydrated and you're in 

519
00:29:25,600 --> 00:29:29,600
the mountains and whatever. 
So it's just, like, don't act 

520
00:29:29,600 --> 00:29:32,300
like everyone else is the 
problem, and maybe take a little

521
00:29:32,300 --> 00:29:35,000
accountability that you're a 
grown-ass adults, and that 

522
00:29:35,000 --> 00:29:37,100
you're making really poor 
decisions. 

523
00:29:37,300 --> 00:29:40,300
And the reason you feel left out
Is no one else drinks. 

524
00:29:40,500 --> 00:29:42,800
And no one else was going to 
party like that and because all 

525
00:29:42,800 --> 00:29:45,300
your friends in the desert were 
partying like that. 

526
00:29:45,600 --> 00:29:48,100
I think you wanted to be with 
your friends in the desert 

527
00:29:48,100 --> 00:29:50,900
rather than your friends from 
the states that you brought in 

528
00:29:51,100 --> 00:29:56,400
and the more that you set there 
and saw everyone sober having a 

529
00:29:56,400 --> 00:29:58,700
good time. 
The more you had a bad time and 

530
00:29:58,700 --> 00:30:03,800
hated yourself because you're an
alcoholic and every person that 

531
00:30:03,800 --> 00:30:07,600
we ran into brought up your 
drinking and I took a mental 

532
00:30:07,600 --> 00:30:12,100
note of it and Several people at
least two in my mind mention, 

533
00:30:12,100 --> 00:30:15,900
you always drinking half gallons
and asked if you still did that 

534
00:30:16,300 --> 00:30:20,800
and you wrote a leader, which is
close enough in my opinion. 

535
00:30:21,200 --> 00:30:26,500
And I'm just like, just because 
you mix it now with an energy 

536
00:30:26,500 --> 00:30:30,200
drink or whatever, doesn't make 
it any less of a problem from 

537
00:30:30,200 --> 00:30:33,500
drinking it straight and I go 
through this with my own mother.

538
00:30:33,500 --> 00:30:37,600
So, honestly, baby, girl, I felt
like I spent four days with my 

539
00:30:37,600 --> 00:30:40,400
fucking mom. 
Of which that would have been 

540
00:30:40,400 --> 00:30:43,200
the last thing that I would have
taken a week off work for 

541
00:30:43,700 --> 00:30:45,300
period. 
I don't care if Jim and I was 

542
00:30:45,300 --> 00:30:49,000
going to be there or not. 
If I would have known that you 

543
00:30:49,000 --> 00:30:50,400
were going to drink hard 
alcohol. 

544
00:30:50,400 --> 00:30:54,400
Not like a Seltzer or a beer or 
maybe like someone or something.

545
00:30:54,800 --> 00:30:57,600
I really wouldn't have went. 
I would have never agreed to go.

546
00:30:57,600 --> 00:30:59,600
If you would have been like, 
okay, well on the weekends, I 

547
00:30:59,600 --> 00:31:01,600
get hammered. 
If that would have ever been 

548
00:31:01,600 --> 00:31:03,600
brought into my awareness? 
I would have been like, oh, hell

549
00:31:03,600 --> 00:31:05,200
no. 
T. 

550
00:31:05,200 --> 00:31:07,700
Okay, and then here's the other 
aspect of that for me. 

551
00:31:07,900 --> 00:31:12,800
So yes the alcohol thing. 
It's the you drink liquor by 

552
00:31:12,800 --> 00:31:18,000
yourself and you're upset that 
you invited three 420, friendly 

553
00:31:18,000 --> 00:31:21,500
girls and told them off. 
You guys are going to be all 

554
00:31:21,500 --> 00:31:24,400
hooked up and taking care of 
when you come down, because it's

555
00:31:24,400 --> 00:31:27,000
legal at the Spencer, he's here.
And I've got the Hook-Up for you

556
00:31:27,000 --> 00:31:29,100
guys. 
So, you're going to be texting 

557
00:31:29,100 --> 00:31:32,200
everybody including myself about
how you're getting it for them 

558
00:31:32,200 --> 00:31:34,200
while they're in town, and 
you've got the connections, 

559
00:31:34,300 --> 00:31:36,700
Auction and then you're going to
sit there mad at us the whole 

560
00:31:36,700 --> 00:31:39,400
time because you don't get down 
on that. 

561
00:31:39,700 --> 00:31:42,800
But meanwhile, we wouldn't even 
cared about you drinking the 

562
00:31:42,800 --> 00:31:44,700
liquor if you didn't turn into a
bitch. 

563
00:31:45,400 --> 00:31:47,500
Yeah, you could drink and just 
chill out. 

564
00:31:47,500 --> 00:31:49,200
We wouldn't a cared. 
We done our thing. 

565
00:31:49,200 --> 00:31:52,200
You designed your thing, but you
say, you're so left out. 

566
00:31:52,200 --> 00:31:55,300
But you're the only person who 
was judging and you treat 

567
00:31:55,300 --> 00:31:57,100
everybody. 
Like they're a mean, girl, but 

568
00:31:57,100 --> 00:32:01,400
we were literally like we were 
doing all of the things you 

569
00:32:01,400 --> 00:32:03,700
didn't have to do anything but 
drive us there. 

570
00:32:04,000 --> 00:32:08,200
And I understood that to the 
store and what activities like 

571
00:32:08,200 --> 00:32:12,600
everything's within a 20-minute 
drive and what was weird about 

572
00:32:12,600 --> 00:32:16,100
that is we overpaid for gas. 
Like, you would put 30 in your 

573
00:32:16,100 --> 00:32:17,800
car. 
We'd give you like 50. 

574
00:32:17,800 --> 00:32:22,800
So, I'm like just used just from
the start, but the thing that 

575
00:32:22,800 --> 00:32:26,200
makes me more upset is like, 
alcohol is a depressant. 

576
00:32:26,200 --> 00:32:29,400
So, when I see people who drink 
all the time, depressed, mad 

577
00:32:29,400 --> 00:32:33,000
angry, and upset, I can't help 
but think it's a product of your

578
00:32:33,000 --> 00:32:34,600
own actions and choices. 
Has. 

579
00:32:34,700 --> 00:32:36,500
And I don't have any sympathy 
for you. 

580
00:32:36,700 --> 00:32:41,300
So once again, I felt 
traumatized from what felt like 

581
00:32:41,300 --> 00:32:47,000
being in a cabin with my mother.
And then there was Gemini like 

582
00:32:47,000 --> 00:32:51,000
trying to feed my inner child. 
And then here's my like, monster

583
00:32:51,000 --> 00:32:54,300
mom on alcohol screaming and 
your catering to page, and it 

584
00:32:54,300 --> 00:32:57,200
makes me sick. 
I've heard you say that baby 

585
00:32:57,200 --> 00:32:59,600
girl. 
I was acting like I was asleep 

586
00:32:59,600 --> 00:33:00,900
and then I didn't hear 
everything. 

587
00:33:00,900 --> 00:33:04,100
But as soon as we heard y'all 
really start yelling, we opened 

588
00:33:04,100 --> 00:33:07,700
our Door and started, listening.
I just never told even Gemini 

589
00:33:07,700 --> 00:33:09,700
that, I heard a lot of it 
because I just didn't want to 

590
00:33:09,700 --> 00:33:12,500
get in on all of it. 
But when you all started 

591
00:33:12,500 --> 00:33:14,700
screaming at the top of your 
fucking lungs and you stormed 

592
00:33:14,700 --> 00:33:17,700
off and slam the door, but 
before you left grabbed her 

593
00:33:17,700 --> 00:33:20,800
vodka out of the refrigerator, 
maybe I saw it. 

594
00:33:20,800 --> 00:33:22,300
I heard it. 
I saw it. 

595
00:33:22,400 --> 00:33:25,800
I think it's a real bitch move 
for somebody to start an 

596
00:33:25,800 --> 00:33:29,400
argument and drag people's 
character and start a fight. 

597
00:33:29,400 --> 00:33:31,700
And I'm sitting here saying, how
do we? 

598
00:33:31,700 --> 00:33:33,800
I don't want you to feel like 
that, we're not feeling like 

599
00:33:33,800 --> 00:33:35,300
that about. 
Out you like this is all 

600
00:33:35,300 --> 00:33:38,100
one-sided like we're not having 
an issue and you're going to 

601
00:33:38,100 --> 00:33:41,000
scream. 
Now, we have an issue and the 

602
00:33:41,000 --> 00:33:43,500
fact that it didn't come to 
blows and I didn't get arrested 

603
00:33:43,500 --> 00:33:45,900
in. 
Utah is like, I passed Spirits 

604
00:33:45,900 --> 00:33:51,400
fucking test because I was 
boiling fucking hot and like if 

605
00:33:51,400 --> 00:33:54,600
you had I'm glad that you stayed
in the room and that you stayed 

606
00:33:54,600 --> 00:33:59,500
asleep or asleep because if you 
had come out of the room and she

607
00:33:59,500 --> 00:34:02,700
had yelled at you, I would have 
thrown Her Off The Loft and I'm 

608
00:34:02,700 --> 00:34:08,300
not even like I was I was I was 
fucking ready for a reason at 

609
00:34:08,300 --> 00:34:10,500
that point. 
Like if she got up, I didn't 

610
00:34:10,500 --> 00:34:12,300
care that we had to crouch in 
that bitch. 

611
00:34:12,300 --> 00:34:18,100
I would like and I'm glad that 
it didn't come to that because I

612
00:34:18,100 --> 00:34:21,199
don't like being put in those 
situations and I, like, you 

613
00:34:21,199 --> 00:34:24,100
brought up earlier. 
I've always said, if I don't 

614
00:34:24,100 --> 00:34:26,699
fuck with you, I block you, I 
don't want you looking at my 

615
00:34:26,699 --> 00:34:29,100
stuff. 
I don't want to hear about your 

616
00:34:29,100 --> 00:34:32,600
projection and more of your 
viewpoint on anything. 

617
00:34:32,699 --> 00:34:35,699
I don't want to see your face. 
I will just never talk to you 

618
00:34:35,699 --> 00:34:38,900
again and I promise it's fine. 
I will not miss you. 

619
00:34:40,100 --> 00:34:43,600
Honestly, I don't know how 
someone who has never met us in 

620
00:34:43,600 --> 00:34:46,600
person thinks that they can 
project all that onto us. 

621
00:34:46,600 --> 00:34:49,600
And that, we would still want to
go to her house, meet her 

622
00:34:49,600 --> 00:34:55,800
husband and her son, and lot of 
her husband, and then be real 

623
00:34:55,800 --> 00:34:58,200
fake and phony because like, the
only by the only person is being

624
00:34:58,200 --> 00:35:00,500
fake. 
And phony is us coming in and 

625
00:35:00,500 --> 00:35:03,700
lying to your three-week 
relationship of a husband and 

626
00:35:03,700 --> 00:35:07,200
telling him. 
Yeah, no we didn't do all the 

627
00:35:07,200 --> 00:35:09,700
things that you're asking that 
we did or whatever. 

628
00:35:09,800 --> 00:35:13,500
Oh, she didn't get told by a man
specifically to send her money 

629
00:35:13,500 --> 00:35:16,600
via venmo and then have to go 
and leave and go to his house 

630
00:35:16,600 --> 00:35:19,400
for an hour and come back with 
some crazy ass story. 

631
00:35:19,600 --> 00:35:23,300
We had no fucking idea if you're
gonna lie to your partner and 

632
00:35:23,300 --> 00:35:27,000
you're going to ask people to 
cover a lie, whether you did 

633
00:35:27,000 --> 00:35:31,300
something physically or 
whatever, or not, the fact that 

634
00:35:31,300 --> 00:35:33,800
you feel guilty about it enough 
that you would have people lie 

635
00:35:33,800 --> 00:35:35,000
to your partner. 
Partner for you. 

636
00:35:35,400 --> 00:35:38,400
You've got no loyalty to the 
person that you're sleeping with

637
00:35:38,400 --> 00:35:42,200
and sharing Sexual Energy with 
you have no fucking loyalty to 

638
00:35:42,200 --> 00:35:46,800
anybody else and I will not be a
part of it and you know, and 

639
00:35:46,800 --> 00:35:49,400
there was like a lot of balance 
on this trip because Jim and I 

640
00:35:49,400 --> 00:35:51,500
am. 
This person are both married, Me

641
00:35:51,500 --> 00:35:55,500
and Jackie are both single and 
childless, but both of you both 

642
00:35:55,500 --> 00:35:58,200
have one son and you're married 
or you know what I mean? 

643
00:35:58,200 --> 00:36:02,200
So, it was kind of like this 
balance of like what you were 

644
00:36:02,200 --> 00:36:04,000
saying about the disrespect 
towards her. 

645
00:36:04,300 --> 00:36:08,100
When it's like 1,000 percent and
in my opinion I don't know 

646
00:36:08,100 --> 00:36:12,000
exactly what happened but I 
think something happened while 

647
00:36:12,000 --> 00:36:16,100
she was gone that she either 
felt guilty about or felt upset 

648
00:36:16,100 --> 00:36:22,100
about or felt like triggered by 
and then wants to take that out 

649
00:36:22,100 --> 00:36:26,600
on you and then on us and on 
other people and I really don't 

650
00:36:26,600 --> 00:36:30,500
get why you would bring people 
to your hometown. 

651
00:36:30,500 --> 00:36:34,100
If you're afraid that you're 
going to do something wrong. 

652
00:36:34,200 --> 00:36:35,400
Wrong. 
And that they're going to need 

653
00:36:35,400 --> 00:36:37,900
to lie for you because like 
that's not really starting out 

654
00:36:37,900 --> 00:36:39,700
of friendship. 
Very well when you're like, oh 

655
00:36:39,700 --> 00:36:43,400
yeah by the way, met the sky few
months ago, we got married. 

656
00:36:43,500 --> 00:36:46,400
Could you lie to him for me? 
Because I know we just met like 

657
00:36:46,400 --> 00:36:49,900
an hour ago or two days ago. 
But could you lie to him for me 

658
00:36:50,100 --> 00:36:54,000
like that makes zero sense to me
on your character building 

659
00:36:54,000 --> 00:36:58,700
because honestly, a trip like a 
vacation even with family can be

660
00:36:58,700 --> 00:37:02,400
very testing and trying imagine 
going on a vacation with like 

661
00:37:02,500 --> 00:37:05,700
two or three strangers that you 
know From the internet and then 

662
00:37:05,700 --> 00:37:08,200
being in the middle of nowhere, 
where there are no rental car. 

