1 00:00:10,680 --> 00:00:16,400 Welcome to fucking Candy Land, hosted by Rampage and Gemini. 2 00:00:29,590 --> 00:00:32,310 Welcome back to Candyland, motherfuckers. 3 00:00:33,110 --> 00:00:37,070 That's going to be our new theme because the time that I did it, 4 00:00:37,110 --> 00:00:40,470 it was so aggressive. But when Gemini does it, it's so 5 00:00:40,470 --> 00:00:44,430 natural. I'm naturally aggressive. 6 00:00:44,430 --> 00:00:49,270 What can I say? My favorite thing is that we do 7 00:00:49,270 --> 00:00:52,990 have a lot of balance in our connection and like whenever I'm 8 00:00:52,990 --> 00:00:54,520 being. Aggressive. 9 00:00:54,520 --> 00:00:58,560 You're being calm and vice versa, so it really does give a 10 00:00:58,560 --> 00:01:01,880 lot of symbolism to like that yin and Yang energy, Yin and 11 00:01:01,880 --> 00:01:06,480 Yang, whatever you want to say. Because people can't always be 12 00:01:06,480 --> 00:01:08,680 aggressive. They have to find balance. 13 00:01:09,650 --> 00:01:13,650 Somebody was telling me how much they vibe with the podcast 14 00:01:13,650 --> 00:01:18,890 because we're so opposite that she's like one of you is single 15 00:01:18,890 --> 00:01:22,290 and doesn't have kids. And like you can just go and do 16 00:01:22,290 --> 00:01:25,250 whatever you want with your time and like your perspectives are 17 00:01:25,250 --> 00:01:27,650 different. And then with me having a kid 18 00:01:27,650 --> 00:01:30,930 and being married, like my perspectives on things and 19 00:01:31,210 --> 00:01:34,610 things that I'm able to do with my time are just very different. 20 00:01:34,610 --> 00:01:38,690 And she was like, you guys probably have such a wide 21 00:01:38,690 --> 00:01:43,050 variety of audience because you can really attach to so many 22 00:01:43,050 --> 00:01:46,410 different types of people and lend your energy in so many 23 00:01:46,410 --> 00:01:47,970 different ways. And I love that. 24 00:01:48,730 --> 00:01:52,930 I love that as well because I feel like our main goal with the 25 00:01:52,930 --> 00:01:58,090 podcast was to be diverse. You know we're not all love and 26 00:01:58,090 --> 00:02:02,890 light spirituality type people and even when people are 27 00:02:02,890 --> 00:02:08,870 surprised by our. Opinions on things and our hot 28 00:02:08,870 --> 00:02:11,990 takes. I feel like people can still see 29 00:02:11,990 --> 00:02:15,550 that we're not trying to force our beliefs on to you. 30 00:02:16,990 --> 00:02:18,670 Yeah. And I think that both of us 31 00:02:18,670 --> 00:02:21,910 being different to gives different viewpoints to the same 32 00:02:21,910 --> 00:02:25,190 topics. And so most people probably feel 33 00:02:25,190 --> 00:02:29,230 like they're heard and understood because we can cover 34 00:02:29,230 --> 00:02:33,510 so many different viewpoints on each individual topic that it 35 00:02:33,750 --> 00:02:38,370 it's hard to get frustrated with people that are genuinely, I 36 00:02:38,370 --> 00:02:41,370 think, looking at things from all different areas. 37 00:02:41,370 --> 00:02:44,450 And I say that, but people will be fucking mad no matter how 38 00:02:44,450 --> 00:02:47,650 many different ways you say something or how you flip it. 39 00:02:47,650 --> 00:02:50,210 So there's always going to be somebody with a stank pussy, but 40 00:02:50,210 --> 00:02:51,530 they don't need to be around anyways. 41 00:02:51,530 --> 00:02:53,210 Grab some badges so and have a nice day. 42 00:02:54,130 --> 00:02:57,690 The thing about it for me that I love the most is like. 43 00:02:58,250 --> 00:03:03,370 The waves of emotions since we started the podcast to flash 44 00:03:03,370 --> 00:03:08,250 forward to doing the podcast for almost two years and I know that 45 00:03:08,250 --> 00:03:11,770 right now the big theme, especially with like Gary Vee. 46 00:03:12,280 --> 00:03:15,160 Is like start a podcast like that is what he's pushing on 47 00:03:15,160 --> 00:03:18,760 every content creator. Meaning that the only way to 48 00:03:18,760 --> 00:03:23,720 really build a following is not going to be short reels or tik 49 00:03:23,720 --> 00:03:28,160 toks or, you know, just a little snippet about your life here and 50 00:03:28,160 --> 00:03:31,400 there on Facebook. But the way to build a true, 51 00:03:31,480 --> 00:03:35,120 real following that's going to support you and what you do for 52 00:03:35,120 --> 00:03:40,200 the long haul is to express your story and to put your story and 53 00:03:40,200 --> 00:03:43,490 your energy out there. And the thing that I love about 54 00:03:43,490 --> 00:03:49,130 that is everyone that wants to be seen is only wanting to be 55 00:03:49,130 --> 00:03:52,890 seen for a certain thing, like when they have makeup on, or 56 00:03:52,890 --> 00:03:56,210 when they're happy, or when they're successful, or when 57 00:03:56,210 --> 00:03:59,090 their bank account is 6. Figures like those are the 58 00:03:59,090 --> 00:04:02,210 things the universe or the Internet has like, promoted in 59 00:04:02,210 --> 00:04:06,650 the past. But now the new way to really 60 00:04:06,650 --> 00:04:10,650 grab your audience is to bring forth that vulnerable energy. 61 00:04:11,070 --> 00:04:15,390 And I feel like that's where we are growing together through 62 00:04:15,390 --> 00:04:20,110 this platform because we're not doing it for money or kickbacks 63 00:04:20,110 --> 00:04:22,990 or any of that. Like we are seriously doing it 64 00:04:22,990 --> 00:04:25,750 so people can get the full picture. 65 00:04:25,950 --> 00:04:30,030 I know a lot of people say I've listened to your podcast prior 66 00:04:30,030 --> 00:04:33,430 to booking a reading or I listened to Gemini's podcast. 67 00:04:33,750 --> 00:04:37,950 Then I made it over to Lollipop podcast and I'm starting to 68 00:04:37,950 --> 00:04:40,790 really see that you 2 have so many dynamics. 69 00:04:41,110 --> 00:04:43,710 And I think that's what's really cool about being able to Share 70 00:04:43,710 --> 00:04:46,750 your story with the world without worrying about being 71 00:04:46,750 --> 00:04:51,910 censored, That part. And also, too, podcasting is so 72 00:04:51,910 --> 00:04:55,450 cool because when you think about ways that people have been 73 00:04:55,450 --> 00:05:00,010 able to share their lives on media before, it's really been 74 00:05:00,010 --> 00:05:05,450 reality shows where somebody else is controlling the version 75 00:05:05,450 --> 00:05:07,930 of you that's being shown. Because even if they're 76 00:05:07,930 --> 00:05:12,050 following you around for a year, they have to make 12 to 15 77 00:05:12,050 --> 00:05:15,690 episodes out of that with having all of this other cast that they 78 00:05:15,690 --> 00:05:18,290 have to get in there too. So they really pick the 79 00:05:18,290 --> 00:05:20,730 storylines, the ways that they're going to edit things 80 00:05:20,730 --> 00:05:23,730 together, the pieces of you that are going to be shown. 81 00:05:24,210 --> 00:05:28,930 And so we, I think that there are a lot of people who say 82 00:05:28,930 --> 00:05:32,290 things and it gets manipulated or twisted and there it's made a 83 00:05:32,290 --> 00:05:36,170 lot of fear based things about people sharing pieces of 84 00:05:36,170 --> 00:05:39,770 themselves, especially due to like I almost said cancer 85 00:05:39,770 --> 00:05:42,810 culture, which same thing but cancel culture. 86 00:05:44,170 --> 00:05:50,120 And with podcasting, I feel like there's a lot less cancel 87 00:05:50,120 --> 00:05:53,840 culture about things because we're able to speak full 88 00:05:53,840 --> 00:05:57,720 articulate thoughts about things and then address if something 89 00:05:57,720 --> 00:06:00,640 comes up. And we recognize like we've had 90 00:06:00,640 --> 00:06:03,760 multiple times on here where we've said something, we've 91 00:06:03,760 --> 00:06:07,200 gotten feedback about it and we're like we get what it 92 00:06:07,200 --> 00:06:10,560 sounded like we were meaning and now that we're sitting back and 93 00:06:10,560 --> 00:06:12,400 we relisten, this is how we meant it. 94 00:06:12,760 --> 00:06:17,640 And so we're able to have that more one-on-one personal base 95 00:06:17,720 --> 00:06:20,860 and a longevity of conversations. 96 00:06:21,860 --> 00:06:27,100 My favorite thing about the Internet is most people only 97 00:06:27,100 --> 00:06:31,300 show you that highlight reel. But with a podcast, there is 98 00:06:31,300 --> 00:06:35,900 like a real world issues being addressed, like you know, us 99 00:06:35,900 --> 00:06:38,980 talking about like the medical field or talking about 100 00:06:39,180 --> 00:06:43,620 celebrities or just different things that we have been. 101 00:06:44,050 --> 00:06:48,250 Programmed to believe. And I'll be honest, I know for 102 00:06:48,250 --> 00:06:54,730 sure that like when we started this podcast in, I wasn't ready 103 00:06:54,730 --> 00:06:56,210 for what it was going to bring out of me. 104 00:06:56,210 --> 00:07:00,250 Like, I didn't realize how much I would elevate through having a 105 00:07:00,250 --> 00:07:03,170 podcast. And how much it would like help 106 00:07:03,170 --> 00:07:07,530 me to find my own strengths and my own vulnerabilities. 107 00:07:07,850 --> 00:07:12,090 And I feel like anyone who is afraid to be seen should 108 00:07:12,090 --> 00:07:16,650 definitely dig deeper as to why you are afraid of truly being 109 00:07:16,650 --> 00:07:19,370 seen or heard. You know, I see so many 110 00:07:19,370 --> 00:07:22,970 beautiful people that are so talented, but they're not 111 00:07:22,970 --> 00:07:27,210 talented in the ways the Internet celebrates. 112 00:07:27,210 --> 00:07:29,610 You know what I mean? Like they have their own unique 113 00:07:29,610 --> 00:07:32,650 talents. But instead of stepping forward 114 00:07:32,650 --> 00:07:35,970 and putting themselves out there, they're afraid because no 115 00:07:35,970 --> 00:07:38,730 one is listening. They're like, well, no one cares 116 00:07:38,730 --> 00:07:41,490 about my story. And that's because you don't put 117 00:07:41,490 --> 00:07:43,970 yourself out there. If you're trying to build a 118 00:07:43,970 --> 00:07:47,730 brand, posting once or twice a month is not going to cut it. 119 00:07:48,010 --> 00:07:52,650 Posting whenever you are happy or all put together is not going 120 00:07:52,650 --> 00:07:56,010 to cut it because then you're going to create some standard of 121 00:07:56,010 --> 00:07:59,850 like this is my life. And so then when your audience 122 00:07:59,890 --> 00:08:03,890 sees you without makeup or sees you depressed or sad, they're 123 00:08:03,890 --> 00:08:07,330 going to be like that person's fake or that person's phony. 124 00:08:07,530 --> 00:08:12,450 But if you give someone a full 365 picture of yourself and who 125 00:08:12,450 --> 00:08:15,690 you really are, you don't need to show up in any certain way 126 00:08:15,690 --> 00:08:19,930 because they're going to be supportive of you as a human, 127 00:08:19,930 --> 00:08:24,330 not you as a brand. I have multiple things to add to 128 00:08:24,330 --> 00:08:28,800 what you just said. So going back to us discussing 129 00:08:30,160 --> 00:08:33,039 like the Internet culture and and people talking or whatever. 130 00:08:33,039 --> 00:08:38,400 So I was texting Samantha Leah yesterday that singer and or 131 00:08:38,400 --> 00:08:43,640 musician and she was like I had a scam account reach out to me 132 00:08:43,640 --> 00:08:46,720 about you yadda yadda and she's like what the fuck? 133 00:08:47,120 --> 00:08:52,980 And she said we need a better system and people also having 134 00:08:52,980 --> 00:08:55,980 better judgment and realizing that the Internet is the 135 00:08:55,980 --> 00:08:59,820 scammiest place on earth. And I said, I like to believe 136 00:08:59,820 --> 00:09:03,260 that the Internet reflects how the collective is when they 137 00:09:03,260 --> 00:09:06,100 think no one is looking and it shows the areas that need 138 00:09:06,100 --> 00:09:07,940 healing inside of the collective. 139 00:09:08,500 --> 00:09:13,880 And and I feel like that is stuff that we have really lent 140 00:09:13,880 --> 00:09:17,400 to our platform too. As we've talked about people 141 00:09:17,400 --> 00:09:20,280 that are scamming in areas that they're probably lacking in the 142 00:09:20,280 --> 00:09:25,480 mindset that we can have of, well, people are just blaming me 143 00:09:25,480 --> 00:09:28,480 for being scammed. And you could be super 144 00:09:28,480 --> 00:09:32,040 frustrated about that and lend your energy into that way and 145 00:09:32,040 --> 00:09:35,720 have it block your creativity moving forward because, well, 146 00:09:35,720 --> 00:09:38,320 this is just going to get stolen and somebody else is going to 147 00:09:38,320 --> 00:09:42,680 get my credit or whatever. Or you can shift that mindset. 148 00:09:42,720 --> 00:09:47,520 And since shifting that mindset, instead of being frustrated 149 00:09:47,520 --> 00:09:51,520 about the fact that like scammers are using my link tree 150 00:09:51,520 --> 00:09:55,380 and what I've like my actual link tree, I've turned it around 151 00:09:55,380 --> 00:09:58,900 and we've talked about it before to it being free marketing. 