1 00:00:04,680 --> 00:00:10,880 Yeah, you say? She's so sweet, man. 2 00:00:11,000 --> 00:00:12,840 Come on. Like a rapper? 3 00:00:13,800 --> 00:00:14,640 Me. Like a lollipop. 4 00:00:14,840 --> 00:00:19,720 Lollipop Lollipop Lollipop. What's up fuckers? 5 00:00:19,720 --> 00:00:23,080 Welcome back to Candy Land. Paige is joining us from 6 00:00:23,080 --> 00:00:25,320 underwater today. Welcome to Atlantis. 7 00:00:25,960 --> 00:00:29,480 Yeah, we are flooded here in Kentucky. 8 00:00:29,480 --> 00:00:31,720 It's crazy. It's historical flooding. 9 00:00:33,120 --> 00:00:37,760 That's crazy. My man's sister lives in 10 00:00:37,760 --> 00:00:42,120 Tennessee and she was getting hit by tornadoes. 11 00:00:42,160 --> 00:00:44,680 I almost said volcanoes. It was not volcanoes, it was 12 00:00:44,680 --> 00:00:48,480 fucking tornadoes. And yeah, that was the other 13 00:00:48,480 --> 00:00:49,360 night. It was crazy. 14 00:00:50,200 --> 00:00:52,360 Yeah, We've had several tornadoes. 15 00:00:52,360 --> 00:00:56,640 There was an EF 3 that's been confirmed today that touched 16 00:00:56,640 --> 00:01:01,840 down Wednesday probably like, I don't know, 1520 minutes from my 17 00:01:01,840 --> 00:01:04,560 house total. What's an EF3? 18 00:01:05,040 --> 00:01:09,440 So they're ranked so like EF 1 would be like 90 mile per hour 19 00:01:09,440 --> 00:01:13,640 winds to about like 115 mile per hour. 20 00:01:13,880 --> 00:01:16,960 And then the stronger they get, they go up the scale. 21 00:01:16,960 --> 00:01:22,480 So this one was an EF 3 confirmed 145 mile per hour 22 00:01:22,480 --> 00:01:26,640 wind. So basically an EF one will RIP 23 00:01:26,640 --> 00:01:29,640 the roof off and EF 3 is destroying the whole building. 24 00:01:30,920 --> 00:01:34,840 Yeah, that's fucking crazy. And I think about wanting to 25 00:01:34,840 --> 00:01:38,040 like move out that direction and like be an East Coast girl. 26 00:01:38,280 --> 00:01:41,120 And I'm like, you know, then I have to deal with like 27 00:01:41,120 --> 00:01:44,680 alligators and tornadoes and fucking crazy Florida people, 28 00:01:44,680 --> 00:01:48,440 so. We're in the Midwest, and it's 29 00:01:48,440 --> 00:01:53,720 like we're in the area that gets almost all of the seasons. 30 00:01:53,720 --> 00:01:57,400 Like the only thing that we wouldn't get here in Kentucky 31 00:01:57,400 --> 00:02:02,320 would be like a hurricane because it would only hit like 32 00:02:02,320 --> 00:02:07,240 the ocean area type states. By the time it made it to us, it 33 00:02:07,240 --> 00:02:09,120 would just be like a crazy storm. 34 00:02:12,080 --> 00:02:14,280 That song Cyclone is stuck in my head now. 35 00:02:14,480 --> 00:02:18,080 She moves about it like a cyclone, so. 36 00:02:18,960 --> 00:02:23,760 Scary like it I mean obviously I felt very shielded and protected 37 00:02:24,080 --> 00:02:28,520 but you know Jeepers house was 5 minutes from the first tornado 38 00:02:28,880 --> 00:02:31,480 and like 5 minutes from the second tornado. 39 00:02:31,480 --> 00:02:36,200 So 2 tornadoes hit near her home within a four day period, which 40 00:02:36,200 --> 00:02:37,880 is so. Nuts, friend. 41 00:02:38,240 --> 00:02:43,680 And like they're comparing it to the May 1996 tornado which I 42 00:02:43,680 --> 00:02:47,280 survived in a trailer. Both of the trailers beside me 43 00:02:47,280 --> 00:02:50,800 were completely destroyed and our trailer was completely 44 00:02:50,800 --> 00:02:54,960 intact. No damage in an EF3 tornado. 45 00:02:55,200 --> 00:02:59,400 So like we haven't seen any catastrophic events in this 46 00:02:59,400 --> 00:03:04,240 magnitude since 1996 for the Tornadoes and 1997 for the 47 00:03:04,240 --> 00:03:07,000 flood. We're only like 1 foot away from 48 00:03:07,280 --> 00:03:10,360 reaching the same point as the 97 flood. 49 00:03:11,880 --> 00:03:16,720 So what constitutes for you guys leaving and evacuating during 50 00:03:16,720 --> 00:03:18,840 tornadoes? Because what I see from 51 00:03:18,840 --> 00:03:23,440 Midwesterners is people like videos on their front porch 52 00:03:23,440 --> 00:03:26,840 sipping their sweet tea and they're like, oh, look, there's 53 00:03:26,840 --> 00:03:30,120 a tornado off Yonder. I saw Wizard of Oz and I feel 54 00:03:30,120 --> 00:03:32,080 like you're going to go to fucking Munchkin Land if you 55 00:03:32,080 --> 00:03:36,040 don't head underground. At what point do you guys panic? 56 00:03:38,280 --> 00:03:42,240 The other night, last Sunday night when I was laying in bed 57 00:03:42,240 --> 00:03:44,080 and I was like everything's going to be fine. 58 00:03:44,080 --> 00:03:48,840 And every single tablet and device in my home started going 59 00:03:48,840 --> 00:03:52,440 off with the screams of take shelter now. 60 00:03:52,880 --> 00:03:56,600 So I think there was a moment I was like damn this is wild. 61 00:03:56,600 --> 00:04:01,480 So I went downstairs and I got into a closet with my cat cuz 62 00:04:01,480 --> 00:04:03,800 the other two cats were not trying to have it. 63 00:04:04,200 --> 00:04:09,200 And it was really crazy because at that moment four different 64 00:04:09,200 --> 00:04:13,120 people texted me and said the tornado is headed directly in 65 00:04:13,120 --> 00:04:16,519 your direction, are you okay? And that was scary because I 66 00:04:16,519 --> 00:04:18,839 wasn't watching the news. I was just looking at like the 67 00:04:18,839 --> 00:04:23,320 weather radar and when there is going to be a tornado they do 68 00:04:23,320 --> 00:04:26,560 these little direct boxes in my fucking house. 69 00:04:26,560 --> 00:04:30,320 Like where I live was in one of the direct boxes but it 70 00:04:30,480 --> 00:04:34,880 basically skipped where I lived. Touched down like 2 exits over 71 00:04:34,880 --> 00:04:38,040 and then completely demolished like 3 or 4 exits over. 72 00:04:38,040 --> 00:04:42,640 So in both directions. They were only like 3 exits away 73 00:04:42,640 --> 00:04:46,280 of my house each time so I felt very protected and shielded. 74 00:04:46,280 --> 00:04:50,720 I feel like I have like a gift of connecting with weather in a 75 00:04:50,720 --> 00:04:54,040 deeper way, being like an earth energy sign. 76 00:04:54,400 --> 00:04:57,080 So I don't know, Like I've already survived a tornado and a 77 00:04:57,080 --> 00:05:01,080 motherfucking trailer. So I'm not doing that again. 78 00:05:01,080 --> 00:05:05,600 Like I've already paid my karmic dues and I just feel like it's 79 00:05:05,600 --> 00:05:08,560 really crazy because two people I'm very close with had this 80 00:05:08,560 --> 00:05:13,360 tornado drop down within the like 5 mile range of their home. 81 00:05:13,360 --> 00:05:16,120 One person like a mile and 1/2 from their home. 82 00:05:16,400 --> 00:05:19,000 And I just feel like I was sending out all these protection 83 00:05:19,000 --> 00:05:22,600 bubbles to everyone like my family and friends and literally 84 00:05:22,640 --> 00:05:27,840 none of us have had any issues. I've just been really saddened 85 00:05:27,840 --> 00:05:31,520 for like the animals because people like take videos and 86 00:05:31,520 --> 00:05:34,440 don't help animals that are caught in trees and caught in 87 00:05:34,440 --> 00:05:38,360 fences and like hurt and that shit's pissing me off. 88 00:05:38,360 --> 00:05:41,960 Like humans, they'll be all right. 89 00:05:41,960 --> 00:05:44,560 Animals. I have an issue with people like 90 00:05:44,560 --> 00:05:46,440 leaving them behind. It sucks. 91 00:05:47,360 --> 00:05:50,680 I loved pit bulls and parolees and like, I used to watch that 92 00:05:50,680 --> 00:05:53,680 when I was a kid. And I remember when they opened 93 00:05:53,680 --> 00:05:58,560 Villalobos in New Orleans and they went there and they would 94 00:05:58,560 --> 00:06:03,400 like, go and save like dogs from floods and shit like that. 95 00:06:03,680 --> 00:06:08,640 And that's the only time that I've really seen like, rescuers 96 00:06:08,640 --> 00:06:12,960 going out, talking about going out in natural disasters and 97 00:06:12,960 --> 00:06:14,680 taking in animals and stuff like that. 98 00:06:14,680 --> 00:06:18,120 And I don't know if, like, you know, they obviously like they 99 00:06:18,120 --> 00:06:19,880 had producers in a network and stuff. 100 00:06:19,880 --> 00:06:23,120 I think they were on A&E because it used to be Dog the Bounty 101 00:06:23,120 --> 00:06:24,600 Hunter and then Pitbull and parolees. 102 00:06:26,240 --> 00:06:30,520 That's what I was into. And so we hunt the fugitives and 103 00:06:30,520 --> 00:06:32,920 then we hunt the animals and save them too. 104 00:06:34,480 --> 00:06:37,200 But I wonder if like they just had so much funding, they were 105 00:06:37,200 --> 00:06:39,640 able to do that. But I wonder if there's other 106 00:06:39,640 --> 00:06:43,720 rescues and stuff where they go out in storms and are able to 107 00:06:44,240 --> 00:06:46,600 get different animals and take them in and seek shelter. 108 00:06:46,600 --> 00:06:51,200 Because I mean, so many shelters that take in pets kill centers 109 00:06:51,520 --> 00:06:55,760 because they don't have the financial means or physical, you 110 00:06:55,760 --> 00:06:58,960 know, resource for board and whatever to be able to keep 111 00:06:58,960 --> 00:07:02,040 animals. I'm a huge advocate for going 112 00:07:02,040 --> 00:07:07,000 and adopting pets. When Jeremy first moved here, I 113 00:07:07,000 --> 00:07:10,160 was trying to figure out like something that we could go and 114 00:07:10,160 --> 00:07:12,360 do. And I was like, oh, we should go 115 00:07:12,360 --> 00:07:16,720 to like the ASPCA where I got Linda, my cat, and we should go 116 00:07:16,720 --> 00:07:19,240 and look at the animals and we're there for like 5 minutes. 117 00:07:19,240 --> 00:07:21,360 He's like, this is really sad, we need to leave. 118 00:07:21,360 --> 00:07:23,880 He said we're not here with the intention of getting any pets. 119 00:07:23,880 --> 00:07:27,640 We're just looking at them. And I'm like, no, I have fallen 120 00:07:27,640 --> 00:07:29,200 in love with a cat, a rabbit and a dog. 121 00:07:29,320 --> 00:07:30,920 Like we can walk out of here with a pet. 122 00:07:32,440 --> 00:07:37,320 Yeah, there was a rescue in Shepherdsville, KY, that had a 123 00:07:37,320 --> 00:07:39,840 bunch of animals. And they posted on this 124 00:07:39,840 --> 00:07:43,040 Shepherdsville group and said the kennels are starting to 125 00:07:43,040 --> 00:07:45,600 flood. We need volunteers to rescue 126 00:07:45,600 --> 00:07:48,920 these dogs that can anyone help? And like, within the hour, it 127 00:07:48,920 --> 00:07:51,680 gives me chills because within the hour there were, like, so 128 00:07:51,680 --> 00:07:54,680 many people using their own boats, their own trucks, their 129 00:07:54,680 --> 00:07:58,280 own means to get these animals. And now they're in need of 130 00:07:58,280 --> 00:08:00,960 fosters, which is really, really sad. 131 00:08:01,880 --> 00:08:04,080 You know, I already have my fair share of animals. 