1 00:00:10,680 --> 00:00:16,400 Welcome to Fucking Candy Land, hosted by Rampage and Gemini. 2 00:00:29,190 --> 00:00:33,510 Welcome back to Candy Land. How are you doing Gemini? 3 00:00:34,630 --> 00:00:36,830 Good. I'm so glad that we took our 4 00:00:36,830 --> 00:00:39,590 literal just conversation on FaceTime and said why don't we 5 00:00:39,590 --> 00:00:43,230 just start recording? Honestly, we just decided what 6 00:00:43,230 --> 00:00:46,150 day we were going to record for the week, and then out of 7 00:00:46,150 --> 00:00:50,030 nowhere, our phone call turned into let's record right now. 8 00:00:50,030 --> 00:00:52,990 And that's the only energy that I want in my life. 9 00:00:53,830 --> 00:00:56,070 That's because Spirit had messages flowing through. 10 00:00:56,970 --> 00:01:01,010 Honestly, I have this new body scrub and it's called Do of the 11 00:01:01,010 --> 00:01:04,970 Gods, and I just feel like anything that says of the Gods 12 00:01:04,970 --> 00:01:07,130 is is good for me. I love it. 13 00:01:07,290 --> 00:01:12,370 Anything that is about like elevating to your highest and 14 00:01:12,370 --> 00:01:14,610 best version of yourself. I feel like, you know, the thing 15 00:01:14,610 --> 00:01:18,130 about the podcast is we don't really sit around and talk about 16 00:01:18,130 --> 00:01:19,490 people. So like, we just talk about 17 00:01:19,490 --> 00:01:21,850 really cool stuff and we're like, hell yeah, let's record 18 00:01:21,850 --> 00:01:25,530 it. We were, we were just sitting 19 00:01:25,530 --> 00:01:29,120 here and we talked about our businesses a lot too behind the 20 00:01:29,120 --> 00:01:31,840 scenes and like what are you doing to switch it up, How are 21 00:01:31,840 --> 00:01:33,960 you doing things? And that always, I don't know, 22 00:01:33,960 --> 00:01:37,120 inspires us to keep on having, like conversations about 23 00:01:37,120 --> 00:01:40,560 evolving. Literally, we have so many ideas 24 00:01:40,560 --> 00:01:42,880 and like they're all coming together and I know, like we're 25 00:01:42,880 --> 00:01:45,120 both doing things behind the scenes as well. 26 00:01:45,120 --> 00:01:48,840 But I really love the podcast because it's such a way to be 27 00:01:48,840 --> 00:01:54,360 transparent with everyone. I really am digging the vibe of 28 00:01:54,480 --> 00:01:57,930 like, having something that we're needing done and the other 29 00:01:57,930 --> 00:01:59,930 person being like, I got a girl that does that. 30 00:02:00,290 --> 00:02:02,090 I got a let me give you her number right now. 31 00:02:02,090 --> 00:02:04,050 Look at she did this for me. I traded her. 32 00:02:04,050 --> 00:02:06,050 This is like a thing like, let's get you in touch. 33 00:02:06,330 --> 00:02:10,729 And one of us always fucking knows a bitch that knows a bitch 34 00:02:10,729 --> 00:02:12,250 that knows how to get something done. 35 00:02:12,770 --> 00:02:16,050 You know what? And honestly, like I only want 36 00:02:16,050 --> 00:02:19,610 to be around people who are living their fucking best life. 37 00:02:19,610 --> 00:02:22,370 Like if you are a miserable ass bitch, I don't want to be near 38 00:02:22,370 --> 00:02:24,090 you. And that's what's cool about our 39 00:02:24,090 --> 00:02:26,620 friendship is like. We don't need to see each other 40 00:02:26,620 --> 00:02:29,780 or be together every day, but we are super close and it's crazy 41 00:02:29,780 --> 00:02:32,580 because there'd be people that's up in Y'all's face 24/7 that 42 00:02:32,580 --> 00:02:35,660 y'all don't even like. That's weird to me. 43 00:02:38,260 --> 00:02:40,180 She's like, we're obsessed with each other and we're not even 44 00:02:40,180 --> 00:02:41,460 near each other. What do you do with that? 45 00:02:42,580 --> 00:02:45,620 Because, like, how do you not like the people that you bring 46 00:02:45,620 --> 00:02:47,060 around you? Like, you know what I mean? 47 00:02:47,060 --> 00:02:48,460 Like so many people. Just. 48 00:02:48,940 --> 00:02:51,460 Are not happy with their surroundings, but they don't 49 00:02:51,460 --> 00:02:53,900 change them. And I'm just saying, like, we 50 00:02:53,900 --> 00:02:56,300 have a bond that's unbreakable, we don't even see each other. 51 00:02:56,300 --> 00:02:59,740 But like imagine like being in the same household or being 52 00:02:59,740 --> 00:03:02,220 around people 24/7 that you can't fucking stay in. 53 00:03:02,220 --> 00:03:05,140 And it just like every day your mood is crazy, you know what I 54 00:03:05,140 --> 00:03:06,260 mean? Like every day you're being 55 00:03:06,260 --> 00:03:08,860 affected by that. And I just feel like for anyone, 56 00:03:08,860 --> 00:03:10,940 I want people to be like, you know what? 57 00:03:10,980 --> 00:03:14,020 I deserve better. I'm fucking amazing and I don't 58 00:03:14,020 --> 00:03:16,820 need to stay here and I can do my own fucking thing because 59 00:03:16,820 --> 00:03:18,780 that's what we support. Like I do not. 60 00:03:18,940 --> 00:03:22,900 Support people who stay in situations and do very little to 61 00:03:22,900 --> 00:03:26,940 change them. But like, we're in competition 62 00:03:26,940 --> 00:03:29,340 with people who are just trying to live their best life. 63 00:03:31,140 --> 00:03:33,260 I agree with you. And you know what? 64 00:03:33,260 --> 00:03:35,500 Like fly like an eagle? Yes. 65 00:03:35,500 --> 00:03:43,860 And also, I have woken up in the same tiny home as you for days 66 00:03:44,240 --> 00:03:47,120 and I still like you. We didn't have, we didn't have 67 00:03:47,120 --> 00:03:50,480 coffee in the morning before talking like we had one tiny 68 00:03:50,480 --> 00:03:54,200 little bathroom that we had to share and we had to figure out 69 00:03:54,200 --> 00:03:59,440 and like fucking home girls to dodge and like course into not 70 00:03:59,440 --> 00:04:02,920 leaving us alone in the desert. And through everything here, we 71 00:04:02,920 --> 00:04:05,920 are fucking thriving. Thriving. 72 00:04:05,920 --> 00:04:08,320 And you know what? I was like looking back through 73 00:04:08,320 --> 00:04:12,720 some of our old episodes because. 74 00:04:13,750 --> 00:04:18,190 My cat is going crazy and he agrees that that bitches are 75 00:04:18,190 --> 00:04:20,390 crazy because you just don't know people. 76 00:04:20,390 --> 00:04:23,550 And we have went through so many waves of like people we thought 77 00:04:23,550 --> 00:04:26,070 we could trust that we were cool with and then like completely be 78 00:04:26,070 --> 00:04:32,770 like holy moly cannot trust you. And to like learning how to 79 00:04:33,090 --> 00:04:36,050 navigate friendships as like two people. 80 00:04:36,050 --> 00:04:39,130 Almost two. Because like when we're doing a 81 00:04:39,130 --> 00:04:43,770 brand together, we get like, we're Siamese fucking twins and 82 00:04:43,770 --> 00:04:47,090 so if someone is irked by something that one person does, 83 00:04:47,530 --> 00:04:51,570 we both get thrown into it. And like sometimes they'll flip 84 00:04:51,570 --> 00:04:53,610 flop and be like, just kidding. I wasn't mad at you. 85 00:04:53,650 --> 00:04:55,530 I was mad at her. But then just a joke. 86 00:04:55,570 --> 00:04:57,050 I'm mad at you both. Fuck you guys. 87 00:04:57,050 --> 00:05:05,450 You guys are cult leaders, which we are and but for real. 88 00:05:05,530 --> 00:05:10,130 And I think when I think back on what was the like, first 89 00:05:10,770 --> 00:05:15,130 frustration or like person that we had between us was literally 90 00:05:15,130 --> 00:05:18,810 when we went to interview that person, that girl who was like, 91 00:05:18,810 --> 00:05:21,930 I'm by the pool and we're like. And so if you hear Splash and 92 00:05:21,930 --> 00:05:24,330 we're like, we're literally interviewing you and we already 93 00:05:24,330 --> 00:05:28,130 had to reschedule this. And then I'm, I'm going to come 94 00:05:28,130 --> 00:05:29,610 on and I'm going to talk about my traumas. 95 00:05:29,610 --> 00:05:31,570 And you're like, that's not really this podcast. 96 00:05:31,570 --> 00:05:34,210 And she's like Gemini, your friend's a cunt and you guys 97 00:05:34,210 --> 00:05:37,570 aren't getting anywhere. Yeah, she totally was. 98 00:05:37,570 --> 00:05:46,330 Like, she's dimming your life so that I was so negative and I was 99 00:05:46,330 --> 00:05:48,970 just bringing you down. And you know what was 100 00:05:48,970 --> 00:05:52,610 interesting about that is that Lady was not who she portrayed 101 00:05:52,610 --> 00:05:56,930 herself to be. And unfortunately, like when you 102 00:05:56,930 --> 00:05:59,930 interview people, they are completely strangers and you've 103 00:05:59,930 --> 00:06:02,730 got to think that, like when you ask someone sometimes. 104 00:06:03,090 --> 00:06:04,850 Like, you don't know where their mind is going. 105 00:06:04,850 --> 00:06:07,090 Are they thinking, like, wow, this is an opportunity to 106 00:06:07,090 --> 00:06:10,330 collaborate and this is amazing, Or are they thinking, yeah, damn 107 00:06:10,330 --> 00:06:12,570 right, you want to interview me? You know what I mean? 108 00:06:12,570 --> 00:06:15,690 Like there's two different waves in people, especially these like 109 00:06:15,690 --> 00:06:18,490 influencers or tick tockers or people that have a lot of 110 00:06:18,490 --> 00:06:20,650 followers. Just anyone in general in a 111 00:06:20,650 --> 00:06:23,850 spotlight. Some people switch up and I can 112 00:06:23,850 --> 00:06:25,450 recognize the real motherfuckers. 113 00:06:25,710 --> 00:06:29,030 But in the beginning, when you first get in a group chat with 114 00:06:29,030 --> 00:06:32,310 someone and within 5 minutes they're flipping out on you, I 115 00:06:32,310 --> 00:06:34,870 would say they're the problem. But that's just me. 116 00:06:35,070 --> 00:06:39,670 Because like, things are chill. Until that Lady was doing the 117 00:06:39,670 --> 00:06:42,430 most and then she was mad at me. I forgot about that because that 118 00:06:42,430 --> 00:06:44,990 didn't even face me. It really didn't never really 119 00:06:44,990 --> 00:06:46,750 remember that. That was so long ago. 120 00:06:49,500 --> 00:06:52,660 I think my favorite. This is like all like behind the 121 00:06:52,660 --> 00:06:54,700 scenes, like scoops that were dropping. 122 00:06:54,700 --> 00:06:59,100 Because I remember too when we were like so excited about 123 00:06:59,100 --> 00:07:03,100 interviewing that one person and like I sent you her page like we 124 00:07:03,100 --> 00:07:05,740 are so excited. Showed up in her fucking car 125 00:07:05,740 --> 00:07:12,500 with no lights on and like the first the 1st 15 seconds in you 126 00:07:12,500 --> 00:07:15,490 start talking and she's like, I don't agree with that and 127 00:07:15,490 --> 00:07:18,450 everything you said she goes, I don't agree with that to the 128 00:07:18,450 --> 00:07:20,810 point that I was like, why are we here? 129 00:07:22,570 --> 00:07:24,490 Do not be making me laugh like that. 130 00:07:25,730 --> 00:07:30,090 That girl was interesting and cut from a different cloth and I 131 00:07:30,090 --> 00:07:32,930 don't know what was going on with her, but I feel like she 132 00:07:32,930 --> 00:07:37,210 was in her car doing some drugs or something prior. 133 00:07:37,210 --> 00:07:39,730 She was doing something she wasn't supposed to be doing. 134 00:07:39,730 --> 00:07:44,010 I think she was interesting and I think that she had. 135 00:07:44,920 --> 00:07:49,960 Some kind of like situation going where she had like gotten 136 00:07:49,960 --> 00:07:52,880 in a fight. Not like literally, but like 137 00:07:52,960 --> 00:07:55,080 mentally, like her mind was somewhere else. 138 00:07:55,080 --> 00:07:57,920 She was upset with someone. She was thinking about someone. 139 00:07:58,320 --> 00:08:01,560 She was not in the car with us and I felt like we were in her 140 00:08:01,560 --> 00:08:04,400 car because at one point she started driving. 141 00:08:05,760 --> 00:08:09,480 We never aired the. We never aired the interview. 