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He says she's so sweet. 
Welcome back to the magical 

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place of Candyland. 
So it's just us, but we did hit 

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our 100th episode you all. 
We are official. 

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I don't know how long ago, like 
when we started, if we thought 

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we would make it this far, but 
like I'm really proud of us for 

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not like giving up even when 
we've had to like take a break 

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or take a set back or something.
It's really cool how we're able 

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to like keep going and not run 
out of things to talk about. 

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We don't run out of things to 
talk about. 

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But yeah, like, I don't know, we
are just flexible with each 

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other. 
If something's not, you know, 

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lining up timing wise, we're not
able to do it or life is crazy, 

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then we're like, hey, let's 
we're going to skip to every 

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other week or throw a guest in 
here real quick and, you know, 

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spice it up a little bit. 
So I feel like that's part of 

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the longevity is that we're not 
super strict on ourselves. 

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I think that we want to be 
probably a little bit stricter, 

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but I think that being graceful 
for a little while while we've 

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had stuff going on is really 
important. 

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Yeah. 
And I think that also with 

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projects, like you evolve into 
different people as you dedicate

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yourself to a project, A cause, 
some type of hobby, you know, 

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like the more you do something, 
the more that you evolve as a 

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person and you feel more 
confident in what you're doing. 

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And I think that's what's really
beautiful about like spiritual 

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reality overall is it's helped 
me find myself and like, explore

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new things where, you know, I 
never dreamed I would have a 

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podcast or I never dreamed 
certain things. 

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But with the power of 
consistency, anything is 

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possible. 
When you were a kid, did you 

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know, like, oh, people are going
to like, eventually listen to my

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voice or like, somehow I'm going
to, like, end up influencing 

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people, but you didn't know how?
I've always felt very much like 

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a leader and like I always had 
my own style, my own like, 

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quirks about me. 
So I've always been very unique 

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and I did always feel like I 
would do something great in the 

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world, but like, I never really 
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And what's weird about it is I 
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to become a marine biologist. 
And so many people in our 

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generation had that same dream 
is, from what I heard on the 

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Internet, like, there was like a
Reddit thread of like, what you 

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thought you would be and what 
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And perhaps in the 90s, a lot of
us thought we were gonna become 

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marine biologists because of 
Lisa Frank and the dolphins or 

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something. 
I don't know. 

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But it's just funny that I never
even once pursued that in my 

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adult life. 
Ever. 

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So I'm gonna have two different 
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So first of all, I'm gonna tell 
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be. 
And then I think that we should 

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talk about the quirky shit that 
we did as kids that were like 

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trend setter, that we were like,
this is the fucking trend that 

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I'm about to pop it off because 
I could tell you a couple too. 

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And I just think that would be 
fucking hilarious. 

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So I thought I was going to be 
an archaeologist. 

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I was going to dig up bones. 
I was going to find the next 

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Kingy Tut. 
I was going to unearth the 

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mummies. 
That is my whole childhood. 

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I thought I was going to be an 
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And then I was super and like, I
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like I did a bunch of stuff and 
like, really wanted to like go 

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somewhere with singing. 
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went, I did the auditions and 
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And my mom made the comment 
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some girls at work. 
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15 year old girl, like, wants to
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And I was like, crushed because 
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mom didn't support me. 
Every other bitch was trying to 

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be me. 
I wasn't special because I was 

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doing the same things as all 
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Brittany and Ashley, you know? 
So I just gave up on that off of

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that one simple comment. 
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that's so silly. 
But that wasn't meant to be my 

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path. 
But I should be out there in the

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fucking dirt as an 
archaeologist. 

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But then I can't have my nails 
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So I wouldn't have been my true 
self and it would have been like

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an identity crisis. 
You know what's so funny about 

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that is Gemini just gave me a 
reading you all and I glanced at

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it and then the first paragraph,
it tells me that I need to write

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songs and sing them just So I 
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band. 
Gemini is actually on the 

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podcast now letting me know that
we're going to expand into a duo

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and we're looking for a trio. 
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No, I'm kidding. 
I'm kidding. 

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I'm. 
Like wait. 

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We didn't have to sing in my 
reading and then I haven't 

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finished reading all of it, but 
that is something that stood out

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about what you said. 
So when I was younger, I used to

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have a karaoke machine and I 
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Mustang Sally was probably my 
debut song, but there was a lot 

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of songs I would sing on the 
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What I always thought that I 
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that I'd don't even know, like 
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Like I don't know what made me 
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Like, I don't know what movie I 
watched or like what turned me 

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on to that. 
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I was going to become a 
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Like I was going to go to 
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write, write crazy pills to 
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But I decided I too myself was a
little crazy and I wasn't going 

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to fit into the structural 
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And once I took like enough 
beginner, like one O 1 and two O

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1 psych and sociology classes, I
was like, yeah, this isn't going

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to work for me. 
So then I just converted to my 

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true passion, which is talking. 
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probably in my head thought 
someone would hear me one day 

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because I love to talk. 
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like, little. 
You remember those little 

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recorder things you'd get? 
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And I'd interview people. 
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and interview them and ask them 
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And it was purple and it had 
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could hold it up and record 
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It was. 
It was lit. 

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I remember when I was like 9 or 
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cash registers, like you used to
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registers and I have the money. 
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that bitch was top tier cash 
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And I was, I can't believe that 
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I'd be in my room, deep, deep, 
deep, scanning her right across,

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used to make the sound that used
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My brother would be the customer
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blah, blah, blah. 
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questions about his life and 
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And I was asking him questions 
and he had to tell me about his 

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life. 
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your bag. 
OK, so my first job was at a 

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grocery store and I was 12 and 
my aunt owned the store so she 

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would let me push carts. 
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legally work, you really can at 
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consent. 
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get grocery carts and like bag 
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And it was like one of those 
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cashier job straight up. 
I was a cashier at a grocery 

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store for a little bit. 
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know what the legal working age 
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like kids don't start working 
the way that we did at like 

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younger ages right now. 
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a stranger danger thing. 
I don't know what it is, but I 

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know that for me, I was always 
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things for people, babysitting 
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I got CPR certified when I was, 
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I think I was 11 and I went to 
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and stuff. 
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school and stuff. 
So I don't when you say 12, I'm 

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like, Oh yeah. 
Like we were working when we 

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were like super young kids. 
Yeah, I don't think these kids 

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have any work ethic. 
I think people said they were 

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going to give their kids better 
than then they had for 

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themselves. 
And you all just made them 

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entitled, lazy little brats. 
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right now should be working. 
Whether they're babysitting, get

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raking leaves, washing the car, 
mowing the grass, I don't give a

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shit. 
They should be doing some kind 

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of something that gives them a 
sense of productivity and, you 

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know, reward for hard work or 
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But necessarily like just 
learning work ethic because that

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has to be taught. 
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going to have a phone, a car 
insurance, a roof over your head

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and you're not going to have to 
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You're going to be a little 
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And then when life starts 
kicking you later, you're going 

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to be feeling like, what the 
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You don't have any work ethic. 
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because having work ethic is in 
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It's you having consistency, 
it's you showing up. 

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It's you, regardless of what 
obstacles are coming, figuring 

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out solutions to be able to make
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It's you earning something. 
When you're receiving something 

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and that goes outside of like 
monetary value, that is 

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responsibility and that's 
showing up for yourself. 

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That's having consideration for 
other people, that's learning 

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time management. 
Like there's so many different 

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life skills that happen when you
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And so I think that's why I like
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ethic. 
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themselves with people that 
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character and things. 
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somebody operates in life based 
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things that are funding their 
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Yeah, and like back in the day, 
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like, grandparents would teach 
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But I feel like in the last like
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of drugs and alcohol in our 
collective space has really 

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drawn apart the family, like the
father's in jail or the mother's

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on drugs or something like one 
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grandparents raising their 
grandchildren or whatever it may

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be. 
And there's like this disconnect

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of like hanging out with your 
dad in the garage and learning 

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how to change oil and like work 
on your car or going to work on 

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your grandpa's farm in the 
summertime because no one in 

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your family has a farm anymore. 
Like, you know what I mean? 

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Like or just like the way things
have changed because that is 

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where people learned work ethic 
and responsibility and strength 

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and courage and things like 
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So I think there's a disconnect 
because this collective space in

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just two generations has removed
things like making your own 

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clothes, growing your own food 
and like the stay at home mom 

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completely has been removed in 
the last two generations, 

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meaning like our parents than 
their parents, because the 

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parents before that, like our 
great grandparents and beyond 

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farms, hand making things, 
repairing things, cleaning your 

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shoes rather than throwing them 
out, you know, fixing whatever 

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is broke rather than replacing 
it. 

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Now we're in the replacement 
generation where whether it's a 

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people, person, place, thing, 
whatever, replace it. 

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And I'll be honest, I'm guilty 
of that too. 

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I'm so guilty of that, 
especially whenever it's a 

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temporary situation or temporary
thing. 

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I'm very much like, boom, OK, 
bye, replaced with something 

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better. 
But. 

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No. 
Can I tell you one little piece 

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that's in your reading that I 
don't know if you got to yet? 

