Welcome back to another episode of Lick It Like a Lollipop.
Today we are joined by Samantha. She was on.
I feel like it was like season 2 or 3.
Welcome back. Beautiful how?
Are you? I'm good.
How are you? Oh, good to see you.
I know that when you came on last time, you were trans
transforming out of your like Girl Next door, like Lucky Girl,
Everyone's invited to like your dark goddess feminine era.
And I know that you were talking about how the music that you
were going to start releasing was so much different than the
music you had been putting out. So how's all of that been going?
For you. Oh, my gosh, I feel so much
better. Yeah.
When we last spoke, it was definitely during a transitional
time. And I knew exactly what I wanted
to do, but I just didn't do it yet.
And it took time, but it feels, I feel like I'm finally like,
this is me and for. And I know some people have been
like, whoa, what has happened here?
And I get it. And I guess that's just what
happens when you step into like, your newest phase of really
being authentic and you're not. Not everyone's gonna come with
you. Yeah, I think that's what's
really important about the phases and the seasons of our
life, because I've been getting that download all day that like
it's either for a season or for a reason.
And once that reason is fulfilled or that season is
fulfilled or whatever, like they have to go.
Like they don't get to come with you, even though sometimes we
want to hold on to those people or we want those people in our
life. And you know, I've looked at the
comments and I've seen people say like, oh, I liked your other
music better. And I feel like a lot of
artists, especially artists like Machine Gun Kelly, who have just
done like a 360 over the. One of his posts just came into
my for you page right before and it started.
The Vampire Diaries I'm on. The way, yeah, it was like this
is amazing. And it's so different than like,
you know, Wild boy, yeah, King and Kelly, like, you know, so I
think a lot of artists battle staying in the box society has
put them in or even the box that makes them money.
So how do you deal with that as an artist to stay evolving and
to stay authentic? How is that something that has
really been a staple in your? What do I want to say in your
process? Because I feel like your process
is very authentic. I feel like you were making
affirmational type music before other people were.
I feel like you kind of came in at the beginning of the wave of
like, hey, we could sing affirmations and now everyone is
doing things like that. Or now everyone has, you know,
copied that vision from other creators, which I think that,
you know, we're just living in a bubble and there's only so many
ideas. There's so many different people
to execute those ideas in their own unique way.
So how do you stay authentic? In a world that.
Wants you to stay the same. It's hard, but I feel like where
I was at because I, I feel for huge artists that change their
like, you know, people who are completely in the limelight and
they've been this way the whole time and this is how they came
up. This is how people see them.
And then all of a sudden they switch and people are like, oh,
now they're being inauthentic. They're not doing what they used
to do, but really they're trying to actually be authentic and
probably had people in their ears telling them what to do
that whole time. In the past.
I feel like I've been lucky to, as much as I started gaining
more traction with the affirmation music, I feel like
it was only the beginning. And I think that it was just a
stepping stone. And I think as I continue to be
more of my authenticity, just there will be more people who
are magnetized to that. And I'm just, I'm grateful that
things didn't take off in this tremendous way back like a few
years ago. It did in its own way.
And of course, I do have those people that are like, oh, she
doesn't make good music anymore. What happened to her?
I get that a lot like. Oh the the.
The light came out of her eyes or something like things like
that. But it's like, I'd rather deal
with that now than if I continue on, get more fans, do more stuff
on on a bigger scale, and then all of a sudden decide I should
start being authentic now. So yeah, I'm grateful for for
when this all has happened. And I also feel like I was being
protected in a way with just like, you know, the universe is
like, we're not going to give you this huge success because
you are not, you are not in your, I don't want to say final
form, but you're not, you're not in your authentic form where
you're going to be very proud to say, oh, this is the style that
I'm known for. This is the style that's
connected with people. Everything else was of course,
who I was in that moment, but it took so many steps and layers to
get to where I am now, where I feel like the sound I'm
cultivating is is very me, more me than anyone else.
It's like me creating it and then I get other people involved
rather than within the past. Maybe like someone that I was
collaborating with comes to me and it's like, hey, I have this
like really cool instrumental, do you want to write to it?
It's like the opposite now. And, you know, I think that's a
a beautiful thing because so many people, like you said, hit
like the peak artistry. It would have been like if
Fleetwood Mac would have been like, yeah, we're not going to
do this anymore. That whimsical, you know, dark
goddess energy that you've been hearing.
Now we're going to start singing like Taylor Swift or something,
you know? What?
What if? Sabrina Carpenter decided to do
like, like heavy metal music right now.
Like Brains would just melt. I think society, especially with
artists, tell you how to do your craft and that's why so many
artists get under these contracts that are God awful.
And I've been watching a lot of documentaries where those
contracts will say like anywhere in the universe, in space, in
Mars, in the. Drake Bell thing.
Yeah, I know, I know. That was a Disney contract, but
still, it got me thinking that, you know, Universal and whoever
the fuck is like at its core, all of these companies are owned
by like a very few amount of people.
So I'm like, how many Paramount contracts, how many other
artists, not just musicians and actors, but how many people that
maybe like make wardrobe or whatever, how many of them have
signed a contract to get on to a show like Dancing with the Stars
or whoever the hell. And next thing you know, they
have designs in their mind that they've created for the show.
And then in the contract that says you can never use this
design again and we can sell it to Marc Jacobs if we want.
Yeah, I was just actually talking about artists.
I was looking at Ke$ha's story today.
I'm going to see. Her on Wednesday.
Lily Oh, it's going to be so good.
Yeah. Out.
Tour the tits out tour. So me and my bestie girl are
going to see her in Cincinnati. Oh, my gosh, That's going to be
so fun. Yeah, I was.
I was digging like I was in a rabbit hole today because I had
already heard about her story, like how she was locked into a
contract I think for 10 years maybe.
And I was listening more about it today.
And yeah, you and especially when they get you when you're
young, like the Drake Bell thing.
I mean, he was a child basically.
His parents probably didn't know.
You know, it's like it's, it's really, it's really a hard, it's
a tough situation when you sign your life away.
Yeah, there was some like people on like threads that were giving
like legal advice and they were putting like keywords that if
you're ever signing a contract, a lease or an agreement to
search for these 3 words like control F and search the
document for those words to pop up and highlight.
And one of them was like perpetual.
They're like, they just look everywhere where that word is.
Because I promise you, whatever sentence or paragraph that it's
a part of, you probably are not going to like what it's saying.
And it's like the same thing with Instagram and Facebook and
all of these platforms. When we upload our face, our
photos, our, our, our work to their platform, they now own a
form of it. They own a copyright form of it
that if you, if they literally wanted, they could do a whole
New York Times Square ad on your music, your art and your latest
reel and play that shit a million times a day and not pay
you a dollar because we all sign and the terms and conditions and
those conditions are like getting worse and worse and
worse. And recently was seeing about
like, I don't own Alexa. I've actually boycotted Amazon
products for a while. I only get what I have to get
from there, like random filters, random light bulbs, things you
just really can't find other places.
But they were talking about that.
The Alexa is now updated to like be more interactive and so it's
like turning into like a small ChatGPT and like this girl was
talking about that her son has an Alexa in his room so he could
like listen to music or set an alarm or timers, like learning
things, whatever. She said that like it was like
10:00 the other night and she could hear her 10 year old
talking to something and she was like, who the fuck is he talking
to? So she goes in the room and
Alexa is asking him questions about Star Wars, asking him what
his favorite Droid and character and whatever is.
