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Welcome to fucking Candy Land. 
Hosted by Rampage and Gemini. 

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Yippee Kaye motherfuckers. 
Welcome back to Candyland. 

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I love that it is now fall time.
I feel like the inner witch in 

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me feels so aligned in this 
frequency. 

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And let's just say we are 
partnering with a brand right 

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now who's going to be providing 
a lot of witchy tools, candles, 

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ritual oils for our monthly 
spell work on our Patreons. 

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As well As for our private 
clients. 

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And let me just tell you, I 
ordered my first package and she

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sent a bunch of amazing things. 
This is the Satanic Satanic 

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Witch and her candles are so 
strong that I didn't realize 

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that I was lighting a ritual 
devour me Love candle on the 

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first day of Libra season. 
As a Libra moon, I almost burned

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my house down and I have never 
felt so scared. 

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I literally got on Amazon in 
order to fire extinguisher right

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after that. 
She's like, I think I'm going to

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be using a cauldron outside and 
just sitting outside to burn the

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candles. 
So yeah, her name is Brittany. 

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She's the Satanic witch AZ 
because she's in Arizona. 

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I thought it was Witch As, so I 
kept calling her Witch As and I 

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thought it was like a cute way 
to like say ass on TikTok. 

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It's not. 
I found her because she when I 

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started doing the witchcraft 
boxes, she sent me this gigantic

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PR package full of a bunch of 
different items from her shop. 

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It had candles and all kinds of 
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And what stuck out to me is I've
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as beautiful as she makes 
candles. 

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She packs so many herbs and 
things on these candles, like, 

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they're so beautifully dressed. 
And I know that she sent Polly 

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this huge protection candle and 
she signed her letter Polly. 

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And I was like, listen, if it 
was anybody else using my 

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nickname for you, I would be 
like, that's my bitch, please 

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fuck off. 
But it was her and I was like, 

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it just makes so much sense that
you would call her Polly. 

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This is so cute. 
Honestly, I ordered one of her 

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mystery boxes you all. 
On her website she has the 

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mystery box and she does like 
small, medium and large mystery 

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boxes as well as has like so 
many options. 

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She sent me a souped up package 
like I dropped quite a bit of 

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money on her website and I swear
she doubled that in product. 

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She was like, OK, checkmate, 
here's double what you ordered 

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and. 
I'm actually working on some 

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clients spell work right now and
I used her new peacefully 

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protected oil which I cannot 
wait to incorporate into my 

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rituals. 
But let me tell you all, I lit 

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one of her candles last night 
and it was all fun and games 

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until it became a hot molten 
like herb mess and it almost 

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caught my house on fire. 
Like I think when the smoke 

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detectors started going off, 
that's when I was like. 

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Okay, we're going to have a 
fire. 

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And I was so scared. 
I literally burned hair off of 

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my arms. 
Like it wasn't okay. 

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Like it was scary, she said. 
Polly sent us this group text 

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cuz we're in a group chat and 
she's like, I burnt the hair off

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my arm and I said spirits really
trying to burn that intention 

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into your DNA. 
Honestly, I have a cauldron and 

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I'm going to. 
So further notice do all of her 

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ritual candles outside with a 
fire extinguisher on fucking 

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deck because I have never in my 
life seen a candle go from like 

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100 to 10,000 in less than 3 
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It was like I was taking a video
and the next thing you know, it 

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was nuts. 
That's so fucking funny to me. 

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I just think of the meme where 
it's like, but did you die? 

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Honestly, I'll just say that 
that already works like it's 

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already working. 
As soon as it finished there, 

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there was already signs and 
remnants that it was already 

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working. 
And I just think it's so crazy 

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that I chose to use it on like 
the first day of Libra season as

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well as like the fall Equinox 
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So it was just super aligned. 
I personally cannot wait to use 

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her wax melts because I think 
they're going to be much safer. 

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But they definitely have a bunch
of herbs in there, and I'll just

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be honest, if anybody goes to 
her, her shop, the Satanic Witch

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AZ, check out her ritual 
candles. 

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And she also teaches a class 
where you can download a video 

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where she will teach you how to 
dress candles like her. 

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But let me tell you, it's super 
tedious and ain't nobody going 

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to do it like her because it was
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Phenomenal. 
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I'm so excited to get items from
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We're going to be getting a 
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going to put together for us 
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incorporating into the monthly 
spell workings that we're doing 

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on our Patreon. 
Like Polly said, I'm so excited 

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about it. 
Yes, so for those that are just 

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catching on, we have spell work 
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Mine is called Magical 
Enchantment. 

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Yours is the magician. 
And on those tiers, you're going

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to get to work with both of us, 
regardless who you sign up with.

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So you're getting 4 spells every
month, you're getting 2 personal

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spells of your choice, and then 
you get two group spells that 

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the group collective kind of 
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puts information out there, and 
we kind of decide what we're 

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going to do. 
So for this month and this 

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cycle. 
Gemini is doing a psychic 

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activation and I'm doing a money
and abundance working and we're 

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really excited because what 
Brittany is going to do for us 

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is we're going to let her know 
the types of tools and things 

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that we would benefit from in 
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So the more people who join, the
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But it's really amazing because 
there's like a small Facebook 

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chat where we do the group work 
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People are in there making 
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They're and they're sharing 
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And what's really cool about it 
is we understand that it's 

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probably not financially a thing
for everybody to be signed up on

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both of our Patreons. 
So I've had people, you know, 

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cancel mine and move to Geminis 
and vice versa, but you're 

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getting to work with both of us 
and it comes with a reading, 

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downloads from the spell, 
pictures, cards, and all of that

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good stuff. 
I fucking love that and we talk 

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about it all the time but just 
like our no competition energy 

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and I was just giving a reading 
to somebody the other day who is

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on both of our Patreons. 
But she was like I'm thinking 

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about joining the spell work 
thing. 

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I don't know like which one of 
your Patreons I'm going to join.

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Whatever. 
And I was like join either one. 

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Like it doesn't matter like 
you're going to get the spell 

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working with both of us like you
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And I just think that it is so 
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I'm never concerned about like, 
oh, this person had to cancel 

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pages to join mine or when 
somebody's like, hey, I'm going 

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to cancel over here, I want to 
spend a month with Paige and 

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like, get readings with her or 
whatever. 

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There's never anything. 
I just love how we SWIP, swap 

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things. 
And there's just what What is it

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that you said? 
You're the coach, but I'm the 

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the VIP player. 
Start player, baby. 

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That's how I feel about it. 
I'm like, I don't give a fuck. 

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Like it energetically benefits 
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It all comes back around. 
The more money Polly makes, the 

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better gifts I get. 
So join with her. 

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You know, and the thing about 
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people outgrow certain things 
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So it's like you may. 
Be on one level and you're 

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getting readings every month, 
and then you may move to the 

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spell work level, then you may 
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and then you may downgrade to 
the very bottom level where 

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you're not getting any of that. 
And that's cool. 

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Like, we understand that you 
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your life and maybe Patreon 
isn't something that's at the 

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top of that list when you have 
to factor in like food and 

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shelter and transportation and 
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So we never take it personal 
when you cancel. 

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And switch or downgrade or 
anything like that. 

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It's never a thing where I look 
every month and like, oh, this 

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person canceled. 
I'm going to delete them on 

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Facebook. 
Like, I don't care if you cancel

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or downgrade. 
Like, I understand that it's a 

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luxury to be able to have 
spiritual guidance and 

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mentorship like that is a 
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But if you make it a priority, 
the universe returns that 

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abundance to you. 
There's never a person that I've

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worked with extensively that 
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Receiving abundance and other 
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Like I have a girl that's been 
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mentorship for over six months 
and she literally loves it so 

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much it restarted yesterday and 
she said great, I can't wait for

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a new cycle. 
So it's like, you know, some 

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people really look forward to it
and make that a priority and in 

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other ways the universe has 
rewarded her or kind of returned

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that abundance. 
But the thing about like healing

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and wisdom and love, you can't 
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That's the shit that people work
their whole life and still can't

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obtain because they're not 
loving and investing in 

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themselves. 
You're never going to have a 

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partner or a connection or even 
a business partner that will 

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invest in you like yourself. 
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want to encourage people, 
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arena. 
I don't want you to need me 

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forever. 
I want you to be able to take 

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what we've taught you, take what
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your own personal life and go 
out there and fly or fail or, 

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you know, crash and burn 
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But at the same time, it's like 
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try and you constantly are 
depending on other people to 

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speak for you. 
You're not getting the full 

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scope. 
So the thing with Patreon and 

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the things with like readings 
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waves and that is 
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I go in waves with practitioners
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I may invest in someone in their
services for six months and then

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need to take a step back. 
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towards them. 
It's just that I understand a 

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revolving charge sometimes has 
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I love when people are 
investing, and I know that you 

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get this too, when people are 
investing in things and then 

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they're like, damn, I've been 
getting like money and abundance

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and in all of these different 
ways that they hadn't before, 

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they didn't realize that they 
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And it's that energy of 
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Like when you are investing in 
yourself, you are shifting your 

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energy and not investing in 
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Like, I'm going to go and buy 
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morning because, like, Mama 
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But like when you're spiritually
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that money and energy always 
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And for me personally, and for 
what I've seen on my Patreon 

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with people that are investing 
too, Like I've had people that 

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were stressed about signing up 
that were like, I feel like I 

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need to do this. 
And then message me two days 

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later and they're like, holy 
fuck, I got this random check in

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the mail that I wasn't 
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Like, it was exactly that I had.
Somebody got a check in the 

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mail, and it was for twice the 
amount that she had paid to join

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Patreon, but she wasn't 
expecting that money to come in.

