1 00:00:10,640 --> 00:00:16,400 Welcome to Fucking Candy Land, hosted by Rampage and Gemini. 2 00:00:27,240 --> 00:00:30,000 We are so excited that you're listening to us. 3 00:00:30,000 --> 00:00:33,720 If you want to elevate the experience and see these 4 00:00:33,720 --> 00:00:38,360 interviews on video, you can join either one of our Patreons. 5 00:00:38,360 --> 00:00:40,840 They are LinkedIn the description wherever you're 6 00:00:40,840 --> 00:00:42,760 listening to this podcast episode. 7 00:00:43,240 --> 00:00:47,000 In addition to getting to watch the full length video 8 00:00:47,000 --> 00:00:52,200 interviews, we also both have tons of additional content and 9 00:00:52,200 --> 00:00:54,080 support for the spiritual community. 10 00:00:54,400 --> 00:00:57,200 So go ahead and check those out and then if you're ever 11 00:00:57,200 --> 00:01:01,360 interested in readings with us or personally connecting with 12 00:01:01,360 --> 00:01:05,600 us, we also have our websites and social medias, LinkedIn the 13 00:01:05,600 --> 00:01:09,160 description as well. Feel free to share this episode 14 00:01:09,160 --> 00:01:13,360 with everybody that you know. Get the look It like a lollipop 15 00:01:13,360 --> 00:01:17,480 name spread around and we hope you love this episode. 16 00:01:21,080 --> 00:01:24,920 What up motherfuckers? Welcome back to Candyland. 17 00:01:24,920 --> 00:01:29,160 We're looking at like lollipops, pages, twirling it, hopping it, 18 00:01:29,160 --> 00:01:31,720 bopping it, putting it down, laying it down, throwing it 19 00:01:31,720 --> 00:01:32,400 back. You. 20 00:01:33,640 --> 00:01:36,840 Know it's crazy right now is I feel like I went through this 21 00:01:36,840 --> 00:01:41,200 like phase where relationships and like sex and just all those 22 00:01:41,200 --> 00:01:44,400 things were just like not important to me. 23 00:01:44,800 --> 00:01:48,600 And the more that I made it not important to me, the more now 24 00:01:48,600 --> 00:01:53,520 that people want to like, throw that thing over my way like too 25 00:01:53,520 --> 00:01:56,120 many. And that's why I like when I did 26 00:01:56,120 --> 00:01:59,640 this little anonymous questionnaire, I wasn't 27 00:01:59,640 --> 00:02:04,720 expecting the response. I haven't gotten anything that 28 00:02:04,720 --> 00:02:08,720 has like necessarily super surprised me, but kind of 'cause 29 00:02:08,720 --> 00:02:13,800 I am shocked what people will say anonymously. 30 00:02:15,640 --> 00:02:18,680 I want to hear what people are saying to you anonymously. 31 00:02:19,000 --> 00:02:26,080 OK, So what should we go with? A surprise for me or because I 32 00:02:26,080 --> 00:02:31,040 have 8 unopened ones? Why don't you start out with the 33 00:02:31,040 --> 00:02:34,080 ones that you've opened, and then we'll get into the ones 34 00:02:34,160 --> 00:02:36,400 that you haven't. You said something about. 35 00:02:36,400 --> 00:02:38,520 You wanted me to rate it on a scale from 1:00 to 10:00. 36 00:02:38,520 --> 00:02:43,200 So what about rating? So I posted the link the other 37 00:02:43,200 --> 00:02:47,000 day one time and I made it for Instagram and Snapchat. 38 00:02:47,000 --> 00:02:50,880 This one is just for Snapchat. So for the last 24 hours, you 39 00:02:50,880 --> 00:02:54,520 all, I've been letting Snapchat, which is the craziest place we 40 00:02:54,520 --> 00:03:00,320 all know, give me as much of their energy on this anonymous 41 00:03:00,320 --> 00:03:02,960 tip line. And so this time around, instead 42 00:03:02,960 --> 00:03:05,720 of asking me a question, I put tell me a secret. 43 00:03:05,720 --> 00:03:08,000 No questions. So not answering questions. 44 00:03:08,000 --> 00:03:11,560 I want to hear your secret. I'm, I'm talking about you in a 45 00:03:11,560 --> 00:03:14,760 way. So someone wrote 12 hours ago 46 00:03:14,760 --> 00:03:18,440 via via secret messenger. I masturbate. 47 00:03:18,560 --> 00:03:22,280 I masturbate to your pictures pretty often. 48 00:03:22,480 --> 00:03:26,560 Your selfies, your feet. You are flawless head to toe. 49 00:03:28,240 --> 00:03:30,920 First of all, why are you not charging for your feet? 50 00:03:31,640 --> 00:03:34,400 I don't know. How does this make you feel? 51 00:03:34,880 --> 00:03:38,040 I don't know where they found that at, but this is just one 52 00:03:38,040 --> 00:03:42,880 person, multiple maybe like 10 confessions have already said I 53 00:03:42,880 --> 00:03:45,480 masturbate to you. Now I'm saying the funniest 54 00:03:45,480 --> 00:03:47,360 things. Like one of my replies was do 55 00:03:47,360 --> 00:03:50,680 you love it or I don't know, I just like them saying all this 56 00:03:50,680 --> 00:03:54,080 crazy stuff back to them. So another one. 57 00:03:55,480 --> 00:03:58,280 Let's get a good one. I want to eat you out and do the 58 00:03:58,280 --> 00:04:02,040 tongue swirls on you while I choke you and I actually like 59 00:04:02,040 --> 00:04:03,280 that. I ain't gonna lie y'all. 60 00:04:03,520 --> 00:04:07,440 So I replied back to that one and said I like that, but 61 00:04:07,480 --> 00:04:09,840 obviously probably not from that person. 62 00:04:10,000 --> 00:04:14,800 Wait, that so so it has to be somebody with long arms because 63 00:04:14,800 --> 00:04:18,560 to be down the because you got to reach up high, so it has to 64 00:04:18,560 --> 00:04:20,480 be somebody with long arms. So you need. 65 00:04:20,560 --> 00:04:23,320 To be over 6 foot. So if you're not over 6 foot, 66 00:04:23,600 --> 00:04:25,400 don't even put that theory out there. 67 00:04:26,480 --> 00:04:30,960 Yeah. So people started saying 68 00:04:30,960 --> 00:04:34,440 different things and I just kept saying like, prove it, prove it. 69 00:04:34,440 --> 00:04:36,120 And people like where do I prove it at? 70 00:04:36,480 --> 00:04:41,280 So this is a this is a good one. I have a wife, but she doesn't 71 00:04:41,280 --> 00:04:43,800 know about my cuckolding fantasy. 72 00:04:44,040 --> 00:04:45,840 Any advice on how to bring it up? 73 00:04:45,960 --> 00:04:48,040 It's just an odd fantasy that I have. 74 00:04:50,960 --> 00:04:55,240 I'm just so confused that so how somebody has like that type of a 75 00:04:55,240 --> 00:04:58,160 fantasy and they don't tell their partner about it. 76 00:04:58,160 --> 00:05:02,880 Like that's like a major thing, like, hey, want to see you get 77 00:05:02,880 --> 00:05:06,160 porked by somebody else's, you know, missile? 78 00:05:06,440 --> 00:05:10,360 You should tell somebody that. You know what's really crazy 79 00:05:10,360 --> 00:05:15,880 about this anonymous thing is this one says I would let you 80 00:05:15,880 --> 00:05:20,280 stomp on my balls for pleasure. You're my dominatrix and I know 81 00:05:20,280 --> 00:05:23,240 you have that friend who's a dominatrix and I'm thinking 82 00:05:23,240 --> 00:05:26,920 about hitting her up no shit and getting some lessons around 83 00:05:26,920 --> 00:05:30,320 here, 'cause I'm vanilla, Y'all like, I'm not a dominatrix, but 84 00:05:30,320 --> 00:05:32,880 I could be mean to men. Like I like being mean to y'all 85 00:05:32,880 --> 00:05:38,040 OK but I'm vanilla when it comes to like putting people on a 86 00:05:38,040 --> 00:05:40,880 leash and and pegging them. The amount of people that said 87 00:05:40,880 --> 00:05:45,880 they want me to peg them is alarming in my eyes cause am I 88 00:05:45,920 --> 00:05:49,080 just giving big Dick energy? Is this what I can't find a 89 00:05:49,080 --> 00:05:50,760 partner? But do you want to do it? 90 00:05:50,760 --> 00:05:53,120 Would you do it? I probably would do it low key, 91 00:05:53,120 --> 00:05:55,280 high key, like. I'm not going to lie. 92 00:05:56,480 --> 00:05:59,640 See, my thing too is like, is that something that you would do 93 00:05:59,640 --> 00:06:01,600 for your pleasure or just their pleasure? 94 00:06:01,840 --> 00:06:03,800 I don't know. We'd have to find out. 95 00:06:03,800 --> 00:06:10,840 I'm into experimentation. I'm more like, I'm just 96 00:06:10,840 --> 00:06:13,120 experimental. Like, I will try something once, 97 00:06:13,120 --> 00:06:14,840 but I may never do it again, right? 98 00:06:14,840 --> 00:06:17,200 Like I'm just even like that with drugs. 99 00:06:17,200 --> 00:06:18,720 Like I have an addictive personality. 100 00:06:18,720 --> 00:06:22,800 So I'll try things one time, like for real, for real. 101 00:06:22,800 --> 00:06:24,480 Like I'll really shock the audience. 102 00:06:24,520 --> 00:06:29,800 I and not even gonna front on y'all like 10 years ago I tried 103 00:06:29,800 --> 00:06:32,360 heroin. I didn't, I didn't like shoot up 104 00:06:32,360 --> 00:06:37,000 the heroin, but I did do heroin. So that's fucked up and that's a 105 00:06:37,000 --> 00:06:41,160 college memory that will take, you know, healing from. 106 00:06:41,800 --> 00:06:44,760 But I literally will try a lot of things. 107 00:06:44,760 --> 00:06:47,160 And you know what's weird about that is a lot of people are 108 00:06:47,160 --> 00:06:49,560 like, Oh my God, you tried heroin once and you're just so 109 00:06:49,560 --> 00:06:53,000 addicted and see it's your life. And I just don't believe that, 110 00:06:53,000 --> 00:06:55,960 because that didn't happen to me. 111 00:06:56,160 --> 00:06:59,120 But, you know, I don't know. I think there are a lot of 112 00:06:59,120 --> 00:07:01,480 people, though, who don't understand having like, 113 00:07:01,480 --> 00:07:06,400 self-control on things and who just have to completely never do 114 00:07:06,400 --> 00:07:09,880 something because they can't trust themselves to just stop 115 00:07:09,920 --> 00:07:12,880 doing it. Yeah, like ultimately a lot of 116 00:07:12,880 --> 00:07:15,920 people have like multiple personalities. 117 00:07:16,200 --> 00:07:18,280 That's all I'm going to say because some of these things 118 00:07:18,280 --> 00:07:21,720 that people have told me are amazing. 