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Welcome back to another episode 
of Look It Like a Lollipop. 

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This week I have a brand new 
guest who I just recently found 

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on social media, Alejandra, and 
she is a spiritual goddess. 

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She does spells, she does tarot,
she does Oracle. 

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She also does a lot of horoscope
readings. 

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So I'm excited and welcome. 
Thank you for having me. 

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I really appreciate the 
opportunity. 

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I'm excited. 
Yeah, this is so fun. 

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And honestly, I love connecting 
with people who I don't know 

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because it's like fresh 
information for my audience. 

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It's fresh information that, you
know, sometimes we don't get to 

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share as much as like we get 
into a niche and I've been 

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guilty of that. 
And then you get stuck in like a

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niche and you're there with your
content or. 

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Your. 
Creation, you know. 

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I definitely relate to that 
because when I started my 

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TikTok, I strictly just wanted 
to post about tarot, like tarot 

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readings for the collective. 
You know, you see the tarot lady

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on TikTok every time we scroll. 
Oh, if you see this, this is for

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you. 
But I don't know. 

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As more time passes, I get 
interested in different topics 

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regarding spirituality, like 
shamanism specifically for me, 

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I'm very interested in that. 
So I'm trying to do that 

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eventually aliens, conspiracy 
theories, astrology, like all 

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kinds of stuff. 
So I don't want to just limit 

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myself. 
So funny you mentioned that. 

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My TikTok used to be called 
grounded Tarot when I first 

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started and then I changed my 
name to Ali the Oracle so that I

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guess it fits my niche. 
Like I am the messenger no 

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matter what the message is, it's
regarding something, but I'm the

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just the bridge between spirit 
or source and US receiving the 

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message. 
You know, I love that so much 

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because I also relate to that. 
And I just followed you on 

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TikTok earlier because when 
TikTok like first came out, I 

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instantly like got 30,000 
followers. 

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Like it was so easy. 
It was like first six months I 

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had 30,000 followers and I did 
likes and like it would happen 

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so quickly. 
And then I have been at 45,000 

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followers for fucking three 
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Like I have the wall and there 
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Like I have been at 1.9 million 
likes for three years. 

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Like I don't know what but I 
will be honest when we talk 

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about niches. 
Everyone who found me from 

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TikTok back in the day found me 
because I was obsessed with the 

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twin flame journey. 
Oh my gosh, Oh my gosh, don't 

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get me started on that. 
Yes, Oh my gosh, let's. 

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Go cuz I can totally say that I 
was under a spiritual psychosis.

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I'm going to be honest is a 
person that came into my life 

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that like Long story short, I'm 
not going to say who it is 

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because like they are famous, 
but like I was going to their 

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show, quote UN quote, never saw 
this artist a day in my fucking 

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life. 
I'm going to their concert and I

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see them in traffic at a 
stoplight in trouble, and I look

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over and I look at my friend and
I'm. 

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Like, Oh my gosh. 
Do you see this person? 

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And they're like, yes. 
And like they see me and I see 

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them and they knew who I was 
like was from social media. 

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And so they just kind of like 
waved to like follow them. 

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And so I followed them and then 
next thing you know, I'm in VIP 

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with them on the stage at the 
concert. 

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So like Long story short, I 
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Was my gosh. 
I thought that motherfucker was 

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my twin flame. 
Like the story like is deeper 

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than that, but that's just like 
the surface of it. 

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So like the spiritual psychosis 
that I was in was also really 

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inspirational too. 
Like it really helped elevate my

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gifts because we do have a 
telepathic connection. 

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Like we what we did, we do 
whatever you want to say, but 

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you know what I mean? 
Like, yeah, we're just like, 

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this person is really toxic for 
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That's my twin. 
So I'm like, no, this person 

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actually elevated me in a way 
that was like spiritual. 

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We never had physical sex or 
like contact, but it was like 

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really flirtatious, really 
connected, really just like odd 

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occurrences. 
And so I just thought that was 

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my twin flame. 
Like I still to this day know 

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there is a spiritual tie there. 
I just have like moved that 

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programming I guess or that 
illusion, you know what I mean 

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of the twin flame thing. 
But I would love to hear your 

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take on it like I would. 
I love it. 

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Yeah. 
So I completely understand where

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you're coming from because I 
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well. 
Like if I align with a certain 

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person in many different 
aspects, I'm like Oh my God 

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they're my twin, they're my 
shadow aspect or whatever the 

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fuck. 
And I became obsessed with 

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either elevating myself enough 
to be able to have union with 

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them or recently I started 
talking to another friend that 

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believes that your twin flame 
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belief is that at the moment 
you're in, you're registering 

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with the twin flame right now, 
but when you grow spiritually, 

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you're going to tap into a 
completely different twin flame 

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because we're always changing 
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So because of that, I don't even
know what to believe, to be 

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honest. 
And it I just got to the point 

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now where I'm like, I don't care
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I just my divine counterpart. 
So that's what I say now. 

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I say I want divine union with 
whoever aligns with me at this 

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moment. 
And if they reflect certain 

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things to me that I need to heal
within myself, I'll work on 

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that. 
And if we end up drifting apart,

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that's fine. 
But I try not to become obsessed

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with being with someone 
specifically because then that's

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where the spiritual psychosis 
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Or you are maybe blocking your 
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That might be even better. 
And as a tarot reader, like that

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happens a lot. 
There's people that are obsessed

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with knowing, is this person 
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Are they ever going to change? 
Are we going to be together? 

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And I'm like, bro, there's 
someone better. 

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But you are so stuck on this 
person. 

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Yeah. 
So I try not to obsess with the 

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whole Twin flame thing. 
I used to be, but not anymore. 

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Now I just, I'm like, I just 
want my person. 

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I don't give a fuck what you 
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I just want to be with a person 
that aligns with me. 

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That's all I care about now. 
Can I just say that the tarot 

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reader to twin flame to freedom 
pipeline is like really active 

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in both of our life. 
And you know, what I love about 

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this is that that person that I 
was speaking on actually married

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someone who is a psychic and so 
like like the connection is wild

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as fuck. 
But you know what I've like 

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really recently found very 
intriguing the identity swapping

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terminology. 
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Like people like molding other 
people into you or, and, or 

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whatever. 
And I really do think that men 

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mold women into a woman that 
they like fumble and or like 

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wish they would have had kind of
like just an example, pop 

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culture example. 
I'm not a huge Taylor Swift fan 

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or anything, but like that 
Travis Kelsey guy used to date 

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an African American woman and 
had like swag and like had like 

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macdaddy energy. 
And then now he's given like, 

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let's go to Target and get 
Starbies and hug pods for 

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Christmas. 
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Energy, his aura, everything 
about him, his, his haircut, his

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beard, I mean, at multiple 
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Like I do know that, you know, 
when you're with people, 

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friends, partners, whoever the 
fuck you to be careful baby, 

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because you are molding and 
shaping and forming. 

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Just like when you have like 
something you say a lot and then

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other people around you pick up 
on that. 

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And I feel like it's definitely 
interesting how many people 

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around me I feel like have tried
to mold into me over the years 

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or at like, Oh my. 
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Have dated girls who like I feel
like studying me on the side, 

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like they have like a 
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Girl, Oh my God. 
OK, I cannot tell you how many 

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times a man has approached me 
and been like, Oh my God, I've 

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been following your page. 
Or or let's say they don't 

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follow me but they get to know 
me and how spiritual I am that 

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I'm a tarot reader. 
All this stuff. 

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They start saying shit like I 
manifested you. 

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I'm like, bro, you don't even 
fucking know how to manifest. 

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You don't even fucking and have 
money and all of a sudden you're

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talking to me and I'm telling 
you that like I'm independent 

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and all this stuff and suddenly 
you have goals to be independent

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to and have your own business 
all of a sudden when you never 

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fucking did. 
And I'm like what the hell? 

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Cuz this is my full time job. 
Like I don't have a regular job.

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So they I guess they get 
inspired by that and then 

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suddenly they have a goal to be 
a business owner. 

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And I'm like not saying that 
it's because of me that suddenly

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they want to, but I mean it 
sure's house looks like it. 

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And I'm like, what the fuck? 
Like I feel like I'm a stepping 

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stone for them and they want to 
siphon my energy for that shit. 

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Or like when they say I 
manifested you like I don't like

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that shit. 
I think they think it's cute and

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they're like, oh, she's going to
like me saying that, but I don't

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like that because now it makes 
me feel like you've been 

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stalking me or something. 
And I'm like, no bro, like I'm 

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not someone that you manifested.
You were literally stalking me. 

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But that or like I'll meet a guy
that at first he'll make it seem

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like he doesn't like tarot or 
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Like he'll think it's weird and 
then out of nowhere, he's into 

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it now and he starts asking a 
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And that happened with my recent
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When I first met him, he thought
it was scary, quote UN quote 

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scary that I did tarot and new 
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And then when we broke up, after
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me, he fucking tried doing a 
spell on me, a love spell to get

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me back. 
And I'm like, when I first met 

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him, he was never into that. 
And all all of a sudden now he 

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wants to do a spell on me to get
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Like get the fuck out of here 
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You know, crazy about men is cuz
like they really have 

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manipulated women and siphon 
their energy for centuries. 

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And one of my most redeeming 
qualities is that I am here to 

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be for the girl ancestors, like 
for the women, for the police, 

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for the fuck everyone else. 
Like honestly my ranking of like

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what I care about is like 
animals and children at the top.

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With. 
Women right there, swift under 

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it. 
Then we're talking like plants, 

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trees before we get to men. 
I'm serious, like I am so happy 

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when I'm not trying to actively 
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It's crazy. 
And honestly, the spiritual 

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awareness that being awakened 
or, or finding yourself or your 

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gifts or whatever is having like
recollection where you 

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personally were taking blame or 
guilt or shame on from literally

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having sex with these people. 
And that's what's crazy about 

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it. 
The amount I used to hate myself

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when I had active sex with 
random people. 

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Not, and I don't even mean it as
in like random, I just mean not 

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my husband, right? 
Like not not my forever, like 

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whatever And so. 
Casual sex, right? 

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Casual, right. 
Exactly. 

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Because I never really just 
hooked up with random people. 

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I had like my handful of of 
people over the years that were 

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like, you know, comfort zone 
people. 

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Yeah. 
You know what's wild about it is

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like the celibacy journeys that 
I've also been on. 

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I love talking about it because 
I just want to like I want to 

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break the stigma around 
miscarriage because miscarriages

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are divine protection and even. 
Oh my God. 

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Actively want a baby y'all. 
It is divine protection it. 

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Is Oh my gosh. 
And so like the protection that 

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I have felt like I was celibate 
for years, had sex once, got 

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pregnant, had a miscarriage, the
anniversaries in a few days. 

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Oh my gosh. 
Redeeming. 

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Yes. 
Girl we have the same fucking 

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life. 
What the fuck? 

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Oh my God. 
Gosh, I cannot. 

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Yes. 
We're on the same I'm. 

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Sorry if I interrupted, but yes.
Are we twin flames? 

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I'm like. 
Shit, probably. 

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No. 
I promise you. 

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I went through a bad breakup 
years ago and I was celibate for

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one year and then, but I was 
single for three years, for 

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three of those years. 
So I was having casual sex at 

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first then I was celibate and 
then I met this guy that told me

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he had been following my old 
TikTok because I had another 

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TikTok where I would post like 
gym stuff like working out and 

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stuff. 
So he told me he saw my TikTok a

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long time ago and that he's been
manifesting me ever since he saw

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me. 
And all of a sudden I started 

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going to his gym because I I 
switched gyms. 

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I never met the guy. 
OK I just decided to switch 

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gyms. 
One day he came up to me and 

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told me hey I know you from 
TikTok and that's what hooked 

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me. 
I'm like, Oh my God, how 

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romantic. 
I'm meeting this guy out of 

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nowhere after I went to this gym
and we hooked up like a few 

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times and I got pregnant 
immediately. 

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Immediately, like within a month
and he switched up like night 

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and day after that he wanted 
nothing to do with me. 

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He was, I want to say like a 
literal demon because he did not

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align with any of my values and 
it's my fault for having sex 

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with him right and not getting 
to know him so I take 

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accountability for that. 
But at the moment I was just so 

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googly eyed about him 
manifesting me supposedly that I

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overlooked a bunch of shit and 
he's a legit fucking demon. 

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Like I can go into it about him,
but I got pregnant and I was 

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crying one day. 
I was crying so hard. 

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And I'm not super religious, but
I do believe in God, OK? 

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I do believe in God and Jesus, 
but I'm not, I don't follow a 

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religion. 
And I was on my knees praying to

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God. 
Like if you take this baby from 

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me, I will be so grateful 
because I cannot do it. 

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I'm all for abortion. 
I'm all for your body, your 

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choice. 
But the moment I found out I was

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pregnant, I don't know how to 
explain it, I felt an instant 

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connection to that that fetus, 
even though it was never fully 

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formed. 
I just felt a connection. 

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I cannot explain it unless 
you've ever been pregnant, 

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you'll understand. 
But I felt so much love for this

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thing even though it was 
informed. 

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And I'm like, why do I love it 
so much? 

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Why do I care so much about it? 
And I could not go get the 

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abortion done. 
I couldn't. 

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I couldn't do it. 
So I prayed to God, please take 

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this from me if it's not meant 
to be. 

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And literally the next day I 
started bleeding and I went to 

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the doctor and they told me 
you're having a miscarriage. 

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So if that's not divine 
protection I don't know what the

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fuck is. 
It was insane. 

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It was insane. 
So that was my first and last 

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pregnant ever pregnancy ever. 
But I told him you fucking 

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ruined my whole experience of 
that shit. 

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Like what the fuck is wrong with
you? 

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And I blocked him, never heard 
from him again. 

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But I was so mad at myself. 
You know, we are living in the 

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same reality girlfriend. 
Like no wonder I was like 

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scrolling Instagram and you 
popped up on my explorer. 

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I didn't I never saw your TikTok
till today. 

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I'm not like one of those people
that give a fuck about people's 

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following like you could have 10
followers. 

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I just thought you were cute. 
Your energy was cool. 

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You were talking in the comments
like you weren't stuck up. 

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I could tell and like a lot of 
people are just weird on the 

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Internet. 
But I really do feel like we're 

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here to talk about this right 
now because the stigma around 

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miscarriage is so heavy and the 
women hold on to and the shame 

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that people put on to them about
wanting to be a mother, not 

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wanting to be a mother XYZ. 
And but similar, very similar 

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situation that you're talking 
about, except the fact that 

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like, this guy was someone that 
I dated when we were young, like

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teenagers. 
He's just been like that one 

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person who, and I'm not going to
lie, like I'm not going to front

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on him like that one person who 
can hit the spot even though 

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morals and values have never 
aligned since we became adults, 

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right? 
Like at most of this man's adult

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life, he does not have a car. 
He just moves in and out of like

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being a straight bum. 
You know what I mean? 

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And I have, I have everything 
going for me. 

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So yes, like I was dumbing 
myself down. 

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But it's more of like, you know 
how it is like the 

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disappointment to have sex with 
someone new And it's awful, 

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like, or the right like, so it's
just one person that every few 

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years, like hits the spot real 
quick. 

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You know, that trend that's 
going around about getting 

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cracked. 
Like, yeah, Boo. 

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Like sometimes, like I've been 
celibate for years at this 

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point. 
And so Long story short, it was 

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4th of July like a holiday and I
drank and I'd hardly ever drink 

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because every time I drink bad 
things happen. 

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I instantly the moment that it 
happened like the next day, 

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maybe like 3 days later I was at
the gym and I was like you're 

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fucking pregnant. 
And then I was like, no, you're 

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not. 
And then I was trying to like be

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in my own head about it. 
So I just instantly knew. 

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And it's funny because the gym 
was like where I had that 

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realization and then that likes 
aligns with your story. 

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So then I'm like, fuck. 
And so then, and what's crazy 

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about it is like what the reason
this all happened is my mom came

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to town and she wanted to see 
him and me and him had kind of 

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been texting. 
So it was kind of inevitable 

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that that like one time was 
going to happen. 

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But my mom kind of amplified it 
by making the wish that she had 

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a grandchild while he was in the
presence. 

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He I don't think necessarily 
wish that I was having a 

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grandchild with him. 
I think the interaction of me 

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with a man that she hasn't seen 
me with anyone in a while just 

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gave her that epiphany of like, 
I really want a grandchild. 

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And she put that out there with 
her witchy fucking chaotic. 

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My mom would be a chaos witch if
she, if she actually channeled 

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her magic. 
My mom would be scary if she 

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could actually harness her magic
for real. 

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Cuz yeah, he does not play. 
So I know she put that out there

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and she openly admitted it after
it happened that she did like 

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make that wish in her head. 
She didn't like wish, but she 

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didn't like wish it. 
So then I just instantly knew I 

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was pregnant and what was crazy,
it was the Cancer full moon or 

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the can't. 
It was a Cancer season and it 

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was a full moon. 
I'm sorry. 

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It was season in a full moon. 
And so like there was so much 

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like when I look back at the 
astrology of it, I was like, no 

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fucking wonder this happened. 
But it was really wild because 

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whenever, whenever it happened, 
I wasn't even going to tell him 

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because he's just such a child. 
I didn't expect him to give a 

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fuck really. 
And then I told him and then he 

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became like attached at the 
waist. 

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He was like about to change his 
whole life. 

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This man's ready to like do a 
360. 

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And I was shocked. 
I was like, this is a different 

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person. 
I'm so shocked. 

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You can tell he really wanted 
this baby. 

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And like he has so much trauma. 
Like his mom was a drug addict. 

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She died, his dad abandoned him 
and that's about it. 

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Like, and his grandma took care 
of him and she embezzled money 

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from her business, from a 
business that she worked for and

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basically. 
Lost everything. 

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So like what he lives in is a 
fucked up situation and like the

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moral of the story is he's 
complacent in that situation and

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made the wrong decision by 
allowing someone who like 

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doesn't even have a pot of piss 
and coming into my life. 

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But it's like that comfort zone,
like that safety of like when 

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you date someone as a teenager, 
your fucking brain chemistry 

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changes for them, period, 
period. 

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Yep, and depending on what 
childhood traumas you have going

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on at the moment, like you're 
going to seek out that comfort, 

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like you said, in a partner. 
Yeah, even into adulthood it 

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that shit never ends until you 
do the shadow work. 

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It's never going to end. 
It's a completely ongoing cycle 

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for the rest of your life, 
meeting the same kind of people 

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in different bodies until you 
fucking tackle what's really 

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going on. 
Where's the root of this? 

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Yeah. 
And, you know, it's crazy that, 

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like, it was such a healing 
experience because like, once I 

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started, once I had the 
miscarriage, he just ghosted me.

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Like, never spoke to me ever 
again. 

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And then on the due date of our 
fucking imaginary child, he 

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texted me. 
He texted me, but then he unsent

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the text message. 
I didn't even see it. 

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And favorite part about this is 
that it used to kind of be like 

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a revolving door that probably, 
like would have never end. 

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But what it was weird is like 
after we had rekindled before we

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got pregnant, I kind of made the
statement that like this between

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him and me was super limited and
that like I was going to find my

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husband really soon. 
So like this would probably be 

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one of the last times. 
And then I was pregnant. 

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And then when I was pregnant, he
did like such a 360 and I really

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kind of like saw a new version 
of him in a way. 

