Yeah, you say? She's so sweet, man.
Come on. Like a rapper?
Me. Like a lollipop.
Lollipop Lollipop Lollipop. What's up fuckers?
Welcome back to Candy Land. Paige is joining us from
underwater today. Welcome to Atlantis.
Yeah, we are flooded here in Kentucky.
It's crazy. It's historical flooding.
That's crazy. My man's sister lives in
Tennessee and she was getting hit by tornadoes.
I almost said volcanoes. It was not volcanoes, it was
fucking tornadoes. And yeah, that was the other
night. It was crazy.
Yeah, We've had several tornadoes.
There was an EF 3 that's been confirmed today that touched
down Wednesday probably like, I don't know, 1520 minutes from my
house total. What's an EF3?
So they're ranked so like EF 1 would be like 90 mile per hour
winds to about like 115 mile per hour.
And then the stronger they get, they go up the scale.
So this one was an EF 3 confirmed 145 mile per hour
wind. So basically an EF one will RIP
the roof off and EF 3 is destroying the whole building.
Yeah, that's fucking crazy. And I think about wanting to
like move out that direction and like be an East Coast girl.
And I'm like, you know, then I have to deal with like
alligators and tornadoes and fucking crazy Florida people,
so. We're in the Midwest, and it's
like we're in the area that gets almost all of the seasons.
Like the only thing that we wouldn't get here in Kentucky
would be like a hurricane because it would only hit like
the ocean area type states. By the time it made it to us, it
would just be like a crazy storm.
That song Cyclone is stuck in my head now.
She moves about it like a cyclone, so.
Scary like it I mean obviously I felt very shielded and protected
but you know Jeepers house was 5 minutes from the first tornado
and like 5 minutes from the second tornado.
So 2 tornadoes hit near her home within a four day period, which
is so. Nuts, friend.
And like they're comparing it to the May 1996 tornado which I
survived in a trailer. Both of the trailers beside me
were completely destroyed and our trailer was completely
intact. No damage in an EF3 tornado.
So like we haven't seen any catastrophic events in this
magnitude since 1996 for the Tornadoes and 1997 for the
flood. We're only like 1 foot away from
reaching the same point as the 97 flood.
So what constitutes for you guys leaving and evacuating during
tornadoes? Because what I see from
Midwesterners is people like videos on their front porch
sipping their sweet tea and they're like, oh, look, there's
a tornado off Yonder. I saw Wizard of Oz and I feel
like you're going to go to fucking Munchkin Land if you
don't head underground. At what point do you guys panic?
The other night, last Sunday night when I was laying in bed
and I was like everything's going to be fine.
And every single tablet and device in my home started going
off with the screams of take shelter now.
So I think there was a moment I was like damn this is wild.
So I went downstairs and I got into a closet with my cat cuz
the other two cats were not trying to have it.
And it was really crazy because at that moment four different
people texted me and said the tornado is headed directly in
your direction, are you okay? And that was scary because I
wasn't watching the news. I was just looking at like the
weather radar and when there is going to be a tornado they do
these little direct boxes in my fucking house.
Like where I live was in one of the direct boxes but it
basically skipped where I lived. Touched down like 2 exits over
and then completely demolished like 3 or 4 exits over.
So in both directions. They were only like 3 exits away
of my house each time so I felt very protected and shielded.
I feel like I have like a gift of connecting with weather in a
deeper way, being like an earth energy sign.
So I don't know, Like I've already survived a tornado and a
motherfucking trailer. So I'm not doing that again.
Like I've already paid my karmic dues and I just feel like it's
really crazy because two people I'm very close with had this
tornado drop down within the like 5 mile range of their home.
One person like a mile and 1/2 from their home.
And I just feel like I was sending out all these protection
bubbles to everyone like my family and friends and literally
none of us have had any issues. I've just been really saddened
for like the animals because people like take videos and
don't help animals that are caught in trees and caught in
fences and like hurt and that shit's pissing me off.
Like humans, they'll be all right.
Animals. I have an issue with people like
leaving them behind. It sucks.
I loved pit bulls and parolees and like, I used to watch that
when I was a kid. And I remember when they opened
Villalobos in New Orleans and they went there and they would
like, go and save like dogs from floods and shit like that.
And that's the only time that I've really seen like, rescuers
going out, talking about going out in natural disasters and
taking in animals and stuff like that.
And I don't know if, like, you know, they obviously like they
had producers in a network and stuff.
I think they were on A&E because it used to be Dog the Bounty
Hunter and then Pitbull and parolees.
That's what I was into. And so we hunt the fugitives and
then we hunt the animals and save them too.
But I wonder if like they just had so much funding, they were
able to do that. But I wonder if there's other
rescues and stuff where they go out in storms and are able to
get different animals and take them in and seek shelter.
Because I mean, so many shelters that take in pets kill centers
because they don't have the financial means or physical, you
know, resource for board and whatever to be able to keep
animals. I'm a huge advocate for going
and adopting pets. When Jeremy first moved here, I
was trying to figure out like something that we could go and
do. And I was like, oh, we should go
to like the ASPCA where I got Linda, my cat, and we should go
and look at the animals and we're there for like 5 minutes.
He's like, this is really sad, we need to leave.
He said we're not here with the intention of getting any pets.
We're just looking at them. And I'm like, no, I have fallen
in love with a cat, a rabbit and a dog.
Like we can walk out of here with a pet.
