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Uh huh. 
Yeah, he says. 

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She's so sweet, man. 
Don't wanna lick the rapper. 

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Lick me like a lollipop. 
Lollipop, Lollipop Lollipop 

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Lollipop Lollipop Lollipop 
Lollipop. 

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You want to swallow my? 
Spirit. 

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Welcome back to the beautiful 
land of Candy Land. 

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We are so blessed and we have 
some hot, steamy tea for you 

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today. 
No, but you say hot steamy like 

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that. 
It sounds like there's like 

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piles of shit. 
Hot and steamy. 

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Hot and steamy. 
So. 

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We're enough to. 
Say, there's been a lot 

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happening behind these scenes 
for both of us, but Jim and I 

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looks so cute and she's living 
her best life and I'm going to 

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let her take it away. 
I am recording from inside of my

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new living room where there is 
not a husband and that is 

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because I left the husband. 
So I have my own place doing my 

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own thing. 
This. 

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If you're on Patreon, you're 
able to see the background. 

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So the thing about this house is
that it's a house built for a 

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giant and I feel like a Hobbit 
in it. 

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It's got vaulted ceilings and my
cabinets are all where I can't 

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reach them on my tippy toes 
standing on something like I. 

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Anyways, so I was trying to take
up a lot of room with this 

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tapestry that's behind me and I 
I can't get like one of the far 

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corners and it's like falling 
down because I'm too fucking 

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short for this shit. 
You need to buy a ladder. 

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I know, but I haven't. 
I haven't gone there yet. 

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I've gotten groceries, I've 
gotten things to wash, dishes 

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now put a bunch of stuff up, but
I'm in like the decorating, 

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finding a new home for 
everything. 

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And the old place at the old 
place, everything was inside the

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podcast room and I was kind of 
like reduced to that space and 

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like that's where I could 
express myself. 

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And now I'm in a whole ass house
and this motherfucking bitch is 

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mine and I can put my shit any 
fucking where I want to and it 

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belongs to me and I pay all the 
bills here. 

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You can't tell me shit. 
I'll eat what I fucking want for

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dinner. 
I'll hang out with who I want to

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hang out with. 
I'll do what the fuck I want to 

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do. 
I'll say what I want to say. 

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I'll go where I want to go and I
will take up all the fucking 

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room. 
So world, I am ready. 

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So it's a whole new energy 
because Gemini said that. 

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We've never seen a single 
Gemini. 

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And honestly, in her defense, 
she's been married like most of 

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her adult life. 
Like how many years? 

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11. 11 so like her whole adult 
life, like all of her 20s and so

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now she's like stepping into 
this new era where, you know, in

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the past she was like raising 
all these kids, raising a 

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husband, doing this, doing that,
but now she's going to have like

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kid free weekends where there's 
no one. 

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I'm just saying like I feel like
I have some peace and like, 

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listen, the Co parenting thing 
totally works out in my benefit 

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because now I have certain days 
a week where like you're forced 

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to be present and you have to be
the other parent and you have to

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take responsibility. 
And I get 50% of the time where 

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I'm able to chill and relax 
because I don't know what it is 

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about society where it's like 
the woman's supposed to take 

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care of the children and the 
dude just like gets to go and do

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whatever he wants. 
And then you're like, thank you 

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for watching your kids so that I
could go hang out with my 

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friends. 
Like fuck you, 50% of them. 

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Like you shot your seed. 
You decided to take the fucking 

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leap. 
So now I have free time and I 

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quite literally, I'm like, I 
think, Goddess, I have this 

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fucking house to unpack and and 
decorate because I don't know 

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what I'm going to do with my 
hands when I don't have my child

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with me 50% of the time. 
And like, I, I'm going to have 

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time for myself to like, do 
things, go places, explore 

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things, go on adventures, go on 
road trips. 

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Like, OK, cool. 
OK, well, I don't want to put 

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you on the spot, but now that 
we're here with our audience, so

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we're going back to weekly 
episodes is what I heard. 

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Weekly episodes, bitches. 
We got all the time, got all the

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things, all the topics. 
I actually have so many things 

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that I that we can like, talk 
about now. 

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I feel like it's like a weight 
has been lifted off of my body. 

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I mean, you definitely have been
living like a double life for a 

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while. 
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believe that like the more that 
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journey and transformed on your 
own personal like confidence in 

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your own personal like struggles
that your husband just was like 

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jealous of your growth and like,
but presented your growth and 

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following and community like he 
I think resented that you had 

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like an outlet to express 
yourself where he does not. 

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Well, and I told you, like, he 
made a comment when we went to 

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Las Vegas together, and he 
basically was like, yeah, I'm 

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like, really proud of your 
successes. 

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Like, I didn't think that you 
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Like, I just didn't think that 
you were going to be able to. 

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I had no faith in you at all. 
I didn't think that was going to

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be something that unfolded. 
And like, the fact that you did 

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it, like, makes me really proud 
of you. 

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But I'm really jealous because, 
like, in my business, I'm 

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selling a product and like, it's
not really about me. 

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It's about the product. 
And when it comes to you, it's 

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about you and like people are 
buying into you and they love 

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you. 
And that's difficult for me. 

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And he when he said that too, 
like I already you and I had 

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already been having 
conversations. 

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There was already things going 
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But when he said that, I that 
was like one of the final things

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for me. 
Like that trip. 

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I was like, we don't have any 
kids and like, I'm barely 

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enjoying my presence with you. 
Like I walk into a room and I'm 

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uncertain about what you're 
going to say, what kind of 

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confrontation it's going to 
'cause I'm uncertain about like,

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what do I like? 
If I say the wrong thing in the 

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wrong way, it causes some type 
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Like it's just always like just 
an iffy feeling. 

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And when he said that, all of a 
sudden I was like, all these 

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conversations you and I are 
having behind the scenes, all 

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these things have like, like 
feeling like he wanted to 

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compete with me and could never 
be happy for me was like, he 

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like, just like, confirmed it. 
And I was like, yeah, I don't. 

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I'm not fucking with that. 
Nobody deserves to be inside of 

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a space where someone's like, 
oh, I'm supposed to like, 

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support you and boost you, but I
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And you know what's crazy about 
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Because I even told you, like 
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was like, wow, like Gemini had 
100K wow, Gemini had 150 K. 

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Like my ego was just like, you 
know, wanting to like kind of 

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poke at those your own 
insecurities because like anyone

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in the world, we're taught to 
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And I've really tried to remove 
myself from like friends and 

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family and people that like want
to compete, but there's always 

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going to be your ego that's 
like, you ain't good enough. 

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Oh, they're, they're, they're 
going to do better than you and 

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they're going to be more 
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like that little voice. 
And I even felt like there was a

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part that was like a test for me
whenever I really started to 

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like elevate my own personal 
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the tests that we encountered in
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community stuff and community 
chats and discords and whatever 

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it was. 
And at that time, like that was 

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like a really quick way to just 
be like, all right, this is too 

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much. 
I'm not going to do this. 

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Like I'm just going to throw in 
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spaces or whatever. 
But I just feel like there's so 

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many obstacles in everything. 
And anybody who has any success 

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on social media is like putting 
their heart and spirit into it 

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because these platforms are paid
to suppress content. 

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They are paid to suppress 
organic followings or organic, 

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you know, clicks to your website
or your, your links or whatever.

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Like you start talking about 
Patreon, you start talking about

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links, websites, classes, 
anything that's going to take 

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you off of their platform and 
they want nothing to do with it.

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That's just like every time I 
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say, do you want to create a 
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And I'm like, no, I just want to
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So, you know, I think that your 
husband had a lot of 

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self-conscious things like on 
his own and I being a very 

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confident person. 
Like I said, there was a part of

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me that was like, damn, like 
Gemini's going to get famous and

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forget all of us. 
Or, you know, you had all these 

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new people come in and want to 
like start businesses and be 

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your best friend. 
And you know, it's like every 

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time someone's gets into your 
inner circle, they want to start

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a business with you. 
And I guess I'm just going to 

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have to tell you that's a bad 
fucking idea because these are 

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just get on my nerves. 
Like they have never done 

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anything on their own. 
They get 12 to seven likes on 

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any given post even if their 
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And here they are every time 
wanting Gemini to take them next

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level. 
It's irritating. 

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And I do need you to be that 
person because the thing about 

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me is like, if I feel like I can
help somebody with something, 

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I'm going to help them with 
something. 

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And I, and I, I'm really trying 
to like work on that because I 

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don't want to be captain save a 
hoe. 

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But I also just believe that 
like sometimes people need a 

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boost up. 
And there were so many moments 

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where I was like, damn, like I 
wish I could have had a boost up

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or whatever. 
But I'm coming to terms with the

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fact that like, it's OK to not 
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We didn't have the boost up and 
we had to do those things and 

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that's where we learned certain 
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be. 
Yeah, and I think a lot of 

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people don't want to put in that
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Like I literally think the 
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And I do believe that like even 
when I have been posted on 

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someones story who has a million
followers, it still didn't 

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translate to get me more than 
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You know what I mean? 
Like people think like all they 

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need is this one person with a 
million followers to change 

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their career or their life. 
But shout out Viking Barbie. 

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You know she put me on her story
one day after I did a reading 

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for her and she literally has 
like 1.4 million followers or 

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some shit. 
And she was like because you 

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don't do OF this probably won't 
translate the way that you want 

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it to. 
She's like, but I will post and 

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like put it on there whenever 
she was like, but if your 

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titties, she was like, I could 
get you a lot of followers. 

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She's like if you had an OF 
link, I could get you a lot of 

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followers. 
She's like, but my followers are

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like Purdy men, not people 
wanting spiritual guidance, you 

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know, like it was like 
translation of it is different. 

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And so, so many people think 
like, oh, country's cool and all

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these little Internet rappers 
are turning country because it's

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like cool. 
And I'm like, it's not gonna 

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translate. 
If your soul and spirit is not 

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in it, it doesn't matter what 
the fuck you're doing. 

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Like even give your soul and 
spirit to TikTok whereas other 

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people like myself have not. 
I would be pissed the fuck off 

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for you if you hadn't reached 
where you're at by now because 

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you have been dedicating so much
time and energy to that. 

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Like it takes a lot to just like
want to share that much of your 

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life with others. 
It's like, I know you told me in

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the past, like spirit said, you 
should do that. 

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People want to see it. 
I know they do. 

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And I'm I'm very weird about it 
because I don't want everything 

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to be everything. 
Like as such as I want to share 

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more with others. 
I'm like, fuck, I already share 

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a lot. 
Like I already feel like you all

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know a bunch about me so. 
You know what's weird about that

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though is like I don't feel like
I built my following off of 

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sharing like really intimate 
details about my life. 

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I feel like I've grown my TikTok
by sharing small bits and pieces

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about myself, but making it a 
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about them. 
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why I end up in the positions 
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trying to help people is that 
even my social media has been me

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trying to take care of other 
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myself or sharing myself. 
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situation happened with me 
having this like major change in

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my life, I was like, no, like 
I'm going to take up space. 

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want to take up space. 
I don't want to feel small. 

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I don't want to be so careful 
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and talk slow because I'm so 
nervous about what's going to 

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come out of my mouth. 
I just want to be able to like 

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share all the things. 
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that on my social media before. 
I think this share and even like

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sharing these details, like I've
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about like my marriage or 
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I until maybe after they've that
happened and it's a long time in

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the past because I never have 
wanted my truth to upset 

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somebody else or to seem like an
attack. 

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But lately I'm in the mindset 
of, well, it wouldn't be my 

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truth if you hadn't behaved that
way. 

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So really how you take your 
behavior is up to you to process

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through the emotions and 
whatever that you've caused 

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somebody else with your shitty 
actions. 

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That's not my responsibility to 
put that on my shoulders for 

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your healing journey. 
Something in the past because, 

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like, mothers and wives are 
taught to like, you know, be the

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glue holding everything 
together. 

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So I think in the past, you were
just like, stomaching all these 

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blows, like all of these things 
and like, trying to like, handle

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it and take care of it. 
And I know there were a lot of 

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added pressures and 
relationships in your life that 

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were like, also adding this 
pressure on to your marriage 

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too. 
So I feel like the lack of 

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accountability and then you 
being so self aware was like the

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catalyst for the changes that 
are happening now. 

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Because it's almost like when 
everyone's asleep, rest is 

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happening, but when one person 
in the house wakes up, not as 

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many people are sleeping 
anymore, right? 

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So I feel like as the world is 
waking up, that's what's driving

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up, I believe like divorce rates
and things like that. 

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Because where people have like 
been together for kids or for 

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superficial reasons or financial
reasons or whatever, people are 

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realizing that they can't 
operate like this anymore that 

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like they can't wake up like 
that. 

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Like I just saw for those that 
don't know this, I am bisexual. 

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I used to have a girlfriend. 
I've had several girlfriends, 

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but I haven't been bisexual. 
Like I haven't. 

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I am bisexual, but I have not 
had a girlfriend in the last 

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like 10 years probably. 
So one of my ex girlfriends, she

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came out as a full lesbian 
before, but then she went back 

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to bisexual and got a husband 
and she's been married for like 

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the last six years. 
And I saw today on on Facebook 

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that her divorce is like final 
and her and her ex are like 

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cordial or whatever. 
But she just basically told him 

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like, I'm just like not happy. 
Like they were even in an open 

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marriage where she could like 
explore and do her own things. 

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But it was just like she, she 
just said it was like living a 

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lie, even though her and her ex 
were getting along perfectly 

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fine. 
So I think some people think it 

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has to be bad to like want to 
leave or to like justify 

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leaving. 
But like, like she said he was 

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super supportive. 
He financially provided he did 

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all of the things. 
And she just felt like she was 

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still living a lie by, you know,
being where she was. 

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And I think that's crazy because
today she posted that like her 

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divorce went final and you know,
I commented and said, 

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congratulations, she's in 
another relationship. 

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It's and it wasn't like me 
prying, but it was me really 

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like, wow, I love to see people 
doing what's best for them. 

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You know, like there's no kids 
involved or whatever it may be. 

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But like sometimes I think 
people stay in very unhappy 

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situations and then make 
everyone else miserable in 

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between. 
Like they won't leave, but 

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they're miserable and they're 
making sure everyone around them

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is miserable too. 
Facts. 

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And I think too, like being 
unhappy physically makes you 

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feel some type of way. 
Like even since I've been out of

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that house, I've lost weight 
already. 

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I have like just like my skin 
cleared up. 

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I don't feel foggy when I'm like
talking or anything anymore. 

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I'm like just so many different 
changes. 

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And I just think that people 
don't really see the effect of 

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like when you're shrinking 
yourself down and becoming a 

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background person. 
It doesn't mean that you're not 

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a like for me, I didn't realize 
that I was being quieted about 

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things because I felt like I've 
still been myself and like had 

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my same like, you know, bubbly, 
outgoing, whatever personality, 

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but I was everything that I did,
I would think back on what I had

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done and find out if anything 
that I had done could cause an 

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issue and was like hyper 
critical on myself. 

