1 00:00:03,920 --> 00:00:13,560 Yeah. You said she's so sweet. 2 00:00:14,720 --> 00:00:21,720 Welcome back to Candyland. We are here again and we have a 3 00:00:21,720 --> 00:00:25,160 lot to say about the holidays coming up. 4 00:00:25,320 --> 00:00:29,400 This is the time where you find out Is the healing working? 5 00:00:29,400 --> 00:00:33,000 Is my shadow work and my therapy working? 6 00:00:33,000 --> 00:00:38,520 Or does Grandma still trigger me when she says something about my 7 00:00:38,520 --> 00:00:43,880 weight or my partner or my kids or my job? 8 00:00:43,880 --> 00:00:47,240 You know what I mean? Like this is the time to test 9 00:00:47,240 --> 00:00:52,400 your boundaries and to stay in your power and to not feed into 10 00:00:52,400 --> 00:00:56,080 the drama. Yeah, and to look back, I feel 11 00:00:56,080 --> 00:01:00,560 like I can see still surrounding you that last year you were 12 00:01:00,560 --> 00:01:02,320 like, oh, damn. Like I'm going to get rid of 13 00:01:02,320 --> 00:01:05,239 them in 2024. What people did you carry with 14 00:01:05,239 --> 00:01:07,160 you? Who have you been, you know, 15 00:01:07,760 --> 00:01:10,520 taking up the mountain with you because they don't want to hike, 16 00:01:10,520 --> 00:01:13,080 but you want them to go along on the journey or whatever? 17 00:01:14,280 --> 00:01:16,360 Exactly. And I think sometimes we make 18 00:01:16,360 --> 00:01:19,880 excuses for people and then you have to realize that you're 19 00:01:19,880 --> 00:01:23,640 choosing, like if you're choosing to go somewhere where 20 00:01:23,640 --> 00:01:28,600 you don't feel welcome or supported or invited, you're a 21 00:01:28,600 --> 00:01:33,160 grown adult making that choice. So we're here to just remind you 22 00:01:33,240 --> 00:01:37,760 to hold your boundaries firm, especially during the holidays, 23 00:01:37,760 --> 00:01:42,880 because that's the time when people will guilt trip you and 24 00:01:42,880 --> 00:01:45,360 try to get you to to do what they want you to do. 25 00:01:46,400 --> 00:01:51,920 I think that also too, it's important for us as people to 26 00:01:51,960 --> 00:01:55,240 not second guess what our feelings are and like retract 27 00:01:55,240 --> 00:01:59,200 what our feelings are because somebody acts differently or 28 00:01:59,200 --> 00:02:01,680 does something kind. And that's something that like 29 00:02:01,680 --> 00:02:05,000 I've been finding for me is like, you know, I'll have a 30 00:02:05,000 --> 00:02:08,160 strong opinion about something or I'll have a dislike about a 31 00:02:08,160 --> 00:02:11,720 way that I'm being treated. And then somebody will do 32 00:02:11,720 --> 00:02:15,720 something nice or they'll, you know, they'll do something kind 33 00:02:15,720 --> 00:02:18,680 or say something kind. And I'm like, oh, wait, maybe 34 00:02:18,680 --> 00:02:21,360 I've just like, maybe they're not really treating me that way. 35 00:02:21,360 --> 00:02:24,760 And maybe I'm just looking at it wrong or I need to have like, 36 00:02:24,800 --> 00:02:26,480 you know, a little bit of forgiveness or something. 37 00:02:26,480 --> 00:02:30,640 Maybe they're going through a hard time and I'll, I'll talk 38 00:02:30,640 --> 00:02:33,520 myself out of something and then they'll do that same behavior 39 00:02:33,520 --> 00:02:35,000 and I'm like, oh damn, I should have known. 40 00:02:35,440 --> 00:02:39,200 And it's so tricky. I feel like when we are on a 41 00:02:39,200 --> 00:02:42,120 healing journey for like, okay, well, part of my healing journey 42 00:02:42,120 --> 00:02:43,680 is I'm like learning forgiveness. 43 00:02:43,680 --> 00:02:47,200 You can learn forgiveness and you can forgive people because 44 00:02:47,200 --> 00:02:51,280 you have an understanding of traumas that influence the way 45 00:02:51,280 --> 00:02:53,040 that they behave or the way that they act. 46 00:02:53,320 --> 00:02:57,000 But that doesn't mean that it's been an excuse that makes the 47 00:02:57,000 --> 00:03:00,840 behavior OK, and that you have to stay there and tolerate it 48 00:03:00,840 --> 00:03:02,760 because you've given a reason to do it. 49 00:03:03,800 --> 00:03:07,720 And to add to that, like we make the most excuses for people 50 00:03:07,720 --> 00:03:11,960 where like we feel trapped, like, well, that's my mom, 51 00:03:12,200 --> 00:03:14,720 that's my sister. That's just how my sister acts. 52 00:03:14,720 --> 00:03:18,000 Or oh, that's just how her husband acts when he drinks or 53 00:03:18,240 --> 00:03:21,560 you know, whatever it may be. So if you find yourself sweeping 54 00:03:21,560 --> 00:03:25,720 behaviors under the rug that maybe you would hold a stranger 55 00:03:26,040 --> 00:03:30,080 to a different standard or a friend even to a different 56 00:03:30,080 --> 00:03:33,400 standard, but you're allowing your brother-in-law or your 57 00:03:33,400 --> 00:03:38,120 sister or someone in your family to treat you some type of way. 58 00:03:38,440 --> 00:03:42,280 Like, how are you going to to expect some random stranger to 59 00:03:42,280 --> 00:03:46,400 get your pronouns correct? But then like, make excuses for 60 00:03:46,400 --> 00:03:49,680 your uncle or your dad? You know, I understand that 61 00:03:49,680 --> 00:03:52,760 sometimes people want to be themselves. 62 00:03:52,760 --> 00:03:55,800 But if you're going to be yourself, compromising your 63 00:03:55,800 --> 00:03:59,440 boundaries around those that you love does not help you build the 64 00:03:59,440 --> 00:04:02,520 confidence and the courage to be yourself out in public. 65 00:04:03,800 --> 00:04:07,840 I think it's we don't always recognize either when we're 66 00:04:07,840 --> 00:04:11,240 limiting ourselves and making ourselves small to make other 67 00:04:11,240 --> 00:04:14,120 people feel comfortable or what not. 68 00:04:14,120 --> 00:04:18,680 I have found recently that there's a certain way that I 69 00:04:18,680 --> 00:04:21,920 have filtered things that I've talked about or topics that you 70 00:04:21,920 --> 00:04:26,320 and I discussed or whatever out of making it, wanting it to be 71 00:04:26,320 --> 00:04:28,600 comfortable for other people inside of my life. 72 00:04:28,800 --> 00:04:31,720 Not that I have something bad to say, but just like maybe this 73 00:04:31,720 --> 00:04:33,560 topic would make them uncomfortable if I talked about 74 00:04:33,560 --> 00:04:36,120 it or if I gave details about it or whatever. 75 00:04:36,320 --> 00:04:39,320 And at the end of the day, that's still making yourself 76 00:04:39,320 --> 00:04:41,280 small. It's making your voice small. 77 00:04:41,440 --> 00:04:46,120 It is compromising you speaking your truths and your feelings 78 00:04:46,120 --> 00:04:49,200 and your points of view about something because of somebody 79 00:04:49,200 --> 00:04:52,040 else's lens about how they're going to receive that. 80 00:04:52,400 --> 00:04:56,200 And I think that a lot of the things that you and I are 81 00:04:56,200 --> 00:04:58,840 talking about right now are things that people don't 82 00:04:58,840 --> 00:05:01,360 necessarily always realize that they're doing. 83 00:05:01,360 --> 00:05:04,720 People don't always realize that they're compromising their 84 00:05:04,720 --> 00:05:10,960 personal piece or their voice or you know, something too is like 85 00:05:12,560 --> 00:05:17,520 people pleasing is such a part of what we're told to do and how 86 00:05:17,520 --> 00:05:20,080 we're supposed to be. And like, if you're not people 87 00:05:20,080 --> 00:05:23,920 pleasing, then you're just being selfish and and whatnot. 88 00:05:24,160 --> 00:05:29,320 And I think there is such a fine line between you focusing your 89 00:05:29,320 --> 00:05:35,360 experience on yourself and then helping others or contributing 90 00:05:35,360 --> 00:05:38,120 to others when you have the energy to do so, and that not 91 00:05:38,120 --> 00:05:43,000 being considered selfish. I think that so much of our 92 00:05:43,000 --> 00:05:47,560 society benefits from the lack of taking care of ourselves, 93 00:05:47,560 --> 00:05:51,200 which is why people self medicate and they go do things 94 00:05:51,200 --> 00:05:54,160 that are self-destructive. And I do believe that is the 95 00:05:54,160 --> 00:05:59,200 reason that we stay in this loop of just like working, living, 96 00:05:59,200 --> 00:06:04,080 eating, sleeping kind of thing. Like so many people within our 97 00:06:04,080 --> 00:06:10,800 society don't feel like they are fully themselves or that they 98 00:06:10,800 --> 00:06:14,360 can fully be happy or that they can fully be seen. 99 00:06:14,360 --> 00:06:19,200 And most people, you know, falsely think that money is 100 00:06:19,200 --> 00:06:22,040 going to fix those problems or things like that, but they don't 101 00:06:22,040 --> 00:06:24,360 realize that that's that disconnect with your higher 102 00:06:24,360 --> 00:06:26,640 self. If you truly do not know 103 00:06:26,640 --> 00:06:31,840 yourself outside of labels, symbols, society standards, 104 00:06:32,080 --> 00:06:36,840 society expectations, recognitions, things like that, 105 00:06:37,120 --> 00:06:39,320 then you don't really know yourself and you really don't 106 00:06:39,320 --> 00:06:42,240 know what you want. So it's not going to be money or 107 00:06:42,240 --> 00:06:44,880 the perfect job or perfect partner that's going to fix you. 108 00:06:45,280 --> 00:06:48,480 It's going to be you getting to know yourself and setting in 109 00:06:48,480 --> 00:06:53,320 those uncomfortable questions that you have that are 110 00:06:53,320 --> 00:06:55,400 unanswered currently. You know what I mean? 111 00:06:55,400 --> 00:06:58,280 And I think that's why so many people are turning to 112 00:06:58,280 --> 00:07:01,920 spirituality or people turn to religion or they turn to drugs 113 00:07:01,920 --> 00:07:04,280 or whatever it may be because people need an outlet. 114 00:07:04,480 --> 00:07:08,400 No matter what it is, it could be a positive, beautiful outlet 115 00:07:08,400 --> 00:07:11,480 or it could be a self-destructive negative 116 00:07:11,600 --> 00:07:16,240 outlet, but I think society is so disconnected because people 117 00:07:16,240 --> 00:07:21,160 are not channeling into the outlets that are good for them. 118 00:07:23,400 --> 00:07:27,120 Oh yeah, I agree with that. I that's kind of deep too, not 119 00:07:27,120 --> 00:07:29,720 channeling into the outlets that are good for them. 120 00:07:30,120 --> 00:07:36,760 And I think surrounding yourself with people who are yes people 121 00:07:36,760 --> 00:07:41,960 and who are enablers really adds to that and stops the self 122 00:07:41,960 --> 00:07:45,600 reflection and stops you from putting yourself into different 123 00:07:45,600 --> 00:07:48,600 rooms. You know, you can have, you 124 00:07:48,600 --> 00:07:52,560 know, 100 people inside of your life tell you, you know, you're 125 00:07:52,680 --> 00:07:56,120 dependent on spending your money on coffee every single morning 126 00:07:56,120 --> 00:07:57,640 and it's the reason that you're broke. 