1 00:00:10,640 --> 00:00:16,400 Welcome to Fucking Candy Land, hosted by Rampage and Gemini. 2 00:00:29,560 --> 00:00:33,920 Welcome back to another episode of Candyland. 3 00:00:33,920 --> 00:00:37,760 So tonight we have a guest as promised, and we're really, 4 00:00:37,760 --> 00:00:40,680 really excited. So I'm going to let Jim and I 5 00:00:40,680 --> 00:00:43,440 tell us how she's feeling and introduce our guest. 6 00:00:44,000 --> 00:00:48,520 Well, I'm fucking excited our guest came here today with a 7 00:00:48,520 --> 00:00:53,560 penis pillow brushed hair. Welcome, Carissa, to THE Fucking 8 00:00:53,560 --> 00:00:58,360 Podcast. Oh, what's up guys? 9 00:00:59,400 --> 00:01:04,160 How are you doing, Carissa? Oh man, I'm just happy to be 10 00:01:04,160 --> 00:01:05,640 here. It's nice to be actually to, 11 00:01:05,640 --> 00:01:08,800 like, hang out and not have to leave the vicinities. 12 00:01:08,800 --> 00:01:13,040 I can just chill. Yeah, you can be in your comfy 13 00:01:13,040 --> 00:01:14,320 clothes. You can be kicking it. 14 00:01:14,320 --> 00:01:16,160 You didn't even have to brush your hair for it. 15 00:01:16,160 --> 00:01:21,120 But you look beautiful. So I have tons of questions for 16 00:01:21,120 --> 00:01:23,560 you. As somebody who's been following 17 00:01:23,880 --> 00:01:27,840 your account for years, I feel like I know little things about 18 00:01:27,840 --> 00:01:30,240 your life that I want to expand on. 19 00:01:30,920 --> 00:01:34,240 So can I just start like going at you with questions get. 20 00:01:34,680 --> 00:01:37,080 It dude, I'm ready. Hammer me down. 21 00:01:37,600 --> 00:01:41,640 My first question where you said no topics were off limits, so 22 00:01:41,640 --> 00:01:50,560 we're starting with your pussy. So I actually found you from you 23 00:01:50,560 --> 00:01:55,400 doing the horror Olympics on the Dunblanc podcast. 24 00:01:57,040 --> 00:02:03,680 That's how I found you too. And I first of all, I loved you 25 00:02:03,680 --> 00:02:06,240 right away. And the reason was that, like, 26 00:02:06,240 --> 00:02:08,440 everybody had to, like, show their talent, right? 27 00:02:08,440 --> 00:02:13,280 So, like, I forget what the one girl was even doing, but I know 28 00:02:13,280 --> 00:02:16,760 that Lydia squirted. And then I know that you came 29 00:02:16,760 --> 00:02:19,280 out with this like, gigantic fucking. 30 00:02:19,280 --> 00:02:21,040 What was that? It was like a. 31 00:02:22,480 --> 00:02:24,840 It's, it's Brendan. It was my friend Brendan's 32 00:02:24,840 --> 00:02:28,240 dragon Dildo, dude. It was the only, I thought I was 33 00:02:28,280 --> 00:02:31,920 sitting on his mantle and I was like, and I had the podcast and 34 00:02:31,920 --> 00:02:34,760 I sent a video to Mimi. I was like, dude, should I try 35 00:02:34,760 --> 00:02:37,200 to shove this in me at the War Olympics? 36 00:02:37,200 --> 00:02:41,600 And she's like, yes, I'm like, all right, dry her out. 37 00:02:42,560 --> 00:02:46,600 It was a value. So like, my question is, did you 38 00:02:46,600 --> 00:02:49,680 have to do anything to like build up to that? 39 00:02:49,680 --> 00:02:52,360 Like days going in where you like, I'm going to massage my 40 00:02:52,360 --> 00:02:54,480 shit, I'm going to olive oil her down. 41 00:02:54,680 --> 00:02:57,440 Or did you go in there and you were just like, I'm going to pop 42 00:02:57,440 --> 00:02:59,800 it open? No, that was that day, dude. 43 00:02:59,800 --> 00:03:02,600 I messaged Mimi that day and I was like, should I just bring 44 00:03:02,600 --> 00:03:04,280 this in? And she's like, yeah, I wish I 45 00:03:04,280 --> 00:03:05,480 would have. I think if I would have been 46 00:03:05,480 --> 00:03:08,480 able to prep oh. What? 47 00:03:08,480 --> 00:03:10,280 Do you have fireworks going behind you, dude? 48 00:03:10,840 --> 00:03:12,200 I don't know. Is that weird? 49 00:03:13,560 --> 00:03:15,400 I've never. Seen it? 50 00:03:15,400 --> 00:03:16,680 That's incredible. I've never. 51 00:03:17,280 --> 00:03:18,680 This place is haunted. I'm not. 52 00:03:18,880 --> 00:03:21,400 I'm not messing with you dude. And spirits love me like I have 53 00:03:21,400 --> 00:03:23,320 no bad buju. Like, I'm here. 54 00:03:23,320 --> 00:03:25,920 Like we could chill if you want. Like I'm here for you. 55 00:03:27,760 --> 00:03:31,800 So I have a couple questions before we just dive in that 56 00:03:31,800 --> 00:03:33,600 part. How did you meet Bunny? 57 00:03:33,840 --> 00:03:36,000 Was that the first time you met Bunny or did you know Bunny? 58 00:03:37,240 --> 00:03:41,280 No, that was the first time. So Charlie, how do you even know 59 00:03:41,280 --> 00:03:43,200 how that came to be? Charlie said there was a horror 60 00:03:43,200 --> 00:03:46,000 Olympics and me and Lydia were like, we'll be in it, you know 61 00:03:46,000 --> 00:03:47,760 what I mean? Like, Charlie's judging. 62 00:03:47,760 --> 00:03:50,360 We're always supporting CC's my freaking main man. 63 00:03:50,360 --> 00:03:52,840 I love Charlie. So we went. 64 00:03:53,080 --> 00:03:54,760 We all met up that that was actually the first. 65 00:03:54,760 --> 00:03:56,360 This is the craziest deal, though, too. 66 00:03:56,560 --> 00:03:58,120 That was the first day I met Lydia. 67 00:03:58,480 --> 00:03:59,680 That's how. That's how tight. 68 00:03:59,680 --> 00:04:04,760 We clicked so fast that day, like we did a little photo shoot 69 00:04:04,800 --> 00:04:07,160 and then we did the whole Olympics and we like 70 00:04:07,160 --> 00:04:09,080 immediately. We're like in love soul mates. 71 00:04:09,080 --> 00:04:11,400 Like together. This is we're in. 72 00:04:11,400 --> 00:04:14,120 It's like together. I know it. 73 00:04:14,560 --> 00:04:17,200 I think it's crazy. And that was during the 74 00:04:17,200 --> 00:04:21,079 pandemic, right? Oh, I think it was before. 75 00:04:22,200 --> 00:04:25,600 I think it was before all this stuff hit, maybe call or after. 76 00:04:25,600 --> 00:04:27,400 I don't know. My timeline is really messed up 77 00:04:27,760 --> 00:04:29,840 because I just like to go with the flow, so I don't really 78 00:04:29,840 --> 00:04:31,600 know. What year was it? 79 00:04:31,600 --> 00:04:34,680 Do you remember? 2020 So it was. 80 00:04:34,840 --> 00:04:36,160 So it was. It was a pandemic, wasn't it? 81 00:04:36,600 --> 00:04:39,800 Yeah, because I feel like that's when Bunny was like really 82 00:04:39,800 --> 00:04:43,160 getting it cranked up with like the like, not only just the 83 00:04:43,200 --> 00:04:45,960 spicy content, but just like the entertainment. 84 00:04:46,600 --> 00:04:49,760 Because that was the year that I met Bunny for the first time as 85 00:04:49,760 --> 00:04:52,040 well. And I feel like that year she 86 00:04:52,040 --> 00:04:56,120 really the same with Jelly was like stacking so much amazing 87 00:04:56,120 --> 00:05:00,280 content that like created Save Me and that's when he started 88 00:05:00,280 --> 00:05:02,440 doing acoustic. And like, honestly, I feel like 89 00:05:02,440 --> 00:05:05,800 that's what merged him to where he is now and we look back like 90 00:05:05,800 --> 00:05:07,720 that's about to be four years ago. 91 00:05:07,960 --> 00:05:11,400 That's crazy, huh? Yeah, that's fucking nuts. 92 00:05:12,680 --> 00:05:15,280 Yeah, 'cause I did that. I did a really super toxic 93 00:05:15,280 --> 00:05:18,680 relationship and then I got back into it just now like hard and 94 00:05:18,680 --> 00:05:21,400 heavy. So like I that whole toxicity I 95 00:05:21,400 --> 00:05:25,880 had, like in the middle I kind of messed up a lot of my a lot 96 00:05:25,880 --> 00:05:27,520 of my chain waves I had going on. 97 00:05:30,560 --> 00:05:33,880 Because like, when I first saw you, that's when I, like, 98 00:05:33,880 --> 00:05:37,280 started following you. And I remember you hadn't 99 00:05:37,280 --> 00:05:40,200 tattooed your chin and stuff yet, because I remember thinking 100 00:05:40,200 --> 00:05:42,640 like that. Fucking looks like it hurts. 101 00:05:43,080 --> 00:05:45,200 Yeah dude, I went hard, huh? My back. 102 00:05:45,240 --> 00:05:46,880 I got a tattoo today, dude. I go. 103 00:05:46,880 --> 00:05:50,920 I'm so extra all the time. I went and got tattooed this 104 00:05:50,920 --> 00:05:54,360 morning. That's crazy. 105 00:05:55,000 --> 00:05:58,040 Why did you get tattooed? Just filler on my back. 106 00:05:58,040 --> 00:06:01,040 It's covered, but I'm just I'm I got the numbing cream. 107 00:06:01,040 --> 00:06:04,080 I'm going to try out the numbing cream because I I've never tried 108 00:06:04,080 --> 00:06:07,080 it because I finished my whole. I have a tiger on my back. 109 00:06:07,080 --> 00:06:09,520 I just want to finish it dude. But it hurts so bad and I feel 110 00:06:09,800 --> 00:06:14,480 like IA tire a tiger. Oh, I was like a fucking tire. 111 00:06:14,480 --> 00:06:17,560 How big is Tiger? No. 112 00:06:17,560 --> 00:06:19,080 A tiger. No, it's sick. 113 00:06:19,280 --> 00:06:21,360 I just, I need to finish it. But it hurts so bad. 114 00:06:21,360 --> 00:06:22,920 And I thought, I don't like pain anymore. 115 00:06:22,920 --> 00:06:25,320 Like I want to chill. I don't want to. 116 00:06:25,320 --> 00:06:26,600 I don't want to be in pain anymore. 117 00:06:27,280 --> 00:06:28,920 He's like, sponsored by Michelin. 118 00:06:29,200 --> 00:06:31,800 I got a fucking tire. Tires are sick. 119 00:06:32,200 --> 00:06:34,600 Dude, it actually does look like a tire mark though. 120 00:06:35,160 --> 00:06:41,200 Like, kind of no. Oh my gosh, you are tatted. 121 00:06:42,120 --> 00:06:45,280 That's beautiful. It kind of looks like a tire 122 00:06:45,280 --> 00:06:48,200 mark, yeah. And if you. 123 00:06:48,320 --> 00:06:50,880 Yeah, if you guys are watching this, you guys can see her 124 00:06:51,040 --> 00:06:54,680 tattoos and everything. Yeah, it's all over my 125 00:06:54,720 --> 00:06:57,640 institute. You can see from out on my 126 00:06:57,680 --> 00:06:59,600 Twitter. Just go on my Twitter, you see 127 00:06:59,600 --> 00:07:04,600 everything. So whenever you did the horror 128 00:07:04,600 --> 00:07:07,600 Olympics, you met Bunny, but you were already friends with 129 00:07:07,600 --> 00:07:10,520 Charlie Classic. Everybody doesn't know who that 130 00:07:10,520 --> 00:07:13,720 is. And then you met Lydia that day, 131 00:07:14,040 --> 00:07:18,840 and was this like the start of you doing spicy content, or had 132 00:07:18,840 --> 00:07:23,280 you already been doing that? I I fell into the lap of I I I 133 00:07:23,280 --> 00:07:26,400 like fell into everyone's lap, like and build. 134 00:07:26,400 --> 00:07:33,000 I built so quick that day after I won the Horror Ellipse, I went 135 00:07:33,000 --> 00:07:34,840 hard. I think I only was doing it for 136 00:07:34,840 --> 00:07:38,880 like a couple months before that, 'cause like I hit up. 137 00:07:39,640 --> 00:07:42,400 I hit up Donnie, which he runs the trippy house. 138 00:07:42,400 --> 00:07:45,320 I hit up Donnie and I was like, say I want to come do some 139 00:07:45,320 --> 00:07:47,880 photos. Like, I'll come out And I I went 140 00:07:47,880 --> 00:07:49,320 to Vegas. That was my first time in Vegas. 141 00:07:49,320 --> 00:07:54,520 That was in November 2019. And then did some stuff with 142 00:07:54,520 --> 00:07:57,880 Charlie that weekend too. And then it just kind of started 143 00:07:57,880 --> 00:08:00,600 to build. I I met, I everyone I met like, 144 00:08:00,600 --> 00:08:03,240 I I like. I connected with, I guess like, 145 00:08:03,360 --> 00:08:06,000 oh hi. Like let's do this like I I, I 146 00:08:06,000 --> 00:08:09,960 came in it with just such an honest, wholesome view of it 147 00:08:10,240 --> 00:08:12,320 because a lot of people don't get that wholesome view of like 148 00:08:12,320 --> 00:08:14,720 sex work and stuff. They're like, it's not, you know 149 00:08:14,720 --> 00:08:16,680 what I mean? No, I have AI think it's like, I 150 00:08:16,680 --> 00:08:18,200 love it. I think it's so much fun. 151 00:08:18,640 --> 00:08:20,840 I'm in it like, and I love the people. 152 00:08:20,840 --> 00:08:22,280 I think it's fun and I like that. 153 00:08:22,280 --> 00:08:24,720 I think the people are creative. I think it's a bunch of artists. 154 00:08:25,280 --> 00:08:32,440 And 2020 I met, that's what I met Bunny. 155 00:08:32,440 --> 00:08:36,760 Mimi Haley, like the three loves of my life. 156 00:08:36,760 --> 00:08:37,200 Dude. I would. 157 00:08:37,440 --> 00:08:40,320 I would. I would do some things to Mimi. 158 00:08:40,760 --> 00:08:42,840 I would split her open and eat her like I. 159 00:08:42,880 --> 00:08:46,360 Was stalking telling you that bitch is so fucking hot. 160 00:08:46,360 --> 00:08:49,680 I tell Paige all the time. I'm like, oh, if you see her, 161 00:08:49,680 --> 00:08:52,960 just like touch her fucking boobs for me and tell her hi. 162 00:08:54,480 --> 00:08:57,880 I had a comment on my because like, I'm always after Jason. 163 00:08:57,880 --> 00:09:00,680 I'm always fight with Jason, her husband, not real fight, but 164 00:09:00,680 --> 00:09:03,000 we're fighting. And like, there was a comment on 165 00:09:03,000 --> 00:09:06,760 my TikTok and it was like, I'm getting total stalker vibes from 166 00:09:06,760 --> 00:09:10,200 Carissa. And like, I I don't even give a 167 00:09:10,280 --> 00:09:13,760 shit if it is like, I like when I first hugged her, the top of 168 00:09:13,760 --> 00:09:15,880 my lip touched her shoulder, dude. 169 00:09:16,080 --> 00:09:17,680 And like, I immediately fell in love. 170 00:09:17,920 --> 00:09:20,400 Like, like, I immediately fell in love with her. 171 00:09:20,400 --> 00:09:22,240 Like, I don't even give a fuck if it's stalker vibes. 172 00:09:22,240 --> 00:09:26,360 Like, I'm in love with you. Mimi Shaheen, we're in love. 173 00:09:26,520 --> 00:09:28,920 Jason, you're cool. You can see the background. 174 00:09:31,160 --> 00:09:34,800 I love that for you also. Also, shame. 175 00:09:36,360 --> 00:09:39,360 Yeah, Gemini is always like Mimi is my girl crush. 176 00:09:39,360 --> 00:09:43,840 I love. Mimi like and she and I like met 177 00:09:43,840 --> 00:09:46,840 because she found me through Bunny's podcast. 