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Welcome back to Candyland. So we are getting close to our
Season 2 finale coming up in. We're going to be taking June
and July off from the podcast. So yeah, we're excited because
it's the two year birthday on Gemini's birthday, so it's cool.
Yeah. And that's also dude, it also is
always Memorial Weekend too. Like all of our celebration for
the podcast are always going to be fucking Memorial Weekend, I
feel like. You know what's interesting?
That if my birthday is on a Sunday, it would be Mother's Day
no matter what. Like Sunday it is.
If it's on Sunday, like my birthday is on Sunday, it'll be
Mother's Day too. But with your birthday.
If your birthday ever falls on a Monday, then it's also Memorial
Day always. Like if it's on a Monday.
So that's cool. That's interesting to duly note.
What's so like? I always get invited to things
Memorial like. Weekend or whatever.
And I'm always like, oh, it's my birthday.
So like, I'll be doing something and somebody just invited me to
something and I was like, well, I'm turning 30, so I'll
definitely be busy and I will not be able to do that.
But I wonder if that's how people feel when like, their
birthday lands on Christmas or something where they're like.
Yeah, No. I Hey, everybody's doing
something. I hate.
I hate having a birthday that falls on anything.
Because if my birthday is on a Sunday.
Luckily this year was leap year, so we skipped my Mother's Day
birthday and went to Monday. I love it.
I'm here for it. I personally do not.
I don't love it because if my birthday's on a Saturday, the
day before Mother's Day, people are like, can't go out of town.
It's Mother's Day, or I have something going, or I have
something with my kids the next day kind of thing.
Or if it's on a Friday, then people are like, it's Mother's
Day weekend, but it's Friday the 13th and then I don't even care.
I don't even ask anybody then, so.
So Mother's Day is kind of like Valentine's Day to me.
Like, I just feel like it's people go out of their way to
like buy things and like just show their love and like just
weird fucking ways. And I've always just like done
food at home with the family or like maybe I've gone out to like
lunch or something with my mom. But it's never been like some
like thing people literally like, that's a day of like
buying like thousands of dollars worth of things for like
girlfriends or whatever, like wives because they're a mom.
And that it's always made me uncomfortable because I'm like,
I would never enjoy that. Like I would be thinking about
all of the things that we could save our money to like, spend
on. And I would feel so guilty about
that. I will say that Mother's Day has
never really been a big thing around me either.
But there has been times that my, like, Mother's Day birthday
will happen and people are like, this is what we're doing.
And I'll just, like, when I was younger, I would just, like,
listen, But now I'm just like, OK, well, I'm not doing that.
It's my birthday. I'm gonna go do me.
So, yeah, in the last, like probably five years, I feel like
I've taken back my power for my birthdays just because I've been
doing what I want to do. I've been doing whatever it is
that I feel called to do rather than some Mother's Day weekend
or it's this or that, you know? But I didn't realize that you
were turning 30. I didn't realize that.
I I don't know why. So you want to hear about my
birthday party? Sure.
So it's funeral themed because we're saying goodbye to my 20s
and I'm slowly dying. So Brian bought that hearse for
the food truck, but I'm going to show it to my birthday in the
hearse and we're going to have like, my friend Tonya's hosting
it at her house and she's like, I don't want you to have to host
anything and then like, clean up after people.
Like, I'll just host it and she's got a playground in the
back so we can have kids go and like, run around.
Nobody has to worry about babysitters or whatever.
Kids can go play, but she's making it a murder mystery
party. So she's got a bunch of like
different murder mystery games for everybody to play.
And I'm going to make like, sides and dips and shit and
that's what we're going to do. And I need your opinion.
I think that it would be fucking fantabulous for people to have
to like, what's it called? Like an obituary.
Is that what it's called when people have to, like, go and
they have to, like say something about you, like read something
at your funeral? I was like, I feel like I would
love that If that was an optional thing.
And Brian's like, that's going to be like, really traumatic.
He's like, I don't want to feel like I'm actually at your
funeral, but I think it'd be amazing.
It's not obituaries like what goes out about you when you've
died, but that's not what it would be called when they're
giving a speech about. You.
Yeah. What's it called?
The. Eulogy.
Yeah, and I personally love a
themed party. I like really.
Wanna start hosting like my own Halloween party?
Like renting a space? I've been, I've been
entertaining this for like a few years.
You all about like renting a big space and selling tickets to
like a themed costume party for Halloween and having like door
prizes and everything. Like having everything would be
so cool. But every time I'm like, damn,
that's a lot of work. But I love that that your
friend's gonna host it for you. That's awesome.
I'm actually having a birthday party that's hosted and it's
going to be like a Derby. Kentucky Derby is like such a
big thing. It's Derby week, so if you don't
know what that is listening with Derby week it's the fastest 2
minutes in sports. It's a very rich people game and
it's a very old money thing. So all the celebrities will be
in town this week. They'll be frequenting places.
Like, this is a really good week to like go out to the bars or go
out places because like, you'll run into Jack Black or fucking
whoever. Like just random people like
Robert Patton and Pattinson. Or like, just do you just like,
run into the most random people Like Beyoncé and Jay-Z will show
up like Derby hosts, like some really big people.
And like Kid Rock will show up Just random.
Are you gonna be doing that?
No I don't cause like it's literally not even for the
locals like it used to be. Derby was on Saturday and Oaks
was on Friday and Friday was for the locals.
So celebrities on Saturday, locals on Friday, then everyone
decided they were going to travel and this was like on
bucket list. So then Friday and Saturday
became for out of town people and then they gave the locals
Thursday which was called Thurby like Thurby.
Then then they went to Wednesday.
I don't know what they was calling it.
Now girl it's today it's Tuesday, it's called 5 O Tuesday
because our area code is 5 O2 so it's called 5 O Tuesday and I'm
like, I mean who? The fuck wants to go out on a
Thursday, Wednesday or fucking Tuesday?
I'm. Telling you they instead.
Of a Friday. What?
That's fuck, they're like, you know what?
You live locally here. If this is your zip code, fuck
you. See you Tuesday.
