Welcome to Fucking Candy Land, hosted by Rampage and Gemini.
What's up, motherfuckers? Welcome back to Candyland.
So tonight it's just me and Jim and I and we hope that you have
been enjoying our variety of guest.
We have a couple more interviews coming up and we're going to try
to stack some guest so that we can drop every other week with a
guest. We are wanting to expand our
horizons, our conversations, and really get into some of those
taboo topics by bringing on taboo people.
Yeah, I like taboo people. I think they're interesting.
I don't. I don't know.
I like our podcast and who we bring on.
But sometimes I'll try and get into new podcasts and I'm like,
you have hella corny guests, bro.
I can't listen. I just do like an intuitive
thing. When people have guests and like
some podcasts, I listen to them because I like I'm drawn to the
guest as well. And then sometimes, like I'll
listen to like 20 minutes of it and I'm like, this isn't hidden
for me. Some people I've found, I really
like them on social media and like, I like their TikTok and
stuff. And then I hear them talking and
I am like, Oh yeah, no, I'm bored.
Yeah, I think a lot of people don't realize how difficult it
is to hop on a podcast and keep a conversation going for an
hour. Plus, like people who do
podcasts make that look easy. But like we've said before,
there is a reason that over like 75% of podcasts only have 10
episodes or less. Yeah, and it's interesting as a
podcast host to try and find people whose like, energy and
communication style is something that you're going to even want
to have a conversation with somebody for an hour.
You know what I mean? Yeah, I find that like, it's
really easy to go back and forth, but when you add a third
or a fourth voice in there, it's like we like have to try to find
a flow with that person despite like never talking to them
before. But I do think that, like, it's
a growing process. Interviewing guests, talking to
people is one thing, but having a conversation with three or
more people on a podcast is a lot Like, it's different for you
on Coven of Rejects to just interview people and like, you
know, the focus is on them, but like we don't make it where
we're interviewing them as far as like a set list of questions,
you know what I mean? So I feel like it's just like a
variety of like how the guest, how comfortable the guest feels
because I think some conversations flow very
naturally and then some people are just a little more shy or
reluctant or not really sure what they're going to say.
So they're nervous. I've had people, even with it
just being me though over on Coven, like I've had guests
where when we've been talking and scheduling to get the
podcast going, they're really talkative.
But then once we're recording, I'm literally like like there's
episodes I haven't aired because there was no chemistry with the
person that I was talking to. And whether that be like they
are nervous or they've never done a podcast or, you know,
whatever the reasons may be, sometimes it's just difficult to
get a conversation going. And that's how it is in everyday
life. Like everybody that you meet,
even if you think they're an interesting person, doesn't mean
that you have something interesting to talk about with
them. Exactly.
And I think that a lot of people give a persona on social media
that like, isn't always who they really are.
And I know that you said that you've been trying to share more
about your life. And I feel like I've been doing
the opposite. And I've been trying to be more
like mysterious and like not share everything because people
do straight send you not good energy when you're sharing good
news sometimes. And I feel like sometimes I just
like, want things untainted, unbiased and untouched by
outside energies because so many people try to get one over on
you. Or you know what I mean?
Like, pretend there's something that they're not.
And then when you are studying and talking to them, or you do
meet them in person, or you do give them a chance in
relationships or whatever, it's just like then true colors
really come out. So, like, it's one thing to be
like, I like that person on the Internet, but, like, do you
really like that person as like who they really are without the
illusions and things that they've created?
Because like we know for sure that when we when we went to
Utah, that girl didn't like me even though she invited me.
She playing stuff she didn't like me.
Like how that we like did that episode with Juber and we went
through some of the like things from her perspective and just
beyond. It's really, really clear now
that like I was the problem, Like she did not like me for
some God forsaken reason that she invited me to Utah.
And I don't know why, like, and to this day I'm still like, I
don't understand because you're the exact same person that you
are in our friendship that you are in person.
Like it's there's there's nothing that's any different.
I think that our dynamic though was different in person than I
thought that it was going to be. Like, I thought that you were
going to be the more like a sort of bold one in person, like
doing all of the things and that you were like, I knew I was
going to be making food and stuff like that.
But I thought that you were going to be more like take
charge and like command situations, and you were more
like, I'm willing to do whatever it is that you want to do.
And to this day, I don't understand how you're not the
one that's liked when you were the one who was like, oh, you
want to take me on an ATV ride to my death?
