Welcome to Fucking Candy Land, hosted by Rampage and Gemini.
Welcome back to another episode of Candyland.
So tonight we have a guest as promised, and we're really,
really excited. So I'm going to let Jim and I
tell us how she's feeling and introduce our guest.
Well, I'm fucking excited our guest came here today with a
penis pillow brushed hair. Welcome, Carissa, to THE Fucking
Podcast. Oh, what's up guys?
How are you doing, Carissa? Oh man, I'm just happy to be
here. It's nice to be actually to,
like, hang out and not have to leave the vicinities.
I can just chill. Yeah, you can be in your comfy
clothes. You can be kicking it.
You didn't even have to brush your hair for it.
But you look beautiful. So I have tons of questions for
you. As somebody who's been following
your account for years, I feel like I know little things about
your life that I want to expand on.
So can I just start like going at you with questions get.
It dude, I'm ready. Hammer me down.
My first question where you said no topics were off limits, so
we're starting with your pussy. So I actually found you from you
doing the horror Olympics on the Dunblanc podcast.
That's how I found you too. And I first of all, I loved you
right away. And the reason was that, like,
everybody had to, like, show their talent, right?
So, like, I forget what the one girl was even doing, but I know
that Lydia squirted. And then I know that you came
out with this like, gigantic fucking.
What was that? It was like a.
It's, it's Brendan. It was my friend Brendan's
dragon Dildo, dude. It was the only, I thought I was
sitting on his mantle and I was like, and I had the podcast and
I sent a video to Mimi. I was like, dude, should I try
to shove this in me at the War Olympics?
And she's like, yes, I'm like, all right, dry her out.
It was a value. So like, my question is, did you
have to do anything to like build up to that?
Like days going in where you like, I'm going to massage my
shit, I'm going to olive oil her down.
Or did you go in there and you were just like, I'm going to pop
it open? No, that was that day, dude.
I messaged Mimi that day and I was like, should I just bring
this in? And she's like, yeah, I wish I
would have. I think if I would have been
able to prep oh. What?
Do you have fireworks going behind you, dude?
I don't know. Is that weird?
I've never. Seen it?
That's incredible. I've never.
This place is haunted. I'm not.
I'm not messing with you dude. And spirits love me like I have
no bad buju. Like, I'm here.
Like we could chill if you want. Like I'm here for you.
So I have a couple questions before we just dive in that
part. How did you meet Bunny?
Was that the first time you met Bunny or did you know Bunny?
No, that was the first time. So Charlie, how do you even know
how that came to be? Charlie said there was a horror
Olympics and me and Lydia were like, we'll be in it, you know
what I mean? Like, Charlie's judging.
We're always supporting CC's my freaking main man.
I love Charlie. So we went.
We all met up that that was actually the first.
This is the craziest deal, though, too.
That was the first day I met Lydia.
That's how. That's how tight.
We clicked so fast that day, like we did a little photo shoot
and then we did the whole Olympics and we like
immediately. We're like in love soul mates.
Like together. This is we're in.
It's like together. I know it.
I think it's crazy. And that was during the
pandemic, right? Oh, I think it was before.
I think it was before all this stuff hit, maybe call or after.
I don't know. My timeline is really messed up
because I just like to go with the flow, so I don't really
know. What year was it?
Do you remember? 2020 So it was.
So it was. It was a pandemic, wasn't it?
Yeah, because I feel like that's when Bunny was like really
getting it cranked up with like the like, not only just the
spicy content, but just like the entertainment.
Because that was the year that I met Bunny for the first time as
well. And I feel like that year she
really the same with Jelly was like stacking so much amazing
content that like created Save Me and that's when he started
doing acoustic. And like, honestly, I feel like
that's what merged him to where he is now and we look back like
that's about to be four years ago.
That's crazy, huh? Yeah, that's fucking nuts.
Yeah, 'cause I did that. I did a really super toxic
relationship and then I got back into it just now like hard and
heavy. So like I that whole toxicity I
had, like in the middle I kind of messed up a lot of my a lot
of my chain waves I had going on.
Because like, when I first saw you, that's when I, like,
started following you. And I remember you hadn't
tattooed your chin and stuff yet, because I remember thinking
like that. Fucking looks like it hurts.
Yeah dude, I went hard, huh? My back.
I got a tattoo today, dude. I go.
I'm so extra all the time. I went and got tattooed this
morning. That's crazy.
Why did you get tattooed? Just filler on my back.
It's covered, but I'm just I'm I got the numbing cream.
I'm going to try out the numbing cream because I I've never tried
it because I finished my whole. I have a tiger on my back.
I just want to finish it dude. But it hurts so bad and I feel
like IA tire a tiger. Oh, I was like a fucking tire.
How big is Tiger? No.
A tiger. No, it's sick.
I just, I need to finish it. But it hurts so bad.
And I thought, I don't like pain anymore.
Like I want to chill. I don't want to.
I don't want to be in pain anymore.
He's like, sponsored by Michelin.
I got a fucking tire. Tires are sick.
Dude, it actually does look like a tire mark though.
Like, kind of no. Oh my gosh, you are tatted.
That's beautiful. It kind of looks like a tire
mark, yeah. And if you.
Yeah, if you guys are watching this, you guys can see her
tattoos and everything. Yeah, it's all over my
institute. You can see from out on my
Twitter. Just go on my Twitter, you see
everything. So whenever you did the horror
Olympics, you met Bunny, but you were already friends with
Charlie Classic. Everybody doesn't know who that
is. And then you met Lydia that day,
and was this like the start of you doing spicy content, or had
you already been doing that? I I fell into the lap of I I I
like fell into everyone's lap, like and build.
I built so quick that day after I won the Horror Ellipse, I went
hard. I think I only was doing it for
like a couple months before that, 'cause like I hit up.
I hit up Donnie, which he runs the trippy house.
I hit up Donnie and I was like, say I want to come do some
photos. Like, I'll come out And I I went
to Vegas. That was my first time in Vegas.
That was in November 2019. And then did some stuff with
Charlie that weekend too. And then it just kind of started
to build. I I met, I everyone I met like,
I I like. I connected with, I guess like,
oh hi. Like let's do this like I I, I
came in it with just such an honest, wholesome view of it
because a lot of people don't get that wholesome view of like
sex work and stuff. They're like, it's not, you know
what I mean? No, I have AI think it's like, I
love it. I think it's so much fun.
I'm in it like, and I love the people.
I think it's fun and I like that.
I think the people are creative. I think it's a bunch of artists.
And 2020 I met, that's what I met Bunny.
Mimi Haley, like the three loves of my life.
Dude. I would.
I would do some things to Mimi.
I would split her open and eat her like I.
Was stalking telling you that bitch is so fucking hot.
I tell Paige all the time. I'm like, oh, if you see her,
just like touch her fucking boobs for me and tell her hi.
I had a comment on my because like, I'm always after Jason.
I'm always fight with Jason, her husband, not real fight, but
we're fighting. And like, there was a comment on
my TikTok and it was like, I'm getting total stalker vibes from
Carissa. And like, I I don't even give a
shit if it is like, I like when I first hugged her, the top of
my lip touched her shoulder, dude.
And like, I immediately fell in love.
Like, like, I immediately fell in love with her.
Like, I don't even give a fuck if it's stalker vibes.
Like, I'm in love with you. Mimi Shaheen, we're in love.