178 00:09:46,920 --> 00:09:51,400 So Gemini came to me for a reading and we basically, like, 179 00:09:51,400 --> 00:09:54,880 didn't know each other at all. And then like a year went by and 180 00:09:54,880 --> 00:09:57,600 she had started her own podcast, which is called Coven of 181 00:09:57,600 --> 00:10:00,000 Rejects. And she invited me on to her 182 00:10:00,000 --> 00:10:02,600 podcast. So we just like a credit Bunny 183 00:10:02,600 --> 00:10:05,960 as like our fairy godmother. And we took her that and then 184 00:10:05,960 --> 00:10:08,360 she put Fairy godmother in her BIOS. 185 00:10:08,360 --> 00:10:10,480 And I'm like, look, it's done. It's done. 186 00:10:10,480 --> 00:10:12,600 Like, this is the fairy godmother. 187 00:10:12,640 --> 00:10:15,400 But like, Bunny is such a inspiration. 188 00:10:15,400 --> 00:10:18,480 I swear like every episode, somehow she gets brought up 189 00:10:18,840 --> 00:10:22,440 because she's so motivational. She lets everyone be themselves 190 00:10:22,440 --> 00:10:25,720 and like pull their own unique talents up to the table. 191 00:10:25,960 --> 00:10:29,880 And she puts you in a spotlight and helps you expand in some 192 00:10:29,880 --> 00:10:34,120 way, even if it's just her genuine energy or like sharing 193 00:10:34,120 --> 00:10:37,360 her platforms or whatever. But it's just crazy because like 194 00:10:37,360 --> 00:10:40,400 me and Jim and I wouldn't know each other without Bunny. 195 00:10:40,400 --> 00:10:42,960 And then like, we found you through Bunny. 196 00:10:42,960 --> 00:10:46,160 So it's just like there's so much synchronicity with Bunny 197 00:10:46,160 --> 00:10:49,480 being our fairy godmother. Like everyone's fairy godmother, 198 00:10:49,480 --> 00:10:50,600 because he's. Just. 199 00:10:50,840 --> 00:10:53,920 Like magical. Yeah. 200 00:10:53,920 --> 00:10:56,640 Oh no, I I really do think she has something about her. 201 00:10:56,640 --> 00:11:00,560 Like something I was. I was in a super bad spot. 202 00:11:00,560 --> 00:11:02,520 It was after the podcast. It was already in that toxic 203 00:11:02,520 --> 00:11:05,280 relationship and she was checking on me, dude, at like 204 00:11:05,280 --> 00:11:08,400 the worst time, 'cause my dad had died and that dude had 205 00:11:08,400 --> 00:11:12,960 dumped me the same day. And yeah, it was crazy, dude. 206 00:11:12,960 --> 00:11:15,040 My I had a really, really hard time. 207 00:11:16,120 --> 00:11:18,000 And now I'm back out of it. And now I'm, I'm kicking ass. 208 00:11:18,040 --> 00:11:20,800 But she checked on me, her and Charlie checked on me. 209 00:11:20,800 --> 00:11:22,800 And like, I wrote her back and I was like, yeah, everything's 210 00:11:22,800 --> 00:11:25,880 good And but, like, it was really strange because she'll 211 00:11:25,880 --> 00:11:28,680 check on me when that's what I feel like. 212 00:11:28,680 --> 00:11:32,480 She has some, like there's some, like, spiritual, like healer. 213 00:11:32,880 --> 00:11:35,480 She has like some type of healer energy because she'll reach out 214 00:11:35,480 --> 00:11:38,800 to me at times when it's like, like, how did she know? 215 00:11:38,920 --> 00:11:41,000 How do you know what's going on? You know what I mean? 216 00:11:41,000 --> 00:11:46,000 Like, it's she's crazy. She's I I really do think she's 217 00:11:46,000 --> 00:11:48,720 some type of Angel healer. Something. 218 00:11:49,360 --> 00:11:51,320 Yeah. No, she is. 219 00:11:51,320 --> 00:11:54,440 And like, what's crazy is like the first time I ever read her 220 00:11:54,440 --> 00:11:57,080 cards in 2020. We met shortly after. 221 00:11:57,400 --> 00:12:01,040 And like just in the four years like this last four years, like 222 00:12:01,040 --> 00:12:05,080 look how exponential her growth has been because she tapped into 223 00:12:05,080 --> 00:12:08,520 like what I call like the treasure chest, like your soul's 224 00:12:08,520 --> 00:12:10,320 treasure. Like she tapped into that, like 225 00:12:10,520 --> 00:12:13,840 she always had money and and and notoriety and different things, 226 00:12:13,840 --> 00:12:17,720 but now she has impact, like an impact that she never had. 227 00:12:18,000 --> 00:12:21,200 And I think that when I first met her, she told me in our 228 00:12:21,200 --> 00:12:23,560 interview, she was like, I'm scared of it. 229 00:12:23,560 --> 00:12:26,400 Like I'm scared of what? Whatever it is. 230 00:12:26,400 --> 00:12:30,800 And then now she's like, no, I'm embracing it like this is, you 231 00:12:30,800 --> 00:12:32,120 know? And I do think that she does 232 00:12:32,120 --> 00:12:34,080 have a lot of natural healing qualities. 233 00:12:34,080 --> 00:12:37,000 That's why I like Spirit has been like telling her to write 234 00:12:37,000 --> 00:12:39,920 this book and like trying to get her to do these things because 235 00:12:40,160 --> 00:12:44,360 her energy is so healing and just like her presence is super 236 00:12:44,360 --> 00:12:46,200 healing. And the thing I like about her 237 00:12:46,440 --> 00:12:49,800 is like she's not intimidated by anyone or anything. 238 00:12:50,040 --> 00:12:52,080 She's just like, I'm going to face it head on. 239 00:12:52,080 --> 00:12:53,360 I'm going to pull up my own seat. 240 00:12:53,360 --> 00:12:55,120 I'm going to build my own fucking table. 241 00:12:55,440 --> 00:12:58,560 And she's rubbed all that off on, like me and Jim and I where 242 00:12:58,560 --> 00:13:02,240 a lot of people try to come between us or try to like stir 243 00:13:02,240 --> 00:13:04,960 up shit, but we like hold our bond. 244 00:13:04,960 --> 00:13:08,360 Even with her being in Idaho and me being in Kentucky, it's like 245 00:13:09,040 --> 00:13:10,920 so many people have tried to come between US. 246 00:13:10,920 --> 00:13:13,800 And I think it's because they're, they get intimidated by 247 00:13:13,800 --> 00:13:16,960 powerful people supporting one another, you know what I mean? 248 00:13:16,960 --> 00:13:19,920 And that's not funny. It's like there's no competition 249 00:13:20,200 --> 00:13:22,360 with anyone. And that's like taught me so 250 00:13:22,360 --> 00:13:25,800 much about, like how competition just happens at the bottom, You 251 00:13:25,800 --> 00:13:27,520 know, people at the top, they're collaborating. 252 00:13:27,960 --> 00:13:29,680 Dude, I've seen that. I've seen that. 253 00:13:29,720 --> 00:13:31,720 Oh, what did it? What was that saying? 254 00:13:31,720 --> 00:13:34,320 I've seen. I think it was just that 255 00:13:34,320 --> 00:13:36,800 competition happens at the bottom and collaboration happens 256 00:13:36,800 --> 00:13:38,400 at the top. Whoa, yeah. 257 00:13:39,000 --> 00:13:40,520 Sick as fuck. I love that shit. 258 00:13:41,240 --> 00:13:42,800 I'm off squeezing the penis. I love that shit. 259 00:13:43,160 --> 00:13:47,840 I think that's why I like, really, I really loved you when, 260 00:13:48,000 --> 00:13:49,720 like, I found you on the whole Olympics. 261 00:13:50,480 --> 00:13:53,520 Obviously we said that. But what I loved about you was 262 00:13:53,520 --> 00:13:56,160 actually your friendship with Lydia, and I think I told you 263 00:13:56,160 --> 00:13:59,640 that in our chat. It was like the fact that that 264 00:13:59,640 --> 00:14:02,520 was a moment where, like, it was a super competitive thing. 265 00:14:02,520 --> 00:14:04,240 It's going to be on social media. 266 00:14:04,520 --> 00:14:07,400 Like you're literally being judged by like fellow hot 267 00:14:07,400 --> 00:14:13,800 bitches and you guys were so friendly and kind to each other 268 00:14:13,800 --> 00:14:18,400 and like she came over and had to like help you try and get 269 00:14:18,400 --> 00:14:20,760 that thing in there. And I didn't know. 270 00:14:20,800 --> 00:14:25,520 Yeah, she was over here fucking arms deep, like helping you what 271 00:14:26,600 --> 00:14:30,200 you got to fucking do, you know? I just thought that was it was 272 00:14:30,200 --> 00:14:35,480 so sweet and just I think shows like how your friendship is 273 00:14:35,480 --> 00:14:38,600 where you guys are going to be connected like that instantly. 274 00:14:39,160 --> 00:14:41,400 Yeah, we go on. That's that's a crazy thing 275 00:14:41,400 --> 00:14:44,240 because there's like, there's been drama, like not between us, 276 00:14:44,240 --> 00:14:47,960 just like I'm not going to like talk about it, but and like I I 277 00:14:47,960 --> 00:14:50,400 have like a team of Redditors that have my back. 278 00:14:50,400 --> 00:14:52,840 Like I have a whole, like Reddit is crazy. 279 00:14:52,840 --> 00:14:55,280 But I have like, I have a crew on there and they love me and 280 00:14:55,280 --> 00:14:57,280 I'm like, yes, like thank you guys. 281 00:14:57,280 --> 00:15:02,200 But me and Lydia go on family vacations together and I do 282 00:15:02,200 --> 00:15:06,880 stuff together behind like without the Internet and back 283 00:15:06,880 --> 00:15:11,560 then I don't even know I don't know how that like I have I have 284 00:15:11,560 --> 00:15:14,200 certain friendships in my life. Like you guys have friendships 285 00:15:14,200 --> 00:15:19,680 in my life that are like that, that are like they just are. 286 00:15:19,680 --> 00:15:22,400 And nothing is going to be like able to penetrate that. 287 00:15:22,400 --> 00:15:24,720 Like what she said earlier like people will try to do stuff. 288 00:15:25,000 --> 00:15:27,440 Same with me and Lydia, same with the my, my friend that owns 289 00:15:27,440 --> 00:15:33,080 this salon. Like, it's like like if I try to 290 00:15:33,080 --> 00:15:37,360 visualize what that is, it's like a really strong, like 291 00:15:37,840 --> 00:15:43,000 golden metal force around us and like we we can we can roll over 292 00:15:43,000 --> 00:15:45,920 you and like or we can we can bring people in and love and 293 00:15:45,920 --> 00:15:49,000 like, create happiness and like nothing's going to penetrate 294 00:15:49,000 --> 00:15:51,640 that love that we have. Same with you guys. 295 00:15:51,640 --> 00:15:55,400 I think that's freaking awesome. You know, I think women have 296 00:15:55,400 --> 00:15:58,760 just always been pitted against each other because, like, if 297 00:15:58,760 --> 00:16:02,960 women don't recognize the power that we have in numbers, like. 298 00:16:03,120 --> 00:16:06,720 Yeah, dude. Like we're so much easier to be, 299 00:16:06,720 --> 00:16:11,040 like manipulated and to be used if we're against one another. 300 00:16:11,040 --> 00:16:15,600 And like most of what we have been taught is to judge and 301 00:16:15,600 --> 00:16:17,920 compete and be mean and whatever. 302 00:16:17,920 --> 00:16:20,200 And like, you know, I'm just real big on, Like if you're 303 00:16:20,200 --> 00:16:22,440 still a mean girl, you need to go fucking heal. 304 00:16:22,440 --> 00:16:25,840 Because I promise you, if you were happy with yourself, you 305 00:16:25,840 --> 00:16:29,720 wouldn't care if someone does sex work or someone makes music 306 00:16:29,720 --> 00:16:32,920 or someone jumps off the Empire State Building and films it. 307 00:16:32,920 --> 00:16:35,440 Like, you wouldn't care what people are doing with their time 308 00:16:35,440 --> 00:16:38,120 and energy and how they're using their platform. 309 00:16:38,400 --> 00:16:41,880 And we get that so much, Especially like Jim and I gets a 310 00:16:41,880 --> 00:16:44,200 lot of it on like TikTok, like the witch talk. 311 00:16:44,200 --> 00:16:47,680 Those people are like, super weird and mean and judgy. 312 00:16:47,680 --> 00:16:49,400 And I'm like, I'm so glad. I'm like. 313 00:16:52,360 --> 00:16:55,200 No, it's not even the fucking witchy side of TikTok. 314 00:16:55,200 --> 00:16:59,640 It is literally mom shamers. Like of all the content that I 315 00:16:59,640 --> 00:17:01,680 do, I talk about witchcraft stuff. 316 00:17:01,680 --> 00:17:05,319 I we talk about like taboo subjects on the podcast. 317 00:17:05,520 --> 00:17:09,839 It is me saying that I ran out of syrup at my house and my kid 318 00:17:09,839 --> 00:17:13,079 is eating a protein pancake without syrup. 319 00:17:13,079 --> 00:17:15,800 And it is. I'm causing eating disorders for 320 00:17:15,800 --> 00:17:18,119 my kid. Oh my God and. 321 00:17:18,200 --> 00:17:20,640 Shit. And like, yeah, that's what, 322 00:17:20,640 --> 00:17:23,960 it's the mom shamers and it's people who you don't have any 323 00:17:23,960 --> 00:17:26,400 fucking kids. Or in 20 years when your kids 324 00:17:26,400 --> 00:17:28,359 don't talk to you anymore, you're going to be like, I don't 325 00:17:28,359 --> 00:17:30,160 know what I did. You were a cunt. 326 00:17:30,960 --> 00:17:33,520 Yeah, people like that with me, though, too. 327 00:17:33,520 --> 00:17:34,360 I'm. I heard. 328 00:17:34,360 --> 00:17:36,480 What have I heard about myself? It's like the best ones. 329 00:17:37,080 --> 00:17:42,320 They don't know if I'm 55 or 21. I don't. 330 00:17:42,440 --> 00:17:43,040 I don't even know. They're. 331 00:17:43,240 --> 00:17:46,080 So am I so freaking me. My tattoos are dried up, my 332 00:17:46,080 --> 00:17:48,560 lips, my injection. I need to get ready more 333 00:17:49,160 --> 00:17:51,440 because, like, I don't like right now, like I'm comfortable. 334 00:17:51,440 --> 00:17:54,480 I don't give a shit. Like there's always got to be 335 00:17:54,480 --> 00:17:55,960 something and something about my kids. 336 00:17:55,960 --> 00:17:57,120 How come my kids aren't on there? 337 00:17:57,240 --> 00:17:59,640 I didn't let my daughter be on social media till she's turned 338 00:17:59,640 --> 00:18:04,320 14 and she has her own TikTok. Now my son's not going to be on 339 00:18:04,320 --> 00:18:08,520 any social media, but people, people will tear apart anything 340 00:18:08,520 --> 00:18:12,640 and everything. It's just it blows my mind. 341 00:18:13,320 --> 00:18:16,480 It's easy for someone who doesn't put content out there of 342 00:18:16,480 --> 00:18:19,720 any nature to have something to say about the people who share 343 00:18:19,720 --> 00:18:21,600 their life. And that's what I love The 344 00:18:21,640 --> 00:18:25,320 Internet is because it's brought so many connections into my 345 00:18:25,320 --> 00:18:27,000 life. It's brought so many amazing 346 00:18:27,000 --> 00:18:31,200 opportunities and people and it's always the people who have 347 00:18:31,440 --> 00:18:35,080 12 followers and no videos that. Oh yeah. 348 00:18:35,600 --> 00:18:40,880 Like every time it's like why? I don't even know, dude. 349 00:18:41,360 --> 00:18:43,480 Other people are funny too, because then you meet them in 350 00:18:43,480 --> 00:18:45,680 real life. I met I met one person in 351 00:18:45,680 --> 00:18:47,920 Pittsburgh because we did like a meet and greet spaghetti dinner 352 00:18:47,920 --> 00:18:54,720 thing and it was one of my trolls and we actually got along 353 00:18:54,720 --> 00:18:56,520 really well. We're actually still friends on 354 00:18:56,520 --> 00:18:59,080 Instagram. I don't know if I have her on 355 00:18:59,080 --> 00:19:01,680 TikTok anymore, but she found. Out that that was a troll. 