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Welcome to fucking Dandy land 
hosted by Rampage and Gemini. 

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What's up everybody? 
Welcome back to Candyland. 

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Hello, it's so we are neck-deep 
in Gemini season. 

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Our baby is one years old and we
just want to say thank you for 

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making it to this episode. 
I know a lot of people have 

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mentioned, they're starting from
the beginning, they're going to 

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start over. 
So it's going to take you a 

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while to get to this moment. 
But for those who have been 

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listening keeping up, With every
week's episode just really being

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there. 
It means a lot, it doesn't go 

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unnoticed. 
I know sometimes when you hear 

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someone venting or airing out 
dirty laundry, it can seem as if

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they're ungrateful. 
So I just want to really amplify

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like we have so much gratitude 
for the people who really see 

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what we're doing. 
See that our mission is 

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authentic and genuine and see 
that we really are just trying 

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to help people. 
I know a lot of people reached 

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out there like I can't believe 
Someone would try to say that 

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about you all. 
You've helped me so much and 

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there's been so much support and
positive feedback from other 

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people through all of this Tower
energy. 

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But I really feel like I have 
never felt better Gemini. 

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How are you feeling? 
I feel good actually. 

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I was finding that when I was 
going live, there were people 

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who were like oh my listen to 
your episode of Lollipop. 

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Like wow, I've been going 
through the same thing. 

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So people relating, but then 
also, I had people that were 

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like, content creators talking 
about like, wow, like my 

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character, like, people are 
really saying lies on me and 

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like it goes against my 
character were upset and I was 

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like go and listen to these 
episodes. 

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There are two episodes like go 
listen to these because we just 

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experienced this too and like, 
it's all about the way that you 

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react and you respond and how 
you You process things, right? 

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Because there are very different
ways that people can go with 

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processing their shit and it can
be like to be reclusive and like

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go through it and be 
overwhelmed. 

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I guess there's multiple ways 
you can do that. 

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You can be the person that's 
like making videos calling 

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people out by name, showing your
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Showing your proof of everything
to like say your name Butler, 

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like like save your name. 
But to me when you go out and 

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you're like, trying to prove 
something, It just attracts more

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people into drama that they'd 
never even knew about whereas 

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you're just like if you're like 
like the way that we did it. 

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Hey this came up as you know 
about it this is what's up and 

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move on and whatever so I feel 
fucking good you and I have so 

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much going on together right 
now. 

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Like I hate on bitches and watch
this fucking Elevate. 

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Honestly, I feel like I can tell
we're just this energy around me

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at all. 
Heh Add really heightened, my 

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sensitivity to, like just 
emotion and even just like 

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negative emotion and just like 
random, negativity that like, I 

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was being exposed to. 
So I feel so much better to lie.

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Completely remove anything and 
everything that was disrupting 

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my peace. 
Like no amount of money. 

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No amount of connection. 
No. 

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Amount of community is worth my 
personal piece. 

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I will completely go into hermit
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Without any further Ado, and 
just cut everyone off. 

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So I'm really proud of myself 
for just restructuring things. 

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Really elevating. 
The way that I was doing things 

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in my community and just in 
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So that I wasn't letting all of 
this affect my personal 

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happiness, because I think 
that's where a lot of people are

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unhappy in their personal life, 
is because they take work home 

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with them, and they're 
constantly working or They're 

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constantly feeling some type of 
way, and I feel like deep down 

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with a personal business, any 
business that you work on and 

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you are the sole person that 
runs the shop. 

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You will be sucked into working 
all of the fucking time. 

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If you let the universe do that 
because you're consenting to it,

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you're agreeing to it and I 
think this was just a reality 

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check on like needing to have 
more work and life balance that 

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I can't just make friends with 
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Just because they share my shit 
or, or shop with me like I love 

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you all, and I think everyone's 
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It has their own beautiful path,
but no, like, no getting close 

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to me for personal gain. 
Like, I am very much on my p's 

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and q's about people who want to
disguise themselves as support 

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and then later turn on you. 
It's kind of like the guy in 

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your inbox, it's like, hey, 
beautiful, how are you? 

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Hey beautiful, let me take you 
out to eat. 

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And then by the end of it, It, 
he's like, fuck you bitch, or 

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whatever. 
Like, I feel like it's the 

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evolution of that, like, people 
that like worship you and think 

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that you've hung the sun, moon 
and stars eventually start, not 

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liking you the more, they're not
doing the work because they're 

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creating competition with you. 
They're creating separation, 

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they're creating. 
Well, they're on this level and 

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I'm on that level energy and I 
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Like, I don't want that around 
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I don't want those people trying
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Self as community members or 
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You know, the thing about a 
community is not everyone's 

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going to be besties and it's 
cool if you become friends with 

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people, but when it's for the 
sole purpose of personal gain so

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that you have a personal 
therapist or someone that you 

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can confide in, but it's only 
for personal gain like that 

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strange to me, like I would 
never and I could never, I don't

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even think that people 
necessarily do it on purpose 

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either. 
I think that a lot of times if 

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people, Are like people, you can
say idolize or whatever people 

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that are in a position that they
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Like there are other people, you
look up to somebody and you have

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this image in their mind and I 
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homegirl did it with you too. 
When we want on our trip or did 

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it with us when we went on our 
trip and that's why, you know, 

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it was fake or whatever is 
because people idolize a version

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of you that they see online or 
that they you know, have an in 

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light conversation with You and 
then they actually get to know 

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that you're a human being in a 
person and you have things that 

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go on in your life and you get 
annoyed by shit and you have 

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boundaries and you know, all of 
these things and that you have 

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expectations of people in your 
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that's when all of a sudden the 
like flip switches for them 

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where they're like you're not 
like this thing over here that I

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had on a pedestal. 
You're a real fucking person. 

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You can't just fix all of my 
problems with a reading. 

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I have to still I'll do that, 
you know. 

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Yeah, and that's unfortunate as 
like a mentor, a teacher and 

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like a friend. 
You do develop like emotional 

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connection with people when you 
are growing and going through 

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very traumatic and personal 
issues with people. 

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And so I think it's inevitable 
to create a connection. 

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I just think that all of these 
lessons have taught me that 

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there has to be a better 
boundary, because I am so 

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sensitive that these people even
Like you said, they're not doing

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it on purpose. 
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motive underneath it all in my 
opinion and it's like, you know,

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people say like, oh, you know, 
birds of a feather flock 

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together, you know what I mean? 
Like, if there's someone that 

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you want to be like, what better
way than to be their friend and 

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to learn from them one-on-one or
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where like people have tried to 
direct that projection onto me 

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and you, like with the hole, 
Whole well, Jim and I did that. 

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And then you did that, like, who
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just goofy little bullshit that 
people try to stir up between 

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us. 
I feel like people do that 

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because that's a projection of 
their own insecurities and their

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friendships that they're really 
not used to being around people 

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who Inspire them or who are 
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And so it's intimidating. 
It can be intimidating. 

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Well, we've had it from day one,
with the podcast where we've 

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gotten comments about like Do 
you like to that annoy you in 

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Gemini said that or like are you
to like actually like friends 

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like that? 
Like out page doesn't get 

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annoyed that like she's super 
nice and like you're mean about 

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everything or whatever which I 
don't think that I am. 

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But whatever. 
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and I really think that like 
it's just, I don't know. 

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I really think that people don't
think that like our friendship 

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Dynamic Woodwork and so they try
to put something on it and Like 

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it's literally not a show like 
who we we don't give a fuck. 

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We build together. 
We built separately, 

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independently doing our own 
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And that's what like friendship 
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There's a podcast that I 
listened to because I'm a girl 

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who likes trashy reality TV and 
one of the Real Housewives, 

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started a podcast with somebody 
else and the one of the girls is

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just as Supersoft Court of 
friend and she is not that she 

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won't call, you know, her friend
out on stuff but she's just a 

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very supportive person and 
they're reading comments that 

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they've gotten in like reviews 
and stuff of like, oh well it 

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just comes off. 
Really ask his see because 

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you're just so supportive of 
everything that she likes says 

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or that she has going on in life
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They're like, are we not 
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People like, is that not being a
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What kind of friendships do you 
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Where if your friend is Treating
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Well, they're kissing your ass. 
Like she goes, I tell my kids 

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all the time that they're 
beautiful and smart and 

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intelligent is my nose stuck up 
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No, I'm just like, you know, 
supporting my kid and like 

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cheering them on is no, you 
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I mean it's really rare. 
That people are getting equal 

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energy, exchanges in their 
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And so when they see people who 
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perspective of like, well 
Gemini's good at this portion, 

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In and Rampage is good at that. 
So they work well together, like

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people are scared of that and 
like, very triggered by that 

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because they don't know how to 
work. 

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Well with other people they need
to to partner off or just 

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seclude themselves or they need 
a leader to follow that whatever

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and I just can't get behind that
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Like there can be a million 
people doing exactly what I'll 

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do but they're just not doing it
the way that I'm going to do it 

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they're not going to convey the 
message like Spirits going to 

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give you the message whether 
it's literally On some junk mail

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or on your timeline or from a 
person at Waffle House. 

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Like it doesn't matter. 
Spirits going to give you the 

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message at all times if you're 
ready for the message. 

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But if you don't do anything 
with that message, you may get 

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the same message over and over 
again from a reader from someone

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who's very talented from someone
who's very typed in because 

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guess what? 
Baby you need step one to 

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complete step to, to go to step 
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Like you can't just be like, 
okay well I got the message, 

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okay, but What did you do with 
the message? 

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How did you embody the message? 
How are you working with this 

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information to get where you 
want to be rather than looking 

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around to the outside world? 
A lot of people just need to 

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look inward about the issues and
problems that they're having and

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stop pointing fingers. 
Well, yeah, and and that's an 

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important thing because we're 
always everybody's getting like 

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Spirit downloads, right? 
Like direction that you could be

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going ideas, that pop into your 
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The difference is being somebody
who actually pays attention 

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listens to those messages and 
does the things. 

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And that's a huge part of 
manifesting to, you know, we're 

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always talking about like 
manifesting things and making 

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things happen and that 
origination of manifesting 

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something is That idea popping 
into your head that like little 

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vision of, I'm going to be on a 
40 acre property with a pink and

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black house next door to 
Rampage. 

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Like, you know, it starts with 
like that vision and then being 

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like, okay, now I'm going to put
the steps in behind it and 

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something that you would said 
that, I really loved actually, I

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was thinking about it today was,
when you and I were talking 

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about our new patreon tier and 
we're like, What do we do? 

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Like, what do we charge for 
that? 

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What do we make the amount? 
You're like, literally people go

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and spend hundreds of dollars a 
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trainer doesn't even do nothing 
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remind them to go and drink some
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something out of if they like 
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be there to show up. 
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analogy because I think that a 
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time energy or Or money or time 
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okay, I'm gonna hire this 
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manifest that I lose 100 pounds 
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the fucking trainer. 
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there's not results. 
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spiritually. 
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the guidelines, you can have the
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chips down and eat a banana. 
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then it doesn't work. 
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hi it's me. 
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been like, you know what, I 
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that. 
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because I have home for me. 
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thing about the trainer is they 
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watch you use the tools, like 
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practitioner is like, I can give
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to be there whenever you're 
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So I'm not going to be there 
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partner, or your mom, or your 
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like I'm not going to be there 
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and they either go or they don't
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or they don't they either get 
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people are really okay with 
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not doing the work. 
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analogy. 
Not like that trainers. 

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Don't do anything because I 
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But yeah, I get it but I didn't 
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what you know, to take what we 
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Things are just to clarify. 
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Like, okay, here's all the 
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like with a spiritual person, 
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your best goal or what, your 
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whatever, spirit is conveying to
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you're not ready to absorb, if 
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energy In Your Vessel, it is 
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the other That's why they say to
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like, you know, it was right in 
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all along, you know, it's always
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When other people are free of 
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real news lashes like only, you 
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tell other people how you freed 
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you. 
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the work to for yourself. 
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or congratulating or excited and
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envious or jealous and that is a
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That person should not shine any
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feel more comfortable. 
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people don't understand, is a 
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other people are doing, is a 
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fears, or thoughts, or feelings,
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very trendy, but also at the 
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and doing whatever they're doing
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because they've chose an 
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to seek something outside of 
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They're not trying to put all 
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their Mentor, their friend, 
their teacher like their 

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embodying, the responsibility 
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spiritual journey. 
That is The Road Less Traveled. 

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Okay, come through with it. 
Getting inspirational. 

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Getting inspirational know, I 
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I always say, like, I like 
everything that you said you 

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did, that's just because I've 
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I'll just be sitting here, 
drinking my coffee thinking 

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about your words. 
And I like have so many things 

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in my mind that like I'm 
agreeing with you when you talk 

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and then you stop talking and 
I'm like, oh wait, I was like 

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waiting on the edge of my seat 
for more. 

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I don't remember what I was 
saying. 

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I love how Spirit works though 
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cast, is it so like potent 
because it's So raw and 

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unfiltered, like, even if a 
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know most people's are not. 
It would be very hard to follow 

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that script as a conversation 
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And that's what I love about a 
podcast. 

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I want a lot of people think it 
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actually easy. 
It actually take a lot of work 

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and I don't know. 
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underestimated and now I'm about
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How much further we have to go. 
But we are celebrating like 

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making it to this Milestone 
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people, anything we start 
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we keep going. 
And it sucks because if you keep

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that original passion and drive 
alive, you will get so far on 

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your destination. 
It's just that whenever it's not

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happening as quickly as you 
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I think two and out of thing, 
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my soul, a solo podcast, right? 
And it's a totally different 

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thing. 
When you have a podcast that you

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co-host with somebody else, you 
have like everything that you 

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want to do to grow your 
business, what you want to 

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manifest happening for you guys,
the way that you want things to 

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look aesthetically the like 
every what you're going to do 

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with the money that comes in 
every single little thing, you 

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have to have somebody as your 
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one, I trust you two, we're 
going to make similar business 

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choices, 3, if you have a 
suggestion, and it's something 

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that I don't really necessarily 
want to do, if I see you're 

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passionate about it, I believe 
that you're gonna, like, have it

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in your hands, and then it'll be
great. 

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Like, we have to have that back 
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before we even started the 
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And we're like, What, er, what 
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What are you good at? 
How are we going to, who's going

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to be in charge of what? 
What are we going to be? 

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Doing and I think that that 
helps those conversations and us

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like structuring things really 
help in the long run with stuff.

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See this is why I got to do like
the podcast training. 

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I'm over here like I can help 
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Well, the thing about a podcast,
it like does take dedication, 

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but once you unlock that passion
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you know, frequency and 
communication in abundance, And 

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transparency to the world. 
It's like there really is no 

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going back the when you open the
doors to your spiritual 

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abilities, there's no going 
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That's why they say like, once 
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So, I think that a lot of the 
times some of that anger or some

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of that resentment, that people 
project onto you or whatever, 

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it's coming from a place of 
their own discomfort and their 

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own, you know, Ultimatum where 
they are like we need to make 

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changes but instead this is so 
familiar. 

