1 00:00:10,640 --> 00:00:16,400 Welcome to Fucking Candy Land, hosted by Rampage and Gemini. 2 00:00:29,100 --> 00:00:34,180 Welcome back to Candy Land. It is Scorpio season and I am in 3 00:00:34,180 --> 00:00:37,340 rare form right now. Jim and I How are you feeling? 4 00:00:37,900 --> 00:00:40,980 Well, I'm a Scorpio Rising, so I'm thriving right now. 5 00:00:42,020 --> 00:00:45,740 I'm really doing all of the things and preparing for a two 6 00:00:45,740 --> 00:00:49,340 week rest period because you keep on telling me you need to 7 00:00:49,380 --> 00:00:52,180 be resting and so that's what the fuck I'm going to do. 8 00:00:52,180 --> 00:00:55,750 So me being who I am, I'm going to work really fucking hard 9 00:00:56,190 --> 00:00:59,030 before I take my two week rest period so that I don't feel 10 00:00:59,030 --> 00:01:01,990 guilty about resting. That's exactly what I did, 11 00:01:01,990 --> 00:01:05,430 though like I wanted to take at least a week and a half to two 12 00:01:05,430 --> 00:01:09,560 weeks off from readings. I had a couple people reschedule 13 00:01:09,560 --> 00:01:11,920 and I knew I would have a couple spells to do. 14 00:01:12,240 --> 00:01:16,840 But I'm really seeing like the silver lining in where I'm at 15 00:01:16,840 --> 00:01:21,080 now because the old me would have loved the fact that I'm 16 00:01:21,080 --> 00:01:23,680 like sold out. People are waiting in line to 17 00:01:23,680 --> 00:01:26,720 get on the Patreon tears, or people are waiting for a reading 18 00:01:26,720 --> 00:01:30,320 for weeks and the new me is like, yeah, y'all can keep 19 00:01:30,320 --> 00:01:33,320 waiting because I need to rest. Like I need to chill but the old 20 00:01:33,320 --> 00:01:36,840 me would have like. Overextended And people please. 21 00:01:36,840 --> 00:01:38,240 And I feel like that's where you're at. 22 00:01:38,240 --> 00:01:41,560 You're still in between like the people pleasing and wanting to 23 00:01:41,560 --> 00:01:43,600 help people more than we help ourselves. 24 00:01:43,960 --> 00:01:47,920 And that is something that's so vital in a spiritual profession 25 00:01:48,400 --> 00:01:50,920 is like you can't pour from an empty cup. 26 00:01:51,200 --> 00:01:53,960 And even though there's people who need you and want your 27 00:01:53,960 --> 00:01:57,240 energy, you have to reserve that for yourself and your family. 28 00:01:58,550 --> 00:02:01,270 Well, in something I was just talking about on TikTok, I just 29 00:02:01,270 --> 00:02:05,030 made a video talking about how as healers, we do all of the 30 00:02:05,030 --> 00:02:07,310 things to take care of ourselves spiritually. 31 00:02:07,310 --> 00:02:08,949 And we're like, oh, look, I need to cleanse. 32 00:02:08,949 --> 00:02:10,310 I need to get rid of this energy. 33 00:02:10,310 --> 00:02:12,750 I need to do, you know, my meditation and whatever. 34 00:02:12,990 --> 00:02:15,110 But that doesn't mean that we're taking care of ourselves 35 00:02:15,110 --> 00:02:18,070 physically, too. And so if you're physically 36 00:02:18,070 --> 00:02:20,990 running on burnout, but you're spiritually taking care of 37 00:02:20,990 --> 00:02:23,350 yourself, you're still burning yourself out. 38 00:02:23,350 --> 00:02:26,950 You're like, for me, I know that when I'm checking in, I'm not 39 00:02:26,950 --> 00:02:30,070 taking care of my body because I'm go, go, go. 40 00:02:30,070 --> 00:02:32,670 I'm doing all of the things. And if I have downtime, I'm 41 00:02:32,670 --> 00:02:36,390 like, I got to meditate, I got to go and you know, do ABC and D 42 00:02:36,390 --> 00:02:41,710 and I really need to be getting myself back on track. 43 00:02:42,550 --> 00:02:47,270 And I talked to you about it like, you know, I was doing so 44 00:02:47,270 --> 00:02:53,150 good on my, like health journey with my physical body for a long 45 00:02:53,150 --> 00:02:57,210 time. And then I wasn't able to see 46 00:02:57,210 --> 00:02:59,570 that physically the way that I wanted. 47 00:02:59,930 --> 00:03:03,050 And now I look back and I'm like, wow, I was looking really 48 00:03:03,050 --> 00:03:04,490 good and I was feeling really good. 49 00:03:04,490 --> 00:03:07,090 And you can tell I was really taking care of myself. 50 00:03:07,330 --> 00:03:10,410 And maybe I'm not like I wasn't the dream size that I wanted to 51 00:03:10,410 --> 00:03:16,050 be, but I had so much energy. I felt so good and I want to 52 00:03:16,050 --> 00:03:21,370 take the time to get back there. Honestly, it's such a wave 53 00:03:21,450 --> 00:03:25,180 because. In each season, you know 54 00:03:25,180 --> 00:03:28,820 something is being highlighted. And right now in fall, it's like 55 00:03:28,820 --> 00:03:32,140 about letting go, letting go of your need to control something, 56 00:03:32,140 --> 00:03:36,500 or letting go of your attachment to an outcome or to an income or 57 00:03:36,500 --> 00:03:39,900 to some type of magical place that you think you're going. 58 00:03:40,180 --> 00:03:44,380 And then in the winter, it's a reflection period, like how can 59 00:03:44,380 --> 00:03:49,780 I recalibrate my system so that in the spring I can spring into 60 00:03:49,780 --> 00:03:52,260 action? I will have the motivation, I'll 61 00:03:52,260 --> 00:03:53,460 have the. Plan. 62 00:03:53,820 --> 00:03:57,260 I'll have worked out, you know, those limiting beliefs and be 63 00:03:57,260 --> 00:04:00,300 able to move forward. And I noticed that, like in the 64 00:04:00,300 --> 00:04:05,060 spring, I get so much done coming out of winter, where I 65 00:04:05,060 --> 00:04:09,260 feel like winter is such a drag. Like winter is literally the 66 00:04:09,260 --> 00:04:12,580 longest season, even though they're all very equal. 67 00:04:12,580 --> 00:04:15,500 And like, I don't know if it's the darkness, I don't know if 68 00:04:15,500 --> 00:04:17,940 it's the cold, because I personally like cold. 69 00:04:18,339 --> 00:04:20,940 I'm not sure what it is, but there's something about winter. 70 00:04:21,570 --> 00:04:26,330 That I am just so ready to go when spring hits. 71 00:04:26,610 --> 00:04:31,410 But I think at this time, for all of us, we need to be focused 72 00:04:31,410 --> 00:04:34,770 on what we're letting go of. And personally for you, you need 73 00:04:34,770 --> 00:04:37,290 to let go of all the expectations that you put on 74 00:04:37,290 --> 00:04:39,490 yourself. Like if you're not pumping out 75 00:04:39,490 --> 00:04:41,530 content, you don't feel like you're doing enough. 76 00:04:41,810 --> 00:04:44,930 And I'll just be honest for everyone listening if y'all want 77 00:04:44,930 --> 00:04:47,850 daily, weekly. Every two seconds content, you 78 00:04:47,850 --> 00:04:51,370 better join her Patreon and steer clear of mine because mine 79 00:04:51,370 --> 00:04:56,650 is more of like community support and like some like tools 80 00:04:56,650 --> 00:04:59,330 and resources. But I am not teaching you all a 81 00:04:59,330 --> 00:05:02,370 segment on everything every day. Like this woman thinks that 82 00:05:02,370 --> 00:05:06,170 she's not teaching a four chapter segment on. 83 00:05:07,150 --> 00:05:09,750 I don't even know occult history or whatever. 84 00:05:09,750 --> 00:05:12,310 Then she's not doing enough. And I'm like, you're the only 85 00:05:12,310 --> 00:05:14,830 person who is setting these expectations. 86 00:05:15,070 --> 00:05:17,510 Like, for me, baby, here's some keywords. 87 00:05:17,510 --> 00:05:20,750 Now go look them up. Get a book like, I'm not your 88 00:05:20,750 --> 00:05:23,630 daily newscaster. I'm going to tell you all 89 00:05:23,630 --> 00:05:26,230 everything you need to know. But she's like, no, if I don't 90 00:05:26,230 --> 00:05:29,430 tell them all about this and all about that and I don't let them 91 00:05:29,430 --> 00:05:32,150 know, then they won't support me. 92 00:05:32,350 --> 00:05:37,440 And I'm like, yes, they will. So I'm working really hard on 93 00:05:37,440 --> 00:05:40,160 that that that's something that I really want to work on with 94 00:05:40,160 --> 00:05:44,400 the break is I do have these expectations. 95 00:05:44,400 --> 00:05:48,560 And I also think that in some ways, I think that the way that 96 00:05:48,600 --> 00:05:53,400 I think about content on Patreon specifically is almost like a 97 00:05:53,400 --> 00:05:57,440 trauma response to things that we went through earlier in the 98 00:05:57,440 --> 00:06:02,360 year. Because I was really like in my 99 00:06:02,360 --> 00:06:04,840 element, thriving, pouring out content. 100 00:06:04,840 --> 00:06:08,680 Like, I've never been a I don't put content out person ever 101 00:06:08,680 --> 00:06:11,760 since I started Patreon because I take it really seriously that, 102 00:06:11,760 --> 00:06:14,800 like, people are putting their money into something every month 103 00:06:14,800 --> 00:06:19,880 to like, get something from me. I feel like and I felt like, 104 00:06:19,880 --> 00:06:22,720 wow, like I'm doing so much. I'm doing all of these things. 105 00:06:22,720 --> 00:06:25,880 And then to have people inside of our communities come back and 106 00:06:25,880 --> 00:06:29,600 be like, you're not doing enough or you're not giving enough or I 107 00:06:29,600 --> 00:06:32,120 felt like I was being taken advantage of because I was 108 00:06:32,120 --> 00:06:37,160 paying or whatever I've been having to really, like, retrain 109 00:06:37,160 --> 00:06:40,390 myself from. And my thinking from that 110 00:06:40,390 --> 00:06:43,950 situation. Because even though I knew that 111 00:06:43,950 --> 00:06:46,150 wasn't true, even though I'm having all of these 112 00:06:46,150 --> 00:06:49,350 conversations with people who were putting more in than those 113 00:06:49,350 --> 00:06:53,710 people were, I still was like, like, that hits like your soul 114 00:06:53,710 --> 00:06:58,030 center where you're like, like that's something that, like, I'm 115 00:06:58,030 --> 00:07:01,590 so passionate about doing and I put so much time and energy 116 00:07:01,830 --> 00:07:05,390 into, and then to be told that it was just difficult. 117 00:07:06,570 --> 00:07:08,930 Yeah. I mean, at the same time, we 118 00:07:08,930 --> 00:07:11,930 have to remember, though, that we're setting the rules. 119 00:07:11,930 --> 00:07:15,090 And if you're abiding by these imaginary roles that are making 120 00:07:15,090 --> 00:07:19,690 you drained and overextend yourself, then like, you're not 121 00:07:19,770 --> 00:07:23,650 helping anyone if you're draining yourself to do that, 122 00:07:23,650 --> 00:07:25,730 you know? And that's where, like, I think 123 00:07:26,050 --> 00:07:28,970 I'm creating a really healthy work life. 124 00:07:29,540 --> 00:07:33,180 Balance because I don't want spirituality to feel like a job. 125 00:07:33,180 --> 00:07:36,260 I've never made it about money. I did free readings for an 126 00:07:36,260 --> 00:07:40,580 entire year where I did over 300 readings that year. 127 00:07:40,580 --> 00:07:45,300 Like when I look back at it, that's like 150 hours of my time 128 00:07:45,460 --> 00:07:48,580 that I dedicated to something that did not make me a dollar, 129 00:07:48,820 --> 00:07:51,740 but at the same time, like I would do that again if spirit 130 00:07:51,740 --> 00:07:54,040 was like. Everything's taken care of. 131 00:07:54,040 --> 00:07:57,000 You don't ever have to worry about taxes or bills or gas or 132 00:07:57,000 --> 00:08:00,440 cars or anything ever again in your life if you just do this. 133 00:08:00,440 --> 00:08:02,920 I would just do that. Like I would not have a problem 134 00:08:03,160 --> 00:08:06,640 with going back to like, the trade and barter system because 135 00:08:06,680 --> 00:08:10,920 like, I'm passionate about it. But also it is a trauma response 136 00:08:10,920 --> 00:08:14,520 to think that we need to turn our gifts into a job. 137 00:08:14,760 --> 00:08:17,000 And I tell clients this all the time. 138 00:08:17,510 --> 00:08:20,470 Find a hobby. Yes, hobbies make people money, 139 00:08:20,470 --> 00:08:23,150 but that does not need to be your original goal. 140 00:08:23,310 --> 00:08:27,510 Say you just enjoy painting, or you enjoy making candles, or you 141 00:08:27,510 --> 00:08:30,710 enjoy creating something, content, or whatever. 142 00:08:31,370 --> 00:08:33,610 Don't do that. From the aspect of I'm going to 143 00:08:33,610 --> 00:08:36,450 turn this into my job, I'm going to turn this into a full time 144 00:08:36,450 --> 00:08:39,450 thing. I'm going to do this 24/7. 