132 00:08:04,080 --> 00:08:07,200 If I could have a farm and have many, many more, I totally 133 00:08:07,200 --> 00:08:10,320 fucking would. Like I have this dream of having 134 00:08:10,320 --> 00:08:15,360 like a farm with kind of like a Moat around it where like cats 135 00:08:15,360 --> 00:08:19,040 can run free and like be adopted and just like live their life 136 00:08:19,160 --> 00:08:22,240 out as like farm cats. Because I've seen a lot of 137 00:08:22,240 --> 00:08:26,920 people have animals and like want to rehome them or want to 138 00:08:26,920 --> 00:08:29,240 get rid of them or whatever. And it would just be nice to 139 00:08:29,240 --> 00:08:32,360 like have a safe place for them. But you know, I've saved a 140 00:08:32,360 --> 00:08:36,280 couple cats in the last like couple months with the one eyed 141 00:08:36,280 --> 00:08:38,320 cat that was outside with the hurt eye. 142 00:08:38,320 --> 00:08:40,919 We took him to the shelter, they fixed him up. 143 00:08:40,919 --> 00:08:42,919 They called me, said that I could adopt him. 144 00:08:42,919 --> 00:08:47,760 They named him Odyssey and within that 24 hours he was off 145 00:08:47,760 --> 00:08:51,520 the website so they totally he got adopted so that was really 146 00:08:51,520 --> 00:08:53,880 good. And then I have my 2 strays that 147 00:08:53,880 --> 00:08:55,800 I feed outside that are both boys. 148 00:08:55,800 --> 00:08:58,800 And I don't think they're fixed. So I'm just praying that they 149 00:08:58,800 --> 00:09:03,440 don't bring any cats or kittens home this summer or spring. 150 00:09:03,760 --> 00:09:07,080 But I don't know, like I was more like upset about the wild 151 00:09:07,080 --> 00:09:09,440 animals. Like there was a video of like a 152 00:09:09,440 --> 00:09:12,080 deer stuck in a fence and people are just like, leave it just 153 00:09:12,080 --> 00:09:13,320 whatever. And I get it. 154 00:09:13,320 --> 00:09:15,440 Like, but it still broke my heart. 155 00:09:15,440 --> 00:09:19,080 And then I've now today saw two people rescue animals. 156 00:09:19,080 --> 00:09:22,320 One girl rescued a cat off a porch that was surrounded by 157 00:09:22,320 --> 00:09:24,840 water. And then another girl rescued a 158 00:09:24,840 --> 00:09:26,760 baby deer out of a field full of water. 159 00:09:26,760 --> 00:09:28,960 So, you know, there is a balance. 160 00:09:28,960 --> 00:09:32,880 And one time this poet, there was a poem by this poet and it 161 00:09:32,880 --> 00:09:36,600 said in order for so many things to live, so many things must 162 00:09:36,600 --> 00:09:38,480 die. And that's kind of like 163 00:09:38,520 --> 00:09:41,320 something that like rings in the back of my head when I'm trying 164 00:09:41,320 --> 00:09:45,480 to like, navigate shit like that, that's upsetting me. 165 00:09:45,480 --> 00:09:50,600 And understanding that, like, you know, this is a physical 166 00:09:50,600 --> 00:09:54,200 place, but there is an eternal scale that we exist on. 167 00:09:54,520 --> 00:09:58,480 And I've really been shifting from like past lives to like all 168 00:09:58,480 --> 00:10:02,000 lives are like congruent together. 169 00:10:02,000 --> 00:10:04,080 Like all lives are ever changing together. 170 00:10:04,080 --> 00:10:08,000 Like you're not in a past timeline or a future timeline. 171 00:10:08,000 --> 00:10:11,160 Like you are an eternal being. So I've really been trying to 172 00:10:11,160 --> 00:10:14,800 process like that because my heart just really aches for 173 00:10:14,800 --> 00:10:17,600 animals. Like people not so much. 174 00:10:17,680 --> 00:10:19,720 I don't know why. Like people, they're their own 175 00:10:19,880 --> 00:10:22,040 worst enemy most of the time. Like obviously I don't want 176 00:10:22,040 --> 00:10:25,720 people to suffer through natural disasters or anything, but I 177 00:10:25,720 --> 00:10:30,320 just think people they do more harm than good and animals are 178 00:10:30,320 --> 00:10:33,840 just innocent and it just like it disrupts my spirit when I see 179 00:10:33,840 --> 00:10:37,120 things like that, like people recording and not fucking 180 00:10:37,120 --> 00:10:43,040 helping. Yeah, I think that there's some 181 00:10:43,120 --> 00:10:47,560 there's programs that some prisons do with animals, like 182 00:10:47,560 --> 00:10:50,800 with dogs and things like that, where they actually, I mean, 183 00:10:51,040 --> 00:10:53,720 they have to be able to like earn the privilege and whatever. 184 00:10:53,720 --> 00:10:57,760 But they're able to have pets that they have full time in 185 00:10:57,760 --> 00:11:00,520 there that they're responsible to take care of and like nurture 186 00:11:00,520 --> 00:11:02,320 and whatever. And it's a part of the like 187 00:11:02,400 --> 00:11:07,880 their rehabilitation program. And I think that animals are so 188 00:11:07,880 --> 00:11:10,840 healing for so many people. Like there are so many people 189 00:11:10,840 --> 00:11:15,680 for whatever reasons, you know, traumas, experiences, you know, 190 00:11:16,200 --> 00:11:19,880 self separation, whatever, aren't able to have good 191 00:11:19,880 --> 00:11:25,120 connections with other people. And I think that connection with 192 00:11:25,120 --> 00:11:29,080 people is also a like taught thing and a learned thing. 193 00:11:29,360 --> 00:11:32,440 And people can be taught to have horrible interactions with 194 00:11:32,440 --> 00:11:36,040 people if they're put in bad situations their whole life and 195 00:11:36,040 --> 00:11:37,920 they're always taught that people around them are going to 196 00:11:37,920 --> 00:11:41,000 be bad and whatever. I think that people in those 197 00:11:41,000 --> 00:11:45,880 situations sometimes end up just turning out to be really bad 198 00:11:45,880 --> 00:11:48,280 towards others because that's what they've experienced. 199 00:11:48,760 --> 00:11:51,840 And having the opportunity to be able to have like animals that 200 00:11:51,840 --> 00:11:56,040 they take care of or whatever might give them a sense of like 201 00:11:56,720 --> 00:11:59,560 healing for themselves and everything not being bad. 202 00:11:59,560 --> 00:12:04,760 And I think that there's so many different ways for animals to be 203 00:12:05,000 --> 00:12:10,440 introduced in for helping people, like people use animals 204 00:12:10,440 --> 00:12:12,880 for therapy animals and all different types of stuff. 205 00:12:13,240 --> 00:12:18,240 And I think that it could be used in so many other than it 206 00:12:18,240 --> 00:12:20,040 currently is. I feel like it's really limited 207 00:12:20,040 --> 00:12:21,840 and people really take advantage. 208 00:12:21,840 --> 00:12:25,880 I think there's a difference between like, you know, your, 209 00:12:25,880 --> 00:12:30,160 your cat is certified on your lease versus like you can you 210 00:12:30,160 --> 00:12:32,640 know, you're, you should take your Peacock on a plane because 211 00:12:32,640 --> 00:12:34,200 it's like your emotional support pet. 212 00:12:35,160 --> 00:12:37,400 But I think that there's so many different ways that they could 213 00:12:37,400 --> 00:12:41,280 be utilizing all of these different animals to help people 214 00:12:41,280 --> 00:12:44,760 in so many ways, whether it be companionship or actually be 215 00:12:45,160 --> 00:12:48,400 therapeutic or what not. It's interesting that you bring 216 00:12:48,400 --> 00:12:51,880 that up because I went to the gym and there was a man with his 217 00:12:51,880 --> 00:12:56,760 service dog working out. And you can tell when like some 218 00:12:56,760 --> 00:12:59,760 dogs have been a service dog for a long time, like they're super 219 00:12:59,760 --> 00:13:01,160 chill. But you could tell this one was 220 00:13:01,160 --> 00:13:05,400 like a kind of you have a baby, like, you know, he wanted pets. 221 00:13:05,400 --> 00:13:09,480 Like he knew that I like was looking at him and he jumped up 222 00:13:09,480 --> 00:13:11,480 and he was like, no, you got to lay down like, no. 223 00:13:11,880 --> 00:13:13,440 And I said, Oh, he's being a good boy. 224 00:13:13,440 --> 00:13:16,360 And he was like, he's trying. Obviously, I know it's like 225 00:13:16,360 --> 00:13:19,160 against the rules to pet them unless they like offer for you 226 00:13:19,160 --> 00:13:21,600 to pet them. But you could tell that he was 227 00:13:21,600 --> 00:13:26,280 like really trying to navigate like the anxious, like wags of 228 00:13:26,280 --> 00:13:29,800 his tail of like, I really want to interact with this person 229 00:13:30,680 --> 00:13:33,680 because I can tell, you know, that she likes me or I can tell 230 00:13:33,680 --> 00:13:35,760 that she wants me to, you know, whatever. 231 00:13:35,760 --> 00:13:39,080 So I think it's great. I think service animals are so 232 00:13:39,080 --> 00:13:42,440 crucial for so many people. And I think it's amazing that 233 00:13:42,440 --> 00:13:46,160 like dogs can be trained to like recognize seizures and panic 234 00:13:46,160 --> 00:13:49,640 attacks. But the flip side of that is it 235 00:13:49,640 --> 00:13:52,480 is very expensive to get your service dog trained in those 236 00:13:52,480 --> 00:14:00,080 ways. It is very and so when I had my 237 00:14:00,080 --> 00:14:04,720 dog before I was looking at getting him signed up for like a 238 00:14:04,720 --> 00:14:07,560 doggy daycare thing. It was in California and like 239 00:14:07,560 --> 00:14:10,880 this bus would come pick up your dog for the day, go take it. 240 00:14:10,880 --> 00:14:13,280 It's like B train, hang out with other dogs, whatever. 241 00:14:13,560 --> 00:14:15,720 That shit was thousands of fucking dollars. 242 00:14:15,960 --> 00:14:19,960 But like they gave the dogs like their own little spot on the bus 243 00:14:19,960 --> 00:14:22,760 and they would like clip them in and I just like I it was 244 00:14:22,760 --> 00:14:25,080 aesthetically adorable financially. 245 00:14:25,080 --> 00:14:27,680 It just like fucking train your dog yourself. 246 00:14:28,720 --> 00:14:31,480 That's another thing that bugs me is when people don't properly 247 00:14:31,480 --> 00:14:33,840 train their animal and they don't want to have the animal 248 00:14:33,840 --> 00:14:36,400 anymore because it doesn't integrate, you know, into their 249 00:14:36,400 --> 00:14:38,000 family or it's hurting people or whatever. 250 00:14:38,000 --> 00:14:41,560 And it's like, and there are some animals where like you're 251 00:14:41,560 --> 00:14:44,040 doing your best to train them and you can't, but there's a lot 252 00:14:44,040 --> 00:14:47,800 of people who don't put in the time and effort and they get 253 00:14:47,920 --> 00:14:52,760 high energy breeds or you know, whatever or, or stubborn breeds. 254 00:14:52,760 --> 00:14:56,840 And I feel like that's where the negative connotation of like pit 255 00:14:56,840 --> 00:15:02,200 bulls and Rottweilers and those types of dogs come in is because 256 00:15:03,200 --> 00:15:06,920 they are kind of stubborn dogs and people don't take the time 257 00:15:07,360 --> 00:15:11,320 to nurture them and and teach them and train them properly. 