1 00:00:18,040 --> 00:00:23,120 Welcome back to Candy Land. We are so excited to be on here 2 00:00:23,120 --> 00:00:25,440 with you all. We're doing biweekly episodes 3 00:00:25,440 --> 00:00:30,360 and kind of just really soaking them in each one and trying to 4 00:00:30,360 --> 00:00:33,560 make sure that each one gets enough like, energy and 5 00:00:33,560 --> 00:00:35,080 attention. Because when you're putting out 6 00:00:35,080 --> 00:00:39,080 new episodes every week, I feel like it's easy to overlook a 7 00:00:39,080 --> 00:00:42,440 really good episode or overlook some really good information. 8 00:00:42,840 --> 00:00:46,160 Why is my voice trying to cut out in the mix of this? 9 00:00:47,000 --> 00:00:49,840 I don't know, but I also feel like we're also in this area 10 00:00:49,840 --> 00:00:52,800 where we're both giving ourselves the time that our 11 00:00:52,800 --> 00:00:56,320 other projects need and like really investing time and 12 00:00:56,320 --> 00:00:58,360 building ourselves in other areas. 13 00:00:58,360 --> 00:01:01,880 And coming to the podcast like to share different things, but 14 00:01:01,880 --> 00:01:04,440 we have our own fucking journeys privately. 15 00:01:04,440 --> 00:01:09,760 So biweekly just is the vibe. Yeah, I think each time that we 16 00:01:10,400 --> 00:01:15,400 record an episode, you know, the ETA of like when the audience 17 00:01:15,400 --> 00:01:20,480 actually hears that episode has quite some time gap because of 18 00:01:20,480 --> 00:01:23,800 it only being every two weeks. So that's kind of interesting. 19 00:01:23,800 --> 00:01:27,840 Where before, like you all were getting us like the day before, 20 00:01:27,840 --> 00:01:31,600 dropping it, the literal next day, just boom, drop. 21 00:01:31,600 --> 00:01:34,720 So, you know, we're definitely being more methodical this 22 00:01:34,720 --> 00:01:39,880 season and trying to really soak in every episode and what each 23 00:01:41,400 --> 00:01:44,960 episode has to offer. I mean, I kind of like that 24 00:01:44,960 --> 00:01:49,840 about doing that though, because we do talk about our own 25 00:01:49,840 --> 00:01:52,920 personal stuff here. And sometimes when people hear 26 00:01:52,920 --> 00:01:55,320 what you're going through while you're going through it and then 27 00:01:55,320 --> 00:01:58,480 they message you about it, like in friendly ways, like to talk 28 00:01:58,480 --> 00:02:01,880 about it or whatever. It can be annoying sometimes 29 00:02:01,880 --> 00:02:04,360 because you're like, I'm just trying to like work through my 30 00:02:04,360 --> 00:02:07,520 things and I happen to do it on a platform, but like I want to 31 00:02:07,520 --> 00:02:10,440 do it privately and alone. And by the time that people hear 32 00:02:10,440 --> 00:02:12,680 our shit, it's like, oh, I've already passed that. 33 00:02:12,680 --> 00:02:13,960 Like thanks so much for reaching out. 34 00:02:13,960 --> 00:02:16,880 But like, it is a thing. I saw that orb pop past. 35 00:02:16,880 --> 00:02:21,400 Your screen popping off like I've really got it popping over 36 00:02:21,400 --> 00:02:22,680 here. Y'all like that? 37 00:02:22,680 --> 00:02:28,000 I am loving this autumn energy, like the change of season 38 00:02:28,000 --> 00:02:32,520 energy, Libra season, Like I'm here, I'm in the game, baby. 39 00:02:32,520 --> 00:02:36,320 This is my last sign of the year, right? 40 00:02:36,320 --> 00:02:37,760 Like, you know, we have our big three. 41 00:02:37,760 --> 00:02:41,760 Like this is my last season of the year and I'm going to make 42 00:02:41,760 --> 00:02:46,560 it the best one I've ever had. This is my favorite fucking time 43 00:02:46,560 --> 00:02:48,000 of the year, and I don't know if it's because we have 44 00:02:48,000 --> 00:02:52,920 back-to-back holidays or what it is, but like, everything's 45 00:02:52,920 --> 00:02:55,480 starting to cool down. You walk to the store, it smells 46 00:02:55,480 --> 00:02:59,360 like pumpkin outside. Starby's has the fall drinks 47 00:02:59,360 --> 00:03:00,880 back. I don't care what you say, I'll 48 00:03:00,880 --> 00:03:05,200 go every fucking morning during fall season and it's everything. 49 00:03:05,520 --> 00:03:08,360 I'm definitely using pumpkin spice Creamer right now. 50 00:03:08,400 --> 00:03:16,800 I love the season, I love layers like boots and jackets and 51 00:03:16,800 --> 00:03:22,080 sweaters is like my jam. Although I like all seasons and 52 00:03:22,080 --> 00:03:25,680 what they have to offer, I just prefer not to sweat my ass off 53 00:03:25,680 --> 00:03:30,480 every time I go outside and to breathe thick air 'cause it's 54 00:03:30,480 --> 00:03:35,520 very humid in Kentucky. Like super humid, so thick air, 55 00:03:35,520 --> 00:03:38,880 and we're in the River Valley valley, which has some of the 56 00:03:38,880 --> 00:03:43,800 worst allergies in the country. So it's just like thick pollen 57 00:03:44,120 --> 00:03:48,320 dust pool. Can you say thick one more time? 58 00:03:48,640 --> 00:03:51,040 Thick, I like it. Thick I like them all. 59 00:03:51,040 --> 00:03:52,840 Thick air, she. Likes them all. 60 00:03:52,880 --> 00:03:54,520 She likes a little girth on them. 61 00:04:01,120 --> 00:04:04,040 Listen, I just, I don't understand going through life 62 00:04:04,040 --> 00:04:06,280 and having conversations with your friend where you're not 63 00:04:06,280 --> 00:04:08,080 talking about wieners. At some point in the 64 00:04:08,080 --> 00:04:11,000 conversation, I just feel like, where's your mind at? 65 00:04:11,000 --> 00:04:14,040 Like, where are your priorities? Like if good Dick's not a 66 00:04:14,040 --> 00:04:17,760 priority for you, then I just, we're not really friends. 67 00:04:17,760 --> 00:04:19,839 This podcast may not be for you, and I'm just kidding. 68 00:04:22,320 --> 00:04:24,560 Crazy. It's crazy out here. 69 00:04:24,560 --> 00:04:26,240 What do you have going on over there, Lady? 70 00:04:27,840 --> 00:04:29,360 Me. Yeah, Your life. 71 00:04:29,360 --> 00:04:32,400 What's new with you? Well I was about to speak on my 72 00:04:32,400 --> 00:04:38,240 lava lamp that I got today 'cause y'all have no idea but 73 00:04:38,400 --> 00:04:42,600 they came out with like a like a striped kind of Beetlejuice lime 74 00:04:42,600 --> 00:04:46,440 green lava lamp at Spencer's and I saw someone post it. 75 00:04:46,440 --> 00:04:50,040 So I reverse image searched it like 3 weeks ago and saw it was 76 00:04:50,040 --> 00:04:54,320 sold out on Spencer's website and I was like oh I really want 77 00:04:54,320 --> 00:04:55,680 that. So I checked the local 78 00:04:55,680 --> 00:04:57,480 Spencer's, but they didn't have it. 79 00:04:58,400 --> 00:05:02,200 And so then today I drove like an hour outside of Louisville 80 00:05:02,200 --> 00:05:04,400 and I wasn't really going there with this in mind. 81 00:05:04,400 --> 00:05:07,360 I just was like, oh, they have the Spencer's Let's go in. 82 00:05:07,360 --> 00:05:11,360 And they had it and I got it. And then I was chatting it up 83 00:05:11,360 --> 00:05:14,080 with the lady, 'cause I was buying other stuff and I gave 84 00:05:14,080 --> 00:05:15,960 her some stickers and a podcast card. 85 00:05:15,960 --> 00:05:18,200 And then she was like, I'm going to give you this item for a 86 00:05:18,200 --> 00:05:20,200 dollar. And she literally gave me a 87 00:05:20,200 --> 00:05:24,920 Playboy button up for a dollar. It was so nice you. 88 00:05:25,600 --> 00:05:27,160 Got a lava lamp? You got a Playboy? 89 00:05:27,800 --> 00:05:31,440 It was so nice of her and so everything just felt so aligned. 90 00:05:33,720 --> 00:05:37,680 Well, I'm loving that for you. What do you have that you're 91 00:05:37,680 --> 00:05:43,720 like working on to like manifest for next year while it's like 92 00:05:43,840 --> 00:05:46,360 becoming like fall and then winter time? 93 00:05:47,720 --> 00:05:49,840 Girl, I want to travel more next year. 94 00:05:49,840 --> 00:05:51,440 I'm in. I'm not manifesting really 95 00:05:51,440 --> 00:05:57,120 anything except more travel, more more joyful and exciting 96 00:05:57,120 --> 00:05:59,120 experiences. I wanna see. 97 00:05:59,120 --> 00:06:04,120 I wanna see your ass next year since clearly I'm not gonna see 98 00:06:04,120 --> 00:06:10,000 you this year. Clearly, dude, traveling's 99 00:06:10,000 --> 00:06:13,160 fucking like, I wish that I was able to just be like, you know 100 00:06:13,160 --> 00:06:15,360 what, Like I'm gonna just pick up and I'm just gonna go and do 101 00:06:15,360 --> 00:06:18,040 this and I'll have the best intentions to go and be able to 102 00:06:18,040 --> 00:06:21,880 travel and stuff. But like it really is so 103 00:06:21,880 --> 00:06:28,280 difficult juggling like kids and husbands and businesses and 104 00:06:28,280 --> 00:06:30,320 being able to travel and do all of the things. 105 00:06:30,320 --> 00:06:34,080 So like before you have all of these, like I'm not going to say 106 00:06:34,080 --> 00:06:36,560 anything that ties you down because in so many ways, like 107 00:06:36,560 --> 00:06:39,760 it's not a tie down, but just things that become more of a 108 00:06:39,760 --> 00:06:43,440 priority. I hope that you travel it up and 109 00:06:43,440 --> 00:06:45,880 do all of the things and go all of the places. 110 00:06:46,120 --> 00:06:52,240 That's exactly why I want to do it because I personally had a 111 00:06:52,280 --> 00:06:58,480 glimpse of clarity, if you will, where I don't want to be tied 112 00:06:58,480 --> 00:07:01,440 down to a motherfucking thing, right? 113 00:07:01,920 --> 00:07:04,880 Not even tied down. I don't want to be committed to 114 00:07:04,880 --> 00:07:08,080 any roles that other people have for my life. 115 00:07:08,080 --> 00:07:11,280 Like other people are like oh you can't do that or you 116 00:07:11,280 --> 00:07:13,280 shouldn't do that or you shouldn't go there. 