Welcome to fucking Dandy land hosted by Rampage and Gemini.
What is up everybody? Welcome back to Candyland.
We miss you all. It is almost the summer
solstice. And there is so much energy
around life force and creation. I feel like, you know, the days
are getting longer, we're about to hit the peak of the longest
day, and it's just a beautiful energy.
Dude, I feel like my bedtime is like, thrown off a little bit
with how long it State like no shape to it, but it just stays
light so long that, you know, before you would get your hustle
on and a little bit shorter hours.
And then now, I'm like, should I be doing things until 10:00?
Or should I be sitting here at 7:00 and getting ready for bed?
I mean, I've been resting on Pettingill, I've been resting a
little bit differently because I just feel Like because the days
are longer, I'm taking a little bit slower morning because I am
getting so much stuff done like in the evenings or whatever and
I do feel like when I look at the clock and it's like 906 and
the Sun is just going down like, that's crazy.
Yeah, that's fucking wild. Your background looks so cute.
I'm inside my closet. I want to talk about.
What happened to you this weekend.
Oh, my god, bitch. Okay, so it's so much to tell
you. So, we went on our trip to.
I didn't say where we were going.
Let me open the door for my cat. God, open the Doda.
Let the pussy walk in. I'm not editing that out either.
Whoa, don't Buck Wild. Um so I didn't say where we were
going ahead of time because I didn't want people being like,
you know, creepy. We went to Pendleton Oregon and
when you look up Pendleton it says that it's like a nice town.
It's like a rodeo Town. Yada yada, we went there and it
is crackhead fucking Village. First of all, And like, I'm
talking like crackhead Central everywhere.
You go all over the place. So, anyways, um, we get there
and the daytime this house was super beautiful.
The Airbnb was so pretty, it was so nice.
It was a gem in the middle of Crack city basically.
So the first night, we literally eSATA, like there were
skinwalkers outside it sounded like, I'm not even bullshitting
you. We were doing our witches,
Circle and stuff, I'm doing a reading.
I get done with the the reading that I have for one of the girls
and they're like, did you not hear the legitimate crime scene
that was happening while you were reading?
And I'm like, no, I was channeling.
Like, I didn't hear Jack Shit apparently, while I Is doing the
reading. All of them were hearing this
woman, like, wailing outside and like crying like screaming like
wailing outside. And so, I finished the reading,
they're all looking at the window out the windows, there's
nobody there. And they're like, what the fuck?
And then all of a sudden I'm like Tanya goes, I'm gonna open
up. My assistant goes, I'm going to
open up the door and check it out.
And I was like, no, dude, it's dark outside.
That's the skinwalker type shit. And so we're sitting there.
And there were not, there were curtains up in this house, but
they were, like, sheer white curtains.
So, when you have the lights on inside, everybody can see you
inside. But you can't see anybody
outside. So we turn off lights and we're
like, okay, at least now we can see outside and the Wailing,
like, it's the weirdest. It's the weirdest like moaning
cry. And so, they're going around,
closing windows, and the girls are listening.
Inning and it sounds, it doesn't sound like English, but it
doesn't sound like another language.
Like, it just sounds like it doesn't make any sense and that
somebody should be there right at the window.
Tanya goes, absolutely. Not, I don't like this.
I'm turning the TV off. I do not subscribe.
She closes the window, we never hear it again.
And so the first night we're like, okay, seems like some
ghost activity, some weird ship, like whatever we all sleep than
yesterday. We're interviewing for the
podcast. All day, it's for girls and then
this man Joe and he's a, you know, 63 year old.
He's like a grown man. And so we go on a walk because
right behind the house, is this River was like a walking trail
and to rug. We're gonna go smoke a joint.
So we go to go walk, we are not gone from our house five
minutes, we're standing there to light this joint and this guy
walks up and he's like You guys have a cigarette?
And I'm like, no, none of us smoke and then he takes turns
asking each of us. Do you have a cigarette?
So I'm getting annoyed and I'm
like, we don't smoke and my sister-in-law, she's not with us
because she's on the phone. Her back is turned to us and
she's kind of pacing and facing the other way.
And he goes what about her too. She have a cigarette and I said,
she doesn't smoke. And he goes, well, I'm going to
ask her anyways and I said she's on a phone call, and she doesn't
smoke and Heat. Turns around and goes, I don't
give a fuck. And I'm like, what did you just
say? And so then the man Joe takes
this guy off to the side. I tell Amanda to come and join
us. I don't know what Joe says to
him, but he's so nice. The guy ends up walking away.