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I didn't because I only read the
beginning. 

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Can I tell you real quick, 
because I just remember this 

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piece, it's not, it's not really
shouting out your business. 

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It's just kind of saying what 
you just said. 

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But spirit was like, I don't 
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that like you're going to need 
to be getting rid of clutter, 

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like energy's going to be 
stagnantly sticking to it and 

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you need to like get rid of 
things. 

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And then a right afterwards it 
was, but don't worry, you're 

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going to end up spending that 
money to just get new things 

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anyways. 
It'll just be new energy in your

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space. 
And so I just thought it was 

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fucking funny while you were 
saying like getting rid of 

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things, but then like, I'm gonna
be buying some stuff. 

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I'll never be attached to a 
material thing because what I've

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learned with the law of giving 
and receiving is the more that 

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I've just been not attached, not
worked up, not overly focused on

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things like abundance or 
resources or whatever, the more 

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that they've just showed up. 
Like 9 times out of 10, it's 

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more like, hey, I got a free 
ticket for you, I want to invite

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you, I want you here, I want you
to come rather than me having to

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overextend my energy to do 
anything, you know what I mean? 

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So it's like the more that you 
have that surrender space where 

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you're not like, this is my 
favorite jacket and I'm going to

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wear it until I die. 
You know, being more open of 

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like, there are better jackets 
out there. 

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Like this one's getting worn out
and I might need a new one 

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rather than I will wear this 
forever. 

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It's my favorite. 
I really feel like the segue, 

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that conversation, there's so 
much to be said, but replacing 

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things is the move, baby. 
Let it go, let it go. 

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OK. 
Now I want to hear some of the 

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things that were your trend 
setting, your trend setting 

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moves when you were a child. 
OK, so when I was younger, my 

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mom let me just do things I 
wasn't supposed to do. 

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Like we would go to smoke shops 
and she would let me like pick 

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out, you know, like the hippie 
kind of like banner type stuff 

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or like the little Bob Marley 
ashtrays for no reason. 

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Like why are you buying me an 
ashtray? 

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So I would always end up with 
like things that were for adults

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in a way. 
And I feel like that was super 

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like kind of trend setting for 
people because they like had 

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access to different stuff at my 
house. 

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Like my mom in a way, let me be 
a teenager as soon as I turn 12 

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years old. 
Like the moment I was 12, she 

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was just like, you might as well
be grown as fuck. 

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But one of the coolest things 
that mom did is when I was 11, I

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got my belly button pierced. 
And I will say there was no 

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other 11 year old who had their 
belly button Pierce. 

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And other people who are like 14
and 15 where I lived didn't have

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it and really wanted it. 
And I was like, probably the 

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staple in their life or their 
case to their parents. 

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But note to self, I don't like 
it. 

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It kind of deformed my belly 
button now because now, like, 

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you know, it grew with it in 
there. 

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And then I took it out when I 
was adult. 

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And so there's just a hole there
that's like, not cute. 

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I love that your transcending 
moments are because you didn't 

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have like parental boundaries 
and guidance and you were just 

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like, I got to do whatever I 
wanted to. 

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So I was studying trends because
I was an adult before I was 

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supposed to be. 
Facts. 

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These are real. 
These are real things. 

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I have like actual like child 
things and you're over here like

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I was snorting cocaine off a 
strippers ass when I was 13. 

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It was trend setting I. 
Had those little door beads. 

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Yeah. 
Go on, pop off. 

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Oh my God. 
Well mine are not going to 

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equate to what you're going 
through or went through. 

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I used to wear my earrings with 
the posts out and like the 

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actual earring part that was 
supposed to face front turned 

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around and I thought that was 
the coolest shit. 

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I was like, you guys are going 
to be wearing the pokey part of 

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your earrings out the front of 
your ears soon too. 

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I'd be like come on now. 
And then when Avril Lavigne was 

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like the shit, she used to wear 
leggings underneath her skirts, 

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but I wanted to go one step 
further, so I used to wear denim

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jeans with a denim skirt over 
the top. 

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And that was the fucking look. 
Let me tell you. 

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You couldn't tell me shit. 
I got in a couple fights on the 

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playground about it and you 
couldn't tell me a single thing.

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I had this phase. 
This is not trend setting. 

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This is just an embarrassing 
fact. 

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I had this phase in 4th grade. 
Was it 4th? 

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Either 4th or 5th grade where I 
told, I told everybody that 

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Hilary Duff was my cousin. 
And I had everybody believing 

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it. 
And so one day these kids called

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my house. 
I was like, I bet call my house 

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and Hilary Duff will get on the 
phone. 

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She's visiting right now. 
And they were like, OK, so they 

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called my house. 
My mom answered and they were 

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like, hi, is Hilary there? 
And my mom goes, no, but Diana's

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here. 
And they were like, is Hillary 

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going to be there soon? 
And she's like, yeah, probably 

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she's somewhere and hands me the
phone. 

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That was the most legit fucking 
thing my mom ever did. 

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She fucking they, she didn't 
know what it was about. 

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She just, she saw the eye 
contact and she was like, oh, 

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we're related to a select. 
Got it, got it. 

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Yeah, she'll be here soon 
anytime. 

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That was my, that was my fucking
status thing. 

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OK so I was like a good kid 
slash bad kid at the same time 

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and like some people's parents 
wouldn't let their kid hang out 

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with me so people would sneak to
hang out with me and that's kind

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of fucked up because I turned 
out way better than all these 

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bitches. 
Like and I'm not being a hater 

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but everyone I ever grew up with
and their mom didn't want them 

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to hang out with me. 
They should have because they 

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would have learned some St. 
skills that would have helped 

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them later in life, but instead 
now they're working some factory

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in the bum fucked up Kentucky, 
and that's great. 

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I love them. 
Shout out. 

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No, no shade. 
I'm just saying like some people

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never get out of their comfort 
zone, like their parents are 

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like, Oh no, stay over here 
because it's it's different than

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what they're doing, but it's 
still shitty or it's still not 

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good. 
It's kind of like trading one 

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addiction for another addiction 
or something. 

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And I will say I was a bad. 
I was in an environment that 

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would have made me bad, but I 
could have been worse. 

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I could have been worse. 
I'll say that I wasn't that bad.

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I got out of school and I made 
good grades and I did the right 

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thing. 
I didn't start really getting 

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into shit I shouldn't have been 
into until I was in high school.

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And that's when I was like, I 
would say the end of middle 

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school, beginning of high 
school, because that's when I 

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was like, oh, you got an older 
brother. 

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What's good? 
I will sneak out. 

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I will be at your home. 
I will hide in the closet. 

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I will do whatever it is that 
you need me to do. 

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Let's hang out. 
Oh Lord, You know, by then I was

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just really smoking marijuana 
and chilling. 

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Like by all the time high school
rolled around, I had already 

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gotten a lot of the little 
experimental partying and stuff 

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out of my like, sneaking out and
just whatever out of my face. 

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Like, I mean, yes, I wanted a 
later curfew. 

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I wanted my dad to being above 
board with me doing should I had

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been doing since I was 14 and it
just didn't make any sense of 

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like why he'd still been trying 
to make me. 

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When I'm close to 18 years, I'll
act like a child. 

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It's the fact that people think 
that you're the one that's like 

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the goody 2 shoes and the like, 
whatever. 

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And then we get on this podcast 
and I was like, no, I was a good

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kid. 
Like I wasn't corrupt till high 

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school. 
And you're like, by high school,

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I've lived 42 lives and I was 
paying my own rent. 

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I had a mortgage and I had 
already gone through a an 

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addiction to hard substances and
gone through rehab four times. 

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You know, no, I got a good story
for y'all like this is this is 

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OK. 
So I in high school blended like

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with all the crowds except like 
the Super, super preppy stuck up

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kids, but they would still like 
invite us to their parties and 

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we would still go. 
So I hung out with like a little

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bit of everyone, the weirdos, 
like everyone. 

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And I would be that person that 
would just like bring people 

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together, like the gangsters and
the emo kids and these kids like

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everybody would come together 
because of me. 

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And we would have parties and 
stuff. 

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So one time I had a party at the
place that my mom and me and my 

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stepdad lived for about 12 
years. 

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And at the time our house was in
foreclosure. 

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So we still had like access to 
the property, but like no one 

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lived in there. 
There was like no power, no 

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water, like we hadn't lived 
there in. 

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Eight months. 
So I took all my friends from 

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high school to this place, which
is about like 40 minutes away 

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from where we lived. 
And so it's like in the country 

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and we went there and we threw a
party and my abandoned empty 

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house. 
And of course, like it's an 

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abandoned house like and people 
are in there now. 

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They called the cops. 
The cops came. 

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So when they came, I was 15, but
there were people that were like

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17/18/19 and there was someone 
all the way up to the age of 21,

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baby 21. 
So they flipped out, they came 

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unglued, people went to jail. 
We all had to walk over to City 

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Hall to the police station. 
You have to walk to the police. 

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Station, we were one block away 
from it. 

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It's a very small town. 
They only have like 2 cop cars 

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so and we had to walk over 
there. 

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Country bumpkin fucking raid 
I've ever heard of. 

