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Feel free to share this episode 14 00:01:09,120 --> 00:01:13,360 with everybody that you know. Get the look it like a lollipop 15 00:01:13,360 --> 00:01:17,480 name spread around and we hope you love this episode. 16 00:01:20,880 --> 00:01:23,520 Welcome back to another episode of Candyland. 17 00:01:23,520 --> 00:01:26,840 We're really excited Tonight. We've got a new guest and Jim 18 00:01:26,840 --> 00:01:34,760 and I introduced. Yes, we have JC on the podcast I 19 00:01:34,760 --> 00:01:39,440 first found you from. When you were on it was, I think 20 00:01:39,480 --> 00:01:42,960 it was on MTV and it was like, are you the one was like the 21 00:01:42,960 --> 00:01:44,960 dating show that you were on? Welcome. 22 00:01:45,600 --> 00:01:48,560 Hello. Yes, first of all, thank you so 23 00:01:48,560 --> 00:01:51,440 much for having me. I'm super excited. 24 00:01:51,600 --> 00:01:53,840 I love the setting. I love everything about it 25 00:01:53,840 --> 00:01:57,360 because I don't feel like everyone's watching right now 26 00:01:57,360 --> 00:02:00,320 and that pressure. So you guys might get some good 27 00:02:00,320 --> 00:02:04,760 tea here tonight. But yes, thank you so much for. 28 00:02:04,760 --> 00:02:07,880 Helping yes, to answer your question, it was Are you the one 29 00:02:08,280 --> 00:02:10,160 it was? Are you the one? 30 00:02:10,520 --> 00:02:14,280 Does it like make you? But first of all, you're talking 31 00:02:14,280 --> 00:02:17,000 about like there being a lot of pressure of like people watching 32 00:02:17,000 --> 00:02:20,160 and stuff like that. Do you feel like once that 33 00:02:20,160 --> 00:02:23,880 aired, you all of a sudden had like this scope and lens on you? 34 00:02:24,400 --> 00:02:26,920 Oh yeah. Millions of people watched it. 35 00:02:27,160 --> 00:02:30,880 So yeah, I definitely felt that way. 36 00:02:31,280 --> 00:02:37,040 Anything I said or did, wherever I went, people just knew who I 37 00:02:37,040 --> 00:02:38,360 was. Not everyone, because not 38 00:02:38,360 --> 00:02:41,240 everyone watches TV. So there was a fair amount of 39 00:02:41,240 --> 00:02:45,960 people who were like, I'm sorry, I never saw TV before, but I 40 00:02:45,960 --> 00:02:49,080 like saw reality TV. But most people knew. 41 00:02:49,080 --> 00:02:53,320 And yes, I definitely my life changed after that a lot. 42 00:02:53,320 --> 00:02:54,920 And mentally, it's a whole thing. 43 00:02:56,360 --> 00:02:59,280 Well, and like that's such a vulnerable topic too. 44 00:02:59,280 --> 00:03:02,720 Just like like trying to be in a relationship with somebody and 45 00:03:02,720 --> 00:03:05,880 doing that on a public platform where then people are judging 46 00:03:05,880 --> 00:03:09,560 like what your reactions and everything are too feel like. 47 00:03:10,000 --> 00:03:14,480 Do you feel like that has let you though be more vulnerable 48 00:03:14,480 --> 00:03:17,000 when it comes like doing your poetry and stuff like that? 49 00:03:18,600 --> 00:03:23,080 Yeah, I I do. I guess I never thought about it 50 00:03:23,080 --> 00:03:29,200 that way, but it is true because I started writing when I was on 51 00:03:29,200 --> 00:03:31,200 the show. Well, when the show aired, 52 00:03:31,880 --> 00:03:34,280 because I had a blog because, you know, there was a lot of 53 00:03:34,280 --> 00:03:37,960 misconceptions of people with what was going on. 54 00:03:38,280 --> 00:03:40,240 And I was getting a lot of hate too. 55 00:03:40,240 --> 00:03:44,760 And so I started a blog on Tumblr back then and that's 56 00:03:44,760 --> 00:03:47,560 where I actually wrote my first poems and stuff like that. 57 00:03:47,560 --> 00:03:52,840 So I definitely think that being a part of that and under the 58 00:03:52,840 --> 00:03:55,480 public eye like that and everybody like having an 59 00:03:55,480 --> 00:03:59,600 interest in my life, it helped me express myself better. 60 00:04:00,400 --> 00:04:03,840 So with the dating show, how long was the process to get 61 00:04:03,840 --> 00:04:07,920 accepted, 'cause I had got accepted onto a dating show that 62 00:04:07,920 --> 00:04:10,440 I guess they, like, scrapped the budget, 'cause it wasn't like 63 00:04:10,440 --> 00:04:12,880 MTV. It was like it was called like 64 00:04:12,880 --> 00:04:15,320 local love or something. And they would go to different 65 00:04:15,320 --> 00:04:16,880 cities. And this was like last year. 66 00:04:17,160 --> 00:04:20,880 But then I found out that, like, the guy, he got three dates and 67 00:04:20,880 --> 00:04:23,240 I was just one of them. So I'm like, I wasn't even the 68 00:04:23,240 --> 00:04:24,960 main character. I don't even like this. 69 00:04:25,200 --> 00:04:28,720 Girl, Oh my gosh, I love that. I commend you though, for that 70 00:04:28,720 --> 00:04:32,840 because that happened to me on a recent dating show that I went 71 00:04:32,840 --> 00:04:36,680 on in Miami. But yeah, to answer your 72 00:04:36,680 --> 00:04:40,280 question, the, you know, we always get into other topics 73 00:04:40,280 --> 00:04:46,120 like that's how it is. But to answer your question, it 74 00:04:46,120 --> 00:04:50,080 was for me, it was an individual journey. 75 00:04:50,080 --> 00:04:55,480 Because I remember I had actually applied to be on MTV 76 00:04:55,920 --> 00:04:59,840 years before that, but it was for a different show. 77 00:04:59,840 --> 00:05:02,400 And I got to the finalists, but it didn't work out. 78 00:05:03,440 --> 00:05:06,920 But then when I got called for a dating show, I was a little bit 79 00:05:06,920 --> 00:05:10,320 skeptical, but I was like, you know what? 80 00:05:10,320 --> 00:05:13,080 I don't want love in my life. And who knows? 81 00:05:13,080 --> 00:05:15,400 My mom was like, girl, maybe your man is there. 82 00:05:15,400 --> 00:05:19,320 Like this is has to be fate like and they actually had called me. 83 00:05:19,680 --> 00:05:24,320 They had called me to see, like did I want to reapply, you know, 84 00:05:24,320 --> 00:05:27,720 reapply to a different show that they had because like they 85 00:05:27,720 --> 00:05:30,080 already had. They knew who I was, you know, 86 00:05:30,240 --> 00:05:34,760 and I had that big personality, all the things and so, but I did 87 00:05:34,760 --> 00:05:37,480 have to go through a regular casting, all of it. 88 00:05:37,480 --> 00:05:40,480 It took a couple of months. I had to go through different 89 00:05:40,480 --> 00:05:45,600 steps and interviews. I went to LA a couple of times 90 00:05:45,800 --> 00:05:48,600 and then I got the call and I was just so happy because I 91 00:05:48,600 --> 00:05:54,240 remember when they had first called me, I was like, I don't 92 00:05:54,240 --> 00:05:58,080 know, I have to think about it. And then I hung up and my best 93 00:05:58,080 --> 00:06:00,760 friend, she was like, girl, are you dumb? 94 00:06:00,760 --> 00:06:02,720 That's MTV. And I just called you. 95 00:06:03,120 --> 00:06:06,320 And I was like, you're right. I called back and I was like, 96 00:06:06,320 --> 00:06:07,720 I'm sorry. I was in shock. 97 00:06:07,960 --> 00:06:11,480 And and they were like, no, it's OK Like, here's the papers, 98 00:06:11,480 --> 00:06:14,080 here's the stuff. And, you know, you think you're 99 00:06:14,080 --> 00:06:16,920 special, But then you get to the castings and the auditions and 100 00:06:16,920 --> 00:06:19,600 there's like hundreds and hundreds of people, thousands 101 00:06:19,600 --> 00:06:22,320 even with big personalities and all of it. 102 00:06:22,320 --> 00:06:25,560 And you think like, I don't know if I'm gonna even get casted, 103 00:06:25,880 --> 00:06:29,040 but then you then it happens. You know, Like, I feel like I 104 00:06:29,040 --> 00:06:32,720 manifested that without even knowing what manifesting meant. 105 00:06:33,240 --> 00:06:38,600 But yeah, how? Long was the entire process from 106 00:06:38,600 --> 00:06:42,160 like when you started, when you first went to like that casting 107 00:06:42,160 --> 00:06:43,960 versus like when the show wrapped up? 108 00:06:46,200 --> 00:06:49,080 I would say a year. A year. 109 00:06:50,440 --> 00:06:54,840 I mean, I could tell you literally, I went to Hawaii 110 00:06:54,840 --> 00:07:00,960 October 18 of 2020. Wait, no, no, not 2020. 111 00:07:00,960 --> 00:07:05,280 This was like 8 years ago of of 2014. 112 00:07:05,840 --> 00:07:08,600 I think it was 2013 or 2014. One of those. 113 00:07:09,040 --> 00:07:11,960 And we were out there filming for 40 days. 114 00:07:11,960 --> 00:07:14,960 So that's what it took to film 40 days. 115 00:07:15,400 --> 00:07:18,400 So it was cool to be in Hawaii that amount of time. 116 00:07:20,280 --> 00:07:26,320 And then after that it took, I think it took about 5-6 months, 117 00:07:26,320 --> 00:07:28,040 something like that, and then it aired. 118 00:07:28,520 --> 00:07:32,520 So you do have a time in between where they're editing, doing all 119 00:07:32,520 --> 00:07:37,320 the things. When we did the reunion, the 120 00:07:37,320 --> 00:07:40,160 show had just like started like airing. 121 00:07:41,000 --> 00:07:44,080 So the whole process I would say, takes about a year from 122 00:07:44,520 --> 00:07:48,320 beginning to end and you're like, OK, the last episode, it's 123 00:07:48,320 --> 00:07:53,000 over, you know, and then your life takes off from there in any 124 00:07:53,000 --> 00:07:56,880 way that you decide to go. So I have a question about that. 125 00:07:56,880 --> 00:08:00,920 So for like a regular person, like they just expect you to 126 00:08:00,920 --> 00:08:05,400 quit your job and just go to Hawaii for 40 days or like, how 127 00:08:05,400 --> 00:08:06,600 does that work? Yeah. 128 00:08:07,720 --> 00:08:09,880 I mean, I had a job in the beginning. 129 00:08:09,880 --> 00:08:12,640 Like for I had a job, I had a job. 130 00:08:12,720 --> 00:08:16,480 I just so happened to work in the airline industry at the time 131 00:08:16,720 --> 00:08:21,120 and so it was low season and I was able to ask for a leave of 132 00:08:21,200 --> 00:08:24,640 absence and stuff like that. But yeah, if you want to be a 133 00:08:24,640 --> 00:08:28,600 part of it, like they're not caring if you work or not, like 134 00:08:28,600 --> 00:08:34,280 you have to figure that out and. Pay your travel to to go there 135 00:08:34,280 --> 00:08:37,000 and everything like that. Yeah, so for this show, they 136 00:08:37,000 --> 00:08:45,320 paid, They paid my travel, they paid food, they paid anything 137 00:08:45,320 --> 00:08:48,760 transportation. They actually paid me like I 138 00:08:48,760 --> 00:08:51,840 don't remember how much it was, but it was like 4000, something 139 00:08:51,840 --> 00:08:54,360 like that. And then on top of that, it was 140 00:08:54,360 --> 00:09:01,720 the price of $1,000,000 divided between 20 people, SO50K each. 141 00:09:03,080 --> 00:09:05,080 It's been so long since I watched that. 142 00:09:05,520 --> 00:09:07,760 Yeah, I'm not like a big TV person at all. 143 00:09:07,760 --> 00:09:11,680 Like, I barely know anything about reality TV. 144 00:09:11,960 --> 00:09:14,840 So I was like, really, like, anxious to ask you some of those 145 00:09:14,840 --> 00:09:18,920 questions because I don't think people realize when they apply 146 00:09:18,920 --> 00:09:22,520 to these shows that if you do get picked, it is like an 147 00:09:22,520 --> 00:09:26,240 uprooting of your life, 'cause we have a girl that we just had 148 00:09:26,240 --> 00:09:30,440 on the podcast via Peach, and she applies for Survivor every 149 00:09:30,440 --> 00:09:31,880 year. And like we talked about that, 150 00:09:31,880 --> 00:09:34,160 that is not my thing. Like I do not want to do. 151 00:09:34,680 --> 00:09:37,440 Go naked and afraid. No Survivor. 152 00:09:37,440 --> 00:09:41,160 No, no, no, no. That's so funny that you said 153 00:09:41,200 --> 00:09:42,800 that. Like girl, what's your sign 154 00:09:42,800 --> 00:09:44,240 with? Morris. 155 00:09:45,480 --> 00:09:48,520 Because, like, you're saying things that I'm like, Oh my 156 00:09:48,520 --> 00:09:53,000 gosh. Because for instance, I like 157 00:09:53,480 --> 00:09:56,320 just yesterday or the day before, I felt like I woke up 158 00:09:56,320 --> 00:09:58,960 and I was just attracting a lot of like, hate more of that. 159 00:09:58,960 --> 00:10:00,880 And it was because I was giving my attention to it. 160 00:10:00,880 --> 00:10:02,600 Like, I take responsibility for it. 161 00:10:02,800 --> 00:10:05,480 But one of the people, and this is people from different parts 162 00:10:05,480 --> 00:10:09,120 of the world, hey, and I'm like, and they were like, oh, that's 163 00:10:09,120 --> 00:10:11,680 why you haven't been hired on. No more reality shows and stuff 164 00:10:11,680 --> 00:10:14,360 like that. And I'm like, if you only knew 165 00:10:14,360 --> 00:10:17,240 that I chose to get out of that line of work. 166 00:10:17,240 --> 00:10:20,760 It was never that I wouldn't be hired or accepted. 167 00:10:21,000 --> 00:10:23,480 I was called to be on The Challenge. 168 00:10:23,480 --> 00:10:26,360 You know, you've heard of that show on MTV. 169 00:10:26,600 --> 00:10:29,320 It's called The Challenge. And it's been around forever. 