Trigger Trigger Trigger warning. This week's episode is going to
center heavily around the recent P Diddy allegations, sexual and
physical violence, drug use, suicide, and blackmail.
As always, we promote pursuing mental health, so if these
topics are harmful or triggering, viewer and listener
discretion is strongly. Advised.
She says she's so sweet. Megan want a little wrapper me
like a lollipop lollipop lollipop lollipop lollipop
lollipop lollipop lollipop. Welcome back to fucking
Candyland, you guys. She was ready for it.
I tried to impersonate you in there because every time that
you give the fuck, you give the fuck and I just I wanted to try
it. You know what, it feels good.
It feels good to express yourself and to feel yourself.
And you know, sometimes we got to do that.
Oh, and as she said that, she was feeling herself.
She grabbed her chest. Just now.
Yeah. Oh hey you guys, if you're not
on Patreon watching this, you didn't just see the city squeeze
that we got. You know, this is great, but
every month you all we do a full moon circle.
And when we do this full moon circle, it is just our
communities coming together and different people from both of
our spaces showing up and showing out.
And last night there was about 20 people there.
And so we were talking about how in Gemini's chats there's
titties out like all the time. Like if you open up her like
community chats, there's boobies.
And everyone was very intrigued. I.
Was laughing because your friend Steven commented and said I'm in
the wrong community space so I was over here cracking the fuck
up. No that is our full moon circle
that we just did last night. So when you guys are going to be
listening to this, it'll be this past full moon that we had on.
I think it's the 18th that we did it and it's this like
eclipse full moon, and the energy's been fucking crazy.
But Paige gave this really beautiful reading and then I did
a meditation and the energy was just so beautiful.
We had new people who upgraded on both of our Patreons just to
be able to attend that with us and to be able to bring their
energy in. And we're constantly just like
right now, we have so many new people coming into both of our
community spaces. I know Paige just added somebody
new to our spell working tier and I just was able to bring
somebody new in as well. And just the fact that we have
like such, we have people on both of ours who have been with
us for years who have just been like in here giving their energy
and love for years. But then we have new people
coming in and bring that like freshness and new energy and
like vibrancy to learn. And it's just, I don't know,
it's just really beautiful. Yeah.
And what I love about it is that like we consistently come
together and every time do something different, like, and
it just feels like it keeps expanding and it keeps growing.
And there's just so much that you can't really predict will
happen in your life if you're not taking risk or taking
chances because a lot of these people were reluctant to, like,
make Internet friends or even show, you know, their face on a
video or be in a community space at all.
Like, you know, a lot of us don't have people that are new
coming into our life. It's a lot of people we've
already known, which keeps us in those cycles that we already
know. And some people we already know
are great people, and they're amazing, and everyone, you know
needs to meet them. But then some people in our life
suck. Suck big old nasty stinky ass
Dicks. Yep, you know what I'm talking
about too. You ever tried to go and suck a
Dick and you're just like, where the fuck has this thing been?
It smells like cheese. I'm telling you right now, don't
have the cheesy Dick of life. Oh my God.
Anyway, Speaking of that, let's talk about Beetlejuice.
Yes. So I was seeing a lot of
negative energy about the movie, but I personally thought it was
really. Good.
OK, I've got opinions on it. First, I want to tell you my
child's opinion because I think his opinion counts here, so I
bought the tickets. Our movie theater has reclining
seats, so we bring blankets. It has a seat warmer.
It's a lovely experience for me. So I buy tickets for my husband,
me and the kids. Your nails are Beetlejuice
inspired and they're adorable. And I let that I went in there
knowing like these kids are going to have the time of their
fucking lives. I let them get whatever snacks
they wanted to, whatever candy they wanted to, whatever drink
they felt that they needed to have.
My daughter went with an Icy. My son was like, I'm going to
have a sugar free Coke because he has a 0 soda policy.
Like, we just don't do soda and shit.
So we sit down with our snacks. We're all excited.
I shit you not, we barely get through the opening credits.
My son looks over at me and goes, why would you buy tickets
to this? This is terrifying.
And then the first scene is Danny DeVito and the lady.
Like, first of all, when the lady was coming out-of-the-box
and putting herself together, I thought it was going to be like
an ode to the Nightmare Before Christmas thing, which I don't
think that it was. And what's that?
I don't like Nightmare Before Christmas so I can't remember
her character's name for. Christmas blanket but I'm not
super fan but I like this blanket.
Oh Sally, her name is Sally. It was not Sally.
But during the movie he was freaked the fuck out.
