Welcome to fucking Dandy land hosted by Rampage and Gemini.
Welcome back to Candyland our season finale of season 2
Gemini. Does it feel like you've been
doing this for two seasons because it doesn't feel that way
here. What it feels like is that we've
really grown in elevated as people in the last year in a
half or a little over a year or even just a year and a half.
Because I feel like, you know, where was a lot of planning and
a lot of things that went into creating the It cast it wasn't
like it was just born overnight and we just did it.
So I do think that like when I look back at like who I was like
two years ago I do think there was still a lot being hidden
like not yet revealed for what my purpose truly was.
And I'm really grateful for that because it's really that time
Motel of like if you got what you wanted, when you wanted it,
it wouldn't have been an alignment long-term or like
wouldn't have been what? I thought it was, and I think
that's so important because people rush in to relationships
and like, marriages and different things in their life
that are supposed to be like a lifelong commitment, and people
don't think things through like, they're making extremely
permanent decisions on those temporary fillings that fade
over time. And I think that's why people
are so lonely because we don't learn about ourselves deeper.
So I think this podcast is invited us both to really learn
about ourselves deeper because We've not like sugar-coated our
life. It's not like oh it was puppies
and rainbows for the last year and a half like you know there's
been Tower moments and I think that it was cool to be able to
grow through those instead of like sitting on that energy or
talking shit or like doing the low vibrational stuff, we like
really built upon that energy. Somebody had messaged me that
listen to last week's episode and was like how does will drama
be like finding you guys? And I for me, I reflected on
that for a minute and I'm like, you know what?
Like we go through the same amount of stuff, I don't feel
like, I feel like we have less than a whole bunch of people,
but with having a podcast or being on, you know, a public
platform at all. We are sharing that stuff with
other people. And so it may seem like we go
through more things, but I think that's because we're so open
about things that we go through. Which allows people to see
behind the scenes on that growth Journey that you're talking
about is like, yes, we are both very different evolved people
than when we first started the podcast.
I know that something for me that I reflect on a lot is my
communication and my ability to go back and forth with having
Asians and not feeling like they probably don't want to hear what
I'm having to say anyway. So I'll just be quiet and let
Paige talk which is how I used to feel and was like oh she's so
much better at communicating than I am and whatever.
And now I'm like that's my bitch and I got to tell her all my
stories. Yeah, you know, I do.
See a lot of growth on you. I'm just a personal level since
we started the podcast because I do think that, you know, it is
important to have a support system of people that really do
want to see you win. Because when you, Find those
people, you become an Unstoppable Force because those
outside energies and those low vibrational conversations become
noise. And it becomes difficult to.
If you don't have, I think especially this year you and I
have experience like having people inside of our inner
circles that were supportive to a point.
I'm supportive until I'm intimidated and then I have to
go let other people know that I don't like what you do or I'm
not liking something and that can be a very uncomfortable
place to blossoming. where you're like gosh I just want to
grow and expand and then you're like but fuck it's so
uncomfortable out here because like everybody's a little spooky
and I don't know what to expect and so being able to I think for
me us really talking about like authentic connections and coming
back every week and having these like check-ins and discussions
about things and like different viewpoints on it has really
helped me with being able to align With energy that serves me
because we are constantly redirecting our energy into that
space. And that's what we wanted it to
be for listeners to. Yeah.
Because when we entertain that low vibrational energy, like
it's a reflection of what we're entertaining and I love that you
pointed that out because long-term, as you grow your
going to leave people behind, you're going to leave behind
people. You never thought would do you
wrong or You never thought wouldn't be standing beside you,
or whatever, you know, and I love that we've grown so much in
such a short time because the time is going to pass
regardless. You can look around at people
that are doing things that intimidate you and make fun of
them or be upset or triggered by that energy.
Or you can get up off your ass and go after your dreams because
you will be less, worried less intimidated, less stressed.
If you're exude Any energy into something and you're creating
something that you're proud of. And I think that's what I really
feel about the podcast. That is really bringing me into,
like, this humbling moment is like, I'm just so proud that we
like stuck to it. Even those times where like we
dropped an episode late, or we dropped episodes early.
Like, whatever it was like, we just went with flow.
And instead of being upset about the change in plans, we just
like went with it. Yeah, I next made it is super
comfortable space and something. I wanted to go back on and touch
on that you talked about was like an instant gratification
thing, or expecting things to be long-term that are meant to be
short-term. And I really think that people
being so Hollywood eyes and seeing like romances and
friendships and whatever unfold over a period of like, two and a
half three hours or something. And You seeing something
happening, really fast and then it just cuts off with a perfect
happily ever after. I think that it really puts
unrealistic expectations and two people romance wise, friendship
wise, and people do lose the understanding of.
Like, this is a perfectly scripted thing with multiple
people in here, manipulating these relationships, to make you
feel that way. And I think that there are a lot
of people who were They use glamour magic or it's just a
part of their personality are really good at writing scripts
for their own lives and so they will make multiple people in
their lives. Think different things about
them and it's all for like a show where a performance and I'm
not buying tickets to the circus and I don't want free tickets
either. So stop trying to give me free
tickets to your circus because fuck out of here with that
nonsense that is fucking kid shit.
It is time to grow. Oh up and cut the distractions
quit being Your Own Worst. Enemy, if you use the words I'm
My Own Worst Enemy then you need a few things in my like opinion
first would be personal reflection second therapy like
seriously like quit being Your Own Worst Enemy because you're
choosing that that's your reality that you're choosing and
then like third a lot of people utilize self disempower moment
through Relationships through their romantic Partners like
they date people who take away their power or oh my God, I have
to ask or I can't do that or I can't cut my hair that way or do
the things I want to do, you know?
I see that so often and when people get around me, I show you
that that's all bullshit. And then next thing, you know,
you're going through a breakup or like whatever and that's why
I like, I know when I meet friends and they fall off or
they randomly block me, that it's not anything that.
That I did. It's that me, living
prosperously and happily with no regard or concern about what
they're doing, bothers them. Because they can't stop thinking
about me or they're worried about me or they've seen a
glimpse into my life and now they want more of that or they
want that to be them and they don't like that.
