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Welcome back to Candyland. It is 2024.
We have been doing the podcast now for two years and it's
amazing to me how quickly two years have flown back that's
been. Two fucking years.
It's been 2 fucking years and you know how I know that we
started this vision 2022. Dude, what the fuck that.
Like Oh my God, we did. It's been 2 years since we
'cause we dropped it in May of 22.
So it's been two years and we're still here, given all the
content for free. We're still here basically
helping people build an entire brand on what we say.
And it's so beautiful to be the light bearer in Y'all's lives.
I think it's fucking cool the feedback that we get from the
podcast too. And like one of the things I've
been the most grateful for is the feedback that we've gotten
because it's made me realize that like our voices matter,
that my voice matters. And I mean, we've talked about
it so many times, but I just, when we first started, I just
felt like nothing that I had to say was that valuable and like I
had Coven. But Coven is all about
amplifying other people's voices.
And I make it a very strict point to not share any opinions.
And so the fact that that's like broadened and we're able to have
this like well-rounded conversations of different
viewpoints with different people is like that's been the most
beautiful is, is knowing that other people resonate with
things that we say. I love just being able to turn
our conversations into podcast interviews, like to Podcast
Moment because a lot of the shit we say is gold and like that was
just going under the radar. People weren't getting that.
But another thing that I love about the podcast is like you
really see your own personal growth when you're documenting
it along the way. Whether you're making content on
TikTok or Facebook or wherever, you can truly see your growth.
But on the day-to-day scale, it doesn't feel like much is
changing. But then you get to the bigger
scale of like two or three years later and you're like, damn, I'm
a different person now. Yeah, I've been like the TikTok
does the on this day whatever and it like posts videos that
you can look at that you've posted before.
And there are a few videos that I've reshared, but there's so
many videos that I'm like, that's not even me anymore.
Like that stuff that I was talking about then that I was so
passionate about. Like, yeah, I was passionate
about those things, but that was a moment in time and I can see
how it was like stepping stones. So it makes me so excited for
what we have coming up this year because we can look back and see
all these stepping stones that we've taken to be where we are
right now. I've been really trying to live
in the present moment and just like let go of like what next
month is or what next year is and just try to be in this
moment. And the one thing that I look
forward to every week is like connecting with you in our
podcast zone. But then also like connecting
with clients that we've been growing with for the last couple
years, like a couple people have reached out.
Because I'm doing this thing now where all of my monthly clients
are getting their readings like as soon as possible.
I've I used to procrastinate it, but it's 'cause there was so
many dead weights around me that it was like draining me.
So now, like, I'm getting all the monthly readings out in the
first like week or two of the month and I'm feeling so
productive about it. But people are starting to give
me the feedback of like two years ago I got my first reading
with you, decided to sign up for your Patreon, and now here I am.
And then I had someone else say a couple of the things you said
in this reading, Spirit told me earlier today.
Like one girl shout out Samantha.
Spirit told her she needed to get a sound bowl.
She's like, I literally ordered it this morning.
And then your reading came through and she was like, in the
past, I would feel confused about what I was supposed to do.
She was like, but now I feel like I know what you're going to
say before you say it. And I love that.
I love that by providing a space for like, we're open to spirit
and just communicating messages however they'll be and being
like it doesn't make sense, but it's like what you're supposed
to do apparently that then people have the confidence of
being like, well, I've seen you deliver the message and have
that faith, so I'll have that faith too.
And then they end up fucking being all open to messages
coming. And that's what your intuition
is also. But so many Like the biggest
question that I always get is like, well, how do I know what
my intuition is? And I won't lie, there's been
points where I'm like, this question fucking annoys me.
But it's it's something that, like everybody, it's only
annoying because you're answering it 400 times.
If all you do is make waffles and then everybody that you meet
asks you how to make a fucking waffle, you're like, you mix the
fucking shit with water. Report on the thing.
You're good to go, you know? The thing about intuition is
like what I've been taught is that intuition is rapid and if
you think about it longer than like a minute or so that like
that's your thoughts and your ego or your fears or your
programs. And that's why I in my Tarot
class, I teach like the quick, rapid messages, where like you
may not feel comfortable at first giving a message in under
3 minutes, but you're going to. And when you do that, you learn
to trust your inner voice rather than your inner fears or egos or
like limitations. I think a lot of intuition is
blocked by what we want. So that's why it's so important
on the beginning parts of your journey to have a mentor to have
a spiritual person that you trust.
Because I've seen over the years where I've trusted people I
shouldn't have, but I don't shame myself for trusting those
people. It's a lesson, it's a spiritual
lesson, that not everybody that puts money in your face or books
with you or supports you publicly actually supports you.
And some people just want to get closer to you to figure out what
you know that they don't, that they can now try to use against
you. So I think the most important
thing is like putting aside what you want and finding someone
that you trust that can help you build up that trust in yourself.
Because instinctively you're not going to say the first thing
that comes to mind because you're going to be like a red
barn. What the fuck is a red barn?
Even though your client literally grew up on a farm and
they had a red barn that they painted with her grandpa, you
wouldn't know that. But if you didn't say it, they
can't identify that message for you.
So it's like building confidence that like takes a commitment to
your journey by working with a mentor, working with a
practitioner, working with someone that you trust, that can
help you develop that. See and and on the point that
you're making about, you know, sometimes people just get close
to you to like see what you're doing and take from you.
And I think that a lot of times too, what happens is people are
on this journey where they're trying to find like the healed
person or whatever and the person that's going to help them
and they put somebody up on a pedestal.
And as you're getting closer with a mentor, you are seeing
that they're just a human being. They are not a goddess.
They are a regular person going through their own shit.
And they tackle that and handle that spiritually.
And they're showing those tips and those tools with you.
And I think that a lot of times people don't realize how much
energy they are taking from mentors and whatever by
consistently expecting them to always vibrate high and to have
that the only perfection that you're seeing, like if you only
are seeing perfection, then that person's fucking lying to you.
And that's where I think there ends up being fallouts with
things is because people put this expectation on other
people. And I was thinking about that
after I was listening to our last episode, and we were just
kind of talking about things that we experienced the year
before. And when I think about what what
all of the situation had in common was, it was all people
who were telling us all the same thing.
You always make me feel so happy.
You always are so positive. You're always doing this.
You're always doing that. And all of those people had the
commonality of they wanted to be in the inner circle with us.
They wanted to be really close friends.
They wanted to know things behind the scenes.
And as we got more comfortable and open, that's when it was
like infiltrated. And I think that it's because
we're actual, real people and it's like, no, it's not all
bullshit like this is everything that you were getting from the
podcast before. And like who we are as people,
we're like actually that. And it's not fucking different.
I think a lot of people try to shield their own shadow.
So then when you're freely loving your shadow or you're
freely like, yes, I could do this better, I'm improving, I'm,
I'm elevating that, but I still fall back into old habits or
whatever. They're like, what do you mean?
You know, like they like they're not familiar with their shadow
to admit when they're fucking up or when they're needing to
improve. And they're not comfortable in
their shadow in a sense that they need a community or they
need a relationship or a friendship or a job or whatever
to distract them from their own insecurities and their own fears
and their own limitations. And my favorite quote and I'll
say it a million times real healing starts, is when you're
tired of your own shit. And a lot of times people don't
want to fix their shit. So they get married, or they
have a kid, or they get in a relationship, or they invest in
a mentor that's supposed to fix all their problems or fix
everything for them. And it's just really unfortunate
how people limit their growth based on what they perceive to
be the issue. It's like, no, baby, you can't
see your own shadow right now. You need someone to identify
that for you. Don't shoot the messenger.