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This is so easy. 
We can just keep doing the same 

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thing and you know that's what's
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It is like when you are on your 
own Journey, it's Uniquely 

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Yours. 
And eventually you just stop 

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worrying about what anyone 
thinks about that or what anyone

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is perceiving about what you are
doing and you just start doing 

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it. 
And that's why I advise for 

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everyone like just start doing 
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Don't ask for or permission 
don't ask her advice like just 

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start doing the things that you 
want to do even if they seem 

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hard or seemed Out Of Reach like
just do it anyways because 

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that's where you're going to get
the most success. 

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If you just do the hard things 
today, Something to that. 

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I've really I've really been 
like, learning and trying to 

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practice more is also keeping 
your cards close to your chest 

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because not everybody that you 
think is rooting for you, is 

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rooting for you and you telling,
you know, people what your next 

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idea is, what your plan is, what
you want to be doing. 

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Sometimes you have the person in
your life that is 100%. 

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Absolutely. 
You know, down to the core is 

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like fucking supporting you and 
that's usually somebody who's 

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been in your life for a long 
period of time and is proven 

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their selves loyal. 
But more often than not, 

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somebody has some kind of energy
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What you're doing some kind of? 
Well, I wish I was doing 

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something like that or yeah, 
good luck with that or even, 

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even the even somebody who does 
support. 

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You just having that the idea of
that's going to be really 

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difficult for you to do or you 
sure. 

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You're going to be able to do 
that and the second that someone

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makes a comment to you like 
that, stop telling them your 

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shit. 
That's not somebody who's 

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supporting you, that can be your
friend and they can support you 

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in so many other ways. 
Don't show your business moves 

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with them. 
Don't tell them about your 

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relationship. 
Keep all that shit to your 

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fucking self. 
I think honestly this whole 

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experience that we've been going
through collectively is Of a 

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personal Discovery experience 
with Saturn in Pisces, you have 

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in your Saturn return. 71, you 
know, this energy is about an 

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internal Journey. 
Pisces is a very intuitive 

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energy that is very sensitive. 
It is a water sign. 

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It is an emotional sign. 
It is the very twelfth zodiac 

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sign. 
So it accumulates everything 

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that is came before it. 
Everything was built and then 

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Pisces came along and I think 
that this is giving us the The 

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dynamic that just because we've 
rejected the emotions and the 

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past, we have every right to 
feel every emotion right now and

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every right to honor ourselves, 
whether that is good emotions or

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perceived bad emotions, but 
don't let people tell you how to

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feel like don't let people tell 
you who you are. 

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I think that's something that's 
really coming up right now. 

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Collectively is like, don't let 
anyone Define your character 

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like you have to follow the 
Golden Rule, you have to do 

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what? 
Right when no one is looking 

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because that is the only Karma 
that really matters is like, 

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what you're doing behind closed 
doors is really going to come to

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the Forefront when things are 
hidden, they always come to 

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light. 
So make sure your intentions for

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yourself and others are pure in 
filter out the materialistic or,

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you know, egotistical ideas that
you have about your life and 

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where you think you should be, 
you know, when we remove 

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attachment to some false 
timeline that they sell, Tell us

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every single day that keeps us 
trapped or that keeps us stuck. 

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That keeps us stagnant. 
When we release the attachment 

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to those Cycles, you are a 
master manifest uryu. 

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Start breeding, abundance, you 
open the door to Prosperity 

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which is going to bring out the 
snakes and the foes and the rats

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and the people that don't want 
to see you shine, but I think 

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the cool thing about that is 
like it doesn't matter who 

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doesn't want to see you shine 
when the divine's will nose. 

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That you're pure and that your 
heads above water and that 

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you're doing things for the 
right reason. 

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Yep. 
That I always just think like 

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funny gets so much fucking 
bullshit on her page has no 

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matter how much and I texted you
this no matter how much love 

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positivity anything that she 
spreads, she is constantly 

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getting fucking haters and 
trolls and it's not somebody 

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made a comment trying to drag 
her first supporting somebody 

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and was like oh and this is, you
know, now you're friends with 

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that person and Whatever and she
is, literally always just 

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spreading love and light and 
gets that. 

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So somebody doing that on such a
large scale, can get hate then. 

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Like I kind of just expect it 
and laugh at this point and just

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know that nothing that we would 
do or say differently would 

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change that. 
Honestly I don't really expect 

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it because I'm not consenting to
it, but I guess it's inevitable.

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But I'm not going to expect 
that. 

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Y'all can take that shit else or
for all, I know you can. 

448
00:26:21,400 --> 00:26:25,100
Yeah, but I mean but to bend the
realistic like yeah, they're you

449
00:26:25,100 --> 00:26:26,900
know what I mean. 
Like, there's there's always 

450
00:26:26,900 --> 00:26:30,700
somebody who's unhappy eating 
chose it Cheez-Its and fucking 

451
00:26:30,700 --> 00:26:33,000
jacking off in their mom's 
basement writing mean, comments 

452
00:26:33,000 --> 00:26:36,500
about people and I just know 
that sir Cheez-Its hands is 

453
00:26:36,500 --> 00:26:40,600
eventually going to make their 
way and it just won't ever. 

454
00:26:41,200 --> 00:26:43,300
Bother me. 
It's crazy that you brought up 

455
00:26:43,300 --> 00:26:45,000
cheese. 
It's because I was just looking 

456
00:26:45,000 --> 00:26:48,600
into that, they're like, banned 
in Europe and somewhere else, 

457
00:26:48,600 --> 00:26:50,500
and they have a lot of chemicals
in them. 

458
00:26:50,900 --> 00:26:56,600
And I was like, damn, that's 
crazy, you know, honestly, I am 

459
00:26:56,600 --> 00:27:02,000
just making peace with every 
single person place or thing 

460
00:27:02,000 --> 00:27:05,400
that comes into my journey and 
like when it's supposed to be 

461
00:27:05,400 --> 00:27:09,300
removed or when it's supposed to
come in, I have no attachment to

462
00:27:09,300 --> 00:27:12,600
it like, you know, Oh of course 
we'll always just be human and 

463
00:27:12,600 --> 00:27:15,300
like mourn the loss of a 
friendship or mourn the loss of 

464
00:27:15,300 --> 00:27:17,900
a bond or relationship or 
whatever it is. 

465
00:27:18,200 --> 00:27:22,300
But at the same time I know in 
my heart that if it's leaving me

466
00:27:22,300 --> 00:27:26,200
or it's being removed that I'm 
actually just ten thousand 

467
00:27:26,200 --> 00:27:30,300
percent better oft and like, I 
know that that seems like 

468
00:27:31,800 --> 00:27:34,100
Whatever. 
For some people they're like 

469
00:27:34,300 --> 00:27:36,900
they hold onto things, but I'm 
not going to let people live 

470
00:27:36,900 --> 00:27:39,700
rent-free in my head. 
I'm not going to let situations,

471
00:27:40,100 --> 00:27:43,200
you know, obstacles, Illusions. 
Whatever it is. 

472
00:27:43,200 --> 00:27:45,800
I'm not letting that shit live 
print for you in my head. 

473
00:27:45,800 --> 00:27:48,800
I'm just going to keep doing me 
and trying to be the best person

474
00:27:48,800 --> 00:27:52,400
that I can be so that I can be a
good, you know, a good parent in

475
00:27:52,400 --> 00:27:55,100
the future, a good spouse, a 
good person, a good business 

476
00:27:55,100 --> 00:27:57,800
person, whatever the fuck it is,
whatever it is. 

477
00:27:57,800 --> 00:28:00,800
I'm trying to do it to the best 
of my ability and the last thing

478
00:28:00,800 --> 00:28:03,800
I'm worried about Is haters on 
the internet because that's all 

479
00:28:03,800 --> 00:28:07,400
that is is people who would 
never ever say something like 

480
00:28:07,400 --> 00:28:12,800
that to anyone's face. 
That whole situation really made

481
00:28:12,800 --> 00:28:18,000
me just sit back and assess like
actual life off of the internet.

482
00:28:18,000 --> 00:28:22,500
Because I was like, look at all 
of the people around me that are

483
00:28:22,500 --> 00:28:25,700
in my daily life that know who I
am as a person, and would never 

484
00:28:25,700 --> 00:28:28,900
speak about me this way, 
describe me this way, like 

485
00:28:29,100 --> 00:28:31,300
people that know, me and 
Friends. 

486
00:28:31,500 --> 00:28:34,800
That actually know me and it 
made me. 

487
00:28:35,000 --> 00:28:38,000
I don't know. 
Just step back into reality a 

488
00:28:38,000 --> 00:28:42,200
little bit differently. 
So, like I'm really honestly, 

489
00:28:42,200 --> 00:28:44,400
I'm glad that that situation 
happened. 

490
00:28:44,400 --> 00:28:48,400
Like I I mean, I'm not glad, but
I am like, okay, cool, got rid 

491
00:28:48,400 --> 00:28:52,400
of energy that was literally 
just here to like I feed off of 

492
00:28:52,400 --> 00:28:56,800
Creative Energy and inspiration 
and like make it drained. 

493
00:28:56,800 --> 00:29:01,400
And then distract me from 
putting myself into other areas,

494
00:29:01,500 --> 00:29:04,700
Is of my life and like, 
nurturing my marriage and like, 

495
00:29:04,700 --> 00:29:07,100
you know what I mean? 
I agree. 

496
00:29:07,100 --> 00:29:09,400
I agree. 
I feel so much gratitude in my 

497
00:29:09,400 --> 00:29:15,000
heart for like the people that I
have especially bonded with in 

498
00:29:15,000 --> 00:29:19,000
real life or just in general in 
this juror on this journey and 

499
00:29:19,000 --> 00:29:21,100
then people who are still there,
in the people who were there in,

500
00:29:21,100 --> 00:29:24,600
the people who aren't there, 
whatever it may be, I just feel 

501
00:29:24,600 --> 00:29:30,400
extremely grateful to just have 
experienced so much at, such a 

502
00:29:30,400 --> 00:29:33,200
young age. 
I just Like wow, like I have 

503
00:29:33,200 --> 00:29:38,700
done so much at such a young age
that I know that I'm like, just 

504
00:29:38,700 --> 00:29:41,600
at the tip of the iceberg of so 
many cool things that are like 

505
00:29:41,600 --> 00:29:44,000
below the surface. 
Because now, I'm really 

506
00:29:44,000 --> 00:29:49,400
operating from like a heart 
space and I'm you every sound on

507
00:29:49,400 --> 00:29:53,300
my computer every time, but 
instead, it just, it always does

508
00:29:53,300 --> 00:29:55,600
that. 
And like, I muted, I do 

509
00:29:55,600 --> 00:29:58,800
everything I could do. 
But I guess it's just Destin. 

510
00:29:58,800 --> 00:30:00,500
It's like ding. 
Ding from Heaven. 

511
00:30:00,700 --> 00:30:02,500
Yes! 
Yes. 

512
00:30:03,200 --> 00:30:06,500
We barely even heard it. 
It was just the very end piece, 

513
00:30:07,200 --> 00:30:10,400
really? 
Yeah, that the alert barely went

514
00:30:10,400 --> 00:30:12,800
off. 
It should be bitch. 

515
00:30:12,800 --> 00:30:14,400
I got a new phone for my 
birthday. 

516
00:30:14,400 --> 00:30:16,500
I'm talking to you on it, right?
This minute. 

517
00:30:16,900 --> 00:30:19,200
Damn baby. 
Pop your shit. 

518
00:30:19,200 --> 00:30:21,200
Look at you. 
Got the iPhone. 

519
00:30:22,200 --> 00:30:28,100
I found out. 
Yeah, I got 14 pro Brian, when I

520
00:30:28,100 --> 00:30:30,500
was sitting on the couch was 
like 4:30 Brian's, like how soon

521
00:30:30,500 --> 00:30:35,100
can you be ready to go? 
And I was like, um, I don't 

522
00:30:35,100 --> 00:30:39,000
know. 
Like, like go where he's like, 

523
00:30:39,000 --> 00:30:40,300
well, we're going to leave here 
at six. 

524
00:30:40,300 --> 00:30:42,800
I was like, okay cool. 
And so I was sitting on the 

525
00:30:42,800 --> 00:30:45,300
couch and he's like so you may 
want to get ready. 

526
00:30:45,300 --> 00:30:47,000
I said that's an an hour and a 
half from now. 

527
00:30:47,300 --> 00:30:50,400
He's like, oh, I'm at five. 
So I had 30 minutes to like, get

528
00:30:50,400 --> 00:30:51,600
ready. 
I was like, where are we? 

529
00:30:51,700 --> 00:30:54,800
Going and he didn't tell me. 
So over here I like did my 

530
00:30:54,800 --> 00:30:57,400
makeup put a dress on and shit. 
We go to the fucking T-Mobile 

531
00:30:57,400 --> 00:31:01,600
store. 
Only the girl, the girl there 

532
00:31:01,600 --> 00:31:03,800
was cute. 
He was like a got you a phone. 

533
00:31:04,000 --> 00:31:07,200
He's like you're not going to 
spend the money on yourself and 

534
00:31:07,200 --> 00:31:09,400
so I'm going to spend it on you 
your phone's paid. 

535
00:31:09,400 --> 00:31:13,700
Here you go. 
Thank you Daddy. 

536
00:31:13,800 --> 00:31:15,700
I love that for you. 
That's awesome. 

537
00:31:16,100 --> 00:31:19,700
Got that camera. 
Got that camera work at that 

538
00:31:19,700 --> 00:31:24,200
camera work and Yeah, I'm really
excited about it. 

539
00:31:25,100 --> 00:31:26,800
I'm more storage. 
You know what I was having to do

540
00:31:26,800 --> 00:31:29,000
bitch. 
Every time I would download a 

541
00:31:29,008 --> 00:31:32,000
video, I had to like upload it 
somewhere else, and then go and 

542
00:31:32,000 --> 00:31:35,600
delete it off my phone because I
didn't have storage and 

543
00:31:35,900 --> 00:31:38,600
apparently they don't even sell 
the phones with that little 

544
00:31:38,600 --> 00:31:41,700
storage anymore. 
So I got like a huge upgrade. 

545
00:31:41,700 --> 00:31:44,500
Like, my dick feels so huge now.
With all this storage, I gotta 

546
00:31:44,500 --> 00:31:48,700
tell you, They are going to 
catch her at cashier slo-mo with

547
00:31:48,700 --> 00:31:53,900
her son and her B hole. 
Stunning. 

548
00:31:53,900 --> 00:31:56,500
Her be healed. 
We were we were talking. 

