1 00:00:00,080 --> 00:00:03,880 In the age of AI, how do individuals stand out online? 2 00:00:03,960 --> 00:00:08,400 By being ridiculously human and raw and real because that's the 3 00:00:08,400 --> 00:00:10,720 difference between humans and AI is that we were actually alive. 4 00:00:10,720 --> 00:00:12,880 When I moved to Austin is when AI came out. 5 00:00:12,880 --> 00:00:14,360 So I got really really into that. 6 00:00:14,360 --> 00:00:16,600 It was like I was constantly evolving and growing with it. 7 00:00:16,600 --> 00:00:19,400 And my second ever post to go viral was a carousel of me and 8 00:00:19,400 --> 00:00:21,680 my 2 girlfriends in Hawaii covered in mud on the beach. 9 00:00:21,680 --> 00:00:23,560 And that's like my highest joy. And it's funny that that's 10 00:00:23,880 --> 00:00:26,240 something that went viral when your highest alignment is the 11 00:00:26,240 --> 00:00:29,440 most resonant. I am about to start Co creating 12 00:00:29,480 --> 00:00:33,880 with the Holy Wow cacao to make my own Lola's Cacao Raspberry 13 00:00:33,880 --> 00:00:36,840 rose flavor. Finding like people and places 14 00:00:36,840 --> 00:00:40,080 and environments that allow you to explore the edges of your 15 00:00:40,080 --> 00:00:43,040 expression and play and let's just have more fun and be human 16 00:00:43,040 --> 00:00:45,600 and be wild. In every universe in the 17 00:00:45,600 --> 00:00:48,080 multiverse, everything's been done already, so fuck. 18 00:00:48,080 --> 00:00:50,160 Yeah, you're right. Might as well just do it your 19 00:00:50,160 --> 00:00:52,880 own way. It's your individual experience 20 00:00:52,880 --> 00:00:55,160 telling that story that makes it unique. 21 00:00:55,240 --> 00:00:58,200 I think the whole point of authenticity is not changing 22 00:00:58,200 --> 00:00:59,960 your behavior based on the external. 23 00:01:02,640 --> 00:01:07,520 In the age of AI, how do individuals stand out online 24 00:01:08,120 --> 00:01:17,080 with their own brands? By being ridiculously human and 25 00:01:17,080 --> 00:01:21,680 raw and real. And I feel like it's tapping 26 00:01:21,680 --> 00:01:23,640 into our emotion because that's what AI doesn't have. 27 00:01:23,640 --> 00:01:27,960 It's our emotion, it's our feeling, it's our pain and our 28 00:01:27,960 --> 00:01:33,480 passion and our like, messy humanness that I feel like we 29 00:01:33,480 --> 00:01:35,880 all almost have like a little bit of shame on. 30 00:01:35,880 --> 00:01:37,560 Like, oh, we want to be perfect and Polish. 31 00:01:37,560 --> 00:01:42,480 And it's actually like we want to be imperfect and messy and 32 00:01:42,480 --> 00:01:44,440 confusing and all over the place. 33 00:01:44,440 --> 00:01:46,880 Like, that's what makes us human and that's what makes us connect 34 00:01:46,880 --> 00:01:48,960 to each other. And that's kind of, you know, 35 00:01:49,080 --> 00:01:52,200 you sent us a customized prompt which you take most of your 36 00:01:52,200 --> 00:01:54,440 clients through, which is absolutely amazing. 37 00:01:54,560 --> 00:01:58,480 You know, Gene Keys, human design, I think what was also in 38 00:01:58,480 --> 00:02:01,000 there Zodiac horoscopes and all that. 39 00:02:01,000 --> 00:02:03,080 And it, you know, takes you through this whole really 40 00:02:03,240 --> 00:02:07,640 interesting process that gives you this entire layout from 41 00:02:07,640 --> 00:02:11,320 services to how to show up. And so once somebody goes 42 00:02:11,320 --> 00:02:13,600 through that, which is I think everybody should definitely 43 00:02:13,600 --> 00:02:17,080 check out if they can through connecting with you where what's 44 00:02:17,080 --> 00:02:21,520 like the next steps, right? Yeah, so you get your content 45 00:02:21,520 --> 00:02:23,840 visibility, strategy and all these things and all these ideas 46 00:02:23,840 --> 00:02:25,760 and you're like, wow. And it helps you almost like a 47 00:02:25,760 --> 00:02:28,440 mirror to see yourself and like a permission slip to be who you 48 00:02:28,440 --> 00:02:30,240 are. So when I work with clients and 49 00:02:30,240 --> 00:02:32,960 they do that prompt, the first thing is always like wow, like, 50 00:02:32,960 --> 00:02:34,640 oh, this is me. Like there's a validation 51 00:02:34,640 --> 00:02:37,480 aspect, there's a permission, there's A and there's usually 52 00:02:37,480 --> 00:02:40,680 some new ideas or some clarification or refinement. 53 00:02:40,920 --> 00:02:43,120 And then I have like a strategy session with people where we 54 00:02:43,120 --> 00:02:47,240 talk it out and we share and discuss what came up, what came 55 00:02:47,240 --> 00:02:50,000 alive. And the human part that like why 56 00:02:50,000 --> 00:02:52,960 you need actual a coach and someone to reflect that is 57 00:02:53,120 --> 00:02:57,400 because sometimes there's shame on parts of themselves that they 58 00:02:57,480 --> 00:03:00,360 haven't wanted to show or parts that they haven't accepted that 59 00:03:00,360 --> 00:03:03,920 they thought is not professional or is not going to be. 60 00:03:04,200 --> 00:03:06,080 It's not going to have people are going to aren't going to pay 61 00:03:06,080 --> 00:03:10,320 you for it. So it's having someone to like 62 00:03:10,320 --> 00:03:11,880 talk that and work that out with. 63 00:03:11,880 --> 00:03:13,520 And then for me, I'm just such an amplifier. 64 00:03:13,520 --> 00:03:15,040 Like yes, like that's it. Like be you. 65 00:03:15,040 --> 00:03:18,000 And sometimes we just need that energy to be reflected and 66 00:03:18,000 --> 00:03:19,760 amplified of like, Oh yeah, OK, cool. 67 00:03:19,760 --> 00:03:22,480 That's that's it. So kind of talking it out and 68 00:03:22,480 --> 00:03:27,080 then getting ideas and brainstorming around ways that 69 00:03:27,080 --> 00:03:29,920 we can create like repeatable series and content. 70 00:03:29,920 --> 00:03:32,880 That's that's fun, that's alive, that brings us alive because 71 00:03:32,880 --> 00:03:35,120 that's the difference between humans and a is that we're 72 00:03:35,120 --> 00:03:37,520 actually alive. And I literally had a dream last 73 00:03:37,520 --> 00:03:41,600 night that I died and I just bringing this energy of 74 00:03:41,840 --> 00:03:45,680 aliveness as like the main message and what we need to be 75 00:03:45,680 --> 00:03:48,360 and do. What do you have some examples 76 00:03:48,360 --> 00:03:51,360 of people you've worked with and the types of contract content 77 00:03:51,360 --> 00:03:53,080 strategies you develop with them? 78 00:03:53,520 --> 00:03:56,760 I'm curious like just like online or what you brought out 79 00:03:56,840 --> 00:03:59,840 in them that maybe they were afraid to show up? 80 00:04:01,480 --> 00:04:11,610 Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. OK. 81 00:04:11,610 --> 00:04:15,290 So there's one client that I've worked with, and she had a lot 82 00:04:15,290 --> 00:04:19,649 of shame on her joy and her excitement and her enthusiasm. 83 00:04:20,529 --> 00:04:26,240 She grew up in a very like strict religious culture and she 84 00:04:26,320 --> 00:04:28,200 had to be really serious. And she was really, really 85 00:04:28,200 --> 00:04:30,240 serious in her videos and in her marketing. 86 00:04:30,240 --> 00:04:33,360 And it was really intense and really like, and it wasn't being 87 00:04:33,360 --> 00:04:35,480 like well received. There was like hardly any views. 88 00:04:35,840 --> 00:04:39,280 And so we had a bunch of sessions together and she just 89 00:04:39,280 --> 00:04:41,920 started like getting approval for like, oh, I can just like 90 00:04:41,920 --> 00:04:45,400 make it fun and be joyous and be like exciting and playful. 91 00:04:45,400 --> 00:04:47,480 And so she really so much shame on that. 92 00:04:48,040 --> 00:04:50,640 And then she literally, I just checked her Instagram, she's 93 00:04:50,640 --> 00:04:53,280 literally went viral. She has like 10K followers now 94 00:04:53,560 --> 00:04:56,200 and all her videos are getting so much 'cause she released 95 00:04:56,200 --> 00:04:58,720 shame. And now she's just doing these 96 00:04:58,960 --> 00:05:02,120 like energy pull cord things in a really unique way. 97 00:05:02,120 --> 00:05:05,280 So that was something and she just bringing more of, yeah, her 98 00:05:05,400 --> 00:05:07,120 feminine radiance and joy that's. 99 00:05:08,160 --> 00:05:08,840 Really cool. What? 100 00:05:08,840 --> 00:05:11,400 Kind of work did you do with her to get her to open up that way? 101 00:05:12,560 --> 00:05:17,080 So we had, we had this strategy session, my boom branded 102 00:05:17,080 --> 00:05:20,280 strategy session. And then we had a did a photo 103 00:05:20,280 --> 00:05:24,560 shoot with her. And then I had, I think the main 104 00:05:24,560 --> 00:05:28,000 thing was after a photo shoot I had with her and a strategy 105 00:05:28,000 --> 00:05:32,200 session talking things out, we went live on my YouTube channel. 106 00:05:32,640 --> 00:05:35,600 And for her, that was where it kind of like the all the blocks 107 00:05:35,600 --> 00:05:38,040 came like some edge. Yeah, like people are seeing me 108 00:05:38,040 --> 00:05:38,720 here. I am. 109 00:05:38,720 --> 00:05:42,200 And like, I'm so this. And she told me that so much. 110 00:05:42,200 --> 00:05:44,240 She always, I triggered her all the time. 111 00:05:44,240 --> 00:05:47,080 And that's why she hired me because I triggered her because 112 00:05:47,120 --> 00:05:48,840 there was parts of her that she didn't want to show. 113 00:05:49,840 --> 00:05:53,920 So during that YouTube live, we were talking about the triggers 114 00:05:53,920 --> 00:05:56,520 and the energy that she wasn't showing. 115 00:05:56,520 --> 00:05:59,960 And so through that conversation and being seen in that live, I 116 00:05:59,960 --> 00:06:02,840 feel like that alchemized so much for her in that moment. 117 00:06:03,040 --> 00:06:04,480 And we were having fun together, like. 118 00:06:05,160 --> 00:06:08,120 And then, yeah. And I think that's what kind of 119 00:06:08,120 --> 00:06:10,440 did it. It's like going to your edge. 120 00:06:10,800 --> 00:06:14,800 Yeah. And being seen in it in in the 121 00:06:14,800 --> 00:06:17,720 becoming of what you don't want people to see. 122 00:06:18,920 --> 00:06:22,600 How did you get to this place of working with people that like 123 00:06:22,600 --> 00:06:24,960 why do you even want to work with people that have them show 124 00:06:24,960 --> 00:06:28,360 up more online? Like how did your life take you 125 00:06:28,360 --> 00:06:32,880 to this place? I've, well, I grew up on, you 126 00:06:32,880 --> 00:06:37,280 know, Myspace and Facebook and I've always been posting photos 127 00:06:37,280 --> 00:06:40,960 and videos since I can remember. When I was 14, I got my first 128 00:06:41,040 --> 00:06:43,600 point and shoot camera and I was doing photo shoots and dressing 129 00:06:43,600 --> 00:06:46,280 up and making funny like ridiculous skits and stuff with 130 00:06:46,280 --> 00:06:48,560 my friends. And it's just like, I feel like 131 00:06:48,560 --> 00:06:55,400 media has just been a medium of spreading messages and creating 132 00:06:55,400 --> 00:07:00,280 art and having fun in a way that can be received and you can get 133 00:07:00,280 --> 00:07:03,080 feedback from. And so. 134 00:07:03,320 --> 00:07:04,840 Yeah. And then that inspired me to 135 00:07:04,840 --> 00:07:07,240 study marketing and art in college and then go into 136 00:07:07,240 --> 00:07:08,800 advertising and do all the things. 137 00:07:09,280 --> 00:07:14,760 And what was the question again? So yeah, just. 138 00:07:15,360 --> 00:07:16,440 You're doing great. Yeah, yeah. 139 00:07:16,440 --> 00:07:19,840 Like, how did your life lead you to wanting to help people show 140 00:07:19,840 --> 00:07:21,840 up? So like, it sounds like you've 141 00:07:22,240 --> 00:07:25,640 always saw media as like a creative act, right? 