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Welcome to Fucking Candy Land, 
hosted by Rampage and Gemini. 

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Welcome back to that Candy Land 
after a long month off. 

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How are you feeling? 
Jim and I? 

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I'm so happy to be here. 
My life is felt incomplete 

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without. 
I mean, we talk all the time, 

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but not recording our our stuff,
every conversation. 

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We're like, this should be a 
podcast episode. 

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Honestly, I think that taking 
this time off was a really good 

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way to bring clarity into both 
of our worlds. 

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I feel like in the last month so
much has been revealed and the 

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thing I love about growth is 
when you react different to 

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those triggers or those 
obstacles and they no longer get

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as much of your energy or your 
time or your efforts, But you're

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like, okay cool. 
I know me, and that's going to 

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be enough. 
I like that every single 

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obstacle that gets thrown at us,
we just figure out a different 

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way of growing through that. 
And it seems like everything 

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that gets thrown at us, that's 
supposed to make us frustrated 

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with each other or something, it
actually just makes us grow 

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closer and figure out okay, So 
what are we going to do 

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differently to keep on doing 
what we're doing? 

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The really cool thing that I 
feel like has happened in the 

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last month is like with Venus 
being in retrograde. 

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It's really been the scope at 
your intimate friendships and 

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your intimate connections. 
And I love that we live so far 

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apart and it's the people in our
everyday reality that like, want

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to start. 
Drama. 

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It's like all my Internet 
friends, I'm good. 

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But then it's like, it shifted 
to those more intimate, like 

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personal connections that you 
can't like get away from. 

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And I love that we're able to 
support each other through that 

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without being like biased 
because we don't spend every day

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together. 
And I think that's what helps 

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our relationship be able to like
have this duality in this 

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balance is that we're not. 
Exposed to everything all the 

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time. 
But we come together and we like

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air it out and we discuss it and
I think that's why our 

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friendship really works well. 
And to I think that yes, the not

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having the bias and not being 
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day to like involved in the same
things because we're able to see

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things from a bird's eye view 
where you're able to tell me 

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like, OK, well you're processing
like this and not even like 

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communicating that. 
So you can't really be mad at 

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people not knowing because you 
didn't say anything. 

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And then recently, I feel like 
you are so many chances like, 

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but I've known them for a long 
time and like like how do I make

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it like work or whatever And 
it's like girlfriend, that's not

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the that's not your friend, you 
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I mean, honestly, in the last 
month I have done so much spell 

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work, like just in general for 
our community, for myself, for 

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other people. 
And I have had so many 

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breakthroughs like within one 
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1000% and it's just really nice 
to know that. 

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At the end of the day, I'm doing
what I'm supposed to do because 

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Spirit keeps rewarding me. 
I've kept leveling up. 

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Nothing that was sent to destroy
our friendship affected it 

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whatsoever. 
If anything, it really brought 

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us both closer to one another in
the community and not keeping 

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our communities very separate, 
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Just like rebranding, how we do 
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lot of our Just stuff on and off
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And I love that. 
And people don't get like that 

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type of clarity so quickly 
because normally we're blurring 

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the lines or you know, with 
like, oh, I I'm making excuses 

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because I know them or that's my
husband or we have a kid 

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together or whatever people say 
and do. 

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But it's like when you look at 
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Integrity and authenticity, and 
you can have that in a mutual 

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understanding with a friend. 
It really is a game changer for 

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those connections that don't 
serve you because you're like, 

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okay, I can let that go. 
Like that's not who I am 

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anymore. 
To give that energy or to let 

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that trigger me like that's not 
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Yeah, I and I think that's why 
so many, like you can call them 

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friendships or whatever, but 
really probably friendships that

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have molded into 
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I think why we've let so many 
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And it hasn't all been, you 
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to it or something. 
But it's really been like a I'm 

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growing and I'm so focused on 
this over here and like putting 

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energy into these connections 
that, yeah, some things just go 

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away. 
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naturally the evolution of life 
is to hold on to what you've 

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built or to hold on to 
connections that you've had. 

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And you cannot make space for 
what you're asking for. 

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If you're holding on to what 
was, it's like, well, I can't 

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let go of this person or I can't
let go of this situation until 

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this happens. 
You're blocking your blessing 

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because a lot of what is meant 
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Chapter. 
Like the chapter where you have 

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no freaking clue what you're 
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That's where all the magic is, 
like people are scared of that 

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chapter, but that's where all of
the real growth happens, is when

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you take a new direction or you 
try something new, or you start 

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a class, or you, you know, get a
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Like those unknown variables 
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Add up to that bigger picture, 
and when you're trying to 

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control or dictate or do the 
same damn song and dance that 

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you've always done because you 
know how to do it, you will 

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always be settling. 
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us to have people inside of our 
space that support us making 

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like big decisions that may not 
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Like, you know, because I think 
that that something that really 

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has come up in our friendship is
you being like, no, Like if you 

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feel drawn to that you should 
spend money on that, you should 

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invest in that you should do 
those things and not worry about

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a lack mindset where people who 
I like my family and stuff who I

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had around growing up, it was 
that's irresponsible that you 

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would go and you would go do 
that adventure because you feel 

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you know quote UN quote called 
to or that you would go and 

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spend this money on on this 
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When to me it would be like this
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somehow, but to other people it 
feels like not the rational or 

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like responsible choice 
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But I always found that I would 
thrive when I would put myself 

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in the things where I didn't 
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I didn't have all the answers to
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It just feels like the right 
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So I'm going to do it and I 
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the but is it irresponsible or 
whatever Because they think it 

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is, even though I feel like it's
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And that's the contradictory 
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ourselves in that contradict who
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And who you're becoming is not 
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is someone that you've never 
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So you cannot keep asking people
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directions on how to get there. 
Like you can't look at someone 

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who's never owned a business. 
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taking a calculated risk or 
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to do or passionate about. 
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me spending money on stickers 
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in the day people would spend 
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magazine ads and things like 
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Stickers or memorabilia. 
Things that you can give to 

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people because in a world where 
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give someone something baby, 
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their car window. 
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They got it on their bumper 
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Like one of my friends I won't 
name drop did stick it on their 

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car. 
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for that. 
Like you are the one for that. 

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But I mean, people take little 
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reality and I like to take big 
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I don't know. 
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going to create. 
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people are trying to knock me 
off of my throne, I have so much

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grace. 
Like so much more grace than 

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letting these people know. 
Like, you need to lay off the 

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drugs, you need to go to 
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Nothing that spirituality can 
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your fucking bum ass mindset 
like nothing. 

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Nothing. 
Unless you want that. 

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But instead, I'm like, you know 
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I could reserve all that energy 
to empower people rather than 

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becoming like the people I don't
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And even though those feelings 
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we're going to be angry and 
we're going to have negative 

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thoughts, I don't have to act on
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to their level to express that 
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And the energetic punishment is 
that you no longer have access 

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to me. 
You no longer have access to 

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anything I taught you or 
anything that you learn from me 

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is like null and void. 
So pop your shit like. 

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So take whatever you think you 
know and go pop your shit far 

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away from me. 
Where before I wanted closure, I

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wanted to check someone. 
But instead now I'm just like, 

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can you get on the quickest 
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quickly as possible? 
Can you get all of your shit, 

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take it with you. 
And people are like, what do you

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mean? 
Like, how am I supposed to do 

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that? 
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Like, they don't get it when 
you're like, leave now and shut 

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the fuck up. 
That's it. 

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That's all I need you to do. 
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a new growth too. 
So I mean because we, we talked 

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briefly on the podcast last 
season about just, you know what

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and a growth to the. 
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pointed out to you that you did 
this, but you're now detecting 

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fuckery or what you feel like is
fuckery and you're like this 

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just doesn't feel right for 
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And immediately just like 
calling it out and saying, you 

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know, this is how I'm feeling 
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This is like the direction it 
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catching that before it feels 
like people are snowballing it 

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further. 
If that makes sense. 

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Like before things were going to
prolonged because it's like I'm 

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just going to help you on your 
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I want to. 
I know that you're you're just 

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really struggling through this 
you know, whatever. 

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And now you're like, oh, I'm 
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And it's actually not my place 
to sit here and try to heal you 

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through it and like, hold your 
hand and be Polly pocket through

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it, you know? 
Honestly and that's what I love 

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whenever a lot of that was 
coming to light that people were

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like Gemini's making Paige angry
and and she's being mean and and

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all these things because people 
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giving and healing spirit that I
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But now I have like activated 
like my inner collie like fuck 

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with me and I'm going to burn 
everything down and it's going 

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to feel like a hex. 
It's going to feel like I 

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directed it to you but like 
don't come for me anymore at 

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all. 
I don't want your money. 

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I don't want your love bombing. 
I don't want your. 

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Your support. 
I don't want your boyfriend. 

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I don't want no one. 
I want you away from me. 

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And I think that that's been 
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Like what I learned in July was 
you have to check the corners, 

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even if you think you've already
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Like you still got to check 
behind shit and you still got to

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look for. 
Those spiders and those people 

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that are like lingering in the 
webs and the shadows and like 

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they don't want to be in the 
spotlight, but they sure as hell

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don't want you to be in any 
spotlight either. 

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So they're constantly trying to,
like, drain you or take energy 

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from you and distract you. 
And honestly, like, I'm on this 

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new wave that like, I want to 
help people almost like, but I 

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have to take a step back if you 
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And be okay with that. 
Like that. 

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I've done what I was supposed to
do, and I don't owe you anything

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extra. 
I don't. 

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I don't owe you nothing. 
And I have had to block a lot of

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people lately, like. 
And when I block you, I block 

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your mom, your sister, your ex. 
Like I block everyone associated

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with you because I just don't 
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I just don't want any closure 
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needed to see and I don't need 
your opinion. 

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Like I will block you while 
you're typing. 

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Where the old me wanted to argue
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Stubborn like Taurus energy. 
Now like I'll see the three dots

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after I've said my piece and 
you're typing I'm blocking you 

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mid sentence. 
Like, I just think it's funny 

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how block. 
I just think it's funny how I 

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think a lot of the things that 
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thing though, right? 
Because a lot of stuff that 

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would have really bothered us 
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season one and just the way that
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know, what we thought was 
annoying at the time or what we 

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thought we had to focus on is 
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like we do now. 
And something else too, that the

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It's so fucking weird to me 
because you know, you hear 

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anybody who is starting to get 
successful in something that 

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they're doing or get notability 
and recognition. 

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You're always hearing like the 
people that I thought were going

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to be there for me are the 
people who weren't there. 

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The people who supported me are 
the people I never expected. 