356 00:19:02,280 --> 00:19:05,000 She came up to me and told me who she was and like, I like I 357 00:19:05,000 --> 00:19:09,160 used to and this is so toxic of me to do so, like when I first 358 00:19:09,160 --> 00:19:11,280 got into everything, I would pick apart things. 359 00:19:11,840 --> 00:19:13,000 I'd be like, why don't they like me? 360 00:19:13,000 --> 00:19:14,160 Why do they convince You know what I mean? 361 00:19:14,160 --> 00:19:15,440 Why do I? And I talked to my therapist 362 00:19:15,440 --> 00:19:17,600 about it and it was like, it's just childhood trauma, 363 00:19:18,400 --> 00:19:23,440 abandonment issues. So I stopped doing that. 364 00:19:23,480 --> 00:19:25,760 And then when I was at the spaghetti dinner in Pittsburgh, 365 00:19:26,720 --> 00:19:30,840 she came up to me and we sat down and we talked and she ended 366 00:19:30,840 --> 00:19:33,880 up winning a basket for Bailey. I think Bailey bring, I don't 367 00:19:33,880 --> 00:19:35,400 want to, I don't want to talk about Bailey too much because 368 00:19:35,400 --> 00:19:37,440 I'll come apart. But I think Bailey bring a lot 369 00:19:37,440 --> 00:19:44,520 of beautiful things like things like that, hate like that, and 370 00:19:44,520 --> 00:19:49,400 made them beautiful again. So yeah. 371 00:19:50,080 --> 00:19:52,440 Anyways. So this person came for a meet 372 00:19:52,440 --> 00:19:55,240 and greet, like came where you were basically. 373 00:19:55,280 --> 00:19:58,080 Yeah, the spaghetti dinner. We had a huge spaghetti dinner 374 00:19:58,080 --> 00:19:59,360 in Pittsburgh and they showed up. 375 00:20:00,480 --> 00:20:03,200 You know, like that just goes to show like, how much effort these 376 00:20:03,200 --> 00:20:05,920 people put into this, this stuff. 377 00:20:05,920 --> 00:20:08,800 Like how are you going to be a troll on the Internet and then 378 00:20:08,800 --> 00:20:11,640 use your own gas and time to go see this person. 379 00:20:12,160 --> 00:20:15,800 Kind of like when people go to concerts to like be like, oh, 380 00:20:15,800 --> 00:20:17,720 they suck. Like, I I mean, I've been at 381 00:20:17,720 --> 00:20:22,720 concerts where someone paid like an hour into the concert because 382 00:20:22,720 --> 00:20:25,840 it sucks. Like, who has time for that? 383 00:20:26,000 --> 00:20:28,480 Not me. No, I'm not going to no concert, 384 00:20:28,480 --> 00:20:30,760 they said. I don't know why I think that. 385 00:20:30,760 --> 00:20:32,760 I don't think that she came for me. 386 00:20:32,760 --> 00:20:34,320 I think she came for the other people that were there. 387 00:20:34,320 --> 00:20:36,600 Lydia was there. She might have came for Lydia. 388 00:20:36,960 --> 00:20:38,040 A lot of. I don't feel like a lot of 389 00:20:38,040 --> 00:20:40,600 people know unless they really follow how close me and Lydia 390 00:20:41,040 --> 00:20:43,280 are. I think that some of the stuff 391 00:20:43,280 --> 00:20:45,280 that's happened, I think that they might think that otherwise. 392 00:20:45,280 --> 00:20:50,400 But I think that the people that we truly follow know I don't. 393 00:20:50,400 --> 00:20:51,800 I don't think I put myself. I can't. 394 00:20:51,800 --> 00:20:54,520 I feel like I'll step into the limelight a little bit, then 395 00:20:54,520 --> 00:20:56,120 I'll step out, 'cause like I stepped in. 396 00:20:56,120 --> 00:20:58,760 Then I got in that relationship and I stepped out, and then my 397 00:20:58,760 --> 00:21:01,240 dad passed away and I I kind of disappeared for another six 398 00:21:01,240 --> 00:21:02,520 months. And then I came back. 399 00:21:02,520 --> 00:21:05,200 And then I got popcorn Lung got to plaque again. 400 00:21:06,240 --> 00:21:08,680 Oh yeah, Can we talk about your popcorn lung as I sit here? 401 00:21:08,680 --> 00:21:09,800 And get my. Vape. 402 00:21:11,920 --> 00:21:17,080 Dude, OK, I'm fine. Like, I I'm like, I vape the 403 00:21:17,080 --> 00:21:19,440 most like and I always steal Lydia's vapes too. 404 00:21:19,480 --> 00:21:22,360 I always steal everyone's vapes. Dude, I'm like, I was the vape 405 00:21:22,360 --> 00:21:23,840 stealer. Like, I always had a ton of 406 00:21:23,840 --> 00:21:26,560 them. Like, I Remember Me and me and 407 00:21:26,560 --> 00:21:30,920 Dempsey had me and Dempsey. This last show, we had a bunch 408 00:21:30,920 --> 00:21:39,200 of people's vapes on us vaping. I was laying on my side of my 409 00:21:39,200 --> 00:21:42,880 bed and I was breathing in and I could hear liquid like in my 410 00:21:42,880 --> 00:21:45,120 chest. And like I had a sharp pain in 411 00:21:45,120 --> 00:21:47,400 my chest and I was like, what in the Frick is going on? 412 00:21:48,120 --> 00:21:51,240 And so I woke up the next morning, I called my doctor and 413 00:21:51,240 --> 00:21:52,520 I was like, I think there's something going on. 414 00:21:53,000 --> 00:21:55,640 But I had AI had to go to the Echo concert like my homie was 415 00:21:55,640 --> 00:21:57,640 in Salt Lake and my daughter wanted to go. 416 00:21:57,880 --> 00:22:00,640 So I was like, I'm going to go to this concert and then like, 417 00:22:00,640 --> 00:22:04,480 and you can tell in the videos I've been posting I'm reposting 418 00:22:04,480 --> 00:22:07,280 my Tik toks on Instagram because my TikTok got banned. 419 00:22:07,520 --> 00:22:09,560 But you could tell us some of the that video of me 420 00:22:09,560 --> 00:22:13,040 interviewing cause like my and still to this day like I still 421 00:22:13,040 --> 00:22:16,840 have a little I like I can't get the words out correctly 422 00:22:16,840 --> 00:22:20,760 sometimes. Like I almost have a like a 423 00:22:20,760 --> 00:22:26,560 back, like a really deep a list. But I went to the concert. 424 00:22:27,480 --> 00:22:29,760 I had to do my breathing treatments at the concert and I 425 00:22:29,760 --> 00:22:32,800 had this all this chick, dude, this chick tried to get me to 426 00:22:32,800 --> 00:22:37,040 hit her inhaler in the bathroom and I was like, no, 'cause I was 427 00:22:37,040 --> 00:22:39,320 wheezing. And she's like, no, just have it 428 00:22:39,400 --> 00:22:42,360 hit dude. And my daughter is 14 and she's 429 00:22:42,360 --> 00:22:46,520 like, mom just freaked out. And so I just put the cap on 430 00:22:46,520 --> 00:22:48,520 this chick's inhaler, 'cause I was wheezing and coughing her 431 00:22:48,520 --> 00:22:50,040 butt and tend. Like, I hit it. 432 00:22:50,040 --> 00:22:51,320 And I was like, thank you so much. 433 00:22:53,160 --> 00:22:56,640 So then I came back, went to the doctor. 434 00:22:56,640 --> 00:22:58,440 Chaos, dude, I'm chaos all the time. 435 00:22:58,840 --> 00:23:02,600 Came back, went to the doctor and she thought, you need to get 436 00:23:02,600 --> 00:23:04,560 you in for an emergency X-ray right now. 437 00:23:04,560 --> 00:23:07,560 So I went down, They X-rayed my lungs. 438 00:23:07,560 --> 00:23:11,400 I had this side, had a it was like inflamed like a like the 439 00:23:11,400 --> 00:23:15,320 pork grinds, like the very top. So I got on a bunch of 440 00:23:15,320 --> 00:23:17,000 antibiotics, a bunch of steroids. 441 00:23:17,000 --> 00:23:21,480 No more vaping. I had to chill for like a month. 442 00:23:22,320 --> 00:23:27,880 It's been oh, it's been like two months now, but now I can't 443 00:23:27,880 --> 00:23:29,520 smoke anymore. I wanted to be the little old 444 00:23:29,520 --> 00:23:32,200 lady that hit the bomb. That was like in my mind. 445 00:23:32,200 --> 00:23:35,240 I want to be like the lady with animals, like with the bong and 446 00:23:35,240 --> 00:23:38,720 I chill but and I. Can't What is Popcorn Lung and 447 00:23:38,720 --> 00:23:41,760 How Do you Get It? Inflammation of your lung. 448 00:23:41,800 --> 00:23:46,720 So like the definition of it would be it's like inflammation. 449 00:23:47,680 --> 00:23:52,160 Like your your lung is such a it's like a thin layer and that 450 00:23:52,160 --> 00:23:56,360 piece that your your your strings of lung will inflamed. 451 00:23:57,320 --> 00:23:59,480 I'm going to look at the two. I'm going to look at that. 452 00:23:59,680 --> 00:24:01,600 Oh, I literally have my tablet, guys. 453 00:24:01,600 --> 00:24:03,320 I could have looked it up. I didn't have to ask that 454 00:24:03,320 --> 00:24:04,640 question. Me too. 455 00:24:04,680 --> 00:24:07,080 Me too. Says Popcorn Lung is the 456 00:24:07,080 --> 00:24:11,040 nickname for bronchitis, something. 457 00:24:11,400 --> 00:24:15,160 This is a condition that damages your lungs smallest Airways and 458 00:24:15,160 --> 00:24:18,040 makes you cough and feel short of breath. 459 00:24:18,400 --> 00:24:21,840 It's sometimes caused by breathing in a chemical used to 460 00:24:21,840 --> 00:24:26,520 flavor microwave popcorn, but other chemicals are lung 461 00:24:26,520 --> 00:24:28,680 illnesses can also cause popcorn lung. 462 00:24:31,040 --> 00:24:35,400 That being said, I know that a lot of people don't realize the 463 00:24:35,400 --> 00:24:39,720 effects of vaping and like the long term effects of vaping. 464 00:24:39,720 --> 00:24:44,560 I know that like because vaping is only been out for 10 years or 465 00:24:44,560 --> 00:24:48,080 whatever that like they're starting to develop all of these 466 00:24:48,080 --> 00:24:51,080 things that you know where they thought vaping was better than 467 00:24:51,080 --> 00:24:53,640 cigarettes. It's not at all. 468 00:24:53,920 --> 00:24:57,400 I mean, cigarettes are gross, don't get me wrong, but vaping 469 00:24:57,400 --> 00:25:00,760 is not better than cigarettes. But we're talking more, not like 470 00:25:00,760 --> 00:25:06,200 THC vaping. We're talking more like tobacco 471 00:25:06,200 --> 00:25:08,560 vaping. Oh well, I only get down on the 472 00:25:08,560 --> 00:25:11,720 cannabis vape guys and that makes me feel better. 473 00:25:12,600 --> 00:25:14,720 Dude, I'm having. Gummies, dude. 474 00:25:15,960 --> 00:25:18,920 I have an addictive personality, so I'm glad I never started 475 00:25:18,920 --> 00:25:20,360 vaping because I would be like you. 476 00:25:20,440 --> 00:25:23,280 I would have 12 of them. Like, I would have every 477 00:25:23,280 --> 00:25:24,840 different flavor that you could think of. 478 00:25:24,840 --> 00:25:30,160 And like one of my friends recently stopped vaping and it 479 00:25:30,320 --> 00:25:33,320 it was just like really hard for her because she also always had 480 00:25:33,320 --> 00:25:36,000 a vape in her hand, you know, like always had a vape 481 00:25:36,160 --> 00:25:38,320 everywhere she went. So I don't know. 482 00:25:38,320 --> 00:25:40,920 I mean, I come into you because I'm sure, like, you didn't want 483 00:25:40,920 --> 00:25:43,840 to, but then when you're being forced to, you're like, OK. 484 00:25:45,000 --> 00:25:47,600 I was so scared. I don't even know I just kept 485 00:25:47,680 --> 00:25:49,400 cinnamon gum. Dude, I chewed a pack of 486 00:25:49,400 --> 00:25:50,880 cinnamon gum within like 10 minutes. 487 00:25:51,480 --> 00:25:53,840 Like, I just chew it and let it burn my mouth and spit it out 488 00:25:53,840 --> 00:25:56,240 like my whole car cup, like my little cup holder. 489 00:25:56,240 --> 00:25:58,800 I had like a little bag and I just spit the gum out in it and 490 00:25:58,800 --> 00:26:00,920 chew another piece. And especially when I was 491 00:26:00,920 --> 00:26:03,320 driving, 'cause I drove. Where the fuck did I go? 492 00:26:03,320 --> 00:26:07,080 Hey, go to Vegas. I drove to Vegas, I think. 493 00:26:07,080 --> 00:26:11,080 After that, I think I drove somewhere. 494 00:26:11,080 --> 00:26:14,360 I went somewhere on a long trip and I just chewed. 495 00:26:14,360 --> 00:26:18,760 I had chewed so much gum, like packs and packs and packs of 496 00:26:18,760 --> 00:26:20,920 gum. I don't. 497 00:26:20,960 --> 00:26:26,040 Know what TV network it's on? But there are commercials for 498 00:26:26,040 --> 00:26:29,560 this necklace that you like blow into when you're wanting to vape 499 00:26:29,960 --> 00:26:32,600 and it's like the most like you remember stay off drugs 500 00:26:32,600 --> 00:26:35,600 commercials and like you like fucked up your life. 501 00:26:35,880 --> 00:26:39,680 Well, this one's about vaping and there'll be like young 502 00:26:39,680 --> 00:26:42,680 adults that are like vaping ruined my life. 503 00:26:42,720 --> 00:26:46,200 It was so awful to go places because I always had to grab a 504 00:26:46,200 --> 00:26:48,960 vape. It's really rough and parents 505 00:26:48,960 --> 00:26:53,600 being like, I'm so proud of my kid and it's either on, I want 506 00:26:53,640 --> 00:26:58,240 to say that it's on Paramount. Plus, I feel like that 507 00:26:58,240 --> 00:27:01,160 commercial. Is Oh my God, there's one with 508 00:27:01,160 --> 00:27:02,600 the youth group. Have you ever seen it? 509 00:27:02,600 --> 00:27:04,920 And it's like the kid that like they're like doing the running 510 00:27:04,920 --> 00:27:07,680 man and they're like vaping is the worst or something. 511 00:27:07,920 --> 00:27:10,720 Ever seen that one? I don't think so. 512 00:27:11,120 --> 00:27:13,640 I don't know. It's like a youth group and 513 00:27:13,640 --> 00:27:15,720 they're like talking about vaping and like they're doing 514 00:27:15,720 --> 00:27:19,320 like theoretical dances, like like the dances and stuff. 515 00:27:19,320 --> 00:27:21,800 Dude, it's so funny. It's like. 516 00:27:22,560 --> 00:27:25,680 Was whenever they would do the weed commercials, like the don't 517 00:27:25,680 --> 00:27:28,720 try drugs commercials and it was like that kid that was just 518 00:27:28,720 --> 00:27:32,960 melted into the couch. I know everyone has seen that 519 00:27:32,960 --> 00:27:35,720 one. Like that one is really the MVP 520 00:27:35,720 --> 00:27:38,160 one. For Halloween. 