Welcome to Fucking Candy Land, hosted by Rampage and Gemini.
Welcome back to Candy Land. How are you doing Gemini?
Good. I'm so glad that we took our
literal just conversation on FaceTime and said why don't we
just start recording? Honestly, we just decided what
day we were going to record for the week, and then out of
nowhere, our phone call turned into let's record right now.
And that's the only energy that I want in my life.
That's because Spirit had messages flowing through.
Honestly, I have this new body scrub and it's called Do of the
Gods, and I just feel like anything that says of the Gods
is is good for me. I love it.
Anything that is about like elevating to your highest and
best version of yourself. I feel like, you know, the thing
about the podcast is we don't really sit around and talk about
people. So like, we just talk about
really cool stuff and we're like, hell yeah, let's record
it. We were, we were just sitting
here and we talked about our businesses a lot too behind the
scenes and like what are you doing to switch it up, How are
you doing things? And that always, I don't know,
inspires us to keep on having, like conversations about
evolving. Literally, we have so many ideas
and like they're all coming together and I know, like we're
both doing things behind the scenes as well.
But I really love the podcast because it's such a way to be
transparent with everyone. I really am digging the vibe of
like, having something that we're needing done and the other
person being like, I got a girl that does that.
I got a let me give you her number right now.
Look at she did this for me. I traded her.
This is like a thing like, let's get you in touch.
And one of us always fucking knows a bitch that knows a bitch
that knows how to get something done.
You know what? And honestly, like I only want
to be around people who are living their fucking best life.
Like if you are a miserable ass bitch, I don't want to be near
you. And that's what's cool about our
friendship is like. We don't need to see each other
or be together every day, but we are super close and it's crazy
because there'd be people that's up in Y'all's face 24/7 that
y'all don't even like. That's weird to me.
She's like, we're obsessed with each other and we're not even
near each other. What do you do with that?
Because, like, how do you not like the people that you bring
around you? Like, you know what I mean?
Like so many people. Just.
Are not happy with their surroundings, but they don't
change them. And I'm just saying, like, we
have a bond that's unbreakable, we don't even see each other.
But like imagine like being in the same household or being
around people 24/7 that you can't fucking stay in.
And it just like every day your mood is crazy, you know what I
mean? Like every day you're being
affected by that. And I just feel like for anyone,
I want people to be like, you know what?
I deserve better. I'm fucking amazing and I don't
need to stay here and I can do my own fucking thing because
that's what we support. Like I do not.
Support people who stay in situations and do very little to
change them. But like, we're in competition
with people who are just trying to live their best life.
I agree with you. And you know what?
Like fly like an eagle? Yes.
And also, I have woken up in the same tiny home as you for days
and I still like you. We didn't have, we didn't have
coffee in the morning before talking like we had one tiny
little bathroom that we had to share and we had to figure out
and like fucking home girls to dodge and like course into not
leaving us alone in the desert. And through everything here, we
are fucking thriving. Thriving.
And you know what? I was like looking back through
some of our old episodes because.
My cat is going crazy and he agrees that that bitches are
crazy because you just don't know people.
And we have went through so many waves of like people we thought
we could trust that we were cool with and then like completely be
like holy moly cannot trust you. And to like learning how to
navigate friendships as like two people.
Almost two. Because like when we're doing a
brand together, we get like, we're Siamese fucking twins and
so if someone is irked by something that one person does,
we both get thrown into it. And like sometimes they'll flip
flop and be like, just kidding. I wasn't mad at you.
I was mad at her. But then just a joke.
I'm mad at you both. Fuck you guys.
You guys are cult leaders, which we are and but for real.
And I think when I think back on what was the like, first
frustration or like person that we had between us was literally
when we went to interview that person, that girl who was like,
I'm by the pool and we're like. And so if you hear Splash and
we're like, we're literally interviewing you and we already
had to reschedule this. And then I'm, I'm going to come
on and I'm going to talk about my traumas.
And you're like, that's not really this podcast.
And she's like Gemini, your friend's a cunt and you guys
aren't getting anywhere. Yeah, she totally was.
Like, she's dimming your life so that I was so negative and I was
just bringing you down. And you know what was
interesting about that is that Lady was not who she portrayed
herself to be. And unfortunately, like when you
interview people, they are completely strangers and you've
got to think that, like when you ask someone sometimes.
Like, you don't know where their mind is going.
Are they thinking, like, wow, this is an opportunity to
collaborate and this is amazing, Or are they thinking, yeah, damn
right, you want to interview me? You know what I mean?
Like there's two different waves in people, especially these like
influencers or tick tockers or people that have a lot of
followers. Just anyone in general in a
spotlight. Some people switch up and I can
recognize the real motherfuckers.
But in the beginning, when you first get in a group chat with
someone and within 5 minutes they're flipping out on you, I
would say they're the problem. But that's just me.
Because like, things are chill. Until that Lady was doing the
most and then she was mad at me. I forgot about that because that
didn't even face me. It really didn't never really
remember that. That was so long ago.
I think my favorite. This is like all like behind the
scenes, like scoops that were dropping.
Because I remember too when we were like so excited about
interviewing that one person and like I sent you her page like we
are so excited. Showed up in her fucking car
with no lights on and like the first the 1st 15 seconds in you
start talking and she's like, I don't agree with that and
everything you said she goes, I don't agree with that to the
point that I was like, why are we here?
Do not be making me laugh like that.
That girl was interesting and cut from a different cloth and I
don't know what was going on with her, but I feel like she
was in her car doing some drugs or something prior.
She was doing something she wasn't supposed to be doing.
I think she was interesting and I think that she had.
Some kind of like situation going where she had like gotten
in a fight. Not like literally, but like
mentally, like her mind was somewhere else.
She was upset with someone. She was thinking about someone.
She was not in the car with us and I felt like we were in her
car because at one point she started driving.
We never aired the. We never aired the interview.
You are muted. Oh my God.
