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Welcome back to fucking 
Candyland. 

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I have missed our weekly therapy
sessions in fucking Candyland 

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and I feel like going a couple 
months, taking a break is a 

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beautiful thing when you're 
doing it. 

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But then now that we're back, 
I'm so glad to be back. 

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I miss you so much. 
I miss you and it always cracks 

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me up when I hear you cuss 
because you put so much emphasis

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on it. 
And so it's not like just 

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fucking Candy land. 
It is fucking candy land like. 

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You know, you know what the vibe
is. 

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It's been a while and the energy
has been transformational this 

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summer. 
I feel like this has been one of

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the most transformational 
summers of my whole life. 

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What about you? 
I feel like you've you've had a 

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lot of breakthrough moments. 
And also like everyone, Gemini 

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wasn't as TikTok famous as she 
is now. 

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Now that we're back, she's over 
100K popping her shit in her moo

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moo. 
Part 26. 

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Part 32. 
That's a. 126 Part 32 No dude, 

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this this summer's been so 
fucking cool, but I feel also 

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just for like figuring just 
different pieces of ourselves 

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and figuring out who we are 
right now. 

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You and I have both just had 
these like just random 

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experiences with like 
friendships and relationships 

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and just so many different 
things that have been 

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transformational moments, things
that I don't think either of us,

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you know, there are personal 
things that we don't want to 

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talk about on the podcast. 
But I have to tell you about 

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that trip that I took to Vegas 
with my husband because I never 

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even told you about it. 
I was just like, oh, we'll wait 

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till we come back on the podcast
and then it's been like 2 weeks.

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He doesn't tell me anything 
anymore. 

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She like, she's like, we'll save
it for the podcast. 

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And then I'll be honest, I like,
I wasn't feeling good. 

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So I wanted to cancel. 
One time we were going to record

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and then another time she needed
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So like, you know, we're really 
flexible about that stuff. 

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But then like a whole nine days 
will go by and we'll be like, 

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damn, we never talked about 
that. 

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We never recorded. 
What's up? 

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How are you? 
Miss you? 

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But I feel like we check in 
about things that are big 

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things. 
We're like, yo girl, this is 

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what's going on right now. 
Like can you pull a card for me?

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What the fuck is happening in my
life? 

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But when it's like the 
day-to-day regular things, I 

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feel like we do wait for the 
podcast stuff. 

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And a big part of that too is I 
feel like we've really come to a

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balance, you and I, with the 
stuff that we're comfortable 

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publicly sharing and the stuff 
that we really want to keep 

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private and to ourselves. 
And we do use the podcast as a 

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way to connect with other people
on certain topics that we are 

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willing to discuss. 
And I feel like that's why we 

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don't talk about it behind the 
scenes because we process it 

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first hand with like, I feel 
like our little group of people.

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I say little group, but we have 
literally thousands of 

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listeners. 
You know, I miss the podcast 

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because I do feel like it's a 
way to really gauge your growth.

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It's like a it's like a liquid 
journal. 

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You know, it's like you can just
go back to an era and be like, 

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what was I doing in December 
2022 or whatever and just kind 

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of like see that growth and see 
that transformation. 

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And I remember that in the 
beginning of the podcast, we 

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were like really centered on 
like making sure we had topics 

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and that we like really had a 
good description going and 

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stuff. 
And like, we'll be honest now we

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forget what we've talked about 
and our descriptions have like 

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went not, not as specific 
because it'll be like 2 weeks 

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later and we'll go to post it 
and, and you'll be like, what do

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we talk about? 
And I don't remember, I don't 

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remember at all what we talked 
about. 

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And so like, I can just tell a 
difference of like when you 

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first start something and you 
like want it to be perfect and 

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you want it to be this and you 
want it to be that, but you have

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to just let it be whatever it 
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And I think that's what we've 
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Like especially just like with 
the audio and the video of like 

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recording at your house and 
recording across the country, 

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You know, a lot of people can't 
even make this shit work in 

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person. 
So like making it work across 

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the country, across time zones, 
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like those are the obstacles 
that people don't realize that 

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you have to overcome when you're
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with someone or just start a 
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And I think that, you know, of 
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like podcasts and content during
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slowed down. 
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pushing at full speed are 
popping their shit in the top 

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10s or the top, you know, three 
podcasts of the world or 

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whatever. 
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consistency is going to be key, 
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your audience is the important 
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Because something that's 
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haven't talked about that I 
can't wait to speak on all of 

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these like TikTok celebrities 
like sexy Red and just whoever 

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and whatever going and trying to
make big tours. 

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Even Justin Timberlake making 
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arena tour, trying to be like 
Jelly Roll. 

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But they're not in their prom. 
Like y'all are out like the 

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prom. 
It was not there. 

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I mean, maybe for JT back in the
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Like, you know, go play 
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like, you know, sell your little
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Like you don't get to sell 
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because I mean, I just don't 
know like 30,000 people that 

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want to go pay $400.00 tickets 
to sit here sexy back. 

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You know, if it's a whole, if it
was In Sync, sign me up. 

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Let's go. 
I would be all in, you know what

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I mean, But like these big 
celebrities and like how the 

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numbers people have been buying 
numbers, the bots, the fake 

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followers, the fake engagement, 
the the ranking of like how much

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you're going to pay Instagram 
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as being popular or cool. 
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how many people are like having 
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are getting cancelled in a way. 
And like, I had heard this rumor

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because, you know, JT got caught
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DUI, which said that he had to 
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And they said that it was fake. 
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when you book them in the 
policies, there's like an 

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insurance clause that protects 
the venue, meaning that if you 

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don't sell a certain amount of 
tickets, you they're going to 

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fine you that additional money 
so that they get their overhead 

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like and they break, you know, 
whatever threshold they need to 

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break. 
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that like he wanted to cash in 
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would be that he had like a 
bodily inner in a bodily injury 

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or something happened to him 
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well-being that could like claim
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he had to cancel the whole tour.
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Something about something about 
him too, is that at the same 

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time that that happened is when 
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because of Brittany's book. 
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something that sticks out to me 
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talking about like having grace 
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right? 
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different versions of people 
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And the thing that I look for 
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journey and to see if they're 
working on like a healing and 

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growth journey is to see if 
they're able to take 

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accountability from things for 
their past and that whole 

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situation. 
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we're looking from the outside 
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Like we, we don't know his 
day-to-day, but when all that 

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stuff was was going on and he's 
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people aren't showing up to his 
concerts and, and whatever. 

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Not one time did I see a 
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where he's like, I was a 
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I was famous. 
I didn't know how to deal with 

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that. 
I absolutely put this on this 

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woman. 
She had, you know, a 

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miscarriage. 
I, I didn't help with any of 

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these things. 
Or, you know, whatever it may 

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be, taking accountability for 
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then being like, I'm married 
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I've learned things. 
I would do things differently. 

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I have learned how to better 
adjust, you know, whatever. 

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And I think that that's 
something that people are really

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looking for. 
And you wouldn't, you know, I, I

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don't believe in cancel culture,
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accountability for things that 
come out about you or at least 

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addressing it. 
You know, it very well. 

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Like he could have been like, 
that's not my perspective of it,

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but that's her perspective. 
And I'm so sorry that I ever 

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made her feel that way. 
And people would have more 

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understanding then all of a 
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happens with you having drugs, 
drugs in your car and your 

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venues are cancelled and now you
need to go to rehab or whatever.

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But up until this point, you and
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social media like your life is 
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So it just like the lack of 
accountability for me happens 

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with a lot of people. 
I don't really know the other 

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artists that you mentioned, like
I don't know who's sexy Red is, 

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but it makes me think of 
Marlboro cigarettes. 

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Yes, you do know who that is. 
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I don't even want to know who 
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who that is. 
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Is there? 
Is there like a song? 

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I would know. 
Yeah, I'll have to play it for 

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you. 
This is a sexy red clip. 

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We won't get copyright 
infringement, but we will. 

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I'll play you. 
I'll play you one. 

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I personally don't. 
I think it's almost like one of 

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those situations like it's a 
social experiment like with her,

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like she's not really like 
famous. 

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She's like an industry plant as 
they would call it, like where 

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they plant celebrities that just
kind of make a mockery or a 

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fuckery of themselves. 
And she's kind of does that in a

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way like kind of like that ice 
ice girl, like the stuff they 

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talk about and the same the 
things they say and like the way

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they act. 
It's just like, it's like a 

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train wreck kind of. 
I don't. 

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Know I don't know who ice Spice 
is either, but like, am I in a 

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bubble? 
I don't know who any of these 

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fucking people are. 
Well, I don't want to know who 

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they are, but if. 
You're not Jelly, Roll. 

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I don't fucking know you. 
No, I'm just kidding. 

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You know, I really don't know, 
but I was forced to know. 

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I thought you definitely would 
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TikTok though, but I guess 
you're on the I. 

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Am so specific with my fucking 
algorithms on TikTok. 

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Like I'm I'm so specific of the 
type. 

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Like I really like educational 
things on TikTok and I like 

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things that make me laugh. 
It's very rare that I find new 

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music or that I find like 
influencers if influencers if 

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you will on TikTok. 
I like to have a protected 

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bubble over there because the 
second that you step out of 

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where the light touches, it's 
all fuckery and bullshit and I 

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don't want anything to do with 
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And so I feel like I'm like I, I
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We've talked about how happy I 
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literally that block button, you
could just fucking post that you

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burnt your toast this morning 
and I'll be like, this is the 

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kind of negativity I don't need 
in my life and I'll. 

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You know what's funny is like 
one time y'all Bunny texted me 

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and she was like XYZ look at 
this person they're fucking 

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weird. 
Like they're saying weird shit 

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to me. 
They they said a bunch of weird 

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stuff to me. 
I don't like it. 

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They sent me their stuff. 
Well of course like I didn't 

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know who they were because like 
I don't get on TikTok for real 

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anymore and hardly ever look at 
really anything on there. 

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So anyways, when I sent it to 
Gemini, Gemini goes hold up. 

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I have them blocked and like 
literally she had this person 

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blocked and I didn't know how 
more symbolic that could be that

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this is a weird ass bitch that 
we needed to like, you know, do 

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a little return to Cinder and 
make sure this bitch was, you 

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know, in her own world, living 
her own prophecies. 

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But the she was definitely in 
like a meth psychosis. 

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The lady was, and like one of us
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like, well, she's supposed to be
sober, but she definitely used 

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to do meth. 
And I was like, there you go. 

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Because I don't know who she is 
at all. 

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But at this time it was so funny
that Jim and I had this lady 

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blocked. 
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universe is weird like that. 
I think sometimes like I just 

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don't resonate with stuff and 
like just completely won't even 

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get onto it. 
Like for months on end. 

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I did that with Facebook for 
years. 

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I didn't have a Facebook for 
years, I tell ya. 

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And I'll tell you, I'll tell you
a story if you sit down and 

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listen to it. 
I'll. 

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Tell you. 
I got to tell you about. 

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I got to tell you about Vegas. 
So first of all, I knew that you

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had to walk places. 
What I didn't fucking know is 

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that walking across the street 
takes you an hour and a half and

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it takes you an hour and a half 
because you're having to. 

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So we were, we stayed at the 
Flamingo and which is like right

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across the street from like 
Caesar's Palace and like right 

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near the Bellagio and shit like 
that. 

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So we, you have to walk across 
like sky bridges, you're having 

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to take escalators to get up to 
an overhead pathway to take you 

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into a hotel for you to walk 17 
miles through cigarette infested

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machines so that you can walk 
out, to go walk through a 

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restaurant, to go downstairs, to
go walk back across the street 

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across another escalator. 
Like it was a whole fucking 

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mission. 
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there, it was extremely 
overwhelming. 