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And it really has been wild to 
see the connections that we had 

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before. 
I feel like before the podcast 

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really versus the connections 
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doing the podcast. 
I mean there are people who I 

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feel like low key said that they
supported us that had big 

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followings that said that they 
supported us before or whatever.

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And then as we've started to do 
better with things are like, let

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me take this idea from you, let 
me let me copy your your, 

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whatever. 
Let me ask you where you're 

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doing that, how you're doing 
that. 

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But I'm never going to give you 
an energy exchange in any way or

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share a post or talk about you. 
But can you give me all the 

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secrets to what you're doing 
and, oh, I'm just going to, you 

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know, copy this over here and 
whatever. 

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And I feel that where I used to 
have boundaries in a different 

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way of more of you're not going 
to fuck me over. 

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So like, we're not going to even
be friends. 

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I don't feel that way about new 
connections now, but I feel like

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I have like my circle complete 
and you have to be really 

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special to, like, penetrate into
this circle of trust. 

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Yeah, I've created a whole new 
dynamic like I'm not into. 

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Becoming everyone's like friend 
or everyone's guru or everyone's

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mentor. 
Like some people, I'll just be 

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honest, are way too lost for me 
to help you find. 

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You've got to go do some soul 
searching, some rehab, some 

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therapy, whatever it is. 
Because maybe just cause I've 

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been able to heal myself and 
have, you know, four years sober

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and things like that Doesn't 
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that I sat in the dark room and 
I cried and I journaled and I 

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did the things and I. 
Did what I had to do. 

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And I'm so sick of people that 
want that and they want to take 

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it from you or distract you from
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And I noticed that like when we 
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podcast that there was just so 
many vultures like trying to 

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pull for our energy. 
And there are so many people 

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that I thought were mutuals that
are competing and like you said,

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taking ideas and things like 
that. 

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And that's cool, That's 
whatever. 

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Because at the end of the day, a
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They go viral. 
They get this following like 

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they're so important. 
And then the ego steps in. 

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And then instead of doing it for
spirit or doing it for healing 

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or, you know, because you want 
your message to reach the World,

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you're doing it for notoriety. 
Oh, you got to quit your day 

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job. 
So now you want more money. 

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Now you need this. 
And that's what I think is so 

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funny about the spiritual realm 
and the spiritual journey as a 

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human is because everything that
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Tells us is not important. 
As soon as people get a little 

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notoriety, that's what they're 
going in for, like that's what 

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they're going in for. 
But spirit is like the karmic 

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scales will always be off 
balance if you're chasing shit 

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outside of you. 
So the fact that people 

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constantly want to take ideas or
or do things that other people 

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are doing very naturally, like 
that's going to backfire on you.

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It's like a slingshot, like. 
You're not going to hit your 

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target. 
You might be shooting and you 

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may have momentum, but you're 
not going to hit the target and 

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you're never going to reach that
level that that person's on by 

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trying to emulate or copy that 
person. 

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And that's why, like, I love 
being around very powerful 

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people. 
Like being at the table with 

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Bunny does not intimidate me at 
all. 

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I love watching that this woman 
makes 6 figures a month. 

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Like, let's go, sis. 
And the fact that, like, I'm 

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able to do things for her and 
like, not even charge her, just 

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like I got you and she's like, I
can't believe you. 

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Like, thank you, like because 
everybody wants something from 

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her, right. 
Like everybody is trying to take

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something from her and she is so
giving that I love being able to

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return that energy back to her 
like in ways that she doesn't 

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expect. 
Because Spirit. 

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Puts you at the tables where you
can learn and I want to be that 

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person that gives in like can 
and help people you know, Like 

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she does so much stuff that she 
doesn't talk about like for 

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other people, you know. 
And I love that, because real 

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G's move in silence, baby. 
Like you can't. 

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Tell everyone everything, all 
the time. 

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And I'm learning that time and 
time again. 

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I have no desire to lead you 
through how to make a podcast, 

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how to make Oracle cards, how to
do anything. 

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Like we've got classes that we 
both teach, we have Patreon 

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platforms that we both use. 
Like I don't care if you know 

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how to do it because there's so 
much information out there. 

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You can find it. 
If you want it, you will find 

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it. 
And I just get so sick of people

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that are doing the work. 
Having all of these vultures 

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just trying to take that energy 
from you and distract you and, 

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like, put you into their spiral.
I refuse to be inside of 

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anybody's spiral. 
And there are so many, you know,

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I feel like you and I have 
gotten to the point now in our 

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friendship where we're really 
starting to talk about like 

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personal life, things that we 
just never even discussed 

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before. 
Like talking to you about like, 

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you know, Journey is like being 
a stepparent and stuff like shit

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that I literally don't discuss 
with anybody have never dragged 

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out in any way. 
And I think that the more that 

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we notice all of, first of all, 
I almost feel this like, thank 

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you so much for like showing how
many snakes there are around us 

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because it makes us close in 
closer together to like protect 

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our perimeter almost. 
And it makes us have these like 

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just crazy conversations about 
things that we just haven't had 

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to have before. 
And something that I really 

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appreciated has been when I was 
talking with you about the stuff

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that I've been going through 
like as a stepparent and just 

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and just different things, is 
you don't have the like, well 

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fuck that baby Mama mentality 
about it and like shit talking 

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the situation. 
You're giving me like different 

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viewpoints and advice on the 
situation. 

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And it's something that I don't 
think that in the past I would 

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have appreciated now the way 
that I do, because I I don't 

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want to talk about things, to 
vent about it. 

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I want to talk about it to 
figure out how do I feel better 

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inside of this situation. 
You know what I mean. 

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Yes. 
And I heard something somewhere 

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and it said the people who 
always got the tea need to watch

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out because tea stains. 
And that really resonated with 

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me because there's always going 
to be drama and tea. 

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But who you share that with and 
who you spread that energy to 

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matters because a lot of people 
use that against you later. 

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Like, they will manipulate you 
with the information that you've

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revealed to them. 
So be careful. 

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You know people who've always 
got the tea, I promise you, they

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talk about you as well, like 
behind your back, and they'll 

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talk about you to other people. 
And I have noticed that a lot of

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people use my name to be 
relevant because they don't have

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any friends. 
And they realize so that I have 

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a lot of people who either are 
friends, are people that I've 

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known, are acquaintances, are 
people that I've met through 

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spirituality, people that I've 
mentored clients. 

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Like. 
I have a big group of energy 

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around me. 
And I'm not going to say that 

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everyone feels this way, but 
naturally, as humans who are 

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lonely and depressed and on 
drugs and wherever they're at in

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their mind, they don't want to 
see you surrounded by love and 

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support and guidance. 
They fucking hate that. 

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So you know, it does end up 
being the people that you were 

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going through the shit with. 
Like the people that you were in

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the mud with almost don't want 
to see you squeaky clean on the 

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other side of it if they're 
still in the mud. 

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And I'm not saying that everyone
that you know that's not doing 

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as good as you wants bad for 
you. 

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But there are a lot of energies 
that will be subconsciously 

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projected on to you, whether 
they speak fear into your plans.

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You know, they they talk shit 
about your dreams or they make 

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you feel weird for doing 
something new or something out 

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of the realm or wearing 
something you've never wore 

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before. 
I have so many people that will 

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see me out and they're like, I 
wish I could wear that. 

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You can, you know, like, I get 
tired of people looking at me as

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the staple of who they want to 
be, but they have no desire to 

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go do that. 
And then these people that I've 

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known are, like, mad at me for 
overcoming addiction and in 

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codependency and people pleasing
and all these things. 

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It's like the more you crank up 
your own energy, the quieter 

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everyone else's is. 
Like, I don't even hear the 

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noise anymore. 
Like, I know you all are 

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talking, but I don't hear the 
noise. 

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And that's just that, you know, 
like, I'm not taking it 

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personal. 
I'm taking it as your 

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projections. 
That's how you feel about 

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yourself. 
You're not trustworthy, You're 

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not capable, You're not in your 
power. 

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You can't project it on to 
someone who knows their worst, 

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someone who knows their shit. 
And that's why dating is 

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incredibly difficult for me 
because guys don't like that I'm

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smarter than them or that I do 
better than them. 

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And and and I don't mean that in
like, but it must be the guys 

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that I'm attracted to like 
aren't very smart because if 

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they knew what was smart for 
them, they would get in the boat

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and we're going. 
I've got lots of opinions on the

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guys that are attracted to and 
in your inbox, but that's here 

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nor there. 
Honestly though, like you would 

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think that a lot of people would
see it from the perspective 

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like, I want to learn from this 
person or I want to grow, but 

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instead it's like, no, you're on
a higher level than me and that 

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makes me upset. 
Back on what you had been 

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saying, the analogy that you 
would used I recently about the 

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tea. 
I recently saw something that 

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said I stopped venting to people
when I realized that vents go 

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into different rooms. 
And I was like, that's so true. 

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And that's something I feel like
too. 

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That's something that has 
changed with me so fucking much,

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even before the podcast. 
But like that I just sit back 

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and reflect on is like. 
I no longer am going to sit 

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there and just complain about 
shit going on just to talk about

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it and vent about it. 
And I have this thing where I'm 

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not going to speak about it 
unless it's something that I'm 

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going to put work into change. 
Because I'm not going to put 

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into, you know, the atmosphere 
and universe about something and

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make that a focal point of 
something that I want to discuss

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and then not make any changes 
and also. 

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People I I find this to be just 
like so fucking grimy. 

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And since we have talked 
recently about like you wanting 

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to leave Facebook or whatever, 
hop off Facebook for a minute. 

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People going on and shit talking
their spouses. 

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Drives me up the fucking wall. 
I don't care if it's your 

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boyfriend. 
I don't care if it's your 

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fiance. 
I don't care if it's your 

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fucking husband going on and 
being like we're going to be 

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leaving each other because so 
and so can't. 

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You know they did this and that 
or blah, blah, blah. 

450
00:24:49,710 --> 00:24:51,670
And I found this out and found 
that out. 

451
00:24:51,670 --> 00:24:54,710
I just am. 
Like, where's your loyalty in 

452
00:24:54,710 --> 00:24:56,470
any fucking way? 
Because you've been over here 

453
00:24:56,470 --> 00:24:59,710
sharing body, mind, soul and 
spirit with somebody, and then 

454
00:24:59,710 --> 00:25:02,150
they do something you don't 
like, even if it's, you know, 

455
00:25:02,710 --> 00:25:06,920
they lied or did whatever. 
Just to I just think it's so 

456
00:25:06,920 --> 00:25:09,800
shitty to put it online and then
most of you just fucking go back

457
00:25:09,800 --> 00:25:13,720
to them anyways. 
That's what I don't get is like 

458
00:25:13,760 --> 00:25:16,720
whenever I reach a point where 
I'm going to air something out, 

459
00:25:16,720 --> 00:25:19,120
like I'm done. 
Like I'm all the way done. 