Yeah, there was a rescue in Shepherdsville, KY, that had a
bunch of animals. And they posted on this
Shepherdsville group and said the kennels are starting to
flood. We need volunteers to rescue
these dogs that can anyone help? And like, within the hour, it
gives me chills because within the hour there were, like, so
many people using their own boats, their own trucks, their
own means to get these animals. And now they're in need of
fosters, which is really, really sad.
You know, I already have my fair share of animals.
If I could have a farm and have many, many more, I totally
fucking would. Like I have this dream of having
like a farm with kind of like a Moat around it where like cats
can run free and like be adopted and just like live their life
out as like farm cats. Because I've seen a lot of
people have animals and like want to rehome them or want to
get rid of them or whatever. And it would just be nice to
like have a safe place for them. But you know, I've saved a
couple cats in the last like couple months with the one eyed
cat that was outside with the hurt eye.
We took him to the shelter, they fixed him up.
They called me, said that I could adopt him.
They named him Odyssey and within that 24 hours he was off
the website so they totally he got adopted so that was really
good. And then I have my 2 strays that
I feed outside that are both boys.
And I don't think they're fixed. So I'm just praying that they
don't bring any cats or kittens home this summer or spring.
But I don't know, like I was more like upset about the wild
animals. Like there was a video of like a
deer stuck in a fence and people are just like, leave it just
whatever. And I get it.
Like, but it still broke my heart.
And then I've now today saw two people rescue animals.
One girl rescued a cat off a porch that was surrounded by
water. And then another girl rescued a
baby deer out of a field full of water.
So, you know, there is a balance.
And one time this poet, there was a poem by this poet and it
said in order for so many things to live, so many things must
die. And that's kind of like
something that like rings in the back of my head when I'm trying
to like, navigate shit like that, that's upsetting me.
And understanding that, like, you know, this is a physical
place, but there is an eternal scale that we exist on.
And I've really been shifting from like past lives to like all
lives are like congruent together.
Like all lives are ever changing together.
Like you're not in a past timeline or a future timeline.
Like you are an eternal being. So I've really been trying to
process like that because my heart just really aches for
animals. Like people not so much.
I don't know why. Like people, they're their own
worst enemy most of the time. Like obviously I don't want
people to suffer through natural disasters or anything, but I
just think people they do more harm than good and animals are
just innocent and it just like it disrupts my spirit when I see
things like that, like people recording and not fucking
helping. Yeah, I think that there's some
there's programs that some prisons do with animals, like
with dogs and things like that, where they actually, I mean,
they have to be able to like earn the privilege and whatever.
But they're able to have pets that they have full time in
there that they're responsible to take care of and like nurture
and whatever. And it's a part of the like
their rehabilitation program. And I think that animals are so
healing for so many people. Like there are so many people
for whatever reasons, you know, traumas, experiences, you know,
self separation, whatever, aren't able to have good
connections with other people. And I think that connection with
people is also a like taught thing and a learned thing.
And people can be taught to have horrible interactions with
people if they're put in bad situations their whole life and
they're always taught that people around them are going to
be bad and whatever. I think that people in those
situations sometimes end up just turning out to be really bad
towards others because that's what they've experienced.
And having the opportunity to be able to have like animals that
they take care of or whatever might give them a sense of like
healing for themselves and everything not being bad.
And I think that there's so many different ways for animals to be
introduced in for helping people, like people use animals
for therapy animals and all different types of stuff.
And I think that it could be used in so many other than it
currently is. I feel like it's really limited
and people really take advantage.
I think there's a difference between like, you know, your,
your cat is certified on your lease versus like you can you
know, you're, you should take your Peacock on a plane because
it's like your emotional support pet.
But I think that there's so many different ways that they could
be utilizing all of these different animals to help people
in so many ways, whether it be companionship or actually be
therapeutic or what not. It's interesting that you bring
that up because I went to the gym and there was a man with his
service dog working out. And you can tell when like some
dogs have been a service dog for a long time, like they're super
chill. But you could tell this one was
like a kind of you have a baby, like, you know, he wanted pets.
Like he knew that I like was looking at him and he jumped up
and he was like, no, you got to lay down like, no.
And I said, Oh, he's being a good boy.
And he was like, he's trying. Obviously, I know it's like
against the rules to pet them unless they like offer for you
to pet them. But you could tell that he was
like really trying to navigate like the anxious, like wags of
his tail of like, I really want to interact with this person
because I can tell, you know, that she likes me or I can tell
that she wants me to, you know, whatever.
So I think it's great. I think service animals are so
crucial for so many people. And I think it's amazing that
like dogs can be trained to like recognize seizures and panic
attacks. But the flip side of that is it
is very expensive to get your service dog trained in those
ways. It is very and so when I had my
dog before I was looking at getting him signed up for like a
doggy daycare thing. It was in California and like
this bus would come pick up your dog for the day, go take it.
It's like B train, hang out with other dogs, whatever.
That shit was thousands of fucking dollars.
But like they gave the dogs like their own little spot on the bus
and they would like clip them in and I just like I it was
aesthetically adorable financially.
It just like fucking train your dog yourself.
That's another thing that bugs me is when people don't properly
train their animal and they don't want to have the animal
anymore because it doesn't integrate, you know, into their
family or it's hurting people or whatever.
And it's like, and there are some animals where like you're
doing your best to train them and you can't, but there's a lot
of people who don't put in the time and effort and they get
high energy breeds or you know, whatever or, or stubborn breeds.
And I feel like that's where the negative connotation of like pit
bulls and Rottweilers and those types of dogs come in is because
they are kind of stubborn dogs and people don't take the time
to nurture them and and teach them and train them properly.