It's me. And that's weird.
And it's not even just me like this is a metaphorical thing
like this happens to everyone and I'm using me.
As an example because I love me, but I also love you and like
love Jim and I and Love whoever the fuck because at the same
time, like we can all win and I know like some people have their
strengths and some people have their weaknesses and it's best
to just utilize what you're good at and then let other people
pick up those other parts and quit trying to worry about it.
All Yeah, you're one of those friends who come around me, and
I'm going to make you believe in yourself.
And I absolutely understand that and I resonate with that because
I feel like inside of friendships, if you have
problems inside of your relationship or you feel
undervalued in your relationship, your partner is
going to end up. Not liking me because when you
come and you hang out with me, I'm like you shouldn't be being
treated that way. You shouldn't be being talked to
that way there. Now.
Okay, so with this conversation, obviously, like, I'm married,
right? And so I do have conversations
with my husband of like, hey, I'm wanting to go and do this
trip where I'm wanting to go do this.
It's not Daddy, can I go and go hang out with my friends?
It's more of like, what's your food truck, schedule?
Like, do you have anything going on?
Those are healthy conversations that you should be having in,
like check-ins that you should be having for like mutual
respect. Making sure that like your
family life is going to be taken care of what you're gone.
But the cook and I think that people confuse those like
respectful conversations and respecting your partner, with
the am. I allowed to go out?
And then somebody throwing a fit about you going out and doing
something, you don't deserve to be treated.
Like you are doing something wrong by having a life and a
person outside of your life partner, you have to have To me,
that is a form of isolation and abuse to me.
If you aren't allowed to go out and have other friendships and
other conversations, if your partner was to find out that you
are venting to your friend or getting their perspective on
something, and they're mad about it.
That's because they don't want somebody else giving you a
different Viewpoint and then, possibly being wrong inside of a
situation. And you and I are both the
People that are going to be like, what?
Like not in a judgmental way. But in a has nobody fucking told
you you're worth lately because it's not that.
Yeah. And I cannot even express what
you said, even more like that is the facts.
And I am always that friend, especially that for it.
Like when I'm just a friend with someone, I am really big on like
they'll come to my house and if it feels like a vacation when we
hang It's probably because you're living in Hell somewhere.
Like, you know, and I hate to see that because I can tell when
people isolate themselves or when they project onto me like
because the partner or the person will put ideas in their
head, like, well, she just thinks she's better than you or
she just thinks her life. So figured out so she can tell
you what, yours or whatever. And I lost that friend that of
like, 15 years. Remember, I told you all about
that earlier. In the year, she texts me was
like, Like, ever since you started reading tarot, were not
aligned your subtweeting me or talking about me, whatever.
She messaged me on my birthday this year and said, hey I've
been thinking a lot about you, I hope you're doing well and I
didn't, I didn't say anything because at the end of the day,
baby girl, you thought your life was better off without me and
that was what back in August. So it's a year later ancient
change for you and I'm elevating to the fullest and you know, now
deep down in your heart. You knew then as well, but it
Wasn't me. It was you and you were upset
that I was thriving and around that same time.
There were several people that exited my life and like, it's
weird to be like, I got you a birthday present and then block
someone, or I got you a Christmas present and then block
someone, or I'm going to send you a present and then send your
friend one instead. Like, people are fucking weird
and like nobody asked y'all to be generous or caring or show,
emotion that you don't show to others, just because I show
emotion and give people things. Things and like to share doesn't
mean that's your spirit baby. So don't be trying to like
project your insecurities onto me.
Like that's what I find is like a lot of those people who have
those insecure Partners will straight project.
Those insecurities on you as quickly as possible as quickly
as they can because they want to see how you're going to respond
to that. How long are you going to
tolerate that type of friendship?
The one-sided that you don't do enough for me?
Oh my God. You've only given me for new
Wardrobes, but you don't do enough for me.
You know what I mean? Like, check yourself please at
the door. Yeah.
And for some reason to, it's always the people who you're
trying to help the most, and I think it's because I think I
truly think it's because some people can't take help and
support outside of criticism. So, they probably have an
unhealed wound of when people have given them things in the
past or done things for them in the past or given advice.
It's been out of a poor, you Like a judgment probably.
And so they have that unhealed wound where they're not able to
receive from other people without feeling that.
And I know that something for me that I used to feel was I used
to feel like if somebody gave me something I had to I'm going to
give you something right back and it took me out of my
receiving energy and always made me feel on an energy of like
Have to match their energies. So things didn't used to always
come from an authentic place. It came from a, I don't want you
to have one up on me. And so, I had to do a lot of
healing on that because that is unfair to the person who is
gifting, you who's giving to you for you to be like, oh no,
whatever. If we had been, when we were in
Utah and I was doing food because that is like, what I
like. That is how I'm showing Love of
My love language. Each and you kept on being like,
I don't really want this, I don't really know.
Like you shouldn't have to cook for me at eventually been like,
well, let's fucking go cook. Like, you know what I mean?
It like, it hurt. It will hurt your feelings.
Yeah. And honestly, I talked about
this earlier with a friend is like people rejecting gifts by
saying like oh I don't like this.
Or this isn't my style like oh that's fucking weird.
And there are several people. Alive.
Now heard that if like had that issue with it, like their family
or a dynamic, a situation that they were exposed to and I'll
just say that if like someone takes their time to give you
anything regardless, if it's your style or you're going to
use it, except it and then put it in a bin that you re give to
other people or donate like you don't have to keep it but you
definitely. I run into that a lot because I
like my love language to people is personalized gifts like
really getting a gift for it's like wow page.
Like I really like this. Like, you know, I mean, I really
am going to use this. Like, I like being that person,
that where people are like, why are you gave me this?
And I love it. And I think about things like I
set on things, like, I'll be having people as presents for
their birthday like months, in advance just because I'll find
something and hold onto it. Like, you know, But some people
are in that blocking energy, we're receiving something makes
them feel weak, or makes them feel like you, they owe you
something, or like, if you've ever had someone say to you,
like why I bought this for you? Or I did this for you or I
bought you school clothes, or I bought you school supplies or
even just like, basic things. Like, I put a roof over your
head, like, comments like that to a child, I read something.
