Welcome to fucking Dandy land hosted by Rampage and Gemini.
What's up everybody? Welcome back to Candyland for
season 2 episode 2. And it was Friday, the 13th,
this past like weekend. So I really love all the energy
because we had the 111 portal and then Friday the 13th.
So it's been a special energy. Since we walked our episode
aired, we've been like the energy that came off of Us.
Coming back was wild. Like I almost I almost didn't
anticipate having so many people being like waiting for that
episode drop, but so many people hit Inbox and one girl like
shared one of my reels in her story and I liked it and I
reshard it or whatever and she's like, oh my God, you don't even
understand like listening to you guys on the podcast.
Like it's gotten me through so much shit and I'm just like holy
fuck like we're affecting people by like being each other's
person. Absolutely love the podcast,
it's actually kind of mind-blowing.
Every since we got the Spotify wrapped I started using Spotify.
But that's what about wrapped, really sent me to the next level
with inspiration? Because I was like, there's no
way that that many people were listening to us directly on
Spotify because like, let's just be honest, there's no way
hundreds of people have reached out and then like you're my
number one podcast, you know what I mean?
Like, we've had people reach out, but like was seeing that
think it was like, 158 people had us as their number one
podcast. I'm like, hmm, Game Changer.
And that's only on And like when we use anchor and stuff because
it's a Spotify hosted platform, the numbers that we see
reflected on there are only Spotify numbers.
And I didn't know that. So then when we were getting the
wraps from like apple and all this other stuff, I'm like,
wait. So you're telling me that like,
the numbers we saw were on one fucking platform but like, it's
just, it's fucking crazy. And I think that for creators,
that is so much inspiration because seeing that, That as a
Creator getting like that feedback is really cool and I
know I'd seen people post things about it before but when it
applies to your own personal project it's a big deal.
I've been getting a lot more questions about like my personal
life than I was before because like with coven of rejects it's
all about other people's stories and like yeah, I kind of share
my gifts here and there but like it's to talk about them and then
now that we've started this, like I had somebody reached out
and was like, so why did why You have daddy issues, and I'm like,
pretty sure. I never said, I had daddy
issues, but let me tell you the story about my dad's and like, I
made a tick tock about it, and so, I don't know.
It's cool to like, be wanting to have people know your personal
story, but I also know that once you start opening yourself up
where you share more about your life, more people feel entitled
to being involved in your life. And so that's like a happy
medium that I'm going to be learning to walk.
Is what Things to like be open about and then what things are
just kind of like that's my personal shit.
And I don't need to have that be public knowledge, you know.
I agree. I keep a lot of things for a bit
to be honest. People may feel like they know a
lot about me but I keep a lot rob.
It, like the only thing the same like really about me is that I'm
in the spiritual stuff and I have a podcast and she be
showing that booty online. Yeah, that's it.
That's all y'all know it's all, you know, I think Jim and I
wants to be my manager. I think I think deep down.
She's ready to get me promoted on the, on the platforms.
There. This is the thing though.
Is, yes, that's true. But I have all the ideas of
things you don't want to do. And so, you know what I like?
I don't know, I'll find the opportunities like I've thought
my whole life. What I would do if I had that
body. So trust me, like I tell you
what you could do with it but you got to use that tool, you
know, if you're something else and you know, it's crazy.
So many women. Thank like, oh, if I look like
like that, I would, or I look like money, I would, but like,
there's so much. I feel like stress that goes
along with that because you talked about the entitlement
that people project just anyways, like, imagine if
they're actually like entitled to that more intimate side of
like, they feel like they're entitled to that, like, no way.
That's too much power over me. And I don't like anyone to have
power over me, like authority figures and whoever like that,
ain't Betting it, I don't like being told what to do.
I like to be able to do it my way, and I will get the job
done. You give me expectations and I
want to do it my way period. So like too much.
I totally meant it as a joke, obviously.
Because like, if I wanted to make it happen I would make it
happen. You know what I mean?
But it's just more fun when I think of it being you and not me
because it's you and I'll have to do it.
It's crazy outgoing thing. I think I may enjoy would be,
like, if I was writing them and being mean to them like, like I
know girls, like you, Like a Dominatrix and like be like yeah
that's the only way I think I could do it like on there.
Like on on something where people feel like they're, you
know, connected or whatever. But yeah, like I don't know.
I just kind you're gonna have those messages of people in your
inbox now. Like, how much does it take?
How much do I have to pay you to fuck me up.
Oh God, oh God. You know what?
Wow, don't be in me that don't get any crazy ideas.
Well, you're not actually doing that, but if you did, that's the
kind of messages that it would open.
That's the thing to like fucking content creating and sharing
shit online and whatever is cool but everybody does eventually
like run away with it. Like there is gonna be the
creeper that listens to something and be like, oh, this
is her famous me. I better talk to her about it.
You know, I've had some weird weird messages and people really
It is it through with her about to say they might not say it.
They think about it because they're fat thumbs type it out
and then their pointer finger has to push send like that to
stop masturbating the sent you that message.
Oh my God. I was like we're going to make
it raunchy this season. We're going to go Howard Stern,
this season, I'm so sorry. She's like is your kid
listening, we'll turn it all Disclaimer.
I'm just kidding but you know it's really cool.
I think about our friendship is that we can talk about unlike
unbiased like taboo shit. Like that's what's cool about
our relationship as we do, talk about a lot of stuff that other
people. I don't know if they talk about
it. Well, on the word taboo was
like, when you and I were talking about what we were going
to do with the podcast, it was going to be like uncensored
opinions and it being a place where we were able to like
Express. Ourselves and I just feel how it
comfortable like in our communication Dynamic, and
whatever that sometimes, even though I know people are
listening. I forget that people are
probably listening with their kids and like just a disclaimer.
If you listen to me, I'm usually not kid-friendly, like it's
shocking. I have a child, you know.
Sorry. I mean, I think that the effort
is definitely in your top five words it is.
Yeah, it's like it's a good. but you know what, I'm not really
sure that we talked about anything that Other people don't
think, you know what I mean? Like, a lot of people think the
things that were talking about, and I know that that's kind of
been like, the common thing that people have said, like, wow, was
thinking that? Or that I was thinking about
that. Or I was wondering about that,
you know, I think there's like this Collective awareness that
were both very much aware and tapped into because we are
always giving readings and making videos and Tik toks and
stuff like that. It opens us up to Collective
energy. Like whenever I'm pulling a
collective message or whatever like We're channeling that
energy and I think ya might not apply to everyone, but there is
a big portion of people that if they saw it would apply to them
or it could apply to them or whatever.
But I do think that the overabundance of information
right now, you just have to be really like Discerning of what
you're believing or absorbing. Like I still have people to this
day. That is like, is this you
messaging me on Instagram and I know these people in real life
in real life in real life, know these people I'm like do I talk
like that? Do I sound like that?