142 00:07:25,640 --> 00:07:27,600 And you've studied marketing and media and whatnot. 143 00:07:27,600 --> 00:07:30,480 And I think you told me you were traveling for a while and 144 00:07:30,480 --> 00:07:33,920 helping people with websites and all that, But seems like, you 145 00:07:33,920 --> 00:07:38,680 know, you saw a need for people to wanna, like they weren't 146 00:07:38,680 --> 00:07:40,280 showing up all the way. Yeah, right. 147 00:07:40,440 --> 00:07:44,920 So helping them develop that. Yeah, well, I feel like part of 148 00:07:44,920 --> 00:07:47,600 it is like I want to do that. I want to show up and have fun. 149 00:07:47,600 --> 00:07:51,200 And like my deepest desire is to feel really intimate and really 150 00:07:51,200 --> 00:07:54,160 connected to people and then create and just like make funny 151 00:07:54,160 --> 00:07:56,720 shit and make creative stuff and break our edges. 152 00:07:56,920 --> 00:07:58,040 So like, that's what I want to do. 153 00:07:58,040 --> 00:08:00,840 So I want to be in a world where everyone else is doing that too. 154 00:08:00,840 --> 00:08:04,280 We can do it together. Because it's like when I was I 155 00:08:04,280 --> 00:08:06,480 was in ball and I was at the top of my game and I was making all 156 00:08:06,480 --> 00:08:10,280 this amazing 10 and then I got really badly cyber bullied and I 157 00:08:10,360 --> 00:08:13,400 it's because like I was alone. There was no one I was with and 158 00:08:13,400 --> 00:08:17,800 it was just me and it felt so felt unsafe doing it alone and 159 00:08:17,800 --> 00:08:20,640 and also not as fun. So I want to create a world 160 00:08:20,640 --> 00:08:24,120 where everyone is just fully expressed and colorful and bold 161 00:08:24,120 --> 00:08:29,200 and big and just unleashed and in their playful child, you 162 00:08:29,200 --> 00:08:32,720 know, like, and, and how I'm making money doing that. 163 00:08:33,120 --> 00:08:36,080 So yeah, I feel like that's I want people to show up because I 164 00:08:36,080 --> 00:08:38,200 want to do it and I want us to do it together. 165 00:08:38,679 --> 00:08:40,120 When? Why did you get bullied? 166 00:08:45,560 --> 00:08:48,200 Why did I get bullied? Or more or more why? 167 00:08:48,240 --> 00:08:50,840 Like what is what is cyber bullying? 168 00:08:50,840 --> 00:08:55,120 Like they just like DM you a bunch and just just spam your 169 00:08:55,120 --> 00:08:56,760 page and you can't stop them or like. 170 00:08:56,760 --> 00:08:58,960 So, yeah, so there was an account that makes fun of 171 00:08:58,960 --> 00:09:02,400 spiritual coaches and they found my content and that was like the 172 00:09:02,400 --> 00:09:09,120 most like spiritual fun coach and just so out there and 173 00:09:09,280 --> 00:09:12,960 childish and fun. And yeah, they took my videos 174 00:09:12,960 --> 00:09:15,800 and they just remixed it like over and over again and made fun 175 00:09:15,800 --> 00:09:18,480 of it and like made it into comedy, which is really funny 176 00:09:18,480 --> 00:09:20,520 because I've always wanted to do spiritual comedy. 177 00:09:20,800 --> 00:09:23,880 So it was almost like a reflection of like, if someone's 178 00:09:23,880 --> 00:09:26,120 going to make fun of me, I want to make fun of me. 179 00:09:26,800 --> 00:09:30,800 And so it felt like, damn, they they did it first. 180 00:09:30,800 --> 00:09:37,440 So, but yeah, it really it really I don't know what was the 181 00:09:37,440 --> 00:09:39,280 question. Yeah, I was. 182 00:09:39,280 --> 00:09:41,800 I was more curious, what, what were they bullying you for? 183 00:09:42,000 --> 00:09:44,960 It was, it was more around like your content was spiritual and 184 00:09:44,960 --> 00:09:47,280 they were making fun of the. Hyper spiritual stuff. 185 00:09:47,280 --> 00:09:50,240 So I had a program called Rich Witch and I was like fully 186 00:09:50,240 --> 00:09:53,920 embodying the witch archetype and like manifesting money with 187 00:09:53,920 --> 00:09:56,080 your magic. So that was one of the videos, 188 00:09:56,080 --> 00:10:00,360 but the main video was I was, and also like at the time, I was 189 00:10:00,360 --> 00:10:03,480 definitely in my maiden energy and I was very ungrounded, but 190 00:10:03,480 --> 00:10:05,120 also I was just being playful and fun. 191 00:10:05,120 --> 00:10:08,400 So I was in this pink hotel in Bali in my bikini and I was just 192 00:10:08,400 --> 00:10:11,800 like so excited. It was my birthday, it was 29 193 00:10:11,840 --> 00:10:14,400 and I was in this hotel and I was just like running around 194 00:10:14,400 --> 00:10:16,480 like you can live your dream. Like this is my dream. 195 00:10:16,480 --> 00:10:19,360 I'm here. And like it was kind of satire 196 00:10:19,360 --> 00:10:23,080 because it's like I'm exaggerating the energy. 197 00:10:23,080 --> 00:10:26,080 But also I was just so in it and so excited and like almost 198 00:10:26,080 --> 00:10:28,840 couldn't contain it. So that's the video that they, 199 00:10:28,840 --> 00:10:31,080 and it's funny because so many clients and friends like 200 00:10:31,080 --> 00:10:32,240 commented that like, you're so funny. 201 00:10:32,240 --> 00:10:33,080 I love this. I love you. 202 00:10:33,080 --> 00:10:34,440 Oh my God. Everybody loved it. 203 00:10:34,800 --> 00:10:37,560 And with the intense love comes the intense hate on the other 204 00:10:37,560 --> 00:10:40,120 side. So people just they, they 205 00:10:40,800 --> 00:10:43,160 totally ripped it apart. Very polarized and stuff. 206 00:10:43,280 --> 00:10:45,920 Yeah, yeah. Yeah, usually authenticity does 207 00:10:45,920 --> 00:10:47,840 that. Like when you really, you know, 208 00:10:47,840 --> 00:10:51,200 put yourself out there, you're going to have equal parts on 209 00:10:51,240 --> 00:10:53,320 either side. And that's, that's, that's 210 00:10:53,320 --> 00:10:55,960 intense and probably helped you a lot in helping other people 211 00:10:56,920 --> 00:10:58,800 push themselves out there because you're like, just don't 212 00:10:58,800 --> 00:11:03,200 worry about it or, you know, you know how to deal with it, right? 213 00:11:03,200 --> 00:11:05,520 Like really understand it. How long were you in Bali and 214 00:11:05,520 --> 00:11:08,400 what were some of the like, would you say, experiences that 215 00:11:08,400 --> 00:11:12,680 really shaped you? By now I feel just really 216 00:11:12,680 --> 00:11:19,080 present to the self, the loss of trust that I had in myself, like 217 00:11:19,080 --> 00:11:22,680 to be myself because I was like 100% myself. 218 00:11:22,680 --> 00:11:27,640 And then it was so hated. So it's been such a journey the 219 00:11:27,640 --> 00:11:30,920 last three years to like trust my voice and my creativity and 220 00:11:30,920 --> 00:11:34,680 my expression and know that it's, it's safe to be me and 221 00:11:34,680 --> 00:11:37,880 it's not, it's not dangerous and it's not harmful and it's not 222 00:11:37,880 --> 00:11:41,560 wrong. So that's, yeah, it's like the 223 00:11:42,760 --> 00:11:48,480 what I'm really present to is the trust and trusting, Yeah. 224 00:11:48,480 --> 00:11:50,720 Trusting ourself. Were there some things that 225 00:11:50,720 --> 00:11:54,280 helped you move through that painful process of being 226 00:11:54,280 --> 00:11:58,120 bullied? Were there certain things? 227 00:11:58,160 --> 00:12:02,520 Happening, yeah, like, you know, that maybe people listening that 228 00:12:02,520 --> 00:12:06,720 are whether being bullied online or in person or just feel like 229 00:12:06,720 --> 00:12:09,760 they're being picked on, things that helped you kind of rise 230 00:12:09,760 --> 00:12:13,760 back to where you are now. Yeah, the I was in crippling 231 00:12:13,760 --> 00:12:18,080 shame, like collapsing crippling shame of just hiding a little 232 00:12:18,080 --> 00:12:21,200 ball for for months of not wanting to talk to anybody or 233 00:12:21,200 --> 00:12:23,520 show up. Pretty much my business like 234 00:12:23,520 --> 00:12:26,440 ended because my business was based on me being visible and 235 00:12:26,440 --> 00:12:28,400 being seen. So my business completely like 236 00:12:28,400 --> 00:12:32,800 just stopped. And so I worked with actually a 237 00:12:32,800 --> 00:12:36,480 Tantra teacher for a couple months to help me go really, 238 00:12:36,480 --> 00:12:42,720 really deep into my emotion and into the somatic feelings of the 239 00:12:42,720 --> 00:12:46,080 shame in my body, in my heart, in my belly. 240 00:12:47,760 --> 00:12:52,480 And we did lots of yeah, somatic like feeling and emoting and 241 00:12:52,480 --> 00:12:56,120 expressing and crying and screaming and breathing and 242 00:12:56,120 --> 00:12:59,720 releasing. And that's actually the first 243 00:13:00,080 --> 00:13:02,520 time I ever did anything in the Tantra world. 244 00:13:02,920 --> 00:13:05,200 And it wasn't even like sacred sexuality. 245 00:13:05,200 --> 00:13:09,160 It was, it was emotion and it was feeling the, the range of 246 00:13:09,240 --> 00:13:12,640 emotion. And that, that was what really 247 00:13:12,640 --> 00:13:15,760 helped me alchemize it at the deepest level to then be able to 248 00:13:15,760 --> 00:13:21,160 get to like, OK, I can, I can exist and not want to hide what? 249 00:13:21,760 --> 00:13:24,360 Was it like coming back from that, coming back to your 250 00:13:24,360 --> 00:13:28,040 business after this sort of dark night of the soul you alchemized 251 00:13:28,040 --> 00:13:29,400 all of it. Like, did you come back with 252 00:13:29,400 --> 00:13:33,960 this ferocious lioness energy, or were you a little more 253 00:13:33,960 --> 00:13:36,480 cautious and coming back and a little more deliberate in your 254 00:13:36,480 --> 00:13:40,800 steps? After four months, I came back 255 00:13:40,800 --> 00:13:44,080 hot. I came back with a with a rap. 256 00:13:44,240 --> 00:13:46,600 Yeah. I was in a sauna one time and 257 00:13:46,600 --> 00:13:49,080 this rap channeled and I came back like wearing black. 258 00:13:49,080 --> 00:13:51,600 And I just did this rap of like, fuck you haters, a flower. 259 00:13:51,600 --> 00:13:55,000 Like, yeah, it was, it was, it was a powerful energy. 260 00:13:55,000 --> 00:13:57,160 And then there was another video I posted right after that of 261 00:13:57,160 --> 00:14:00,360 like in this sunflower field being like, I'm unapologetically 262 00:14:00,360 --> 00:14:03,440 me, like singing. So singing and rap and like, 263 00:14:03,440 --> 00:14:09,200 channeling that emotion really heavily made it, yeah, made made 264 00:14:09,200 --> 00:14:11,960 this comeback strong for sure. But it didn't like stay like 265 00:14:11,960 --> 00:14:14,240 that. There was still self trust that 266 00:14:14,240 --> 00:14:19,040 I had to keep building back up. And did you, did you start 267 00:14:19,040 --> 00:14:21,720 showing up differently in your business after that, like the 268 00:14:21,720 --> 00:14:25,920 way you were branding yourself or the way you were, Yeah, 269 00:14:25,920 --> 00:14:30,720 marketing yourself in a way. Yeah, well, after that happened, 270 00:14:30,720 --> 00:14:32,760 so I was living in New Zealand for six years and then I was in 271 00:14:32,760 --> 00:14:37,240 Bali for six weeks. And then I ended up moving my 272 00:14:37,240 --> 00:14:39,400 whole life to Austin. So that was like 3 1/2 years 273 00:14:39,400 --> 00:14:40,640 ago. So me and my partner at the 274 00:14:40,640 --> 00:14:44,000 time, we moved here and it pretty much started everything 275 00:14:44,000 --> 00:14:46,000 over. Like I had a new house, new car, 276 00:14:46,000 --> 00:14:50,840 I don't know anybody. So it was like I was reborn and 277 00:14:50,840 --> 00:14:52,920 I was like creating from nothing and everything. 278 00:14:52,920 --> 00:14:55,000 And I think what helped me so much, like you guys know, 279 00:14:55,000 --> 00:14:57,440 Austin, everyone here is so creative and entrepreneurial and 280 00:14:57,440 --> 00:15:01,480 expansive that it allowed me to explore my expression in safe 281 00:15:01,480 --> 00:15:03,480 containers and environments and parties. 