And it said, the reason you have anxiety about money, Because
your parents talked about bills around you and it made sense to
me because I grew up in a household that was very centered
around money finances. Having not having.
If we had it, we had a lot. If we didn't have it, we didn't
have any there was like, never no middle ground in my house.
There was never balance. It was, you have a lot in the
fridge or you have nothing in the fridge.
And so, as a child, like, hearing a lot of talk about
bills and like things like that, in my early adult life had me
heavily. Focused on money because I
didn't did it want to live like that.
And so when I talk about money, now I come from a place of
peace. I don't mean like, oh my God,
like oh, just fix your credit idiots.
Like that's not what I'm saying. I'm just saying like it's a lot
more common sense when you're not fighting a system that it's
going to exist. Regardless, if you participate
regardless if you know what the fuck you're doing, you're still
going to pay taxes. You're still going to have a
credit score and you're still not going to know how to fuck to
use it if you don't learn. And Don't want him back.
It's like, people don't want to invest in my credit score, just
keeps going up and I don't care what people want to do.
It's the inevitable of what we signed up to do as humans that
were fighting that creates an imbalance in the system if you
just give and receive imbalance. If you just do in Rest In
Balance, if you just plant and think and balance.
If you create in receive or whatever, the balance needs to
be, at the time you will be okay.
You will have what you need. You will drive a better car.
You will have a better job. You'll be like Gemini and go
from one podcast to three and three years.
Like you know you don't see that coming.
When you start your first podcast that you're going to
have three, you don't see whenever you start a business
that you're going to need employees in the future.
Like you don't see those things because you're not supposed to.
If Spirit was like well around age, 27, you're going to meet
the love of your life at 32. You'll have a kid at 44, your
dog will die. You know, like you don't want to
know those things like you might think you want to know those
things but you know, No, because if I had been told three years
ago, and three years, you're going to have three podcasts.
I would have been so fucking like how I work full-time.
I like I'm so I was so sick. Three years ago to like I just I
cannot imagine knowing all of the stuff that I was going to do
now. I would have felt extremely
rushed to do things in a certain amount of time.
Things wouldn't have worked. Organically unfolded.
I wouldn't have been patient and waited for things to happen
because I would have consistently been feeling like I
needed to go and make those things happen.
Is you and I have started the podcast knowing.
We're going to do a season of interviewing people and then
we're really going to just like want to be solo.
I think that would have liked not helped us to progress
naturally to that, and it would have been forced and
inauthentic. Yeah, and that's what I'm
wanting everyone to hear. Like you don't want to know.
Milestone. But when you are tapped in
spiritually and you're using your intuition, you're going to
know what you need to know, like you're going to know what spirit
is revealing and what's important and what is valid.
And I think that that's what's really important is like I
didn't see even being so tapped in where I would be a year ago
from now. Like I remember a year ago
setting in my room like these are the moments that you're
going to look back on and be like, wow.
Like it's really big. Building something there.
Like I was really doing something there, you know.
And like that's right when we were like starting the podcast
and stuff, so like the momentum of like we were going to do by
weekly episodes and then we went to weekly like we shifted a lot
of Dynamics early and I think that, you know, it would have
felt rushed or pressured and that's why I like organic energy
and just going with the flow and not being so like in your head
about things. I think is important and that's
why like the swords and the tarot or all about like mind and
mental chatter and really the whole sort of Journey isn't
comfortable, like nothing about the sword journey is
comfortable. Most of the cards are
blindfolded, or crying or dead, and that's just the facts.
And when you're down, you don't ever think you're going to be up
again. And there's a quote, from a
movie, the movie Blow with Johnny Depp and the dad is like
talking To him really serious and it's about like, you know,
when you're down you don't think you're going to be up and he
goes in this big spill and it makes me think like, a lot of
people don't see the other side. When they're in that darkness of
a spiritual awakening or a catastrophic event or someone
passes away or something happens, that significant, that
is a catalyst. We don't see the other side of
it, but if you do persist like it unfolds differently than if
you're like, if New everything I was laughing about you saying
blow because I was like we've had you mentioned blow and then
when we were together at the Airbnb, we were watching about
that like lady Mafia leader, whatever and I I don't know.
And then I started laughing about how when they busted into
her room. She was reading the Bible and
she's just like not all moms feel lady.
I'm reading the Bible and then we also watched the hey, A over
while we were there and getting roofied and shit.
So I just love that the best quotes really do come from drug
inspired activities. Well, nothing can beat the
crackheads from last week. I mean, at least, you're here in
one piece and the really amazing thing is like any drama that
we've had is only to show us that were responding differently
because it does not matter if you are the most evolved
motherfucker or You're a monk. Somebody's going to try to stir
the pot with you. Like it doesn't really matter
how prosperous or, you know, authentically or elevated that
you're living. The darkness will always try to
come, put out your light, but that's why your Force must be a
force to be reckoned with and you must elevate your mindset
when it comes to what you really want and what you've been handed
because most of those things Are not hand-in-hand and even though
we're like, well, these are the cards I have and this is what I
want, but I can't have what I want.
And that's your problem. I think that a lot of people
really do think. Oh, okay.
So if I'm working on myself, spiritually, and I like, raise
my vibration or whatever, then I'm just not going to encounter
bullshit anymore. And that is our whole point is
that that's so not the case the difference is and keeping that
vibration. The difference is how you
approach and process situations. It's not that we don't go
through the same things at. These are what our mindsets are
while we're working on. Going through it.
Hey, we had all of this drama happen.
That's what we learned. We learned that we already knew
things we needed to trust our intuition.
We needed to work more on our protection magic.
We really needed to be in each other's communities more.
And instead of trying to To be involved with each other but
have a respectful difference. Like if we're going to do this
we're going to do this and we're a fucking team, like it really
just depends and some people would have experienced that and
shut their businesses down. They wouldn't have done what
they were doing anymore because because they felt betrayed or
taken advantage of or whatever and and fuckin Oregon last week.
We could have been, like, earlier this week.
I guess we could have been like, oh no, we're going to stay here
another night because we still have work to do.