127 00:07:57,880 --> 00:08:02,440 But then if you have, you know, 101 friends who are like, oh, 128 00:08:02,440 --> 00:08:04,800 no, we do that too. Like it's not a problem. 129 00:08:05,120 --> 00:08:07,520 Well, you still have the problem. 130 00:08:07,560 --> 00:08:10,040 You're still spending the money. There are people pointing that 131 00:08:10,040 --> 00:08:13,240 out to you. But you're choosing to close off 132 00:08:13,240 --> 00:08:16,720 your viewpoint of those people and listening to them so that 133 00:08:16,720 --> 00:08:19,960 you can listen to the yes men who are having the same exact 134 00:08:19,960 --> 00:08:22,040 problem. And if you are surrounding 135 00:08:22,040 --> 00:08:26,920 yourself with people who are into addiction on things or who 136 00:08:26,920 --> 00:08:31,920 are not responsible with finances or whatever, you're 137 00:08:31,920 --> 00:08:33,960 going to just do the same exact thing that they're doing. 138 00:08:33,960 --> 00:08:37,440 Which is why we've always talked about the people that you 139 00:08:37,440 --> 00:08:40,159 surround yourself with and that you're with on a daily basis and 140 00:08:40,159 --> 00:08:43,960 that you take advice from in life is so important. 141 00:08:43,960 --> 00:08:48,000 It doesn't matter what a wonderful person you are or 142 00:08:48,000 --> 00:08:52,480 whatever, if you have people who are going to sit there and tell 143 00:08:52,480 --> 00:08:55,120 you that your bad decisions are great decisions because they're 144 00:08:55,120 --> 00:08:56,720 the same decisions that they make. 145 00:08:57,000 --> 00:08:59,080 Well, then you're going to end up in the same situations that 146 00:08:59,080 --> 00:09:01,400 those people are in that you think you're being like a 147 00:09:01,680 --> 00:09:04,560 helpful friend to or like a supportive friend because 148 00:09:04,560 --> 00:09:06,840 they're going through a lot. You'll find out you're going 149 00:09:06,840 --> 00:09:08,440 through a lot. It's like when you have a friend 150 00:09:08,640 --> 00:09:11,080 that's always in the fucking drama and bullshit and you're 151 00:09:11,080 --> 00:09:12,320 like, I don't want any part of that. 152 00:09:12,520 --> 00:09:18,240 Eventually that person's like decay of friendships ends up 153 00:09:18,240 --> 00:09:21,240 following its way to you and you end up getting soaked into it 154 00:09:21,240 --> 00:09:24,360 somehow. Yeah, someone once said that 155 00:09:24,360 --> 00:09:29,440 people who are used to drama or chaos, no matter how peaceful or 156 00:09:29,440 --> 00:09:33,400 happy their life becomes, they will always wait for the dust to 157 00:09:33,400 --> 00:09:36,480 settle and then they will kick it back up because that's what 158 00:09:36,480 --> 00:09:39,200 they're used to. So they will may have a perfect 159 00:09:39,200 --> 00:09:45,120 marriage and then go cheat or lie or, you know, steal money 160 00:09:45,120 --> 00:09:49,840 from their partner or something deceitful and not even really 161 00:09:49,840 --> 00:09:54,320 recognize that that is their subconscious programming kicking 162 00:09:54,320 --> 00:09:56,680 up the dirt. Or, you know, kind of like 163 00:09:56,680 --> 00:10:01,440 people who get like promotions at jobs and then end up like 164 00:10:01,440 --> 00:10:05,200 laundering money. I've had many people come to me 165 00:10:05,520 --> 00:10:09,040 throughout my career, like being in connection with someone who's 166 00:10:09,040 --> 00:10:12,800 laundered money either from their business or their personal 167 00:10:12,800 --> 00:10:15,200 assets. Some people like that were like 168 00:10:15,200 --> 00:10:17,880 close friends and family, super common. 169 00:10:17,880 --> 00:10:21,160 You all like you start making business moves and you're like, 170 00:10:21,160 --> 00:10:24,120 oh, I want to bring the people in that I know and that I can 171 00:10:24,120 --> 00:10:27,840 trust. And then it be those people who 172 00:10:29,280 --> 00:10:31,680 thank you, OK? They trust me. 173 00:10:32,920 --> 00:10:36,400 Gotcha. That's just so weird. 174 00:10:36,400 --> 00:10:37,920 But there are people who do that for a living. 175 00:10:37,920 --> 00:10:41,720 There are people who only make an income by stealing from other 176 00:10:41,720 --> 00:10:46,240 people and by seeming like they're a good person And even 177 00:10:46,240 --> 00:10:49,480 to the point of like making friendships with people who have 178 00:10:49,480 --> 00:10:52,320 money just because they can be like, I'm going through a hard 179 00:10:52,320 --> 00:10:56,320 time right now, like, you know, whatever and manipulate their 180 00:10:56,320 --> 00:10:58,840 way into getting something from somebody. 181 00:10:59,200 --> 00:11:03,320 And that's something that I have been just more aware of and on 182 00:11:03,320 --> 00:11:06,480 guard with. I think over the last year, like 183 00:11:06,480 --> 00:11:11,240 you and I have talked a lot about, you know, I, I put myself 184 00:11:11,280 --> 00:11:15,680 in the positions of, of if I feel like I can help somebody 185 00:11:15,680 --> 00:11:18,600 with something with, you know, they're just starting out their 186 00:11:18,600 --> 00:11:21,200 business or they need advice on something, or I feel like I can 187 00:11:21,200 --> 00:11:23,600 recommend them to somebody, then I will. 188 00:11:23,880 --> 00:11:31,000 And I'm learning the signs of people who genuinely want to be 189 00:11:31,000 --> 00:11:33,920 a part of things and who want help and the people who are just 190 00:11:33,920 --> 00:11:37,280 like, oh, cool, Well, I don't have to put in any work because 191 00:11:37,320 --> 00:11:39,320 she's just going to shout me out to everybody and have people 192 00:11:39,320 --> 00:11:43,200 come over and, and, you know, get readings or, you know, buy 193 00:11:43,200 --> 00:11:45,400 things from my shop or whatever. So I don't need to put in the 194 00:11:45,400 --> 00:11:47,520 effort. And there's a lot of different 195 00:11:47,520 --> 00:11:50,840 ways that I think our energy and our time gets taken advantage 196 00:11:50,840 --> 00:11:53,080 of. We think, but it's because we're 197 00:11:53,080 --> 00:11:54,960 putting ourselves in those positions. 198 00:11:55,040 --> 00:11:58,240 It's my fault if I'm putting myself in the Captain save a Ho 199 00:11:58,240 --> 00:12:02,360 predicament and then being upset that you're a hoe and you're 200 00:12:02,360 --> 00:12:07,040 relying on me to save you. I've been very serious on 201 00:12:07,040 --> 00:12:11,080 boundaries as far as like if I've had a couple sessions with 202 00:12:11,080 --> 00:12:16,240 someone and they just feel like not that it's not helping them, 203 00:12:16,240 --> 00:12:20,160 but that there's still something lingering or in their words, 204 00:12:20,160 --> 00:12:23,680 something attached to them. I'm very highly recommending 205 00:12:23,680 --> 00:12:28,520 them to someone else that deals with attachments and things like 206 00:12:28,520 --> 00:12:31,120 that. Because I just feel like there's 207 00:12:31,120 --> 00:12:33,480 a certain like niche for everyone. 208 00:12:33,840 --> 00:12:38,720 And I think that some people don't do the work and they want 209 00:12:38,800 --> 00:12:43,240 to have a psychic or a guru or a mentor or someone lead them to 210 00:12:43,240 --> 00:12:46,360 the answer. And although I can channel what 211 00:12:46,360 --> 00:12:49,640 spirit wants you to know at this time, I can't lead you to the 212 00:12:49,640 --> 00:12:53,480 ultimate epiphany moment that you are supposed to have on your 213 00:12:53,480 --> 00:12:57,080 soul's journey. And you know, I'm, I'm not going 214 00:12:57,080 --> 00:13:03,680 to bend over backwards if I feel like my services have exceeded 215 00:13:03,680 --> 00:13:05,720 here, like I've done all that I can do for you. 216 00:13:07,760 --> 00:13:11,800 A pet peeve that I am discovering is, and we've talked 217 00:13:11,800 --> 00:13:14,520 before about the people who just want to reach out and be like I 218 00:13:14,520 --> 00:13:19,120 have an attachment or you know, whatever, but that is becoming 219 00:13:19,120 --> 00:13:22,920 such a huge pet peeve to me. And what I find is that people 220 00:13:23,400 --> 00:13:27,080 want to trauma dump things and be like, for the last four 221 00:13:27,080 --> 00:13:30,280 years, I've had this demon at my back and my grandmother died and 222 00:13:30,280 --> 00:13:33,000 my husband shot himself and my child drowned in the pool. 223 00:13:33,280 --> 00:13:35,960 And I haven't had Thanksgiving dinner for four years. 224 00:13:36,320 --> 00:13:38,840 And then they're like, can you help me with this? 225 00:13:38,840 --> 00:13:42,560 And you go or, you know, I'll respond and be like, you know, 226 00:13:42,680 --> 00:13:44,200 thanks for sharing all that. Whatever. 227 00:13:44,200 --> 00:13:46,200 I have this service on my website. 228 00:13:46,680 --> 00:13:50,480 Just letting you know, like, and I don't operate inside of 229 00:13:50,480 --> 00:13:52,560 negative energy. I'm not trying to connect with 230 00:13:52,560 --> 00:13:55,520 whatever is attached to you. Like I'm happy to do a reading. 231 00:13:55,760 --> 00:13:58,400 We're going to focus on different directions that you 232 00:13:58,400 --> 00:14:00,120 have different things that you can be doing. 233 00:14:00,120 --> 00:14:02,000 Maybe there's different ways that you can be cleansing your 234 00:14:02,000 --> 00:14:03,800 space. Like, you know, I give different 235 00:14:03,800 --> 00:14:05,800 things, but you have to book this session and then they're 236 00:14:05,800 --> 00:14:10,440 like, you just want money. And I, I'm like, when you go to 237 00:14:10,440 --> 00:14:13,080 therapy, like is the reason you're not in therapy because it 238 00:14:13,080 --> 00:14:14,880 costs money? Cool. 239 00:14:14,880 --> 00:14:17,160 Is the reason you don't have food in your house because 240 00:14:17,160 --> 00:14:19,200 groceries cost money? Cool. 241 00:14:19,480 --> 00:14:22,000 Maybe the reason that you're not getting like the spiritual 242 00:14:22,000 --> 00:14:24,680 advice that you're seeking when you're trauma dumping is because 243 00:14:24,920 --> 00:14:29,680 it's costing some type of energy exchange monetarily, like, you 244 00:14:29,680 --> 00:14:32,000 know, crocheting a fucking blanket in exchange. 