282 00:15:04,040 --> 00:15:05,840 So that was a piece of the expression. 283 00:15:05,840 --> 00:15:09,640 And then in terms of what I was posting online, it was it was 284 00:15:09,640 --> 00:15:14,920 really like a exploration of who I am and who I am now and kind 285 00:15:14,920 --> 00:15:19,640 of, yeah, playing with like a new beginning. 286 00:15:20,120 --> 00:15:22,320 And also being single for the first time in six years, that 287 00:15:22,320 --> 00:15:26,720 was like, it was like, yeah, refining myself, like I was a 288 00:15:26,720 --> 00:15:29,120 little kid again. And I felt like a little kid 289 00:15:29,120 --> 00:15:30,800 again because I couldn't, I didn't have any money. 290 00:15:30,800 --> 00:15:33,320 Am I have any business and have a financial partner and 291 00:15:33,320 --> 00:15:36,480 emotional partner. And I had, I had all these bills 292 00:15:36,480 --> 00:15:39,760 now. And yeah, it was my parents had 293 00:15:39,760 --> 00:15:42,560 to help me for ask me, like I had to ask them for help to pay 294 00:15:42,560 --> 00:15:44,400 for things. So I did literally feel like a 295 00:15:44,400 --> 00:15:48,400 little kid being reborn and out of innocence and curiosity and 296 00:15:48,400 --> 00:15:50,960 openness. How did you begin to rebuild? 297 00:15:50,960 --> 00:15:54,640 Like is the business you have now the business you started 298 00:15:55,040 --> 00:15:58,240 when you moved to Austin or is it kind of evolved over time or 299 00:15:58,320 --> 00:16:03,320 how did you get yourself out of that just kind of reset? 300 00:16:03,840 --> 00:16:06,840 Yeah. So when I moved to Austin is 301 00:16:06,840 --> 00:16:09,600 when is when AI came out. Yeah. 302 00:16:10,640 --> 00:16:12,160 So I got really, really into that. 303 00:16:12,160 --> 00:16:14,000 That's cool. And I'm a researcher, so I was 304 00:16:14,000 --> 00:16:16,400 like a rabbit holing AI like all the time. 305 00:16:16,400 --> 00:16:17,560 It's the best for a rabbit holing. 306 00:16:17,640 --> 00:16:18,800 Rabbit hole, just blah, blah, blah. 307 00:16:18,960 --> 00:16:20,560 And I was like, oh, what if I put my chart in? 308 00:16:20,680 --> 00:16:23,360 Oh my God, Oh my God. And every time I put it in, it 309 00:16:23,360 --> 00:16:25,840 showed me something else. So it was like I was constantly 310 00:16:25,840 --> 00:16:27,760 evolving and growing with it. And I was like, oh, what if I 311 00:16:27,760 --> 00:16:31,360 bought my human design and like, and so I feel like I was 312 00:16:31,360 --> 00:16:35,480 relearning who I was and having like re like re acceptance for 313 00:16:35,480 --> 00:16:39,240 who I was. So it was really like an inside 314 00:16:39,240 --> 00:16:45,120 out journey of that. But it's also like the talk 315 00:16:45,120 --> 00:16:47,640 about like the icky, sticky, messy middle when you don't know 316 00:16:47,640 --> 00:16:51,400 who you are yet and who you who your identity is, you don't feel 317 00:16:51,400 --> 00:16:53,560 like you've landed in it and you're still becoming. 318 00:16:53,720 --> 00:16:56,640 And so there's this like kind of uncomfortable, like awkward kind 319 00:16:56,640 --> 00:17:00,200 of cringe, like like, oh, am I, am I safe? 320 00:17:00,200 --> 00:17:03,680 Am I, can I be like this, like looking around, like needing 321 00:17:04,440 --> 00:17:06,359 validation or like, am I safe to be like this? 322 00:17:06,359 --> 00:17:08,240 Is this who I am? And kind of looking in the 323 00:17:08,240 --> 00:17:12,480 outside because you're still in this gooey morphosis of becoming 324 00:17:12,480 --> 00:17:16,160 who you are. That and my process, my 325 00:17:16,160 --> 00:17:20,000 philosophy is that people like sometimes don't want to be seen 326 00:17:20,000 --> 00:17:22,440 in that and they like hide into like, OK, now I know that I'm 327 00:17:22,440 --> 00:17:23,720 ready. Now I know who I am. 328 00:17:23,880 --> 00:17:27,800 But you actually need to be seen in that process and have 329 00:17:27,800 --> 00:17:31,640 witnesses and have community to feel like you can belong and you 330 00:17:31,640 --> 00:17:35,240 can be that. And posting online for me is 331 00:17:35,240 --> 00:17:37,560 like, it's always been my art and my medicine. 332 00:17:37,800 --> 00:17:42,680 So posting online, even when I don't know who I am, it's like 333 00:17:42,680 --> 00:17:44,880 it's that's, that's what gets me there. 334 00:17:45,440 --> 00:17:47,200 That's cool. And do you do you have a rap 335 00:17:47,480 --> 00:17:50,760 YouTube channel? I just have my YouTube channel. 336 00:17:50,960 --> 00:17:52,920 What is your YouTube channel? I don't think I checked it out, 337 00:17:53,120 --> 00:17:55,680 Lola Love, but what's what do you post on there versus like 338 00:17:55,680 --> 00:17:59,000 what's on Instagram? I mean longer form content, my 339 00:17:59,040 --> 00:18:01,640 YouTube channel, like I've been doing YouTube since I was like, 340 00:18:01,680 --> 00:18:03,280 yeah, like 13. Like that's awesome. 341 00:18:03,280 --> 00:18:05,400 Wow, that's. So cool you're OG YouTube. 342 00:18:05,400 --> 00:18:07,840 OG YouTube, Yeah. Like Bo Burnham? 343 00:18:07,960 --> 00:18:10,640 Yeah. Bo Burnham in his in his room, 344 00:18:10,640 --> 00:18:11,640 up in the attic. Right. 345 00:18:11,640 --> 00:18:15,280 And I'm like, he is, Yeah. He's like meet my muse for sure. 346 00:18:15,280 --> 00:18:16,920 So. What were something like the, 347 00:18:17,440 --> 00:18:20,080 you know, in the last year videos you made you just so 348 00:18:20,080 --> 00:18:22,680 proud of that, just for that were fun, you know? 349 00:18:22,680 --> 00:18:26,560 Yeah, so with my, my YouTube journey has been like really 350 00:18:26,560 --> 00:18:29,360 like seasonal. And I don't, I only have, I 351 00:18:29,360 --> 00:18:31,920 think I only have like 5000 followers. 352 00:18:31,920 --> 00:18:34,520 Like it's not big because I never like learned that. 353 00:18:34,520 --> 00:18:36,520 Yeah, I never like learned the way to I mean, I learned the 354 00:18:36,520 --> 00:18:38,800 way, but I haven't implemented the way to like grow big. 355 00:18:39,000 --> 00:18:41,200 But I've always had seasons. So when I was in New Zealand, I 356 00:18:41,200 --> 00:18:44,640 was like living in my van and like vlogging like, hey, van 357 00:18:44,640 --> 00:18:46,600 life. And then I got really into like 358 00:18:46,600 --> 00:18:49,040 spiritual comedy and started doing like spiritual comedy 359 00:18:49,040 --> 00:18:51,760 skits, like is this spiritual and doing all these funny 360 00:18:51,760 --> 00:18:53,640 things? And then when I moved to Austin, 361 00:18:53,720 --> 00:18:56,120 then I was like, I want to be professional, teach personal 362 00:18:56,120 --> 00:18:57,960 branding. So I did like a whole personal 363 00:18:57,960 --> 00:19:01,720 branding series, like highly curated, highly professional 364 00:19:01,720 --> 00:19:05,600 videos. And then I and then yes, I've 365 00:19:05,600 --> 00:19:07,160 had different phases and the last. 366 00:19:07,160 --> 00:19:11,280 So the phase that I'm in right now is the bath cast, which is 367 00:19:11,280 --> 00:19:12,560 recording. Oh yeah, you were talking about. 368 00:19:12,880 --> 00:19:14,480 Podcast in the bath. Podcast in the bath. 369 00:19:14,640 --> 00:19:19,320 It's a raw dog dialogue in the bath and it's just is. 370 00:19:19,320 --> 00:19:21,560 It just you in the bath or do you bring guests in the bath? 371 00:19:21,680 --> 00:19:24,600 So I've only done 2 episodes, the first was like welcome blah 372 00:19:24,600 --> 00:19:26,880 blah blah. Second I did 2 days ago and it 373 00:19:26,880 --> 00:19:30,160 was sharing my cyberbullying story so it's only been me. 374 00:19:30,160 --> 00:19:32,560 But yeah, I wanna do interview people in the bath for sure. 375 00:19:32,560 --> 00:19:34,400 It's a great idea. Yeah, if we get a big enough 1, 376 00:19:34,440 --> 00:19:37,000 you could we could do a podcast of us three in the bath. 377 00:19:38,080 --> 00:19:39,720 Suds. Yeah, we just, Yeah, we do a 378 00:19:39,720 --> 00:19:41,360 SUDS episode. Yes, that. 379 00:19:41,440 --> 00:19:43,040 'D be awesome. That's cool. 380 00:19:43,040 --> 00:19:45,160 I I love that idea. You know me and Tony have been 381 00:19:45,160 --> 00:19:49,360 wanting to do one of our goals is to do more skits, right? 382 00:19:49,520 --> 00:19:52,080 We just don't have a time, but that's like always it's always 383 00:19:52,080 --> 00:19:54,320 on my mind and always kind of thinking about it. 384 00:19:54,640 --> 00:19:57,600 So you seem like a fun person That would be the person that 385 00:19:57,600 --> 00:19:59,520 would just push us to do crazier shit. 386 00:19:59,680 --> 00:20:01,240 She would be the person that would. 387 00:20:01,360 --> 00:20:02,880 Yeah, we need someone to egg us on. 388 00:20:03,440 --> 00:20:06,600 Yeah, 'cause we'll. We'll send it, Yeah, We'll go to 389 00:20:06,600 --> 00:20:08,880 the extreme and do some wild. Especially if someone's like do. 390 00:20:08,960 --> 00:20:11,400 Someone. I need one person to tell me to 391 00:20:11,400 --> 00:20:12,960 do it and I'll fucking do it, swear to God. 392 00:20:13,480 --> 00:20:14,760 Yeah. And it's like we could kind of 393 00:20:14,760 --> 00:20:16,800 go with each, but like, you know, we're like with each 394 00:20:16,800 --> 00:20:18,440 other. But to have that third person to 395 00:20:18,440 --> 00:20:21,800 be like, guys, go, I think you too should go do that thing and 396 00:20:21,800 --> 00:20:24,960 like, OK, we'll do it, right. So we'll have to like, maybe 397 00:20:24,960 --> 00:20:28,560 we'll do some come up, we'll sit down and come up with some 398 00:20:28,560 --> 00:20:32,920 crazy, crazy skit ideas. You know, what I really feel 399 00:20:32,920 --> 00:20:38,040 called to do is like public, like courageous public intimacy, 400 00:20:38,160 --> 00:20:40,960 like permission project vibes, like doing things out in public, 401 00:20:40,960 --> 00:20:43,160 like crazy things, you know, with people like what? 402 00:20:43,160 --> 00:20:48,000 Like what? Whittling. 403 00:20:50,200 --> 00:20:51,280 Whittling. Whittling. 404 00:20:51,360 --> 00:20:52,400 Yeah. OK. 405 00:20:52,440 --> 00:20:54,960 I don't know, like there's a couple different like areas, 406 00:20:54,960 --> 00:20:59,560 maybe something playful like having like inviting people into 407 00:20:59,560 --> 00:21:03,320 play. So maybe you have like a one of 408 00:21:03,320 --> 00:21:05,000 those things you put in the pool those. 409 00:21:05,040 --> 00:21:06,080 Yeah, yeah. Pool noodle. 410 00:21:06,120 --> 00:21:07,480 Yeah. And you just, like, walk up with 411 00:21:07,480 --> 00:21:10,000 someone, like, hand it to them and start like, you know, 412 00:21:10,000 --> 00:21:12,200 fighting and see if they, like, fight with you, you know, like 413 00:21:12,200 --> 00:21:14,400 playful things like that. Oh yeah, give somebody a nerf 414 00:21:14,400 --> 00:21:16,280 gun and see if they'll play back with you. 415 00:21:16,360 --> 00:21:19,080 Exactly. So like playful invitations? 416 00:21:19,240 --> 00:21:20,320 Those are cool, I like that idea. 417 00:21:20,320 --> 00:21:22,040 Yeah. And then also maybe just like, 418 00:21:23,120 --> 00:21:25,760 like intimacy questions, like just going up to someone and be 419 00:21:25,760 --> 00:21:28,920 like, what's what's alive for you right now? 420 00:21:28,920 --> 00:21:30,760 And they're like, what's, what's your biggest dream? 421 00:21:31,080 --> 00:21:32,360 Like what do you, what do you be afraid of? 422 00:21:32,360 --> 00:21:33,440 You know, like questions like that. 423 00:21:33,440 --> 00:21:35,840 Yeah, like intimate St. interviews. 