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But then the moment that he 
ghosted me after a miscarriage, 

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like we could have just went 
back to being friends. 

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We could have just been like, 
wow, that was close call. 

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Like that was scary. 
Obviously we're not going to 

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date. 
We weren't going to date before 

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this. 
We were going to try to date 

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because of this. 
But you know, like I'm, I'm down

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to earth. 
Maybe I don't want to, I don't 

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want to carry a man, trust me. 
But at this point, spirit 

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literally saved me from two 
children because he would have 

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been a child. 
Like it would have been. 

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Have you ever seen that movie 
with Drew Barrymore? 

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It's called Riding in Cars with 
Boys. 

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Oh no, I haven't. 
Oh my gosh, I haven't. 

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What is it about? 
I'll just like flashback, it's 

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like kind of centered in like 
the 90s vibe and she gets 

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pregnant in high school 
basically by this like a loser 

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dude. 
So then like the whole movie is 

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like based around him like drunk
as fuck, just like doing way too

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fucking much, basically 
traumatizing their kid, 

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traumatizing her son. 
And then like at the end of the 

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movie, she basically became like
a famous author and she wrote a 

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book about her life and he was 
the guy, what, we'll just call 

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him Gary. 
I can't remember his name in the

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movie, Dave or whatever the fuck
his name was. 

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He basically was in the book so 
much because he was kind of a 

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main character of the book. 
He had to sign off on some 

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release papers. 
And like, she pulls up to his 

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trailer at the end of the movie 
and he's like drunk as fuck, 

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like belly out, like wife beat 
her dirty, like stained gross. 

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And I had this body that that 
could have that would have ended

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up being my life. 
That would have been our life. 

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Like that would have been my 
son. 

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Fuck yeah, I know. 
It's fucked up so. 

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Hell no. 
Hell no. 

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I. 
Feel so blessed every day that 

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I'm child free and happy and 
don't have dragging me down. 

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I'm like, I can go another year 
without sex, straight up. 

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Oh it's easy to be celibate. 
It is the easiest fucking shit 

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to do. 
Like yes you'll get little urges

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but when you think about like if
it's worth breaking your 

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celibacy, it's not no. 
And you can easily use a toy and

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get rid of that urge like in a 
minute. 

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I wouldn't want the whole toy. 
Drawer like I have the whole 

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drawer now. 
So. 

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Yeah, this toy in my life, I'm 
just completely over the what 

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are you doing? 
How have you been in, etcetera, 

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etcetera. 
Like if you, like you said at 

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the beginning of the episode, if
you don't want to talk about 

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like aliens and conspiracy 
theories and like the people who

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act like, oh, you have a podcast
that's cool. 

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But like have never listened to 
it. 

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And I say this all the time, 
like if you're a man and you 

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think you're going to pursue me 
and you cannot even reference 

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one thing I'm actually doing 
that I'm passionate about that I

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give a fuck about that. 
It's only centered around like 

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my body or something like that. 
Then like fuck and earlier I 

449
00:24:49,920 --> 00:24:52,840
think I don't know what I said 
but it's I think I said lustful 

450
00:24:52,840 --> 00:24:56,480
men disgust me on threat. 
Oh my God, same they do. 

451
00:24:56,680 --> 00:25:00,040
They just so gross. 
Oh my God, talking about that 

452
00:25:00,040 --> 00:25:04,920
it's so weird. 
So you know the Nike slogan it's

453
00:25:04,920 --> 00:25:06,480
just do it or something like 
that. 

454
00:25:07,440 --> 00:25:13,280
So I was at Walmart 2 days ago 
or yesterday and I saw a person 

455
00:25:13,280 --> 00:25:15,080
wearing a shirt that said just 
do it. 

456
00:25:15,080 --> 00:25:18,800
But it was like the way I was 
viewing it was kind of cut off. 

457
00:25:19,120 --> 00:25:23,640
So the word just looks like lust
and that's all I saw. 

458
00:25:23,920 --> 00:25:27,480
So I get little images like 
that, like throughout my day or 

459
00:25:27,480 --> 00:25:31,400
like downloads or like signs 
that are gonna tell me what's 

460
00:25:31,480 --> 00:25:33,920
coming up. 
It's so weird because shortly 

461
00:25:33,920 --> 00:25:39,880
after that, I get in line and 
this fucking guy, he's, he's has

462
00:25:39,880 --> 00:25:43,840
a cart and he has his little 
daughter in the like sitting in 

463
00:25:43,840 --> 00:25:46,360
the front and she's probably 
like 3 years old. 

464
00:25:46,720 --> 00:25:49,640
And he's looking at me, 'cause 
I, he caught my attention and 

465
00:25:49,640 --> 00:25:51,960
he's looking at my body. 
He's not even looking at my 

466
00:25:51,960 --> 00:25:54,400
face. 
And he goes, excuse me? 

467
00:25:54,400 --> 00:25:57,600
Oh my God, you look so good. 
And he's looking straight at my 

468
00:25:57,600 --> 00:26:01,000
ass while he's telling me this. 
And he goes, you have a 

469
00:26:01,000 --> 00:26:03,360
boyfriend while he's looking at 
my ass. 

470
00:26:03,840 --> 00:26:06,520
And I'm like, looking at him in 
disgust. 

471
00:26:06,560 --> 00:26:09,280
And I'm like, I'll like, he's 
literally lusting over me in 

472
00:26:09,280 --> 00:26:11,800
front of his daughter. 
So he's like, you have a 

473
00:26:11,800 --> 00:26:13,520
boyfriend and I'm like, is that 
your daughter? 

474
00:26:13,640 --> 00:26:16,440
That was the first thing I said.
And he goes, oh, yeah, this is 

475
00:26:16,440 --> 00:26:19,800
my baby girl, blah, blah, blah. 
Like talking sweet about her. 

476
00:26:20,160 --> 00:26:22,280
And I'm like, cute. 
I was like, yeah, I don't date 

477
00:26:22,280 --> 00:26:28,680
guys with kids. 
And then he's like, what? 

478
00:26:28,800 --> 00:26:31,960
And I'm like, yeah, I don't have
kids, so I don't date guys with 

479
00:26:31,960 --> 00:26:34,200
kids. 
And I just looked at him up and 

480
00:26:34,200 --> 00:26:37,040
down in disgust because he was 
lusting after me. 

481
00:26:37,040 --> 00:26:39,840
And that shit pissed me off. 
And not just that, but like, 

482
00:26:40,040 --> 00:26:42,080
your daughter's right there in 
front of you and she's only a 

483
00:26:42,080 --> 00:26:43,960
baby, of course she's not gonna 
remember this. 

484
00:26:43,960 --> 00:26:48,480
But you're setting the tone for 
how you're gonna act or show her

485
00:26:48,480 --> 00:26:52,320
what men are like. 
And I did not like that shit at 

486
00:26:52,320 --> 00:26:53,800
all. 
It was disgusting. 

487
00:26:54,200 --> 00:26:56,360
But yeah, that shit pissed me 
off. 

488
00:26:57,040 --> 00:27:02,960
Yeah, no, that's crazy because I
actually the other day, like I 

489
00:27:02,960 --> 00:27:06,960
had to set this dude straight in
my inbox because I just get so 

490
00:27:06,960 --> 00:27:11,600
sick of men in my inbox. 
Like, it's tender, like accepted

491
00:27:11,600 --> 00:27:15,360
friend request is not a Tinder 
match. 

492
00:27:15,360 --> 00:27:17,960
You know what I mean? 
Like, I'm not on a dating app, 

493
00:27:17,960 --> 00:27:22,160
like whatever. 
So he basically messaged me and 

494
00:27:22,160 --> 00:27:25,960
wanted to bond over the fact 
that he used to work with one of

495
00:27:25,960 --> 00:27:29,240
my exes. 
And I was like, and I was like, 

496
00:27:29,320 --> 00:27:30,960
I'm not sure if I would know 
you. 

497
00:27:31,000 --> 00:27:33,720
And he just kept like 
insinuating or like, you know, 

498
00:27:34,680 --> 00:27:36,440
and what do you say? 
He just kept being like, no, we 

499
00:27:36,440 --> 00:27:38,560
definitely met. 
And I'm just like, OK, might 

500
00:27:38,600 --> 00:27:41,520
have like, OK, what do you mean 
like anything? 

501
00:27:41,800 --> 00:27:43,320
Well, I'll just get to the 
point. 

502
00:27:43,320 --> 00:27:46,880
Maybe we could go have drinks 
and dinner sometime, etcetera. 

503
00:27:47,320 --> 00:27:50,480
And then said something about 
working a lot. 

504
00:27:50,480 --> 00:27:53,360
And he's been really busy with 
like all this stuff. 

505
00:27:53,360 --> 00:27:56,800
And he named all this like 
extracurricular activities. 

506
00:27:56,800 --> 00:28:01,200
And so I wrote back and I said 
dinner sounds nice and I 

507
00:28:01,200 --> 00:28:05,280
appreciate the offer, but if you
work that much and have that 

508
00:28:05,280 --> 00:28:08,760
much going on, I highly doubt 
you have the energy or time for 

509
00:28:08,760 --> 00:28:10,960
what I'm looking for because I'm
not looking for something 

510
00:28:10,960 --> 00:28:13,000
casual. 
So I'll have to pass on your 

511
00:28:13,000 --> 00:28:14,280
offer. 
Appreciate you, though. 

512
00:28:14,280 --> 00:28:16,680
Yeah. 
And then started back and was 

513
00:28:16,680 --> 00:28:20,360
like, well, I'm not going to be 
working as much coming up. 

514
00:28:20,560 --> 00:28:23,280
OK, not convincing. 
All of a sudden, don't. 

515
00:28:23,880 --> 00:28:28,000
Give a fuck. 
It's so annoying. 

516
00:28:28,000 --> 00:28:31,440
I I totally get you because 
well, I do readings, right? 

517
00:28:31,720 --> 00:28:34,600
And I get a bunch of messages 
every day asking me what my 

518
00:28:34,600 --> 00:28:37,480
prices are, what do I offer, a 
bunch of stuff. 

519
00:28:37,920 --> 00:28:42,040
And what pisses me off the most 
is men will message me and 

520
00:28:42,040 --> 00:28:46,400
they'll ask me, oh, how much do 
you charge for reading about my 

521
00:28:46,400 --> 00:28:48,520
ex? 
This happened to me the other 

522
00:28:48,520 --> 00:28:50,280
day. 
This guy was asking me about his

523
00:28:50,280 --> 00:28:54,280
ex if I do love spells, so I can
do a love spell on her to get 

524
00:28:54,280 --> 00:28:56,440
her back. 
And he was just talking to me 

525
00:28:56,440 --> 00:28:59,480
about my ex and I mean his ex. 
So I got to the point where I'm 

526
00:28:59,480 --> 00:29:03,360
like, look, if you're truly 
interested, go to my site in my 

527
00:29:03,360 --> 00:29:06,240
bio and you can book. 
Like I'm not going to keep 

528
00:29:06,480 --> 00:29:09,640
having this conversation back 
and forth about what Ioffer and 

529
00:29:09,640 --> 00:29:12,120
what I don't offer because I 
feel like he was just want to 

530
00:29:12,120 --> 00:29:15,240
talk to me. 
So I cut it off like at that and

531
00:29:15,240 --> 00:29:19,040
then like 2 days later he 
messages me like hey so do you 

532
00:29:19,040 --> 00:29:21,640
have a boyfriend? 
So I know I knew it. 

533
00:29:21,640 --> 00:29:23,480
I'm like what the fuck I fucking
knew it. 

534
00:29:23,480 --> 00:29:28,200
He was just messaging me prior 
to that just to talk nonsense, 

535
00:29:28,760 --> 00:29:31,760
but then he asked me if I have a
boyfriend when he was literally 

536
00:29:31,760 --> 00:29:34,360
asking me about doing a spell on
his ex. 

537
00:29:35,080 --> 00:29:37,800
I'm like what the fuck is that? 
And I get that a lot. 

538
00:29:37,800 --> 00:29:40,080
Like men will want to book and 
then they just want to 

539
00:29:40,080 --> 00:29:44,280
conversate or they want to talk 
to me on Instagram messages. 

540
00:29:44,280 --> 00:29:45,960
I'm like this is not a fucking 
dating site. 

541
00:29:46,160 --> 00:29:50,080
So I fucking posted a picture 
recently and I pinned that shit 

542
00:29:50,080 --> 00:29:54,520
to my profile pretty much saying
if you message me romantically I

543
00:29:54,520 --> 00:29:57,120
ain't going to fucking write 
back because this page is a 

544
00:29:57,120 --> 00:29:59,880
business page for the girls and 
the gays only and the 

545
00:29:59,880 --> 00:30:03,360
spiritually connected men. 
If not, fuck off because I'm 

546
00:30:03,360 --> 00:30:07,200
tired of it. 
You know, I love that so fucking

547
00:30:08,640 --> 00:30:10,920
much. 
I have so many things I want to 

548
00:30:10,920 --> 00:30:13,760
say, like so many topics. 
I feel like we could talk for a 

549
00:30:13,760 --> 00:30:16,840
while. 
So what I wanted to say about 

550
00:30:16,840 --> 00:30:21,000
the first thing men, I don't 
know what it is about a man that

551
00:30:21,000 --> 00:30:24,640
will book a reading, but then 
think that that entitles them to

552
00:30:24,640 --> 00:30:27,080
a follow up session at any given
moment. 

553
00:30:27,360 --> 00:30:31,320
The I've had men who are 
married, I mean just men on far 

554
00:30:31,600 --> 00:30:33,880
left field. 
Like not even men that I don't 

555
00:30:33,880 --> 00:30:36,720
even think are necessarily 
trying to sleep with me that 

556
00:30:36,720 --> 00:30:41,080
book readings and appreciate it.
And my prices have like, you 

557
00:30:41,080 --> 00:30:44,360
know, evolved over time. 
But at the same time, like this 

558
00:30:44,360 --> 00:30:46,200
happened when my prices were 
cheap too. 

559
00:30:46,480 --> 00:30:50,400
So it's like moral of the story 
is they'll book a reading and 

560
00:30:50,400 --> 00:30:53,040
it's like they don't see the 
initial value in it, but they 

561
00:30:53,040 --> 00:30:55,760
book it anyways. 
And then they love it, but they 

562
00:30:55,760 --> 00:30:57,000
don't want to admit they love 
it. 

563
00:30:57,000 --> 00:31:00,840
So then they act like they need 
like more clarification later. 

564
00:31:00,840 --> 00:31:04,480
Like you watch my reading and 
you mentioned birds. 

565
00:31:04,720 --> 00:31:09,600
So like if this person's 
listening down the road and you 

566
00:31:09,600 --> 00:31:12,840
hear this, I will just say that 
I thought this was a pretty 

567
00:31:12,840 --> 00:31:15,600
self-explanatory. 
So I'm using it as an example, 

568
00:31:15,840 --> 00:31:20,760
not being a hater, but in the 
reading it said that this 

569
00:31:20,760 --> 00:31:23,800
person's ancestor was going to 
use birds to get their 

570
00:31:23,800 --> 00:31:26,760
attention. 
Not was the most beautiful owl 

571
00:31:26,760 --> 00:31:29,320
that I've ever fucking seen 
hanging out in their backyard in

572
00:31:29,320 --> 00:31:32,360
a residential neighborhood. 
They had a whole less bird fly 

573
00:31:32,360 --> 00:31:34,920
in their house and their wife 
called them and was like, bro, 

574
00:31:34,920 --> 00:31:38,720
there's a bird in the house and 
what the fuck do you mean it's 

575
00:31:38,720 --> 00:31:40,520
in the house? 
And they were like here. 

576
00:31:40,520 --> 00:31:43,040
And then literally there's a 
video the bird was flying in 

577
00:31:43,040 --> 00:31:44,440
their vaulted ceiling in their 
home. 

578
00:31:44,840 --> 00:31:48,080
So like, I just feel like those 
were like there was no more to 

579
00:31:48,080 --> 00:31:49,960
explain. 
The fact that you're messaging 

580
00:31:49,960 --> 00:31:53,960
me for further clarification 
kind of just sent me off the 

581
00:31:53,960 --> 00:31:56,080
wire because like I predicted 
that. 

582
00:31:56,080 --> 00:31:59,560
And now it's came in multiple 
occurrences that are just way 

583
00:31:59,560 --> 00:32:02,920
too far fetched to be a 
coincidence in in even a non 

584
00:32:02,920 --> 00:32:06,600
believer's eyes, right? 
Like I mean this, I've never 

585
00:32:06,600 --> 00:32:08,880
even seen an owl like this in my
own with my own eyes. 

586
00:32:08,880 --> 00:32:12,560
I don't think it was one of 
those furry majestic ones like 

587
00:32:12,560 --> 00:32:14,400
the ones that are like from 
Canada. 

588
00:32:14,400 --> 00:32:15,920
Like I don't know where it came 
from. 

589
00:32:15,920 --> 00:32:18,960
It was not, it was not from 
Kentucky. 

590
00:32:18,960 --> 00:32:23,240
I've never seen this in my life.
So moral of the story is it's 

591
00:32:23,240 --> 00:32:27,560
like, I don't know if men just 
think that it like comes with an

592
00:32:27,560 --> 00:32:30,720
extra side of fries for life or 
like bottomless fries. 

593
00:32:31,360 --> 00:32:34,560
But I've also had men do the 
same shit and recently one of 

594
00:32:34,560 --> 00:32:37,240
them kind of like out of 
themselves and it's like they 

595
00:32:37,480 --> 00:32:40,320
they watch me from a burner 
profile is what it is like. 

596
00:32:40,760 --> 00:32:44,040
Or yeah, one of those men that 
like, maybe doesn't really use 

597
00:32:44,040 --> 00:32:46,240
social media. 
And I know he's like an older 

598
00:32:46,240 --> 00:32:50,320
guy because there's only been a 
handful of like older guys that 

599
00:32:50,320 --> 00:32:53,120
have booked over the years for 
like a video reading. 

600
00:32:53,640 --> 00:32:58,880
But the other day one of them 
messaged me and they said a few 

601
00:32:58,880 --> 00:33:01,520
years ago, I booked a reading 
with you just so I can look at 

602
00:33:01,520 --> 00:33:04,040
your face. 
And I was like, great. 

603
00:33:04,040 --> 00:33:06,200
And then oh. 
Hell no. 

604
00:33:06,560 --> 00:33:10,440
Whenever I send guys my website 
it is like radio silence. 

605
00:33:10,760 --> 00:33:14,160
Like I think people think that I
want to read them but what's 

606
00:33:14,160 --> 00:33:17,520
crazy is I've been so 
uninterested in men. 

607
00:33:17,720 --> 00:33:21,440
I have not asked a man for his 
birth time in like 3 years at 

608
00:33:21,440 --> 00:33:22,960
all. 
Like at all? 

609
00:33:23,840 --> 00:33:26,560
No. 
I know exactly what you mean. 

610
00:33:26,560 --> 00:33:29,920
That's why when I do readings I 
just do by phone call because 

611
00:33:29,920 --> 00:33:31,680
that has happened to me before 
as well. 

612
00:33:31,680 --> 00:33:35,960
Men will book and they ask me, 
can I FaceTime you instead? 

613
00:33:36,280 --> 00:33:40,120
Or is there like a video option?
And I'm like, I don't need to be

614
00:33:40,120 --> 00:33:42,000
on video to read your energy, 
Sir. 

