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He says she's so sweet, man. 
Come on and lick the rapper. 

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Lick me like a lollipop. 
Lollipop, Lollipop Lollipop 

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Lollipop Lollipop Lollipop. 
What's up, everybody? 

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Welcome back to Candyland. 
Paige and I are here today 

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talking about ethics on a wide 
scale, wide variety, answering 

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so many questions. 
Hello, Polly Pocket. 

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Hello, I feel like ethics are 
really like lacking in the 

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collective, whether it's ethics 
at a job, ethics in your 

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relationships, friendships. 
Like ethics is important and so 

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many people I feel like are just
not taught good things anymore. 

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Like we're absorbing so much 
from the Internet. 

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We're absorbing so much content 
that's negative, constant 

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negativity. 
And I feel like people pick up 

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on that and they're like, well, 
fuck it, I'll just throw trash 

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out the window or I'll just do 
these things because like, who 

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cares? 
You know what I mean? 

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I feel like there's not a lot of
loyalty, integrity, or just like

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ethics in the collective. 
And I feel like your ethics on 

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things can change too, depending
on like what new knowledge that 

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you gain. 
And you know, as we evolve as 

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people, so do the things that we
find important and the 

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boundaries that we have on 
things or our perception on 

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things. 
And so I think that we got so 

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many topics and questions for us
to go through regarding ethics. 

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And these are things that like 
maybe we've talked about certain

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things in the past and now our 
opinion and like our ethic value

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wanted is different. 
And maybe it's things that we're

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going to say right now is like a
definitive thing. 

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And then in a year, we're going 
to be like, yeah, so that's 

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changed, which that happens with
us all the time, too. 

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Yeah, I definitely think that 
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like there are some core values 
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dear now, especially when it 
comes to spiritual guidance or 

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psychic guidance or whatever it 
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Like we have a duty to help 
people if you're going to use 

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your gifts, period. 
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You want to dive into a 
question. 

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Yeah, yeah, I'll. 
Oh, OK. 

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Is there a time when you wanted 
to Snoop psychically but you 

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held yourself back? 
Oh yeah, Oh yeah, all the time. 

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I mean, honestly though, I can 
read a situation very clearly 

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from the outside as long as I'm 
not inherently biased. 

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So if I like a person 
romantically or I like someone 

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or something like that, I can 
read the set like read the scene

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pretty clearly. 
But I'm also going to be biased 

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into like what I want, you know 
what I mean? 

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Like, oh, I think they're 
talking to their ex, but I don't

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want that to be the case. 
So here I'm giving like all of 

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this list of things that make 
excuses for their behavior. 

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So I feel like I can read a 
situation without setting a 

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circle pretty clearly, unless I 
am inherently biased. 

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You ever think though, that 
maybe like you also can read 

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situations wrong that don't have
anything wrong with them because

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you do have like your own like 
underlying like jealousy or 

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concern about things. 
And so maybe you as a person 

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might read something wrong that 
you may think that you're 

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reading correctly and like 
gaslight yourself and Rev 

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yourself up unnecessarily. 
Like for a reading for myself. 

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Yeah, or reading other people 
who like maybe you're looking at

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a situation and because you 
think something or have your own

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concern deep down, maybe you 
look at a situation wrong that 

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you think you're looking at 
right. 

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I mean, I think that with free 
will you can read a situation 

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really clearly, but the 
circumstances changed based on 

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the actions being taken by the 
person involved. 

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Like, so just for an example, 
like five years ago, I got a lot

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of downloads and a lot of 
information about specific 

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people, what at that time felt 
very concrete or very grounded 

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or very important. 
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exactly how I had saw it, I 
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spiritual catalyst of the 
situation overall. 

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Like the twin flame journey 
really opened me up to my 

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spiritual gifts. 
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real? 
Yes. 

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Do I think everyone who thinks 
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it? 
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So the free will portion I think
can change outcomes no matter 

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what you see. 
Like, I can see someone starting

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a podcast and, you know, living 
their best life, but if they 

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have an inherent fear of sharing
their voice or speaking up maybe

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from a past life or some type of
karma that they're holding onto,

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then it's going to change the 
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right? 
Like, but I can see it. 

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And that doesn't mean that it's 
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It just means they're not going 
to evolve into the confident, 

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courageous person that they need
to to fulfill that. 100%. 

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So I think that free will plays 
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Like I can see people stepping 
it up, but if you choose to hit 

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snooze on your alarm every 
morning when you needed that 

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hour for journaling and 
meditation or the gym or 

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whatever it is, then you're 
never going to reach that goal, 

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even though I can see that 
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I think that's why a lot of 
people go for people's potential

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and promises versus action is 
because it's easy for you to be 

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able to see different pathways 
that can be taken versus people 

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being able to realize that full 
potential for themselves. 

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And then rising to the occasion 
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Which is why I asked that 
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Because I I think that it is 
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certain situations in a certain 
way that they presently are not,

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but that make you have concern 
about it or make you have 

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security in it and ends up 
playing one way or another and 

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people second guess themselves. 
And it really is like, no, you 

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saw it the right way. 
It just so happened to be that, 

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you know, this person either 
rose to the occasion and so 

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those concerns that you had are 
void, or they didn't make the 

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moves that they needed to make 
to excel themselves on a certain

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path in a positive direction. 
And so people think that all 

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they see is the potential, but 
really it's like people didn't 

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take the necessary moves that 
they needed to in order to make 

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things come out the way that it 
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I don't feel like I'm inherently
biased unless I'm giving a 

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reading to myself. 
Like then I'm biased because I 

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have things I want, things I 
desire, things that I see 

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happening. 
So I think that when it comes to

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another person's journey, I'm 
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You know, I'm giving the message
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But there is free will and there
is action and intention that has

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to be taken from the person 
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college. 
So I think that when it comes to

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my own journey, the message 
could be jumbled or inherently 

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biased because I have a vision 
of what I see for myself. 

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Just like I've gotten readings 
in the past and people are like,

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you're going to make music. 
And I'm like, what? 

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Huh. 
And I still don't see it. 

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I still, I still don't see it, 
even though I've, I've been to 

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studios, I hang out with 
musicians, a lot of my friends 

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make music, I still don't see 
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But I've had people say that to 
me a bunch, not just one reader,

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like 10. 
And then my life path also plays

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into that as well and my birth 
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So there's all these like signs 
and symbols, but I'm biased to 

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the fact that I don't see that 
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So therefore I'm taking no 
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OK, well it is what it is. 
We'll see what happens when you 

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come out with your pop single. 
All right, your question, have 

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you ever withheld information 
because the other person wasn't 

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ready to hear it? 
Yeah, I've also. 

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I also have a tendency of like, 
if I know that something's going

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to upset people unnecessarily, I
don't want to say it or I'll 

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make a point of being like, 
yeah, I'm being open about this,

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but I think it's going to upset 
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But I admittingly so I'm a very 
guarded person about information

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that I choose to share with 
people, unless it's like, if 

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it's like I'm doing a spiritual 
session for somebody, no, I'm 

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not going to hold back on the 
message that I'm giving and that

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I'm sharing. 
But if it's people inside of 

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like my personal life, if I have
any type of information or 

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anything that I feel like is 
going to upset them, I want to 

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keep it to myself. 
But that ends up making people 

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feel like you're closed off. 
And even if you do things 

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because like you want to protect
people around you or whatever, 

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it comes off as secrets or as 
you being like a closed off 

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person versus you being like, 
oh, well, I just thought that 

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this information would be a 
burden or that this information 

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would cause chaos. 
And so I chose to keep it to 

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myself. 
And when I think about it, I 

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would rather know things good, 
bad, ugly, whatever, and be able

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to have the personal freedom and
discernment to handle it how I'm

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going to. 
But that's something that I 

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really work on as a person. 
That's something I've been 

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working on currently. 
Yeah, I think that I don't like 

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if you're in a circle, I just 
read it however that it needs to

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be read. 
Like I don't have any bias to 

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what's coming out. 
I just feel like I'm reading the

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book of your life. 
However, like if spirit saying 

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go to page 37, page 42, skip 
this chapter, go to that 

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chapter. 
I just do it. 

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So I'm not biased in that sense,
but being so spiritually in 

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tune, I can look around, even on
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people are creating their own 
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So instead of interjecting or 
being a person who's like 

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commenting, I just delete them. 
I haven't been a scroller 

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recently, like I haven't, I told
you, like I've been really like 

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taking a step back from social 
media and things like that and 

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not seeing people's bullshit and
fuckery makes life so much more 

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cool like it. 
It's so much nicer to live your 

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own reality versus seeing 
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And we've talked about it 
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hella weird when people are 
posting about their relationship

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all the time of like, me and Jim
had a fight and, you know, Jim's

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sleeping on the couch. 
And then the next day it's like,

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Kim brought me chocolates and 
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And then like, we talked and 
then this happened and it's just

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the weirdest fucking thing to 
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Yeah, I feel like if you know in
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back with that person, don't air
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Like don't tell us that he 
doesn't wash his ass and has 

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shit stains in his underwear and
then be posting to him a week 

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later or. 
Just don't tell anybody about it

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because truly at the end of the 
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Yeah, I feel like I just delete 
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Like I'm constantly deleting, 
unfollowing and blocking people 

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who have stank ass energy, who 
stay in fear, who spread fear 

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like a wildfire. 
Like I just don't got no time 

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for it. 
Like that's their reality and 

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they're more than entitled to 
live whatever reality they want 

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to live. 
But I'm so done reading it, 

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looking at it, or consuming it 
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I've got the next question for 
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Would you want a romantic 
partner to read your energy 

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without asking? 
I think they would already be 

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doing that. 
I feel like reading energy is 

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like when you meet someone and 
you're like, I like that person 

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or I don't like that person or 
they get on my nerves or out, 

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you know what I mean? 
I feel like people are reading 

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energy and people's auras 
regardless if you know you're 

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doing it, regardless if you're 
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So I would say like that's 
happening regardless. 

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Like I've had a lot of people 
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I love how your energy feels. 
But what happens is they see 

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that I'm actually able to 
sustain this energy. 