One of my favorite breeds of dogs is a pit bull and I don't
know if it's because it's like the black sheep of the dog like
breeds and it gets like such a bad rap.
And like people have like this weird vendetta against pit
bulls. But like a lot of big dogs that
I have liked, like truly liked were pit bulls and a lot of them
came from like rescue domestic crazy situations.
I just don't understand the brain of someone that would harm
an animal or like fight dogs or whatever it may be.
Like it just doesn't even make sense to me.
And I just know there's a very, very special place in the ether
that those people end up for eternity.
But I just feel like there's so many beautiful animals out there
that are manipulated, taking advantage of, you know,
overbred, whatever. And then people look around and
we're overpopulated with all these animals and they act like
there's no way to fix it. Like fucking neuter and spay
your animals. Stop breeding them.
Stop carelessly, you know, dropping them off at a pound
because you didn't train them in their early years.
Like I see that so much. Like now I'm at the point on
Facebook if I see someone rehoming their pet for any other
reason than a literal emergency life or death situation Like oh
I'm pregnant, I'm going to rehome my cat or oh I'm this I'm
going to rehome my animal. I literally just delete them
because I never want to see that stank coochie energy on my feet
again. You know, you've mentioned that
like a couple different times before that, you know, people
will do that. I, I really like, I made a
Facebook post. I want to say it was like
yesterday morning or the morning before.
And it's the first time that I've posted on Facebook in a
real long time. And I went on there and I've
told you, like, I don't scroll anymore.
Like I've taken Instagram off my phone.
I don't have TikTok on my phone anymore.
Like I don't scroll and I don't sit there and digest social
media anymore. And the other morning I was
like, I'm just going to like, I got on there for one thing.
And then I just ended up scrolling and it was just like
people giving every fucking detail of their fucking
relationship. And it is like a pet peeve to me
that like, I don't care that you and like that Jim Bob is being
mean to you and that you had to call his mother and like,
whatever. And then the next day you guys
are totally fine. And then this is what you're
making him for dinner. And then you guys have an
argument and then like back and forth and back and forth and
people, you do that on Facebook and it is not your fucking
diary. Nobody needs a play by play of
what you have going on in your relationship.
Posting pictures because you're happy.
Totally get that. But there's a point in which
you're like, oh, every single day you're posting a picture of
you and Jim Bob. OK, so that's your relationship
is for the gram Got it. But that fucking annoys me.
And then people that just go on there to do nothing but complain
and it's like complaining about your weight, complaining about,
you know, every situation, whatever.
And it it's just like a toxic to consume.
So I was like, I'm going to make a post and remind y'all to like
go outside and get a little bit of sunshine on your skin and,
you know, think positive thoughts or whatever.
Because I was like, holy shit. This is like there are people
who all the interaction that they have with the world is
social media. They go to work, they social
media. That's the only way that they
talk to their friends. It's the only way they see their
friends. They don't text.
They just look and they see what's going on on, you know,
Facebook and that's fucking it. And between that and people and
their animals, I am like I I could do with never being a
scroller again because it it is pointless.
See that's so funny because I went through that phase where
like every single night at like 7 PMI would put my phones on do
not disturb and I would not touch them until the next
morning. But now I feel like I've been on
the scrolling of TikTok. I've gotten back on TikTok a
little bit, but I've been scrolling a little bit lately.
And instead of engaging with that lower vibrational stuff,
like I just delete the person. Like if I see something and I'm
just like, oh, I don't like their energy.
I just delete them like they could literally literally be
like box spring and mattress for sale $50.
And if I don't resonate with this message, I just delete
them. But it's so funny because like,
I love the audacity of people trying to sell something for
full price that they have just used up there.
Recently I've been on Marketplace and I found a couple
cool things on Marketplace and I fucking hate Target.
I think Target's the worst establishment.
I think they're just trash. Their prices, their everything.
Well, the universe was like, guess what Target's doing?
They're having a sale on lava lamps.
So I got on their website and I saw like $50 lava lamps for like
$18.00. So I ordered a bunch.
I took the one that I got from Facebook Marketplace, switched
the base with the new base and returned it.
Got my money back and I'm just like fuck Target, fuck the
system. I will find a loophole in any
direction. But I've just been like on this
point of just boycotting everything.
Like I hadn't got on Amazon and ordered anything all year except
like maybe the first week of the year.
And I got on there last night. And normally I would order spell
candles like just every month, but this time I was like, I'm
going to order 10 boxes. It's 1000 candles and I'm not
fucking with it. Like, I'm not going to be back.
So I've just been doing this thing where like, I just
initially get everything I need and then delete the app or
delete the account. Like Etsy keeps getting brought
up because of all this like tariff stuff.
And I can't stand Etsy because there are so many people on
there who get their artwork scammed, recreated by the Sheen
or the team moves of the world, and then they get screwed.
And so when I saw that there was like a strike of artists against
like Etsy, I've talked about this before, I just deleted my
whole account, like just completely deleted the whole
account. It took so many steps.
I had to do so many verifications.
But I'm not going to support platforms who don't back their
creators. And that's like the same thing
with Instagram. I've stopped posting publicly
and just been posting on close friends.
And now when I do post publicly, boom 1000 views.
Yeah, I don't fuck with Betsy. There's a couple of.
I used to love Etsy because I really like supporting
independent artists on things. I think that that was a way that
a lot of people were getting their, their artwork and even
like witchcraft boxes and stuff at first, like when I was
before, I had shops that wanted to send me things, I'd be like,
oh, what types of stuff can I put inside of witchcraft boxes?
