Yeah. You said she's so sweet.
Welcome back to Candyland. We are here again and we have a
lot to say about the holidays coming up.
This is the time where you find out Is the healing working?
Is my shadow work and my therapy working?
Or does Grandma still trigger me when she says something about my
weight or my partner or my kids or my job?
You know what I mean? Like this is the time to test
your boundaries and to stay in your power and to not feed into
the drama. Yeah, and to look back, I feel
like I can see still surrounding you that last year you were
like, oh, damn. Like I'm going to get rid of
them in 2024. What people did you carry with
you? Who have you been, you know,
taking up the mountain with you because they don't want to hike,
but you want them to go along on the journey or whatever?
Exactly. And I think sometimes we make
excuses for people and then you have to realize that you're
choosing, like if you're choosing to go somewhere where
you don't feel welcome or supported or invited, you're a
grown adult making that choice. So we're here to just remind you
to hold your boundaries firm, especially during the holidays,
because that's the time when people will guilt trip you and
try to get you to to do what they want you to do.
I think that also too, it's important for us as people to
not second guess what our feelings are and like retract
what our feelings are because somebody acts differently or
does something kind. And that's something that like
I've been finding for me is like, you know, I'll have a
strong opinion about something or I'll have a dislike about a
way that I'm being treated. And then somebody will do
something nice or they'll, you know, they'll do something kind
or say something kind. And I'm like, oh, wait, maybe
I've just like, maybe they're not really treating me that way.
And maybe I'm just looking at it wrong or I need to have like,
you know, a little bit of forgiveness or something.
Maybe they're going through a hard time and I'll, I'll talk
myself out of something and then they'll do that same behavior
and I'm like, oh damn, I should have known.
And it's so tricky. I feel like when we are on a
healing journey for like, okay, well, part of my healing journey
is I'm like learning forgiveness.
You can learn forgiveness and you can forgive people because
you have an understanding of traumas that influence the way
that they behave or the way that they act.
But that doesn't mean that it's been an excuse that makes the
behavior OK, and that you have to stay there and tolerate it
because you've given a reason to do it.
And to add to that, like we make the most excuses for people
where like we feel trapped, like, well, that's my mom,
that's my sister. That's just how my sister acts.
Or oh, that's just how her husband acts when he drinks or
you know, whatever it may be. So if you find yourself sweeping
behaviors under the rug that maybe you would hold a stranger
to a different standard or a friend even to a different
standard, but you're allowing your brother-in-law or your
sister or someone in your family to treat you some type of way.
Like, how are you going to to expect some random stranger to
get your pronouns correct? But then like, make excuses for
your uncle or your dad? You know, I understand that
sometimes people want to be themselves.
But if you're going to be yourself, compromising your
boundaries around those that you love does not help you build the
confidence and the courage to be yourself out in public.
I think it's we don't always recognize either when we're
limiting ourselves and making ourselves small to make other
people feel comfortable or what not.
I have found recently that there's a certain way that I
have filtered things that I've talked about or topics that you
and I discussed or whatever out of making it, wanting it to be
comfortable for other people inside of my life.
Not that I have something bad to say, but just like maybe this
topic would make them uncomfortable if I talked about
it or if I gave details about it or whatever.
And at the end of the day, that's still making yourself
small. It's making your voice small.
It is compromising you speaking your truths and your feelings
and your points of view about something because of somebody
else's lens about how they're going to receive that.
And I think that a lot of the things that you and I are
talking about right now are things that people don't
necessarily always realize that they're doing.
People don't always realize that they're compromising their
personal piece or their voice or you know, something too is like
people pleasing is such a part of what we're told to do and how
we're supposed to be. And like, if you're not people
pleasing, then you're just being selfish and and whatnot.
And I think there is such a fine line between you focusing your
experience on yourself and then helping others or contributing
to others when you have the energy to do so, and that not
being considered selfish. I think that so much of our
society benefits from the lack of taking care of ourselves,
which is why people self medicate and they go do things
that are self-destructive. And I do believe that is the
reason that we stay in this loop of just like working, living,
eating, sleeping kind of thing. Like so many people within our
society don't feel like they are fully themselves or that they
can fully be happy or that they can fully be seen.
And most people, you know, falsely think that money is
going to fix those problems or things like that, but they don't
realize that that's that disconnect with your higher
self. If you truly do not know
yourself outside of labels, symbols, society standards,
society expectations, recognitions, things like that,
then you don't really know yourself and you really don't
know what you want. So it's not going to be money or
the perfect job or perfect partner that's going to fix you.
It's going to be you getting to know yourself and setting in
those uncomfortable questions that you have that are
unanswered currently. You know what I mean?
And I think that's why so many people are turning to
spirituality or people turn to religion or they turn to drugs
or whatever it may be because people need an outlet.
No matter what it is, it could be a positive, beautiful outlet
or it could be a self-destructive negative
outlet, but I think society is so disconnected because people
are not channeling into the outlets that are good for them.
Oh yeah, I agree with that. I that's kind of deep too, not
channeling into the outlets that are good for them.
