1 00:00:10,700 --> 00:00:16,600 Welcome to fucking Dandy land hosted by Rampage and Gemini. 2 00:00:30,300 --> 00:00:33,200 What's up everybody? Welcome back to Candyland 3 00:00:33,200 --> 00:00:37,100 another episode of here with the beautiful Rampage from literally 4 00:00:37,100 --> 00:00:41,400 eating candy, Mike and Ikes hours and they're so good. 5 00:00:42,200 --> 00:00:45,900 I brought a croissant and a and some iced tea to the party. 6 00:00:47,800 --> 00:00:51,200 Hell, yeah, I'm really want money Tick-Tock upload. 7 00:00:51,200 --> 00:00:57,500 So guess what? So much in so little time to 8 00:00:57,500 --> 00:01:01,400 tell you but we'll just go ahead and start because I've already 9 00:01:01,400 --> 00:01:05,600 given you a little brief. So about six months ago when we 10 00:01:05,600 --> 00:01:08,800 had first started the podcast, I mean, you know, not long ago, 11 00:01:08,800 --> 00:01:13,000 whatever. I was really excited and I was a 12 00:01:13,008 --> 00:01:17,100 part of this other community like a spiritual community and 13 00:01:17,400 --> 00:01:20,900 you know, it was actually a community where I felt like I 14 00:01:20,900 --> 00:01:25,700 could share that I'm excited. This is my podcast but I didn't 15 00:01:25,700 --> 00:01:27,500 share it in like a promotional way. 16 00:01:27,800 --> 00:01:29,800 I shared it in like a relevancy way. 17 00:01:29,800 --> 00:01:32,000 It came up in conversation something that we had talked 18 00:01:32,000 --> 00:01:35,300 about on the podcast with several of our guests. 19 00:01:36,000 --> 00:01:38,600 Which was being in the Pluto and Scorpio generation. 20 00:01:39,000 --> 00:01:41,600 So I really felt like, okay, like I'm going to bring this up 21 00:01:41,600 --> 00:01:44,800 now. Well, the girl that it was her 22 00:01:44,800 --> 00:01:50,800 community wrote me privately and basically like went off on me 23 00:01:50,900 --> 00:01:53,400 but in a nice way. But in a condescending kind of 24 00:01:53,400 --> 00:01:56,600 way saying like this isn't a space to promote yourself. 25 00:01:56,600 --> 00:01:59,400 This is a space only to speak on what we're working through, what 26 00:01:59,400 --> 00:02:01,500 we're going through our intentions. 27 00:02:01,700 --> 00:02:04,200 You know, don't talk about your business, don't talk about this. 28 00:02:04,200 --> 00:02:07,100 Don't talk about that. But what really stuck out about 29 00:02:07,100 --> 00:02:11,400 it was that she called me posting my podcast that conflict 30 00:02:11,400 --> 00:02:16,200 of interest when we literally she doesn't even have a podcast. 31 00:02:16,200 --> 00:02:18,400 So like how could that be a conflict of interest if you 32 00:02:18,400 --> 00:02:23,100 don't have a podcast and then on top of that, me and her met in 33 00:02:23,100 --> 00:02:28,900 like a spiritual community and it would be like, you know, that 34 00:02:28,900 --> 00:02:32,100 girl who introduced us being upset about me being in her 35 00:02:32,100 --> 00:02:34,400 community, you know, it's just like that's not how it works. 36 00:02:34,600 --> 00:02:37,500 Spiritual Community is In community together, sometimes 37 00:02:37,500 --> 00:02:40,600 people outgrow you and grow on to the next person, that doesn't 38 00:02:40,600 --> 00:02:43,600 mean that it's like a bad person or, like, you know, it's just 39 00:02:43,600 --> 00:02:47,800 some people outgrow things. And so I really wanted to be 40 00:02:47,800 --> 00:02:50,700 like that Simpsons mean where he like, falls into the bush and 41 00:02:50,700 --> 00:02:53,100 disappears. I like really wanted to be like 42 00:02:53,100 --> 00:02:54,900 that. I was hoping. 43 00:02:54,900 --> 00:02:57,100 So this was like back in September when all this hit the 44 00:02:57,100 --> 00:03:01,700 fan and I did not cancel my $25, a month membership to her 45 00:03:01,700 --> 00:03:05,100 community. So January, when I canceled it, 46 00:03:05,100 --> 00:03:08,400 I still Had three weeks paid. So I canceled it a couple weeks 47 00:03:08,400 --> 00:03:10,600 ago. I still had it paid until 48 00:03:10,600 --> 00:03:14,900 February, 3rd, tell me why. If this girl does not delete me 49 00:03:14,900 --> 00:03:18,400 off her Discord and remove me from everything like the first 50 00:03:18,400 --> 00:03:20,800 day it happens. She writes me nonetheless, like, 51 00:03:20,800 --> 00:03:24,500 30 minutes after I canceled, even though I'm paid up. 52 00:03:24,500 --> 00:03:26,800 Like, even though I just paid her 10 days. 53 00:03:26,800 --> 00:03:30,100 Prior, she also has never bought a reading. 54 00:03:30,100 --> 00:03:33,200 She's never supported me. Like my patreon starts at seven 55 00:03:33,200 --> 00:03:35,200 dollars. She's never supported nothing 56 00:03:35,200 --> 00:03:37,300 that I've done. Done, not that she has to but 57 00:03:37,300 --> 00:03:39,400 like I can't even speak on something. 58 00:03:39,400 --> 00:03:41,800 I'm passionate about in your community but you want me to be 59 00:03:41,800 --> 00:03:45,400 in your community. So I figured $25. 60 00:03:45,400 --> 00:03:48,600 I had some friends. Sorry, it just posted, I think. 61 00:03:49,100 --> 00:03:54,900 Yeah, but anyways, I feel like she wanted me to like, be a part 62 00:03:54,900 --> 00:03:57,500 of her community without that. Reciprocal energy. 63 00:03:57,900 --> 00:04:00,700 And then shit. Hit the fucking van shit. 64 00:04:00,700 --> 00:04:03,500 Hit the fan, and you told me to cut her off back in September, 65 00:04:03,800 --> 00:04:08,700 but I didn't Yeah. But to be fair, you've also told 66 00:04:08,700 --> 00:04:13,400 me to kind of somebody off will literally just like had a 67 00:04:13,400 --> 00:04:18,600 spiritual like we go through. Oddly similar situations in 68 00:04:18,600 --> 00:04:22,200 different ways around the same time and we give each other the 69 00:04:22,200 --> 00:04:23,700 same like, oh, you should cut that off. 70 00:04:23,700 --> 00:04:28,000 And then were like, oh but like over here but for me when you've 71 00:04:28,000 --> 00:04:30,900 shown me because you have shown me, you know, the messages like 72 00:04:30,900 --> 00:04:33,600 along the way and like, the situation that you've had with 73 00:04:33,600 --> 00:04:37,600 this person and What I've noticed is that they always make 74 00:04:37,600 --> 00:04:41,400 it a point to be like, but I'm not in competition with you and 75 00:04:41,400 --> 00:04:45,600 like, I really support you, but there hasn't been anything done 76 00:04:45,600 --> 00:04:49,100 to have support and then all of these Shady things keep 77 00:04:49,100 --> 00:04:53,900 happening and it's these long messages to you about how I know 78 00:04:53,900 --> 00:04:57,300 that it comes across. Like, it's really shady but it's 79 00:04:57,300 --> 00:05:00,300 not shady. No, you're being shady and you 80 00:05:00,300 --> 00:05:03,300 know that somebody has a platform and you don't want them 81 00:05:03,300 --> 00:05:06,500 talking bad about you. So you're going to cover your 82 00:05:06,500 --> 00:05:10,200 ass because you want to be Shady, but you don't actually 83 00:05:10,200 --> 00:05:13,500 want to have a fucking problem, which is why you got deleted off 84 00:05:13,500 --> 00:05:17,100 of Discord, which is why you can't post in a group. 85 00:05:17,100 --> 00:05:22,500 I personally, I just can't imagine telling somebody you 86 00:05:22,500 --> 00:05:26,800 talking about spirituality that doesn't that's a conflict of 87 00:05:26,800 --> 00:05:32,100 interest like we're in a fucking spiritual group and on top of 88 00:05:32,100 --> 00:05:35,700 that it's like I was not promoting my Honest, I did not 89 00:05:35,700 --> 00:05:38,900 say anything readings or services or astrology readings, 90 00:05:38,900 --> 00:05:42,100 and I think she was just intimidated and what really 91 00:05:42,100 --> 00:05:46,400 upset me the most now that's all came down crashing, is there 92 00:05:46,400 --> 00:05:49,600 were several other girls in her community that I had bonded 93 00:05:49,600 --> 00:05:51,500 with? And now that this is kind of 94 00:05:51,500 --> 00:05:56,000 came out, it kind of all has rippled into the fact that not 95 00:05:56,000 --> 00:06:02,200 only did other people not get in trouble or not get that same 96 00:06:02,200 --> 00:06:06,500 like this is competition. Of energy or whatever. 97 00:06:06,500 --> 00:06:09,700 Like she didn't do that to them. She was like, oh, promote 98 00:06:09,700 --> 00:06:10,400 yourself. Yeah. 99 00:06:10,400 --> 00:06:13,000 Post your business. And then, whenever I called her 100 00:06:13,000 --> 00:06:17,900 out on it, or she was called out on it, it wasn't even me who did 101 00:06:17,900 --> 00:06:21,200 it with someone else because at the end of the day, other people 102 00:06:21,200 --> 00:06:25,400 noticed how she like, didn't say anything to them when they were 103 00:06:25,400 --> 00:06:28,900 promoting their self. So then it seemed like, okay, 104 00:06:28,900 --> 00:06:31,700 I'm only competing with page. Everyone else is cool, like 105 00:06:31,700 --> 00:06:34,900 y'all can do whatever and what's weird about it is like she said, 106 00:06:35,000 --> 00:06:37,200 Solicited people to be a part of her community. 107 00:06:37,600 --> 00:06:41,600 I only post about my services. I never DM people and say like 108 00:06:41,600 --> 00:06:44,400 would really love to have you in our community would love to have 109 00:06:44,400 --> 00:06:47,300 your energy like she kind of cornered me and a few other 110 00:06:47,300 --> 00:06:51,000 girls to join her community and at the time it was like we were 111 00:06:51,000 --> 00:06:53,900 doing these circles. So she basically made it like 112 00:06:53,900 --> 00:06:57,500 the same price as the circle that we would pay monthly like 113 00:06:57,500 --> 00:07:01,800 if we showed up or whatever to, you know, it was that monthly 114 00:07:01,800 --> 00:07:04,900 and then it just added the Discord and added the group. 