Literally. And so a lot of people's
employers and like big events and things are like happening
right now at the track tonight with like catered food and, you
know, all the goodies. But it's just crazy to me how it
used to be Thursday, like it was Thursday for a long time after
it was Friday, like, I've been on a Friday before.
But when you're younger, like going to Oaks seems cool, but
let's just say it's $130.00. And if it rains, you're standing
in mud and people wear heels and stuff.
Like, people dress up like they're going to this fancy
building place and they're literally going to a place that
is filled with dirt, mud and the occasional horseshit.
Like, it's wild to me. It's a wild concept.
I got a question for you. Sure.
Would you ever get a hairless cat?
Honestly I would love to have a Sphinx cat but they're very high
maintenance like you think like oh they don't shed.
No, they are high fucking maintenance and they secrete a
lot of oils that like hair absorbs on a cat And I'm not
getting any more animals until somebody goes over the Rainbow
Bridge and then I'll be devastated and probably won't
for a while. But we're everybody's pretty
healthy and got like 10 to 15 more years kicking.
So no, because of how high maintenance they are.
If it was my only cat, maybe. My husband wants 1.
They're cute. They creep the absolute fuck out
of me. They just look like ball sacks
with bat ears. And it's I I don't know.
It's just something like maybe it's just like a texture thing,
but I feel like it would feel like leather that's been put
over Jello and like you would go to Petit and I just feel like, I
don't know, that's the the consistency.
Of the cats, give them a bath all the time.
And like cats, you normally don't have to bathe them, you
have to give them a bath all the time.
You have to clean their ears all the time.
They start to stink if you don't do these things like weekly.
From my understanding it has to be done weekly and that's a lot
of work. Have you ever washed a fucking
cat? That's what I'm saying.
Like my my cats, my older cats will take a bath.
They don't like it, but they will sit there while I give them
bath. If they get a chance to jump
out, they'll try, but they'll let me give them a fucking bath
if it's time for a bath. But they might get 2A year.
You know what I mean? Like, because they don't need
them really. I'll just do it to get the, you
know, like oils and dander off of them completely and just
reset. But I don't know.
I know a lot of people who have them and they love them and
they're like obsessed. And recently Jasmine, the girl
we had on the podcast had some kitten ones and they were really
cute. She has one.
Adorable. She has like a whole zoo of
animals, like she has birds and cats and chickens and dogs and
everything. She seems like somebody.
She has like a really gentle soul.
She seems like somebody who would be surrounded by various
animals and who wouldn't mind high maintenance animals.
She seems like a high maintenance animal type person.
Like if she was like, I have a draft in the backyard, I'd be
like, fuck yeah, you do. Yeah, she has birds, which I
feel like are some of the most high maintenance animals that
exist. I feel like birds and really any
type of birds, even chickens. But my aunt has always like had
birds 'cause she was like allergic to other animals, so.
We had a bird and I don't know what fucking.
I think the bird like flew itself, like on the cage or
something I'd like. I think it hit itself, but I
picked it up and then it started like contorting its body
backwards and I literally like hot potato to this fucking bird.
Like not like that sounds dramatic.
He kind of was starting to slip and fell, but I caught him and
it was a gentle catch. So anyways, that creeped me the
fuck out and he died not because I tossed him, but just whatever
the fuck happened to him. He died.
And I was literally devastated about we had just gotten this
bird. I didn't even like the fucking
bird. I didn't really care that I
wasn't gonna have the bird. But something about the animal
dying, like when you're holding it, it just, I don't know, creep
me out. I can't imagine how there are
people who can, like, dissect fucking animals and shit for
science, for fucking personal pleasure, whatever their fucking
weirdness may be. That's a special kind of
somebody, 'cause I could never. Yeah.
I don't like other people's blood or blood in general.
Like I could do my own blood, but I can't do other people's
like bodily fluids at all. Like, no, but birds, they be
doing way too much. Like, I love birds, but just
when I think I love them, they shit on my car and I'm like,
then I gotta get it all ASAP. And I just they be doing the
most like birds sometimes be doing the fucking most.
And I like them from a distance. I like other people's birds.
I mean, I'm talking about wild birds.
I'm talking about just birds. And I like them.
I like them at a distance. We saw, so we were on a hike.
This was last month. So we're on a hike and I'm
looking over in this field and I see all these turkeys and I was
like, oh, like that's a bunch of turkeys, whatever.
And I'm walking and my brother in law's, like all those birds
up there that look like turkeys. I said, yeah, he said they're
Ravens. And I was like, what?
And then I stopped and I was looking.
They were fucking Ravens. They were the size of turkeys.
I've never seen birds. I I've never seen Ravens that
were that fucking big. I don't know if they fucking eat
people off the path. I don't know what is happening.
Witches are keeping them plump up there or something.
These birds were fucking massive.
They were so beautiful. That's so cool.
That's really interesting. What do you have in your hand?
Packing paper like string I it came in a package today and I've
just been nervously playing with it.
Are your nails with your bows snagging on everything?
No, believe it or not. Really 'cause when I got first.
The first day they were I'm gonna definitely have to.
And then I like figured out, like I adjusted.
I'm definitely gonna have to like put gloves on when I wash
my hair, though. Like, I'm gonna get like the
gloves from the food truck when I wash my hair because my hair
will snag in the bows. That's what I meant.
And my hair snags, but other things don't.
Mine were snagging everything. Thread a little cheap ass
sweater from Sheen. I mean anything it could snag or
get hooked on. I had this dress when I was
wearing them. I didn't like it.
I didn't like. I didn't like that or the spider
web because of all the pointy. Well, I guess like when I put a
shirt on or a sweater, Like, I just put my hands and a fist and
I didn't get anything on my thumbs.
Thumbs would snag way fucking more, 'cause you can't curl your
fingers in. And so then I just like, fucking
punch my way through my clothes and I'm good.
I. Did have to hold my loofah like
packed in there. Yeah, I feel it.
I feel it. You know, I go in phases where I
like a lot of stuff on my nails, and then I'll go through phases
where I don't want anything. Like I want it smooth.
