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Welcome back to Candyland. So we are back to weekly
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So don't forget, if a crazy story or something happens, send
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us. And that way we can Share your
story. We could share our perspective
on it. We can keep you anonymous and
all of those goodies. I always just keep saying, like,
you and I are just two totally different.
We just handle things totally different and see things
differently. So to like get people's
different stories and their perspectives on things because I
think I'm the one who like handles things more
aggressively. But it seems like the things
that like I really give a fuck about, you're like, I don't
really care about that. And then if I'm like, I don't
really care. You're like, oh, let me tell you
something. I do think that's true, True.
I do think that a lot of people don't realize what we're going
to be talking about on this podcast because I've had
different people, you know, say like, I really wasn't expecting
it to be as dynamic or as in depth as it is.
But I recently had one of my guy friends say that they turned it
on at the construction site and everyone was listening to it and
he was like, and multiple people were like, that's really funny.
Who is that? Who are those people talking?
And I thought that was so cool. That is cool.
It's interesting too, because like we're able to connect with
a lot of different people who have a lot of different belief
systems and personalities and whatnot.
And I think again, because our personalities are so versatile.
Yeah, I do think that a lot of people don't know if this is
going to be like a gossip type podcast or like a shit talking
podcast or feminism, you know, fuck men podcast.
I feel like there's like a couple different arenas for the
female lead podcast, but they're all falling into some category
like that unless they're interviewing guests and then
it's all over the place. But I think that it's really
hard in any arena to find balance with things like my
nails are very balanced right now.
I got clowns on there finding balance between like 2
personalities, 2 work ethics, 2 styles, 2 goals.
You know, two people trying to meet their goals.
It's just it's really unique to be able to do that with anyone
or anything, to be honest. Yeah.
I, I think something that works really good with our dynamic too
is I don't take direction from many people or like or, yeah,
collaborate on the same level with many people.
It's usually like I'm in the position where like I'm
employing somebody or I'm having something happen or whatever.
But you and I with our dynamic, I respect your opinion and your
what your goal for the podcast and things is and for our brand
in general. So you're one of the few people
who's able to be like, hey, Jim, like, you know, this is the
energy we're needing or this is the energy, you know, this is
the lesson that's being learned right now or this is the way
that like you can look at that differently or whatever.
And I think that that mutual respect and, and openness that
we have in our friendship really translates to the podcast.
And a lot of people don't have that inside of their friend
circles or people in their life where, you know, I don't have to
worry if you say something to me that that's like the end of our
friendship or something. And for a bitch with abandonment
issues, which has been like a wound that's been coming up,
like I, I appreciate that. I feel like one thing of that
I'm doing really well that translates into what you're
saying is I let people do what they want to do, even if I'm not
like in agreeance or like I'm not.
What do I want to say? Like I choose to just let people
run their course as long as they're not swerving into my
car, into my lane. Like I let people coexist on
their level of understanding or their level of intention or
whatever they want to focus on. And I feel like what I have
learned is like when you get someone to do something because
you want them to do it, it's always short lived.
Like it's like, oh, I cleaned the house for you today.
Get off my back or I cut the grass this one time.
Like if you try to get people to do things, I've learned that
that is not the approach to get results.
Like the biggest thing that I have learned is just letting it
be like letting things run their course, letting things work
themselves out, letting things go without direct control or
dominion or trying to like control or understand things.
I feel like lately I've just been like letting things below I
guess around me without taking it personal or feeling like oh,
this is affecting me now I'm gonna be upset or project back
to this person. Like I've just been like
allowing people to be them without having like conditions
or rules or guidelines. Like I can tell people what I
think they should do or what I would do, but I don't care if
they do that, you know what I mean?
Like I feel like I want you to think this through, but also at
the same time like trying to tell someone what to do is what
I think led me down empty broken roads in the past.
I think that there's something to letting people be themselves
and if people are operating in their highest sense of like
right and good and they're making choices that are like
they feel like are for their best and it's not something
that's like, you know, them just being like self-destructive and
going off the rails and whatever, then that is easier.