549
00:31:56,900 --> 00:32:00,400
Okay. 
So Rampage joined my shadow 

550
00:32:00,400 --> 00:32:02,900
Queen's chat. 
I'm, I have been making an 

551
00:32:02,900 --> 00:32:05,200
effort, I don't know if you 
noticed to be up in the Discord 

552
00:32:05,500 --> 00:32:08,700
and like I make comments and I'm
not in there all the time, but 

553
00:32:08,700 --> 00:32:13,400
like I've been going in there at
least once a day and we were 

554
00:32:13,400 --> 00:32:17,300
talking about buttholes sunning 
because you can totally just go 

555
00:32:17,300 --> 00:32:20,100
outside and show your butthole 
to the sunshine. 

556
00:32:20,100 --> 00:32:22,800
And I guess you get like a bunch
of different vitamins. 

557
00:32:22,900 --> 00:32:25,100
It helps like stabilizing your 
mood. 

558
00:32:25,100 --> 00:32:30,300
It's supposed to help you like 
recharge and I Sun burn really 

559
00:32:30,300 --> 00:32:32,800
easily. 
So I probably won't be doing it.

560
00:32:32,800 --> 00:32:36,000
But you guys could Google the 
whole setting. 

561
00:32:37,800 --> 00:32:43,200
I just want to say that, Assad 
know I saved the turtle 

562
00:32:43,200 --> 00:32:47,000
yesterday, and everyone is just 
slipping out thinking that I 

563
00:32:47,000 --> 00:32:51,300
moved this Turtle far away, but 
I did it. 

564
00:32:51,700 --> 00:32:56,200
We were literally at A park a 
national park and there was a 

565
00:32:56,200 --> 00:32:59,900
turtle that just in my vision, 
felt a little too far away from 

566
00:32:59,900 --> 00:33:02,100
the creek. 
Not very far. 

567
00:33:02,300 --> 00:33:04,400
He could have made it. 
Maybe he wouldn't have died, 

568
00:33:04,400 --> 00:33:05,800
maybe he would. 
It's hot. 

569
00:33:06,100 --> 00:33:07,400
Maybe someone would have moved 
him. 

570
00:33:07,600 --> 00:33:10,500
I don't know. 
But everyone thinks I moved a 

571
00:33:10,508 --> 00:33:14,900
tortoise and not a turtle or 
they're like, well, other 

572
00:33:14,900 --> 00:33:18,300
Turtles can't swim brother. 
I didn't just go watch it into 

573
00:33:18,300 --> 00:33:20,400
the water. 
I sent him on the bank. 

574
00:33:21,300 --> 00:33:25,000
He lunged himself in. 
Into the water and swam off. 

575
00:33:25,200 --> 00:33:28,600
Okay homie. 
Like I didn't take him over the 

576
00:33:28,600 --> 00:33:34,200
water and like see saw him in. 
We dropped him very Softly on 

577
00:33:34,200 --> 00:33:39,800
the grassy knoll by the water 
and honestly he was so dry. 

578
00:33:39,800 --> 00:33:43,700
Don't think he had the momentum 
or energy to make it towards the

579
00:33:43,700 --> 00:33:47,300
water, but when he got near the 
water he lunged every ounce of 

580
00:33:47,300 --> 00:33:52,000
energy and he hit a rock and it 
was with his shell though, but 

581
00:33:52,000 --> 00:33:55,900
he was fine because He lunged it
wasn't like I threw him in but 

582
00:33:55,900 --> 00:33:59,900
people just want to be seen. 
Like I can't even make a post 

583
00:33:59,900 --> 00:34:03,500
that say, I'll say this hurdle 
without 19, people giving me 

584
00:34:03,800 --> 00:34:07,300
their Bill Nye, the Science Guy 
fucking update and I'm like, you

585
00:34:07,300 --> 00:34:11,100
do have a really weird comment 
section and it's either like 

586
00:34:11,100 --> 00:34:14,699
rooting you on or it's always 
weird looking dudes in your 

587
00:34:14,699 --> 00:34:18,300
comment section, that have some 
pads and some comments recently 

588
00:34:18,300 --> 00:34:22,000
because I used a filter, but 
talked about being real and 

589
00:34:22,000 --> 00:34:25,500
there was like, 15 people that 
were like, there ain't nothing 

590
00:34:25,500 --> 00:34:29,600
real about you. 
I have a filter on like Okay, 

591
00:34:30,699 --> 00:34:34,500
add a filter on that you can 
tell is a filter and I said 

592
00:34:34,500 --> 00:34:37,300
something about being real, but 
I meant your personality, your 

593
00:34:37,300 --> 00:34:40,500
morals or ethics. 
Not your looks, you can be fake 

594
00:34:40,500 --> 00:34:43,500
as hell. 
You can go inject, whatever you 

595
00:34:43,500 --> 00:34:45,600
can go, do whatever. 
Just be real. 

596
00:34:45,600 --> 00:34:48,199
And don't lie. 
And don't spread rumors or false

597
00:34:48,199 --> 00:34:51,000
bullshit to others. 
Don't be a false prophet. 

598
00:34:51,000 --> 00:34:54,699
That's it. 
Don't be a douche in the comment

599
00:34:54,699 --> 00:34:56,400
section. 
I mean, let's be real. 

600
00:34:56,400 --> 00:34:59,700
Don't be a 65 year. 
Old guy in my comment section, 

601
00:35:01,100 --> 00:35:03,700
Yeah, but it's the same ones 
that are in your inbox like, 

602
00:35:03,700 --> 00:35:06,600
hey, those it take you out 
sometime, I don't have a car, 

603
00:35:07,300 --> 00:35:10,700
can you come and pick me up? 
You know, often that happens. 

604
00:35:10,700 --> 00:35:13,700
How often people want to take me
out, but it's in that same said,

605
00:35:13,700 --> 00:35:16,400
this looks gloomy and that they 
don't have a vehicle. 

606
00:35:17,700 --> 00:35:20,700
I know, that's why I said, it's 
unreal. 

607
00:35:20,800 --> 00:35:24,300
Please know that if you have a 
failed attempt at picking her 

608
00:35:24,300 --> 00:35:28,300
up, I get screenshots. 
And literally it makes my 

609
00:35:28,300 --> 00:35:31,200
fucking day. 
This been blocking and repeat. 

610
00:35:31,200 --> 00:35:38,100
I've been blocked repeat because
honestly, I just don't I can And

611
00:35:38,100 --> 00:35:42,900
I don't want to and I don't have
to and honestly, dating repulses

612
00:35:42,900 --> 00:35:45,700
me where I was kind of open to 
it. 

613
00:35:45,700 --> 00:35:50,300
Now I'm just, like, I can't do 
casual dating it repulses me. 

614
00:35:52,000 --> 00:35:54,300
Dude, you have the most wild 
stories. 

615
00:35:55,200 --> 00:35:59,600
I'm like, oh that's what's out 
there in the real world gross. 

616
00:35:59,600 --> 00:36:02,400
It's scary. 
And you know, I love everyone 

617
00:36:02,400 --> 00:36:05,300
all the same but I've had 
several people right needed a 

618
00:36:05,700 --> 00:36:09,600
and just say weird shit to me. 
So I just block them, like, I 

619
00:36:09,600 --> 00:36:11,400
love, you will be a nice and 
supportive. 

620
00:36:11,400 --> 00:36:15,000
But when you have are like, 
basically talking to yourself in

621
00:36:15,000 --> 00:36:17,900
my inbox and then have the 
audacity to ask me, why? 

622
00:36:17,900 --> 00:36:19,400
I don't reply to you like 
though. 

623
00:36:19,500 --> 00:36:25,200
I'm gonna block you, okay? 
Look what I get trauma dumps, 

624
00:36:25,200 --> 00:36:28,500
sometimes like it comes and goes
in waves and it's been 

625
00:36:28,500 --> 00:36:31,400
happening, more like it's 
happening in my comments section

626
00:36:31,500 --> 00:36:34,700
even and like someone will 
comment on a video and be like, 

627
00:36:35,000 --> 00:36:36,900
oh my God, I love this picture 
of you. 

628
00:36:36,900 --> 00:36:39,300
It makes me think of the one 
time when I had a pet squirrel. 

629
00:36:39,300 --> 00:36:42,100
And then it got killed. 
And my mom went and tried to 

630
00:36:42,100 --> 00:36:45,100
replace it with a different 
squirrel and I have deep-rooted 

631
00:36:45,100 --> 00:36:48,300
trauma, you know what I mean? 
Like, things that I'm like, I 

632
00:36:48,300 --> 00:36:51,500
don't give a single fuck. 
How does this affect my life? 

633
00:36:51,600 --> 00:36:55,300
If one way or another, it's 
crazy. 

634
00:36:56,100 --> 00:37:00,100
I think that a lot of people are
like starting to see their own 

635
00:37:00,100 --> 00:37:03,300
shadow and they're starting to 
see their own Darkness with 

636
00:37:03,300 --> 00:37:06,300
this, Pisces Transit with 
Saturn, for the next three 

637
00:37:06,300 --> 00:37:09,700
years, people are really 
internally starting to see their

638
00:37:09,700 --> 00:37:12,300
Shadow that's what's being 
revealed. 

639
00:37:13,000 --> 00:37:16,100
It's going to expose people who 
are not doing things that are 

640
00:37:16,100 --> 00:37:19,500
above board and like things and 
other things like right now. 

641
00:37:19,500 --> 00:37:22,900
People just want to be seeing 
and I want someone to validate 

642
00:37:22,900 --> 00:37:26,200
their trauma responses and 
someone to validate their victim

643
00:37:26,200 --> 00:37:29,000
mindset. 
They want someone to validate 

644
00:37:29,100 --> 00:37:33,300
but, you know, it's okay to 
still be, I don't know. 

645
00:37:33,300 --> 00:37:38,300
Back on your bullshit when 
you're fucking 50 45 35? 

646
00:37:38,300 --> 00:37:40,100
I don't know. 
Like, I don't know. 

647
00:37:40,100 --> 00:37:42,400
You need to calm down. 
You need to heal if anybody's 

648
00:37:42,400 --> 00:37:46,400
using the back of my bullshit. 
Yeah you need to heal Because 

649
00:37:46,400 --> 00:37:49,200
deep down, that's just rooted in
trauma and it's a trauma 

650
00:37:49,200 --> 00:37:54,700
response to go back to The same 
behavior that attracts 

651
00:37:55,000 --> 00:37:58,000
negativity into your life and 
like, you know, when you make 

652
00:37:58,000 --> 00:38:01,100
friends and you instantly trauma
Bond, you think like oh my God, 

653
00:38:01,100 --> 00:38:04,500
this person was destined to come
into my life or in a 

654
00:38:04,508 --> 00:38:06,900
relationship and their 
love-bombing, you and all of 

655
00:38:06,900 --> 00:38:08,500
that. 
Like, that's not healthy. 

656
00:38:08,500 --> 00:38:12,400
Like it's not healthy to trauma,
dump on someone that you're just

657
00:38:12,400 --> 00:38:15,200
getting to know someone that 
you're just starting to be 

658
00:38:15,200 --> 00:38:17,600
friends with like it's cool for 
trauma. 

659
00:38:17,600 --> 00:38:20,100
Not to come up for several years
in a relationship. 

660
00:38:20,100 --> 00:38:21,500
It doesn't mean that you're 
hiding anything. 

661
00:38:22,100 --> 00:38:24,500
It means that you're not that 
person and you don't need to 

662
00:38:24,500 --> 00:38:29,000
like, just go right into every 
little detail of your trauma 

663
00:38:29,000 --> 00:38:31,200
with every person that comes in 
and out of your life. 

664
00:38:31,200 --> 00:38:34,600
Because I think that leaves 
people fragmented, you know what

665
00:38:34,600 --> 00:38:36,200
I mean? 
Like, you're giving all this 

666
00:38:36,200 --> 00:38:39,600
energy and trying to fill these 
little gaps within yourself with

667
00:38:39,600 --> 00:38:42,000
other people's love and 
attention and then when they 

668
00:38:42,000 --> 00:38:45,500
leave your like fragmented and I
think that's where a lot of that

669
00:38:45,500 --> 00:38:48,400
was going on. 
It's actually like, in the last 

670
00:38:48,400 --> 00:38:51,500
couple of months just in like 
everyone around these parts. 

671
00:38:51,600 --> 00:38:54,200
Personal life, not just in my 
community, but just people, I 

672
00:38:54,200 --> 00:38:56,900
know. 
Just in general, a lot of people

673
00:38:56,900 --> 00:38:58,600
Shadows are coming to the 
Forefront. 

674
00:38:58,600 --> 00:39:02,700
Like, who you really are when no
one's looking can be seen by 

675
00:39:02,700 --> 00:39:10,500
those who want to see it. 
Yeah, also, with things coming 

676
00:39:10,500 --> 00:39:13,300
to, like I just got to give 
people advice on fucking 

677
00:39:14,100 --> 00:39:17,800
messaging and screenshots that 
shit lives forever. 

678
00:39:18,000 --> 00:39:22,000
People will find a copy of some 
everything that you have said. 

679
00:39:22,000 --> 00:39:24,800
At some point when you are 
sending messages with your 

680
00:39:24,800 --> 00:39:28,600
fucking thumbs, you're posting 
things, you're writing things on

681
00:39:28,900 --> 00:39:33,100
sending text messages to people,
whatever, make sure that like 

682
00:39:33,200 --> 00:39:35,900
that shit is stuff that you 
actually mean. 

683
00:39:35,900 --> 00:39:39,100
And To represent you in the real
fucking world because at some 

684
00:39:39,100 --> 00:39:43,900
point, people will they get 
their hands on that the internet

685
00:39:43,900 --> 00:39:46,700
lives forever? 
And that's something to that 

686
00:39:46,700 --> 00:39:50,300
when you're talking about like 
authenticity and Trauma bonding 

687
00:39:50,300 --> 00:39:53,200
and stuff like that, I noticed 
that a lot of people that trauma

688
00:39:53,200 --> 00:39:56,100
Bond. 
They also as much as they like 

689
00:39:56,300 --> 00:40:00,100
love that friend or whatever, 
they'll also talk about that 

690
00:40:00,100 --> 00:40:04,800
friend to other people, or 
they'll say things to that 

691
00:40:04,800 --> 00:40:08,300
person that they're like, I've 
never in their wildest dreams. 

692
00:40:08,300 --> 00:40:10,900
Would they ever want anybody 
knowing this information? 

693
00:40:10,900 --> 00:40:13,300
And it's so personal, but then 
you have a trauma Bond. 

694
00:40:13,600 --> 00:40:18,900
So then you share that and that 
shit lives forever conversations

695
00:40:18,900 --> 00:40:22,800
that you have over messages with
people sharing about your life. 