It's like a texture thing, but sometimes I really like having
texture on there. Have you heard of junk nails?
Yeah, I have. There's this one person that I
watch and his nails are literally like so fucking long.
And today I watched him eat hot wings and he like picked the
wing up, the boneless wing with just his nails and dipped it in
whatever. And I was like, how are your
nail beds enduring this? Because like, I get, I get like,
I don't get my nails short, like I get my nails long, but I that
fucking long. And then he's got like all types
of stuff piled on it, 'cause it's junk nails, you know, those
bitches are fucking heavy. And I'm like, how does and he
has like small little hands. So my nail lady was telling me
that a lot of those sets that you see are press ONS and
they're doing like that Gel X adhesive that like will keep
them on there and then they're cleaning them and reusing them.
Oh no. So this guy did the whole thing.
He goes and he gets bills and like he shows getting his nails
done. He's like, so he goes and
actually gets them done. But I just, I'm like how I do
know people will use press ONS and and redo them.
My daughter asked me if what if your nails pop off can I just
glue them on. I was like, absolutely fucking
not your. Nails.
Yeah, she's like, if your nails pop off, can I just glue them
on? Me.
And I was like, no. So I'm buying her a press on set
from the girl who does my nails. She makes press ONS and so I'm
going to gift Iris some. Nice.
Yeah, I meant like on videos. I mean, not necessarily your
guy, but I'm saying like, in general, a lot of those crazy
sets that you see are just press ONS, which would make sense
because some of this shit looks crazy, like I've been seeing
ones that look like cat claws, where they're like arcing them
to look like a claw. It's weird.
I just. I don't know.
I can't do it. I feel like maybe this is our
version of, like, back in my day, we didn't have our nails
like that. We had our nails nice.
And you know what I mean. Oh, back in my day we used the
airbrush machine and you picked the design out of the book.
Or from the nails that were already done with the fancy like
lines and dots and everything the dots if you didn't go
through the dots in the lines face or them charging you
literally like $2.00 per nail to put a glitter line under your
acrylic like so weird. And then what about the white
tips that people would glue on that white tip and just fill it?
And their nail beds were little, but the tip would be like long.
Yep, that's the thing. All the fucking phases.
Oh my God, you're bringing back so many memories for me right
now. I used to do like, black nails
with like, I would do. One nail had like white lines,
the other one had like, dots. The other like I would do all
kinds of just little like fucking things.
I I don't know if this is going to be like a controversial
thing, but it's a fucking fact. Asian ladies always have done
the best fucking nails when I've gotten my nails done.
Like living in California it would.
That's like every shop was you would go in and there would be
like a Vietnamese lady and your nails would be on in fucking 40
minutes out the door. But you did have to pay like
$2.00 per design. But now that I'm in Idaho, that
is. That is not the case.
And the nails here, I'm just making a correlation because the
nails here haven't been hitting until I found my current nail
girl. And in California, things would
just be hitting all the time. So I don't know if it's like
their expert hands, maybe their smaller hands, I don't know.
But they get the fucking job done.
Yeah, I remember I used to go to the Asian shops and this was
back like when I know this is circulating the Internet, like
the $20 fill insurance and the $25 full sets like.
But the crazy thing is is like they really would charge you for
every little thing. Like a cut down.
They would charge you for that. If you broke a nail or had
broken nails and they had to repair them.
They charge you for all that. Every nail that got something on
it, it was a charge and so like it would kind of add up but like
if you wanted just a basic color regular Polish, full set was
like $20.00. But I of course would always
get, you know, designs. And then they came out with
those one tips that were like already colored or already
glitter or a design on them. And then I started getting
those, and I loved those because it would make the nail
underneath like colored, which it was at the time was such a
before it's time. But now I like clear nails that
are encapsulated, so it's just clear.
You see the same design all the way through.
If I'm getting a design, I like it.
Oh, that's. Cute.
Yeah, it's encapsulation, but it's like Ombre.
But it's clear the tip. She built the tip so it was
clear. That's cute.
I get. I get gel not acrylic and so
it's like a nail and it gets put down with gel and then she like
files and forms and does everything and then adds more
gel and like builds the nail out.
Yeah, I don't think I'm getting acrylic either.
I know, I'm pretty sure it's gel because it's like pink what she
uses and it's like the expensive stuff.
Yeah, she. So the gel is like it's almost
like a liquid putty and then and that goes on your nail and the
nail. Yeah, that that's what Jackie
gets. I don't get that she doesn't use
any tip on mine. She builds it from a like a
form, like a metal encapsulation form, and then it's nothing.
Oh, yeah, yeah. Yeah.
OK. She's building the whole thing,
but Jackie gets what you're talking about.
Twins. She does a lot of different
techniques, but like, different people like different things,
you know what I mean? And so I've never had anyone who
wasn't using some type of tip or form.
And then now the reason that my nails can be clear or see
through is 'cause she's not putting any tip on there, She's
just starting with powders and like blending all these glitters
and powders together. It's really cool.
It's actually very rare that people do that, but it takes a
long time. So I have to get like quite a
few fillings because my nail is growing inside of it rather than
underneath it. Oh, interesting.
Yeah. All right.
Well, hop off then. Hop off y'all.
We're having a little nail conversation, so.
I love it. With the last couple weeks of
the podcast, we're trying to wrap up a guest that has been
supposed to come on, which I sent her another e-mail today.
She's someone who gets a lot of emails and she has committed
several times, but then there is always a schedule change or
conflict from one of us three. Like I've done it once, you've
done it once and she's done it once, so I just feel like
eventually it's gonna work out. But she was talking to us about
how she gets like 1000 emails a week and she just like can't
keep up with all of her inbox. So then everything she wants to
see gets lost and she can't remember how far down it it is.
It's hopefully she'll get back to us and we'll be able to
connect with her before our season ends.
I feel like we will. I said earlier Season 2, but
it's season three ending. Yeah, it's.
Yeah, yeah. It's season 3.