I don't know what you're mad at me about.
Like you need to heal in a community space because you were
a mean girl or you were this or you were that.
Like a lot of times people put you in a situation or spirit
puts you in a situation so that you can really work through
those limitations. But instead, people shit the
bed. They're like, I didn't do that.
Yes, you did. You know, like, yeah, you did.
They don't. Like Amber Heard and just
leaving your little chocolate morsel right on the fucking
pillow. You know that Amber Heard Johnny
Depp thing? I still don't understand what
they were distracting us from by airing that out like that.
No, but you know what is? There's a celebrity.
I can't think of who it was, but they went as Amber Heard and
their partner went as Johnny Depp, and I thought it was
fucking hilarious. And they were like arguing with
each other the whole night, like they had done like on the stand
or whatever with like little snide jokes.
And people ended up like bashing them online and they came out
with an apology statement and they're like, you're right,
making fun of domestic violence is never funny.
And I'm like, no, like making fun of domestic violence isn't
funny. Talking shit about the Amber
Heard and Johnny Depp thing is funny.
Like personal opinion. Y'all can take that how you want
to. But I there, I I know for a
fucking fact that people were over here cackling about the
shit. I think that the weird obsession
with celebrities has got to go, in my opinion.
Like, if there's one thing that we could leave behind is the
weird obsession with people who have no fucking clue who you
are. Yeah, but I feel like I
personally would have found that court appearance amusing
regardless of who it was. It could have been fucking
SpongeBob and Patrick, although they're famous too.
Somebody if I. But if I told you a non famous
person and we talked about this, nobody would give a fuck because
they're not famous for them. Did you see that Bunny has
Travis Barker's ex-wife on the podcast this week and she's over
here talking about the Kardashians.
But Bunny, being the smart bitch that she is, literally bleeps
out the name Kardashian from her fucking video.
So I did her yearly reading, and in her yearly reading there was
a mention of TMZ being a very, very prominent thing in her life
this year. And then she shared that TMZ is
already reporting on this interview and she said, oh hi
TMZ. And I literally was like, what
did I say about TMZ? Like, I just gave you that
reading like 2 weeks ago. What the fuck did I say about
TMZ? And this is like the first time
that TMZ's ever even acknowledged her podcast.
And I knew it was coming. Like I got cold chills.
Like I knew it. But it's going to be hella
prominent this year. Like one day, Like I think like
maybe six months ago she was like, TMC doesn't care about us.
We're not big enough. OK, well 2024 just knocked on
the door, baby. She's gotten 2000 new
subscribers on her Patreon in the last 24 hours.
And yesterday I I was sitting on the couch and I said, yes,
Mommy, I'm trying to get some of that.
And Brian's like, what? And I was like, Bunny just got
900 fucking Patreon subscribers. I was like, that's fucking
crazy. And I was like that.
Like, that's amazing. And then today it was 2000.
You know, honestly, my favorite part is when she shared that is
that she had 333 post, which is my number that I have tattooed.
So I was like what a fucking Bob.
Like the 333 post and the fucking whole situation.
But my favorite part about her story is that she didn't think
that this was possible and that it is possible.
And like, every day that she does something that, like,
breaks the mold like that, I'm just like, yes, yes, you did
that. It's so cool to watch it happen
to someone that you've seen go through the highs and the lows
and start something from the beginning.
And I think that's why I have the respect that I do, is like
we have seen her from the beginning and then doing all
these things that she didn't even realize she was going to
do. And when you're talking about
like, not supporting celebrity, whatever, regardless of like
what amount of fame she ends up coming into, I love that she's
just always herself regardless. And she uses everything that she
has to not everything, But she gives back in so many ways,
whether she puts it online or or otherwise, you know.
When I say celebrities, I don't like there's an umbrella term
for that. But like, she's an icon.
Like she's moved past that. Like she's not not over here.
Like she's an icon. We're not mingling with the Kim
K's. We're in our own.
Life. Yeah, like she's in her own
thing. I don't know.
I just think that the thing about Bunny is no matter, like
you said, how big she gets, she still acknowledges the little
person. She still makes you feel special
And seeing like when I look back to meeting her four years ago, I
literally was no one. And and I'd never in my life
dreamed that this woman would want me on her podcast.
So when she brought me on and then she's like, we got a new
studio, I want you back. I was just like Bunny sent me
the Addie baby and I'm on the way to where she's at.
OK, y'all can be over here on the Internet but I'm over here
on the way, so I don't know, it changed my life.
But I see her as like just more of like a like a leader and a
philanthropist, like an icon, rather than like these
celebrities who hit billionaire status and don't do shit.
You know what I mean? Like what?
What is Taylor Swift really doing with this money?
What is Rihanna really doing with this money?
Like, besides, like, what are y'all doing?
Like, you know what I mean? I'm not saying that they're bad
people or that you should have to give all your money away.
That's not the case. But it's like, what are you
publicly doing that's making the world a better place, 'cause I
don't see it. I mean, I see a lot of celebrity
who use their platform just to boost like their makeup brand or
their clothing that they do commercials for in the gas
station that are the exact same thing that you could wear if you
went to goodrill and ripped up a shirt and pants for your own
self. But I'll digress on that topic,
because people have spent 800 fucking dollars.
I do want to speak on why celebrities cosplay being broke
by selling people sweatpants and weird things that like are not
fashion. They're just common things.
And I have talked about this before, but they really do need
to do a study on why broke people cosplay being rich by
buying like fake designer stuff, and why rich people cosplay
being broke by wearing sweatpants and whatever, but
then also trying to sell you said sweatpants for $800.
None of it makes sense. Like, I've just really tapped
out on the illusion lately. Like, I just don't care.
Like I'm you, I block and follow.
I think that there's a, I'm just like you element to it.
And people who don't have much, they're always wanting to attain
something more. And so they're wanting to fit in
with, you know, groups, different types of groups.
And the way that you're going to be able to do that is to be able
to blend in most of the time, right?
Because like, generally speaking, a bunch of rich girls
who can go out to a $400.00 dinner don't want to hang out
with Betty, who's going to wear her overalls and can only spend
$40 on dinner. And so if Betty doesn't wear
overalls and she's got some fake Gucci and Chanel on, then you
know you can weasel your way in. And I think that people who are.
Wanting to specifically that are wanting to sell you something
and make themselves look cheaper because they're wanting to sell
you something. It's so that they can be like,
look I'm just like you. I do you know I just happen to
come into money. But we're you know, I I'm just
like you are. I feed my dogs and I brush my
teeth. But they don't.
But they don't do that. Like, they don't even raise
kids. Like, I just can't get behind.
Look at me. Look at me.
Look at me like I can't stand it.
I personally have all the Kardashians blocked because I
don't want to see their sponsored ads.
I don't want to see their bullshit.
And guess what solves that issue.
I block them. If I see a skims ad or
Courtney's fucking workout shit or Chloe's workout shit,
whatever it is, I just be blocking and like I hit report
ad and they'll say why and I'll say it's irrelevant.