117 00:07:13,560 --> 00:07:17,040 And every one of their opinions and fear based mindsets can 118 00:07:17,040 --> 00:07:20,920 totally kick rocks. In my reality, they don't exist. 119 00:07:21,200 --> 00:07:24,800 I personally just want to experience life and like network 120 00:07:24,800 --> 00:07:28,200 because every time I go places and I network, I really get to 121 00:07:28,200 --> 00:07:31,800 meet so many amazing people by just like naturally being myself 122 00:07:31,800 --> 00:07:34,800 and it's such a good time and I come back and I always feel so 123 00:07:34,800 --> 00:07:37,160 fulfilled. I love coming home though, like 124 00:07:37,160 --> 00:07:40,800 I'm a homebody at heart, but it's like I really want to just 125 00:07:40,800 --> 00:07:45,400 experience more of life like, and just see the world in ways 126 00:07:45,400 --> 00:07:48,640 that may be like I haven't before, I guess. 127 00:07:50,320 --> 00:07:53,440 My husband was watching this guy on YouTube who goes to places 128 00:07:53,440 --> 00:07:57,520 with just himself and his like camera and he'll just take 129 00:07:57,520 --> 00:08:00,840 himself into the most random places and he doesn't have 130 00:08:00,840 --> 00:08:03,400 anything set up for housing, for food, nothing. 131 00:08:03,400 --> 00:08:06,760 He just goes there meets local people and has them just like 132 00:08:07,040 --> 00:08:10,640 adventure him around. So he went to this place called 133 00:08:10,640 --> 00:08:15,600 It's a Barrow, Alaska, and he quite literally just hopped off 134 00:08:15,600 --> 00:08:17,440 of it. They have one flight that goes 135 00:08:17,440 --> 00:08:21,480 in and one flight that goes out per day and that's it. 136 00:08:21,760 --> 00:08:24,640 And it's like this small Alaska town. 137 00:08:24,640 --> 00:08:27,120 He just showed up and was like, hey, I want to try whale. 138 00:08:27,120 --> 00:08:29,880 Can somebody take me to like, try whale? 139 00:08:30,160 --> 00:08:33,320 And so he was being taken around by like, natives local in the 140 00:08:33,320 --> 00:08:36,440 area who were talking to him about, you know, just like 141 00:08:36,440 --> 00:08:38,520 different cultures and customs there and stuff. 142 00:08:38,520 --> 00:08:39,880 And I just thought it was fucking cool. 143 00:08:39,880 --> 00:08:41,840 He would just, he would be like, oh, OK, cool. 144 00:08:41,840 --> 00:08:43,039 I just had dinner with you. Nice. 145 00:08:43,120 --> 00:08:46,120 And he'd be walking and somebody would drive by and he'd flag 146 00:08:46,120 --> 00:08:49,280 them down and be like, hey, and they'd take him to his house to 147 00:08:49,280 --> 00:08:50,880 go meet their family and whatever. 148 00:08:50,880 --> 00:08:53,600 It was just the most interesting thing that should be you. 149 00:08:53,600 --> 00:08:55,840 But like with safety precautions, like you should 150 00:08:55,840 --> 00:08:58,160 have a camera and a gun, you know? 151 00:08:59,160 --> 00:09:06,640 I literally, despite popular belief, want to go on another 152 00:09:06,640 --> 00:09:09,680 cruise even though that it was crazy. 153 00:09:09,680 --> 00:09:13,960 We have had that conversation. I've already got one booked and 154 00:09:13,960 --> 00:09:16,880 I'm going again next year. I cannot wait. 155 00:09:17,480 --> 00:09:20,880 It's going to be exciting. So, you know, I'm just going to 156 00:09:20,880 --> 00:09:25,040 be out here seeing what's up, seeing what's up in the world. 157 00:09:25,800 --> 00:09:30,920 The way you gamble with your life for joy is just like, it's 158 00:09:30,920 --> 00:09:34,120 just something else to me. You're like, I'm going to take 159 00:09:34,120 --> 00:09:36,440 care of this spirit, but this physical body, I'm going to put 160 00:09:36,440 --> 00:09:38,800 it on a fucking boat. I'm going to go out in the 161 00:09:38,800 --> 00:09:41,120 middle of the ocean. There may be some murders, there 162 00:09:41,120 --> 00:09:42,880 may be some crazy shit that happens. 163 00:09:42,880 --> 00:09:46,520 I may not make it back to port. I could get lost at sea but I'm 164 00:09:46,520 --> 00:09:49,880 full sending it. I don't know why, but here 165 00:09:49,880 --> 00:09:52,560 lately I've been wanting to do spontaneous things. 166 00:09:52,560 --> 00:09:58,000 Like I need the adrenaline rush, Like I need the, I need the 167 00:09:58,000 --> 00:09:59,680 endorphins, you know what I mean? 168 00:10:01,320 --> 00:10:02,960 I get no, I don't know what you mean. 169 00:10:02,960 --> 00:10:04,440 Like I know what you mean for you. 170 00:10:04,760 --> 00:10:06,400 Remember when we went on the thing? 171 00:10:06,400 --> 00:10:10,880 We went on the the ride to the Devil's Gates, The Devil's hot 172 00:10:10,880 --> 00:10:16,000 Tub, Hell's Gates. Yeah, I sure do. 173 00:10:16,240 --> 00:10:18,800 I sure do remember being peer pressured into that. 174 00:10:19,760 --> 00:10:22,920 And don't you have like this feeling that you are like you 175 00:10:22,920 --> 00:10:27,360 did that in two wheel drive and was on the verge of sliding off 176 00:10:27,360 --> 00:10:29,600 that mountain at any time, all of us. 177 00:10:31,640 --> 00:10:34,040 There's not a day that goes by that I don't think about it, but 178 00:10:34,040 --> 00:10:37,240 I don't think it's like a a joyous reflection back. 179 00:10:37,240 --> 00:10:42,120 It really is a like I should have like, you know, it's like a 180 00:10:42,120 --> 00:10:45,160 catch 22, right? Because we have these memories 181 00:10:45,160 --> 00:10:48,360 and have these things and we wouldn't have these memories if 182 00:10:48,400 --> 00:10:51,120 we hadn't gone and done that. We would have just had that. 183 00:10:51,120 --> 00:10:53,240 We would have just been stuck in a fucking tiny home the whole 184 00:10:53,240 --> 00:10:57,840 time, but with like fucking boozy. 185 00:10:58,320 --> 00:11:02,480 But we go and we I wish we hadn't done it. 186 00:11:02,480 --> 00:11:05,160 Like there's so many other things I would have rather done. 187 00:11:05,160 --> 00:11:10,560 I've never, my hands have never sweat so much in my life as it 188 00:11:10,560 --> 00:11:12,440 did on that thing. And I've never been in a 189 00:11:12,440 --> 00:11:15,720 position before where I'm literally cheering somebody on 190 00:11:15,720 --> 00:11:21,360 so they don't kill me. Like I like I was the fucking 191 00:11:21,360 --> 00:11:24,080 cheerleader in the back. Like, Oh my God, you're doing so 192 00:11:24,080 --> 00:11:24,760 good. Yes. 193 00:11:24,760 --> 00:11:28,040 And I literally was just like, please be filled with so much 194 00:11:28,040 --> 00:11:30,560 love and appreciation right now that you don't slide us down 195 00:11:30,560 --> 00:11:38,080 this fucking mountain. Absolutely 1000% am just shocked 196 00:11:38,080 --> 00:11:42,320 that that happened altogether. Like the whole scenario of like, 197 00:11:43,080 --> 00:11:46,360 oh, I got it, I don't need it telling the tour guide like I 198 00:11:46,360 --> 00:11:51,240 got it, but yet you drank vodka and forgot to put it into 4 199 00:11:51,240 --> 00:11:55,880 wheel drive. Like those two details are scary 200 00:11:55,880 --> 00:11:58,480 because like otherwise, like someone who knows how to drop 201 00:11:58,480 --> 00:12:00,720 this piece of machinery, someone who's listening to the tour 202 00:12:00,720 --> 00:12:03,280 guide, those people in front of us had never drove one in their 203 00:12:03,280 --> 00:12:05,960 entire life and they were fine. You know what I mean? 204 00:12:05,960 --> 00:12:08,040 Like I feel like the circumstances would have been 205 00:12:08,040 --> 00:12:12,800 different, but she was definitely on one. 206 00:12:12,800 --> 00:12:16,080 So it's definitely an episode that if you haven't listened to 207 00:12:16,080 --> 00:12:20,760 the Home Girl episode, go back to last year and find out when 208 00:12:20,760 --> 00:12:25,520 Gemini and myself first met and how we almost died together. 209 00:12:25,880 --> 00:12:29,160 But there's on a day that goes by that Gemini doesn't reflect 210 00:12:30,000 --> 00:12:31,360 on that. Moment Because you know what 211 00:12:31,360 --> 00:12:35,880 makes me so mad about it is the fact that I was like, I know 212 00:12:35,880 --> 00:12:38,360 about this. We shouldn't go on this. 213 00:12:38,360 --> 00:12:41,520 I have people who are tour guides who are telling us don't 214 00:12:41,520 --> 00:12:43,880 go on this. This isn't a beginner level 215 00:12:43,880 --> 00:12:45,840 thing. This isn't like don't do it. 216 00:12:46,160 --> 00:12:51,320 I'm like we're not going to do it and then had to do it because 217 00:12:51,320 --> 00:12:55,160 if we didn't go, then it would have been like a big problem for 218 00:12:55,160 --> 00:12:57,960 you guys and I would have ended up going to jail because home 219 00:12:57,960 --> 00:13:02,240 girl wouldn't have stopped her like tornado of fuckery the 220 00:13:02,240 --> 00:13:04,840 entire time and she would have been mean to you and Jackie 221 00:13:04,840 --> 00:13:07,280 still and it just like it would have been a whole thing. 222 00:13:08,720 --> 00:13:12,320 Yeah, it was definitely crazy, but I definitely feel like that 223 00:13:12,320 --> 00:13:16,360 experience opened me up to like a near death experience, like an 224 00:13:16,360 --> 00:13:20,680 awakening moment of near death. Yeah, I don't want to repeat 225 00:13:20,680 --> 00:13:22,080 that. So, like, have fun on the cruise 226 00:13:22,080 --> 00:13:23,960 ships. This time I'm going to listen to 227 00:13:23,960 --> 00:13:26,200 the inner voice that says, hey, don't do that. 228 00:13:26,200 --> 00:13:30,280 And I'm going to not do it. I will think of you fondly. 229 00:13:30,280 --> 00:13:31,840 I'll light a fucking candle for you. 230 00:13:31,840 --> 00:13:35,040 I may the storms forever be in your favor. 