696
00:40:23,100 --> 00:40:25,100
Always expect that shit's going 
to come back out. 

697
00:40:25,100 --> 00:40:27,700
So if you wouldn't want the 
masses to no, don't fucking 

698
00:40:27,700 --> 00:40:29,900
share it over a message. 
Wait, until you're fucking 

699
00:40:29,900 --> 00:40:33,300
having a drunk Moonlight 
stargaze with your friend 

700
00:40:33,300 --> 00:40:35,400
without you fucking phone. 
Thank you. 

701
00:40:36,600 --> 00:40:41,400
I mean, this is just true like 
as much as I want to say like be

702
00:40:41,400 --> 00:40:43,900
open and all that and connect 
with people. 

703
00:40:44,000 --> 00:40:49,000
I also need to take a little, 
you know, recipe or from the 

704
00:40:49,000 --> 00:40:51,500
handbook or whatever and like, 
use that shit. 

705
00:40:51,500 --> 00:40:55,400
Because For Real, a lot of 
people, they don't know how to 

706
00:40:55,400 --> 00:40:58,300
act, right? 
And they do talk shit and like 

707
00:40:58,300 --> 00:41:01,500
if you have shared personal 
things, people think they can 

708
00:41:01,500 --> 00:41:04,400
use that against you. 
Unfortunately for me, no one's 

709
00:41:04,400 --> 00:41:05,800
going to use anything against 
me. 

710
00:41:05,900 --> 00:41:08,700
That I've shared with them 
because if I've shared it, I've 

711
00:41:08,700 --> 00:41:11,700
taken its power away. 
Like its power is not in your 

712
00:41:11,700 --> 00:41:16,300
hands because I'm clearly over 
it like, but if you're not over 

713
00:41:16,300 --> 00:41:19,400
it, however, I wouldn't tell 
everyone because these people 

714
00:41:19,400 --> 00:41:23,500
are not your friends and not 
everyone wants to see you heal 

715
00:41:23,500 --> 00:41:26,900
because if you heal, you'll see 
that they're part of the problem

716
00:41:26,900 --> 00:41:30,000
or that you're going to outgrow 
them or that this trauma bond 

717
00:41:30,000 --> 00:41:31,700
that you have with them will 
dissolve. 

718
00:41:31,700 --> 00:41:34,700
And then you have nothing left 
to bond on. 

719
00:41:34,700 --> 00:41:35,800
I think that's what I learned 
with. 

720
00:41:36,000 --> 00:41:38,400
A lot of people I was friends 
with over the course of my life 

721
00:41:38,400 --> 00:41:42,100
is like when I outgrew the 
things that we did together or 

722
00:41:42,100 --> 00:41:45,300
the activities that were 
detrimental in my life, the 

723
00:41:45,300 --> 00:41:48,500
things that I did that were - 
the habits that I had that were 

724
00:41:48,500 --> 00:41:52,100
not good for me when I stopped 
for taking in those activities 

725
00:41:52,100 --> 00:41:55,300
and doing those things. 
All of those people, not just 

726
00:41:55,300 --> 00:41:58,800
one all of those people fell off
and there was like, no going 

727
00:41:58,800 --> 00:42:00,300
back. 
There was no, like, oh my God, 

728
00:42:00,300 --> 00:42:04,100
we're going to heal and rekindle
one day, like no, like not at 

729
00:42:04,100 --> 00:42:06,100
all. 
And I think that's what The 

730
00:42:06,100 --> 00:42:10,600
really cool thing about life is 
as like there is this revolving 

731
00:42:10,600 --> 00:42:13,600
door with like the will of 
Fortune and you never really 

732
00:42:13,600 --> 00:42:16,200
know where you're going to be on
the Spectrum but if you're 

733
00:42:16,200 --> 00:42:20,000
playing your cards right like 
you said earlier and not telling

734
00:42:20,000 --> 00:42:23,000
everyone what's in your hand you
might win. 

735
00:42:23,100 --> 00:42:26,300
But at the same time like life 
is always going to test you. 

736
00:42:26,300 --> 00:42:29,000
You signed up for obstacles. 
It's kind of like the Ninja 

737
00:42:29,000 --> 00:42:31,100
Warrior Competition like you 
don't I mean those people are 

738
00:42:31,100 --> 00:42:32,900
strong as fuck. 
They've been training for this 

739
00:42:33,100 --> 00:42:35,700
but there's still things that 
are flying at your head. 

740
00:42:35,900 --> 00:42:38,800
And your ball sack and every 
part of your adamant haven't 

741
00:42:41,400 --> 00:42:50,100
fucking shit, okay? 
All your shit every time you say

742
00:42:50,100 --> 00:42:53,600
bad words or like inappropriate 
words, it just makes me giggle 

743
00:42:53,600 --> 00:42:57,900
because like that's just not you
at like that's like you're not 

744
00:42:57,900 --> 00:43:00,600
usually the one to do it, so 
then when you do it, I don't 

745
00:43:00,600 --> 00:43:02,500
know. 
It just makes me laugh. 

746
00:43:04,800 --> 00:43:11,100
The way that you said ball sack.
Yo, that's it. 

747
00:43:11,100 --> 00:43:14,000
That's what it does. 
In fact, could imagine, like, if

748
00:43:14,000 --> 00:43:17,100
I had a ball sack, it would be 
uncomfortable. 

749
00:43:17,500 --> 00:43:20,500
If things were flying at it, 
even though I trained and 

750
00:43:20,500 --> 00:43:25,900
prepped and watched it on TV and
saw, other people do it, that 

751
00:43:25,900 --> 00:43:28,200
would fit it, prepare her ball 
sack 

752
00:43:39,600 --> 00:43:47,200
Good Lord right there. 
Shout out. 

753
00:43:49,900 --> 00:43:52,500
I freaking love Jackie that. 
Like we've talked about her 

754
00:43:52,500 --> 00:43:56,200
before, but she's just like the 
sweetest little, I don't know. 

755
00:43:57,900 --> 00:44:00,100
I just can't imagine her. 
She's one of those people where 

756
00:44:00,100 --> 00:44:03,700
I just literally can't imagine 
her being mean to somebody. 

757
00:44:03,800 --> 00:44:06,400
And so, like, I know that, like,
if she was upset with somebody 

758
00:44:06,400 --> 00:44:10,600
or mean about something, like it
would be like a thing. 

759
00:44:11,900 --> 00:44:15,900
I just really like her because 
she is just a pure spirit and 

760
00:44:15,900 --> 00:44:18,900
you can just tell when people 
are pure and they really just 

761
00:44:18,900 --> 00:44:22,500
like only want to be themselves 
and add value in their 

762
00:44:22,500 --> 00:44:25,800
surroundings and I feel like she
just adds value wherever she is.

763
00:44:25,800 --> 00:44:29,200
She just a really kind and 
generous and sweet person and I 

764
00:44:29,207 --> 00:44:31,800
think everyone could be more 
like that. 

765
00:44:31,800 --> 00:44:35,500
Even mean all of us? 
We all I will never forget, I 

766
00:44:35,500 --> 00:44:38,200
swear to God, it's going to be 
ingrained in my fucking brain 

767
00:44:38,200 --> 00:44:40,900
forever that morning when we 
were in. 

768
00:44:41,000 --> 00:44:45,300
Moab and home girl walked in 
after being gone, the whole 

769
00:44:45,300 --> 00:44:49,900
night fucking who knows who and 
comes into the living room and 

770
00:44:49,900 --> 00:44:52,900
like me and you were just like 
we already had an Airbnb at this

771
00:44:52,900 --> 00:44:54,700
point. 
We're just like go fuck yourself

772
00:44:55,100 --> 00:45:00,000
and Jackie's over here. 
So I just want to know like how 

773
00:45:00,000 --> 00:45:03,400
are you feeling? 
But why are you feeling that 

774
00:45:03,400 --> 00:45:05,800
way? 
We never want you to feel that 

775
00:45:05,800 --> 00:45:09,200
way and like the more that she 
would get interrupted the 

776
00:45:09,200 --> 00:45:12,000
gentler and sweeter? 
She So that she could try to be 

777
00:45:12,000 --> 00:45:16,200
like, heard and as her like 
energy is going down, and she's 

778
00:45:16,200 --> 00:45:19,300
trying to be so sweet. 
I just remember being so angry 

779
00:45:19,300 --> 00:45:23,400
and like her polar opposite and 
the room, and she's just so 

780
00:45:23,400 --> 00:45:24,800
fucking sweet. 
And then she goes. 

781
00:45:25,100 --> 00:45:27,600
Yeah, I'll roll up. 
I'll pick people up from the 

782
00:45:27,600 --> 00:45:30,900
airport with a blunt in my hand.
I'm like, at the airport. 

783
00:45:30,900 --> 00:45:32,000
She's like Fuck. 
Yeah. 

784
00:45:32,000 --> 00:45:37,700
You got a smoke where you go. 
I don't even know the thing 

785
00:45:37,700 --> 00:45:40,800
about it is like how could 
anyone be mad at Jackie? 

786
00:45:41,000 --> 00:45:45,000
He and so, I don't know, I just 
don't know, like, never 

787
00:45:45,900 --> 00:45:48,900
everything. 
That was directed towards that 

788
00:45:48,900 --> 00:45:52,200
trip to make us have a bad time,
really only made it more 

789
00:45:52,200 --> 00:45:56,000
memorable and actually more fun.
I think honestly, all those 

790
00:45:56,000 --> 00:46:00,600
really crazy events really give 
us like, so our he's rounding 

791
00:46:00,700 --> 00:46:02,700
for our friendship. 
It like, I don't know. 

792
00:46:02,700 --> 00:46:05,400
It really brought us a lot 
closer when I think it was 

793
00:46:06,200 --> 00:46:09,100
wanting or tempting to try to 
tear us apart. 

794
00:46:09,100 --> 00:46:12,300
It just brought us closer and 
That's a life lesson for 

795
00:46:12,300 --> 00:46:15,300
everyone like the obstacles. 
And the things that we go 

796
00:46:15,300 --> 00:46:18,000
through. 
That seem very daunting or 

797
00:46:18,000 --> 00:46:21,900
whatever, ended up really being 
the big part of your story that 

798
00:46:21,900 --> 00:46:27,200
becomes your testimony or your, 
you know, your energy that's 

799
00:46:27,200 --> 00:46:31,500
like wow I learn from this. 
I Grew From This is elevated 

800
00:46:31,500 --> 00:46:34,200
from this and that's what I 
think life's really been 

801
00:46:34,200 --> 00:46:39,400
throwing our way is like as 
we've gotten closer more things 

802
00:46:39,400 --> 00:46:42,600
have came our way but I I think 
it's just because we're growing 

803
00:46:42,600 --> 00:46:47,500
so exponentially that at the 
same time, there has to be 

804
00:46:47,500 --> 00:46:49,900
balance of like things that are 
not working. 

805
00:46:49,900 --> 00:46:54,200
And since everything's working, 
really I think the outside 

806
00:46:54,200 --> 00:46:58,100
forces were trying to dismantle 
a lot of that, try to dismantle 

807
00:46:58,100 --> 00:47:02,200
things that were working. 
I also am somebody where, like, 

808
00:47:02,200 --> 00:47:07,100
if things are going good and 
things are going smooth, I will 

809
00:47:07,200 --> 00:47:09,700
like a boy change with it 
because I'm like, no. 

810
00:47:09,700 --> 00:47:11,800
Like I like that. 
Like, this is comfortable right 

811
00:47:11,800 --> 00:47:13,900
now. 
I'm cool with it but then I'll 

812
00:47:13,900 --> 00:47:18,200
settle in a little bit too much 
and so it's almost like I need 

813
00:47:18,400 --> 00:47:23,300
like big events or changes or 
Tower moments for me to be like,

814
00:47:23,300 --> 00:47:26,500
oh I need like a perspective 
shift on this and like I need to

815
00:47:26,500 --> 00:47:30,100
be uncomfortable again because I
thrive when I'm uncomfortable, 

816
00:47:30,300 --> 00:47:34,600
We Thrive when we're put into a 
situation that's like you know, 

817
00:47:34,600 --> 00:47:38,200
supposed to like Shake us or 
whatever, we're like, actually 

818
00:47:38,500 --> 00:47:41,500
know and we're going to take 
these pieces from it and 

819
00:47:41,500 --> 00:47:44,400
Elevate. 
Yeah, I think that's what the 

820
00:47:44,400 --> 00:47:50,000
rebirth process of the tarot is 
is like letting life row all of 

821
00:47:50,000 --> 00:47:54,300
its challenges and all of its 
blessings and all of its Glory 

822
00:47:55,000 --> 00:47:58,800
your way and not rejecting any 
of it, it's not like, oh my 

823
00:47:58,800 --> 00:48:02,800
gosh, I pulled the tower, I'm 
Going to put it back, you need 

824
00:48:02,800 --> 00:48:06,800
to have those moments that 
dismantle and disrupt that 

825
00:48:06,800 --> 00:48:12,100
comfort zone or help you elevate
from the stagnant complacent. 

826
00:48:12,100 --> 00:48:15,700
Energy, that is things when they
start working, you know what I 

827
00:48:15,707 --> 00:48:17,100
mean? 
Like, sometimes we do get 

828
00:48:17,100 --> 00:48:23,000
complacent as humans and we 
resist change, and I think that 

829
00:48:23,000 --> 00:48:30,100
in my spirit, I resist a lot of 
the changes just kind of like on

830
00:48:30,200 --> 00:48:34,100
The global scale like I just 
absolutely just resent, the 

831
00:48:34,100 --> 00:48:37,200
whole like electric car scheme. 
I think it's a scheme that feels

832
00:48:37,200 --> 00:48:40,200
like an MLM thing. 
Like we can't even fucking hold 

833
00:48:40,200 --> 00:48:43,300
down the fort with the Grid's. 
We have we don't even have solar

834
00:48:43,300 --> 00:48:45,500
on every home. 
We need to seek help. 

835
00:48:45,500 --> 00:48:47,600
They're just need to check. 
They need to check themselves. 

836
00:48:47,600 --> 00:48:50,700
It's just like the seles more 
things we don't fucking need. 

837
00:48:51,100 --> 00:48:55,100
But anyway, Badgers triggers me 
and so I'm like I don't know. 

838
00:48:55,100 --> 00:48:58,000
There's like this part of my 
spirit that's very old that 

839
00:48:58,000 --> 00:49:00,400
knows when you start changing 
things that are not fucking 

840
00:49:00,400 --> 00:49:02,600
broken, you start fucking shit 
up. 

841
00:49:03,100 --> 00:49:06,500
And that's always the problem 
with people is there like I can 

842
00:49:06,500 --> 00:49:10,400
be Innovative and I can create 
new solutions to Old problems. 