Cool. I'm down for it.
And I was like, fuck you, I'm not going.
I don't know. I mean, I think I'm really like,
I'm very assertive in communication, like this is what
I expect. These are my boundaries.
Like, don't talk to me this way, don't act this way, whatever.
But like, when it comes to like, going with the flow, like I am
the definition of going with the flow.
Like when I go on a vacation, I don't want something planned
every day. Like if I go to Vegas, I plan
one really nice expensive dinner and have reservations for one
day and I get tickets to something, whether it's a
concert, a show, a magic show, something like that.
But then like, the other days that were there, I don't want to
have a plan like I want. I know I may, like, want to go
to the pool or go shopping or things like that.
But like, I don't want to plan something.
And I feel like some people take me being assertive and kind of
dominant as, like, I'm going to have an itinerary.
And it's like, you better wake up at 10:00 AM, 'cause we we
need to leave here at 10:30 or or like, one of those people
that's like, wow, you're getting ready.
You're taking forever. You know, 'cause some people are
pushy like that, but I'm just not like.
I'm just like, I'll sit here and chill and I'll wait and I'm not
in a rush, ever. I love that you're literally
getting rushed anytime that you did your makeup, and we didn't
even talk about that with Juber. We didn't even talk about the
fact that we were you were doing your makeup in the bathroom and
literally had just started and I think you were putting lipstick
on and Home Girl was like, I'll just use the microwave as a
mirror because I'm not high maintenance.
Oh my gosh, I forgot she said that.
Yeah, like, I didn't even bring a full spread of makeup, 'cause
I was having that issue with my eye.
So I didn't even have, like, all my makeup.
I think I just like had some face makeup and like, some
lipstick and I was doing my eyebrows or something.
Like it was like very basic. Would have only taken me like 15
fucking minutes. And she's like causing a scene.
Like who the hell books a fucking 8 frame cabin for four
women and then tells everybody that, like, you should just
bring sweats knowing damn well I'm not taking fashion advice.
I want to dress like like if I don't want to dress like you,
I'm not taking your advice. Like if I want to show up,
however, I want to show up to the family gathering, to the
event, to the whatever. I'm not listening to just wear
jeans or just wear this like I'm going to wear whatever I want to
wear, period. Shut up.
Nobody asks you, nobody asks you.
And yeah, because like I I was totally like thinking we're out
in some like retreat the whole time and look like a bum ass
bitch. And I can't wait for us to have
like a new adventure with new memories so that the memory that
we have of us being together isn't surviving fucking the Utah
apocalypse of like crazy white females.
Their soul lady really gave me PTSD of our our trips and we
need to rectify that and change it and make it all better.
Honestly, I feel like she wanted to ruin that trip so bad that I
still had a really good fucking time.
Like, I truly had a good time and I thoroughly like even
though the ATV thing was super scary, I still had a really good
time on the ATV. Like that's a core memory.
Because I know for a damn fact I will never do that again.
Like, unless I am like with someone who like has their own
and has has a trailer and a truck and like everything under
the sun and they have it as their own.
Different because she literally acted like she drives us all the
time and she does not. You know what I mean?
Like she doesn't. I have never been so positive to
somebody before that I literally was so fucking angry at and
like, terrified for my life. I was like, I can't, Oh my God.
I was preparing for, like, what I would hang on to if we went
over the side. I did not have a good time.
My hands were sweating through those fucking gloves.
They were so wet that they kept sticking off of the bar, sliding
off of the safety bar. I never let go of that fucking
bar in front of us the whole time.
We wrote in that ATV. No.
Nope. I don't want to relive that
again. Hard pass we have.
We've been invited to other Utah shit, though.
And I'm like, maybe we give Utah another pass.
Like maybe we explore what the Mormons do in Utah.
Like what is there to do out there?
Has to be beautiful. I like Utah, honestly.
Like, I've been out there twice and I enjoyed it both times.
Like, clearly there was something that needed to be done
in the situation. Like there was a crazy person
with us. But when I went to Utah the
first time, me and my friend Chastity went and we had a
really good time. She had never been to Vegas.
And so we literally, on our last day there, we went hiking, came
back to this, the Airbnb got ready, drove the three hours to
Vegas. We gained an hour, But then on
the way home, clearly we were gonna lose that hour.