Like, you know, whatever but we're like we're all trusting
intuition and bouncing. So that's the overall amount of
money is going to have me going or staying or being somewhere
that I feel unsafe. I don't give a fuck.
I promise you. I will lose two three, four,
five hundred dollars and not go somewhere that feels unsafe back
to. Whenever I went to Detroit that
original Airbnb, in Daytona Beach.
Supposedly said it had roaches. I wasn't going there.
Not a chance in hell. Well, and then we go to the real
hell on Earth and I'll never ever forget that trip because it
taught me a lot. You can't visit everywhere and
stay in an Airbnb. Some places.
You're just going to have to spend the money on the hotel if
you want to go there because at least I Hotel I could have
called corporate. Like there's there's levels to
it but are being Vis. Customer support is the absolute
worst thing I've ever dealt with.
And I promise You anyone listening who considers using
Airbnb, they are not vetting. These homes.
So just because I have a home that has doors and windows are
conditioned and heat is optional.
I can put it on Airbnb. I stayed in a home and
Indianapolis late last year that I promise you, the lady had
glued affirmations. Remember, I told you all that,
like Post-It note vision board loot, To her wall in the back
and then food in the fridge, this lady picked up and went and
stayed at her boyfriends, her boyfriend, or wherever her
brother's. I don't know, I don't care.
But she picked up and I could have went in her panties or and
Peak with the fuck she had. Now, that's weird to me.
How are you going to let someone literally sleep in your bed?
And you know, like I mean, let's just be honest, they say Say
they're changing sheets and all this shit, but who's to say?
They are So yeah, this is the first time that I've ever booked
an Airbnb that I ever stayed in an Airbnb.
And I more than likely, I will never do it again this alone.
No, he stayed in Airbnb. Okay, well, then that if we even
paid for that, and if it was even a thing, but what I paid
for it on my card, what do you mean?
We paid for that. I don't think homegirl had to
pay for our stay. I think homegirl pocketed are
cast the whole fucking time. I consistently thought that but
that's just me, I think I've told Jackie that too.
So you think that she got the Hook-Up from her friend and we
didn't pay to stay there. I think that she got the Hook-Up
from her friend. I think that she took our money.
I think that's why the whole time.
She was like, don't worry about gasps.
Don't worry about this, don't worry about that.
What I think happened because she felt guilty because he felt
guilty and that's why she was like here.
I got this pain for you and all this other stuff.
Absolutely 100%. Well, I just know that at the
end of the day you can't travel with everyone, you can't stand
Airbnb everywhere, I don't care how good the reviews are, they
are lying. And you know what's Wild is I've
learned that they'll reduce the rate to like 40 or $50 a night
and get a bunch of good reviews because Of course, if you stay
at a mediocre place for $50, you're going to be like Tim was
great. Communication was on point.
There was a bed with pillows, you know what I mean?
But then, if you pay 250 a night for the same thing, your reviews
are going to be a little mixed when you just spent five hundred
dollars on this mediocre smells like Grandma's dungeon.
We stayed. So this place that we got was
like 450 or some shit like that or 487 for tonight's and so when
we booked it we were both like this is going to be a nice
house. Like whatever it's going to be
amazing, house itself is great. They don't tell you that you're
on the sidewalk and fucking crack city and Airbnb to talk
about the Airbnb, customer service.
Then you until you about the customer service experience.
Baby. First of all, I was on speaker
phone and the car while we were driving back.
So Tanya my assistant and my sister-in-law heard it over
here, I need to work an upgrade your call to the next assistant
and then you talk to somebody and he'd be like, oh I actually,
I need to escalate this this bitch escalated.
So fuck it, I don't know where we ended up.
We escalated so fucking high up in the ranking and their thing
was Air B&B is not responsible. Well for the community that
people's homes are on site of, so it is what it is.
And I said, what would have happened if the person who was
breaking in next door, had broken in to the house and
something had happened to us like this Airbnb.
Take any responsibility for the homeowner not telling anybody
about the neighborhood or anything and their thing was we
talk to the host. They didn't they didn't answer
on that. We talk to the host.
She's not willing to do a refund.
And and these are the policies of Airbnb we have to follow
them. That's exactly what happened in
Detroit and they were no help. When the guy literally three
hours after check-in had literally still not sent us the
address because he wanted to make sure that the check-in
process had started on the app so that there was no partial or
no refund, in general there. I mean, a lot of them, they
don't even have refunds, like I canceled one, I didn't even go
and I lost 50%. Like I almost every time, like I
didn't even get there, I didn't even get to go.
And some of them I cancelled months in advance like three and
four months and I still had to pay 50%.
So that's why I'll yeah, I don't know, I'm few and far in
between, I'm going back to hotels because honestly, every
time I said a hotel, like it's been really nice.
People are like, how can I accommodate you?
And honestly hotels were struggling so bad during the
pandemic, because airbnb's were more free for all and you didn't
have to wear masks and it was a lot less stress.
So people started opening them in abundance.
Well, then hotels have bounced back baby and they've really up
their shit. A lot of the hotels I've been in
recently have been really nice, very accommodating and just
overall like a really great experience.
But I tell you we went and we stayed for our anniversary at
this, like themed hotel and the one that we got was the Oregon
Trail. And so the hotel is owned by
Mormons, but they had cauldron baths.
They had bath salts. They had spelled Rolls and all
kinds of stuff in the thing. And I was looking at it.
And then I'm looking at the kid at the front desk.
And I said, isn't this owned by Mormons and he goes, yeah, and I
said, but you guys sell like which he things like cauldrons
and spell jars and stuff and he's like, yeah, and I was like,
that's pretty cool. And he's like, yeah, they'll
sell anything to make it Aller and it just fucking made me.
Let this kid had to have been like, I don't know like 17 and
yeah, we will hell. Yeah brother.
I agree we sure will. Dad, brother, trying to make a
dollar. Every time you say brother, it
makes me think of Hulk Hogan, and I always just your brother
in the Brethren, the Brethren. Look at my cute hand, they when
your shoulders popping out all your shirts and you're like,
yeah, brother, brother. Those are cute.
Handmade is that by the lady? You sent me earrings from?