Jason, you're cool. You can see the background.
I love that for you also. Also, shame.
Yeah, Gemini is always like Mimi is my girl crush.
I love. Mimi like and she and I like met
because she found me through Bunny's podcast.
So Gemini came to me for a reading and we basically, like,
didn't know each other at all. And then like a year went by and
she had started her own podcast, which is called Coven of
Rejects. And she invited me on to her
podcast. So we just like a credit Bunny
as like our fairy godmother. And we took her that and then
she put Fairy godmother in her BIOS.
And I'm like, look, it's done. It's done.
Like, this is the fairy godmother.
But like, Bunny is such a inspiration.
I swear like every episode, somehow she gets brought up
because she's so motivational. She lets everyone be themselves
and like pull their own unique talents up to the table.
And she puts you in a spotlight and helps you expand in some
way, even if it's just her genuine energy or like sharing
her platforms or whatever. But it's just crazy because like
me and Jim and I wouldn't know each other without Bunny.
And then like, we found you through Bunny.
So it's just like there's so much synchronicity with Bunny
being our fairy godmother. Like everyone's fairy godmother,
because he's. Just.
Like magical. Yeah.
Oh no, I I really do think she has something about her.
Like something I was. I was in a super bad spot.
It was after the podcast. It was already in that toxic
relationship and she was checking on me, dude, at like
the worst time, 'cause my dad had died and that dude had
dumped me the same day. And yeah, it was crazy, dude.
My I had a really, really hard time.
And now I'm back out of it. And now I'm, I'm kicking ass.
But she checked on me, her and Charlie checked on me.
And like, I wrote her back and I was like, yeah, everything's
good And but, like, it was really strange because she'll
check on me when that's what I feel like.
She has some, like there's some, like, spiritual, like healer.
She has like some type of healer energy because she'll reach out
to me at times when it's like, like, how did she know?
How do you know what's going on? You know what I mean?
Like, it's she's crazy. She's I I really do think she's
some type of Angel healer. Something.
Yeah. No, she is.
And like, what's crazy is like the first time I ever read her
cards in 2020. We met shortly after.
And like just in the four years like this last four years, like
look how exponential her growth has been because she tapped into
like what I call like the treasure chest, like your soul's
treasure. Like she tapped into that, like
she always had money and and and notoriety and different things,
but now she has impact, like an impact that she never had.
And I think that when I first met her, she told me in our
interview, she was like, I'm scared of it.
Like I'm scared of what? Whatever it is.
And then now she's like, no, I'm embracing it like this is, you
know? And I do think that she does
have a lot of natural healing qualities.
That's why I like Spirit has been like telling her to write
this book and like trying to get her to do these things because
her energy is so healing and just like her presence is super
healing. And the thing I like about her
is like she's not intimidated by anyone or anything.
She's just like, I'm going to face it head on.
I'm going to pull up my own seat.
I'm going to build my own fucking table.
And she's rubbed all that off on, like me and Jim and I where
a lot of people try to come between us or try to like stir
up shit, but we like hold our bond.
Even with her being in Idaho and me being in Kentucky, it's like
so many people have tried to come between US.
And I think it's because they're, they get intimidated by
powerful people supporting one another, you know what I mean?
And that's not funny. It's like there's no competition
with anyone. And that's like taught me so
much about, like how competition just happens at the bottom, You
know, people at the top, they're collaborating.
Dude, I've seen that. I've seen that.
Oh, what did it? What was that saying?
I've seen. I think it was just that
competition happens at the bottom and collaboration happens
at the top. Whoa, yeah.
Sick as fuck. I love that shit.
I'm off squeezing the penis. I love that shit.
I think that's why I like, really, I really loved you when,
like, I found you on the whole Olympics.
Obviously we said that. But what I loved about you was
actually your friendship with Lydia, and I think I told you
that in our chat. It was like the fact that that
was a moment where, like, it was a super competitive thing.
It's going to be on social media.
Like you're literally being judged by like fellow hot
bitches and you guys were so friendly and kind to each other
and like she came over and had to like help you try and get
that thing in there. And I didn't know.
Yeah, she was over here fucking arms deep, like helping you what
you got to fucking do, you know? I just thought that was it was
so sweet and just I think shows like how your friendship is
where you guys are going to be connected like that instantly.
Yeah, we go on. That's that's a crazy thing
because there's like, there's been drama, like not between us,
just like I'm not going to like talk about it, but and like I I
have like a team of Redditors that have my back.
Like I have a whole, like Reddit is crazy.
But I have like, I have a crew on there and they love me and
I'm like, yes, like thank you guys.
But me and Lydia go on family vacations together and I do
stuff together behind like without the Internet and back
then I don't even know I don't know how that like I have I have
certain friendships in my life. Like you guys have friendships
in my life that are like that, that are like they just are.
And nothing is going to be like able to penetrate that.
Like what she said earlier like people will try to do stuff.
Same with me and Lydia, same with the my, my friend that owns
this salon. Like, it's like like if I try to
visualize what that is, it's like a really strong, like
golden metal force around us and like we we can we can roll over
you and like or we can we can bring people in and love and
like, create happiness and like nothing's going to penetrate
that love that we have. Same with you guys.
I think that's freaking awesome. You know, I think women have
just always been pitted against each other because, like, if
women don't recognize the power that we have in numbers, like.
Yeah, dude. Like we're so much easier to be,
like manipulated and to be used if we're against one another.
And like most of what we have been taught is to judge and
compete and be mean and whatever.
And like, you know, I'm just real big on, Like if you're
still a mean girl, you need to go fucking heal.
Because I promise you, if you were happy with yourself, you
wouldn't care if someone does sex work or someone makes music
or someone jumps off the Empire State Building and films it.
Like, you wouldn't care what people are doing with their time
and energy and how they're using their platform.
And we get that so much, Especially like Jim and I gets a
lot of it on like TikTok, like the witch talk.
Those people are like, super weird and mean and judgy.
And I'm like, I'm so glad. I'm like.
No, it's not even the fucking witchy side of TikTok.
It is literally mom shamers. Like of all the content that I
do, I talk about witchcraft stuff.
I we talk about like taboo subjects on the podcast.
It is me saying that I ran out of syrup at my house and my kid
is eating a protein pancake without syrup.
And it is. I'm causing eating disorders for
my kid. Oh my God and.
Shit. And like, yeah, that's what,
it's the mom shamers and it's people who you don't have any
fucking kids. Or in 20 years when your kids
don't talk to you anymore, you're going to be like, I don't
know what I did. You were a cunt.
Yeah, people like that with me, though, too.
I'm. I heard.
What have I heard about myself? It's like the best ones.
They don't know if I'm 55 or 21. I don't.
I don't even know. They're.
So am I so freaking me. My tattoos are dried up, my
lips, my injection. I need to get ready more
because, like, I don't like right now, like I'm comfortable.
I don't give a shit. Like there's always got to be
something and something about my kids.
How come my kids aren't on there?
I didn't let my daughter be on social media till she's turned
14 and she has her own TikTok. Now my son's not going to be on
any social media, but people, people will tear apart anything
and everything. It's just it blows my mind.
It's easy for someone who doesn't put content out there of
any nature to have something to say about the people who share
their life. And that's what I love The
Internet is because it's brought so many connections into my
life. It's brought so many amazing
opportunities and people and it's always the people who have
12 followers and no videos that. Oh yeah.