843
00:49:10,400 --> 00:49:12,900
But like if it's not broken 
always you probably should leave

844
00:49:12,900 --> 00:49:15,200
it. 
The fuck alone unless you are 

845
00:49:15,200 --> 00:49:18,700
ready for That moment you know 
what I mean? 

846
00:49:18,700 --> 00:49:21,100
Like sometimes like we're not 
ready for Tower moments and then

847
00:49:21,100 --> 00:49:24,500
sometimes we can invite them in 
and I feel like this was an 

848
00:49:24,500 --> 00:49:27,700
invitation because I've been 
asking spirit for months to 

849
00:49:27,700 --> 00:49:31,300
remove everyone, everything this
is everything reveal it. 

850
00:49:31,300 --> 00:49:34,400
Let It Go release it. 
Like I've been asking especially

851
00:49:34,400 --> 00:49:38,100
the last literally like three 
four months. 

852
00:49:38,100 --> 00:49:43,500
Since we started the moon circle
it's really been deep about 

853
00:49:43,500 --> 00:49:47,300
letting go. 
I also had been not only He 

854
00:49:47,300 --> 00:49:51,600
doing my own, but got a spell 
working done for me to about 

855
00:49:51,600 --> 00:49:55,600
removing blockages from just 
specific areas that I realized 

856
00:49:55,600 --> 00:49:59,100
in my life, I was just like, I 
just I'm doing my own workings 

857
00:49:59,200 --> 00:50:01,500
and whatever, but like it's a 
lot of energy. 

858
00:50:02,800 --> 00:50:06,600
And as soon as that was done, 
was when everything just started

859
00:50:06,600 --> 00:50:08,600
coming to light and not even 
just that situation. 

860
00:50:08,600 --> 00:50:12,500
But just like different things 
in life and stuff and I was 

861
00:50:12,500 --> 00:50:16,500
just, I can't even explain it. 
I feel so much more like 

862
00:50:16,500 --> 00:50:20,000
creatively. 
Inspired so much more energized,

863
00:50:20,000 --> 00:50:24,600
so much like removed out of like
almost a depression that I felt 

864
00:50:24,600 --> 00:50:29,100
like I was in and just I don't 
know. 

865
00:50:29,500 --> 00:50:33,200
I think that an awareness of 
being energetically used where I

866
00:50:33,200 --> 00:50:37,300
hadn't realized it before and 
now it's been like an 

867
00:50:37,300 --> 00:50:39,400
opportunity to set new 
boundaries. 

868
00:50:39,400 --> 00:50:42,700
There is no more. 
Like I feel so deeply for you 

869
00:50:42,700 --> 00:50:46,400
because you're like struggling 
and so I'm going to just keep 

870
00:50:46,400 --> 00:50:47,800
doing this. 
For free. 

871
00:50:47,900 --> 00:50:50,900
Like I can still feel that for 
you. 

872
00:50:50,900 --> 00:50:56,300
I can still you know, be a like 
a person but I don't have to 

873
00:50:56,300 --> 00:51:00,500
like give of myself that way now
in a way that I felt obligated 

874
00:51:00,500 --> 00:51:02,300
to do before, if that makes 
sense. 

875
00:51:02,800 --> 00:51:06,200
Yeah, I feel so free. 
I feel like I have so much more 

876
00:51:06,200 --> 00:51:10,800
time to think about me without 
random people, putting their 

877
00:51:10,800 --> 00:51:13,300
expectations and obligations on 
me. 

878
00:51:13,600 --> 00:51:18,300
I am completely filtering my 
entire The with a fine-tooth 

879
00:51:18,300 --> 00:51:21,300
comb. 
And I've really found that I'm 

880
00:51:21,300 --> 00:51:24,800
creating a more intimate space 
rather than it being for the 

881
00:51:24,800 --> 00:51:27,100
masses, which I think is 
important. 

882
00:51:27,700 --> 00:51:31,100
I wanted to be that person that 
was showing up for everyone, but

883
00:51:31,100 --> 00:51:34,100
now I've decided like, if you 
don't show up for yourself, you 

884
00:51:34,100 --> 00:51:36,400
don't show up for your kids and 
your family. 

885
00:51:36,600 --> 00:51:38,500
You don't show up for your 
ancestors. 

886
00:51:38,700 --> 00:51:41,000
Then what the fuck you want me 
to do for you? 

887
00:51:41,000 --> 00:51:44,700
Like, you need to work with what
you have, and you need to really

888
00:51:44,900 --> 00:51:48,400
be ready for the changes. 
Spirit once you to make because 

889
00:51:48,400 --> 00:51:50,900
if you're not ready, you don't 
really need to contact me. 

890
00:51:51,000 --> 00:51:53,800
You can get the initiation 
reading like your first reading 

891
00:51:53,800 --> 00:51:56,100
that kind of sets that Catalyst 
off. 

892
00:51:56,200 --> 00:52:00,100
But if you're not ready for like
Phase 2, after Phase 1, your 

893
00:52:00,100 --> 00:52:05,500
initial reading in contact after
like that moving into phase 2 

894
00:52:05,500 --> 00:52:08,200
and phase 3 and phase for look 
if you're not ready for those 

895
00:52:08,200 --> 00:52:11,800
steps, you're going to have to 
work through those insecurities 

896
00:52:11,800 --> 00:52:14,800
and fears on your own. 
Like I can't carry you through 

897
00:52:14,800 --> 00:52:17,100
Phase 2 3 and 4 like by the 
time. 

898
00:52:17,200 --> 00:52:20,700
You get the face off, you will 
just be so in tune when you 

899
00:52:20,700 --> 00:52:23,100
matter and people are like what 
are the phases? 

900
00:52:23,100 --> 00:52:24,600
I don't know. 
I just know that there's 

901
00:52:24,600 --> 00:52:27,100
different phases and levels to 
this shit and I couldn't have 

902
00:52:27,100 --> 00:52:29,400
them all out for you but I'm 
tired of that been. 

903
00:52:29,400 --> 00:52:33,700
Shut out for people like it's 
either get with the program or 

904
00:52:33,700 --> 00:52:38,300
don't and I think that a lot of 
people wanted the program to be 

905
00:52:38,300 --> 00:52:42,600
like shoved down their throat 
and easily accessible on on 

906
00:52:42,600 --> 00:52:47,100
demand and just whenever 
whatever on a sliding scale from

907
00:52:47,200 --> 00:52:51,100
From free to whatever, you know,
and it's just like, I don't 

908
00:52:51,100 --> 00:52:53,600
know, like I just can't and I 
won't. 

909
00:52:53,600 --> 00:52:57,100
And so it's just like if you're 
not ready to initiate your own 

910
00:52:57,100 --> 00:53:00,700
changes, you're not ready for a 
mentor or you're not ready for 

911
00:53:00,700 --> 00:53:02,500
what's next? 
Like you're not ready for what 

912
00:53:02,500 --> 00:53:04,900
Spirits trying to show you 
because you're just going to 

913
00:53:04,900 --> 00:53:08,800
keep getting the same messages 
from that Mentor or that person 

914
00:53:09,000 --> 00:53:12,900
until you implement it. 
And I know a lot of people can 

915
00:53:12,900 --> 00:53:16,300
see the growth and three to six 
months of implementing the 

916
00:53:16,300 --> 00:53:19,600
changes in it. implementing the 
work and doing the meditations 

917
00:53:19,600 --> 00:53:23,100
on the journal prompts and you 
know a lot of that stuff that 

918
00:53:23,100 --> 00:53:25,600
you're like all do it later and 
then you haven't done it in 

919
00:53:25,600 --> 00:53:28,700
fucking three weeks, you know, 
quite quit saying that you're 

920
00:53:28,700 --> 00:53:31,700
going to do the stuff later and 
then looking at people who do it

921
00:53:31,700 --> 00:53:37,500
every single day in front of the
camera and behind the scenes, To

922
00:53:37,500 --> 00:53:46,900
do more for you. 
Yeah, we we share now that I 

923
00:53:46,900 --> 00:53:51,100
think about it, we share a whole
lot of stuff on camera on Mike, 

924
00:53:51,100 --> 00:53:56,700
like, having a podcast, is such 
a vulnerable thing, like every 

925
00:53:56,700 --> 00:54:00,000
single week. 
Basically, for the past year, 

926
00:54:00,000 --> 00:54:03,600
we've sat here and shared like 
our thought processes on things 

927
00:54:03,600 --> 00:54:07,900
and like our viewpoints on 
things and, you know, evolved 

928
00:54:07,900 --> 00:54:10,300
from starting out with having 
guests. 

929
00:54:10,300 --> 00:54:13,800
Now, we don't do guests at all 
and we just talk among each 

930
00:54:13,800 --> 00:54:18,600
other and being able to have a 
conversation with somebody every

931
00:54:18,600 --> 00:54:22,000
single week and be able to find 
different topics that you can 

932
00:54:22,300 --> 00:54:25,300
you know Vibe on or share 
difference of opinions on. 

933
00:54:25,600 --> 00:54:27,800
That's not like an easy thing. 
I'm really proud of us. 

934
00:54:28,900 --> 00:54:32,800
I'm proud of us too. 
Because we show up, even when 

935
00:54:32,800 --> 00:54:36,200
it's hard and it doesn't make 
sense and I think of anybody 

936
00:54:36,400 --> 00:54:39,800
who's worked with me, personally
knows that that's like my motto 

937
00:54:39,800 --> 00:54:43,500
is like, just fucking show up, 
do the fucking work. 

938
00:54:43,500 --> 00:54:45,800
We've been talking about this 
whole episode but this is like 

939
00:54:45,800 --> 00:54:49,300
something that I live by, and 
I'm so passionate about it. 

940
00:54:49,300 --> 00:54:52,300
And I know Jim. 
And I also is showing up in 

941
00:54:52,300 --> 00:54:56,000
these ways and it really puts in
the work behind the scenes to 

942
00:54:56,000 --> 00:55:00,500
build just unique things. 
Her community and just her her 

943
00:55:00,500 --> 00:55:04,900
clients and it isn't easy. 
And I think that's where it's 

944
00:55:04,900 --> 00:55:07,800
easy to throw shade and it's 
easy to hate and it's easy to 

945
00:55:07,800 --> 00:55:11,200
say whatever about someone who's
doing something that you don't 

946
00:55:11,200 --> 00:55:15,200
do but get up there and do it. 
Big boy, big girl, big whoever 

947
00:55:15,200 --> 00:55:18,900
get up there and, you know, show
us what you got because at the 

948
00:55:18,900 --> 00:55:22,600
same time like if you cared as 
much about what you were doing 

949
00:55:22,600 --> 00:55:25,900
as what other people do, you're 
going to already be golden and I

950
00:55:25,900 --> 00:55:28,400
think that's where I just get 
ahead and maybe Geminis. 

951
00:55:28,600 --> 00:55:31,900
As well. 
Like we genuinely want the best 

952
00:55:31,900 --> 00:55:35,100
for people, but at the same 
time, I'm not going to like lose

953
00:55:35,100 --> 00:55:39,000
sleep over it or get all upset 
or be like oh my gosh, all this 

954
00:55:39,000 --> 00:55:42,700
is going on and I should embody 
this trauma and feel this pain 

955
00:55:42,700 --> 00:55:45,600
for this person. 
Like I hate that people are 

956
00:55:45,600 --> 00:55:49,700
built some like crazy hands of 
cards but like, if anything 

957
00:55:49,700 --> 00:55:53,700
spirit is told me about the 
spiritual journey is our soul. 

958
00:55:53,700 --> 00:55:57,900
Blueprint is fucked up. 
As that sounds has everything in

959
00:55:57,900 --> 00:55:58,500
it? 
Good. 

960
00:55:58,600 --> 00:56:01,300
I'm bad and you don't get to 
just only get the good, you 

961
00:56:01,300 --> 00:56:04,700
don't just don't only get the 
bad but you can manifest more 

962
00:56:04,700 --> 00:56:08,900
good or more bad and you can 
work with the energies or work 

963
00:56:08,900 --> 00:56:12,100
against the energies. 
You can be on opposite teams or 

964
00:56:12,100 --> 00:56:16,900
you can be on the same team, but
all of that takes 

965
00:56:16,900 --> 00:56:20,300
self-accountability all of that 
takes a good look in the mirror 

966
00:56:20,300 --> 00:56:22,900
to be like, you know what, I 
don't like the way I look. 

967
00:56:22,900 --> 00:56:24,700
I don't like the way I show up 
in the world. 

968
00:56:24,700 --> 00:56:28,200
I don't like what I do for work.
I don't like what I spend my 

969
00:56:28,500 --> 00:56:31,000
Energy on, you know what, I 
mean, whatever it is. 

970
00:56:31,000 --> 00:56:33,700
And just being honest with 
yourself because a lot of the 

971
00:56:33,700 --> 00:56:39,500
times we're trying to you know, 
please other people through all 

972
00:56:39,500 --> 00:56:42,700
this if we don't even know what 
the fuck we want, we don't even 

973
00:56:42,700 --> 00:56:45,900
know who we really are. 
And I think that being 

974
00:56:45,900 --> 00:56:49,900
vulnerable with each other 
through the podcast and like 

975
00:56:49,900 --> 00:56:53,400
sharing this experience with an 
audience has really helped. 

976
00:56:53,500 --> 00:56:59,700
I know a lot of people first 
Hand grow and Elevate through 

977
00:56:59,700 --> 00:57:03,000
things that they otherwise maybe
would have had to experience 

978
00:57:03,000 --> 00:57:05,900
themself. 
So congratulations for those 

979
00:57:05,900 --> 00:57:09,100
that are taking notes and 
integrating, because could take 

980
00:57:09,100 --> 00:57:12,000
all the classes read, all the 
books and do all the things, but

981
00:57:12,000 --> 00:57:16,500
if you're not integrating and 
embodying that energy, you're 

982
00:57:16,500 --> 00:57:19,500
always going to be pointing 
fingers or looking around or 

983
00:57:19,500 --> 00:57:21,100
worried about what other people 
are doing. 

984
00:57:21,400 --> 00:57:26,100
And that's why I have no problem
blocking and deleting people 

985
00:57:26,100 --> 00:57:30,200
now, Where I used to feel some 
type of way feel like I was 

986
00:57:30,200 --> 00:57:32,700
losing something. 
I know for a fact I'm not losing

987
00:57:32,700 --> 00:57:36,400
anything because if it's being 
removed it's not meant for me. 

988
00:57:36,600 --> 00:57:39,600
And that's what I think this 
journey has taught me is like 

989
00:57:39,600 --> 00:57:42,200
using your voice and putting 
yourself out. 

990
00:57:42,200 --> 00:57:45,000
There is a lot more than just 
pictures and a highlight reel. 

991
00:57:45,100 --> 00:57:46,900
This is the UPS, the Downs, the 
good, the bad. 

992
00:57:46,900 --> 00:57:50,200
This is fucking Minstrel week 
and whatever. 

