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Welcome to fucking Dandy land 
hosted by Rampage and Gemini. 

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Welcome back. 
What's up everybody? 

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Welcome back to Canada. 
So, the technical excited to be 

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here with you. 
All right, of course, soon as we

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hit record, there's technical 
difficulties. 

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And you hear me? 
Yeah, I can hear you. 

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I can hear you. 
I can hear you. 

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Okay well here we are. 
Y'all Mercury retrograde is in 

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Shadow period. 
Yeah I guess we're going to have

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what just got to wait like five 
seconds after the other person 

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talks. 
Someone told me, they thought 

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their headphones were broken 
because we were cutting in and 

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out on the last episode. 
So shout out your headphones, 

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work fun. 
Headphones work fine. 

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It's Anna's problem, not a, you 
problem, but I don't know what 

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it is because I mean I haven't 
had any issues. 

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It's just my energy. 
It's to bomb, it's too dank, 

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it's to tourist season. 
Just a few sent us. 

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So since we were here last year,
we did your birthday. 

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So would you do for your 
birthday? 

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I went to Michigan and we saw 
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really beautiful. 
Except there was a like City 

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parade on the day we were there.
My birthday and they had half 

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the city shut down, no access 
point and so we got stuck in 

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traffic and got stuck in like 
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Blocks. 
So that was cool. 

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Oh and they GPS Deport us down. 
The yellow brick road of 

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cobblestone about three miles of
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Avalanche, Cobblestone. 
It was so scary. 

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I got had a mental breakdown. 
You had to walk on Cobblestone. 

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Now, I had to drive and it was 
scary. 

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Yeah, it's terrible. 
If I would have been in like an 

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SUV, they have cobblestone in 
the US. 

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In Michigan. 
They do baby. 

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It was the yellow brick road. 
Where were you trying to go and 

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where did it take you to? 
We were trying to go to the main

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city part, but they had like six
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which detoured us and obviously,
we didn't know where we were 

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going. 
So we listen to the GPS which 

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ended up in a one-way 
neighborhood of cobblestone of 

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mansions. 
These houses were like six 

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million dollar mansions in 
futuristic crazy looking houses,

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but the road was really Damaged.
And there was a lot of waves and

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my car was just like, very not 
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And I wasn't, I wasn't feeling 
it, I wasn't feeling it at all, 

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but I kept, cool. 
I didn't get upset. 

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I just I just was like, what is 
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Will you risk people's lives 
when you're driving? 

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So you know, it's crazy. 
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that's ever happened to me is 
when I was driving and Utah and 

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it said rough pavement and there
was a litter of six foot by six 

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foot pothole and like if your 
car is big enough and it could 

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zoom over it, you're golden. 
But if you lock a tire in that 

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motherfucker, your your bottom 
doubt. 

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So, you guys remember, like, the
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our trip and we went to Utah, so
homegirl, which is the name of 

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that episode. 
It was her car, but page was 

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driving and like giving her a 
break or whatever. 

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Because again she was 
complaining about having to 

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drive because she offered to 
drive. 

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Anyways so page is over here 
being mommy and she's fucking 

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driving us and yeah. 
All of a sudden it says rough 

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patch ahead and it's a literal 
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Fuck. 
Fuckin square hole. 

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And so, she like jerks the car 
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We don't leave the lane nothing,
like it's not dramatic. 

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Like, in the backseat, I feel 
like things even feel scarier 

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than the front seat and this 
girl, like didn't have. 

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I don't feel like she had that 
much of a reaction then but like

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later that night was like 
basically page took us in the 

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car with her and control because
she wanted to drive us off that 

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fucking mountain and all of our 
lives were in danger is how She 

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made it sound. 
It was so scary. 

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All because there was literally 
a sign that said, rough pavement

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ahead, it didn't say, rough 
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I had the opposite was, huh. 
I've never seen that before. 

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And then next thing, you know, 
you are about to be nose-down in

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this big-ass hole. 
Like it looks like one of those 

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things that like hearing 
Kentucky, they just throw one of

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those metal, like, covers on it 
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Over. 
They bolt it down and they just 

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put a metal thing on. 
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talking about and I said, Utah 
was like mmmm, we're good. 

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Everybody's got Jeeps hella st. 
The saying The Devil's Advocate,

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the think, the devil's hot tub. 
This is just a little. 