Like every time it's like why? I don't even know, dude.
Other people are funny too, because then you meet them in
real life. I met I met one person in
Pittsburgh because we did like a meet and greet spaghetti dinner
thing and it was one of my trolls and we actually got along
really well. We're actually still friends on
Instagram. I don't know if I have her on
TikTok anymore, but she found. Out that that was a troll.
She came up to me and told me who she was and like, I like I
used to and this is so toxic of me to do so, like when I first
got into everything, I would pick apart things.
I'd be like, why don't they like me?
Why do they convince You know what I mean?
Why do I? And I talked to my therapist
about it and it was like, it's just childhood trauma,
abandonment issues. So I stopped doing that.
And then when I was at the spaghetti dinner in Pittsburgh,
she came up to me and we sat down and we talked and she ended
up winning a basket for Bailey. I think Bailey bring, I don't
want to, I don't want to talk about Bailey too much because
I'll come apart. But I think Bailey bring a lot
of beautiful things like things like that, hate like that, and
made them beautiful again. So yeah.
Anyways. So this person came for a meet
and greet, like came where you were basically.
Yeah, the spaghetti dinner. We had a huge spaghetti dinner
in Pittsburgh and they showed up.
You know, like that just goes to show like, how much effort these
people put into this, this stuff.
Like how are you going to be a troll on the Internet and then
use your own gas and time to go see this person.
Kind of like when people go to concerts to like be like, oh,
they suck. Like, I I mean, I've been at
concerts where someone paid like an hour into the concert because
it sucks. Like, who has time for that?
Not me. No, I'm not going to no concert,
they said. I don't know why I think that.
I don't think that she came for me.
I think she came for the other people that were there.
Lydia was there. She might have came for Lydia.
A lot of. I don't feel like a lot of
people know unless they really follow how close me and Lydia
are. I think that some of the stuff
that's happened, I think that they might think that otherwise.
But I think that the people that we truly follow know I don't.
I don't think I put myself. I can't.
I feel like I'll step into the limelight a little bit, then
I'll step out, 'cause like I stepped in.
Then I got in that relationship and I stepped out, and then my
dad passed away and I I kind of disappeared for another six
months. And then I came back.
And then I got popcorn Lung got to plaque again.
Oh yeah, Can we talk about your popcorn lung as I sit here?
And get my. Vape.
Dude, OK, I'm fine. Like, I I'm like, I vape the
most like and I always steal Lydia's vapes too.
I always steal everyone's vapes. Dude, I'm like, I was the vape
stealer. Like, I always had a ton of
them. Like, I Remember Me and me and
Dempsey had me and Dempsey. This last show, we had a bunch
of people's vapes on us vaping. I was laying on my side of my
bed and I was breathing in and I could hear liquid like in my
chest. And like I had a sharp pain in
my chest and I was like, what in the Frick is going on?
And so I woke up the next morning, I called my doctor and
I was like, I think there's something going on.
But I had AI had to go to the Echo concert like my homie was
in Salt Lake and my daughter wanted to go.
So I was like, I'm going to go to this concert and then like,
and you can tell in the videos I've been posting I'm reposting
my Tik toks on Instagram because my TikTok got banned.
But you could tell us some of the that video of me
interviewing cause like my and still to this day like I still
have a little I like I can't get the words out correctly
sometimes. Like I almost have a like a
back, like a really deep a list. But I went to the concert.
I had to do my breathing treatments at the concert and I
had this all this chick, dude, this chick tried to get me to
hit her inhaler in the bathroom and I was like, no, 'cause I was
wheezing. And she's like, no, just have it
hit dude. And my daughter is 14 and she's
like, mom just freaked out. And so I just put the cap on
this chick's inhaler, 'cause I was wheezing and coughing her
butt and tend. Like, I hit it.
And I was like, thank you so much.
So then I came back, went to the doctor.
Chaos, dude, I'm chaos all the time.
Came back, went to the doctor and she thought, you need to get
you in for an emergency X-ray right now.
So I went down, They X-rayed my lungs.
I had this side, had a it was like inflamed like a like the
pork grinds, like the very top. So I got on a bunch of
antibiotics, a bunch of steroids.
No more vaping. I had to chill for like a month.
It's been oh, it's been like two months now, but now I can't
smoke anymore. I wanted to be the little old
lady that hit the bomb. That was like in my mind.
I want to be like the lady with animals, like with the bong and
I chill but and I. Can't What is Popcorn Lung and
How Do you Get It? Inflammation of your lung.
So like the definition of it would be it's like inflammation.
Like your your lung is such a it's like a thin layer and that
piece that your your your strings of lung will inflamed.
I'm going to look at the two. I'm going to look at that.
Oh, I literally have my tablet, guys.
I could have looked it up. I didn't have to ask that
question. Me too.
Says Popcorn Lung is the
nickname for bronchitis, something.
This is a condition that damages your lungs smallest Airways and
makes you cough and feel short of breath.
It's sometimes caused by breathing in a chemical used to
flavor microwave popcorn, but other chemicals are lung
illnesses can also cause popcorn lung.
That being said, I know that a lot of people don't realize the
effects of vaping and like the long term effects of vaping.
I know that like because vaping is only been out for 10 years or
whatever that like they're starting to develop all of these
things that you know where they thought vaping was better than
cigarettes. It's not at all.
I mean, cigarettes are gross, don't get me wrong, but vaping
is not better than cigarettes. But we're talking more, not like
THC vaping. We're talking more like tobacco
vaping. Oh well, I only get down on the
cannabis vape guys and that makes me feel better.
Dude, I'm having. Gummies, dude.
I have an addictive personality, so I'm glad I never started
vaping because I would be like you.
I would have 12 of them. Like, I would have every
different flavor that you could think of.
And like one of my friends recently stopped vaping and it
it was just like really hard for her because she also always had
a vape in her hand, you know, like always had a vape
everywhere she went. So I don't know.
I mean, I come into you because I'm sure, like, you didn't want
to, but then when you're being forced to, you're like, OK.
I was so scared. I don't even know I just kept
cinnamon gum. Dude, I chewed a pack of
cinnamon gum within like 10 minutes.
Like, I just chew it and let it burn my mouth and spit it out
like my whole car cup, like my little cup holder.
I had like a little bag and I just spit the gum out in it and
chew another piece. And especially when I was
driving, 'cause I drove. Where the fuck did I go?
Hey, go to Vegas. I drove to Vegas, I think.
After that, I think I drove somewhere.
I went somewhere on a long trip and I just chewed.
I had chewed so much gum, like packs and packs and packs of
gum. I don't.
Know what TV network it's on? But there are commercials for
this necklace that you like blow into when you're wanting to vape
and it's like the most like you remember stay off drugs
commercials and like you like fucked up your life.
Well, this one's about vaping and there'll be like young
adults that are like vaping ruined my life.
It was so awful to go places because I always had to grab a
vape. It's really rough and parents
being like, I'm so proud of my kid and it's either on, I want
to say that it's on Paramount. Plus, I feel like that
commercial. Is Oh my God, there's one with
the youth group. Have you ever seen it?
And it's like the kid that like they're like doing the running
man and they're like vaping is the worst or something.
Ever seen that one? I don't think so.