We were. I was driving us like, on the
way home, like 95, 'cause the speed limit's 80, so I'm going
like 95. Because at one point we were
like, so behind schedule that, like we had to fly out at Salt
Lake City at like 10:00 AM and we were staying like 2 hours
away from the airport. Like yeah, So it was like we had
to literally go back to the Airbnb, literally grab our stuff
as fast as we could, get back in the car and drive to the
airport. We made it, but it was like one
of those things where it's like a memory cause chassis had never
been to Vegas. Like to do that we had a really
great dinner and we had so many leftovers.
We just like literally pulled over the same thing we did when
we were in Utah and just gave it all to a homeless person.
They were like what? And I was like there's an $80.00
steak in there and they were like what?
So that I. Forgot we did that.
Yeah, we gave that. We gave them all of the salsa
and spices. There's so much stuff that you
didn't take, like all those. There was literally so much
stuff that we bought you all that we carried from the first
cabin to the next cabin or the next Airbnb, and we was cooking.
But then once we got to our other Airbnb, it was literally
like blast from the past. Like we didn't cook there,
really. We didn't want to cook, yeah.
But, like, by the time that we got to that Airbnb that first
night, for sure, we were so emotionally drained.
Like, as soon as we closed the door, me and juber just started
crying. And I remember, like, crying on
the couch. And I was like, I want to go
home. And you're like, what?
And I was like, I want to be with my husband.
I'm fucking tired of this. I don't want to be here.
Like, I'm so uncomfortable and you're like, no, like, we're
going to stay. We're going to do it.
And then I remember like, he was all stressed about in that whole
situation because he had thought like he was the one getting the
midnight phone calls, hearing me about to fucking throw home girl
off the fucking top thing. So he's freaking out.
And and so that energy was coming.
And I remember you're all calm on the couch and you're like, I
don't have any response to this. I grew up with a crazy mom.
You're like, he's going through his own thing while we're here.
He's having to deal with his own battles about you being gone in
separation. So like, let's just hang out.
We're going to go get food, we're going to whatever.
And I was like, OK, and that's when we went to like, go and
pick up the car and everything. And I thought it was so dope
that you guys wanted to get the car.
A big reason being for me to not have to ride alone in an Uber to
the airport. And when Juber was like, no, we
have to get it because like we have to take you to the airport.
You can't be in like a different state and just like by yourself
and have like a random Uber take you.
And I was like, that's so fucking sweet.
What was crazy is we rented a car, you all from that app, it's
called Turo and the guy literally had an air tag
somewhere. The Sky's in the car.
So like, we're just driving and out of nowhere.
It's like an air tag has been moving with you since this time.
And I was like, it's kind of freaking out because, like, you
hear horror stories about those air tags and people putting them
in your purse and in your bag and whatever.
And I was thinking like this this bitch tracking us.
Like, I mean, I didn't know like, 'cause it was just weird.
Like they they did that, 'cause I don't think that that's even
like, like that wasn't spoken. But honestly, we had a really
good time. You all.
At the end of the day, it brought us closer.
I think that anytime you go through struggles, it's really
important to look at what you gained, what type of lesson,
'cause I swear that has helped me and Gemini navigate some
really fucking stressful things that like nothing could be as
stressful as being on the side of a fucking mountain in two
wheel drive. Like nothing in this world could
touch. Like, if we fall off this
mountain, we're all dead right now.
And our driver is drunk, telling our core guy that she's got this
and that she does this her whole life and every day of her life
and that she brought her baby and her son and all these things
out here. But, like, the most random thing
about all of this is like the first day we got there, everyone
was like, having this vulnerable moment.
And she was telling us how, like, she was like, 3435 and
what was trying to have another kid and all these things.
And it's just like, how are you gonna tell us all this
vulnerable stuff and then just be like, yeah, I don't even like
you. You're too nice.
Fuck you. I don't know why you're doing
this. I don't even know why you're
here. Like, it was just like bipolar.
And I think that because of that moment, like we've gotten
funnier and way smarter. We've gotten funnier and
smarter, but also like, and we were just talking about this
before the podcast. I think that people
underestimate the level of unbothered that we really are
about things like even if we're like up, we're never upset with
each other or thinking weirdly of each other inside of
situations. It's always how do we tackle
whatever is coming our direction or whatever is going on.
And and I do think that the reason that that Utah thing
sticks out to us so much is like, that was a in person
situation. Like the first time that we
really were like, oh, we got to look out for us.