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This is regular. 
It's a regular one. 

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You said this isn't The Devil's 
Advocate. 

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It was called The Devil's hot 
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Y'all look it up. 
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Crack me up. 
I mean shit, you did better than

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you would have done driving in 
two wheel drive. 

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Fucked up on vodka going up 
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It's sketchy. 
That we survive that trip with a

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girl that literally is like 
non-existence in our life. 

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Now like literally blocked us, 
never took accountability and 

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just pretended like it. 
Ever happened because she banged

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someone while we were there and 
she only been married for three 

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weeks. 
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because she's not the only one 
that does it but she did it 

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where it's the photos of like 
being around crystals and like 

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being in bathtubs for 
Rejuvenation and being like I 

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just need this into like 
recharge or whatever and I'm 

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like the problem to you. 
So like I don't know what you 

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shove. 
So many crystals up your 

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butthole because what you're 
doing right now is not enough to

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counteract whatever the fuck you
got going on because it's not 

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Yes, she was definitely, 
definitely, definitely on 

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something and I have no clue 
once again, why you would invite

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people across the country say 
that you got all this under 

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control and then you're upset 
with me because your state 

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doesn't cover its massive 
potholes. 

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So, I put your life in danger. 
When really, this is a regular 

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day for her. 
And I was scared. that's like 

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the crazy part to me is like, 
For me, if I behave that way I'm

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having like, a catastrophic life
event and like I'm shook to my 

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core and I'm like, holy fuck, 
this is like a thing. 

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And for somebody to be like, 
this is just normal. 

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Why are you upset with me that 
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Is that somebody actually thinks
that their behavior was totally 

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cool. 
I'm all I did was get drunk and 

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threatened to leave you alone in
the fucking desert where you 

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don't know anything in your Four
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there's no Ubers and I'm 
cheating on my husband and my 

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friends are accusing your 
friends of giving counterfeit 

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dollars. 
You guys should feel totally 

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comfortable. 
What a fuck when I feel like I 

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could stay at my house with my 
husband who I've been telling 

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awful stories about during this 
trip, that's all I want to do. 

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I like this year has been 
religious shaking things up a 

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bit. 
Like, it's like this experience 

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to anyone. 
Listening just goes to show you 

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even deeper how you just don't 
know people and like, when we 

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plan this trip, she didn't even 
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nothing. 
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over, it's, which had a husband 
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I'm just saying motherfuckers 
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And this whole Mercury 
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adding to that fire. 
It's like if there was a 

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metaphorical fire and someone 
threw gasoline on it for the 

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last three weeks that's where 
we're at now, that's the 

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aftermath of where we're at. 
But I do feel like since about 

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February, it has been very crazy
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and Pisces season, I feel like 
since that like astrological New

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Year kind of time, I feel like 
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mine has been since we went on 
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like I'm out of it. 
But I have just been like like I

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could not really adjust myself 
back to like my normal. 

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Honestly, I've been trying to do
different stuff now that it's 

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like warm and get out of like 
the same normal, I'm trying to 

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set and yeah, because I feel 
like I've just been in my like 

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little comfort zone. 
Someone wrote me today and said 

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that they're feeling extremely 
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I was like, that's the late 
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Like the beginning of tourist 
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I'm always extremely motivated, 
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like yeah. 
I'll worry about that later. 

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I'll do that later. 
I feel like I'm the opposite. 

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And I feel like we talked about 
this last year to where you're 

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like, no, I'm like, chilling and
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And I'm like, I have a huge 
goals as fast by jeopardizing 

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his head. 
Like, I don't know. 

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I do get motivated during gym 
and I season as well. 

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I think, Jim and I seasons are 
overall just really peak time as

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we move into like summer and 
just overall, like human has a 

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mutable energy and it's like 
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Oil and I feel like anything's 
possible. 

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I feel like this next season 
coming up is like if you've been

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doing the work since last 
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you're out to get a reward in 
Gemini season, you're about to 

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get a little fruits of your 
labor. 

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Bake it into existence shit. 
I'm really just feeling tested 

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and tried by so many people. 
Projecting their own limiting 

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beliefs onto me thinking that 
I'm going to be upset with them.

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I'm like you're the only one 
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They're like, well, I thought 
this would upset you so I didn't

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bring it up and I'm like it 
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Like so many people are just 
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something like needs to be 
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I feel like it's not even 
anything that anybody done. 