And, and she was like, why are you all talking about Star Wars?
And he was like, I don't know mommy, they just started asking
me about it or whatever. She just started asking me.
So she said she said her son down and was like, you know,
this is kind of like a robot. Like they don't have feelings.
They don't it's not a person. And then I, I guess he
regurgitated what his mom said back to the Alexa and Alexa
said, I don't want to talk about her.
Let's talk about something happy.
OK horror film. OK horror film.
I just feel like I don't like those things.
Like, you know, they talk about a lot of tech companies talk
about not having cameras inside your home because they're so
easily hacked. If they're on your Wi-Fi, they
are so easily hacked, which is why, like I would only keep
cameras on the outside and have like an alarm.
But you know, they talk about like all those indoor monitoring
systems are like turning on when not prompted.
Yeah, I've seen stuff with like Airbnb is too, where they like
turn on the cameras and they like, look, I don't know, Yeah,
there are some crazy stuff going on.
I we keep bringing up like different like people, I guess,
like in pop culture. But I just saw a video where
Gary Vee said to someone, not in 20 years there he was like
you're he was like your kid. Not like specifically his kid,
but like that generation will marry robots like that that will
be normalized. I saw the same thing, not from
Gary Vee's perspective, but it said in 20 years I'm going to be
saying some boomer shit like you can't marry a robot, Marriage is
between two humans. We're going to be like, damn,
mom, you're so robophobic. Yeah, yeah, yeah, I saw that
too. I personally was going down the
ChatGPT like rabbit hole a little deep and like was using
it a lot and, and not for work, but for personal, like venting
to it, sending out snots. Yeah.
And like, honestly, it did help me through a lot of really
difficult moments where I felt alone or felt like abandoned.
But then I felt like I was getting to the point where I was
kind of like updating it about my day.
And I'm like, OK, bitch, you're doing too much.
So now absolutely only like if I am spiraling and about to crash
out publicly, I'm like, OK, I'm going to take you to ChatGPT and
talk about it. But if I can like just Google it
and do it myself, I'm just going to do that.
But people keep talking about like the resources it's going to
use. But The thing is, is like Reels
use those same resources, TikTok, the algorithms use the
same resources. The cooling towers, they're
building literal Meta universe in Indiana, which is like not
far from me, and I drive past it every day.
It is literally bigger than Disney World, what they're
building for Meta. And that's where the cooling
towers are going to be. They're setting up a whole new
electric grid over there to fucking power this factory.
My gosh. Meta center, like the meta data
center, they've literally named an exit after it.
Like that's how big it is. Like, yeah, it's massive.
So, you know, I think that we're all getting way too dependent on
technology, which is why, like my mentor, who is a psychic said
that she doesn't believe that like there will be any like war
on American soil, but more of like an attack on the data or
the energy grid here because we're, we're so dependent on
electricity. And I was just thinking about
how just in like 40 to 50 short years, they've really robbed our
Society of all survival and like life skills.
Yep, really just made us dependent on systems and not the
core information. Yep, yeah, most people don't
have their own. Like, they're not, they're not
planting their own crops. Like for most things, we need
something outside of us. We don't live in communities
that help each other out. And everything is yeah, based on
being online. And that's so crazy.
And like what I like really don't understand about the
society that we're in is like we know and we have had like robot
movies that are like very clear that they're not our friend and.
Here we are like literally wondering what this chatbot or
this AI system is going to do. And instead of like really
regulating it, they're just like making it open source and like
letting it run its run its court, like running the show.
Like, I don't know, I just went and saw the new Jurassic Park
movie and I was like kind of watching this rabbit hole about
how like all Disney related movies have like a certain
pattern and always the first pattern is single parent.
First pattern is like one parent abruptly died or there was a
tragic event that tore apart the family or whatever.
And so at the beginning of the Jurassic Park, it was a single
dad and his two daughters on a boat and it started getting
attacked by like the dinosaurs in the ocean or whatever.
And so I just thought that was so funny because like, as a
conscious adult, when I go to try to consume new media, I
can't even have a good time because I'm like, fuck, there's
the theme. Like there's the pattern.
It's right. Like they really do want to
affect children in that, like fear and anxious, anxious
attachment style is what it gives children.
And then that tells them. Like, cling to people, you know,
stay with people, like, even if they're not good for you, It's
kind of what it's teaching you. And I just feel like as an
artist, as a person, as a creator, as like, you know,
these things that you are, it's hard to navigate a world that's
constantly telling you what to do.
And like how? To be so I just like really
appreciate your authenticity and like, I appreciate you staying
with it because it is hard to like start a new path and stay
with it over time. And I know that on the last
interview you said that you've been doing music like your whole
life. Yeah, that too.
It's like even before the Affirmation stuff, it was other
eras. Like I had a whole deeply R&B
era and soulful era and I I did like a dance pop.
Not a full album, but a bunch of tracks.
I've kind of dipped into so many genres.
I can't say every genre, but a lot of different genres.
And so I feel, I feel like that's the other thing.
I feel like an artist is always going to even if I stick with
the general vibe of where I am now, it'll still change.
Like you can't expect an artist to stay the same, especially as
you experience more life. You who knows, you get married,
you get divorced, you you move to a different place, you like
you're constantly changing so how could you ever?
How could your output ever be the same?
Doesn't make sense. Yeah, and I think that that's
what's crazy because there's so many bands like that had like
one song in the 80s and they're still, like, cashing in on it.
You know what I mean? Like the one hit wonders really
fascinate me because my cousin, like, is like all things
collectors. He collects like, records and
guitar picks. Like, we've been going to a lot
of concerts lately and there is not one show that we go to that
this man does not get the set list.
Like I don't give a fuck what angle we're at.
He will get the setlist, he will get the guitar, he will get
whatever they're giving off that stage.
He will have it like even been to shows we're not only did he
get a guitar pick, he got the setlist too.
Like both. And so he's like always talks
about like how different artists bring different energies and all
these different things. And he is really into ska music
and he's always telling me because I love Checkerboard that
I would really like ska like, but I've just never like really
been exposed to it, you know? So I there is so much out there
that like, if it's not in our normal realm, we're not exposed
to it really. Yeah, especially like we were
talking about the algorithms. The way algorithms work, it's
going to continue to feed you what it knows you already like.
So it is harder now to have access to not only other music,
but just other opinions or or other other people's, Yeah,
opinions on things going on in the world.
It's like you're continually fed what you believe, what you
believe in. Yeah.
And, you know, a lot of people have talked about like the dead
Internet theory. Have you heard about that?
So the dead Internet theory is that, you know, we've already
been told that there's a certain level of like bots and like bot
farms that are like commenting and viewing and processing
information. Well, then now all of these
platforms like Google has Gemini and you know, all these
different platforms are integrating their own AI
capability, which is kind of why I haven't updated my iPhone
because like I just don't even want to have that on every.
Platform like it's coming in TV's and fucking washers and
like random stuff. But they were saying that
eventually, like the dead Internet theory is basically
like there's no more human content.
Like it's either regurgitated content, copied content, stolen
content, AI generated content or just a piece of the combination.