170 00:10:29,480 --> 00:10:33,160 And it's something like that where you're like competing and 171 00:10:33,440 --> 00:10:36,040 doing all this extra athletic shit and stuff like that. 172 00:10:36,040 --> 00:10:40,320 And that's not me. Like, that's not me. 173 00:10:40,320 --> 00:10:44,680 And so I declined and like other members of the of are you the 174 00:10:44,680 --> 00:10:47,240 one that were there can attest like there was helmets with my 175 00:10:47,240 --> 00:10:52,360 name with my perfect match name from the show like. 176 00:10:52,360 --> 00:10:55,040 But I didn't go because I was just like, you know what? 177 00:10:55,120 --> 00:11:00,440 I'm the type of person that I'm not going to be on TV or 178 00:11:00,440 --> 00:11:04,040 anything that seems beneficial because just to do that or 179 00:11:04,040 --> 00:11:06,920 because of the fame, there has to be a reason there. 180 00:11:06,920 --> 00:11:09,080 And something where I'm like, it makes sense. 181 00:11:09,400 --> 00:11:12,520 And for me to go out there to park in Costa Rica or wherever 182 00:11:12,520 --> 00:11:16,680 it was to, you know, risk my life or something and and just 183 00:11:16,680 --> 00:11:20,400 expose myself in those ways. I was like, no, but the dating 184 00:11:20,400 --> 00:11:25,480 scene, that is something that I was like interested in for some 185 00:11:25,480 --> 00:11:27,120 reason. I was like, yeah, maybe, you 186 00:11:27,120 --> 00:11:30,320 know, my man is up there like in on the show or somewhere. 187 00:11:30,320 --> 00:11:34,000 Like it has to be that way. That's what I thought so that I 188 00:11:34,000 --> 00:11:36,360 accepted. But anything else, I'm not doing 189 00:11:36,360 --> 00:11:40,560 it if I don't feel like I'm the main character or like it's, 190 00:11:40,560 --> 00:11:44,880 it's going to be beneficial to my life because money it comes 191 00:11:44,880 --> 00:11:46,800 and goes like I'm not competing for it. 192 00:11:46,960 --> 00:11:49,040 It's just going to come to me always. 193 00:11:49,760 --> 00:11:52,320 Yes. I cannot do any survival shows. 194 00:11:52,320 --> 00:11:55,840 Like I know someone who was on Naked and Afraid like my 195 00:11:55,840 --> 00:11:58,760 friend's older brother. And there's just no fucking way. 196 00:11:58,760 --> 00:12:02,120 Like those people are on there butt ass naked, crying, getting 197 00:12:02,120 --> 00:12:06,720 8 bucks shows like starving. Like there's just no way no 198 00:12:06,720 --> 00:12:10,160 amount of money would ever make me want to do that. 199 00:12:10,160 --> 00:12:13,160 And that's what we talked about on the last podcast, about like 200 00:12:13,160 --> 00:12:15,920 that survival stuff. And she was like, Oh yeah, 201 00:12:15,920 --> 00:12:18,320 that's what I like. That's why I kind of jam. 202 00:12:18,320 --> 00:12:19,880 And I'm like, that's all you Boo. 203 00:12:20,320 --> 00:12:22,720 She's a tourist. Like, she's a tourist too. 204 00:12:22,720 --> 00:12:26,320 But like, that's all you girl, 'cause there's no fucking way 205 00:12:26,720 --> 00:12:29,440 I'm going out into a forest, getting ate up by spiders, 206 00:12:29,440 --> 00:12:32,080 snakes, whatever. Not now. 207 00:12:32,160 --> 00:12:34,040 Some people won't even do what I did. 208 00:12:34,160 --> 00:12:36,520 Like some people, they just want they. 209 00:12:36,680 --> 00:12:43,040 They won't, you know, they don't have that confidence to to be on 210 00:12:43,040 --> 00:12:45,480 a reality show. But again, I did. 211 00:12:45,520 --> 00:12:48,880 And I I'm with you. Like I wouldn't do those things. 212 00:12:49,080 --> 00:12:52,600 I wouldn't be on any show that degrades me. 213 00:12:52,640 --> 00:12:57,040 Or I also got accepted for the Bad Girls Club didn't do that 214 00:12:57,120 --> 00:12:59,480 either. Because like I said, I'm not 215 00:12:59,480 --> 00:13:04,720 going to do anything that, you know, that is just not 216 00:13:04,720 --> 00:13:06,640 beneficial to me in the long run. 217 00:13:06,640 --> 00:13:10,040 Because those things, people do it just for the fame, nothing 218 00:13:10,040 --> 00:13:12,600 else. Well then that follows you 219 00:13:12,600 --> 00:13:14,720 around forever. Like doing something like the 220 00:13:14,720 --> 00:13:18,040 Bad Girls Club, like that follows you around forever. 221 00:13:18,040 --> 00:13:20,520 And when you're out here, back in the real world, people are 222 00:13:20,520 --> 00:13:23,720 like, oh, I actually don't want to hire you because you're 223 00:13:23,720 --> 00:13:26,640 volatile and you're going to have problems with Co workers 224 00:13:26,640 --> 00:13:31,440 and all types of shit. Do you get like a different like 225 00:13:31,440 --> 00:13:34,880 if you see reality shows now like Love is blind is like super 226 00:13:34,880 --> 00:13:38,120 popular, Do you still watch those things and are you like, 227 00:13:38,120 --> 00:13:41,320 oh like I understand the behind the scenes or do you not? 228 00:13:41,920 --> 00:13:44,040 I do. I love Love is blind. 229 00:13:44,040 --> 00:13:46,120 The 28. I think the 29 is the new 230 00:13:46,120 --> 00:13:49,560 episode. Like, I'd be watching it because 231 00:13:49,560 --> 00:13:52,760 I like it, because it's like kind of like sort of right what 232 00:13:52,760 --> 00:13:57,000 I did. But I think in a sense, better 233 00:13:57,000 --> 00:13:59,680 because you don't see the person and you are able to connect in 234 00:13:59,680 --> 00:14:02,360 that way. But I do see it. 235 00:14:02,360 --> 00:14:05,040 And I'm like, yes, I know what they're all going through. 236 00:14:05,040 --> 00:14:08,760 Like, I feel like I I know. I know what it's like. 237 00:14:09,120 --> 00:14:12,800 And I know that a lot of it, it is real. 238 00:14:12,880 --> 00:14:14,560 It is real. Like, you know, some people 239 00:14:14,560 --> 00:14:18,320 think, oh, reality TV is fake. No, it's real. 240 00:14:18,320 --> 00:14:22,600 They manipulate a lot of the scenes, you know, sometimes. 241 00:14:22,600 --> 00:14:26,760 So I can look like something but whatever we're what we are 242 00:14:26,760 --> 00:14:31,040 living is real and it's it's something else. 243 00:14:31,040 --> 00:14:35,920 A week there feels like a month over there. 244 00:14:35,920 --> 00:14:39,000 Three days is a week. I say over there because it's a 245 00:14:39,000 --> 00:14:41,760 reality world. Like 3 days is a week. 246 00:14:42,200 --> 00:14:46,760 That's how you know everything is just like a time capsule 247 00:14:46,760 --> 00:14:48,520 thing. You're just like not in real 248 00:14:48,520 --> 00:14:51,880 world like you were saying when you're a part of those things. 249 00:14:52,480 --> 00:14:54,960 So when you say that you got accepted to the Bad Girls Club, 250 00:14:54,960 --> 00:14:58,360 did you apply or like once you put an application out there, 251 00:14:58,360 --> 00:15:01,000 these networks have that application. 252 00:15:01,000 --> 00:15:05,360 How does that process work? Well, for me, I just feel like 253 00:15:05,360 --> 00:15:07,560 everything has been different than for others. 254 00:15:07,560 --> 00:15:10,080 I'm sure other people can resonate, maybe somewhere in the 255 00:15:10,080 --> 00:15:13,280 world, but they they reached out to me. 256 00:15:14,400 --> 00:15:18,080 They reached out to me. I was in our city that was on 257 00:15:18,080 --> 00:15:19,880 the Bad Girls Club. I can't even think of her name. 258 00:15:19,880 --> 00:15:21,560 She wasn't like someone I cared about. 259 00:15:21,560 --> 00:15:23,240 But yeah, yeah, like on there, yeah. 260 00:15:23,960 --> 00:15:26,920 Acting ratchet and fighting. And I was just like no. 261 00:15:27,120 --> 00:15:30,520 Yeah. So one of the casting directors 262 00:15:30,520 --> 00:15:34,240 reached out to me through Instagram and then I did fill 263 00:15:34,240 --> 00:15:36,320 out the application and they want. 264 00:15:36,320 --> 00:15:40,720 And I remember we even had like a a back and forth because like 265 00:15:42,520 --> 00:15:48,600 they they weren't sure like about, you know, if they wanted 266 00:15:48,640 --> 00:15:53,720 to have me there on one side because they felt like I was a 267 00:15:53,720 --> 00:15:56,880 real bad girl. Because back in the day I wasn't 268 00:15:56,880 --> 00:16:01,240 all Zen. Like now you know whoever 269 00:16:01,240 --> 00:16:03,680 watched the are You the one knows that in the first episode, 270 00:16:03,680 --> 00:16:05,400 I think I was already like fighting. 271 00:16:05,400 --> 00:16:08,120 Not fighting, but like in arguments and stuff. 272 00:16:08,120 --> 00:16:11,120 And like, I'm Puerto Rican, so I have that spicy side. 273 00:16:11,520 --> 00:16:13,560 I don't care for that behavior anymore. 274 00:16:13,560 --> 00:16:17,600 But I used to be like, you know what people would consider bad 275 00:16:17,600 --> 00:16:21,120 girl part of me. I'm a Libra, so it's like a 276 00:16:21,120 --> 00:16:24,760 balance. But, but yeah, so they weren't 277 00:16:24,760 --> 00:16:26,360 sure because of some of my answers. 278 00:16:26,360 --> 00:16:28,160 They were like, is this girl going to come here and fuck 279 00:16:28,160 --> 00:16:31,080 somebody up for real? Or like and I'm like, but what 280 00:16:31,080 --> 00:16:33,480 do you want? Like I'm being transparent And 281 00:16:33,480 --> 00:16:35,840 then just at the end of the day, it didn't feel right. 282 00:16:35,920 --> 00:16:39,360 So I was just like, no, because and like I said, at the end of 283 00:16:39,360 --> 00:16:41,200 the day, it has to feel right for me. 284 00:16:41,200 --> 00:16:44,760 Anything that I'm a part of, if it's like if it's not a hell 285 00:16:44,760 --> 00:16:48,720 yes, it's a hell no for me. You know, I made a card deck, 286 00:16:48,720 --> 00:16:50,920 and that's in the cards. Like, that's one of the quads. 287 00:16:50,920 --> 00:16:52,680 If it's not a hell yes, it's a hell no. 288 00:16:52,680 --> 00:16:54,760 Swear. And you said you were a Libra. 289 00:16:54,760 --> 00:16:57,880 I'm a Libra Moon. So I love like, Taurus and 290 00:16:57,880 --> 00:16:59,960 Libra, our sister sons, and I'm all about. 291 00:17:00,200 --> 00:17:03,240 I'm also a Libra moon. Oh my gosh, that's amazing. 292 00:17:03,240 --> 00:17:05,640 Yeah. So I do think that a lot of 293 00:17:05,640 --> 00:17:09,240 people underestimate your, like, energy. 294 00:17:09,240 --> 00:17:13,319 Whenever you don't just subject and sign up for everything, you 295 00:17:13,319 --> 00:17:15,880 know, like a lot of people want attention. 296 00:17:15,880 --> 00:17:17,599 And that's what you were saying about like the fame. 297 00:17:17,839 --> 00:17:20,960 We've seen that especially with like some of the people with the 298 00:17:20,960 --> 00:17:24,119 bigger TikTok followings and people like will commit to come 299 00:17:24,119 --> 00:17:28,280 on to the podcast and then like last minute, they're like, well, 300 00:17:28,440 --> 00:17:31,200 I have dinner plans now or I have this or I have something 301 00:17:31,200 --> 00:17:33,000 came up and it's not like genuine. 302 00:17:33,000 --> 00:17:36,200 It's like you're a small platform and now I don't have 303 00:17:36,200 --> 00:17:39,200 time for you kind of energy. And so I love when people are 304 00:17:39,200 --> 00:17:42,280 just like upfront and honest about what works for them, what 305 00:17:42,280 --> 00:17:44,680 doesn't work for them. Because I can tell when 306 00:17:44,680 --> 00:17:47,360 someone's genuine and like genuinely doing something 307 00:17:47,360 --> 00:17:51,480 because they want to do it or they're just being fake as fuck. 308 00:17:51,520 --> 00:17:56,720 And so a lot of, like with MTV shows and reality shows, I don't 309 00:17:56,720 --> 00:17:59,600 think people realize that when you put a certain version of 310 00:17:59,600 --> 00:18:03,640 yourself out there for the world to see, they that's who they, 311 00:18:03,920 --> 00:18:05,440 you know, attached themselves to. 312 00:18:05,440 --> 00:18:07,760 And it's like we talked about that with the Teen Mom 313 00:18:08,040 --> 00:18:09,840 situation. And like, I just don't know why 314 00:18:09,840 --> 00:18:12,120 people worship the Teen Mom girls. 315 00:18:12,120 --> 00:18:14,000 I'm not hating on them. I'm just like, you know, I was 316 00:18:14,000 --> 00:18:16,880 14 right there with y'all. And I look back on that and I'm 317 00:18:16,880 --> 00:18:19,480 like, why are we worshipping them 20 years later and, like, 318 00:18:19,480 --> 00:18:21,600 worried about every little thing they do? 319 00:18:21,880 --> 00:18:25,320 But it's like so many people live in the shadow of others 320 00:18:25,320 --> 00:18:28,480 because they're not confident or they don't want to be seen. 321 00:18:28,480 --> 00:18:31,680 So they're just judging and hating and just projecting that 322 00:18:31,680 --> 00:18:33,720 onto people. So when you say that you were 323 00:18:33,720 --> 00:18:38,080 entertaining some hate, was this coming from your following now, 324 00:18:38,080 --> 00:18:41,920 or from the show, or just? You know why I'm laughing? 