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And so even on the podcast, like
I wouldn't just say what I 

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wanted to say without later on 
being like, fuck, I'm gonna have

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to like listen to that as soon 
as it drops because I wonder, 

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like, you know, if I said 
something that would like cause 

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an issue or whatever, Fuck you. 
But didn't you say before that 

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like your husband didn't even 
listen to our podcast? 

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Yeah, he's never. 
It was never about that. 

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It was always that I was 
concerned that somebody else 

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would listen and say something. 
Well you know what's crazy is 

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like you posted that little clip
from an episode Trendsetters and

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my mom was so triggered by what 
was said in that three minute 

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little clip that she has been a 
bitch to me the last like couple

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weeks. 
And she said who else did you 

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dog out on that podcast? 
And I said why don't you 

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download Spotify and go listen 
to the whole interview. 

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I said you can't judge a one 
hour podcast based on a 3 minute

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clip. 
I was like, she clipped parts 

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that are supposed to pull you in
so that you want to hear what 

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always said. 
And I said, and if anything I 

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said what I was talking about 
was that being cool. 

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And Gemini's opinion was I had 
no parental guidance. 

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So you can take this or you can 
feel some type of way about that

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because what I thought was cool.
This is an outsider perspective 

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of some who is a mother and who 
is raising a child and would not

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be doing that. 
So that's on you if all of a 

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sudden you feel judged about 
your parenting. 

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Or you could just admit, yeah, 
that probably wasn't my best 

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work, but you turned out fine. 
That's her excuse. 

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Now is. 
Well, you turned out fine. 

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Yeah. 
But like a lot of that is. 

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But I raised myself. 
Yeah, a lot of that is because I

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just have like, a really old 
soul and like, a really good 

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grasp of this place. 
Like I feel like at 32 years 

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old, I am so much further mature
than almost anyone in this range

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of age that I know I'm not from 
Earth. 

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Like I know for sure that I'm 
not from here. 

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That I came with a blueprint 
that was gonna like, align me 

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with some secret wisdom or 
something. 

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Cuz I just feel like so in tune 
with like knowledge or wisdom 

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that I shouldn't know or 
wouldn't. 

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Yeah, I totally get that. 
And I I think that that's a part

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of why you're so strong on like 
what your purpose is and with 

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like your specific requirements 
of energy that you have around 

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you. 
Like you're a very particular 

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person about things and you 
understand the vibration of 

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different situations. 
And I wish that you would start 

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just like telling me when you're
like feeling some type of way 

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instead of being like, Oh no, 
I'm going to leave Gemini out to

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the fucking wolves. 
She's a nice person and it's 

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going to get. 
Taken advantage of right now. 

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And I fucking hate that bitch, 
but I'm gonna just be quiet and 

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let her fuck it up. 
Like no, tell me that like 

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bitch, you're being captain save
a hoe right now. 

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And that bitch needs to like, 
stop writing. 

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Shit, so Jim and I will attract 
female friends into her life and

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they have nothing going for 
them. 

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They barely have a toaster at 
their house. 

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Like they probably have 
financial problems, they 

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definitely have car problems, 
they definitely don't have 

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custody of their kids usually, 
and a few other things. 

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And every single time these 
people come in and they see the 

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Gemini makes money off of her 
business, she has following, she

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goes viral. 
She's had videos, have millions 

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of views or whatever it may be. 
And they come in and they're 

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like, you know what I could do? 
I could rebrand your whole 

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thing. 
You know what I could do? 

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I could take what you built and 
I could add a porch. 

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Would you like a screened in 
porch? 

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And then she credits them like 
they have built the whole house.

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And then then she'll be like, 
you know what Paige needs? 

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She needs a porch. 
And then they try to come over 

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here and tell me that my dove 
WOD needs a porch and I'll be 

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like, OK, let me put your offer.
And they're like, for $5700 I 

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could put on the porch, but it 
wouldn't have a door or a floor.

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OK, you follow. 
And then when I build it, I need

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a cut. 
I'm like, damn. 

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So then I'll be like, damn, Jim 
and I, I have to wait a few 

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because I'm, I don't know about 
that. 

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And, and then they'll send me a 
link and then I'll be scared to,

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to look at their link. 
And then they'll, they'll DM me 

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and they'll say, I sent you a 
link. 

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We're going to redo your brand. 
And then they told Gemini, this 

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is another spin they did. 
They told Gemini that our brand 

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doesn't reflect Gemini and and 
it doesn't reflect her and we 

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need to redo the whole thing 
because it does not reflect her 

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desires, needs or wants. 
Period. 

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First of all, I don't know why 
you roasted me. 

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OK, so that's why I'm laughing 
is that that was so that was 

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such a specific, honest roast. 
It put me in tears because I 

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just didn't know what to do with
that. 

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I also, oh, that was good. 
That was, I don't, I don't think

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I even need to say anything that
was so fucking specific. 

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That's that's what I do. 
I did that. 

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I did that more than one time. 
I've done it. 

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I've been fucked every time I've
done it. 

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But my God, I there's just 
something about me that's like, 

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you're wounded. 
And you know what? 

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Come on here girl. 
I can I can help you girl. 

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What's funny about that though, 
is like, I feel like every 

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single time that's happened, the
universe will be trying to like 

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deliberately roadblock you. 
Like you're like on the way to 

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pick them up and like the 
universe is like flat tire, you 

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know what I mean? 
I feel like the universe does 

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give you a lot of signs about 
those things, but I also feel 

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like you are very driven. 
You're very stubborn. 

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And like I've said before, like 
I don't ever want to be that 

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friend that's like, Oh no, you 
shouldn't be friends with them. 

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I don't like them or I don't 
like their energy or whatever. 

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But I mean, I guess in the 
future, the moment that they 

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segue into the business arena 
that's going to like give me 

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free reign to be like, look, not
a good idea. 

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Because I mean, anyone listening
could understand why I 

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personally don't feel like 
someone who only gets 7 to 12 

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likes could help me with my 
business. 

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I don't give a fuck about likes.
I really don't Once I started 

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thinking about likes as in like 
bodies, like if there's 10 likes

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on this pic and there's 10 
people in my house, it's a lot 

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of people. 
Or if there's 10 people in your 

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car is a lot of people, but 10 
likes doesn't feel like a lot or

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$10 doesn't feel like a lot, but
10 people is a lot of people. 

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If you got a feed house or 
clothe those people. 

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So you know, I just think 
sometimes these people come in 

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and they see start seeing like 
dollar signs like you know, 

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there's so such an illusion with
social media that if you have a 

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certain amount of likes or 
followers that you're making 

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money, but it's not real. 
That's not true. 

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Y'all like I looked. 
Yeah, that's. 

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Not true and like I'm getting 
80,000 likes or I'm sorry 80,000

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views on Instagram in the last 
30 days. 

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I have a screenshot, 79.6 K 
views. 

443
00:24:47,360 --> 00:24:50,440
Who the fuck is that? 
It's not 79,000 people booking 

444
00:24:50,440 --> 00:24:53,040
or reading. 
Who the fuck are y'all who is 

445
00:24:53,040 --> 00:24:54,480
doing that? 
I need to know. 

446
00:24:54,480 --> 00:24:58,320
I don't know because y'all sure?
I need to know all thousands of 

447
00:24:58,320 --> 00:25:00,560
you fuck. 
You curious fuck aren't liking 

448
00:25:00,560 --> 00:25:02,320
my pictures? 
Because if that's the case I 

449
00:25:02,320 --> 00:25:05,640
should be getting at least 1000 
likes on on every post I make. 

450
00:25:06,360 --> 00:25:09,920
Like what is what is that like? 
So I don't know, I just feel 

451
00:25:09,920 --> 00:25:14,960
like this social media stuff is 
set up to trap you into paying 

452
00:25:14,960 --> 00:25:17,840
for something that people want 
to see. 

453
00:25:17,840 --> 00:25:20,240
Like people want to see your 
art, they want to see your post,

454
00:25:20,240 --> 00:25:23,600
they want to see your stuff, but
like the oversaturation of it 

455
00:25:23,600 --> 00:25:27,680
and only promote promoting 
certain people's brands or 

456
00:25:27,680 --> 00:25:29,560
whatever. 
You know, like the people who 

457
00:25:29,560 --> 00:25:31,800
pay to play, they get a lot 
further. 

458
00:25:32,000 --> 00:25:36,360
I'm not going to give the 
Internet money for a imaginary 

459
00:25:36,520 --> 00:25:38,520
blue check mark. 
That means nothing. 

460
00:25:41,320 --> 00:25:45,000
I will say that what I found 
helpful was I was having a hard 

461
00:25:45,000 --> 00:25:49,040
time with tying all of my 
projects in together. 

462
00:25:49,360 --> 00:25:52,440
And that's where I was finding 
help and where I was like, I'm 

463
00:25:52,440 --> 00:25:53,760
going to give a huge credit for 
that. 

464
00:25:53,760 --> 00:25:57,800
And even now still I didn't 
under everything felt like 

465
00:25:57,800 --> 00:25:59,800
different individual projects to
me. 

466
00:26:00,160 --> 00:26:04,240
And I had tried multiple avenues
of trying to figure out with 

467
00:26:04,240 --> 00:26:09,440
myself how to make it all kind 
of more cohesive and to be able 

468
00:26:09,440 --> 00:26:12,400
to make changes with Coven 
because I don't want it to just 

469
00:26:12,400 --> 00:26:15,360
be spiritual stories anymore. 
I want to be able to branch into

470
00:26:15,360 --> 00:26:18,840
different things, but keep with 
like the main core. 

471
00:26:19,000 --> 00:26:20,720
And I was really struggling with
that. 

472
00:26:20,720 --> 00:26:24,120
And so this particular person, 
that's something that they were 

473
00:26:24,120 --> 00:26:27,200
able to help me with. 
And so that's where my gratitude

474
00:26:27,200 --> 00:26:31,080
and, and like loyalty came from 
is the fact that they did give 

475
00:26:31,080 --> 00:26:34,240
me that help. 
I, I did find that helpful, but 

476
00:26:35,200 --> 00:26:38,920
I see how that wouldn't be 
something that you're trying to 

477
00:26:38,920 --> 00:26:41,080
do. 
So the changes in the different 

478
00:26:41,080 --> 00:26:43,960
direction and things that were 
helpful with me isn't right for 

479
00:26:43,960 --> 00:26:45,800
you. 
I was just more in the mindset 

480
00:26:45,800 --> 00:26:49,000
of, wow, this is really 
beneficial to me right now. 

481
00:26:49,000 --> 00:26:53,800
I wonder if this would be 
beneficial to page 2 and you 

482
00:26:53,800 --> 00:26:56,960
were able to see how like, OK, 
well, you even thinking you're 

483
00:26:56,960 --> 00:27:00,160
going to be able to help me with
the things I need, like doesn't 

484
00:27:00,160 --> 00:27:02,760
make any sense. 
And that's separate from the way

485
00:27:02,760 --> 00:27:05,240
that that person was able to 
help me with something that I, I

486
00:27:05,240 --> 00:27:06,760
did need. 
It just wasn't a service that 

487
00:27:06,760 --> 00:27:09,320
you needed. 
I didn't. 

488
00:27:09,600 --> 00:27:12,200
There are things that were very,
very helpful. 

489
00:27:12,640 --> 00:27:18,000
But I think that it takes a 
very, very strong and determined

490
00:27:18,000 --> 00:27:22,040
person in business to be able to
say my personal life is a 

491
00:27:22,040 --> 00:27:26,560
fucking dumpster fire and my 
business is my priority and I'm 

492
00:27:26,560 --> 00:27:31,600
going to pour myself into that. 
And of course your personal life

493
00:27:31,600 --> 00:27:35,320
gets in the way sometimes, but 
it cannot take priority over 

494
00:27:35,320 --> 00:27:40,000
what you have going on for your 
business Like and that 

495
00:27:40,440 --> 00:27:44,960
individual was not able to 
separate and it ended up having 

496
00:27:44,960 --> 00:27:47,920
like negative effects. 
I don't think that there's any 

497
00:27:47,920 --> 00:27:54,200
ill intent there or that they 
mean to do the things that they 

498
00:27:54,200 --> 00:28:00,720
did, but I just next time I'm 
not helping. 

499
00:28:00,920 --> 00:28:03,840
No bitches with nothing. 
Build it yourself. 

500
00:28:03,880 --> 00:28:06,200
Oh, OK, cool. 
You're coming to something with 

501
00:28:06,200 --> 00:28:10,080
an equal, something nice, but 
I'm not getting in business with

502
00:28:10,080 --> 00:28:11,760
you. 
Yeah. 

503
00:28:11,760 --> 00:28:15,600
I just think that there is a 
reason that they always said 

504
00:28:15,600 --> 00:28:17,480
like, don't mix business with 
pleasure. 

505
00:28:17,480 --> 00:28:20,120
Like there's always been that 
saying, like, don't talk about 

506
00:28:20,120 --> 00:28:22,840
politics at the dinner table. 
Don't mix business with 

507
00:28:22,840 --> 00:28:24,160
pleasure. 
You know what I mean? 

508
00:28:24,160 --> 00:28:28,120
Like, I just think that 
sometimes we are like, oh, yeah,

509
00:28:28,120 --> 00:28:30,320
they definitely have good 
intentions because like, I have 

510
00:28:30,320 --> 00:28:33,920
good intentions, you know, like,
why would they want me over? 

511
00:28:33,920 --> 00:28:37,480
And sometimes it's really a 
shock when it happens because 

512
00:28:37,480 --> 00:28:40,800
it's like, damn, like again, 
like I'm trying to be a good 

513
00:28:40,800 --> 00:28:42,720
person. 
I don't want to close myself off

514
00:28:42,720 --> 00:28:45,760
from new connection. 
But also at the same time, I 

515
00:28:45,760 --> 00:28:49,720
feel like I also don't want to 
be like friends with someone. 

516
00:28:49,800 --> 00:28:52,960
Like in your case that like the 
first time you link with them, 

517
00:28:52,960 --> 00:28:54,600
they're like, let's make a tick 
tock. 

518
00:28:55,360 --> 00:28:56,160
Thank. 
You know what I mean? 

519
00:28:56,160 --> 00:28:58,320
Like, I'm sorry, one of my 
friends that has a lot of 

520
00:28:58,320 --> 00:29:00,880
followers says that's her 
biggest pet peeve is when she 

521
00:29:00,880 --> 00:29:03,160
links with someone for like the 
first or second time and they're

522
00:29:03,160 --> 00:29:06,440
like, let's make a tick tock. 
That Kayla Jaden girl, the girl 

523
00:29:06,440 --> 00:29:10,080
we had on our podcast from 
Louisville, that poor girl has 

524
00:29:10,080 --> 00:29:13,360
been through hell and back with 
her millions of followers, which

525
00:29:13,360 --> 00:29:15,680
shows you about like blowing up 
at a young age. 