We see that he goes and he walks and he meets up with some other
dudes. It was sitting there watching us
and hiding from a bus station. Like when you like, you know,
when you're going to go in the bus they have like I'm not the
bus box. Ex who you're waiting.
And so he doesn't talk to that dude.
And then we noticed that on our right there's a guy who is also
staring at us and he's like walking towards us.
Joe joins us again after making sure that that crackhead went to
his bus box. Looks at this guy, the guy sees
Joe turns around and starts walking in the opposite
direction, but keeps turning around and looking at us.
And so we're like, were super uncomfortable.
We're going to walk home. And we notice that while we're
walking home, that the guy and his friend who had asked about
the cigarettes, they're walking in unison with us but on the
other side of the road and so I'm like you guys, we just need
to like walk in circles or whatever.
Because I'm not going to show them like where we're staying
like we just need to lie. Keep walking.
And so we keep walking. We noticed that they're stopping
and like, turning around and trying to see, like, where we're
going basically. So we see them walk far enough
down the road and their backs are to us.
So, we go into the air B&B and I was like, okay, well at this
point I even said out loud. I said at this point, even if
they saw us go into a house, they can't tell what house it is
from here. We're inside the living room,
three minutes later. My assistant goes that dudes
outside of the fucking house. Putting a mask on right now and
the dude guess. So, they had been walk and I
mean like, they were far away like with their backs to us when
we went into the house, this guy is in front of our fucking
house. Pulling a black mask, over his
face and starts like, like fucking picking up his like
walking pace and tries to To break into the house next door
and Tanya because all we see is him put his mask on kind of like
possible around the side of the house.
So Tanya goes to close the kitchen window that she had
opened while she was cooking and notice, is this guy trying to
get in the house next door? The sound of the window closing
must have scared him because he stops what he's doing.
Grabs the neighbors bags at cams and runs.
And the whole thing fucking creeped us out and like, we're
all in one hundred percent agreement that he was trying to
get into our house. Like he thought we were staying
there, but we were staying at the house next door.
And so we're like we are not fucking with that, all of us
like we're so uncomfortable. We're like we're not staying
here tonight. The girl that we were
interviewing. She's like, you guys are
wonderful. I really love you.
It's been great. I'm leaving.
So the why didn't you Meet at this place, precisely it.
Is that where that girl is? We met there because where Joe
and Kristen, which is who were interviewing are in Washington,
it's six hours away. So Pendleton was a three-hour
point for all of us so it was right in the middle and so my
assistant my sister-in-law and I drove out and met them there.
And originally we were going to get a hotel and then I was like
interview. I'm at a hotel.
Like that's not going to be comfortable.
I want to be able to go outside and touch grass.
I want to be able to have a place to like make food and not
be eating like fast food because nobody wants to be eating so I
can fast food while there, you know, in a fucking hotel with
one bathroom. I don't want to have the shits
with three girls. So this is like the Airbnb,
toxic chain because I talked about my trip to Detroit which
was life threatening and was just if anyone would have saw
us, that same thing would have happened.
That's why I was so scared to go in and out of that Airbnb in
Detroit because it was the same thing because I didn't realize
that the guy who rented us, the air B&B lied about the location
and we were literally in the middle of crack Ville and you
know, to White Kids. Like we talked about this
before. So, yes, I think those guys were
sexual predators. Really, I do.
I'm so glad you said that because I when we were driving
home, I was like, I don't know if you guys understand, but
like, I legit feel like that was a total sex trafficking fucking
setup. I think it was more of like
Ransom. You know what I mean?
Like, you all looked out of place.
They knew you weren't from there.
They've never seen you. They frequent the area.
It would be like, you know, someone who walks up and down
and begs her change on the same area all the time.
Sees people and then you all are just walking down the street.
And it sounds like that's not a place that you walk down the
street. And so, in Louisville, they've
tried to spice up Downtown Mobile, which is like the same
situation that you're talking about.
Like, we have higher crime rates in Chicago.
And so, it's crazy because they've built this place called
nulu, which is like, n, UL, you like new level, it's like, Like
whatever, and it's the same thing, like people come in from
out of town, they get these little bougie airbnb's, that are
kind of like industrial buildings.
Are these old shotgun houses that people have renovated
beautifully because they bought the house for twelve thousand
dollars or they bought the house for twenty thousand dollars.
Kind of like that guy in Detroit tried to do but didn't renovate
it like that. These people really have put in
that money where it says like when you look on Zillow, like
this house is worth 300 K. Now which it is but like is the
area safer for tourists women to just walk down the And look lost
and confused. Now, probably not right.