And then that night he could not go to sleep and he comes
downstairs and he goes, well, I can't go to sleep because who
thought it was a good idea to take an 8 year old to go watch
that terrifying movie? Don't ever do that to me again.
I would never watch something like that ever again.
And I was like, OK, so he has not discussed the movie since
He's not talked about it. He hasn't made reference to it.
You won't, you won't discuss. So that was his opinion.
I thought it was wonderful. I just thought that they should
have I, I wish that they would have dove into storylines a
little bit more and taken a little bit more time.
Like I would have liked to see that Beetlejuice and what's her
name, Dolores. I'd have loved to see a little
bit more about that story and about them, like finding each
other now and figuring that out as opposed to like, they're
completely separate the whole film.
And then she shows up at the end and we kill her off.
I think that they were grasping for straws while all of the
writers were on strike. And I think that they've been
trying to revamp and recreate. Like I didn't know that there's
going to be a live action Snow White coming out this fall.
There is AI saw another preview for something We were at the
movies and it is a live action of Wicked and actually fuck with
that. So anyways, I feel like they've
ran out of ideas. Note to self, don't pay your
writers shit and gross profit billions and then tell them you
can't give them whatever. So I don't know I think they're
just revamping stuff and some of it's good.
I like Beetlejuice. I think it was really cool to
really see the sand worm in action and to see the things
like more than they had back when their original Beetlejuice
was made. I think that he got a lot more
screen time in this movie then he got in the the first movie.
In the 1st movie Beetlejuice is barely screen time.
Like you know what I mean? Like he is but not really if you
think about it like he's in like 1/4 of the movie I feel like,
but the movies about him and it's weird.
So like I personally prefer how in the second one we got to know
more about him and more about like, you know what he does and
like the place he is because it's not like he's in hell.
He's just dead. And then they're like had all
those different signs. And I liked how it was like the
great beyond or it said, you know, burning gates or pearly
gates or whatever, you know, it just had different things.
I thought that was cool. I thought the Soul Train was
hilarious. Yeah, that the train that was
going to different directions, Yeah, it had all the arrows.
No, the Soul Train. And then it goes down and then
everybody's like dancing and grooving.
And I thought that. I just thought that was funny.
I thought it was cute. I honestly liked it a lot.
I saw a lot of just people talking shit, but I personally
preferred how they did it. I thought it was good.
I liked how they added, you know, the IT girl Wednesday over
there. That's like the IT girl, I feel
like in spooky stuff right now. So they like they got the IT
girl. They did the thing.
I think it worked and it's made a lot of money and I've been
happy about the merch, like all of the merch.
I've bought a few different things like the OG shirt and the
blanket and you know, I like the stripes with the green and the
purple. It's my colors and my nails.
I had to, you know, do the things.
I what I really liked is I think that Michael Keaton just does
such a beautiful job at Beetlejuice and to be able to go
back this many years later and put yourself into that exact
same character, like, yeah, that does take a lot of skill.
To be able to keep up with a fake personality and be able to,
again, you, like you said, got more screen time.
To be able to extend that character out and not just be
little glimpses of it, but be able to hold that character for
long extended, long extended scenes.
I think that's really fucking cool.
Yeah, I truly think that they did a great job.
I think they and I didn't realize that the dad, the reason
they cut him out is because he's a pedophile.
I didn't even know that. Oh shit, they said you're dead.
Yeah. I wondered if he was dead.
He's a pedophile. Yeah, actually, I didn't look it
up, but I saw us, Yeah. He probably pee diddles people.
I don't know, man, I think it's really fucked up how much has
been exposed since that Katt Williams interview.
I feel like ever since he went wild, he like summoned the truth
serum and like a lot of things. Like he was like, yeah, y'all
think I'm crazy. I'm a sip on this whiskey,
you're going to suck my Dick and I'm going to tell you what's up,
you know? And then he's like, he went off
and like everyone was talking about it.
And then now almost everything that he's talked about,
different ways of things being exposed and people are going to
get what they have come in. It's like he has magical
foresight. And I admire that.
I admire that. I admire that too.
What I find to be it's almost frustrating because like, OK so
for instance, I believe her. Her name is Audrey O'Day if I'm
not mistaken. And I mean Bunny just released
her episode with her. Shout out to the fucking
marketing genius queen she is for releasing it while the P
Diddy stuff is going on because she's had this interview since
she had the new studio. But this woman has been talking
for fucking years. For years and years and years
talking about things that she experienced because of P Diddy
and ways that he was treating people and traumas that she had
experienced in ways that she was being presented inside of
Hollywood and whatever because of him.
