Welcome to Fucking Candy Land, hosted by Rampage and Gemini.
What's up everybody? Welcome back to Candyland.
How you doing, Paige? I am so excited that we're
recording and it's the Lions Gate portal.
Lions Gate I was. So there's this astrologer, You
probably know him, but is theoric Medicina.
And he does who I think it's called astronomical astrology or
something like that. And so the way that he does
astrology today is the first day of Leo season in Lionsgate.
So I thought that was very interesting.
Yeah, there's a lot of different ways to do astrology and that
adds like the extra sign as well.
Like when people like, say there's 13 signs instead of 12,
that completely disrupts that whole normal cycle.
I would say that he's probably including that.
Which is fine. I just think, like, you know, we
are discovering new information, but people are so rigid and
stuck on certain things. Like I'm not relearning it, you
know what I mean? That they won't even entertain
it. So I think that's really cool.
I love when people are comfortable with having new
pieces of information disrupt their reality and change their
mindset, because that's the only way that you grow.
Maybe learning something a new way, you're like, well, I don't
agree with all of that, but maybe it broadens the way that
you do something. Exactly.
I think anytime that you can just be open minded in this
situation, even if it's like not for you, hearing why it's for
someone else, or hearing how it works for someone else, I feel
like it's super inspiring. Because if you only do what you
know, you really don't get. Any further than you already
are. Well, I felt like that even just
like with taking your Tarot class, like there are ways that
you'll explain something or a meaning of a card that I'm like,
oh, that's not necessarily the meaning that I've applied to
that card before. But hearing you explain it that
way and how the picture that you have is making sense to you or
what it makes you think of, totally resonates.
I am obsessed with my terror class.
I cannot believe that we've already had ten full weeks of
terror class and now we're moving into like the final two
weeks. It is so beautiful.
I'm so excited to teach it a second time.
Like to teach it in October because I'll probably take a
break for a little bit because I think.
January and February, I'm truly going to rest.
I'm really going to listen to the Ancestors this year and not
trudge forward. I'm just going to hit the gym
and selfcare, So that way in March when it's airy season and
I should take action. I'm not fucking drained by
trying to fight the currents of Pisces season the whole time.
Like, I just feel like we're in the deep psychic waters of
Pisces season and you should be resting and instead I tried to
take vacations and pop my shit and do all these things.
I'm going to learn from that, so I probably won't watch it again
until like. March for sure.
So it'll be exciting to do that through December and then take a
couple months off, but it's awesome.
Thank you for saying that. I think it's cool too that
anybody that's taken the class, like we're able to just take it
again on repeat for the $22.00 because there's so much
information that you're that you're putting in every week And
like we're doing you know a week at a time, we're doing a whole
suit. And so I think that people being
able to go back and rewatch it and not just rewatch it, but
actually be able to engage, you'll say something a different
way the second time that because I'm going to attend the class,
because I I personally think that even if you know something
already, someone is going to explain it in a different way,
they're going to talk about it differently, You're going to
learn a different energy. And I just think that it's
important to immerse yourself inside of opportunities where
you can expand on something that you know, but people let their
ego get in the way and they go, oh, I already know how to do
that. I don't need to do that.
And that's where you end up losing out and where people
around you will thrive. Because you know when you're
like, when you're a nurse, you have to go to school, you have
to go and take brush up courses every so often on new things,
new information that comes out, whatever that should be.
The same thing with like within your spirituality and your gifts
is having is doing things to like sharpen yourself.
I think that's so amazing because one time my mentor she
had mentioned to me. The lady who originally mentored
me and helped me get into my spiritual career.
She's an amazing woman, but she mentioned how so many people
don't take classes. Through their spiritual practice
and how she completely rejected that ideology like she was like,
I just completely reject practitioners and people.
They're like, oh, I've never studied under anyone or I've
never been mentored or whatever, but yet they're offering these
$5000 courses that are selftaught.
Like that's cool to be selftaught, but also you need to
have taken some workshops, some classes.
Just in a way to grow. I think that when we stay
stagnant, we get put in a box. And I think that it's beautiful
that every time we learn something there is some type of
different energy, like especially seasonal energies,
you know what I mean? Like spring, summer, fall,
everything brings a different energy.
And I know I personally cannot wait for fall.
I'm so excited for fall. I know that you're going to be
coming here. I've put that out in the
atmosphere. There's no dates locked down.