325 00:18:42,080 --> 00:18:46,720 Because your your spiritual vibe today or I don't know if it's 326 00:18:46,720 --> 00:18:51,640 every day, but you're like right on, like 100% touching up on all 327 00:18:51,640 --> 00:18:55,920 the things. Because like, that's exactly 328 00:18:55,920 --> 00:18:58,440 where I was going to go back to the to the hate part. 329 00:18:58,440 --> 00:19:01,400 And when you said people are attached to that, you know what 330 00:19:01,400 --> 00:19:06,520 you presented on the show or like before, that's exactly what 331 00:19:06,520 --> 00:19:08,920 happened. One of the the people that were 332 00:19:08,920 --> 00:19:12,720 hating, which was recently, this was recent, this was yesterday, 333 00:19:12,720 --> 00:19:14,320 the day before something like that. 334 00:19:16,120 --> 00:19:19,680 One of those people was, which is the one who was saying, oh, 335 00:19:19,680 --> 00:19:22,120 you, that's why you haven't been hired and stuff. 336 00:19:22,120 --> 00:19:26,480 He knows me from the show and I know because he's saying, oh, I 337 00:19:26,480 --> 00:19:29,200 used to like you when you were on the show, but right now 338 00:19:29,200 --> 00:19:31,160 you're a completely different person. 339 00:19:31,160 --> 00:19:35,240 Mind you, this was nine years ago or some some shit like that. 340 00:19:35,240 --> 00:19:38,400 So it's like people change, they evolve. 341 00:19:38,520 --> 00:19:42,040 You know what I'm saying? So, like, but I'm still the same 342 00:19:42,040 --> 00:19:44,400 person. I'm just grown, evolved. 343 00:19:45,440 --> 00:19:47,600 But he was like, oh, I liked you when you were on the show. 344 00:19:47,600 --> 00:19:49,640 Now you're a different person, he said. 345 00:19:49,640 --> 00:19:52,600 Now you're like on a in a cult or something. 346 00:19:52,600 --> 00:19:55,040 And I was just like, he was like, you're preaching out 347 00:19:55,040 --> 00:19:57,480 there, like if you're in a cult and a witch and all these 348 00:19:57,480 --> 00:20:02,880 things, and I'm like. What That's what people see now. 349 00:20:02,960 --> 00:20:05,560 Like I was in shock. I was in shock. 350 00:20:05,800 --> 00:20:09,280 I'm like, I'm like, no, I'm a person who decided to help 351 00:20:09,280 --> 00:20:13,440 people wear her platform and be real and not care about anything 352 00:20:13,440 --> 00:20:16,080 else. But yeah, it's hard because a 353 00:20:16,080 --> 00:20:19,680 lot of people, they're they're stuck on on that, even with my 354 00:20:19,680 --> 00:20:23,120 body type everything. And it's just like, put it to 355 00:20:23,120 --> 00:20:26,000 rest now. Like we're in a different we 356 00:20:26,000 --> 00:20:29,280 time. We talk all the time about how 357 00:20:29,280 --> 00:20:31,880 when people are on their spiritual journey, all of a 358 00:20:31,880 --> 00:20:35,560 sudden people are super triggered and they don't like 359 00:20:36,080 --> 00:20:39,800 new versions of you because they liked knowing what to expect. 360 00:20:39,880 --> 00:20:43,520 And like who you used to be in that other version of yourself 361 00:20:43,840 --> 00:20:46,920 and using your platform for anything other than. 362 00:20:46,920 --> 00:20:51,200 I feel like just like showing off only your body now is like 363 00:20:51,200 --> 00:20:54,640 people are like, I can't believe that that woman has the audacity 364 00:20:54,640 --> 00:20:58,200 to be thinking, to be expanding people's minds, to be talking 365 00:20:58,200 --> 00:21:00,600 about the full moon out there, to be talking about this 366 00:21:00,600 --> 00:21:04,440 different energy. And anytime that you say 367 00:21:04,440 --> 00:21:08,280 something that goes against like what like the normal grain is, 368 00:21:08,760 --> 00:21:12,960 people jump to assumptions. So like the everybody who's 369 00:21:12,960 --> 00:21:16,800 spiritual is like a witch thing and that you're out here doing 370 00:21:16,800 --> 00:21:18,920 negative stuff. If you're doing The Witcher, you 371 00:21:18,960 --> 00:21:21,920 know if you're doing stuff with witchcraft or that you really 372 00:21:21,920 --> 00:21:25,520 are part of a cult. And I listen, I think that any 373 00:21:25,520 --> 00:21:27,880 time that you get insulted by anything or put down about 374 00:21:27,880 --> 00:21:30,800 anything, you should figure out a way to monetize on that 375 00:21:30,800 --> 00:21:34,960 because nothing like gets you money quicker than somebody not 376 00:21:34,960 --> 00:21:38,920 liking you but supporting you. And so I got called a cult 377 00:21:38,920 --> 00:21:42,560 leader all the fucking time. And so I've like made that a 378 00:21:42,560 --> 00:21:47,080 part of my fucking brand. We have a candle. 379 00:21:47,080 --> 00:21:49,280 That collection that just came out yesterday. 380 00:21:49,280 --> 00:21:52,680 We have a cult leader sent in there like it. 381 00:21:52,920 --> 00:21:57,480 You with you having the platform that you do like so much like 382 00:21:57,480 --> 00:21:59,560 transmutation magic you could do. 383 00:21:59,560 --> 00:22:04,360 I feel like and I don't know like how actually into witchy 384 00:22:04,360 --> 00:22:08,760 shit you are, but you could totally make like a ward so that 385 00:22:09,200 --> 00:22:12,040 and like transmute it. So any time that somebody is 386 00:22:12,040 --> 00:22:16,320 talking negatively on your name, you like transmute that energy 387 00:22:16,320 --> 00:22:19,680 into abundance for yourself. Oh, I love that. 388 00:22:19,880 --> 00:22:24,520 So I when it comes to those kinds of things, I feel like. 389 00:22:27,880 --> 00:22:29,880 I feel like I'm topped in with the moon. 390 00:22:30,480 --> 00:22:31,840 I feel like that's helped me a lot. 391 00:22:31,840 --> 00:22:36,040 So I do have a women's circle and we get together, you know, 392 00:22:36,120 --> 00:22:40,800 every full moon and we have our little thing that we do. 393 00:22:40,800 --> 00:22:47,320 But I wouldn't say that I'm a witch, but I feel like I maybe 394 00:22:47,320 --> 00:22:49,280 don't know. You know, like I don't know, 395 00:22:49,280 --> 00:22:53,480 like I'm I'm. I'm just in that process where 396 00:22:53,480 --> 00:22:56,800 I've been pretty much obsessed with the law of attraction and 397 00:22:56,800 --> 00:23:02,200 just how that works and the brain and how that works on some 398 00:23:02,200 --> 00:23:05,360 physics, those kinds of things. That's my vibe. 399 00:23:05,360 --> 00:23:07,920 And and you know that's really what I believe in. 400 00:23:07,920 --> 00:23:12,280 And I also believe that the moon has a huge impact on our 401 00:23:12,280 --> 00:23:16,800 behavior and it's just a very, very powerful energy. 402 00:23:17,120 --> 00:23:21,040 And I've witnessed that power, you know, by tapping in. 403 00:23:22,800 --> 00:23:26,640 But when it comes to to like being more specific and like, 404 00:23:26,640 --> 00:23:30,000 you know, like I have my cards, my mermaid and dolphins cards 405 00:23:30,000 --> 00:23:33,880 and this was like a gift and it was just like, you know, it kind 406 00:23:33,880 --> 00:23:36,680 of all came together. But I don't do it on the 407 00:23:36,680 --> 00:23:39,040 regular. Like I'll do it for myself or if 408 00:23:39,040 --> 00:23:44,200 it if it feels like like I'll be called to do it for someone, you 409 00:23:44,200 --> 00:23:47,160 know. Like I just it's a feeling, but 410 00:23:47,160 --> 00:23:50,720 not something that I do ongoing, but the law of attraction. 411 00:23:50,720 --> 00:23:55,280 And just like just the spiritual stuff, I'm sharing it now 412 00:23:55,280 --> 00:23:59,720 because it's what has worked for me, not that I've been a part of 413 00:23:59,720 --> 00:24:02,560 it with anybody else. Like it's just worked for me and 414 00:24:03,080 --> 00:24:05,960 I just like with the platforms that I have I bring people 415 00:24:05,960 --> 00:24:09,440 together And so whenever I'm doing, I feel caught to say like 416 00:24:09,440 --> 00:24:12,640 hey, you want to join me and then people come and then we 417 00:24:12,640 --> 00:24:15,960 manifest. But yeah, I'm fairly new, fairly 418 00:24:15,960 --> 00:24:21,920 new at the which stuff. So yeah, I don't know where my 419 00:24:21,920 --> 00:24:25,720 place is there, if any, but I vibe with everything and with 420 00:24:25,760 --> 00:24:30,840 everyone and I respect everyone. And I just feel like that's it 421 00:24:30,840 --> 00:24:35,160 shouldn't ever be a factor that separates two people from 422 00:24:35,160 --> 00:24:38,520 vibing, you know, whatever you believe in as long as we're all 423 00:24:38,520 --> 00:24:40,800 respectful. And I do feel like we're in the 424 00:24:40,840 --> 00:24:45,080 same vibe, but maybe I'm just like early on to kind of like 425 00:24:45,720 --> 00:24:51,080 identify with one of those things, identify with money. 426 00:24:51,600 --> 00:24:54,800 But definitely in the same vibe, because for one, your nails are 427 00:24:54,800 --> 00:24:56,240 on point every time your nails come up. 428 00:24:56,360 --> 00:25:01,480 I'm like, I fucking love those. Yeah, I love people who utilize 429 00:25:01,480 --> 00:25:05,600 their platform for expression. Because so many people have 430 00:25:05,600 --> 00:25:09,320 suppressed women throughout history and made us feel like 431 00:25:09,520 --> 00:25:13,120 our voice didn't matter, or that our thoughts were not important, 432 00:25:13,360 --> 00:25:16,600 or that witchcraft is bad. And really the thing about 433 00:25:16,600 --> 00:25:20,440 witchcraft is like, I've seen people call it like the woman in 434 00:25:20,440 --> 00:25:23,440 total control of herself and it spells witch. 435 00:25:23,800 --> 00:25:28,160 And so it's like at the end of the day, women have a power. 436 00:25:28,280 --> 00:25:31,600 We are a portal that brings life to this dimension. 437 00:25:31,800 --> 00:25:35,240 So that is witchcraft in itself. And I think that's why, like, 438 00:25:35,240 --> 00:25:39,040 men throughout history have done very well in like brainwashing 439 00:25:39,040 --> 00:25:42,800 women of their true power and kind of taking back that power 440 00:25:42,800 --> 00:25:46,000 from us. And now in the universe that 441 00:25:46,000 --> 00:25:49,480 we're all existing in and coexisting women are coming 442 00:25:49,480 --> 00:25:53,200 together and we're supporting one another and we are uniting. 443 00:25:53,200 --> 00:25:55,320 And I love that you do a full moon circle, 'cause that's what 444 00:25:55,320 --> 00:25:57,120 we're doing tonight. We always I heard. 445 00:25:57,360 --> 00:26:00,200 That's why I was like, OK. Yeah, like we always do it on 446 00:26:00,200 --> 00:26:03,600 the full moon weekend and we always like, probably do it 447 00:26:03,600 --> 00:26:06,800 either the day before, the day after, just to give people space 448 00:26:06,800 --> 00:26:08,800 for their own rituals on the day of. 449 00:26:09,120 --> 00:26:12,640 But yeah, it's really such a beautiful energy to work with 450 00:26:12,680 --> 00:26:17,560 the cosmos and with astrology and just like the very natural 451 00:26:17,840 --> 00:26:20,920 explanations of like the seasons. 452 00:26:20,920 --> 00:26:23,880 You know, like we had the Lunar New Year recently and now I'm. 453 00:26:23,960 --> 00:26:26,600 I've been feeling much more motivated and feels like things 454 00:26:26,600 --> 00:26:29,040 are shaking loose. But a lot of people have just 455 00:26:29,040 --> 00:26:32,040 forgot their true nature because we're so wrapped up in like 456 00:26:32,080 --> 00:26:37,000 artificial 3D existence, like that work, eat, sleep schedule. 457 00:26:37,240 --> 00:26:39,680 So we love to see people. And that's one of the reasons we 458 00:26:39,680 --> 00:26:42,400 wanted to have you on the podcast is just like bringing 459 00:26:42,400 --> 00:26:46,000 people together that are in support of each other's unique 460 00:26:46,000 --> 00:26:48,040 abilities. You know, there's no need to 461 00:26:48,040 --> 00:26:51,400 define what everyone's gifts are if you are tapped in with your 462 00:26:51,400 --> 00:26:54,160 essence because other people can feel that. 463 00:26:54,160 --> 00:26:56,720 You know what I mean? Yes, absolutely. 464 00:26:56,720 --> 00:26:58,560 I agree. Like people who come to my 465 00:26:58,560 --> 00:27:04,200 women's circle and to my manifestation workshops, they 466 00:27:04,200 --> 00:27:07,280 believe in different things. Like some of them are very 467 00:27:07,280 --> 00:27:10,080 religious and some of them are not. 468 00:27:10,080 --> 00:27:13,720 Some of them are spiritual, some don't believe in nothing, and 469 00:27:13,720 --> 00:27:18,800 but they believe in my I don't know in my journey or the way 470 00:27:18,800 --> 00:27:21,560 that I explain things. It just resonates. 471 00:27:21,800 --> 00:27:26,080 Like anything that I know, the knowledge that I hold, I learned 472 00:27:26,120 --> 00:27:30,240 from someone like I've, you know, done my research, I've 473 00:27:30,240 --> 00:27:34,200 studied, I've learned. And so you know it. 474 00:27:34,200 --> 00:27:36,520 It's been a journey. We can all come together. 475 00:27:36,520 --> 00:27:40,720 Like you said, if you believe in yourself and you can tap in with 476 00:27:40,720 --> 00:27:47,080 you and you know, we set an intention for what we want to be 477 00:27:47,080 --> 00:27:50,840 of a blessing in our lives. So even me coming here, I said 478 00:27:50,840 --> 00:27:54,000 the intention that this is of a blessing to my life and to our 479 00:27:54,000 --> 00:27:57,840 lives and that we get something good from it, even if it's just 480 00:27:57,840 --> 00:28:01,200 like to raise our vibration and keep up that momentum with all 481 00:28:01,200 --> 00:28:04,040 of our energies. And so it's been a journey. 