For me, that has helped a lot with like not having to control
things by just being like, people are free humans to do the
things that work for them. And everybody has the
opportunity to handle their own situations.
And I've learned a lot that, you know, I, I used to be really
judgmental about things. I expected things to go a
certain way, people to act and react in specific ways and, and
do certain things because, well, that should just be what's
expected of them. And then I found myself in
positions where I had judged other people for being in or I
had had an opinion on how XY and Z should go.
I'm in that position. And I'm like, well, I'm
definitely not handling it the way that I thought that this
situation should be handled because you don't know till
you're in it. And you know, every situation
and everything that you have like has a logical reaction,
which is, you know, somebody on the outside can logic through
things. People inside of situations have
the emotional aspect, have their own intuition going off for
their own various reasons and and whatever.
So yeah, something I have really worked hard on is understanding
that people are their own individual free beings to make
the choices and decisions. And as long as somebody's making
those choices from their highest sense of good, that's like, I
mean, that's the best that they can do.
Yeah, that's what I think has really led to a lot of
transformation for me is because in the past I would be like, Oh
no, I care about this person. I want them to do good.
I want them to move forward and be on the track that I think
they should be on. But in that now it's like
forcing things isn't going to get you what you want.
All right, so this is the portion where we're going to
read questions that have been brought in by you guys.
If your past self could see where you are today, what would
shock them the most? I honestly think what could
shock me the most, just growing up in an environment that was
strictly like partying and drinking and like, that's what I
grew up with. That's what like everyone I know
did in their free time. I think that what would shock
the younger version of me the most is that I am truly more
happy without substances and alcohol and like extracurricular
activities than I ever was in that space.
But also, I don't think that that version of me could see
like how much peace closing that chapter would bring me and how
much happiness that I actually was overlooking or not
experiencing due to the ups and downs of, you know, continuous
like drug and alcohol abuse. So I think that looking back at
a younger version of me, that they would be most shocked that
I'm choosing to fill my days and my free time and my enjoyment
with things other than drinking or partying or or that type of
stuff. I love that like you found joy
in other places where you couldn't see it before.
Yeah, I just grew up in an environment that was always
centered around like alcohol and like marijuana and just like
partying, like partying for fun, partying for a celebration, like
just parties, you know, like, and I was just exposed to that
at such a young age that I don't, I personally don't know a
lot of adults even to this day that are like 50 plus that don't
use alcohol or drugs as like a chill time or like a wind down
thing, you know what I mean? Like I feel like that era of
people, like they're still stuck in that loop period.
Yeah, I can see that. Yeah, like most like 50 to 65
year olds I feel like have substance abuse issues, like
whether it's alcohol, cigarettes, drugs, whatever it
may be. Like that's the addiction era
that they pass that on to us. Yeah, I get that.
We feel, and then I feel like our generation is waking up and
teaching their kids like, hey, you know, like this.
There's things that are different now, like you don't
need to do these things or you could die from these things or
whatever. I feel like the dynamic is
shifting and kids are not growing up instantly being
surrounded by that like. Yeah, I agree.
There's a there's a way different mindset around things
now than when we were kids. Yes.
So questions for you. Yep, ask me a question.
What's a lesson that you are actively still learning even
though you thought you had mastered it?
Like I said, abandonment issues have been like a real 1 and I
feel like knowing that I've got me and can take care of things
regardless of people around has been a huge a lesson And like
understanding and knowing like my own value and what I bring to
things. Growing up was really weird
because there wasn't a lot of like positive affirmation.
It was only being spoken to like when I was doing wrong.
And like, my parents have acknowledged that now that like,
I'm an adult, but when people are only pointing out things
that you're doing wrong or ways that you're being inconvenient
or whatever, then like as an adult, you know, I like have to
really work through being like, OK, I'm not inconvenient for
this. Or I don't need to just sit here
and like, listen, I can actually have conversation and contribute
something. My opinion does matter.
