1 00:00:10,680 --> 00:00:16,400 Welcome to Fucking Candy Land, hosted by Rampage and Gemini. 2 00:00:29,980 --> 00:00:34,580 Welcome back to Candy Land. We have missed you all and we 3 00:00:34,580 --> 00:00:38,580 hope that you enjoyed our special guests, Nicole, we 4 00:00:38,700 --> 00:00:43,220 really enjoyed having her on the podcast because she's just so 5 00:00:43,220 --> 00:00:48,020 sweet and genuine and we really rock with people who show up 6 00:00:48,020 --> 00:00:50,060 authentically. So I feel like that was just 7 00:00:50,060 --> 00:00:53,780 such a beautiful episode and connection and just bringing her 8 00:00:53,780 --> 00:00:56,940 in was so special. You guys are better liked her 9 00:00:56,940 --> 00:00:58,580 because if you didn't, then fuck you. 10 00:00:58,580 --> 00:01:03,140 No, I'm just kidding. But really, us being so 11 00:01:03,140 --> 00:01:07,660 selective about guests makes it so much more fun when we have 12 00:01:07,660 --> 00:01:09,940 guests and it makes it. It doesn't feel like it's a 13 00:01:09,940 --> 00:01:11,820 chore to get a guest on the podcast. 14 00:01:11,820 --> 00:01:17,150 I love when it's just you and I, but also she is so genuine, so 15 00:01:17,150 --> 00:01:19,950 sweet. Like she even has followed up 16 00:01:19,950 --> 00:01:24,550 since the podcast. She she's like VIP where she 17 00:01:24,550 --> 00:01:27,110 just shouts the shit out of stuff that she's working on and 18 00:01:27,110 --> 00:01:30,110 that she does and just like promotes it. 19 00:01:30,110 --> 00:01:33,390 And I know that we've already had new people that have come 20 00:01:33,390 --> 00:01:36,430 into our rotation, booked readings with us and everything 21 00:01:36,430 --> 00:01:40,230 from that episode and just resonating with like our energy 22 00:01:40,230 --> 00:01:42,930 and her. And so it's brought new people 23 00:01:42,930 --> 00:01:46,210 into our life and it's just always expanding and evolving. 24 00:01:47,170 --> 00:01:50,250 I really love people who have a mutual understanding that like 25 00:01:50,250 --> 00:01:53,610 there's no competition. It's really just elevation and 26 00:01:53,810 --> 00:01:57,410 collaboration and just bringing people in that match. 27 00:01:57,410 --> 00:02:01,690 That energy is so important to like anyone trying to pursue a 28 00:02:01,690 --> 00:02:04,690 project or a dream or anything in your life. 29 00:02:05,260 --> 00:02:09,139 The people you keep in your circle matters so much, and you 30 00:02:09,139 --> 00:02:11,660 will just continue to uncover that. 31 00:02:11,660 --> 00:02:14,900 People you thought supported you don't support you or people that 32 00:02:14,900 --> 00:02:17,660 you thought were riding with you never rode with you. 33 00:02:17,660 --> 00:02:21,700 They just literally wanted access to your energy. 34 00:02:21,980 --> 00:02:25,380 And I love to see people finally like all the way on their own 35 00:02:25,380 --> 00:02:28,990 wave where it's like. What other people do no longer 36 00:02:28,990 --> 00:02:31,710 makes or breaks yourself confidence or like makes or 37 00:02:31,710 --> 00:02:35,190 breaks who you are because you understand yourself and you 38 00:02:35,190 --> 00:02:39,350 understand the way people react has no reflection of like, who 39 00:02:39,350 --> 00:02:41,910 you actually are. Yeah. 40 00:02:41,950 --> 00:02:45,830 And something too like I was going through, I I messaged you 41 00:02:45,830 --> 00:02:50,430 last night but I just think it's so strange that people will have 42 00:02:50,430 --> 00:02:54,030 problems that like have never been even addressed and you're 43 00:02:54,030 --> 00:02:55,630 like oh it's like a jealousy thing. 44 00:02:55,990 --> 00:02:59,410 But I was going through last night and I was looking at my 45 00:02:59,410 --> 00:03:02,530 TikTok messages like scrolling through because I was just going 46 00:03:02,530 --> 00:03:05,530 to follow up with people that like I've had conversation with 47 00:03:05,530 --> 00:03:06,970 them. Maybe it like dropped off about 48 00:03:06,970 --> 00:03:08,490 having them on Coven or something. 49 00:03:08,850 --> 00:03:11,610 And I'm going through and I'm seeing like user not found. 50 00:03:11,610 --> 00:03:14,210 Tik Toker, user not found. And I'm like what? 51 00:03:14,570 --> 00:03:17,250 And so I'm like oh they got like their profile deleted. 52 00:03:17,250 --> 00:03:20,930 It was like 4 people. And then I go on the covenant of 53 00:03:20,930 --> 00:03:24,250 Rejects page and I go look these people up and they still have 54 00:03:24,250 --> 00:03:26,690 accounts. They just straight blocked me 55 00:03:27,050 --> 00:03:30,530 and I'm looking at like our conversations and I've never had 56 00:03:30,530 --> 00:03:34,090 a falling out with this person. It was all good people that were 57 00:03:34,090 --> 00:03:38,890 literally just commenting on my stuff like a week ago like Oh my 58 00:03:38,890 --> 00:03:43,450 God, I love seeing like favorite tick talker and I don't. 59 00:03:43,970 --> 00:03:45,690 I'm trying to get more used to it. 60 00:03:45,690 --> 00:03:48,010 Like it no longer. It used to really hurt my 61 00:03:48,010 --> 00:03:51,210 feelings and I used to be like, but what did I do? 62 00:03:51,210 --> 00:03:53,570 And I would think through everything that I had posted and 63 00:03:53,570 --> 00:03:56,110 what could have happened. And I really think that some 64 00:03:56,110 --> 00:03:59,950 people just have their own fucking triggers in life and 65 00:04:00,030 --> 00:04:04,270 they have to remove people for a BC&D reasons. 66 00:04:04,510 --> 00:04:10,470 And now I'm comfortable with, if I somehow am bothering you on my 67 00:04:10,470 --> 00:04:14,350 journey, if you take something personal, whatever, your problem 68 00:04:14,350 --> 00:04:16,630 with me isn't my fucking business anymore and I'm no 69 00:04:16,630 --> 00:04:18,550 longer give up. It does not affect me. 70 00:04:19,589 --> 00:04:22,270 I think that's just really about like self-awareness and like 71 00:04:22,270 --> 00:04:26,110 reflection and how like healing and working in your own energy 72 00:04:26,390 --> 00:04:28,790 is like the most important part of the journey. 73 00:04:28,990 --> 00:04:32,110 Because if not, you're always going to be caught up on that 74 00:04:32,110 --> 00:04:34,750 external validation or understanding. 75 00:04:35,110 --> 00:04:38,430 And I love when I see people finally get to the stage where 76 00:04:38,430 --> 00:04:41,030 they no longer give a fuck and like, stop taking stuff 77 00:04:41,030 --> 00:04:43,750 personal. Because for me, like if someone. 78 00:04:44,320 --> 00:04:46,520 Shows initiative and then they back off. 79 00:04:46,520 --> 00:04:51,080 That's more on them than on me. Or if someone like it says 80 00:04:51,080 --> 00:04:53,040 they're going to do something and then they don't do it, 81 00:04:53,040 --> 00:04:56,800 that's more on them. And understanding that like 82 00:04:56,920 --> 00:04:59,840 nothing is personal but everything is spiritual. 83 00:05:00,120 --> 00:05:02,720 People are going through their own battles that no one knows 84 00:05:02,720 --> 00:05:04,680 about. And just because people are 85 00:05:04,680 --> 00:05:09,920 portrayable, like confident or cute or attractive or successful 86 00:05:09,920 --> 00:05:13,800 or rich or whatever, does not mean they're happy and have 87 00:05:13,800 --> 00:05:16,440 confidence. And themselves does not mean 88 00:05:16,440 --> 00:05:19,280 that they love themselves, that they like themselves, that they 89 00:05:19,320 --> 00:05:22,240 even appreciate what they bring to the table. 90 00:05:22,360 --> 00:05:25,440 So there's absolutely no way that that person in that 91 00:05:25,440 --> 00:05:29,800 equation can show that same respect to you or towards 92 00:05:29,800 --> 00:05:31,840 anyone. And I think that the moment I 93 00:05:31,840 --> 00:05:35,240 stopped giving a fuck about how people perceived me was the 94 00:05:35,240 --> 00:05:38,160 moment that, like, I started getting tattoos and I started 95 00:05:38,160 --> 00:05:41,680 doing things that I wanted to do for me, rather than like what 96 00:05:41,680 --> 00:05:44,200 society says you should do or what other people. 97 00:05:44,520 --> 00:05:47,160 Think you should do, you know, And I feel like at the end of 98 00:05:47,160 --> 00:05:50,760 the day, the moment you start living in your own power, that's 99 00:05:50,760 --> 00:05:55,400 when you attract abundance and the reflection of that energy. 100 00:05:55,640 --> 00:05:58,280 And I love to hear you say that you're like not even taking that 101 00:05:58,280 --> 00:06:01,760 personal because deep down I feel like a lot of people it is 102 00:06:01,760 --> 00:06:05,680 envy and jealousy. It's also just like some people 103 00:06:05,680 --> 00:06:09,480 have a natural ability about them and people are not happy 104 00:06:09,480 --> 00:06:11,840 about that. And I think that. 105 00:06:12,300 --> 00:06:15,140 Sometimes people don't like to see other people evolve quicker 106 00:06:15,140 --> 00:06:18,700 than themselves and it's like this weird competition that's 107 00:06:18,700 --> 00:06:23,020 like doesn't exist if you're on your own personal journey and 108 00:06:23,020 --> 00:06:24,860 like reflecting on your own journey. 109 00:06:26,420 --> 00:06:29,380 Yeah. And going back to what you were 110 00:06:29,380 --> 00:06:32,620 saying earlier, you know there people can have a lot of 111 00:06:32,620 --> 00:06:35,220 comparison energy. And when you are looking for 112 00:06:35,260 --> 00:06:40,630 outside sources of validation, you start to pick apart other 113 00:06:40,630 --> 00:06:43,670 people's accomplishments and things and then compare yourself 114 00:06:43,670 --> 00:06:47,030 to those accomplishments. And you start to think, well, if 115 00:06:47,150 --> 00:06:51,150 I was just in a house that big, well, if I just had that level 116 00:06:51,150 --> 00:06:55,070 of money, well, if I just drove that car, I had those 117 00:06:55,070 --> 00:06:57,350 opportunities. If I was prettier, you know 118 00:06:57,350 --> 00:07:03,840 whatever it may be, people are always if I just had and wanting 119 00:07:03,840 --> 00:07:07,840 things to fix situations that they have right now I would feel 120 00:07:07,840 --> 00:07:13,200 better about myself. If a BC&D and I think that's 121 00:07:13,200 --> 00:07:16,200 where the energy comes into of people that are like who does 122 00:07:16,200 --> 00:07:20,040 she think she is or who do they think they are And not just 123 00:07:20,040 --> 00:07:22,400 towards you and I, but that happens all over. 124 00:07:22,440 --> 00:07:25,920 Everybody gets that of like everybody has met somebody and 125 00:07:25,920 --> 00:07:27,920 been like I don't know who the fuck she thinks she is. 126 00:07:28,120 --> 00:07:31,040 She's probably just existing, and you just didn't like that 127 00:07:31,040 --> 00:07:34,160 she was, you know, throwing down her unlimited credit card to pay 128 00:07:34,160 --> 00:07:35,400 for that and you were jealous of it. 129 00:07:36,720 --> 00:07:40,280 Honestly, I think a lot of it just boils down to like people 130 00:07:40,600 --> 00:07:43,920 don't want to see you rise above the level that they exist at. 131 00:07:43,920 --> 00:07:47,520 So if you drive that better car, you have that better job or you 132 00:07:47,520 --> 00:07:52,040 have that amazing relationship or that beautiful body or like 133 00:07:52,040 --> 00:07:55,960 you said, whatever it is. People only pay attention to 134 00:07:55,960 --> 00:07:59,560 what they lack and rather than what they bring to the table. 135 00:07:59,880 --> 00:08:02,120 And that's what I think is like the most like. 136 00:08:02,750 --> 00:08:05,430 Dynamic Part of the journey is when you really just start 137 00:08:05,430 --> 00:08:08,470 appreciating who the fuck you are and stop worrying about what 138 00:08:08,470 --> 00:08:12,070 other people think they're doing, because who gives a fuck 139 00:08:12,070 --> 00:08:13,230 what they're doing? You know what I mean? 140 00:08:13,230 --> 00:08:15,670 Like, at the end of the day, that doesn't change your 141 00:08:15,670 --> 00:08:18,230 journey. I've met so many people on this 142 00:08:18,230 --> 00:08:22,630 path that like, faded away exactly when they need it to, or 143 00:08:22,630 --> 00:08:26,750 like, were released exactly as I grew or learned a lesson. 144 00:08:26,750 --> 00:08:29,670 Like I don't really take any relationship for granted or 145 00:08:29,670 --> 00:08:32,460 understand that like. Oh, I wish that didn't happen 146 00:08:32,460 --> 00:08:35,980 because I think that every time something didn't go my way, 147 00:08:36,260 --> 00:08:38,620 personally, I learned so much from that. 148 00:08:38,940 --> 00:08:42,539 But so many people get stuck perpetuating those same cycles. 149 00:08:42,539 --> 00:08:46,700 Like they love to be in that victim mindset or that lack 150 00:08:46,700 --> 00:08:49,820 mindset or, you know, whatever it may be. 151 00:08:50,100 --> 00:08:52,460 And they don't even see that they're bringing that into their 152 00:08:52,460 --> 00:08:55,460 world with that mindset. Yeah. 153 00:08:55,460 --> 00:08:58,380 And it doesn't always need to even be spirituality based. 