145 00:08:39,730 --> 00:08:44,010 A lot of which we limit ourselves by doing that because 146 00:08:44,010 --> 00:08:47,450 then we put a damper on our creativity because it's like, 147 00:08:47,450 --> 00:08:49,930 no, I need to give the people what they want or I need to 148 00:08:49,930 --> 00:08:54,330 align with this certain type of energy in order to be, you know, 149 00:08:54,330 --> 00:08:59,130 received well or supported. And I think that so many people 150 00:08:59,330 --> 00:09:02,970 go from making art. To making content because they 151 00:09:02,970 --> 00:09:04,530 think that's what they need to make. 152 00:09:04,530 --> 00:09:07,850 Like my big thing is like I make art and y'all make content. 153 00:09:07,850 --> 00:09:11,770 Whenever I am elevated in an elevated state I'm channeling 154 00:09:11,770 --> 00:09:14,250 for spirit and I'm creating from the heart space. 155 00:09:14,490 --> 00:09:17,810 When we get into this as a job or I've got to please people or 156 00:09:17,810 --> 00:09:20,450 they're paying money, then it turns into like I'm making 157 00:09:20,450 --> 00:09:25,490 content to please you rather than I'm making art to channel. 158 00:09:26,250 --> 00:09:30,490 So I get what you're saying, but also I don't want it to seem 159 00:09:30,490 --> 00:09:35,120 like the reason that I do what I'm doing is because I feel like 160 00:09:35,120 --> 00:09:39,080 that's something that like I have to be doing because of like 161 00:09:39,080 --> 00:09:42,920 the monetary whatever to it. Because at the end of the day, 162 00:09:42,920 --> 00:09:47,360 like that's not my motivation behind what I'm doing. 163 00:09:47,360 --> 00:09:50,640 I was already doing those things before I decided to go on to 164 00:09:50,640 --> 00:09:56,880 Patreon. I just feel like sometimes that 165 00:09:56,880 --> 00:10:02,570 balance is difficult to find where like where is like my 166 00:10:02,570 --> 00:10:05,050 satisfaction level and things like where. 167 00:10:05,050 --> 00:10:07,890 And that's a personal thing that doesn't have anything to do with 168 00:10:07,890 --> 00:10:12,730 people around me is like how much effort do I have to put 169 00:10:12,730 --> 00:10:15,130 into something for me to feel like that's enough. 170 00:10:15,170 --> 00:10:19,840 And I am like that with so many things in life, not just when it 171 00:10:19,840 --> 00:10:23,520 comes to business, Like my house can be clean, I can have the 172 00:10:23,520 --> 00:10:26,280 house cleaner come in and whatever and I'll still be like, 173 00:10:26,280 --> 00:10:29,080 oh, there's this thing over here that like wasn't done that I 174 00:10:29,080 --> 00:10:32,040 need to go and do real quick to like reach my satisfaction 175 00:10:32,040 --> 00:10:35,440 level. And I am always in the mindset 176 00:10:35,480 --> 00:10:41,730 of it could be better and that is like a how I was raised type 177 00:10:41,730 --> 00:10:46,170 of thing where in and there's a there's always a balance to 178 00:10:46,170 --> 00:10:48,570 that, right? Like it's really awesome to 179 00:10:48,570 --> 00:10:51,370 always be pushed and be like OK, you accomplished that goal now 180 00:10:51,370 --> 00:10:56,330 what's next but not being taught the resting part of it And so 181 00:10:56,330 --> 00:11:00,050 it's almost like incorporated in like my DNA of who I am as a 182 00:11:00,050 --> 00:11:02,330 human of like we accomplished that goal. 183 00:11:02,330 --> 00:11:06,850 What's next? And I have to work on 184 00:11:07,720 --> 00:11:13,120 understanding that something has been accomplished and now I can 185 00:11:13,440 --> 00:11:17,320 rest in between. And that doesn't mean that my 186 00:11:17,320 --> 00:11:21,040 resting is thinking about what the next task is going to be. 187 00:11:21,880 --> 00:11:26,560 Well, I think it's a human instinct to like, always have 188 00:11:26,560 --> 00:11:31,840 goals and like we're very much brainwashed here in society in 189 00:11:31,840 --> 00:11:35,760 general, to constantly be chasing something outside of 190 00:11:35,760 --> 00:11:38,510 ourselves. And that's why I like, I don't 191 00:11:38,510 --> 00:11:41,990 ever want spirituality to feel like a job that I have, to 192 00:11:41,990 --> 00:11:48,270 overextend myself to bring in some type of satisfaction in the 193 00:11:48,270 --> 00:11:49,990 material world, if that makes sense. 194 00:11:49,990 --> 00:11:52,230 And I'm not saying that's why we don't do it full time. 195 00:11:52,230 --> 00:11:53,790 You know what I mean? Like, that's why we're both 196 00:11:53,830 --> 00:11:56,750 like, we need to have outside sources of like, income and 197 00:11:56,750 --> 00:11:58,310 things that we're putting our energy into. 198 00:11:58,350 --> 00:12:02,130 Because yeah, I learned that lesson this year of like, it 199 00:12:02,130 --> 00:12:04,690 seems all cool and dandy to like, do that all the time 200 00:12:04,690 --> 00:12:07,050 because you love it. But then you end up being like, 201 00:12:07,290 --> 00:12:10,010 well, then you think about the money aspect of it. 202 00:12:10,010 --> 00:12:13,090 And I even think about some people that you and I are 203 00:12:13,090 --> 00:12:17,050 mutuals with that I look at them and their posts are salesy and 204 00:12:17,050 --> 00:12:19,570 they're trying to sell you their cell work and they're trying to 205 00:12:20,050 --> 00:12:22,970 all of their content is about why you should book with them 206 00:12:22,970 --> 00:12:27,380 and what you should be doing. And and you know, sure, you're 207 00:12:27,380 --> 00:12:29,500 running a business, so here and there you're going to be 208 00:12:29,500 --> 00:12:32,020 shouting yourself out and doing stuff like that and having 209 00:12:32,020 --> 00:12:36,140 sales. But if your entire everything 210 00:12:36,140 --> 00:12:39,260 is, I'm so stressed out, you know, you talk to somebody and 211 00:12:39,260 --> 00:12:41,500 they're like, I'm so stressed out because I need to sell more 212 00:12:41,500 --> 00:12:43,980 spells so that I can pay rent. I don't want to be in that 213 00:12:43,980 --> 00:12:47,860 mindset. And I've seen practitioners like 214 00:12:47,860 --> 00:12:51,980 starting random gofundmes and random things and my problem 215 00:12:51,980 --> 00:12:54,420 with that is it be the same practitioners. 216 00:12:54,970 --> 00:12:56,810 Yeah, they'll be like, I don't have health insurance. 217 00:12:56,890 --> 00:13:01,250 It lapsed. I need $1500 to pay this and 218 00:13:01,250 --> 00:13:03,170 that. Like, I've seen that from people 219 00:13:03,170 --> 00:13:07,930 that that I know in a way. But The thing is for me, in that 220 00:13:07,930 --> 00:13:11,530 sense is like these same people get lip injections or they go on 221 00:13:11,530 --> 00:13:15,050 vacations or they live in really expensive cities like Los 222 00:13:15,050 --> 00:13:18,850 Angeles and Miami or wherever it's like. 223 00:13:19,420 --> 00:13:23,140 Girl, go get you a small town cottage where rent is like $800 224 00:13:23,140 --> 00:13:26,900 and stop begging for people on the Internet to pay your bills. 225 00:13:27,180 --> 00:13:29,380 And it also be the same people that are like, I'm so 226 00:13:29,380 --> 00:13:32,580 successful, I wrote this book, look at everything that I've 227 00:13:32,580 --> 00:13:37,020 done, but they go in in waves and like you said, it does turn 228 00:13:37,020 --> 00:13:39,940 to be kind of scammy or be kind of salesy. 229 00:13:40,300 --> 00:13:43,460 And I don't like anyone who's trying to upsell me when I'm 230 00:13:43,460 --> 00:13:47,660 already booking with you. Like I will let people know when 231 00:13:47,660 --> 00:13:49,340 they say how can I work with you more? 232 00:13:49,620 --> 00:13:52,380 OK, I'm mentor on Patreon. I have these offerings on 233 00:13:52,380 --> 00:13:56,460 Patreon, but I don't ever be like, no, you need to sign up 234 00:13:56,460 --> 00:13:58,380 for Patreon. Like no, that's what you need. 235 00:13:58,380 --> 00:14:01,380 If someone asks me what I think they should do, I will be like, 236 00:14:01,380 --> 00:14:04,380 you know, these spots are sold out, but you know, maybe keep 237 00:14:04,380 --> 00:14:07,780 your eye on them in the future. I've had people ask me if I 238 00:14:07,780 --> 00:14:10,540 would open up more spots. For them. 239 00:14:10,540 --> 00:14:14,180 And at that time I wasn't really wanting to, but you know, it'd 240 00:14:14,180 --> 00:14:18,380 be those people that reach out, that really have interest that 241 00:14:18,380 --> 00:14:21,220 end up sometimes not doing any of what you've recommended. 242 00:14:21,460 --> 00:14:24,940 And so I just kind of like my website is pretty 243 00:14:24,940 --> 00:14:27,220 self-explanatory. If you click on the service, 244 00:14:27,220 --> 00:14:28,860 it's going to tell you what it entails. 245 00:14:29,060 --> 00:14:31,500 Same thing with Patreon. There's different levels and 246 00:14:31,500 --> 00:14:33,300 they all tell you what they entail. 247 00:14:33,580 --> 00:14:37,170 But I don't feel like I need to. Sell that to them. 248 00:14:37,170 --> 00:14:39,050 Like it's going to be a personal choice. 249 00:14:39,050 --> 00:14:43,050 If they want to invest fifty, 100 or whatever they want to 250 00:14:43,050 --> 00:14:48,050 invest each month and I try not to base my productivity on that. 251 00:14:48,130 --> 00:14:50,690 It's just kind of like they will or they won't. 252 00:14:50,690 --> 00:14:52,610 I'm not going to take it personal either way. 253 00:14:52,850 --> 00:14:54,490 It's kind of like with hair stylist. 254 00:14:54,490 --> 00:14:58,370 I've been seeing a lot about people know showing their hair 255 00:14:58,370 --> 00:15:01,890 stylist or older women who used to get highlights and things 256 00:15:01,890 --> 00:15:06,710 just going Gray because of. The rising of cost and I 257 00:15:06,710 --> 00:15:09,830 understand like people need to make a living, but a lot of 258 00:15:09,830 --> 00:15:12,870 hairstylist come at it from a wrong perspective. 259 00:15:12,870 --> 00:15:17,150 In my perspective, like I used to have a regular hairstylist 260 00:15:17,150 --> 00:15:19,950 whenever I would do my hair white and like really blonde. 261 00:15:20,110 --> 00:15:22,390 So, you know, he made a significant amount of money off 262 00:15:22,390 --> 00:15:24,630 me. Well, four years ago when I said 263 00:15:24,630 --> 00:15:28,510 I wanted to go natural, he was very nice about, like weaving in 264 00:15:28,510 --> 00:15:30,830 the low lights and the highlights so that when it grew 265 00:15:30,830 --> 00:15:33,510 out, you wouldn't be able to tell that I wasn't getting my 266 00:15:33,510 --> 00:15:35,670 hair done. Really appreciated that because 267 00:15:35,670 --> 00:15:38,310 I haven't had to put any color on my hair in four years. 268 00:15:38,590 --> 00:15:41,830 But when I reached back out to him about a year ago about just 269 00:15:41,830 --> 00:15:44,670 getting a trim and a style, he left me on red. 270 00:15:45,890 --> 00:15:49,130 And I'm like, it'd be the same people to saying that they can't 271 00:15:49,130 --> 00:15:52,490 get clients or that people know show them or people are going 272 00:15:52,490 --> 00:15:55,450 back natural, so they're not getting those colors and cuts. 273 00:15:55,850 --> 00:15:58,290 But I reach out to you for a service and you leave me on red 274 00:15:58,290 --> 00:16:03,130 because it's not at the caliber of what I used to pay you $250 275 00:16:03,130 --> 00:16:06,050 or whatever. And so it really kind of irked 276 00:16:06,050 --> 00:16:09,490 me a little bit because I was like, let's be the same person 277 00:16:09,490 --> 00:16:11,010 that talks about people know showing. 278 00:16:11,010 --> 00:16:12,930 And I've never known show like if I. 279 00:16:13,560 --> 00:16:15,680 If he would have told me a haircut is $65, I would have 280 00:16:15,680 --> 00:16:16,880 paid it. You know what I mean? 281 00:16:16,880 --> 00:16:20,160 So it's like for him to just leave me on red and not even 282 00:16:20,160 --> 00:16:22,720 acknowledge that I was trying to make an appointment with him. 283 00:16:22,960 --> 00:16:26,080 Kind of pissed me off and made it where I won't go back to him 284 00:16:26,080 --> 00:16:28,240 for any service, even if I started getting my hair done 285 00:16:28,240 --> 00:16:33,360 again. See, I have been frustrated with 286 00:16:33,360 --> 00:16:36,280 my hair because I I have a hair stylist. 287 00:16:36,640 --> 00:16:41,080 And I had talked to her before about like doing color and doing 288 00:16:41,080 --> 00:16:44,090 whatever. And I told her all of the things 289 00:16:44,090 --> 00:16:45,570 that I've never had a color with her. 290 00:16:45,570 --> 00:16:48,890 I've only had cut. But I had talked to her about 291 00:16:48,890 --> 00:16:51,010 color and I had told her, you know, I'm going to be growing 292 00:16:51,010 --> 00:16:53,730 out my hair. I don't want to have these 293 00:16:53,730 --> 00:16:55,530 colors anymore. I want to go to this. 294 00:16:55,530 --> 00:16:58,370 I texted her with pictures, exactly what I'm looking for, 295 00:16:58,370 --> 00:17:00,890 whatever. And she's like, Oh, yeah, so 296 00:17:00,890 --> 00:17:04,290 then, you know, I, I'm asking for price points. 