424 00:21:36,000 --> 00:21:38,520 Yeah, yeah. But it's like, it's also like 425 00:21:38,520 --> 00:21:40,440 it's kind of been done, you know, it's kind of like flat, 426 00:21:40,440 --> 00:21:42,520 like it's. What would be the difference 427 00:21:43,600 --> 00:21:46,480 like in your mind? Like how would you make it the 428 00:21:46,480 --> 00:21:51,400 way you see it? I want to bring people to their 429 00:21:51,400 --> 00:21:53,840 edges. Have I want the people to feel 430 00:21:53,840 --> 00:22:02,440 really safe to to play in their edges and to remember that we're 431 00:22:02,440 --> 00:22:04,480 human and that we're all connected. 432 00:22:05,560 --> 00:22:08,760 So could we. Do it right now, would you? 433 00:22:08,760 --> 00:22:10,600 Do you like? Are you talking like questions? 434 00:22:11,440 --> 00:22:14,040 Yeah, the I I was literally like brainstorming yesterday. 435 00:22:14,040 --> 00:22:15,680 I have a bunch of things you. Should make your own cards 436 00:22:15,760 --> 00:22:17,960 'cause there's a bunch of people online that sell cards and I've 437 00:22:18,160 --> 00:22:20,720 gotten a couple and they're not very good. 438 00:22:20,720 --> 00:22:22,000 There was like this one set I bought. 439 00:22:22,000 --> 00:22:24,120 It's like intimacy level 1-2 and three. 440 00:22:24,560 --> 00:22:27,320 And I bought them and my sister's, you know, really into 441 00:22:27,520 --> 00:22:30,320 therapy, spiritual, blah, blah. And we were reading through them 442 00:22:30,320 --> 00:22:33,240 more like they're not that great. 443 00:22:33,240 --> 00:22:37,240 I feel like there's a real ability to use those right? 444 00:22:37,640 --> 00:22:40,000 And people buy them. Like I would love to buy a good 445 00:22:40,000 --> 00:22:43,440 pair because they're so useful in so many situations, so many 446 00:22:43,440 --> 00:22:45,680 situations. Yeah, like how do we, how do we 447 00:22:45,880 --> 00:22:50,280 go outside the box? Another question of like if you 448 00:22:50,280 --> 00:22:52,560 had permission to do what you actually wanted, like what would 449 00:22:52,560 --> 00:22:54,240 you want to do? Like if I gave you permission 450 00:22:54,240 --> 00:22:56,400 right now like to do something like what would? 451 00:22:57,400 --> 00:22:59,440 Like just in this room or like in life? 452 00:23:00,680 --> 00:23:04,120 Kind of both, you know, like, I don't know, sometimes I sit, 453 00:23:04,120 --> 00:23:06,280 sometimes I'm in like when I was in corporate, I remember sitting 454 00:23:06,280 --> 00:23:08,480 in the office and like seeing everybody and I just was 455 00:23:08,480 --> 00:23:11,680 thinking like, what if I just got up and started like dancing 456 00:23:11,680 --> 00:23:13,880 like a crazy person? Like what would happen? 457 00:23:14,040 --> 00:23:16,200 Like would, would I get kicked out? 458 00:23:16,200 --> 00:23:18,000 Would I like, would people join me? 459 00:23:18,000 --> 00:23:21,440 Would like what I just, I just think about like, how do we just 460 00:23:21,440 --> 00:23:26,080 break the box of like our, our safety survival patterns of this 461 00:23:26,080 --> 00:23:27,680 is how we're supposed to be and this is how we're supposed to 462 00:23:27,680 --> 00:23:28,960 act and this is what we're supposed to wear. 463 00:23:28,960 --> 00:23:31,280 It's like, how do we just like start to edge and like break the 464 00:23:31,280 --> 00:23:35,120 box to remember we're all, we're all like feral animals and we're 465 00:23:35,160 --> 00:23:37,600 all like deep souls. Like how do we, how do we bring 466 00:23:37,600 --> 00:23:41,160 that out in people that we, that activates our aliveness, that 467 00:23:41,200 --> 00:23:45,000 makes us feel liberated, that the houses feel connected to 468 00:23:45,000 --> 00:23:48,480 each other in a, in a way beyond what we know, know what we know? 469 00:23:49,320 --> 00:23:53,560 I've been trying to think about that in some like in some ways 470 00:23:53,560 --> 00:23:58,200 for the podcast, like what are ways that we can podcast that is 471 00:23:58,200 --> 00:24:00,520 so just kind of like messes with people's heads. 472 00:24:00,840 --> 00:24:02,560 Like, Hey, we started doing live stuff. 473 00:24:02,640 --> 00:24:06,760 We want to do podcasts and festivals, but like keep seeing 474 00:24:06,760 --> 00:24:12,160 how we can introduce things that are just very uncommon, right? 475 00:24:12,160 --> 00:24:14,360 So I like, I like that idea, right? 476 00:24:14,360 --> 00:24:17,360 Like mess with people because so much stuff out there just in 477 00:24:17,360 --> 00:24:19,440 general or online or even just people's lives. 478 00:24:19,440 --> 00:24:22,000 It's just kind of, it's the same, it's the same, It's the 479 00:24:22,000 --> 00:24:24,840 same people copying, especially online, it's the same content, 480 00:24:24,840 --> 00:24:27,440 same. Just like refining, just like 481 00:24:27,440 --> 00:24:29,440 hooks and this and that and blah, blah, blah. 482 00:24:29,440 --> 00:24:33,600 You're never going to find the true authentic creative next 483 00:24:33,600 --> 00:24:35,280 thing if you don't push the limits. 484 00:24:35,800 --> 00:24:38,040 Totally. I think about positive pranks, 485 00:24:38,560 --> 00:24:40,120 you know, like, so you said messing with people, like 486 00:24:40,120 --> 00:24:43,240 pranking people then like a positive way that creates like a 487 00:24:43,440 --> 00:24:47,480 yeah, spontaneous joy rather than oh, that oh, I'm being 488 00:24:47,480 --> 00:24:50,360 fucked with, like feeling bad. Yeah, positive pranks. 489 00:24:50,360 --> 00:24:53,840 Like what can we do? Yeah, I like that. 490 00:24:53,840 --> 00:24:55,200 What? What ideas do you have for 491 00:24:55,200 --> 00:25:05,160 positive pranks? Like, I don't know, like I don't 492 00:25:05,160 --> 00:25:06,120 know. The thing that came into my head 493 00:25:06,120 --> 00:25:08,200 right now is just and it's just so simple, just like handing 494 00:25:08,200 --> 00:25:10,360 someone a rose and like giving them like a really like 495 00:25:10,680 --> 00:25:14,400 beautiful compliment and like seeing what comes from there. 496 00:25:15,640 --> 00:25:18,240 I'm a photographer, so I've had the idea and my my company is 497 00:25:18,240 --> 00:25:20,800 called Hottie Hype Crew. I'm here to hype up the hotties 498 00:25:20,800 --> 00:25:23,720 and bring our aliveness out. So I had this idea of like just 499 00:25:23,720 --> 00:25:26,720 going out and randomly in Austin and finding like, being like, 500 00:25:26,880 --> 00:25:28,800 oh, that person's really hot. Like, let's go see if I can take 501 00:25:28,800 --> 00:25:30,880 their photo or let's go see, you know, something like that. 502 00:25:30,880 --> 00:25:31,520 That's cool. I love it. 503 00:25:31,520 --> 00:25:33,160 Yeah. And then like having experience 504 00:25:33,160 --> 00:25:34,400 with them. But I've also like, I've seen 505 00:25:34,400 --> 00:25:36,320 that been done before, you know? Yeah, but. 506 00:25:36,640 --> 00:25:38,320 Yeah, if you can throw your flair on it, it's. 507 00:25:38,560 --> 00:25:42,520 Totally different. I mean, in every multi, in every 508 00:25:42,520 --> 00:25:45,560 universe, in the multiverse, everything's been done already. 509 00:25:45,880 --> 00:25:47,000 Yeah. So fuck yeah, you're right. 510 00:25:47,000 --> 00:25:48,880 Might as well just do it. Your own way. 511 00:25:48,920 --> 00:25:51,480 Yeah, you can't say, oh, there's too many books like. 512 00:25:51,680 --> 00:25:53,200 Yeah, I'm not going to. We're not going to write a book. 513 00:25:53,320 --> 00:25:55,600 Or there's not. There's too many books about a 514 00:25:55,600 --> 00:25:57,680 Prince and a Princess or this and that. 515 00:25:57,680 --> 00:26:01,560 It's like, no, it's your individual experience telling 516 00:26:01,560 --> 00:26:05,240 that story that makes it unique. And maybe some of it buddy's 517 00:26:05,240 --> 00:26:08,280 seen that type of content, but they never resonated until they 518 00:26:08,280 --> 00:26:10,920 saw it through you. And, and just something about 519 00:26:10,920 --> 00:26:14,080 like, you know, what you're all about is your uniqueness pulls 520 00:26:14,080 --> 00:26:15,680 them in and they actually connect. 521 00:26:16,160 --> 00:26:19,320 I mean, like, how many homestead Instagrams are there or people 522 00:26:19,320 --> 00:26:21,520 like just mommy influencers or whatever. 523 00:26:21,640 --> 00:26:23,360 It's like, oh, Nope, there's too many mommy influencers. 524 00:26:23,360 --> 00:26:25,240 Can't be a mommy influencer. It's like, no. 525 00:26:26,160 --> 00:26:29,560 Yeah, I think the whole point of authenticity is not changing 526 00:26:29,560 --> 00:26:35,000 your behavior based on the external world or like based on 527 00:26:35,000 --> 00:26:38,600 what what you what's already been done or you perceive. 528 00:26:38,600 --> 00:26:41,800 So if you want to do it, who the fuck cares if. 529 00:26:42,880 --> 00:26:44,640 Getting a download. Yeah, you do it anyways. 530 00:26:46,080 --> 00:26:50,080 It's like so, so I think a lot of women probably have this, but 531 00:26:50,080 --> 00:26:52,680 I have a thing where if there's like a guy that I'm like super 532 00:26:52,680 --> 00:26:56,360 attracted to who's like that I think is like almost like too 533 00:26:56,360 --> 00:26:59,400 hot or too cool or like too good for me that like this like oh, 534 00:26:59,400 --> 00:27:01,160 like like nervous, like, oh, who am I to? 535 00:27:01,160 --> 00:27:04,040 Oh, like, and I feel like small and like nervous. 536 00:27:04,040 --> 00:27:07,320 So it's like, how do I break out of the that that kind of box of 537 00:27:07,320 --> 00:27:10,920 feeling? So yeah, doing like going up to 538 00:27:10,920 --> 00:27:12,200 people. One time me and my friends had 539 00:27:12,200 --> 00:27:14,480 this idea of because we heard that like all the like hot 540 00:27:14,480 --> 00:27:18,080 single like dudes are at like Whole Foods and like really nice 541 00:27:18,080 --> 00:27:19,600 grocery stores on like Sunday morning. 542 00:27:19,760 --> 00:27:22,320 Are they? I don't want to go try it out. 543 00:27:22,560 --> 00:27:26,080 So like doing an experiment and like going to these places and 544 00:27:26,400 --> 00:27:30,840 like pushing my edges in my box to like, oh, that guy's really 545 00:27:30,840 --> 00:27:32,840 hot. Like I'm going to go, you know, 546 00:27:32,840 --> 00:27:37,560 talk to him or do something. So like, OK, so in the old days, 547 00:27:37,560 --> 00:27:42,360 women would drop a scarf or a handkerchief, you know, that 548 00:27:42,360 --> 00:27:43,760 when they were interested in someone. 549 00:27:43,760 --> 00:27:47,240 So like we make the first move energetically to show that we're 550 00:27:47,240 --> 00:27:49,000 interested in we're available. You draw in. 551 00:27:49,240 --> 00:27:53,760 We draw in so so I had an idea of how can we modernize that 552 00:27:53,760 --> 00:27:55,760 like OK, so drop. A coupon. 553 00:27:56,120 --> 00:27:58,840 Yeah, if I'm in the grocery store, like I'm kind of just 554 00:27:58,840 --> 00:28:00,800 like keep growing it. Like first it's like maybe like, 555 00:28:00,800 --> 00:28:04,240 oh, I accidentally dropped like my, my grocery list, like in 556 00:28:04,240 --> 00:28:07,680 front of a hot guy and see if he picks it up or I and then it can 557 00:28:07,680 --> 00:28:10,400 go like weirder and weirder. Like I drop, I drop my scarf or 558 00:28:10,400 --> 00:28:12,760 like I drop my purse or like, you know, like I drop my 559 00:28:12,840 --> 00:28:14,720 shopping cart. Like just keep getting like 560 00:28:14,720 --> 00:28:16,920 pushing the edges and making it like just. 561 00:28:17,120 --> 00:28:19,760 Dump your shopping cart over. All your stuff lies out. 562 00:28:20,320 --> 00:28:23,200 Oops, sorry. Right. 563 00:28:24,080 --> 00:28:25,320 Tip A. Shelf over. 564 00:28:25,440 --> 00:28:29,120 Yeah, knock all the pie, you know, free samples table and 565 00:28:29,160 --> 00:28:31,280 just flip the whole thing. Oopsies, I bet. 566 00:28:31,280 --> 00:28:34,720 You could team up with fucking like, HEB or something. 