I'm like, listen, I plan on making you food.
I have a whole room for you. I'll be pimping that out for
you. It's going to be a thing.
I know I'm really excited because Jim and I have bought a
house that's big enough for like 4 families and she is like
trying to figure out what to put in it.
Shouldn't I could come there and help you decorate your
podcaster? Well, I rent, I I rent this
house. But I do, definitely.
When I just had my friend Ryan here, we were looking at the
room and she's like, you know, you could do this, you could do
that. And so I have a little list of
things. And on my list that night I
wrote Red Couch and my friend came over yesterday.
She's a photographer and she's like, I'm not doing anything
with my, like, Red couch anymore.
Would you like to have it, my maroon couch?
Would you like to have it for the podcast room?
And I was like fucking manifesting.
Mostly I just started a Lionsgate spell and normally I
don't put the candle on top of the jar, but I'm like, I don't
want to do that tonight because, you know, it's kind of a fire
hazard if it falls off for some reason and you've got candle wax
going everywhere. But tonight is special.
Tonight, she's burning the house down.
Not watching it like a hawk. I'm watching it like a hawk.
You know what's crazy? I was just thinking about this.
So since we moved into this house, the the flame work on my
spells is fucking crazy. Like very big, very like it
moves a lot. And when I was in the old space,
it was in the garage and I did spell work all the time and my
my flame would move and stuff, but it was nothing like it is
here. And I was thinking about how at
the other place I always and I've always said it felt so
small because it felt like we had so much energy that didn't
have anywhere to go. Like you couldn't fully express
yourself because you're in this small little house and there's
no way to get away from anything.
And I feel like it was the same way with like fire.
Like fire was. It had to be in this like small
enclosed space. That's where I did my spell
working. And it can only be so big
because there's only so much space.
And in this house, I just feel like there's so much room for
energy that I feel that in the spell workings and I can feel
the spell workings like taking over all of this space and the
flames going wild and feeling free to dance.
And I am really loving that visual representation of what
I'm feeling energetically inside that space.
I personally was scared of that flame that you sent me the other
day. Always scared.
That shit was fucking tall. And you know what I told you
about the spell that you sent me for my birthday?
Like, went wild. And it was just like.
Crazy. And honestly, I mean, it looked
way, it looked way taller because of the way that because
it's on the kitchen counter and I was trying to get a video of
it. So the way that my phone was,
was a little bit tilted. So yes, the flame was big, but
it was like it wasn't like it was anywhere near the ceiling or
anything crazy. It was a massive, thick boy and
he was popping his thing and. It was huge and I was like, wow,
you are doing it. When you said it was for someone
else, I was like, damn, they probably are loving this.
So it was a working for somebody else and it was.
I'm trying to like not give all the details but give some
details. So it was a connection amplifier
for them. So having the flame responding
in that way is like exactly what I needed for confirmation of the
working. And it was it was just really
fucking cool. I don't know.
It was scurry, but I guess if that's about someone's like life
popping off then that was amazing because this was crazy
and like I literally was always setting off the smoke detectors
and recently I have like. Redone how I'm doing things so
that we're not setting off the smoke detectors because I
realized that I was just doing my spell work too closely to a
specific smoke detector. So I've fixed that issue, and I
haven't had all of the smoke detectors going off.
And like my alarm system is linked to a smoke detector, so,
like, they'll just send the fire department.
Like if it goes off too long, they're like there's a fire.
Confirmed, we're on the way and like when I first got my alarm
system. I was at an event and this is so
funny. I was like, Oh my gosh, the fire
departments at my house, they literally sent that a fire
department. It had like a malfunction that I
didn't even know it was going off.
Like it didn't give me an option to like, know that it was going
off. But then I saw on my cameras
that literally the fire department was here and yeah,
they literally were popping their shit like they kicked down
your door. No, but they like somehow got
into a window, like, cause I live on a second story they got
into, they checked all the windows and found one that was
open and they came in the window and they like stomped around the
whole house and like yell and they were like, it's all clear.
It's a false alarm. And I heard it all on the
cameras. Yeah, it was crazy.
It was a very vivid experience of like, what the fuck's going
on? So luckily, like I wasn't having
a fire. But it was cool to know that if
there was a fire, even if I wasn't home, that they would.
Be there very rapidly. It was like a rapid response.