Yeah, it looks like her art. So Polly sent me these this
whole array of roach clips and earrings from this lady near
her. And so, I think that I recognize
the red beads because I got those ones from her that are the
black safety pins with the red beads and there are so fucking
amazing. She's fire.
She really does amazing work. I love her work.
I'm going to start featuring it. I'm going to start doing a
monthly giveaway as well on my patreon and I'm doing them for
my classes now. Yeah fuck yeah.
Well I should be honest, I think giveaways every month on patreon
a, such a dope idea. I do it for the Witchcraft boxes
and I think that's it's a really good way for you, to be able to
use your gift. Skipping gift.
And though, honestly, and I have a lot of really cool stuff.
If that I like stockpile in abundance for people like us, I
like buying stuff and I like putting stuff together all the
time. So I'm going to start doing.
I'm actually going to start selling spill kids.
To speaking of you getting stuff together, can we talk about your
artwork? Yeah, I'm getting back on the
artwork, train, I cleaned out my art closet, we was cleaning out
the closet today and I got it popping up.
I went off today and I got this hung up and called Vic.
Clean and I got all the art stuff out.
I got a whole new just set up with organization and I spread
out my new plants. I've been repotting plants like
I'm feeling artsy. I'm feeling excited.
Summertime, baby. Bill artsy-fartsy.
I like it and you're going to be selling your artwork and what
people just pay shipping Well, I'm not, I'm not selling it.
I'm only making it for people on patreon.
So join patreon. And then, if you pay shipping,
I'll send you a painting, an 8 by 10.
Yeah bitch. Something shipping I want it.
Yeah. Shipping I like flat rate for
paintings because they have to be in a bigger box Orleans like
15 for the box that I have to use.
But it just depends. I've been sending paintings out
recently and it's been hitting a little different, and honestly,
art is such a great expression for your intuition and being
able to use your intuition so Spirit can like connect with you
on a deeper level, creating something from nothing like
looking at pain, or looking at a medium.
Mm. And creating something is
connecting with Spirit. It is a channel and form of
spiritual work and all artists are channeling some type of
spiritual communication to Earth through their art.
Whether that's music or are or, you know, you take junk and turn
it into treasure, it is all a art form from the divine I had
been having a my old job. I had a patient who she was
talking about, how she was doing different kinds of paintings and
she would go out into nature and she would like paint the
landscape or whatever and I made a comment like, oh, I wish that
I was artistic or something like that, but there's no way I could
do that. And she went in, she sat down at
my desk and went into this whole thing of everybody has different
artistic gifts and can do things in different ways.
Ways she's like I could never wear makeup for me.
People who know how to do their own makeup.
She's like that is really crazy to me like that's artistic and
she said, people who know how to Interior Design.
That's beautiful. Because I don't know how to do
that and that just really got me.
I think that was when I had first started the podcast too.
So that really got me going with like, oh, wow, like even
communication can be an art form because some people don't have
that. Yeah.
And that's what's really cool about this, like do.
Galloping your own skills and not looking at other peoples
paper. And not looking at like a
blueprint that someone else put out that worked for them.
Because I'll be honest, I go in and out of waves, with all of
the modalities that I use here lately.
I've been really on Reiki and meditation like deep meditation
actual traveling. I've been, like, I know we
talked about it. I've been sleeping in front of
mirrors, and all of my mirrors make these portals.
I've been sleeping in front of Holly like a lot, but I've been
doing it and it's been so cool. Because so many people are like,
oh my gosh, like I saw you on the astral realm and you were
doing all this healing work and you are helping this person and
you are helping me and like all this stuff.
So I do think it's important. Like I don't think there's
anything bad sleeping in front of mirrors.
When I first started spiritual work, I did speak on sleeping.
A mirrors being not not the best, but I personally think
that I've reached a point of elevation that I can.
Maybe it's not for everyone. Maybe like, Connecting with that
much energy when you sleep would leave, you feel fatigued or
tired. But her me, I'm like a mirror
freak. I live in a house of mirrors.
I probably have over 15 years of my house.
So yeah. But the difference is that
you're inside of a spiritual space where you're taking care
of your mirrors, where you're washing your mirrors, where you
clean your mirrors, where you cleanse your space, all of the
time where you're in control of the energy in your space, people
will go and buy funky a smear Jurors that antique shops and
all this shit and then just have it face their bed, not knowing
what they're doing. Absolutely, the fuck not.
We are not even though I don't like, I don't like condone
getting The Grudge mirror but almost all my mirrors have been
thrifted at some point. But I like literally at this
Airbnb I made a tick tock, we literally put a sheet over them.
There was a mirror on this old ass armoire facing the bed.
I'm like the fuck note and my assistant came out, so curved
mirror out. She's like I'm not fucking
sleeping with this shit even before she knew.
Honestly, I'm just like only gonna go to hotels and sketchy
areas like if I don't know the area and I know this are like if
you're going to go to Nashville, you can probably say an Airbnb
was going to be about six hundred dollars a night but like
in Kentucky it's the same way I told you that before.
Like there are a lot of areas that are trying to become
up-and-coming but yet you walk down the street and you don't
know what you're about to be working with and that's just not
safe. It's not safe because Airbnb is
not coming ever to inspect these homes.
They don't know if they have roaches, they don't know if they
have bed bugs. No one is inspecting them.
There is no like code and force like there should be a code
enforcer and every city and state for Airbnb that
periodically can show up on the property address and take a
peek. I personally think that Airbnb
should invest in people who have to go and check out airbnb's and
do a checklist on the house and assess the neighborhood and
other stuff, they should absolutely have some kind of
like, you could go to stay in creepy, Chuck's house and end up
in his basement. You know what's crazy is like
you show up and you don't even know if the person who lives
there is there they could be in of like a basement.
That's really fucking creepy but you're right.
Yeah, I mean that's the thing is like I've stayed in airbnb's
that were in people's houses before.
Like but like ritzy as rich as houses that are like massive and
it wasn't a problem but you know, you stay at the wrong
house. Yeah, I don't and I didn't
understand that. So to correct myself from
earlier, I've just never booked like my own air B&B or been the
person who is in control of like choosing where to go and reading
reviews and whatever. And so I I'm a little extra
annoyed about the situation just because I read so many reviews
and I did so much research and I you go and Google Pendleton low
crime rate. Hi crackhead rate, low crime
rate is that what it says? Yes.