297 00:17:04,290 --> 00:17:07,010 And it's, oh, it can be anywhere from here to here. 298 00:17:07,630 --> 00:17:09,869 Well, what is that? Like, what do you mean it can be 299 00:17:09,869 --> 00:17:12,589 like that's, you know, a $500 difference. 300 00:17:12,589 --> 00:17:16,310 Like, what are you possibly going to do that's going to be, 301 00:17:16,550 --> 00:17:20,510 you know, possibly $500 more? Because how do I budget for 302 00:17:20,510 --> 00:17:21,030 that? Right. 303 00:17:21,430 --> 00:17:26,550 And so then when I went and I finally booked the service, she 304 00:17:26,550 --> 00:17:28,990 was like, and I booked it the way she said. 305 00:17:28,990 --> 00:17:31,990 She's like, Oh well, when you went and booked it, you know, we 306 00:17:31,990 --> 00:17:37,270 should make it 2 full days and whatever, because, you know, I 307 00:17:37,270 --> 00:17:39,950 need a whole day to take the color out and then I need a 308 00:17:39,950 --> 00:17:43,150 whole day to put new color in. What the fuck do you mean? 309 00:17:43,150 --> 00:17:46,110 Like, that's not what we even talked about. 310 00:17:46,110 --> 00:17:50,670 So is that why it's like a 500? I get very frustrated with the 311 00:17:50,670 --> 00:17:53,590 hair stylist thing, which is why I've always just colored my own 312 00:17:53,590 --> 00:17:58,470 hair and I hate videos on social media of hair stylist being like 313 00:17:59,080 --> 00:18:02,840 don't use at home color and don't do this and don't do that. 314 00:18:02,840 --> 00:18:04,280 You need to go to a professional. 315 00:18:04,280 --> 00:18:08,520 Will you want to charge somebody, you know $1000 to do 316 00:18:08,520 --> 00:18:12,000 their hair and cool those are your prices. 317 00:18:12,000 --> 00:18:14,800 But not everybody can afford to be doing that so why go on 318 00:18:14,800 --> 00:18:18,760 social media and shame people? I don't go like all of you need 319 00:18:18,760 --> 00:18:21,760 fucking healing out here. Shame on you for not booking 320 00:18:21,760 --> 00:18:24,880 tarot readings because y'all are fucked, you know? 321 00:18:25,730 --> 00:18:27,850 Yeah, I mean a lot of it's fear based. 322 00:18:27,850 --> 00:18:30,290 A lot of it's like, oh, your hair's gonna fall out, or it's 323 00:18:30,290 --> 00:18:34,330 breakage or this. But I think a lot of people go 324 00:18:34,330 --> 00:18:37,730 about it the wrong way when it's their full time gig. 325 00:18:38,100 --> 00:18:40,300 And whether you know, and I understand, people want to make 326 00:18:40,300 --> 00:18:44,460 a full time out of their dream, but that's why people are not 327 00:18:44,460 --> 00:18:49,020 attracted to you as a practitioner or a stylist or as 328 00:18:49,020 --> 00:18:51,580 a person. Because you're giving off these 329 00:18:51,660 --> 00:18:55,100 off putting vibes that are like, I want your money. 330 00:18:55,300 --> 00:18:58,700 You're a number to me. You know, you booking with me is 331 00:18:58,700 --> 00:19:01,060 filling a spot that's going to pay my bills. 332 00:19:01,300 --> 00:19:03,620 I deserve to eat too. And all this stuff. 333 00:19:04,100 --> 00:19:05,540 OK, great. That's awesome. 334 00:19:06,340 --> 00:19:07,940 And I'm all about paying for services. 335 00:19:07,940 --> 00:19:10,940 Like I got my nails done last night, took her three hours. 336 00:19:11,140 --> 00:19:15,180 They literally look phenomenal. And basically her underneath. 337 00:19:15,500 --> 00:19:17,740 She didn't have to do that. That means she had to layer with 338 00:19:17,740 --> 00:19:19,580 glitter first and then paint it over it. 339 00:19:19,900 --> 00:19:21,660 But she did that because I'm willing to pay for that. 340 00:19:22,020 --> 00:19:25,700 But once again, when your nails are 100 plus dollars, a lot of 341 00:19:25,700 --> 00:19:27,460 people aren't willing to pay that, you know? 342 00:19:27,460 --> 00:19:30,620 And she says like I'm one of her crazier clients that likes 343 00:19:30,860 --> 00:19:35,170 diamonds and charms. She bought a whole box of 344 00:19:35,170 --> 00:19:39,930 Halloween charms that only me and juber have used Cuba, 345 00:19:40,210 --> 00:19:43,170 because she knew I wanted those. And I and I was like, well, I 346 00:19:43,170 --> 00:19:45,530 feel like I have to get a charm on there this time, 'cause you 347 00:19:45,530 --> 00:19:47,650 bought those for me. And they're seasonal. 348 00:19:48,090 --> 00:19:52,170 And you know, she's willing to invest because she knows I'm 349 00:19:52,170 --> 00:19:54,290 willing to pay for her time. You know that whole box of 350 00:19:54,290 --> 00:19:56,130 charms is probably 15 bucks, right? 351 00:19:56,130 --> 00:19:59,210 Like she's gonna make her money back off of me using them. 352 00:19:59,210 --> 00:20:02,050 But The thing is is like I would never. 353 00:20:02,840 --> 00:20:06,840 Go to her chair and be like, well, my budget's $50.00, but I 354 00:20:06,840 --> 00:20:11,160 want all of this stuff. Like if it take you an hour to 355 00:20:11,160 --> 00:20:15,080 saw my nails off and give me a fresh set, I'm going to pay you 356 00:20:15,080 --> 00:20:17,640 to saw my nails off. And you know, and my nails 357 00:20:17,640 --> 00:20:21,760 looked super perfect underneath. Like, she educates her clients 358 00:20:21,760 --> 00:20:25,080 on the difference between chop shops and like her product. 359 00:20:25,360 --> 00:20:28,600 And I am more than happy to pay double what I would pay at a 360 00:20:28,600 --> 00:20:31,750 chop shop because they're going to last because I can get three 361 00:20:31,750 --> 00:20:33,590 weeks out of them, you know, that kind of thing. 362 00:20:33,830 --> 00:20:37,870 So I do understand that, like skill and time and things like 363 00:20:37,870 --> 00:20:41,270 that are worth accounting for. I saw something once and it said 364 00:20:41,470 --> 00:20:43,590 you're not paying me for the hours. 365 00:20:43,790 --> 00:20:46,670 You're paying me for the years it took to learn this skill. 366 00:20:47,030 --> 00:20:48,630 Absolutely. And I support that. 367 00:20:48,630 --> 00:20:51,350 Like if someone can come clean my house in an hour and a half 368 00:20:51,670 --> 00:20:55,100 versus someone else doing it for three hours, they should get 369 00:20:55,100 --> 00:20:56,900 paid the same as the person with three hours. 370 00:20:56,900 --> 00:20:59,500 If you can do it just as good in an hour and a half. 371 00:20:59,740 --> 00:21:02,740 But it's when you can't, it's when you oversell yourself. 372 00:21:02,740 --> 00:21:06,020 It's when you talk a big game and you can't deliver that. 373 00:21:06,020 --> 00:21:08,900 I'm like, no, I'm not paying that, but I am more than happy 374 00:21:08,900 --> 00:21:11,980 to pay people for their time that they've acquired, learning 375 00:21:11,980 --> 00:21:15,220 that skill. But a lot of people see it as 376 00:21:15,700 --> 00:21:17,340 well. They will do it for $20.00 an 377 00:21:17,340 --> 00:21:18,300 hour. Why won't you? 378 00:21:20,300 --> 00:21:24,870 The skill's different. Yeah, I also think too, you 379 00:21:24,870 --> 00:21:27,950 know, we we always talk about balance and that always seems to 380 00:21:27,950 --> 00:21:30,310 be a theme. And I think that there's a 381 00:21:30,310 --> 00:21:34,390 balance between, you know, being somebody who does spiritual work 382 00:21:34,390 --> 00:21:37,910 and being like I have these service that I can offer. 383 00:21:38,110 --> 00:21:41,710 So like for instance, if I'm doing a reading for somebody and 384 00:21:41,710 --> 00:21:46,070 they are, you know, have a lot of things coming up about 385 00:21:46,070 --> 00:21:48,670 educating themselves or elevating in these ways, or they 386 00:21:48,670 --> 00:21:51,790 have their own gifts or whatever it were they're talking about 387 00:21:51,790 --> 00:21:56,770 it. Then I'll be like, Oh well, you 388 00:21:56,770 --> 00:21:59,730 know, Ioffer these other things if there's anything that you're 389 00:21:59,730 --> 00:22:01,490 needing. These are things that I provide 390 00:22:01,490 --> 00:22:04,050 for a reason. I, you know, I do these classes, 391 00:22:04,050 --> 00:22:07,010 I have, you know, this Patreon if you're looking to just get a 392 00:22:07,010 --> 00:22:10,290 little bit more information. And I think it's important for 393 00:22:10,290 --> 00:22:14,010 people to have that balance of shouting themselves out or 394 00:22:14,010 --> 00:22:17,370 saying what they offer. And then also don't be fucking 395 00:22:17,370 --> 00:22:19,450 salesy about it and scammy about it. 396 00:22:19,450 --> 00:22:22,130 I'm not going to text you and be like so did you put more? 397 00:22:22,290 --> 00:22:23,970 Got into the Patreon thing. Are you going to join? 398 00:22:23,970 --> 00:22:25,610 I didn't see your sign up. You know what I mean? 399 00:22:26,610 --> 00:22:28,570 Yeah. And that's The thing is, like, I 400 00:22:28,570 --> 00:22:31,090 understand offering a subscription service. 401 00:22:31,090 --> 00:22:34,850 It's just like Netflix. It's just like, you know, faster 402 00:22:34,850 --> 00:22:38,090 Internet or whatever. When things get tight, the first 403 00:22:38,090 --> 00:22:41,810 thing to go is luxury services, whether that's your hair, your 404 00:22:41,810 --> 00:22:44,570 nails, you know, whatever. And I know there's always this 405 00:22:44,570 --> 00:22:47,970 big debate of like, oh, they're paying with a food stamp card, 406 00:22:47,970 --> 00:22:50,610 but have XXL nails and their hair done. 407 00:22:51,050 --> 00:22:54,210 Well, I mean, I can like see the fence of that of like, OK, 408 00:22:54,210 --> 00:22:55,970 you're getting government assistance because you say you 409 00:22:55,970 --> 00:23:00,330 can't afford certain things. But once again, these kids would 410 00:23:00,330 --> 00:23:02,370 starve because this person's still going to get their nails 411 00:23:02,370 --> 00:23:04,850 done whether you give them the food stamps or not. 412 00:23:05,090 --> 00:23:07,290 This person's still going to get their nails done and that's just 413 00:23:07,290 --> 00:23:08,650 going to be less for their child. 414 00:23:08,930 --> 00:23:11,450 So when I look at things like that, it's not necessarily for 415 00:23:11,450 --> 00:23:13,330 the parent, it's more for the child. 416 00:23:13,730 --> 00:23:17,070 And I do think that, and there should be some type of balance 417 00:23:17,070 --> 00:23:19,390 with that. But I try not to judge people 418 00:23:19,390 --> 00:23:23,150 for what they spend their luxury money on, whether that's having 419 00:23:23,150 --> 00:23:26,430 5 streaming services and the newest iPhone or whether that's 420 00:23:26,430 --> 00:23:29,510 buying your two year old Jordans or whatever it is like. 421 00:23:29,790 --> 00:23:32,390 Try not to judge people's vices and like what they spend their 422 00:23:32,390 --> 00:23:34,750 money on. Because I've been judged of 423 00:23:34,750 --> 00:23:36,870 like, well, you always have your nails done. 424 00:23:36,870 --> 00:23:39,110 You can't be that broke even when I was broke. 425 00:23:39,110 --> 00:23:42,270 But getting my nails done made me feel good, made me feel 426 00:23:42,270 --> 00:23:46,480 pretty, made me feel excited. And I'm not going to suffer just 427 00:23:46,480 --> 00:23:49,280 because my bank account isn't where it should be, you know, 428 00:23:49,280 --> 00:23:51,680 Like I'm still going to spend money on a luxury service 429 00:23:51,880 --> 00:23:54,400 somewhere in that line. And it's funny because when I 430 00:23:54,400 --> 00:23:58,160 was at my brokest or my lowest points is when I spent the most 431 00:23:58,160 --> 00:24:00,640 money on luxury services, period. 432 00:24:00,960 --> 00:24:03,840 Whether that was hair, nails, things like that. 433 00:24:04,300 --> 00:24:06,740 So I just try not to judge people on what they're 434 00:24:06,740 --> 00:24:08,980 portraying on the outside because you don't know what that 435 00:24:08,980 --> 00:24:11,100 battle that that person's dealing with. 436 00:24:11,380 --> 00:24:15,540 But I don't feel like making someone feel like a number or 437 00:24:15,540 --> 00:24:19,420 like a burden because the number isn't high enough. 438 00:24:19,420 --> 00:24:22,460 Oh, I need $500.00 for that. And then if you're not going to 439 00:24:22,460 --> 00:24:26,340 give that to me, then screw you, You know, I don't like that. 440 00:24:26,340 --> 00:24:29,620 It's like with anything, candles, you know, steak, 441 00:24:29,620 --> 00:24:31,460 whatever. It's all luxury services. 