615
00:33:42,000 --> 00:33:46,400
Like this is I'm good, I'm fine.
He's like, well, what if I want 

616
00:33:46,400 --> 00:33:48,520
to look at the cards and I'm 
like, I can send you a picture 

617
00:33:48,520 --> 00:33:49,960
of the cards afterwards if you 
want. 

618
00:33:50,360 --> 00:33:52,440
Hell no. 
I don't want them to be lusting 

619
00:33:52,440 --> 00:33:55,640
out over me to video. 
Hell no. 

620
00:33:55,880 --> 00:34:00,320
Well at this point my price for 
a one hour video is $300.00 so 

621
00:34:00,320 --> 00:34:05,120
y'all can book right now. 
I do have code 50 off you know 

622
00:34:05,680 --> 00:34:08,440
but like at the end of the day 
like I'm not playing with these 

623
00:34:08,440 --> 00:34:11,199
motherfuckers. 
Like if you want to pay, I used 

624
00:34:11,199 --> 00:34:16,920
to do intro like one hour new 
client reading. 

625
00:34:16,920 --> 00:34:19,600
So if you had never booked with 
me or you was your first time 

626
00:34:19,960 --> 00:34:24,880
and it was $111.00 and literally
that price point, because that 

627
00:34:24,880 --> 00:34:27,600
points I had went viral and I 
had went on to podcasts that 

628
00:34:27,600 --> 00:34:30,679
made me go even more viral and 
things like that over the years.

629
00:34:31,120 --> 00:34:33,719
And at that price point, at one 
point I got booked out for six 

630
00:34:33,719 --> 00:34:37,400
months and it was, it was 
dramatic girl like it was. 

631
00:34:37,840 --> 00:34:41,520
My God. 
I came down with like the worst 

632
00:34:41,560 --> 00:34:47,480
fucking flu and like spiritual 
flu and just like just burnout 

633
00:34:47,480 --> 00:34:49,480
that you've ever had. 
And that happened in like 

634
00:34:49,480 --> 00:34:53,040
February of this year. 
And I had to take a full step 

635
00:34:53,040 --> 00:34:54,639
back. 
Like I had to literally like 

636
00:34:54,639 --> 00:34:57,480
take every service off my 
website and completely take a 

637
00:34:57,480 --> 00:35:00,320
full step back. 
So it was just like, it was one 

638
00:35:00,320 --> 00:35:03,240
of those like be careful what 
you wish for and also like 

639
00:35:03,640 --> 00:35:07,640
yourself accordingly because 
that price point really opened 

640
00:35:07,640 --> 00:35:10,800
it the floodgates for like 
anyone and everyone. 

641
00:35:11,200 --> 00:35:17,600
And even like at that, like 
people don't realize what I can 

642
00:35:17,600 --> 00:35:19,960
do in an hour. 
Like I can talk for fucking 

643
00:35:19,960 --> 00:35:23,960
days. 
And I'm saying videos with like 

644
00:35:23,960 --> 00:35:25,320
all the signs and all the 
things. 

645
00:35:25,320 --> 00:35:28,000
And like a lot of people can't 
channel like that. 

646
00:35:28,000 --> 00:35:31,560
Like they've lost the technique.
And I think that making videos 

647
00:35:31,560 --> 00:35:33,800
like you do, and that's what I 
used to do as well. 

648
00:35:34,040 --> 00:35:36,840
It is really great practice and 
it's really good for the 

649
00:35:36,840 --> 00:35:40,400
collective, but I got burned out
on the collective too because 

650
00:35:40,800 --> 00:35:45,920
their energy can be so in like 
fear dense like BS programs and 

651
00:35:45,920 --> 00:35:49,040
like Yep, I really excelled away
from those programs. 

652
00:35:49,200 --> 00:35:53,440
It's really hard to just jump 
back in for free all the time. 

653
00:35:53,440 --> 00:35:56,840
So I had to like I've just 
completely quit doing all of it.

654
00:35:57,840 --> 00:36:00,600
I know exactly what you mean. 
It's because when you're reading

655
00:36:00,600 --> 00:36:03,920
people's energy, if you're truly
tapped in, it could be draining.

656
00:36:03,920 --> 00:36:07,120
And then if you don't protect 
yourself enough or you don't set

657
00:36:07,120 --> 00:36:11,920
boundaries, my mentor, mentor 
calls it spiritual boundaries. 

658
00:36:12,200 --> 00:36:15,360
You're going to get burnt out. 
And then what was your passion 

659
00:36:15,640 --> 00:36:19,680
becomes more like a chore At one
point, you know, it feels like, 

660
00:36:19,680 --> 00:36:23,200
damn, I don't want to go to work
to my 9:00 to 5:00 or whatever. 

661
00:36:23,200 --> 00:36:25,440
In this case, it's Terrell. 
Whatever you're doing 

662
00:36:25,440 --> 00:36:29,520
spiritually, it it gets draining
and you have to set those 

663
00:36:29,520 --> 00:36:32,120
boundaries and you have to tell 
certain people, you know what? 

664
00:36:32,120 --> 00:36:34,560
No. 
Like I for whatever reason, I'm 

665
00:36:34,560 --> 00:36:36,840
getting told that I cannot do a 
reading for you. 

666
00:36:36,840 --> 00:36:38,640
And I'm sorry. 
Maybe there's someone out there 

667
00:36:38,680 --> 00:36:40,680
better for you. 
Yeah, I've got and I'll get 

668
00:36:40,680 --> 00:36:42,080
that. 
I'll get downloads like that. 

669
00:36:42,080 --> 00:36:44,640
Like people will message me like
for a reading. 

670
00:36:44,640 --> 00:36:48,240
And it's just something about 
them that tells me no, don't do 

671
00:36:48,240 --> 00:36:49,680
it. 
And I won't. 

672
00:36:50,120 --> 00:36:52,240
And those are the boundaries 
that I set for myself. 

673
00:36:52,240 --> 00:36:53,920
And I have to increase my prices
too. 

674
00:36:53,920 --> 00:36:56,960
I know exactly what you mean 
because the cheaper you're 

675
00:36:56,960 --> 00:37:02,240
pricing anyone has access to 
your energy and not everyone is 

676
00:37:02,280 --> 00:37:06,720
good energy or. 
The residue that like is 

677
00:37:06,720 --> 00:37:11,720
leftover, yeah, like spiritual 
burnout is like it's long 

678
00:37:11,720 --> 00:37:15,160
lasting and it took me a minute 
to recalibrate myself. 

679
00:37:15,160 --> 00:37:20,160
But now also like want to just 
add cuz the listeners we're kind

680
00:37:20,160 --> 00:37:22,320
of later in the season. 
So I'm just going to spill the 

681
00:37:22,320 --> 00:37:25,000
tea a little bit. 
The whole Gemini thing was a 

682
00:37:25,000 --> 00:37:27,280
shit show, y'all. 
So she just completely fell off 

683
00:37:27,280 --> 00:37:29,840
the face of the earth. 
And I was taking on the brunt of

684
00:37:29,840 --> 00:37:33,480
that responsibility for like 
months to keep the podcast 

685
00:37:33,480 --> 00:37:36,000
floating. 
You know, we're in season 4 and 

686
00:37:36,000 --> 00:37:39,240
we're doing freaking 2 episodes 
a month, which is bullshit. 

687
00:37:39,240 --> 00:37:42,200
That's just fucking if you don't
got time to sit down and talk 

688
00:37:42,200 --> 00:37:44,840
for an hour or two a week, why 
do you even have a podcast? 

689
00:37:45,080 --> 00:37:49,080
That's why we because it was 
effortless and I mean you were 

690
00:37:49,200 --> 00:37:51,280
you're a stranger, like you know
what I mean? 

691
00:37:51,280 --> 00:37:53,880
Like we just met kind of thing 
and you can take time for me. 

692
00:37:53,880 --> 00:37:57,400
So it's like it was just way 
left field, way caught off 

693
00:37:57,400 --> 00:37:59,760
guard. 
So I was taking on the emotional

694
00:37:59,760 --> 00:38:03,520
labor of that as well. 
So I like when I took a step 

695
00:38:03,520 --> 00:38:06,480
back from my business in 
February, I also was being 

696
00:38:06,480 --> 00:38:10,480
drained by we came back with the
podcast like at the beginning of

697
00:38:10,480 --> 00:38:13,880
January and by the end of 
February when I was getting sick

698
00:38:13,880 --> 00:38:17,280
and was like super burned out, 
it was a fucking mess already. 

699
00:38:17,280 --> 00:38:20,680
But like, you can't just 
abruptly end a season with like 

700
00:38:20,680 --> 00:38:22,520
a few episodes. 
So I was thinking like, you 

701
00:38:22,520 --> 00:38:25,320
know, I'm going to give give her
grace and all that and like, try

702
00:38:25,320 --> 00:38:28,160
to let it work itself out. 
But it just kept getting like 

703
00:38:28,160 --> 00:38:31,640
worse and worse and worse. 
And with that being said, like I

704
00:38:31,640 --> 00:38:36,200
was taking on so much emotional 
labor and like had really poured

705
00:38:36,200 --> 00:38:39,520
my heart and soul into this 
project as well as my business. 

706
00:38:39,720 --> 00:38:41,800
And both of them was feeling 
like work. 

707
00:38:42,000 --> 00:38:44,760
And the only thing that wasn't 
feeling like work that I was 

708
00:38:44,760 --> 00:38:47,080
actually enjoying was my 9:00 to
5:00. 

709
00:38:47,320 --> 00:38:50,720
The only thing that all of us 
and like actually like I've said

710
00:38:50,760 --> 00:38:54,080
a million times, I would never 
want to put all the pressure on 

711
00:38:54,080 --> 00:38:58,320
my gifts because I am a control 
freak and I like to have things 

712
00:38:58,320 --> 00:39:01,960
like already in motion like 
health insurance, don't have to 

713
00:39:01,960 --> 00:39:04,680
think about it different things 
like I need that in motion to 

714
00:39:04,680 --> 00:39:07,680
feel safe because I'm a Taurus 
or I can't. 

715
00:39:07,840 --> 00:39:13,000
Oh my God, me too, I'm a Taurus.
We're living the same split 

716
00:39:13,000 --> 00:39:15,200
reality. 
Look the Mandela Effect 

717
00:39:15,200 --> 00:39:16,160
together. 
We are coming. 

718
00:39:16,160 --> 00:39:16,840
I love. 
It. 

719
00:39:17,560 --> 00:39:19,720
Are you an April or a May 
Taurus? 

720
00:39:19,760 --> 00:39:23,560
May I was born May 4th, May 3rd.
Worst day? 

721
00:39:24,480 --> 00:39:27,800
Yeah, mines May 13th. 
Nice. 

722
00:39:28,440 --> 00:39:30,520
Yes. 
So I definitely relate because 

723
00:39:30,520 --> 00:39:32,960
as Tauruses, we're detail 
oriented. 

724
00:39:33,440 --> 00:39:37,320
So whenever we take on a 
project, even just mentally, 

725
00:39:37,320 --> 00:39:40,680
like, hey, I'm going to work on 
this podcast or whatever, we're 

726
00:39:40,680 --> 00:39:44,080
already burning ourselves out 
without even starting because 

727
00:39:44,080 --> 00:39:46,480
we're already thinking of all 
the insurance and outs, the 

728
00:39:46,480 --> 00:39:49,720
logistics of when you're going 
to do it and like it. 

729
00:39:49,720 --> 00:39:51,920
We stress out just from that 
alone. 

730
00:39:52,000 --> 00:39:55,000
We're perfectionists, and that's
where procrastination comes in, 

731
00:39:55,000 --> 00:39:57,280
because you get so burned out 
just by the thought of it that 

732
00:39:57,280 --> 00:39:58,800
you just want to avoid it 
completely. 

733
00:39:59,320 --> 00:40:01,160
Yeah. 
So yeah, I guess you. 

734
00:40:01,560 --> 00:40:05,760
Like not cool about it is like 
the audience was like catching 

735
00:40:05,760 --> 00:40:10,440
on that like my energy was off 
on the podcast and like other 

736
00:40:10,440 --> 00:40:13,480
energy was off on the podcast. 
And like, I'm not talking shit. 

737
00:40:13,480 --> 00:40:16,880
I'm just being realistic. 
Like she left everyone hanging 

738
00:40:16,880 --> 00:40:20,840
like completely emotionally 
detached from the platform and 

739
00:40:20,840 --> 00:40:24,440
from the conversation. 
And it just was like we were 

740
00:40:24,440 --> 00:40:26,080
talking to a completely new 
person. 

741
00:40:26,080 --> 00:40:29,960
Because I've had so many people 
be like, girl season 1 through 3

742
00:40:29,960 --> 00:40:33,120
fire season 4. 
Who the fuck was that? 

743
00:40:33,120 --> 00:40:35,200
They're like, who the fuck was 
that? 

744
00:40:35,200 --> 00:40:38,160
And you know, I'm still like 
sending her love and peace 

745
00:40:38,160 --> 00:40:40,960
because like, there ain't no way
anyone who's ever wronged me is 

746
00:40:40,960 --> 00:40:43,000
going to do better in any 
fucking way. 

747
00:40:43,240 --> 00:40:46,840
Like, you know, like I don't 
compete and I do not give a 

748
00:40:46,840 --> 00:40:48,520
fuck. 
And at the end of the day, like,

749
00:40:48,520 --> 00:40:51,120
get out of my way. 
Just get off, get out of my way.

750
00:40:51,120 --> 00:40:53,720
Like send you love, send you 
peace, but just get out of my 

751
00:40:53,720 --> 00:40:56,040
way. 
So, you know, knowing that like 

752
00:40:56,040 --> 00:41:01,240
sitting down with you is like 
already months and months into 

753
00:41:01,240 --> 00:41:04,160
the podcast, but we're recording
it, you know, and like, no one 

754
00:41:04,160 --> 00:41:07,400
even knows when we recorded it. 
It's such a blind space because 

755
00:41:07,400 --> 00:41:11,240
like now I can just like really 
vibe with new people and build 

756
00:41:11,240 --> 00:41:14,720
new bonds and friendships 
because it's my Internet like 

757
00:41:14,720 --> 00:41:17,720
friendships and I like growing 
my community. 

758
00:41:17,720 --> 00:41:22,520
But I will tell you, between me 
and Gemini's communities coming 

759
00:41:22,520 --> 00:41:26,360
together, we've had more snakes 
in the grass, more identity 

760
00:41:26,360 --> 00:41:30,560
swappers, fucking just straight 
fucking energy vampires, fucking

761
00:41:30,560 --> 00:41:33,720
demons, fucking succubuses. 
We've had it all. 

762
00:41:33,720 --> 00:41:38,120
Like we have literally the 
craziest thing is like had 

763
00:41:38,120 --> 00:41:42,800
people people like bring 
themselves to our cities, both 

764
00:41:42,800 --> 00:41:46,160
of us just separately and like 
create like a girl gang of like 

765
00:41:46,160 --> 00:41:50,400
a group of people come and visit
and it's a hot mess shit show. 

766
00:41:50,600 --> 00:41:54,200
And the whole time the universe 
is like this is not in 

767
00:41:54,200 --> 00:41:55,440
alignment. 
You know what I mean? 

768
00:41:55,440 --> 00:41:59,480
Like, I don't know, it's like 
it's weird, but I also feel like

769
00:41:59,960 --> 00:42:05,000
she and I had a lot of things 
where I don't have boundaries as

770
00:42:05,000 --> 00:42:07,960
far as like telling someone 
like, no, you're stealing my 

771
00:42:07,960 --> 00:42:10,160
idea. 
Like no, that's my idea. 

772
00:42:10,160 --> 00:42:13,120
No, all those things you keep 
doing, I already did those and I

773
00:42:13,120 --> 00:42:17,240
don't like taking my idea. 
So I feel like for a while she 

774
00:42:17,240 --> 00:42:20,480
was kind of like I did any 
swapping with me and then 

775
00:42:20,480 --> 00:42:22,920
scamming people at the end of 
the day. 

776
00:42:22,920 --> 00:42:24,560
And and like, this is public 
knowledge. 

777
00:42:24,560 --> 00:42:30,960
So, you know, I feel at this 
rate, I have awakened so much 

778
00:42:30,960 --> 00:42:33,280
more by connecting with new 
people like you because 

779
00:42:33,280 --> 00:42:36,480
everyone's energy brings 
something new in where I can 

780
00:42:36,480 --> 00:42:39,120
once again see that it wasn't 
me. 

781
00:42:39,160 --> 00:42:42,720
Like it wasn't me doing exactly.
I was just like a innocent 

782
00:42:42,720 --> 00:42:46,680
bystander to the shit show. 
And I was like trying to like 

783
00:42:46,680 --> 00:42:51,400
calm everything down. 
And I gave people like Grace and

784
00:42:51,400 --> 00:42:55,160
I've given people plenty of 
space, but like, straight up 

785
00:42:55,160 --> 00:42:58,640
just disrespecting people's time
gets old. 

786
00:42:58,640 --> 00:43:02,640
And whether it's a client, a 
partner, a friend, a business 

787
00:43:02,640 --> 00:43:06,280
situation like disrespecting 
people's time is not fucking 

788
00:43:06,280 --> 00:43:09,360
cool. 
Yep, definitely. 

789
00:43:09,360 --> 00:43:12,680
And like you said, you guys 
built an audience, and for her 

790
00:43:12,680 --> 00:43:15,840
to just ghost everyone like 
that, it's kind of like a slap 

791
00:43:15,840 --> 00:43:19,400
in the face to your audience 
because it's like, we've been 

792
00:43:19,400 --> 00:43:21,640
here for you guys and you just 
leave. 

793
00:43:22,240 --> 00:43:23,360
Like, you just shut the door on 
us. 

794
00:43:23,360 --> 00:43:27,480
Like we don't matter because she
got her recognition through the 

795
00:43:27,480 --> 00:43:29,240
audience. 
And it's like she's just 

796
00:43:29,240 --> 00:43:31,400
completely disregarding them. 
So I don't like that. 

797
00:43:31,760 --> 00:43:33,600
Yeah, you know, that's very 
disrespectful. 

798
00:43:33,920 --> 00:43:37,080
And you know so many people have
DM me over the last six months 

799
00:43:37,080 --> 00:43:40,600
like where the fuck did she go 
because she's been Mia on social

800
00:43:40,600 --> 00:43:43,800
media. 
Like who builds A TikTok? 

801
00:43:43,800 --> 00:43:46,560
The outside energy you don't 
even know who the fuck she is. 

802
00:43:46,760 --> 00:43:50,040
Builds A TikTok of like 200 K 
followers from the ground up. 

803
00:43:50,280 --> 00:43:55,200
Has multiple podcasts, a full 
business, a full Patreon is 

804
00:43:55,200 --> 00:43:57,960
generating thousands of dollars 
a month and just walks away from

805
00:43:57,960 --> 00:44:02,440
everything. 
Yep, who does Yep, where like 

806
00:44:02,440 --> 00:44:06,800
what the fuck is going on? 
And so like it's been shocking 

807
00:44:06,800 --> 00:44:11,920
for everyone because I, you 
know, I understand someone maybe

808
00:44:11,920 --> 00:44:14,440
wanting to walk away from a 
project, but I would never let 

809
00:44:14,440 --> 00:44:17,200
something like that come between
me and someone that I cared 

810
00:44:17,200 --> 00:44:20,120
about, you know, But here 
recently, what I've learned and 

811
00:44:20,120 --> 00:44:23,200
what I've been seeing, and maybe
you've been seeing this is a lot

812
00:44:23,200 --> 00:44:27,280
of people are like secretly in 
competition and they know 

813
00:44:27,280 --> 00:44:29,920
they're losing because they have
not been putting in that inner 

814
00:44:30,080 --> 00:44:32,640
spiritual work. 
And I really do feel like the 

815
00:44:32,640 --> 00:44:35,440
spiritual people, and I've said 
this a bunch, I have like an 

816
00:44:35,440 --> 00:44:38,520
Oracle deck I made that I put 
this in when you have pure 

817
00:44:38,520 --> 00:44:40,920
intentions, like you can't lose,
like period. 