460
00:25:19,120 --> 00:25:20,920
Like we talked about it behind 
the scenes. 

461
00:25:20,960 --> 00:25:22,920
I've tried to work through it, 
we've worked through it. 

462
00:25:22,920 --> 00:25:27,000
Whatever we did, we didn't do. 
But it's almost embarrassing. 

463
00:25:27,120 --> 00:25:31,200
Like, you have no boundaries. 
You have no self worth, no 

464
00:25:31,200 --> 00:25:36,130
loyalty, and just no, like true 
desire to grow through the 

465
00:25:36,130 --> 00:25:38,290
situation. 
You want to point the blame, you

466
00:25:38,290 --> 00:25:41,330
want to be a victim, you want to
villainize someone. 

467
00:25:42,930 --> 00:25:45,250
I don't like it. 
I personally don't want to date 

468
00:25:45,250 --> 00:25:47,330
anyone that I have to worry 
about what goes on in their 

469
00:25:47,330 --> 00:25:49,330
inbox, like. 
And I also don't want to date 

470
00:25:49,330 --> 00:25:52,970
someone that no one flirts or 
hits on them either, right? 

471
00:25:52,970 --> 00:25:57,840
Like Jelly Roll said that before
like you don't get a show pony 

472
00:25:57,840 --> 00:26:01,080
and put it in a cage and and 
then Bunny said like if my 

473
00:26:01,080 --> 00:26:05,760
husband didn't have female fans,
I would feel weird. 

474
00:26:06,080 --> 00:26:08,760
I would be like, honey, we need 
to do something. 

475
00:26:08,760 --> 00:26:10,400
Sex appeal needs to be up, you 
know. 

476
00:26:10,400 --> 00:26:13,840
She said something like that and
it just really like. 

477
00:26:13,960 --> 00:26:18,240
I base a lot of how I feel on 
like watching other people live 

478
00:26:18,670 --> 00:26:21,270
the way I would like to live and
like I like that mutual 

479
00:26:21,270 --> 00:26:23,270
understanding and that mutual 
support. 

480
00:26:23,270 --> 00:26:25,990
Like I don't want to date 
someone that's not desirable. 

481
00:26:26,070 --> 00:26:28,870
I don't want to date someone 
that like you know doesn't get 

482
00:26:28,870 --> 00:26:32,750
the occasional like whatever you
know like you don't. 

483
00:26:32,750 --> 00:26:36,870
You as a partner, should feel 
good that your partner is 

484
00:26:36,870 --> 00:26:42,030
shining or being seen or being 
loved by their fans or their 

485
00:26:42,030 --> 00:26:45,960
friends or whoever. 
Like, I can't stand someone who 

486
00:26:45,960 --> 00:26:48,880
wants to compete with, like, 
their partner's mom or like, 

487
00:26:48,880 --> 00:26:51,360
their partner's best friend or. 
You know what I mean? 

488
00:26:51,360 --> 00:26:53,920
Like, And I also don't want to 
date someone who's, like, 

489
00:26:53,960 --> 00:26:56,840
obsessed with everyone in their 
opinion, you know? 

490
00:26:56,840 --> 00:26:59,720
I want someone who's in their 
own power, who has people that 

491
00:26:59,720 --> 00:27:02,720
they trust, but not people that 
they're, like, letting dictate 

492
00:27:02,720 --> 00:27:07,200
their life, either. 
What's funny? 

493
00:27:07,900 --> 00:27:11,100
I just laugh at you over here. 
Like I just imagine what it's 

494
00:27:11,100 --> 00:27:14,940
like for you to fill out like 
dating things online and it's 

495
00:27:14,940 --> 00:27:18,220
like, are you interested in this
or interested in that notes And 

496
00:27:18,220 --> 00:27:22,180
she's like, yes, I do want you 
to be 6-4, but I only want you 

497
00:27:22,180 --> 00:27:26,860
to be 6-4 if you have a long 
torso but you don't have long 

498
00:27:26,860 --> 00:27:30,980
legs and it just super 
customized and you're like, yes,

499
00:27:31,260 --> 00:27:33,820
I want you to be a family 
person, but also I don't want 

500
00:27:33,820 --> 00:27:36,140
you to have an unhealthy 
relationship with your mother 

501
00:27:36,420 --> 00:27:38,500
and rely on her and have her. 
In your laundry. 

502
00:27:38,500 --> 00:27:40,900
Like, I could just see you 
having like fucking 

503
00:27:40,900 --> 00:27:45,100
subcategories for everything. 
I don't even date online 

504
00:27:45,100 --> 00:27:46,660
anymore. 
Like you're either going to 

505
00:27:46,660 --> 00:27:49,420
shoot your shot to my face or 
I'm not hearing you. 

506
00:27:49,420 --> 00:27:51,100
I don't want to hear you in my 
inbox. 

507
00:27:51,380 --> 00:27:53,740
I don't want to hear you chirp 
into the fucking choir. 

508
00:27:53,740 --> 00:27:57,540
I don't care. 
Like I'm not attracted to a guy 

509
00:27:57,580 --> 00:27:59,580
that when I go to your 
following, it looks like the 

510
00:27:59,580 --> 00:28:02,300
Playboy Mansion. 
Like kick rocks, bro. 

511
00:28:02,420 --> 00:28:06,870
Like if I scroll and there's 
more girls than and I'm talking 

512
00:28:06,870 --> 00:28:09,750
like the bikini, like the Viking
Barbies of the world who are 

513
00:28:09,750 --> 00:28:13,870
sexiest fucking like turn up. 
But if you follow 900 people and

514
00:28:13,870 --> 00:28:17,030
899 of them. 
Got their titties out. 

515
00:28:17,270 --> 00:28:19,470
I can't with you. 
I don't even want to with you. 

516
00:28:19,710 --> 00:28:22,990
And I'm real big on. 
Like, I used to let people 

517
00:28:22,990 --> 00:28:25,870
watch, like, just kind of watch 
from afar, but now it has 

518
00:28:25,870 --> 00:28:28,770
blocked you. 
If I see you in my views 24/7. 

519
00:28:28,770 --> 00:28:30,970
But you don't like anything. 
You don't support me. 

520
00:28:31,210 --> 00:28:32,610
You're just watching. 
I'm blocking you. 

521
00:28:32,610 --> 00:28:34,530
I don't even care. 
I don't care about the follower.

522
00:28:34,530 --> 00:28:36,650
I don't care about nothing. 
Like I used to be. 

523
00:28:36,650 --> 00:28:38,170
Like, Oh no, I don't want to 
lose the follower. 

524
00:28:38,170 --> 00:28:40,090
No, I'm blocking you. 
I blocked so many people this 

525
00:28:40,090 --> 00:28:41,410
week that are just getting on my
nerves. 

526
00:28:41,890 --> 00:28:43,330
Like they don't support me and I
don't. 

527
00:28:43,490 --> 00:28:48,010
I just don't care. 
I just have a personal PSA too 

528
00:28:48,010 --> 00:28:51,090
that it would I would really 
appreciate if people didn't go 

529
00:28:51,090 --> 00:28:53,450
inside of your inbox if they're 
not actually going to meet up 

530
00:28:53,450 --> 00:28:58,660
with you and like 1. 
At least meet up with you like 

531
00:28:58,660 --> 00:29:00,500
bare minimum. 
Like don't tell her you want to 

532
00:29:00,500 --> 00:29:03,060
take her out and then not take 
her out because then I'm just 

533
00:29:03,060 --> 00:29:05,460
fucking annoyed with you Because
then I just wish I was in 

534
00:29:05,460 --> 00:29:08,740
Kentucky to go and fucking take 
you out so that like you could 

535
00:29:08,740 --> 00:29:10,820
have a nice time and I touch 
your butt and everything. 

536
00:29:11,100 --> 00:29:18,000
And then two if you do like. 
Here's the other side of that is

537
00:29:18,000 --> 00:29:21,120
like, once you do get like met 
up with and taken out, why is it

538
00:29:21,120 --> 00:29:23,320
fucking weird? 
Why does it have to be weird? 

539
00:29:23,320 --> 00:29:26,840
Why does it have to be like, 
yeah, and then we like stared 

540
00:29:26,840 --> 00:29:31,880
into each other's soul for two 
minutes and whatever, I don't 

541
00:29:31,880 --> 00:29:36,080
like it. 
I It's that like when people are

542
00:29:36,080 --> 00:29:39,600
not in tune with their own 
spirit, they don't like that I 

543
00:29:39,680 --> 00:29:42,800
can like, read their energy that
I know when they're lying. 

544
00:29:42,800 --> 00:29:48,320
Like, I just think that I am a 
harder catch because like, I'm 

545
00:29:48,320 --> 00:29:54,200
not trying to be caught by a 
fucking hook line sinker thing, 

546
00:29:54,200 --> 00:29:55,400
you know? 
Like I want work. 

547
00:29:55,920 --> 00:29:58,960
For me, because you're so open 
and like. 

548
00:29:59,430 --> 00:30:01,830
Honest about all of these things
ahead of time. 

549
00:30:01,990 --> 00:30:05,470
It's very clear that you do 
spiritual work that like anybody

550
00:30:05,470 --> 00:30:08,990
who is paying you attention 
knows these things about you. 

551
00:30:08,990 --> 00:30:14,310
So it's like a waste of fucking 
time and space and your energy 

552
00:30:14,590 --> 00:30:18,070
when it's like people know this 
already and I don't. 

553
00:30:18,670 --> 00:30:21,710
I've told you before, I really 
think that people expect you to 

554
00:30:21,710 --> 00:30:23,790
be somebody different when they 
meet you. 

555
00:30:24,360 --> 00:30:27,360
And I think that they think 
that, like, the spiritual 

556
00:30:27,360 --> 00:30:30,880
whatever is a persona and then 
you show up in person and you're

557
00:30:30,880 --> 00:30:33,400
just as fucking cute. 
And you're also, like, let me 

558
00:30:33,400 --> 00:30:36,320
read your brain. 
I don't know. 

559
00:30:36,360 --> 00:30:40,080
And honestly, I don't even want 
to waste energy trying to figure

560
00:30:40,080 --> 00:30:43,560
out those types of people 
because, like, I want to reject 

561
00:30:43,560 --> 00:30:45,320
people who do not know what they
want. 