442 00:24:31,460 --> 00:24:36,150 Like if you invest into things that make you feel good, it is a 443 00:24:36,150 --> 00:24:41,110 luxury, whether that is nice sheets and nice clothes or shoes 444 00:24:41,110 --> 00:24:44,230 or whatever. Like cheap shoes and expensive 445 00:24:44,230 --> 00:24:46,870 shoes have a different feel, like one might give you a 446 00:24:46,870 --> 00:24:49,790 blister and the other one won't. Like there's just balance with 447 00:24:49,790 --> 00:24:52,150 everything. And I feel like in the spiritual 448 00:24:52,150 --> 00:24:55,150 arena a lot of people don't realize that it is a luxury 449 00:24:55,150 --> 00:24:57,030 service even though people need it. 450 00:24:57,310 --> 00:25:00,700 So I never want to treat people like, oh, you can't subscribe 451 00:25:00,700 --> 00:25:04,020 this month, don't text me or, oh, you can't do this, don't 452 00:25:04,020 --> 00:25:06,380 text me. You know, I had a client reach 453 00:25:06,380 --> 00:25:09,100 out yesterday and they were like, Can you believe it's been 454 00:25:09,100 --> 00:25:11,380 nine months? I don't save everyone's number. 455 00:25:11,380 --> 00:25:14,340 So I didn't know who it was. But they were like, do you think 456 00:25:14,340 --> 00:25:17,380 you could help my wife with these specific bullet points? 457 00:25:17,380 --> 00:25:19,700 And I said, yeah, you know what? That's one of my more expensive 458 00:25:19,700 --> 00:25:21,180 sessions. It's an hour and a half. 459 00:25:21,580 --> 00:25:25,260 It's, you know, the most in depth session that ioffer within 460 00:25:25,260 --> 00:25:26,820 10 minutes. He booked it for his wife. 461 00:25:27,590 --> 00:25:32,190 That's a $200.00 plus session. You know, like people invest in 462 00:25:32,190 --> 00:25:35,950 what they want to invest in. He's saw what, nine months ago, 463 00:25:35,950 --> 00:25:38,710 that reading done for him and how much he's elevated since 464 00:25:38,710 --> 00:25:40,470 then. He knows that you can't put a 465 00:25:40,470 --> 00:25:42,270 price on that. He didn't even ask. 466 00:25:42,270 --> 00:25:45,270 He didn't even go in to owe, you know, that's out of budget. 467 00:25:45,350 --> 00:25:46,590 He said. I'm going to book hers this 468 00:25:46,590 --> 00:25:48,550 week, and next week I'm going to book me another one. 469 00:25:49,390 --> 00:25:52,000 Yeah, people pay for what they want to pay for when it's 470 00:25:52,000 --> 00:25:56,000 quality, and your quality should speak for itself and your 471 00:25:56,000 --> 00:26:00,760 quality should be the selling point, not book with me because 472 00:26:01,320 --> 00:26:03,040 that's what you need to do, you know? 473 00:26:05,160 --> 00:26:13,180 The moment that people realize that people will pay whatever 474 00:26:13,180 --> 00:26:16,660 your price is, if you're good, is the moment people will stop 475 00:26:16,660 --> 00:26:19,740 trying to sell themselves to every single person they look 476 00:26:19,740 --> 00:26:23,150 at. Oh yeah, and not everybody is 477 00:26:23,150 --> 00:26:25,830 also like we talk about niche markets and things. 478 00:26:26,070 --> 00:26:29,990 Not everybody is your niche market and your personality and 479 00:26:29,990 --> 00:26:34,430 your business like and that people please think people try 480 00:26:34,430 --> 00:26:36,550 to sell themselves just every fucking day. 481 00:26:36,550 --> 00:26:39,470 Outside of business, you try and convince people to like you. 482 00:26:39,470 --> 00:26:42,590 You try and more of your personality to fit inside of 483 00:26:42,590 --> 00:26:45,350 social circles. And a majority of the time, once 484 00:26:45,350 --> 00:26:47,430 you look under the veil, the people that you're trying to 485 00:26:47,430 --> 00:26:51,890 impress are not impressworthy. And The thing is, is, like with 486 00:26:51,890 --> 00:26:57,170 a niche market, especially things like luxury services, you 487 00:26:57,170 --> 00:27:01,490 have to just keep your head down and keep focused until people 488 00:27:01,490 --> 00:27:04,090 start paying attention. And I know that this is 489 00:27:04,090 --> 00:27:07,290 something we've talked about a bunch, But Bunny with her 490 00:27:07,290 --> 00:27:10,610 podcast, Dumb Blonde. It wasn't doing what she thought 491 00:27:10,610 --> 00:27:12,410 it could do in the first two to three years. 492 00:27:12,410 --> 00:27:15,050 And she almost gave up. She almost was like, you know 493 00:27:15,050 --> 00:27:16,730 what, I'm going to throw in the towel on this. 494 00:27:16,970 --> 00:27:18,930 Then the pandemic hit and guess what? 495 00:27:19,170 --> 00:27:22,770 The only thing there was to do was podcast and listen to 496 00:27:22,770 --> 00:27:26,970 content to feel like you were included or being sociable. 497 00:27:27,290 --> 00:27:31,010 I met Bunny during the pandemic, and I remember going to her 498 00:27:31,010 --> 00:27:34,050 studio thinking, like, what's this going to be like? 499 00:27:34,050 --> 00:27:36,010 And I walk in, there's no one's got a mask on. 500 00:27:36,010 --> 00:27:38,370 And she just hugs me like the first time she ever met me, she 501 00:27:38,370 --> 00:27:40,250 just gave me a hug in the middle of the pandemic. 502 00:27:40,570 --> 00:27:43,650 Knowing that I've heard her say, like she's a germaphobe and 503 00:27:43,890 --> 00:27:45,530 things like that. She's like, come on in, 504 00:27:45,530 --> 00:27:48,530 whatever. The thing though about that is 505 00:27:48,530 --> 00:27:52,450 like a lot of people give up on their dreams when they're on the 506 00:27:52,530 --> 00:27:56,970 uphill, you know, stretch. And of course, when you're going 507 00:27:56,970 --> 00:28:00,170 uphill, you're going to feel out of breath, you're going to feel 508 00:28:00,170 --> 00:28:01,810 drained, you're going to feel tired, You're going to feel 509 00:28:01,810 --> 00:28:04,730 like, is this even worth it? But when you're coming downhill 510 00:28:05,010 --> 00:28:08,590 and you're going back down from those hurdles, it's much easier 511 00:28:08,590 --> 00:28:10,790 to get back down the hill than it was to get up it. 512 00:28:11,110 --> 00:28:13,430 And I've just noticed how country I sound when I say. 513 00:28:13,430 --> 00:28:20,390 That like I also think too like from a business aspect if you 514 00:28:20,470 --> 00:28:23,000 are putting in. Because there's a difference 515 00:28:23,000 --> 00:28:26,640 between like you're doing all of the things that need to be done 516 00:28:26,640 --> 00:28:30,040 and you just need to have consistency, and then what 517 00:28:30,040 --> 00:28:34,240 things are you just doing on repeat and burning yourself out 518 00:28:34,240 --> 00:28:35,600 on. But you're not actually doing 519 00:28:35,600 --> 00:28:38,800 anything that's going to move you or have longevity like there 520 00:28:38,800 --> 00:28:42,470 is a time for you to be. Analyzing what you're doing and 521 00:28:42,470 --> 00:28:43,830 be like, Do I need to switch this up? 522 00:28:43,830 --> 00:28:45,110 Do I need to mark it differently? 523 00:28:45,110 --> 00:28:49,070 Do I need to do ABC and D? Or am I doing all of the things 524 00:28:49,070 --> 00:28:52,430 that I need to be doing and it just says that I need to have 525 00:28:52,430 --> 00:28:56,430 consistency because there are a lot of people who will put in? 526 00:28:58,380 --> 00:29:01,460 Who will put in like consistent effort with things for years? 527 00:29:01,700 --> 00:29:04,260 But you're not necessarily putting effort into the things 528 00:29:04,260 --> 00:29:06,820 that need to be putting, that you need to be putting effort 529 00:29:06,820 --> 00:29:09,420 into. And so then you can feel like 530 00:29:09,420 --> 00:29:11,620 you're spinning your wheels and you're not getting anywhere. 531 00:29:11,620 --> 00:29:17,690 So I think that. Talking about again that balance 532 00:29:17,690 --> 00:29:20,850 and that like reflection is really important. 533 00:29:20,850 --> 00:29:25,970 And not just doing things yourself, but having people 534 00:29:25,970 --> 00:29:30,050 around you, Finding people around you that you can trust to 535 00:29:30,330 --> 00:29:33,250 give you business advice, to give you their perspective on 536 00:29:33,250 --> 00:29:36,690 things you know there are I'm fortunate to have. 537 00:29:37,400 --> 00:29:41,280 You and other people in my, in my space and in my circle where 538 00:29:41,280 --> 00:29:42,920 I can be like I'm doing these things. 539 00:29:42,920 --> 00:29:45,280 What do you think? Or I'm thinking about, you know, 540 00:29:45,280 --> 00:29:48,120 switching it up in this way. From an outside perspective, 541 00:29:48,120 --> 00:29:52,720 what's your opinion? The thing about that is a lot of 542 00:29:52,720 --> 00:29:56,800 people will give you very bad advice because they're not on 543 00:29:56,800 --> 00:30:00,200 the path that you're on. And that's what I love about our 544 00:30:00,200 --> 00:30:03,960 connection is when you came to me, you were at like a turning 545 00:30:03,960 --> 00:30:06,990 point in your life and you went and did your own thing for like 546 00:30:06,990 --> 00:30:11,630 a year before coming back to me and kind of like giving me 547 00:30:11,870 --> 00:30:15,510 opportunities to like, come on to your podcast and work with 548 00:30:15,510 --> 00:30:17,710 you on like our own personal time. 549 00:30:17,950 --> 00:30:21,070 But it was never like, I'm going to target Paige. 550 00:30:21,070 --> 00:30:23,390 She's going to become my friend and she's going to help me. 551 00:30:23,390 --> 00:30:25,230 You know, Like, I never felt that from you. 552 00:30:25,230 --> 00:30:28,990 But there are people who have tried to target me in the past 553 00:30:28,990 --> 00:30:31,430 because I am so giving and I am so nice. 554 00:30:31,670 --> 00:30:35,310 Genuinely care about people. They try to use that for their 555 00:30:35,310 --> 00:30:37,630 benefit and then try to lead with this. 556 00:30:37,630 --> 00:30:40,390 Like snaky. I'm going to take Paige's 557 00:30:40,390 --> 00:30:43,470 clients or I'm going to poach clients from her. 558 00:30:43,710 --> 00:30:47,300 And The thing is, no one gives a fuck what you're doing. 559 00:30:47,300 --> 00:30:49,660 You're trying to shove it down people's throats. 560 00:30:50,020 --> 00:30:52,460 And I will say it again and again and again. 561 00:30:52,460 --> 00:30:56,260 When you are genuine and you're doing it for the right reasons, 562 00:30:56,500 --> 00:31:00,420 the universe will align you with people, places and things that 563 00:31:00,420 --> 00:31:04,140 support that. And with Gemini, she came in at 564 00:31:04,140 --> 00:31:08,020 a really perfect time for us to build a connection that I didn't 565 00:31:08,020 --> 00:31:11,180 even realize would turn into a podcast or turn into these 566 00:31:11,180 --> 00:31:14,110 things. But the cool thing about it is 567 00:31:14,110 --> 00:31:18,110 Jim and I had done the homework on the podcast and it all worked 568 00:31:18,110 --> 00:31:20,710 out because she could do that very easily. 569 00:31:20,710 --> 00:31:23,590 And naturally you all, because she had already went up the hill 570 00:31:23,590 --> 00:31:25,590 on her own. She didn't need someone to hold 571 00:31:25,590 --> 00:31:27,830 her hand up there. She had was already up there. 572 00:31:28,110 --> 00:31:32,150 And instead of me trying to pull myself up there and think that I 573 00:31:32,150 --> 00:31:35,310 could do it all on my own, I was, you know, honest and 574 00:31:35,310 --> 00:31:37,350 vulnerable. Like, hey, we should do this. 575 00:31:37,700 --> 00:31:39,780 At the same time. There were three other people in 576 00:31:39,780 --> 00:31:43,100 her ear wanting to start a podcast because they saw it as a 577 00:31:43,100 --> 00:31:46,860 crutch, though they saw it as she's doing all the work, let me 578 00:31:46,860 --> 00:31:50,020 benefit from that. But instead I was doing a lot of 579 00:31:50,020 --> 00:31:52,980 public speaking. I was doing a lot of, you know, 580 00:31:52,980 --> 00:31:57,940 talking and and doing content on my feelings and thoughts. 581 00:31:57,940 --> 00:31:59,820 And people would say, this helps me. 582 00:32:00,140 --> 00:32:03,060 And I never knew that I could ground that into a podcast until 583 00:32:03,060 --> 00:32:06,140 I started doing interviews on other people's podcasts. 584 00:32:06,140 --> 00:32:10,120 Like, I remember not only like Bunnies being the first podcast 585 00:32:10,120 --> 00:32:13,360 I was on, which is so iconic. There was like several other 586 00:32:13,400 --> 00:32:16,760 podcasts that I went on after that that weren't as big, 587 00:32:16,760 --> 00:32:19,920 weren't as exciting, but I still felt just as excited. 588 00:32:20,160 --> 00:32:23,200 Like, even though they may only have 1000 followers, I still 589 00:32:23,200 --> 00:32:27,230 felt just as excited to go on to their platform as I felt going 590 00:32:27,230 --> 00:32:29,870 on to bunnies. And that's my energy, the 591 00:32:29,870 --> 00:32:32,190 genuine energy that speaks for itself. 