663
00:37:08,200 --> 00:37:11,400
Companies, there are no Ubers, 
there are no lives, there are no

664
00:37:11,400 --> 00:37:16,700
rides back to the city. 
That was the thing is not only, 

665
00:37:16,700 --> 00:37:20,800
did she do all of this? 
But then she on top of that was 

666
00:37:20,800 --> 00:37:23,400
like, I'm not fucking staying 
here. 

667
00:37:23,400 --> 00:37:27,000
In this cabin with y'all, I'm 
leaving and she's the one with 

668
00:37:27,000 --> 00:37:29,400
the vehicle and then at one 
point, she was like, well, I 

669
00:37:29,408 --> 00:37:33,800
left my keys and I'm like. 
So you who is mentally unstable 

670
00:37:33,800 --> 00:37:36,600
in this whole situation. 
You leave your car keys and 

671
00:37:36,600 --> 00:37:39,300
ditch us. 
We take your vehicle that is 

672
00:37:39,300 --> 00:37:44,500
stealing your car. 
Like so that was your great, 

673
00:37:44,500 --> 00:37:48,000
fucking the ideas that people 
have on vodka, make no sense, 

674
00:37:48,600 --> 00:37:52,000
and it's a spiritual like it's a
spiritual thing that we were 

675
00:37:52,000 --> 00:37:55,300
going for. 
Like it wasn't just some random 

676
00:37:55,300 --> 00:37:58,300
thing it was like I yes to your 
point. 

677
00:37:58,300 --> 00:38:01,700
Like married have a kid. 
Took time away from my family to

678
00:38:01,700 --> 00:38:04,900
go to this because we fucking 
work really hard. 

679
00:38:04,900 --> 00:38:08,800
We're always doing shit. 
I wanted to let my guard down 

680
00:38:08,800 --> 00:38:13,000
and emotionally recharge and be 
filled with like, Friendship and

681
00:38:13,000 --> 00:38:16,600
the energy that quite frankly, 
we always have with our podcast 

682
00:38:16,600 --> 00:38:18,500
because this is the first time 
that we've drugs. 

683
00:38:18,500 --> 00:38:20,900
Well, I've drugged men on here 
before but this is the first 

684
00:38:20,900 --> 00:38:24,200
time that we've had a situation 
that's like, actual drama that 

685
00:38:24,200 --> 00:38:27,800
we've been involved in and for 
her to know that that's the 

686
00:38:27,800 --> 00:38:29,700
energy that you and I maneuver 
in. 

687
00:38:29,700 --> 00:38:32,300
And then to expect that it was 
going to be different in person.

688
00:38:32,300 --> 00:38:35,700
I don't, I'm pretty consistent 
as a person in person or 

689
00:38:35,700 --> 00:38:38,600
otherwise, and I feel like I've 
said a million fucking times 

690
00:38:38,607 --> 00:38:42,200
that loyalty is the only thing 
that's important to me, like, I 

691
00:38:42,300 --> 00:38:45,100
Not here who you dated. 
Before me, what you did before 

692
00:38:45,100 --> 00:38:48,600
me whatever whatever loyalty 
like the concept of loyalty that

693
00:38:48,600 --> 00:38:51,100
when you say what you're saying 
that I can trust you and that I 

694
00:38:51,107 --> 00:38:54,800
can believe you no matter if 
you're mad or you're upset or 

695
00:38:54,800 --> 00:38:58,600
you're hurt or you're crying or 
happy, or whatever your loyalty 

696
00:38:58,600 --> 00:39:02,100
does not change. 
And I think that's what was not 

697
00:39:02,100 --> 00:39:06,500
working for me. 
Was the retraction of support 

698
00:39:06,500 --> 00:39:10,700
and consistency and appreciation
and even just respect that she 

699
00:39:10,700 --> 00:39:13,500
was extending doing. 
All this stuff like yeah girl 

700
00:39:13,500 --> 00:39:16,400
you put in a lot of work to make
this happen and we were being 

701
00:39:16,400 --> 00:39:19,800
hella grateful like if you were 
to just sit down buckled up and 

702
00:39:19,800 --> 00:39:21,600
shut up. 
People were going to wait on 

703
00:39:21,600 --> 00:39:24,100
your ass hand and foot too but 
you weren't in the room long 

704
00:39:24,100 --> 00:39:27,100
enough to receive anything 
because you're blocking your 

705
00:39:27,100 --> 00:39:30,900
about blessings and I know I've 
said this before and I'll say it

706
00:39:30,900 --> 00:39:33,800
again like a million. 
People want that perfect 

707
00:39:33,800 --> 00:39:36,800
relationship or that perfect 
friendship or that, perfect 

708
00:39:36,800 --> 00:39:39,100
moment to smack them in the 
fucking face. 

709
00:39:39,200 --> 00:39:42,800
But I promise you if you're only
looking at things, Everyone's of

710
00:39:42,800 --> 00:39:47,100
your trauma or lenses of your 
insecurities and fears and 

711
00:39:47,200 --> 00:39:50,100
whatever you're going to reject 
that every time. 

712
00:39:50,100 --> 00:39:53,200
So although, this girl may have 
found a perfect person that 

713
00:39:53,200 --> 00:39:56,900
she's just so in love with, 
she's going to project that onto

714
00:39:56,900 --> 00:40:01,200
that person just like, we were 
all trying to be friends and 

715
00:40:01,200 --> 00:40:03,400
have a good time and build 
memories and bonds. 

716
00:40:03,400 --> 00:40:06,700
That would last for a lifetime. 
Either way, the memory is going 

717
00:40:06,700 --> 00:40:10,000
to last for a lifetime. 
But, you know, I am not going to

718
00:40:10,008 --> 00:40:12,100
be upset with this person. 
I'm not going to hold. 

719
00:40:12,200 --> 00:40:14,300
Any Grudge. 
I'm not even going to block them

720
00:40:14,300 --> 00:40:17,900
but they didn't project or spew 
all that hatred on to me it's 

721
00:40:17,900 --> 00:40:22,100
like they took it out on Jim and
I but included Me and Jackie 

722
00:40:22,100 --> 00:40:25,300
into the equation rather than 
sitting down and approaching 

723
00:40:25,600 --> 00:40:28,700
everyone in a group like hey you
all are leaving me out and this 

724
00:40:28,700 --> 00:40:30,700
is what could make it better? 
Can we try that? 

725
00:40:30,700 --> 00:40:33,100
Like, that would be cool and 
then, move on. 

726
00:40:33,100 --> 00:40:36,500
But instead, she rejected any 
chance to have any normalcy or 

727
00:40:36,500 --> 00:40:40,400
conversation on the trip, and 
then had the audacity, to think,

728
00:40:40,400 --> 00:40:42,500
Sunday morning, when we checked,
Out. 

729
00:40:42,500 --> 00:40:45,200
That we were actually going to 
drive for hours and go back to 

730
00:40:45,200 --> 00:40:47,000
her fucking house for two 
nights. 

731
00:40:47,200 --> 00:40:49,600
Like you've got to be delusional
baby girl. 

732
00:40:49,700 --> 00:40:51,900
And that's the only thing I'm 
going to say about that because 

733
00:40:52,200 --> 00:40:55,500
who treats people like that 
expresses you don't want them 

734
00:40:55,500 --> 00:40:58,500
around, you don't want them at 
your house and you don't fucking

735
00:40:58,500 --> 00:41:03,200
like them and then think that me
being the boss and I am ain't 

736
00:41:03,200 --> 00:41:05,700
just gonna take care of it. 
Like soon as you said, we need 

737
00:41:05,700 --> 00:41:07,500
to get an Airbnb. 
Can you put this on your card? 

738
00:41:07,500 --> 00:41:09,600
I was like, done, fuck that, 
like we're not playing these 

739
00:41:09,600 --> 00:41:13,000
games like as soon as I realized
that we ER not going back to her

740
00:41:13,000 --> 00:41:14,900
house. 
I wasn't going to spend my 

741
00:41:14,900 --> 00:41:17,600
Saturday worrying about where we
were going to stay, right? 

742
00:41:17,600 --> 00:41:20,500
Like I was going to get it taken
care of so that I could have a 

743
00:41:20,508 --> 00:41:22,900
piece of mind. 
So of course, I didn't say that 

744
00:41:22,900 --> 00:41:26,100
to her, of course, I didn't tell
everyone in, like, a spirit all 

745
00:41:26,100 --> 00:41:29,800
over the stage, but I also 
didn't want to go hands to hands

746
00:41:29,800 --> 00:41:33,300
with fucking bloody Mary over 
here. 

747
00:41:33,300 --> 00:41:36,100
Like, I'm over here, trying to 
fucking live my life, and I'm 

748
00:41:36,100 --> 00:41:38,900
not trying to turn up and argue 
and be in a bad mood. 

749
00:41:38,900 --> 00:41:42,100
And I think that that's what 
this person wanted she wanted. 

750
00:41:42,200 --> 00:41:45,300
people to be in a bad mood, like
she was even though that had 

751
00:41:45,300 --> 00:41:48,800
nothing to do with us, I'll be 
your Huckleberry baby. 

752
00:41:48,800 --> 00:41:51,000
If she just stood up and she 
don't want to go hand to hand 

753
00:41:51,000 --> 00:41:53,400
out of go on hand to him. 
I had bail money. 

754
00:41:53,500 --> 00:41:59,800
No just getting us but at the 
same time she was projecting it 

755
00:41:59,800 --> 00:42:02,200
as much as she could. 
Like when we went to brunch on 

756
00:42:02,200 --> 00:42:05,800
Sunday at her friend's 
restaurant keep in mind our 

757
00:42:05,800 --> 00:42:08,500
second time eating their 
spending money local with her 

758
00:42:08,500 --> 00:42:12,600
friend and her friend has a doll
like shoutout. 

759
00:42:13,800 --> 00:42:17,000
What was it called, Canyons 
steak and Waffles onions. 

760
00:42:17,000 --> 00:42:18,800
Bacon waffles. 
It was fucking dank. 

761
00:42:18,800 --> 00:42:20,500
It's in Moab, you have to go 
there. 

762
00:42:20,500 --> 00:42:24,000
It was really good. 
And her friend was a beautiful 

763
00:42:24,000 --> 00:42:28,600
person. 
And honestly, I think that she 

764
00:42:28,600 --> 00:42:32,200
was a different person when she 
lived there 10, 12 years ago. 

765
00:42:32,600 --> 00:42:36,300
And I think that it was 
triggering old memories Old 

766
00:42:36,300 --> 00:42:39,500
Wounds old things for her. 
And I think instead of just 

767
00:42:39,500 --> 00:42:42,700
being vulnerable of like, wow, 
you know, my child's father 

768
00:42:42,700 --> 00:42:44,800
lives here. 
Or I feel triggered. 

769
00:42:44,800 --> 00:42:47,900
I feel upset. 
I feel some type of way and 

770
00:42:47,900 --> 00:42:49,900
expressing that and being 
vulnerable. 

771
00:42:50,200 --> 00:42:54,200
She took that out on us because 
like baby girl, you cannot say 

772
00:42:54,200 --> 00:42:55,800
that I'm not the same person 
online. 

773
00:42:55,900 --> 00:42:58,700
You saying that we brought a 
bunch of outfits and multiple 

774
00:42:58,700 --> 00:43:01,400
suitcases. 
Then you need to look at my 

775
00:43:01,400 --> 00:43:06,400
Instagram and and just go ahead 
and take inventory of me because

776
00:43:06,500 --> 00:43:08,500
I'm not going anywhere without 
three bags. 

777
00:43:08,700 --> 00:43:10,500
The fuck. 
Do I look like a week with? 

778
00:43:11,500 --> 00:43:13,600
A bag would? 
I mean, what am I supposed to 

779
00:43:13,600 --> 00:43:17,100
bring a little Satchel? 
Like, with that, it made you 

780
00:43:17,100 --> 00:43:18,600
happy? 
If I wore the same underwear all

781
00:43:18,600 --> 00:43:20,300
week, like, what do you want 
from me? 

782
00:43:20,600 --> 00:43:22,300
Yes, I had a hooded for every 
day. 

783
00:43:22,300 --> 00:43:24,900
What did you want from me? 
Like, I don't know why it 

784
00:43:24,900 --> 00:43:26,500
matters. 
How many bags you bring? 

785
00:43:26,500 --> 00:43:28,800
Is she paying for your luggage? 
She is not. 

786
00:43:28,900 --> 00:43:31,100
So what does it matter? 
How many bags you bring? 

787
00:43:31,100 --> 00:43:32,100
What? 
You're doing. 

788
00:43:32,200 --> 00:43:36,200
How many outfits you have? 
It didn't bother me in one 

789
00:43:36,200 --> 00:43:40,600
fucking way or the other and 
honestly, I feel like it was 

790
00:43:40,600 --> 00:43:43,900
just A projection of insecurity,
like just say that you don't 

791
00:43:43,900 --> 00:43:46,000
wear cute clothes or that you 
don't care about your 

792
00:43:46,000 --> 00:43:47,900
appearance. 
They said, the whole trip. 

793
00:43:47,900 --> 00:43:49,800
All I do is wear leggings and 
hoodies. 

794
00:43:49,900 --> 00:43:52,900
Oh, and I'm over here, like I 
hadn't. 

795
00:43:54,000 --> 00:43:57,800
I literally was in the bathroom 
for two minutes putting on 

796
00:43:58,100 --> 00:44:03,200
mascara, and she goes to the 
microwave and is like because 

797
00:44:03,200 --> 00:44:06,600
I'm not high maintenance, I can 
just do my makeup in the 

798
00:44:06,600 --> 00:44:09,700
microwave thing and I'm like, 
would you like to share the 

799
00:44:09,700 --> 00:44:12,000
mirror because it's big enough? 
I'm not doing my whole face. 