562
00:30:45,720 --> 00:30:47,720
Like, don't come near me if you 
don't know what you want. 

563
00:30:47,720 --> 00:30:51,800
So, you know, it's cool if they,
like, talk a little shit, like 

564
00:30:52,180 --> 00:30:54,780
tweet, like a little bird, and 
then when it comes time to fly, 

565
00:30:54,780 --> 00:30:57,780
they're like, I'm going to stay 
in the nest because I already 

566
00:30:57,780 --> 00:30:59,020
knew that you couldn't handle 
me. 

567
00:30:59,020 --> 00:31:02,020
So thank you for showing me 
before I even got involved, like

568
00:31:02,100 --> 00:31:03,660
early on. 
So that's fine. 

569
00:31:03,660 --> 00:31:07,140
I mean, I know that there's a 
perfect person out there for me.

570
00:31:07,380 --> 00:31:11,340
I'm not really worried about 
like these people that I know 

571
00:31:11,340 --> 00:31:13,940
because I've always been 
convinced that my soul mates not

572
00:31:13,940 --> 00:31:17,340
going to be someone I know, that
I grew up with, that I've been 

573
00:31:17,340 --> 00:31:20,380
around, that I'm exposed to, 
like my soulmates not going to 

574
00:31:20,380 --> 00:31:22,670
be 25 minutes down the road. 
They're just not. 

575
00:31:22,670 --> 00:31:24,470
I don't see it. 
I can't see it. 

576
00:31:24,470 --> 00:31:26,710
And I'm a visionary. 
And if they were there, baby, I 

577
00:31:26,710 --> 00:31:30,270
would be bringing them in. 
They're not 20 kids away. 

578
00:31:30,270 --> 00:31:33,510
So anybody, if you live in a 25 
minute radius of me, you ain't 

579
00:31:33,510 --> 00:31:39,110
my one, you ain't my person. 
You're not my Boo. 

580
00:31:39,110 --> 00:31:43,590
I also want to say that we were 
getting a lot of feedback just 

581
00:31:43,590 --> 00:31:46,470
about like the transparency and 
how people were catching up on 

582
00:31:46,470 --> 00:31:49,720
episodes and they really liked 
how we don't just like, 

583
00:31:49,720 --> 00:31:53,080
sugarcoat everything that we did
have a lot of like really raw 

584
00:31:53,080 --> 00:31:56,520
and vulnerable moments where 
there was anger and there was, 

585
00:31:56,880 --> 00:32:01,400
you know, like shocking moments 
where you think someone is your 

586
00:32:01,400 --> 00:32:03,200
friend or you think someone's 
supporting you. 

587
00:32:03,200 --> 00:32:08,040
But I know for a fact that it's 
really difficult to support 

588
00:32:08,040 --> 00:32:12,280
someone after so long if you're 
not doing the work because 

589
00:32:12,780 --> 00:32:16,060
you're not reaching your 
potential. 

590
00:32:16,260 --> 00:32:19,340
So that resentment and that 
anger that they feel towards us 

591
00:32:19,340 --> 00:32:22,140
is really just them feeling that
towards themselves. 

592
00:32:22,420 --> 00:32:26,100
And I think that, you know, 
doing this, like clarity work in

593
00:32:26,100 --> 00:32:29,980
a protection work, it's 
necessary for every person 

594
00:32:29,980 --> 00:32:34,900
because someone, somewhere, some
sole contract that you have is 

595
00:32:34,900 --> 00:32:37,540
trying to blur your vision. 
Some of it's your own, like 

596
00:32:37,540 --> 00:32:40,940
parents or your partner or your,
you know, whoever. 

597
00:32:41,480 --> 00:32:47,160
And I think that it's really 
valid to just be aware of that. 

598
00:32:47,160 --> 00:32:49,320
It doesn't mean that you like 
instantly go check all these 

599
00:32:49,320 --> 00:32:51,920
people and and say you know 
you're blocking my blessings, 

600
00:32:51,920 --> 00:32:55,480
but you're blocking your 
blessings by not acknowledging 

601
00:32:56,510 --> 00:32:57,790
what your intuition is telling 
you. 

602
00:32:57,830 --> 00:33:00,230
Like you know when someone's 
really not supporting you. 

603
00:33:00,230 --> 00:33:03,430
You know when someone makes it 
feel like a chore to be around 

604
00:33:03,430 --> 00:33:05,550
you or to invite you or to 
include you. 

605
00:33:05,910 --> 00:33:08,430
And that's the type of energy 
that I just can't tolerate. 

606
00:33:08,430 --> 00:33:12,510
So I'm really glad that spirit 
has not allowed any like half 

607
00:33:12,510 --> 00:33:16,030
and half out relationships, like
emotionally, because I don't 

608
00:33:16,030 --> 00:33:19,350
need that in my energy. 
Like, I have proven to myself 

609
00:33:19,350 --> 00:33:23,100
that, like, sexual companionship
is not necessary for my 

610
00:33:23,100 --> 00:33:25,180
happiness. 
Like, my happiness comes from me

611
00:33:25,460 --> 00:33:27,340
and everything else is an 
accessory to that. 

612
00:33:27,340 --> 00:33:30,180
It's kind of like, you know, the
Christmas tree is the tree. 

613
00:33:30,180 --> 00:33:32,420
And then you got to put the 
lights and the ornaments and all

614
00:33:32,420 --> 00:33:34,860
the things on it. 
Like if you are the tree and you

615
00:33:34,860 --> 00:33:36,940
are rooted, people will come and
go. 

616
00:33:37,300 --> 00:33:39,820
I get new to core all the time, 
you know, like we let things go 

617
00:33:39,820 --> 00:33:42,580
all the time in our real world. 
So you have to be willing to let

618
00:33:42,580 --> 00:33:46,660
people be ornaments for a season
and then toss them in the 

619
00:33:46,660 --> 00:33:48,660
goodwill box and get rid of 
them. 

620
00:33:51,360 --> 00:33:56,400
Damn, that was deep. 
That was that was recycling. 

621
00:33:56,400 --> 00:33:59,360
Repurposing people for other 
people, reusing. 

622
00:34:00,160 --> 00:34:02,640
Go elsewhere because you're not 
going to be welcomed here or 

623
00:34:02,640 --> 00:34:05,240
housed here. 
I love every single piece of 

624
00:34:05,240 --> 00:34:08,360
that. 
I also something that I'm 

625
00:34:08,360 --> 00:34:13,400
noticing too. 
Is this like not vibing with one

626
00:34:13,400 --> 00:34:16,630
of us? 
Going to the other one and just 

627
00:34:16,630 --> 00:34:21,989
kind of sticking around and like
the hanging out kind of 

628
00:34:21,989 --> 00:34:26,670
mentality. 
And I was thinking about this 

629
00:34:26,670 --> 00:34:29,230
earlier today because I was like
okay, cool. 

630
00:34:29,230 --> 00:34:32,510
So like maybe somebody just 
finds like more healing with 

631
00:34:32,510 --> 00:34:35,590
Paige. 
And so they're like, you know 

632
00:34:35,590 --> 00:34:37,350
what? 
Like I don't buy with Gemini 

633
00:34:37,350 --> 00:34:40,830
necessarily, but like, I really 
find healing with Paige. 

634
00:34:41,190 --> 00:34:46,050
And my thing is. 
Most likely, if you don't like 

635
00:34:46,050 --> 00:34:50,370
me, they're probably not going 
to end up liking you, and vice 

636
00:34:50,370 --> 00:34:53,250
versa, if you don't like Paige, 
you're probably not going to 

637
00:34:53,250 --> 00:35:00,170
like me because I feel like we 
how would I put this? 

638
00:35:01,290 --> 00:35:04,930
We grow a lot of the ways that 
we're growing. 

639
00:35:04,930 --> 00:35:08,050
I feel like we learn different 
things from each other and like 

640
00:35:08,250 --> 00:35:12,010
what my weaknesses are are your 
strengths and a little bit vice.

641
00:35:12,400 --> 00:35:14,720
Versa. 
And I think that while we're on 

642
00:35:14,720 --> 00:35:17,440
this healing journey and like 
growing and evolving, like 

643
00:35:18,160 --> 00:35:23,320
there's bound to be growing in a
way that like those people 

644
00:35:23,320 --> 00:35:24,560
aren't going to vibe with 
either. 

645
00:35:24,560 --> 00:35:27,800
So I kind of feel it being 
something that is probably going

646
00:35:27,800 --> 00:35:31,680
to be something that we deal 
with for forever at while we're 

647
00:35:31,680 --> 00:35:35,950
growing and what not is. 
Oh, I feel intimidated by this. 

648
00:35:35,950 --> 00:35:38,190
So I'm going to come over here 
because I feel like this is a 

649
00:35:38,190 --> 00:35:41,230
more like, inviting, you know, 
calm energy. 

650
00:35:41,230 --> 00:35:43,150
Oh shit. 
Paige doesn't just let people 

651
00:35:43,270 --> 00:35:45,670
walk all over her either. 
I thought she was like the Super

652
00:35:45,670 --> 00:35:50,710
nice one and someone sent me a 
message after last season and 

653
00:35:50,710 --> 00:35:54,160
was like. 
No shade to either one of you, 

654
00:35:54,160 --> 00:35:58,800
but Rampage intimidates me far 
more than like, coming to you. 

655
00:35:58,840 --> 00:36:04,280
And I was like, yeah, she does. 
You know, honestly, I think that

656
00:36:04,280 --> 00:36:07,120
that's where, like we have 
brought that dark and light 

657
00:36:07,120 --> 00:36:11,400
balance with one another is like
you used to be really rigid and 

658
00:36:11,400 --> 00:36:14,350
like really like stubborn when 
someone would upset you. 

659
00:36:14,350 --> 00:36:16,790
And now you're like more like 
you said, you're looking at it 

660
00:36:16,790 --> 00:36:20,710
from a bird's eye perception 
rather than a victim mentality 

661
00:36:20,710 --> 00:36:24,870
like on the ground. 
And like now I think I'm having 

662
00:36:24,870 --> 00:36:30,070
a way easier, even more like fun
time, just straight cutting the 

663
00:36:30,070 --> 00:36:34,150
cord cut, ripping out 
everything. 

664
00:36:34,150 --> 00:36:36,430
Like, I will rip your hair out. 
Like, fuck you. 

665
00:36:36,550 --> 00:36:41,150
Like I have the claws and the 
teeth out right now and it's not

666
00:36:41,150 --> 00:36:45,160
even like I feel that way 
regularly. 