Yeah, season three. I feel like we're gonna be right
around the hundred episode mark when we take a break.
I do too. Which is crazy.
Like when you think about having 100 episodes, that's at least
100 hours that we've sat here. It's more than that.
Because in the beginning we were like really trying to make sure
people were liking our podcast and we were having the longest
fucking episodes, like some of the beginning episodes that are
so fire. We're the president of like our
whole brand. We're like an hour and a half.
At least some of them are over an hour and a half.
Yeah. So I want to touch base on
something. Oh, oh.
No, we had Gothic Barbie you all on the podcast, you know,
probably like 5 months ago. And I just was like really
resonated with her journey, like out of all of our guests.
And she was talking about all this plastic surgery that she
had gotten. And I know that, you know, we
talked about that extensively. But she posted the other day
that she's got to get another surgery on her boobs because her
boobs are like too big and whatever for her body, like her
body form. Like, see if I got some big old
boobs, 'cause I already got some boobs, it wouldn't be a big
deal. But she had no boobs.
She posted like a picture of her and her lessons, and this woman
had mosquito bites for real, So she went from that to the
evolution of the Botched Boob Job.
Then last summer, remember, she got more surgery, we got them
redone and went bigger, and since that she did that, one of
them has now felled out like fell down and is like sagging.
And she's got to go a couple sizes back down to where she was
before this happened. She's got to get what she called
a mesh brawl inside of her to frame the bottom of both
implants to hold them up with a boob lift done at the same time.
Ow. And she just got those titties
y'all a year ago when she was telling us about member So.
I do. I do remember.
Yeah. Oh, I love her.
That makes me so sad that she has to go through another
surgery. It's so much.
But remember what she was saying that like, once you get your
first surgery, you just like go ahead and strap in for like 4 or
five of them because. That's, yeah, that hit me so
deep. I remind myself of that every
day. Yeah.
Because not only do you not get everything the way that you want
the first time, but then you also have the repercussions of
getting that instant gratification in your mind.
And then instead of wanting to work towards it or wanting to
take care of your body, it's like, well, I could just get
some lipo here, put it over here, whatever.
So a lot of people are starting to get kind of out of that false
image, especially like, you know, for a while there were so
many people that were like, oh, I went to the gym and and I'm so
fit. And now like that's starting to
be exposed big time. And the influencer things about
people saying they've gotten in the gym and they're eating
right, but really they got surgery.
I believe it. I think that a lot of people
still operate in like, the world of secrecy and not wanting other
people to truly see them. And I was thinking about it
today too. Like, there are certain
influencers who they're going to show every little thing about
their life. They're going to over share
personal, what I would consider an over share of like really
personal, intimate details of like every single thing.
And then there are other people who were able to show certain
parts of their life and then not others.
And I always wonder, like what people are putting out there
that's actually authentic about their real life and what is just
like, oh, well, I'm on social media.
I'm getting my views. I can be a character and do
whatever. And so I'm going to do this and
not realize the influence that they have on other people.
You know what I mean? Like they could be doing the the
fitness thing or whatever as a way to gain views, not realizing
that there are people who like, maybe are like overweight.
And, you know, thinking that they'll just follow her plan and
then it'll all work out for them when in reality it's surgical
results. Yeah, and then also just like
all the celebrities that were getting access to Ozempic
before, it's now went mainstream and people are losing like 60
lbs over the course of like 3 months.
And then saying that it's diet and exercise when really y'all
are tripping. And especially the wealthy and
the elites and people who have money like they've been having
access to that probably for like 15 fucking years like that
shit's been before anything goes to market, it is around
extensively all besides the COVID-19 vaccine because that
that had to go right out that that couldn't even be tested,
that had to be right out there on the market.
And you know how many people have died from like heart
related conditions that did not have heart conditions prior to
taking the COVID vaccine. Never even on record.
No family history. There's so many young people I
know that are having like ovarian assist cysts and all
hair loss. Yeah, like all these other
things that like, you know, there's someone on my timeline
right now. I don't know her personally, but
she's under 30 and her cancer is back for the second time and
it's like was supposed to be non invasive, like, you know, so I'm
just like there's some correlation, people that took
three or four of those COVID shots.
Yep. I agree.
And I mean, so many people though, like only got it because
of mass hysteria or because, well, my job said that they're
going to fire me or they're going to do this or they're
going to do that. And that is the problem that I
always had with that, that I have with anything, is to tell
somebody that they're going to have something stripped away if
they don't do what it is that you're wanting them to do,
regardless of what the reason is.
Like I Yeah, we are going to kill people and you're just
killing everybody or whatever. Like it's some kind of like mass
like zombie apocalyptic outbreak and people literally stop.
Like I had family members literally not speak to me
because Idaho was open and California wasn't back open and
we were just out. We didn't have to have mask
mandates or anything like that. And people literally angry that,
like, it's only opening up for the economy and like, you're
killing people. Yeah, I got a lot of backlash
when I chose not to get vaccinated.
And what was really cool about the whole situation is that at
the end of the day, everyone that I care about was safe.
And I was safe. And that's what, you know,
really mattered. But I think that it created more
problems and fix them. I think people, you know, having
natural immunity to something is always going to surpass any
vaccine. Most people haven't had any
updated vaccines since they went to school.
So, you know, you're still surviving and you haven't had an
updated vaccine for TB since you went to school, you know what I
mean? So, like, I think our body
builds a natural defense. But it's true that like they
kind of made it a super, you know, super germ by trying to
overkill the treatment of it. And I think exposed other people
like it expose their immune system to other things.
And you know, just the people like that still to the say have
no sense of taste or smell or you know like just these random
things. I just think that a lot of that
also could be side effects from the vaccine, like in my opinion,
you know what I mean? Because I just think like, how
do you know there's no constant, most vaccines go through
extensive trial process. And the fact that it didn't I'll
always forever die on that hill that like there was something
about wanting to keep people home.
It was also an election year and it kept people from in person
voting, kept a lot of people from in person voting after
things weren't even open to vote.
So you know, there's just so many elements to it to me that
you can't convince me or not correlated in some way.