592 00:32:32,190 --> 00:32:35,150 And that's what we want you all to understand is like when 593 00:32:35,150 --> 00:32:38,190 you're doing things from the heart space and not your ego, 594 00:32:38,470 --> 00:32:42,110 it's going to work itself out. Whether it takes a year or five 595 00:32:42,110 --> 00:32:45,470 years, you're going to get there because the universe responds to 596 00:32:45,470 --> 00:32:48,190 your energy and your authenticity. 597 00:32:49,550 --> 00:32:53,310 Yeah, no, I mean, for our connection, I remember reaching 598 00:32:53,310 --> 00:32:58,780 out to you to be on the podcast. And I had had my list of, like, 599 00:32:58,780 --> 00:33:01,700 you know, when I, when I get the podcast going, you know, I want 600 00:33:01,700 --> 00:33:06,540 to have, you know, ABC and D on the podcast and your name was at 601 00:33:06,540 --> 00:33:09,100 the top of the list. And I remember reaching out and 602 00:33:09,100 --> 00:33:12,060 feeling like you've done Bunny Bunny's podcast and you've done 603 00:33:12,060 --> 00:33:14,340 these other podcasts. And so maybe you would say no. 604 00:33:14,700 --> 00:33:17,180 And then you came on. We had such a good connection 605 00:33:17,180 --> 00:33:18,820 with that. And then we didn't. 606 00:33:18,820 --> 00:33:21,460 It's not like we were best friends from that moment. 607 00:33:21,460 --> 00:33:23,020 Like we didn't talk for a little bit. 608 00:33:23,020 --> 00:33:26,180 We did our own things. And then I remember you texted 609 00:33:26,180 --> 00:33:27,900 me. And I was like, wait, she's 610 00:33:27,900 --> 00:33:29,700 texting me right now? And then all of a sudden we 611 00:33:29,700 --> 00:33:33,180 started texting and I was like, oh, my goodness, like, we're 612 00:33:33,180 --> 00:33:35,420 going to be friends. And then, you know, you asked 613 00:33:35,420 --> 00:33:38,820 about the podcast. And the way that the podcast 614 00:33:38,820 --> 00:33:42,180 unfolded was just so natural, because all of the things that 615 00:33:42,180 --> 00:33:45,730 you're. Really good at are the things 616 00:33:45,730 --> 00:33:49,730 that I have to put a lot of time and attention into doing at the 617 00:33:49,730 --> 00:33:52,770 time. And you know then the technical 618 00:33:52,770 --> 00:33:56,010 side of things is what like is easier for me and the things 619 00:33:56,010 --> 00:34:00,090 that you didn't know how to do yet And it yeah, it was just a 620 00:34:00,090 --> 00:34:03,970 perfect balance and it is really difficult. 621 00:34:03,970 --> 00:34:08,050 I feel like I'm trying to get better about this and you and I 622 00:34:08,050 --> 00:34:10,050 talk about this behind the scenes, but. 623 00:34:10,610 --> 00:34:14,810 And it's really difficult when we're people who see other 624 00:34:14,810 --> 00:34:18,929 people's potential in things and feel like, you know, I I guess 625 00:34:18,929 --> 00:34:23,330 for me, I'll speak for myself. I've had these moments of like, 626 00:34:23,650 --> 00:34:27,570 I just wish that I had been given a chance or that somebody 627 00:34:27,570 --> 00:34:30,889 had shown me how to do something or kind of like taken me under 628 00:34:30,889 --> 00:34:33,690 their wing to show me things. Because it would have been such 629 00:34:33,690 --> 00:34:37,010 an easier learning process for me and I would have done so much 630 00:34:37,050 --> 00:34:39,610 more with that information and so. 631 00:34:40,250 --> 00:34:45,770 In the past when I and I guess in the IT hasn't been very far 632 00:34:45,770 --> 00:34:50,730 in the past I have seen potential in other people and 633 00:34:50,730 --> 00:34:53,290 I've listened to the words that they're speaking and the lip 634 00:34:53,290 --> 00:34:56,090 service that they give sounds so good and I'm like yeah you just 635 00:34:56,090 --> 00:34:59,370 need somebody to support you and help you and give you guidance 636 00:34:59,370 --> 00:35:01,170 and things. Sure, I'll do a project with 637 00:35:01,170 --> 00:35:04,170 you, or sure, I'll help you with this, these things and it always 638 00:35:04,170 --> 00:35:08,370 turns around to bite me in the ass and So what I'm learning is 639 00:35:08,810 --> 00:35:11,950 to. Watch what other people are 640 00:35:11,950 --> 00:35:14,830 already the energy that they're already putting into things 641 00:35:15,110 --> 00:35:18,110 instead of being like, oh, you're at a Ground Zero and you 642 00:35:18,110 --> 00:35:20,270 want me to build you up in all of these ways. 643 00:35:20,350 --> 00:35:23,190 I don't need to be a savior. You're not a victim. 644 00:35:23,190 --> 00:35:25,990 I don't need to step in and help you with all of these things. 645 00:35:26,230 --> 00:35:28,670 You naturally need to learn how to do these things. 646 00:35:28,670 --> 00:35:30,950 You can fucking Google, you can do all of this. 647 00:35:30,990 --> 00:35:35,540 And if you're at a space, where? Now it would make sense to do 648 00:35:35,540 --> 00:35:39,660 something that makes sense, but I'm also like, no new friends 649 00:35:39,660 --> 00:35:41,500 around here. Like, I'm not looking for new 650 00:35:41,540 --> 00:35:47,060 partnerships with shit. And you know what's funny is 651 00:35:47,060 --> 00:35:51,740 that this outside persona that people have of us is. 652 00:35:52,240 --> 00:35:55,120 Is so different than like how we actually are. 653 00:35:55,120 --> 00:35:59,040 Like, you know, we get, you know, told about like things are 654 00:35:59,040 --> 00:36:01,040 just like monetarily based or whatever. 655 00:36:01,040 --> 00:36:04,000 But behind the scenes we literally have projects that are 656 00:36:04,000 --> 00:36:07,560 going to be, you know, being announced where we're making 657 00:36:07,560 --> 00:36:10,320 zero finance or anything from it. 658 00:36:10,320 --> 00:36:12,800 And we're just shouting out our friends or we're just supporting 659 00:36:12,800 --> 00:36:15,840 our friends businesses or, you know, collaborating in these 660 00:36:15,840 --> 00:36:19,240 ways that just boost them because you know. 661 00:36:19,830 --> 00:36:23,350 We love them and we're not even getting anything monetarily out 662 00:36:23,350 --> 00:36:25,670 of it. You know, just like with our 663 00:36:25,670 --> 00:36:29,910 classes, I know that we like give people spots for those. 664 00:36:29,910 --> 00:36:33,910 Like I've given away in the two rounds of my Tarot and Oracle 665 00:36:33,910 --> 00:36:36,350 spiritual class. Like I've given away like 8 666 00:36:36,350 --> 00:36:39,470 spots to random people that support me. 667 00:36:39,470 --> 00:36:42,790 There's one girl won't name drop, but she comments on 668 00:36:42,790 --> 00:36:44,910 literally anything and everything I post. 669 00:36:44,910 --> 00:36:46,510 I don't care if it pertains to her. 670 00:36:46,830 --> 00:36:48,590 I don't care if it's a twin flame reading. 671 00:36:48,870 --> 00:36:52,060 I don't care. Whatever I say, this woman post 672 00:36:52,060 --> 00:36:54,100 on it and I just randomly messaged her. 673 00:36:54,100 --> 00:36:55,940 She's never booked a service with me. 674 00:36:56,220 --> 00:36:58,180 I do not know her on a personal level. 675 00:36:58,180 --> 00:37:01,540 And I just wrote her and said I would really like to have you in 676 00:37:01,540 --> 00:37:04,500 the class. And at first you could tell that 677 00:37:04,500 --> 00:37:06,900 it was difficult for her to receive because she was like, 678 00:37:07,260 --> 00:37:09,220 what do you mean? And you know all these things 679 00:37:09,220 --> 00:37:11,260 when I was like, look, you don't have to be live. 680 00:37:11,580 --> 00:37:13,900 It'll be on a Google Drive. You can watch it when you want. 681 00:37:13,900 --> 00:37:16,660 You can wait till it's over and then start watching it like 682 00:37:16,660 --> 00:37:20,130 whatever you want. And she has wrote me so many 683 00:37:20,130 --> 00:37:23,450 times to thank me. Like it's been like every week 684 00:37:23,450 --> 00:37:26,290 she's like, thank you so much. She replies to everything on the 685 00:37:26,290 --> 00:37:30,050 podcast page. Like she takes time out of her 686 00:37:30,050 --> 00:37:33,410 day to support other people. I see her, she comments on Bunny 687 00:37:33,410 --> 00:37:34,770 stuff. I mean, she just comments on a 688 00:37:34,770 --> 00:37:38,690 lot of stuff. But the fact that she had really 689 00:37:38,690 --> 00:37:42,570 been supporting me without ever really interacting with me 690 00:37:42,570 --> 00:37:46,490 one-on-one was really beautiful. And then, you know, there's 691 00:37:46,490 --> 00:37:49,210 people that live in my city that like, I've never really been 692 00:37:49,210 --> 00:37:52,090 around, but they also share everything I post. 693 00:37:52,090 --> 00:37:53,730 I see them commenting on your stuff. 694 00:37:54,050 --> 00:37:57,210 You know, it's really nice to see that these people have had 695 00:37:57,210 --> 00:38:01,130 like a flash reading or just a small e-mail reading and they 696 00:38:01,130 --> 00:38:03,690 believe in me so much that they're willing to share 697 00:38:03,690 --> 00:38:06,410 everything I do to their personal page. 698 00:38:06,690 --> 00:38:11,390 I don't even have family that do that, you know, So I have given 699 00:38:11,390 --> 00:38:15,030 away so many contrary cherry scholarships for this class 700 00:38:15,030 --> 00:38:19,830 that's like $1000 or more than I'm giving away every semester. 701 00:38:20,070 --> 00:38:24,670 And I have no like remorse about that because if that helps 702 00:38:24,670 --> 00:38:27,590 someone, I mean, there's been plenty of people that like I've 703 00:38:27,590 --> 00:38:30,470 given a scholarship to and they've changed their whole 704 00:38:30,470 --> 00:38:32,630 schedule around so that they can be live. 705 00:38:33,270 --> 00:38:37,300 And for those that don't know if you're in one round, I let you 706 00:38:37,300 --> 00:38:39,580 join the second round for $22.00. 707 00:38:39,940 --> 00:38:42,740 So now the second round is going and some of the people that 708 00:38:42,740 --> 00:38:45,300 signed back up, you know, they're not watching it live 709 00:38:45,300 --> 00:38:46,940 because they watched it live last time. 710 00:38:47,380 --> 00:38:50,100 And I think it's really cool because as I'm evolving, the 711 00:38:50,100 --> 00:38:53,340 information is going to evolve and what you're getting is 712 00:38:53,340 --> 00:38:56,150 evolving. And it's just really nice to see 713 00:38:56,150 --> 00:39:00,430 people who really, genuinely have that support and really 714 00:39:00,430 --> 00:39:04,350 want to support someone. But you can tell when people are 715 00:39:04,350 --> 00:39:08,390 doing it in a snaky way. Like, I really think that was 716 00:39:08,390 --> 00:39:11,790 our lesson this year was like, how to identify, you know, the 717 00:39:11,790 --> 00:39:15,670 snake in sheep's clothing. Like, okay, you are extra. 718 00:39:15,750 --> 00:39:18,950 You are acting like we've hung the sun, moon, and stars. 719 00:39:18,950 --> 00:39:21,350 And I don't want people idolizing me. 720 00:39:21,550 --> 00:39:23,950 Like, I don't want people putting me on some pedestal 721 00:39:23,950 --> 00:39:27,630 because later your ego is pissed that you've put me on this 722 00:39:27,630 --> 00:39:30,830 pedestal and you still feel beneath me and I don't want 723 00:39:30,830 --> 00:39:34,390 anyone to feel beneath me. I give everyone the information 724 00:39:34,390 --> 00:39:36,750 that I've used, whether it's like, oh I went to night light 725 00:39:36,750 --> 00:39:40,550 astrology school, go take the class or oh, I I studied under 726 00:39:40,550 --> 00:39:42,910 this person. But it's funny to me when people 727 00:39:42,910 --> 00:39:46,750 who say they don't like me go and take classes with my mentor 728 00:39:46,990 --> 00:39:51,350 or go and try to train under me in classes and programs that 729 00:39:51,350 --> 00:39:53,960 I've done. You're not competing with anyone 730 00:39:53,960 --> 00:39:56,560 but your old self. So quit acting like you're 731 00:39:56,560 --> 00:40:00,240 racing me on some imaginary race that I'm not fucking racing you. 732 00:40:00,240 --> 00:40:01,680 Like I'm the judge at this point. 733 00:40:01,680 --> 00:40:03,160 Like I'm not even in the race anymore. 