The squirrel in me wants to tell you that you should never have
any of your windows unlocked. But then the other part of me is
like, thank goodness that you had one unlocked so that they
didn't bust your door down. I think it was just fake
because, like, that's never happened again.
And the windows are definitely all locked.
You know what I mean? Like, I think that was just like
a learning experience that like, I am very, very safe.
And like, this fucking alarm system is like topnotch, baby.
And it was like, we will save you, OK, You know, we will save
you. But I like living on the second,
third four stories. Like, I don't, I don't want to
be on the ground. I would never have a window
unlocked if I was on the ground. I just imagine like an intruder
coming in and you being like, what's your face from Austin
Powers with like the nipple bullets and just being like not
today and like your fashionable outfit.
Literally, I found a perfect outfit for this.
It's fate. You know, it's funny.
I was watching a music video earlier and Austin Powers was in
it. Everything that we're saying all
the time is somehow connected. Yeah, well over the ranch
seasoning. That's very interesting.
That's the most the most interesting because I was just
like, huh, I'm gonna put this in there.
It was just like, I open the cabinet to get the cinnamon and
it was just there and I was like, oh, oh, and it actually is
going to be amazing, that flame doing OK over there.
You all right? I see you like.
Yeah, there, there's three of them and I'm just watching them,
making sure because the way that I have them.
They are doing the most. It's very cool.
You know, it's interesting. I did a really amazing reading
tonight and I love when people are like, I didn't expect to get
this much out of this reading. Like, I did not expect to to
like really connect with everything you were saying or
like, you know, like one person got really emotional.
Like, you know, it's just really rewarding to be like, I didn't
expect. You to deliver on this, But you
done drove this motherfucker home and now I believe in Jesus.
It feels good. Feels like a accomplishment.
I'm doing the Lord's work out here.
I believe in Jesus. I was cracking up at the meme
that I posted on your page the other day.
That was like people in the South.
I don't have an accent. And then it's like how do y'all?
Yeah, honestly, what I think's interesting about accents is
that you really don't realize that you have one until you're
around people who sound different than you.
You know what I mean? And I think it's interesting how
humans have dialect like that. Like how there's so many
different ways and just everything.
And it's like, wow. Why is that area like this?
You know what I mean? Like, why is Boston like this
versus like Austin, TX? Like, they sound similar.
You know what I mean? Like, I don't know.
It's just interesting. My grandpa's from Massachusetts
and so when he talks to be like, go get in the car.
And so I've always, like, made fun of him, been like, oh, do I
need to go get in the car like. You know, it's crazy is like.
There's so much that is passed down through your family, like
good and bad or just, you know what I mean?
Like, just so many things are like passed through generation
to generation. And it's so like interesting
that we like as humans, don't take enough time to like,
appreciate all of our life. You know what I mean?
Like it's when people look back on it.
Because they're like, oh, this used to happen or you know what
I mean? It's like almost only whenever
it's like the absence of something do we like, be like,
damn, I really like that. You know what I mean?
That's why I'm always telling the universe like, I love it
here. Thank you.
Thank you Universe. I've been really working on
making a conscious, consistent effort to be present in the
moment and appreciative of things that are happening while
they are happening and absorbing the energy.
Then instead of looking back on it and being like, wow, that was
really like fun, that was really exciting, or, you know,
whatever. I know.
And that's what mainly I think the human lesson is, is like to
enjoy it while it's here and not just reminisce, you know, like
or not. Just wish it was here.
Like people count all the way down to the day to a concert and
then be on their fucking phone the whole time trying to live
stream the concert for random people on their Facebook who
could give to folks. Because you're swinging back and
forth and you're singing and you know, just enjoy it.
Put your phone up. Because I promise you.
It's very rare that people go back through their videos or
their screenshots or their pictures and just sit there and
watch them, like constantly. You know what I mean?
Like the world is so busy. There's so much going on.
I have over 10,000 pictures and I don't know when we've went
back to 5000 or 6000 and glanced around because we haven't in a
long time. Like, you know what I mean?
You look at it immediately what the newer things are.
I think that's about it. And then you forget that you
screenshotted your prescription number that expired six months
ago, but it's just floating around somewhere on your phone.
That makes me laugh. Right?
After 4th of July, I saw this post that was like, hey, do you
have that video of the fireworks from 2010 and the person being
like, no. Well then why did you spend the
whole fireworks show recording them on your phone?