115 00:07:05,500 --> 00:07:09,900 And like at that time, you know I've had my patreon for a while 116 00:07:10,000 --> 00:07:13,300 like for a whole while and she's never once supported anything 117 00:07:13,300 --> 00:07:15,100 that I've done. So it's like not even about the 118 00:07:15,100 --> 00:07:17,900 reciprocation. It's about her fake supporting 119 00:07:17,900 --> 00:07:20,400 me and trying to write me these long as messages which were 120 00:07:20,400 --> 00:07:22,600 going to get to those. And I'm going to read the one 121 00:07:22,600 --> 00:07:26,300 from today that I've left this bitch on red and like shout out 122 00:07:26,300 --> 00:07:31,000 baby girl like don't even try to come for me because at the end 123 00:07:31,000 --> 00:07:34,200 of the day I have so many people that support me and that really 124 00:07:34,200 --> 00:07:37,400 see who I I am. And at the end of the day, you 125 00:07:37,400 --> 00:07:39,500 won't have a community acting like this. 126 00:07:39,500 --> 00:07:42,900 You won't have a community at all and then it's just you, you 127 00:07:42,900 --> 00:07:45,400 can't use your community as your own therapy session. 128 00:07:45,400 --> 00:07:48,200 Like you need to check yourself and go to therapy and quit 129 00:07:48,200 --> 00:07:50,500 acting like you can mentor people because you can't, you're 130 00:07:50,500 --> 00:07:53,500 not a leader leaders, do not compete because leaders don't 131 00:07:53,500 --> 00:07:57,900 need to compete. Yikes everything that you just 132 00:07:57,900 --> 00:08:00,800 said is true. And I just I we've talked about 133 00:08:00,800 --> 00:08:04,600 it before, but just the having to compete with other people is 134 00:08:04,600 --> 00:08:08,500 just the weirdest energy and if you have a space in like she is 135 00:08:08,500 --> 00:08:10,700 offering Circle. She's offering these different 136 00:08:10,700 --> 00:08:13,300 things. That is like a unique space and 137 00:08:13,300 --> 00:08:16,900 if you want to have guidelines for that, you tell everybody up 138 00:08:16,900 --> 00:08:21,000 front and you say, you know, this is like the community that 139 00:08:21,000 --> 00:08:23,300 I have, I want to be the person doing these things. 140 00:08:23,300 --> 00:08:26,900 I think it's fucking funky. If you're gonna do that, do it 141 00:08:26,900 --> 00:08:29,200 and have it the exact same for everybody. 142 00:08:29,200 --> 00:08:32,100 Don't have it like swept swapping, and changing and being 143 00:08:32,100 --> 00:08:35,500 weird. And I also know that, you know, 144 00:08:35,500 --> 00:08:37,900 before you and even removed yourself, you would talked about 145 00:08:37,900 --> 00:08:41,900 like this just feels very like transaction e to me, you always 146 00:08:41,900 --> 00:08:46,300 felt like it was like very transaction and oh, well, you 147 00:08:46,300 --> 00:08:48,800 didn't pay this month, you don't get to be, you know, you don't 148 00:08:48,800 --> 00:08:51,500 get to be on the Discord then even though you have three weeks 149 00:08:51,500 --> 00:08:56,500 left because you didn't pay it and that To me, I think that's 150 00:08:56,500 --> 00:09:01,200 so. So weird being you and I doing 151 00:09:01,200 --> 00:09:04,900 like free services, like we do so many things for free and we 152 00:09:04,900 --> 00:09:09,200 do so many added things and like things for people that I can't 153 00:09:09,200 --> 00:09:13,100 imagine having the energy of like, oh absolutely not, I won't 154 00:09:13,100 --> 00:09:15,100 have you in that. Like I let people take my class 155 00:09:15,100 --> 00:09:20,200 if they are on my like mentorship and I know that they 156 00:09:20,200 --> 00:09:21,500 need it. You know what I mean? 157 00:09:21,500 --> 00:09:24,400 Like I don't give a fuck about you paying for that spot your 158 00:09:24,400 --> 00:09:25,800 already. Thing in yourself. 159 00:09:25,800 --> 00:09:30,600 Why don't I just help you and I don't get the stingiest energy. 160 00:09:31,000 --> 00:09:34,000 Well, the thing is, is I'm already manifesting that extra 161 00:09:34,000 --> 00:09:37,100 $150 at I've given her since September when I should have 162 00:09:37,100 --> 00:09:39,600 just cancelled it right where she had me fucked up at. 163 00:09:39,800 --> 00:09:42,900 That's not a herb, her bank account personally times 10. 164 00:09:42,900 --> 00:09:45,800 So baby, girl, you're going to be negative because I found out 165 00:09:45,800 --> 00:09:49,600 that several girls that I've like kind of bonded with one of 166 00:09:49,600 --> 00:09:54,000 them was going into the negatives to be a part of her 167 00:09:54,100 --> 00:09:56,400 community. And the thing I don't like about 168 00:09:56,400 --> 00:09:58,800 it is she runs her community through her website, which is 169 00:09:58,800 --> 00:10:01,400 fine. But clearly her, you know, 170 00:10:01,400 --> 00:10:05,200 system charges people and puts them in the - where patreon will 171 00:10:05,200 --> 00:10:07,100 just decline. If you don't have the money in 172 00:10:07,100 --> 00:10:10,300 your account patreons, not going to take you - it just declines. 173 00:10:10,500 --> 00:10:13,300 And if you never update your card or you get a new card, it 174 00:10:13,308 --> 00:10:15,900 doesn't cancel you. It just leaves you in limbo 175 00:10:15,900 --> 00:10:18,800 where it's like, you haven't paid, but you're not a part of 176 00:10:18,800 --> 00:10:21,300 it anymore, and I have a lot of people on that list. 177 00:10:21,300 --> 00:10:24,100 It's like they just got declined and it just never renewed. 178 00:10:24,100 --> 00:10:27,200 I've never once Reached out to any of those people and been 179 00:10:27,200 --> 00:10:28,900 like, what's your financial situation? 180 00:10:28,900 --> 00:10:31,500 What's going on? Because literally she not only 181 00:10:31,500 --> 00:10:35,100 wrote me within 30 minutes of canceling even though despite I 182 00:10:35,100 --> 00:10:37,700 was paid for an additional two and a half weeks. 183 00:10:37,900 --> 00:10:41,300 She removing from the Discord within that hour wrote me a 184 00:10:41,300 --> 00:10:43,600 whole thing. And then when I told her what 185 00:10:43,600 --> 00:10:49,000 was up, it was like real weird. And then she also made it like 186 00:10:49,100 --> 00:10:52,200 to other people that they could stay in the group on a sliding 187 00:10:52,200 --> 00:10:54,400 scale. If they wanted to tell her what 188 00:10:54,400 --> 00:10:56,100 she would, they could pay to be there. 189 00:10:58,200 --> 00:11:01,900 What? But I'm paid for you and have 190 00:11:01,900 --> 00:11:03,500 more weeks, and you just removed me. 191 00:11:04,900 --> 00:11:08,600 Talk to Josh and and with like no conversation now for me like 192 00:11:08,800 --> 00:11:12,600 on patreon if I not if somebody's card just like 193 00:11:12,600 --> 00:11:15,800 declines but if I noticed that they like because you can tell 194 00:11:15,800 --> 00:11:18,000 somebody unsubscribes or something like that. 195 00:11:18,200 --> 00:11:21,100 I'll always send a message and be like, hey were you looking 196 00:11:21,100 --> 00:11:23,600 for something else on here? Like I didn't get like, I grow 197 00:11:23,600 --> 00:11:25,600 by your feedback. So like is there anything that 198 00:11:25,600 --> 00:11:27,800 like you wanted to see that you didn't or whatever? 199 00:11:28,100 --> 00:11:30,600 And if it's money should I'm just like, I totally get it like 200 00:11:30,600 --> 00:11:35,100 whatever. No no pressure and I I don't, 201 00:11:35,100 --> 00:11:38,900 and I don't understand putting money before other people's 202 00:11:38,900 --> 00:11:44,400 like, feelings and things, especially because money stems 203 00:11:44,400 --> 00:11:48,000 so many emotions for people. So many emotions are involved in 204 00:11:48,000 --> 00:11:52,200 people's finances and so like, you know, fear of not being able 205 00:11:52,200 --> 00:11:57,100 to pay things, worry, concern, embarrassment, guilt, and then 206 00:11:57,100 --> 00:12:01,300 you go and you just immediately remove people off of things and 207 00:12:01,300 --> 00:12:04,900 make them feel that way. I have people who You on my 208 00:12:04,900 --> 00:12:08,600 mentorship will be like hey I actually don't get paid in time 209 00:12:08,600 --> 00:12:10,300 to do this. Are you going to delete me from 210 00:12:10,300 --> 00:12:13,400 the group chats? No, I'm not going to delete you. 211 00:12:13,400 --> 00:12:16,400 That would bend then what Riyadh you in two days like that's so 212 00:12:16,400 --> 00:12:19,100 fucked up. Yeah, no, I've never deleted 213 00:12:19,100 --> 00:12:23,200 anyone even like whatever. So I don't know, people are just 214 00:12:23,200 --> 00:12:26,200 really got me fucked up and I was really just feeling like so 215 00:12:26,200 --> 00:12:29,200 much Clarity, talking about it with some other girls from the 216 00:12:29,200 --> 00:12:32,800 community, who are now coming into my community because it's 217 00:12:32,800 --> 00:12:38,500 like, Petit is not. Picking favorites and competing 218 00:12:38,500 --> 00:12:41,200 in like being jealous and being intimidated and stuff. 219 00:12:41,200 --> 00:12:44,400 Like if you're intimidated, baby, you need to step your shit 220 00:12:44,400 --> 00:12:46,600 up. You need to step it up then 221 00:12:46,600 --> 00:12:50,500 because like at the end of the day, like I respected her and 222 00:12:50,500 --> 00:12:53,200 wanted to like learn from her like girl, you are not a leader, 223 00:12:53,200 --> 00:12:55,100 you need to check yourself and you know what's crazy? 224 00:12:55,600 --> 00:12:58,700 She does this little circle on the full moon. 225 00:12:59,300 --> 00:13:01,500 Me and you are about to do a woman Circle. 