231 00:13:36,280 --> 00:13:39,200 I hope you see whales and dolphins and all of the things, 232 00:13:39,200 --> 00:13:41,080 and I will see you when you're back on land. 233 00:13:42,000 --> 00:13:45,920 My favorite part about all of this is like Gemini doesn't go 234 00:13:45,920 --> 00:13:47,880 on a lot of trips. You all you just heard it. 235 00:13:47,880 --> 00:13:50,920 And then she did that with us and we had that experience. 236 00:13:50,920 --> 00:13:53,720 And then she went on another trip with some of her friends 237 00:13:53,720 --> 00:13:56,360 and there was like a crackhead trying to break into their 238 00:13:56,360 --> 00:13:59,960 Airbnb. And that's the funniest shit 239 00:13:59,960 --> 00:14:03,160 that you've ever heard. Like she's literally telling her 240 00:14:03,160 --> 00:14:06,200 husband that she probably won't go on a girls trip for a long 241 00:14:06,200 --> 00:14:08,600 time. Six months or so goes by, she 242 00:14:08,600 --> 00:14:11,680 goes on a girls trip and there's literally crackheads following 243 00:14:11,680 --> 00:14:14,560 them and trying to come into the Airbnb. 244 00:14:16,040 --> 00:14:22,920 Yeah, so I got this thing about girls trips now, and yeah, I 245 00:14:22,920 --> 00:14:26,000 don't think they're for me. Like I like the idea. 246 00:14:26,280 --> 00:14:30,320 Here's the other thing too, is like there's just something 247 00:14:30,320 --> 00:14:35,120 always weird that happens on trips, like somebody goes 248 00:14:35,120 --> 00:14:38,480 through something with their husband or like whatever 249 00:14:38,480 --> 00:14:40,840 happens. Like there's just always these 250 00:14:40,840 --> 00:14:45,360 like outside things. And so there's, I haven't, I 251 00:14:45,360 --> 00:14:48,360 guess I just haven't had an experience where I'm getting 252 00:14:48,360 --> 00:14:51,520 together with another group of women and it's just like a fun 253 00:14:51,520 --> 00:14:53,440 time that doesn't have drama with it. 254 00:14:53,840 --> 00:14:57,560 And there's 400 other things that I would rather do with my 255 00:14:57,560 --> 00:15:01,040 time than have the fuckery. Had it been you, me and Jubur, 256 00:15:01,480 --> 00:15:04,360 we would have had the best time. Just us when we had the last 257 00:15:04,360 --> 00:15:07,760 couple days at the Airbnb and we just walked around and did food 258 00:15:07,760 --> 00:15:10,640 and hung out and like that was such a vibe. 259 00:15:11,000 --> 00:15:14,480 It was so laid back. And I, I've mentioned it before, 260 00:15:14,480 --> 00:15:18,680 but just being able to be like, oh, I found this at this store. 261 00:15:18,680 --> 00:15:20,800 So I want to go and return this real quick. 262 00:15:20,800 --> 00:15:23,120 And everybody just being like, yeah, no problem, we'll go back 263 00:15:23,120 --> 00:15:24,600 to that store. Like it's no big deal. 264 00:15:24,600 --> 00:15:28,680 Like let's just go and do it. And never feeling inconvenient 265 00:15:28,680 --> 00:15:31,280 or like I was fucking up somebody's time schedule or 266 00:15:31,280 --> 00:15:34,240 something. Like I really loved that. 267 00:15:34,680 --> 00:15:39,080 And that's the type of energy that I would want to have on a 268 00:15:39,080 --> 00:15:43,360 girls trip. You are right about every time 269 00:15:43,360 --> 00:15:46,360 people go on a girls trip, someone goes through a breakup 270 00:15:46,360 --> 00:15:48,840 or something. Like you're, you're true on 271 00:15:48,840 --> 00:15:50,720 that. Like almost every time I go on a 272 00:15:50,720 --> 00:15:54,000 vacation, unless it's someone I'm actually dating. 273 00:15:54,000 --> 00:15:58,040 If it's just someone I'm talking to like casually or like, you 274 00:15:58,040 --> 00:16:02,760 know, you know that initial talking stage with someone every 275 00:16:02,760 --> 00:16:05,320 time I go on a vacation that goes up and smoke while I'm 276 00:16:05,320 --> 00:16:06,840 gone. And it's almost like they're 277 00:16:06,840 --> 00:16:10,400 trying to ruin my time. Like they're insecure about what 278 00:16:10,400 --> 00:16:12,560 I might be doing. So they're trying to like 279 00:16:12,560 --> 00:16:15,520 distract me and ruin my time. And that has happened a lot. 280 00:16:15,760 --> 00:16:18,520 So I can definitely say that like every time I go on a trip, 281 00:16:18,760 --> 00:16:21,600 if I was talking to someone it by the time I get home, we don't 282 00:16:21,600 --> 00:16:24,360 talk anymore. Now probably have blocked them 283 00:16:24,360 --> 00:16:28,360 or something, but and I don't go on a lot of girls trips. 284 00:16:28,360 --> 00:16:32,960 I go on like solo trips or like maybe a like you said, like two 285 00:16:32,960 --> 00:16:36,360 other people. Yeah, I don't. 286 00:16:39,040 --> 00:16:43,800 Any more than three people on a trip is probably doing too much 287 00:16:43,800 --> 00:16:47,400 because then you give the option for two people to like pair off 288 00:16:47,760 --> 00:16:53,080 and create like some weird buddy hierarchy system of like, I've I 289 00:16:53,080 --> 00:17:04,040 have the car, I have the hotel. No, you know, what's weird about 290 00:17:04,040 --> 00:17:08,599 that too is like, even if you go into things like prepared ahead 291 00:17:08,599 --> 00:17:12,280 of time, I think back on that trip that we took now and I 292 00:17:12,280 --> 00:17:16,280 think back on that other person and I, I think about little, 293 00:17:16,359 --> 00:17:20,880 little comments of division before we even went on that 294 00:17:20,880 --> 00:17:23,720 trip. And it's made me so much more 295 00:17:23,720 --> 00:17:29,440 aware about how people really do tell you their thought processes 296 00:17:29,440 --> 00:17:34,440 and intentions, but we just don't always think about it from 297 00:17:34,440 --> 00:17:36,160 the perspective of what they're saying. 298 00:17:36,160 --> 00:17:40,400 For example, like I remember when we were talking about doing 299 00:17:40,400 --> 00:17:44,920 the trip and she was talking about how you were bringing Juba 300 00:17:45,160 --> 00:17:50,440 and so and that you and Juba were so alike and that, you 301 00:17:50,440 --> 00:17:54,040 know, she would have felt like she maybe would be the third man 302 00:17:54,040 --> 00:17:55,600 out. So having somebody else there 303 00:17:55,600 --> 00:17:58,480 would be awesome. And how like we both have kids 304 00:17:58,480 --> 00:18:01,360 and she had just gotten married. And so she felt like everybody 305 00:18:01,360 --> 00:18:03,920 was going to kind of have somebody to like hang out with. 306 00:18:04,400 --> 00:18:08,520 And, and hearing that at the time, I was like, yeah, it 307 00:18:08,520 --> 00:18:11,480 totally makes sense, right? Like you just have like 308 00:18:11,800 --> 00:18:14,280 different things going on. Like I, I totally get the 309 00:18:14,280 --> 00:18:16,280 feeling of like being left out or whatever. 310 00:18:16,800 --> 00:18:21,200 But then I realized now after that situation happened that 311 00:18:21,200 --> 00:18:27,640 there was such a hyper fixation and expectation on her end that 312 00:18:27,640 --> 00:18:30,840 she would be left out of something, that she created that 313 00:18:30,840 --> 00:18:33,760 reality for herself. And I think that we do that in 314 00:18:33,760 --> 00:18:37,400 life so often without meaning to is like we have a fear or a 315 00:18:37,400 --> 00:18:42,040 concern about something and we make that the reality that we 316 00:18:42,040 --> 00:18:46,400 see and that we experience. And we put that on other people 317 00:18:46,600 --> 00:18:50,280 and we don't realize that like that really isn't the reality, 318 00:18:50,280 --> 00:18:53,600 but we've just convinced ourself of this based out of fear. 319 00:18:53,920 --> 00:18:58,000 And once you kind of get into into a certain mindset, 320 00:18:58,000 --> 00:19:02,520 especially when it's like a low vibrational mindset, and I feel 321 00:19:02,520 --> 00:19:04,320 like it's really hard to get out of that. 322 00:19:04,320 --> 00:19:09,320 And so many times, like for that person, I think that person 323 00:19:09,320 --> 00:19:12,880 still truly to this day thinks that they did absolutely nothing 324 00:19:12,880 --> 00:19:17,720 wrong because they made whatever version of reality they wanted 325 00:19:17,720 --> 00:19:19,200 to make. And I think it happens all the 326 00:19:19,200 --> 00:19:21,400 time. We just happen to be the 327 00:19:21,400 --> 00:19:25,480 bystanders and quote UN quote, victims of that in that 328 00:19:25,480 --> 00:19:29,080 situation. And you know, I honestly believe 329 00:19:29,080 --> 00:19:33,320 that people will repeat that cycle and almost every new bond 330 00:19:33,320 --> 00:19:37,360 or friendship that they develop, which is why, like in the past 331 00:19:37,360 --> 00:19:44,080 when we weren't as selective about people coming in and 332 00:19:44,080 --> 00:19:48,040 claiming to be a friend or a supporter or a fan or whatever. 333 00:19:48,440 --> 00:19:52,440 And like just giving people direct access to us and learning 334 00:19:52,440 --> 00:19:54,320 that lesson, like touching that fire. 335 00:19:54,560 --> 00:19:57,760 And I think that's helped me a lot like keep the boundaries 336 00:19:57,760 --> 00:20:02,360 clear and keep the like focus on like the healing aspect and like 337 00:20:02,360 --> 00:20:05,000 helping others, but not necessarily thinking I need to 338 00:20:05,000 --> 00:20:08,960 be everyone's friend or everyone's guru or everyone's go 339 00:20:08,960 --> 00:20:11,320 to like some people. Who are really going to rock 340 00:20:11,320 --> 00:20:14,080 with me for the long time or some people, it might be like a 341 00:20:14,080 --> 00:20:20,000 temporary thing, but I think a lot of what I feel is this ever 342 00:20:20,000 --> 00:20:23,200 changing flow of the type of people that I connect with and 343 00:20:23,200 --> 00:20:27,360 the type of people that I am like friends with now versus 344 00:20:27,360 --> 00:20:30,480 like the people I used to be friends with previously. 