482 00:28:04,280 --> 00:28:08,760 I, you know, I've been. It's been, it's been such a 483 00:28:08,840 --> 00:28:10,880 journey. Like I did the thing with the 484 00:28:10,880 --> 00:28:13,840 body, like, like you were saying, with the body showing my 485 00:28:13,840 --> 00:28:16,480 body always, like on the pictures and stuff. 486 00:28:16,680 --> 00:28:19,000 And now that I do something different, people are taken 487 00:28:19,000 --> 00:28:21,000 aback. But I feel like this is the 488 00:28:21,000 --> 00:28:22,680 important work that I need to do. 489 00:28:22,680 --> 00:28:24,360 This is what I have to put out there. 490 00:28:24,360 --> 00:28:28,680 Because when we share these messages of how we have been 491 00:28:29,120 --> 00:28:33,520 brainwashed through our entire lives, believing certain things 492 00:28:33,520 --> 00:28:37,080 not only from men but from women, from our parents, from 493 00:28:37,080 --> 00:28:41,120 our environment, that's what's been in our subconscious. 494 00:28:41,120 --> 00:28:45,920 It's been their programs. And once I realized that truth, 495 00:28:46,440 --> 00:28:48,800 I my life, my entire life changed. 496 00:28:48,800 --> 00:28:51,880 And I just knew, like, I have to put the message out there. 497 00:28:51,880 --> 00:28:56,760 But recently I've also realized that it's really not my job to 498 00:28:58,120 --> 00:29:00,920 make people understand what we know. 499 00:29:01,320 --> 00:29:05,280 You know, about manifesting. I think that it's not our job. 500 00:29:05,760 --> 00:29:08,040 If we feel called to do it, we can do it. 501 00:29:08,040 --> 00:29:11,240 And the chosen ones of people that are ready to receive your 502 00:29:11,240 --> 00:29:14,960 message and vibe with you, they will come, they will listen, 503 00:29:15,080 --> 00:29:17,520 they will do. But you can't. 504 00:29:17,800 --> 00:29:19,840 You can't just try and save the world. 505 00:29:19,840 --> 00:29:21,480 Because that's not why we came here. 506 00:29:21,480 --> 00:29:26,800 We came to enjoy our own path and to feel and to learn and to 507 00:29:26,800 --> 00:29:31,200 grow and to achieve and witness our own power. 508 00:29:31,920 --> 00:29:33,520 And so that's what I'm realizing now. 509 00:29:33,520 --> 00:29:35,720 So that's why I'll put videos out there and stuff. 510 00:29:36,000 --> 00:29:39,160 But it's not my, it's not my mission. 511 00:29:39,160 --> 00:29:42,160 It's just part of my purpose. That was a lot. 512 00:29:42,920 --> 00:29:46,040 Sorry. No, that's super beautiful. 513 00:29:46,040 --> 00:29:50,120 I know that Paige and I do classes too. 514 00:29:50,120 --> 00:29:55,080 So Paige does Tarot classes. And so you did what you've done 515 00:29:55,080 --> 00:29:57,160 2 rounds of those. Yeah. 516 00:29:58,080 --> 00:30:01,680 She just did her second round of the tarot class and then I teach 517 00:30:03,040 --> 00:30:06,920 AI, teach 3 witchcraft classes and a mediumship class. 518 00:30:07,240 --> 00:30:11,080 And I think that it's such a big thing too. 519 00:30:11,280 --> 00:30:14,560 When you start having people inside of, like your community 520 00:30:14,560 --> 00:30:17,240 space and they are looking to you as somebody who's like 521 00:30:17,240 --> 00:30:21,080 giving education, you're like so proud of the people who are like 522 00:30:21,080 --> 00:30:24,000 pouring into themselves and who get it and who are on the vibe. 523 00:30:24,400 --> 00:30:28,080 And then also, I don't know if you guys have experienced this, 524 00:30:28,080 --> 00:30:32,560 but I've been working through the not getting like frustrated. 525 00:30:32,560 --> 00:30:36,080 If people put themselves inside of that community space, but 526 00:30:36,080 --> 00:30:38,320 then they don't take out of it like what I'm teaching. 527 00:30:38,320 --> 00:30:42,600 Like there will be people who I'm like, but like you committed 528 00:30:42,600 --> 00:30:45,360 to this energetically. And like you told yourself that 529 00:30:45,360 --> 00:30:47,680 you were going to give yourself like the six weeks or whatever. 530 00:30:47,680 --> 00:30:49,880 And like you were going to do the homework and you were going 531 00:30:49,880 --> 00:30:52,240 to do the things so like. Why are you? 532 00:30:52,240 --> 00:30:57,720 Cheating yourself out of the experience and I I've done I 533 00:30:57,720 --> 00:31:01,880 think 3 rounds of the witchcraft classes and I'm just now 534 00:31:01,880 --> 00:31:05,880 starting to get to the point where I'm like, there's so many 535 00:31:05,880 --> 00:31:09,200 people who do want to pour in and who do want to get like as 536 00:31:09,200 --> 00:31:12,160 much as they can of like the education and the experience. 537 00:31:12,440 --> 00:31:15,560 And those are the people who deserve all of the energy and 538 00:31:15,560 --> 00:31:19,600 all of the time and the people who aren't ready for it in the 539 00:31:19,600 --> 00:31:22,040 moment. It's not because I'm letting 540 00:31:22,040 --> 00:31:23,960 them down. Like, I think it goes back to an 541 00:31:23,960 --> 00:31:27,160 ego thing where like I'm, I'm not letting them down. 542 00:31:27,160 --> 00:31:29,120 It's not that I'm not providing enough. 543 00:31:29,120 --> 00:31:32,720 It's that wherever you are right now in your healing journey, 544 00:31:33,000 --> 00:31:36,800 you're not ready for this. But subconsciously, I hope that 545 00:31:36,800 --> 00:31:40,080 you're like taking all the things and absorbing it in and 546 00:31:40,080 --> 00:31:44,520 that you like, you know, stay here so that when you are ready, 547 00:31:44,680 --> 00:31:47,040 you can like have that total experience. 548 00:31:47,040 --> 00:31:51,600 Do you feel like with you guys that you have that too? 549 00:31:53,080 --> 00:31:57,320 Yeah, I do. And what I tell people now, I I 550 00:31:57,320 --> 00:32:00,280 used to be like that, just like you when when you know, you're 551 00:32:00,280 --> 00:32:05,080 trying to tell them, but you're like you're not, you know, doing 552 00:32:05,080 --> 00:32:06,160 what you said you're going to do. 553 00:32:06,160 --> 00:32:09,160 You're the one cheating yourself out of the experience or out of, 554 00:32:09,160 --> 00:32:12,800 you know, seeing your power. Like, I've been there, but now 555 00:32:12,800 --> 00:32:16,320 that I learned that, really, that's really not my job. 556 00:32:16,320 --> 00:32:19,720 It's something I want to do, you know, Like I like to paint. 557 00:32:19,720 --> 00:32:21,680 I like to do this. I like to do that, my poetry, 558 00:32:22,000 --> 00:32:25,520 but that's really not my job. And now that I understand that 559 00:32:25,520 --> 00:32:30,280 my job is me and that's really what it is, what I tell people 560 00:32:30,280 --> 00:32:35,360 when they like that I'm like people love to argue for their 561 00:32:35,360 --> 00:32:38,000 limitations. I used to be one of those 562 00:32:38,000 --> 00:32:44,000 people, but I was able to surpass that to understand that, 563 00:32:44,600 --> 00:32:47,680 you know, there is a certain level of commitment that you 564 00:32:47,680 --> 00:32:50,640 have to have an awareness, right. 565 00:32:52,200 --> 00:32:55,600 So I always try to tell those people, you know, like I'm not 566 00:32:55,600 --> 00:33:00,600 going to, you know, insist everyone loves to argue for 567 00:33:00,600 --> 00:33:02,640 their limitations. I used to be one of those 568 00:33:02,640 --> 00:33:06,280 people. But you have to try. 569 00:33:06,800 --> 00:33:10,000 You can't just give up. But if you want to, that's not 570 00:33:10,000 --> 00:33:12,080 you. You know that's on you. 571 00:33:12,080 --> 00:33:17,600 Like I tell them just like that because he it's hard for people 572 00:33:17,600 --> 00:33:21,080 to understand the energy work. That's that's the thing. 573 00:33:21,720 --> 00:33:23,880 So you can't be hard on yourself. 574 00:33:24,560 --> 00:33:28,040 You do what you can. Who's ready will come. 575 00:33:28,480 --> 00:33:30,800 Who's going to flourish. They're going to feel it. 576 00:33:30,800 --> 00:33:33,400 It's going to resonate. They're going to feel called to 577 00:33:33,840 --> 00:33:37,400 to do it, but whoever doesn't, they're just not aligned, 578 00:33:37,400 --> 00:33:40,240 they're not ready, and it's not your job to convince them 579 00:33:40,280 --> 00:33:42,720 otherwise. Yeah, we've learned that the 580 00:33:42,720 --> 00:33:46,600 hard way, 'cause we have communities that we were just 581 00:33:46,600 --> 00:33:49,240 letting you know anyone and everyone into this community. 582 00:33:49,240 --> 00:33:52,000 Obviously there was an an energy exchange, but I think at one 583 00:33:52,000 --> 00:33:55,440 point hers was like 5 and mine was like $7.00. 584 00:33:55,440 --> 00:33:58,320 So for a whole month you could be a part of this community 585 00:33:58,320 --> 00:34:02,080 space and it was kind of like when you're a kid and your mom's 586 00:34:02,080 --> 00:34:04,560 like, OK, now play nice. We'll see you all later. 587 00:34:05,040 --> 00:34:07,720 We come back and like the house is on fire and people are like 588 00:34:07,720 --> 00:34:11,400 throwing shit at each other. So it was lifestyle grown 589 00:34:11,400 --> 00:34:14,199 individuals, girl grown individuals, and they're 590 00:34:14,199 --> 00:34:17,000 stirring up shit. Talking about Jim and I think 591 00:34:17,000 --> 00:34:20,239 she's a cult leader and Paige doesn't give me my reading when 592 00:34:20,280 --> 00:34:22,600 I want it and just like all this, like back. 593 00:34:22,600 --> 00:34:25,719 In Oh my God. And they, like, ganged up and 594 00:34:25,719 --> 00:34:28,480 started their own clique. And then like, over the summer 595 00:34:28,639 --> 00:34:30,920 they had a spiritual retreat together. 596 00:34:31,120 --> 00:34:34,560 And I was like, that's great. I'm happy for you all because 597 00:34:34,719 --> 00:34:38,120 this was a thorn in my side, like dealing with you all. 598 00:34:38,120 --> 00:34:40,679 And some of these people are like, like, I'm 31. 599 00:34:40,679 --> 00:34:44,960 These people are like 4555, in their 60s, like women, like 600 00:34:44,960 --> 00:34:50,080 grown grandmothers in this world out here, acting a fool. 601 00:34:50,120 --> 00:34:52,320 And it was just like we learned the hard way that like the 602 00:34:52,320 --> 00:34:54,400 people who are going to do the work will do the work 603 00:34:54,760 --> 00:34:56,920 regardless. But a lot of people just do the 604 00:34:56,920 --> 00:34:59,560 work for show. They do it in front of you, but 605 00:34:59,560 --> 00:35:03,160 then behind the scenes they're, you know, drilling holes in the 606 00:35:03,160 --> 00:35:06,440 boat because they're trying to sink the ship, because they're 607 00:35:06,440 --> 00:35:09,960 not the captain or whatever. And so we've learned that like 608 00:35:09,960 --> 00:35:12,440 throughout the last couple years, just like letting people 609 00:35:12,440 --> 00:35:15,440 go and like letting them be themselves. 610 00:35:15,800 --> 00:35:18,240 Not judging that, not taking that personal. 611 00:35:18,520 --> 00:35:24,120 But if we as humans would learn that most people project those 612 00:35:24,120 --> 00:35:27,640 insecurities onto people that they're inspired by, or that 613 00:35:27,640 --> 00:35:30,480 they're jealous of, or that they're intimidated by, it's 614 00:35:30,480 --> 00:35:33,840 nothing we're doing wrong. Our energy all is very loud. 615 00:35:34,080 --> 00:35:36,320 But that's what we like. Love the podcast, 'cause we can 616 00:35:36,320 --> 00:35:39,520 bring people like yourself who have loud and beautiful and 617 00:35:39,520 --> 00:35:42,720 unique energy, and we can all collaborate like no one's in 618 00:35:42,720 --> 00:35:45,720 competition. We're all unison, and so many 619 00:35:45,720 --> 00:35:49,160 people don't realize that you're really only competing with 620 00:35:49,160 --> 00:35:52,480 yourself, your procrastination, your limiting beliefs, your 621 00:35:52,480 --> 00:35:54,600 fears. But instead they take the 622 00:35:54,600 --> 00:35:57,720 leaders, the people that are teaching, the people who have a 623 00:35:57,720 --> 00:36:00,560 spiritual path and try to project that fear. 624 00:36:00,560 --> 00:36:02,320 Whether it's like, oh, that's witchcraft. 625 00:36:02,520 --> 00:36:05,400 That's the one thing I've learned a lot recently. 626 00:36:05,400 --> 00:36:09,080 It is that guys think that if something doesn't work out with 627 00:36:09,080 --> 00:36:12,320 us and I'm going to put a spell on to them and I'm like y'all 628 00:36:14,200 --> 00:36:16,360 y'all are wasting my time with this energy. 629 00:36:16,920 --> 00:36:18,440 You're like the Taylor Swift of the. 630 00:36:18,440 --> 00:36:20,440 Spiritual world that you just like. 631 00:36:21,240 --> 00:36:23,600 Put spells on people instead of writing songs about them. 632 00:36:25,680 --> 00:36:27,640 Yeah, but everything is a projection. 