526
00:29:15,680 --> 00:29:20,160
Like the shit she has dealt with
from the toxic breakup that she 

527
00:29:20,160 --> 00:29:22,680
went through with that summer 
girl as of late. 

528
00:29:22,680 --> 00:29:27,000
I saw that someone came to her 
home and cut all of the 

529
00:29:27,000 --> 00:29:30,360
electrical box wires on the 
outside of her home and LG and 

530
00:29:30,360 --> 00:29:31,320
EA Louisville. 
Yeah. 

531
00:29:32,720 --> 00:29:34,480
It was like 3 weeks old at this 
time. 

532
00:29:34,480 --> 00:29:38,120
I'd just been home and it was 
like prematurely born. 

533
00:29:38,360 --> 00:29:41,520
So yeah, they did that. 
And then another time, like as 

534
00:29:41,520 --> 00:29:44,400
of recently, she came home and 
someone literally like busted a 

535
00:29:44,400 --> 00:29:45,800
shit ton of windows out of her 
house. 

536
00:29:45,800 --> 00:29:48,800
Like it's really bad. 
Like she really needs to move. 

537
00:29:48,880 --> 00:29:52,920
I feel so sorry for her because 
truly like she is just trying to

538
00:29:52,920 --> 00:29:54,400
like raise her kid and stay away
from this. 

539
00:29:54,400 --> 00:29:57,800
And it's just literally over 
like Internet drama and just 

540
00:29:57,800 --> 00:30:00,600
people in general. 
But she has admitted that she, 

541
00:30:01,000 --> 00:30:04,040
you know, she's only 22. 
So she had been involved with 

542
00:30:04,040 --> 00:30:06,360
some like fucked up people. 
So she is admitting that. 

543
00:30:06,360 --> 00:30:09,600
But she also has really went 
through it and it has shown me 

544
00:30:09,600 --> 00:30:11,840
that like people think they want
millions of followers. 

545
00:30:11,840 --> 00:30:15,280
Do you think you want that until
someone is harassing you and 

546
00:30:15,280 --> 00:30:18,560
stalking you and sending random 
people from the Internet to your

547
00:30:18,560 --> 00:30:21,160
home? 
They were sending all kinds of 

548
00:30:21,160 --> 00:30:22,320
stuff. 
Like one day she came home and 

549
00:30:22,320 --> 00:30:24,840
there was like 1000 hot dogs on 
sticks in her yard. 

550
00:30:25,200 --> 00:30:30,800
Like who has time for this? 
That's also true though, why? 

551
00:30:30,800 --> 00:30:34,600
Like you need to be really 
careful with the information 

552
00:30:34,600 --> 00:30:35,960
that you are giving to other 
people. 

553
00:30:35,960 --> 00:30:40,080
And, and when people are 
building social medias off of 

554
00:30:40,080 --> 00:30:43,320
sharing every single detail of 
their life, no matter what it 

555
00:30:43,320 --> 00:30:48,360
is, you are allowing people to 
feel that they're an intricate 

556
00:30:48,360 --> 00:30:52,680
part of your personal life. 
And people really do like go 

557
00:30:52,680 --> 00:30:57,440
psychotic when they see you and 
they, I think that if somebody 

558
00:30:57,440 --> 00:31:00,240
fucking hates you, it's because 
there's an admiration in there. 

559
00:31:00,760 --> 00:31:04,320
And so I think that if somebody 
has the time to hate you so much

560
00:31:04,320 --> 00:31:07,240
that they're going to seek you 
out, your address, your 

561
00:31:07,240 --> 00:31:08,760
whatever, do these things with 
you. 

562
00:31:08,760 --> 00:31:12,880
Like that's a scary line to me 
because I just feel like that's 

563
00:31:12,880 --> 00:31:18,800
somebody who is like in love 
with your portrayal and needs to

564
00:31:18,800 --> 00:31:21,920
like, be aggressive with you and
that's how you get shot. 

565
00:31:22,560 --> 00:31:23,760
Literally, that's how you get 
shot. 

566
00:31:23,880 --> 00:31:29,520
And honestly, today I feel like 
I want to elevate the type of 

567
00:31:29,520 --> 00:31:32,760
people that I connect with, 
especially virtually in general.

568
00:31:32,760 --> 00:31:35,520
Like some people think they just
want followers so that they want

569
00:31:35,520 --> 00:31:39,160
to go viral. 
But even like you will know that

570
00:31:39,520 --> 00:31:42,480
not all good interactions are 
gonna come from that when you go

571
00:31:42,480 --> 00:31:44,040
viral. 
Now you got people, your 

572
00:31:44,040 --> 00:31:46,640
eyebrows are too dark, your lips
are too big, you're ugly, you're

573
00:31:46,640 --> 00:31:50,160
ugly, you're ugly on something 
that may be like donated a half,

574
00:31:50,160 --> 00:31:52,880
$1,000,000 to this foundation or
whatever it may be. 

575
00:31:52,880 --> 00:31:55,680
It doesn't matter. 
Like people are haters. 

576
00:31:55,680 --> 00:31:58,200
And I do believe that when 
there's a lot of attention, 

577
00:31:58,200 --> 00:32:02,080
especially when it's a 
supportive intention there, it's

578
00:32:02,080 --> 00:32:04,680
going to draw it out of people 
that are close to you, like your

579
00:32:04,680 --> 00:32:07,000
friends, your family, your 
husband, your partner, whoever 

580
00:32:07,000 --> 00:32:08,760
it is. 
And that's what sucks. 

581
00:32:08,760 --> 00:32:12,480
I think that's the biggest 
shocker about success is it's 

582
00:32:12,480 --> 00:32:14,880
not the people out here on the 
Internet that are going to 

583
00:32:14,880 --> 00:32:17,200
bother you the most. 
It's when your best friend or 

584
00:32:17,200 --> 00:32:21,680
your whoever all of a sudden, 
you know, is going to start a 

585
00:32:21,680 --> 00:32:24,840
business and expects you to get 
them to where you are or they 

586
00:32:24,840 --> 00:32:27,480
want to start a podcast so that 
now you got to teach them how to

587
00:32:27,480 --> 00:32:29,520
start it. 
Or will you know how to do that?

588
00:32:29,520 --> 00:32:31,640
So just show me how or just do 
it for me. 

589
00:32:31,640 --> 00:32:34,440
Or, you know, like all that 
shit, like it comes and it's 

590
00:32:34,560 --> 00:32:37,960
really built in that thought 
that you're going to make money 

591
00:32:37,960 --> 00:32:40,360
just because you have 100K 
followers, because you're not, 

592
00:32:40,640 --> 00:32:46,480
you're not making money. 
The thing is, like, I'm always 

593
00:32:46,480 --> 00:32:51,080
going to be that person. 
I just need people in my life 

594
00:32:51,080 --> 00:32:54,160
who are going to pour that much 
energy and attention back into 

595
00:32:54,160 --> 00:32:56,360
me. 
Like I'm always going to be the 

596
00:32:56,360 --> 00:33:00,240
person that's going to like take
care of you and like helps you 

597
00:33:00,240 --> 00:33:03,560
through things and like do my 
best to like help nurture you 

598
00:33:03,560 --> 00:33:05,320
through things. 
Like that's just who I am as a 

599
00:33:05,320 --> 00:33:07,920
person. 
I've always been that way, but I

600
00:33:07,920 --> 00:33:11,960
need to have people inside my 
space who do that back. 

601
00:33:12,360 --> 00:33:15,400
And I mean, that's how you know,
you and I have talked about when

602
00:33:15,480 --> 00:33:18,600
when we're together in person, 
that's like the dynamic that you

603
00:33:18,600 --> 00:33:22,080
and I have is like, I'm like 
feeding you and doing all these 

604
00:33:22,080 --> 00:33:25,160
things and then you're pouring 
back differently energetically 

605
00:33:25,160 --> 00:33:28,040
towards me. 
Like it doesn't have to be the 

606
00:33:28,040 --> 00:33:31,840
same exact exchange with people,
but it's the effort that counts.

607
00:33:31,840 --> 00:33:36,680
And I've just attracted a lot of
people in my life who don't put 

608
00:33:36,680 --> 00:33:38,680
effort in. 
And I've been like, no, it's OK,

609
00:33:38,680 --> 00:33:41,480
I'll put it all on my shoulders 
and you can just talk down to me

610
00:33:41,480 --> 00:33:43,160
because clearly I'm not doing 
enough. 

611
00:33:43,400 --> 00:33:45,040
And like, I'll just do a little 
bit more. 

612
00:33:45,040 --> 00:33:48,840
And then all of a sudden I'm 
like, why am I so depleted? 

613
00:33:49,160 --> 00:33:53,520
And so. 
And you know, that happens a lot

614
00:33:53,520 --> 00:33:57,000
with people who have like a 
healer archetype and they're 

615
00:33:57,000 --> 00:34:00,000
like wanting to help others and 
heal others. 

616
00:34:00,320 --> 00:34:04,120
And I think that sometimes that 
is really put on to women to 

617
00:34:04,120 --> 00:34:09,239
like sacrifice and give and all 
of these things almost to the 

618
00:34:09,239 --> 00:34:16,960
point where like, I truly don't 
understand why some people seek 

619
00:34:16,960 --> 00:34:18,760
things out that they don't 
actually want. 

620
00:34:18,760 --> 00:34:21,120
Like they seek out the family 
and the kids and then they're 

621
00:34:21,520 --> 00:34:25,000
out cheating or drinking or 
abusing or whatever it may be or

622
00:34:25,199 --> 00:34:27,880
the people who do certain 
things. 

623
00:34:27,880 --> 00:34:29,960
It's like nobody said you had to
do all that. 

624
00:34:30,040 --> 00:34:32,199
Like you could have just went in
here and lived your life, you 

625
00:34:32,199 --> 00:34:34,199
know what I mean? 
Like what compels you to be 

626
00:34:34,199 --> 00:34:36,159
like, you know what I'll do? 
I'll just have 3 or 4 kids and 

627
00:34:36,159 --> 00:34:39,239
then beat the shit out of them 
or abandoned them or you know 

628
00:34:39,239 --> 00:34:40,239
what I mean? 
Like, I don't get it. 

629
00:34:40,239 --> 00:34:42,920
Like there's so many people out 
here growing up without role 

630
00:34:42,920 --> 00:34:45,639
models. 
And I think at its core, that is

631
00:34:45,639 --> 00:34:48,040
what's problem. 
The main problem within our 

632
00:34:48,040 --> 00:34:50,800
society is there's not really 
good role models. 

633
00:34:51,000 --> 00:34:54,320
There's no real good like 
community spaces for people to 

634
00:34:54,320 --> 00:34:59,880
come together and collaborate or
learn or grow without being in a

635
00:34:59,880 --> 00:35:03,240
rich area of town or being in 
something, you know what I mean,

636
00:35:03,240 --> 00:35:06,520
that you're paying thousands of 
dollars for Like there's no like

637
00:35:06,800 --> 00:35:09,000
Community Center for kids to go 
and hang out. 

638
00:35:09,000 --> 00:35:13,880
That's like chill and like not 
alcohol or drug oriented, you 

639
00:35:13,880 --> 00:35:14,800
know what I mean? 
I don't know. 

640
00:35:14,800 --> 00:35:18,680
I just feel like right now what 
the struggle is, is there's not 

641
00:35:18,680 --> 00:35:22,520
a lot of good people to lean on.
So then people come into our 

642
00:35:22,520 --> 00:35:25,240
life that they're like, wow, I 
could learn a lot from this 

643
00:35:25,240 --> 00:35:26,760
person. 
And the next thing you know, 

644
00:35:26,760 --> 00:35:31,640
like those darker egotistical 
voices are taking over. 

645
00:35:31,640 --> 00:35:34,040
You know what I mean? 
Was like well they have all that

646
00:35:34,040 --> 00:35:36,680
so I should have it too even 
though they didn't work for it. 

647
00:35:39,080 --> 00:35:42,160
Yeah. 
And, and I think too, once 

648
00:35:42,160 --> 00:35:44,920
people, and we've talked about 
it before, once people think 

649
00:35:44,920 --> 00:35:48,840
that they know you and like they
have some type of like, look, 

650
00:35:49,160 --> 00:35:55,440
you know, beyond like the bail 
or whatever it is, then they go,

651
00:35:55,440 --> 00:35:57,800
oh, you're, you're just a normal
person. 

652
00:35:57,800 --> 00:36:00,440
You don't deserve those things. 
I should be able to have those 

653
00:36:00,440 --> 00:36:04,200
things because of ABC and D Like
they stop being able to see your

654
00:36:04,200 --> 00:36:09,240
effort and they start just 
becoming like jealous, I think. 

655
00:36:09,240 --> 00:36:13,040
And like just you become normal 
to them where they had put you 

656
00:36:13,080 --> 00:36:16,200
on a pedestal before. 
And it doesn't matter how humble

657
00:36:16,200 --> 00:36:18,440
you are about things. 
It doesn't matter if you don't 

658
00:36:18,440 --> 00:36:21,200
put yourself on that pedestal. 
If somebody puts you on a 

659
00:36:21,200 --> 00:36:25,840
pedestal in some way and you let
them down and you falter at all,

660
00:36:26,040 --> 00:36:29,040
then the whole illusion for them
is completely broken. 

661
00:36:29,040 --> 00:36:31,800
And people do that all the 
fucking time. 

662
00:36:31,800 --> 00:36:35,240
And I think that's why there's 
so many things on social media 

663
00:36:35,240 --> 00:36:38,880
is that people really look and 
like admire people and admire 

664
00:36:38,880 --> 00:36:40,600
where people are AT. 
And then the second that 

665
00:36:40,600 --> 00:36:43,560
somebody does something that 
doesn't align with what you 

666
00:36:43,560 --> 00:36:46,080
think they should do is if 
you're going to give fucking 

667
00:36:46,080 --> 00:36:49,360
matters, then it's Oh my God, I 
can't believe they did that and 

668
00:36:49,360 --> 00:36:52,120
let's cancel them. 
Kind of like that whole Zach 

669
00:36:52,120 --> 00:36:55,360
Bryan thing. 
Like I'm not like a super Zach 

670
00:36:55,360 --> 00:36:59,160
Bryan fan and I'm not saying 
that he was right or wrong, but 

671
00:36:59,160 --> 00:37:04,320
I think that a lot of people are
marrying these celebrities for 

672
00:37:04,320 --> 00:37:07,280
the wrong reasons, which I think
has always happened. 