345 00:20:30,760 --> 00:20:33,840 So it's like, you know, those cycles are almost unconscious 346 00:20:33,840 --> 00:20:38,200 because it's like, well, you've always had a friend who treated 347 00:20:38,200 --> 00:20:41,120 you this way or, you know, invites you to their birthday 348 00:20:41,120 --> 00:20:44,520 dinner but then doesn't come to your birthday dinner or 349 00:20:44,520 --> 00:20:46,760 whatever. You know, a lot of times people 350 00:20:46,760 --> 00:20:53,000 will identify your place in their life earlier on and you 351 00:20:53,000 --> 00:20:54,920 know what I mean? But I think that sometimes, like 352 00:20:55,320 --> 00:20:58,400 with Internet friends or people coming in that you may not know 353 00:20:58,400 --> 00:21:01,480 very well whether it's like, oh, I started this new job and this 354 00:21:01,480 --> 00:21:05,200 person seems really nice, or I moved into this community and 355 00:21:05,200 --> 00:21:08,720 this neighbor seems really nice. Like it's sometimes like some 356 00:21:08,720 --> 00:21:10,560 people have I'll intentions, right? 357 00:21:10,560 --> 00:21:15,840 Like just because you want that friendship or you want to 358 00:21:15,840 --> 00:21:19,720 believe that it's good, you have to have discernment because not 359 00:21:19,720 --> 00:21:21,480 everybody has the same heart as you. 360 00:21:21,480 --> 00:21:24,760 Not everybody's going to pursue a friendship with the same level 361 00:21:24,760 --> 00:21:28,200 of respect or understanding. You know what I mean? 362 00:21:29,720 --> 00:21:35,120 I recently had a conversation with somebody who they're in my 363 00:21:35,120 --> 00:21:39,800 life, not on a friend status really, but just somebody who is 364 00:21:39,800 --> 00:21:42,960 in my life that I don't have the choice of whether they're in my 365 00:21:42,960 --> 00:21:46,080 life or not. And they made a comment to me 366 00:21:46,080 --> 00:21:49,800 about like, I really want to tell you the truth about, you 367 00:21:49,800 --> 00:21:52,760 know, certain things. And I feel like I've like, been 368 00:21:52,760 --> 00:21:55,160 lying to just like, kind of protect myself. 369 00:21:55,480 --> 00:21:58,360 And I feel like if I tell the truth or I lie, it's like a 370 00:21:58,360 --> 00:22:00,120 damned if you do and damned if you don't. 371 00:22:00,120 --> 00:22:01,960 And I don't really know what to do about that. 372 00:22:02,240 --> 00:22:05,160 And like, I really want to be able to have a friendship with 373 00:22:05,160 --> 00:22:07,480 you, but like, there's certain things that I can't be honest 374 00:22:07,480 --> 00:22:12,040 about in life and whatever. And in the past, I would have 375 00:22:12,040 --> 00:22:16,320 been like, show up as you can, like it's totally OK, you know 376 00:22:16,320 --> 00:22:18,360 what I mean? Like you can share with me what 377 00:22:18,360 --> 00:22:21,520 you're able to and I'll hold space for you and it'll totally 378 00:22:21,520 --> 00:22:23,040 be fine. And I would have felt like this 379 00:22:23,040 --> 00:22:25,200 person just needs a friend and whatever. 380 00:22:25,560 --> 00:22:29,520 And I set up a really clear boundary with my response and 381 00:22:29,520 --> 00:22:33,120 was like, I totally understand what you're saying and where 382 00:22:33,120 --> 00:22:34,800 you're at. And like, that must be a tough 383 00:22:34,800 --> 00:22:37,560 predicament for you to go into and for you to be in. 384 00:22:37,800 --> 00:22:41,520 But I require honesty and authenticity about friends that 385 00:22:41,520 --> 00:22:44,360 I have. And I need to be able to trust 386 00:22:44,360 --> 00:22:47,200 people that I have inside of my space and that I consider 387 00:22:47,200 --> 00:22:50,200 friends. So, you know, if you're wanting 388 00:22:50,200 --> 00:22:56,720 to be a friend with me, then I expect and kind of require for 389 00:22:56,720 --> 00:22:59,720 you to have honesty and transparency. 390 00:22:59,960 --> 00:23:02,640 And if you're not able to provide those things and you 391 00:23:02,640 --> 00:23:07,120 know that, then you know, we can have this type of dynamic that 392 00:23:07,120 --> 00:23:08,920 we have to have and that'll be it. 393 00:23:09,320 --> 00:23:13,440 And their response was like liking my message. 394 00:23:13,880 --> 00:23:17,520 And then since then, if they've accidentally used the word 395 00:23:17,520 --> 00:23:21,680 friend, then they've corrected it and been like acquaintance or 396 00:23:21,680 --> 00:23:24,920 something. And in the past that would, I 397 00:23:24,920 --> 00:23:27,240 would have been like, that's just fucking weird. 398 00:23:27,440 --> 00:23:31,520 But now I'm like, OK, cool. So like I asserted that boundary 399 00:23:31,520 --> 00:23:34,320 and that requirement. That person recognized that they 400 00:23:34,320 --> 00:23:38,160 can't provide that. And so they're just showing up 401 00:23:38,160 --> 00:23:39,520 the way that they're gonna show up. 402 00:23:39,520 --> 00:23:42,680 And they're not being manipulative about that, you 403 00:23:42,680 --> 00:23:45,960 know? I love when people can just be 404 00:23:45,960 --> 00:23:49,520 very honest with like what they can and can't do or what they 405 00:23:49,520 --> 00:23:52,440 will and won't do. You know, sometimes I feel like 406 00:23:52,440 --> 00:23:57,160 a lot of people get caught up on words, just the words of other 407 00:23:57,160 --> 00:24:00,480 people like, oh, I'll do that, I'll change, I'll stop doing 408 00:24:00,480 --> 00:24:02,280 that. I'll start doing that, whatever 409 00:24:02,280 --> 00:24:04,720 it may be. But at the end of the day, like, 410 00:24:05,200 --> 00:24:07,200 we really got to assess people's actions. 411 00:24:07,200 --> 00:24:09,080 Like, do they keep repeating the cycle? 412 00:24:09,280 --> 00:24:11,520 Do they fall into the same trap every time? 413 00:24:11,520 --> 00:24:16,080 You know, I have someone that I've grown up with, and it's 414 00:24:16,080 --> 00:24:18,400 like a childhood friend, family friend, whatever you want to 415 00:24:18,400 --> 00:24:21,560 call it. And, you know, we're in our 30s 416 00:24:21,560 --> 00:24:22,760 now. We don't really hang out. 417 00:24:22,760 --> 00:24:25,360 But of course, we, like, keep up with one another on social 418 00:24:25,360 --> 00:24:29,880 medias. And I noticed that she had 419 00:24:29,880 --> 00:24:32,680 gotten in a new relationship. And I was like, I'll give her 420 00:24:33,320 --> 00:24:36,120 three months and her and this man will be living together. 421 00:24:36,120 --> 00:24:38,440 Well, it wasn't even 3 weeks. It wasn't even 3 weeks. 422 00:24:38,440 --> 00:24:43,760 She moves in and she has four little Tito's and brought them 423 00:24:43,760 --> 00:24:49,040 all, brought them all to this person's home and you know, 424 00:24:49,040 --> 00:24:50,920 they're living their best life. And I could tell. 425 00:24:51,280 --> 00:24:54,720 But then like one day her energy changed and I was like they 426 00:24:54,760 --> 00:24:56,720 broke up. So I went to her profile 427 00:24:56,720 --> 00:24:59,760 pictures which every week would be like a new picture of them 428 00:25:00,040 --> 00:25:03,120 and they were all deleted. And I said something to my mom 429 00:25:03,120 --> 00:25:04,600 about it. And I was like, well I don't 430 00:25:04,600 --> 00:25:05,600 know. I'm not friends with her on 431 00:25:05,600 --> 00:25:07,280 there. And I was like, they're going 432 00:25:07,280 --> 00:25:09,760 through breakup instantly. She's back with her trauma 433 00:25:09,760 --> 00:25:12,400 bonded little boyfriend that she's been on and off with 434 00:25:12,920 --> 00:25:15,280 forever. So you know what I mean? 435 00:25:15,280 --> 00:25:18,160 Like people will find someone who treats them amazing grasses 436 00:25:18,160 --> 00:25:21,440 greener, got a new place to live, having a good time, 437 00:25:21,440 --> 00:25:24,360 brought my kids through over here doing all this stuff and 438 00:25:24,360 --> 00:25:28,000 still uproot their life for a trauma bond just like that. 439 00:25:28,000 --> 00:25:32,280 Just because this person is boring, because there's not 440 00:25:32,280 --> 00:25:36,000 constant fight or flight or drama or chaos, or because this 441 00:25:36,000 --> 00:25:39,120 person has responsibilities and they want to get up and go to 442 00:25:39,120 --> 00:25:41,440 work and go to bed at a decent time. 443 00:25:41,440 --> 00:25:44,080 They don't want to go out and blow all their money or they 444 00:25:44,080 --> 00:25:47,440 have, you know, they have goals and they're not just spending 445 00:25:47,440 --> 00:25:49,240 and out to eat every day and whatever. 446 00:25:49,240 --> 00:25:53,160 Because you know, I can say that the person that I grow, that I 447 00:25:53,160 --> 00:25:58,480 grew up with, she definitely doesn't have her life together. 448 00:25:58,480 --> 00:26:01,480 You know what I mean? Like she definitely goes from 1 449 00:26:01,480 --> 00:26:04,720 extreme to the next in her life. And sweet girl, good mom. 450 00:26:04,720 --> 00:26:08,000 Like no, no shade to her, but she has no roots. 451 00:26:08,000 --> 00:26:11,320 Like there's nothing that's grounded in her energy. 452 00:26:11,320 --> 00:26:15,960 And I think that, you know, sometimes you want that peace, 453 00:26:15,960 --> 00:26:18,440 like you're seeking peaceful friendships, you're seeking 454 00:26:18,440 --> 00:26:20,680 peaceful community bonds, support. 