152 00:09:59,260 --> 00:10:03,140 And so this is somebody who is scared to get in front of the 153 00:10:03,140 --> 00:10:07,660 camera and scared to be who they truly are because they think 154 00:10:07,660 --> 00:10:11,500 that it would be easier to pretend to be me and scam their 155 00:10:11,500 --> 00:10:14,580 way through. And in the end, I end up getting 156 00:10:14,580 --> 00:10:18,700 blessed out of it because you're using my actual link, my actual 157 00:10:18,700 --> 00:10:21,220 face and energy. You're bringing people in who 158 00:10:21,220 --> 00:10:23,940 are getting readings with me, who are finding out that your 159 00:10:23,940 --> 00:10:27,460 phone, Tony, you're putting my videos on, people are seeing it 160 00:10:27,460 --> 00:10:30,900 that never would have before and see my watermark of my TikTok 161 00:10:30,900 --> 00:10:33,940 page and go and add me. I've had people say that they 162 00:10:33,940 --> 00:10:39,140 found us because people have made fake pages saying that they 163 00:10:39,140 --> 00:10:43,300 host the Lollipop podcast and they tag our actual Instagram 164 00:10:43,300 --> 00:10:45,500 page. People go to our Instagram page 165 00:10:45,500 --> 00:10:48,260 and are like, oh shit, I love this podcast and start 166 00:10:48,260 --> 00:10:52,700 listening, you know, So it really is all about the way that 167 00:10:52,700 --> 00:10:58,260 you're going to show up and how you're going to be letting other 168 00:10:58,260 --> 00:11:02,940 people's inauthenticity around you affect you too. 169 00:11:03,340 --> 00:11:09,420 And I think it's sad that people would hold themselves back 170 00:11:09,700 --> 00:11:12,620 because they don't think they would do something as good as 171 00:11:12,620 --> 00:11:16,940 somebody else. And I have a friend who does. 172 00:11:17,860 --> 00:11:22,060 She does like marketing and branding for people who do 173 00:11:22,060 --> 00:11:26,340 social media. And I've been talking to her as 174 00:11:26,340 --> 00:11:30,060 I've been building my platforms because we met each other doing 175 00:11:30,060 --> 00:11:33,900 MLM together. And that's a very, like, you get 176 00:11:33,900 --> 00:11:38,470 brainwashed. You're told, like you have to be 177 00:11:38,470 --> 00:11:41,750 doing this amount of things and being people's inboxes and 178 00:11:41,950 --> 00:11:44,310 talking to people like this and doing these things. 179 00:11:44,310 --> 00:11:47,510 And then when you're on social media for yourself doing the 180 00:11:47,510 --> 00:11:50,670 business, you have to completely retrain yourself. 181 00:11:50,670 --> 00:11:55,510 Because I'm not going to sit here with my tarot readings and 182 00:11:55,990 --> 00:12:00,470 be inboxing people and being like I have a special today for 183 00:12:00,470 --> 00:12:03,590 tarot card readings. Like I may put a post up here or 184 00:12:03,590 --> 00:12:06,200 there, but it's totally different. 185 00:12:06,200 --> 00:12:11,480 And I was telling her this was like a year and a half ago. 186 00:12:11,800 --> 00:12:15,560 How frustrated. No, this was like 2 years ago. 187 00:12:15,800 --> 00:12:20,260 This was when, right before we had started marketing for 188 00:12:20,260 --> 00:12:24,060 podcast for Lollipop and I was doing Coven and I was telling 189 00:12:24,060 --> 00:12:28,220 her like, I'm just so frustrated because I see all of these other 190 00:12:28,220 --> 00:12:31,500 people with their branding things and their podcast stuff 191 00:12:31,500 --> 00:12:34,820 and their previews and their content looks so good and I just 192 00:12:34,820 --> 00:12:38,930 can't figure out how to make it look like that and you'll never 193 00:12:38,930 --> 00:12:42,290 forget, she said. Everybody's stuff ends up, it 194 00:12:42,330 --> 00:12:46,650 starts out looking low budget and you make it look high budget 195 00:12:46,890 --> 00:12:50,450 because your energy evolves, your audience evolves and your 196 00:12:50,450 --> 00:12:54,210 income evolves and nobody starts off with everything looking 197 00:12:54,210 --> 00:12:56,410 good. If you look at anybody who has 198 00:12:56,410 --> 00:13:00,370 quote UN quote, made it where they started, looks low budget 199 00:13:01,330 --> 00:13:06,150 and I love it. Came into that because whenever 200 00:13:06,150 --> 00:13:10,430 I first started doing live readings, I literally, like my 201 00:13:10,430 --> 00:13:14,590 spirit guides were like, look, you got to practice getting in 202 00:13:14,590 --> 00:13:17,470 front of the camera, you got to practice, you know, on your 203 00:13:17,470 --> 00:13:19,910 public speaking and utilizing your skills. 204 00:13:20,270 --> 00:13:24,710 And so I used to just go live on Instagram like pre Pandemic and 205 00:13:24,710 --> 00:13:28,070 just do live readings. And at that time, you know, 206 00:13:28,070 --> 00:13:30,470 reels weren't a thing, TikTok wasn't a thing. 207 00:13:30,470 --> 00:13:34,080 So the live videos were pushed. And that's really where I 208 00:13:34,080 --> 00:13:36,440 started to build a lot of my following. 209 00:13:36,800 --> 00:13:41,720 And I'm so excited because now my logistics, they say that I 210 00:13:41,720 --> 00:13:46,040 have like 20,000 views on my profile a month on Instagram, 211 00:13:46,480 --> 00:13:49,280 but yet I only have 9500 followers. 212 00:13:49,280 --> 00:13:52,400 So, like, I know there's 12,000 people out there that are like, 213 00:13:52,400 --> 00:13:57,640 looking at my stuff. And just watching, but now my 214 00:13:57,640 --> 00:14:03,080 logistics have actually flipped. Where I used to rank about 67% 215 00:14:03,080 --> 00:14:06,200 was men and then the other percentage was women. 216 00:14:06,640 --> 00:14:12,680 It finally went 54% women and like whatever, 46% men. 217 00:14:13,400 --> 00:14:17,430 And I'm so excited because. I remember thinking to myself, 218 00:14:17,430 --> 00:14:21,910 like the men following me, they want to see, like modeling, or 219 00:14:21,910 --> 00:14:24,830 they want to see something else that they don't care about my 220 00:14:25,070 --> 00:14:29,230 tarot. But now my audience has really 221 00:14:29,230 --> 00:14:34,350 flipped to more women, which I love because those were like the 222 00:14:34,350 --> 00:14:37,790 target audience of people that I would mentor or that I would 223 00:14:37,790 --> 00:14:41,520 work with. But then as I've grown, I look 224 00:14:41,520 --> 00:14:45,160 back at those videos and I don't delete them because it's like 225 00:14:45,200 --> 00:14:49,200 they're there for a reason. They're really showing this 226 00:14:49,200 --> 00:14:54,160 younger, vulnerable side of me, and especially whenever I would 227 00:14:54,160 --> 00:14:57,440 upload them to YouTube and I didn't know how to put a cover 228 00:14:57,440 --> 00:15:01,480 photo on YouTube, even though that's super simple and easy. 229 00:15:01,920 --> 00:15:05,320 I just started using YouTube and at that time. 230 00:15:06,210 --> 00:15:09,890 I thought that I needed to, like, do all of this fancy 231 00:15:09,890 --> 00:15:13,490 editing, and so I kind of got burned out with YouTube. 232 00:15:14,050 --> 00:15:17,770 But as I've grown, I do more YouTube for like private 233 00:15:17,770 --> 00:15:20,460 reading. Versus public reading. 234 00:15:20,660 --> 00:15:24,420 And now I hardly go live at all. So it's like building that 235 00:15:24,420 --> 00:15:27,020 confidence, building that strength, building that 236 00:15:27,020 --> 00:15:31,900 vulnerability had really helped me evolve into being able to get 237 00:15:31,900 --> 00:15:35,220 in front of the camera, being able to bounce ideas on a 238 00:15:35,220 --> 00:15:38,140 podcast or whatever. And it's just like people 239 00:15:38,140 --> 00:15:42,300 underestimate the very small steps that you take to get where 240 00:15:42,300 --> 00:15:44,380 you're going. And that's really been heavy on 241 00:15:44,380 --> 00:15:48,780 my heart this week of so many people that I mentor that. 242 00:15:48,860 --> 00:15:51,940 That in the beginning they feel so hopeless or lost. 243 00:15:52,020 --> 00:15:55,340 But it's like once you actually get into gear and go into a 244 00:15:55,340 --> 00:15:59,820 direction that works for you, the process is not as slow. 245 00:16:01,420 --> 00:16:06,260 I think that if more people put themselves into positions of 246 00:16:06,940 --> 00:16:10,020 teaching and guiding other people on something that they 247 00:16:10,020 --> 00:16:16,590 know how to do, you, you realize and respect yourself for how 248 00:16:16,590 --> 00:16:18,870 much knowledge and information that you have. 249 00:16:18,870 --> 00:16:23,070 Like when I and I don't just mean that about like, you know, 250 00:16:23,070 --> 00:16:26,870 spiritual guidance or whatever. I mean like if you're great at 251 00:16:26,870 --> 00:16:29,980 budgeting, helping people with budgeting, putting together 252 00:16:29,980 --> 00:16:33,460 something for budgeting. If you're wanting to expand 253 00:16:33,460 --> 00:16:37,420 yourself and and utilize social media and personalize something 254 00:16:37,420 --> 00:16:40,900 for you, finding out what it is that you're good at. 255 00:16:41,300 --> 00:16:45,700 And then helping other people to be able to do that Same thing 256 00:16:45,700 --> 00:16:48,980 you with your being able to help people with credit. 257 00:16:49,180 --> 00:16:54,180 Like if you didn't do what you do now and you were trying to 258 00:16:54,180 --> 00:17:00,010 find like your pieces or whatever and and and share with 259 00:17:00,050 --> 00:17:02,850 and educate other people. You could totally be doing 260 00:17:02,850 --> 00:17:08,609 content about like 3 minute informative things on how to 261 00:17:08,609 --> 00:17:11,770 build your credit and things that people don't know about how 262 00:17:11,770 --> 00:17:15,089 to utilize a credit card and all this other shit that people 263 00:17:15,089 --> 00:17:17,210 wouldn't know. When you would realize through 264 00:17:17,210 --> 00:17:20,890 that and in the comments when people ask questions, how 265 00:17:20,890 --> 00:17:24,369 fucking much knowledge you have that a majority of people don't 266 00:17:24,369 --> 00:17:27,770 have. And I think that there's so much 267 00:17:27,770 --> 00:17:32,010 comparison to what other people are doing on their journey. 268 00:17:32,010 --> 00:17:34,690 And wow, I would love to do that. 269 00:17:34,690 --> 00:17:39,410 That we forget all of these little individual passions and 270 00:17:39,650 --> 00:17:43,010 and things that we have skills at that we could teach other 271 00:17:43,010 --> 00:17:48,090 people and we just get lost in the comparison game instead of 272 00:17:48,330 --> 00:17:51,890 helping other people. Speaking of credit. 273 00:17:52,360 --> 00:17:57,240 I am just like so set on like winning the Monopoly game of 274 00:17:57,240 --> 00:18:00,880 life. Like I treat it like Monopoly. 275 00:18:00,880 --> 00:18:04,720 And it makes sense if you've ever played Monopoly, to 276 00:18:04,760 --> 00:18:09,600 understand the process. And a lot of people reject 277 00:18:09,600 --> 00:18:15,360 abundance and reject prosperity because they are stingy, greedy, 278 00:18:15,360 --> 00:18:18,790 low vibrational people. They are very well. 279 00:18:18,790 --> 00:18:23,910 If I give it to you or I share it with you, then I have less. 280 00:18:24,270 --> 00:18:28,790 And I'll be honest, earlier today I was kind of venting to 281 00:18:28,790 --> 00:18:32,670 someone about someone who's been acting really shady towards me, 282 00:18:33,190 --> 00:18:35,790 but and I don't know what their deal is like, I truly don't know 283 00:18:35,790 --> 00:18:38,720 what their deal is. But The thing is is like they 284 00:18:38,720 --> 00:18:42,000 can act shady and they can act passive aggressive rather than 285 00:18:42,000 --> 00:18:44,840 just speaking up. Because passive aggressive 286 00:18:44,840 --> 00:18:48,560 energy blocks the frequency of transformation. 287 00:18:48,880 --> 00:18:51,960 If you're not speaking up on your own personal needs, and 288 00:18:51,960 --> 00:18:54,680 you're not speaking up to your friends and family about your 289 00:18:54,680 --> 00:18:59,520 boundaries or things that you require, you are blocking 290 00:18:59,520 --> 00:19:03,120 abundance, frequency. If you're so worried about 291 00:19:03,120 --> 00:19:07,080 politics and billionaires and healthcare and all. 292 00:19:07,160 --> 00:19:10,560 All these things that they want you to focus on, They literally 293 00:19:10,560 --> 00:19:14,880 put these people on TV and masquerade them across the stage 294 00:19:15,160 --> 00:19:18,040 just to let them know they have more money than you, just to let 295 00:19:18,040 --> 00:19:20,040 you know that they have a better life than you. 296 00:19:20,400 --> 00:19:23,280 But what they don't tell you is that they sold their soul to get 297 00:19:23,280 --> 00:19:25,200 there or they're being manipulated. 298 00:19:25,200 --> 00:19:29,320 They can't even put out the type of art or content that they want 299 00:19:29,320 --> 00:19:32,330 to put out. And that's what I think so crazy 300 00:19:32,330 --> 00:19:35,730 about this world is. Because for every person who 301 00:19:35,890 --> 00:19:39,610 looks at the next person and feels angry or jealous or 302 00:19:39,610 --> 00:19:43,050 envious, you are blocking abundance frequency. 303 00:19:43,410 --> 00:19:46,650 And while I was speaking on this, someone literally booked a 304 00:19:46,650 --> 00:19:51,010 reading in the same like 5 minutes and it was over $100. 305 00:19:51,290 --> 00:19:54,890 And that's because, like when I have abundance, I don't mind to 306 00:19:54,890 --> 00:19:57,370 go. Buy dinner for my friends or to 307 00:19:57,370 --> 00:20:00,450 give them something really nice. And Jim and I was like, I love 308 00:20:00,450 --> 00:20:02,890 when you make more money because that means I get bigger 309 00:20:02,890 --> 00:20:05,930 presents. And it's true, though, like I am 310 00:20:05,930 --> 00:20:07,690 a gift giver. That is my love language. 