And nobody would listen to her and everybody has blacklisted
her, would not work with her, believed that she was some like
scandalous person and that she was, you know, like sleeping
around and doing all of these things.
And for people now to only be willing to it, it's like it
takes other men and pointing out that something incorrectly and
for it to be publicized in order for people to listen to the
women who have had accusations and had things to say the entire
time. And it almost is like this dual
feeling because you're like, yeah, I'm so fucking excited
that like, you're getting the justice.
And like, I'm so excited that Katt Williams said something and
now all these things are, you know, transpiring.
But I'm also like, feel awful for these women who have had
their entire lives destroyed while they've been trying to say
these things and nobody would listen.
Yeah. And, you know, honestly, I don't
even think Katt Williams did that for any career or parallel
move for himself. I feel like he actually risked a
lot, like he risked being blackballed or being, you know,
even blackmailed, if you know. But, you know, you don't have
any skeletons in the closet if you're willing to come out and
do that in Hollywood, because a lot of people are not willing to
do that, like Jay-Z and Beyoncé and people that have all these
skeletons, even Polly fucking Taylor Swift, they're not trying
to come out and tell nobody nothing.
And you know, what crossed my mind is what did P Diddy do to
MGK? Not even like that.
I'm saying that in a mean way, but I'm saying that in a serious
way because like that's who started his career.
Like what did he have to do to? And why is why does he look as
empty as he does sometimes? Because when you look at him, it
feels like sometimes like the light comes on and then
sometimes it goes back off for for MGK.
And I've always admired him. I've always like loved his music
and thought he was a great person as like a human.
He always gave back to his fans. Always like meet me in the
parking lot or whatever. It was always down to earth.
But I can just tell that like, you know, you can see when
Hollywood is sucking the life out of people and you can just
see that Hollywood has sucked a lot of life out of him.
And luckily I think he's redeeming himself.
I think he's finding himself. I think he's on a spiritual
journey just like everyone else. But you know, sometimes you got
to ask yourself, like, what what did I have to do to get where I
am? And what kind of shame and guilt
do I feel because of that, right.
And that's why I always like try to just do everything like above
board in my way. Like it may not be right or
like, like you had told me before, it may not be what my
ancestors or other people want for me, but like it's what I
want for me and like being able to do that.
But I just feel like P Diddy being in the power position.
What I mean, like, what do you do to Justin Bieber?
There's that weird little 48 hours with Diddy video or
whatever. So, you know, it's all weird.
And I feel really bad because a lot of men are manipulated and
then forced to stay silent in fear of like losing their
manhood or in fear of losing their dignity or their public
persona or you know what I mean, or whatever.
And so a lot of people will stay silent through that.
And I think a lot of these people, he's got blackmail on
and they're going to stay silent, period.
I wonder that about the, I was actually just talking about the
gesture, the gesture, the Justin Bieber of it all today, because
you know, he's, he's come out and he's talked about how severe
his anxiety is over the last few years, like debilitating, like
people making fun of him at concerts and taking videos of
him at concerts and saying like, oh, he's like deathly ill or
whatever. And he's like, I have extreme
anxiety. And then you have all of these
people who have been in the surrounding circle of them being
like he was assaulted when he was a kid.
He had these experiences, like these things happen.
And it's like, you know, you want somebody to share their
story for themselves instead of people speaking for them.
And you want to hold that space for people to be able to speak
their truth and to be able to say things, but they also don't
owe anybody those things. And so it's like, do you?
Do you, you know, support and like, almost like congratulate
these people who are comfortable enough to come out and like,
spill the truths and tell all of the things, even though maybe
it's at the detriment for other people?
Like, who knows what the side effects are of, you know,
victims being pulled out into things that they don't want to
be a part of while they're trying to heal and they're
trying to go through their own traumas.
Like maybe Justin doesn't want people talking about it if in
fact it did happen. Like maybe that causes so much
anxiety and having, you know, he has a baby coming.
Like maybe this all triggers things for him and and really
effects him, you know? The baby is here.
Oh, the baby is here. Yeah, I didn't realize that
Haley Beaver is Alec Baldwin's daughter.
I didn't realize that actually at all.
She's kind of like irrelevant to me until.
No, she's Steve Baldwin's daughter, Alec Baldwin.
Alec Baldwin is her uncle. Steve Baldwin is her dad.
OK, well, either way, all together, crazy, These people
are crazy. But I do believe that everything
that needs to be revealed will be revealed.
