Welcome to Fucking Candy Land, hosted by Rampage and Gemini.
Welcome back to Candy Land. We are here and we are so
excited because we had a surprise for you all, but now
it's being extended. We did and like divine timing,
right, like we had to reschedule it because I wasn't feeling well
and then turned out that the surprise, you know, other person
involved in the surprise needed to extend it to.
So it worked out. Yeah.
And what I really like about how we work is Gemini is the person.
It's like, I'm just going to push through even though I'm on
my deathbed and I'm like, no, I'm going to take a nap, Let's
reschedule it. And so before she even replied
about, like, I was like, let's just reschedule.
I texted the guest and the guest was like, wow, this makes so
much sense because I feel off today.
So it's just really funny because Gemini was like, I'm
going to push through even though I don't feel good.
And I was like, no, not. It's so good that we didn't
record because that night, like I had such a bad fever.
I was losing my voice. Brian kept, Brian was like super
concerned and kept waking me up throughout the night.
And like, taking the blanket off of me and was like, you're too
hot to have a blanket on. And I was like, what?
I'm so cold. So you know it happened for a
reason. I feel like with Mercury
retrograde, so many things for other people are like not going
to plan. Like this morning several people
like texted me and like one person had to cancel their whole
trip, another person totaled their car like and it just makes
me really happy that like I don't go out at night anymore.
Like after 9:00, your girl's in the house Speaking of things
being cancelled. So you remember that trip that I
was going to go on for content with other with other girls?
Yeah. So.
And then I was like, I'm not going to do it.
Like it just it doesn't make sense for me to do it.
They ended up rescheduling it anyways and had I stressed
myself out trying to make something happen that I knew I
wasn't going to be able to make happen, I'd have been stressed
the last month and a half trying to push through and make
something happen. That in the end didn't happen
anyways, I feel. Like traveling?
Getting married, doing anything like changing during Mercury
retrograde is just like frowned upon and so many people try to
push through and do like the craziest things.
And with Saturn, also in retrograde, like don't sign any
contracts, don't get a lease, don't move, Like don't do
anything that's logistically not making sense just because your
human mind is like, we should do this.
Trying to force yourself into situations and positions that
like you know that you shouldn't be in but you're like, but I
have to be there. I'm real big on protecting my
piece and just being like, no, I'm not coming like quickly,
quickly after invited. I'm like, actually I'm not going
to come. I already know.
You know what I was I was thinking about the other day and
I who was I talking to? I I was talking to somebody
about the dynamic that you and I have and I was laughing at the
fact that like, you know, people always have their assumptions
about you and I, right? And there's like this
predetermination that people have that like, I'm more
assertive than you are or something like that.
And what makes me laugh is that the things that make me
uncomfortable to, like, communicate about like
rescheduling or, you know, like something coming through and me
being like, this doesn't make any sense.
Why would we do this? This isn't making sense.
And I don't want to ruffle feathers.
You're the one who gets like in the cracks of things and you're
like, listen, this doesn't make any sense.
Why would I be doing this? Or like, this really doesn't
align with us right now. But thank you so much.
And like, I seem to let anything that's a direct kind of
confrontation about things or I feel like could disappoint
somebody in some way. I'm like, ooh, I better back
off. And you're like, absolutely not.
The bowl is coming. Let's face it, head on.
I am extremely assertive and like really dominant and I think
that's why a lot of people tread lightly around me like they
don't. Come for me if they're really
not ready to handle what I have to offer, whether that's like in
business or in friendships or in relationships.
But I just really know what I want.
And it's funny that you use the bull reference because that's my
Zodiac and I do feel like most of the time I just face
everything head on, like whether it is something to do like with.
A legal matter or like a personal matter, I address it
the same way and I take my emotions out of it because I
don't want to be emotionally charged, making decisions from
like 17 year old me's mind or something like that.
I tend to emotionally process things and then try to figure
out how to what's the word like when you're like logic.
Like I I try to like logic out what I'm going to do.
And I definitely emotionally think about things.
And I also strategize before I have conversations.
And that's come from years of just being told that I'm a bitch
when I communicate. And so I'm always like, let me
make sure that I'm like, trying to say it in a way that
everybody's going to understand. But really I should just find
I'm. I'm trying to find my middle
ground right now of not being like seeming like I'm being a
raging bitch, but also not having to pick and think about
every little thing before I have a conversation.
I just think because communication was my major.
And my degree in college that I learned a lot of those like
social dynamics where like a lot of people cave under that
pressure. I know for sure I could get on a
stage and talk to 20,000 people and not stutter or miss a beat.
And I wouldn't even write what I was going to say.
I would just channel it. And I just think that like
building that confidence in something that like.
College is uncomfortable. And a lot of people, once it
starts getting hard, they stop going, you know, because no
one's forcing you to go. No one's like, okay now, little
Timmy, I'm going to hold your hand the whole time.
Your teachers, like, I don't care if you ever come to class,
talk to you later, you know? And so being in that position
where I had to do things I didn't want to do, I think it's
taught me a lot about just. Facing that problem head on.
Because if you go home and you're like none of swords
laying in bed, worried about it, you're really manifesting it to
be more than it needs to be. And I know we've had
conversations in the past where you're like, I thought you would
be mad and I'm like, I don't even care at all.
Not one part of me cares and you're like, really?
I'm so relieved. It's because you went home, not
a sword's energy. It was like overthinking it, and
that's like a Gemini trait with Mercury.
Being your ruler is like overthinking the process when
most the time if you just put it out on the table, people are
going to be a lot more receptive and respect that assertiveness
if you do it in the right tone and you're not emotionally
driven. I work, I'm.
I'm working really hard on it. I I've talked to you a lot about
how since we started the podcast, my communication is a
lot different than it was when we very first started.
I was very uncomfortable with even though I had coven, I was
very uncomfortable with having a conversation where we have to be
ping ponging back and forth. And there will be a lot of times
that I would pause and I didn't really know how to say what I
wanted to say. And a big part of that was, was,
I think, having a concern that I would say something in a way
that you didn't like, or I would say something that you didn't
like. And I used to be nervous about
things like making you upset or making you mad.
And now I'm not like, I used to be nervous that I would say
something and you'd be like, well, fuck you, we're not
friends anymore. I'm done with the podcast.
I'm deleting all the episodes and now I just can't see.