258 00:15:12,320 --> 00:15:15,480 One of my favorite breeds of dogs is a pit bull and I don't 259 00:15:15,480 --> 00:15:18,840 know if it's because it's like the black sheep of the dog like 260 00:15:18,840 --> 00:15:21,680 breeds and it gets like such a bad rap. 261 00:15:21,680 --> 00:15:25,080 And like people have like this weird vendetta against pit 262 00:15:25,080 --> 00:15:28,040 bulls. But like a lot of big dogs that 263 00:15:28,040 --> 00:15:33,240 I have liked, like truly liked were pit bulls and a lot of them 264 00:15:33,240 --> 00:15:37,120 came from like rescue domestic crazy situations. 265 00:15:37,680 --> 00:15:41,840 I just don't understand the brain of someone that would harm 266 00:15:41,840 --> 00:15:47,400 an animal or like fight dogs or whatever it may be. 267 00:15:47,400 --> 00:15:49,600 Like it just doesn't even make sense to me. 268 00:15:49,800 --> 00:15:52,800 And I just know there's a very, very special place in the ether 269 00:15:52,800 --> 00:15:55,400 that those people end up for eternity. 270 00:15:57,080 --> 00:16:01,400 But I just feel like there's so many beautiful animals out there 271 00:16:01,400 --> 00:16:04,480 that are manipulated, taking advantage of, you know, 272 00:16:04,480 --> 00:16:08,840 overbred, whatever. And then people look around and 273 00:16:08,840 --> 00:16:12,320 we're overpopulated with all these animals and they act like 274 00:16:12,320 --> 00:16:15,280 there's no way to fix it. Like fucking neuter and spay 275 00:16:15,280 --> 00:16:17,800 your animals. Stop breeding them. 276 00:16:17,800 --> 00:16:22,160 Stop carelessly, you know, dropping them off at a pound 277 00:16:22,160 --> 00:16:24,840 because you didn't train them in their early years. 278 00:16:24,840 --> 00:16:28,160 Like I see that so much. Like now I'm at the point on 279 00:16:28,160 --> 00:16:31,480 Facebook if I see someone rehoming their pet for any other 280 00:16:31,480 --> 00:16:36,960 reason than a literal emergency life or death situation Like oh 281 00:16:36,960 --> 00:16:39,680 I'm pregnant, I'm going to rehome my cat or oh I'm this I'm 282 00:16:39,680 --> 00:16:42,640 going to rehome my animal. I literally just delete them 283 00:16:42,680 --> 00:16:46,920 because I never want to see that stank coochie energy on my feet 284 00:16:46,920 --> 00:16:50,280 again. You know, you've mentioned that 285 00:16:50,280 --> 00:16:53,040 like a couple different times before that, you know, people 286 00:16:53,040 --> 00:16:55,920 will do that. I, I really like, I made a 287 00:16:55,920 --> 00:16:57,720 Facebook post. I want to say it was like 288 00:16:57,720 --> 00:17:00,080 yesterday morning or the morning before. 289 00:17:00,080 --> 00:17:02,720 And it's the first time that I've posted on Facebook in a 290 00:17:02,720 --> 00:17:07,960 real long time. And I went on there and I've 291 00:17:07,960 --> 00:17:09,800 told you, like, I don't scroll anymore. 292 00:17:09,800 --> 00:17:11,880 Like I've taken Instagram off my phone. 293 00:17:11,880 --> 00:17:13,680 I don't have TikTok on my phone anymore. 294 00:17:13,680 --> 00:17:17,160 Like I don't scroll and I don't sit there and digest social 295 00:17:17,160 --> 00:17:19,560 media anymore. And the other morning I was 296 00:17:19,560 --> 00:17:22,240 like, I'm just going to like, I got on there for one thing. 297 00:17:22,240 --> 00:17:25,040 And then I just ended up scrolling and it was just like 298 00:17:26,400 --> 00:17:29,960 people giving every fucking detail of their fucking 299 00:17:29,960 --> 00:17:32,880 relationship. And it is like a pet peeve to me 300 00:17:33,200 --> 00:17:37,240 that like, I don't care that you and like that Jim Bob is being 301 00:17:37,240 --> 00:17:39,800 mean to you and that you had to call his mother and like, 302 00:17:39,800 --> 00:17:41,680 whatever. And then the next day you guys 303 00:17:41,680 --> 00:17:43,440 are totally fine. And then this is what you're 304 00:17:43,440 --> 00:17:45,120 making him for dinner. And then you guys have an 305 00:17:45,120 --> 00:17:48,040 argument and then like back and forth and back and forth and 306 00:17:48,040 --> 00:17:50,680 people, you do that on Facebook and it is not your fucking 307 00:17:50,680 --> 00:17:53,360 diary. Nobody needs a play by play of 308 00:17:53,360 --> 00:17:55,280 what you have going on in your relationship. 309 00:17:55,560 --> 00:17:57,200 Posting pictures because you're happy. 310 00:17:57,200 --> 00:17:59,520 Totally get that. But there's a point in which 311 00:17:59,520 --> 00:18:02,560 you're like, oh, every single day you're posting a picture of 312 00:18:02,560 --> 00:18:05,200 you and Jim Bob. OK, so that's your relationship 313 00:18:05,200 --> 00:18:08,760 is for the gram Got it. But that fucking annoys me. 314 00:18:08,760 --> 00:18:12,160 And then people that just go on there to do nothing but complain 315 00:18:12,560 --> 00:18:19,280 and it's like complaining about your weight, complaining about, 316 00:18:19,640 --> 00:18:21,840 you know, every situation, whatever. 317 00:18:22,120 --> 00:18:25,680 And it it's just like a toxic to consume. 318 00:18:25,680 --> 00:18:29,360 So I was like, I'm going to make a post and remind y'all to like 319 00:18:29,360 --> 00:18:32,840 go outside and get a little bit of sunshine on your skin and, 320 00:18:33,600 --> 00:18:35,280 you know, think positive thoughts or whatever. 321 00:18:35,280 --> 00:18:40,560 Because I was like, holy shit. This is like there are people 322 00:18:40,560 --> 00:18:44,520 who all the interaction that they have with the world is 323 00:18:44,520 --> 00:18:48,200 social media. They go to work, they social 324 00:18:48,200 --> 00:18:49,320 media. That's the only way that they 325 00:18:49,320 --> 00:18:51,160 talk to their friends. It's the only way they see their 326 00:18:51,160 --> 00:18:52,280 friends. They don't text. 327 00:18:52,280 --> 00:18:55,840 They just look and they see what's going on on, you know, 328 00:18:55,840 --> 00:18:59,360 Facebook and that's fucking it. And between that and people and 329 00:18:59,360 --> 00:19:03,800 their animals, I am like I I could do with never being a 330 00:19:03,800 --> 00:19:06,320 scroller again because it it is pointless. 331 00:19:07,320 --> 00:19:09,960 See that's so funny because I went through that phase where 332 00:19:09,960 --> 00:19:14,280 like every single night at like 7 PMI would put my phones on do 333 00:19:14,280 --> 00:19:16,680 not disturb and I would not touch them until the next 334 00:19:16,680 --> 00:19:19,840 morning. But now I feel like I've been on 335 00:19:19,840 --> 00:19:23,640 the scrolling of TikTok. I've gotten back on TikTok a 336 00:19:23,640 --> 00:19:27,200 little bit, but I've been scrolling a little bit lately. 337 00:19:27,200 --> 00:19:31,080 And instead of engaging with that lower vibrational stuff, 338 00:19:31,080 --> 00:19:34,560 like I just delete the person. Like if I see something and I'm 339 00:19:34,560 --> 00:19:35,920 just like, oh, I don't like their energy. 340 00:19:35,920 --> 00:19:37,760 I just delete them like they could literally literally be 341 00:19:37,760 --> 00:19:41,680 like box spring and mattress for sale $50. 342 00:19:41,680 --> 00:19:44,440 And if I don't resonate with this message, I just delete 343 00:19:44,440 --> 00:19:48,760 them. But it's so funny because like, 344 00:19:48,760 --> 00:19:52,200 I love the audacity of people trying to sell something for 345 00:19:52,200 --> 00:19:55,720 full price that they have just used up there. 346 00:19:55,720 --> 00:19:59,320 Recently I've been on Marketplace and I found a couple 347 00:19:59,320 --> 00:20:02,920 cool things on Marketplace and I fucking hate Target. 348 00:20:02,960 --> 00:20:05,040 I think Target's the worst establishment. 349 00:20:05,360 --> 00:20:08,440 I think they're just trash. Their prices, their everything. 350 00:20:08,800 --> 00:20:12,240 Well, the universe was like, guess what Target's doing? 351 00:20:12,240 --> 00:20:14,400 They're having a sale on lava lamps. 352 00:20:14,720 --> 00:20:18,680 So I got on their website and I saw like $50 lava lamps for like 353 00:20:18,680 --> 00:20:20,880 $18.00. So I ordered a bunch. 354 00:20:21,280 --> 00:20:24,480 I took the one that I got from Facebook Marketplace, switched 355 00:20:24,480 --> 00:20:27,160 the base with the new base and returned it. 356 00:20:27,640 --> 00:20:30,840 Got my money back and I'm just like fuck Target, fuck the 357 00:20:30,840 --> 00:20:33,120 system. I will find a loophole in any 358 00:20:33,120 --> 00:20:36,040 direction. But I've just been like on this 359 00:20:36,040 --> 00:20:37,640 point of just boycotting everything. 360 00:20:37,640 --> 00:20:42,240 Like I hadn't got on Amazon and ordered anything all year except 361 00:20:42,240 --> 00:20:44,560 like maybe the first week of the year. 362 00:20:45,520 --> 00:20:49,000 And I got on there last night. And normally I would order spell 363 00:20:49,000 --> 00:20:51,880 candles like just every month, but this time I was like, I'm 364 00:20:51,880 --> 00:20:54,600 going to order 10 boxes. It's 1000 candles and I'm not 365 00:20:54,600 --> 00:20:56,440 fucking with it. Like, I'm not going to be back. 366 00:20:56,920 --> 00:20:59,640 So I've just been doing this thing where like, I just 367 00:20:59,640 --> 00:21:03,120 initially get everything I need and then delete the app or 368 00:21:03,120 --> 00:21:06,400 delete the account. Like Etsy keeps getting brought 369 00:21:06,400 --> 00:21:08,960 up because of all this like tariff stuff. 370 00:21:09,360 --> 00:21:13,320 And I can't stand Etsy because there are so many people on 371 00:21:13,320 --> 00:21:17,400 there who get their artwork scammed, recreated by the Sheen 372 00:21:17,400 --> 00:21:21,800 or the team moves of the world, and then they get screwed. 373 00:21:21,840 --> 00:21:25,840 And so when I saw that there was like a strike of artists against 374 00:21:25,840 --> 00:21:29,120 like Etsy, I've talked about this before, I just deleted my 375 00:21:29,120 --> 00:21:31,840 whole account, like just completely deleted the whole 376 00:21:31,840 --> 00:21:34,040 account. It took so many steps. 377 00:21:34,040 --> 00:21:35,880 I had to do so many verifications. 378 00:21:36,160 --> 00:21:39,440 But I'm not going to support platforms who don't back their 379 00:21:39,440 --> 00:21:41,720 creators. And that's like the same thing 380 00:21:41,720 --> 00:21:44,120 with Instagram. I've stopped posting publicly 381 00:21:44,320 --> 00:21:46,200 and just been posting on close friends. 382 00:21:46,200 --> 00:21:50,680 And now when I do post publicly, boom 1000 views. 383 00:21:51,760 --> 00:21:59,120 Yeah, I don't fuck with Betsy. There's a couple of. 384 00:21:59,360 --> 00:22:02,320 I used to love Etsy because I really like supporting 385 00:22:02,320 --> 00:22:06,280 independent artists on things. I think that that was a way that 386 00:22:06,280 --> 00:22:11,680 a lot of people were getting their, their artwork and even 387 00:22:11,680 --> 00:22:14,280 like witchcraft boxes and stuff at first, like when I was 388 00:22:14,440 --> 00:22:16,880 before, I had shops that wanted to send me things, I'd be like, 389 00:22:16,920 --> 00:22:20,040 oh, what types of stuff can I put inside of witchcraft boxes? 