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It really was. 
And so my mom, they were like 

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trying to get a hold of my 
mom's, but they couldn't. 

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And I'm telling you, like some 
of the kids that their parents 

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came and got them while I was 
still there were flipping out 

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like I have never. 
And I know it's really because 

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their parents had to drive like 
40 minutes out in the middle of 

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nowhere to retrieve their 
children. 

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But then some of the people just
went to jail. 

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And like one of the guys, he had
to, he had to like get a lawyer 

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and stuff. 
Like he, the one who is 21, 

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because there was so much 
alcohol present. 

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They were going to try to make 
him take the fall for all of it 

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and say that he had bought it 
all. 

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And he was like, absolutely not.
So that guy who I didn't very 

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know very well because keeping 
in mind he's 21, I'm 15. 

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He was just like an extended 
friend of people who were there.

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He despise me for years and 
years and years. 

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And then when I got old enough 
where he thought he could like 

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respectfully asked me out, he 
literally tried to like hold 

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that against me and was like you
owe me a date because this 

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happened XYZ. 
And I was like, you've really 

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been waiting to say that to me 
for like 10 years. 

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That's fucking weird bro. 
That's so weird. 

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That's a little story. 
Predator. 

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I was 15 when that happened. 
That's a crazy story. 

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Nope. 
I never. 

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I never threw parties that I 
wasn't supposed to throw. 

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I went places I wasn't supposed 
to go. 

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I sound like Doctor Seuss. 
There was never a party that I 

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didn't throw, but there was 
never a party that I didn't go. 

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Facts. 
That's literal fact. 

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So I just like to party because 
my mom and all her friends were 

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always partying. 
But now I'd literally it's like 

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a fever dream. 
That version of me is like a 

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fever dream. 
I think about certain things 

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that are like fever dreams. 
We were, I was looking at 

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pictures that we have in the 
house the other day and I was 

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looking at pictures of us in 
this kitchen that we lived in, 

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like, or this house that we 
lived in like years ago. 

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Like I don't even remember. 
It was like the first house that

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we had with our kids and I don't
remember really any experiences 

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there. 
Like I remember, I remember the 

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picture in the kitchen. 
I don't remember ever cooking a 

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single meal in that kitchen. 
I remember going to sleep a 

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couple times and checking on my 
kids and I remember sitting in 

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my living room. 
But that's that's the only 

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memories that I have. 
It feels like I was there for 

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like 4 or five days and then was
gone and I'm like I was on a 

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whole last year list lease. 
Yeah, You know, I haven't lived 

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a lot of places on my own, but I
did have a few like rental 

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00:24:01,520 --> 00:24:05,200
places that I rented and they 
were always a shit show. 

448
00:24:05,240 --> 00:24:08,920
And I feel like the couple times
I tried to have roommates, it 

449
00:24:08,920 --> 00:24:12,440
was a hot mess. 
It was the worst concept I ever 

450
00:24:12,440 --> 00:24:17,360
experienced and do not 
recommend. 

451
00:24:17,400 --> 00:24:21,400
And also I think leases, 
especially for like apartments 

452
00:24:21,400 --> 00:24:24,600
where you have to pay deposits 
and do all these things, I think

453
00:24:24,600 --> 00:24:28,040
that they should be longer. 
Like who wants to move after a 

454
00:24:28,040 --> 00:24:32,080
year and you raise my rent if I 
stay, you know, like some of 

455
00:24:32,080 --> 00:24:34,960
that stuff is such a scam 
because I just don't understand.

456
00:24:34,960 --> 00:24:37,960
Like every time you move 
somewhere for a year, you 

457
00:24:37,960 --> 00:24:42,760
literally get yourself unpacked 
around six months and then you 

458
00:24:42,760 --> 00:24:46,640
got to move in three months. 
By the time you feel settled, 

459
00:24:46,640 --> 00:24:48,360
you've got to move in three 
months or whatever. 

460
00:24:48,360 --> 00:24:50,920
So I don't know. 
I just think I hate how that is 

461
00:24:50,920 --> 00:24:52,520
set up. 
But now I completely get that I 

462
00:24:52,520 --> 00:24:55,280
have a lot of areas of my life 
that are foggy. 

463
00:24:56,320 --> 00:24:59,600
I think they should have people 
that are, I think it has to do 

464
00:24:59,600 --> 00:25:01,320
with the trauma, by the way, the
fogginess. 

465
00:25:01,320 --> 00:25:05,280
I think it has to do with like, 
like for me, I was postpartum at

466
00:25:05,280 --> 00:25:08,760
the time and like we had, I had 
so much stuff going on 

467
00:25:08,760 --> 00:25:11,440
emotionally. 
And so I think that's my 

468
00:25:11,440 --> 00:25:14,320
fogginess. 
I think that they should have 

469
00:25:14,320 --> 00:25:16,440
rent prices like grandfathered 
in. 

470
00:25:16,440 --> 00:25:20,040
I think that if you get a place,
that should be the price that 

471
00:25:20,040 --> 00:25:23,800
you're having for that place is 
how I feel about it. 

472
00:25:23,800 --> 00:25:25,920
If it's like a property 
management company or something 

473
00:25:25,920 --> 00:25:28,720
like that, I just think it 
should be a grandfathered in 

474
00:25:28,720 --> 00:25:30,200
thing. 
I think that should be the rent 

475
00:25:30,200 --> 00:25:32,840
that you have to pay. 
And I think that it's really 

476
00:25:32,840 --> 00:25:38,720
like, I know of places where 
when your lease is up, you have 

477
00:25:38,720 --> 00:25:42,160
to reapply in order to stay in 
that place. 

478
00:25:42,400 --> 00:25:47,160
And that's just fucked. 
That's such a scam I feel like. 

479
00:25:47,720 --> 00:25:51,560
I feel like you should have like
up to three-year lease options 

480
00:25:51,560 --> 00:25:53,360
where the rent doesn't change 
for three years. 

481
00:25:53,360 --> 00:25:56,440
I think that it should be 
evaluated because taxes like, 

482
00:25:57,160 --> 00:26:00,760
you know, one year they went up 
25% for the city of Louisville 

483
00:26:00,960 --> 00:26:04,160
in one year. 
So you know, that's a quarter of

484
00:26:04,160 --> 00:26:07,160
what your property is worth is 
now, you know additional. 

485
00:26:07,160 --> 00:26:12,920
So definitely evaluate it, but 
at the same time, there's so 

486
00:26:12,920 --> 00:26:17,040
much stuff that's out here, like
just being overly priced and 

487
00:26:17,040 --> 00:26:20,960
driving up a market that is like
not regulated. 

488
00:26:20,960 --> 00:26:25,280
So our state is introducing this
new system that all property 

489
00:26:25,280 --> 00:26:29,280
management companies and all 
landlords have to use. 

490
00:26:29,520 --> 00:26:31,400
And it's going to regulate the 
price. 

491
00:26:31,400 --> 00:26:34,160
It's going to regulate the 
system where they can't just 

492
00:26:34,160 --> 00:26:36,600
say, I want $4000 a month for 
this. 

493
00:26:36,800 --> 00:26:39,600
And so someone else in the area 
looks up rent prices in this 

494
00:26:39,600 --> 00:26:44,360
area and sees that and thanks. 
Well, I can get 3800, you know, 

495
00:26:44,360 --> 00:26:46,360
they're getting 4. 
I'm going to make mine a little,

496
00:26:46,360 --> 00:26:48,680
you know what I mean? 
And then really the rent is more

497
00:26:48,680 --> 00:26:53,240
like 1800. 
But some somebody, you know, my 

498
00:26:53,240 --> 00:26:55,400
friend told me this. 
When people don't want to rent 

499
00:26:55,400 --> 00:26:58,160
things and they don't want to 
sell things, they double or 

500
00:26:58,160 --> 00:27:00,760
triple the price. 
And then if you buy it and you 

501
00:27:00,760 --> 00:27:03,880
want to be stupid, it's on you 
and they don't care. 

502
00:27:04,120 --> 00:27:05,440
So a lot of times that's what 
they'll do. 

503
00:27:05,440 --> 00:27:07,840
Like someone will get a peddlers
mall or like a little antique 

504
00:27:07,840 --> 00:27:10,680
booth rental and they'll put a 
bunch of shit in there that's 

505
00:27:10,680 --> 00:27:13,000
just like triple the price of 
what it's actually worth or 

506
00:27:13,000 --> 00:27:15,800
could be sold for. 
And that's what my friend said. 

507
00:27:15,800 --> 00:27:18,200
He said they don't want to store
it, they don't want to look at 

508
00:27:18,200 --> 00:27:19,720
it. 
But if you want to pay triple, 

509
00:27:19,720 --> 00:27:22,000
they're willing to sell it. 
But if not it will set there. 

510
00:27:26,200 --> 00:27:28,320
Speaking of charging triple for 
things. 

511
00:27:28,320 --> 00:27:31,880
So we had a garden, a garden. 
We had a goddess festival here 

512
00:27:31,880 --> 00:27:35,200
like a couple of months ago. 
And I think I told you before, 

513
00:27:35,200 --> 00:27:37,880
like I wasn't a big fan of the 
Goddess festival. 