Even if we had a disagreement, which we haven't, I just can't
see it being some kind of disagreement where we just don't
talk it through. My favorite thing about our
friendship journey is like. How many people have been on the
opposite team trying to like, come between us and they're
like, aren't you mad that Paige is the captain of the team and
you're like, no, it's fine, I'm the star player and they're
like, but she's the captain. You're like, but I'm the star
player. And they're like, you're not mad
that she's the captain and you're like, I'm the star
player. And like, no one understands
that honestly. I have a lot of like skills on
one side of our spectrum, but like without you I wouldn't have
known what an RSS code is and all this stuff that you need to
like start a podcast. I mean, clearly I could have
done the research and done the work and made it happen, but I
think that the difference between a lot of people and
their goals is they want to always be on top.
And I don't really feel that way.
Like in any dynamic, I want people who feel equal.
Are like equally seen and supported.
And that's why I like in the past I let people into my
community to support them, that like, don't even support
themselves. You know what I mean?
And that's where I have to draw the line.
It's like if you're not doing the work on your end of the
spectrum, it doesn't fucking matter what the captain is doing
or saying, because you're not going to win that game.
Something that I had recognized, I was having a conversation with
somebody that she used to be a well, she is a client, but we've
just had like this longstanding friendship too.
And before I started doing the mentorship, I had conversations
with her about mentorship because she had been like with
me as I was growing all of this. And and so when that whole thing
happened inside of the community, she was in mentorship
at the time and she saw everything that kind of
happened. And between you and I, she
listens to the podcast. But she was first hand like in
the chat. And we were having a
conversation I think like two or three weeks ago.
And I was telling her like, how much I don't give a fuck, while
at the same time like I don't give a fuck about those people
anymore, necessarily. But I felt like I had this like
trust issue, an issue rebounding after that happened because I
was no longer feeling the same way about the community.
Because all of a sudden I felt like, well, I feel unsafe and
misunderstood by people who were like learning things from me.
And I felt like something had been taken from me.
And I was realizing how kind of unfair that is for people who
have stayed loyal and are giving that connection and are here,
like still wanting to learn and still wanting to be poured into
and what not. And ever since I realized that,
I've really been shifting my mindset about that whole
experience that you and I went through.
And I really am taking that as such a learning experience and
recognizing energy. Because there are situations now
like you know we'll text about something or something will come
up upper or I'll just have a feeling or you will and we'll be
like this really feels like that over here and we're going to
avert it. Like this really feels like that
pattern trying to catch us back up and this is the kind of like
boundary I need to have. What do you think about you know
what's your opinion on this? OK you feel the same thing.
Cool. And it's it makes me feel like
and I'm pouring back in that same energy now and that
community is rebuilding itself and the strength and I feel like
there's so much more growth and opportunity now because of that.
Oh yeah. And honestly, I think that that
was more of like a detour in going back into that limited
mindset of like, well, I can't trust people or no new friends
or I'm just going to stick to the same patterns and cycles
that I like, and I'm going to reject the patterns and the
cycles that are difficult. And honestly?
If anything, it really solidified the foundation.
Kind of like when you're pouring cement, you've got to kind of
like brush it and make it like even in every area.
Just because you poured cement doesn't mean it's going to be
even or solid, you know what I mean?
So I feel like a lot of that was like, how solid is your
foundation? And is this going to deteriorate
like your progress? Because in the past, I would
have wanted to ruin those people's lives, like I would
have not slept until they were out on the street, broken,
miserable. But then I realized they're
already broken, miserable. So what more, what more could
really happen here? You know, like.
I will never in my life feel like I need to be affordable for
everyone. And I think before that
experience there was like, this part of me that was like, well,
maybe I owe something to the universe to offer this where
everyone has access. But if anything, I think it made
me realize that, like, you can hate from outside the club, but
you can't even get in. And that's that.
Oh, shit. As you were talking, I was oh, I
was thinking about how I wonder if things would have been any
different if you and I hadn't actually met in person and been
inside of a situation where there was literally
confrontation in front of our faces.
Because what that experience did is that showed both of us how we
respond inside of hostile situations, situations where our
safety is at risk, situation, you know, like that was a
legitimate thing that we went through meeting for the first
time and that solidified a friendship too.
Because I know how you move, I know what to expect from you.
I know how you react and what your thought processes are.
And in turn, you know the same about me too.
So when someone says that you handle situations a certain way,
or that you say certain things or whatever, I know right off
the bat I've seen her handle worse.
And that's not any part of her processing mechanisms.
My favorite thing is like, I think that term, like, not my
circus, not my monkey, kind of comes to mind.
But it was our circus. They just weren't.
Really in the act, like they weren't main character energy.
And I feel like I want everyone that I rock with to feel like
the main character. I don't want people to feel like
their sideline or their Assad friend or they're not good
enough. And if you feel that way, that's
a personal problem. That's not coming from me.
That's not coming from you. I've never once set everyone
down and been like, now I'm the leader and you're going to
listen to me like I understand that people have free will.
And you outgrow communities. You outgrow circles.
You outgrow mentors. And teachers.
And there's a beautiful saying that's like when you outro the
mentor, that means it's time for you to become the teacher.
And I've learned this even just in spiritual communities locally
that no matter what, if you never got out of that high
school mentality, then you're going to continue that in your
adult life and mean girl energy. Isn't it?
And you will never turn me into something or villainize me,
because that's just not who I am.
And I think that a lot of what was taught there is that you
can't please everyone. And like, you're not everyone's
cup of tea. But even though they want to
drink the tea, they may still not like it, you know what I
mean? Like they're still trying to sit
the. The T but they deep down had
some type of resentment or anger that was like aside from us, and
I think about it regularly on how much my business has
elevated since then. Just by like upping my
protection and my words and my banishing like I just did a full
return to sender like every other week, baby, we are sending
that crusty but energy back to whoever and I don't even care
about. Specific people.
It's just the world as a whole. If you are struggling or you're
in lower vibration, it's natural to be envious or jealous of
people who have elevated past that.
Like if you grew up in the mud and you see someone get out of
the mud. Most of the time, just like
rappers, it's people from their hometown that shoot them that,
you know what I mean? It's their best friend, it's
their brother, it's someone that they've put their life and name
on the line for that ends up killing them.
And I just don't got time for that.
Like I don't have time for that energy in my circle, so.
I think that just taught me a lot about not giving everyone
access to the club, not giving everyone access.
And that doesn't make you a mean girl.
It makes you like Stern and in your power to be like, you know
what? I don't need 45 people in this
circle to feel like It's a big circle.
There can be four people who really support me and I'm going
to get a lot further. Maybe there was only there's
only four directions. I don't need 45 people to
solidify my spiritual abilities or to hike me up and blow gas
and smoke up my ass all day. Like, I don't care.
I don't even want people that feel that way.
You know what I mean? Like they're too much support
can be fake. Just from the jump, yeah, I get
what you're saying. I feel like we've learned the
difference between actual, like support and being appreciated
and having smoke blown up our asses.