Well doesn't say hi crackhead. Rate.
That is from yours. Truly, you can quote me, it says
that it has low crime and so we were all like joke.
We're going to be in a great space and we show up to the
house in the house. Next door is the lack of Tainted
and their Pit Bull is shitting in the dirt on the front yard
chained up to the post and you're just like I got questions
bad but we were inside completely fine.
Our problem was that we left the premises.
Could we just in stayed inside that night?
And not gone and ventured out, okay?
But it's the fact that we removed ourselves, and then we
saw her surroundings and we're like, What?
Yeah, honestly, I feel like Airbnb is such a hit or miss
opportunity and I think they're starting to go to shit because a
lot of these people took out second mortgages, Mortgages and
now the markets not great. Like now people are not wanting
to pay $400 for your Airbnb because they realize they can
stay in a hotel or go on an all-inclusive Cruise or do
something else really fine and not pay for your shit box house
and this whole not like non return policy or I'm sorry, Nan
refund thing should be unacceptable.
If I'm canceling 21 days or more out for my trip.
Is you 100%, that should be non-negotiable from Airbnb but
Airbnb. Let's every host set the fucking
schedule and shit and that's bullshit.
I don't think that they should be able to do that.
People are taking advantage of people on that app.
And to be honest, after I go to Salem Massachusetts and stay in
the Air BnB that I have booked currently, I won't be staying in
any other airbnb's period. And honestly this are be of he's
in like a very nice house. Like, in these People are going
to be home. So it's going to be, it's like a
really rich couple though like, oh, Rich money.
So I think maybe you're going to have like a butler.
I think it'll be fun. They have a really cute dog, I
saw in the picture. Okay.
Cute dog. Rich old people.
I like it. You could come away with a new
Grandma and Grandpa. You could I know they could be
like wow we're going to adopt her and that's our new kid,
that's our job, invited me and my family to Christmases.
Thank you. The one thing I do want to say
though that I'm really grateful for the podcast is like the
reflection going back and being able to listen to old episodes
and just see how much we've grown and see how much we've
elevated? Is really important.
I feel like that is such a Monumental thing because a lot
of people don't journal and they don't reflect and when you look
back your life is going to look like a blur because all you're
going to have is a highlight reel from your Facebook
highlights and memories on Snapchat.
Like you're not going to have any core like today was really
tough but I overcame it energy. You're just going to have your
highlight reel of photos. You're not going to have the
moment that you had a breakthrough documented more.
More than likely. So I encourage everyone to like
make notes in your phone because making those in your phone.
In a specific folder, you can find things and you can search
them, you can search numbers or colors or names or I like to
like write things down so I can find them later and I think that
it's important to just expand on your life and not let it fly by
because you have to make the most of each day.
You have to take the 24 hours that we have and utilize them.
If not you're the one that you're going to be blaming when
you're on your deathbed. Like you're the one, you're
going to be upset with whenever you look back and that's what I
think the podcast is doing for me is like this is something
that like we can see it build and like we have a intimate
following and I love that because we've grown like
friendships and bonds and like sacred connections with people
through our podcast and through things that are normally just
bottled up waiting to be expressed from people.
And I think that's what's really cool is like we can see how far
we've come with that. Yeah that's that is my favorite
way to track our progress. I think that some people track
their progress and Things by like how much money is this
making me? What am I you know receiving out
of it or whatnot and for me the growth that we have both gained
and also you know growth in ourselves but growth in our
friendship like we've I feel like we're so obviously we
didn't really know each other at the beginning when we started
Our Goods, the podcast. I don't know if people really
know that but like we have conversations and we would talk
about stuff but we didn't know each other like we know each
other now. Yeah, I would say that, like
when we started the podcast, it was more like, even my own mom
was like, you don't know that girl, like you're just going to
start a business with her. You're just going to invest this
money into this stuff. Like my mom was really the one
that was like, that could go south really quick because you
don't know her. And I remember thinking, like, I
really feel Like I do know her enough that like I don't think
that it's going to be like that and I feel like the dedication
and like the flexibility that we've had is really helped
because there's never been that moment of like oh my gosh you
always cancel or you always change plans and I'm so sick of
it. Are you don't make our podcast a
priority. Like we've never had a
conversation like that. So I'm pretty sure like the
longevity of our of our stuff is going to be amazing because a
lot of People get something good, that's working.
And then somebody needs to be the leader or somebody's got to
be number one. And number two or somebody's got
to be the originator and the Creator and the follower
whatever. And I feel like with you and I
like even like with the whole Tick Tock thing and just like
you've really grown on tick-tocking your own way and
I've kind of backed off like and I've never once been like, oh
it's a competition or something like you know, like people want
things to be. A competition but like when you
give it your energy and you put attention into stuff like you're
going to be rewarded. And that's the difference with
people, like the ones who show up at the gym and ones who never
go. Like you're not going to get the
rewards that you think you should be getting if you don't
put in that effort and you don't actually go do the things and I
think that's what the podcast has shown me is like you can
talk about it and you can pretend you're going to do it,
but if you are not doing it then shut the fuck up about it
because I I'm tired of hearing about what people are going to
do. Well, when a part of that too,
is how much action we have to put into things to do the
podcast, like it's an action to get us, both able to do
something at the same time, it's an action.
So then sit down and record it. It's an action to edit it and
post it. It's an action to promote it to
talk about it, be about it. There's a lot of A lot of people
who just talk about what they want to do because they don't
have the consistency to have the action, we've back-to-back been
doing that for two years you know together now and it just is
like patients because you're not going to put a podcast out and
have thousands of listeners like patience is a virtue.
It doesn't matter if you have 70 thousand followers on the
internet, like, only about 1% Of those people are going to follow
you to what you're actually doing.
The people. They want to interact with your
free content but only one percent of those.
People are going to come invest in you and I feel like we want
to make it worthwhile, whether we're talking to one people or 1
million people like making it interesting and making it
unique. I don't ever want someone to be
like they just regurgitate XYZ. Like, I don't even care about
current events. Like, I don't care about what
other people care about what I care about.