154 00:08:58,380 --> 00:09:01,580 Like, I know that something that I had to work really hard to 155 00:09:01,580 --> 00:09:06,900 overcome was being triggered by people talking about food and 156 00:09:06,900 --> 00:09:11,500 dieting and body on TikTok. Because that's something that's 157 00:09:11,500 --> 00:09:15,260 like shoved in your face so much on that app is you know, people 158 00:09:15,260 --> 00:09:19,500 doing like dieting videos or workout things or whatever and 159 00:09:19,500 --> 00:09:22,500 constantly talking about like body and body shaming and 160 00:09:22,500 --> 00:09:25,940 whatever. And I had to really get over the 161 00:09:26,100 --> 00:09:29,500 comparing my physical body to other people for beauty 162 00:09:29,500 --> 00:09:33,380 standards. And I found myself getting like, 163 00:09:33,380 --> 00:09:38,080 I had to reprogram because was getting so frustrated and 164 00:09:38,080 --> 00:09:40,920 annoyed with people that were constantly doing nutrition 165 00:09:40,920 --> 00:09:42,480 stuff. And I was like, not everybody on 166 00:09:42,480 --> 00:09:44,920 this fucking app gives a fuck about what you're eating and 167 00:09:44,920 --> 00:09:47,520 wants to measure it. And then I'm like, OK, well, 168 00:09:47,520 --> 00:09:50,640 somebody out there actually does and like needs this type of 169 00:09:50,640 --> 00:09:53,120 support. And so, like, they are making 170 00:09:53,120 --> 00:09:56,440 content for a specific person. This is important to them. 171 00:09:56,680 --> 00:09:58,560 You know, talking about spirituality may not be 172 00:09:58,560 --> 00:10:00,360 important to somebody and they're like, why are these hoes 173 00:10:00,360 --> 00:10:02,120 still fucking talking about this shit, you know? 174 00:10:02,120 --> 00:10:06,000 So there's always, there's always going to be the you don't 175 00:10:06,000 --> 00:10:08,560 have an interest in it, but somebody actually needs that. 176 00:10:08,600 --> 00:10:14,080 And I started having to change my mindset and figure out why 177 00:10:14,080 --> 00:10:16,280 does this trigger me. OK, because I'm uncomfortable 178 00:10:16,280 --> 00:10:18,680 about my body. Well, what I'm I'm comfortable 179 00:10:18,680 --> 00:10:20,360 in my skin. I just don't like being 180 00:10:20,680 --> 00:10:24,040 perceived this way. And then you have to take out 181 00:10:24,040 --> 00:10:28,680 your personality, being tied into just like your physical 182 00:10:28,680 --> 00:10:31,320 whatever and not giving a fuck. And there's a lot of 183 00:10:31,320 --> 00:10:34,520 deconstructing. And I think that people can be 184 00:10:34,520 --> 00:10:36,240 like, oh, I'm on my spiritual journey. 185 00:10:36,240 --> 00:10:38,680 So, like I'm so healed because I don't feel triggered by this 186 00:10:38,680 --> 00:10:41,520 over here. Well, you still have to bring in 187 00:10:41,680 --> 00:10:44,600 the mundane world and the physical elements of real 188 00:10:44,600 --> 00:10:48,120 fucking life and see where all of your different triggers 189 00:10:48,120 --> 00:10:51,920 day-to-day are that are affecting your spiritual growth. 190 00:10:51,960 --> 00:10:53,600 And they're supposed to go hand in hand. 191 00:10:53,600 --> 00:10:56,720 You're not supposed to be just focused on your spiritual 192 00:10:56,720 --> 00:11:00,000 journey and not worrying about like you're human shit too. 193 00:11:00,920 --> 00:11:03,320 Yeah, I think that's so important about focusing on the 194 00:11:03,320 --> 00:11:07,320 mundane as well and like trying to find the magic in the mundane 195 00:11:07,720 --> 00:11:10,000 and like see a different perspective. 196 00:11:10,320 --> 00:11:12,400 And I know I've probably mentioned this before, but when 197 00:11:12,400 --> 00:11:14,920 I got jury duty, I felt like it was the end of the fucking 198 00:11:14,920 --> 00:11:16,440 world. Because they seriously pay you 199 00:11:16,440 --> 00:11:19,680 $12.00 a day and parking is like $10. 200 00:11:20,100 --> 00:11:22,820 So it makes zero sense. Like it makes zero sense for me 201 00:11:22,820 --> 00:11:24,500 to go down here and do this all day. 202 00:11:24,980 --> 00:11:28,900 But, you know, the flip coin is of that is like you could be the 203 00:11:28,900 --> 00:11:30,500 one on trial, you know what I mean? 204 00:11:30,500 --> 00:11:32,740 Like you could be the one in trouble. 205 00:11:32,980 --> 00:11:34,540 You could be getting the letter from the government. 206 00:11:34,540 --> 00:11:36,500 That's like you're in trouble, you know what I mean? 207 00:11:36,500 --> 00:11:39,980 So I was like, it's a win, win. The fact that I'm going down 208 00:11:39,980 --> 00:11:44,100 there as like a prized citizen that, like follows the rules and 209 00:11:44,100 --> 00:11:47,460 plays the game right, you know, but at the same time it was just 210 00:11:47,460 --> 00:11:49,210 like. I cannot believe that they 211 00:11:49,210 --> 00:11:51,770 haven't changed the pay for this since like the 90s. 212 00:11:51,770 --> 00:11:56,410 It makes 0 fucking sense. Makes no sense talking about 213 00:11:56,410 --> 00:11:58,690 pay. I was talking to somebody who 214 00:11:58,690 --> 00:12:03,570 has been doing content creating, and we were talking about taxes. 215 00:12:04,050 --> 00:12:09,650 And they're like, I had no idea that I had to pay taxes on money 216 00:12:09,650 --> 00:12:12,960 that I earned from content. And I was like, what do you 217 00:12:12,960 --> 00:12:14,360 mean? And they're like, I didn't know 218 00:12:14,360 --> 00:12:16,520 I had to. I didn't know I had to pay taxes 219 00:12:16,520 --> 00:12:18,960 on Patreon. I didn't know I had to pay taxes 220 00:12:18,960 --> 00:12:21,840 on it. And I was like, what do you 221 00:12:21,840 --> 00:12:24,320 mean? And so they were, this was the 222 00:12:24,360 --> 00:12:26,440 other day. And it was just, like, so crazy 223 00:12:26,440 --> 00:12:30,200 because you and I were talking about our stuff last night and 224 00:12:30,200 --> 00:12:33,560 taxes. And I was just thinking about 225 00:12:33,560 --> 00:12:38,000 this person. And they've made like $100,000 226 00:12:38,390 --> 00:12:40,950 this fucking year and they're fucking shit. 227 00:12:40,950 --> 00:12:43,110 And they're like, I didn't know I had to pay taxes. 228 00:12:43,150 --> 00:12:47,070 I haven't been putting money to the side, baby. 229 00:12:47,070 --> 00:12:50,870 What do you mean? What do you mean the IRS is 230 00:12:50,870 --> 00:12:53,710 going to come to your house and they're going to no glove finger 231 00:12:53,710 --> 00:12:55,270 your fucking butt hole for that cash. 232 00:12:55,270 --> 00:12:57,550 I tell you what. They're going to pay it upwards 233 00:12:57,550 --> 00:13:02,790 about 25 to $32,000 if not more, unless they have write offs and 234 00:13:02,790 --> 00:13:03,950 things. They're going to pay upward 235 00:13:03,950 --> 00:13:07,860 OF30K on that, if not more. I don't give a fuck how much, 236 00:13:07,860 --> 00:13:10,180 right? There's no way you have $100,000 237 00:13:10,180 --> 00:13:11,980 worth of write off like you're going to owe. 238 00:13:12,500 --> 00:13:14,940 You're going. TO30K Uncle Sam something? 239 00:13:15,180 --> 00:13:17,380 Yeah, Uncle Sam's about to fucking take it out. 240 00:13:17,580 --> 00:13:22,500 They better have like 5 kids and about 50K in write offs and then 241 00:13:22,500 --> 00:13:25,780 they'll be straight. They're not. 242 00:13:25,820 --> 00:13:28,740 They're going to be owing a lot of money and they'll be on in 243 00:13:28,740 --> 00:13:31,720 trouble. And The funny thing is, like, 244 00:13:31,720 --> 00:13:35,000 it's not even like it's not somebody like that I'm closely 245 00:13:35,000 --> 00:13:38,880 associated with or friends with. They were just like, hey, I have 246 00:13:38,880 --> 00:13:40,920 a question. Somebody told me I'm going to 247 00:13:40,920 --> 00:13:43,000 have to pay taxes. Is that true? 248 00:13:43,000 --> 00:13:46,850 And I'm just like what? What do you mean? 249 00:13:47,370 --> 00:13:49,930 Do you have to pay taxes when you have a regular fucking job? 250 00:13:49,930 --> 00:13:51,450 Well then baby, you got to pay taxes. 251 00:13:51,570 --> 00:13:54,890 When you get any kind of income, you have to pay taxes. 252 00:13:54,890 --> 00:13:58,770 If you fucking friends cash up you more than $600.00 for your 253 00:13:58,770 --> 00:14:00,890 sushi food that you go and get every year. 254 00:14:01,250 --> 00:14:02,210 I'm not. I'm not. 255 00:14:02,210 --> 00:14:07,010 I'm filtering through all that. We won't be like real legit 256 00:14:07,010 --> 00:14:09,810 changes between friends and family will not be taxed on my 257 00:14:09,810 --> 00:14:12,890 income, and I will deduct that personally. 258 00:14:15,190 --> 00:14:17,150 I'm not, he says. Me and my accountant have this 259 00:14:17,150 --> 00:14:20,590 fucking figured out. No, I mean I'm just not going to 260 00:14:20,590 --> 00:14:23,270 like when people owe me money like for concert tickets and 261 00:14:23,270 --> 00:14:25,870 food and gas and stuff. I'm not going to pay taxes on 262 00:14:25,870 --> 00:14:28,830 that. Like the business related things 263 00:14:28,830 --> 00:14:31,070 will be taxed. But other than that that'll be 264 00:14:31,070 --> 00:14:32,630 it. I don't give a fuck. 265 00:14:32,630 --> 00:14:36,910 What it is, is drug dealers were getting like 20 to $30,000 a 266 00:14:36,950 --> 00:14:39,950 year on cash app and that's why. That's why they changed 267 00:14:39,950 --> 00:14:42,960 everything is because. Drug dealers and people that do 268 00:14:42,960 --> 00:14:45,680 illegal things, and people that sell dogs and people that do 269 00:14:45,680 --> 00:14:49,680 shit that's illegal in car businesses, and all these levels 270 00:14:49,680 --> 00:14:53,480 were not paying taxes unless it was $20,000 or more. 271 00:14:53,880 --> 00:14:57,880 So then the IRS changed it to $500 or more, meaning that 272 00:14:58,160 --> 00:15:00,360 pretty much anyone whether you're cutting grass or 273 00:15:00,360 --> 00:15:02,640 whatever, you're about to start paying taxes on digital 274 00:15:02,640 --> 00:15:06,250 transactions. So what I was taught for 275 00:15:06,250 --> 00:15:08,610 financial saving and I think it's important that we talk 276 00:15:08,610 --> 00:15:13,050 about it because a lot of people just don't, don't know. 277 00:15:13,850 --> 00:15:18,090 What I was always taught is that you unless you're at a job where 278 00:15:18,090 --> 00:15:21,850 they are taking out your your taxes for you and they're 279 00:15:21,850 --> 00:15:23,650 sending them off whatever and then you're going to do your 280 00:15:23,650 --> 00:15:26,890 thing at the end of the year and maybe get money back when you 281 00:15:27,250 --> 00:15:33,790 get paid your personal money for your content or whatever you you 282 00:15:33,790 --> 00:15:36,710 save. So you cut that amount in in 283 00:15:36,710 --> 00:15:38,670 half. So let's say I got 100 bucks in 284 00:15:38,950 --> 00:15:42,430 you cut that amount in half. So you have 5025 dollars goes 285 00:15:42,430 --> 00:15:47,350 into your savings, $25 gets put away for your taxes, and that 286 00:15:47,350 --> 00:15:52,390 way you're always saving 25% away from the actual thing for 287 00:15:52,390 --> 00:15:57,910 taxes, and then you're also saving 25% away for your savings 288 00:15:57,910 --> 00:16:03,160 account as well. I think that you should save way 289 00:16:03,160 --> 00:16:05,200 more than that. I think that when you start 290 00:16:05,200 --> 00:16:08,840 making more than $10,000 at anything that you do, you better 291 00:16:08,840 --> 00:16:11,600 be prepared to pay quite a bit back in. 292 00:16:11,640 --> 00:16:16,200 And I think that people fuck themselves by not using like 293 00:16:16,560 --> 00:16:20,120 credit cards properly or using things that track expenses 294 00:16:20,120 --> 00:16:22,880 properly, because a lot of credit card companies will break 295 00:16:22,880 --> 00:16:26,040 down your expenses and tell you what you spend money on the 296 00:16:26,040 --> 00:16:28,000 most. And I just think that a lot of 297 00:16:28,000 --> 00:16:31,160 people like use money they don't have to buy. 298 00:16:31,360 --> 00:16:34,080 Things they don't need, so then later they're no longer 299 00:16:34,080 --> 00:16:37,720 fulfilled or they're really greedy and stingy people to 300 00:16:37,720 --> 00:16:40,240 begin with. And then money like repels you 301 00:16:40,480 --> 00:16:43,920 when you're greedy and stingy Money doesn't. 302 00:16:44,230 --> 00:16:47,190 Like, follow you and help you out because, like, there's no 303 00:16:47,190 --> 00:16:49,630 reason it's not in flow with you. 304 00:16:49,630 --> 00:16:51,590 It stops with you. You know what I mean? 305 00:16:51,590 --> 00:16:54,190 Like someone who's greedy or send you like the money stops 306 00:16:54,190 --> 00:16:57,710 there with them. Like someone who has good value 307 00:16:57,710 --> 00:17:00,830 in money, knows how to spread it and invest in other businesses 308 00:17:00,830 --> 00:17:04,670 or in people that matter. But I think it's funny how 309 00:17:04,670 --> 00:17:08,310 people don't realize how the real world works when it comes 310 00:17:08,310 --> 00:17:11,349 to taxes, when it comes to things that they don't teach us. 311 00:17:11,670 --> 00:17:14,109 Like that's the problem is they don't teach us a lot of. 312 00:17:14,230 --> 00:17:19,550 Life skills that we need. I yeah. 313 00:17:20,030 --> 00:17:27,510 I mean, I don't really remember any kind of education on actual 314 00:17:27,510 --> 00:17:29,990 financial things. I remember learning how to write 315 00:17:29,990 --> 00:17:33,930 a check, but you know, I did all the math courses and everything 316 00:17:33,930 --> 00:17:38,010 and there wasn't anything that was teaching you how to save for 317 00:17:38,010 --> 00:17:40,530 taxes. Do your taxes, File your taxes? 