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It was a check from a settlement
that she didn't know even know 

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she had. 
You know what's crazy? 

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I was a part of this class and 
we were doing a visualization 

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exercise about visualizing a 
$500 check. 

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Like a specific number. 
And I want to encourage everyone

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to like use visualization to 
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Because during this container 
that I was a part of it, I think

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it was like 6 weeks and that 
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or something, like it wasn't a 
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So I was doing the visualization
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I wasn't really invested that 
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I just wanted to support the 
person hosting. 

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So I did the visualization 
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Next thing you know, I get a 
$583 check for overpaying on my 

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escrow on my house payment. 
And I'll just be honest, like, I

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don't recall overpaying. 
I don't recall paying extra on 

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escrow specifically, so it was 
really a strange way to receive 

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that money. 
It was technically my money. 

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Technically, money that I had 
already paid, but like, I could 

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not recall any area of that year
that I had overpaid on escrow. 

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Because normally if you overpay,
they apply it, you know, to a 

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principal balance. 
But the fact that it went into 

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the escrow and there's only a 
certain amount that can be in 

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your escrow, they refunded it to
me, which was so strange. 

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But visualization, especially if
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visual learner, is one of the. 
Almost like abundant ways and 

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potent ways to connect with that
frequency. 

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Like imagining yourself in your 
dream car or in that big bathtub

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rather than getting in your 
bathtub and thinking like this 

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is so small, this sucks. 
Imagine that the water is 

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covering all the way up to your 
neck and then it's just like 

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luscious and hot. 
And you know, just that 

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frequency of visualization does 
bring things into your life that

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otherwise. 
Your mind can't resonate with, 

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and sometimes people will say, 
like, oh, that's a little 

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delusional or whatever, But 
imagining things to be the way 

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you want to be actually brings 
it closer to you. 

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And I've been told that, like, 
when something has been 

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introduced into your reality, 
that is when it's actually 

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available to you. 
Like if you see your dream car 

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out on the road or you see 
someone you know. 

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Purchased a home or had a child 
or whatever. 

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If those are things you want, 
it's being introduced into your 

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reality so that you can try to 
embody and match that same 

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frequency. 
I would like to tell you though,

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that it doesn't matter how much 
visualization and manifestation 

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that you do, if you got a 
crusty, musty, funky ass dude, 

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you cannot hope and pray and 
meditate and manifest the funky 

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crustiness away and for him to 
be a different person. 

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Homies always going to be funky 
crusty if they treat you bad and

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you sit there envisioning them 
treating you nicely and then 

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being different. 
It's not going to happen. 

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They're still going to be the 
same bum ass broke ass 

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inconsiderate fucking tool. 
And I just feel that I need to 

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give that service announcement. 
The thing about manifestation is

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you got to put that work in and 
you got to put the things into 

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motion. 
But you do have to embody the 

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frequency. 
If you're not embodying that 

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frequency and you don't feel 
like it's possible for you, then

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it's not going to be possible. 
I mean, yeah, but on the 

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precipice of trying to change 
people by sitting here and 

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hoping and wishing and and 
praying that they're going to be

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different. 
It doesn't matter what fucking 

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energy frequency you ride. 
You're going to need to find a 

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new energy frequency. 
And I know that I'll be sitting 

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by, Listen, we've all had those 
people that, like, vent their 

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relationships to us and say the 
most crazy ass shit. 

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Like, he pushed me in front of a
bus and you're like, oh, but 

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it's five years later and you 
guys are still together and 

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you're posting how amazing this 
is. 

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But then, you know, those 
Facebook rants were like, 

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they'll be like, I've never 
loved somebody more in my entire

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life, my baby. 
And then the next post that you 

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get is, this is it, We're 
breaking up. 

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He tried to push me in front of 
bus again. 

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Those types of relationships, 
it's just never going to work 

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out. 
You can't manifest that away. 

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Well, I think that everyone just
needs to understand that free 

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will is the most important thing
that makes us human. 

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We have free will. 
You can know what the right 

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choices and still choose to do 
the opposite you can. 

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You know, bet on a a person. 
Yeah, a person, a place, a job, 

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a thing. 
And that doesn't mean that that 

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job is going to work out for 
you. 

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It doesn't mean that that person
and you are meant to be 

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together. 
I think that if more people just

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lived in the moment and saw 
everything as a fleeting 

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experience, like everything in 
our life is very fleeting. 

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Whether it's your youth, your 
health, your you know, passion 

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towards something, your love 
towards someone. 

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Everything is super fleeting and
if we could just take a moment 

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to soak in the energy and to 
really enjoy it, you would have 

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more moments of pleasure and 
excitement and enjoyment. 

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But I think that so many people 
are so focused on the future or 

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on the past that they're never 
really in the moment and. 

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They want to change people, but 
they're not doing the work to 

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change themselves. 
Because when you become aligned 

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in your own frequency, you 
realize that changing people 

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isn't really the goal. 
What you want is to be the best 

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version of yourself, to love 
yourself and to teach other 

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people how to treat you. 
But you have to be willing to 

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have those difficult 
conversations and to set 

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boundaries when it's not fun. 
But a lot of people. 

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Let things go under the rug for 
years and then wonder why this 

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person won't change. 
Or wonder why you're not getting

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anywhere with this person. 
You knew what you signed up for 

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three years ago or five years 
ago, and my favorite is when 

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people dated a person in high 
school and treated them like 

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shit. 
Cheated on them, went to parties

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every weekend, left them at 
home, talked mad shit to them. 

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And then I see y'all. 
We've been out of high school 

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since, you know, 2010. 
Now I see y'all 13 years later 

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having kids and marrying these 
people. 

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And that's fine, That's all good
and dandy. 

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But like you used to dog walk 
that person, girls and guys. 

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It's not just the guys, it was 
the girls too. 

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But now that you're you're set 
in your ways and no one really 

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wants to deal with your shit 
because you're in unhealed 

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trauma and projection. 
You've settled. 

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With the familiar person, with 
the the bond that you say is 

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unbreakable, but you used to be 
riding down the street doing the

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most, and I just find it so 
comical that those are the 

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people you all want to raise 
your kids with. 

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Oh God, yeah. 
And like there are some 

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situations, right, where like 
the people change after high 

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school and like they learn their
toxic behaviors and they start 

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to treat their person better. 
But for me personally, that has 

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been very rare that I have seen 
that and maybe it's like small 

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town mentality. 
I don't know. 

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I know that, like, I grew up in 
a small town and everybody just 

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kind of dated each other. 
I don't know anybody that was 

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like fucking their cousin, so 
that's cool. 

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We weren't that small, but 
everybody was just like dating 

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each other and doing the most. 
And it seems like there are a 

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lot of people who are still 
together that were together with

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each other in high school and 
okay. 

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So story time for you. 
I told you a little bit about 

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this but there were these in the
town that I grew up in. 

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There were these twin boys. 
I'm not going to call them out 

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by name but they were like 
blonde hair blue wide like 

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whatever. 
And and girls used to have 

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crushes on them and at one point
I think like some group of girls

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like made a fan club about them 
or some shit. 

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But one of these guys was like, 
always fucking being, just being

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a player. 
And everybody knew about it. 

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But any girl that, like, he 
wanted to get with was like, Oh 

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yeah, like totally into him. 
Like totally down. 

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And he ended up getting this 
girlfriend that he would cheat 

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on all the time and everybody 
would be like, hey, like he 

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cheats on you and she's like, 
no, he doesn't like, that's the 

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love of my life, Whatever. 
She ended up getting pregnant in

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high school. 
He cheated on her while she was 

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pregnant and everybody would be 
like, he's cheating on you. 