800
00:44:12,000 --> 00:44:15,200
I'm just doing mascara and she 
just ignores me and I didn't 

801
00:44:15,200 --> 00:44:17,500
even hear the comment that she 
made, Jackie told me the comment

802
00:44:17,500 --> 00:44:23,600
that she made, so like, I don't 
like it, I don't like it. 

803
00:44:23,800 --> 00:44:26,200
One just being a bitch for the 
sake of being one and then 

804
00:44:26,200 --> 00:44:29,400
taking zero personal 
accountability and projecting 

805
00:44:29,400 --> 00:44:32,100
that on everybody else. 
I'm really grateful that when I 

806
00:44:32,100 --> 00:44:35,600
told you guys like I'm not going
back and I'm not staying at her 

807
00:44:35,600 --> 00:44:37,700
house like I'm just not doing 
that. 

808
00:44:37,700 --> 00:44:42,200
I wasn't going to be in a 
situation where then like II 

809
00:44:42,200 --> 00:44:43,900
just I wasn't going to do it. 
I didn't want to lie to her 

810
00:44:43,900 --> 00:44:45,900
husband for her. 
I didn't like any of it and when

811
00:44:45,900 --> 00:44:48,500
I said that you were like, say 
less. 

812
00:44:49,300 --> 00:44:52,600
Yeah, because like honestly I 
don't know what's up with me and

813
00:44:52,600 --> 00:44:57,700
traveling in 2023. 
But by April of last year I had 

814
00:44:57,700 --> 00:45:01,300
been on several amazing trips 
already and this year I have 

815
00:45:01,300 --> 00:45:04,300
been on two trips and they have 
both been literal walking 

816
00:45:04,300 --> 00:45:09,000
nightmares from Detroit to Utah 
from one Coast to the next. 

817
00:45:09,100 --> 00:45:12,400
I don't know what the fuck's 
going on I think it's the trend 

818
00:45:12,400 --> 00:45:14,700
of trying to plan a trip with 
three or more people. 

819
00:45:14,700 --> 00:45:18,300
All sudden it's just not working
because I normally just me and 

820
00:45:18,300 --> 00:45:20,900
one person. 
It's you going on trips with 

821
00:45:20,900 --> 00:45:22,900
people who don't know, how to 
host trips. 

822
00:45:22,900 --> 00:45:26,500
Because even like she knew that 
area. 

823
00:45:26,800 --> 00:45:28,900
One, you've and you've gone on 
trips where the people just 

824
00:45:28,900 --> 00:45:31,300
didn't know the area. 
And so, like, I think that's 

825
00:45:31,300 --> 00:45:35,900
like, two strikes is like, 
whatever but I'm telling you, 

826
00:45:35,900 --> 00:45:40,000
I'm the hostess with the fucking
mostest and I'm going to rock 

827
00:45:40,000 --> 00:45:41,200
your world next year, when we go
to Mars. 

828
00:45:41,400 --> 00:45:42,700
Right. 
And down the coast. 

829
00:45:43,400 --> 00:45:46,600
Well, I just want to say that, 
like, I have a friend coming in 

830
00:45:46,600 --> 00:45:51,000
this weekend, who is driving 
about 13 hours to come here and 

831
00:45:51,000 --> 00:45:53,700
go to a concert and do things 
with me. 

832
00:45:54,000 --> 00:45:57,700
And one of the things that she 
said, and I never said this. 

833
00:45:58,000 --> 00:46:02,000
She said, I want to cook for you
and Jackie and take care of 

834
00:46:02,000 --> 00:46:06,200
y'all on Friday night, and this 
was before like any she doesn't 

835
00:46:06,200 --> 00:46:08,200
even know about anything. 
In Utah, she didn't know 

836
00:46:08,200 --> 00:46:11,700
anything about what was going 
on, nothing but the That this 

837
00:46:11,700 --> 00:46:15,200
woman wants to drive from the 
a.m. to the p.m. 

838
00:46:15,500 --> 00:46:18,600
Thursday through Friday. 
Then get here and go to the 

839
00:46:18,600 --> 00:46:23,500
grocery and cook for us says, a 
lot about the type of energy 

840
00:46:23,500 --> 00:46:25,100
that I need in my fucking life, 
baby. 

841
00:46:25,100 --> 00:46:28,600
We have different levels that we
bring. 

842
00:46:28,600 --> 00:46:32,300
So, when Jim, and I was catering
to me or taking care of me this,

843
00:46:32,300 --> 00:46:34,800
which doesn't know what the fuck
I do for you behind the scenes, 

844
00:46:34,800 --> 00:46:37,700
or maybe what I did for you 
years ago that even got us to 

845
00:46:37,700 --> 00:46:39,900
the point of meeting and being 
together. 

846
00:46:40,000 --> 00:46:42,500
So that's just one for To the 
girl that's coming in from 

847
00:46:42,500 --> 00:46:44,300
Kansas. 
It's the same thing with her. 

848
00:46:44,300 --> 00:46:46,600
She accredits me with all the 
stuff that I did for her 

849
00:46:46,600 --> 00:46:49,500
spiritually. 
So maybe this is her way of 

850
00:46:49,500 --> 00:46:53,400
honoring that and in giving back
so it's like for this lady to be

851
00:46:53,400 --> 00:46:55,900
like that would never be me. 
Okay, great. 

852
00:46:55,900 --> 00:46:58,400
But no one gives a fuck because 
I have plenty of quiet. 

853
00:46:58,600 --> 00:47:00,600
I've literally wouldn't even 
have my businesses. 

854
00:47:00,600 --> 00:47:05,400
If it hadn't been for 
conversations that we had, when 

855
00:47:05,400 --> 00:47:09,000
I was like, literally like out 
my sickest most like low point 

856
00:47:09,000 --> 00:47:13,700
in my life and so like, I I 
accredit literally like a huge 

857
00:47:13,700 --> 00:47:16,100
part of, like, my business is my
brand. 

858
00:47:16,100 --> 00:47:20,200
My, everything not to mention 
that you and I literally have a 

859
00:47:20,200 --> 00:47:23,000
business, and a brand together. 
In addition to what we 

860
00:47:23,000 --> 00:47:26,500
independently do. 
Like, there's a deep-rooted like

861
00:47:26,500 --> 00:47:30,200
Foundation of, like, love 
appreciation there. 

862
00:47:30,500 --> 00:47:33,300
Absolutely, I'm going to go out 
of my way to make sure that like

863
00:47:33,300 --> 00:47:35,200
you're taking care of that. 
You're good. 

864
00:47:35,200 --> 00:47:38,800
But you did the exact same thing
for me, like sure when you're 

865
00:47:38,800 --> 00:47:40,800
talking about like, physical 
things that I did. 

866
00:47:40,800 --> 00:47:44,800
Yeah, I And cleaned and was the 
house Mom, or whatever. 

867
00:47:45,000 --> 00:47:48,700
But you were balancing my 
emotions you were the person who

868
00:47:48,700 --> 00:47:51,900
was like, we're not going to do 
it like this like, you know, you

869
00:47:51,900 --> 00:47:54,200
can be calm about it. 
This is how we're going to do 

870
00:47:54,200 --> 00:47:56,300
it. 
You were the buffer when like, 

871
00:47:56,300 --> 00:48:00,000
like things were getting really 
agitated but behind the scenes 

872
00:48:00,000 --> 00:48:04,500
you helped ground me. 
And that's a huge reason why I 

873
00:48:04,508 --> 00:48:07,300
was able to get through that 
situation and think clearly 

874
00:48:07,300 --> 00:48:10,700
through it because my initial 
thing is to like, fight my way 

875
00:48:10,700 --> 00:48:12,600
out of it. 
It, and I didn't do that with 

876
00:48:12,600 --> 00:48:17,700
you there. 
So, Maybe that person just has 

877
00:48:17,700 --> 00:48:22,600
never experienced like a deep 
healthy friendship, where you're

878
00:48:22,600 --> 00:48:26,000
genuinely doing nice things for 
each other and taking care of 

879
00:48:26,000 --> 00:48:28,600
each other. 
Because you love that person. 

880
00:48:28,600 --> 00:48:31,000
You care about them. 
You want them to be comfortable.

881
00:48:31,300 --> 00:48:35,700
I was all so much closer to my 
home than you were. 

882
00:48:35,800 --> 00:48:39,400
I could eat if I had found a 
rental car, I could have driven 

883
00:48:39,400 --> 00:48:46,100
home in, you know, nine hours 
from Moab 5 hours from Salt Lake

884
00:48:46,100 --> 00:48:48,400
and I could have been fine. 
My husband could have come and 

885
00:48:48,400 --> 00:48:50,500
picked us up. 
Like whatever you didn't have 

886
00:48:50,500 --> 00:48:53,500
that, you can from Kentucky 
Clear across the country. 

887
00:48:53,700 --> 00:48:57,300
So I also felt like I had, I 
knew that you weren't being 

888
00:48:57,300 --> 00:49:00,600
treated right and hosted, right?
So I felt like it was on my 

889
00:49:00,600 --> 00:49:04,600
shoulders to make sure that you 
had like comfort and security if

890
00:49:04,600 --> 00:49:08,900
that makes sense. 
Well, I've all in all, like I 

891
00:49:08,908 --> 00:49:13,900
think because you know, I am 
used to exactly what happened 

892
00:49:13,900 --> 00:49:16,600
and you and Jack You both 
pointed that out that I grew up 

893
00:49:16,600 --> 00:49:18,500
in an environment. 
Exactly like that. 

894
00:49:18,500 --> 00:49:21,900
Like exactly what we experience 
for four nights is, is the 

895
00:49:21,900 --> 00:49:23,900
environment that I grew up in my
whole life. 

896
00:49:23,900 --> 00:49:26,700
So we're when we got to the air 
B&B on Sunday and I'm like, all 

897
00:49:26,707 --> 00:49:29,100
right ladies, what's up? 
Let's go for a walk. 

898
00:49:29,100 --> 00:49:31,300
The Walgreens is down the road. 
Everyone's looking at me, 

899
00:49:31,500 --> 00:49:34,600
fucking traumatized, Jackie, and
Jim, and I both just like, 

900
00:49:34,600 --> 00:49:36,400
cried. 
I ended up crying later that 

901
00:49:36,400 --> 00:49:40,400
night to, like, just release. 
My also thought I had dirt in my

902
00:49:40,400 --> 00:49:42,500
eye because it was swelling. 
So I wanted to get the dirt out,

903
00:49:42,500 --> 00:49:46,200
because the lady that we With 
decided that we didn't need 

904
00:49:46,200 --> 00:49:49,500
goggles when we actually needed 
goggles on the ATV. 

905
00:49:49,500 --> 00:49:52,700
So, thanks sister went to the 
eye doctor today. 

906
00:49:52,700 --> 00:49:55,500
Everything's all good. 
They prescribed 150 dollar eye 

907
00:49:55,500 --> 00:49:58,400
drops. 
So, we might be picking those up

908
00:49:58,400 --> 00:49:59,300
tomorrow. 
I don't know. 

909
00:49:59,300 --> 00:50:01,600
I haven't gotten them yet. 
I'm deciding if I really need 

910
00:50:01,600 --> 00:50:07,700
them, but with that being said, 
it was a little traumatic. 

911
00:50:07,700 --> 00:50:11,300
When this lady saying all these 
crazy things about leaving us. 

912
00:50:11,300 --> 00:50:16,100
Because like, growing up, I had 
been like left in Abandon one 

913
00:50:16,100 --> 00:50:17,600
time. 
When I was like 11, my mom 

914
00:50:17,600 --> 00:50:20,600
forgot about me at the fair with
my friend, she like got fucked 

915
00:50:20,600 --> 00:50:23,200
up in the beer booth and just 
bounced from the fair. 

916
00:50:23,200 --> 00:50:25,500
And I was there, you know what I
mean? 

917
00:50:25,500 --> 00:50:29,200
And so I went there a lot of 
traumatic things where I didn't 

918
00:50:29,200 --> 00:50:31,200
have a ride, like, exactly the 
scenario. 

919
00:50:31,200 --> 00:50:33,200
She was trying to put us in so I
don't know. 

920
00:50:33,200 --> 00:50:36,000
I just like wasn't worried about
it like and then we got to the 

921
00:50:36,000 --> 00:50:39,700
air B&B. 
I just I felt like hurt like wow

922
00:50:39,700 --> 00:50:44,100
this girl did this but then also
I felt like wow, like I took one

923
00:50:44,100 --> 00:50:46,000
elbow. 
Not like a big win because Jim 

924
00:50:46,000 --> 00:50:48,100
and I was here, I didn't know 
Jim and I was going to be here. 

925
00:50:48,300 --> 00:50:52,100
So like in all I guess I like 
being a Libra moon, just found 

926
00:50:52,100 --> 00:50:55,200
that real balance point of it 
was just like fuck it and it 

927
00:50:55,200 --> 00:50:59,000
really didn't get me, you know, 
I won't think much about it like

928
00:50:59,000 --> 00:51:02,100
two weeks ago by and I'll just 
completely forget like all the 

929
00:51:02,100 --> 00:51:04,700
bad stuff that happened and just
probably only be remembering 

930
00:51:04,700 --> 00:51:06,500
like they're really cool stuff 
that happened. 

931
00:51:06,800 --> 00:51:11,700
So at the end of the day I just 
feel like it's cool that we 

932
00:51:11,700 --> 00:51:13,900
could be there and support each 
other through something I'm 

933
00:51:13,900 --> 00:51:15,800
sure. 
It wanted to put us in some 

934
00:51:15,800 --> 00:51:19,000
weird-ass situation for the 
first time we met just because, 

935
00:51:19,000 --> 00:51:21,500
like, that's how the universe 
works, there is balance and 

936
00:51:21,500 --> 00:51:24,600
everything, like something 
really cool happened, and then 

937
00:51:24,600 --> 00:51:27,400
something really crazy was 
happening, but I think at the 

938
00:51:27,400 --> 00:51:32,400
end of the day, people will 
realize that they're the fucking

939
00:51:33,200 --> 00:51:36,600
bad guy on their own story and 
like that, they keep repeating 

940
00:51:36,600 --> 00:51:38,600
those situations time and time 
again. 

941
00:51:38,800 --> 00:51:41,300
So, there's anything that you 
all can take from this story is 

942
00:51:41,300 --> 00:51:46,200
like don't commit to something. 
Months in advance and then let 

943
00:51:46,200 --> 00:51:49,800
it get down to the day and you 
were ejected or you resent it. 