667
00:36:45,160 --> 00:36:48,920
But now I almost have like 
little to 0 sympathy for people 

668
00:36:48,920 --> 00:36:53,880
who are trying to portray me. 
People who go and tell the 

669
00:36:53,880 --> 00:36:56,600
peanut gallery you need to watch
out for Paige. 

670
00:36:56,760 --> 00:36:59,960
You know Paige, she's so crazy. 
She wrecked someone's car. 

671
00:37:00,120 --> 00:37:04,360
She laughed about it. 
Like, what planet are you on? 

672
00:37:04,520 --> 00:37:07,170
Like, where in what reality did 
that happen? 

673
00:37:07,250 --> 00:37:08,250
Where? 
You know what I mean? 

674
00:37:08,250 --> 00:37:10,850
Like, where was that? 
Because not, it wasn't on Earth,

675
00:37:10,890 --> 00:37:12,210
baby. 
I don't know where you're at. 

676
00:37:12,570 --> 00:37:15,370
But like when I hear stories 
like that, and that's a true 

677
00:37:15,370 --> 00:37:16,930
story, someone actually said 
that. 

678
00:37:16,930 --> 00:37:20,730
And I instantly, rather than 
feeling like I need to go 

679
00:37:20,730 --> 00:37:24,290
justify myself to that person or
explain or even get their side 

680
00:37:24,290 --> 00:37:26,010
of the story. 
Like, why would you say that 

681
00:37:26,010 --> 00:37:27,650
about me? 
I just block. 

682
00:37:27,930 --> 00:37:30,490
I just literally block them. 
And I don't care if we were best

683
00:37:30,490 --> 00:37:32,170
friends. 
I don't care if you are my 

684
00:37:32,170 --> 00:37:36,140
mother. 
My own mother once asked me if I

685
00:37:36,140 --> 00:37:39,100
sent a hex to her because I did 
a return to send her with her 

686
00:37:39,100 --> 00:37:41,020
name on it. 
Because you're not going to send

687
00:37:41,020 --> 00:37:42,260
me shit. 
You're not sending me 

688
00:37:42,260 --> 00:37:44,700
negativity. 
And my mom, she ain't going fuck

689
00:37:44,700 --> 00:37:48,220
with me because me and her have 
now a mutual understanding. 

690
00:37:48,540 --> 00:37:51,540
I will not tolerate disrespect. 
I don't care who it's coming 

691
00:37:51,540 --> 00:37:53,860
from. 
And I remember whenever that 

692
00:37:53,860 --> 00:37:57,140
happened, my grandma was like, 
yeah, your mom wants to know 

693
00:37:57,140 --> 00:37:59,620
because I wasn't talking to her.
She's like, she wants to know, 

694
00:37:59,620 --> 00:38:01,740
like, did you send this to her? 
Because like, there was just 

695
00:38:01,740 --> 00:38:05,370
like a long laundry list of 
things that happen in a really 

696
00:38:05,370 --> 00:38:08,290
short amount of time. 
And it's just like, clearly you 

697
00:38:08,290 --> 00:38:11,290
were sending me negativity. 
You were sending me jealousy, 

698
00:38:11,290 --> 00:38:14,210
you were sending me envy coming 
from my own mother. 

699
00:38:14,810 --> 00:38:18,170
I don't think that an outside 
energy from TikTok or Instagram 

700
00:38:18,170 --> 00:38:20,970
or wherever you all people come 
from, that direct negativity 

701
00:38:20,970 --> 00:38:23,850
towards me, I don't think it's 
going to really phase me like 

702
00:38:23,850 --> 00:38:26,530
you think it will. 
So when it backfires, I'm the 

703
00:38:26,530 --> 00:38:30,210
bad person and I'm the villain 
and I wreck people's cars and 

704
00:38:30,210 --> 00:38:32,860
just don't give a fuck. 
Great, perfect. 

705
00:38:32,860 --> 00:38:34,620
I love that illusion you're 
living in. 

706
00:38:34,620 --> 00:38:37,260
It's it feels so warm there. 
Stay there. 

707
00:38:37,380 --> 00:38:39,140
Like stay there. close your 
eyes. 

708
00:38:39,140 --> 00:38:40,300
I'm going to go, you know what I
mean? 

709
00:38:40,300 --> 00:38:44,380
It's like kind of like after you
bring someone home from the bar 

710
00:38:44,420 --> 00:38:46,580
and they act like they like you 
the whole time until the deeds 

711
00:38:46,580 --> 00:38:48,700
done and they're like, I'm going
to go. 

712
00:38:49,340 --> 00:38:57,700
Gots to leave, Gots to go, Yeah,
I'm like. 

713
00:38:58,250 --> 00:39:01,250
I have so many comments that I 
want to say, but it would also 

714
00:39:01,250 --> 00:39:04,450
clarify that me and Gemini do 
not send hexes to anyone because

715
00:39:04,450 --> 00:39:05,770
we don't even like y'all that 
much. 

716
00:39:05,770 --> 00:39:08,770
We love the people who support 
us, but we're not sending 

717
00:39:08,810 --> 00:39:10,730
negativity, the people who don't
support us. 

718
00:39:11,050 --> 00:39:16,010
And I know that's been like this
rumor, this thing, but in 

719
00:39:16,010 --> 00:39:19,610
spirituality, whatever you send 
out, good or bad, you get back 

720
00:39:19,610 --> 00:39:21,610
times 10. 
And if someone amplifies that 

721
00:39:21,610 --> 00:39:25,520
with spell work, it's going to 
feel like a hex or a a dark 

722
00:39:25,520 --> 00:39:27,960
cloud. 
But you brought that into your 

723
00:39:27,960 --> 00:39:31,080
world, like by sending it out 
into the world, it's just 

724
00:39:31,080 --> 00:39:33,680
rippled back to you. 
And I feel like there just needs

725
00:39:33,680 --> 00:39:36,160
to be some, like, clarity 
because I know Jim and I has a 

726
00:39:36,160 --> 00:39:41,160
cult and like, she's a cult 
leader, but I personally am not.

727
00:39:43,420 --> 00:39:45,060
Okay. 
First of all, I just think it's 

728
00:39:45,060 --> 00:39:46,820
hilarious to be called the cult 
leader. 

729
00:39:46,820 --> 00:39:51,900
It just fucking makes me giggle.
Second of all, to have people 

730
00:39:51,900 --> 00:39:54,340
who have literally taken classes
with me. 

731
00:39:54,380 --> 00:40:00,110
They're six weeks long apiece, 
so at least. 18 weeks with me 

732
00:40:00,470 --> 00:40:05,630
and Ryan doing these classes 
that people would know my ethics

733
00:40:05,630 --> 00:40:08,270
when it comes to spell work and 
everything else, because we 

734
00:40:08,270 --> 00:40:10,630
discuss it and still ever think 
something. 

735
00:40:11,030 --> 00:40:15,710
It just goes into the no matter 
what you do or what you say and 

736
00:40:15,710 --> 00:40:18,990
how much consistency you have 
and what you're doing, if 

737
00:40:18,990 --> 00:40:22,550
somebody doesn't like you, they 
and they're triggered by 

738
00:40:22,550 --> 00:40:25,310
something or for whatever 
fucking reason, they don't like 

739
00:40:25,310 --> 00:40:26,910
you, they're not going to like 
you. 

740
00:40:27,270 --> 00:40:29,870
And I think that'll. 
A lot of people put it on their 

741
00:40:29,870 --> 00:40:33,670
shoulders of but I want people 
to like me, but they just don't 

742
00:40:33,670 --> 00:40:36,310
like me because they don't 
understand And I used to do a 

743
00:40:36,310 --> 00:40:39,110
lot of explaining. 
You just must not know where I'm

744
00:40:39,110 --> 00:40:41,190
coming from and so you don't 
like me because you don't 

745
00:40:41,190 --> 00:40:43,390
understand. 
No, you don't like me because 

746
00:40:43,390 --> 00:40:46,590
for whatever fucking reason I 
really hit your soul. 

747
00:40:46,950 --> 00:40:48,870
But I'm not going to change 
anything that I'm doing. 

748
00:40:48,870 --> 00:40:50,910
So you don't align with it. 
You don't vibe with it. 

749
00:40:50,910 --> 00:40:52,590
Great block. 
Move on. 

750
00:40:52,590 --> 00:40:54,270
Don't look at my shit. 
Don't come here. 

751
00:40:54,270 --> 00:40:56,230
Don't have any kind of energy 
exchange. 

752
00:40:56,670 --> 00:41:02,790
And I will say that I am really 
loving working with this like 

753
00:41:02,790 --> 00:41:06,070
Lilith and Hecatel, like Dark 
Goddess Energy. 

754
00:41:06,470 --> 00:41:14,800
And I think that it's ignorance 
from people because strong like 

755
00:41:14,880 --> 00:41:19,480
feminine energy for some reason 
to people comes across as you're

756
00:41:19,480 --> 00:41:23,240
being aggressive or you're going
to do something to be spiteful 

757
00:41:23,240 --> 00:41:26,920
or painful to somebody and we 
just don't conduct ourselves 

758
00:41:26,920 --> 00:41:30,440
that way. 
So like while you know, maybe, 

759
00:41:30,920 --> 00:41:35,650
and I know too that because I I 
think that a part of it too is 

760
00:41:35,650 --> 00:41:39,530
that I play into the whole you 
think that witches are like 

761
00:41:39,530 --> 00:41:42,450
devil worshipper things or you 
think that I'm going to send it 

762
00:41:42,450 --> 00:41:44,450
to you. 
So like you're you know, 

763
00:41:44,770 --> 00:41:46,650
manifesting that for yourself 
thing. 

764
00:41:47,010 --> 00:41:50,770
It gets mistaken as I would 
actually use my energy to do 

765
00:41:50,770 --> 00:41:53,850
something negative. 
Whereas I'm like I'm just going 

766
00:41:53,850 --> 00:41:56,250
to match what you're. 
I'm just going to send 

767
00:41:56,250 --> 00:41:57,370
everything back to you right 
now. 

768
00:41:57,370 --> 00:42:00,970
I'm just going to mirror it and 
reverberate that shit back to 

769
00:42:00,970 --> 00:42:05,710
you and neither one of us do 
hexes, but we have some real 

770
00:42:05,710 --> 00:42:09,630
fucking strong protection. 
And I guarantee you that if we 

771
00:42:09,630 --> 00:42:12,670
have a fucking problem with 
something, both of us are like, 

772
00:42:13,030 --> 00:42:17,610
we're going to do spell work for
that and our spell work fucking 

773
00:42:17,610 --> 00:42:19,610
hits. 
Doing our spell work on Patreon 

774
00:42:19,610 --> 00:42:23,050
and having our chat with the 
people who are getting our spell

775
00:42:23,050 --> 00:42:26,610
work monthly and shit together. 
Like those chats are fucking 

776
00:42:26,610 --> 00:42:28,930
crazy. 
Our fire is dancing. 