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And she's like, no, he's not. 
And now he's become a cop. 

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They're married and now they're 
not going to be together because

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she found out that he keeps on 
cheating on her. 

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Well, no fucking shit. 
The pattern just repeats itself.

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But people are just like, I 
don't. 

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I don't know if it's that people
don't think that they can do 

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better. 
I don't know if it's that people

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are really good at being 
manipulated, but I've always 

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been one of those people where 
let me know that they're 

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cheating on me and I will just 
peace the fuck out. 

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Honestly, I don't understand 
people's mentality wasting their

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most youthful and bright, like 
bright and vibrant years. 

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With somebody's dusty sun and I 
just don't have time for that. 

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Like I would rather be set in my
ways and be firm in my 

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boundaries and reduce the dating
pool from 100 to 5. 

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Then literally settle with 
someone who treats me like shit.

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Or so many people for instance 
on Facebook that are in that are

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we dating the same guy group? 
There are people that I 

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personally know that just had 
children with these men who are 

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being posted who are on dating 
apps. 

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One girl posted her her 
boyfriend and said we've been 

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fighting and now he's back on 
dating apps. 

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I confronted him about it and he
admitted it. 

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What? 
Like that's where we break up. 

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That's where you go be single, 
bro. 

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Couldn't be me. 
Yeah, you're wasting all your 

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orgy years on these, like, 
controlled monogamy 

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relationships. 
You could be out there getting 

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your cheeks slapped, but you're 
out here getting your heart 

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broke. 
I'm not the same. 

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Favorite thing that happens with
people who are avid cheaters is 

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they just claim that they're 
polyamorous and they will be out

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trying to, you know, get with 
other people and saying, oh, my 

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wife or my husband is fine with 
it, we're polyamorous. 

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And I've saw a lot of instances 
in that group which. 

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I use it as entertainment 
because I'm not talking to 

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nobody and there ain't nobody 
that's going to be posted on 

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there that I would be shocked to
see on there. 

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So when I see people that have 
like over 50 to 100 comments on 

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their picture or their post, I 
always go read. 

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And there are just so many men 
who literally are so dusty, do 

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not floss their teeth. 
Probably barely washed their ass

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and they're talking. 
He left my house and went over 

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her house and he's doing this 
and XYZ is happening and I just 

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don't know what to do about it. 
I don't even know where I'm 

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going with it. 
And it's like, I know what you 

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should do. 
You should call off the wedding.

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Oh my God. 
I just, I like, I don't know if 

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these people need better 
friends. 

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Because if I'm your friend and 
you're doing that, I'm going to 

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be like, baby girl, we need we 
need to figure this out. 

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I'm on my way now. 
We're packing your shit like, 

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absolute. 
I would drive my ass to Kentucky

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if you were with some crusty, 
musty fucking dude that was out 

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here not brushing his teeth, let
alone out here putting that 

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unbrushed tongue in other 
people's mouths. 

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I saw this post and it said This
is why your pH balance is off. 

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And it was like this. 
Somebody zoomed in on some guy's

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mouth. 
I don't know who it was but I'm 

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like like my hygiene is too top 
tier to settle with somebody who

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doesn't have good hygiene. 
And I'm not judging people. 

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I am setting boundaries with the
world and the universe. 

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I will not settle with people 
who do not take care of their 

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dental hygiene and their body 
hygiene. 

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I am judging you. 
I am judging you. 

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And if you are going to try and 
have your pole anywhere near 

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Polly, I swear to fucking God 
I'm judging you even harder. 

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You are under a microscope in a 
Petri dish, bitch. 

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I am judging you. 
I just don't get it. 

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And I think it is how people 
they get in these comfort zones 

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and even though it's not how 
they want it to be, it's really 

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not top tier. 
There isn't a lot of 

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communication or understanding 
in their connection, but they 

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don't want to go build or start 
fresh or start over with someone

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else. 
That's it. 

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I feel like also though, that's 
like a trauma thing too, of 

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thinking that you're not going 
to like some type of an 

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abandonment issue where you're 
concerned that you're just going

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to forever be alone or that 
you're concerned that you're 

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going to hurt somebody and cause
them like deep emotional pain. 

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If you do something for yourself
and you get out of situations 

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and it's never your 
responsibility for you to stay, 

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to make somebody else happy in 
something, and you are always 

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going to be able to find 
happiness for yourself. 

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It may not be a I think that a 
lot of people are just so 

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codependent on having a 
relationship that they're so 

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nervous that, well, I may not 
find another relationship. 

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Well, is it worth you to have a 
relationship with somebody's 

448
00:27:11,850 --> 00:27:15,930
fuzzy tongue, or for you to be 
single out here doing your own 

449
00:27:15,930 --> 00:27:18,290
thing with your flourishing pH 
balance? 

450
00:27:19,810 --> 00:27:24,740
I just know that. 
Celibacy and that journey for me

451
00:27:24,740 --> 00:27:29,340
has really helped me realize my 
own self worth and my own 

452
00:27:29,340 --> 00:27:33,900
confidence in myself. 
My self worth is not based on 

453
00:27:33,900 --> 00:27:39,860
other people's love towards me 
or appreciation towards me, and 

454
00:27:39,860 --> 00:27:44,780
my lack of self worth is not 
based on anybody's opinions or 

455
00:27:44,780 --> 00:27:47,540
whatever. 
It's like I really took my power

456
00:27:47,540 --> 00:27:51,620
back from the opposite sex and 
just from the paradigm of. 

457
00:27:52,120 --> 00:27:56,400
People needing someone I 
personally would love to be 

458
00:27:56,400 --> 00:27:58,080
with. 
Someone that I can thrive with. 

459
00:27:58,320 --> 00:28:01,920
Someone that wants to have their
own thing going, their own 

460
00:28:01,920 --> 00:28:05,200
friends, their own hobbies, 
their own goals. 

461
00:28:05,440 --> 00:28:08,440
But then also someone that I 
could build with on a mutual 

462
00:28:08,440 --> 00:28:11,040
understanding. 
But a lot of y'all have your 

463
00:28:11,040 --> 00:28:14,040
priorities all the way fucked up
and you're not going to drag me 

464
00:28:14,040 --> 00:28:20,210
through the mud because you're 
caught up on bullshit, can I? 

465
00:28:20,210 --> 00:28:23,370
It's just, I mean it's kind of 
on topic, but also not. 

466
00:28:24,250 --> 00:28:27,650
I just think it's real fucking 
strange when people talk about 

467
00:28:27,650 --> 00:28:31,250
how independent their partners 
are and what entrepreneurs they 

468
00:28:31,250 --> 00:28:34,770
are, but they only have business
because their partner has 

469
00:28:34,770 --> 00:28:37,090
notoriety. 
And so they shout them out on 

470
00:28:37,090 --> 00:28:39,890
social media all the time and go
beg you to go and support their 

471
00:28:39,890 --> 00:28:43,890
partner, but then talk about how
independent their partner is out

472
00:28:43,890 --> 00:28:48,160
in these streets And you know, 
business savvy like no baby, 

473
00:28:48,680 --> 00:28:50,960
they're only making money 
because you're using your whole 

474
00:28:50,960 --> 00:28:54,440
platform to shout them out and 
you work hard on your grind, but

475
00:28:54,440 --> 00:28:56,360
nobody knows who the fuck that 
is. 

476
00:28:57,120 --> 00:29:00,640
And the ones that are like, 
yeah, one day my partner will be

477
00:29:00,640 --> 00:29:03,360
the breadwinner and I'll just 
lay back. 

478
00:29:03,360 --> 00:29:06,720
And if you ever see me take my 
foot off the gas, it's because 

479
00:29:06,720 --> 00:29:09,800
my partner's providing. 
Boy, shut up. 

480
00:29:10,620 --> 00:29:12,220
Shut up. 
That ain't even happening. 

481
00:29:12,220 --> 00:29:15,860
That will never happen. 
And I personally think that 

482
00:29:15,860 --> 00:29:20,780
people need to keep their 
personal life out of their 

483
00:29:20,780 --> 00:29:24,060
business. 
Like I know a local tattoo 

484
00:29:24,060 --> 00:29:29,020
artist here and she's a female, 
won't drop any names, but she 

485
00:29:29,020 --> 00:29:32,860
constantly talks about her 
boyfriend's Dick on her main 

486
00:29:32,860 --> 00:29:36,580
page and I'm talking like 1 
minutes, like bookings are open.

487
00:29:36,740 --> 00:29:39,580
Next thing it's like good Dick 
all in my tummy. 