318 00:17:40,530 --> 00:17:42,210 Anything. But the second that you have a 319 00:17:42,210 --> 00:17:46,290 job fucking 16 years old, think in Idaho, it's 15. 320 00:17:46,610 --> 00:17:49,530 You're having to do taxes, you're having to figure it out. 321 00:17:49,530 --> 00:17:53,090 And if you do it improperly, then you're going to have Uncle 322 00:17:53,090 --> 00:17:54,850 Sam coming down your fucking throat. 323 00:17:54,930 --> 00:17:58,650 And the solution for that is, Oh well, you should go and pay 324 00:17:58,650 --> 00:18:02,290 somebody else who is educated on this, who's gone to college, who 325 00:18:02,290 --> 00:18:06,690 has a degree, so that they can help you, because they don't 326 00:18:06,690 --> 00:18:10,770 prepare you so that then people have to pay into the system to 327 00:18:10,770 --> 00:18:13,530 learn how to do it, to not get fucked by the system. 328 00:18:14,400 --> 00:18:16,400 So it's insane how twisted it is. 329 00:18:16,400 --> 00:18:20,600 Like one year I had someone mess up on my taxes and I paid a lot 330 00:18:20,600 --> 00:18:24,280 more money and then later I had to have someone redo and 331 00:18:24,280 --> 00:18:28,240 resubmit my taxes where I got a reimbursement of like I don't 332 00:18:28,240 --> 00:18:31,240 know, 1200 dollars or something that I had extra paid because 333 00:18:31,240 --> 00:18:35,840 this person messed up my taxes. Like it's crazy that you can pay 334 00:18:35,840 --> 00:18:38,960 someone a lot of money basically to do your taxes and they'll 335 00:18:38,960 --> 00:18:42,900 still fuck it up. Speaking of getting money and 336 00:18:42,900 --> 00:18:46,860 overpaying. So I got my gas bill this month 337 00:18:46,860 --> 00:18:51,300 and it was $2.22 and I was like what the fuck? 338 00:18:51,300 --> 00:18:53,900 So I'm telling Brian and he's like like something must have 339 00:18:53,900 --> 00:18:56,460 happened. So then I look at last month and 340 00:18:56,460 --> 00:18:59,900 I double paid, which I didn't even realize that I had double 341 00:18:59,900 --> 00:19:03,820 paid and so it ended up crediting me this month. 342 00:19:03,820 --> 00:19:08,740 And so I only owed $2.22 and I thought, that is so amazing. 343 00:19:08,740 --> 00:19:12,340 And so when I went to the dispensary earlier in the month, 344 00:19:12,380 --> 00:19:16,820 it was $55.55. And so I feel like spirits just 345 00:19:16,820 --> 00:19:20,140 coming through and being like, hey, just want to reward you for 346 00:19:20,140 --> 00:19:22,340 the way that you're spending your cash monies. 347 00:19:23,260 --> 00:19:27,740 You know, I think that when you have a flow of mindset, things 348 00:19:27,740 --> 00:19:30,620 flow very well and that's why, like, I don't. 349 00:19:30,950 --> 00:19:35,150 Take things being disrupted or not being the way that I want 350 00:19:35,150 --> 00:19:39,670 them as a disruptive my flow. I think that flow comes and goes 351 00:19:39,670 --> 00:19:42,990 like you can't just like always have money and always have all 352 00:19:42,990 --> 00:19:45,110 these things. But you can have the energy that 353 00:19:45,110 --> 00:19:49,630 like guides you towards fulfillment in different ways 354 00:19:49,630 --> 00:19:52,920 and I feel like then. Money and material matters. 355 00:19:52,920 --> 00:19:55,320 And like things like that work itself out, you know what I 356 00:19:55,320 --> 00:19:56,520 mean? Like whenever you're not 357 00:19:56,520 --> 00:20:01,520 searching for it or focused on it or 1000% wrapped up in it. 358 00:20:01,880 --> 00:20:05,560 And I think in the past for you especially, you were really 359 00:20:05,560 --> 00:20:08,720 wrapped up in like, I need this, I need to do that, I want to be 360 00:20:08,720 --> 00:20:11,560 here, I want to be there. And now you're like like a lot 361 00:20:11,560 --> 00:20:12,960 more chill when it comes to that. 362 00:20:12,960 --> 00:20:19,640 So then things are like more you know, like in tune for you. 363 00:20:21,200 --> 00:20:26,000 Yeah, because for a long time I felt like I was trying to prove, 364 00:20:26,000 --> 00:20:30,880 like to me, being successful with what I was doing and it 365 00:20:30,960 --> 00:20:36,200 actually mattering was I had to be at a certain monetary thing 366 00:20:36,200 --> 00:20:39,160 and I had to be on this level doing this. 367 00:20:39,480 --> 00:20:43,280 And then once I was doing that, I was like, specifically it was 368 00:20:43,280 --> 00:20:45,880 with my business. And then once I was doing that, 369 00:20:46,200 --> 00:20:50,600 I was like the fucking money. Spending all of this time and 370 00:20:50,600 --> 00:20:56,200 energy doing this isn't worth the emotional stress that I 371 00:20:56,200 --> 00:20:58,160 feel. And it's more important to me to 372 00:20:58,160 --> 00:21:01,280 feel like I'm doing something because I love doing it, because 373 00:21:01,280 --> 00:21:04,480 I want to do it. As opposed to feeling like I'm 374 00:21:04,480 --> 00:21:09,960 doing it to prove something and because I need to survive off of 375 00:21:09,960 --> 00:21:12,080 it. And when I look back on it like 376 00:21:13,160 --> 00:21:17,160 that wasn't even goals that I personally had it. 377 00:21:17,400 --> 00:21:21,410 It ended up being a goal that was put on me. 378 00:21:21,730 --> 00:21:24,490 And I don't even think I talked to you about this. 379 00:21:24,490 --> 00:21:28,930 But when I had had that girl who wanted to start a podcast with 380 00:21:28,930 --> 00:21:31,850 me before you and I did, and you were like, I fucking didn't like 381 00:21:31,850 --> 00:21:35,490 her, she's fucking weird. She would put a lot of pressure 382 00:21:35,490 --> 00:21:39,410 on me because she didn't have an outside job. 383 00:21:39,450 --> 00:21:42,850 All of her stuff came from social media and whatever. 384 00:21:43,210 --> 00:21:47,750 And so and it wasn't much money. Like she lived off of her 385 00:21:47,750 --> 00:21:50,110 husband's whatever, which I hadn't done. 386 00:21:50,390 --> 00:21:53,230 And so she was like, we're going to need to put this amount of 387 00:21:53,230 --> 00:21:56,070 time and this amount of energy into it to have this kind of 388 00:21:56,070 --> 00:21:57,750 financial, whatever come out of it. 389 00:21:58,110 --> 00:22:04,110 And so I had put this goal down on paper of needing to make this 390 00:22:04,110 --> 00:22:07,230 amount of money so that I could do, you know, what I want to do 391 00:22:07,230 --> 00:22:11,750 full time or whatever. And when I think back on it, it 392 00:22:11,750 --> 00:22:15,270 wasn't even a goal that I personally had for me. 393 00:22:15,430 --> 00:22:19,630 It was somebody else speaking and projecting their shit on to 394 00:22:19,630 --> 00:22:24,790 me that I then took on as this is what success is going to be 395 00:22:24,790 --> 00:22:29,350 for me and what I have to do in order for me to not be wasting 396 00:22:29,350 --> 00:22:33,180 my time. And I no longer feel that way. 397 00:22:33,180 --> 00:22:38,340 And whether that be, you know, because I achieved that and then 398 00:22:38,460 --> 00:22:42,780 decided it wasn't for me or be it because I actually am doing 399 00:22:42,780 --> 00:22:45,460 things that I'm passionate about and it doesn't fucking matter. 400 00:22:45,460 --> 00:22:49,180 I don't know. But I just know that that is so 401 00:22:49,180 --> 00:22:52,380 far removed from my reality now and what I'm thinking for 402 00:22:52,380 --> 00:22:57,820 myself, and I don't do anything that I'm doing with a monetary 403 00:22:58,680 --> 00:23:01,560 point in mind. I'm I want my bills paid and I 404 00:23:01,560 --> 00:23:04,360 want to be comfortable. And that's where I'm at. 405 00:23:04,360 --> 00:23:07,240 And I really could give a fuck less about anything about that. 406 00:23:08,440 --> 00:23:11,240 You know, I think so many people get wrapped up in some, like, 407 00:23:11,240 --> 00:23:14,320 certain fantasy world that they think is going to completely 408 00:23:14,320 --> 00:23:17,360 fulfill them or make them happy. And most people do it through 409 00:23:17,360 --> 00:23:21,240 relationships or through even situation ships. 410 00:23:21,240 --> 00:23:24,400 Like, people like to feel like they're in control and that they 411 00:23:24,400 --> 00:23:26,800 have some kind of, like, control over their fate. 412 00:23:27,160 --> 00:23:29,920 But the thing I love. About the Universe is like it 413 00:23:29,920 --> 00:23:32,800 never ceases to amaze me. The things that are possible 414 00:23:33,160 --> 00:23:36,360 when I get out of my own way, when I get out of my own head, 415 00:23:36,360 --> 00:23:39,720 when I get out of my own, like limiting belief systems. 416 00:23:40,680 --> 00:23:42,840 And at the same time, I feel like that's the most 417 00:23:42,840 --> 00:23:46,440 uncomfortable part of the journey, is venturing off that, 418 00:23:46,440 --> 00:23:48,840 you know, beating path like that familiar. 419 00:23:49,120 --> 00:23:51,920 But sometimes you have to do that to realize that's not. 420 00:23:52,620 --> 00:23:55,220 What you're going for or that's actually not the direction that 421 00:23:55,220 --> 00:23:57,580 you want to go. And a lot of people don't 422 00:23:57,580 --> 00:24:00,740 realize that, like getting out of their own head, getting out 423 00:24:00,740 --> 00:24:02,500 of their own way and just doing the thing. 424 00:24:02,500 --> 00:24:05,700 Trying The thing is going to give you a lot of information on 425 00:24:05,700 --> 00:24:08,860 whether that thing is for you or whether that person or that 426 00:24:08,860 --> 00:24:10,780 situation or that job is for you. 427 00:24:11,420 --> 00:24:14,620 But under. Like, understand how people can 428 00:24:14,620 --> 00:24:18,500 stay in that energy forever. But like, outside influences, 429 00:24:18,500 --> 00:24:22,820 your environment and how you spend your free time will make 430 00:24:22,820 --> 00:24:26,260 or break your whole life. And a lot of people just play 431 00:24:26,260 --> 00:24:30,100 the victim in their own world. But it's like you set the stage. 432 00:24:30,340 --> 00:24:32,460 You're setting the stage for all this fuckery. 433 00:24:32,660 --> 00:24:35,620 You're shady, you are envious. You know you're not a good 434 00:24:35,620 --> 00:24:37,940 person, so you're attracting people. 435 00:24:38,750 --> 00:24:41,150 That reflect that back to you, that treat you like shit, that 436 00:24:41,190 --> 00:24:44,230 validate your insecurities or traumas. 437 00:24:44,230 --> 00:24:46,830 And you know, I just like surrounding myself with people 438 00:24:46,830 --> 00:24:51,070 who just are trying the best to do like what they require, like 439 00:24:51,070 --> 00:24:53,070 what they want. You know, instead of trying to 440 00:24:53,070 --> 00:24:56,910 fit some narrative of like this is my picture perfect life. 441 00:24:56,910 --> 00:25:00,030 Now look at it and and congratulate me, You know what I 442 00:25:00,030 --> 00:25:02,230 mean? Yeah. 443 00:25:02,350 --> 00:25:08,280 I no longer look at people and think, Oh my gosh, they have it 444 00:25:08,280 --> 00:25:11,480 all put together or whatever. Because what you see from the 445 00:25:11,520 --> 00:25:14,960 outside and you think that other people have their ship put 446 00:25:14,960 --> 00:25:17,280 together. A lot of times those people 447 00:25:17,280 --> 00:25:20,800 would laugh at you if you told them that they have their ship 448 00:25:20,800 --> 00:25:22,520 put together. They'll be like, no, I fucking 449 00:25:22,520 --> 00:25:26,440 don't. And another thing, too, is I 450 00:25:26,440 --> 00:25:29,960 think that people would be happier if they did things that 451 00:25:30,490 --> 00:25:34,130 were a risk and that they didn't know what the outcome was going 452 00:25:34,130 --> 00:25:36,610 to be, but they just felt like they were. 453 00:25:36,930 --> 00:25:42,500 They're led to do something. And I know that for me, I've 454 00:25:42,540 --> 00:25:45,420 always been the person that's like, it doesn't make any sense 455 00:25:45,420 --> 00:25:47,180 to me. But I feel really drawn to make 456 00:25:47,180 --> 00:25:50,940 this decision, go this place, do this thing since I was a kid. 457 00:25:50,940 --> 00:25:52,340 And I'm going to make that happen. 458 00:25:52,340 --> 00:25:56,980 And it always has, you know, bothered my parents or whatever 459 00:25:56,980 --> 00:25:59,900 because it just seems irresponsible or whatnot. 