And like somebody else is moving weird and trying to like get in
the middle of our friendship. Like there was very much like,
oh, well, don't you think it's shady that they just left you
here to sit on the trail while they went up ahead?
No, I'm the bitch who's not going to walk on this Sandy rock
like that's. I'm not going to ruin their time
like so there was there's just different stuff and then we've
had things come up in the background you know inside of
like our communities and whatever since that where or
like clients or whatever where people are just like super
strange to us behind each other and we're like we communicate.
So you know that I don't know I I just the level of unbothered
is so high. I feel like there's a fine line
in being like, hey, I'm going to downgrade with you and go
upgrade with Jim and I and I'll still be able to work with you.
Or hey, I'm going to join her Patreon and cut yours off.
And then vice versa. Like, there's a fine line of
being like, hey, I'm going to go do this.
But there's a different thing that I've been seeing where
people are like, I want to work with you and then immediately go
to you and they're like, I'm going to book with you.
And it's cool, like if you want to book with both of us.
But it's like, it's almost like sometimes people like, try to
play US against each other like, well, what can she do for me?
What can you do for me? And then try to see like, if
we're going to, like, be upset or challenged in some way.
It's just like I think a lot of people's egos do that
subconsciously. Like I've said before, like if
you don't work on your shit and your shadow and your trauma,
your 7 to 12 year old self is the one making decisions.
So when you felt left out in fifth grade, you're projecting
that into your adult life. So you don't like healthy
dynamics subconsciously, of course.
Like, you may not know you consciously are doing that, but
there may be a tendency to want to come between people or to
play people against each other, kind of like people do with
their parents. They play their parents against
each other. Kids do that.
People play their partners. Like when people get married,
they'll do that like with their mother-in-law and their husband
or or whatever. I've seen a lot of women lately
that are like, we're starting a new family and I'm more
important than your mother and and all these things.
I'm like, I understand that, like you're starting a family,
but that's also still their family.
So you're putting them in between your differences and
discrepancies. And I think just so many people
do that, 'cause it's like when you're on the playground and you
don't get picked for dodgeball or you don't get, you know,
picked for sports or whatever, Like you feel left out and then
you never healed that trauma or you never actually acknowledged
that it bothered you. Cause a lot of people are like,
you know, they got left out and so then they started hanging out
with the bad kids, you know what I mean?
Or the kids who did drugs. That was me.
Like, I never really tried to get picked for anything.
But I also, like, never hung out with people that were good for
me. I feel like, like I feel like
growing up I was always the kid that like people's parents.
Didn't want their kid to hang out with, like, purpose.
They would be like, OK, it's fine.
But then they would find out later that my mom let us drink
and would leave us. And like, my mom would literally
like, let, like, 16 year olds babysit me and like my friends
but not even tell their mom that she wasn't going to be home.
Like, Oh yeah, they can stay over here.
And then my mom would just bounce, you know?
So, like, I don't know. I think a lot of people don't
realize they're playing both sides of the field or they're
being, like, unsupportive in a way.
Because it's counterproductive to message me and ask me a bunch
of questions, right, and be like, oh, I'm going to do that.
And then to go to you 5 seconds later and be like asking you a
bunch of questions like, oh, I'm going to do that knowing damn
well they're not doing any of it.
I have had, I've even had it like reverse, like you've you've
had people do that and then do things with me.
And I've had the same thing where I'll have somebody that
I'm talking to for weeks about. Like I had a girl who I was
talking to for weeks that kept asking me questions about
booking. And then she listened to
Lollipop and she went over and she booked with you.
And I was like, I don't care. Like I genuinely, I'm like,
thank you for spending money with my best friend.
I'm going to get a present I don't like.
I don't care. It it doesn't bother me.
And I think that I something that I really love is that there
is never a second thought about you being upset in a situation
or like they're being jealousy when things like that happen.
Because we truly are. Just like, bitch, go go do your
thing. Like I don't, I don't care.
I have my own stuff that's going on and and I think that a lot of
things like that happen inside of friendships anyways, not just
ours. Where this stuff gets thrown in
to like be messy or dirty or people are weird and they're
jealous that you have a friend and they want to be that
person's friend or whatever. And some people just don't have
solid conversations and dynamics where they talk about things
like if I was to know that somebody was like saying
something about you or like, like being direct about
something, I would be like, oh, I'll just block you.