And I think that everything that it's in the darkness will come
to light. And I do think that people
should give others space to express or not express
themselves about whatever, because the Internet is a wild
place. The Internet is a cruel place.
And just the public humiliation that can come from that could be
debilitating to draft someone to do really harmful things to
themselves. So it's like we should honestly,
as a society, stop idolizing celebrities and stop worshipping
people we don't fucking know and invest in the people that care
about us and our partner that's begging for our attention or our
friends that we haven't seen in months or whatever.
And stop playing these little, you know, whatever games because
I feel like that's what they do. They keep us all so sucked into
like their drama, you know? But the P Diddy thing is crazy
because when R Kelly went down, R Kelly and P Diddy, they go
back. Maybe they're back, they're
back, brothers are back. So I like personally love the
memes about P Diddy going to jail and reuniting with R Kelly.
Like those are really getting me and my and my going feels.
I haven't seen any of that the R Kelly and the P Diddy memes, but
I have been seeing a bunch of like memes about how they found
784 dildos when they were searching P Diddy shit also.
OK, so there was this whole, did you see any of the press release
that was released about this? One of my friends sent me kind
of a summary, so I seen some. So I'm not going to quote this
with all of the complete factual information because I'm not
fucking Google bitch. So Google it.
But, and I'm just speaking to people listening specifically,
but they did, somebody did a press release and he was talking
about how Diddy would do these things called freak offs and he
would bring in male escorts. And it's not clear to me if the
male escorts would be fucking each other or other people.
But he basically would be providing all of these drugs.
He would coerce, blackmail, threaten, like have physical
violence on people or whatever, drug them up and make them do
sexual acts for days at a time and record it and like rape
them. It was awful.
And when they when they came and they found all the they came
when they went in and they found all the dildos and stuff, they
also found all of these like thousands of bottles of Lube.
A. 1000 bottles of Baby, Old and Diddy used all little boys to
play. Disease being put away.
Spot you on the prison bus in your fair game because you're
such. Just know your butt hole's going
to be in pain. Did there?
I can promise you a couple 100 prison dudes or stretch you out.
You'll never see it again, and you're to blame.
Hey Mr. Diddy, that's what you'd get for touching kitties.
No more waiting outside schools. Now your rest is history.
Sucks for you. You know, it's all just because
you thought you could touch on little doos.
Hey Mr. Diddy, is did you enjoy prison food?
Yeah, actually I did. I did see it.
And it's almost unbelievable. It's almost unbelievable.
But the wild thing is, is he knew he was under like watch and
that they were like looking for ways to like raid his and his
residence, but he like kept all this stuff.
And then I also wonder like, where are these tapes?
Because, you know, some of them are like VHS tapes, right?
Like, you know, some of them are like, because it's not on a
cloud somewhere. He's not going to get hacked and
get blackmailed and lose his blackmail.
You know what I mean? Like, so I'm sure he's smarter
than that, but it makes me wonder because, you know, people
like that will literally like have a house and someone else's
name that you don't even know that they have access to and
they you know what I mean? Or like, I don't know.
I just wonder like where all the blackmail is because he talks
about all this blackmail. And the reason I like to ponder
on it is because, like, Jlo silence and then all of a sudden
she's going through a divorce makes me feel like Ben Affleck
thinks she's going to get in trouble or something's going to
come out. Because Jlo and P Diddy were
together when there was like that shooting at the club back
in like, 2001, baby. And Mommy knows because I was 10
and I was keeping up. I was watching.
I was 10.
That's hilarious. I actually didn't think about
Jlo involved in it, but I do think that if that's what they
found, like, what did you get? What did you have time to get
rid of, first of all? Second of all, one of my
favorite things about that press release is that one of the
reporters was, like, after what happened with Jeffrey Epstein,
do you have any concerns about Diddy being an incarceration?
And the guy kind of like, stumbled on his words for a
second. And he was like, we don't have
any reason to believe that there's a correlation between
what will happen with P Diddy and the unfortunate suicide of
Jeffrey Epstein. And I'm like the unfortunate
suicide like. All I got to say is this is
really called trigger warning Part 2, and we might need to add
in there's some trigger warning in here.
But I do think that a lot of these celebrities are coming
down. I think a lot of people are
involved with some shady shit that's going to get exposed.
I think a lot of people on the Internet are making it their
life purpose to like like TikTok, you know, like rabbit
hole things to like expose people.
Like I think people are now dedicating all personal free
time to exposing politicians and celebrities and random people.