And I like well it sounded scammy.
Okay, okay. I know I really liked what you
said about like stop fucking telling me.
I wish y'all would just like report them and not even mention
it because I already know because 97 other people told me.
Yeah, I just meant, it's some point.
You're like, for me, I don't like seeing that because like I
try to tell myself like, it's free marketing, whatever.
And like, a majority of the time it doesn't bother me.
But there are some times when I'm just, like, dude, like
you're scamming people in my name, like, taking people like
it sucks to watch. People get their money taken.
And it also sucks to feel like, well if I don't warn people in,
they don't know, but at this point, you're just dumb you No,
I just think that unfortunately there's a lot of new people to
the spiritual Arena and they're kind of like it's not that
people are dumb. I think it's just that genuinely
to the core. This may be like their first
interaction with a spiritual scammer like they're straight up
like you know and then now like it's so easy to spot them like a
shit ton of scammers have been following the podcast page
because we both have it. I guess in our bio and then the
other scammers copy it and I don't know what it is but it's
like Legitimately the, the podcast page has been getting.
So nice camera follows and messages.
I like, I want to read you. You know what I mean?
That's why I posted that one on the story.
It was like, scammers, just some random lady.
I don't even think we follow her.
Just like, it's that bad. See, and for me, like if you've
never followed me before, you don't know, like my pages,
whatever and a scammer comes at you pretending to be me.
Like I kind of understand that a little bit more.
But like, if you No me. And you follow my pages and
stuff in a random page messages you at that point.
That's where I get frustrated because I'm like I'm putting so
much content here and I do so much free stuff.
That why would I then reach out to people?
You know what I mean? Like I just if you see the like
I have a brand in a business, why would I be going out of my
way to message you? Like, I don't have time.
Like I have all the time in the world, I think Sony is a lot of
people after they found out that I got, after I tell them like,
no, that's a scam. Like, whatever they're like,
damn, that's clout. I wish I had scammers like, I've
had at least seven people. Mainly men, tell me they wish
they had scammers. Like what does that mean that
you got like fans or hose or like what's that mean?
Like what it means to me is that they're taking money away from
my business and from other people because they're getting
nothing in return at least with my business you're getting a
bomb-ass service or reading instead you're getting a fucking
copy and pasted reading and you're spending money.
The biggest problem for me is like, it doesn't matter how many
times I tell people, the same people are the same people that
every time be like, is this you how many times I gotta tell you.
So, I don't know. I've almost like just lightly
when people send me the message. I'm just like it.
I won't even reply normally. I'm just like, no, it's a
scammer. I just like it, like No.
Like the very first page post on my page is this is my only
profile don't know what else I can say.
I don't know. Like I think maybe I might just
make my top for you pin post. This is my only profile like
real big like, you know what I mean?
Because then when the song Still that because right now, the
problem is they still things and then they buy lights and they
buy followers and it looks kind of legit.
So, like I understand, If you've never been exposed as Gamers.
But like if you follow any music artist or you enter any giveaway
on Instagram, you've been message by a scammer.
It's no different than a spiritual scammer writing.
You something very similar. No one cares, what your zodiac
is. No one.
I never even asked me whether zodiac, like what kind of
question is that? Like, I don't know.
It's just like it sounds so basic and weird that it's like,
they're really taking advantage of people and it sucks.
Yeah, well, I think that there are scammers who take advantage
of people. I think that there are Other
people that take advantage of other people.
And I think it also sucks. I think that y'all are just
racking up, karmic debt, not y'all.
But the scammers and whoever like people, if you take
advantage of people places and things like it shows up in a
different way in your life and I don't have no fear.
When I sleep at night, I sleep. Good as fuck.
And I don't have any worries, so I just think encourage everyone
to live by that, like maybe no one's watching but I promise
you, Spirits calculating all the points there.
Point system going on beneath the surface.
And if you are fucking doing harm into the world like that,
just comes back to you times, 10, like any in any way.
Like that's why I always say like when someone's projecting
onto you and they're trying to trigger, you don't go to their
level because that creates the frequency between you, two of
being the same like stay in your vibration set boundaries and
then literally remove yourself. That's what I'm having to learn
is like, the best thing for me is to just remove myself, like,
you don't have Sense to me anymore.
So maybe the next time I come around you're going to act right
but you lose access to some 16 months or whatever like you
either going to appreciate that relationship or not and with
family, it be the hardest. So I know anyone listening they
has those difficult relationships with your parents
and your family. It is about you staying in your
own vibration. It's about you putting your own
boundaries and things forward. Like that's the priority.
We're not the priority, isn't the longevity of this.
Chin or the fact that you're my father or my brother or
whatever, it's the fact that energy is not reciprocated.
It's not respected, it's not appreciated.
Like when we start adding up the points like your - and that
means I got to cut you and you know, maybe it's not forever,
maybe it is in some cases, but some shit you can't just keep
allowing it because you're allowing it at that point.
I think that a lot of people hang on in those kinds of
relationships too long because they're waiting for somebody to
realize their fault and say that they're sorry.
And that's like something that somebody is needing is an
acknowledgement in a recognition from somebody who does them
shitty and that's just like not going to come like you have to
take the responsibility and be like, this is never going to be
different and the only way that this can be different and have a
different energy as if I remove myself from the situation and go
Go find a different energy and also I think that like setting
boundaries and choosing not to have a relationship with people
anymore. It doesn't always even need to
be announced. Like you don't even always need
to voice like I'm putting a separation between us.
You can just take a step back and focus on what you're doing
and just stop fucking going around because I just feel like
the need to announce it. Sometimes is like the need to
have drama about it and it's just a way for you to
roundabouts have that. Precision where you tell them.
You need them to apologize. So then you can stay in the same
toxic cycle. Legitimately a lot of these
one-sided connections keep you in those Loops of like push and
pull and drama and chaos and like when your life is quiet or
relationships or absent of chaos, like you feel alone, or
you feel empty or you feel like distraught because when you're
born and bred in those chaotic environments, your nervous
system doesn't Understand what peace is peace and quiet and
Harmony and stuff feels like boring or feels like, it's not
fun or exciting or the spark, isn't there?
So, a lot of people will go back to the toxic relationship or
move back in with their toxic family or whatever.
When the fact of the matter is, it takes a while for your
nervous system to adjust to peace.
When you've only known trauma and chaos.
So, I wanted to kind of talk to you about that.
So I think that so through Shadow work, you know, how I was
just, like, always fucking just overdoing it and I wasn't
resting and I wasn't whatever. Well, I realize through Shadow
work that I chose to take on that chaos because everything
around me was so calm. Like, I had set myself up in
like a calm peace in my life. So I didn't have any kind of
like chaos, like, Was my energy. Like, that's what fueled me
being manic meant that. I was like making things happen
and getting things done. And that's the only way that I
could feel like productive or like I was doing anything.