And I would never, I wouldn't have room for somebody who
didn't like you in general anyways.
And I just expect that, like, that's how friendships work and
that's how you are too. And I've heard like there are
people, I've seen this on TikTok and this makes me question you
people that are like just because my friend doesn't like
you doesn't mean that I don't like you.
No. If my friend doesn't like you,
there's a fucking reason and I don't fuck with you either.
Yeah, I think people do that a lot.
Especially like in hometown bullshit, like the gossip, like
if they're gossiping about this person to you, they are talking
about you to someone else or telling your business.
And I've had people kind of play that card like they're they want
to be like the mole kind of thing.
Like they want information. They want to pretend that we're
close, that we're friends, but it's really just so they can use
my name in front of other people that either like, needs them
clout or acceptance. Like the amount of people that
are like, I know Paige, I grew up with Paige on Bunny's post is
like, wild to me. Because, like, there will
literally be people that, like, I have not spoken to in forever
being like, wow, I know, you know, Bunny and Jelly roll.
Now, could you do this for me? Could you do that for me?
And like, if you're listening and you've done that, 'cause
there's more people than I can count that have tried to get me
to call in my favor for them. Like, would you walk around over
hot coals for me? Because if you wouldn't, don't
even ask me for a favor. Like if you're not going to go
and put your life on the line for me.
Like, don't ask me to do all these little things for you,
especially when they involve other people.
It's one thing when you're asking for my time or my energy
and I can reject that or or accept that.
But it's a different thing when you're trying to use all the
hard work and things I've done for me to benefit you when you
literally do not support me in the fucking slightest.
And I don't even mean like, Oh my God, you have to support me.
Because there are so many people that like and share stuff that
have never booked anything and I appreciate them the same as the
people who book and leave reviews and tell their friends.
It's not about what you're spending with me or anything.
Like I don't rank people. Like, I just think it's weird
that you would write someone that you barely speak to and ask
them to do a random favor for you, whether it's can I have $10
or can you talk to Bunny for me or whatever.
Like the amount of people that say that they want to make
something for Bunny and they want to know if I can get it to
her. Like, yes.
You know, how many people have came through on that?
Zero. Like, no one.
So these people were like, oh, I make shoes or I make, I make
paintings or I make this, I make that.
Can you get it to Bunny and Jelly?
Like, yeah. And none of them ever come
through with the items. So it's like, why are you
wasting my time? Like, why are you trying to
speak to me? Like, you know what I mean in
that sense of, like, let me distract you.
Let me use you. What can you do for me?
Energy. And that's what gets old.
And I feel like a lot of people don't realize they're doing that
in the spiritual arena with the Hey, can I ask you a question?
Like, I'll answer a question.
Like, I'm not gonna just shut you down, but it's when you want
free back and forth. And then you go to Facebook and
then you ask, hey, I need a psychic medium.
But you've already DM me like 14 times asking prices and all
this. And then you go over to Gemini
and start asking her those same questions.
And then later we speak together, we speak about it.
And it's like, Oh yeah, they wrote me too.
And I'm like, they've been writing me since February.
And it's just weird. Like, that's where it makes our
heads spin. Because it's not like you even
joined Patreon for $5 or $10 or even like, you know, sometimes
like people don't realize. But like, you can send a little
donation or a little tip or something like if someone helps
you out, I don't care if it's like knowledge about hair, cars,
home, it doesn't matter, like send an energy exchange and you
would get more from the universe.
But it's when you're trying to take, take, take, take, take and
not give anything that you keep getting pushed back because the
universe doesn't respond to people that just take all the
fucking time. I got to give a shout out to my
girl Melissa. We've talked about her on here
before with that girl there's. But I mean it's probably
happened more than once. But I can think of one time
recently where she was like, listen, I just need to vent.
And she sent me like voice note, voice note, voice note.
And then she sends me a donation through my website and was like,
thank you for listening. I just needed a safe space to
like say this to and I'm like, I just well, thank you.
She listens to every episode. I'm like that it's not even
about the monetary value of something.
It's about somebody being like, hey, your time and your energy
is worth something. Like, I'm going to be dumping
this on to you right now. I just want you to know that
like, this is an appreciation and money is an, you know, it's
an energy exchange. But on top of that too, like,
it's really annoying when people know that we charge for a
service and that they know that we offer a service and they send
tons of messages about, can I get advice on this?
Can I get advice on that or what type of reading or whatever?