245 00:14:32,000 --> 00:14:34,400 I don't know, but it it's something. 246 00:14:35,880 --> 00:14:42,280 Here lately, I have had like a surplus coming into my life who 247 00:14:42,280 --> 00:14:48,000 are like, they're not skeptical, but they're just not exposed. 248 00:14:48,000 --> 00:14:50,800 Like they haven't been exposed to the information. 249 00:14:50,800 --> 00:14:53,280 So it's not that they're skeptical, it's just that it is 250 00:14:53,600 --> 00:14:56,040 truly unknown. So I can tell when people are 251 00:14:56,040 --> 00:14:59,640 genuinely like wanting to ask questions that will educate them 252 00:14:59,640 --> 00:15:03,480 to make the right decision to, you know, book a reading or book 253 00:15:03,480 --> 00:15:05,760 a session. And then I can just tell when 254 00:15:05,840 --> 00:15:09,000 and people are just like wanting to feel like they have access to 255 00:15:09,000 --> 00:15:11,680 you as well. But I mean, I definitely 256 00:15:11,680 --> 00:15:14,200 understand that. Like if I'm going to spend, you 257 00:15:14,200 --> 00:15:16,800 know, 50 plus dollars on something and I have a few 258 00:15:16,800 --> 00:15:18,760 questions, like I'm going to feel free to ask those 259 00:15:18,760 --> 00:15:20,800 questions. But as we've talked about 260 00:15:20,800 --> 00:15:24,760 before, there are so many spiritual practitioners and 261 00:15:24,760 --> 00:15:27,960 psychics out here charging like $1000 an hour. 262 00:15:28,320 --> 00:15:31,720 You know, there's one that charges $300.00 for 10 minutes. 263 00:15:32,040 --> 00:15:34,360 So, you know, count your blessings, baby, count your 264 00:15:34,360 --> 00:15:37,200 blessings and understand that there are people out here 265 00:15:37,200 --> 00:15:40,000 scamming and manipulating and taking advantage. 266 00:15:40,000 --> 00:15:43,440 So if there are people that you like that resonate with you, 267 00:15:43,440 --> 00:15:46,200 like take advantage of that. Like take advantage that your 268 00:15:46,200 --> 00:15:50,560 higher self has exposed you to these readers or these mediums 269 00:15:50,560 --> 00:15:53,360 or these people, not just us, but others as well. 270 00:15:53,640 --> 00:15:57,040 Because you know, there's not a lot of people that your soul is 271 00:15:57,040 --> 00:16:00,600 going to be drawn to. So you should invest and 272 00:16:00,600 --> 00:16:04,000 understand that it isn't energy exchange, and when you have 273 00:16:04,280 --> 00:16:08,280 buyer's remorse or you're not open to that flow of energy, 274 00:16:08,440 --> 00:16:11,440 you're going to in turn block the blessings coming to you. 275 00:16:12,720 --> 00:16:14,760 Yeah. And I think that asking 276 00:16:14,760 --> 00:16:18,480 questions absolutely, especially if it's like, I don't know what 277 00:16:18,480 --> 00:16:20,680 I'd like we get, you know, I don't know what reading to get. 278 00:16:20,680 --> 00:16:23,080 I'm on your site right now. This is what I have going on. 279 00:16:23,080 --> 00:16:27,480 What would you suggest that's very different than TikTok user 280 00:16:27,480 --> 00:16:34,160 349424784 who's like, this is all the tragedies of my life And 281 00:16:34,160 --> 00:16:37,480 what do you mean that you won't just pull 10 cards for me? 282 00:16:37,760 --> 00:16:42,680 You know? And I think that, again, I don't 283 00:16:42,680 --> 00:16:46,520 think that people are always consciously doing something. 284 00:16:46,720 --> 00:16:48,760 They just think this is what I'm needing. 285 00:16:48,760 --> 00:16:50,720 This is the person who can offer that. 286 00:16:51,000 --> 00:16:55,120 I'm going to reach out and that, I mean, I'm sure that there are 287 00:16:55,120 --> 00:17:01,520 times that I or you are like, OK, well, I'm just thinking that 288 00:17:01,520 --> 00:17:05,800 it's this small thing and somebody else is like, OK, well, 289 00:17:05,800 --> 00:17:08,599 it's bigger to me or I'm expecting different energy or 290 00:17:08,599 --> 00:17:10,800 whatever. And, and sometimes it can just 291 00:17:10,800 --> 00:17:18,960 come from maybe a lack of awareness of how you're coming 292 00:17:18,960 --> 00:17:22,160 across to other people or what your expectation of others is. 293 00:17:22,560 --> 00:17:25,640 And I think that that type of personal reflection is really 294 00:17:25,640 --> 00:17:27,240 important too. Maybe all the problems that 295 00:17:27,240 --> 00:17:30,200 you're having during holiday time aren't just other people, 296 00:17:30,200 --> 00:17:33,360 but maybe it's you too. And maybe it's you're not moving 297 00:17:33,360 --> 00:17:35,200 and changing inside of situations. 298 00:17:35,200 --> 00:17:39,280 And so your family is like on your Dick because you've been 299 00:17:39,280 --> 00:17:42,640 with Bobo the clown for six years and he treats you like 300 00:17:42,640 --> 00:17:45,800 shit every Thanksgiving. And then you're upset with your 301 00:17:45,800 --> 00:17:47,440 aunt because she's calling you out on it. 302 00:17:47,440 --> 00:17:49,560 Well, that's not because you don't have boundaries with your 303 00:17:49,560 --> 00:17:50,520 aunt. That's because you don't have 304 00:17:50,520 --> 00:17:53,360 boundaries in your relationship and when it's saying something 305 00:17:53,360 --> 00:17:56,920 about Bobo the fucking clown. No, that's so real. 306 00:17:56,920 --> 00:18:00,120 When I was in high school, I dated this guy and his name was 307 00:18:00,120 --> 00:18:02,880 Chance, which is just like the craziest, funniest name. 308 00:18:02,880 --> 00:18:06,160 His name was Chance. And I gave this motherfucker way 309 00:18:06,160 --> 00:18:12,000 too many chances because he was a hot mess constantly. 310 00:18:12,320 --> 00:18:17,440 And I remember I took him to my senior prom and he decided to 311 00:18:17,440 --> 00:18:23,960 like get really drunk and just like want to leave the prom. 312 00:18:24,320 --> 00:18:28,320 And it was like so annoying that I even wasted my like time like 313 00:18:28,320 --> 00:18:31,360 taking him. But at the same time, my best 314 00:18:31,360 --> 00:18:35,320 friend Erica, my high school best friend, had a boyfriend 315 00:18:35,320 --> 00:18:39,000 that was doing the same thing. So they like ganged up on us and 316 00:18:39,000 --> 00:18:42,920 like went to the car and like got drunk or while we stayed 317 00:18:42,920 --> 00:18:46,520 inside the prom. And when we left the prom, we 318 00:18:46,520 --> 00:18:49,760 were both so upset, like they just like had ruined our night 319 00:18:49,760 --> 00:18:51,320 that we just were like ready to go to bed. 320 00:18:51,480 --> 00:18:54,600 Like we were just like over it. But I look back on occurrences 321 00:18:54,600 --> 00:18:58,000 like that and I'm like, don't let chance fuck up your night. 322 00:18:58,080 --> 00:19:00,760 That's like a thing for me. Like don't let, don't let chance 323 00:19:00,760 --> 00:19:04,400 fuck your night up. Yeah, dude. 324 00:19:04,480 --> 00:19:10,640 And I, I think that everybody has like a high school, like big 325 00:19:10,640 --> 00:19:15,360 dance story about like somebody let them down or whatever. 326 00:19:15,360 --> 00:19:17,640 Because I have a homecoming story. 327 00:19:17,640 --> 00:19:19,480 I know other people that have stories. 328 00:19:19,720 --> 00:19:24,560 I think it's very prevalent and prominent when there are big 329 00:19:24,560 --> 00:19:27,960 events that you're looking good for, you're feeling yourself, 330 00:19:27,960 --> 00:19:31,520 you're like on cloud 9. You're so excited about things, 331 00:19:31,520 --> 00:19:33,640 you're talking with other people, you're interacting with 332 00:19:33,640 --> 00:19:37,960 other people, and that can make some people feel really 333 00:19:37,960 --> 00:19:39,360 insecure. And there are people who will 334 00:19:39,360 --> 00:19:41,960 tell you that they love your light, they love how you shine, 335 00:19:42,200 --> 00:19:45,200 they love your personality, they love how outgoing you are and 336 00:19:45,280 --> 00:19:48,880 and yadda yadda. But they only like it if your 337 00:19:49,920 --> 00:19:53,760 light is only so bright and you're only shining that 338 00:19:53,760 --> 00:19:58,120 personality to certain people, and you're only sharing that 339 00:19:58,120 --> 00:20:01,800 personality and your humor to certain people and talking about 340 00:20:01,800 --> 00:20:05,080 certain things and everything else makes them uncomfortable. 341 00:20:05,320 --> 00:20:09,480 And they're not going to support you being that person and that 342 00:20:09,480 --> 00:20:13,080 version of yourself. That is so real. 343 00:20:13,080 --> 00:20:17,560 I have heard that from so many clients, like, Oh yeah, he 344 00:20:17,560 --> 00:20:20,440 ruined my birthday or they ruined this event or my 345 00:20:20,440 --> 00:20:24,840 graduation or my baby shower or whatever it may be. 346 00:20:24,840 --> 00:20:30,040 And that is a sure sign to quit entertaining that person, 347 00:20:30,040 --> 00:20:35,280 whether it's your own family member, a partner, a friend, not 348 00:20:35,400 --> 00:20:38,920 even close. Would someone who actually cares 349 00:20:38,920 --> 00:20:40,640 about you do something like that? 350 00:20:41,160 --> 00:20:45,080 And I've even heard, like, people talk about this, like, 351 00:20:45,080 --> 00:20:48,160 with their best friend or like their partner. 352 00:20:48,160 --> 00:20:51,560 And that is just so humiliating. And if you truly love someone, 353 00:20:51,560 --> 00:20:54,520 you wouldn't do that to them. And I just know that in my 354 00:20:54,520 --> 00:20:58,720 heart, throughout my life, there were many, many people that I 355 00:20:58,720 --> 00:21:01,760 gave energy and time that did not deserve it. 356 00:21:02,040 --> 00:21:06,120 But I tried to like, see that as like, there's nothing wrong with 357 00:21:06,120 --> 00:21:08,400 me for trying to love the wrong people. 358 00:21:10,640 --> 00:21:15,200 I think that it's also important to recognize when we're wanting 359 00:21:15,200 --> 00:21:18,000 people to be a different way than they want to be and we're 360 00:21:18,000 --> 00:21:21,200 wanting them to change. Because in the same way that we 361 00:21:21,200 --> 00:21:23,840 don't want people to dim down our light and that we want to 362 00:21:23,840 --> 00:21:26,880 just be ourselves and be able to go out here and express and do 363 00:21:26,880 --> 00:21:30,360 what we want to do, other people deserve to be able to do that 364 00:21:30,360 --> 00:21:32,560 too. And I think that it takes a lot 365 00:21:32,560 --> 00:21:37,520 of personal accountability and responsibility to be able to 366 00:21:37,520 --> 00:21:41,000 reflect and go, are these things that I'm not liking about these 367 00:21:41,000 --> 00:21:45,080 people, things that they're going to be able to grow through 368 00:21:45,080 --> 00:21:46,400 and they're going to be able to change? 