633 00:36:27,800 --> 00:36:32,880 Everything, you know, people see their reflection whenever, you 634 00:36:32,880 --> 00:36:35,280 know. People have called me the worst 635 00:36:35,280 --> 00:36:40,120 things in life, you know? And people unfortunately, people 636 00:36:40,120 --> 00:36:45,320 who I thought we're close friends at some point it 637 00:36:45,320 --> 00:36:47,200 happens. You know people who are part of 638 00:36:47,200 --> 00:36:52,400 my community or the work and it's I came to learn that it's 639 00:36:52,400 --> 00:36:57,840 it's all a reflection. You know everything is you put 640 00:36:57,840 --> 00:37:01,320 out on the other side. So you're you're going to get 641 00:37:01,320 --> 00:37:05,040 what you're what you're giving. And if what you're getting is 642 00:37:05,040 --> 00:37:09,320 negative, you either look at yourself and if you feel like 643 00:37:09,320 --> 00:37:11,560 I'm putting everything out positive, I'm not feeling 644 00:37:11,560 --> 00:37:15,320 negative emotions towards this person that is attacking me, 645 00:37:15,720 --> 00:37:19,160 right? I know that this is that they 646 00:37:19,240 --> 00:37:23,080 are not feeling good. They're not feeling good. 647 00:37:23,120 --> 00:37:26,440 And I'm reflecting that back to them when they look at me. 648 00:37:26,840 --> 00:37:30,480 They're seeing negative things or they want to start drama, or 649 00:37:30,480 --> 00:37:32,240 they want to start this or that, or the third. 650 00:37:32,520 --> 00:37:34,040 They want a problem. They're angry. 651 00:37:34,040 --> 00:37:37,120 You know, they, you know, they don't feel good. 652 00:37:37,200 --> 00:37:41,080 And so I'm reflecting that because I'm a mirror to them, to 653 00:37:41,080 --> 00:37:44,520 what they're feeling. And so that's why I love when I 654 00:37:44,520 --> 00:37:50,040 come across people who are aligned with me in that energy, 655 00:37:50,040 --> 00:37:54,800 in that positivity and just that joy and that knowing that we're 656 00:37:54,800 --> 00:37:59,720 able to create our reality and make our life move the way that 657 00:37:59,720 --> 00:38:02,920 we want it to. Because I feel free. 658 00:38:02,920 --> 00:38:05,360 You know what? I what I'm looking at is a 659 00:38:05,360 --> 00:38:08,040 reflection of myself. And it looks it's good, it's 660 00:38:08,040 --> 00:38:11,320 happy, it's it's joyful. And that's why I always say it's 661 00:38:11,320 --> 00:38:15,120 hard to to separate yourself from people that you care about. 662 00:38:15,120 --> 00:38:17,800 But they're not aligned going back to what we were talking 663 00:38:17,800 --> 00:38:19,760 about, about, you know, you want to convince them. 664 00:38:20,040 --> 00:38:22,400 And it happens a lot with your best friends, with your family 665 00:38:22,400 --> 00:38:25,520 members, unfortunately, with people closest to you who are 666 00:38:25,520 --> 00:38:29,560 just not there yet. But they might think you're 667 00:38:29,560 --> 00:38:33,520 selfish for stepping away and having boundaries, but you're 668 00:38:33,520 --> 00:38:37,560 not selfish as a person who wants you to not do you. 669 00:38:37,560 --> 00:38:39,920 So you can do them and make them feel good. 670 00:38:40,560 --> 00:38:43,360 So that's something that we also have to learn, you know? 671 00:38:44,680 --> 00:38:50,600 I'm into that. I always say that like when when 672 00:38:50,920 --> 00:38:53,760 Rampage gets going and you like, feel like you're being preached 673 00:38:53,760 --> 00:38:57,360 at, like and like the like a positive way, but you give that 674 00:38:57,360 --> 00:39:01,680 same like motivational speaker, like I'm going to preach at you 675 00:39:01,680 --> 00:39:05,440 and tell you what's up, Type 5. That's what happens in my 676 00:39:05,440 --> 00:39:08,520 manifestation workshops. That's literally what happens. 677 00:39:08,520 --> 00:39:12,960 It's like a rampage and I'm it's like trying to teach people what 678 00:39:12,960 --> 00:39:16,280 I know, what's been my experience and people are asking 679 00:39:16,280 --> 00:39:18,400 questions or what do I do when this, when that. 680 00:39:18,400 --> 00:39:21,560 And I'm just like saying everything. 681 00:39:21,720 --> 00:39:24,000 Everything like it's just flows through me. 682 00:39:24,000 --> 00:39:27,120 And it's crazy because I don't even know. 683 00:39:27,120 --> 00:39:31,000 It just happens. So like when someone's truly in 684 00:39:31,000 --> 00:39:33,920 tune with the universe and, like, passionate about whatever 685 00:39:33,920 --> 00:39:36,800 they're speaking on. And like, I went to college for 686 00:39:36,800 --> 00:39:41,080 communications and marketing, so I've just applied that to my 687 00:39:41,080 --> 00:39:43,800 real life and into like, real instances. 688 00:39:43,800 --> 00:39:47,800 And like when I was, you know, 19 years old picking my major, I 689 00:39:47,800 --> 00:39:51,320 didn't know I would ever use that public speaking degree. 690 00:39:51,520 --> 00:39:54,600 But I knew that if I could communicate in any area of my 691 00:39:54,600 --> 00:39:58,040 life that I would be better off because I think that's what is 692 00:39:58,040 --> 00:40:03,320 lacking with social media is like true communication and true 693 00:40:03,320 --> 00:40:06,360 alignment. Because you can show the world 694 00:40:06,360 --> 00:40:08,800 your highlight reel and be whatever you want on the 695 00:40:08,800 --> 00:40:10,960 Internet. But then when you sit down and 696 00:40:10,960 --> 00:40:13,000 you want to have a conversation with someone or you're going to 697 00:40:13,000 --> 00:40:15,720 teach something or you're going to be around this person, it's 698 00:40:15,720 --> 00:40:18,080 like, do I actually resonate with them? 699 00:40:18,080 --> 00:40:22,200 You know, we can resonate with a TikTok here and there or a post, 700 00:40:22,480 --> 00:40:24,920 but we've sat down when people have been like, who is this 701 00:40:24,920 --> 00:40:26,440 person? But I really like that. 702 00:40:26,520 --> 00:40:31,000 That your energy kind of shines through with like take it or 703 00:40:31,000 --> 00:40:33,200 leave it. Like I I don't care if you take 704 00:40:33,200 --> 00:40:37,920 it, but I'm going to leave it here and you can absorb it how I 705 00:40:38,000 --> 00:40:40,040 like that. That's how I feel like it. 706 00:40:40,280 --> 00:40:44,360 Is that's how I am? In the day, like I I respect 707 00:40:44,360 --> 00:40:48,240 that about you because so many people are not assertive in a 708 00:40:48,240 --> 00:40:51,880 sense that it doesn't have to come off rude or mean or 709 00:40:51,880 --> 00:40:54,480 anything. Assertiveness just means I know 710 00:40:54,480 --> 00:40:57,880 that I am passionate and I'm in this conviction and I'm 711 00:40:57,880 --> 00:41:01,520 unwavering on this belief, whether you like it or not. 712 00:41:01,760 --> 00:41:06,280 And a lot of people take that as like, you know, intimidation or 713 00:41:06,280 --> 00:41:08,800 whatever. And I love that thing. 714 00:41:08,800 --> 00:41:11,880 I've seen Gemini share it where it's like I'm not going to water 715 00:41:11,880 --> 00:41:15,280 myself down. You can choke and like I respect 716 00:41:15,280 --> 00:41:19,560 that cause a lot of people want spiritual people to be all light 717 00:41:19,560 --> 00:41:23,080 and love and not embrace that dark feminine or that darker 718 00:41:23,080 --> 00:41:25,160 energy. And I think that's what's helped 719 00:41:25,160 --> 00:41:28,880 me the most, is embracing my shadow and realizing that a lot 720 00:41:28,880 --> 00:41:32,520 of the choices I made were just because I was in survival mode 721 00:41:32,520 --> 00:41:36,800 or just because I was not confident and not happy. 722 00:41:36,800 --> 00:41:41,080 And like you said, that joy, it's a vibration that attracts 723 00:41:41,080 --> 00:41:44,040 things to you. So when we're getting that same 724 00:41:44,040 --> 00:41:47,920 lesson over and over again, you have to embrace it with love 725 00:41:47,920 --> 00:41:49,840 rather than rejecting that lesson. 726 00:41:49,840 --> 00:41:52,600 And I think that's really hard for a lot of people who are on 727 00:41:52,600 --> 00:41:54,800 the that other side that are fearful. 728 00:41:55,000 --> 00:41:57,680 So they see Someone Like You, Jason, who's living her life, 729 00:41:57,960 --> 00:41:59,240 and they want to project onto you. 730 00:41:59,240 --> 00:42:00,600 Oh, I like the old version of you. 731 00:42:00,600 --> 00:42:03,160 I like this because the old version of me was easily 732 00:42:03,160 --> 00:42:05,320 manipulated. The old version of me didn't 733 00:42:05,320 --> 00:42:08,320 love herself, didn't see herself, didn't appreciate 734 00:42:08,320 --> 00:42:11,920 herself, you know? Literally, literally, the old 735 00:42:11,920 --> 00:42:17,120 version of me did not do all the things that I do know. 736 00:42:17,120 --> 00:42:23,240 Like I've I've cried of joy so many times. 737 00:42:23,560 --> 00:42:28,080 Like, I cry of joy whenever I'm crying because I remember 738 00:42:28,080 --> 00:42:31,520 something sad or something sad happened, I catch myself. 739 00:42:31,520 --> 00:42:35,720 That awareness is what has saved me, because I know what's going 740 00:42:35,720 --> 00:42:38,880 to happen if I stay crying. If I stay in a in a negative 741 00:42:39,080 --> 00:42:41,400 emotion, I'm going to get more of them. 742 00:42:42,200 --> 00:42:43,680 I'm literally going to get more of that. 743 00:42:43,680 --> 00:42:46,440 So I know that I'm not a stupid person. 744 00:42:46,440 --> 00:42:48,680 I consider myself a highly intelligent woman. 745 00:42:48,840 --> 00:42:50,720 I'm not going to stay doing that. 746 00:42:50,920 --> 00:42:55,760 I'm going to feel good. I'm going to turn my attention 747 00:42:55,760 --> 00:42:57,920 to something productive, something that feels good, 748 00:42:57,920 --> 00:43:00,680 something that's non resistant and everything is going to work 749 00:43:00,680 --> 00:43:03,080 out. But I have the power to do that. 750 00:43:03,320 --> 00:43:05,400 And you're right, I'm very much take it or leave it. 751 00:43:05,400 --> 00:43:08,000 That's why at the end of all of my videos I say don't say I 752 00:43:08,000 --> 00:43:11,360 didn't tell you because when shit don't go right for you, 753 00:43:11,360 --> 00:43:14,160 don't say I didn't tell you, don't say I was gatekeeping 754 00:43:14,400 --> 00:43:17,560 because I didn't. I felt called to tell y'all 755 00:43:17,920 --> 00:43:20,440 y'all don't want to listen. Oh well you're going to keep 756 00:43:20,440 --> 00:43:23,440 seeing me elevate, elevate, elevate and I'm going to get to 757 00:43:23,440 --> 00:43:26,720 a place where it's like I don't. Not that I don't give a fuck, 758 00:43:26,720 --> 00:43:30,440 but I said what I said and and now I got to put my attention to 759 00:43:30,440 --> 00:43:32,960 something else. So even with this work that I do 760 00:43:32,960 --> 00:43:36,200 with the manifestation workshops and stuff I'm feeling called to 761 00:43:36,200 --> 00:43:39,760 do that but I know that I'm going to reach a level that I'm 762 00:43:39,760 --> 00:43:42,120 so busy that I can't be doing that. 763 00:43:42,560 --> 00:43:45,560 Yes, I'll go to podcasts and stuff and do interviews and and 764 00:43:45,560 --> 00:43:48,320 share what I know. And I mean, I'll probably be 765 00:43:48,320 --> 00:43:51,760 doing it at a larger magnitude for all I know, right? 766 00:43:52,200 --> 00:43:56,560 But this opportunity that I'm giving people now, like very 767 00:43:56,560 --> 00:43:59,920 much private, like 15 people will come to my workshop, you 768 00:43:59,920 --> 00:44:02,040 know, stuff like that. And you see all the people that 769 00:44:02,040 --> 00:44:04,600 I have. So that just goes back to the 770 00:44:04,600 --> 00:44:10,160 fact that not everyone is ready, not everyone, you know, believes 771 00:44:10,320 --> 00:44:15,480 that they have that power. So yeah, so like, for me, I just 772 00:44:15,480 --> 00:44:19,360 do what I'm called to do. I hear I listen to the universe 773 00:44:20,640 --> 00:44:22,880 and I do what I need to do. But then I keep going. 774 00:44:22,880 --> 00:44:25,440 I keep going. I got too much, too much shake 775 00:44:25,440 --> 00:44:27,920 going on. Like, I'm founder and CEO of 776 00:44:27,920 --> 00:44:30,760 multiple companies. I'm next in line for my dad's 777 00:44:30,760 --> 00:44:32,880 company. And it's just a lot. 778 00:44:32,880 --> 00:44:37,720 It's a lot in the brain. So like, I do what I can the 779 00:44:37,720 --> 00:44:43,400 best I can, but I'm not. I'm not obsessed with, you know, 780 00:44:43,400 --> 00:44:46,760 convincing people or just doing this for the rest of my life. 781 00:44:46,760 --> 00:44:50,760 No, I got a lot of things to do. So I'm open to whatever it's 782 00:44:50,760 --> 00:44:52,200 going to be, but I know it's going to be good. 783 00:44:53,480 --> 00:44:55,600 Where are you at? Where do you live at? 784 00:44:56,040 --> 00:44:58,600 I live upstate New York right now. 785 00:44:58,840 --> 00:45:00,400 That's so far. Away. 786 00:45:00,960 --> 00:45:06,200 Where are you guys? I'm in Idaho and Page is in 787 00:45:06,200 --> 00:45:08,640 Kentucky. Oh, OK. 788 00:45:08,960 --> 00:45:13,200 I mean, it's a flight away. But yeah, I used to live in 789 00:45:13,200 --> 00:45:14,960 Puerto Rico when I was on Are you the one? 790 00:45:15,320 --> 00:45:17,640 I lived in the island. But then there was a really bad 791 00:45:17,640 --> 00:45:21,880 hurricane and very bad natural disaster. 