And then when you give them the pricing or you give them the
link, it's, oh, well, I can't pay for it right now because I'm
a mom. And, you know, I have to go to
work and I have these things happening and it's Christmas
time and yadda yadda yadda. And like, that's totally fine.
Like, there's not the expectation.
Like, I don't sit there and go, oh, I'm going to talk to this
person because they're going to pay me.
But if you're going to sit there and ask questions about services
and things, and then turn around and say all of the hundreds of
reasons that you can't do something after just utilizing,
you know, conversation for however long, that's really
frustrating too. Yeah, that's one of the things
that I think people don't realize they're doing in a
spiritual arena. Like you're not going to go to a
hairdresser and ask them how to blend the color.
What color codes do you use? Like, where do you get your
products? Like you're not going to go and
ask them all that shit. You're just not.
And if you did, they're not going to entertain it.
You know what I mean? Because that's what they get
paid that knowledge. They went to school.
I think because spirituality is either like naturally evolved,
you developed it, you went to classes or whatever.
People don't see it as something that like, is tangible, like,
oh, you have a degree in that, or you went to college for that.
And people are more than willing, when you're in trouble,
to pay a lawyer $1000 an hour or a realtor $18,000 to sell your
house or whatever, and it's like you're not paying me for the
minutes. You're paying me for the
experience and the wisdom and the expertise that I've
developed by devoting myself to something.
And a lot of the times the shit people ask can be Googled like,
what is shadow work when you literally could type in what is
shadow work like before words even come out of your mouth and
someone's DM that you have not exchanged anything with.
And this doesn't apply to clients, like if you've booked
with me and I'll tell you, I'll give you an open door policy.
If you've booked with me and I say something in this reading
and you listen to it later and you have a question or you're
like, hey, what did you say? Or hey, what was that book?
I'm more than happy to tell you, period, because you've already
invested in yourself. So yes, I'm more than happy to
help you make sure that you have the tools that I mapped out for
you. But what I'm not going to do is
like, give you free advice. Like, well, do you feel like my
mom's with me? Yes.
The the answer is always yes. When someone's in spirit and you
feel close to them, they are with you.
Yes, period. Like that's always the case.
Like there is no if, ands or buts.
It's like a lot of people just want an outside source to
validate their own intuition and their own feelings.
And that's why people got to do some fucking healing because the
12 year old version of you wants validation from outside sources.
The 12 year old, that version of you didn't get that support from
your parents or school or didn't have the nicest clothes or
whatever it is and you're scarred.
You're scarred become because of it.
And there is scar tissue, baby, that you need to work through
because at the end of the day, me validating something for you
and you doing nothing with the information and continuing on
your path of victimhood or I don't have the money or
whatever. Like the people who say they
don't have the money for like a reading or some spell work
normally need it the most. And if you would take your last
dollar to fucking buy a bunch of junk for your kid for Christmas,
Like think about how much healing and opportunity could
arrive when you invest in yourself and give that love and
attention to your kid or your family that maybe you didn't
receive. You know people don't see it as
an investment that has long term changes and like a ripple effect
on everyone around you. So instead of going to Five
Below and dropping $80.00 on your kid, spend 40 bucks on a
reading and spend 40 bucks on your kid and then be present
with your child. You know what I mean?
Like, it just doesn't make sense to me how people act like
they're trying to give their kid everything they ever, never had,
and it's literally always only material items, period.
That is true, but I think that's because there's so much stress
put on the everyday. Like human life of your whole
purpose is supposed to be just about money and people put
happiness off to the side and self-care and time with their
kids and whatever. Because no, I have to make this
amount of money and do this specific thing and have this
specific job and you know, they don't want to do something that
maybe it's going to be more difficult but gives them more
time or you know, whatever the balance needs to be.
That's totally true. You're saying like your kid, I
don't care what age they are, would remember and appreciate
your presence, your patience, your attention, your sincerity
Over like, OK, my mom bought me an Xbox and locked me in my room
and let me play it for five hours today.
Like here's. Here's something that that
really bothers me is like, so I've had Christmases where I've
given my son like new boots, new clothes, new, you know,
whatever, like things that are actually needed in life.
And I've gotten like, that's so mean.
You're supposed to get them toys, you know, like whatever.
You should be getting them these things.
And I feel like people have such a fucked sense of reality of
like the things that actually matter.