And I think surrounding yourself with people who are yes people
and who are enablers really adds to that and stops the self
reflection and stops you from putting yourself into different
rooms. You know, you can have, you
know, 100 people inside of your life tell you, you know, you're
dependent on spending your money on coffee every single morning
and it's the reason that you're broke.
But then if you have, you know, 101 friends who are like, oh,
no, we do that too. Like it's not a problem.
Well, you still have the problem.
You're still spending the money. There are people pointing that
out to you. But you're choosing to close off
your viewpoint of those people and listening to them so that
you can listen to the yes men who are having the same exact
problem. And if you are surrounding
yourself with people who are into addiction on things or who
are not responsible with finances or whatever, you're
going to just do the same exact thing that they're doing.
Which is why we've always talked about the people that you
surround yourself with and that you're with on a daily basis and
that you take advice from in life is so important.
It doesn't matter what a wonderful person you are or
whatever, if you have people who are going to sit there and tell
you that your bad decisions are great decisions because they're
the same decisions that they make.
Well, then you're going to end up in the same situations that
those people are in that you think you're being like a
helpful friend to or like a supportive friend because
they're going through a lot. You'll find out you're going
through a lot. It's like when you have a friend
that's always in the fucking drama and bullshit and you're
like, I don't want any part of that.
Eventually that person's like decay of friendships ends up
following its way to you and you end up getting soaked into it
somehow. Yeah, someone once said that
people who are used to drama or chaos, no matter how peaceful or
happy their life becomes, they will always wait for the dust to
settle and then they will kick it back up because that's what
they're used to. So they will may have a perfect
marriage and then go cheat or lie or, you know, steal money
from their partner or something deceitful and not even really
recognize that that is their subconscious programming kicking
up the dirt. Or, you know, kind of like
people who get like promotions at jobs and then end up like
laundering money. I've had many people come to me
throughout my career, like being in connection with someone who's
laundered money either from their business or their personal
assets. Some people like that were like
close friends and family, super common.
You all like you start making business moves and you're like,
oh, I want to bring the people in that I know and that I can
trust. And then it be those people who
thank you, OK? They trust me.
Gotcha. That's just so weird.
But there are people who do that for a living.
There are people who only make an income by stealing from other
people and by seeming like they're a good person And even
to the point of like making friendships with people who have
money just because they can be like, I'm going through a hard
time right now, like, you know, whatever and manipulate their
way into getting something from somebody.
And that's something that I have been just more aware of and on
guard with. I think over the last year, like
you and I have talked a lot about, you know, I, I put myself
in the positions of, of if I feel like I can help somebody
with something with, you know, they're just starting out their
business or they need advice on something, or I feel like I can
recommend them to somebody, then I will.
And I'm learning the signs of people who genuinely want to be
a part of things and who want help and the people who are just
like, oh, cool, Well, I don't have to put in any work because
she's just going to shout me out to everybody and have people
come over and, and, you know, get readings or, you know, buy
things from my shop or whatever. So I don't need to put in the
effort. And there's a lot of different
ways that I think our energy and our time gets taken advantage
of. We think, but it's because we're
putting ourselves in those positions.
It's my fault if I'm putting myself in the Captain save a Ho
predicament and then being upset that you're a hoe and you're
relying on me to save you. I've been very serious on
boundaries as far as like if I've had a couple sessions with
someone and they just feel like not that it's not helping them,
but that there's still something lingering or in their words,
something attached to them. I'm very highly recommending
them to someone else that deals with attachments and things like
that. Because I just feel like there's
a certain like niche for everyone.
And I think that some people don't do the work and they want
to have a psychic or a guru or a mentor or someone lead them to
the answer. And although I can channel what
spirit wants you to know at this time, I can't lead you to the
ultimate epiphany moment that you are supposed to have on your
soul's journey. And you know, I'm, I'm not going
to bend over backwards if I feel like my services have exceeded
here, like I've done all that I can do for you.
A pet peeve that I am discovering is, and we've talked
before about the people who just want to reach out and be like I
have an attachment or you know, whatever, but that is becoming
such a huge pet peeve to me. And what I find is that people
want to trauma dump things and be like, for the last four
years, I've had this demon at my back and my grandmother died and
my husband shot himself and my child drowned in the pool.
And I haven't had Thanksgiving dinner for four years.
And then they're like, can you help me with this?
And you go or, you know, I'll respond and be like, you know,
thanks for sharing all that. Whatever.
I have this service on my website.
Just letting you know, like, and I don't operate inside of
negative energy. I'm not trying to connect with
whatever is attached to you. Like I'm happy to do a reading.
We're going to focus on different directions that you
have different things that you can be doing.
Maybe there's different ways that you can be cleansing your
space. Like, you know, I give different
things, but you have to book this session and then they're
like, you just want money. And I, I'm like, when you go to
therapy, like is the reason you're not in therapy because it
costs money? Cool.
Is the reason you don't have food in your house because
groceries cost money? Cool.
Maybe the reason that you're not getting like the spiritual
advice that you're seeking when you're trauma dumping is because
it's costing some type of energy exchange monetarily, like, you
know, crocheting a fucking blanket in exchange.
I don't know, but it it's something.
Here lately, I have had like a surplus coming into my life who
are like, they're not skeptical, but they're just not exposed.