Or, you know, what I have to say is an intelligent thing to throw
into this conversation and is not, you know, a misplaced
moment. So I think that's the thing that
I'm still working through that's been coming up a lot recently
for me. Do you think that that shows up
like trying to be like a business owner 'cause you have
to like navigate your own highs and lows without that like
consistency of income Or like, I think what has been a huge
dynamic for our generation is like so many people are wanting
to become business owners, but we actually were not taught any
of those skills because we're coming from a generation who's
like, work a job till you hate, till you die or else you will
starve. And so with my parents, I've
noticed like they're starting to break generational things
because I am, because I'm choosing to set better
boundaries or choosing to be like, I'm not just productivity
or not just getting shit done. Like I'm not just worthy of love
or support if I'm getting shit done because I feel like that's
what translated from their parents to them.
Like you're only worthy with what you bring to the table, or
you're only worthy of your money, or you're only worthy if
you're able bodied or you know what I mean?
Like those things I feel like are embedded into people
collectively in a collective space.
I do think that business wise, I think that there's been a lot of
shift recently. You know, I was overproducing
things for a long time because I, I fucking hated my life and
working was, you know, the, the people that we have like in our
community space or listen to the podcast or whatever was really
the only like support that I was getting inside of my life.
And then now I have so much more like support for my business and
what I do and me as a person than I feel like I've ever
really had. And that is a huge adjustment.
And yeah, I totally think that things affect business that, you
know, happen personally or whatever, and finding that
balance matters. There's also like, you know,
when you are at a job that somebody else owns, you have a
list of what your jobs are, what your responsibilities are, you
know, you know, ABC and D that you're going to be doing.
And if things come up that get in the way and prevent you from
being able to do that, it's not your company.
Somebody else has it handled with us owning our own business.
If something comes up, we're like, you know, we want to do
this idea or have this go, we have to fund that that's coming
from us. Like the amount of money that we
have to put in even just like my e-mail platform, like even just
for me to have Google business, I have to pay so odd dollars a
month just to be able to have the e-mail that I have and be
able to have other people on, on e-mail.
So like, there's just so many things that come up in business
that we're not told about. It's not discussed.
And for us doing business on social media, not only are we
having to learn this and, and, and battle and, you know, figure
it out, but then we also have people's opinions on the things
that we're doing and, you know, outside advices and, you know,
people who we bring in, who, you know, we want to support them
and, and have them help our business.
And we get jaded by that, and it doesn't look good for our brand.
And we have to, you know, go and do damage control.
Like there's so many things that go on that nobody's ever going
to see that we could not fucking predict.
Yeah, I feel like you have done really well at like inviting
people in to help you and seeing like what what waters you're
treading over there are not safe because I have not had to
experience like I'm living vicariously through all the
leeches that kind of come into your world and they're like,
hey, let me help everyone or whatever.
Like we've talked about. I feel like I have a wall up
with that. Like I'm very much like, I'll do
what I can and everything else won't get done.
Like that's where I'm at with it.
Like I'll do what I can and I'm like, I'm just going to be
honest. I'm at this point where like
I've outgrown certain aspects of my business.
Like I've outgrown some of the things that I thought were
sustainable and they're not really sustainable.
And my thing is like, shout out to the Ogs on Patreon.
But like the thing about Patreon that I just like want to expose
everyone to is like they they've taken more fees, they've
increased their operating cost and I've never been able to do a
price increase on there. And they have these new features
where I can, but I being a people pleaser is like, no, but
they've been on there for four years.
Like I don't want to take that away from them.
So if you're on my OG like Patreon $50 reading you better
never cancel because every time someone cancels I remove an
available spot. No one gets to take that spot,
it disappears. And when that tear disappears
it's increasing to 100. So y'all better just lock in
tight on that because I just feel like so many things that
were sustainable four years ago are not any longer.
And I have to stop feeling bad about elevating myself by trying
to like keep everybody on schedule or keep everybody in
tune. Like it's just really crazy how
these platforms and Netflix and everywhere else has price
increases and no one bats an eye.
But then I'm paying more processing, I'm paying more this
internet's more, whatever it may be.
And people think like, oh, you know, she's getting paid to do
readings. Like it's basically free.