119 00:07:21,720 --> 00:07:24,880 It's it's so it's so raw and vulnerable and a lot of people 120 00:07:24,880 --> 00:07:28,080 are like, thank you for being so open, 'cause I don't kink shame, 121 00:07:28,080 --> 00:07:29,360 like just 'cause I'm not into it. 122 00:07:29,600 --> 00:07:33,040 I mean that I don't think you should be into it, just not me. 123 00:07:33,040 --> 00:07:36,840 There's people that I wanna find this one that's really good 124 00:07:36,840 --> 00:07:41,240 about. Here's let me find it. 125 00:07:41,240 --> 00:07:43,800 It's so good. It's it's literally talking 126 00:07:43,800 --> 00:07:48,360 about putting their Dick between my toes and I just can't even 127 00:07:48,600 --> 00:07:50,240 there's been some good ones on here. 128 00:07:51,600 --> 00:07:54,720 Like some good confessions are like, who are you? 129 00:07:54,720 --> 00:07:56,720 Like what do you look like and do I even like you? 130 00:07:56,720 --> 00:07:59,000 Probably not. People like I can set that up 131 00:07:59,000 --> 00:08:00,720 for you. I can set up this fantasy. 132 00:08:00,720 --> 00:08:02,760 I'm like, it's not really my fantasy. 133 00:08:02,760 --> 00:08:04,440 I'm just giving my opinion on it. 134 00:08:04,640 --> 00:08:08,080 Would I try it? Like, I'm not saying like, yes, 135 00:08:08,080 --> 00:08:13,000 cuckolding is all I want to do, but I'm not shaming and I'm not 136 00:08:13,000 --> 00:08:15,600 saying that your wife's might not be into it, you know? 137 00:08:16,200 --> 00:08:20,320 But someone said, can I show you how big my Dick is, 'cause I 138 00:08:20,320 --> 00:08:22,800 want to put it in you and eat that ass bent over. 139 00:08:24,720 --> 00:08:28,440 I mean, get it, But I yeah, yeah, get it. 140 00:08:28,440 --> 00:08:32,480 I want to tie you up, spank you, spit in your mouth, choke you 141 00:08:32,520 --> 00:08:36,200 and look in your eyes while you nut all over this cock. 142 00:08:36,400 --> 00:08:39,080 I want to have full control over you sexually. 143 00:08:40,280 --> 00:08:50,160 OK, you need their number. Someone said that they were a 144 00:08:50,160 --> 00:08:52,920 virgin and they wanted me to take their virginity and I said. 145 00:08:53,560 --> 00:08:57,080 That's the bond you don't need. He said I'll only be a virgin 146 00:08:57,080 --> 00:09:00,120 until I put it in. And a lot of these dudes are 147 00:09:00,120 --> 00:09:02,720 saying they're Gray, but they want to convert for me. 148 00:09:02,720 --> 00:09:05,680 And then other people are saying that they want me to peg them 149 00:09:05,680 --> 00:09:09,320 and it's their first time. Well, my thing is like, would 150 00:09:09,320 --> 00:09:11,160 you really want to be with a virgin though? 151 00:09:11,160 --> 00:09:13,840 Because then you have to literally explain how to do 152 00:09:14,320 --> 00:09:16,920 everything. Like, do you want it to be a 153 00:09:16,920 --> 00:09:19,520 teaching moment? Are you looking to be like 154 00:09:20,000 --> 00:09:21,640 mommy? I'm a mommy. 155 00:09:22,400 --> 00:09:23,960 I'm a teacher. No, I'm kidding. 156 00:09:24,320 --> 00:09:29,120 I don't know. It's funny. 157 00:09:29,280 --> 00:09:32,080 It's really funny what people will say, though anonymously. 158 00:09:32,080 --> 00:09:35,200 It's been very entertaining. And then a lot of people are 159 00:09:35,200 --> 00:09:37,120 like, you should do these every other day. 160 00:09:37,120 --> 00:09:40,160 And I'm like, no fucking way. There's way so much energy that 161 00:09:40,160 --> 00:09:44,360 I have put into this that I'm surprised people aren't annoyed. 162 00:09:44,360 --> 00:09:47,400 But so many people are like, this is helping me heal because 163 00:09:47,400 --> 00:09:50,360 I've been kink shamed and you're not kink shamed and I'm like, 164 00:09:50,360 --> 00:09:54,560 I'm not gonna kink shame. People like you might like that 165 00:09:54,640 --> 00:09:57,320 and I'm not. I don't know. 166 00:09:57,400 --> 00:10:00,720 I mean, it's weird that the only thing I think weird about it is 167 00:10:00,720 --> 00:10:06,520 people that want to try to set it up for me when it's really 168 00:10:06,520 --> 00:10:10,000 their fantasy and they just wanna pull me in or involve me 169 00:10:10,000 --> 00:10:14,160 into their their trade system and I'm like, I'm OK. 170 00:10:15,520 --> 00:10:20,160 Into their trade system. Did you read the ones that you 171 00:10:20,160 --> 00:10:22,960 haven't opened yet? No, no, I didn't. 172 00:10:23,000 --> 00:10:25,160 We have 8 unread bitch. I'm sitting down. 173 00:10:25,160 --> 00:10:27,120 I got my blinky in the water. I'm ready to go, OK? 174 00:10:27,360 --> 00:10:29,600 It opened a few. That virgin one was one of them. 175 00:10:29,600 --> 00:10:32,760 But here's one You are quite literally one of the most 176 00:10:32,760 --> 00:10:36,200 beautiful women I've ever seen, yet I've never seen you out. 177 00:10:36,640 --> 00:10:39,840 Love your energy and hope to one day get to know you somehow. 178 00:10:40,760 --> 00:10:44,080 Oh, that's. Sweet, I'm going to. 179 00:10:45,280 --> 00:10:47,760 Type Oh. You go out. 180 00:10:49,160 --> 00:10:51,080 No, that's right. You. 181 00:10:51,080 --> 00:10:53,480 Go to concerts. I go to concerts. 182 00:10:54,640 --> 00:10:56,680 Though they need to get into the same type of music as you and 183 00:10:56,680 --> 00:11:02,200 then you'll roll through. How do you find a page at a 184 00:11:02,200 --> 00:11:03,880 concert? You know, someone wrote me 185 00:11:03,880 --> 00:11:07,880 through this and they said I saw you on with my friends before 186 00:11:07,880 --> 00:11:10,440 and I thought to myself, I should have went to that Jelly 187 00:11:10,440 --> 00:11:14,920 roll concert and then I didn't. And I I screenshotted it, 188 00:11:14,920 --> 00:11:18,600 actually let me read it so I can get it exactly right, 'cause it 189 00:11:18,600 --> 00:11:23,120 was cute. He said this is great, life's 190 00:11:23,120 --> 00:11:25,360 been really interesting, you all, he said. 191 00:11:25,760 --> 00:11:28,520 I'm not gonna lie, I've totally seen you on some of my friends 192 00:11:28,520 --> 00:11:30,400 stories from like concerts and stuff. 193 00:11:30,400 --> 00:11:34,200 And I'm always like, damn, fuck, I didn't go to that Jelly show. 194 00:11:36,080 --> 00:11:39,000 OK Jelly, just bringing people together. 195 00:11:39,400 --> 00:11:42,000 We love our King Jelly and Jelly roll. 196 00:11:42,320 --> 00:11:46,480 Finished with 5K today and Bunny and Haley and Mimi and everybody 197 00:11:46,480 --> 00:11:50,440 did it with them and I am over the moon for my peeps. 198 00:11:51,080 --> 00:11:53,600 And he lost 50 lbs. And he took a nice bath. 199 00:11:54,120 --> 00:11:58,800 And he's popping his shit. He's the hottest artist out 200 00:11:58,800 --> 00:12:02,920 right now and he's making people like Post Malone reconsider 201 00:12:02,920 --> 00:12:05,040 their whole career and just go ahead and go country. 202 00:12:05,040 --> 00:12:07,760 They're like, you know what face tattoos is in and country. 203 00:12:07,760 --> 00:12:11,040 Now I'm gonna come over there because he's the only one that 204 00:12:11,040 --> 00:12:13,560 looks like me over there. But if I come over there then 205 00:12:13,560 --> 00:12:15,280 I'll be turning heads from over here. 206 00:12:15,280 --> 00:12:17,920 It's it's a good system. It's a look at me system. 207 00:12:17,920 --> 00:12:21,240 And I I fucks with it. He he actually Beyoncé took his 208 00:12:21,240 --> 00:12:23,320 lead. Now we got postie. 209 00:12:23,640 --> 00:12:24,800 Who's next? Who knows? 210 00:12:25,080 --> 00:12:27,880 Like, is it Lil Uzi Vert? Is it Tyga? 211 00:12:27,880 --> 00:12:30,360 We don't know. Like it could be Avril Lavigne 212 00:12:30,400 --> 00:12:31,520 for all we fucking know. Like. 213 00:12:32,800 --> 00:12:39,160 I thought, I am not a fan of the Beyoncé country thing at all. 214 00:12:39,840 --> 00:12:43,080 So by taking his lead, she literally was just like, oh you 215 00:12:43,080 --> 00:12:45,320 know, a genre I've never been interested in. 216 00:12:45,320 --> 00:12:52,360 I've never done anything in country and it's crazy too how 217 00:12:52,360 --> 00:12:55,840 like people's music will go viral for it sounding like trash 218 00:12:56,240 --> 00:13:00,240 because people post videos making fun of it or whatever and 219 00:13:00,240 --> 00:13:04,480 and it still promotes it and it makes it to me like. 220 00:13:05,080 --> 00:13:07,400 So we're going to focus all of our time and energy on that 221 00:13:07,400 --> 00:13:09,240 instead of like actually good music. 