369 00:21:46,400 --> 00:21:49,840 Do I have a right to be saying that I don't like these things 370 00:21:49,840 --> 00:21:52,160 that they clearly like about themselves because they keep 371 00:21:52,160 --> 00:21:53,720 doing it. And then you have the 372 00:21:53,720 --> 00:21:57,040 responsibility to remove yourself from those situations 373 00:21:57,320 --> 00:22:01,120 because that's a part of that person and they have every right 374 00:22:01,120 --> 00:22:05,400 to do and be whatever it is that they want to do and be. 375 00:22:05,520 --> 00:22:09,040 And it's your responsibility to remove yourself from those 376 00:22:09,040 --> 00:22:13,120 people instead of expecting those people to change for you 377 00:22:13,600 --> 00:22:16,600 and to do something different and be something different than 378 00:22:16,600 --> 00:22:19,400 they are. And I think that's where a lot 379 00:22:19,400 --> 00:22:22,600 of people set themselves up for failure is that we are 380 00:22:22,600 --> 00:22:27,400 entertaining potential and we're entertaining people's like 381 00:22:28,040 --> 00:22:32,920 character that we see for them. Like, well, I know they're a 382 00:22:32,920 --> 00:22:36,320 good person or I know he wouldn't hurt me or I know he 383 00:22:36,320 --> 00:22:40,520 wouldn't still from my mom or whatever it may be. 384 00:22:40,520 --> 00:22:46,720 But a lot of the times people will gain your trust in order to 385 00:22:46,720 --> 00:22:49,120 manipulate you. And I think that the most 386 00:22:49,120 --> 00:22:51,840 important thing I'm learning is to give people the benefit of 387 00:22:51,840 --> 00:22:56,960 the doubt, but to not ignore the signs because most people, if 388 00:22:56,960 --> 00:23:00,400 they got fucked over, you can look back with hindsight and see 389 00:23:00,400 --> 00:23:04,320 the signs. Oh, every night after 11, they 390 00:23:04,320 --> 00:23:07,000 don't text back. Or, you know, just like weird 391 00:23:07,000 --> 00:23:09,320 little things that like maybe some people like, oh, he's 392 00:23:09,320 --> 00:23:13,560 asleep or maybe he's up on the phone with someone. 393 00:23:13,560 --> 00:23:16,440 Maybe he's entertaining someone that's long distance. 394 00:23:16,440 --> 00:23:19,640 Or, you know, you never know. Like, I think so many people in 395 00:23:19,640 --> 00:23:23,200 this world give the wrong people benefit of the doubt. 396 00:23:23,200 --> 00:23:26,560 And then when someone that cares about them comes forward and 397 00:23:26,560 --> 00:23:28,240 says, I know they're not good for you. 398 00:23:28,240 --> 00:23:30,640 I know I saw them on a dating app. 399 00:23:30,840 --> 00:23:34,760 You are more quick to cut off the friend or the person that's 400 00:23:34,760 --> 00:23:38,760 trying to support you rather than the person who's hurting 401 00:23:38,760 --> 00:23:42,640 you. Not the dating apps that also 402 00:23:42,640 --> 00:23:44,080 too. A lot of times the reason that 403 00:23:44,080 --> 00:23:46,800 you're second guessing yourself is because somebody else is 404 00:23:46,800 --> 00:23:51,000 gaslighting you into thinking that you're the one who has the 405 00:23:51,000 --> 00:23:54,640 problem or your friend has the problem for finding the profile 406 00:23:54,640 --> 00:24:00,160 or you're just not understanding or whatever ABC and D is. 407 00:24:00,600 --> 00:24:06,880 And somebody can give you the bare minimum of like, oh, well, 408 00:24:06,880 --> 00:24:10,200 you know, they are respectful to me in private. 409 00:24:10,200 --> 00:24:13,520 They they love me. They do this, that and the other 410 00:24:14,240 --> 00:24:17,640 that doesn't negate the other things that happen. 411 00:24:17,960 --> 00:24:26,040 And I think that people we, we get too comfortable with, Oh 412 00:24:26,040 --> 00:24:29,760 well, if they love me and they're kind to me, then all 413 00:24:29,760 --> 00:24:32,680 these other things or whatever because, well, they love me. 414 00:24:33,040 --> 00:24:35,120 Well, they're kind to me in these moments. 415 00:24:35,120 --> 00:24:37,760 Well, when it's just us and nobody else is around, they're 416 00:24:37,760 --> 00:24:40,480 really respectful. They're really respectful when 417 00:24:40,480 --> 00:24:42,920 you 2 are alone because there's nobody else there and they're 418 00:24:42,920 --> 00:24:47,520 trying to get in your pants. That's why they're super loving 419 00:24:47,520 --> 00:24:50,440 and respectful when it's just you guys and there's no other 420 00:24:50,440 --> 00:24:55,600 influences on anything. But how do people operate and 421 00:24:55,600 --> 00:24:58,520 treat you when there's other influences on things? 422 00:24:58,560 --> 00:25:01,960 And also how do people that you're around treat other 423 00:25:01,960 --> 00:25:03,720 people? How do they talk about other 424 00:25:03,720 --> 00:25:06,160 people? Because you can, you can tell a 425 00:25:06,160 --> 00:25:10,280 lot about somebody by the way that they discuss others if they 426 00:25:10,280 --> 00:25:12,240 have a falling out or not even a falling out. 427 00:25:12,240 --> 00:25:14,880 But if they're frustrated about something and they want to talk 428 00:25:14,880 --> 00:25:17,640 to you, do they say, hey, do you have just a couple of minutes 429 00:25:17,640 --> 00:25:19,320 for me to talk to you about this thing? 430 00:25:19,320 --> 00:25:21,280 And like, I just need somebody to hear it. 431 00:25:21,280 --> 00:25:23,360 I don't want to shit talk. I just need somebody to hear 432 00:25:23,360 --> 00:25:27,400 this because I feel frustrated versus I'm going to call you and 433 00:25:27,400 --> 00:25:30,360 talk shit about this person for two hours and then that's still 434 00:25:30,360 --> 00:25:33,640 my best friend. Yeah, I've noticed that 435 00:25:33,640 --> 00:25:37,120 sometimes people will treat strangers with kindness within, 436 00:25:37,120 --> 00:25:40,920 behind closed doors, be fucking assholes. 437 00:25:41,400 --> 00:25:44,600 And I think that this is just a testament to, like, you really 438 00:25:44,600 --> 00:25:49,120 do not know what's going on in people's lives and behind closed 439 00:25:49,120 --> 00:25:55,320 doors because I know for sure that a lot of the things that 440 00:25:55,320 --> 00:25:59,440 people reveal, there's something deeper under the surface that 441 00:25:59,440 --> 00:26:02,080 they're not revealing. And I think it's just about 442 00:26:02,080 --> 00:26:05,800 giving people grace, like as we come into the holidays, like, 443 00:26:05,800 --> 00:26:09,400 don't make excuses for poor behavior, but give people grace 444 00:26:09,400 --> 00:26:11,400 when you know that it's not personal. 445 00:26:11,560 --> 00:26:14,160 Because I know sometimes when I'm frustrated, especially if 446 00:26:14,160 --> 00:26:18,600 I'm hungry, if I am hungry and I get like slightly 447 00:26:18,600 --> 00:26:23,000 inconvenienced, it will be a lot bigger deal than it should be. 448 00:26:24,640 --> 00:26:29,160 That's so true, dude. I'd be fucking hungry and I 449 00:26:29,160 --> 00:26:30,960 don't even realize that I'm hungry. 450 00:26:30,960 --> 00:26:35,600 And then I, yeah, I also think there's going to be a lot of 451 00:26:35,600 --> 00:26:38,720 stuff eventually that and I think we talked about this last 452 00:26:38,720 --> 00:26:41,320 episode too, but there's eventually just going to be lots 453 00:26:41,320 --> 00:26:44,720 of stuff that you and I share that we've been going through 454 00:26:44,720 --> 00:26:47,680 over just the last couple of months and are just like own 455 00:26:47,680 --> 00:26:49,680 personal worlds and things like that. 456 00:26:50,440 --> 00:26:56,440 And I'm proud of us because I feel like we go sometimes we go 457 00:26:56,440 --> 00:27:02,840 through the most like deep healing and like life shattering 458 00:27:02,840 --> 00:27:05,800 things. And we're still taking care of 459 00:27:05,800 --> 00:27:08,760 other people while balancing out taking care of ourselves. 460 00:27:08,800 --> 00:27:14,600 And we are still being cognizant of the way that we are treating 461 00:27:14,600 --> 00:27:16,840 other people so that we're not projecting onto them and 462 00:27:16,840 --> 00:27:20,240 whatever. And I give us kudos on that 463 00:27:20,240 --> 00:27:24,320 because we've both done a lot of work to be able to be those 464 00:27:24,320 --> 00:27:27,360 people and to be able to be consistent people even when we 465 00:27:27,360 --> 00:27:32,120 have things going on. And being able to still help 466 00:27:32,120 --> 00:27:35,680 others with their readings and their insight on things and 467 00:27:35,680 --> 00:27:41,560 giving advice and not taking our shit that we have going on and, 468 00:27:41,560 --> 00:27:44,600 and putting it on to them. And I just think that that means 469 00:27:44,880 --> 00:27:47,680 a moment of recognition because we're we've done a very good job 470 00:27:47,680 --> 00:27:51,560 at that. It's literally been such a tense 471 00:27:51,560 --> 00:27:54,320 year. I am so glad that Pluto has now 472 00:27:54,320 --> 00:27:59,040 transitioned into its new era because I'm really hoping that 473 00:27:59,040 --> 00:28:02,840 with this transition into Aquarius that we see some huge 474 00:28:02,840 --> 00:28:06,840 change because Pluto and Aquarius is known for 475 00:28:06,840 --> 00:28:10,200 revolutions. I'm expecting a lot of things to 476 00:28:10,200 --> 00:28:12,040 change and a lot of things to shift. 477 00:28:12,320 --> 00:28:15,120 And we've been talking about it for two years, but now you're 478 00:28:15,120 --> 00:28:17,360 actually seeing it in the real world. 