488
00:29:40,420 --> 00:29:43,060
What? 
I don't need to hear that, but 

489
00:29:43,380 --> 00:29:45,340
it's it's a daily thing with 
her. 

490
00:29:45,540 --> 00:29:48,140
She'll even be on there talking 
about custody battles. 

491
00:29:48,460 --> 00:29:51,500
She'll be on there talking about
he's such a good dad to my 

492
00:29:51,500 --> 00:29:53,820
daughter. 
It's like the 4th dude you've 

493
00:29:53,820 --> 00:29:58,580
said that about and I'm not. 
I'm not a hater, but I just got 

494
00:29:58,580 --> 00:30:01,620
to say that if that was my 
friend I would have to set that 

495
00:30:01,620 --> 00:30:04,540
bitch down and be like, look 
girl, you can make a personal 

496
00:30:04,540 --> 00:30:09,510
page and you can post. 
This energy over there, but you 

497
00:30:09,510 --> 00:30:12,070
don't need to do that on the 
page that you're trying to work 

498
00:30:12,070 --> 00:30:15,830
off of that. 
It has to be a lack of people 

499
00:30:15,830 --> 00:30:19,910
having, like, I'm just convinced
that the root thing of all of 

500
00:30:19,910 --> 00:30:23,790
this is that people don't have 
solid friendships around them 

501
00:30:23,790 --> 00:30:27,870
with people being like, yo, this
is not a fucking thing. 

502
00:30:28,110 --> 00:30:33,430
Because absolutely, If I, if you
ever see me post good Dick all 

503
00:30:33,430 --> 00:30:37,750
in my tummy, Take Me Out of my 
home because I need to be locked

504
00:30:37,750 --> 00:30:38,790
up. 
Something has happened. 

505
00:30:38,950 --> 00:30:42,790
I need a lobotomy. 
I just don't understand the 

506
00:30:42,830 --> 00:30:47,310
outside validation that people 
seek for their own relations. 

507
00:30:47,310 --> 00:30:48,990
What is what? 
Are somebody OK? 

508
00:30:49,270 --> 00:30:54,830
What is the reaction that she's 
hoping people comment like, Oh 

509
00:30:54,830 --> 00:30:57,670
my God, so jealous. 
Need me a Dick in my belly? 

510
00:30:57,670 --> 00:31:03,420
Like, what is what is the 
comment that you are hoping to 

511
00:31:03,420 --> 00:31:04,140
receive? 
Is it? 

512
00:31:04,580 --> 00:31:07,020
I bet you. 
I guarantee you it's that Homie 

513
00:31:07,020 --> 00:31:10,220
has his Dick in everybody's 
belly buttons and that is why 

514
00:31:10,220 --> 00:31:13,420
she's got to post it publicly so
that people are like, Oh my God,

515
00:31:13,620 --> 00:31:18,700
he's giving it to her and I. 
Don't understand why people are 

516
00:31:18,700 --> 00:31:23,700
constantly seeking outside 
validation for their toxic ass 

517
00:31:23,700 --> 00:31:27,140
relationships. 
Like look at us, we got this. 

518
00:31:27,140 --> 00:31:28,380
Look at this. 
Look at that. 

519
00:31:28,380 --> 00:31:30,250
Like. 
Nobody gives a fuck. 

520
00:31:30,250 --> 00:31:34,370
It's the people whose husbands 
buy them the big ass houses that

521
00:31:34,370 --> 00:31:36,330
they're actually cheating on 
them. 

522
00:31:36,610 --> 00:31:40,610
Like just for instance, someone 
in my family I won't name drop, 

523
00:31:41,050 --> 00:31:45,770
but someone in my family was 
cheating and the person put a 

524
00:31:45,770 --> 00:31:49,930
tracker on their car come to 
find out they had been cheating 

525
00:31:49,930 --> 00:31:53,850
with another married person and 
it had been spanning over the 

526
00:31:53,850 --> 00:31:57,590
last 10 years. 
But yeah, you got the nice house

527
00:31:57,590 --> 00:32:01,670
and the nice car and don't work 
and they provide all this for 

528
00:32:01,670 --> 00:32:03,790
you. 
But now they're leaving your ass

529
00:32:03,790 --> 00:32:06,710
high and dry after you've 
already wasted all of your 

530
00:32:06,710 --> 00:32:10,310
youth, all of your twenties, 30s
and 40s with this person. 

531
00:32:10,550 --> 00:32:13,030
Now you're in your 50s and 
you're getting a divorce from 

532
00:32:13,030 --> 00:32:17,340
your person and. 
Where does that leave you? 

533
00:32:17,580 --> 00:32:19,340
You know, like, where is that 
going to leave you? 

534
00:32:19,340 --> 00:32:22,460
And it's like, you can't tell me
that the red flags were not 

535
00:32:22,460 --> 00:32:24,460
there. 
You can't tell me that the red 

536
00:32:24,460 --> 00:32:28,220
flags were not showing up over 
the course of 10 years, to the 

537
00:32:28,220 --> 00:32:32,140
point where you ordered a 
tracker off Timu or wherever and

538
00:32:32,140 --> 00:32:36,220
put it in their car. 
Like you didn't just do that on 

539
00:32:36,220 --> 00:32:38,580
a hunch. 
You knew something was popping 

540
00:32:38,580 --> 00:32:40,340
for 10 years, but you liked 
your. 

541
00:32:40,880 --> 00:32:43,160
Your notoriety. 
You like your nice house and 

542
00:32:43,160 --> 00:32:46,440
you're in all these things. 
But The thing is, is I would 

543
00:32:46,440 --> 00:32:51,880
much rather be with someone 
who's honest and who just holds 

544
00:32:51,880 --> 00:32:54,720
down their shit but doesn't 
promise me the world if they 

545
00:32:54,720 --> 00:32:56,640
don't even have a grip on their 
own world. 

546
00:32:57,070 --> 00:32:59,950
You know, that's what frustrates
me, is people are always 

547
00:32:59,950 --> 00:33:02,150
wondering what other people are 
going to do for them. 

548
00:33:02,310 --> 00:33:05,590
But what do you do for yourself?
What do you bring to the table 

549
00:33:05,590 --> 00:33:09,590
for yourself without that 
person, without that validation,

550
00:33:09,750 --> 00:33:13,890
without that support? 
You would find me on an episode 

551
00:33:13,890 --> 00:33:16,930
of Snapped and you would be able
to buy my husband's body parts 

552
00:33:16,930 --> 00:33:19,650
piece by piece on fucking eBay. 
I tell you what. 

553
00:33:19,650 --> 00:33:22,170
Let me find out that you've been
fucking around for 10 fucking 

554
00:33:22,170 --> 00:33:23,770
years. 
Absolutely. 

555
00:33:23,890 --> 00:33:28,290
That good Dick's going to be in 
a fucking blender. 

556
00:33:28,290 --> 00:33:32,210
I tell you what I I couldn't. 
It makes me dethought. 

557
00:33:32,210 --> 00:33:36,570
Makes me enraged. 
And just the fucking idea. 

558
00:33:36,850 --> 00:33:41,050
And then to imagine that there 
are so many people who go 

559
00:33:41,050 --> 00:33:46,050
through that and then just stay.
And I try real hard to be like, 

560
00:33:46,050 --> 00:33:47,770
I'm not going to judge what 
other people do with their 

561
00:33:47,770 --> 00:33:49,610
relationships. 
Absolutely. 

562
00:33:49,610 --> 00:33:51,810
The fuck not. 
If you're getting cheated on for

563
00:33:51,810 --> 00:33:54,730
10 years and you decide to stay 
through that, I'm judging you. 

564
00:33:55,230 --> 00:33:57,390
I am judging you. 
And I think that this is 

565
00:33:57,390 --> 00:34:01,190
bullshit and you better not ever
make a fucking post about what a

566
00:34:01,190 --> 00:34:03,670
fucking great partner that is. 
Because I'm going to fucking 

567
00:34:03,670 --> 00:34:07,190
laugh and then drag you in the 
comments because I I just AM. 

568
00:34:07,350 --> 00:34:09,030
And that is a public service 
announcement. 

569
00:34:09,909 --> 00:34:13,969
I don't judge people like. 
I don't really give a fuck. 

570
00:34:14,010 --> 00:34:16,730
I'm just taking notes of your 
lack of boundaries and 

571
00:34:16,730 --> 00:34:20,489
selfrespect because there are so
many people I went to high 

572
00:34:20,489 --> 00:34:23,170
school with that have ended up 
with their high school 

573
00:34:23,170 --> 00:34:27,290
sweetheart who literally used to
bang teachers, whoever, 

574
00:34:27,290 --> 00:34:29,530
wherever. 
And it's just like, that's not 

575
00:34:29,530 --> 00:34:32,570
cute to me to see you all on 
Facebook dropping, you know, 

576
00:34:32,570 --> 00:34:35,889
50-60 grand on a wedding and 
doing all this stuff like. 