673
00:37:07,320 --> 00:37:10,480
I mean, that's why, you know, 80
year old, you know, Red Hot 

674
00:37:10,480 --> 00:37:12,880
Chili Pepper, people are dating 
20 year olds or whatever. 

675
00:37:12,880 --> 00:37:17,000
Like it's always been a thing. 
But I do believe that right now 

676
00:37:17,000 --> 00:37:21,800
more than ever, the illusions 
are like the veils being dropped

677
00:37:22,120 --> 00:37:26,080
into these relationships where 
it's like, OK, it's not all, you

678
00:37:26,080 --> 00:37:29,760
know, glam and glitz. 
Like there's trauma there. 

679
00:37:29,760 --> 00:37:32,680
There's these parties, these 
people, these things. 

680
00:37:32,680 --> 00:37:34,200
We've sold our soul. 
We've done this. 

681
00:37:34,200 --> 00:37:35,600
We're we're going to be 
blackmailed. 

682
00:37:35,600 --> 00:37:38,320
You know, people are a lot of 
comedians who were not like, 

683
00:37:38,320 --> 00:37:42,240
involved with the ditty tapes 
are really being vocal and 

684
00:37:42,240 --> 00:37:47,560
utilizing that as like their pun
about how quiet Hollywood is 

685
00:37:47,560 --> 00:37:49,560
lately. 
Like no one's saying and shit, 

686
00:37:49,560 --> 00:37:52,480
no one's producing shit. 
The writers have been on strike.

687
00:37:52,480 --> 00:37:55,280
That's why they're making 
fucking Wicked Part 1, Part 2, 

688
00:37:55,280 --> 00:37:58,240
part 42. 
You know, like they want to redo

689
00:37:58,240 --> 00:38:01,480
everything because they have no 
new ideas, because they don't 

690
00:38:01,480 --> 00:38:03,960
want to pay the writers, They 
don't want to compensate the 

691
00:38:03,960 --> 00:38:06,320
people in Hollywood. 
And people are getting fed up 

692
00:38:06,320 --> 00:38:08,480
and they're leaving California 
and they're moving out. 

693
00:38:08,760 --> 00:38:12,840
But it's crazy how many fucking 
people are like going off the 

694
00:38:12,840 --> 00:38:14,720
grid. 
These actresses and actors and 

695
00:38:14,720 --> 00:38:16,520
stuff are just like, no, I'm 
done with Hollywood. 

696
00:38:16,520 --> 00:38:19,040
Or, you know, just like 
completely removing them 

697
00:38:19,120 --> 00:38:21,040
themselves from it. 
And I just think that's because 

698
00:38:21,040 --> 00:38:24,560
something big is about to go 
down and a lot of our favorites 

699
00:38:24,560 --> 00:38:28,160
home names are going to be 
brought down to light. 

700
00:38:28,480 --> 00:38:32,320
And I think, I think you will 
know the ones who have sold 

701
00:38:32,320 --> 00:38:36,120
their soul that like don't get 
exposed because of the way that 

702
00:38:36,120 --> 00:38:38,560
they're like physical appearance
will take a toll. 

703
00:38:40,360 --> 00:38:42,640
You know what I mean? 
Like even if some people have 

704
00:38:42,640 --> 00:38:45,400
sold their soul like Doja Cat 
for example. 

705
00:38:47,760 --> 00:38:52,720
Yes, You know what? 
I used to love Doja Cat, her 

706
00:38:52,720 --> 00:38:55,360
song No Police. 
When No Police came out, that 

707
00:38:55,360 --> 00:38:57,760
was my fucking jam. 
I loved listening to that. 

708
00:38:58,920 --> 00:39:04,240
But yeah, she just kind of went 
off the rails a little bit to 

709
00:39:04,240 --> 00:39:06,360
the point that, like, it's just 
kind of hard to keep up. 

710
00:39:06,360 --> 00:39:10,560
Like I get authenticity and like
individualism and like 

711
00:39:10,560 --> 00:39:13,480
expressing yourself as art. 
And so I like to give space for 

712
00:39:13,480 --> 00:39:16,080
that, but there is kind of a 
little boundary between like, 

713
00:39:16,760 --> 00:39:20,400
oh, like you're producing like 
enjoyable art. 

714
00:39:20,480 --> 00:39:23,160
And this just doesn't make any 
sense with like what we're 

715
00:39:23,160 --> 00:39:26,320
talking about right now. 
Like this is demonic and you're 

716
00:39:26,320 --> 00:39:29,760
talking about lollipops and 
cars, but we have this demonic 

717
00:39:29,760 --> 00:39:33,320
ass shit happening and there's 
blood and you know, like I feel 

718
00:39:33,320 --> 00:39:34,920
like. 
I'm the demonic ass shit that 

719
00:39:34,920 --> 00:39:37,320
happens in this podcast while 
you talk about lollipops and 

720
00:39:37,320 --> 00:39:39,400
stuff. 
So like I mean it can happen. 

721
00:39:39,800 --> 00:39:44,120
I'm not saying that. 
It's like, I'm not saying that 

722
00:39:44,120 --> 00:39:46,920
people expressing themselves as 
the problem because like dark 

723
00:39:46,920 --> 00:39:49,760
metal, that metal, you know, 
black metal, all that, Like 

724
00:39:49,760 --> 00:39:53,320
they've always been raunchy, 
bloody, you know, performances 

725
00:39:53,320 --> 00:39:56,040
like if you've seen in this 
moment, female lead band, she's 

726
00:39:56,040 --> 00:39:58,280
super bloody and gory during her
performance. 

727
00:39:58,600 --> 00:40:00,960
So like at the end of the day, 
like I'm not saying that. 

728
00:40:00,960 --> 00:40:06,320
There's also this this band arch
enemy that has just like a super

729
00:40:06,320 --> 00:40:11,080
hot fucking female vocalist, 
just in case anybody needs to 

730
00:40:11,080 --> 00:40:14,560
know. 
But I do think that you can tell

731
00:40:14,560 --> 00:40:17,600
when people have sold their 
soul, like you can tell when 

732
00:40:17,600 --> 00:40:21,080
they start shriveling up like a 
little bean and they start doing

733
00:40:21,080 --> 00:40:24,640
things that are like humiliation
rituals, in my opinion. 

734
00:40:24,640 --> 00:40:27,320
Like the way Doja Cat shaved her
head and her eyebrows at the 

735
00:40:27,320 --> 00:40:29,280
same time. 
Like, what was what was that 

736
00:40:29,280 --> 00:40:30,360
like? 
What was going on there? 

737
00:40:30,360 --> 00:40:34,400
Like she was having mental 
breakdowns on Instagram Live for

738
00:40:34,400 --> 00:40:37,800
months before that happened. 
And like, you could tell, you 

739
00:40:37,800 --> 00:40:39,560
know what I mean? 
Like, she used to be really 

740
00:40:39,560 --> 00:40:42,960
funny and witty and like 
charming and like, confident. 

741
00:40:42,960 --> 00:40:44,920
She'd get on lives and she was 
like, cool. 

742
00:40:44,920 --> 00:40:48,520
And then she got on lives after 
that and it was just like real 

743
00:40:48,520 --> 00:40:52,360
Spacey, real fucking weird, real
fucking, you know what I mean? 

744
00:40:52,360 --> 00:40:56,000
Just like all the way like. 
Yeah, but I think that, like, 

745
00:40:56,400 --> 00:41:00,120
you have to have so many 
different versions of yourself 

746
00:41:00,120 --> 00:41:03,280
that unfold when you're like on 
that the platform. 

747
00:41:03,280 --> 00:41:07,840
Because literally every single 
person, whether it be, you know,

748
00:41:07,840 --> 00:41:11,320
random fucking people in the 
universe or like big executive 

749
00:41:11,320 --> 00:41:13,960
people who have the opportunity 
to get you through, you know, 

750
00:41:13,960 --> 00:41:17,400
new doors, they're all telling 
you how they want you to be, 

751
00:41:17,400 --> 00:41:19,520
what they want you to do, how 
they want you to behave. 

752
00:41:19,520 --> 00:41:21,960
You're trying to figure out what
social circles you're supposed 

753
00:41:21,960 --> 00:41:25,120
to be inside of, what is going 
to have you drinking baby blood,

754
00:41:25,120 --> 00:41:27,600
who you're going to have to butt
fuck like you don't fucking know

755
00:41:27,600 --> 00:41:30,440
what's going to happen. 
I can't imagine these people not

756
00:41:30,440 --> 00:41:32,800
having these crazy ass 
evolutions. 

757
00:41:33,640 --> 00:41:36,640
Yeah, because you start drinking
blood. 

758
00:41:36,640 --> 00:41:39,440
Yeah, I don't know. 
I think that there's so much 

759
00:41:39,440 --> 00:41:40,680
would. 
You ever drink somebody's blood 

760
00:41:40,680 --> 00:41:41,200
page? 
I don't. 

761
00:41:42,760 --> 00:41:47,440
Know maybe I'll never say never 
about anything. 

762
00:41:47,440 --> 00:41:48,880
No, I'm kidding. 
I don't know. 

763
00:41:49,520 --> 00:41:54,240
I'm not saying that I'm like 
wanting to, but people do crazy 

764
00:41:54,240 --> 00:41:55,600
things. 
I knew you were a freaky bitch, 

765
00:41:55,600 --> 00:41:58,280
Paige. 
I I listen, you try to act like 

766
00:41:58,280 --> 00:42:00,120
you're like, so like sweetened a
mirror. 

767
00:42:00,320 --> 00:42:03,680
And I know that as as soon as 
someone's like, I'm going to 

768
00:42:03,680 --> 00:42:08,160
break your back, you're like, 
OK, here's the hammer. 

769
00:42:10,880 --> 00:42:13,280
No, they better have their own 
hammer. 

770
00:42:13,280 --> 00:42:17,400
I'm sick of her. 
She said I'm not supplying any 

771
00:42:17,400 --> 00:42:19,440
supplies for this adventure. 
Come prepared. 

772
00:42:20,560 --> 00:42:22,400
I don't know. 
I don't even know girl. 

773
00:42:22,400 --> 00:42:24,760
I just don't know. 
I just don't want to limit any 

774
00:42:24,760 --> 00:42:26,800
opportunity I may meet a 
vampire. 

775
00:42:29,000 --> 00:42:31,560
I don't want to limit any 
opportunity. 

776
00:42:34,320 --> 00:42:37,840
Gemini's ready to get out here 
and see what's out here in the 

777
00:42:37,840 --> 00:42:38,920
field. 
She wants to. 

778
00:42:38,920 --> 00:42:41,960
I'm not, I'm, I'm don't put 
words in my mouth. 

779
00:42:42,280 --> 00:42:44,200
I got my own situations going 
on. 

780
00:42:44,440 --> 00:42:49,280
I have my own my own things, but
I don't need to speak about OK, 

781
00:42:49,640 --> 00:42:53,560
and I'll keep it there. 
Oh, she's got secrets already. 

782
00:42:54,080 --> 00:42:59,640
She only is going to tell. 
You're making you're making me 

783
00:42:59,640 --> 00:43:03,040
blush. 
Only a few secrets for this 

784
00:43:03,040 --> 00:43:08,240
podcast will have to come back, 
and she may reveal the update. 

785
00:43:09,880 --> 00:43:13,440
About secrets I could tell. 
Honestly, yeah. 

786
00:43:13,800 --> 00:43:18,480
I feel like 2025 is giving such 
renewal energy. 

787
00:43:18,480 --> 00:43:23,160
I feel like 2024 has been so 
transformative that it was like 

788
00:43:23,160 --> 00:43:25,440
paving the way for something 
beautiful. 

789
00:43:25,440 --> 00:43:28,160
Like when you're going to build 
something, you have to excavate 

790
00:43:28,160 --> 00:43:30,240
the land and, like, get it ready
to build. 

791
00:43:30,240 --> 00:43:32,640
And I feel like this year was 
all about like clearing and 

792
00:43:32,640 --> 00:43:36,000
making space and like we're 
moving people, places, things, 

793
00:43:36,000 --> 00:43:37,960
whatever it was. 
And I think that the most 

794
00:43:37,960 --> 00:43:42,080
inspirational moment is really 
closing the chapters and not 

795
00:43:42,080 --> 00:43:45,960
holding yourself hostage, not 
continuously beating yourself up

796
00:43:45,960 --> 00:43:48,960
about, you know, things that you
could have done different now 

797
00:43:49,160 --> 00:43:52,680
that you know better or now that
you've learned wisdom or 

798
00:43:52,720 --> 00:43:55,280
cultivated that wisdom from the 
experience. 

799
00:43:55,520 --> 00:43:58,400
So, so many people are like 
beating themself up over things 

800
00:43:58,400 --> 00:44:00,200
that are in the past. 
And I think that's something to 

801
00:44:00,200 --> 00:44:06,320
let go of in 2025, mainly 
because like we as humans have 

802
00:44:06,320 --> 00:44:08,680
evolved so much in the last 300 
years. 

803
00:44:08,680 --> 00:44:12,520
And like now they're about to 
introduce aliens to us because 

804
00:44:12,520 --> 00:44:14,680
they think that we're kind of 
ready for that. 

805
00:44:14,920 --> 00:44:17,640
So shit is about to get good 
around here. 

806
00:44:17,640 --> 00:44:22,920
And I'm, I'm sick of living in 
the dark or them keeping things 

807
00:44:22,920 --> 00:44:25,560
from the masses. 
Like I know they will never 

808
00:44:25,560 --> 00:44:29,120
truly reveal the main things 
because they don't want hysteria

809
00:44:29,120 --> 00:44:31,880
and like crazy, you know, 
reaction. 

810
00:44:31,880 --> 00:44:35,600
Because truly I think what is 
going to be revealed could just 

811
00:44:35,600 --> 00:44:37,960
debunk religion. 
Like it's going to debunk the 

812
00:44:37,960 --> 00:44:40,960
story of creation. 
Like you can't, you can't just 

813
00:44:40,960 --> 00:44:43,880
throw the story of creation in 
there when this is before that, 

814
00:44:43,880 --> 00:44:46,360
like this is before that. 
So what was this? 

815
00:44:46,360 --> 00:44:48,760
You know what I mean? 
I believe this is what I think. 

816
00:44:48,760 --> 00:44:53,960
I think Earth is like a science 
experiment of a higher conscious

817
00:44:54,040 --> 00:44:58,720
being and we think that's God. 
We're calling that God. 

818
00:44:59,040 --> 00:45:02,440
But I believe that we were 
created by an alternate like 

819
00:45:02,800 --> 00:45:06,320
dimension or universe or or 
Galaxy or whatever, as like an 

820
00:45:06,320 --> 00:45:09,920
experiment to see if life could 
form and sustain here to. 