And my kid is going to get a toy and he's literally not even
going to barely play with it on Christmas and probably never
play with it again. And I'm going to argue with him
all the time that he needs to pick it up from the middle of
his room. And it's only there because he's
moving it out of the way to go and get some shitty crinkled up
little piece of paper that he made a cootie catcher with Like
he people have again, just like this fucked sense of like
reality. And I think that to expect that
people are going to spend hundreds of dollars in all of
these things on Christmas presents for their kids.
And if they don't do that, then like, they're shitty parents.
I would have loved to go shopping for Christmas when I
was a kid, get brand new clothes.
My mom, that's what my parents did.
I got new clothes at Christmas all the time.
I would go school shopping and I got clothes at Christmas and my
birthday. And I was never like, oh, I wish
I hadn't gotten this. I just think that capitalism has
brainwashed people and like, you're really just on this
hamster wheel of what society wants.
Like society wants a picket fence, society wants a new car.
Society wants a big house. But nine times out of 10,
whenever I have a client or someone around, that's like we
upgraded our house and now we're struggling because all of our
extra income goes to our new mortgage or we lost all of our
equity because we bought such a bigger house.
And I thought, this is what I wanted.
I hear that time and time again, like, life is just so much
simpler when we had our small house or our first house or our
paid off car or whatever, and it's like you think you want it
until it takes away all your freedom.
Like a lot of people that make a lot of money are very absent in
their children's life. They travel a lot for work, they
work overtime. They're on this schedule and
your kids aren't remembering that they got an Xbox at 7.
They're going to remember that their dad missed every football
game that they had. Or they're going to remember
that like their dad was always home, but he was on the phone or
on his phone or watching sports or whatever.
And I just feel like priorities have shifted for me when I
stopped worrying about what society deems as successful.
Like if you're an artist, you don't need someone to justify
that you're an artist. You can literally print off
cards tomorrow that say you're an artist and start selling art
and only thing that you need is consistency and confidence.
If you have those two things, people will buy your stuff.
But if you're not consistent, because a lot of people don't
realize how hard it is to start a business, or how difficult it
is to transition from the hamster wheel of capitalism into
peace and tranquility. Because peace will be having you
feel like you're bored. Peace will be having you feel
like the other shoes going to drop.
Peace will have you feel like you need to be doing something.
And that is the actual opposite of what you need to be focused
on. Because if you can't sit in
peace and quiet, then your soul has so much chaos that it's
craving because of your upbringing or because of your
programs or because of society. Like I can't stand.
People are like all I do is work.
Like what kind of life is that? Because that sounds terrible.
Because that sounds and then but we're told that like that's what
you're supposed to be doing or you're lazy and you're
unmotivated. And that was literally why I had
to take that three weeks off of my business was and like doing
anything was because I was like, I I always am having to do
something and I don't understand how to just be chill.
And that was really difficult at 1st and then I didn't want to
come back after. Here we are.
I mean, I personally like, really have found balance.
And when I see Angel numbers and I look them up, it's like you've
learned to balance spirituality in your human life, or you've
learned to balance monetary concerns with rest.
Like if you're constantly on that hamster wheel of like,
what's next, what's next, What's next?
Or constantly worrying about things that are in the future,
you are losing quality of life, like you are losing sleep, you
are losing hair, you're losing peace, you're gaining wrinkles.
Whatever it is, get off the fucking hamster wheel.
The one thing for me is I love buying presents, but I hate that
I have to go buy wrapping paper and bags and stuff because I
think that that's like the worst 50 or $60.00 that I'm going to
spend. I would much rather like just
hand people their presents, but I'm like, no, they need to be
wrapped because that's part of the fun.
But whoever inventing invented wrapping paper is a fucking
scammer. I fucking hate wrapping paper.
And then when people are like, I'm sending you presents for the
kids, you're going to need to wrap them.
I'm like, fuck you, you should have wrapped them like I don't.
I think that that's probably stupid to say, but I genuinely
don't want to. I usually get like a bag, like
the bags, and I usually do the bags and then the tissue paper
and I'll be like you've got bags and tissue paper underneath the
thing. I've also just kept my kids
presents before in the Amazon boxes.
Open box. I don't know.
I don't. I don't give a fuck about the
wrapping. I never understood that.
I like what it looks like and I like it.
I just hate spending money on it.
Like, I just hate spending money on wrapping paper because like,
if you get it after Christmas, it's like a dollar roll and if
you get it before, it's like 699.