460 00:26:00,180 --> 00:26:02,860 But it's always end up blessing me in the end and is the been 461 00:26:02,860 --> 00:26:06,460 the best thing to do. And I think that a big part of 462 00:26:06,460 --> 00:26:11,060 people limiting themselves and having these like crazy goals 463 00:26:11,060 --> 00:26:14,260 and expectations for their self and their thought processes and 464 00:26:14,260 --> 00:26:18,820 shit has been passed down to them from their parents, from 465 00:26:18,820 --> 00:26:22,820 their friends, from whoever, with these mindsets of Oh no, 466 00:26:22,820 --> 00:26:24,740 well, you have to do it like this. 467 00:26:25,180 --> 00:26:30,060 And usually the people giving the advice are people who have 468 00:26:30,300 --> 00:26:33,980 had handouts to get what they have and they've never, they're 469 00:26:33,980 --> 00:26:36,460 not intuitive in any way, so they couldn't fucking pick a 470 00:26:36,460 --> 00:26:41,330 fucking direction. Or they just only have these one 471 00:26:41,330 --> 00:26:43,850 pathways and they could never be open to something else? 472 00:26:44,610 --> 00:26:46,890 Did you know there was just a bubble with the thumbs up that 473 00:26:46,890 --> 00:26:48,570 came floating around your screen? 474 00:26:49,170 --> 00:26:50,690 No. But what's fucking crazy about 475 00:26:50,690 --> 00:26:53,810 that is I was doing a reading before we started the call and 476 00:26:53,810 --> 00:26:56,770 that happened to me while I was talking to her and we were not 477 00:26:56,770 --> 00:26:59,810 on Zoom, we were on Facebook and I can't figure out why the fuck 478 00:26:59,810 --> 00:27:02,210 it's happening. And we both were fucking weirded 479 00:27:02,210 --> 00:27:04,970 out and then we tried doing it again and it wouldn't do it. 480 00:27:06,010 --> 00:27:10,350 Did we do it like that? It doesn't do it. 481 00:27:10,350 --> 00:27:13,470 I don't know what happens. It's been happening when I talk 482 00:27:13,470 --> 00:27:16,590 today. I've never seen that. 483 00:27:16,590 --> 00:27:18,950 It was like a spirit bubble, but a thumbs up. 484 00:27:20,310 --> 00:27:25,150 What I like about the world is that you can choose any reality 485 00:27:25,150 --> 00:27:29,320 that you want and a lot of. People waste their energy 486 00:27:29,720 --> 00:27:33,280 surrounding themselves with miserable people and you know, 487 00:27:33,280 --> 00:27:36,360 misery loves company and people will love to keep you at their 488 00:27:36,360 --> 00:27:40,400 level or keep you beneath them. A lot of people, including 489 00:27:40,400 --> 00:27:43,960 myself in the past, would hang out with more weaker minded 490 00:27:43,960 --> 00:27:47,160 people so I could be like the smarter person, the smartest 491 00:27:47,160 --> 00:27:49,920 person even. And you know, I think people do 492 00:27:49,920 --> 00:27:51,200 that. That's what people do, they 493 00:27:51,200 --> 00:27:53,370 like. Surround themselves with weaker 494 00:27:53,370 --> 00:27:56,730 links because they want to feel superior or they actually want 495 00:27:56,730 --> 00:27:59,530 to validate their own insecurities, like they're doing 496 00:27:59,530 --> 00:28:02,450 something like they have something going on and that 497 00:28:02,450 --> 00:28:04,690 they're in their power or whatever. 498 00:28:05,010 --> 00:28:09,330 And unfortunately, so many people play the game very well. 499 00:28:09,330 --> 00:28:12,370 But when it comes down to actually acting upon a lot of 500 00:28:12,370 --> 00:28:15,770 what they're saying or a lot of like what they're. 501 00:28:17,140 --> 00:28:19,620 Eluding is like, it's not there. You know what I mean? 502 00:28:19,620 --> 00:28:23,580 Like people's character will always be tested whenever it 503 00:28:23,580 --> 00:28:26,420 gets down to the integrity. Like how is someone really going 504 00:28:26,420 --> 00:28:29,540 to react under pressure or under stress, or like when they're 505 00:28:29,540 --> 00:28:34,620 scared or grieving or whatever. People will show you the best 506 00:28:34,620 --> 00:28:37,100 version of them all the way until they can't anymore. 507 00:28:37,460 --> 00:28:41,380 And then you have to decide like what you're going to do with 508 00:28:41,380 --> 00:28:44,060 that like how you're going to move forward in that situation. 509 00:28:45,620 --> 00:28:47,460 I agree. And and something that you and I 510 00:28:47,460 --> 00:28:52,060 had recently talked about too. I I came to this realization as 511 00:28:52,060 --> 00:28:56,860 I was trying to think about just like repeat types of people that 512 00:28:56,860 --> 00:29:01,020 kind of come into our circle and that we maybe have issue with or 513 00:29:01,020 --> 00:29:03,220 or fallout with or something like that. 514 00:29:03,580 --> 00:29:07,500 And I was trying to think about well what's my mindset, how am I 515 00:29:07,500 --> 00:29:09,140 attracting these people, whatever. 516 00:29:09,540 --> 00:29:16,100 And I have been figuring out that I really try to connect. 517 00:29:16,100 --> 00:29:21,500 Well, I don't try to, but I have seemed to have people gravitate 518 00:29:21,500 --> 00:29:28,300 towards me that are in similar energetic situations or places 519 00:29:28,300 --> 00:29:33,860 in their life that I have been before and in times of my life 520 00:29:33,860 --> 00:29:36,900 where I felt like I didn't have any support systems or any 521 00:29:36,900 --> 00:29:40,190 anybody to like, boost me up and help me through. 522 00:29:40,670 --> 00:29:45,590 And so I I see this in people and I go, oh, well, if I had 523 00:29:45,590 --> 00:29:49,910 just had somebody like me with where I am right now when I was 524 00:29:49,910 --> 00:29:54,270 in that place, I could have done a BC&DI can help them on their 525 00:29:54,270 --> 00:29:56,070 journey. And so it's been like this 526 00:29:56,070 --> 00:30:00,990 Captain Sevaho mentality. And you know, there's a fine 527 00:30:00,990 --> 00:30:06,430 line between mentorship and Captain Sevaho energy. 528 00:30:06,940 --> 00:30:14,260 And instead of trying to guide people because you see old 529 00:30:14,260 --> 00:30:18,220 versions of yourself in them, recognizing that that's where 530 00:30:18,220 --> 00:30:22,540 they are and giving every single person the same amount of tools 531 00:30:22,580 --> 00:30:27,460 and guidance in the exact in the same way without switching it up 532 00:30:27,460 --> 00:30:31,660 and getting more emotionally invested in certain places. 533 00:30:31,900 --> 00:30:33,540 Because you see yourself in that. 534 00:30:33,540 --> 00:30:39,740 Because I'm recognizing that, for me, it almost feels like I'm 535 00:30:39,740 --> 00:30:44,500 trying to heal like childhood wounds of like me as a teenager 536 00:30:44,500 --> 00:30:47,780 or whatever. Because I used to be in these 537 00:30:47,780 --> 00:30:51,260 places and now that I'm thinking about it and deconstructing it, 538 00:30:52,140 --> 00:30:56,340 those people, even with the tools that they've gotten, will 539 00:30:56,340 --> 00:31:01,050 never do with that information what you and I have done to 540 00:31:01,050 --> 00:31:06,130 overcome addictions and abuses and traumas and whatever, even 541 00:31:06,130 --> 00:31:08,410 with the same tools. Those will never be the same 542 00:31:08,410 --> 00:31:12,210 people. And also those people are not 543 00:31:12,210 --> 00:31:16,890 1516 year olds. Little girls trying to work 544 00:31:16,890 --> 00:31:18,730 their shit out and having difficulty. 545 00:31:18,730 --> 00:31:23,890 These are grown ass Broads who know better, who have had life 546 00:31:23,890 --> 00:31:28,130 experiences to know better and have probably had people try and 547 00:31:28,130 --> 00:31:32,890 help them and aren't doing more. And so I'm going to really be 548 00:31:32,890 --> 00:31:36,130 and I and I'm kind of saying this out loud like to you too 549 00:31:36,130 --> 00:31:39,210 because I just want to like be held accountable for it I guess. 550 00:31:39,610 --> 00:31:43,690 And like speaking into the universe is like I am no longer 551 00:31:43,690 --> 00:31:50,050 accepting energy in the form of my past traumas to make me feel 552 00:31:50,050 --> 00:31:54,210 like I'm responsible to help somebody or I'm abandoning them 553 00:31:54,450 --> 00:31:57,450 just because that's how I felt in younger, unhealed versions of 554 00:31:57,450 --> 00:31:59,970 myself. You know, I've been really 555 00:31:59,970 --> 00:32:03,130 working through that inner child work for like years now. 556 00:32:03,130 --> 00:32:06,410 And I think that anyone who's listening that feels like they 557 00:32:06,410 --> 00:32:11,050 relive cycles often or see their cycles within people and their 558 00:32:11,050 --> 00:32:14,690 reality to really focus on that inner child healing. 559 00:32:14,690 --> 00:32:18,690 Because there are wounded parts of us that are attached to 560 00:32:18,690 --> 00:32:22,930 certain outcomes that we did not receive certain instances that 561 00:32:22,930 --> 00:32:24,970 did not happen. You know, a lot of people 562 00:32:24,970 --> 00:32:27,890 fantasize about what a relationship would have been 563 00:32:27,890 --> 00:32:30,570 like with. A certain parent or a certain 564 00:32:30,570 --> 00:32:35,010 person, whether that's a sibling or a grandmother or whoever, but 565 00:32:35,010 --> 00:32:37,890 you don't know what that would have been like and like 566 00:32:37,890 --> 00:32:43,090 fantasizing and mourning the loss of something is a natural 567 00:32:43,090 --> 00:32:47,210 response, but it can keep you in that cycle of abandoning, like, 568 00:32:47,210 --> 00:32:51,690 abandoning yourself and not honoring yourself. 569 00:32:52,090 --> 00:32:55,970 Because a lot of us just like, resent the path that we're on 570 00:32:56,050 --> 00:32:57,970 most of the time. Unless people are like. 571 00:32:58,420 --> 00:33:01,140 Wildly successful, talented and famous. 572 00:33:01,540 --> 00:33:05,500 They're like fantasizing about someone else's life or like 573 00:33:05,500 --> 00:33:07,980 trying to stir up drama and someone else's life. 574 00:33:08,260 --> 00:33:10,980 And that's what I've learned the most, is like, the more peace 575 00:33:11,260 --> 00:33:14,380 that I have in my world, the more people want to, like, try 576 00:33:14,380 --> 00:33:18,020 to disrupt that peace and think that they have some power over 577 00:33:18,020 --> 00:33:21,380 my thoughts or my vision. Like I'm going to waste energy 578 00:33:21,380 --> 00:33:23,460 to send them some kind of negative spell. 579 00:33:23,700 --> 00:33:26,900 Like I don't even do love spells when I could totally do a love 580 00:33:26,900 --> 00:33:31,220 spell on literally anyway. One, I choose not to because I 581 00:33:31,220 --> 00:33:33,180 don't want anything that's not authentic. 582 00:33:33,180 --> 00:33:36,180 Like, I don't want anything that's concocted from a fantasy 583 00:33:36,180 --> 00:33:38,260 world. Like, although the fantasy 584 00:33:38,260 --> 00:33:41,420 worlds are beautiful, a lot of people live there and they're 585 00:33:41,420 --> 00:33:43,900 delusional in a way that's like, not productive. 586 00:33:44,100 --> 00:33:47,180 I feel like my delusions are very productive because I've 587 00:33:47,180 --> 00:33:50,900 worked to build those visions into reality and like, they 588 00:33:50,900 --> 00:33:53,460 started from a delusion or started from a dream or 589 00:33:53,460 --> 00:33:54,900 something. So I don't know. 590 00:33:54,940 --> 00:33:56,020 I just. I'm not. 591 00:33:56,590 --> 00:33:59,790 In the position to like judge what people do on their journey, 592 00:33:59,790 --> 00:34:01,910 because I really don't care. It doesn't affect me. 593 00:34:02,190 --> 00:34:05,870 But I also don't like people who act like they're going to do the 594 00:34:05,870 --> 00:34:07,910 work. And then when they later don't 595 00:34:07,910 --> 00:34:11,230 do the work, they project their insecurities and fears and 596 00:34:11,510 --> 00:34:14,389 trauma back onto the person who's been trying to help them 597 00:34:14,670 --> 00:34:17,909 to continue to perpetuate that abandonment cycle like you 598 00:34:17,909 --> 00:34:21,310 mentioned, but also that unworthiness, energy, that 599 00:34:21,389 --> 00:34:24,630 neglect. You know, we neglect ourselves 600 00:34:24,630 --> 00:34:26,510 every time we let someone else manipulate. 601 00:34:26,590 --> 00:34:29,070 Relate us. But when you're taking advantage 602 00:34:29,070 --> 00:34:32,270 of people who are willing to help you, help you rise above 603 00:34:32,270 --> 00:34:34,230 that, you're really fucking yourself. 