514
00:27:37,880 --> 00:27:40,680
We had gone the first time. 
I just, I just didn't really 

515
00:27:40,680 --> 00:27:44,040
like the vibe. 
But then we went this year and 

516
00:27:44,840 --> 00:27:48,000
people were selling shit that 
they clearly got off of like 

517
00:27:48,000 --> 00:27:53,200
Timo and Wish and they're just 
have a booth and they're selling

518
00:27:53,200 --> 00:27:58,160
it fake crystals, just like just
random shit that you're like, I,

519
00:27:59,480 --> 00:28:01,680
I guess for me, I'm thinking if 
you're having a goddess 

520
00:28:01,680 --> 00:28:04,200
festival, like you're having 
like a spiritual thing, right? 

521
00:28:04,200 --> 00:28:06,840
So there are some vendors that 
are like, you know, witchy 

522
00:28:06,840 --> 00:28:09,200
vendors or apothecaries or 
things like that. 

523
00:28:09,200 --> 00:28:12,200
And that makes total sense. 
And then you've just got people 

524
00:28:12,200 --> 00:28:15,960
who are just fucking there with,
you know, like some big old dude

525
00:28:15,960 --> 00:28:18,280
with his belly outlets. 
Like you want to buy my rocks 

526
00:28:18,280 --> 00:28:21,920
that I got online? 
Like, not particularly. 

527
00:28:22,440 --> 00:28:25,560
Well, I've noticed like there's 
this thing called the Oddities 

528
00:28:25,560 --> 00:28:29,560
and Curiosities Festival Expo 
that goes to all the exposition 

529
00:28:29,560 --> 00:28:30,920
centers across the United 
States. 

530
00:28:30,920 --> 00:28:34,040
So it came to Louisville last 
year for the first time, and 

531
00:28:34,040 --> 00:28:35,760
then it was here again this 
year. 

532
00:28:36,080 --> 00:28:40,520
And there's a lot of like, like 
witchy vendors, you know, like 

533
00:28:40,520 --> 00:28:45,200
taxidermy art, really cool 
paintings, things made out of 

534
00:28:45,200 --> 00:28:47,400
spider webs, you know, that kind
of stuff. 

535
00:28:47,800 --> 00:28:50,480
And then there are booths like 
that that are just selling 

536
00:28:50,480 --> 00:28:52,960
random ass stuff that has 
nothing to do with this. 

537
00:28:53,200 --> 00:28:56,080
But it's the weirdest thing 
because a lot of people, they do

538
00:28:56,080 --> 00:29:00,480
that full time, like they live 
in a camper and like pull and go

539
00:29:00,480 --> 00:29:02,400
to all these festivals and all 
these things. 

540
00:29:02,560 --> 00:29:04,560
So some of them like follow the 
train. 

541
00:29:04,560 --> 00:29:09,120
So like, if there isn't, if it's
not in season for the big Expo 

542
00:29:09,120 --> 00:29:12,320
flea market that goes around the
United States, that's basically 

543
00:29:12,320 --> 00:29:16,480
like what you're talking about. 
Then they find little XYZ's that

544
00:29:16,480 --> 00:29:19,480
they can hit for a couple 
weekends or hit a trail with or 

545
00:29:19,480 --> 00:29:22,080
oh, it's a, it's a seasonal, 
just a one weekend thing. 

546
00:29:22,320 --> 00:29:24,800
And they pull up on those like 
food trucks or whoever. 

547
00:29:24,800 --> 00:29:27,480
Like, you know, there's a lot of
ways that these people kind of 

548
00:29:27,480 --> 00:29:30,200
get on like the circus train 
with these oddities and 

549
00:29:30,200 --> 00:29:32,640
curiosity. 
Or we have this big flea market 

550
00:29:32,640 --> 00:29:36,400
that comes around like every 
year, you know, and it sets up 

551
00:29:36,400 --> 00:29:37,720
at our Expo center. 
It's just massive. 

552
00:29:37,720 --> 00:29:39,320
And it's just people who travel 
with this. 

553
00:29:39,520 --> 00:29:41,920
They some of them have antiques,
some of them have crafts, some 

554
00:29:41,920 --> 00:29:47,320
of them have junk tools, C DS, 
you know, like the list goes on.

555
00:29:47,320 --> 00:29:50,760
It's just a bunch of stuff. 
So I completely get it. 

556
00:29:50,760 --> 00:29:55,200
But these people reselling the 
Timu and wish stuff on Etsy has 

557
00:29:55,200 --> 00:29:57,320
ruined Etsy. 
Have you ever shopped on there? 

558
00:29:58,320 --> 00:30:01,760
Yeah, now I'm wary about 
shopping on Etsy and I tell 

559
00:30:01,760 --> 00:30:04,640
people all the time when they're
asking me for like podcast 

560
00:30:04,640 --> 00:30:06,720
advice and shit like that and 
like, oh, I want to have merch 

561
00:30:06,720 --> 00:30:07,680
with it. 
I'll do an Etsy. 

562
00:30:07,680 --> 00:30:11,400
I'm like absolutely do not 
because people can't tell now 

563
00:30:11,400 --> 00:30:13,720
what's real, what's fake on 
Etsy. 

564
00:30:13,720 --> 00:30:17,720
It's so over saturated and 
literally you pay so much for 

565
00:30:17,720 --> 00:30:21,720
the Etsy fees that you have it. 
It literally makes the most 

566
00:30:21,720 --> 00:30:25,920
sense for you to pay the $39.00 
or a month or whatever it is for

567
00:30:25,920 --> 00:30:29,600
you to have a custom built 
website for yourself and people 

568
00:30:29,600 --> 00:30:32,400
can only get your items there 
and you marketing yourself 

569
00:30:32,400 --> 00:30:34,440
because you have to market for 
people to go to your Etsy 

570
00:30:34,440 --> 00:30:36,600
anyways. 
Etsy's bullshit now. 

571
00:30:37,280 --> 00:30:42,200
Etsy used to be like my go to 
back in like 2012, 2014, I was 

572
00:30:42,200 --> 00:30:45,960
constantly on Etsy getting 
custom things and then even like

573
00:30:46,520 --> 00:30:48,920
probably like five years ago I 
was still using it. 

574
00:30:48,920 --> 00:30:52,640
But then it's went all the way 
downhill with these fake drop 

575
00:30:52,640 --> 00:30:57,080
shippers that are drop shipping 
like through like a Sheen or 

576
00:30:57,080 --> 00:31:01,160
Etsy like they're literally 
taking your money and profiting 

577
00:31:01,160 --> 00:31:04,440
and then going and placing that 
order and shipping it directly 

578
00:31:04,440 --> 00:31:08,240
to you from T MU or wherever. 
So that something that people 

579
00:31:08,240 --> 00:31:11,720
were saying is like they were 
stealing original ideas, selling

580
00:31:11,720 --> 00:31:14,560
it as original, but it's a 
replica from Timu. 

581
00:31:14,560 --> 00:31:17,240
And that was happening a lot 
with the Halloween stuff. 

582
00:31:17,600 --> 00:31:20,040
And also people selling the 
viral items. 

583
00:31:20,040 --> 00:31:24,040
Like I know there's this girl 
that makes the 800 and $1200 

584
00:31:24,040 --> 00:31:26,840
sweatpants that I've sent you 
before that went viral on 

585
00:31:26,840 --> 00:31:30,320
TikTok. 
And she constantly has people on

586
00:31:30,320 --> 00:31:33,120
Etsy and other platforms 
advertising her product. 

587
00:31:33,320 --> 00:31:36,080
They've even went as far as 
setting up their own Shopify's, 

588
00:31:36,080 --> 00:31:39,880
their own websites, their own 
things, saying there's 20 in 

589
00:31:39,880 --> 00:31:43,280
stock of a one of one item. 
So a lot of creators who don't 

590
00:31:43,280 --> 00:31:46,960
even use Etsy are battling that.
But no, Etsy charges you like a 

591
00:31:46,960 --> 00:31:48,960
list fee. 
Whether you sell that item or 

592
00:31:48,960 --> 00:31:51,520
not, they're already charging 
you and you got to pay taxes. 

593
00:31:51,680 --> 00:31:55,560
And the crazy thing about it is 
they're not even shipping it for

594
00:31:55,560 --> 00:31:57,480
you. 
You're still doing all of that 

595
00:31:57,480 --> 00:32:00,920
back end work, too. 
You're making the item, shipping

596
00:32:00,920 --> 00:32:04,000
the item, marketing the item and
paying them for absolutely 

597
00:32:04,000 --> 00:32:06,400
nothing and giving taxes on it 
too. 

598
00:32:06,560 --> 00:32:09,120
So yeah, it's a weird thing. 
And you got to do sales tax when

599
00:32:09,120 --> 00:32:12,560
you sell items, which is why, 
you know, you got to be careful 

600
00:32:12,560 --> 00:32:14,720
when you sell items because if 
you're not collecting sales tax,

601
00:32:14,720 --> 00:32:16,160
you will have to like, pay that 
back. 