I don't know. It's like a youth group and
they're like talking about vaping and like they're doing
like theoretical dances, like like the dances and stuff.
Dude, it's so funny. It's like.
Was whenever they would do the weed commercials, like the don't
try drugs commercials and it was like that kid that was just
melted into the couch. I know everyone has seen that
one. Like that one is really the MVP
one. For Halloween.
You want you want to be that for Halloween?
I want to be that flat chick for Halloween, dude, and just show
up at a party and be like because everyone will know who
the fuck it is like. So have you lived in Utah your
whole life? Yeah, I've lived forever.
Forever. Never.
I like and I don't even know how I got to like pop out.
It's so I I guess I I feel like there's always been like an
inside force of me to wanting to be creative, and I think that
Utah kind of harnessed that and made it blow up.
What part of Utah are you in? You in a county?
I'm actually 20 minutes away from Skinwalker Ranch.
Oh, what's skinwalker ranch? Dude, you don't know what
skinwalker ranch You're not even.
Supposed to say it out loud like it's like a thing.
Oh, Beetlejuice. Yeah, like like I'll show you
you you want to see what one looks like.
I know what a skinwalker is. Yeah, dude, I'm like, I'm by
where they were, where it is, where they are.
I thought they were an. Appalachian thing.
No. So skinwalker ranch is like, I
don't know. I don't know how to explain it.
It's like we're like a bunch of cows look missing and stuff and
like, I don't know, oh, this is like, oh, this is way different
than what it really is. They got like a thing going on.
I've never watched the show. Hey, did you know what
Skinwalker is? So no.
It's like a it's like a figure or being that can morph into
other things. Like pretend to be your animals,
pretend to be people. And they're like a quote, UN
quote folklore thing, But like you're they live in the woods
you're not supposed to. Like, follow any crying noises.
If you hear your name, you don't turn around, They'll knock on
your. Door pretend to be people.
Yeah, I love that you. Your comfort was for you to grab
a penis pillow and I vibe with that energy.
Sponsored by Pee Pee Pillow. So why did your TikTok get
banned? Oh man, did.
I don't even know I could. Like there's so many different
My followers have like a little what is it called, a little
discussion thing. They think that it could have
been because, well, shrinking my pee pee.
Shrinking my pee pee. They think it could because I
said vaping so much. They think it because a group of
people that are is having someone a while back had been
like talking really bad about me online.
So they think that could have been something to do with it.
What do you do online that's so controversial?
Like what are you? Doing like, that's the whole
deal. Like now I'm going hard.
Like if you look at my, my, my stuff now like I'm not, I don't
give a shit. I was so careful, dude.
Like, I didn't post anything. Like I was super careful with
that page. Like I didn't have any write ups
or nothing. That's what's so bizarre, 'cause
I wrote TikTok and I'm like, no, you're not getting it back.
So like that it blew my mind that yeah, the message was like,
we went over it, your your page goes against something humane,
something and you're not getting your account back.
So it blew my mind. Now I'm not being careful now
I'm going hard, like now I'm like, I have three different
pages. My one just broke 10K, which
sucks because I had 180 K but like it broke 10K.
So I'm like, yeah, I'm going, but I'm posting like the most,
like the all the stuff like like booty everything.
I don't give a shit like ban me now, I don't care.
I'm just going. All out creators lose their Tik
toks and it's like for the most random things like they don't
ever give you a real explanation.
And honestly when they were going through like all that, the
changes and stuff it just like I've lost interest in TikTok.
Like I have almost 50 day and I've been sitting at the same
follower count for literally ever.
Like, I just don't care. Like it's like because I won't
go live and I won't promote the TikTok shop and the gifts and
stuff they like don't give a fuck.
Like I used to always break at least 10K on every video and now
I don't even get 400 views and I'm like, how do I have this
many followers but 400 views? Like freaking.
It my one got 10 million it was at 10 million viral post bought
it from me My vaping 1. So it'll be on, like the
Snapchat viral post, whatever. Like I signed.
I'm glad that they've nabbed it before.
I couldn't before it was gone. But maybe that's why they maybe
that's why they blocked me. I don't know.
It's so it it blew my mind too, 'cause, like, I couldn't get my
mind. And it hurt my feelings most of
all. Like sensitive Sally over here.
Like why would they do that to me?
I, I And they. But they sent me my my money
That was in that account, which is really nice.
And then on my merry way, yeah. You have to be careful too, what
stuff you're talking about in the messages on Tiktok.
So, like, I'll always take my when I message people about like
podcasts or anything or like anything business, I'm always
like, hey, text me, this is my number.
Because stuff that you discuss in your messages, if you're
taking deals that are taking people off of the platform to go
buy anything from you for you to make like a business deal with
somebody else, that is revenue that doesn't go to TikTok and
they'll take away your profile for it.
Oh my gosh. I was going to try to figure out
or look and see what it was, but I can.
It was like against humane. It was some stupid stuff.
I don't know. Do you feel like that set you
back on social media? Like just like you're platform
being taken, do you think that like drained your creativity or
like just kind of you said it hurt your feelings, but like did
it make you want to stop creating content?
Almost. But then like I have such bad
ADHD that like I almost forgot that it hurt my feelings and got
back on and got my other accounts like, you know, and
then it was fine. Again.
As the like generation of social media, what do you think is like
the most inspiring thing about social media?
So for me, I found myself and my people on social media like
Bunny, you guys, Lydia. I found my people like it's a
bigger it's a bigger web of because like if it was just like
me. Now with no social media, I
have, I have my close knit friends here but it's like I
have, I have AI can even have a bigger heart and love even more
now because. But that's from a positive.
If you have a positive like positive us, you know what I
mean? Like we got positive stuff.
I don't know how to explain it. Positive big love, you know what
I mean? If you got that big love, you
can love more, you can love more people.
Like, yeah, more love, like that's that's what social media
did for me. I can.
I can show people what I what I got on my creative side and then
learning from their creative side and then we can all love
each other. Yeah, I love that.
I think that's so beautiful too, especially like there are a lot
of negative things that can be focused on, on social media,
especially if you're somebody who ends up having drama because
of your social media. And I feel too, a big thing is
like being coming friends with other creators and like getting
yourself into circles of people. It makes it so that yes, you
have all this big love, but then there also is like a balance on
the back end of if somebody goes through something and like the
masses decide like we're going to cancel that person or
whatever, then if you're associated with anybody on any
level, it's like you're a shitty human being too.
And you know what I mean? Like it.
It's a ripple. Effect, yeah.
Social media, I feel like has grown so much that, like, people
are caring less and less about what other people think.
Like that's what I think is happening.
Like people are like, like you said, I'm going to post what I
want to post. I'm going to say what I want to
say. Like the more that people get
into their authentic power, the more that we can be our true
selves. And that's what I love about
social media myself, is like seeing empowering people like,
you know, like posting a cute picture or posting this or a
highlight that they're happy about.
Like, I love to see that stuff because the world can be
convincing that it's a dark place when you're looking for
darkness. But when you're looking for
something inspirational or exciting or whatever, like it
all all comes together. Like it attracts to you.
And I feel like, you know, just bringing in new people, like to
have you on the podcast, like it's a really good thing because
we get to learn about the person behind the pictures, you know,
behind the videos, those 32nd clips or whatever.
And it's like you never know what someone's actually going
through, how someone's actually operating.