222 00:13:09,640 --> 00:13:11,320 And which makes me think of like, I don't know if you've 223 00:13:11,320 --> 00:13:14,520 paid attention. I so, like, I guess there's like 224 00:13:14,520 --> 00:13:17,800 Kendrick and Drake drama. And I only know it because 225 00:13:17,800 --> 00:13:20,680 Kendrick just came out with a disc song and I was like, damn, 226 00:13:20,680 --> 00:13:25,600 that's crazy. And I've never been a fan of 227 00:13:25,600 --> 00:13:27,400 like Drake or anything like that. 228 00:13:27,400 --> 00:13:31,920 And I just feel like there's so many people who are putting out 229 00:13:31,920 --> 00:13:36,760 like, better art, but because people have a big name than 230 00:13:36,760 --> 00:13:41,280 anything that they get put out is like idolized now and like on 231 00:13:41,280 --> 00:13:42,920 a chart. And people know about it. 232 00:13:42,920 --> 00:13:46,320 As opposed to people who are putting in more effort and are 233 00:13:46,320 --> 00:13:49,640 more humble about what they're doing and are actually trying to 234 00:13:49,640 --> 00:13:52,600 create something and not getting the attention that they should 235 00:13:52,600 --> 00:13:54,440 get. You know, there's a lot of 236 00:13:54,440 --> 00:13:56,200 artists like that and that's why I like. 237 00:13:56,200 --> 00:13:58,960 I always rock with like independent artists and seem to 238 00:13:58,960 --> 00:14:03,120 somehow like submerge myself and their independent like following 239 00:14:03,120 --> 00:14:05,720 and click. And I do think there is a lot of 240 00:14:05,720 --> 00:14:08,080 people making better art. There's a lot of people that are 241 00:14:08,080 --> 00:14:09,720 more consistent, I will say that. 242 00:14:09,720 --> 00:14:14,040 But Drake is in this era kind of like Little Wayne was. 243 00:14:14,040 --> 00:14:16,840 And I won't compare them as like far as like Little Wayne really 244 00:14:16,840 --> 00:14:21,440 is an amazing rapper who had fuller potential but was kind of 245 00:14:21,440 --> 00:14:24,880 bogged down by drugs and violence and just felt that that 246 00:14:24,880 --> 00:14:28,800 type of life. And I think that deep down a lot 247 00:14:28,800 --> 00:14:33,360 of people see like fancy stuff and like don't really realize 248 00:14:33,360 --> 00:14:35,440 that. Like that jewelry brand just let 249 00:14:35,440 --> 00:14:37,480 you borrow that you like. You just have that on 250 00:14:37,480 --> 00:14:39,160 consignment, like you're giving it back. 251 00:14:39,160 --> 00:14:41,200 You don't even own it. And they sell you these 252 00:14:41,200 --> 00:14:44,600 lifestyles and things that motivate people to be like 253 00:14:44,600 --> 00:14:47,320 billionaire mindset or, you know, whatever. 254 00:14:47,320 --> 00:14:50,680 Like no one is humble anymore in a sense that everyone thinks 255 00:14:50,680 --> 00:14:53,760 they're better than everyone. And I think a lot of the time 256 00:14:53,840 --> 00:14:58,120 that these rap battles or just Internet dramas or just like, 257 00:14:58,120 --> 00:15:01,960 whatever, is literally like because the Internet needs 258 00:15:01,960 --> 00:15:05,960 something to constantly be focusing on and then within the 259 00:15:05,960 --> 00:15:08,080 peer groups, even when we're not. 260 00:15:08,160 --> 00:15:10,800 Like, I'm not a big fan of either, but I like both of their 261 00:15:10,800 --> 00:15:12,880 music. And when Drake, Drake has a lot 262 00:15:12,880 --> 00:15:16,360 more one hit wonder bangers that are just like so deep in his 263 00:15:16,360 --> 00:15:18,640 catalog that I'll be like, damn, I forgot about this song with 264 00:15:18,640 --> 00:15:20,760 Rihanna, 'cause it's 20 years ago, you know what I mean? 265 00:15:20,760 --> 00:15:24,720 Or 18 years ago or whatever. But at the same time, he doesn't 266 00:15:24,720 --> 00:15:27,240 write his own music. So you can't, in my eyes, be 267 00:15:27,240 --> 00:15:30,520 considered a goat of anything if you aren't writing your own 268 00:15:30,520 --> 00:15:32,640 energy. It would be like if you know all 269 00:15:32,640 --> 00:15:36,000 of Bunny's satire was written by someone else, like there was 270 00:15:36,000 --> 00:15:38,680 just constantly someone else telling her what to say, it 271 00:15:38,680 --> 00:15:41,840 would feel unauthentic and eventually just feel robotic. 272 00:15:42,080 --> 00:15:44,160 And that's how most celebrities get for me. 273 00:15:44,320 --> 00:15:47,000 So I personally fucks with the people that are like doing their 274 00:15:47,000 --> 00:15:50,040 own thing or have like their own will to stand out and be 275 00:15:50,040 --> 00:15:51,960 different. And I think Kendrick has always 276 00:15:51,960 --> 00:15:54,000 done that. He kind of reminds of Russ. 277 00:15:54,000 --> 00:15:55,920 I think him and Russ are like both in the game. 278 00:15:55,920 --> 00:15:59,000 They don't exclusively focus on women or flashy shit. 279 00:15:59,000 --> 00:16:03,360 They just focus on bars, being super flow, being able to drop a 280 00:16:03,360 --> 00:16:06,200 line very quickly off the Dome and look cool while they're 281 00:16:06,200 --> 00:16:08,640 doing it. And you know, like Russ is only 282 00:16:08,640 --> 00:16:10,760 like, I don't know, like 5-6 or something. 283 00:16:10,760 --> 00:16:13,040 And he's given big Dick energy at all times. 284 00:16:13,280 --> 00:16:15,760 And a lot of people can learn from people like Russ and 285 00:16:15,760 --> 00:16:19,960 Kendrick in the situation. Because Drake, I do believe, is 286 00:16:20,200 --> 00:16:22,920 like more of becoming like an industry plant. 287 00:16:22,920 --> 00:16:25,640 Like just doing what he's told, just, you know, stirring up 288 00:16:25,640 --> 00:16:27,360 shit. Like I do think Drake's 289 00:16:27,360 --> 00:16:29,160 bisexual. I think a lot of these dudes are 290 00:16:29,160 --> 00:16:32,200 bisexual, bisexual. Not that I have a problem with 291 00:16:32,200 --> 00:16:35,160 it, but I just think people need to come out as it is and quit 292 00:16:35,240 --> 00:16:38,640 fucking fantasizing about kids. Like the amount of people that 293 00:16:38,640 --> 00:16:41,600 it's coming out that like sexualized or groomed Justin 294 00:16:41,600 --> 00:16:45,120 Bieber is beyond me. Like talking like Katy Perry and 295 00:16:45,120 --> 00:16:48,840 there's so many Paris Hilton and just so many people that groomed 296 00:16:48,840 --> 00:16:51,120 him. And it just really has really 297 00:16:51,120 --> 00:16:52,880 been ruffling feathers for me lately. 298 00:16:52,880 --> 00:16:54,800 Because people are like, why doesn't Justin get ready? 299 00:16:54,800 --> 00:16:57,160 Why doesn't Justin do this? Why has he always got sweatpants 300 00:16:57,160 --> 00:16:58,920 and Crocs on? And his wife looks like I'm 301 00:16:58,920 --> 00:17:02,360 supermodel, you know? Like, I don't know. 302 00:17:02,360 --> 00:17:05,720 I just think people, like, put these celebrities in a blender 303 00:17:05,720 --> 00:17:07,920 until they can't be spun anymore. 304 00:17:08,119 --> 00:17:10,079 And then they're just like dead on the inside. 305 00:17:10,119 --> 00:17:13,960 And they're it's like, you know, I used to love MGK and like his 306 00:17:14,000 --> 00:17:16,440 following and he was so cool, like when I met him ten years 307 00:17:16,440 --> 00:17:19,440 ago and hung out with him. He was such a genuine person who 308 00:17:19,440 --> 00:17:21,520 cared about the fans and things like that. 309 00:17:21,520 --> 00:17:22,760 And that's how he built his following. 310 00:17:22,760 --> 00:17:25,640 Same thing with Jelly. And I love Jelly so much because 311 00:17:25,640 --> 00:17:28,560 Jelly's got it to the point, really, because of Bunny's 312 00:17:28,560 --> 00:17:31,720 partnership, that he doesn't need any deal that requires him 313 00:17:31,720 --> 00:17:35,160 to sell anything of himself or, you know, so do anything that he 314 00:17:35,160 --> 00:17:36,920 doesn't want to do and she doesn't either. 315 00:17:36,920 --> 00:17:39,720 And I fucking love that for them because a lot of celebrities 316 00:17:39,720 --> 00:17:41,480 don't have that choice. A lot of celebrities don't 317 00:17:41,480 --> 00:17:43,960 become celebrities unless they follow suit. 318 00:17:44,200 --> 00:17:46,520 And Drake's one of those people. That's my opinion on it. 319 00:17:47,120 --> 00:17:52,240 A long, long version. I think that Hollywood too, just 320 00:17:52,240 --> 00:17:57,400 in general, like it's a lot of people who have sexual traumas 321 00:17:57,400 --> 00:18:01,320 and experience things there and who know. 322 00:18:01,320 --> 00:18:04,760 OK, well, the people around me have also had this happen or 323 00:18:04,760 --> 00:18:06,600 they know and nobody's helping me. 324 00:18:06,880 --> 00:18:11,160 Justin Bieber specifically, like, you know, if he was 325 00:18:11,200 --> 00:18:15,880 assaulted by Diddy and things like that growing up then and 326 00:18:15,880 --> 00:18:19,960 and these other people, other people around know and they're 327 00:18:19,960 --> 00:18:23,640 all shaking hands and whatever. So it really feels like not only 328 00:18:23,640 --> 00:18:26,600 do I have to play the game and stay on this hamster wheel, but 329 00:18:26,600 --> 00:18:28,240 it's happening to everybody else. 330 00:18:28,240 --> 00:18:32,360 And so like if I say something then nobody's going to have my 331 00:18:32,360 --> 00:18:35,960 back because all of these people have like big influencer going 332 00:18:36,000 --> 00:18:38,880 to, you know, like not come out or whatever. 333 00:18:39,280 --> 00:18:43,040 And I think that's a really sad place to be in when you fear the 334 00:18:43,040 --> 00:18:46,400 power that somebody else has and you fear that if you get 335 00:18:46,400 --> 00:18:50,240 yourself help or you speak up about something and then you 336 00:18:50,240 --> 00:18:53,040 really won't be taken seriously because this person has more 337 00:18:53,040 --> 00:18:55,640 money or this person has more people to speak up for them or 338 00:18:55,640 --> 00:18:59,000 whatever. And to add to that, like a lot 339 00:18:59,000 --> 00:19:02,080 of people are under contract, they sign non disclosure 340 00:19:02,080 --> 00:19:04,120 agreements. I mean, it's very well known 341 00:19:04,120 --> 00:19:07,560 that, like, people like Beyoncé and Jay-Z and people like that 342 00:19:08,080 --> 00:19:11,760 like to hang out with them or party with them in a way where 343 00:19:11,760 --> 00:19:14,440 they're going to feel comfortable to be their weird 344 00:19:14,440 --> 00:19:18,520 Satanic selves. You gotta sign an NDA, baby like 345 00:19:18,520 --> 00:19:20,200 you. That's the thing about this. 346 00:19:20,200 --> 00:19:23,480 And what I also wanted to add to what you were saying is that 347 00:19:23,480 --> 00:19:27,200 term whistleblower is like in our consciousness just the last 348 00:19:27,200 --> 00:19:28,840 year. And that's another way that the 349 00:19:28,840 --> 00:19:32,160 government gaslights people within the government or other 350 00:19:32,160 --> 00:19:35,320 organizations from telling the truth because then you get 351 00:19:35,320 --> 00:19:39,080 blackballed and then normally commit suicide, you know what I 352 00:19:39,080 --> 00:19:41,760 mean? Like, it's such a weird system 353 00:19:41,760 --> 00:19:44,720 that if you don't play the game, they just get rid of you. 354 00:19:44,960 --> 00:19:48,360 And that's what I think that keeps humans trapped here on 355 00:19:48,360 --> 00:19:51,120 earth for some reason, 'cause I just feel like it doesn't matter 356 00:19:51,120 --> 00:19:53,280 if you were Jesus or if you were Martin Luther King. 357 00:19:53,280 --> 00:19:55,440 We've talked about it before. There's been a lot of people who 358 00:19:55,440 --> 00:19:58,840 are really had a substantial amount of power and 359 00:19:59,200 --> 00:20:01,280 proseverance. And I know a lot of people are 360 00:20:01,280 --> 00:20:04,320 cycling that video of Aaron Carter speaking on Michael 361 00:20:04,320 --> 00:20:07,120 Jackson where his mom tried to set him up to say that Michael 362 00:20:07,120 --> 00:20:09,000 touched him from whatever reason. 