This is what I mean when I say that we've been through so much,
just like behind the scenes shit together that people do not
understand. Like the shit that we have
bobbed and weaved over here like Mr. Miyagied and Chopstick the
Fly. Like along our journey, the
things that we have done together and then weird ass
stink coochie bitches just be coming out of the woodwork.
Like I think that you guys giving messages of like guidance
and healing is fuckery. And I'm going to let everybody
know that this is witchery and cult like mentality.
And it's it's interesting for us to talk about even having any
kind of issue behind the scenes because we never have the issue.
There's never, we're always just like we're here rooting y'all
on. How come you look like a bum?
You're coming here with some stink coochie energy.
You're talking shit behind the scenes.
Like how come nobody wants to come in here and have some
healing? And you know what?
People don't take things very seriously, and they definitely
don't respect other people's time.
And that's one thing that I had learned and I know that like.
You doing covenant of rejects and, like, interviewing people.
Like you have issues with scheduling and things, but it's
like, respect my time. You know what I mean?
Like, don't. And then my second favorite is
where they just do the interview and it's just like, they don't
act like they're even in the room most the time.
Like they answer a phone call, they light up a cig, like
whatever they're doing. Like, they're just whatever
they're doing. And I'm like, OK, cool, they're
popping their shit, but they're just like.
Not there. You know what I mean?
And we've we've like had multiple interviews with
different people that I felt was similar, like Sheesh.
And you know what I think about that?
People don't know how to communicate either.
So I think sometimes, like, people get on podcast and they
think it's going to be easy or that it is easy to like just
carry on a conversation and flow with someone.
But it's not. It's not.
And some of those things, like podcast people like are painful
like. I'm not going to lie, Joe Rogan,
he's kind of painful to listen. I don't even like his voice very
much. Like if there's someone on there
I want to listen to. But people are obsessed with
that and I just don't even like his voice whatsoever.
It just hurts. You can't dog Daddy Rogan out
like that. I'm not.
I'm not dogging him. I'm just saying I personally
would rather listen like Howard Stern.
Like I like his voice, but I don't like, you know what I
mean? There you go.
You don't like his voice? I don't listen to him, though.
You know what I mean? Speaking of Howard Stern.
So Bunny always said she wanted to be the female Howard Stern,
like that was her shit. And then frequently, Howard
Stern did this interview talking about Jelly and Bunny and I was
like she I was waiting for her to have the video clip of her
talking about the female Howard Stern and then him talking about
her. But she incorporated him into
her new intro for the podcast. And I am just loving the fucking
watching the fairy godmother unfold her life.
Praise, praise the godmother. I love that for her.
Yeah, I know that's amazing and everything about it is giving
like icon. Icon icon.
I love it. Mommy, is that you?
You know what I think's amazing, though, Is that she continues to
bring amazing people into my life.
Like including you. For those that don't know or
you're just catching on me and Gemini met.
Through her finding me on Bunny's podcast with the first
interview that I did back in 2020, back during the pandemic,
is when the first time I met her.
Like when I got there, I was thinking I was going to have to
like wear a mask, that she'd be like she was like, no, give me a
hug. Like we're good.
Like you want to eat, you want to say all kinds of people
showed up. I met everyone that day like it
was it was really dope. And at that time, she was still
driving her Camaro. And I, like, was like.
I was like, I know that's her car.
Like, it was just like such a destined thing.
I drove to Nashville and it was just like, cool.
And then the fact that, like, I'm meeting so many amazing
people through that, especially you like my best friend and
someone that we have a business together.
And I remember when we were starting this business, my own
mom was like, you don't know that girl.
You can't trust her. You don't know her.
Like my mom was freaking like, and I'm like mom, you don't have
a business with anyone and you've never had a business ever
in your life. Like, don't tell me what to do.
You know what I mean? Like, don't tell me how to make
business news, mom. I'll navigate however the fuck
I'm going to sit down and watch this.
Yeah, I love it though, because when you do things for yourself,
it's not about like the outcome, like you're doing it because you
enjoy it or you thrive in that environment.
And like, that's why I want everyone to get into an
environment where they thrive. Because like if you're not
thriving in your native like home environment.
That is your root problem. That is why you're unhappy.
That's why you wake up tired, That's why You're not, like,
enjoying the moment. That's why I like you look back
and you're like, mourning the time that's passing rather than
sitting in the moment. Like I always tell myself, like,
you're never going to be 30 years old again.
Like you're. You know what I mean?
Like one day you may have all the money and all the business
and all the, like, success that you want now, but you're never
going to be this age again. You know what I mean?
And like, it just really, like, puts me into a place where I'm
just, like, I don't even give a fuck.
Like I'm about to take my readings down to a few days a
week because. I just don't even want to spend
all my time working either. You know what I mean?
Like I don't want to drain all of my energy where I don't want
to give myself a reading or you know what I mean like helping
people can become like an addiction or like a people
pleasing thing. And like when no one helped you,
you want to help people who feel the way that you did because
like you don't want people to feel like that.
And I know Bunny deals with that like because a lot of people
just want to take take take from her.
But it's amazing, like all the things that like.
Have really came from, like, the connection with her, you know
what I mean? And like how grateful that I am
for her. So it's like, amazing how, like
when you're doing the things you love, you just end up at the
places you're supposed to be, You know what I mean?
Yeah, no, I absolutely agree with you.
And that goes into, I mean, even what we were talking about last
week with you can think that also that there's something that
you love and that you want to chase and that you're passionate
about. And you can go balls to the wall
on that. And then realize too that, hey,
this thing that I thought was really meant for me and that I
really want just isn't. And I had to give that a try and
I had to at least see that out and go in another direction.
And I I'm really liking there's this energy on mentorship right
now to where it's like people aren't nervous to like try new
things and experiment with new things.
And it's like just this like collective energy.
And I really dig that, because that's where you're going to
learn your like soul lessons too, and what you are passionate
about and what things are just like interests as opposed to
like your passion projects. And you know, I love that energy
because it's so inspiring when you see people like.
Trying the things like and just experimenting with something
they never have and then liking it or like whatever.