821
00:45:10,000 --> 00:45:13,000
It's almost kind of like how in 
The Hunger Games they're like 

822
00:45:13,000 --> 00:45:16,920
turning the weather and turn the
globe and moving in animals and 

823
00:45:16,920 --> 00:45:18,960
all that. 
I believe that's what they do. 

824
00:45:19,360 --> 00:45:21,880
That's what I believe. 
I believe that we think that's 

825
00:45:21,880 --> 00:45:26,080
God, that it's beyond that. 
It's even beyond that concept. 

826
00:45:28,280 --> 00:45:32,400
And there's so many like to 
think that the reality that you 

827
00:45:32,400 --> 00:45:36,320
see is the only reality that 
exists when you're constantly 

828
00:45:36,320 --> 00:45:39,280
even seeing it in things that 
you watch or whatever, where 

829
00:45:39,280 --> 00:45:42,720
like you can all of a sudden 
like wake up from something and 

830
00:45:42,720 --> 00:45:46,560
have a completely different like
situation happening. 

831
00:45:46,560 --> 00:45:49,080
It happens with you when you 
dream and you go and you have a 

832
00:45:49,080 --> 00:45:51,600
completely different experience 
in a different universe, 

833
00:45:51,600 --> 00:45:55,080
different consciousness. 
It's really fucking real. 

834
00:45:55,080 --> 00:45:58,640
And then you wake up. 
How do you know what is your 

835
00:45:58,640 --> 00:46:02,000
real reality and what's not and 
like on what timeline and 

836
00:46:02,080 --> 00:46:04,960
paradigm you're on and who 
you're supposed to be like, 

837
00:46:04,960 --> 00:46:08,400
connected with in various times 
and cycles? 

838
00:46:08,400 --> 00:46:13,040
Because I think that there are 
people who continuously find 

839
00:46:13,040 --> 00:46:16,000
each other through different 
cycles and different experiments

840
00:46:16,000 --> 00:46:18,640
and different things and like 
help each other along for 

841
00:46:18,640 --> 00:46:21,640
different purposes. 
And whether everybody has that 

842
00:46:21,640 --> 00:46:23,960
person or not, I don't know, but
I believe that's a thing. 

843
00:46:24,560 --> 00:46:27,600
Yeah, I totally believe that. 
I think that earth like from 

844
00:46:27,600 --> 00:46:30,200
what spirit is like truly 
explained is like a school. 

845
00:46:30,320 --> 00:46:34,280
Earth is like a school that you,
you cultivate experience and 

846
00:46:34,280 --> 00:46:39,400
wisdom through that is like 
helping you and other dimensions

847
00:46:39,400 --> 00:46:41,280
and life forms. 
I believe like we're truly 

848
00:46:41,280 --> 00:46:44,720
existing on in so many levels. 
Like I saw something recently 

849
00:46:44,720 --> 00:46:47,400
that was talking about like 
energetic frequency and light 

850
00:46:47,400 --> 00:46:51,440
frequency is only able to be 
recognized at a certain fraction

851
00:46:51,440 --> 00:46:54,320
or a certain level by the human 
eye or the human ear. 

852
00:46:54,520 --> 00:46:58,120
But that's why like animals and 
other beings have like Spidey 

853
00:46:58,120 --> 00:47:00,720
senses or like all the birds are
leaving, you know, there's a 

854
00:47:00,720 --> 00:47:02,600
storm coming or like whatever it
may be. 

855
00:47:02,600 --> 00:47:04,360
Like they have a different sense
of it. 

856
00:47:04,720 --> 00:47:08,120
And I really have been like 
trying to tune in with like, 

857
00:47:08,120 --> 00:47:11,320
Mother Earth because it really 
hurts my heart watching them, 

858
00:47:11,320 --> 00:47:13,160
like tear down trees and build 
stuff. 

859
00:47:13,520 --> 00:47:17,000
And I'm trying to cultivate like
the understanding that I came 

860
00:47:17,000 --> 00:47:20,880
here during this particular 
experience to watch them kind of

861
00:47:20,880 --> 00:47:26,840
like destroy things to build so 
that in the future it can be 

862
00:47:26,840 --> 00:47:29,680
reclaimed again. 
And then when I was out earlier,

863
00:47:29,680 --> 00:47:31,960
I was at a stoplight and you 
know how like something will 

864
00:47:31,960 --> 00:47:35,520
come through the concrete, like 
a baby tree or a baby Bush or 

865
00:47:35,520 --> 00:47:38,080
concrete. 
And I saw like two of those, 

866
00:47:38,080 --> 00:47:40,880
like a Bush and a tree kind of 
coming up through the concrete. 

867
00:47:41,240 --> 00:47:44,760
And I was like, and it was just 
a reminder that like, despite me

868
00:47:44,760 --> 00:47:48,400
feeling very torn and upset 
about them doing that, that it's

869
00:47:48,400 --> 00:47:52,200
actually for the growth of our 
collective because there are 

870
00:47:52,200 --> 00:47:56,720
more souls incarnating than ever
before, because so many souls 

871
00:47:56,720 --> 00:47:58,760
are wanting to witness this 
collective change. 

872
00:47:58,880 --> 00:48:02,600
So many souls want to be able to
say at into their home Galaxy 

873
00:48:02,600 --> 00:48:05,080
that they were here during this.
Like they want to be able to 

874
00:48:05,080 --> 00:48:09,680
say, because in other galaxies, 
I don't like the the level of 

875
00:48:09,680 --> 00:48:13,360
emotion and suffering that we we
see here on Earth is not 

876
00:48:13,440 --> 00:48:15,360
conveyed in those ways in other 
galaxies. 

877
00:48:15,360 --> 00:48:16,600
I don't know how to explain 
that. 

878
00:48:16,840 --> 00:48:18,920
Not that they don't have 
suffering, they don't have 

879
00:48:18,920 --> 00:48:20,200
emotion. 
It's different. 

880
00:48:20,200 --> 00:48:23,360
Like what their expression is, 
is a frequency. 

881
00:48:23,360 --> 00:48:26,640
It's not even an emotion. 
I don't know, which is why I 

882
00:48:26,640 --> 00:48:29,240
believe we're a science 
experiment, because we're able 

883
00:48:29,240 --> 00:48:34,600
to like, like we age, they don't
like we die, they don't, You 

884
00:48:34,600 --> 00:48:37,240
know what I mean? 
It's I don't know. 

885
00:48:37,440 --> 00:48:38,560
That's just pretty much what it 
is. 

886
00:48:38,560 --> 00:48:40,360
That's what I believe. 
That's what I know. 

887
00:48:40,720 --> 00:48:43,920
So we'll talk about it at the 
Pearly Gates, everybody. 

888
00:48:43,920 --> 00:48:45,560
That needs to be the episode 
title. 

889
00:48:45,560 --> 00:48:47,480
That's what I believe and that's
what I know. 

890
00:48:49,120 --> 00:48:52,400
And that's all I can say for it 
because honestly, I feel very 

891
00:48:52,400 --> 00:48:58,560
unwavering about that belief. 
I have so many. 

892
00:48:59,560 --> 00:49:02,800
I just like to listen to other 
people's like viewpoints of what

893
00:49:02,800 --> 00:49:06,640
they believe and just be like, 
it's all right. 

894
00:49:06,680 --> 00:49:09,080
It's all accurate because I 
don't fucking know. 

895
00:49:09,120 --> 00:49:11,960
So who am I to be like that 
doesn't make any sense. 

896
00:49:11,960 --> 00:49:17,560
Like absolutely, you're correct.
I, I have nothing to, I will sit

897
00:49:17,560 --> 00:49:20,680
here and research it and like 
have facts to like support what 

898
00:49:20,680 --> 00:49:23,080
you're saying and support you on
that fucking journey. 

899
00:49:23,080 --> 00:49:25,280
And then I'll listen to the next
person tell me their perspective

900
00:49:25,280 --> 00:49:27,440
and do the same thing. 
I'm just here to have a good 

901
00:49:27,440 --> 00:49:31,080
fucking time and whatever is 
happening is happening and I'm 

902
00:49:31,080 --> 00:49:34,160
going to just enjoy the shit out
of every fucking moment of it. 

903
00:49:35,000 --> 00:49:36,960
You know, I think that's really 
all that we can do. 

904
00:49:36,960 --> 00:49:39,400
Like that's what spirit keeps 
telling me is like, don't worry 

905
00:49:39,400 --> 00:49:41,240
about like the trees and this 
and that. 

906
00:49:41,240 --> 00:49:44,280
Like just worry about you having
a good time spreading your 

907
00:49:44,280 --> 00:49:48,160
message and living the the best 
life that you can and being able

908
00:49:48,160 --> 00:49:51,280
to pay that forward wherever I 
can instead. 

909
00:49:51,480 --> 00:49:54,920
Because they were like, she'll 
flip the whole fucking table. 

910
00:49:55,360 --> 00:49:57,760
And I was like, OK, bet like 
Mother Earth will flip the whole

911
00:49:57,760 --> 00:50:00,520
fucking table. 
So I'm just like, OK, I'm just 

912
00:50:00,520 --> 00:50:02,280
going to relax. 
Like really? 

913
00:50:02,360 --> 00:50:05,160
She really is in control. 
So I was like, damn, like that's

914
00:50:05,160 --> 00:50:06,800
right. 
I just hate it. 

915
00:50:06,800 --> 00:50:10,280
Like I hate how every 5 minutes 
we get a car wash or a coffee 

916
00:50:10,280 --> 00:50:12,920
shop or luxury apartments. 
For one. 

917
00:50:12,920 --> 00:50:16,520
Someone made a post on one of 
our like community groups and it

918
00:50:16,520 --> 00:50:18,960
said what happened to the 
regular apartments? 

919
00:50:18,960 --> 00:50:22,800
Why are all these motherfuckers 
labeled as luxury and 25 100 

920
00:50:22,800 --> 00:50:26,080
plus and I'm like yeah. 
Like. 

921
00:50:26,440 --> 00:50:29,880
Someone told me they built these
like not even that nice of 

922
00:50:29,880 --> 00:50:32,400
apartments and they're $3000 a 
month. 

923
00:50:34,480 --> 00:50:37,680
What? 
Who can afford that? 

924
00:50:38,360 --> 00:50:41,800
What's crazy about this place is
they're mixing condos that you 

925
00:50:41,800 --> 00:50:45,040
can purchase with like 
apartments that you can rent. 

926
00:50:45,320 --> 00:50:49,080
And one thing I'll say as a 
homeowner is you want, in my 

927
00:50:49,080 --> 00:50:51,840
personal opinion, if you're 
going to live in a townhouse, a 

928
00:50:51,840 --> 00:50:56,000
condo or a home, you really want
to evaluate like your 

929
00:50:56,000 --> 00:50:59,400
surroundings and like your HOA 
before doing so. 

930
00:50:59,640 --> 00:51:04,920
Because you do not want to be in
a condo or a town home or even a

931
00:51:04,920 --> 00:51:08,280
neighborhood that allows short 
term rentals. 

932
00:51:09,080 --> 00:51:12,200
Because that means somebody's 
that come in there and Airbnb 

933
00:51:12,280 --> 00:51:15,480
the shit out of that place. 
And it long term rentals are 

934
00:51:15,480 --> 00:51:17,160
fine because someone's going to 
live there for a year. 

935
00:51:17,160 --> 00:51:18,320
They're not going to fuck shit 
up. 

936
00:51:18,320 --> 00:51:21,000
But if someone comes for three 
days, they're not worried about 

937
00:51:21,320 --> 00:51:24,800
your privacy, your time, your 
yard, you know, whatever it is. 

938
00:51:25,120 --> 00:51:27,600
So it's like so many people 
don't realize that, like they 

939
00:51:27,600 --> 00:51:28,760
don't look into things like 
that. 

940
00:51:28,760 --> 00:51:31,720
And that's why certain 
neighborhoods like that don't 

941
00:51:31,720 --> 00:51:35,800
have HOA's or whatever, have 
like couches on the front porch 

942
00:51:35,800 --> 00:51:39,120
or whatever and cars everywhere 
and trash everywhere because 

943
00:51:39,120 --> 00:51:41,800
like no one can tell them what 
to do. 

944
00:51:41,800 --> 00:51:44,960
But I mean, some people are 
like, I'll never have an HOA, 

945
00:51:44,960 --> 00:51:49,520
but I personally think that I 
would much rather not have to be

946
00:51:49,520 --> 00:51:53,120
the Karen neighbor that's upset 
all the time when I could just 

947
00:51:53,120 --> 00:51:57,560
call a hotline and be like, hey,
this is happening and then it 

948
00:51:57,560 --> 00:52:01,000
gets fixed. 
You know, I'm just like, yeah, I

949
00:52:01,000 --> 00:52:03,320
am one of those people. 
Like I would rather have an HOA 

950
00:52:03,320 --> 00:52:05,440
or I would rather have those 
things because I think 

951
00:52:05,440 --> 00:52:08,640
regulations matter. 
And like to live somewhere that 

952
00:52:08,640 --> 00:52:11,960
they can rent and buy is not 
good because the people that 

953
00:52:11,960 --> 00:52:15,320
rent will never respect you as 
much as the people who bought 

954
00:52:15,320 --> 00:52:17,520
and are going to live there long
term. 

955
00:52:20,280 --> 00:52:22,720
Yeah, because they have an 
investment inside of that space.

956
00:52:22,720 --> 00:52:25,120
When you're just renting, you're
just kind of there temporarily 

957
00:52:25,120 --> 00:52:26,720
and you know that eventually 
you're going to have to like, 

958
00:52:26,720 --> 00:52:29,440
move on and whatever. 
I love being a renter. 

959
00:52:30,280 --> 00:52:35,840
I had a friend who just became a
homeowner and she had to replace

960
00:52:35,840 --> 00:52:38,320
her roof, like as soon as she 
became a homeowner, and then she

961
00:52:38,320 --> 00:52:40,640
had to like replace her furnace 
and all these other things. 

962
00:52:40,880 --> 00:52:44,640
And I was like, damn, like being
able to paint my walls sounds 

963
00:52:44,720 --> 00:52:47,720
great, but being able to have 
somebody else pay these big ass 

964
00:52:47,720 --> 00:52:50,400
bills, I will cover the walls 
and shit so that they're not 

965
00:52:50,400 --> 00:52:51,760
white anymore. 
Not a problem. 

966
00:52:54,000 --> 00:52:56,120
I don't know. 
I mean, I think that that's a 

967
00:52:56,120 --> 00:53:00,640
limited mindset, truly. 
I think that big expenses are 

968
00:53:00,640 --> 00:53:03,160
not as expensive that as people 
think. 