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It's not just like on Fridays or
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I'm like this. 
So I'm like this every fucking 

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day. 
Like, but I think that I'm 

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starting to get more like 
unapologetic and more like 

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vengeful a little bit. 
Like if you cross me, you should

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be scared at this point. 
Like I'm so sick of people 

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thinking that they can take 
advantage of people's kindness. 

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Like I'm literally so done with 
people being manipulative, 

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whether it's family, friends, 
acquaintances, people on the 

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Internet, that you should stay 
the fuck out of my way if you 

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know what's good for your 
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Like that's where I'm at now. 
Like it's bad. 

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Like I'm so done with people 
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then spewing that around for 
everyone to read and consume and

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absorb. 
No, fuck you. 

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Big time. 
This girl's on one. 

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I think that, but I don't think 

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that everybody does that inside 
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Like I think that you that you 
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with each other's energy and and
whatever. 

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frequency that I'm on, like 
we're over here, you know, and 

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have conversations. 
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are able to adjust, like whether
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things aren't going good. 
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understanding, like how your 
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situations and have an 
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And that's like where 
communication comes in of like 

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you weren't picking up on this, 
but this is how this is so you 

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can recognize it the next time. 
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supposed to be a thing is like 
being able to check in with each

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other and make sure that those 
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But I don't think that a lot of 
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I think if you're unhappy in 
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not going to be able to truly 
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because you're being so consumed
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world. 
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choose to work on your inner 
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different relationship or 
thinking something's going to 

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fix you, like money or a job or 
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people give that power to side 
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And I've seen in the past where 
I wasn't able to be myself or be

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the best version of myself 
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affected by that because they're
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They didn't want to see me 
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And I feel like I've really got 
this reference of like, a lot of

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men. 
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their partner like a bug and 
keep them small. 

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Keep them small. 
Don't wear that. 

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You can't wear that. 
You got to ask to do this. 

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What are you doing? 
Why are you posting that? 

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You know what I mean? 
Like men who are unhappy seem to

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keep their partner small, but 
men who are very happy and 

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secure in themselves build their
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energetic blockages are people 
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projecting that outward. 
I've also seen so like to your 

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point, like you see men doing 
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but I've also seen a lot of 
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like, they don't want their 
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to do things. 
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I've really been coming into 
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that with like women in my life 
who they want, they want their 

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partner to support them and all 
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But like their husband has jobs 
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help navigate it so that their 
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or, you know, they, you know, 
their partner is unhappy in this

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way. 
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they're being emotionally 
fulfilled and not how to change 

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it. 
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able to talk, walk, think, 
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they want their partner to be 
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like communication comes into 

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play. 
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the things that you need? 
What are the things that I need?

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conversations. 
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communication. 
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dynamics where we're not able to
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Other people can't communicate 
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That makes the energy funky. 
And I also think that people can

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be too dope ass people who are 
real shit together. 

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And there are people who are 
awful people who end up being 

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able to like build things. 
And it all just comes with what 

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your your checks and your 
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Me, it feels like if you're 
growing as a person alongside 

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someone, that's super important.
But it's like when people are 

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wrapped up and like, well, this 
is the version I've always been 

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and this is what I've always 
done and I'm not changing it. 

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This is what my dad did or this 
is what my mom did. 

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Like I saw this perspective and 
it said if you're with a man who

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watched his mom struggle, like 
being a single mom or, you know,

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having to work multiple jobs or 
whatever it may be, they're not 

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going to physically help you 
because they watch their own mom

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struggle and they see struggle 
as love, someone who's 

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sacrificing their own needs for 
them or sacrificing their own 

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well-being for them. 
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children really do need to see 
cooperation and like, you know, 

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support mutually. 
I didn't have that growing up. 

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But I think so many people are 
underestimating the power of, 

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like, compromise, whether you're
with a person, not with a 

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person, but so many people just 
want to be right. 

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They just want to be right. 
Like, they're not compromising, 

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you know? 
So I think in my experience, I 

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cut women off, but men, I let 
them stick around a little 

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longer. 
You know what I mean? 

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Like I let them manipulate me a 
little longer. 

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But women, like friends, 
whoever. 

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I'll never, ever let a woman 
back into my life that's fucked 

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me over. 
But a man, I don't know why I've

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let them back in before. 
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Like there are people who you 
know, to your point, like they 

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do have that struggle. 
They do have these certain 

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things, but then they're like, 
oh, I take that as a strength 

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and I have respect for women in 
these positions or, or you know,

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whatever. 
And I would want to assist them 

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so that they don't have those 
struggles and so they don't have

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those difficulties. 
And that's where it's like the 

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people who choose to see the 
struggles and things that they 

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went through that they witnessed
as either reasons to continue 

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that on or as reasons to 
completely end it and see 

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something happen and see 
something different. 

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And it's like where people's 
comfortability and complacency 

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is too. 
Like if you don't have a problem

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with watching somebody struggle 
and you think that that's how 

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it's going to be, yeah, you're 
going to continue that on. 

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And there are tons of people 
like that. 

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And then there are people who 
are like, I'm going to have the 

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complete fucking opposite. 
And they only go for people that

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are the complete opposite, you 
know? 

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And yeah, I, I think that's 
where you get extremes and 

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things though, and, and people 
that have to have extreme 

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specifics inside of things. 
And that's why people won't 

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break out of cycles and patterns
is because they only see the 

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world as black and white. 
And they see that this is 

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exactly what I need and what I'm
expecting and exactly how things

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need to be instead of being like
OK, well I like these things. 

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I don't like these things. 
How do we grow and mold and 

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change these things? 
And how can I share my 

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perspective of what I've seen 
and experienced versus what 

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you're currently experiencing? 
And how do we blend those 

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things? 
Together. 

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I feel like this feeds off to 
the people who are like brought 

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up in the same environment and 
like 1 is a crackhead and one is

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sober and doesn't touch drugs 
and then will blame their 

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parents but the other one took 
what their parents did and 

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evolved past it. 
So I've seen that a lot in my 

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experience, most men that I've 
dated have had like mommy or 

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daddy issues, whether whichever 
side. 

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And I feel like that's reflected
in their like attachment style, 

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how they show up in 
relationships. 

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And overall, I've learned that I
would much rather be alone than 

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be brought down by limiting 
energy. 

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And that's all I've ever seen. 
So I don't have a good story to 

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say. 
I don't have like a, oh, we were

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just different people and we 
evolved and we're, we're cool 

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and cordial. 
No, fuck all of them. 

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They can all fuck off. 
You know what I mean? 

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Like I don't have any 
representation of that. 

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So I would love to have someone 
who's like growing and wants to 

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grow together rather than grow 
apart because in the past, 

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people saw my elevation as a 
threat. 

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And that sucks because you like 
them and you want to make 

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excuses for them or whatever it 
is. 

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But the truth is, most people 
will say most don't want to see 

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you outshine them. 
They don't want to see you 

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recognize that you're better 
than them because they're 

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refusing to change or refusing 
to grow alongside you, which 

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sucks. 
Yeah, that's unfortunate. 

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Is it your question or mine? 
I think it's yours. 

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Like I need to ask you. 
No, I think I'm asking you. 

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Oh well, we both know I don't 
like answering the questions, I 

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like asking the questions. 
How do we discern between 

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authentic spiritual work and 
manipulation such as fear based 

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readings or exploitative 
practices? 

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I feel like how it's making you 
feel in the moment, like if 

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you're going into a session and 
and you're getting a reading 

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from somebody and it makes you 
feel like you're scared or it 

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makes you feel very overwhelmed 
or very nervous, or it makes you

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feel like you know you've got 
some like weird stuff going on 

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with you that you didn't realize
in the moment. 

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If you don't, if you're not 
feeling connected and fulfilled 

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inside of the moment, there's 
some type of fear based thing 

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being pushed at you or 
manipulation thing because it's 

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the way that we do our readings.
At least it's supposed to be 

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giving you some sort of a 
positive guidance. 

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It's supposed to be making you 
feel like there's different 

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pathways and different options 
for you. 

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If people are talking to you 
about different services that 

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they have during the reading, I 
don't feel like that's a 

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manipulative thing. 
I feel like there are a lot of 

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times that it's like, OK, I 
like, for instance, like I might

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do like a new client reading 
with somebody and I have a 

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conversation with them and I'm 
like, you know what the the 

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things that are coming up during
this reading, I actually touch 

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on on my Patreon. 
That would be really helpful if 

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that ends up being something 
that you want to do. 

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These are different options. 
And then you can send them on 

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their way. 
But if you have somebody who's 

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like and and that's like a hey, 
Ioffer this thing here you go as

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an example. 
But then you also have people 

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who will do a reading and 
they'll be like, you have a 

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spider entity attached to your 
back. 

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And if you don't pay me $400.00 
by the end of the day and then 

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go take a sip of, you know, 
white water, then you're going 

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to die and your children are 
going to be cursed. 

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That's somebody being 
manipulative and using a fear 

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tactic on you. 
So if you just feel like 

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something isn't right, it's not 
right also to to put out there 

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that somebody may not be meaning
to be manipulative or be a 

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negative energy for you. 
Somebody can have all the best 

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intention, but the way that they
connect with energy and the 

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messages that they're delivering
for you in that style, if it 

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makes you feel uncomfy, then 
there's a reason for that and 

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they're just not the person for 
you to be vibing with. 

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When I went through like my 
mentorship program, my mentor 

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always said to like, make sure 
you're saying a blessing and 

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that if the reader doesn't say a
blessing, that's a red flag 

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because they could just be 
pulling energy from wherever. 

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Like if they're not setting a 
circle with you as the main 

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focal point, they could be 
letting energy from past 

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sessions from their own karmic 
ties, their own blueprint bleed 

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into your reading. 
I also feel like if someone 

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solicits you for a reading, 
that's a fucking red flag. 

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That's how you all should know 
it's a scammer because they're 

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messaging you first. 
If you're watching someone and 

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you book with them, cool. 
But if someone comes to you and 

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says you should get a reading 
with me or you should do this 

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without you reaching out or 
inquiring first, that's 

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manipulation to me. 
Recommending services during a 

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session is one thing, but 
literally DM ING people and 

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sending your services is 
manipulation. 