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Like right when we got got to 
the airport, there was a whole 

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lot of people traffic in like 
people driving in Vegas. 

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You guys are fucking cunts. 
Like you guys driving like you, 

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they're barely, the roads are 
barely marked, lanes are barely 

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marked. 
It's all fucking faded because 

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everybody and their fucking 
grandmother is driving there all

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the time. 
I imagine it's hard for them to 

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redraw the lines. 
People do not use their blinker.

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They just like it. 
It was, it was a really wild 

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experience getting the four 
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hotel. 
And then, but you know, my 

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father-in-law picked us up. 
Oh, oh, starting out this trip, 

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we get on the plane, we rode 
Spirit. 

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Never again will I ride Spirit 
Airlines. 

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We were stuck on the tarmac for 
five hours. 

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It is a one hour flight by the 
way, people. 

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And Spirit is so federally, 
there's this law that you can't 

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be on a plane for more than two 
or three hours without them 

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offering you water and snacks. 
Well, we're on this plane, 

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there's kids, there's babies, 
we're stuck on this tarmac. 

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And finally, when it's time to 
go and we're up in the air, this

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lady was like, can I please get 
like a water? 

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I have a kid here. 
Whatever. 

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We've been here for all these 
hours. 

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You guys didn't offer us 
refreshments. 

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And the man goes, well, we 
pulled back up to the terminal 

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and we opened our door. 
So technically our time restarts

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and we don't need to give you 
anything for free. 

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And it, it was just a really 
like, it was a really wild 

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experience, but we made it to 
Vegas. 

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It was overwhelming that first 
day, just all of the people. 

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But Brian and I went out, we 
explored, saw Caesar's Palace, 

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which I thought was really 
beautiful. 

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And so, so that was fucking 
cool. 

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I didn't get as many pictures as
I wanted. 

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Like I imagined I'd be doing 
tons of content and pictures, 

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but like you're really living in
the moment there and also 

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people. 
And like I, I don't know, I just

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was like, I felt so on guard 
while we were there. 

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So first night we get there, 
it's whatever, we do our own 

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thing. 
And then the next day is my 

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father in My father-in-law chose
to get married on the rooftop in

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Vegas at 10:00 AM in August in 
the desert. 

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It was hot as balls. 
My husband looked fine as fuck, 

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though. 
And so I was sitting there and I

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was just like, damn, like, can 
we just like we wrap up what 

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we're doing? 
Like I want to go hang out, do 

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my own thing. 
As we were there, though, it was

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it. 
What was really interesting to 

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me was I felt this like I'm 
trying to figure out how to word

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it, but I almost felt like 
people who are raised and grow 

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up in that environment, I feel 
like they have to have this like

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crazy fight response to 
everything because while you're 

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in Vegas, the energy is very 
much everybody wants something 

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from you when you're walking, 
people are trying to stop you so

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they can sell you something. 
They're trying to invite you 

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down to the pools. 
They're trying to offer you 

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drugs. 
They're trying to get you to go 

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in and spend money here or 
there. 

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They are like stopping you 
inside of your space and people 

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bump into you. 
They don't apologize. 

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And it was really weird because 
we like we went into Ross. 

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Brian forgot shoes for the 
wedding. 

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So we went into Ross and he had 
just like told the girl like, 

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you know, hope your day gets 
better because there was a rude 

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lady in front of us. 
Hope your day gets better, like 

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have a wonderful night. 
And her reaction was like, she 

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thought that it was rude that he
was telling her to have a better

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day and like to have a good 
night. 

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Like it was almost like she was 
taken off guard that she wasn't 

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being treated like shit and it 
was just a completely different 

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culture. 
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me. 
Like it just made me think of 

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like any icky energy that I've 
ever been in and like feeling 

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like I have to be on guard all 
of the time. 

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I wouldn't want to go there 
without my husband. 

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And I'm very much like not a 
person that like, I feel like I 

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need like my man to be around me
or whatever, but I just felt 

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like there's you have to have 
another set of eyes on you and 

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not be by yourself because it 
just feels like unsafe. 

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I have so many things to say 
about Sin City Las Vegas, but I 

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have went to Vegas by myself 
before and had a literal blast. 

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I love Vegas. 
We're going to Vegas in a couple

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months. 
I love Vegas. 

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I don't know why I love Vegas so
much. 

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I don't love the cigarette 
smoke, but I like all the lights

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and I like all the like people 
watching. 

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And honestly, I didn't really 
like we always rent a car, so we

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don't like walk anywhere, like 
doing all that thing. 

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I have done Vegas like that. 
But then I've learned that 

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getting a rental car is so much 
better and going out like to 

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like other places in the city 
and going thrifting and going 

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like, you know, just like 
there's so many things they're 

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like off the strip, you know. 
So I always recommend to people 

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like when you go to Vegas, don't
go. 

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There for just like the 
nightlife, but like rent a car, 

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drive to the fucking Grand 
Canyon. 

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It's a couple hours. 
You can drive to Joshua Tree in 

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a couple hours. 
It's like you're going to be in 

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the middle of a scary desert if 
you do that, but you know, 

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there's just different places 
that you can drive and like see 

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and like you know I just think 
that it's a really beautiful 

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place. 
I like the desert itself, but I 

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would never go in the summer. 
I only go like in like November 

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or like late fall or like you 
know what I mean? 

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Like I'm or not really trying to
go in the peak of summer, but I 

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have went in August before it is
hot. 

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I've been in May before it was 
hot. 

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Like I've been a lot, but I like
New Year's Eve is fun there. 

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I went New Year's Eve one time 
and it was amazing. 

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And then, you know, I think it's
all about what you do when 

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you're there. 
Like the shows and the different

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stuff that I've done. 
It's been like a cool 

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experience. 
I've seen Criss Angel a few 

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times. 
But yes, people are weird. 

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You do have to watch people, but
I just be watching people I 

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don't know. 
Like I have like a radar for it.

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And I just feel like I feel fine
there. 

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But people are definitely going 
to try to take advantage of 

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people they think that they can 
take advantage of for sure. 

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That's why like, I wouldn't 
recommend getting really drunk 

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or that's how they fuck you 
over. 

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It's because you start getting 
drunk, you start getting fucked 

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up, then you start pulling money
out the bank because it feels 

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fun. 
All of a sudden this feels so 

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fun and you're like, Oh my God, 
I have $800 in the bank. 

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I'm just going to pull 500 out. 
Yeah, it definitely wasn't a 

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negative experience like it it 
was. 

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But I think that the thing that 
I liked most was just having 

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time like away from our life and
like our kids and just like 

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getting time by ourselves. 
But if I could choose places to 

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go to do that, Vegas wouldn't be
one of them. 

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Like I don't. 
And and I think a big part is 

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like I don't like spending money
unnecessarily, like gambling to 

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me, like it's fun to go and 
play. 

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We played roulette. 
That was like what we played a 

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lot and we did a horse race 
thing and so like those two 

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things are fun. 
Cool. 

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I could do literally anything 
else to blow money except hope 

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and pray that there's a 50% 
chance that I get my fucking 

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money back. 
Like that's not fun to me. 

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I'm anxious. 
I have to shit myself because if

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I lose this money, like I'm just
going to be fucking annoyed. 

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I don't like drinking and I 
don't like drunk people, so how?

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And I don't like cigarettes. 
So having to go down where y'all

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are drinking and smoking like 
that is not my fucking vibe. 

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But I loved the lights. 
I loved when we got off the 

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strip and we because my 
father-in-law got married there 

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and his wife's family was there.
So we and they have I don't know

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what her her parents did but 
they had a nice house in Vegas 

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with like a big pool in the back
and stuff like that. 

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When you went into their house, 
it literally reminded me of just

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like mob homes. 
It had like fur rugs and shit 

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like that. 
And it just like, I don't know. 

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The house has definitely made me
feel like like mob mafia vibes. 

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And that's probably because of 
all of the videos, like all of 

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the movies that have taken place
like in fucking Vegas and 

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casinos and stuff like that. 
So I thought that part was cool.

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But we also drove through a lot 
of areas that were like, like, 

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I've driven through 
neighborhoods and stuff where 

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you could tell like they didn't 
have a lot of money and there 

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was like a lot of poverty in the
neighborhoods. 

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But I've never seen so many 
houses and, and such a long area

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where it was like, you know, 
those people don't have food, 

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you know, that they probably 
don't have power half the time. 

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The places like, you know, 
crumbling down, you have kids 

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bikes outside and stuff. 
So, you know, kids are living in

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those environments and and 
whatnot. 

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So there was just so much 
different. 

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I didn't prepare my energy. 
And I think that's really what 

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it comes down to is because I 
had never been there. 

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I didn't know what to 
experience. 

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I don't feel like I was 
energetically prepared for the 

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amount of people of different 
circumstances that you're going 

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to come into and of needing to 
like have my guard up and, and 

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feeling that way. 
You didn't take the term Sin 

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City to hurt. 
Well, I wasn't going to get a 

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fucking hooker, right? 
So like, I didn't know. 

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Since city didn't do it for you 
whenever they were like, yeah, 

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you know, But I think people do 
go to Vegas and sell their soul.

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They go there and lose their 
life savings. 

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They go there and lose their 
retirement, their families 

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savings, their grandfather's 
estate, you know, like whatever.

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Like you know, that's the one 
thing that I don't like about 

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gambling is because I have 
people in my family that are 

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kind of like avid gamblers if 
they have access to funds. 

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And even if they don't, they 
would spend like, you know, 

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their last $50.00 and get like 
half with food and half on some 

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lottery tickets type deal, you 
know what I mean? 

447
00:25:27,840 --> 00:25:32,040
And like, you know, no worries 
about it at all. 

448
00:25:32,040 --> 00:25:37,360
But I think gambling for me is 
like I'm willing to like, if I'm

449
00:25:37,360 --> 00:25:41,240
willing to like lose $200 
normally if I just say like I'm 

450
00:25:41,240 --> 00:25:44,080
going to gamble with this 
$200.00 and if I win, I win. 

451
00:25:44,080 --> 00:25:47,000
If I lose, I lose. 
If I have that type of attitude,

452
00:25:47,000 --> 00:25:50,000
I'll normally win because I'm 
not attached. 

453
00:25:50,000 --> 00:25:53,960
But the moment that I'm like, I 
have to have this $200, I won't 

454
00:25:53,960 --> 00:25:57,360
even want to gamble it because 
at that point I'm attached to it

455
00:25:57,360 --> 00:25:59,320
and you're kind of blocking it 
coming in. 

456
00:25:59,760 --> 00:26:03,440
So anytime I've won and I have 
one, one time I put $20. 

457
00:26:03,440 --> 00:26:09,760
My last I had $50.00 and I split
it with someone. 

458
00:26:09,760 --> 00:26:13,640
I gave someone 25 and I took 25 
and I was going to spend 20 

459
00:26:13,640 --> 00:26:15,360
gambling and just keep the five,
right? 

460
00:26:15,360 --> 00:26:17,080
Like you don't want to spend all
your money, right? 

461
00:26:17,440 --> 00:26:22,480
I put 20 in a slot and I pulled 
it and it hit for $12150. 

462
00:26:22,880 --> 00:26:25,920
And obviously like that has 
never happened again. 

463
00:26:26,000 --> 00:26:30,120
But it is a memory that is a 
core memory of like, you know, 

464
00:26:30,160 --> 00:26:33,400
pay the lady. 
So anyways, we ended up taking 

465
00:26:33,400 --> 00:26:37,680
that money and splitting it and 
actually winning a lot of money.