567 00:28:34,720 --> 00:28:37,120 They would be so down and just be like, like, I'm going to do a 568 00:28:37,120 --> 00:28:39,880 Sunday morning singles event to get everybody or a morning where 569 00:28:39,880 --> 00:28:41,680 nobody's there to, like, get everybody pumped. 570 00:28:42,040 --> 00:28:45,440 And maybe you put things in your cart specifically instead of 571 00:28:45,440 --> 00:28:46,800 throwing shit all over the store. 572 00:28:47,160 --> 00:28:48,840 They might not be into that. Yeah, You were just. 573 00:28:48,920 --> 00:28:52,000 Yeah, yeah. Just like, yeah, maybe you, but 574 00:28:52,040 --> 00:28:54,640 yeah, that you have to bring maybe things from home or or 575 00:28:54,640 --> 00:28:57,160 they're items, right? You have to have like if you 576 00:28:57,160 --> 00:29:01,040 have 3 watermelons in your bag then. 577 00:29:01,320 --> 00:29:03,640 They gave me an idea for like a, you know, they, how they have 578 00:29:03,640 --> 00:29:06,240 those like singles events like speed dating or things like 579 00:29:06,240 --> 00:29:09,960 that. What if we set up a shopping 580 00:29:09,960 --> 00:29:12,920 dating event where you go do your, you're actually going to a 581 00:29:12,920 --> 00:29:15,320 store doing your grocery shopping, but you know that 582 00:29:15,320 --> 00:29:18,480 everybody in the store is single and you're, it's like an open 583 00:29:18,480 --> 00:29:20,400 invitation to go flirt with people at the grocery store and 584 00:29:20,400 --> 00:29:23,320 you go find people that have your stuff in their cart so you 585 00:29:23,320 --> 00:29:25,480 know you have the same taste. Oh yeah, you can. 586 00:29:25,480 --> 00:29:28,280 Like you can judge them if you like them based on their cart. 587 00:29:28,280 --> 00:29:30,840 Like you got organic. OK, you got, you bought the. 588 00:29:31,480 --> 00:29:33,400 Single stuff Oreos. You didn't get the double stuff. 589 00:29:34,120 --> 00:29:35,880 But I like your idea. That there there's. 590 00:29:36,400 --> 00:29:38,840 I'm getting so excited. There needs to be a singles 591 00:29:38,840 --> 00:29:42,440 event or an event that employs the handkerchief vibe. 592 00:29:42,960 --> 00:29:46,240 There needs like in You're on to Something 'cause if You did that 593 00:29:46,680 --> 00:29:49,080 in some way, people would more open to it because then it would 594 00:29:49,480 --> 00:29:53,000 because guys want to approach and girls want to be approached. 595 00:29:53,240 --> 00:29:57,800 But like a speed dating's weird 'cause it's like it's super 596 00:29:57,800 --> 00:30:00,480 weird. And then now you know you're 597 00:30:00,480 --> 00:30:04,120 still playing into those dynamics and then you're also 598 00:30:04,120 --> 00:30:06,200 not approaching people that just don't want to be approached, 599 00:30:06,520 --> 00:30:07,840 right? And even if they're not that 600 00:30:07,840 --> 00:30:10,760 into, at least they're still like, oh, it's OK for you to 601 00:30:10,760 --> 00:30:12,680 come talk to me. It's like, may not be a great 602 00:30:12,680 --> 00:30:15,440 conversation, but I'm OK with it, right? 603 00:30:15,560 --> 00:30:19,040 I think that was the whole point of Hinge was to like allow women 604 00:30:19,040 --> 00:30:22,320 to make the first move, But maybe that was like one too far 605 00:30:22,320 --> 00:30:25,200 is like making them a message first or was it bumble, bumble, 606 00:30:25,200 --> 00:30:28,880 whatever, I don't know the fucking dating apps, but I think 607 00:30:28,880 --> 00:30:31,440 maybe that was one too far was like making the message. 608 00:30:31,440 --> 00:30:34,440 It should have been like, you just light up a little flag or 609 00:30:34,440 --> 00:30:36,240 something and the guy knows and then he can message. 610 00:30:36,600 --> 00:30:39,480 Maybe that fits more with a handkerchief theory. 611 00:30:39,960 --> 00:30:42,520 But I like that because you should as women like be able to 612 00:30:42,520 --> 00:30:44,560 invite the men. And I think a lot of men don't 613 00:30:44,560 --> 00:30:48,000 go approach because, well, they've been shot down 614 00:30:48,000 --> 00:30:50,400 aggressively by women so often that they're like, OK, well, 615 00:30:50,560 --> 00:30:53,000 I'll just, you know, abuse dog. I'll just stay in my corner and 616 00:30:53,000 --> 00:30:55,720 I won't go talk to anybody. But if there was like a very 617 00:30:55,720 --> 00:30:59,800 clear hey, I'm interested invitation, not I like you, but 618 00:30:59,800 --> 00:31:02,280 you know the door is at least open for you to come say hi, 619 00:31:02,880 --> 00:31:05,000 guys would be way more inclined to go talk to you. 620 00:31:05,000 --> 00:31:07,720 OK, let's turn this into a clip and ask everybody in the 621 00:31:07,720 --> 00:31:10,160 comments section. What do you think should be the 622 00:31:10,160 --> 00:31:13,040 tell? Like with the tell meaning like 623 00:31:13,040 --> 00:31:16,720 what should be the handkerchief like one idea is you could 624 00:31:16,720 --> 00:31:20,040 different shades of lipstick, right? 625 00:31:20,040 --> 00:31:24,080 No lipstick, don't talk to me. Like super bright red lipstick. 626 00:31:24,720 --> 00:31:27,520 Everybody come talk to me and then I don't know, like you 627 00:31:27,520 --> 00:31:30,240 could have different like lipstick or something like that. 628 00:31:30,440 --> 00:31:32,440 And it could be, doesn't even have to be, could be a grocery 629 00:31:32,440 --> 00:31:35,240 store could be something your most creative ideas, 'cause I 630 00:31:35,240 --> 00:31:37,160 think you're on to something, 'cause if you did this, people 631 00:31:37,160 --> 00:31:40,320 would be, especially Austin would be super down just, and 632 00:31:40,320 --> 00:31:43,800 also you just meet a bunch of cool people and it's very chill. 633 00:31:43,800 --> 00:31:46,440 Oh. My God, I'd love to host fun. 634 00:31:46,640 --> 00:31:50,040 And the thing with with. Bumble sucks is guys that aren't 635 00:31:50,040 --> 00:31:53,320 let's say good at approaching. Now they get practice, and they 636 00:31:53,320 --> 00:31:56,560 get practice not approaching women who are going to just be 637 00:31:56,560 --> 00:31:58,640 like, what the fuck are you? I mean, that'd be awful. 638 00:31:58,880 --> 00:32:00,560 She drops a handkerchief. She's like, why the fuck are you 639 00:32:00,560 --> 00:32:01,480 talking to me? Like what do you? 640 00:32:01,480 --> 00:32:03,360 Mean. Get away from a handkerchief. 641 00:32:03,360 --> 00:32:05,440 But it's good practice. Like now you're you're literally 642 00:32:05,440 --> 00:32:08,440 training abused dogs. So it's like men need to know 643 00:32:08,440 --> 00:32:10,120 that they have the, oh, she's interested. 644 00:32:10,120 --> 00:32:11,440 Like they, you need the 1st signal. 645 00:32:11,640 --> 00:32:14,280 The women, we need to feel like it's like, 'cause it's like, if 646 00:32:14,280 --> 00:32:20,080 they're so, Oh my God, it's like we need to feel like if I'm, if 647 00:32:20,080 --> 00:32:21,800 I do something like what's, what can I do? 648 00:32:21,800 --> 00:32:24,360 Like what can I do that shows you that I'm interested and then 649 00:32:24,360 --> 00:32:28,120 not feel like I got rejected? You know, like some different. 650 00:32:28,520 --> 00:32:30,520 Do rags on their head. Yeah, yeah. 651 00:32:30,520 --> 00:32:33,240 But it's like, but it's like with each interaction, like how 652 00:32:33,240 --> 00:32:36,120 do I show you that I'm interested, not you like I 653 00:32:36,120 --> 00:32:37,880 don't. Because it is by person. 654 00:32:38,480 --> 00:32:40,800 Did you guys ever have you stoplight dances when you were 655 00:32:40,800 --> 00:32:42,240 young? Do you ever? 656 00:32:42,320 --> 00:32:44,080 Have stoplight dances where you go. 657 00:32:44,080 --> 00:32:46,280 It was like, you go to a dance when you're in like fifth grade, 658 00:32:46,280 --> 00:32:48,520 6th grade, whatever. And if you wear green, that 659 00:32:48,520 --> 00:32:50,920 means you're single and you're open. 660 00:32:51,200 --> 00:32:53,640 Red means you're in a relationship, so don't talk to 661 00:32:53,640 --> 00:32:54,720 me. And then yellow was like, it's 662 00:32:54,720 --> 00:32:57,560 complicated. Something like that is what we 663 00:32:57,560 --> 00:32:59,080 need. But yeah, more individual. 664 00:32:59,360 --> 00:33:01,720 I don't know if you like a move. Yeah, I don't know if you do 665 00:33:01,720 --> 00:33:04,400 individual, because what if the girl, it's still a little too 666 00:33:04,400 --> 00:33:06,600 direct, right? Because say the girl's like, I 667 00:33:06,600 --> 00:33:10,680 want that one specific guy and then he sees it and he's just 668 00:33:10,680 --> 00:33:13,320 like now trying to ignore the whole time. 669 00:33:14,200 --> 00:33:15,560 It's like you just kind of have to. 670 00:33:16,280 --> 00:33:18,840 I feel like that's where the feminine piece comes in is like 671 00:33:19,120 --> 00:33:21,360 you have some kind of signal that says you're open, but 672 00:33:21,360 --> 00:33:25,560 you're you need to now kind of, you know, dote your energy 673 00:33:25,560 --> 00:33:28,040 around that individual. Just get him to. 674 00:33:28,440 --> 00:33:31,400 As the feminine side, you have to be good at your boundaries 675 00:33:31,400 --> 00:33:34,320 and saying no like, 'cause you're gonna like, that's kind 676 00:33:34,320 --> 00:33:37,680 of the the plight of the woman, right, Is you have to say, OK, 677 00:33:37,680 --> 00:33:39,360 I'm receptive. And then you're going to have 678 00:33:39,360 --> 00:33:41,960 energy come at you like, no matter what from different guys. 679 00:33:41,960 --> 00:33:45,200 So then you then have to be good at saying no and yes to the ones 680 00:33:45,200 --> 00:33:46,920 that you do want. So yeah, it does have to be 681 00:33:46,920 --> 00:33:48,640 individual, but that's probably going to come down to your 682 00:33:48,640 --> 00:33:52,160 communication skills. And the guy has to be OK knowing 683 00:33:52,160 --> 00:33:56,000 that just because they're open to talking doesn't mean she's in 684 00:33:56,000 --> 00:33:56,280 you. Yeah, it. 685 00:33:56,280 --> 00:33:57,760 Doesn't mean she's open to talking to you, pal. 686 00:33:57,960 --> 00:34:00,320 Yeah, you still can't be ugly. Yeah, so maybe you give like a 687 00:34:00,320 --> 00:34:02,760 little 5 minute talk in the beginning, right. 688 00:34:02,920 --> 00:34:04,520 And everyone's just there to have a good time. 689 00:34:04,760 --> 00:34:08,280 And that way you know, if it's only 30 people, you know, it's, 690 00:34:08,679 --> 00:34:11,080 it's chill. I'm also wondering like how we 691 00:34:11,080 --> 00:34:15,080 can make some kind of not even just add an event, but just like 692 00:34:15,080 --> 00:34:17,400 in general, like in a culture like something that can go viral 693 00:34:17,400 --> 00:34:20,120 that people can actually like do like a something that a woman 694 00:34:20,120 --> 00:34:21,639 can do to show like, oh, I'm interested in you. 695 00:34:21,800 --> 00:34:23,600 You know, if it's just like mocking the grocery store and 696 00:34:23,600 --> 00:34:26,600 it's like people in Austin, they know that like what? 697 00:34:26,639 --> 00:34:28,800 You know, just some kind of movement or like what? 698 00:34:28,800 --> 00:34:30,239 Would you do? What do you think is a good 699 00:34:30,239 --> 00:34:32,080 idea? Just flash the dude. 700 00:34:32,520 --> 00:34:35,239 I mean, I'm like, I'm an eye. I'm an eye fucker, you know, 701 00:34:35,760 --> 00:34:38,760 like I like, I'll like hold the eye contact a bit longer and 702 00:34:38,760 --> 00:34:41,199 then like, oh, there is something, it's called like the 703 00:34:41,199 --> 00:34:43,000 triangle. I think it's like you look and 704 00:34:43,000 --> 00:34:46,480 then you like it's like you. Oh yeah, right. 