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So, you know, there's been times
I've done a reading and I'm 

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like, you could really benefit 
from a chakra clearing or a cord

449
00:25:33,320 --> 00:25:38,600
cutting or whatever, but I never
make the session about the 

450
00:25:38,600 --> 00:25:40,800
recommendation. 
I just like briefly say it and 

451
00:25:40,800 --> 00:25:45,000
keep it pushing or whatever. 
But I think some people book 

452
00:25:45,000 --> 00:25:48,800
readings with the intentions of 
giving you false information 

453
00:25:49,080 --> 00:25:51,760
because they're not working in 
the highest and best energy. 

454
00:25:51,960 --> 00:25:55,800
They're in low vibrational. 
Like I'll just be honest, if I'm

455
00:25:55,800 --> 00:25:58,920
getting a reading from someone 
that drinks all the time, that 

456
00:25:58,920 --> 00:26:03,400
does low vibrational stuff all 
the time, whatever it may be, I 

457
00:26:03,400 --> 00:26:05,200
know our energy's not going to 
be a match. 

458
00:26:05,400 --> 00:26:08,400
I just know it's not like 
remember that shot a girl that 

459
00:26:08,400 --> 00:26:12,800
blocked us. 
Not the name, not the specific 

460
00:26:12,800 --> 00:26:17,000
name call. 
This picture deal this girl had 

461
00:26:17,000 --> 00:26:20,720
given me readings me, her and 
Gemini had hopped on a call, 

462
00:26:21,120 --> 00:26:25,280
vibed had a good time. 
Then out of nowhere she blocked 

463
00:26:25,280 --> 00:26:28,840
both of us on everything and I 
don't know what the fuck that 

464
00:26:28,840 --> 00:26:30,880
was about. 
Like one time I got a reading 

465
00:26:30,880 --> 00:26:33,320
from her y'all and she showed up
breastfeeding her baby. 

466
00:26:33,440 --> 00:26:35,960
I was fine with it she breastfed
the whole time. 

467
00:26:35,960 --> 00:26:38,120
I did not care. 
I just don't know why she 

468
00:26:38,120 --> 00:26:40,480
blocked me and you and 
everything. 

469
00:26:40,480 --> 00:26:43,720
Like so weird. 
People get triggered though, 

470
00:26:43,720 --> 00:26:45,320
like people. 
I was going to say that. 

471
00:26:45,440 --> 00:26:48,960
Get into your energy and be 
triggered by your gifts, by your

472
00:26:48,960 --> 00:26:52,760
light, by your path. 
And that's why I have learned 

473
00:26:52,960 --> 00:26:55,600
that getting readings from 
people who do not know me at 

474
00:26:55,600 --> 00:26:57,040
all. 
They're not my friend. 

475
00:26:57,040 --> 00:26:58,520
They're not someone one I've 
ever met. 

476
00:26:58,760 --> 00:27:02,040
They do not know me at all. 
Has been super impactful for my 

477
00:27:02,040 --> 00:27:06,080
journey because I can tell when 
they're being biased or not 

478
00:27:06,080 --> 00:27:07,800
being biased. 
I can tell when they're being 

479
00:27:07,800 --> 00:27:10,720
legit or not being legit. 
But I've learned that like once 

480
00:27:10,720 --> 00:27:14,160
I develop a relationship with 
someone and they love me or they

481
00:27:14,160 --> 00:27:17,200
like me or they want what's best
for me, that comes through in 

482
00:27:17,200 --> 00:27:19,440
the reading. 
Not that it's a bad reading, 

483
00:27:19,480 --> 00:27:21,960
it's a great reading. 
But sometimes it's nice to get 

484
00:27:21,960 --> 00:27:25,120
that hardcore, like mic drop 
reading from someone who does 

485
00:27:25,120 --> 00:27:28,480
not fucking know you and they 
have no way of knowing any of 

486
00:27:28,480 --> 00:27:31,440
that. 
So I think that experimenting 

487
00:27:31,680 --> 00:27:34,600
and learning what works for you 
is important because sometimes, 

488
00:27:35,200 --> 00:27:38,280
you know, my reading style is a 
lot different than other 

489
00:27:38,280 --> 00:27:40,480
people's reading styles and 
whatever in between. 

490
00:27:40,720 --> 00:27:43,040
And sometimes you're just going 
to resonate with someone else's 

491
00:27:43,200 --> 00:27:46,720
readings more. 
But sometimes I think there are 

492
00:27:46,720 --> 00:27:51,000
like fluffy readers who keep it 
very general, like grandma is 

493
00:27:51,000 --> 00:27:56,200
here every time or whatever. 
So I think it's just important 

494
00:27:56,200 --> 00:28:00,280
to like try different psychics, 
try different mediums, get 

495
00:28:00,280 --> 00:28:03,800
multiple readings, ask the same 
question to four different 

496
00:28:03,800 --> 00:28:07,280
people and see what works for 
you, see what's you know, what 

497
00:28:07,280 --> 00:28:10,680
reading style and what type. 
Like I'm shifting away from live

498
00:28:10,680 --> 00:28:14,080
readings and just going into 
prerecord with like a follow up 

499
00:28:14,080 --> 00:28:19,000
call option because I just don't
want to be in everyone's energy 

500
00:28:19,000 --> 00:28:21,000
all the time. 
I don't wanna have to be at a 

501
00:28:21,000 --> 00:28:24,800
certain place at a certain time 
because sometimes the energy is 

502
00:28:24,800 --> 00:28:27,280
just not good. 
That's why I keep my spell work 

503
00:28:27,280 --> 00:28:31,760
very open and tentative, because
sometimes the energy is just not

504
00:28:31,760 --> 00:28:34,760
good for whatever the persons 
asking. 

505
00:28:35,120 --> 00:28:38,560
And I think it's important as a 
practitioner, as someone who 

506
00:28:38,560 --> 00:28:41,880
wants to use their spiritual 
gifts for others to have fucking

507
00:28:41,880 --> 00:28:44,840
boundaries and know that not all
money is good money. 

508
00:28:45,160 --> 00:28:49,320
Not all people want to see you 
shine, and not all people want 

509
00:28:49,320 --> 00:28:51,280
to take the message and do 
anything with it. 

510
00:28:51,280 --> 00:28:53,600
They want you to lead them to 
the water and then they're going

511
00:28:53,600 --> 00:28:56,480
to complain the water doesn't 
have ice in it or whatever. 

512
00:28:57,600 --> 00:29:01,040
I also don't think like, you 
know, in regards to like that 

513
00:29:01,040 --> 00:29:02,760
specific girl and stuff like 
that. 

514
00:29:03,480 --> 00:29:07,760
I also don't think that people 
necessarily realize when they're

515
00:29:07,760 --> 00:29:13,400
being triggered by something 
like they don't necessarily know

516
00:29:13,400 --> 00:29:17,760
what it is about you or you and 
I or whatever that they're like,

517
00:29:17,760 --> 00:29:19,720
hey, I really vibed with this. 
And then I don't. 

518
00:29:20,080 --> 00:29:24,360
But I think that you and I both 
as people have really high 

519
00:29:24,360 --> 00:29:26,960
expectations of people in 
general. 

520
00:29:27,360 --> 00:29:29,920
And it's not something to 
apologize for. 

521
00:29:29,920 --> 00:29:33,800
I've had to come to terms with 
the fact that I just have really

522
00:29:33,800 --> 00:29:38,840
high expectations and it's 
because I do not have a lot of 

523
00:29:38,840 --> 00:29:42,760
people that I let into my inner 
circle or that I certainly not 

524
00:29:42,760 --> 00:29:45,480
that I trust or you know, going 
to give loyalty to. 

525
00:29:45,480 --> 00:29:50,480
So if I am going to trust people
and let them into my circle, I 

526
00:29:50,480 --> 00:29:54,840
have very high expectations of 
and the energy that they give 

527
00:29:54,840 --> 00:29:57,640
back and, and just what I'm 
expecting from them. 

528
00:29:58,000 --> 00:30:01,240
And people either really like 
that and they want to be your 

529
00:30:01,240 --> 00:30:04,840
friend or they don't like that 
and they can't rise to the 

530
00:30:04,840 --> 00:30:07,480
occasion And it makes them very 
uncomfortable and it put it 

531
00:30:07,480 --> 00:30:10,520
makes them feel like there's a 
pressure of some kind. 

532
00:30:10,800 --> 00:30:13,920
And I think that whether it be 
that girl or people who have 

533
00:30:13,920 --> 00:30:17,400
been in our community spaces in 
the past or whatever, I think 

534
00:30:17,400 --> 00:30:22,320
that that's it's not an easy 
thing for people to feel like 

535
00:30:22,320 --> 00:30:26,240
there's an expectation. 
And some people only want to 

536
00:30:26,240 --> 00:30:29,880
come and they only want to give 
the version of who they are in 

537
00:30:29,880 --> 00:30:32,120
that moment. 
And they never want to grow. 

538
00:30:32,120 --> 00:30:35,120
And when they see people who 
constantly want to do better and

539
00:30:35,120 --> 00:30:37,480
who have a new goal and a new 
mission and a new thing that 

540
00:30:37,480 --> 00:30:39,600
they want to achieve, that's 
another thing. 

541
00:30:39,600 --> 00:30:43,320
You and I always have a goal. 
We always have something, 

542
00:30:43,320 --> 00:30:47,280
whether it be family life, 
business life, you know, 

543
00:30:47,280 --> 00:30:50,400
personal, we always have a new 
goal and something that we're 

544
00:30:50,400 --> 00:30:53,360
wanting to reach. 
And that makes a lot of people 

545
00:30:53,360 --> 00:30:57,080
feel very uncomfortable because 
they like to be consistent or 

546
00:30:57,080 --> 00:31:00,440
stagnant. 
And we are constantly moving and

547
00:31:00,440 --> 00:31:03,800
developing and evolving. 
And people in our life are 

548
00:31:03,800 --> 00:31:06,400
always having to be on that same
trajectory. 

549
00:31:06,480 --> 00:31:10,920
And it either motivates people 
or it makes people feel inferior

550
00:31:10,920 --> 00:31:13,320
and uncomfortable and they don't
want to put energy in. 

551
00:31:13,600 --> 00:31:18,240
And I think that that's where a 
lot of times we have friendships

552
00:31:18,240 --> 00:31:21,800
lapse or, you know, people who 
have come on the podcast even 

553
00:31:21,800 --> 00:31:23,840
that we've been like, yeah, 
like, it's a cool vibe. 