And I'm just like, why is there a 600% markup on this shit,
'cause you know that it cost y'all $0.29 to make this so?
I don't know. It's just like, it's more so for
me. It's not the wrapping portion,
it's how much trash it creates, how it's just like a fucking
landfill nightmare. And then I've got to go spend
like an additional 50 to $60.00 on materials to do all this tape
string. Yeah, That's why I don't want to
wrap. I don't want to have to do all
of that. I don't.
Like unwrapping presents. Like I buy myself presents and I
wrap them. I will expect you to send me
something wrapped then showing me your wrapped skills.
It's going to be wrapped in the UPS box.
It's going to be bubble wrap. Do you like your?
Do you like your stocking that you got?
I do. And if you all did it here, we
have merch that dropped and it's on Gemini's website,
covenofrejects.com. And we have coffee mugs, cups,
shoes, hoodies, you name it. In the summer we'll have bathing
suits and towels and random stuff like that.
But for now, go order you a stocking for Guaranteed.
Christmas delivery and definitely tap in and see what
else she has on her site because she has a bunch of stuff.
Thank you. We should do like flesh colored
bathing suits that just have little candies on the nipples.
Yeah, yeah, I bet you would. You would Fucking yeah, That's a
great idea. You could get the logo on the
bottoms and you could just have my face on your butt cheek.
There you go. Lick it, baby.
Lick it. Lick that.
Lick it like a lollipop. So yeah, we just wanted to tap
in with you all and drop this little bonus episode and we will
have a guest to drop on Wednesday, our regular scheduled
programming Gemini. Is there anything else that you
want to add? Did you want to pull a card
tonight? Yeah, I could pull a card.
Let me get this bitch off my lap.
Perfection. My husband had to meet me at the
chiropractic office today to come and bring me the dog.
And he brought her inside and she thought that when my boss
went to give my husband the adjustment, she thought that my
boss was trying to attack Brian. And so she started fucking
barking in the office and like, going fucking nuts, thinking
that he was getting mauled to death by the chiropractor.
All. Right it is card 17.
Have the sign, says Psychic. It is for the soothsayer and you
guys. If you're listening, look up the
Angel #17 also and see how it applies to this or to you in the
moment. The sign is Aries, the gift is
far sightedness, and the shadow is a limited lens.
This gift reveals a perspective that far surpasses the limited
subjective lens of the shadow. When you're able to access this
higher frequency state, you see how every individual part plays
an integral role in the whole, and no single element is to
blame. You bear witness to overarching
patterns in the collective and have the capacity to foresee the
implications of those patterns in the future.
Thus, you are a sort of fortune teller who has made a quantum
leap from mere logic. By infusing your magic into the
world, you help the collective to shift into greater planes of
consciousness. Ask questions.
Be open to possibility and allow your curiosity to fan the flame.
Your shadow is a limited lens. When out of balance, you might
prioritize the left brain and approach life from a more
masculine driven model model model.
With this comes rigidity, a hyper focus on logic and
structure that doesn't always allow for fluidity and grace or
the room to be mistaken. Opinions run amok.
By abandoning the feminine counterbalance, opinions seem to
solidify as fact, and we forget our interconnected nature.
But nothing is quite as obvious as it seems.
Wisdom isn't necessarily a product of the intellectual
mind. To move past the shadow, honor
both feminine and masculine energies, and learn to challenge
your own adopted viewpoints. Your themes are farsightedness,
curiosity, balance, and patterns.
Beautiful, beautiful. And as always, if you go to
lollipoppodcast.com, you can e-mail us, you can send guest
suggestions, topics, suggestions, Just an
announcement. We have Trash Lee coming on to
the podcast. Jim and I made a video on TikTok
earlier today. Submit questions because she's
been interviewed by people like Bunny and just beyond.
She's done all kinds of interviews.
She has a lot of things that she's already spoke on.
Her story was one of the most wild rides that I've ever been
on, ever. Like, I was just speechless on
some of the things that she's been through.
So we really want to touch on what she's building, what she's
accomplishing, how she's grown from that.
So it's going to be really, really exciting.
Her episode will air like the first week of the new year, so
you have plenty of time to submit questions, topics and
direct questions for her, either on TikTok or our website at
lollipoppodcast.com, and we look forward to seeing you all next
time in Candyland. Yippee Kaye motherfuckers.
Bye, bye.