705 00:34:46,520 --> 00:34:47,440 Way back. You like look? 706 00:34:47,480 --> 00:34:49,440 Yeah, you like look the way you look down. 707 00:34:49,440 --> 00:34:51,800 Downside back. Yeah, I think that you do. 708 00:34:51,800 --> 00:34:54,639 That before you kiss somebody to from one eye to the mouth and 709 00:34:54,639 --> 00:34:56,239 the back to the other eye. Yeah. 710 00:34:56,320 --> 00:34:59,840 So it's like that, like that. And that's an easy one. 711 00:34:59,840 --> 00:35:01,920 It's like, oh, that's good. So. 712 00:35:02,120 --> 00:35:05,720 And then. But yeah, what's like, I don't 713 00:35:05,720 --> 00:35:06,160 know. Oh. 714 00:35:06,160 --> 00:35:08,160 I think eye contact. Is eye contact, yeah. 715 00:35:08,160 --> 00:35:10,960 Yeah, it's a good one, yeah. It's definitely a good idea. 716 00:35:11,040 --> 00:35:13,960 OK, so. Well, you'll have to report back 717 00:35:13,960 --> 00:35:17,640 on the men at Whole Foods on Sunday morning. 718 00:35:17,640 --> 00:35:18,880 I know. I have to do this, Yeah. 719 00:35:18,880 --> 00:35:21,480 I'm curious about if you. Live stream it, let us know how 720 00:35:21,480 --> 00:35:22,360 it can be. Yeah, yeah. 721 00:35:22,480 --> 00:35:23,360 Yeah, yeah. I just. 722 00:35:23,400 --> 00:35:25,600 Yeah. I don't even have a buddy, but 723 00:35:25,600 --> 00:35:27,920 yeah, no, I'm excited. This is fun. 724 00:35:28,960 --> 00:35:31,600 I feel really lit up by that. So you like, Tantra was a big 725 00:35:31,600 --> 00:35:35,920 piece of like helping you out of kind of like a very dark place. 726 00:35:35,920 --> 00:35:40,560 When you got to Austin, did you continue to, you know, dive into 727 00:35:40,560 --> 00:35:43,000 Tantra practices and whatnot, and what's that been like for 728 00:35:43,000 --> 00:35:49,720 you here? Yeah, I, I've always been a very 729 00:35:49,720 --> 00:35:52,840 like alive, awakened, like sexual woman. 730 00:35:52,840 --> 00:35:57,920 And, and then I got really into the yoga world and kind of that 731 00:35:57,920 --> 00:36:00,480 that kind of shut down 'cause it was like I was living in ashrams 732 00:36:00,480 --> 00:36:03,720 and it was like, you need to contain, you need to be divine. 733 00:36:03,720 --> 00:36:06,280 And that wasn't a part of it. And all these yoga traditions 734 00:36:06,280 --> 00:36:11,080 that I did, and then when I was with my partner, it was like I 735 00:36:11,080 --> 00:36:12,600 just wanted more. I wanted more. 736 00:36:12,600 --> 00:36:13,960 I wanted to experience more with him. 737 00:36:13,960 --> 00:36:15,440 He wasn't really open. It didn't really matter. 738 00:36:15,440 --> 00:36:18,440 It wasn't important to him. And then that's kind of why our 739 00:36:18,440 --> 00:36:20,600 relationship ended because it wasn't being fulfilled in my 740 00:36:20,600 --> 00:36:22,800 expansion. And so then, and then I'm here, 741 00:36:22,800 --> 00:36:25,880 I'm in Austin and I'm single and I'm, I'm like awoke being for 742 00:36:25,880 --> 00:36:27,720 the first time. And so I'm like, oh, I can 743 00:36:27,720 --> 00:36:30,400 explore. And so when I discovered Tantra, 744 00:36:30,560 --> 00:36:35,320 there was no, it was your whole body is yogic and spiritual and 745 00:36:35,320 --> 00:36:37,920 sacred. You don't block off your sexual 746 00:36:37,920 --> 00:36:40,080 parts because it's not spiritual. 747 00:36:40,360 --> 00:36:44,000 So that's why I started going deeper into Tantra because it's 748 00:36:44,000 --> 00:36:46,760 a form of yoga that's like, it's all, it's all divine. 749 00:36:47,680 --> 00:36:52,560 And so coming be like having being a very like alive sexual 750 00:36:52,560 --> 00:36:54,880 woman. There was experiences in like 751 00:36:54,960 --> 00:36:58,080 high school and college where I didn't know boundaries, I didn't 752 00:36:58,080 --> 00:36:59,280 know how to communicate boundaries. 753 00:36:59,280 --> 00:37:02,000 And I was taking advantage of and then there was rumors and 754 00:37:02,000 --> 00:37:06,560 then there was like sexual abuse and just, you know, not knowing 755 00:37:06,560 --> 00:37:10,760 how to say no and being hurt like that. 756 00:37:10,760 --> 00:37:14,280 So in Tantra, it's all about communicating your desires, 757 00:37:14,280 --> 00:37:18,760 communicating your boundaries and feeling, feeling empowered 758 00:37:18,760 --> 00:37:21,520 in your connections. And so that the communication 759 00:37:21,520 --> 00:37:26,120 part has been really important for me in setting boundaries and 760 00:37:26,120 --> 00:37:30,240 being discerning and being able to connect with people deeper 761 00:37:30,240 --> 00:37:32,640 and not just feeling like, oh, people just want me for my body. 762 00:37:32,960 --> 00:37:37,560 But and like, and sex is like fulfilling the ego or like ego 763 00:37:37,560 --> 00:37:39,720 fucking and soul fucking, you know, like very different 764 00:37:39,720 --> 00:37:42,760 experiences. And like we all want, we all 765 00:37:42,760 --> 00:37:44,800 want soul fucking. We want to feel like so deeply 766 00:37:44,800 --> 00:37:46,840 connected and like transcendental with someone. 767 00:37:46,840 --> 00:37:50,840 So being able to slow down and create sacred containers and 768 00:37:50,840 --> 00:37:54,080 having these communications and openness and, and Tantra 769 00:37:54,080 --> 00:37:57,840 containers, like that's helped yeah, create more intimacy and 770 00:37:57,840 --> 00:38:01,000 slowness and relations. So it's kind of been my journey. 771 00:38:01,760 --> 00:38:05,800 That's cool. Do you have any frameworks for 772 00:38:06,680 --> 00:38:09,520 creating those containers? Like of communication with 773 00:38:09,520 --> 00:38:12,200 people? Yeah. 774 00:38:12,200 --> 00:38:16,920 So I mean there's like the there's the ones that like RBDMS 775 00:38:16,920 --> 00:38:19,840 set and RB those ones. RBDSM. 776 00:38:19,840 --> 00:38:22,040 RDBSM Yeah. How do those go? 777 00:38:22,840 --> 00:38:24,040 I never did that one. I did. 778 00:38:24,040 --> 00:38:27,880 What's the other one called? Beers designer. 779 00:38:27,880 --> 00:38:30,880 No, you know, yeah, it's, I don't remember what it's called 780 00:38:31,640 --> 00:38:35,480 Safe, Safe something do. You know what they what they are 781 00:38:35,480 --> 00:38:37,000 though. Yeah, RR was. 782 00:38:37,480 --> 00:38:40,160 Relationships. Relationships B is boundaries, D 783 00:38:40,160 --> 00:38:43,800 is desires, desires S is safety. Safety. 784 00:38:44,400 --> 00:38:47,920 And then M is. My mummy, yeah. 785 00:38:50,320 --> 00:38:51,080 I don't know. I don't know. 786 00:38:51,080 --> 00:38:53,080 But a is aftercare. Like, I don't know. 787 00:38:53,240 --> 00:38:58,720 Yeah, I like I, yeah, like I kind of use those, but not 788 00:38:58,720 --> 00:38:59,960 really. It kind of like naturally 789 00:38:59,960 --> 00:39:02,560 happens and stuff. I'm practicing my kind of 790 00:39:02,560 --> 00:39:05,440 experiment right now is being more, being more dangerous in 791 00:39:05,440 --> 00:39:08,520 communicating with people. I feel like my good girl, if a 792 00:39:08,520 --> 00:39:10,640 guy is talking to me and I feel like they're trying to like 793 00:39:10,840 --> 00:39:13,520 prove themselves or like they're in their ego, I'm just kind of 794 00:39:13,560 --> 00:39:15,120 like, Oh yeah. Like I kind of just like be 795 00:39:15,120 --> 00:39:15,880 nice. Oh, cool. 796 00:39:15,880 --> 00:39:17,280 That's really great. Like cuz I want them to feel 797 00:39:17,280 --> 00:39:19,440 good, but I realize they're just trying to impress me and like 798 00:39:19,440 --> 00:39:22,320 I'm not impressed and I just want you to be real and like not 799 00:39:22,320 --> 00:39:25,560 put on a mask. And so I'm practicing being more 800 00:39:25,560 --> 00:39:27,320 dangerous and being like, why are you saying that? 801 00:39:27,560 --> 00:39:29,440 Like what are you trying to? What are you trying? 802 00:39:29,440 --> 00:39:31,800 To that's that's what a lot of guys need. 803 00:39:32,440 --> 00:39:34,840 Yeah, like. It just cuts to it because I've 804 00:39:34,840 --> 00:39:37,360 had women do that to me, my partner's done that to me where 805 00:39:37,360 --> 00:39:39,240 I'm like trying to be cool. And then she'll ask that 806 00:39:39,240 --> 00:39:39,760 question. I'm like. 807 00:39:40,040 --> 00:39:41,680 Oh fuck it. Do you have an example? 808 00:39:41,800 --> 00:39:43,400 What's like a Do you have a story? 809 00:39:44,320 --> 00:39:47,320 Yeah, one time I had said something about. 810 00:39:47,320 --> 00:39:49,200 It was something about money. I don't remember what I said but 811 00:39:49,200 --> 00:39:53,120 I kind of like flexed something about money and it was really 812 00:39:53,280 --> 00:39:56,040 dumb and like I knew as I said it. 813 00:39:56,040 --> 00:39:57,120 Like it's like coming out of your mouth and. 814 00:39:57,120 --> 00:39:58,520 You're like, yeah, as I was saying, I was like, this is 815 00:39:58,560 --> 00:40:01,480 fucking retarded. And then she just kind of looked 816 00:40:01,480 --> 00:40:02,520 at me. She gave me like a look. 817 00:40:02,520 --> 00:40:06,120 She's like, what? I don't even think she said. 818 00:40:06,120 --> 00:40:07,600 Why did you say that? It was just the look. 819 00:40:07,800 --> 00:40:10,040 And they're like, and it was almost like looking at me with 820 00:40:10,040 --> 00:40:11,760 compassion. Like, she still loved me even 821 00:40:11,760 --> 00:40:15,320 though I said a retarded thing. But that was all it took for me 822 00:40:15,320 --> 00:40:16,760 to go. Yeah, cut. 823 00:40:17,840 --> 00:40:20,320 Through it, yeah, yeah. So I need to yeah, practice 824 00:40:20,320 --> 00:40:23,360 being more like, oh, just like present and not like, yeah, 825 00:40:23,440 --> 00:40:24,880 yeah, I'd be like what? Why? 826 00:40:25,400 --> 00:40:27,120 Just like, not so agreeable with. 827 00:40:27,280 --> 00:40:29,240 Yeah, just going along with their bullshit and hyping them 828 00:40:29,240 --> 00:40:30,240 up. I think that's. 829 00:40:30,320 --> 00:40:31,440 Yeah, that's good. Yeah. 830 00:40:31,440 --> 00:40:34,120 Because then you're not really that interested in him. 831 00:40:34,720 --> 00:40:36,880 And that's authentic. And, and maybe I would be 832 00:40:36,880 --> 00:40:39,280 interested if they were being real and they weren't wearing a 833 00:40:39,280 --> 00:40:41,320 mask 'cause we can sense of bullshit immediately. 834 00:40:41,320 --> 00:40:44,680 And it's like, it's not fun. Let's go. 835 00:40:45,280 --> 00:40:47,640 Yeah. That's awesome. 836 00:40:49,040 --> 00:40:51,520 I'm more with Tantra. For me, it's less like these are 837 00:40:51,520 --> 00:40:52,880 relationship ways to communicate. 838 00:40:52,880 --> 00:40:56,920 It's more like I'm really into the ceremonial containers of it 839 00:40:57,560 --> 00:41:00,920 and like creating, like facilitating experiences for, 840 00:41:01,200 --> 00:41:05,280 for for myself with somebody, for couples like where we start 841 00:41:05,280 --> 00:41:09,200 with the connection, the eye gazing, the cacao, like just 842 00:41:09,200 --> 00:41:12,440 creating the the container for us to feel really connected and 843 00:41:12,440 --> 00:41:16,120 deep and then to go and explore. So yeah, how does that all work? 844 00:41:16,120 --> 00:41:18,920 Like how do you set that up for like a couple 'cause you use 845 00:41:18,920 --> 00:41:21,440 cacao with it too, right? Yeah, yeah. 846 00:41:21,480 --> 00:41:24,600 And why do you bring cacao into? It oh cacao is just the ultimate 847 00:41:24,600 --> 00:41:28,160 heart medicine that it's just like a cup of liquid love. 848 00:41:28,160 --> 00:41:31,480 It like warms your heart, it relaxes you, it brings pleasure 849 00:41:31,480 --> 00:41:35,840 and taste and and it activates your dopamine and serotonin and 850 00:41:35,840 --> 00:41:38,440 all these feel good hormones. So it's just like the perfect 851 00:41:38,680 --> 00:41:42,880 pairing for Tantra containers. It's like they just go together 852 00:41:43,240 --> 00:41:47,280 and yeah, just like softens everything and like brings 853 00:41:47,280 --> 00:41:50,160 everybody into it. And then from there, like real, 854 00:41:50,200 --> 00:41:54,000 authentic, juicy connections can happen and also real emotions. 