363 00:20:09,200 --> 00:20:11,080 And I think that. You know, I don't think Michael 364 00:20:11,080 --> 00:20:13,080 touched kids. I think he was touched as a kid, 365 00:20:13,080 --> 00:20:16,160 and I don't think he touched kids because I think that he 366 00:20:16,440 --> 00:20:20,480 built his life differently. That's just what I believe. 367 00:20:20,480 --> 00:20:23,160 I think they, I think they did the whistleblower effect on 368 00:20:23,160 --> 00:20:26,040 Michael Jackson, like because when people have huge followings 369 00:20:26,240 --> 00:20:28,480 or huge influence, you are a threat. 370 00:20:28,720 --> 00:20:30,640 You're just a threat. So when you're not playing the 371 00:20:30,640 --> 00:20:33,800 game, in my opinion, that's why I just can't subscribe to a lot 372 00:20:33,800 --> 00:20:35,440 of celebrities. Like, I just unfollow them. 373 00:20:35,440 --> 00:20:37,400 I block them. I just, I don't want to see 374 00:20:37,400 --> 00:20:39,040 their ads. I don't want to see their 375 00:20:39,040 --> 00:20:42,000 content like that's another reason I've gotten off TikTok. 376 00:20:42,000 --> 00:20:45,040 I just can't with people like they're doing too much 377 00:20:45,080 --> 00:20:48,200 sometimes. I had to take a really big break 378 00:20:48,200 --> 00:20:51,840 from I'm just now getting back into posting on my TikTok and 379 00:20:51,840 --> 00:20:56,160 stuff like that like regularly because I had to take a huge 380 00:20:56,160 --> 00:20:58,160 break. Like, it really affects your 381 00:20:58,160 --> 00:21:03,440 mental health to be seeing, like even just seeing people sharing 382 00:21:03,440 --> 00:21:07,200 their lives. Sometimes it just like, I find 383 00:21:07,200 --> 00:21:11,800 it to be exhausting. And then also in addition to 384 00:21:11,800 --> 00:21:15,720 that, like actually being a content creator and whatnot. 385 00:21:15,720 --> 00:21:18,600 Like, I got to the point where I wouldn't just scroll because I 386 00:21:18,600 --> 00:21:20,880 was just like scrolling. I was scrolling because I was 387 00:21:20,880 --> 00:21:23,240 working. So even you know, I'm looking 388 00:21:23,240 --> 00:21:25,800 for sounds, I'm looking for ideas, things like that. 389 00:21:25,800 --> 00:21:30,200 And it was taking so much focus away from like focusing on doing 390 00:21:30,200 --> 00:21:33,720 readings and all these other things that I wanted to redo in 391 00:21:33,720 --> 00:21:36,000 the podcast room. Just like things that would be 392 00:21:36,280 --> 00:21:43,160 such a better use of time. And now like, I feel like the 393 00:21:43,160 --> 00:21:47,360 timing of doing that was so important because the same time 394 00:21:47,360 --> 00:21:50,560 that I sat down my phone and stopped focusing on like those 395 00:21:50,560 --> 00:21:53,400 things and was like, OK, I'm going to cultivate like my home 396 00:21:53,400 --> 00:21:56,200 life is when, like, my daughter just moved in. 397 00:21:56,200 --> 00:21:59,640 And so we're having that transition and everything. 398 00:21:59,960 --> 00:22:03,520 And like, there's so many healings coming through with 399 00:22:03,520 --> 00:22:07,760 that, but I feel like if I had been energetically overwhelmed, 400 00:22:07,800 --> 00:22:11,440 I wouldn't have been prepared and I wouldn't be as go with the 401 00:22:11,440 --> 00:22:13,880 flow on so many changes as I am now. 402 00:22:14,880 --> 00:22:18,800 Yeah, and also feel like you've really grounded your energy from 403 00:22:18,800 --> 00:22:22,120 like trying to start all kinds of things all the time or always 404 00:22:22,120 --> 00:22:24,800 being like trying to. You're like a generator with 405 00:22:24,800 --> 00:22:26,560 your ideas, and that's not a bad thing. 406 00:22:26,560 --> 00:22:28,120 But I don't. I think you don't understand 407 00:22:28,120 --> 00:22:31,960 boundaries of like, save it for another day, like, save it for 408 00:22:31,960 --> 00:22:33,640 six months from now. Like it does just 'cause you 409 00:22:33,640 --> 00:22:36,480 have this idea and you've cultivated this, build it while 410 00:22:36,480 --> 00:22:39,040 you have the energy, but it doesn't mean you launch it right 411 00:22:39,040 --> 00:22:41,880 now, doesn't mean you launch it prematurely or you do something 412 00:22:41,880 --> 00:22:44,080 prematurely. I think you have so many good 413 00:22:44,080 --> 00:22:47,880 ideas that you're like, if I don't get these out there now, I 414 00:22:47,880 --> 00:22:50,200 won't get them out there. And I just don't think that's 415 00:22:50,200 --> 00:22:51,760 true about you. From what I've learned about you 416 00:22:51,760 --> 00:22:54,600 over the last couple years, I think that you just got to know 417 00:22:54,600 --> 00:22:59,400 when the time and the place truly is to expand or to really 418 00:22:59,400 --> 00:23:02,920 open up to something that adds all this extra, you know, 419 00:23:02,920 --> 00:23:04,880 concern. Because I feel like for a while 420 00:23:05,200 --> 00:23:07,760 you were just doing everything, like you were going to start a 421 00:23:07,760 --> 00:23:10,520 third podcast several times. It's like several times you've 422 00:23:10,520 --> 00:23:14,720 had the Grand Slam idea to start another podcast. 423 00:23:14,960 --> 00:23:17,400 And then you also are always like doing these classes. 424 00:23:17,400 --> 00:23:19,960 And I know people really like, but I think sometimes you need 425 00:23:19,960 --> 00:23:24,960 to like let people like integrate a little bit before 426 00:23:24,960 --> 00:23:27,680 like kind of anticipate, I guess will be a better word anticipate 427 00:23:27,680 --> 00:23:30,840 your next class rather than just like baby, we're on Season 3 428 00:23:30,840 --> 00:23:33,400 next Tuesday. We know we're just scrapping up, 429 00:23:33,400 --> 00:23:36,160 you know, like now. But next Tuesday we start again, 430 00:23:36,160 --> 00:23:38,280 like you just don't give yourself enough breaks. 431 00:23:38,280 --> 00:23:40,160 And I think that's important for you this year. 432 00:23:40,160 --> 00:23:44,000 It's like to really set in the moment and just be like happy 433 00:23:44,000 --> 00:23:46,840 that like you've built your TikTok up to like fucking almost 434 00:23:46,840 --> 00:23:50,000 70,000 or whatever followers like you're doing it. 435 00:23:50,000 --> 00:23:53,600 Like, I'm, I totally took my foot off Tiktok and other 436 00:23:53,600 --> 00:23:57,640 platforms too where I just don't care as much anymore. 437 00:23:57,720 --> 00:23:59,960 You know what I mean? Like, I just, I'm just big 438 00:23:59,960 --> 00:24:02,640 chilling. I don't care about, like, Oh my 439 00:24:02,640 --> 00:24:05,280 God, you can't go viral if you're not posting. 440 00:24:05,280 --> 00:24:06,960 I just don't even care, you know? 441 00:24:06,960 --> 00:24:09,760 I'm just like in a different zone where I used to be. 442 00:24:10,720 --> 00:24:16,280 I don't Even so much. I I don't Even so much care 443 00:24:16,280 --> 00:24:21,600 about, like I'm posting this content because I want to have, 444 00:24:21,600 --> 00:24:24,040 you know, this many followers. So I want to do this. 445 00:24:24,080 --> 00:24:29,000 It's more of like, I think it's really fun to create that way 446 00:24:29,000 --> 00:24:31,160 and like express yourself that way. 447 00:24:31,520 --> 00:24:35,960 And I lost wanting to do that. And I think that a big part of 448 00:24:36,000 --> 00:24:38,960 that is like I was really overloading myself and I've 449 00:24:38,960 --> 00:24:42,760 talked about it before. Like I I was literally shocked 450 00:24:42,760 --> 00:24:46,920 when I started my business and people were interested. 451 00:24:47,120 --> 00:24:50,120 Like when I dropped Patreon and then all of a sudden people 452 00:24:50,120 --> 00:24:51,800 wanted to come over and do Patreon. 