And so recently, I've found that I have this like extra time for
resting and for meditation and whatever but I'm literally doing
the most that I've ever done and I was thinking about it the
other day and I'm like damn like that's because I learned the
balance I learned how to prioritize my time and set
myself up and have rest in between instead of trying to
overdo it and pack things in to make things happen immediately
that can be spread out and that's how I feel like you know
I know we have different schedules because we live in
different time zones so that's like really cool that were able
to bring it together and like I would rather Let's have that
flexibility then. Like feel like you don't I mean
it's just like there's no pressure like well just get it
done. We'll just make sure that we
make it happen, like that's not philosophy.
Like right now I have a few things to do but I prioritize
cleaning and doing my laundry earlier because I knew that I
would feel much better and happier and a clean environment
to do those things, too. Like, whatever.
So, you know, I think priorities of what's going to make you more
productive. Is the most important because
like, I could have done the things, Earlier, but then would
have been mad at myself because I didn't change my sheets and do
all the other stuff I wanted to do.
So it is I love how like laid-back, literally, like this
friendship. I've never had any kind of
stress of like, oh, but like if I tell her that, I need to
reschedule, she's going to be like really mad like, you know,
there are those people that you're just like I don't want to
say anything. So we're going to get upset,
you're literally always just like oh that's fine, it's
whatever and like you know and vice versa you're like, I'm just
not feeling it today, let's whatever.
And I love that. It's so calm and chilling,
relaxing. I'm like, this is everything
today. I did a bunch of spill work and
the spill is like popping off and I was like, just filling all
this energy for tonight and personally, I'm glad that we
don't have like a set day that we do it every week.
You know what I mean? Like oh we're always going to
record on Thursdays period. Like I like that we don't
because I feel like when the energy is better, that's the
better time to do something, you know what I mean?
Says, I'm real big on, like, saying no or rescheduling, like,
sometimes, like straight-up spirit, will have me like,
delaying, people's readings, and then like three or five days
will go by. And they'll be, like, I know why
you had to delay my reading, you know, because like something
happened that had to happen before they got the reading.
And I think that's what's really cool is like, when you are
walking in alignment, I'm not walking on the time scale of
like, the man-made construct, it really doesn't exist.
List, it's more an energetic thing that I kind of set the
tone of like this is what I want to do with this.
What I'm going to do. I'm never like I need to do all
this on this day or I hate like being too rigid.
I guess with my schedule, I like flexibility because the energy
sometimes is all for better. Yeah, no.
I like it because sometimes like you feel more inspired to have
conversations and like, actually have things to say and I've
noticed that, you know, scheduling the other podcast,
sometimes there's a different day that I feel like we should
do the interview and all last-minute be like, hey can we
actually do it tomorrow or whatever?
Because do you have time today because it just feels like
better alignment and we'll record it that day.
I just believe in following that too, because they're always ends
up being a reason for sure. And so many people get stuck on
timelines. I think that's what I work with
my clients. The most with is like not
worrying about a timeline not Needing to know when just
knowing it will. That's the most important thing.
I think that helps me manifest, whatever I'm working towards is,
like, I don't care when I just know that it will.
You just told me that it will if I stay doing what XYZ I need to
be doing. Like I know I need to do those
things and then it will it doesn't mean that when I finish
those that it will it just means it somewhere in that moment.
So it will like, that's where I think that you found a lot more
peace in your like Pass to as just like a new person
approaching spirituality or someone who is season in
spirituality like that peace that comes from just knowing
that you can have faith in the unknown and Trust in that and
literally don't need to worry about six months from now or two
years from now. If you're walking in alignment,
you're walking in, you know, you're calling or whatever
Spirits telling you to do at that time and you're doing that,
that's all that matters. The laughs Polly Pocket.
I know I'm feeling inspired. I swear, I did this spell
earlier. I cleaned out my spice cabinet.
I've been doing this thing where every weekend at least a pick
something like I want to clean out all those bins, or I want to
clean out my sock drawer. I want to clean out the size
cabinet or like whatever. And then, while I'm doing
laundry, you know, because laundries one of those things
you got to change, fold, change, fold change, hold all the stuff.
So if you walk away from laundry, that's when shit sets
in the dryer and it. Does not get folded, right?
So if I have other little tasks that can be completed like in
between loads of laundry, not something that's going to take
me like Forever. I've been doing that.
So I went through like I said, like I went through the drunk
drawers, I went through underneath my bathroom sink,
like just randomly every weekend for like the last four weekends,
I've just randomly picked Something I can't I can't think
of her name and I will as soon as you say it.
But what you wisdoms? Sean Engel.
Thank you. So posted on Instagram, just
like videos of her house and it's like the most Zen,
beautiful, like energy. And I'm like, please just come
organize my home please. Well, her home, she has all
these different Little like Corners like this corner and
that corner. Yeah, different rooms.
But they're not two different rooms.
It's in the same room. It's pretty interesting.
How she's done that like to be able to have different places to
record but it looks like it's a totally different space
completely Center. So that's what I was trying to
do with. So when we first moved into this
house, we had a spare bedroom and I set that up as the podcast
room and it was a really big room and I was decorating, every
wall differently so that it could be a Room and and I was
doing two rooms on each wall, so there.
So there was going to be like eight different spots or seven
different spots but then my father-in-law moved in there.
And so I've been out here in the dark abyss and it's been fucking
dope because nobody can hear the conversations that I have in
here when I do readings for people.
Like I don't have to overhear, any noise, any whatever.
And so for the longest time, I was like Oh well, I really
wanted to be in the house. Like it gets cold out here, it's
whatever. But this is so much better than
it would have been inside. I personally have to rearrange a
room in my house. Like every two months I don't
like get new stuff but I like change everything.
Like I move stuff from different rooms into the next room like, I
don't know. I like variety.
Like I like to change that's like honestly I'm one of those
people that could constantly stay in a home renovation and
probably be okay with that but I'm trying to chill.
I'm trying to not do that because I like really Ali and
like that. Like I'm in that era of my life
where I just like, want to make things exactly the way I want
them to be in spirit keeps telling me to chill, like just
chill. Like you're going to build a
house. It'll be like you want it to be
like just calm the fuck down, don't just start ripping out
your bathroom because you want to do something, you know.
So I've been trying to like not feed into like the urges, but
it's the Venus in Taurus. Like me being a Taurus and
having Venus in her home, she's ready to Decorate, the
motherfucking home, like the moon rules the home, and the
moon Rose my birth chart, so it's like Moon.
And Venus in my chart is like, let's decorate.
Let's take everything off that wall and rearrange.
It, let's just take everything off the wall and clean it, dust
it like this random shit. Like, the spice cabinet today
and I'm like actually found some really cool stuff in there that
I forgot that was in there. So there's that Isis.