But the thing that you just said that I really want to emphasize
on is like knowing the difference between like, I'm
doing this and then being able to be like okay, this isn't for
me rather than being like, no, I said that I would do this.
So people are expecting me to stay doing this or, you know,
oh, you know, because in your case, it's like people.
Always want to say something about something.
And anyway, you know what I mean.
Just like in anyone's case, like, but especially like when
you're an entrepreneur, like if you go back to having a day job,
people are like, oh, their business wasn't successful.
Even though, like your business be booming.
And it can be like, really tiring to do everything to be
the marketing, the financing, the face, you know, the brand,
the voice, the people that have those opinions, though, those
people are never people that are in business positions.
There's never been a bitch that's talked about me that is
running game better than I'm running it.
There's never somebody talking about how much money I'm making
that's making more money than I'm making, because if you're
focused on your own coin, you truly don't give a fuck.
So if you're going to talk shit on somebody trying to work for
themselves, it's because you are.
You've given up the idea of ever doing that for you, and you're
going to work at the same nine to five.
You're not going to promote because you don't educate
yourself and advance yourself and learn.
You're going to stay making your same whatever pesos you're
making and then you're going to bitch to everybody online and
you're going to keep on trying to have inspirational people
give you abundance, workings and readings, but you're never going
to put energy into yourself. So you can kiss my whole fucking
butt hole with that idea. Thank you.
That's all. There you go.
And I think people don't realize how difficult it is to work for
yourself and do something that you love at the same time,
because it does take the factor of like loving it out of the
equation in a way, like doing something that.
We like are coming from such a genuine like energy trying to
help people who maybe don't want that for themselves and I'm
finding that like overtime it really does show like.
The illusions of the situation, like the people who do put in
the work evolve and start excelling and the people who are
just like they're but they're like they're paying but like
they're not maybe doing the work or they've done something, but
then they stop. It's like that doesn't help
anyone. And then they will be kind of
mad in a way, like, you know what I mean?
Outward towards other people, Not necessarily.
The reader per se. But it's like, it starts
happening. The projections, you know what I
mean? Because they're aware of them,
but they're not doing the real work to work through them and
understand them. And that's why I'm always, like,
quick to be like, yeah, that person's projecting onto me and
I'm cool. Like, I'm cool with it.
Like, I don't mind people asking a couple questions or something,
but you can tell when someone, like, wants you to give them an
answer that's, like, not really the answer.
You know what I mean? Like.
They'll keep asking you the same question.
But like, even sometimes spirit, because I know what the answer
is. Fear.
It's like we don't want to go there right now.
It's going to distract them. We're not going there.
You know what I mean? And that's what we do.
And and I've never had anyone be upset about that because they
end up getting something really fulfilling out of the reading
because we didn't go right to their trauma.
And that's like that one girl that wanted to come on the
podcast. Like, I don't want to talk about
your trauma because we all have trauma.
And I think that I want to talk about like the things that
you're doing that bring joy to your life because like what you
talk about. Cause what you attract.
So if you talk shit about people, you attract people to
talk about you and vice versa. Yeah, I think my favorite guests
to this date that we've had on the podcast and probably will
ever have has been VIP. That girl is so fucking solid.
And like, we in our group chat the other day, I said it like
she is the exact same person. When you talk to her on a
podcast interview that she is on her Facebook that she is When
you get her on a FaceTime, her character is always the exact
same and her communication is so direct.
Like, if you're going to do a project with Peach, she's going
to be like, this is exactly how much it's going to cost.
This is what my expectation is. This is where it's going.
This is what's happening. This is how we're doing it.
Are you or no? Oh, you're not in.
I'm gonna figure it out by myself, cuz I'm a boss bitch.
You know what I mean? Like.
I love her because her character is like Golden is fuck.
And the way that she portrays herself is just like so humble.
But also like, I will shit on you and I will.
I will do that. And you can't stop me.
You could join me, but you're definitely not going to talk me
like and that that rhymes because she makes me kind of
want to rap about her. Don't kidding.
She's just so cute and she's like really easy to like hype up
because she is so sweet. And I feel like the way that
she's also like very firm and assertive is amazing.
Like all at the same time she can be all those things, you
know what I mean? It's really cool to watch.
I think it's beautiful too, to see a woman that is so sure of
themselves and like where they're going and what they're
doing. That there is there is 0 hold
back on her repping herself out, her giving you a business card,
her singing you a lullaby in the fucking park, her talking to you
on the bus and giving you a like.
When I hand somebody a business card now or a sticker, I'm
always thinking of peeps. Like I don't hand out my own
business card and not think like that bitch.
It shows me networking. Honestly, facts.
I found her card at a concert, so you know she wasn't even at
that concert and whenever we. Like, really look at the nitty
gritty of the whole situation. Like we were just destined to
meet that girl, just like we were destined to me.
Like, there's so much destiny unfolding when you let the
universe work for you. Because I'll just be honest, I
used to not have solid bitches in my life because I wasn't a
solid bitch. I definitely had, like, I was
more solid than the people I was around.
But those people were always doing me dirty, which also like,
gave me that vengeful, like revenge.
I'm like one time I got that I used to like like and kind of
date. I like found out he got herpes,
which he did, but he was trying to give it to people.
So of course being me like 19 year old me, I'm the one that
gets on Facebook and it's just like Ting, Ting, Ting, Here's
the results, here's the business, here's what's up.
Because he was telling someone that he gave it to them and gave
them like, you know, like he had to legally tell him like that's
what's up. So I'm telling everyone because
like that's not OK and I just like need I needed everyone to
know that I'm sure I saved lives that day.
Like, even though it was me, like looking like I was being a
bitch, you know what I mean? I just felt like he wouldn't
tell people till afterwards, clearly because he gave it
small, you know what I mean? And there was like results with
his name on it that says he has it, you know, And like that's
not OK, you know that like you tell someone before.
So, like, I've always been that very outspoken person, but it
wasn't like, for the better good of every I mean, sometimes, but,
like, in a vengeful way. You know what I mean?
John Tucker must die. It's my life.
You've seen that movie. I love that movie.