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It was just like, about business
stuff to be honest. 

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And I'm like, literally, like 
all you need to do is just reach

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out like you know what I mean? 
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don't be afraid and they're 
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busy and I'm like, I don't like 
when people think that like 

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their needs aren't a priority 
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And then for two, they project 
that like no one cares energy 

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because they don't ask. 
So how could anyone care? 

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It's like, if you don't take the
initiative to ask, Or just say 

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what you need to say, then how 
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It's going to move this. 
Oh, no, yeah, but I think that a

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lot of people have They have the
expectation that somebody's just

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going to realize what it is that
they're needing and that if it's

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obvious to them, then it's 
obvious to other people and they

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just expect them to know it. 
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And I think it's just lack of 
accountability on being able to 

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achieve in fulfill like your own
needs because like closed mouth.

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Don't get that if you don't 
speak up and be heard or you 

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don't put your energy or 
intentions out there, then you 

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are just like Dust in the Wind. 
And like, no wonder you feel 

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overlooked or like a victim or 
something, you know, I just 

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think some people not, not 
anyone in particular just in 

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general when we don't say where 
our needs are they dumped get 

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Med which then makes us believe 
that's not a priority. 

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And that's where like I think 
like women especially in like 

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the 50s and the 60s and the 70s 
and all these times were really 

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convinced like that. 
You have to do certain things to

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be worthier to be Update or to 
be included and I think that you

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know, boundaries with your own 
self as important because you 

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know, there's things I do that. 
I don't want to do but the 

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boundary like you have to have 
like an active accountability 

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with yourself and boundaries 
with your lower self. 

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That's like, no, we'll do it 
tomorrow, we'll do it later. 

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The part of you that like wants 
to put it all for those like, 

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okay. 
Well, what's the gym going to do

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today? 
Whenever I'm already behind? 

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Like so many people think 
they're already behind and I 

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think, That's where like they 
don't put their needs first. 

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So they don't ask for what they 
need because they already feel 

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like they're be hunt. 
Yeah, so then it does end up 

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being a projection. 
And then just, I also really 

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don't like that because I'm your
friend and because I know you 

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you're very direct Communicator 
about things and you're like, 

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you're very clear on what your 
expectation is, but also giving 

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people the space to be able to 
say to you, like what they're 

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thinking and feeling. 
And so for people to say that 

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they didn't want to talk to you 
about something, Because they 

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thought that you would be upset 
or whatever. 

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I just think that that's pop 
out, that's that you just didn't

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want to do it and now it's being
projected on. 

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They wanted something different 
from you and I don't think that 

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it's your fault. 
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intimate, like, friendships and 
stuff, and I don't know if you 

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remember me mentioning, I think 
eight months ago me and I went 

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through a friend break up with a
girl that I've been friends with

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for like, 15 years. 
But remember she was like every 

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since you started reading tarot,
you think you're better than 

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people are you think you're 
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Or some shit. 
Was like a super projection and 

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she reached out to me on my 
birthday and said, Hey, happy 

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birthday. 
I just wanted you to know I've 

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been thinking about you. 
I was like yeah, I bet you 

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haven't thinking about me. 
I didn't even reply. 

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I just didn't do nothing. 
I just opened it. 

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She for me. 
Like I'm all about like if we've

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been hella close and like second
chance and like you say some 

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shit, but like, we talked it 
out, okay. 

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But just saying like I was 
thinking about you and then 

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doing it on a birthday. 
When, like last time we talked, 

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you said the fucked up shit, but
you're going to met I think it's

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selfish to and they have to 
insert themselves into that day,

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save it for a different time 
after the birthday and be like I

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was going to message you on your
birthday, but I didn't think the

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timing was right but I've just 
been thinking about you whatever

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really sorry for how things 
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Like whatever is something 
different other than like, yo, 

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what's up? 
Yeah, I don't know. 

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I just think that like lately, 
the more that I've been healing 

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in the more that I just know, 
who the fuck I I am I just don't

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let little situations with 
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Disrupt my flow like her, 
projecting that on me being like

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I feel like your videos are 
about me and that you're making 

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subliminal messages about me. 
And I'm like, if the shoe fits, 

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this is the first thing that I 
say is fucking weird that. 