453 00:24:51,800 --> 00:24:55,040 I was literally shocked. I'm always surprised when like 454 00:24:55,040 --> 00:24:58,280 I'm working on something and I drop it and then people are 455 00:24:58,280 --> 00:25:02,240 super interested in it like. And so I feel like for a little 456 00:25:02,240 --> 00:25:09,560 bit I was almost weighing my value and are people interested 457 00:25:09,560 --> 00:25:14,280 in these things that I find interesting And it stopped it. 458 00:25:14,360 --> 00:25:17,760 It stopped feeling like I was doing things for me and it 459 00:25:17,760 --> 00:25:22,320 started feeling like, OK, well now I have overachieved in all 460 00:25:22,320 --> 00:25:26,120 of these ways and I've given these things so I need to keep 461 00:25:26,120 --> 00:25:30,240 on giving so that you're not getting bored or I'm not getting 462 00:25:30,240 --> 00:25:34,480 bored and like it doesn't feel like complacent And I kept 463 00:25:34,480 --> 00:25:38,400 feeling like I wasn't doing enough no matter how much I was 464 00:25:38,400 --> 00:25:40,800 doing. I just felt like I wasn't doing 465 00:25:40,800 --> 00:25:43,960 enough. And realistically it's because I 466 00:25:43,960 --> 00:25:48,160 was looking for those things to make me feel super happy and 467 00:25:48,160 --> 00:25:50,880 make me feel like I was accomplished and I was fulfilled 468 00:25:50,880 --> 00:25:55,960 and I was successful. And that kind of that pattern 469 00:25:55,960 --> 00:25:59,000 kind of started breaking and I got a new thought process when I 470 00:25:59,000 --> 00:26:04,560 went from doing my business full time to then going back into 471 00:26:04,560 --> 00:26:08,560 working in an office and doing my stuff on the side because it 472 00:26:08,560 --> 00:26:13,160 stopped being about doing it to make an income and more about, 473 00:26:13,160 --> 00:26:14,960 OK, well I'm going to do what excites me. 474 00:26:14,960 --> 00:26:19,600 And then I had to find that balance of spacing things out. 475 00:26:19,600 --> 00:26:24,400 So like we finished the round one of Witchcraft class and then 476 00:26:24,400 --> 00:26:27,880 we have Class 2 and we decided that instead of just starting 477 00:26:27,880 --> 00:26:35,160 that we're waiting and letting time go by, you know? 478 00:26:36,160 --> 00:26:38,840 Yes, I'm proud of you. Sometimes you got to take that 479 00:26:38,840 --> 00:26:41,480 step back and just be like, you know what, I'm not going to 480 00:26:41,480 --> 00:26:44,640 evaluate myself worth based on what the fuck I'm getting done. 481 00:26:44,840 --> 00:26:48,320 Because at the end of the day, if you're trying to turn the 482 00:26:48,320 --> 00:26:52,000 hamster wheel to make you happy, no one out there is ever happy 483 00:26:52,000 --> 00:26:54,840 because of it. I mean, and the best and most 484 00:26:55,320 --> 00:26:58,960 important person that does this the most is Elon Musk. 485 00:26:58,960 --> 00:27:02,080 He's the most miserable person in the fucking world. 486 00:27:02,080 --> 00:27:04,400 He's rude, he's bitter, He's not cute. 487 00:27:04,400 --> 00:27:06,560 He looks like, you know, like whatever. 488 00:27:06,560 --> 00:27:09,160 It just shows you that, like, even with all the money in the 489 00:27:09,160 --> 00:27:11,800 world, you're not going to be happy or it's not going to make 490 00:27:11,800 --> 00:27:15,200 you all of a sudden a generous, nice, giving person. 491 00:27:15,360 --> 00:27:18,240 If you're not a generous, nice, giving person when you're broke, 492 00:27:18,480 --> 00:27:21,800 being rich or having things is only going to make you feel 493 00:27:21,960 --> 00:27:25,760 superior or, you know, arrogant or egotistical. 494 00:27:25,760 --> 00:27:29,560 And what really gets me about society is that we put so much 495 00:27:29,560 --> 00:27:32,280 weight on things, things that truly do not fucking matter. 496 00:27:32,440 --> 00:27:36,400 And people cannot comprehend how to build real connection with 497 00:27:36,400 --> 00:27:39,280 people. Like, you know, so many people 498 00:27:39,280 --> 00:27:42,680 only know how to have a physical or an emotional connection with 499 00:27:42,680 --> 00:27:44,520 someone. They don't know how to have an 500 00:27:44,520 --> 00:27:48,720 elevated bond where you are truly supporting someone but 501 00:27:48,720 --> 00:27:51,120 you're not enabling them. Like if they come to you and 502 00:27:51,120 --> 00:27:53,840 you're like, I'm going to go marry this guy I just met on 503 00:27:53,840 --> 00:27:57,360 Tinder 3 weeks ago and he doesn't have anywhere to live 504 00:27:57,360 --> 00:28:00,000 and we're going to move to Utah. I'm going to be like hell. 505 00:28:00,000 --> 00:28:01,840 The fuck no. You should not do that. 506 00:28:02,080 --> 00:28:04,960 And if you choose to do that, I'll talk to you in eight months 507 00:28:04,960 --> 00:28:08,160 when he runs off with your bank account and your identity. 508 00:28:08,280 --> 00:28:12,160 Because he's a fucking psycho. You know, like you, at the end 509 00:28:12,160 --> 00:28:14,200 of the day, you need to surround yourself with people who are 510 00:28:14,200 --> 00:28:18,360 inspiring you, encouraging you, supporting you, and truly giving 511 00:28:18,360 --> 00:28:22,160 you space to be yourself, but not enabling you to stay the 512 00:28:22,160 --> 00:28:26,200 same and complacent and make the same bad ass decisions that 513 00:28:26,200 --> 00:28:27,880 you've been making since you were 19. 514 00:28:28,360 --> 00:28:30,400 And I think that's where a lot of people are trying to come 515 00:28:30,400 --> 00:28:33,200 back around into my life. Like people that I used to be 516 00:28:33,200 --> 00:28:36,680 around when I was younger, like high school, college, and like 517 00:28:36,680 --> 00:28:40,400 early 20s people are cycling back in like hey girl, how you 518 00:28:40,400 --> 00:28:41,680 been? Blah, blah, blah. 519 00:28:41,880 --> 00:28:44,400 And some people like, I was really close with them at one 520 00:28:44,400 --> 00:28:45,600 time. So of course I'm going to be 521 00:28:45,600 --> 00:28:49,080 like, hey, you know, whatever. And it's always the same thing. 522 00:28:49,080 --> 00:28:52,840 Like they see me elevating and doing my thing and they're like, 523 00:28:53,120 --> 00:28:56,840 sorry, I don't have as much clout as you or you're too cool 524 00:28:56,840 --> 00:28:59,240 for me. Now your fans, you know, I know 525 00:28:59,240 --> 00:29:02,960 you got all these fans now or just dumb ass shit and it's just 526 00:29:02,960 --> 00:29:06,720 them trying to gaslight me because they are a nobody. 527 00:29:06,720 --> 00:29:08,720 They haven't done anything different in their life. 528 00:29:08,920 --> 00:29:11,760 They work at Ford or a factory or somewhere. 529 00:29:11,960 --> 00:29:13,680 And I'm not. I love people that work out for 530 00:29:13,680 --> 00:29:14,960 it. I'm not saying that's a bad job, 531 00:29:14,960 --> 00:29:17,400 that's a career. But they started, you know, 10 532 00:29:17,400 --> 00:29:20,480 years ago and now here they are and all they do is get up and do 533 00:29:20,480 --> 00:29:24,480 the same thing every single day. And obviously they're not super 534 00:29:24,480 --> 00:29:27,800 happy with themselves, right? Like and a lot of people will 535 00:29:28,000 --> 00:29:31,920 gaslight you to be like, oh, you got all these fans and followers 536 00:29:31,920 --> 00:29:33,960 and you post too much or whatever. 537 00:29:34,320 --> 00:29:37,080 And at the end of the day, like, they only wish that they had 538 00:29:37,080 --> 00:29:39,640 gotten out of their comfort zone or that they had people, 539 00:29:39,880 --> 00:29:41,800 strangers on the Internet, even supporting them. 540 00:29:42,040 --> 00:29:45,400 And that's what I love about the person I've became is like 541 00:29:45,640 --> 00:29:48,440 leaving behind that fear of being perceived. 542 00:29:48,440 --> 00:29:51,680 Like, like you said earlier, am I doing enough or people 543 00:29:51,680 --> 00:29:54,320 thinking they're getting their money worth or whatever I've 544 00:29:54,320 --> 00:29:57,280 changed all those mindsets from worrying about and are they 545 00:29:57,280 --> 00:30:00,560 getting their worth? And am I receiving my worth? 546 00:30:00,600 --> 00:30:02,760 Am I holding the standard to my worth? 547 00:30:02,760 --> 00:30:05,600 Because a lot of people offer me things, but it doesn't mean that 548 00:30:05,600 --> 00:30:08,680 it's a good offer. You know, like the seven cups 549 00:30:08,680 --> 00:30:12,640 energy always gives me that vibe because in that tarot card, you 550 00:30:12,640 --> 00:30:15,800 know there's a snake in one of the cups and there's like a head 551 00:30:15,800 --> 00:30:18,800 in one of the cups and things. So you just never know like what 552 00:30:18,800 --> 00:30:21,680 people's intentions are. But a lot of people are unhappy 553 00:30:21,680 --> 00:30:24,880 with themselves, so they come cycle back around and try to 554 00:30:24,880 --> 00:30:28,280 like see if they still have access to you or see how they 555 00:30:28,280 --> 00:30:30,840 can kind of try to bring you back midway down because they 556 00:30:30,840 --> 00:30:34,360 see you up here floating on a cloud doing your thing and they 557 00:30:34,360 --> 00:30:37,400 don't like that. And I and I love being able to 558 00:30:37,400 --> 00:30:40,080 just grow from that. You know, like, fuck it. 559 00:30:42,080 --> 00:30:47,480 There are, there are people who also idolize because they only 560 00:30:47,480 --> 00:30:50,200 see what they see on social media and that's all they know 561 00:30:50,200 --> 00:30:52,920 about you. And so then they idolize these 562 00:30:52,920 --> 00:30:55,800 things about you without realizing that, like, you have a 563 00:30:55,800 --> 00:30:59,800 whole life outside of that and all these other, like, complex 564 00:30:59,800 --> 00:31:06,360 pieces of you and people who are like, you know, who do that on a 565 00:31:06,360 --> 00:31:09,160 large scale. I imagine that that has to be 566 00:31:09,160 --> 00:31:13,080 so, like, frustrating and infuriating too to like, you 567 00:31:13,080 --> 00:31:17,440 know, like reality TV people, to me, I'm always like they they 568 00:31:17,640 --> 00:31:21,600 only get to share these, like, very dramatic moments of life. 569 00:31:21,880 --> 00:31:25,920 And so they get judged off these very dramatic moments of life, 570 00:31:25,920 --> 00:31:30,920 but not all the filler details that explain why they're in that 571 00:31:30,920 --> 00:31:33,880 mood that day or why they would feel triggered and why they 572 00:31:33,880 --> 00:31:36,520 would react that way. Or you know what I mean? 573 00:31:36,520 --> 00:31:39,160 Like there, there's no behind the scenes details. 