I was just watching that with my stepdaughter while she was here.
Oh my God. Speaking of her when she was
here, this is going to take us on a total squirrel moment.
We're going to be completely off track.
When she was here, I told you that she wanted to go on a walk
so I gave her pepper spray and you were like, oh, we need to
talk about that on the podcast. So I am super hyper aware of,
like, I'm a true crime fanatic, right?
And I also as a kid was put in like really bad situations and
allowed to do things that I should have never been allowed
to do, but nobody cared. So she wanted to go on a walk
with OK, she's my sisterinlaw, but she's 11 because my
fatherinlaw decided he wanted to get fucking freak nasty later on
in life too and had another round of kids.
So my husband. Sister, my husband, Sister is
the same age as his daughter. So they want to go on a walk
together. And and it was starting to like,
get dusk. And we're new to the
neighborhood, so I don't know it very well yet.
So I was like, here you can take pepper spray.
And I was like, this is how you use pepper spray.
So I'm in my kitchen. Like, you're going to lift this
up. You're going to push this down.
I'm like, you're going to want to go in a tea.
So you go across their eyes and then you go up, like, up their
nose and in their mouth like that It that's how you use
pepper spray. Jesus Christ, save me.
And so she was. So I told her that I was like, I
was all you do the cross like you're praying.
I'm like, that's what you do. She's like, okay, cool.
So they leave. She's got her cell phone.
And Brian had been like, she asked him and he goes, I don't
know, ask your mom. And so they leave.
And he goes, I was going to say no.
You said yes. So I I I told them to ask you
because I know you and I thought you would say no.
I'm like, I'm trying to let them have some independence.
And so they go on this walk and I'm over here like calling
because it's starting to get dark.
And she's not answering her phone.
And I'm hearing, like, we have a lot of kids in the neighborhood,
so there's always screaming. And so me, I'm like, hyper
fixated on the screaming outside.
And I'm like, it doesn't sound like her, but like, what?
Is she screaming? And I'm not there.
And so I'm like, I bet you she's on a fucking Snapchat video with
her friend and she doesn't want to hang up.
So I call her on Snapchat. She picks up.
Hi Mom. I'm like, come home.
She goes, well, I'm around the block, I said, but come home,
it's getting dark And so she's like, okay, We'll start walking
there in a minute. I'm standing outside.
I'm wearing like, I think I I was wearing some pajamas.
No shoes on. There's people outside.
I'm in the front yard waiting for her.
She comes up the road and I'm like, have you lost your fucking
mind like that? You're going to tell me you're
going to walk around the block and then you know that I'm
fucking crazy and you're gone for like a good 40 minutes, not
answering your phone. I was lit and she was on this.
She wanted to watch these, like, true crime shows while she was
here. And so I was like, yeah, we'll
watch some true crime things. And she's watching these
abduction things and these guys talking to these girls that
they've abducted. And she's like, I don't get the
big deal. They weren't that mean to her.
And they let her have food and they let her go and so.
I have never gone on a walk again.
I was panicking in my soul. I'm like and I I'm like the
helicopter parent and to the point that like when Max, God,
mom was here over the weekend, she's like you have to let your
kid go outside and like go play with friends and not be in your
supervision because that's how he learns life skills.
And I'm like, I don't know about, I don't know about that,
that he could do that in the in the safety of his school and
hope it's safe. Actually, no.
He does need to go play with friends, because when I was a
kid, I did play with friends. And you know, it's funny, I
think that if kids want to make friends in their, like,
neighborhood stuff, that's important.
But I think that so many people do, like, let their kids just
stay on TV or screens all day. And I think that's the worst.
We we have little friends here. But like, my thing is if you're
going to play outside, I need to be able to step outside and see
you. And like, if I can't, then you
need to be able to hear my voice when I call for you.
Because if he's outside playing with his friends, I go outside
like every 20-30 minutes. And I'm just like, Mac, are you
good? Like, are you fine?
You know, sometimes kids are assholes too, and you just want
to come home and you're like, Nah, mom, I'm coming home.
You know, like sometimes you need an out.
He's only 7. I wouldn't let him go out by
himself at 7:00. Our our neighborhood is really
small and there's like a little duplex across the street with
some kids. But they're mad at him.
You want the tea? They're mad at him right now
because he put chalk in this little boy's water and the
little boy's sister said don't put chalk in there.
And Mac was like, fuck you, I'm going to do it anyways because
he was trying to play a prank on this little boy.
So he put the chalk in the water.
The boy didn't drink it or anything.
The girl, it was livid and apparently was like, you could
poison my brother, all this stuff.
So he comes running inside, he's talking to me, we decide to go
outside. The little girl's coming down
her stairs across the street and she's like, my mom said that
it's not toxic And I was like, so then are you guys good?
And she's all, no, I'm going to remember this for actor and it's
like, it's all good. So he's gone out like every day
to see if kids are playing outside and the kids aren't
playing outside and he's like, well.
I'm going to remember this forever.
That's awesome. I'm going to remember this
forever. He said his first conflict with
the A girl, he's like like, you know those those girls that are
like, oh, don't worry if he's outside, I'll watch him.
But he she's the same age that kind of like I got this and
she's a little entrepreneur though.
She's telling me how she's been saving up her money to start her
own fudge business and she's going to make fudge and she's
like, I've saved up $130.00 and that's less than I'm going to
need for my materials. And so I'm going to be able to
have 10% to put into savings to go towards my next batch.
And I was like, okay. That's actually on point.
The father is clean. Well, she'll watch him.
If you know what I mean, you. Know what's funny is I do
remember kids like that. When I was a kid, I hung out
with all different age ranges, age ranges, because it was like
a small town on a neighborhood. It was like a town the size of a
neighborhood and there was not a lot of people to hang out with.
So kind of had like a big age range, like my neighbor friend,
too old, I can't leave. My mom let me hang out.
These people these too old for me, I've never been.
I would never be like 15 years old and be like you, a nine year
old. I'm going to hang out with her
because her mom's and their house is cool.
And maybe like, I don't know, Like I have no clue.