Like, you're a parent. People want to say, why aren't
you posting your kids? Even if you were posting your
kids, they're going to be like, why are you posting your kids?
You know, it's like no one's ever happy except, like, the
people who truly support you. You know what I mean?
Like, there's always those spectators that want a front row
seat, but they're not doing anything to bring anything to
the table. And then that's what I love to
hear. Like you were saying, like your
daughter's just now getting on social media and things like
that, like not making that their life.
I hate when parents capitalize off their two year olds and
their three-year olds and make these tik toks that are just
weird scammy. Just.
I don't know. I know there's all kinds of them
on TikTok that I just avoid like the plague, but I don't like
that I do. Know some of it.
I think there's one that I like. I don't know, she's, I think her
name is Lily and she's the cutest little and she like
kisses, bugs and stuff. I think there's a different
There's a big. I think there's like like,
there's that weird one lady who got arrested who was like
capitalizing off of it. But then there's like another
creative side where like this cute little, like, I don't know
her name Lily something. She kisses Bugs dude.
This cutest little baby ever seen dude.
And she loves bugs dude. And she'll, like, pick up frogs.
Cute little She'll pick up frogs and just kiss them.
And it's the cutest thing you've ever seen.
But then there's there's and there's people like that one
lady that had just gotten arrested that was like
capitalizing on her discipline of her children.
Do you remember that? No.
Oh my gosh, dude. They did like a whole.
I went on like a deep dive. I know that there was a lady and
then there were all of these videos that were being made
about moms, like making jokes about like, jumping her and
stuff. But I never knew anything.
I didn't know any of the story. I didn't know the tea.
I just knew the reaction of other people.
Yeah, dude, she was like discipline.
She made her son like she took her son's bed away.
I don't know if she was from Utah or not, but I got like the
no offense. Like I got the I got the Super
Mormon vibes from her. She like took doing it
backwards. I don't know.
I'm like I'm sorry, I apologize already.
But I got that super Mormon you stuff from her because she took
she took his bed away and made him sleep on the floor for like
2 months and took his door like that's too much for me.
Like I'll take my daughter online.
Dude, I don't know. And people were like agreeing
with it and she was like up in the 1,000,000 but then something
ended up happening where she had her kids tied up and she got
arrested. Good Lord yeah.
Everything always escalates. I feel like the truth always
comes out and things like that and like and if you have some
weird weird intentions it'll it's like you're getting
attention to I'm I'm learning this and watching like watching
and analyzing other people if you're getting attention and
you're doing something wrong. It'll escalate to the point of
where you're doing the wrong thing and it is like super
terrible and then you get in trouble and then.
People incriminate themselves and tell the Internet too much
and I personally respect you not posting your daughter on your
social media because I I have a beef almost with people who like
post super spicy content and direct that towards a certain
audience and then put their four year old on that same page I.
Don't know. People do, but that irks me to
my core when I see and I support sex work.
Like, honestly. Like, we talk about only fans,
all with all kinds of people. And I love only fans.
Like one day I might have an only fans.
Who knows? Yeah.
Also right now. Also right now.
That's what I I'm always telling her Like do it.
Fucking do it. Always telling me to do it.
Show me them PP VS OK. But I'm like, why would you
market your content to like dudes and then put your four and
five year old and I've seen them do it in bathing suits in the
bathtub with just like little emojis?
And I'm just like, it makes me cringe.
And I don't even like women who don't do sex work to put their
four year old in a bathtub and put it on Facebook.
I don't like any of that, but people do and it's weird to me.
Yeah, I don't, I don't know. There's also there's lots of
weird different things that I that I absolutely hate like
that. But and and you can edit out, I
learned too that if even if you put the emoji over it, they can
screen it so that or you they can take the emoji off of it.
That's what I heard. That's what I heard, that those
emojis like, even when people think that, like they blurred
out the message that you can actually strip all that away if
you know what you're doing, that's crazy.
I don't. I don't like it.
See, I try really hard to keep my son off because he's eight.
I try really hard to keep him off my page.
Like my mom vlog in the morning is always like my end of having
discussions with him, you know, and that side of things.
But like, my daughter is going to be 12 and she loves being on
my page and he comes here every couple of months and you know,
like we'll do something like fun or funny.
But I'm always like your tummy can't be showing when we're on
here. Like we, you know, you need to
have longer pants on when if you're going to come on the
page. And like, there's a different
expectation. And I don't like parent shaming.
But I do think like, regardless of what kind of content that you
do, there's never a reason that your child needs to be half
dressed online. And maybe there are people who
are just maybe these people are super innocent and they've never
had any kind of like sexual trauma in their life.
And that's so awesome. But like I can't relate.
And the first thing I. Think of is that.
Yeah, I didn't. Never.
You just don't know people's intentions.
And I know that a lot of people think like, well, I know
everyone on my friends list. Like we're just talking like
basic social, social media and you just don't know who the
weirdos are and like what they're doing with that.
And there's just people that use their kids for clout.
So I super respect that, that you, like, keep that private and
kind of keep that off of your social media because some people
do it as, like, look at me, I'm a good parent.
You know what I mean? Like, look at me.
Look at me and my kid. And I just love when people know
that there's like a fine line. They're like giving your kid the
consent to like, want to be on social media rather than just
just forcing them. Or, you know, I see people that
create their kids accounts and like, it'll be like ran by my
mom and dad and I'm like, why did we make this?
You know, like, why did you make your kid an Instagram?
It doesn't make sense to me. No, dude, I've got.
I got at least two on my freaking thing right now.
That's my little girl. And then Lydia.
That's your daughter. Yeah.
Oh my gosh, she's grown. Yeah, she's 14.
She's taller than me. I have a 14 year old daughter.
Dude, I had her when I was a baby, but I left, dude.
I left. We're at Legoland, dude.
I left him next to this freaking macaroni and cheese, dude.
I don't know how much it was. It was like 30 bucks, dude.
I was like, you're not getting that freaking macaroni, dude.
Like, it's too much. Like, you don't even be buying
that freaking fancy macaroni. We're in, we're in this cabana.
Didn't I leave for two seconds, come back?
And they had. They had spammed my my phone and
my tablet with pictures of them. And this.
They did a whole photo shoot with them and Lydia and Lexi and
my freaking. And their macaroni dude is the
most childish thing, dude. Macaroni.
Yeah, Lydia bought the macaroni and then they spammed my phone.
I had macaroni pictures all over my my smart watch, my tablet.
They're just they're so childish.
It's this funniest thing you ever seen.
They have the cutest, funniest, coolest relationship ever.
They're so naughty. Besides, like what you create
online, do you do like other artwork?
I feel like you're super artistic, so do you do you
create any artwork? I mean, I know you said you're a
stylist and a Barber, but like, do you do artwork or make art?
Dude, I think every time I get a cool idea, I put it on my body.
Like my whole back, my whole room.
You're a walking piece of art then, yeah?
No, I do like I do some really cool.
I need to start putting my stuff online.
That's what someone was telling me the other day is like, why
don't you put your hair stuff online?
And I was like, I don't know, because I do.
I do some really cool like skin fades with the colors, with like
the texture, like the cool stuff.
I do it here. I I have like 300 and something
clients a month that come in and I whip through them.
I need to hire, I had an assistant.
I need to hire rehire an assistant to record some of that
stuff because some of this stuff is really cool.