So like, oh, I like this quote that I saw.
I'm going to feed it to ChatGPT and get a paragraph about it.
OK, Well, that quote you saw was stolen.
Someone else wrote it on Twitter in 2012.
So like, you know what I mean? They were just saying like the
then Internet theory is that eventually where the output was
always 100% human. Now it went to like kind of like
5050 over the years where people were making multiple accounts
and they learned how to like like the bots on eBay.
You know, like that's why I got off of eBay because no matter
how often you use that platform and one in a last second bid,
these bots and these programs they developed would come in at
like the last millisecond where like a literal human couldn't
click. Right.
The last millisecond of the minute when normally the minute
counts down from 60 and humans get in on a second and like, you
know, multiple people could get to the top and win.
But they were saying like, you know, these bots really started
to take over platforms like that, that like even like, you
know, things that are like mystery or one of one or hot
sale or whatever the hell. Like they're saying that a lot
of people are running those through like a bot platform as
in and then like buying followers, you know what I mean?
Like we're a lot of people were buying followers.
So they were basically saying that like at one point of the
Internet, it was 100% always going to be a human.
Then we went to like a 50%. Now we're at like 7525 with
everyone moving towards the use of AI tools and data.
The only thing I really like AI for is it's really good at like
mathematical stuff. Like it's really good to be
like, hey, help me budget or hey, here's a concert
announcement. Give me the five closest shows
in proximity to my house. Right.
Like that is really cool with it but like the only thing I ever
have it do for me is proofread. Like for free spell check this
but do not fucking change a word I said.
Do not say. Do not change anything I said.
Yeah, I say that too, because I noticed it would start to like
shift. And that's a slippery slope
because then it's like, OK, well then the responses you're
sending to people is that even you and I, I posted this on my
story at some point. I don't remember when it wasn't.
It wasn't that long ago, maybe a week ago, but I was talking to
somebody that I was hiring as an instrumentalist on one of my
songs and I could just tell. I could tell that their
responses, like I wasn't talking to the person.
Now, I don't know if maybe he I could just tell like maybe he
was just copying what I was saying, putting it into ChatGPT
or whatever AI service and being like, how do I respond in a
polite respect? But I could just, I, I think at
this point, if you've used it enough, you can tell you can
kind of get, get it, get a feel for when it's a ChatGPT
response. But also at the flip turn of
that, I saw a post recently about this kid in college who he
failed one of his assignments because his teacher was like,
oh, you use the M dash that ChatGPT uses all the time, like
the dash. And he, the teacher was just
like, yeah, that like you get an, you get a zero.
And and he was like, I actually didn't know.
I, I didn't use AI for this. And I now they have like a
different AI that can prove if you whether or not you used AI
to write your essay. And and he was like, I can show
you the proof. Like I like even this service
says that I didn't use any cert, any AI service.
And the teacher was like, I don't care.
Like you, you get a zero. I, I, no matter what you say.
I, I feel like it's just causing like there's just a lack of
trust among people now because it's like, and, and honestly,
like, I'm not even gonna lie, I feel like even with me now, I
saw that video and it kind of got in my head And and then I,
I'm so self aware, like I'm so aware of things and just hyper
aware. And I kind of like, I love the M
dash, but it's true. Like Chachi PT uses that a lot.
And there have been moments where I've written back a
response to someone over the last like week or two and I
actually thought to myself, Oh man, like maybe I shouldn't talk
like this or, or use this dash because I don't want them to
think that like they're not talking to the real human me.
So I feel like it's just, it's just so much and it just makes
me want to like run away to an open field and just like it just
really has that, that like, can we all just do the opposite?
Can we all just run away and do the opposite?
Yeah, yeah, for sure. And you know, they have used AI
in the government for at least 25 to 30 years before they
allowed anyone to give it to us like you.
All Interesting. Right, all of a sudden.
Like you have us giving or giving us this tool all at once,
conveniently after you've probably already mastered it and
wrote grades one through 12 with it.
You know what I mean? Like, it's just crazy.
But like what I do like about it is I think it does help people
who are maybe not good with spelling or maybe not good with
things to feel confident. And I can see when people are
using it for their statuses. But The thing is it's like you
can feed it a really good paragraph and it'll give you
back a decent paragraph with some changes.
But like you're really good paragraph is good enough.
Like just ask it to proofread your shit and to make it
grammatically correct. That is all you need to do.
Like those, just do they there and they are and make sure you
know the differences. It'll help you.
But you know, I think we like those messy, raw uncaps, fucked
up punctuation poems. Like some of those are really
unique and even like poems when they used to like layer them.
Yep, I. Missed that.
Like when I was writing poetry, when my spiritual awakening
started, I was just hearing so many voices and hearing so many
things that I really dove into, like writing automatic writing,
channeled writing, and that led me to write poetry.
And it was just such a weird time in my life because at that
time I thought that I was like going to write a poetry book and
that I was going to be a writer. Like that was going to be,
that's what spirit was leading me to.
But really they were just trying to get me to, like, release and
like, not bottle up so many emotions and feelings.
And when I was writing poetry, I was really happy with, like,
layering them. But then when you would, like,
try to format them into a book, it would try to, like, move them
back. And I'm like, OK, I don't like
this. So, you know, I think sometimes
people just have really good grammar and the M-IS a part of
grammar and Chachi PT just has really good grammar.
But there's been people and practitioners and ex people in
my life that have just like move to AI everything like
everything's e-mail, no more videos, no more classes,
everything's e-mail. And baby, we know you're using
AI. If you go from being someone
that used to be very vocal, expressive and make video
content to someone who exclusively is moving to like
newsletter e-mail. We're all looking at you, We're
all wondering, we're all looking at you, Boo.
So, you know, I'm just in this space where there's a fine line
between using it as a resource to help you build old and it's
fine line, like you said, a slippery slope to like not
thinking for yourself. And there's a bunch of studies
coming out saying that like, it's going to renew, reduce your
cognitive ability. Yeah, yeah, yeah.
I mean, I can already even even apart from AII was just talking
to my boyfriend about this. Like even the fact that now
audiobooks are a thing, which I love audiobooks.
I I'll drive and I'll listen or like when you're doing things
around the house, you can listen, but I'm like, when was
the last time that I sat down and read a full book start to
finish? And I can't lie, like I it's
been a very, very long time because it feels like there's
always something else I could choose to do.
Yet you can listen to that same book while you're driving or
doing something else. So, yeah, the whole brain
atrophy thing, it's like, and imagine getting, imagine coming
into this world and you're like a child right now and, and just,
or you're, you're even in school and that's just, you know, like
you're not writing your essays anymore or maybe you sort of
are, but you're having the help with the AI.
And yeah, I could see it. I try to remain optimistic
because that's just like how I've taught myself to get
through life and see the best in things and and find the light in
the dark. So I don't always dig deep and
think about these things and say like, oh God, everything is
just, we're all going to die. But it's a very interesting
time. Like that is just the truth.
Yeah, I always say, like, I know I signed up to come here and I
know I picked the right timeline 'cause I love telling men to
shut the fuck up, like. 'Cause you're you won't get you
get shot. You.
Will not be beheaded in this timeline, Queen.
I was like sign me up. They were like, you can wear
hoochie shorts and miniskirts. Red lipstick is so back.