734 00:40:03,160 --> 00:40:07,120 Like I've gotten to where I want to be and I'm comfortable in my 735 00:40:07,120 --> 00:40:09,920 own power. I'm comfortable sharing my gifts 736 00:40:09,920 --> 00:40:12,400 with others. But it's just amazing how every 737 00:40:12,400 --> 00:40:16,280 time I level up, someone comes out of the woodwork acting like. 738 00:40:16,830 --> 00:40:20,230 I'm something that I'm not. And I think that, you know, I've 739 00:40:20,230 --> 00:40:23,070 learned a lot from you in this perspective because people do 740 00:40:23,070 --> 00:40:25,710 that to you a lot. Like they villainize you and 741 00:40:25,990 --> 00:40:29,470 then they try to like project that like Gemini's making Paige 742 00:40:29,510 --> 00:40:33,390 mean or Gemini is doing this and all this. 743 00:40:33,390 --> 00:40:36,070 But it's like, no. Gemini just brings awareness to 744 00:40:36,070 --> 00:40:39,750 things that maybe I was overlooking before and I'm no 745 00:40:39,750 --> 00:40:43,350 longer tolerating it. Yeah. 746 00:40:45,200 --> 00:40:47,400 And you're starting to do that with me, too. 747 00:40:47,400 --> 00:40:49,960 Like, I think that we're we're really hitting that, like 748 00:40:49,960 --> 00:40:53,280 comfortable sweet spot in our friendship where, you know, 749 00:40:53,520 --> 00:40:56,720 before you would be like, yeah, I, you know, something would 750 00:40:56,720 --> 00:40:59,200 unfold and you'd be like, yeah, I actually like, I didn't like 751 00:40:59,200 --> 00:41:01,280 their energy with you. I didn't like that idea. 752 00:41:01,280 --> 00:41:03,840 But I didn't want to get in the middle of what you were doing. 753 00:41:03,840 --> 00:41:05,360 I didn't feel like it was my business. 754 00:41:05,360 --> 00:41:08,680 And now we're at the point where it's really like, OK, well, I 755 00:41:08,680 --> 00:41:10,560 don't really know if you should be doing that, 'cause this gives 756 00:41:10,560 --> 00:41:12,520 me some weird vibes or whatever. And. 757 00:41:13,250 --> 00:41:16,850 It does take a little bit of time to like for a lot of people 758 00:41:16,850 --> 00:41:19,930 to be able to form that kind of like trust with each other. 759 00:41:19,930 --> 00:41:22,290 Where I know that I'm going to be able to be honest with you 760 00:41:22,290 --> 00:41:25,770 and tell you that this is weird and you not get upset about it. 761 00:41:25,770 --> 00:41:31,530 And I know that when we look back on situations and things, I 762 00:41:31,530 --> 00:41:34,490 can see people that were around you that I didn't like. 763 00:41:34,910 --> 00:41:37,430 And that I, and not that I didn't like them, but I was just 764 00:41:37,430 --> 00:41:39,910 like, that's super weird. Like, I don't know, there's 765 00:41:39,910 --> 00:41:43,670 something wrong with their face and their energy and, you know, 766 00:41:43,670 --> 00:41:45,710 but I'm not going to say anything because this seems to 767 00:41:45,710 --> 00:41:49,150 be her really good friend. Well, in the long run of things, 768 00:41:49,350 --> 00:41:53,350 they were fucking with you behind the scenes and everything 769 00:41:53,350 --> 00:41:55,790 that intuitively was there was making sense. 770 00:41:56,070 --> 00:41:59,910 And just because you didn't feel it and see it in the moment and 771 00:41:59,910 --> 00:42:02,930 you? Believed the projections that 772 00:42:02,930 --> 00:42:07,290 they had. I'm understanding now that even 773 00:42:07,290 --> 00:42:11,290 though we know our intuition, we know to trust our intuition. 774 00:42:11,570 --> 00:42:14,570 We can sometimes convince ourselves that we're wrong about 775 00:42:14,570 --> 00:42:15,890 it. And that maybe like we're being 776 00:42:15,890 --> 00:42:19,330 in our ego about something or you know ABC and D and at the 777 00:42:19,330 --> 00:42:23,330 end of the day we are actually accurate in our assessment of 778 00:42:23,330 --> 00:42:27,250 people and something that I've really been. 779 00:42:27,690 --> 00:42:34,320 I feel like I'm I'm. Mastering more is not having an 780 00:42:34,320 --> 00:42:39,520 expectation of how people are going to treat or perceive me 781 00:42:39,520 --> 00:42:43,640 because I've done nice things for them, and not feeling jaded 782 00:42:43,640 --> 00:42:45,800 because they didn't appreciate something that I did. 783 00:42:45,800 --> 00:42:47,480 It doesn't make it any less valuable. 784 00:42:47,480 --> 00:42:51,850 So like I've had, you know? Some of the people who you're 785 00:42:51,850 --> 00:42:55,050 saying has been like, you know that I mean, or I'm changing you 786 00:42:55,050 --> 00:42:58,170 or I'm doing ABC and D or whatever, are people that I've 787 00:42:58,170 --> 00:43:00,610 given free things to, I've given free mentorship to. 788 00:43:00,610 --> 00:43:02,730 I've given them free spots in my classes. 789 00:43:03,050 --> 00:43:08,130 And it, you know, before would really hurt my feelings because 790 00:43:08,130 --> 00:43:10,730 I'd be like, wow, I did all of these nice things for this 791 00:43:10,730 --> 00:43:13,050 person and this is how they're going to fucking treat me. 792 00:43:13,330 --> 00:43:16,770 And I would feel jaded about it. And now I'm like, that's a 793 00:43:16,770 --> 00:43:18,410 reflection on who those people are. 794 00:43:18,410 --> 00:43:20,810 It doesn't have anything to do. There's nothing I could have 795 00:43:20,810 --> 00:43:23,370 done differently. It's not a personal attack. 796 00:43:23,570 --> 00:43:26,690 It's that that's where they are on their fucking journey and 797 00:43:26,690 --> 00:43:28,610 they're going to shit on everybody because they shit on 798 00:43:28,610 --> 00:43:33,010 themselves, you know, That goes back to, I've said this before, 799 00:43:33,010 --> 00:43:38,290 like, we open our communities up and like bonded them together 800 00:43:38,570 --> 00:43:42,810 and then we're like, OK, Mommy's going to work now, play nice and 801 00:43:42,810 --> 00:43:45,370 shut the door. And these people, like, we're 802 00:43:45,370 --> 00:43:48,950 giving you free reign to connect with others, to connect with 803 00:43:48,950 --> 00:43:50,670 people. And I've had one of my guy 804 00:43:50,670 --> 00:43:54,150 friends, he said when I first joined your Discord and your 805 00:43:54,150 --> 00:43:57,950 Patreon, I thought to myself, wow, there's so many women in 806 00:43:57,950 --> 00:44:00,310 here supporting each other and getting along. 807 00:44:00,550 --> 00:44:02,870 And he said in the back of my head, I didn't want to like 808 00:44:02,870 --> 00:44:05,910 speak that into existence. But I thought to myself, how 809 00:44:05,910 --> 00:44:08,990 long is that going to last? Like, how long are these people 810 00:44:08,990 --> 00:44:12,710 going to all be playing nice and interacting and supporting one 811 00:44:12,710 --> 00:44:16,310 another? And I think that The thing is, 812 00:44:16,630 --> 00:44:20,190 is we inspire people able to want to start businesses and 813 00:44:20,190 --> 00:44:23,550 want to start spiritual businesses because they see it 814 00:44:23,550 --> 00:44:26,590 working for us. And I think a lot of those 815 00:44:26,590 --> 00:44:28,670 people don't have the right intentions. 816 00:44:28,870 --> 00:44:31,230 They go to our website and they're like, oh, Gemini charges 817 00:44:31,230 --> 00:44:34,630 $125.00 for spell work. I could do that. 818 00:44:35,030 --> 00:44:38,350 And they see it now as like, OK, this person's been uplifting me 819 00:44:38,350 --> 00:44:41,830 and supporting me, but now their competition with me. 820 00:44:42,030 --> 00:44:45,790 Now I want to compete with them because I don't want to go to 821 00:44:45,790 --> 00:44:50,470 work for $18.00 an hour. I want to make 125 in an hour. 822 00:44:50,670 --> 00:44:54,350 I want to do what she's doing. And they don't realize the back 823 00:44:54,350 --> 00:44:56,990 end of like what it took to get to that point. 824 00:44:56,990 --> 00:45:00,030 Like all of the blood, sweat and tears that goes into something 825 00:45:00,270 --> 00:45:03,990 before you present it to the universe or to other people. 826 00:45:04,670 --> 00:45:08,870 And I just can't take it personal where people want to 827 00:45:08,870 --> 00:45:12,580 try to tear me down for something that, like you can't 828 00:45:12,660 --> 00:45:16,420 buy, you can't buy someone else's energy, you can't buy 829 00:45:16,420 --> 00:45:20,100 someone's else's integrity. You can only stand firm in your 830 00:45:20,100 --> 00:45:23,180 own belief system. And I think, unfortunately for 831 00:45:23,180 --> 00:45:26,380 most people, they don't have much integrity. 832 00:45:26,540 --> 00:45:30,020 They don't have good intentions. So when they see someone else 833 00:45:30,020 --> 00:45:33,100 who's elevating or doing the right thing, they think in their 834 00:45:33,100 --> 00:45:35,900 head, well, they must be doing something wrong. 835 00:45:35,940 --> 00:45:37,820 They have to be. I'm going to uncover it. 836 00:45:37,820 --> 00:45:40,820 I'm going to expose them. I'm going to let their following 837 00:45:40,820 --> 00:45:43,900 know that they're not person They say they are and so they 838 00:45:43,900 --> 00:45:47,180 try to get close to us on the back end and want to. 839 00:45:47,220 --> 00:45:51,540 You know, I've noticed that if I am in a friendship or a mutual 840 00:45:51,540 --> 00:45:55,460 connection with somebody, and 92% of our conversations are 841 00:45:55,460 --> 00:46:00,060 about me because they're probing me or asking me questions, it 842 00:46:00,060 --> 00:46:03,580 starts making sense that you're trying to collect data on me to 843 00:46:03,580 --> 00:46:07,420 try to, like, use it against me. And I've had a lot of people 844 00:46:07,620 --> 00:46:11,060 think, because I've told them personal stuff, that they can 845 00:46:11,060 --> 00:46:14,020 block that, like, you cannot block what's meant for me, 846 00:46:14,020 --> 00:46:17,660 whether it's in business or love or relationships or any of that. 847 00:46:17,820 --> 00:46:21,420 If I shared that information with you, that is the testament 848 00:46:21,420 --> 00:46:25,540 of my vulnerability and my openness with the universe to 849 00:46:25,540 --> 00:46:28,700 speak those things outward. No, I'm not going to tell you my 850 00:46:28,700 --> 00:46:30,140 business plan. I'm not going to tell you my 851 00:46:30,140 --> 00:46:33,660 finances, but some personal things, people think because 852 00:46:33,660 --> 00:46:36,300 they know about that, that they're going to use that 853 00:46:36,300 --> 00:46:38,660 against me later. But I've said it once and I'll 854 00:46:38,660 --> 00:46:40,780 say it again. Just because people don't like 855 00:46:40,780 --> 00:46:43,580 the Kardashians doesn't stop them from being billionaires. 856 00:46:43,820 --> 00:46:45,780 You can't stop what's meant for someone. 857 00:46:45,980 --> 00:46:48,820 Yes, they can step on people along the way, they can do 858 00:46:48,820 --> 00:46:50,540 things wrong, they can sell their soul. 859 00:46:50,740 --> 00:46:54,400 But you can't stop that. So if I want to step out into 860 00:46:54,400 --> 00:46:57,680 the spotlight and share whatever I'm here to share, you're not 861 00:46:57,680 --> 00:46:59,680 going to block that. I don't care what you think 862 00:46:59,680 --> 00:47:02,400 you're going to do with it, what information you think you have 863 00:47:02,400 --> 00:47:04,880 against me. And I know that a lot of people 864 00:47:04,880 --> 00:47:08,040 have tried to come between me and Gemini because I think that 865 00:47:08,040 --> 00:47:12,880 they fear the potential that we have together if we stay in this 866 00:47:12,880 --> 00:47:17,200 mutual 5050 energy. But the moment that our 867 00:47:17,200 --> 00:47:21,240 connection was, you know, 7822, somebody's going to look at the 868 00:47:21,240 --> 00:47:24,060 other person, like, you're draining me, you're not doing 869 00:47:24,060 --> 00:47:26,500 enough or, you know, whatever. But it's never been like that 870 00:47:26,500 --> 00:47:30,460 because we both show up equally for each other. 871 00:47:30,700 --> 00:47:33,580 And I just think it's so funny that it's the people that you've 872 00:47:33,580 --> 00:47:36,860 given the most to are the ones that act like you've never done 873 00:47:36,860 --> 00:47:39,460 anything for them. And instead of taking that 874 00:47:39,460 --> 00:47:42,220 personal, I'm just letting people run with whatever 875 00:47:42,220 --> 00:47:45,620 narrative and whatever delusion that they've created because I 876 00:47:45,620 --> 00:47:48,810 don't give a fuck. I really don't like if you're 877 00:47:49,090 --> 00:47:51,010 mad at me or you have issues with me. 878 00:47:51,010 --> 00:47:54,170 I promise you it is one sided 'cause I do not care. 879 00:47:55,570 --> 00:47:59,370 At the end of the day, nobody that's ever had anything to say, 880 00:47:59,370 --> 00:48:03,730 you know, that's been like, you know, we took from them or were 881 00:48:03,730 --> 00:48:06,330 these horrible, awful people, or we say these crazy shit or 882 00:48:06,330 --> 00:48:08,130 anything? Who's ever had any evidence to 883 00:48:08,130 --> 00:48:11,690 back anything up? And that that's always stuck 884 00:48:11,690 --> 00:48:13,530 with me. Like, you know, I know that 885 00:48:13,530 --> 00:48:17,170 there was somebody months ago who was like I paid, you know, 886 00:48:17,170 --> 00:48:19,850 all this, you know, money into mentorship. 