777
00:42:28,930 --> 00:42:31,850
Our spell work is working. 
Like if you've ever said that 

778
00:42:31,850 --> 00:42:35,250
you didn't get, you didn't feel 
the energy in a full moon 

779
00:42:35,250 --> 00:42:36,970
ceremony. 
You didn't even feel when we 

780
00:42:36,970 --> 00:42:39,210
were doing the meditation. 
You couldn't even feel the spell

781
00:42:39,210 --> 00:42:40,810
work. 
Paige of spell work isn't doing 

782
00:42:40,810 --> 00:42:45,530
anything. 
Clearly you were not present, 

783
00:42:45,770 --> 00:42:47,490
reciprocated. 
That energy. 

784
00:42:47,490 --> 00:42:50,370
Being in a space where spirit 
wanted you to feel any of that 

785
00:42:50,370 --> 00:42:52,930
energy or vibration because you 
wouldn't know what the fuck to 

786
00:42:52,930 --> 00:42:56,130
do with it because everybody 
else feels it. 

787
00:42:56,770 --> 00:43:00,490
What's weird about it is like 
because our protection is so 

788
00:43:00,490 --> 00:43:04,130
strong that when people are 
trying to stay on the inside, 

789
00:43:04,130 --> 00:43:06,730
but really they have an outsider
mentality. 

790
00:43:06,970 --> 00:43:09,410
Like, no wonder you're not 
getting anything from it because

791
00:43:09,410 --> 00:43:12,500
spirit wants you to leave. 
Spirits ready for you to pack 

792
00:43:12,500 --> 00:43:15,860
your shit and bounce. 
So yeah, you're not getting what

793
00:43:15,860 --> 00:43:19,740
you're supposed to be getting 
because your intentions are not 

794
00:43:19,740 --> 00:43:23,780
pure. 
And I do want to just add Gemini

795
00:43:23,780 --> 00:43:26,500
and Cinnano hexes because she's 
just doing abundant spells for 

796
00:43:26,500 --> 00:43:28,140
herself. 
She don't give a fuck about 

797
00:43:28,140 --> 00:43:30,620
y'all, OK? 
It's just abundant spells over 

798
00:43:30,620 --> 00:43:34,340
here and Rd. openers and the 
rest of the shit can just kick 

799
00:43:34,340 --> 00:43:35,900
rocks because she ain't worried 
about you. 

800
00:43:36,220 --> 00:43:38,660
The only thing she's doing is 
still work. 

801
00:43:39,010 --> 00:43:42,490
For herself, she's not wasting 
any energy. 

802
00:43:42,490 --> 00:43:43,930
She's going to do an abundance 
spell. 

803
00:43:44,250 --> 00:43:48,370
She has a great handle for that.
I listen. 

804
00:43:48,370 --> 00:43:55,570
I have learned how to infuse my 
words with things that benefit 

805
00:43:55,570 --> 00:43:59,450
myself, my family and our 
collective energy. 

806
00:43:59,490 --> 00:44:04,170
I have my words infused so that 
when you speak on our business, 

807
00:44:04,170 --> 00:44:07,890
when you speak on our podcast, 
all you do is amplify our 

808
00:44:07,890 --> 00:44:11,090
listens and amplify our 
connection. 

809
00:44:11,290 --> 00:44:16,690
I have our protection set up so 
that if you speak lies on myself

810
00:44:16,690 --> 00:44:19,970
or page, your tongue starts 
hurting and starts going numb. 

811
00:44:21,170 --> 00:44:25,650
I have all. 
I have all kinds of fucking shit

812
00:44:26,370 --> 00:44:29,370
you. 
Know if you went to the doctor 

813
00:44:29,370 --> 00:44:33,330
because your tongue is hurting, 
you probably should stop talking

814
00:44:33,730 --> 00:44:36,250
especially. 
About us. 

815
00:44:36,650 --> 00:44:40,690
And we won't tell you all the 
secrets, but the secret is you 

816
00:44:40,690 --> 00:44:42,850
touch the fire, you're going to 
get burned. 

817
00:44:42,970 --> 00:44:46,970
And when the fire is burning 
from within someone, you cannot 

818
00:44:46,970 --> 00:44:50,810
extinguish it, you cannot let it
out, you cannot snuff it, you 

819
00:44:50,810 --> 00:44:53,090
cannot mute it, you can't do 
anything. 

820
00:44:53,370 --> 00:44:55,370
So you should just focus on your
own self. 

821
00:44:55,370 --> 00:44:58,690
Because every time you send 
negativity to someone on the 

822
00:44:58,690 --> 00:45:00,130
Internet, someone you don't 
know. 

823
00:45:00,130 --> 00:45:03,300
Someone you do know. 
You are draining your own 

824
00:45:03,300 --> 00:45:05,620
creative energy. 
You're draining your own 

825
00:45:05,620 --> 00:45:08,460
spiritual energy. 
You're draining everything. 

826
00:45:08,740 --> 00:45:14,620
And it's not about opening the 
doors if you're not ready to go 

827
00:45:14,620 --> 00:45:17,140
through those doors. 
You need to work on closing 

828
00:45:17,140 --> 00:45:19,500
chapters, cutting cords, 
releasing things. 

829
00:45:19,500 --> 00:45:23,140
Because whatever feelings that 
you're holding onto are going to

830
00:45:23,140 --> 00:45:26,420
show up in everything. 
And the only thing that I can 

831
00:45:26,420 --> 00:45:28,640
say is like. 
Peace be with you, 

832
00:45:28,640 --> 00:45:32,480
motherfuckers, because I am a 
whole new page and you're going 

833
00:45:32,480 --> 00:45:35,200
to have to get reacquainted with
that version of me, because this

834
00:45:35,200 --> 00:45:39,480
version of me doesn't give two 
fucks about your opinion. 

835
00:45:39,840 --> 00:45:44,160
You're anything like if it's 
negativity, keep it, Save it. 

836
00:45:44,360 --> 00:45:49,880
Don't even come my way with it. 
Also, this is by the way, this 

837
00:45:49,880 --> 00:45:52,880
is how you have been the whole 
time. 

838
00:45:53,360 --> 00:45:57,240
You're just now, you're on a 
platform where you have a 

839
00:45:57,240 --> 00:45:59,400
podcast and you're voicing 
things. 

840
00:45:59,680 --> 00:46:02,760
And I think that's a big thing 
too, is that I think that people

841
00:46:02,760 --> 00:46:06,560
just didn't truly have an 
opportunity to know you, because

842
00:46:06,560 --> 00:46:10,320
this version of you is exactly 
who you are in person. 

843
00:46:10,320 --> 00:46:13,240
When we met in person back in, 
what was it April? 

844
00:46:13,560 --> 00:46:16,920
March in March went, Oh my God, 
it was March. 

845
00:46:17,120 --> 00:46:21,720
When we met in person you were 
the same way and you also were 

846
00:46:21,720 --> 00:46:27,510
the person who was like you know
what I'm going to go and I'm 

847
00:46:27,510 --> 00:46:30,630
going to have these like direct 
conversations with home girl 

848
00:46:30,790 --> 00:46:35,110
instead of you doing it like you
put yourself in the position to 

849
00:46:35,470 --> 00:46:39,270
be the more like take charge 
person inside of things. 

850
00:46:39,670 --> 00:46:46,940
And I don't understand how if 
people have met you in person 

851
00:46:47,220 --> 00:46:49,980
they don't understand that 
that's your personality like 

852
00:46:49,980 --> 00:46:54,580
it's not a confusing thing 
you're you don't shy away from 

853
00:46:54,580 --> 00:46:56,660
saying your opinion. 
If something's bothering you, 

854
00:46:56,660 --> 00:46:58,140
you're going to say that it's 
bothering you. 

855
00:46:58,140 --> 00:47:02,820
If you have an expectation, you 
voice that expectation so a 

856
00:47:02,820 --> 00:47:05,340
little bit. 
I could see it a little bit for 

857
00:47:05,340 --> 00:47:09,150
you being like, I'm just going 
to block you and not talk to you

858
00:47:09,150 --> 00:47:12,070
then because like, clearly you 
don't even know who I am as a 

859
00:47:12,070 --> 00:47:13,710
person. 
If you think I've changed, but 

860
00:47:13,710 --> 00:47:18,230
I've been the same version of 
myself, I mean, you've evolved, 

861
00:47:18,230 --> 00:47:20,350
but you know what I mean? 
Like you, those things are core 

862
00:47:20,350 --> 00:47:25,110
about who you are as a person. 
I've always been rampage like 

863
00:47:25,150 --> 00:47:27,070
that is a nickname someone gave 
to me. 

864
00:47:27,070 --> 00:47:32,430
Like I have always had an 
attitude or like a spunky energy

865
00:47:32,430 --> 00:47:34,270
about me. 
I just was not directing it 

866
00:47:34,270 --> 00:47:38,630
towards positive growth. 
Elevation, mindset. 

867
00:47:38,630 --> 00:47:42,470
I was perpetuating the same 
cycles that I have been in that 

868
00:47:42,470 --> 00:47:45,790
I was exposed to, that I was 
introduced to at a young age. 

869
00:47:46,070 --> 00:47:54,230
And I know what it's like to be 
upset with people who had shit 

870
00:47:54,230 --> 00:47:57,870
going or had their life together
or had supportive family or 

871
00:47:57,870 --> 00:48:00,670
whatever. 
I remember having those feelings

872
00:48:00,670 --> 00:48:01,830
and things like that. 
But. 

873
00:48:02,590 --> 00:48:05,630
I just don't care about what 
other people are doing because 

874
00:48:05,630 --> 00:48:08,710
it does not change my path. 
When you get in tune with your 

875
00:48:08,710 --> 00:48:11,550
own soul blueprint, you stop 
looking around at everyone 

876
00:48:11,550 --> 00:48:13,910
else's math because it won't 
make sense. 

877
00:48:13,910 --> 00:48:15,630
It's in a different language 
than yours. 

878
00:48:15,790 --> 00:48:20,110
You cannot use what other people
have done to get where you're 

879
00:48:20,110 --> 00:48:23,270
supposed to be if it if it's a 
part of your calling. 