142 00:08:13,120 --> 00:08:17,460 You are muted. Oh my God. 143 00:08:18,100 --> 00:08:22,580 This is what I mean when I say that we've been through so much, 144 00:08:22,580 --> 00:08:26,460 just like behind the scenes shit together that people do not 145 00:08:26,460 --> 00:08:28,500 understand. Like the shit that we have 146 00:08:28,500 --> 00:08:33,260 bobbed and weaved over here like Mr. Miyagied and Chopstick the 147 00:08:33,260 --> 00:08:35,700 Fly. Like along our journey, the 148 00:08:35,700 --> 00:08:39,260 things that we have done together and then weird ass 149 00:08:39,260 --> 00:08:42,380 stink coochie bitches just be coming out of the woodwork. 150 00:08:42,419 --> 00:08:46,620 Like I think that you guys giving messages of like guidance 151 00:08:46,620 --> 00:08:51,060 and healing is fuckery. And I'm going to let everybody 152 00:08:51,060 --> 00:08:54,780 know that this is witchery and cult like mentality. 153 00:08:55,220 --> 00:09:00,260 And it's it's interesting for us to talk about even having any 154 00:09:00,260 --> 00:09:03,620 kind of issue behind the scenes because we never have the issue. 155 00:09:03,620 --> 00:09:07,100 There's never, we're always just like we're here rooting y'all 156 00:09:07,100 --> 00:09:09,260 on. How come you look like a bum? 157 00:09:09,460 --> 00:09:11,540 You're coming here with some stink coochie energy. 158 00:09:11,540 --> 00:09:13,100 You're talking shit behind the scenes. 159 00:09:13,100 --> 00:09:14,940 Like how come nobody wants to come in here and have some 160 00:09:14,940 --> 00:09:16,620 healing? And you know what? 161 00:09:16,620 --> 00:09:22,060 People don't take things very seriously, and they definitely 162 00:09:22,060 --> 00:09:23,780 don't respect other people's time. 163 00:09:23,860 --> 00:09:26,300 And that's one thing that I had learned and I know that like. 164 00:09:26,890 --> 00:09:29,210 You doing covenant of rejects and, like, interviewing people. 165 00:09:29,210 --> 00:09:32,250 Like you have issues with scheduling and things, but it's 166 00:09:32,250 --> 00:09:34,330 like, respect my time. You know what I mean? 167 00:09:34,330 --> 00:09:38,010 Like, don't. And then my second favorite is 168 00:09:38,410 --> 00:09:41,290 where they just do the interview and it's just like, they don't 169 00:09:41,290 --> 00:09:43,450 act like they're even in the room most the time. 170 00:09:43,450 --> 00:09:46,970 Like they answer a phone call, they light up a cig, like 171 00:09:46,970 --> 00:09:49,450 whatever they're doing. Like, they're just whatever 172 00:09:49,450 --> 00:09:51,130 they're doing. And I'm like, OK, cool, they're 173 00:09:51,130 --> 00:09:53,690 popping their shit, but they're just like. 174 00:09:54,120 --> 00:09:55,440 Not there. You know what I mean? 175 00:09:55,440 --> 00:09:57,640 And we've we've like had multiple interviews with 176 00:09:57,640 --> 00:10:01,760 different people that I felt was similar, like Sheesh. 177 00:10:01,800 --> 00:10:03,720 And you know what I think about that? 178 00:10:03,880 --> 00:10:07,000 People don't know how to communicate either. 179 00:10:07,000 --> 00:10:09,560 So I think sometimes, like, people get on podcast and they 180 00:10:09,560 --> 00:10:12,400 think it's going to be easy or that it is easy to like just 181 00:10:12,400 --> 00:10:15,000 carry on a conversation and flow with someone. 182 00:10:15,000 --> 00:10:16,520 But it's not. It's not. 183 00:10:16,520 --> 00:10:19,320 And some of those things, like podcast people like are painful 184 00:10:19,600 --> 00:10:21,250 like. I'm not going to lie, Joe Rogan, 185 00:10:21,250 --> 00:10:23,410 he's kind of painful to listen. I don't even like his voice very 186 00:10:23,410 --> 00:10:24,450 much. Like if there's someone on there 187 00:10:24,450 --> 00:10:26,450 I want to listen to. But people are obsessed with 188 00:10:26,450 --> 00:10:28,530 that and I just don't even like his voice whatsoever. 189 00:10:29,410 --> 00:10:32,290 It just hurts. You can't dog Daddy Rogan out 190 00:10:32,290 --> 00:10:32,770 like that. I'm not. 191 00:10:33,210 --> 00:10:35,130 I'm not dogging him. I'm just saying I personally 192 00:10:35,130 --> 00:10:36,650 would rather listen like Howard Stern. 193 00:10:36,650 --> 00:10:39,170 Like I like his voice, but I don't like, you know what I 194 00:10:39,170 --> 00:10:40,330 mean? There you go. 195 00:10:41,090 --> 00:10:44,080 You don't like his voice? I don't listen to him, though. 196 00:10:44,240 --> 00:10:47,040 You know what I mean? Speaking of Howard Stern. 197 00:10:47,040 --> 00:10:50,760 So Bunny always said she wanted to be the female Howard Stern, 198 00:10:50,760 --> 00:10:53,920 like that was her shit. And then frequently, Howard 199 00:10:53,920 --> 00:10:59,360 Stern did this interview talking about Jelly and Bunny and I was 200 00:10:59,360 --> 00:11:03,560 like she I was waiting for her to have the video clip of her 201 00:11:03,560 --> 00:11:07,360 talking about the female Howard Stern and then him talking about 202 00:11:07,360 --> 00:11:09,000 her. But she incorporated him into 203 00:11:09,000 --> 00:11:13,400 her new intro for the podcast. And I am just loving the fucking 204 00:11:13,400 --> 00:11:17,080 watching the fairy godmother unfold her life. 205 00:11:18,040 --> 00:11:21,880 Praise, praise the godmother. I love that for her. 206 00:11:21,880 --> 00:11:26,080 Yeah, I know that's amazing and everything about it is giving 207 00:11:26,080 --> 00:11:31,110 like icon. Icon icon. 208 00:11:31,870 --> 00:11:36,470 I love it. Mommy, is that you? 209 00:11:39,230 --> 00:11:42,670 You know what I think's amazing, though, Is that she continues to 210 00:11:42,670 --> 00:11:44,950 bring amazing people into my life. 211 00:11:44,950 --> 00:11:47,030 Like including you. For those that don't know or 212 00:11:47,030 --> 00:11:49,750 you're just catching on me and Gemini met. 213 00:11:50,330 --> 00:11:54,250 Through her finding me on Bunny's podcast with the first 214 00:11:54,250 --> 00:11:57,210 interview that I did back in 2020, back during the pandemic, 215 00:11:57,210 --> 00:11:58,370 is when the first time I met her. 216 00:11:58,370 --> 00:12:00,650 Like when I got there, I was thinking I was going to have to 217 00:12:00,650 --> 00:12:02,650 like wear a mask, that she'd be like she was like, no, give me a 218 00:12:02,650 --> 00:12:03,610 hug. Like we're good. 219 00:12:03,610 --> 00:12:06,010 Like you want to eat, you want to say all kinds of people 220 00:12:06,010 --> 00:12:07,970 showed up. I met everyone that day like it 221 00:12:07,970 --> 00:12:10,890 was it was really dope. And at that time, she was still 222 00:12:10,890 --> 00:12:13,770 driving her Camaro. And I, like, was like. 223 00:12:14,210 --> 00:12:15,370 I was like, I know that's her car. 224 00:12:15,370 --> 00:12:17,130 Like, it was just like such a destined thing. 225 00:12:17,130 --> 00:12:19,290 I drove to Nashville and it was just like, cool. 226 00:12:19,610 --> 00:12:22,130 And then the fact that, like, I'm meeting so many amazing 227 00:12:22,130 --> 00:12:24,850 people through that, especially you like my best friend and 228 00:12:25,210 --> 00:12:27,010 someone that we have a business together. 229 00:12:27,010 --> 00:12:29,250 And I remember when we were starting this business, my own 230 00:12:29,250 --> 00:12:30,970 mom was like, you don't know that girl. 231 00:12:31,450 --> 00:12:33,050 You can't trust her. You don't know her. 232 00:12:33,490 --> 00:12:36,850 Like my mom was freaking like, and I'm like mom, you don't have 233 00:12:36,850 --> 00:12:39,490 a business with anyone and you've never had a business ever 234 00:12:39,490 --> 00:12:41,720 in your life. Like, don't tell me what to do. 235 00:12:41,720 --> 00:12:43,320 You know what I mean? Like, don't tell me how to make 236 00:12:43,320 --> 00:12:46,920 business news, mom. I'll navigate however the fuck 237 00:12:46,920 --> 00:12:48,520 I'm going to sit down and watch this. 238 00:12:48,800 --> 00:12:54,440 Yeah, I love it though, because when you do things for yourself, 239 00:12:54,760 --> 00:12:58,480 it's not about like the outcome, like you're doing it because you 240 00:12:58,480 --> 00:13:00,800 enjoy it or you thrive in that environment. 241 00:13:00,800 --> 00:13:02,840 And like, that's why I want everyone to get into an 242 00:13:02,840 --> 00:13:05,360 environment where they thrive. Because like if you're not 243 00:13:05,360 --> 00:13:08,640 thriving in your native like home environment. 244 00:13:09,020 --> 00:13:11,260 That is your root problem. That is why you're unhappy. 245 00:13:11,260 --> 00:13:13,380 That's why you wake up tired, That's why You're not, like, 246 00:13:13,380 --> 00:13:15,940 enjoying the moment. That's why I like you look back 247 00:13:15,940 --> 00:13:19,180 and you're like, mourning the time that's passing rather than 248 00:13:19,180 --> 00:13:21,780 sitting in the moment. Like I always tell myself, like, 249 00:13:21,780 --> 00:13:23,300 you're never going to be 30 years old again. 250 00:13:23,300 --> 00:13:24,180 Like you're. You know what I mean? 251 00:13:24,180 --> 00:13:26,500 Like one day you may have all the money and all the business 252 00:13:26,500 --> 00:13:30,460 and all the, like, success that you want now, but you're never 253 00:13:30,460 --> 00:13:32,700 going to be this age again. You know what I mean? 254 00:13:32,700 --> 00:13:35,420 And like, it just really, like, puts me into a place where I'm 255 00:13:35,420 --> 00:13:36,380 just, like, I don't even give a fuck. 256 00:13:36,780 --> 00:13:38,540 Like I'm about to take my readings down to a few days a 257 00:13:38,540 --> 00:13:40,380 week because. I just don't even want to spend 258 00:13:40,380 --> 00:13:42,460 all my time working either. You know what I mean? 259 00:13:42,460 --> 00:13:44,980 Like I don't want to drain all of my energy where I don't want 260 00:13:44,980 --> 00:13:48,140 to give myself a reading or you know what I mean like helping 261 00:13:48,140 --> 00:13:50,860 people can become like an addiction or like a people 262 00:13:50,860 --> 00:13:53,500 pleasing thing. And like when no one helped you, 263 00:13:53,700 --> 00:13:56,540 you want to help people who feel the way that you did because 264 00:13:56,540 --> 00:13:57,940 like you don't want people to feel like that. 265 00:13:57,940 --> 00:14:00,780 And I know Bunny deals with that like because a lot of people 266 00:14:00,780 --> 00:14:02,540 just want to take take take from her. 267 00:14:02,820 --> 00:14:04,900 But it's amazing, like all the things that like. 268 00:14:05,770 --> 00:14:08,130 Have really came from, like, the connection with her, you know 269 00:14:08,130 --> 00:14:09,810 what I mean? And like how grateful that I am 270 00:14:09,810 --> 00:14:12,250 for her. So it's like, amazing how, like 271 00:14:12,250 --> 00:14:15,530 when you're doing the things you love, you just end up at the 272 00:14:15,530 --> 00:14:17,210 places you're supposed to be, You know what I mean? 273 00:14:18,330 --> 00:14:20,410 Yeah, no, I absolutely agree with you. 274 00:14:20,410 --> 00:14:23,290 And that goes into, I mean, even what we were talking about last 275 00:14:23,290 --> 00:14:27,690 week with you can think that also that there's something that 276 00:14:27,690 --> 00:14:29,970 you love and that you want to chase and that you're passionate 277 00:14:29,970 --> 00:14:31,770 about. And you can go balls to the wall 278 00:14:31,770 --> 00:14:34,130 on that. And then realize too that, hey, 279 00:14:34,130 --> 00:14:36,530 this thing that I thought was really meant for me and that I 280 00:14:36,530 --> 00:14:40,890 really want just isn't. And I had to give that a try and 281 00:14:40,890 --> 00:14:44,570 I had to at least see that out and go in another direction. 282 00:14:44,570 --> 00:14:49,930 And I I'm really liking there's this energy on mentorship right 283 00:14:49,930 --> 00:14:53,930 now to where it's like people aren't nervous to like try new 284 00:14:53,930 --> 00:14:55,850 things and experiment with new things. 285 00:14:55,850 --> 00:14:58,050 And it's like just this like collective energy. 286 00:14:58,370 --> 00:15:00,650 And I really dig that, because that's where you're going to 287 00:15:00,650 --> 00:15:04,970 learn your like soul lessons too, and what you are passionate 288 00:15:04,970 --> 00:15:08,210 about and what things are just like interests as opposed to 289 00:15:08,210 --> 00:15:12,610 like your passion projects. And you know, I love that energy 290 00:15:12,610 --> 00:15:15,370 because it's so inspiring when you see people like. 291 00:15:15,750 --> 00:15:18,630 Trying the things like and just experimenting with something 292 00:15:18,630 --> 00:15:21,110 they never have and then liking it or like whatever. 