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But for to, as a friend and ask 
someone that I had been friends 

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with, for like 15 fucking years.
Why would I go to the internet 

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and project some bullshit that I
could have just talked to you 

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about like, you know what I 
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Then just some of the 
compliments, not compliments, 

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some of the want to say, just 
bold-faced lies. 

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I guess that this girl had like 
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I was once a compromising 
things, like she says 

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compromising things, I've been 
thinking about you, but before I

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wasn't even a good friend. 
So like who is in your ear eight

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months ago, because clearly, it 
was someone, you know what I 

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mean? 
Like, clearly some didn't pan 

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out and now you see who has been
a real friend for you. 

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And I think that's where R. 
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accountability with ourselves 
because I feel like sometimes 

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when were not happy, we do 
project that on a people, we 

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know and care about. 
And yeah, I believe in second 

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chances but like to completely 
just project a bunch of your own

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trauma bullshit on to me, and 
then blame our friendship. 

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Now, I don't want to be your 
friend, I got, you know what I 

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mean? 
Like, you're the type of friend 

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that like, can't be trusted if 
you ever were really my friend 

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because it sounds like you were 
just benefit and from being my 

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friend, but then when those 
benefits were off because she 

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She, she had originally said, 
she felt like a, like a side 

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chick, but like a sad friend, 
that's what she said. 

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Whenever we went through our 
friend breakup, she was like, I 

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feel like I'm a side friend 
compared to and she named like a

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couple of different people that 
I don't even really hang out 

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with, for real. 
Like that's crazy because the 

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people she named at that time, I
was like frequently seeing those

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people but now like a year later
I don't see those people really.

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So it's kind of like, 
Fairweather friends or just 

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people that I was just around, 
she was getting all intervals. 

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And what it is is like when 
people don't want to do the work

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and they see you hanging out 
with people who are healing or 

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doing whatever work needs to be 
done around here. 

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Like, I don't know, it's just 
kind of, like, you can't pretend

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that, like, your environment 
doesn't affect what you do and 

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who you are. 
And I think that, like, when I 

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broke free of those old 
environments that me and her, 

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you staying Mount in. 
She didn't want to, she always 

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would want readings but like 
we've said before if you get a 

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reading and you don't do nothing
with that information, you're 

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wasting everyone's time. 
Especially when the readings are

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free because I wanted to help 
her. 

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So it just became like this 
never-ending cycle of like, what

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can you do for me? 
What can you do for me? 

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I recently like two days ago had
to just completely cut off my 

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grandma and not speak to her at 
all. 

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And hers is like a same like the
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She She had a heart attack, so 
we haven't talked for a few 

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months and the last time that we
had talked, she was like, I 

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found your Tick Tock. 
And I can't believe that you 

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work with the devil, and this 
goes against everything that I 

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believe in yada yada yada, not 
once in my entire life, this 

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woman ever mentioned religion at
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Like she's not like a crazy 
religious person whatever and I 

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was just like I was shocked but 
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months she had a heart attack 
and I reached out to her on 

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Mother's Day and I was like hey 
we may not talk very often or 

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whatever but I just wanted to 
tell you that I love you I hope 

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you're doing well and happy 
Mother's Day and she responds 

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and was like After my 
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the Lord has been so much 
stronger and the Deacon was cut 

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coming to my house every single 
week and giving me the 

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sacraments and I finally was the
glory of God, was able to get 

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out of my bed and start to use a
walker, and I get to go to 

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church, you know, I can drive 
myself to church now and she's 

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like and then she starts telling
me about details of her health 

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condition. 
And then she goes, I'm going to 

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be keeping you and your family 
in my prayers especially names, 

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my kids and especially them. 
And I'm praying to my Lord that 

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you see that you're freed of the
evil occult that has you under 

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its spell? 
God bless. 

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And then she names my kids again
and I and so. 

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And so I waited, I waited like, 
two hours. 

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And I was so classy with my 
response and I was just like 

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because like I just want to make
you feel like an asshole. 

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Like there's no reason and me 
like being in like a dick about 

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it but like I just want to make 
you feel like an asshole. 

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And I said that, I'm so glad 
that she's feeling better and 

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that. 
I'm glad they're her, Deacon is 

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able to support her on her 
journey and that, like she's 

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finding her like, physical 
healing. 