604 00:34:34,230 --> 00:34:35,750 Over. You're not fucking them. 605 00:34:35,750 --> 00:34:38,989 Over you're fucking yourself, yeah. 606 00:34:39,270 --> 00:34:45,710 And also I think that people who end up doing that also when 607 00:34:45,710 --> 00:34:50,790 they're taking advantage of of people's energy or their time or 608 00:34:50,790 --> 00:34:55,310 whatever or resource of any kind, you end up manipulating it 609 00:34:55,310 --> 00:35:00,630 in your mind to why you deserve to be doing what you're doing or 610 00:35:00,630 --> 00:35:03,510 why you are owed. What this person is giving you 611 00:35:03,510 --> 00:35:09,030 their time, money, etcetera. And what they're giving you that 612 00:35:09,030 --> 00:35:12,510 before you were like, wow, I can't believe that like I can 613 00:35:12,510 --> 00:35:15,470 pay you for, you know, let's say like a spiritual service or 614 00:35:15,470 --> 00:35:17,150 whatever. I can't believe that that I'm 615 00:35:17,150 --> 00:35:19,270 able to do that. Then people kind of get 616 00:35:19,390 --> 00:35:22,070 comfortable in that and it turns into like, well, I don't think 617 00:35:22,070 --> 00:35:24,510 that I should have to pay that. Well, I don't think that I 618 00:35:24,510 --> 00:35:27,550 should have to do this. And I think it's because people 619 00:35:27,550 --> 00:35:32,230 get comfortable manipulating things inside of their own mind 620 00:35:32,230 --> 00:35:35,630 at why they're owed something, why it should just be given to 621 00:35:35,630 --> 00:35:40,550 them. And a lot of people will self 622 00:35:40,550 --> 00:35:46,830 rationalize in all areas of life of why they deserve to have 623 00:35:48,090 --> 00:35:51,090 special accommodations made for them or whatever. 624 00:35:51,090 --> 00:35:53,770 Like, well, I know that everybody else has to do this in 625 00:35:53,770 --> 00:35:56,450 order to get that. But like, we've had phone calls 626 00:35:56,450 --> 00:36:00,050 before, so I should be able to be able to have this or I should 627 00:36:00,050 --> 00:36:03,970 be able to do this. And I know that I've had that 628 00:36:03,970 --> 00:36:08,690 happen. I mean, I I've done that not in 629 00:36:08,730 --> 00:36:13,690 like current versions of myself, but in old versions of myself. 630 00:36:13,730 --> 00:36:19,220 I've totally, like, have those moments where I've had friends 631 00:36:19,220 --> 00:36:25,060 who have overgiven to me and I had just been like, Oh well, 632 00:36:25,060 --> 00:36:27,820 they're my friends. So, like, they should be doing 633 00:36:27,820 --> 00:36:29,700 that anyways because that's what friends are. 634 00:36:29,940 --> 00:36:32,020 Well, no. I was taking advantage of their 635 00:36:32,020 --> 00:36:34,380 niceness and their kindness and knowing that they were always 636 00:36:34,420 --> 00:36:37,260 going to be there to fall back and rely on. 637 00:36:37,640 --> 00:36:41,480 And I took advantage of that and I made it make sense in my own 638 00:36:41,480 --> 00:36:44,280 mind. And then I was pissed when there 639 00:36:44,280 --> 00:36:49,080 was a falling out and and they were holding me to a standard 640 00:36:49,080 --> 00:36:51,920 because I manipulated the whole thing in my mind. 641 00:36:52,200 --> 00:36:57,240 And for some people that won't unravel for them for months, for 642 00:36:57,240 --> 00:37:00,520 years for something catastrophic to happen and they feel by 643 00:37:00,520 --> 00:37:03,860 themselves. And when that does happen and 644 00:37:03,860 --> 00:37:06,900 people have self realizations, it is not then your 645 00:37:06,900 --> 00:37:10,900 responsibility to say it's okay that you absolutely treated me 646 00:37:10,900 --> 00:37:14,380 like shit and garbage and said stuff that like really affected 647 00:37:14,380 --> 00:37:18,380 my soul in the moment because now you're apologizing like it. 648 00:37:18,420 --> 00:37:22,340 You don't ever have to tell anybody that like they're 649 00:37:22,340 --> 00:37:25,860 forgiven and or anything for shitty ways that they treat you 650 00:37:25,860 --> 00:37:28,580 just because they were having a really shitty time and it took 651 00:37:28,580 --> 00:37:32,550 me a long time to learn that. You know, I think people make 652 00:37:32,550 --> 00:37:35,790 excuses for others all the time, especially in relationships, 653 00:37:35,790 --> 00:37:38,710 people that they have children with, people they're related to. 654 00:37:39,030 --> 00:37:42,430 Excuses will be made until you're really sick of your own 655 00:37:42,430 --> 00:37:45,950 shit, or sick of their shit, or sick of whatever environment 656 00:37:45,950 --> 00:37:50,290 that you've created because. I just honestly believe that 657 00:37:50,290 --> 00:37:53,570 every person has the ability to pull themselves out of something 658 00:37:53,570 --> 00:37:55,650 like that. If they're willing, like you 659 00:37:55,650 --> 00:37:58,850 said, to do that work. And like to put in that time 660 00:37:58,850 --> 00:38:02,050 where you set with yourself, where it's uncomfortable, where 661 00:38:02,050 --> 00:38:05,650 you turn down invites and invitations to celebrate. 662 00:38:05,650 --> 00:38:08,330 Because there really is nothing to celebrate if you're not in 663 00:38:08,330 --> 00:38:10,830 tune with your own soul. That's why I don't understand 664 00:38:10,830 --> 00:38:13,030 the people who drink every weekend, because it's like, what 665 00:38:13,030 --> 00:38:16,150 are you celebrating? Your life is absolutely shit 666 00:38:16,150 --> 00:38:19,390 Monday through Friday and then on the weekend you just go get 667 00:38:19,390 --> 00:38:25,710 fucked up and literally don't even like have any self 668 00:38:26,230 --> 00:38:27,830 realization time. You know what I mean? 669 00:38:27,830 --> 00:38:32,310 Like you're so drained and like illusioned that you don't even 670 00:38:32,310 --> 00:38:34,590 know your own self. And I think a lot of people, 671 00:38:34,590 --> 00:38:37,550 their biggest fall is they can't set with themselves because they 672 00:38:37,550 --> 00:38:40,590 don't really like themselves. And that sucks. 673 00:38:40,590 --> 00:38:42,510 Like I want everyone to like themselves. 674 00:38:42,510 --> 00:38:46,070 I want everyone to be able to be in their own energy and enjoy a 675 00:38:46,070 --> 00:38:49,430 movie or cook a home cooked meal and just be in your own energy. 676 00:38:50,150 --> 00:38:52,990 Or just be happy with your family and the and the energies 677 00:38:52,990 --> 00:38:54,710 that you surround yourself with, right? 678 00:38:54,710 --> 00:38:57,990 Like to be present and not wish that your life was different. 679 00:38:57,990 --> 00:39:00,830 I'll hope that for everyone. And that's why I always laugh 680 00:39:00,830 --> 00:39:04,430 when people act like I would waste any of my energy to like 681 00:39:04,430 --> 00:39:07,430 send them ill intention. Because it's like no, that's 682 00:39:07,430 --> 00:39:11,510 gross, like that is stink, coochie energy, dusty crusty 683 00:39:11,510 --> 00:39:13,110 butt. And I don't. 684 00:39:13,490 --> 00:39:17,450 Ever want to exude that energy? Like, even when people don't 685 00:39:17,450 --> 00:39:21,290 like me, I know it's because of something that is within them 686 00:39:21,290 --> 00:39:24,970 that has nothing to do with me. And I will stand on that because 687 00:39:25,010 --> 00:39:29,570 I am genuinely a very nice and like outgoing person that like, 688 00:39:29,570 --> 00:39:32,610 wants to see everyone win. So if you have a problem with 689 00:39:32,610 --> 00:39:35,370 me, it's really because you don't like yourself and I'm just 690 00:39:35,370 --> 00:39:39,350 not ever going to like. Think anything else, because 691 00:39:39,350 --> 00:39:42,990 I've never went to anyone and try to mess up what their vibe 692 00:39:42,990 --> 00:39:44,830 is. Even if I think that someone has 693 00:39:44,830 --> 00:39:47,670 the hottest boyfriend ever, I would not try to break up their 694 00:39:47,670 --> 00:39:49,070 relationship. You know what I mean? 695 00:39:49,070 --> 00:39:51,950 Like, I'm just not vindictive like that, period. 696 00:39:52,030 --> 00:39:55,550 And I want to add on to what you're saying because I I want 697 00:39:55,550 --> 00:40:00,510 to make it known that when you're saying that it's not 698 00:40:00,510 --> 00:40:03,440 like. A you don't selfreflect, and you 699 00:40:03,640 --> 00:40:06,960 and you come from an egotistical standpoint by saying that. 700 00:40:06,960 --> 00:40:11,880 And I think that people who are easily triggered could take it 701 00:40:11,880 --> 00:40:15,600 that way. I have had any time that there's 702 00:40:15,600 --> 00:40:19,720 been any type of, like, disturbance in the fucking 703 00:40:19,720 --> 00:40:23,000 force. We've had a conversation of 704 00:40:23,000 --> 00:40:27,070 like, this is what's going on from your outside perspective. 705 00:40:27,070 --> 00:40:28,590 Should I have done anything differently? 706 00:40:28,590 --> 00:40:31,510 Does this make sense? Is this kind of response 707 00:40:31,510 --> 00:40:34,390 warranted in this? Like does this person have a 708 00:40:34,390 --> 00:40:37,430 point? Like we we have those types of 709 00:40:37,430 --> 00:40:40,390 conversations with each other behind the scenes when things 710 00:40:40,390 --> 00:40:44,190 come up in life or when there is any type of falling out anywhere 711 00:40:44,270 --> 00:40:50,590 or icky energy where we do really like hold me accountable 712 00:40:50,590 --> 00:40:55,890 if I fucked up in this and if I need to be like taking self 713 00:40:55,890 --> 00:40:59,250 accountability somewhere. This is the situation, these are 714 00:40:59,250 --> 00:41:01,290 the screenshots in some situations. 715 00:41:01,290 --> 00:41:04,810 Like what do you think? And I think that it is so 716 00:41:04,810 --> 00:41:11,410 important for people to have somebody that they can trust in 717 00:41:11,410 --> 00:41:14,410 their life that's going to give them an honest perception and 718 00:41:14,410 --> 00:41:18,210 viewpoint from an outside source and not just blow smoke up their 719 00:41:18,210 --> 00:41:19,850 ass. Because if you have a falling 720 00:41:19,850 --> 00:41:25,050 out and you asked me and you're telling me I and I'm like, well, 721 00:41:25,050 --> 00:41:28,530 you know, this was kind of fucked up over here, you would 722 00:41:28,530 --> 00:41:32,090 take that, you wouldn't be upset with me for saying that and you 723 00:41:32,090 --> 00:41:34,690 would process that information and vice versa. 724 00:41:35,050 --> 00:41:39,610 And there are so many people in this world that do not have 725 00:41:39,730 --> 00:41:45,770 anybody that is one that gives a fuck enough to be honest or two 726 00:41:46,050 --> 00:41:49,770 that isn't gaining something off of them by them being happy. 727 00:41:49,810 --> 00:41:54,890 And the more people that we're kind of coming in contact with 728 00:41:54,890 --> 00:42:02,010 who have I don't know what the word is like followings or like 729 00:42:02,010 --> 00:42:04,130 are in a public eye or something like that. 730 00:42:04,130 --> 00:42:09,450 They're surrounded by yes Men. And it's so crazy to have those 731 00:42:09,450 --> 00:42:11,970 people be like wow, what a breath of fresh air that you 732 00:42:11,970 --> 00:42:15,370 guys are like honest and that you guys would like you know say 733 00:42:15,370 --> 00:42:17,890 things when I come forward and that we can have real 734 00:42:17,890 --> 00:42:22,900 conversations or whatever. And so many people don't have 735 00:42:22,980 --> 00:42:26,580 actual honest friendships and and it sucks. 736 00:42:27,780 --> 00:42:31,060 I honestly hope that a lot of people start to find out who 737 00:42:31,060 --> 00:42:33,500 they really are and like what they want. 738 00:42:33,500 --> 00:42:37,180 Because you can ask people like what they want and they 739 00:42:37,180 --> 00:42:40,500 literally will name dumbass shit like money and stuff like that. 740 00:42:40,500 --> 00:42:43,220 But they don't know anything that they personally want on a 741 00:42:43,220 --> 00:42:48,300 personal, like internal level. And I'm just convinced that, 742 00:42:48,300 --> 00:42:54,190 like, people are so. Distracted 24/7 that they just 743 00:42:54,190 --> 00:42:59,430 don't set with themselves and that's why meditation is a like 744 00:43:00,230 --> 00:43:02,270 something you have to take initiative with. 745 00:43:02,670 --> 00:43:06,510 And the same thing with like any approach to healing yourself or 746 00:43:06,510 --> 00:43:10,750 holistic healing or reflection. It's like you have to make time 747 00:43:10,750 --> 00:43:15,980 for it, period. It's not easy. 748 00:43:15,980 --> 00:43:19,020 And that's why you don't see everybody out here talking to 749 00:43:19,020 --> 00:43:20,740 other people about like spiritual. 750 00:43:20,740 --> 00:43:22,980 I don't know if you can hear my cat fucking losing his balls in 751 00:43:22,980 --> 00:43:25,180 the background, but he was just fucking yelling at me and 752 00:43:25,220 --> 00:43:29,940 hitting my door. But that's why everybody doesn't 753 00:43:29,940 --> 00:43:33,760 do what we do. And why it's such a special 754 00:43:33,760 --> 00:43:38,200 thing to have people inside of your space that can provide 755 00:43:38,200 --> 00:43:41,520 mentorship for. How to self reflect. 756 00:43:41,520 --> 00:43:45,120 How to calm yourself. How to look within what types of 757 00:43:45,120 --> 00:43:49,080 things needed to be healed. How to deliver messages from 758 00:43:49,080 --> 00:43:53,160 spirit in a way that isn't terrifying and having to have 759 00:43:53,160 --> 00:43:57,900 some crazy ass shock value and and something that I I really 760 00:43:57,900 --> 00:44:00,260 love. People point this out all the 761 00:44:00,260 --> 00:44:01,820 time when they get readings from us. 762 00:44:01,820 --> 00:44:04,900 But something that I really love about you and I is that when 763 00:44:04,900 --> 00:44:07,860 we're doing readings we have so many people now in our 764 00:44:07,860 --> 00:44:10,140 communities that they like piggyback. 