I'll buy, you know, one of these big witchcraft boxes and I'll,
I'll divide up different stuff and whatever and say what shop I
got it from. And then I started to notice
that it wasn't like people putting together custom boxes
anymore. It was like some generic thing
that they went down and they bought at like Ross or
something. But then they're trying to like
resell and that's not quality product for one.
For two, what the fuck am I going to pay you and shipping
for something I could have gone down if I wanted to get it from
Ross that I got it from fucking Ross or told somebody to do
that. And so there aren't tons of
platforms where you get to support people individually for
their crafts. And I think that's why it's so
you know, people, I know that people get frustrated that some
of our stuff is behind paywalls and you know that that we do
some of the things that we do the way that we do it.
And it's like if people have learned nothing from this
podcast, it's that anytime that you have an original idea,
there's some dumb ass broad who can't fucking think of an
original thought. If it's going to save her God
damn life and she's going to take whatever idea that there
is, fuck it up, and then try and distribute it as her own.
And so a lot of what we do is on behind paywalls for a fucking
reason. And I think that more artists
and shit should figure out how to get their stuff behind a
paywall, whether it be that they are, they have their website and
they're putting their art out through their own website and
distributing it themselves or clothing or whatever.
The second that you put it onto the Internet on something like
Etsy or Amazon or whatever that is giving other people
permission to mass fucking produce that and go, well, I
found it on Etsy. I found it on Amazon.
You can't tell me that you find an original thing on my website
and that it's somewhere else. That's so fucking real.
There's this other crowdfunding platform called Grouped GROUPD
and I recently signed up because one of my favorite artists is on
there and there's like a public wall that people can comment and
tell me why someone signed up for this man's platform and then
hopped on there to bash him for putting his content behind a pay
wall and said that he was scamming his fans and basically
that he could get fucked. And I'm like so you paid money
to hop on here and say that like that's fucking crazy.
So I literally just caught I could like because you can all
see it. So I just replied to dudes post
and I said Yikes. So I may or may not be getting
into it with that guy later because what the fuck was that?
And honestly like the thing I liked about this is because he
has like tears like 5/10/15. But then you can set a custom
amount and I like the number 11. So I just did 1111.
I don't know. And just like for no reason at
all, just I like that number. But then like when he releases
certain things like vlogs or behind the scenes stuff like you
have access to it. And it's really just crazy to me
that still the haters, the monitoring spirits, the matrix
handler, whatever tries to hop on there saying fucked up shit
like get a grip. But another thing that a lot of
artists are doing is they're like like printing self
portraits and autographing them and then selling them.
Or I know Bunny and Jelly have done that in the past.
Like a lot of people are finding new ways to generate income.
And I'm not going to lie, like I love this artist, but I wouldn't
pay $150.00 for their self-portrait because like, I
just like, do you Boo? Someone else will pay that.
Like, I get it. But at the same time, like I
support that. Like I fucks with that because
they only did 99 of those. And yeah, they, they ran up a
bag, but like, it's not like they're mass producing it.
And one day that will be worth a significant amount of money if,
you know, they do succeed or whatever.
But I think so many haters who have nothing to fucking do are
constantly like being a hater. Like earlier on Facebook, this
guy said birth control should have always been for women.
And that's the end of the debate.
And I commented, I didn't delete them, I decided to comment.
And I said the male population is enough birth control for me,
because it is. That's such a topic though,
because the way that birth control fucks with women's
hormones and all types of shit. Like you can have a kid and then
you can have taken birth control that was a hormonal birth
control that stopped your cycles and whatever.
And that shit can make you infertile and you can not have
kids further down the line even though you've had kids before.
And the fact that it's like the responsibility of women to have
birth control because a dude doesn't want to wear a condom or
whatever else. And like, well, that's
uncomfortable. Well, so is having an IUD shoved
in your fucking uterus. But women are doing it everyday,
you know, like I, I just think that there really needs to be
more options too for pregnancy prevention because a lot of
people do not fucking want kids. And there are a lot of kids who
end up being born who the system doesn't help.
The system loses. The system fucking doesn't lose
them. They sell them and put them into
sex trafficking. And then they don't want to talk
about that. And I'll blow your fucking lid
wide open and let you know that, like the US government
absolutely loses track Bunny ears on that of so many fucking
children inside of the foster care system.
And it's because they're pimping them out.
And if you think that the government's not doing that,
then you need to do a little bit more research.
And I suggest looking at like underground tunnels and shit
like that and going on a little conspiracy deep dive because
that's a fucking thing. And y'all didn't think that
Diddy was doing anything at his white parties either.
But then now look at you. So yeah, we need to AB there
needs to absolutely be more prevention things put into place
and there's not going to because it is such a lucrative fucking
thing. And people are having all of
these conversations about like whether or not abortion should
be a thing or whatever, but they have absolutely no conversations
about what you do with kids that are born, are put into the
system, are not being adopted. We're still bringing kids over
from other countries and adopting out from other
countries while we have kids here that don't have homes.
There's also this like whole statistic thing about kids of
certain ages not getting adopted and it's only younger kids that
are getting adopted. And there's so many kids that
are older that end up being put into the system because of XY
and Z that a lot of times have experienced so much trauma and
so much crazy shit. And people don't want to, they
consider that baggage. And so they don't want to take
that on and they don't want to raise those kids.