479 00:28:17,720 --> 00:28:22,560 The less idolization of celebrities and people in 480 00:28:22,560 --> 00:28:26,200 perceived power, that shit's crumbling as quickly as 481 00:28:26,200 --> 00:28:28,760 possible. And there's been a lot of 482 00:28:28,760 --> 00:28:32,480 revelations on that just seeing people for who they really are. 483 00:28:32,760 --> 00:28:36,360 And my favorite is when there are celebrities who own in their 484 00:28:36,360 --> 00:28:40,040 own personal bank accounts, have enough money to cure world 485 00:28:40,040 --> 00:28:45,240 hunger, but they'll hop on like Oprah and ask for donations or 486 00:28:45,360 --> 00:28:49,760 like some other candidates we've pad that are wearing like 487 00:28:49,760 --> 00:28:54,680 Tiffany and other things, asking for money for their campaign or 488 00:28:54,680 --> 00:28:57,600 their whatever. And I'm all for campaigning and 489 00:28:57,600 --> 00:29:00,240 I'm all for raising money, but not when you're wearing a 490 00:29:00,240 --> 00:29:05,080 $65,000 necklace, not when you're Oprah Winfrey, and not 491 00:29:05,080 --> 00:29:06,720 when you have more money than God. 492 00:29:06,720 --> 00:29:08,840 So that's where I'm drawing the line. 493 00:29:08,840 --> 00:29:11,600 And I think so many people are starting to see that celebrities 494 00:29:11,600 --> 00:29:15,800 are a literal joke when they're asking the middle class working 495 00:29:15,800 --> 00:29:18,680 people to donate money to something that they they could 496 00:29:18,680 --> 00:29:22,960 just take out of their own personal account or sell a home 497 00:29:22,960 --> 00:29:27,080 or an asset of some sort. So I've been really trying to 498 00:29:27,080 --> 00:29:30,920 detach from this world because there's going to be a time where 499 00:29:30,920 --> 00:29:36,320 we can't grow from all the concrete and all the buildings 500 00:29:36,320 --> 00:29:37,840 and all the things that we've built. 501 00:29:37,840 --> 00:29:41,520 And it's getting really, really bad as of late, like of just 502 00:29:41,520 --> 00:29:43,520 building shit that doesn't need to be built. 503 00:29:43,840 --> 00:29:47,480 And I think that we're reaching a change with that as well. 504 00:29:47,480 --> 00:29:51,120 And I think so many people need to see what's really important 505 00:29:51,120 --> 00:29:55,440 to them and really continue to align with that reality of what 506 00:29:55,440 --> 00:29:58,200 it is that you want to see rather than what it is that you 507 00:29:58,200 --> 00:30:04,120 don't like. We talked really early on in the 508 00:30:04,120 --> 00:30:07,480 podcast about celebrities and about Hollywood culture and 509 00:30:07,480 --> 00:30:12,280 about things crumbling. And we specifically had talked 510 00:30:12,280 --> 00:30:17,160 about the Kardashians and other people who are really held up on 511 00:30:17,160 --> 00:30:24,480 these pedestals and aren't doing things that are giving back to 512 00:30:24,480 --> 00:30:28,440 people or are always asking for more or always doing something 513 00:30:28,440 --> 00:30:32,200 and trying to achieve a certain status or whatever. 514 00:30:32,200 --> 00:30:34,080 And those things kind of crumbling down. 515 00:30:34,400 --> 00:30:40,200 And I think that, again, people that you surround yourself with, 516 00:30:40,200 --> 00:30:43,080 you end up getting kind of tossed in with their crusty, 517 00:30:43,080 --> 00:30:47,200 musty, dusty bullshit. And I think that that's happened 518 00:30:47,200 --> 00:30:51,400 in Hollywood too, where, you know, you bust 1 ditty and then 519 00:30:51,400 --> 00:30:55,480 you've got all of these other dominoes that are gonna fall 520 00:30:55,480 --> 00:31:01,320 that are, you know, whatever. And it's because people flock 521 00:31:01,320 --> 00:31:05,000 together who are going to make excuses for poor behavior or who 522 00:31:05,000 --> 00:31:08,840 are going to manipulate and take advantage of things. 523 00:31:08,840 --> 00:31:13,600 If you have a same common goal as somebody else and you guys 524 00:31:13,600 --> 00:31:16,560 are in a niche in some way, like in Hollywood, those people are 525 00:31:16,560 --> 00:31:24,640 in a very specific niche of what's the word privilege. 526 00:31:25,200 --> 00:31:29,040 And they can abuse privilege in the same ways. 527 00:31:29,040 --> 00:31:32,960 They they can have each other telling them that the choices 528 00:31:32,960 --> 00:31:35,160 and decisions that they're making are good, get them in the 529 00:31:35,160 --> 00:31:37,200 rooms with the right but wrong people. 530 00:31:37,480 --> 00:31:40,120 And so then once one of them starts to fall, then they are 531 00:31:40,240 --> 00:31:43,400 all start to fall because of the way that you surround. 532 00:31:43,400 --> 00:31:52,840 Yourself, in the end, when people put you on, they want you 533 00:31:53,400 --> 00:31:58,120 to give them something back. So these people, they get these 534 00:31:58,120 --> 00:32:02,480 deals, these contracts, and they're always going to want 535 00:32:02,480 --> 00:32:04,760 more. There's no ending. 536 00:32:05,320 --> 00:32:07,520 It's always going to be more. And why do you think like people 537 00:32:07,520 --> 00:32:12,720 like Rihanna, Rihanna, Rihanna, Rihanna, it's just gone. 538 00:32:13,440 --> 00:32:17,360 She's just gone because that she doesn't want to be. 539 00:32:18,160 --> 00:32:20,680 Told what music to make and what to record. 540 00:32:22,040 --> 00:32:24,160 Yeah, you. You start to sign away your 541 00:32:24,160 --> 00:32:28,240 identity and at what cost? At what cost are you just owned 542 00:32:28,600 --> 00:32:31,600 and anything can happen. And to go back to the the 543 00:32:31,600 --> 00:32:35,400 Kardashians, that whole Balenciaga thing that happened 544 00:32:35,640 --> 00:32:39,520 and with Kim, she's still repping Balenciaga. 545 00:32:39,520 --> 00:32:42,360 It doesn't matter what they're getting called out for, what 546 00:32:42,360 --> 00:32:45,560 they're affiliated with, what types of stuff is happening. 547 00:32:45,560 --> 00:32:47,760 She never came out and said anything about it. 548 00:32:48,040 --> 00:32:51,600 And then she's continuing because it pays her, because the 549 00:32:51,600 --> 00:32:55,360 important thing to her is the notoriety and the lifestyle and 550 00:32:55,360 --> 00:32:58,840 the well, I'm going to let all of these other things go, but 551 00:32:58,840 --> 00:33:00,920 I'm really big on Prison Reform, guys. 552 00:33:00,920 --> 00:33:02,520 So let's talk about Prison Reform. 553 00:33:02,520 --> 00:33:05,320 But all these other things, I'm just like letting them go. 554 00:33:05,320 --> 00:33:10,200 Not that I, I think that you have to have like intelligence 555 00:33:10,200 --> 00:33:13,240 and and whatnot in order to get yourself to the point that 556 00:33:13,240 --> 00:33:15,240 they're at. So I don't think that they're 557 00:33:15,240 --> 00:33:19,560 just stupid people, but I do think that there's so much, 558 00:33:19,840 --> 00:33:23,120 there has to be so much facade in front of the camera for what 559 00:33:23,120 --> 00:33:27,360 happens behind the scenes. I think so many people are 560 00:33:27,360 --> 00:33:30,640 living a script. They get told what they're going 561 00:33:30,640 --> 00:33:33,320 to do, what they're going to say, who they're going today, 562 00:33:33,360 --> 00:33:34,760 who they're going to have kids with. 563 00:33:34,760 --> 00:33:40,880 And I really believe it is like the old system of like marrying 564 00:33:40,880 --> 00:33:43,480 into money or marrying into status. 565 00:33:43,920 --> 00:33:48,480 And I think that so many people are trapped in a system that. 566 00:33:50,560 --> 00:33:53,320 Is going to chew them up and spit them back out. 567 00:33:53,640 --> 00:33:58,280 But can we say that there's like an odd level of comeback for 568 00:33:58,280 --> 00:34:04,640 people like Lindsay Lohan and Kelly Osbourne and, you know, 569 00:34:04,640 --> 00:34:08,560 like Demi Lovato or even like Christina Aguilera? 570 00:34:08,560 --> 00:34:11,320 Like where's the fountain of youth all of a sudden? 571 00:34:11,320 --> 00:34:16,800 Because everyone's got a whole bottle of it and you can't tell 572 00:34:16,800 --> 00:34:20,520 me Paris and Lindsay and these people are aging backwards, 573 00:34:20,800 --> 00:34:23,880 Paris said in an in an interview. 574 00:34:24,120 --> 00:34:26,719 She's never had any plastic surgery or Botox. 575 00:34:30,400 --> 00:34:31,880 OK, looks. Fucking good. 576 00:34:32,639 --> 00:34:34,840 I'm just saying like what fountain of youth are they 577 00:34:34,840 --> 00:34:38,080 sipping on? Is this to sell your soul extra 578 00:34:38,520 --> 00:34:44,440 special? Listen, I, I am so down deep 579 00:34:44,520 --> 00:34:49,480 inside of the rabbit holes of Hollywood youth and the like, 580 00:34:50,280 --> 00:34:54,600 drinking baby blood and everything and the, the cloning 581 00:34:54,600 --> 00:34:57,880 of people like, I full heartedly believe that. 582 00:34:58,600 --> 00:35:03,160 I believe that if you're not thinking Beyoncé for everything 583 00:35:03,160 --> 00:35:06,360 that you have in life, when you get famous, you're dying. 584 00:35:06,720 --> 00:35:10,760 And also, so I'm going to take you down a rabbit hole really 585 00:35:10,760 --> 00:35:14,080 quick. So you know about the Beyoncé 586 00:35:14,080 --> 00:35:16,240 thing and the saying thank you to Beyoncé, right? 587 00:35:16,920 --> 00:35:19,920 Yeah, but do you know about the Beyoncé and Selena thing? 588 00:35:21,440 --> 00:35:24,240 I did hear about this Beyoncé and Selena thing. 589 00:35:24,240 --> 00:35:26,040 I'm going to have you dive into that. 590 00:35:26,080 --> 00:35:31,000 But I've been down the rabbit hole of Beyoncé, Kanye West, and 591 00:35:31,000 --> 00:35:33,560 Taylor Swift. So hear me out because this 592 00:35:33,560 --> 00:35:35,720 theory totally fucking made sense to me. 593 00:35:36,040 --> 00:35:40,040 But the theory with them is that years ago when there was, what 594 00:35:40,040 --> 00:35:43,960 was it like the VM as or something, and Taylor was up 595 00:35:43,960 --> 00:35:47,320 getting her award, she was doing her speech or whatnot. 596 00:35:47,320 --> 00:35:50,200 And then Kanye came up and said, I'm going to let you have your 597 00:35:50,200 --> 00:35:53,120 moment. But Beyoncé had the best album 598 00:35:53,160 --> 00:35:55,400 or video of the year or whatever the fuck it was. 599 00:35:55,720 --> 00:35:59,000 And everybody's like, Oh my God, Kanye was such a douche for 600 00:35:59,000 --> 00:36:01,440 that. Well, now that the Beyoncé thing 601 00:36:01,440 --> 00:36:05,400 is coming out with, you know, people who haven't thanked her 602 00:36:05,400 --> 00:36:08,840 and who have died or whatever, there are people saying that 603 00:36:09,360 --> 00:36:13,560 Kanye was going through something with Beyoncé and Jay-Z 604 00:36:13,560 --> 00:36:17,600 at the time. And he noticed that Taylor 605 00:36:18,080 --> 00:36:21,440 wasn't saying thank you and acknowledging Beyoncé and 606 00:36:21,440 --> 00:36:23,480 whatever. And that he went up there the 607 00:36:23,480 --> 00:36:26,720 way that he did because he knew that they had a plan for her 608 00:36:26,720 --> 00:36:28,800 because of how successful she was getting. 609 00:36:29,160 --> 00:36:33,040 And that he went up and made that moment and took it from 610 00:36:33,040 --> 00:36:37,400 Taylor to basically save her life and say, you know, like 611 00:36:37,720 --> 00:36:41,360 giving her giving Beyoncé her dues and whatever. 