You know what I mean? So, I feel like the vibe you all
were giving off was lost and confused or kind of just in all,
or looking around and exploring, like, you've never been there
before and they were like, that's to our advantage and
there by their self. Well, and we were, we were
walking because it was so like, I even got a picture, like, the
rivers on the right. There's this beautiful, paved
trail, other people, or walking, and we're in Oregon.
So, Or like we can smoke a joint in public.
So we'll just stop at this bench right here and smoke.
And yeah, he just came out of nowhere and we're just like,
what the actual fuck it was. It was super weird.
And I'm so grateful that we had Joe with us because he really, I
don't know what he said to that guy, but the guy would like gave
him his first name and like shook his hand and walked off
and it was I don't know. Dude, it was the same guy who
came back. Later.
Yeah, so the timeline was you all were out hanging out in this
guy saw you all and was asking for a cigarette then you left
because you felt weird and we're walking and he kind of followed
y'all. Yeah.
So where we were so we are this Trail is behind the houses that
were at. It's a raise trail behind the
houses and what they did is they walked In front of the houses,
and on the opposite side of the road, so we would be walking in
parallel and they would be able to see us from between the
houses, but we could see them looking at us to while we were
walking. And so we just kept walking and
then like, looped around and like, went down the block a
little bit. So yeah, they were like
definitely parallel following us and then we waited for them to
walk down the road and have their backs.
To us and be far down and then like booked it into the house
but they obviously saw, oh, they went inside the house but they
got the wrong house. So so the Airbnb lady because I
because I message the Airbnb lady and I'm like, we're leaving
like what the fuck? And I'm thinking she has rain
cameras so she can see that homie put on a black mask and
was running in front of her house and went around the side
and all that. So she's like, okay, I'll look
at my ring camera and she goes, I hope this hasn't ruined
Pendleton for you. You know, we're really big for
the rodeo and so she, then she starts telling me about the
rodeo and the Rodeo schedule and all the days that the rodeo goes
and it's Sunday to Wednesday or whatever.
And I cut her off and was like, Paula, I will not be coming back
here. Hold on the rodeo is going to be
big Buffy me teaming with With their wife's that these on the
fuckers, ain't never going to fuck with.
So if it's big for the rodeo is because that's a man's man who's
packing and done on the side of his fucking hip that shows up.
So that's why these fuckers saw you all and you were straight
Target because it sounds like it's just men in in bucking
bulls around their little. Do they know that these women
that came here from Idaho in her packing?
Like we? It's not like we were where my
thing was. I wasn't GERD and the aspect of
like, I'm so scared for my safety because I can't defend
myself when we were leaving, I was like, I'm so annoyed that
we're leaving because I'm not fucking scared of a crackhead.
It was more of. Like, I'm also not going to sit
inside of a house where I feel like a Target and be in a
situation where something wild does happen.
You have to shoot a fucking crackhead and we're in Oregon
where you're not even supposed to be having guns.
And then having to explain that like, We could have removed
ourselves from the situation, but we decided to stay and then
we had to shoot somebody. You know what I mean?
Yeah, yeah. It's fucking weird.
That's fucking weird. And I'm telling you, there's
something weird with airbnb's and after I like have been
through all the things I went through, I just don't know about
it or B and E's unless they're literally like expensive Airbnb
that you can just tell is going to be so fire.
I can't go to these little Podunk are As in there like out,
come on. And come on down.
I feel like this is two strikes to my husband.
Like this is two trips that I've gone on back-to-back without him
wear something while this happened that, and I think at
this point, he's like you're not fucking going on a trip without
me at this point. I need us to go to bed us.
Three folk, everyone else. Oh and Jackie, can go and grab
no, for real. Like I'm about to be Be that
girl that's like sorry can't go without my husband.
I want to Simply I love that because obviously the spirit of
showing you something Clearly, I'm like, I hear the less I hear
the lesson the first time is like, what the fuck the second
time is like, okay, I'm listening to you baby.
Jesus. Yeah, well, I think that before
we get into cancer season and you get into your, feels that
you need to evaluate that. You need to focus on your own
self right now. No more tricks, no more, meetups
no more pop-ups, unless you come to Kentucky and I'll protect
you. See that, that I'm really blown
away that these people like, followed, you and were ballsy
enough to try to break in to a house.
Oh, and they were that guy was so fun, like, when he was
talking, like, you could just tell that like, he was.