And so often those are the kids that are going to be like the
most loving and the most grateful and whatnot is because
they have been through crazy shit and they are now being
taken care of. And you can really turn the kids
life around by showing them something different and and
helping them. And so the the conversation
about abortion always pisses me the fuck off 1 As somebody who's
had one, like you always say you're not going to do it till
you're in the situation. And sometimes you get in
situations you don't think you're going to be in and shit
happens. And also because there's so many
other conversations that can be had.
And I feel like it is small minded fucking people who sit
there and argue about one topic and have one perspective on it
instead of you looking at the grander scheme of things and the
reason why things are that way. There's a reason that there's a
that, you know, men in power don't want abortions to be a
thing and they want kids to happen and the money game that's
behind it and the payouts that they get and all types of shit.
So many things. Before I forget with the birth
control topic, a man can literally father like hundreds
of kids a year and a woman can have one in a calendar year.
So that's just like shouldn't even be in the in the equation.
Men should be on birth control from the fucking jump and the
way they want to be chased and and cater to these days like
little princesses. Birth control is perfect for
them. Next note, have you seen where
the lady submitted her DNA to one of those websites and then
she got a call from an FBI agent about a cold case.
Long story short, her mom sold her and her dad didn't even know
about her and it was an illegal adoption that like I guess like
her grandmother or someone covered up and somewhere in that
I don't know there was like the police got involved.
I don't know how all that actually transpires but think
it's the grandmother had done something illegal and her DNA
was linked to the crime scene but because they couldn't get
the DNA back then it went cold. And then the lady who submitted
her DNA just thought she had been adopted.
Like regular not only found her real mom, found out her real dad
did not know about her at all and that her grandmother was
like a convict and her DNA was like tying the case open.
And when I was in this lifetime drama.
When I had mentioned to my father about doing that
ancestral thing a while, like a while back, he was like,
absolutely not. And I was like, why?
I was like, do you think you have like extra kids out there?
And he was like, absolutely not, not doing it.
And I would suggest you not to do it either.
So I never did it. But then my grandfather, during
COVID, two women came forward and my grandfather is their dad
and he is in his like late 70s. Did I ever tell you that?
No, you didn't ever tell me that, but like I see, I just
think of like the wife's in those situations, right, Because
like you, you're going to feel some type of way that like a kid
comes up and that's like your spouse's kid and you had no idea
that they had kids elsewhere. And then like that person is
like going through a whole bunch of emotions because now they had
kids that they don't know about and it's a whole thing.
And then like you got to take on other kids and like I just like
it's such a snowball. I think it that that's such a as
a kid who so like for me, I didn't know who my birth dad was
until I was in high school. And then when I contacted him,
he and I don't know if I've ever told you about this, when I
contacted him, I contacted him on Myspace and he was like, oh,
well, like he still sticks to like, I didn't know anything
about you. Like what a surprise.
You're a kid. But I have baby pictures of him
with my mom when I was one years old.
So like clearly you know something.
But I have a different man that's on my birth certificate.
And so he's like, your mom was a hoe and to like to this day,
he'll be like, I just didn't know that I was your dad, you
know, whatever. And I have for for years, it
really fucked with me because I was like, I just want him to
tell me the truth. And so like, I couldn't have any
type of like a relationship or friendship of any kind with my
dad because like, you're lying to me.
And I eventually had to just be like they were teenagers with
whatever the experience was that fucking happened.
You know, I was not claimed. And I ended up getting a dope
ass stepdad, you know, halfway through my life that raised me.
And so that's my dad. And I'll just be OK with that.
And there is so much fucking shit that goes on in somebody's
brain from not knowing one of their parents or not having
involvement from one of their fucking parents growing up.
Yeah, that's some deep, deep trauma.
My grandfather did something similar.
So he had a wife and a child and he thought that she had ran off
on him and got pregnant. So he claimed one child but
rejected the second. Her like grandson submitted his
DNA for like a eighth grade project, discovered that there
were no breaks in the DNA lineage, that his grandfather
and grandmother lineage was like not outsourced, like everyone in
his system had the same like DNA.
And so then that Lady, you know, we know her.
We know her. Like her name's Stacy.
She actually just sent me a friend request the other fucking
day. Like we know who this is.
So he just did not claim her. And then from them inputting
their DNA, a next second woman who was adopted and did not know
her parents at all, but lost her adoptive parents, found my
grandfather during all that. Like the more people who put
their DNA in there, the more accurate it becomes.
And then this stranger, like Finding Nemo on the side,
swooped right in. And she actually, like, I
haven't why? Actually, I lie.
I did meet her and I met her daughter one time.
And like, this is her grant. Like this is his real
granddaughter and here I am. I've known this man my whole
life. He literally claims me over his
own blood grandchildren. He always calls me his favorite.
I've lived with them. I'm literally about to go see
them in a little bit. And so when I met his
granddaughter, she didn't I could just tell her energy was
just like stink coochie. She was like did not like me.
And so my grandma and grandpa hardly ever go anywhere.
Well the granddaughter got married like 2 hours away and my
grandma and grandpa went and it shocked the shit out of me
because like that's just not something they do like ever.
Like I have AI give a public speaking like speech every
quarter and they've never came to it once and it's like 20
minutes away. So it's just like it blew my
mind that he went I think her name's Sarah.
And it was just so crazy because like, in their mind, they've
been alienated and like had these adoptive family members,
right, that have like passed on. So building the relationship
would be hard considering he's like in his 70s.