No, it's a lot. And you know, like I said, with
everything, there's so many people that come in and make
promises and all that. So I'm just at this point where
it's like I'll do what I can do and the rest will not get done.
Like I'm not adding anything extra.
Like I just can't and I'm not going to.
And I used to feel like that was me like sleeping on my gifts or
not utilizing my gifts. But I'm at this point where you
better get a reading while you can because there's a very near
future moment where I'm only taking select clients and I
won't be offering it to the masses anymore because I just
like I'm moving away from that. And I'm not saying that to like
pump up my head. I just know I've evolved past
some things I've been doing and I just don't know how to pivot
without leaving people out or making someone upset so I'm like
fuck fuck. That just, you're kind of, you
talked about the, you know, I have people who come in and are
like leeches about things. And then you were talking about,
about Patreon. And it just made me think like,
that is true. And I, I have been doing a lot
of like processing and assessing.
Like why is it that I get so many people inside of like my
life or business who do take advantage of things and it is me
leaving an open door. It is me not having a firm
boundary with things. And it goes down to the point of
like, you know, I'll have people who are on, you know, my a top
tier that I have on Patreon where we have like the chat or
something. And they're like, hey, my
subscription fell through, but I'm paying, you know, next week
and whatever. Can I stay in the chat?
And I'm like, yeah, no problem. And then they, you know, they're
in there for the week or whatever.
And then they just cancel their whole subscription and.
And I'm like, well, that was a week of you getting like free
shit, you know, free, you know, whatever work we're doing inside
of the chat or conversation or support or whatever.
And even if it's not much, it's a lot to me, you know what I
mean? Like that's a promise made.
That's me extending energy that like basically it's just free
energy just going out the fucking window.
And I think about that now and all of these different areas
where I have allowed myself to be taken advantage of because I
do that, whereas I should have the firm boundary of, yeah, I
like you, but this is business, you know?
And if you didn't pay your subscription, I'm sorry, I got
to remove you. I can add you back in, but those
are the kinds of things that we naturally do because we care
about the people who are inside of our community spaces or
whatever. But then I am consistently
disappointed because, well, why did I get treated that way or
how come I'm being taken advantage of in this or you
know, you know what I mean? Like, so I see what you're
talking about with the Patreon thing, not being able to like up
the subscriptions, the amounts and stuff.
That's why I have multiple different tiers because I wanted
to raise, you know, the cost of it and wasn't able to.
So I'm like, let me just create a different tier.
But when you create a different tier, then you have to offer
more because you're charging more than was on the tier
before. So the way that you're doing it
is super smart to limit the spots every time and then have
people like you have to join this, you know, $100 tier or
whatever. Yeah, it's just like, I don't
want to complain about complaining.
It's just Patreon in itself has tacked on a lot of added costs
and expenses that we're not there, and so is PayPal.
So this year I'm no longer accepting PayPal as a payment
form on my website. I don't give a fuck.
I don't care if that upsets people, they're not going to
book with me because I can't use PayPal, whatever that may be.
I feel like PayPal has gotten so greedy and they keep increasing
the fees and they keep increasing the stuff and it's
just like, there's no reason that I have to be all things to
all people and offer payment plans and offer this and offer
that. I'm not doing all that.
I'm just done keeping up with
all these 1090 nines and all these forms and all these
nonsense. So, you know, I'm really
grateful. But sometimes when you are the
backbone of your company, the face of your company, the brand
of your company, the marketing, the fucking banker, the just
everything, it can be overwhelming.
And I just think that I'm reaching a space of burnout
where I don't need an overabundance of clients.
I need clients who are we're going to do the work, clients
who want to put the effort in and put in there also intention
and attention to details because I feel like being all things all
people has put me into a captain save everyone position.
It's distracted me and you know, I just want everyone out there
to take control of your own life and to stop feeling like you're
in the back seat of your own life and like move forward with
persistence. But understand that things are
going to change. People are going to change and
you can't take those things personal.
Like as things evolve. You know, I think that another
thing to add to what I said earlier, younger me would be
shocked on how many people I'm at peace with letting go of like
just had peace with it. Like I used to reach and reach
and reach outreach for love and support and always be someone
that someone could count on, but never got that in return.