765 00:44:10,140 --> 00:44:13,780 Like they get things from both of us and they're like, oh, like 766 00:44:13,780 --> 00:44:15,900 this resonated with me. And then Paige said this and 767 00:44:15,900 --> 00:44:20,370 this resonated. And we have this ability to give 768 00:44:20,370 --> 00:44:23,370 people guidance and tell them about different paths that they 769 00:44:23,370 --> 00:44:25,930 could be taking and how they could be changing things and 770 00:44:25,930 --> 00:44:28,770 utilizing their energy differently while also 771 00:44:28,770 --> 00:44:32,690 complementing them for their strengths and pointing out the 772 00:44:32,690 --> 00:44:36,810 strengths that they have and helping them to utilize those in 773 00:44:36,810 --> 00:44:40,520 a different way. And out of all the, you know, 774 00:44:40,520 --> 00:44:43,480 different readers and readings and stuff that I've come in 775 00:44:43,480 --> 00:44:47,440 contact with, it's a very like not to shoot our own fucking 776 00:44:47,440 --> 00:44:51,200 horns, but like beep fucking beep because there's so many 777 00:44:51,200 --> 00:44:54,880 readers and stuff who they want to provide you. 778 00:44:55,200 --> 00:44:58,800 Not that they're not accurate with what they're saying, but 779 00:44:58,960 --> 00:45:03,570 their point is to he provides you with some type of a shock 780 00:45:03,570 --> 00:45:08,770 value and be dramatic about what they're saying and and whatever, 781 00:45:08,770 --> 00:45:11,970 and not even really give you direction with something, but 782 00:45:11,970 --> 00:45:14,770 just pinpoint that they know what's going on in your mind. 783 00:45:14,770 --> 00:45:17,090 And then they kind of leave you with that and you're like cool. 784 00:45:17,090 --> 00:45:19,250 So you've told me what I'm already thinking. 785 00:45:19,250 --> 00:45:20,970 That's nice. You're intuitive on what I'm 786 00:45:20,970 --> 00:45:23,050 thinking, but you haven't actually left me with any 787 00:45:23,050 --> 00:45:29,330 direction and both of us want you to walk away from like your 788 00:45:29,330 --> 00:45:33,290 time with us being like, OK, this is my homework and this is 789 00:45:33,290 --> 00:45:36,530 like where I need to for the time being, defocusing my 790 00:45:36,530 --> 00:45:38,290 energy. And that's why men's worship 791 00:45:38,290 --> 00:45:41,130 with us is fucking bomb as shit. You should hop on the train. 792 00:45:42,020 --> 00:45:44,820 Honestly, I love giving people a little game plan, like in the 793 00:45:44,820 --> 00:45:47,980 Signs and Omens, a section of all my e-mail readings. 794 00:45:47,980 --> 00:45:50,780 I always give people like a kind of A to do list of things they 795 00:45:50,780 --> 00:45:54,020 can start looking into, things they should watch, listen to, 796 00:45:54,020 --> 00:45:57,340 read, and it's always intuitive. Like, I will literally recommend 797 00:45:57,340 --> 00:46:00,660 books that I've never even read because that's what they need to 798 00:46:00,660 --> 00:46:02,020 read. So I don't know. 799 00:46:02,020 --> 00:46:06,460 I think that it's interesting when people just listen because 800 00:46:06,460 --> 00:46:09,220 it gets so much louder when you start hearing the call. 801 00:46:09,220 --> 00:46:11,620 It's real quiet normally, and you might sound. 802 00:46:12,020 --> 00:46:15,340 And feel a little crazy in the beginning, but then once you 803 00:46:15,340 --> 00:46:18,620 listen, it gets louder and louder and louder to the point 804 00:46:18,620 --> 00:46:21,100 where like, you cannot not listen. 805 00:46:21,100 --> 00:46:22,980 You know what I mean? Like there's no other option. 806 00:46:22,980 --> 00:46:26,380 And that's why I think I'm so like flexible on this journey 807 00:46:26,380 --> 00:46:29,380 with like what comes next and what's being shown and what's 808 00:46:29,380 --> 00:46:33,180 being blocked and what's changing or evolving or 809 00:46:33,180 --> 00:46:35,840 whatever. And instead of being attached to 810 00:46:35,840 --> 00:46:39,720 certain outcomes because I saw them being reality, I'm just 811 00:46:39,720 --> 00:46:43,200 more open to the evolving shift of reality. 812 00:46:43,200 --> 00:46:47,560 Like it can and will get better if you're in that frame to 813 00:46:47,560 --> 00:46:51,280 receive and attract that energy. Like I just know that what is 814 00:46:51,280 --> 00:46:56,080 for me will not pass me up and it is also like coming into my 815 00:46:56,080 --> 00:46:58,800 world because I am an energetic match for it. 816 00:46:59,080 --> 00:47:02,030 So the less. Energy that I relate with are 817 00:47:02,030 --> 00:47:04,110 the people I disconnect with, are the people that have an 818 00:47:04,110 --> 00:47:07,510 issue with who I am. It's really doing me a favor by 819 00:47:07,510 --> 00:47:12,190 clearing my energy field and taking that dusty crusty with 820 00:47:12,190 --> 00:47:18,030 you and a lot like leaving me. Stagnant in that same cycle, 821 00:47:18,030 --> 00:47:22,630 perpetuating those similar bonds, trauma, bonds, karmic 822 00:47:22,630 --> 00:47:24,390 bonds, whatever you want to call it. 823 00:47:24,390 --> 00:47:27,950 With people you know you can stay in karmic energy your whole 824 00:47:27,950 --> 00:47:30,390 life. And a lot of people choose to 825 00:47:30,390 --> 00:47:34,190 like, surround themselves with past partners because they're 826 00:47:34,190 --> 00:47:38,110 caught in that karmic cycle and they can't break that cycle. 827 00:47:38,390 --> 00:47:41,550 And when something new or something exciting comes into 828 00:47:41,550 --> 00:47:46,090 their life, they almost just. Naturally self sabotage it 829 00:47:46,330 --> 00:47:49,490 because they're so used to perpetuating a cycle of broken 830 00:47:49,490 --> 00:47:53,410 dreams and like anger and despair that they don't know 831 00:47:53,410 --> 00:47:58,210 what happiness or mutual understanding and like respect 832 00:47:58,210 --> 00:48:00,810 really means in a relationship or in a friendship. 833 00:48:00,810 --> 00:48:04,970 Or you know certain instances like people are only willing to 834 00:48:04,970 --> 00:48:07,650 learn as far as they're willing to learn and you can't force 835 00:48:07,650 --> 00:48:11,810 them to change well. And also, people are expecting 836 00:48:11,970 --> 00:48:17,640 everything to People make a lot of choices on how it makes them 837 00:48:17,640 --> 00:48:21,600 feel as opposed to like what's actually good for them. 838 00:48:21,960 --> 00:48:24,880 And I think that's where people get fucked up too. 839 00:48:24,880 --> 00:48:28,520 Like people go into relationships because of how 840 00:48:28,520 --> 00:48:29,880 things make them. You know? 841 00:48:29,880 --> 00:48:34,120 I have like, it's all like giddy and whatever, okay cool. 842 00:48:34,120 --> 00:48:37,160 But like what are the foundational pieces of who this 843 00:48:37,160 --> 00:48:41,580 human being is? And they really will do the 844 00:48:41,580 --> 00:48:44,620 comparison to relationships in particular. 845 00:48:44,620 --> 00:48:48,580 Like, I think that people will look at other people's 846 00:48:48,580 --> 00:48:50,900 relationships. And you know, if you look at 847 00:48:51,780 --> 00:48:56,420 like the comments under like Belly, Belly under, like Bunny 848 00:48:56,420 --> 00:49:01,430 and Jelly's videos, it really is, you know, oh, I wish that I 849 00:49:01,430 --> 00:49:03,430 had that. I wish that I had that. 850 00:49:03,710 --> 00:49:08,390 But it's not about what they've gone through in order to be at 851 00:49:08,390 --> 00:49:10,950 the point that they're at. And everybody wants to have 852 00:49:10,950 --> 00:49:13,950 these like, picture perfect outcomes and they don't want to 853 00:49:13,950 --> 00:49:16,030 put in the work that it takes behind the scenes. 854 00:49:16,030 --> 00:49:19,910 It's not an amazing thing that you're going to just jump into 855 00:49:19,910 --> 00:49:22,110 and have this. I mean, maybe you're like one in 856 00:49:22,110 --> 00:49:25,790 a fucking trillion that just has this relationship that's perfect 857 00:49:25,790 --> 00:49:27,830 with no problems all the way fucking through. 858 00:49:28,110 --> 00:49:32,550 But it takes hard work and it takes putting your energy into 859 00:49:32,550 --> 00:49:37,150 it. And you know, you giving 860 00:49:37,150 --> 00:49:41,630 somebody the advice of books that they should, you know, get 861 00:49:41,630 --> 00:49:45,950 during the reading or a BC&D. Well, what are you guys doing 862 00:49:45,950 --> 00:49:49,550 with that energy? What are you, how are you going 863 00:49:49,550 --> 00:49:53,110 to apply that and make a change? And I texted you about this. 864 00:49:53,110 --> 00:49:56,190 But when my sister was just here, we are in the car. 865 00:49:57,050 --> 00:49:59,770 And it was just crazy how this conversation happened. 866 00:49:59,770 --> 00:50:03,770 So we're in the car. And Samantha Leah, one of her 867 00:50:03,770 --> 00:50:06,810 songs, comes on the radio or comes on my sister's playlist. 868 00:50:07,250 --> 00:50:09,890 And I was like, oh, you listen to Samantha. 869 00:50:09,890 --> 00:50:11,810 And she's like, yeah, I like her. 870 00:50:12,010 --> 00:50:13,330 And I was like, you know, that's my girl. 871 00:50:13,330 --> 00:50:15,370 I had her on the podcast and she's like, what? 872 00:50:15,370 --> 00:50:18,650 I didn't know that I wanted to show you her music while I was 873 00:50:18,650 --> 00:50:19,690 here. And I'm like, yeah, I know. 874 00:50:19,690 --> 00:50:21,690 And I said, that's funny. I'm going to text her right now 875 00:50:21,690 --> 00:50:23,930 and tell her that you're playing her song in the car like, this 876 00:50:23,930 --> 00:50:28,130 is crazy. And then she, my sister goes, 877 00:50:28,130 --> 00:50:30,650 you know, while I'm texting Samantha, she goes, I'm just 878 00:50:30,650 --> 00:50:34,850 like super proud of you because think about three years ago. 879 00:50:34,850 --> 00:50:37,250 She goes, do you remember three years ago, you had just gotten 880 00:50:37,250 --> 00:50:42,130 out of the hospital and I came and I stayed with you, And then 881 00:50:42,130 --> 00:50:46,520 you went into the other room and you had that, like, tarot, 882 00:50:46,520 --> 00:50:48,640 psychic reading or whatever with that girl. 883 00:50:48,880 --> 00:50:51,080 She said you walked out of the room and you said, I know 884 00:50:51,080 --> 00:50:53,520 exactly what I need to do. I'm going to start a podcast. 885 00:50:53,720 --> 00:50:56,320 And I'd never heard you talk about a podcast before or 886 00:50:56,320 --> 00:50:58,240 anything. And she goes and look now. 887 00:50:58,680 --> 00:51:02,880 And she was trying to in her conversation, she was trying to 888 00:51:02,880 --> 00:51:06,440 point out to me, like all the different things and the way 889 00:51:06,440 --> 00:51:09,040 that my life has evolved in the last three years. 890 00:51:09,360 --> 00:51:11,640 And it, like, made me reflect. And then I sat there. 891 00:51:11,640 --> 00:51:13,920 I'm like, do you realize that that person I got the reading 892 00:51:13,920 --> 00:51:16,610 from was Paige? And she's like, what? 893 00:51:16,610 --> 00:51:20,050 Like, I didn't even realize. So my sister didn't even realize 894 00:51:20,050 --> 00:51:24,770 that that reading was from you. And she's congratulating me on 895 00:51:24,810 --> 00:51:29,130 all these individual pieces of things that have happened since 896 00:51:29,130 --> 00:51:31,330 then. Either I've done or you and I 897 00:51:31,330 --> 00:51:37,210 have done together or whatever, and it just is really fucking 898 00:51:37,210 --> 00:51:40,570 crazy to think about. Like I could have gotten that, 899 00:51:40,650 --> 00:51:43,930 that reading from you and I could have been like, no, I 900 00:51:43,930 --> 00:51:47,010 can't actually do any of those things because I'm really sick 901 00:51:47,290 --> 00:51:50,250 and I got this diagnosis and I'm in and out of the hospital. 902 00:51:50,250 --> 00:51:54,880 Like, I can't do that. But instead I was like, OK, you 903 00:51:54,880 --> 00:51:57,400 told me that I need to utilize energy when I have it. 904 00:51:57,400 --> 00:52:01,200 So on days that I felt good, I was interviewing three to four 905 00:52:01,200 --> 00:52:04,440 people a fucking night. Because I was just, I never knew 906 00:52:04,440 --> 00:52:06,560 if anybody was going to say yes again. 907 00:52:06,560 --> 00:52:09,360 I never knew if I was going to be too sick to do it. 908 00:52:09,560 --> 00:52:14,160 And I wanted to have a backlog of episodes to the point that I 909 00:52:14,160 --> 00:52:17,680 still have episodes that haven't been fucking released from the 910 00:52:17,800 --> 00:52:21,560 interviewing people in the very beginning, because I was just so 911 00:52:21,920 --> 00:52:25,520 overwhelmed with the amount of people that I that I talk to. 912 00:52:26,840 --> 00:52:29,600 You know what's crazy about just like one move in the right 913 00:52:29,600 --> 00:52:31,920 direction? It really propels you forward. 