944
00:51:50,300 --> 00:51:53,700
I think that the appropriate 
time to change or cancel plans 

945
00:51:53,700 --> 00:51:56,600
as three weeks before anything 
after three weeks, you're a 

946
00:51:56,607 --> 00:51:59,700
fucking asshole. 
Do not make plans with me. 

947
00:51:59,700 --> 00:52:02,600
And I mean, like trips like, 
okay, you have to go to a 

948
00:52:02,600 --> 00:52:04,700
funeral suddenly and you need to
change something. 

949
00:52:04,800 --> 00:52:05,500
Okay? 
Cool. 

950
00:52:05,700 --> 00:52:08,600
But like don't scream at the top
of your lungs that you knew it 

951
00:52:08,600 --> 00:52:14,300
was a bad idea. 
And you never know what when 

952
00:52:14,300 --> 00:52:17,600
you're having shitty actions. 
What other people go through as 

953
00:52:17,600 --> 00:52:18,900
a result? 
To your shitty action. 

954
00:52:18,900 --> 00:52:22,600
So like for you Garrett, you 
grew up in that environment. 

955
00:52:22,600 --> 00:52:25,800
So your response was different 
for me. 

956
00:52:26,700 --> 00:52:31,100
I felt and I didn't realize this
till we got back to the Airbnb 

957
00:52:32,000 --> 00:52:35,100
to like or to our place that we 
got in Salt Lake together. 

958
00:52:35,800 --> 00:52:39,500
But when we were down there, I 
literally was in like a fight or

959
00:52:39,500 --> 00:52:40,300
flight. 
Mode. 

960
00:52:40,300 --> 00:52:44,300
Because I literally felt like I 
was living with my ex, and when 

961
00:52:44,300 --> 00:52:48,300
I look back on all the emotions 
that I felt in that situation 

962
00:52:48,300 --> 00:52:51,600
all of the gas lighting, all of 
the, it's your fault, the 

963
00:52:51,600 --> 00:52:56,100
abusing substance and like, then
yelling at me about what I'm 

964
00:52:56,100 --> 00:52:58,500
doing, but you're doing 
something and like, but I 

965
00:52:58,500 --> 00:53:01,900
haven't done anything wrong, 
staying up to make sure that 

966
00:53:01,900 --> 00:53:03,500
you're okay. 
And you can get back in the 

967
00:53:03,500 --> 00:53:06,400
house when you're not 
responding, after you just took 

968
00:53:06,400 --> 00:53:09,800
off in a bad mental state, like 
all of that shit. 

969
00:53:10,600 --> 00:53:15,000
It made me go through, like, my 
own shit about being with my ex 

970
00:53:15,000 --> 00:53:18,000
so soon as we got to, the are 
being our Airbnb. 

971
00:53:18,300 --> 00:53:22,900
The reason that I cried was, 
because I won, I was so angry. 

972
00:53:23,400 --> 00:53:28,000
And to, I was, I felt so safe 
all of a sudden as soon as we 

973
00:53:28,000 --> 00:53:32,700
locked the door and like, I just
let my whole guard down because 

974
00:53:32,700 --> 00:53:35,700
I was comfortable with you. 
And Jackie, I wasn't comfortable

975
00:53:35,700 --> 00:53:39,800
on the rest of those parts and 
then I fucking cried. 

976
00:53:40,000 --> 00:53:41,800
And it was a thing. 
Okay. 

977
00:53:41,800 --> 00:53:46,600
So spirit is on fucking one. 
You were talking the thumbs up. 

978
00:53:46,600 --> 00:53:48,400
Popped up both your hands were 
moving. 

979
00:53:48,500 --> 00:53:53,300
Swear to God, both your hands 
were moving at that same time I 

980
00:53:53,300 --> 00:53:56,200
had went to hit the mute button 
right before and sneeze as soon 

981
00:53:56,200 --> 00:53:58,300
as I took it off, mute thumbs-up
came up. 

982
00:53:58,300 --> 00:54:01,600
When you said I was comfortable 
with you and Jackie I sort of 

983
00:54:01,600 --> 00:54:05,500
God and it stayed for like 10 
seconds and then it went away 

984
00:54:05,500 --> 00:54:06,700
again. 
And then you finish your 

985
00:54:06,700 --> 00:54:12,700
sentence Well, hands were like 
you were doing stuff, but you 

986
00:54:12,700 --> 00:54:15,600
almost like, I don't know. 
And then it's crazy. 

987
00:54:15,600 --> 00:54:21,300
So, with that being said, your 
girl will not be planning 

988
00:54:21,300 --> 00:54:24,500
anymore. 
Six night, seven day trips, at 

989
00:54:24,500 --> 00:54:27,200
least six days, six nights. 
The way that our flight from 

990
00:54:27,200 --> 00:54:33,000
Kentucky, to Salt Lake was, but 
I have learned time and time 

991
00:54:33,000 --> 00:54:37,600
again that literally four days. 
Four nights is my fucking limit 

992
00:54:37,700 --> 00:54:40,900
and that The to travel days that
go with that, you know, the mean

993
00:54:40,900 --> 00:54:44,800
because typically where I'm 
going these days don't have any 

994
00:54:44,800 --> 00:54:47,700
direct flights in the time 
frames that I want them. 

995
00:54:47,700 --> 00:54:50,800
And so my flight times are 
always like five six hours 

996
00:54:51,300 --> 00:54:54,400
because you have like a small, a
over or you go to Chicago or 

997
00:54:54,400 --> 00:54:57,100
whatever. 
I'm working for days, 3 nights 

998
00:54:57,100 --> 00:55:00,000
for Monterey I've already. 
Because in two days we could 

999
00:55:00,000 --> 00:55:04,400
spend one full day in Monterey 
one full day and like Big Sur 

1000
00:55:04,400 --> 00:55:09,300
and Santa Cruz, whatever, and 
then you Of a day for traveling 

1001
00:55:09,300 --> 00:55:14,600
in a day for traveling home. 
Well well well that's fine 

1002
00:55:14,600 --> 00:55:18,000
because I'm telling you three to
four days. 

1003
00:55:18,000 --> 00:55:21,700
I think it's just like a perfect
time line especially when you're

1004
00:55:21,700 --> 00:55:25,400
doing a bunch of stuff and like 
whatever. 

1005
00:55:25,600 --> 00:55:28,700
I mean I have a house sitter and
like my animals were fine and I 

1006
00:55:28,700 --> 00:55:32,300
know all that but like it's just
nerve-racking to just be gone 

1007
00:55:32,300 --> 00:55:35,000
that long and have all these 
bags and all these clothes and 

1008
00:55:35,000 --> 00:55:38,500
all this stuff. 
So I personally unless I'm I'm 

1009
00:55:38,500 --> 00:55:42,000
out of the country or somewhere 
hella exotic will not be going 

1010
00:55:42,000 --> 00:55:46,000
anywhere longer than five 
nights, so, just fucking fuck 

1011
00:55:46,000 --> 00:55:48,000
you. 
I was like, I don't know why I 

1012
00:55:48,000 --> 00:55:51,100
planned a week-long trip ever. 
I just, like was so confused 

1013
00:55:51,100 --> 00:55:55,400
because honestly, I thought that
we only were staying at her 

1014
00:55:55,400 --> 00:55:58,700
house for like those transition 
nights, but the fact that we 

1015
00:55:58,700 --> 00:56:01,500
ended up actually was like half 
and half. 

1016
00:56:01,700 --> 00:56:05,000
Can you hear my cat? 
Yeah, he's annoying me. 

1017
00:56:07,900 --> 00:56:11,700
Before we like wrap up something
that I want to be sure to say 

1018
00:56:11,700 --> 00:56:14,800
too for not just her that's 
listening but for other people 

1019
00:56:14,800 --> 00:56:19,000
like if you're inside of a 
relationship where that person 

1020
00:56:19,000 --> 00:56:24,800
makes you feel guilty for going 
on a trip and being away from 

1021
00:56:24,800 --> 00:56:29,100
them or they feel they make you 
feel like you have to check in 

1022
00:56:29,100 --> 00:56:31,900
with them every 20 minutes and 
you have to tell them every 

1023
00:56:31,900 --> 00:56:35,300
little detail of every little 
thing or there on your ass. 

1024
00:56:35,400 --> 00:56:37,300
Acer, you're worried that 
they're going to be mad if you 

1025
00:56:37,300 --> 00:56:42,900
don't do that or whatever, that 
is not a healthy Dynamic, that's

1026
00:56:42,900 --> 00:56:47,400
not a supportive Dynamic for you
to have especially. 

1027
00:56:47,400 --> 00:56:52,100
Additionally, if that person has
their own thing that they go and

1028
00:56:52,100 --> 00:56:55,400
do their own hustle, that they 
go in, have they go and they 

1029
00:56:55,400 --> 00:56:58,500
leave town, or they go and they 
hang out with people or they do 

1030
00:56:58,500 --> 00:57:02,300
things and you're supposed to 
hold down the fort, you then 

1031
00:57:02,900 --> 00:57:05,300
getting the opposite when you 
decide to go out. 

1032
00:57:05,900 --> 00:57:09,100
That is fucked up. 
Energy, you deserve better than 

1033
00:57:09,100 --> 00:57:10,800
that. 
Everybody deserves better than 

1034
00:57:10,800 --> 00:57:13,400
to be in that situation. 
Regardless of if your homegirl 

1035
00:57:13,400 --> 00:57:19,700
or not, I genuinely, if she 
listens, I genuinely attribute 

1036
00:57:19,900 --> 00:57:23,400
85% of all of the shit that 
happened to alcohol. 

1037
00:57:23,600 --> 00:57:26,400
I think that it's not only does 
it fuck up what you do in the 

1038
00:57:26,400 --> 00:57:28,600
moment. 
It fuck's up your memory of what

1039
00:57:28,600 --> 00:57:31,400
happened. 
Your emotions are not clear and 

1040
00:57:31,400 --> 00:57:34,500
then when you keep on drinking 
and you haven't had resolution 

1041
00:57:34,500 --> 00:57:37,900
to your situation, Ins you 
continue to just stifle them 

1042
00:57:37,900 --> 00:57:40,900
down and stifle them down and 
every time you're drinking and 

1043
00:57:40,900 --> 00:57:43,200
you're getting drunk. 
You're changing those 

1044
00:57:43,400 --> 00:57:46,200
circumstances again inside of 
your head. 

1045
00:57:46,200 --> 00:57:48,900
And I'm telling you that, if 
three people around you, or 

1046
00:57:48,900 --> 00:57:52,100
saying that's not the version of
events, those aren't the things 

1047
00:57:52,100 --> 00:57:55,300
that you said you were impaired,
you should listen to the other 

1048
00:57:55,300 --> 00:58:01,600
people around you, who have no 
reason to say anything to lie to

1049
00:58:01,600 --> 00:58:04,600
you, when they're the ones who 
are trying to uphold honesty the

1050
00:58:04,600 --> 00:58:07,600
whole time. 
So, So I hope that you get help 

1051
00:58:07,600 --> 00:58:10,400
with that. 
Just the fact that you don't 

1052
00:58:10,400 --> 00:58:13,900
drink a gallon now and that you 
went down to a leader, that does

1053
00:58:13,900 --> 00:58:17,800
not fix a problem and problems 
will happen for you more in life

1054
00:58:17,800 --> 00:58:20,700
and you will continue to say 
that you don't have friends and 

1055
00:58:20,700 --> 00:58:24,100
that girls don't like you and 
it's because you drink and you 

1056
00:58:24,100 --> 00:58:28,800
bully them. 
You're muted, baby. 

1057
00:58:30,300 --> 00:58:33,600
And you Gaslight people and when
your dad fighting people and 

1058
00:58:33,600 --> 00:58:37,100
you're telling people that 
they're the problem or that 

1059
00:58:37,100 --> 00:58:41,800
they're creating a problem. 
When in fact you're creating a 

1060
00:58:41,800 --> 00:58:46,600
scenario and then your 
perception of their reaction is 

1061
00:58:46,600 --> 00:58:51,700
the problem, you're upset that 
you're not getting the reaction 

1062
00:58:51,700 --> 00:58:55,300
that you want, or that your 
night like you wanted us to like

1063
00:58:55,300 --> 00:58:57,200
bow down to you and get into 
fear mode. 

1064
00:58:57,200 --> 00:58:59,300
Like oh my God, she's going to 
leave us. 

1065
00:58:59,500 --> 00:59:02,200
Nobody If you would have left 
us, I would have took a 

1066
00:59:02,207 --> 00:59:04,800
helicopter ride out of there. 
I would I would have called the 

1067
00:59:04,808 --> 00:59:08,100
ambulance at this point. 
It was an emergency but my 

1068
00:59:08,100 --> 00:59:09,500
insurance work it out and I'm 
kidding. 

1069
00:59:09,500 --> 00:59:12,200
I'm kidding. 
But literally though like the 

1070
00:59:12,200 --> 00:59:15,000
cool thing about it was that 
Gemini's husband was like if I 

1071
00:59:15,000 --> 00:59:18,400
have to come get you all, I 
clearly will and that was all 

1072
00:59:18,400 --> 00:59:20,900
that really I needed to just get
through. 

1073
00:59:20,900 --> 00:59:24,800
And plus I had booked the Airbnb
and just move the fuck on. 

1074
00:59:25,900 --> 00:59:29,300
Shout out the little it was 
called Sugar House. 

1075
00:59:29,300 --> 00:59:32,800
It was like this little Town, in
Salt Lake City, and it was such 

1076
00:59:32,800 --> 00:59:36,300
a cute little town because you 
can walk to everything and they 

1077
00:59:36,300 --> 00:59:39,300
had all these little, like, 
little witchy stores and little 

1078
00:59:39,700 --> 00:59:43,100
boutique stores, and I just 
thought it was so cute, and it 

1079
00:59:43,100 --> 00:59:47,200
was crazy because the Airbnb 
that we had found was literally 

1080
00:59:47,200 --> 00:59:49,700
going to be booked up for the 
rest of the month. 

1081
00:59:49,700 --> 00:59:52,600
But the only two nights that 
were available where the two 

1082
00:59:52,600 --> 00:59:56,300
nights that we needed and it was
the craziest thing. 