And we also, I feel like again with the boundaries thing,
because what you're saying, yeah, I used to have the same
mental thought processes. And so I would keep people that
weren't, you know, paying for mentorship or weren't even like
energetically really compensating what not
compensating, but like returning that energy.
And I would have them still participating in things, doing
things for free, because I need to be available because like,
you're needing something and when people are actually wanting
to find energy, find finance, abundance in whatever way.
And share that with you, they will.
If somebody wants to go and get their hair done and they're
going to find the however many dollars it is for them to go get
their hair done. If they need new tires, if they
need something done, you're going to prioritize that and
you're going to end up making that happen.
Whether that be the financial way, you're doing some kind of
different energy exchange, you're doing a trade in
something, you will find a way to make that a priority and make
people feel fulfilled. And so I no longer.
We started our new tears after that and I was telling Brian
last night, I was like another fucking person is on our spell
work tier. I said, I remember when we
talked about doing that and I was nervous if even one person
was going to sign up and I was like, and now we have multiple
people doing our spell, working, you know, monthly with us and
getting all kinds of crazy fucking energy.
And those are the people who who actually are, like putting into,
like, the mentorship and the spell work and stuff like
actually putting into that are the people who ask for the least
and are just like you're worth all of this.
Like, you guys are doing so much for us.
Thank you so much. Every single day there's a
message about, you know, you and Paige, this and oh, my gosh, you
gave me this reading over here. And then Paige just did my birth
chart and this keeps on coming up in my birth chart.
No, you know, it makes total sense.
And all it does, every, every outside obstacle, I feel like
all it does is push us closer together inside of our bubble.
And I'm like, oh, you're the person that I can trust.
Well, the freaks are coming out. I feel like the days of giving
spiritual mentors and teachers bread crumbs is fucking over.
Like that's over. And if you're not putting in the
work, I don't care. What you're doing, I don't want
you as a client. I don't want you in my life.
Like, if you're not going to put in the work on your own time,
I'm not here to save you. And so many people will be up
shit Creek without a paddle and then they're mad at everybody
because they're in the boat with their paddles.
But my boat has a motor baby, and I don't need you to paddle
me and I don't need you to coddle me.
And I think that's where people are like.
Gemini makes Paige mean no y'all, just didn't know rampage
because I was trying to like put put her like to bed early so she
didn't get grumpy or angry. But like at the end of the day,
I don't have any patience for. The lack of accountability that
I see in the world and especially in men like that is
the worst place that I see. Lack of accountability.
Like they're blaming their mom, their third grade teacher, their
dad didn't take them to Disney World and they're secretly a
Viking. I don't know.
It's just like leave me out of it.
And I think that that's where. A lot of my power was being
given away, was trying to serve too many masters or include too
many people. And you know the sad thing is is
like a dog's going to be loyal to someone that beats the shit
out of them still. And I just not doing that like
I'm not your metaphorically like.
Or your I'm not like your punching bag, you know what I
mean? I'm here to be a leader, a
spiritual leader, and that's what I'm going to do.
I'm going to lead and I'm going to make sure that what I'm
leading people towards has potency and has.
Validity. I don't have time for false
gurus or my spell works better than hers or I do this and she
does that, but mine's better. I do not care.
I just know for a fact that we started the power circle back in
January and there's about 14 people on my timeline that all
of a sudden have a full moon circle.
Or we started the podcast a year and a half ago and now there's
fourteen people on my timeline that got a spiritual podcast
that clearly stole Gemini's logo at the same time for their
podcast. It's like.
Get a grit, Get a life. You're never going to be able to
do it like I'm doing it, like Gemini's doing it, And you can
take tidbits and you can take notes, but you should want to
put your own spin on it. Like I never follow a recipe to
a tea period. Oh my God.
Listen, we see it. We see promo that is literally
the exact same promo that we word for word.
Just the date has been changed. I mean, I did have my logo for
Coven completely stolen, but the nice thing when you have
original ideas is you can just come up with new shit.
So I just never launched that logo and came up with a brand
new logo. People are out here really
fucking wild in these streets and yeah, it's just unfortunate.
I. Just don't even care like.
The thing about being the person with the recipe is like, you
don't have the same flavor. You can get all the same
ingredients, which you're not going to cook it down the same.
And that's cool with me. Like, I don't need to be like.
You're jockeying my style or you want to be like me because I
don't care. And as a leader and a spiritual
leader, of course people are going to want to take what
you're doing and try to make it their own, but you'll never be
able to do it the same. And that's why when I see people
literally word for word trying to do what I'm doing or what we
are doing as a unit. It does not matter to me because
I don't ride the coattails of people.
I already have my seat at the table, I've already got what I
need, and I don't need any outside source of validation to
continue. If you take an idea, we just
level up from that. If you do what I do, I'm doing
it different and it doesn't have to me like.
In a mean way or that I'm doing it better, I'm doing it
different. And my unique, energetic
blueprint is different than yours.
And you can lead your own cult, but you're not going to lead it
Like Gemini's leading it because she's the cult leader.
Thank you for throwing that in there.
Yes, I I had a point that I wanted to make and then I
completely lost my train of thought while you were talking.
She's following all this sauce and she's trying to make her own
recipe. Y'all.
No. I'm kidding.
It's crazy, though, because the podcast really has brought us so
close and, like, our friendship is so, like, unwavering.
Just like a candle flickers in the wind but it doesn't go out.
Like, you can keep blowing on it and blowing on it, but you're
only making that flame bigger, Period.
I remember what I wanted to say. I wanted to say that I feel like
we have this kind of similar topic that comes up a lot when
we talk and it's come up a lot like since the very first
season. And I feel like it's because
these are the things that are our everyday things that
everybody goes through, right? People.
Whatever status that you are, whatever you're doing, trying to
manipulate you and giving you some stank ass energy and
projecting on you. Whether they're meaning to or
not and discussing what you were talking about about the audacity
of men working back at the office, I had completely
forgotten about the amount of men in the fucking world who
just thinks that they can do anything that they want to talk
to anybody the way that they want to.
Women specifically. And the office that I work at,
it's myself. One of the owners is a woman,
and then one of the owners is her husband and myself and my
female boss. We get men in the office who are
short, inconsiderate, rude, argumentative.
We get men who their wives have to sign cancellation policies
like they'll have an appointment, the wife will have
an appointment and sign a cancellation policy.
No, show the appointment and get charged and their husband will
call the office and yell at me for their wife.