So fun drugs. Yeah.
But like yes on drugs, but also like, Not just on drugs and
being like, freaked out but also just so disassociated from his
soul. Does that make sense?
Like, you know how you can look at somebody and you're just like
you have no you're not in touch with your soul at all.
Like there's a disconnect between your human body and who
you are. I've been looking a lot and I
took a lot of psychology courses because I minored in Psychology
in college about like Maslow's hierarchy and like if your
physical needs are not met then you can't like get your emotion.
On needs and all these other things met like you have to have
like these physical needs and clearly like it sounds like you
know, people who are on the street by choice or by force,
you know what I mean? Like some people choose the
streets, you don't need some people choose things, but at the
same time it's like their own needs are not met.
They don't give a fuck about anyone else's needs.
You know what I mean? Like that are not worried about
who they hurt to get their needs fulfilled, right?
So at that sucks, and that's scary.
But I definitely I have learned that little small towns that
have cute cheap, airbnb's have them for a reason.
It's because whoever owns that house payment is like six
hundred dollars a month and they weren't that to you for 350 for
two nights or whatever you know and you paid their house payment
her house. I will say though.
And I even told her this like her house itself was so fucking
cute. She had that bathroom stocked
with whatever we would need. I That she owns some kind of a
like cattle or sheep business or something.
I think it's like some kind of Swiss thing because she had
Switzerland cheddar cheese in the fridge, that was the same
brand as all of the bathroom items that were in the bathroom
like shampoo, conditioner hand, soaps lotions, all that.
And, you know, how people do product display, and it totally
shows, like the name of their product, like everything was
turned. You could see the name of this
thing, or this product, and it was the house itself was.
So fucking cute. Like if there weren't any
crackheads, it would have been fabulous.
Well, I am just glad that you're safe, because that sounds scary
as fuck. And trust me, when I say, I am
not built for that shit because I will shoot somebody.
I didn't even tell you the best part.
We hear a fucking noise after all this happens and were
packing up. We here in Noise, my assistant
Tanya grabs a knife out of the kitchen.
And she goes, I'm gonna go outside and I'm going to be
acting crazy for a minute. And I like just don't judge just
say good. We're like okay she put
sunglasses on this girl goes outside with this long fucking
silver. Nice.
And she is walking back and forth in front of our fucking
house. She walks in the road, she's
looking down, she walks the block because she was like a
someone's watching us or whatever.
I want them to know, like, I'm fucking ready.
She looked like Chucky's bride out there, with her colored
orange hair and her black sunglasses, fucking slice.
Somebody in the middle of the road and I was like, I've never
been happier. Okay.
So you obviously found a great assistant.
A perfect assistant order of business is what the fuck is
going to happen? For your third girls trip, you
know, I mean, they say third tons.
Charm. So, I'm just wondering who's
going to be there. I'm you know, I don't know, you
know, it's crazy. I feel like still those people.
Like had no concept of like what they were about to fuck around
and find out there were, yeah, there was no fucking Kansai.
I didn't think about it till just now the fact that when that
lady looks at her ring camera, He's going to see Tanya walking
outside with his fucking. Yes, yes she did.
Yes you did she made us. Okay.
I have to tell you, I thought about.
Are you talk trip while I was doing this trip my assistant
Tanya was the I'm talking like she we woke up in the morning
she had coffee and waffles made we're interviewing she's making
snack trays and feeding us. We're doing dinner and she's
making like These like, she's cooking for everybody and
serving their plates and like, setting us up or whatever.
And it took me a minute to like receive that, you know, and she
would be like, stop fucking trying to help me.
Like, I'm here for a reason. I'm here to help you and like,
make sure you're good and I was having such a hard time with
that and then I realized like oh no that and she was like I like
doing it and like what the fuck? And then I thought about our
Utah trip and was like, no I genuinely liked doing that and
Doing that for you guys. And then I started thinking
about homegirl talking shit about you receiving.
Getting things made for you and whatever.
And then I thought, how would I feel if I was in the situation
where like now someone's doing something for me and I'm
receiving and then someone's talking shit about it and it
just added a little more level of like that was really fucked
up. When I would, you know what I
mean? Well, oh girl was on one, and I
don't know what her deal was, but the fact that she was upset
that me and you were wanting, and having a good time when she
went out of her way to plan this surprise and do a lot of extra
work that honestly who does to her, but like, you know, she
didn't have to do all that. Like that wasn't like, you know,
her responsibility I guess. And I just feel like it's wild
to me how people Will do something, and it's almost her
cloud or likeness, but that's not their true Spirit, like, you
know what I mean? Like, me, I like to give
presents and I don't respect, I don't need or expect anything
period people on my patreon, like get one year of presents
and stuff like that. Like, I love sending little
packages to people and you know, that we've talked about that
before I feel like my package. Do you inspired your witchy
boxes to the world? You're like, like, I sent you
that message box. I start that thing was like ten
towns and it had all kinds of Of stuff in it whenever we first
like, way before the podcast. But, you know, I like doing
that. I like saving Little Boxes for
people and building them up and like making people feel special.