577
00:34:36,610 --> 00:34:38,570
I'm just rolling my eyes. 
I'm just rolling my eyes. 

578
00:34:38,570 --> 00:34:42,330
And I'm just glad that that's 
not me, that I'm not settling 

579
00:34:42,330 --> 00:34:45,330
with somebody because of 
longevity, Because it's true 

580
00:34:45,330 --> 00:34:48,850
that you can meet someone that 
treats you better in six months 

581
00:34:48,850 --> 00:34:53,330
than someone did in six years. 
And I just will not waste time 

582
00:34:53,330 --> 00:34:56,730
on a boyfriend that's blocking 
me from finding that person, my 

583
00:34:56,730 --> 00:35:01,970
husband, my real life partner. 
And I know that in the past, you

584
00:35:01,970 --> 00:35:05,400
know we. 
Had talked about like twin 

585
00:35:05,400 --> 00:35:09,200
flames and soul mates and things
like that, and I just feel like 

586
00:35:09,200 --> 00:35:12,520
there is a soul mate for every 
part of your journey. 

587
00:35:12,800 --> 00:35:15,720
Like there's always going to be 
someone that you deeply connect 

588
00:35:15,720 --> 00:35:18,400
with for every level of your own
consciousness. 

589
00:35:18,600 --> 00:35:21,600
But you have to be willing to 
know when that connection has 

590
00:35:21,600 --> 00:35:25,200
expired and when it has ran its 
course and when you have learned

591
00:35:25,200 --> 00:35:27,960
what you need to learn and be 
able to move on. 

592
00:35:28,160 --> 00:35:31,080
The problem with our generation 
is people don't know how to move

593
00:35:31,080 --> 00:35:34,000
on peacefully to just say we 
didn't work out. 

594
00:35:34,240 --> 00:35:36,960
We didn't mesh. 
Our goals were not aligned. 

595
00:35:37,120 --> 00:35:40,800
Instead, it's got to be this 
drawn out bullshit where 

596
00:35:40,800 --> 00:35:43,840
everybody's upset and 
everybody's pointing fingers and

597
00:35:43,840 --> 00:35:46,840
somebody has to be the one at 
fault or the one to blame. 

598
00:35:47,480 --> 00:35:50,320
Can we not just peacefully move 
on and say we weren't a good 

599
00:35:50,320 --> 00:35:52,760
fit? 
I wish you the best, but I need 

600
00:35:52,760 --> 00:35:56,100
to do my own thing now. 
I guess that depends on the 

601
00:35:56,100 --> 00:35:57,340
situation. 
Let me find out. 

602
00:35:57,340 --> 00:35:59,260
You've been cheating on me for 
10 fucking years. 

603
00:35:59,260 --> 00:36:02,340
There is not going to be any we 
part. 

604
00:36:02,340 --> 00:36:06,140
I can't get over that, that 
fucking scenario of the 10 years

605
00:36:06,140 --> 00:36:09,780
you fucking cheating on me 
because I am in homicidal rage 

606
00:36:09,780 --> 00:36:14,180
inside of my brain. 
I'm talking about people who 

607
00:36:14,180 --> 00:36:19,140
just have outgrown each other, 
putting that on the table, and 

608
00:36:19,380 --> 00:36:21,780
you know this isn't really 
aligned anymore. 

609
00:36:21,780 --> 00:36:24,340
Can we just move on and 
peacefully? 

610
00:36:24,810 --> 00:36:29,210
Move out or let go or sell our 
assets instead. 

611
00:36:29,210 --> 00:36:32,290
It's always got to be a fight. 
It's always got to be. 

612
00:36:32,530 --> 00:36:34,810
They did this. 
They don't wash their ass. 

613
00:36:35,010 --> 00:36:36,570
There was always hair in the 
sink. 

614
00:36:36,610 --> 00:36:41,870
XYZ like nobody gives a fuck. 
Yeah, but that's because people 

615
00:36:41,870 --> 00:36:44,910
don't actually address the 
little things that are going on 

616
00:36:44,910 --> 00:36:48,150
in their relationships that are 
causing any kind of issue or 

617
00:36:48,150 --> 00:36:51,110
under surface disturbance. 
They probably were people 

618
00:36:51,110 --> 00:36:54,230
pleasing throughout their 
relationship and just putting up

619
00:36:54,230 --> 00:36:57,670
with it instead of putting up 
boundaries, having conversations

620
00:36:57,670 --> 00:37:00,030
or moving along. 
So then by the time that they 

621
00:37:00,030 --> 00:37:02,750
finally have had a fucking 
enough and they decide to not be

622
00:37:02,750 --> 00:37:05,630
together, it's all of this like 
animosity. 

623
00:37:05,630 --> 00:37:09,590
And also it's a really 
responsible viewpoint and choice

624
00:37:09,590 --> 00:37:12,870
to be like, I still love you as 
a person, but this just doesn't 

625
00:37:12,870 --> 00:37:15,430
work for me and I and I need to 
separate ways. 

626
00:37:15,790 --> 00:37:19,430
And it really comes down to the 
level of respect that you have 

627
00:37:19,430 --> 00:37:23,070
for somebody to like. 
If you are going to completely 

628
00:37:23,070 --> 00:37:26,190
annihilate this person when 
you're no longer with them, you 

629
00:37:26,190 --> 00:37:29,390
don't actually have a respect 
for them, because it doesn't. 

630
00:37:31,480 --> 00:37:34,400
I think that if you actually 
respected somebody, then even if

631
00:37:34,400 --> 00:37:37,760
those things were things that 
really, truly bothered you and 

632
00:37:37,760 --> 00:37:41,760
irritated you, that isn't 
something that you would a drag 

633
00:37:41,760 --> 00:37:44,520
them for or B go and tell other 
people about. 

634
00:37:44,520 --> 00:37:47,160
It obviously wasn't that big of 
an issue that he didn't wash his

635
00:37:47,160 --> 00:37:49,000
ass for 10 years because you 
were still licking his butt 

636
00:37:49,000 --> 00:37:53,760
hole. 
I just don't like the back and 

637
00:37:53,760 --> 00:37:58,400
forth BS because it's really 
uncalled for and it really makes

638
00:37:58,440 --> 00:38:02,260
you. 
Put yourself on this pedestal of

639
00:38:02,260 --> 00:38:05,900
like I have allowed this 
disrespect, I have allowed these

640
00:38:05,900 --> 00:38:09,700
things and that says a lot about
you and your boundaries and your

641
00:38:09,700 --> 00:38:13,460
self worth as a person. 
And I just feel like why I 

642
00:38:13,460 --> 00:38:15,300
wanted to talk about this is 
because. 

643
00:38:15,780 --> 00:38:19,740
No one should base their self 
worth on their partner or their 

644
00:38:19,740 --> 00:38:23,540
family or their job or their 
money or any of those things 

645
00:38:23,540 --> 00:38:26,700
because they are all fleeting 
experiences. 

646
00:38:26,980 --> 00:38:30,180
You can hit the lottery and have
all the money in the world and 

647
00:38:30,180 --> 00:38:32,220
then literally be broke five 
years later. 

648
00:38:32,420 --> 00:38:36,540
And I think there's a statistic 
on that that like 83% of the 

649
00:38:36,540 --> 00:38:41,300
people who hit lottery big 
jackpots are broke three to five

650
00:38:41,300 --> 00:38:43,500
years later. 
Like there's a guy who just won,

651
00:38:43,500 --> 00:38:48,310
I think like. 150 million. 
He bought a $44 million house. 

652
00:38:48,590 --> 00:38:52,790
I'm just going to tell you the 
taxes on that is probably 1.6 

653
00:38:52,790 --> 00:38:54,550
million a year. 
Just taxes. 

654
00:38:54,550 --> 00:38:56,510
That's just what the government 
is going to take. 

655
00:38:56,870 --> 00:38:58,990
That's not your house payment. 
That's not nothing. 

656
00:38:58,990 --> 00:39:02,070
That is just taxes. 
You tell me how you're going to 

657
00:39:02,070 --> 00:39:06,070
make that work, especially if 
you plan to live 40 or 50 years.

658
00:39:06,710 --> 00:39:10,430
It don't make sense. 
Like people try to go from zero 

659
00:39:10,750 --> 00:39:14,250
to 10,000. 
And that's not the way it works.