But it's definitely wild because my grandpa has not only been to
prison, he's killed a man and now he's got kids coming up out
of the woodwork. Like my grandpa was like in the
Cornbread Mafia, like gangs. Like if y'all listening, look up
the Cornbread Mafia. It is a huge thing.
It's like moonshine smugglers and coal and gold.
It's like a whole thing, but this man was living his best
life. And fucking bitch is getting
money and cornbread dude like. And you know what's crazy is
like I vividly remember this story that my grandfather got a
gang like tattoo and when he came home his mom was like, hell
no, you're going to cut that out of your skin right now.
And he literally took a knife and, like, filleted some of this
tattoo off. So it's like, just a piece of
it. Like, my grandpa has lived many
fucking lifetimes. I will say it, like, and this
man and me are not blood, but we have like, a real deep bond.
Like, we really, really do. And like, it's so wild, like how
it's all unfolded. But my grandpa is just like, so
set in his ways. And like, I'll go see my grandma
and she'll be like, yeah, he don't want to go anywhere.
He don't want to do anything unless we're going to the
casino. That's the only time he'll get
out of that chair. And I'm like, OK, OK, then like,
I don't know, like, it's wild. But a lot of unemotionally
available men, like you said, have children that they just
have no intentions of nurturing or taking care of at all at all.
And on the flip side, there are so many men who do want to have
families and they do want to be a nurturer and they do want to,
you know, be that person and step into roles and whatever.
Like I was fortunate enough that, you know, I have my
stepdad who doesn't have kids of his own, but stepped in and was
there for me and my brother. My brother was younger.
I feel like my dad and my brother have a, they have a
different type of bond too, because I think men in general,
you know, they, he, they get each other a little bit more,
but my brother also was so much younger and so they have a
really tight bond. But like even my man, like, you
know, he doesn't have other kids right now.
We'll fix that. And but he, you know, steps in
for Mac and is like an amazing parent figure and goes to every
appointment and, you know, doctor's appointment gets him
from school with me, like goes to therapy with him, like just
all these different things. And so I feel like there are so
many people who want to step into roles.
And I think that because of people's, I want to be careful
with the way that I word it, But I think that we can limit people
from being able to step into roles that they want to take
because we assume that they don't want them or we assume
that with our own traumas, that's going to be a temporary
thing. And I think that a lot of people
prevent their kids from being able to have experiences with
people who want to step up and be in their lives.
And sometimes it's like, you know, my mom easily could have
been like, well, I'm a single mom.
I have kids. I'm not going to date anybody.
Absolutely not. You know, next or you know, my
brother and I didn't have our birth dads involved in our
lives, but we could have had dads that were like, those are
my kids and you're not going to be able to, you know, blah,
blah, blah, blah, blah. And that's their own trauma
thing. And so I think that people
should be a lot more open to accepting people wanting to take
on roles that they want to take on and allowing kids to be
nurtured by other people without it being like, oh, I'm going to
be replaced or whatever. You, when you're operating from
a place of wanting the best for your kids or what not, you open
yourself up to them receiving love, even if it makes you feel
jealous or whatever. And you as an adult, you figure
out those emotions and you allow your kids to have whatever
experiences and whatever love is being poured into them.
Yeah, I totally feel like so many people who have kids are
don't actually want them. And then the people who can't
have kids really want them. I always as a child, like,
imagine having like four or five kids.
I don't know where that came from.
I don't know what who, what fairy godmother I was talking
to, but I remember vividly talking about having four and
five kids. But then like the teen pregnancy
shows like came out when I was that age, like I was 16 when 16
and pregnant aired. So I remember like seeing those
dynamics and seeing those kids, like I just want to go to the
Ke$ha concert or like whatever. Like I remember seeing that in
real time. And I honestly think that shit
scarred me. Like it really scarred me.
And then my mom had put me on birth control at a really young
age because she had also had an abortion as a teenager.
So I think that like there were so many like taboo dynamics
around it that I was just like, that is my biggest fear is
getting pregnant. So I was like religious with the
birth control. I remember I used to take it at
at 3:00 every single day, never missed a beat ever.
And then I remember like when I was around like 27, I'd been on
birth control for like 12 years at this point or whatever.
And I remember knowing I wasn't supposed to be on it anymore.
So around like 27, that's also like when my awakening was
really in full force. That's when I originally started
my celibacy journey and like started cutting out like
unnecessary connections and people.
And then, you know, like I dated on and off and whatever, but
like I never really had fully engaged back into that.
And then boom, last year had sex one time and got fucking
pregnant. And so now like going through
that because technically, like my 40 weeks or however many
weeks would have been like this week, this week and last week
would have been like the time I was having the baby.
And what's so weird about that is literally our fucking entire
state is underwater down town where I would have had that baby
is underwater. Like there's so many dynamics
that would have been birthing a child into chaos or like
birthing that baby into chaos. And you all know from the
episode it's taboo where I talked about like this person
like ghosted me after we dated as literal like 1415 year old
teenagers. And this man had the audacity to
try to text me like 2 weeks ago. And then yeah, I didn't tell you
this, I'm saving it. He texted me two weeks ago.
I was at the Kid Rock concert. Actually, it's been like a week
and a half ago and I was at the Kid Rock concert with my dad
having a really healing moment and I didn't see the message.
Well, the next morning I was just like scrolling through my
messages and there was his phone number.
But when I clicked on the text box, it said blah, blah, blah,
unsent a message. So this man texted me.
I never saw it. And then he unsent the message,
Gemini unsent it. And this was like the due date
the doctor had given us. Like the 28th of March was the
day that he texted. And I'm pretty sure that the due
date was like the 28th or the 29th.