311 00:20:07,730 --> 00:20:11,690 I like to give things to people, whether it's a thoughtful gift 312 00:20:11,690 --> 00:20:13,930 or a useful gift or something sentimental. 313 00:20:14,250 --> 00:20:17,890 I like to give things to people because I understand that a lot 314 00:20:17,890 --> 00:20:20,660 of people. Are so wrapped up in the things 315 00:20:20,660 --> 00:20:23,300 they have to do that they neglect the things that they 316 00:20:23,300 --> 00:20:27,620 want to do. And so I believe by me unlocking 317 00:20:27,620 --> 00:20:31,550 that code in my life where I don't give a fuck if I split 318 00:20:31,550 --> 00:20:35,990 what I have in half, I will make back that other half times 10, 319 00:20:36,350 --> 00:20:39,470 rather than worrying about it. Like why would I let my friend 320 00:20:39,750 --> 00:20:43,630 struggle or not be able to like treat themselves if I have the 321 00:20:43,630 --> 00:20:46,150 abundance to help them. Not that I'm going to pay 322 00:20:46,150 --> 00:20:50,190 people's bills or pay people's car payments, but if it means 323 00:20:50,190 --> 00:20:54,480 like treating them to Mexican or getting some sushi or getting 324 00:20:54,480 --> 00:20:57,280 carry out and dropping it off at their house like it's that 325 00:20:57,280 --> 00:21:01,040 intention. The thoughtful vibration tells 326 00:21:01,040 --> 00:21:05,400 the universe that I'm ready to receive what I desire, and every 327 00:21:05,400 --> 00:21:08,520 single time I see someone with their crusty but energy 328 00:21:08,760 --> 00:21:12,720 projecting those limited beliefs onto the collective, you are 329 00:21:12,720 --> 00:21:16,200 blocked so far from getting what you actually want. 330 00:21:16,560 --> 00:21:19,720 And I just believe that every time someone drops the ball by 331 00:21:19,720 --> 00:21:24,200 being greedy or or passive aggressive or envious, I pick 332 00:21:24,200 --> 00:21:27,800 the ball up and I hit a shot and I win for the whole team. 333 00:21:28,040 --> 00:21:30,480 And when I'm winning, my whole team is winning. 334 00:21:30,720 --> 00:21:33,480 And it's kind of like, you know, they've talked about with Jelly 335 00:21:33,480 --> 00:21:35,000 Roll. He used to sleep on people's 336 00:21:35,000 --> 00:21:38,800 couches and now some of those people are on his payroll and 337 00:21:38,800 --> 00:21:41,960 they do absolutely nothing but exist and bring good vibes. 338 00:21:42,470 --> 00:21:47,110 They don't do anything like they are just there to be of support. 339 00:21:47,110 --> 00:21:50,150 And because they're family and because Jelly knows that what 340 00:21:50,150 --> 00:21:53,790 goes around comes around and they were there for him when he 341 00:21:53,790 --> 00:21:56,350 needed them. So now that he's in a position 342 00:21:56,350 --> 00:21:59,390 to shine, he wants to make sure that they can shine too. 343 00:21:59,670 --> 00:22:03,990 And I think that's like, my goal in life is just because people 344 00:22:03,990 --> 00:22:08,150 can't repay me now doesn't mean that later down the road they're 345 00:22:08,150 --> 00:22:11,510 not making six figures a month. And they're like, Page, I bought 346 00:22:11,510 --> 00:22:15,390 you a car or I bought you this like, all because I supported 347 00:22:15,390 --> 00:22:17,070 them when they needed it the most. 348 00:22:17,790 --> 00:22:21,710 And I love to be giving because this world is full of takers, 349 00:22:21,710 --> 00:22:23,630 you know what I mean? And I like to give things to 350 00:22:23,630 --> 00:22:28,870 people without any, like, code of like, well, I did that for 351 00:22:28,870 --> 00:22:32,830 you or you owe this to me or one up on someone. 352 00:22:32,830 --> 00:22:35,390 I feel like, you know, just do things without expectation and 353 00:22:35,390 --> 00:22:38,870 the universe rewards you in ways you cannot even imagine. 354 00:22:39,910 --> 00:22:44,830 I think there's also a lot of guilt associated with finance 355 00:22:44,830 --> 00:22:47,430 and associated with abundance in general. 356 00:22:47,430 --> 00:22:51,630 Like there are a lot of times that I think people will work 357 00:22:51,630 --> 00:22:55,630 really hard to be in a position where they can spoil themselves. 358 00:22:55,630 --> 00:22:58,390 They can buy things that they want to buy for themselves. 359 00:22:58,750 --> 00:23:02,750 They can go on trips or go do other things and. 360 00:23:03,120 --> 00:23:07,240 Because other people around them may not be able to do those 361 00:23:07,240 --> 00:23:10,480 things. It's like they talk down, being 362 00:23:10,480 --> 00:23:14,800 able to do it for themselves. So I went and I bought myself 363 00:23:14,800 --> 00:23:18,620 this new bag. Yesterday, but it was 30% off. 364 00:23:18,900 --> 00:23:24,540 And you know, and so then people will go into explaining how they 365 00:23:24,540 --> 00:23:26,780 were able to do it and why they were able to do it. 366 00:23:26,820 --> 00:23:30,660 And it's almost like you people can talk themselves out of being 367 00:23:30,660 --> 00:23:35,100 proud of themselves and explain away why something was okay for 368 00:23:35,100 --> 00:23:37,900 them to do. Oh, I'm going on this trip, but 369 00:23:38,100 --> 00:23:41,140 there was a bundle package in order for me to be able to go 370 00:23:41,380 --> 00:23:44,140 and it paid for this and this. So it should have been this, but 371 00:23:44,140 --> 00:23:46,020 it's only this which is really good. 372 00:23:46,300 --> 00:23:50,700 You know, whatever. And when you have a guilt about 373 00:23:51,020 --> 00:23:53,860 getting the things that you've been working hard to be able to 374 00:23:53,860 --> 00:23:57,860 get. I feel like guilt is a very 375 00:23:57,860 --> 00:24:04,260 similar vibration to me as fear is because you're feeling guilty 376 00:24:04,260 --> 00:24:09,790 about something is you actually. That's a byproduct of you being 377 00:24:09,790 --> 00:24:13,910 scared about how somebody else is going to interpret and 378 00:24:13,910 --> 00:24:19,470 receive you doing well. And when I was in that same 379 00:24:19,470 --> 00:24:22,870 conversation that I was talking to you about, you know, I love 380 00:24:22,870 --> 00:24:25,190 when Mama makes more money because that means I get bigger 381 00:24:25,190 --> 00:24:27,710 presents. There was also the conversation 382 00:24:27,710 --> 00:24:33,430 of like keeping certain things quiet, like when when you do do 383 00:24:33,430 --> 00:24:36,790 well or when we do well and and have different things going on 384 00:24:36,790 --> 00:24:39,100 because. People will speak negatively 385 00:24:39,100 --> 00:24:40,780 into it and have something to say. 386 00:24:41,100 --> 00:24:43,140 And as we're having this conversation, I'm just 387 00:24:43,140 --> 00:24:47,460 recognizing that that is like a fear based response to have in 388 00:24:47,460 --> 00:24:51,660 that conversation of like keep it under lock and key because 389 00:24:51,660 --> 00:24:55,060 someone always has something to say and although that may be 390 00:24:55,180 --> 00:25:00,780 true and and you know move behind the scenes also I think 391 00:25:01,420 --> 00:25:04,830 celebrating. Things that you're manifesting, 392 00:25:04,830 --> 00:25:07,670 that you've been speaking out is so fucking cool. 393 00:25:07,670 --> 00:25:13,070 And what I love is that you did that in our conversation without 394 00:25:13,790 --> 00:25:15,630 anything ever having to be public. 395 00:25:15,750 --> 00:25:18,590 You know what I mean? Like you still gave yourself 396 00:25:18,790 --> 00:25:22,870 this moment of like, look at me. We're about to celebrate for a 397 00:25:22,870 --> 00:25:26,870 second, look at what mom is doing and keep it pushing. 398 00:25:26,870 --> 00:25:33,380 I think a lot of people just they learn in that survival mode 399 00:25:33,420 --> 00:25:39,060 and a lot of people in my family are very like negative And in 400 00:25:39,060 --> 00:25:43,740 Survival Instinct where Oh my gosh, how much did that cost is 401 00:25:43,740 --> 00:25:46,460 always their first like, question. 402 00:25:46,460 --> 00:25:50,110 And it doesn't matter if I'm like, I bought this for you, I 403 00:25:50,110 --> 00:25:53,430 will throw it out the window before I tell you what it cost, 404 00:25:53,670 --> 00:25:57,510 because I'm so unattached to it that the only reason I purchased 405 00:25:57,510 --> 00:26:01,830 this for you is because I want you to be happy and to enjoy it 406 00:26:01,830 --> 00:26:05,870 and to embrace it. And so a lot of people will have 407 00:26:05,870 --> 00:26:10,390 opportunities presented to them, and they reject the opportunity 408 00:26:10,390 --> 00:26:15,560 to absorb that abundance. Like, for instance, someone on 409 00:26:15,560 --> 00:26:18,280 the internet's like, I really need money, Please give it to 410 00:26:18,280 --> 00:26:20,280 me. But when you tell them, well, I 411 00:26:20,280 --> 00:26:23,160 have a bunch of sticks in my yard and, you know, some dog 412 00:26:23,160 --> 00:26:25,680 crap out there, you could clean up my yard for me and cut the 413 00:26:25,680 --> 00:26:27,840 grass. I'll pay you $300.00. 414 00:26:29,080 --> 00:26:32,000 I'm not cutting the grass. You want me to pick up dog poop? 415 00:26:32,040 --> 00:26:36,320 I'm not doing that because they want you to give it to them. 416 00:26:36,680 --> 00:26:40,040 And I think that it says a lot about people who treat the 417 00:26:40,040 --> 00:26:42,840 janitor the same way they would as the CEO. 418 00:26:43,480 --> 00:26:47,160 Is like their quality consciousness. 419 00:26:47,160 --> 00:26:48,320 You know what I mean? Like art. 420 00:26:48,320 --> 00:26:51,640 What kind of person are you if you think you're beneath a 421 00:26:51,640 --> 00:26:55,160 certain job, if you don't have the money that you need? 422 00:26:55,560 --> 00:26:58,720 And that's what irks me, is because I've had jobs where I've 423 00:26:58,720 --> 00:27:03,240 made $5.25 an hour, I've had jobs under the table. 424 00:27:03,240 --> 00:27:06,200 I used to babysit like I've worked since I was 12 years old. 425 00:27:06,720 --> 00:27:10,120 I had always been instilled like you have to work hard and play 426 00:27:10,120 --> 00:27:13,000 later. And I worked extremely hard for 427 00:27:13,040 --> 00:27:17,760 a really long time, especially in college when other people 428 00:27:17,760 --> 00:27:20,880 were going on spring break or working at Hooters and doing all 429 00:27:20,880 --> 00:27:23,720 these things that they were getting good abundance at that 430 00:27:23,720 --> 00:27:26,400 moment. But the thing about Hooters are 431 00:27:26,400 --> 00:27:29,760 those types of energies is like that only rides for a little 432 00:27:29,760 --> 00:27:34,160 bit, because every year you get older and more pretty hotter 433 00:27:34,160 --> 00:27:37,840 people are coming in, you know, And I feel like so many people 434 00:27:38,560 --> 00:27:41,880 didn't put the work in in their early 20s, so now they've got 435 00:27:41,880 --> 00:27:44,800 two or three kids and life's really hard for them. 436 00:27:45,120 --> 00:27:50,320 So they're in that low, envious, jealous vibration, which is why 437 00:27:50,320 --> 00:27:53,080 you can't share everything with everyone. 438 00:27:53,440 --> 00:27:57,000 But I'm going to be proud of myself because I'm doing things 439 00:27:57,000 --> 00:27:59,520 for me. I'm breaking generational curses 440 00:27:59,520 --> 00:28:03,520 around money and abundance and things like that for me. 441 00:28:03,800 --> 00:28:08,950 And the thing about it is, the universe only responds to your 442 00:28:08,950 --> 00:28:12,310 internal energy. You can pretend you're happy for 443 00:28:12,310 --> 00:28:15,110 people, or you can pretend you're cheering people on. 444 00:28:15,270 --> 00:28:19,070 But underneath the surface, the universe is responding to your 445 00:28:19,070 --> 00:28:24,870 energetic frequency, and greed and jealousy and envy are some 446 00:28:24,870 --> 00:28:27,030 of the lowest vibrational energies. 447 00:28:27,310 --> 00:28:29,270 And I know people will say, well, then why are there 448 00:28:29,270 --> 00:28:32,810 billionaires? Because they have lied and 449 00:28:32,810 --> 00:28:37,250 signed sole contracts and done very bad things to get where 450 00:28:37,250 --> 00:28:39,570 they are. And I'm not saying that they're 451 00:28:39,570 --> 00:28:41,170 going to go to hell and pay for it. 452 00:28:41,170 --> 00:28:45,010 I'm saying they're going to come back to earth as one of those 453 00:28:45,010 --> 00:28:47,770 oppressed people, the people that they oppressed. 454 00:28:50,410 --> 00:28:53,650 I like that viewpoint, actually, I agree with that. 455 00:28:53,650 --> 00:29:01,150 I also think that. There are OK, so with with my 456 00:29:01,230 --> 00:29:05,710 office job that I have, there are a lot of people that I 457 00:29:05,710 --> 00:29:07,990 encounter because of where the office is. 458 00:29:08,350 --> 00:29:14,030 It's a wealthier part of town. And so we will get people who 459 00:29:14,030 --> 00:29:20,030 come in that they obviously like, have a lot of money and a 460 00:29:20,030 --> 00:29:26,370 lot of the people who. Come in and you can and slot the 461 00:29:26,370 --> 00:29:30,650 fact that they have money and they're usually the people who 462 00:29:30,650 --> 00:29:33,250 are the rudest to us as the staff. 