390 00:22:20,120 --> 00:22:23,560 I'll buy, you know, one of these big witchcraft boxes and I'll, 391 00:22:23,560 --> 00:22:26,160 I'll divide up different stuff and whatever and say what shop I 392 00:22:26,160 --> 00:22:28,560 got it from. And then I started to notice 393 00:22:28,560 --> 00:22:31,960 that it wasn't like people putting together custom boxes 394 00:22:31,960 --> 00:22:34,840 anymore. It was like some generic thing 395 00:22:34,840 --> 00:22:37,680 that they went down and they bought at like Ross or 396 00:22:37,680 --> 00:22:39,360 something. But then they're trying to like 397 00:22:39,360 --> 00:22:42,440 resell and that's not quality product for one. 398 00:22:42,440 --> 00:22:44,960 For two, what the fuck am I going to pay you and shipping 399 00:22:44,960 --> 00:22:47,280 for something I could have gone down if I wanted to get it from 400 00:22:47,280 --> 00:22:50,360 Ross that I got it from fucking Ross or told somebody to do 401 00:22:50,360 --> 00:22:54,560 that. And so there aren't tons of 402 00:22:54,560 --> 00:22:59,040 platforms where you get to support people individually for 403 00:22:59,040 --> 00:23:02,480 their crafts. And I think that's why it's so 404 00:23:02,520 --> 00:23:05,760 you know, people, I know that people get frustrated that some 405 00:23:05,760 --> 00:23:09,680 of our stuff is behind paywalls and you know that that we do 406 00:23:09,680 --> 00:23:11,680 some of the things that we do the way that we do it. 407 00:23:11,680 --> 00:23:14,440 And it's like if people have learned nothing from this 408 00:23:14,440 --> 00:23:17,840 podcast, it's that anytime that you have an original idea, 409 00:23:17,840 --> 00:23:21,720 there's some dumb ass broad who can't fucking think of an 410 00:23:21,720 --> 00:23:23,480 original thought. If it's going to save her God 411 00:23:23,480 --> 00:23:27,240 damn life and she's going to take whatever idea that there 412 00:23:27,240 --> 00:23:31,120 is, fuck it up, and then try and distribute it as her own. 413 00:23:32,000 --> 00:23:37,240 And so a lot of what we do is on behind paywalls for a fucking 414 00:23:37,240 --> 00:23:39,880 reason. And I think that more artists 415 00:23:39,880 --> 00:23:42,560 and shit should figure out how to get their stuff behind a 416 00:23:42,560 --> 00:23:46,760 paywall, whether it be that they are, they have their website and 417 00:23:46,760 --> 00:23:48,880 they're putting their art out through their own website and 418 00:23:48,880 --> 00:23:51,600 distributing it themselves or clothing or whatever. 419 00:23:51,840 --> 00:23:54,960 The second that you put it onto the Internet on something like 420 00:23:54,960 --> 00:23:58,880 Etsy or Amazon or whatever that is giving other people 421 00:23:58,880 --> 00:24:01,520 permission to mass fucking produce that and go, well, I 422 00:24:01,520 --> 00:24:03,280 found it on Etsy. I found it on Amazon. 423 00:24:03,520 --> 00:24:06,240 You can't tell me that you find an original thing on my website 424 00:24:06,240 --> 00:24:10,680 and that it's somewhere else. That's so fucking real. 425 00:24:10,680 --> 00:24:17,400 There's this other crowdfunding platform called Grouped GROUPD 426 00:24:17,720 --> 00:24:20,640 and I recently signed up because one of my favorite artists is on 427 00:24:20,640 --> 00:24:25,480 there and there's like a public wall that people can comment and 428 00:24:25,480 --> 00:24:29,280 tell me why someone signed up for this man's platform and then 429 00:24:29,280 --> 00:24:34,080 hopped on there to bash him for putting his content behind a pay 430 00:24:34,080 --> 00:24:38,120 wall and said that he was scamming his fans and basically 431 00:24:38,120 --> 00:24:41,840 that he could get fucked. And I'm like so you paid money 432 00:24:41,840 --> 00:24:45,600 to hop on here and say that like that's fucking crazy. 433 00:24:45,600 --> 00:24:48,760 So I literally just caught I could like because you can all 434 00:24:48,760 --> 00:24:51,000 see it. So I just replied to dudes post 435 00:24:51,000 --> 00:24:54,440 and I said Yikes. So I may or may not be getting 436 00:24:54,440 --> 00:24:57,600 into it with that guy later because what the fuck was that? 437 00:24:57,960 --> 00:25:01,040 And honestly like the thing I liked about this is because he 438 00:25:01,040 --> 00:25:06,920 has like tears like 5/10/15. But then you can set a custom 439 00:25:06,920 --> 00:25:10,680 amount and I like the number 11. So I just did 1111. 440 00:25:11,160 --> 00:25:13,320 I don't know. And just like for no reason at 441 00:25:13,320 --> 00:25:16,920 all, just I like that number. But then like when he releases 442 00:25:16,920 --> 00:25:20,240 certain things like vlogs or behind the scenes stuff like you 443 00:25:20,240 --> 00:25:24,000 have access to it. And it's really just crazy to me 444 00:25:24,000 --> 00:25:28,800 that still the haters, the monitoring spirits, the matrix 445 00:25:28,800 --> 00:25:32,720 handler, whatever tries to hop on there saying fucked up shit 446 00:25:32,720 --> 00:25:36,240 like get a grip. But another thing that a lot of 447 00:25:36,240 --> 00:25:40,480 artists are doing is they're like like printing self 448 00:25:40,480 --> 00:25:43,440 portraits and autographing them and then selling them. 449 00:25:43,440 --> 00:25:45,680 Or I know Bunny and Jelly have done that in the past. 450 00:25:45,680 --> 00:25:49,440 Like a lot of people are finding new ways to generate income. 451 00:25:49,680 --> 00:25:52,240 And I'm not going to lie, like I love this artist, but I wouldn't 452 00:25:52,240 --> 00:25:57,520 pay $150.00 for their self-portrait because like, I 453 00:25:57,520 --> 00:25:59,480 just like, do you Boo? Someone else will pay that. 454 00:25:59,480 --> 00:26:01,960 Like, I get it. But at the same time, like I 455 00:26:01,960 --> 00:26:03,960 support that. Like I fucks with that because 456 00:26:03,960 --> 00:26:08,080 they only did 99 of those. And yeah, they, they ran up a 457 00:26:08,080 --> 00:26:10,880 bag, but like, it's not like they're mass producing it. 458 00:26:10,880 --> 00:26:15,200 And one day that will be worth a significant amount of money if, 459 00:26:15,720 --> 00:26:18,760 you know, they do succeed or whatever. 460 00:26:19,000 --> 00:26:23,000 But I think so many haters who have nothing to fucking do are 461 00:26:23,000 --> 00:26:26,200 constantly like being a hater. Like earlier on Facebook, this 462 00:26:26,200 --> 00:26:29,640 guy said birth control should have always been for women. 463 00:26:29,640 --> 00:26:31,040 And that's the end of the debate. 464 00:26:31,040 --> 00:26:34,280 And I commented, I didn't delete them, I decided to comment. 465 00:26:34,280 --> 00:26:38,200 And I said the male population is enough birth control for me, 466 00:26:40,440 --> 00:26:43,040 because it is. That's such a topic though, 467 00:26:43,040 --> 00:26:48,400 because the way that birth control fucks with women's 468 00:26:48,400 --> 00:26:53,080 hormones and all types of shit. Like you can have a kid and then 469 00:26:53,080 --> 00:26:56,720 you can have taken birth control that was a hormonal birth 470 00:26:56,720 --> 00:27:00,080 control that stopped your cycles and whatever. 471 00:27:00,080 --> 00:27:02,480 And that shit can make you infertile and you can not have 472 00:27:02,480 --> 00:27:05,680 kids further down the line even though you've had kids before. 473 00:27:06,000 --> 00:27:09,680 And the fact that it's like the responsibility of women to have 474 00:27:09,680 --> 00:27:13,840 birth control because a dude doesn't want to wear a condom or 475 00:27:13,840 --> 00:27:15,560 whatever else. And like, well, that's 476 00:27:15,560 --> 00:27:17,800 uncomfortable. Well, so is having an IUD shoved 477 00:27:17,800 --> 00:27:19,840 in your fucking uterus. But women are doing it everyday, 478 00:27:20,840 --> 00:27:24,800 you know, like I, I just think that there really needs to be 479 00:27:25,120 --> 00:27:31,400 more options too for pregnancy prevention because a lot of 480 00:27:31,400 --> 00:27:35,080 people do not fucking want kids. And there are a lot of kids who 481 00:27:35,080 --> 00:27:39,800 end up being born who the system doesn't help. 482 00:27:39,800 --> 00:27:42,080 The system loses. The system fucking doesn't lose 483 00:27:42,080 --> 00:27:44,360 them. They sell them and put them into 484 00:27:44,360 --> 00:27:46,080 sex trafficking. And then they don't want to talk 485 00:27:46,080 --> 00:27:48,600 about that. And I'll blow your fucking lid 486 00:27:48,600 --> 00:27:50,960 wide open and let you know that, like the US government 487 00:27:50,960 --> 00:27:56,640 absolutely loses track Bunny ears on that of so many fucking 488 00:27:56,640 --> 00:27:58,560 children inside of the foster care system. 489 00:27:58,560 --> 00:28:00,280 And it's because they're pimping them out. 490 00:28:00,720 --> 00:28:04,200 And if you think that the government's not doing that, 491 00:28:04,200 --> 00:28:06,520 then you need to do a little bit more research. 492 00:28:06,520 --> 00:28:09,120 And I suggest looking at like underground tunnels and shit 493 00:28:09,120 --> 00:28:12,960 like that and going on a little conspiracy deep dive because 494 00:28:13,000 --> 00:28:16,080 that's a fucking thing. And y'all didn't think that 495 00:28:16,080 --> 00:28:17,920 Diddy was doing anything at his white parties either. 496 00:28:17,920 --> 00:28:24,520 But then now look at you. So yeah, we need to AB there 497 00:28:24,520 --> 00:28:29,440 needs to absolutely be more prevention things put into place 498 00:28:29,440 --> 00:28:32,920 and there's not going to because it is such a lucrative fucking 499 00:28:32,920 --> 00:28:35,360 thing. And people are having all of 500 00:28:35,360 --> 00:28:38,120 these conversations about like whether or not abortion should 501 00:28:38,120 --> 00:28:41,440 be a thing or whatever, but they have absolutely no conversations 502 00:28:41,440 --> 00:28:45,720 about what you do with kids that are born, are put into the 503 00:28:45,720 --> 00:28:48,960 system, are not being adopted. We're still bringing kids over 504 00:28:48,960 --> 00:28:50,920 from other countries and adopting out from other 505 00:28:50,920 --> 00:28:53,480 countries while we have kids here that don't have homes. 