Well, not just spices, but I had bought some cinnamon sticks for
spells like that was the only reason So I bought them, but
they're in the spice cabinet those, I found two jars of had
dried rose buds, the many ones, and dried kandula flowers, but I
used and I had a whole bag of lavender like this random herbs,
like just things that I just. Yeah.
And they got stuck in the spice cabinet.
Dude, I've been getting so I discovered going to the dollar
store for like which he items and dude, it's blowing my
fucking mind. You can get, I did not know and
everything is a dollar 25 now. Yeah.
But a killer tree. Yeah, it's ridiculous.
But they, but to Dollar 25. Now, for everything and they
have everything, I had no fucking girl.
I go there all the time. Well, you should have told me
sooner keeping the secrets. Woman.
That's the spot. Like sometimes I'll have really
cool like Zane, like little buddha ring holders or like
little elephant. Ring holders and stuff like real
cute like little like and I don't know if you have the
store, it's called Five Below. Okay, well we have this place
here called Five Below and literally everything is five
dollars or less and it's dope. Like normally I was a Family
Dollar. No, it's not like that though.
It's like it's dedicated directly towards like really
cool stuff. Like they have a hose.
As insects like fire stuff, they have clothes, they have
T-shirts, like they got fire stuff.
It's kind of like a root 21 if everything was $5 or like a
Ross, if everything was fine. Oh shit, like I want to go they
have like a wall of candy like a wall of cards like it's better
to make if you have someone like a kid or someone that you're
going to buy a gift for, I go in there and I buy a backpack there
five dollars, normally, they're cute.
Like have like a unicorn or something on there and I spend
$20 additional so 25 and I fill up the back.
Pack these kids like my friend said, these kids lose it, when I
do things like that for their birthday because you can get so
much for $25. It's insane.
But it's like really cool like dedicated.
Themes and stuff like that. Yeah.
Sounds like they had these chakra candles one time when I
went in there and I found all seven.
Another reason to move to Kentucky, I had all seven chakra
candles, I got from there. Now, I've waited forever to burn
them because they were sacred. I feel like if I lived near you,
I feel like we, I would always be with you.
Hmm, I don't know. I would always be with you,
okay, I don't know. I just feel like I moved there.
I'm probably not gonna go home having that's why I'm like,
yeah. Like where are you?
Like, oh, we were seeing like a difference.
So you just live next door. So it's like We're both home but
we're just one wall between us. I told I told so Mac had been
listening to our conversation when I was like I'm sending him
to your house and your like a he came out three days I love kids
and then when I stopped, when I got off the phone with you, he
was like, are you really going to send me to her house?
Do you even know her what if she's mean to kids?
What if she puts me in her oven? Oh my god.
Wow! To my house and I was like, I
was like, no it's page and he's like, oh, I didn't know who you
were talking to. I'll go.
Oh first, he thinks I'm gonna put it in the oven and now he's
you didn't realize who it was. I guess you just thought I was
talking to some random person. He was like are you sure that
that's cool right? What's crazy is I was kidding
about that. I would not send my kid to
Kentucky and not come to see like I would not bring my kid.
Guess what? Yes, I have so much to tell you,
so I recently found out that the algorithm on Tick-Tock is down.
Pushing your videos out to more, local people.
Oh, that's a new update that they did.
I heard someone like this big thing on it and then it kind of
like it got me thinking because all of a sudden has been several
different people. Like I live in Kentucky, I live
in Kentucky, I live in Kentucky and I was like wondering If it
was because I started hashtagging, you know, Kentucky
and you know like just a few times not like a lot like barely
and then I was like why am I getting all these like out in
the mud and like it, look at my big truck and, you know, like
with mullets and like people walking down the Nashville strip
like like regularly. so, it was like, Weird, right?
And I was like, what's going on. Like, I've seen too many of
those real big sunglasses in, like, dip cans on my, on my
feet. When I found out that, yeah,
it's basically the new algorithm update or whatever for like
Tick, Tock is sending it out to more local people like because
that's why they want you to tag your location now.
So, somebody commented on one of my posts in the next door.
I did this like, Ad for like mediumship readings or whatever.
And this guy comments and he's like, hey, I would love to have
a reading but instead of giving you money, how about I give you
gifts from the earth and I was like that, this means that I
would have to meet this person to get gifts from the earth.
Maybe there are some dope although and give I know.
I'm so that's where my mind right is?
I'm like, I'm like dang, maybe he has cool rocks but also
that's Hey, I have candy get in my van to kids.
But then I have to give him an address.
I mean, see what I mean? So I'm like, I could be like
drop them in a bag behind the trash camp at the 7-Eleven on
Broadway and drive away, you know, but like I don't know.
So I just found to get that pill box because you got gifts from
the earth coming. You might be turning down some
dope-ass, like, honks of something.
Cool. Because there's pie, don't ya?
Like I bet you it's fucking so cool.
But yeah, I guess I need a p.o. box.
Because gifts from the Earth would be dank as fuck.
But I'm not going to meet up with somebody in person for a
box of rocks. Like what a way to invite you.
Imagine if it's somebody in the Americas you entice.
What you bitches and he's just like, I've got rocks, you know?
It depends because what, if he was like I'll give you a
cathedral amethyst. I'd probably be on the way and
if he had that I would just I would have to bring my my guard
dog and my AK with me here my cards, a she shows up
bulletproof vest but getting ready to go buddy.
You know, I don't know. I mean sometimes You never know.
It really could be something really cool.
And I would have no Polly. Like, why not?
I'm good. When I receive said item and
said packaging, I will do a reading.
I was so strange that I got a p.o. box, he can send it to me.
No, I'm down for like I want gifts from Earth's.
Okay, I just like strangers. I just I just think everybody
wants to touch you about hole and you can't just be letting
everybody entice. You, I don't know.
I mean it's just you're so chill and laid-back and you do like
you would be the one. Who's like, I'm gonna meet this
guy at the coffee shop for crystals and you end up having
like some crazy See story about how now it's your best friend
and, you know, it's called. I'll tell you a story about
Christmas. I used to take these intuitive
development classes on zoom, and I met people from all over the
place and like a lot of people from Kentucky and it was really
cool. And there was this guy that was
talking about these crystals that he would get from a girl
that lived in a camper. And I was just like so
mesmerized about this because he was like, no, she's like got
like more crystals in this camper than like, like Living
stuff. You know what I mean?
Like it's a crystal Emporium and I was just like, oh my goodness.
I was so like fascinated, so he ended up giving me her
information and I ended up contacting her through Facebook
and at the time she was like, yeah, you know, we're looking to
open up a shop space but like most of our inventory is packed
away like I could send you some pictures while the pictures of
me was kind of dark. So she was like, look, this is
schedule a day and you can come over here and you can go through
everything and I'll just pray Miss you, as you go and like the
more you buy, I'll give you discount.
So I just showed up to this like mobile home park.
That is literally full of like RVS and stuff like people live
in them full time and went into this lady's camper.