521 00:27:39,400 --> 00:27:40,880 You want you want to be that for Halloween? 522 00:27:41,120 --> 00:27:43,800 I want to be that flat chick for Halloween, dude, and just show 523 00:27:43,800 --> 00:27:46,280 up at a party and be like because everyone will know who 524 00:27:46,280 --> 00:27:53,200 the fuck it is like. So have you lived in Utah your 525 00:27:53,200 --> 00:27:56,160 whole life? Yeah, I've lived forever. 526 00:27:57,160 --> 00:27:57,920 Forever. Never. 527 00:27:57,920 --> 00:28:01,200 I like and I don't even know how I got to like pop out. 528 00:28:02,160 --> 00:28:05,480 It's so I I guess I I feel like there's always been like an 529 00:28:05,480 --> 00:28:09,520 inside force of me to wanting to be creative, and I think that 530 00:28:09,520 --> 00:28:11,920 Utah kind of harnessed that and made it blow up. 531 00:28:13,520 --> 00:28:16,280 What part of Utah are you in? You in a county? 532 00:28:16,280 --> 00:28:18,480 I'm actually 20 minutes away from Skinwalker Ranch. 533 00:28:19,720 --> 00:28:23,120 Oh, what's skinwalker ranch? Dude, you don't know what 534 00:28:23,120 --> 00:28:24,320 skinwalker ranch You're not even. 535 00:28:24,320 --> 00:28:26,480 Supposed to say it out loud like it's like a thing. 536 00:28:26,960 --> 00:28:30,120 Oh, Beetlejuice. Yeah, like like I'll show you 537 00:28:30,120 --> 00:28:31,600 you you want to see what one looks like. 538 00:28:32,720 --> 00:28:35,920 I know what a skinwalker is. Yeah, dude, I'm like, I'm by 539 00:28:35,920 --> 00:28:37,960 where they were, where it is, where they are. 540 00:28:38,720 --> 00:28:41,840 I thought they were an. Appalachian thing. 541 00:28:43,600 --> 00:28:49,200 No. So skinwalker ranch is like, I 542 00:28:50,600 --> 00:28:52,160 don't know. I don't know how to explain it. 543 00:28:52,560 --> 00:28:55,760 It's like we're like a bunch of cows look missing and stuff and 544 00:28:55,760 --> 00:29:01,160 like, I don't know, oh, this is like, oh, this is way different 545 00:29:01,160 --> 00:29:04,480 than what it really is. They got like a thing going on. 546 00:29:04,560 --> 00:29:08,680 I've never watched the show. Hey, did you know what 547 00:29:08,680 --> 00:29:12,760 Skinwalker is? So no. 548 00:29:12,760 --> 00:29:19,080 It's like a it's like a figure or being that can morph into 549 00:29:19,840 --> 00:29:23,040 other things. Like pretend to be your animals, 550 00:29:23,040 --> 00:29:30,000 pretend to be people. And they're like a quote, UN 551 00:29:30,000 --> 00:29:34,520 quote folklore thing, But like you're they live in the woods 552 00:29:34,520 --> 00:29:39,520 you're not supposed to. Like, follow any crying noises. 553 00:29:39,520 --> 00:29:44,000 If you hear your name, you don't turn around, They'll knock on 554 00:29:44,000 --> 00:29:46,200 your. Door pretend to be people. 555 00:29:46,200 --> 00:29:53,040 Yeah, I love that you. Your comfort was for you to grab 556 00:29:53,040 --> 00:29:55,600 a penis pillow and I vibe with that energy. 557 00:29:56,760 --> 00:30:00,320 Sponsored by Pee Pee Pillow. So why did your TikTok get 558 00:30:00,320 --> 00:30:02,400 banned? Oh man, did. 559 00:30:02,400 --> 00:30:04,400 I don't even know I could. Like there's so many different 560 00:30:07,720 --> 00:30:10,520 My followers have like a little what is it called, a little 561 00:30:11,960 --> 00:30:15,720 discussion thing. They think that it could have 562 00:30:15,720 --> 00:30:19,640 been because, well, shrinking my pee pee. 563 00:30:20,960 --> 00:30:22,880 Shrinking my pee pee. They think it could because I 564 00:30:22,880 --> 00:30:26,760 said vaping so much. They think it because a group of 565 00:30:26,760 --> 00:30:31,640 people that are is having someone a while back had been 566 00:30:32,200 --> 00:30:34,240 like talking really bad about me online. 567 00:30:34,240 --> 00:30:37,840 So they think that could have been something to do with it. 568 00:30:40,320 --> 00:30:42,640 What do you do online that's so controversial? 569 00:30:42,720 --> 00:30:47,080 Like what are you? Doing like, that's the whole 570 00:30:47,080 --> 00:30:48,400 deal. Like now I'm going hard. 571 00:30:48,400 --> 00:30:51,200 Like if you look at my, my, my stuff now like I'm not, I don't 572 00:30:51,200 --> 00:30:53,840 give a shit. I was so careful, dude. 573 00:30:54,320 --> 00:30:57,480 Like, I didn't post anything. Like I was super careful with 574 00:30:57,480 --> 00:31:00,040 that page. Like I didn't have any write ups 575 00:31:00,040 --> 00:31:02,200 or nothing. That's what's so bizarre, 'cause 576 00:31:02,200 --> 00:31:04,160 I wrote TikTok and I'm like, no, you're not getting it back. 577 00:31:05,440 --> 00:31:08,400 So like that it blew my mind that yeah, the message was like, 578 00:31:08,800 --> 00:31:14,520 we went over it, your your page goes against something humane, 579 00:31:14,520 --> 00:31:17,760 something and you're not getting your account back. 580 00:31:19,240 --> 00:31:23,000 So it blew my mind. Now I'm not being careful now 581 00:31:23,000 --> 00:31:25,320 I'm going hard, like now I'm like, I have three different 582 00:31:25,320 --> 00:31:27,360 pages. My one just broke 10K, which 583 00:31:27,360 --> 00:31:29,960 sucks because I had 180 K but like it broke 10K. 584 00:31:29,960 --> 00:31:32,960 So I'm like, yeah, I'm going, but I'm posting like the most, 585 00:31:32,960 --> 00:31:35,800 like the all the stuff like like booty everything. 586 00:31:35,800 --> 00:31:37,840 I don't give a shit like ban me now, I don't care. 587 00:31:39,120 --> 00:31:42,600 I'm just going. All out creators lose their Tik 588 00:31:42,600 --> 00:31:46,200 toks and it's like for the most random things like they don't 589 00:31:46,200 --> 00:31:48,080 ever give you a real explanation. 590 00:31:48,360 --> 00:31:51,960 And honestly when they were going through like all that, the 591 00:31:51,960 --> 00:31:55,040 changes and stuff it just like I've lost interest in TikTok. 592 00:31:55,040 --> 00:31:58,400 Like I have almost 50 day and I've been sitting at the same 593 00:31:58,680 --> 00:32:00,840 follower count for literally ever. 594 00:32:00,840 --> 00:32:05,400 Like, I just don't care. Like it's like because I won't 595 00:32:05,400 --> 00:32:09,120 go live and I won't promote the TikTok shop and the gifts and 596 00:32:09,120 --> 00:32:11,160 stuff they like don't give a fuck. 597 00:32:11,160 --> 00:32:16,000 Like I used to always break at least 10K on every video and now 598 00:32:16,000 --> 00:32:18,640 I don't even get 400 views and I'm like, how do I have this 599 00:32:18,640 --> 00:32:21,760 many followers but 400 views? Like freaking. 600 00:32:22,640 --> 00:32:28,200 It my one got 10 million it was at 10 million viral post bought 601 00:32:28,200 --> 00:32:32,080 it from me My vaping 1. So it'll be on, like the 602 00:32:32,080 --> 00:32:35,160 Snapchat viral post, whatever. Like I signed. 603 00:32:35,160 --> 00:32:36,480 I'm glad that they've nabbed it before. 604 00:32:36,480 --> 00:32:42,120 I couldn't before it was gone. But maybe that's why they maybe 605 00:32:42,120 --> 00:32:43,560 that's why they blocked me. I don't know. 606 00:32:43,560 --> 00:32:46,440 It's so it it blew my mind too, 'cause, like, I couldn't get my 607 00:32:46,440 --> 00:32:48,160 mind. And it hurt my feelings most of 608 00:32:48,160 --> 00:32:51,120 all. Like sensitive Sally over here. 609 00:32:51,120 --> 00:32:52,360 Like why would they do that to me? 610 00:32:52,360 --> 00:32:54,280 I, I And they. But they sent me my my money 611 00:32:54,280 --> 00:32:56,040 That was in that account, which is really nice. 612 00:32:56,840 --> 00:33:04,200 And then on my merry way, yeah. You have to be careful too, what 613 00:33:04,200 --> 00:33:06,880 stuff you're talking about in the messages on Tiktok. 614 00:33:07,120 --> 00:33:11,160 So, like, I'll always take my when I message people about like 615 00:33:11,160 --> 00:33:14,600 podcasts or anything or like anything business, I'm always 616 00:33:14,600 --> 00:33:16,640 like, hey, text me, this is my number. 617 00:33:16,840 --> 00:33:21,680 Because stuff that you discuss in your messages, if you're 618 00:33:21,680 --> 00:33:25,840 taking deals that are taking people off of the platform to go 619 00:33:25,840 --> 00:33:29,720 buy anything from you for you to make like a business deal with 620 00:33:29,720 --> 00:33:33,560 somebody else, that is revenue that doesn't go to TikTok and 621 00:33:33,560 --> 00:33:35,160 they'll take away your profile for it. 622 00:33:36,040 --> 00:33:38,320 Oh my gosh. I was going to try to figure out 623 00:33:38,400 --> 00:33:40,000 or look and see what it was, but I can. 624 00:33:40,480 --> 00:33:43,960 It was like against humane. It was some stupid stuff. 625 00:33:45,680 --> 00:33:47,720 I don't know. Do you feel like that set you 626 00:33:47,720 --> 00:33:50,920 back on social media? Like just like you're platform 627 00:33:50,920 --> 00:33:53,880 being taken, do you think that like drained your creativity or 628 00:33:53,880 --> 00:33:56,920 like just kind of you said it hurt your feelings, but like did 629 00:33:56,920 --> 00:33:59,000 it make you want to stop creating content? 630 00:34:00,280 --> 00:34:02,400 Almost. But then like I have such bad 631 00:34:02,400 --> 00:34:05,520 ADHD that like I almost forgot that it hurt my feelings and got 632 00:34:05,520 --> 00:34:08,159 back on and got my other accounts like, you know, and 633 00:34:09,480 --> 00:34:11,159 then it was fine. Again. 634 00:34:12,679 --> 00:34:17,840 As the like generation of social media, what do you think is like 635 00:34:17,840 --> 00:34:20,840 the most inspiring thing about social media? 636 00:34:23,080 --> 00:34:30,040 So for me, I found myself and my people on social media like 637 00:34:30,040 --> 00:34:35,000 Bunny, you guys, Lydia. I found my people like it's a 638 00:34:35,000 --> 00:34:39,199 bigger it's a bigger web of because like if it was just like 639 00:34:39,199 --> 00:34:41,159 me. Now with no social media, I 640 00:34:41,159 --> 00:34:45,080 have, I have my close knit friends here but it's like I 641 00:34:45,080 --> 00:34:48,159 have, I have AI can even have a bigger heart and love even more 642 00:34:48,159 --> 00:34:50,639 now because. But that's from a positive. 643 00:34:50,639 --> 00:34:53,960 If you have a positive like positive us, you know what I 644 00:34:53,960 --> 00:34:55,120 mean? Like we got positive stuff. 645 00:34:55,120 --> 00:34:58,520 I don't know how to explain it. Positive big love, you know what 646 00:34:58,520 --> 00:35:00,360 I mean? If you got that big love, you 647 00:35:00,360 --> 00:35:03,000 can love more, you can love more people. 648 00:35:03,000 --> 00:35:07,000 Like, yeah, more love, like that's that's what social media 649 00:35:07,000 --> 00:35:07,840 did for me. I can. 650 00:35:07,880 --> 00:35:12,480 I can show people what I what I got on my creative side and then 651 00:35:12,480 --> 00:35:15,040 learning from their creative side and then we can all love 652 00:35:15,080 --> 00:35:18,000 each other. Yeah, I love that. 653 00:35:20,360 --> 00:35:24,560 I think that's so beautiful too, especially like there are a lot 654 00:35:24,560 --> 00:35:27,600 of negative things that can be focused on, on social media, 655 00:35:27,600 --> 00:35:30,320 especially if you're somebody who ends up having drama because 656 00:35:30,320 --> 00:35:34,520 of your social media. And I feel too, a big thing is 657 00:35:34,520 --> 00:35:38,040 like being coming friends with other creators and like getting 658 00:35:38,040 --> 00:35:42,680 yourself into circles of people. It makes it so that yes, you 659 00:35:42,680 --> 00:35:46,000 have all this big love, but then there also is like a balance on 660 00:35:46,000 --> 00:35:50,120 the back end of if somebody goes through something and like the 661 00:35:50,120 --> 00:35:53,080 masses decide like we're going to cancel that person or 662 00:35:53,080 --> 00:35:56,520 whatever, then if you're associated with anybody on any 663 00:35:56,520 --> 00:35:59,520 level, it's like you're a shitty human being too. 664 00:35:59,880 --> 00:36:02,440 And you know what I mean? Like it. 665 00:36:02,520 --> 00:36:06,720 It's a ripple. Effect, yeah. 666 00:36:07,640 --> 00:36:13,760 Social media, I feel like has grown so much that, like, people 667 00:36:13,760 --> 00:36:17,080 are caring less and less about what other people think. 668 00:36:17,080 --> 00:36:18,800 Like that's what I think is happening. 669 00:36:18,800 --> 00:36:21,040 Like people are like, like you said, I'm going to post what I 670 00:36:21,040 --> 00:36:22,760 want to post. I'm going to say what I want to 671 00:36:22,760 --> 00:36:25,320 say. Like the more that people get 672 00:36:25,320 --> 00:36:29,800 into their authentic power, the more that we can be our true 673 00:36:29,800 --> 00:36:31,600 selves. And that's what I love about 674 00:36:31,600 --> 00:36:35,560 social media myself, is like seeing empowering people like, 675 00:36:35,920 --> 00:36:39,000 you know, like posting a cute picture or posting this or a 676 00:36:39,000 --> 00:36:40,640 highlight that they're happy about. 677 00:36:40,640 --> 00:36:44,160 Like, I love to see that stuff because the world can be 678 00:36:44,360 --> 00:36:47,360 convincing that it's a dark place when you're looking for 679 00:36:47,360 --> 00:36:49,320 darkness. But when you're looking for 680 00:36:49,320 --> 00:36:53,320 something inspirational or exciting or whatever, like it 681 00:36:53,480 --> 00:36:55,920 all all comes together. Like it attracts to you. 682 00:36:56,280 --> 00:36:59,800 And I feel like, you know, just bringing in new people, like to 683 00:36:59,800 --> 00:37:02,680 have you on the podcast, like it's a really good thing because 684 00:37:02,680 --> 00:37:06,160 we get to learn about the person behind the pictures, you know, 685 00:37:06,160 --> 00:37:09,680 behind the videos, those 32nd clips or whatever. 686 00:37:10,040 --> 00:37:12,480 And it's like you never know what someone's actually going 687 00:37:12,480 --> 00:37:15,160 through, how someone's actually operating. 