And now it just feels like those types of people can't even get
near me because I just don't have space for it.
And you shouldn't have space for it.
And people who genuinely like love you and want to be inside
of your life are going to step up and, and notice areas where
you know you're lacking or you're struggling and be able to
kind of pick up those pieces and fill in those areas and be there
to support you, whether that be friendship or relationship wise
or whatever else. And I just don't think that if
you I'm real big on if you have to chase it, it's not meant to
be yours. Like, you know, you have to have
hustle and momentum and Dr. behind things.
But if you're constantly pushing the fucking boulder up the hill,
you're just exhausted and hoping that you don't get squished at
the end. And that takes so much energy
and is so exhausting. And I feel like I have navigated
the majority all of my adult life being that person who's
trying to make things fit that don't fucking fit.
And one of the questions that we actually got was, have you ever
had a moment where everything in your life felt divinely
orchestrated? What happened and what did you
take from it? And that was, I feel like moving
into the house that I'm in now was like everything was supposed
to happen exactly the way that it did for me to get into this
place, for everything to fall into place, being here.
And that was really like the catalyst.
I feel like for everything changing in my life and the most
like positive, supportive, synchronistic way.
And it's not that it's not stressful.
There was a lot of work that had to be put into, like making it
happen and being here and whatever, but everything is
unfolding with that effort. If you're putting all of your
effort in and you're not getting anything out of it, you're
trying to fucking make shit happen that's not meant to be
yours. Yeah, I totally also agree.
Like being met with resistance or obstacles doesn't mean that
you're on the wrong path. I think whenever you inherently
know the path is going nowhere, like everyone has that feeling.
Like people can pretend like, oh, I invested my life savings
into this, or oh, I have to do this, or oh, I'm going to let
people down. But you knew from the start that
wasn't for you or you knew, you know from the beginning that
something actually wasn't serving you, you because the
universe was giving you signs and synchronicities that were
saying like, hey, rethink this or redo this or whatever.
And I always find like, especially when people are in
relationships, like with family or partners that constantly keep
them in that fear based energy, like fear of an argument, fear
of this, fear of confrontation, a fear of unworthiness or
whatever it may be, then you are going to continue to attract
that in every area of your life. And that's what I think people
don't understand. Like I hear a lot of women or a
lot of people in relationships say, like, I don't have the
money to do this or I don't have this or I don't have that.
And then I'm like, and that's keeping you trapped.
Those are the mindsets. Like I tell everyone, it does
not matter how, where, when it happens, just know that it will.
I don't give a fuck how no one has to tell me how to know that
it will. No one has to tell me when for
me to know it's going to happen for me, you know, and a lot of
people will speak fear into that.
A lot of people get uncomfortable when I'm in those
mindsets of like, it's going to be what it's going to be.
And you're you are detouring it. You are limiting yourself.
You're the blockage. It's not this person, it's you
letting this person block you, you know, you giving your power
to that situation or that person.
And I think that's what's unique about women in this generation
as we're taking that power back. And I read something the other
day that said people are so worried about actively breaking
generational curses that they can see.
But you just me personally had broke a generational curse by
not marrying someone in my 20s and getting stuck with them
until I'm whenever age spirit told me that they were like that
was a curse that was a generational cycle that you
broke without even knowing you were breaking it.
So there's so many things that we don't see that we've already
broke the cycle. We're only focused on.
Oh, my mom's an alcoholic or my dad beat me.
Like, OK, let's focus on what we're doing with that
information and how we're evolving past that.
Because that person didn't deal with their pain, so they chose
alcohol. That person didn't deal with
their pain, so they chose violence.
It all manifests outwardly in a similar fashion.
It's just about, am I doing the work to clear this or am I
keeping it alive? Am I keeping it alive by
repeating the same pattern? Well, and that goes into, I
mean, we've talked about it a lot where, you know, we talk
about how situations that you've been through or whatever can
either be the reason that you grow and you evolve and you
learn a lesson, or they can be the reason that you stay
stagnant. You never grow and you never
evolve. You can use it as an excuse for
why everything fucking sucks, or you can use it as a motivation
for why everything is different. And, and yeah, I completely
agree with you. I also think too that people
don't we get so in survival mode about things, and this is
another thing I've been processing through.