993
00:57:50,200 --> 00:57:55,600
This is, you know, family drama 
neighborhood, drama. 

994
00:57:55,600 --> 00:57:58,200
Fucking what? 
Never like this is everything 

995
00:57:58,200 --> 00:58:00,200
all the time. 
And I think that people don't 

996
00:58:00,200 --> 00:58:06,500
realize what we put out there, 
may not resonate all the time 

997
00:58:06,500 --> 00:58:10,600
for everyone and it's not really
supposed to, it's more of a full

998
00:58:10,600 --> 00:58:15,100
spectrum of a journey and like 
you can support certain things 

999
00:58:15,100 --> 00:58:17,300
people do and not everything 
they do. 

1000
00:58:17,300 --> 00:58:20,300
But at a quarter level, I've got
a rock with you on just, like, 

1001
00:58:20,600 --> 00:58:23,900
what energy you're putting out 
and like, what's in your aura 

1002
00:58:23,900 --> 00:58:26,600
and stuff. 
And if it's like drama and go So

1003
00:58:26,600 --> 00:58:30,300
I've been just fear and lack, I 
don't want that shit around me 

1004
00:58:30,300 --> 00:58:33,900
because like, I don't want to be
around people who are afraid to 

1005
00:58:34,000 --> 00:58:37,300
tip their server $20 because 
they're in luck or whatever. 

1006
00:58:37,300 --> 00:58:39,700
Like I don't want to be around 
Saint coochie energy. 

1007
00:58:39,700 --> 00:58:44,700
So like don't invite yourself to
my table and then not even have 

1008
00:58:44,700 --> 00:58:48,100
what it takes to with plans, 
like withhold, your end of the 

1009
00:58:48,100 --> 00:58:52,600
bargain, and that's just being 
loyal and, you know, honest and 

1010
00:58:52,600 --> 00:58:55,300
not spreading bullshit. 
So I don't know. 

1011
00:58:55,300 --> 00:58:58,000
I think everything. 
And I'm learning right now about

1012
00:58:58,000 --> 00:59:03,300
this journey is like people only
want is best for you as they 

1013
00:59:03,300 --> 00:59:06,200
want for themselves. 
So the reason that I want such 

1014
00:59:06,200 --> 00:59:09,300
good things for all these people
is because deep down I know that

1015
00:59:09,300 --> 00:59:11,800
I can achieve and it's 
attainable and it's going to 

1016
00:59:11,800 --> 00:59:13,200
happen. 
It'll just happen when it's 

1017
00:59:13,200 --> 00:59:17,700
supposed to happen but at the 
same time a lot of people they 

1018
00:59:17,700 --> 00:59:20,300
can't see that for themselves. 
They can't see that for 

1019
00:59:20,300 --> 00:59:22,300
themselves. 
So they hate that. 

1020
00:59:22,300 --> 00:59:24,400
Someone else is living in that 
freedom. 

1021
00:59:24,500 --> 00:59:27,300
So if your existence if you're 
listening Then your existence 

1022
00:59:27,300 --> 00:59:30,000
out there is triggering for 
people or you feel left out, or 

1023
00:59:30,000 --> 00:59:33,700
you feel like a black sheep or 
you feel like, you know, exiled 

1024
00:59:33,700 --> 00:59:36,800
from your family or whatever. 
It's probably because your 

1025
00:59:36,800 --> 00:59:39,300
existence is triggering for 
those people who want to stay 

1026
00:59:39,300 --> 00:59:43,400
complacent and stay stagnant and
project, those insecurities and 

1027
00:59:43,500 --> 00:59:46,500
limiting beliefs onto you and 
make you a problem. 

1028
00:59:46,500 --> 00:59:49,200
And when you're consenting in 
agreeing to that or you're 

1029
00:59:49,200 --> 00:59:52,700
showing up to the event to argue
with them, or to have that 

1030
00:59:52,700 --> 00:59:56,300
drama, you keep that Bond and 
that contract alive. 

1031
00:59:56,600 --> 00:59:59,600
So for anyone listening, like, 
do a cord, cutting hire a witch 

1032
00:59:59,600 --> 01:00:02,800
to do some releasing spells for 
you, like protection energy, 

1033
01:00:02,800 --> 01:00:06,300
like, cut off your mom or your 
sister, whoever the fuck it is 

1034
01:00:06,300 --> 01:00:09,300
like. 
Don't be afraid to remove the 

1035
01:00:09,900 --> 01:00:14,200
dead from your garden so that 
you can bloom and make space for

1036
01:00:14,200 --> 01:00:16,300
what is thriving, and what is 
growing. 

1037
01:00:17,800 --> 01:00:20,600
That's really beautiful and 
something that you had 

1038
01:00:22,200 --> 01:00:26,400
mentioned, shit. 
You were talking about You were 

1039
01:00:26,400 --> 01:00:28,800
talking about other people's 
healing Journey. 

1040
01:00:31,200 --> 01:00:33,700
I'll come back to it. 
I totally had it on my mind that

1041
01:00:33,700 --> 01:00:37,800
I wanted to mention, because I 
said other people's healing 

1042
01:00:37,800 --> 01:00:42,900
journey is uniquely their own, 
but a lot of people that Journey

1043
01:00:42,900 --> 01:00:48,500
that they're on it differs and 
so they project little things on

1044
01:00:48,500 --> 01:00:53,100
two different, other people. 
Yeah. 

1045
01:00:53,600 --> 01:01:00,300
Oh, huge like, lesson on healing
Journeys is learning how to 

1046
01:01:00,300 --> 01:01:04,800
commiserate with other people or
recognize when other people are 

1047
01:01:04,800 --> 01:01:07,400
hurting and they're going 
through a situation and having 

1048
01:01:07,400 --> 01:01:09,600
compassion. 
That's the word being able to 

1049
01:01:09,600 --> 01:01:13,600
have compassion for somebody and
understanding without you having

1050
01:01:13,600 --> 01:01:18,500
to take their emotions on and 
try to solve a situation for 

1051
01:01:18,500 --> 01:01:20,300
them. 
Because one that's like a 

1052
01:01:20,300 --> 01:01:23,400
superiority Pretty complex where
you are. 

1053
01:01:23,400 --> 01:01:26,700
Like you have to be captain 
save-a-ho and like, save the day

1054
01:01:26,900 --> 01:01:30,200
and two. 
It's never your situation and 

1055
01:01:30,200 --> 01:01:32,100
all that you do is stress 
yourself out. 

1056
01:01:32,100 --> 01:01:36,000
Because, you know, I'm going to 
take on, you know, all of the 

1057
01:01:36,000 --> 01:01:37,600
things that happen in Pages 
life. 

1058
01:01:37,600 --> 01:01:41,900
I'm going to absorb anything 
whatever on to myself because it

1059
01:01:41,900 --> 01:01:44,400
just sucks so bad that she's 
going through something. 

1060
01:01:44,500 --> 01:01:47,400
There's nothing that I 
physically can do to change her 

1061
01:01:47,400 --> 01:01:50,500
situations. 
It's all about her making 

1062
01:01:50,500 --> 01:01:51,600
decisions. 
Herself. 

1063
01:01:51,600 --> 01:01:56,700
So if I'm over here like on that
same energy frequency, then you 

1064
01:01:56,700 --> 01:01:59,300
don't have a friend who's 
helping you see things from 

1065
01:01:59,308 --> 01:02:02,300
Another point of view because 
I'm just in It, sharing the same

1066
01:02:02,300 --> 01:02:05,700
emotion that you do through that
friendship in that Bond. 

1067
01:02:05,700 --> 01:02:09,400
And so when you have that 
healing Journey, where you're 

1068
01:02:09,400 --> 01:02:12,700
able to see that, your friend 
is, you know, going through 

1069
01:02:12,700 --> 01:02:17,100
something or, or whatever, or 
feeling some kind of emotion, 

1070
01:02:17,100 --> 01:02:20,400
you don't have to, then take 
that onto yourself because 

1071
01:02:20,400 --> 01:02:23,400
you're not able. 
Able to help them heal and grow 

1072
01:02:23,400 --> 01:02:25,600
through that and that's what a 
friend should be doing. 

1073
01:02:26,800 --> 01:02:29,400
Yeah, it's like a support, but 
it's not like, okay. 

1074
01:02:29,400 --> 01:02:33,000
Let me come down to your level 
and fill all this and absorb it 

1075
01:02:33,000 --> 01:02:35,000
and like fuck that person like 
yeah. 

1076
01:02:35,000 --> 01:02:38,900
Like you know, and fill all this
anger because like what a real 

1077
01:02:38,900 --> 01:02:42,300
friend should help you do is 
lead you to the conclusion that 

1078
01:02:42,500 --> 01:02:47,200
a you're giving your power away,
be everything that's happening 

1079
01:02:47,200 --> 01:02:50,500
right now is out of your control
if you don't, I mean, if it's 

1080
01:02:50,500 --> 01:02:53,200
someone else, Involved. 
If it's another situation of its

1081
01:02:53,200 --> 01:02:56,200
work, if it's the government, it
does not fucking matter. 

1082
01:02:56,200 --> 01:03:00,000
It's probably out of your 
control but like and you harping

1083
01:03:00,000 --> 01:03:05,100
on it and sending negativity 
towards it manifest - it 

1084
01:03:05,100 --> 01:03:08,700
manifest something to be 
negative about and I think that 

1085
01:03:08,700 --> 01:03:13,000
real friendship is about 
listening to someone and not 

1086
01:03:13,000 --> 01:03:16,300
like offering like you said just
advice and trying to work 

1087
01:03:16,300 --> 01:03:19,800
through it for them. 
But just listening and like 

1088
01:03:19,800 --> 01:03:24,100
knowing that like releasing it 
is important but not continuing 

1089
01:03:24,100 --> 01:03:28,600
to harp on it and breed and - in
like set in the negativity 

1090
01:03:28,600 --> 01:03:32,700
Cesspool of drama and keep it 
alive. 

1091
01:03:32,700 --> 01:03:35,200
You know, I think that's what 
people don't realize is we keep 

1092
01:03:35,200 --> 01:03:38,200
things alive. 
The universe is trying to remove

1093
01:03:38,200 --> 01:03:41,700
it because it's dead and the 
cord needs to be cut and you 

1094
01:03:41,707 --> 01:03:46,200
know the roots need to be pulled
but we're holding on to it for 

1095
01:03:46,400 --> 01:03:48,700
dear life. 
When it Like gone. 

1096
01:03:48,700 --> 01:03:52,300
It's done. 
And I think that's what's really

1097
01:03:52,400 --> 01:03:56,800
interesting about the changes 
that we're making right now is 

1098
01:03:56,800 --> 01:04:00,900
that we have to decide like. 
Okay, that's enough like enough 

1099
01:04:00,900 --> 01:04:06,000
is enough, I'm not tolerating. 
None of that this friend always 

1100
01:04:06,600 --> 01:04:09,100
lowers minor G. 
This person always brings drama 

1101
01:04:09,100 --> 01:04:11,400
in my life. 
This person is always negative. 

1102
01:04:11,500 --> 01:04:15,100
This person is always this fuck 
those people like I'm sorry, but

1103
01:04:15,100 --> 01:04:17,400
at the same time you cannot save
everybody. 

1104
01:04:17,600 --> 01:04:20,300
I cannot help everybody. 
When I say, fuck those people, 

1105
01:04:20,400 --> 01:04:23,000
you've clearly tried to help 
those people the sale, I guess, 

1106
01:04:23,000 --> 01:04:25,400
just like Oberstar all fuck. 
Those people know you've been 

1107
01:04:25,400 --> 01:04:26,500
probably trying to help those 
people. 

1108
01:04:26,500 --> 01:04:31,400
Your whole life at some point 
and where is the line, you know 

1109
01:04:31,400 --> 01:04:32,800
what I mean? 
Like where's the lawn? 

1110
01:04:32,800 --> 01:04:34,700
And that's where I was. 
So open to building new 

1111
01:04:34,700 --> 01:04:37,900
connections that I was giving 
people the benefit of the doubt 

1112
01:04:37,900 --> 01:04:41,100
that they probably are not a 
great friend to the people that 

1113
01:04:41,100 --> 01:04:43,600
know them in real life. 
That like if they were at a 

1114
01:04:43,600 --> 01:04:46,400
table in real life, people are 
not saying nice things about 

1115
01:04:46,400 --> 01:04:48,600
them. 
But instead of Of me harping on 

1116
01:04:48,600 --> 01:04:51,000
their Shadow. 
I try to give people the benefit

1117
01:04:51,000 --> 01:04:53,300
of the doubt, but the thing is, 
is like I can give you the 

1118
01:04:53,308 --> 01:04:55,900
benefit of the doubt, but if 
your potential isn't in the room

1119
01:04:55,900 --> 01:04:59,200
with us right now, then I no 
longer can see it because you 

1120
01:04:59,200 --> 01:05:02,000
got to go chase your own 
potential and like embody it. 

1121
01:05:02,000 --> 01:05:04,600
I can't leave you to it. 
People like want to hang out 

1122
01:05:04,600 --> 01:05:07,400
with successful people sometime 
because they think that's going 

1123
01:05:07,400 --> 01:05:10,300
to rub off on them. 
But if you're a jealous hater or

1124
01:05:10,300 --> 01:05:13,700
you just breed negativity, 
you're only going to be more 

1125
01:05:13,700 --> 01:05:16,600
negative by being around people 
who are doing things you want to

1126
01:05:16,600 --> 01:05:18,800
do. 
But you're not Like them and I 

1127
01:05:18,808 --> 01:05:22,400
don't like that energy and I 
think that the cool thing about 

1128
01:05:22,400 --> 01:05:25,700
the podcast with Gemini is like 
Weaver really evolved our 

1129
01:05:25,700 --> 01:05:30,000
friendship on a deeper scale of 
the more vulnerable things that 

1130
01:05:30,000 --> 01:05:31,900
we talk about because let's face
it. 

1131
01:05:31,900 --> 01:05:34,600
Like you all don't just sit down
with your friends and just talk 

1132
01:05:35,000 --> 01:05:38,600
politics and super like really 
intimate things. 

1133
01:05:38,700 --> 01:05:42,100
When I say politics, I meant 
like internal politics like the 

1134
01:05:42,100 --> 01:05:45,000
internal ins and outs of 
everything you believe. 

1135
01:05:45,000 --> 01:05:47,500
Like you don't sit down and talk
real life politics. 