688 00:37:15,160 --> 00:37:17,800 Like, you're a parent. People want to say, why aren't 689 00:37:17,800 --> 00:37:20,400 you posting your kids? Even if you were posting your 690 00:37:20,400 --> 00:37:22,880 kids, they're going to be like, why are you posting your kids? 691 00:37:22,880 --> 00:37:27,480 You know, it's like no one's ever happy except, like, the 692 00:37:27,480 --> 00:37:29,680 people who truly support you. You know what I mean? 693 00:37:29,680 --> 00:37:32,720 Like, there's always those spectators that want a front row 694 00:37:32,720 --> 00:37:36,360 seat, but they're not doing anything to bring anything to 695 00:37:36,360 --> 00:37:38,440 the table. And then that's what I love to 696 00:37:38,440 --> 00:37:40,360 hear. Like you were saying, like your 697 00:37:40,360 --> 00:37:42,800 daughter's just now getting on social media and things like 698 00:37:42,800 --> 00:37:46,440 that, like not making that their life. 699 00:37:46,480 --> 00:37:50,480 I hate when parents capitalize off their two year olds and 700 00:37:50,480 --> 00:37:52,880 their three-year olds and make these tik toks that are just 701 00:37:52,880 --> 00:37:56,080 weird scammy. Just. 702 00:37:56,160 --> 00:37:57,960 I don't know. I know there's all kinds of them 703 00:37:57,960 --> 00:38:01,000 on TikTok that I just avoid like the plague, but I don't like 704 00:38:01,000 --> 00:38:05,720 that I do. Know some of it. 705 00:38:05,720 --> 00:38:08,440 I think there's one that I like. I don't know, she's, I think her 706 00:38:08,440 --> 00:38:10,360 name is Lily and she's the cutest little and she like 707 00:38:10,360 --> 00:38:13,120 kisses, bugs and stuff. I think there's a different 708 00:38:13,120 --> 00:38:15,360 There's a big. I think there's like like, 709 00:38:15,360 --> 00:38:17,760 there's that weird one lady who got arrested who was like 710 00:38:17,760 --> 00:38:20,000 capitalizing off of it. But then there's like another 711 00:38:20,000 --> 00:38:23,520 creative side where like this cute little, like, I don't know 712 00:38:23,520 --> 00:38:26,240 her name Lily something. She kisses Bugs dude. 713 00:38:26,240 --> 00:38:27,880 This cutest little baby ever seen dude. 714 00:38:28,240 --> 00:38:31,520 And she loves bugs dude. And she'll, like, pick up frogs. 715 00:38:31,520 --> 00:38:33,760 Cute little She'll pick up frogs and just kiss them. 716 00:38:34,360 --> 00:38:36,160 And it's the cutest thing you've ever seen. 717 00:38:36,840 --> 00:38:40,520 But then there's there's and there's people like that one 718 00:38:40,520 --> 00:38:42,400 lady that had just gotten arrested that was like 719 00:38:42,400 --> 00:38:44,320 capitalizing on her discipline of her children. 720 00:38:44,320 --> 00:38:47,240 Do you remember that? No. 721 00:38:47,480 --> 00:38:50,000 Oh my gosh, dude. They did like a whole. 722 00:38:50,320 --> 00:38:53,640 I went on like a deep dive. I know that there was a lady and 723 00:38:53,640 --> 00:38:55,960 then there were all of these videos that were being made 724 00:38:55,960 --> 00:38:58,920 about moms, like making jokes about like, jumping her and 725 00:38:58,920 --> 00:39:02,080 stuff. But I never knew anything. 726 00:39:02,080 --> 00:39:04,440 I didn't know any of the story. I didn't know the tea. 727 00:39:04,560 --> 00:39:06,840 I just knew the reaction of other people. 728 00:39:07,400 --> 00:39:08,840 Yeah, dude, she was like discipline. 729 00:39:08,840 --> 00:39:11,040 She made her son like she took her son's bed away. 730 00:39:12,280 --> 00:39:14,440 I don't know if she was from Utah or not, but I got like the 731 00:39:15,000 --> 00:39:17,200 no offense. Like I got the I got the Super 732 00:39:17,200 --> 00:39:22,400 Mormon vibes from her. She like took doing it 733 00:39:22,400 --> 00:39:23,240 backwards. I don't know. 734 00:39:23,240 --> 00:39:25,360 I'm like I'm sorry, I apologize already. 735 00:39:25,800 --> 00:39:29,040 But I got that super Mormon you stuff from her because she took 736 00:39:30,320 --> 00:39:32,400 she took his bed away and made him sleep on the floor for like 737 00:39:32,400 --> 00:39:36,480 2 months and took his door like that's too much for me. 738 00:39:37,080 --> 00:39:38,720 Like I'll take my daughter online. 739 00:39:39,240 --> 00:39:40,840 Dude, I don't know. And people were like agreeing 740 00:39:40,840 --> 00:39:43,400 with it and she was like up in the 1,000,000 but then something 741 00:39:43,400 --> 00:39:45,560 ended up happening where she had her kids tied up and she got 742 00:39:45,560 --> 00:39:49,320 arrested. Good Lord yeah. 743 00:39:49,760 --> 00:39:51,880 Everything always escalates. I feel like the truth always 744 00:39:51,880 --> 00:39:54,480 comes out and things like that and like and if you have some 745 00:39:54,480 --> 00:39:56,880 weird weird intentions it'll it's like you're getting 746 00:39:56,880 --> 00:40:01,080 attention to I'm I'm learning this and watching like watching 747 00:40:01,080 --> 00:40:04,160 and analyzing other people if you're getting attention and 748 00:40:04,160 --> 00:40:07,240 you're doing something wrong. It'll escalate to the point of 749 00:40:07,240 --> 00:40:11,360 where you're doing the wrong thing and it is like super 750 00:40:11,360 --> 00:40:13,160 terrible and then you get in trouble and then. 751 00:40:15,680 --> 00:40:19,640 People incriminate themselves and tell the Internet too much 752 00:40:19,880 --> 00:40:24,160 and I personally respect you not posting your daughter on your 753 00:40:24,160 --> 00:40:29,320 social media because I I have a beef almost with people who like 754 00:40:29,920 --> 00:40:33,720 post super spicy content and direct that towards a certain 755 00:40:33,720 --> 00:40:36,520 audience and then put their four year old on that same page I. 756 00:40:36,840 --> 00:40:39,880 Don't know. People do, but that irks me to 757 00:40:39,880 --> 00:40:42,920 my core when I see and I support sex work. 758 00:40:42,920 --> 00:40:45,000 Like, honestly. Like, we talk about only fans, 759 00:40:45,080 --> 00:40:47,560 all with all kinds of people. And I love only fans. 760 00:40:47,560 --> 00:40:50,200 Like one day I might have an only fans. 761 00:40:50,200 --> 00:40:50,960 Who knows? Yeah. 762 00:40:52,120 --> 00:40:54,120 Also right now. Also right now. 763 00:40:54,320 --> 00:40:56,920 That's what I I'm always telling her Like do it. 764 00:40:56,920 --> 00:40:59,200 Fucking do it. Always telling me to do it. 765 00:40:59,920 --> 00:41:04,800 Show me them PP VS OK. But I'm like, why would you 766 00:41:04,800 --> 00:41:09,040 market your content to like dudes and then put your four and 767 00:41:09,040 --> 00:41:11,920 five year old and I've seen them do it in bathing suits in the 768 00:41:11,920 --> 00:41:13,720 bathtub with just like little emojis? 769 00:41:14,320 --> 00:41:16,400 And I'm just like, it makes me cringe. 770 00:41:16,920 --> 00:41:19,880 And I don't even like women who don't do sex work to put their 771 00:41:19,880 --> 00:41:22,240 four year old in a bathtub and put it on Facebook. 772 00:41:22,240 --> 00:41:25,880 I don't like any of that, but people do and it's weird to me. 773 00:41:26,920 --> 00:41:29,000 Yeah, I don't, I don't know. There's also there's lots of 774 00:41:29,000 --> 00:41:32,400 weird different things that I that I absolutely hate like 775 00:41:32,400 --> 00:41:34,480 that. But and and you can edit out, I 776 00:41:34,480 --> 00:41:37,400 learned too that if even if you put the emoji over it, they can 777 00:41:37,400 --> 00:41:40,560 screen it so that or you they can take the emoji off of it. 778 00:41:41,040 --> 00:41:43,720 That's what I heard. That's what I heard, that those 779 00:41:43,720 --> 00:41:47,080 emojis like, even when people think that, like they blurred 780 00:41:47,080 --> 00:41:51,000 out the message that you can actually strip all that away if 781 00:41:51,000 --> 00:41:52,840 you know what you're doing, that's crazy. 782 00:41:53,240 --> 00:41:54,920 I don't. I don't like it. 783 00:41:54,920 --> 00:42:00,200 See, I try really hard to keep my son off because he's eight. 784 00:42:00,480 --> 00:42:02,280 I try really hard to keep him off my page. 785 00:42:02,280 --> 00:42:06,440 Like my mom vlog in the morning is always like my end of having 786 00:42:06,440 --> 00:42:11,960 discussions with him, you know, and that side of things. 787 00:42:11,960 --> 00:42:17,520 But like, my daughter is going to be 12 and she loves being on 788 00:42:17,840 --> 00:42:21,640 my page and he comes here every couple of months and you know, 789 00:42:21,680 --> 00:42:24,000 like we'll do something like fun or funny. 790 00:42:24,600 --> 00:42:27,280 But I'm always like your tummy can't be showing when we're on 791 00:42:27,280 --> 00:42:29,400 here. Like we, you know, you need to 792 00:42:30,040 --> 00:42:32,320 have longer pants on when if you're going to come on the 793 00:42:32,320 --> 00:42:33,600 page. And like, there's a different 794 00:42:33,600 --> 00:42:37,040 expectation. And I don't like parent shaming. 795 00:42:37,160 --> 00:42:41,800 But I do think like, regardless of what kind of content that you 796 00:42:41,800 --> 00:42:44,560 do, there's never a reason that your child needs to be half 797 00:42:44,560 --> 00:42:48,760 dressed online. And maybe there are people who 798 00:42:48,760 --> 00:42:51,560 are just maybe these people are super innocent and they've never 799 00:42:51,560 --> 00:42:54,080 had any kind of like sexual trauma in their life. 800 00:42:54,320 --> 00:42:57,240 And that's so awesome. But like I can't relate. 801 00:42:57,680 --> 00:43:00,000 And the first thing I. Think of is that. 802 00:43:01,080 --> 00:43:02,040 Yeah, I didn't. Never. 803 00:43:02,640 --> 00:43:04,520 You just don't know people's intentions. 804 00:43:04,520 --> 00:43:07,160 And I know that a lot of people think like, well, I know 805 00:43:07,160 --> 00:43:09,280 everyone on my friends list. Like we're just talking like 806 00:43:09,280 --> 00:43:13,160 basic social, social media and you just don't know who the 807 00:43:13,160 --> 00:43:16,560 weirdos are and like what they're doing with that. 808 00:43:16,600 --> 00:43:20,280 And there's just people that use their kids for clout. 809 00:43:20,280 --> 00:43:23,760 So I super respect that, that you, like, keep that private and 810 00:43:23,760 --> 00:43:26,840 kind of keep that off of your social media because some people 811 00:43:26,840 --> 00:43:29,480 do it as, like, look at me, I'm a good parent. 812 00:43:29,480 --> 00:43:30,960 You know what I mean? Like, look at me. 813 00:43:30,960 --> 00:43:34,520 Look at me and my kid. And I just love when people know 814 00:43:34,520 --> 00:43:37,880 that there's like a fine line. They're like giving your kid the 815 00:43:37,880 --> 00:43:41,360 consent to like, want to be on social media rather than just 816 00:43:41,440 --> 00:43:44,040 just forcing them. Or, you know, I see people that 817 00:43:44,040 --> 00:43:47,640 create their kids accounts and like, it'll be like ran by my 818 00:43:47,640 --> 00:43:51,080 mom and dad and I'm like, why did we make this? 819 00:43:51,080 --> 00:43:54,080 You know, like, why did you make your kid an Instagram? 820 00:43:54,080 --> 00:43:57,480 It doesn't make sense to me. No, dude, I've got. 821 00:43:58,880 --> 00:44:00,560 I got at least two on my freaking thing right now. 822 00:44:00,840 --> 00:44:03,240 That's my little girl. And then Lydia. 823 00:44:03,680 --> 00:44:05,480 That's your daughter. Yeah. 824 00:44:05,840 --> 00:44:08,160 Oh my gosh, she's grown. Yeah, she's 14. 825 00:44:08,160 --> 00:44:12,080 She's taller than me. I have a 14 year old daughter. 826 00:44:12,560 --> 00:44:15,080 Dude, I had her when I was a baby, but I left, dude. 827 00:44:15,080 --> 00:44:16,840 I left. We're at Legoland, dude. 828 00:44:17,080 --> 00:44:19,480 I left him next to this freaking macaroni and cheese, dude. 829 00:44:19,480 --> 00:44:21,320 I don't know how much it was. It was like 30 bucks, dude. 830 00:44:21,320 --> 00:44:23,280 I was like, you're not getting that freaking macaroni, dude. 831 00:44:23,320 --> 00:44:26,040 Like, it's too much. Like, you don't even be buying 832 00:44:26,040 --> 00:44:29,000 that freaking fancy macaroni. We're in, we're in this cabana. 833 00:44:29,360 --> 00:44:31,000 Didn't I leave for two seconds, come back? 834 00:44:31,000 --> 00:44:34,240 And they had. They had spammed my my phone and 835 00:44:34,240 --> 00:44:36,240 my tablet with pictures of them. And this. 836 00:44:36,320 --> 00:44:39,680 They did a whole photo shoot with them and Lydia and Lexi and 837 00:44:39,680 --> 00:44:41,840 my freaking. And their macaroni dude is the 838 00:44:41,840 --> 00:44:44,600 most childish thing, dude. Macaroni. 839 00:44:45,120 --> 00:44:48,960 Yeah, Lydia bought the macaroni and then they spammed my phone. 840 00:44:48,960 --> 00:44:53,280 I had macaroni pictures all over my my smart watch, my tablet. 841 00:44:54,080 --> 00:44:55,600 They're just they're so childish. 842 00:44:55,600 --> 00:44:57,080 It's this funniest thing you ever seen. 843 00:44:57,080 --> 00:44:59,920 They have the cutest, funniest, coolest relationship ever. 844 00:45:00,840 --> 00:45:05,120 They're so naughty. Besides, like what you create 845 00:45:05,120 --> 00:45:08,080 online, do you do like other artwork? 846 00:45:08,080 --> 00:45:10,400 I feel like you're super artistic, so do you do you 847 00:45:10,400 --> 00:45:12,840 create any artwork? I mean, I know you said you're a 848 00:45:12,920 --> 00:45:17,160 stylist and a Barber, but like, do you do artwork or make art? 849 00:45:18,040 --> 00:45:20,640 Dude, I think every time I get a cool idea, I put it on my body. 850 00:45:20,760 --> 00:45:24,000 Like my whole back, my whole room. 851 00:45:24,480 --> 00:45:26,560 You're a walking piece of art then, yeah? 852 00:45:27,200 --> 00:45:28,920 No, I do like I do some really cool. 853 00:45:28,920 --> 00:45:30,760 I need to start putting my stuff online. 854 00:45:31,200 --> 00:45:33,040 That's what someone was telling me the other day is like, why 855 00:45:33,040 --> 00:45:34,520 don't you put your hair stuff online? 856 00:45:34,520 --> 00:45:35,800 And I was like, I don't know, because I do. 857 00:45:36,000 --> 00:45:39,040 I do some really cool like skin fades with the colors, with like 858 00:45:39,040 --> 00:45:41,120 the texture, like the cool stuff. 