And also another pet peeve that I have?
Because we're about to be getting with the holidays for
like Thanksgiving or whatever here in the next couple months
too, when people just post tons of pictures of their plates and
like or of doing the same thing Like people will post like their
spreads of like their Easter food or whatever.
And I Nobody gives a fuck what you are eating on the day that
they are eating too. Like, I promise you, nobody's
like, damn, your mom's macaroni and cheese looks bomb as fuck
because their mom made Mac and cheese and that's what they're
looking at. That's just my $0.02.
I mean, I think that. As long as they don't post 94
presents under the treaty for everyone to see that they're
just fun, everything. But in the place people are the
president people, they're absolutely doing.
It the present people gotta go. Because I just think for one,
that's so ego driven egotistical.
It's just so like tacky and honestly, y'all's kids are like
getting way too much crap that they just think they're entitled
to it or that they deserve it. And then you wonder why you're
131415 year old person, kid, whatever once.
Four and $500 pair of shoes and bills left out that someone
else's parents buys them those Yeezys and stuff.
You know and I know you're laughing now, but like wait till
your son gets to those ages where those those kids, like
their parents are in debt and are creating a false
impersonation that they have their shit together and it's not
cute, it's not attractive. That's why people can't afford.
Whatever that they complain about.
You know what I mean? It's like, take your kid on a
vacation and get out of this place.
Don't worry about XYZ. And I just think that overall,
like the Internet has became like a this or that competition
of like look at mine or look at yours or Oh my God, I want that
too. And then, like, you get it and
it never brings you the fulfillment that you thought it
was going to bring you. And I know this personally
because tauruses are meant to be, like very materialistic as
one of the earth signs that are just very materially driven.
But a Taurus really wants to. Purity.
And with that you need material abundance.
When I shifted my reality from wanting material things to just
wanting Peace of Mind and just to be like at peace with money,
things shifted. Like my relationship shifted
with money. And I think that so many people
lead these false narratives. But then when it comes time to
investing in a spiritual service that's 100 plus dollars or a
class that's $1000 or something, that's going to better your
life. You can't do it.
And then you're mad at the people that have or do and you
just get the cycle of like, rinse, repeat and like, you know
the cycle just keeps going. You know, you never actually
break the cycle when you put yourself deeper and deeper and
that debt. I think the flex is to be able
to teach your children like financial stability, so like for
example. My a big thing.
So my stepdaughter was just here visiting and her mom's thing is
to take her on vacations, to take her on trips.
But they don't ever have like steady housing or food or things
like that, or like things that are like, needed, right?
Like and so when she was here. She wanted to go out and do all
of these like adventures and she wants to go out on trips and
things like that. And so conversations that my
husband and I were having with her are the opposite perspective
of we don't go and do all of those things and and just go
spend money like that because. And we're saving money.
We want to buy a house. We want to be able to, you know
a BC&D and when we have, you know certain milestones that are
met, then we will go out and like have celebrations or will
go out and do and do things. And so we were teaching her or
trying to about like having a responsibility and an
appreciation and setting goals for your money instead of just
in the moment being like. I want to go, and I want to go
do this huge adventure. Your adventure is fun in the
moment while you're spending your money until you get back.
And now you're no longer able to fulfill that goal that you had
or pay that bill that you had or whatever, because you blew it on
a moment feeling instead of a long term realistic feeling.
Does that make sense? Yeah, of course.
And I think that stability in financial security are so far
absent of so many people because they live in a constant like
instant reward reality, like not paid, going to the mall, getting
new shoes. Like, you know, like like you
said, what is your goals? Like, what is your goals?
And I think that when you have money in a terrible relationship
with it, you're just going to spend it.
You're just going to spend more of it.
You're just going to. You know what I mean?
It's almost like people reject abundance by feeling like they
have to constantly be doing something.
Like abundance is having things taken care of, stressfree
living, not worrying about if your electric bill is going to
be extra $100 this month because you know you have it.
That's a Peace of Mind that like a new pair of shoes and
different things can't buy. And like our ancestors and
people like they didn't buy multiple pairs of shoes.
Like people got like one pair of shoes and that was it.
And I'm not saying that that has to be your reality, but also
every time you get paid you don't need a new pair of shoes.
Like you need to save that $200.00 and or whatever.