855 00:41:54,000 --> 00:41:57,200 Because cacao, it's not just like yay, love it. 856 00:41:57,200 --> 00:41:59,800 It brings up your deep emotions, whatever it is in there, like 857 00:41:59,800 --> 00:42:03,400 your truth that could bring up grief and yeah, and sadness. 858 00:42:03,400 --> 00:42:06,840 And, and I've had people in cacao ceremonies, like as soon 859 00:42:06,840 --> 00:42:08,920 as they drink the cacao, they start crying because it's just 860 00:42:08,920 --> 00:42:11,080 like, what's in you that needs to be released? 861 00:42:11,080 --> 00:42:15,560 And when we're in our truth and in that place of our heart, we 862 00:42:15,560 --> 00:42:22,800 can actually make contact and yeah, true, true connection. 863 00:42:23,480 --> 00:42:25,880 What what kind of cacao do you use? 864 00:42:25,880 --> 00:42:29,560 I'm curious like and do you have a dosing you like because I know 865 00:42:29,560 --> 00:42:32,760 there's different, there's a ceremonial amount there's yeah, 866 00:42:33,040 --> 00:42:36,080 different sourcing and do you add different spices or just 867 00:42:36,080 --> 00:42:38,360 like keep it pure? Do you add milks to it and all 868 00:42:38,360 --> 00:42:41,120 that? Yeah, so my favorite kind of 869 00:42:41,120 --> 00:42:45,480 cacao is I, I believe that cacao Mama cacao, she is feminine. 870 00:42:45,480 --> 00:42:48,000 She is a feminine plant, feminine bean. 871 00:42:48,280 --> 00:42:52,560 And I I want to enhance the femininity of cacao, so I love 872 00:42:52,560 --> 00:42:55,920 to add feminine ingredients like rose. 873 00:42:55,920 --> 00:42:59,040 Rose is like the highest vibrational flour and the most 874 00:42:59,080 --> 00:43:02,080 feminine radiance flour. So I love adding organic rose 875 00:43:02,080 --> 00:43:05,040 powder and I love vanilla because it brings that warmth 876 00:43:05,040 --> 00:43:08,760 and that sweetness. And I love to add like coconut 877 00:43:08,760 --> 00:43:12,320 sugar or Maple syrup. So that and then raspberries, 878 00:43:12,320 --> 00:43:15,080 like dehydrated raspberries, like bringing raspberries into 879 00:43:15,080 --> 00:43:18,240 it, making it this like fruity. So Raspberry rose is like my 880 00:43:18,240 --> 00:43:21,440 signature. Yeah, it's really nice. 881 00:43:21,440 --> 00:43:24,000 And like you think about dark chocolate bars, There's so many 882 00:43:24,000 --> 00:43:27,160 Raspberry dark chocolate bars because it's just hits. 883 00:43:27,480 --> 00:43:30,720 And so the cacao, I'm like between brands right now, the 884 00:43:30,720 --> 00:43:34,800 cacao that I was stewarding was farmed, farmed and made by all 885 00:43:34,800 --> 00:43:37,520 women in the Solomon Islands and then made in New Zealand. 886 00:43:38,040 --> 00:43:40,480 And it had all those ingredients in it, plus other things. 887 00:43:40,680 --> 00:43:43,880 So when I first moved to Austin, I was serving and selling this 888 00:43:43,880 --> 00:43:45,920 cacao and everyone was like, this is the best cow I've ever 889 00:43:45,920 --> 00:43:47,760 had. And so that was it. 890 00:43:47,760 --> 00:43:49,880 And then they discontinued it and it broke my heart. 891 00:43:49,880 --> 00:43:52,600 And I've been in like deep grief about it for the last like year 892 00:43:52,600 --> 00:43:54,560 and a half, just like, what do I do? 893 00:43:54,560 --> 00:43:59,400 And I've tried so many different brands and nothing hits and my 894 00:43:59,400 --> 00:44:01,480 cacao business kind of just like stopped. 895 00:44:01,600 --> 00:44:04,080 I was like the cacao queen in Austin and it kind of just 896 00:44:04,560 --> 00:44:05,720 stopped because I didn't have one. 897 00:44:06,040 --> 00:44:10,360 But, and I told you on the phone, I am about to start Co 898 00:44:10,360 --> 00:44:15,200 creating with the Holy Wow Cacao, which is this amazing, 899 00:44:15,200 --> 00:44:18,240 amazing man and company in Guatemala and it's an all 900 00:44:18,240 --> 00:44:22,600 women's collective as well. And he just sent me 5 different 901 00:44:22,600 --> 00:44:24,440 samples of their five different cacao bars. 902 00:44:24,440 --> 00:44:26,720 And so I'm going to be Co creating with him to make my own 903 00:44:26,720 --> 00:44:29,360 Lola's Cacao Raspberry rose flavour. 904 00:44:29,360 --> 00:44:30,640 So. It's a guy, but it's an all 905 00:44:30,640 --> 00:44:32,520 women's collective. Yes, yeah, yeah. 906 00:44:32,520 --> 00:44:35,720 So the guy created it. And then the, the, the, the 907 00:44:35,760 --> 00:44:38,600 people who help are making the cacao and a part of it are like 908 00:44:38,600 --> 00:44:40,760 the Guatemalan, like indigenous women. 909 00:44:40,760 --> 00:44:43,440 Yeah, but he, he shared it. We talked on the phone for like 910 00:44:43,440 --> 00:44:45,120 2 hours and he shared his story with me. 911 00:44:45,320 --> 00:44:48,880 He lost his, he lost his mom and he was in deep grief and he 912 00:44:48,880 --> 00:44:52,280 never grieved or cried about it. And he was like exploring yoga 913 00:44:52,280 --> 00:44:54,120 and all these things. I ended up going to a cacao 914 00:44:54,120 --> 00:44:56,880 ceremony and it was a cacao and grief ceremony. 915 00:44:57,080 --> 00:44:59,120 He didn't know. And he ended up crying for like 916 00:44:59,120 --> 00:45:01,960 hours and hours and hours. And then he like met the cacao 917 00:45:01,960 --> 00:45:05,320 spirit and she told him she was like, this is your medicine. 918 00:45:05,840 --> 00:45:08,680 And he like promised himself on that day that I was going to 919 00:45:08,680 --> 00:45:11,760 like make like devote my life to cacao and sharing this medicine 920 00:45:12,320 --> 00:45:14,160 and just so beautiful and so touching. 921 00:45:14,160 --> 00:45:16,200 And yeah. And so that's why I'm really 922 00:45:16,200 --> 00:45:19,760 excited to to Co create and make my own brand because we're very 923 00:45:19,840 --> 00:45:21,640 in a shortage of cacao in Austin. 924 00:45:21,760 --> 00:45:23,520 I literally my friend Evan called me today. 925 00:45:23,680 --> 00:45:26,440 My friend Evan called me today and he was like, oh, where can I 926 00:45:26,440 --> 00:45:27,680 go get cacao? Like, I don't know. 927 00:45:27,680 --> 00:45:29,600 Like I don't want to get Whole Foods cacao. 928 00:45:29,600 --> 00:45:30,680 I'm like, no, where do we get in? 929 00:45:30,680 --> 00:45:33,560 There's nobody. Yeah, like, and that's why I did 930 00:45:33,560 --> 00:45:35,480 so well because there's not many. 931 00:45:35,480 --> 00:45:37,320 And you'd think Austin would have. 932 00:45:37,920 --> 00:45:40,760 Yeah, Yeah, I don't. Know many, I know third eye. 933 00:45:40,760 --> 00:45:42,960 We had Neil on the podcast like 2 years ago ish. 934 00:45:42,960 --> 00:45:45,960 I think it's really the only cacao place I know of. 935 00:45:46,480 --> 00:45:47,920 It's wild. Whenever I drink that cacao in 936 00:45:47,920 --> 00:45:50,800 my stomach, I just get sick. I just get sick to my stomach. 937 00:45:50,800 --> 00:45:52,440 Yeah, just not, not maybe for. You. 938 00:45:52,680 --> 00:45:54,040 Yeah, for sure. Yeah, I. 939 00:45:54,520 --> 00:45:57,400 I think there should be a wide variety of different cacao 940 00:45:57,400 --> 00:46:00,200 sources and different people who've put them together 'cause 941 00:46:00,200 --> 00:46:01,920 they're just gonna resonate completely different. 942 00:46:01,920 --> 00:46:04,080 And the Raspberry sounds fucking hella good. 943 00:46:04,080 --> 00:46:04,920 Yeah. I want that. 944 00:46:05,200 --> 00:46:06,520 And that's the beauty about cacao. 945 00:46:06,520 --> 00:46:09,640 It was like, there's so many different like countries and 946 00:46:09,640 --> 00:46:12,520 people and stewards and elements and flavors and taste that it's 947 00:46:12,520 --> 00:46:15,560 like, and cacao wants to be created and used in different 948 00:46:15,560 --> 00:46:17,040 ways. Like everyone has their own 949 00:46:17,040 --> 00:46:19,080 expression of it and it's all, it's all good. 950 00:46:19,320 --> 00:46:20,880 It's all good. So yeah. 951 00:46:21,000 --> 00:46:23,360 Listen, what's the process? Have you gotten the samples yet 952 00:46:23,360 --> 00:46:25,080 and tried them? No, they're coming in the mail 953 00:46:25,080 --> 00:46:27,080 in a couple of days. I'm going to do some videos, 954 00:46:27,480 --> 00:46:28,960 like trying them and seeing what I like. 955 00:46:28,960 --> 00:46:30,920 Yeah, well. If you need some Guinea pigs to 956 00:46:30,920 --> 00:46:32,600 taste test, you know who to call. 957 00:46:33,160 --> 00:46:35,200 Yeah, 2 fun guys. What did he tell you what the 958 00:46:35,200 --> 00:46:37,720 different types are like? Is it just different kinds of 959 00:46:37,720 --> 00:46:42,600 cacao or blends or? Yeah, they're different beans, 960 00:46:42,600 --> 00:46:47,600 different strains, different yeah, different places, I think. 961 00:46:47,960 --> 00:46:50,920 Yeah, different ways, different ways that they created it. 962 00:46:50,920 --> 00:46:54,120 Some of them are fire roasted that makes it a little bit more 963 00:46:54,120 --> 00:46:56,240 smoky. Some are like, yeah, so there's, 964 00:46:56,960 --> 00:46:58,720 so there's five different ones. I'm going to figure out which 965 00:46:58,720 --> 00:47:00,920 one I like the most. And then I'm going to like play 966 00:47:00,920 --> 00:47:03,240 with my own formula. I was into my research rabbit 967 00:47:03,240 --> 00:47:06,200 hole the other day finding like the best, highest ingredients 968 00:47:06,200 --> 00:47:08,480 for for rose, for raspberries, for all of that. 969 00:47:08,480 --> 00:47:10,480 So yeah. And then play and formulate. 970 00:47:10,480 --> 00:47:13,240 So definitely need some taste testers for the Raspberry rose 971 00:47:13,240 --> 00:47:15,240 flavor. Do you think you'll make bars or 972 00:47:15,240 --> 00:47:17,280 will you make? So it's really cool. 973 00:47:17,280 --> 00:47:20,160 What's so unique about Holy Wow Cacao is they're in circles. 974 00:47:20,440 --> 00:47:24,440 They're bars in circles, which is so feminine and so unique and 975 00:47:24,440 --> 00:47:28,200 so different. So there's yeah, the circle 976 00:47:28,200 --> 00:47:29,520 ones. And it's funny because I had 977 00:47:29,520 --> 00:47:32,720 this idea for so long that I wanted to do like a two person, 978 00:47:33,200 --> 00:47:36,120 like ceremonial, like a circle, like a heart or something for 979 00:47:36,120 --> 00:47:38,600 like two people to have. And I thought about that. 980 00:47:38,600 --> 00:47:40,280 And then he literally has that in his company. 981 00:47:40,280 --> 00:47:42,920 I've never seen anyone do that. So I'm just like, this is such a 982 00:47:42,920 --> 00:47:44,160 blessing. Like he reached out to me on 983 00:47:44,160 --> 00:47:47,240 Instagram like 2 weeks ago and I was like, this is so perfect. 984 00:47:47,240 --> 00:47:48,960 So yeah, they have like little roses. 985 00:47:50,120 --> 00:47:51,680 Yeah. So I'm really excited to play 986 00:47:51,680 --> 00:47:54,360 and create. I've already designed the logo 987 00:47:54,360 --> 00:47:55,480 and the branding and the packaging. 988 00:47:56,240 --> 00:47:57,640 I'm ready. Of course you did branding. 989 00:47:57,640 --> 00:48:01,200 Queen I. Know AI rabbit holes so good. 990 00:48:01,320 --> 00:48:02,120 Yeah. I'm curious. 991 00:48:02,120 --> 00:48:04,960 What is your week like this previous week like what is the 992 00:48:04,960 --> 00:48:09,280 week like in Lola's life? Like what is what What are you 993 00:48:09,280 --> 00:48:11,600 up to each day? Yeah, like, I'm just curious. 