466
00:26:37,880 --> 00:26:43,800
Like I left with like $2000 that
night and I had $25.00 to my 

467
00:26:43,800 --> 00:26:47,000
name at the point. 
So, you know, sometimes I think 

468
00:26:47,000 --> 00:26:49,720
that gambling can be fun and 
there is that adrenaline rush. 

469
00:26:49,720 --> 00:26:52,600
But if I'm not willing to part 
with the money, there's no point

470
00:26:52,600 --> 00:26:54,680
in me gambling it. 
I do a lot better when people 

471
00:26:54,680 --> 00:26:58,360
give me money to gamble with. 
Like I'll do anything with your 

472
00:26:58,360 --> 00:27:00,000
money. 
Because then I'm not attached at

473
00:27:00,000 --> 00:27:03,800
all and I'll win like literally 
like I'm a very good lucky charm

474
00:27:03,800 --> 00:27:07,680
when it's someone else's money. 
But that being. 

475
00:27:08,000 --> 00:27:10,040
Said. 
You know, I feel like if I'm in 

476
00:27:10,040 --> 00:27:15,560
Vegas, I like give myself like 
$200 for that or a lot of times 

477
00:27:15,560 --> 00:27:19,200
I'll I'll just do like 100 here,
100. 

478
00:27:19,200 --> 00:27:21,320
They're like, I'm not going to 
do 200 at once or whatever. 

479
00:27:21,480 --> 00:27:24,280
But normally like I win some or 
if I don't like I'm not 

480
00:27:24,280 --> 00:27:28,160
tripping, but I have I have one 
like on some slots in Vegas and 

481
00:27:28,160 --> 00:27:30,840
stuff too. 
But like it is one and just like

482
00:27:31,120 --> 00:27:35,680
1 millionth for you to back up 
and hit something on a slot. 

483
00:27:35,680 --> 00:27:38,360
Like, you know, a lot of times 
you've got to be sitting there 

484
00:27:38,360 --> 00:27:41,760
for an extended amount of time. 
And then in a gamblers brain 

485
00:27:41,760 --> 00:27:44,760
they truly believe like well I 
fed it all this money so it's 

486
00:27:44,760 --> 00:27:47,640
going to hit and then it like 
just keeps taking the money. 

487
00:27:49,760 --> 00:27:53,560
We won some money playing 
roulette and we ended up going 

488
00:27:53,560 --> 00:27:58,480
to this restaurant and we did 
like a breadboard and we did 

489
00:27:58,480 --> 00:28:02,240
this like seafood tower and it 
was so fucking good. 

490
00:28:02,240 --> 00:28:05,840
It was so much fun. 
I like, I don't think that it's 

491
00:28:05,840 --> 00:28:08,960
not fun to like go and gamble 
and like have a good time. 

492
00:28:08,960 --> 00:28:11,400
And I sound like I'm just 
fucking like complaining and 

493
00:28:11,400 --> 00:28:13,600
like a stick in the mud, which 
I'm not. 

494
00:28:13,600 --> 00:28:20,320
I just, if we hadn't been going 
there for his wedding and had 

495
00:28:20,320 --> 00:28:24,880
like this family experience 
there, I feel like I would have 

496
00:28:24,880 --> 00:28:27,000
really wished that we had gone 
somewhere different. 

497
00:28:27,480 --> 00:28:34,360
And I, I think that there's, 
there's so many triggers that I 

498
00:28:34,360 --> 00:28:36,960
had for just, and that that's 
really what it comes down to is 

499
00:28:36,960 --> 00:28:39,840
I think that people can go and 
have an amazing time. 

500
00:28:40,080 --> 00:28:44,160
For me, I just felt a lot of 
triggers about things because 

501
00:28:44,560 --> 00:28:48,400
I've worked really hard to 
remove myself from energies 

502
00:28:48,400 --> 00:28:51,440
where I feel like people just 
want to like take advantage of 

503
00:28:51,440 --> 00:28:52,880
something. 
Or where I feel like I always 

504
00:28:52,880 --> 00:28:56,920
have to be on guard or like I 
and I have a really hard time 

505
00:28:56,920 --> 00:29:00,160
with like mass amounts of people
or again, people drinking around

506
00:29:00,160 --> 00:29:01,760
me. 
Like those are just triggers for

507
00:29:01,760 --> 00:29:04,400
me. 
So I went to a space where 

508
00:29:04,440 --> 00:29:07,160
that's what it's all about and I
went in there knowing that's 

509
00:29:07,160 --> 00:29:12,120
what it would be about. 
But sometimes you don't realize 

510
00:29:12,120 --> 00:29:14,920
the impact that things are going
to be on until you're there. 

511
00:29:15,160 --> 00:29:17,280
And something that I kept 
thinking about while we were 

512
00:29:17,280 --> 00:29:21,920
there too, is like, I'm seeing 
these like gross rich dudes 

513
00:29:21,920 --> 00:29:23,880
fucking walking around places or
whatever. 

514
00:29:23,880 --> 00:29:26,760
And I'm thinking about like, 
there are girls here in this 

515
00:29:26,760 --> 00:29:30,880
city who literally have to touch
a fucking Weiner for $100 

516
00:29:31,080 --> 00:29:33,040
because they need to fucking eat
tonight. 

517
00:29:33,040 --> 00:29:34,960
And you look fucking greasy as 
shit. 

518
00:29:34,960 --> 00:29:36,720
And you're just sitting there 
fucking smoking those 

519
00:29:36,720 --> 00:29:39,040
cigarettes. 
But I know you have money and I 

520
00:29:39,040 --> 00:29:41,120
know you're going to pay for 
someone to come and touch it. 

521
00:29:41,360 --> 00:29:43,760
And like, so it was like, it was
just a fucking thing. 

522
00:29:43,760 --> 00:29:46,840
And then I was thinking about 
like, damn, Bunny was raised 

523
00:29:46,840 --> 00:29:49,800
here and she's had like, you 
know, these experiences being 

524
00:29:49,800 --> 00:29:52,920
out here, like how scary that 
must be that like you have to go

525
00:29:52,920 --> 00:29:55,080
with somebody up to their hotel 
room and like, that's your 

526
00:29:55,080 --> 00:29:58,000
survival thing is like, you have
to do this. 

527
00:29:58,000 --> 00:30:00,360
And this is a position that like
you're putting yourself into 

528
00:30:00,360 --> 00:30:04,080
because you have to to survive. 
And I just like, I had so many 

529
00:30:04,080 --> 00:30:07,760
emotions and things. 
It it was a whole thing. 

530
00:30:08,160 --> 00:30:10,760
He was in their channel, in them
spirits. 

531
00:30:11,200 --> 00:30:14,200
Dude, I was, it literally felt 
like I was having this like 

532
00:30:14,200 --> 00:30:18,000
spiritual experience there that 
I was like half down for and 

533
00:30:18,000 --> 00:30:24,520
half scared of. 
OK, so Vegas and Nevada has like

534
00:30:25,520 --> 00:30:28,360
different microorganisms. 
I don't know how many, but 

535
00:30:28,360 --> 00:30:32,760
there's like over 10 that only 
exist in Nevada, like in the 

536
00:30:32,760 --> 00:30:33,960
world. 
And then like, you know, like 

537
00:30:33,960 --> 00:30:36,880
Area 51 is in Nevada. 
So like, I think Nevada has a 

538
00:30:36,880 --> 00:30:38,680
lot of secrets and a lot of 
spiritual stuff. 

539
00:30:38,680 --> 00:30:41,000
And they put like Vegas there is
like a distraction. 

540
00:30:41,240 --> 00:30:42,800
It's kind of just look over 
here. 

541
00:30:42,800 --> 00:30:44,280
It's right. 
It's shiny. 

542
00:30:44,560 --> 00:30:46,640
Come get fucked up. 
Come have a good time. 

543
00:30:46,880 --> 00:30:48,960
And you'll just never even think
about the rest of the desert. 

544
00:30:48,960 --> 00:30:51,640
You know how many people I know 
who have been to Vegas like a 

545
00:30:51,640 --> 00:30:53,880
handful of times and have never 
seen the Grand Canyon? 

546
00:30:53,880 --> 00:30:57,520
And I've been to Vegas probably 
like probably like 7 times and 

547
00:30:57,520 --> 00:31:00,000
I've been the Grand Canyon at 
least three of those times. 

548
00:31:00,080 --> 00:31:03,400
This most recent time I took my 
dad out there because like my 

549
00:31:03,400 --> 00:31:05,560
dad had never been and now like 
my dad. 

550
00:31:05,600 --> 00:31:07,840
Dad to Vegas. 
Because we have the same 

551
00:31:07,840 --> 00:31:09,960
birthday. 
So yeah, we went out there for 

552
00:31:09,960 --> 00:31:12,720
our birthday and. 
People think your dad's fine. 

553
00:31:14,000 --> 00:31:17,440
Who's seen my dad? 
You've posted your dad before. 

554
00:31:18,920 --> 00:31:22,040
Said that you've posted your dad
before. 

555
00:31:24,680 --> 00:31:26,880
You've posted your dad before, 
and I don't remember who said 

556
00:31:26,880 --> 00:31:29,680
it, but I remember there was 
like, no, there were text 

557
00:31:29,680 --> 00:31:33,000
messages with people talking 
about how your dad was hot. 

558
00:31:33,000 --> 00:31:35,280
And I can't remember if it came 
to us in a group or just to me 

559
00:31:35,280 --> 00:31:37,680
privately, but there were at 
least two people. 

560
00:31:37,680 --> 00:31:41,280
I remember getting at least 2 
text messages about one of them 

561
00:31:41,280 --> 00:31:43,440
I didn't know Paige is dating 
somebody or I didn't know you're

562
00:31:43,440 --> 00:31:45,960
dating somebody. 
And then there was another one. 

563
00:31:46,160 --> 00:31:58,160
And yeah. 
No, Oh my God, this is news. 

564
00:31:58,160 --> 00:32:01,640
But the craziest thing about my 
dad is what? 

565
00:32:02,520 --> 00:32:06,200
It has. 
News In high school, I was 

566
00:32:06,200 --> 00:32:11,000
hanging out with this girl and 
her mom and her came to pick me 

567
00:32:11,000 --> 00:32:13,400
up at my house. 
And, like, my dad was like a 

568
00:32:13,400 --> 00:32:15,360
helicopter dad. 
So he would always want to go 

569
00:32:15,360 --> 00:32:18,160
out and, like, meet the parent 
and, like, talk about everything

570
00:32:18,160 --> 00:32:21,760
or whatever. 
And whenever he walked outside, 

571
00:32:21,800 --> 00:32:26,760
this lady hopped out of her car,
jumped, wrapped her arms around 

572
00:32:26,760 --> 00:32:29,720
his neck and wrapped her legs 
around his waist. 

573
00:32:30,240 --> 00:32:35,200
And this is my friend's mom. 
And at the time, I was like, 

574
00:32:35,200 --> 00:32:37,520
what the literal fuck is going 
on? 

575
00:32:37,920 --> 00:32:41,480
But come to find out, they had 
dated, like, back in their 

576
00:32:41,480 --> 00:32:45,160
Yonder years. 
And yeah, we're having a whole 

577
00:32:45,200 --> 00:32:50,320
moment. 
And so, yeah, yeah, my dad has 

578
00:32:50,320 --> 00:32:53,160
been. 
Imagine seeing somebody that 

579
00:32:53,160 --> 00:32:57,680
like you dated back in the 
fucking day and just being like,

580
00:32:57,680 --> 00:33:00,800
I'm going to run up to you and 
I'm just going to throw my body 

581
00:33:00,800 --> 00:33:02,680
on your body. 
I don't know your marital 

582
00:33:02,680 --> 00:33:04,040
status. 
I don't know what the fuck. 