660
00:39:14,250 --> 00:39:18,690
And that's why it annoys me when
people are like, well, I just 

661
00:39:18,690 --> 00:39:20,810
don't know where to start 
because everybody else is 

662
00:39:20,810 --> 00:39:24,410
already doing what I want to do.
Yes, there's a million people 

663
00:39:24,690 --> 00:39:28,130
who offer services, who cut 
hair, who make candles, who make

664
00:39:28,130 --> 00:39:30,610
art, who make music, whatever it
is. 

665
00:39:30,610 --> 00:39:32,770
Yes, there's billions of people 
that do that. 

666
00:39:33,130 --> 00:39:36,640
But the thing about it. 
Is they're not going to do it 

667
00:39:36,640 --> 00:39:38,920
like you do it. 
They're not going to present it 

668
00:39:38,920 --> 00:39:42,120
the way that you present it. 
And so many people are just 

669
00:39:42,120 --> 00:39:45,440
afraid to get started because 
they don't have encouragement 

670
00:39:45,440 --> 00:39:48,720
from their partner or they don't
have the skill set that they 

671
00:39:48,720 --> 00:39:53,080
think they should have. 
And what I believe that has 

672
00:39:53,080 --> 00:39:56,920
really kept us all in this 
perpetuated cycle is. 

673
00:39:57,340 --> 00:40:01,700
The constant reinforcement that 
other people are doing better 

674
00:40:01,700 --> 00:40:05,540
than you on the Internet, that 
other people are doing XYZ. 

675
00:40:05,780 --> 00:40:08,180
And I just want to say it 
doesn't matter how many people 

676
00:40:08,180 --> 00:40:11,740
don't like you, how many people 
are sending evil out to you, how

677
00:40:11,740 --> 00:40:14,500
many people are directing 
negativity your way. 

678
00:40:14,740 --> 00:40:16,860
It's not going to stop you from 
your destiny. 

679
00:40:17,020 --> 00:40:19,700
It's not going to stop you from 
obtaining what's actually meant 

680
00:40:19,700 --> 00:40:23,130
for you. 
And if anything, it's going to 

681
00:40:23,130 --> 00:40:26,370
show you where you lack 
boundaries and where you lack 

682
00:40:26,610 --> 00:40:30,810
recognition or like, you know, 
self accountability I guess. 

683
00:40:31,130 --> 00:40:33,610
And you know, this is a really 
great example. 

684
00:40:33,890 --> 00:40:37,010
I don't like any of the 
Kardashians or the Jenners. 

685
00:40:37,010 --> 00:40:39,730
I don't like them at all. 
But that doesn't stop them from 

686
00:40:39,730 --> 00:40:42,250
being famous. 
That doesn't stop Kylie Jenner 

687
00:40:42,250 --> 00:40:48,590
from having a $990,000,000 net 
worth like that evil eye, that 

688
00:40:48,630 --> 00:40:50,430
energy. 
Not that I'm sending her evil. 

689
00:40:50,430 --> 00:40:52,510
I just don't like her. 
I don't support her. 

690
00:40:52,710 --> 00:40:54,430
It doesn't mean that she won't 
get to the top. 

691
00:40:54,750 --> 00:40:57,790
So when people are looking 
around for answers and looking 

692
00:40:57,790 --> 00:41:00,990
around for someone to blame, you
need to be looking at yourself. 

693
00:41:00,990 --> 00:41:03,910
Because the only person who's 
going to stop you from obtaining

694
00:41:04,030 --> 00:41:07,350
what is meant for you is you. 
Your procrastination, your 

695
00:41:07,350 --> 00:41:10,710
limiting beliefs, your negative 
self talk, those are the things 

696
00:41:10,710 --> 00:41:13,230
blocking you. 
It's easy to be like, oh, 

697
00:41:13,470 --> 00:41:17,230
everyone's speaking this into my
dreams, or everyone is talking 

698
00:41:17,230 --> 00:41:20,310
shit about me or judging me. 
But at the end of the day, 

699
00:41:20,590 --> 00:41:25,470
you're absorbing that because 
you're letting them affect you. 

700
00:41:26,590 --> 00:41:29,790
I remember in high school there 
was a girl that used to say, 

701
00:41:29,790 --> 00:41:32,790
well, who's everybody? 
Because there would always, well

702
00:41:32,790 --> 00:41:35,230
everybody is saying this, well, 
who's everybody? 

703
00:41:35,230 --> 00:41:37,990
And then when you start to break
it down, it's like one or two 

704
00:41:37,990 --> 00:41:40,550
people. 
And so inside of your mind when 

705
00:41:40,550 --> 00:41:43,910
you have like somebody who says 
something negative to you or 

706
00:41:43,910 --> 00:41:46,670
whatever, or speak something 
negative into your goal or. 

707
00:41:46,750 --> 00:41:49,470
Your dream, your brain can go 
well. 

708
00:41:49,510 --> 00:41:51,990
Everybody feels this way. 
If you take a second and you go,

709
00:41:51,990 --> 00:41:54,910
well, who is everybody? 
It's that one bum ass bitch that

710
00:41:54,910 --> 00:41:57,630
thinks that and that is not 
procuring you from your path. 

711
00:41:57,910 --> 00:42:01,230
It also doesn't matter if it's 
100 people or or whatever. 

712
00:42:01,590 --> 00:42:05,070
Again with your Hairstylist 
reference. 

713
00:42:05,440 --> 00:42:08,800
There are so many different hair
stylists that I've gone to and 

714
00:42:08,800 --> 00:42:10,520
I've been like, I really don't 
like this. 

715
00:42:10,560 --> 00:42:13,560
Or I've gone and I had one great
appointment and then I've gone 

716
00:42:13,560 --> 00:42:14,840
back. 
And then like, I don't know what

717
00:42:14,840 --> 00:42:17,480
she did this time because it 
wasn't what it was last time. 

718
00:42:17,880 --> 00:42:21,200
And you're constantly trying to 
figure out what's going to work 

719
00:42:21,200 --> 00:42:24,360
for you and what's going to be 
the vibe, the personality, the 

720
00:42:24,360 --> 00:42:26,920
ability to be able to listen to 
what it is that you're saying, 

721
00:42:26,920 --> 00:42:29,880
That you need them to be able to
understand what your vision is 

722
00:42:29,880 --> 00:42:32,440
and be able to create it. 
Like there's so many other 

723
00:42:32,440 --> 00:42:35,210
things that. 
That you're going to want 

724
00:42:35,210 --> 00:42:38,090
somebody to have, and you're 
going to want to find a very 

725
00:42:38,090 --> 00:42:39,970
specific person that meshes with
you. 

726
00:42:40,330 --> 00:42:43,010
And that's the same thing with 
absolutely everything. 

727
00:42:43,010 --> 00:42:46,090
You're going to find spiritual 
healers or whatever that you 

728
00:42:46,090 --> 00:42:48,770
don't vibe with. 
And if you don't go out and 

729
00:42:48,770 --> 00:42:52,010
start doing your own thing, 
you're you don't want to go out 

730
00:42:52,010 --> 00:42:54,290
and start being a nail tech. 
Because there's so many nail 

731
00:42:54,290 --> 00:42:55,890
techs. 
Well, somebody's looking for 

732
00:42:55,890 --> 00:42:58,610
something specific and they're 
probably looking for you, but 

733
00:42:58,930 --> 00:43:01,850
because you won't go out there 
and do it, they're never going 

734
00:43:01,850 --> 00:43:04,650
to find that. 
One of my favorite things that 

735
00:43:04,650 --> 00:43:09,730
I've saw recently is like the 
reason you get certain ideas and

736
00:43:09,730 --> 00:43:13,690
inspiration is because the 
universe is trying to express 

737
00:43:13,690 --> 00:43:18,290
that through you and it needs 
you to move it through the 

738
00:43:18,290 --> 00:43:20,730
physical world. 
And another thing that I was 

739
00:43:20,730 --> 00:43:24,930
told by a spiritual practitioner
is like there are universal 

740
00:43:24,930 --> 00:43:28,770
ideas that are given to multiple
people. 

741
00:43:29,230 --> 00:43:32,870
Like maybe thousands of people 
are given the same idea, but 

742
00:43:32,870 --> 00:43:34,790
who's gonna move it through the 
universe? 

743
00:43:34,950 --> 00:43:37,150
Who's gonna bring it into the 
physical reality? 

744
00:43:37,310 --> 00:43:41,790
Who's going to actually utilize 
that information and build it or

745
00:43:41,790 --> 00:43:45,140
do something with it? 
I mean, we've all saw something 

746
00:43:45,140 --> 00:43:49,020
that was invented and we thought
I had that idea or I thought 

747
00:43:49,020 --> 00:43:52,540
about about that before, or that
crossed my mind. 