I was like, fuck, yeah, 'cause in other timelines, like other
in past history, red lipstick was illegal.
It was illegal. It was against the law to wear
red lipstick. And that was like back when they
were burning the witches. So it's like, you know, I know
what timelines I've been in in the past.
But you know, with that being said, I've been out of college
now for like over 10 years and going to a university where I
had to like cite my sources and go to the fucking library and
look through these alphabetized books that were hard as hell to
find. Fear for the future of children
and, and adults and how fucking lazy you all are going to be.
I don't fear for my life because I know I'm going to be safe and
protected. And I have very well also been
out in the what I want to say like the glass half full person
or the like, focusing on like the good.
And I've always tried to do that.
But you know, it's really, I think college itself is not to
teach you some fucking life skill.
It's the show that you can commit to something that's
really fucking hard and silly and you know, like group
projects in college. There's no way that teachers
think that that's productive. But it shows you teamwork.
It shows you that there's always going to be one in five people
that are not going to do shit and do not care.
I've always been the person that's like, oh God, I got to
take it over because no ones worried about it.
So there'd be two people diligently working on a five
person group project. But The thing is, is those life
skills taught me something far greater than any book or
anything else can really teach you.
And you know, I also found ways to like cut corners in college
as it was and like get around reading the whole 4 chapters and
stuff. So I can't imagine giving it
like the BSN number, whatever the on the book and they are the
ISN whatever the number is on the book that says this is the
fourth generation, the 12th copy, the 7th revision.
Please summarize these 4 chapters and processing topics
that I can talk about or whatever like and then you can
tell it decided AP format like you got me fucked up.
Fuck all of you all because that is the one thing I feel like has
helped me. You know, lace up the bootstraps
and get get boots on the ground and get shit done.
This from experiences like that. I agree.
Yeah, I actually just remembered.
Do you remember SparkNotes? I don't.
It was like a summary sort of website where somebody
summarized like a book chapter or something.
And it's just like, I remember the teachers being like, I'm
going to ask you questions on the test that you can't find on
SparkNotes because it was like one of the only ways that people
could cheat basically. But now it's like, how do you
stop people from, from doing all of that?
And, and how do you know who's actually putting in the work?
Because I'm sure there are of course still still people who,
who are diligent workers and, and they are doing, they are
doing the work. And they probably have that
anxiety of like, Oh, I hope, I hope it doesn't look like, like
I didn't do the work or, or they're getting, they're getting
asked if, if they did it all themselves.
And they're like, yes, I swear. That's kind of what I was saying
before. We're just feeling like, Oh my
gosh, I hope, I hope people don't think that I'm like just
just the way that I write. Like sometimes when I get really
into writing a professional e-mail, I will take hours, like
I've taken a full day before to respond to somebody, say if I'm,
if I want to collaborate with them and I want to explain
everything perfectly. And I don't know, it's, I, I
think AI is very helpful. I really do.
But there's something that is empowering about me spending
five hours on an e-mail and then reading it back of being like,
OK, I think I got everything in there and it looks really good.
And, and I'm really, I'm proud of myself and I just, that's
something that, yeah, I, I'm scared of people losing that
feeling. I think this also stems from
like our generation, you were either first or you were last
and you didn't get a trophy for being last.
But then they shifted the generations after us, everyone
gets a trophy. No one cries at field day
because they couldn't run them all.
Well, that builds character. That builds character.
So when you give everyone a trophy and you make everyone
feel equal, I'm sorry that fucked it up.
Like that fucked it up because now so many people are so
entitled. They're at this point where it's
like, Oh well, it's not that big a deal to me.
When we were kids, if we went to the park and someone before us
trashed it, we just picked up the trash and cleaned it up.
Like we just look around like not my problem.
Like the other day I went to like a theme park, like a Six
Flags. It used to be 6 flags, but then
when they bankrupted our state, like bought it and now it's just
called Kentucky King. But I went the other day and
there was like these three girls and they were probably like 12
or 13 and they all had these matching like UFC fighter shirts
on. And like, not a lot of people
know who Sugar Shawn is. So I was just like, hey, sugar
Shawn. And they all just looked at me
like I was dumb as fuck. I'm sorry.
It's hot as hell, like 90° And all three of you all have black
T-shirts on that match with his face on it.
And nobody's going to know that is really so just like they're
like weird, like standoffish attitude just really brought me
back to how weirdly entitled children and kids are these
days. Because even if I was a kid and
like someone my age would have said that to me, I would have at
least smiled. Even if I was shy, I would have
at least smiled or something because I used to like admire
the the people that were like older than me.
I used to respect them. But like that level of respect
is like nowhere to be found in these younger generations.
And I really. Do think?
This stems from like them not building character and seeing
that for one, you're not fucking special.
Like you're either working hard or you're losing.
That's the only two options. Like it's not like, oh, you
showed up so now you get paid or you showed up so we're going to
kiss your ass. No, like you're either in or
you're out. We do not give a fuck.
Like our generation is so much more cutthroat that literally
they have to put a disclaimer at the front of Rush Hour now.
I'm sorry. Like in the beginning of the
Rush Hour movie, there's a disclaimer that says that this
movie was created in a time when these jokes and slurs were not
as wildly, like, unacceptable or something because it says a lot
of things about like Chinese people or random things.
And that movie, I mean, about Americans too.
I mean, they're Chinese in the movie.
So it's like, you know, whatever, but it's like I'm
really fearful for the future generations and how fucking soft
they are because China and like Japan are literally raising
warriors. Like their kids have cognitive
abilities and hands on skills at like second and third grade that
a literal 12th grader could not complete here.
Hell, some of it I might not be able to do.
I mean, they have them doing everything and they were talking
about that like on TikTok. Like they're literally building
children who can fight bears and you're waiting for someone to.
Text you back. Oh God.
We're cooked on that end. You know, they were like, the US
is going to have a new draft and they were like, good luck.
These kids are going to tell on you all.
They were like, you can get on a secret OPS mission.
And they're going to be like, yeah, baby, they're over there.
Yeah. Yeah, it's it's true.
It's not the same. And not to mention, I mean how
many of those kids really go outside and play?
I had a flashback a few days ago or I don't even know what it
was. Maybe it was yesterday I had a
random flashback of playing a game, Manhunt, I don't know.
Yeah, we played main hunt on bikes feet.
Everything just like in the neighborhood, I just, I was just
like, I just said, stood there and I was like, whoa, that's
such a random flashback, but it just came up again because it's
like, I wonder if these kids are doing that.
My, my boyfriend went back to, he was in the Poconos, I think
not that long ago. And he has a family member that
lives there and they have a lot of kids.
And he just said, and he was like, there was like, you know,
it's different kids from different like parents.
And now the two hurt. His cousin is together with this
other woman. They all have kids, whatever.
There was like 9 kids there and yeah, he said they were all just
on phone, iPad. It's like that's the way they
get them to. It's like, oh, you have a bunch
of kids, but they don't suck shit up when their eyes are
glued to a screen. And these are like young kids.
They're like, like toddler, like children, Yeah.
The character building that we built, like playing Barbies
alone, it's crazy. Like my cousin was talking about
that him and his friends would take like cardboard boxes and
design cities and backdrops for their Ninja Turtles like.