887 00:48:20,170 --> 00:48:23,410 And you know, I didn't get my readings and ABC and D well, 888 00:48:23,410 --> 00:48:26,370 baby, when I go on Patreon, you were only on mentorship one 889 00:48:26,370 --> 00:48:27,970 time. And what I see is that you got a 890 00:48:27,970 --> 00:48:30,570 free round of class. You got two months in a chat for 891 00:48:30,570 --> 00:48:33,970 free. You got two free readings sent 892 00:48:33,970 --> 00:48:36,650 to you, and you did a one-on-one video reading with me. 893 00:48:37,270 --> 00:48:41,270 And so you got 3 readings and two months of a chat and 894 00:48:41,270 --> 00:48:43,790 community support and you know a class for free. 895 00:48:43,990 --> 00:48:47,230 What do you mean? And or you know that you know 896 00:48:47,230 --> 00:48:50,550 what, whatever it may be, I've never seen, I've never had 897 00:48:50,550 --> 00:48:52,990 somebody be able to come back and be like these are 898 00:48:52,990 --> 00:48:55,630 screenshots of this conversation that made me feel like you 899 00:48:55,630 --> 00:48:58,030 weren't supportive or you just wanted me for money. 900 00:48:58,030 --> 00:49:01,430 So at the end of the day, people are going to say and project 901 00:49:01,430 --> 00:49:05,790 anything that they want to, and people who are in an unhealed 902 00:49:05,790 --> 00:49:09,590 space and who need to. Have drama are going to latch 903 00:49:09,590 --> 00:49:13,150 onto each other and people who are unhealed and they do not 904 00:49:13,150 --> 00:49:17,550 want actual healing to happen inside of their life and they 905 00:49:17,550 --> 00:49:21,230 don't want to feel like. I think that a big thing is that 906 00:49:21,590 --> 00:49:24,870 people feel that we are judging them because of where they are 907 00:49:24,870 --> 00:49:27,710 on their journey and that's a very personal thing for them. 908 00:49:27,990 --> 00:49:30,710 And so instead of working through those emotions and 909 00:49:30,710 --> 00:49:35,190 figuring out why they feel that way and why support and love 910 00:49:35,190 --> 00:49:38,280 and. And understanding is 911 00:49:38,280 --> 00:49:41,400 intimidating and uncomfortable. Instead of working through that 912 00:49:41,400 --> 00:49:44,320 feeling, they're like, wow, It would be so much easier if I 913 00:49:44,320 --> 00:49:47,800 bonded with these other people who are in the same plane as me 914 00:49:48,000 --> 00:49:50,480 and we can just mentor each other through things. 915 00:49:50,680 --> 00:49:54,120 So you making friendships because that's your comfort 916 00:49:54,120 --> 00:49:59,080 level in that moment doesn't mean that it's a you know? 917 00:49:59,710 --> 00:50:02,070 A healing friendship and something that's going to have 918 00:50:02,070 --> 00:50:04,710 longevity. You're probably trauma bonded 919 00:50:04,710 --> 00:50:07,870 and you're so happy that you found people who are at your 920 00:50:07,870 --> 00:50:12,270 comfort level in your space. And I don't care who takes this 921 00:50:12,270 --> 00:50:16,510 information if you have bonded with people that have been 922 00:50:16,510 --> 00:50:20,190 inside of our communities. And then you together have tried 923 00:50:20,190 --> 00:50:24,150 to alienate our communities and cause bullshit, and now you're 924 00:50:24,150 --> 00:50:26,830 bonded. You're fucking clowns, and it's 925 00:50:26,830 --> 00:50:31,670 hilarious to both of us that you would find. 926 00:50:31,970 --> 00:50:35,930 People at their lowest space inside of a community of healing 927 00:50:36,170 --> 00:50:40,210 become friends and then be like and fuck everybody else. 928 00:50:40,210 --> 00:50:44,450 It's it's hilarious to us to see you post pictures together and 929 00:50:44,450 --> 00:50:48,170 do things together because we are not like, Oh my God, we are 930 00:50:48,170 --> 00:50:50,850 so jealous that they have found these friendships and I wish 931 00:50:50,850 --> 00:50:52,330 they would have stayed in our community. 932 00:50:52,690 --> 00:50:56,370 We're like, well, bon voyage. I guess the parasites are going 933 00:50:56,370 --> 00:50:59,990 on vacation. And another thing to add to that 934 00:51:00,230 --> 00:51:03,390 is there's never been someone who's consistently done the work 935 00:51:03,390 --> 00:51:06,990 for six months or more in our communities that hasn't fucking 936 00:51:06,990 --> 00:51:10,670 elevated, that hasn't left that toxic relationship or toxic work 937 00:51:10,670 --> 00:51:14,160 environment, that hasn't went and started a business that 938 00:51:14,160 --> 00:51:17,800 hasn't went in above and beyond to the next level. 939 00:51:18,000 --> 00:51:21,240 There's never been someone who's consistently done the work for 940 00:51:21,240 --> 00:51:24,400 six months in our communities that's ever acted like that. 941 00:51:24,480 --> 00:51:27,640 It's the people who've been hanging around like leeches for 942 00:51:27,640 --> 00:51:29,960 12 to 18 months without doing the work. 943 00:51:30,240 --> 00:51:33,400 Soon as they get off the call, they go hit the pipe and go 944 00:51:33,400 --> 00:51:35,960 smoke meth with their friend and whatever they're doing. 945 00:51:35,960 --> 00:51:38,600 And then they get on these bingers, these tweaker 946 00:51:39,070 --> 00:51:42,510 excursions, and they bond together with other people who 947 00:51:42,510 --> 00:51:44,670 have pill problems or drug problems. 948 00:51:44,670 --> 00:51:48,550 And I'll be honest, we've all spoke about it, But I used to do 949 00:51:48,550 --> 00:51:49,710 drugs. I used to party. 950 00:51:49,950 --> 00:51:51,830 Five years ago. Me was a totally different 951 00:51:51,830 --> 00:51:55,110 version than who I am now. But I would never look around at 952 00:51:55,110 --> 00:51:57,630 the people that I used to do drugs with and judge them. 953 00:51:58,080 --> 00:52:00,360 I would never look around at the people that I used to hang out 954 00:52:00,360 --> 00:52:03,680 with and judge them because at that point that made sense to 955 00:52:03,680 --> 00:52:05,840 me. At that point, that was where I 956 00:52:05,840 --> 00:52:08,240 was at. But as I've elevated, some of 957 00:52:08,240 --> 00:52:11,080 those same people have came to me, like, how did you do it? 958 00:52:11,080 --> 00:52:14,200 How could you help me? And of course, if you want to do 959 00:52:14,200 --> 00:52:17,440 the work to help yourself, you can definitely elevate from 960 00:52:17,440 --> 00:52:19,860 that. But it's like you said, bonding 961 00:52:19,860 --> 00:52:22,300 together with the lowest vibrational people within a 962 00:52:22,300 --> 00:52:26,140 community space and isolating them and alienating them and 963 00:52:26,140 --> 00:52:30,860 putting false hope into their life and telling them just these 964 00:52:30,860 --> 00:52:33,340 made-up delusional stories that you've created. 965 00:52:33,620 --> 00:52:36,380 Only you believe those. And so then you think, oh, I've 966 00:52:36,380 --> 00:52:39,060 convinced these other people, now I'm their leader. 967 00:52:39,340 --> 00:52:42,140 And a lot of this is like, I don't want to be your leader. 968 00:52:42,380 --> 00:52:45,140 I want you to feel supported and seen. 969 00:52:45,380 --> 00:52:47,980 But you have to lead your journey in the direction of 970 00:52:47,980 --> 00:52:51,420 choice. I cannot be your guide and your 971 00:52:51,420 --> 00:52:53,980 hand holder forever. Like, if you're going to do it, 972 00:52:53,980 --> 00:52:56,580 you got to do it. And I think it's just so funny. 973 00:52:56,860 --> 00:53:01,340 The people who pay or do the bare minimum within the space 974 00:53:01,340 --> 00:53:05,260 are always the ones with issues. Because just for example, I have 975 00:53:05,260 --> 00:53:07,940 a girl who's been on my Patreon for nine months. 976 00:53:08,100 --> 00:53:11,580 She's been on the very top level, the very, very top level 977 00:53:11,700 --> 00:53:15,360 on mentorship for nine months. She's never been in a community 978 00:53:15,360 --> 00:53:17,440 circle. She barely does any of the 979 00:53:17,440 --> 00:53:20,320 extracurriculars that ioffer. She's never hopped in the 980 00:53:20,320 --> 00:53:22,040 discord. And guess what? 981 00:53:22,280 --> 00:53:25,480 She is the most happy and satisfied person that I have. 982 00:53:25,720 --> 00:53:27,280 She's like, I would never leave you. 983 00:53:27,560 --> 00:53:30,920 She's like, I would budget other things out before I canceled 984 00:53:30,920 --> 00:53:33,120 mentorship. She's never went down a level. 985 00:53:33,280 --> 00:53:36,360 She's never ever had any issues. She's lost jobs. 986 00:53:36,520 --> 00:53:38,840 She's changed jobs. She's changed relationships. 987 00:53:38,840 --> 00:53:41,320 She's moved. She's had to give up one of her 988 00:53:41,320 --> 00:53:43,800 animals during this. She's Some of her animals have 989 00:53:43,880 --> 00:53:47,320 passed away during this, and never once has she projected any 990 00:53:47,320 --> 00:53:50,920 of that onto me or made me feel like I needed to do more for 991 00:53:50,920 --> 00:53:53,280 her. She's always very flexible. 992 00:53:53,560 --> 00:53:56,080 You know, if something comes up and I need to change or she 993 00:53:56,080 --> 00:53:57,920 needs to change, there's never any issue. 994 00:53:58,080 --> 00:54:00,040 We text and talk every single day. 995 00:54:00,400 --> 00:54:03,520 There's never an issue. And it's funny that someone can 996 00:54:03,520 --> 00:54:07,080 pay $222 a month for nine months. 997 00:54:07,080 --> 00:54:09,640 You all do the math and never have an issue. 998 00:54:09,640 --> 00:54:13,360 But then there's people who paid $7.00 or $11.00 that have all 999 00:54:13,360 --> 00:54:15,960 these issues. It's like you are the problem, 1000 00:54:15,960 --> 00:54:17,720 baby girl. You are the problem. 1001 00:54:17,720 --> 00:54:20,320 Not me, not Gemini, not the community. 1002 00:54:20,560 --> 00:54:23,200 It's the fact that in real life you don't have any fucking 1003 00:54:23,200 --> 00:54:26,200 friends, period. The only friends you have are 1004 00:54:26,200 --> 00:54:27,960 people you've met through me or Gemini. 1005 00:54:28,760 --> 00:54:31,680 That says a lot about you as an adult and as a person. 1006 00:54:32,000 --> 00:54:34,400 And I'll just say this. One of my new red flags and 1007 00:54:34,400 --> 00:54:37,840 relationships is when guys don't have a healthy friend group. 1008 00:54:38,620 --> 00:54:41,980 Like I've dated guys and they have one friend, like a best 1009 00:54:41,980 --> 00:54:45,820 friend or a cousin or a brother, someone that they link with. 1010 00:54:45,860 --> 00:54:49,300 But if you don't have a healthy friend group of three or more 1011 00:54:49,300 --> 00:54:52,900 people, I see you as a problem. I see you as a red flag because 1012 00:54:52,900 --> 00:54:55,740 you're the common denominator in this equation. 1013 00:54:56,020 --> 00:54:58,740 And I've noticed when I look back at my relationships that 1014 00:54:58,740 --> 00:55:02,980 were trauma bonds, 90% of them had no real friends. 1015 00:55:03,100 --> 00:55:07,040 They had no real friend group. And now that I've elevated and I 1016 00:55:07,040 --> 00:55:10,800 have healthy friend dynamics, there are these little leeches 1017 00:55:10,800 --> 00:55:13,720 and snakes that try to come in and siphon energy from those 1018 00:55:13,720 --> 00:55:15,560 communities or from those spaces. 1019 00:55:15,800 --> 00:55:19,480 But at the end of the day, you're only easily influenced if 1020 00:55:19,480 --> 00:55:22,480 you're not in alignment. If you're in alignment, you can 1021 00:55:22,480 --> 00:55:26,050 spot the issue. You may not speak on it, you may 1022 00:55:26,050 --> 00:55:28,250 not jump on it, but you can spot the issue. 1023 00:55:28,450 --> 00:55:31,730 But a lot of people don't want to face the music that they are 1024 00:55:31,730 --> 00:55:34,770 the fucking problem, Period. They're the problem in their 1025 00:55:34,770 --> 00:55:36,810 finances. They're the problem in their 1026 00:55:36,810 --> 00:55:38,450 relationships. They're the problem in their 1027 00:55:38,450 --> 00:55:40,620 friendships and they don't want to admit that. 1028 00:55:40,620 --> 00:55:44,340 They want to project that on to someone else or something else 1029 00:55:44,340 --> 00:55:46,620 as being the reason they're acting like that. 1030 00:55:46,860 --> 00:55:49,580 But it's like at the end of the day, you have to sit with 1031 00:55:49,580 --> 00:55:51,780 yourself. You have to look your grown ass 1032 00:55:51,780 --> 00:55:55,020 in the mirror and say this is my life and I'm the one that's got 1033 00:55:55,020 --> 00:55:56,820 me here. I'm the one that's LED up to 1034 00:55:56,820 --> 00:55:59,100 this point. You can't look at Gemini or me 1035 00:55:59,100 --> 00:56:02,540 or other people and blame them for your lack of accountability. 