Maybe more of the way people buy shoes.
I mean it blows my mind that people that live with their
parents buy 800 and $1000 like Bathing Ape and fucking ugly
ugly ugly stuff. And I'm not going to lie like
easy looks, like a factory workers uniform.
Everything that he makes looks like a trench coat or like some
type of worker coat that you would wear at a factory or at a
bus garage or at the oil change place.
And it's not like is hypy as I like see people make it like I
know people who have made it their entire personality and
then they become like resellers or then they own these little
like, you know, shoe shops and stuff where they like take
something that Nike drop for 1:50 and sell it for 7:50.
Like that's the reason that the system is broken.
You know what I mean is because people buy up what it actually
cost and then circulated back at 3050% markup and then the brands
and the designers are like, well, fuck that, we're going to
cut you out and make it just $500 then can't buy it up.
And if you do then it's worth 2000.
You know, like there's things on Louis Vuitton.
Not that I'm like, I get on there and I like to window shop.
There was this lime green purse. They never really dropped things
like that. So when I saw it, I was like,
that is going so hard. Sold out.
It was sold out like within the first like week of it coming out
like everywhere, because someone bought that.
It's rare and they're selling it on eBay for triple.
And it's like if Louie or whoever sees you all doing that,
like the reason these brands are considered designer is because
they want to be exclusive. So all these resellers and all
these things, like that's what's drive up, like driven up
everything. And I think kids have
unrealistic expectations of how money actually comes in because
they're not earning money from chores.
They're not getting little after school jobs.
They're not doing the things that we did.
We did lemonade stands, car washes, you know, whatever,
clean someone's garage for 10 bucks.
Like at the end of the day, these kids are not willing to do
anything. They're like $10, like they're
not gonna do shit for $10. And I feel like as a 10 year
old, you shouldn't have that option.
You should be like, yes, $10.00, but when you find out that
everything's 2-3, four, $500, it's like, well, that's not
shit. I used to walk people's dogs in
my neighborhood for $5. I used to just walk up to your
door. Hi, Mr. Do you have a dog?
Can I walk your dog? Oh, you're inviting me inside to
have a glass of water and a snack?
Absolutely. I'll come inside your home like
that? Oh, yeah, that was that way.
I know you can't imagine that now that I'm like, the fucking
safety squirrel of life, but that definitely was happening
back then. Absolutely.
Times have changed. Talking about times changing and
like money and stress and stuff, so I have really been.
So I guess this decision has been made since we recorded
last, but I decided to go back to the chiropractic office that
I've been working at and I they. Messaged me and we're like hey,
our part time girl is going to Hawaii.
Would you be willing to come in and like cover a couple days you
know whatever here. And so I was like, yeah,
absolutely I would. And I went to the office and
whatever and. It was almost like there had
been like a complete energy reset because I hadn't been
there. They had seen like I had a
chance to be like my own boss. They had a chance to have
somebody else that wasn't me and to have an appreciation for
everything that I do and. I have really been.
I decided that I'm going to go back three days a week and I'm
going to go like in the morning time.
And it still gives me plenty of time to do all of my business
stuff. And I can schedule readings
around it. And I'll have Mondays off to
have with Brian because he doesn't work on the food truck.
And then Fridays will be like my days.
And I've really been loving it because I started seeing how.
Being reliant on your income through your readings and like
your spiritual gifts, and not being the sole purpose like your
sole income. Yeah, it's cool to like prove to
yourself that you could do it and that's awesome.
But for me. It made me feel like I could see
how so easily it would just become a business and a chore
and how it would just be a stressor for I need somebody to
book a reading. I need this.
I need that. I need people to, you know, be
on Patreon or whatever. And that's never been the way
that I have ever done anything. And that would never be the way
that I would want something to be.
And so. I just made that change and and
I think that it's so important that that would be such a big
moment for ego, right? To be like, Nah, like I fucking
quit them. I'm doing my shit.
I'm popping my shit over here like I'm not about to go back
and like, you know, like I just proved that I could do it.
But at the same time, like what is more important I guess and
so. I've been very excited about,
like that little spirit lesson and that break and what not.
But I'm also excited to be back there, having a little bit of a
routine, being able to help them with things being appreciated.
Because there was the reset where like, wow, I really see
all that you do and like you're valuable.
They've told me every single day I've gone there how much they
appreciate me, how much they need me there.