Some of my hair stuff, I do extensions and some of those
colors too, like the fashion colors, actually.
So crazy about Mimi too is I followed Mimi because she was,
she was, she took the hair videos, dude.
And I followed her hair videos back in the day.
And then when I seen her in person at the, I was like, Oh my
gosh, no way. Like she's like, yeah.
And I started talking to her about hair and like, I was just
like Bunny was there. And I've always, I never got
starstruck by Bunny which is crazy because like I always felt
really at home with her and with Jelly.
I just felt really at home with both of them.
Like that's mom and dad like that's sister brother like out
like at home with I still split her open and eat her like I was
starving to death but I always felt like at home with her you
know what I mean? But I was so with Mimi I
remember seeing her and and all her hair stuff like Mimi has
done some freaking cool shit. So she's actually impacted my my
hair career in a way with some of her fashion color stuff.
So if my if I So the answer to the question would be yes.
I guess I do do a lot of cool stuff in the hair world that I
should start sharing. Maybe this will.
Maybe this whole podcast will inspire me to start 'cause I
have the whole set up down here too.
I have a camera set up and everything, but I just come into
work, get all crank out. I'll crank out 12 haircuts and
go home and I don't like. What's crazy about content is
the stuff that you think is just basic, like cranking it out,
just doing your day-to-day. People are interested in that,
they want. I know, dude.
You could make a hair TikTok and you could literally go viral for
hair videos and definitely build a separate following.
Aside from your sexiness and everything else you do like, you
could make a hair TikTok in literally those fantasy colors.
Like, people love watching those videos.
They I like. I've never even had a fantasy
color. You could do like erotic hair
videos. Like you could like like, you
know, like mixing the color so that it makes a sound and you
can like ASMR you can be like, yeah, you like when I mix it,
don't you like? Yeah, see, you're doing that,
dude. I'm going to send you some.
You're going to do it. You do the voice over for it.
I'll do it too. She will I.
Like mixing it, but you're like licking.
Yogurt. You like that?
Yeah, I got you. Yeah.
Yeah, yeah. I like it.
It's spanking it. Spanking the yogurt.
Yeah. I love it.
So what is one goal that you want to work towards in 2024?
Man, I really well this is. I have like stupid small, like
small things that I like want to do with my money is what is what
I'm like always. I always want.
I want to try to be a better person and I want to take care
of my mom. I moved back in with my mom to
take to help take care of her after my dad passed.
I want to wrap all this is this is silly.
I want to wrap all my. I want to wrap my vehicle, my
four Wheeler and my side by side to match and my camper.
That's some stupid things that I've been thinking.
About I want them. All to match.
I don't know dude. I want them all to match, so I
feel like I'd be sick as fuck. I even know my foiler.
I don't even know if that that foiler's old.
I kind of hate it. But I just I I was thinking
about. I've been thinking that about
that a lot. I want my side by side at least
to match my truck. You know if you did like black
and and another color then you could make them different
variations like different designs per thing so that it was
like still on your theme but different variation where
instead of just getting a flat color.
I thought about doing 'cause my truck's already red.
I thought about doing like one side black and like doing the
Harley Quinn stuff. But then one of my friends said
that she wanted to do that to her vehicle and I was like, oh,
I can't do it now. Tell her to suck a Dick.
Tell her that's your idea. We cuddled it like last time I
went to, you know, I'm like, I'm such a lesbo.
We cuddled. Last time I went to, I went to
your house. I stayed in your house when I
was out. And I I do, I I have a rehab
center that I work with with girls.
Like, I'll go in there and hang out with them and talk to them
and stuff. And so I stayed at the lady.
She is the, like the president of it.
I stayed at her house and like, we cuddled.
That's the person. So, like, I don't want to.
I don't want to. Be like the pillow, talked the
idea. So you got to let her have it.
Yeah, no. Like, I think I woke up and we
were holding hands, dating, like our faces were touching.
So now I kind of like her now that's that's the real deal.
I kind of like her now, so I don't want to.
Did you guys hear that? I did not Zoom has this awesome
noise cancelling thing. Like it's really difficult for
us to hear things behind the scenes.
I do have a question though. She is so fucking cute.
It's this blonde girl that like occasionally she does like
pigtail things. She has a nose ring that goes
across the bridge of her nose. I've seen her in videos recently
with Lydia. She did the clown faces with
her. I can't think of her name.
Lex. Carbon source, Lex.
Maybe. Oh yeah, dude, She's cute.
She's super. Fucking cute.
She's so nice. Oh yeah.
They're so nice. They're really nice.
They're really soft, dude. There's like, they're they're
really soft. You have the best job ever.
I love my job. Yeah, so when do you do you go
make content with people or do you just stack content or do you
just on a win? So, like, every time I like, all
right, Every time I masturbate, I record it no matter what and I
push that out. I'll do one free like
masturbating video a month on there and then I'll go to Vegas.
I I I this this starting this month I'll go to Vegas.
I I go the 15th to the 16th. I'll go once a once a month I'll
go to Vegas or like I'll go to Pittsburgh.
I'm not going to Pittsburgh. Pittsburgh.
I was going to do stuff with with people in Pittsburgh but I
don't think I'm going out that way anymore.
I'll do I'll go to Vegas, California.
I was talking to some people in Arizona.
I think the trippy house is like my home base.
I think that I don't and like Charlie's out there too.
So it's like it's easier just to go to Vegas and it's only 7
hours away so I can just drive. So once a month I'll record like
those type of like like the the BG videos, the BG boy girl.
It's I I'm trying to learn the terminology.
I still don't know it. I've been in it for years.
BGG GB B Oral sex I don't even know The two, don't even know
the terms. I know you all.
Look, we're bringing on the only fans, girls like we are.
We've been talking to a lot of people that have only fans.
And I love it. I love to see people who are
passionate about it because like, why not?
If you're passionate about it, let's go.
And she got, she's got it all. Look, she's got the terms she's
got. I need to learn it.
I need to learn it better, though.
Like, it came really easy for me.
And that's what's terrible is like, I stopped doing it.
I had AI, had a really good following on there and I
stopped. I'll look at my freaking my you
can look at your statistics or whatever.
Like I went super hard and then like got into that relationship.
That's what that's one thing. If I could tell any girls right
now that's going to start dude. If you're going to get in a
relationship don't. While you're cranking, while
you're cranking up the dollar game.
If you're like I was going to give him like some kind of
inspirational thing but like don't.
So this I I don't freaking diarrhea.
OK. Let me tell you I'm I was flying
out. I was flying out.
We had the freaking only golf thing.
Yeah. The only golf.
The big deal was like everyone was coming.
We had like Skyler shark. We had, we had like a the whole
Carlosaurus legs. Everyone was coming, Dude, this
huge. We rented out for a golf course,
which ended up falling through to film porn on I'm dating this
Mormon guy, OK, sweet Mormon guy.
He's so nice. Never done the wrong thing in
his life. Just the sweetest guy in the
whole world. OK, sweetest guy.
This motherfucker gave me gonorrhea.
I got out and tested out there. I hadn't slept with anyone.
Besides, I did some scenes with another sex worker.
But we tested together, so tested together.
Then got with this Mormon boy from Vernal, this nice Mormon
sweet boy cake, and then did the we went, we all went to test
together and my test didn't show up.
And I was like, what the fuck? Like, what's going on?