Like, I don't know. So here we are, my mom, she got
free babysitting from everybody because everybody just like want
to hang out with me. I don't know.
I mean, I hung out like I was. I don't know, I guess that's
just normal or maybe acting too old for my age.
I was like, I'll watch him but one time, the funniest thing
that you bring this up when I was about thirteen years old.
My mom's friend who is a crazy lady, we will not name job, but
this lady was crazy. She had two kids and I think at
the time like they were like 10 and 15 and she was like really
wanting my mom to see if I could babysit her kids because I was
just like 1310 and 15 and she wanted the 13 year old to
babysit them. That's weird as fuck I.
Know I know She thought I was like at that time.
You know what she told my mom? She was like.
I thought Paige was like 16 or 17, cuz my mom was letting me
act like her grown bestie. Well go you.
I mean, that's why my that's why my stepdaughter acts like she's,
you know, 18 going on, you know, whatever when she's 11.
And when you have parents that treat you like their friend
instead of and like their party buddy and their.
I'll just take you here and we'll go do this instead of, you
know, I have so many things I could say.
Can I end that rant real quick? Because my blood boils at that
topic and I'm like on one about it.
I want to tell you about my little neighbor friend that I
had. Do you have a neighbor friend?
Well, I did when I was kid and her name was Destiny.
Shout out. What's up?
It was in Sacramento, CA. And I was never like she never
would invite me over to her house.
And then she invited me over one night.
And I don't remember what we did, but I remember that they
all shared one glass of milk at the table.
And it was like a big deal for me to get like my own cup of
water and not have like, communal stuff.
And her dad wouldn't let me have milk.
And I didn't understand. And I will try not to gag.
They're all use the same cup of milk.
And then at the end, if the milk wasn't gone, they would put it
back into the jug. And that's why they didn't let
me have milk. And they had me drink water.
And it's because they would like, drink the same.
And then we would like she wanted to write our secrets in
our Diaries one time. And I don't remember what my
secret was but it was something small.
It was probably like I make out with my teddy bear when nobody's
around or something weird. And she was like, I love the
smell of my own pee and sometimes I'll just sit in the
bathroom and smell my pee before I flush.
I'll never forget that. And I stopped being able to hang
out with her because she was playing with my Mary Kate and
Ashley dolls in my bathroom at our apartment.
And she flipped the one of the dolls over and was like, Oh my
God, I don't like when you're looking at my alley like that.
And I was like, what's an alley? And she goes, her vagina.
And my mom busted in the bathroom and was like, you don't
need to go home. And then she told me I couldn't
hang out with her anymore. And my mom is like the quietest,
most gentle fucking flower. Oh my gosh.
What? That's that's why I was laughing
while you were talking about like your little neighbor
friend, because it just made me think of her.
And then I was just thinking about my mom busted in that
bathroom and I couldn't wait to tell you.
You know what that's a living legendary story because that
girl who knows where she ended up and that's terrible because
when you. Like like you said, grow up
around parents who treat you like their friend.
It is extremely toxic for your mental health and it makes you a
people pleaser and it makes you have like certain like lack of
boundaries or self esteem and just different things And it's
it's a different type of person that does that to their kid.
And I lived it and I'm and I love my mom.
But me being an only child and her being an only child, it was
like I was her her bestie. You know what I mean?
Like, I feel like that's why you understand so much.
Like when I talk to you behind the scenes is because that's the
same situation that she's in, You know what I mean?
Like and so on. Like a soul sister level.
Like, you know, I had never talked to you about anything
that, you know, I've ever gone through with that and and with
that side of things and with like the stepparent things and
the situation with her and us and everything.
And then once I did, I was like, oh, I can't believe we didn't
talk about this before. Because just like mindsets that
you have or like opinions that you have or thought processes
that have helped me kind of calm down with the situation a little
bit because you've been able to be like, I went through that
with my mom. Like, this is probably what your
daughter's feeling, or what she's going through and how
she's handling it and how you can help.
Yeah, I love that. And you know, honestly, it's
like a difficult age because like what you said, she's 11.
That was like, right around the time that the trauma really,
like, kicked into high gear, like getting part of my life.
My mom, like, was pretty like attentive and like there.
But then whenever she hit her, like midlife crisis and think
like around the time she turned like 40 or whatever, it was like
poof. And she went next fucking level
into a different person. And then, like, she's just
never. Like, you know what I mean?
Like it just, it was different And I like moved in my dad
straight up. So that's why I, like, know this
will work out because it's like literally, vicariously the same
thing that happened to me. Like right before high school, I
moved in with my dad. And like, that was basically
that All everything's history, you know what I mean?
Like and it's just crazy. That's the best thing that could
happen. Like is her being here with us
and something that like I trust that the universe like takes
care of things. Like I've always said that I've
never had to drag anybody down in the situation because spirits
always going to handle it the way that it needs to be had.
And you know I think that whether about this situation or
other situations, you know people, a lot of people don't
believe in like karma or things coming back around or whatever.
But eventually and and we can get really frustrated at like
this person's not getting what like they deserve.
And I just think that we put judgment and timelines on what
should happen to other people and we want them to get some
kind of like justice. Like, we want justice for
something, but when you move in a bad way, that eventually comes
back up to you. Like you don't have to believe
in like, the tenfold rule or whatever for it's for you to
believe things come back to you. If you treat people in life like
a shitty person and you don't do the right thing, people take
note of that and you eventually pay for that consequence.
If you're neglecting a kid, eventually it gets brought out
that you're neglecting. If you are stealing from your
job, eventually they find out that you've been stealing.
You know what I mean? Yeah.
And that's so true. And I don't even really pay
attention to what other people are doing.
And I also like, want to lift people up.
And I like, I love that about you because we don't even really
talk about her. We only really talk about your
daughter, what she's going through.
And like, how the person is like projecting that onto her.
But never once. Like almost like, I have
compassion because it's like, you know, like to even be able
to forgive my own mom and and me and her to have a bond, you know
what I mean? Like it took a lot of.