It's like when you live your entire life in survival mode
where everything just like is coming at you and you're just
dealing with it. You, you kind of numb it out and
you just do this, all of the steps and you don't realize how
much you're doing, how much energy that's taking.
You know, why you are looking the way that you're looking or
whatever, because of all of the stress that you have on you or
you know, just different things that you're going through and
dealing with. And then when you don't
recognize how much you're going through, you have no
appreciation for what you as a human are able to tolerate and
handle and persevere through. Yeah, I completely agree with
that. Some people don't see how
powerful they are. I'm going to post a question for
you. OK.
Have you ever felt like you were living in a movie scene?
What was the moment and why did it feel so surreal?
So I've talked about this before.
I don't know if I've talked about it on here, but there was
a really long time of my life where I would just pretend like
certain things happening in my life were like a movie or were
like seasons of ATV show. And I would just handle things
the way that I would expect like my character in that moment to
handle something. And I would just think about
things as being like for a season.
And so when I had like hard times that I was going through,
I would be like, OK, I'm going to look back on this when it
would be like next season. And I'm going to be like, Oh,
yeah, I remember when such and such happened and, and, and
then, you know, we got here. And so I've imagined many
fucking scenarios in my life being movie scenes.
The one that I can think of the most is when I had my son
because I it was like the most. First of all, I was basically
alone that entire time that I had him, except for like when I
actually like was in in labor, but I was in the hospital like
for three or four days. I basically got dropped off at
the hospital and got picked up at the hospital and like I was
by myself when like I had my C-section and stuff.
And that was a really scary experience.
So I remember going into that surgery being like, OK, my
character totally survives this. Like if this was ATV show right
now, like I would absolutely survive this.
I'm going to look back on it and be like, oh, that was 4 episodes
ago. Like by the time I wake up and
it'll be completely fine. And that's how I got through
that whole experience. So I had a moment today where I
was feeling like a SIM, and then I was like, SIM stands for
simulation and we're in a simulation and I'm a SIM.
And then I was reading into the scenario that I was in and I
really felt like I was in, like, I am The Sims, but did you ever
play The Sims? Yeah.
OK, so you know the cheat code to get you all the money to
build your dream house? You didn't do that.
No. OK, well your girl is living
this experience with the cheat code.
It was called rosebud and you typed rosebud and did these
little characters like over and over again and you just the
money would keep going up. You never did that.
No. OK, well I really felt like I
was getting an expansion pack. You know, like on The Sims you
can use like expansion packs. Keep in mind I haven't played
this in like 20 years. This was all just coming back to
me in the car. So I really felt like I was in a
video game or in a movie or in something because I felt like
someone was like pulling on my SIM strings to get me to buy The
Sims. I don't know why I I've been
thinking about, I want to play The Sims.
I want to buy The Sims lately. And then it came out to me again
and it was like you are a SIM and I was like me.
Me and this simulation. That's me.
Yeah. So earlier today I had a moment,
like a deep moment of thought about that.
So have you ever seen The Truman Show?
Of course I've seen the Truman Show.
You. Think that's our reality?
Yes, I surely do. I don't know if that.
Yeah, yeah, kind of. I I think that's a reality and I
think that there's lots of things and like how many
situations have you ever had right, like situations with
other people or just situations that you've been in where you're
looking at it, Everything's fine until one thing catches your eye
that's off and then you just start noticing boom, boom, boom,
boom, boom, like this is off, this is off, this is off, this
is off and it just all is about your perspective.
So I totally see in that situation, like and living as
happy life go lucky nothing going on and then notices one
thing is weird and then all of a sudden you're like, damn, the
sun does look like it's just a light beaming down on me.
Or, you know, like, yeah, I I think you can break your your
illusions. You want a card?
Sure. I remember being so disappointed
because like on our end, like or at least on my end when I
shuffle cards, you get like the nice like shuffle ASMR.