554
00:31:24,280 --> 00:31:26,160
And then they're like, I love 
what you're doing. 

555
00:31:26,160 --> 00:31:28,160
I'm just going to copy 
everything that you do and never

556
00:31:28,160 --> 00:31:31,360
do anything for myself. 
And then we see them fall off 

557
00:31:31,360 --> 00:31:34,400
and they don't have anything 
happening because the same 

558
00:31:34,400 --> 00:31:37,160
energy that's working for us and
the way that we hustle and do 

559
00:31:37,160 --> 00:31:40,800
things isn't going to be the 
same way that we are, you know? 

560
00:31:41,720 --> 00:31:43,400
Yeah, I think there's an 
evolution. 

561
00:31:43,400 --> 00:31:45,960
Like there's people at the 
beginning of my journey that 

562
00:31:45,960 --> 00:31:49,320
really resonated with me. 
Like big Empress energy. 

563
00:31:49,560 --> 00:31:53,480
I loved her collective stuff. 
I did her tarot class and all 

564
00:31:53,480 --> 00:31:56,680
these things, but it was like 
once she got a taste of like 

565
00:31:56,680 --> 00:32:01,480
real money from her gifts, her 
ego got so loud and like front 

566
00:32:01,480 --> 00:32:03,960
and center on the stage and I 
just stopped resonating with 

567
00:32:03,960 --> 00:32:05,240
her. 
I stopped giving her money. 

568
00:32:05,240 --> 00:32:08,400
I stopped booking her circles. 
I stopped doing her collective 

569
00:32:08,400 --> 00:32:11,400
Reiki's and all the things not 
to say she's not powerful, not 

570
00:32:11,400 --> 00:32:12,840
to say her gifts weren't worth 
money. 

571
00:32:13,200 --> 00:32:18,120
I just saw where it was proud of
this Louis this over in Spain, 

572
00:32:18,120 --> 00:32:20,280
you know, like just different 
things that just felt 

573
00:32:20,280 --> 00:32:22,720
manipulative. 
It felt ego driven. 

574
00:32:22,760 --> 00:32:26,160
It felt self-centered even. 
And I'm not against her. 

575
00:32:26,160 --> 00:32:28,800
I unfollowed her. 
You know, I like her oils. 

576
00:32:28,800 --> 00:32:32,120
I may buy one in the future. 
But like, there are people that 

577
00:32:32,120 --> 00:32:33,800
in the beginning will resonate 
with you. 

578
00:32:33,800 --> 00:32:37,320
But as you grow as a person or 
as you evolve as a person or as 

579
00:32:37,320 --> 00:32:40,120
they're doing the same, you can 
grow apart. 

580
00:32:40,360 --> 00:32:44,280
You know some things are magnets
and you stay tight together, but

581
00:32:44,280 --> 00:32:47,320
then there's the opposite side 
of the magnet that repels each. 

582
00:32:47,320 --> 00:32:49,920
Other and it's. 
The same fucking magnet, right? 

583
00:32:49,920 --> 00:32:52,200
Like it's the same magnet that 
you started with. 

584
00:32:52,200 --> 00:32:57,080
It just depends on what and I 
think sometimes people see 

585
00:32:57,440 --> 00:33:00,600
competition that doesn't exist 
seeing. 

586
00:33:00,600 --> 00:33:02,960
Competition that doesn't exist 
is a thing. 

587
00:33:02,960 --> 00:33:06,920
Or people thinking that if 
you're doing well, it's to 

588
00:33:06,920 --> 00:33:09,560
compete with them or it's 
because you think that you're 

589
00:33:09,560 --> 00:33:14,440
better versus I wasn't comparing
myself to you, I was comparing 

590
00:33:14,440 --> 00:33:17,440
me to me. 
And I'll be damned if I stay the

591
00:33:17,440 --> 00:33:18,840
same bitch. 
I got to evolve. 

592
00:33:18,840 --> 00:33:20,520
I got to keep on doing different
things. 

593
00:33:20,520 --> 00:33:23,120
I got to, you know, whatever. 
Yeah, absolutely. 

594
00:33:23,200 --> 00:33:33,960
Let me ask you a question. 
Do spiritual practitioners have 

595
00:33:34,000 --> 00:33:36,920
a responsibility to set 
boundaries with clients? 

596
00:33:37,280 --> 00:33:40,240
And where should those ethical 
lines be drawn? 

597
00:33:41,680 --> 00:33:43,400
Well, I think I'm learning. 
This. 

598
00:33:43,400 --> 00:33:45,560
I learned it the hard way a few 
times. 

599
00:33:45,560 --> 00:33:47,920
You can't be friends with 
everybody. 

600
00:33:48,040 --> 00:33:50,560
Like people get into your 
community spaces, they get into 

601
00:33:50,560 --> 00:33:54,280
your life, they get into your 
energy, and sometimes they're 

602
00:33:54,280 --> 00:33:57,440
leeching onto you as a guide 
because they don't want to 

603
00:33:57,440 --> 00:33:59,720
really do the work. 
It's like, Oh well, if I meet 

604
00:33:59,720 --> 00:34:03,080
with her once a month and get 
tips and tricks and can text 

605
00:34:03,080 --> 00:34:06,160
her, oh, I'm doing the work, but
that's not doing the fucking 

606
00:34:06,160 --> 00:34:07,200
work. 
You know what I mean? 

607
00:34:07,200 --> 00:34:10,719
So I think that overall I have 
learned just because someone 

608
00:34:10,719 --> 00:34:14,800
wants to be my friend doesn't 
mean that I need to be their 

609
00:34:14,800 --> 00:34:18,719
friend right then or cater to 
them or, or every client becomes

610
00:34:18,719 --> 00:34:21,000
my friend. 
Yes, there are plenty of clients

611
00:34:21,000 --> 00:34:23,320
that have became my friend. 
There are plenty of clients that

612
00:34:23,320 --> 00:34:27,560
I absolutely adore that I don't 
talk to all the time and I still

613
00:34:27,560 --> 00:34:30,719
see them as a friend. 
But it's like, you know, this 

614
00:34:30,719 --> 00:34:34,600
whole, we went through it before
driving from like Kansas and all

615
00:34:34,600 --> 00:34:37,480
these different places to come 
visit me and then stir shit when

616
00:34:37,480 --> 00:34:39,600
you get here, Fucking weird 
energy. 

617
00:34:39,600 --> 00:34:42,080
So I've just learned the hard 
way that just because people 

618
00:34:42,080 --> 00:34:44,840
want to be in my energy doesn't 
mean that they should be. 

619
00:34:45,040 --> 00:34:47,320
Doesn't mean that they're 
welcome, even though they might 

620
00:34:47,320 --> 00:34:51,639
be like showering me with gifts 
or hyping me up or constantly 

621
00:34:51,639 --> 00:34:53,120
acting like they're my best 
friend. 

622
00:34:53,719 --> 00:34:57,480
It's sometimes for show, it's 
sometimes for personal gain, 

623
00:34:57,480 --> 00:35:00,920
financial gain, spiritual gain. 
And I've just really learned 

624
00:35:00,920 --> 00:35:05,240
that overall, not everyone 
deserves to be in your energy. 

625
00:35:05,240 --> 00:35:08,560
And regardless if they're giving
you money, regardless if you 

626
00:35:08,560 --> 00:35:12,440
like them, regardless of any 
intentions involved, you can't 

627
00:35:12,440 --> 00:35:15,520
be friends with everyone. 
And you've got to draw the line 

628
00:35:15,520 --> 00:35:19,080
between like client and friend 
sometimes the hard way. 

629
00:35:19,080 --> 00:35:23,000
And I've learned that like, so 
as far as like meeting people 

630
00:35:23,000 --> 00:35:25,360
from the Internet and flying out
and doing the crazy shit that 

631
00:35:25,360 --> 00:35:26,840
I've done in the past, it 
worked. 

632
00:35:26,840 --> 00:35:29,760
I've saw a lot of beautiful 
places, but you and I almost got

633
00:35:29,760 --> 00:35:32,400
killed on a fucking ATV in the 
Moab desert. 

634
00:35:32,400 --> 00:35:35,480
So it's like, you can eat crazy 
bitches all day from the 

635
00:35:35,480 --> 00:35:37,320
Internet. 
They can hype you up, buy your 

636
00:35:37,320 --> 00:35:40,560
merch, support your business, 
but they're not your friend. 

637
00:35:41,600 --> 00:35:44,960
So I used. 
You as an excuse twice this week

638
00:35:44,960 --> 00:35:48,720
just so that you know, and this 
doesn't have to do with what 

639
00:35:48,720 --> 00:35:50,560
you're talking about, but it 
just popped into my mind. 

640
00:35:51,560 --> 00:35:57,280
So I got collaboration offer 
twice this week from two 

641
00:35:57,280 --> 00:36:00,480
different people who were like, 
I have this going and like I 

642
00:36:00,480 --> 00:36:02,640
think that we should partner in 
it and then the other person was

643
00:36:02,640 --> 00:36:05,960
like I know so and so and like 
you should collab with them and 

644
00:36:05,960 --> 00:36:08,680
I was like, oh, I'm sorry. 
Paige has been telling me 

645
00:36:08,680 --> 00:36:12,960
recently that I shouldn't do 
collaborations and I'm kind of 

646
00:36:12,960 --> 00:36:14,800
tired of getting fucked over on 
business. 

647
00:36:14,800 --> 00:36:18,000
So I'm only doing my own thing 
and the only person I partner 

648
00:36:18,000 --> 00:36:19,880
with is Paige. 
And this has been heavy in my 

649
00:36:19,880 --> 00:36:22,360
readings, so I'm going to stick 
with this. 

650
00:36:22,680 --> 00:36:25,360
And I was like, I'm so excited 
to tell you on the podcast. 