Is filling prosperous and happy and being in love with myself
and my body. And what I do every day.
Those are the only factors that I care about.
So if you disrupt any of that flow, you gotta go and I won't
deal with it. I love though that our podcast
has already surpassed like think it's like 85% of podcast, only
have ten episodes so it's really cool that like we've already
like beat out 85% of people that start something and do less than
10 episodes and dropping the ball.
I mean, we have a statistic of Our Own by just being two women
able to do business together that in and of itself is a
statistic let alone, we do it. Cross-country, not even being
near each other, we still do promotion together.
We, you know, like, there's a lot of things that we do that.
I don't think that we sit down and break down like, wow, this
Parts really unique. This part is unique, and yeah.
It is very unique and honestly, a lot of women can't even be
friends are actually wholeheartedly support, their
own fucking friends, let alone do something that involves money
or success or recognition or any type of support.
Because I know for a fact, a lot of people could not handle the
things that you, and I have already weathered and like, put
behind us like no longer speaking on it.
No longer giving a fuck about it.
Like, a lot of people like you said, what if shut Down their
Pages, shut down their businesses, shut down promotion,
went into a Hermit mode. Went into a depression wind to
their in real life friends or went back to the bar and talk
shit about whatever. You know, at the same time, like
there's a big line that you cross when you go onto your
spiritual path and it's am I willing to do this alone?
And you've got to make that choice and if you're not, you're
not cut out for this path because if you think someone's
going to Be there or because you started this journey with
someone even your partner, even your own mother, whoever you may
have to come to a circle. Word, you're running in circles
and you're not getting anywhere. And then you finally realize
that this person this situation, this energy is keeping that
cycle in that Circle alive and you have to be the one that says
this is enough. I'm done.
That's a lot of accountability for people to take, though.
It's not always. Once you start doing it, I feel
like it more effortlessly happens, but doing that, in the
beginning is really difficult. And I think that it's a lot
easier for people to we've talked about it before to not
really like listen and take initiative on the direction on
their path and on having follow through with what they're
speaking and communicating and aligning themselves with people.
Who are also going to want that for them.
It's also People who don't want to see other people, when do not
attract, people who want to see them.
When you're constantly attracting somebody who wants to
be dominant over you, who needs to feel like they are the
prettiest and that they are the best and whatever.
I personally have seen people who have been your friend and
particular who I can tell are your friend because they don't
have anything going for. Elves and you boost them up, but
when you look at it, you're like, but what does that person
provide for them? Oh, that person provides that
like, I don't understand sometimes what people provide
but I can see what you're providing other people.
And it's funny to see how we don't discuss those things.
Because, that's not our business for each other.
We don't, we've never done that. And those people have all
naturally removed themselves from your personal space.
Face and it's nothing that energy was ever directed at or
whatever just like, huh? I kind of noticed this and what
do they? You know, ya think things
naturally Fade Out and that's what I was speaking on earlier.
Like, making those permanent rational decisions on temporary
fucking feelings. It's like the page of cups
energy. Yes, that initial chemistry that
initial love at first sight. That initial ha or that initial,
whatever that when that first taste of Freedom, whatever the
fuck it is and people don't understand that too much of
anything is too much. Can be good.
It can be bad, but too much of it is always going to be
detrimental and it's just like the billionaires on the
submarine. People will find the dumbest
things to spend their money on when they have too much of it.
And it's hard for me to feel sympathy for people when you
don't help other people with your resources.
That you're hoarding, and I don't have much sympathy when,
now, we have to utilize Community Resources for your
dumb ass because that should come out of your bank account
Bank of America. Sure wire transfer transferred
that, I guess to the government, since we had to come bail you
out. And it's like I hate how
corporations constantly do the wrong thing and cut Corners to
maximize profits and then it's the American people.
Or any people, a community sense that ends up taking.
Care of the Dirty Work and ends up suffering the most, and it's
the people at the bottom of the chain that get the most
suffering, and it's not fucking cool.
So, I can't feel sympathy. I don't give a fuck her people
who are hoarding resources. Because I know for a fact, once
I hit a certain point of resources, it's going all back
into. I'm starting to cat form first,
but it's going to be like the Cat Cafe on crack because some
be a cat Farm. But at the same time, like
animals don't have a voice so that's where I'm starting but
like it will definitely move to children and women of course.
But for me, animals are my first mission besides what I'm already
doing to help other people now. But at the same time, I feel
like these people don't do enough for others.
So at the same time, when you're cutting corners and you play
stupid games, you win stupid prizes.
I would also like people to pay attention to things that happen
during these distraction things. If you notice that all of your F
YP is always, you know, Will Smith slapping somebody or a
submarine exploding or missing or whatever.
There's always something going on.
That you're not paying attention to.
And this time the United States just approved to start selling
and public stores lab-grown chicken instead of actual
chicken. So they're going to be
recreating it inside of labs and it is approved for them to now
feed that to the American people.
And that just happened during this whole people are worried
about the submarine thing. So there's Always other things
happening beneath the surface, and inside of simulations, you
have distractions. And I know that not everybody
loves the Matrix references, but it's the thing that I'm most can
like understand and relate to as far as when you're inside of the
Matrix. There are certain things that
you are supposed to be like paying attention to and then
when you look over here, like everything's being revealed,
same thing, Happened with fuck the movie that you were talking
about the other week with Jim Carrey.
Yeah. The Truman Show The Truman Show
like there's always something where you're not supposed to pay
attention to that because as soon as the veil starts coming
on lifted, then you're going to realize that like this isn't
reality and the more that people don't put their energy inside of
what is being forced by down your throat.
You pay attention. Two other things for me, that's
when people are going to feel more aligned with each other.
You're going to actually be putting your energy at being you
know putting your energy towards things that are going to make
differences instead of sitting there.
What the fuck are you going to do from your living room,
worried about the submarine? Absolutely nothing.
Are you personally going to go on a rescue mission?
No, you're not. So my thing is the Matrix that
hurts. You also Vince's you to care
about things that hurt, you more, that create more pain and
Agony, that create more fear and catastrophic events, like we are
paying attention to the wrong things.