463 00:29:33,850 --> 00:29:38,530 And they're usually also the people who have balances and 464 00:29:38,530 --> 00:29:43,010 bills that they don't pay. Where you're at where like us as 465 00:29:43,010 --> 00:29:46,050 an office or having conversations like how come 466 00:29:46,050 --> 00:29:49,170 they're not paying their $200.00 bill when? 467 00:29:49,920 --> 00:29:52,480 They're very clearly like they're in here all the time 468 00:29:52,480 --> 00:29:53,960 talking about how they're a lawyer. 469 00:29:53,960 --> 00:29:56,840 They're doing this or they're doing that or they're a doctor 470 00:29:56,840 --> 00:30:01,800 here or whatever. And the energy that they get 471 00:30:01,800 --> 00:30:03,520 back from people, I just feel like. 472 00:30:03,840 --> 00:30:06,760 When you have that energy, it doesn't matter about the money 473 00:30:06,760 --> 00:30:09,560 that you're having because you have to be blocking blessings 474 00:30:09,560 --> 00:30:12,440 and opportunities all over the fucking place. 475 00:30:12,440 --> 00:30:15,960 Like you have no idea who it is that you're encountering. 476 00:30:16,240 --> 00:30:19,640 You may see me at the front desk and be like, that's just some 477 00:30:19,720 --> 00:30:21,800 girl that works at a chiropractic office. 478 00:30:21,800 --> 00:30:24,440 At the front desk. You have no fucking idea that 479 00:30:24,440 --> 00:30:27,960 behind the scenes I have two podcasts and a fucking brand and 480 00:30:27,960 --> 00:30:30,360 I can shit talk you by name if I want to. 481 00:30:30,720 --> 00:30:32,920 And your fucking business. You know what I mean? 482 00:30:32,920 --> 00:30:35,800 Like. I would never fucking do that 483 00:30:35,800 --> 00:30:39,360 because that's not who I am as a person but and then the people 484 00:30:39,360 --> 00:30:45,080 who come in that like are the the minimalist people and treat 485 00:30:45,080 --> 00:30:48,400 people super fucking kind. Turn around and they can have 486 00:30:48,400 --> 00:30:50,840 money at the end of the day too. And they're the people who are 487 00:30:50,840 --> 00:30:55,120 like absolutely no problem. Let me also tip that massage 488 00:30:55,200 --> 00:30:59,520 therapist 60% and I gave her cash back there too, but I just 489 00:30:59,520 --> 00:31:02,480 want her to know how appreciated she is and. 490 00:31:02,910 --> 00:31:05,190 Those are the people who at the end of the day you're going to 491 00:31:05,190 --> 00:31:08,790 be like, oh fuck, I know that. That person, you know, does 492 00:31:08,790 --> 00:31:11,590 marketing on the side. I better contact them when I get 493 00:31:11,590 --> 00:31:15,310 off work about my business and see if there's something they 494 00:31:15,310 --> 00:31:18,750 can do, you know that I can do to help boost them or they sell 495 00:31:18,750 --> 00:31:23,070 this and I can't tell you how many people have come in there 496 00:31:23,390 --> 00:31:29,770 that are that end up being like. Aestheticians or nail people or 497 00:31:29,770 --> 00:31:32,370 whatever that I've connected with outside of that. 498 00:31:32,370 --> 00:31:35,770 Now listen to the podcast because they just had a dope ass 499 00:31:35,770 --> 00:31:39,370 energy and then come to find out they make content and they do 500 00:31:39,370 --> 00:31:43,050 all kinds of shit and they've shouted out like the energy that 501 00:31:43,050 --> 00:31:46,490 you go into things and the way that you treat people regardless 502 00:31:46,490 --> 00:31:49,250 of their financial standing or yours. 503 00:31:49,450 --> 00:31:50,970 That's what I give the fuck about. 504 00:31:52,180 --> 00:31:56,020 You know what's really funny? After the last episode, I 505 00:31:56,020 --> 00:32:01,460 decided to go to a small coffee shop today, and I paid in cash 506 00:32:01,460 --> 00:32:05,060 and I tipped 50% and the girl was like, wow. 507 00:32:05,060 --> 00:32:06,260 And I was like Keith, the change. 508 00:32:06,260 --> 00:32:10,380 She was like, wow, thank you. But the reason that I don't do 509 00:32:10,380 --> 00:32:13,860 that at places like Starbucks is because they literally just need 510 00:32:13,860 --> 00:32:17,560 to pay the people more. And I saw that a lot of the 511 00:32:17,560 --> 00:32:21,920 baristas are on strike because I help them manifest that reality. 512 00:32:21,920 --> 00:32:24,720 Baby, I said it, it's dead. We're done with that shit. 513 00:32:24,760 --> 00:32:29,200 And I will not support these billionaire companies to pay 514 00:32:29,200 --> 00:32:33,160 people 8-9 dollars an hour while everybody else has to pay their 515 00:32:33,160 --> 00:32:37,960 living wage. But I will go to A1 solo mom and 516 00:32:37,960 --> 00:32:42,600 pop coffee shop and tip because those people are not making 517 00:32:42,600 --> 00:32:46,800 billion dollars a quarter, you know, and what I think about the 518 00:32:46,800 --> 00:32:50,880 world right now is me. Winning does not take away from 519 00:32:50,920 --> 00:32:54,160 other people winning. It's that fucking mindset that's 520 00:32:54,240 --> 00:32:56,440 taught to us. It's taught to us through things 521 00:32:56,440 --> 00:32:59,800 like when how they depict history, how they depict what 522 00:32:59,800 --> 00:33:03,160 happened to the Native Americans and the slaves and the Jews and 523 00:33:03,160 --> 00:33:06,320 different cultures. They do a me or you thing. 524 00:33:06,520 --> 00:33:08,240 Well, this is me and this is you. 525 00:33:08,240 --> 00:33:13,540 And they keep us very separate because unity is a threat to the 526 00:33:13,540 --> 00:33:17,460 systems that keep us oppressed. And people think like just cuz 527 00:33:17,460 --> 00:33:20,700 we're white and we're female, that we're not oppressed in some 528 00:33:20,700 --> 00:33:23,460 way. I can't go walking by myself at 529 00:33:23,460 --> 00:33:26,500 night anywhere, period. It doesn't matter what city I'm 530 00:33:26,500 --> 00:33:28,260 in. I can't even really feel 531 00:33:28,260 --> 00:33:31,380 comfortable wearing headphones during the day and walking 532 00:33:31,380 --> 00:33:34,100 around. You know, like a lot of women 533 00:33:34,340 --> 00:33:38,900 have to have two dogs with them at all times and be on guard no 534 00:33:38,900 --> 00:33:42,940 matter what color their skin is. So I just feel like like this 535 00:33:42,940 --> 00:33:47,380 whole me or you or if I give this to you, I have less 536 00:33:47,660 --> 00:33:49,820 conversation. It needs to just be dead. 537 00:33:50,060 --> 00:33:55,180 Because as soon as I gave that girl like a 50% tip, within the 538 00:33:55,220 --> 00:33:58,140 hour someone booked $120.00 service with me. 539 00:33:58,380 --> 00:34:02,260 Because I don't block abundance. I try to spread abundance. 540 00:34:02,540 --> 00:34:04,380 I try to help people where I can. 541 00:34:04,700 --> 00:34:10,100 I was literally just in alignment to go do that this 542 00:34:10,100 --> 00:34:13,940 morning and I just felt like I had to tell you because I'm just 543 00:34:13,940 --> 00:34:18,699 not doing it at Starbucks. I'm not doing it at wherever. 544 00:34:18,699 --> 00:34:22,139 But if it's a mom and pop type place, I definitely want to tip 545 00:34:22,139 --> 00:34:26,460 the people, but at the same time just pay people a living wage 546 00:34:26,699 --> 00:34:29,179 and take a little bit out of your profits. 547 00:34:30,969 --> 00:34:32,889 Well then, you know, talking about the Starbucks thing. 548 00:34:32,889 --> 00:34:35,409 You and I were talking about this on FaceTime last night. 549 00:34:35,570 --> 00:34:37,250 Brian was laughing in the background. 550 00:34:37,250 --> 00:34:41,530 I was talking about tipping the coffee shop, but I thought that. 551 00:34:42,570 --> 00:34:44,969 Code or whatever on my Starbucks. 552 00:34:45,489 --> 00:34:49,449 I got an e-mail from Starbucks basically saying I get 50% off 553 00:34:49,449 --> 00:34:52,290 any drink, any size that I want. Use this code, whatever. 554 00:34:52,290 --> 00:34:55,489 It's good for a week and the first day I was like, don't I 555 00:34:55,489 --> 00:34:59,050 got 50% off of Starbucks and there wasn't. 556 00:34:59,090 --> 00:35:01,010 There's not a Starbucks around us. 557 00:35:01,010 --> 00:35:04,170 We have little, we have a smaller coffee shop, but we 558 00:35:04,170 --> 00:35:06,410 don't have a Starbucks right here. 559 00:35:06,930 --> 00:35:08,730 And I would have had to drive out of my way. 560 00:35:08,730 --> 00:35:10,050 And I'm like, I'm not doing that. 561 00:35:10,730 --> 00:35:14,290 And then the next day I was like, I'm actually not going to 562 00:35:14,290 --> 00:35:17,890 use this fucking discount at all because I made a pact with 563 00:35:17,890 --> 00:35:22,770 myself that I wasn't spending money on takeout and coffee this 564 00:35:22,770 --> 00:35:25,490 month. Like, I I'm not spending my 565 00:35:25,490 --> 00:35:29,530 money on that and going and using my 50% off code. 566 00:35:29,730 --> 00:35:34,330 I'm still going to give them $4.00 more than I intended to 567 00:35:34,330 --> 00:35:37,970 give them when I said I was giving them zero fucking dollars 568 00:35:38,370 --> 00:35:40,790 and. When we're talking about 569 00:35:40,790 --> 00:35:44,430 abundance and things when you're making this is something that I 570 00:35:44,430 --> 00:35:50,430 have learned for myself is that when I make a pact about how I 571 00:35:50,430 --> 00:35:54,710 am going to utilize abundance, that comes to me, Whether that 572 00:35:54,710 --> 00:35:58,990 be financially physical things that I have where I'm like I'm 573 00:35:58,990 --> 00:36:00,750 going to give this over here. Oh fuck. 574 00:36:00,750 --> 00:36:03,870 Well, I haven't seen that person and this person could utilize 575 00:36:03,870 --> 00:36:05,910 it. But no, I said that it is 576 00:36:05,910 --> 00:36:09,310 intended for this over here when I follow through on those 577 00:36:09,350 --> 00:36:12,790 things. I end up getting abundance in a 578 00:36:12,790 --> 00:36:16,510 bunch of different ways and being able to stack that up 579 00:36:16,510 --> 00:36:21,630 around me as opposed to. Breaking a pact that I had with 580 00:36:21,630 --> 00:36:25,190 myself, having the guilt about that which then doesn't attract 581 00:36:25,190 --> 00:36:28,830 anything new to me, and then also not having that thing 582 00:36:28,830 --> 00:36:30,830 anymore. Like if I go and I spend that 583 00:36:30,830 --> 00:36:35,750 $4.00, that's $4.00 less than I had and I just broke an 584 00:36:35,750 --> 00:36:39,710 agreement that I had to myself. If I go and I give this thing to 585 00:36:39,710 --> 00:36:43,110 somebody else, well now I'm stressed because when I do see 586 00:36:43,110 --> 00:36:47,070 this person, I knew I planned on giving them XY&Z. 587 00:36:47,350 --> 00:36:51,220 Now I don't have it. And now I can't do that and then 588 00:36:51,220 --> 00:36:56,780 I'm frustrated with myself. And so with that like energy of 589 00:36:56,780 --> 00:37:02,060 abundance stuff, I just think that we've talked about it 590 00:37:02,060 --> 00:37:06,860 before, but people not thinking about abundance and whatever, 591 00:37:07,180 --> 00:37:11,780 just meaning cash because it's never just cash, there's 592 00:37:11,860 --> 00:37:15,450 energetic abundance, there's. All types of different things. 593 00:37:15,450 --> 00:37:19,050 There's you gift giving to somebody out of I'm just going 594 00:37:19,050 --> 00:37:22,330 to give this to this person because I feel led to do that 595 00:37:22,610 --> 00:37:25,370 even though it means I'm not going to have this Darren 596 00:37:25,370 --> 00:37:28,330 fucking to you. You turn around and somehow you 597 00:37:28,330 --> 00:37:32,850 have gotten back plus more what you just gifted away. 598 00:37:33,170 --> 00:37:37,890 And if you do things from the mindset of I'm going to give 599 00:37:37,890 --> 00:37:41,090 this because I'm just going to get it back more, there's 600 00:37:41,250 --> 00:37:46,590 there's different. There's different energetic ways 601 00:37:46,590 --> 00:37:52,070 that you can do that because there also is a wrong way of of 602 00:37:52,070 --> 00:37:55,930 giving to others. Just simply for the selfish 603 00:37:55,930 --> 00:37:58,490 intent of well, the universe is going to give this back to me. 604 00:37:58,490 --> 00:38:00,130 So I'm just going to go ahead and give this to you, even 605 00:38:00,130 --> 00:38:02,410 though I don't really want to, because I know that the universe 606 00:38:02,410 --> 00:38:04,570 is going to give it back to me. Well, then the universe isn't 607 00:38:04,570 --> 00:38:08,290 going to because you fucking gave that with a plan that you 608 00:38:08,290 --> 00:38:10,530 were going to get it back. Now you're not getting shit, and 609 00:38:10,530 --> 00:38:13,170 you're probably going to get like, vaginitis or something 610 00:38:13,170 --> 00:38:16,250 awful. It's definitely a selfless, 611 00:38:16,450 --> 00:38:22,630 giving frequency, like some people don't receive well. 612 00:38:22,630 --> 00:38:27,790 And I know that even for some people in my life, I will do 613 00:38:27,790 --> 00:38:31,950 something really nice for them, but then I stop because they 614 00:38:31,950 --> 00:38:36,110 don't know how to receive it. So my grandmother, obviously, 615 00:38:36,110 --> 00:38:37,750 she grew up in the Great Depression. 616 00:38:38,070 --> 00:38:41,190 She grew up with a lot of limited energy in her childhood, 617 00:38:41,630 --> 00:38:45,430 and I have really been trying to help her break that mode of 618 00:38:45,430 --> 00:38:49,910 blocking receiving. So here lately I've just been 619 00:38:49,910 --> 00:38:52,150 like doing a lot of really nice stuff for her. 620 00:38:52,430 --> 00:38:56,190 Where now instead of just asking me how much it cost or telling 621 00:38:56,190 --> 00:38:59,150 me no, don't do that, she's starting to receive. 