And to the point now that I'm like, oh, I'm, I'm so sorry,
Office policy. I can't discuss this account
with anybody but the person. Oh, yeah, I I know you're their
spouse, but there's no way for me to verify that I can't have
this conversation with you. And when my male boss comes up,
they're always kind, considerate, too impatient with
them. Oh, yeah, no, you know, I know
how it is running a business and yada yada.
And there it used to really pissed me off.
Like, I used to really take it personal and be like the
disrespect. And now I just laugh.
I just like giggle behind the scenes and having that shift of
energy and the way that I respond also changes how my
bosses respond inside of things. And it makes, you know, my both
bosses know that, like, I can handle it because even if I'm
annoyed, it's not going to ruin my day.
Whereas before it probably made them feel on edge of like, oh
shit, they're going to talk to Diana this way and we have to
let go in there. And you know what I mean.
I personally feel like men have so many limitations within their
emotional system because men have been taught to suppress
emotion that vulnerability means.
Weakness or that showing emotion means that you're not manly or
that you're not a leader. But The thing is, I personally
love a well-rounded person that can be like I overreacted, that
can address things in a calm manner, Like even like what?
Like a sensitive manner be sensitive to the other person.
Like. The person on the phone didn't
miss the appointment, you know what I mean?
Like, I didn't create the issue. I'm just withholding policies
and boundaries. So that's where I feel like a
lot of men and women have an unemotionally balanced
connection where they're not being seen or heard in all
aspects. I don't want someone who.
Is puppies and rainbows all the time.
I don't want someone who's overly positive, but I don't
want someone who's just constantly.
This is the worst day of my life.
I can't believe this is happening.
My cats have the zoomies and they are just running back and
forth. I'm trying to like, not be
distracted by them. But whenever I say this, we are
living in a very unemotionally imbalanced world.
The Goddess, the divine feminine, has been suppressed
for fucking centuries. Thousands of years.
And they lead us to believe that all of this is outside of us,
that you have to put your trust in God or authority or the
government or all of these units.
But. They truly fear people being in
their sovereign and balanced power.
That is why men stay very off balance and women can be overly
compensating with emotionally charged feelings because they're
not being validated within connections, family units,
relationships, or whatever. And I personally feel like the
more that I have softened my energy, the more protected than
I truly am. I don't need to.
Be aggressive and assertive all the time.
And I don't need to be emotionally driven all of the
time, but there is a need for both within a balanced system
and I personally love a man who's in touch with his inner
feminine. A man that doesn't feel like
ashamed to show emotion. But in this world, the way that
they're brainwashing everyone, they're so absent of their true
feelings. That their emotions are wrapped
up in money or in their finances in a way that charges them and
makes them angry. So like a cancellation fee could
really just derail someone's entire day because they didn't
have any accountability and they thought there would be no
consequences or repercussions for that lack of accountability.
I agree. And also people can make excuses
inside of their mind and not not be okay with being frustrated
with themselves. And I think that's a big part of
not having emotional responsibility, not being able
to self reflect and be like oh, it's actually my fault that I
double booked and has nothing to do with.
It's not the office's fault that my schedule is double booked and
I can't make it so the conversation then isn't well I'm
not coming because I'm double booked.
So you guys are going to need to figure it out, but I'm not
paying for it and instead being like shit.
I made a mistake. I double booked myself.
There's no way that I need to go there.
I can't really afford a cancellation right now.
Like is there a way, you know you can work with me?
There's A and and people are willing to have different
conversations with you and have a different response when you're
not going into it with like an entitled, like an entitled
narrative. And we can do that in a bunch of
different. We can do that inside of
relationships and all different stuff without recognizing it and
going in with like, well, this is how I'm feeling.
Well, there's another person who has their own perspective too,
and you have to figure out how to communicate and take self
accountability for what you're feeling and also see the other
person side. My favorite thing is that.
There is a totally different version of you in every person's
head that you've ever met. And the version that you see in
the version that you are is totally different than every
single person that you've ever came across.
You know, there could be plenty of people that truly support you
that would never have the vulnerability to express that.
I will have a client book of reading and they're like.
I've been watching your social media for a long time and I've
been watching how you move. I've been building trust and
faith in you before investing in you.
Or I've heard like I've been burned by other readers or I've
had other practitioners tell me XYZ.
And so watching you and learning how you move has taught me a lot
about like. Why?
I should have trusted my intuition in the 1st place and
not spent money with that person.
But the entitlement and the lack of accountability will always be
a major red flag in unregulated emotions.
And I just don't have time for people who can't regulate very
simple emotions like anger or uncertainty or whatever.
All of these feelings are very natural in this human world and
we came here to be emotional beings who are well-rounded and
well versed in tragedy or in victory.
And The thing is that some people get attached to a certain
way and they're like, well, this is my life and this is how it
will always be. And that annoys the shit out of
me because point blank period. Just because that's how it's
always been, or that's how you were raised or that's what
you've been around, doesn't mean that that's your whole life,
doesn't mean that everything. Was set in stone.
It means that you need to push the envelope to become a better,
more elevated version of yourself.
Who is working with the wisdom and utilizing that wisdom to
create clarity. I have no sympathy for people
who get one reading and expect their life to change.
But they did not meditate. They did not start journaling.
The reading told them to cut off the toxic relationship, so they
decided to marry the person. And bind themselves to that
person. You know, I just don't have
respect for people who point the finger everywhere else but never
shine the flashlight inward. Speaking of like, I don't know.
I don't know what you said that made me think of this, but I
recently was having conversation with somebody that I was having
to explain how when you have sex with somebody, you're having an
energetic, like contract with that person and you are
exchanging energy with them and she and like creating a bond.
And she had never heard that before.
And she gave me permission to talk about.
It was like if you sleep with somebody that you do not fucking
like at all and they don't treat you with respect and you're
constantly walking away saying, I don't know how they feel,
well, I don't know how I feel well, I don't know if we like
each other. Whatever.
You are telling the universe that you are okay with those
types of interactions and those types of connections.
And so you end up seeking those same things out.
And then you're also trying to have your healing journey and
your shadow working and you're like, but how come I'm not
getting over, you know, not feeling enough as a kid and
whatever, and it's because you're putting yourself in the
same situations. So while you were talking about
like the healing journey and whatnot and we're talking about
like selfreflection, I just wanted to point out that we can
not understand why. Where you can call it shadow
workings, you can call it healing in our traumas, you can
whatever it is self analyzing. But what you're doing now in
your actual life and the the interactions that you're okay
with having with other people, a lot of times they're stemming
from a way that you processed as a kid, or you were treated as a
kid, or you look for validation, or you were never heard and you
were never used to being heard. And so now you're going to find
partners who don't hear you. And we don't necessarily think
about our healing journey in that way.