Compassion and understanding that she was just a person
dealing with her own unhealed trauma and suppressing it with
drugs and alcohol and, you know, partying and all the things that
get you nowhere. And if you party all through
your 30s, I promise you when you turn 40, you're going to lose
your shit. So if you're just now turning 30
or you're getting close, you're like, oh, that won't happen to
me, blah, blah, blah. If you're still partying at 35
and I'm talking like tailgating bars, you know, always need to
have drinks with dinner etcetera, etcetera, etcetera,
like you're out more. Nights of the week than not.
Or drinking more nights of the week.
You don't have to be out, baby, because you're like, oh, I don't
go out. Yeah, because you just drink at
home because it's cheaper. So that's almost worse, you know
what I mean? Like, at least the other people
know. Like, I can't get too fucked up
because I have to drive, You know what I mean?
Like it might be social for them, but either way, however
you define it, social or practical or daily or habitual,
whatever you want to say, it will unfold where your body
starts breaking down. You aren't.
In your 20s anymore? Like every day is turns into a
head out hangover or headache or a migraine.
My favorite is when people that are like pushing 40 still do
hard drugs and they have migraines all the time.
Yeah baby, when you do drugs all the time and then you come down
back to earth with us and you're pushing 3738, yeah, I'm sure you
have a migraine 24/7. And no, it's not clinically.
Diagnosable, except the fact that you're on an up, down, up,
down schedule. You know what I mean?
And like, those are meth grains. What I said.
Those aren't migraines. Those are meth grains.
Put that on a T-shirt, put that you're pipe and smoke it.
You know, I love that because I watched.
The same situation to me. And I was so much better off
when I moved in with my dad because it was like I went from
bestie to like my dad does not fucking play, Like my dad does
not fucking play. And his parenting skills are
military style and like, I went from the frat house.
To Military House, like boarding school type shit, like bedtimes
and curfews and things I've never been exposed to.
That is like not like, that's like normal shit.
You're like, it's like boot camp because I have a bedtime and a
curfew. I felt like it was boot camp
because I went from being just balls in the mall.
Like I just don't even know how like.
I personally have preserved through some of the things that
I have like went through as a kid because every door, it was
just like, bad path, bad path, bad path.
Like it was just like I kept going through those doors.
You know what I mean? It wasn't that I didn't have
other options. It was just like I was exposed
to all this stuff and like these people and like growing up where
I grew up. I'm not namedropping, but it's
like a place that like literally.
Most of the people there, like there's more stop signs and
there's teeth and things like that.
Like people don't, they don't take care of their hygiene, like
there's not a lot going on there.
And if you still live there, you do drugs, you you cook drugs,
you do drugs, whatever you do like.
About my hometown Sosa, my cat Sosa.
But he the people down there and like the things I grew up
around, it's just like every door was leading to something
crazy. And I remember that like even
when I moved away from there, at times I would go back and hang
out with those people and like go hang out in those trailers
and just like crazy ass trailer park.
Just like for absolutely no reason other than I had a death
wish. You know what I mean?
Like I had gotten out of that place and then would drive the
hour and a half from the city to like go out there.
And like one time, this is the funniest fucking story.
I took a bunch of people from the city down there, and I
should not have done that because the police woke up from
there like they were sleeping at their house.
Someone called the police that we were having a party in my
old, like, abandoned house, like where my mom and them had like
at the house foreclosed and like weren't paying the bills and the
grass was all grown up, All the things.
I was having a party there and I had already done it a few times,
so I didn't think it was going to be a problem like.
So I invited a lot of people and I don't know why I did that in a
town that literally chirps crickets like.
So the police made like 20-3 people walk to the police
station and like lock people up, called people's parents.
I've never seen people's parents so mad.
Some of the people that are there like not even alive now
because that that's the path they ended up on, you know what
I mean? Like.
Their parent killed him that night.
Yeah. Because it was fucking wild.
It was. And you know, some of these
things that I went through, like I was like 14 or 15.
I was probably 15. I think I was like a sophomore
in high school this year that year.
And there was people that went to like big boy jail that were
like over 18 and got in big trouble for hanging out kids.
Like a bunch of them. People like, like, I don't know
if that puts you on the sex offender list, but if you're
like doing drugs and partying with kids and then you go to
jail, I think it does. Dude, no, but.
On a serious note, the amount like because I look back on like
my teenagers, when I think about parties and stuff, I'm like,
Yep, it was because I was interested in older boys.
And it was always like, yeah, I remember this one time, I was
super into this guy. It was my friend's brother and I
was like super into him. He was hella cute and I went to
the store with my dad and he was out of high school at this
point, but I was in high school and.
He was just sitting outside of Safeway with his friends at like
a table and I was like, Oh my God, Dad.
Like he's here. And my dad's all hell aloud in
the parking lot where we're walking and what a fucking loser
who hangs out at Safeway after they're graduated high school
and doesn't have a fucking job. Oh my God, That's.
My God, I was mortified. I and because like my dad's
usually. More laid back and like an
observer of things. And so I just say, OK, the times
that I've seen my parents act out of pocket has been because
of me. Clearly like my mom out of
pocket, I made my dad go out of like, irritating my dad is
something that I have just thrived on my entire life, My
stepdad and I just, I don't. I don't know what it's been, but
I've always just been like. You want to fight?
I don't know. I love him to death.
But also I just. I make him act out of character.
When I was younger, Jim and I, the rebel page, the crazy one,
no, I don't know what, what, like, I actually was in my head
as a young child. I thought I was invincible.
I don't know about friend like we were to definitely been fine
because you never know. But people that I grew up with
are not OK. They're not fine.
Like, unfortunately, the crazy thing is, is a lot of people
lose their shit in those illusions like that you're
taught and you have to fight to break free of that.
Like you're not that type of parent, like, or, you know,
like, you know, your stepdaughters being exposed to
all this stuff and it's like you can't even understand it or
fathom it, you know what I mean? And then there's still like this
argument there or like this, like I'm doing fine and don't
ask about my stuff, you know what I mean?