818
00:44:40,920 --> 00:44:43,320
I said it five years ago, I'll 
say it again, like when you have

819
00:44:43,320 --> 00:44:46,320
pure intentions, you can't lose 
no matter if it looks like I'm 

820
00:44:46,320 --> 00:44:49,800
moving slower or getting a set 
back or having a falling out, 

821
00:44:50,040 --> 00:44:52,640
it's actually building me up 
forward. 

822
00:44:52,640 --> 00:44:56,400
And so, you know, I really love 
that like taking over this 

823
00:44:56,400 --> 00:44:59,480
project and how like it's 
bringing in new energies and 

824
00:44:59,480 --> 00:45:03,360
like, instead of just the same 
old shit because I do feel like 

825
00:45:03,800 --> 00:45:07,200
we are a product of like the 
three closest people to us. 

826
00:45:07,960 --> 00:45:10,640
Oh fuck yeah, I completely agree
with that. 

827
00:45:11,400 --> 00:45:13,040
Yeah. 
And as I've gone through my 

828
00:45:13,040 --> 00:45:17,800
spiritual journey, I've shed a 
lot of people situations and 

829
00:45:17,800 --> 00:45:22,560
I've gained new a new tribe and 
my closest two friends that I 

830
00:45:22,560 --> 00:45:26,600
have right now we're exactly the
same on a spiritual level. 

831
00:45:26,800 --> 00:45:31,320
I call them my mentors because 
they teach me certain things 

832
00:45:31,320 --> 00:45:33,880
that I didn't know and I teach 
them certain things that they 

833
00:45:33,880 --> 00:45:35,960
didn't know. 
I have the following on the 

834
00:45:35,960 --> 00:45:39,640
TikTok and I'm teaching them how
to post videos, how to edit 

835
00:45:39,640 --> 00:45:42,480
them. 
And they teach me stuff about 

836
00:45:42,480 --> 00:45:45,440
like esoteric wisdom, like stuff
that I still have to learn 

837
00:45:45,440 --> 00:45:47,400
about. 
So it's great. 

838
00:45:47,440 --> 00:45:50,880
And, and it shows you a little 
snippet of where you're headed. 

839
00:45:51,680 --> 00:45:54,640
You know, like we've been saying
throughout this episode, like, 

840
00:45:54,640 --> 00:45:56,360
what the hell? 
We're living the same fucking 

841
00:45:56,360 --> 00:45:57,360
life. 
It's so crazy. 

842
00:45:57,680 --> 00:46:02,680
And you're literally showing me 
what I can expect in my future 

843
00:46:02,680 --> 00:46:05,720
because literally everything 
you're doing and what you've 

844
00:46:05,720 --> 00:46:08,240
gone through, I've already gone 
through. 

845
00:46:08,240 --> 00:46:12,560
Or I, I've already envisioned it
because I've envisioned myself 

846
00:46:12,560 --> 00:46:15,440
having a podcast and an Oracle 
deck like you just said. 

847
00:46:15,440 --> 00:46:17,480
I'm like, holy shit. 
I'm literally working on one 

848
00:46:17,480 --> 00:46:19,440
right now. 
And I'm glad you're not gonna 

849
00:46:19,440 --> 00:46:22,120
put this out till later cuz 
I'll, I probably won't put it 

850
00:46:22,120 --> 00:46:24,520
out till later. 
So hopefully by the time this is

851
00:46:24,520 --> 00:46:29,840
out, let's press out. 
That's so perfect. 

852
00:46:29,880 --> 00:46:35,640
You know, I I made multiple 
Oracle decks I made so crazy. 

853
00:46:36,160 --> 00:46:38,040
You know what's crazy about your
TikTok name? 

854
00:46:38,040 --> 00:46:43,600
My first Oracle deck's called 
You are the Oracle and green and

855
00:46:44,120 --> 00:46:47,760
it's clearly like, you know, 
sold out like I only fuck. 

856
00:46:48,080 --> 00:46:49,440
Yes. 
Then the second. 

857
00:46:49,440 --> 00:46:52,320
I love that. 
Was called Light as a Feather 

858
00:46:52,320 --> 00:46:54,680
and that was my higher self deck
and I loved it. 

859
00:46:54,680 --> 00:46:58,600
It was baby blue, had wings on 
the front with stars. 

860
00:46:58,600 --> 00:47:00,840
And then I designed it all, 
designed all the covers. 

861
00:47:00,840 --> 00:47:06,320
I did everything by hand. 
And then my other one was called

862
00:47:06,320 --> 00:47:10,360
the Divine Intervention Oracle, 
and it's like red. 

863
00:47:10,360 --> 00:47:15,200
And actually I had a few 
leftover and I sent one to Alex 

864
00:47:15,200 --> 00:47:17,560
Serves. 
She was the very first guest on 

865
00:47:17,560 --> 00:47:21,920
the podcast this season and she 
just tagged me in like a post. 

866
00:47:21,920 --> 00:47:26,280
She has millions of followers on
TikTok, a lot of conspiracy 

867
00:47:26,280 --> 00:47:29,000
stuff. 
But what's funny is like we're 

868
00:47:29,000 --> 00:47:32,760
talking about divine timing. 
And on her episode, like years 

869
00:47:32,760 --> 00:47:35,400
ago, I had asked her to come 
onto the podcast and she was 

870
00:47:35,400 --> 00:47:37,920
like, no. 
And then the moment Jim and I 

871
00:47:37,920 --> 00:47:41,160
was gone, she was like, hell 
yeah, turn up, I'll be on. 

872
00:47:41,400 --> 00:47:45,360
And then we did a 2 hour 
interview and it was so good. 

873
00:47:45,360 --> 00:47:49,640
But I sent her a couple decks 
and I did send her that Oracle 

874
00:47:49,640 --> 00:47:51,200
deck. 
But yeah, making an Oracle deck 

875
00:47:51,200 --> 00:47:55,720
was so much fun. 
And honestly, my original deck 

876
00:47:55,720 --> 00:47:59,040
would blow up and go viral on 
TikTok because no one could see 

877
00:47:59,040 --> 00:48:02,240
those cards anywhere else. 
And what I loved about TikTok at

878
00:48:02,240 --> 00:48:04,600
that time is it wasn't super 
saturated. 

879
00:48:04,800 --> 00:48:07,280
You know, they say now with the 
Internet, there's like millions 

880
00:48:07,280 --> 00:48:09,960
of videos being uploaded every 5
minutes. 

881
00:48:10,120 --> 00:48:13,520
Whereas like five years ago, 
there really wasn't millions of 

882
00:48:13,520 --> 00:48:15,920
videos quote UN quote being 
uploaded. 

883
00:48:16,120 --> 00:48:18,840
Maybe photos, but not 
necessarily videos. 

884
00:48:19,280 --> 00:48:23,640
And so we think the way that we 
communicate changes and like my 

885
00:48:23,640 --> 00:48:27,080
problem is like, I like to make 
like record things, but I don't 

886
00:48:27,080 --> 00:48:29,680
like to edit them or I don't 
even want to share them. 

887
00:48:29,680 --> 00:48:33,720
Like I'll record things and then
not share it. 

888
00:48:33,760 --> 00:48:36,320
I don't know, I'm weird. 
Like I used to want to share 

889
00:48:36,320 --> 00:48:41,360
everything, but I've went into 
like this hermit, like reserving

890
00:48:41,360 --> 00:48:44,000
my energy mode. 
And like now the clients that 

891
00:48:44,000 --> 00:48:48,240
book me are like super aligned. 
I'm not drained at all. 

892
00:48:48,400 --> 00:48:51,480
I'm not like sold out either. 
And that's what I like. 

893
00:48:51,480 --> 00:48:52,880
Like I don't want to be sold 
out. 

894
00:48:52,880 --> 00:48:57,560
I don't want to like constantly 
just be at service for people, 

895
00:48:57,560 --> 00:49:02,120
you know, But I've had a lot of 
clients like reach out from like

896
00:49:02,120 --> 00:49:05,920
all over the world ever since 
I've like kind of dialed back my

897
00:49:05,920 --> 00:49:08,120
energy. 
So it's like my reach is further

898
00:49:08,120 --> 00:49:11,560
all of a sudden, but I'm not 
touching as many people at the 

899
00:49:11,560 --> 00:49:13,960
same time. 
It's because not everyone 

900
00:49:13,960 --> 00:49:16,560
deserves your energy or they're 
not even ready for it. 

901
00:49:17,520 --> 00:49:21,720
Even if you reach millions of 
people all the time, if they 

902
00:49:21,720 --> 00:49:24,720
come to you, what if they're not
even ready for whatever lesson 

903
00:49:24,720 --> 00:49:28,080
you're about to give them or 
knowledge whatever, They're not 

904
00:49:28,080 --> 00:49:30,760
going to take it. 
So whoever's aligned with you at

905
00:49:30,760 --> 00:49:34,200
the moment will find you at 
whatever price you're giving 

906
00:49:34,200 --> 00:49:37,400
your readings for, because 
they're connected to your energy

907
00:49:37,880 --> 00:49:41,200
and that's all that matters. 
Yeah, I was looking at your 

908
00:49:41,200 --> 00:49:45,480
services earlier. 
So tell me about your removal 

909
00:49:46,360 --> 00:49:49,920
spell work, because that's 
originally how I found you. 

910
00:49:49,920 --> 00:49:53,000
You were talking about 
attachments coming through, 

911
00:49:53,000 --> 00:49:57,400
doing spell work for other 
people and entities trying to 

912
00:49:57,400 --> 00:50:00,640
attach to you or trying to stop 
you from removing them. 

913
00:50:01,040 --> 00:50:05,200
And I, I was on your website 
earlier and I saw that you have 

914
00:50:05,200 --> 00:50:07,680
like this big ritual and I 
opened it up and it like looks 

915
00:50:07,680 --> 00:50:10,680
really in depth and you were 
like, I need a photo of your 

916
00:50:10,680 --> 00:50:14,360
face and this and I can't 
perform this without these 

917
00:50:14,360 --> 00:50:16,160
details and stuff. 
And I really like it. 

918
00:50:16,160 --> 00:50:19,080
So tell me about that. 
How did you get into doing the 

919
00:50:19,080 --> 00:50:22,480
removals? 
What is like so special about 

920
00:50:22,480 --> 00:50:24,040
that? 
Like tell us more. 

921
00:50:24,960 --> 00:50:27,960
OK so the video that you're 
referring to was about a cord 

922
00:50:27,960 --> 00:50:30,600
cutting spell so I don't know 
what it is. 

923
00:50:30,600 --> 00:50:32,560
I've always been drawn to cord 
cutting spells. 

924
00:50:32,560 --> 00:50:36,240
I'm all about self empowerment 
and letting go of what no longer

925
00:50:36,240 --> 00:50:39,200
serves you. 
I'm not the type that does love 

926
00:50:39,200 --> 00:50:41,400
spells. 
No offense to witches that do 

927
00:50:41,400 --> 00:50:43,640
love spells, but I'm all about 
no fuck no. 

928
00:50:43,640 --> 00:50:46,720
Let that guy go or let that girl
go and move the fuck on. 

929
00:50:47,040 --> 00:50:49,200
How about that? 
How about you learn the lesson? 

930
00:50:49,200 --> 00:50:54,000
Integrate and move the fuck on 
from the person that does not 

931
00:50:54,000 --> 00:50:55,240
serve you. 
Like hell no. 

932
00:50:55,480 --> 00:50:58,360
So I'm all about that. 
So I do a lot of cord cutting 

933
00:50:58,360 --> 00:51:00,840
spells. 
That's like my specialty, but I 

934
00:51:00,840 --> 00:51:04,600
did one in particular and I do 
protection work before anything.

935
00:51:04,800 --> 00:51:08,240
But for some reason I felt a 
very heavy energy from this 

936
00:51:08,240 --> 00:51:10,960
client. 
And as I'm doing her cord 

937
00:51:10,960 --> 00:51:15,520
cutting, I'm getting like pain 
in my shoulder blade and I'm 

938
00:51:15,560 --> 00:51:19,480
shivering and I'm getting a 
headache and I'm like, what the 

939
00:51:19,480 --> 00:51:22,560
heck is happening here? 
And it was late. 

940
00:51:22,560 --> 00:51:24,800
It was like 1 in the morning, 
2:00 in the morning when I was 

941
00:51:24,800 --> 00:51:27,760
doing her cord cutting. 
And I texted her and I said, 

942
00:51:27,760 --> 00:51:30,280
hey, you're probably asleep. 
It's really late. 

943
00:51:30,560 --> 00:51:34,720
But just so you know, I'm 
feeling these physical symptoms 

944
00:51:34,720 --> 00:51:37,880
while doing your cord cutting. 
So just be aware you might feel 

945
00:51:37,880 --> 00:51:43,360
it too. 
And she texted me like at 3-4 in

946
00:51:43,360 --> 00:51:46,080
the morning, but by that time I 
was already done with her spell 

947
00:51:46,080 --> 00:51:50,960
and I was in bed and I woke up 
at exactly 3 in the morning to a

948
00:51:50,960 --> 00:51:54,360
burp. 
I I burped myself awake and I'm 

949
00:51:54,360 --> 00:51:57,960
like what the fuck? 
And I felt a presence and I just

950
00:51:57,960 --> 00:52:00,800
felt a heavy energy and I'm 
like, I think I absorbed 

951
00:52:00,800 --> 00:52:03,600
something from this lady. 
Like she probably had a demonic 

952
00:52:03,600 --> 00:52:07,680
attachment to her from her ex 
and it was probably some kind of

953
00:52:09,160 --> 00:52:13,840
like a parasite type of demon. 
I'm I don't know much about 

954
00:52:13,840 --> 00:52:17,960
demons right now. 
I'm still studying it but I'm 

955
00:52:18,000 --> 00:52:22,520
assuming it was a parasite. 
And when I woke up I checked my 

956
00:52:22,520 --> 00:52:25,200
phone and she had texted me and 
she said, hey, I just saw your 

957
00:52:25,200 --> 00:52:27,080
text. 
I woke up to a bunch of pain in 

958
00:52:27,080 --> 00:52:30,600
my shoulder blade and I told 
her, yes, I feel a presence. 

959
00:52:30,600 --> 00:52:33,360
I don't know what the fuck I 
removed during your cord 

960
00:52:33,360 --> 00:52:35,560
cutting, but that was not the 
point of that. 

961
00:52:35,560 --> 00:52:38,240
The point of the cord cutting 
was to sever her cord with her 

962
00:52:38,240 --> 00:52:40,480
ex. 
I didn't think there was no 

963
00:52:40,480 --> 00:52:46,600
demon attached, none of that. 
And I felt so exhausted and so 

964
00:52:46,600 --> 00:52:48,200
did she. 
She told me, you know what? 

965
00:52:48,200 --> 00:52:52,200
I can't sleep. 
I feel like a bunch of pain. 

966
00:52:52,200 --> 00:52:57,200
I feel like there's a presence 
in my room right now not wanting

967
00:52:57,200 --> 00:52:59,480
to leave. 
I feel like something's angry at

968
00:52:59,480 --> 00:53:01,560
me. 
And I'm like, I think we 

969
00:53:01,560 --> 00:53:05,760
triggered whatever the fuck your
ex had that latched onto you. 

970
00:53:05,760 --> 00:53:09,520
I think that energy is angry 
that we're removing it. 

971
00:53:10,320 --> 00:53:14,480
So my mentor, my friend, she 
knows more about demons. 

972
00:53:14,800 --> 00:53:17,920
And she told me like, yeah, 
we're probably going to have to 

973
00:53:17,920 --> 00:53:20,800
do an extraction. 
And I said, what's that? 

974
00:53:21,120 --> 00:53:25,600
And she told me that's a 
shamanic technique where people 

975
00:53:25,600 --> 00:53:30,080
go into your energy field and 
they extract with their mind or 

976
00:53:30,080 --> 00:53:34,120
with their energy. 
Witchcraft, demonic entities, 

977
00:53:34,440 --> 00:53:37,040
karmic soul contracts, a bunch 
of stuff. 

978
00:53:37,640 --> 00:53:40,680
She said the cord cutting 
probably wasn't fully 

979
00:53:40,680 --> 00:53:42,320
successful. 
You're going to have to go in 

980
00:53:42,320 --> 00:53:44,440
deeper and remove whatever that 
was. 

981
00:53:44,760 --> 00:53:49,160
So she taught me how to do that 
because she actually paid for a 

982
00:53:49,160 --> 00:53:52,040
mentor of her own to teach her 
how to do those techniques. 

983
00:53:52,400 --> 00:53:55,240
But since she's my friend, she 
was teaching me how to do it. 

984
00:53:55,240 --> 00:53:59,120
So I learned from her. 
And so I kept working with that 

985
00:53:59,120 --> 00:54:02,160
client on doing that. 
And I didn't have that listed on

986
00:54:02,160 --> 00:54:06,160
my site yet as a service. 
So I practiced on her. 

987
00:54:06,160 --> 00:54:08,680
I said, hey, I just learned 
about this new technique. 

988
00:54:09,360 --> 00:54:11,360
I'm gonna try it on you, but I 
won't charge you. 

989
00:54:11,360 --> 00:54:13,840
I just want to see if I'm 
successful or not. 

990
00:54:14,160 --> 00:54:16,640
And I was. 
And I'm like, holy shit, I'm 

991
00:54:16,640 --> 00:54:20,040
actually powerful. 
That's when I first realized how

992
00:54:20,040 --> 00:54:23,760
powerful I am. 
And people in the comments are 

993
00:54:23,760 --> 00:54:26,040
like Oh my God you didn't 
protect yourself, you didn't do 

994
00:54:26,040 --> 00:54:28,440
it right blah blah blah. 
And it's like it's not about 

995
00:54:28,440 --> 00:54:30,000
that. 
There's deeper shit that y'all 

996
00:54:30,000 --> 00:54:34,000
don't understand that even with 
protection you cannot bypass 

997
00:54:34,000 --> 00:54:38,160
that shit. 
And I've learned that that 

998
00:54:38,160 --> 00:54:42,800
experience happened to lead me 
to doing extractions. 

999
00:54:43,200 --> 00:54:47,920
Nothing is coincidence. 
People may call me, you know, an

1000
00:54:47,920 --> 00:54:50,960
experience that I didn't protect
myself, whatever the fuck. 

1001
00:54:51,080 --> 00:54:54,520
But at the end of the day, had I
never experienced that, I would 

1002
00:54:54,520 --> 00:54:57,440
have never had that listed as a 
service on my site. 

1003
00:54:58,120 --> 00:55:00,240
And that has never happened ever
again. 

1004
00:55:00,520 --> 00:55:03,680
I've never had an attachment to 
me ever again after that. 