651
00:36:25,360 --> 00:36:28,320
And then it took that coming up 
for me to be like, listen, I've 

652
00:36:28,320 --> 00:36:31,680
been taking the life advice. 
I mean, that's really real 

653
00:36:31,680 --> 00:36:33,880
though. 
Like from anyone outside looking

654
00:36:33,880 --> 00:36:38,600
in can see Gemini is doing a lot
and has done a lot but there 

655
00:36:38,600 --> 00:36:41,080
have been so many fake 
motherfuckers over the years 

656
00:36:41,360 --> 00:36:45,440
that want to creep in and and 
say the dumbest craziest shit. 

657
00:36:45,440 --> 00:36:47,760
Like trying to convince her 
that. 

658
00:36:47,800 --> 00:36:51,240
You know that you need them. 
That you need their ID or that 

659
00:36:51,240 --> 00:36:53,240
you need their collab or their 
energy. 

660
00:36:53,240 --> 00:36:55,960
And it's like you're. 
The source, babe. 

661
00:36:55,960 --> 00:36:58,200
Like you're. 
The plug like they the one that 

662
00:36:58,200 --> 00:37:01,920
got me. 
Was hiring that manager like 

663
00:37:02,560 --> 00:37:05,840
quote, you guys can't see the 
Bunny fingers, but the, the, the

664
00:37:05,840 --> 00:37:12,280
manager and the way that I got 
like completely just fucked over

665
00:37:12,280 --> 00:37:15,440
and screwed over and that entire
business arrangement. 

666
00:37:15,800 --> 00:37:19,520
And they recently were actually 
messaging people inside of my 

667
00:37:19,520 --> 00:37:23,360
community space and we're like, 
Hey, I gave you an astrology 

668
00:37:23,360 --> 00:37:25,760
reading in the past. 
Can you go to my website and can

669
00:37:25,760 --> 00:37:28,440
you leave me a review And can 
you do this, that and the other.

670
00:37:28,800 --> 00:37:31,280
And so I emailed them and was 
like, Hey, I'm getting 

671
00:37:31,280 --> 00:37:33,960
complaints from people like, can
you please not do that? 

672
00:37:34,160 --> 00:37:36,680
They'd reached out to like, 
they'd reached out to me via 

673
00:37:36,680 --> 00:37:41,320
e-mail like two or three times. 
And we're like, this full moon 

674
00:37:41,320 --> 00:37:43,600
is coming up. 
Are you doing anything for it? 

675
00:37:43,600 --> 00:37:45,040
Do you need help? 
Whatever. 

676
00:37:45,280 --> 00:37:47,640
And I finally was like, the time
for this help would have been 

677
00:37:47,640 --> 00:37:50,600
when I was employing you. 
Now that I'm not employing you, 

678
00:37:50,680 --> 00:37:53,080
you know, and they were really 
mad about it. 

679
00:37:53,920 --> 00:37:57,960
But that for me was the last 
situation where I was like, I'm 

680
00:37:58,040 --> 00:38:00,800
going to help out somebody that 
doesn't have anything going for 

681
00:38:00,800 --> 00:38:03,720
them and put in all of this 
effort where other people don't 

682
00:38:03,720 --> 00:38:08,160
put an effort. 
And I've made it a real thing of

683
00:38:08,160 --> 00:38:12,880
like, I love being a helpful 
person and I love helping build 

684
00:38:12,880 --> 00:38:18,960
people up And I I love being 
that support, but I am so tired 

685
00:38:18,960 --> 00:38:22,960
of being that person and being 
drained to do it and not having 

686
00:38:22,960 --> 00:38:26,760
energy exchange that what no 
matter who it like I just I 

687
00:38:26,760 --> 00:38:29,640
won't like I require an equal 
energy exchange. 

688
00:38:30,000 --> 00:38:34,480
And that coming into business 
has been so helpful. 

689
00:38:34,760 --> 00:38:39,720
And right now I and I have 
things that I'm like, yeah, I 

690
00:38:39,720 --> 00:38:42,200
want to be doing this. 
I, you know, eventually I'd like

691
00:38:42,200 --> 00:38:43,640
to do that. 
I'd like to do this. 

692
00:38:43,640 --> 00:38:48,440
This is the first time in my 
business where I'm like, or my 

693
00:38:48,440 --> 00:38:52,240
life in general where I'm like, 
I'm happy with how things are in

694
00:38:52,240 --> 00:38:54,600
this moment. 
And I don't feel the need to 

695
00:38:54,960 --> 00:38:58,320
fucking push, push, push, push 
in order to have validation on 

696
00:38:58,320 --> 00:39:00,800
anything. 
And that I can just hang. 

697
00:39:00,800 --> 00:39:04,760
I don't want new collaborations.
I I don't want any of that shit.

698
00:39:06,040 --> 00:39:08,560
I think in the beginning. 
Of any journey, whether it's 

699
00:39:08,560 --> 00:39:11,640
spiritual, being an 
entrepreneur, or whatever it may

700
00:39:11,640 --> 00:39:15,040
be, you want collaboration. 
Like you want to connect with 

701
00:39:15,040 --> 00:39:17,040
people, you want to share your 
tips and whatever. 

702
00:39:17,040 --> 00:39:21,080
Like hell, I did free readings 
for a whole freaking year on my 

703
00:39:21,080 --> 00:39:23,320
website to anyone who wanted to 
book one. 

704
00:39:23,640 --> 00:39:27,120
But at the same time, I feel 
like once you get burned a few 

705
00:39:27,120 --> 00:39:30,520
times and you actually build 
some strength and some courage 

706
00:39:30,520 --> 00:39:33,920
and some wisdom in the 
situation, you realize that not 

707
00:39:33,920 --> 00:39:36,760
all money is good money. 
Not all clients are good 

708
00:39:36,760 --> 00:39:39,120
clients. 
Not all collaborations are going

709
00:39:39,120 --> 00:39:41,360
to pay off. 
And most of them end up being 

710
00:39:41,360 --> 00:39:44,520
like a group project in college 
where one person ends up doing 

711
00:39:44,520 --> 00:39:46,880
all the fucking work and 
everyone else gets a grade and 

712
00:39:46,880 --> 00:39:49,720
takes credit for it. 
And I've learned, especially 

713
00:39:49,720 --> 00:39:53,600
with you and I, we have a very 
similar personality style where 

714
00:39:53,600 --> 00:39:56,360
it's like if there's things to 
be done, like we'll get them 

715
00:39:56,360 --> 00:40:00,600
done. 
But other people see it as like,

716
00:40:00,680 --> 00:40:04,760
oh, well, Gemini will take care 
of that or Gemini is paying me, 

717
00:40:04,760 --> 00:40:06,080
but I'm just going to let her do
it. 

718
00:40:06,080 --> 00:40:07,960
She does it better. 
You know, I think there's like a

719
00:40:07,960 --> 00:40:13,320
fine line between people wanting
a front row seat to the show so 

720
00:40:13,320 --> 00:40:16,880
they can say they know you or 
the people who really want to be

721
00:40:16,880 --> 00:40:19,440
backstage and see how much it 
goes into the fucking show. 

722
00:40:19,680 --> 00:40:22,280
Because I'll tell you. 
A lot of people don't realize, 

723
00:40:22,280 --> 00:40:25,040
like, even at like a Jelly roll 
show, how many people are 

724
00:40:25,040 --> 00:40:29,080
backstage doing the things 
they're doing to make that show.

725
00:40:29,080 --> 00:40:31,520
Possible. 
From like start to finish, it is

726
00:40:31,520 --> 00:40:35,040
so much work, so many semi, so 
many buses, so many people. 

727
00:40:35,320 --> 00:40:39,040
And I just don't think that 
people realize that like Jelly 

728
00:40:39,040 --> 00:40:41,160
gets all this credit. 
Like the show was amazing, 

729
00:40:41,160 --> 00:40:45,080
everything was great, but like 
there is so much that goes into 

730
00:40:45,080 --> 00:40:46,880
that. 
And even like the staff at the 

731
00:40:46,880 --> 00:40:49,160
venues and I feel like that's 
the same way. 

732
00:40:49,160 --> 00:40:52,240
Like with business and in 
general, you don't see what goes

733
00:40:52,240 --> 00:40:55,920
on behind the scenes. 
You don't see how many times 

734
00:40:55,920 --> 00:40:59,520
I've went through a dark night 
of the soul realizing that I was

735
00:40:59,520 --> 00:41:02,320
groomed or that I was taking 
advantage of our things that I 

736
00:41:02,320 --> 00:41:05,920
was embodying with shame and 
guilt actually were not my 

737
00:41:05,920 --> 00:41:07,880
fault. 
Actually, we're not me. 

738
00:41:07,880 --> 00:41:10,040
We're not conscious choices or 
whatever. 

739
00:41:10,360 --> 00:41:12,920
That's why a lot of people don't
want to explore that. 

740
00:41:12,920 --> 00:41:14,960
They want to see the final 
product. 

741
00:41:14,960 --> 00:41:17,120
They want to see the pretty 
shiny object and sit in the 

742
00:41:17,120 --> 00:41:19,400
front row and say, that's my 
friend, I know them. 

743
00:41:19,640 --> 00:41:22,120
But they don't see the blood, 
fucking sweat and tears that 

744
00:41:22,120 --> 00:41:25,440
goes in on the back end. 
And I think that when you are 

745
00:41:25,680 --> 00:41:28,600
generating income on your 
talents, your abilities, your 

746
00:41:28,600 --> 00:41:31,440
wisdom, whatever it is, people 
see that as something that's 

747
00:41:31,440 --> 00:41:33,040
easy. 
It's not. 

748
00:41:33,680 --> 00:41:35,600
They do see it as something. 
That's easy. 

749
00:41:35,840 --> 00:41:41,840
But I also think that a majority
of those of us who are building 

750
00:41:41,840 --> 00:41:45,360
ourselves that way and who are 
doing that don't always 

751
00:41:45,360 --> 00:41:49,080
understand what our potential is
and what our influence in other 

752
00:41:49,080 --> 00:41:53,240
people's life is. 
And like I know that it's only 

753
00:41:53,240 --> 00:42:00,080
been recently that I am like. 
Understanding like. 

754
00:42:00,240 --> 00:42:03,640
Maybe I'm the main character in 
that situation, Maybe I'm the 

755
00:42:03,640 --> 00:42:07,880
influential person in that 
situation, because it really is 

756
00:42:07,880 --> 00:42:11,320
like. 
A part of your healing. 