Like they haven't been exposed to the information.
So it's not that they're skeptical, it's just that it is
truly unknown. So I can tell when people are
genuinely like wanting to ask questions that will educate them
to make the right decision to, you know, book a reading or book
a session. And then I can just tell when
and people are just like wanting to feel like they have access to
you as well. But I mean, I definitely
understand that. Like if I'm going to spend, you
know, 50 plus dollars on something and I have a few
questions, like I'm going to feel free to ask those
questions. But as we've talked about
before, there are so many spiritual practitioners and
psychics out here charging like $1000 an hour.
You know, there's one that charges $300.00 for 10 minutes.
So, you know, count your blessings, baby, count your
blessings and understand that there are people out here
scamming and manipulating and taking advantage.
So if there are people that you like that resonate with you,
like take advantage of that. Like take advantage that your
higher self has exposed you to these readers or these mediums
or these people, not just us, but others as well.
Because you know, there's not a lot of people that your soul is
going to be drawn to. So you should invest and
understand that it isn't energy exchange, and when you have
buyer's remorse or you're not open to that flow of energy,
you're going to in turn block the blessings coming to you.
Yeah. And I think that asking
questions absolutely, especially if it's like, I don't know what
I'd like we get, you know, I don't know what reading to get.
I'm on your site right now. This is what I have going on.
What would you suggest that's very different than TikTok user
349424784 who's like, this is all the tragedies of my life And
what do you mean that you won't just pull 10 cards for me?
You know? And I think that, again, I don't
think that people are always consciously doing something.
They just think this is what I'm needing.
This is the person who can offer that.
I'm going to reach out and that, I mean, I'm sure that there are
times that I or you are like, OK, well, I'm just thinking that
it's this small thing and somebody else is like, OK, well,
it's bigger to me or I'm expecting different energy or
whatever. And, and sometimes it can just
come from maybe a lack of awareness of how you're coming
across to other people or what your expectation of others is.
And I think that that type of personal reflection is really
important too. Maybe all the problems that
you're having during holiday time aren't just other people,
but maybe it's you too. And maybe it's you're not moving
and changing inside of situations.
And so your family is like on your Dick because you've been
with Bobo the clown for six years and he treats you like
shit every Thanksgiving. And then you're upset with your
aunt because she's calling you out on it.
Well, that's not because you don't have boundaries with your
aunt. That's because you don't have
boundaries in your relationship and when it's saying something
about Bobo the fucking clown. No, that's so real.
When I was in high school, I dated this guy and his name was
Chance, which is just like the craziest, funniest name.
His name was Chance. And I gave this motherfucker way
too many chances because he was a hot mess constantly.
And I remember I took him to my senior prom and he decided to
like get really drunk and just like want to leave the prom.
And it was like so annoying that I even wasted my like time like
taking him. But at the same time, my best
friend Erica, my high school best friend, had a boyfriend
that was doing the same thing. So they like ganged up on us and
like went to the car and like got drunk or while we stayed
inside the prom. And when we left the prom, we
were both so upset, like they just like had ruined our night
that we just were like ready to go to bed.
Like we were just like over it. But I look back on occurrences
like that and I'm like, don't let chance fuck up your night.
That's like a thing for me. Like don't let, don't let chance
fuck your night up. Yeah, dude.
And I, I think that everybody has like a high school, like big
dance story about like somebody let them down or whatever.
Because I have a homecoming story.
I know other people that have stories.
I think it's very prevalent and prominent when there are big
events that you're looking good for, you're feeling yourself,
you're like on cloud 9. You're so excited about things,
you're talking with other people, you're interacting with
other people, and that can make some people feel really
insecure. And there are people who will
tell you that they love your light, they love how you shine,
they love your personality, they love how outgoing you are and
and yadda yadda. But they only like it if your
light is only so bright and you're only shining that
personality to certain people, and you're only sharing that
personality and your humor to certain people and talking about
certain things and everything else makes them uncomfortable.
And they're not going to support you being that person and that
version of yourself. That is so real.
I have heard that from so many clients, like, Oh yeah, he
ruined my birthday or they ruined this event or my
graduation or my baby shower or whatever it may be.
And that is a sure sign to quit entertaining that person,
whether it's your own family member, a partner, a friend, not
even close. Would someone who actually cares
about you do something like that?
And I've even heard, like, people talk about this, like,
with their best friend or like their partner.
And that is just so humiliating. And if you truly love someone,
you wouldn't do that to them. And I just know that in my
heart, throughout my life, there were many, many people that I
gave energy and time that did not deserve it.
But I tried to like, see that as like, there's nothing wrong with
me for trying to love the wrong people.
I think that it's also important to recognize when we're wanting
people to be a different way than they want to be and we're
wanting them to change. Because in the same way that we
don't want people to dim down our light and that we want to
just be ourselves and be able to go out here and express and do
what we want to do, other people deserve to be able to do that
too. And I think that it takes a lot
of personal accountability and responsibility to be able to
reflect and go, are these things that I'm not liking about these
people, things that they're going to be able to grow through
and they're going to be able to change?