1005
00:55:03,840 --> 00:55:08,040
I think that had to happen as a 
lesson for me for to realize how

1006
00:55:08,040 --> 00:55:12,320
powerful I am. 
So I I still didn't add it on my

1007
00:55:12,320 --> 00:55:15,280
site at that moment. 
I kept practicing on other 

1008
00:55:15,280 --> 00:55:18,840
people and on myself and I 
started realizing, damn, like 

1009
00:55:18,840 --> 00:55:22,040
this actually works. 
I'm actually doing it correctly 

1010
00:55:22,720 --> 00:55:28,000
and I was tweaking my technique.
And it's all you believing in 

1011
00:55:28,000 --> 00:55:31,040
yourself, going into a 
meditative state and knowing 

1012
00:55:31,040 --> 00:55:34,680
that nothing can attach to you 
and just protecting yourself, 

1013
00:55:36,160 --> 00:55:38,400
knowing about the chakras, 
knowing what you're doing. 

1014
00:55:38,640 --> 00:55:42,280
And now I added it to my site. 
And yes, I need a picture 

1015
00:55:42,280 --> 00:55:45,640
because I'm able to tap into 
their energy better. 

1016
00:55:45,800 --> 00:55:48,880
I don't need a picture or to see
your face when I do a reading. 

1017
00:55:49,120 --> 00:55:52,440
But for whatever reason for this
ritual, I do need it. 

1018
00:55:52,440 --> 00:55:54,680
I think cuz the eyes are the 
windows to the soul. 

1019
00:55:54,680 --> 00:55:59,160
Like, I do need to see you and 
be able to know these things. 

1020
00:55:59,600 --> 00:56:02,280
And I've had amazing results 
from clients. 

1021
00:56:02,280 --> 00:56:06,800
They've told me, like after I do
the ritual, they feel a sudden 

1022
00:56:06,800 --> 00:56:09,720
relief either physically or 
emotionally. 

1023
00:56:09,920 --> 00:56:14,080
They'll cry suddenly. 
But what it entails is you go in

1024
00:56:14,080 --> 00:56:19,600
energetically into a person's 
energy, their chakra system. 

1025
00:56:19,960 --> 00:56:23,360
So I do a chakra scan. 
So I look at every single chakra

1026
00:56:23,360 --> 00:56:25,400
to see what blockages are 
present. 

1027
00:56:25,840 --> 00:56:30,520
And then I asked my guides to 
take me to any past lives or any

1028
00:56:30,520 --> 00:56:34,000
events that happened in this 
life that triggered that 

1029
00:56:34,000 --> 00:56:38,440
blockage or that repeating cycle
or whatever it is, the trauma, 

1030
00:56:38,440 --> 00:56:41,800
whatever. 
And I kid you not, I'll see 

1031
00:56:41,800 --> 00:56:46,880
literal visions in my head play 
out of what they went through 

1032
00:56:46,880 --> 00:56:49,440
that caused that pain or 
suffering. 

1033
00:56:50,200 --> 00:56:54,120
And I literally, I don't know 
how else to explain it but I 

1034
00:56:54,120 --> 00:56:58,320
feel like I'm merging with their
soul body when I'm in the 

1035
00:56:58,320 --> 00:57:02,000
meditative state. 
I'm merging with my clients soul

1036
00:57:02,000 --> 00:57:06,920
body with their permission and 
I'm like removing it from myself

1037
00:57:07,600 --> 00:57:12,440
but I'm actually removing it 
from them in the process because

1038
00:57:12,440 --> 00:57:14,840
I'm merged with them. 
I don't know how else to explain

1039
00:57:14,840 --> 00:57:21,280
it other than that, and I can't.
I can't really say how I got to 

1040
00:57:21,280 --> 00:57:24,080
that point other than just 
practicing because people are 

1041
00:57:24,080 --> 00:57:25,400
like, how do you know how to do 
that? 

1042
00:57:25,400 --> 00:57:28,040
I'm like, I don't know. 
I just see shit, it just 

1043
00:57:28,040 --> 00:57:29,440
happened. 
I don't know. 

1044
00:57:29,680 --> 00:57:34,280
Like Reiki at all. 
I don't do Reiki. 

1045
00:57:35,000 --> 00:57:38,200
I would say that's kind of 
similar to Reiki because I'm 

1046
00:57:38,200 --> 00:57:41,320
looking at the chakras and 
removing stuff from them. 

1047
00:57:41,880 --> 00:57:45,480
But I don't physically do Reiki 
like in person to clients. 

1048
00:57:45,480 --> 00:57:49,680
It's all remote. 
I don't have people in front of 

1049
00:57:49,680 --> 00:57:51,160
me. 
I'm I'm just doing it with my 

1050
00:57:51,160 --> 00:57:52,880
mind. 
It's insane. 

1051
00:57:52,880 --> 00:57:57,000
I don't know how to explain 
what's going on, but that's what

1052
00:57:57,000 --> 00:57:59,280
I do. 
No, I like that because I do 

1053
00:57:59,280 --> 00:58:01,760
everything virtually as well. 
Yeah. 

1054
00:58:01,920 --> 00:58:05,200
Like what you're doing is kind 
of similar to like what I would 

1055
00:58:05,200 --> 00:58:09,760
be doing with like a banishment 
removal, like kind of type thing

1056
00:58:09,760 --> 00:58:12,640
because like I'm doing a shock 
or clearing. 

1057
00:58:12,640 --> 00:58:16,560
Like I feel like depending on 
what I'm clearing, cleansing or 

1058
00:58:16,560 --> 00:58:19,200
banishing or what I'm doing, 
it's very similar to something 

1059
00:58:19,200 --> 00:58:25,080
like that, except that I 
personally don't feel like, I 

1060
00:58:25,080 --> 00:58:27,800
don't know how to explain this. 
But I think that I was seeing 

1061
00:58:27,800 --> 00:58:31,600
too much as a kid and seeing too
much that I was like, you know 

1062
00:58:31,600 --> 00:58:33,160
what? 
I don't need to see it, Just let

1063
00:58:33,160 --> 00:58:35,240
me know. 
And now I just know everything. 

1064
00:58:35,240 --> 00:58:38,120
And I know that sounds fucked 
up, but I know you get it. 

1065
00:58:38,120 --> 00:58:41,440
Because like I feel a lot and I 
used to see a lot. 

1066
00:58:41,440 --> 00:58:44,440
I used to say that because you, 
whatever gift you're using, if 

1067
00:58:44,440 --> 00:58:47,120
you listen to the practitioner, 
they'll kind of tell you what 

1068
00:58:47,120 --> 00:58:48,880
gift they're using. 
They'll be like, I see this, I 

1069
00:58:48,880 --> 00:58:51,840
feel this, I know this, I hear 
this, you know, like they're 

1070
00:58:51,840 --> 00:58:53,400
going to tell you what gift 
they're using. 

1071
00:58:53,960 --> 00:58:56,920
Confirmation from my my soul cat
here. 

1072
00:58:57,320 --> 00:58:59,200
But I have a. 
Black cat too. 

1073
00:58:59,200 --> 00:59:01,520
Sorry, I have a cat. 
Too, but I. 

1074
00:59:01,520 --> 00:59:05,680
Have a black cat? 
He's a boy who. 

1075
00:59:06,120 --> 00:59:11,840
His name is Binks. 
Oh, this is Phoenix Brothers. 

1076
00:59:13,640 --> 00:59:19,280
But yeah, no, I personally feel 
like spirituality has brought so

1077
00:59:19,280 --> 00:59:23,280
much change into my life that 
like what I what worked for me a

1078
00:59:23,280 --> 00:59:26,800
year ago or like five years ago 
or seven years ago. 

1079
00:59:27,160 --> 00:59:30,320
I don't necessarily like always 
do the same thing. 

1080
00:59:30,560 --> 00:59:34,440
Like I used to be into like 
manifesting money, money bowls 

1081
00:59:34,440 --> 00:59:37,840
this that. 
I don't ever do money magic 

1082
00:59:37,840 --> 00:59:39,840
anymore. 
I feel like I am the frequency, 

1083
00:59:39,840 --> 00:59:44,600
like I am the I am the magnet. 
Like I just always have money. 

1084
00:59:44,600 --> 00:59:48,400
Money just loves me like money 
just loves me so much. 

1085
00:59:48,400 --> 00:59:50,440
We don't even have to have that 
conversation anymore. 

1086
00:59:50,800 --> 00:59:54,720
And so like our different things
like that and like I was 

1087
00:59:54,720 --> 00:59:57,040
watching this video the other 
day and it was talking about 

1088
00:59:57,040 --> 00:59:59,880
like claiming the life you want 
to live. 

1089
00:59:59,880 --> 01:00:03,760
Like I claim my dream body, I 
claim my dream life, I claim my 

1090
01:00:03,760 --> 01:00:06,720
dream reality and like just 
setting authority. 

1091
01:00:06,720 --> 01:00:08,680
And that's something that I've 
been really big on. 

1092
01:00:08,680 --> 01:00:11,160
So I knew that was like a 
mirrored message because 

1093
01:00:11,160 --> 01:00:14,320
sometimes, you know, we're all 
like once again repeating 

1094
01:00:14,320 --> 01:00:18,920
similar energies in our own way 
and transmuting it or 

1095
01:00:18,920 --> 01:00:23,120
transponding it in different 
ways that resonate with our own 

1096
01:00:23,120 --> 01:00:27,680
collective, our own following or
people who are on our frequency 

1097
01:00:28,040 --> 01:00:29,520
and what you. 
Mentioned earlier at the 

1098
01:00:29,520 --> 01:00:31,880
beginning of the episode I 
forgot to even touch on. 

1099
01:00:32,120 --> 01:00:34,720
I also believe that you have 
different twin flames at 

1100
01:00:34,720 --> 01:00:38,680
different frequencies because I 
believe that my original twin 

1101
01:00:38,680 --> 01:00:41,600
flame was a catalyst twin flame.
We were both catalysts for each 

1102
01:00:41,600 --> 01:00:44,280
other. 
I, I feel like I rose to the 

1103
01:00:44,320 --> 01:00:47,640
occasion in ways that they were 
choosing not to. 

1104
01:00:47,640 --> 01:00:49,880
So I went to a different 
frequency. 

1105
01:00:50,120 --> 01:00:53,120
Nothing wrong with them, nothing
wrong with me, but it was just 

1106
01:00:53,120 --> 01:00:57,960
like, I feel like I elevated to 
a different frequency beyond the

1107
01:00:57,960 --> 01:01:03,160
grips of, of control or 
hyperphyxiation or needing to be

1108
01:01:03,160 --> 01:01:06,560
right or whatever. 
Cuz so many symbolic things 

1109
01:01:06,560 --> 01:01:08,960
happened over time that like, I 
know I was right. 

1110
01:01:09,280 --> 01:01:11,920
I know that that was a catalyst 
in my life and I don't give a 

1111
01:01:11,920 --> 01:01:14,840
fuck what else it was, you know,
like I don't need a label. 

1112
01:01:15,160 --> 01:01:18,520
And so the surrender and the 
letting go that I was able to 

1113
01:01:18,880 --> 01:01:22,280
adapt and like cultivate from 
that experience is like 

1114
01:01:22,280 --> 01:01:26,000
timeless. 
And now it's like so hard. 

1115
01:01:26,000 --> 01:01:30,280
It's getting harder and harder 
for men to even get my 

1116
01:01:30,280 --> 01:01:32,800
attention, like because there's 
nothing about them that's 

1117
01:01:32,800 --> 01:01:37,960
getting my attention at all. 
And it's it's crazy because I 

1118
01:01:38,280 --> 01:01:42,720
have always been a little boy 
crazy in my life, like 

1119
01:01:42,720 --> 01:01:47,040
especially when I was younger. 
And so, so like these last like 

1120
01:01:47,360 --> 01:01:50,760
really prom adult years of my 
life that I've just been like 

1121
01:01:50,760 --> 01:01:54,840
celibate and single is really 
interesting because I would 

1122
01:01:54,840 --> 01:01:58,720
never have dreamed that I would 
have made it to my 30s with like

1123
01:01:58,720 --> 01:02:01,800
no children and no husband and 
no like, no oops. 

1124
01:02:02,120 --> 01:02:05,120
And like that second chance 
though, like what you said you 

1125
01:02:05,120 --> 01:02:07,480
were praying for. 
And I also believe in God. 

1126
01:02:07,480 --> 01:02:10,040
I also believe in Jesus. 
I think Jesus was a martyr. 

1127
01:02:10,240 --> 01:02:13,320
And I also think they, I mean, I
don't think I know he was not 

1128
01:02:13,320 --> 01:02:15,360
white. 
For everyone's listening, I'll 

1129
01:02:15,360 --> 01:02:18,360
say it again. 
Jesus was not Oh no, Jesus was a

1130
01:02:18,360 --> 01:02:21,120
witch because I've. 
Seen him during a shrimp trip. 

1131
01:02:21,120 --> 01:02:23,280
Yeah. 
He's brown. 

1132
01:02:23,280 --> 01:02:26,520
I don't know if you just shrimp.
Yeah, I don't know if you do 

1133
01:02:26,520 --> 01:02:30,400
shrooms or not, but it's crazy. 
And I'm sorry to interrupt, but 

1134
01:02:30,600 --> 01:02:34,000
I never believed in Jesus fully 
before. 

1135
01:02:34,240 --> 01:02:37,800
I always questioned it because I
consider myself agnostic. 

1136
01:02:37,800 --> 01:02:41,040
I question everything, right? 
I'm like, wait, why? 

1137
01:02:41,040 --> 01:02:42,480
Why? 
What's the root of this? 

1138
01:02:42,880 --> 01:02:44,680
And I've always been like, I 
don't know. 

1139
01:02:44,680 --> 01:02:45,920
I don't know if I believe in 
him. 

1140
01:02:46,240 --> 01:02:50,720
And I went on a trip one time 
and he literally came to me and 

1141
01:02:50,880 --> 01:02:54,160
since then I believe him 100%. 
I'm like he exists. 

1142
01:02:54,160 --> 01:02:56,640
I saw him with my own eyes. 
I don't care what people say I 

1143
01:02:56,640 --> 01:02:59,240
believe in him. 
And we literally had a full 

1144
01:02:59,240 --> 01:03:04,200
blown conversation in my head 
telepathically on my trip and it

1145
01:03:04,200 --> 01:03:06,600
was insane. 
And the reason I know he's real 

1146
01:03:06,600 --> 01:03:09,480
is because I don't know anything
about the Bible. 

1147
01:03:09,480 --> 01:03:12,040
Well, now I do, but at the 
moment, I didn't know anything 

1148
01:03:12,040 --> 01:03:14,400
about the Bible or like, 
biblical figures. 

1149
01:03:15,480 --> 01:03:18,840
And a woman came to me during 
that same trip named Mary 

1150
01:03:18,840 --> 01:03:21,880
Magdalene, and I had no idea who
she was. 

1151
01:03:21,880 --> 01:03:24,320
OK. 
So the next day when I was 

1152
01:03:24,320 --> 01:03:27,160
sober, I started going on a 
rabbit hole. 

1153
01:03:27,160 --> 01:03:30,840
Who is this lady? 
And I knew I knew that that was 

1154
01:03:30,840 --> 01:03:32,680
no coincidence. 
I'm like, they're trying to show

1155
01:03:32,680 --> 01:03:35,680
me that they're real. 
So I don't care what people 

1156
01:03:35,680 --> 01:03:38,000
think. 
Like I said, I don't practice 

1157
01:03:38,000 --> 01:03:40,080
religion, but I know Jesus 
Christ is real. 

1158
01:03:40,080 --> 01:03:43,400
So when people comment like oh 
Jesus loves you in my tarot 

1159
01:03:43,400 --> 01:03:44,960
videos, I'm like you don't even 
know. 

1160
01:03:44,960 --> 01:03:48,080
Like I know him shut the fuck 
up. 

1161
01:03:49,360 --> 01:03:51,360
Like you think you're offending 
me but. 

1162
01:03:52,520 --> 01:03:56,600
The thing not plant medicine 
that really I encourage for 

1163
01:03:56,600 --> 01:04:02,000
every person it I don't think 
that it's something that 

1164
01:04:02,000 --> 01:04:06,840
everyone is ready for, but I do 
think there is a taboo or like a

1165
01:04:06,840 --> 01:04:10,680
stigma around it that people 
just think they're going to have

1166
01:04:10,680 --> 01:04:13,240
a bad trip. 
But I just want to pre warn you,

1167
01:04:13,240 --> 01:04:17,560
your syllabus is like good trip,
good trip, crazy dark night of 

1168
01:04:17,560 --> 01:04:22,000
the soul, cry your eyes out 
trip, cry a little bit, but 

1169
01:04:22,000 --> 01:04:24,040
still a good trip. 
Then you'll have another dark 

1170
01:04:24,040 --> 01:04:25,400
night. 
Then you'll go have some like 

1171
01:04:25,400 --> 01:04:27,680
decent. 
You can like laugh and watch a 

1172
01:04:27,680 --> 01:04:31,040
funny movie. 
But like I do feel like not all 

1173
01:04:31,040 --> 01:04:34,520
trips are treated equally. 
And I personally over the years 

1174
01:04:34,520 --> 01:04:39,160
have like this like really like 
tripping alone because I just 

1175
01:04:39,160 --> 01:04:43,440
like being in my own energy and 
just not having to be like 

1176
01:04:44,560 --> 01:04:47,800
performative or be anything like
now that I'm like so locked in 

1177
01:04:47,800 --> 01:04:51,040
with my spirit team and my, and 
like the ancestors, like I 

1178
01:04:51,040 --> 01:04:56,080
really trip like just so I can 
hang out and vibe in my own like

1179
01:04:56,080 --> 01:04:57,600
space. 
And like, that's my favorite 

1180
01:04:57,600 --> 01:05:00,560
place to be anyway. 
So I don't know, I think that 

1181
01:05:00,560 --> 01:05:03,240
plant medicine is not for 
everyone because not everyone's 

1182
01:05:03,240 --> 01:05:06,680
really ready to face their soul.
And that's why I think like 

1183
01:05:06,880 --> 01:05:11,960
society in itself has kind of 
outlawed things that help us 

1184
01:05:11,960 --> 01:05:16,320
because if everyone took plant 
medicine and like really started

1185
01:05:16,320 --> 01:05:21,800
to heal, I think that like, it 
would be like 95% of people quit

1186
01:05:21,800 --> 01:05:23,800
their job on Monday or like 
whatever. 

1187
01:05:23,800 --> 01:05:25,160
Yep. 
You know, like, I don't know. 

1188
01:05:25,160 --> 01:05:28,560
I think so definitely what the 
machine would like blow up. 

1189
01:05:28,680 --> 01:05:30,400
I always call this place the 
machine. 

1190
01:05:31,440 --> 01:05:33,760
Yep. 
No, you're absolutely right. 

1191
01:05:33,760 --> 01:05:37,480
I believe, In my opinion, people
shouldn't do it until their 

1192
01:05:37,480 --> 01:05:40,200
frontal lobe is developed 
because it doesn't develop till 

1193
01:05:40,200 --> 01:05:43,640
you're 25 because you're still 
vulnerable. 

1194
01:05:43,880 --> 01:05:45,960
Prior to that, you're still 
growing. 

1195
01:05:46,560 --> 01:05:48,880
You haven't had enough life 
experience. 