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And I And I support, whatever 
makes you happy, I said, but 

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please don't pray for my family 
and said, use those prayers so 

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that you can find a way to be 
less judgmental of other people 

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who don't think and believe the 
same things that you do. 

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I would never treat you the way 
that you are, treating me. 

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And I've never actually told you
about my spiritual beliefs. 

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I said, this will be the last 
time that I ever reach out 

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because you can't keep a full 
rudder. to yourself, and I 

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something else about like, 
supporting whatever she wants to

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do and that was how I left it 
and then I blocked her number 

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and I won't talk to her again. 
She'll die alone because I'm the

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only family that she has. 
What do you mean here? 

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They all she has. 
She has the only other family 

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that she has is one daughter who
will not speak to her. 

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Like she, I'm the only family 
that she has. 

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Well, I think deep down at the 
same time. 

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She's just miserable. 
So she's projecting onto you. 

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Yeah. 
It's a projection but generally 

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people security. 
Yeah. 

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And I just feel like, you know, 
there's a lot of excuses for 

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like it's that generation of 
people and I've done that for 

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her for a long time. 
I've been like, you're my Elder 

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and you know, you're my 
grandmother or whatever. 

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And I'm just like, that is like 
it. 

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If you treat people fucked up 
and you never grow, fuck that. 

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You know what I think is crazy, 
is a lot of people are old, and 

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they're set in their ways. 
And when they see younger people

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exploring themselves rather than
how they were, like, shut down 

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or disregarded or weren't 
allowed to explore their 

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beliefs. 
Like they were just told what to

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believe they were just like, 
okay, get married work, a job 

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till you die. 
Don't have any creative thought.

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And I think, like, with the 
internet and like, the 

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expression that Artistry, the 
things are emerging more and 

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more into the collective, is a 
lot of. 

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Like, in Revolutionary times, 
people, such as yourself are 

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free, thinkers are people that 
were like weird or or different 

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are actually the people that we 
study the most and that the 

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people like were mostly obsessed
with. 

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And even people who did bad 
things, like Charles Manson, 

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like people are so obsessed. 
How come it doesn't matter? 

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Like it could be a bad person, 
it could be a really great 

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person. 
It could be someone that was 

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just completely disregarded like
you know, Vincent van Gogh, you 

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know what I mean. 
They treated him like dirt, like

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all the way, you know what I 
mean? 

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So I just think that we look 
back in history. 

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A lot of what we see is this 
trend of like, shut down 

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people's creativity. 
Shut down their uniqueness like 

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don't accept people, don't don't
support, people don't Understand

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people. 
So then they, they also grow 

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with this. 
Bitterness inside of them, are 

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this hatred inside of them, 
which is then projected onto 

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their kids, or their grandkids, 
or fucking co-workers, or 

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whoever wherever. 
And I just think, at the end of 

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the day, that's such a trend 
that if you're listening, you 

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have such a moral obligation to 
learn deeply about yourself. 

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Because when you learn deeply 
about yourself, you don't reject

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other people period. 
You let Let other people be 

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themselves because then you're 
in the most powerful version of 

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yourself and that version, you 
will not give a fuck. 

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Absolutely. 
Amen to page. 

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Everyone wants to talk to me 
right now and I'm like, put my 

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phone on airplane mode and it's 
still ringing somewhere. 

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It's still ringing. 
It's probably mom had, I don't 

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know. 
Another thing I'll say about 

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your grandma is I would just 
send her love and just be like, 

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you know what? 
Just send her a little love. 

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Just she needs it. 
She needs it. 

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I know that things. 
I'm not, I'm not, I don't have 

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like bad feelings toward return,
like II, I think it's it's not 

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something I'm losing sleep over,
like I find it funny that 

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somebody is says that, but at 
the same time, like I don't need

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somebody who doesn't like me, 
and when I'm wishing them, happy

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Mother's Day. 
And I'm talking to that, like 

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wishing them, well, after they 
almost just died of a heart 

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attack and that didn't even even
a death experience. 

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Didn't change their fucking 
shit. 

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I then, why am I going to talk 
to you if every time I speak to 

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you, It's an insult. 
Go fuck yourself. 

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I don't want it at that, though.
I agree with that. 

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Like if you don't got anything 
nice to say then shut the fuck 

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up. 
That's all. 