I do that all the time. That's one of my favorite things
to do, actually. My favorite pastime is snoozing
people for 30 days on Facebook and when y'all come back, I
snooze you again. My other favorite thing is
blocking anyone who triggers me. Like I just will not entertain
it anymore. Like it's not even that I care.
It's not even that I'm mad. It's not even that I feel any
type of way. I just don't want to see it and
I don't care. You better hope that fucking
Kris Jenner never hears any of our shit because she's going to
sue us for you being like, I blocked them.
They're irrelevant. She's going to be like, are you
talking about my babies? How can she?
My babies that give me 40%? Are you talking about my babies?
How can she sue me? I mean, it's public opinion.
It's free speech. I don't know.
They're. I mean, people sue coffee places
because they spilled their coffee on themselves and the
coffee was hot, and they they sue the fucking coffee place.
I mean, crazy shit happens if you slip on an icy sidewalk
outside of a store. Do you know that because it's on
the store property, you have the legal right to sue them?
What the fuck? Wear boots next time and not
flip flops. One time when I was a kid I was
in like a Walgreens or like kind of like a pharmacy style store.
I don't think it was Walgreens, but they had aisle catchers that
weren't lined up correctly. So they were out in the aisle
and I tripped and like fell. And we.
I'm pretty sure my mom sued them.
I don't know. What I mean you.
Fuck around. But that was actually because
someone installed it wrong and they didn't choose to correct
it. It wasn't that.
It was an accident, like it literally was installed wrong.
It was not right. I mean, I'm real big on get your
money, baby, get your fucking money.
But one thing I will say that I think is really fucking crazy
that people still do this. They take other people's brands,
other people's logos, and they use those little circuit things
and like reproduce something like that's not theirs, like a
logo that they've stole. And I mean my logo, it got
stolen and Sheen made a fucking shirt on it.
So like, I know how it feels for a big box company that you don't
have the money to sue to steal your shit and you can't do
nothing about it except order the shirt and look at it and be
like, wow, this is my logo. You know that the skeleton, the
skeleton with flowers from my logo is now on Canva.
And did you know that there's another creator that made a very
similar one after I'd already posted mine in Canva?
Put the skull on Canva. That's what I'm saying.
Like, once you put anything out onto the Internet, whether it's
a modeling picture, it's a logo, it's a brand, it's mixed
anything, they own it. That's Instagram and Facebook's
bylaws when you post onto their platform.
They could literally take my face and plaster it on a
billboard and say join Facebook and I can do nothing about it if
I posted that on Facebook because they now own it.
Same thing with the AI. Things like when people download
these little AI generators and you put your fucking picture in
there, you know down the road whenever they don't want to pay
extras for movies anymore, that yo ass is going to pop right up
and you're not going to get paid for it and you're going to be an
extra in a movie because it's dummies because they don't want
to pay real people anymore. Where they used to do casting
calls and things like that, you loading your information and
that is giving them permission to use it.
I've never done any of the AI things.
I've found people's videos on TikTok of the like AI trying to
build your photo out so you'll like be in, like it'll just show
like your face or something. And then AI tries to guess what
your surroundings were in that picture and it zooms out and it
gets some crazy shit. And I don't want to be a part of
that. I I have enough fucking
experiences that happen in the astral.
I don't need to have crazy psychedelic trips here in the
Earth Land with AI either. The one thing that I like on the
AI on TikTok is like when it's like cover your camera and then
it like shows something. I do that sometimes.
It'd be like, it'd be like, what's your spirit animal Cover
your camera? Or to be like, how many stairs
do you have to have in cover your camera?
Whatever, I'll do those, I do, yeah, I do those sometimes, but
I don't post them. I put them in my drafts.
But the thing for me with AI is it's really, really difficult
for people to put their art and put their energy and things out
there. So for a database to be storing
this and stealing it and putting it on Canva or putting it places
like, it's discouraging. Because I've seen someone, a
local girl in Kentucky, she makes ornaments and she made
like a Taylor Swift ornament and Walmart stole it and put it on
their website. And it wasn't Walmart per SE
because vendors sell through walmart.com Wednesdays, like a
vendor selling through Amazon with stolen card decks or stolen
whatever. There was nothing she could do
about it because it's fucking Walmart at this point.
Like, she's a small creator and she was just saying, like, how
much energy and time she puts into a design that yes, it's $30
or yes, it's $40, and then Walmart can reproduce it for 15
and make you look like the bad guy, 'cause now I can get it
over here for 15. Yeah, 'cause they didn't put any
of the legwork in. They didn't have to create it.
They're duplicating it. And that's what blows my mind
just in general with like the AI thing, especially when it comes
to like movies and stuff, because y'all have already ran
out of ideas. Like alls we get is recycled as
content. You want to remake a movie from
the 80s three times and it's only 2024.
Like we do not need 3 remakes if we're going to make a remake.
It needs to be better than the first one.
And what I'm finding is that it does not matter what the movie
is, if it doesn't get me in the 1st 10 minutes, I'm back on my
phone. Like my attention span for
movies is so low and we talked about this on Facebook and I got
a shit ton of responses on that. So it's like for one when I be
sharing stuff and y'all don't comment on it.
I know y'all saw it because when I asked y'all dumb ass questions
57 people replied. But it's like to know that 95%
of the people that commented also have no attention span for
movies. Just goes to show you that
you're not making good content. There's not good content.
So if you think a computer or alternate intelligence is going
to do that, I don't think so. I get bored.
Like I I put things on for the background at this point because
I'm fucking bored. I don't want to sit here and pay
attention to what you're doing. I also just feel like the
standard for actors has gone down.
Like I I used to feel like movies and correct me if I'm
wrong, but movies and actors were supposed to make you feel
like you were connected to the story, that it's like realistic,
not, I don't know, I I just don't like it anymore.
I sit there and I like, can't get involved in what's going on
because I don't believe your performance.
And then if I do, then I'm telling everybody about it and
everybody's already binged it and now we've binged the one
good thing that's coming out. So thank you.
Currently I'm watching The Crown.
I'm on season five. I'm waiting for them to give
Diana the Gold Hole Mac Zaruski. I've been waiting the whole show
just to find out how they do her death scene, because a rumor is
that the queen had, like, organized it, played a part in
it. But I'm wondering if they're
actually going to say that inside of the show.
And I know that the Queen used to watch the show, so it'd be
interesting. I personally am just not
interested in what Hollywood has to offer these days.
It's just like nothing about it is inspiring.
And then you've got Netflix, which is so weird, 'cause I want
someone else's Netflix. And then they also signed up and
said I'm part of their household, so it'll let me be on
there for like a week and that won't be on there.
And then it let me back on there last night and I'm like, I don't
get it. But the only streaming service
that ain't got shit on none of y'all is stars.
Stars has the fucking banger movies on there right now.
Like watch Step Brothers the other night for the thousandth
time watch the Twilight series the other weekend ago.
Rewatched Hunger Games like tap in baby.
Because stars they're not playing like Netflix will be
like here's episode or here is movie one and movie 5.
Good luck on finding 2-3 and four.
But Stars is like, no here's everything.
Here's all. Yep.
That's crazy. I love stars.
Have you watched the show Outlander?
Watch Outlander, because I think that you would like it.