And what is out there is out there.
And I promise you these people know how to do research because
your girl don't know what they do.
But they will go to these websites and these government
sites and these things and find stuff and like make Tik toks
about it that are so educational about what's actually happening.
And you don't have to go read like a 90 page document because
they put this information on page 80 7 knowing damn well you
were never going to get to page 87.
You know what I mean? Like it's, it's a really weird
thing, but I do think that the angrier you make people, the
more unhappy people are, the more expensive things are,
things like that people will go to no end to like tackle.
And, and what I want to say like disassemble a toxic system,
right? Like, and I don't want to say
that in like a negative way that's like violent or anything,
but like mentally, spiritually, you're it's like pushing people
to search outside, but like outside of the universe, like
outside of this world, you know what I mean?
Like search beyond, beyond the great beyond, right, the great
beyond. And I think that so many people
don't see what they want to see because they're just really in
these illusions, right? Like drugs and alcohol or work
or stress or fear, you know what I mean?
Like these illusions that hinder people from seeing their
personal power. I feel like a lot of those walls
are crumbling because I do believe, like the light and the
people, like spirituality, things are like growing.
People are waking up. People are seeing their truth.
And I think that a lot of people will be exposed and they're
going down because the system itself is crumbling.
It's funny that you're bringing up like TikTok and people doing
research and stuff. I was having a conversation with
my husband last night about TikTok because he doesn't have a
TikTok. And so he's like, I don't even
know like what's over there. And I'm like, the light doesn't
touch there. Like don't fucking go there just
to be somebody who scrolls. Like I said, I don't understand
people who have TikTok that aren't creating content on it
because it's such a Whirlpool of like so easy for you to jump
down rabbit holes. And he's one of those people who
like when people are going to speak things, he wants people to
speak with like facts on things. And if you're going to try and
educate on topics or speak on topics, especially when it comes
to politics, I couldn't give a fuck less about politics.
He knows all the things about the things.
And he's like, that person's not telling the truth and that
person's not telling the truth. I'm like, I don't give a fuck if
he gets on TikTok. He's just going to end up in
some fucking cesspool that like, doesn't need to be there.
I just got a confirmation about my upcoming e-mail reading with
you as we're talking about this, by the way.
But like, yeah, it's so easy to get sucked down into things.
And like, you know, it used to be that you could state opinions
that you had and be like, this is my opinion.
And you could just simply have an opinion out in the universe.
And now people want to Fact Check your opinion.
People want to call your boss because you have an opinion.
People want to let you know that your opinion is made without you
having enough education on topic ABC and motherfucking D and I'm
just like you will become the angriest most triggered fucking
person. Don't get on TikTok.
And that's true. And that's where I think a lot
of fear makes things spread really quickly because like
people spread information that is not true all the time.
And also click bait is a really real thing.
Like these skits that people are making with their spouses or
like just random people are fucking disgusting.
Like some of that shit like is like or they're running a skit
on someone who doesn't know it's a skit.
That's fucked up too. I mean, yes, I see it in light
hearted ways. It's not that bad.
But I've seen ones where they're like running these skits on
their wife and you can tell they've cheated on that bitch
before because the way she's acting is like broken on the
inside and just waiting for the other shoe to drop at all times
every day of her life. And that's sickening to post
that for views or kind of like, you know, people that just
exploit their children and put them in these little crop top
outfits and make content with them and promote these little
boutique places with these hair bows and crop top and booty
short outfits. Like I am shocked as a grown
woman in her 30s how many people are like letting their children.
And I'm talking like, I get it. When they're like 13 and older,
you can't really tell them what the fuck to wear at this point.
They're just like freaking out. But you can.
But I'm saying like some people are like, oh, you got to pick
your battles. But no, your, your daughter has
booty shorts on. Like I can see the lines where
her booty cheeks fold when she sets down.
If I can see those two lines and everybody knows what I'm talking
about, that's a problem. Why am I seeing that on a nine
year old or 11 year old or even a 13 year old?
I'm not saying it's OK, but teenagers, I don't know what
they're doing these days, but it's a lot.
I had a friend over like a couple months ago and my
daughter was walking around the house and she was, she had on
like short shorts or something and like a sweater or something
like that. And then later on in the day she
was wearing her pajama bottoms and she had like a sports bra on
or something like that. And my friend had made a comment
about like you don't make her like put more clothes on or
something like that. And I was like, she's inside the
safety of her own home. Like if, if she's inside the
safety of her own home and she's comfortable, who am I to be
like, no, like nobody here is objectifying you, right?