I did that too, for my dad, on Father's Day and he was height,
he was loving it and, you know, I just like making people feel
special and that's just in my spirit.
But some people don't, that's not in their spirit.
So when they do it, it's like they're jealous or they're also
resentful of you like, you know, they may have liked Got all this
but at the end of the day that like that's not really their
true character, they felt envious.
Now that you're enjoying it or receiving it or you or maybe you
need to give them more credit or you need to give them more
attention or you need to give them more whatever the fuck.
So like that's the problem with the world is a lot of people
just do stuff because they want other people to know they've
done it or they want cloud or something like that.
Like oh my God, I bought this person homeless person or, you
know, people who share dumb stuff like that.
Like that's Humiliating for that homeless person, Loki?
Like so like you doing that for clout?
You know, like recording a video.
Like here's a burger fucking Burger, you know.
Like if you said he was a Ferrari.
Yes. Recorded a burger.
No. You know what I mean?
Like, let's look at it here but I don't know.
People just do shit and I felt like that girl did all that.
And then whenever it all came together, she was just jealous
that it wasn't for her. That actually makes sense.
Now, that you say that because people totally like, if you
think about it from her point of view, her doing the surprise, it
probably wasn't. Oh my God, I'm doing a surprise
to bring my friends together. It was probably a they're going
to love me so much because I put the effort in to do this and
then wanting all of the, you know, recognition and attention
for. Oh my God.
Can't believe you organized this.
And you know, all of us are like how do All pitch in so that it's
an equal exchange and not somebody feeling like they're
doing everything and, you know. Yeah, and after she did all that
then you were like more than willing to like cook and do all
the things. Like we all literally went to
the grocery, you all and the total was 222 even and I will
never forget that because it was $55 a person and it was just
like the most random thing or 5555 or something like that.
But moral of the story is, it was just like really interesting
that that happened like that and Everyone was trying to play
their part but then people are like, oh my God, this isn't good
enough or whatever. And I just don't like that
energy. It's like, yeah, she put a lot
together. But then when we got there and
she was like, I got it, I got it.
I was like, no, I'm sending you gas money right now.
Like no, I'm going to been really like, I hate when people
say they got it and then later, hold that over your head.
So, no one ever for me. If I'm there, I'm putting in my
portion. Even if other people don't give
gas money. I'm going to like, I'm not going
to like just because everybody else doesn't give any.
I'm going to give you 60 now. I'm still in.
Give you. 15. But for my portion, it 15, if
everybody in the car, gave 15, it would be 60, right?
You know, like I just know how things even out and I always
play my part, so I don't know what the fuck that bitch was mad
about or what bitches be mad about.
Because it's like, you have to be bothered to bother people who
don't bother you or to just start drama with people.
They're supposed to be your friends or compete.
Compete compete compete. The favorite word?
Like, I don't get it, but like we see when people are copying
me. See.
See when people take what we're doing and put a spin on it and
try to twist it and turn it a different way.
Like I don't know, I don't get it because that's not my
intention and I don't move like that.
So it's kind of like, you know, I don't know.
People are fucking water. I'll say that this the trip with
the girls though I loved it. Like there was it was the total
same Vibe as when you me and Jackie were just with ourselves
where it's just cohesive. You're just doing your thing,
you're all bringing. Something different to the
table. It's just so nice and it feels
so good to go on to go on that trip.
Or like, our only problem is crackheads like the only
probably only disturbance in the area is outside of the home.
Yeah. Well that was good that was
good, at least but you know I mean that was dangerous.
Sounds dangerous that escalated quickly.
That is like quickly. You know honestly there feels
like a place. You probably need to keep a pack
of cigs on you and then when the crackhead ass from one you give
them three. And then they're like thank you
ma'am. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
I really don't even think that he wanted cigarettes.
I really think that he was trying to be fucking weird and
have conversation and try for some reason.