Yeah, there's a yummy dude in a kilt in Outlander and it's it's
fucking hot. You know, I personally wish
there were more shows that interested me.
Like, I'm not going to lie, I'm a Pretty Little Liars girl.
That show fucking sucked me in and spit me out and and it ended
like shit, like it was such a good show until they actually
had to tell you who a was. And then it was trash.
It was like there was no way that was a or.
I would have known that was a. There's no.
Exactly. Human possible way that could
have been a the whole time. That's stupid.
And then they only show like 2 examples of how that was a same
thing with Gossip Girl, but continue.
You know what I mean though? I feel like shows do really good
in the middle, but when they have to wrap it up and actually
make it mean something, they drop the ball every time.
Like Riverdale. I fucking love that show.
The first episode, like, it hooks you all the way in and I
almost want to rewatch it. But then it's like they lost
themselves somewhere in the middle.
And then at the end we end up in the 1950s and they're like, no,
it's going to end in the 1950s. Like how, like, we started over
here. How did we time work to the
1950s? And that's where the shit ends.
It's so stupid. Like, I don't know, like shows
drop the ball like that. You show, did you watch that you
show on Netflix? The final season is coming and I
just realized I never even finished Season 4 because it
just lost me. That's what happened to me.
It was so I was, I was so into it.
It was so fucking good. I was like, oh, season four and
season four came out in two parts and I always had watched
the first part and then was like, Oh my God, the second
needs to come. I didn't finish the fucking
first part because I was just like, this is not what are we
doing? Yeah, I watched the majority of
it, but then I saw it because Netflix let me back on there
that I didn't finish like the last two episodes of season
four, 'cause I just literally was like, this is trash.
I don't know. Like TV, the way they recycle
the same storylines over and over again just gets on my damn
nerves. And unfortunately I cannot find
anything I actually like. Which is probably spirit.
Like bitch go meditate, go read a book, Like turn the shit off.
But it's just like, why would I pay 20 plus dollars for this?
Like, no, no streaming service has ever hooked me where I
actually want to spend my own money on it, period.
Like, I just don't. I don't.
If I had to, I wouldn't watch anything 'cause there's nothing
on there anyways. I feel much more comfortable
knowing that no money came out of my bank account for me to
play this background noise. You need to watch Dexter.
Have you seen Dexter? Some.
Dexter was good. I like Dexter more than I liked
you. I think also the Bates Motel.
Have you seen that? That's so creepy, though.
He was like, cuddling his mom and some weird ass shit.
I was like, I can't. I turned that off.
I couldn't. OK, but you have to watch the
whole thing before you just turn it off.
It's incest, though. There was like, incest stuff.
No, but that but, but I can't give anything away and give you
details, but things are not always as you think they are.
And this actually had a really one of the best endings to a
show or movie that I've probably ever experienced.
Really. Yes.
It's been a while since any show has really hooked me in.
Like, just a long while. Outlander and Bates Motel.
I need you to hop on that shit. Outlanders on stars.
Which is what made me think of telling you about it.
And yes. I'm trying to think of like, a
good show. I really liked, like, it took me
forever to watch Breaking Bad, but then when I finally did, I
was like, why the fuck didn't I watch this?
It's so good. But it's a slow show.
Like in the first couple episodes, I was like, yeah, his
wife gets on my nerves and then proceed and you get to like
Season 2 and I'm like, damn, this is good.
But I don't know, like, it's weird, but when things are
popular, I refuse to participate.
And then the moment that they're not popular, I'm like, OK, I can
see it. Same thing with like Twilight, I
would not watch it when it was popular, did not care at all.
And then now I love it. The Twilight for me, I read the
books before they were popping off and super popular.
Like, I remember I got the first two books at the library and
then when I went back I couldn't get any of the other ones.
And the lady's like, oh, they're super popular.
And then I think her series completely wrapped up before
they started making any of the movies.
By the time the movie came out, it was Oh my God, I love the
book so much. And then it's like a weird like
cult following type thing because the movies were nothing
like the books. So, like, I like the movie and I
like the book, but you can't even equate them together
because Edward Pattinson is not the fucking dude described in
the Twilight books. Robert Pattinson.
What did I say? Edward Pattinson, you gave him
his stage I. Don't know what I meant.
You know what I meant? The thing that I have heard a
lot of critics and people talk about is like how bad the acting
is in Twilight, and if you rewatch it, that's awful.
What's her name that played Bella?
Kristen Stewart. Her acting is terrible the whole
time in that movie. It's like she's constipated or
something. It's like, she's like, I don't
know even how to explain it, but re watching it, it's like the
first two suck, but then you get to like the last two and it's
like, OK, it's got good. And I feel like the same thing
with The Hunger Games. Like the first one had so much
potential to be really good. It was good.
But her acting evolved, 'cause that was like her first major
role. And she's from Kentucky.
So, like people I know she babysitted their kids and like,
I know people who knew her. Yeah, Jennifer Lawrence, like
she lived here. Fatness.
Everdeen. Yeah, she did.
But I don't know, like, I mean the fact they casted Lenny
Kravitz in that movie just so random, like just super.
Random, but he was so good. He's fine.
He's been fine, for sure. You know what?
Paul Wall's making this like, comeback right now, and it keeps
coming up on my TikTok. And it's only grills.
It's it's only grills. But the comments are like, Paul
Wall's always been that fucking dude.
He can hit this. His wife is so lucky Dan.
He's still fine. And every time I see him in that
fucking video, the angle, he looks so short and I'm like, I
just like I can't get behind the comment section when we're under
5 two in the video. You know, when you look back at
like that era, the girls era, like as soon as I got adult
money, your girl bought a grill. And I like probably like four or
five years ago. This time I was wearing that
motherfucker and I look back at me and I'm like, who are you and
why did you get a bottom 6, 'cause I don't know.
I don't know. I've never.
Before you were getting your lips done too, huh?
So you had this fucking grill on your bottom row and these little
lips, girl. I don't even know where my top
lip was. I didn't even have a top lip.
I should have got the top because you'd seen it 24/7.
Like when I look back to the evolution of who I am now and
like where I've came, I look so crazy factors ago.
Like not only was I drinking all the time and doing St. drugs and
partying and all that, like I was depressed and I was like in
toxic relationships and in toxic cycles.
So when I look at the glow up, I not only look at it from like a
physical standpoint, but an energetic standpoint.
Like the shit that the old me was willing to settle for or
even accept is beyond me. It's fucking beyond me, 'cause
now the first time communication ain't up to par.
I'm like, look, we need to talk about this.
Or like, if it ain't, if it ain't working, I need to know.
Like I need to talk to you about it.
Like, I don't wait, I don't beat around the Bush.
Like I'm just like we need to air this out.
But the old me was just, it's just so weird when I look back
at that, like, why did you get a bottom 6?
Like, I don't get it. I don't know why.
I was like, you know what I'm going to do with my adult money?
I'm going to buy grill. What?
This is not 1999. I don't know.
When you were talking about, like, how you're going to be
like straight up about, like what you're thinking, feeling
now in your evolution, it just made me think of like, our text
messages. Because on from, like, my
perspective on my end, I'll be like, no, fuck them, fuck that,
fuck him. That's stupid.
No, absolutely not. Stand to your ground with that.
I don't think so. This isn't right.