583
00:33:04,040 --> 00:33:06,160
I don't know if you have herpes 
now, but I don't know what's 

584
00:33:06,160 --> 00:33:08,720
going on with you, but I'm about
to on your bone. 

585
00:33:10,320 --> 00:33:13,560
Literally. 
Yeah, that's exactly what 

586
00:33:13,560 --> 00:33:14,560
happened. 
I don't know. 

587
00:33:16,320 --> 00:33:20,240
That's wild. 
My stepdad, when I was, I was in

588
00:33:20,240 --> 00:33:23,600
high school and we went to 
church. 

589
00:33:23,600 --> 00:33:27,800
It was my mom, my stepdad and I.
And one of the ladies in Sunday 

590
00:33:27,800 --> 00:33:29,840
school was like, are you going 
to introduce me to your little 

591
00:33:29,840 --> 00:33:33,280
friend? 
And I was like, that's my dad. 

592
00:33:34,040 --> 00:33:37,120
And she got so mad because she 
thought that we were fucking 

593
00:33:37,120 --> 00:33:40,000
with her. 
And so my mom had to be like, 

594
00:33:40,000 --> 00:33:43,120
no, like that's my husband. 
Like what the fuck? 

595
00:33:43,120 --> 00:33:45,280
And I'm over here. 
Just like I could have dry 

596
00:33:45,280 --> 00:33:48,000
heaved. 
Like don't ever accuse me of 

597
00:33:48,000 --> 00:33:52,520
being with my father. 
Wow, well that's what you just 

598
00:33:52,520 --> 00:33:55,200
said, that someone texted you in
a text. 

599
00:33:55,840 --> 00:33:58,840
Yeah, that's fine. 
I mean, it's not my dad, so they

600
00:33:58,840 --> 00:34:00,280
can say whatever they want about
your dad. 

601
00:34:00,880 --> 00:34:08,960
Girl no. 
You're so caught off guard. 

602
00:34:08,960 --> 00:34:11,400
She can't even adjust right now.
She's just like what? 

603
00:34:11,440 --> 00:34:15,120
I would say that I wish that I 
could tell you who it was too 

604
00:34:15,120 --> 00:34:17,679
and it wasn't anytime recently. 
I feel like you guys. 

605
00:34:17,719 --> 00:34:21,800
I post my dad like a year ago. 
That's when it was because I 

606
00:34:21,800 --> 00:34:25,080
remember you were, you guys went
out and you grabbed food or 

607
00:34:25,080 --> 00:34:28,239
something like that and you got 
complimented. 

608
00:34:28,360 --> 00:34:29,960
Dude, I don't know too much 
about your life. 

609
00:34:29,960 --> 00:34:32,320
I feel like you got complimented
on your jacket or something like

610
00:34:32,320 --> 00:34:34,000
that. 
You're wearing a Jean jacket. 

611
00:34:35,159 --> 00:34:37,800
You're so cute. 
You're so cute. 

612
00:34:38,280 --> 00:34:39,480
Why? 
She's so cute? 

613
00:34:39,480 --> 00:34:43,280
Look, we haven't been doing the 
podcast and we've been missing 

614
00:34:43,719 --> 00:34:46,880
all the details. 
What were you? 

615
00:34:46,880 --> 00:34:49,120
What were you going to say? 
You said you were to tell me 

616
00:34:49,120 --> 00:34:53,639
something. 
I know I told you about Vegas. 

617
00:34:56,080 --> 00:34:59,880
I don't know when's the last 
time we talked. 

618
00:34:59,880 --> 00:35:01,640
There's so much shit to catch up
on. 

619
00:35:02,440 --> 00:35:06,160
I know it really feels like we 
took forever off the podcast. 

620
00:35:06,160 --> 00:35:12,000
I guess it's been about 3 months
and that's definitely a long 

621
00:35:12,040 --> 00:35:13,840
time. 
A lot happens in three months. 

622
00:35:13,840 --> 00:35:18,480
And you know, I feel like I've 
went through so many changes 

623
00:35:18,480 --> 00:35:23,280
just this year. 
I feel like 2024 has been a hard

624
00:35:23,280 --> 00:35:25,760
year. 
Like it has been a hard year. 

625
00:35:25,760 --> 00:35:28,880
When you think that COVID was 
four years ago. 

626
00:35:28,880 --> 00:35:33,400
That's fucking wild talk. 
Like that's so wild. 

627
00:35:33,400 --> 00:35:36,960
And like I feel like there's 
just so much that has happened 

628
00:35:37,040 --> 00:35:40,000
and even for the worse, I feel 
like things have gotten worse. 

629
00:35:40,280 --> 00:35:42,240
Like when they could have gotten
better, there was a chance for 

630
00:35:42,240 --> 00:35:43,720
them to get better and they got 
worse. 

631
00:35:44,200 --> 00:35:47,240
And I think that so many people 
were trying to get in tune with 

632
00:35:47,240 --> 00:35:49,040
them self. 
And the reason that things got 

633
00:35:49,040 --> 00:35:52,400
worse is because people still 
need to dedicate that time and 

634
00:35:52,400 --> 00:35:56,040
not go out to the bars, not go 
to the places that remember when

635
00:35:56,040 --> 00:35:58,880
they were closed, we couldn't go
to them, you know, and like 

636
00:35:58,880 --> 00:36:01,520
having to set with yourself and 
having to set in your own 

637
00:36:01,600 --> 00:36:03,400
energy, like that stuff is 
difficult. 

638
00:36:03,680 --> 00:36:07,880
And I think that's like 
important as like going and 

639
00:36:07,880 --> 00:36:10,760
being triggered and going to 
places that trigger us and, and 

640
00:36:10,760 --> 00:36:13,360
learning things about our 
triggers, like knowing damn 

641
00:36:13,360 --> 00:36:15,120
well, like you said, I would 
never go there without my 

642
00:36:15,160 --> 00:36:19,880
husband, you know, so like never
going on a girls trip there 

643
00:36:19,880 --> 00:36:21,800
because we go there. 
I'm. 

644
00:36:22,040 --> 00:36:24,920
Not I'm not going on a girls 
trip to Vegas, I tell you that 

645
00:36:24,920 --> 00:36:27,240
right now. 
And it doesn't have anything to 

646
00:36:27,240 --> 00:36:33,480
do with like, it's not that I 
felt like physically unsafe when

647
00:36:33,480 --> 00:36:37,000
we were there. 
Like I that's not, it was all 

648
00:36:37,000 --> 00:36:39,360
just like the emotional aspects 
of it. 

649
00:36:39,360 --> 00:36:42,960
And like, it was so nice when we
would like go back to the hotel 

650
00:36:42,960 --> 00:36:46,560
room and I could just be like, 
these are all of the things that

651
00:36:46,560 --> 00:36:49,560
like I felt and experienced 
emotionally, mentally while we 

652
00:36:49,560 --> 00:36:54,280
were out there walking around. 
Or like, you know, when, you 

653
00:36:54,280 --> 00:36:57,800
know, we're in the casino and 
that dude like bumped into me 

654
00:36:57,800 --> 00:37:00,960
and I can tell you that like he 
has his wife and kids at home 

655
00:37:00,960 --> 00:37:02,840
and they don't know that he's on
this trip right now. 

656
00:37:02,840 --> 00:37:05,320
And you know what I mean? 
Like just all of these different

657
00:37:05,320 --> 00:37:10,200
like, like fucking things, dude.
Yeah, she was reading them like 

658
00:37:10,200 --> 00:37:11,120
Phil's. 
She was. 

659
00:37:11,120 --> 00:37:13,760
Like I could not turn on Are you
teething on your? 

660
00:37:14,320 --> 00:37:19,240
Wife, she's like damn dirty, but
that's crazy, you know, that's 

661
00:37:19,240 --> 00:37:20,760
what. 
I'm saying that's why I'm like 

662
00:37:20,920 --> 00:37:22,280
that. 
That's why I'm like, it was, it 

663
00:37:22,280 --> 00:37:27,760
was just so like I could not 
turn down the like there was no 

664
00:37:27,760 --> 00:37:31,040
protecting my energy from any of
the messages and things coming 

665
00:37:31,040 --> 00:37:33,520
through. 
So like, I see greasy old dude 

666
00:37:33,520 --> 00:37:36,400
over there and I'm like, you're 
about to go and try to find like

667
00:37:36,640 --> 00:37:40,040
the youngest hooker that you can
get yourself and like it. 

668
00:37:40,040 --> 00:37:43,320
Like it was just, it was just a 
little bit too much. 

669
00:37:44,240 --> 00:37:46,240
Yeah. 
I mean, you know, it's crazy. 

670
00:37:46,240 --> 00:37:49,840
I feel like I used to really be 
like, in tune with like a lot of

671
00:37:49,840 --> 00:37:53,200
random energies in the past, 
like when I first was in my 

672
00:37:53,200 --> 00:37:56,560
spiritual journey, like so 
loudly, you know, I don't know, 

673
00:37:56,560 --> 00:37:59,280
Like, I remember that and like, 
I don't know, I just kind of 

674
00:37:59,280 --> 00:38:01,440
like turn that off because I 
don't want that. 

675
00:38:01,840 --> 00:38:03,920
I do not. 
I mean on the and on the 

676
00:38:03,920 --> 00:38:08,440
regular, it's like able to 
happen, but like I just and I I 

677
00:38:08,440 --> 00:38:11,880
don't have that issue except 
there dude, and I was just so 

678
00:38:11,920 --> 00:38:14,280
uncomfortable. 
Vegas can be intense and 

679
00:38:14,280 --> 00:38:17,360
honestly, like I've been to 
Vegas and like, you know, 

680
00:38:17,360 --> 00:38:19,680
sometimes people are fucking 
weird and you kind of just got 

681
00:38:19,680 --> 00:38:22,320
to like check people on the 
street or wherever. 

682
00:38:22,320 --> 00:38:28,920
Like it's not how people like 
people are just hard on their 

683
00:38:28,920 --> 00:38:31,120
luck out there too. 
You know what I mean? 

684
00:38:31,120 --> 00:38:33,840
Like it is a weird environment. 
Like I can agree with that 

685
00:38:33,840 --> 00:38:35,800
though. 
But I personally, when I go out 

686
00:38:35,800 --> 00:38:37,800
there, I don't really have like 
a care in the world. 

687
00:38:37,800 --> 00:38:39,760
I don't know why. 
I just be loving. 

688
00:38:39,840 --> 00:38:41,520
Like I just be loving it out 
there. 

689
00:38:41,520 --> 00:38:44,080
Have no allergies. 
I'm just out here. 

690
00:38:44,080 --> 00:38:46,800
Damn water bottle. 
Big water bottle. 

691
00:38:47,600 --> 00:38:50,640
Hell yeah you gotta. 
I like to be fucking hydrated. 

692
00:38:51,120 --> 00:38:53,040
I don't know, Like I'll never 
have to. 

693
00:38:54,200 --> 00:38:56,240
This bitch can hold like a 
gallon of water. 

694
00:38:57,320 --> 00:39:00,360
I'm I'll see she's going on a 
hike. 

695
00:39:00,360 --> 00:39:03,560
That's her Juggie, says Juggie. 
It's called the Juggie. 

696
00:39:03,960 --> 00:39:09,560
I see it. 
It's like it, says Juggie. 

697
00:39:09,560 --> 00:39:11,920
And. 
I was like, damn, you're so 

698
00:39:12,040 --> 00:39:13,680
smart. 
It's a Juggie. 