But in my heart I knew it was more like April 8th or 9th based
on like the, you know, the period and all the things.
But this man texted me and I'm like did he just subconsciously
text me or did he remember that this was the due date?
And then spirit knowing I don't want any more fucking bread
crumbs, I don't need any more bullshit in my life was
literally like Sir, you can remove that message now.
And he did, and I didn't even see what it said and he hasn't
tried to reach out since. What a piece of shit first of
all. Second of all, I fucking hate
him. Third of all, I'm so glad that
you didn't have his baby. Sorry how it happened.
So glad that you are not stuck with that.
That is. I feel like he absolutely knew
the timing of it, which I think is just an extra fuck up because
he literally didn't respond to you, text you anything while you
went through that entire miscarriage by yourself, all of
the emotional whatever. So for him to reach out when
you're supposed to be due and have literally anything to say
at all and then like the audacity to sit there and have
the balls to say it and then be a fucking pussy and delete it so
that you didn't see it. Like we can call it spirit, you
know, intervention or whatever, but he was being a little bitch
and he had all the fucking balls in the world to send you the
text. But then he had to backspace and
he had to delete it and then further ghost you, which like
that's what you want anyways. You don't want communication,
but it's the that entire situation for me bothers me so
much for you and especially with the fact that like you guys do
have history. You guys were together.
You guys did date when you were kids And like, I know that like
I haven't, you know, talked about like my relationship on
the podcast very much. But like we dated when I, you
know, I've known him since I was 11.
That was like my like love of my fucking life, childhood,
whatever. And he turned 18 when I wasn't
18 yet and my parents had a big problem with us dating And you
know, then life happens or whatever.
That's why we broke up and then you have life happen or
whatever. And you know, so I feel real
sensitive to your thing as far as like, oh, this is somebody
that like I loved when I was a kid and like, let's see, you
know, like this might go somewhere, whatever.
And then you getting treated that way.
And like there is so much emotion that, that and like
childhood trauma that goes in that.
Fuck this dude. I thought, I hope this fucking
house floods. I hope that the tornado fucking
sucks his soul up into it. I, there's so many things I wish
upon this person and I fucking hate him.
And if he listens to the podcast, Sir, I hope you jump
off a fucking Cliff and break. You're fine.
So the the real kicker to this is that.
He. Can reach out like when I'm with
my dad having a super healing moment when his dad doesn't love
him. That's all I could think about
when I saw that the next day I was like look at me spending
time with my dad healing and having a good time with my dad.
And your dad does not care about you, does not love you, and
really doesn't even claim you. Like that's crazy to me.
Like it's honestly funny because I know if I would have been at
home on that Friday, I would have saw that message.
Because in his perception he believes like, oh, she's always
on her phone. She literally has 2 phones, 2
computers. Like that bitch is always on her
phone. She's ignoring me.
So I know his ego got super rippled because I didn't like
reply. And then I don't know how much
time went by because when I got home at midnight, like the
message was not there. It was just like an empty text
box and I didn't notice it because I deleted his number.
So, you know, it was just numbers.
But yeah, I know it's really fucking weird.
And honestly, I don't even care what he had to say.
Like, that's how much I know I have like healed and transformed
the situation because that happened on Friday and then
Jackie ran into my other ex-boyfriend on Friday that same
day. That crazy of all the days?
You know, wiping your hands clean of it.
You have so many things. I know that you don't care about
the message and, and, and we don't care about the message.
I just, it's the audacity for me.
And it's the, it's the fact that it, it takes courage for you to
text somebody that you that there's an issue with or that
there's a whatever. And he knows that he was in the
wrong. So he sat there, he thought
about what it was. He thought, I'm going to disturb
her peace. And then he was like, man, and
I'm going to delete it too. And that for me it, it's the
it's the disrupting your piece twice for me after he already
disrupted your piece after he fucking.
Anyways, I know there's cliffs nearby.
I hope he finds the perfect one. I wish.
The other side note, I won't say who it was but someone who I
don't get along with, the tornado hit their neighborhood.
So all I got to fucking say is that return to sender is hitting
too fucking hard. When you're sending me stank
energy, just know there will be a tornado at your side to carry
you through because I literally don't wish bad on anyone.
But I promise you if you look at me and you're reflecting
negativity or, you know, jealousy, envy, just anything
towards me, you really should pray up.
You should fucking do the damn thing.
Because I promise you, no fucking Selenite or Tourmaline
is going to save you now. Like, don't fuck with me.
And honestly with him, I think it was like also one of those
things of like, do I still have access to her?
And when the message just sat there, he realized that what he
said wasn't going to fix anything.
So he just unsent it, which actually is beneficial for me
because now I don't have to wonder and have a conversation
with him. Like I can keep that door
completely closed and he's realizing I energetically don't
give a fuck. Like, it's so funny because I
remember telling you that I was doing all.
This spell work recently and multiple men were texting me
during those. The working one dude was like
are you just going to let us go out like that?
Someone else was like how's my favorite person doing?
I miss you so much. Someone else wrote me and
they're like maybe I should just cash out for you to get your
attention like this was. Meanwhile I'm doing a banishing
cord cutting ritual. Like this is during it, men are
blowing my phone up and I'm talking multiple people, some
people I had not talked to in like 5 and seven years.
So I know that I have been on this dude's mind and I know he's
been wanting to reach out, but the fact that he just randomly
did when I was like having an inner child healing moment with
my dad is so fucking wild. That is wild.