And then you'll be like, so I'm doing this thing over here
that's like the opposite of what I said.
And I'm like, yeah, girl, that's so exciting.
How do you so supportive. I'm like, don't fucking do it.
And you're like, well, I did it and I'm like, yeah, you did.
You go. She's like, the thing about
Gemini is, it depends on what mood she's in when you ask her
certain things. So like if she's like, fuck
everyone and I'm telling her like, hey, this happened and
it's not really working for me, yeah, fuck them, drop them,
don't even talk to them. And then if I'm like, well, we
talked about it and everything's going good.
She's like, he's great. I'm like, he listened to the
podcast, She's like, we love him, but two hours ago she's
like. He did what?
Like, I don't know. The way that Gemini's set up,
it's like, it depends on a Did she have coffee?
Is her kid screaming? Did she go to the office today?
Did a bill come out of her checking account today?
'cause if any of those, like, things happened, don't ask her
for advice today. Like, just don't even come to
her for advice at all. And then, like, she'll write me
and be like, I'm in a mood. And then I'll be like, what's
wrong? And then we'll start talking.
And like, she's not even in a mood anymore.
Like, there's not anymore. Like earlier.
She's like, I'm going to lay down.
I don't feel good. And I was like, I wrote you and
I said hey. And you just said hey.
I feel better. I did.
I laid down. I puffed on a little cannabis.
I'm sitting here fine. My ears have been ringing the
whole time that we've been talking, so we just must be on
like a fucking frequency together or some shit.
I came prepared with my beanie and a robe and water and a pen,
like I didn't just sit here. About 15 minutes or so ago, my
kid came in the door while you were talking, 'cause I set him
up with animal documentary while we were talking and he goes,
mom, I just saw a whale eating shark.
Then he closed the door. And so I was sitting here trying
not to bust up laughing because there's just, like, so cute.
You know, I love the fact that like, whales have been
destroying yachts and like attacking yachts and boats.
I think that's great. Like they're really doing a step
for mankind here because rich people should not be able to buy
a fucking Q dress yacht and write it off on their business.
I'm sorry, it should be illegal. What gets me is that my family
wanted to go whale watching for years on a fucking boat in my
because we lived in Monterey and they would come and visit and
they wanted to go and I was like, absolutely the fuck not.
The whales are going to tip your boats over, you're going to get
eaten in the fucking sea. I'm not having anything to do
with that. That doesn't happen.
Whales can't flip over boats. Whales are gentle animals.
No, the whale just hasn't flipped your fucking ship yet.
It could happen. And then now look what's
happening out in the fucking wildlife.
Yeah, 'cause whales are sick of people.
Shit they're sick of. They're over it.
And they're not going to settle. They're not settling, you know
they're. Like you're killing our fucking
turtles. I'm tired of finding your
plastic straws. I'm trying to eat this Sprint.
They know their worth and they have boundaries now.
Fact, I'm going to pull the human design card like before
the end because I got feedback from that episode and they were
like, no, I really do like when you pull the card in the middle
because then you guys can discuss it.
Yes, Amen. Amen.
Hallelujah. Just your cult leaders here with
a message. She's now sucked me and you all.
You tagged me the other day. Every cult leader.
Well, I'm going to have to fuck your wife.
Literally, it was a meme and it said every cult leader in
history is like, well now I'm gonna need to fuck your wife.
But no. No what it was God wants me to
fuck your wife. God wants me to fuck your wife.
Oh fuck. And then your friend Stephen
comments and he goes, Wait, isn't Gemini a cult leader
though? 'Cause I tagged y'all both
'cause I 'cause like I always tag him and stuff, but I had to
to tag you both 'cause it was hidden different.
Oh my God. OK, card number 15.
The sign is Gemini and Cancer. The gift is I just showed you
what'd. It say what's the name.
Magnetism. Sorry, knew I was missing
something. Magnetism.
So the sign is Gemini and cancer.
The gift is magnetism, and the shadow is dullness.
The energy of magnetism brings with it a rhythmic coalescence
with the heartbeat of life of the earth and of every living
and breathing Organism. As such, even the most mundane
and ordinary activities transform into opportunities for
expansion and meditation. Life itself is a spiritual
quest. In the places where no one seems
to look, like in a handshake, a smile, a walk, or your inner
dialogue, you don't live just for the peaks and valleys, but
for the space in between. You are multifaceted and
spirited thanks to your capacity for unconditional love.
Others feel compelled to live out their truth, whatever that
may be. Your shadow is dullness.
Where do you resist life? There is a fear within the
shadow of falling victim to a repetitive, dull existence.
It is through this resistance that you might try to avoid the
space in between with mechanisms of distraction.
Rather than embracing the void, move through the shadow by
accepting all of life with full vigor, even the apparent
dullness. This shift will allow all
moments to blossom and bear fruit.
Your themes are truth, Spectrum, Acceptance, and the void.
I liked how the front of the card said Miracles too.
Do you believe in miracles? Where did it say Oh, it does say
miracles. How did you read that?
'Cause you zoomed in on it and you didn't tell us what the card
was, but I just could see miracles.
You have like excellent radar spotlight vision because that
shit looks dark as hell to me. How did you see that 'cause I
didn't even focus on that part. You were zoomed in, I just saw
miracles. Miracles is like a keyword for
me this year. OK, I just want to say that
anybody has the capability to change their life, to change
their focus. Like you don't need anything but
the want to change. And like, Miracles really do
happen naturally. Like when we get out of our own
way, we get out of our own head. We are absolutely attracting
trauma and pain and anguish into our life.
So you can absolutely attract prosperity and abundance and
healing into your life. Like we sign up for different
elements on this journey period. And a lot of times people get so
stuck in one element that they don't see a way out.
They don't see a way out to the next chapter.
And I just always want to remind everyone, it's not about what's
happened, it's about what you're gonna do with that.
You know what I mean? Like, what are you doing about
it? Are you wallowing in it?
Are you blaming your parents? Are you complaining?
And you know, suppressing these feelings with drugs and alcohol
because that's what I used to do.
And I had no issue with that. I thought, these are my people,
these are my homies, That's my roadies.
I'm going to be with these motherfuckers forever.
And then you look around one day and you're like, wow, these
people dragged me down. Like these people do not serve
me. These people are not in my
highest and best interest. And when I chose to break away
from that and choose a sobriety journey and and focus on me and
celibacy and all the things I did, I look back and now those
same people are still fighting for their life, like still
trying to break that cycle. And although, like, I know it's
possible they can't do it in the same environment that got them
sick, the same environment that makes it, you know, attract to
them. Like you have to be willing to
say, you know what, I would rather eat alone than pull up a
seat at the wrong table. And we talk a lot of shit on
here, but it's really true that like both of us have overcome a
lot of issues and a lot of self-proclaimed issues that we
projected onto ourselves. And it is very real that you
absorb that from your family and whatever, but you also get
really amazing things from your family and from your ancestors.
Like it's not all trauma, you also get gifts and abilities.
And I think that sometimes we just need that light.
We just need to see that it's possible.
And you know, we talk everything about Bunny because she's so
inspiring. Like, how could you not look at
her story and be inspired? Like if you don't look at her
story and be inspired, you need to go back and read it again
because she's one of the most inspirational people in my life.
Because she does not give a fuck what you think about her story.