Do I have a right to be saying that I don't like these things
that they clearly like about themselves because they keep
doing it. And then you have the
responsibility to remove yourself from those situations
because that's a part of that person and they have every right
to do and be whatever it is that they want to do and be.
And it's your responsibility to remove yourself from those
people instead of expecting those people to change for you
and to do something different and be something different than
they are. And I think that's where a lot
of people set themselves up for failure is that we are
entertaining potential and we're entertaining people's like
character that we see for them. Like, well, I know they're a
good person or I know he wouldn't hurt me or I know he
wouldn't still from my mom or whatever it may be.
But a lot of the times people will gain your trust in order to
manipulate you. And I think that the most
important thing I'm learning is to give people the benefit of
the doubt, but to not ignore the signs because most people, if
they got fucked over, you can look back with hindsight and see
the signs. Oh, every night after 11, they
don't text back. Or, you know, just like weird
little things that like maybe some people like, oh, he's
asleep or maybe he's up on the phone with someone.
Maybe he's entertaining someone that's long distance.
Or, you know, you never know. Like, I think so many people in
this world give the wrong people benefit of the doubt.
And then when someone that cares about them comes forward and
says, I know they're not good for you.
I know I saw them on a dating app.
You are more quick to cut off the friend or the person that's
trying to support you rather than the person who's hurting
you. Not the dating apps that also
too. A lot of times the reason that
you're second guessing yourself is because somebody else is
gaslighting you into thinking that you're the one who has the
problem or your friend has the problem for finding the profile
or you're just not understanding or whatever ABC and D is.
And somebody can give you the bare minimum of like, oh, well,
you know, they are respectful to me in private.
They they love me. They do this, that and the other
that doesn't negate the other things that happen.
And I think that people we, we get too comfortable with, Oh
well, if they love me and they're kind to me, then all
these other things or whatever because, well, they love me.
Well, they're kind to me in these moments.
Well, when it's just us and nobody else is around, they're
really respectful. They're really respectful when
you 2 are alone because there's nobody else there and they're
trying to get in your pants. That's why they're super loving
and respectful when it's just you guys and there's no other
influences on anything. But how do people operate and
treat you when there's other influences on things?
And also how do people that you're around treat other
people? How do they talk about other
people? Because you can, you can tell a
lot about somebody by the way that they discuss others if they
have a falling out or not even a falling out.
But if they're frustrated about something and they want to talk
to you, do they say, hey, do you have just a couple of minutes
for me to talk to you about this thing?
And like, I just need somebody to hear it.
I don't want to shit talk. I just need somebody to hear
this because I feel frustrated versus I'm going to call you and
talk shit about this person for two hours and then that's still
my best friend. Yeah, I've noticed that
sometimes people will treat strangers with kindness within,
behind closed doors, be fucking assholes.
And I think that this is just a testament to, like, you really
do not know what's going on in people's lives and behind closed
doors because I know for sure that a lot of the things that
people reveal, there's something deeper under the surface that
they're not revealing. And I think it's just about
giving people grace, like as we come into the holidays, like,
don't make excuses for poor behavior, but give people grace
when you know that it's not personal.
Because I know sometimes when I'm frustrated, especially if
I'm hungry, if I am hungry and I get like slightly
inconvenienced, it will be a lot bigger deal than it should be.
That's so true, dude. I'd be fucking hungry and I
don't even realize that I'm hungry.
And then I, yeah, I also think there's going to be a lot of
stuff eventually that and I think we talked about this last
episode too, but there's eventually just going to be lots
of stuff that you and I share that we've been going through
over just the last couple of months and are just like own
personal worlds and things like that.
And I'm proud of us because I feel like we go sometimes we go
through the most like deep healing and like life shattering
things. And we're still taking care of
other people while balancing out taking care of ourselves.
And we are still being cognizant of the way that we are treating
other people so that we're not projecting onto them and
whatever. And I give us kudos on that
because we've both done a lot of work to be able to be those
people and to be able to be consistent people even when we
have things going on. And being able to still help
others with their readings and their insight on things and
giving advice and not taking our shit that we have going on and,
and putting it on to them. And I just think that that means
a moment of recognition because we're we've done a very good job
at that. It's literally been such a tense
year. I am so glad that Pluto has now
transitioned into its new era because I'm really hoping that
with this transition into Aquarius that we see some huge
change because Pluto and Aquarius is known for
revolutions. I'm expecting a lot of things to
change and a lot of things to shift.
And we've been talking about it for two years, but now you're
actually seeing it in the real world.
The less idolization of celebrities and people in
perceived power, that shit's crumbling as quickly as
possible. And there's been a lot of
revelations on that just seeing people for who they really are.
And my favorite is when there are celebrities who own in their
own personal bank accounts, have enough money to cure world
hunger, but they'll hop on like Oprah and ask for donations or
like some other candidates we've pad that are wearing like
Tiffany and other things, asking for money for their campaign or
their whatever. And I'm all for campaigning and
I'm all for raising money, but not when you're wearing a
$65,000 necklace, not when you're Oprah Winfrey, and not
when you have more money than God.
So that's where I'm drawing the line.