699
00:39:15,320 --> 00:39:21,120
She's so funny. 
Yeah, I think that the Juggie is

700
00:39:21,120 --> 00:39:23,720
a good addition. 
Everyone needs to drink more 

701
00:39:23,720 --> 00:39:26,680
water. 
And it has these cute little leg

702
00:39:27,280 --> 00:39:29,720
buttons that you can get that 
like can come off. 

703
00:39:29,720 --> 00:39:33,520
So I've got like a coffin, 
obviously, just like all types 

704
00:39:33,520 --> 00:39:37,640
of stuff. 
Wow, wow. 

705
00:39:38,280 --> 00:39:41,080
It's like a pair of Crocs, but 
it's a Juggie. 

706
00:39:41,800 --> 00:39:44,520
You remember those bracelets 
that they used to have, those 

707
00:39:44,600 --> 00:39:48,120
that had like the little metal 
squares on them, like the charm 

708
00:39:48,120 --> 00:39:50,920
bracelets, and you used to pinch
the fuck out of yourself just to

709
00:39:50,920 --> 00:39:55,080
get that thing on and off. 
Yeah, yeah, I actually had a 

710
00:39:55,120 --> 00:39:59,200
bunch of those. 
You know, I like, I've always 

711
00:39:59,200 --> 00:40:01,080
loved stickers and collected 
stickers. 

712
00:40:01,080 --> 00:40:04,840
And I have like all the $0.50 
stickers from like the machines,

713
00:40:04,840 --> 00:40:08,760
like the old ones and like the 
homey ones and all kinds of 

714
00:40:08,760 --> 00:40:12,680
different ones. 
Yeah, I have like so many 

715
00:40:12,680 --> 00:40:15,280
different stickers. 
And then like at that time, my 

716
00:40:15,280 --> 00:40:18,920
mom's best friend owned a 
grocery store, so they had those

717
00:40:18,920 --> 00:40:21,040
machines. 
So they would get like the demo 

718
00:40:21,040 --> 00:40:23,800
packs of like what would be in 
there and I would get like the 

719
00:40:23,800 --> 00:40:26,120
whole pack of like what was 
going to be in the machine. 

720
00:40:26,120 --> 00:40:28,320
So at that time I was really up 
on. 

721
00:40:28,400 --> 00:40:32,320
Stickers, like City Girls was up
on the stickers and I have all 

722
00:40:32,320 --> 00:40:35,360
of them because I was like an 
anxiety ridden child who didn't 

723
00:40:35,360 --> 00:40:37,920
want to stick them anywhere 
because I did stick them, you 

724
00:40:37,920 --> 00:40:39,960
know, like over the years, stick
them and stuff and then you 

725
00:40:39,960 --> 00:40:41,480
would like lose them, you know 
what I mean? 

726
00:40:41,480 --> 00:40:45,720
So like, it's funny, the ones 
that I still have, I have quite 

727
00:40:45,720 --> 00:40:49,680
a few, like a lot. 
I love it. 

728
00:40:51,960 --> 00:40:54,360
I don't think there's anything 
that I I'm trying to think if 

729
00:40:54,360 --> 00:40:58,640
there was anything that I had 
like collected, but I don't 

730
00:40:58,640 --> 00:41:03,400
really think so. 
Although I did my parents were 

731
00:41:03,680 --> 00:41:06,760
cleaning out my old bedroom at 
their house and they found this 

732
00:41:06,760 --> 00:41:08,520
pencil box. 
I had this like little best 

733
00:41:08,520 --> 00:41:13,600
friend and I dated her older 
brother for a while and she used

734
00:41:13,600 --> 00:41:16,600
to write me, we used to write 
each other letters back and 

735
00:41:16,600 --> 00:41:18,880
forth and like the most like 
elaborate written out letters. 

736
00:41:19,200 --> 00:41:22,520
And so I had this like huge 
pencil box of just like written 

737
00:41:22,520 --> 00:41:25,200
out letters from her that I 
didn't even know that I had 

738
00:41:25,200 --> 00:41:28,600
kept. 
And I was reading through them. 

739
00:41:28,600 --> 00:41:31,480
And I'm like, I don't remember a
single fucking one of these 

740
00:41:31,480 --> 00:41:33,600
things. 
And she's talking about like, Oh

741
00:41:33,600 --> 00:41:36,320
my God, it was so much fun 
sneaking out and like going here

742
00:41:36,320 --> 00:41:38,320
and going there, like can't wait
for you to stay in there at the 

743
00:41:38,320 --> 00:41:39,600
house again. 
I'm like, I don't remember 

744
00:41:39,600 --> 00:41:41,560
sneaking out with you. 
I don't remember doing any of 

745
00:41:41,560 --> 00:41:45,520
this. 
Damn, I used to write letters 

746
00:41:45,520 --> 00:41:47,040
with people. 
I used to have a shoe box full 

747
00:41:47,040 --> 00:41:48,360
of letters. 
I have like. 

748
00:41:49,680 --> 00:41:54,080
I don't think I have those, but 
I have like, you know, yearbooks

749
00:41:54,080 --> 00:41:56,560
and different things and like a 
lot of keepsakes. 

750
00:41:56,560 --> 00:42:00,320
But like the moment that I got 
my own place, my dad just 

751
00:42:00,320 --> 00:42:04,280
literally loaded up everything 
that was like that he had in his

752
00:42:04,320 --> 00:42:08,200
house. 
So I have like a collection of 

753
00:42:08,280 --> 00:42:13,120
VH s s, like original, like old 
style Disney and just different 

754
00:42:13,480 --> 00:42:15,800
VH s s. 
I have the VCR too. 

755
00:42:16,160 --> 00:42:21,680
And then I have like all the 
hardback Doctor Seuss books, 

756
00:42:21,680 --> 00:42:23,200
which are worth quite a bit of 
money. 

757
00:42:23,200 --> 00:42:24,960
I think all of mine are first 
edition. 

758
00:42:24,960 --> 00:42:28,320
I have all first edition Harry 
Potter hardback books. 

759
00:42:29,280 --> 00:42:32,440
So I have like a lot of like, 
just like stuff like that. 

760
00:42:33,760 --> 00:42:36,720
Actually have a Barbie suitcase 
that's hot pink, that's full of 

761
00:42:36,720 --> 00:42:39,200
Barbies that are just like beat 
the shit. 

762
00:42:39,240 --> 00:42:42,760
Like, I don't even know what's 
in the Barbie case, but I have a

763
00:42:42,760 --> 00:42:47,560
lot of stuff from my childhood, 
just random stuff that like, I 

764
00:42:47,560 --> 00:42:49,680
don't really know what to do 
with it, but I don't want to get

765
00:42:49,680 --> 00:42:52,760
rid of it. 
Just kind of like, you know, I 

766
00:42:52,760 --> 00:42:55,360
have nostalgia. 
Yeah, I have it. 

767
00:42:55,360 --> 00:42:58,560
And so it's like maybe one day 
I'll display all my VHS. 

768
00:42:58,800 --> 00:43:03,880
So this thing that my something,
I don't know. 

769
00:43:04,000 --> 00:43:05,480
Watch them. 
I'm not sure. 

770
00:43:05,480 --> 00:43:07,320
I know some of those are worth a
lot of money. 

771
00:43:08,520 --> 00:43:11,200
Watch There's going to be a 
mandala effect that VHS has 

772
00:43:11,200 --> 00:43:13,880
never even existed and that it's
all a figment of everybody's 

773
00:43:13,880 --> 00:43:17,160
imagination. 
And then I'm going to have a 

774
00:43:17,160 --> 00:43:21,560
whole box of them like. 
Yeah, but it's kind of like like

775
00:43:21,560 --> 00:43:25,480
how they say that like the Fruit
of the Loom label didn't used to

776
00:43:25,600 --> 00:43:28,000
be what it is, like the 
cornucopia or whatever. 

777
00:43:28,280 --> 00:43:32,680
And then there's also movies 
that they're like, those don't 

778
00:43:32,680 --> 00:43:36,320
exist, but people have the VHS. 
But when you go and Google it, 

779
00:43:36,600 --> 00:43:38,480
it'll be like this movie never 
existed. 

780
00:43:38,680 --> 00:43:41,040
This actor says that they never 
did that movie. 

781
00:43:41,040 --> 00:43:42,960
And you're like, no, 
legitimately like I'm holding 

782
00:43:42,960 --> 00:43:45,960
the VHS of Sinbad right now. 
Yes, Sinbad, I knew you were 

783
00:43:45,960 --> 00:43:47,360
going to. 
I want to say that, you know, I 

784
00:43:47,360 --> 00:43:49,640
really feel like I saw that 
movie as a kid. 

785
00:43:49,640 --> 00:43:53,240
Like like I saw the movie like 
it is a movie. 

786
00:43:53,600 --> 00:43:55,320
So I get it. 
I understand. 

787
00:43:55,320 --> 00:43:57,920
Well it's like how they say 
movie quotes are changed, like 

788
00:43:57,960 --> 00:44:01,240
everybody has the same movie 
quote and then they'll be like 

789
00:44:01,240 --> 00:44:04,480
no, it was said this way and not
this way and like I'm sorry but 

790
00:44:04,480 --> 00:44:09,800
entire 4 generations of people 
are not remembering the quote 

791
00:44:09,800 --> 00:44:12,120
from Mary Poppins the wrong 
fucking way. 

792
00:44:13,120 --> 00:44:16,280
And that Forrest Gump, Forrest 
Gump, they say that it was 

793
00:44:16,280 --> 00:44:18,880
always life is like a box of 
chocolates or something like 

794
00:44:19,000 --> 00:44:20,480
like. 
Yeah, life is like a box of 

795
00:44:20,480 --> 00:44:21,760
chocolates. 
You never know what you're going

796
00:44:21,760 --> 00:44:22,480
to get. 
Yeah. 

797
00:44:22,480 --> 00:44:23,640
You never know what you're going
to get. 

798
00:44:23,680 --> 00:44:27,720
Yeah. 
And they say it's different than

799
00:44:27,720 --> 00:44:31,720
that. 
Yeah, well, I don't believe that

800
00:44:31,720 --> 00:44:33,720
at all, and I think Tom Hanks is
in on it. 

801
00:44:34,480 --> 00:44:41,320
I think that they like feed us 
movies and different things for 

802
00:44:41,320 --> 00:44:45,120
a reason that they set 
precedents through like movies 

803
00:44:45,400 --> 00:44:48,480
and like the concepts they teach
you, whether they teach you like

804
00:44:48,480 --> 00:44:51,400
this is the perfect family or 
this is right, this is wrong, 

805
00:44:51,400 --> 00:44:55,080
this is good, this is bad, this 
is scary, whatever it is like. 

806
00:44:55,400 --> 00:44:58,920
And I just think that like 
people absorb these timelines 

807
00:44:58,920 --> 00:45:03,000
and absorb so much stuff that 
like manifest because of like 

808
00:45:03,000 --> 00:45:06,960
collective thought, collective 
locus, collective emphasis this.

809
00:45:06,960 --> 00:45:10,680
And I like for the last 
probably, I don't know, like 10 

810
00:45:10,680 --> 00:45:13,600
years of my life, if something 
super popular like at that time,

811
00:45:13,600 --> 00:45:15,080
I just will not pay attention to
it. 

812
00:45:15,080 --> 00:45:18,520
Like was like, you know, Game of
Thrones, everyone was like, you 

813
00:45:18,520 --> 00:45:20,040
should watch it. 
So I've never watched it. 

814
00:45:20,240 --> 00:45:23,320
Sons of Anarchy watched like 
maybe one episode, that's it. 

815
00:45:23,320 --> 00:45:25,200
Like never watched it. 
Like just different things that 

816
00:45:25,240 --> 00:45:26,160
were. 
Fucking mouse. 