1083
00:59:56,700 --> 00:59:59,200
I've never seen something so 
crazy, because when I opened up 

1084
00:59:59,200 --> 01:00:02,600
the schedule, You too. 
Like, you know, look at the 

1085
01:00:02,600 --> 01:00:04,900
thing. 
It literally was booked for like

1086
01:00:04,900 --> 01:00:07,400
the next month which probably 
meant that somebody was going to

1087
01:00:07,400 --> 01:00:12,000
come in and stay for like a week
or two because whatever, but 

1088
01:00:12,000 --> 01:00:16,100
that place literally was like, 
it was cute and it like had no 

1089
01:00:16,100 --> 01:00:18,900
problem in that sense, but it 
was like a dingy old person 

1090
01:00:18,900 --> 01:00:21,600
house. 
It smelled like old people and 

1091
01:00:21,600 --> 01:00:23,600
I'm not, I love old people, 
people make me cry. 

1092
01:00:23,600 --> 01:00:27,600
When I see old people out, I was
like, I'm like, don't look at 

1093
01:00:27,600 --> 01:00:28,900
them because like, they're so 
cute. 

1094
01:00:28,900 --> 01:00:32,500
I want to cry. 
I'm like, Whatever I've been 

1095
01:00:32,500 --> 01:00:35,900
real emotional lately like just 
like earlier I got on that Tick 

1096
01:00:35,900 --> 01:00:38,000
Tock Trend about people's dogs 
words. 

1097
01:00:38,000 --> 01:00:42,200
Like you know, if I leave the 
party early to go home to my 

1098
01:00:42,200 --> 01:00:45,000
dog, it's because his life is 
short and he's my world and I 

1099
01:00:45,000 --> 01:00:48,700
got on this like the whole Trend
where it's like the same song 

1100
01:00:48,700 --> 01:00:50,600
and I was looking. 
Oh my God, I was just crying. 

1101
01:00:50,600 --> 01:00:53,200
I don't even have a dog. 
I don't even have a fucking it, 

1102
01:00:53,200 --> 01:00:55,300
my cat's gonna live here, like 
25 years. 

1103
01:00:55,500 --> 01:00:58,700
And I'm over here, fucking 
crying over this. 

1104
01:00:58,700 --> 01:01:01,600
So, I've just been real. 
Nationally driven lately. 

1105
01:01:01,600 --> 01:01:04,500
And I just want to say that, 
like, you know, I think this is 

1106
01:01:04,500 --> 01:01:06,800
a learning experience for 
everyone because Jim, and I 

1107
01:01:06,808 --> 01:01:10,800
handled the situation maturely, 
and in a good way. 

1108
01:01:11,600 --> 01:01:14,100
I never got my reading though. 
She was supposed to do a reading

1109
01:01:14,100 --> 01:01:16,900
for me in person, and because 
all of that got everybody 

1110
01:01:16,900 --> 01:01:19,300
stirred up, she never even 
touched her card. 

1111
01:01:19,300 --> 01:01:23,500
Y'all, like she never, I didn't 
even open Tick Tock one time 

1112
01:01:23,500 --> 01:01:28,000
while I was gone because I was 
just so like I didn't even need 

1113
01:01:28,000 --> 01:01:30,500
any other energies out. 
So because tick-tock, It me 

1114
01:01:30,700 --> 01:01:33,600
Tick-Tock has a lot of 
fear-mongering, a lot of what we

1115
01:01:33,600 --> 01:01:36,100
think is educational. 
Sometimes this fear-mongering 

1116
01:01:36,200 --> 01:01:38,900
not all of it, there's 
half-and-half probably, but it's

1117
01:01:38,900 --> 01:01:40,900
dark and light. 
Its balance, there has to be 

1118
01:01:40,900 --> 01:01:43,900
that on there, but I'll tell you
that sometimes, like, if I get 

1119
01:01:43,900 --> 01:01:47,500
too into something conspiracy 
wise on Tick-Tock that I can 

1120
01:01:47,500 --> 01:01:50,000
just ruin my whole mouth, like 
I'll just run that my whole 

1121
01:01:50,000 --> 01:01:54,600
frequency because the thing is 
with fear, is it consumes your 

1122
01:01:54,600 --> 01:01:56,600
life? 
And the only way to get out of 

1123
01:01:56,600 --> 01:02:00,700
fear is to step into your most 
abundant hyah Yourself. 

1124
01:02:00,700 --> 01:02:04,000
And so, if you're absorbing 
content or watching movies or 

1125
01:02:04,000 --> 01:02:07,000
watching things that are putting
the sphere in this like 

1126
01:02:07,000 --> 01:02:11,400
apocalyptic life in your head, 
you are actively manifesting 

1127
01:02:11,400 --> 01:02:14,200
that if you literally think that
you're in your lifetime, you're 

1128
01:02:14,200 --> 01:02:16,300
going to see an apocalypse or 
world war three. 

1129
01:02:16,500 --> 01:02:19,500
You very well, might because 
you're manifesting that they've 

1130
01:02:19,500 --> 01:02:22,000
been telling them that World War
3 is going to start since 10 

1131
01:02:22,000 --> 01:02:24,800
years after World War Two, come 
the fuck on. 

1132
01:02:24,800 --> 01:02:26,800
Like, literally so much is 
happening. 

1133
01:02:26,800 --> 01:02:30,600
Collectively and tomorrow when 
you're listening to This it will

1134
01:02:30,600 --> 01:02:36,400
be Thursday and Pluto moves into
Aquarius for the first time 

1135
01:02:36,400 --> 01:02:41,500
since 1777 and 777 is my 
favorite number from Spirit and 

1136
01:02:41,508 --> 01:02:45,300
when I found out that it had not
been in there since then, the 

1137
01:02:45,300 --> 01:02:49,200
United States was born in 1776. 
So just want to point that map 

1138
01:02:49,200 --> 01:02:52,600
out for everyone that like this 
is the restart of the United 

1139
01:02:52,600 --> 01:02:56,000
States. 
Like what we are about to endure

1140
01:02:56,000 --> 01:02:58,800
is going to be major changes. 
But if you're in the fear 

1141
01:02:58,800 --> 01:03:01,600
Collective or the Fear mongering
bullshit and you're thinking 

1142
01:03:01,600 --> 01:03:04,600
like we're going to lose this 
and we're not going to have 

1143
01:03:04,600 --> 01:03:07,900
these rights or whatever you're 
going to manifest that for your 

1144
01:03:07,900 --> 01:03:10,000
reality. 
I truly believe that everyone 

1145
01:03:10,000 --> 01:03:12,600
lives in their own frequency, 
their own reality, their own 

1146
01:03:12,600 --> 01:03:16,000
version of that reality. 
And you've got to get on the 

1147
01:03:16,000 --> 01:03:19,600
right side of things when it 
comes to your thought, process, 

1148
01:03:19,600 --> 01:03:22,800
your Collective energy, what 
you're absorbing from other 

1149
01:03:22,800 --> 01:03:26,200
people, your perception of 
what's actually happening. 

1150
01:03:26,300 --> 01:03:29,000
And if you're using drugs and 
alcohol to cope with these 

1151
01:03:29,000 --> 01:03:32,400
changes, It's covid or before 
you're going to be fucked, 

1152
01:03:32,400 --> 01:03:34,800
you're going to be left behind. 
So I'm really proud of a lot of 

1153
01:03:34,800 --> 01:03:38,100
people that I know for a fact I 
won't name drop that have 

1154
01:03:38,100 --> 01:03:41,600
started working with me or 
Gemini and gave up the toxic 

1155
01:03:41,600 --> 01:03:45,500
relationship, or the alcohol or 
the bad habits, or whatever 

1156
01:03:45,500 --> 01:03:47,900
because that shit's fuckin hard.
And I'm telling you, for the 

1157
01:03:47,908 --> 01:03:52,100
last five years, since I've been
on this path, only things have 

1158
01:03:52,100 --> 01:03:54,500
gotten better for me. 
Like only things have gotten 

1159
01:03:54,500 --> 01:03:57,600
better and spirit kept telling 
me that like a big Revelation 

1160
01:03:57,600 --> 01:04:01,600
would come from this weekend. 
I think this is what I needed to

1161
01:04:01,600 --> 01:04:04,700
like my fire because you don't 
fucking know people. 

1162
01:04:04,700 --> 01:04:08,000
You can talk to them every 
single day for 110 days or 

1163
01:04:08,000 --> 01:04:12,500
whatever I said and literally 
not know them at all whatsoever.

1164
01:04:12,600 --> 01:04:17,400
So Tread lightly and maintain 
your own energy, do not be 

1165
01:04:17,400 --> 01:04:19,400
making decisions. 
Whether it's, what job? 

1166
01:04:19,400 --> 01:04:22,400
You're going to take, where 
you're going to move, what 

1167
01:04:22,400 --> 01:04:23,800
school? 
You're going to go to based on a

1168
01:04:23,800 --> 01:04:27,900
relationship, your family or 
anyone because people will come 

1169
01:04:27,900 --> 01:04:30,400
and go. 
And as you raise your vibration,

1170
01:04:30,400 --> 01:04:33,100
I promise you, you will leave 
behind the people that you do, 

1171
01:04:33,100 --> 01:04:36,200
not think you will, and that's 
what's scary about it. 

1172
01:04:36,200 --> 01:04:39,700
And I think that's what's so 
cool about being able to have 

1173
01:04:39,700 --> 01:04:43,800
this podcast and this platform 
and I know that we're inspiring.

1174
01:04:43,900 --> 01:04:45,700
A lot of people because I should
send people. 

1175
01:04:45,700 --> 01:04:48,800
I know all of a sudden have 
started a podcast, but do y'all 

1176
01:04:48,800 --> 01:04:52,200
like I love it. 
But with that being said, don't 

1177
01:04:52,200 --> 01:04:54,100
think this is easy. 
Don't think that you're going to

1178
01:04:54,100 --> 01:04:56,500
like just put it all together 
and it's going to come together 

1179
01:04:56,500 --> 01:04:57,800
overnight. 
The only thing that's going to 

1180
01:04:57,800 --> 01:05:01,300
work for a podcast or anything 
is consistency. 

1181
01:05:01,400 --> 01:05:04,600
So consistency of your energy, 
your thoughts, whatever. 

1182
01:05:04,600 --> 01:05:07,700
Because we've mentioned before 
and I'll say it again like even 

1183
01:05:07,700 --> 01:05:09,800
bunny who gets a million 
downloads a month. 

1184
01:05:09,800 --> 01:05:13,400
Now, wanted to give up three 
years in because it wasn't where

1185
01:05:13,400 --> 01:05:15,800
she thought it Would be. 
So it doesn't matter who your 

1186
01:05:15,800 --> 01:05:18,400
husband is, who your wife is, 
who you are, whatever. 

1187
01:05:18,600 --> 01:05:21,400
It's the energy and intention 
it's because she thought it 

1188
01:05:21,400 --> 01:05:23,700
wasn't doing well enough. 
It wasn't. 

1189
01:05:23,700 --> 01:05:25,500
Then we started doing energy 
work. 

1190
01:05:25,500 --> 01:05:27,500
She started really healing on a 
deep level. 

1191
01:05:27,600 --> 01:05:30,500
Now, look at her and look at 
Gemini, will you talk about that

1192
01:05:30,500 --> 01:05:32,500
earlier? 
I just don't think people get 

1193
01:05:32,500 --> 01:05:35,600
that when you actually remove 
the toxins and the drugs and the

1194
01:05:35,600 --> 01:05:39,400
alcohol, the bullshit, the 
drama, but low-frequency fear 

1195
01:05:39,700 --> 01:05:42,100
bullshit that your whole life 
changes. 

1196
01:05:42,100 --> 01:05:45,200
And yes, that is so scary. 
Yes, you have to acknowledge 

1197
01:05:45,200 --> 01:05:48,100
that, you are the problem, but 
if you all took anything from 

1198
01:05:48,100 --> 01:05:52,300
this dramatic, a story. 
Is that three grown adults? 

1199
01:05:52,300 --> 01:05:54,600
Were not only bullied and 
traumatized. 

1200
01:05:54,600 --> 01:05:58,700
We were away from home and a 
place that we had never been and

1201
01:05:58,700 --> 01:06:02,400
the lady had the audacity to say
that she was just as her out of 

1202
01:06:02,400 --> 01:06:05,800
her element as we were like, 
baby girl. 

1203
01:06:05,900 --> 01:06:10,800
Come the fuck on like saying 
dumb shit to get a reaction on 

1204
01:06:10,800 --> 01:06:13,000
most because it's like, how 
could you say that in a place 

1205
01:06:13,000 --> 01:06:14,300
that you've lived? 
Your Whole life. 

1206
01:06:14,300 --> 01:06:16,800
It makes zero sense. 
It would be like someone coming 

1207
01:06:16,800 --> 01:06:20,100
to Kentucky and I'm literally 
made in Kentucky and I'm just 

1208
01:06:20,100 --> 01:06:23,300
like oh I don't know anything 
about this place. 

1209
01:06:23,500 --> 01:06:30,500
Like what like what the fuck? 
My mind, just reels still over 

1210
01:06:30,500 --> 01:06:35,300
the entire situation, and I wish
that she would have just left it

1211
01:06:35,300 --> 01:06:39,000
at. 
Like she didn't say goodbye. 

1212
01:06:39,200 --> 01:06:41,100
I didn't say goodbye. 
Y'all said goodbye. 

1213
01:06:41,100 --> 01:06:43,800
You got you? 
And Jackie are very nice and we 

1214
01:06:43,800 --> 01:06:45,900
went to our Airbnb. 
I wish you would have just left 

1215
01:06:45,900 --> 01:06:48,600
it at what it was, you noticed? 
You've got blocked, it takes 

1216
01:06:48,600 --> 01:06:51,400
himself accountability and be 
like, Gemini blocked me because 

1217
01:06:51,400 --> 01:06:54,900
I was a raging cont the whole 
week and move on with life. 

1218
01:06:54,900 --> 01:06:57,500
But instead it's sending me text
messages. 

1219
01:06:57,600 --> 01:07:03,300
Is blocking my number and then 
sending you messages still 

1220
01:07:03,600 --> 01:07:05,900
saying, oh, I want to talk to 
Gemini. 