And I think so many people are starting to see that celebrities
are a literal joke when they're asking the middle class working
people to donate money to something that they they could
just take out of their own personal account or sell a home
or an asset of some sort. So I've been really trying to
detach from this world because there's going to be a time where
we can't grow from all the concrete and all the buildings
and all the things that we've built.
And it's getting really, really bad as of late, like of just
building shit that doesn't need to be built.
And I think that we're reaching a change with that as well.
And I think so many people need to see what's really important
to them and really continue to align with that reality of what
it is that you want to see rather than what it is that you
don't like. We talked really early on in the
podcast about celebrities and about Hollywood culture and
about things crumbling. And we specifically had talked
about the Kardashians and other people who are really held up on
these pedestals and aren't doing things that are giving back to
people or are always asking for more or always doing something
and trying to achieve a certain status or whatever.
And those things kind of crumbling down.
And I think that, again, people that you surround yourself with,
you end up getting kind of tossed in with their crusty,
musty, dusty bullshit. And I think that that's happened
in Hollywood too, where, you know, you bust 1 ditty and then
you've got all of these other dominoes that are gonna fall
that are, you know, whatever. And it's because people flock
together who are going to make excuses for poor behavior or who
are going to manipulate and take advantage of things.
If you have a same common goal as somebody else and you guys
are in a niche in some way, like in Hollywood, those people are
in a very specific niche of what's the word privilege.
And they can abuse privilege in the same ways.
They they can have each other telling them that the choices
and decisions that they're making are good, get them in the
rooms with the right but wrong people.
And so then once one of them starts to fall, then they are
all start to fall because of the way that you surround.
Yourself, in the end, when people put you on, they want you
to give them something back. So these people, they get these
deals, these contracts, and they're always going to want
more. There's no ending.
It's always going to be more. And why do you think like people
like Rihanna, Rihanna, Rihanna, Rihanna, it's just gone.
She's just gone because that she doesn't want to be.
Told what music to make and what to record.
Yeah, you. You start to sign away your
identity and at what cost? At what cost are you just owned
and anything can happen. And to go back to the the
Kardashians, that whole Balenciaga thing that happened
and with Kim, she's still repping Balenciaga.
It doesn't matter what they're getting called out for, what
they're affiliated with, what types of stuff is happening.
She never came out and said anything about it.
And then she's continuing because it pays her, because the
important thing to her is the notoriety and the lifestyle and
the well, I'm going to let all of these other things go, but
I'm really big on Prison Reform, guys.
So let's talk about Prison Reform.
But all these other things, I'm just like letting them go.
Not that I, I think that you have to have like intelligence
and and whatnot in order to get yourself to the point that
they're at. So I don't think that they're
just stupid people, but I do think that there's so much,
there has to be so much facade in front of the camera for what
happens behind the scenes. I think so many people are
living a script. They get told what they're going
to do, what they're going to say, who they're going today,
who they're going to have kids with.
And I really believe it is like the old system of like marrying
into money or marrying into status.
And I think that so many people are trapped in a system that.
Is going to chew them up and spit them back out.
But can we say that there's like an odd level of comeback for
people like Lindsay Lohan and Kelly Osbourne and, you know,
like Demi Lovato or even like Christina Aguilera?
Like where's the fountain of youth all of a sudden?
Because everyone's got a whole bottle of it and you can't tell
me Paris and Lindsay and these people are aging backwards,
Paris said in an in an interview.
She's never had any plastic surgery or Botox.
OK, looks. Fucking good.
I'm just saying like what fountain of youth are they
sipping on? Is this to sell your soul extra
special? Listen, I, I am so down deep
inside of the rabbit holes of Hollywood youth and the like,
drinking baby blood and everything and the, the cloning
of people like, I full heartedly believe that.
I believe that if you're not thinking Beyoncé for everything
that you have in life, when you get famous, you're dying.
And also, so I'm going to take you down a rabbit hole really
quick. So you know about the Beyoncé
thing and the saying thank you to Beyoncé, right?
Yeah, but do you know about the Beyoncé and Selena thing?
I did hear about this Beyoncé and Selena thing.
I'm going to have you dive into that.
But I've been down the rabbit hole of Beyoncé, Kanye West, and
Taylor Swift. So hear me out because this
theory totally fucking made sense to me.
But the theory with them is that years ago when there was, what
was it like the VM as or something, and Taylor was up
getting her award, she was doing her speech or whatnot.
And then Kanye came up and said, I'm going to let you have your
moment. But Beyoncé had the best album
or video of the year or whatever the fuck it was.
And everybody's like, Oh my God, Kanye was such a douche for
that. Well, now that the Beyoncé thing
is coming out with, you know, people who haven't thanked her
and who have died or whatever, there are people saying that
Kanye was going through something with Beyoncé and Jay-Z
at the time. And he noticed that Taylor
wasn't saying thank you and acknowledging Beyoncé and
whatever. And that he went up there the
way that he did because he knew that they had a plan for her
because of how successful she was getting.
And that he went up and made that moment and took it from
Taylor to basically save her life and say, you know, like
giving her giving Beyoncé her dues and whatever.