1196
01:05:49,080 --> 01:05:51,920
And then even after that, after 
your frontal lobe is fully 

1197
01:05:51,920 --> 01:05:54,160
developed, have you done shadow 
work? 

1198
01:05:54,160 --> 01:05:57,720
Have you addressed certain 
karmic cycles within yourself 

1199
01:05:58,240 --> 01:06:02,240
while sober? 
Have you done any healing work 

1200
01:06:02,240 --> 01:06:05,120
at all to any capacity? 
Because yeah, it can be 

1201
01:06:05,120 --> 01:06:09,120
extremely overwhelming. 
I remember on my trip, it was 

1202
01:06:09,120 --> 01:06:11,760
recent, it was barely this year,
this past year. 

1203
01:06:13,120 --> 01:06:17,800
And I'm so blessed to be at the 
point where I'm at because I was

1204
01:06:17,800 --> 01:06:20,520
ready. 
But if I had taken shrooms like 

1205
01:06:20,520 --> 01:06:23,160
prior to that, hell no. 
I would probably go on a 

1206
01:06:23,160 --> 01:06:27,520
spiritual psychosis, so I think 
I was at a point in my life 

1207
01:06:27,520 --> 01:06:33,000
where I was fully ready for it. 
Yeah, Lord help me, because I 

1208
01:06:33,000 --> 01:06:35,920
just grew up around substance 
abuse. 

1209
01:06:35,920 --> 01:06:39,040
Like the first time I ever 
smoked weed, I was 11 years old.

1210
01:06:39,440 --> 01:06:43,960
I had done mushrooms and like 
pills and all those things way 

1211
01:06:43,960 --> 01:06:46,920
before, like 16, like way before
we really were in high school. 

1212
01:06:46,920 --> 01:06:50,000
We were doing everything. 
And back then they were really 

1213
01:06:50,000 --> 01:06:54,560
like dirt rooms. 
But as of late, I actually got 

1214
01:06:54,560 --> 01:07:01,520
some like lab grown like shrooms
that are like fucking crazy. 

1215
01:07:01,520 --> 01:07:06,560
And I did this trip and this was
like my my latest trip. 

1216
01:07:06,560 --> 01:07:09,920
It was earlier in the year, but 
I've only tripped that one time 

1217
01:07:09,920 --> 01:07:12,960
this year. 
I hadn't tripped in a while. 

1218
01:07:12,960 --> 01:07:15,800
And honestly, I was kind of 
scared because I knew that it 

1219
01:07:15,800 --> 01:07:19,120
was like it was after the 
miscarriage, you know, it was 

1220
01:07:19,120 --> 01:07:22,560
like I knew there was going to 
be a lot of healing happening. 

1221
01:07:22,560 --> 01:07:26,000
So I was nervous about it. 
But I got these chocolates that 

1222
01:07:26,000 --> 01:07:29,080
were like, you know, whatever. 
So like, OK, I'm going to take 

1223
01:07:29,080 --> 01:07:31,000
one chocolate. 
It probably won't be that big of

1224
01:07:31,000 --> 01:07:33,320
a deal. 
Took this one chocolate. 

1225
01:07:33,320 --> 01:07:36,560
It was only 1g. 
But it's like those lab grown, 

1226
01:07:37,440 --> 01:07:40,960
those lab grown babies there. 
And I'm telling you, this thing 

1227
01:07:41,000 --> 01:07:46,640
sent me into a fucking a 
whirlwind, a tornado heaven. 

1228
01:07:47,040 --> 01:07:53,680
I went from every emotion to 
every layer of fucking crying. 

1229
01:07:54,080 --> 01:07:58,240
And then I was having a moment 
with Mother Earth. 

1230
01:07:58,240 --> 01:07:59,800
You were talking about Jesus 
coming to you. 

1231
01:07:59,800 --> 01:08:03,280
Mother Earth came to me. 
And she, I get really upset 

1232
01:08:03,280 --> 01:08:06,440
about them, like cutting trees 
down and hurting animals and 

1233
01:08:06,440 --> 01:08:08,920
stuff. 
But she like is always reminding

1234
01:08:08,920 --> 01:08:12,480
me that like, she's in control. 
And so she was like really 

1235
01:08:12,480 --> 01:08:14,960
emphasizing that she'll flip 
this, this fucking table over. 

1236
01:08:14,960 --> 01:08:18,680
She just kept telling me that 
like it was like a woman, like 

1237
01:08:18,760 --> 01:08:21,560
very aggressive woman with red 
hair was like, I will flip this 

1238
01:08:21,560 --> 01:08:24,040
whole fucking table over. 
You don't worry about it. 

1239
01:08:24,040 --> 01:08:26,479
She kept telling me that I'm 
only here to raise the vibration

1240
01:08:26,479 --> 01:08:28,640
of this planet. 
This is the plastic planet. 

1241
01:08:28,960 --> 01:08:31,200
She has another planet. 
They tell you there's not 

1242
01:08:31,200 --> 01:08:33,399
another one, but there is. 
This is the fake one. 

1243
01:08:33,399 --> 01:08:35,080
She kept telling me this is not 
the real one. 

1244
01:08:35,080 --> 01:08:37,080
She kept telling me like, quit 
worrying about the trees. 

1245
01:08:37,439 --> 01:08:39,040
She kept telling me. 
They're all over. 

1246
01:08:39,439 --> 01:08:41,680
And they keep saying that this 
is the only place that there's 

1247
01:08:41,680 --> 01:08:42,760
wood. 
I saw something the other day. 

1248
01:08:42,760 --> 01:08:46,240
It was like NASA that Earth is 
the only place where would 

1249
01:08:46,240 --> 01:08:47,760
exist. 
It was the dumbest shit I ever 

1250
01:08:47,760 --> 01:08:49,319
read. 
Because how would they know? 

1251
01:08:49,319 --> 01:08:51,399
Like they don't know anything 
so. 

1252
01:08:51,760 --> 01:08:54,880
My God. 
All this girl and this was like 

1253
01:08:55,319 --> 01:08:59,479
this was like peak of February. 
I'm telling you 2 weeks later we

1254
01:08:59,479 --> 01:09:02,960
had astronomical and historical 
flooding where I live, 

1255
01:09:03,240 --> 01:09:08,200
historical flooding in. 
We had like 52 tornadoes 

1256
01:09:08,200 --> 01:09:12,960
touchdown of which several were 
very near me and one of them 

1257
01:09:12,960 --> 01:09:15,600
went into a neighborhood of 
someone I had done a a major 

1258
01:09:15,600 --> 01:09:19,000
return to center on SO. 
Oh my God. 

1259
01:09:20,840 --> 01:09:23,560
Another one touched really close
to my best friend's house, but 

1260
01:09:23,560 --> 01:09:27,399
she was OK. 
And Long story short, Mother 

1261
01:09:27,399 --> 01:09:29,279
Earth really was slipping the 
fucking table over. 

1262
01:09:29,279 --> 01:09:32,520
She Oh yeah, that's how close to
home it was. 

1263
01:09:32,520 --> 01:09:35,880
Another friend of mine, it 
destroyed her complete warehouse

1264
01:09:35,880 --> 01:09:38,720
office building. 
Her office where she sets every 

1265
01:09:38,720 --> 01:09:41,720
day, where her chair was. 
The roof caved in. 

1266
01:09:42,080 --> 01:09:46,279
So Long story short, like divine
protection was everywhere 

1267
01:09:46,279 --> 01:09:49,520
because it hit at night in a 
business park. 

1268
01:09:49,520 --> 01:09:53,120
When no one was at work and it 
demolished a daycare when there 

1269
01:09:53,120 --> 01:09:55,840
were no children there. 
So I was doing all these 

1270
01:09:55,840 --> 01:09:58,680
protection spells to protect our
state, to protect our kids, to 

1271
01:09:58,680 --> 01:10:00,960
protect everyone. 
And it worked. 

1272
01:10:00,960 --> 01:10:04,040
And then I was like, damn, she 
was not playing. 

1273
01:10:04,280 --> 01:10:06,520
Then next thing you know, 
there's a massive flood. 

1274
01:10:06,520 --> 01:10:09,280
My hometown gets flood. 
I don't know why the people from

1275
01:10:09,280 --> 01:10:12,120
my hometown continue to move 
back after it gets flooded every

1276
01:10:12,120 --> 01:10:16,080
five years, but they do that. 
So they all move back now, but 

1277
01:10:16,080 --> 01:10:19,680
for like six months they've had 
to rebuild back. 

1278
01:10:19,680 --> 01:10:21,920
Like this all just happened. 
Like she was not playing. 

1279
01:10:21,920 --> 01:10:25,040
And that's just in where I live,
let alone what happened in the 

1280
01:10:25,040 --> 01:10:28,360
United States elsewhere where 
all the fires and all the other 

1281
01:10:28,360 --> 01:10:30,320
things. 
So she really was not fucking 

1282
01:10:30,320 --> 01:10:32,640
playing. 
And then she was like, she kept 

1283
01:10:32,680 --> 01:10:35,360
yelling at me and telling me 
that all's I need to do is raise

1284
01:10:35,360 --> 01:10:38,120
the vibration of this planet. 
She does not give a fuck about 

1285
01:10:38,120 --> 01:10:40,800
anything else. 
Like, that's all I need to focus

1286
01:10:40,800 --> 01:10:41,680
on. 
She's like, don't you think 

1287
01:10:41,680 --> 01:10:43,520
about this? 
Don't think about this. 

1288
01:10:43,520 --> 01:10:45,520
Don't think about that. 
She's like, that's not what you 

1289
01:10:45,520 --> 01:10:47,080
came here to do. 
Like, that's not your 

1290
01:10:47,080 --> 01:10:49,800
responsibility. 
Like she was so serious. 

1291
01:10:49,800 --> 01:10:51,920
And then next thing you know, 
there's historical flooding 

1292
01:10:52,080 --> 01:10:53,960
everywhere. 
Like I'm like, oh. 

1293
01:10:53,960 --> 01:10:57,040
I fucking love it. 
And then you're you're a Taurus 

1294
01:10:57,040 --> 01:11:00,080
and it makes so much sense. 
I didn't have an experience like

1295
01:11:00,080 --> 01:11:04,120
that but during my trip I did to
eat some cacao like natural 

1296
01:11:04,120 --> 01:11:07,240
cacao. 
So I felt her energy too during 

1297
01:11:07,240 --> 01:11:10,120
my trip, but not to your level 
like I was not. 

1298
01:11:10,200 --> 01:11:15,080
Talking to her, I mean, this was
like, I mean, I've had so many 

1299
01:11:15,080 --> 01:11:20,680
layers of life of experiences, 
but this was one of the ones 

1300
01:11:21,000 --> 01:11:24,560
that was like super intense. 
And then I kept hearing from 

1301
01:11:24,560 --> 01:11:27,840
spirit during that trip. 
I kept hearing that I was a 

1302
01:11:27,840 --> 01:11:30,000
Spice Girl. 
I kept hearing this Spice Girl, 

1303
01:11:30,000 --> 01:11:31,880
Spice Girl. 
So then I wake up the next 

1304
01:11:31,880 --> 01:11:34,640
morning and one of my best 
friends sent me all kinds of 

1305
01:11:34,640 --> 01:11:36,880
Spice Girl videos. 
And then like a week later they 

1306
01:11:36,880 --> 01:11:39,000
announced that they're going to 
do a reunion tour. 

1307
01:11:39,320 --> 01:11:43,320
And I like, it's that I was 
like, Oh my God, Oh no. 

1308
01:11:43,360 --> 01:11:48,320
They literally announced it like
in March and this is like it so.

1309
01:11:49,160 --> 01:11:50,920
Who? 
Who came into my mind a lot 

1310
01:11:50,920 --> 01:11:54,080
during my trip? 
Fucking Kanye West. 

1311
01:11:54,080 --> 01:11:57,200
I'm like, why? 
Yeah, Kanye West. 

1312
01:11:57,200 --> 01:11:59,960
Well, you are. 
Yeah, and I guess I guess like, 

1313
01:12:00,080 --> 01:12:03,480
not, not that anything's gonna 
happen to him, but I guess he's 

1314
01:12:03,480 --> 01:12:06,520
a Pisces moon like me. 
So I guess I relate to him like 

1315
01:12:06,520 --> 01:12:10,400
on a deeper level with the way 
he feels things and experiences 

1316
01:12:10,400 --> 01:12:13,200
things. 
I don't listen to his music a 

1317
01:12:13,200 --> 01:12:14,320
lot. 
I don't know why the fuck he 

1318
01:12:14,320 --> 01:12:17,280
came into my head, but he came 
into my mind and how. 

1319
01:12:17,280 --> 01:12:20,480
He just alive anymore. 
He's not alive anymore. 

1320
01:12:20,920 --> 01:12:23,400
That's. 
I don't think him or Britney 

1321
01:12:23,400 --> 01:12:28,440
Spears. 
Girl girl, girl girl girl. 

1322
01:12:28,640 --> 01:12:33,080
Oh my God. 
Okay, so first episode of the 

1323
01:12:33,080 --> 01:12:36,520
podcast, shout out Alex serves. 
We deep dive on the Britney 

1324
01:12:36,520 --> 01:12:38,240
Spears thing. 
Oh my God. 

1325
01:12:38,920 --> 01:12:41,760
Britney's gone, if y'all haven't
learned that from season 5 of my

1326
01:12:41,760 --> 01:12:44,320
fucking podcast. 
Britney is not alive anymore 

1327
01:12:44,320 --> 01:12:47,480
ever since I started telling 
people about that episode coming

1328
01:12:47,480 --> 01:12:49,520
out. 
And so the reason I had found 

1329
01:12:49,520 --> 01:12:53,480
Alex on TikTok is because when 
the Free Britney movement was 

1330
01:12:53,480 --> 01:12:57,400
happening, she was making a lot 
of Britney content before they 

1331
01:12:57,400 --> 01:13:00,600
came out with that Britney like 
podcast where they were like 

1332
01:13:00,600 --> 01:13:05,480
dissecting her post in her 
comments and stuff before she 

1333
01:13:05,480 --> 01:13:08,760
turned off her comments, before 
the conservatorship had ended, 

1334
01:13:09,600 --> 01:13:14,000
Alex was making Britney content.
And what's fucked up is me and 

1335
01:13:14,000 --> 01:13:17,000
Alex have really bonded on the 
fact that we know we were like 

1336
01:13:17,000 --> 01:13:18,680
at the Salem witch trials 
together. 

1337
01:13:19,080 --> 01:13:21,120
And so we were bonding over 
that. 

1338
01:13:21,120 --> 01:13:26,800
And then Britney was coming to 
me in a, in this really just 

1339
01:13:26,960 --> 01:13:29,640
abrupt way. 
And then I was telling Alex 

1340
01:13:29,640 --> 01:13:33,600
about it. 
And then I go to a, a comedy 

1341
01:13:33,600 --> 01:13:37,720
show the other day, just like 
the other day, and the comedian 

1342
01:13:38,040 --> 01:13:41,200
is like beatboxing and he goes, 
it's Britney bitch. 

1343
01:13:41,920 --> 01:13:44,040
Out of the blue. 
I look at my cousin, 'cause I'm 

1344
01:13:44,040 --> 01:13:47,200
there with him and I had told 
him about this and he just, his 

1345
01:13:47,200 --> 01:13:49,560
eyes got real big and he's like,
what the fuck? 

1346
01:13:49,960 --> 01:13:54,080
So then the next night we go to 
a concert, we go to a concert, 

1347
01:13:54,080 --> 01:13:57,600
an Everclear concert. 
They literally are like a pop 

1348
01:13:57,600 --> 01:14:01,560
alternative or a pop punk 
alternative band from the 90s. 

1349
01:14:01,560 --> 01:14:03,800
Like went to an Everclear 
concert. 

1350
01:14:03,800 --> 01:14:09,200
They had some openers, the 
opener, I shit you fucking not, 

1351
01:14:09,480 --> 01:14:11,840
literally covered baby one more 
time. 

1352
01:14:12,480 --> 01:14:15,720
Oh my God. 
The very next days, the same day

1353
01:14:15,720 --> 01:14:19,720
the podcast had came out, like 
they the very first episode of 

1354
01:14:19,720 --> 01:14:24,000
the season with a guest. 
And so I was with my cousin 

1355
01:14:24,000 --> 01:14:25,640
again and I'm like, what the 
fuck? 

1356
01:14:25,640 --> 01:14:28,760
You can't deny that what I told 
you about Brittany no longer 

1357
01:14:28,760 --> 01:14:31,400
being here because he doesn't 
believe me. 

1358
01:14:31,400 --> 01:14:34,520
Like he doesn't subject to like 
the conspiracies about 

1359
01:14:34,520 --> 01:14:36,200
celebrities. 
Like he doesn't think that 

1360
01:14:36,200 --> 01:14:39,080
people are being cloned and he 
doesn't believe. 

1361
01:14:39,080 --> 01:14:43,760
He thinks some celebrities just 
get tired, want to go no and all

1362
01:14:43,760 --> 01:14:45,840
this shit. 
And I'm like, I'm not sure about

1363
01:14:45,840 --> 01:14:48,840
all that, but. 
Girl, you know what's what's 

1364
01:14:48,840 --> 01:14:51,560
fucking crazy out of fucking 
nowhere. 

1365
01:14:51,560 --> 01:14:55,040
I don't know if it was like 3 
weeks ago or almost a month ago 

1366
01:14:55,040 --> 01:14:59,480
at this point I was doing my 
hair and I get a random fucking 

1367
01:14:59,480 --> 01:15:03,200
download telling me that Britney
Spears is dead and I'm like why 

1368
01:15:03,200 --> 01:15:06,680
the fuck am I getting this? 
So then I asked my cards and I 

1369
01:15:06,680 --> 01:15:09,880
got that either she's about to 
die or she was already dead. 

1370
01:15:10,480 --> 01:15:14,880
And then I just said, OK Spirit,
if she's really dead, then the 

1371
01:15:14,880 --> 01:15:17,960
next song that's going to play 
on my Spotify shuffle is going 

1372
01:15:17,960 --> 01:15:20,800
to be a Britney Spears song and 
then a fucking Britney Spears 

1373
01:15:20,800 --> 01:15:23,680
song played. 
So then I texted my friends and 

1374
01:15:23,680 --> 01:15:26,480
I'm like, guys, I'm getting 
downloads that Britney Spears is

1375
01:15:26,720 --> 01:15:30,880
going to be next to die because 
we just had Hulk Hogan die and 

1376
01:15:31,000 --> 01:15:34,520
Ozzy Osbourne die. 
And we were saying that they're 

1377
01:15:34,520 --> 01:15:38,280
both fire signs and Britney 
Spears is a Sagittarius and 

1378
01:15:38,280 --> 01:15:41,680
maybe she's next. 
So we, we went on this rabbit 

1379
01:15:41,680 --> 01:15:43,840
hole about it. 
And my friend told me, you know 

1380
01:15:43,840 --> 01:15:46,120
what's weird? 
I just went to Vegas recently 

1381
01:15:46,280 --> 01:15:48,720
and they never played Britney 
Spears at the clubs. 

1382
01:15:48,720 --> 01:15:52,000
But then they started playing 
one of her songs out of nowhere 

1383
01:15:52,360 --> 01:15:54,360
and she goes, and now you're 
texting me this shit. 

1384
01:15:54,920 --> 01:15:57,960
And I'm so set on it that I even
made a fucking post about it. 