226 00:13:04,200 --> 00:13:06,000 I've already decided that's what we're going to do. 227 00:13:06,400 --> 00:13:09,400 So yeah everybody get ready. We're about to do a full moon 228 00:13:09,400 --> 00:13:11,900 dance ritual to like we're about to get it popping. 229 00:13:11,900 --> 00:13:16,000 We bout to have a whole powwow where we act a fool. 230 00:13:17,000 --> 00:13:20,500 I can't fucking wait, I just did. 231 00:13:20,500 --> 00:13:24,000 So I've been you would talk before about like that series 232 00:13:24,000 --> 00:13:26,400 that I had going on Tick-Tock that was like doing good. 233 00:13:27,000 --> 00:13:31,500 So it's the The Witches get it series and I did this one skit. 234 00:13:31,500 --> 00:13:34,700 Like, Yesterday or the day before, where I was like, no we 235 00:13:34,700 --> 00:13:37,300 don't usually drink each other's blood on Full Moon. 236 00:13:37,300 --> 00:13:39,900 Rituals, you're just like fucking naked with oils on your 237 00:13:39,900 --> 00:13:42,700 body, Dancing in the Moonlight and recharging like a crystal. 238 00:13:43,400 --> 00:13:47,800 And I wanted to, I mean, like I won't lie. 239 00:13:47,800 --> 00:13:50,300 I've always thought that like doing a blood ritual under the 240 00:13:50,300 --> 00:13:52,400 full moon would be fucking dope as shit. 241 00:13:52,400 --> 00:13:54,900 But also, I get the heebie-jeebies and I'd be 242 00:13:54,900 --> 00:13:59,900 weirded out. Well, we're going to do a full 243 00:13:59,900 --> 00:14:01,700 moon ritual. What are we doing? 244 00:14:01,700 --> 00:14:04,700 Like, like blood sisters? Like, are we touching our hands? 245 00:14:04,700 --> 00:14:06,400 Because that's how you get blood-borne diseases. 246 00:14:06,400 --> 00:14:09,300 Like Mersa girlfriend. We're going to be on. 247 00:14:09,600 --> 00:14:13,200 How could we do that? Oh, I didn't know what we were 248 00:14:13,200 --> 00:14:15,500 doing. I didn't know how soon this was. 249 00:14:15,500 --> 00:14:24,700 I These candies are good. Mike and Ikes, but the sour one. 250 00:14:26,000 --> 00:14:28,500 I've had this our ones, the texture. 251 00:14:28,600 --> 00:14:34,100 So the texture of Mike and Ikes, weirds me out, but not as much 252 00:14:34,100 --> 00:14:36,600 as smart. He's even the chewy smart. 253 00:14:36,600 --> 00:14:40,100 He's smart. He's gross me out. 254 00:14:40,700 --> 00:14:46,800 All right, Julie nerds. Now, I'm like, a, I'm going to 255 00:14:46,800 --> 00:14:50,700 be having candy or sugar. I want like chocolate or Reese's 256 00:14:50,700 --> 00:14:52,000 Pieces. They don't even make Reese's 257 00:14:52,000 --> 00:14:54,500 Pieces as good as they used to do now that taste like Wax, but 258 00:14:54,500 --> 00:14:57,100 they used to be delicious. So yeah, they're not good. 259 00:14:58,000 --> 00:15:01,200 You're right. I used to put them in movie 260 00:15:01,200 --> 00:15:03,800 theater popcorn. I so I'll do that with Sour 261 00:15:03,800 --> 00:15:06,700 Patch Kids job but Sour Patch Kids and Reese's Pieces and sad 262 00:15:06,700 --> 00:15:08,300 my movie theater popcorn. We go. 263 00:15:08,600 --> 00:15:11,600 And then your chocolate gets all melty all over your popcorn and 264 00:15:11,600 --> 00:15:15,200 then it's also our it's think it sounds good. 265 00:15:15,800 --> 00:15:18,200 Now I'm usually high when I go there so I got the munchies 266 00:15:19,100 --> 00:15:25,600 salty for sure. I'm just so relieved because now 267 00:15:26,200 --> 00:15:29,800 When I was getting all that work done with Sydney, and she kept 268 00:15:29,800 --> 00:15:33,000 saying like, there's like this evil around you. 269 00:15:33,000 --> 00:15:36,800 There's this evil around you, it was oh girl from that community. 270 00:15:38,300 --> 00:15:40,900 Yeah, that's why I don't for the last five months. 271 00:15:41,300 --> 00:15:44,000 And so she was supposed to be sending like the group Reiki. 272 00:15:44,400 --> 00:15:46,600 I never. Once felt that Reiki, never once 273 00:15:46,600 --> 00:15:50,200 it, I'd be like, wow, I can tell like I forgot that literally was 274 00:15:50,200 --> 00:15:52,700 just wasting that money. So I'm just manifesting, like I 275 00:15:52,700 --> 00:15:56,500 said, all that's coming back to me because I was supporting her 276 00:15:56,500 --> 00:15:58,500 thinking that there would be like an inch of support. 277 00:15:58,500 --> 00:16:02,300 But like, several people in her community that I met have been 278 00:16:02,300 --> 00:16:05,800 way more supportive, which is sharing things leaving a review. 279 00:16:06,400 --> 00:16:07,500 Buying a car. Deck. 280 00:16:07,500 --> 00:16:09,600 You know what I mean? Like, nothing's crazier. 281 00:16:09,900 --> 00:16:12,900 But like never wants a she shared anything or like, you 282 00:16:12,900 --> 00:16:15,400 know what I mean? Like a comment or a like is like 283 00:16:15,800 --> 00:16:17,300 the same thing as an acquaintance. 284 00:16:17,300 --> 00:16:18,100 Acquaintance. Yes. 285 00:16:18,100 --> 00:16:21,400 But you weren't even worried about that until she had this 286 00:16:21,400 --> 00:16:23,400 weird ass energy and they know I got it. 287 00:16:23,600 --> 00:16:26,900 I'm saying, is today I'm going to read what she wrote me and 288 00:16:27,000 --> 00:16:32,300 she's making it seem like she eat had been supporting me even 289 00:16:32,300 --> 00:16:35,300 though she hadn't. So she wrote me today. 290 00:16:36,200 --> 00:16:40,000 Well actually, she had Full moon ritual and I didn't go. 291 00:16:40,300 --> 00:16:44,500 She wanted me to go despite deleting me from her Discord and 292 00:16:44,500 --> 00:16:46,300 Beyond. She wanted me to show up. 293 00:16:46,600 --> 00:16:50,800 So I told her I would be there, and I was trying to be nice, and 294 00:16:50,800 --> 00:16:53,000 then I didn't go because it wasn't alarmed. 295 00:16:53,100 --> 00:16:55,400 Then she said, I'm we missed you at the ritual. 296 00:16:55,400 --> 00:16:58,500 I hope everything is okay. Then I didn't write her then she 297 00:16:58,500 --> 00:17:01,900 were and she keeps doing this hail of thing like, hey love, 298 00:17:02,400 --> 00:17:06,400 happy, full moon love. So she said I just spoke to 299 00:17:06,500 --> 00:17:09,400 blank Ink and I would love to chat with you. 300 00:17:09,599 --> 00:17:13,300 I want to clear the air with previous conversations, we had 301 00:17:13,300 --> 00:17:16,500 about business business promotion in the Discord. 302 00:17:16,500 --> 00:17:19,599 When me and you literally have talked about how like the 303 00:17:19,599 --> 00:17:23,000 podcast has more of like an expense rather than like 304 00:17:23,500 --> 00:17:25,800 generating a bunch of income, you know what I mean? 305 00:17:25,800 --> 00:17:28,900 Like, yeah. Like podcasts are not like a 306 00:17:28,900 --> 00:17:34,300 business at first like it becomes a brand later but She 307 00:17:34,300 --> 00:17:38,700 was like I said this because most communities I was in had 308 00:17:38,700 --> 00:17:42,000 that policy and I felt like it made sense at the time. 309 00:17:42,200 --> 00:17:46,000 So that people weren't using the space to solicit Services even 310 00:17:46,000 --> 00:17:49,400 though I never solicited anyone and that it stayed about 311 00:17:49,400 --> 00:17:52,800 connection and Community. But I do realize how that can 312 00:17:52,800 --> 00:17:56,300 come off since I did kind of change my mind about that. 313 00:17:56,300 --> 00:17:59,900 And did it end up saying anything to blank or blank, who 314 00:17:59,900 --> 00:18:02,800 also mentioned their businesses Discord? 315 00:18:02,900 --> 00:18:06,200 Which happened to be the People that I've talked to about this, 316 00:18:07,100 --> 00:18:10,600 I do feel like we should be able to talk about our businesses. 317 00:18:10,900 --> 00:18:14,900 And I want people to feel really seen and supported. 318 00:18:15,200 --> 00:18:18,600 I don't want you to think I was trying to single you out. 319 00:18:19,500 --> 00:18:23,000 I'm really sorry for how this may have came off to you, and 320 00:18:23,000 --> 00:18:25,900 still she's like, deflecting. Like, I'm really sorry about 321 00:18:25,900 --> 00:18:27,900 your perception of this situation. 322 00:18:28,500 --> 00:18:34,300 I was just gonna say, yeah. Then she says, I honestly just 323 00:18:34,300 --> 00:18:37,500 decided that the policy just didn't make sense. 324 00:18:37,800 --> 00:18:40,700 And I was trying to figure out how I wanted to operate in 325 00:18:40,700 --> 00:18:44,400 business and what was alignment for this community space. 326 00:18:44,600 --> 00:18:48,500 I should have reached out and told you my change in opinion, 327 00:18:48,600 --> 00:18:52,600 but there's genuinely just been a lot going on and they only 328 00:18:52,600 --> 00:18:54,800 recently started their businesses. 329 00:18:55,100 --> 00:18:57,600 So basically, they weren't intimidating, is what she's 330 00:18:57,600 --> 00:18:58,700 saying. We're not in. 331 00:18:59,200 --> 00:19:01,100 Who the fuck? Says, okay. 332 00:19:01,100 --> 00:19:03,800 Continue, Oh sorry. So it was something that only 333 00:19:03,800 --> 00:19:07,600 recently came to my mind. Again, I never meant to make you 334 00:19:07,600 --> 00:19:11,900 feel like it was about you blank helped me realize that my 335 00:19:11,900 --> 00:19:14,500 actions may have come off as competitive. 