I feel like he wanted us to stay at the spot that we were at and
like have conversation with us. And I think that's why the other
guy was looking over at us and was like, walking closer and
whatever. Like, I felt like they wanted us
to be at the Location that we were at.
Which is super fucking odd. Well, clearly, that's a rodeo
town and they don't see a lot of pretty women, walking around,
chilling living, their best life.
So you better watch yourself. I don't feel like we look like
the most, like, inviting group either.
Like, it's not like they're like, oh my gosh.
Those very quiet blendin. Women are going to be the
perfect Target. Like we're all fucking loud.
He dressed like what do you want?
We don't fucking like you. You don't fucking like you know,
still grain sir. We're witches.
That's really fucking crazy. And you know, what's even better
for it? Is that it would happen and you
came home early. So we could record the podcast.
Talk about, I did. Oh my God, I have a new dog and
the dog. Let's name her name.
Well, we're between two names right now, right now.
Brian names. Her Lula, Al Ula.
But we're kind of really loving the named lilu from Fifth
Element, lilu moti pass. So not really 100% sure.
So she's a Lula or leeloo. Well, welcome to the family as
I'm just, finding dogs is a Australian shepherd and a border
collie, mix. We think and she was absolutely
just dropped off, middle of nowhere, showed up in my
father-in-law's house at 1 a.m. when purring.
Um, she's little. She has to be like six to eight
months. Her tail is doxxed.
So they cut her tail. Well, they didn't chip her or
anything like that. She's the sweetest little girl,
but she was totally dumped Or maybe people are cruel but
Karma's crazy, and shit happens. And also, you kept telling me
that the dog chose me. So maybe the dog chose you.
He wants me to be her girlfriend because she doesn't hump anybody
else. But me, and when I try to walk
away from her, she just whimpers and screams.
So she thinks that Brian says he thinks it's because I'm on my
period. And dogs, love that shit.
But that would mean that she's a lesbian dog, which go her.
I love that for her. I don't want to be fuck.
Well, that's your new baby now. That's yeah.
I'm just keep your little geeky lost yourself girlfriend.
Yeah, don't hug me. Maybe they just don't know who
knows. You never know what, what people
go. Through people's minds when they
leave their dog, you know. I mean, I know that if you leave
your dog in the middle of fucking nowhere, you're a piece
of shit. Yeah.
But sometimes like maybe like someone died and then their kid
did it or you know what I mean? Or someone else say it like, how
could you do that? Yeah, I know.
Like, sometimes it's not even the owner though, it's like
someone else that gets controlled at.
All right. Like so these.
Well I hope someone drops them off in the middle of nowhere.
When their owner dies, when their dad dies, fuck hope you
get dropped off. Oh, it's so hot.
Hot place for people like it's a hot place.
She's going to some hot. It's hot.
Little veal chicken up in here. There's a hot place of you to do
that. You know, I'm excited that we
are here recording because Summer Solstice is happening,
and I'm just, like, loving the creation energy.
I feel so creative right now. And how are you feeling even
recording? NG for your new podcast and
doing all kinds of stuff. We're not going for the new.
Yeah, I feel creative but I feel like taking the rest of the
month of June off for business and like picking back up
bookings in July as the best fucking idea, because yes, I
feel creative but I feel like I'm creative for building out
the podcast space. So we're going to be moving into
and putting creativity into that instead of putting it into other
things right now. I think that like focusing my
energy on setting up my life so that I'm not stuck.
Just out when the life continues is important.
There you go. You got to take some for you.
That's the most important thing. I want taken time for me.
I'm loving my class right now. Last night was amazing.
And next week, we start the tarot cards and it's going to be
really exciting because we built the foundation and I love, how
many people have been sending me their homework and like their
understandings of the cards that don't know them and they're like
75%. Try all the time.
Like like they really do get it, you know what I mean?
And that's what like is really cool about them.
Sending me their homework because I can kind of, like,
hike them up, you know. Like yeah, I like that's totally
on point with exactly the meaning, you know.
Yeah, you get to be everybody's hyped, man.
I'm excited for getting into the cards with your class.
I was also hyping your class up while I was gone and the girls
were really excited to sit in on last night's class, but we were
evading Tweakers, so we Not attend.
Ask me that. I forgot about that.
I was wondering why you weren't there, but I just thought.
Oh, she's busy with her friends and doing her thing.
So, I didn't even think anything about it early.
I was driving home last minute packing up.
Um, no. I was talking about your class
and I was talking about how I think that it's so important
that you started off your class, discussing ethics.
And that I I loved your example of doing a reading because you
were literally doing a reading and pulling cards last week
during class and doing a whole reading but you did it.