455 00:26:20,960 --> 00:26:23,360 And then you get that. And the next thing you know, 456 00:26:23,360 --> 00:26:25,640 you're starting drama. Next thing you know, you're 457 00:26:25,880 --> 00:26:27,880 sleeping with somebody's boyfriend or you're doing 458 00:26:27,880 --> 00:26:31,040 something crazy or you're stirring the pot because your 459 00:26:31,040 --> 00:26:35,640 body is so like used to that chaos and that drama and that 460 00:26:35,640 --> 00:26:40,120 constant just looking over our shoulder type energy that your 461 00:26:40,120 --> 00:26:43,200 body will like almost bring that back in. 462 00:26:43,480 --> 00:26:48,680 Because peace and quiet and chill and respect and and mutual 463 00:26:48,680 --> 00:26:52,320 understanding sometimes could feel like phony or fake or why 464 00:26:52,320 --> 00:26:54,440 are they being so nice? What's their motive? 465 00:26:54,440 --> 00:26:57,040 What's their motive? Because your brain is programmed 466 00:26:57,040 --> 00:27:00,480 to start shit, to start drama somewhere in your life, to keep 467 00:27:00,480 --> 00:27:04,160 yourself in constant fear and terror and chaos. 468 00:27:04,440 --> 00:27:08,720 Your subconscious is manifesting these experiences and then we're 469 00:27:08,720 --> 00:27:12,440 victim blaming or victimizing our self even. 470 00:27:14,000 --> 00:27:18,960 It's also such a trauma response for you to go back into 471 00:27:18,960 --> 00:27:25,880 situations where you think that the chaos is passion and that 472 00:27:25,880 --> 00:27:29,680 really is like a thing that happens, especially inside of 473 00:27:29,680 --> 00:27:34,040 abusive dynamics, is that there will be such a nobody's going to 474 00:27:34,040 --> 00:27:37,040 love you like this. We have have this crazy bond and 475 00:27:37,040 --> 00:27:39,160 whatever. I'm just crazy about this 476 00:27:39,160 --> 00:27:46,120 because I'm crazy about you and I, I think that even if people 477 00:27:46,120 --> 00:27:49,160 have the intention of healing through that together and have 478 00:27:49,160 --> 00:27:52,840 the best intention of healing through that, at some point, 479 00:27:53,320 --> 00:27:56,800 you're really giving allowances for things and letting that 480 00:27:56,800 --> 00:27:59,600 person know that you're OK with how they treat you because you 481 00:27:59,600 --> 00:28:02,800 keep on going back. So it must not be that bad 482 00:28:02,800 --> 00:28:08,080 because you keep on going back. And I see I've had a lot of 483 00:28:08,080 --> 00:28:10,280 people inside of my life that have done that. 484 00:28:10,320 --> 00:28:13,200 I, I had one relationship, right? 485 00:28:13,200 --> 00:28:17,640 I felt like that was a thing was like, well, I really like them 486 00:28:17,640 --> 00:28:19,440 as a person. And if I don't let them treat me 487 00:28:19,440 --> 00:28:21,520 that way, then I don't get to have them in my life at all. 488 00:28:21,520 --> 00:28:23,920 And I'd rather have them in my life and treat me shitty. 489 00:28:24,360 --> 00:28:29,240 And it was when I was like fresh out of high school and I look 490 00:28:29,240 --> 00:28:32,440 back on it now and I think about like, what were the pros and 491 00:28:32,440 --> 00:28:36,080 cons of this person? And I'm literally like, the only 492 00:28:36,080 --> 00:28:38,160 pro was that they told me that they loved me. 493 00:28:38,160 --> 00:28:42,240 And I felt like if something was to happen inside of life, they 494 00:28:42,240 --> 00:28:44,600 would fight to defend me. And I hadn't ever had anybody 495 00:28:44,600 --> 00:28:47,720 that would fight for me. And that is literally the only 496 00:28:47,840 --> 00:28:50,840 thing that I can think about that person that I genuinely 497 00:28:50,840 --> 00:28:54,280 liked is the fact that they said that they loved me and the fact 498 00:28:54,280 --> 00:28:56,920 that I felt physically safe in their presence if something was 499 00:28:56,920 --> 00:29:02,000 to happen. I think whenever we date as a 500 00:29:02,080 --> 00:29:06,160 young like teenager or any like younger age, something in our 501 00:29:06,160 --> 00:29:09,920 brain chemistry changes towards those people like, you know what 502 00:29:09,920 --> 00:29:11,600 I mean? Like whenever you're developing 503 00:29:11,600 --> 00:29:15,680 like your, your sense of love or your sense of companionship in 504 00:29:15,680 --> 00:29:18,240 those ages, I feel like something changes for those 505 00:29:18,240 --> 00:29:23,200 people in that sense of like our mind can make up any story that 506 00:29:23,200 --> 00:29:24,600 it wants. You know what I mean? 507 00:29:24,600 --> 00:29:28,960 Like, because it was like an imaginative energy of like that 508 00:29:28,960 --> 00:29:33,080 child good innocence, I guess is what I'm trying to say. 509 00:29:33,080 --> 00:29:36,200 I don't know. I think kids are going up way 510 00:29:36,200 --> 00:29:38,280 too fast these days. I know I've tried to grow up 511 00:29:38,280 --> 00:29:43,680 fast and I wish I would have not, but it's just so much 512 00:29:43,680 --> 00:29:46,680 exposure to things that I just don't think people were exposed 513 00:29:46,680 --> 00:29:49,400 to before, you know what I mean? And I think that's the problem 514 00:29:49,400 --> 00:29:56,160 is like these people are exposed and they need to just be playing 515 00:29:56,200 --> 00:30:01,960 Uno reverse. I don't know, kids do just grow 516 00:30:01,960 --> 00:30:06,760 up differently now and I want to say have access to different 517 00:30:06,760 --> 00:30:09,320 things, but truly, by the time that we were like going into 518 00:30:09,320 --> 00:30:11,800 high school, we had access to all types of things ourselves. 519 00:30:11,800 --> 00:30:15,200 Like we had Myspace, We you know what I mean? 520 00:30:15,200 --> 00:30:16,480 Like you could get in trouble over there. 521 00:30:16,480 --> 00:30:20,200 We had AOL chat rooms. Like we had all the avenues to 522 00:30:20,200 --> 00:30:22,760 be able to have fuckery happen too. 523 00:30:23,040 --> 00:30:27,680 Did I ever tell you about the older dude tattoo artist that I 524 00:30:27,680 --> 00:30:30,960 ended up like having like an online relationship with when I 525 00:30:30,960 --> 00:30:33,000 was a kid? No. 526 00:30:33,840 --> 00:30:39,560 OK, I remember this guy's name and I just, I won't shout it 527 00:30:39,560 --> 00:30:45,840 out, but he's fucking creepy. And anyways, I think that I was 528 00:30:45,840 --> 00:30:50,120 in, I was in high school, I was in like, I want to say like 529 00:30:50,240 --> 00:30:52,800 junior, senior year of high school maybe. 530 00:30:52,800 --> 00:30:56,560 And I don't even remember how I found this person, but he was 531 00:30:56,560 --> 00:30:59,440 like, I'm a tattoo artist that lives in LA and whatever. 532 00:30:59,440 --> 00:31:03,000 And we used to talk on the phone and whatever. 533 00:31:03,000 --> 00:31:08,160 Well, I as a kid sent photos that I shouldn't have sent to 534 00:31:08,200 --> 00:31:13,240 him. And yeah. 535 00:31:13,360 --> 00:31:17,920 And so as I, I ended up blocking him and like moving on with life 536 00:31:17,920 --> 00:31:19,400 and whatever. And we had talked for like a 537 00:31:19,400 --> 00:31:22,080 year or something like that, just like kind of on and off and 538 00:31:22,080 --> 00:31:24,920 we had face timed and things. So I like, I knew that that was 539 00:31:24,960 --> 00:31:29,600 who that actually was. But after I was an adult, he 540 00:31:29,600 --> 00:31:31,680 ended. And I want to say that this may 541 00:31:31,800 --> 00:31:36,920 have been right when I got with my husband or maybe after I had 542 00:31:36,920 --> 00:31:40,760 even had Mac, he literally messaged me on Facebook and was 543 00:31:40,760 --> 00:31:44,800 like, hey there and then sent me the pictures that I had sent him 544 00:31:44,800 --> 00:31:51,680 as a child. And so I blocked him because I 545 00:31:51,680 --> 00:31:54,040 just like, I was like creeped out and I didn't want anything 546 00:31:54,040 --> 00:31:56,680 to do with it. And then recently I was telling 547 00:31:56,680 --> 00:32:00,520 somebody about it and she's like, that's distributing child. 548 00:32:01,360 --> 00:32:06,800 I'm not going to say the word, but like child photography and 549 00:32:07,800 --> 00:32:10,680 like that means that like that person has child photography on 550 00:32:10,680 --> 00:32:14,040 their computer and it just makes me wonder, like I wonder if this 551 00:32:14,040 --> 00:32:17,280 person has them of other people. I've, I've really been thinking 552 00:32:17,280 --> 00:32:20,480 about it the last couple of days after like the Diddler was 553 00:32:20,480 --> 00:32:26,120 something that we discussed because there are just like so 554 00:32:26,120 --> 00:32:27,760 many fucking predators out there. 555 00:32:28,080 --> 00:32:33,560 And we get, I don't know, victimized by predators in so 556 00:32:33,560 --> 00:32:35,640 many ways. And then we just are like, oh, 557 00:32:35,640 --> 00:32:37,120 I'm going to move on with my life. 558 00:32:37,400 --> 00:32:40,160 And I have no idea what happened with those things. 559 00:32:40,160 --> 00:32:43,200 They've never come back to like resurface or anything like that, 560 00:32:43,200 --> 00:32:46,960 but it's wild. Yeah, honestly, that's probably 561 00:32:46,960 --> 00:32:50,440 really illegal on his part to be doing that and harassment, and 562 00:32:50,560 --> 00:32:55,160 you could probably sue him. I'm sure I could, but like, I 563 00:32:55,160 --> 00:32:57,520 don't. I just like good riddance. 564 00:32:57,520 --> 00:32:59,680 It's been years since I heard from that person. 565 00:33:00,040 --> 00:33:03,240 Like in the event that I find out that my photos have been 566 00:33:03,240 --> 00:33:06,240 distributed, I would sue him and I would, you know? 567 00:33:06,600 --> 00:33:09,720 What a weird like hey, haven't talked in a long time, here you 568 00:33:09,720 --> 00:33:12,560 go. It was literally like, hey 569 00:33:12,560 --> 00:33:16,200 there, pictures, like we're not Facebook friends. 570 00:33:16,200 --> 00:33:19,000 I don't have you on Facebook. You searched out my profile. 