293 00:15:21,110 --> 00:15:24,470 But the thing that you just said that I really want to emphasize 294 00:15:24,470 --> 00:15:27,870 on is like knowing the difference between like, I'm 295 00:15:27,870 --> 00:15:32,110 doing this and then being able to be like okay, this isn't for 296 00:15:32,110 --> 00:15:34,750 me rather than being like, no, I said that I would do this. 297 00:15:34,750 --> 00:15:38,110 So people are expecting me to stay doing this or, you know, 298 00:15:38,110 --> 00:15:43,230 oh, you know, because in your case, it's like people. 299 00:15:43,770 --> 00:15:45,730 Always want to say something about something. 300 00:15:45,730 --> 00:15:47,090 And anyway, you know what I mean. 301 00:15:47,090 --> 00:15:50,690 Just like in anyone's case, like, but especially like when 302 00:15:50,690 --> 00:15:53,490 you're an entrepreneur, like if you go back to having a day job, 303 00:15:53,490 --> 00:15:55,610 people are like, oh, their business wasn't successful. 304 00:15:55,610 --> 00:15:57,170 Even though, like your business be booming. 305 00:15:57,170 --> 00:16:00,490 And it can be like, really tiring to do everything to be 306 00:16:00,490 --> 00:16:04,290 the marketing, the financing, the face, you know, the brand, 307 00:16:04,730 --> 00:16:07,890 the voice, the people that have those opinions, though, those 308 00:16:07,890 --> 00:16:10,610 people are never people that are in business positions. 309 00:16:10,610 --> 00:16:13,570 There's never been a bitch that's talked about me that is 310 00:16:13,770 --> 00:16:15,410 running game better than I'm running it. 311 00:16:15,410 --> 00:16:18,770 There's never somebody talking about how much money I'm making 312 00:16:18,770 --> 00:16:21,610 that's making more money than I'm making, because if you're 313 00:16:21,610 --> 00:16:24,130 focused on your own coin, you truly don't give a fuck. 314 00:16:24,130 --> 00:16:26,410 So if you're going to talk shit on somebody trying to work for 315 00:16:26,410 --> 00:16:28,810 themselves, it's because you are. 316 00:16:28,810 --> 00:16:33,090 You've given up the idea of ever doing that for you, and you're 317 00:16:33,090 --> 00:16:34,730 going to work at the same nine to five. 318 00:16:34,730 --> 00:16:36,890 You're not going to promote because you don't educate 319 00:16:36,890 --> 00:16:38,850 yourself and advance yourself and learn. 320 00:16:39,050 --> 00:16:42,250 You're going to stay making your same whatever pesos you're 321 00:16:42,250 --> 00:16:45,210 making and then you're going to bitch to everybody online and 322 00:16:45,210 --> 00:16:47,930 you're going to keep on trying to have inspirational people 323 00:16:48,210 --> 00:16:51,250 give you abundance, workings and readings, but you're never going 324 00:16:51,250 --> 00:16:55,250 to put energy into yourself. So you can kiss my whole fucking 325 00:16:55,250 --> 00:16:56,890 butt hole with that idea. Thank you. 326 00:16:57,090 --> 00:16:58,890 That's all. There you go. 327 00:16:59,450 --> 00:17:03,410 And I think people don't realize how difficult it is to work for 328 00:17:03,410 --> 00:17:05,810 yourself and do something that you love at the same time, 329 00:17:05,810 --> 00:17:09,650 because it does take the factor of like loving it out of the 330 00:17:09,650 --> 00:17:13,089 equation in a way, like doing something that. 331 00:17:13,560 --> 00:17:17,760 We like are coming from such a genuine like energy trying to 332 00:17:17,760 --> 00:17:20,480 help people who maybe don't want that for themselves and I'm 333 00:17:20,480 --> 00:17:24,200 finding that like overtime it really does show like. 334 00:17:24,700 --> 00:17:28,540 The illusions of the situation, like the people who do put in 335 00:17:28,540 --> 00:17:31,660 the work evolve and start excelling and the people who are 336 00:17:31,660 --> 00:17:35,180 just like they're but they're like they're paying but like 337 00:17:35,180 --> 00:17:38,900 they're not maybe doing the work or they've done something, but 338 00:17:38,900 --> 00:17:41,100 then they stop. It's like that doesn't help 339 00:17:41,100 --> 00:17:43,060 anyone. And then they will be kind of 340 00:17:43,060 --> 00:17:44,860 mad in a way, like, you know what I mean? 341 00:17:44,860 --> 00:17:46,940 Outward towards other people, Not necessarily. 342 00:17:47,850 --> 00:17:49,610 The reader per se. But it's like, it starts 343 00:17:49,610 --> 00:17:51,210 happening. The projections, you know what I 344 00:17:51,210 --> 00:17:52,650 mean? Because they're aware of them, 345 00:17:52,650 --> 00:17:56,130 but they're not doing the real work to work through them and 346 00:17:56,130 --> 00:17:58,050 understand them. And that's why I'm always, like, 347 00:17:58,290 --> 00:18:00,690 quick to be like, yeah, that person's projecting onto me and 348 00:18:00,690 --> 00:18:02,050 I'm cool. Like, I'm cool with it. 349 00:18:02,050 --> 00:18:05,010 Like, I don't mind people asking a couple questions or something, 350 00:18:05,010 --> 00:18:07,570 but you can tell when someone, like, wants you to give them an 351 00:18:07,570 --> 00:18:09,850 answer that's, like, not really the answer. 352 00:18:10,090 --> 00:18:11,130 You know what I mean? Like. 353 00:18:11,580 --> 00:18:13,460 They'll keep asking you the same question. 354 00:18:13,460 --> 00:18:16,900 But like, even sometimes spirit, because I know what the answer 355 00:18:16,900 --> 00:18:17,260 is. Fear. 356 00:18:17,260 --> 00:18:18,620 It's like we don't want to go there right now. 357 00:18:18,620 --> 00:18:20,660 It's going to distract them. We're not going there. 358 00:18:20,660 --> 00:18:22,700 You know what I mean? And that's what we do. 359 00:18:22,700 --> 00:18:25,340 And and I've never had anyone be upset about that because they 360 00:18:25,380 --> 00:18:27,700 end up getting something really fulfilling out of the reading 361 00:18:27,940 --> 00:18:30,220 because we didn't go right to their trauma. 362 00:18:30,460 --> 00:18:32,220 And that's like that one girl that wanted to come on the 363 00:18:32,220 --> 00:18:33,820 podcast. Like, I don't want to talk about 364 00:18:33,820 --> 00:18:35,540 your trauma because we all have trauma. 365 00:18:35,900 --> 00:18:38,260 And I think that I want to talk about like the things that 366 00:18:38,260 --> 00:18:41,140 you're doing that bring joy to your life because like what you 367 00:18:41,140 --> 00:18:42,300 talk about. Cause what you attract. 368 00:18:42,300 --> 00:18:44,620 So if you talk shit about people, you attract people to 369 00:18:44,620 --> 00:18:51,380 talk about you and vice versa. Yeah, I think my favorite guests 370 00:18:51,380 --> 00:18:54,260 to this date that we've had on the podcast and probably will 371 00:18:54,260 --> 00:19:00,330 ever have has been VIP. That girl is so fucking solid. 372 00:19:00,610 --> 00:19:04,090 And like, we in our group chat the other day, I said it like 373 00:19:04,330 --> 00:19:06,850 she is the exact same person. When you talk to her on a 374 00:19:06,850 --> 00:19:09,730 podcast interview that she is on her Facebook that she is When 375 00:19:09,730 --> 00:19:13,410 you get her on a FaceTime, her character is always the exact 376 00:19:13,410 --> 00:19:16,410 same and her communication is so direct. 377 00:19:16,410 --> 00:19:19,650 Like, if you're going to do a project with Peach, she's going 378 00:19:19,650 --> 00:19:21,890 to be like, this is exactly how much it's going to cost. 379 00:19:21,890 --> 00:19:24,290 This is what my expectation is. This is where it's going. 380 00:19:24,290 --> 00:19:26,210 This is what's happening. This is how we're doing it. 381 00:19:26,210 --> 00:19:28,010 Are you or no? Oh, you're not in. 382 00:19:28,010 --> 00:19:30,090 I'm gonna figure it out by myself, cuz I'm a boss bitch. 383 00:19:30,130 --> 00:19:30,930 You know what I mean? Like. 384 00:19:30,930 --> 00:19:36,330 I love her because her character is like Golden is fuck. 385 00:19:36,370 --> 00:19:40,810 And the way that she portrays herself is just like so humble. 386 00:19:40,810 --> 00:19:43,530 But also like, I will shit on you and I will. 387 00:19:43,610 --> 00:19:46,210 I will do that. And you can't stop me. 388 00:19:46,890 --> 00:19:49,250 You could join me, but you're definitely not going to talk me 389 00:19:49,250 --> 00:19:51,330 like and that that rhymes because she makes me kind of 390 00:19:51,330 --> 00:19:53,130 want to rap about her. Don't kidding. 391 00:19:53,810 --> 00:19:57,210 She's just so cute and she's like really easy to like hype up 392 00:19:57,210 --> 00:20:00,490 because she is so sweet. And I feel like the way that 393 00:20:00,490 --> 00:20:06,690 she's also like very firm and assertive is amazing. 394 00:20:06,690 --> 00:20:08,850 Like all at the same time she can be all those things, you 395 00:20:08,850 --> 00:20:10,530 know what I mean? It's really cool to watch. 396 00:20:11,580 --> 00:20:16,300 I think it's beautiful too, to see a woman that is so sure of 397 00:20:16,300 --> 00:20:18,940 themselves and like where they're going and what they're 398 00:20:18,940 --> 00:20:21,460 doing. That there is there is 0 hold 399 00:20:21,460 --> 00:20:24,980 back on her repping herself out, her giving you a business card, 400 00:20:25,180 --> 00:20:28,340 her singing you a lullaby in the fucking park, her talking to you 401 00:20:28,340 --> 00:20:30,020 on the bus and giving you a like. 402 00:20:30,340 --> 00:20:34,260 When I hand somebody a business card now or a sticker, I'm 403 00:20:34,260 --> 00:20:38,300 always thinking of peeps. Like I don't hand out my own 404 00:20:38,300 --> 00:20:41,300 business card and not think like that bitch. 405 00:20:41,460 --> 00:20:45,060 It shows me networking. Honestly, facts. 406 00:20:45,340 --> 00:20:50,660 I found her card at a concert, so you know she wasn't even at 407 00:20:50,660 --> 00:20:54,270 that concert and whenever we. Like, really look at the nitty 408 00:20:54,270 --> 00:20:57,070 gritty of the whole situation. Like we were just destined to 409 00:20:57,110 --> 00:20:59,590 meet that girl, just like we were destined to me. 410 00:20:59,590 --> 00:21:01,830 Like, there's so much destiny unfolding when you let the 411 00:21:01,830 --> 00:21:04,510 universe work for you. Because I'll just be honest, I 412 00:21:04,510 --> 00:21:07,310 used to not have solid bitches in my life because I wasn't a 413 00:21:07,310 --> 00:21:10,110 solid bitch. I definitely had, like, I was 414 00:21:10,110 --> 00:21:12,150 more solid than the people I was around. 415 00:21:12,430 --> 00:21:15,910 But those people were always doing me dirty, which also like, 416 00:21:15,910 --> 00:21:18,190 gave me that vengeful, like revenge. 417 00:21:18,270 --> 00:21:22,310 I'm like one time I got that I used to like like and kind of 418 00:21:22,310 --> 00:21:24,590 date. I like found out he got herpes, 419 00:21:24,590 --> 00:21:26,550 which he did, but he was trying to give it to people. 420 00:21:26,550 --> 00:21:29,550 So of course being me like 19 year old me, I'm the one that 421 00:21:29,550 --> 00:21:32,350 gets on Facebook and it's just like Ting, Ting, Ting, Here's 422 00:21:32,350 --> 00:21:34,670 the results, here's the business, here's what's up. 423 00:21:34,830 --> 00:21:38,110 Because he was telling someone that he gave it to them and gave 424 00:21:38,110 --> 00:21:40,510 them like, you know, like he had to legally tell him like that's 425 00:21:40,510 --> 00:21:42,310 what's up. So I'm telling everyone because 426 00:21:42,310 --> 00:21:45,750 like that's not OK and I just like need I needed everyone to 427 00:21:45,750 --> 00:21:47,310 know that I'm sure I saved lives that day. 428 00:21:47,310 --> 00:21:49,390 Like, even though it was me, like looking like I was being a 429 00:21:49,430 --> 00:21:51,820 bitch, you know what I mean? I just felt like he wouldn't 430 00:21:51,820 --> 00:21:54,380 tell people till afterwards, clearly because he gave it 431 00:21:54,380 --> 00:21:56,860 small, you know what I mean? And there was like results with 432 00:21:56,860 --> 00:21:58,980 his name on it that says he has it, you know, And like that's 433 00:21:58,980 --> 00:22:01,700 not OK, you know that like you tell someone before. 