And like that does feel good. Honestly, I think that
everything you said is so valid and it's a learning experience
because when you are sole proprietary like in your art or
in your passion or in your spirituality, there can be a
level of pressure. And I think that especially for
people that try to pursue that, like right out of the gate,
there is so much standard, you know what I mean?
Because you think, Oh my God, I have this money coming in, but
then you get hit with a huge tax bill at like the worst time.
You know what I mean? And, like, I think that's what's
really cool that some people can handle all that.
But at the same time, it's like I would much rather somebody be
also speaking on my behalf. And then me being able to be my
own boss and if I want to take a nap, cool, because everything I
need is coming through this other Ave.
And this is me time, this is growth time.
This is, you know, I had like two really amazing readings
tonight on the new client consultation.
And those client consultations can go from any level, like to
mediumship to spirit guides to any level that spirit wants.
It's kind of like the display of what I can do and what you need
at that moment. And it was just so rewarding.
And one of them ran over a lot longer than normal.
But it was like we were really vibing and like making this like
breakthrough. And I think it's interesting to
see people who have like children my age that are like, I
can learn so much from you. Like how do you know this?
And it's like, I can't even take credit that I know all that.
It's like spirit tells me everything that I need to know
when I need to know it and not a minute sooner.
And I think that when you put a lot of pressure on your gifts or
on yourself, you're draining that connection, period.
And you know, a lot of people especially like in the artistry
field, like music and things like that, they truly give up
before it gets going because they're not willing to make
those sacrifices. They're not willing to work that
job they hate because they're trying to keep up some persona
or finance the chain that they pay $400.00 a month on for the
next 10 years. You know what I mean?
Like so many people live in these little false illusions
where it's like I have money, I have this, but they're in
fucking debt. And I think that, you know, I
don't think anything about what people do.
But what I do think is those people complain the most because
at the end of the day, that's only going to stress you out
more. So, you know, being able to have
a day job or have something that's consistent and steady and
then pursue your business, whether that's always part time
or not, there's going to be a moment when it pops and when it
shifts. And I know we've talked about
this before, but Bunny was doing her podcast for like 3 years and
thought that she was going to give it up because it wasn't
Poppin. And then at literally three
years and eight months, shit went crazy, You know what I
mean? It's just like 8 months later.
It's less than it takes to make a child.
And here we are. And she's got 7 million
followers of cumulative, you know, so it's like you can't see
it and it's maybe not meant to happen because you can't handle
it yet. And I think it's beautiful that,
like, you at least took the risk.
And then you also at the same time can be like, yeah, that
wasn't exactly what I was expecting.
But now I can see clearly on what I thought because that was
like, your whole purpose was like, Nope, I'm doing this whole
time. Like this is all I want to do.
And like, that's all beautiful. But whenever I noticed your
schedule was just open like fucking 8 hours a day, every
day, I was like, damn, I'm like, damn, you know, like that's just
not healthy. Not for spirit work anyways.
Yeah, no. And I also, you know, I never
wanna be like in a position where.
Maybe I'm going to do a reading that I don't feel comfortable
doing because I'm not vibing with somebody's energy, but I'm
going to do it because now I'm solely responsible for this
income and so I'm going to do it anyways.
Like, there's just so many things that I was able to see
like coming up that I'm like this just isn't like it's not
resonating for me. And it it took a lot of, I feel
like stress and pressure off of me now having that experience
because. As you said, like that had been
a big goal. And so for me personally, when
I'm working towards a goal like that is what I have in mind.
I'm going to make that happen and I stress myself out to make
that happen because it's a goal that I have.
And so now that I've done that and I've accomplished it, I'm
like, OK, so now I understand that like that actually isn't
what I'm wanting and so I can switch my direction and.
Kind of be more comfortable and posting like I I like doing this
as like my passion and helping people and it doesn't.
I don't have to be extreme about it and that, and I don't have to
prove that I could do something with it, you know?
Yeah. And I feel like so many people,
that's what they're doing. They're doing it to try to prove
to you. Like in, a lot of people are not
doing as great as they lead, You know what I mean?
Like, people into the world, Oh my gosh, it's great.
I'm booked, I'm prosperous and all that.
But it's like giving up all that quality time with yourself, with
your family, neglecting your own spiritual goals, like meditation
or journaling, you know? I noticed that, like, I set some
major goals and Spirit really started to deliver.