So I called down there. I had fucking gonorrhea, dude.
After I had. We had prepared this, we had
built this like thing that we were going to do with all these
models for so long. And then I had fucking
gonorrhea, so I had to sit out and like, it was so fucking
embarrassing. But this dude also convinced me
that I that I had gotten it from like a toilet seat or something.
Dude, he's like, no, I didn't give it to you.
And then I stayed with him. It's the same dude who dumped
me. I stayed with him for a little
bit after that like a fucking, I don't even know.
Like just don't do the dude thing if you're going to make
some dollars and you're in it and you're actually on a good
stroll. Don't like.
Because I didn't have a lot of confidence before I started
doing only fans. I had a little bit like only
fans gave me some like like I'm I'm we're ready to party most of
the time. Like if we're like if I'm on if
I'm having some like I'm I'm feeling good about myself
majority of the time now. But before I started doing only
fans, I kind of just like questioned my sexuality a little
bit. I kind of questioned my
sexiness. So like throughout the only fans
thing I I got like this, like I started getting this like sexy
feeling about myself. So like I would I'd see dudes
and I'd attract dudes. So I got one.
You know what I mean? Don't do that.
Like my if anyone's watching this, if you're if you're
talking to a dude after you've been, you just started doing a
lonely fan and you feel a little sexy and like he's nice.
Don't fucking do it. Make your money.
Yeah, don't do it. And moral of the story, Mormon's
still gaslight. So like, dude.
Dude. Gave you gonorrhea.
What kind of toilet seats are you sitting on too?
Where he's like, oh that for sure.
That was that toilet seat at 7-11, dude.
That dude is terrible. I believed it too.
Everyone at my work, like I would come in and be like it was
the most. I've never been in a toxic
relationship before. That was my first one and it was
so bad, like I'd go home and he'd take my phone.
I think there's even like a mixed.
I think there was a point in time too where Bunny was texting
me because she wanted me to go to the This is crazy.
Bunny was want me to go to the thing in Salt Lake.
She texts me and said, hey, how are you doing?
He took my phone that night and sent her a bunch of pictures of
me and him trying to show her that we were happy.
Like it's some he's some fucked up shit dude.
Like, and I had oh man, he's he's on some fuckery shit.
I'm so glad I got away from that dude.
Like. Congratulations, It makes me
want to like. Throw you at parties?
Yeah, dude, party. I just don't feel like you would
date a Mormon dude, is there? Like, I just feel like you don't
even. That doesn't even look like
someone that you would date. To be I met him when I was
playing soccer. So, like, I'm pretty good at
soccer and I play Coed soccer and he was also good at soccer.
So like the whole soccer season we had this little romance, OK?
And then like, when soccer season went over, we just stayed
together. So like we we played good soccer
together are. Fucking me and Paige's faces as
you're fucking talking. We're like, what the fuck?
Yeah, I played soccer, dude. I played soccer.
I just don't see this guy like, piquing your interest.
I see you with someone like like I saw that video you made with
yellow. If I see you with someone who
looks like yellow, I'm stereotyping fucking oh, this
is. Funny.
You should do that. Like, OK, Oh my God, I'm.
I'm glad you bring that up because I want to talk about
this too. So, like, I'm.
I'm with Alyssa, My friend Alyssa, she works for the PPG
Arena, the hockey arena in Pittsburgh.
So IA Bunny told me she got tickets for me.
I'm like, oh, cool, Like, so I go get the tickets.
I had no idea they were going to be like, backstage, like I'm
invited to barbecue and I didn't even know.
I was just cool with whatever. Like, I'm just, I'm here to
chill. Like, wahoo, we already had
tickets. And I was like, hey, that's why
I love her so much too, 'cause I texted her.
I was like, hey, if you can get better tickets, like, that's
cool. If not like, I love you, I'll
see you after blah, blah. I, like, freaked out, 'cause
they handed me. They slid me the tickets.
K and like, it's like a sparkly wristband, a backstage thing.
And another thing. And I'm like, these aren't for
me. And the lady slid them back.
She's like, they're for you. I'm like, no, these are wait,
Like, I don't think these are for me.
And like, I fought with the lady for a minute and the lady got
frustrated. She's like, these are for you.
They'll have your name on them. And I was like, oh, cool, OK, so
I went back there and there's all these like like Brantley
Gilbert was back there. Like all these fancy peoples
back there. I don't know who any of these
people are. Alyssa's teaching me Alyssa's
like, that's Brantley Gilbert. That's so and so and I'm like,
oh, cool, Like and like I just wanted all, like, I'll get hyper
focused because I've got, I've got a couple learning
disabilities and I've got severe ADHD.
So sometimes I'm a little, like socially awkward and like, I'll
lose my train of thought and stuff sometimes, but everyone
that's around me out, they they're used to it and they love
me anyway. But I just all I could think
about was I wanted to whiff the ball.
I wanted to whiff a golf ball because there's like two sets of
golf balls. So I'd walk up there and I was
holding the golf putter and I was waiting for them to bring me
a golf ball, but they never bring them to me.
And then Yelawolf comes walking out and my best friend Whitney
that runs the salon, me and her would scream.
Catfish Billy, dude. Like, when we drink white claws.
Yeah. Screaming at the top, We're
like, so like, I see Alyssa, like, reaches over to me and
she's like, just go talk to him. And I'm like, OK.
So like, I walk up to him and I'm like, catfish Billy.
He's like catfish Billy to him. And he's like looking at me.
And he's like, yeah, I'm like, dude, can I take a video?
Can I take a video of me to send him my friend?
And he's like, yeah, so I took the video, dude.
I'm like I was laughing so hard there was tears coming out of my
eyes and I only I got a picture with Jelly Bunny kept trying to
get me to come get a picture with her in Jelly.
But like, I get I was just so I get so socially awkward
sometimes. That was the that was so crazy.
And so like that was my first Bunny just loves me so much and
I freaking and she's just the best.
She's the freaking best. And I met Big Sexy too that day.
Oh what's her name? Is it Big?
Sexy. Who's that?
On TikTok, Big Sexy. I don't know, Taylor Champs.
No, no, no. I want to meet you dude.
I would eat me. Oh my gosh, dude.
I would split her open and eat her like I was starving to death
too, dude. I want to meet her so bad I.
Want to eat her? Boss, who is this?
Big, sexy dude. She's so sweet.
She was there at that show. Big sexy, big big sexy.
Oh dude, this girl. She's so cool.
Her wife are freaking sweet. Dude, wait.
Oh. Big Sexy.
Yeah, dude. Yeah, I follow, Yeah.
Love, love. She was there.
She's like, super freaking humble, Too.
Super humble. Super sweet.
I love the, like the way Bunny treats people.
It's like you're the only person there, you know what I mean?
Like it's. A little.
Bit like she treats you like you're the only person there.
And I was so salty because during the tour I had tickets to
a couple different shows and I'm just that person.
Like I don't want to reach out and be like, hey, do anything
for me. So I just get tickets to the
shows. And she was like, you were at
the show. And I was like, yeah, you know,
I went backstage with scary. We smoked and chilled and
whatever. She was like, and no one told me
I was like, they said you were busy.
She was like, you never do that again.
She's like, you text me and tell me you're here.
And I was like, I was like, OK. And so then by the next show,
she was off the tour taking care of her dad.