So I remember one day when we were recording, I like had my
mic like perfectly set up and I was shuffling the deck.
But Zoom is so good about blocking out outside audio that
it didn't pick up. And I was like, what the fuck?
We got card number 9 for momentum.
We got planes in the sky. It is the sign of Sagittarius.
The gift is determination, and our shadow is inertia.
Such a powerful gift is bestowed upon you once you live from your
heart. Just as the inertia of the
shadow may seem immeasurable, the momentum of your
determination builds with equal force.
Once tapped, it is a well of depth and resource.
Suddenly each action you take is infused with purpose and
meaning. Because life itself carries
great weight and you see the profound interconnection of
every aspect of your life. Even the smallest, seemingly
insignificant parts of your day serve a function and a larger
goal. Nothing is taken for granted.
Determination is the powerhouse of the heart.
Your shadow is inertia. This shadow appears in your life
whenever you get caught up in unnecessary details and forget
the bigger picture or worse, your purpose.
It might feel as though you're merely getting through life
versus truly taking hold of it and living with zest.
You might live from your mind which overtakes your being with
convoluted messaging and perplexing thoughts concerning
the future. This shadow can look like
reluctance, or in other words, the apparent inability to act
due to low frequency cycles and patterns, which is a consequence
of victim mentality. Alternatively, it could look
like a frenetic restlessness or an overcompensation of energy in
a million different directions. You forget to tune in and act
with intention in your daily life to sway from the shadow,
regain your concentration on the present moment and what you feel
drawn to now. Attempting to bring utter
clarity to your future vision is actually adding more fog.
Your themes are details, determination, momentum, and
purpose. And then I just wanted to repeat
the sentence because it's literally what we just talked
about with things can be your reason or your motivator.
This shadow can look like reluctance, or in other words,
the apparent inability to act due to low frequency cycles and
patterns. A consequence of victim
mentality. And victim mentality is the word
for that. Where you're like, Boo Hoo, poor
me, this is what I've been through and I can't possibly do
anything else because of all this horrible shit.
Everybody who has anything has been through horrible shit.
What's crazy about that that I've been finding lately is like
the road wall that people reach on their spiritual journey of
like getting readings but not following through on any.
Yeah, like, I've been really hitting that lately with people
that like, keep thinking of reading or a spell is gonna fix
their shit. And I like I'm starting to have
to turn people away and be like, there is no blockage.
Like you are the blockage. You're blocking it.
Your mindset. Spirit told you to journal,
Spirit told you to meditate, Spirit told you to break up with
this person, but you are not doing those things.
So I can tell you again, I can, I can do clear it again.
But like, if you don't follow through on your end of the work
or your end of the bargain, then it's really not going to work.
So I've honestly been at a point lately where like I've just
straight up been asking people like, well, what's your
expectation with this? It's like what, what are you,
you know, like you need a reading.
You want me to put you on my schedule early?
What's that? What's your expectation?
Like, what do you, you know, And like recently I've had clients
like act like they're ready for everything and then they get on
to the reading and they're like soaking it in and then they'll
get another fucking reading. And we go through the same
thing. And I'm like, do you all know
that I can tell when you're not listening to everything they're
saying? Like, do you know that whenever
we tap back in, I can see that you did not do anything they
asked you to do? Like, I want you all to shine.
I want you to be happy. But this is the shit that
stresses me out about readings, 'cause then I feel like, well,
if I just did this or I just did that and like, no, I don't.
I do my part. You've got to do your part.
So that's really The thing is like, we want to see everyone do
the work, but you've got to acknowledge where you're falling
short and not look around at other people.
Amen to that. We'll see you next time in
Candyland. Bye.
Uh huh. Yeah, so she's so sweet.
Like a lollipop, lollipop, lollipop, lollipop, lollipop.
You want to live me like a lollipop, lollipop, lollipop.
You want to swallow my spirit and penetrate my aura?
Taste. All of my consciousness is
obvious. We're goddesses full of the
divine femininity who need masculine energy, energy,
energy.