1385
01:15:58,240 --> 01:16:02,760
Like, and I never post about 
like tarot readings about 

1386
01:16:02,760 --> 01:16:06,440
celebrities and stuff like that 
or like predictions, but I was 

1387
01:16:06,440 --> 01:16:09,760
so inclined to post it. 
Mark my fucking words, 

1388
01:16:09,760 --> 01:16:13,200
something's going to come out 
because I don't know why I was 

1389
01:16:13,200 --> 01:16:16,400
getting that download. 
You know, I'm telling you what's

1390
01:16:16,400 --> 01:16:22,240
so crazy is shout out Brittany. 
But when I first started my 

1391
01:16:22,240 --> 01:16:25,760
spiritual journey and like, I 
have been a medium my whole 

1392
01:16:25,760 --> 01:16:28,400
life, but like, I didn't know 
how to really harness it or 

1393
01:16:28,400 --> 01:16:30,200
channel it. 
But I've been hearing voices 

1394
01:16:30,440 --> 01:16:33,640
channeling fucking a lot of shit
my whole life. 

1395
01:16:33,920 --> 01:16:37,440
And that's why I did drugs and 
like numb things out as a child 

1396
01:16:37,440 --> 01:16:39,440
and drank and partied and 
whatever. 

1397
01:16:39,760 --> 01:16:43,680
And so like with Brittany, the 
thing that me and Alex were 

1398
01:16:43,680 --> 01:16:47,400
touching on in our, you know, 
deep dive on that is like the 

1399
01:16:47,400 --> 01:16:51,640
fact that we grew up with 
Brittany, you included. 

1400
01:16:51,640 --> 01:16:55,920
You can't tell me shit was not 
this way. 

1401
01:16:55,920 --> 01:16:58,160
Like the microphone, you can't 
tell me it wasn't there. 

1402
01:16:58,160 --> 01:17:01,600
Bitch, I did it for Halloween. 
The skirt, you can't tell me she

1403
01:17:01,600 --> 01:17:05,000
didn't have a Plaid skirt on. 
You can't tell me that every 

1404
01:17:05,000 --> 01:17:07,560
girl that dressed as a 
schoolgirl for the next 10 to 20

1405
01:17:07,560 --> 01:17:10,720
years for Halloween did not wear
a Plaid skirt because they did. 

1406
01:17:10,720 --> 01:17:14,800
Like the facts is like all of 
these changes and mandala 

1407
01:17:14,800 --> 01:17:17,280
effects. 
I really do think our social 

1408
01:17:17,280 --> 01:17:21,040
experiments, I think they are 
active participation from this 

1409
01:17:21,040 --> 01:17:25,120
system that we are all 
consenting to, to in some way, 

1410
01:17:25,120 --> 01:17:27,480
shape or form. 
And I do think that Britney's 

1411
01:17:27,480 --> 01:17:32,720
consciousness has been siphoned 
and completely like erased. 

1412
01:17:33,000 --> 01:17:36,440
I think that Britney Spears and 
the person that we see on those 

1413
01:17:36,440 --> 01:17:38,600
videos is not her. 
That's not her. 

1414
01:17:38,600 --> 01:17:41,000
That's not her at all. 
Not that I don't think that I 

1415
01:17:41,000 --> 01:17:45,320
know that's not her, but I don't
think she's a lot just like that

1416
01:17:45,320 --> 01:17:49,480
Sam guy, like I talked about 
this, but he, I never watch game

1417
01:17:49,480 --> 01:17:50,960
shows. 
I never watch TV. 

1418
01:17:51,400 --> 01:17:56,000
Randomly every three months I'll
find it a show and I'll watch it

1419
01:17:56,000 --> 01:18:00,440
and that'll be the end of it. 
Well, I had, I'd picked up a 

1420
01:18:00,440 --> 01:18:02,760
celebrity client, which is what 
led me to the show. 

1421
01:18:03,000 --> 01:18:04,960
I didn't know that she was on 
the fucking show though. 

1422
01:18:04,960 --> 01:18:07,520
So I started watching the show. 
Then I found out Sam was on the 

1423
01:18:07,520 --> 01:18:11,080
same season that she was on Sam 
Brittany's ex-husband. 

1424
01:18:11,400 --> 01:18:14,400
So I'm like, what in the world 
is going on My clients on the 

1425
01:18:14,400 --> 01:18:18,280
show never watch the show, never
ever watch game shows, never 

1426
01:18:18,280 --> 01:18:21,680
watch Hulu, the whole story. 
Now Sam's on here, so I'm like 

1427
01:18:21,680 --> 01:18:24,720
Brittany is coming through once 
again, because I already told 

1428
01:18:24,800 --> 01:18:28,040
like anytime I get a high 
profile client, I don't speak on

1429
01:18:28,040 --> 01:18:31,040
them, but when I get one, it's 
like a inner child healing 

1430
01:18:31,040 --> 01:18:35,400
because like you're being seen 
by someone who a million 

1431
01:18:35,400 --> 01:18:38,880
quatrillion people just wish 
they would just look their way, 

1432
01:18:38,880 --> 01:18:45,800
spit whatever it is, you know. 
So like this show, I never I 

1433
01:18:45,800 --> 01:18:47,880
didn't even know that she was on
the show. 

1434
01:18:47,880 --> 01:18:51,920
So it was like, I turn it on and
Sam's on there and I'm like, 

1435
01:18:51,920 --> 01:18:55,040
what the fuck? 
So like this Britney thing keeps

1436
01:18:55,040 --> 01:18:58,160
coming up and it keeps being 
confirmation of people, 

1437
01:18:58,440 --> 01:19:02,360
practitioners, psychics, medium 
saying the same fucking thing. 

1438
01:19:02,360 --> 01:19:04,320
Like we all know Britney is 
gone. 

1439
01:19:04,640 --> 01:19:07,760
But like, what is the social 
experiment around Britney? 

1440
01:19:07,920 --> 01:19:12,520
Like, what is it that they want 
millennials or people in this 

1441
01:19:12,520 --> 01:19:16,920
age range to like be confused 
about when it comes to Britney 

1442
01:19:16,920 --> 01:19:19,200
Spears? 
Because what I don't understand 

1443
01:19:19,200 --> 01:19:22,880
is how Lindsay Lohan and Paris 
Hilton were all in the same era.

1444
01:19:22,880 --> 01:19:26,840
Britney being more famous, more 
successful, more, more 

1445
01:19:26,840 --> 01:19:29,880
everything than them. 
But look how they've bounced 

1446
01:19:29,880 --> 01:19:33,040
back like clones. 
And then we've got Britney 

1447
01:19:33,040 --> 01:19:35,320
locked in a cage for years on 
end. 

1448
01:19:35,520 --> 01:19:39,200
Same thing with Amanda Bynes. 
But like, where the fuck is the 

1449
01:19:39,200 --> 01:19:42,960
real version of them? 
Because that girl that we see on

1450
01:19:42,960 --> 01:19:47,760
Britney's Instagram, I think is 
AI or is something else like I 

1451
01:19:47,760 --> 01:19:50,000
think it's someone with a 
Britney filter on and they just 

1452
01:19:50,000 --> 01:19:53,120
look like a crackhead or just it
this makes them look like a 

1453
01:19:53,120 --> 01:19:54,520
crackhead because that's not 
Britney. 

1454
01:19:54,520 --> 01:19:58,960
Like plus like why would it 
Britney Jean Spears of all 

1455
01:19:58,960 --> 01:20:01,240
fucking people, Why wouldn't she
get a manicure? 

1456
01:20:01,440 --> 01:20:03,760
Why wouldn't she get her makeup 
done? 

1457
01:20:03,960 --> 01:20:06,600
Why wouldn't she have a makeup 
artist or a hair stylist or 

1458
01:20:06,600 --> 01:20:09,040
someone? 
Why? 

1459
01:20:09,200 --> 01:20:15,640
Why wouldn't she? 
You know, just me personally, I 

1460
01:20:15,640 --> 01:20:18,680
feel like our generation 
millennials. 

1461
01:20:18,720 --> 01:20:20,240
You're a millennial, right? 
Yeah. 

1462
01:20:20,840 --> 01:20:23,920
Yeah. 
I think we are catalysts because

1463
01:20:23,920 --> 01:20:27,920
when we look at our parents, our
grandparents, they didn't do a 

1464
01:20:27,920 --> 01:20:31,680
lot of the things that we 
started doing with technology 

1465
01:20:31,680 --> 01:20:35,400
that like I think during our 
generation is when Google 

1466
01:20:35,400 --> 01:20:37,720
started, correct. 
Yeah, so. 

1467
01:20:38,480 --> 01:20:43,680
And I think like I was born, 
Google came out in like 96 or 

1468
01:20:43,680 --> 01:20:47,520
something like that. 
Yeah, either 90 or 2006. 

1469
01:20:47,520 --> 01:20:52,560
So our generation is a catalyst 
and I think what they want to do

1470
01:20:52,840 --> 01:20:58,720
is program us to dim ourselves 
and forget how powerful we are. 

1471
01:20:59,120 --> 01:21:03,560
Because where we're headed with 
AI and the way the world is 

1472
01:21:03,560 --> 01:21:09,280
changing, we can change that 
with our brain power, with our 

1473
01:21:09,280 --> 01:21:12,120
skills, because we're, we, we're
different. 

1474
01:21:12,120 --> 01:21:14,440
We're the generation that 
started a lot of things that our

1475
01:21:14,440 --> 01:21:16,440
parents didn't start. 
And I think they want us to 

1476
01:21:16,440 --> 01:21:19,440
forget that cuz Brittany was a 
fucking icon. 

1477
01:21:19,440 --> 01:21:23,600
And now it's like she's looked 
at us crazy and psycho and 

1478
01:21:24,160 --> 01:21:27,000
whatever, drug addicts. 
And I think that's what they 

1479
01:21:27,040 --> 01:21:29,200
want us to think, that we're not
powerful. 

1480
01:21:29,520 --> 01:21:33,200
I feel like the Britney thing is
about control. 

1481
01:21:33,200 --> 01:21:37,120
I feel like it's also a 
representation of a humiliation 

1482
01:21:37,120 --> 01:21:40,560
ritual, an energy harvest. 
Yeah, way of being. 

1483
01:21:40,560 --> 01:21:43,440
Like if you don't play the game,
this is what will happen to you.

1484
01:21:43,840 --> 01:21:46,440
Yeah. 
Because all she did was spiral 

1485
01:21:46,440 --> 01:21:49,280
out and like shave her head. 
Look at all these other people 

1486
01:21:49,280 --> 01:21:52,400
that have done crazier shit. 
I really do like this all 

1487
01:21:52,400 --> 01:21:53,800
started because the Kanye West 
thing. 

1488
01:21:53,800 --> 01:21:57,080
I also, I also feel the same 
about Kanye because when I first

1489
01:21:57,080 --> 01:22:01,280
started my spiritual journey, 
I'm not a Kanye fan, but when I 

1490
01:22:01,280 --> 01:22:04,000
first started my spiritual 
journey, I really started 

1491
01:22:04,000 --> 01:22:07,200
connecting with artists that I 
wasn't necessarily a super fan 

1492
01:22:07,200 --> 01:22:10,840
of like Little Peep and 
different people who had passed 

1493
01:22:10,840 --> 01:22:13,800
or like overdose or like quote 
UN quote, like whatever. 

1494
01:22:13,800 --> 01:22:17,880
And then blew up after they died
and someone's capping, just 

1495
01:22:17,880 --> 01:22:20,320
straight capping in on their 
fucking estate. 

1496
01:22:20,840 --> 01:22:23,800
And it makes you wonder like, 
why was little Peep like not 

1497
01:22:23,800 --> 01:22:26,040
famous at all? 
Then the moment that he 

1498
01:22:26,040 --> 01:22:29,280
overdosed, quote UN quote, he's 
super famous. 

1499
01:22:29,280 --> 01:22:31,920
Well, like I would channel these
people, they would come to me 

1500
01:22:32,160 --> 01:22:34,720
and they would just straight up 
be like, yeah, I was murdered or

1501
01:22:34,720 --> 01:22:38,440
like, yeah, I was set up or like
eat like Kurt is like been my 

1502
01:22:38,440 --> 01:22:41,240
long time. 
Like Peep like that's like my 

1503
01:22:41,240 --> 01:22:43,480
main guy. 
Whenever I like used to channel 

1504
01:22:43,480 --> 01:22:46,200
and meditate and just be like, I
didn't have a fucking client 

1505
01:22:46,200 --> 01:22:48,040
inside, right? 
Like I didn't have no one 

1506
01:22:48,040 --> 01:22:50,920
insight. 
Like I was just me and it was 

1507
01:22:50,920 --> 01:22:54,080
like, you know, I look back at 
that and like some of those 

1508
01:22:54,120 --> 01:22:58,440
messages and things like have 
really shaped where I'm at and 

1509
01:22:58,440 --> 01:23:03,040
like where I was going and where
like, it's, you know, hindsight 

1510
01:23:03,040 --> 01:23:04,640
now. 
But like now I have a ton of 

1511
01:23:04,640 --> 01:23:08,000
musician clients and like like 
real life clients or you know 

1512
01:23:08,000 --> 01:23:09,600
what I mean? 
Like, so it's just weird. 

1513
01:23:09,600 --> 01:23:11,360
Like the universally does align 
you. 

1514
01:23:11,360 --> 01:23:14,480
But like, I don't know, the 
obsession, my obsession with 

1515
01:23:14,480 --> 01:23:18,640
Britney Spears not being alive 
is coming from a sense of why 

1516
01:23:18,640 --> 01:23:23,720
the fuck are you lying to me and
my face and making me like, you 

1517
01:23:23,720 --> 01:23:26,320
know, like, and I also am 
convinced that like millennials,

1518
01:23:26,320 --> 01:23:28,680
they just convinced all of us to
hate our bodies. 

1519
01:23:28,680 --> 01:23:32,840
All of us have body dysmorphia 
and all of us in some way have a

1520
01:23:32,840 --> 01:23:36,920
depression form of something 
like in some way. 

1521
01:23:37,840 --> 01:23:39,280
Some kind of mental health 
issue. 

1522
01:23:39,280 --> 01:23:41,960
Yeah. 
And that goes back to what I'm 

1523
01:23:41,960 --> 01:23:43,960
saying. 
They want to dim our light like 

1524
01:23:43,960 --> 01:23:46,800
we're catalysts. 
Our entire generation as a whole

1525
01:23:46,800 --> 01:23:50,920
has been catalystic in some way 
compared to other generations, 

1526
01:23:50,920 --> 01:23:55,600
and they want us to forget that.
So they want us to think that 

1527
01:23:55,600 --> 01:23:59,800
we're ugly or overweight or 
incapable on some level, 

1528
01:23:59,800 --> 01:24:02,280
mentally, emotionally, 
physically, whatever. 

1529
01:24:02,880 --> 01:24:05,560
That's what they want. 
It's, it's control, like you 

1530
01:24:05,560 --> 01:24:09,080
said. 
And, and it bleeds into 

1531
01:24:09,440 --> 01:24:13,520
celebrities because that's who 
we see all the time, like on TV,

1532
01:24:13,520 --> 01:24:15,880
on social media. 
So that's a physical 

1533
01:24:15,880 --> 01:24:19,880
manifestation of what the 
program, the government, whoever

1534
01:24:19,880 --> 01:24:24,400
is in charge of this planet is 
trying to do to our generation 

1535
01:24:24,840 --> 01:24:29,840
and to human beings as a whole. 
You know, like they talk about 

1536
01:24:29,840 --> 01:24:32,920
it and I've spoke on this 
before, but like a lot of 

1537
01:24:32,920 --> 01:24:38,040
artists that have like came in 
and out of like the rap and R&B 

1538
01:24:38,040 --> 01:24:43,800
culture or like game talk about 
like the rap to prison pipeline.

1539
01:24:44,080 --> 01:24:47,400
And they get paid more if they 
rap about things that are like 

1540
01:24:47,720 --> 01:24:51,080
not above board, you know what I
mean? 

1541
01:24:51,080 --> 01:24:55,880
Like stealing and, and robbing 
people and like, you know, 

1542
01:24:56,880 --> 01:25:00,240
whatever it may be. 
And what's crazy is like there 

1543
01:25:00,240 --> 01:25:05,040
are a whole generation of people
who have lost the, the family 

1544
01:25:05,040 --> 01:25:09,280
unit over the last 50 years. 
And that's what's really 

1545
01:25:09,280 --> 01:25:12,640
destroyed our society is like 
we're moving the family unit. 

1546
01:25:12,960 --> 01:25:16,160
And I watched a documentary one 
time that was talking about like

1547
01:25:16,200 --> 01:25:20,200
back in like the 70s, they went 
into like low income areas and 

1548
01:25:20,200 --> 01:25:23,280
all they needed to do was get a 
couple people hooked on drugs. 

1549
01:25:23,680 --> 01:25:26,280
Because then it would remove a 
lot of like the men or the 

1550
01:25:26,280 --> 01:25:30,720
mentors or the people from the 
community space and it would 

1551
01:25:30,720 --> 01:25:32,840
leave children and women 
vulnerable. 

1552
01:25:33,160 --> 01:25:36,080
That was like the whole method. 
It was the government that did 

1553
01:25:36,080 --> 01:25:38,120
that. 
And it was the government. 

1554
01:25:38,440 --> 01:25:44,400
So, you know, I personally feel 
like this is what I feel like 

1555
01:25:44,600 --> 01:25:49,560
this reality is on a like a 
screen of some sort, holographic

1556
01:25:49,560 --> 01:25:52,080
screen, probably in another 
dimension. 

1557
01:25:52,240 --> 01:25:56,000
We are on a season of something.
Yeah, we are. 

1558
01:25:56,360 --> 01:26:00,280
I also know this. 
We are not in 2025. 

1559
01:26:00,640 --> 01:26:04,760
We are more in like the 16 to 15
ish range. 

1560
01:26:04,760 --> 01:26:06,680
Like we're hundreds of years 
backwards. 

1561
01:26:06,680 --> 01:26:09,800
They just like somewhere in 
there just inserted 300 years. 

1562
01:26:09,800 --> 01:26:12,360
I don't know where the fuck they
did it, but they did a few 

1563
01:26:12,360 --> 01:26:16,200
different times and they talk 
about that some kings and people

1564
01:26:16,520 --> 01:26:19,440
did that when they didn't have 
an heir to their bloodline. 

1565
01:26:19,440 --> 01:26:23,280
They would just change the 
timeline in different ways so. 

1566
01:26:24,080 --> 01:26:26,600
I did not know that. 
Yeah, there's a lot of wisdom 

1567
01:26:26,760 --> 01:26:29,280
that like, I'll be like 
gathering from the Akashic 

1568
01:26:29,280 --> 01:26:32,880
records or just randomly like I 
didn't make it up and I didn't 

1569
01:26:32,880 --> 01:26:36,040
read it anywhere because like, I
kind of didn't. 

1570
01:26:36,520 --> 01:26:38,920
I would blur the lines of where 
I got the information. 