574 00:31:39,160 --> 00:31:44,200 It's only these few things. And that is just the perception 575 00:31:44,200 --> 00:31:47,880 that you get. And so many people like, I feel 576 00:31:47,880 --> 00:31:54,280 like base their life off of what they see in like reality shows 577 00:31:54,280 --> 00:31:58,560 and just in shows in general. And so many people that I 578 00:31:58,560 --> 00:32:03,080 personally know conduct their life like it's a soap opera and 579 00:32:03,080 --> 00:32:06,120 that like they don't need to take anything seriously and it 580 00:32:06,120 --> 00:32:08,720 can just be like fly by the seat of your pants. 581 00:32:08,720 --> 00:32:14,120 And there is like some, there are some people who have like 582 00:32:14,120 --> 00:32:16,520 gypsy souls and who are going to do that anyways. 583 00:32:16,520 --> 00:32:20,200 But there are also people who just cannot be grounded in 584 00:32:20,240 --> 00:32:23,400 reality. Yes, I agree. 585 00:32:23,400 --> 00:32:29,240 I do think that social media has given people like a front row 586 00:32:29,240 --> 00:32:33,000 seat to strangers lives and how like people live. 587 00:32:33,000 --> 00:32:38,080 And I do think that when we actually connected in person and 588 00:32:38,080 --> 00:32:41,720 we're forced to like in the lunchroom at school or the break 589 00:32:41,720 --> 00:32:46,240 room at work or like at the car wash or whatever, that society 590 00:32:46,240 --> 00:32:49,040 was just better. And I'm just going to be honest, 591 00:32:49,040 --> 00:32:52,000 it's always the boldest people that say things to me in person. 592 00:32:52,000 --> 00:32:55,320 It's never people that I'm truly, like, attracted to, 593 00:32:55,400 --> 00:32:57,200 right? Like, I will literally make eye 594 00:32:57,200 --> 00:32:59,960 contact with a guy I think's hot, like 14 times at the gym 595 00:33:00,160 --> 00:33:01,560 and they will not say a fucking word. 596 00:33:02,120 --> 00:33:05,160 And normally if I if like, I want to talk to them or there is 597 00:33:05,160 --> 00:33:07,640 something to say, I'll say something to them. 598 00:33:07,640 --> 00:33:11,000 And I think that's another thing that intimidates guys about me 599 00:33:11,000 --> 00:33:14,280 is because like if if I see you seeing me, I'm going to say 600 00:33:14,280 --> 00:33:17,040 something to you, I'm not just going to let you leave and then 601 00:33:17,160 --> 00:33:19,280 be seeing you and seeing you another time, right? 602 00:33:19,440 --> 00:33:20,920 I'm going to say like, hey, what's up? 603 00:33:20,920 --> 00:33:23,640 Or hope you're like how you like, you know, I'm going to 604 00:33:23,640 --> 00:33:26,720 acknowledge you in some way. So, you know, I know you're 605 00:33:26,720 --> 00:33:30,160 looking at me right now, like, I see you seeing me and I made eye 606 00:33:30,160 --> 00:33:33,400 contact with you more than like four or five times, right? 607 00:33:33,400 --> 00:33:36,480 Like, I will make sure that that person, even if I'm not, like, 608 00:33:36,480 --> 00:33:38,760 attracted to them, like I'll still be like, you know, what's 609 00:33:38,760 --> 00:33:42,200 up or whatever. But a lot of people are so 610 00:33:42,200 --> 00:33:46,080 insecure and on social media they live this lifestyle that 611 00:33:46,080 --> 00:33:49,200 makes them think that like they're doing whatever they're 612 00:33:49,200 --> 00:33:51,200 doing. And I just feel like a lot of 613 00:33:51,200 --> 00:33:54,960 people need to go to their Community College and their city 614 00:33:54,960 --> 00:33:57,920 and take some public speaking classes, take some fucking 615 00:33:57,920 --> 00:34:02,480 writing classes, some real like learning curves for you. 616 00:34:02,480 --> 00:34:05,080 Go challenge yourself. You don't got to get a degree. 617 00:34:05,080 --> 00:34:07,920 Just take some fucking night classes, online classes, and 618 00:34:07,920 --> 00:34:09,560 learn how to get out of your comfort zone. 619 00:34:09,600 --> 00:34:13,639 Because not being able to interpret body language and 620 00:34:13,639 --> 00:34:17,719 social cues and things like that is the problem in society. 621 00:34:17,840 --> 00:34:21,960 Because that's like a lot of people who are like autistic and 622 00:34:21,960 --> 00:34:25,600 things or different things that have evolved. 623 00:34:25,679 --> 00:34:28,520 I feel like a lot of that is because of the Internet and only 624 00:34:28,520 --> 00:34:34,400 having digital stimulation rather than true communication, 625 00:34:34,719 --> 00:34:38,440 Human concept, you know, like talking to someone face to face, 626 00:34:38,440 --> 00:34:41,600 reading their energy, reading their body language, It's like a 627 00:34:41,600 --> 00:34:45,840 lost art. And that's the one thing about 628 00:34:45,840 --> 00:34:49,760 me, because I consider myself to be like, demisexual, meaning 629 00:34:49,760 --> 00:34:53,159 like, I have to have an emotional attraction and bond 630 00:34:53,159 --> 00:34:55,159 with you. Like, you could be funny, you 631 00:34:55,159 --> 00:34:59,400 could be smart, you could be attractive in some other, like, 632 00:34:59,400 --> 00:35:02,440 way besides physically. Or I can't even rock with you. 633 00:35:02,760 --> 00:35:06,000 Like, I could be just a sexually attracted to someone and not 634 00:35:06,000 --> 00:35:08,080 want to have sex with them. So you know what I mean? 635 00:35:08,080 --> 00:35:10,280 Like can be like, oh, they're hot, but, like, I don't like 636 00:35:10,280 --> 00:35:11,920 them like that. So yeah, I get what you mean. 637 00:35:12,480 --> 00:35:15,040 People like assume. That I have this huge roster 638 00:35:15,040 --> 00:35:18,160 that I'm just like, at least, you know, hitting some people on 639 00:35:18,160 --> 00:35:20,160 the side and I'm just like gross. 640 00:35:20,160 --> 00:35:23,600 Like if I could find even just one or two people I actually 641 00:35:23,600 --> 00:35:27,360 liked, that would be a miracle. If I could find one Miracle 2 642 00:35:27,400 --> 00:35:31,560 anomaly, that'd be an anomaly. So it's just weird, like. 643 00:35:31,560 --> 00:35:34,400 And that's why I have to just be careful about who I let into my 644 00:35:34,400 --> 00:35:40,280 life because of those energies. Working at this office. 645 00:35:40,480 --> 00:35:43,120 So I've been here for three years and there's so many 646 00:35:43,120 --> 00:35:46,240 different personalities that I come into contact with. 647 00:35:46,960 --> 00:35:50,600 And there really are people who are like, like, you can tell 648 00:35:50,600 --> 00:35:54,320 that like, they're IT people and like all that they do is like 649 00:35:54,320 --> 00:35:56,520 computers and they stick to themselves all the time. 650 00:35:56,920 --> 00:36:02,080 And there's also people I come in contact with who are like the 651 00:36:02,080 --> 00:36:05,760 male population that I've come in contact with that like is 652 00:36:05,760 --> 00:36:09,520 very dismissive of me and talks to me almost like I'm dumb. 653 00:36:09,520 --> 00:36:11,600 And I think we've talked about this at the front. 654 00:36:11,800 --> 00:36:13,760 But then they'll go back and they'll be like the most 655 00:36:13,760 --> 00:36:17,440 charming, funny, you know, commutative person when it comes 656 00:36:17,440 --> 00:36:20,120 to talking with the doctor and like, getting their appointment. 657 00:36:20,360 --> 00:36:22,800 And I'm just like, I like, what in the fuck? 658 00:36:22,800 --> 00:36:27,320 But there are, there are people who I think communicate 659 00:36:27,320 --> 00:36:31,840 differently and just have, like, different a different outlook on 660 00:36:31,840 --> 00:36:33,840 how they present themselves into the world. 661 00:36:34,120 --> 00:36:42,560 And I wonder if people are, like, aware of the fact of how 662 00:36:42,680 --> 00:36:44,080 they come across to other people. 663 00:36:44,080 --> 00:36:49,120 Like, I don't know what it's like to not be aware of, like, 664 00:36:49,120 --> 00:36:53,040 everything that I say, 'cause I feel like it, I overthink it. 665 00:36:53,040 --> 00:36:55,600 And I'll go home and be like, wow, was I, like, really weird 666 00:36:55,600 --> 00:36:58,840 in that conversation? Like, did my joke make sense? 667 00:36:58,840 --> 00:37:02,040 Like you know what I mean? Did I like, like how would this 668 00:37:02,040 --> 00:37:06,560 look on the outside? And I wonder if other people do 669 00:37:06,560 --> 00:37:14,600 that as well or if it's such a like abnormal or not popular 670 00:37:14,600 --> 00:37:17,280 thing to be very self reflective. 671 00:37:17,280 --> 00:37:20,680 Like is that just part of like the Healer's journey where you 672 00:37:20,760 --> 00:37:25,400 are aware of like body language and people's energy and maybe if 673 00:37:25,400 --> 00:37:29,320 people can't feel other people's energy then they're not like, 674 00:37:29,320 --> 00:37:32,400 hey, this is how my weird ass approach is coming off. 675 00:37:34,360 --> 00:37:35,640 I don't know. I. 676 00:37:35,640 --> 00:37:38,400 Don't even fucking know what goes through people's mind 677 00:37:38,640 --> 00:37:42,560 because it'll be people who are just selling Audacity on the 678 00:37:42,560 --> 00:37:45,480 side for free. Then I'm like, I cannot believe 679 00:37:45,480 --> 00:37:49,640 that just this stranger or this person feels comfortable to, 680 00:37:49,640 --> 00:37:53,120 like, approach me in this way. But I've realized that, like, 681 00:37:53,120 --> 00:37:55,600 people are either balls to the wall or they're not saying 682 00:37:55,600 --> 00:37:57,720 anything. And a lot of guys that I find 683 00:37:57,720 --> 00:38:00,440 conventionally attractive or, you know, I'm like, oh, you 684 00:38:00,440 --> 00:38:02,760 know, he has pretty eyes, he's nice, whatever, whatever. 685 00:38:03,080 --> 00:38:05,080 They're not confident in themselves. 