1221
01:07:06,300 --> 01:07:09,700
It's, if somebody doesn't want 
to talk to you and they tell you

1222
01:07:10,100 --> 01:07:13,000
because I wasn't quiet about 
like why I'm not fucking with 

1223
01:07:13,000 --> 01:07:15,900
you. 
So if you know that don't then 

1224
01:07:15,900 --> 01:07:19,800
keep on harassing people like 
and that's where people go into 

1225
01:07:19,800 --> 01:07:23,200
like abusing other people. 
And they act like they're not is

1226
01:07:23,400 --> 01:07:27,100
if somebody is doing everything 
to distance themselves from you 

1227
01:07:27,300 --> 01:07:29,500
and They don't want to be a part
of it anymore. 

1228
01:07:29,700 --> 01:07:34,000
Stop chasing them. 
If you know that like you fucked

1229
01:07:34,000 --> 01:07:38,000
up and you you know they need to
hear my apology or whatever. 

1230
01:07:38,300 --> 01:07:42,100
I'm good you didn't do it when 
there was an opportunity to talk

1231
01:07:42,100 --> 01:07:44,900
face-to-face and now you're 
being a punk and you want to do 

1232
01:07:44,900 --> 01:07:49,900
it when everybody's back home 
and not only is that harassing 

1233
01:07:49,900 --> 01:07:54,500
to me it's harassing to you for 
you to be getting text messages 

1234
01:07:54,500 --> 01:07:57,400
after you just endured the same 
thing to what are you supposed 

1235
01:07:57,400 --> 01:07:59,500
to? 
Relay a message for her. 

1236
01:08:00,400 --> 01:08:02,600
What's weird? 
Is that we all wanted to talk 

1237
01:08:02,600 --> 01:08:04,900
face-to-face, like a grown 
fuckin adult, it has some 

1238
01:08:04,900 --> 01:08:08,400
accountability and then that 
wasn't even possible. 

1239
01:08:08,400 --> 01:08:12,700
Like I just don't get why anyone
that is a grown woman would plan

1240
01:08:12,700 --> 01:08:17,800
a trip for three people to come 
to her home for six nights and 

1241
01:08:17,800 --> 01:08:22,100
then completely go left field. 
Talking about I'm off work and 

1242
01:08:22,100 --> 01:08:24,300
not getting paid. 
Although I just got an eight 

1243
01:08:24,300 --> 01:08:29,100
thousand dollar check all in 
this talking about bragging 

1244
01:08:29,200 --> 01:08:32,200
about how much you get on your 
tax return and that it's 

1245
01:08:32,200 --> 01:08:36,200
thousand more than you expected 
and all this money and then sit 

1246
01:08:36,200 --> 01:08:38,500
here and be a fucking bougie 
ass. 

1247
01:08:38,500 --> 01:08:40,700
Bitch about nothing but not even
bougie. 

1248
01:08:40,700 --> 01:08:43,200
That's the wrong word because 
she wasn't at all. 

1249
01:08:43,200 --> 01:08:47,500
It was the complaining about 
money and complaining about all 

1250
01:08:47,500 --> 01:08:51,100
of the things at random times. 
After you just tell everybody 

1251
01:08:51,100 --> 01:08:57,200
how your eight thousand dollars 
richer and how you have way more

1252
01:08:57,200 --> 01:08:59,000
money. 
You guys had needed and so you 

1253
01:08:59,008 --> 01:09:01,300
have to call your husband to 
figure out how you're going to 

1254
01:09:01,308 --> 01:09:05,200
spend the extra couple thousand 
dollars happy for you. 

1255
01:09:05,200 --> 01:09:08,000
That's fucking dope that you 
manifested that amount of money 

1256
01:09:08,000 --> 01:09:11,000
and that you can do that. 
Like that is fucking incredible.

1257
01:09:11,000 --> 01:09:16,800
Don't turn around and try and 
make problems for no reason. 

1258
01:09:17,700 --> 01:09:20,000
I mean, I wouldn't even use the 
word manifested. 

1259
01:09:20,000 --> 01:09:25,100
I feel like, you know, maybe I 
at different times at her life 

1260
01:09:25,100 --> 01:09:29,100
spirit is trying to bless her. 
So that she can be generous and 

1261
01:09:29,100 --> 01:09:31,500
maybe change the tune. 
Like wow. 

1262
01:09:31,500 --> 01:09:33,200
I just got an extra thousand 
dollars. 

1263
01:09:33,300 --> 01:09:36,399
Fuck that fire pit. 
We don't use it what 60 dollars 

1264
01:09:36,399 --> 01:09:38,899
but how many times like you said
that she mention that fire pit? 

1265
01:09:38,899 --> 01:09:42,300
When we used it for s'mores and 
set out there for hours in the 

1266
01:09:42,300 --> 01:09:44,899
freezing cold looking at the 
stars just because it was so 

1267
01:09:44,899 --> 01:09:47,500
beautiful. 
And like what blew my mind is 

1268
01:09:47,500 --> 01:09:50,000
that never once did she star 
gaze and that was the whole 

1269
01:09:50,000 --> 01:09:52,200
thing? 
I told her that I wanted to do 

1270
01:09:52,200 --> 01:09:54,500
like other people, maybe have 
said other things they wanted to

1271
01:09:54,500 --> 01:09:58,100
do but stargaze was number one 
on my list because The stars out

1272
01:09:58,100 --> 01:09:59,900
there in the desert are 
beautiful. 

1273
01:09:59,900 --> 01:10:02,900
You can see everything. 
And I feel like I'm channeling 

1274
01:10:02,900 --> 01:10:06,300
like, you know, native Spirits 
because it's like, you know, 

1275
01:10:06,300 --> 01:10:10,000
that's what like LED them and 
like, maps and like, that's how 

1276
01:10:10,000 --> 01:10:11,600
they knew where they were and 
stuff. 

1277
01:10:11,600 --> 01:10:15,700
And so the first three stories 
down there to about like, like 

1278
01:10:15,700 --> 01:10:18,600
even on the hell's Revenge, 
there was a thing on the 

1279
01:10:18,600 --> 01:10:21,000
website. 
I was looking at about like the 

1280
01:10:21,000 --> 01:10:24,100
stars and how they were used to 
guide over those rocks and like 

1281
01:10:24,100 --> 01:10:27,400
all kinds of shit. 
So like that was a whole theme. 

1282
01:10:28,100 --> 01:10:31,300
That. 
You even talked about on the 

1283
01:10:31,300 --> 01:10:35,600
drive end, like it was obvious 
that we planned on using it. 

1284
01:10:35,700 --> 01:10:38,500
You were all excited when we 
went back inside, talking about 

1285
01:10:38,500 --> 01:10:43,000
how Venus and Jupiter were so 
fucking bright and we were, you 

1286
01:10:43,000 --> 01:10:44,700
know, trying to share that 
excitement. 

1287
01:10:44,700 --> 01:10:49,900
And it's the yeah, isolating 
yourself from those experiences.

1288
01:10:49,900 --> 01:10:52,500
But I'm grateful that I got to 
have those experiences with you.

1289
01:10:52,500 --> 01:10:55,500
Because I sat outside, I start 
gazed with you. 

1290
01:10:55,800 --> 01:10:58,000
I, you know, you opened your 
app. 

1291
01:10:58,000 --> 01:10:59,400
We looked at what the different 
things. 

1292
01:10:59,500 --> 01:11:01,200
Where we found out what planets 
were there. 

1293
01:11:01,200 --> 01:11:06,400
We had like deep conversations 
and even though in my mind when 

1294
01:11:06,400 --> 01:11:09,500
we would have gotten together, 
would have been like a business 

1295
01:11:09,500 --> 01:11:12,100
trip, quote unquote, I loves 
that. 

1296
01:11:12,100 --> 01:11:13,800
We didn't do business on this 
trip. 

1297
01:11:13,800 --> 01:11:17,000
We literally were like chilling 
out. 

1298
01:11:17,000 --> 01:11:18,700
I love that. 
You are my personal shopper on 

1299
01:11:18,700 --> 01:11:19,600
Monday. 
I love that. 

1300
01:11:19,600 --> 01:11:21,600
I'm now going to send you a 
budget so that you can just be 

1301
01:11:21,600 --> 01:11:24,200
my personal shopper because 
that's what we need to have in 

1302
01:11:24,200 --> 01:11:26,200
life. 
I'm wearing pink because of you 

1303
01:11:26,200 --> 01:11:28,600
haleh to girl, we got a matching
shirt. 

1304
01:11:28,600 --> 01:11:29,300
Y'all. 
I got that. 

1305
01:11:29,500 --> 01:11:32,800
Same shirt that she has on it 
matching slides now. 

1306
01:11:33,400 --> 01:11:36,100
Yeah and they're pink and black.
Look we compromised. 

1307
01:11:36,100 --> 01:11:40,300
It's like the Wednesday Addams 
and her friend, the pink and 

1308
01:11:40,300 --> 01:11:44,300
black box at home with those 
shoes. 

1309
01:11:44,300 --> 01:11:47,800
Brian was like I think this was 
good for you. 

1310
01:11:50,800 --> 01:11:53,500
Okay, so I just want to say one 
more thing. 

1311
01:11:53,700 --> 01:11:57,100
I absolutely love everyone who 
gets it. 

1312
01:11:57,100 --> 01:12:01,100
Who gets the vision by now, the 
June is we're not fucking 

1313
01:12:01,100 --> 01:12:04,500
competing we're not asking for 
permission and we're going to do

1314
01:12:04,500 --> 01:12:07,400
whatever the fuck we want. 
So if you rock with those three 

1315
01:12:08,100 --> 01:12:10,500
mission statements, then keep 
listening. 

1316
01:12:10,800 --> 01:12:13,900
Keep writing. 
We keep getting request to add 

1317
01:12:13,900 --> 01:12:18,700
our podcast at Amazon. 
So maybe coming soon and also 

1318
01:12:18,700 --> 01:12:22,300
want to say. 
We are so grateful for every 

1319
01:12:22,300 --> 01:12:26,700
single person who has been 
sharing the podcast that sends 

1320
01:12:26,700 --> 01:12:28,600
it to friends like stuff like 
that. 

1321
01:12:28,600 --> 01:12:32,700
Really means a lot. 
Because people know about music 

1322
01:12:32,700 --> 01:12:36,600
and different things, through 
Word of Mouth, like referrals 

1323
01:12:36,600 --> 01:12:39,700
mean everything. 
And it really means a lot 

1324
01:12:39,900 --> 01:12:44,800
everyone who has been writing. 
I know that we're starting to 

1325
01:12:45,500 --> 01:12:49,300
really build such a big 
Community together with both of 

1326
01:12:49,300 --> 01:12:51,600
our platforms. 
That I'm just extremely grateful

1327
01:12:51,600 --> 01:12:57,100
to everybody and I love you all.
Yeah, I love it, too. 

1328
01:12:58,700 --> 01:13:01,400
I do think it's interesting. 
And we've talked about it 

1329
01:13:01,400 --> 01:13:04,400
before, but even though we do 
completely different things, we 

1330
01:13:04,400 --> 01:13:07,900
collect the same kind of energy 
and the same intention with that

1331
01:13:07,900 --> 01:13:10,800
energy. 
And so it's so cool that we 

1332
01:13:10,800 --> 01:13:14,100
independently do are things that
end up becoming kind of our 

1333
01:13:14,100 --> 01:13:17,200
group thing. 
And I love when people are like 

1334
01:13:17,200 --> 01:13:19,300
I'm getting a reading from you 
because I've gotten a reading 

1335
01:13:19,300 --> 01:13:22,900
from Rampage and she recommended
her podcast and like whatever. 

1336
01:13:23,800 --> 01:13:26,900
And then speaking of your Yeah, 
I didn't want to pull out my 

1337
01:13:26,900 --> 01:13:30,400
cards on that trip. 
I spelt so funky that what I 

1338
01:13:30,400 --> 01:13:33,900
didn't want to happen is because
I couldn't regulate my energy 

1339
01:13:33,900 --> 01:13:38,400
while we were there, even though
like I was doing my best, I 

1340
01:13:38,400 --> 01:13:42,500
didn't want to project anything 
onto the reading that I was 

1341
01:13:42,500 --> 01:13:46,600
giving, and every time I would 
go in there to grab my cards, it

1342
01:13:46,600 --> 01:13:50,700
just didn't feel, right? 
And I didn't feel like you and I

1343
01:13:50,700 --> 01:13:54,200
work on a timeline with things 
and that if it's not the right 

1344
01:13:54,200 --> 01:13:58,200
time you also So weren't I also 
don't think that you were in 

1345
01:13:58,400 --> 01:14:01,500
your element to be receiving 
message either? 

1346
01:14:02,100 --> 01:14:04,100
No. 
Honestly I need in a Glade 

1347
01:14:04,100 --> 01:14:08,200
Plugin at the last spot. 
We're at in that about honey 

1348
01:14:08,200 --> 01:14:12,800
about 50 more feet in that other
space like that shit was a 

1349
01:14:12,800 --> 01:14:16,300
little tiny and a lot of people 
on The Tick Tock feed right now 

1350
01:14:16,300 --> 01:14:19,100
are saying that they're really 
proud of us for handling it 

1351
01:14:19,600 --> 01:14:23,000
handling, the situations the way
that we did a lot of people will

1352
01:14:23,000 --> 01:14:27,400
have me at stargazing. 
Um, but at the end of the day, I

1353
01:14:27,407 --> 01:14:29,700
think that there was a test in 
there. 

1354
01:14:29,700 --> 01:14:32,900
Pluto moving into Aquarius the 
first day of every season, it 

1355
01:14:32,900 --> 01:14:34,800
was the new moon while we were 
there it was st. 

1356
01:14:34,800 --> 01:14:38,100
Patrick's Day who was actually 
against the Pagan so I don't 

1357
01:14:38,100 --> 01:14:39,900
really celebrate. 
It's not like a thing for me. 

1358
01:14:39,900 --> 01:14:41,400
You didn't celebrate it. 
Yeah. 