It's her story and she's going to tell it how she wants to tell
it. And that's what I want all of
you all to do is like stop trying to fit the mold and break
that and get out-of-the-box and unlock yourself from the cage
and just be yourself. I think that people feel so
stuck inside of their life and and you can blame other people
for like Oh well my spouse isn't like positive enough and
whatever. And so I don't feel like I can
be positive or I don't you know or they don't like this and so
now I don't like this and and literally you I think people
think that they have to completely leave all situations
that they have going on in their life that they don't like in
order and like do a complete 360.
When in reality you can start cleansing the energy of your
home and doing little things and doing summer pots so that you're
bringing new energy into your home.
And it's affecting everybody in your space.
And you know, you can start doing all of these different
things for bringing in what you're needing in your life.
And you can affect people around you positively by just taking
care of yourself. And somebody was talking to me
recently. self-care came up and they're reading.
And they're like, yeah, but like, I don't ever have, like,
the money for self-care or that's like a big thing for me.
And I don't know how to take care of myself.
It doesn't feel relaxing. And literally, self-care can be
you cleaning your kitchen and lighting a candle.
It can be you taking the time to fold and put your own clothes
away so that you don't feel like you're living in chaos.
And by doing things like that, you change the entire atmosphere
that you're in, which changes your energy and helps to change
the energy of people around you that are already in your home,
that come and visit your home. And those examples that I'm
giving are because those are things that like I'm really
working on and that I've been really paying attention to, and
it's been really helpful to tackle things in my immediate
life as opposed to trying to manifest all this amazing stuff
in the future. Well, when I get here, I'll do
this. When I get there, I'll do that.
Well, no, I'm right fucking here now.
So I need to take care of all the things around me and
recharge so that I'm prepared for if things happened more for
me. And I really support that
because a lot of people underestimate what a clean and
organized environment means for productivity.
Like, I know for a fact that I just sleep better if my sheets
are clean. And like, I feel comfortable in
my space. If I have shit everywhere and
dishes in the sink and all these things, whenever I get done
doing readings all evening, I'm not going to feel like doing
that. But if I do it prior, when I get
done with what I have to do in the evening, I'm going to feel
very motivated and rested and excited to seize the day.
But if you wake up and you know you have a million things to do
and you're not doing them, you're neglecting your own Peace
of Mind. And peace starts within the
home. Unfortunately, as children, we
didn't always have the option to influence our home and our
environment and what we wanted and what we didn't want.
But as adults, you 1000% are in control of your environment when
it comes to those factors, like you just said.
And I think that people underestimate what that will do
for you because maybe it seems like such a daunting task.
Like right now my next task is I really want to organize my art
stuff so I know where everything is rather than just put into a
closet and actually get back to making art.
But it's baby steps. Like, I haven't gotten in that
spurt yet, but I'm one of those people that like 2 AMI can't
sleep and now I'm cleaning out the cabinets or like fucking
3:00 AM. I'm doing random shit like it's
always at a random time. So I just always encourage
people that when you get that surge of energy, it's worth
being tired tomorrow to get everything done today or get
everything done on a Thursday so that you can enjoy your weekend.
And we have just misconstrued what self-care is.
Because literally self-care could be taking a long hot
shower and putting oil and lotion on and a face mask and
literally chilling. Like I can tell a difference in
my nightly routine if I put lotion on or don't put lotion
on. So lotion for me is like a non
negotiable. I'm putting lotion on.
I don't care if it takes an extra 15 minutes.
I don't care if I'm tired, I'm doing it.
But some people like they wonder why they're uncomfortable and
itchy. It's like you need some lotion
or you need to take care of your body.
But so many people neglect themselves, and then they're mad
at the world because they're unhappy.
But it's like it all starts within your environment.
How you can dictate your day goes on, How organized you are,
how you know punctual you are. Some people literally set
themselves up for failure every morning.
Like if you know you want to hit snooze a few times, pick out
your outfit for tomorrow. Make your lunch, make your kids
lunch. You know, have things lined up,
have your kids outfits lined up, 'cause I know some people tell
me, like, in the morning, it's chaos every morning.
That's because you've set yourself up for that.
Yes, you have a three-year old. Yes, you have a 10 year old.
It's gonna be crazy. But if you knew what they were
gonna wear and what you're taking for their lunch and what
you're doing before you did it, you knew the backpacks are by
the door. Shoes are right here.
It's gonna make your morning easier and you're gonna ease
into relaxation rather than chaos.
But so many of us are just so used to chaos, like to running
late, to rushing around to eating because eating something
unhealthy because we didn't plan or because we need to go the
grocery and we know we won't want to Or same thing with the
gym. You know, it's always a
commitment and you have to be the one that's holding yourself
accountable and like re parenting your inner child.
Because deep down, if that's not something that comes easy for
you, you're going to have to push yourself to do it.
And I I know for a fact, like in the winter my body just wants to
rest, and in the summer I'm like ready to go.
So in the winter it's harder for me to stay in routine, but
that's when it's most important, 'cause it takes like I think 21
days to start a new habit, but it literally only takes three
days to fucking break that progress, go back to old ways.
So it took you 21 days to make it happen and it takes you three
days to reverse it. That's fucked up.
OK. So like more personal business,
I feel this a lot, multiple things that you were saying.
So the easiness when it comes to like food, Yes.
Also that being its own, like total comfort thing when you
have trauma, like it becomes its own whatever.
There was another point that I wanted to make to something that
you were, that you were saying, oh, the having to have things be
like 21 days in order for it to be a new habit for you.
And I have to really do that with food now, like we were
talking about before we got on here.
And that's something that, like, I always, always have felt like
I have to do it for three weeks and then I'm good.
Like it gets everything funky out of your body at first
because you'll feel fatigued. Your head always hurts.
You always feel hella thirsty, hella munchy, like your body's
like what the book is happening. It's like you're going through
withdrawals and then once you're 3 weeks in, you're like, well,
I've made all of this progress over here and I'm not going to
fucking go back on that now. So I'm going to keep doing what
I was doing and if we just took small little things inside of
our lives and focused on that being what we're going to be
working on and and instead of trying to put our energy into so
many different things because we all are always making new
choices and starting new projects, but we're seeing 1% of
them 21 days through, you know what I mean?
Yeah, and like as a society, they keep us so drained and
overworked and overstimulated that like it's really fucking
hard to start a new habit or to create time in your routine or
in your daily life to average that in.
But that's why I like making a commitment to yourself and
holding yourself accountable. Like this is where re parenting
your inner child is so important in this dynamic because a lot of
us, we didn't have that support or we didn't have that guidance
and we have to have that as adults.
Yeah, 100%, absolutely. And there is so much evolution
that you find as you're becoming an adult because we can look
back and we can be like, well, my parents did this and my
parents did that or whatever. Well, we all have something that
we did like and something that we didn't like and something
that when we were kids we were like, I would never do this
thing as an adult. And real recently for me, I've
realized that like I'll ask my mom her opinion on parenting in
something, and that ends up then opening it up to now, you know,
I want your opinion. And so now it's open to
criticisms. And so I've had to learn
recently that we can move on from past things and we can look
ourselves without needing to have somebody else's
justification and approval for what we're doing.
And so many people are like, I don't want to parent the way
that my parents did, but I really take my parents opinion
to heart when they're talking about my parenting.