And then I was like, hold the fuck up.
That's too much. I can't do that many readings.
I mean, I can and I did and they were all phenomenal and I was
getting the best feedback. Like when I did that flash sale
and sold like 75 of them, I was so shocked.
That put me into a frenzy though, because on top of those
75, I had 50 Patreon people and different things, you know what
I mean? It was just like holy Moly, I
cannot believe that this many of these like aligned and then on
top of like adding the spell work and doing the spell work
tier and like a bunch of people upgrading to that which opened
slots on other tiers where people took them.
You know, it was just like a trickle effect.
And I feel like we both took like time from the podcast but
went balls to the wall in our business.
And then I was like, I need a real, like recalibration.
And like I'm not doing weekend readings anymore.
Like, I'm like, you know, I'll do Tuesday and Wednesdays and
I'll do videos, but other than that, like you can get an e-mail
or something. But I'm not trying to like be so
in someone's energy every single day.
Like, I need days that I don't touch anyone else's energy and
I'm just in my own and not even like, for my own mental health,
but just for like everyone's benefit.
You know what I mean? Like a spiritual practitioner
that's willing to exhaust themselves is still somewhat
living in their ego and people pleasing tendencies.
Or like, oh, if I don't, you know, it's like you're more
worried outside of yourself all of a sudden.
It's like so many people do that in the spiritual community and
it's exhausting and it's exhausting to even get readings
from those people, you know what I mean?
I feel like that's why some of those people, like, have blocked
us. Like that one girl that gave us
the readings and all the things, and then she just randomly,
like, blocked us with no explanation.
Like, that was weird. That was so weird.
I think lots of people are weird and I think that we can we can
bother people by being in our own truth.
If it makes them uncomfortable, like it challenges their truth.
Or it challenges their absolutely and.
And also to I think that people put a lot of competition where
there's not competition. And like we've had where, you
know behind the scenes like, you know we're rooting somebody on
and we're talking to each other and we're like they're doing all
this. They're doing all that like pop
your shit. And then that person has come
out and then like, and I just think that you both are like
talking about me and not supporting me and we're like,
what do you mean? And it's because.
They're uncomfortable with themselves and so they just
assume that other people have a problem.
And I think that that's what happens when people give
readings and things too, is like they get into your energy and
then they feel some type of way about themselves.
And there's also a lot of assumption too.
And we've talked about it before, but there's a lot of
assumption that we're despite our podcasts and our social
medias and everything that we do.
People really envision us as different people than we are,
and I think that people just have these different
expectations of us. And also this like putting us in
a box and expecting us not to grow.
Like, I'm such a different person now than I was when we
first started the podcast, and you're a different person now
than when we first started the podcast.
You know, honestly, I think that whenever people are growing and
elevating and changing and things are shifting for them,
and other people are staying the same, it becomes such a separate
energy. It's almost like, instead of
magnets coming together, like the law of attraction, like you
manifest people into your reality to learn something.
And a lot of people are not ready to learn what we're
mirroring back. And I honestly, like, just don't
play the game anymore. You know what I mean?
Like, I don't try to define my player profile.
It's like, read it and weep, bitch.
We're on the level because I'm not playing this with you.
I'm playing it with myself. I'm playing it, you know, with
the universe. Like, I'm not playing it as your
opponent. I don't even see you.
You know what I mean? Like, I'm in my own thing.
And I think that so many people are on the level like trying to
hide and like dodge whatever. They're trying to learn on that
level the whole time. And like it's not hide and seek,
baby. You got to face that shit head
on and you probably signed up for it and you are the root
issue. I don't care what the world
tells you, you and your thinking and your like soul like
negativity towards it or whatever, that you're not
embracing it is what's draining you, you know what I mean?
So seeing other people like keep going to the next level, it's
like how how I keep hitting up a brick wall and I have a lot of
compassion for people. But then again, I like if you
don't want to do the work because level 5 is harder than
level 4, then stay on level 4. But when I'm on level 14, don't
try to talk, know nothing to me, don't try to start drama with
me, you know? It's like once people get so
high, they need your platform to be relevant because like you're
not. Like without you, they don't
even exist. They go back to their illusional
world and the fact that people can do spiritual work and put so
much of their energy out there and people continue to just want
to take, take, take, take. It's really goofy to me because
whatever you take, you actually take and put it into your
karmic, like balance, you know? And it's like 10 times what you
took. So if you took one, it's
actually 10 times, or if you put one in, it's 10 times, you know,
so it's like. Learn about your own energy and
your own intentions, and stop worrying about what other people
did to get to level 14. Yeah, that goes into not
comparing your journey to other people's journey and not
comparing the evolution and the use of your gifts to the way
that somebody else's have unfolded and been utilized.