880
00:48:23,590 --> 00:48:26,830
And I think that a lot of people
just need to answer the call and

881
00:48:26,830 --> 00:48:30,590
be quiet enough to hear the call
because a lot of you all, it's 

882
00:48:30,590 --> 00:48:32,510
ringing and ringing and ringing 
and. 

883
00:48:32,590 --> 00:48:36,470
You're not getting the message. 
You're like letting it go to 

884
00:48:36,470 --> 00:48:39,750
voicemail every time rather than
being like oh wait. 

885
00:48:39,990 --> 00:48:43,150
So if I just woke up an hour 
earlier every day and did this, 

886
00:48:43,150 --> 00:48:46,990
or if I just dedicated 2 hours 
every weekend to this, or if I 

887
00:48:46,990 --> 00:48:49,710
just took a class on Monday, 
Wednesday and Fridays, I could 

888
00:48:49,710 --> 00:48:52,790
get this like that's the problem
is. 

889
00:48:53,300 --> 00:48:56,860
Society has got you all so 
distracted and so drained and 

890
00:48:56,860 --> 00:48:59,540
just focusing on all these 
things that will not make you 

891
00:48:59,540 --> 00:49:02,460
happy. 
And I understand that being in 

892
00:49:02,460 --> 00:49:05,820
survival mode and not being in 
survival mode are two different 

893
00:49:05,820 --> 00:49:08,340
things. 
But like, Gemini and myself have

894
00:49:08,340 --> 00:49:11,540
both been in survival mode. 
So don't tell me shit about 

895
00:49:11,540 --> 00:49:14,580
survival mode if you haven't 
triumphed through it, because 

896
00:49:14,580 --> 00:49:17,620
I'm not taking your advice like 
you're exactly what I don't want

897
00:49:17,620 --> 00:49:18,980
to be. 
But I've been there. 

898
00:49:19,510 --> 00:49:22,310
But that doesn't mean that I'm 
going to sit here and, like, 

899
00:49:22,310 --> 00:49:24,350
hold your hand. 
Like we said earlier, like, have

900
00:49:24,350 --> 00:49:27,510
all this sympathy for you. 
Because in my opinion, a lot of 

901
00:49:27,510 --> 00:49:31,670
people bring on the drama. 
They bring on the chaos. 

902
00:49:31,670 --> 00:49:34,990
They perpetuate the cycle 
because they don't know any 

903
00:49:34,990 --> 00:49:38,950
better and they won't even try 
because they're jealous, they're

904
00:49:38,950 --> 00:49:42,710
angry, they're mad, they're 
envious of people that want to 

905
00:49:42,710 --> 00:49:45,990
teach or lead or step up and 
rise above the bullshit. 

906
00:49:46,310 --> 00:49:50,620
And I think that's why I like. 
You have to really rise to the 

907
00:49:50,620 --> 00:49:55,220
occasion when connecting with a 
spiritual person who is in tune 

908
00:49:55,220 --> 00:49:58,380
with their own energy. 
This is girl, guy, old, young, 

909
00:49:58,380 --> 00:50:00,180
whatever. 
Like you have to rise to the 

910
00:50:00,180 --> 00:50:02,620
occasion if your energy is not 
there. 

911
00:50:02,860 --> 00:50:04,660
And that doesn't mean that 
you're not invited. 

912
00:50:04,660 --> 00:50:07,620
It just means that you're going 
to have to do more work than 

913
00:50:07,620 --> 00:50:12,260
everyone else who has a VIP seat
like they've. 

914
00:50:12,640 --> 00:50:15,560
Put themself in that position. 
No one else gave them that VIP 

915
00:50:15,560 --> 00:50:17,320
seat. 
Like they became the main 

916
00:50:17,320 --> 00:50:20,080
character of their story and 
started writing their story 

917
00:50:20,320 --> 00:50:22,360
rather than looking at everybody
else's stories. 

918
00:50:22,360 --> 00:50:26,040
Like, well, be a lot cooler. 
If my grandpa wrote my story and

919
00:50:26,040 --> 00:50:29,000
we had all this money like that 
person, that's the one thing 

920
00:50:29,000 --> 00:50:33,040
that, like I have to remind 
people is like, your ancestors 

921
00:50:33,360 --> 00:50:35,480
taught you the life that you 
live. 

922
00:50:35,560 --> 00:50:37,760
And if you don't like it, you 
need to be the ancestor that 

923
00:50:37,760 --> 00:50:41,680
changes it. 
And that goes with the breaking 

924
00:50:41,680 --> 00:50:46,320
generational traumas, which only
happens by not saying I'm broke 

925
00:50:46,320 --> 00:50:49,240
and addicted to meth because my 
mom was broke and addicted to 

926
00:50:49,240 --> 00:50:51,240
meth and I got touched as a 
child. 

927
00:50:51,240 --> 00:50:53,240
And so I don't know what to 
fucking do with it. 

928
00:50:53,520 --> 00:50:56,760
And I used to have to put 
ketchup on my noodles because we

929
00:50:56,760 --> 00:50:58,440
could never afford spaghetti 
sauce. 

930
00:50:58,440 --> 00:51:02,000
Like, OK, cool, well, now you're
a whole grown ass fucking adult 

931
00:51:02,000 --> 00:51:04,720
who can go out, get a job with 
the crack pipe down and figure 

932
00:51:04,720 --> 00:51:07,840
out your fucking world. 
So like, let's maybe focus on 

933
00:51:07,840 --> 00:51:14,120
that. 
I also am really becoming aware 

934
00:51:14,120 --> 00:51:21,640
of people who have a an urgency 
about spiritual messages that 

935
00:51:21,640 --> 00:51:23,920
they're being given or spiritual
work being done. 

936
00:51:24,120 --> 00:51:27,040
Well, how long is it after you 
do your spell work, how long is 

937
00:51:27,040 --> 00:51:30,200
that going to take for it to, 
you know, work for me or you 

938
00:51:30,200 --> 00:51:31,800
know, OK, well, you said this in
the reading. 

939
00:51:31,800 --> 00:51:34,120
What can you tell me exactly 
when that's going to unfold? 

940
00:51:34,120 --> 00:51:37,400
And you know, when am I going to
be successful with that and 

941
00:51:37,400 --> 00:51:41,160
whatever? 
And if you are, if you're 

942
00:51:41,160 --> 00:51:45,280
looking for answers for things 
and a definitive timeline, 

943
00:51:45,560 --> 00:51:48,520
you're not actually doing 
anything because your soul feels

944
00:51:48,520 --> 00:51:50,840
called to do that and you feel 
that you should do it. 

945
00:51:51,120 --> 00:51:56,040
You're doing it because you took
some small message out of the 

946
00:51:56,040 --> 00:51:59,920
whole grand scheme and said this
is my path and this is what I'm 

947
00:51:59,920 --> 00:52:02,920
supposed to be doing. 
How long is that going to take? 

948
00:52:03,400 --> 00:52:06,160
And since we were talking about 
spell work and we've talked 

949
00:52:06,160 --> 00:52:11,320
about spirit messages, I want to
say you can do spell working for

950
00:52:11,320 --> 00:52:13,320
something. 
Let's let's bring an abundance 

951
00:52:13,320 --> 00:52:16,080
thing. 
You can bring a spell working 

952
00:52:16,080 --> 00:52:20,040
for some fucking abundance thing
inside of your life. 

953
00:52:20,400 --> 00:52:27,400
All that does is open the road 
and and let spirit know that I'm

954
00:52:27,400 --> 00:52:30,240
willing to put in the energy for
this and I'm doing something 

955
00:52:30,240 --> 00:52:35,160
physical to ignite this energy 
for myself and that you're 

956
00:52:35,160 --> 00:52:37,640
willing to put the energy and 
effort into that. 

957
00:52:37,640 --> 00:52:40,600
When I when we do a spell 
working for you and we're like 

958
00:52:40,840 --> 00:52:45,040
we want you to have self love, 
we're setting the precedent of 

959
00:52:45,040 --> 00:52:48,560
you have come to us saying I 
don't know how to do this for 

960
00:52:48,560 --> 00:52:52,520
myself but I need energy to go 
moving in in a direction for 

961
00:52:52,520 --> 00:52:55,160
myself. 
And then it's up to you to keep 

962
00:52:55,160 --> 00:52:59,040
your keep moving and keep your 
energy going towards that thing.

963
00:52:59,040 --> 00:53:01,920
If I light a money candle for 
you and you're like, no, I'm not

964
00:53:01,920 --> 00:53:04,880
going to work any extra hours, 
no, I'm not going to go and get 

965
00:53:04,880 --> 00:53:07,200
a new job. 
No, I'm not going to go suck 

966
00:53:07,200 --> 00:53:09,440
that Dick on the corner for the 
5 bucks and I'm just kidding. 

967
00:53:10,840 --> 00:53:13,720
Then, like you know, you don't 
get, you don't get that money. 

968
00:53:14,440 --> 00:53:18,880
Well, and to add to that, like a
self love spell, the thing about

969
00:53:18,880 --> 00:53:21,250
it is like. 
We could do a self love spell 

970
00:53:21,250 --> 00:53:24,090
for you, but if you don't get up
and go to the gym and do the 

971
00:53:24,090 --> 00:53:27,610
things that you need to do to 
love yourself, to treat yourself

972
00:53:27,610 --> 00:53:30,050
well, to talk to yourself, well,
you're you're. 

973
00:53:31,250 --> 00:53:34,530
Surrounding yourself with people
who bring you down, who call you

974
00:53:34,530 --> 00:53:37,490
names. 
You're not going to feel the 

975
00:53:37,490 --> 00:53:42,810
self love like it's more of like
she mentioned, it's a catalyst. 

976
00:53:42,810 --> 00:53:45,370
It's igniting something in that 
direction and saying you know 

977
00:53:45,370 --> 00:53:48,650
what spirit, this is my 
intention, my intention and I'm 

978
00:53:48,650 --> 00:53:50,490
going to put attention towards 
it. 

979
00:53:50,770 --> 00:53:53,570
That's why intention and 
attention sound like the same 

980
00:53:53,570 --> 00:53:57,130
word when I'm talking, because. 
Whatever we're giving attention 

981
00:53:57,130 --> 00:53:59,930
to is the intention. 
So if you're being mean to 

982
00:53:59,930 --> 00:54:01,570
yourself, you're talking shit to
yourself. 

983
00:54:01,570 --> 00:54:04,890
You're not being a quality 
version of yourself. 

984
00:54:05,170 --> 00:54:08,890
It's going to be really hard for
you to love what you're doing 

985
00:54:08,890 --> 00:54:12,090
and to love life. 
And a lot of people want someone

986
00:54:12,090 --> 00:54:15,810
else to love them in place of 
them loving themselves. 