622 00:38:59,310 --> 00:39:02,550 So my grandmother, I've said this before, it doesn't matter 623 00:39:02,550 --> 00:39:05,310 if she's leaving the house or not, she gets up every day and 624 00:39:05,310 --> 00:39:08,590 puts on a full face of makeup. She literally looks like a 625 00:39:08,590 --> 00:39:12,070 superstar every single day, fixes her hair, you never walk 626 00:39:12,070 --> 00:39:13,870 over. And my grandma is just like in a 627 00:39:13,870 --> 00:39:16,990 mumu or something. Like, she is ready to go. 628 00:39:16,990 --> 00:39:19,870 And she always told me that you got to get ready. 629 00:39:20,370 --> 00:39:23,730 So then whenever something arrives, you're ready to go. 630 00:39:23,730 --> 00:39:28,650 You don't have to, like, wait. And so recently she was talking 631 00:39:28,650 --> 00:39:32,010 about how all of the makeup is like, gotten really expensive. 632 00:39:32,050 --> 00:39:35,050 And I know she's going to like Walgreens, which in my opinion 633 00:39:35,250 --> 00:39:39,610 has some of the most expensive makeup, like way over Alta 634 00:39:39,770 --> 00:39:42,170 Everwood. So I just got on Alta. 635 00:39:42,490 --> 00:39:47,570 I literally had like $25 in points, a $5 coupon, and I 636 00:39:47,570 --> 00:39:50,050 wanted some stuff too. And I knew I was trying to reach 637 00:39:50,050 --> 00:39:54,730 my platinum status for the year. So I was like, what do you need? 638 00:39:54,970 --> 00:39:58,250 So I got on there and I ordered her like an overabundance of 639 00:39:58,250 --> 00:40:01,290 stuff, like a face spray, makeup, like 3 different 640 00:40:01,290 --> 00:40:02,730 eyeliners, just all kinds of stuff. 641 00:40:02,730 --> 00:40:06,450 And when I took it to her yesterday, she literally was 642 00:40:06,450 --> 00:40:09,770 just like, thank you so much, this is so much, this is a lot, 643 00:40:09,770 --> 00:40:13,850 but thank you Instead of going through this whole, like you 644 00:40:13,850 --> 00:40:16,370 shouldn't do that. Like I've told her a million 645 00:40:16,370 --> 00:40:18,890 times. I want to do that. 646 00:40:18,890 --> 00:40:23,370 So when I do it receive, I need you to receive because it upsets 647 00:40:23,370 --> 00:40:27,290 me when I feel like you are rejecting this abundance or 648 00:40:27,290 --> 00:40:30,930 you're rejecting this frequency. So she's gotten a lot better 649 00:40:31,570 --> 00:40:35,370 with just receiving because, you know, yesterday she was so 650 00:40:35,370 --> 00:40:37,730 excited. It was my grandpa's birthday. 651 00:40:37,730 --> 00:40:40,690 So I took him some food and he was like, I'm going to get me a 652 00:40:40,690 --> 00:40:42,690 little nibble of this sandwich right now. 653 00:40:42,970 --> 00:40:44,930 My grandma was like, well, it's, it's early. 654 00:40:44,930 --> 00:40:46,770 He said I don't care. It's my birthday. 655 00:40:47,150 --> 00:40:50,710 So, like, they were both loving it and it's finally getting to 656 00:40:50,710 --> 00:40:53,350 this point where they can like receive a little more. 657 00:40:53,670 --> 00:40:56,790 But when I found out that, like, my grandma and grandpa have 658 00:40:56,790 --> 00:41:00,030 worked their whole freaking life and literally only get like 659 00:41:00,030 --> 00:41:04,030 $2000 a month to live on, it's just like insane. 660 00:41:04,030 --> 00:41:07,430 Like, how is that even possible? You know what I mean? 661 00:41:07,430 --> 00:41:10,710 Like they give them just enough where they don't qualify for 662 00:41:10,710 --> 00:41:12,870 like food stamps or other benefits. 663 00:41:12,870 --> 00:41:16,660 Like, Social Security gives these people just enough where 664 00:41:16,660 --> 00:41:18,660 you don't qualify for anything extra. 665 00:41:19,100 --> 00:41:23,340 And so I have extra, and I want to make sure that they don't 666 00:41:23,500 --> 00:41:26,980 spend their dying years here on earth worried about bullshit. 667 00:41:26,980 --> 00:41:30,540 You know, like my grandma, I know she's going to live a long 668 00:41:30,540 --> 00:41:32,220 life. She's outlived everybody in our 669 00:41:32,220 --> 00:41:34,740 family. And it's because she's told me 670 00:41:34,740 --> 00:41:36,820 before she keeps herself together. 671 00:41:36,820 --> 00:41:41,020 It's when you let yourself go that you basically are on 672 00:41:41,060 --> 00:41:42,500 death's bed, you know what I mean? 673 00:41:42,500 --> 00:41:45,700 So like her getting up every day and getting ready and just like 674 00:41:45,940 --> 00:41:48,580 cleaning the house and doing different things is what keeps 675 00:41:48,580 --> 00:41:51,340 her young. And so I'm always telling her 676 00:41:51,940 --> 00:41:55,140 like, before you go spend money at Walgreens, tell me what you 677 00:41:55,140 --> 00:41:58,020 need. It's nothing for me to add 20 or 678 00:41:58,020 --> 00:42:01,380 $30.00 to a cart that I'm already spending 100. 679 00:42:01,420 --> 00:42:05,620 Like I can spend $30.00 on you. Grandma, like, so recently, 680 00:42:05,700 --> 00:42:09,080 like, her watch broke and she was like, it's fine, I don't 681 00:42:09,080 --> 00:42:10,880 need one. She wears a watch every day. 682 00:42:10,880 --> 00:42:13,480 So I just literally got on Amazon in order to watch. 683 00:42:13,480 --> 00:42:16,480 And it was like 40 bucks. And you would have thought that 684 00:42:16,480 --> 00:42:18,720 I gave her a Rolex. And I'm like, I wanted to get 685 00:42:18,720 --> 00:42:21,520 you an expensive one, but I knew you would reject it. 686 00:42:21,520 --> 00:42:23,960 So I just got you like a reasonable one. 687 00:42:24,320 --> 00:42:26,160 But my grandma doesn't understand that. 688 00:42:26,160 --> 00:42:28,240 Like, it's not about the money for me. 689 00:42:28,240 --> 00:42:32,240 I don't care about the money. I want her to stop worrying 690 00:42:32,240 --> 00:42:36,160 because worry and fear creates limitations. 691 00:42:36,160 --> 00:42:40,520 And I I would much rather you live a long, prosperous life and 692 00:42:40,520 --> 00:42:44,120 not be counting pennies about everything at the grocery store 693 00:42:44,120 --> 00:42:45,960 going up. Because that's who that's really 694 00:42:45,960 --> 00:42:48,960 affecting, is like senior citizens who are on these fixed 695 00:42:48,960 --> 00:42:53,520 incomes, all of these property tax raises and inflation. 696 00:42:53,520 --> 00:42:56,160 Like, that's who that's hitting the hardest because a younger 697 00:42:56,160 --> 00:42:58,960 person, mainly they're just going to get on Facebook and 698 00:42:58,960 --> 00:43:02,280 complain and post their cash at. But they could go get another 699 00:43:02,280 --> 00:43:06,410 job or they could, like I said earlier, and go cut their 700 00:43:06,410 --> 00:43:09,490 neighbor's grass or do something that's out of their comfort zone 701 00:43:09,730 --> 00:43:14,770 to get where they want to be. And my like biggest pet peeve is 702 00:43:14,770 --> 00:43:16,530 when people set up like, go fund. 703 00:43:16,530 --> 00:43:21,450 These are these things for stuff that's just not, it's just not 704 00:43:21,450 --> 00:43:23,770 my position to give you money for this. 705 00:43:23,770 --> 00:43:26,050 Like, I understand when someone passes or someone's in the 706 00:43:26,050 --> 00:43:29,490 hospital or your animal is struggling, things like that. 707 00:43:29,770 --> 00:43:34,890 But people want to manipulate the collective to get things 708 00:43:34,890 --> 00:43:38,410 that they don't deserve, in my opinion, and I'm the most giving 709 00:43:38,410 --> 00:43:41,330 person you ever fucking met. But if I don't see you trying 710 00:43:41,570 --> 00:43:44,050 and I don't see you putting effort towards something and I 711 00:43:44,050 --> 00:43:48,170 don't see you busting your balls to go make it happen, then I 712 00:43:48,170 --> 00:43:50,890 don't think you want it bad enough and I don't care to help 713 00:43:50,890 --> 00:43:52,650 you get there. I just don't. 714 00:43:52,970 --> 00:43:55,330 And some people will be like, well, that's that's rude. 715 00:43:55,570 --> 00:43:58,090 No, I am the most giving person. You can never say that I'm 716 00:43:58,090 --> 00:44:01,810 greedy because I literally give until I'm blue in the face. 717 00:44:01,970 --> 00:44:05,450 So I just hate when people are begging on the Internet when 718 00:44:05,450 --> 00:44:09,410 they could take initiative to go make something happen, but they 719 00:44:09,410 --> 00:44:15,970 choose not to. Can I can I switch this up, Talk 720 00:44:15,970 --> 00:44:19,850 about a pet peeve? Because we experienced this 721 00:44:19,850 --> 00:44:23,170 together and I'm going to take you back on a trip to Utah real 722 00:44:23,170 --> 00:44:27,290 quick. So Speaking of giving and 723 00:44:27,290 --> 00:44:31,350 receiving, so on that trip. The second that home girl picked 724 00:44:31,350 --> 00:44:35,110 me up from the airport, she hands me a cartridge. 725 00:44:35,590 --> 00:44:42,030 And for those that don't know, it's an E pen for weed. 726 00:44:42,590 --> 00:44:46,790 And so she hands this to me and was like, hit up the dispensary, 727 00:44:47,070 --> 00:44:50,190 got you this, whatever. I was like, Oh my God, how much 728 00:44:50,190 --> 00:44:51,790 is it? She's like, don't even worry 729 00:44:51,790 --> 00:44:53,550 about it. I just picked it up while I was 730 00:44:53,550 --> 00:44:56,350 at the dispensary. So I was like, okay dope. 731 00:44:58,460 --> 00:45:00,900 So my mind she got weed for our trip. 732 00:45:02,580 --> 00:45:06,060 In theory, this bitch hadn't gotten weed for our trip just so 733 00:45:06,060 --> 00:45:10,260 that we're very clear and that continued to be a problem. 734 00:45:10,260 --> 00:45:14,860 But anyways, so then you we we all are at the house or 735 00:45:14,860 --> 00:45:17,740 whatever. We're on our trip, headed down 736 00:45:17,740 --> 00:45:20,790 there. And I remember you sitting in 737 00:45:20,790 --> 00:45:24,590 the front seat with Home Girl and we're passing my E pen 738 00:45:24,590 --> 00:45:27,990 around the car and you're like, oh, this tastes good or 739 00:45:27,990 --> 00:45:30,150 whatever. And I was like, yeah, Home Girl 740 00:45:30,430 --> 00:45:32,710 got it for me. And by the way, we don't say her 741 00:45:32,710 --> 00:45:36,430 name on here because fuck that fun. 742 00:45:36,630 --> 00:45:40,790 So I was like, yeah, she got it for me, whatever. 743 00:45:41,070 --> 00:45:44,750 And from the dispensary and you were like, oh, you went to the 744 00:45:44,750 --> 00:45:46,950 dispensary and she's like, yeah, and you're okay. 745 00:45:47,230 --> 00:45:50,200 How much was it? And she just side eyes you and 746 00:45:50,200 --> 00:45:53,440 it's like, don't worry about it. And then you're over here like, 747 00:45:53,440 --> 00:45:56,160 no, like, how much was it? Like 20 bucks. 748 00:45:56,200 --> 00:45:59,800 And she's like, no, you're all more and to the point that, 749 00:45:59,800 --> 00:46:02,800 like, this girl is like, I'm not going to tell you how much it is 750 00:46:03,160 --> 00:46:05,520 leaving you guessing when you're asking. 751 00:46:05,760 --> 00:46:09,680 And then you're like 75 and she's like, yeah, around that 752 00:46:10,280 --> 00:46:12,960 and. I remember sitting in the back 753 00:46:12,960 --> 00:46:16,680 seat and I was like, you spent $75.00 on a cart at the 754 00:46:16,680 --> 00:46:21,640 dispensary and she's like, yeah, and we all in the car knew that 755 00:46:21,640 --> 00:46:27,560 it was complete bullshit. But that to me is like, so you 756 00:46:27,560 --> 00:46:33,320 made a point to give me a gift, not have the price brought up 757 00:46:33,600 --> 00:46:37,960 when I asked, and then you're asking and. 758 00:46:38,410 --> 00:46:43,010 You and and it wasn't done in a way of like, stop guessing 759 00:46:43,010 --> 00:46:46,330 Paige, because I'm not going to tell you how much it was. 760 00:46:46,730 --> 00:46:52,450 It's done in a way of wanting you to be like, Oh my God, 761 00:46:52,450 --> 00:46:54,960 that's how much you spent on it. Wow. 762 00:46:54,960 --> 00:46:58,280 You must really care that you would spend a 70, You would 763 00:46:58,280 --> 00:47:02,080 spend $70.00 at the dispensary. Bitch, you never went to the 764 00:47:02,080 --> 00:47:04,720 fucking dispensary. You probably had this in your 765 00:47:04,720 --> 00:47:08,480 fucking drawer or somebody handed it to you and you're 766 00:47:08,480 --> 00:47:14,320 wanting somebody to thank you and be overly appreciative for 767 00:47:14,320 --> 00:47:17,200 receiving this gift I was already appreciative of, 768 00:47:17,440 --> 00:47:21,560 regardless of the dollar amount. And so again. 769 00:47:21,930 --> 00:47:25,450 People can have different energy inside of shit when they are 770 00:47:25,450 --> 00:47:29,290 gift giving or when they're trying to have somebody receive 771 00:47:29,290 --> 00:47:31,690 something that they're putting out there as selfless. 772 00:47:31,970 --> 00:47:35,090 That wasn't a selfless gift. That wasn't. 773 00:47:35,410 --> 00:47:37,570 I had this. I knew that you would want it. 774 00:47:37,570 --> 00:47:40,530 I don't smoke, so here you go there. 