And that Taylor just didn't understand at the time or
anything. And after that happened is when
Kanye started to go on his decline and then, you know, was
set up with the Kardashian and then disappeared and was like,
oh, well, he's being crazy because he's saying all these
things about Hollywood or whatever.
And then now they're saying that like real Kanye is back after
it's been the clone and that he, you know, conveniently it's
after Diddy stuff has come out and things like that.
And that all of these celebrities now are being
released from whatever it was that they were being entangled
into. So you're talking about like the
Lindsay Lohan's and Demi Lovato's and stuff.
And if you pay attention to the correlations of like Demi Lovato
and Kanye West, they both have been silenced and told that
they're crazy. They, you know, it's been mental
health, it's been drugs, whatever else.
And then they've come back and they look like their old selves
and whatever. I don't know who the fuck Demi
Lovato was for a minute when we were talking about her going
through her O DS and everything but she came back with to
different genders and it talking to aliens and singing to aliens
and doing all types of shit that she now is like I don't identify
with any of that. That's not who I am as a person
and it was just a really hard time and I think she looks like
she did before all that crazy shit was happening.
So she's saying she doesn't identify with the alien stuff?
Yeah, she there was there was some type of we'll have to find
the interview. But she did an interview where
she had basically said that like that version of her when she was
shortly after OD ING and stuff and when she was really trying
to like find herself and everything.
She had had like some gender identity things that she was
going through. And then just like these crazy
tail spin offs of like almost like psychosis for her and that
she just didn't identify with those things.
I don't remember what interview it was.
I'll have to do some research on that, but I just found it really
interesting. Yeah, I've totally been down
that same rabbit hole with the like, everyone thought Kanye was
being an asshole, but he actually saved Taylor Swift's
life. And then I also believe that
Beyoncé has she has something to do with Selena being murdered as
well. I believe that because there's
something going on with that situation, like whenever, you
know, Selena died and then Beyoncé kind of became famous
shortly thereafter. And if you watch the Selena
series where they remade it into ATV show, Beyoncé and her mom is
like referenced and like gets a cameo in the show and Beyoncé's
acting like a fan. Yeah, I'll have to look.
I don't actually know that much about Selena.
I think maybe because of just like the time and stuff and like
my age, like I didn't grow up with Selena, I grew up with
Destiny's Child. So by the time that I was like
listening to different music or whatever, I was definitely in
like Destiny's Child era, but. I have never been a fan of solo
Beyoncé. I've never understood the hype
about everything. I think she's an amazing singer.
I think she's beautiful. I think that the types of
concerts that she puts on used to be considered crazy until you
look at the concerts that Taylor Swift is putting on.
And I'm like this bitch, rain shines, snowstorm, that doesn't
matter. She is out there in her
sequence, skirt, dress and doing the damn thing.
And I'm, I'm not a, what do they call them Swifties?
I'm not a Swifty, but I have just like her tours are fucking
crazy. She's been on tour for like
years doing this concert series and it's like hours long.
Like like I think it's like 2 to four hours of her just solo
performing up there. All of these songs back-to-back
to back-to-back to back-to-back. She's like a robot.
I think a lot of these people are robots.
I think a lot of them are like not real.
I think they've sold their likeness and their soul to the
metaverse and they're like shape shifting alien robots.
She you know what? I usually feel that way.
I haven't felt that way about her and her journey.
Like I haven't. She hasn't like her body and her
face doesn't look crazy different.
She looks like she's getting older.
She looks like she's progressing.
What about that Lady that ruled the Satanist church that looked
just like Taylor Swift? Have you been down that rabbit
hole? I, I haven't dove into the
rabbit hole, but I have just like knocked at the door of
research on on that. And yeah, that is totally a
thing. But you know, I think there's a
difference between like you're a reincarnated Satanist priestess
versus you are owned by whatever beings that there are and you're
a fucking robot now and you don't exist.
I also think that the Christina Aguilera thing, I just think
that she has really good plastic surgery because there's so many
pieces of her that are still here.
When she does her interviews and stuff, that's still her.
Her mannerisms are still her. It's not like Gucci Mane who
went to prison, came out and you're like, who is this fool?
It's it's not a Gucci Mane situation.
I think that Christina Aguilera lost a ton of weight and she
probably did some type of cosmetic procedures for her,
which by the way, go you like these bitches who are like hot
as fuck and they're like 40s and 50s.
I, I cannot wait. I aspire to have the money for
the cosmetic surgeries that I want to have and the universe
hasn't given them to me yet because this personality plus
the cosmetic surgery body that I envisioned for myself, it's over
for you, hoes it, it's over. I'm taking everything.
She's leaving no crumbs. No crumbs, no needle left
uninjected. Saving the.
Money I want. Needles and injections.
I have spent the last month going and getting my lips
dissolved and getting all the migrated filler inside and
around my lips dissolved and let me just tell you, it is fucking
painful. Why are you getting them?
Because you were going and getting them filled for for the
longest. So what's your process right
now? And then what is your process
after? So I've been getting them
dissolved because filler displaces itself and like
migrates over time. So I've gotten all the displace
filler like dissolved and then I'm going to get another plump
session. So, So what is it you?
You can get them filled up to a certain point, and then you need
to dissolve what you've done so that you can start over fresh.