Like you're at home, you're comfortable, you're doing your
own thing. But when we go out in public,
there's different rules and there's different, you know,
boundaries and things like that that she has to have.
And she's like, but you have men in your house.
You have your son and your dad or and her dad.
And I'm like, yeah, but nobody's objectifying her in our house.
Like, no, like it's not even a thought to us that like, hey,
you're dressed this way when you're at home because you're
just walking around being comfortable or whatever.
And I think that it's so important that we and nothing
against my friend because they're just looking out for,
you know, my family and I appreciate that.
But there, there does have to be this like teaching your children
to have comfort in areas where they can have comfort and to be
comfortable inside of their skin and their body and to not feel
like they are being judged or looked at or, you know,
whatever. And, and just being seen in
their body in places that are comfortable, like inside of
their own home. Obviously not a few house to
suck random people over, but like, and then teaching them the
difference when you're going out in public and you know how you
present yourself and whatever. Once you're 18, you, you, I have
taught you about the world enough to trust that you can
make the choices and decisions. And that you know that if you're
going to go out and show your booty cheeks when you're 1819
years old, people are going to look at you like you're a piece
of meat. You're a legal adult to make
that choice at that time. Until then, I own your butt
cheeks and nobody's seeing them, you know?
Well, I've been hearing from a lot of people how like they just
have no control. I see a lot of videos where
people are like just don't have control of their kids.
It's wild. I mean, I don't know, I think a
lot of what's wrong with the world is people need to raise
their fucking kids and quit expecting a school or counselor
or therapy or whatever to raise your kids.
Like, it's wild, but I saw that there was like, this poll that
was taken from like, young boys. I think it was like maybe like
18 to like 25. And like 72% of them have never
approached or like spoken to a girl first in public,
insinuating a date or insinuating like action towards
pursuing a female in person. Where like, you know, guys at
the gas station in their 40s are like baby girl, let me get that
number, sis, where you at? Because back then, you know, I
mean, not back then, I'll be, you know, I'm 32, but you know
what I mean? Like we had to call someone, we
had a, their dad might answer the phone, their mom could
answer. Your mom was going to come over
there and meet their mom. You know, like people had more
awareness of what was like going on.
And now with the Internet, everything is so sneaky.
It's so secretive. It's so, you know, you can
delete it, you can send it in vanish mode.
I mean, Instagram and the iPhone really make it easy for cheaters
because like that vanish mode, if you swipe up into it, nothing
says after that, you know what I mean?
Like only you can read it and then it goes away.
It's crazy. So I just think that a lot of
these technology things are making kids way more exposed to
shit they shouldn't be exposed to.
Like, you shouldn't see how everyone else is being
objectified on the Internet and think that you need to wear that
at nine years old. Because I mean, when I go out to
the store, or even when I just go into a store and I see
children's clothes, I'm like, where are the rest of them?
Why are these not pants for in the middle of winter you don't
need to be wearing Remember sports?
Yeah, I like them. I love sports.
No, but you know what? And and back to what you were
saying about like, you know, schools raising your kids and
counselors and whatever, like those are supposed to be tools.
Those are supposed to be your children are supposed to go and
learn things. My son just started occupational
therapy and there is so much on the parent aspect.
Like I sit in all the appointments and I learn the
things that he's learning and they show me as the parent, like
how you communicate things, how you help them adapt to things,
how you teach them the concepts of things.
And there never was that when we were growing up and we had
counseling, I had anger management counseling for like 6
years of my fucking life. And my mom just dropped me off
and fucking waved in the parking lot and told me to have a nice
time. Like my family wasn't learning
my communication styles or learning the things that I was
learning there or understanding my anxieties or traumas, you
know, or my triggers or anything else.
And so like, it is hard for you to like raising kids is fucking
hard. Kids are fucking wild.
Nobody's going to do it perfectly.
We're all going to fuck up somehow.
But they're, these things are supposed to be tools that you
learn with your children to help your children, not for you to
just send them so that they can get fixed.
And then you think that you're not the problem in any way and
that your traumas and your own way of parenting and your own
things that you're bringing in aren't affecting your kids.
Because 8 out of 10 times when your kids are rebelling and have
crazy shit going on, it's because there's a fucking energy
happening at home too. And you know, when kids
struggle, the first thing that people want to do is like
schools and things like that is like bring in like social
services and things like that because things must just be
awful at home. If, if this is how this kid is
struggling. And what should really be
happening is people, it should be encouraged for people to take
parenting classes, for people to learn about healing themselves,
talking with their children about healing, having open
communication and dialogue about things and, and being willing to
get your kids help when your kids are clearly needing help
instead of being like, oh, no, that's not happening.