686 00:38:05,080 --> 00:38:08,760 So someone like me who is extremely confident, scares 687 00:38:08,760 --> 00:38:11,520 people off because they're like, oh shit, like if a guy came up 688 00:38:11,520 --> 00:38:14,960 and grabbed my girl's ass, like, I I don't know what I would do. 689 00:38:15,040 --> 00:38:18,720 And like, I need a guy that's going to be like, what's up? 690 00:38:18,840 --> 00:38:21,160 You know what I mean? Like, 'cause I have people try 691 00:38:21,160 --> 00:38:22,520 to disrespect me in public before. 692 00:38:22,520 --> 00:38:25,880 Like, that's why I like, I don't like going to concerts without 693 00:38:26,160 --> 00:38:27,720 people. Cause anytime I went to a 694 00:38:27,720 --> 00:38:31,040 concert by myself and and like, some guy in the crowd finds out 695 00:38:31,040 --> 00:38:34,120 I'm alone, it's like a radar. They like, just find me and 696 00:38:34,120 --> 00:38:35,400 they're like, where's your man? Where's your man? 697 00:38:35,400 --> 00:38:37,000 Where's your man? And whenever, like, I'm trying 698 00:38:37,000 --> 00:38:40,000 to blow them off, they literally wait till the concert starts to 699 00:38:40,000 --> 00:38:43,760 stand as closely as possible to me and try to like touch me and 700 00:38:43,760 --> 00:38:46,800 stuff and grab me and shit. And like, it's happened multiple 701 00:38:46,800 --> 00:38:49,160 times. So, like, I understand that a 702 00:38:49,160 --> 00:38:53,840 lot of people are fucking disrespectful and I don't mind 703 00:38:53,840 --> 00:38:56,280 like I, the anonymous confessions, like they've been 704 00:38:56,280 --> 00:38:58,320 fine. Like what people are saying. 705 00:38:58,320 --> 00:39:01,280 Like I know people are thinking it like you're thinking it. 706 00:39:01,280 --> 00:39:06,000 But at the same time, like people really need to evaluate 707 00:39:06,000 --> 00:39:09,160 themselves and like what they're going to do about the things 708 00:39:09,160 --> 00:39:10,920 they want. Because just sitting on the 709 00:39:10,920 --> 00:39:14,520 sidelines shriveling up, being upset because you're not getting 710 00:39:14,520 --> 00:39:16,760 the life that you want. You need to go out and get the 711 00:39:16,760 --> 00:39:18,800 life that you want and go live that life. 712 00:39:19,800 --> 00:39:21,960 I find it. So interesting that people get 713 00:39:21,960 --> 00:39:26,120 an opportunity to like post anonymously to you and all that 714 00:39:26,120 --> 00:39:29,160 it is, is like sexual comments and sexualizing you. 715 00:39:29,720 --> 00:39:33,920 And I feel like if it's somebody who pays any attention to like 716 00:39:34,160 --> 00:39:37,680 what we talk about or like gets to know you. 717 00:39:38,200 --> 00:39:43,600 It's so funny how what people see on the outside for you is so 718 00:39:43,600 --> 00:39:46,600 different than what you have expressed on the inside. 719 00:39:46,960 --> 00:39:52,320 And I know that somebody has no interest except to like get to 720 00:39:52,320 --> 00:39:56,080 know you're like human vessel when they say shit like that to 721 00:39:56,080 --> 00:39:59,400 you. Because you have the chance to 722 00:39:59,400 --> 00:40:03,920 anonymously say and speak to like your soul on any level and 723 00:40:03,920 --> 00:40:08,520 like show an interest beyond. And that's not an opportunity 724 00:40:08,520 --> 00:40:10,560 that's taken. Oh, there has. 725 00:40:10,680 --> 00:40:14,000 Been really nice messages. There have been people like very 726 00:40:14,000 --> 00:40:16,480 nice men and women saying very nice things to me. 727 00:40:16,680 --> 00:40:18,720 OK, good. No, it's not just been. 728 00:40:18,720 --> 00:40:21,200 All sexual, like some of them have been really nice. 729 00:40:21,200 --> 00:40:24,040 I got one. I have 18 new ones since we just 730 00:40:24,040 --> 00:40:29,240 talked on this. Yeah, No. 731 00:40:29,240 --> 00:40:31,040 There's, there's there's really nice ones. 732 00:40:31,080 --> 00:40:32,240 Yeah. There's ones that are like, 733 00:40:32,240 --> 00:40:34,880 you're so into being. You've changed my life since our 734 00:40:34,880 --> 00:40:38,000 first Zoom meeting. Or there's people like, I don't 735 00:40:38,000 --> 00:40:41,080 think you realize how radiant your energy is and how you 736 00:40:41,080 --> 00:40:43,360 affect people. And I really hope that you can 737 00:40:43,360 --> 00:40:46,160 see how wonderful you are. And yeah, there's been some 738 00:40:46,160 --> 00:40:49,040 really nice ones. There's been a lot like I want 739 00:40:49,040 --> 00:40:51,160 you to be my Unicorn and I want you bad. 740 00:40:51,160 --> 00:40:53,040 And then there's been a lot. Like, you're amazing. 741 00:40:53,040 --> 00:40:54,880 I would give you all of my savings. 742 00:40:55,080 --> 00:40:57,200 You deserve the world. I would worship you. 743 00:40:57,840 --> 00:41:02,240 So yeah, I know there has been a really good amount of amazing 744 00:41:02,240 --> 00:41:04,720 messages. And I like talking about things 745 00:41:04,720 --> 00:41:08,240 cause like people don't really get to know me on a personal 746 00:41:08,240 --> 00:41:12,800 level because I am only showing you all like a shield of what I 747 00:41:12,800 --> 00:41:14,960 want you to see. Like you don't know anything 748 00:41:14,960 --> 00:41:18,080 truly about my life. You don't know you you may know, 749 00:41:18,080 --> 00:41:20,400 like people that I'm friends with are like, I post pictures 750 00:41:20,400 --> 00:41:22,240 with and things like that. And I want you to know that 751 00:41:22,240 --> 00:41:24,560 clearly. But if you paid attention to me 752 00:41:24,560 --> 00:41:27,560 in the last 10 years, every like three years my friend group 753 00:41:27,560 --> 00:41:29,920 switches up completely. And all those people I used to 754 00:41:29,920 --> 00:41:32,040 post pictures with, you never even see them again. 755 00:41:32,280 --> 00:41:34,920 Like, it's just like, boom, gone, you know? 756 00:41:34,920 --> 00:41:37,680 So I feel like now that I've brought people like you and 757 00:41:37,920 --> 00:41:41,520 Juber and more permanent people that I see me like growing and 758 00:41:41,520 --> 00:41:44,600 building with, it's kind of shocking to the people that I've 759 00:41:44,600 --> 00:41:46,560 left behind. And that's why they're like, oh, 760 00:41:46,560 --> 00:41:49,960 you got fans and followers and you're living your best life and 761 00:41:49,960 --> 00:41:52,120 whatever. And that's because I've chosen 762 00:41:52,120 --> 00:41:55,840 to get out of my comfort zone and elevate, to grow further 763 00:41:55,840 --> 00:41:58,240 than just the people that I grew up with in the trailer park. 764 00:41:58,240 --> 00:42:00,200 You know what I mean? Like, get real. 765 00:42:00,200 --> 00:42:03,880 Like I'm not trying to stick around and figure out what y'all 766 00:42:03,880 --> 00:42:06,120 are doing, I'm doing me. And it just shocks people 767 00:42:06,120 --> 00:42:09,360 whenever you're like, I'm gonna do me, regardless of like what 768 00:42:09,360 --> 00:42:11,600 you're doing or what you're thinking about it. 769 00:42:11,920 --> 00:42:15,600 But I do think that, like sometimes as the human journey 770 00:42:15,600 --> 00:42:19,440 unfolds, you, me, everyone, we can't really see how we're 771 00:42:19,440 --> 00:42:21,760 helping people. We can't really see how, like, 772 00:42:21,760 --> 00:42:24,400 one reading is changing someone's life and that they're 773 00:42:24,400 --> 00:42:26,920 making different decisions based on something we said. 774 00:42:27,160 --> 00:42:30,520 And I think that's been the most enlightening and inspiring part 775 00:42:30,520 --> 00:42:33,200 of my healing journey, my sobriety journey and my 776 00:42:33,200 --> 00:42:38,480 transformation is that I went from being very pleasure 777 00:42:38,480 --> 00:42:43,320 oriented. You know, fun oriented, like the 778 00:42:43,320 --> 00:42:47,080 live fast, I young fucking motto kind of thing, to a more 779 00:42:47,080 --> 00:42:51,120 grounded, evolved, mature version of myself where I don't 780 00:42:51,120 --> 00:42:54,600 need anything from anyone. I only want people in my life 781 00:42:54,600 --> 00:42:57,600 that are adding value and bringing value in a sense of 782 00:42:57,600 --> 00:43:01,760 like their presence and their energy and who they are and what 783 00:43:01,760 --> 00:43:04,040 they're doing in their world. Because that's enough a ripple 784 00:43:04,040 --> 00:43:06,520 effect of me. And you know, they say that 785 00:43:06,520 --> 00:43:09,520 you're the sum of the three to five people that you hang out 786 00:43:09,520 --> 00:43:11,360 with. Like you are the sum of those 787 00:43:11,360 --> 00:43:14,080 people, whether they hang out together or not. 788 00:43:14,080 --> 00:43:17,200 When you add up all your friends like where you at and a lot of 789 00:43:17,200 --> 00:43:20,800 people are morally bankrupt and I can't fucks with it, like 790 00:43:20,800 --> 00:43:23,440 especially the people like, oh, I want to cheat on my girlfriend 791 00:43:23,440 --> 00:43:25,120 or my wife with you. I don't like that. 792 00:43:25,120 --> 00:43:29,680 Like I don't like that at all. But there's a lot of guys in 793 00:43:29,680 --> 00:43:32,560 this world that are so manipulative, and I'm just like, 794 00:43:32,560 --> 00:43:35,240 I'm the last person you're going to be able to manipulate. 795 00:43:35,480 --> 00:43:38,000 So this is going to stay in the fantasy world, I promise you 796 00:43:38,000 --> 00:43:40,440 that. Because I don't get manipulated. 797 00:43:40,440 --> 00:43:44,800 That's why I stay in my lane, because people are like, I can't 798 00:43:44,800 --> 00:43:46,280 lie to her. Like, I like her. 799 00:43:46,280 --> 00:43:49,440 She's cool, she's pretty, she's fun, but I can't lie to her. 800 00:43:49,840 --> 00:43:51,960 And I don't like that. I want to be able to lie to my 801 00:43:51,960 --> 00:43:53,920 partner and a lot of people. That's why I don't have a 802 00:43:53,920 --> 00:44:01,760 partner. I think there are many reasons 803 00:44:01,760 --> 00:44:02,880 why you don't have a partner yet. 804 00:44:02,880 --> 00:44:07,800 And I think that a lot of it has to do with how much stuff you're 805 00:44:07,800 --> 00:44:10,800 still trying to do for yourself and how much growth that you 806 00:44:10,800 --> 00:44:13,920 have and things that you're still trying to accomplish. 