506 00:28:53,760 --> 00:28:58,200 There's also this like whole statistic thing about kids of 507 00:28:58,200 --> 00:29:01,320 certain ages not getting adopted and it's only younger kids that 508 00:29:01,320 --> 00:29:04,680 are getting adopted. And there's so many kids that 509 00:29:04,680 --> 00:29:07,960 are older that end up being put into the system because of XY 510 00:29:07,960 --> 00:29:12,360 and Z that a lot of times have experienced so much trauma and 511 00:29:12,360 --> 00:29:17,120 so much crazy shit. And people don't want to, they 512 00:29:17,120 --> 00:29:19,440 consider that baggage. And so they don't want to take 513 00:29:19,440 --> 00:29:21,880 that on and they don't want to raise those kids. 514 00:29:21,880 --> 00:29:24,560 And so often those are the kids that are going to be like the 515 00:29:24,560 --> 00:29:30,120 most loving and the most grateful and whatnot is because 516 00:29:30,120 --> 00:29:33,000 they have been through crazy shit and they are now being 517 00:29:33,000 --> 00:29:35,680 taken care of. And you can really turn the kids 518 00:29:35,680 --> 00:29:39,840 life around by showing them something different and and 519 00:29:39,840 --> 00:29:42,920 helping them. And so the the conversation 520 00:29:42,920 --> 00:29:46,000 about abortion always pisses me the fuck off 1 As somebody who's 521 00:29:46,000 --> 00:29:49,560 had one, like you always say you're not going to do it till 522 00:29:49,560 --> 00:29:53,560 you're in the situation. And sometimes you get in 523 00:29:53,560 --> 00:29:55,880 situations you don't think you're going to be in and shit 524 00:29:55,880 --> 00:29:59,000 happens. And also because there's so many 525 00:29:59,000 --> 00:30:00,920 other conversations that can be had. 526 00:30:00,920 --> 00:30:04,120 And I feel like it is small minded fucking people who sit 527 00:30:04,120 --> 00:30:08,080 there and argue about one topic and have one perspective on it 528 00:30:08,080 --> 00:30:12,400 instead of you looking at the grander scheme of things and the 529 00:30:12,400 --> 00:30:16,960 reason why things are that way. There's a reason that there's a 530 00:30:17,160 --> 00:30:20,760 that, you know, men in power don't want abortions to be a 531 00:30:20,760 --> 00:30:23,280 thing and they want kids to happen and the money game that's 532 00:30:23,280 --> 00:30:26,240 behind it and the payouts that they get and all types of shit. 533 00:30:27,280 --> 00:30:30,040 So many things. Before I forget with the birth 534 00:30:30,040 --> 00:30:34,480 control topic, a man can literally father like hundreds 535 00:30:34,480 --> 00:30:38,440 of kids a year and a woman can have one in a calendar year. 536 00:30:38,440 --> 00:30:43,400 So that's just like shouldn't even be in the in the equation. 537 00:30:43,600 --> 00:30:47,240 Men should be on birth control from the fucking jump and the 538 00:30:47,240 --> 00:30:51,120 way they want to be chased and and cater to these days like 539 00:30:51,120 --> 00:30:53,680 little princesses. Birth control is perfect for 540 00:30:53,680 --> 00:30:57,400 them. Next note, have you seen where 541 00:30:57,400 --> 00:31:02,440 the lady submitted her DNA to one of those websites and then 542 00:31:02,440 --> 00:31:07,680 she got a call from an FBI agent about a cold case. 543 00:31:07,920 --> 00:31:14,320 Long story short, her mom sold her and her dad didn't even know 544 00:31:14,320 --> 00:31:18,800 about her and it was an illegal adoption that like I guess like 545 00:31:18,800 --> 00:31:24,400 her grandmother or someone covered up and somewhere in that 546 00:31:24,400 --> 00:31:26,960 I don't know there was like the police got involved. 547 00:31:26,960 --> 00:31:30,880 I don't know how all that actually transpires but think 548 00:31:30,880 --> 00:31:35,600 it's the grandmother had done something illegal and her DNA 549 00:31:35,600 --> 00:31:38,520 was linked to the crime scene but because they couldn't get 550 00:31:38,520 --> 00:31:44,320 the DNA back then it went cold. And then the lady who submitted 551 00:31:44,320 --> 00:31:46,440 her DNA just thought she had been adopted. 552 00:31:46,440 --> 00:31:51,000 Like regular not only found her real mom, found out her real dad 553 00:31:51,000 --> 00:31:54,040 did not know about her at all and that her grandmother was 554 00:31:54,040 --> 00:31:59,520 like a convict and her DNA was like tying the case open. 555 00:32:00,080 --> 00:32:02,720 And when I was in this lifetime drama. 556 00:32:03,160 --> 00:32:06,480 When I had mentioned to my father about doing that 557 00:32:06,480 --> 00:32:10,400 ancestral thing a while, like a while back, he was like, 558 00:32:10,480 --> 00:32:13,440 absolutely not. And I was like, why? 559 00:32:13,760 --> 00:32:16,000 I was like, do you think you have like extra kids out there? 560 00:32:16,000 --> 00:32:18,640 And he was like, absolutely not, not doing it. 561 00:32:18,640 --> 00:32:20,720 And I would suggest you not to do it either. 562 00:32:21,000 --> 00:32:25,400 So I never did it. But then my grandfather, during 563 00:32:25,400 --> 00:32:29,640 COVID, two women came forward and my grandfather is their dad 564 00:32:29,640 --> 00:32:33,360 and he is in his like late 70s. Did I ever tell you that? 565 00:32:34,600 --> 00:32:42,040 No, you didn't ever tell me that, but like I see, I just 566 00:32:42,040 --> 00:32:45,320 think of like the wife's in those situations, right, Because 567 00:32:45,320 --> 00:32:51,080 like you, you're going to feel some type of way that like a kid 568 00:32:51,080 --> 00:32:54,200 comes up and that's like your spouse's kid and you had no idea 569 00:32:54,200 --> 00:32:57,840 that they had kids elsewhere. And then like that person is 570 00:32:57,840 --> 00:33:00,560 like going through a whole bunch of emotions because now they had 571 00:33:00,560 --> 00:33:02,480 kids that they don't know about and it's a whole thing. 572 00:33:02,480 --> 00:33:06,320 And then like you got to take on other kids and like I just like 573 00:33:06,320 --> 00:33:11,840 it's such a snowball. I think it that that's such a as 574 00:33:11,840 --> 00:33:18,040 a kid who so like for me, I didn't know who my birth dad was 575 00:33:18,040 --> 00:33:22,080 until I was in high school. And then when I contacted him, 576 00:33:22,080 --> 00:33:24,200 he and I don't know if I've ever told you about this, when I 577 00:33:24,200 --> 00:33:30,480 contacted him, I contacted him on Myspace and he was like, oh, 578 00:33:30,720 --> 00:33:33,880 well, like he still sticks to like, I didn't know anything 579 00:33:33,880 --> 00:33:35,880 about you. Like what a surprise. 580 00:33:35,880 --> 00:33:38,520 You're a kid. But I have baby pictures of him 581 00:33:38,520 --> 00:33:39,880 with my mom when I was one years old. 582 00:33:40,320 --> 00:33:41,960 So like clearly you know something. 583 00:33:41,960 --> 00:33:44,920 But I have a different man that's on my birth certificate. 584 00:33:46,040 --> 00:33:52,360 And so he's like, your mom was a hoe and to like to this day, 585 00:33:52,720 --> 00:33:54,840 he'll be like, I just didn't know that I was your dad, you 586 00:33:54,840 --> 00:33:59,520 know, whatever. And I have for for years, it 587 00:33:59,520 --> 00:34:02,160 really fucked with me because I was like, I just want him to 588 00:34:02,160 --> 00:34:04,360 tell me the truth. And so like, I couldn't have any 589 00:34:04,360 --> 00:34:08,400 type of like a relationship or friendship of any kind with my 590 00:34:08,400 --> 00:34:10,239 dad because like, you're lying to me. 591 00:34:10,520 --> 00:34:15,000 And I eventually had to just be like they were teenagers with 592 00:34:15,000 --> 00:34:18,159 whatever the experience was that fucking happened. 593 00:34:18,400 --> 00:34:23,719 You know, I was not claimed. And I ended up getting a dope 594 00:34:23,719 --> 00:34:26,679 ass stepdad, you know, halfway through my life that raised me. 595 00:34:26,679 --> 00:34:29,040 And so that's my dad. And I'll just be OK with that. 596 00:34:29,440 --> 00:34:34,520 And there is so much fucking shit that goes on in somebody's 597 00:34:34,520 --> 00:34:38,440 brain from not knowing one of their parents or not having 598 00:34:38,440 --> 00:34:41,440 involvement from one of their fucking parents growing up. 599 00:34:42,880 --> 00:34:44,760 Yeah, that's some deep, deep trauma. 600 00:34:44,920 --> 00:34:47,639 My grandfather did something similar. 601 00:34:47,639 --> 00:34:52,120 So he had a wife and a child and he thought that she had ran off 602 00:34:52,120 --> 00:34:55,880 on him and got pregnant. So he claimed one child but 603 00:34:55,880 --> 00:35:00,160 rejected the second. Her like grandson submitted his 604 00:35:00,160 --> 00:35:03,880 DNA for like a eighth grade project, discovered that there 605 00:35:03,880 --> 00:35:07,920 were no breaks in the DNA lineage, that his grandfather 606 00:35:07,920 --> 00:35:12,480 and grandmother lineage was like not outsourced, like everyone in 607 00:35:12,480 --> 00:35:15,600 his system had the same like DNA. 608 00:35:16,000 --> 00:35:19,480 And so then that Lady, you know, we know her. 609 00:35:19,480 --> 00:35:21,720 We know her. Like her name's Stacy. 610 00:35:21,720 --> 00:35:24,040 She actually just sent me a friend request the other fucking 611 00:35:24,040 --> 00:35:26,240 day. Like we know who this is. 612 00:35:26,600 --> 00:35:30,640 So he just did not claim her. And then from them inputting 613 00:35:30,640 --> 00:35:37,080 their DNA, a next second woman who was adopted and did not know 614 00:35:37,080 --> 00:35:41,120 her parents at all, but lost her adoptive parents, found my 615 00:35:41,120 --> 00:35:45,360 grandfather during all that. Like the more people who put 616 00:35:45,360 --> 00:35:48,320 their DNA in there, the more accurate it becomes. 617 00:35:48,320 --> 00:35:52,440 And then this stranger, like Finding Nemo on the side, 618 00:35:52,880 --> 00:35:56,000 swooped right in. And she actually, like, I 619 00:35:56,000 --> 00:35:57,480 haven't why? Actually, I lie. 620 00:35:57,480 --> 00:36:01,320 I did meet her and I met her daughter one time. 621 00:36:02,280 --> 00:36:05,440 And like, this is her grant. Like this is his real 622 00:36:05,440 --> 00:36:08,880 granddaughter and here I am. I've known this man my whole 623 00:36:08,880 --> 00:36:11,160 life. He literally claims me over his 624 00:36:11,160 --> 00:36:14,960 own blood grandchildren. He always calls me his favorite. 625 00:36:14,960 --> 00:36:17,520 I've lived with them. I'm literally about to go see 626 00:36:17,520 --> 00:36:19,960 them in a little bit. And so when I met his 627 00:36:19,960 --> 00:36:23,360 granddaughter, she didn't I could just tell her energy was 628 00:36:23,360 --> 00:36:26,760 just like stink coochie. She was like did not like me. 629 00:36:27,040 --> 00:36:29,840 And so my grandma and grandpa hardly ever go anywhere. 630 00:36:30,080 --> 00:36:33,600 Well the granddaughter got married like 2 hours away and my 631 00:36:33,600 --> 00:36:37,280 grandma and grandpa went and it shocked the shit out of me 632 00:36:37,280 --> 00:36:40,280 because like that's just not something they do like ever. 633 00:36:40,280 --> 00:36:44,120 Like I have AI give a public speaking like speech every 634 00:36:44,120 --> 00:36:46,800 quarter and they've never came to it once and it's like 20 635 00:36:46,800 --> 00:36:48,960 minutes away. So it's just like it blew my 636 00:36:48,960 --> 00:36:52,000 mind that he went I think her name's Sarah. 