757
00:42:11,320 --> 00:42:15,560
Journey to realize that maybe 
you're the person that other 

758
00:42:15,560 --> 00:42:18,920
people might look up to or that 
other people are getting 

759
00:42:18,920 --> 00:42:23,600
inspiration from versus being 
the person like I, I think 

760
00:42:23,600 --> 00:42:26,200
that's what I didn't realize. 
I didn't realize that people 

761
00:42:26,200 --> 00:42:29,680
were wanting to do things with 
me because they thought that I 

762
00:42:29,680 --> 00:42:34,000
would get them ahead versus I 
thought people wanted to do 

763
00:42:34,000 --> 00:42:38,400
things with me business wise or 
be my friend because they just 

764
00:42:38,400 --> 00:42:40,640
liked me. 
It what I didn't realize that it

765
00:42:40,640 --> 00:42:43,080
was because they thought they 
were going to get something out 

766
00:42:43,080 --> 00:42:46,840
of me. 
And that's been that's a really 

767
00:42:46,840 --> 00:42:50,840
hard realization to have. 
And if you're already somebody 

768
00:42:50,840 --> 00:42:55,280
who's closed off and has 
boundaries, that's that's 

769
00:42:55,280 --> 00:42:58,360
really, really fucking difficult
I. 

770
00:42:58,360 --> 00:43:00,440
Completely agree. 
With that and I think that's 

771
00:43:00,440 --> 00:43:04,000
what's so cool and like organic 
about our project as we've been 

772
00:43:04,000 --> 00:43:06,680
doing this for like going on 
four years and there's never 

773
00:43:06,680 --> 00:43:10,160
been like an underlying motive. 
You know my following has grown 

774
00:43:10,160 --> 00:43:14,600
your your following went from 
zero to fucking 1000 and that 

775
00:43:14,600 --> 00:43:16,640
wasn't at the beginning. 
We didn't have that at the 

776
00:43:16,640 --> 00:43:18,480
beginning. 
We were just like we talk on 

777
00:43:18,480 --> 00:43:20,840
FaceTime every week for like 5 
hours. 

778
00:43:20,840 --> 00:43:23,600
Why don't we record this like 
this is in? 

779
00:43:23,600 --> 00:43:25,880
Time that we're already. 
Putting in why don't we do 

780
00:43:25,880 --> 00:43:30,400
something with this? 
I will say that I was like, wow,

781
00:43:30,400 --> 00:43:32,920
Jim and I knows how to start the
podcast, but if you wouldn't 

782
00:43:32,920 --> 00:43:34,560
have known, I would have done 
the research. 

783
00:43:34,560 --> 00:43:36,800
I would have figured like that 
wouldn't have stopped me from 

784
00:43:36,800 --> 00:43:39,240
having a podcast. 
I'm glad that we were able to do

785
00:43:39,240 --> 00:43:42,000
it together because I see that I
would have had a podcast 

786
00:43:42,000 --> 00:43:45,840
regardless whether it was a solo
project or a duo project I was 

787
00:43:45,840 --> 00:43:48,280
going to have. 
This is like, this is me. 

788
00:43:48,280 --> 00:43:50,960
This is what I live for. 
So when I. 

789
00:43:50,960 --> 00:43:54,560
Say like it was nice that you 
had some background information 

790
00:43:54,920 --> 00:43:56,360
you still. 
Didn't. 

791
00:43:56,360 --> 00:44:00,480
Like come and do it all like I 
did the website I did. 

792
00:44:00,480 --> 00:44:02,880
Like we keep it really balanced.
I don't think a lot of people 

793
00:44:02,880 --> 00:44:05,200
realize like the balance has 
always been there. 

794
00:44:05,400 --> 00:44:08,880
It's just not been so like 
upfront and in your face, but 

795
00:44:08,880 --> 00:44:12,600
the balance was always there. 
It was more about like the 

796
00:44:12,600 --> 00:44:14,480
commitment. 
A lot of people don't want to be

797
00:44:14,480 --> 00:44:17,480
committed to something unless 
it's generating income, unless 

798
00:44:17,480 --> 00:44:20,680
it's benefiting them or less 
it's bringing in followers or 

799
00:44:20,680 --> 00:44:22,800
whatever. 
And my favorite thing about the 

800
00:44:22,800 --> 00:44:25,480
Internet is people just don't 
realize that your favorite 

801
00:44:25,480 --> 00:44:29,320
influencer that has 300,000 
followers has a bunch of Klarna 

802
00:44:29,640 --> 00:44:31,760
debt because they do the pay as 
you go. 

803
00:44:32,080 --> 00:44:34,480
They're not in a good place 
mentally. 

804
00:44:34,760 --> 00:44:37,480
They're selling you a dream. 
They aren't even living. 

805
00:44:37,960 --> 00:44:40,160
They rent. 
You know, even these 

806
00:44:40,160 --> 00:44:42,400
entrepreneur people are like, 
oh, I can make $1,000,000 a 

807
00:44:42,400 --> 00:44:44,320
year. 
Yeah, by selling this bogus ass 

808
00:44:44,320 --> 00:44:48,800
course for $3000 a pop. 
All you need is 10 people to buy

809
00:44:48,800 --> 00:44:50,640
and you made $30,000 in one 
month. 

810
00:44:50,640 --> 00:44:52,600
I get it. 
But you're not rich, you're not 

811
00:44:52,600 --> 00:44:54,840
cute, you're not funny. 
And I just get annoyed. 

812
00:44:54,960 --> 00:44:58,560
Like I can see through the 
facade now where I. 

813
00:44:58,560 --> 00:45:00,760
Don't care if. 
You want to give me $500? 

814
00:45:00,760 --> 00:45:02,280
I don't want to do spell work 
for you. 

815
00:45:02,800 --> 00:45:04,280
I don't care what you're trying 
to give me. 

816
00:45:04,280 --> 00:45:07,160
I'm over it. 
But in the past, like, Oh my 

817
00:45:07,160 --> 00:45:08,760
God, they're investing. 
In me I have. 

818
00:45:08,760 --> 00:45:10,520
To give and give and give and 
give. 

819
00:45:10,800 --> 00:45:13,840
Now I'm like skirt, no, no, 
thank you. 

820
00:45:15,360 --> 00:45:17,480
And with that. 
Balance too. 

821
00:45:18,600 --> 00:45:20,520
Everything. 
'S always changing, like our 

822
00:45:20,520 --> 00:45:22,600
lives are constantly ebbing and 
flowing. 

823
00:45:22,600 --> 00:45:27,120
And like now that I'm really not
doing social media, I make the 

824
00:45:27,120 --> 00:45:29,960
promo and the stuff you're 
posting it on the lollipop 

825
00:45:29,960 --> 00:45:32,240
Instagram. 
You're, you know, when people 

826
00:45:32,240 --> 00:45:34,920
message there, you're reaching 
out to them, You're putting it 

827
00:45:34,920 --> 00:45:36,640
on your personals and different 
things. 

828
00:45:36,640 --> 00:45:40,000
There's a lot of things that I'm
doing now that are behind the 

829
00:45:40,000 --> 00:45:43,320
scenes, things that aren't the 
in your face things because 

830
00:45:43,320 --> 00:45:44,800
those are the things that you're
good at. 

831
00:45:44,880 --> 00:45:48,600
And right now I'm gonna like 
protect my peace and stay off 

832
00:45:48,600 --> 00:45:52,680
the Internet and social media 
space and, you know, and figure 

833
00:45:52,680 --> 00:45:54,360
out building differently and 
new. 

834
00:45:54,720 --> 00:45:57,160
And that's something that you're
really good at. 

835
00:45:57,200 --> 00:46:02,680
And that's really helpful for me
in this era where for the last 

836
00:46:02,680 --> 00:46:08,240
five years, I have consistently 
had at least 8 projects going at

837
00:46:08,240 --> 00:46:11,680
a time, stressed the fuck out, 
losing my hair, not sleeping 

838
00:46:11,680 --> 00:46:16,120
miserable all the fucking time. 
And I don't, And now that I'm 

839
00:46:16,120 --> 00:46:18,160
like, hey, I'm putting a 
boundary up on that. 

840
00:46:18,160 --> 00:46:21,440
I'm not doing these things. 
You're doing all of these other 

841
00:46:21,440 --> 00:46:23,280
pieces. 
And it's not like it has to be a

842
00:46:23,280 --> 00:46:25,600
conversation. 
It's just known. 

843
00:46:25,600 --> 00:46:29,120
You're sending me, you know, the
episode, I make promo things and

844
00:46:29,120 --> 00:46:30,560
send them to you. 
Let me know what you think. 

845
00:46:30,560 --> 00:46:32,800
Let me know if you need more. 
And you're putting them out into

846
00:46:32,800 --> 00:46:35,160
the universe. 
And it's a, it's a checks and a 

847
00:46:35,160 --> 00:46:40,680
balances thing. 
And that's the way that business

848
00:46:40,680 --> 00:46:45,120
partnerships or whatever I feel 
like are supposed to go is you 

849
00:46:45,120 --> 00:46:48,760
should have somebody who's, you 
know, doing these things and 

850
00:46:48,760 --> 00:46:50,040
someone who's doing those 
things. 

851
00:46:50,040 --> 00:46:52,720
And if it feels like it's 
constantly work, it's not a 

852
00:46:52,720 --> 00:46:55,600
passion project anymore, which 
is why I'm not doing Covenant of

853
00:46:55,600 --> 00:46:59,360
Rejects right now or ever again 
because something that was a 

854
00:46:59,360 --> 00:47:03,160
passion project became not just 
like there's a difference 

855
00:47:03,160 --> 00:47:05,760
between like, oh, I have to put 
work into it and being annoyed 

856
00:47:05,760 --> 00:47:07,640
by it. 
And just being like, this isn't 

857
00:47:07,640 --> 00:47:11,080
even fucking fun anymore. 
And that's where so many 

858
00:47:11,080 --> 00:47:13,920
projects went is like, this 
isn't even fucking fun anymore. 

859
00:47:14,080 --> 00:47:15,600
This isn't work that I want to 
do. 

860
00:47:15,600 --> 00:47:19,360
I don't even like this. 
And you know, like fuck that. 