612 00:36:41,840 --> 00:36:44,800 And that Taylor just didn't understand at the time or 613 00:36:44,800 --> 00:36:48,680 anything. And after that happened is when 614 00:36:48,680 --> 00:36:53,720 Kanye started to go on his decline and then, you know, was 615 00:36:53,720 --> 00:36:58,080 set up with the Kardashian and then disappeared and was like, 616 00:36:58,080 --> 00:37:00,120 oh, well, he's being crazy because he's saying all these 617 00:37:00,120 --> 00:37:01,720 things about Hollywood or whatever. 618 00:37:01,960 --> 00:37:05,920 And then now they're saying that like real Kanye is back after 619 00:37:05,920 --> 00:37:11,680 it's been the clone and that he, you know, conveniently it's 620 00:37:11,680 --> 00:37:15,320 after Diddy stuff has come out and things like that. 621 00:37:15,320 --> 00:37:19,400 And that all of these celebrities now are being 622 00:37:19,400 --> 00:37:23,200 released from whatever it was that they were being entangled 623 00:37:23,200 --> 00:37:24,640 into. So you're talking about like the 624 00:37:24,640 --> 00:37:26,840 Lindsay Lohan's and Demi Lovato's and stuff. 625 00:37:27,160 --> 00:37:31,600 And if you pay attention to the correlations of like Demi Lovato 626 00:37:31,680 --> 00:37:37,240 and Kanye West, they both have been silenced and told that 627 00:37:37,240 --> 00:37:40,760 they're crazy. They, you know, it's been mental 628 00:37:40,760 --> 00:37:43,200 health, it's been drugs, whatever else. 629 00:37:43,440 --> 00:37:47,760 And then they've come back and they look like their old selves 630 00:37:47,760 --> 00:37:51,120 and whatever. I don't know who the fuck Demi 631 00:37:51,120 --> 00:37:54,360 Lovato was for a minute when we were talking about her going 632 00:37:54,360 --> 00:37:59,320 through her O DS and everything but she came back with to 633 00:37:59,320 --> 00:38:04,400 different genders and it talking to aliens and singing to aliens 634 00:38:04,400 --> 00:38:08,560 and doing all types of shit that she now is like I don't identify 635 00:38:08,560 --> 00:38:11,080 with any of that. That's not who I am as a person 636 00:38:11,080 --> 00:38:16,040 and it was just a really hard time and I think she looks like 637 00:38:16,040 --> 00:38:18,120 she did before all that crazy shit was happening. 638 00:38:19,000 --> 00:38:22,040 So she's saying she doesn't identify with the alien stuff? 639 00:38:23,080 --> 00:38:26,600 Yeah, she there was there was some type of we'll have to find 640 00:38:26,600 --> 00:38:28,680 the interview. But she did an interview where 641 00:38:28,680 --> 00:38:34,320 she had basically said that like that version of her when she was 642 00:38:36,280 --> 00:38:40,800 shortly after OD ING and stuff and when she was really trying 643 00:38:40,800 --> 00:38:42,600 to like find herself and everything. 644 00:38:42,600 --> 00:38:47,840 She had had like some gender identity things that she was 645 00:38:47,840 --> 00:38:51,840 going through. And then just like these crazy 646 00:38:52,440 --> 00:38:56,560 tail spin offs of like almost like psychosis for her and that 647 00:38:56,560 --> 00:38:58,600 she just didn't identify with those things. 648 00:38:58,600 --> 00:39:00,760 I don't remember what interview it was. 649 00:39:00,760 --> 00:39:03,360 I'll have to do some research on that, but I just found it really 650 00:39:03,360 --> 00:39:06,800 interesting. Yeah, I've totally been down 651 00:39:06,800 --> 00:39:10,360 that same rabbit hole with the like, everyone thought Kanye was 652 00:39:10,360 --> 00:39:12,840 being an asshole, but he actually saved Taylor Swift's 653 00:39:12,840 --> 00:39:16,520 life. And then I also believe that 654 00:39:16,520 --> 00:39:22,960 Beyoncé has she has something to do with Selena being murdered as 655 00:39:22,960 --> 00:39:24,880 well. I believe that because there's 656 00:39:24,880 --> 00:39:30,040 something going on with that situation, like whenever, you 657 00:39:30,040 --> 00:39:33,640 know, Selena died and then Beyoncé kind of became famous 658 00:39:33,640 --> 00:39:36,960 shortly thereafter. And if you watch the Selena 659 00:39:37,680 --> 00:39:41,800 series where they remade it into ATV show, Beyoncé and her mom is 660 00:39:41,800 --> 00:39:47,600 like referenced and like gets a cameo in the show and Beyoncé's 661 00:39:47,600 --> 00:39:51,760 acting like a fan. Yeah, I'll have to look. 662 00:39:51,760 --> 00:39:54,000 I don't actually know that much about Selena. 663 00:39:54,000 --> 00:39:58,560 I think maybe because of just like the time and stuff and like 664 00:39:58,560 --> 00:40:03,640 my age, like I didn't grow up with Selena, I grew up with 665 00:40:03,640 --> 00:40:06,640 Destiny's Child. So by the time that I was like 666 00:40:06,640 --> 00:40:11,640 listening to different music or whatever, I was definitely in 667 00:40:11,640 --> 00:40:17,360 like Destiny's Child era, but. I have never been a fan of solo 668 00:40:17,360 --> 00:40:20,560 Beyoncé. I've never understood the hype 669 00:40:20,560 --> 00:40:22,720 about everything. I think she's an amazing singer. 670 00:40:22,720 --> 00:40:26,160 I think she's beautiful. I think that the types of 671 00:40:26,160 --> 00:40:30,160 concerts that she puts on used to be considered crazy until you 672 00:40:30,160 --> 00:40:33,560 look at the concerts that Taylor Swift is putting on. 673 00:40:33,920 --> 00:40:37,600 And I'm like this bitch, rain shines, snowstorm, that doesn't 674 00:40:37,600 --> 00:40:39,440 matter. She is out there in her 675 00:40:39,680 --> 00:40:43,880 sequence, skirt, dress and doing the damn thing. 676 00:40:43,880 --> 00:40:46,920 And I'm, I'm not a, what do they call them Swifties? 677 00:40:47,240 --> 00:40:53,400 I'm not a Swifty, but I have just like her tours are fucking 678 00:40:53,400 --> 00:40:54,800 crazy. She's been on tour for like 679 00:40:54,800 --> 00:41:01,560 years doing this concert series and it's like hours long. 680 00:41:01,600 --> 00:41:06,040 Like like I think it's like 2 to four hours of her just solo 681 00:41:06,040 --> 00:41:09,160 performing up there. All of these songs back-to-back 682 00:41:09,160 --> 00:41:11,960 to back-to-back to back-to-back. She's like a robot. 683 00:41:11,960 --> 00:41:14,040 I think a lot of these people are robots. 684 00:41:14,040 --> 00:41:16,200 I think a lot of them are like not real. 685 00:41:17,520 --> 00:41:20,520 I think they've sold their likeness and their soul to the 686 00:41:20,520 --> 00:41:25,200 metaverse and they're like shape shifting alien robots. 687 00:41:25,880 --> 00:41:28,800 She you know what? I usually feel that way. 688 00:41:29,560 --> 00:41:32,680 I haven't felt that way about her and her journey. 689 00:41:32,680 --> 00:41:36,760 Like I haven't. She hasn't like her body and her 690 00:41:36,760 --> 00:41:38,600 face doesn't look crazy different. 691 00:41:38,600 --> 00:41:40,240 She looks like she's getting older. 692 00:41:40,240 --> 00:41:42,760 She looks like she's progressing. 693 00:41:43,120 --> 00:41:46,280 What about that Lady that ruled the Satanist church that looked 694 00:41:46,280 --> 00:41:48,520 just like Taylor Swift? Have you been down that rabbit 695 00:41:48,520 --> 00:41:51,480 hole? I, I haven't dove into the 696 00:41:51,480 --> 00:41:56,760 rabbit hole, but I have just like knocked at the door of 697 00:41:56,760 --> 00:42:00,720 research on on that. And yeah, that is totally a 698 00:42:00,720 --> 00:42:03,040 thing. But you know, I think there's a 699 00:42:03,040 --> 00:42:09,600 difference between like you're a reincarnated Satanist priestess 700 00:42:10,920 --> 00:42:17,520 versus you are owned by whatever beings that there are and you're 701 00:42:17,520 --> 00:42:20,680 a fucking robot now and you don't exist. 702 00:42:23,040 --> 00:42:27,120 I also think that the Christina Aguilera thing, I just think 703 00:42:27,120 --> 00:42:32,320 that she has really good plastic surgery because there's so many 704 00:42:32,320 --> 00:42:33,960 pieces of her that are still here. 705 00:42:33,960 --> 00:42:36,920 When she does her interviews and stuff, that's still her. 706 00:42:36,920 --> 00:42:39,920 Her mannerisms are still her. It's not like Gucci Mane who 707 00:42:39,920 --> 00:42:44,360 went to prison, came out and you're like, who is this fool? 708 00:42:45,400 --> 00:42:47,600 It's it's not a Gucci Mane situation. 709 00:42:47,800 --> 00:42:53,200 I think that Christina Aguilera lost a ton of weight and she 710 00:42:53,200 --> 00:42:57,160 probably did some type of cosmetic procedures for her, 711 00:42:57,360 --> 00:43:02,440 which by the way, go you like these bitches who are like hot 712 00:43:02,440 --> 00:43:06,200 as fuck and they're like 40s and 50s. 713 00:43:06,640 --> 00:43:11,000 I, I cannot wait. I aspire to have the money for 714 00:43:11,000 --> 00:43:13,920 the cosmetic surgeries that I want to have and the universe 715 00:43:13,920 --> 00:43:17,320 hasn't given them to me yet because this personality plus 716 00:43:17,320 --> 00:43:21,640 the cosmetic surgery body that I envisioned for myself, it's over 717 00:43:21,640 --> 00:43:26,040 for you, hoes it, it's over. I'm taking everything. 718 00:43:27,240 --> 00:43:31,360 She's leaving no crumbs. No crumbs, no needle left 719 00:43:31,360 --> 00:43:34,080 uninjected. Saving the. 720 00:43:34,400 --> 00:43:37,560 Money I want. Needles and injections. 721 00:43:37,560 --> 00:43:42,720 I have spent the last month going and getting my lips 722 00:43:42,800 --> 00:43:47,240 dissolved and getting all the migrated filler inside and 723 00:43:47,240 --> 00:43:51,720 around my lips dissolved and let me just tell you, it is fucking 724 00:43:52,320 --> 00:43:55,240 painful. Why are you getting them? 725 00:43:55,240 --> 00:43:57,960 Because you were going and getting them filled for for the 726 00:43:57,960 --> 00:44:00,440 longest. So what's your process right 727 00:44:00,440 --> 00:44:01,920 now? And then what is your process 728 00:44:01,920 --> 00:44:04,240 after? So I've been getting them 729 00:44:04,240 --> 00:44:08,200 dissolved because filler displaces itself and like 730 00:44:08,200 --> 00:44:11,520 migrates over time. So I've gotten all the displace 731 00:44:11,520 --> 00:44:17,000 filler like dissolved and then I'm going to get another plump 732 00:44:17,240 --> 00:44:21,560 session. So, So what is it you? 733 00:44:21,640 --> 00:44:24,520 You can get them filled up to a certain point, and then you need 734 00:44:24,520 --> 00:44:27,200 to dissolve what you've done so that you can start over fresh. 