And we don't understand why we're having to do that
selfreflection. And we're like, none of that
shit bothers me anymore. Like, I healed from my dad
leaving. Like it doesn't even bug me
anymore. OK, cool.
Like, you may not care in your heart that your dad left you,
but you are still going to have of like codependency maybe and a
fear of people leaving you. And so you overcompensate and
you give things of yourself that you don't want to because you
just want people to stay. And so on that healing journey,
we talk a lot about boundaries and things, but I think that and
other people and how other people don't selfprocess.
But I think that it's really important that we also discuss
like how to self process for people who don't know, because
people may listen and be like well I react that way or I
respond that way and feel a certain way and not know how to
change it. I think that really writing out
all of your limiting beliefs throughout your life like.
I don't feel like I'm pretty enough, or I don't feel like I'm
smart enough, or tall enough or skinny enough, or like all of
these limiting beliefs about yourself worth about your
character, about who you are as a person writing that out and
then asking yourself, Who told me this?
Who told me that? Who Where is my first core
memory that I'm not skinny enough?
Was it 5th grade? Somebody said something to you
or gym class in 8th grade? Or was it your parents or your
sister or your brother or a partner?
You know, a lot of these belief systems that we hold as truth
were just projected onto us. And so my favorite thing to
really uncover limiting beliefs is to ask myself who told me
this and why do I feel like this is true?
And once you start going through that list, you will start seeing
that like 45% of these things on this list are bullshit.
Just from the jump you can just see that.
Then we have the other 55 Okay. I truly feel that I don't feel
good enough in my own body. Well then you want to ask
yourself, well what am I doing to change that?
What am I doing to personally change that?
And I'm not saying like go get a surgery or jump in the gym or
XYZ, but what am I doing to change that?
And you're like, well, every morning I drink 3 Mountain Dews
on the way to work and then I get to work and I eat Jersey
Mike's because it's next door. And then I come home and I don't
do anything with myself. And I'm not being condescending.
I'm being honest. Like your life choices from the
moment you woke up are adding to your unhappiness, especially
since there's a lot of colors and dyes and artificial
flavorings that actually depress you.
And I know this chart has been circling around about like Red
40 and how when people removed Red 40 from their child's diet
that a lot of the symptoms of even like a DHD and autism and
different things started to improve.
And where their child wasn't understanding or was acting out
with anger or extreme emotion, it changed.
Not saying that it cures autism or a DHD, but what I'm saying is
20,000 years ago none of this shit existed and guess what also
didn't exist? Diabetes, Cancer, XYZ.
And it's just the facts that a society is easier controlled if
they are depressed, angry and sad, period.
You are easier to manipulate. You buy things that you don't
need. You do things that you don't
like. You surround yourself with
people who don't see you and who don't support you.
So when we get down to these core beliefs, you're going to
find it Probably 45 to 50% is just straight bullshit, and then
the other 50% you are playing a role in your own suffering.
And I believe that five years ago when I really decided to
start making life changes, the only reason I did that is
because I was tired of my own shit.
I was tired of sleeping with people who I didn't really like,
dating, people who manipulated me going to family events to
just be judged and ridiculed XYZ.
And once I was tired of my own shit.
That's whenever accountability stepped in.
Well, I'm making these choices. I'm answering the phone when
they call, I'm showing up like I'm invited or XYZ.
And I love using XYZ because this is a whole spectrum.
You know what you're tired of. You know why you're unhappy and
you know what to do to change it.
And don't even say the government upsets me or my job
or my finances, because all of that is a reflection of how you
feel within. If you don't feel good enough,
you're going to go to work and that's going to be reinforced.
If you don't feel abundant or, you know, seen, that's going to
be reflected in your finances. If you're emotionally charged by
the government, that's going to be the reflection of your lack
of selfcontrol. You can't blame everyone for
everything all the time. You have to take accountability,
and the moment that you're tired of your own shit is the moment
that the lights come on and there's some type of salvation
on the other side. Quit putting your power into a
partner, or a mom, or a dad, or the lack of because that's where
you are allowing something outside of you to drain the
light that is within you. Thank you for coming to Polly's
Ted Talk. I really wanted you all to know
that, like, it is possible to be tired of your own shit and still
be positive and push through. Because a lot of the programs
that we have are taught to us, and I love whenever I have some
limited belief that'll come up, I'm always like, who told me
that? Where does that come from?
My favorite is like we'll never be able to do.
We'll never be able to buy a house or pay our student loans.
Those are programs that my generation is just attached to,
and you want to blame the generations for you.
But guess what, baby? While you were out on spring
break, other people were learning a trade or investing in
their skills, or while you were getting fucked up every weekend,
other people were going to school at night and raising a
kid and being different. And I don't want to hear shit
about it. I don't have sympathy for people
who don't make lifestyle changes and jurastic ones.
Because if you're that miserable, that's a reflection
of your own energy. It's not the government, it's
not your bank account. It's not your job.
It's none of that. When you decide your worth, the
universe responds to that. When you set your boundaries and
your unwavering intentions, like for me, if it disrupts my piece,
it's gone. I don't care.
If I like you, I don't care. Who you are.
I I do not care. And I'm willing to cut my own
mother off in that sense. And guess what?
Now my mom acts right because she knows I'm not dealing with
her shit. You're not going to project your
unhealed BS on me like you did when I was a kid.
I am my own person. I set my own rules.
I ride my own wave. And honestly, I'm kind of
thankful for the government, because a lot of you all need to
realize that it's not them. It's our lack of accountability
with voting, with rallying, with protesting, with doing things
that matter and spending our time making a difference.
The only difference between us and the people that were born in
the 50s, sixties, 70s and 80s is they actually voted and knew
what was going on a little bit. Maybe they weren't super smart,
but they knew what the heck was going on and we don't, and that
that is by design. They wanted us to be brainwashed
and depressed, which has developed a lot of offset
diseases that I don't believe were natural to humans.
I believe they're natural to the reality that we've agreed to.
I agree and. Okay.
So going back to discussing like Red 40 and and foods and things
like that and and linking that with ADHD and whatever.
So my son is he's, he has ADHD and to the point that we had to
medicate him because he's not able to focus at school and like
it. It's it's been a really
difficult thing for him and. Something that we've done is
we've also limited his diet. So we've taken out him having
sugar, him having dyes and things like that.
And So what I want to say is there's a difference between
when you take something out of somebody's diet and it.
I work for a nutritionist, so I'm trying to figure out how to
how to educatedly say what I'm trying to say.
There's a difference between. When you're removing something
from somebody's diet and there is an immediate difference
versus, it completely changes their diagnosis.