This was like two years ago. That's who I just went and
scooped crystals from tonight. And I've got everybody on her
Facebook group, she's having a huge sale.
And I told her, I said I promote you like you're my sister
because she hooks it up, like it's crazy.
The piece that she sold me tonight.
If that was like, in a Shop say like in New Orleans, or even
here, it would have been a 200 dollar piece.
She sold it to me for $30. I was on the way quicker than
you could Pay Pal me. I was like, send me an invoice.
I want to pay for everything. So I know that we're good and
I'll come later because she lives in a camper for a long
time and literally was just mainly crystals and it was the
most energy Stone like a no sew over the winter.
It was too cold for them to stay in the camper because now they
have a baby and so they were staying with family for about a
month. Month until it got warmer.
And when they got back, there was like a leak in black mold
basically covered the entire camper while they were gone.
So they had to just get rid of it.
She's like there was no way that we could clean it or do
anything. They were like, well, I'm glad
that they were out of the camper when the black mold took over
the like there's a reason that I happen.
Like it did. Yeah.
So now they're in a house and they were on a moving sale.
So I've been adding people to her Facebook group.
I think I sent you an invite because she's got some amazing
things on there for like Like eight, twelve bucks and
literally they're like $75 at any Crystal Store or more?
Probably like she okay, I'll take a look, she's with it, the
crystal. So trust me, the gifts from the
earth, we may need to revisit, I don't have a problem with the
gifts from the earth. I just don't want to be abducted
and have my arms cut off and be thrown down a cliff.
All right? You just have him.
Drop him off to your husband at the food truck.
What an idea? Yeah, see why we need to live
near each other so that I can get these ideas from all the
time. And now, you're imagining
advice, you can give me in person.
This is what happens in one hour.
This could really get crazy. If there's a really dope gift
from the earth, like he's not just talking, he's got to show
you, he's got to show you what his Hobbies.
All right. I'm about to be like, are you a
show or what we're doing gifts that boy, we're done guess I
wear, I heard of The Matrix, testing me with everybody,
coming out with a cherry collection, like not just one
brand. There's like another noticing it
and I keep wanting to send you shit and then I don't send it to
you, should it because you want me to tell you right now.
They got and I are no heat in it, it's everywhere.
I turn everywhere I look and then I don't know what else to
say it's everywhere. If y'all sees Cherry stuff, send
it to my PO Box. I got you.
Love you. You want everybody sending it.
I mean, if you're going to purchase instead, it's my PO
Box. I mean, I wouldn't deny it, but
the Matrix is testing me with it's like spend money, spend
money. And I'm like, no, I'm not.
I don't need that. And they're like, let me text
you four times this week to tell you that the Cherry collection
is sewing. just so they told me earlier, they text me that say
that like They want you to do. I give them back their money.
I'm not, I haven't, I haven't, but it's a, it's definitely like
when you have something in your reality, it shows up so much
everywhere. Yeah, you have to keep on like
denying it denying, it denying it because if you give into it,
then it keeps on continuing to happen for you to get more and 3
to get different and do different and whatever.
Trust me. It's cry.
Really love your nails. I'm really loving them, too,
because they're my real nails. Are they really how do you do
that? He does this really cool thing
that I've never seen done before she calls it a rubber base.
She says, not gel its Rubber, and she won't put your nails in
water. She said, if you go to a nail
salon and they put your hands in a bowl of water to give you a
manicure and then put polish or Nails on after that she said
your nail. Absorb water.
It takes like six to 12 hours for them to actually completely
dry out. So the fact that there had been
putting instant polish or product onto your nail, there is
a chance that that moisture and retention makes your nails
brittle. It could create fungus, you
know, like a lot of stuff and so, I don't know.
Yeah. So when she said that, that
really made sense because she does a drama and I care where
she sprays it with this like stuff that kind of shreds your
cuticles a little bit but it's like Like, I don't know,
whatever, and then it dries and then she like, uses all these
tools. Like, I've just never seen
anyone do it. I got, she uses electric brush
and like brushes on them. And it's like, an experience
actually really cool because I like going to people that do
like unique things of their own, like yes, there's a million
places, you can get your nails done, but like this is like one
girl and how she does it, not how she was told to do it, you
know, and I like that. So I just started going To her
recommendation from a friend. And I'm involved in I like her I
really want to. So there's this school out here
and I'm going to told you about it but there's a cosmetology
school here and they have like a full Salon and Spa and in order
for the people to be able to graduate, they have to have
hours on the floor and they have to have clients in there,
whatever. So I went in there, once for a
haircut did a pretty good job and I went in there once too.
To get my nails done and an eyebrow wax and I liked it
there. The nails weren't like super
awesome, but they literally charge like for a full set of
acrylic dollars. It's like nails, it's like $14.
Like sometimes you'll be like, it's okay if my left pinky is a
little bit janky because I didn't spend 60 and you can tip
the students directly. And so, since it's so cheap,
I'll be like yours, 30 bucks and you so much, you know what I
mean? What happened to you?
Get your nails done? I haven't seen you, have your
nails done. I stopped for a little while
because I had had them on for so long.
Consistently that I just wanted to strengthen my nails.
And I now, my nails are at the point where been looking at
going and getting it done again but like I wanted to be taking
vitamins and doing things and I don't know.
I just, you know, I like I'm actually at my year anniversary
of no acrylic. Like, the last time I got
acrylic was like, mid-January 2022, like I got it at the
beginning and then I had it until mid-January and then I
stopped and I've just done shellac.
But now this stuff that she does, I really like.
So I don't know I missed having acrylics and I'll probably like
for my hands personally. I just feel like I feel like my
hands Look like the thumbs from Spy Kids and so I like haha.
So I like to have acrylics because it just makes my hands
look more ladylike. You're a fucking crackhead.
I cannot believe you just said that but now I have a story for
you. So my aunt married, this man.
They've been since I think getting a divorce, but anyways,
they were married for a long time.
So, he's like, my uncle. We used to go visit his family
up in New York and his family loaded.
Like his family got that money. Money money honey.
The antagonist from Spy Kids, like the bad guy whatever.
Yeah. The extended family of my uncle
like his cousin or something, dated that dude, like this gay
dude, dated that dude? From Spa kids and there's this
photo that my aunt sent to me one time and it's the dude from
Spy Kids. The other guy, his name's Bob
and Kim Kardashian's in the background at a table and like
this dress. So she's like, no biggie just
came Kate photobombing. This pic right now.
Like you know, like a family chat, she knew I'd get a kick
out of it, just because like, Spock kids, and all that's like
from my generation. And at that time, this was like,
probably I don't know, least 10 years ago like that was way
before I think, like Kim was ever with Kanye.
Like this is a long time ago so she wasn't that big then like,
it's right. So wherever they were, I don't
know. She's like some dinner in New
York like some big fancy something it's crazy but I just
thought, like how Wild is that? Because that dude Respond.