792 00:45:22,160 --> 00:45:25,960 And so then we were became homeless and stuff back then and 793 00:45:25,960 --> 00:45:30,040 we had to move to over here to New York. 794 00:45:30,320 --> 00:45:33,080 And that's been a journey. Listen, when I tell you, that's 795 00:45:33,080 --> 00:45:37,240 why even yesterday or the day before my show and my poetry 796 00:45:37,240 --> 00:45:41,280 show, I was telling people, I'm like, you guys see me. 797 00:45:41,280 --> 00:45:44,160 And some of you might think, oh, that's just a girl trying to be 798 00:45:44,160 --> 00:45:45,840 positive. She don't know. 799 00:45:45,840 --> 00:45:49,560 No, I've been through my fair share of things, you know, like 800 00:45:49,600 --> 00:45:56,400 a lot people would be surprised. But the worst is now behind me. 801 00:45:56,520 --> 00:46:00,160 That's just how I feel. No matter what happens, it's 802 00:46:00,160 --> 00:46:03,120 behind me now. So what's coming is always 803 00:46:03,120 --> 00:46:04,320 better. It's always better. 804 00:46:04,760 --> 00:46:07,760 And so that's how I live my life and that's what I I try to tell 805 00:46:07,760 --> 00:46:08,960 people. But yeah, I've been through a 806 00:46:08,960 --> 00:46:11,000 lot. And I ended up here upstate New 807 00:46:11,000 --> 00:46:15,200 York, which was the last place I thought I'd ever end up in. 808 00:46:16,160 --> 00:46:18,280 But it's been of a blessing. I started to paint. 809 00:46:18,280 --> 00:46:21,880 I started my poetry. I'm having a retreat, a poetry 810 00:46:21,880 --> 00:46:25,480 retreat. So, like, yeah, it's the best 811 00:46:25,480 --> 00:46:26,920 thing. Everything bad that ever 812 00:46:26,920 --> 00:46:29,240 happened to me. Anything traumatizing. 813 00:46:29,480 --> 00:46:33,080 All the loss, all the pain, all the things I went through. 814 00:46:33,840 --> 00:46:38,120 I can say that I'm glad that it happened, and I never thought I 815 00:46:38,120 --> 00:46:41,600 would say that, but I'm glad that it happened because now I 816 00:46:41,600 --> 00:46:45,680 cry only tears of joy. You know, I made a post just 817 00:46:45,680 --> 00:46:49,000 about that today. Like a lot of people resent the 818 00:46:49,040 --> 00:46:51,880 things that you did in survival mode or the things that we had 819 00:46:51,880 --> 00:46:54,640 to do in order to survive. But the more that I just 820 00:46:54,640 --> 00:46:57,800 appreciate that version of myself that was just trying to 821 00:46:57,800 --> 00:47:00,520 figure it out and just trying to make it to another day. 822 00:47:00,800 --> 00:47:05,360 Like I've just, like, really became so unapologetic about who 823 00:47:05,360 --> 00:47:09,080 I'm becoming and like, unwavering in my energy where 824 00:47:09,080 --> 00:47:11,960 it's like if something doesn't align, I can easily let it go. 825 00:47:11,960 --> 00:47:15,560 Now I could easily just be like, Nope, blah, I'm blocking you. 826 00:47:15,560 --> 00:47:17,280 I'm moving on, I'm letting you go. 827 00:47:17,280 --> 00:47:20,480 You're not getting a reaction, and I've really been setting in 828 00:47:20,480 --> 00:47:22,920 that lately. But I love that you do poetry 829 00:47:22,920 --> 00:47:25,720 because when I first started my spiritual awakening, I had this 830 00:47:25,720 --> 00:47:28,920 epiphany moment that I was going to write poetry. 831 00:47:28,920 --> 00:47:32,720 So I started writing poetry and I put some on my blog on my 832 00:47:32,720 --> 00:47:36,640 website and I have a whole collection that I submitted to 833 00:47:36,640 --> 00:47:39,040 like a writing contest at that time. 834 00:47:39,040 --> 00:47:42,600 I mean this was like 2017, but it was just great because you 835 00:47:42,600 --> 00:47:45,040 also mentioned painting, writing and painting. 836 00:47:45,040 --> 00:47:47,040 Like I painted most of these paintings, you can't really see 837 00:47:47,040 --> 00:47:50,840 them, but that was like 2 outlets that I utilized to 838 00:47:50,840 --> 00:47:54,680 really get through the blockages that I had. 839 00:47:54,680 --> 00:47:59,320 It was like so much was like harbored in my body that it was 840 00:47:59,320 --> 00:48:02,600 physically making me ill or sad or depressed. 841 00:48:02,720 --> 00:48:05,640 And when I started expressing that I have, like, created such 842 00:48:05,640 --> 00:48:09,480 a mental freedom that I never thought I would have truly. 843 00:48:11,320 --> 00:48:13,280 I agree with that Gemini, you there. 844 00:48:15,760 --> 00:48:19,480 I did mine. Like for me, I'm not somebody 845 00:48:19,480 --> 00:48:24,240 who is artistic in that way. So I poured my energy into 846 00:48:24,240 --> 00:48:27,720 creating a different podcast because that is that was my 847 00:48:27,720 --> 00:48:31,520 first podcast because that's the way that I was able to express 848 00:48:31,520 --> 00:48:34,680 myself and to start speaking things. 849 00:48:34,720 --> 00:48:38,640 I don't know without it necessarily going into it. 850 00:48:38,640 --> 00:48:41,560 For it to be my journal, 'cause I was always talking to other 851 00:48:41,560 --> 00:48:45,520 people. It is such an evolution because 852 00:48:45,520 --> 00:48:49,920 my whole, that whole part of my healing journey was being done 853 00:48:49,920 --> 00:48:52,280 with a bunch of different people, was being done with one 854 00:48:52,280 --> 00:48:56,320 new person every single week and learning something from them 855 00:48:56,320 --> 00:48:59,600 about their spiritual journey and like their healing journey 856 00:48:59,800 --> 00:49:02,560 and getting like a tip from them and like applying that to my 857 00:49:02,560 --> 00:49:07,480 life and whatever. And so I feel like for Four 858 00:49:07,480 --> 00:49:12,120 Seasons of that. So for three years, it's been 859 00:49:12,120 --> 00:49:18,680 like a super, like outpouring of my healing journey and doing 860 00:49:18,680 --> 00:49:23,640 that on like a public platform, which is where I feel that when 861 00:49:23,640 --> 00:49:26,720 you do show yourself publicly and you're sharing things that 862 00:49:26,720 --> 00:49:29,600 you're going through, especially vulnerable things like we talked 863 00:49:29,600 --> 00:49:32,400 about you sharing stuff like you know, your whole, like a whole 864 00:49:32,400 --> 00:49:34,840 relationship. And Paige and I have our lives 865 00:49:34,840 --> 00:49:37,280 on there too. People feel like they get to 866 00:49:37,280 --> 00:49:41,680 know you and so then they feel like they get an input on things 867 00:49:41,680 --> 00:49:44,800 that are going on in your life or that they can treat you a 868 00:49:44,800 --> 00:49:46,920 certain way because you're saying that somebody else 869 00:49:46,920 --> 00:49:49,320 treated you that way in the past and you let them get away with 870 00:49:49,320 --> 00:49:53,840 it. And so I feel like ending up 871 00:49:53,840 --> 00:49:56,920 being more spiritual and figuring out ways of protecting 872 00:49:56,920 --> 00:49:58,680 your energy and protecting your peace. 873 00:49:58,680 --> 00:50:01,200 And what things do you want to share and what things do you 874 00:50:01,200 --> 00:50:03,680 want to keep to yourself and how do you heal through things? 875 00:50:03,680 --> 00:50:08,960 When people are like pointing out your traumas, us evolving in 876 00:50:08,960 --> 00:50:12,160 that spiritual way and publicly sharing that, I feel like is 877 00:50:12,160 --> 00:50:17,240 almost just like the natural evolution of the way to have 878 00:50:17,240 --> 00:50:21,680 healthy boundaries. And people can either become 879 00:50:21,680 --> 00:50:24,920 really hardened because they go through those things and people 880 00:50:24,920 --> 00:50:26,840 have things that they're projecting or whatever. 881 00:50:26,840 --> 00:50:28,400 And you're like, I'm just going to be a shield. 882 00:50:28,720 --> 00:50:32,360 Or you can turn that into something that's super healing. 883 00:50:32,360 --> 00:50:36,240 And that helps other people and is a positive way to channel 884 00:50:36,240 --> 00:50:39,400 that energy and put that into your life in so many different 885 00:50:39,400 --> 00:50:42,000 ways. And you were talking about how 886 00:50:42,720 --> 00:50:45,680 you don't necessarily like identify yourself as like a 887 00:50:45,680 --> 00:50:47,520 witch, but like, you know, whatever. 888 00:50:48,240 --> 00:50:51,480 I'm super big on like people not labeling themselves. 889 00:50:51,480 --> 00:50:54,360 And even inside of like my witchcraft class, like I've had 890 00:50:54,360 --> 00:50:56,960 Christians who take my class, I've had Catholics who have 891 00:50:56,960 --> 00:50:59,720 taken my class. I have people who don't identify 892 00:50:59,720 --> 00:51:04,280 with anything because the tools of learning your own energy and 893 00:51:04,280 --> 00:51:08,600 learning the energy of the universe and learning like I can 894 00:51:08,600 --> 00:51:11,960 yield this in a way that and works for me. 895 00:51:11,960 --> 00:51:16,920 I can combine the energies of these crystals and these herbs 896 00:51:16,920 --> 00:51:22,080 or whatever and I can create this and and it's really 897 00:51:22,080 --> 00:51:25,880 undeniable once you're like hands on doing things to like 898 00:51:25,880 --> 00:51:30,000 manifest different realities for yourself to manipulate energy 899 00:51:30,000 --> 00:51:32,560 physically, you know, mentally, whatever. 900 00:51:33,200 --> 00:51:37,400 I just think it's a beautiful vibe when we can find each other 901 00:51:37,600 --> 00:51:40,440 and we're all on that journey of doing things. 902 00:51:42,320 --> 00:51:45,960 Yes, yes, well said. And I was laughing. 903 00:51:45,960 --> 00:51:50,080 I was smiling because literally in my head I was thinking about 904 00:51:50,400 --> 00:51:54,960 about when I said that I didn't identify as a witch and then you 905 00:51:55,200 --> 00:51:59,720 said that like and so it just shows that we are aligned, you 906 00:51:59,720 --> 00:52:05,080 know in these ways and. And yeah, for me, I feel like I 907 00:52:05,080 --> 00:52:09,720 also was, I was raised going to church and stuff like that. 908 00:52:09,720 --> 00:52:14,560 And you know, with that mentality, right about, you 909 00:52:14,560 --> 00:52:17,600 know, like everything, God, heaven, hell, all those things 910 00:52:17,920 --> 00:52:20,440 and the Bible and all those things. 911 00:52:20,680 --> 00:52:24,480 And I have a lot of respect for, for, for all of it and like I 912 00:52:24,480 --> 00:52:29,040 said and for everyone. And I don't label myself as 913 00:52:29,040 --> 00:52:34,400 anything, but I do believe in the law of attraction. 914 00:52:34,600 --> 00:52:38,640 I do believe in the law of attraction, and so that's my 915 00:52:38,760 --> 00:52:42,960 base, that's my foundation. That is what I know about and 916 00:52:42,960 --> 00:52:50,160 what I teach to whoever's ready. But I do resonate with spiritual 917 00:52:50,160 --> 00:52:53,640 things that are associated with the term which. 918 00:52:53,880 --> 00:52:57,280 So when I was called that for the first time in my life 919 00:52:57,280 --> 00:53:03,520 yesterday, I remember thinking like, is that what I am or like 920 00:53:03,520 --> 00:53:05,360 or what is that what this is or like? 921 00:53:05,400 --> 00:53:06,960 Or is this what people are seeing? 922 00:53:06,960 --> 00:53:09,960 Or like what is this? And then you know how when you 923 00:53:09,960 --> 00:53:13,480 think about something and then it pops up on Instagram, it 924 00:53:13,480 --> 00:53:18,240 popped up when it was like it was this girl on Insta and and 925 00:53:18,240 --> 00:53:21,080 she's like, oh, what type of which are you based on your 926 00:53:21,080 --> 00:53:23,280 sign? And I'm just looking at it like 927 00:53:23,280 --> 00:53:25,400 do I want to give this my attention? 928 00:53:25,440 --> 00:53:28,760 And I'm like, fuck it. I go and I'm like Libra. 929 00:53:29,280 --> 00:53:33,320 And so, you know, even what I heard from her was like, oh, you 930 00:53:33,320 --> 00:53:35,960 know, you're a fairy. And then this and that and the 931 00:53:35,960 --> 00:53:39,520 3rd and different things. I didn't take offense to any of 932 00:53:39,520 --> 00:53:41,680 it. I liked what I heard, you know, 933 00:53:41,920 --> 00:53:44,680 because I think that people just put labels on things. 