So they don't tell you you have to dissolve it.
Just over time it moves and it moves inside of your mouth.
It can move towards your mustache, towards your chin,
towards your jawline on the inside.
So it just migrates and you have to dissolve it.
It's painful. What is dissolving and what's
painful? The needle going in or the
dissolving part? The dissolving part.
Because it's eating shit in your face.
Yeah. So.
Melting away the filler. That sounds really painful.
And I keep thinking about like a bitch may want some lips.
And then I think about the fact that I have to get needles in my
face and I have to pay for it and then potentially get it
dissolved. And what if, like, how do you
know that the person that you're going to is good at what they do
just because they have others you don't know?
You're just like, I really hope that I don't look like a duck
when I leave here. I will say it's a trial and
error process and always start out with less and go back and do
more. I will say that.
Oh, guys, I'm gonna reinvent myself.
You're not even gonna know. I'm gonna get Botox.
I'm gonna get lip fillers, I'm gonna get some titties.
I'm gonna get everything. You know what I want?
I just want like every procedure that I can do at one time so
that they can just put me in a body cast and then I can heal
all at once and it'll be fine. Like, I'll just wake up and like
new titties, lipo, new face, rhinoplasty.
I'm gonna have my hairline pulled up.
Like what's good? Gemini starting in only fans.
No, but I am going to start selling pictures of my feet.
Tap in baby, tap in. You know why I think all people
should utilize all assets available?
After I get my whole body transformation and they break
all my bones and they take out all my fat and they realign
everything in the way that I want it, then I would make an
OF. In the meantime, I'm going to
get really cute pedicures and I'm going to be on feet Finder
because I found out so many talking about rabbit holes.
Did you know that there's 4000 million things that you can do
with your feet and people just pay you for it?
Like you can dip your toe in a cherry pie and somebody is like,
I want you to wipe off that cherry pie with a purple napkin
and mail it to me and they fucking pay you extra money for
that. I, I'm not against the panty
selling thing. There are people who like sell
their panties and shit like that.
I don't know how you get into that.
I'd be into something like that. I don't want to like show my
butt hole on the Internet necessarily until I like get it
like surgically done and it's like a glitter butt hole or
something weird and then I'll sell that online.
But in the meantime, I think like teeth, toes, fucking.
What do you want undies, what's good?
How you doing? Everyone is ready to do farting
in a jar. I would.
I would sell my bath water. I'll shit in a cup for you and
mail it to you. You just let me know.
You know, when we had the dominatrix person on here, they
were talking about people collecting fluids and drinking
them. Yep.
You know. But Starbucks for three days and
give you my pee for $700? Our audience must be pretty
freaky because those dominatrix Part 1 and Part 2 episodes got a
lot of views. You did get a lot of views.
I mean, our, our personalities, like we're always talking about
sex or something dirty or freaky.
I feel like it's taken you a second to come out of your shell
and just share the little freaky butterfly that you are.
But you're getting there. You're getting there.
And I feel like there's changes on my end where I'm going to be
able to, I'm going to be able to break you out more.
Oh God, y'all don't even know what you're waiting for.
You don't even know what is available because it's under the
surface for now. No, Yeah, there's 2025 is going
to be fucking lit. We are.
And I'm just putting this out into the universe because this
is happening. Paige and I are going to be
getting together in May for our birthdays.
I'm going to go out to her. We're going to do photo shoots
and all types of marketing things for Lollipop.
We're going to do in person interviews.
We're going to have like just a whole experience and then
there's things that I think we're waiting until kind of like
the new year to share with you guys.
But I think we're gonna probably have like a metamorphosis
episode for you guys because there's just huge changes and
there's huge changes in my life that I like.
I'm gonna tell you guys about shortly.
If you're on my TikTok, then I've I've shared a little tiny
bit, but we'll dive into that. And then Paige has had really
transformative moments in the last couple months too.
Whether or not you decide to give details on those.
I think that you had experiences this past couple of months that
I think put you inside of other people's shoes in a different
way than you had been before and in a different perspective than
you had been before. And I don't know if you see the
way that they that it has changed you, but I can see the
way that it's changed you positively and, and what not in
the way that your energy shows up.
And I think that other people will be able to tell that even
if they don't know why. And I just think it'll be really
cool whenever you're ready to Share your story too, because I
think that you just had so much growth out of things that could
be, can you know that are just really difficult to go through.
You know, at the end of the day, I think that everything in my
life is coming to a turning point.
I feel like I'm coming on this like five year circle or five
year cycle is like really being dedicated on my personal growth
journey and healing journey, sobriety journey.
And just like really focusing on my needs and saying no to toxic
family events or family members or relationships and just really
saying no the last five years. And I feel like like there's
been so much growth, even just one year of being selfish with
my energy. I started my own business and
it's crazy to think that it'll be four years in February
because it's just kind of flown by.
But I do believe the universe really does always have a plan,
even when it is something really difficult or something we don't
want to go through something that we don't want to
necessarily experience. It really does change you for
the better because you see how strong you are and like how much
you really do have that ability to like shape your reality with
your perception and your understanding of that situation.