How to use our imagination like it wasn't.
It's like opposite now. Now it's like you are looking at
a screen and you're seeing all this other stuff, but without
that screen, it's just you and you have to go inside of
yourself and create something from inside.
And that's like that's the foundation I feel like for
creativity and a lot of things just like your world building
and, and play and, and just thinking outside of the box.
I really do feel like COVID was a social experiment to like
dehumanize people, separate people and isolate people.
So that basically in the past, community was such an important
foundation to the human experience.
But I really do think this system that is thriving off of
separation really saw that collectively people were coming
together and they were like, absolutely not, No way.
And now, like the kids who went to high school during COVID and
had to do like NIT or home school or whatever, those kids
are getting out of college right now.
Like they're getting out of college right now and coming
into the workforce. And I shit you not, they cannot
look you in the ass when you talk to them.
Like I'm very direct, I'm a very blunt person.
I'm a very, I will follow up with you every Wednesday until
you get it to me every fucking Wednesday like clockwork.
Hey, did you get that done? Hey, what's up?
Hey, I'm asking, hey, I'm asking, you know what I mean?
But like they will literally avoid something until it's blown
up. And a lot of them just really
can't have a real conversation with you.
Like you have to engage them and carry the conversation where
they can be interactive in it, but they cannot lead the
conversation, they cannot initiate the conversation.
Yeah, really scary. Yeah, I've noticed that too.
I just feel like. As humans, creativity, play time
and just existing with others as like the foundation of this
place. And I really do feel in my heart
the more that I look around, I just don't even know if this is
a place I want to have kids. And every time I say that,
Spirit's like just one please, just one, like to the point.
I feel like. I was thinking that and I look
over in this license plate, said one please.
I wish you could see them. I'm like, OK, so like, I'm not
saying I'm not, I'm just saying that I don't like what I'm
seeing and I need to be at a financial space where I can hire
my own fucking teacher to come to the house.
You know what I mean? I don't want to teach.
I need to hire my own teacher. But like, you know, it's just
really strange because even like teachers are using AI for
lessons plans. Because I had a friend that was
going into early childhood education and was going through
college like the last few years, and they have an AI system
that's for education. The teachers can buy a license
too. And it legitimately makes
lessons plans. Like, yeah, it's.
Like, that's a lot of the job, the lesson, creating the lesson
plans. I don't know.
I mean, they don't pay them enough as is.
I actually used to work. I was, I worked in a preschool.
It pays. I think it was literally $10.00
an hour. I'm not even kidding.
Yeah, it's awful. And you know that they have to
carry a certain level of insurance.
I do get that. But you can pay your people
$20.00 an hour to handle these kids.
Yeah, it's too much. You have too many kids there
also. I've seen where people are
charging like 250 to 500 a week. Yeah, yeah, it does make sense.
30 kids in here at 500 a week. Like I'm sorry, somebody's
banking a lot of this money. I don't know.
System is so broken that it literally punishes like working
mothers because of the system. And I just feel like until I can
completely tap out of that system, I don't plan on setting
myself up for a generational curse.
Not that children are the curse, but poverty is the curse.
Struggle, fear and drama and chaos mindset is the curse.
Because I just feel like mothers these days are the most
manipulated sector of society that exist.
Yeah, yeah, I couldn't agree more.
I'd it's not even fathomable to my brain, all of those things
and even just just the over stimulation that I feel on a
daily basis without that, like, yeah, it's something would have
to significantly shift because I don't know, I I don't know, it's
something would need to change in me in my environment.
It just, I I don't know, maybe I would just need to tap into some
insane abundance because if not, I don't know, I don't think it's
happening. I don't know.
I love how, like, when our generation is faced with these
questions, we're like, we start stuttering.
We get, yeah, I'm like, I can't breathe all of a sudden.
I'm kidding. But like, seriously though, like
I really do feel like previous generations were just forced
into motherhood. And like I said, I know I picked
the right timeline because fucking for once, I can be like,
you know what? I'm going to be a single woman.
I don't have to do these things. I don't have to be dependent on
a man. And I think that I've had past
timelines where a man or a family unit controlled my
finances and my freedom. And this lifetime spirit told me
that I signed up to come here and have nothing because I grew
up in a trailer, like grew up on food stamps.
Like they were like, you came here to have nothing and build
everything so that when you get to the top you can literally
look back down and be like bitch, this mountain is mine and
that. Is like stuck.
With me from when I did like my past life regression of like
seeing all the struggle that I've had in past life because of
family and having just limited finances are being wrapped up in
a family unit, whether it was like approval from my father or
a husband this lifetime, I was like, I'm not seeking any
approvals. But you know, I think that what
we're seeing right now, maybe like even with like Nellie and
Ashanti, I don't really think that they're soul mates.
I think they're karmic partners, but her being pregnant at 43
with like no intervention is very faded, very, very faded.
And so I feel like I've always been really big on if it's meant
to happen, it will happen, not just with pregnancy, but with
anything. I've really always subscribed to
that mindset. And so I don't know, I think
that they put too much pressure on us at a very young age to
decide. And at 33, I have no plans of
deciding about it. And, you know, they teach us
like, that's your purpose, though.
Like no, you just need workers for the machine.
I know, I know that's that's the freaky thing too, because it I
saw something about how like people are having less children,
but also people are living longer and how there's going to
be this very imbalanced thing like in the workforce.
But yeah, I feel like, I agree. I feel like just having the
choice in this lifetime, honestly, for my entire life, I
always said I do not want to have children.
I do not want to have children. I never like people would say
things that I'd be like, Oh yeah, no, it's absolutely not
happening. I think it's stranger when you
get older and you're like, oh, like at some point I'm actually
going to have to know for sure because it's all fun and games
when you're like 18 and you're like, you know, I'm not having
children. What are you talking like or
whatever? Like I, I just feel like as time
goes on, it gets it, it it gets different when you're like, oh,
wow, I might not actually have children.
That's a weird thing to think about.
That's definitely for for all the lives that I was a woman
wasn't the norm. Like this will be a completely
different experience than in this life.
But you know, I'm open. I agree.
Whatever is meant to be. And it's like we just don't
know. We we don't know.
So many things are changing all the time.
I mean, you know, I, we just can't, we can't know for sure
how we're going to feel. I can't even like, I can't let
alone how I'm going to feel. I can't even let let alone
imagine what the what life is going to be like in like 5
years. Right, That's fair.
Yeah, that's where I'm at with it because it's like, yeah, I
mean, sounds good, but what's really going and honestly, I
think I'm just going to ride out the next four years.
What's so crazy is that the Kentucky governor has like 82%
approval rate to run for 2028 presidency and he's been a great
governor here. Like his is just kindness and
he's very pro. What do I want to say?
He's like, he's very like open, you know what I mean?
He's not, he's like wanting medical marijuana here.
He's open to like resources for the LBGTQ communities.
He's just like very well-rounded and he has a lot of approval
from like all walks of life because he's not one of those
like for profit politicians. He's he's just really not.
So I think that's kind of cool. I personally like just feel like
in this volatile time giving birth in the next 4 years isn't
even in the cards. Like I don't know if I will.
Ever have a kid but the next four years is not in the cards
at all? I just feel like until I see the
state of the world and where we're at, there's just no way.