775 00:47:40,730 --> 00:47:44,290 There's so many different ways you can go about things, so I 776 00:47:44,290 --> 00:47:48,650 want people to be conscious of the way that you are. 777 00:47:48,950 --> 00:47:52,270 Giving gifts to people too. And if you have a If you are 778 00:47:52,270 --> 00:47:56,670 giving a gift to somebody, it's not because you need a wow 779 00:47:56,670 --> 00:47:58,590 factor. You need them. 780 00:47:58,750 --> 00:48:01,870 You need to have something over them so that later on when you 781 00:48:01,870 --> 00:48:06,070 have a falling out, you can go. And I gave you a $70.00 782 00:48:06,070 --> 00:48:09,070 cartridge. I didn't fucking ask for it. 783 00:48:09,070 --> 00:48:11,110 I would have. I would have rather have been 784 00:48:11,110 --> 00:48:14,550 sober than for you to think that there's something over my head 785 00:48:14,870 --> 00:48:19,170 and this same person. We had so many experiences of 786 00:48:19,970 --> 00:48:24,370 abundance and lack of on this trip because even when it came 787 00:48:24,370 --> 00:48:28,610 to like, paying for gas on on that adventure, there was oh, 788 00:48:28,610 --> 00:48:30,330 don't even worry about it, I've got it. 789 00:48:30,770 --> 00:48:35,370 And for you, you finally were like, stop saying that we're 790 00:48:35,370 --> 00:48:39,130 giving you money at Phillips. Like, stop saying that we're all 791 00:48:39,130 --> 00:48:42,300 going to cash up you. While we're at the gas station 792 00:48:42,300 --> 00:48:46,020 and we're going to split everything and so having that 793 00:48:46,020 --> 00:48:49,540 energy. And then we did get every little 794 00:48:49,540 --> 00:48:52,700 thing as we went on the adventure like, well, I'm 795 00:48:52,700 --> 00:48:55,460 driving well, I took us to the grocery store. 796 00:48:55,660 --> 00:48:57,980 I'm the only one that has a vehicle or knows my way around, 797 00:48:58,860 --> 00:49:02,420 you know? Well, I took you on this $700.00 798 00:49:02,460 --> 00:49:04,840 a TV trip. Even though you didn't want to 799 00:49:04,840 --> 00:49:07,160 go and Jim and I was fucking pissed about having to go and I 800 00:49:07,160 --> 00:49:09,520 was drunk on vodka and had the thing in 2 wheel drive and 801 00:49:09,520 --> 00:49:11,040 didn't know how to fucking drive the whole time. 802 00:49:11,360 --> 00:49:16,480 Like there's all of these ways that I think people can really 803 00:49:16,480 --> 00:49:19,560 feel like, wow, I'm being a giver. 804 00:49:19,800 --> 00:49:23,640 But you're really being manipulative, and you are using 805 00:49:23,920 --> 00:49:27,480 things that you're able to provide to others as a 806 00:49:27,480 --> 00:49:31,280 manipulation tactic to try and receive love and then when 807 00:49:31,280 --> 00:49:34,530 people don't. Latch on to that being your love 808 00:49:34,530 --> 00:49:39,490 language or their love language. All of a sudden people can be 809 00:49:39,610 --> 00:49:41,810 upset. And not just that girl, but 810 00:49:42,290 --> 00:49:44,530 people in general. Like there are plenty of 811 00:49:44,530 --> 00:49:48,090 situations that I've had in my life where somebody gave me 812 00:49:48,090 --> 00:49:51,570 something or did something I didn't even fucking want and 813 00:49:51,570 --> 00:49:56,330 spoke against and then it was used against me of but I gifted 814 00:49:56,330 --> 00:49:59,570 this. Well, stop gifting me because I 815 00:49:59,570 --> 00:50:05,700 didn't even fuck you want it. To add to that, I dated a guy 816 00:50:05,700 --> 00:50:11,300 one time and he bought me a car and I already had a car, but I 817 00:50:11,300 --> 00:50:14,220 was like really obsessed with Volkswagens at that time. 818 00:50:14,220 --> 00:50:19,620 And I drove a facade, but I really wanted a Turbo Jetta. 819 00:50:20,060 --> 00:50:23,500 Like, I just really wanted one. And at that time, I mean they 820 00:50:23,500 --> 00:50:27,500 were like $6500 or something. Like it wasn't expensive what I 821 00:50:27,500 --> 00:50:30,580 was wanting. He bought me this car. 822 00:50:31,080 --> 00:50:35,160 And then I'm telling you, like, I never asked him to purchase 823 00:50:35,160 --> 00:50:37,720 the car. I just used to get on Craigslist 824 00:50:38,000 --> 00:50:40,120 and look around for these used cars. 825 00:50:40,120 --> 00:50:43,120 Not that I would buy them, just looking at them. 826 00:50:43,600 --> 00:50:48,920 And it's the same thing. After he bought me that, it was 827 00:50:48,920 --> 00:50:50,840 like, well, where are you going in my car? 828 00:50:51,570 --> 00:50:53,730 Like, he wouldn't put it in my name. 829 00:50:54,130 --> 00:50:57,210 He had me on his car insurance, which was really nice because at 830 00:50:57,210 --> 00:51:00,330 that time I was young, I had been in Rex. 831 00:51:00,490 --> 00:51:02,970 Nobody really wanted to give me my own policy. 832 00:51:03,450 --> 00:51:07,770 And I remember that we broke up like right around Valentine's 833 00:51:07,770 --> 00:51:12,050 Day and he took me off of his insurance on February 14th. 834 00:51:12,370 --> 00:51:17,810 So my insurance policy literally renews on February 14th and then 835 00:51:17,810 --> 00:51:20,890 like August 14th every year. And it just always makes me 836 00:51:20,890 --> 00:51:25,490 laugh because I used to let someone manipulate me with 837 00:51:25,490 --> 00:51:28,210 something that I never even asked them to do. 838 00:51:28,410 --> 00:51:32,130 I had a car, it would just set and I wanted to drive the other 839 00:51:32,130 --> 00:51:35,970 one because it was nicer, it was newer, it was white, all those 840 00:51:35,970 --> 00:51:39,050 things. But the point of that is he 841 00:51:39,050 --> 00:51:42,170 never did that because he wanted me to have the car I wanted. 842 00:51:42,170 --> 00:51:46,940 It wasn't a giving part. He did that because the car was 843 00:51:46,940 --> 00:51:50,620 in his name and if I upset him in any way or did something he 844 00:51:50,620 --> 00:51:54,420 didn't like, he would threaten me with reporting the car 845 00:51:54,420 --> 00:51:57,540 stolen. How can you report, like report 846 00:51:57,540 --> 00:52:02,300 a car stolen if I'm literally a licensed and insured driver for 847 00:52:02,300 --> 00:52:04,900 this car? Like the manipulation though, 848 00:52:04,900 --> 00:52:08,500 like those tactics. And that's exactly what so many 849 00:52:08,500 --> 00:52:11,180 people do in relationships and friendships. 850 00:52:11,540 --> 00:52:15,540 And I'll be honest, I give stuff to people and I don't even think 851 00:52:15,540 --> 00:52:18,180 about it. Like, one time I accidentally 852 00:52:18,460 --> 00:52:20,900 gave something to someone. It was like, in a box. 853 00:52:20,900 --> 00:52:23,700 And I didn't mean to. And they ended up being like, Oh 854 00:52:23,700 --> 00:52:25,780 my gosh, I love that thing you gave me. 855 00:52:26,100 --> 00:52:29,220 And a part of me was like, oops, I really didn't mean to give 856 00:52:29,220 --> 00:52:32,580 that to you, but I just kind of let it go because I was like, 857 00:52:32,580 --> 00:52:36,180 this is a test because I I didn't want to keep that, but 858 00:52:36,180 --> 00:52:39,300 they really like it. And now that ended up being one 859 00:52:39,300 --> 00:52:42,600 of those fake friends that was like, I'm just so sick of you 860 00:52:42,600 --> 00:52:45,280 thinking because you give me your old clothes, that you're a 861 00:52:45,280 --> 00:52:49,040 good friend. I gave you stuff that I know for 862 00:52:49,040 --> 00:52:51,320 a fact. You went to Plato's closet and 863 00:52:51,320 --> 00:52:55,680 beyond and sold it for money. I quit being this person's 864 00:52:55,680 --> 00:52:58,720 friend because I realized the only time they wanted to come 865 00:52:58,720 --> 00:53:02,400 around me is when they wanted someone to give them gifts or to 866 00:53:02,400 --> 00:53:06,320 lift them up, or to give them a free reading or to do things for 867 00:53:06,320 --> 00:53:08,360 them. But meanwhile, they would win 868 00:53:08,360 --> 00:53:12,000 concert tickets or or have abundance come their way, and 869 00:53:12,000 --> 00:53:14,680 instead of spreading that back to someone who's always there 870 00:53:14,680 --> 00:53:18,120 for them, they would take their shit baby daddy or their cousin, 871 00:53:18,120 --> 00:53:21,400 or just some random person who's not ever there for you. 872 00:53:22,200 --> 00:53:24,920 And that's when I started drawing the line with the types 873 00:53:24,920 --> 00:53:28,560 of people that I give things to. Because some people, no matter 874 00:53:28,560 --> 00:53:31,720 what you do for them, will never do the same for you. 875 00:53:32,080 --> 00:53:35,880 If your intention is to receive something back, you're not doing 876 00:53:35,880 --> 00:53:38,800 it from a good place. But I want someone who's got to 877 00:53:38,800 --> 00:53:43,300 respect that I just went out on a limb for you or I did 878 00:53:43,300 --> 00:53:47,660 something for you in a way. And instead it was like, well, 879 00:53:47,660 --> 00:53:49,540 that's not even good enough, you know what I mean? 880 00:53:49,540 --> 00:53:51,780 It was like that energy of that's not even good enough. 881 00:53:52,140 --> 00:53:54,660 So I've seen both ends of it, where people have tried to 882 00:53:54,660 --> 00:53:57,620 manipulate me with gifts, and then the people who I'm 883 00:53:57,620 --> 00:54:00,420 showering with gifts want to give you, well, that's not good 884 00:54:00,420 --> 00:54:02,620 enough energy just because you're giving me your old 885 00:54:02,620 --> 00:54:05,440 clothes. Let's just be honest, probably 886 00:54:05,440 --> 00:54:08,360 no one that even watches or follows me in any way has 887 00:54:08,360 --> 00:54:10,720 probably ever seen me wear the same thing over two or three 888 00:54:10,720 --> 00:54:12,840 times. Like it's not like I rock the 889 00:54:12,840 --> 00:54:14,840 same shit every day and then gave it to you. 890 00:54:15,320 --> 00:54:18,320 I have so many different outfit combinations that I can make a 891 00:54:18,320 --> 00:54:20,600 different outfit out of something I've had for a really 892 00:54:20,600 --> 00:54:23,400 long time. And it just blew my mind that 893 00:54:23,560 --> 00:54:27,240 she had the audacity to text me on my birthday this year and 894 00:54:27,240 --> 00:54:28,760 tell me she was really missing me. 895 00:54:29,040 --> 00:54:31,200 And in the back of my head, I was like, I guess she needs some 896 00:54:31,200 --> 00:54:36,590 summer clothes. So I also want people going back 897 00:54:36,590 --> 00:54:40,550 to what you were talking about, about, you know, your boyfriend 898 00:54:40,550 --> 00:54:42,790 buying the car and then and whatever. 899 00:54:43,070 --> 00:54:47,910 So that's actually a abusive tactic. 900 00:54:47,910 --> 00:54:53,830 It's called financial abuse. And I know people and I mean and 901 00:54:53,830 --> 00:54:59,470 I think we all know people who will have their partner gets 902 00:54:59,470 --> 00:55:02,680 them something. Or pay for something that they 903 00:55:02,680 --> 00:55:06,400 want and then be like, well, that's my thing and confiscated 904 00:55:06,400 --> 00:55:09,000 as their own. Or you know, be like, well, I 905 00:55:09,000 --> 00:55:14,600 bought that for you or whatever. And that's something that I have 906 00:55:14,600 --> 00:55:21,050 been limiting my interactions. With people who tolerate and 907 00:55:21,050 --> 00:55:24,210 accept that. Because if you tolerate and 908 00:55:24,210 --> 00:55:28,050 accept that, you are giving permission for it and saying 909 00:55:28,050 --> 00:55:31,650 that you're willing to make justifications for yourself 910 00:55:31,650 --> 00:55:34,850 being treated that way, which means that you're going to make 911 00:55:34,850 --> 00:55:37,250 justifications to treat me that way. 912 00:55:37,610 --> 00:55:40,730 And as I've started taking a second to assess. 913 00:55:41,350 --> 00:55:45,230 How people are okay being treated around me, I'm able to 914 00:55:45,230 --> 00:55:52,670 assess ways that they're okay treating me and I'm not fucking 915 00:55:52,670 --> 00:55:55,870 vibing with it and a lesson that I keep. 916 00:55:56,140 --> 00:56:00,620 Learning this year is that I can't coddle people because I 917 00:56:00,620 --> 00:56:05,100 feel bad for situations that they continue to put themselves 918 00:56:05,100 --> 00:56:08,340 into or growth that they refuse to have. 919 00:56:08,620 --> 00:56:12,260 And I can't save people who won't save themselves. 920 00:56:12,500 --> 00:56:16,140 And it's really wild, because I made a Facebook post about this 921 00:56:16,140 --> 00:56:20,860 the other day, and I actually want to read the post because I 922 00:56:20,860 --> 00:56:24,820 had multiple people message me that I hadn't even had in my 923 00:56:24,820 --> 00:56:28,980 fucking brain. When I made this post that took 924 00:56:28,980 --> 00:56:32,180 it personal and thought that it was about them and were giving 925 00:56:32,180 --> 00:56:35,140 me apologies for, you know, whatever. 926 00:56:35,740 --> 00:56:40,940 And I said my lesson this year has been to stop making excuses 927 00:56:40,940 --> 00:56:44,460 to coddle other people because it prevents them from their own 928 00:56:44,460 --> 00:56:48,020 growth and taking responsibility for fixing their life. 929 00:56:48,140 --> 00:56:51,020 And every time I feel I've learned the lesson, I'm shown 930 00:56:51,020 --> 00:56:53,790 that I haven't. Still working on learning the 931 00:56:53,790 --> 00:56:56,990 balance between loving and supporting people that I love 932 00:56:56,990 --> 00:57:00,590 and care about, while also not condoning their actions and 933 00:57:00,590 --> 00:57:03,990 thought processes that prevent them from moving forward and 934 00:57:03,990 --> 00:57:07,710 making necessary changes. We're all on healing journeys 935 00:57:07,710 --> 00:57:13,590 and selfreflection journeys, and here's where I am on mine and I 936 00:57:13,590 --> 00:57:18,710 realized as I was getting all of this feedback from other people. 