I. Want to ask you, you can think
about it or you can respond right now, but I want to know
something that you feel is huge and whatever that you want to
obtain for yourself in 2025, whether it be personal or
business, something that you're like, this is me reaching for
the fucking moon, but this is something that like my soul
wants. I want to buy acreage with trees
on it. Go, bitch, go.
I'm going to live in a tree house on your acreage.
I want to buy acreage. Even if it was just a few acres,
I want acreage. She's got a corner lot next to
the gas station. She's like, I've got 6 acres.
Are you going to read us a card? Yes.
I shall do that.
We got card 58. The card is Spirit of Vitality.
Here's the picture. It's like a carousel at an
amusement park or something. It makes me think of the mall
when you have the carousel inside of the mall.
People even go to the mall anymore.
Yes, I like them all. I haven't.
Been to the mall on a fortnight. All right.
Card 58 Spirit of vitality. Your sign is Capricorn, your
gift is magnetic Spirit and your shadow is dissatisfaction.
This gift is within your grasp Once you realize that the future
is merely an illusion. You let go of the never ending
expedition for perfection and achievements.
This gift affords you the opportunity to look at the
present moment with a renewed sense of vitality.
It is this spark of life that then motivates everything going
forward. It is not that you forsake
service or improvement of any kind, but the underlying energy
is transformed. You no longer engage for the
sake of attempting to make yourself whole, but your
inherent wholeness drives your actions.
Everything you do is then infused and enriched with the
magnetic spirit. This shadow presents as a dull
feeling that consumes you and no matter what you do, cannot be
extracted. This is a plague that affects
many, if not all people at some point in life.
People with this shadow tend to be the go getters and self
starters, being of service to others and doing everything
possible to continuously improve upon themselves.
The rub here is that your actions do actually make the
world a better place, but this sense of satisfaction is forever
fleeting. This drive to do better, to be
better, in and of itself behaves much like a trick question.
What outside of myself or in the future will secure my lasting
happiness? Answer nothing.
There is no thing or person or objective that will cure you
because you were the cure. Within you is everything that
you could ever need or want. It's been there all along.
When you're able to drop the preoccupation with the future,
you will finally access your powerful gift of vitality.
Your themes are aliveness, the present spirit, and intention.
I love that so much and I love that the themes was intention
because I am so big on like setting intention for every day
and like every season of your life.
No matter if it's just like I want to be more patient or happy
or I want to be at peace. I want to move stress free in my
life, whatever it is. Like I think intentions are
super underrated and one of the main reasons people do not bring
in their manifestations. I agree with you.
I think people also, I think visualization is a huge piece
inside of people not bringing in what they're wanting to.
I think that people are scared to visualize the things that
they want or visualizing themselves in the positions of
power or achievement for things that they're wanting.
And again, back to that selfishness thing, it can be
deemed as selfish for you to want to strive for certain
things for yourself. And it's so important for you to
visualize the future that you're wanting in with that card.
Knowing that you're you being the cure is such a big thing.
You're the cure for you. Tackling your mental health
things. You're the cure for you.
You're having financial issue. You're the cure for feeling like
people aren't getting to know you and you want to have more
notoriety or be seen or be understood.
You're the cure for everything that you feel is happening in
life, not the way that you want. The only person who can move
your positions is you. Getting out of relationships,
changing jobs, getting out of cycles.
You're the only person who can fix all these issues that you
have. And honestly, a lot of the times
the solutions are absolutely free.
Like so many people think it's money or something that's
trapping them, but it's almost free.
Like getting in bed earlier, getting off your phone,
unfollowing negativity online, unfriending negative people.
All of those things would propel you forward.
Putting out an updated resume, utilizing resources and tools
that are available to you. Maybe it's a mentor program
that's through your college or through your school or through
your church or through some Ave. you know what I mean?
Like so many people neglect the resources available to them
because it's going to require a little work and a little
background effort to get there, but it will be worth it.
And that's why we're always here to remind you is like, it's not
always puppies and rainbows, but once again, having people in
your corner who want to see the best for you will require
difficult conversations. Saying things with tact and
grace, but saying them because they need to be said.
Because when you care about someone, you care about them
enough to let them know when they are falling short and seem
to be blinded by it. Blinded by the Light?
Do you know the actual words to that song?
Because I don't, but I always thought that it was Blinded by
the light wrapped up like a douche in the middle of the
night. But apparently that's not what
it's about. And apparently the song is about
a car. I love that song so much.
I listen to it regularly actually.
I don't know the words but I love that song.
Yeah, well, the lyrics are not wrapped up like a douche.
And on that, we'll leave you guys.
Well, you all, we will see you next time in motherfucking
Candyland. Bye.
Yeah, you said she's so sweet,
man. Come on.
Like a rapper live. Me like a lollipop.
Lollipop. Lollipop, lollipop, lollipop.
He want to live, live, live me like a lollipop.
Lollipop, lollipop. You want to swallow my spirit
and penetrate my aura taste All of my consciousness is obvious.
We're goddesses full of the divine femininity who need
masculine energy, energy, energy.
You want to be my man? And let me take you to the
Candyland Candyland. Candyland, Candyland.
He want to live me like a lollipop.