861
00:47:20,280 --> 00:47:23,040
And. 
Honestly, that's where like I'm 

862
00:47:23,040 --> 00:47:28,200
shifting away from live readings
completely because I want to set

863
00:47:28,200 --> 00:47:31,000
my energetic boundary is the 
fact that if I don't want to do 

864
00:47:31,000 --> 00:47:34,360
this on Tuesday and Thursday or 
whatever the day it is, I don't 

865
00:47:34,360 --> 00:47:37,160
want to fucking do it. 
If I want to do the reading, 

866
00:47:37,680 --> 00:47:41,400
I'll get it to you in a window, 
but it's not a 72 hour turn 

867
00:47:41,400 --> 00:47:43,280
around. 
Like I'm working on the clock 

868
00:47:43,480 --> 00:47:46,520
and answering to you. 
That's what I think was messed 

869
00:47:46,520 --> 00:47:49,440
up for both of us is we made it 
like, Oh my God, you want to 

870
00:47:49,440 --> 00:47:51,240
give me your money now I'm 
answering to you. 

871
00:47:51,440 --> 00:47:53,520
Oh, you want me to give you 
extra insight and guidance in 

872
00:47:53,520 --> 00:47:55,800
the DM for free? 
Oh yeah, I'm giving to you. 

873
00:47:55,800 --> 00:47:57,680
I'm giving to you. 
See my worth, see my worth. 

874
00:47:58,160 --> 00:48:00,920
I went through that, you went 
through that and now I don't 

875
00:48:00,920 --> 00:48:03,640
give a fuck. 
At this point, I do not care 

876
00:48:03,840 --> 00:48:06,040
what anyone thinks. 
Like I am so. 

877
00:48:07,440 --> 00:48:10,200
Connected to like the. 
Lilith energy of fuck around and

878
00:48:10,200 --> 00:48:11,680
find out. 
I do not. 

879
00:48:11,880 --> 00:48:13,520
I'm not really love this 
version. 

880
00:48:13,640 --> 00:48:16,600
Of you because literally I. 
Don't know if it was like the 

881
00:48:16,600 --> 00:48:20,840
miscarriage or the whole 
unfolding of that that is really

882
00:48:20,840 --> 00:48:24,600
activated. 
The fact that I I am not here to

883
00:48:24,600 --> 00:48:28,560
live to make other people happy.
I'm not here to make sure that 

884
00:48:28,560 --> 00:48:30,040
you're doing your spiritual 
work. 

885
00:48:30,400 --> 00:48:33,400
I'm here to be guided to do what
I feel called to do. 

886
00:48:33,640 --> 00:48:37,000
And if I'm so drained all the 
damn time, I don't have time for

887
00:48:37,000 --> 00:48:39,720
the gym or for myself or for my 
own practices. 

888
00:48:40,000 --> 00:48:43,320
I knew there was a boundary that
was being crossed when I'm doing

889
00:48:43,320 --> 00:48:46,400
all this spell work for other 
people but was slacking on even 

890
00:48:46,400 --> 00:48:51,440
doing any for my own self. 
But now I'm almost shifting into

891
00:48:53,440 --> 00:48:58,680
an element of I don't want your 
money. 

892
00:48:59,240 --> 00:49:01,800
And the more that I say that, 
the more people are like, hey, 

893
00:49:02,080 --> 00:49:05,280
hey, hey, your Patreon sold out.
Is that true? 

894
00:49:05,280 --> 00:49:07,240
Or hey, what's up? 
And if I want to take your 

895
00:49:07,240 --> 00:49:09,280
money, I will. 
And I'll give you an amazing 

896
00:49:09,280 --> 00:49:13,120
reading. 
But I'm going into scarcity 

897
00:49:13,120 --> 00:49:15,920
mindset. 
You, you don't have access to 

898
00:49:15,920 --> 00:49:17,680
me. 
Even when you think you do, you 

899
00:49:17,680 --> 00:49:20,560
don't. 
And if you want access to me, be

900
00:49:20,560 --> 00:49:22,640
low. 
Be ready to get them doll hairs 

901
00:49:22,640 --> 00:49:24,960
out of your wallet because I'm 
telling you right now when I 

902
00:49:24,960 --> 00:49:27,320
come back, y'all are not going 
to like the pricing. 

903
00:49:27,680 --> 00:49:32,400
I'm literally pricing it where 
I'm no longer accessible. 

904
00:49:32,640 --> 00:49:36,800
I am a tool and a resource that 
you're not abusing anymore. 

905
00:49:36,800 --> 00:49:39,800
You're not getting little $44.00
readings every other day so you 

906
00:49:39,800 --> 00:49:41,640
don't have to sit with yourself 
in the dark. 

907
00:49:42,040 --> 00:49:44,760
Period. 
I feel like you. 

908
00:49:44,760 --> 00:49:50,160
And I have really like switched 
our energies and, and like 

909
00:49:50,160 --> 00:49:53,360
mirrored each other like 
opposite since the podcast 

910
00:49:53,360 --> 00:49:56,400
started because it used to be 
that I was the one that was 

911
00:49:56,400 --> 00:49:58,760
like, fuck you guys on give up 
fucks. 

912
00:49:59,000 --> 00:50:03,680
And and now I'm like, no, I'm 
trying to like be a gentler 

913
00:50:03,680 --> 00:50:07,200
version of myself and be more 
like my feminine energy and like

914
00:50:07,520 --> 00:50:10,480
not have to be so aggressive and
assertive all the time. 

915
00:50:10,480 --> 00:50:13,440
And like, I'm really trying to 
find that person And you're 

916
00:50:13,440 --> 00:50:16,120
like, I'll fucking set you on 
fire. 

917
00:50:16,640 --> 00:50:20,960
Fuck you. 
Don't pay me all I got to say. 

918
00:50:21,520 --> 00:50:25,200
Is what I have activated in my 
personal spell work. 

919
00:50:25,640 --> 00:50:29,600
You better not be speaking I'll 
on my name or you won't be happy

920
00:50:29,600 --> 00:50:33,640
with your results and I don't 
care what happens to you at this

921
00:50:33,640 --> 00:50:34,760
point. 
See, I used to care. 

922
00:50:34,960 --> 00:50:37,440
I used to like, Oh my God, I 
don't want them. 

923
00:50:37,640 --> 00:50:40,480
No, I want you to feel it. 
I really want you to feel it. 

924
00:50:40,480 --> 00:50:44,240
When I started seeing people 
weave in their tongue swells and

925
00:50:44,240 --> 00:50:47,240
their hair falls out and the 
tires fall off their car and to 

926
00:50:47,240 --> 00:50:50,480
spell work, I was like, huh, 
that's crazy. 

927
00:50:50,600 --> 00:50:54,000
And now I'm like, damn, they 
were before their time. 

928
00:50:54,320 --> 00:50:57,040
They knew what the fuck was up. 
And I'm not saying that I'm out 

929
00:50:57,040 --> 00:51:01,440
here doing that to just innocent
people, but if you have one, 

930
00:51:01,440 --> 00:51:05,560
I'll bone in your body, one 
jealous bone, one envious bone 

931
00:51:05,560 --> 00:51:08,760
that you're sending towards me, 
you better watch the fuck out. 

932
00:51:08,760 --> 00:51:12,240
You better put a full body cast 
on because I don't know what 

933
00:51:12,240 --> 00:51:15,080
will happen to you. 
Like put a helmet on in the car,

934
00:51:15,240 --> 00:51:16,600
wear a mask. 
You need it. 

935
00:51:16,640 --> 00:51:18,960
You know what I mean? 
Like I'm seriously at that point

936
00:51:18,960 --> 00:51:22,480
and I think that all of the nice
girl like, oh, I want to be 

937
00:51:23,000 --> 00:51:25,200
rated E for everyone. 
I want to help everyone. 

938
00:51:25,200 --> 00:51:28,160
I want to save everyone. 
I do not care anymore. 

939
00:51:28,360 --> 00:51:32,000
Like after you've done went to 
the depths of your own soul and 

940
00:51:32,000 --> 00:51:36,160
saw your shadow and faced your 
demons as loudly as possible and

941
00:51:36,160 --> 00:51:40,400
as real as possible, I no longer
need approval from anything in 

942
00:51:40,400 --> 00:51:42,800
this world. 
I no longer work for any 

943
00:51:43,520 --> 00:51:46,080
energies in this world. 
That's people, places, things 

944
00:51:46,080 --> 00:51:49,960
included. 
Like I'm on a you're either with

945
00:51:49,960 --> 00:51:51,560
it or you're getting left 
behind. 

946
00:51:51,560 --> 00:51:53,640
I'm no longer dragging you with 
me energy. 

947
00:51:56,400 --> 00:51:57,680
Amen. 
Are we ending? 

948
00:51:57,680 --> 00:52:00,720
On that, no, because that's the 
perfect thing on a question. 

949
00:52:01,360 --> 00:52:02,160
OK. 
Is it? 

950
00:52:02,160 --> 00:52:05,080
Your turn or mine, it's yours. 
OK. 

951
00:52:07,840 --> 00:52:10,280
How do we balance? 
Individual's spiritual paths 

952
00:52:10,280 --> 00:52:13,160
with collective responsibility, 
ensuring that we don't 

953
00:52:13,160 --> 00:52:17,000
contribute to cultural 
appropriation or the misuse of 

954
00:52:17,000 --> 00:52:22,160
sacred traditions. 
Educating yourself. 

955
00:52:22,160 --> 00:52:24,320
And we've talked about that 
before when we've talked about 

956
00:52:24,320 --> 00:52:26,440
like closed practices on things 
like that. 

957
00:52:26,440 --> 00:52:29,560
I think that researching things 
and educating things for 

958
00:52:29,560 --> 00:52:33,200
yourself while you're figuring 
out what works for you, there's 

959
00:52:33,200 --> 00:52:37,800
not a problem with you doing 
with you learning certain 

960
00:52:37,800 --> 00:52:40,360
things. 
It's you invoking energies or 

961
00:52:40,360 --> 00:52:44,720
whatever that you're not 
understanding that you aren't 

962
00:52:44,720 --> 00:52:47,160
specifically supposed to be 
working with. 