Like this anger, like being directed towards you and you're
just trying to do like what you feel is the right thing.
You know what I mean? And I feel like that's exactly
how it was with my mom and dad growing up.
And like, when you bring your children into like, adult
problems, like that's where you're like, it's not healthy.
It's not healthy, like for them to know parental problems and
and problems with money and bills and things like that.
And like I was exposed. To never be exposed to
conversations about child support, about custody, about.
Any of that, like they those shouldn't be things that you're
if you have a parent coming to you with concerns, something
that the kids have said it should never be redirected to
the kids about. How dare you say that it should
be a conversation, maybe in private with your kid about like
what's going on that's making you feel that way.
Because if you're genuinely not doing something, you're not
going to have a problem with the fact that your kid is speaking
well. I grew up with the Child Support
conversation constantly. My dad like loving to death, but
he fucking told me every time he saw me that he gave my mom child
support every week. Like every time I saw him.
And I'm just like, I'm seven, you know what I mean?
Like I don't. Give a fuck.
I don't give a fuck. It's just one of those things
that like I personally, as an adult don't even want to have a
child if I'm not with someone that I don't plan on being with.
I think people just be having kids with people because they
want to control them, people that they want to like,
manipulate sometimes. And then they use that kid as
like the pawn or use the kid as like the thing.
And I don't like that energy, You know, like that's just very
traumatic for a child. And I personally, like, have
seen people that have tried to date me that have like all these
baby Mama issues and I'm just like, Nope.
Instantly it's like, Nope. And then another thing that
turns me off in a way is like, when you have a bunch of
different baby moms and then you talk shit with all of them and
they all have drama. It's just like, that's even more
tacky because then it's like you want to bring me into your drama
circle. It's not even like you're like,
oh, I get along with my baby moms.
It's like 90 things going on. I'm like, so I don't know.
I just be staying in my lane with that.
And another thing, like, I've dated people with kids in the
past, and then you get attached to their kids and then when they
leave, and you know what I mean? Like you don't see those kids
anymore. They're not your kids kind of
thing. And that's traumatic, too, for
the kid and for me. I am one of those people who
just believes firmly that you shouldn't just introduce your
kid to anybody and that there should be like, really, that
there should just be different boundaries, like.
I don't know. Maybe that's just me.
I say that. But like, my stepdaughter was on
our first date when we went on our first date, and that was
because he had her full time. And so in order for us to go
out, she had to go out too. And that was, he didn't have
somebody to just have her. He had her full time.
And but I'm also the only person that he's ever dated other than
her mom. And then, you know, we ended up
being married and stuff. But I think that there are.
There are people who just be bringing out any fucking Dick,
Harry, Ron, Harold and are just like, hey, not only are we
moving in together, but this is her family.
We're going to be up. He's so that we're going to
we're going to be the happy family together.
I'm actually watching that unfold on Facebook with two
people I don't know right now. Like I'm was friends with the
guy and he would always try to slide and I don't know him.
But it's one of those people that you can just tell that
their life is like a shit show and that they're on drugs and
then it's just like kind of like a spiral all the time.
And it's kind of interesting to watch.
So I've just kind of like watched from afar.
I wouldn't have known who he was if he wasn't like messaging me
though, you know what I mean? It's just like once he started
doing that, I started paying attention to him a little bit.
Not like messaging him back, but like his stories and some of his
compulsive, like drug rant statuses that you can just tell
that people are like doing crazy things, you know?
And he got with this girl like, I don't know, maybe 2-3 months
ago now. And within the first two weeks
he got a huge tattoo on the side of his neck with her name.
I'm talking massive. Like huge.
Her name is like this big and he'll post it like she is my
queen. We are here forever.
You will never stop us. Then and now in his bio it says
I love this girl, I love her kids, That is my queen and I am
her blue eyed king and it's just it's the most interesting thing
to watch. I have never been more
entertained by something in. This city before it's wild.
And then remember that group I mentioned that are we dating the
same guy? He posted in there anonymously
and the girl said my friend started dating him and I'm
trying to see something. I'm getting bad vibes.
But she's loving him. Please help ladies.
And people were like, that dude's been on drugs forever.
That dude is this. This dude is that.
And so they were riding him out. And I don't know dude.
I'll just know he's added me. He's and even now he still is in
my story likes and just different things.
Like he's not like obviously being faithful to her probably,
but he's like love bombing the shit of her.
So I saw that they went on a vacation instantly.
Like just went on a vacation with the kids, with her kids,
and you can tell like her son is like probably like 14 and he
doesn't look happy and then her daughter's probably like eight
or nine or something. So in the picture the kids look
mad. Well then like 2 weeks later he
bought them a pool, like a nice pool for their house.
Got it. He installed it and did all this
and now the kids love him. Every picture.
It looks like they are just thriving.
I'm like he bought the kids too. Like he got her name tattooed
within the first three weeks of knowing her.
Within a month and 1/2 he had put a pool at her crib,
landscaped it. It looked nice.
It did. I don't know why I was.
Like, I think that sounds like love.
Like maybe she's popping up with me and it's real fucking good
and he's like, you know what? You deserve a fucking pool for
you and those babies. Okay.
Well, I think she's doing something crazy because people
on that group were saying a lot and it wasn't good and I just
think it sounds. Like I love my hometown group,
man, because like it's the same like small town fucking bullshit
and there will be arguments about like they.
They're redoing the cafe downtown and they're going to be
updating it or whatever, and you'll have people in the
comments fucking arguing it's because of Trump, it's because
of Biden, blah, blah blah. Everything's so expensive.
We're not going to have any money for the roads.
Like, freaking out and Oh my God, the stuff that you get in
your small town chats. Yes, yes, yes.
It's crazy. It's a crazy world in the world
that we live in. I just like to observe.
Maybe they are in love, Who knows?
Maybe you should stay out of my story likes stop 10 times for
reacting my story because I can see.
It they're always, they're always in the fucking story, but
never in public post. You know, it's funny on
Facebook, like I can get like 2000 views on a story and then
most of the dudes that heart react or thumbs it up or react
to it are married or XYZ. So like all the single people
looked at this. It was like we good And then all
the married people are like, that's the one, that one.