859 00:45:41,120 --> 00:45:44,480 I do it here. I I have like 300 and something 860 00:45:44,480 --> 00:45:47,160 clients a month that come in and I whip through them. 861 00:45:47,840 --> 00:45:49,280 I need to hire, I had an assistant. 862 00:45:49,280 --> 00:45:51,320 I need to hire rehire an assistant to record some of that 863 00:45:51,320 --> 00:45:52,880 stuff because some of this stuff is really cool. 864 00:45:52,880 --> 00:45:56,520 Some of my hair stuff, I do extensions and some of those 865 00:45:56,520 --> 00:45:58,680 colors too, like the fashion colors, actually. 866 00:45:58,680 --> 00:46:01,440 So crazy about Mimi too is I followed Mimi because she was, 867 00:46:01,800 --> 00:46:04,080 she was, she took the hair videos, dude. 868 00:46:04,240 --> 00:46:06,680 And I followed her hair videos back in the day. 869 00:46:06,880 --> 00:46:09,840 And then when I seen her in person at the, I was like, Oh my 870 00:46:09,840 --> 00:46:13,080 gosh, no way. Like she's like, yeah. 871 00:46:13,080 --> 00:46:15,760 And I started talking to her about hair and like, I was just 872 00:46:16,240 --> 00:46:19,400 like Bunny was there. And I've always, I never got 873 00:46:19,400 --> 00:46:22,640 starstruck by Bunny which is crazy because like I always felt 874 00:46:22,640 --> 00:46:25,400 really at home with her and with Jelly. 875 00:46:25,880 --> 00:46:27,400 I just felt really at home with both of them. 876 00:46:27,400 --> 00:46:30,840 Like that's mom and dad like that's sister brother like out 877 00:46:30,840 --> 00:46:33,280 like at home with I still split her open and eat her like I was 878 00:46:33,400 --> 00:46:36,680 starving to death but I always felt like at home with her you 879 00:46:36,680 --> 00:46:39,240 know what I mean? But I was so with Mimi I 880 00:46:39,240 --> 00:46:43,080 remember seeing her and and all her hair stuff like Mimi has 881 00:46:43,080 --> 00:46:47,240 done some freaking cool shit. So she's actually impacted my my 882 00:46:47,560 --> 00:46:50,640 hair career in a way with some of her fashion color stuff. 883 00:46:51,640 --> 00:46:54,280 So if my if I So the answer to the question would be yes. 884 00:46:54,760 --> 00:46:58,720 I guess I do do a lot of cool stuff in the hair world that I 885 00:46:58,720 --> 00:47:01,760 should start sharing. Maybe this will. 886 00:47:01,760 --> 00:47:05,920 Maybe this whole podcast will inspire me to start 'cause I 887 00:47:05,920 --> 00:47:07,320 have the whole set up down here too. 888 00:47:07,320 --> 00:47:09,640 I have a camera set up and everything, but I just come into 889 00:47:09,640 --> 00:47:12,400 work, get all crank out. I'll crank out 12 haircuts and 890 00:47:12,400 --> 00:47:17,040 go home and I don't like. What's crazy about content is 891 00:47:17,040 --> 00:47:20,280 the stuff that you think is just basic, like cranking it out, 892 00:47:20,280 --> 00:47:23,320 just doing your day-to-day. People are interested in that, 893 00:47:23,320 --> 00:47:24,240 they want. I know, dude. 894 00:47:25,920 --> 00:47:29,040 You could make a hair TikTok and you could literally go viral for 895 00:47:29,040 --> 00:47:32,400 hair videos and definitely build a separate following. 896 00:47:32,640 --> 00:47:37,080 Aside from your sexiness and everything else you do like, you 897 00:47:37,080 --> 00:47:40,960 could make a hair TikTok in literally those fantasy colors. 898 00:47:40,960 --> 00:47:43,760 Like, people love watching those videos. 899 00:47:43,760 --> 00:47:46,800 They I like. I've never even had a fantasy 900 00:47:46,800 --> 00:47:49,840 color. You could do like erotic hair 901 00:47:49,840 --> 00:47:52,040 videos. Like you could like like, you 902 00:47:52,040 --> 00:47:54,600 know, like mixing the color so that it makes a sound and you 903 00:47:54,600 --> 00:47:58,080 can like ASMR you can be like, yeah, you like when I mix it, 904 00:47:58,080 --> 00:48:01,400 don't you like? Yeah, see, you're doing that, 905 00:48:01,400 --> 00:48:02,760 dude. I'm going to send you some. 906 00:48:02,760 --> 00:48:05,120 You're going to do it. You do the voice over for it. 907 00:48:05,840 --> 00:48:07,880 I'll do it too. She will I. 908 00:48:08,480 --> 00:48:10,680 Like mixing it, but you're like licking. 909 00:48:10,680 --> 00:48:12,640 Yogurt. You like that? 910 00:48:12,640 --> 00:48:13,240 Yeah, I got you. Yeah. 911 00:48:13,320 --> 00:48:14,600 Yeah, yeah. I like it. 912 00:48:14,640 --> 00:48:16,880 It's spanking it. Spanking the yogurt. 913 00:48:17,880 --> 00:48:19,640 Yeah. I love it. 914 00:48:19,640 --> 00:48:24,000 So what is one goal that you want to work towards in 2024? 915 00:48:27,480 --> 00:48:30,840 Man, I really well this is. I have like stupid small, like 916 00:48:30,840 --> 00:48:34,200 small things that I like want to do with my money is what is what 917 00:48:34,200 --> 00:48:36,040 I'm like always. I always want. 918 00:48:36,040 --> 00:48:37,960 I want to try to be a better person and I want to take care 919 00:48:37,960 --> 00:48:40,080 of my mom. I moved back in with my mom to 920 00:48:40,080 --> 00:48:42,400 take to help take care of her after my dad passed. 921 00:48:45,240 --> 00:48:47,920 I want to wrap all this is this is silly. 922 00:48:47,920 --> 00:48:50,080 I want to wrap all my. I want to wrap my vehicle, my 923 00:48:50,080 --> 00:48:53,480 four Wheeler and my side by side to match and my camper. 924 00:48:55,120 --> 00:48:56,960 That's some stupid things that I've been thinking. 925 00:48:56,960 --> 00:48:59,560 About I want them. All to match. 926 00:48:59,680 --> 00:49:02,120 I don't know dude. I want them all to match, so I 927 00:49:02,160 --> 00:49:04,840 feel like I'd be sick as fuck. I even know my foiler. 928 00:49:04,840 --> 00:49:06,760 I don't even know if that that foiler's old. 929 00:49:06,760 --> 00:49:08,520 I kind of hate it. But I just I I was thinking 930 00:49:08,520 --> 00:49:10,000 about. I've been thinking that about 931 00:49:10,000 --> 00:49:11,760 that a lot. I want my side by side at least 932 00:49:11,760 --> 00:49:15,120 to match my truck. You know if you did like black 933 00:49:15,120 --> 00:49:18,360 and and another color then you could make them different 934 00:49:18,360 --> 00:49:21,920 variations like different designs per thing so that it was 935 00:49:21,920 --> 00:49:25,400 like still on your theme but different variation where 936 00:49:25,400 --> 00:49:27,080 instead of just getting a flat color. 937 00:49:28,240 --> 00:49:30,040 I thought about doing 'cause my truck's already red. 938 00:49:30,040 --> 00:49:32,280 I thought about doing like one side black and like doing the 939 00:49:32,280 --> 00:49:34,960 Harley Quinn stuff. But then one of my friends said 940 00:49:34,960 --> 00:49:37,360 that she wanted to do that to her vehicle and I was like, oh, 941 00:49:37,400 --> 00:49:39,080 I can't do it now. Tell her to suck a Dick. 942 00:49:39,080 --> 00:49:43,400 Tell her that's your idea. We cuddled it like last time I 943 00:49:43,400 --> 00:49:45,320 went to, you know, I'm like, I'm such a lesbo. 944 00:49:45,560 --> 00:49:48,160 We cuddled. Last time I went to, I went to 945 00:49:48,160 --> 00:49:50,280 your house. I stayed in your house when I 946 00:49:50,280 --> 00:49:53,680 was out. And I I do, I I have a rehab 947 00:49:53,680 --> 00:49:55,360 center that I work with with girls. 948 00:49:55,360 --> 00:49:57,520 Like, I'll go in there and hang out with them and talk to them 949 00:49:57,520 --> 00:50:00,040 and stuff. And so I stayed at the lady. 950 00:50:00,040 --> 00:50:04,400 She is the, like the president of it. 951 00:50:04,520 --> 00:50:06,160 I stayed at her house and like, we cuddled. 952 00:50:06,160 --> 00:50:07,840 That's the person. So, like, I don't want to. 953 00:50:07,840 --> 00:50:10,240 I don't want to. Be like the pillow, talked the 954 00:50:10,280 --> 00:50:12,120 idea. So you got to let her have it. 955 00:50:12,600 --> 00:50:14,080 Yeah, no. Like, I think I woke up and we 956 00:50:14,080 --> 00:50:16,200 were holding hands, dating, like our faces were touching. 957 00:50:16,400 --> 00:50:18,800 So now I kind of like her now that's that's the real deal. 958 00:50:18,800 --> 00:50:20,280 I kind of like her now, so I don't want to. 959 00:50:20,880 --> 00:50:25,440 Did you guys hear that? I did not Zoom has this awesome 960 00:50:25,440 --> 00:50:28,560 noise cancelling thing. Like it's really difficult for 961 00:50:28,560 --> 00:50:30,440 us to hear things behind the scenes. 962 00:50:31,120 --> 00:50:35,720 I do have a question though. She is so fucking cute. 963 00:50:36,920 --> 00:50:40,360 It's this blonde girl that like occasionally she does like 964 00:50:40,360 --> 00:50:43,120 pigtail things. She has a nose ring that goes 965 00:50:43,520 --> 00:50:47,920 across the bridge of her nose. I've seen her in videos recently 966 00:50:47,920 --> 00:50:50,200 with Lydia. She did the clown faces with 967 00:50:50,240 --> 00:50:52,480 her. I can't think of her name. 968 00:50:52,920 --> 00:50:54,640 Lex. Carbon source, Lex. 969 00:50:55,600 --> 00:50:58,960 Maybe. Oh yeah, dude, She's cute. 970 00:50:59,360 --> 00:51:01,520 She's super. Fucking cute. 971 00:51:01,960 --> 00:51:04,240 She's so nice. Oh yeah. 972 00:51:04,240 --> 00:51:05,680 They're so nice. They're really nice. 973 00:51:05,680 --> 00:51:08,320 They're really soft, dude. There's like, they're they're 974 00:51:08,320 --> 00:51:11,280 really soft. You have the best job ever. 975 00:51:12,320 --> 00:51:19,720 I love my job. Yeah, so when do you do you go 976 00:51:19,720 --> 00:51:22,880 make content with people or do you just stack content or do you 977 00:51:22,920 --> 00:51:27,960 just on a win? So, like, every time I like, all 978 00:51:27,960 --> 00:51:31,840 right, Every time I masturbate, I record it no matter what and I 979 00:51:31,840 --> 00:51:35,240 push that out. I'll do one free like 980 00:51:35,800 --> 00:51:39,440 masturbating video a month on there and then I'll go to Vegas. 981 00:51:40,680 --> 00:51:43,880 I I I this this starting this month I'll go to Vegas. 982 00:51:43,880 --> 00:51:47,440 I I go the 15th to the 16th. I'll go once a once a month I'll 983 00:51:47,440 --> 00:51:51,160 go to Vegas or like I'll go to Pittsburgh. 984 00:51:51,160 --> 00:51:52,520 I'm not going to Pittsburgh. Pittsburgh. 985 00:51:52,600 --> 00:51:56,160 I was going to do stuff with with people in Pittsburgh but I 986 00:51:56,160 --> 00:51:58,600 don't think I'm going out that way anymore. 987 00:51:59,080 --> 00:52:01,480 I'll do I'll go to Vegas, California. 988 00:52:01,800 --> 00:52:03,800 I was talking to some people in Arizona. 989 00:52:04,400 --> 00:52:06,640 I think the trippy house is like my home base. 990 00:52:07,960 --> 00:52:10,080 I think that I don't and like Charlie's out there too. 991 00:52:10,080 --> 00:52:12,600 So it's like it's easier just to go to Vegas and it's only 7 992 00:52:12,600 --> 00:52:17,480 hours away so I can just drive. So once a month I'll record like 993 00:52:18,960 --> 00:52:24,120 those type of like like the the BG videos, the BG boy girl. 994 00:52:26,520 --> 00:52:28,440 It's I I'm trying to learn the terminology. 995 00:52:28,440 --> 00:52:31,320 I still don't know it. I've been in it for years. 996 00:52:31,320 --> 00:52:41,520 BGG GB B Oral sex I don't even know The two, don't even know 997 00:52:41,520 --> 00:52:42,760 the terms. I know you all. 998 00:52:42,880 --> 00:52:46,360 Look, we're bringing on the only fans, girls like we are. 999 00:52:46,360 --> 00:52:48,520 We've been talking to a lot of people that have only fans. 1000 00:52:48,520 --> 00:52:50,960 And I love it. I love to see people who are 1001 00:52:50,960 --> 00:52:52,800 passionate about it because like, why not? 1002 00:52:52,800 --> 00:52:54,800 If you're passionate about it, let's go. 1003 00:52:55,680 --> 00:52:59,400 And she got, she's got it all. Look, she's got the terms she's 1004 00:52:59,400 --> 00:53:02,200 got. I need to learn it. 1005 00:53:02,200 --> 00:53:03,720 I need to learn it better, though. 1006 00:53:03,720 --> 00:53:05,480 Like, it came really easy for me. 1007 00:53:05,480 --> 00:53:07,640 And that's what's terrible is like, I stopped doing it. 1008 00:53:07,640 --> 00:53:11,400 I had AI, had a really good following on there and I 1009 00:53:11,400 --> 00:53:14,200 stopped. I'll look at my freaking my you 1010 00:53:14,200 --> 00:53:15,640 can look at your statistics or whatever. 1011 00:53:15,640 --> 00:53:19,280 Like I went super hard and then like got into that relationship. 1012 00:53:19,280 --> 00:53:21,600 That's what that's one thing. If I could tell any girls right 1013 00:53:21,600 --> 00:53:24,360 now that's going to start dude. If you're going to get in a 1014 00:53:24,360 --> 00:53:28,880 relationship don't. While you're cranking, while 1015 00:53:28,880 --> 00:53:30,120 you're cranking up the dollar game. 1016 00:53:30,120 --> 00:53:32,880 If you're like I was going to give him like some kind of 1017 00:53:32,880 --> 00:53:34,320 inspirational thing but like don't. 1018 00:53:35,640 --> 00:53:38,200 So this I I don't freaking diarrhea. 1019 00:53:38,240 --> 00:53:40,800 OK. Let me tell you I'm I was flying 1020 00:53:40,800 --> 00:53:41,800 out. I was flying out. 1021 00:53:41,800 --> 00:53:43,520 We had the freaking only golf thing. 1022 00:53:44,320 --> 00:53:45,320 Yeah. The only golf. 1023 00:53:45,320 --> 00:53:47,720 The big deal was like everyone was coming. 1024 00:53:47,720 --> 00:53:51,680 We had like Skyler shark. We had, we had like a the whole 1025 00:53:51,680 --> 00:53:54,320 Carlosaurus legs. Everyone was coming, Dude, this 1026 00:53:54,320 --> 00:53:56,160 huge. We rented out for a golf course, 1027 00:53:56,160 --> 00:54:01,040 which ended up falling through to film porn on I'm dating this 1028 00:54:01,080 --> 00:54:04,440 Mormon guy, OK, sweet Mormon guy. 1029 00:54:04,440 --> 00:54:06,120 He's so nice. Never done the wrong thing in 1030 00:54:06,120 --> 00:54:07,680 his life. Just the sweetest guy in the 1031 00:54:07,680 --> 00:54:09,080 whole world. OK, sweetest guy. 1032 00:54:09,360 --> 00:54:10,960 This motherfucker gave me gonorrhea. 1033 00:54:10,960 --> 00:54:14,240 I got out and tested out there. I hadn't slept with anyone. 1034 00:54:15,240 --> 00:54:18,200 Besides, I did some scenes with another sex worker. 