914 00:52:31,920 --> 00:52:35,480 Like I love that saying like when people are like one step 915 00:52:35,480 --> 00:52:38,000 ahead and then I take 2 steps back or they use it in a 916 00:52:38,000 --> 00:52:40,600 negative way. But what if you reverse that 917 00:52:40,600 --> 00:52:44,040 ideology and thought like with every step back I take 3 918 00:52:44,040 --> 00:52:47,080 forward. So it always is putting me ahead 919 00:52:47,200 --> 00:52:50,040 rather than thinking about yourself being behind. 920 00:52:50,400 --> 00:52:53,120 And you know, I like to tell people like you're the youngest 921 00:52:53,120 --> 00:52:56,120 and the hottest and like the most, like healthy version of 922 00:52:56,120 --> 00:52:58,520 yourself right now as you're listening to this. 923 00:52:58,760 --> 00:53:00,040 You're the hottest you've ever been. 924 00:53:00,040 --> 00:53:02,240 You're the youngest you've ever been, and you are definitely the 925 00:53:02,240 --> 00:53:05,360 healthiest you've ever been. And whether your mind agrees 926 00:53:05,360 --> 00:53:08,000 with that statement or not is going to be up to you and the 927 00:53:08,000 --> 00:53:11,520 way that you want to portray and project your energy. 928 00:53:11,720 --> 00:53:14,680 But I know one thing I don't associate with sickness, I don't 929 00:53:14,680 --> 00:53:17,960 associate with negativity, and I don't associate with drama and 930 00:53:17,960 --> 00:53:20,240 any of those things that people want. 931 00:53:20,320 --> 00:53:24,200 Want to be in their circle or in their life, That's up to them. 932 00:53:24,200 --> 00:53:27,720 But I just know I don't want that in my world and I only want 933 00:53:27,720 --> 00:53:31,520 clients and people that have a mutual understanding that it 934 00:53:31,520 --> 00:53:34,600 takes 2 to tango. And like you've got to also put 935 00:53:34,600 --> 00:53:38,360 in your part of the work and you can always follow up and get 936 00:53:38,360 --> 00:53:41,840 validation and and do what you need to do to go next level. 937 00:53:42,330 --> 00:53:45,850 But at the same time, if you're not putting in that same amount 938 00:53:45,850 --> 00:53:49,890 of energy, doesn't matter how much money you spend on tarot 939 00:53:49,890 --> 00:53:53,730 cards and crystals and classes and whatever, you're not 940 00:53:53,730 --> 00:53:56,130 applying that energy to your everyday life. 941 00:53:56,450 --> 00:53:59,290 You're thinking that something's going to still come save you. 942 00:53:59,650 --> 00:54:02,490 And like, that's where I think a lot of people latch on to 943 00:54:02,490 --> 00:54:06,170 practitioners, especially you and I, because we're so open 944 00:54:06,170 --> 00:54:09,250 with community style, like learning and teaching. 945 00:54:09,490 --> 00:54:12,250 Because I do think the community aspect is what we've been. 946 00:54:12,330 --> 00:54:16,090 Involved of as humans because you know, it does take a village 947 00:54:16,090 --> 00:54:18,890 to really operate a successful anything. 948 00:54:19,330 --> 00:54:23,290 And unfortunately, people are so isolated and so selfcentered, 949 00:54:23,290 --> 00:54:27,330 it's hard for them to understand that everyone has their role and 950 00:54:27,330 --> 00:54:31,770 everyone has a sacred gift or multiple gifts, but that doesn't 951 00:54:31,770 --> 00:54:34,050 still take away from what you bring to the table. 952 00:54:35,570 --> 00:54:39,370 That's a that's a really big one and I think that people can. 953 00:54:41,780 --> 00:54:45,500 The reason that I have like, taken on that, like cult leader, 954 00:54:45,700 --> 00:54:48,980 I say in quotation marks for those that are not on Patreon, 955 00:54:50,020 --> 00:54:52,780 The cult leader thing is because I just think that it's so 956 00:54:52,780 --> 00:54:56,770 ridiculous. Because inside like my soul and 957 00:54:56,770 --> 00:55:00,450 inside your soul, neither one of us feels like, wow, I'm really 958 00:55:00,450 --> 00:55:03,250 above you teaching you all the things and like, I'm way better 959 00:55:03,250 --> 00:55:04,930 than you are. And here you are, a little 960 00:55:04,930 --> 00:55:08,970 grasshopper, having to learn the things like our that's what 961 00:55:09,010 --> 00:55:11,970 other people project on to us thinking that our thought 962 00:55:11,970 --> 00:55:16,510 process is. And for us, we are literally 963 00:55:16,510 --> 00:55:22,030 just always so grateful that we are able to be in a position to 964 00:55:22,350 --> 00:55:25,990 have other people trust us, to give guidance, to give messages 965 00:55:25,990 --> 00:55:31,310 that like, you know, that we're able to be gifted to help other 966 00:55:31,310 --> 00:55:36,070 people in the ways that we do. And our actual goal in things is 967 00:55:36,150 --> 00:55:39,550 always like, oh, you like the energy that I'm exuding. 968 00:55:40,180 --> 00:55:45,660 This is literally a mentorship for how I learn how to do what 969 00:55:45,660 --> 00:55:47,900 I'm doing. And if that's the vibrational 970 00:55:47,900 --> 00:55:52,020 level that like, you're loving, here are the tools that I'm 971 00:55:52,020 --> 00:55:54,420 using to do that and what you can do. 972 00:55:54,740 --> 00:55:57,900 And so like, if those tools don't work for you and you don't 973 00:55:57,900 --> 00:56:04,420 like the thought processes or the work and the energy that has 974 00:56:04,420 --> 00:56:09,040 to go in for where we're at on our journeys, then we're just 975 00:56:09,040 --> 00:56:12,440 not the people for you. And it never has to be a 976 00:56:12,720 --> 00:56:16,200 competition thing. Also, you don't ever have to 977 00:56:17,080 --> 00:56:21,280 even have like a falling out. If it just doesn't suit you, it 978 00:56:21,280 --> 00:56:25,800 just doesn't suit you. And and the mature thing to do 979 00:56:25,800 --> 00:56:29,800 in life is somebody's energy just doesn't. 980 00:56:29,920 --> 00:56:32,080 It's just not what you expected it to be. 981 00:56:32,080 --> 00:56:35,520 Maybe you see behind the veil and you're like, wow, I really 982 00:56:35,560 --> 00:56:38,200 thought that they were spiritual fucking Asheville traveling 983 00:56:38,200 --> 00:56:40,560 robots. And they're actually humans. 984 00:56:40,880 --> 00:56:43,840 And like, I was expecting something different. 985 00:56:44,040 --> 00:56:47,920 You can easily just like say something nice and move on with 986 00:56:47,920 --> 00:56:49,720 your life and never have a falling out. 987 00:56:49,720 --> 00:56:54,520 But I think that people are not able to close connections 988 00:56:54,880 --> 00:56:58,640 without having something catastrophic and burning the 989 00:56:58,720 --> 00:57:00,840 fucking bridge in order to move forward. 990 00:57:00,880 --> 00:57:04,280 And I used to do that. It's like it's a very self 991 00:57:04,280 --> 00:57:08,920 sabotaged thing where then you get to do the victim mentality 992 00:57:08,920 --> 00:57:12,760 of I'm always by myself, nobody. I can never take anybody 993 00:57:12,760 --> 00:57:15,560 seriously. I don't grow because everybody 994 00:57:15,560 --> 00:57:18,360 that I'm meeting is doing a BC&D well. 995 00:57:18,360 --> 00:57:23,240 If everybody around you is doing this, maybe you're the problem. 996 00:57:24,810 --> 00:57:28,250 Honestly, I think that's important in self reflection is 997 00:57:28,250 --> 00:57:32,450 to see how you activate and perpetuate certain cycles and 998 00:57:32,450 --> 00:57:35,570 allow them to be present. Because a lot of people want to 999 00:57:35,570 --> 00:57:38,130 be right. And what I've learned, I don't 1000 00:57:38,130 --> 00:57:40,890 need closure anymore. Like I used to think I needed 1001 00:57:40,890 --> 00:57:44,970 like closure or needed like to know why someone did something 1002 00:57:44,970 --> 00:57:47,650 or why something happened the way that it did, or I needed to 1003 00:57:47,650 --> 00:57:50,250 put my last two cents in the jar. 1004 00:57:50,810 --> 00:57:55,290 But instead, now, like, I think not getting closure helps me to 1005 00:57:55,290 --> 00:58:00,330 just detach even more easily. Like to detach from certain 1006 00:58:00,330 --> 00:58:06,050 situations when people expect it to distract you or get you 1007 00:58:06,050 --> 00:58:09,370 worked up or upset you. It's so powerful. 1008 00:58:09,370 --> 00:58:13,010 I think honestly, like the sweetest revenge is success and 1009 00:58:13,010 --> 00:58:15,650 forgiveness. Like not letting things. 1010 00:58:16,280 --> 00:58:19,000 Change your spirit. Not letting things harden your 1011 00:58:19,000 --> 00:58:23,400 heart and like, make you angry and bitter or make you like, you 1012 00:58:23,400 --> 00:58:27,600 know, get your heart broken so you think all bad people or or 1013 00:58:27,600 --> 00:58:29,280 everyone's bad or you know what I mean? 1014 00:58:29,280 --> 00:58:32,360 Like, I think a lot of people allow things to turn them bitter 1015 00:58:32,360 --> 00:58:35,920 when it's just one occurrence with one person or maybe 1016 00:58:35,920 --> 00:58:39,360 multiple people or whatever. But it's like, that doesn't have 1017 00:58:39,360 --> 00:58:41,760 to be a reality if you don't want it to be. 1018 00:58:43,200 --> 00:58:47,480 I used to feel, and even months, you know, up to the beginning of 1019 00:58:47,480 --> 00:58:50,120 the year when we had that whole thing happened with our 1020 00:58:50,120 --> 00:58:55,080 communities. I felt like I had to let people 1021 00:58:55,080 --> 00:59:00,000 know, even if they mistreated me and they fucked me over, that 1022 00:59:00,000 --> 00:59:04,560 like your viewpoint is valid, even if that's not my 1023 00:59:04,560 --> 00:59:07,400 perception. And for some reason, I used to 1024 00:59:07,560 --> 00:59:13,040 feel like I had to give people that permission that like their 1025 00:59:13,040 --> 00:59:16,400 perspective can be right, even if it's wrong. 1026 00:59:16,760 --> 00:59:25,200 And I started realizing that it's just my way of trying to 1027 00:59:25,240 --> 00:59:28,240 make it okay, that someone's upset with me for something that 1028 00:59:28,240 --> 00:59:32,360 I didn't fucking do. And I just had to have the last 1029 00:59:32,360 --> 00:59:35,840 word, even though it was absolute utter bullshit. 1030 00:59:35,840 --> 00:59:40,800 Like you and I both know that you done fucked up and that you 1031 00:59:40,800 --> 00:59:45,400 were being a fucking snake, but for my closure and like, my 1032 00:59:45,400 --> 00:59:49,800 selfish whatever, I had to tell you it's okay. 1033 00:59:49,960 --> 00:59:55,470 And then to me what that does is it actually prevents somebody 1034 00:59:55,470 --> 00:59:58,310 from having their own healing journey and having to take self 1035 00:59:58,310 --> 01:00:01,350 accountability. Because now I've justified their 1036 01:00:01,350 --> 01:00:05,550 actions by telling them that like that it it could be okay in 1037 01:00:05,590 --> 01:00:11,230 in your perspective like you know and although we all are 1038 01:00:11,230 --> 01:00:14,710 going to see truth from our own perspective is like everybody 1039 01:00:14,710 --> 01:00:16,950 has their different versions of things and their different 1040 01:00:16,950 --> 01:00:20,120 perspectives. Just because somebody's 1041 01:00:20,120 --> 01:00:24,400 perspective from their viewpoint can be right doesn't mean that 1042 01:00:24,400 --> 01:00:27,480 their actions or the way that they went about it is the 1043 01:00:27,480 --> 01:00:30,600 correct way. It just means that maybe they're 1044 01:00:30,600 --> 01:00:33,720 not far enough on their healing journey, but they're able to 1045 01:00:33,760 --> 01:00:38,320 self reflect and the necessary ways for these situations. 1046 01:00:39,880 --> 01:00:43,480 I think at the end of the day, a lot of people don't realize that 1047 01:00:43,520 --> 01:00:46,120 you're not going to be able to show up and understand 1048 01:00:46,120 --> 01:00:49,350 situations. If you're not ready to face the 1049 01:00:49,350 --> 01:00:53,110 music, like if you're not really ready to see the truth, you're 1050 01:00:53,110 --> 01:00:57,230 not going to see it. It's like I have just really 1051 01:00:57,270 --> 01:01:00,710 learned the grace of just letting people stay in whatever 1052 01:01:00,710 --> 01:01:04,630 delusional world or whatever illusion that they're in, rather 1053 01:01:04,630 --> 01:01:09,150 than trying to prove my innocence or prove my character 1054 01:01:09,150 --> 01:01:12,470 or prove my intentions. I'm just like, Okay. 1055 01:01:13,360 --> 01:01:15,240 Now I think that disrupts people's peace more. 1056 01:01:15,240 --> 01:01:17,880 When you're just like okay, this is, that's fine. 1057 01:01:17,880 --> 01:01:21,040 Like, no problem. Talk later, not going to hear 1058 01:01:21,040 --> 01:01:22,200 it. I'm blocking you. 1059 01:01:22,200 --> 01:01:24,680 I'm unfollowing you. Like that's so triggering. 