934 00:53:44,720 --> 00:53:47,560 But we we're just energy, you know? 935 00:53:47,560 --> 00:53:52,320 We're all, I feel like our own goddess and our own God 936 00:53:52,320 --> 00:53:55,840 goddesses. Like we have a power that you 937 00:53:55,840 --> 00:54:00,480 can't really put a label on it. You know, we're infinite beings 938 00:54:00,880 --> 00:54:04,720 and that's what we are. So I don't get too caught up 939 00:54:04,720 --> 00:54:08,880 with the labels of anything. I just think that we're all 940 00:54:08,880 --> 00:54:12,520 powerful and we all have the ability to create our reality 941 00:54:12,520 --> 00:54:15,760 with whatever works for us. You know, maybe the crystals and 942 00:54:15,760 --> 00:54:19,960 stuff that works for you. For me, you know, I meditate in 943 00:54:20,000 --> 00:54:22,680 different types of ways and that works for me. 944 00:54:22,880 --> 00:54:26,000 Some people drink the moon water, Some people just leave it 945 00:54:26,000 --> 00:54:28,240 in their room. You know, people do. 946 00:54:28,360 --> 00:54:29,840 And I feel like it's going to work. 947 00:54:29,840 --> 00:54:32,480 Whatever you believe in, that's what's going to work for you. 948 00:54:32,480 --> 00:54:36,280 And on the flip side, if you believe in something negative, 949 00:54:36,360 --> 00:54:39,280 that's what's going to happen. If you say out your mouth, I 950 00:54:39,280 --> 00:54:43,840 can't, you will not. I don't have this, you will not. 951 00:54:43,960 --> 00:54:46,760 I'm not going to argue with you and tell you that you know 952 00:54:47,680 --> 00:54:50,120 something different. The law of attraction is going 953 00:54:50,120 --> 00:54:52,720 to give you what you're feeling and what you think about whether 954 00:54:52,720 --> 00:54:57,680 you want it or not. So that's on each person to to 955 00:54:57,680 --> 00:55:01,400 work on that. So do you work with obviously 956 00:55:01,400 --> 00:55:02,960 you mentioned the law of attraction. 957 00:55:02,960 --> 00:55:07,720 So I love the law of assumption. Like you mentioned, a few things 958 00:55:07,720 --> 00:55:10,560 that are the law of assumption, like everything's going to be OK 959 00:55:10,560 --> 00:55:13,720 or that the worst is behind you. That's the law of assumption. 960 00:55:13,720 --> 00:55:15,680 And I love working with that one. 961 00:55:16,040 --> 00:55:19,960 As in like everything is working out best case scenario. 962 00:55:19,960 --> 00:55:21,360 Like that's the law of assumption. 963 00:55:21,360 --> 00:55:26,560 And in like putting that out there, I just assume like 964 00:55:26,560 --> 00:55:30,160 because I am human that I am meant to have everything that 965 00:55:30,160 --> 00:55:32,040 I'm meant to have. I'm meant to be safe. 966 00:55:32,040 --> 00:55:35,560 Like I always like to put things out there, like I didn't come 967 00:55:35,560 --> 00:55:37,720 here to beg for common resources. 968 00:55:37,720 --> 00:55:43,240 Like common resources are mine. I am like able to have things 969 00:55:43,240 --> 00:55:45,960 that are beyond like common resources. 970 00:55:45,960 --> 00:55:49,680 Like I'm able to have luxury things or things that feel 971 00:55:49,680 --> 00:55:52,080 luxurious. And for some people they 972 00:55:52,080 --> 00:55:55,840 instantly think luxurious means like money and abundance. 973 00:55:55,840 --> 00:55:59,360 But you know, like a warm towel from the dryer when you're 974 00:55:59,480 --> 00:56:02,400 getting out of the shower, like a hot warm towel is like 975 00:56:02,400 --> 00:56:05,560 luxurious to me. Like that is luxury. 976 00:56:05,560 --> 00:56:09,920 Living is like something as simple as that, that everybody 977 00:56:10,240 --> 00:56:12,160 could have, you know what I mean? 978 00:56:12,160 --> 00:56:14,960 But it's like so many people limit themselves, like you said 979 00:56:14,960 --> 00:56:18,880 with the I can't or I'm broke or I don't have. 980 00:56:19,120 --> 00:56:23,080 And that drives me up the wall. Like when people use the terms, 981 00:56:23,080 --> 00:56:25,240 I am broke. I just literally want to smack 982 00:56:25,240 --> 00:56:28,080 them on their head. I'm just like the worst thing 983 00:56:28,080 --> 00:56:30,880 you could say right now. But that's the thing though. 984 00:56:30,880 --> 00:56:36,000 We are OK, so this is what I this is what I talk about all 985 00:56:36,000 --> 00:56:39,320 the time. So we have been conditioned and 986 00:56:39,320 --> 00:56:45,440 brainwashed since we were born, especially when most people 987 00:56:45,440 --> 00:56:48,160 follow what the Bible says, right? 988 00:56:48,160 --> 00:56:51,280 Which comes back to what you were saying about, you know, 989 00:56:51,280 --> 00:56:55,600 they associate luxury, you know, and and money with maybe 990 00:56:55,600 --> 00:56:58,840 something bad. Because like, there's literally 991 00:56:58,960 --> 00:57:01,320 things in the Bible that say things like that, like all the 992 00:57:01,320 --> 00:57:03,680 rich is not, you know, like the humble people. 993 00:57:03,920 --> 00:57:07,240 Some people really, truly believe that the less you have, 994 00:57:07,240 --> 00:57:10,080 the greater of a person you are and you're going to heaven if 995 00:57:10,080 --> 00:57:13,520 that's what you believe. I can't. 996 00:57:13,520 --> 00:57:14,120 I can't. Can't. 997 00:57:14,120 --> 00:57:15,840 I'm not even going to say anything about that. 998 00:57:15,840 --> 00:57:19,160 But you you can't. Because when we're born, and 999 00:57:19,160 --> 00:57:23,000 this is just a quick thing that is I wish everybody understood. 1000 00:57:23,920 --> 00:57:28,520 Our brain is divided by two sides, the conscious mind, which 1001 00:57:28,520 --> 00:57:32,800 is up here, and the subconscious mind, which is deeper in there. 1002 00:57:33,440 --> 00:57:37,560 When we're born, our brain is wide open and we're receiving 1003 00:57:37,800 --> 00:57:45,440 all of these ideas and and behaviors based on our 1004 00:57:45,440 --> 00:57:49,680 environment and what that consists of in our parents and 1005 00:57:49,680 --> 00:57:51,960 what they believe and what we're being taught. 1006 00:57:52,200 --> 00:57:55,200 And all of that with practice and repetition creates a 1007 00:57:55,200 --> 00:57:59,120 paradigm there in your subconscious, which is what 1008 00:57:59,120 --> 00:58:01,480 you're, you know, you're used to that that's what you know. 1009 00:58:01,480 --> 00:58:06,120 That's repetition is what's going to get you believing what 1010 00:58:06,120 --> 00:58:12,240 you believe thus far, right? So, like, based on that, people 1011 00:58:12,240 --> 00:58:15,400 are going to live their lives and think that they're supposed 1012 00:58:15,400 --> 00:58:19,040 to struggle to get what they want, that you know, that 1013 00:58:19,040 --> 00:58:22,120 they're supposed to vent about everything that's going wrong 1014 00:58:22,320 --> 00:58:26,080 and you know, they put themselves deeper in the hole. 1015 00:58:26,240 --> 00:58:30,200 When if you just understood that, if you reprogram that 1016 00:58:30,200 --> 00:58:35,120 subconscious to believing that you can create your reality with 1017 00:58:35,120 --> 00:58:38,800 your thoughts, then you wouldn't do those things that are keeping 1018 00:58:38,800 --> 00:58:41,640 you from getting the money, getting the relationship, 1019 00:58:41,640 --> 00:58:43,320 getting the things that you want. 1020 00:58:43,640 --> 00:58:48,920 And it's really easy because it's just changing the channel, 1021 00:58:48,920 --> 00:58:52,360 changing that negative thought, not changing it to a positive 1022 00:58:52,360 --> 00:58:55,560 thought, but something that feels better than that. 1023 00:58:56,080 --> 00:58:59,160 That's all you have to do. And then everything works out. 1024 00:58:59,400 --> 00:59:02,360 And the law of assumption goes hand in hand with the law of 1025 00:59:02,360 --> 00:59:06,960 attraction, because literally the law of attraction is, you 1026 00:59:06,960 --> 00:59:10,320 know that what you think about that, what you give your 1027 00:59:10,320 --> 00:59:13,080 attention about, you're going to get more of that. 1028 00:59:13,760 --> 00:59:17,280 So you have to assume that you're going to get good because 1029 00:59:17,480 --> 00:59:19,640 that's how the law of attraction is going to work. 1030 00:59:19,920 --> 00:59:22,920 And then the real thing about that is that you can't just say 1031 00:59:22,920 --> 00:59:24,200 it. You have to believe it. 1032 00:59:24,200 --> 00:59:28,680 You have to feel it, because if you don't, you're just talking. 1033 00:59:28,880 --> 00:59:31,200 And that's the problem with affirmations too. 1034 00:59:31,200 --> 00:59:33,960 People just say I am this, I am that. 1035 00:59:33,960 --> 00:59:36,440 You don't believe you are, that You don't believe you have that 1036 00:59:36,440 --> 00:59:39,040 money yet. So you have to go general. 1037 00:59:39,120 --> 00:59:41,760 You have to go general. And little by little you will 1038 00:59:41,760 --> 00:59:45,360 get to those specifics. But first, general, and that's 1039 00:59:45,640 --> 00:59:48,000 unpopular opinion. People think you got to be 1040 00:59:48,000 --> 00:59:49,400 specific. No, you don't. 1041 00:59:49,720 --> 00:59:53,520 Especially if you don't believe now, if you believe, Hey, I 1042 00:59:53,520 --> 00:59:54,880 believe so. Now I do. 1043 00:59:54,880 --> 00:59:56,960 I am this. And actually I know I am. 1044 00:59:56,960 --> 00:59:58,640 I'm there. Where I'm like I. 1045 00:59:58,680 --> 01:00:02,600 Know, I don't have no doubt. But in the beginning, going 1046 01:00:02,600 --> 01:00:05,400 general was something that worked for me so much. 1047 01:00:05,400 --> 01:00:08,720 Even with my vision board, I focus on what I wanted to feel 1048 01:00:09,040 --> 01:00:13,160 and not specifically where what I would do or where I would go. 1049 01:00:13,760 --> 01:00:16,000 And it was amazing. I went to Paris, I had my 1050 01:00:16,000 --> 01:00:17,920 events. I was so happy. 1051 01:00:18,200 --> 01:00:21,640 I haven't even done a new one because that right there works 1052 01:00:21,640 --> 01:00:23,800 for me. I love that. 1053 01:00:23,800 --> 01:00:27,240 I love that advice because a lot of practitioners teach you like, 1054 01:00:27,240 --> 01:00:29,920 no, you've got to be so specific and all of that. 1055 01:00:30,160 --> 01:00:33,920 But I like to tell people to find like they're three 1056 01:00:33,920 --> 01:00:37,520 unwavering things. So for me, my unwavering things 1057 01:00:37,520 --> 01:00:40,920 is I have to be at peace. If I'm at peace, I can create 1058 01:00:40,920 --> 01:00:43,080 anything that I needed to create from that space. 1059 01:00:43,360 --> 01:00:46,680 I need freedom and I also need safety. 1060 01:00:46,680 --> 01:00:50,120 If I have those three things, peace, freedom and safety, those 1061 01:00:50,120 --> 01:00:53,960 are my unwavering money flows to me from that space because if 1062 01:00:53,960 --> 01:00:57,040 I'm safe and I'm at peace, I'm not pressed about money. 1063 01:00:57,040 --> 01:01:00,560 I'm not pressed about and. That freedom where you can spend 1064 01:01:00,560 --> 01:01:02,680 or do whatever you want. Exactly. 1065 01:01:02,680 --> 01:01:07,440 So like those 3 energetic vibrations bring everything that 1066 01:01:07,440 --> 01:01:10,480 I need into my life from that space. 1067 01:01:10,720 --> 01:01:15,320 Then I have that, you know, whatever it is, item, job, 1068 01:01:15,320 --> 01:01:20,000 relationship, whatever physical thing or you know, 3D 1069 01:01:20,040 --> 01:01:24,280 representation that you are wanting, it kind of flows to you 1070 01:01:24,280 --> 01:01:28,640 because you're creating an energetic vibration that matches 1071 01:01:28,640 --> 01:01:30,480 that. So you know, a lot of people may 1072 01:01:30,480 --> 01:01:35,240 not believe they are powerful, but if you can create your 1073 01:01:35,240 --> 01:01:39,040 reality with it being peaceful, like maybe you didn't grow up in 1074 01:01:39,040 --> 01:01:42,080 a peaceful home, so you make peace a priority, you will feel 1075 01:01:42,080 --> 01:01:43,360 powerful. You know what I mean? 1076 01:01:43,360 --> 01:01:47,160 Like so many people want to jump straight into like, I am rich, I 1077 01:01:47,160 --> 01:01:49,680 am that bitch. But it's like that's. 1078 01:01:49,880 --> 01:01:52,800 You don't believe it is. That is, that the universe 1079 01:01:52,800 --> 01:01:56,440 responds to what you feel, not to what you say. 1080 01:01:56,800 --> 01:02:00,840 Your vibration. So your subconscious sends a 1081 01:02:00,840 --> 01:02:06,280 signal to your like, to your body, and your body is your 1082 01:02:06,280 --> 01:02:10,280 vibe, and your vibe is what attracts what you, what you're 1083 01:02:10,280 --> 01:02:13,800 going to get. So you know that's, that's the 1084 01:02:13,800 --> 01:02:17,000 thing about it. It's like it's like going to the 1085 01:02:17,000 --> 01:02:19,880 gym, right? If you go 2 days, you're not 1086 01:02:19,880 --> 01:02:23,040 going to see results, but if you keep going, you're going to see 1087 01:02:23,160 --> 01:02:25,680 little by little results. And those little results are 1088 01:02:25,680 --> 01:02:29,160 going to make you believe more in what you're doing. 1089 01:02:29,640 --> 01:02:32,320 So the same thing is with this kind of work, you know, like, 1090 01:02:33,080 --> 01:02:37,240 you see you go general. And if you go general with 1091 01:02:37,240 --> 01:02:41,360 things that are absolutely possible, then they're then they 1092 01:02:41,360 --> 01:02:43,320 happen. And then you're like, oh shit, I 1093 01:02:43,320 --> 01:02:46,600 did that, you know? And then you do a little bit 1094 01:02:46,600 --> 01:02:48,600 more of it and you believe a little bit more. 1095 01:02:48,600 --> 01:02:51,120 And then all of a sudden you're so fucking powerful. 1096 01:02:51,120 --> 01:02:54,840 Like literally you're creating so many things and so many 1097 01:02:54,840 --> 01:02:57,600 things are coming to you. And you're like, I did that. 1098 01:02:57,880 --> 01:03:00,080 And so that's how your power expands. 