969
00:53:03,160 --> 00:53:06,840
Like I as a kid had always heard
about people's water heaters 

970
00:53:06,840 --> 00:53:10,920
like leaking and ruining 
people's floors or basements or 

971
00:53:10,920 --> 00:53:14,200
garages or whatever. 
And I always thought like water 

972
00:53:14,200 --> 00:53:17,560
heaters have to be expensive. 
When I went to like look at 

973
00:53:17,560 --> 00:53:22,200
water heaters, they are like 600
to $1200. 

974
00:53:22,440 --> 00:53:25,600
And I'm sorry, that's not a lot 
of money for something that's 

975
00:53:25,600 --> 00:53:29,240
going to last 10 years, like, 
and they used to last 20 years, 

976
00:53:29,280 --> 00:53:31,360
but obviously now nothing lasts 
that long. 

977
00:53:31,680 --> 00:53:33,920
But yeah. 
But not everybody has that at 

978
00:53:33,920 --> 00:53:37,840
their disposal to even like have
that be an option of like, oh, 

979
00:53:37,840 --> 00:53:40,280
OK, well, in the long run this 
will make sense. 

980
00:53:40,280 --> 00:53:42,800
I'll just put the five grand 
towards it real quick. 

981
00:53:42,800 --> 00:53:44,880
Like you know what I mean? 
Get it. 

982
00:53:44,880 --> 00:53:47,800
But The thing is, is most of 
those places will give you like 

983
00:53:47,800 --> 00:53:51,800
0% interest for six months. 
So like, you know what I mean? 

984
00:53:51,840 --> 00:53:55,960
And then if you think about it, 
some people don't realize that 

985
00:53:55,960 --> 00:53:58,920
like mortgages are way cheaper 
than rent. 

986
00:53:58,920 --> 00:54:01,360
Like So what I'm saying for the 
person who's paying 3000 a 

987
00:54:01,360 --> 00:54:04,000
month, they think, oh, I don't 
got to handle anything, but a 

988
00:54:04,000 --> 00:54:06,160
water heater is $1200. 
And we're talking about at 

989
00:54:06,160 --> 00:54:08,320
maximum like they could, you 
could get a cheaper one. 

990
00:54:08,440 --> 00:54:10,800
You're saying the money that you
could be saving by having a 

991
00:54:10,800 --> 00:54:13,400
mortgage versus paying rent, you
would be able to have the money 

992
00:54:13,440 --> 00:54:15,560
for that? 
Every single month you're not 

993
00:54:15,560 --> 00:54:19,360
gonna have a repair like being a
homeowner in like 6 years. 

994
00:54:19,880 --> 00:54:22,040
I personally never had something
break. 

995
00:54:22,040 --> 00:54:25,040
I decided to go ahead and 
replace things as they were 

996
00:54:25,040 --> 00:54:28,160
aging out, like as they were 20 
years old, you know what I mean?

997
00:54:28,160 --> 00:54:31,440
So The thing is, it's like when 
you are proactive rather than 

998
00:54:31,440 --> 00:54:34,880
reactive, you don't have damage,
you don't have water damage, you

999
00:54:34,880 --> 00:54:38,000
don't have a fire you don't 
have, you don't have a leak or 

1000
00:54:38,000 --> 00:54:39,840
whatever it may be. 
Like that makes sense. 

1001
00:54:40,320 --> 00:54:44,200
I'm saying that renting a 
renting mindset is I don't care,

1002
00:54:44,200 --> 00:54:45,960
it's not mine. 
I don't care, it's not mine. 

1003
00:54:46,080 --> 00:54:48,720
I don't care it's not mine. 
So then down the road you 

1004
00:54:48,720 --> 00:54:50,960
develop that mindset with like 
everything, right? 

1005
00:54:50,960 --> 00:54:53,480
Like people think leasing a car 
is a good idea and then giving 

1006
00:54:53,480 --> 00:54:56,640
it back it's not a good idea. 
It's actually worse. 

1007
00:54:56,960 --> 00:55:00,160
Like there's so many things that
like this mindset is limiting 

1008
00:55:00,160 --> 00:55:03,280
because for the person who pays 
3000 a month for their rental 

1009
00:55:03,280 --> 00:55:05,960
house that they think, well, I 
got 4 bedrooms and a big yard 

1010
00:55:05,960 --> 00:55:07,240
and I don't got to pay for the 
roof. 

1011
00:55:07,440 --> 00:55:09,480
OK, well it only needs a roof 
every 15 years. 

1012
00:55:09,600 --> 00:55:12,000
It's only going to need a water 
heater every 10 to 15 years. 

1013
00:55:12,080 --> 00:55:13,840
It's only going to need a 
furnace every 10 years. 

1014
00:55:13,840 --> 00:55:17,360
You see what I'm saying? 
Like so you paying 3000 equaling

1015
00:55:17,360 --> 00:55:21,200
up to 36,000 a year in just 
rent? 

1016
00:55:21,680 --> 00:55:26,160
You would never spend 36,000 in 
mortgage or repairs even if you 

1017
00:55:26,160 --> 00:55:28,240
made all of those big repairs 
every year. 

1018
00:55:28,480 --> 00:55:32,360
Does that make sense? 
It does make sense, but I also 

1019
00:55:32,400 --> 00:55:36,920
am like, I wanted to be a 
homeowner so bad. 

1020
00:55:36,920 --> 00:55:39,240
Like that was something that 
like I just, I really, really 

1021
00:55:39,240 --> 00:55:41,880
wanted. 
And now it feels like a very 

1022
00:55:41,880 --> 00:55:44,480
limiting choice for myself. 
And I don't know if that's 

1023
00:55:44,480 --> 00:55:47,400
because now I'm like, I don't 
know what it is that like I'm 

1024
00:55:47,400 --> 00:55:49,040
wanting to be doing. 
Like I have so many like 

1025
00:55:49,040 --> 00:55:52,440
possibilities of different 
things and like I don't have an 

1026
00:55:52,440 --> 00:55:55,040
unsupportive unit attached to me
anymore. 

1027
00:55:55,040 --> 00:55:57,960
I feel like I, I have choices 
and options and different 

1028
00:55:57,960 --> 00:56:02,800
things. 
And I think that your space, 

1029
00:56:02,800 --> 00:56:06,120
regardless of if you rent or if 
you own your space should always

1030
00:56:06,120 --> 00:56:07,880
be a sacred place that you take 
care of. 

1031
00:56:07,880 --> 00:56:10,040
You should keep it clean. 
You should have it decorated the

1032
00:56:10,040 --> 00:56:11,400
way that you want to have it 
decorated. 

1033
00:56:11,680 --> 00:56:13,800
You should take care of it. 
You should love the space that 

1034
00:56:13,800 --> 00:56:15,200
you're in and be grateful for 
it. 

1035
00:56:15,440 --> 00:56:20,000
And there are people who have 
this mindset of like, they shit 

1036
00:56:20,000 --> 00:56:22,240
where they eat and they don't 
take care of anything. 

1037
00:56:22,240 --> 00:56:26,040
And they those are, whether it 
be due to like mental health 

1038
00:56:26,040 --> 00:56:28,320
reasons or they're just dirty 
fucking roaches. 

1039
00:56:28,320 --> 00:56:33,800
Not my fucking business, but I 
think that that's the space that

1040
00:56:33,800 --> 00:56:36,920
I'm in right now is and maybe 
that's why I wouldn't consider 

1041
00:56:36,920 --> 00:56:41,200
like a home owning right now is 
the fact of I'm like, I want to 

1042
00:56:41,200 --> 00:56:46,520
be in a space to figure out like
what I even want from like I 

1043
00:56:46,520 --> 00:56:48,320
don't even know what kind of a 
house I would get right this 

1044
00:56:48,320 --> 00:56:51,320
second. 
I just had a big fucking 3500 

1045
00:56:51,320 --> 00:56:56,400
square foot house and now I'm 
like in this smaller place and 

1046
00:56:56,400 --> 00:56:59,280
I'm like, I love how like quaint
it is and cozy. 

1047
00:56:59,280 --> 00:57:03,520
It feels, you know. 
Well, I mean for not everyone, 

1048
00:57:03,520 --> 00:57:06,280
but what I'm saying is that 
renter mindset needs to be 

1049
00:57:06,280 --> 00:57:09,680
shifted because people think 
that renting long term is better

1050
00:57:09,800 --> 00:57:11,760
in realistic terms because they 
don't have to. 

1051
00:57:11,760 --> 00:57:16,280
Worry, don't think long term. 
I'm more saying like don't limit

1052
00:57:16,280 --> 00:57:21,760
yourself if you are paying 1500 
to $3000 in rent, don't think, 

1053
00:57:21,760 --> 00:57:25,320
Oh no, these big purchases or 
these things are going to happen

1054
00:57:25,320 --> 00:57:28,600
because I promise you these 
companies will give you 0% with 

1055
00:57:28,600 --> 00:57:31,880
the worst credit because you 
know what, they hope that in six

1056
00:57:31,880 --> 00:57:34,160
months you forgot to pay that 
and you're going to get tacked 

1057
00:57:34,160 --> 00:57:37,800
on all the interest from that 
time if you don't pay it off. 

1058
00:57:37,800 --> 00:57:40,880
So there are stipulations and 
there are things you have to cut

1059
00:57:40,880 --> 00:57:43,000
back and do. 
But I'm just saying like the big

1060
00:57:43,000 --> 00:57:45,600
purchases that as a child I 
thought were just massive 

1061
00:57:45,600 --> 00:57:47,160
purchases are not that fucking 
big. 

1062
00:57:47,160 --> 00:57:50,960
Like a water heater or, you 
know, there's no reason that 

1063
00:57:50,960 --> 00:57:54,320
people are trying to repair a 20
plus year old water heater and 

1064
00:57:54,320 --> 00:57:57,360
it's rusting and, and getting 
their floor moldy. 

1065
00:57:57,360 --> 00:57:59,560
You know what I mean? 
There's just so many things were

1066
00:57:59,560 --> 00:58:02,920
taught wrong because even 
landlords are going to come put 

1067
00:58:02,920 --> 00:58:04,760
a Band-Aid on it. 
I don't know, I just feel like 

1068
00:58:04,760 --> 00:58:07,840
about a homeowner, you shift 
into a more proactive vision 

1069
00:58:07,840 --> 00:58:11,640
rather than being reactive and 
it really will cut back stress 

1070
00:58:11,760 --> 00:58:14,880
which will add more money to 
your bank account long term like

1071
00:58:15,160 --> 00:58:17,360
it really will. 
This is something that it is 

1072
00:58:17,360 --> 00:58:20,080
proven that if you are not 
stressed about money and not 

1073
00:58:20,080 --> 00:58:23,760
emotionally driven by money, you
will just naturally have more of

1074
00:58:23,760 --> 00:58:28,000
it because you're not going to 
be so emotionally upset about a 

1075
00:58:28,000 --> 00:58:30,600
flat tire or a high electric 
bill. 

1076
00:58:30,960 --> 00:58:34,200
We're going to be grateful and 
blessed that you can provide and

1077
00:58:34,200 --> 00:58:36,360
then know that it's coming back 
to you in some way. 

1078
00:58:36,360 --> 00:58:38,720
So I'm just encouraging you all 
to not think small. 

1079
00:58:39,000 --> 00:58:41,600
If someone single renting is 
perfect, someone who doesn't 

1080
00:58:41,600 --> 00:58:46,000
have like a bunch of you know, 
obligations or doesn't want to 

1081
00:58:46,000 --> 00:58:48,520
be tied to a certain area, 
renting is wonderful. 

1082
00:58:48,520 --> 00:58:51,040
I rented forever. 
I'm not saying that like home 

1083
00:58:51,040 --> 00:58:54,600
ownership is, you know, the only
route and the best route. 

1084
00:58:54,600 --> 00:58:58,440
I'm saying that don't rule 
yourself out of that route by 

1085
00:58:58,440 --> 00:59:02,800
thinking small as in, oh, I want
someone else to handle a measly 

1086
00:59:02,800 --> 00:59:06,760
little $800 purchase. 
I'm sorry you all a dollar a day

1087
00:59:07,200 --> 00:59:08,920
gets you here. 
Like you're not going to have to

1088
00:59:08,920 --> 00:59:10,360
replace this with every 10 
years. 

1089
00:59:10,360 --> 00:59:16,200
You literally have to think 
bigger and in everything we do 

1090
00:59:16,200 --> 00:59:17,880
now. 
Especially because Gemini, a 

1091
00:59:17,880 --> 00:59:21,360
year ago you didn't know you 
would even be single, living in 

1092
00:59:21,360 --> 00:59:22,400
your own. 
House. 

1093
00:59:23,240 --> 00:59:26,000
Speaking of, what are you doing 
with your animals? 

1094
00:59:27,320 --> 00:59:31,240
I have birthday Kitty here and 
he is keeping the other cat and 

1095
00:59:31,240 --> 00:59:35,360
the dog and the pig. 
He's keeping the dog. 

1096
00:59:36,320 --> 00:59:40,040
He's keeping the dog. 
The dog is his dog. 

1097
00:59:40,080 --> 00:59:42,200
Like she's super bonded with 
him. 

1098
00:59:42,200 --> 00:59:46,480
He takes her places like that is
his dog and I can't have her 

1099
00:59:46,480 --> 00:59:49,960
here. 
Like I, I am just not set up to 

1100
00:59:49,960 --> 00:59:52,240
have her here. 
My priority was I wanted to make

1101
00:59:52,240 --> 00:59:54,600
sure that me and my son were 
good and I wanted to be able to 

1102
00:59:54,600 --> 00:59:56,800
have a space set up. 
It all happened. 

1103
00:59:57,560 --> 01:00:03,760
It literally was I was like not 
like this isn't working. 

1104
01:00:03,760 --> 01:00:07,160
I'm finding a place next. 
Later on that day I find the 

1105
01:00:07,160 --> 01:00:09,560
place I call. 
Next day I come and view the 

1106
01:00:09,560 --> 01:00:12,320
place. 
End of the day, they've already 

1107
01:00:12,320 --> 01:00:14,920
called all my references. 
I know that I'm moving in. 

1108
01:00:14,920 --> 01:00:16,480
Three days later I get a move in
date. 

1109
01:00:16,480 --> 01:00:19,480
Like it was just back-to-back to
back-to-back to back happened 

1110
01:00:19,480 --> 01:00:24,760
exactly how it was supposed to. 
I did not put any thought into 

1111
01:00:24,880 --> 01:00:27,360
like. 
Taking a dog with me or 

1112
01:00:27,360 --> 01:00:29,440
whatever, I knew that she would 
be good and she would just be 

1113
01:00:29,440 --> 01:00:31,920
with him. 
And so I just focused on me and 

1114
01:00:31,920 --> 01:00:34,680
him. 
And then I have birthday Kitty 

1115
01:00:34,680 --> 01:00:36,360
because she doesn't get along 
with anybody else. 