637 00:36:52,360 --> 00:36:56,280 And it was just so crazy because like, in their mind, they've 638 00:36:56,280 --> 00:37:00,400 been alienated and like had these adoptive family members, 639 00:37:00,400 --> 00:37:04,520 right, that have like passed on. So building the relationship 640 00:37:04,520 --> 00:37:07,080 would be hard considering he's like in his 70s. 641 00:37:07,080 --> 00:37:11,760 But it's definitely wild because my grandpa has not only been to 642 00:37:11,760 --> 00:37:14,400 prison, he's killed a man and now he's got kids coming up out 643 00:37:14,400 --> 00:37:17,320 of the woodwork. Like my grandpa was like in the 644 00:37:17,320 --> 00:37:20,840 Cornbread Mafia, like gangs. Like if y'all listening, look up 645 00:37:20,840 --> 00:37:23,000 the Cornbread Mafia. It is a huge thing. 646 00:37:23,280 --> 00:37:27,000 It's like moonshine smugglers and coal and gold. 647 00:37:27,000 --> 00:37:30,840 It's like a whole thing, but this man was living his best 648 00:37:30,840 --> 00:37:35,520 life. And fucking bitch is getting 649 00:37:35,520 --> 00:37:39,120 money and cornbread dude like. And you know what's crazy is 650 00:37:39,120 --> 00:37:43,520 like I vividly remember this story that my grandfather got a 651 00:37:43,520 --> 00:37:48,400 gang like tattoo and when he came home his mom was like, hell 652 00:37:48,400 --> 00:37:50,880 no, you're going to cut that out of your skin right now. 653 00:37:51,160 --> 00:37:55,080 And he literally took a knife and, like, filleted some of this 654 00:37:55,080 --> 00:37:57,640 tattoo off. So it's like, just a piece of 655 00:37:57,640 --> 00:38:00,440 it. Like, my grandpa has lived many 656 00:38:00,440 --> 00:38:03,280 fucking lifetimes. I will say it, like, and this 657 00:38:03,280 --> 00:38:06,640 man and me are not blood, but we have like, a real deep bond. 658 00:38:06,640 --> 00:38:11,240 Like, we really, really do. And like, it's so wild, like how 659 00:38:11,240 --> 00:38:14,800 it's all unfolded. But my grandpa is just like, so 660 00:38:14,800 --> 00:38:17,200 set in his ways. And like, I'll go see my grandma 661 00:38:17,200 --> 00:38:19,960 and she'll be like, yeah, he don't want to go anywhere. 662 00:38:19,960 --> 00:38:21,480 He don't want to do anything unless we're going to the 663 00:38:21,480 --> 00:38:23,360 casino. That's the only time he'll get 664 00:38:23,360 --> 00:38:27,600 out of that chair. And I'm like, OK, OK, then like, 665 00:38:28,120 --> 00:38:33,240 I don't know, like, it's wild. But a lot of unemotionally 666 00:38:33,240 --> 00:38:36,120 available men, like you said, have children that they just 667 00:38:36,120 --> 00:38:40,600 have no intentions of nurturing or taking care of at all at all. 668 00:38:41,440 --> 00:38:46,760 And on the flip side, there are so many men who do want to have 669 00:38:46,760 --> 00:38:49,800 families and they do want to be a nurturer and they do want to, 670 00:38:50,080 --> 00:38:53,360 you know, be that person and step into roles and whatever. 671 00:38:53,360 --> 00:38:56,160 Like I was fortunate enough that, you know, I have my 672 00:38:56,160 --> 00:39:01,600 stepdad who doesn't have kids of his own, but stepped in and was 673 00:39:01,600 --> 00:39:04,000 there for me and my brother. My brother was younger. 674 00:39:04,000 --> 00:39:07,680 I feel like my dad and my brother have a, they have a 675 00:39:07,680 --> 00:39:12,640 different type of bond too, because I think men in general, 676 00:39:12,720 --> 00:39:15,960 you know, they, he, they get each other a little bit more, 677 00:39:15,960 --> 00:39:20,520 but my brother also was so much younger and so they have a 678 00:39:20,520 --> 00:39:24,680 really tight bond. But like even my man, like, you 679 00:39:24,680 --> 00:39:28,400 know, he doesn't have other kids right now. 680 00:39:29,200 --> 00:39:32,520 We'll fix that. And but he, you know, steps in 681 00:39:32,560 --> 00:39:37,600 for Mac and is like an amazing parent figure and goes to every 682 00:39:37,600 --> 00:39:40,640 appointment and, you know, doctor's appointment gets him 683 00:39:40,640 --> 00:39:43,480 from school with me, like goes to therapy with him, like just 684 00:39:43,480 --> 00:39:47,520 all these different things. And so I feel like there are so 685 00:39:47,520 --> 00:39:50,280 many people who want to step into roles. 686 00:39:50,560 --> 00:39:56,480 And I think that because of people's, I want to be careful 687 00:39:56,480 --> 00:39:59,920 with the way that I word it, But I think that we can limit people 688 00:39:59,920 --> 00:40:02,960 from being able to step into roles that they want to take 689 00:40:03,200 --> 00:40:07,640 because we assume that they don't want them or we assume 690 00:40:07,640 --> 00:40:10,160 that with our own traumas, that's going to be a temporary 691 00:40:10,160 --> 00:40:11,880 thing. And I think that a lot of people 692 00:40:11,880 --> 00:40:16,960 prevent their kids from being able to have experiences with 693 00:40:16,960 --> 00:40:20,040 people who want to step up and be in their lives. 694 00:40:20,400 --> 00:40:23,760 And sometimes it's like, you know, my mom easily could have 695 00:40:23,760 --> 00:40:25,000 been like, well, I'm a single mom. 696 00:40:25,000 --> 00:40:26,520 I have kids. I'm not going to date anybody. 697 00:40:26,520 --> 00:40:30,160 Absolutely not. You know, next or you know, my 698 00:40:30,160 --> 00:40:33,160 brother and I didn't have our birth dads involved in our 699 00:40:33,160 --> 00:40:36,440 lives, but we could have had dads that were like, those are 700 00:40:36,440 --> 00:40:38,560 my kids and you're not going to be able to, you know, blah, 701 00:40:38,560 --> 00:40:41,160 blah, blah, blah, blah. And that's their own trauma 702 00:40:41,160 --> 00:40:44,080 thing. And so I think that people 703 00:40:44,080 --> 00:40:47,760 should be a lot more open to accepting people wanting to take 704 00:40:47,760 --> 00:40:51,760 on roles that they want to take on and allowing kids to be 705 00:40:51,760 --> 00:40:55,800 nurtured by other people without it being like, oh, I'm going to 706 00:40:55,800 --> 00:41:00,160 be replaced or whatever. You, when you're operating from 707 00:41:00,160 --> 00:41:06,360 a place of wanting the best for your kids or what not, you open 708 00:41:06,360 --> 00:41:11,240 yourself up to them receiving love, even if it makes you feel 709 00:41:12,040 --> 00:41:14,840 jealous or whatever. And you as an adult, you figure 710 00:41:14,840 --> 00:41:17,840 out those emotions and you allow your kids to have whatever 711 00:41:17,840 --> 00:41:21,320 experiences and whatever love is being poured into them. 712 00:41:22,600 --> 00:41:26,520 Yeah, I totally feel like so many people who have kids are 713 00:41:26,920 --> 00:41:29,600 don't actually want them. And then the people who can't 714 00:41:29,840 --> 00:41:34,920 have kids really want them. I always as a child, like, 715 00:41:34,960 --> 00:41:37,440 imagine having like four or five kids. 716 00:41:37,440 --> 00:41:38,840 I don't know where that came from. 717 00:41:39,200 --> 00:41:42,280 I don't know what who, what fairy godmother I was talking 718 00:41:42,280 --> 00:41:46,160 to, but I remember vividly talking about having four and 719 00:41:46,160 --> 00:41:50,160 five kids. But then like the teen pregnancy 720 00:41:50,160 --> 00:41:56,200 shows like came out when I was that age, like I was 16 when 16 721 00:41:56,200 --> 00:42:00,000 and pregnant aired. So I remember like seeing those 722 00:42:00,000 --> 00:42:03,600 dynamics and seeing those kids, like I just want to go to the 723 00:42:03,600 --> 00:42:07,880 Ke$ha concert or like whatever. Like I remember seeing that in 724 00:42:07,880 --> 00:42:10,600 real time. And I honestly think that shit 725 00:42:10,600 --> 00:42:13,400 scarred me. Like it really scarred me. 726 00:42:13,400 --> 00:42:16,920 And then my mom had put me on birth control at a really young 727 00:42:16,920 --> 00:42:20,200 age because she had also had an abortion as a teenager. 728 00:42:20,760 --> 00:42:24,520 So I think that like there were so many like taboo dynamics 729 00:42:24,520 --> 00:42:28,560 around it that I was just like, that is my biggest fear is 730 00:42:28,560 --> 00:42:31,360 getting pregnant. So I was like religious with the 731 00:42:31,360 --> 00:42:32,800 birth control. I remember I used to take it at 732 00:42:32,880 --> 00:42:36,400 at 3:00 every single day, never missed a beat ever. 733 00:42:36,720 --> 00:42:42,360 And then I remember like when I was around like 27, I'd been on 734 00:42:42,360 --> 00:42:45,400 birth control for like 12 years at this point or whatever. 735 00:42:45,400 --> 00:42:48,560 And I remember knowing I wasn't supposed to be on it anymore. 736 00:42:48,840 --> 00:42:52,360 So around like 27, that's also like when my awakening was 737 00:42:52,360 --> 00:42:55,080 really in full force. That's when I originally started 738 00:42:55,080 --> 00:42:58,960 my celibacy journey and like started cutting out like 739 00:42:59,000 --> 00:43:01,640 unnecessary connections and people. 740 00:43:01,960 --> 00:43:06,120 And then, you know, like I dated on and off and whatever, but 741 00:43:06,120 --> 00:43:10,280 like I never really had fully engaged back into that. 742 00:43:10,280 --> 00:43:13,960 And then boom, last year had sex one time and got fucking 743 00:43:13,960 --> 00:43:17,200 pregnant. And so now like going through 744 00:43:17,200 --> 00:43:21,680 that because technically, like my 40 weeks or however many 745 00:43:21,680 --> 00:43:24,560 weeks would have been like this week, this week and last week 746 00:43:24,560 --> 00:43:27,240 would have been like the time I was having the baby. 747 00:43:27,560 --> 00:43:31,120 And what's so weird about that is literally our fucking entire 748 00:43:31,120 --> 00:43:34,520 state is underwater down town where I would have had that baby 749 00:43:34,520 --> 00:43:37,400 is underwater. Like there's so many dynamics 750 00:43:37,400 --> 00:43:40,400 that would have been birthing a child into chaos or like 751 00:43:40,640 --> 00:43:44,080 birthing that baby into chaos. And you all know from the 752 00:43:44,080 --> 00:43:47,760 episode it's taboo where I talked about like this person 753 00:43:47,760 --> 00:43:52,600 like ghosted me after we dated as literal like 1415 year old 754 00:43:52,600 --> 00:43:56,480 teenagers. And this man had the audacity to 755 00:43:56,480 --> 00:44:00,920 try to text me like 2 weeks ago. And then yeah, I didn't tell you 756 00:44:00,920 --> 00:44:04,720 this, I'm saving it. He texted me two weeks ago. 757 00:44:04,720 --> 00:44:08,400 I was at the Kid Rock concert. Actually, it's been like a week 758 00:44:08,400 --> 00:44:12,320 and a half ago and I was at the Kid Rock concert with my dad 759 00:44:12,320 --> 00:44:16,760 having a really healing moment and I didn't see the message. 760 00:44:16,760 --> 00:44:19,840 Well, the next morning I was just like scrolling through my 761 00:44:19,840 --> 00:44:22,520 messages and there was his phone number. 