336 00:19:14,600 --> 00:19:17,600 And I just want to say that I am in full support of you and your 337 00:19:17,600 --> 00:19:20,300 business. I truly think you are an amazing 338 00:19:20,300 --> 00:19:22,900 person. I want to support your business 339 00:19:22,900 --> 00:19:27,300 and uplift you in any ways that I can and I'm sorry that me 340 00:19:27,300 --> 00:19:31,600 figuring out what policies make sense and figuring out. 341 00:19:32,000 --> 00:19:35,800 Things out as I go made you feel like it has something to do with 342 00:19:35,800 --> 00:19:38,800 you. I promise it's not personal and 343 00:19:38,800 --> 00:19:43,400 I generally respect the fuck out of you I'm really sorry for any 344 00:19:43,400 --> 00:19:47,100 misunderstandings and I hope that we can continue to connect 345 00:19:47,100 --> 00:19:50,600 and be in community didn't write her back then she writes again 346 00:19:51,100 --> 00:19:54,900 I'm really grateful I was able to have a good honest 347 00:19:54,900 --> 00:19:59,500 conversation with blank and that you all were also able to talk 348 00:19:59,500 --> 00:20:01,900 together and share concerns. Earns. 349 00:20:02,100 --> 00:20:04,100 I'm completely open to hearing you out. 350 00:20:04,100 --> 00:20:08,800 If there's anything that I missed that you want to express, 351 00:20:09,000 --> 00:20:11,900 or if you want to talk about it further or even if there's 352 00:20:11,900 --> 00:20:15,700 anything else bothering you, I genuinely have really enjoyed 353 00:20:15,700 --> 00:20:19,000 our connection, and I want to support you in whatever ways I 354 00:20:19,000 --> 00:20:23,400 can and hope that we can continue to connect cash at me, 355 00:20:23,400 --> 00:20:29,400 125 know. I feel like I feel like it's an 356 00:20:29,400 --> 00:20:33,900 unfair thing when people do this, because what they do is 357 00:20:34,300 --> 00:20:37,800 they try to, it's like gaslighting, they try to make 358 00:20:37,800 --> 00:20:41,500 you think that everything they were doing before they were 359 00:20:41,500 --> 00:20:43,500 actually doing. So now they've got this new 360 00:20:43,500 --> 00:20:47,700 energy because now you've talked to blank and said my feelings 361 00:20:47,700 --> 00:20:53,500 are hurt and this feels really competitive and Then she she put 362 00:20:53,500 --> 00:20:57,000 subtle things in her messages like and their businesses 363 00:20:57,000 --> 00:20:59,300 weren't going. And while I'm trying to figure 364 00:20:59,300 --> 00:21:02,200 out, you know, what's going on, you know, whatever, whatever 365 00:21:02,200 --> 00:21:06,900 she's doing with her policies and I get it like I, I totally 366 00:21:06,900 --> 00:21:11,300 understand you growing and people with you growing like we 367 00:21:11,300 --> 00:21:14,200 have our own platforms where that's happening and we do new 368 00:21:14,200 --> 00:21:17,700 things and we have new mindsets and we talk about those things 369 00:21:17,700 --> 00:21:23,300 and we evolve but it's the way that she went about doing it and 370 00:21:23,300 --> 00:21:27,300 then is now gaslighting. You and over messaging and 371 00:21:27,300 --> 00:21:31,300 people over message when they feel like they've fucked up. 372 00:21:31,900 --> 00:21:36,500 Yeah, definitely 1000%. This isn't the first time that 373 00:21:36,500 --> 00:21:40,100 she's wrote me some long drawn out message but like I've tried 374 00:21:40,100 --> 00:21:43,100 to just play nice because like I said, I wanted to pull a Bart 375 00:21:43,100 --> 00:21:46,100 Simpson and just fall into the bushes and her just like not say 376 00:21:46,100 --> 00:21:50,600 anything because Hal like rude invasive. 377 00:21:50,600 --> 00:21:54,700 And Is downright disrespectful. Is it to write someone after 378 00:21:54,700 --> 00:22:00,900 they've canceled your community and be so like What do I want to 379 00:22:00,900 --> 00:22:05,000 say, like pry in their business? Like for all, you know they 380 00:22:05,000 --> 00:22:09,800 could be losing XYZ and need that money per month. 381 00:22:09,800 --> 00:22:13,400 You know what I mean? And like granted obviously you 382 00:22:13,400 --> 00:22:16,800 feel in competition with me because you deleted me and my 383 00:22:16,800 --> 00:22:21,200 shits paid but other people can stay for free or on a sliding 384 00:22:21,200 --> 00:22:24,300 scale because you want their energy their because you know 385 00:22:24,400 --> 00:22:27,700 that your community is unraveling because you've made 386 00:22:27,700 --> 00:22:31,500 it all about you and one Thing that she would always say that 387 00:22:31,600 --> 00:22:34,300 is really weird to me. She would always be like, my 388 00:22:34,300 --> 00:22:39,200 coven, my coven, my coven and all the time. 389 00:22:39,200 --> 00:22:44,200 Girl, she be like Mama, my cousin, my community. 390 00:22:44,500 --> 00:22:46,300 Never once. Did I feel like it was like a 391 00:22:46,300 --> 00:22:48,900 shared space, that's really nice. 392 00:22:49,500 --> 00:22:54,300 But some I feel like that's super unfortunate for the people 393 00:22:54,300 --> 00:22:57,900 who were going in and trying to find like community. 394 00:22:58,200 --> 00:23:01,900 And there's this this is you got to experience one of the 395 00:23:01,900 --> 00:23:04,800 situations that we hear about all the time because you and I 396 00:23:04,800 --> 00:23:08,000 are constantly hearing about like I went and I did this and I 397 00:23:08,000 --> 00:23:10,900 felt like I was getting scammed or I did this and when I started 398 00:23:10,900 --> 00:23:13,800 talking about my beliefs, everybody shut me down or 399 00:23:13,800 --> 00:23:19,700 whatever, and It's stupid that at this point in the game, 400 00:23:19,700 --> 00:23:24,500 people are still operating on that level and I don't know 401 00:23:24,500 --> 00:23:30,700 about you but for me, I felt like I learned a lesson out of 402 00:23:30,700 --> 00:23:36,300 the fuckery that I went through with, you know, trying to find 403 00:23:36,300 --> 00:23:41,700 my own mentorship. I I learned what energy. 404 00:23:41,700 --> 00:23:45,200 I'm not going to Vibe with, and I learned that next time when I 405 00:23:45,200 --> 00:23:49,500 feel like something's fucking weird instead of going well, but 406 00:23:49,500 --> 00:23:52,800 I say don't talk about other people to me and they don't 407 00:23:52,900 --> 00:23:56,000 anymore because I keep saying that I'm having a firm boundary. 408 00:23:56,400 --> 00:23:58,900 That doesn't mean that those aren't that, that's still not 409 00:23:58,900 --> 00:24:01,900 that person and that they won't go out and do it to you just 410 00:24:01,900 --> 00:24:05,000 because you can don't condone them doing it around. 411 00:24:05,000 --> 00:24:11,000 You that makes sense. Like, it doesn't matter how What 412 00:24:11,000 --> 00:24:13,400 are good? Intentions are other people have 413 00:24:13,400 --> 00:24:15,500 fucked intentions. And if we feel that energy 414 00:24:15,500 --> 00:24:19,200 instead of making an excuse for it, I just got another reminder 415 00:24:19,200 --> 00:24:22,400 of like know that stinky I don't have to have a directories and 416 00:24:22,400 --> 00:24:24,100 your messages can be cute as shit. 417 00:24:24,100 --> 00:24:28,300 You smell like tuna and I'm out. Yeah you know honestly I feel 418 00:24:28,300 --> 00:24:33,000 like you called it with this girl just in the you know I 419 00:24:33,000 --> 00:24:36,500 wasn't thinking when I kept getting like that. 420 00:24:36,500 --> 00:24:39,700 Take a look at your inner circle I guess because I wasn't 421 00:24:39,700 --> 00:24:42,300 actually Centering her, Inner Circle. 422 00:24:42,900 --> 00:24:47,100 You know what I mean? But it's literally a mirror of. 423 00:24:47,300 --> 00:24:49,700 I'm literally going to unfollow her. 424 00:24:49,700 --> 00:24:56,000 While we're on the call. I literally have her on my close 425 00:24:56,000 --> 00:24:59,300 friends. Like I'm unfollowing her and 426 00:25:00,100 --> 00:25:05,700 that's it. It's easier to see it when 427 00:25:05,700 --> 00:25:08,800 you're not in it because when you're not in it, you're like 428 00:25:09,300 --> 00:25:10,900 that. All looks like fuckery. 429 00:25:11,100 --> 00:25:13,000 But when you're in it you're like no. 430 00:25:13,000 --> 00:25:16,200 Like I see these positive qualities over here and these 431 00:25:16,200 --> 00:25:21,800 over here and another lesson, if people around me are like, 432 00:25:21,800 --> 00:25:25,800 that's fucking weird, like, why are you if close people not 433 00:25:25,800 --> 00:25:27,400 like, you know, the general public. 434 00:25:27,500 --> 00:25:31,200 But if close people are like, that's like fucking weird energy 435 00:25:31,200 --> 00:25:33,500 for you to be aligning with. I need to take that into 436 00:25:33,500 --> 00:25:36,200 consideration. Ation and I need to remove 437 00:25:36,200 --> 00:25:40,800 myself from things a lot sooner, you know, I think me and you 438 00:25:40,800 --> 00:25:44,300 were growing so much and then when you move closer, we'll just 439 00:25:44,500 --> 00:25:46,100 be able to see each other a lot more. 440 00:25:46,100 --> 00:25:48,400 We won't have any time for the bullshit. 441 00:25:48,700 --> 00:25:52,700 We won't have any time for the bullshit, so I'm feeling called 442 00:25:52,700 --> 00:25:55,400 to give you a reading. Oh, okay. 443 00:25:57,200 --> 00:25:59,700 I have a look on your face. Are you ready? 444 00:26:00,400 --> 00:26:03,900 Yeah, I am. It's it's, it's funny that you 445 00:26:04,100 --> 00:26:07,700 Say that because I've been feeling like every single 446 00:26:07,700 --> 00:26:10,100 reading that I would come on on my fyp and stuff. 447 00:26:10,100 --> 00:26:14,400 I was like this shit so boring. It doesn't pertain to me at all. 448 00:26:14,400 --> 00:26:18,200 This is the weirdest shit. And then today, I saw a reading 449 00:26:18,700 --> 00:26:23,200 one of my favorite readers and it was a Gemini reading and 450 00:26:23,200 --> 00:26:25,800 everything be hitting about business and everything else and 451 00:26:25,800 --> 00:26:28,500 I'm like, Spirits ready to give me Restless? 452 00:26:29,000 --> 00:26:31,300 We got within the next few weeks. 