1060 01:01:24,680 --> 01:01:28,120 To people who like the confrontation, they like the 1061 01:01:28,120 --> 01:01:33,240 drama and they like having the last word or, you know, 1062 01:01:33,480 --> 01:01:36,480 disrupting your peace. They thrive in that type of 1063 01:01:36,480 --> 01:01:38,400 environment. And that's what's weird to me. 1064 01:01:39,760 --> 01:01:44,410 I refuse to have drama and bullshit with people. 1065 01:01:44,410 --> 01:01:49,490 I've talked before like I'm not. I'm not going to put people's 1066 01:01:49,490 --> 01:01:53,170 names on social media. I'm not going to have responses 1067 01:01:53,170 --> 01:01:58,170 to things like I'm not going to text you back a big, long list 1068 01:01:58,170 --> 01:02:01,970 of what a piece of shit you are because you're having this. 1069 01:02:01,970 --> 01:02:06,170 Like whatever response to things that you are, I will. 1070 01:02:07,070 --> 01:02:11,030 More often than not, I'm going to take what you've said and 1071 01:02:11,030 --> 01:02:14,270 Mull it over and get outside perspective too, so that I can 1072 01:02:14,270 --> 01:02:16,630 understand where my learning needs to happen from the 1073 01:02:16,630 --> 01:02:18,910 situation. But I don't like the way that 1074 01:02:18,910 --> 01:02:22,380 you handled it. I'm not going to move on with 1075 01:02:22,380 --> 01:02:24,500 you. I won't have you in my circle. 1076 01:02:24,500 --> 01:02:28,300 There's absolutely no reason for me to have any kind of closing 1077 01:02:28,300 --> 01:02:31,380 conversation with you. I can hear what your perspective 1078 01:02:31,380 --> 01:02:33,740 is. I can figure out how I'm going 1079 01:02:33,740 --> 01:02:36,860 to grow and navigate forward, whether that means that I need 1080 01:02:36,860 --> 01:02:39,460 to take, you know, accountability for something. 1081 01:02:39,900 --> 01:02:41,340 And that's the fucking other thing. 1082 01:02:42,470 --> 01:02:46,030 Somebody if you decide to take self accountability in something 1083 01:02:46,030 --> 01:02:49,350 and you decide that you want to make a change for future, you 1084 01:02:49,350 --> 01:02:52,990 know, relationships, friendships, whatever, you don't 1085 01:02:53,230 --> 01:02:57,470 owe telling that person how you're going to change or what 1086 01:02:57,470 --> 01:02:59,830 you're going to take from it, or how you're going to move 1087 01:02:59,830 --> 01:03:02,710 differently next time. Like they're not owed an 1088 01:03:02,710 --> 01:03:06,350 explanation for anything. For as far as they know you took 1089 01:03:06,350 --> 01:03:11,030 their shitty fucking messages and you, none of it went to your 1090 01:03:11,030 --> 01:03:12,350 head and you forgot all about it. 1091 01:03:12,590 --> 01:03:15,030 It doesn't matter what you do with the information from their 1092 01:03:15,030 --> 01:03:17,710 conversation because you're never going to move forward with 1093 01:03:17,710 --> 01:03:22,310 that person anyways. And a lot of people will sit 1094 01:03:22,310 --> 01:03:25,870 there and and they'll try and like, you know, pick a dead 1095 01:03:25,870 --> 01:03:30,110 horse or whatever and try and just keep on going over the same 1096 01:03:30,110 --> 01:03:33,590 fucking thing so that they can explain like this is what I'm 1097 01:03:33,590 --> 01:03:35,670 going to get out of it and this is what I'm going to do. 1098 01:03:35,670 --> 01:03:40,420 Or no, you're completely wrong and that's playing it to me from 1099 01:03:40,420 --> 01:03:43,380 an outside perspective of ICU going back and forth with the 1100 01:03:43,380 --> 01:03:46,260 tit for tat thing. You fucking like the dramatic 1101 01:03:46,260 --> 01:03:48,100 energy. You want to be involved in it. 1102 01:03:48,100 --> 01:03:51,220 You like that your stomach hurts and you have diarrhea because 1103 01:03:51,220 --> 01:03:54,640 you can't stop fucking getting over the bullshit because and 1104 01:03:54,640 --> 01:03:56,320 you laugh because you know it's true. 1105 01:03:56,320 --> 01:03:59,200 People sit there with an upset stomach getting fucking sick 1106 01:03:59,200 --> 01:04:02,080 over conversations, but they'll keep having the fucking 1107 01:04:02,080 --> 01:04:05,240 conversations and making themselves sick like you're 1108 01:04:05,240 --> 01:04:08,720 manifesting your own fucking frustrated reality because you 1109 01:04:08,720 --> 01:04:11,760 won't move on. Well, a lot of people can't let 1110 01:04:11,760 --> 01:04:14,440 it go, you know what I mean? Like, just let it die, let it be 1111 01:04:14,480 --> 01:04:17,720 put to rest, let it move on. But like, quit holding on and 1112 01:04:17,720 --> 01:04:21,960 resentment and anger and like harboring negativity towards 1113 01:04:21,960 --> 01:04:25,490 people because. At the end of the day, that's 1114 01:04:25,490 --> 01:04:28,490 only hurting you. That's only going to hurt you in 1115 01:04:28,490 --> 01:04:31,130 the long run. And I think that if anyone can 1116 01:04:31,130 --> 01:04:34,410 take anything from this episode is like stop. 1117 01:04:34,810 --> 01:04:36,890 Letting other people control your reality. 1118 01:04:36,890 --> 01:04:39,730 Stop letting other people's energy and intentions towards 1119 01:04:39,730 --> 01:04:41,770 you. Shape who you are. 1120 01:04:42,010 --> 01:04:46,450 Decide who you are, learn about who you are, and know that 1121 01:04:46,490 --> 01:04:50,130 energy Regardless of who's around you, regardless of what 1122 01:04:50,210 --> 01:04:54,250 you're going through personally, regardless of what is going on 1123 01:04:54,250 --> 01:04:58,090 in your external world, if you have an unwavering belief and 1124 01:04:58,090 --> 01:05:00,810 understanding of yourself, you will not be. 1125 01:05:01,940 --> 01:05:03,740 You'll not be harmed in this process. 1126 01:05:03,740 --> 01:05:05,900 You will be elevating. You'll be growing. 1127 01:05:05,900 --> 01:05:10,620 You will be really understanding each dynamic as it comes, rather 1128 01:05:10,620 --> 01:05:14,380 than living in the lens of limiting belief or letting the 1129 01:05:14,380 --> 01:05:18,700 past dictate your future. So I think, you know, just 1130 01:05:18,700 --> 01:05:21,660 really getting clear on who you are and what you want is like 1131 01:05:21,660 --> 01:05:25,580 the first step to breaking free of all of those paradigms that 1132 01:05:25,580 --> 01:05:31,390 hold you hostage. I think a take away that I would 1133 01:05:31,390 --> 01:05:37,230 want people to have from the Episode 2 is no matter how you 1134 01:05:37,230 --> 01:05:41,190 verbalize to people how they're wrong and how they ain't shit 1135 01:05:41,190 --> 01:05:45,070 and how they done fucked up, they're not then going to be, Oh 1136 01:05:45,110 --> 01:05:49,200 my God, you're right. I shouldn't have done that luck. 1137 01:05:49,200 --> 01:05:52,040 I needed you to point it out to me in this very cunty, long 1138 01:05:52,040 --> 01:05:54,520 drawn out message. They're not, they're not going 1139 01:05:54,520 --> 01:05:56,320 to fucking take what you're saying to heart. 1140 01:05:56,320 --> 01:05:59,320 So don't waste your fucking energy and on that let's pull a 1141 01:05:59,320 --> 01:06:07,600 human design card. Also, if you ever send me a long 1142 01:06:07,600 --> 01:06:10,920 drawn out bullshit message, I'm just screenshotting it. 1143 01:06:10,920 --> 01:06:13,760 I'm sending it to Page, I'm blocking you, I'm going to talk 1144 01:06:13,760 --> 01:06:16,520 shit about you and then I will never think about it again and 1145 01:06:16,520 --> 01:06:18,200 that will be my healing process. Thank you. 1146 01:06:20,200 --> 01:06:22,480 That's not that we're all and up and up. 1147 01:06:22,480 --> 01:06:25,400 I I won't respond to you. I will simply block you, talk 1148 01:06:25,400 --> 01:06:30,120 shit about you and then and then yield and move up. 1149 01:06:32,440 --> 01:06:34,840 Okay. That's mostly a joke. 1150 01:06:35,520 --> 01:06:37,960 Mostly it just depends on the circumstances. 1151 01:06:40,120 --> 01:06:42,880 I think we've already gotten this one before, but must be 1152 01:06:42,880 --> 01:06:46,120 fitting. Card 37 for the Chamber of 1153 01:06:46,120 --> 01:06:49,520 Pearl. It's the ocean beating up 1154 01:06:49,520 --> 01:06:56,360 against some rocks. The sinus Pisces. 1155 01:06:57,280 --> 01:07:00,880 The gift is new vision and the Shadow is division. 1156 01:07:02,120 --> 01:07:05,520 To honor the gift, we must first acknowledge our ever present 1157 01:07:05,560 --> 01:07:08,400 equality. We are a global family built 1158 01:07:08,400 --> 01:07:11,600 from the same cloth. When we forsake our inherent 1159 01:07:11,600 --> 01:07:15,320 oneness, we rely entirely on the false narratives of the physical 1160 01:07:15,320 --> 01:07:19,520 world, division, deconstruction, power, and control. 1161 01:07:20,160 --> 01:07:23,920 Accessing the gift means taking back your power and your ability 1162 01:07:23,920 --> 01:07:28,480 to see beyond these limitations. It's an act of courage, as many 1163 01:07:28,480 --> 01:07:31,240 people will be forever hypnotized by the allure of 1164 01:07:31,240 --> 01:07:34,680 power. Detangling fact from fiction is 1165 01:07:34,680 --> 01:07:38,280 a lifelong endeavor. Finding balance within the 1166 01:07:38,280 --> 01:07:42,240 polarity doesn't mean burying your head in the sand, but it 1167 01:07:42,240 --> 01:07:45,240 allows you to see the world stage through a new lens. 1168 01:07:45,640 --> 01:07:49,120 Become conscious to your own innate sovereignty, and follow 1169 01:07:49,120 --> 01:07:53,160 your heart's direction. Salvage the Pearl and then your 1170 01:07:53,160 --> 01:07:57,160 shadow is division. This lower frequency state is 1171 01:07:57,160 --> 01:08:01,560 characterized by outdated power structures and balances and worn 1172 01:08:01,560 --> 01:08:06,160 archetypes of the Old World. When we're unable to see outside 1173 01:08:06,720 --> 01:08:11,120 of our duality, we tend to favor one side, right or wrong, 1174 01:08:11,400 --> 01:08:15,920 masculine over feminine, power over apparent weakness. 1175 01:08:16,080 --> 01:08:20,279 The narrative runs deep. As a collective, we've often 1176 01:08:20,279 --> 01:08:25,560 championed masculine models, equating force, hegemony, and 1177 01:08:25,560 --> 01:08:27,560 the quest for power with greatness. 1178 01:08:27,880 --> 01:08:32,350 The pendulum must now excuse me. The pendulum must not swing too 1179 01:08:32,350 --> 01:08:36,109 far in the opposite direction in order to repair division. 1180 01:08:36,510 --> 01:08:40,229 Instead, we must call upon a union of both feminine and 1181 01:08:40,229 --> 01:08:44,790 masculine energies, reconciling the collision within and moving 1182 01:08:44,790 --> 01:08:49,109 beyond hierarchy, the perpetuation of war, conflict 1183 01:08:49,109 --> 01:08:51,870 and separation within this global arena. 1184 01:08:52,270 --> 01:09:00,040 Highlights are reticent to abandon masculine driven modes 1185 01:09:00,120 --> 01:09:02,600 of survival that no longer serve the collective. 1186 01:09:03,160 --> 01:09:07,200 The first step is to heal this wound within us and witness our 1187 01:09:07,200 --> 01:09:10,720 own contribution to the continuation of these obsolete 1188 01:09:10,720 --> 01:09:14,120 systems. Exit the fun House of mirrors. 1189 01:09:14,399 --> 01:09:17,880 The themes are duality, peace, healing, and innate power. 1190 01:09:18,680 --> 01:09:21,680 The piece that I love the most is Exit the Fun House of 1191 01:09:21,680 --> 01:09:23,720 Mirrors. Because anytime some goofy 1192 01:09:23,720 --> 01:09:29,250 fucking shit pops off, I send page clown faces, circus tents, 1193 01:09:30,250 --> 01:09:33,050 the ticket emoji to the fucking circus. 1194 01:09:33,850 --> 01:09:40,130 I send voice notes like if it's a fucking circus freak show, I 1195 01:09:40,130 --> 01:09:45,090 absolutely we talk about it. So that just is perfection for 1196 01:09:45,090 --> 01:09:49,990 ending this. I think as we uncode these 1197 01:09:49,990 --> 01:09:53,029 illusions, there's just so much more to be revealed. 1198 01:09:53,069 --> 01:09:56,190 And being grounded and knowing yourself will help you weather 1199 01:09:56,190 --> 01:09:59,430 the storm, but it's not going to stop or prevent the storm. 1200 01:09:59,430 --> 01:10:01,910 It's not going to stop or prevent the nonsense. 1201 01:10:02,230 --> 01:10:05,430 Doesn't matter how good of a person you are, it does not 1202 01:10:05,430 --> 01:10:10,550 hinder you or hold you. You know, like. 1203 01:10:10,960 --> 01:10:13,760 You're going to have to be held accountable, like no matter if 1204 01:10:13,760 --> 01:10:15,640 you want to be or not at the end of the day. 1205 01:10:15,920 --> 01:10:18,960 So I'm just grateful for everyone who does the work and 1206 01:10:18,960 --> 01:10:22,280 that really does appreciate the process because the process is 1207 01:10:22,280 --> 01:10:26,400 beautiful. Whether it's beautiful or not, 1208 01:10:26,480 --> 01:10:30,520 it's beautiful. Yeah. 1209 01:10:30,840 --> 01:10:32,400 I agree with everything that you just said. 1210 01:10:32,400 --> 01:10:34,760 Over and out, captain. Love you. 1211 01:10:34,800 --> 01:10:36,480 Bye. Love you. 1212 01:10:36,480 --> 01:10:36,600 Bye.