748
00:43:52,900 --> 00:43:56,620
And it's the same thing with 
like Uber or, you know, certain 

749
00:43:56,620 --> 00:43:59,220
apps, certain things that have 
really blown up. 

750
00:43:59,620 --> 00:44:02,580
We've all had that idea. 
The same thing with Zoom. 

751
00:44:02,580 --> 00:44:06,830
I mean, literally, Zoom is just 
a spinoff of like multiple other

752
00:44:06,830 --> 00:44:10,150
platforms like Skype and other 
things that had already been 

753
00:44:10,150 --> 00:44:13,430
created when Zoom got its big 
break. 

754
00:44:13,430 --> 00:44:15,830
I think it's original 
stockholder shares for like a 

755
00:44:15,830 --> 00:44:20,430
dollar and now it's like $180 a 
share, you know? 

756
00:44:20,430 --> 00:44:26,550
So nothing starts out the way 
that you see it at the end 

757
00:44:26,630 --> 00:44:31,700
result at the finish line. 
And I personally believe that so

758
00:44:31,700 --> 00:44:35,100
many people block their 
abundance and those blessings 

759
00:44:35,100 --> 00:44:38,620
because they're like, well, it 
would take me 5 years to execute

760
00:44:38,620 --> 00:44:42,660
that idea or it would take 
$50,000 to execute that idea 

761
00:44:43,060 --> 00:44:49,580
Okay and. 
Yes, and something for that I 

762
00:44:49,580 --> 00:44:54,010
used to struggle with too is. 
I used to get so, and this has 

763
00:44:54,170 --> 00:44:58,570
not been such a thing since you 
and I have been doing our things

764
00:44:58,570 --> 00:45:01,490
together because I feel like my 
energy is a lot more patient now

765
00:45:01,490 --> 00:45:05,090
with myself. 
But I used to get so overwhelmed

766
00:45:05,090 --> 00:45:09,610
and frustrated because I had 
these ideas in my mind for the 

767
00:45:09,610 --> 00:45:12,930
podcast and for my brands and 
things that I wanted to do in 

768
00:45:12,930 --> 00:45:15,810
ways that I wanted to grow and 
in my mind. 

769
00:45:16,230 --> 00:45:20,110
Doing all of the little steps, I
was so frustrated that I wasn't 

770
00:45:20,110 --> 00:45:23,670
at the finish line that I wanted
to be at, and I felt like I had 

771
00:45:23,670 --> 00:45:28,670
to for some reason, keep 
apologizing to people for not 

772
00:45:28,670 --> 00:45:31,470
being at this like, end result 
that I wanted to be at. 

773
00:45:31,470 --> 00:45:34,390
Like it's going to get better. 
Guys like it's I'm, I have all 

774
00:45:34,390 --> 00:45:37,390
these big plans for this and 
that, but people were totally 

775
00:45:37,390 --> 00:45:41,710
happy to support me the entirety
of my journey and just be along 

776
00:45:41,710 --> 00:45:45,430
for the growth. 
But I was. 

777
00:45:46,110 --> 00:45:50,870
So focused on what that finish 
line goal is that I wasn't 

778
00:45:50,870 --> 00:45:54,790
appreciating all of the little 
steps and all of the growth and 

779
00:45:55,110 --> 00:45:58,030
you know your content not 
looking good and looking funky 

780
00:45:58,030 --> 00:46:00,390
while you're figuring out how to
like make content. 

781
00:46:00,390 --> 00:46:04,830
And there are Times Now when I 
look back on things that I did 

782
00:46:04,830 --> 00:46:08,030
before and I'm like, that's a 
little bit cringy, but if I 

783
00:46:08,030 --> 00:46:11,510
hadn't done that, I wouldn't be 
able to do this over here and 

784
00:46:11,550 --> 00:46:14,130
all of the. 
Uncomfortable. 

785
00:46:14,130 --> 00:46:17,850
Feeling low budget and feeling 
like you're not getting things 

786
00:46:17,850 --> 00:46:22,090
out quick enough is a necessary 
part of the journey for you to 

787
00:46:22,090 --> 00:46:24,730
get to the finish line. 
And if you are just sitting 

788
00:46:24,730 --> 00:46:31,050
there anxious about it, then you
are not appreciating all of the 

789
00:46:31,050 --> 00:46:33,610
lessons that you can be learning
along the way. 

790
00:46:34,780 --> 00:46:37,700
Honestly, for those that have 
been following my journey 

791
00:46:37,700 --> 00:46:42,100
particularly, it's only been 
three years since I've been 

792
00:46:42,100 --> 00:46:47,540
putting out live content about 
tarot and doing readings and 

793
00:46:47,540 --> 00:46:50,420
psychic predictions like only 
three years. 

794
00:46:50,700 --> 00:46:53,300
So now when you're seeing all 
that feedback of like, wow, 

795
00:46:53,300 --> 00:46:55,860
that's so on point, or wow, 
that's so amazing. 

796
00:46:56,220 --> 00:46:59,420
It was only three years ago when
I was scared to death to share 

797
00:46:59,420 --> 00:47:01,530
my gifts with the world. 
Just three years. 

798
00:47:01,850 --> 00:47:04,370
And that was more of like the 
public aspect. 

799
00:47:04,370 --> 00:47:07,170
Like I had the website. 
I was already doing readings, 

800
00:47:07,410 --> 00:47:10,290
but the thought of recording 
myself and putting that on 

801
00:47:10,290 --> 00:47:15,050
YouTube or on Instagram or on 
these platforms was so 

802
00:47:15,050 --> 00:47:20,730
intimidating. 
But that time I just knew I had 

803
00:47:20,730 --> 00:47:23,970
to do it. 
Like, I knew I had to do it and 

804
00:47:23,970 --> 00:47:26,890
I didn't want to do it. 
I was scared to do it. 

805
00:47:26,930 --> 00:47:33,010
I remember being so nervous and 
just really not in my power 

806
00:47:33,010 --> 00:47:36,970
about getting in front of a 
bunch of people or actually not 

807
00:47:36,970 --> 00:47:40,010
necessarily getting in front of 
those people, but being 

808
00:47:40,050 --> 00:47:44,500
objectified and judged. 
Because when you put content out

809
00:47:44,500 --> 00:47:47,980
there, it's easy for those who 
don't make fucking content to 

810
00:47:47,980 --> 00:47:51,180
have an opinion on it. 
It's easy for people who don't 

811
00:47:51,180 --> 00:47:54,380
know anything about what you're 
doing to put their two cents in 

812
00:47:54,380 --> 00:47:57,740
on it. 
And I find that that was more of

813
00:47:57,740 --> 00:48:01,260
a projection and a fear in my 
own mind because people were 

814
00:48:01,260 --> 00:48:05,900
really, ultimately receptive and
very grateful that I started 

815
00:48:05,900 --> 00:48:08,500
doing that. 
And honestly, that's what opened

816
00:48:08,500 --> 00:48:12,690
the doors to mentorship and 
teaching and people trusting me 

817
00:48:12,890 --> 00:48:15,770
is because they could see the 
vulnerability, they could see 

818
00:48:15,770 --> 00:48:20,810
the light, they could see the 
intention behind what I was 

819
00:48:20,810 --> 00:48:25,330
doing rather than just buy 
something from me, do something 

820
00:48:25,330 --> 00:48:27,850
XYZ. 
But it's funny to think that in 

821
00:48:27,850 --> 00:48:36,010
three years my readings went 
from $12.22 to $111.11. 

822
00:48:36,580 --> 00:48:39,460
And it's like when you look at 
that bigger picture where I was 

823
00:48:39,460 --> 00:48:44,300
doing free readings to $12.00 
readings to $27.00 readings to 

824
00:48:44,300 --> 00:48:48,780
now all the way up to $111.00. 
That's only three years of 

825
00:48:48,780 --> 00:48:52,820
consistency and loyalty and the 
vision that I brought to life 

826
00:48:52,820 --> 00:48:55,500
for myself. 
It's like once you get that fire

827
00:48:55,500 --> 00:49:00,080
lit, it's not sustainable unless
you keep adding fuel to the 

828
00:49:00,080 --> 00:49:01,680
fire. 
If you're just like, oh, I'm 

829
00:49:01,680 --> 00:49:04,400
just going to ride this wave for
a little bit and I'll get where 

830
00:49:04,400 --> 00:49:06,840
I'm going. 
No, you will either exhaust 

831
00:49:06,840 --> 00:49:09,320
yourself. 
You'll You'll get drained. 