453 00:26:32,900 --> 00:26:37,200 So I do feel like Like spring is coming and also that's just like 454 00:26:37,200 --> 00:26:40,100 the time of action to like, there's going to be a lot 455 00:26:40,100 --> 00:26:44,900 happening with your Saturn return starting so prep in 456 00:26:44,900 --> 00:26:50,000 Prepon helpful people so you are bringing in a lot of we got that 457 00:26:50,000 --> 00:26:54,100 Community Vibe, energy helpful, energy people coming in that are 458 00:26:54,100 --> 00:26:55,700 really supportive for you, people. 459 00:26:55,700 --> 00:26:58,000 That are really good. I feel like a lot of good 460 00:26:58,000 --> 00:27:02,300 interviews people becoming onto your podcast and ways they may 461 00:27:02,300 --> 00:27:07,700 be like you don't see it. Also romance, you and your boo 462 00:27:07,700 --> 00:27:11,700 thang doing a little room and take y'all got three coming up 463 00:27:11,700 --> 00:27:15,600 our anniversaries for 20 and we're going on a trip success 464 00:27:15,600 --> 00:27:19,100 with the explanation point but get serious serious giving 465 00:27:19,100 --> 00:27:24,200 Gemini but they say they said, do that work baby. 466 00:27:27,600 --> 00:27:29,600 That's your reading. That's just a little something, 467 00:27:29,600 --> 00:27:31,800 from Spirit. I wanted to tell you about 468 00:27:31,800 --> 00:27:33,100 something that happened this morning. 469 00:27:34,000 --> 00:27:38,200 So we got unexpected. Like I just I just learned like 470 00:27:38,200 --> 00:27:39,900 that everything we've been talking about. 471 00:27:39,900 --> 00:27:43,600 I've actually been doing and I just, I gotta brag on it. 472 00:27:43,600 --> 00:27:49,400 So woke up this morning, we had to pay two hundred and eighty 473 00:27:49,400 --> 00:27:55,100 dollars more on rent than usual because our lease expired 474 00:27:55,100 --> 00:28:01,700 February 1st and they have a thing on there, that if the 475 00:28:01,700 --> 00:28:05,900 landlord hasn't given you, You a new lease then your month to 476 00:28:05,900 --> 00:28:09,300 month with an extra hundred dollar a month rent, and a 477 00:28:09,300 --> 00:28:13,300 hundred dollar fee and eighty dollars. 478 00:28:13,300 --> 00:28:20,200 Because it was, it was a day late and I immediately was like, 479 00:28:20,700 --> 00:28:23,300 nope, I have it in my bank account and I just paid it. 480 00:28:23,600 --> 00:28:27,100 And I was like, it's whatever. Like I just got it done, and I 481 00:28:27,108 --> 00:28:29,900 wasn't stressed about it. I wasn't like, where's other 482 00:28:29,900 --> 00:28:32,000 money going to come in? Like I fucking needed that like 483 00:28:32,000 --> 00:28:35,600 yeah, it was for bills or whatever but I was Like oh good. 484 00:28:35,600 --> 00:28:39,300 I have it in my account to pay it and I was fucking stoked 485 00:28:39,300 --> 00:28:40,800 about it. And then I talked to my mom on 486 00:28:40,800 --> 00:28:45,000 the phone and my mom was like, you usually would have an 487 00:28:45,000 --> 00:28:48,000 anxiety attack and be like, freaking out and trying to 488 00:28:48,000 --> 00:28:50,600 figure out like, what you were going to be doing. 489 00:28:50,600 --> 00:28:56,700 And, and she's like, you being surrounded by people who always 490 00:28:56,700 --> 00:29:00,800 have a different mindset has now naturally become your mindset, 491 00:29:00,800 --> 00:29:03,700 like you always talking to people and helping redirect 492 00:29:03,700 --> 00:29:05,600 there. Energy has helped you redirect 493 00:29:05,600 --> 00:29:09,400 your energy. And I was like oh that's I'm 494 00:29:09,400 --> 00:29:11,900 over here. Like voice messaging, the mentee 495 00:29:11,900 --> 00:29:15,000 chat and I'm like you guys I love it. 496 00:29:15,000 --> 00:29:18,900 I mean that is something to celebrate because when you look 497 00:29:18,900 --> 00:29:22,200 at things as if they're going to be taken care of and you just 498 00:29:22,200 --> 00:29:25,400 take care of them, you spend less time worrying, you spend 499 00:29:25,400 --> 00:29:29,500 less time projecting, you spend less time manifesting - and just 500 00:29:29,500 --> 00:29:33,200 more time, being happy. And then that Malthus better 501 00:29:33,200 --> 00:29:36,300 things about It's also people like you got to weigh out what 502 00:29:36,300 --> 00:29:39,300 deserves your time and energy like you know, things that 503 00:29:39,300 --> 00:29:42,500 stress you out constantly just don't deserve your time or 504 00:29:42,500 --> 00:29:46,800 energy and I think a lot of us are just programmed to continue 505 00:29:46,800 --> 00:29:49,900 to do those things. So it's good to like break away 506 00:29:49,900 --> 00:29:53,500 from those old paradigms and like mine sets that are really 507 00:29:53,500 --> 00:29:57,500 limiting you from being the best version of yourself. 508 00:29:58,700 --> 00:30:04,000 I feel like also understanding my human design more and being a 509 00:30:04,008 --> 00:30:09,900 manifesting generator. I learned about myself that I 510 00:30:09,900 --> 00:30:13,200 make things happen, very fucking quick, like I manifest things 511 00:30:13,200 --> 00:30:18,300 that I want very fast and I've always known that but I never 512 00:30:18,300 --> 00:30:21,100 realized that I can be doing the opposite. 513 00:30:21,100 --> 00:30:24,300 And if I'm thinking about the negative shit and being stressed 514 00:30:24,300 --> 00:30:29,700 out, I manifest that and it only takes me like Going at once 515 00:30:29,700 --> 00:30:32,800 thought to times before, I'm down that fucking rabbit hole 516 00:30:32,800 --> 00:30:37,700 and that's where my energy is going and I had to recognize 517 00:30:37,700 --> 00:30:43,400 that and then realize that I have to switch my energy into, I 518 00:30:43,400 --> 00:30:45,600 have to channel it in different ways. 519 00:30:46,600 --> 00:30:49,000 Well, at the end of the day, whatever we give our attention 520 00:30:49,000 --> 00:30:52,800 to really does have a such an impact on us, whether we're 521 00:30:52,800 --> 00:30:57,100 paying attention, I like TV or the news or other people or you 522 00:30:57,100 --> 00:30:59,300 know, whoever whatever It doesn't matter. 523 00:30:59,500 --> 00:31:03,900 It really does consume you and I think that it's just important 524 00:31:03,900 --> 00:31:07,100 to like be in your own power as much as possible because then 525 00:31:07,100 --> 00:31:10,900 you really are able to manifest like a higher timeline for 526 00:31:10,900 --> 00:31:12,400 yourself. It's just like I'm not going to 527 00:31:12,400 --> 00:31:16,600 worry about the mundane things and give them so much power over 528 00:31:16,600 --> 00:31:23,700 my happiness. I wish that we didn't have the 529 00:31:23,700 --> 00:31:28,300 news the way that we have the news, because I hate that people 530 00:31:28,300 --> 00:31:32,100 can keep on replaying the same video clips of like, the Chinese 531 00:31:32,100 --> 00:31:37,900 ballon or whatever else they're want to play the videos of and 532 00:31:38,000 --> 00:31:41,400 everybody puts their energy into that and and to like being 533 00:31:41,400 --> 00:31:45,800 scared of shit and talking about war and and all of this stuff 534 00:31:45,800 --> 00:31:49,200 and like, literally I feel like it's everybody's going to be 535 00:31:49,200 --> 00:31:50,700 putting their energy into one thing. 536 00:31:51,100 --> 00:31:54,300 You as a collective can make that happen, if everybody puts 537 00:31:54,300 --> 00:31:57,600 their energy into that. So why do people put their 538 00:31:57,600 --> 00:32:01,500 energy into scary shit? And why does everybody on? 539 00:32:01,600 --> 00:32:04,500 It's not everybody on Tick-Tock, but it's like people on Tick 540 00:32:04,500 --> 00:32:09,300 Tock having to make News videos about the same fucking things 541 00:32:09,300 --> 00:32:11,800 that other people are making the news videos about, why can't we 542 00:32:11,808 --> 00:32:15,100 have original content? I know that's what I've really 543 00:32:15,100 --> 00:32:18,600 been seeing is like, you all jump on the bandwagon and just 544 00:32:18,600 --> 00:32:20,900 hope your videos. The one that goes viral, Will 545 00:32:21,000 --> 00:32:23,200 you just pick like something that's going on? 546 00:32:23,200 --> 00:32:26,600 And then all want to talk about it I really hope my Madonna 547 00:32:26,600 --> 00:32:30,300 video posted because Madonna is on some weird ass shit y'all. 548 00:32:30,300 --> 00:32:34,100 So I saw something on Tick Tock that she was being sued by the 549 00:32:34,100 --> 00:32:38,500 African government in like Malaysia or somewhere like that 550 00:32:38,500 --> 00:32:43,200 somewhere in Africa that she has a orphanage and a school that 551 00:32:43,200 --> 00:32:46,400 she built, where she's adopted her children from. 552 00:32:46,600 --> 00:32:49,900 They were saying that like she's being sued for sexual 553 00:32:49,900 --> 00:32:52,300 trafficking. From that school. 554 00:32:52,300 --> 00:32:55,300 And like people leaving in are coming back and not being 555 00:32:55,300 --> 00:32:58,900 accounted for etcetera, so she's being sued. 556 00:32:58,900 --> 00:33:01,900 And so then I was doing some Googling and a screenshot of it. 557 00:33:02,100 --> 00:33:07,300 So I found on Google like, like, far down like pages and Pages 558 00:33:07,300 --> 00:33:10,200 away. It said, four days ago, it said, 559 00:33:10,200 --> 00:33:14,000 four days ago Madonna has settled a federal lawsuit that 560 00:33:14,000 --> 00:33:16,400 accused her of ripping off the work of guy. 561 00:33:16,400 --> 00:33:19,500 Bourdin, The Smoking Gun reports. 562 00:33:19,500 --> 00:33:22,800 When you click on, This article that says, it's from four days 563 00:33:22,800 --> 00:33:25,500 ago. It says, it's from May 31st 564 00:33:25,500 --> 00:33:31,500 2004, that's about 19 years ago but when you look at the first 565 00:33:31,500 --> 00:33:35,100 page it's the same article. And it says four days ago and 566 00:33:35,100 --> 00:33:39,800 then when you click on it it says May 31st 2004, that's 567 00:33:39,800 --> 00:33:42,700 weird. And so I may look this big video 568 00:33:42,700 --> 00:33:45,900 about it and I swear I feel like it's Amendola fecker or 569 00:33:45,900 --> 00:33:49,100 something because like she's been sued so many times I can't 570 00:33:49,100 --> 00:33:52,200 even find where Being sued by the African government. 