So effortlessly inside of the class and then afterwards you're
like and that was a reading and showed people like how
effortlessly you can do the reading, it doesn't have to be
some like you're not sitting there and going Whitney.
I know that your Mother died. When you were 4 years old and
that it was a very traumatic experience.
You know what I mean? Yeah, yeah, yeah, I hate when
people do that. That is so ghetto in the
spiritual Community. When people are, like,
instantly, go to your trauma, instantly, try to trigger wounds
and build some type of trauma bond with you.
So many practitioners, that's how they sell you shit.
That's how they sell you. That's why I like people don't
get it because they're so wrapped up in their Shadow and
their trauma, they don't and their Shadow.
So they can't transmute it. They can't incorporate it.
They can't love it because these people have them bonded with
these limited belief systems, as well as their family, as well as
their friends reinforcing this. The type of people that they
hang out with the places they go, all reinforce these belief
systems and that's why I'm people are fucking trapped.
That's why people are in the cage because the cage is
imaginary and you're going in there willingly, like no one is
forcing you to be oblivious. To your own bullshit, you know
what I mean? Like, no one's forcing you to go
on about your day and do whatever the fuck.
We support cage-free spiritual wealth of you like a three eggs.
Yeah, just get out of the cage and just be open-minded and
explore a little big for the possibilities.
Because there's so much out there that like I never dreamed
that I would be doing what I'm doing right now.
Like, it's all like what else? Evan I'm like, oh my gosh, I'm
gonna To be this, and I'm going to be that like, you know, when
I was seven, I wanted to be a marine biologist.
I wanted it to go learn about the ocean, which I still do.
That's amazing. But obviously takes a very long
time to do all that. So, It's not really a practical
thing. So I opted out of marine biology
but sound amazing. One of the girls does mentorship
with me, that has her degree to do marine biology, but it's so
difficult to find a job in side of that field.
Whatever you just did to your phone changed their sound.
Can you hear me now? Yeah, but it was better.
I don't know what you did, talk. Mic check.
Yeah, it shows your volume 2.
I don't know. Okay, that's good.
Yeah. Marine biology.
We've been difficult, though. You got your own little
microphone. Look at Jim, and I she's a
rockstar y'all. She's got technical equipment.
I had to use the technical equipment for our trip.
These mics, let me tell you these mics are like, I think
they're $30 or something like that on Amazon.
And there are two of these clip on Mike's and then there's a
little part that you plug into your phone and it instantly
connects works, you don't have to use Bluetooth, you don't have
to use nothing. It's fucking dope and it picks
up. People 23 feet away from you so
you can interview other people People while you just have a mic
clip to you and it Picks Them Up.
Wow, that's beautiful. That is no.
That sounds awesome. It looks it looks Universal
right there. I see it.
I didn't see it at first, but yeah.
Right there on the Todd. He's right there by the table.
He's so Jim Anna and me are taking the month of July off.
And then really expanding our full moon circle, this and full
moon circle because it is Going to be during cancer season and
is during summer, as we move into summer, the first full moon
of Summer, really the first full moon of Summer, it's going to be
epic. And we are really, really
excited for just bringing to life.
A vision that really is that healing in that community in
that transformation and that elevation that we speak of.
So often and giving the people who listen chance, Has to be in
love reality with us and to really see who we are in real
life. You know what I mean we've
talked about it before how people act completely different
in text message or on the phone or whatever than they do on the
Internet or just in general. But Zoom with people that
inspire you in a community sense can be really healing because
you're in your own space you can still kind of be in your comfort
zone. You don't got to get in your car
or go anywhere crazy to be a part of something that's really
Formative and I think that's something to just really keep in
mind is like, are you making excuses or are you investing in
yourself? Because if you invest in
yourself, that money, that currency that energy exchange,
like that's going to come back to you.
But if you're afraid to be self aware of how you're limiting
your experience, then you will always be limited.
Yeah. And also if you have people who
want to have limited perspectives and they don't ever
want to grow or look at things outside of the box or expand.
Then I feel like you can always feel like you're wrong for your
growth. Journey.and feel like you're
your growth and your evolution is like out of place or you're
doing something that's wrong. We talked a lot about like
surrounding yourself. With people who support you.
But I think that even if people don't understand what you're
doing, if you just surround yourself with people who are
focused on their own grind in their own journey and just
support you doing your own thing, you will feel more
inspired than out of place. Yeah, exactly.