It is the simple. Switch bait and switch.
You know what I mean? Like, I don't know exactly how
to explain it if you're not looking at it, but if you're
looking at it, you see it your task here is to not entertain it
to elevate your vibration to be the best version of yourself,
and to just live. As a good being living, fully
living consciously living In your heart space and not closing
your heart off, not saying the world is evil.
Not saying money is evil, not saying these dirty programs that
cloud your vision. When you say money is evil, you
reject abundance. You put you reject things that
will make your life easier when you say, oh he trust no one
trust, no one. You're going to attract people,
you cannot trust, it's only going to show you what you
believe. And I know people are like well
I don't, I don't want to attract those things.
I don't want to feel like that. Then why are you waking up and
choosing that? It's like that thing.
Like I woke up today and chose violence, why are you waking up
and choosing misery or pain or Agony or fear?
Because you are choosing? Yes that stuff's going to happen
that universe is going to keep its balance dark and light.
What are you focusing? What are you watering?
Are you Watering your, your life?
Are you starving your dreams? That's something really good to
say. Are you Watering your life or
are you starving your dreams? I also think, I don't know why,
but it felt important to say that nobody could go back to
what we talked about earlier. Nobody knows where they're going
to end up with their goal and if they're going to be successful
at what they're trying to do or if it's all going to work out
the way that they're expecting, but you have to try somewhere.
And I feel like right now with Collective If you there's a lot
of like I want to be doing this, I want to be doing that and
going back to what you were saying was like, you're a lot of
people talking about what they would want to happen for their
life, or what they wish that they have or something.
And it's scary to everybody, like, nobody knows everything.
When they get started on something and I watched vloggers
go from just doing a little janky videos inside of their
apartments. And now they, These huge houses
and all of this lighting and they're doing all this stuff,
but they go back in there, like can't believe that we started
over here and people will vibe with where you are authentically
on your journey because somebody else is sitting there going, I
really want to start something but I don't know how how cool
for you if all of a sudden somebody was to pop up on your
pages and was to be doing a walkthrough of what they're
doing. That's all the things that you
need to start doing like you instead of Of sitting here,
saying, nobody does the thing that I'm wanting to do, or
nobody has the thoughts that I'm having or whatever.
That doesn't mean that you are weird or that you're going to be
doing something wrong. It means that you just found
your Niche and what is authentically you and what would
set you apart from what everybody else is doing and help
pave. A road for somebody else who
thinks like you. And also understanding that you
are the niche like a lot of people in creators go viral for
like a certain topic. That's not really their passion.
It's just a random video that happened to get heated and here
we are, and I feel like you have to be the niche.
You have to be willing to evolve when I started my spiritual
journey, it led me to Art and creating clothes, which led me
to a more spiritual practice, and sort of making candles and
doing Reiki. And then it led to terrible, Oh
and like really doing the psychic energy work and like
Spirit Led me through the evolution and not a day before
like there wasn't no part of the journey where I can look back
and be like, wow, we should have started that earlier because it
all evolved as it should in Divine timing.
And I think that's what our entire podcast is about.
Like trusting the Divine timing of your life, knowing that you
are perfectly imperfect, exactly where you're supposed to be.
See, there's nothing else you're supposed to be doing except what
you're called to do at this moment.
Get off your fucking phone but your phone down in the evenings.
That's the biggest thing where people are like, well, I wasted
three hours on Tick. Tock will stop your grown.
Be an adult. Turn your phone off.
You know, like oh well, what if someone calls what if it's
important? Well, you probably aren't going
to answer their call anyways, so like just turn your phone off
for a little mean I have to give myself.
Certain goals that I'm going to do every night and I have a
routine for myself. So if I'm going to sit down and
I want to be on my phone and I'm like I'm you know what, I have a
show on like this is just lazy time for me.
We all know that like lazy time. I'm still doing something.
So I was like, okay, well if I'm gonna sit here, I need to do
three Shadow working prompts for the next couple days.
I need to make this type of promo for lollipop real quick
while I'm sitting, you know, while I'm going to be sitting
here whatever and then I will give myself a certain amount of
time to be on Tick Tock or something.
Because then you're retraining yourself to use your downtime
and productive ways instead of just Mindless, whatever, because
you're not actually resting either way, because either way,
you're stimulating your brain, you can do it in a productive
way and have a balance, or you can just sit there for three
hours on Tick-Tock and get nothing done.
And then be like, oh, fuck, I was supposed to edit spread It's
for work or whatever, you know. Yeah, and I agree with that.
I mean finding a healthy balance is important but also getting
off your phone and just being in reality is also.
So valid like just go live a little and don't be afraid that
you're going to miss something. Like don't let fomo get you down
where you think that you need to be in the know and you need to
see and know everything that's popping and you need to be in
tune with everything. Sometimes people will drop an
album. And I listened to it a week
later and let it simmer like and, you know, or whatever.
Like you don't have to like rush to do something.
Just because something came out today or show drop doesn't mean
me to binge. Watch all 12 episodes today, you
just don't, you just really don't.
Sometimes people will stop albums in their full of quotes
that Polly. Pocket is spoken herself and
then you can like, quote me as like a co-writer, if you want.
Um, we are So grateful for our podcast and grateful for the
growth and just to be able to look back on this and just see
everything. As it's unfolded, we're coming
back. It's going to be Leo season and
August, I don't know exactly when it will be, but the first
Wednesday in August. So whatever that is, will be
back, Gemini, anything, you want to say before we wrap up?
I will still be doing our fucking things, so make sure
that you're following has. Suppose you can find our
websites, our social medias and everything Linked In the
description, wherever you're listening will be back on in the
podcast and August but we are not disappearing as humans.
We have so much more stuff. I feel like to that's going to
be coming up in the upcoming season of the podcast and things
that we talked about behind the scenes that we want to evolve on
and offer and just so much. Much.
So make sure that you come back in August to hear about all the
progress. Yes.
In the full moon, circle is July 6th at 9 p.m.
Eastern Standard Time. So, come join us for a full moon
healing Circle. And we're just so grateful.
We cannot wait to come back in August and we will see you next
time in Candyland. Hi everybody.
Bye.