So for instance, like he is extremely different if he has
sugar and dies, you can tell like.
Wow, what the fuck is going on? And like the medication isn't
going to work and there is no, like, rational talking through
things. There is no being able to slow
yourself down. And so I think that a lot of
people, they don't remove things out of their lifestyle and
they're just doing like the pharmaceutical cure for things.
I have depression and so well. I stopped, you know, eating this
over here, but like, I'm still depressed, Okay.
But when you were eating those things or had those things in
your diet, that medication wasn't working for you at all.
And there was a hopelessness. And so I.
Want people to like mental health wise.
Like do what you have to do on the end of.
Like if you do need to have a medication and it's not just a
lifestyle change, but also understanding that you can't
have a quote UN quote like crutch for something or
something to ease something and expecting that to be the only
thing. That works.
It's the same thing as like if you are somebody who is a little
thicker and you decide like, oh, I want to go and do gastric
bypass surgery, okay, cool. That's what you're using to help
you. But you have to make a complete
lifestyle change. And since we have done that, and
it's been a conscious thing of, I mean, I'm talking like.
We've noticed how much sugar is in all kinds of things that,
like, people think is totally great for their kids.
Like Jelly. You would think, OK, well, Jelly
is just fruit. No, actually, if you look at
most jellies, like Jelly from Costco, the first ingredient is
sugar and the 2nd ingredient is sugar.
They're two different types of sugars on top of the natural
sugars that are inside of the fruit.
And so you know, I see videos now of.
On my TikTok of people making their kids lunches now that it's
time back to school. And the algorithm is like, we
want you to feed your kid all that sugary shit that you're
trying not to. And so it's all these people
saying like, it's okay for you to pack a yummy snack to reward
your kid at school. And you know, don't listen to
that and you can do this and that and I would never tell
another parent what they should do, but.
I do think that when you say things like, well, don't worry
about it, you should just do it anyways.
And you know, whatever. It makes a lot of people who are
uncertain about their decisions for their kids feel like, well,
fuck, maybe I'm making the wrong decision, then maybe I should be
doing this over here. So I don't think that
everybody's kid should be. Sugar free.
Whatever. If that's what you decide that
you know you don't care for your kid.
But I do think that people should.
You should at least pay attention and make the conscious
choice of I'm giving them a peanut butter and Jelly today,
knowing that this Jelly is 24% of an adult's sugar intake for
the day. The craziest thing?
I recently got a bunch of blood work done, and the really cool
thing is it says my health age is 27.
So I'm like, yeah baby, I'm going backwards, I'm getting
healthy. But they wanted to talk to me
about my sugar because it's drastically low compared to what
I should have. And I never thought that a
doctor would tell me that I should wake up and eat something
sweet. Like she's like, you should
start your day with sugar. And I'm like, I thought sugar
wasn't good for you. And she's like, well, yours is
low and low sugar isn't good for you either.
And I'm like, I've eliminated a lot of, like, sugary drinks.
Like, I used to love body armors.
And I would drink them like nonstop, but they're full of
sugar. Same thing with like orange
juice or apple juice or any of those things.
They're so much full of sugar. And I started watching where,
like, independent labs were testing different juices and
things. And there's like rat feces in it
and like arsenic and just random things.
It's like, even though it's just less than a percentage, it's in
there. And I started to cut out a lot
of those processed juices, especially like, Simply
lemonade. I love simply lemonade until I
saw that they have some crazy chemical in there that like,
shouldn't really be in there. So I just cut all of those out.
And she was like, well, do you wake up dizzy?
And I'm like, if I wake up before 8:00 AM, I'm dizzy for
sure. And that's just because my
body's not ready for the world at that point.
Like, I'm ready for the astral at that time.
So she was like, well, if you find yourself getting dizzy in
the morning, it's because you need to eat something sweet.
And I'm just still not listening to her.
Period. I'm not going to start my day
with orange juice and Donuts because you want me to be
unhealthy, you want me to move forward in age, and my body is
literally reversing. And just for anyone listening, I
know from the experience between the ages of 23 and 25, not only
was I doing like, street drugs, like pills and things like that,
but I was on a lot of medications for a bunch of,
like, stomach issues. Like they could never figure out
what it was. They injected dye.
They did all those things like they would try to say that it
was one thing and then it, like, would completely change to
something different. At one point I was on about 12
prescription medicines. Starting in the morning, I would
take 4 pills midday. I had two more.
If I would eat anything out of the realm of like a bland diet,
I had to take a pill before. Then I had an emergency pill for
when my stomach would really act up.
And I mean, there were times that I was like in the fetal
position, could not move or like leave my house.
I was in so much pain and I know for a fact it was from all of
that sexual energy exchange with crappy ass people.
It was the environments I was in.
It was the things I would say to myself, how I would speak to
myself. And all of that manifested
stomach issues, which is your intuition like your sacral and
solar plexus chakra being blocked could cause, you know,
gastritis and I BS and those types of things.
So the crazy thing is, is really unlocking my power.
Reverse all of these medical diagnosis that I had consented
to. I was even on depression
medicines. I was on a Sleep Medicine.
Now I sleep like a fucking rock because I have aligned my energy
with peace and harmony and rest. Where I felt like in college I
had to do Adderall and all these things just to stay afloat just
to get to class and go to my full time job and go to my
student work job. I had two jobs and full time 18
hours. That was so much pressure on me
to withhold that without any parental support.
I bought all of my own books, barely had a car, lived at my
grandma's like, struggled. But combine that with street
drugs, smoking cigarettes, doing alcohol, all of those things
like, I manifested that sickness.
And then at 26, when my spiritual awakening cranked into
the next level, I completely went like cold Turkey on the
depression medicines, the sleep medicines.
And then periodically through that next year got off all 12 to
14 prescriptions that I was on and then like really elevated my
energy into the next level. We're around like 2728.
I got completely off birth control after being on that
since I was like 1415 years old, and I just realized how much
power I had given outside of me that really was making me sick
and miserable. And if I would have stayed in
that energy and stayed consenting to that bullshit, I
would not be healthy right now at all.
So the fact that now the doctor's like, you really should
have some sugar, drink a Coke, where's your Mountain Dew now?
I'm like, it's working. Like it's fucking working.
I would say that if. You do feel like you need like a
sugar or whatever they have. Like definitely don't start your
morning out with like Donuts and a fucking Coke.
But something that I do is I find for me that even sometimes
my protein, because my protein powder has a little bit of sugar
in it, sometimes in the morning that's even like, holy fuck
that's a lot of sugar. But even if you did like.
Protein shake like inside of a smoothie or something like that
in the morning that has like a sugar that your body's actually
going to do something with that may be helpful for you.