Kids like is like a staple to my childhood.
Sloop. Wasn't that his name, whatever.
Whatever is mean, was, I don't know.
I think it was. It was like, it was like floop
or some shit, pretty sure. Right now, shout out vibing with
sleazy. So, my friend is coming through
because he basically Was introduced to me from this girl.
She'll be. I've never met Shelby ever, but
she'll be contacted Sleazy and was like you should have this
girl on your podcast. I want to know more about her,
she's really cool. And so when he originally
contacted me, I was weird about it because like, it's a guy, I
don't know him, he wants me to come to his house like whatever.
So the Shelby girl was like, the biggest like supporter of that,
like really wanting me to go on to the podcast.
So she started a business. She makes candles and they're
like, spiritual can do. She puts crystals in them?
Um they're really cute and she sell them for like $10 or
something. So I told her I would get three
of them you know. I was actually going to use them
as gifts because I wanted them months ago within like every
time we tried to meet up at just has not worked out.
And so tonight I knew we had a record the podcast and like our
time frames didn't line up. So I texted him and was like,
could she drop those candles off to you?
And I'll just venmo her and he's like just texted me to say that
she's going to bring them over, that's awesome.
That's really fire because I definitely definitely want those
candles. You say, you talking about
candles, maybe have to light an incense why have it in since
going, but these ones have like crystals in them and like I
said, that way she made them they're cute and then like her
brain is like little spooky Candle Company or something.
Like it's cute. Like I think you'd really like
it. Like the way, the way they look
online, they're super cute. So I'm excited.
So I've been having this idea because so Brian has the food
truck and they get rid of so much fat off of the me.
Meat that I was researching turning that into candles so
that I'm not just throwing it away.
I can utilize it for business or whatever.
And so now I'm looking at learning how to like make
candles and I think that that would be so dope and candles
keeps on coming up ever since I like had that thought and
started researching it like Yankee Candle reached out to
Brian to give him samples like free samples for no reason and
everybody just Candles I used to make them but I would just
experiment with them and a lot of my candles were a fucking
fire hazard because I would put too many too much herbs, too
many spices. I had too much shit going on
with them 40. Like they're so fun to make
though they're easy to make all. Can I mean, I don't know about
what that just was wax. She just double melted like you
would chocolate Siamese, like really cool, but you can get an
Amazon kit to make him. I literally wouldn't be
interested in making candles. Probably if it wasn't for trying
to figure out, I just think like, if you have something
that's a huge profit loss, then like figure out how to make it
profitable in a different area. And so that's where I'm like,
all I know what to do with it would be making soap or candles.
And candles sounds way cooler than soap.
Well. That sounds interesting.
It sounds like you're pulling that from the olden days.
They're burning it on the fat. But I fucking Amish over here,
trying to make some beef at Campbell's like they insist.
Did you pull this out? The soul.
Blueprint, is this a film called to it?
You know what? I had an interesting
conversation thinking of like Soul blueprints, I had an
interesting conversation at dinner.
The other night with my husband because I was like, he said,
About ghosts or something. And I said, so do you believe?
Oh, I asked him. I said, is there any time like
time period, that you feel connected to that?
You feel like you've lived in that time period before, like,
this, is there anything and he goes, no, not really.
He's like, I've always liked Western times, but like, I don't
really believe that in reincarnation or that your souls
done anything before. And so it just like opened up
this like huge conversation because I was like, so, how do
you think that Like mediumship works and he's like, I have no
idea and so I learned that like he and I he just has a
completely different. He yeah.
He just doesn't believe in the anything in anything like that.
Anything happens. But he, his mom was Wicca when
he was growing up. And so she was a very specific
like kind of magic and she never Focused on what happened like
when people die or anything, and they had a haunted house.
So when he thinks of death, he thinks of like - ghosts and
that's it. A lot of people only are
entertaining, the idea of an Earthbound spirit.
I don't work with our fans here. It's like if you're trapped
here, don't come to me. Yeah, I agree hormone shit like,
I don't know. Like that's why I really heavily
work with my protector guy because like, I don't, I don't
fuck with that. Like, if I go somewhere and it's
haunted, I can acknowledge that it's haunted with Without
needing to acknowledge everything that's going on.
I could see are like I can be there like I'm Not Afraid like
are not that. I would be afraid but it's like
they're I'm not afraid they're going to like Do something to me
or you know I mean some Earthbound Spirits like a
fucking around and you probably shouldn't fuck around with them,
you know what I mean? Like right can be mean and I
think sometimes people do get scarred from that experience or
being around it without really understanding what's happening
to can be scary, but I definitely think that opening up
the door to spirituality just means like inviting in the
spirits that you want to work with and setting that intention
and then you're good. I have so much advice in so much
pain in because I think that people dabble and all kinds of
shit when they're trying to How do I say this?
I don't think that there's enough conversations about the
different kinds of energies when people pass away and how they're
different kinds of spirits, and the kinds of energies that we
connect with. In a mediumship reading is very
different than ghosts or like energies that are stuck in this
Physical Realm and can't get out of.
Looks like the energy Loop that they're in.
And so I think that when people are starting to dabble in like
wanting to be able to talk with Spirits or they you know
whatever I think that they opened the door to getting
themselves into shit that they shouldn't get into because
they're they don't educate themselves first on just
different levels of things. I mean, people don't educate
themself on hardly anything like they want.
I don't know, tell them how to do it.
I mean I don't I don't think that everyone that we're honest.
I don't want to word this. I think everyone is psychic but
not everyone is a medium. Like not everyone is going to be
able to see Spirit, talk to Spirit.
And actually be able to communicate with spirits that
have passed on, but you can can talk to Spirit as in your own
Spirit guides your own spirit. Leave your own spiritual guides
your own spiritual deities. Like so when I say Spirit like
there's a fine line between like what levels like you're saying,
you can you can work with like not everyone's going to be able
to talk to their dead grandmother and get a clear
message. But then there is people that
will be able to without actually being a medium for other people.
Like you may be able to connect with your grandmother or your
mother or someone that's close to you.
But that doesn't mean you're going to pull through someone
else's family member. So that's why I'm saying I
believe everyone's psychic like You can get the messages that
are meant for you from the ancestors or the people that are
meant for you, but as far as like channeling for someone
else. So recently, you know, I've had
different people and I don't think that there's any intention
of like ill-will behind it but just kind of bombarding me with
random messages that they say that they got for me or
whatever. And I'm just wanted to tell all
of you all, like I know some people are developing and
they're excited and whatever, but if you're not in a direct
relationship to me as In like you're not on the patreon, I
don't really know who you are. I don't I don't follow you.
I don't really talk to you. Do not send me a message from
spirit because you're working in your ego.