762 00:44:22,760 --> 00:44:26,880 But when I clicked on the text box, it said blah, blah, blah, 763 00:44:26,880 --> 00:44:30,240 unsent a message. So this man texted me. 764 00:44:30,480 --> 00:44:33,960 I never saw it. And then he unsent the message, 765 00:44:34,040 --> 00:44:37,280 Gemini unsent it. And this was like the due date 766 00:44:37,280 --> 00:44:40,840 the doctor had given us. Like the 28th of March was the 767 00:44:40,840 --> 00:44:43,200 day that he texted. And I'm pretty sure that the due 768 00:44:43,200 --> 00:44:45,640 date was like the 28th or the 29th. 769 00:44:45,640 --> 00:44:49,560 But in my heart I knew it was more like April 8th or 9th based 770 00:44:49,560 --> 00:44:54,040 on like the, you know, the period and all the things. 771 00:44:54,920 --> 00:44:58,560 But this man texted me and I'm like did he just subconsciously 772 00:44:58,960 --> 00:45:02,640 text me or did he remember that this was the due date? 773 00:45:02,680 --> 00:45:06,360 And then spirit knowing I don't want any more fucking bread 774 00:45:06,360 --> 00:45:10,240 crumbs, I don't need any more bullshit in my life was 775 00:45:10,240 --> 00:45:12,640 literally like Sir, you can remove that message now. 776 00:45:13,200 --> 00:45:15,560 And he did, and I didn't even see what it said and he hasn't 777 00:45:15,840 --> 00:45:24,040 tried to reach out since. What a piece of shit first of 778 00:45:24,040 --> 00:45:27,280 all. Second of all, I fucking hate 779 00:45:27,280 --> 00:45:30,920 him. Third of all, I'm so glad that 780 00:45:30,920 --> 00:45:33,840 you didn't have his baby. Sorry how it happened. 781 00:45:33,840 --> 00:45:36,440 So glad that you are not stuck with that. 782 00:45:37,400 --> 00:45:42,120 That is. I feel like he absolutely knew 783 00:45:42,120 --> 00:45:46,440 the timing of it, which I think is just an extra fuck up because 784 00:45:46,440 --> 00:45:51,360 he literally didn't respond to you, text you anything while you 785 00:45:51,360 --> 00:45:54,120 went through that entire miscarriage by yourself, all of 786 00:45:54,120 --> 00:45:57,120 the emotional whatever. So for him to reach out when 787 00:45:57,120 --> 00:46:00,920 you're supposed to be due and have literally anything to say 788 00:46:00,920 --> 00:46:05,120 at all and then like the audacity to sit there and have 789 00:46:05,120 --> 00:46:09,960 the balls to say it and then be a fucking pussy and delete it so 790 00:46:09,960 --> 00:46:13,080 that you didn't see it. Like we can call it spirit, you 791 00:46:13,080 --> 00:46:16,160 know, intervention or whatever, but he was being a little bitch 792 00:46:16,440 --> 00:46:19,360 and he had all the fucking balls in the world to send you the 793 00:46:19,360 --> 00:46:21,160 text. But then he had to backspace and 794 00:46:21,160 --> 00:46:25,760 he had to delete it and then further ghost you, which like 795 00:46:25,760 --> 00:46:28,280 that's what you want anyways. You don't want communication, 796 00:46:28,280 --> 00:46:33,120 but it's the that entire situation for me bothers me so 797 00:46:33,120 --> 00:46:36,880 much for you and especially with the fact that like you guys do 798 00:46:36,880 --> 00:46:38,680 have history. You guys were together. 799 00:46:38,680 --> 00:46:41,560 You guys did date when you were kids And like, I know that like 800 00:46:41,560 --> 00:46:45,720 I haven't, you know, talked about like my relationship on 801 00:46:45,720 --> 00:46:50,200 the podcast very much. But like we dated when I, you 802 00:46:50,200 --> 00:46:51,840 know, I've known him since I was 11. 803 00:46:51,880 --> 00:46:55,080 That was like my like love of my fucking life, childhood, 804 00:46:55,080 --> 00:46:58,280 whatever. And he turned 18 when I wasn't 805 00:46:58,280 --> 00:47:01,760 18 yet and my parents had a big problem with us dating And you 806 00:47:01,760 --> 00:47:03,760 know, then life happens or whatever. 807 00:47:03,760 --> 00:47:05,760 That's why we broke up and then you have life happen or 808 00:47:05,760 --> 00:47:09,160 whatever. And you know, so I feel real 809 00:47:09,160 --> 00:47:13,160 sensitive to your thing as far as like, oh, this is somebody 810 00:47:13,160 --> 00:47:15,360 that like I loved when I was a kid and like, let's see, you 811 00:47:15,360 --> 00:47:17,440 know, like this might go somewhere, whatever. 812 00:47:17,720 --> 00:47:19,400 And then you getting treated that way. 813 00:47:19,400 --> 00:47:22,800 And like there is so much emotion that, that and like 814 00:47:22,800 --> 00:47:24,240 childhood trauma that goes in that. 815 00:47:24,520 --> 00:47:26,840 Fuck this dude. I thought, I hope this fucking 816 00:47:26,840 --> 00:47:29,560 house floods. I hope that the tornado fucking 817 00:47:29,560 --> 00:47:33,480 sucks his soul up into it. I, there's so many things I wish 818 00:47:33,480 --> 00:47:36,640 upon this person and I fucking hate him. 819 00:47:36,640 --> 00:47:40,680 And if he listens to the podcast, Sir, I hope you jump 820 00:47:40,680 --> 00:47:42,960 off a fucking Cliff and break. You're fine. 821 00:47:43,800 --> 00:47:47,800 So the the real kicker to this is that. 822 00:47:48,520 --> 00:47:50,520 He. Can reach out like when I'm with 823 00:47:50,520 --> 00:47:54,520 my dad having a super healing moment when his dad doesn't love 824 00:47:54,520 --> 00:47:56,600 him. That's all I could think about 825 00:47:56,600 --> 00:47:59,680 when I saw that the next day I was like look at me spending 826 00:47:59,680 --> 00:48:03,240 time with my dad healing and having a good time with my dad. 827 00:48:03,240 --> 00:48:06,960 And your dad does not care about you, does not love you, and 828 00:48:07,200 --> 00:48:10,200 really doesn't even claim you. Like that's crazy to me. 829 00:48:10,200 --> 00:48:14,960 Like it's honestly funny because I know if I would have been at 830 00:48:14,960 --> 00:48:17,960 home on that Friday, I would have saw that message. 831 00:48:17,960 --> 00:48:22,000 Because in his perception he believes like, oh, she's always 832 00:48:22,000 --> 00:48:24,240 on her phone. She literally has 2 phones, 2 833 00:48:24,240 --> 00:48:25,960 computers. Like that bitch is always on her 834 00:48:25,960 --> 00:48:27,640 phone. She's ignoring me. 835 00:48:27,840 --> 00:48:32,160 So I know his ego got super rippled because I didn't like 836 00:48:32,240 --> 00:48:34,600 reply. And then I don't know how much 837 00:48:34,600 --> 00:48:37,800 time went by because when I got home at midnight, like the 838 00:48:37,800 --> 00:48:40,520 message was not there. It was just like an empty text 839 00:48:40,520 --> 00:48:43,760 box and I didn't notice it because I deleted his number. 840 00:48:43,760 --> 00:48:45,920 So, you know, it was just numbers. 841 00:48:46,360 --> 00:48:48,240 But yeah, I know it's really fucking weird. 842 00:48:48,240 --> 00:48:50,880 And honestly, I don't even care what he had to say. 843 00:48:50,880 --> 00:48:54,160 Like, that's how much I know I have like healed and transformed 844 00:48:54,160 --> 00:48:58,280 the situation because that happened on Friday and then 845 00:48:58,280 --> 00:49:02,520 Jackie ran into my other ex-boyfriend on Friday that same 846 00:49:02,520 --> 00:49:08,840 day. That crazy of all the days? 847 00:49:11,040 --> 00:49:14,640 You know, wiping your hands clean of it. 848 00:49:14,640 --> 00:49:17,040 You have so many things. I know that you don't care about 849 00:49:17,040 --> 00:49:19,640 the message and, and, and we don't care about the message. 850 00:49:19,640 --> 00:49:21,920 I just, it's the audacity for me. 851 00:49:22,160 --> 00:49:26,560 And it's the, it's the fact that it, it takes courage for you to 852 00:49:26,560 --> 00:49:31,200 text somebody that you that there's an issue with or that 853 00:49:31,200 --> 00:49:33,040 there's a whatever. And he knows that he was in the 854 00:49:33,040 --> 00:49:35,000 wrong. So he sat there, he thought 855 00:49:35,000 --> 00:49:36,920 about what it was. He thought, I'm going to disturb 856 00:49:36,920 --> 00:49:39,280 her peace. And then he was like, man, and 857 00:49:39,280 --> 00:49:42,880 I'm going to delete it too. And that for me it, it's the 858 00:49:42,960 --> 00:49:46,200 it's the disrupting your piece twice for me after he already 859 00:49:46,200 --> 00:49:49,000 disrupted your piece after he fucking. 860 00:49:52,200 --> 00:49:53,880 Anyways, I know there's cliffs nearby. 861 00:49:53,880 --> 00:49:57,560 I hope he finds the perfect one. I wish. 862 00:49:57,600 --> 00:50:02,600 The other side note, I won't say who it was but someone who I 863 00:50:02,600 --> 00:50:06,000 don't get along with, the tornado hit their neighborhood. 864 00:50:06,000 --> 00:50:09,400 So all I got to fucking say is that return to sender is hitting 865 00:50:09,720 --> 00:50:12,000 too fucking hard. When you're sending me stank 866 00:50:12,000 --> 00:50:17,240 energy, just know there will be a tornado at your side to carry 867 00:50:17,240 --> 00:50:20,960 you through because I literally don't wish bad on anyone. 868 00:50:20,960 --> 00:50:24,760 But I promise you if you look at me and you're reflecting 869 00:50:24,760 --> 00:50:29,320 negativity or, you know, jealousy, envy, just anything 870 00:50:29,320 --> 00:50:31,680 towards me, you really should pray up. 871 00:50:31,680 --> 00:50:34,360 You should fucking do the damn thing. 872 00:50:34,360 --> 00:50:37,920 Because I promise you, no fucking Selenite or Tourmaline 873 00:50:37,920 --> 00:50:40,200 is going to save you now. Like, don't fuck with me. 874 00:50:40,480 --> 00:50:44,200 And honestly with him, I think it was like also one of those 875 00:50:44,200 --> 00:50:46,480 things of like, do I still have access to her? 876 00:50:46,480 --> 00:50:50,000 And when the message just sat there, he realized that what he 877 00:50:50,000 --> 00:50:51,760 said wasn't going to fix anything. 878 00:50:51,760 --> 00:50:55,160 So he just unsent it, which actually is beneficial for me 879 00:50:55,160 --> 00:50:59,600 because now I don't have to wonder and have a conversation 880 00:50:59,600 --> 00:51:01,200 with him. Like I can keep that door 881 00:51:01,200 --> 00:51:05,120 completely closed and he's realizing I energetically don't 882 00:51:05,120 --> 00:51:07,600 give a fuck. Like, it's so funny because I 883 00:51:07,600 --> 00:51:09,440 remember telling you that I was doing all. 884 00:51:09,440 --> 00:51:12,880 This spell work recently and multiple men were texting me 885 00:51:12,880 --> 00:51:14,840 during those. The working one dude was like 886 00:51:14,840 --> 00:51:16,760 are you just going to let us go out like that? 887 00:51:16,960 --> 00:51:19,920 Someone else was like how's my favorite person doing? 888 00:51:19,920 --> 00:51:22,280 I miss you so much. Someone else wrote me and 889 00:51:22,280 --> 00:51:24,640 they're like maybe I should just cash out for you to get your 890 00:51:24,640 --> 00:51:27,680 attention like this was. Meanwhile I'm doing a banishing 891 00:51:27,680 --> 00:51:30,880 cord cutting ritual. Like this is during it, men are 892 00:51:30,880 --> 00:51:33,040 blowing my phone up and I'm talking multiple people, some 893 00:51:33,040 --> 00:51:36,600 people I had not talked to in like 5 and seven years. 