434 00:22:02,020 --> 00:22:05,020 So, like, I've always been that very outspoken person, but it 435 00:22:05,020 --> 00:22:07,860 wasn't like, for the better good of every I mean, sometimes, but, 436 00:22:07,860 --> 00:22:10,420 like, in a vengeful way. You know what I mean? 437 00:22:10,980 --> 00:22:13,700 John Tucker must die. It's my life. 438 00:22:15,060 --> 00:22:17,060 You've seen that movie. I love that movie. 439 00:22:18,210 --> 00:22:20,850 I was just watching that with my stepdaughter while she was here. 440 00:22:20,850 --> 00:22:23,650 Oh my God. Speaking of her when she was 441 00:22:23,650 --> 00:22:26,050 here, this is going to take us on a total squirrel moment. 442 00:22:26,050 --> 00:22:27,410 We're going to be completely off track. 443 00:22:28,930 --> 00:22:32,290 When she was here, I told you that she wanted to go on a walk 444 00:22:32,290 --> 00:22:35,730 so I gave her pepper spray and you were like, oh, we need to 445 00:22:35,730 --> 00:22:46,250 talk about that on the podcast. So I am super hyper aware of, 446 00:22:46,250 --> 00:22:48,330 like, I'm a true crime fanatic, right? 447 00:22:48,330 --> 00:22:52,810 And I also as a kid was put in like really bad situations and 448 00:22:52,810 --> 00:22:55,210 allowed to do things that I should have never been allowed 449 00:22:55,210 --> 00:23:00,290 to do, but nobody cared. So she wanted to go on a walk 450 00:23:00,330 --> 00:23:04,370 with OK, she's my sisterinlaw, but she's 11 because my 451 00:23:04,370 --> 00:23:07,890 fatherinlaw decided he wanted to get fucking freak nasty later on 452 00:23:07,890 --> 00:23:10,450 in life too and had another round of kids. 453 00:23:10,610 --> 00:23:16,120 So my husband. Sister, my husband, Sister is 454 00:23:16,120 --> 00:23:20,360 the same age as his daughter. So they want to go on a walk 455 00:23:20,360 --> 00:23:22,160 together. And and it was starting to like, 456 00:23:22,160 --> 00:23:24,320 get dusk. And we're new to the 457 00:23:24,320 --> 00:23:26,360 neighborhood, so I don't know it very well yet. 458 00:23:26,600 --> 00:23:29,280 So I was like, here you can take pepper spray. 459 00:23:29,840 --> 00:23:32,520 And I was like, this is how you use pepper spray. 460 00:23:32,560 --> 00:23:34,840 So I'm in my kitchen. Like, you're going to lift this 461 00:23:34,840 --> 00:23:36,560 up. You're going to push this down. 462 00:23:36,720 --> 00:23:38,440 I'm like, you're going to want to go in a tea. 463 00:23:38,440 --> 00:23:42,640 So you go across their eyes and then you go up, like, up their 464 00:23:42,640 --> 00:23:45,880 nose and in their mouth like that It that's how you use 465 00:23:45,880 --> 00:23:47,680 pepper spray. Jesus Christ, save me. 466 00:23:48,080 --> 00:23:52,680 And so she was. So I told her that I was like, I 467 00:23:52,680 --> 00:23:54,480 was all you do the cross like you're praying. 468 00:23:54,480 --> 00:23:57,310 I'm like, that's what you do. She's like, okay, cool. 469 00:23:57,670 --> 00:24:00,150 So they leave. She's got her cell phone. 470 00:24:00,790 --> 00:24:05,470 And Brian had been like, she asked him and he goes, I don't 471 00:24:05,470 --> 00:24:07,550 know, ask your mom. And so they leave. 472 00:24:07,550 --> 00:24:09,150 And he goes, I was going to say no. 473 00:24:09,150 --> 00:24:12,510 You said yes. So I I I told them to ask you 474 00:24:12,510 --> 00:24:14,670 because I know you and I thought you would say no. 475 00:24:14,670 --> 00:24:16,830 I'm like, I'm trying to let them have some independence. 476 00:24:17,190 --> 00:24:23,040 And so they go on this walk and I'm over here like calling 477 00:24:23,040 --> 00:24:24,080 because it's starting to get dark. 478 00:24:24,080 --> 00:24:25,480 And she's not answering her phone. 479 00:24:26,120 --> 00:24:28,640 And I'm hearing, like, we have a lot of kids in the neighborhood, 480 00:24:28,640 --> 00:24:31,240 so there's always screaming. And so me, I'm like, hyper 481 00:24:31,240 --> 00:24:32,880 fixated on the screaming outside. 482 00:24:32,880 --> 00:24:35,160 And I'm like, it doesn't sound like her, but like, what? 483 00:24:35,160 --> 00:24:36,760 Is she screaming? And I'm not there. 484 00:24:37,160 --> 00:24:40,640 And so I'm like, I bet you she's on a fucking Snapchat video with 485 00:24:40,640 --> 00:24:42,080 her friend and she doesn't want to hang up. 486 00:24:42,080 --> 00:24:44,720 So I call her on Snapchat. She picks up. 487 00:24:44,720 --> 00:24:46,840 Hi Mom. I'm like, come home. 488 00:24:46,840 --> 00:24:50,340 She goes, well, I'm around the block, I said, but come home, 489 00:24:50,340 --> 00:24:54,260 it's getting dark And so she's like, okay, We'll start walking 490 00:24:54,260 --> 00:24:56,500 there in a minute. I'm standing outside. 491 00:24:56,500 --> 00:25:00,620 I'm wearing like, I think I I was wearing some pajamas. 492 00:25:00,620 --> 00:25:02,980 No shoes on. There's people outside. 493 00:25:03,300 --> 00:25:05,220 I'm in the front yard waiting for her. 494 00:25:05,220 --> 00:25:09,460 She comes up the road and I'm like, have you lost your fucking 495 00:25:09,460 --> 00:25:11,740 mind like that? You're going to tell me you're 496 00:25:11,740 --> 00:25:14,220 going to walk around the block and then you know that I'm 497 00:25:14,220 --> 00:25:18,580 fucking crazy and you're gone for like a good 40 minutes, not 498 00:25:18,580 --> 00:25:23,300 answering your phone. I was lit and she was on this. 499 00:25:23,300 --> 00:25:26,500 She wanted to watch these, like, true crime shows while she was 500 00:25:26,500 --> 00:25:28,060 here. And so I was like, yeah, we'll 501 00:25:28,060 --> 00:25:30,700 watch some true crime things. And she's watching these 502 00:25:30,700 --> 00:25:33,340 abduction things and these guys talking to these girls that 503 00:25:33,340 --> 00:25:35,860 they've abducted. And she's like, I don't get the 504 00:25:35,860 --> 00:25:38,300 big deal. They weren't that mean to her. 505 00:25:38,580 --> 00:25:43,540 And they let her have food and they let her go and so. 506 00:25:44,180 --> 00:25:46,500 I have never gone on a walk again. 507 00:25:47,210 --> 00:25:53,610 I was panicking in my soul. I'm like and I I'm like the 508 00:25:53,610 --> 00:25:57,570 helicopter parent and to the point that like when Max, God, 509 00:25:57,570 --> 00:26:00,170 mom was here over the weekend, she's like you have to let your 510 00:26:00,170 --> 00:26:03,770 kid go outside and like go play with friends and not be in your 511 00:26:03,770 --> 00:26:06,610 supervision because that's how he learns life skills. 512 00:26:07,170 --> 00:26:11,210 And I'm like, I don't know about, I don't know about that, 513 00:26:11,370 --> 00:26:15,250 that he could do that in the in the safety of his school and 514 00:26:15,250 --> 00:26:18,820 hope it's safe. Actually, no. 515 00:26:18,820 --> 00:26:20,820 He does need to go play with friends, because when I was a 516 00:26:20,820 --> 00:26:23,460 kid, I did play with friends. And you know, it's funny, I 517 00:26:23,460 --> 00:26:28,220 think that if kids want to make friends in their, like, 518 00:26:28,220 --> 00:26:30,100 neighborhood stuff, that's important. 519 00:26:30,780 --> 00:26:35,300 But I think that so many people do, like, let their kids just 520 00:26:35,300 --> 00:26:39,700 stay on TV or screens all day. And I think that's the worst. 521 00:26:41,070 --> 00:26:44,990 We we have little friends here. But like, my thing is if you're 522 00:26:44,990 --> 00:26:48,470 going to play outside, I need to be able to step outside and see 523 00:26:48,470 --> 00:26:51,590 you. And like, if I can't, then you 524 00:26:51,590 --> 00:26:53,590 need to be able to hear my voice when I call for you. 525 00:26:53,590 --> 00:26:56,510 Because if he's outside playing with his friends, I go outside 526 00:26:56,510 --> 00:27:00,510 like every 20-30 minutes. And I'm just like, Mac, are you 527 00:27:00,510 --> 00:27:01,830 good? Like, are you fine? 528 00:27:01,830 --> 00:27:04,070 You know, sometimes kids are assholes too, and you just want 529 00:27:04,070 --> 00:27:06,270 to come home and you're like, Nah, mom, I'm coming home. 530 00:27:06,270 --> 00:27:08,470 You know, like sometimes you need an out. 531 00:27:08,470 --> 00:27:11,520 He's only 7. I wouldn't let him go out by 532 00:27:11,600 --> 00:27:16,640 himself at 7:00. Our our neighborhood is really 533 00:27:16,640 --> 00:27:20,200 small and there's like a little duplex across the street with 534 00:27:20,200 --> 00:27:22,480 some kids. But they're mad at him. 535 00:27:22,520 --> 00:27:24,720 You want the tea? They're mad at him right now 536 00:27:24,720 --> 00:27:27,520 because he put chalk in this little boy's water and the 537 00:27:27,520 --> 00:27:29,680 little boy's sister said don't put chalk in there. 538 00:27:29,720 --> 00:27:32,160 And Mac was like, fuck you, I'm going to do it anyways because 539 00:27:32,160 --> 00:27:34,240 he was trying to play a prank on this little boy. 540 00:27:34,480 --> 00:27:36,160 So he put the chalk in the water. 541 00:27:36,160 --> 00:27:37,840 The boy didn't drink it or anything. 542 00:27:38,080 --> 00:27:42,370 The girl, it was livid and apparently was like, you could 543 00:27:42,370 --> 00:27:44,170 poison my brother, all this stuff. 544 00:27:44,410 --> 00:27:47,610 So he comes running inside, he's talking to me, we decide to go 545 00:27:47,610 --> 00:27:49,690 outside. The little girl's coming down 546 00:27:49,690 --> 00:27:52,210 her stairs across the street and she's like, my mom said that 547 00:27:52,210 --> 00:27:55,530 it's not toxic And I was like, so then are you guys good? 548 00:27:55,530 --> 00:27:59,810 And she's all, no, I'm going to remember this for actor and it's 549 00:27:59,810 --> 00:28:10,090 like, it's all good. So he's gone out like every day 550 00:28:10,090 --> 00:28:12,050 to see if kids are playing outside and the kids aren't 551 00:28:12,050 --> 00:28:14,850 playing outside and he's like, well. 552 00:28:16,650 --> 00:28:18,770 I'm going to remember this forever. 553 00:28:18,890 --> 00:28:20,050 That's awesome. I'm going to remember this 554 00:28:20,050 --> 00:28:22,890 forever. He said his first conflict with 555 00:28:22,890 --> 00:28:28,970 the A girl, he's like like, you know those those girls that are 556 00:28:28,970 --> 00:28:32,370 like, oh, don't worry if he's outside, I'll watch him. 557 00:28:32,450 --> 00:28:37,660 But he she's the same age that kind of like I got this and 558 00:28:37,660 --> 00:28:38,940 she's a little entrepreneur though. 559 00:28:38,940 --> 00:28:42,380 She's telling me how she's been saving up her money to start her 560 00:28:42,380 --> 00:28:46,860 own fudge business and she's going to make fudge and she's 561 00:28:46,860 --> 00:28:50,660 like, I've saved up $130.00 and that's less than I'm going to 562 00:28:50,660 --> 00:28:52,700 need for my materials. And so I'm going to be able to 563 00:28:52,700 --> 00:28:55,660 have 10% to put into savings to go towards my next batch. 564 00:28:55,660 --> 00:29:00,220 And I was like, okay. That's actually on point. 