817
00:45:26,880 --> 00:45:28,880
Super popular. 
Not that I wouldn't watch it, it

818
00:45:28,880 --> 00:45:30,560
was just like when it was 
popular. 

819
00:45:30,560 --> 00:45:31,960
Like same thing with Breaking 
Bad. 

820
00:45:32,120 --> 00:45:34,400
When Breaking Bad was super 
popular I didn't want to watch 

821
00:45:34,400 --> 00:45:37,080
it, but then I watched it on my 
own time and enjoyed it very 

822
00:45:37,080 --> 00:45:38,360
much. 
You see what I'm saying? 

823
00:45:38,360 --> 00:45:43,800
It's not that I watched it, it's
just that when it's popular I'm 

824
00:45:43,800 --> 00:45:46,320
like, y'all can have that. 
I don't want to be in the 

825
00:45:46,320 --> 00:45:47,760
collective conversation about 
it. 

826
00:45:47,760 --> 00:45:49,720
Does that make sense? 
No, totally. 

827
00:45:49,760 --> 00:45:52,520
I'm I'm the same way about those
things. 

828
00:45:52,840 --> 00:45:58,880
Also Sons of Anarchy worth 
watching but I've never seen 

829
00:45:58,880 --> 00:46:02,240
Game of Thrones. 
Breaking Bad I never watched 

830
00:46:02,320 --> 00:46:04,720
when it was popular, it was 
afterwards. 

831
00:46:05,640 --> 00:46:08,000
So so very much similar with 
you. 

832
00:46:08,000 --> 00:46:13,560
But I, I also think that that 
has to do with the fact that we 

833
00:46:13,560 --> 00:46:17,960
don't want to have our emotions 
in reality taken away because of

834
00:46:17,960 --> 00:46:21,040
what the mask people are doing, 
which is like, you know, when 

835
00:46:21,040 --> 00:46:24,760
everybody was having the COVID 
hysteria and whatever, you and I

836
00:46:24,760 --> 00:46:27,640
were both like, we're not 
fucking taking your shot. 

837
00:46:27,640 --> 00:46:30,120
Like, you know what I mean? 
Like we're not, that's not 

838
00:46:30,120 --> 00:46:32,320
something that we're doing. 
We're not bringing that into our

839
00:46:32,320 --> 00:46:37,640
reality, whatever. 
And that's one of those things 

840
00:46:37,640 --> 00:46:40,760
too, like even that even the 
COVID thing, like I feel like 

841
00:46:41,040 --> 00:46:43,320
the same way that you're talking
about them doing that with 

842
00:46:43,320 --> 00:46:47,160
movies, that was its own test 
and its own like, what can we 

843
00:46:47,160 --> 00:46:51,120
get society, you know, to do? 
And something that is happening 

844
00:46:51,120 --> 00:46:55,560
here locally in one of our local
towns is that they're trying to 

845
00:46:56,880 --> 00:47:00,640
close down bars and not have and
make it so that people can't go 

846
00:47:00,640 --> 00:47:03,960
in and like buy alcohol anymore 
and like it go into these bars 

847
00:47:04,360 --> 00:47:09,120
and which takes away like a huge
like economic revenue locally 

848
00:47:09,120 --> 00:47:12,680
and stuff like that. 
And so they, they noticed that 

849
00:47:12,680 --> 00:47:15,200
during COVID, like there's not 
really anything that you're 

850
00:47:15,200 --> 00:47:17,360
going to be able to do about it 
other than what like sue the 

851
00:47:17,360 --> 00:47:19,280
fucking city. 
OK, cool. 

852
00:47:20,240 --> 00:47:27,440
And so when everybody gets into 
these like hysterias, and this 

853
00:47:27,440 --> 00:47:30,960
is my personal thing, but I 
think that anytime that you get 

854
00:47:30,960 --> 00:47:35,000
into trying to take away other 
people's rights because they 

855
00:47:35,000 --> 00:47:37,680
don't align with what you like 
and what you think should 

856
00:47:37,680 --> 00:47:41,440
happen, you set the precedent 
that if something isn't agreed 

857
00:47:41,440 --> 00:47:43,800
on, everybody can just come 
together, agree that they don't 

858
00:47:43,800 --> 00:47:49,120
want to do that and overthrow 
other people and, and silence 

859
00:47:49,120 --> 00:47:53,360
people's voices. 
And I've becoming, I've the 

860
00:47:53,360 --> 00:47:56,640
older that I get and the more 
that people are talking about 

861
00:47:56,640 --> 00:47:59,720
politics and are talking about 
different things, the more that 

862
00:47:59,720 --> 00:48:03,400
I noticed that it's a very like,
well, those people are evil 

863
00:48:03,400 --> 00:48:06,440
because they believe these 
things and want and want this 

864
00:48:06,440 --> 00:48:07,800
and they want to have these 
rights. 

865
00:48:07,800 --> 00:48:10,560
Let's shut those down. 
But these are the ones that we 

866
00:48:10,560 --> 00:48:12,760
stand for. 
And if they try to come at us 

867
00:48:12,760 --> 00:48:14,520
then like they're evil, awful 
people. 

868
00:48:14,520 --> 00:48:18,640
And it's just you can't ever 
win. 

869
00:48:18,640 --> 00:48:22,640
Somebody always is going to try 
and take away something that you

870
00:48:22,640 --> 00:48:23,760
have. 
You know what I mean? 

871
00:48:23,760 --> 00:48:26,720
Like, you're going to not have 
healthcare over here. 

872
00:48:26,720 --> 00:48:28,360
You're not going to have guns 
over here. 

873
00:48:28,360 --> 00:48:32,760
Like, it just instead of it 
being a culture of like, 

874
00:48:32,960 --> 00:48:36,240
everybody's a fucking adult. 
And like, you shouldn't have to 

875
00:48:36,240 --> 00:48:39,680
have Big Daddy in the White 
House to tell you what the fuck 

876
00:48:39,680 --> 00:48:43,680
is right and wrong or how to do 
things ethically and morally 

877
00:48:43,680 --> 00:48:47,840
because you're a fucking adult. 
Yeah, I think that they really 

878
00:48:47,840 --> 00:48:51,120
need to bring ethics and morals 
and, like, those types of 

879
00:48:51,120 --> 00:48:53,960
conversations and, like, classes
back to the masses. 

880
00:48:53,960 --> 00:48:56,880
Like they used to teach people 
like home EC and, you know, 

881
00:48:56,880 --> 00:49:01,120
teach people like, life skills 
and, you know, wood shop and 

882
00:49:01,160 --> 00:49:03,160
different things. 
And I just feel like they're 

883
00:49:03,160 --> 00:49:07,760
dooming the children by dumbing 
them down and giving them iPads 

884
00:49:07,760 --> 00:49:11,760
and giving them notebooks and, 
like, teaching them that a 

885
00:49:11,760 --> 00:49:13,720
screen is all that they will 
need. 

886
00:49:13,720 --> 00:49:16,240
And, you know, they can use a 
fucking calculator. 

887
00:49:16,480 --> 00:49:18,640
So they're not even learning 
math at all. 

888
00:49:19,040 --> 00:49:22,200
Like we were not allowed to use 
a fucking calculator just 

889
00:49:22,200 --> 00:49:27,360
because it existed. 
We were also brainwashed at that

890
00:49:27,360 --> 00:49:31,040
time to be told that you 
wouldn't be able to use one in 

891
00:49:31,040 --> 00:49:34,160
the future, even though that's a
bullshit boldface Slack. 

892
00:49:34,520 --> 00:49:38,640
And you know, but The thing is, 
is like a lot of people have no 

893
00:49:38,640 --> 00:49:41,320
life skills. 
They're not being taught life 

894
00:49:41,320 --> 00:49:45,200
skills at home, and they're 
really not being taught or 

895
00:49:45,200 --> 00:49:48,320
nurtured at school. 
But yeah, you know, tax dollars 

896
00:49:48,320 --> 00:49:50,320
are funding the schools even if 
you don't have kids. 

897
00:49:50,320 --> 00:49:53,360
That's the one thing that irks 
me the most about, like not 

898
00:49:53,360 --> 00:49:56,200
having children is because, 
like, you're funding the public 

899
00:49:56,200 --> 00:49:59,160
schools in these big cities 
because I live in a big city 

900
00:49:59,320 --> 00:50:05,120
regardless. 
So it's like, you know, we are 

901
00:50:06,120 --> 00:50:08,560
getting no say, you know, at 
least if you have a child in the

902
00:50:08,560 --> 00:50:10,920
school, I guess you could join 
like the PTA or you could join 

903
00:50:10,920 --> 00:50:13,680
something an advocate for your 
child and their needs or 

904
00:50:13,680 --> 00:50:16,600
whatever, right. 
But like, you know, I, I just 

905
00:50:16,600 --> 00:50:19,600
think the system's so fucked up.
Like it makes, it's like it 

906
00:50:19,600 --> 00:50:22,680
makes little to no sense on the 
way that they do things. 

907
00:50:22,680 --> 00:50:27,360
And, you know, like even just 
emergency services like 

908
00:50:27,800 --> 00:50:32,200
healthcare services and 
ambulance services and you know,

909
00:50:32,200 --> 00:50:36,640
people needing to have rods to 
doctor's appointments and A to 

910
00:50:36,640 --> 00:50:38,200
appointments and things like 
that. 

911
00:50:38,200 --> 00:50:41,080
Like there's so many hoops that 
these people have to jump 

912
00:50:41,080 --> 00:50:43,760
through or like so many things 
that they have to go through 

913
00:50:43,760 --> 00:50:46,760
that like a lot of people 
couldn't even fathom or really 

914
00:50:46,760 --> 00:50:49,280
understand. 
And, you know, I think the 

915
00:50:49,280 --> 00:50:54,000
system just heavily focuses on 
everything outside of the home. 

916
00:50:54,000 --> 00:50:56,640
And it really does start like 
within the home because if 

917
00:50:56,640 --> 00:51:00,560
you're not being taught morals 
and values and you know, you're 

918
00:51:00,560 --> 00:51:04,160
not growing in your home and a 
lot of children are not and a 

919
00:51:04,160 --> 00:51:09,320
lot of people are not, it's, it 
can be detrimental to 

920
00:51:09,320 --> 00:51:14,640
everything. 
Yeah, I recently had this 

921
00:51:14,640 --> 00:51:19,400
conversation with somebody 
because I got a post on one of 

922
00:51:19,400 --> 00:51:21,080
my videos. 
I was eating McDonald's or 

923
00:51:21,080 --> 00:51:24,720
something and they commented 
about like where McDonald's like

924
00:51:24,720 --> 00:51:27,640
spent, you know, spends their 
money or, or whatever they 

925
00:51:27,640 --> 00:51:29,840
support. 
And so I got into this 

926
00:51:29,840 --> 00:51:34,520
conversation with somebody where
I'm like, I am an American who 

927
00:51:34,520 --> 00:51:40,120
has to pay taxes on and my money
gets spent on things that I 

928
00:51:40,120 --> 00:51:42,400
don't fucking agree with, you 
know what I mean? 

929
00:51:42,400 --> 00:51:44,960
Like, regardless of where we're 
putting our money, it is 

930
00:51:44,960 --> 00:51:49,040
supporting somebody spending 
that money on something that we 

931
00:51:49,040 --> 00:51:54,120
don't have an agreement with. 
And literally like down to the 

932
00:51:54,120 --> 00:51:56,760
toilet paper that you buy and 
everything else. 