571 00:33:52,200 --> 00:33:55,200 Like that's just now, been suppressed completely. 572 00:33:56,800 --> 00:33:59,900 There's rumors about her being fake. 573 00:33:59,900 --> 00:34:02,000 Like Brittany. Yeah. 574 00:34:03,300 --> 00:34:05,900 As I'm saying, he's looks completely different. 575 00:34:05,900 --> 00:34:10,000 In everything she scares me. We've seen the way she looks. 576 00:34:10,000 --> 00:34:13,800 Now at the Grammys yesterday, I didn't see the Grammys. 577 00:34:14,000 --> 00:34:17,900 Yeah, well, I tried to make a video on it and I'm just highly 578 00:34:17,900 --> 00:34:20,600 disappointed because I'm feeling like they not. 579 00:34:20,800 --> 00:34:24,300 Let It Go through, you know, well too bad. 580 00:34:24,300 --> 00:34:26,800 I'm on my phone or I would go and look at your Tick-Tock real 581 00:34:26,800 --> 00:34:29,800 quick. Well, I'm just feeling like, I 582 00:34:29,808 --> 00:34:33,199 don't see it and you know, like topspin glitch in lately, 583 00:34:33,199 --> 00:34:35,600 though, with videos, it would say to my draft. 584 00:34:35,600 --> 00:34:40,000 So I guess it's not ready because I guess you're ready to 585 00:34:40,000 --> 00:34:42,900 go yet. I had a video that I tried 586 00:34:42,900 --> 00:34:47,800 posting earlier and it would not post and so I it's saved in my 587 00:34:47,800 --> 00:34:50,300 drafts to I just think it's some days. 588 00:34:50,800 --> 00:34:53,100 You like that app is weirder than other days. 589 00:34:54,600 --> 00:34:58,000 Well, I think sometimes when you talk about serious stuff they 590 00:34:58,000 --> 00:35:00,600 don't shit they don't want it on there, I don't know. 591 00:35:00,600 --> 00:35:03,700 Like it always shocks me the videos that go viral that are 592 00:35:03,700 --> 00:35:07,200 kind of educational because I wonder like especially after 593 00:35:07,200 --> 00:35:10,400 learning about how they heat videos and like promote certain 594 00:35:10,400 --> 00:35:15,300 things and all of that like also I've been getting, I don't know 595 00:35:15,300 --> 00:35:18,500 about you but I've been getting these ads on Tick-Tock for like 596 00:35:18,500 --> 00:35:23,500 pay to promote your video and pay for views and join this to 597 00:35:23,600 --> 00:35:26,300 get views. And I'm like, do people really 598 00:35:26,300 --> 00:35:32,300 invest their money into these platforms and to make what does 599 00:35:32,300 --> 00:35:36,500 that do for you? That's not a genuine audience. 600 00:35:36,500 --> 00:35:39,000 People are going to find you naturally if they're meant to 601 00:35:39,000 --> 00:35:43,300 find you, I don't understand why you would give a platform that 602 00:35:43,300 --> 00:35:46,800 sensors you from being able to use your voice. 603 00:35:46,800 --> 00:35:51,400 And like and I don't mean like, I just think people should be 604 00:35:51,400 --> 00:35:54,900 able to fucking do what they want to do and if You don't like 605 00:35:54,900 --> 00:35:58,100 it then don't go on their page, but we don't need the fucking 606 00:35:58,100 --> 00:36:00,600 Chinese app telling us that we can't do shit. 607 00:36:00,600 --> 00:36:02,500 But also like we use it for, you know. 608 00:36:03,900 --> 00:36:08,500 Content. But I just yeah, there's just so 609 00:36:08,500 --> 00:36:13,000 much chaos on all of these apps with the scammers with the 610 00:36:13,000 --> 00:36:15,200 fucking fake. A spiritual people. 611 00:36:15,400 --> 00:36:19,000 I talk to you about one today. She's like your guard. 612 00:36:19,000 --> 00:36:25,100 Are your your guiding Angels called me here and the spirit 613 00:36:25,100 --> 00:36:27,900 the spirit wants to give you this message. 614 00:36:27,900 --> 00:36:31,300 That's what I tagged you in. You delete the comment. 615 00:36:32,600 --> 00:36:35,200 I did not delete the comment. I just block the person. 616 00:36:36,400 --> 00:36:38,200 Okay, thank you. Should be able to see it. 617 00:36:39,100 --> 00:36:42,100 I couldn't see the calm anymore because I'll try to see it 618 00:36:42,100 --> 00:36:45,100 again, but it wasn't there, but people are crazy. 619 00:36:45,100 --> 00:36:48,000 And honestly people don't get it, they don't have their head 620 00:36:48,000 --> 00:36:50,000 on straight, they just don't get it. 621 00:36:51,700 --> 00:36:54,900 I just with all that time that they spend being somebody else, 622 00:36:54,900 --> 00:36:59,100 they could literally Market themselves when you don't have 623 00:36:59,100 --> 00:37:01,800 any skill or Talent, what can you do? 624 00:37:02,400 --> 00:37:04,600 I guess become somebody who does? 625 00:37:04,600 --> 00:37:09,200 I mean, I would pick up a book but I mean, I don't know. 626 00:37:09,200 --> 00:37:11,500 I've never once in my life, I thought I'm going to make a fake 627 00:37:11,500 --> 00:37:13,700 profile of anyone. So if you do that, you're just 628 00:37:13,700 --> 00:37:16,900 delaying. Just a lame. 629 00:37:17,200 --> 00:37:19,700 I think that right now. There's just a lot of chaos and 630 00:37:19,700 --> 00:37:22,300 drama because we had the Leo, full moon, and people are just 631 00:37:22,300 --> 00:37:26,200 feeling feisty and feeling insecure because Leo's, like, if 632 00:37:26,207 --> 00:37:28,700 you're not filling main character, you're jealous of 633 00:37:28,700 --> 00:37:32,400 other people who are feeling main character and it's fucking 634 00:37:32,400 --> 00:37:35,400 weird because the people who are actually main characters or 635 00:37:35,400 --> 00:37:38,600 rooting for you to win. So the fact that you would 636 00:37:38,600 --> 00:37:43,200 return that with bullshit funkiest energy that's weird on 637 00:37:43,200 --> 00:37:47,200 you and And I hope that if you listen to this and you're like, 638 00:37:47,200 --> 00:37:50,100 oh, shit, like I do those things but you're trying to like avoid 639 00:37:50,100 --> 00:37:52,000 it. Do something about it and stop 640 00:37:52,000 --> 00:37:55,300 being a cunt. Thank you, thank you. 641 00:37:55,300 --> 00:37:57,800 That is a public service announcement on. 642 00:37:58,000 --> 00:38:01,700 Don't be a petty High School. Fucking adult. 643 00:38:01,900 --> 00:38:03,900 Don't be the adult who misses Haskell? 644 00:38:03,900 --> 00:38:07,000 Okay, if you think Oscar was the best days of your life. 645 00:38:07,000 --> 00:38:10,000 Check yourself. Check yourself and see what's 646 00:38:10,000 --> 00:38:14,300 working because I think a lot of people limit themselves from who 647 00:38:14,300 --> 00:38:17,400 they Used to be in like the people they've always hung out 648 00:38:17,400 --> 00:38:19,300 with, like, they're afraid to get out of their comfort zone 649 00:38:19,300 --> 00:38:21,600 and that's what I love about. Both of our communities is 650 00:38:21,600 --> 00:38:25,100 they've Blended where a lot of people are in both because 651 00:38:25,100 --> 00:38:27,100 they're kind of the same type of community. 652 00:38:27,100 --> 00:38:32,200 So it's like, wow I can expand this into this and have a lot of 653 00:38:32,200 --> 00:38:36,300 people on my side and you know, even people who don't even know 654 00:38:36,300 --> 00:38:39,500 people like you join and then like two days later you have 655 00:38:39,500 --> 00:38:41,700 something big going on and people in their group or like, 656 00:38:41,700 --> 00:38:45,500 yes, I'm so proud of you like, you know, No, it's just I don't 657 00:38:45,500 --> 00:38:46,700 know. People don't get it. 658 00:38:46,700 --> 00:38:49,600 Like when you get out of your own way, you can really bring in 659 00:38:49,600 --> 00:38:52,400 helpful energies people that you connect with people that you 660 00:38:52,408 --> 00:38:56,700 Vibe with people that really want to see when and that helps 661 00:38:56,700 --> 00:38:59,800 you in ways you can't even imagine when you're used to 662 00:38:59,808 --> 00:39:03,100 competing and being in those toxic relationships. 663 00:39:04,300 --> 00:39:08,500 Yes, I love all of that and I love these. 664 00:39:08,500 --> 00:39:12,500 Like I love the community that we're having, but I also it's 665 00:39:12,500 --> 00:39:16,800 funny to me because somebody will join like the group chat 666 00:39:17,000 --> 00:39:19,900 and then they'll be like, oh well I'm going to private chat 667 00:39:19,900 --> 00:39:22,200 with so-and-so and early. We were talking about this and I 668 00:39:22,207 --> 00:39:24,100 wanted to bring it over here because that made me think of 669 00:39:24,100 --> 00:39:26,800 this. And so everybody has their like 670 00:39:26,900 --> 00:39:30,400 own independent, like relationships and conversations 671 00:39:30,400 --> 00:39:34,700 and their own like friends to grow with, who they No, we're on 672 00:39:34,700 --> 00:39:40,100 the same like path and like energy wave that they are. 673 00:39:40,100 --> 00:39:43,800 And so everybody it's not just like people vibing with us. 674 00:39:43,800 --> 00:39:47,100 It's literally people vibing with each other making their own 675 00:39:47,100 --> 00:39:50,400 super strong connections that are healthy where these people 676 00:39:50,400 --> 00:39:53,800 are growing and working on themselves and it's a really 677 00:39:53,800 --> 00:40:00,100 cool spider web to get to see. And then to know that like Yo, 678 00:40:00,800 --> 00:40:04,800 like this started because I was sharing this energy because I 679 00:40:04,800 --> 00:40:07,700 don't fuck with anybody else's energy and now I've found my 680 00:40:07,700 --> 00:40:10,700 squad. Yeah, there's a lot of people 681 00:40:10,700 --> 00:40:12,900 that have connected on their own time, and I think it's really 682 00:40:12,900 --> 00:40:17,200 nice to see that community support and Outreach just beyond 683 00:40:17,200 --> 00:40:20,500 the group chats, and just beyond that, like, people supporting 684 00:40:20,500 --> 00:40:24,100 each other's businesses people support, there's energy. 