That's my girl. I mean that.
Girl, they're they're liking it so they can get a cosplay of you
done by their spouse. You know there are porn stars
that do that. They'll like, send your spouse
like video. You should be like, hey, it's.
You know fucking Dominic's birthday?
Can you send him a picture of you twiddling your Twitter?
And they're like, Oh my God, yeah, yeah, you know, a lot of
people like those cameo like personalized videos.
What do you say? Like that they love the
personalized video They do. I was.
Thinking to a cameo near you, I was actually about to get it
fired up. You should.
You should do like just voice messages to people.
You know How many people have asked me if I can get Jelly Roll
to sing their wife happy birthday?
I bet you a lot of people, but I still think you should be a
phone sex operator. You know, my friend does that
and she loves it. Have you seen the movie for a
good time Call? I did see that movie.
It's kind of. Is it newer?
Because I saw it recently. It's not newer, but I think they
just put it on Amazon or Peacock.
I just watched it over the weekend.
I love that movie. I could totally see it being us.
You know what's funny? I watch that and I don't watch a
lot of TV. And I did watch it.
See. Boom, Spirit said.
You need to watch when you were talking about the ranch
seasoning. Ranch seasoning.
That was last night. Interesting about everything in
this world is this body, Scrub says.
It's distributed by Canada, but it's made in China.
I wonder how much it cost to export all that to back to
America. Same.
For you to buy it for $6. How many of these fuckers did
you make? Actually, I got this in my
monthly boxy charm. I signed back up this month and
they send you full size stuff. Big stuff.
And they sent this body lotion and it's actually something
Peaches. Speaking of come on, I'm trying
to tell you. Me and it smells really freaking
good. Mitchell and Peach, English
flowers. Body lotion.
Love it, it my first. It smells really good though and
I like it because it was a surprise, a little surprise and
then I got stuff I needed. And what was weird is they like
I paid for it last month and then they ran out of the boxes
and said I couldn't have one until next month.
So I contacted customer support and I'm like you charged me in
July and you're telling me I don't get my box till August.
I'm supposed to get one in July like you charged me on the 1st
with my IPSI because IPSI bought Boxy charm.
I didn't know that. I didn't either.
So I just clicked one button and it decided to upgrade it to both
and I got like a free gift and I was like, OK cool, I'll do this
for a month, see what happens. Like I haven't had it in a long
time. I used to love it and I got
brushes and stuff this month which I was excited about.
So when I did that, they sent me my EPC bag but did not send me
the boxy charm. So I was like, OK, so I got it
this month. You done fucked up.
Give me my shit. It's crazy.
Well. You got anything else you want
to say while running Candy Land? Yeah, pull a card.
Everyone loved it. Another one of the same cards.
You want a different card, the human design ones.
OK, these ones are fire. I know.
I've gotten so much feedback from that episode.
People are really fucking loving the last episode.
We got card 32 for longevity. Look at all that cash. 32 Libra
with the cash. Oh my God.
I opened the book and it went right to it.
Hey, the sign is Libra, the gift is soundness and the shadow is
tribalism. The level of the gift allows you
to see beyond fear, beyond failure, and beyond the illusion
of death. The exchange of money represents
a flow of energy When you are divinely linked to the source of
your decisions, actions, i.e., your inner guidance system, you
know just how much of your energy to give to whom, and when
you do not spend or hoard out of fear or desperation.
Instead, you see the full picture and make sound decisions
based on your intuitive wisdom. Long.
Longevity is the guiding principle that serves you the
shadow of tribalism, our collective fear of death, of
becoming extinct. His both ensured our species
continuation over time and kept us stuck in the quicksand of
survival mode i.e. Fight or flight?
Dog eat dog, tribalism. Separation.
Paradoxically, this instinctual setting on humanity drives us to
cling desperately to our own tribe, group, nation, culture as
a preservation strategy while simultaneously dehumanizing the
other tribe, country, race, etcetera, and so fittingly in
the House of mirrors that is physical reality.
What appears to be a mechanism for oneness and expansion is
merely just strife dressed up with new ribbons.
As individuals, this fear of extinction may play out through
the modality of money as you become its willing victim and
disregard your own inherent power in the process.
Your themes are money, energy, bonds, and sound judgment.
I can't hear you. I muted myself so I wasn't
breathing while you were reading, and then I forgot to
unmute. We've had two muted tonight.
And you know what's interesting? My friend just texted me.
She said. I just got my human design
Channels and Gates class. I'm listening now.
Okay, come through with this thing.
She's in the solar group, no name drop.
Off to you after. I just want to say that we have
a lot coming up. We are about to announce the
Full Moon Power Circle date for next month, September.
I know that we have our spell worked here and we are taking
votes right now for the group spell work this month.
And this is a super powerful month just because there are two
full moons coming like in a very short span, as well as the new
moon. And I feel like when you have
such a transformative energy, like you're going to change
seasons, like you're changing into the next energy, the next
chapter of the cycle like fall. And it is about death and
rebirth. And I just really want to
emphasize to like let go of things that don't serve you and
make space for activities, people, pastimes, hobbies that
really do serve you. And there is so much going on
because this girl just texted me about the red couch.
She said she's the podcast right now.
So, you know, there's so much synchronicity in a lot of what's
going on, she said. I have a red couch and a red
massage table that are for workspace only.
That's so cool. So people are connecting in a
deep way and I think that if you're open and ready to the
next chapter, spirits going to reveal so much to you.
So coming up in the next couple months is really going to be
about letting go and really inviting in what you want.
And I would just recommend everyone to set like their
intentions and be more intentional with your life.
Speak blessings over your body. Thank your body for all that it
does behind the scenes. You know your heart is just
beating right now. Your lungs are just breathing
like you're not even having to do all of the work and you feel
like you're doing all of the work.
And I feel like take some of that pressure off of yourself,
understand that taking a risk is a lot better than staying the
same and we will see you next time in Candy Land.
Bye.