937 00:57:19,270 --> 00:57:20,470 Wow. So. 938 00:57:20,910 --> 00:57:26,350 You subconsciously think that you're treating me poorly to the 939 00:57:26,350 --> 00:57:30,350 point that I would write something about it, but you're 940 00:57:30,350 --> 00:57:33,230 not telling me that you're going to navigate any differently. 941 00:57:33,510 --> 00:57:38,110 You're not like wow. And these are the area like and 942 00:57:38,110 --> 00:57:39,950 I realized that I need to grow through this. 943 00:57:39,950 --> 00:57:43,310 There's not any recognition of like you're on your own growth 944 00:57:43,310 --> 00:57:47,990 journey and you know whatever it is, just how my post has 945 00:57:47,990 --> 00:57:55,300 affected you and. I used to feel like in order for 946 00:57:55,300 --> 00:58:00,620 me to have a boundary and say I don't like that you accept this 947 00:58:00,620 --> 00:58:03,660 in your life and I'm not going to accept that in my life, but I 948 00:58:03,660 --> 00:58:07,260 had to have some conversation and tell you exactly how you're 949 00:58:07,260 --> 00:58:10,060 fucking up and then move accordingly. 950 00:58:10,260 --> 00:58:12,380 I no longer do that. I'm not going to have the 951 00:58:12,380 --> 00:58:15,020 conversation with you. I'm not going to tell you how 952 00:58:15,020 --> 00:58:16,820 disappointed in your choices I am. 953 00:58:17,020 --> 00:58:19,340 I'm not going to tell you how you're fucking up your own life. 954 00:58:19,580 --> 00:58:21,820 I'm going to focus. Just on my life and aligning 955 00:58:21,820 --> 00:58:25,540 with the energy that's vibing with me and I'm going to figure 956 00:58:25,540 --> 00:58:29,460 out how to cut you off from the fucking supply that you're 957 00:58:29,460 --> 00:58:33,100 getting from me, that you're not putting energy into and. 958 00:58:33,930 --> 00:58:39,370 I also am cutting people off if I'm rolling my eyes because you 959 00:58:39,370 --> 00:58:43,690 have no fucking idea where you are on your healing journey, but 960 00:58:43,690 --> 00:58:48,370 you're making posts or comments or conversations with me, 961 00:58:48,650 --> 00:58:51,370 wondering why your life perpetually is shitty. 962 00:58:51,570 --> 00:58:54,610 I'm no longer. I'm going to give my time, 963 00:58:54,850 --> 00:59:01,170 attention, energy to you because I am exhausted of rolling my 964 00:59:01,170 --> 00:59:03,170 fucking eyes every day. I have a headache now. 965 00:59:04,560 --> 00:59:07,400 Amen, sister. A lot of people, especially 966 00:59:07,400 --> 00:59:11,760 whenever you start winning and developing who you are and being 967 00:59:11,760 --> 00:59:15,880 authentic, those people start to take it personal. 968 00:59:15,880 --> 00:59:18,840 Like everything you do, everything you say is personal. 969 00:59:19,120 --> 00:59:22,960 And that's why I always encourage people to read the 970 00:59:22,960 --> 00:59:26,010 four agreements. Because when I stopped taking 971 00:59:26,010 --> 00:59:30,170 shit personal like, oh I'm not invited, oh this oh that. 972 00:59:30,170 --> 00:59:32,450 I started to see it as redirection. 973 00:59:32,810 --> 00:59:37,530 I truly don't want to go to a bunch of, you know, third and 974 00:59:37,530 --> 00:59:41,970 4th year birthday parties or baby showers or wedding showers. 975 00:59:41,970 --> 00:59:44,410 I don't want to go. So when I stopped getting 976 00:59:44,410 --> 00:59:47,770 invited, I started to see that was my manifestation coming to 977 00:59:47,770 --> 00:59:52,250 life instead of me faking till I make it to make an appearance or 978 00:59:52,250 --> 00:59:56,500 to pretend like I'm there in having a good time, I'm just not 979 00:59:56,500 --> 00:59:58,300 invited. And that's fine. 980 00:59:58,580 --> 01:00:01,660 I don't take that personally. Don't waste an invitation on me 981 01:00:01,660 --> 01:00:04,500 when I'm not going to come. I will come to your wedding. 982 01:00:04,820 --> 01:00:07,780 I will not come to your bridal shower and everything before. 983 01:00:08,140 --> 01:00:12,500 I'm not going to be the person that spends $800 to be a part of 984 01:00:12,500 --> 01:00:14,660 your wedding. I think it's ridiculous that 985 01:00:14,660 --> 01:00:17,570 people invite. People to be in their bridal 986 01:00:17,570 --> 01:00:20,250 party and then they're like, by the way, the dress we picked out 987 01:00:20,250 --> 01:00:22,850 is 375. We're going to Nashville for The 988 01:00:22,850 --> 01:00:25,130 Bachelorette party. I'm also going to need you to 989 01:00:25,130 --> 01:00:27,410 make a photo wall. Is that cool? 990 01:00:28,050 --> 01:00:31,450 Oh, the shoes are 75 and you're never going to wear any of this 991 01:00:31,450 --> 01:00:32,410 again. Cool. 992 01:00:32,890 --> 01:00:34,650 Oh yeah, we're getting a hair and makeup artist. 993 01:00:34,650 --> 01:00:37,370 It's 150. You know, it's just like, I 994 01:00:37,370 --> 01:00:41,650 don't want that type of energy. Like if I'm asking people to do 995 01:00:41,650 --> 01:00:47,070 XYZ in my wedding or in my life, I'm willing to flip the bill for 996 01:00:47,070 --> 01:00:48,710 that. Like I am willing to flip the 997 01:00:48,710 --> 01:00:52,590 bill for whatever it is. And I just, like so many people, 998 01:00:52,590 --> 01:00:56,070 want to take and take and take. And then when the person's 999 01:00:56,070 --> 01:00:59,250 finally like shit, I'm fed up. I'm tapped. 1000 01:00:59,570 --> 01:01:01,330 I'm drained. I'm done. 1001 01:01:01,530 --> 01:01:05,330 People take that offensively and like, I love people and I want 1002 01:01:05,330 --> 01:01:09,010 all of my people, friends, family, enemies to thrive. 1003 01:01:09,290 --> 01:01:12,370 But keep your bullshit and your projections away from me. 1004 01:01:12,570 --> 01:01:16,210 Just because we were the generation of freaking everyone 1005 01:01:16,210 --> 01:01:19,050 gets a trophy doesn't mean everyone's going to get caught 1006 01:01:19,050 --> 01:01:23,170 old when you come into my life. Because I am really quick to be 1007 01:01:23,170 --> 01:01:26,730 like you're the one that is causing your suffering. 1008 01:01:26,730 --> 01:01:30,370 This mindset causes your suffering, this relationship, 1009 01:01:30,370 --> 01:01:33,970 having sex with this person causes your suffering. 1010 01:01:34,330 --> 01:01:38,450 All of those things like I personally feel so much growth 1011 01:01:38,730 --> 01:01:42,050 from just not allowing certain people to have access to my 1012 01:01:42,050 --> 01:01:44,170 energy. I'm not going to let people 1013 01:01:44,170 --> 01:01:49,490 project their insecurities on to me and make me feel less than or 1014 01:01:49,490 --> 01:01:53,410 make me feel like I'm not good enough because that's just for 1015 01:01:53,410 --> 01:01:56,090 the birds. And that was for 19 year old me. 1016 01:01:56,370 --> 01:01:58,330 And I have finally learned my lesson. 1017 01:01:58,930 --> 01:02:04,850 I would much rather be by myself in my home alone, then wake up 1018 01:02:04,850 --> 01:02:08,850 next to someone every day because I want to pretend I'm 1019 01:02:08,850 --> 01:02:12,570 happy, or because we have kids together, or because they pay 1020 01:02:12,570 --> 01:02:15,850 the bills or whatever. And I just feel like so many 1021 01:02:15,850 --> 01:02:20,050 people are locked into the sole contracts that have absolutely 1022 01:02:20,050 --> 01:02:22,490 been fulfilled. But you just keep like 1023 01:02:22,810 --> 01:02:26,130 reiterating the same lessons over and over again. 1024 01:02:26,520 --> 01:02:29,240 And I keep telling people like get off the hamster will, 1025 01:02:29,240 --> 01:02:32,440 because you're not a hamster. You're not meant to go in 1026 01:02:32,440 --> 01:02:35,360 circles and to spend your wills in the same direction. 1027 01:02:35,680 --> 01:02:38,160 Put your shit in 4 wheel drive and go through the mud and go 1028 01:02:38,160 --> 01:02:40,440 through the struggle. Go through what you need to go 1029 01:02:40,440 --> 01:02:45,040 through and then grow from it. If you choose whatever in your 1030 01:02:45,040 --> 01:02:48,800 reality, you will see more and more of it. 1031 01:02:49,000 --> 01:02:52,800 And a lot of people choose those lower vibrational connections, 1032 01:02:52,800 --> 01:02:54,800 those lower vibrational energies. 1033 01:02:55,280 --> 01:02:57,640 I'm not going to lie, I used to be that person that would just 1034 01:02:57,640 --> 01:03:01,560 go on dates to get free food. But then I learned I'd rather 1035 01:03:01,560 --> 01:03:06,040 eat alone at Ruth Chris and have a good time and and converse 1036 01:03:06,040 --> 01:03:08,320 with my server. Or even maybe meet someone 1037 01:03:08,320 --> 01:03:10,440 random. Because when you're alone, 1038 01:03:10,520 --> 01:03:13,200 you're in your own vibration. You're not absorbing this 1039 01:03:13,200 --> 01:03:15,660 bullshit. I don't want to go places with 1040 01:03:15,660 --> 01:03:19,180 people who are just negative or draining. 1041 01:03:19,460 --> 01:03:22,140 And I feel like so many people stay stagnant. 1042 01:03:22,140 --> 01:03:25,740 So that when someone is finally fed up like Jim and I posting 1043 01:03:25,740 --> 01:03:29,820 that on Facebook, people automatically assume that she's 1044 01:03:29,820 --> 01:03:32,580 being passive aggressive and that she's talking directly 1045 01:03:32,580 --> 01:03:36,500 about them rather than facing the issue head on. 1046 01:03:36,820 --> 01:03:44,460 Like everyone around here is getting a come in here, you're 1047 01:03:44,460 --> 01:03:50,580 not okay, there's just so much going on. 1048 01:03:50,580 --> 01:03:54,620 And Jim and I just distracted me with her not being on mute, but 1049 01:03:54,620 --> 01:03:57,980 I muted her. So I feel like at the same time 1050 01:03:57,980 --> 01:04:00,780 that you're growing and you're elevating, you're just going to 1051 01:04:00,780 --> 01:04:04,420 have to see where you're allowing those connections to 1052 01:04:04,420 --> 01:04:09,260 manipulate you, to stay in that lower vibration, to stay in the 1053 01:04:09,260 --> 01:04:13,890 vibration of, well, I wish this could be my life or I want that 1054 01:04:13,890 --> 01:04:17,730 to be my life, but you're doing nothing about it to actually get 1055 01:04:17,730 --> 01:04:21,130 to that point. And I feel like in this society, 1056 01:04:21,370 --> 01:04:26,690 we're constantly bombarded with information and 92% of it is not 1057 01:04:26,690 --> 01:04:30,170 fact just because you saw it on TikTok or you saw it somewhere. 1058 01:04:30,370 --> 01:04:32,690 That is someone's effing opinion. 1059 01:04:32,890 --> 01:04:36,290 Stop taking what people say about our government, about our 1060 01:04:36,290 --> 01:04:40,090 life, about America as fact. It's time to express your own 1061 01:04:40,090 --> 01:04:42,810 authentic story. Yes, there is corruption. 1062 01:04:43,010 --> 01:04:47,130 There is corruption everywhere. That does not mean that we're 1063 01:04:47,170 --> 01:04:50,250 living in the end of times or that this is worse than the 1064 01:04:50,250 --> 01:04:53,530 Great Depression. The thing about it is so many 1065 01:04:53,530 --> 01:04:58,370 people don't realize that their mindset is the limitation. 1066 01:04:58,650 --> 01:05:03,490 Their vibration is signing them up to repeat these sole 1067 01:05:03,490 --> 01:05:08,730 contracts and to repeat this nonsense over and over again. 1068 01:05:09,050 --> 01:05:13,050 And as you grow, and as you elevate, you have to find peace. 1069 01:05:13,050 --> 01:05:15,570 That you are your own worst enemy. 1070 01:05:15,810 --> 01:05:19,970 You are hook, line, and sinker, and you are sinking the boat 1071 01:05:20,050 --> 01:05:23,130 every single time. With your shitty attitude, with 1072 01:05:23,130 --> 01:05:26,850 your jealousy, with your envy. Yes, I cannot stand the 1073 01:05:26,850 --> 01:05:30,210 Kardashians. If I see anything pop up, I 1074 01:05:30,210 --> 01:05:33,190 block them. Recently Kim Kardashian did a 1075 01:05:33,190 --> 01:05:36,390 big deal with Alani New, which is a Louisville based company 1076 01:05:36,750 --> 01:05:40,910 from a girl named Katie Hearn who I personally watched build 1077 01:05:40,910 --> 01:05:44,270 her brand up to the million followers it now has. 1078 01:05:44,630 --> 01:05:46,990 Will I still support her brand? Yes. 1079 01:05:47,030 --> 01:05:51,910 In silence because I don't like when people change who they are 1080 01:05:52,150 --> 01:05:55,190 to match these big name vibrations. 1081 01:05:55,510 --> 01:05:57,630 American Horror Story. I guess their ratings are 1082 01:05:57,630 --> 01:06:00,470 trashed because now they've got Kim Kardashian coming on the new 1083 01:06:00,470 --> 01:06:02,740 season. I will not be a part of it. 1084 01:06:03,060 --> 01:06:06,980 I can't say I don't like this person and then support things 1085 01:06:06,980 --> 01:06:10,020 that they do. I can't say I don't fuck with 1086 01:06:10,020 --> 01:06:12,820 this relationship or I don't fuck with this family member and 1087 01:06:12,820 --> 01:06:14,420 then support things that they do. 1088 01:06:14,620 --> 01:06:16,660 You've got to remove your attention. 