602
00:32:16,160 --> 00:32:19,000
So Etsy is just not user 
friendly for people who are 

603
00:32:19,000 --> 00:32:22,520
starting out because if someone 
wants to buy something from you,

604
00:32:22,800 --> 00:32:27,760
you should be able to send them 
the link and you know, get it 

605
00:32:27,760 --> 00:32:33,080
popping get. 
It popping yeah, I know I'm not 

606
00:32:33,080 --> 00:32:36,280
a fan. 
I do like supporting people's 

607
00:32:36,280 --> 00:32:39,040
like handcrafted things and 
small businesses though. 

608
00:32:39,080 --> 00:32:41,480
And so I think that's really 
important. 

609
00:32:41,480 --> 00:32:44,400
So I try to step in and do that 
with like my newsletter and like

610
00:32:44,400 --> 00:32:46,520
my shop of the month and stuff 
because I think it's so 

611
00:32:46,520 --> 00:32:49,600
important for us to be 
supporting the people who really

612
00:32:49,600 --> 00:32:51,840
are like small businesses and 
doing their stuff. 

613
00:32:51,840 --> 00:32:55,160
Like that girl, yeah, she's 
charging $800.00, but the 

614
00:32:55,160 --> 00:32:57,760
quality looks fucking fire. 
It looks like it's going to 

615
00:32:57,760 --> 00:32:59,800
last. 
The print is incredible. 

616
00:32:59,800 --> 00:33:03,120
The ink is amazing. 
Like if you have the $800 to 

617
00:33:03,120 --> 00:33:05,280
spend on a pair of sweatpants, 
like those would be the 

618
00:33:05,280 --> 00:33:08,240
sweatpants to get because of the
fucking quality and the niche 

619
00:33:08,240 --> 00:33:10,520
that it is. 
Like that makes sense to me. 

620
00:33:12,000 --> 00:33:15,120
But there are also a lot of like
really small businesses that 

621
00:33:15,120 --> 00:33:17,080
struggle and aren't able to do 
things. 

622
00:33:17,080 --> 00:33:22,760
And I I think that there's a big
like pride thing that people 

623
00:33:22,760 --> 00:33:25,560
have about getting help. 
And I think that that's an 

624
00:33:25,560 --> 00:33:29,160
important part of business for 
people to understand is that it 

625
00:33:29,320 --> 00:33:32,160
there's not a pride thing 
involved in you getting help and

626
00:33:32,160 --> 00:33:35,920
bringing people in who are good 
at things that you might need 

627
00:33:35,920 --> 00:33:39,240
help on. 
So you know if you need help 

628
00:33:39,240 --> 00:33:39,920
with. 
Branding. 

629
00:33:39,920 --> 00:33:42,240
You need to figure out how to 
even build your business and how

630
00:33:42,240 --> 00:33:44,560
to even like do videos and 
stuff. 

631
00:33:44,560 --> 00:33:50,240
You hiring somebody as a brand 
consultant for like just helping

632
00:33:50,240 --> 00:33:52,600
you with that. 
You're spending maybe a couple 

633
00:33:52,600 --> 00:33:55,600
$100 depending on the person. 
You don't have to get some huge 

634
00:33:55,600 --> 00:34:00,160
corporation, but you know, we've
hired on help because the 

635
00:34:00,160 --> 00:34:03,000
production side of things, in 
addition to the other parts of 

636
00:34:03,000 --> 00:34:07,320
the podcast and doing all of our
own, like, you know, marketing 

637
00:34:07,320 --> 00:34:10,840
and getting people listening to 
the podcast and ourselves and 

638
00:34:10,840 --> 00:34:11,840
stuff. 
That's a big thing. 

639
00:34:11,840 --> 00:34:15,679
So we outsourced and got 
production and we easily could 

640
00:34:15,679 --> 00:34:19,080
be like, no, like we want to be 
an all female podcast that 

641
00:34:19,080 --> 00:34:21,040
doesn't hire any men to do 
anything. 

642
00:34:21,040 --> 00:34:22,960
No, John's fucking good at 
production. 

643
00:34:23,280 --> 00:34:26,280
And you know, we've taken it, 
you know, and, and we had to 

644
00:34:26,280 --> 00:34:29,600
outsource help. 
And I don't think there are 

645
00:34:29,600 --> 00:34:33,000
enough people who talk about 
business and give business 

646
00:34:33,000 --> 00:34:35,840
advice. 
That doesn't sound corporatey. 

647
00:34:36,080 --> 00:34:39,880
And that isn't like I've done 
this, so you should do this. 

648
00:34:40,480 --> 00:34:43,960
Yes. 
And what is happening is people 

649
00:34:44,120 --> 00:34:47,639
take a workshop that they paid 
and we talked about this before 

650
00:34:47,760 --> 00:34:53,040
5/10/15 grand for and whoever 
that was convinced them to 

651
00:34:53,280 --> 00:34:58,920
really bombard you with MLM 
tactics or flip selling or spin 

652
00:34:58,920 --> 00:35:01,080
selling or whatever you want to 
call it tactics. 

653
00:35:01,360 --> 00:35:04,360
And the crazy thing is, is what 
they teach them is you only need

654
00:35:04,360 --> 00:35:06,680
to get a few clients. 
You only need to get a few 

655
00:35:06,680 --> 00:35:09,200
clients because the bill is so 
big. 

656
00:35:09,240 --> 00:35:12,880
And I get that. 
And I am all for businesses who 

657
00:35:12,880 --> 00:35:16,160
are able to charge $800.00 or 
$1200 or whatever it is. 

658
00:35:16,160 --> 00:35:20,360
Like you know, me and Jim and I 
know a lot of witches out there 

659
00:35:20,360 --> 00:35:23,240
and a lot of psychics out there 
who are charging thousands of 

660
00:35:23,240 --> 00:35:25,640
dollars for an hour of their 
time. 

661
00:35:25,680 --> 00:35:29,200
And not to say that I would ever
do that, but you know, it is out

662
00:35:29,200 --> 00:35:30,640
there. 
It is out there. 

663
00:35:30,640 --> 00:35:35,000
So people are willing to pay 
anything that you believe 

664
00:35:35,000 --> 00:35:37,720
they're willing to pay. 
But are you able to make that 

665
00:35:37,720 --> 00:35:41,640
person say, that was the best 
$1000 I ever fucking spent in my

666
00:35:41,640 --> 00:35:43,640
life? 
Or is that person going to have 

667
00:35:43,640 --> 00:35:45,560
buyer's remorse? 
Or is that person going to go 

668
00:35:45,560 --> 00:35:49,320
back and say, actually, I could 
have spent that money on 

669
00:35:49,320 --> 00:35:52,800
something different? 
That person sold me a dream that

670
00:35:52,800 --> 00:35:55,840
I don't have the confidence to 
execute, or I don't have the 

671
00:35:55,840 --> 00:36:01,240
strength and the curiosity to 
explore new concepts and learn 

672
00:36:01,360 --> 00:36:02,800
things I've never learned 
before. 

673
00:36:02,960 --> 00:36:05,200
That's the thing. 
People want to get paid and stay

674
00:36:05,440 --> 00:36:07,440
in their comfort zone, or they 
want to do it the way they've 

675
00:36:07,440 --> 00:36:10,480
always done it, or they want to 
do it the way someone else has 

676
00:36:10,480 --> 00:36:12,520
done it, and that's not going to
work. 

677
00:36:12,680 --> 00:36:16,760
You can work with someone to get
inspired from their concepts and

678
00:36:16,760 --> 00:36:20,240
ideas, but ultimately if you 
don't figure out a way to put 

679
00:36:20,240 --> 00:36:22,760
that in action in your daily 
life, you're going to fail. 

680
00:36:25,320 --> 00:36:29,720
Absolutely all of that I saw. 
I was watching a show last night

681
00:36:29,720 --> 00:36:34,600
and one of the ladies was 
talking about, she's talking to 

682
00:36:34,600 --> 00:36:37,960
somebody who's in training for, 
like, being a spiritual mentor. 

683
00:36:38,320 --> 00:36:41,720
And she's like, OK, So you know,
you have the responsibility of 

684
00:36:41,720 --> 00:36:44,960
not going now into the streets 
and opening up everybody's 

685
00:36:44,960 --> 00:36:49,320
wounds and then not helping 
teach them how to heal them and 

686
00:36:49,320 --> 00:36:52,320
walking them through the 
different steps that needed to 

687
00:36:52,320 --> 00:36:54,360
be walked through and whatever. 
And I just thought that was 

688
00:36:54,360 --> 00:36:56,560
really beautiful message from 
her. 

689
00:36:57,640 --> 00:37:01,360
Yeah, and I think what's even 
more beautiful is just not even 

690
00:37:01,360 --> 00:37:04,360
worrying about the people who 
don't want to change and just 

691
00:37:04,360 --> 00:37:08,720
growing and elevating and 
naturally magnetizing towards 

692
00:37:08,720 --> 00:37:11,120
the people, places and things 
that actually serve you. 