1136
01:05:47,700 --> 01:05:49,500
With everyone. 
You meet you don't walk up to 

1137
01:05:49,500 --> 01:05:53,200
the guy the fucking Hardy's or 
McDonald's and start talking 

1138
01:05:53,200 --> 01:05:56,800
politics, probably not. 
So we don't talk about our 

1139
01:05:56,800 --> 01:05:59,800
feelings enough, we don't talk 
about intimate things in 

1140
01:05:59,800 --> 01:06:03,400
vulnerable situations enough so 
I think that you know, this 

1141
01:06:03,400 --> 01:06:06,400
week's lesson is like be 
vulnerable and say what the fuck

1142
01:06:06,400 --> 01:06:10,800
you mean, stop letting people 
influence you with their unkept 

1143
01:06:10,800 --> 01:06:14,600
emotions and there is such a 
thing as spiritual hygiene and 

1144
01:06:14,600 --> 01:06:17,500
the spiritual flu, like you 
could be around people with 

1145
01:06:17,700 --> 01:06:21,100
Thank energy and absorb that. 
And it make you sick and 

1146
01:06:21,100 --> 01:06:27,200
actually have physical symptoms 
of sickness or headaches, or 

1147
01:06:27,200 --> 01:06:29,500
whatever. 
So, you know, be mindful of who 

1148
01:06:29,500 --> 01:06:33,200
you're letting in your energy 
because this, Saturn in Pisces 

1149
01:06:33,200 --> 01:06:34,700
transit. 
For the next couple of years is 

1150
01:06:34,700 --> 01:06:39,100
just going to have everyone 
extremely heightened to their 

1151
01:06:39,100 --> 01:06:43,400
own, internal Shadow and 
internal Rhythm and how to 

1152
01:06:43,400 --> 01:06:47,000
regulate that energy because not
everything is puppies and 

1153
01:06:47,000 --> 01:06:49,100
rainbows. 
Those so if you're shocked that 

1154
01:06:49,100 --> 01:06:52,100
everyone has a full spectrum of 
emotion, then like you should 

1155
01:06:52,100 --> 01:06:56,600
check out your own sometime. 
You should check out your own 

1156
01:06:56,600 --> 01:07:00,500
sometime and speaking about 
things that you're going to be 

1157
01:07:00,500 --> 01:07:04,900
putting your energy into and 
committing to an elevating 

1158
01:07:04,900 --> 01:07:08,600
yourself Rampage. 
And I both have classes in 

1159
01:07:08,600 --> 01:07:13,100
Rolling right now. 
So talk about your class first, 

1160
01:07:14,300 --> 01:07:21,100
my class starts on Monday, June 
5th, and it is going to be 12 

1161
01:07:21,100 --> 01:07:26,000
weeks on Monday at 8 p.m. 
Eastern with a Live recording 

1162
01:07:26,000 --> 01:07:30,900
placed in a Google drive along 
with the slideshow from every 

1163
01:07:30,900 --> 01:07:35,100
class, not everything in the 
class will be on every slide 

1164
01:07:35,100 --> 01:07:37,800
show. 
But I have worked really hard to

1165
01:07:37,800 --> 01:07:40,200
make this slide shows. 
So aesthetically pleasing. 

1166
01:07:40,200 --> 01:07:42,700
It's one of the most beautiful 
Creations I've ever made. 

1167
01:07:42,800 --> 01:07:46,800
There is homework every week. 
It is going to get you committed

1168
01:07:46,800 --> 01:07:48,800
and in tune with your 
spirituality. 

1169
01:07:49,100 --> 01:07:52,800
Over the course of two weeks. 
We will have to Q&A questions on

1170
01:07:52,800 --> 01:07:56,500
dates that are to be announced. 
That will also be included. 

1171
01:07:56,500 --> 01:08:01,200
So there's 14 sessions, total 
and yeah, it's going to get 

1172
01:08:01,200 --> 01:08:03,300
Poppin. 
We're going in from the 

1173
01:08:03,300 --> 01:08:08,500
beginning of spiritual ethics, 
energy, work protecting your 

1174
01:08:08,500 --> 01:08:11,800
energy, clearing, your energy, 
things like that. 

1175
01:08:12,000 --> 01:08:14,800
And then we're going to move 
into meditation like how to 

1176
01:08:14,800 --> 01:08:17,399
meditate, how you can clear your
mind, how you can open your 

1177
01:08:17,399 --> 01:08:21,899
heart moving into like 
confidence and all of those good

1178
01:08:21,899 --> 01:08:24,600
things like just really doing 
the full scope. 

1179
01:08:24,800 --> 01:08:30,000
Then we're going to dive into 
every tarot card and really 

1180
01:08:30,100 --> 01:08:35,100
bring it all the way down to the
basics of tarot with sources 

1181
01:08:35,100 --> 01:08:38,100
that you can reference that I'm 
gathering information from so 

1182
01:08:38,100 --> 01:08:41,300
like you can go check out these 
websites and look further into 

1183
01:08:41,300 --> 01:08:46,000
things on a deeper level, but my
perspective on Taro is a lot 

1184
01:08:46,000 --> 01:08:50,000
different than other people's. 
I don't like reading upside down

1185
01:08:50,000 --> 01:08:53,399
cards because I believe you can 
get the shadow energy regardless

1186
01:08:53,399 --> 01:08:54,800
if it's upside down or up, 
Right. 

1187
01:08:55,300 --> 01:08:57,800
I don't think it needs to be 
upside down for it to be the 

1188
01:08:57,800 --> 01:09:01,200
shadow energy of something. 
All the cards are represented by

1189
01:09:01,200 --> 01:09:04,899
zodiac signs planets. 
They all fall into different 

1190
01:09:04,899 --> 01:09:08,500
element categories. 
You know, just really going into

1191
01:09:08,500 --> 01:09:11,399
a lot of the finer details that 
like, okay, you know what the 

1192
01:09:11,399 --> 01:09:14,500
card means, but you didn't know 
that Virgo ruled that card or 

1193
01:09:14,500 --> 01:09:17,300
you didn't know that, you know, 
Mercury rolls this card or 

1194
01:09:17,300 --> 01:09:19,500
whatever. 
And so I just want to like get 

1195
01:09:19,500 --> 01:09:21,100
into that. 
Then we're going to move into 

1196
01:09:21,100 --> 01:09:26,500
Oracle in-depth. 
I'm also going to To, you know, 

1197
01:09:26,500 --> 01:09:31,000
give people an opportunity to 
work in a community stance with 

1198
01:09:31,000 --> 01:09:32,800
giving readings during that 
period. 

1199
01:09:32,800 --> 01:09:36,399
So we'll have some breakout 
sessions during the Live. 

1200
01:09:36,399 --> 01:09:40,200
Well, people will be in partners
and we'll go into little like 

1201
01:09:40,200 --> 01:09:42,700
little cubby sections on the 
zoom and then we'll come back 

1202
01:09:42,700 --> 01:09:45,300
into the big group. 
So I've got just like a lot 

1203
01:09:45,300 --> 01:09:47,800
planned. 
I'm really anxious and excited 

1204
01:09:47,800 --> 01:09:51,600
to launch in another really cool
thing that I'm doing. 

1205
01:09:51,600 --> 01:09:55,500
That hasn't really been promoted
is once you join Join the first 

1206
01:09:55,500 --> 01:09:57,900
round. 
It's 12 weeks, I'm going to take

1207
01:09:57,900 --> 01:10:01,600
the month of September off and 
then we're going to fire up in 

1208
01:10:01,600 --> 01:10:05,000
October November and December 
finishing up the week before 

1209
01:10:05,000 --> 01:10:11,400
Christmas and the holidays and 
we will basically in-depth dive 

1210
01:10:11,400 --> 01:10:14,100
even deeper. 
But in the sense that you 

1211
01:10:14,100 --> 01:10:16,600
already know the information, so
you're going to feel more 

1212
01:10:16,600 --> 01:10:20,200
confident more comfortable. 
And I'm gonna let anyone who is 

1213
01:10:20,200 --> 01:10:24,600
in round one joining the second 
round for $22, which is around 

1214
01:10:24,700 --> 01:10:28,300
Round like a dollar a week so 
you know it's going to be fire 

1215
01:10:28,300 --> 01:10:33,800
and I'm really excited to really
open up the teaching Arena on 

1216
01:10:33,800 --> 01:10:37,900
zoom and then also having the 
recordings for people who can't 

1217
01:10:37,900 --> 01:10:40,300
attend live, so they don't have 
to stress about it. 

1218
01:10:41,500 --> 01:10:44,100
That's been something that I 
found really, really helpful 

1219
01:10:44,100 --> 01:10:47,800
with my classes was recording it
if they couldn't make it live 

1220
01:10:47,800 --> 01:10:53,900
and then I don't know if you if 
you have like a board already 

1221
01:10:53,900 --> 01:10:57,900
like a pin board but there's an 
app called Trello, that's free. 

1222
01:10:58,100 --> 01:11:03,300
And you can literally make like 
different like section notecards

1223
01:11:03,300 --> 01:11:06,200
and shit like that and put 
pictures with things and 

1224
01:11:06,200 --> 01:11:09,700
descriptions and then links to 
different sources and stuff and 

1225
01:11:09,800 --> 01:11:13,400
that's what It's just what I've 
used for classes because it was 

1226
01:11:13,400 --> 01:11:17,700
like a it's just an easier thing
for me to be able to put it all 

1227
01:11:17,700 --> 01:11:20,500
like into one app and be like 
here's this for the week, you 

1228
01:11:20,500 --> 01:11:22,200
know? 
Yeah. 

1229
01:11:22,200 --> 01:11:27,300
I'm really gonna make this more 
of like a self-guided throughout

1230
01:11:27,300 --> 01:11:31,100
the week, like the homework and 
like the PowerPoint, or it's not

1231
01:11:31,108 --> 01:11:34,600
PowerPoint, but like the 
presentation is going to be 

1232
01:11:34,600 --> 01:11:37,400
downloadable so that you have 
all of that. 

1233
01:11:37,400 --> 01:11:40,500
And so like I really want the 
user to feel more. 

1234
01:11:40,600 --> 01:11:44,100
Hands-On about their perception 
because I finally I can give you

1235
01:11:44,100 --> 01:11:46,800
all the notes, but if you're not
taking some notes during the 

1236
01:11:46,800 --> 01:11:52,200
class or you don't pay attention
yourself to the details, I can 

1237
01:11:52,200 --> 01:11:55,500
talk to them blue in the face. 
So like I'm kind of leaving it 

1238
01:11:55,500 --> 01:11:57,600
like more of a like a college 
course. 

1239
01:11:57,800 --> 01:12:00,500
Like I'm not going to like 
message everyone every week like

1240
01:12:00,500 --> 01:12:01,900
oh my God, are you going to be 
there? 

1241
01:12:01,900 --> 01:12:04,200
You know, are here's a link like
there's going to be a Google 

1242
01:12:04,200 --> 01:12:07,500
doc, it's going to be Week. 1 
week 2, like all the things that

1243
01:12:07,500 --> 01:12:10,400
you need will be in there. 
It's up to you to say. 

1244
01:12:10,600 --> 01:12:13,700
Like on top of things we 
current, you know, I'm going to 

1245
01:12:13,700 --> 01:12:18,700
basically like I said, we're 
going to pick 2qa dates in the 

1246
01:12:18,700 --> 01:12:20,500
second class. 
Not the first class will pick 

1247
01:12:20,500 --> 01:12:22,500
them in the second class and 
that way. 

1248
01:12:22,500 --> 01:12:26,500
Like, there's two Q&A sessions 
that are optional for people 

1249
01:12:26,500 --> 01:12:29,300
that are having questions about 
the material before we like move

1250
01:12:29,300 --> 01:12:32,100
deeper, you know what I mean? 
So I think that there will just 

1251
01:12:32,100 --> 01:12:34,900
be like a good scope in the way 
that I like to teach things I'm 

1252
01:12:34,900 --> 01:12:41,900
very Visual and I'm a very like 
on point kind of thing. 

1253
01:12:41,900 --> 01:12:44,300
Like I don't do well with 
knowing everything I'm going to 

1254
01:12:44,300 --> 01:12:48,400
say I do better with just 
channeling but I have like 20 15

1255
01:12:48,400 --> 01:12:50,800
to 20 slides for every week. 
You know, that you're going to 

1256
01:12:50,800 --> 01:12:53,500
keep everyone in like some type 
of thing. 

1257
01:12:53,500 --> 01:12:57,500
And then I have a homework 
homework sheet that you print 

1258
01:12:57,500 --> 01:13:00,500
out and you can use every week 
and it's going to go hard. 

1259
01:13:00,500 --> 01:13:03,900
So it's pretty much coming 
together like very rapidly. 

1260
01:13:03,900 --> 01:13:06,500
Like right now I'm just in the 
in the depths of the all the 

1261
01:13:06,500 --> 01:13:11,500
tarot cards and just like 
getting It, you know, I want to 

1262
01:13:11,500 --> 01:13:14,400
make sure that I have 
perspective from a lot of 

1263
01:13:14,407 --> 01:13:17,400
different sources for those as 
well. 

1264
01:13:17,400 --> 01:13:22,000
Because there are so many 
meanings about like, just the 

1265
01:13:22,000 --> 01:13:26,300
ins and outs of like the fucking
robes that they're wearing what 

1266
01:13:26,300 --> 01:13:28,700
colors they are. 
And like, there's just some deep

1267
01:13:28,700 --> 01:13:33,200
things that like, people don't 
teach necessarily, because I 

1268
01:13:33,200 --> 01:13:35,800
guess it's more of a perspective
to. 

1269
01:13:35,800 --> 01:13:38,900
So, you know, I don't know, I 
think people can teach whatever 

1270
01:13:38,900 --> 01:13:44,200
they to teach but I read tarot 
from like a soul level, not from

1271
01:13:44,200 --> 01:13:47,300
like a book level, so I'm going 
to teach it that way. 

1272
01:13:47,300 --> 01:13:49,700
So like by the time you finish 
my course, you're going to read 

1273
01:13:49,700 --> 01:13:54,800
for a soul level, not for your 
human material like oh I'm right

1274
01:13:54,800 --> 01:13:57,100
or oh I got that right. 
You know, a lot of people are 

1275
01:13:57,100 --> 01:14:01,900
like want all these 
confirmations and I think that 

1276
01:14:02,100 --> 01:14:05,600
it's really for the reader to 
have the confirmation, you know,

1277
01:14:05,600 --> 01:14:10,400
like like that, I'm not the 
reader but that The sitter to 

1278
01:14:10,400 --> 01:14:14,100
have that confirmation from 
their own, like Spirit guides 

1279
01:14:14,100 --> 01:14:16,900
like a reader can give you that 
information, but it's really up 

1280
01:14:16,900 --> 01:14:20,500
to you to confirm it because 
I'll be honest, like, Spirit has

1281
01:14:20,500 --> 01:14:27,600
totally had people. 
Give me readings that Were not 

1282
01:14:27,900 --> 01:14:32,100
in tune with my energy and the 
whole test of the reading was 

1283
01:14:32,100 --> 01:14:36,300
nothing against the reader but 
it was more about me doing like 

1284
01:14:36,300 --> 01:14:39,900
an intuition check on like okay 
no, that does not resonate like 

1285
01:14:39,900 --> 01:14:43,100
what are they talking about 
rather than just being like Oh 

1286
01:14:43,100 --> 01:14:45,500
my God they're a reader. 
So they told me this and it's 

1287
01:14:45,500 --> 01:14:47,600
right. 
So in my class I'm going to 

1288
01:14:47,608 --> 01:14:52,800
really go into like how to 
really trust your messages. 