Facts on facts. I agree with everything that you
just said. I've been screaming it from the
rooftops since day one. Thankfully here like in Idaho,
we really had so many people that were like, I'm not wearing
a fucking mask and like when in the store, like, our store
didn't really press it. But it became the thing that,
like, I would laugh with my husband about it because we can,
you can open Carrie in Idaho. And so you would notice that the
people who weren't wearing masks were usually carrying openly.
And I just happened to notice the correlation.
And my husband's like, yeah, it looks very stereotypical
politically. Yes, I agree.
I think just deep down there was just some.
There was a deep conspiracy happening during all of that.
And what I love about it right now is that the job market has
been like shaken. And that's what's really in the
rising economy is that a lot of people demanded higher paying
wages. And unfortunately, capitalism is
not built on equal exchange or equal distribution or equal
profit shares or holdings. Whereas our grandparents and
other people were convinced that giving your life to a company
was going to help you long term, we just realize that's not true.
Well, so many people had time to be inside of their homes and be
crafting and figuring out how to, like, make groceries last
because they weren't wanting to go to the store and they weren't
sure of what was happening or whatever.
And so I saw a whole bunch of people getting away from MLM
businesses where they're selling somebody else's product and
start doing their own thing and setting their own thing up
financially. And that's something that I
think is really cool because I've talked about it before, but
I just think that fucking MLM businesses snake people and
they're always talking about having, you know, built all this
money and all this whatever, because of this company.
But and you know that they've built this business and this
brand, but they usually only make like 30%.
They have to buy the product themselves or qualify.
And they're constantly like, Oh well, bombard your family with
this, do that, do this. And these companies make so much
money off of literal just making somebody else work for them.
Yeah, my mom loves like Cincy, which is an MLM type business
and she loves fucking having those parties like Pampered Chef
or now she's having a Tupperware party.
You all, if anybody wants to come, she's like blowing me up
with the AT everyone tag. And like every day I have a
notification from my mom and her Tupperware group and I'm just
like, please Jill, like, please. She's always telling me you
should have a party. Your friends would eat it up.
And I'm like I don't want to. I would still go to a separate
party with you and your mom, dude.
Virtually, it's like an online thing.
It's not really. Oh, that's simple.
What's she going to do? Be like this is this one.
It's a nine by six. I like to put tuna casserole in
it. Yeah, basically.
Probably the sales lady goes live in the group and people
claim things or I don't know. I think also there's a catalog.
But my mom like got obsessed with this lady who does Scentsy.
So she bought me a Scentsy and it's like a sugar skull and it
you can put different colored bulbs in it and I have lime
green and it's cool. I like it a lot.
It's I use it all the time. But then she was like sending me
other ones. And I'm like, Mom, I'm not
buying another. I'm not buying a Scentsy warmer.
Like, I understand that you want me to like, get into Scentsy,
'cause she's always like buying me little Scentsy.
They have car air fresheners and they have all kinds of stuff.
But now her friend. I'm not Scentsy.
Has me on the mailing list, so now every month I'm getting a
catalogue and all this stuff I don't want.
Scentsy if you want to sponsor us.
She's in samples though. Like she does send samples, so I
can say that. But one month, y'all.
She sent me a calculator, A Scentsy calculator.
So now I just have two solo calculators in the drawer
thinking like, what am I doing with these?
Like I've wanted to just like toss them so many times that I'm
like, what am I doing with this? Your mom probably got some type
of fucking mystery box from Sensi, some type of like welcome
to the cult box and it had a fucking calculator in it and she
had to give you a gift and she was looking around and said what
can I ah, I'll give her a fucking calculator.
Oh, the lady that sells it sent it to me.
Oh, I thought your mom got it for you.
I was like, your mom have to do a fucking.
Calculator. Oh, my mom got me some stuff
from her friend at Cincy, and now her friend got my address
because my mom bought me some things and had her ship it
directly to me. You know what I mean?
And now she sends me like little free samples and little things
every month. And she sent me a calculator,
which is now just a very useless item that I don't need at all.
Imagine sending. Listen, if I wasn't a better
woman, I would totally want to be on somebody's mailing list to
just send me free samples every fucking month.
I don't have to do anything except you have my address and
you're going to just send me fucking samples and shit every
month. Sign me up.
I want it on that. They do that so that maybe one
day you'll buy it. If you buy some like wax forms
or something from her, you'll be on there and you'll get a prize
every month. Mine's in the mailbox for me.
She sends samples of the nuisance for every month, and
some of them smell great. I'll buy some samples.
That's incredible. Eventually I'll buy some like
refills for my wax warmer, but my mom has gotten me sucked.
Battle of Moms. That's her guilty pleasure.
Well, she's taken away business from her friend by being a good
mom, so she should tell him that shit down.
Did I? Now that I think about it, I had
a dream about you and your mom the other night, and I don't
remember any details about it, but I remember that I woke up in
the morning and I was like, oh, I have to tell Paige that I had
a dream about her and her mom. But I've never, like, talked to
your mom or met your mom or know Jack shit about your mom.
So I don't know, she was your mom in my dream.
Yeah, well, she comments on your post.
Now you're probably like this, this lady.
It's my mom. Yeah, she's incompetent on some
of your stuff. She.
She's a Facebook lover. She loves Facebook.
Y'all can I speak? I can feel when people are
thinking about me. And so I recently received a
text message, and for those that don't know, I have two phones.
So I received this text message on both phones and I've had the
second phone for like over five years.
So for anyone to have the very first phone number that I ever
like had, you've had to have known me for like a quite some
time, you know what I mean? Like eight years or something,
you know? So it can just be anyone that
would text me on both numbers to make sure I'm seeing the message
they're sending, right. And this comes the same week
that AT&T sent me an e-mail and said that my identity was leaked
during their little data breach. Yeah, my Social Security number
and some other personal information was leaked.
And they've given me like an identity protection.
I already had one, but they gave me an extensive version for a
year and $1,000,000 policy for insurance that I can claim on if
something happens. So you know it is what it is,
but like, it makes me realize how rapidly you know things
could happen. But this message is so weird.