832
00:49:09,320 --> 00:49:12,080
You won't be motivated. 
You'll beat yourself up. 

833
00:49:12,080 --> 00:49:13,960
You'll go into imposter 
syndrome. 

834
00:49:14,160 --> 00:49:17,840
You'll perpetuate old cycles, 
whatever it is, because it's 

835
00:49:17,920 --> 00:49:20,680
easier to doubt yourself than to
believe in yourself. 

836
00:49:22,180 --> 00:49:24,900
It's so much easier to doubt 
yourself than believe in 

837
00:49:24,900 --> 00:49:28,940
yourself and and to be in your 
own mind and be like, well, I 

838
00:49:28,940 --> 00:49:31,660
could never do it that way or I 
would never be this or. 

839
00:49:32,260 --> 00:49:37,020
And also comparing yourself to 
other people, I feel like 

840
00:49:37,020 --> 00:49:40,420
happens a lot more when you 
haven't started doing something 

841
00:49:40,420 --> 00:49:42,700
for your own self that you're 
really passionate about. 

842
00:49:42,980 --> 00:49:47,620
Because once you're doing 
something from like your heart 

843
00:49:47,620 --> 00:49:50,860
center and like something that 
you're really passionate about. 

844
00:49:51,520 --> 00:49:54,400
It almost fuels itself and 
motivates itself. 

845
00:49:54,480 --> 00:49:58,440
And it doesn't matter what's 
going on around you because you 

846
00:49:58,440 --> 00:50:01,000
have no choice but to be doing 
what you're doing, because 

847
00:50:01,000 --> 00:50:03,200
that's what's making you feel 
fulfilled. 

848
00:50:04,360 --> 00:50:09,240
And when you do it for yourself,
outside opinions matter less and

849
00:50:09,240 --> 00:50:11,440
less. 
And I know we talked about this 

850
00:50:11,440 --> 00:50:14,840
before. 
It's easy when people are trying

851
00:50:14,840 --> 00:50:19,120
to like butt heads with you or 
start shit with you to focus on 

852
00:50:19,120 --> 00:50:21,680
the things that you're falling 
short or the things that you 

853
00:50:21,680 --> 00:50:24,800
could do more of. 
But instead, I just take all 

854
00:50:24,800 --> 00:50:30,240
that and transmute it into 
personal power and gain like no 

855
00:50:30,480 --> 00:50:34,080
weapons formed against me are 
going to hurt me unless I 

856
00:50:34,630 --> 00:50:39,230
consent and agree to that. 
If I am in my own zone and I 

857
00:50:39,230 --> 00:50:43,070
know that my intentions are 
pure, there's no one who's going

858
00:50:43,070 --> 00:50:46,830
to disrupt that frequency. 
I don't need to justify myself. 

859
00:50:46,830 --> 00:50:50,230
I don't need to explain myself. 
And I think that's what's so 

860
00:50:50,230 --> 00:50:54,750
beautiful about the personal 
journey of reclaiming your own 

861
00:50:54,750 --> 00:50:57,550
personal power. 
The only way you can help people

862
00:50:57,750 --> 00:51:01,390
or save the world or do anything
is if you're saving yourself. 

863
00:51:01,750 --> 00:51:04,910
And I see a lot of healers out 
there that want to, to save 

864
00:51:04,910 --> 00:51:07,390
everyone else but neglect their 
own needs. 

865
00:51:07,670 --> 00:51:11,910
And that's where you have to put
the people pleasing on the back 

866
00:51:11,910 --> 00:51:15,590
burner and be able to say, you 
know what, I'm being my own 

867
00:51:15,590 --> 00:51:17,870
worst enemy. 
It's not other people that's 

868
00:51:17,870 --> 00:51:19,630
hurting me. 
It's my own lack of 

869
00:51:19,630 --> 00:51:23,750
accountability or confidence or,
you know, consistency. 

870
00:51:23,950 --> 00:51:28,230
I feel like the number one enemy
in everyone's life is 

871
00:51:28,230 --> 00:51:30,670
procrastination. 
The thought that you will have 

872
00:51:30,670 --> 00:51:34,750
time to do it later and then 
when it finally comes, time you 

873
00:51:34,750 --> 00:51:37,750
are already behind. 
Because instead of doing it a 

874
00:51:37,750 --> 00:51:41,110
little bit at a time, now you 
need to get it all done today. 

875
00:51:41,590 --> 00:51:43,470
Yeah. 
No, I agree 100%. 

876
00:51:47,750 --> 00:51:50,310
It's that time. 
It's that time. 

877
00:51:51,510 --> 00:51:54,790
Well, I feel like that's a 
really great way for us to leave

878
00:51:54,790 --> 00:51:58,430
off our episode. 
Where's the card at? 

879
00:51:59,310 --> 00:52:01,390
Oh shit. 
I didn't realize that's what you

880
00:52:01,390 --> 00:52:08,240
were doing your emotions for. 
Human design card. 

881
00:52:13,800 --> 00:52:27,400
What is our message today? 
OK, we have card 17 for 

882
00:52:27,400 --> 00:52:30,970
Soothsayer. 
You got the fucking electronic 

883
00:52:30,970 --> 00:52:33,450
Psychic Emblem on there in the 
window. 

884
00:52:34,890 --> 00:52:39,490
Our sign is Aries. 
Your gift is farsightedness and 

885
00:52:39,490 --> 00:52:45,460
your shadow is a limited lens. 
This gift reveals a perspective 

886
00:52:45,460 --> 00:52:49,060
that far surpasses the limited 
subjective lens of the shadow. 

887
00:52:49,380 --> 00:52:52,860
When you're able to access this 
higher frequency state, you see 

888
00:52:52,860 --> 00:52:56,540
how every individual part plays 
an integral role in the whole, 

889
00:52:56,940 --> 00:52:58,980
and no single element is to 
blame. 

890
00:52:59,420 --> 00:53:02,780
You bear witness to overarching 
patterns in the collective and 

891
00:53:02,780 --> 00:53:07,700
have the capacity to foresee the
the implications of those 

892
00:53:07,700 --> 00:53:11,180
patterns in the future. 
Thus you are a sort of fortune 

893
00:53:11,180 --> 00:53:13,300
teller who has made a quantum 
leap from. 

894
00:53:13,420 --> 00:53:16,340
Your logic. 
By infusing your magic into the 

895
00:53:16,340 --> 00:53:19,540
world, you help the collective 
shift into greater planes of 

896
00:53:19,540 --> 00:53:22,420
consciousness. 
Ask questions, be open to 

897
00:53:22,420 --> 00:53:25,780
possibility, and allow your 
curiosity to fan the flame. 

898
00:53:27,300 --> 00:53:30,980
When you're out of balance, you 
might prioritize the left brain 

899
00:53:30,980 --> 00:53:33,980
and approach life from a more 
masculine driven model. 

900
00:53:34,550 --> 00:53:40,190
With this rigid, with this comes
rigidity, a hyper focus on logic

901
00:53:40,190 --> 00:53:44,990
and structure that doesn't allow
for fluidity and grace, or the 

902
00:53:44,990 --> 00:53:49,390
room for mistakes. 
Opinions run amok by abandoning 

903
00:53:49,390 --> 00:53:53,590
the feminine counterbalance. 
Opinions seem to solidify as 

904
00:53:53,590 --> 00:53:56,470
fact, and we forget our 
interconnected nature. 

905
00:53:56,830 --> 00:53:59,630
But nothing is quite as obvious 
as it seems. 

906
00:54:00,030 --> 00:54:03,430
Wisdom isn't necessarily a 
product of the intellectual 

907
00:54:03,430 --> 00:54:06,720
mind. 
To move past the shadow, honor 

908
00:54:06,720 --> 00:54:10,200
both feminine and masculine 
energies, and learn to challenge

909
00:54:10,200 --> 00:54:14,240
your own adopted viewpoints. 
Your themes are farsightedness, 

910
00:54:14,280 --> 00:54:16,800
curiosity, balance, and 
patterns. 

911
00:54:17,920 --> 00:54:21,400
I love the fan the flame because
I literally just talked about 

912
00:54:21,440 --> 00:54:25,800
putting fuel on the flame. 
So we just want you all to find 

913
00:54:25,800 --> 00:54:31,080
what lights you up aside from 
relationships or work or money, 

914
00:54:31,280 --> 00:54:35,070
but find that thing that you 
would do if it was your very 

915
00:54:35,070 --> 00:54:37,670
last thing you could do. 
What would that be? 

916
00:54:37,670 --> 00:54:41,630
That's your homework and we will
see you next time in Candy Land.

917
00:54:42,190 --> 00:54:42,470
Bye.