They've never experienced anything.
You may think that your kid has never experienced anything, but
they experienced what you experienced.
They hear you talk to people, they hear what you go through.
They you know, they feel your energy.
They know things. They have certain triggers to
certain people that you keep bringing around.
You keep on dating home dude and keep bringing him around.
They feel that you know you're breaking up with girls all the
time, bringing different girls home to come and sleep with your
kid knows in the other room. You know what I mean?
Yeah, and honestly, I think a lot of people lack role models
even just like adults. Like I know I didn't have a lot
of role models until even just the last probably five years.
You know, finding my mentor and finding people that inspired me
really changed my life. So I always encourage people
like, get a mentor, get something.
Don't let one of these like, I'm going to teach you how to make
$1,000,000 life coaches, you know, take, take your money
because I hope, you know, you're paying their salary.
So, you know, at the same time, I think I support people I want
to support and I try to like really honor every situation.
And I know like with kids, like they're ever changing and
growing and we like as humans are ever changing and growing.
And I think that you have a valid point about parenting
classes because they all, everybody wants to put a lot of
pressure on the kids to be obedient and sat in this desk
and sat here for 8 hours. And then, you know, they come
home and their balls to the wall because they've been sitting in
a desk for 8 hours. Like make it make sense.
And then you got to deal with that.
And then you know what I mean? And then I don't know, I think
the whole system is really weird with the schooling.
I think that school should be required to teach you more life
skills more like we like they took away home EC.
Like why would you take away teaching people how to cook?
Like why would you take away like we used to have a it was
like life 201 and you got a fake baby in that class.
And I'm telling you, that shit scarred me car.
Seat and I've got the fake baby. So then I had a baby at 21, you
know, I. Have to say baby and you had a
they basically zip tied an adapter onto your arm.
It was waterproof so no one could take care of this baby for
you. It was zip tied.
If it was cut or fabricated in any way, you got an F.
You had to keep it for the whole weekend and it cried every three
hours. I had to literally it, I had it
wetted itself, It took fluids and it pissed and yeah, so yeah.
And you had to scan it on its chest and then you had to, you
had to burp it and everything. I mean, you had to do so much
and it's all. Have you had any weird dreams
lately? Honestly, a lot of people have
came to me lately telling me about their weird dreams, but I
haven't really had any weird dreams.
I've been sleeping like a rock and I've like really just been
like in a deep sleep and then I wake up and I don't want to get
up. I want more of this deep sleep.
I've had two weird ass dreams in the past couple of days.
I only told you part of my dream the other night about Jelly roll
and then I had a weird ass nasty ass dream last night.
Freaky. No, it was gross.
Oh, not good, you know, I don't know.
Are you wanting to share your dream?
Your freaky dream, Your nasty dream?
I'm sorry. Not freaky.
Yeah. I want to tell you both because
they were fucking weird and I didn't get to Foley.
I had like just woken up when I was texting you the other
morning. Like I literally was taking my
morning pee when I texted you and told you about that Jelly
roll dream. But it was just so fucking
weird. And it was Brian and I, we were
driving and we were going to, it felt like we were just driving.
And all of a sudden he's like, oh, we're in Texas.
And I was like, oh, OK. And then all of a sudden
everything around us was like, it was in Utah where it was just
like nothing but like fucking desert and stones and whatever.
And so we're driving and this like tiny little 2 wheel drive
car comes and cuts us off and goes up.
It looked like a like dry uphill riverbed, like full of rocks and
shit. And Brian's oh, that's where
we're supposed to be going. And I'm like, I didn't know we
were going anywhere. He's like, yeah, I'm taking you
to this saloon that I found. They have really good barbecue.
And I was like in the middle of Texas.
And he's like, yeah, why are you questioning it?
So I'm like, OK, whatever. So we pull up to this like
saloon and we're eating and I see Jelly Roll walk by smoking a
cigarette. And I was like, oh, look, it's
Jelly Roll. And I was like, hey, Jelly roll.
And I just waved. And he's like, hi.
Like I had been his best friend. He was so excited to see me.
And so he stopped and he was doing and stopped walking.
And so we went up there to start talking to him.
And then other people kind of started going around.
And I was like, damn, is it weird that like everybody acts
like you're their friend, Like we're your friend.
And he's like, yeah, man, you know, whatever.