I feel like that happened for a reason, though, and I think that
it really was for you to be able to see that, like you've moved
on from that and you truly like you before, you could have been
like, yeah, like, you know, I'm over it, whatever.
But it was really him who had made the move for you guys to
not speak. And then now you really have the
opportunity presented to you where you could have been like,
hey, there's nothing in that message.
What's up? You know, you could have been
like, oh, I'm so happy that like we're talking, you know,
whatever it is, and you could have taken that moment to like
backslide and try and get some type of like closure, if you
will, or whatever. But the fact that you had the
peace and you had the healing from the situation already,
it's, it's clear that he fucked up.
He doesn't have that peace and that closure with it.
You do. And so I hope that it's eating
him up because what he did to you is one of the most fucked up
things to do to somebody. Literally like bitches be on the
Internet talking about like he ghosted me after our day or he
didn't pay for dinner or whatever it is.
But like being ghosted after a miscarriage, after being in a
relationship with someone and knowing them since like
literally half of my life I have known that person is crazy
fucking work. Like I promise you, your life is
going to suck because the ripple of karma from that isn't
anything that I could even project onto.
You like the? Universe is going to deliver on
the sense that you just don't do that to someone.
Like for one, being pregnant as a spiritual experience, having a
miscarriage is a deeper spiritual experience, but to
leave someone hanging when they literally we're just asking for
mental support. I was not asking for financial
support. I was not asking for any type of
support, but a mental like, let me FaceTime you and check on you
and see that you're OK. I'm so sorry.
Like instead, we'll figure this out together and never speak to
someone again. Like you can rot.
Like, and you know, what's funny is I have a lot of mutual
friends with him because we we grew up together.
I went to get a tattoo recently and my tattoo artist who we've
had on the podcast, one of my best friends also tattoos this
guy and a couple of his friends and he goes, yeah, he lost his
job because blah, blah, blah shut down their business because
they were doing it like a Co business together.
But the guy who was actually in control shut the business down
abruptly. He's like, so he's not doing
that anymore because Bob shut down his business.
So it's like, OK, it's already rippling.
Like you are not doing anything. And I promise you, anything you
thought you were going to do is halted because you're not.
You're not doing it. On that note, Sir, I fucking
hate you and do. You want to.
Pull us a card or do you have cards anymore?
Does she use cards anymore? The question is lingering.
I can go grab them if you want. I mean no I guess we don't get a
card anymore you all. How about you write Gemini?
She won't read it but tell her how you fucking miss her
messages and she's not going to check your Instagram DM or
accept the collaboration because she's deleted the app.
I have deleted I have I have deleted Instagram I have deleted
TikTok. I told you guys like I, I want
to come back and do like food things again.
I'm going to be a sourdough bitch.
So like I have a whole like sourdough thing, like sourdough
starter thing. And I definitely want to start
like baking and doing different kitchen witchery things with
like different herbs and stuff for like different rituals and
different times and different seasons and things like that.
And start like sharing recipes and stuff, which used to be a
big thing people would ask. And I'm like, I'm not that
bitch, but like when I come back, I'm going to be Susie
fucking Homemaker and I'm going to have like a YouTube and I'm
going to do a whole thing. But I am really enjoying the
time off of social media. I refuse to download Instagram
again right now. I refuse to download TikTok
again right now. And I am living my best life,
living my life and being present in it and figuring out all of
the things that I want to do off of social media and spending
time with my family. And then when I figure out
exactly how I want to be on social media and I feel
responsible enough to have business hours and have
parameters with things and it not consume my entire life, I
will be back. But in the meantime and and I
will be back for cooking videos and shit like that.
But in the meantime I am at peace living my life, loving my
life and the people in it. And I will just be here and not
accepting collaboration invites but want to be included on them.
Thank you. Something about getting that
good Dick has had her feel like guess what?
Fuck all y'all. Fuck your collaboration invite.
Fuck the your, your tagged memo. Don't tag me, bitch.
I'm not gonna see it. I think Gemini's gonna come back
and she's gonna drop a rap song or a collaboration.
She's got to start making music, y'all.
That's funny that you say that because somebody recently said
that to me. OK, well here we are.
I'm ready to see verse one. We'll do a feature.
We'll get Peach the feature. Could you imagine?
I come back and all like I got a fucking grill crapping with
Peach. You know I have a grill.
Yeah, I know you have a grill. Oh I'm about to wear it next
time for y'all. Well the updates are clear.
Don't disturb our peace or your your message will go on deaf
ears. Bitch I don't have the app.
I don't even don't use that app OK.
Yeah, I don't use that app. I have a new number like I have
a new number. I have a new phone.
I Life is new. Yeah, she even went to an
Android y'all. Like she's not even on the blue
bubble anymore. I can't even see the Switch's
location. I'm about to get her to download
Life 360 because I can't see her shit now.
I can't see what she's doing, I can't see if she read my
message. I don't see what she's doing.
I can't see nothing. What?
You can see if I read your message, I can see if you read
mine. I'm just fucking with you.
I'm it's a Motorola thank you and I will never do iPhone again
in this present moment. This phone is the fucking
titties. I I have no reason to go back to
iPhone right now. This thing is amazing.
Well y'all Gemini's on a whole new wave and she's not coming
back so we'll see you fucking next time in Candyland and
hopefully Gemini shows up. Bye.
Uh huh. Yeah, he says.
She's so sweet, like a rapper, like a lollipop.
Lollipop, Lollipop Lollipop Lollipop.