Like what they texted me and so so I wore this shirt the other
day and it it's like like Vincent van Gogh's painting and
I like had it on and I decided to like upload Tiktok and a reel
and kind of like made a post across platforms.
Oh, I remember that shirt, OK. That day and I got a text on
Saturday, so I don't remember when I wore it, but it was like
Saturday. I got a text message on both
phones and it was at like 8:00 at night, so it wasn't late.
And it said, I really. I think it's funny how you used
to bash your ex and then you would be at the mall or out to
eat with him and now you're wearing a shirt that matches his
tattoos like this is what the message says.
So I knew instantly. But it's the ex.
Like that's who it is. It has to be.
So this is really funny for the listeners.
So this exit me. We have not dated in a very long
time, but I felt like maybe like a couple months ago that like he
had been kind of thinking about me.
And I'm not gonna lie like, OK, I used to be toxic, so I went
and I unblocked him so I could creep, like, on his life because
I just felt him thinking about me, right?
Like, I felt it. So I unblocked him and I didn't
feel the need to block him back. We don't communicate anymore, so
I just left it unblocked. Well, I guess in the last couple
months he's realized that I've unlocked him and he peeped my
video, decided to text me off a text app like a text message
app. Rather than unblock my number,
he has my number blocked. But I had him blocked on social
media. So like this weird.
Like real weird flex. So this is great.
Y'all this is real good content. His birthday happened, and on
his birthday he chose to wear an outfit that has that same print.
He does have a tattoo with it, but like, what's that matter?
You know what I mean? Like it's instant and go, it's
fucking starry night. Like everyone?
Like the fucking the fucking fact that he thinks that because
he got something tattooed on him that now like it's his signature
fucking move, bro. And so, like, how dare you?
Like, imagine, imagine roles reversed, right?
Like imagine that you see a TikTok of him and he's wearing
like shorts that have cherries on them and you send him a text
on 2 fucking phones from an app. And you're like, I can't believe
that it's been all these years and that you're going to wear
cherries knowing it's your. Ex's brand.
Literally. That's.
Exactly. What do you call?
You weirdo has. Happened and transpired.
And so me being who like I personally am, when I had
unblocked him, his profile was on private, everything was
private. I couldn't see anything.
But then I had realized that Joober follows him and because
we it's a very small place around here and he used to date
someone that she knew. So it's like, you know, this the
universe. So I was like, well, screenshot
his profile to me real quick. So we heaped it a couple months
ago. But then recently I had felt
like his energy and then I get that message and I texted them
back and I was like and and they didn't say nothing.
And I know it at this point, I'm like pretty sure it's him
because like both phones, OK, one phone, not him, both phones
him. So then and I was like this
person really wanted me to see this message and like engage
with this. So when I said and.
I got to go. My ex has been creeping my
social media for the last couple months since I've unblocked him.
He has been in a long term relationship for like 2 years
and they live together and I know him and I know that if he's
going to say something, he's not going to like unblock me and
like put his pride aside to be like, hey, I'm reaching out to
you so. What if it's a jealous?
What if it's a jealous person that he's in a relationship with
that saw your video and is like she's going to wear the art of
my man on her skin? Well, side note, she has me
blocked. I don't, I never like, have
interacted with her, so she has me blocked.
I've never even met her. Did you try to see if you're
unblocked? From her, No, she has not
unblocked me. No, he he I had him blocked.
So I don't know where she blocked me along this storyline.
But what I will say is this number texted both my phones
said that. When I replied, I said, so I
find that interesting that you're reaching out about this
and I'm interested to know why or something.
I said something along those lines.
And so the person replied to me and they said that, you know, I
just used to bash him all the time and they just thought they
just found it really funny. And then at the end of it, they
were like, I like your shirt though, and that's when I knew
it was him, that's when I knew it was him.
I like your shirt though. So then his birthday happens
like 2 days later, which is today.
And he's wearing that hat like that print on a bucket hat
today, today. So I'm like, I know it was you
now. Like, and I looked at his story
yesterday because I noticed now he's off private.
Like, you're interacting with me now, your shifts.
I'm on private. So I liked a picture of him and
his grandma. His grandma's a sweet lady.
She's the only one in his family I like.
So I just like the picture just so he knows.
Like, I'm watching you. I see you.
I hear you. And then today, after looking at
my story, he knew I would click on his story and he's wearing
that hat and I cannot deal. Why are you disturbing me days
ago? My favorite part of this is the
fact that you decided to go and like his picture, you were like,
Oh, well, I know that you've been contacting me, so let me
just tell you that I'm about to sneak up on your post too, so
that we both know that we know what's going on.
That's exactly what I was thinking.
Because like, don't block me like a man.
Don't write me from a text app saying some third party
bullshit. Don't try to act like a third
party, bro. Because I promise you there is
no person on this God's green earth that has both of my phone
numbers that would know anything about your tattoos or anything
about you, bro. Like, don't flatter yourself to
think that I'm just going to randomly think this is just a
random person. Like, yes, my bestie Juber may
be friends with you on Facebook and on Instagram, but that does
not mean that everyone in my life knows who you are.
Because what the fuck, No one's observing that.
Five years have went by and I'm wearing a Vincent van Gogh shirt
because we dated like five years ago.
Like, longer than that. That's crazy.
For me, it's the keeping the numbers for five years, keeping
the numbers for all these years, and then texting both of them.
But the fact that you have them have me blocked, because then I
thought, I'm pretty sure my number is blocked, but I
decided, hell, it's your birthday and you're acting some
type of way. I'm going to text you happy
birthday and it went green. So he's either gotten a whole
new number, which I don't think he would, or I'm just blocked
still because he always had my number blocked and I always had
his social media blocked. Or it's not really him and he's
like, why the fuck is crazy ass Paige over here texting me and
shit and liking my stuff? He didn't get, he didn't get the
message. It didn't go through.