571 00:33:19,840 --> 00:33:22,920 Very odd behavior. You know, it's just really 572 00:33:22,920 --> 00:33:26,560 common like back in like my generation, the amount of like 573 00:33:26,560 --> 00:33:30,760 18/19/20 year old boys that were like trying to holler at little 574 00:33:30,760 --> 00:33:36,760 O 14 year old me. The the relationship I was just 575 00:33:36,760 --> 00:33:38,840 telling you about where I was like, oh, well, he like really 576 00:33:38,840 --> 00:33:41,400 likes me at least like he says that he loves me and I feel safe 577 00:33:41,400 --> 00:33:48,120 with him. He was like I was, I was a 578 00:33:48,960 --> 00:33:53,120 freshman in high school and he was already graduated, but he 579 00:33:53,120 --> 00:33:57,760 would like come and hang out right outside the school campus. 580 00:33:57,880 --> 00:34:00,120 You said that before. I've heard that. 581 00:34:00,280 --> 00:34:04,280 You did tell us that. Fucking weirdos dude. 582 00:34:04,280 --> 00:34:10,040 Like fucking weirdos. We must just really have to 583 00:34:10,040 --> 00:34:16,760 bring light to this as women in 2024 that nobody is safe to 584 00:34:16,760 --> 00:34:20,719 harass women anymore because we're we're telling everybody, 585 00:34:21,800 --> 00:34:25,440 we're telling everyone. You know, I personally feel like 586 00:34:25,800 --> 00:34:29,600 the world is on a shift, but like so much exposure has to 587 00:34:29,600 --> 00:34:32,480 happen first. Like that shift is happening and 588 00:34:32,480 --> 00:34:36,340 the veil is just getting so thin to the point will be non 589 00:34:36,340 --> 00:34:38,840 existent. I agree with you on that. 590 00:34:39,719 --> 00:34:42,920 There's so many statements or so many different things. 591 00:34:43,520 --> 00:34:47,639 My husband and I were talking last night because he's like, I 592 00:34:47,639 --> 00:34:50,880 have this like weird. Like when I look at like the 593 00:34:50,880 --> 00:34:55,040 time that we have for our life, I feel like I have a very short 594 00:34:55,040 --> 00:34:57,040 amount of time to do a lot of things. 595 00:34:57,840 --> 00:35:00,120 And I was like, no, I feel that way too. 596 00:35:00,120 --> 00:35:04,520 Like when we're looking at how long our life is going to be, 597 00:35:04,560 --> 00:35:07,640 neither one of us are like, Oh my God, I see myself being like 598 00:35:07,640 --> 00:35:10,160 this, like super old person or whatever. 599 00:35:10,320 --> 00:35:14,520 We just have these like goals that we know, that we feel led 600 00:35:14,520 --> 00:35:20,600 to achieve and do, but neither one of us sees ourselves in the 601 00:35:20,600 --> 00:35:26,800 long run, if that makes sense. I definitely don't see like what 602 00:35:26,800 --> 00:35:29,440 I'll look like, but I definitely know I'm going to live for a 603 00:35:29,600 --> 00:35:32,120 long time. I feel like it anyways. 604 00:35:32,800 --> 00:35:35,040 I feel like I'm gonna get that third Saturn return. 605 00:35:35,040 --> 00:35:37,480 Like I'm gonna hit 90. If I hit 90, I'll be good. 606 00:35:37,680 --> 00:35:42,440 I'll be like, damn, I'm trying to leave at 90. 607 00:35:42,440 --> 00:35:47,280 I wonder what I'll be like. I just don't want to be like one 608 00:35:47,280 --> 00:35:50,680 of those old people that just doesn't function anymore. 609 00:35:50,680 --> 00:35:54,520 And it's just there and people. That whole family is like, 610 00:35:54,520 --> 00:35:56,240 when's Grammy going to kick it, you know? 611 00:35:56,240 --> 00:35:58,480 Oh. You got to take care of your 612 00:35:58,480 --> 00:36:01,200 body, your mind, your spirit. You got to workout. 613 00:36:01,240 --> 00:36:03,600 You got to eat right. You got to get your body right 614 00:36:03,600 --> 00:36:05,880 and sustain it so you don't lose it. 615 00:36:08,960 --> 00:36:11,360 That's what I think because a lot of the people that are like 616 00:36:11,360 --> 00:36:14,040 healthy and fit, they're aging great. 617 00:36:14,120 --> 00:36:17,480 And there's a lot of like there's Olympic people and crazy 618 00:36:17,480 --> 00:36:21,360 people who like can do crazy things in their 60s, seventies, 619 00:36:21,360 --> 00:36:24,840 80s that blow my mind. So I know it's possible. 620 00:36:24,840 --> 00:36:28,480 Just you got to be in the, I don't want to like age. 621 00:36:28,480 --> 00:36:30,280 I want to get younger as time goes on. 622 00:36:30,280 --> 00:36:33,440 I want to be one of those people that like really doesn't let the 623 00:36:33,440 --> 00:36:36,800 joy or the inner child or the magic die like that just 624 00:36:36,800 --> 00:36:42,800 continues to grow Pfizer, but also like more youthful, more 625 00:36:42,800 --> 00:36:48,000 youthful more and more what I want to say more expansive. 626 00:36:48,000 --> 00:36:50,640 I want to try to be more expansive every year. 627 00:36:50,640 --> 00:36:52,920 That's why I said next year I want to do more traveling and 628 00:36:52,920 --> 00:36:56,400 things because I do I want to do that while I don't have 629 00:36:56,400 --> 00:36:59,560 commitments to anything outside of myself that really it is just 630 00:36:59,760 --> 00:37:03,720 what do I want to do without having to ask others or even 631 00:37:03,720 --> 00:37:06,720 invite others, you know, like what do I pray? 632 00:37:06,720 --> 00:37:10,000 What is my soul crave? And I think that you mentioned 633 00:37:10,000 --> 00:37:12,000 Alaska. I would like to go to Alaska, 634 00:37:12,000 --> 00:37:14,360 but it's not like #1 or anything. 635 00:37:15,600 --> 00:37:17,800 I just want to ride a fucking moose and I don't care what 636 00:37:17,800 --> 00:37:21,200 state I do it in, I just know that it's on my bucket list. 637 00:37:21,880 --> 00:37:24,160 They have moose rides there. I don't fucking know. 638 00:37:24,160 --> 00:37:26,120 I just know I want to ride a moose and I don't know where I 639 00:37:26,120 --> 00:37:28,760 have to go to make it happen. But I think I've told you 640 00:37:28,760 --> 00:37:31,960 before, I just want to be Teddy Roosevelt and I want to ride a 641 00:37:31,960 --> 00:37:35,280 moose across the river. I really want to go to Canada. 642 00:37:36,720 --> 00:37:39,160 I want to go to Canada, I want to see Shannon in Canada, I 643 00:37:39,160 --> 00:37:44,440 really want to go to Avonlea. But that's just because Anne of 644 00:37:44,440 --> 00:37:47,520 Green Gables is my favorite movie of all time. 645 00:37:48,280 --> 00:37:50,280 Yeah, I really want to check out Canada. 646 00:37:50,400 --> 00:37:52,880 Like I was supposed to go there before when I went to the 647 00:37:52,880 --> 00:37:58,360 Detroit trip from hell. So luckily I haven't. 648 00:37:58,840 --> 00:38:01,120 I haven't been there yet, but I will. 649 00:38:01,120 --> 00:38:05,760 I will. Jesus fuck you have you have 650 00:38:05,760 --> 00:38:09,080 crazy ass traveling stories too, just on your own. 651 00:38:09,800 --> 00:38:12,800 It's something about somebody else setting up trips that just 652 00:38:12,800 --> 00:38:15,320 really like. We should not let anybody 653 00:38:15,320 --> 00:38:17,480 control things. Yeah, cuz whenever I set up my 654 00:38:17,480 --> 00:38:20,960 own trips or I book the trips, I'm doing good, it's working out 655 00:38:20,960 --> 00:38:23,400 good. But I do agree every time that I 656 00:38:23,400 --> 00:38:26,760 go and I just am like present like oh I'll just pay my money 657 00:38:26,760 --> 00:38:30,160 and ride with you or I'll just pay the money and come with you 658 00:38:30,640 --> 00:38:35,560 to an already planned thing that yes, they get screwed every time 659 00:38:36,000 --> 00:38:38,920 they rent the smallest rental car and I got to sit in the back 660 00:38:39,760 --> 00:38:46,080 like terrible, terrible vibes. No, I don't like it at all. 661 00:38:47,800 --> 00:38:53,240 Yeah, I personally am really just trying to see places I've 662 00:38:53,240 --> 00:38:55,040 never seen. I really want to go to Hawaii 663 00:38:55,040 --> 00:38:58,960 bad. I don't feel like calling to go 664 00:38:58,960 --> 00:39:00,720 to Hawaii. I know a lot of people do. 665 00:39:00,720 --> 00:39:04,720 I really want to go to Ireland and Scotland. 666 00:39:04,720 --> 00:39:10,720 I really want to go to Thailand. Yes, yes, Queen, she wants to go 667 00:39:10,720 --> 00:39:13,200 international, she said. Fuck this shit. 668 00:39:13,200 --> 00:39:16,080 I'm trying to go international. Facts. 669 00:39:16,240 --> 00:39:19,080 I want to, yeah, I want to go. I want to experience different, 670 00:39:19,080 --> 00:39:20,800 like, cultures and different places. 671 00:39:20,800 --> 00:39:22,640 Like I'm fucking tired of it here, grandpa. 672 00:39:22,640 --> 00:39:26,520 Like I want out. Damn, she's ready to bounce. 673 00:39:26,840 --> 00:39:29,120 I want, I want to go. I want to experience different 674 00:39:29,120 --> 00:39:30,040 things. I want to. 675 00:39:31,600 --> 00:39:33,600 Yeah. I feel like people have so many 676 00:39:33,600 --> 00:39:36,320 complaints about this country in general. 