1359
01:14:41,400 --> 01:14:43,800
I mean I like greens all. 
We're going everyone's wrong 

1360
01:14:43,800 --> 01:14:46,400
whatever. 
But um and then also it was a 

1361
01:14:46,400 --> 01:14:49,200
spring solstice. 
So like how do you have four and

1362
01:14:49,200 --> 01:14:52,200
then Pluto moving into Aquarius 
for the first time and like 300 

1363
01:14:52,200 --> 01:14:55,000
years and then he's going to go 
and retrograde and move. 

1364
01:14:55,100 --> 01:14:58,200
Back into Capricorn and then 
move back and inquiries to move 

1365
01:14:58,200 --> 01:14:59,700
back to California back in 
Aquarius. 

1366
01:14:59,700 --> 01:15:01,600
It's crazy. 
So it's about to get crazy. 

1367
01:15:01,600 --> 01:15:04,400
Fuck the next three years, I'm 
not scared, but it as an 

1368
01:15:04,400 --> 01:15:07,500
astrologer, I know it's going to
get crazy but I wanted to get 

1369
01:15:07,500 --> 01:15:11,000
crazy for change crazy for 
recycling, crazy for fucking 

1370
01:15:11,000 --> 01:15:13,600
healing. 
Like, we're crazy for fucking 

1371
01:15:13,600 --> 01:15:18,500
sobriety in this bitch, like 
your blessings by blocking them 

1372
01:15:18,500 --> 01:15:20,300
by. 
Not believing you deserve them 

1373
01:15:20,400 --> 01:15:25,000
by fucking masking your true 
potential by drinking away. 

1374
01:15:25,200 --> 01:15:27,700
Fucking productivity because it 
makes you feel like shit the 

1375
01:15:27,708 --> 01:15:29,900
next day and then you complain 
more. 

1376
01:15:30,100 --> 01:15:34,100
Like there's so many levels to 
it and as an adult you have to 

1377
01:15:34,100 --> 01:15:37,700
take accountability and every 
way and no I'm not worried about

1378
01:15:37,700 --> 01:15:39,900
the reading actually I just 
booked the reading just because 

1379
01:15:39,900 --> 01:15:42,600
I wanted to support you. 
I don't even pay for readings 

1380
01:15:42,600 --> 01:15:46,700
for people because when I do a 
Celtic cross for myself Spirit 

1381
01:15:46,700 --> 01:15:50,500
gets wild with it like Spirit, 
go so wild, whenever I actually 

1382
01:15:50,500 --> 01:15:54,500
like put in a lot of intention 
for a reading but normally me 

1383
01:15:54,500 --> 01:15:56,600
I'm just like, wow. 
Quick card like pull out a bunch

1384
01:15:56,600 --> 01:15:58,800
of cards and then I do a quick 
message and I was put on back 

1385
01:15:58,800 --> 01:16:01,500
like I don't do elaborate 
readings for myself all the 

1386
01:16:01,500 --> 01:16:04,900
time. 
Because I just know things like 

1387
01:16:04,900 --> 01:16:07,300
I don't need to ask the cards to
know the things if you've ever 

1388
01:16:07,300 --> 01:16:09,300
gotten a reading with me then 
you know that I've said 

1389
01:16:09,300 --> 01:16:11,900
something and then the card will
come out and say the same thing 

1390
01:16:12,100 --> 01:16:16,100
or like I'll say literally 
exactly what comes up next like 

1391
01:16:16,100 --> 01:16:19,100
every time. 
So you know the way that things 

1392
01:16:19,100 --> 01:16:22,300
are happening right now 
especially with the podcast is 

1393
01:16:22,300 --> 01:16:23,700
worried about to take shit Next 
Level. 

1394
01:16:23,700 --> 01:16:26,800
I'm really feeling it ignited. 
Every season is my favorite 

1395
01:16:26,800 --> 01:16:29,800
season, because y'all know, my 
birthday's coming up now. 

1396
01:16:29,800 --> 01:16:32,500
We got Gemini's birthday up 
next. 

1397
01:16:32,500 --> 01:16:35,600
And there's just going to be A 
lot a year anniversary of the 

1398
01:16:35,600 --> 01:16:38,900
podcast. 
So we know who's been jocking 

1399
01:16:38,900 --> 01:16:41,600
our style, because it's a year 
later, baby and you're just now 

1400
01:16:41,600 --> 01:16:43,900
on board. 
It's fine, it's fine. 

1401
01:16:43,900 --> 01:16:48,000
Do you but don't try to take the
original and make a copy and 

1402
01:16:48,000 --> 01:16:52,300
think it's going to work for you
and That's it. 

1403
01:16:52,300 --> 01:16:55,700
That's all I have. 
That's all I have to. 

1404
01:16:55,700 --> 01:17:01,900
I feel like I have said, many, a
thought, many a Feeling Again, 

1405
01:17:01,900 --> 01:17:05,800
I'm just, I'm really grateful to
not have caught a case in Utah. 

1406
01:17:06,100 --> 01:17:09,700
I just want to thank sweet 
little baby Jesus, newborn 6 oz 

1407
01:17:09,700 --> 01:17:13,200
little baby Jesus for that, I 
want to thank page. 

1408
01:17:13,200 --> 01:17:15,900
I want to thank my husband for 
talking me off the ledge. 

1409
01:17:16,300 --> 01:17:20,900
Thank you crazy. 
We were laughing so hard. 

1410
01:17:21,000 --> 01:17:23,700
Hard me Jackie and Jonah were in
the bed. 

1411
01:17:23,700 --> 01:17:28,000
And we were laughing so hard on 
Sunday night like to the point 

1412
01:17:28,000 --> 01:17:31,600
of tears and I just want to add 
a few of those little details 

1413
01:17:31,600 --> 01:17:35,600
because it was so fucking funny.
I literally was doing this 

1414
01:17:35,600 --> 01:17:39,100
perception of the husband's 
like, the girl's husband in 

1415
01:17:39,100 --> 01:17:41,300
Gemini's husband. 
And I was like, you're never 

1416
01:17:41,300 --> 01:17:44,900
leaving the house again. 
Is it over 24 hours will need to

1417
01:17:44,900 --> 01:17:47,900
double-check, do I have their 
background were check it? 

1418
01:17:47,900 --> 01:17:50,500
Like, do they have a car? 
Is there to do? 

1419
01:17:50,500 --> 01:17:54,600
They haven't That's why in the 
fuck. 

1420
01:17:54,600 --> 01:17:56,500
Did you guys not? 
Get your own rental. 

1421
01:17:56,500 --> 01:17:59,000
He's like you and Paige. 
He's like, you and Paige have 

1422
01:17:59,000 --> 01:18:02,200
enough invested in each other. 
That like you could trust a page

1423
01:18:02,200 --> 01:18:04,900
was driving you around. 
He's like, but you guys should 

1424
01:18:04,900 --> 01:18:08,800
have never gone down and put 
somebody else that you don't 

1425
01:18:08,800 --> 01:18:11,700
rock with like that in charge of
having the vehicle. 

1426
01:18:11,700 --> 01:18:13,700
He had told me that before I 
went down there. 

1427
01:18:13,700 --> 01:18:16,000
So I had to be like you're 
right. 

1428
01:18:16,000 --> 01:18:18,900
Which like, I fuck it. 
I did it but I really didn't 

1429
01:18:18,900 --> 01:18:23,400
like it and We just need to next
time. 

1430
01:18:23,400 --> 01:18:24,700
He's like, I'll come on your 
trip. 

1431
01:18:24,700 --> 01:18:26,200
Next time. 
He's like, you guys are going to

1432
01:18:26,200 --> 01:18:28,000
Monterey. 
I'll be your cameraman. 

1433
01:18:28,000 --> 01:18:29,400
I won't. 
I won't get in the way of 

1434
01:18:29,400 --> 01:18:32,000
things, but I don't have. 
He can just like feel kind of 

1435
01:18:32,000 --> 01:18:33,900
security. 
I told him what you said when 

1436
01:18:33,900 --> 01:18:36,500
you were like good, I need a 
little more masculine energy in 

1437
01:18:36,500 --> 01:18:39,200
my life and he goes, what does 
that mean? 

1438
01:18:39,200 --> 01:18:42,700
And I said well like if like a 
tire blows or like we need a 

1439
01:18:42,700 --> 01:18:44,800
light bulb changed or something 
like that. 

1440
01:18:44,800 --> 01:18:50,200
Like I'll change the light bulb 
know like for a while like my 

1441
01:18:50,200 --> 01:18:52,700
big brother. 
He'd come over and be like 

1442
01:18:52,800 --> 01:18:55,300
changing my air filter so that I
text him recently I was like 

1443
01:18:55,300 --> 01:18:57,900
yeah, I've been changing my own 
air filter now. 

1444
01:18:57,900 --> 01:19:02,900
So just let you Shadow said 
spicy land, it is spicy as fuck 

1445
01:19:02,900 --> 01:19:05,100
and you want to know something I
am. 

1446
01:19:05,100 --> 01:19:09,500
So fucking proud of us for just 
like not snapping on her as a 

1447
01:19:09,500 --> 01:19:12,200
Duo because if we both would 
have went after her at the same 

1448
01:19:12,200 --> 01:19:15,100
time, they're probably she 
probably would have. 

1449
01:19:15,100 --> 01:19:17,100
She kept using the word filling 
attacked. 

1450
01:19:17,200 --> 01:19:19,600
We never attacked her. 
Just because all three people 

1451
01:19:19,600 --> 01:19:24,100
are studying in the common area 
of a fucking 450 square foot, 

1452
01:19:24,200 --> 01:19:28,400
double wide cabin or whatever. 
Like double let me were knocking

1453
01:19:28,400 --> 01:19:31,700
girls even when we all sat 
together and even after she was 

1454
01:19:31,700 --> 01:19:35,100
doing what she was doing. 
There was never a toxic like you

1455
01:19:35,100 --> 01:19:38,100
know when there's a toxic energy
of like nobody here fucks with 

1456
01:19:38,100 --> 01:19:41,700
me and like you feel 
uncomfortable, none of us exuded

1457
01:19:41,700 --> 01:19:45,200
that energy towards her. 
It's the reason why she says, 

1458
01:19:45,300 --> 01:19:48,200
well on Saturday everybody, you 
know, didn't tell me that they 

1459
01:19:48,200 --> 01:19:50,400
had a problem. 
We all wanted to talk to you, 

1460
01:19:50,400 --> 01:19:54,100
you didn't want To talk to us. 
And we're not going to lose the 

1461
01:19:54,100 --> 01:19:56,700
road trip. 
Yeah, and she left again on 

1462
01:19:56,700 --> 01:20:00,200
Saturday, like the Airbnb was 
already booked, but we were 

1463
01:20:00,200 --> 01:20:02,400
still trying to talk things out 
because like we thought that 

1464
01:20:02,400 --> 01:20:05,900
when we went to our Airbnb, that
maybe we would still chill and 

1465
01:20:05,900 --> 01:20:07,900
like have dinner. 
She was saying that, you know, 

1466
01:20:07,900 --> 01:20:10,600
her husband was going to cook 
dinner, dada dada, dada. 

1467
01:20:10,900 --> 01:20:13,800
Well, the moral of that story is
it just kept getting worse and 

1468
01:20:13,800 --> 01:20:16,600
worse as Saturday went on. 
And then yes, we went on the ATV

1469
01:20:16,600 --> 01:20:20,800
and we all had a great time but 
we also, I was scared to death. 

1470
01:20:21,000 --> 01:20:23,000
Death. 
I know Joe and I was real 

1471
01:20:23,000 --> 01:20:24,400
scared. 
I was scared, but I was having 

1472
01:20:24,400 --> 01:20:28,400
fun because I like to be scared,
but it was like in pain and not 

1473
01:20:28,400 --> 01:20:30,900
all, loving it. 
She was loving him out. 

1474
01:20:31,600 --> 01:20:37,200
Well, like, here's my thing is I
told her before we even went on 

1475
01:20:37,200 --> 01:20:40,800
the trip and she talked about 
ATVs, like I don't think that 

1476
01:20:40,800 --> 01:20:43,600
it's a shock to anybody that 
like, I have a brain disease and

1477
01:20:43,600 --> 01:20:45,700
I'm sick, right? 
And like my head hurts, and I'm 

1478
01:20:45,700 --> 01:20:50,200
like my face hurts. 
So, going out on an ATV, when 

1479
01:20:50,200 --> 01:20:53,900
I'm already having issues with 
elevation and going further up 

1480
01:20:53,900 --> 01:20:58,000
in elevation when I'm in pain 
and having my whole body jostled

1481
01:20:58,000 --> 01:21:02,400
around and having loud noises of
ATVs and whatever. 

1482
01:21:02,900 --> 01:21:05,600
I wasn't, I didn't want to go Do
that. 

1483
01:21:05,600 --> 01:21:09,800
The only reason why I went and 
did that is because it was such 

1484
01:21:09,800 --> 01:21:13,400
a big deal and the whole time it
was you guys don't want to do 

1485
01:21:13,400 --> 01:21:15,700
what I wanted to know. 
It's me who doesn't want to go 

1486
01:21:15,700 --> 01:21:17,400
on ATVs. 
So if you're going to take it 

1487
01:21:17,400 --> 01:21:20,200
out on everybody, the whole 
time, I will go on the ATV. 

1488
01:21:20,300 --> 01:21:22,900
Like, if that's what it takes, I
will do that. 

1489
01:21:22,900 --> 01:21:28,100
And so I was mad the whole time 
that even if I'm having a, you 

1490
01:21:28,100 --> 01:21:31,000
know, even if it's fun while 
we're doing it, it's the fact 

1491
01:21:31,000 --> 01:21:35,000
that I'm here because you didn't
respect me saying, no, and I I 

1492
01:21:35,008 --> 01:21:37,800
had to do something. 
I didn't want to do in order to 

1493
01:21:37,800 --> 01:21:40,600
keep peace with other people, so
that it didn't get projected 

1494
01:21:40,600 --> 01:21:43,300
onto you. 
And the only reason, why 

1495
01:21:43,300 --> 01:21:46,200
everybody was just chill, and 
there was no problems is because

1496
01:21:46,200 --> 01:21:48,500
we were literally, we couldn't 
speak. 