What if your What if your theory is wrong though maybe he doesn't
have iPhone anymore? What if your theory is
incorrect? It would be too predictable
because I promise you, like today seeing on his story that
he's wearing that in his birthday outfit, he's a very
like, we're both tourists and he is a very like methodical
planning type person. Like he knew what he was going
to wear on his birthday a fucking week ago or he bought
something specifically for it, like whatever it is.
So either. You think home Girl knows that
he that Herman's over here texting you about?
Hey, why are you wearing my tattoo?
No, I think that this is what I think.
I think they've reached another plateau in their relationship,
'cause this is their second time.
They dated before me and him dated, and then he got back with
her after treating her like shit.
He never treated me like he treated her.
He treated this girl so fucking bad.
And it blows my mind that she would get back with him like it
really does, 'cause he didn't knew none of this shit he did to
me that he did to her. And they've been back together
for like over 2 years, so I don't know.
I think they just reached another plateau.
Like, it's basically at the point of, like, he's not happy.
He hasn't been happy. So now he's like, let me poke
the fire, Let's see what the bear is doing.
Let's see what the old bear is kicking around.
Oh, she's wearing my tattoo. And he thought about it.
He took it as a subliminal and he ran with it.
And all I can say is I didn't even think about you.
I've had that shirt for two years.
I have two shirts like that, actually.
I. Think that's a really poor way
for him to treat somebody that like he's been in any type of a
relationship with, to not like, have the decent respect, to be
like, hey, I give a fuck what my ex has going on.
So maybe I shouldn't be inside of this dynamic because if you
give a fuck about somebody else, why the fuck are you here?
So and then I feel bad for the girl because regardless like if
he's been fucking doing dirty shit on her before or treats her
poorly and her his ex knows about it because it's so widely
known or he's admitted it and said it like I I feel bad for
her that that's her experience. And Homie sounds slimy as a
motherfucker. And the fact that he thinks like
Van Gogh painted that for his like personal brand or some shit
is mind boggling to me and wish you the best and all.
But he's probably going to be single, and if you date him
again, I swear to fuck, I'll come to Kentucky.
OK, look, I would not be surprised if this man has not
been keeping up with the podcast for the last two years because
that's who he is as a person. Like, he the moment I unblocked
him, it was probably like he had searched my name.
And then one day it came up right?
Like he had definitely typed in my name prior.
And with being able to like hear people's thoughts or hear
people's energy or think like all of a sudden like I I'm like
thinking about the person that's thinking about me or whatever I
had just like a day. I've unblocked a bunch of people
though. Like I I get to a point with
people where now me winning, I want you to see it.
Like now I want you to see me winning and I don't give a fuck.
Like I've reached that point where your name pops up and it
does not bother me. So I blocked, unblocked a shit
ton of people like maybe like 30-40 people.
Just cause like I get annoyed with people and I block them and
then down once I've healed. I'm like not bothered by the
situation like I was. Oh no.
It's a very rare occasion that I give an unblocked.
If you get unblocked, like I I don't know what you had to do,
because if you're fucking blocked, I'll be like, Oh yeah,
no trash. I'll hope that you've grown, but
I won't want to check out and find out.
For me, it's not really always checking into them, but it's
more of like I I think Peach posted that she does this as
well. About like once I've healed and
once I've grown and once I've elevated enough from the
situation, it's almost like a sense of being rewarded.
Knowing that you're still going to check up on me, 'cause now
you can, and that you're still obsessed with me, or that you
still, like, secretly. Like, you know some of those
girls from last year. Like, I know memories are
popping up and they've been thinking about the situation,
'cause that was a year ago, and for one, none of them bitches
were shit like nothing that they said threatened or any of that.
Like, fuck all y'all. Like, one of them was like, your
cat's going to die. Like, bitch, chill, chill,
please. But you know, like so many
people think what they're doing is affecting you.
If I unblock you, you have no power over me anymore because I
literally do not care. And it's weird because there was
just so many people that unblocked, even like old friends
and stuff, 'cause like, I just don't.
I just don't care anymore. Like, I don't know, Like it's
like I've I've gotten my own closure, you know?
But I personally don't like having bad blood with people or
like, having drama. You know what I mean?
Like, I I don't want him to do anything against like, his
girlfriend, like just, 'cause you're bored and whatever.
Like, obviously, like, I don't know what you're doing, but I
know that you're in my story views.
You definitely texted me, period boy.
So if you're listening, which I would think that he might,
because he's a podcast guy, he reads books like a fucking robot
and he's very smart. So like, I could see him wanting
to know what we're talking about on here because he, from a ghost
account, has already seen multiple times.
You know what I mean? Like, he's that type of guy.
Like he definitely has a burner account and he definitely uses
sex apps and he always has. He always has since I've known
him. So I don't know.
So like when you say maybe this is his girlfriend, though this
is definitely him. She probably thinks everything's
fine. Or or he's back to treating her
like shit and everything's not fine and she wants to leave.
It could be one. It could be 5050.
They could be happy and he could be trying to fuck it up.
Or. Or they could be unhappy.
Either way, I know him. And today being his birthday, I
don't know why he'd be thinking about me like, boy, think about
yourself. Think about yourself.
I just pulled one of your cards out of the Divine Intervention
Oracle and it was card number 9 and said I had to really see
myself because what I was seeing, I didn't like it at all.
It was uncomfortable, but I had to grow.
That's where he's been. That's facts, that check.
That's. Fact, it's almost like I wrote
it myself. That's the checks.
That's checks. But, you know, I think people
can grow and and elevate. But once there's this other
version of you in my head, like someone who has manipulated me
or lied to me, like he never, he never cheated on me.
He's just a liar. He's just a liar, pathological
liar about his drug activity and drug use.
And mommy and daddy like, had money to keep it hushy.
And like, I just don't like how your whole family disrespects
every person that would come into your life.
Because like, behind the scenes you're like, if you tell them
I'll kill myself and then like, out in the public you're like,
this is going to be my baby mom, you know, like or whatever.
Like, I don't know. He's all over the place with his
like lies and like. I want to hope that he's
changed, but he's definitely playing a little game.