So I got like, all the the barbecue and all those
wristbands you were talking about.
We were back there and Yelawolf was there.
And I don't really fangirl over people.
I never have. But Yellow Wolf started talking
to me. And then his like, sidekick or
his like, God, whatever his name was, was like, stop talking to
him. I was like, he came up to me
like he's talking to me. So then the show proceeds on and
I see Yellow Wolf again and I'm like, can we get a picture?
And he was like, yeah, for sure. So we took a picture.
Then after the show there was like a four year old kid break
dancing Okay like straight up his mom on TikTok or on
Instagram There's a four year old kid break dancing in an
Adidas jumpsuit. I'll never forget this.
The kid was killing it. We're all hyping him up.
I look over and Yelawolf is standing beside me.
I'm like, good Lord like from I'm like what the hell?
So we're just standing there. We're all back there by the tour
buses and this four year old kid is literally standing on his
head. He's doing flips.
He's doing backflips like he is popping his shit and then like
struggle. Jennings is there, like everyone
gathered around this four year old kid and we were like like
hyping him up and it was just like such a crazy memory that I
was just like, is this real life right now?
Like what is going on? But that's like what Bunny does,
Like she puts you in places that you don't even expect, like
what's about to happen happens. But it was like, really cool
because I met the people who created the tequila that
sponsors Jelly in all of his shows, Bandido Tequila.
So I met the owner that like, made the tequila.
And I was like, I always thought that was the coolest thing ever.
Like these see, people that have, like, created tequila have
probably no clue who Jelly was, sponsored him.
And now they're at the show. Like, I'm asking everybody if
they want shots, trying to pour shots in your mouth and stuff.
And I'm like, I don't drink tequila.
I'm good. But thank you.
Like I. Know I'm glad I didn't.
That I didn't. I didn't drink very much.
I didn't think I was drinking that at that show.
I don't think I Oh no, I drink at the other show.
Me and Lydia had to switch shoes.
Yeah. Did you go to a couple different
shows? Yeah, I went.
I went to the one in Vegas, and then the one next year I'm going
to go to the one in Salt Lake, I think.
I didn't go to the one in Salt Lake, 'cause I wanted to go with
Lydia, wanted me to go with her, and I wanted.
I wanted to go with her, too. But I want to go to one of the
smaller ones, 'cause I went, I went, like, hard, you know what
I mean? With the big ones, I wanted,
like, not, there's not going to be any smaller ones now.
But like, I guess I missed. I guess we we missed that
opportunity. There's not going to be another
small show. That's crazy, huh?
It's crazy because like 3 1/2 years ago Jelly did a show,
there was 2000 people there and then afterwards he did a second
show acoustic and there was 400 people there and I was at both
and he it was so intimate, like it was just like from me to you
with like a guitar. His band wasn't there nothing.
And like his drummer, I went to high school with his drummer.
So it's like, all of these signs have like, brought me to Bunny
like a million times. Like being at those intimate
shows, like being at a dive bar and watching Jelly, Like that's
not happening again, You know what I mean?
Like that would happen ever again.
But it's so cool, like you said, like you were there and you were
like just having a good time, just like living your best life.
Like that's what they do. They just bring people into the
room and like, everyone's having a good time.
And that's why people hate on them is because they're not at
the table or they're not in the room like they're haters.
It's really because they're hating from outside the club and
they can't get in. So they're like, fuck everybody
inside the club, you know? Like they're like whatever, but
you get. In I love it.
How long is that everybody in the club getting tested?
No, it's it's a it's a Chris Brown song, I think Where You
Ain't From. All that.
Can't even get in. Oh yeah, Where did where did
Gypsy Guy go though? Jay Quan, Where?
Did Where did Jay Quan at? He dipped.
He did dip. You guys, Jim and I, do you want
to pull a card for Carissa? So at the end of every episode,
we pull a human design card and it is just like a it's called my
human design. So we all have a human design,
and if you want to know more about that or anyone listening,
download My human Design. It's an app and it will tell you
about your human design, but she's going to pull you a card.
And we're so grateful. Thank you for coming on today.
Like, I hope that we get to meet you in person one day too,
'cause. I'll call you out.
Let's go. We have already been to Utah and
it was a scary, scary time. Like what?
We would love to like just bring a bunch of people together and
meet in person. Like we can't wait till we can
record in person. You said, well where do you all
record that? And I was like, this is our
manifestation, like it's coming to life.
We will be recording in person the next time you come on to the
podcast. Yeah, I'll fly out for sure.
Love it. All right, so you got card 64
for Etherea. It's like sky clouds.
The sign is Virgo, the gift is poetry, and your shadow is
confusion. Like every high frequency state,
you cannot merely bypass the shadow in order to claim the
gift. Embrace your confusion and your
inner turmoil first, then see how much of your pain is a
fabrication of the mind. It's not so much about what
happens to you, but about the chokehold of your thoughts
surrounding it. When you break this chain and
free yourself from your own mental entrapment, you can
immerse yourself fully in your own experience with its joy and
sorrow and everything in between.
Then emerge again with new found imagination and artistry.
Become the masterpiece and live the poem.
And then your shadow is confusion.
A sense of confusion marks your life when you're led by the
shadow and in an attempt to figure out who you are and why
you're here, you mistakenly look to the outside world for solace
and direction, which ironically leads to more confusion and
separation from self. In the repressive state.
You may try to take on others truths as your own, like a form
of osmosis by by imitating their lifestyles or careers or paths
as a way of obtaining wholeness. Though this route is futile.
In the reactive state you you reject everything associated
within the status quo and try to reach fulfillment through a
process of elimination which leaves you feeling isolated and
numb. Your themes are an inner world,
artistry, experience and love. Isn't that spot on?
Dude, that's crazy. That's beautiful.
I like it. That's crazy.
Talking about artistry, I feel like that is your 2024.
Like, that's it. Baby artistry, like showing the
world Carissa really is, aside from what you've already shown.
And you were talking about social media and like your
relationship with other people being that you wanted it to be
like love, and the way that you're expressing your love with
people is a creativity. So then for that to be one of
the themes of your like reading is cool.
Well, dude, no. Like the confusion.
Like, I wanted that. This is crazy real.
Like I wanted that Mormon love like that life with like the
like the wife and the husband and that and that.
And that's why I was so freaking confused because I wanted that's
what I wanted, dude. And I still that parts of me
still want that. But I You can't have both.
You can't have for me. I can't have both.
I got to focus on what I'm focused on right now.
That's so crazy. That's cool.
That stuff's cool. Y'all.
Love it. Thank you so much for coming on
to the podcast. Do you want to tell people how
they can find you? And then we will also link that
information in the podcast description.
Oh, it's Carissa didit.com. Carissadidit.com.
That's pretty fucking easy. Yeah, with my family photo, huh?
If we ever meet, we got to do them old school photos.
Oh my gosh. Oh like the in jeans.
Like 80s style. JC Penney, We're going to make a
pack. Do you know the fireworks?
Yeah. Where are these coming from?
Like. This I don't know.
Like. Jesus himself.
OK, I'm wearing my Jesus shirt. This was a witch, probably
actually actually, right, Yeah. I loved him so much I put it on
a shirt because I believed it was true.
Yeah. I love it so much.
Well, thank you all for coming to another episode of Candy Land
and we look forward to seeing you all and next time.
Bye. Bye.