933
00:51:56,760 --> 00:52:00,240
Like those companies allocate 
their funds to all types of 

934
00:52:00,240 --> 00:52:03,960
things you may not believe in. 
You know, Chick-fil-A spends 

935
00:52:03,960 --> 00:52:06,120
money on shit that I don't 
believe in, but I love me a 

936
00:52:06,120 --> 00:52:10,520
chicken sandwich. 
So like it's, it's so 

937
00:52:10,520 --> 00:52:15,800
unrealistic to boycott things 
and shame and it's like the 

938
00:52:15,800 --> 00:52:19,640
culture of shaming other people 
because they're doing something 

939
00:52:19,640 --> 00:52:24,160
that you don't feel like aligns 
with you instead of like minding

940
00:52:24,160 --> 00:52:28,200
your own fucking business. 
Also to like this will be a 

941
00:52:28,200 --> 00:52:30,440
thought process that people 
don't fucking like. 

942
00:52:30,800 --> 00:52:36,200
But instead of spending all of 
this money to organize, 

943
00:52:36,200 --> 00:52:39,040
petitioning for the government 
to put funds where you think the

944
00:52:39,040 --> 00:52:42,640
government should put funds, and
spending thousands of dollars to

945
00:52:42,640 --> 00:52:46,200
organize these things, you could
literally put that thousands of 

946
00:52:46,200 --> 00:52:49,160
dollars towards the thing you're
asking the government to pay 

947
00:52:49,160 --> 00:52:50,800
for, since you're going to spend
money anyways. 

948
00:52:51,960 --> 00:52:58,040
Yes, yes, I there is a lot that 
is backwards. 

949
00:52:58,040 --> 00:53:01,680
I think a lot of people have 
gotten into like the GoFundMe 

950
00:53:01,680 --> 00:53:04,280
culture thinking that like, oh, 
you know, I want to go to 

951
00:53:04,280 --> 00:53:07,760
college, people can help donate 
or I want to do this, people can

952
00:53:07,760 --> 00:53:10,640
help donate. 
And I mean, I guess, but I think

953
00:53:10,640 --> 00:53:13,480
sometimes like those should only
be used in certain 

954
00:53:13,480 --> 00:53:15,320
circumstances. 
I know we've talked about that 

955
00:53:15,320 --> 00:53:19,040
in the past, like certain health
circumstances and sudden deaths 

956
00:53:19,040 --> 00:53:21,000
and wrongful death 
circumstances. 

957
00:53:21,280 --> 00:53:23,880
But like I've seen people start 
to go fund me because they want 

958
00:53:23,880 --> 00:53:27,720
a boob job, because they want a 
BBL, you know what I mean? 

959
00:53:27,720 --> 00:53:31,480
Like there's been all kinds of 
things that I've seen, you know,

960
00:53:31,520 --> 00:53:35,480
and, and obviously this was not 
someone I personally knew. 

961
00:53:35,480 --> 00:53:38,320
It was just something, a viral 
thing. 

962
00:53:38,320 --> 00:53:46,040
But people don't want to grind 
towards their goals and dreams 

963
00:53:46,040 --> 00:53:50,200
as much as other people. 
And the other people that do are

964
00:53:50,200 --> 00:53:54,680
paying both. 
They're paying both. 

965
00:53:55,960 --> 00:53:58,880
Well, it's kind of like how 
there's the expectation of like,

966
00:53:58,880 --> 00:54:03,480
if you do well in life and you 
bust your ass and you end up 

967
00:54:03,480 --> 00:54:06,920
being wealthy or having, you 
know, a, a multitude of 

968
00:54:06,920 --> 00:54:09,280
abundance that's more than 
somebody else inside of your 

969
00:54:09,280 --> 00:54:12,000
space. 
There's the entitlement that 

970
00:54:12,000 --> 00:54:15,440
will you have it and I don't 
have it and we're friends or, 

971
00:54:15,440 --> 00:54:17,960
you know, you're my aunt or 
whatever. 

972
00:54:17,960 --> 00:54:20,520
So like you should share some of
that with me. 

973
00:54:20,520 --> 00:54:23,240
Oh, she's just, you know, 
they're selfish because they 

974
00:54:23,240 --> 00:54:25,360
live in this beautiful home and 
they go on these trips or 

975
00:54:25,360 --> 00:54:28,040
whatever and they're not helping
us with the whatever. 

976
00:54:28,040 --> 00:54:33,960
It's the it's, there's always an
expectation that the things that

977
00:54:33,960 --> 00:54:38,600
are important to somebody else 
or what their needs are should 

978
00:54:38,600 --> 00:54:41,360
be what's important to you and 
what you care about. 

979
00:54:42,840 --> 00:54:46,360
I think money brings out true 
colors in people and I like 

980
00:54:46,640 --> 00:54:51,560
literally do not subject to like
some of the concepts that I've 

981
00:54:51,560 --> 00:54:55,120
been taught about money and like
taught about things are like 

982
00:54:55,120 --> 00:54:58,120
being raised by people who like 
to gamble and like to party, 

983
00:54:58,200 --> 00:55:01,800
like to drink, you know, like 
it's not a great combination. 

984
00:55:02,080 --> 00:55:07,640
Money I think brings out, you 
know, it brings out good and 

985
00:55:07,640 --> 00:55:08,960
bad. 
I think that's why, you know, 

986
00:55:08,960 --> 00:55:10,640
some people don't a lot of their
money. 

987
00:55:10,880 --> 00:55:13,920
Some people live beyond their 
means so they can donate and 

988
00:55:13,920 --> 00:55:19,920
help others and do whatever. 
Some people don't care about 

989
00:55:19,920 --> 00:55:23,040
other people, you know, I think,
I think there should be a level 

990
00:55:23,040 --> 00:55:26,080
playing ground that's got to 
like give to the point of like, 

991
00:55:26,520 --> 00:55:29,040
just because I work harder 
doesn't mean I should have to do

992
00:55:29,040 --> 00:55:31,200
all this extra. 
I think. 

993
00:55:31,280 --> 00:55:35,680
I think there should be more 
like real resources for the 

994
00:55:35,680 --> 00:55:38,200
people who need it and less 
resources for people who are 

995
00:55:38,200 --> 00:55:42,520
taking advantage of the systems.
And, you know, I think that a 

996
00:55:42,520 --> 00:55:45,760
lot of those funds and things 
like that should be allocated 

997
00:55:45,760 --> 00:55:48,640
towards veterans and, you know, 
people who have served our 

998
00:55:48,640 --> 00:55:53,080
country and helped, you know, 
gave their life really, you 

999
00:55:53,080 --> 00:55:58,280
know, or even like my grandpa 
got drafted and against his will

1000
00:55:58,640 --> 00:56:02,280
had to go to Vietnam War. 
So everyone else can sip on 

1001
00:56:02,720 --> 00:56:07,320
milkshakes and chill, you know, 
like the summer before prom, I 

1002
00:56:07,320 --> 00:56:10,000
might add. 
So anyways, you know, like he 

1003
00:56:10,000 --> 00:56:12,640
was like 16. 
So I don't know. 

1004
00:56:12,640 --> 00:56:16,520
I mean, I think that this whole 
system's fucked up because 

1005
00:56:16,520 --> 00:56:20,480
that's fucked up. 
I know people inside of real 

1006
00:56:20,480 --> 00:56:24,760
everyday life who are completely
capable of working, go go out, 

1007
00:56:24,800 --> 00:56:27,920
have a job, absolutely no 
fucking reason that they're 

1008
00:56:27,920 --> 00:56:32,280
incapable of it. 
And they would prefer to have 

1009
00:56:32,280 --> 00:56:35,600
welfare and have people pay into
them. 

1010
00:56:35,600 --> 00:56:39,240
And because they've, you know, 
worked a couple jobs or whatever

1011
00:56:39,240 --> 00:56:41,240
before, like, Oh, I, I've paid 
into it. 

1012
00:56:41,240 --> 00:56:45,120
So like, I, I just deserve to 
sit back and like collect this 

1013
00:56:45,120 --> 00:56:49,840
money and, and whatever. 
And like these, these systems 

1014
00:56:49,840 --> 00:56:53,360
are set in place to help people 
who need help. 

1015
00:56:53,800 --> 00:56:57,640
And I feel like people take 
advantage of, of temporary help 

1016
00:56:57,640 --> 00:57:00,760
and try to make it permanent 
because it seems like it's so 

1017
00:57:00,760 --> 00:57:04,880
much easier for you to sit back 
and not have to do anything. 

1018
00:57:04,880 --> 00:57:08,280
And whether you're on Gofundmes 
or you're applying for, you 

1019
00:57:08,280 --> 00:57:13,000
know, state welfare and things 
like that, eventually I just 

1020
00:57:13,000 --> 00:57:15,920
believe that these things that 
we're pointing out and whatever 

1021
00:57:16,680 --> 00:57:19,840
people who are keeping 
themselves in small, limited 

1022
00:57:19,920 --> 00:57:23,640
energies are going to recoup 
that in a bunch of different 

1023
00:57:23,640 --> 00:57:26,160
areas of their life, whether we 
can see that or not. 

1024
00:57:26,160 --> 00:57:28,360
They're going to have less 
opportunities for things. 

1025
00:57:28,600 --> 00:57:33,920
They're going to meet less 
people and be surrounded by 

1026
00:57:36,960 --> 00:57:40,160
other energies that are not 
interested in growing and 

1027
00:57:40,160 --> 00:57:42,960
they're never going to actually 
meet like their full potential 

1028
00:57:42,960 --> 00:57:46,400
that they could inside of this 
space because they continuously 

1029
00:57:46,400 --> 00:57:49,880
put themselves in spaces to 
lower their vibration. 

1030
00:57:49,880 --> 00:57:52,600
And just to specify, I'm not 
saying there's anything wrong 

1031
00:57:52,600 --> 00:57:57,120
with needing help or needing to 
be on welfare or utilize, you 

1032
00:57:57,120 --> 00:58:00,240
know, any resources that people 
have available to them because 

1033
00:58:00,280 --> 00:58:04,200
that's a real thing. 
But people who live their life 

1034
00:58:04,200 --> 00:58:07,800
to take advantage of others and 
to take advantage of systems and

1035
00:58:07,800 --> 00:58:10,520
and whatever they can and nickel
and dime their way through, 

1036
00:58:10,880 --> 00:58:14,000
those people will always stay in
lower vibrational things. 

1037
00:58:14,320 --> 00:58:15,600
Thank you for coming to my Ted 
Talk. 

1038
00:58:15,600 --> 00:58:19,720
You know exactly who the fuck 
I'm talking about, and thank 

1039
00:58:19,720 --> 00:58:22,360
you. 
You know, and honestly, I've 

1040
00:58:22,360 --> 00:58:26,200
seen people who have a lot of 
potential still want to stay 

1041
00:58:26,200 --> 00:58:30,520
like under the radar and like 
not rise to the occasion on 

1042
00:58:30,520 --> 00:58:32,560
things. 
And like, you know, I think 

1043
00:58:32,560 --> 00:58:35,000
sometimes people are just 
comfortable in what they're 

1044
00:58:35,000 --> 00:58:37,680
familiar with. 
They're comfortable with like 

1045
00:58:37,680 --> 00:58:41,200
how the, the, the lifestyle that
they're living or like how they 

1046
00:58:41,200 --> 00:58:44,120
live, even though they know they
need certain things, they need 

1047
00:58:44,120 --> 00:58:47,120
to change their things. 
They need to do certain things 

1048
00:58:47,120 --> 00:58:50,920
like, and if you need to do 
those certain things, you would 

1049
00:58:51,000 --> 00:58:53,480
you think that in your brain 
you're like, OK, well, I'm going

1050
00:58:53,480 --> 00:58:56,200
to work towards making that 
happen. 

1051
00:58:56,200 --> 00:58:57,960
I'm going to work towards making
that happen. 