565 00:29:00,220 --> 00:29:03,380 The father is clean. Well, she'll watch him. 566 00:29:03,790 --> 00:29:09,030 If you know what I mean, you. Know what's funny is I do 567 00:29:09,030 --> 00:29:11,710 remember kids like that. When I was a kid, I hung out 568 00:29:11,710 --> 00:29:15,030 with all different age ranges, age ranges, because it was like 569 00:29:15,030 --> 00:29:18,030 a small town on a neighborhood. It was like a town the size of a 570 00:29:18,030 --> 00:29:22,510 neighborhood and there was not a lot of people to hang out with. 571 00:29:22,510 --> 00:29:26,990 So kind of had like a big age range, like my neighbor friend, 572 00:29:27,790 --> 00:29:29,510 too old, I can't leave. My mom let me hang out. 573 00:29:29,510 --> 00:29:33,150 These people these too old for me, I've never been. 574 00:29:33,660 --> 00:29:36,620 I would never be like 15 years old and be like you, a nine year 575 00:29:36,620 --> 00:29:37,580 old. I'm going to hang out with her 576 00:29:37,580 --> 00:29:40,820 because her mom's and their house is cool. 577 00:29:40,820 --> 00:29:42,900 And maybe like, I don't know, Like I have no clue. 578 00:29:42,900 --> 00:29:46,620 Like, I don't know. So here we are, my mom, she got 579 00:29:46,620 --> 00:29:48,780 free babysitting from everybody because everybody just like want 580 00:29:48,780 --> 00:29:49,700 to hang out with me. I don't know. 581 00:29:49,700 --> 00:29:52,260 I mean, I hung out like I was. I don't know, I guess that's 582 00:29:52,300 --> 00:29:55,300 just normal or maybe acting too old for my age. 583 00:29:55,300 --> 00:29:58,660 I was like, I'll watch him but one time, the funniest thing 584 00:29:58,660 --> 00:30:02,020 that you bring this up when I was about thirteen years old. 585 00:30:02,600 --> 00:30:07,480 My mom's friend who is a crazy lady, we will not name job, but 586 00:30:07,480 --> 00:30:11,920 this lady was crazy. She had two kids and I think at 587 00:30:11,920 --> 00:30:19,240 the time like they were like 10 and 15 and she was like really 588 00:30:19,240 --> 00:30:24,080 wanting my mom to see if I could babysit her kids because I was 589 00:30:24,080 --> 00:30:29,200 just like 1310 and 15 and she wanted the 13 year old to 590 00:30:29,200 --> 00:30:31,940 babysit them. That's weird as fuck I. 591 00:30:32,220 --> 00:30:35,300 Know I know She thought I was like at that time. 592 00:30:35,300 --> 00:30:37,140 You know what she told my mom? She was like. 593 00:30:37,180 --> 00:30:41,820 I thought Paige was like 16 or 17, cuz my mom was letting me 594 00:30:41,820 --> 00:30:44,780 act like her grown bestie. Well go you. 595 00:30:46,860 --> 00:30:50,540 I mean, that's why my that's why my stepdaughter acts like she's, 596 00:30:50,620 --> 00:30:55,690 you know, 18 going on, you know, whatever when she's 11. 597 00:30:55,690 --> 00:30:59,890 And when you have parents that treat you like their friend 598 00:30:59,890 --> 00:31:03,210 instead of and like their party buddy and their. 599 00:31:03,210 --> 00:31:06,570 I'll just take you here and we'll go do this instead of, you 600 00:31:06,570 --> 00:31:08,690 know, I have so many things I could say. 601 00:31:10,010 --> 00:31:14,290 Can I end that rant real quick? Because my blood boils at that 602 00:31:14,290 --> 00:31:16,090 topic and I'm like on one about it. 603 00:31:17,290 --> 00:31:19,530 I want to tell you about my little neighbor friend that I 604 00:31:19,530 --> 00:31:21,830 had. Do you have a neighbor friend? 605 00:31:22,310 --> 00:31:26,950 Well, I did when I was kid and her name was Destiny. 606 00:31:26,950 --> 00:31:27,790 Shout out. What's up? 607 00:31:27,790 --> 00:31:32,790 It was in Sacramento, CA. And I was never like she never 608 00:31:32,790 --> 00:31:34,070 would invite me over to her house. 609 00:31:34,070 --> 00:31:36,110 And then she invited me over one night. 610 00:31:36,430 --> 00:31:39,070 And I don't remember what we did, but I remember that they 611 00:31:39,070 --> 00:31:42,030 all shared one glass of milk at the table. 612 00:31:42,510 --> 00:31:47,010 And it was like a big deal for me to get like my own cup of 613 00:31:47,010 --> 00:31:49,770 water and not have like, communal stuff. 614 00:31:49,810 --> 00:31:51,530 And her dad wouldn't let me have milk. 615 00:31:51,530 --> 00:31:55,650 And I didn't understand. And I will try not to gag. 616 00:31:56,290 --> 00:31:58,490 They're all use the same cup of milk. 617 00:31:58,850 --> 00:32:01,170 And then at the end, if the milk wasn't gone, they would put it 618 00:32:01,170 --> 00:32:03,690 back into the jug. And that's why they didn't let 619 00:32:03,690 --> 00:32:05,770 me have milk. And they had me drink water. 620 00:32:05,770 --> 00:32:08,580 And it's because they would like, drink the same. 621 00:32:08,900 --> 00:32:12,180 And then we would like she wanted to write our secrets in 622 00:32:12,180 --> 00:32:14,180 our Diaries one time. And I don't remember what my 623 00:32:14,180 --> 00:32:15,900 secret was but it was something small. 624 00:32:15,900 --> 00:32:18,500 It was probably like I make out with my teddy bear when nobody's 625 00:32:18,500 --> 00:32:22,820 around or something weird. And she was like, I love the 626 00:32:22,820 --> 00:32:26,340 smell of my own pee and sometimes I'll just sit in the 627 00:32:26,340 --> 00:32:28,460 bathroom and smell my pee before I flush. 628 00:32:28,460 --> 00:32:31,820 I'll never forget that. And I stopped being able to hang 629 00:32:31,820 --> 00:32:33,820 out with her because she was playing with my Mary Kate and 630 00:32:33,820 --> 00:32:36,220 Ashley dolls in my bathroom at our apartment. 631 00:32:36,580 --> 00:32:40,720 And she flipped the one of the dolls over and was like, Oh my 632 00:32:40,720 --> 00:32:43,760 God, I don't like when you're looking at my alley like that. 633 00:32:44,080 --> 00:32:47,040 And I was like, what's an alley? And she goes, her vagina. 634 00:32:47,040 --> 00:32:50,400 And my mom busted in the bathroom and was like, you don't 635 00:32:50,400 --> 00:32:53,040 need to go home. And then she told me I couldn't 636 00:32:53,040 --> 00:32:56,120 hang out with her anymore. And my mom is like the quietest, 637 00:32:56,120 --> 00:33:01,360 most gentle fucking flower. Oh my gosh. 638 00:33:05,260 --> 00:33:07,300 What? That's that's why I was laughing 639 00:33:07,300 --> 00:33:09,460 while you were talking about like your little neighbor 640 00:33:09,460 --> 00:33:11,020 friend, because it just made me think of her. 641 00:33:11,020 --> 00:33:14,180 And then I was just thinking about my mom busted in that 642 00:33:14,180 --> 00:33:15,860 bathroom and I couldn't wait to tell you. 643 00:33:16,740 --> 00:33:21,740 You know what that's a living legendary story because that 644 00:33:21,740 --> 00:33:25,260 girl who knows where she ended up and that's terrible because 645 00:33:25,260 --> 00:33:28,850 when you. Like like you said, grow up 646 00:33:28,850 --> 00:33:30,730 around parents who treat you like their friend. 647 00:33:30,730 --> 00:33:35,410 It is extremely toxic for your mental health and it makes you a 648 00:33:35,410 --> 00:33:38,650 people pleaser and it makes you have like certain like lack of 649 00:33:38,650 --> 00:33:41,890 boundaries or self esteem and just different things And it's 650 00:33:41,930 --> 00:33:46,530 it's a different type of person that does that to their kid. 651 00:33:46,530 --> 00:33:48,410 And I lived it and I'm and I love my mom. 652 00:33:48,690 --> 00:33:51,810 But me being an only child and her being an only child, it was 653 00:33:51,810 --> 00:33:54,530 like I was her her bestie. You know what I mean? 654 00:33:54,530 --> 00:33:58,370 Like, I feel like that's why you understand so much. 655 00:33:58,370 --> 00:34:01,210 Like when I talk to you behind the scenes is because that's the 656 00:34:01,210 --> 00:34:03,970 same situation that she's in, You know what I mean? 657 00:34:03,970 --> 00:34:09,850 Like and so on. Like a soul sister level. 658 00:34:09,850 --> 00:34:12,969 Like, you know, I had never talked to you about anything 659 00:34:12,969 --> 00:34:16,210 that, you know, I've ever gone through with that and and with 660 00:34:16,210 --> 00:34:18,610 that side of things and with like the stepparent things and 661 00:34:18,610 --> 00:34:20,770 the situation with her and us and everything. 662 00:34:21,170 --> 00:34:25,940 And then once I did, I was like, oh, I can't believe we didn't 663 00:34:25,940 --> 00:34:28,340 talk about this before. Because just like mindsets that 664 00:34:28,340 --> 00:34:31,260 you have or like opinions that you have or thought processes 665 00:34:31,580 --> 00:34:36,460 that have helped me kind of calm down with the situation a little 666 00:34:36,460 --> 00:34:39,139 bit because you've been able to be like, I went through that 667 00:34:39,139 --> 00:34:41,139 with my mom. Like, this is probably what your 668 00:34:41,139 --> 00:34:43,139 daughter's feeling, or what she's going through and how 669 00:34:43,139 --> 00:34:44,980 she's handling it and how you can help. 670 00:34:46,030 --> 00:34:48,830 Yeah, I love that. And you know, honestly, it's 671 00:34:48,830 --> 00:34:51,710 like a difficult age because like what you said, she's 11. 672 00:34:51,710 --> 00:34:53,830 That was like, right around the time that the trauma really, 673 00:34:53,830 --> 00:34:57,310 like, kicked into high gear, like getting part of my life. 674 00:34:57,310 --> 00:35:00,870 My mom, like, was pretty like attentive and like there. 675 00:35:00,870 --> 00:35:04,230 But then whenever she hit her, like midlife crisis and think 676 00:35:04,230 --> 00:35:06,790 like around the time she turned like 40 or whatever, it was like 677 00:35:06,990 --> 00:35:09,430 poof. And she went next fucking level 678 00:35:09,430 --> 00:35:11,550 into a different person. And then, like, she's just 679 00:35:11,550 --> 00:35:13,860 never. Like, you know what I mean? 680 00:35:13,860 --> 00:35:16,740 Like it just, it was different And I like moved in my dad 681 00:35:16,940 --> 00:35:18,740 straight up. So that's why I, like, know this 682 00:35:18,740 --> 00:35:21,580 will work out because it's like literally, vicariously the same 683 00:35:21,580 --> 00:35:24,500 thing that happened to me. Like right before high school, I 684 00:35:24,540 --> 00:35:26,820 moved in with my dad. And like, that was basically 685 00:35:26,820 --> 00:35:29,300 that All everything's history, you know what I mean? 686 00:35:29,300 --> 00:35:34,140 Like and it's just crazy. That's the best thing that could 687 00:35:34,140 --> 00:35:38,860 happen. Like is her being here with us 688 00:35:38,900 --> 00:35:42,580 and something that like I trust that the universe like takes 689 00:35:42,580 --> 00:35:46,380 care of things. Like I've always said that I've 690 00:35:46,380 --> 00:35:49,940 never had to drag anybody down in the situation because spirits 691 00:35:49,940 --> 00:35:51,860 always going to handle it the way that it needs to be had. 692 00:35:51,860 --> 00:35:55,960 And you know I think that whether about this situation or 693 00:35:55,960 --> 00:35:59,280 other situations, you know people, a lot of people don't 694 00:35:59,280 --> 00:36:02,520 believe in like karma or things coming back around or whatever. 695 00:36:02,760 --> 00:36:06,200 But eventually and and we can get really frustrated at like 696 00:36:06,280 --> 00:36:08,960 this person's not getting what like they deserve. 697 00:36:09,320 --> 00:36:13,880 And I just think that we put judgment and timelines on what 698 00:36:13,880 --> 00:36:17,240 should happen to other people and we want them to get some 699 00:36:17,240 --> 00:36:20,040 kind of like justice. Like, we want justice for 700 00:36:20,040 --> 00:36:25,740 something, but when you move in a bad way, that eventually comes 701 00:36:25,740 --> 00:36:27,580 back up to you. Like you don't have to believe 702 00:36:27,580 --> 00:36:31,060 in like, the tenfold rule or whatever for it's for you to 703 00:36:31,060 --> 00:36:34,100 believe things come back to you. If you treat people in life like 704 00:36:34,100 --> 00:36:39,100 a shitty person and you don't do the right thing, people take 705 00:36:39,100 --> 00:36:42,340 note of that and you eventually pay for that consequence. 706 00:36:42,340 --> 00:36:45,900 If you're neglecting a kid, eventually it gets brought out 707 00:36:45,900 --> 00:36:49,820 that you're neglecting. If you are stealing from your 708 00:36:49,820 --> 00:36:52,860 job, eventually they find out that you've been stealing. 709 00:36:53,020 --> 00:36:54,600 You know what I mean? Yeah. 710 00:36:54,600 --> 00:36:57,480 And that's so true. And I don't even really pay 711 00:36:57,480 --> 00:36:59,200 attention to what other people are doing. 712 00:36:59,200 --> 00:37:01,760 And I also like, want to lift people up. 713 00:37:01,760 --> 00:37:05,200 And I like, I love that about you because we don't even really 714 00:37:05,200 --> 00:37:07,040 talk about her. We only really talk about your 715 00:37:07,040 --> 00:37:08,880 daughter, what she's going through. 