677 00:39:36,440 --> 00:39:39,640 And it would just be so interesting to people have 678 00:39:39,640 --> 00:39:42,520 complaints about this country who are never going to go and 679 00:39:42,520 --> 00:39:44,880 experience other countries. They're just going to sit here 680 00:39:44,880 --> 00:39:48,040 and complain about what they have without knowing what they 681 00:39:48,040 --> 00:39:49,920 have. And I don't want to be one of 682 00:39:49,920 --> 00:39:51,760 those people. I really want to go and 683 00:39:51,760 --> 00:39:55,240 experience different things and be able to be like, oh, you 684 00:39:55,240 --> 00:39:58,160 know, these are different policies in different places or 685 00:39:58,160 --> 00:40:00,720 different laws in different places and different, you know, 686 00:40:00,720 --> 00:40:05,920 experiences that are here and be able to actually compare that in 687 00:40:05,920 --> 00:40:09,840 person versus being somebody who's fucking Googling things 688 00:40:09,840 --> 00:40:13,920 and drawing opinions and having arguments about things over 689 00:40:13,920 --> 00:40:18,560 something that's Googled. And not a fact, just some 690 00:40:18,640 --> 00:40:23,400 someone's opinion or some news article of someone's opinion or 691 00:40:23,400 --> 00:40:27,800 something like that. Like I truly believe that people 692 00:40:27,800 --> 00:40:30,760 are getting Dumber the more information that is available 693 00:40:30,760 --> 00:40:34,720 because there's no way to truly process, harness and understand 694 00:40:34,720 --> 00:40:37,840 the information. It's just like constant exposure 695 00:40:37,840 --> 00:40:40,560 to information. And I feel like that is dumbing 696 00:40:40,560 --> 00:40:42,520 people down. I feel like that is slowing 697 00:40:42,520 --> 00:40:45,480 people down because there's too much available to them. 698 00:40:45,480 --> 00:40:48,840 Like attention span. I know my attention span has 699 00:40:48,840 --> 00:40:51,280 gotten bad. Like if I really like the movie, 700 00:40:51,280 --> 00:40:54,360 I'll be able to sit there and watch it, but if I don't write 701 00:40:54,360 --> 00:40:59,240 back on my phone, it instantly needs to be studied like time 702 00:40:59,240 --> 00:41:02,640 and time again. Yeah, I completely agree with 703 00:41:02,640 --> 00:41:05,840 you. I'm also like, I'm just like, so 704 00:41:05,840 --> 00:41:10,080 over people having conversations about politics and about 705 00:41:10,080 --> 00:41:15,400 politicians and comparing politicians personalities as if 706 00:41:15,440 --> 00:41:18,800 everything that you're looking at isn't a total fucking facade, 707 00:41:19,280 --> 00:41:21,720 regardless of who it is that you're looking at. 708 00:41:21,720 --> 00:41:24,480 The entire thing is set up for smoke and mirrors. 709 00:41:24,840 --> 00:41:31,760 And I just, you know, I don't care about, you know, somebody 710 00:41:31,760 --> 00:41:34,960 has to be super assertive and mean because other countries 711 00:41:34,960 --> 00:41:37,440 need to see that and somebody needs to be really soft and 712 00:41:37,440 --> 00:41:40,200 gentle because people in this country need to see that. 713 00:41:40,200 --> 00:41:45,400 And like I, it's very overwhelming and frustrating and 714 00:41:45,400 --> 00:41:48,240 I would like to go and actually experience things in life. 715 00:41:48,680 --> 00:41:54,280 And I think that people get so wrapped up in the politics and 716 00:41:54,280 --> 00:41:57,320 the fear about things and whatever that they forget that 717 00:41:57,320 --> 00:41:59,880 there's like other places that you can go and live. 718 00:42:00,200 --> 00:42:02,800 There's other realities that you can go and have. 719 00:42:02,800 --> 00:42:05,760 You don't have to be stuck inside of this and being like, 720 00:42:06,200 --> 00:42:09,400 well, if this person wins, then this is going to be life. 721 00:42:09,400 --> 00:42:11,000 Well, you don't actually know that. 722 00:42:11,000 --> 00:42:14,040 You're just assuming things, you're scaring yourself and 723 00:42:14,040 --> 00:42:21,360 people around you and it's giving unhealed energy and I I 724 00:42:21,360 --> 00:42:23,920 just can't rock with it. I'd rather travel. 725 00:42:23,920 --> 00:42:26,720 I'd rather go and fucking be butt ass naked on a beach in 726 00:42:26,720 --> 00:42:29,000 another country and live my best life. 727 00:42:29,920 --> 00:42:33,520 It's given everyone is sipping the kool-aid and it's the same 728 00:42:33,520 --> 00:42:36,080 kool-aid across the board. No matter which side you pick, 729 00:42:36,080 --> 00:42:38,840 it's the kool-aid. And I think it's weird people 730 00:42:38,840 --> 00:42:42,800 that are like willing to quit talking to friends and family 731 00:42:43,200 --> 00:42:47,040 over like other people's opinions on the Internet or what 732 00:42:47,040 --> 00:42:52,680 Fox News said or what whatever channel said, you know what I 733 00:42:52,680 --> 00:42:54,480 mean? It's like a lot of things that 734 00:42:54,480 --> 00:42:58,040 you're hearing are propaganda, propaganda. 735 00:42:58,040 --> 00:43:00,000 Look it up. That's what it is. 736 00:43:00,000 --> 00:43:02,800 And you know, it's just kind of like the billboards that you see 737 00:43:02,800 --> 00:43:05,840 here in the Bible Belt that like Jesus is real. 738 00:43:06,080 --> 00:43:08,440 And then the next one be like hell is real. 739 00:43:08,640 --> 00:43:12,120 Next one be like, do you know Jesus? 740 00:43:12,160 --> 00:43:14,720 And then the next one will be like hell is real. 741 00:43:15,480 --> 00:43:18,360 And the next one will be like Jesus needs to be a part of your 742 00:43:18,360 --> 00:43:21,720 heart if you're going to be accepted into his Kingdom. 743 00:43:21,720 --> 00:43:24,360 It'll it'll be like deeper, like they'll just be yelling at you 744 00:43:24,360 --> 00:43:26,280 at 1st and then there will be a deep thought. 745 00:43:26,280 --> 00:43:30,760 And then it'll be like John 316 and then the next one will be 746 00:43:30,800 --> 00:43:34,520 hell is real. And they just like every 3 miles 747 00:43:34,520 --> 00:43:36,760 there's another billboard that will say something all the way 748 00:43:36,760 --> 00:43:40,600 till you get to a place where there'll be like 3 crosses or 749 00:43:40,600 --> 00:43:44,320 like hundreds of crosses or thousands of crosses or one big 750 00:43:44,320 --> 00:43:46,440 giant Jesus cross thing or whatever. 751 00:43:46,440 --> 00:43:52,640 Yeah, like, so yes, I do think that propaganda, fear based 752 00:43:52,800 --> 00:43:56,680 stuff is projected in all areas, whether it's like, you know, 753 00:43:56,680 --> 00:44:03,680 religion, politics, finances, career, the housing markets, you 754 00:44:03,680 --> 00:44:09,120 know, fucking college, whatever. Like they want you to bring in 755 00:44:09,120 --> 00:44:11,000 more fear. They want you to be afraid. 756 00:44:11,840 --> 00:44:15,320 Somebody caught somebody commented on this witchy friends 757 00:44:15,320 --> 00:44:22,840 post that I have and was like give your give your soul to 758 00:44:22,840 --> 00:44:26,600 Christ or something like that. And so she did a video response 759 00:44:26,600 --> 00:44:29,760 and she's like, give it like for free. 760 00:44:30,280 --> 00:44:34,640 I really think that if they're wanting to hire me on, they 761 00:44:34,640 --> 00:44:37,120 should pay me. They can have my soul. 762 00:44:37,360 --> 00:44:40,400 I'll switch fucking teams. You just if you, you want to 763 00:44:40,400 --> 00:44:43,080 donate to my PayPal. If enough people donate to my 764 00:44:43,080 --> 00:44:48,480 PayPal and just put a donation for Christ, then I'll, I'll just 765 00:44:48,480 --> 00:44:50,160 switch teams. It'll be fine. 766 00:44:50,240 --> 00:44:53,520 That'll it'll work for me. I can quit my job and I can just 767 00:44:53,800 --> 00:44:57,400 completely commit to giving my soul to Christ and it'll be 768 00:44:57,400 --> 00:45:00,760 everything. And I was just dying laughing at 769 00:45:00,760 --> 00:45:02,280 her video. I thought it was the funniest 770 00:45:02,280 --> 00:45:08,120 shit I'd ever seen. I feel like TikTok and the 771 00:45:08,120 --> 00:45:11,720 fucking scammers really irk me to the fullest. 772 00:45:11,920 --> 00:45:16,120 Like you can't even really make a spiritual post without having 773 00:45:16,120 --> 00:45:19,240 the spellcasters and the crazy scammers come on. 774 00:45:19,240 --> 00:45:22,800 They're like I don't even know. It's wild to me but I just can't 775 00:45:22,800 --> 00:45:25,280 believe TikTok can't fix that. But then they want to censor a 776 00:45:25,280 --> 00:45:29,320 video because the star card is on there and there's titties out 777 00:45:29,320 --> 00:45:33,520 on the star card and it's like. I literally don't have access to 778 00:45:33,560 --> 00:45:36,600 a live because I made chocolate and somebody said that I was 779 00:45:36,600 --> 00:45:39,840 doing sexual activities and they can't. 780 00:45:40,880 --> 00:45:42,520 They're going to block me off of there. 781 00:45:42,520 --> 00:45:45,640 I can't go live, but they're not going to remove people who are 782 00:45:45,640 --> 00:45:51,040 literally taking videos and pretending to be them and going 783 00:45:51,040 --> 00:45:53,920 out and asking people for money. I know. 784 00:45:53,960 --> 00:45:56,800 And that's what's crazy to me. It's mind blowing and it's been 785 00:45:56,800 --> 00:46:00,040 such a turn off about the whole app because it's just like they 786 00:46:00,040 --> 00:46:03,680 won't fix the scammer problem and then they've completely like 787 00:46:03,680 --> 00:46:07,640 suppressed the content because you have all these fake accounts 788 00:46:07,640 --> 00:46:09,520 on there that aren't really watching anything. 789 00:46:09,520 --> 00:46:12,000 They're not viewing anything. All these bots. 790 00:46:12,840 --> 00:46:15,200 It's just, I don't know, all these fake views and all that. 791 00:46:15,200 --> 00:46:17,560 It's just like they broke it again, it was cool, and then 792 00:46:17,560 --> 00:46:20,920 they broke it again, you know? I'm tired of seeing people 793 00:46:20,920 --> 00:46:25,960 selling shit in the fucking TikTok shop like I, and I get 794 00:46:25,960 --> 00:46:29,480 it, like, you know, wanting to have streams of revenue or 795 00:46:29,480 --> 00:46:33,160 whatever, but I feel like they could have made a completely 796 00:46:33,160 --> 00:46:38,160 different app for people to go and influence on and shop on. 797 00:46:38,480 --> 00:46:42,960 And I like it would still be a successful app. 798 00:46:42,960 --> 00:46:45,920 People would still go over there so that they can go and and 799 00:46:45,920 --> 00:46:48,680 search different products and see different things and they 800 00:46:48,680 --> 00:46:52,360 would still make money on that. But they're just transforming 801 00:46:52,360 --> 00:46:56,760 something that has been made for creativity and turning it into 802 00:46:57,080 --> 00:47:00,520 buy this mop. Yeah, buy this bucket. 