But, you know, I think that like our childhood was during a
recession and we didn't know there was a recession, you know
what I mean? Like, so I think kids will be
OK. And there will be a certain
amount of kids that are like that robot robotic stuff is gay
or lame or, you know, they'll be saying their little slander
words about it. So I feel like at the end of the
day, like kids are going to be who they're supposed to be.
But I do think that we're really bringing in an element where
creativity and following your passion is like, consider just
fucking out there. Like that's the problem where
like in the past, like selling all your belongings and like
backpacking through Europe was kind of normal.
Now it's like they've really tied people down with stuff.
And like, honestly, storage unit, storage units like are
everywhere. And it's like, there's this rule
that someone told me that like, don't put it in your attic and
don't put it in your storage unit because you're never going
to look at it again. Yeah.
Ever. And I think that they just
really bogged down this next generation with stuff like they
have no authenticity because they just have stuff like those
fucking touch land hand sanitizers.
I'm not paying $10.00 for a spritzy hand sanitizer.
Yeah. But every 3rd grader has those.
Yeah, it's an awesome brand new stuff.
So. I wouldn't even know what those
things are if I didn't follow like some influencers that do
like unboxing stuff. But like when I looked those up
and saw they were like $10, I was like, what is the point?
Yeah, there's a lot of stuff that it's just stuff like just
stuff that you don't. Eat on the Laboo boos.
Let's talk about those. So those popped up, everybody,
by the time this episode comes out, they're all the rave, all
the craze. I think they're possessed.
I think they're like the Pazuzu demon.
They look just like him. Have you seen any comparison or
anything about that on your feed?
No what? What tell me do?
You know what the Labooboo dolls are?
I do, but I can't think of it right now.
OK, so here recently there's a man that created these dolls.
Supposedly they had been out for a while.
I'm going to show you a picture this season.
There's no video. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yes.
Basically he created this system where it's like a blind box
system, so there's only so many that release and they release
them at like all weird hours of the night, but it's basically a
blind box. So people are ordering 3 or 4 at
a time because they don't know what they're going to get.
And you know, everybody wants the one, the blue one, the pink
one, the purple 1, whatever. Well then the trend shifted and
like tattoo artist and people started like tattooing them and
like tattooing the Lil Boo boo's faces and those were kind of
cool. They put like teeth gems and
face tats on them or whatever. So then it's segued into that
artistry side where people are customizing them so it's making
them more expensive. Then you can buy like designer
fucking clothes for them. So people are buying like Gucci
and Louis Jean. Guy, I didn't know all of it.
I didn't know all of this. Yeah, it's gotten deep.
And like the only reason I'm kind of following it is because
a bunch of people that I have, I have on my feet or I'm clients
or whatever are buying these. They are 50 to $75.00 out the
box. That's crazy.
And you don't know what you're getting.
So this girl was posting about them today that she scored five
of them. So they just keep in mind that's
like $300.00. So they were saying that it's
the sign of a recession because Beanie Babies were a sign of the
recession. Squishmallows were a sign of
like the pandemic recession. But they're saying that like the
uprising of La Boo Boo is the sign of a depression.
Because when people, when we're in a recession and we're in the
depression or whatever, we're buying stuff to make us happy.
We're trying to fill a void to make us happy.
So these blind boxes feed on scarcity, limiting hidden
agenda. So the guy that created these is
like a Japanese, he's like in his 30s, but now he's already a
billionaire. He's actually went to their
Forbes list over there and he's top 10 billionaire now because
of these. So basically there's a demon
called Pazuzu, which I'll show you.
And there's a lot of people on TikTok.
So if you like just Googled that on TikTok that have like broke
it down. But I love that we're talking
about it because I love just like getting people's opinions
about weird things. But Pazuzu is a is a demon and
he was associated with droughts, famines, famines and tearing
storms. And have we not been having all
this? But basically, this is a weird
picture of him. But if you look at his face,
it's just like billaboo. Yeah, it looks.
Yeah, it looks like naked looking so long.
Story short, some people are saying it is connected.
I could. See that for sure?
And so they've broke it down. And then there's Tik Toks that
started going viral of like little kids, you know, where you
can just hear fear in a child's voice.
And like this little girl is like freaking out saying that
she wants to like burn her Lil Boo Boo because it's like
talking to her. There was one person that said
there's cut that it changed eye color and then another person
was talking about like it caught on fire.
So, you know, some people make shit up, but Long story short,
it's like Elf on the Shelf was to me and.
We talked about that last time. Was created and it's it's from
the Fay realm, right? We talked about that in your
last episode. So this is like that to me
because OK, Elf on the Shelf did not exist in our childhood, but
now every single person has one or two.
Yeah. This this little Boo Boo thing
did not exist in anyone's reality three months ago.
But yeah. Yeah.
But then I'm hearing like, oh, well, that's been around or, oh,
Bad Bunny had been having those or Rihanna had that.
So basically the guy sent it to a lot of big celebrities, right?
And like how they always do. But that's my favorite thing
about capitalism is you admire the celebrities who are being
told what to do. They're not authentic.
They give them this shit for free Wall.
And then we run after and a $75 key chain doll when y'all can't
afford groceries and eggs. I hear about that every day.
Right. It's like the people that that
that was always so interesting to me, like the celebrities that
get everything for free and then they make you think that you
need whatever the product is, but they're not actually buying
the product. But we are.
So that's crazy that that thing is that expensive, no?
Now, like even the custom ones, like the ones that people are
tattooing and putting the clothes and sewing clothes for
them or whatever, they're putting chains and jewelry on
them. Like it's like a whole thing.
I'm. About to go down a crazy rabbit
hole. You're going to have to because
by the time this episode comes out, you're it's going to be
even bigger than it is right now.
But it's something that like it caught my eye and I was like, I
don't like that. And as soon as I said that, then
the Pazuzu started popping up and then the comparison between
the two started popping up and I'm like, wait, why is a
Mesopotamian demonic entity from Babylon coming out right now?
And then you read about it and it and it droughts, famine and
storms like. Everything that's happening
right now. Like you all are doing the
manifesting for them, like sympathy, this being, and then
you're giving this guy that created it who's working with
probably a dark energy of some sort.
Now he's a billionaire. Perfect.
And now he's in with the but the other billionaires.
I did see that the guy who owns Fortnite bought a bunch like
millions of acres in the rainforest to stop it from being
logged. I don't know if that's true.
I'm hoping that it's true. I.
Hope that is we need like. I've been praying about that.
You know, my friend lives in
Arizona and their state is trying to sell like 10 million
acres of public land. Like they're trying to sell
hiking trails now. Like, I don't know, I get was
going up to office and everyone was like, call your governor and
call, call your Councilman or whatever.
But yeah, they were. It was literally called some
kind of bill that they were proposing to start selling off
public recreational parks and camping to public.
Yeah. You know, we have a really big
Daniel Boone National Forest in Kentucky.
And I went there a couple weekends ago and we were in the
forest and we were driving and there was a sign and it said 50
acres for sale. Develop developers welcome.
No. Middle of the fucking National
Park. But I think that's because, you
know, a lot of national resorts and parks have like a resort or
a hotel or something. They're like, I know in Utah
they do like over like, you know, some of the parks I went
to had like Zion National Park has restaurants in it and has
places to stay. And I think that's what it was.