716 00:37:08,880 --> 00:37:11,880 And like, how the person is like projecting that onto her. 717 00:37:12,120 --> 00:37:13,760 But never once. Like almost like, I have 718 00:37:13,760 --> 00:37:17,280 compassion because it's like, you know, like to even be able 719 00:37:17,280 --> 00:37:20,160 to forgive my own mom and and me and her to have a bond, you know 720 00:37:20,160 --> 00:37:21,920 what I mean? Like it took a lot of. 721 00:37:22,330 --> 00:37:24,850 Compassion and understanding that she was just a person 722 00:37:25,130 --> 00:37:28,570 dealing with her own unhealed trauma and suppressing it with 723 00:37:28,570 --> 00:37:32,090 drugs and alcohol and, you know, partying and all the things that 724 00:37:32,090 --> 00:37:34,170 get you nowhere. And if you party all through 725 00:37:34,170 --> 00:37:37,330 your 30s, I promise you when you turn 40, you're going to lose 726 00:37:37,330 --> 00:37:39,810 your shit. So if you're just now turning 30 727 00:37:39,810 --> 00:37:42,170 or you're getting close, you're like, oh, that won't happen to 728 00:37:42,170 --> 00:37:45,210 me, blah, blah, blah. If you're still partying at 35 729 00:37:45,210 --> 00:37:49,050 and I'm talking like tailgating bars, you know, always need to 730 00:37:49,050 --> 00:37:51,330 have drinks with dinner etcetera, etcetera, etcetera, 731 00:37:51,330 --> 00:37:53,530 like you're out more. Nights of the week than not. 732 00:37:53,730 --> 00:37:55,370 Or drinking more nights of the week. 733 00:37:55,370 --> 00:37:57,130 You don't have to be out, baby, because you're like, oh, I don't 734 00:37:57,130 --> 00:37:58,850 go out. Yeah, because you just drink at 735 00:37:58,850 --> 00:38:01,370 home because it's cheaper. So that's almost worse, you know 736 00:38:01,370 --> 00:38:03,010 what I mean? Like, at least the other people 737 00:38:03,010 --> 00:38:04,730 know. Like, I can't get too fucked up 738 00:38:05,010 --> 00:38:06,650 because I have to drive, You know what I mean? 739 00:38:06,650 --> 00:38:09,810 Like it might be social for them, but either way, however 740 00:38:09,810 --> 00:38:13,730 you define it, social or practical or daily or habitual, 741 00:38:13,730 --> 00:38:17,730 whatever you want to say, it will unfold where your body 742 00:38:17,730 --> 00:38:19,850 starts breaking down. You aren't. 743 00:38:20,180 --> 00:38:22,820 In your 20s anymore? Like every day is turns into a 744 00:38:22,820 --> 00:38:26,300 head out hangover or headache or a migraine. 745 00:38:26,300 --> 00:38:29,580 My favorite is when people that are like pushing 40 still do 746 00:38:29,580 --> 00:38:32,220 hard drugs and they have migraines all the time. 747 00:38:32,500 --> 00:38:36,260 Yeah baby, when you do drugs all the time and then you come down 748 00:38:36,260 --> 00:38:41,340 back to earth with us and you're pushing 3738, yeah, I'm sure you 749 00:38:41,340 --> 00:38:43,940 have a migraine 24/7. And no, it's not clinically. 750 00:38:44,560 --> 00:38:47,640 Diagnosable, except the fact that you're on an up, down, up, 751 00:38:47,640 --> 00:38:49,360 down schedule. You know what I mean? 752 00:38:49,360 --> 00:38:53,640 And like, those are meth grains. What I said. 753 00:38:53,640 --> 00:38:55,520 Those aren't migraines. Those are meth grains. 754 00:38:58,000 --> 00:39:01,800 Put that on a T-shirt, put that you're pipe and smoke it. 755 00:39:03,760 --> 00:39:07,280 You know, I love that because I watched. 756 00:39:08,140 --> 00:39:10,820 The same situation to me. And I was so much better off 757 00:39:10,820 --> 00:39:13,300 when I moved in with my dad because it was like I went from 758 00:39:13,300 --> 00:39:17,900 bestie to like my dad does not fucking play, Like my dad does 759 00:39:17,900 --> 00:39:21,220 not fucking play. And his parenting skills are 760 00:39:21,580 --> 00:39:25,540 military style and like, I went from the frat house. 761 00:39:26,030 --> 00:39:30,670 To Military House, like boarding school type shit, like bedtimes 762 00:39:30,670 --> 00:39:33,550 and curfews and things I've never been exposed to. 763 00:39:33,550 --> 00:39:36,590 That is like not like, that's like normal shit. 764 00:39:36,710 --> 00:39:39,670 You're like, it's like boot camp because I have a bedtime and a 765 00:39:39,750 --> 00:39:43,070 curfew. I felt like it was boot camp 766 00:39:43,790 --> 00:39:46,430 because I went from being just balls in the mall. 767 00:39:46,430 --> 00:39:49,390 Like I just don't even know how like. 768 00:39:49,840 --> 00:39:52,360 I personally have preserved through some of the things that 769 00:39:52,360 --> 00:39:55,880 I have like went through as a kid because every door, it was 770 00:39:55,880 --> 00:39:58,080 just like, bad path, bad path, bad path. 771 00:39:58,080 --> 00:40:00,440 Like it was just like I kept going through those doors. 772 00:40:00,440 --> 00:40:02,520 You know what I mean? It wasn't that I didn't have 773 00:40:02,520 --> 00:40:05,160 other options. It was just like I was exposed 774 00:40:05,160 --> 00:40:08,120 to all this stuff and like these people and like growing up where 775 00:40:08,120 --> 00:40:10,440 I grew up. I'm not namedropping, but it's 776 00:40:10,440 --> 00:40:12,360 like a place that like literally. 777 00:40:12,880 --> 00:40:15,240 Most of the people there, like there's more stop signs and 778 00:40:15,240 --> 00:40:16,520 there's teeth and things like that. 779 00:40:16,520 --> 00:40:19,440 Like people don't, they don't take care of their hygiene, like 780 00:40:19,440 --> 00:40:20,960 there's not a lot going on there. 781 00:40:21,240 --> 00:40:24,600 And if you still live there, you do drugs, you you cook drugs, 782 00:40:24,600 --> 00:40:26,160 you do drugs, whatever you do like. 783 00:40:27,480 --> 00:40:33,840 About my hometown Sosa, my cat Sosa. 784 00:40:34,240 --> 00:40:37,960 But he the people down there and like the things I grew up 785 00:40:37,960 --> 00:40:42,490 around, it's just like every door was leading to something 786 00:40:42,490 --> 00:40:44,370 crazy. And I remember that like even 787 00:40:44,370 --> 00:40:48,090 when I moved away from there, at times I would go back and hang 788 00:40:48,090 --> 00:40:51,450 out with those people and like go hang out in those trailers 789 00:40:51,450 --> 00:40:54,650 and just like crazy ass trailer park. 790 00:40:54,650 --> 00:40:58,570 Just like for absolutely no reason other than I had a death 791 00:40:58,570 --> 00:40:59,570 wish. You know what I mean? 792 00:40:59,570 --> 00:41:02,450 Like I had gotten out of that place and then would drive the 793 00:41:02,490 --> 00:41:05,530 hour and a half from the city to like go out there. 794 00:41:05,530 --> 00:41:09,110 And like one time, this is the funniest fucking story. 795 00:41:09,390 --> 00:41:12,510 I took a bunch of people from the city down there, and I 796 00:41:12,510 --> 00:41:16,470 should not have done that because the police woke up from 797 00:41:16,470 --> 00:41:18,830 there like they were sleeping at their house. 798 00:41:18,950 --> 00:41:22,710 Someone called the police that we were having a party in my 799 00:41:22,870 --> 00:41:25,950 old, like, abandoned house, like where my mom and them had like 800 00:41:25,950 --> 00:41:28,790 at the house foreclosed and like weren't paying the bills and the 801 00:41:28,790 --> 00:41:30,310 grass was all grown up, All the things. 802 00:41:30,750 --> 00:41:34,290 I was having a party there and I had already done it a few times, 803 00:41:34,290 --> 00:41:36,450 so I didn't think it was going to be a problem like. 804 00:41:36,930 --> 00:41:41,010 So I invited a lot of people and I don't know why I did that in a 805 00:41:41,010 --> 00:41:43,170 town that literally chirps crickets like. 806 00:41:43,570 --> 00:41:48,970 So the police made like 20-3 people walk to the police 807 00:41:48,970 --> 00:41:51,770 station and like lock people up, called people's parents. 808 00:41:51,770 --> 00:41:54,050 I've never seen people's parents so mad. 809 00:41:54,250 --> 00:41:56,850 Some of the people that are there like not even alive now 810 00:41:57,050 --> 00:41:59,370 because that that's the path they ended up on, you know what 811 00:41:59,370 --> 00:41:59,890 I mean? Like. 812 00:42:00,730 --> 00:42:02,090 Their parent killed him that night. 813 00:42:02,090 --> 00:42:04,640 Yeah. Because it was fucking wild. 814 00:42:04,800 --> 00:42:06,400 It was. And you know, some of these 815 00:42:06,400 --> 00:42:09,840 things that I went through, like I was like 14 or 15. 816 00:42:09,840 --> 00:42:11,880 I was probably 15. I think I was like a sophomore 817 00:42:11,880 --> 00:42:13,280 in high school this year that year. 818 00:42:13,640 --> 00:42:16,160 And there was people that went to like big boy jail that were 819 00:42:16,160 --> 00:42:18,800 like over 18 and got in big trouble for hanging out kids. 820 00:42:19,120 --> 00:42:21,560 Like a bunch of them. People like, like, I don't know 821 00:42:21,560 --> 00:42:23,960 if that puts you on the sex offender list, but if you're 822 00:42:23,960 --> 00:42:26,920 like doing drugs and partying with kids and then you go to 823 00:42:26,920 --> 00:42:30,800 jail, I think it does. Dude, no, but. 824 00:42:31,200 --> 00:42:35,960 On a serious note, the amount like because I look back on like 825 00:42:35,960 --> 00:42:39,080 my teenagers, when I think about parties and stuff, I'm like, 826 00:42:39,280 --> 00:42:41,640 Yep, it was because I was interested in older boys. 827 00:42:42,040 --> 00:42:46,920 And it was always like, yeah, I remember this one time, I was 828 00:42:46,920 --> 00:42:48,800 super into this guy. It was my friend's brother and I 829 00:42:48,800 --> 00:42:52,560 was like super into him. He was hella cute and I went to 830 00:42:52,560 --> 00:42:54,720 the store with my dad and he was out of high school at this 831 00:42:54,720 --> 00:42:58,000 point, but I was in high school and. 832 00:42:58,480 --> 00:43:01,240 He was just sitting outside of Safeway with his friends at like 833 00:43:01,240 --> 00:43:03,080 a table and I was like, Oh my God, Dad. 834 00:43:03,080 --> 00:43:06,800 Like he's here. And my dad's all hell aloud in 835 00:43:06,800 --> 00:43:09,280 the parking lot where we're walking and what a fucking loser 836 00:43:09,280 --> 00:43:12,320 who hangs out at Safeway after they're graduated high school 837 00:43:12,320 --> 00:43:17,240 and doesn't have a fucking job. Oh my God, That's. 838 00:43:18,720 --> 00:43:23,880 My God, I was mortified. I and because like my dad's 839 00:43:23,880 --> 00:43:27,140 usually. More laid back and like an 840 00:43:27,140 --> 00:43:31,420 observer of things. And so I just say, OK, the times 841 00:43:31,420 --> 00:43:34,780 that I've seen my parents act out of pocket has been because 842 00:43:34,780 --> 00:43:37,100 of me. Clearly like my mom out of 843 00:43:37,100 --> 00:43:41,780 pocket, I made my dad go out of like, irritating my dad is 844 00:43:41,780 --> 00:43:46,300 something that I have just thrived on my entire life, My 845 00:43:46,300 --> 00:43:49,620 stepdad and I just, I don't. I don't know what it's been, but 846 00:43:49,620 --> 00:43:52,950 I've always just been like. You want to fight? 847 00:43:52,950 --> 00:43:54,670 I don't know. I love him to death. 848 00:43:54,710 --> 00:43:57,710 But also I just. I make him act out of character. 849 00:43:57,710 --> 00:44:03,630 When I was younger, Jim and I, the rebel page, the crazy one, 850 00:44:04,190 --> 00:44:08,550 no, I don't know what, what, like, I actually was in my head 851 00:44:08,550 --> 00:44:11,670 as a young child. I thought I was invincible. 852 00:44:12,070 --> 00:44:15,950 I don't know about friend like we were to definitely been fine 853 00:44:15,950 --> 00:44:20,750 because you never know. But people that I grew up with 854 00:44:20,790 --> 00:44:23,530 are not OK. They're not fine. 855 00:44:24,250 --> 00:44:29,650 Like, unfortunately, the crazy thing is, is a lot of people 856 00:44:30,650 --> 00:44:33,750 lose their shit in those illusions like that you're 857 00:44:33,750 --> 00:44:36,430 taught and you have to fight to break free of that. 858 00:44:36,430 --> 00:44:39,230 Like you're not that type of parent, like, or, you know, 859 00:44:39,230 --> 00:44:41,310 like, you know, your stepdaughters being exposed to 860 00:44:41,310 --> 00:44:44,390 all this stuff and it's like you can't even understand it or 861 00:44:44,390 --> 00:44:46,670 fathom it, you know what I mean? And then there's still like this 862 00:44:46,670 --> 00:44:50,710 argument there or like this, like I'm doing fine and don't 863 00:44:50,710 --> 00:44:52,710 ask about my stuff, you know what I mean? 864 00:44:52,710 --> 00:44:55,030 Like this anger, like being directed towards you and you're 865 00:44:55,030 --> 00:44:57,470 just trying to do like what you feel is the right thing. 