1089 01:06:16,820 --> 01:06:20,860 Stop giving billionaires and billionaire companies money if 1090 01:06:20,860 --> 01:06:25,620 you want a bitch about it later. I personally believe that we as 1091 01:06:25,620 --> 01:06:31,750 society have consented to this off scale of like abundance 1092 01:06:31,750 --> 01:06:36,030 because so many people are living in greed and fear. 1093 01:06:36,070 --> 01:06:39,950 And just like, well, if I share that with my neighbor, there's 1094 01:06:39,950 --> 01:06:42,030 less for me. There will be people that have a 1095 01:06:42,030 --> 01:06:45,230 whole garden of things that are going to go bad because they can 1096 01:06:45,230 --> 01:06:48,550 only eat so many tomatoes and cucumbers, but they don't knock 1097 01:06:48,550 --> 01:06:50,190 on their neighbor's door and offer any. 1098 01:06:50,590 --> 01:06:53,510 They let them go bad. And that's what's wrong with 1099 01:06:53,510 --> 01:06:58,310 society. I unsubscribed to Hulu. 1100 01:06:59,030 --> 01:07:02,750 One is a part of my budgeting thing and not spending extra 1101 01:07:02,750 --> 01:07:06,430 money. But I I got out of Hulu because 1102 01:07:07,110 --> 01:07:10,830 we've talked about how I just do not vibe with the fucking whole 1103 01:07:10,830 --> 01:07:14,430 entire thing of the Kardashians and what they're boosting and 1104 01:07:14,430 --> 01:07:16,830 what they're promoting and and what they're doing. 1105 01:07:17,190 --> 01:07:21,700 And I. I don't like any fucking part of 1106 01:07:21,700 --> 01:07:23,740 it. And I was like, I'm not, I'm not 1107 01:07:23,740 --> 01:07:28,420 going to support Hulu anymore. That is just making money off of 1108 01:07:28,780 --> 01:07:32,060 putting all of this inside of people's faces and having 1109 01:07:32,060 --> 01:07:34,900 inauthenticity. And just because I've vibed with 1110 01:07:35,460 --> 01:07:39,980 a storyline or a different version of people earlier on in 1111 01:07:39,980 --> 01:07:44,500 their journey doesn't mean that I have to now and something that 1112 01:07:44,500 --> 01:07:48,750 I've really been. On training myself about is 1113 01:07:48,750 --> 01:07:52,230 loyalty. Like I've always prided myself 1114 01:07:52,270 --> 01:07:57,350 on being a very loyal person and I still am a loyal person. 1115 01:07:57,350 --> 01:08:02,470 But my loyalty comes with limitations. 1116 01:08:02,830 --> 01:08:06,990 I have a limited loyalty to you if if I. 1117 01:08:07,710 --> 01:08:11,830 Know that you're making very shitty choices, and that you 1118 01:08:11,830 --> 01:08:14,990 know that you are making shitty choices that are negatively 1119 01:08:14,990 --> 01:08:18,990 affecting your life. I am not going to be loyal to 1120 01:08:18,990 --> 01:08:23,870 sitting by and watching you be miserable and not make any 1121 01:08:23,870 --> 01:08:29,380 changes if I see that you are. Perpetually broke and 1122 01:08:29,380 --> 01:08:32,859 complaining about not being able to do things, but you're being 1123 01:08:32,859 --> 01:08:35,340 financially manipulated and abused. 1124 01:08:35,540 --> 01:08:40,580 I'm not going to sit by and be loyal to that if I see that you 1125 01:08:40,580 --> 01:08:44,420 have been going through a really deep depression, but you're 1126 01:08:44,420 --> 01:08:49,220 using that as an excuse to take from the people around you and 1127 01:08:49,300 --> 01:08:52,979 manipulate them into giving you something or feeling bad for 1128 01:08:52,979 --> 01:08:55,819 you. I am no longer loyal to you. 1129 01:08:56,340 --> 01:08:57,580 I am. I'm not. 1130 01:08:57,700 --> 01:09:02,460 Loyal to That loyalty for me has completely changed. 1131 01:09:02,819 --> 01:09:06,180 I'm going to be loyal to connections like I have with 1132 01:09:06,180 --> 01:09:10,300 you, or connections like I have with, you know, my best friend 1133 01:09:10,300 --> 01:09:15,700 Ryan or whatever, because these are people who are pouring in 1134 01:09:15,899 --> 01:09:18,260 the exact amount that they're getting back out. 1135 01:09:18,620 --> 01:09:22,700 Not that I expect anybody's life to be fucking perfect, because 1136 01:09:22,979 --> 01:09:27,540 life is not perfect, but you come to me and say I wasn't. 1137 01:09:27,740 --> 01:09:29,260 Really. I'm not really vibing with this 1138 01:09:29,260 --> 01:09:30,819 idea. I don't think that you should do 1139 01:09:30,819 --> 01:09:35,740 that, or you really, you know, this isn't cool, But it's not 1140 01:09:35,740 --> 01:09:40,300 about things that are like huge life, things that I'm staying 1141 01:09:40,300 --> 01:09:44,220 inside of that are awful for me. They're not. 1142 01:09:44,939 --> 01:09:52,069 How do I say that I? I can no longer be loyal, be 1143 01:09:52,069 --> 01:09:55,110 more loyal to other people than they are to themselves. 1144 01:09:55,790 --> 01:10:00,950 And that's where I'm changing. And I think that's so important 1145 01:10:00,950 --> 01:10:05,590 because throughout our life we make the most excuses for the 1146 01:10:05,590 --> 01:10:10,950 people close to us and the people that are not healthy 1147 01:10:10,950 --> 01:10:14,680 connections. And I feel like so many people 1148 01:10:14,920 --> 01:10:20,320 have so much brainwashing from the corest level of their 1149 01:10:20,320 --> 01:10:22,920 parents. If your parents are straight, 1150 01:10:22,920 --> 01:10:26,760 manipulative, and they comment on your body weight or your 1151 01:10:26,760 --> 01:10:32,450 tattoos or your hair or whatever, you should not subject 1152 01:10:32,450 --> 01:10:35,130 yourself to that energy. And now that the holidays are 1153 01:10:35,130 --> 01:10:37,410 approaching, I will say this again. 1154 01:10:37,410 --> 01:10:40,810 Like I said it last year, decline invites. 1155 01:10:40,810 --> 01:10:45,050 If you go around certain people and it's always Why aren't you 1156 01:10:45,050 --> 01:10:46,810 married yet? Why don't you have kids? 1157 01:10:46,810 --> 01:10:48,690 Why do you have five kids? Where's your baby? 1158 01:10:48,690 --> 01:10:49,810 Dad? Where's this? 1159 01:10:49,810 --> 01:10:52,710 Why aren't you married? You know, questions of like, the 1160 01:10:52,710 --> 01:10:55,870 ether. They need to scream those into 1161 01:10:55,870 --> 01:10:58,230 the fucking wall. Because at the end of the day, 1162 01:10:58,470 --> 01:11:01,710 you are at a roadblock with these people, and you're not 1163 01:11:01,710 --> 01:11:05,030 going to be able to go around the roadblock and take a detour 1164 01:11:05,310 --> 01:11:08,070 if you're constantly absorbing that frequency. 1165 01:11:08,390 --> 01:11:11,830 And I know for sure, like my family is pretty judgmental 1166 01:11:11,830 --> 01:11:14,790 about certain things, but the moment that I just stopped 1167 01:11:14,790 --> 01:11:17,550 caring and just started to get the tattoos I wanted. 1168 01:11:17,870 --> 01:11:21,870 And my favorite was you can't have visible tattoos in the 1169 01:11:21,870 --> 01:11:24,310 corporate world. Wrong go. 1170 01:11:24,590 --> 01:11:27,950 Wrong go. And I think like proving that 1171 01:11:27,950 --> 01:11:31,030 point. I don't do it out of spite, but 1172 01:11:31,030 --> 01:11:34,350 I am doing the damn thing in every area of my life. 1173 01:11:34,350 --> 01:11:38,950 And no tattoo, no nothing has ever stopped me from doing what 1174 01:11:38,950 --> 01:11:41,550 I need to do in order to provide for myself. 1175 01:11:41,910 --> 01:11:44,830 And I think it's such a beautiful thing to not even be 1176 01:11:44,830 --> 01:11:47,310 spiteful about that. It's not like I go rub that in 1177 01:11:47,310 --> 01:11:50,290 people's faces that I'm doing better than them. 1178 01:11:50,290 --> 01:11:56,010 It's just an energetic frequency that speaks for itself and at 1179 01:11:56,010 --> 01:11:59,450 the end of the day we have to speak for ourselves and let's go 1180 01:11:59,450 --> 01:12:01,610 ahead and pull the human design card. 1181 01:12:22,890 --> 01:12:30,610 We got card 13 for magnetism. That's a lie. 1182 01:12:30,810 --> 01:12:34,850 It's card 15 for magnetism, and the sign is Gemini. 1183 01:12:38,370 --> 01:12:39,850 Think we've gotten this one before. 1184 01:12:40,530 --> 01:12:43,810 So actually the sign is Gemini and cancer. 1185 01:12:45,010 --> 01:12:48,570 The gift is magnetism and the shadow is dullness. 1186 01:12:49,470 --> 01:12:54,230 The energy of magnetism brings with it arithmetic coalescence, 1187 01:12:54,550 --> 01:12:58,110 with the heartbeat of life, of the earth, and of every living 1188 01:12:58,110 --> 01:13:02,830 and breathing Organism. As such, even the most mundane 1189 01:13:02,830 --> 01:13:06,910 and ordinary activities transform into opportunities for 1190 01:13:06,910 --> 01:13:11,630 expansion and meditation. Life itself is a spiritual quest 1191 01:13:11,950 --> 01:13:16,070 in the places where no one seems to look, like in a handshake, a 1192 01:13:16,070 --> 01:13:18,710 smile, a walk, or your inner dialogue. 1193 01:13:19,440 --> 01:13:22,080 You don't live just for the peaks and valleys, but for the 1194 01:13:22,080 --> 01:13:25,160 space in between. You are multifaceted and 1195 01:13:25,160 --> 01:13:29,120 spirited, thanks to your capacity for unconditional love. 1196 01:13:29,560 --> 01:13:32,680 Others feel compelled to live out their truths, whatever they 1197 01:13:32,680 --> 01:13:35,440 may be. Your shadow is dullness. 1198 01:13:36,360 --> 01:13:40,280 Where do you resist life? There is a fear within this 1199 01:13:40,280 --> 01:13:44,840 shadow of falling victim to a repetitive, dull existence. 1200 01:13:45,280 --> 01:13:48,320 It is through this resistance that you might try to avoid the 1201 01:13:48,320 --> 01:13:52,080 space in between with mechanisms of distraction. 1202 01:13:52,080 --> 01:13:55,600 Rather than embracing the void, move through the shadow by 1203 01:13:55,600 --> 01:13:59,480 accepting all of life with full vigor, even the apparent 1204 01:13:59,480 --> 01:14:02,160 dullness. This shift will allow all 1205 01:14:02,160 --> 01:14:04,200 moments to blossom and bear fruit. 1206 01:14:04,560 --> 01:14:09,320 Your themes are truth, Spectrum, Acceptance, and the void. 1207 01:14:10,310 --> 01:14:13,710 That's really fitting with us, having talked about speaking the 1208 01:14:13,750 --> 01:14:19,230 truth and also figuring out what you're going to accept inside of 1209 01:14:19,230 --> 01:14:24,310 your life and your reality and how what you're going to accept 1210 01:14:24,310 --> 01:14:27,710 about what other people's truths are and how they're speaking 1211 01:14:27,710 --> 01:14:31,580 that into your life too. I think the most beautiful 1212 01:14:31,580 --> 01:14:36,620 dynamic that we just want to pour out into the world is 1213 01:14:36,700 --> 01:14:40,940 nothing that's meant for you will pass you by when you are 1214 01:14:41,390 --> 01:14:43,990 exuding your authentic vibration. 1215 01:14:44,230 --> 01:14:47,750 People will be attracted to that, people will be magnetized 1216 01:14:47,750 --> 01:14:50,990 by that and abundance, and that energy that you have been 1217 01:14:50,990 --> 01:14:55,270 desperately seeking will find you in the most unexpected of 1218 01:14:55,270 --> 01:14:58,110 ways. So we encourage everyone to cut 1219 01:14:58,110 --> 01:15:01,310 the cord with the bullshit, with the excuses, with the 1220 01:15:01,310 --> 01:15:05,980 negativity, with the collective, and delete social media. 1221 01:15:05,980 --> 01:15:09,780 Go off the grid for a little bit to recalibrate your energy, 1222 01:15:10,020 --> 01:15:14,180 because if you're constantly hooked up and charging to a grid 1223 01:15:14,340 --> 01:15:17,100 of other people's energies, you're never really going to 1224 01:15:17,100 --> 01:15:18,780 know what you bring to the table. 1225 01:15:19,020 --> 01:15:23,540 And we want everyone to shine in their own way, because we can 1226 01:15:23,540 --> 01:15:29,300 all shine together individually and collectively, and we just 1227 01:15:29,300 --> 01:15:31,580 want you all to be the best versions of yourself. 1228 01:15:32,400 --> 01:15:35,640 Yeah, and I want to leave you guys with the message of if you 1229 01:15:35,640 --> 01:15:39,160 felt triggered by the episode stuff that came up, whatever, 1230 01:15:39,640 --> 01:15:42,360 make changes with that information be like. 1231 01:15:42,810 --> 01:15:46,370 I feel triggered because this is absolutely talking about me. 1232 01:15:46,370 --> 01:15:48,930 This feels like this could be about me. 1233 01:15:48,930 --> 01:15:53,090 Right now it probably isn't. So make the changes that need to 1234 01:15:53,090 --> 01:15:56,610 be made because that is your own spirit team having us deliver a 1235 01:15:56,610 --> 01:16:00,210 message for you that you clearly are not fucking following. 1236 01:16:00,210 --> 01:16:04,090 Stop having excuses for why you're waiting to change things, 1237 01:16:04,090 --> 01:16:07,410 why you're waiting to leave your person, why you're accepting 1238 01:16:07,410 --> 01:16:09,690 manipulation in whatever form it is. 1239 01:16:10,130 --> 01:16:12,690 Do the changes that you need to do for you and. 1240 01:16:12,810 --> 01:16:17,610 To stop making excuses and don't give to others with expectation 1241 01:16:17,610 --> 01:16:24,650 of getting something in return. And it is almost Libra season. 1242 01:16:24,650 --> 01:16:28,050 So it is really about balance. Find your balance, find your 1243 01:16:28,050 --> 01:16:32,290 center and dedicate 20 minutes a day to your own personal growth 1244 01:16:32,330 --> 01:16:36,730 and watch your life transform. We will see you all next time in 1245 01:16:36,730 --> 01:16:39,650 Candy Land. Bye, bye.