1497
01:21:48,500 --> 01:21:50,800
We were inside of a thing. 
The only thing you can do is 

1498
01:21:50,800 --> 01:21:54,700
Cheer the person on who has left
their, so you bet that every 

1499
01:21:54,700 --> 01:21:57,500
time your you get to the top of 
that Ridge, and we didn't die. 

1500
01:21:57,500 --> 01:21:59,800
I'm like, fuck, yeah. 
Daddy hit the gas harder. 

1501
01:21:59,800 --> 01:22:03,100
Like, you bet your bottom dollar
doesn't mean I like you. 

1502
01:22:04,300 --> 01:22:08,000
Honestly, how much more 
subliminal could it have been, 

1503
01:22:08,000 --> 01:22:11,100
when you set directly behind 
her, where you couldn't even see

1504
01:22:11,100 --> 01:22:13,900
her? 
Like, I don't know how many more

1505
01:22:13,900 --> 01:22:17,200
subliminal messages could have 
been there for you because you 

1506
01:22:17,200 --> 01:22:21,500
already knew like you told us, 
like I told you that it would be

1507
01:22:21,508 --> 01:22:24,700
dependent on how other things 
went like because she didn't 

1508
01:22:24,700 --> 01:22:27,000
actually go off on me, and then 
she was talking shit. 

1509
01:22:27,000 --> 01:22:30,600
I didn't like get that full on 
projection but then, as the trip

1510
01:22:30,600 --> 01:22:32,900
went on, she continued it. 
And then, I was like, okay, 

1511
01:22:32,900 --> 01:22:35,400
yeah, like this. 
I'm getting older, whatever, and

1512
01:22:35,400 --> 01:22:37,100
then you were like, oh, I'm 
blocking her. 

1513
01:22:37,100 --> 01:22:39,400
Like, I'm never going to talk to
her again, like you knew that 

1514
01:22:39,400 --> 01:22:41,800
from like the moment Friday 
night happened. 

1515
01:22:42,500 --> 01:22:45,500
It soon as she yelled at me, I 
was like, I will get through 

1516
01:22:45,500 --> 01:22:48,700
this weekend because even if the
girls don't want an Airbnb, I'm 

1517
01:22:48,700 --> 01:22:50,700
getting an Airbnb. 
And I will never talk to this 

1518
01:22:50,700 --> 01:22:54,400
bitch again ever in my life and 
I stuck to that. 

1519
01:22:54,400 --> 01:22:56,700
As soon as we were done, I 
blocked her on everything. 

1520
01:22:56,700 --> 01:22:58,900
It should not be a shock. 
I was not quiet about my 

1521
01:22:58,900 --> 01:23:01,800
feelings. 
But again, I will never be the 

1522
01:23:01,800 --> 01:23:06,400
mean girl who needs to use my 
energy and a way to make 

1523
01:23:06,400 --> 01:23:10,000
somebody feel uncomfortable. 
When I've already expressed 

1524
01:23:10,000 --> 01:23:12,100
verbally that like, I'm not 
okay, with this. 

1525
01:23:12,100 --> 01:23:15,400
I'm not going to, I am, just not
the person who will make 

1526
01:23:15,400 --> 01:23:18,100
somebody uncomfortable and a 
situation that they can't 

1527
01:23:18,100 --> 01:23:20,000
escape. 
That would be me doing exactly 

1528
01:23:20,000 --> 01:23:22,200
what she did. 
And I would never do that to 

1529
01:23:22,200 --> 01:23:25,100
somebody. 
So, yeah. 

1530
01:23:25,100 --> 01:23:28,300
And actually, like I said 
earlier, like going on a trip 

1531
01:23:28,300 --> 01:23:33,600
with multiple people, especially
over the number 3, 4 5, 6 7. 

1532
01:23:33,900 --> 01:23:36,700
The fact that there was 10 
people next door to us and a 

1533
01:23:36,708 --> 01:23:39,800
cabin, the same size as ours 
with a shower that only would 

1534
01:23:39,800 --> 01:23:45,100
get hot enough for one shower is
baffling to me because not only 

1535
01:23:45,100 --> 01:23:48,500
did they have 10 people, they 
had more people stop by and two 

1536
01:23:48,500 --> 01:23:51,000
dogs. 
At one point two huge dogs like 

1537
01:23:51,000 --> 01:23:54,400
a Husky and another big ass dog.
That I don't know the name. 

1538
01:23:54,600 --> 01:23:59,700
So the fact that there's 10 
people because either a, they 

1539
01:23:59,700 --> 01:24:01,600
all were drinking. 
I think I think they all were 

1540
01:24:01,600 --> 01:24:04,300
over there drinking, which is 
the message of Like we're going 

1541
01:24:04,300 --> 01:24:07,700
to go the fucking mountains and 
drink Seltzer's and take our 

1542
01:24:07,700 --> 01:24:09,900
dogs hike in or whatever. 
Okay, that's the message. 

1543
01:24:09,900 --> 01:24:14,000
But like never once the drinking
or alcohol, even get brought up 

1544
01:24:14,000 --> 01:24:19,600
to me whatsoever from her in the
group, text that me her and 

1545
01:24:19,600 --> 01:24:22,900
Jackie had which really 
frustrates me because she felt 

1546
01:24:22,900 --> 01:24:26,000
comfortable enough to tell you 
that was the plan, but she was 

1547
01:24:26,000 --> 01:24:30,700
going to bring a little alcohol.
He told me that morning when you

1548
01:24:30,700 --> 01:24:33,300
guys were still asleep and we 
hadn't surprised you yet. 

1549
01:24:33,300 --> 01:24:36,400
That was what The first things 
that she told me was at night, 

1550
01:24:36,400 --> 01:24:38,700
sometimes I like to have a 
little bit of wine, so I'm going

1551
01:24:38,700 --> 01:24:41,200
to bring a little bit of wine. 
I hope you guys won't mind. 

1552
01:24:41,300 --> 01:24:44,100
I know that you guys don't drink
like I don't plan on getting 

1553
01:24:44,100 --> 01:24:47,400
drunk or anything and I was like
a glass of wine so like unwind 

1554
01:24:47,400 --> 01:24:49,800
because she's not Devil's, 
lettuce friendly. 

1555
01:24:50,100 --> 01:24:53,200
And we are like, okay, if that's
your thing, I'm imagining a 

1556
01:24:53,200 --> 01:24:55,300
glass of wine. 
I don't mind that he didn't even

1557
01:24:55,300 --> 01:24:57,900
want one though. 
That's what's confusing to bring

1558
01:24:57,900 --> 01:24:59,800
wine. 
Vodka and wine are very 

1559
01:24:59,800 --> 01:25:02,400
different things. 
First of all, and second of all,

1560
01:25:02,400 --> 01:25:05,500
no one, there was Is no one on 
opener. 

1561
01:25:05,500 --> 01:25:09,500
There was no one. 
I still don't understand the 

1562
01:25:09,508 --> 01:25:13,900
hypocrisy of nobody else drinks 
vodka and I do and everybody 

1563
01:25:13,900 --> 01:25:17,700
else does this that I don't do 
so I better talk a whole bunch 

1564
01:25:17,700 --> 01:25:19,200
of shit. 
So those three people that I 

1565
01:25:19,200 --> 01:25:25,000
told them I was going to be the 
hook up for, like I just I'll 

1566
01:25:25,000 --> 01:25:26,300
just never talk to that person 
again. 

1567
01:25:26,300 --> 01:25:29,800
It's all Gucci. 
I like if I saw them, I would 

1568
01:25:29,800 --> 01:25:32,700
say fuck you. 
I would not just walk by, I'm 

1569
01:25:32,700 --> 01:25:35,400
not that person. 
Like I love that you're like 

1570
01:25:35,400 --> 01:25:38,700
I'll just remember all the good 
things about it and I'm like, it

1571
01:25:38,700 --> 01:25:42,400
takes a lot for me to be like, 
actually, I like to avoid 

1572
01:25:42,600 --> 01:25:46,200
conflict because I don't trust 
myself in Conflict. 

1573
01:25:46,500 --> 01:25:51,400
So I tried really hard to avoid 
it, but if you and I have a 

1574
01:25:51,400 --> 01:25:54,500
problem and I try to talk to and
I try to resolve it and you tell

1575
01:25:54,500 --> 01:25:59,700
me to go fuck myself. 
I if you wanted to be on site 

1576
01:25:59,700 --> 01:26:01,600
with me, that would be totally 
fine with me. 

1577
01:26:01,600 --> 01:26:05,500
I'll play the game. 
What's crazy is like everyone 

1578
01:26:05,500 --> 01:26:08,300
was being extremely nice and she
was the only one being mean. 

1579
01:26:08,300 --> 01:26:11,200
And the last thing that I ever 
want to say about this is like, 

1580
01:26:11,500 --> 01:26:16,900
once again, I'm here, asking you
do not host people. 

1581
01:26:16,900 --> 01:26:20,200
You don't fucking know if you 
think there's even one chance 

1582
01:26:20,200 --> 01:26:23,200
that you might not like them, 
because if you don't like 

1583
01:26:23,200 --> 01:26:25,200
yourself, you probably won't 
like them. 

1584
01:26:25,300 --> 01:26:32,200
So moral of our story is, do not
play games with Gemini, because 

1585
01:26:32,200 --> 01:26:35,200
it is on On sight. 
If so, we also want to say one 

1586
01:26:35,200 --> 01:26:38,800
other thing because I know that 
you plan to take your spouse to 

1587
01:26:38,800 --> 01:26:42,400
the same desert that you just 
took us to and talk to a bunch 

1588
01:26:42,400 --> 01:26:45,000
of dudes in and told us to keep 
a secret for you. 

1589
01:26:45,200 --> 01:26:48,800
So, if I was you, this is just 
like, you know, a little bit of 

1590
01:26:49,100 --> 01:26:51,400
like, female career. 
Camaraderie over here and 

1591
01:26:51,400 --> 01:26:55,400
advice, I wouldn't take your 
husband into the desert, where 

1592
01:26:55,400 --> 01:26:58,600
you were just fucking around 
whether that be emotionally, 

1593
01:26:58,800 --> 01:27:02,400
mentally, physically, whatever 
it was that you were doing. 

1594
01:27:02,800 --> 01:27:06,000
Wouldn't take my husband into 
that desert where you want 

1595
01:27:06,000 --> 01:27:09,900
secrets to be hidden because 
everybody that you think ride 

1596
01:27:09,900 --> 01:27:13,000
solid for you, I'm sure that you
treat the exact way that you 

1597
01:27:13,008 --> 01:27:15,700
treated us and they will spell 
your secrets. 

1598
01:27:15,700 --> 01:27:18,100
And if you think that dudes that
are fucking with you, while 

1599
01:27:18,100 --> 01:27:21,600
you're married, won't tell your 
husband to blow up your cover. 

1600
01:27:21,600 --> 01:27:25,500
You are sadly mistaken and it's 
small town drama. 

1601
01:27:25,500 --> 01:27:29,900
And I felt like I was consumed 
into like a sitcom while we were

1602
01:27:29,900 --> 01:27:35,300
gone and the drama and plot It 
was you wanting us to lie to 

1603
01:27:35,300 --> 01:27:38,300
your husband and I think the 
more that you did things wrong 

1604
01:27:38,300 --> 01:27:40,900
or the more that you felt guilty
or the more that whatever was 

1605
01:27:40,900 --> 01:27:43,500
going through your head and that
you drink and thought about it 

1606
01:27:43,500 --> 01:27:47,000
and thought about it. 
I think there is something going

1607
01:27:47,000 --> 01:27:50,100
on there and it probably 
wouldn't be in the best 

1608
01:27:50,600 --> 01:27:51,800
interest. 
I agree. 

1609
01:27:51,800 --> 01:27:56,200
But do you boo? 
Boo, because we ain't worried 

1610
01:27:56,200 --> 01:27:58,600
about it. 
Also, since you were telling 

1611
01:27:58,600 --> 01:28:02,000
your husband about the details 
of the trip, but only your side,

1612
01:28:02,200 --> 01:28:03,800
I think. 
If you are listening to the 

1613
01:28:03,800 --> 01:28:07,300
podcast, you should just let him
listen to the whole podcast so 

1614
01:28:07,300 --> 01:28:11,500
that he can get all different 
angles of the story. 

1615
01:28:11,700 --> 01:28:15,000
Instead of just yours that would
be, you know. 

1616
01:28:15,100 --> 01:28:17,600
I just think that would be dope 
since you wanted to include him 

1617
01:28:17,600 --> 01:28:19,900
in on the trip anyways and he 
didn't get to see what it was 

1618
01:28:19,900 --> 01:28:21,700
really. 
Like, I just think it would be 

1619
01:28:21,700 --> 01:28:24,200
really dope if you didn't lie to
him further. 

1620
01:28:24,300 --> 01:28:28,900
That's my as wife to another 
wife, stop being a travel and 

1621
01:28:28,900 --> 01:28:33,400
how that's all the thumbs up. 
Literally came Up again, while 

1622
01:28:33,400 --> 01:28:36,900
you were saying that and got it,
I'm going outside. 

1623
01:28:37,000 --> 01:28:39,700
Stop it. 
I swear I don't know what's 

1624
01:28:39,700 --> 01:28:43,700
going on but spirit is 
all-in-one, like I haven't even 

1625
01:28:43,700 --> 01:28:45,000
ever seen that. 
Do that. 

1626
01:28:45,000 --> 01:28:47,200
And I don't even, it says 
reactions, but you're not 

1627
01:28:47,200 --> 01:28:49,500
clicking it right here. 
Look, I just did one. 

1628
01:28:49,700 --> 01:28:53,500
I did one for you, Spirits, 
reacting Spirits, doing them. 

1629
01:28:53,600 --> 01:28:57,300
We approve this message. 
Look, barriers is doing it. 

1630
01:28:58,600 --> 01:29:02,600
Now, do you see it? 
Yeah, it's crazy. 

1631
01:29:02,600 --> 01:29:04,900
I don't know what's going on. 
That is so weird. 

1632
01:29:04,900 --> 01:29:09,400
But all right, we love you all. 
Thank you for coming to spicy 

1633
01:29:09,400 --> 01:29:11,300
land. 
We'll see you next time on lick 

1634
01:29:11,300 --> 01:29:14,000
it like a lollipop. 
Bye.