866 00:44:57,470 --> 00:44:59,750 You know what I mean? And I feel like that's exactly 867 00:44:59,750 --> 00:45:01,390 how it was with my mom and dad growing up. 868 00:45:01,470 --> 00:45:04,830 And like, when you bring your children into like, adult 869 00:45:04,830 --> 00:45:08,310 problems, like that's where you're like, it's not healthy. 870 00:45:08,310 --> 00:45:12,430 It's not healthy, like for them to know parental problems and 871 00:45:12,550 --> 00:45:14,990 and problems with money and bills and things like that. 872 00:45:14,990 --> 00:45:18,110 And like I was exposed. To never be exposed to 873 00:45:18,190 --> 00:45:24,030 conversations about child support, about custody, about. 874 00:45:24,520 --> 00:45:28,440 Any of that, like they those shouldn't be things that you're 875 00:45:28,760 --> 00:45:32,200 if you have a parent coming to you with concerns, something 876 00:45:32,200 --> 00:45:35,200 that the kids have said it should never be redirected to 877 00:45:35,200 --> 00:45:37,440 the kids about. How dare you say that it should 878 00:45:37,440 --> 00:45:41,480 be a conversation, maybe in private with your kid about like 879 00:45:41,880 --> 00:45:43,880 what's going on that's making you feel that way. 880 00:45:43,880 --> 00:45:46,880 Because if you're genuinely not doing something, you're not 881 00:45:46,880 --> 00:45:50,000 going to have a problem with the fact that your kid is speaking 882 00:45:50,880 --> 00:45:53,520 well. I grew up with the Child Support 883 00:45:53,950 --> 00:45:57,190 conversation constantly. My dad like loving to death, but 884 00:45:57,190 --> 00:46:01,070 he fucking told me every time he saw me that he gave my mom child 885 00:46:01,070 --> 00:46:03,510 support every week. Like every time I saw him. 886 00:46:03,510 --> 00:46:05,910 And I'm just like, I'm seven, you know what I mean? 887 00:46:05,910 --> 00:46:07,270 Like I don't. Give a fuck. 888 00:46:07,350 --> 00:46:10,790 I don't give a fuck. It's just one of those things 889 00:46:10,790 --> 00:46:15,510 that like I personally, as an adult don't even want to have a 890 00:46:15,510 --> 00:46:18,560 child if I'm not with someone that I don't plan on being with. 891 00:46:18,880 --> 00:46:21,120 I think people just be having kids with people because they 892 00:46:21,120 --> 00:46:24,160 want to control them, people that they want to like, 893 00:46:24,160 --> 00:46:27,400 manipulate sometimes. And then they use that kid as 894 00:46:27,400 --> 00:46:30,080 like the pawn or use the kid as like the thing. 895 00:46:30,080 --> 00:46:33,120 And I don't like that energy, You know, like that's just very 896 00:46:33,120 --> 00:46:37,480 traumatic for a child. And I personally, like, have 897 00:46:37,480 --> 00:46:41,080 seen people that have tried to date me that have like all these 898 00:46:41,440 --> 00:46:43,360 baby Mama issues and I'm just like, Nope. 899 00:46:43,560 --> 00:46:46,640 Instantly it's like, Nope. And then another thing that 900 00:46:46,640 --> 00:46:50,360 turns me off in a way is like, when you have a bunch of 901 00:46:50,480 --> 00:46:54,560 different baby moms and then you talk shit with all of them and 902 00:46:54,560 --> 00:46:56,800 they all have drama. It's just like, that's even more 903 00:46:56,800 --> 00:46:59,440 tacky because then it's like you want to bring me into your drama 904 00:46:59,440 --> 00:47:01,120 circle. It's not even like you're like, 905 00:47:01,120 --> 00:47:02,480 oh, I get along with my baby moms. 906 00:47:02,480 --> 00:47:06,440 It's like 90 things going on. I'm like, so I don't know. 907 00:47:06,440 --> 00:47:07,640 I just be staying in my lane with that. 908 00:47:07,640 --> 00:47:09,720 And another thing, like, I've dated people with kids in the 909 00:47:09,720 --> 00:47:14,410 past, and then you get attached to their kids and then when they 910 00:47:14,410 --> 00:47:16,530 leave, and you know what I mean? Like you don't see those kids 911 00:47:16,530 --> 00:47:17,930 anymore. They're not your kids kind of 912 00:47:17,930 --> 00:47:19,730 thing. And that's traumatic, too, for 913 00:47:19,730 --> 00:47:26,330 the kid and for me. I am one of those people who 914 00:47:26,330 --> 00:47:30,090 just believes firmly that you shouldn't just introduce your 915 00:47:30,090 --> 00:47:37,370 kid to anybody and that there should be like, really, that 916 00:47:37,370 --> 00:47:39,410 there should just be different boundaries, like. 917 00:47:40,020 --> 00:47:42,060 I don't know. Maybe that's just me. 918 00:47:42,060 --> 00:47:44,620 I say that. But like, my stepdaughter was on 919 00:47:44,620 --> 00:47:47,740 our first date when we went on our first date, and that was 920 00:47:47,740 --> 00:47:51,180 because he had her full time. And so in order for us to go 921 00:47:51,180 --> 00:47:54,300 out, she had to go out too. And that was, he didn't have 922 00:47:54,300 --> 00:47:56,900 somebody to just have her. He had her full time. 923 00:47:57,300 --> 00:48:01,580 And but I'm also the only person that he's ever dated other than 924 00:48:01,820 --> 00:48:03,620 her mom. And then, you know, we ended up 925 00:48:03,620 --> 00:48:07,380 being married and stuff. But I think that there are. 926 00:48:09,300 --> 00:48:15,140 There are people who just be bringing out any fucking Dick, 927 00:48:15,140 --> 00:48:19,660 Harry, Ron, Harold and are just like, hey, not only are we 928 00:48:19,660 --> 00:48:21,780 moving in together, but this is her family. 929 00:48:22,580 --> 00:48:25,700 We're going to be up. He's so that we're going to 930 00:48:25,700 --> 00:48:28,220 we're going to be the happy family together. 931 00:48:28,380 --> 00:48:30,940 I'm actually watching that unfold on Facebook with two 932 00:48:30,940 --> 00:48:33,340 people I don't know right now. Like I'm was friends with the 933 00:48:33,340 --> 00:48:36,180 guy and he would always try to slide and I don't know him. 934 00:48:36,180 --> 00:48:38,180 But it's one of those people that you can just tell that 935 00:48:38,180 --> 00:48:41,500 their life is like a shit show and that they're on drugs and 936 00:48:41,500 --> 00:48:44,020 then it's just like kind of like a spiral all the time. 937 00:48:44,340 --> 00:48:45,980 And it's kind of interesting to watch. 938 00:48:45,980 --> 00:48:48,520 So I've just kind of like watched from afar. 939 00:48:48,520 --> 00:48:51,040 I wouldn't have known who he was if he wasn't like messaging me 940 00:48:51,040 --> 00:48:53,240 though, you know what I mean? It's just like once he started 941 00:48:53,240 --> 00:48:55,920 doing that, I started paying attention to him a little bit. 942 00:48:55,920 --> 00:49:00,160 Not like messaging him back, but like his stories and some of his 943 00:49:00,160 --> 00:49:03,800 compulsive, like drug rant statuses that you can just tell 944 00:49:03,800 --> 00:49:08,200 that people are like doing crazy things, you know? 945 00:49:08,560 --> 00:49:11,880 And he got with this girl like, I don't know, maybe 2-3 months 946 00:49:11,880 --> 00:49:13,880 ago now. And within the first two weeks 947 00:49:13,880 --> 00:49:16,920 he got a huge tattoo on the side of his neck with her name. 948 00:49:17,580 --> 00:49:20,260 I'm talking massive. Like huge. 949 00:49:20,300 --> 00:49:24,140 Her name is like this big and he'll post it like she is my 950 00:49:24,140 --> 00:49:26,140 queen. We are here forever. 951 00:49:26,220 --> 00:49:29,180 You will never stop us. Then and now in his bio it says 952 00:49:29,460 --> 00:49:35,700 I love this girl, I love her kids, That is my queen and I am 953 00:49:35,700 --> 00:49:42,560 her blue eyed king and it's just it's the most interesting thing 954 00:49:42,680 --> 00:49:44,600 to watch. I have never been more 955 00:49:44,600 --> 00:49:49,760 entertained by something in. This city before it's wild. 956 00:49:49,760 --> 00:49:52,520 And then remember that group I mentioned that are we dating the 957 00:49:52,520 --> 00:49:56,240 same guy? He posted in there anonymously 958 00:49:56,480 --> 00:49:59,720 and the girl said my friend started dating him and I'm 959 00:49:59,720 --> 00:50:02,320 trying to see something. I'm getting bad vibes. 960 00:50:02,320 --> 00:50:05,450 But she's loving him. Please help ladies. 961 00:50:05,650 --> 00:50:08,690 And people were like, that dude's been on drugs forever. 962 00:50:08,690 --> 00:50:10,850 That dude is this. This dude is that. 963 00:50:10,850 --> 00:50:13,690 And so they were riding him out. And I don't know dude. 964 00:50:13,690 --> 00:50:16,890 I'll just know he's added me. He's and even now he still is in 965 00:50:16,890 --> 00:50:18,890 my story likes and just different things. 966 00:50:18,890 --> 00:50:22,650 Like he's not like obviously being faithful to her probably, 967 00:50:22,650 --> 00:50:24,370 but he's like love bombing the shit of her. 968 00:50:24,650 --> 00:50:27,050 So I saw that they went on a vacation instantly. 969 00:50:27,050 --> 00:50:29,570 Like just went on a vacation with the kids, with her kids, 970 00:50:30,030 --> 00:50:34,190 and you can tell like her son is like probably like 14 and he 971 00:50:34,190 --> 00:50:36,550 doesn't look happy and then her daughter's probably like eight 972 00:50:36,550 --> 00:50:39,910 or nine or something. So in the picture the kids look 973 00:50:39,910 --> 00:50:41,790 mad. Well then like 2 weeks later he 974 00:50:41,790 --> 00:50:44,710 bought them a pool, like a nice pool for their house. 975 00:50:44,710 --> 00:50:46,590 Got it. He installed it and did all this 976 00:50:46,590 --> 00:50:48,950 and now the kids love him. Every picture. 977 00:50:48,950 --> 00:50:51,110 It looks like they are just thriving. 978 00:50:51,510 --> 00:50:54,990 I'm like he bought the kids too. Like he got her name tattooed 979 00:50:55,230 --> 00:50:57,310 within the first three weeks of knowing her. 980 00:50:57,590 --> 00:51:00,590 Within a month and 1/2 he had put a pool at her crib, 981 00:51:01,430 --> 00:51:03,030 landscaped it. It looked nice. 982 00:51:03,510 --> 00:51:04,710 It did. I don't know why I was. 983 00:51:04,710 --> 00:51:06,310 Like, I think that sounds like love. 984 00:51:06,310 --> 00:51:09,470 Like maybe she's popping up with me and it's real fucking good 985 00:51:09,470 --> 00:51:11,630 and he's like, you know what? You deserve a fucking pool for 986 00:51:11,630 --> 00:51:14,170 you and those babies. Okay. 987 00:51:14,170 --> 00:51:18,770 Well, I think she's doing something crazy because people 988 00:51:18,770 --> 00:51:23,650 on that group were saying a lot and it wasn't good and I just 989 00:51:23,650 --> 00:51:26,370 think it sounds. Like I love my hometown group, 990 00:51:26,370 --> 00:51:32,210 man, because like it's the same like small town fucking bullshit 991 00:51:32,530 --> 00:51:35,450 and there will be arguments about like they. 992 00:51:36,030 --> 00:51:41,070 They're redoing the cafe downtown and they're going to be 993 00:51:41,070 --> 00:51:43,350 updating it or whatever, and you'll have people in the 994 00:51:43,350 --> 00:51:47,390 comments fucking arguing it's because of Trump, it's because 995 00:51:47,390 --> 00:51:50,710 of Biden, blah, blah blah. Everything's so expensive. 996 00:51:50,710 --> 00:51:52,670 We're not going to have any money for the roads. 997 00:51:52,670 --> 00:51:57,430 Like, freaking out and Oh my God, the stuff that you get in 998 00:51:57,430 --> 00:52:00,630 your small town chats. Yes, yes, yes. 999 00:52:01,150 --> 00:52:04,220 It's crazy. It's a crazy world in the world 1000 00:52:04,220 --> 00:52:06,300 that we live in. I just like to observe. 1001 00:52:06,540 --> 00:52:08,740 Maybe they are in love, Who knows? 