And the crazy thing about that is so many people are needed in
like a spiritual community. Like there's different people
that are like healers or people that do medicine, plant
medicine, things like that. Like there's just so many
different people that do different things.
And if people came together in a more communal style, living and
shared with others instead of thinking, no, these are my
tomato plants, I have 14 tomatoes, I'm going to sit here
and watch seven of them rot because by the time I get to the
8th one, I'm sick of tomatoes and said you could just knock on
your neighbor's door and be like, hey, I got a bunch of
tomatoes, you want a few? And I'm speaking from experience
right now because, like, that's a very, very relevant thing.
And like people don't have any regard for others because
they're neglecting themselves. And that's why I don't take that
shit personal. That's why the Four Agreements
is top tier, best book. Because when I stopped taking
things personal and started seeing it as a spiritual lesson
or a spiritual experience, I stopped worrying about what
other people did in the situation.
And I kept myself to a certain standard which has connected me
with people who are at that standard and at that level.
And that's where you make growth.
Like that's where you make headway.
And. An important thing too is that
we're always looking at the person who's on the levels above
where we are and so we're always looking up the ladder instead of
looking down the ladder. And I think that when people are
looking down below them to see where other people are on, you
know. Their journey and how far up the
ladder they've come. Then it stops you from
progressing and going any further and then it puts more
distance between you and the people who are higher above than
you are right now. You want to hear something
really interesting. I never look at this my human
design app ever, but you talk about that all the time.
It just gave me a notification and said tip of the day.
It never does that. When I click on it, I'm not even
logged in, like my e-mail isn't even there.
It's like I don't even have an account.
When I clicked on the notification it took me to the
login screen, like how random that the my human design would
be like Tip of the day and I literally click on it and it's
logged out. Like, how are you sending me a
notification from an app I haven't used since Alec
Cancelled Premium a year ago? That's really change.
That's your that's your shit. Let me pull you a human design
card. Then let's give you your tip of
the day. Pull one for the peeps.
Alright, so the audience. Let's pull you guys your tip of
the day. We got card 55.
Fives were popping off in tarot class yesterday too.
Card 55 for Living Prayer. And it literally it looks like a
desert with like a Little River off in the distance in the fog.
Pisces card. Pisces so the sign is Pisces.
The gift is radical accountability and the shadow is
victim mind or victim mentality. So the radical accountability.
Beyond the shadow is the illusion of true freedom born of
radical accountability. We realize, know, and believe
that we are active players in every event and circumstance
that unfolds within our lives. We are the orchestrators of our
own personal heaven or hell. It is not what happens, but how
we react and hold our truth. And our response becomes lived
prayer. The gift is woven beautifully
with the. Excuse me?
The gift is woven beautifully with the profound richness of
emotion which reveals the great depth and spectrum of the human
experience. We behold the Pearl or remain
consumed by flames. The choice remains ours, and
then the shadow is the victim mentality.
Theme 55 reveals one of the most significant pieces of our
collective spiritual evolution and the journey to freedom.
As we traverse the physical plan and employ our minds for the
purpose of categorizing and labeling elements of our
reality, we fall into the trap of separation, the distorted
view that we are separate and distinct bodies merely occupying
the same space. We forget that through the
process of conditioning that we are the creators of our inner
experience, we blame our suffering on external actors and
praise outside sources for the cause of our pleasure.
Are requiring for personal power.
At lower frequencies, we are the victim or the bystander at the
mercy of whatever life appears to throw at us.
Your themes are ownership, emotion, choice and freedom that
doesn't sync exactly with everything.
The perfect place to pop off this episode because that was
everything. We are so grateful to share this
space with you all. We are just so grateful to share
our gifts, our opinions. Thank you for taking everything
we say with a grain of salt, because if you don't agree,
that's cool. Like, we can still be cool if we
don't expect people to agree with every little thing that we
say. And honestly, I'm excited to
hear other people's perceptions. So with that, go to
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