1035 00:54:18,200 --> 00:54:21,040 But we tested together, so tested together. 1036 00:54:21,320 --> 00:54:25,600 Then got with this Mormon boy from Vernal, this nice Mormon 1037 00:54:25,600 --> 00:54:30,040 sweet boy cake, and then did the we went, we all went to test 1038 00:54:30,040 --> 00:54:31,240 together and my test didn't show up. 1039 00:54:31,240 --> 00:54:33,280 And I was like, what the fuck? Like, what's going on? 1040 00:54:33,520 --> 00:54:35,800 So I called down there. I had fucking gonorrhea, dude. 1041 00:54:35,800 --> 00:54:38,160 After I had. We had prepared this, we had 1042 00:54:38,160 --> 00:54:41,200 built this like thing that we were going to do with all these 1043 00:54:41,200 --> 00:54:43,040 models for so long. And then I had fucking 1044 00:54:43,040 --> 00:54:46,120 gonorrhea, so I had to sit out and like, it was so fucking 1045 00:54:46,120 --> 00:54:48,600 embarrassing. But this dude also convinced me 1046 00:54:49,000 --> 00:54:52,000 that I that I had gotten it from like a toilet seat or something. 1047 00:54:52,000 --> 00:54:53,720 Dude, he's like, no, I didn't give it to you. 1048 00:54:53,720 --> 00:54:55,480 And then I stayed with him. It's the same dude who dumped 1049 00:54:55,480 --> 00:54:57,840 me. I stayed with him for a little 1050 00:54:57,840 --> 00:55:00,280 bit after that like a fucking, I don't even know. 1051 00:55:00,280 --> 00:55:02,720 Like just don't do the dude thing if you're going to make 1052 00:55:02,720 --> 00:55:04,800 some dollars and you're in it and you're actually on a good 1053 00:55:04,800 --> 00:55:06,960 stroll. Don't like. 1054 00:55:07,040 --> 00:55:09,200 Because I didn't have a lot of confidence before I started 1055 00:55:09,200 --> 00:55:10,960 doing only fans. I had a little bit like only 1056 00:55:10,960 --> 00:55:14,920 fans gave me some like like I'm I'm we're ready to party most of 1057 00:55:14,920 --> 00:55:17,080 the time. Like if we're like if I'm on if 1058 00:55:17,080 --> 00:55:19,920 I'm having some like I'm I'm feeling good about myself 1059 00:55:19,920 --> 00:55:22,200 majority of the time now. But before I started doing only 1060 00:55:22,200 --> 00:55:25,120 fans, I kind of just like questioned my sexuality a little 1061 00:55:25,120 --> 00:55:26,160 bit. I kind of questioned my 1062 00:55:26,160 --> 00:55:29,280 sexiness. So like throughout the only fans 1063 00:55:29,280 --> 00:55:32,960 thing I I got like this, like I started getting this like sexy 1064 00:55:32,960 --> 00:55:35,560 feeling about myself. So like I would I'd see dudes 1065 00:55:35,560 --> 00:55:37,160 and I'd attract dudes. So I got one. 1066 00:55:37,160 --> 00:55:38,480 You know what I mean? Don't do that. 1067 00:55:39,480 --> 00:55:42,840 Like my if anyone's watching this, if you're if you're 1068 00:55:42,840 --> 00:55:44,800 talking to a dude after you've been, you just started doing a 1069 00:55:44,800 --> 00:55:46,840 lonely fan and you feel a little sexy and like he's nice. 1070 00:55:47,200 --> 00:55:48,240 Don't fucking do it. Make your money. 1071 00:55:49,200 --> 00:55:51,920 Yeah, don't do it. And moral of the story, Mormon's 1072 00:55:51,920 --> 00:55:53,920 still gaslight. So like, dude. 1073 00:55:54,360 --> 00:55:57,640 Dude. Gave you gonorrhea. 1074 00:55:58,280 --> 00:56:00,480 What kind of toilet seats are you sitting on too? 1075 00:56:00,480 --> 00:56:02,280 Where he's like, oh that for sure. 1076 00:56:02,280 --> 00:56:04,440 That was that toilet seat at 7-11, dude. 1077 00:56:04,640 --> 00:56:06,720 That dude is terrible. I believed it too. 1078 00:56:06,720 --> 00:56:10,720 Everyone at my work, like I would come in and be like it was 1079 00:56:10,720 --> 00:56:12,240 the most. I've never been in a toxic 1080 00:56:12,240 --> 00:56:15,040 relationship before. That was my first one and it was 1081 00:56:15,040 --> 00:56:18,720 so bad, like I'd go home and he'd take my phone. 1082 00:56:18,800 --> 00:56:20,360 I think there's even like a mixed. 1083 00:56:20,600 --> 00:56:23,360 I think there was a point in time too where Bunny was texting 1084 00:56:23,360 --> 00:56:25,560 me because she wanted me to go to the This is crazy. 1085 00:56:25,800 --> 00:56:27,640 Bunny was want me to go to the thing in Salt Lake. 1086 00:56:27,640 --> 00:56:29,120 She texts me and said, hey, how are you doing? 1087 00:56:29,360 --> 00:56:32,040 He took my phone that night and sent her a bunch of pictures of 1088 00:56:32,040 --> 00:56:34,600 me and him trying to show her that we were happy. 1089 00:56:36,320 --> 00:56:38,600 Like it's some he's some fucked up shit dude. 1090 00:56:38,680 --> 00:56:41,840 Like, and I had oh man, he's he's on some fuckery shit. 1091 00:56:41,840 --> 00:56:43,360 I'm so glad I got away from that dude. 1092 00:56:43,360 --> 00:56:45,360 Like. Congratulations, It makes me 1093 00:56:45,360 --> 00:56:46,720 want to like. Throw you at parties? 1094 00:56:47,320 --> 00:56:50,800 Yeah, dude, party. I just don't feel like you would 1095 00:56:50,800 --> 00:56:54,640 date a Mormon dude, is there? Like, I just feel like you don't 1096 00:56:54,640 --> 00:56:55,880 even. That doesn't even look like 1097 00:56:55,880 --> 00:56:59,640 someone that you would date. To be I met him when I was 1098 00:56:59,640 --> 00:57:01,200 playing soccer. So, like, I'm pretty good at 1099 00:57:01,200 --> 00:57:04,920 soccer and I play Coed soccer and he was also good at soccer. 1100 00:57:05,280 --> 00:57:07,840 So like the whole soccer season we had this little romance, OK? 1101 00:57:08,440 --> 00:57:10,360 And then like, when soccer season went over, we just stayed 1102 00:57:10,360 --> 00:57:14,600 together. So like we we played good soccer 1103 00:57:14,600 --> 00:57:19,680 together are. Fucking me and Paige's faces as 1104 00:57:19,800 --> 00:57:22,960 you're fucking talking. We're like, what the fuck? 1105 00:57:23,560 --> 00:57:26,440 Yeah, I played soccer, dude. I played soccer. 1106 00:57:26,720 --> 00:57:30,520 I just don't see this guy like, piquing your interest. 1107 00:57:30,520 --> 00:57:34,680 I see you with someone like like I saw that video you made with 1108 00:57:34,680 --> 00:57:36,040 yellow. If I see you with someone who 1109 00:57:36,040 --> 00:57:39,640 looks like yellow, I'm stereotyping fucking oh, this 1110 00:57:39,640 --> 00:57:42,560 is. Funny. 1111 00:57:42,600 --> 00:57:45,680 You should do that. Like, OK, Oh my God, I'm. 1112 00:57:45,760 --> 00:57:47,440 I'm glad you bring that up because I want to talk about 1113 00:57:47,440 --> 00:57:49,320 this too. So, like, I'm. 1114 00:57:49,480 --> 00:57:53,680 I'm with Alyssa, My friend Alyssa, she works for the PPG 1115 00:57:53,680 --> 00:57:56,840 Arena, the hockey arena in Pittsburgh. 1116 00:57:57,400 --> 00:58:00,520 So IA Bunny told me she got tickets for me. 1117 00:58:00,560 --> 00:58:02,520 I'm like, oh, cool, Like, so I go get the tickets. 1118 00:58:02,520 --> 00:58:05,120 I had no idea they were going to be like, backstage, like I'm 1119 00:58:05,120 --> 00:58:06,840 invited to barbecue and I didn't even know. 1120 00:58:06,840 --> 00:58:09,280 I was just cool with whatever. Like, I'm just, I'm here to 1121 00:58:09,280 --> 00:58:10,800 chill. Like, wahoo, we already had 1122 00:58:10,800 --> 00:58:12,920 tickets. And I was like, hey, that's why 1123 00:58:12,920 --> 00:58:14,320 I love her so much too, 'cause I texted her. 1124 00:58:14,320 --> 00:58:16,720 I was like, hey, if you can get better tickets, like, that's 1125 00:58:16,720 --> 00:58:18,400 cool. If not like, I love you, I'll 1126 00:58:18,400 --> 00:58:22,080 see you after blah, blah. I, like, freaked out, 'cause 1127 00:58:22,080 --> 00:58:23,880 they handed me. They slid me the tickets. 1128 00:58:23,880 --> 00:58:27,760 K and like, it's like a sparkly wristband, a backstage thing. 1129 00:58:27,760 --> 00:58:29,960 And another thing. And I'm like, these aren't for 1130 00:58:29,960 --> 00:58:31,400 me. And the lady slid them back. 1131 00:58:31,400 --> 00:58:33,760 She's like, they're for you. I'm like, no, these are wait, 1132 00:58:33,760 --> 00:58:35,040 Like, I don't think these are for me. 1133 00:58:35,040 --> 00:58:37,560 And like, I fought with the lady for a minute and the lady got 1134 00:58:37,560 --> 00:58:38,720 frustrated. She's like, these are for you. 1135 00:58:38,720 --> 00:58:42,040 They'll have your name on them. And I was like, oh, cool, OK, so 1136 00:58:42,960 --> 00:58:46,120 I went back there and there's all these like like Brantley 1137 00:58:46,120 --> 00:58:48,600 Gilbert was back there. Like all these fancy peoples 1138 00:58:48,600 --> 00:58:50,920 back there. I don't know who any of these 1139 00:58:50,920 --> 00:58:53,000 people are. Alyssa's teaching me Alyssa's 1140 00:58:53,000 --> 00:58:55,360 like, that's Brantley Gilbert. That's so and so and I'm like, 1141 00:58:55,400 --> 00:58:59,480 oh, cool, Like and like I just wanted all, like, I'll get hyper 1142 00:58:59,480 --> 00:59:01,960 focused because I've got, I've got a couple learning 1143 00:59:01,960 --> 00:59:04,400 disabilities and I've got severe ADHD. 1144 00:59:04,400 --> 00:59:08,000 So sometimes I'm a little, like socially awkward and like, I'll 1145 00:59:08,000 --> 00:59:10,480 lose my train of thought and stuff sometimes, but everyone 1146 00:59:10,480 --> 00:59:12,560 that's around me out, they they're used to it and they love 1147 00:59:12,560 --> 00:59:14,920 me anyway. But I just all I could think 1148 00:59:14,920 --> 00:59:16,640 about was I wanted to whiff the ball. 1149 00:59:16,640 --> 00:59:19,560 I wanted to whiff a golf ball because there's like two sets of 1150 00:59:19,560 --> 00:59:21,200 golf balls. So I'd walk up there and I was 1151 00:59:21,200 --> 00:59:24,920 holding the golf putter and I was waiting for them to bring me 1152 00:59:24,920 --> 00:59:26,560 a golf ball, but they never bring them to me. 1153 00:59:26,920 --> 00:59:30,400 And then Yelawolf comes walking out and my best friend Whitney 1154 00:59:31,720 --> 00:59:34,040 that runs the salon, me and her would scream. 1155 00:59:34,040 --> 00:59:36,280 Catfish Billy, dude. Like, when we drink white claws. 1156 00:59:36,880 --> 00:59:38,320 Yeah. Screaming at the top, We're 1157 00:59:38,320 --> 00:59:43,440 like, so like, I see Alyssa, like, reaches over to me and 1158 00:59:43,440 --> 00:59:45,480 she's like, just go talk to him. And I'm like, OK. 1159 00:59:45,680 --> 00:59:48,080 So like, I walk up to him and I'm like, catfish Billy. 1160 00:59:48,080 --> 00:59:53,000 He's like catfish Billy to him. And he's like looking at me. 1161 00:59:53,000 --> 00:59:55,440 And he's like, yeah, I'm like, dude, can I take a video? 1162 00:59:56,400 --> 00:59:59,200 Can I take a video of me to send him my friend? 1163 00:59:59,600 --> 01:00:02,160 And he's like, yeah, so I took the video, dude. 1164 01:00:02,680 --> 01:00:06,080 I'm like I was laughing so hard there was tears coming out of my 1165 01:00:06,400 --> 01:00:09,160 eyes and I only I got a picture with Jelly Bunny kept trying to 1166 01:00:09,160 --> 01:00:11,040 get me to come get a picture with her in Jelly. 1167 01:00:11,480 --> 01:00:14,600 But like, I get I was just so I get so socially awkward 1168 01:00:14,600 --> 01:00:17,320 sometimes. That was the that was so crazy. 1169 01:00:17,320 --> 01:00:22,720 And so like that was my first Bunny just loves me so much and 1170 01:00:22,720 --> 01:00:25,760 I freaking and she's just the best. 1171 01:00:25,760 --> 01:00:30,120 She's the freaking best. And I met Big Sexy too that day. 1172 01:00:31,480 --> 01:00:32,520 Oh what's her name? Is it Big? 1173 01:00:32,520 --> 01:00:34,480 Sexy. Who's that? 1174 01:00:34,760 --> 01:00:39,440 On TikTok, Big Sexy. I don't know, Taylor Champs. 1175 01:00:40,640 --> 01:00:42,080 No, no, no. I want to meet you dude. 1176 01:00:42,080 --> 01:00:44,040 I would eat me. Oh my gosh, dude. 1177 01:00:44,040 --> 01:00:46,640 I would split her open and eat her like I was starving to death 1178 01:00:46,640 --> 01:00:49,480 too, dude. I want to meet her so bad I. 1179 01:00:49,480 --> 01:00:51,560 Want to eat her? Boss, who is this? 1180 01:00:52,560 --> 01:00:55,640 Big, sexy dude. She's so sweet. 1181 01:00:55,640 --> 01:01:00,920 She was there at that show. Big sexy, big big sexy. 1182 01:01:03,000 --> 01:01:04,920 Oh dude, this girl. She's so cool. 1183 01:01:06,040 --> 01:01:10,520 Her wife are freaking sweet. Dude, wait. 1184 01:01:12,000 --> 01:01:14,240 Oh. Big Sexy. 1185 01:01:14,920 --> 01:01:18,200 Yeah, dude. Yeah, I follow, Yeah. 1186 01:01:18,200 --> 01:01:19,920 Love, love. She was there. 1187 01:01:19,920 --> 01:01:22,320 She's like, super freaking humble, Too. 1188 01:01:23,240 --> 01:01:24,880 Super humble. Super sweet. 1189 01:01:25,320 --> 01:01:30,960 I love the, like the way Bunny treats people. 1190 01:01:30,960 --> 01:01:33,280 It's like you're the only person there, you know what I mean? 1191 01:01:33,280 --> 01:01:34,360 Like it's. A little. 1192 01:01:35,320 --> 01:01:37,720 Bit like she treats you like you're the only person there. 1193 01:01:38,080 --> 01:01:43,280 And I was so salty because during the tour I had tickets to 1194 01:01:43,280 --> 01:01:45,720 a couple different shows and I'm just that person. 1195 01:01:45,720 --> 01:01:48,760 Like I don't want to reach out and be like, hey, do anything 1196 01:01:48,760 --> 01:01:50,600 for me. So I just get tickets to the 1197 01:01:50,600 --> 01:01:52,880 shows. And she was like, you were at 1198 01:01:52,880 --> 01:01:55,440 the show. And I was like, yeah, you know, 1199 01:01:55,600 --> 01:01:58,080 I went backstage with scary. We smoked and chilled and 1200 01:01:58,080 --> 01:02:00,360 whatever. She was like, and no one told me 1201 01:02:00,360 --> 01:02:01,680 I was like, they said you were busy. 1202 01:02:01,680 --> 01:02:04,120 She was like, you never do that again. 1203 01:02:04,120 --> 01:02:06,600 She's like, you text me and tell me you're here. 1204 01:02:06,600 --> 01:02:11,080 And I was like, I was like, OK. And so then by the next show, 1205 01:02:11,080 --> 01:02:13,480 she was off the tour taking care of her dad. 1206 01:02:13,720 --> 01:02:16,760 So I got like, all the the barbecue and all those 1207 01:02:16,760 --> 01:02:18,040 wristbands you were talking about. 1208 01:02:18,040 --> 01:02:20,680 We were back there and Yelawolf was there. 