1116
01:00:36,360 --> 01:00:39,520
But the other two animals are 
super bonded with him and he's 

1117
01:00:39,520 --> 01:00:41,320
bonded with them and that's 
fine. 

1118
01:00:41,600 --> 01:00:46,280
And then the pig, like I'm not 
being able to have a pig is very

1119
01:00:46,280 --> 01:00:50,400
unique circumstance. 
So that's not where I'm at. 

1120
01:00:51,400 --> 01:00:53,400
Yeah, I was just wondering, I 
thought you and that dog were 

1121
01:00:53,400 --> 01:00:55,400
really bonded. 
I didn't realize that it was his

1122
01:00:55,400 --> 01:00:57,200
dog. 
I felt like that dog was. 

1123
01:00:57,200 --> 01:01:01,240
I mean, I love her, but at the 
end of the day, like she listens

1124
01:01:01,240 --> 01:01:06,120
to him and he is like her alpha 
and that is not that she and I 

1125
01:01:06,120 --> 01:01:09,600
don't have that dynamic. 
So I don't want to put myself in

1126
01:01:09,600 --> 01:01:14,880
a position of like the person 
who keeps her together isn't 

1127
01:01:14,880 --> 01:01:17,000
there, you know? 
I feel like that's a very 

1128
01:01:17,000 --> 01:01:19,760
selfish choice and not in her 
best interest. 

1129
01:01:19,840 --> 01:01:22,800
I. 
Mean at the end of the day, a 

1130
01:01:22,800 --> 01:01:25,080
dog is a lot. 
I can't have a dog. 

1131
01:01:26,360 --> 01:01:30,640
Yeah, dogs a lot and I'm already
about to like have AI mean I 

1132
01:01:30,640 --> 01:01:33,160
already primarily did everything
with the kid, but I'm about to 

1133
01:01:33,160 --> 01:01:37,440
just have like I really want to 
just focus on me and him and 

1134
01:01:37,440 --> 01:01:43,000
like our connection and you even
now with how soon it's been 

1135
01:01:43,000 --> 01:01:46,880
since moving into my own place, 
like you just I just moved 

1136
01:01:46,880 --> 01:01:50,720
different with him now, like I'm
not having to like overcorrect 

1137
01:01:50,720 --> 01:01:52,600
because of somebody else's 
whatever. 

1138
01:01:53,040 --> 01:01:55,640
I'm not getting input on my 
parenting and like what I should

1139
01:01:55,640 --> 01:01:58,720
be doing different or anything. 
I get to just focus that time 

1140
01:01:58,720 --> 01:02:02,000
and attention on him and figure 
out like what things do we like 

1141
01:02:02,000 --> 01:02:03,440
doing together? 
You know what I mean? 

1142
01:02:03,440 --> 01:02:05,440
Like what's next? 
Do you want to eat together? 

1143
01:02:05,440 --> 01:02:06,680
Are we eating in the living 
room? 

1144
01:02:06,680 --> 01:02:08,960
Like I don't give a fuck. 
Like what are we doing? 

1145
01:02:10,280 --> 01:02:15,120
I don't really know what a 
committed like 11 year like 

1146
01:02:15,120 --> 01:02:19,600
relationship marriage looks like
cuz I like my parents, you know,

1147
01:02:19,720 --> 01:02:23,120
we're never married and I just 
really have not been around a 

1148
01:02:23,120 --> 01:02:25,960
lot of like long lasting 
committed relationships. 

1149
01:02:26,040 --> 01:02:30,720
And I do know that if you do not
find that person that wants to 

1150
01:02:30,720 --> 01:02:33,760
grow with you, you're just gonna
grow apart naturally. 

1151
01:02:33,760 --> 01:02:37,000
Like I think that's the biggest 
mistake that people make in 

1152
01:02:37,000 --> 01:02:41,360
marriage as they marry for the 
wrong reasons like convenience, 

1153
01:02:41,520 --> 01:02:46,840
money, children, looks, family 
ties, family expectations, 

1154
01:02:46,840 --> 01:02:50,680
whatever it is. 
Like just an example, the other 

1155
01:02:50,680 --> 01:02:56,120
night me and Juba went to see 
Wicked and we were at a theater 

1156
01:02:56,480 --> 01:02:59,360
on the rich end of town that I 
never we never go to. 

1157
01:02:59,360 --> 01:03:01,360
She was like, I think I've only 
been here three times in my 

1158
01:03:01,360 --> 01:03:03,880
life. 
So we went out there just 

1159
01:03:03,880 --> 01:03:05,560
because I wanted a better 
experience. 

1160
01:03:05,560 --> 01:03:07,880
I don't go to the movies. 
I want that like, go to a nice 

1161
01:03:07,880 --> 01:03:11,240
place. 
And we saw one of like, 

1162
01:03:11,240 --> 01:03:13,880
Louisville, University of 
Louisville's basketball players 

1163
01:03:13,880 --> 01:03:16,240
that like, they won the 
championship that ended up 

1164
01:03:16,240 --> 01:03:21,800
getting revoked on like Public 
TV with our sex trafficking ring

1165
01:03:21,800 --> 01:03:23,560
and prostitution. 
Prostitution rings. 

1166
01:03:23,560 --> 01:03:25,720
What it was. 
So one of the star players from 

1167
01:03:25,720 --> 01:03:29,320
that team, Peyton Siva, very 
attractive man, was like two 

1168
01:03:29,320 --> 01:03:31,440
people in front of us. 
And I looked at her and I said, 

1169
01:03:31,440 --> 01:03:35,040
is that Peyton Siva? 
And she was like, yeah, I think 

1170
01:03:35,040 --> 01:03:37,760
so. 
And then his wife like, because 

1171
01:03:37,760 --> 01:03:40,920
he kept looking over, that's how
I noticed it was him because he 

1172
01:03:40,920 --> 01:03:43,400
not only was wearing all red, he
was wearing Louisville. 

1173
01:03:43,600 --> 01:03:46,360
And he's just a very distinctive
like person, right? 

1174
01:03:46,720 --> 01:03:50,280
So his wife like looks over out 
the side of her eye and like 

1175
01:03:50,280 --> 01:03:52,920
gives me the sturdiest look 
because I'm sure the way he's 

1176
01:03:52,920 --> 01:03:56,000
dressed, he wants people to like
ask him because this was 10 

1177
01:03:56,000 --> 01:03:58,600
years ago, right? 
Like I graduated 2014. 

1178
01:03:58,600 --> 01:04:00,960
Like this was 2013 when they won
that championship. 

1179
01:04:00,960 --> 01:04:03,800
So his his light of fame. 
Not no one knows who the fuck he

1180
01:04:03,800 --> 01:04:05,400
is unless you know who he is, 
right. 

1181
01:04:05,760 --> 01:04:08,160
So I just thought it was so 
funny that and I was like, we 

1182
01:04:08,160 --> 01:04:11,360
got to the theater, we walked 
right in, we walked right up. 

1183
01:04:11,400 --> 01:04:13,960
We see paint and Siva turn 
around. 

1184
01:04:13,960 --> 01:04:15,960
There's a million people waiting
behind us. 

1185
01:04:16,160 --> 01:04:19,360
His wife gives us the dirtiest, 
craziest look you've ever seen. 

1186
01:04:19,760 --> 01:04:22,480
And you could just tell that 
like he's not happy. 

1187
01:04:22,560 --> 01:04:24,320
You could just see it like she 
has this big ring. 

1188
01:04:24,320 --> 01:04:27,200
She had Louis purse all the 
things, but you could just see 

1189
01:04:27,200 --> 01:04:30,480
it in his eyes that that man's 
mind was wondering that he ain't

1190
01:04:30,480 --> 01:04:33,640
happy that he's there with his 
wife and his whatever at the 

1191
01:04:33,640 --> 01:04:34,480
movies. 
You know what I mean? 

1192
01:04:34,480 --> 01:04:40,120
Like people, I think that they 
are ready for the commitment 

1193
01:04:40,120 --> 01:04:42,920
that I think marriage is. 
And I think to be married for 11

1194
01:04:42,920 --> 01:04:46,840
years, 10 years plus, like 
you're doing, you're doing the 

1195
01:04:46,840 --> 01:04:49,040
work because it's hard. 
You've, you've met some hard, 

1196
01:04:49,600 --> 01:04:53,720
you know, cycles in that time 
frame, but it's fucking a lot 

1197
01:04:53,720 --> 01:04:56,880
when it's one sided and that 
other person is not growing with

1198
01:04:56,880 --> 01:05:00,360
you and growing and supporting 
you as you evolve and change. 

1199
01:05:00,360 --> 01:05:02,680
Because I know that's one thing 
that always happened in my 

1200
01:05:02,680 --> 01:05:05,480
relationships in the past is 
they wanted me to shrink. 

1201
01:05:05,720 --> 01:05:09,200
They wanted me to shrink down to
fit their ego or their 

1202
01:05:09,200 --> 01:05:14,440
insecurity or their fears. 
And a lot of people like do that

1203
01:05:14,440 --> 01:05:18,600
and they like dim my light by 
making me insecure about things 

1204
01:05:18,600 --> 01:05:21,200
that I do. 
Like you post all the time, like

1205
01:05:21,320 --> 01:05:23,600
you're always posting pictures 
of yourself, what kind of 

1206
01:05:23,600 --> 01:05:26,000
message that sends or you know, 
that's like really gaslighting 

1207
01:05:26,000 --> 01:05:29,760
me about like you know who I am 
and like the things I like to 

1208
01:05:29,760 --> 01:05:31,840
do. 
And I'll see that like when I'm 

1209
01:05:31,840 --> 01:05:35,520
talking to someone, I'll post 
like less kind of I don't know 

1210
01:05:35,520 --> 01:05:38,720
why, but it's like all of a 
sudden and like worried about 

1211
01:05:38,720 --> 01:05:42,120
how people are perceiving me. 
Meanwhile, this person probably 

1212
01:05:42,120 --> 01:05:44,840
isn't even looking at my story 
and could careless as even 

1213
01:05:44,840 --> 01:05:46,480
reading any of the shits, you 
know what I mean? 

1214
01:05:46,480 --> 01:05:49,520
So then I'll just stop posting. 
I don't know, it's weird. 

1215
01:05:49,840 --> 01:05:52,400
It's weird the cycles and phases
that you can go through. 

1216
01:05:54,200 --> 01:05:58,240
I think that you and I, it's a 
requirement for you and I that 

1217
01:05:58,240 --> 01:06:02,440
people that we're going to be 
with our understanding of the 

1218
01:06:02,440 --> 01:06:05,160
platforms that we have and the 
things that we do and the 

1219
01:06:05,160 --> 01:06:09,200
spirits that we have and the 
fact that like we are very 

1220
01:06:09,600 --> 01:06:12,400
business driven about things, 
but we're also very open with 

1221
01:06:12,400 --> 01:06:15,000
things that we're willing to 
talk about with influencing 

1222
01:06:15,000 --> 01:06:17,120
others on things we're sharing 
ourself with. 

1223
01:06:17,120 --> 01:06:22,200
You know, just all these 
different things being a risque 

1224
01:06:22,200 --> 01:06:25,080
on the Internet and like, you 
know, showing pictures of your 

1225
01:06:25,080 --> 01:06:30,480
ass or like whatever it is, like
whoever we're with has to be 

1226
01:06:30,480 --> 01:06:33,360
able to come to it going. 
I know this is already something

1227
01:06:33,360 --> 01:06:36,600
that you do when it's something 
that I support you doing and 

1228
01:06:36,600 --> 01:06:45,440
actually back us up on it. 
And I knew from the beginning 

1229
01:06:45,880 --> 01:06:49,400
that he wasn't the kind of 
person that was going to support

1230
01:06:49,400 --> 01:06:51,680
certain things, like he was 
going to be jealous about like 

1231
01:06:51,960 --> 01:06:54,520
pictures that I posted online or
different things like that. 

1232
01:06:54,880 --> 01:06:58,920
And so I was always trying to 
find this like happy pocket 

1233
01:06:59,160 --> 01:07:02,200
where like I could have what I 
want and, and you're respecting 

1234
01:07:02,200 --> 01:07:03,280
somebody else. 
And when you're in a 

1235
01:07:03,280 --> 01:07:05,880
relationship, really that's what
you're doing anyways, right? 

1236
01:07:05,880 --> 01:07:08,720
Like you're wanting like their 
feelings and things to be 

1237
01:07:08,720 --> 01:07:12,080
respected, but at what point is 
it that everything that you're 

1238
01:07:12,080 --> 01:07:16,320
doing is based on their level 
of, of comfort and not on what 

1239
01:07:16,320 --> 01:07:20,560
you're wanting to do? 
And why is it always that you, 

1240
01:07:20,560 --> 01:07:25,360
me, whatever, we're always 
having to downplay something or 

1241
01:07:25,360 --> 01:07:28,040
fit into some type of a box to 
make somebody else comfortable. 

1242
01:07:28,040 --> 01:07:29,720
I just refuse to do that 
anymore. 

1243
01:07:29,720 --> 01:07:33,320
If you're going to love me and 
want to be with me, you're going

1244
01:07:33,320 --> 01:07:36,000
to love the things that I do and
the person that I am. 

1245
01:07:36,000 --> 01:07:38,440
And when we have conversations 
about things, it's not you 

1246
01:07:38,440 --> 01:07:41,920
trying to change me and it's a 
compromise. 

1247
01:07:41,920 --> 01:07:44,440
Not that I have to change me to 
make you happy. 

1248
01:07:45,040 --> 01:07:48,960
And to add to that, I feel like 
sometimes, especially in my 

1249
01:07:48,960 --> 01:07:52,520
situation, the things that 
attract people to me, like the 

1250
01:07:52,520 --> 01:07:57,800
photos that I post or the post 
on social media or whatever it 

1251
01:07:57,800 --> 01:08:00,760
may be, like the things that 
attracted people into my life 

1252
01:08:01,120 --> 01:08:04,440
then become like personal 
attacks on them. 

1253
01:08:04,800 --> 01:08:07,880
Like who you posted on your 
story for or what are you doing 

1254
01:08:07,880 --> 01:08:11,520
or you know who you doing that 
with or where are you going or 

1255
01:08:11,520 --> 01:08:13,760
whatever it is. 
And I feel like that's very 

1256
01:08:13,760 --> 01:08:17,720
common to the point that like 
someone from my past like came 

1257
01:08:17,720 --> 01:08:21,439
back and they had made a comment
like if only your followers knew

1258
01:08:21,439 --> 01:08:25,399
who you really were or kind of 
like insinuated that like they 

1259
01:08:25,399 --> 01:08:29,880
had dirt on me or that they, you
know, had information that could

1260
01:08:29,880 --> 01:08:32,920
be valuable to my followers or 
like change kind of like 

1261
01:08:33,120 --> 01:08:34,880
blackmail is kind of like what 
it was. 