You're trying to show me that you have gifts and I don't
really care. The only people that I'm
emotionally invested in their spiritual journey is the people
that I'm working with directly on the patreon at any level
doesn't matter. If it's the the least for the
most, it's the same amount of intention that these are my
people. They're investing in themselves.
If they're investing in me and I'm going to show us, I don't
have this mentality of like, give me money or don't talk to
me, but I do have this mentality.
As I didn't ask you for the message, you don't have
permission to give me a message. And I know, and I promise you
that my Spirit guides did not come to you with a message.
For me, you may have watched and speculated your own message from
what I put on the Internet or your own personal downloads
about that. But that doesn't mean that came
from my Spirit guides. Maybe your Spirit guides gave
you some information because You know, it's nice to feel called
to someone but there's a fine line between filling called and
sharing your own experience. Then being invasive and trying
to tap into mine Angie and my ancestors.
And what I find is a lot of people who aren't really tapped
in want to use very generalized, like, oh, you probably know who
that is or you probably know what this means.
That's fishing. You either have evidence that,
you know, what it is, or you don't, you have nothing and you
need to keep it to yourself. And I just think that At just
everyone listening. Don't be afraid to give a
message to someone but just say, hey, do you mind if I pull a
card for you? Hey, do you mind if I give you a
message and then they're going to occur exclusively Express?
Yes or no. And I just think that that's
what scammers do they bombard you with regurgitating messages
and things that make people feel like they're special.
I don't feel special when someone's trying to be invasive
in my energy and I already know that my Spirit guides will tell
you false information to confuse you further third.
Going to actually give you the real information and I've had
plenty of readings where I'm giving someone permission and
spirit still being skeptical about relating that through them
because they're like, no, we will talk about that later like
we, you know what I mean? So I'm like, you know, I just
know like that. A lot of people when they're
beginning and they're alone, they don't realize that there's
ethics that there's boundaries that there's expectations, when
giving messages, but always ask for permission.
I always say a blessing and don't just message someone
randomly without asking for permission.
Any time I've ever had a random message for someone.
I write them to get their consent before even channeling
it any further because that's invasive.
And that's not fair to the person. see and I yes on that
the Reading part, but I also feel the same about when people
continuously reach out to me and have questions and, you know, at
some point the message of like, But only if, like, you have the
time for me, it gets frustrating, because then I feel
guilty for like, I mean, I do have the time to answer this
question right now, but like every day, I don't want to be
getting a message with you asking me a question.
When, like I've told you that I have a service, if you have
questions for me where like, I will give you my time and like,
sit down and talk to you. And I also have patreon where I
like give advice on the things that you keep asking about.
And I keep telling you that this is available and So at some
point like I also don't want to be like fuck you pay me, you
know what I mean? Like because I think that's so
rude but I also think that it's rude that you know that this is
what I do as a business and what I offer and I've already given
free advice and I put so much free content out and I do so
many free Collective readings and whatever and you still want
me to give you more individually.
That is so frustrating and it's something that I'm so
uncomfortable. Because I don't ever want
somebody to feel like I'm not going to talk to you, if you
don't pay me. But at the same time, like,
These are Services. I mean it's kind of like when
you're venting to your hairdresser, or your nail
dresser or no person, or whatever like you're paying
them, they're listening because you're paying them, apply that
knowledge and wisdom to every aspect of your life.
Yes, you can have the opportunity to develop a deeper
connection with a person, but that is upon receipt of an
energy exchange that. You believe in this person, when
you sign up for my patreon, I get excited because I'm like,
wow. Wow, this person is ready to
show up for themselves. It's not just open-ended
questions and the DMS or whatever it's like, OK, they're
going to take things seriously and they're ready to expand.
Then I know your name, then I see your email then, I know who
you are. Then I see you in my Discord.
Then I'll see you on my social media, then I have an emotional
connection to you. So, yes, our Tuesday, when
you're having a bad day, you reach out and I'm there for you.
It's not about like the constant need For attention is what I
feel like it is it's like these people want to feel special
because you're talking to them in a sense of like reading their
whole life story and giving them advice and all of that it's just
like I'm not you don't know me. Like I know that you may think
that you have great and good intentions with this
conversation but it's not. It just shows me that you think
well per diems are open. She's accessible.
I know she has all this other stuff going on, but this is what
I want. And it just trunks all the
fucking other things, and it's not about paying me.
I could literally care less, because, I know we both have
talked about, like, we encourage people to sign up for patreon,
where they're going to get a lot more value than buying just one
expensive reading and not knowing what hot Asian?
Like we've expressed that. Like I have literally told
people when they need to downgrade or whatever because of
now, it's time to incorporate now, it's time to reflect.
Now it's time to use what I've taught you the last 30 months to
to elevate your life. You I can't walk it for you.
I'm holding your hand the whole time.
You don't know where your blind spots are.
So you have to go in and out of waves of like constant support
to, you know, just going back to what you're doing.
And I think so many people don't realize that it's not about the
energy exchange, it's about the intention.
You've told the universe, this is worth it to me, because I'm
putting money in my hard energy and effort into it.
When you just DM me that shows you on social media.
And you, you're going to DM somebody about a freaking
everything. Anything, you know what I mean?
Like to say the date, baby. I'm not here to sell you,
anything? You know where to find me.
And when you're ready, sign up for what you're ready for, but
obviously you ain't ready. Well, it also takes time and
energy away from the people who are signed up for mentorship.
Who are, you know, and like actually taking the energy to
put something towards themselves with the And being given to
them, not just out here, I don't know.
It's it's expecting shit for free and it just, it really
bothers me and, you know, people always hear what we say on here.
And then they go, was that about me?
And like if the shoe fits, if you feel like it's about you,
it's probably about you. I mean, as I personally know
what it's like to feel alone on the journey, but that's why I
got on apps like meet up and whatever and And classes and
found Zoom calls and found teachers, like, we can't lead
you to all the answers. If you're not willing to do a
little research yourself, like just the facts, Yeah and yeah I
just feel like I do so much on like with people that do
mentorship and it's literally cheaper for you to do mentorship
than it is free to get one full reading with me and you get two
readings a month and then everything else that's on
patreon, you know what I mean? Like, it's, I've already made it
so that like it's not about the money thing.
You get more for it, but just give that energy exchange back
where, like, you messaging all the time and like that being
what I'm doing and me. Researching and finding things
for you or me, helping you with, you know, whatever and tell you
how to apply your reading to your life.
Where like, that's worth my energy to and I don't think that
anyone who's really a fan or like a friend or a client or
whatever. I don't think like any of that's
really directed towards anyone personal.
I know, like, some people might take it personal but it's not
like, that's not feel like you have to be up on the patreon to
message me know. But what I do feel like is if
you've got more than Two questions that are personal,
like, you could literally Google what the moon in cancer means or
Saturn in Aquarius means, like, you could look up a lot of the
things that people ask me, but they choose not to like what's
medium shit, what's this, you know what I mean?