Well, you don't want to fucking do it the way that they do it
anyways. So what does it matter?
You're going to be disappointing one way or another.
You're disappointing and miserable or disappointed and
feel like you're doing the best you can for your kid.
Well, that goes back to the big thing of like, stop asking for
directions from people who are not going where you're going.
Like, we like to ask for people's opinion and then get
our feelings hurt when it doesn't align with what the
answer is that we thought we wanted.
And it's just really big on like if they're not on the journey
that you're on, you're not going to where they're going or or you
don't want to be like them. But asking for people's opinions
on it, like, you know, you really don't want to ask for
business advice from someone who doesn't have a fucking business.
I mean, bless my mom, We're healing and working through
things. But whenever me and Jim and I
started the podcast, I was like, yeah, you know, I'm going to
fund some things that I'm going to do it on my end.
And my mom was like, you can't trust that girl.
And I was like, what do you mean?
I I mean, what? And she's like, you don't know
her, you can't trust her. And I'm like, Mom, I'm going to
invest on a fucking website and do a couple little things like
it's not a big deal. And she's like, you don't even
know her. It's just so funny because she
was so serious that I couldn't start a business with someone I
didn't know, never met, lived across the country because I
couldn't trust them. And it's just so funny because,
you know, we had the near death experience in Utah and we've
went through all these things in our circles and communities and
whatever. And it really has shown that,
like, deep down, you are one of the only people I can trust in
that space. But my mom was just so like, in
that limited mindset of like you don't know this person that
well, or you just met this person or you've never met this
person. And you know, my mom's real big
on that. But The thing is, it's like my
mom doesn't have a business. My mom doesn't have a lot of
close friends. My mom really can't give me
advice on a business, 'cause she's never had a business like
she has no business giving me advice on a business, you know?
So it's just, I don't know, like that was her like, defense
mechanism and like nothing against her.
But at the same time, that's small minded energy like me
investing $100 into our business before we made any money.
What was it wasn't a big loss, it wasn't a big gain.
It was just an experiment that has worked out that's now two
years in running of a brand that we built together.
So it's like don't let people who are not going where you want
to go give you advice. A lot of people ask their
parents who have failed marriages for marriage advice
or, you know, parenting advice. Whatever it is, it's like you
have to be aware that they're going to project onto you their
limiting beliefs. Yeah.
And it's so hard not to do, especially when you're still
seeking approval in some kind of way or still like, I just want
them to be proud of me or or whatever, which is something
that I struggled with for a while and I'm like, but for
what? Like it, whether you're proud of
me or not, I'm making the same choice.
Obviously. I can either be annoyed by you
because you won't get on the fucking ship, or I can just
fucking leave, you know? I don't know.
I'm just like so many people are so in fear about what their
parents want for them or or like think about them.
And honestly, until I was like 26, I was living in that shadow,
like afraid to get tattoos that I wanted.
That's the one thing that my parents were kind of hindering
me from. And then now that I started just
getting tatted up, my dad's like, I think I want to start a
sleeve. My mom's like, do you think your
friend could tattoo me? Like, it's just funny Because
when you finally become unapologetic about who you are
and you're just like, this is me, you're going to either like
it or love it or whatever, because I'm going to do me.
Then people start catching on and they're like, you know,
what? Pages live in the experience.
I wish I could have lived, but I lived in fear.
But I hid my true self or whatever.
And that's why I like the Internet can be so eye opening
on all the different ways that you can live your life or it can
really be crippling because you're judging yourself on where
you think you should be based on someone else's progress.
And a lot of the people in the spotlight didn't get in the
spotlight till their mid 30s or 40s.
And so I don't know why people are like 2526 and we're all in
this crippling, like fear about who we're becoming or what we're
supposed to do. You know, at 31, I feel like I
have more freedom emotionally than I've ever had before, like
that I ever had in my 20s, my 20s.
I was so worried about how what I was doing was going to make
other people feel or how certain things were going to play out.
And now it's like, I literally, I got health insurance, a four O
1K baby. I got a health savings account.
Like I have everything that my parents wanted me to have and
more by being myself, by doing what I want to do.
And I just want to encourage everyone, like get the tattoo,
start the business, go bungee jumping, whatever it is.
Like, go do something because you want to do it, not because
there's rules or regulations behind it.
Like just go do it. Stop asking for directions from
people you don't want to be like because if they're in game isn't
where you want to be. You should not ask them for
directions. Like, that's why I said earlier,
I love watching people who are authentic come up and build a
platform on authenticity. Because you can't take what
they're going to do until they make their move.
You can't make your next move until they make theirs.
And that's the cool thing about a podcast or content or whatever
is you can watch the evolution of yourself.
Meanwhile, other people are trying to mimic what you're
doing because it's working and that's how you win mic drop.
Mimic what you're doing because it's working.
Listen, I'm so fucking annoyed with dusty, crusty, musty, busty
bitches over here taking exact quotes that they're getting,
taking full on logos. Like it takes effort, time,
energy sourcing somebody to create a logo, having something
done like having reduce of it like so much energy and like
symbolism that goes into shit whether or not you think it
looks like a pair of lips or it just looks like a skull or what.
Like everything has a symbolism and a reason behind it, and when
you just take it and make it like it's your own fucking
thing. Whether it is, I mean, listen,
I'm not surprised that ANVA or whatever you've had literally
the lips, your exact cherry and lips put on Sheen.
Shit, like stuff gets taken and circulated in the world, OK?
But there are people who are literally, like close to our
communities doing the shit and just thinking that nobody will
ever find out. And I just have to get to the
point where, like, it doesn't bother me.
Because there is going to be a day where like, maybe right now
you're the person who's in, who's in the light, and who has
more following is boosted up, whatever.
And your voice is a little bit more amplified and you're
reaching different people, but you're not going to be the only
one in that light soon. And we're fucking coming up on
your ass. And people will eventually
notice that your Full Moon advertisements are the exact
same font, everything, day of the week, time zone that we're
doing. They're going to notice that
you've taken direct quotes of things that we've posted from
our podcast that's date stamped, time stamped.
And they're going to be like, oh, that's who they've been
talking about. And I promise you, we've already
talked about it behind the scenes.
When the day does come that that fucking happens and everybody's
realizing the people that it is and who it is, we're never going
to confirm nor deny who the fuck it is because it, everybody can
get it. You know when we got time stamps
of the fucking content, You can't make it up?
Like you may have a bigger following now and you may be
able to get away with it. And that's great.
I hope it works for you. But at the same time, I can't
stand a bitch who's like, I don't show my altars to anyone
and this dumb ass shit, it's like, OK, cool, But you're
gatekeeping 'cause you want people to need you.
You're afraid that someone could look at your altar, or look at a
photo of an altar and do what you're doing and mimic what
you're doing. Like, no, baby, you're not that
special. And I promise you that if your
shit is that fragile, you shouldn't be doing spell work
for other people. You shouldn't be doing things
for other people. But I just.
I'm real comfortable in the fact that, like the Divine knows, our
intentions are pure. My intention really is to help
people have their own power source so that you don't need
me, you don't need Gemini, you don't need anyone you've got
yourself. I think that when you can learn
to collaborate and like credit people, I think crediting people
is important. To be like, yes, I got this idea
from that person, but I'm gonna expand on it in my own way.