1571
01:26:38,920 --> 01:26:41,920
So then I stopped consuming 
information and I was still 

1572
01:26:41,920 --> 01:26:44,200
getting the same amount of 
information and I stopped 

1573
01:26:44,200 --> 01:26:46,360
sharing it. 
I stopped reading and I stopped 

1574
01:26:46,360 --> 01:26:49,400
consuming all at the same time. 
And then I was still getting 

1575
01:26:49,400 --> 01:26:53,560
just as much information. 
So like, I don't know, I feel 

1576
01:26:53,560 --> 01:26:58,640
like my gifts have expanded far 
beyond just like greeting other 

1577
01:26:58,640 --> 01:27:01,680
people and things like that. 
Even though I love doing those 

1578
01:27:01,680 --> 01:27:04,760
things. 
It's like it is an energy drain 

1579
01:27:05,080 --> 01:27:10,680
in most cases when people what I
want to say, like they want you 

1580
01:27:10,680 --> 01:27:13,760
to prove something to them or 
like they already know the 

1581
01:27:13,800 --> 01:27:16,200
answer, but they're trying to 
get a different answer from you.

1582
01:27:16,200 --> 01:27:18,800
Like I don't really like you 
already know the answer. 

1583
01:27:18,800 --> 01:27:20,360
Like why are you wasting your 
money? 

1584
01:27:20,360 --> 01:27:24,080
Like, because I can feel like I 
love getting a client who's 

1585
01:27:24,080 --> 01:27:29,360
excited and like, open and ready
for the message, but there's 

1586
01:27:29,360 --> 01:27:32,640
some people that book and 
they're just wanting a certain 

1587
01:27:32,640 --> 01:27:35,760
message that maybe like they 
already kind of like, are hoping

1588
01:27:35,760 --> 01:27:37,840
for. 
And like you were mentioning 

1589
01:27:37,840 --> 01:27:40,400
love readings earlier. 
I used to do a ton of love 

1590
01:27:40,400 --> 01:27:42,480
readings and a lot of it came 
from TikTok. 

1591
01:27:42,840 --> 01:27:45,440
And I was thinking about that 
earlier about how busy I used to

1592
01:27:45,440 --> 01:27:48,600
be with those love readings. 
But those were some of the most 

1593
01:27:48,600 --> 01:27:51,000
draining readings. 
And they were all, yeah, they 

1594
01:27:51,040 --> 01:27:54,120
were draining as fuck because 
you have to be careful what you 

1595
01:27:54,120 --> 01:27:57,360
say to clients like that because
you don't want someone to like 

1596
01:27:57,440 --> 01:27:59,520
spiral out. 
But I also don't want someone 

1597
01:27:59,520 --> 01:28:01,560
running back to a toxic 
situation. 

1598
01:28:01,840 --> 01:28:05,840
So I've had someone book a love 
reading and be like, look, I'm 

1599
01:28:05,840 --> 01:28:08,880
upgrading this to a higher self 
reading cuz that's not what you 

1600
01:28:08,880 --> 01:28:10,440
need. 
Like and give a look. 

1601
01:28:10,480 --> 01:28:12,520
Exactly. 
Yeah, no. 

1602
01:28:12,760 --> 01:28:16,800
I totally get it, I it is 
draining to get someone booked 

1603
01:28:16,800 --> 01:28:20,280
with you about the same dude or 
the same girl. 

1604
01:28:20,280 --> 01:28:23,960
And it's like we read about the 
same person a month ago. 

1605
01:28:23,960 --> 01:28:27,360
They have not changed. 
I don't know what you want me to

1606
01:28:27,360 --> 01:28:29,240
tell me to tell you this time 
around. 

1607
01:28:30,280 --> 01:28:32,160
Like I want to talk about shadow
work. 

1608
01:28:32,160 --> 01:28:34,480
I want to talk about your 
childhood. 

1609
01:28:34,480 --> 01:28:37,640
How can we heal you so we can 
align you to the right person? 

1610
01:28:37,640 --> 01:28:39,440
How about that? 
Let's talk about where your 

1611
01:28:39,440 --> 01:28:43,760
money's headed or what patterns 
are you repeating so that you 

1612
01:28:43,760 --> 01:28:45,760
can get out of something like 
this. 

1613
01:28:46,320 --> 01:28:48,280
Like that's what I want to talk 
about. 

1614
01:28:48,280 --> 01:28:51,200
But I'm very honest with my 
clients and I tell them like 

1615
01:28:51,200 --> 01:28:54,360
straight up what's going on. 
I don't sugarcoat. 

1616
01:28:54,600 --> 01:28:59,320
I try to deliver it from a place
of compassion because I don't 

1617
01:28:59,320 --> 01:29:03,720
want them to feel like if I'm 
yelling at them or like telling 

1618
01:29:03,720 --> 01:29:05,160
them, are you stupid or 
something? 

1619
01:29:05,160 --> 01:29:08,600
No, like I'm like, you know, 
he's not for you For these 

1620
01:29:08,600 --> 01:29:11,640
reasons. 
And yeah, I'm just getting to a 

1621
01:29:11,640 --> 01:29:13,240
point where I'm tired of the 
love readings. 

1622
01:29:13,240 --> 01:29:16,280
It's not for me. 
I'm all about healing, 

1623
01:29:16,440 --> 01:29:20,640
empowerment, and moving forward.
I feel like there's just there's

1624
01:29:20,640 --> 01:29:23,360
like the pipeline we're we're 
moving along with pipeline. 

1625
01:29:23,360 --> 01:29:27,880
It really is like, and honestly,
that's what pushed me away from 

1626
01:29:27,880 --> 01:29:32,160
doing content on TikTok because 
I was, I'm so niched in that now

1627
01:29:32,160 --> 01:29:36,880
I'm in the 300 view graveyard 
because my niche of followers, 

1628
01:29:36,880 --> 01:29:40,600
the people who followed me like 
they wanted like love readings, 

1629
01:29:40,600 --> 01:29:44,040
twin flame reading, wanted me to
tell them their toxic ex was 

1630
01:29:44,280 --> 01:29:48,080
thinking about them or whatever.
But the one thing I will say is 

1631
01:29:48,080 --> 01:29:52,560
back then, I really would 
meditate and really would like 

1632
01:29:52,680 --> 01:29:56,000
clock in on the collective and I
would not just zoom in on like 

1633
01:29:56,000 --> 01:29:58,120
toxicity. 
Like my readings were super 

1634
01:29:58,120 --> 01:30:01,440
empowering. 
And I feel that's what the 

1635
01:30:01,440 --> 01:30:06,160
evolution is, is like, you know,
I got a lot of practice with the

1636
01:30:06,160 --> 01:30:09,680
love readings and like 
connecting with those videos and

1637
01:30:09,680 --> 01:30:13,440
posting like multiple videos a 
day and the excitement of like 

1638
01:30:13,440 --> 01:30:15,920
when they would get like, you 
know, I remember one of my 

1639
01:30:15,920 --> 01:30:18,960
videos got like 20,000 likes and
I thought I was like, just hot 

1640
01:30:18,960 --> 01:30:21,200
shit, you know, I was like, Oh 
my gosh, this is so cool. 

1641
01:30:21,560 --> 01:30:25,560
But like, you know, there's so 
much that goes along with making

1642
01:30:25,680 --> 01:30:30,080
constant contact with the 
collective and that energy. 

1643
01:30:30,360 --> 01:30:33,480
And it just really is something 
that like, I miss sometimes. 

1644
01:30:33,640 --> 01:30:35,640
And then I'll be like, I'm going
to start making a monthly 

1645
01:30:35,640 --> 01:30:37,720
YouTube video and I have yet to 
do it. 

1646
01:30:38,080 --> 01:30:40,160
And then when YouTube started to
talk about they're going to take

1647
01:30:40,160 --> 01:30:43,240
people's ID's, I'm like, yeah, 
you got me so fucked up over 

1648
01:30:43,240 --> 01:30:44,800
here. 
Like no. 

1649
01:30:44,920 --> 01:30:47,160
What do you mean they're going 
to take people's ID's? 

1650
01:30:47,520 --> 01:30:51,000
I haven't heard of that. 
Supposedly see I'm on like weird

1651
01:30:51,000 --> 01:30:55,720
conspiracy TikTok. 
So supposedly Spotify and 

1652
01:30:55,720 --> 01:30:58,560
YouTube has like tried to 
announce that they're 

1653
01:30:58,560 --> 01:31:00,760
considering or they are going to
do it. 

1654
01:31:00,760 --> 01:31:04,200
I don't know which one it is 
that they're gonna consider, 

1655
01:31:04,280 --> 01:31:08,840
like having an AI program 
basically scan your account over

1656
01:31:08,840 --> 01:31:11,240
time and if they think that 
you're underage, you have to 

1657
01:31:11,240 --> 01:31:13,120
upload your ID or they're gonna 
lock your account. 

1658
01:31:13,960 --> 01:31:17,000
Oh, whatever, they're just 
coming up with that excuse 

1659
01:31:17,000 --> 01:31:20,000
'cause. 
They want your scary because 

1660
01:31:20,000 --> 01:31:21,960
they could. 
If it's an AI thing then it 

1661
01:31:21,960 --> 01:31:25,280
could literally be anyone. 
And I've literally had my same 

1662
01:31:25,280 --> 01:31:28,000
YouTube for like, I don't know a
really long time. 

1663
01:31:28,000 --> 01:31:33,520
So like, I don't know, like, you
know, but a lot of these 

1664
01:31:33,520 --> 01:31:37,800
platforms, I really do wish they
would make them like so stupid 

1665
01:31:37,800 --> 01:31:40,360
to be on. 
So we would all stop and then go

1666
01:31:40,360 --> 01:31:46,280
back to like communication in 
person because I really see 

1667
01:31:46,280 --> 01:31:51,120
people in person who look like 
cool or whatever. 

1668
01:31:51,120 --> 01:31:53,760
And like I'm very like, I'll 
approach people because I'm 

1669
01:31:53,760 --> 01:31:56,840
always giving out stickers for 
the podcast or cards. 

1670
01:31:57,480 --> 01:31:59,440
Like I'm always giving stickers 
away. 

1671
01:31:59,440 --> 01:32:01,720
And like I've learned that if 
you give away badass like 

1672
01:32:01,720 --> 01:32:05,920
metallic big stickers, people 
will take your card and they 

1673
01:32:05,920 --> 01:32:09,040
smile and they even thank you. 
Sometimes I'm like, thanks. 

1674
01:32:10,240 --> 01:32:12,880
Like they're so excited. 
But I do spend a lot of money on

1675
01:32:12,880 --> 01:32:15,400
stickers and not just give them 
to everyone I see. 

1676
01:32:15,760 --> 01:32:18,480
But like with that being said, 
like there's so many cool people

1677
01:32:18,480 --> 01:32:20,800
out in the world that like 
they're not talking to each 

1678
01:32:20,800 --> 01:32:24,160
other, you know what I mean? 
Yep, exactly. 

1679
01:32:24,880 --> 01:32:27,760
It's because when you're posting
content, you're putting yourself

1680
01:32:27,760 --> 01:32:30,480
out there, you putting in the 
effort and you're creating your 

1681
01:32:30,480 --> 01:32:33,760
tribe. 
But if you're living, I guess, a

1682
01:32:33,760 --> 01:32:37,440
life different from a content 
creator working a nine to five 

1683
01:32:37,440 --> 01:32:41,320
and then going home to your 
wife, husband or kids, you're 

1684
01:32:41,320 --> 01:32:44,720
not giving yourself the 
opportunity to meet people that 

1685
01:32:44,720 --> 01:32:47,560
are aligned with you. 
So unless they come across 

1686
01:32:47,560 --> 01:32:52,440
Someone Like You that just shows
up and opens up to them, they're

1687
01:32:52,440 --> 01:32:55,080
never going to find people like 
that because people are shy. 

1688
01:32:55,080 --> 01:32:59,720
Especially nowadays with AI and 
the constant online and social 

1689
01:32:59,720 --> 01:33:02,480
media communication, people are 
forgetting how to talk in 

1690
01:33:02,480 --> 01:33:05,640
person. 
I had to add a service on my 

1691
01:33:05,640 --> 01:33:10,480
site for a text only tarot 
reading because there's people 

1692
01:33:10,480 --> 01:33:16,040
that get so shy to do a live 
tarot reading on the phone or by

1693
01:33:16,040 --> 01:33:18,840
Zoom or whatever, they get 
really shy. 

1694
01:33:19,360 --> 01:33:22,080
So I had to add that as a 
service and I'm like, wow, I 

1695
01:33:22,080 --> 01:33:24,360
never would have thought I would
have to add something like this.

1696
01:33:24,360 --> 01:33:26,680
And I got that idea from a 
client because she's like, I'm 

1697
01:33:26,680 --> 01:33:29,480
really shy. 
Can I just text you on here like

1698
01:33:29,480 --> 01:33:31,760
on Instagram? 
And I was like, what? 

1699
01:33:31,960 --> 01:33:34,280
Like she's shy to speak on the 
phone. 

1700
01:33:34,520 --> 01:33:37,200
Like I've never heard of that, 
but that's what it is like 

1701
01:33:37,200 --> 01:33:39,240
today. 
I know, and it's honestly. 

1702
01:33:39,280 --> 01:33:41,760
Crazy. 
Feel like they've like really 

1703
01:33:41,760 --> 01:33:44,600
alienated people. 
I think, yeah, people are more 

1704
01:33:44,600 --> 01:33:49,000
depressed because we are 
isolating and that what is truly

1705
01:33:49,000 --> 01:33:51,960
what we need is community. 
And which is why, like, sitting 

1706
01:33:51,960 --> 01:33:54,600
down and being able to talk to 
someone and like, just like 

1707
01:33:54,600 --> 01:33:58,520
yourself and be able to connect 
is so important. 

1708
01:33:58,520 --> 01:34:01,800
And like, that's for the 
audience now is because everyone

1709
01:34:01,800 --> 01:34:05,000
is like loving the guest. 
So I'm just so grateful. 

1710
01:34:05,000 --> 01:34:06,880
I feel like we could just talk 
for days on end. 

1711
01:34:06,880 --> 01:34:09,720
So we'll just have to have you 
back in the future and we'll 

1712
01:34:09,720 --> 01:34:12,720
have to talk about something 
else really cool because 

1713
01:34:13,280 --> 01:34:15,560
everything's been great. 
And I just really want to say 

1714
01:34:15,560 --> 01:34:19,360
like it's been so special. 
Just really finding another 

1715
01:34:19,360 --> 01:34:22,040
person that I connect with on a 
deep level who I didn't know. 

1716
01:34:22,040 --> 01:34:25,040
I just knew like I knew. 
Isn't that crazy? 

1717
01:34:25,160 --> 01:34:27,280
Oh. 
And then you were like, Oh my 

1718
01:34:27,280 --> 01:34:30,080
gosh, I'm so excited. 
And so that was cool because 

1719
01:34:30,080 --> 01:34:33,000
sometimes like I'll ask people 
and you don't know if they're 

1720
01:34:33,000 --> 01:34:37,160
excited or not or like sometimes
they'll be like, sure, but 

1721
01:34:37,160 --> 01:34:41,000
e-mail me or, you know, like 
they're like not engaging. 

1722
01:34:41,000 --> 01:34:44,160
And like, so I appreciate it. 
Like I like when people, you 

1723
01:34:44,160 --> 01:34:47,520
know, show their personality a 
little bit and at least engage 

1724
01:34:47,520 --> 01:34:51,760
and like, you know, make you 
feel like they want to be there 

1725
01:34:51,760 --> 01:34:53,400
kind of thing. 
Yeah, I really, really 

1726
01:34:53,400 --> 01:34:55,640
appreciate you. 
And so in the description, you 

1727
01:34:55,640 --> 01:34:58,880
all will have all of your 
contact information. 

1728
01:34:58,880 --> 01:35:01,800
We'll put your website if you 
want to book a reading books and

1729
01:35:01,800 --> 01:35:04,440
spells, you want to book that 
removal that special. 

1730
01:35:05,560 --> 01:35:07,840
Well, she was talking about 
that's on there. 

1731
01:35:07,840 --> 01:35:11,480
So maybe her Oracle deck will be
out by now. 

1732
01:35:11,480 --> 01:35:13,240
We don't know if it I. 
Know. 

1733
01:35:13,440 --> 01:35:16,440
If it is, you'll see it the 
details below. 

1734
01:35:16,480 --> 01:35:20,120
But yeah, is there a message 
that you want to leave everyone 

1735
01:35:20,120 --> 01:35:24,240
with today? 
I just want to say to put your 

1736
01:35:24,240 --> 01:35:29,640
fear aside regarding anything in
your life because had I lived in

1737
01:35:29,640 --> 01:35:33,960
fear, I would have still been at
my probation officer job because

1738
01:35:33,960 --> 01:35:36,720
I was a probation officer. 
But now I'm a tarot reader, 

1739
01:35:37,200 --> 01:35:41,080
possible Oracle deck owner, 
podcaster, I don't know. 

1740
01:35:41,560 --> 01:35:43,840
But. 
And that's all because I put my 

1741
01:35:43,840 --> 01:35:47,440
fear aside and I left that 
comfort of that 9:00 to 5:00 and

1742
01:35:47,440 --> 01:35:50,880
I pursued my passions. 
So if you're thinking of doing 

1743
01:35:50,880 --> 01:35:54,720
this kind of work or a podcast 
or whatever, just do it because 

1744
01:35:54,720 --> 01:35:59,000
you have nothing to lose 
besides, you know, it not being 

1745
01:35:59,000 --> 01:36:00,840
successful, but you are going to
be successful. 

1746
01:36:00,840 --> 01:36:03,480
So yeah, put fear aside. 
That's all I want to say. 

1747
01:36:04,200 --> 01:36:06,560
That's beautiful, you know, like
you said, you really have 

1748
01:36:06,560 --> 01:36:08,720
nothing to lose but fucking 
time. 

1749
01:36:08,720 --> 01:36:12,160
Like alls we're doing is like 
we're spitting on a rock. 

1750
01:36:12,160 --> 01:36:16,800
You know, we're floating in 
space and or may not know what's

1751
01:36:16,800 --> 01:36:19,160
out there because we don't. 
I do think that we're on a 

1752
01:36:19,160 --> 01:36:22,760
screen somewhere like this is 
season 52 and they're like, what

1753
01:36:23,200 --> 01:36:26,120
the fuck is going on? 
And everyone's like gathered 

1754
01:36:26,120 --> 01:36:29,520
around. 
So we will recall next time in 

1755
01:36:29,520 --> 01:36:31,840
Candyland. 
Bye bye. 

1756
01:36:32,880 --> 01:36:37,680
Candy Land, spicy and sweet. 
You're in for a tree. 

1757
01:36:37,680 --> 01:36:41,960
Your wildest trees. 
Got gun drops of knowledge and 

1758
01:36:42,320 --> 01:36:47,640
liquors too lump? 
Fancy picking for me and you, 

1759
01:36:48,480 --> 01:36:51,880
Candy Land. 
Candy Land, a mystical play 

1760
01:36:51,920 --> 01:36:56,160
where your shadows will meet 
your life face to face. 

1761
01:36:56,160 --> 01:37:00,520
Let's your imagination run wild 
as stories unfold. 

1762
01:37:00,760 --> 01:37:04,600
May you release anything that 
has a whole. 

1763
01:37:04,920 --> 01:37:08,680
Welcome to Candy Land. 
Spicy and sweet. 

1764
01:37:08,800 --> 01:37:13,600
You're in for a tree. 
You're wildest streams, gum, 

1765
01:37:13,600 --> 01:37:16,960
drops of knowledge and liquorice
too. 

1766
01:37:22,480 --> 01:37:25,960
Thank you for joining us. 
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