Like, so that's where I start, drawing.
The line of like this gets on my fucking nerves.
I know some people, like maybe they don't know what the patreon
means. So I kind of, you know, lead
them to that. But like at the end of the day,
I just think that a lot of people want stuff for free, like
it, whether it's in the promotion, music industry,
wherever people just want free beats, they want free pictures.
I want free this free that, like, I like doing trades with
people. Like, I'm so cool.
Doing trades. Like anyone listening that has a
service or art or whatever DMV. I'm always open to try.
So I know some people think, like, that's a weird or
degrading question, but like, I'm always open to trading card
decks training Start trading reading shredding whatever.
So like if you got something and you think that I might like it
DMV and I totally will be open to it because you've got gifts
from the earth. You just heard county is call me
baby cause I'll be ready. And the gifts from the earth is
literally this podcast, this connection Mercury's in
retrograde and he has been so fucking nice to us.
Everything has been so aligned, everything's been actually spot
on. So when you act nice and you
act, right? Right.
The universe rewards you all and I just want everyone to know
that. It's not about the money.
It's about your intention. If you're afraid to invest in
yourself, you're telling the Universe, I ain't shit.
I ain't worth it. I'm not this, I'm not that.
That's why you're not getting results because you're not
investing in yourself. Whether it's a class, I make
over a card deck, a gym membership, I don't care what it
is. Do it, do those things?
Like whether or not you join the patreon being more?
Dedicated to yourself your own personal growth and putting
money towards things that matter not Material, not physical.
Like, if you can get your nails done, then you can invest in
patreon. Or if you do this, you can do
that. Like, that's the thing is like
spirit opens the doors for you. When you tell the Universe, I
deserve this. I'm worth this, I'm worth,
whatever it is the time the energy, you know?
The abundance like I'm worth it and that's when things come to
you, that's when doors open for you.
I just love listening to you and your inspirational mantras when
you just go off, on all the listeners.
And just, I'm just like them inspired mothering you all,
because we all need a mom sometimes, even if we don't have
one, oh my God! Polly Pocket mom Edition.
Oh no, I can't. Wait.
Okay, I can't wait because we're going to absolutely have to do a
merge line, where it's Polly Pocket, and then each Edition
that I've ever mentioned on the podcast, because I'm all like
that. That's my shit.
Well, this is Polly Pocket. Ready to go to bed addition and
I love troll. I think you all are amazing.
I know that a lot of people are stepping out of their comfort
zone. I know a lot of people are new
to the podcast, new to our communities.
And we just want you all to know that we love you all.
We really do. Appreciate the fact that you see
value in what we say and like our content and like we don't We
don't forget about that like we are extremely humble when it
comes to me, talk a lot of shit. But like that's because 97
people a day or like hey do you mind us doing this for free when
I know you do it for a business but like and I know you don't
know me and I know I've never done nothing for you, but do you
care? Would you care?
I mean, I know I'm a single mom and like I have seven kids and I
just want to know, I need a reading, can I get one from you?
And I've had messages very similar to that and they guilt
tripped. You and they throw in the Gill
and they project. And they A do the sphere thing
and then they'll be like, yeah, I just been suicidal and I just
really don't know who to turn to and like, I understand that like
sometimes maybe you do need someone, but at the end of the
day, it's your delivery with it. It's your delivery.
It's your projections. It's like you owe me something
because you exist that turns me off from it like granted, if you
are suicidal, my DMs are open. Like, I will, you know, do what
I can, but don't come to me in a sense of like, you got something
I want. So I'm going to use this.
This fear-mongering energy to get what I want because I use it
as a weapon. Yeah.
Like I can read that engine. Like I feel like I know when
someone's genuine and there, you know, depression or questions or
whatever and like and I see that and I answer that.
So like if it's actually genuine it's a little different than
just the daily. Hey girl.
Messages. It's really rough.
Can you please pull a card for me?
Yeah but yeah but we love about perfectly because a lot of times
I find that you end up explaining the way that I mean
for things to come out when they come out and it's hard for me
too sometimes I feel like articulate things the way that I
mean to because it always comes out way Ruder than I expect but
I'm like in my head I'm thinking say it nicely and like this is
yeah. Yeah, so there you go.
Well I personally think that everyone that actually is made
it this far in our podcast is already on the way up.
Like I'm so biased to your all's Journey because I'm like no
those are my people like Angry. See the fucking Vision.
Those are the people that matter and you know we're still talking
about doing that Retreat and spring 2024.
Like the thing about that is like we're not going to charge
you all for what we're teaching and what we're doing.
Like we're basically you got to get Are you got to transport
yourself there? You got to have sort of stay
like you know what I mean? Like it will be arranged
probably that the place that we get will be big enough for
people to stay there and then that will be the money applied.
But like what we're doing is going to be giving back to
everyone, like it's going to be like a free seminar a free
Retreat like but when we say free like you're paying for your
own food, you're paying for where you sleep in your pain,
how you get there and that's that.
So I think that's going to be really cool for people to
actually meet us in person, feel the energy, NGC like it really
isn't about money. It really is about Community for
me personally and I know that a lot of people around us maybe
don't have a lot of money. So we don't ever want you all to
think like, oh my God, I can't write them and share this
because I'm not on their Patron. That's not it.
It's like when you write me in the first sentences, it's like
well, my brother just died. And my mom got AIDS and my
cousin's on crack. And I mean, like that's where we
just gotta like, like fuck lot mama got Got AIDS with the guilt
trip. Leave me alone like that song.
Your mom is stories to yourself alone.
No, I'm actually, so excited about that Retreat idea.
And all the things that we've just talked about behind the
scenes that you and I have been for Wishin and I just love it
all wait till we. I can't wait till our powers are
combined in person. I know I'm really excited for
what's going to come when we do meet in person because I do
think that it's going to be a lot of ideas and just being able
to make tick-tocks and like it would just be cool for us to be
able to be around each other and just bounce ideas.
Yeah, I agree. All right.
Well, should I let you go to sleep?
I'm going to make a grilled cheese.
And I'm hoping the bread doesn't have mold on it.
So everybody who I hope that for you too gross.
What do you mean gross? Like moldy ass breath, do you
miss me with that? You know, my mom used to do when
she's had mold in the fridge should be like, oh, it's fine.
You just cut off the piece that has mold and like, I simply
could never, it's okay. Yeah, you do that.
So, my mom had some cheese at her house and like, only like
one or two pieces had mold on their side.
With the tooth of it. Yeah, I've done it.
I've done it, baby. You never know.
You never know, baby. You gotta do know, you do know,
you saw the morning. Hopefully, this bread is hitting
different, great, kind of Brothers, it sourdough.
So yeah, maybe because it's already sour.
Hopefully, they did because I got cheese and I'm ready.
But we love you all, and we hope that everyone is living their
most prosperous and best 2023 and we will be back on
Wednesday. I