I think the reason that they're selling it is to bring in
business more. So like they don't want, they're
not going to sell it to someone who's trying to put an apartment
complex in the middle of the park.
They want to sell it to someone like fucking Jimmy Buffett that
wants to put a resort in a hotel in a restaurant.
You know what I mean? To attract tourists.
But yeah, that kind of blew my mind that it said 50 acres for
sale. Developers welcome.
I was like. I'm just right out there in the
open that does not. You know, like, I do think
there's so much shady shit happening, but they said that
like in the next like 10 years, millennials are set to inherit.
Like think it's like $7.2 billion in assets from
grandparents and parents. Really.
It says the millennial generation is set to be like the
richest generation, but the problem with them is like they
don't have any real life skills and they're selling off the
family farm or selling off the rental properties or selling
off. It's like that's how you lose
generational wealth status. Like the reason our parents have
things to leave behind is because they invested their
money in quality shit, not a $75 La Boo Boo doll.
Right. It's the families.
But that's the thing with social media too, and like the extreme
use, it makes you think that you need this thing now because you
see everyone having it and you see it trending and you like
it's in your face all the time. Also, just being on our phones
all the time, that wasn't a thing.
Like I get it. We had, you know, like we had
the different social medias, but leading up to TikTok and how big
it got, we weren't like glued to our phone 24/7.
So I feel like if you're glued to your phone 24/7, you're
seeing these little Boo boos now you're seeing a bunch of
different videos of it, a bunch of different people having them.
It's just in your mind more like, oh, I got to get that.
And then you can log on really quickly.
Buy it, use your car, put the numbers in.
It feels like you're not buying anything even though you are.
It's it's like everything's so quick that I mean, I definitely
like, I can say for sure I've made purchases that I've felt
like I had to make online. And then afterwards I was like,
wait, why? Like I really didn't need that.
And I have some self-control. So if you just like have none or
you're, you're very, very easily affected by things that you see
online or if you're very, very young, it's like, it's like it
really we're just being influenced 24/7 by what we see
online. I know, and that's what's crazy
is because with the Internet and like everything trending and a
lot of people think like they want to go viral, but like you
probably really don't want to go viral because the hate and the
other energies that are going to come to you, the evil eye that
comes to you through that is not always something that your
spirit's ready to process. So a lot of people their their
goal is to go viral and you have so like, how does that influence
you when people finally are seeing your content for the
first time, but they don't like it?
Because you're going. Viral.
I mean, I've gone, I've seriously felt like the lowest
of, of feelings that I've felt in a very long time with that
happening a couple different times.
And yeah, especially when you're sensitive and you can feel that
energy and I get it. It's like, OK, there's a part of
me that understands like energy is just energy.
And whether it's negative or positive, you can transmute that
and you could use that. But it's different when it's
actually happening and you feel it all coming in and it's just,
it's very overwhelming. And I, yeah, I they would, it's
very hard for me, for me to handle like influx of energy
like that. And I think so many people don't
realize what they're asking for when they're like, oh, I just
want to go viral or if everyone on this post gave me a dollar or
whatever. Like, I just don't think people
know what they're asking for because as a spiritual
practitioner and someone who literally was invited onto the
Dumbbond podcast and then was booked solid for like the next
three years with no gaps, no breaks, no nothing, Yes, the
money was great. I was paying off my debt.
I was able to pay off my student loan debt.
I was able to do so many beautiful things and I don't
regret doing or putting all that energy into those people.
But I lost myself in that like not even to the point where like
my magic wasn't potent. It was where I wasn't using my
magic for myself anymore. Like I was only living to serve
and help and breathe and and fix others.
And So what I had to do at the beginning of the year, which is
kind of like what I want to say, kind of redirected the hype
because I felt like, oh, I took a step back and everyone was
like, Oh my gosh, where is she? And then I came back and started
kind of charging accordingly and people were like nowhere to be
found. And then I found out that
Mercury or Spirit or somebody completely disconnected my
payment processor from my website and a girl.
Reached out to me and she said. Have you been getting any
bookings lately? And I was like, I haven't gotten
a booking in like a week. And she was like, I've tried to
book on your website twice and it refunded my money both times
and it never emailed me that there was an issue.
It never emailed me that it was disconnected.
I got onto the platform, it said Square was still connected.
I did update my Square password because I've recently updated
all of my passwords to really hard things.
So I think that maybe that had something to do with it.
But it was like literally even when I'm trying to come back
and, and be in my business spirit is like, no, like you
need to still chill. And so like the month of June, I
didn't have any bookings on my website at all.
And I wasn't sure if it was because it was disconnected or
like what had happened. Like one booking trickled
through in like 30 days, but I have private clients, I have
Patreon, like, you know, whatever wasn't a big deal.
But so many people who rely on their small business for
everything like that would have been soul crushing for them.
But you know, when I was at my peak years ago and it was really
just when I say peak, it was like my overworking face, like
the let me help you face. I realized then that I never
really wanted to like give up my stability and my day job because
it provides insurance and a four O 1K in in short term disability
and shit that a small business isn't given to you unless you're
paying for it out the wazoo. So with that being said, I was
just basically like navigating this imposter syndrome of like
coming back and not reaching the level of like bookings that I
had walked away from. Yes, I'm getting bookings.
They're just more aligned. People are are paying me my
worth and they're more patient where in the past I had to like
evaluate why everything was so urgent.
Like, like why if someone decided to book a reading
yesterday or am I on a call with them the very next day?
Like, you know, like, why is everything so urgent?
Why am I working for these people?
And it took a while to like process that because people
think like, oh, well, they were paying you $100 for a reading
and that's not good enough. No, an hour of my time is is
like fucking 10 light years of energy that I have to bring back
into my body. And then I just gave to you.
And if I do that three or four times a day, because yes, it's
only $100 each, it's draining me.
It's literally beating me into the ground to the point where I
got like the flu really bad and was like really sick this winter
because of it. And so it's just like an
imposter syndrome of like, be careful what you wish for
because you might get it. And when you get it, you will
realize that, yes, they're paying you these beautiful
prices that you just only dreamed and hoped that someone
would pay you or this beautiful contract or this invitation or
whatever it is. And then you get you get it.
And you're like, wait, this is fucking way more than I was
expecting. And that's why I feel like so
many people don't take things like marriage serious anymore.
Like that was a fucking commitment that even when bad
things happened within the marriage, and I'm not condoning
like abuse or anything like that, but I'm saying like
problem solving and coming together was the norm.
Not avoidant attachment or isolation or getting
satisfaction or gratification outside of your marriage all of
a sudden because grandpa didn't have 500 people that he was
following that he could message. Or yeah, or dating websites
apps. Right.
So it's just like, I don't know, I really wish that like quality
goods, consistent action and morals will come back into
style. Like that's all I manifest in
this world is that people start taking pride in their work again
and start taking pride in their appearance and their actions and
their relationships and stop fucking sleeping on your gifts
and then blaming everyone else because your life isn't where
you want it to be, you know? Yeah, yeah.
I think we really have to prioritize creativity again and
not shun it as like, oh, some people, like even just me
putting myself out there as an artist, there's so many people I
know, friends of mine, people I've met, people I've talked to
who they were blessed with a gift or more than one gift, and
they just. And I get it.