Beautiful, amazing. You're going to win, but you
will lose. And karma will catch up to you
if you continue stealing and manipulating people into
believing that you're the creator of something.
And you know, the weirdest thing ever is the people who are like
they hexed me or they did this are people that like, aren't
even on my radar. And I don't care about, like I
would never in my life waste my energy to hex someone when I
could just return your crusty energy back to you times 10.
And then you're going to do your own work like you're going to
you're going to fail on your own.
But so many people are so manipulative and just feral,
like just fucking feral Y'all. Like, they don't give a fuck,
and they're willing to step on whoever, steal from whoever,
manipulate anyone they can and sell you a $10,000 ticket to
their seminar where they regurgitate shit they heard on
other people's podcast or other people's platforms.
And that's cool. Like, eventually people are
going to catch on, but at the same time, like, we'll be on to
the next thing. You cannot mimic authenticity
because you can't make a move until that person makes their
move. So it's like, do you?
But you really don't have the flavor if you got to tell
everyone you got the flavor. Some people are stealing the
flavor, but I'll just keep it there.
I personally so it is a thing inside of witchcraft, some
practices of witchcraft not sharing the altar that you have
for like various reasons. So I want to say in case there
are others who you don't share, yours, whatever.
I may not show specifics of what's on my altar, but like, I
teach people about creating their own alter and how to do
things themselves and whatever. And I think that when someone
puts themselves in a position where they're going to be
mentoring and teaching people different ways of doing things,
you should be, even if you're going to keep something to
yourself, you should be sharing with them how they can do
something for themselves. So then it's not like a
gatekeeping thing because there are a lot of people and who
would just be like, oh, you don't show.
You never show somebody your altar and then they'll just
leave it there. And there's somebody who's like
trying to learn underneath them that's like, well, I obviously
have no idea what an altar even is.
I you know, I know you don't want to tell me how you
specifically do your spell working like, but I'm needing
advice for putting my spell together or whatever.
And I think that it's really important.
People in like spiritual mentorship roles.
Just because you don't do something doesn't mean that you
shouldn't be showing the person that you're mentoring in case
they're deciding to do something completely different.
And that's on just like some personal fucking viewpoints is I
think. Don't Don't ever put yourself
into like your spiritual mentor or spiritual guidance in any
fucking way when all you're showing is 1 specific thing.
And those people are the ones who are charging you like
$20,000 to go on a retreat out of the country so that they can
sit there and tell you to breathe in and out and shuffle a
couple cards. I don't show my personal altar
for myself. I show altars that I create for
a spell. But you don't know why I created
that. You know what I mean?
Like, you know why I've included what I've included or whatever.
I don't show my personal altar for me.
No. And I'm not saying it's neither
here nor there. I've just heard people be like,
I would never do this and and I don't.
I don't know what their umbrella is for that.
But like, I don't show my personal altar.
That's in my home. Like my altar.
I knew what you meant. Yeah, I show alters that I
create for clients and I'm fine with that because, like, you're
not going to fuck up the energy for my client.
Like, I can show you this. It's temporary.
As soon as it spells over, it's dismantled, right?
Like it's not a long standing altar, but like showing my
personal altar. No.
Like I have a secret room at my house and I don't even let
guests in there, like, ever. Like, no one's allowed in this
room that I'm in. I don't give a fuck if you
thought you knew me or not. Like that's how you know if
we're friends or not. If I let you in here, but the
only person that's really been in here is Jack, Jack.
And that's it. Like nobody else has been in
here. Because I don't want people in
here. It's my this is my special
space. And you know, Dusty Krusty's
could drive across the country and come to my house, and they
still didn't come in here, period.
Y'all can kick rocks. But The thing is.
No, I can tell you that when I come to Kentucky, I'm going in
every fucking room in your house.
I'm going in your pantry. I'm seeing what snacks we have.
No, I'm just kidding. I wouldn't.
I wouldn't invade a a safe space like that.
But I I knew exactly what you were saying.
And there are also people who will not show spell work that
they do for other people and whatnot.
I do. So there's that.
I mean, there's not. I'm not going to put your name
to it. I'm not going to be like, I just
did this spell for Melissa. You know what I mean?
Shout out that wasn't a name drop for Melissa, but Melissa
listens. So what to do?
I mean, deep down, I think so many people are caught up on
like what the next witch is doing or what the next bitch is
doing or whatever. And I think just like, keep your
eyes on your own paper, baby, keep your eyes on your own
paper. Quit trying to cheat.
When we all got different copies of the test, you know, it's like
you're not going to get ahead by trying to steal from other
people. You're not going to get ahead by
trying to copy other people. Like, eventually it runs out.
Like eventually the well runs thin.
And unfortunately, we live in a society where you see a viral
status 19,000 times and then now you got five people on your
friends list that have copied it and it's being shared from their
platform. It's like Facebook's paying you
all fucking pennies, pennies on the views.
Like I think you got to get like 30,000 views or some shit to
like make $5. Like y'all are not that special.
And unfortunately, the shit you post on its own could be
special. But you're you're not authentic,
you're just copying. So if you even got to the point
where Facebook wants to pay you, it's because it seems like y'all
are stealing from other creators.
And that's why I've chose to decline all incentives from
every platform. Tiktok, Instagram and Facebook.
I don't want it. I I use social media for shits
and giggles. If you want to spend money with
me and go to my Patreon or my website, but like, I'm not gonna
be on there, like I need interaction.
Everybody, please click. Like, no, I'm not.
Like, I'm not doing that. Like, it's just not me.
It's inauthentic and I just won't ever in my life make
Facebook money. I just don't care, you know,
Like, I just, I literally don't care enough to to do that.
And you know, Tiktok used to be really fun and they were paying
their creators and now they just don't.
Like now. It's not that fun.
I have so many things. I think that Tiktok does pay
creators, but they're really pushing, selling stuff from
their shop and that's why there's so many ads on things.
And so unfortunately a lot of content that people are doing
now is more of telling you what they got from that shop and and
whatever and reviewing it. Because that's the only way that
they're really wanting to circulate people's videos.
And we've talked about that before.
Well, they're just, they'll just stop circulating any of the shit
that you have and there will be like one or two times.
I think the the fucking most views I had in a while was on a
video and it was because I did a morning vlog and I didn't give
my kids syrup on his pancakes, 'cause I didn't have any sugar
free syrup left. And it was like, you're an awful
mom, you're going to give him an eating disorder.
Like, I can't. Who puts peanut butter on their
pancakes? You're the meanest person ever.
And then I got all kinds of amazing comments and follows
too. But that's extremely rare and in
between and the stuff that you put your energy into to be
creative. If you're not somebody at this
point currently, if you're not already somebody who has a crazy
following, then you're not really getting interaction and
it's just because you're pushing something.
It's all rigged. Y'all.
And we just want to encourage everybody to be authentic.
Cause what is meant for you will be for you and you don't got to
go chasing it, you don't got to go promoting it.
It will naturally gravitate to you from a space of This Is Mine
and I support this like this is what I support and that's where
we don't give a fuck if we get 5 views or 5000 views.
It is what it is and we love every single one of you all
equally and just really endlessly for supporting the
podcast. And we're really just looking
forward to what 2024 has to bring.
Yeah, Second eye lollipop, and we'll see you next time.
See you all next time. Bye.