1002 00:52:09,060 --> 00:52:13,380 Maybe you should stay out of my story likes stop 10 times for 1003 00:52:13,380 --> 00:52:16,540 reacting my story because I can see. 1004 00:52:16,540 --> 00:52:19,340 It they're always, they're always in the fucking story, but 1005 00:52:19,340 --> 00:52:22,980 never in public post. You know, it's funny on 1006 00:52:22,980 --> 00:52:27,300 Facebook, like I can get like 2000 views on a story and then 1007 00:52:28,100 --> 00:52:31,260 most of the dudes that heart react or thumbs it up or react 1008 00:52:31,260 --> 00:52:36,780 to it are married or XYZ. So like all the single people 1009 00:52:36,780 --> 00:52:39,260 looked at this. It was like we good And then all 1010 00:52:39,260 --> 00:52:41,740 the married people are like, that's the one, that one. 1011 00:52:42,500 --> 00:52:44,260 That's my girl. I mean that. 1012 00:52:44,540 --> 00:52:48,340 Girl, they're they're liking it so they can get a cosplay of you 1013 00:52:48,340 --> 00:52:51,100 done by their spouse. You know there are porn stars 1014 00:52:51,100 --> 00:52:53,660 that do that. They'll like, send your spouse 1015 00:52:53,660 --> 00:52:56,740 like video. You should be like, hey, it's. 1016 00:52:57,730 --> 00:52:59,530 You know fucking Dominic's birthday? 1017 00:52:59,530 --> 00:53:01,970 Can you send him a picture of you twiddling your Twitter? 1018 00:53:01,970 --> 00:53:06,170 And they're like, Oh my God, yeah, yeah, you know, a lot of 1019 00:53:06,210 --> 00:53:09,850 people like those cameo like personalized videos. 1020 00:53:11,050 --> 00:53:13,410 What do you say? Like that they love the 1021 00:53:13,410 --> 00:53:17,370 personalized video They do. I was. 1022 00:53:18,090 --> 00:53:21,850 Thinking to a cameo near you, I was actually about to get it 1023 00:53:21,850 --> 00:53:23,970 fired up. You should. 1024 00:53:23,970 --> 00:53:26,890 You should do like just voice messages to people. 1025 00:53:28,550 --> 00:53:32,190 You know How many people have asked me if I can get Jelly Roll 1026 00:53:32,190 --> 00:53:33,750 to sing their wife happy birthday? 1027 00:53:34,710 --> 00:53:36,950 I bet you a lot of people, but I still think you should be a 1028 00:53:36,950 --> 00:53:40,510 phone sex operator. You know, my friend does that 1029 00:53:40,510 --> 00:53:43,590 and she loves it. Have you seen the movie for a 1030 00:53:43,590 --> 00:53:46,190 good time Call? I did see that movie. 1031 00:53:46,190 --> 00:53:47,550 It's kind of. Is it newer? 1032 00:53:47,550 --> 00:53:50,800 Because I saw it recently. It's not newer, but I think they 1033 00:53:50,800 --> 00:53:52,760 just put it on Amazon or Peacock. 1034 00:53:52,760 --> 00:53:54,760 I just watched it over the weekend. 1035 00:53:54,760 --> 00:53:57,000 I love that movie. I could totally see it being us. 1036 00:53:57,720 --> 00:53:59,640 You know what's funny? I watch that and I don't watch a 1037 00:53:59,640 --> 00:54:01,000 lot of TV. And I did watch it. 1038 00:54:02,280 --> 00:54:04,120 See. Boom, Spirit said. 1039 00:54:04,120 --> 00:54:10,880 You need to watch when you were talking about the ranch 1040 00:54:10,880 --> 00:54:14,240 seasoning. Ranch seasoning. 1041 00:54:15,040 --> 00:54:17,880 That was last night. Interesting about everything in 1042 00:54:17,880 --> 00:54:21,930 this world is this body, Scrub says. 1043 00:54:21,930 --> 00:54:25,570 It's distributed by Canada, but it's made in China. 1044 00:54:26,090 --> 00:54:29,010 I wonder how much it cost to export all that to back to 1045 00:54:29,010 --> 00:54:30,730 America. Same. 1046 00:54:30,730 --> 00:54:35,490 For you to buy it for $6. How many of these fuckers did 1047 00:54:35,490 --> 00:54:38,890 you make? Actually, I got this in my 1048 00:54:38,890 --> 00:54:43,130 monthly boxy charm. I signed back up this month and 1049 00:54:43,130 --> 00:54:45,130 they send you full size stuff. Big stuff. 1050 00:54:45,870 --> 00:54:49,710 And they sent this body lotion and it's actually something 1051 00:54:49,710 --> 00:54:54,030 Peaches. Speaking of come on, I'm trying 1052 00:54:54,070 --> 00:54:57,950 to tell you. Me and it smells really freaking 1053 00:54:57,950 --> 00:55:00,790 good. Mitchell and Peach, English 1054 00:55:01,270 --> 00:55:04,790 flowers. Body lotion. 1055 00:55:05,990 --> 00:55:10,390 Love it, it my first. It smells really good though and 1056 00:55:11,070 --> 00:55:16,700 I like it because it was a surprise, a little surprise and 1057 00:55:16,700 --> 00:55:20,180 then I got stuff I needed. And what was weird is they like 1058 00:55:21,260 --> 00:55:25,540 I paid for it last month and then they ran out of the boxes 1059 00:55:25,540 --> 00:55:27,420 and said I couldn't have one until next month. 1060 00:55:27,820 --> 00:55:30,660 So I contacted customer support and I'm like you charged me in 1061 00:55:30,660 --> 00:55:33,620 July and you're telling me I don't get my box till August. 1062 00:55:33,980 --> 00:55:36,500 I'm supposed to get one in July like you charged me on the 1st 1063 00:55:36,500 --> 00:55:41,460 with my IPSI because IPSI bought Boxy charm. 1064 00:55:42,170 --> 00:55:43,810 I didn't know that. I didn't either. 1065 00:55:43,810 --> 00:55:48,050 So I just clicked one button and it decided to upgrade it to both 1066 00:55:48,850 --> 00:55:51,450 and I got like a free gift and I was like, OK cool, I'll do this 1067 00:55:51,450 --> 00:55:53,450 for a month, see what happens. Like I haven't had it in a long 1068 00:55:53,450 --> 00:55:55,930 time. I used to love it and I got 1069 00:55:55,930 --> 00:55:58,170 brushes and stuff this month which I was excited about. 1070 00:55:58,170 --> 00:56:04,090 So when I did that, they sent me my EPC bag but did not send me 1071 00:56:04,090 --> 00:56:08,050 the boxy charm. So I was like, OK, so I got it 1072 00:56:08,050 --> 00:56:10,570 this month. You done fucked up. 1073 00:56:10,610 --> 00:56:13,110 Give me my shit. It's crazy. 1074 00:56:14,190 --> 00:56:16,830 Well. You got anything else you want 1075 00:56:16,830 --> 00:56:20,830 to say while running Candy Land? Yeah, pull a card. 1076 00:56:20,830 --> 00:56:24,430 Everyone loved it. Another one of the same cards. 1077 00:56:24,430 --> 00:56:27,190 You want a different card, the human design ones. 1078 00:56:27,710 --> 00:56:35,670 OK, these ones are fire. I know. 1079 00:56:35,670 --> 00:56:38,190 I've gotten so much feedback from that episode. 1080 00:56:38,190 --> 00:56:41,270 People are really fucking loving the last episode. 1081 00:56:51,190 --> 00:56:58,910 We got card 32 for longevity. Look at all that cash. 32 Libra 1082 00:56:59,270 --> 00:57:01,150 with the cash. Oh my God. 1083 00:57:01,150 --> 00:57:02,590 I opened the book and it went right to it. 1084 00:57:02,590 --> 00:57:08,990 Hey, the sign is Libra, the gift is soundness and the shadow is 1085 00:57:09,030 --> 00:57:12,850 tribalism. The level of the gift allows you 1086 00:57:12,890 --> 00:57:16,450 to see beyond fear, beyond failure, and beyond the illusion 1087 00:57:16,450 --> 00:57:19,130 of death. The exchange of money represents 1088 00:57:19,130 --> 00:57:22,930 a flow of energy When you are divinely linked to the source of 1089 00:57:22,930 --> 00:57:27,250 your decisions, actions, i.e., your inner guidance system, you 1090 00:57:27,250 --> 00:57:30,930 know just how much of your energy to give to whom, and when 1091 00:57:31,250 --> 00:57:34,690 you do not spend or hoard out of fear or desperation. 1092 00:57:34,690 --> 00:57:38,090 Instead, you see the full picture and make sound decisions 1093 00:57:38,370 --> 00:57:40,850 based on your intuitive wisdom. Long. 1094 00:57:40,930 --> 00:57:44,330 Longevity is the guiding principle that serves you the 1095 00:57:44,330 --> 00:57:48,290 shadow of tribalism, our collective fear of death, of 1096 00:57:48,290 --> 00:57:52,330 becoming extinct. His both ensured our species 1097 00:57:52,330 --> 00:57:55,930 continuation over time and kept us stuck in the quicksand of 1098 00:57:55,930 --> 00:57:58,730 survival mode i.e. Fight or flight? 1099 00:57:58,730 --> 00:58:01,530 Dog eat dog, tribalism. Separation. 1100 00:58:02,270 --> 00:58:06,150 Paradoxically, this instinctual setting on humanity drives us to 1101 00:58:06,150 --> 00:58:11,750 cling desperately to our own tribe, group, nation, culture as 1102 00:58:11,830 --> 00:58:16,310 a preservation strategy while simultaneously dehumanizing the 1103 00:58:16,390 --> 00:58:20,910 other tribe, country, race, etcetera, and so fittingly in 1104 00:58:20,910 --> 00:58:23,830 the House of mirrors that is physical reality. 1105 00:58:24,030 --> 00:58:27,710 What appears to be a mechanism for oneness and expansion is 1106 00:58:27,710 --> 00:58:30,430 merely just strife dressed up with new ribbons. 1107 00:58:31,070 --> 00:58:34,550 As individuals, this fear of extinction may play out through 1108 00:58:34,550 --> 00:58:38,350 the modality of money as you become its willing victim and 1109 00:58:38,350 --> 00:58:41,270 disregard your own inherent power in the process. 1110 00:58:41,510 --> 00:58:45,070 Your themes are money, energy, bonds, and sound judgment. 1111 00:58:48,750 --> 00:58:52,070 I can't hear you. I muted myself so I wasn't 1112 00:58:52,070 --> 00:58:56,150 breathing while you were reading, and then I forgot to 1113 00:58:56,150 --> 00:58:59,650 unmute. We've had two muted tonight. 1114 00:58:59,970 --> 00:59:02,850 And you know what's interesting? My friend just texted me. 1115 00:59:02,850 --> 00:59:05,570 She said. I just got my human design 1116 00:59:05,570 --> 00:59:08,570 Channels and Gates class. I'm listening now. 1117 00:59:09,890 --> 00:59:11,210 Okay, come through with this thing. 1118 00:59:11,530 --> 00:59:14,410 She's in the solar group, no name drop. 1119 00:59:14,410 --> 00:59:18,890 Off to you after. I just want to say that we have 1120 00:59:18,890 --> 00:59:21,250 a lot coming up. We are about to announce the 1121 00:59:21,250 --> 00:59:24,570 Full Moon Power Circle date for next month, September. 1122 00:59:26,160 --> 00:59:30,920 I know that we have our spell worked here and we are taking 1123 00:59:30,920 --> 00:59:34,400 votes right now for the group spell work this month. 1124 00:59:34,840 --> 00:59:38,520 And this is a super powerful month just because there are two 1125 00:59:38,520 --> 00:59:44,640 full moons coming like in a very short span, as well as the new 1126 00:59:44,640 --> 00:59:47,680 moon. And I feel like when you have 1127 00:59:47,760 --> 00:59:50,760 such a transformative energy, like you're going to change 1128 00:59:50,760 --> 00:59:56,280 seasons, like you're changing into the next energy, the next 1129 00:59:57,000 --> 01:00:01,160 chapter of the cycle like fall. And it is about death and 1130 01:00:01,160 --> 01:00:02,520 rebirth. And I just really want to 1131 01:00:02,520 --> 01:00:05,440 emphasize to like let go of things that don't serve you and 1132 01:00:05,760 --> 01:00:09,680 make space for activities, people, pastimes, hobbies that 1133 01:00:09,680 --> 01:00:14,720 really do serve you. And there is so much going on 1134 01:00:14,720 --> 01:00:18,280 because this girl just texted me about the red couch. 1135 01:00:18,760 --> 01:00:20,960 She said she's the podcast right now. 1136 01:00:22,020 --> 01:00:26,420 So, you know, there's so much synchronicity in a lot of what's 1137 01:00:26,420 --> 01:00:28,900 going on, she said. I have a red couch and a red 1138 01:00:28,900 --> 01:00:30,980 massage table that are for workspace only. 1139 01:00:30,980 --> 01:00:34,780 That's so cool. So people are connecting in a 1140 01:00:34,780 --> 01:00:37,700 deep way and I think that if you're open and ready to the 1141 01:00:37,700 --> 01:00:41,140 next chapter, spirits going to reveal so much to you. 1142 01:00:41,340 --> 01:00:45,000 So coming up in the next couple months is really going to be 1143 01:00:45,000 --> 01:00:48,200 about letting go and really inviting in what you want. 1144 01:00:48,520 --> 01:00:50,720 And I would just recommend everyone to set like their 1145 01:00:50,720 --> 01:00:53,160 intentions and be more intentional with your life. 1146 01:00:53,400 --> 01:00:56,760 Speak blessings over your body. Thank your body for all that it 1147 01:00:56,760 --> 01:00:59,400 does behind the scenes. You know your heart is just 1148 01:00:59,400 --> 01:01:01,880 beating right now. Your lungs are just breathing 1149 01:01:01,880 --> 01:01:06,980 like you're not even having to do all of the work and you feel 1150 01:01:06,980 --> 01:01:08,340 like you're doing all of the work. 1151 01:01:08,380 --> 01:01:10,580 And I feel like take some of that pressure off of yourself, 1152 01:01:11,020 --> 01:01:13,780 understand that taking a risk is a lot better than staying the 1153 01:01:13,780 --> 01:01:16,660 same and we will see you next time in Candy Land. 1154 01:01:17,580 --> 01:01:17,780 Bye.