693
00:37:11,320 --> 00:37:14,120
The people, places and things 
that encourage you and inspire 

694
00:37:14,120 --> 00:37:16,280
you. 
And I love being around people 

695
00:37:16,280 --> 00:37:19,520
who are more successful than me,
who are just more badass than 

696
00:37:19,520 --> 00:37:23,320
me, that have more things going 
than I do because it shows me 

697
00:37:23,320 --> 00:37:24,960
that there is a way to balance 
it all. 

698
00:37:25,080 --> 00:37:26,640
There is a way to bring it all 
in. 

699
00:37:26,760 --> 00:37:29,880
There is a way to be grateful 
and share with others. 

700
00:37:30,000 --> 00:37:32,960
You know, there's so many people
that do things for me all the 

701
00:37:32,960 --> 00:37:35,200
time that I could never repay 
them for. 

702
00:37:35,200 --> 00:37:37,960
But it's really cool that 
they're like, yeah, this person 

703
00:37:38,120 --> 00:37:41,400
adds value to this experience or
it adds value to my life. 

704
00:37:41,560 --> 00:37:43,680
So I want them there. 
And that's the type of people 

705
00:37:43,680 --> 00:37:48,520
you want to be working with and 
you want to be seeing in in 

706
00:37:48,520 --> 00:37:51,120
creating that that vision with, 
because you can't have the 

707
00:37:51,120 --> 00:37:54,080
pessimistic ass people are like,
yeah, that's going to cost a 

708
00:37:54,080 --> 00:37:55,720
lot. 
Who's going to do that? 

709
00:37:55,880 --> 00:37:57,640
How are you going to do that? 
How? 

710
00:37:57,640 --> 00:37:59,560
Who's going to listen? 
Who's going to buy it? 

711
00:37:59,720 --> 00:38:02,320
Who's going to support it? 
That's the shit you don't need. 

712
00:38:03,800 --> 00:38:06,600
And you should remove yourself 
immediately from people whose 

713
00:38:06,600 --> 00:38:09,640
first initial thing is to 
question the thing that you're 

714
00:38:09,640 --> 00:38:12,360
saying. 
If if you have close people to 

715
00:38:12,360 --> 00:38:14,800
you and the first thing isn't 
fuck yeah, that's what you're 

716
00:38:14,800 --> 00:38:16,840
going to do before going. 
OK. 

717
00:38:16,840 --> 00:38:19,520
What are the logistics about it?
What's your audience for that? 

718
00:38:19,800 --> 00:38:22,960
How have you thought about 
having a budget and a business 

719
00:38:22,960 --> 00:38:26,080
plan? 
Like how how far along on this 

720
00:38:26,080 --> 00:38:28,080
idea are you? 
Is there something that I can 

721
00:38:28,080 --> 00:38:29,800
help with? 
Like I'm great at figuring out 

722
00:38:29,800 --> 00:38:31,360
budgets and putting something, 
you know what I mean? 

723
00:38:31,360 --> 00:38:34,520
Like there's I and I think that 
that's that's an important thing

724
00:38:34,520 --> 00:38:39,800
to say because people don't have
to fucking not question you 

725
00:38:39,800 --> 00:38:45,000
about anything or, or not. 
Yeah, not question about things.

726
00:38:45,000 --> 00:38:48,320
But there's a way for people to 
be invested and question what 

727
00:38:48,320 --> 00:38:52,320
you're doing in a form of 
helping you and seeing how it is

728
00:38:52,320 --> 00:38:55,040
that they can help you navigate 
that or maybe showing you 

729
00:38:55,040 --> 00:38:58,600
something you may not have seen 
while fully believing that fuck 

730
00:38:58,600 --> 00:39:00,280
yeah, you're going to accomplish
that. 

731
00:39:00,640 --> 00:39:03,720
How do I help you do that? 
There's a difference in the. 

732
00:39:04,920 --> 00:39:06,680
Exactly. 
And it's like people who are 

733
00:39:06,680 --> 00:39:09,520
going to keep it real with you 
and say, yeah, I'll support you 

734
00:39:09,520 --> 00:39:12,840
in any way that I can. 
But there is some work. 

735
00:39:12,840 --> 00:39:16,240
Like, you might not want to quit
your job yet because you don't 

736
00:39:16,240 --> 00:39:20,560
have an audience where you might
not want to run off to Barbados 

737
00:39:20,560 --> 00:39:22,120
and do that yet. 
Or, you know what I mean? 

738
00:39:22,120 --> 00:39:25,720
Like, at least someone who can 
speak out, like, encouragement 

739
00:39:25,720 --> 00:39:29,360
and support, even if it doesn't 
make sense to them, but also 

740
00:39:29,480 --> 00:39:32,200
pull you back down to earth and 
say, yeah, but don't like, put 

741
00:39:32,200 --> 00:39:33,960
all your eggs into this basket 
yet. 

742
00:39:33,960 --> 00:39:35,680
Like, yeah, that sounds really 
cool. 

743
00:39:35,680 --> 00:39:37,920
If you dedicate your time, I 
know you can do it because 

744
00:39:37,920 --> 00:39:39,320
you've done shit like that 
before. 

745
00:39:39,320 --> 00:39:42,560
I know you have the drive to get
that done or you know what I 

746
00:39:42,560 --> 00:39:43,880
mean? 
Like someone who's going to say 

747
00:39:44,120 --> 00:39:47,040
encouraging things, but also 
keep you supported and grounded 

748
00:39:47,400 --> 00:39:49,720
because a bad friend's going to 
be like, you should quit your 

749
00:39:49,720 --> 00:39:52,600
job, you know, like they're 
going to simultaneously 

750
00:39:52,600 --> 00:39:54,920
encourage you to do things that 
aren't going to serve you. 

751
00:39:54,920 --> 00:39:57,880
So it's like, for one, read the 
room, who are we getting advice 

752
00:39:57,880 --> 00:39:59,880
from? 
For two, do I want to be like 

753
00:39:59,880 --> 00:40:03,000
that person? 
Do they live the life of luxury 

754
00:40:03,000 --> 00:40:05,720
or happiness or joy that I want 
to live? 

755
00:40:06,000 --> 00:40:09,160
And then thirdly, does this 
resonate with me or is this to 

756
00:40:09,160 --> 00:40:11,560
impress other people? 
That's the one thing you always 

757
00:40:11,560 --> 00:40:14,000
got to ask yourself because a 
lot of people want to be famous.

758
00:40:14,000 --> 00:40:16,240
They want to sing, they want a 
podcast, they want a Ferrari, 

759
00:40:16,240 --> 00:40:17,320
they want to do all these 
things. 

760
00:40:17,560 --> 00:40:20,160
But that's for the gram. 
That was only for the gram that 

761
00:40:20,160 --> 00:40:22,680
wasn't for them. 
So then whenever the the lights 

762
00:40:22,680 --> 00:40:25,000
go off and they're sitting in 
the darkness, right, they're 

763
00:40:25,000 --> 00:40:28,440
still unhappy. 
Yeah, because you're doing 

764
00:40:28,440 --> 00:40:31,040
something that you think is 
going to, like, illuminate the 

765
00:40:31,040 --> 00:40:33,840
path for other people to see you
rather than for it to, like, 

766
00:40:34,120 --> 00:40:36,960
have a gratification for you. 
And I think that the things that

767
00:40:36,960 --> 00:40:40,040
you're saying too are huge when 
it comes to like being a 

768
00:40:40,040 --> 00:40:44,240
spiritual mentor too, like not 
being a yes man and being able 

769
00:40:44,240 --> 00:40:47,040
to lovingly point things out, 
but being like, hey, you know 

770
00:40:47,040 --> 00:40:49,600
how we're working on projection 
and these certain things. 

771
00:40:49,960 --> 00:40:52,040
This is how you're showing up in
our things. 

772
00:40:52,040 --> 00:40:54,960
Or this is, you know, how you're
viewing other people in the 

773
00:40:54,960 --> 00:40:57,720
community space or interacting 
or you know, whatever. 

774
00:40:57,720 --> 00:41:03,640
Because you are able to be that 
like, I'm here with love for 

775
00:41:03,640 --> 00:41:06,120
you. 
But these are the things. 

776
00:41:06,120 --> 00:41:07,400
Are you paying attention to 
them? 

777
00:41:07,400 --> 00:41:10,160
Do you notice them? 
Like they're noticeable on the 

778
00:41:10,160 --> 00:41:12,040
outside? 
Do you need help with this? 

779
00:41:12,040 --> 00:41:16,360
Is this something you recognize?
And I think that's where you and

780
00:41:16,360 --> 00:41:20,440
I too are like the spiritual 
mentorship is really important 

781
00:41:20,440 --> 00:41:23,600
to us. 
And we recognize that sure, it's

782
00:41:23,600 --> 00:41:27,320
so much energy, but people don't
have thousands of dollars to go 

783
00:41:27,320 --> 00:41:30,080
and spend a month and these 
crazy things. 

784
00:41:30,080 --> 00:41:34,920
And so we have like priced 
ourselves accordingly and we're 

785
00:41:34,920 --> 00:41:38,680
always having conversation about
like, you know, is this like, 

786
00:41:38,680 --> 00:41:41,440
does this make sense if we're 
wanting to add on a service or 

787
00:41:41,440 --> 00:41:44,080
change something, like does this
pricing make sense to you? 