1052
00:58:57,960 --> 00:59:00,840
Instead of just like, no, I'm 
just going to kick my feet up 

1053
00:59:00,840 --> 00:59:04,520
and say I need those things and 
say that it'd be nice if I had 

1054
00:59:04,520 --> 00:59:06,800
those things. 
Other people have those things 

1055
00:59:06,800 --> 00:59:09,920
like I should have those things 
like that entitlement, you know 

1056
00:59:09,920 --> 00:59:12,120
what I mean? 
And that's what I see like from 

1057
00:59:12,120 --> 00:59:16,160
a lot of energy is it like turns
into that entitlement of like, 

1058
00:59:16,920 --> 00:59:20,000
you know, they have it, so I 
should have it too. 

1059
00:59:20,000 --> 00:59:22,760
And I think that's where the off
balance is in the collective. 

1060
00:59:23,080 --> 00:59:25,960
But you know, it sucks to see 
someone that you care about have

1061
00:59:25,960 --> 00:59:29,880
more potential than they're 
wanting to like utilize or 

1062
00:59:29,880 --> 00:59:33,000
someone that you care about that
you know is capable of doing 

1063
00:59:33,000 --> 00:59:37,520
certain things, but is like not 
going to or not wanting to or 

1064
00:59:37,520 --> 00:59:41,800
not emotionally available too. 
You know, like, I think so many 

1065
00:59:41,800 --> 00:59:44,240
different levels of that, like 
people can resonate with 

1066
00:59:44,240 --> 00:59:47,760
whether, you know, it's a family
member, a partner, someone 

1067
00:59:48,120 --> 00:59:51,280
especially like our parents. 
Nothing a lot of times, like we 

1068
00:59:51,280 --> 00:59:54,640
have like deeper trauma than 
we're willing to admit with our 

1069
00:59:54,640 --> 00:59:57,080
parents, especially if our 
parents are still active in our 

1070
00:59:57,080 --> 01:00:00,400
life and still like alive and 
kick in and like in our world 

1071
01:00:00,400 --> 01:00:03,600
and in our reality. 
Sometimes it's hard to admit 

1072
01:00:03,600 --> 01:00:06,480
that like. 
That we do have active trauma 

1073
01:00:06,480 --> 01:00:09,680
and that we are triggered by 
certain emotions or things or 

1074
01:00:09,960 --> 01:00:14,760
certain feelings and concepts 
bring out negative emotion. 

1075
01:00:16,600 --> 01:00:20,560
My cat is being bad. 
But you know, I think sometimes 

1076
01:00:20,560 --> 01:00:25,160
our emotional attachments is 
what really keeps us in those 

1077
01:00:25,160 --> 01:00:30,040
stagnant cycles and keeps us 
activating that time and time 

1078
01:00:30,040 --> 01:00:32,400
again. 
I agree. 

1079
01:00:32,880 --> 01:00:36,360
And I and I think too that, you 
know, emotional attachments to 

1080
01:00:36,360 --> 01:00:40,280
things. 
Also, people will say things 

1081
01:00:40,400 --> 01:00:43,240
people that were close to or 
that we, you know, have some 

1082
01:00:43,240 --> 01:00:48,360
type of an emotional connection 
with sometimes say things in the

1083
01:00:48,360 --> 01:00:53,560
space of jealousy, being jealous
that they don't have things that

1084
01:00:53,560 --> 01:00:57,040
they see you having or mindsets 
that you're having or whatever. 

1085
01:00:58,000 --> 01:01:04,120
Recently there was somebody who 
has been in our life for a few 

1086
01:01:04,120 --> 01:01:08,880
years and they're they have to 
be a space in our life and 

1087
01:01:09,000 --> 01:01:13,440
they're like, Oh, well, you 
know, I know where you guys came

1088
01:01:13,440 --> 01:01:16,400
from and like, it's great that 
you guys are doing well now. 

1089
01:01:16,400 --> 01:01:20,120
But like, you know, I remember 
when you guys were down and now.

1090
01:01:20,120 --> 01:01:22,680
And so like, if I'm needing 
money or I'm needing something, 

1091
01:01:22,680 --> 01:01:25,360
like you guys should give that 
to me because you've been in the

1092
01:01:25,360 --> 01:01:30,160
place that I'm in. 
And it like sparked like a huge 

1093
01:01:30,160 --> 01:01:33,440
conversation with my husband and
I because, you know, your 

1094
01:01:33,440 --> 01:01:36,040
emotions get hit, right? 
Because somebody who wants to 

1095
01:01:36,040 --> 01:01:38,280
take advantage of something and 
want something from you. 

1096
01:01:39,640 --> 01:01:43,360
People are very good at 
manipulating emotional energy 

1097
01:01:43,680 --> 01:01:47,400
and making themselves a victim 
and something and making you 

1098
01:01:47,400 --> 01:01:52,160
feel guilty for having more, 
doing more, achieving more. 

1099
01:01:52,480 --> 01:01:57,920
And it's so much, I don't think 
that people necessarily do it on

1100
01:01:57,920 --> 01:02:00,280
purpose, but it's such a 
prevalent thing. 

1101
01:02:01,120 --> 01:02:04,680
And and we had to really analyze
and be like, do we want to give 

1102
01:02:04,680 --> 01:02:08,440
this money, this person money or
like help them with things? 

1103
01:02:08,440 --> 01:02:11,480
No, we'd like, we've worked our 
fucking ass off to be where we 

1104
01:02:11,480 --> 01:02:14,200
are right now. 
And that's why we're in this 

1105
01:02:14,200 --> 01:02:17,640
position where, you know, you 
would come to us and ask these 

1106
01:02:17,640 --> 01:02:19,800
things. 
You don't put in any of the 

1107
01:02:19,800 --> 01:02:21,760
work. 
And so there's a difference 

1108
01:02:21,760 --> 01:02:24,520
between like you being a 
compassionate person and helping

1109
01:02:24,520 --> 01:02:27,480
people around you who are like 
putting in the work and trying 

1110
01:02:27,760 --> 01:02:30,480
and you just can't get a step 
ahead because we've all been 

1111
01:02:30,480 --> 01:02:31,800
there. 
We've all needed help. 

1112
01:02:31,800 --> 01:02:34,400
We will all need help again at 
some point with something. 

1113
01:02:36,040 --> 01:02:40,200
But that gauge of like, is this 
person doing everything that 

1114
01:02:40,200 --> 01:02:42,800
they can inside of their 
universe, inside it, you know, 

1115
01:02:42,800 --> 01:02:45,400
what's in their control to try 
and better themselves? 

1116
01:02:45,400 --> 01:02:48,240
Or are they just sitting back 
and being complacent in life and

1117
01:02:48,240 --> 01:02:51,160
then blaming people around them 
for doing well? 

1118
01:02:52,480 --> 01:02:55,440
Yeah, or becoming bitter if 
they're not blaming like 

1119
01:02:55,800 --> 01:03:00,400
internally, like I think some 
people just internally embody 

1120
01:03:00,400 --> 01:03:04,680
that like that, like I'm a loser
or like, you know, my life sucks

1121
01:03:04,680 --> 01:03:07,240
energy. 
And like they embody that. 

1122
01:03:07,240 --> 01:03:10,920
And it's not even that they're 
like comparing or jealous or 

1123
01:03:10,920 --> 01:03:13,840
upset about other people's life.
It's just like, this is my life 

1124
01:03:13,920 --> 01:03:17,280
and like, it's just what it is 
kind of thing, you know what I 

1125
01:03:17,280 --> 01:03:19,320
mean? 
And like, I don't know a lot of 

1126
01:03:19,320 --> 01:03:22,400
people, I feel like I get into 
that stagnant energy. 

1127
01:03:22,400 --> 01:03:24,720
And sometimes like a 
relationship will send you into 

1128
01:03:24,720 --> 01:03:29,200
that spiral or a breakup or a 
heartache or, you know, losing 

1129
01:03:29,200 --> 01:03:32,520
someone, losing a spouse, losing
a friend, losing somebody, you 

1130
01:03:32,520 --> 01:03:35,880
know, different things send us 
into depressions and triggers. 

1131
01:03:36,120 --> 01:03:38,800
And I think sometimes people get
into those cycles and it's just 

1132
01:03:38,800 --> 01:03:41,680
like, well, my life is just 
every time I get excited about 

1133
01:03:41,680 --> 01:03:46,000
something, this happens or every
time this happens, it goes bad. 

1134
01:03:46,000 --> 01:03:49,000
Or, you know, just having that 
mindset is attracting that. 

1135
01:03:49,000 --> 01:03:52,360
And like always having that 
reminder that we try to remind 

1136
01:03:52,360 --> 01:03:56,840
people is like, you know, is 
easy as it is to dwell and like 

1137
01:03:56,840 --> 01:03:58,960
worry. 
It is the worst thing to do for 

1138
01:03:58,960 --> 01:04:01,480
your outcome. 
And we are all guilty of it. 

1139
01:04:01,480 --> 01:04:05,400
Like I like recently went 
through something and I was just

1140
01:04:05,400 --> 01:04:07,720
like in fear. 
And I and like at the same time 

1141
01:04:07,720 --> 01:04:10,880
like knew it was going to be 
okay, but still was in like a 

1142
01:04:10,880 --> 01:04:13,480
fearful mindset. 
And I think that at every 

1143
01:04:13,480 --> 01:04:18,320
corner, if you're leading with 
fear, like expect fear, like 

1144
01:04:18,320 --> 01:04:21,400
expect things to fear, then you 
know, because you're kind of 

1145
01:04:21,400 --> 01:04:24,800
attracting that. 
And you know, we have to lean 

1146
01:04:24,800 --> 01:04:28,840
into like our truth more than 
what other people are showing us

1147
01:04:28,840 --> 01:04:31,120
because everything is subject to
change. 

1148
01:04:31,120 --> 01:04:35,480
Like there really is no concept 
of constant when dealing with 

1149
01:04:35,480 --> 01:04:39,080
other people's emotions or even 
our own emotion because from 

1150
01:04:39,080 --> 01:04:41,440
day-to-day, we always are 
wanting something different. 

1151
01:04:41,440 --> 01:04:44,400
Or there may be like 1 
underlying thing that you want 

1152
01:04:44,400 --> 01:04:50,280
but at the end of the day like 
you become and change your your 

1153
01:04:50,280 --> 01:04:52,360
perception of that as time goes 
on. 

1154
01:04:52,360 --> 01:04:55,880
You know, because not meant to 
receive right at that moment. 

1155
01:05:00,240 --> 01:05:03,480
I think that's big to being able
to see things that you know 

1156
01:05:03,480 --> 01:05:07,080
you're going to receive, but 
understanding that it's just not

1157
01:05:07,080 --> 01:05:10,240
meant for this timeline right 
this moment, and that you have 

1158
01:05:10,240 --> 01:05:14,800
to be patient for however that 
ends up unfolding for you. 

1159
01:05:16,360 --> 01:05:21,440
Think this is perfect too? 
Leave the conversation that 

1160
01:05:21,440 --> 01:05:24,840
because you know, sometimes we 
do have to trust the divine 

1161
01:05:24,840 --> 01:05:29,400
timing of things. 
Yeah, well, it was nice being 

1162
01:05:29,400 --> 01:05:34,560
back. 
Yay, I know I loved it, I love 

1163
01:05:34,560 --> 01:05:37,560
it here and we will see you next
time in Candy Land. 

1164
01:05:37,560 --> 01:05:39,480
Bye bye rapper. 
Leave me like a lollipop, 

1165
01:05:39,480 --> 01:05:43,120
lollipop lollipop lollipop 
lollipop.