1289
01:14:53,300 --> 01:14:55,600
So that you're using your 
messages. 

1290
01:14:55,700 --> 01:15:00,200
Has first reader messages, 
secondary. 

1291
01:15:01,600 --> 01:15:04,200
Does that make sense? 
Yeah, know that totally makes 

1292
01:15:04,200 --> 01:15:08,300
sense and I think that there is 
an importance on if you're going

1293
01:15:08,300 --> 01:15:12,700
to be doing readings from other 
people and I think this is what 

1294
01:15:12,700 --> 01:15:16,500
you're saying, knowing and 
understanding yourself so that 

1295
01:15:16,500 --> 01:15:19,900
you can see what messages 
actually resonate for you and 

1296
01:15:19,900 --> 01:15:22,300
what things you're like, that's 
just not aligned and I'm not 

1297
01:15:22,300 --> 01:15:25,000
about to implement any of that 
into my life because that is 

1298
01:15:25,000 --> 01:15:28,600
just not sitting. 
Yeah, and I think that's like 

1299
01:15:28,600 --> 01:15:31,300
the Journey of Taro is like 
learning. 

1300
01:15:31,600 --> 01:15:35,900
To trust yourself to trust the 
process to trustee unknown to be

1301
01:15:35,900 --> 01:15:39,000
on the Fool's journey and like 
know nothing about what you're 

1302
01:15:39,000 --> 01:15:42,300
about to do. 
But yeah that's what I'm saying.

1303
01:15:42,300 --> 01:15:45,500
Like just basically like my 
class is more centered around 

1304
01:15:45,500 --> 01:15:50,900
like really trusting yourself. 
So that your your main Guru, I 

1305
01:15:50,900 --> 01:15:56,500
guess and then secondary how to 
perform and be in good standing 

1306
01:15:56,500 --> 01:15:58,900
to be giving messages to other 
people. 

1307
01:15:59,000 --> 01:16:01,200
There's a lot of people need to 
align their own energy. 

1308
01:16:01,400 --> 01:16:05,000
G before trying to help other 
people in any way, shape, or 

1309
01:16:05,000 --> 01:16:07,200
form. 
And so, in my class, what I want

1310
01:16:07,200 --> 01:16:09,500
to really get in the first, 
like, three weeks is, we're 

1311
01:16:09,500 --> 01:16:12,700
diving, really deep into the 
ethics and just like the moral 

1312
01:16:12,700 --> 01:16:17,100
obligations behind things 
because you have so much 

1313
01:16:17,100 --> 01:16:19,500
responsibility being in other 
people's energy. 

1314
01:16:19,500 --> 01:16:23,500
That's why it is very sacred. 
And I think that as like human, 

1315
01:16:23,500 --> 01:16:28,800
we tend to have our own programs
and like our own biases and our 

1316
01:16:28,800 --> 01:16:31,900
own things and so like how to 
put all that aside I had to 

1317
01:16:31,900 --> 01:16:35,700
really convey what spirituality 
tell you because sometimes like 

1318
01:16:36,000 --> 01:16:41,800
we won't say things as a reader 
that like don't make sense to us

1319
01:16:41,800 --> 01:16:43,600
or something. 
Like, I've seen that before, 

1320
01:16:43,600 --> 01:16:47,300
like readers that like they are 
trying to read a textbook 

1321
01:16:47,300 --> 01:16:51,200
definition, or look at these 
cards from a textbook Arena and 

1322
01:16:51,200 --> 01:16:53,500
like, they're not giving the 
message that Spirits coming to 

1323
01:16:53,500 --> 01:16:54,600
them. 
They're just like, well, the two

1324
01:16:54,600 --> 01:16:59,200
of Swords means, you know, like 
they're just not like giving 

1325
01:16:59,200 --> 01:17:03,100
that Soul reading, so I think 
Well, my class about just like 

1326
01:17:03,100 --> 01:17:06,400
in Basics learning what the 
basic meetings and in-depth 

1327
01:17:06,400 --> 01:17:09,400
meetings are of the cards but 
really learning more about your 

1328
01:17:09,400 --> 01:17:13,100
own intuition and like how to 
decipher, you know, that fear 

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from that illusion energy. 
Yeah, I'm looking forward to the

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class because, you know, I've 
taken tarot classes before but 

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everybody reads differently and 
from the standpoint that I Took 

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classes from before, was very 
much by people who had a focus 

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01:17:33,900 --> 01:17:38,600
on drawing to traumatic events 
that people have been through 

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01:17:38,800 --> 01:17:42,800
and their there is. 
And that goes with that, like 

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wanting a reaction type of 
thing. 

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And Anna, mediumship course that
I took, the woman would always 

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say, don't read from your ego. 
You should be channeling, which 

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is like your ego shouldn't be 
involved in the reading at all. 

1339
01:17:56,800 --> 01:18:00,600
Because when your Liang, you 
should just be conveying, 

1340
01:18:00,600 --> 01:18:04,200
whatever messages are coming 
through, without you filtering 

1341
01:18:04,200 --> 01:18:07,800
that out for the person that 
you're giving the reading too. 

1342
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And sometimes that's really hard
to do especially like if you're 

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somebody who listens and you're 
not super comfortable with gifts

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01:18:16,000 --> 01:18:19,100
that you have. 
If you don't think that you 

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01:18:19,200 --> 01:18:23,000
would be able to just give a 
message that's intended for 

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01:18:23,000 --> 01:18:26,700
somebody even if it makes zero 
fucking sense to you and feel 

1347
01:18:26,700 --> 01:18:29,500
like maybe you No, you're crazy 
in the moment or whatever. 

1348
01:18:29,500 --> 01:18:33,200
If you can't deliver that 
message, then it's not a time 

1349
01:18:33,300 --> 01:18:36,900
yet that you should read other 
people because you shouldn't 

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01:18:36,900 --> 01:18:40,400
ever be filtering. 
Your message that you're 

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01:18:40,400 --> 01:18:43,000
receiving out for somebody else 
there. 

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01:18:43,000 --> 01:18:46,100
You know that? 
I always talk about it page, but

1353
01:18:46,100 --> 01:18:49,400
that reading that you did for 
me, like the very first reading 

1354
01:18:49,400 --> 01:18:52,200
that I ever got with you. 
You were saying all kinds of 

1355
01:18:52,200 --> 01:18:56,400
stuff that would make absolutely
zero fucking sense to you and 

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01:18:56,400 --> 01:18:59,200
because you don't pause and 
Don't have the reaction of like,

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01:18:59,200 --> 01:19:02,700
see it makes sense, right? 
Like, I knew that it didn't mean

1358
01:19:02,700 --> 01:19:07,100
jack shit to you, but it changed
my whole course of what I was 

1359
01:19:07,100 --> 01:19:10,700
doing. 
And everything came through and 

1360
01:19:10,700 --> 01:19:14,400
made sense for me. 
And so, yeah, that's my biggest 

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thing. 
If you're listening, take 

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01:19:16,600 --> 01:19:21,600
classes harness, like harness 
your gift and understand how to 

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01:19:21,600 --> 01:19:26,600
utilize it for other people, 
without your ego involved before

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01:19:26,600 --> 01:19:31,200
you read others. 
Totally totally agree. 

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01:19:31,600 --> 01:19:36,000
And I love because people think 
that, I know what I say in my 

1366
01:19:36,000 --> 01:19:38,600
readings, I don't like they'll 
be like no, you told me to do 

1367
01:19:38,600 --> 01:19:42,900
that and I don't, I love you all
and I love the confirmation but 

1368
01:19:43,800 --> 01:19:46,400
I need footnotes or what I told 
you because I unless I'm going 

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01:19:46,400 --> 01:19:48,200
to go back and watch it. 
I don't know. 

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And I don't go back and watch 
them, you know what I mean? 

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So I love that when people are 
like that, super resonated with 

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01:19:54,100 --> 01:19:57,000
me and they give me details, I'm
like, yes, I remember now but 

1373
01:19:57,000 --> 01:20:01,800
it's like, I need To refresh or 
sometimes because I forget when 

1374
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does your class start my class? 
So it's starting Tuesday, June 

1375
01:20:08,700 --> 01:20:11,500
6th. 
So I'm going to years Monday. 

1376
01:20:11,500 --> 01:20:16,100
And then Tuesday class starts 
and mine is personalizing your 

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01:20:16,100 --> 01:20:18,500
craft. 
So it's the class that I've ran 

1378
01:20:18,500 --> 01:20:22,200
before but we talked about a 
bunch of different shit. 

1379
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So we talked about its basic 
fundamentals of like witchcraft 

1380
01:20:27,200 --> 01:20:29,100
things. 
And then because it's 

1381
01:20:29,100 --> 01:20:32,200
personalizing your craft, it's 
teaching you how to apply it to 

1382
01:20:32,200 --> 01:20:34,400
wherever you are in your 
spiritual journey. 

1383
01:20:34,700 --> 01:20:39,400
So like, opening up Circles, we 
talked about, what the history 

1384
01:20:39,400 --> 01:20:42,600
of a circle is different 
situations that you would use 

1385
01:20:42,600 --> 01:20:46,600
them for and different examples.
And then how to construct your 

1386
01:20:46,600 --> 01:20:50,500
own, depending on what energy 
work with where you are on your 

1387
01:20:50,500 --> 01:20:53,200
spiritual journey, what you're 
comfortable with what your 

1388
01:20:53,200 --> 01:20:57,600
purpose is, and that also has 
like its own. 

1389
01:20:57,700 --> 01:21:00,900
Side focus on meditation because
a lot of people are like, I 

1390
01:21:00,900 --> 01:21:06,300
don't know how to meditate and 
learning about like circles for 

1391
01:21:06,300 --> 01:21:11,000
yourself can teach you 
meditation and how to visualize 

1392
01:21:11,000 --> 01:21:12,500
things. 
So I love that. 

1393
01:21:13,000 --> 01:21:18,400
We spend a week on protection 
magick and we have an additional

1394
01:21:18,400 --> 01:21:21,800
focus on how to do that. 
Discreetly everything that we 

1395
01:21:21,800 --> 01:21:26,200
talked about in class because I 
get so many people who we call 

1396
01:21:26,200 --> 01:21:29,000
it being in the broom closet. 
But basically, like can't be 

1397
01:21:29,000 --> 01:21:31,500
outward with like any spiritual 
practices. 

1398
01:21:31,700 --> 01:21:34,500
We teach how to do everything in
a discreet way where other 

1399
01:21:34,500 --> 01:21:35,900
people wouldn't know what you're
doing. 

1400
01:21:36,100 --> 01:21:39,300
And so we talked about various 
ways that you can do protection,

1401
01:21:39,300 --> 01:21:44,000
magick and how to find what's 
going to work for you. 

1402
01:21:44,200 --> 01:21:47,900
We spend a week on dream 
interpretations, which is one of

1403
01:21:47,900 --> 01:21:51,600
my favorites. 
We do, we do a bunch of 

1404
01:21:51,608 --> 01:21:54,100
different shit and I have it all
listed on my website. 

1405
01:21:54,100 --> 01:21:58,300
If you guys want to go and take 
a look, I have my Hence open 

1406
01:21:58,300 --> 01:22:02,400
right now I take 10 students and
I have a couple spots left and 

1407
01:22:02,400 --> 01:22:06,200
then this is the last time that 
I'm going to run the class until

1408
01:22:06,200 --> 01:22:11,100
probably the end of the year or 
next year beautiful. 

1409
01:22:11,100 --> 01:22:14,200
So you can take both of our 
classes simultaneously. 

1410
01:22:16,100 --> 01:22:19,700
Yes we have both added new tears
to our patreon. 

1411
01:22:20,000 --> 01:22:23,500
I am phasing out the lower tiers
on my patreon so if you're 

1412
01:22:23,500 --> 01:22:29,200
listening and you're on like the
$8 tier We're phasing it out 

1413
01:22:29,300 --> 01:22:35,700
with new offerings and spellwork
and circles and things that are 

1414
01:22:36,000 --> 01:22:40,100
especially intimate, just for a 
certain group of people. 

1415
01:22:40,500 --> 01:22:46,700
The Power Circle is going to be 
Friday, June 2nd, 7 p.m. eastern

1416
01:22:46,700 --> 01:22:49,600
time. 
This energy is going to be 

1417
01:22:49,600 --> 01:22:53,400
transformative. 
This energy is going to be loud 

1418
01:22:53,400 --> 01:22:57,900
and exciting. 
I'm really excited because so I 

1419
01:22:57,900 --> 01:23:02,700
bought middle finger candles and
this is going to be a fuck the 

1420
01:23:02,700 --> 01:23:07,400
haters upgrade, and I'm really 
excited about it, because they 

1421
01:23:07,400 --> 01:23:11,700
smell So Divine. 
And she literally balanced the 

1422
01:23:11,700 --> 01:23:16,200
little middle finger on, like, a
little Ricci cup candle melt, 

1423
01:23:16,300 --> 01:23:19,300
and it's just perfect. 
Everything's perfect about it. 

1424
01:23:19,500 --> 01:23:25,800
And I am so excited to do a cord
cutting from past attachment 

1425
01:23:25,800 --> 01:23:30,300
from our Exes from old Friends 
from old jobs from old places of

1426
01:23:30,300 --> 01:23:35,500
living were clearing old debt 
old Karma old soul contracts so 

1427
01:23:35,500 --> 01:23:39,000
you don't want to miss it. 
The moon circle is going to be 

1428
01:23:39,000 --> 01:23:42,200
getting some upgrades and the 
energy exchange is changing. 

1429
01:23:42,500 --> 01:23:47,400
So sign up for the patreon to be
included or sign up on my 

1430
01:23:47,400 --> 01:23:53,100
website for The Power Circle and
all that information is in our 

1431
01:23:53,100 --> 01:23:55,900
description box. 
Thank you all for coming to 

1432
01:23:55,900 --> 01:23:59,600
Candy Land. 
We are so excited. 

1433
01:23:59,600 --> 01:24:03,900
We've got four more episodes 
until we take our month, break 

1434
01:24:04,000 --> 01:24:07,800
and come back with season three,
so we can't wait to get to it. 

1435
01:24:09,400 --> 01:24:11,700
Yeah, thanks everybody for 
listening and we'll see you next

1436
01:24:11,700 --> 01:24:14,300
time. 
Bye.