Because it's only the people who are staying stagnant, in the
people who don't have anything going on in the people who are
doing the same six months over and over and over again, are the
ones that don't want to see change because the The things
Elevate the moment that you grow the moment that you transform,
you will not be able to tolerate the BS.
You will not be able to tolerate lower vibrational conversations
of Gossip of drama of competition of just chatter is
what I like to call it the mental chatter, that people.
Share them along each other at like a bar or a restaurant.
Kirk's me, it irks me, like, I don't like it.
You can always tell when people at the bar projecting, like,
when you're at like a bar and grill and you're Eating, you can
always see that drunk on the fucker, that's projecting onto
everyone. And they're always like,
wrapping around people and just doing goofy shit.
It always. Is it?
Somebody and you know what I love about that is these people
will do it to strangers. They'll do it to anyone that
will listen. And that's what so toxic about
certain environments is because you can get sucked into
someone's bullshit and not even realize it.
We've all been that person. I mean I'm not perfect, I'm sure
sometimes I've told someone They're like, why the switch
tell me this. See, you know what I mean?
But like at the same time, I feel like some people don't even
realize any of the signs in their own life.
And so that's why you're going to outgrow those type of people.
If you're looking for the magic or you're looking for elevation,
or you're looking for transformation, people are going
to start working you and not in like a negative way where you
don't like them. But it's just like, I, you can't
tolerate that type of energy. It's gonna bother you.
Sometimes it can make you physically ill.
Can give you a headache, it can make you tired, it can make you
You grumpy, you know what I mean?
Like, we've all probably lived with someone in our life that
made us feel that way. That was because of their
energy. Yeah.
Don't be having grumpy fucking energy around you or energy to
that. Like God, like I refuse to put
myself inside of situations where I feel energetically
depleted anymore. If I hang out with you and I
feel exhausted being inside of your presence because I'm just
like, what the fuck are? I walk away around the corner
and I'm rolling my eyes because I'm just like, again, I won't
hang out with you. I will not spend time with you
because I refuse to be inside of situations where I'm annoyed.
To be there. Good point.
And I love that because that's really true because a lot of us
are committed to our own internal conflict like we're
committed to our own drama and we still surround us ourselves
with people like oh it's our cousin or I want the third grade
with them or I've known them my whole life and whatever and also
that's all toxic. Like, that's all trauma bond
energy. That's all a limited energy and
people project trauma bonds onto everyone and Everything and you
just have to be careful but you know I feel like if you have the
energy for other people than you should first and foremost be
giving it to yourself like that should just be like the
underlying Factor like you're giving that energy to yourself
before you're giving it to just people especially people on the
internet. People you don't know.
Why do you care about what they think or why do you care about
what people do? You know the moment that I stop
hearing about stuff is like the moment that normally, it
literally happens. It's really crazy.
So To detach myself. I'm trying to live in my own
world because it's a magical place whenever you're looking
for Magic. I love magical places.
I love magic. I love like, I feel like I love.
The I don't know like Good Vibrations right now.
Like I like hanging out talking and when we do this and I just
feel like there's a recharge that happened and I like never
being annoyed with our shit. You know, I really do love you
and I'm never I'm remembering proud of you and I'm I'm just so
happy. You're safe from the crazy.
You don't bust a cap in a cricket.
I'm just really glad that like whatever.
I don't know, he's just crazy. Need to name this episode
crackheads and Cowboys I'm gonna miss you, whenever we don't
record, but we may drop a bonus episode in July.
If we're feeling frisky and we have the full moon Power Circle,
it is the first Friday in July, I think.
Yeah, I think so too. Is the fools.
Like, yeah, I'm gonna like, the full moon falls on a holiday on
Fourth of July. So it is on Actually it's on
Thursday, Thursday, July 6th at 9 p.m.
Eastern Standard. Time, be there or be square.
We love you all and I was going to say and a reminder that you
can sign up for the full moon circle.
We always have it linked in the description wherever you listen
to the podcast. It's on pages website for you to
sign up. If If you are on our patreons,
we have tears on our patreon that have access to the full
moon circle. Plus you also get so many
different benefits. So, look at our patreons to find
out. What's here's, those are
available on access and remove the kitty cat.
And then my cat came up to christen this episode with his
graceful. So does our sun, the deductive
eyes? He's resting.
Polly and I share a son. Yo, I really love this podcast.
I love Jim and I love this community that were building and
we can't wait to see you at the full moon, circle on July 6th,
and we can't wait to see you next week, for our season finale
of season 2 this entire. We're gonna Bop We love you all,
bye.