788
00:41:44,080 --> 00:41:47,520
Like is, you know, and we do 
that with our Patreon tiers and 

789
00:41:47,520 --> 00:41:49,920
being like something about 
offering this, like, what do you

790
00:41:49,920 --> 00:41:53,400
think? 
And I think that's to a reason 

791
00:41:53,400 --> 00:41:57,800
why our dynamic works so nicely 
is because we can have like, not

792
00:41:57,800 --> 00:42:01,760
just like, ha ha, like Polly 
Pocket conversations together on

793
00:42:01,760 --> 00:42:05,360
the podcast, but we talk about 
these like real deep, like 

794
00:42:05,640 --> 00:42:08,200
business maneuvers and how we 
want to show up for community 

795
00:42:08,200 --> 00:42:11,320
and having that balance and 
having these conversations with 

796
00:42:11,320 --> 00:42:15,520
each other where we have to be 
really real and, and direct with

797
00:42:15,520 --> 00:42:17,320
each other. 
And you have to be like, we need

798
00:42:17,320 --> 00:42:20,360
to record this or we're going to
lose ads, get your, you know 

799
00:42:20,360 --> 00:42:21,840
what I mean? 
Like get on the microphone and 

800
00:42:21,840 --> 00:42:25,120
let's do it. 
And, you know, just yeah. 

801
00:42:26,120 --> 00:42:29,160
I think once again, like we've 
built a bond and a friendship 

802
00:42:29,160 --> 00:42:31,960
and when you have people around 
you that see you, they hold 

803
00:42:31,960 --> 00:42:34,440
space for you naturally. 
There's no forcing it. 

804
00:42:34,440 --> 00:42:36,320
There's no like, I wish you were
there for me. 

805
00:42:36,320 --> 00:42:39,000
I wish you saw that I was 
struggling or I wish you seen 

806
00:42:39,160 --> 00:42:41,720
that I needed your help. 
But you know, a real friend is 

807
00:42:41,720 --> 00:42:43,320
going to be observant. 
They're going to be able to 

808
00:42:43,320 --> 00:42:46,280
notice things that have changed.
But also a real friend is not 

809
00:42:46,280 --> 00:42:47,880
going to take that shit 
personally. 

810
00:42:48,160 --> 00:42:51,200
Like, yes, her going through 
things or me going through 

811
00:42:51,200 --> 00:42:55,120
things will affect one another 
naturally, but instead of it 

812
00:42:55,120 --> 00:42:58,640
making it about our business or 
our podcast, it's never been 

813
00:42:58,640 --> 00:42:59,960
about that. 
It's like, no, take care of 

814
00:42:59,960 --> 00:43:01,840
yourself. 
Oh no, I'm sorry that you're 

815
00:43:01,840 --> 00:43:03,920
dealing with that. 
That sounds crazy or that sounds

816
00:43:03,920 --> 00:43:07,520
terrible rather than, wow, we're
going to lose our fucking ads 

817
00:43:07,520 --> 00:43:09,400
because of this. 
You know, like there's a tone 

818
00:43:09,400 --> 00:43:11,320
for things. 
Like I do want to stay 

819
00:43:11,320 --> 00:43:13,880
consistent. 
And sometimes there is that 

820
00:43:13,880 --> 00:43:17,200
balance where I'm very grounded 
and in Geminis very much like 

821
00:43:17,200 --> 00:43:20,880
forward thinking constantly, 
like in the future thinking. 

822
00:43:21,160 --> 00:43:23,680
And so it's nice to have like, 
that equal balance where it's 

823
00:43:23,680 --> 00:43:25,920
like, yes, those are really 
great ideas. 

824
00:43:26,080 --> 00:43:29,880
I believe that this train of 
consistency and persistence is 

825
00:43:29,880 --> 00:43:32,520
actually the best way because 
then the results speak for 

826
00:43:32,520 --> 00:43:34,480
themselves or they speak 
volumes. 

827
00:43:34,480 --> 00:43:36,640
And that's for everyone. 
Like, this is like an 

828
00:43:36,640 --> 00:43:40,440
application of how you balance 
the future, the present and the 

829
00:43:40,440 --> 00:43:43,440
past, right? 
Like you have to be OK with 

830
00:43:43,960 --> 00:43:46,640
there being loose ends or 
they're being, you know, a 

831
00:43:46,640 --> 00:43:49,480
little bit to work on at all 
times. 

832
00:43:49,680 --> 00:43:53,880
You have to be OK with that. 
I just think that that thing 

833
00:43:53,880 --> 00:43:56,640
that we talked about that you're
referencing, that you're like, 

834
00:43:56,640 --> 00:44:01,200
we just got to have consistency.
I just think that the things 

835
00:44:01,200 --> 00:44:06,040
that we speak out on this 
podcast end up going into that 

836
00:44:06,040 --> 00:44:11,560
brain and subconsciously and it 
ends up happening and I'm 

837
00:44:11,560 --> 00:44:14,960
manifesting that we don't even 
that we just put in that 

838
00:44:14,960 --> 00:44:18,440
consistency and we don't even 
have to say anything because the

839
00:44:18,440 --> 00:44:21,680
universe is like, I'm going to 
plop this idea about this 

840
00:44:21,680 --> 00:44:24,120
podcast into this brain over 
here. 

841
00:44:24,520 --> 00:44:28,240
And that that really is where 
I'm I'm putting my energy on 

842
00:44:28,240 --> 00:44:30,280
channeling my thought into that 
brain. 

843
00:44:31,000 --> 00:44:32,880
Yes. 
And honestly, I think at the end

844
00:44:32,880 --> 00:44:37,240
of the day, like volume is 
putting in the work. 

845
00:44:37,240 --> 00:44:39,720
Like people are like, I want to 
be a content creator. 

846
00:44:39,920 --> 00:44:41,920
I need to boost my stats for the
week. 

847
00:44:41,920 --> 00:44:44,840
I need this much interaction. 
Just make good content. 

848
00:44:45,120 --> 00:44:47,840
Just make good content. 
Like you've learned that quick, 

849
00:44:47,840 --> 00:44:51,400
like quick little click bait 
content generates views and 

850
00:44:51,400 --> 00:44:55,000
comments, but just put out good 
shit because in six months or a 

851
00:44:55,000 --> 00:44:56,720
year, it's still going to be 
hitting. 

852
00:44:56,960 --> 00:44:59,880
If it if it made sense and it 
was hitting now, it doesn't 

853
00:44:59,880 --> 00:45:02,400
matter who sees it right now 
because it's going to be there 

854
00:45:02,400 --> 00:45:04,480
forever. 
So I really feel like people 

855
00:45:04,480 --> 00:45:09,000
don't realize how often someone 
will do something completely 

856
00:45:09,160 --> 00:45:11,200
irrelevant to what they've been 
doing. 

857
00:45:11,440 --> 00:45:14,400
And then someone goes back and 
looks at their whole catalog, 

858
00:45:14,600 --> 00:45:19,320
whether it's music, movies, art,
you know, whatever podcasts and 

859
00:45:19,320 --> 00:45:22,320
episodes, you know, all of a 
sudden everybody wants to hear 

860
00:45:22,320 --> 00:45:24,640
what you have to say. 
But no one was listening five 

861
00:45:24,640 --> 00:45:27,480
years ago, but you were in the 
game. 

862
00:45:27,560 --> 00:45:30,600
You didn't see that you needed 
that recognition now. 

863
00:45:30,600 --> 00:45:33,720
You knew that putting in the 
work when you had that passion 

864
00:45:33,720 --> 00:45:37,320
or you had that chaos or that 
tremendous stuff going on that 

865
00:45:37,320 --> 00:45:41,120
you needed to channel, right? 
Like all of those situations are

866
00:45:41,120 --> 00:45:42,840
meant to prepare you for 
something greater. 

867
00:45:43,000 --> 00:45:46,440
Like what you do now actually 
does matter a lot to your future

868
00:45:46,440 --> 00:45:49,240
self because one day it's going 
to be your legacy. 

869
00:45:50,400 --> 00:45:53,160
Fact Do you want to hear a human
design card? 

870
00:45:53,440 --> 00:45:57,600
Yeah. 
I pulled card 46 and it was the 

871
00:45:57,600 --> 00:46:06,790
card of illumination. 
The sign is Virgo and Libra. 

872
00:46:08,120 --> 00:46:09,880
Don't worry about being a Libra.
No, we're Taurus. 

873
00:46:10,880 --> 00:46:14,960
The gift is the light and the 
shadow is seriousness. 

874
00:46:16,080 --> 00:46:18,360
The gift of delight presents 
itself to you. 

875
00:46:18,360 --> 00:46:21,400
Once you've moved into 
acceptance of all that you are, 

876
00:46:21,880 --> 00:46:24,680
you realize the depth and 
splendor of life and the 

877
00:46:24,680 --> 00:46:28,520
spectrum of experience. 
The shackles of the past no 

878
00:46:28,520 --> 00:46:31,640
longer restrain you and the 
future does not loom over you 

879
00:46:32,480 --> 00:46:35,400
when you follow your inner 
guidance system, whether that be

880
00:46:35,400 --> 00:46:38,120
your intuition, gut or 
otherwise. 