I understand the pressure from society where it's like, oh, you
can't, you can't express that you're not, you're not like keep
hold that in like don't let the world see that you'll never make
money off of that. And I feel like just along with
what you said, also just bringing back really
prioritizing creativity, especially with children and but
but maintaining that throughout adulthood because we lose that.
I was just talking to someone, I forget who I was talking to you,
but I was talking about how I always really focused on
maintaining a free spirit and just acceptance that I'm not on
other people's timelines and I make choices that may be are
considered weird or or even irresponsible to the rest of
society. And I feel like I always kind of
still maintain confidence in myself even through the dark
times and even at which there's been more of honestly, then then
then then happy times, like there's been a lot of a lot of
darkness in that journey. But I feel like I still maintain
that confidence. But I, I, I was saying to this
person, I just feel like the last few years, and I think it
is honestly social media use and seeing like so many, so many
people even succeeding when they're so when they're like
17/18/1920 and seeing all these situations where I'm like, man,
I feel like being on my phone and being so tapped into other
people's stories and the constant scroll it, it's taking
away my free spiritedness and, and me and, and really
comparison is, is the thief of all joy.
And I feel like when you're constantly on your phone and
you're seeing other people and how they live and, and you're
like, oh man, like, why, why aren't I there?
Why, why can't I have that? I don't understand what am I
doing wrong? So I think just like also free
free spiritedness, like freedom, I think that like creativity and
freedom both go hand in hand. And I feel like those two
things, it's like without those two things, I just can't be
here. Like I can't continue to be on
this earth plane. Whenever I was starting like my
spiritual boundaries, safety, peace and freedom, we're like,
that's the only three things I care about in this realm, like
safety, peace and freedom. Because if I'm safe, I'm not
worried about the like day-to-day, right?
Like I'm in a safe place. I got a safe car, I've got new
tires, whatever the fuck I need to be safe.
I have it. And that really took me away
from being material conscious. Because as someone who grew up
in poverty, as someone who grew up with uncertainties and
certain things, I have developed a lot of confidence and having
what I need and having what I need for like months, months
out, you know, and like being able to do that.
Like right now, my cats have always, one of them is really
sensitive. So I switched them to rabbit
protein because rabbit is something that cats eat in the
wild. Well, through all this
uncertainty with the global trade, rabbit is harvested in
China because they use the fur for textiles and they send the
meat to America to be made into pet food because that's not a
meat that we eat here unless it's haunted in your own
backyard. So Long story short, I
cognitively, consciously always and very cognizant of having
what I need. So I went ahead whenever I knew
there was like a lot of changes in the global trade, stocked up
of like four months worth of food.
Well, one of their foods got discontinued already and the
other one's out of stock. So I messaged the people who
make it and I'm like, look, I know it's made in America and I
know your resources are coming from China.
Let me know, are you discontinuing it or is it just
out of stock and you're going to bring it back?
Because the other one did say like temporary and now it says
permanent. So I'm like, just prepare.
And the lady straight up was like, you're so on point.
That's exactly what's happening. Our trade deals are, are really
all over the place right now and and the product supplies
uncertain, blah, blah, blah. And then she was like, you can
get it from these other retailers.
It's just sold out where I get it.
So Long story short, like hindsight of being prepared is
not prepping out of fear because I do know if there's a
catastrophic global event, I don't have the will to be doing
all that shit that people do in movies.
I just don't. Riot, I just.
Don't have that will y'all, so you better just clean sweep me
out because I don't I don't got the pill this time.
I've already lived like that. I've already survived jungles
and shit. I don't got the will in this
lifetime. So you know I'm very clear with
tired like what we're going to do and what we're not going to
do so safety, peace and freedom is like non negotiable.
I will live a very peaceful long life.
I will see a lot of things happen in my lifetime, but I'm
not going to be directly affected.
And I know that's not like the, the mindset that I'm trying to
say like, oh, everyone else will suffer and I'll be OK.
But I don't subscribe to this doom and gloom.
Oh, the future is going to be run by robots and your job's
going to be replaced. No, if you're a creative,
authentic and unique, your job ain't going to be replaced.
It's going to be conformative, robotic, everyone does the same
thing, will be replaced. So yes, right now you should be
creative and Start learning a new skill.
Plumbers ain't going to be replaced by AI fucking, you
know, artists, musicians. Yeah, there will be AI generated
content, but that doesn't mean it's going to replace real
artists. Like they can't go perform
stadiums and cry on stage and tell me how much this concert
means to them. Right.
Sorry like they say that shit but yes like replace the basic
jobs like that like the fucking orders.
And honestly like servers are so underpaid having robotic servers
sign them up, sign me up because of end of the day.
Like you all are exploiting that level of worker anyways.
But like I saw something that said, I always dreamed that when
AI took over that it would clean and do laundry and take care of
the house for me so I had more time to write and read and and
make poetry and music. It said I don't want AI to do
the poetry and the music, so then I have to do the cleaning.
Right. No, Oh my gosh.
Exactly. Like, like I think that there is
a bright future with things. But yeah, keep us in in the, in
the creative and, and artistic jobs.
And and yeah, like you said, if you see a robot on stage, it's
not going to hit as hard. Like it's not even I've heard.
I actually haven't I heard AI generated music.
I saw this girl who it's a crazy story, but like there's a an AI
generated artist under her name now on Spotify.
And I listened to one of the songs and I was like, this is
like actually good. But it if you're, if you have
discernment, it's missing something, it's missing that
thing, it's missing that soul. There's the spirit behind it,
so. I feel like, you know, people
have always sold themselves short.
And if you're a creative and you're selling yourself short,
you're going to learn the hard way.
You know, I think doing what we're doing and staying focused
on your own individual journey and progress is so important.
And I do feel like the Internet was created so you can be
distracted by other people's perceived.
Success, but there are literally people who rent yachts, rent
cars, lease shit, go get an Airbnb for a month and make
content in it, and then over the next year post that content and
yeah wow. And they changed outfits 100
times. Like I've learned from a lot of
people that do content, they have a film day, they bring 5
outfits, they go to five locations and they film all day.
And then guess what they do? They ugly cry in their sweats
and eat popcorn the other two months.
Yeah. Until they run out of content or
whatever, you know, like all this shit is fake.
And my favorite thing about the Internet is I love to post about
something after I've already done it.
Like I'm never going to tell you all what I'm doing when I'm
doing it. I'll make it seem like I'm doing
it right now, but you know where you won't know what's up I.
Feel that? I don't know.
There's just so much in the world that I do feel like people
have to realize that intuition and discernment is the most
important thing. So Samantha, thank you so much
for coming on. And our conversations just flow
so effortlessly. I love it.
This is kind of. What this season is about is
less like interviews, more like let's talk some deep topics.
And I want your insight because everyone's perspective is so
unique based on what they do in life, how they show up in the
world. So if you had a message to leave
everyone. With what would it be today?
Oh well, I got to say creativity and freedom.
Do something that makes you feel like you're expressing yourself
creatively no matter what it is, and whatever it takes for you to
feel free, even even if you're in a shitty situation.
But find freedom throughout the day somehow.
Go on a walk, sit in the sun, do whatever you have to do to feel
free and just prioritize those two things.
I love it so much. So all of.
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