1262
01:08:34,880 --> 01:08:39,800
And I wholeheartedly believe 
that this person if like, they 

1263
01:08:39,800 --> 01:08:43,760
have opportunity, we'll try to 
extort that information in some 

1264
01:08:43,760 --> 01:08:45,080
way. 
Like, that's how fucking weird 

1265
01:08:45,080 --> 01:08:46,560
it was. 
Because like, who even says 

1266
01:08:46,560 --> 01:08:48,279
that? 
Who's even thinking about 

1267
01:08:48,279 --> 01:08:52,000
blackmailing someone before 
they've made it wherever you 

1268
01:08:52,000 --> 01:08:53,479
think they're making it? 
You know what I mean? 

1269
01:08:53,520 --> 01:08:56,640
Like, where do you think I'm 
going that you think that this 

1270
01:08:56,640 --> 01:08:59,319
information will be valuable? 
Because how could it be valuable

1271
01:08:59,439 --> 01:09:02,279
if I'm going to speak up on it? 
Like, I've been very honest 

1272
01:09:02,279 --> 01:09:06,720
that, you know, I, I did drugs 
and pills and partied and I've 

1273
01:09:06,720 --> 01:09:10,680
had, you know, a lot of layers 
to my existence that, you know, 

1274
01:09:10,680 --> 01:09:13,279
have led me here. 
So it's just funny when people 

1275
01:09:13,680 --> 01:09:19,359
truly are so just fucked up in 
the in their own head that like 

1276
01:09:19,600 --> 01:09:23,399
your growth feels like a 
personal attack to them, like 

1277
01:09:23,399 --> 01:09:27,560
your confidence or your 
notoriety or recognition feels 

1278
01:09:27,560 --> 01:09:30,279
like a personal attack to them 
to the point where that is so 

1279
01:09:30,279 --> 01:09:33,240
triggering that they can't even 
fucking stand it. 

1280
01:09:33,240 --> 01:09:35,560
They're like, they can't even 
process it. 

1281
01:09:35,880 --> 01:09:38,399
And, you know, saying things 
like, Oh, I never thought you 

1282
01:09:38,399 --> 01:09:41,720
would make it this far or 
whatever it may be once again 

1283
01:09:41,720 --> 01:09:45,840
adds back to what I've said 
about how that person, your 

1284
01:09:45,840 --> 01:09:48,760
husband and like the person that
you were when you all got 

1285
01:09:48,760 --> 01:09:51,479
married versus the person you 
are now are very different. 

1286
01:09:51,479 --> 01:09:54,400
Because, you know, for those 
that are new listeners that 

1287
01:09:54,400 --> 01:09:57,240
maybe don't know, you know, me 
and Jim and I met because she 

1288
01:09:57,240 --> 01:10:00,720
got a reading with me and her 
reading was heavily centered on 

1289
01:10:00,720 --> 01:10:03,840
like opening up her throat 
chakra and speaking her truth 

1290
01:10:03,840 --> 01:10:07,800
and vocalizing her opinions and 
like not dimming herself down 

1291
01:10:07,800 --> 01:10:12,160
for like peace or, you know, 
whatever contentment sake. 

1292
01:10:12,440 --> 01:10:15,400
And it's crazy because like the 
evolution of that has like put 

1293
01:10:15,400 --> 01:10:19,040
you in the position that you are
now where like that Gemini that 

1294
01:10:19,040 --> 01:10:22,040
got the reading would have never
thought, Oh, I'm going to record

1295
01:10:22,040 --> 01:10:27,760
myself in a moo moo eating pasta
salad and talk about my day for 

1296
01:10:27,760 --> 01:10:31,640
absolutely no one. 
Like, like you would have never 

1297
01:10:31,640 --> 01:10:32,800
dreamed that. 
Like you would have been like, 

1298
01:10:32,800 --> 01:10:35,040
absolutely not. 
I would never be doing that, 

1299
01:10:35,040 --> 01:10:37,600
like ever. 
So, you know, I think that your 

1300
01:10:37,600 --> 01:10:40,320
husband fell in love with that 
version of you, right? 

1301
01:10:40,320 --> 01:10:43,800
And like grew to resent the more
empowered version of you. 

1302
01:10:43,880 --> 01:10:47,080
And I think that's happened a 
lot in my life where people are 

1303
01:10:47,080 --> 01:10:50,120
attracted to me because of my 
confidence and my independence. 

1304
01:10:50,120 --> 01:10:53,080
And Oh, I'm really vibing with 
you because you don't have kids 

1305
01:10:53,080 --> 01:10:55,880
and you've never been married 
and you have your own place and 

1306
01:10:55,880 --> 01:10:57,480
all these things. 
But those are actually the 

1307
01:10:57,480 --> 01:11:00,360
things that trigger these men 
the most because they they do 

1308
01:11:00,360 --> 01:11:03,240
got kids that they've got to 
step up and take care of and 

1309
01:11:03,240 --> 01:11:05,520
baby Mama drama. 
They don't want to admit or 

1310
01:11:05,520 --> 01:11:08,360
living at their moms because 
they're financially struggling 

1311
01:11:08,360 --> 01:11:10,160
or, you know, whatever it may 
be. 

1312
01:11:10,200 --> 01:11:13,480
And it's crazy because like, I'm
willing to meet people where 

1313
01:11:13,480 --> 01:11:17,000
they're at without trying to 
feel like they have to like be 

1314
01:11:17,000 --> 01:11:20,160
at my level instantly. 
But at the same time, what I 

1315
01:11:20,160 --> 01:11:24,480
have to learn with new people is
that their excitement to connect

1316
01:11:24,480 --> 01:11:27,160
with me does not mean that we're
in alignment. 

1317
01:11:27,400 --> 01:11:30,600
Like our initial excitement does
not mean and that this is 

1318
01:11:30,600 --> 01:11:32,840
alignment. 
And that's where I fail because 

1319
01:11:32,840 --> 01:11:35,680
I think to myself, like, the 
universe is sending me this 

1320
01:11:35,680 --> 01:11:38,120
person and it we're perfectly in
alignment. 

1321
01:11:38,120 --> 01:11:41,200
Everything feels so great. 
And that's why every single time

1322
01:11:41,200 --> 01:11:44,200
that happens, I'm willing to 
just be like, yeah, I'm about to

1323
01:11:44,360 --> 01:11:47,240
jump off the deep end. 
And yeah, we're going to go to 

1324
01:11:47,240 --> 01:11:50,320
Bora Bora for the week and see 
if we could get married there, 

1325
01:11:50,320 --> 01:11:53,240
you know? 
So it's crazy because I can see 

1326
01:11:53,240 --> 01:11:55,720
that pattern. 
But then when it happens again, 

1327
01:11:55,720 --> 01:12:00,000
I'll be excited and I'll be 
blurred to the fucking pattern 

1328
01:12:00,000 --> 01:12:02,000
that's happening. 
And I have to realize that 

1329
01:12:02,000 --> 01:12:05,160
people's excitement doesn't mean
that they can sustain that 

1330
01:12:05,160 --> 01:12:07,040
energy that it's going to 
sustain. 

1331
01:12:07,040 --> 01:12:11,080
And I think your husband, the 
more that you have been excited 

1332
01:12:11,280 --> 01:12:13,800
and actually been able to 
sustain that energy that he 

1333
01:12:13,800 --> 01:12:16,880
didn't think you could, it has 
been extremely triggering for 

1334
01:12:16,880 --> 01:12:18,640
him. 
And the same thing, like I told 

1335
01:12:18,640 --> 01:12:21,160
you, whenever they started 
talking about banning TikTok two

1336
01:12:21,160 --> 01:12:24,400
years ago, I just kind of was 
like fuck it and just quit 

1337
01:12:24,400 --> 01:12:26,120
putting energy into it 
completely. 

1338
01:12:26,280 --> 01:12:28,040
And it shows. 
I've lost followers. 

1339
01:12:28,360 --> 01:12:31,240
I have not went anywhere. 
I've still been at 1.9 million 

1340
01:12:31,240 --> 01:12:33,760
likes for the last two years. 
Haven't went up, haven't went 

1341
01:12:33,760 --> 01:12:36,400
down, just same thing. 
Like, so at the end of the day, 

1342
01:12:36,400 --> 01:12:41,560
it's like, I know I took my 
attention and intentions away 

1343
01:12:41,560 --> 01:12:42,960
from that, which was the 
problem. 

1344
01:12:42,960 --> 01:12:46,600
Like you can't be successful. 
And I think that you've put so 

1345
01:12:46,600 --> 01:12:49,880
much effort into things that 
that's why they're blossoming 

1346
01:12:49,880 --> 01:12:52,480
for you. 
And that his fear of you growing

1347
01:12:52,480 --> 01:12:54,920
was what was kind of like 
keeping you small. 

1348
01:12:55,040 --> 01:12:57,920
It's kind of like if you have a 
plant and every time it grows a 

1349
01:12:57,920 --> 01:13:00,840
new leaf, you're like, Oh my 
gosh, I need to cut it back. 

1350
01:13:00,840 --> 01:13:03,360
Like I felt like that was what 
was happening, you know, with 

1351
01:13:03,360 --> 01:13:06,000
your marriage. 
And now you're seeing that like 

1352
01:13:06,000 --> 01:13:08,720
there are so many sides of 
yourself that you've never, ever

1353
01:13:08,720 --> 01:13:14,600
been able to express. 100% true.
And I also want to go back to 

1354
01:13:14,840 --> 01:13:18,240
what you were talking about with
your own like relationship style

1355
01:13:18,240 --> 01:13:21,120
and like falling in and whatever
and like getting distracted by 

1356
01:13:21,120 --> 01:13:23,840
things. 
I think that it's a really 

1357
01:13:23,840 --> 01:13:27,880
beautiful characteristic that 
you have that like when you find

1358
01:13:27,880 --> 01:13:30,880
somebody that like you feel is 
worth your time, you pour 

1359
01:13:30,880 --> 01:13:33,600
everything into that and you 
give them your time and your 

1360
01:13:33,600 --> 01:13:38,600
energy and whatever. 
And you aren't super guarded 

1361
01:13:38,600 --> 01:13:42,200
about things and you if they 
have a throat tat, they can get 

1362
01:13:42,200 --> 01:13:43,640
it. 
And I love that about you all. 

1363
01:13:45,920 --> 01:13:48,160
Right y'all? 
Let me that that is the thing. 

1364
01:13:48,160 --> 01:13:49,800
That is the thing for Polly 
Pocket. 

1365
01:13:49,800 --> 01:13:56,120
By the way, if you haven't her 
throat, if your neck is blasted,

1366
01:13:56,160 --> 01:13:59,440
she's sucking your Dick. 
It it's just so sexy. 

1367
01:13:59,440 --> 01:14:01,440
I don't know what about it is so
sexy but. 

1368
01:14:01,560 --> 01:14:05,360
Things are so fine dude. 
What's crazy about it is I have 

1369
01:14:05,360 --> 01:14:08,720
only ever like casually dated 
men with throat tattoos. 

1370
01:14:08,720 --> 01:14:11,160
I have never had a boyfriend 
with a throat tattoo. 

1371
01:14:11,440 --> 01:14:13,960
I don't know why this is like a 
standard that I like. 

1372
01:14:13,960 --> 01:14:18,000
But The thing is, is everyone's 
got a throat they could tattoo. 

1373
01:14:18,000 --> 01:14:20,720
So just keep that in mind. 
Like does everybody keep that in

1374
01:14:20,720 --> 01:14:25,600
mind? 
Listen, if you're tall with 

1375
01:14:25,600 --> 01:14:30,360
tattoos, it it's a type. 
It's, it's a type. 

1376
01:14:30,640 --> 01:14:34,400
Blue eyes, it's a type. 
I have a very specific type. 

1377
01:14:34,720 --> 01:14:39,000
And yeah, I'm excited about it 
too. 

1378
01:14:41,400 --> 01:14:45,480
So Gemini is going to start an 
only fans and he's going to 

1379
01:14:46,040 --> 01:14:48,000
feature. 
I'm going to sell few pictures. 

1380
01:14:48,000 --> 01:14:51,680
I'm dead serious about it. 
I would probably sell panties 

1381
01:14:51,680 --> 01:14:55,480
too, to be honest with you, if I
like knew the like right niche 

1382
01:14:55,480 --> 01:14:59,200
to get into because I just think
like that's super into it, but I

1383
01:14:59,360 --> 01:15:03,040
don't think that I'm ever going 
to be like spreading it on OF. 

1384
01:15:03,840 --> 01:15:07,120
But I would sell feet pictures. 
I'd fuck a pie with my big toe 

1385
01:15:07,120 --> 01:15:11,720
for you if you wanted. 
I like panties like I'm not 

1386
01:15:11,720 --> 01:15:13,120
wearing them for more than two 
days. 

1387
01:15:13,120 --> 01:15:15,520
You can go get fucked, but I'll 
pour shit in there so that you 

1388
01:15:15,520 --> 01:15:17,840
think I did like you. 
Just let me know what you need. 

1389
01:15:20,920 --> 01:15:24,120
Well, that's where we're going 
to leave tonight because it has 

1390
01:15:24,120 --> 01:15:31,320
been a revealing evening. 
From sexual desires to personal 

1391
01:15:31,320 --> 01:15:35,080
needs, we've covered it all. 
But you know, that's how we do 

1392
01:15:35,080 --> 01:15:39,120
here, here in Candy Land. 
Looking like a lollipop. 

1393
01:15:39,120 --> 01:15:42,320
Look like a. 
Anyways, we'll see you guys 

1394
01:15:42,360 --> 01:15:45,920
later. 
We will see you all back at it, 

1395
01:15:45,920 --> 01:15:49,280
but starting in the new year 
we're going to be back every 

1396
01:15:49,280 --> 01:15:54,640
Wednesday and if not, you need 
Adm this Gemini Goddess 420 

1397
01:15:54,640 --> 01:15:58,760
chick and tell this lady you 
want a weekly episode because 

1398
01:15:58,760 --> 01:16:01,920
you miss it. 
Tell me what you want. 

1399
01:16:01,920 --> 01:16:04,200
Tell me what you need. 
Tell me what you want. 

1400
01:16:04,640 --> 01:16:06,000
Tell me what you need. 
Bye, guys. 

1401
01:16:06,600 --> 01:16:10,880
We love you, see you next time. 
Uh huh. 

1402
01:16:12,120 --> 01:16:19,000
Yeah, he says. 
She's so sweet, like a rapper, 

1403
01:16:20,160 --> 01:16:25,640
Like a lollipop. 
Lollipop, Lollipop Lollipop 

1404
01:16:26,560 --> 01:16:28,560
Lollipop Lollipop Lollipop.