807 00:44:13,920 --> 00:44:18,080 And you have a very specific way that you need somebody to 808 00:44:18,080 --> 00:44:22,160 integrate into your world and you don't have a lot of 809 00:44:22,280 --> 00:44:26,240 flexibility for that. There's there's things that take 810 00:44:26,680 --> 00:44:31,720 priority and precedence for you and you're able to expand only 811 00:44:31,720 --> 00:44:34,480 so far. And every time that you go to 812 00:44:34,480 --> 00:44:38,400 open yourself up more so that you can make room, somebody else 813 00:44:38,400 --> 00:44:41,360 is like, Oh well, I'm actually not ready for that. 814 00:44:41,360 --> 00:44:43,440 That's like a really big commitment that you would open 815 00:44:43,440 --> 00:44:46,800 up your life like that. And so I'm not ready to to jump 816 00:44:46,800 --> 00:44:48,520 into that right now. Facts. 817 00:44:48,680 --> 00:44:51,360 Facts. And you know, honestly, I'm not 818 00:44:51,360 --> 00:44:53,680 even disappointed by those people for knowing that they 819 00:44:53,680 --> 00:44:57,960 can't handle me. Like someone that tried to hit 820 00:44:57,960 --> 00:45:02,880 me up in the past and they were like, I've never done some of 821 00:45:02,880 --> 00:45:05,640 the things that I've done for you, for other people, like 822 00:45:05,640 --> 00:45:07,920 other girlfriends, other, whatever. 823 00:45:07,920 --> 00:45:10,680 And I'm just like, does that make me special because you did 824 00:45:10,800 --> 00:45:13,960 extra for me or you did more for me, but you still fucked it up 825 00:45:13,960 --> 00:45:16,960 somewhere? Like, bro, you know, like, I 826 00:45:16,960 --> 00:45:21,080 know y'all are all getting into your late 20s and early 30s and 827 00:45:21,080 --> 00:45:23,600 we're all getting older and people all sudden are like, you 828 00:45:23,600 --> 00:45:25,800 know who I did wrong? Who's doing really fucking good 829 00:45:25,800 --> 00:45:27,240 right now? Page. 830 00:45:27,480 --> 00:45:31,080 And you know who I should hit up and and apologize and gas her 831 00:45:31,080 --> 00:45:34,520 head up and be like? Damn, girl them cakes, you're 832 00:45:34,520 --> 00:45:37,280 the hottest you've ever been. I love your tattoos. 833 00:45:37,280 --> 00:45:40,800 Like they know what to say because they know I have a good 834 00:45:40,800 --> 00:45:42,560 girl kink and I've said it before. 835 00:45:42,560 --> 00:45:45,280 So, like, you know, a praise kink is totally my thing. 836 00:45:45,280 --> 00:45:48,880 I love people like worshipping me and hyping me up. 837 00:45:48,880 --> 00:45:53,160 So, you know, hit my DM. No, I'm just kidding, But. 838 00:45:53,160 --> 00:45:55,640 People. You know, they come back in and 839 00:45:55,640 --> 00:45:58,000 they know things like that. So they're they're manipulate, 840 00:45:58,000 --> 00:46:00,520 trying to manipulate me. Because The thing is, it's like 841 00:46:00,520 --> 00:46:03,520 you've never given me the commitment or the energy or the 842 00:46:03,520 --> 00:46:05,720 elevation. And then you come back and you 843 00:46:05,720 --> 00:46:07,840 try to be like, oh, but you stopped talking to me. 844 00:46:07,840 --> 00:46:10,280 And I asked him, I said, did I stop talking to you? 845 00:46:10,280 --> 00:46:14,360 Or were my boundaries being compromised and I just exited 846 00:46:14,400 --> 00:46:18,120 you from my life? And they're like, I don't know, 847 00:46:18,120 --> 00:46:19,920 you're probably right in all this. 848 00:46:19,920 --> 00:46:21,760 And I'm like, damn straight I'm right. 849 00:46:21,760 --> 00:46:24,520 I know I'm right, baby, baby, I know, I know. 850 00:46:24,520 --> 00:46:28,400 I'm locked in. I know I'm locked in. 851 00:46:28,440 --> 00:46:30,120 Can you finish us off with a? Card. 852 00:46:30,120 --> 00:46:31,480 And I'm going to read a confession. 853 00:46:31,480 --> 00:46:32,880 I got a new one. Just came through. 854 00:46:33,840 --> 00:46:35,040 I'm sick. Read the confession. 855 00:46:36,160 --> 00:46:41,760 Oh, I'm. 6/6 I would love to take turns being submissive and 856 00:46:41,760 --> 00:46:46,960 dominant with you. Maybe that's Mr. Long Arms. 857 00:46:47,680 --> 00:46:50,440 That's. Fantasy, We got Divine. 858 00:46:50,440 --> 00:46:57,600 Catalyst as the card Card 25, the 25th is also my birthday of 859 00:46:57,600 --> 00:46:59,760 this month. Yes, and. 860 00:46:59,760 --> 00:47:02,680 The podcast, birthday and the podcast. 861 00:47:02,680 --> 00:47:08,040 Birthday This card is Aries and Pisces. 862 00:47:08,960 --> 00:47:13,080 The gift is Acceptance and the Shadow is Constriction. 863 00:47:14,160 --> 00:47:17,840 This gift opens the channel for universal synchronosity to flow 864 00:47:17,840 --> 00:47:21,720 through you and acted as as a divine catalyst in your life. 865 00:47:22,440 --> 00:47:26,520 In order to do this, you must access your Sacred Wound and 866 00:47:26,520 --> 00:47:30,660 heal it through Acceptance. This is a gradual and often non 867 00:47:30,660 --> 00:47:34,240 linear process. To undo the layers is to free 868 00:47:34,240 --> 00:47:37,720 yourself from constriction. When you can accept yourself, 869 00:47:37,720 --> 00:47:41,400 who you are, your history, your upbringing, the door unlocks for 870 00:47:41,400 --> 00:47:44,560 you to accept the world around you exactly as it is. 871 00:47:45,000 --> 00:47:49,360 This encompasses a soft approach to life, embracing the feminine 872 00:47:49,360 --> 00:47:53,360 energy of receiving. Be loved and also wait for the 873 00:47:53,360 --> 00:47:57,640 invitation when you may give yourself to another fall in love 874 00:47:57,640 --> 00:48:01,000 with the magnitude of the soul within you as well as the 875 00:48:01,000 --> 00:48:03,640 greater spirit of the Divine God universe. 876 00:48:05,120 --> 00:48:09,040 The shadow quality of this theme largely focuses on restriction, 877 00:48:09,240 --> 00:48:11,880 or anywhere you feel wound up and constrained. 878 00:48:12,280 --> 00:48:15,360 Whenever we grasp onto things too tightly, objects, 879 00:48:15,360 --> 00:48:19,120 circumstances, relationships, people, perspectives, potential 880 00:48:19,120 --> 00:48:23,240 futures, we are cutting off the natural flow of energy and love. 881 00:48:23,960 --> 00:48:27,080 First, it appears in the body, shortened breath, tight chest 882 00:48:27,080 --> 00:48:29,720 tension, and then emanates outwardly. 883 00:48:30,400 --> 00:48:34,320 The constriction itself serves as a marker for for a pivoting 884 00:48:34,320 --> 00:48:36,800 point. Where can I unwind? 885 00:48:36,960 --> 00:48:40,840 Where can I apply more ease? When repressing the shadow, it 886 00:48:40,840 --> 00:48:44,360 appears in the form of ignorance or an inability to address your 887 00:48:44,360 --> 00:48:47,920 own wounds. As it is denial that pain exists 888 00:48:47,920 --> 00:48:51,640 below the surface. When reactive, you might project 889 00:48:51,640 --> 00:48:55,480 this pain onto others. In either case, love cannot flow 890 00:48:55,480 --> 00:48:58,200 freely. This shadow is intertwined with 891 00:48:58,200 --> 00:49:02,360 the Sacred Wound and not formed by unresolved issues. 892 00:49:02,600 --> 00:49:06,200 To loosen, you must make peace with your past and release 893 00:49:06,200 --> 00:49:09,160 yourself from the layers of dense story surrounding it. 894 00:49:09,560 --> 00:49:12,960 Your themes are acceptance, softness, the past, and love. 895 00:49:13,600 --> 00:49:16,240 I'm obsessed. With the message you all, I hope 896 00:49:16,240 --> 00:49:23,240 you enjoyed this episode. For those that want to tap in 897 00:49:23,240 --> 00:49:26,640 the podcast birthdays coming up, we need to make a little 898 00:49:26,640 --> 00:49:30,600 registry for podcast. We should do that. 899 00:49:30,600 --> 00:49:33,840 But our podcast birthdays coming up, I'm really excited about 900 00:49:33,840 --> 00:49:36,760 that. We're taking the month of June 901 00:49:36,760 --> 00:49:40,840 and July off, which I realized the other day how In Sync we are 902 00:49:40,840 --> 00:49:43,240 with Bunny because she's taking June off as well. 903 00:49:43,480 --> 00:49:46,400 Because it's a vibe baby. It's a it's a vibe. 904 00:49:46,920 --> 00:49:52,680 Gemini season, cancer season. And also as we wrap up this 905 00:49:52,680 --> 00:49:58,120 season, we're going to do our finale episode as AQ and a 906 00:49:58,400 --> 00:50:01,000 anonymous Q&A. Then I'm going to post the link 907 00:50:01,000 --> 00:50:04,560 she's going to post the link to about the podcast. 908 00:50:04,560 --> 00:50:08,960 So all of the I want to cuckold you are going to be exempt. 909 00:50:08,960 --> 00:50:12,160 I'm sure you all still send a few if you all got any naughty 910 00:50:12,160 --> 00:50:13,520 things for Gemini. We might. 911 00:50:13,720 --> 00:50:18,400 We might read a few, but we're going to, we're going to just 912 00:50:18,400 --> 00:50:22,120 take questions about anything you all want to talk about 913 00:50:22,120 --> 00:50:25,480 anonymously. And it could just be so you and 914 00:50:25,480 --> 00:50:29,520 I and Jim and I don't know who's asking this, 'cause I don't want 915 00:50:29,520 --> 00:50:31,800 ever anyone to ever think we're being biased. 916 00:50:31,800 --> 00:50:36,000 So, you know, we want to give as raw and real advice as we can. 917 00:50:36,000 --> 00:50:39,760 So it's going to be exciting, We will post more about it, and we 918 00:50:39,760 --> 00:50:43,040 will see you all next time in fucking candyland, baby. 919 00:50:43,520 --> 00:50:44,320 Bye bitches.