735 00:44:27,600 --> 00:44:30,840 So they don't tell you you have to dissolve it. 736 00:44:30,840 --> 00:44:35,680 Just over time it moves and it moves inside of your mouth. 737 00:44:35,680 --> 00:44:38,480 It can move towards your mustache, towards your chin, 738 00:44:38,800 --> 00:44:40,840 towards your jawline on the inside. 739 00:44:40,840 --> 00:44:44,040 So it just migrates and you have to dissolve it. 740 00:44:44,680 --> 00:44:47,840 It's painful. What is dissolving and what's 741 00:44:47,840 --> 00:44:49,080 painful? The needle going in or the 742 00:44:49,080 --> 00:44:51,280 dissolving part? The dissolving part. 743 00:44:52,120 --> 00:44:54,560 Because it's eating shit in your face. 744 00:44:54,800 --> 00:44:57,240 Yeah. So. 745 00:44:57,440 --> 00:45:02,400 Melting away the filler. That sounds really painful. 746 00:45:02,400 --> 00:45:06,120 And I keep thinking about like a bitch may want some lips. 747 00:45:06,120 --> 00:45:09,880 And then I think about the fact that I have to get needles in my 748 00:45:09,880 --> 00:45:13,040 face and I have to pay for it and then potentially get it 749 00:45:13,040 --> 00:45:15,200 dissolved. And what if, like, how do you 750 00:45:15,200 --> 00:45:19,560 know that the person that you're going to is good at what they do 751 00:45:19,560 --> 00:45:21,760 just because they have others you don't know? 752 00:45:21,760 --> 00:45:25,360 You're just like, I really hope that I don't look like a duck 753 00:45:25,360 --> 00:45:29,200 when I leave here. I will say it's a trial and 754 00:45:29,200 --> 00:45:33,720 error process and always start out with less and go back and do 755 00:45:33,720 --> 00:45:35,120 more. I will say that. 756 00:45:38,520 --> 00:45:40,880 Oh, guys, I'm gonna reinvent myself. 757 00:45:40,960 --> 00:45:42,680 You're not even gonna know. I'm gonna get Botox. 758 00:45:42,680 --> 00:45:44,840 I'm gonna get lip fillers, I'm gonna get some titties. 759 00:45:44,840 --> 00:45:49,120 I'm gonna get everything. You know what I want? 760 00:45:49,520 --> 00:45:52,760 I just want like every procedure that I can do at one time so 761 00:45:52,760 --> 00:45:55,440 that they can just put me in a body cast and then I can heal 762 00:45:55,840 --> 00:45:58,800 all at once and it'll be fine. Like, I'll just wake up and like 763 00:45:58,800 --> 00:46:03,280 new titties, lipo, new face, rhinoplasty. 764 00:46:03,440 --> 00:46:04,960 I'm gonna have my hairline pulled up. 765 00:46:04,960 --> 00:46:09,080 Like what's good? Gemini starting in only fans. 766 00:46:09,720 --> 00:46:12,080 No, but I am going to start selling pictures of my feet. 767 00:46:13,480 --> 00:46:18,680 Tap in baby, tap in. You know why I think all people 768 00:46:18,880 --> 00:46:21,520 should utilize all assets available? 769 00:46:25,040 --> 00:46:30,040 After I get my whole body transformation and they break 770 00:46:30,040 --> 00:46:32,760 all my bones and they take out all my fat and they realign 771 00:46:32,760 --> 00:46:35,880 everything in the way that I want it, then I would make an 772 00:46:35,880 --> 00:46:38,440 OF. In the meantime, I'm going to 773 00:46:38,440 --> 00:46:41,320 get really cute pedicures and I'm going to be on feet Finder 774 00:46:42,280 --> 00:46:46,360 because I found out so many talking about rabbit holes. 775 00:46:46,720 --> 00:46:50,600 Did you know that there's 4000 million things that you can do 776 00:46:50,600 --> 00:46:53,280 with your feet and people just pay you for it? 777 00:46:53,280 --> 00:46:57,600 Like you can dip your toe in a cherry pie and somebody is like, 778 00:46:58,160 --> 00:47:04,240 I want you to wipe off that cherry pie with a purple napkin 779 00:47:04,240 --> 00:47:07,720 and mail it to me and they fucking pay you extra money for 780 00:47:07,720 --> 00:47:10,200 that. I, I'm not against the panty 781 00:47:10,200 --> 00:47:11,960 selling thing. There are people who like sell 782 00:47:11,960 --> 00:47:12,960 their panties and shit like that. 783 00:47:12,960 --> 00:47:14,120 I don't know how you get into that. 784 00:47:15,200 --> 00:47:18,040 I'd be into something like that. I don't want to like show my 785 00:47:18,040 --> 00:47:21,480 butt hole on the Internet necessarily until I like get it 786 00:47:21,480 --> 00:47:24,520 like surgically done and it's like a glitter butt hole or 787 00:47:24,520 --> 00:47:27,680 something weird and then I'll sell that online. 788 00:47:27,920 --> 00:47:34,360 But in the meantime, I think like teeth, toes, fucking. 789 00:47:34,560 --> 00:47:36,680 What do you want undies, what's good? 790 00:47:36,800 --> 00:47:40,160 How you doing? Everyone is ready to do farting 791 00:47:40,160 --> 00:47:42,720 in a jar. I would. 792 00:47:42,720 --> 00:47:45,200 I would sell my bath water. I'll shit in a cup for you and 793 00:47:45,200 --> 00:47:46,600 mail it to you. You just let me know. 794 00:47:47,800 --> 00:47:52,520 You know, when we had the dominatrix person on here, they 795 00:47:52,520 --> 00:47:57,600 were talking about people collecting fluids and drinking 796 00:47:57,600 --> 00:47:59,760 them. Yep. 797 00:48:00,720 --> 00:48:03,240 You know. But Starbucks for three days and 798 00:48:03,240 --> 00:48:08,560 give you my pee for $700? Our audience must be pretty 799 00:48:08,560 --> 00:48:12,560 freaky because those dominatrix Part 1 and Part 2 episodes got a 800 00:48:12,560 --> 00:48:16,600 lot of views. You did get a lot of views. 801 00:48:17,040 --> 00:48:23,080 I mean, our, our personalities, like we're always talking about 802 00:48:23,080 --> 00:48:25,240 sex or something dirty or freaky. 803 00:48:25,440 --> 00:48:28,000 I feel like it's taken you a second to come out of your shell 804 00:48:28,960 --> 00:48:31,840 and just share the little freaky butterfly that you are. 805 00:48:32,120 --> 00:48:34,440 But you're getting there. You're getting there. 806 00:48:34,440 --> 00:48:37,440 And I feel like there's changes on my end where I'm going to be 807 00:48:37,440 --> 00:48:40,000 able to, I'm going to be able to break you out more. 808 00:48:42,400 --> 00:48:46,480 Oh God, y'all don't even know what you're waiting for. 809 00:48:46,480 --> 00:48:50,800 You don't even know what is available because it's under the 810 00:48:50,800 --> 00:48:59,840 surface for now. No, Yeah, there's 2025 is going 811 00:48:59,840 --> 00:49:03,960 to be fucking lit. We are. 812 00:49:03,960 --> 00:49:05,960 And I'm just putting this out into the universe because this 813 00:49:05,960 --> 00:49:08,240 is happening. Paige and I are going to be 814 00:49:08,240 --> 00:49:10,520 getting together in May for our birthdays. 815 00:49:10,520 --> 00:49:13,760 I'm going to go out to her. We're going to do photo shoots 816 00:49:13,760 --> 00:49:15,840 and all types of marketing things for Lollipop. 817 00:49:15,840 --> 00:49:17,600 We're going to do in person interviews. 818 00:49:17,800 --> 00:49:23,560 We're going to have like just a whole experience and then 819 00:49:24,360 --> 00:49:27,440 there's things that I think we're waiting until kind of like 820 00:49:27,440 --> 00:49:29,400 the new year to share with you guys. 821 00:49:29,400 --> 00:49:32,680 But I think we're gonna probably have like a metamorphosis 822 00:49:32,680 --> 00:49:37,840 episode for you guys because there's just huge changes and 823 00:49:37,840 --> 00:49:40,360 there's huge changes in my life that I like. 824 00:49:41,040 --> 00:49:42,800 I'm gonna tell you guys about shortly. 825 00:49:43,560 --> 00:49:46,520 If you're on my TikTok, then I've I've shared a little tiny 826 00:49:46,520 --> 00:49:51,000 bit, but we'll dive into that. And then Paige has had really 827 00:49:51,000 --> 00:49:54,000 transformative moments in the last couple months too. 828 00:49:54,000 --> 00:49:56,840 Whether or not you decide to give details on those. 829 00:49:56,840 --> 00:50:03,680 I think that you had experiences this past couple of months that 830 00:50:03,680 --> 00:50:07,640 I think put you inside of other people's shoes in a different 831 00:50:07,640 --> 00:50:10,440 way than you had been before and in a different perspective than 832 00:50:10,440 --> 00:50:13,520 you had been before. And I don't know if you see the 833 00:50:13,520 --> 00:50:19,280 way that they that it has changed you, but I can see the 834 00:50:19,280 --> 00:50:22,880 way that it's changed you positively and, and what not in 835 00:50:22,880 --> 00:50:25,240 the way that your energy shows up. 836 00:50:25,280 --> 00:50:28,200 And I think that other people will be able to tell that even 837 00:50:28,200 --> 00:50:30,720 if they don't know why. And I just think it'll be really 838 00:50:30,720 --> 00:50:35,120 cool whenever you're ready to Share your story too, because I 839 00:50:35,120 --> 00:50:40,640 think that you just had so much growth out of things that could 840 00:50:40,640 --> 00:50:43,560 be, can you know that are just really difficult to go through. 841 00:50:44,840 --> 00:50:48,040 You know, at the end of the day, I think that everything in my 842 00:50:48,040 --> 00:50:50,480 life is coming to a turning point. 843 00:50:50,480 --> 00:50:54,160 I feel like I'm coming on this like five year circle or five 844 00:50:54,160 --> 00:50:58,920 year cycle is like really being dedicated on my personal growth 845 00:50:58,920 --> 00:51:02,680 journey and healing journey, sobriety journey. 846 00:51:02,680 --> 00:51:07,920 And just like really focusing on my needs and saying no to toxic 847 00:51:08,240 --> 00:51:12,560 family events or family members or relationships and just really 848 00:51:12,560 --> 00:51:16,000 saying no the last five years. And I feel like like there's 849 00:51:16,000 --> 00:51:20,760 been so much growth, even just one year of being selfish with 850 00:51:20,760 --> 00:51:24,160 my energy. I started my own business and 851 00:51:24,160 --> 00:51:27,640 it's crazy to think that it'll be four years in February 852 00:51:27,960 --> 00:51:29,800 because it's just kind of flown by. 853 00:51:30,240 --> 00:51:33,040 But I do believe the universe really does always have a plan, 854 00:51:33,040 --> 00:51:36,080 even when it is something really difficult or something we don't 855 00:51:36,080 --> 00:51:38,720 want to go through something that we don't want to 856 00:51:38,720 --> 00:51:42,080 necessarily experience. It really does change you for 857 00:51:42,080 --> 00:51:45,440 the better because you see how strong you are and like how much 858 00:51:45,440 --> 00:51:49,520 you really do have that ability to like shape your reality with 859 00:51:49,520 --> 00:51:53,360 your perception and your understanding of that situation. 