881
00:46:38,480 --> 00:46:41,680
It's as though you've uncoded 
the secret to luck and good 

882
00:46:41,680 --> 00:46:44,880
fortune. 
Suddenly you happen to be in the

883
00:46:44,880 --> 00:46:48,600
right place at the right time. 
Your energy lightens and you are

884
00:46:48,600 --> 00:46:51,800
no longer strapped solely to the
limiting density of matter. 

885
00:46:52,280 --> 00:46:55,000
You remember your multi 
dimensional nature and the 

886
00:46:55,000 --> 00:46:57,120
freedom that comes from each new
dawn. 

887
00:46:57,640 --> 00:47:00,760
Life regains its fluidity and 
opportunities abound. 

888
00:47:02,240 --> 00:47:05,160
The shadow creeps up when you 
take life too seriously. 

889
00:47:05,520 --> 00:47:08,800
You hold on to life with an 
unbreakable rigidity as an 

890
00:47:08,800 --> 00:47:11,480
attempt to control it, though 
this measure is 

891
00:47:11,480 --> 00:47:15,240
counterproductive because life 
will truly flow if you trust in 

892
00:47:15,240 --> 00:47:17,360
synchronosity and lean into 
purpose. 

893
00:47:17,760 --> 00:47:21,400
You are your purpose. 
When you unravel all that is not

894
00:47:21,400 --> 00:47:24,880
you and instead honor your inner
truth, your purpose moves 

895
00:47:24,880 --> 00:47:27,840
through you. 
Seriousness is a dark cloud that

896
00:47:27,840 --> 00:47:30,880
prevents you from enjoying the 
lush delights of this lifetime. 

897
00:47:31,480 --> 00:47:34,440
It focuses too greatly on the 
past or the future. 

898
00:47:34,760 --> 00:47:38,120
When repressing this energy. 
It rises to the surface as 

899
00:47:38,160 --> 00:47:42,040
frigidity and both expression, 
expression, and in your body, 

900
00:47:42,400 --> 00:47:46,160
all sensuality is lost and your 
relationship to your sacred vest

901
00:47:46,160 --> 00:47:49,960
will becomes obfuscated in a 
reactive state. 

902
00:47:50,280 --> 00:47:53,320
You may appear frivolous, as if 
nothing could touch you. 

903
00:47:53,880 --> 00:47:57,440
Outwardly, you come across as 
carefree and easygoing, but it's

904
00:47:57,440 --> 00:48:00,200
only a mask to hide how 
seriously you take life. 

905
00:48:00,800 --> 00:48:04,160
Your themes are presence, 
synchronosity, flow, and luck. 

906
00:48:05,600 --> 00:48:07,400
Beautiful. 
I love it. 

907
00:48:09,720 --> 00:48:12,360
You know, what I really like is 
whenever you just believe you 

908
00:48:12,360 --> 00:48:15,040
deserve it, the universe gives 
you exactly what you need. 

909
00:48:15,040 --> 00:48:18,200
And when you trust that things 
are gonna work out, they just 

910
00:48:18,200 --> 00:48:21,120
magically do. 
And what's really cool about it 

911
00:48:21,120 --> 00:48:24,720
is like when you actually meet 
your higher self, where your 

912
00:48:24,720 --> 00:48:30,040
higher self is asking you to, 
you'll find the whole damn time,

913
00:48:30,040 --> 00:48:33,040
it was your routine, your 
habits, your sleep, your 

914
00:48:33,040 --> 00:48:35,640
environment, your relationships 
that was blocking you. 

915
00:48:35,920 --> 00:48:38,680
It wasn't your boss, it wasn't 
opportunity, it wasn't the 

916
00:48:38,680 --> 00:48:41,080
world, the government, anyone 
outside of you. 

917
00:48:41,320 --> 00:48:45,360
It was those things. 
And when that happens, we'll be 

918
00:48:45,360 --> 00:48:48,800
here to, you know, hold your 
hand and and tell you it's OK. 

919
00:48:49,000 --> 00:48:53,200
Because when we realize it's us,
we are being our own worst 

920
00:48:53,200 --> 00:48:55,040
enemy. 
That's when you will change. 

921
00:48:55,080 --> 00:48:57,520
It's not when your mom wants you
to, when your boyfriend wants 

922
00:48:57,520 --> 00:48:59,600
you to and your sister or your 
brother. 

923
00:48:59,800 --> 00:49:03,640
It's when you realize that 
you're holding yourself back. 

924
00:49:03,840 --> 00:49:05,920
And it's such a beautiful and 
blissful moment. 

925
00:49:05,920 --> 00:49:09,520
I love watching people get sober
or leave something toxic in 

926
00:49:09,520 --> 00:49:13,600
their life and realize, wow, I 
could have done this before, but

927
00:49:13,600 --> 00:49:17,440
now I am actually ready for it. 
Like now I'm not being forced. 

928
00:49:17,600 --> 00:49:20,320
People aren't telling me how 
dumb I am, how I don't love 

929
00:49:20,320 --> 00:49:22,520
myself, how I need to leave or 
whatever. 

930
00:49:22,760 --> 00:49:26,760
I'm realizing that for myself. 
And that's the type of awakening

931
00:49:26,760 --> 00:49:29,520
that you can't buy. 
You can't make it up, you can't 

932
00:49:29,520 --> 00:49:31,240
record it, you can't quantify 
it. 

933
00:49:31,240 --> 00:49:33,440
You've just got to go live it 
somewhere out there. 

934
00:49:34,760 --> 00:49:38,440
Absolutely Amen to all of that. 
I feel like there's so much that

935
00:49:38,440 --> 00:49:41,480
we have going on in our own 
personal lives that really hit 

936
00:49:41,480 --> 00:49:44,640
so many things that we talk 
about and and what's funny is 

937
00:49:44,640 --> 00:49:48,560
that we can these can hit for 
other people that don't even 

938
00:49:48,560 --> 00:49:50,880
know the things that we're going
through on the back end. 

939
00:49:50,920 --> 00:49:55,760
And I think that it'll be really
cool when we start to open up 

940
00:49:55,760 --> 00:49:58,280
more about just like our private
things, because you and I are 

941
00:49:58,280 --> 00:50:01,440
really private people when it 
when it comes down to like what 

942
00:50:01,440 --> 00:50:03,320
we have going on in the back end
of life. 

943
00:50:03,320 --> 00:50:06,720
Like we may talk about a lot of 
stuff, but we are so private. 

944
00:50:07,240 --> 00:50:10,760
And I feel like one day we're 
going to just start like sharing

945
00:50:10,760 --> 00:50:12,960
these experiences that happened 
on the back end. 

946
00:50:13,280 --> 00:50:16,880
And so many things that we've 
said throughout the podcast, 

947
00:50:17,120 --> 00:50:21,560
people are going to be like, oh,
so that's why like those things 

948
00:50:21,560 --> 00:50:24,360
were said or what that meant or 
these like little bread crumbs 

949
00:50:24,360 --> 00:50:25,600
were. 
And I think that it's like 

950
00:50:25,800 --> 00:50:28,840
having a diary where we're only 
like where we still have all 

951
00:50:28,840 --> 00:50:31,440
these blanks in but nobody 
fucking knows because it just 

952
00:50:31,440 --> 00:50:34,560
sounds effortless. 
Amen. 

953
00:50:34,560 --> 00:50:37,560
I can't wait. 
Thank you all for just 

954
00:50:37,720 --> 00:50:39,640
everything. 
The last three seasons have 

955
00:50:39,640 --> 00:50:44,920
really helped us grow as people,
as souls, as friends, and most 

956
00:50:44,920 --> 00:50:48,320
importantly as a community. 
So we could never repay you all 

957
00:50:48,320 --> 00:50:49,880
for what you all bring into our 
life. 

958
00:50:49,880 --> 00:50:54,600
And just hearing people catch up
on old episodes so you know we 

959
00:50:54,600 --> 00:50:57,600
are forever grateful. 
I remember we did the sunflower 

960
00:50:57,600 --> 00:51:00,880
emoji episode, so shout out to 
the people who know what that 

961
00:51:00,880 --> 00:51:02,240
means. 
If you don't know what that 

962
00:51:02,240 --> 00:51:05,480
means, go back and listen into 
sunflower emoji. 

963
00:51:06,320 --> 00:51:09,800
Yeah, I still get sunflower 
emojis randomly in my inbox and 

964
00:51:09,800 --> 00:51:11,920
that makes me smile. 
I love it. 

965
00:51:11,920 --> 00:51:14,720
So we will see you all next time
in Candyland. 

966
00:51:15,160 --> 00:51:16,440
Bye guys. 
Bye you. 

967
00:51:17,360 --> 00:51:19,440
Said She's so sweet, man. 
Come on. 

968
00:51:19,720 --> 00:51:22,840
Like the rapper. 
Like a lollipop. 

969
00:51:23,120 --> 00:51:30,440
Lollipop, Lollipop Lollipop 
Lollipop Lollipop Lollipop 

970
00:51:30,440 --> 00:51:30,760
Lollipop.