894 00:51:37,480 --> 00:51:42,080 So I know that I have been on this dude's mind and I know he's 895 00:51:42,080 --> 00:51:44,600 been wanting to reach out, but the fact that he just randomly 896 00:51:44,600 --> 00:51:47,960 did when I was like having an inner child healing moment with 897 00:51:47,960 --> 00:51:52,560 my dad is so fucking wild. That is wild. 898 00:51:53,040 --> 00:51:59,080 I feel like that happened for a reason, though, and I think that 899 00:51:59,080 --> 00:52:02,120 it really was for you to be able to see that, like you've moved 900 00:52:02,120 --> 00:52:06,400 on from that and you truly like you before, you could have been 901 00:52:06,400 --> 00:52:09,720 like, yeah, like, you know, I'm over it, whatever. 902 00:52:09,720 --> 00:52:12,360 But it was really him who had made the move for you guys to 903 00:52:12,360 --> 00:52:15,520 not speak. And then now you really have the 904 00:52:15,520 --> 00:52:18,120 opportunity presented to you where you could have been like, 905 00:52:18,120 --> 00:52:19,840 hey, there's nothing in that message. 906 00:52:19,840 --> 00:52:21,880 What's up? You know, you could have been 907 00:52:21,880 --> 00:52:24,240 like, oh, I'm so happy that like we're talking, you know, 908 00:52:24,240 --> 00:52:27,720 whatever it is, and you could have taken that moment to like 909 00:52:27,720 --> 00:52:32,440 backslide and try and get some type of like closure, if you 910 00:52:32,440 --> 00:52:35,080 will, or whatever. But the fact that you had the 911 00:52:35,080 --> 00:52:37,960 peace and you had the healing from the situation already, 912 00:52:38,200 --> 00:52:41,480 it's, it's clear that he fucked up. 913 00:52:41,560 --> 00:52:44,040 He doesn't have that peace and that closure with it. 914 00:52:44,040 --> 00:52:48,320 You do. And so I hope that it's eating 915 00:52:48,320 --> 00:52:52,880 him up because what he did to you is one of the most fucked up 916 00:52:52,880 --> 00:52:56,400 things to do to somebody. Literally like bitches be on the 917 00:52:56,400 --> 00:52:59,600 Internet talking about like he ghosted me after our day or he 918 00:52:59,600 --> 00:53:01,640 didn't pay for dinner or whatever it is. 919 00:53:01,640 --> 00:53:06,720 But like being ghosted after a miscarriage, after being in a 920 00:53:06,720 --> 00:53:09,720 relationship with someone and knowing them since like 921 00:53:10,000 --> 00:53:14,200 literally half of my life I have known that person is crazy 922 00:53:14,200 --> 00:53:17,320 fucking work. Like I promise you, your life is 923 00:53:17,320 --> 00:53:20,680 going to suck because the ripple of karma from that isn't 924 00:53:20,680 --> 00:53:22,680 anything that I could even project onto. 925 00:53:22,680 --> 00:53:25,080 You like the? Universe is going to deliver on 926 00:53:25,080 --> 00:53:27,200 the sense that you just don't do that to someone. 927 00:53:27,200 --> 00:53:30,640 Like for one, being pregnant as a spiritual experience, having a 928 00:53:30,640 --> 00:53:33,680 miscarriage is a deeper spiritual experience, but to 929 00:53:33,680 --> 00:53:36,840 leave someone hanging when they literally we're just asking for 930 00:53:36,840 --> 00:53:40,000 mental support. I was not asking for financial 931 00:53:40,000 --> 00:53:42,240 support. I was not asking for any type of 932 00:53:42,240 --> 00:53:45,800 support, but a mental like, let me FaceTime you and check on you 933 00:53:45,800 --> 00:53:47,600 and see that you're OK. I'm so sorry. 934 00:53:47,600 --> 00:53:51,560 Like instead, we'll figure this out together and never speak to 935 00:53:51,560 --> 00:53:53,360 someone again. Like you can rot. 936 00:53:53,400 --> 00:53:56,880 Like, and you know, what's funny is I have a lot of mutual 937 00:53:56,880 --> 00:53:59,360 friends with him because we we grew up together. 938 00:53:59,680 --> 00:54:04,320 I went to get a tattoo recently and my tattoo artist who we've 939 00:54:04,320 --> 00:54:07,720 had on the podcast, one of my best friends also tattoos this 940 00:54:07,720 --> 00:54:12,280 guy and a couple of his friends and he goes, yeah, he lost his 941 00:54:12,280 --> 00:54:16,160 job because blah, blah, blah shut down their business because 942 00:54:16,200 --> 00:54:18,680 they were doing it like a Co business together. 943 00:54:18,840 --> 00:54:22,320 But the guy who was actually in control shut the business down 944 00:54:22,320 --> 00:54:24,080 abruptly. He's like, so he's not doing 945 00:54:24,080 --> 00:54:28,040 that anymore because Bob shut down his business. 946 00:54:28,480 --> 00:54:31,080 So it's like, OK, it's already rippling. 947 00:54:31,080 --> 00:54:34,120 Like you are not doing anything. And I promise you, anything you 948 00:54:34,120 --> 00:54:37,000 thought you were going to do is halted because you're not. 949 00:54:37,280 --> 00:54:43,360 You're not doing it. On that note, Sir, I fucking 950 00:54:43,360 --> 00:54:47,680 hate you and do. You want to. 951 00:54:47,680 --> 00:54:50,080 Pull us a card or do you have cards anymore? 952 00:54:50,360 --> 00:54:53,160 Does she use cards anymore? The question is lingering. 953 00:54:53,840 --> 00:54:58,200 I can go grab them if you want. I mean no I guess we don't get a 954 00:54:58,200 --> 00:55:00,600 card anymore you all. How about you write Gemini? 955 00:55:00,840 --> 00:55:03,680 She won't read it but tell her how you fucking miss her 956 00:55:03,680 --> 00:55:07,440 messages and she's not going to check your Instagram DM or 957 00:55:07,440 --> 00:55:10,080 accept the collaboration because she's deleted the app. 958 00:55:11,000 --> 00:55:14,960 I have deleted I have I have deleted Instagram I have deleted 959 00:55:14,960 --> 00:55:18,880 TikTok. I told you guys like I, I want 960 00:55:18,880 --> 00:55:23,160 to come back and do like food things again. 961 00:55:23,400 --> 00:55:25,000 I'm going to be a sourdough bitch. 962 00:55:25,240 --> 00:55:27,880 So like I have a whole like sourdough thing, like sourdough 963 00:55:27,880 --> 00:55:30,600 starter thing. And I definitely want to start 964 00:55:31,320 --> 00:55:34,720 like baking and doing different kitchen witchery things with 965 00:55:34,720 --> 00:55:37,440 like different herbs and stuff for like different rituals and 966 00:55:37,440 --> 00:55:39,880 different times and different seasons and things like that. 967 00:55:40,200 --> 00:55:44,280 And start like sharing recipes and stuff, which used to be a 968 00:55:44,280 --> 00:55:46,280 big thing people would ask. And I'm like, I'm not that 969 00:55:46,280 --> 00:55:49,160 bitch, but like when I come back, I'm going to be Susie 970 00:55:49,160 --> 00:55:53,040 fucking Homemaker and I'm going to have like a YouTube and I'm 971 00:55:53,040 --> 00:55:55,960 going to do a whole thing. But I am really enjoying the 972 00:55:55,960 --> 00:55:58,920 time off of social media. I refuse to download Instagram 973 00:55:58,920 --> 00:56:04,520 again right now. I refuse to download TikTok 974 00:56:04,520 --> 00:56:09,960 again right now. And I am living my best life, 975 00:56:10,000 --> 00:56:14,040 living my life and being present in it and figuring out all of 976 00:56:14,040 --> 00:56:17,360 the things that I want to do off of social media and spending 977 00:56:17,360 --> 00:56:20,040 time with my family. And then when I figure out 978 00:56:20,040 --> 00:56:24,160 exactly how I want to be on social media and I feel 979 00:56:24,160 --> 00:56:27,760 responsible enough to have business hours and have 980 00:56:27,760 --> 00:56:31,640 parameters with things and it not consume my entire life, I 981 00:56:31,640 --> 00:56:34,600 will be back. But in the meantime and and I 982 00:56:34,600 --> 00:56:37,440 will be back for cooking videos and shit like that. 983 00:56:38,360 --> 00:56:43,560 But in the meantime I am at peace living my life, loving my 984 00:56:43,560 --> 00:56:46,320 life and the people in it. And I will just be here and not 985 00:56:46,320 --> 00:56:49,960 accepting collaboration invites but want to be included on them. 986 00:56:49,960 --> 00:56:51,920 Thank you. Something about getting that 987 00:56:51,920 --> 00:56:54,480 good Dick has had her feel like guess what? 988 00:56:54,560 --> 00:56:58,200 Fuck all y'all. Fuck your collaboration invite. 989 00:56:58,760 --> 00:57:03,000 Fuck the your, your tagged memo. Don't tag me, bitch. 990 00:57:03,000 --> 00:57:07,080 I'm not gonna see it. I think Gemini's gonna come back 991 00:57:07,080 --> 00:57:10,520 and she's gonna drop a rap song or a collaboration. 992 00:57:10,520 --> 00:57:12,200 She's got to start making music, y'all. 993 00:57:13,440 --> 00:57:16,160 That's funny that you say that because somebody recently said 994 00:57:16,160 --> 00:57:19,280 that to me. OK, well here we are. 995 00:57:19,880 --> 00:57:23,480 I'm ready to see verse one. We'll do a feature. 996 00:57:23,520 --> 00:57:27,120 We'll get Peach the feature. Could you imagine? 997 00:57:27,120 --> 00:57:30,760 I come back and all like I got a fucking grill crapping with 998 00:57:31,040 --> 00:57:32,960 Peach. You know I have a grill. 999 00:57:33,920 --> 00:57:36,400 Yeah, I know you have a grill. Oh I'm about to wear it next 1000 00:57:36,400 --> 00:57:39,640 time for y'all. Well the updates are clear. 1001 00:57:39,880 --> 00:57:43,560 Don't disturb our peace or your your message will go on deaf 1002 00:57:43,560 --> 00:57:45,360 ears. Bitch I don't have the app. 1003 00:57:45,720 --> 00:57:47,880 I don't even don't use that app OK. 1004 00:57:49,160 --> 00:57:52,880 Yeah, I don't use that app. I have a new number like I have 1005 00:57:52,880 --> 00:57:54,880 a new number. I have a new phone. 1006 00:57:55,760 --> 00:58:01,960 I Life is new. Yeah, she even went to an 1007 00:58:01,960 --> 00:58:04,200 Android y'all. Like she's not even on the blue 1008 00:58:04,200 --> 00:58:06,320 bubble anymore. I can't even see the Switch's 1009 00:58:06,320 --> 00:58:08,160 location. I'm about to get her to download 1010 00:58:08,160 --> 00:58:10,920 Life 360 because I can't see her shit now. 1011 00:58:10,920 --> 00:58:13,880 I can't see what she's doing, I can't see if she read my 1012 00:58:13,880 --> 00:58:16,160 message. I don't see what she's doing. 1013 00:58:16,160 --> 00:58:20,320 I can't see nothing. What? 1014 00:58:21,360 --> 00:58:23,720 You can see if I read your message, I can see if you read 1015 00:58:23,720 --> 00:58:26,280 mine. I'm just fucking with you. 1016 00:58:26,640 --> 00:58:31,880 I'm it's a Motorola thank you and I will never do iPhone again 1017 00:58:32,160 --> 00:58:34,560 in this present moment. This phone is the fucking 1018 00:58:34,560 --> 00:58:37,480 titties. I I have no reason to go back to 1019 00:58:37,480 --> 00:58:39,400 iPhone right now. This thing is amazing. 1020 00:58:41,080 --> 00:58:44,680 Well y'all Gemini's on a whole new wave and she's not coming 1021 00:58:44,680 --> 00:58:48,640 back so we'll see you fucking next time in Candyland and 1022 00:58:48,640 --> 00:58:52,280 hopefully Gemini shows up. Bye. 1023 00:58:52,440 --> 00:58:57,280 Uh huh. Yeah, he says. 1024 00:58:57,320 --> 00:59:00,680 She's so sweet, like a rapper, like a lollipop. 1025 00:59:00,960 --> 00:59:03,520 Lollipop, Lollipop Lollipop Lollipop.