987
00:54:17,850 --> 00:54:20,730
So I used to think it was the 
corniest thing when nobody can 

988
00:54:20,730 --> 00:54:23,490
love you till you love yourself 
and I'm like well I fucking hate

989
00:54:23,490 --> 00:54:25,770
myself so fuck off because 
people love me. 

990
00:54:26,730 --> 00:54:31,930
But it really is true because if
you don't figure out what things

991
00:54:31,930 --> 00:54:34,410
you really love about yourself 
and what things are non 

992
00:54:34,410 --> 00:54:37,970
negotiables, it's like that's 
where you get into situations 

993
00:54:37,970 --> 00:54:40,490
where people can just kind of 
treat you any old way. 

994
00:54:40,810 --> 00:54:44,570
And it's not that somebody won't
love you, but it's that you're 

995
00:54:44,570 --> 00:54:47,770
not going to find somebody who's
going to love you the way that 

996
00:54:48,050 --> 00:54:51,370
you are needing to be loved. 
Because you don't recognize 

997
00:54:51,370 --> 00:54:55,570
within yourself what parts of 
you you're not going to change 

998
00:54:55,570 --> 00:54:59,170
and what parts of you were going
to be a consistent thing. 

999
00:54:59,170 --> 00:55:03,010
That somebody isn't going to be 
able to wish and dream away from

1000
00:55:03,010 --> 00:55:07,890
you and an insult away from you.
I pulled. 

1001
00:55:08,250 --> 00:55:10,770
I really wanted to pull human 
design card just while we were 

1002
00:55:10,770 --> 00:55:16,650
talking, because we're over here
talking about like the duality 

1003
00:55:16,650 --> 00:55:19,170
of like having to put your 
energy into something and having

1004
00:55:19,170 --> 00:55:20,810
to like see the shadow and 
things. 

1005
00:55:20,810 --> 00:55:26,090
So I pulled card 49 for 
Firelight Cocoon. 

1006
00:55:28,450 --> 00:55:32,170
I've been seeing all of these. 
So the picture is it reminds me 

1007
00:55:32,170 --> 00:55:36,750
of Vegas a little bit. 
It's like a it's a bar with a 

1008
00:55:36,750 --> 00:55:39,830
pool table and then that's like 
a fluorescent light lit up in 

1009
00:55:39,830 --> 00:55:45,550
the background. 
Card 49 is the sign of Aquarius.

1010
00:55:45,870 --> 00:55:49,750
Of course this would be the gift
is self-awareness and the shadow

1011
00:55:49,750 --> 00:55:54,080
is separation, so the gift of 
selfawareness. 

1012
00:55:54,560 --> 00:55:57,800
As you enter the realm of the 
Gift, you gain access to a new 

1013
00:55:57,800 --> 00:56:01,360
elevated sense of awareness that
allows you to see the part you 

1014
00:56:01,360 --> 00:56:03,560
play in your ever unfolding 
story. 

1015
00:56:03,920 --> 00:56:06,880
When you take ownership of your 
emotional state and its 

1016
00:56:06,880 --> 00:56:11,160
potential for volatility, you're
able to take a step back and 

1017
00:56:11,160 --> 00:56:13,640
recalibrate to another possible 
outcome. 

1018
00:56:14,080 --> 00:56:17,640
The energetic nebula of war and 
global strife clouds. 

1019
00:56:17,640 --> 00:56:21,270
Both are individual and 
collective visions, But here in 

1020
00:56:21,270 --> 00:56:25,150
the gift Frequency, you unleash 
a revolution that challenges our

1021
00:56:25,150 --> 00:56:27,830
very notion of separation and 
division. 

1022
00:56:28,030 --> 00:56:31,910
Within this physical reality. 
You usher in a new way of being 

1023
00:56:31,910 --> 00:56:34,710
that celebrates our shared 
humanity and journey of 

1024
00:56:34,710 --> 00:56:37,990
continued evolution. 
And then the shadow is 

1025
00:56:37,990 --> 00:56:41,380
separation. 
The shadow, synonymous with the 

1026
00:56:41,380 --> 00:56:45,380
fear of rejection, carves out of
place within your most intimate 

1027
00:56:45,380 --> 00:56:47,580
relationships, which is 
literally what we've been 

1028
00:56:47,580 --> 00:56:50,420
talking about. 
This lower frequency state is 

1029
00:56:50,420 --> 00:56:53,500
characterized by reaction, 
emotion, and distance, both 

1030
00:56:53,500 --> 00:56:57,140
physical and metaphorical. 
On the repressive end, you may 

1031
00:56:57,140 --> 00:57:01,300
attempt to erase any semblance 
of emotion, leaving you cold or 

1032
00:57:01,300 --> 00:57:04,020
numb. 
In this case, your relationships

1033
00:57:04,020 --> 00:57:05,820
will be void of pleasure and 
depth. 

1034
00:57:06,490 --> 00:57:09,650
On the reactive side, the fear 
overwhelms you, causing you to 

1035
00:57:09,650 --> 00:57:13,170
lash out at your partners, a 
preemptive measure to avoid 

1036
00:57:13,170 --> 00:57:16,210
rejection. 
In either case, true intimacy 

1037
00:57:16,210 --> 00:57:19,250
remains unseen. 
Your themes are accountability, 

1038
00:57:19,250 --> 00:57:24,210
emotional world, and perception.
And I think that's where we're 

1039
00:57:24,210 --> 00:57:28,050
going to leave you in Candy Land
tonight as that just brought it 

1040
00:57:28,050 --> 00:57:33,360
all together. 
Well, both next week guys, we're

1041
00:57:33,360 --> 00:57:37,680
going to be back weekly and I'm 
so happy to be here and we're 

1042
00:57:37,680 --> 00:57:40,280
going to. 
I feel like the theme this 

1043
00:57:40,280 --> 00:57:43,360
season is like, if you thought 
you knew us before, like you're 

1044
00:57:43,360 --> 00:57:44,880
going to really get to know us 
this season. 

1045
00:57:45,720 --> 00:57:49,720
Yeah, I'm ready to reintroduce 
myself because I've just really 

1046
00:57:49,720 --> 00:57:54,000
came to terms with who I am, 
what the variables are that like

1047
00:57:54,000 --> 00:57:56,600
really matter to me, What's non 
negotiable? 

1048
00:57:57,440 --> 00:58:00,400
How you're going to act or 
you're removed and? 

1049
00:58:00,760 --> 00:58:04,160
That's not what people who take 
advantage of you or manipulate 

1050
00:58:04,160 --> 00:58:07,840
you want to hear. 
So I'm really grateful to those 

1051
00:58:07,840 --> 00:58:10,840
that see the vision, that 
understand that we're not saying

1052
00:58:10,840 --> 00:58:13,920
any of this to be mean or 
disturb, you know, anger. 

1053
00:58:13,920 --> 00:58:16,560
Like I have zero anger towards 
people who hurt me. 

1054
00:58:16,560 --> 00:58:19,040
Because honestly, you're only 
hurting yourself because if 

1055
00:58:19,040 --> 00:58:23,440
someone who was really writing 
for you is now done with your 

1056
00:58:23,440 --> 00:58:25,850
ass. 
That's you that's going to be on

1057
00:58:25,850 --> 00:58:28,850
you because you're not going to 
have that guiding light or that 

1058
00:58:28,850 --> 00:58:31,810
person you know. 
It's one thing to want to be 

1059
00:58:31,810 --> 00:58:34,250
like someone because they 
inspire you, but it's another 

1060
00:58:34,250 --> 00:58:37,450
thing to copy someone and try to
emulate them and try to become 

1061
00:58:37,450 --> 00:58:38,690
them. 
It won't work. 

1062
00:58:38,690 --> 00:58:41,850
It will always backfire. 
And I think that if anything 

1063
00:58:41,850 --> 00:58:43,530
that we can say is just be 
yourself. 

1064
00:58:43,530 --> 00:58:45,930
The people who are supposed to 
be there and enjoy that will 

1065
00:58:45,930 --> 00:58:47,890
enjoy it. 
If you're having a good time, 

1066
00:58:48,330 --> 00:58:51,010
don't let the world tell you 
when you can start having a good

1067
00:58:51,010 --> 00:58:53,890
time or being happy. 
Like, be happy now. 

1068
00:58:54,370 --> 00:58:56,250
And you'll figure it out. 
But if you're angry and you're 

1069
00:58:56,250 --> 00:58:59,370
mad, you won't figure it out. 
You'll attract more things to be

1070
00:58:59,370 --> 00:59:02,530
angry and mad about. 
But like choosing happiness, 

1071
00:59:02,530 --> 00:59:06,650
every day is the only thing on 
the agenda. 

1072
00:59:06,650 --> 00:59:10,210
Like, I'm going to choose my own
happiness over being right, 

1073
00:59:10,250 --> 00:59:12,730
being seen, being heard, being 
liked. 

1074
00:59:13,010 --> 00:59:15,610
You know if you say something 
and one person gets the message,

1075
00:59:15,610 --> 00:59:18,570
you're doing your light work, 
and that's what you should do. 

1076
00:59:18,570 --> 00:59:21,800
You should just focus on. 
What message are you sending to 

1077
00:59:21,800 --> 00:59:24,320
the world, and how is that 
message being projected back to 

1078
00:59:24,320 --> 00:59:26,240
you? 
And you'll find that a lot of 

1079
00:59:26,240 --> 00:59:29,560
those messages, you may not like
them, so you need to quit 

1080
00:59:29,560 --> 00:59:32,480
projecting them outward. 
Or you may not even realize that

1081
00:59:32,480 --> 00:59:34,800
you're doing it. 
Maybe someone projects those on 

1082
00:59:34,800 --> 00:59:38,920
to you and you embody them and 
instead of that. 

1083
00:59:39,370 --> 00:59:42,130
Reflect that shit back to them. 
Let them absorb it. 

1084
00:59:42,130 --> 00:59:45,370
Let them keep it. 
And know that it's not personal 

1085
00:59:45,370 --> 00:59:47,770
how people treat you. 
It's just spiritual. 

1086
00:59:48,010 --> 00:59:50,890
And if they're not in tune with 
that energy, they're only going 

1087
00:59:50,890 --> 00:59:54,490
to see negative and anger and 
resentment. 

1088
00:59:56,170 --> 01:00:03,170
Yep and Amen in Jesus name. 
Amen, bye. 

1089
01:00:03,850 --> 01:00:04,050
Bye.