685 00:40:25,100 --> 00:40:27,300 Following one another whatever I think it's great. 686 00:40:27,300 --> 00:40:30,700 Like I never want to be like, oh my God, you met that person in 687 00:40:30,700 --> 00:40:33,400 my community and now you talk to them. 688 00:40:34,000 --> 00:40:36,100 Yeah. Because that's what community is 689 00:40:36,100 --> 00:40:38,800 bitch. Like that's what a community is. 690 00:40:39,100 --> 00:40:43,500 You want people to connect, you want people to feel safe, seeing 691 00:40:43,500 --> 00:40:46,800 welcome, you know, I don't know, I'm like everything I've learned 692 00:40:46,800 --> 00:40:48,300 from this experience, we discussed. 693 00:40:48,300 --> 00:40:51,300 Tonight is the exact opposite of what my community will be the 694 00:40:51,300 --> 00:40:56,200 exact opposite of what I want in my life and Right after that, I 695 00:40:56,200 --> 00:41:00,400 decided to get online and order a bunch of stuff for everyone's 696 00:41:00,900 --> 00:41:02,900 anniversary, presents and patreon. 697 00:41:03,100 --> 00:41:05,300 Just to show appreciation to the people that have been there 698 00:41:05,300 --> 00:41:07,900 since day one. And it being a whole year and 699 00:41:07,900 --> 00:41:11,300 stuff, and I was just like the whole time, just feeling like 700 00:41:11,300 --> 00:41:14,900 how rewarding it is, to support people, wholeheartedly and just 701 00:41:14,900 --> 00:41:17,700 watch people grow and like really want to see them win even 702 00:41:17,700 --> 00:41:21,100 if they go off to like, do their own thing. 703 00:41:21,100 --> 00:41:23,200 It doesn't matter. Like that's what someone 704 00:41:23,200 --> 00:41:24,700 supposed to do if you're mentoring. 705 00:41:24,800 --> 00:41:26,800 I'm one. The goal is that they go off and 706 00:41:26,800 --> 00:41:29,900 do their own thing that they teach that they heal that they 707 00:41:29,900 --> 00:41:31,600 elevate their own business as well. 708 00:41:31,600 --> 00:41:35,700 They got a mentor or a spiritual teacher or a community that they 709 00:41:35,700 --> 00:41:39,100 were wanting to grow in and like the whole point is to grow. 710 00:41:39,100 --> 00:41:45,200 So I think it's just cool that many people Outgrow things in 711 00:41:45,200 --> 00:41:47,200 order to come into other new things. 712 00:41:47,200 --> 00:41:50,100 So, I think with this whole situation going up in smoke, I'm 713 00:41:50,100 --> 00:41:55,200 removing a lot of negativity from my entire circle and just 714 00:41:55,400 --> 00:41:59,200 erasing that from my existence because like, I will not operate 715 00:41:59,200 --> 00:42:02,500 in a community where people feel like it's transactional or 716 00:42:02,500 --> 00:42:04,800 people feel like, oh my God. You didn't pay me this month. 717 00:42:04,800 --> 00:42:10,300 Your card bounce, what's up? What I would never. 718 00:42:10,300 --> 00:42:13,000 I've never asked anyone someone pointed it out to me. 719 00:42:13,000 --> 00:42:14,500 One time. They were like, thank you for 720 00:42:14,500 --> 00:42:16,800 not deleting me after this happened. 721 00:42:16,800 --> 00:42:19,900 I'm like I don't, I wouldn't have done that. 722 00:42:19,900 --> 00:42:21,600 I would have never deleted you like that. 723 00:42:21,600 --> 00:42:24,300 Like, clearly, if something happens with your financial 724 00:42:24,300 --> 00:42:28,700 situation, you probably are like you said, embarrassed or 725 00:42:28,700 --> 00:42:29,700 something. Anyways. 726 00:42:29,700 --> 00:42:32,000 And like to call someone out about it and then remove them 727 00:42:32,000 --> 00:42:35,200 from the community where they're finding support would be just 728 00:42:35,500 --> 00:42:37,800 that's against what. Spirit want you to do. 729 00:42:37,800 --> 00:42:40,300 So if you do that and that's what you do and that's your 730 00:42:40,300 --> 00:42:43,300 first instinct as you learn. As you go, you're not a 731 00:42:43,308 --> 00:42:46,100 community leader. You need to erase your Discord. 732 00:42:46,100 --> 00:42:48,500 You need to literally stop trying to lead people, and you 733 00:42:48,500 --> 00:42:50,800 need to heal and go to therapy and focus on yourself. 734 00:42:51,200 --> 00:42:54,000 You need to send all that Reiki back to yourself because we 735 00:42:54,000 --> 00:42:55,700 can't feel it. It's locked. 736 00:42:56,800 --> 00:43:01,800 It's blocked blocked. Big time. 737 00:43:02,900 --> 00:43:06,000 I can't wait for the hey love. I saw you unfollowed me is 738 00:43:06,000 --> 00:43:09,400 something wrong. I love going. 739 00:43:09,400 --> 00:43:12,200 Listen to this week's episode of lick it like a lollipop where I 740 00:43:12,207 --> 00:43:17,500 talk shit about you. XOXO toodles toodles doodlee, do 741 00:43:18,000 --> 00:43:20,300 talk to you later. Queen send a picture of me 742 00:43:20,300 --> 00:43:25,400 flipping her off if you'd like now it like it genuinely bothers 743 00:43:25,400 --> 00:43:30,100 me when that shit happens because there's no point to it. 744 00:43:30,200 --> 00:43:33,600 And if you know what somebody else stands on, if you don't 745 00:43:33,600 --> 00:43:38,000 stand on the same thing, why Vibe with it, why hang out If 746 00:43:38,000 --> 00:43:41,500 you're going to be triggered by somebody, if they're triggered 747 00:43:41,500 --> 00:43:44,300 by you for whatever reason, I don't understand. 748 00:43:44,300 --> 00:43:50,900 Not recognizing that and being like, Deuces, say something, be 749 00:43:50,900 --> 00:43:54,100 honest about it because it's transactional for her and she 750 00:43:54,100 --> 00:43:56,700 wanted everybody there. If she solicited a bunch of 751 00:43:56,707 --> 00:43:59,000 people there where they felt obligated to be there. 752 00:43:59,000 --> 00:44:02,200 And you know what's weird is like I've later found out that 753 00:44:02,200 --> 00:44:05,600 there's only a few people that like don't know her in real life 754 00:44:05,600 --> 00:44:07,500 that most of those people in that community. 755 00:44:07,600 --> 00:44:10,300 No her in real life. So they're not really active, 756 00:44:10,300 --> 00:44:14,200 they're just there to support her and that's the fact of like, 757 00:44:14,200 --> 00:44:18,800 if you actually supported me you would have at least invested in 758 00:44:18,800 --> 00:44:22,900 something that I have going like, at some point, you know 759 00:44:22,900 --> 00:44:25,000 what I mean? Like, supported me in some way 760 00:44:25,000 --> 00:44:29,800 whether it was just like a simple, whatever, you know what 761 00:44:29,800 --> 00:44:33,100 I mean, it really wouldn't some kind of gesture of some sort. 762 00:44:33,100 --> 00:44:36,000 So to say that I respect you and I support you and all these 763 00:44:36,000 --> 00:44:39,200 like, long drawn-out. Out responses it's like no baby 764 00:44:39,200 --> 00:44:41,600 girl your actions or that you're competing with me. 765 00:44:41,600 --> 00:44:45,500 You're intimidated by me. And you also wanted me to water 766 00:44:45,500 --> 00:44:48,800 myself, down to fit into your community space of which I was 767 00:44:48,800 --> 00:44:57,600 paying to be there. So literally, like No, like no, 768 00:44:58,300 --> 00:45:00,700 not at all, not even cool at all. 769 00:45:00,700 --> 00:45:03,200 Well, and when you think about it, that's how she treats 770 00:45:03,200 --> 00:45:06,600 somebody who's paying her money. So imagine how she treats people 771 00:45:06,600 --> 00:45:08,700 that she's not getting anything from. 772 00:45:10,100 --> 00:45:11,200 Well, I mean, you know what I mean? 773 00:45:11,600 --> 00:45:14,400 So listening, you like a scammer? 774 00:45:16,100 --> 00:45:19,800 Listen, I did MLM companies before I'm not over here, trying 775 00:45:19,800 --> 00:45:22,800 to message you. Do you have five minutes to talk 776 00:45:22,800 --> 00:45:24,000 about the? My Lord, and Savior? 777 00:45:24,000 --> 00:45:29,200 Like I'm good. Do you have five minutes to talk 778 00:45:29,200 --> 00:45:31,800 about? Jesus Christ himself? 779 00:45:32,700 --> 00:45:34,200 I love that. I love that. 780 00:45:34,200 --> 00:45:36,300 Because you do five minutes to tell you why. 781 00:45:36,300 --> 00:45:38,500 Jesus was a witch, you ready? Let's go. 782 00:45:39,300 --> 00:45:40,300 Have a look at the end of the day. 783 00:45:40,300 --> 00:45:43,400 A lot of people don't realize how they're coming off because 784 00:45:43,400 --> 00:45:47,800 they have no social skills. And they just really don't live 785 00:45:47,800 --> 00:45:52,300 in any other reality except this fabricated existence of like I'm 786 00:45:52,300 --> 00:45:56,200 helping people and this is my community that's healing but 787 00:45:56,200 --> 00:46:01,500 really it's probably making you feel like the inner mean girls 788 00:46:01,500 --> 00:46:04,100 coming out because now you're in control or maybe you were a 789 00:46:04,100 --> 00:46:07,200 loser in high school and now you feel like you're couldn't 790 00:46:07,200 --> 00:46:10,300 control and this is your community like no baby girl if 791 00:46:10,300 --> 00:46:13,600 you've got policies like you said earlier and force them to 792 00:46:13,600 --> 00:46:15,000 everyone not. Oh I changed. 793 00:46:15,200 --> 00:46:18,600 My mind later on as other people who were less intimidating 794 00:46:18,800 --> 00:46:21,200 posted their businesses, I never said anything. 