860 00:51:53,360 --> 00:51:57,720 I. Want to ask you, you can think 861 00:51:57,720 --> 00:52:01,760 about it or you can respond right now, but I want to know 862 00:52:01,920 --> 00:52:09,080 something that you feel is huge and whatever that you want to 863 00:52:09,080 --> 00:52:13,760 obtain for yourself in 2025, whether it be personal or 864 00:52:13,760 --> 00:52:16,680 business, something that you're like, this is me reaching for 865 00:52:16,680 --> 00:52:20,000 the fucking moon, but this is something that like my soul 866 00:52:20,000 --> 00:52:23,560 wants. I want to buy acreage with trees 867 00:52:24,120 --> 00:52:27,320 on it. Go, bitch, go. 868 00:52:27,320 --> 00:52:30,200 I'm going to live in a tree house on your acreage. 869 00:52:30,360 --> 00:52:33,120 I want to buy acreage. Even if it was just a few acres, 870 00:52:33,120 --> 00:52:36,520 I want acreage. She's got a corner lot next to 871 00:52:36,520 --> 00:52:39,240 the gas station. She's like, I've got 6 acres. 872 00:52:43,280 --> 00:52:45,960 Are you going to read us a card? Yes. 873 00:52:47,080 --> 00:52:50,840 Yes. I shall do that. 874 00:52:58,580 --> 00:53:05,540 We got card 58. The card is Spirit of Vitality. 875 00:53:06,020 --> 00:53:09,920 Here's the picture. It's like a carousel at an 876 00:53:09,920 --> 00:53:12,520 amusement park or something. It makes me think of the mall 877 00:53:12,520 --> 00:53:15,200 when you have the carousel inside of the mall. 878 00:53:17,000 --> 00:53:18,440 People even go to the mall anymore. 879 00:53:19,320 --> 00:53:23,440 Yes, I like them all. I haven't. 880 00:53:23,440 --> 00:53:27,080 Been to the mall on a fortnight. All right. 881 00:53:27,120 --> 00:53:33,520 Card 58 Spirit of vitality. Your sign is Capricorn, your 882 00:53:33,520 --> 00:53:38,000 gift is magnetic Spirit and your shadow is dissatisfaction. 883 00:53:39,040 --> 00:53:42,640 This gift is within your grasp Once you realize that the future 884 00:53:42,640 --> 00:53:46,240 is merely an illusion. You let go of the never ending 885 00:53:46,240 --> 00:53:49,120 expedition for perfection and achievements. 886 00:53:49,600 --> 00:53:52,240 This gift affords you the opportunity to look at the 887 00:53:52,240 --> 00:53:55,120 present moment with a renewed sense of vitality. 888 00:53:55,800 --> 00:53:59,440 It is this spark of life that then motivates everything going 889 00:53:59,440 --> 00:54:01,960 forward. It is not that you forsake 890 00:54:01,960 --> 00:54:06,040 service or improvement of any kind, but the underlying energy 891 00:54:06,040 --> 00:54:08,960 is transformed. You no longer engage for the 892 00:54:08,960 --> 00:54:12,680 sake of attempting to make yourself whole, but your 893 00:54:12,680 --> 00:54:15,120 inherent wholeness drives your actions. 894 00:54:15,880 --> 00:54:19,320 Everything you do is then infused and enriched with the 895 00:54:19,320 --> 00:54:23,120 magnetic spirit. This shadow presents as a dull 896 00:54:23,120 --> 00:54:26,600 feeling that consumes you and no matter what you do, cannot be 897 00:54:26,600 --> 00:54:29,880 extracted. This is a plague that affects 898 00:54:29,880 --> 00:54:33,280 many, if not all people at some point in life. 899 00:54:33,960 --> 00:54:36,920 People with this shadow tend to be the go getters and self 900 00:54:36,920 --> 00:54:39,920 starters, being of service to others and doing everything 901 00:54:39,920 --> 00:54:43,120 possible to continuously improve upon themselves. 902 00:54:43,800 --> 00:54:47,240 The rub here is that your actions do actually make the 903 00:54:47,240 --> 00:54:50,840 world a better place, but this sense of satisfaction is forever 904 00:54:50,840 --> 00:54:54,640 fleeting. This drive to do better, to be 905 00:54:54,640 --> 00:54:58,280 better, in and of itself behaves much like a trick question. 906 00:54:59,080 --> 00:55:03,320 What outside of myself or in the future will secure my lasting 907 00:55:03,320 --> 00:55:06,320 happiness? Answer nothing. 908 00:55:06,760 --> 00:55:10,320 There is no thing or person or objective that will cure you 909 00:55:10,440 --> 00:55:13,920 because you were the cure. Within you is everything that 910 00:55:13,920 --> 00:55:17,080 you could ever need or want. It's been there all along. 911 00:55:17,560 --> 00:55:21,000 When you're able to drop the preoccupation with the future, 912 00:55:21,240 --> 00:55:24,680 you will finally access your powerful gift of vitality. 913 00:55:25,160 --> 00:55:29,000 Your themes are aliveness, the present spirit, and intention. 914 00:55:30,640 --> 00:55:34,800 I love that so much and I love that the themes was intention 915 00:55:34,800 --> 00:55:39,600 because I am so big on like setting intention for every day 916 00:55:39,600 --> 00:55:41,440 and like every season of your life. 917 00:55:41,440 --> 00:55:45,440 No matter if it's just like I want to be more patient or happy 918 00:55:45,800 --> 00:55:49,480 or I want to be at peace. I want to move stress free in my 919 00:55:49,480 --> 00:55:52,600 life, whatever it is. Like I think intentions are 920 00:55:52,600 --> 00:55:57,520 super underrated and one of the main reasons people do not bring 921 00:55:57,520 --> 00:56:01,400 in their manifestations. I agree with you. 922 00:56:01,720 --> 00:56:05,520 I think people also, I think visualization is a huge piece 923 00:56:05,520 --> 00:56:08,880 inside of people not bringing in what they're wanting to. 924 00:56:08,880 --> 00:56:13,000 I think that people are scared to visualize the things that 925 00:56:13,000 --> 00:56:17,480 they want or visualizing themselves in the positions of 926 00:56:19,080 --> 00:56:21,880 power or achievement for things that they're wanting. 927 00:56:22,160 --> 00:56:25,560 And again, back to that selfishness thing, it can be 928 00:56:25,560 --> 00:56:29,360 deemed as selfish for you to want to strive for certain 929 00:56:29,360 --> 00:56:34,240 things for yourself. And it's so important for you to 930 00:56:34,240 --> 00:56:37,160 visualize the future that you're wanting in with that card. 931 00:56:37,640 --> 00:56:41,680 Knowing that you're you being the cure is such a big thing. 932 00:56:41,680 --> 00:56:45,960 You're the cure for you. Tackling your mental health 933 00:56:45,960 --> 00:56:48,400 things. You're the cure for you. 934 00:56:49,640 --> 00:56:52,880 You're having financial issue. You're the cure for feeling like 935 00:56:53,200 --> 00:56:56,160 people aren't getting to know you and you want to have more 936 00:56:56,160 --> 00:56:58,640 notoriety or be seen or be understood. 937 00:56:58,920 --> 00:57:03,080 You're the cure for everything that you feel is happening in 938 00:57:03,080 --> 00:57:06,480 life, not the way that you want. The only person who can move 939 00:57:06,480 --> 00:57:10,000 your positions is you. Getting out of relationships, 940 00:57:10,320 --> 00:57:12,920 changing jobs, getting out of cycles. 941 00:57:12,920 --> 00:57:16,080 You're the only person who can fix all these issues that you 942 00:57:16,080 --> 00:57:19,320 have. And honestly, a lot of the times 943 00:57:19,320 --> 00:57:22,040 the solutions are absolutely free. 944 00:57:22,520 --> 00:57:25,200 Like so many people think it's money or something that's 945 00:57:25,200 --> 00:57:28,200 trapping them, but it's almost free. 946 00:57:28,200 --> 00:57:31,520 Like getting in bed earlier, getting off your phone, 947 00:57:31,800 --> 00:57:35,840 unfollowing negativity online, unfriending negative people. 948 00:57:36,080 --> 00:57:38,880 All of those things would propel you forward. 949 00:57:39,920 --> 00:57:44,600 Putting out an updated resume, utilizing resources and tools 950 00:57:44,800 --> 00:57:49,440 that are available to you. Maybe it's a mentor program 951 00:57:49,440 --> 00:57:52,320 that's through your college or through your school or through 952 00:57:52,320 --> 00:57:55,440 your church or through some Ave. you know what I mean? 953 00:57:55,440 --> 00:57:58,520 Like so many people neglect the resources available to them 954 00:57:58,800 --> 00:58:01,080 because it's going to require a little work and a little 955 00:58:01,080 --> 00:58:05,200 background effort to get there, but it will be worth it. 956 00:58:05,200 --> 00:58:08,200 And that's why we're always here to remind you is like, it's not 957 00:58:08,640 --> 00:58:12,520 always puppies and rainbows, but once again, having people in 958 00:58:12,520 --> 00:58:16,280 your corner who want to see the best for you will require 959 00:58:16,280 --> 00:58:20,280 difficult conversations. Saying things with tact and 960 00:58:20,280 --> 00:58:24,160 grace, but saying them because they need to be said. 961 00:58:24,160 --> 00:58:26,960 Because when you care about someone, you care about them 962 00:58:26,960 --> 00:58:30,520 enough to let them know when they are falling short and seem 963 00:58:30,520 --> 00:58:35,840 to be blinded by it. Blinded by the Light? 964 00:58:35,840 --> 00:58:39,160 Do you know the actual words to that song? 965 00:58:39,160 --> 00:58:41,880 Because I don't, but I always thought that it was Blinded by 966 00:58:41,880 --> 00:58:44,280 the light wrapped up like a douche in the middle of the 967 00:58:44,280 --> 00:58:47,400 night. But apparently that's not what 968 00:58:47,400 --> 00:58:49,000 it's about. And apparently the song is about 969 00:58:49,000 --> 00:58:53,680 a car. I love that song so much. 970 00:58:53,680 --> 00:58:56,120 I listen to it regularly actually. 971 00:58:57,920 --> 00:59:00,120 I don't know the words but I love that song. 972 00:59:00,840 --> 00:59:03,440 Yeah, well, the lyrics are not wrapped up like a douche. 973 00:59:03,440 --> 00:59:05,720 And on that, we'll leave you guys. 974 00:59:08,560 --> 00:59:11,640 Well, you all, we will see you next time in motherfucking 975 00:59:11,640 --> 00:59:13,560 Candyland. Bye. 976 00:59:14,680 --> 00:59:19,840 Bye. Yeah, you said she's so sweet, 977 00:59:20,000 --> 00:59:20,680 man. Come on. 978 00:59:20,960 --> 00:59:23,920 Like a rapper live. Me like a lollipop. 979 00:59:23,920 --> 00:59:25,840 Lollipop. Lollipop, lollipop, lollipop. 980 00:59:28,080 --> 00:59:30,520 He want to live, live, live me like a lollipop. 981 00:59:30,920 --> 00:59:36,160 Lollipop, lollipop. You want to swallow my spirit 982 00:59:36,520 --> 00:59:40,520 and penetrate my aura taste All of my consciousness is obvious. 983 00:59:40,560 --> 00:59:44,360 We're goddesses full of the divine femininity who need 984 00:59:44,360 --> 00:59:47,160 masculine energy, energy, energy. 985 00:59:47,440 --> 00:59:50,440 You want to be my man? And let me take you to the 986 00:59:50,440 --> 00:59:53,640 Candyland Candyland. Candyland, Candyland. 987 00:59:53,920 --> 00:59:56,200 He want to live me like a lollipop.