1209 01:02:20,920 --> 01:02:23,400 And I don't really fangirl over people. 1210 01:02:23,400 --> 01:02:25,840 I never have. But Yellow Wolf started talking 1211 01:02:25,840 --> 01:02:28,680 to me. And then his like, sidekick or 1212 01:02:28,680 --> 01:02:32,040 his like, God, whatever his name was, was like, stop talking to 1213 01:02:32,040 --> 01:02:34,520 him. I was like, he came up to me 1214 01:02:34,760 --> 01:02:39,040 like he's talking to me. So then the show proceeds on and 1215 01:02:39,040 --> 01:02:41,240 I see Yellow Wolf again and I'm like, can we get a picture? 1216 01:02:41,240 --> 01:02:43,440 And he was like, yeah, for sure. So we took a picture. 1217 01:02:43,880 --> 01:02:47,440 Then after the show there was like a four year old kid break 1218 01:02:47,440 --> 01:02:51,680 dancing Okay like straight up his mom on TikTok or on 1219 01:02:51,680 --> 01:02:54,560 Instagram There's a four year old kid break dancing in an 1220 01:02:54,560 --> 01:02:56,720 Adidas jumpsuit. I'll never forget this. 1221 01:02:57,440 --> 01:03:00,280 The kid was killing it. We're all hyping him up. 1222 01:03:00,360 --> 01:03:03,360 I look over and Yelawolf is standing beside me. 1223 01:03:03,360 --> 01:03:07,760 I'm like, good Lord like from I'm like what the hell? 1224 01:03:08,000 --> 01:03:10,120 So we're just standing there. We're all back there by the tour 1225 01:03:10,120 --> 01:03:13,320 buses and this four year old kid is literally standing on his 1226 01:03:13,320 --> 01:03:14,960 head. He's doing flips. 1227 01:03:14,960 --> 01:03:18,040 He's doing backflips like he is popping his shit and then like 1228 01:03:18,040 --> 01:03:20,040 struggle. Jennings is there, like everyone 1229 01:03:20,040 --> 01:03:22,920 gathered around this four year old kid and we were like like 1230 01:03:23,160 --> 01:03:26,120 hyping him up and it was just like such a crazy memory that I 1231 01:03:26,120 --> 01:03:28,480 was just like, is this real life right now? 1232 01:03:28,480 --> 01:03:32,160 Like what is going on? But that's like what Bunny does, 1233 01:03:32,160 --> 01:03:35,360 Like she puts you in places that you don't even expect, like 1234 01:03:35,360 --> 01:03:38,760 what's about to happen happens. But it was like, really cool 1235 01:03:38,760 --> 01:03:44,080 because I met the people who created the tequila that 1236 01:03:44,080 --> 01:03:47,600 sponsors Jelly in all of his shows, Bandido Tequila. 1237 01:03:47,800 --> 01:03:50,920 So I met the owner that like, made the tequila. 1238 01:03:50,920 --> 01:03:53,400 And I was like, I always thought that was the coolest thing ever. 1239 01:03:53,400 --> 01:03:57,040 Like these see, people that have, like, created tequila have 1240 01:03:57,040 --> 01:04:00,920 probably no clue who Jelly was, sponsored him. 1241 01:04:00,920 --> 01:04:03,840 And now they're at the show. Like, I'm asking everybody if 1242 01:04:03,840 --> 01:04:06,280 they want shots, trying to pour shots in your mouth and stuff. 1243 01:04:06,280 --> 01:04:07,720 And I'm like, I don't drink tequila. 1244 01:04:07,720 --> 01:04:08,960 I'm good. But thank you. 1245 01:04:08,960 --> 01:04:11,680 Like I. Know I'm glad I didn't. 1246 01:04:11,680 --> 01:04:13,240 That I didn't. I didn't drink very much. 1247 01:04:13,240 --> 01:04:15,120 I didn't think I was drinking that at that show. 1248 01:04:15,120 --> 01:04:17,320 I don't think I Oh no, I drink at the other show. 1249 01:04:17,400 --> 01:04:18,600 Me and Lydia had to switch shoes. 1250 01:04:19,960 --> 01:04:22,120 Yeah. Did you go to a couple different 1251 01:04:22,120 --> 01:04:24,000 shows? Yeah, I went. 1252 01:04:24,160 --> 01:04:28,560 I went to the one in Vegas, and then the one next year I'm going 1253 01:04:28,560 --> 01:04:29,840 to go to the one in Salt Lake, I think. 1254 01:04:29,840 --> 01:04:31,840 I didn't go to the one in Salt Lake, 'cause I wanted to go with 1255 01:04:31,840 --> 01:04:33,360 Lydia, wanted me to go with her, and I wanted. 1256 01:04:34,000 --> 01:04:37,720 I wanted to go with her, too. But I want to go to one of the 1257 01:04:37,720 --> 01:04:40,240 smaller ones, 'cause I went, I went, like, hard, you know what 1258 01:04:40,240 --> 01:04:42,000 I mean? With the big ones, I wanted, 1259 01:04:42,000 --> 01:04:44,520 like, not, there's not going to be any smaller ones now. 1260 01:04:44,520 --> 01:04:47,800 But like, I guess I missed. I guess we we missed that 1261 01:04:47,800 --> 01:04:49,360 opportunity. There's not going to be another 1262 01:04:49,360 --> 01:04:52,000 small show. That's crazy, huh? 1263 01:04:53,160 --> 01:04:56,960 It's crazy because like 3 1/2 years ago Jelly did a show, 1264 01:04:56,960 --> 01:05:00,680 there was 2000 people there and then afterwards he did a second 1265 01:05:00,880 --> 01:05:04,680 show acoustic and there was 400 people there and I was at both 1266 01:05:05,000 --> 01:05:09,000 and he it was so intimate, like it was just like from me to you 1267 01:05:09,080 --> 01:05:12,680 with like a guitar. His band wasn't there nothing. 1268 01:05:12,680 --> 01:05:15,320 And like his drummer, I went to high school with his drummer. 1269 01:05:15,320 --> 01:05:19,120 So it's like, all of these signs have like, brought me to Bunny 1270 01:05:19,120 --> 01:05:22,400 like a million times. Like being at those intimate 1271 01:05:22,400 --> 01:05:25,520 shows, like being at a dive bar and watching Jelly, Like that's 1272 01:05:25,520 --> 01:05:27,160 not happening again, You know what I mean? 1273 01:05:27,160 --> 01:05:28,800 Like that would happen ever again. 1274 01:05:29,120 --> 01:05:33,080 But it's so cool, like you said, like you were there and you were 1275 01:05:33,080 --> 01:05:36,120 like just having a good time, just like living your best life. 1276 01:05:36,120 --> 01:05:38,440 Like that's what they do. They just bring people into the 1277 01:05:38,440 --> 01:05:40,920 room and like, everyone's having a good time. 1278 01:05:41,200 --> 01:05:43,920 And that's why people hate on them is because they're not at 1279 01:05:43,920 --> 01:05:47,800 the table or they're not in the room like they're haters. 1280 01:05:48,000 --> 01:05:50,600 It's really because they're hating from outside the club and 1281 01:05:50,600 --> 01:05:53,560 they can't get in. So they're like, fuck everybody 1282 01:05:53,560 --> 01:05:56,480 inside the club, you know? Like they're like whatever, but 1283 01:05:56,480 --> 01:05:58,760 you get. In I love it. 1284 01:05:59,840 --> 01:06:02,400 How long is that everybody in the club getting tested? 1285 01:06:03,320 --> 01:06:08,080 No, it's it's a it's a Chris Brown song, I think Where You 1286 01:06:08,120 --> 01:06:08,760 Ain't From. All that. 1287 01:06:09,360 --> 01:06:12,360 Can't even get in. Oh yeah, Where did where did 1288 01:06:12,400 --> 01:06:14,840 Gypsy Guy go though? Jay Quan, Where? 1289 01:06:15,800 --> 01:06:19,560 Did Where did Jay Quan at? He dipped. 1290 01:06:19,560 --> 01:06:24,400 He did dip. You guys, Jim and I, do you want 1291 01:06:24,400 --> 01:06:28,280 to pull a card for Carissa? So at the end of every episode, 1292 01:06:28,280 --> 01:06:33,600 we pull a human design card and it is just like a it's called my 1293 01:06:33,600 --> 01:06:36,480 human design. So we all have a human design, 1294 01:06:36,680 --> 01:06:39,960 and if you want to know more about that or anyone listening, 1295 01:06:40,240 --> 01:06:43,560 download My human Design. It's an app and it will tell you 1296 01:06:43,560 --> 01:06:46,400 about your human design, but she's going to pull you a card. 1297 01:06:46,400 --> 01:06:49,000 And we're so grateful. Thank you for coming on today. 1298 01:06:49,680 --> 01:06:51,920 Like, I hope that we get to meet you in person one day too, 1299 01:06:51,960 --> 01:06:53,440 'cause. I'll call you out. 1300 01:06:54,840 --> 01:06:57,240 Let's go. We have already been to Utah and 1301 01:06:57,240 --> 01:06:59,200 it was a scary, scary time. Like what? 1302 01:06:59,200 --> 01:07:02,800 We would love to like just bring a bunch of people together and 1303 01:07:02,800 --> 01:07:04,720 meet in person. Like we can't wait till we can 1304 01:07:04,720 --> 01:07:07,560 record in person. You said, well where do you all 1305 01:07:07,560 --> 01:07:09,640 record that? And I was like, this is our 1306 01:07:09,640 --> 01:07:11,520 manifestation, like it's coming to life. 1307 01:07:11,520 --> 01:07:14,960 We will be recording in person the next time you come on to the 1308 01:07:14,960 --> 01:07:17,640 podcast. Yeah, I'll fly out for sure. 1309 01:07:18,880 --> 01:07:22,240 Love it. All right, so you got card 64 1310 01:07:22,240 --> 01:07:26,520 for Etherea. It's like sky clouds. 1311 01:07:28,600 --> 01:07:33,520 The sign is Virgo, the gift is poetry, and your shadow is 1312 01:07:33,520 --> 01:07:37,960 confusion. Like every high frequency state, 1313 01:07:37,960 --> 01:07:41,200 you cannot merely bypass the shadow in order to claim the 1314 01:07:41,200 --> 01:07:44,040 gift. Embrace your confusion and your 1315 01:07:44,040 --> 01:07:47,320 inner turmoil first, then see how much of your pain is a 1316 01:07:47,320 --> 01:07:50,600 fabrication of the mind. It's not so much about what 1317 01:07:50,600 --> 01:07:54,120 happens to you, but about the chokehold of your thoughts 1318 01:07:54,120 --> 01:07:56,880 surrounding it. When you break this chain and 1319 01:07:56,880 --> 01:08:00,240 free yourself from your own mental entrapment, you can 1320 01:08:00,240 --> 01:08:04,640 immerse yourself fully in your own experience with its joy and 1321 01:08:04,640 --> 01:08:06,560 sorrow and everything in between. 1322 01:08:06,680 --> 01:08:10,480 Then emerge again with new found imagination and artistry. 1323 01:08:10,800 --> 01:08:13,280 Become the masterpiece and live the poem. 1324 01:08:14,000 --> 01:08:16,359 And then your shadow is confusion. 1325 01:08:17,439 --> 01:08:20,439 A sense of confusion marks your life when you're led by the 1326 01:08:20,439 --> 01:08:23,960 shadow and in an attempt to figure out who you are and why 1327 01:08:23,960 --> 01:08:27,640 you're here, you mistakenly look to the outside world for solace 1328 01:08:27,640 --> 01:08:31,359 and direction, which ironically leads to more confusion and 1329 01:08:31,359 --> 01:08:34,800 separation from self. In the repressive state. 1330 01:08:34,800 --> 01:08:38,600 You may try to take on others truths as your own, like a form 1331 01:08:38,600 --> 01:08:44,479 of osmosis by by imitating their lifestyles or careers or paths 1332 01:08:44,479 --> 01:08:48,479 as a way of obtaining wholeness. Though this route is futile. 1333 01:08:48,960 --> 01:08:53,359 In the reactive state you you reject everything associated 1334 01:08:53,359 --> 01:08:56,760 within the status quo and try to reach fulfillment through a 1335 01:08:56,760 --> 01:09:00,240 process of elimination which leaves you feeling isolated and 1336 01:09:00,240 --> 01:09:02,960 numb. Your themes are an inner world, 1337 01:09:02,960 --> 01:09:08,920 artistry, experience and love. Isn't that spot on? 1338 01:09:08,920 --> 01:09:11,760 Dude, that's crazy. That's beautiful. 1339 01:09:12,040 --> 01:09:13,840 I like it. That's crazy. 1340 01:09:14,960 --> 01:09:19,120 Talking about artistry, I feel like that is your 2024. 1341 01:09:19,120 --> 01:09:22,880 Like, that's it. Baby artistry, like showing the 1342 01:09:22,880 --> 01:09:28,359 world Carissa really is, aside from what you've already shown. 1343 01:09:29,800 --> 01:09:33,120 And you were talking about social media and like your 1344 01:09:33,120 --> 01:09:36,640 relationship with other people being that you wanted it to be 1345 01:09:36,640 --> 01:09:40,720 like love, and the way that you're expressing your love with 1346 01:09:40,800 --> 01:09:44,160 people is a creativity. So then for that to be one of 1347 01:09:44,160 --> 01:09:47,520 the themes of your like reading is cool. 1348 01:09:48,200 --> 01:09:49,640 Well, dude, no. Like the confusion. 1349 01:09:49,640 --> 01:09:51,479 Like, I wanted that. This is crazy real. 1350 01:09:51,479 --> 01:09:55,760 Like I wanted that Mormon love like that life with like the 1351 01:09:55,800 --> 01:09:58,400 like the wife and the husband and that and that. 1352 01:09:58,400 --> 01:10:01,120 And that's why I was so freaking confused because I wanted that's 1353 01:10:01,120 --> 01:10:03,920 what I wanted, dude. And I still that parts of me 1354 01:10:03,920 --> 01:10:05,560 still want that. But I You can't have both. 1355 01:10:05,880 --> 01:10:08,200 You can't have for me. I can't have both. 1356 01:10:08,760 --> 01:10:10,680 I got to focus on what I'm focused on right now. 1357 01:10:10,680 --> 01:10:12,680 That's so crazy. That's cool. 1358 01:10:13,280 --> 01:10:15,120 That stuff's cool. Y'all. 1359 01:10:15,720 --> 01:10:18,520 Love it. Thank you so much for coming on 1360 01:10:18,560 --> 01:10:21,840 to the podcast. Do you want to tell people how 1361 01:10:21,840 --> 01:10:24,400 they can find you? And then we will also link that 1362 01:10:24,400 --> 01:10:27,720 information in the podcast description. 1363 01:10:28,360 --> 01:10:32,360 Oh, it's Carissa didit.com. Carissadidit.com. 1364 01:10:32,560 --> 01:10:37,480 That's pretty fucking easy. Yeah, with my family photo, huh? 1365 01:10:38,480 --> 01:10:41,320 If we ever meet, we got to do them old school photos. 1366 01:10:41,920 --> 01:10:43,880 Oh my gosh. Oh like the in jeans. 1367 01:10:43,880 --> 01:10:47,480 Like 80s style. JC Penney, We're going to make a 1368 01:10:47,480 --> 01:10:50,080 pack. Do you know the fireworks? 1369 01:10:50,920 --> 01:10:54,040 Yeah. Where are these coming from? 1370 01:10:54,040 --> 01:10:55,120 Like. This I don't know. 1371 01:10:55,120 --> 01:10:57,240 Like. Jesus himself. 1372 01:10:58,400 --> 01:11:02,240 OK, I'm wearing my Jesus shirt. This was a witch, probably 1373 01:11:02,560 --> 01:11:07,520 actually actually, right, Yeah. I loved him so much I put it on 1374 01:11:07,520 --> 01:11:09,120 a shirt because I believed it was true. 1375 01:11:09,720 --> 01:11:12,200 Yeah. I love it so much. 1376 01:11:12,200 --> 01:11:15,960 Well, thank you all for coming to another episode of Candy Land 1377 01:11:15,960 --> 01:11:18,720 and we look forward to seeing you all and next time. 1378 01:11:19,720 --> 01:11:21,640 Bye. Bye.