1036 00:56:02,780 --> 00:56:05,740 And I think that's the one thing that we both do very well as we 1037 00:56:05,740 --> 00:56:08,620 hold people accountable. I'm going to do what I've 1038 00:56:09,070 --> 00:56:11,910 committed to do because that's what I'm doing for the universe. 1039 00:56:11,910 --> 00:56:13,710 It's not for you. It's not for them. 1040 00:56:13,790 --> 00:56:16,190 It's for the universe. I'm doing this as a part of my 1041 00:56:16,190 --> 00:56:18,750 sole purpose. You can't take someone else's 1042 00:56:18,750 --> 00:56:22,150 purpose and make it your own. Well, and also, you know, 1043 00:56:22,150 --> 00:56:24,430 there's different ways that everybody's going to give 1044 00:56:24,430 --> 00:56:26,390 information and that they're going to say something. 1045 00:56:26,390 --> 00:56:29,670 And if you are somebody who you need people who are going to say 1046 00:56:29,670 --> 00:56:32,110 things really softly and gingerly to you and that are 1047 00:56:32,110 --> 00:56:35,310 going to be like, no, like, come on, we're working on this. 1048 00:56:35,310 --> 00:56:38,150 We're doing this now come on. And they're going to hold your 1049 00:56:38,150 --> 00:56:39,710 hand and be really soft and gentle. 1050 00:56:39,710 --> 00:56:41,390 There are a lot of people out there that do that. 1051 00:56:41,390 --> 00:56:43,430 There are a lot of communities that you can join. 1052 00:56:43,430 --> 00:56:46,230 And and you know, spiritual mentors that there are that are 1053 00:56:46,230 --> 00:56:49,070 very soft spoken and that are going to just, you know, hold 1054 00:56:49,070 --> 00:56:50,670 your hand and guide you and and be. 1055 00:56:50,750 --> 00:56:53,910 So like tender with you and we're not those people. 1056 00:56:53,910 --> 00:56:57,630 And if it it turns out that you don't like the way that we 1057 00:56:57,630 --> 00:57:01,470 deliver information or that, you know, the the way that we assert 1058 00:57:01,470 --> 00:57:04,270 boundaries or the way that we communicate things, it's OK to 1059 00:57:04,270 --> 00:57:06,750 be like that doesn't serve me. And I'm going to, you know, I 1060 00:57:06,750 --> 00:57:09,670 need something gentler over here and I'm going to go over here 1061 00:57:09,830 --> 00:57:12,630 and it's possible for you to do that and make those changes 1062 00:57:12,630 --> 00:57:16,590 without absolutely having to try and tear somebody down or blast 1063 00:57:16,590 --> 00:57:19,030 them or say that they're doing something wrong because their 1064 00:57:19,030 --> 00:57:22,070 communication style. Isn't your comfort zone. 1065 00:57:22,310 --> 00:57:26,270 So like at the end of the day, you're part of yourself 1066 00:57:26,270 --> 00:57:29,630 evaluation and you know when you're triggered by things and 1067 00:57:29,630 --> 00:57:32,670 you're frustrated by people is figuring out why and then how 1068 00:57:32,670 --> 00:57:35,190 you need to navigate. And I tell you what, there are 1069 00:57:35,190 --> 00:57:39,230 plenty of people that we. Both that we've moved away from, 1070 00:57:39,230 --> 00:57:41,790 you know, teachers that we found, mentors that we found or 1071 00:57:41,790 --> 00:57:44,670 whatever that didn't serve us. I haven't had to name drop 1072 00:57:44,670 --> 00:57:46,150 anybody. I haven't had to blast them. 1073 00:57:46,150 --> 00:57:48,710 I haven't had to go into that side of their communities and be 1074 00:57:48,710 --> 00:57:50,350 like, what a piece of shit, right? 1075 00:57:50,590 --> 00:57:53,790 Haven't had to do any of those things because I just moved into 1076 00:57:53,790 --> 00:57:55,430 the energy that served me better. 1077 00:57:55,670 --> 00:57:58,550 Because if I didn't like that energy over there, why am I now 1078 00:57:58,550 --> 00:58:01,150 going to lend my energy to their demise? 1079 00:58:02,260 --> 00:58:05,540 And The thing is, is if you're here to try to wreak havoc or 1080 00:58:05,540 --> 00:58:09,700 tear someone down, then you need to once again self evaluate on 1081 00:58:09,700 --> 00:58:13,700 how you are the fucking problem. Because just cause how someone 1082 00:58:13,700 --> 00:58:16,180 isn't in alignment with you doesn't mean they're not in 1083 00:58:16,180 --> 00:58:19,540 alignment with other people. So you going in there and trying 1084 00:58:19,540 --> 00:58:23,740 to sway people one way or another, is your limiting 1085 00:58:23,740 --> 00:58:26,860 beliefs. Trying to take away other 1086 00:58:26,860 --> 00:58:31,300 people's support? Or like other people's energetic 1087 00:58:31,970 --> 00:58:35,450 vibration isn't really affected by your energetic vibration 1088 00:58:35,450 --> 00:58:37,370 unless you're projecting that onto them. 1089 00:58:37,690 --> 00:58:42,170 And I honestly think that a lot of people wish that they had 1090 00:58:42,410 --> 00:58:46,090 mentors and they wish that they had community until they get it. 1091 00:58:46,210 --> 00:58:49,170 And then they're needing to be accountable for their limiting 1092 00:58:49,170 --> 00:58:53,210 beliefs, for their bullshit. And you know, I will say this a 1093 00:58:53,210 --> 00:58:56,660 million times. The real healing journey starts 1094 00:58:56,660 --> 00:58:59,300 when you're tired of your own bullshit, when you can look 1095 00:58:59,300 --> 00:59:02,140 yourself in the eyes and be like, you know what, I was the 1096 00:59:02,140 --> 00:59:05,340 problem in that relationship. I was projecting unhealed trauma 1097 00:59:05,340 --> 00:59:07,340 from my childhood onto that person. 1098 00:59:07,580 --> 00:59:11,460 Or I am late every day. So that's why I'm not getting a 1099 00:59:11,460 --> 00:59:14,500 raise at work. I don't take it serious or, you 1100 00:59:14,500 --> 00:59:18,080 know, I only get ready if there's alcohol involved. 1101 00:59:18,080 --> 00:59:21,200 If not, I walk around looking like a homeless bum 24/7 and 1102 00:59:21,200 --> 00:59:24,000 wonder why I can't get a date or wonder why no one wants to be 1103 00:59:24,000 --> 00:59:26,200 around me. And these are just examples. 1104 00:59:26,200 --> 00:59:29,480 I'm not even pointing this out for anyone in particular, but 1105 00:59:29,480 --> 00:59:34,000 I'm just saying like, we have choices and we have commitments 1106 00:59:34,000 --> 00:59:38,180 that we have to have here on this Earth timeline and you have 1107 00:59:38,180 --> 00:59:40,980 to realize where you're falling short and not be mean to 1108 00:59:40,980 --> 00:59:43,820 yourself about it. Like I tell people, look at why 1109 00:59:43,820 --> 00:59:47,700 you are the way you are with curiosity rather than judgment. 1110 00:59:48,060 --> 00:59:51,500 It's easy to be like, wow, when you were 23, you were a piece of 1111 00:59:51,500 --> 00:59:53,580 shit, and I wish I would have done things different. 1112 00:59:53,580 --> 00:59:57,260 Or you could just say I was really going through a traumatic 1113 00:59:57,260 --> 00:59:59,020 experience. I went through a car wreck, 1114 00:59:59,020 --> 01:00:02,540 which led me to use drugs, which led me to this relationship, 1115 01:00:02,540 --> 01:00:04,940 which led me to this job. And I need to take 1116 01:00:04,940 --> 01:00:08,580 accountability that that one catalyst moment of drinking and 1117 01:00:08,580 --> 01:00:11,340 driving put me into a spiral for five years. 1118 01:00:12,040 --> 01:00:14,600 That's just an example. That's not my life story. 1119 01:00:14,600 --> 01:00:17,760 But you know what I mean? Like, you have to look at what 1120 01:00:17,760 --> 01:00:21,480 led you like Legos. What led you to build that 1121 01:00:21,480 --> 01:00:24,520 structure and why is it not in alignment with you? 1122 01:00:24,720 --> 01:00:28,440 And how can you break that mold without pointing fingers of 1123 01:00:28,440 --> 01:00:31,840 like, well, that person abused me, or I was sexually abused, or 1124 01:00:31,840 --> 01:00:34,320 I had this, or my mom's an addict or whatever. 1125 01:00:34,320 --> 01:00:37,840 Like you've got to see yourself as the common denominator and 1126 01:00:37,840 --> 01:00:42,560 move forward with curiosity and elevation rather than judgment 1127 01:00:42,560 --> 01:00:45,960 and and being critical of yourself because you can't get 1128 01:00:45,960 --> 01:00:48,280 that time back. And the more you're sitting here 1129 01:00:48,280 --> 01:00:50,760 dwelling on it, the more you're going to be angry with people 1130 01:00:50,760 --> 01:00:53,680 who have elevated from it. And that's what I tell people. 1131 01:00:54,450 --> 01:00:57,890 It be the people that you were at low points with that don't 1132 01:00:57,890 --> 01:01:01,610 want to see you break that mold because they're not out of that 1133 01:01:01,610 --> 01:01:03,810 energy. It be the people that know where 1134 01:01:03,810 --> 01:01:06,850 you came from and know what you have overcome that are the most 1135 01:01:06,850 --> 01:01:09,890 envious and jealous of you because they realized that you 1136 01:01:09,890 --> 01:01:12,970 both were dealt the same hand of cards and they're losing and 1137 01:01:12,970 --> 01:01:15,490 you're winning. Yep, Amen. 1138 01:01:16,090 --> 01:01:17,810 On that note, let's pull a human design card. 1139 01:01:18,410 --> 01:01:23,690 Here we go. Look at this dog right now. 1140 01:01:26,270 --> 01:01:30,790 Tits to the Sky look page. That's a vibe. 1141 01:01:35,670 --> 01:01:40,070 She likes the porn couch flipped up, baby. 1142 01:01:40,070 --> 01:01:41,990 She. Has her own little cushion over 1143 01:01:41,990 --> 01:01:45,430 here. OK, so we got card 24 for the 1144 01:01:45,430 --> 01:01:48,270 void. Listen, little Kitty. 1145 01:01:48,270 --> 01:01:56,470 All right, the sign it. The sign is Taurus, the gift is 1146 01:01:56,470 --> 01:01:58,790 genius, and the shadow is addiction. 1147 01:02:01,110 --> 01:02:05,590 OK, gaze into the void and confront your deepest shadows. 1148 01:02:05,870 --> 01:02:09,630 Beyond the darkness is a strand of delicate light, a soft beam 1149 01:02:09,630 --> 01:02:12,310 to guide you to the ripened fruits of your inner world. 1150 01:02:12,790 --> 01:02:15,950 When you're able to transcend the patterns of the shadow, life 1151 01:02:15,950 --> 01:02:19,350 expands beyond the previous limitations you've placed onto 1152 01:02:19,350 --> 01:02:21,980 it. You're able to see how your own 1153 01:02:21,980 --> 01:02:25,620 mind has played tricks on you. Silence befriends you as you 1154 01:02:25,620 --> 01:02:28,060 stare into the void with curiosity and awe. 1155 01:02:28,660 --> 01:02:32,500 From this gap, consciousness awakens and your innate genius 1156 01:02:32,500 --> 01:02:35,140 greets you once again, and again and again. 1157 01:02:35,300 --> 01:02:39,300 A spell never broken. Your shadow is addiction. 1158 01:02:39,970 --> 01:02:43,290 Rooted within the collective, this shadow bears witness to our 1159 01:02:43,290 --> 01:02:46,170 deeply entrenched survival tendencies. 1160 01:02:46,650 --> 01:02:51,970 We find a relative comfort and repetition, time, worn patterns 1161 01:02:51,970 --> 01:02:55,490 and narrow mindedness. The distorted view that safety 1162 01:02:55,490 --> 01:02:59,210 is found only in ways of thinking or being. 1163 01:02:59,850 --> 01:03:03,410 This is an addiction to mind centered strategies to avoid 1164 01:03:03,410 --> 01:03:06,250 suffering. This could manifest in various 1165 01:03:06,250 --> 01:03:10,580 ways, including substance abuse. Seeking solace in the outside 1166 01:03:10,580 --> 01:03:14,380 world versus your inner sanctuary or using habits is a 1167 01:03:14,380 --> 01:03:17,260 crutch. Anything has the potential to 1168 01:03:17,260 --> 01:03:20,380 veer into addiction when we bypass the void and the root 1169 01:03:20,380 --> 01:03:24,540 cause of suffering. Your themes are innate genius 1170 01:03:24,660 --> 01:03:29,260 patterns, the Void and Silence, and that just really plays on 1171 01:03:29,260 --> 01:03:33,560 everything we were saying. Because, and there's so much 1172 01:03:33,560 --> 01:03:37,360 underneath the surface that we have to explore with curiosity. 1173 01:03:37,560 --> 01:03:40,440 Quit being mean to yourselves and quit projecting yourself 1174 01:03:40,440 --> 01:03:43,760 hatred on to people who are trying to help you or people 1175 01:03:43,760 --> 01:03:46,520 that are doing better than you. Because like I said earlier, you 1176 01:03:46,520 --> 01:03:50,200 can hate what someone's doing and just not say anything and 1177 01:03:50,200 --> 01:03:53,240 just move the fuck on. There's no need for the falling 1178 01:03:53,240 --> 01:03:54,720 out. There's no need for drama. 1179 01:03:54,720 --> 01:03:58,760 So save the drama for your Mama and we'll see you next time in 1180 01:03:58,840 --> 01:04:01,160 Candyland. Bye bitches.