1099 01:03:00,280 --> 01:03:03,120 But it's the more you're aware that you're doing it, the more 1100 01:03:03,120 --> 01:03:07,160 you listen to the universe and you start by going general, not 1101 01:03:07,160 --> 01:03:10,480 specific, That's a jump that you just cannot do. 1102 01:03:10,480 --> 01:03:13,960 You, you, you can't get there from where you are. 1103 01:03:14,040 --> 01:03:17,600 So you don't believe it, but so instead of being like, I'm I'm a 1104 01:03:17,600 --> 01:03:21,560 millionaire, you can be like, oh, I'm grateful that I have 1105 01:03:21,960 --> 01:03:25,600 everything I need. I'm never lacking everything 1106 01:03:25,600 --> 01:03:28,640 always works out for me, those kinds of things. 1107 01:03:28,640 --> 01:03:30,680 And then when you see that everything is working out for 1108 01:03:30,680 --> 01:03:32,520 you, then you're like, I did that. 1109 01:03:32,680 --> 01:03:36,000 And now you can be a little bit more specific and be like, oh I, 1110 01:03:36,280 --> 01:03:39,920 you know, universe, let me get 500 because you know, let me get 1111 01:03:39,920 --> 01:03:42,800 $500 and then thank you for that. 1112 01:03:43,320 --> 01:03:46,600 Keep going, do what you can and feel good and you're going to 1113 01:03:46,600 --> 01:03:49,120 get that, that 500. You don't know how, you don't 1114 01:03:49,120 --> 01:03:51,520 know where, you don't know why, but you're getting it and you 1115 01:03:51,520 --> 01:03:54,240 get it and then that's just how it works. 1116 01:03:54,240 --> 01:03:59,640 You just got to keep going. So you guys were talking about a 1117 01:03:59,640 --> 01:04:03,920 lot of, like, creation energy. And so something that we always 1118 01:04:03,920 --> 01:04:09,960 do at the end of the episode is we pull a human design card and 1119 01:04:10,840 --> 01:04:16,760 I pulled the alchemy card, which is number six, and the sign is 1120 01:04:16,760 --> 01:04:18,840 Virgo. And we're having the Virgo full 1121 01:04:18,840 --> 01:04:20,200 moon. We've been talking about the 1122 01:04:20,200 --> 01:04:22,840 full moon ceremony. My rising is Virgo. 1123 01:04:23,920 --> 01:04:28,800 I love that. So I wanted to read this card. 1124 01:04:28,800 --> 01:04:31,360 So this is talking about. We've been talking about balance 1125 01:04:31,360 --> 01:04:33,240 too. So with the human design card, 1126 01:04:33,560 --> 01:04:36,600 it's the gift and the shadow inside of it. 1127 01:04:36,600 --> 01:04:41,560 So like a strength that you are exuding or for you to remember 1128 01:04:41,560 --> 01:04:45,720 to tap into and then like the shadow aspect of that and what 1129 01:04:45,720 --> 01:04:49,040 can be like triggering along that journey. 1130 01:04:49,480 --> 01:04:54,360 So the gift is diplomacy and the shadow is conflict. 1131 01:04:55,160 --> 01:04:58,800 The gift of diplomacy makes its way when you allow the invisible 1132 01:04:58,800 --> 01:05:02,760 barriers between you and the other to vanish, letting true 1133 01:05:02,760 --> 01:05:07,160 and authentic love in this is not the artificial mold of love, 1134 01:05:09,360 --> 01:05:13,520 mold of love born of the people, pleasing tendencies of white 1135 01:05:13,520 --> 01:05:17,440 lies and fair weather. This is an honesty that knows 1136 01:05:17,440 --> 01:05:20,080 the perfect timing with the appropriate words. 1137 01:05:20,640 --> 01:05:23,760 When you delve into this gift, it's as though you've downloaded 1138 01:05:23,760 --> 01:05:25,800 the essential recipe for resolve. 1139 01:05:26,160 --> 01:05:30,080 Instead of infusing more conflict into a situation, you 1140 01:05:30,080 --> 01:05:33,920 lessen it by adjusting your behavior and energy to what is 1141 01:05:33,920 --> 01:05:37,720 needed in the moment. The work of a true alchemist. 1142 01:05:38,160 --> 01:05:41,080 This is accomplished only when you've mastered your own 1143 01:05:41,080 --> 01:05:44,680 emotional state, having witnessed first hand its chaotic 1144 01:05:44,680 --> 01:05:49,040 unreliability and operate using your inner guidance system. 1145 01:05:49,600 --> 01:05:53,360 When you free yourself from your tumultuous inner world, you 1146 01:05:53,360 --> 01:05:57,520 become the catalyst for peace and your shadow is conflict. 1147 01:05:58,720 --> 01:06:02,320 The shadow of conflict appears when you are overly identified 1148 01:06:02,320 --> 01:06:06,560 with your emotional state, a turbulence that wreaks havoc on 1149 01:06:06,560 --> 01:06:10,000 your entire system. There is a lot of deep seated 1150 01:06:10,000 --> 01:06:14,160 emotion packed into this theme. Feelings, moods, and other 1151 01:06:14,160 --> 01:06:18,360 sensitivities are all present. There may be a fear of intimacy, 1152 01:06:18,360 --> 01:06:21,640 perhaps due to early life experiences, when you were 1153 01:06:21,640 --> 01:06:25,240 attempting to navigate your emotional world, resulting in an 1154 01:06:25,240 --> 01:06:28,080 extreme self-reliance as a defense mechanism. 1155 01:06:28,640 --> 01:06:32,840 On a collective level this has materialized as borders, racial 1156 01:06:32,840 --> 01:06:37,360 divides, and a world at large. It is a source of separation and 1157 01:06:37,360 --> 01:06:41,040 the seed of tribalism. You either own these aspects of 1158 01:06:41,040 --> 01:06:44,240 self that plunge directly into conflict and keep it as a 1159 01:06:44,240 --> 01:06:49,120 dysfunctional sanctuary, or contrastingly avoid conflict at 1160 01:06:49,120 --> 01:06:52,240 all costs. To remain the people pleaser to 1161 01:06:52,240 --> 01:06:55,480 unravel this war prone programming on the collective 1162 01:06:55,480 --> 01:07:00,480 level, we must first seek to decondition individually through 1163 01:07:00,480 --> 01:07:02,440 the shadow. You have the potential to 1164 01:07:02,440 --> 01:07:06,120 resurface with the soft armor of this gift. 1165 01:07:06,360 --> 01:07:10,000 Your themes are resolution, Diplomacy, Honesty, and 1166 01:07:10,000 --> 01:07:10,960 softness. Oh. 1167 01:07:13,080 --> 01:07:16,840 I love that. I love that too. 1168 01:07:16,840 --> 01:07:23,080 I really liked the like showing up authentically and I feel like 1169 01:07:23,080 --> 01:07:26,760 sharing what emotions you're having and then figuring out how 1170 01:07:26,760 --> 01:07:31,800 to take like responsibility of those emotions to like navigate 1171 01:07:31,800 --> 01:07:35,520 more maturely inside of dynamics. 1172 01:07:35,560 --> 01:07:41,480 And one of the things too is that you may be attempting to 1173 01:07:41,480 --> 01:07:44,720 navigate your emotional world resulting in extreme 1174 01:07:44,720 --> 01:07:47,240 self-reliance as a defense mechanism. 1175 01:07:47,760 --> 01:07:53,320 And we can do that so often without even realizing. 1176 01:07:53,520 --> 01:07:56,640 And I feel like that's where balancing the masculine energy 1177 01:07:56,640 --> 01:08:00,640 is like being ambitious and and being a manifesto and doing all 1178 01:08:00,640 --> 01:08:04,040 these things and always like putting in so much action to be 1179 01:08:04,040 --> 01:08:07,240 able to find that balance with where when you can have that 1180 01:08:07,240 --> 01:08:11,520 emotional side with it too. Yeah, no. 1181 01:08:11,520 --> 01:08:15,480 Like everything resonates. Like I'm a Libra, so I'm all 1182 01:08:15,480 --> 01:08:22,399 about balance, diplomacy, honesty, like literally justice. 1183 01:08:22,720 --> 01:08:24,760 That's everything that I'm about. 1184 01:08:24,760 --> 01:08:28,279 And that's why I love being a Libra because that's truly how I 1185 01:08:28,279 --> 01:08:30,920 am. And my rising is Virgo. 1186 01:08:30,920 --> 01:08:36,920 So I'm very much, you know, particular some people like to 1187 01:08:36,920 --> 01:08:40,279 call me a perfectionist, but I'm not, you know, even today with 1188 01:08:40,279 --> 01:08:42,279 the messages, you know, when I'm like, oh, are you guys going to 1189 01:08:42,279 --> 01:08:44,680 do this, going to do that. That's just, that's how I am. 1190 01:08:44,680 --> 01:08:49,439 And I'm very much action you know, action and doing and I do 1191 01:08:49,439 --> 01:08:54,479 so much and but my thing is like I am happy to do those things 1192 01:08:54,479 --> 01:08:58,160 like, you know, like that's that's what I like. 1193 01:08:58,479 --> 01:09:03,920 And I I used to have like this big desire to be in a 1194 01:09:03,920 --> 01:09:05,920 relationship and be married and all these things. 1195 01:09:05,920 --> 01:09:10,279 And I don't seriously, I don't give a fuck anymore because I'm 1196 01:09:10,279 --> 01:09:15,359 so happy with myself and the relationship I have with me and 1197 01:09:16,120 --> 01:09:18,319 you know, So now I set those boundaries. 1198 01:09:18,359 --> 01:09:22,359 I set the boundaries I have time to for self-care because I have 1199 01:09:22,359 --> 01:09:26,800 a relationship with me. So it might seem like I'm always 1200 01:09:26,800 --> 01:09:31,000 like working or or doing and stuff, but I'm aware of the 1201 01:09:31,000 --> 01:09:37,880 things of the message. I feel like it's a a reminder to 1202 01:09:37,920 --> 01:09:43,720 just like maintain that balance, maintain that balance because it 1203 01:09:43,720 --> 01:09:47,319 can be easy for for that weight to be heavier on one side than 1204 01:09:47,319 --> 01:09:49,359 the other. And I just think that for me, I 1205 01:09:49,359 --> 01:09:52,240 have to maintain that balance. So, yeah, thank you so much for 1206 01:09:52,240 --> 01:09:54,360 that. Well, I just want to say I 1207 01:09:54,360 --> 01:09:57,200 really love this conversation that we had because I feel like 1208 01:09:57,200 --> 01:10:00,080 people can really learn a lot from you JC. 1209 01:10:00,080 --> 01:10:04,320 You have a lot of passion and we would love to have you back on 1210 01:10:04,320 --> 01:10:07,560 in the future and. We have to because we didn't 1211 01:10:07,560 --> 01:10:09,320 even talk about my poetry or nothing. 1212 01:10:09,320 --> 01:10:13,120 It's just it's so much info that just flows out of me that I 1213 01:10:13,120 --> 01:10:15,040 can't even. I'm like, damn, am I talking too 1214 01:10:15,040 --> 01:10:17,760 much? But I'll come back for sure we 1215 01:10:17,760 --> 01:10:20,040 can continue talking and. Whatever. 1216 01:10:20,600 --> 01:10:23,800 And I was also going to suggest like maybe one time for our Full 1217 01:10:23,800 --> 01:10:27,200 Moon Circle, you could be like a special guest and like bring a 1218 01:10:27,200 --> 01:10:30,800 little segment in and share that with our community. 1219 01:10:30,800 --> 01:10:33,720 Because I know a lot of people are going to love you from this 1220 01:10:33,720 --> 01:10:35,920 episode. So in the description box we'll 1221 01:10:35,920 --> 01:10:38,560 put all of your social media where they can find you and 1222 01:10:38,920 --> 01:10:42,560 where they can connect with you. And we're just so grateful. 1223 01:10:42,560 --> 01:10:45,440 Is there a message that you want to leave everyone with today? 1224 01:10:46,200 --> 01:10:48,600 Yes, I mean, yes. I always have a message. 1225 01:10:48,600 --> 01:10:52,280 But I want to say first, thank you so much for having me. 1226 01:10:52,560 --> 01:10:56,200 I really enjoyed this. I can talk for days. 1227 01:10:56,360 --> 01:11:00,080 I'm obsessed with all this stuff like, so I really thank you guys 1228 01:11:00,080 --> 01:11:03,200 for allowing me to come here and share whatever it is I had to 1229 01:11:03,200 --> 01:11:11,320 say come to my poetry club. I want to say to you because 1230 01:11:11,320 --> 01:11:15,840 like, it's such an amazing safe space for for everyone to share 1231 01:11:15,840 --> 01:11:18,680 and express themselves and it does raise your vibration. 1232 01:11:18,680 --> 01:11:21,400 It helps you release what no longer serves you. 1233 01:11:21,600 --> 01:11:24,520 So I want to invite everyone to come to LBJC Poetry Club. 1234 01:11:24,520 --> 01:11:28,520 We have three shows a week, also having a retreat. 1235 01:11:28,520 --> 01:11:31,680 Also working on a book of the work I do with a positive 1236 01:11:31,680 --> 01:11:35,440 manifestation stuff. I feel like I want to do so many 1237 01:11:35,440 --> 01:11:37,800 different books with all the things I do, but that's, I feel 1238 01:11:37,800 --> 01:11:41,360 like the most important one that I just have to do with the stuff 1239 01:11:41,360 --> 01:11:43,680 that it's like all here, like wanting to flow out. 1240 01:11:44,000 --> 01:11:49,720 So yeah, what I would say to everyone is to watch your 1241 01:11:49,720 --> 01:11:52,080 thoughts, Watch your thoughts guys. 1242 01:11:52,440 --> 01:11:55,520 You bring about what you think about. 1243 01:11:55,520 --> 01:11:59,320 So it's important that you focus only on what you desire and not 1244 01:11:59,320 --> 01:12:02,400 what you fear. You know, anything that you 1245 01:12:02,400 --> 01:12:05,400 fear, throw it out the window because you don't want more of 1246 01:12:05,400 --> 01:12:06,960 that. You want more of the good stuff. 1247 01:12:06,960 --> 01:12:10,160 So feel good. That's your job, to feel good. 1248 01:12:10,720 --> 01:12:13,320 And yeah, that's all I got. Thank you so much. 1249 01:12:14,320 --> 01:12:18,560 Thank you JC We are so grateful for this platform to be able to 1250 01:12:18,560 --> 01:12:21,920 share the space with you all and we will see you all next time in 1251 01:12:21,920 --> 01:12:24,040 Candyland. Bye.