And I only am like saying that because I think that a lot of
times doctors say things and then they don't actually like
give any type of example of like.
This would be a healthy option for you.
And so for you, you're probably like, I'll figure, like you
would figure it out, but for somebody else, they're going to
hear that and be like, Nope, I have to go.
I have to have pancakes this morning because my doctor,
doctor recommended that I start my morning out with, you know,
some sugar. I was on medication a lot for my
mental health when I became an adult.
And then? I got off of that medication and
then got diagnosed with my brain disease and was taking a
medication for that and I had to make a choice of like are the
side effects that come with medication really were mental
health side effects, physical side effects, whatever that come
along with medication something that like I want to deal with or
would I rather just. Like work on healing it
naturally and whatever. And I have found that for
myself, that medication that I was on, it didn't do anything
that I was able to recognize positively, like I don't have.
It didn't help me with my pain. It didn't help me with like
controlling any of my symptoms, but it made me feel this is the
medication that I was on when I had that death experience right
before I had my reading with you for the first time.
And that was a direct correlation of a side effect of
that medication and. I have just found that I'm able
to listen to my intuition and my body better.
Not taking something because I just.
I just feel like I'm a little bit too sensitive for that and
if I'm taking something else to drown out.
Anything mentally, anything physically.
Like, I don't even like to take Tylenol because I feel like I
just feel out of tune with my body.
If I'm taking something that is, that is altering the way that
I'm supposed to be naturally feeling.
And I can't tell if a natural approach that I'm having is
working because my body is numb when I'm taking Tylenol or when
I'm taking this crazy ass, you know, medication.
I can't tell if. Making dyes out of my diet makes
my brain feel better. You know, honestly, I think that
in this society, if they keep you sick, you're constantly
buying supplements and medicines and really like funding the
Pharmaceutical industry, which is a multibillion trillion
dollar industry. And anytime you hear the word
billion or trillion, you need to think corruption.
And not Okay. And the problem with all of
these medicines being pumped into children or being exposed
in the home is children think that's normal.
When I was a kid, my mom always had pill bottles and always had
medicines and a lot of things going on.
I think, you know, I learned that through, you know, seeing
that in my reality and going to the doctor and complaining like
I have anxiety and I have these things felt very natural rather
than addressing what was causing anxiety.
You live in an environment that's unsafe.
You date a person who has multiple partners you don't know
about or whatever, Like energetically you're picking up
on that and you will treat yourself like a doormat if you
don't take control over your own energy.
And you will let anything and everything walk in and out and
over you rather than just addressing that core issue.
And I really liked what you said earlier about people will allow
certain partners to treat them a certain way and not realize that
they're keeping a mother or father wound active.
One thing I really learned during the last couple years was
that I had an abandonment wound which made me attached to people
because of longevity. Well, we've been friends our
whole life or I've known them forever or XYZ.
And longevity does not mean loyalty.
Someone you meet a year in could be more loyal than someone who
is in your life for 15 years. And I think that's what I've
learned with Jim and I is we don't have to spend every day
together for me to wholeheartedly feel like she's
loyal and supportive towards me. And I know a lot of time she may
be making a decision and I don't just run and give her my two
cents. Like she was going to start this
podcast with some crazy girl like 2-3 years ago.
And the whole time I had such a dense feeling about it.
But I was like, is that your abandonment wound thinking,
well, she starts this with her, she's leaving me behind.
Or is this something that is stemming from loneliness or
jealousy or something like that? So instead of addressing it, I
just let it run its course. And then it blew up and went up
in flames quickly before they started any project together.
And then afterwards she was like, well, why didn't you tell
me you felt like that? Because honestly, I think it was
a test for me to be like, is this an abandonment thing?
Like, do I feel like because she's starting this with that
person, that means that we won't be as close.
And at that time, we hadn't started a podcast or done
anything. But I felt something cultivating
within our friendship. And I saw that girl as a
distraction that was trying to, like, ride your coattail and I
was trying to, like, let you make your own decisions without
my influence. And that's what I want everyone
to know. Like, I can support you and
still not agree with everything you do, but your underlying
morals have to be in alignment with me.
I don't have to support every partner that you love or every
person that you're associated with.
But if the morals are not in alignment, that's just where I
let you go. I don't have any anger or
resentment towards you. It's just like that's where our
path goes at the Y and you go left and I go right.
I don't need to chase people. And that's what spiritually
awakening really has taught me, is that when you feel the need
to grip so tightly, you are going to get rope burn.
Like if you hold on to the rope too tight, it will cut you.
And I just feel like I would much rather let go and let
someone go in the direction that their heart desires, because now
I know what they truly want, rather than telling them what I
want them to do and then coercing them to do that.
That's unfair. And that's why so many people
refuse to relieve or like relieve someone from their life,
whether it's a friend or a relationship, without there
being some falling out. How come people can't just be
like, you know what? We don't grown each other?
I'm going to move out and I still want to be friends, but in
a different way. We're not going to be in
constant contact, but our morals, our beliefs are too
different at this point in our life.
We've grown together, we've evolved together, and now we're
going our separate ways on good terms.
And that's just a level of maturity that a lot of people do
not possess Because their parents are spiteful.
Because their parents are envious, Jealous.
Who does she think she is with her boob job, or who do they
think they are? They don't think about you at
all. Because I promise you, people
that are living their life for themselves are not doing
anything to spite you. You just feel spited because
you're not in alignment, and you feel triggered because you're
not in your power and you're giving power away to people who
abuse that power. And I just want to leave
everyone with. Like, you can start today.
Yes, Maybe you grew up in a household that reacted this
certain way, So you've always acted like that.
Like with me and my abandonment issues, I had always clinged to
certain people based out of longevity.
But then when I realized that I needed to let those people go,
really amazing and supportive people came into my life.
And I think that that's what has really taken me next level is
cutting those sandbags so that I can elevate.
And the people who want to be in the hot air balloon are in the
hot air balloon and everybody else is on the ground taking
pictures and talking shit. And what I want to say too is
you don't have. This is something that I've
really been fucking learning. You don't have to.
Say goodbye when you are creating distance.
There doesn't have to be a problem.
There doesn't have to be a fallout, there doesn't have to
be a conversation foreclosure for you to just start to take
several steps back and I think that.
When we're talking about like, releasing people that are that
you don't want in your life and whatever, we're not saying go
and have a fucking argument with this person that you've been
friends with since you were 10 years old and tell them that
they're a piece of shit. We're saying limit starts
talking less, limit that contact look.