795 00:46:21,800 --> 00:46:24,700 No, she has a Discord. She could get an, she could 796 00:46:24,800 --> 00:46:29,000 write a message to everyone when I drastically change something 797 00:46:29,400 --> 00:46:30,800 on. Like the way that I'm doing 798 00:46:30,800 --> 00:46:35,300 something I usually post it either in my chats that it's 799 00:46:35,300 --> 00:46:39,300 going to affect our on patreon. And I'm like, yeah, like this is 800 00:46:39,300 --> 00:46:41,600 the way that I'm doing this affects everybody this way, 801 00:46:41,600 --> 00:46:44,700 whatever. I would just be open and 802 00:46:44,700 --> 00:46:49,900 communicate that you can't go around and and treat people 803 00:46:49,900 --> 00:46:52,600 differently, anyways, and let somebody do something that you 804 00:46:52,607 --> 00:46:55,900 wouldn't let somebody else do. And I can't imagine being like, 805 00:46:55,900 --> 00:46:58,400 yo, you guys, you can't talk about doing tarot readings for 806 00:46:58,400 --> 00:47:01,100 other people in here, because I do tarot readings for other 807 00:47:01,100 --> 00:47:05,100 people in here. Like, yeah. 808 00:47:05,100 --> 00:47:08,000 And that's crazy because I never mentioned that all that did was 809 00:47:08,000 --> 00:47:12,700 say, here, go listen to podcast and let me know if you do, well, 810 00:47:12,700 --> 00:47:14,600 hope she goes. And listen to the podcast. 811 00:47:14,900 --> 00:47:17,400 Honestly, we're going to name this episode of my coven. 812 00:47:20,000 --> 00:47:24,700 Everything was my coven baby, my cousin, my cousin. 813 00:47:26,900 --> 00:47:30,500 Well, that's enough for tonight. I'm pooped. 814 00:47:30,600 --> 00:47:33,400 Everything I've said is facts everything. 815 00:47:33,400 --> 00:47:37,300 I said is the truth. And honestly, I would never want 816 00:47:37,300 --> 00:47:41,300 anyone listening or Beyond to feel like I'm competing with you 817 00:47:41,300 --> 00:47:43,000 because maybe I don't even see y'all. 818 00:47:43,300 --> 00:47:46,800 The only way I see you is if I see you and, you know, if I see 819 00:47:46,800 --> 00:47:49,600 you other times, I'm just letting people do their own 820 00:47:49,600 --> 00:47:51,400 thing. I'm not taking it fucking 821 00:47:51,400 --> 00:47:53,500 personal. I'm not worried. 822 00:47:53,500 --> 00:47:55,100 I'm not like, oh my God, they haven't texted. 823 00:47:55,300 --> 00:47:57,900 Me, do they hate me? No, I didn't even think about 824 00:47:57,900 --> 00:47:59,200 it. I might have been like, oh my 825 00:47:59,200 --> 00:48:01,600 God, I haven't heard for them. Hope they're well, but I've 826 00:48:01,607 --> 00:48:04,700 never like, oh my God. They're mad at me or oh my God. 827 00:48:04,700 --> 00:48:07,000 They're busy. So like, I don't matter. 828 00:48:07,000 --> 00:48:09,900 Like, I've had people who I thought were like a really great 829 00:48:09,900 --> 00:48:12,100 friend of mine of like a long time. 830 00:48:12,100 --> 00:48:15,200 Be like, oh, I feel like you're sad friend even though they only 831 00:48:15,200 --> 00:48:18,300 hit me up when they're sad or want advice or want something. 832 00:48:18,600 --> 00:48:23,300 But yet, never hitting them up because I'm trying to fulfill my 833 00:48:23,300 --> 00:48:27,700 life and not set her on a Seems like you can't be the reason 834 00:48:27,700 --> 00:48:31,800 that everybody's mad and then still try to project that onto 835 00:48:31,800 --> 00:48:35,200 them at some rate you have to take responsibility and be like, 836 00:48:35,200 --> 00:48:39,600 no I'm fucking up know, I fucked up and I need to make this right 837 00:48:40,400 --> 00:48:46,000 there is such a difference to between like, like when I'm 838 00:48:46,000 --> 00:48:49,000 fucking busy or something. Like, if I don't respond to my 839 00:48:49,000 --> 00:48:52,000 sister-in-law or something, I'm super fucking busy, she was just 840 00:48:52,000 --> 00:48:55,800 over here and she was like, you just been like you You just been 841 00:48:55,800 --> 00:48:57,900 so fucking busy. I haven't been wanting to bug 842 00:48:57,900 --> 00:49:01,200 you and like, but I'm over here texting, you don't respond, you 843 00:49:01,200 --> 00:49:03,000 know? And she's like, I figured you 844 00:49:03,000 --> 00:49:06,500 were just so busy, and then it's a like, congratulations, that's 845 00:49:06,500 --> 00:49:08,000 dope. That your business is going so 846 00:49:08,000 --> 00:49:10,600 good for you, whatever. That's the kind of energy that 847 00:49:10,600 --> 00:49:13,700 people should be having. It should be a, oh, you didn't 848 00:49:13,700 --> 00:49:15,700 get back to me because you're super fucking busy. 849 00:49:15,700 --> 00:49:17,700 That's how a good. I'm glad that you're fucking 850 00:49:17,700 --> 00:49:20,200 goals are working for you. I everything that you're putting 851 00:49:20,200 --> 00:49:21,900 effort into is coming to fruition. 852 00:49:21,900 --> 00:49:25,100 That's awesome. You probably don't have hobbies. 853 00:49:25,300 --> 00:49:28,500 I think it's just disrespectful to think that someone's distance 854 00:49:28,500 --> 00:49:31,700 is personal to you. Unless I've told you it's 855 00:49:31,700 --> 00:49:35,800 personal, like let me be Bart Simpson and fall into the 856 00:49:35,800 --> 00:49:38,300 fucking Bush. Don't come looking for me, 857 00:49:38,300 --> 00:49:41,200 asking me what's wrong. After you just did some shady 858 00:49:41,200 --> 00:49:43,700 ass shit. Same thing like with oh dudes 859 00:49:43,700 --> 00:49:47,200 mom that probably was him that wrote that but like at the end 860 00:49:47,200 --> 00:49:50,000 of the day, I bet if I'm blocked his number, he texts me. 861 00:49:50,300 --> 00:49:53,100 That's the weirdest creepiest along his life, of course he 862 00:49:53,100 --> 00:49:56,800 would people are creepy as hell. Well, they need to get the hint, 863 00:49:56,800 --> 00:50:00,100 nobody wants to talk to you. If they did, you wouldn't have 864 00:50:00,100 --> 00:50:03,700 to solicit them or write them a hundred times or write them 865 00:50:03,700 --> 00:50:06,200 books. That sound good in your head and 866 00:50:06,200 --> 00:50:09,000 when you write it out and you rehearse it and you're living in 867 00:50:09,000 --> 00:50:12,100 this fantasy and delusion, like anyone who's real with 868 00:50:12,100 --> 00:50:13,100 themselves. Can see that. 869 00:50:13,100 --> 00:50:16,000 You're overcompensating for something that you're hiding. 870 00:50:16,000 --> 00:50:20,400 Something that you're doing something, that ain't it, ain't 871 00:50:20,400 --> 00:50:22,800 it baby. I'm not your publisher. 872 00:50:23,000 --> 00:50:25,100 You need to go write your own book too. 873 00:50:25,300 --> 00:50:29,200 Yourself to the world but don't be right knee books because I 874 00:50:29,207 --> 00:50:30,900 don't even want to read it half the time. 875 00:50:31,200 --> 00:50:33,600 I skimmed it earlier because I knew I was going to read it on 876 00:50:33,600 --> 00:50:39,200 the podcast. You sent it to me and I read it 877 00:50:39,200 --> 00:50:43,700 and I was like, it's not like you got like it just so weird to 878 00:50:43,700 --> 00:50:47,300 send somebody that many messages over and over and over like just 879 00:50:47,300 --> 00:50:50,200 wait and then not get a response and be like oh and by the way, 880 00:50:50,500 --> 00:50:53,900 the blessing that I am to you it was just fucking weird. 881 00:50:53,900 --> 00:50:56,900 I didn't like it. And honestly what really got me 882 00:50:56,900 --> 00:51:00,900 all choked up about that was like you already had a whole 883 00:51:00,900 --> 00:51:04,100 conversation with someone else and they told you that you 884 00:51:04,100 --> 00:51:05,400 shouldn't write me. Right now. 885 00:51:06,100 --> 00:51:09,800 Like the you should just give me some space and that down the 886 00:51:09,800 --> 00:51:12,600 road Navy, reach out. And then she literally went 887 00:51:12,600 --> 00:51:16,500 directly into oh I talked to blank, you know what I mean? 888 00:51:16,500 --> 00:51:20,000 Like, calm down Gossip. Girl, you are not the center of 889 00:51:20,000 --> 00:51:22,200 attention in my life. This is not getting energy, 890 00:51:22,700 --> 00:51:25,400 that's what I was thinking. When I read that too, as I was 891 00:51:25,400 --> 00:51:29,300 like why is she talking to another person about you? 892 00:51:29,300 --> 00:51:34,200 Anyways, Well said, girl, I don't like I don't like it. 893 00:51:34,200 --> 00:51:37,900 I don't fuck the fat, it's not a Vibe drama. 894 00:51:37,900 --> 00:51:41,800 Has no place in my life. So if you're bringing drama, 895 00:51:41,800 --> 00:51:44,700 you're going to be removed that you're getting the Return to 896 00:51:44,700 --> 00:51:49,400 Sender. Hot sauce Vibes, I'm not having 897 00:51:49,400 --> 00:51:51,000 it. I'm not having all bullshit. 898 00:51:51,000 --> 00:51:54,400 So just know if you've been spending stank-ass energy, it's 899 00:51:54,400 --> 00:51:59,200 coming back to your dusty but You're so PC. 900 00:52:01,600 --> 00:52:06,200 Rampage mailed me a mini bottle of Tabasco sauce and I was like, 901 00:52:06,200 --> 00:52:08,900 oh, it's so cute and she's like, that's for The Return to Sender, 902 00:52:08,900 --> 00:52:12,900 bitch. Yeah, I wanted you to have it 903 00:52:12,900 --> 00:52:20,700 because I know you like I do. We love you all and we thank 904 00:52:20,700 --> 00:52:22,100 you. All are amazing. 905 00:52:22,400 --> 00:52:25,800 Thank you for being so supportive of us both joining 906 00:52:25,800 --> 00:52:28,400 both of our patreons. It really does mean a lot. 907 00:52:28,400 --> 00:52:32,100 I know we have a lot of new offerings come Coming up. 908 00:52:32,100 --> 00:52:34,600 We're about to literally do a full moon ritual. 909 00:52:34,900 --> 00:52:37,500 So sign up. It will get it poppin. 910 00:52:38,400 --> 00:52:42,300 Yeah, so excited. Bye-bye everybody.