803 00:47:00,520 --> 00:47:04,240 Yeah, I've seen that, you know, they and they really do 804 00:47:05,840 --> 00:47:08,240 influence people to buy the dumbest shit. 805 00:47:08,840 --> 00:47:12,040 And then you know what I saw? I've been seeing a lot of people 806 00:47:12,040 --> 00:47:16,080 talk about it on threads about how they left a negative review 807 00:47:16,080 --> 00:47:18,720 on something they received from TikTok that look nothing like 808 00:47:18,720 --> 00:47:20,160 the picture. Kind of like how what's 809 00:47:20,160 --> 00:47:23,640 happening on Etsy with them stealing photos and mass 810 00:47:23,640 --> 00:47:25,760 producing things that are supposed to be handmade, 811 00:47:25,960 --> 00:47:30,600 one-of-a-kind. Even they said that TikTok wrote 812 00:47:30,600 --> 00:47:35,360 them gave them money to change their review to a positive 813 00:47:35,360 --> 00:47:39,280 review. Like like refunded them and gave 814 00:47:39,280 --> 00:47:40,920 them money I think is what it was. 815 00:47:40,920 --> 00:47:44,800 So someone said damn, I'm about to give everything a negative 816 00:47:44,800 --> 00:47:47,320 review going. I was just about to say shit. 817 00:47:47,320 --> 00:47:51,800 I could sit here and say a bunch of that mop is nasty, it came 818 00:47:51,800 --> 00:47:54,960 already used. The the bucket had a crack in 819 00:47:54,960 --> 00:47:57,480 it. Oh, I got a popsicle. 820 00:47:57,480 --> 00:47:59,320 It was already licked and melted. 821 00:47:59,360 --> 00:48:01,960 I could say all kinds of stuff. Sign me up. 822 00:48:02,960 --> 00:48:06,440 I think that they should just let people shop on every other 823 00:48:06,440 --> 00:48:10,360 damn app like that You have like there's so many apps, like why 824 00:48:10,360 --> 00:48:12,920 do they have to make every app about shopping, like even 825 00:48:12,920 --> 00:48:16,120 Instagram be doing the most with that as well. 826 00:48:16,120 --> 00:48:19,280 It's just like, give us a nice for you page, a nice like 827 00:48:19,360 --> 00:48:22,960 trending page, like a nice information page and leave it 828 00:48:22,960 --> 00:48:24,680 be. Like, you know, if somebody 829 00:48:24,680 --> 00:48:27,080 wants to shop, it should be like its own thing. 830 00:48:27,080 --> 00:48:28,880 You're right. And it should be like a portal 831 00:48:29,040 --> 00:48:31,160 where you just click the button and it takes you right over. 832 00:48:31,160 --> 00:48:34,160 Kind of like cap cut. You know, we all integrate a cap 833 00:48:34,160 --> 00:48:35,760 cut. Let's integrate a different app 834 00:48:35,760 --> 00:48:37,440 for the shopping. That'd be good. 835 00:48:38,600 --> 00:48:42,880 Yeah, no, I'm, I'm tired of seeing people unboxing things. 836 00:48:42,880 --> 00:48:45,600 I'm tired of seeing like, I don't care about you steaming 837 00:48:45,600 --> 00:48:47,760 your shower. I don't care. 838 00:48:50,480 --> 00:48:54,720 It's crazy. I I'm so grateful for this 839 00:48:54,720 --> 00:48:57,360 moment, but I want to read a numerology card. 840 00:48:57,840 --> 00:49:03,280 OK, that's so funny. I had a numerology book that I 841 00:49:03,280 --> 00:49:12,430 was sitting here looking at too. Pull me a card. 842 00:49:12,430 --> 00:49:25,320 Read me. A number six, love, and this 843 00:49:25,320 --> 00:49:30,200 card indicates a need to see the world through the eyes of love 844 00:49:30,280 --> 00:49:34,400 and to remember at all times that only love is real. 845 00:49:34,920 --> 00:49:38,520 When you look beyond the illusion to see the beauty in 846 00:49:38,520 --> 00:49:42,800 the world, you align yourself with Source and the intentions 847 00:49:42,800 --> 00:49:46,360 of your soul because you attract what you are. 848 00:49:46,640 --> 00:49:50,280 When you see through the eyes of love, that's what will surround 849 00:49:50,280 --> 00:49:55,200 you in all areas of your life. This card also indicates a need 850 00:49:55,200 --> 00:50:00,440 to go within to recognize and address any limiting thoughts 851 00:50:00,640 --> 00:50:04,840 and beliefs that are holding you back from experiencing love. 852 00:50:05,960 --> 00:50:11,840 This is a time when you must ask yourself, am I truly open to 853 00:50:11,840 --> 00:50:16,520 giving and receiving love? Do I truly believe I am worthy 854 00:50:16,520 --> 00:50:21,280 of love and do I really believe that love exists for me? 855 00:50:21,720 --> 00:50:25,480 Because love only comes when you believe that it exists, when 856 00:50:25,480 --> 00:50:28,520 you're open to giving and receiving it, and when you know 857 00:50:28,520 --> 00:50:32,280 that you are worthy. In order to improve your current 858 00:50:32,280 --> 00:50:38,480 situation, you are being asked to adjust and harmonize with the 859 00:50:38,480 --> 00:50:43,000 natural rhythm and cycles of your life, cycles that are 860 00:50:43,000 --> 00:50:46,600 encouraging you to see and to believe in love. 861 00:50:47,200 --> 00:50:50,440 When you believe in yourself and you cherish your life as it is 862 00:50:50,440 --> 00:50:53,920 today, love will embrace you in ways you've never known. 863 00:50:54,600 --> 00:50:58,720 Unconditional love of self and others will attract more love 864 00:50:58,720 --> 00:51:03,160 into your life. The affirmation I see through 865 00:51:03,160 --> 00:51:07,440 the eyes of love and attract more love into my life. 866 00:51:09,120 --> 00:51:12,480 I want to read you the first of all. 867 00:51:12,480 --> 00:51:14,360 I love that. I think that's beautiful. 868 00:51:14,760 --> 00:51:18,200 I pulled out my numerology book when you had been talking about 869 00:51:18,200 --> 00:51:22,560 numerology before we started and I went to page 6 and I want to 870 00:51:22,560 --> 00:51:26,040 read what they have for six too. OK, this would be a cute little 871 00:51:26,040 --> 00:51:29,240 fun thing to like pull out the numerology stuff. 872 00:51:29,280 --> 00:51:34,280 OK, so six, vision of perfection, seeking fulfilment 873 00:51:34,280 --> 00:51:38,520 through harmony and perfection. The six is the idealistic number 874 00:51:38,520 --> 00:51:41,600 of heart and home. The sixth phase marks an 875 00:51:41,600 --> 00:51:44,360 important point of culmination and fulfillment. 876 00:51:44,360 --> 00:51:48,200 At the end of the second cycle of three, things should be as 877 00:51:48,200 --> 00:51:52,720 perfect as we can get them. We're #5 takes us on a path that 878 00:51:52,720 --> 00:51:55,800 investigates the house that #4 built. 879 00:51:56,280 --> 00:51:59,800 Number six wants to display the house in a way that reflects its 880 00:51:59,800 --> 00:52:02,280 own perfect vision of how it should be. 881 00:52:02,800 --> 00:52:06,280 In this phase, the balance of beauty and harmony becomes all 882 00:52:06,280 --> 00:52:09,120 important. Looking at the shape of the 883 00:52:09,120 --> 00:52:12,600 number six, we see a curving line spiraling inward to a 884 00:52:12,600 --> 00:52:16,360 center point, and this way the number is associated with the 885 00:52:16,360 --> 00:52:19,760 heart, either literally the organ at the center of the human 886 00:52:19,760 --> 00:52:24,560 body or the center of system, such as the tree of life and its 887 00:52:24,560 --> 00:52:26,760 association with the family and home. 888 00:52:26,800 --> 00:52:31,800 It echoes the mother, father, Child, Trinity of #3, the last 889 00:52:31,800 --> 00:52:34,040 number in the previous cycle of three. 890 00:52:35,120 --> 00:52:39,400 Number six encompasses a heady brew of idealism and emotional 891 00:52:39,400 --> 00:52:45,440 sensitivity. 3 twos are 6. It can bring to the surface 892 00:52:45,440 --> 00:52:49,520 pictures of an idealized world and with them the potential to 893 00:52:49,520 --> 00:52:52,760 uplift us to a greater vision of who we are. 894 00:52:53,280 --> 00:52:56,680 The other side of the coin, however, is its obsession and 895 00:52:56,680 --> 00:52:59,960 addiction. The beauty of the incoming light 896 00:53:00,400 --> 00:53:03,800 can go to our head and we can mistake the ideal picture of a 897 00:53:03,800 --> 00:53:05,920 more beautiful world for reality. 898 00:53:06,480 --> 00:53:10,920 And then the Star of David shows two complete cycles of three 899 00:53:11,120 --> 00:53:13,760 superimposed and a perfect counterpoint. 900 00:53:14,800 --> 00:53:17,800 And the Star of David is what is associated with six in 901 00:53:17,800 --> 00:53:22,960 numerology. Beautiful, so apply this energy 902 00:53:22,960 --> 00:53:27,080 to your life. Our Kingdom has now been opened, 903 00:53:28,040 --> 00:53:30,320 the Lolli. Welcome to the Kingdom of 904 00:53:30,320 --> 00:53:34,040 Lollipop. The lollipop gates of candy 905 00:53:34,040 --> 00:53:40,760 canes and Dicks and Dicks. Geminis like let's just say 906 00:53:40,760 --> 00:53:42,840 Gemini needs to get laid, hopefully. 907 00:53:42,840 --> 00:53:44,720 I get laid all the time. I get good Dick. 908 00:53:44,720 --> 00:53:46,040 That's why I like to talk about it. 909 00:53:46,440 --> 00:53:49,320 Hopefully he's right to lay that pipe when you hop off the call 910 00:53:49,320 --> 00:53:53,000 'cause we need to know. I already got I already got 911 00:53:53,000 --> 00:53:55,080 piped down today, but I can get piped down again. 912 00:53:55,160 --> 00:53:57,480 I'm into it. Wow. 913 00:53:57,480 --> 00:54:01,920 Let's go, let's go. OK, well, that's enough for 914 00:54:01,920 --> 00:54:06,560 everyone in class today. We will adjourn this meeting and 915 00:54:06,560 --> 00:54:09,960 we will see you all again in two weeks, baby. 916 00:54:10,880 --> 00:54:14,760 See. You next time, Bye, he says. 917 00:54:14,800 --> 00:54:19,400 She's so sweet, like a rapper, like a lollipop, lollipop, 918 00:54:19,400 --> 00:54:20,760 lollipop, lollipop, lollipop.