963
00:52:49,200 --> 00:52:52,720
So I, I don't really, I feel 
like that's a really difficult 

964
00:52:52,720 --> 00:52:55,200
question because I feel like 
there's a lot of different 

965
00:52:55,200 --> 00:52:58,160
pieces. 
I don't think that it fucks with

966
00:52:58,160 --> 00:53:01,400
the collective in any capacity 
for you to fuck around and find 

967
00:53:01,400 --> 00:53:03,640
out, but I think that it fucks 
with you. 

968
00:53:03,640 --> 00:53:07,880
So if you're going to be doing 
anything that's manipulating 

969
00:53:07,880 --> 00:53:11,320
energy in any sort of way, you 
should understand that there's 

970
00:53:11,320 --> 00:53:14,040
always a, a reaction to 
something. 

971
00:53:14,280 --> 00:53:17,120
That something that you do 
always has a consequence. 

972
00:53:17,120 --> 00:53:19,160
It might be a positive 
consequence, it might be a 

973
00:53:19,160 --> 00:53:22,280
negative consequence, but 
regardless of what you're doing,

974
00:53:22,280 --> 00:53:25,560
there's always a consequence. 
And I use money spells as an 

975
00:53:25,560 --> 00:53:28,040
example all the time when I'm 
teaching classes. 

976
00:53:28,600 --> 00:53:32,400
You can do a money spell and 
you, you know, your purpose of 

977
00:53:32,400 --> 00:53:35,880
it is that you have more income 
coming into your home. 

978
00:53:36,160 --> 00:53:40,080
The consequence of that is that 
you're going to have to work 

979
00:53:40,080 --> 00:53:42,880
more. 
You're going to have, you know, 

980
00:53:42,960 --> 00:53:46,760
did you put specifics into that 
spell working for that money 

981
00:53:46,760 --> 00:53:50,280
coming to you ethically for you 
not having to go out and do 

982
00:53:50,280 --> 00:53:52,760
something that you don't want to
do to make that money come in, 

983
00:53:53,680 --> 00:53:56,200
You know, is that money that 
you're then going to have to pay

984
00:53:56,200 --> 00:53:58,120
back later on that you're not 
going to have. 

985
00:53:58,280 --> 00:54:01,880
So there's always just a 
consequence with whatever it is 

986
00:54:01,880 --> 00:54:05,520
that you're doing energetically.
I think that it affects you 

987
00:54:05,520 --> 00:54:08,920
personally and then what you 
choose to do with your fuck 

988
00:54:08,920 --> 00:54:13,480
around and find out is what 
affects other people and has a 

989
00:54:13,600 --> 00:54:15,480
collective reaction to 
something. 

990
00:54:15,720 --> 00:54:19,920
It might just affect, you know, 
it if it might just affect you 

991
00:54:20,320 --> 00:54:23,240
having this money pouring in, 
whatever at first, but then 

992
00:54:23,240 --> 00:54:25,640
that's going to trickle into 
your family as far as like, 

993
00:54:25,960 --> 00:54:27,520
what's the consequence for that 
money? 

994
00:54:27,520 --> 00:54:29,760
Where did you get that money? 
How did you get that money? 

995
00:54:29,760 --> 00:54:31,560
Are you cool with the way that 
you got that money? 

996
00:54:31,560 --> 00:54:34,800
Can you, you know, was that part
of your ethics and your morals 

997
00:54:34,800 --> 00:54:36,560
how you got it? 
Did you have to take from 

998
00:54:36,560 --> 00:54:39,280
somebody else to get it? 
And I think that's when it 

999
00:54:39,280 --> 00:54:42,680
starts to affect people around 
you and. 

1000
00:54:42,720 --> 00:54:46,600
To add to. 
That I feel like I'm real big on

1001
00:54:46,840 --> 00:54:50,160
amplification, like of what I'm 
sending out. 

1002
00:54:50,400 --> 00:54:53,200
So like, I'm not going to send 
you anything that you haven't 

1003
00:54:53,360 --> 00:54:55,760
physically tried to send out to 
someone else, whether it's just 

1004
00:54:55,760 --> 00:55:00,880
like shady ass, enter stealing, 
being manipulative, being a 

1005
00:55:00,880 --> 00:55:03,200
narcissist, just whatever it is 
that you're doing, I'm about to 

1006
00:55:03,200 --> 00:55:06,120
amplify that back to you. 
So also I got to say is if you 

1007
00:55:06,120 --> 00:55:09,040
want to stay above board with 
everything, don't be sending ill

1008
00:55:09,040 --> 00:55:11,960
will out there because the 
person who mirrors it amplifies 

1009
00:55:11,960 --> 00:55:14,240
that to you. 
You're not going to like it. 

1010
00:55:14,640 --> 00:55:18,840
And the universe will return 
whatever you're putting out. 

1011
00:55:18,840 --> 00:55:23,320
And I do think that we as 
practitioners have to learn 

1012
00:55:23,360 --> 00:55:27,240
deeper into our craft to get to 
the breaking point where it's 

1013
00:55:27,240 --> 00:55:31,280
like, wow, I can't save 
everyone, but I was trying, not 

1014
00:55:31,280 --> 00:55:34,480
you lead yourself to burnout. 
So I think that's where both of 

1015
00:55:34,480 --> 00:55:35,800
us taking a step. 
Back is so. 

1016
00:55:35,800 --> 00:55:39,400
Divinely guided because most 
people would not, especially at 

1017
00:55:39,400 --> 00:55:42,480
the height of their social media
presence or the height of their 

1018
00:55:42,480 --> 00:55:44,480
business. 
All this money is trying to come

1019
00:55:44,480 --> 00:55:46,600
in. 
But when you tell the universe, 

1020
00:55:47,040 --> 00:55:49,360
I'm good on that, I'm going to 
take a step back and focus on 

1021
00:55:49,360 --> 00:55:51,240
me, it's only going to give you 
more. 

1022
00:55:51,400 --> 00:55:55,960
So I really feel like nothing 
worth losing can be lost, but 

1023
00:55:55,960 --> 00:55:59,200
you have to put the energy and 
intention out there to to 

1024
00:55:59,200 --> 00:56:02,200
receive what you are. 
I truly feel. 

1025
00:56:02,200 --> 00:56:05,680
Like everything that you and I 
are stepping back from right 

1026
00:56:05,680 --> 00:56:07,560
now. 
Like you, you know, you're 

1027
00:56:07,560 --> 00:56:10,120
stepping back from the live 
readings and what you were 

1028
00:56:10,120 --> 00:56:11,800
doing. 
I'm stepping back from social 

1029
00:56:11,800 --> 00:56:16,400
media and creating content and 
whatever I feel like that's 

1030
00:56:16,400 --> 00:56:21,440
freeing up so much time and 
energy and like mental space and

1031
00:56:21,440 --> 00:56:25,720
freedom for so many other things
to come in and for us to be able

1032
00:56:25,720 --> 00:56:28,800
to see new directions. 
I would, I have been operating 

1033
00:56:28,800 --> 00:56:33,760
on burnout for so long and like 
frustration that it doesn't 

1034
00:56:33,760 --> 00:56:37,200
matter to me that it was the 
height of, you know, social 

1035
00:56:37,200 --> 00:56:39,640
media or I was making the most 
money that I've ever made or 

1036
00:56:39,640 --> 00:56:43,600
anything else like that. 
Personal peace and being able to

1037
00:56:43,600 --> 00:56:47,080
see different options, and I 
know you're experiencing that 

1038
00:56:47,080 --> 00:56:52,000
too, is so much more comfort 
than the dollar amount or the 

1039
00:56:52,160 --> 00:56:56,400
the feeling of success or 
anything that it really comes a 

1040
00:56:56,400 --> 00:57:02,320
point where it's like the 
success isn't worth the mental 

1041
00:57:02,320 --> 00:57:06,360
exhaustion. 
And what even is that success? 

1042
00:57:06,480 --> 00:57:10,000
Like, yeah, OK, cool. 
I reached the goals that I had. 

1043
00:57:10,320 --> 00:57:13,040
It really doesn't fucking feel 
as good as you think it's going 

1044
00:57:13,040 --> 00:57:16,280
to feel. 
And, and I'll say that like I 

1045
00:57:16,280 --> 00:57:19,040
hit every fucking goal that I 
set out for myself. 

1046
00:57:19,360 --> 00:57:22,360
That success feeling feels 
fucking lonely. 

1047
00:57:22,600 --> 00:57:24,920
People want to pull from you and
drain you. 

1048
00:57:24,920 --> 00:57:28,000
And if you are not doing the 
things that truly make you 

1049
00:57:28,000 --> 00:57:30,240
fucking happy and fulfilled, it 
doesn't. 

1050
00:57:30,320 --> 00:57:32,920
Doesn't matter the money, it 
doesn't matter the people. 

1051
00:57:33,200 --> 00:57:35,680
It feels fucking lonely and 
draining. 

1052
00:57:36,440 --> 00:57:39,800
And that's why they. 
Say rich and famous and all 

1053
00:57:39,800 --> 00:57:42,880
these people like they're just 
people and they have more 

1054
00:57:42,880 --> 00:57:46,360
problems than you could imagine.
So with that note, money won't 

1055
00:57:46,360 --> 00:57:48,320
fix your problems. 
Healing will. 

1056
00:57:48,560 --> 00:57:51,080
And we will see you next time in
fucking Candyland. 

1057
00:57:51,240 --> 00:57:52,760
Bye, guys. 
Bye. 

1058
00:57:52,840 --> 00:58:01,200
Uh huh. 
Yeah, he says. 

1059
00:58:01,280 --> 00:58:03,200
She's so sweet, man. 
Come on. 

1060
00:58:03,360 --> 00:58:06,680
Like the rapper live me like a 
lollipop. 

1061
00:58:06,840 --> 00:58:14,120
Lollipop, lollipop, lollipop, 
lollipop, lollipop, lollipop, 

1062
00:58:14,120 --> 00:58:18,640
lollipop. 
You want to swallow my spirit 

1063
00:58:19,000 --> 00:58:20,720
and penetrate my aura? 
Taste. 

1064
00:58:21,080 --> 00:58:23,040
All of my consciousness is 
obvious. 

1065
00:58:23,040 --> 00:58:26,800
We're goddesses full of the 
divine femininity.