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I gotta say. 
And another thing if you're just

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going to log don't even speak, 
don't talk. 

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Because, so many people, they 
just be talking to talk and it's

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like it gets out of hand. 
How manipulative people are? 

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And that's why I like, I'm 
really happy that I just decided

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once again to not even think 
about dating because that was 

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such a traumatic experience. 
It's for like six months. 

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I was being directly traumatized
by every person that could and I

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still haven't gotten over that 
one guy who matched with me on a

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Wednesday on Thursday. 
This girl message me on Facebook

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talking about, he'll clean his 
underwear tej, but then 24 hours

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is ex-girlfriend has found thee.
And what's even weirder about 

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that is his ex-girlfriend's hot,
and I try to slide on her like 

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three months ago, like a nerdy 
em. 

446
00:27:35,300 --> 00:27:37,100
Something about. 
Oh my God, you're so pretty. 

447
00:27:37,700 --> 00:27:42,000
We should hang out and I wasn't 
talking just as friends and then

448
00:27:42,000 --> 00:27:44,700
this crusty. 
Bitch comes over here, talking 

449
00:27:44,700 --> 00:27:46,900
about. 
He don't like his ass he's got 

450
00:27:46,900 --> 00:27:48,900
Duty stains in his underwear 
with. 

451
00:27:51,900 --> 00:27:54,000
Oh God, that's good. 
Looking out though. 

452
00:27:54,000 --> 00:27:56,800
Like listen, I would want to be 
her friend, I would be like, 

453
00:27:56,800 --> 00:27:58,900
that is like thank you for 
telling me. 

454
00:27:58,900 --> 00:28:01,300
Thank you for looking out. 
She didn't have to say anything,

455
00:28:01,300 --> 00:28:03,700
she could have let you get with 
his low poopy butt and you know 

456
00:28:03,700 --> 00:28:06,300
what's wrong? 
Then she being me and was like, 

457
00:28:06,300 --> 00:28:07,900
don't even worry about talking. 
Him. 

458
00:28:07,900 --> 00:28:10,700
He's at my house right now and I
had to walk both of them. 

459
00:28:10,700 --> 00:28:12,200
Okay. 
Yeah. 

460
00:28:12,400 --> 00:28:15,900
After he told me he don't like 
this but he was at her house. 

461
00:28:18,000 --> 00:28:19,400
Talking about. 
We're going to have a kid. 

462
00:28:20,200 --> 00:28:21,800
Yeah, I know it gets deeper than
that. 

463
00:28:21,800 --> 00:28:24,400
I mean, I was just the, that 
was, you know, we're gonna have 

464
00:28:24,400 --> 00:28:26,900
a kid together. 
That's what she was saying. 

465
00:28:26,900 --> 00:28:28,400
That's why I knew this bitch was
crazy. 

466
00:28:28,400 --> 00:28:31,000
She wanted me to think he had 
poopy butt so I wouldn't talk to

467
00:28:31,000 --> 00:28:33,400
him. 
Which after all this fuckery, I 

468
00:28:33,400 --> 00:28:36,500
wasn't going to talk to him. 
What was weird for me is that he

469
00:28:36,500 --> 00:28:39,600
found me on Facebook. 
After we meshed on a dating app.

470
00:28:39,700 --> 00:28:42,700
Had found me on Facebook and I 
was like, Dude, Looks oddly 

471
00:28:42,700 --> 00:28:44,700
familiar. 
And we have like 80 mutual 

472
00:28:44,700 --> 00:28:49,700
friends and then it was him. 
Saul's gross. 

473
00:28:49,800 --> 00:28:51,700
Yo I got to go get my kids from 
school. 

474
00:28:52,600 --> 00:28:56,300
All right Wally Papp has 
concluded Jim and I have 

475
00:28:56,300 --> 00:29:03,200
suggested I've got to be mom. 
We love you and our next full 

476
00:29:03,200 --> 00:29:09,200
moon circle is on June 2nd. 
I'll be there. 

477
00:29:09,900 --> 00:29:11,200
I mean obviously. 
But I'll be there. 

478
00:29:11,600 --> 00:29:12,700
I'll be there. 
I'll be there. 

479
00:29:12,700 --> 00:29:14,100
I'll see you there. 
Bye, y'all. 

480
00:29:14,900 --> 00:29:15,300
I