Outside. Look at finding different
friends to spend some time with. Look at spending time with your
fucking self. Look at not having to text them
all throughout the day, every little thing that happens so
that somebody can validate your thoughts, choices and decisions.
And I respect that you didn't tell me about having the podcast
with that person because I needed to.
Stand on my own having a disagreement with somebody
through social media because that's the first time that I had
ever experienced any kind of like I met this person online
and I had a falling out with them.
It's the first time that. I had built something that
somebody may be wanting to have a piece of and not have put work
in for. It was also the first time that
I had had anybody make videos about me and say things that
weren't true, or say things that were true but were only from
their point of view. And so there were a lot of
lessons inside of that that I had to learn.
I also had to learn. Starting a podcast with somebody
else, what my expectations of somebody are and what I'm going
to be able to bring to the table.
Because I recognized that somebody who's never had a
podcast before at that time, I had had Coven.
There's these certain things that they're not going to know
how to do that happens to work out fucking perfect for you and
I. Because all of those like
logistical things behind the scenes that I was already doing
are easy for me to do for us. And you are always promoting and
marketing and you're networking and you don't have a problem
talking to 20,000 people, whereas for me.
I'm like you but may not know, but I'm going to stutter and
have an anxiety attack and be like I don't know what to do.
And so we it. It made me appreciate and
recognize strengths that we have in our dynamic that maybe if
that situation hadn't happened, I wouldn't realize.
And since that I've had, you know they're different.
Conversations and people be like, Oh my God, what about a
podcast idea or, you know, whatever.
And I'm able to be like, if this isn't the type of level that
someone's going to show up with and the time that they're
willing to dedicate the communication they're willing to
have whatever it is, I don't want to be a part of that.
And also. And I can recognize if somebody
would have a strength in something and be like, why don't
you start your own podcast all alone and like work on these
things? Because I know that, you know,
maybe there's somebody who like needs to have control over
something. And if you need control you
can't Co collaborate. I think that's where people want
to poke holes and something that's working.
But The thing is, is when you're doing something from your heart
center and it's in alignment with your purpose, it does not
matter how many people cast stones your way, you're going to
be untouched, unharmed and unfazed by it.
And I think that I just let people show up in the capacity
that they're going to show up. And then I personally decide, is
that enough for me? Is this person giving me what I
need? And then if they're not, I don't
shame them or get upset with them or yell at them or let
these anger feelings come towards them because it's like
they're just showing up in the ways that they know how.
And it's up to me to have discernment and alignment with
that or not. And a lot of people want a
project, friend or person or relationship and they want
someone they can fix. Because if you're fixing
someone, you're not worried about your own fucking issues or
your own problem. And I see this mainly in
relationship dynamics, where you can tell who's riding the
coattail and you can tell who has nothing going on aside from
said relationship. You can tell when the person is
pushing your business for you or or leading you to water so you
can drink. And it's not cute.
Like, I personally only admire people who are willing to eat
alone. And if you can't go to a
restaurant and eat alone in real life, you need to understand
yourself deeper. And some people are like, well,
I don't want to do that. Well, nobody wants to do that.
But that means that you're going to settle eating with people who
don't see you, who don't support you, and who are not good for
you. I personally love going to eat
by myself because it pushes you out of your comfort zone.
You will meet someone there, not necessarily like romantically,
but you'll say something to someone in passing or
conversation. Ironically, I go to this sushi
restaurant a lot, and I went there for lunch one Friday and
I'm sitting there eating. I'm kind of a regular.
So the servers are all kind of talking to me because I tip
well. So they know who I am and they
know what's up. So I sat down and I'm just
eating and this girl looks at me and she's like, this hibachi's
so good today. And I said, Oh my gosh, I know.
So we start talking. Come to find out, she comes
there once a week by herself because her husband doesn't like
it. Tell me why.
If not, like two or three months later, I come in and this girl
is there again by herself and I'm like, are we on the same
timeline? Like what timeline are we on?
But that's where insecurity versus security comes in.
A lot of people are too insecure or embarrassed XYZ to go do
things alone, and that's because you don't enjoy your own
company. You're being told who you are,
you're being led to water, and a lot of people follow celebrities
or follow trends or follow BS that's like, not them.
So when it fades out, you fade out, your inspiration fades out,
your momentum fades out. And I think that's where I've
learned a lot about being alone and why.
I originally had surrounded myself with people who were not
good for me because they were a distraction from my own misery
and self hatred. And the moment that I decided to
not settle was the moment that I went next level.
So I just hope that anyone listening has a fire lit under
their ass and they're ready to make changes in big ways and in
small ways. Because every day matters, and
one day at a time, we'll get you where you need to go.
On that now I'm going to pull the human design card.
I pulled card 37 and it's Chamber of the Pearl.
It's got this ocean. I love the water coming up in
spring. You've got the mountains.
It reminds me a little bit of Big Sur.
The sign is Pisces. Ooh, I love this.
Your gift is new vision and the shadow is division, the gift of
new vision. To honor the gift, we must first
acknowledge our ever present equality.
We're a global family built from the same cloth.
When we forsake our inherent oneness, we rely entirely on the
false narratives of the physical world, division, destruction,
power, and control. Accessing this gift means taking
back your power and your ability to see beyond these limitations.
It's an act of courage, as many people will forever be
hypnotized by the allure of power.
Detangling fact from fiction is a lifelong endeavor.
Finding balance within the polarity doesn't mean burying
your head in the sand, but it allows you to see the whole
world stage through a new lens. Become conscious to your own
innate sovereignty and follow your heart's direction.
Salvage the Pearl and then, which is basically what you had
been talking about. And then shadow is division.
This, a lower frequency state, is characterized by outdated
power structures, imbalances, and worn archetypes of the Old
World. When we're unable to see outside
of our duality, we tend to favor one side, right or wrong,
masculine over feminine, power over apparent weakness.
The narrative runs deep. As a collective, we've often
championed masculine models, equating force, hegemony, and
the quest for power with greatness.
The pendulum must not swing too far in the opposite direction in
order to repair division. Instead, we must call upon a
union of both feminine and masculine energies, reconciling
the collision within and moving beyond hierarchy.
The perpetuation of war, conflict and separation within
the global arena highlights are reticence to abandon masculine
driven modes of survival that no longer serve the collective.
The first step is to heal this wound within and witness our own
contribution to the continuation of these obsolete systems.
Exit the fun House of mirrors. The themes are duality, peace,
healing, and innate power. And that's exactly what we
fucking talked about too. Talk about alignment and Spirit
will show up with more aligned energy.
We love you all and we just want you to be the best version of
yourself who does not freaking settle.
So go pop your shit, go be great, and we'll see you next
time in Candy Land. Bye.