Can I tell you just some? Just a fact.
I knew his entire personality off of you telling me what he
texted you. So, like the information that
you've given is like great filler information to like, back
it up. I think anybody who listened to
that text message to you about you fucking wearing Van Gogh
because it's his tattoo, they already fucking knew that.
Yeah, it it's giving like insecure, tiny Dick energy.
Why are you going to the movies? We should be hanging out type
fucking bullshit while he's over there like watching porn all the
time and like done doing random shit and drugs.
So that's that's the vibe. No, that's not, that's not
really. He's very clingy.
He was very clingy. He didn't want to go do nothing.
He would he would like, do his drugs around you and then you
all of a sudden he'd just be fucked up and you would just act
like he wasn't. It was just like, that was at
the end of our relationship though, like, and I'm not gonna
lie, you all, I had substance abuse issues in my life too.
And around that same time, this is fucking literally almost a
decade ago since I met this guy. So you know, you just never know
what you're getting yourself into.
But when people have family who enable them and protect them and
hush money, you know anything's possible, truly.
But I'm hope truly this was entertaining for you all 'cause
I've been pretty entertained with with the update.
Cause normally I don't get a lot of ghost writer text messages.
I don't get people texting me saying dumb shit, 'cause they
know I'm a witch and they really aren't trying to get these
flames. They ain't really trying to fill
this heat. He said.
I'm ready for it. I know.
That's why I feel like there's we're unhappy or we're breaking
up already or I want to break up.
So let's see what what's going over here?
Because it's given. I miss you.
It's it's given I have a whole last person at home, but I'm
thinking about you. But for years on end, I would
think deep down his whole day has been consumed with thinking
about me since I liked his his picture this.
Good Lord. Maybe for days though.
Maybe for the last few days, because like Texas, the same
thing twice. You don't.
I surely don't. I Nope.
So we'll we'll receive your votes about what happens next in
the trilogy, trilogy the trilogy.
Trilogy. That's what we should name this
episode. Trilogy.
Were you going to do a my human design?
I was not tonight because I'm in the middle of packing up the
podcast room. That's why I'm sitting in front
of a bookshelf. I'm putting all new furniture in
here and my cards are packed away currently.
Wow, that's really ghetto. So please tell everyone how Jim
and I forgot to do our signature move.
Well, I have your cards. I pulled one of your cards.
I know, but that was just for calling me out.
We need to call the girl out. I can.
I can walk over there and I can go grab the deck if we really
need to fucking. How far is it?
On the other side of the room in a box.
Is it readily accessible? Yeah, my foot's asleep, which is
going to be the hardest part, but why don't you tell us one
more story while we're waiting like you're our fucking mother?
I recently was invited to go on a trip for a a weekend and I
will just say I am not getting into cars, vehicles, trips,
planes, buses, boats with anyone that I don't like personally
walk with. Like, I have a lot of people who
will randomly invite me to do things and I'm like, yeah,
that's going to be great. Like going to meet new people.
I'm on the network and then the people that they bring are
stank, coochie, stink, booty vibes.
And the whole time I'm like, damn, this person's energy is
low. And then I'm like in my head,
like, damn, like what the fuck? I'm absorbing all this
negativity from this person. And like, I don't, I don't rock
with people like this. And then it gets to the point
you all were on this trip or on this excursion, I have to like,
put in headphones and just check out.
It's fucked up. So just remind me the next time
I'm gonna go with a stranger on a trip or do anything with a
stranger that you're like, no, that don't work.
You know, I feel like you. In my mind, I'm thinking she
should have learned this lesson when we went to Utah, because we
we learned that. And then I was like, fuck those
mountains in Utah. Then Card 62 came out, and if
you look at it, it looks like this.
Fucking Utah mountains that we went through.
Mountains, mountains. So it's card 62.
The card is essence, the sign is cancer, the gift is knowingness,
and the shadow is intellect. Awakening within the great
expanse that is the gift requires remembering your truest
essence. In this space, you recognize
that all schools of thought, all disciplines and fields, are
valiant human attempts to make sense of our universe and its
phenomena, and yet they also fall short of fully
encapsulating what it means to exist.
This seed of knowledge presents a new opportunity for you to
question the way we've understood our world, and this
begins by poking holes in your own subjective viewpoint.
You rediscover an intelligent beyond the mind that pulses
through every facet of your being, every cell, and every
pore. You find yourself within the
fabric of the cosmos and reconnect with an intristic
knowingness that is always resided within you.
And then the shadow is intellect.
This shadow centers on the mind and your intellectual powers in
particular. Within the dominant worldview,
mental abilities equate to superiority.
We administer tests and give rewards, ranked students based
on scores and judge based on resumes and schooling.
The pinnacle of excellence is to be labeled smart and yet relying
solely on this trait. This minute aspect of who you
are confines you. Within this box you are limited
to the man made constructions of physical sphere, all of its
facts, science books and theories.
Of course all of these tools serve a useful purpose in
understanding our world. But if we discard our hearts and
relinquish our intuition for the sake of glorifying fact and the
current consensus about what holds value, we forfeit our
chance for lasting transcendence.
When we hold on so tightly to a single attribute, we deny the
divine spectrum of who we truly are.
Your themes are intelligence, transcendence, and values.
And that is just what the doctor ordered.
Jim and I thank you for your service to this collective.
Happy. To help.
So we have a really exciting announcement.
We're going to be dropping some bonus collective reading
episodes where we both are going to individually do a bonus
reading for our audience as an extension of our gratitude.
And just you know, for those that have never had a reading or
have never been on video chat with us to connect on a deeper,
more intimate level. These are things that we do for
our Patreons that we do individually on our websites.
But we wanted to just kind of set that intention now that
we're moving into the faster pace months plus we're taking a
two-month hiatus to just kind of engage and get you all a little
blueprint to carry you through. So we're excited about that,
introducing something new, but most importantly, we're just
excited for this milestone two years with our podcast baby and
we are just so grateful. Fuck yeah.
I don't have anything to add to that.
We love you. See you next time.
Bye. Bye, bye.