Like I was over here in my dream, like I was his best
friend. And I could not believe that
these, these fucking people, these groupies were just coming
all around just so fucking excited to see him.
And so he's standing there and I was like, oh, he's really
handsome in person, like in my mind.
And then all of a sudden there was this like.
Greasy haired, small, like Rob Schneider, greasy ass hair
looking man standing next to him.
And he was hella short and he just looked weird and but he was
talking with Jelly Roll's voice and he's like, yeah, this is
what I really look like. But Bunny really prefers when
I'm a big, tall fat man with tattoos.
And so this is the meat suit that she likes me to wear.
And I was like, oh, and then he kept talking and I was like,
yeah, I'm with Bunny. I think I really like you better
when you're the big guy in the tattooed meat suit, too.
This is making me uncomfortable. And so then he just became one
person again and was just fucking just talking his Jelly
roll. And then I woke up and that was
that dream. It was fucking weird, dude.
And. Huh.
So I've got no words, but I will say that the first time I met
Jolie, he he did walk up and act like we've been best friends
forever and made me feel like I was the only person there.
Like he was like, I didn't even know that Mama bear had friends
out here. He was like, I feel rude and I'm
thinking we're all here to see you, but thanks.
Like he's like, thank you all so much for coming.
So you all like if you are listening and you haven't met
Jelly Roll in person, he really is the most genuine spirited
person. He really does make you feel
seen and special. And it's really like just like a
natural energy about him. So I could definitely see like
the investors in the dream because he does treat people
like that. Like he makes you feel seen.
It's really nice. It's just so interesting because
like I feel that I have like an energetic connection with Bunny
because of how much she's done inside of like my life without
meaning to, but it's just so interesting to have the dream
about him and just have her as like I referenced her inside of
the dream or he references her inside of the dream, but it not
be her. And that's kind of what stuck
out to me was I was like, I want to dream about your wife.
Like no offense to you, Mr. Role, but like where's Mama
bear? And then I and then last night.
Last night's dream was just fucking weird.
I don't remember the whole dream, but I remember that I had
to fucking pee so bad. And right now.
So that's so crazy you would say that because I OK.
Well, you can wrap it up after I tell you my pee story.
I had to pee and I ended up getting in the car with some
man. I don't know who the man was.
I knew full well I was married. I wasn't interested in this man.
I wanted him to take me to a bathroom and I was desperate.
And he pulls over on the side of the road and he's like, here,
you can pee right there. Well, where I go to go pee,
there's like poison oak and shit like that.
So I'm like, I can't pee here. And he's like, well, I'll take
you to the YMCA. So it takes me to go to the YMCA
where my husband is. And my husband hands me a trash
bag and goes, you're going to need this when you go into the
bathroom. And I was like, for what?
And he's like, you'll see. So I go in there and I didn't
like the state of the toilet. Like it just like nothing was
wrong with the toilet, but I just felt like they're like, I
just didn't want to put my ass on there.
So I put the trash bag down. Well, when I and this is where
it gets nasty, But when I put the trash bag down, the trash
bag is see through. So all of a sudden there's just
a bunch of shit smeared on the toilet seat.
And so that's why he had handed me the trash bag was so that
there was a barrier between my ass and all this shit that was
on the toilet seat. So I'm putting the trash bag
down and I'm like, this is fucking nasty.
I can't pee on this. And I was like, but I really
need to pee. And so I like peed a little bit
standing there, like just on the bathroom floor.
And I was like, well, whatever, it's already nasty in here.
And then I walked out and my husband's like, are you good?
And I was like, yeah, I'm fine. And then we walk a couple steps
and I was like, no, I really need to pee.
Like, I've got to pee so bad. And that's when I woke up and
was like, I'm gonna piss my pants.
And I went to the bathroom. That was my fucking dream.
So your body was telling you to get the fuck up you sleepy
bitch. We gots to go.
Yeah. Yeah, well, that's how I feel
right now. And the fact that you said that
I was actually about to put in the chat.
I have to pee secretly. But now you all know publicly
about all of our bodily fluids and exchanges.
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You know what I mean? We don't want, we don't want any
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We'll see you all next time in Candyland.
Bye bye. She's so sweet me like a
lollipop, lollipop, lollipop, lollipop, lollipop.
He want to live me like a lollipop, lollipop, lollipop,
lollipop. He want to swallow my spirit and
penetrate my aura. Taste.
All of my consciousness is obvious.
We're goddesses full of the divine femininity who need
masculine energy, energy, energy.