994 00:48:11,600 --> 00:48:13,280 I'm just curious. I imagine you get on a lot of 995 00:48:13,280 --> 00:48:16,040 adventures. Yeah, I. 996 00:48:16,760 --> 00:48:18,920 Just wanted like, I'm curious because I mean, when you just 997 00:48:18,920 --> 00:48:21,840 came in, you said you were doing something at night and then 998 00:48:21,840 --> 00:48:23,920 you're doing this thing. I was like, I bet she has really 999 00:48:23,920 --> 00:48:26,080 wild weeks. I'm just interesting, cool shit, 1000 00:48:26,160 --> 00:48:28,680 creative stuff and. Yeah, it's fun that the last, 1001 00:48:28,840 --> 00:48:31,840 the last like month or two I've been during the week, I'm very 1002 00:48:31,840 --> 00:48:35,120 like in my creative cocoon. I'm like waking up, I'm doing 1003 00:48:35,120 --> 00:48:37,600 Pilates, I'm making content, I'm creating. 1004 00:48:37,600 --> 00:48:39,760 I'm so like all day I'm creating. 1005 00:48:39,760 --> 00:48:42,640 And then I've kind of been like cocooning in my creative cocoon, 1006 00:48:42,640 --> 00:48:44,760 which I love it. I'm just like, and then on the 1007 00:48:44,760 --> 00:48:46,760 weekends is when the fun and the adventures happen. 1008 00:48:46,760 --> 00:48:51,520 So yeah, I was at a mermaid fairy birthday party yesterday 1009 00:48:51,520 --> 00:48:53,680 and that was really fun. Then at the Cabaret of Arrows. 1010 00:48:53,680 --> 00:48:56,560 This, like the first ever conscious strip club run by 1011 00:48:56,560 --> 00:48:58,720 women, was last night. That's open. 1012 00:48:59,320 --> 00:49:02,840 I think Derek was telling us. He was telling me about it. 1013 00:49:02,880 --> 00:49:03,960 Yeah. Where is that? 1014 00:49:04,320 --> 00:49:06,400 So I mean, it's not like an open place yet. 1015 00:49:06,400 --> 00:49:08,360 They're raising capital to create somewhere that's like a 1016 00:49:08,360 --> 00:49:10,000 permanent location. Pop up last. 1017 00:49:10,000 --> 00:49:11,120 Night. Yeah, yeah, it was a pop up 1018 00:49:11,120 --> 00:49:15,480 event. Yeah, it was at Roma or Baths. 1019 00:49:17,160 --> 00:49:18,920 Bathe. Wasn't that bathe? 1020 00:49:18,920 --> 00:49:21,400 No, it was. Roma downtown. 1021 00:49:21,440 --> 00:49:24,720 Yeah, this like this like under kind of sexy vibe. 1022 00:49:24,960 --> 00:49:26,000 Are you taking photos? You're. 1023 00:49:26,400 --> 00:49:28,680 No, I was. I was, I was the door woman, 1024 00:49:28,760 --> 00:49:29,680 welcoming people. Nice. 1025 00:49:29,840 --> 00:49:30,800 Yeah. And then a dance floor 1026 00:49:30,800 --> 00:49:33,960 activator. Do you know much about like what 1027 00:49:33,960 --> 00:49:36,720 the mission is with that? Like I don't know much about. 1028 00:49:36,720 --> 00:49:40,720 It yeah, so my friend Calibri, she's the creator of that and 1029 00:49:40,920 --> 00:49:42,880 she's she's a stripper and she's been in that world. 1030 00:49:42,880 --> 00:49:46,160 She's also a Tantra teacher and been learning about Eros and how 1031 00:49:46,160 --> 00:49:49,800 to create, you know, safe spaces where the arrows is honored and 1032 00:49:49,800 --> 00:49:54,200 revered and and celebrated and not just consumed or taken, you 1033 00:49:54,200 --> 00:49:58,040 know, but so yeah, it was it was an incredible production. 1034 00:49:58,040 --> 00:50:02,560 It was so it was so high end and beautiful and very intentional, 1035 00:50:02,560 --> 00:50:05,360 like everyone got a White Rose to give to the muse at the altar 1036 00:50:05,360 --> 00:50:07,360 and it was yeah, it was really beautiful. 1037 00:50:07,360 --> 00:50:08,640 I'm excited for more of those do. 1038 00:50:08,640 --> 00:50:10,400 You know how that's going to work like so they're they're 1039 00:50:10,400 --> 00:50:13,000 obviously trying to open a permanent place. 1040 00:50:13,000 --> 00:50:16,560 Is it going to operate in a similar fashion as a like 1041 00:50:16,840 --> 00:50:22,080 regular strip club in the sense that like you can purchase 1042 00:50:22,080 --> 00:50:25,040 things or like is it just like a cabaret, like it's a show? 1043 00:50:25,040 --> 00:50:26,800 I'm just curious how it how it's going to operate. 1044 00:50:26,800 --> 00:50:30,520 Yeah, so how it was, was the cabaret was like the floor. 1045 00:50:30,520 --> 00:50:33,440 And so there was muses like walking around, you can engage 1046 00:50:33,440 --> 00:50:36,200 with them and talk to them and. And then here and there there'd 1047 00:50:36,200 --> 00:50:39,160 be a show performance on the pole and then there was chambers 1048 00:50:39,160 --> 00:50:41,280 where you could go and have VIP experience it and. 1049 00:50:41,280 --> 00:50:45,360 Muses is synonym for dancer. Yeah, yeah, definitely. 1050 00:50:46,040 --> 00:50:47,960 So, yeah, I think that's what they're going to continue doing 1051 00:50:47,960 --> 00:50:50,760 is these events in those, in those formats in that way. 1052 00:50:50,760 --> 00:50:54,040 So, and it's not like no ones giving cash, we're giving them 1053 00:50:54,040 --> 00:50:55,920 roses when we're when they're dancing. 1054 00:50:55,920 --> 00:50:57,960 But you can get, there's a pleasure menu and you can get 1055 00:50:57,960 --> 00:51:00,280 different things on the pleasure menu in the different areas. 1056 00:51:00,880 --> 00:51:03,240 Yeah, so that, but more adventures, I don't know what 1057 00:51:03,280 --> 00:51:05,320 other. I don't know what adventures are 1058 00:51:05,320 --> 00:51:06,520 you on? I don't know what adventures. 1059 00:51:06,520 --> 00:51:08,640 You're on, I mean, definitely photo adventures like I did. 1060 00:51:08,640 --> 00:51:13,080 I had my first shoot shooting like a Dom and sub shoot the 1061 00:51:13,080 --> 00:51:14,680 other day and that was really fun. 1062 00:51:14,680 --> 00:51:16,760 I've never seen that or I've never, I don't really know much 1063 00:51:16,760 --> 00:51:19,960 about that. So she was like, she was like so 1064 00:51:19,960 --> 00:51:22,080 bougie, just like wearing this glamorous outfit in this 1065 00:51:22,080 --> 00:51:23,760 kitchen. And she had this guy, like, in 1066 00:51:23,760 --> 00:51:26,520 the corner wearing, like, Bunny ears and then like, she was in 1067 00:51:26,520 --> 00:51:29,360 the shower and she was like showering him and like, yeah, it 1068 00:51:29,360 --> 00:51:30,920 was just really fun and cool to witness. 1069 00:51:30,960 --> 00:51:34,400 So I'm always being expanded by my clients and shoots and things 1070 00:51:34,400 --> 00:51:37,360 like that. Do you do mostly shoots right 1071 00:51:37,360 --> 00:51:39,840 now as like what takes up most of your time? 1072 00:51:39,840 --> 00:51:41,960 Is it shoots and then working with branding stuff or? 1073 00:51:42,480 --> 00:51:45,000 Yeah, it's shoots and strategy and it's a mix of both it's 1074 00:51:45,000 --> 00:51:48,840 yeah, photo shoots and then it's also strategy sessions like 1075 00:51:48,840 --> 00:51:51,320 online zooms and stuff. So that's mostly it. 1076 00:51:51,320 --> 00:51:54,240 And then also just like, making my own content that is like, 1077 00:51:54,240 --> 00:51:57,080 what brings me the most joy. I've definitely been opening my 1078 00:51:57,080 --> 00:52:00,320 rap channel lately and alchemizing things through rap, 1079 00:52:00,320 --> 00:52:01,680 yeah. Rap More Bath Rap. 1080 00:52:01,960 --> 00:52:02,720 Rap. Rap. 1081 00:52:02,880 --> 00:52:04,120 Yeah. Bath raps would be great. 1082 00:52:04,120 --> 00:52:06,440 Do you freestyle your raps or do you write them? 1083 00:52:07,480 --> 00:52:09,800 I freestyle in the beginning, like to get it going, like I'll 1084 00:52:09,800 --> 00:52:12,960 have like a find like a backing track and then kind of like I 1085 00:52:12,960 --> 00:52:14,840 have, I have to feel my emotions. 1086 00:52:14,840 --> 00:52:20,000 It has to be something that's like an empower, an emotional 1087 00:52:20,000 --> 00:52:20,880 thing. Yeah, right. 1088 00:52:20,880 --> 00:52:24,920 To like, create some kind of like energy like that that I 1089 00:52:24,920 --> 00:52:26,600 want to alchemize. And so I'll have like a backing 1090 00:52:26,600 --> 00:52:29,120 track and then I'll kind of just like, start seeing what comes 1091 00:52:29,120 --> 00:52:32,480 through and like channelling and riffing and and going. 1092 00:52:32,480 --> 00:52:35,120 And then through that, I'll kind of like, write things down and 1093 00:52:35,120 --> 00:52:37,360 then like, refine it and come back. 1094 00:52:37,760 --> 00:52:38,920 Yeah. Hell yeah. 1095 00:52:39,400 --> 00:52:43,000 Do you have like a rap from the past that just do you remember 1096 00:52:43,000 --> 00:52:45,160 off the top of your head? Yeah, you could just. 1097 00:52:45,160 --> 00:52:46,760 The one after. A couple lyrics. 1098 00:52:46,800 --> 00:52:50,200 Yeah, the one after my when I got cyber bullied, that one. 1099 00:52:50,200 --> 00:52:52,800 Oh, can you hit us with a rap? Yeah, let me, let me TuneIn. 1100 00:52:53,560 --> 00:52:54,720 You need a beatbox in the background. 1101 00:52:54,720 --> 00:52:55,640 Are you going to flow heat? No. 1102 00:52:55,680 --> 00:52:58,280 Oh yeah, you should beatbox. Yeah, well, what's, what is it 1103 00:52:58,280 --> 00:52:59,480 fast? Slowly tracking. 1104 00:52:59,680 --> 00:53:07,520 Is. Why am I here? 1105 00:53:09,000 --> 00:53:12,200 I'm here to speak, to teach, to activate, to guide, to lead, 1106 00:53:12,200 --> 00:53:14,880 facilitate the change I wish to see in the world. 1107 00:53:14,880 --> 00:53:16,560 And I know it starts with me, my girl. 1108 00:53:17,000 --> 00:53:19,680 When? She hits the fan. 1109 00:53:19,680 --> 00:53:22,200 I'll bring that back and I won't react. 1110 00:53:24,320 --> 00:53:25,320 Here go flow heat. No beat. 1111 00:53:25,440 --> 00:53:26,560 I know, right? OK, yeah. 1112 00:53:28,240 --> 00:53:30,000 What was? It I won't react. 1113 00:53:30,720 --> 00:53:41,640 My girl, when shit hits the fan I will hold on. 1114 00:53:42,160 --> 00:53:44,000 I lost it. That's OK, we got. 1115 00:53:44,200 --> 00:53:46,160 We got that one part. Is it on your YouTube channel? 1116 00:53:46,200 --> 00:53:48,440 It's on my Instagram, yeah, yeah, that. 1117 00:53:48,600 --> 00:53:51,440 Was good. OK, Yeah. 1118 00:53:52,200 --> 00:53:52,840 What? What what? 1119 00:53:53,240 --> 00:53:54,840 How did you come up with the idea with the bath? 1120 00:53:55,000 --> 00:53:57,200 Like what is the bath podcast about? 1121 00:53:57,360 --> 00:54:03,080 Bad pop, bad cast, bad cast. You know, I just OK, so one day 1122 00:54:03,080 --> 00:54:05,880 I'm just, I'm a bath slut. I love being in the bath. 1123 00:54:05,880 --> 00:54:07,760 I love hot water. It's so regulating. 1124 00:54:07,760 --> 00:54:10,080 I'm just like feel like I'm back in the womb like a mermaid 1125 00:54:10,080 --> 00:54:12,520 reborn. So I just feel so good there. 1126 00:54:12,520 --> 00:54:16,440 And I, I love to digest like life, like I need to talk things 1127 00:54:16,440 --> 00:54:20,720 out and digest it. So one time I got really high 1128 00:54:20,720 --> 00:54:23,440 and I was in the bath and I started doing a voice note and I 1129 00:54:23,440 --> 00:54:26,240 was like, welcome to the bath cast. 1130 00:54:26,560 --> 00:54:28,960 I just like digest. I was like, wait, this is 1131 00:54:28,960 --> 00:54:31,400 hilarious. And then about a month ago, I 1132 00:54:31,400 --> 00:54:33,240 told my friends about it at a festival. 1133 00:54:33,240 --> 00:54:36,160 I was like, I got this idea for like a bath cast and everyone's 1134 00:54:36,200 --> 00:54:38,680 like, you have to do that. Like, that's hilarious. 1135 00:54:38,680 --> 00:54:41,280 That's so you. And I was like, OK, permission 1136 00:54:41,280 --> 00:54:42,040 granted. Let's go. 1137 00:54:42,880 --> 00:54:44,080 Yeah. So it's just so. 1138 00:54:44,080 --> 00:54:46,280 And it's you can't have any masks in there. 1139 00:54:46,280 --> 00:54:49,840 You you can't like be fake. You can't put up performance. 1140 00:54:50,160 --> 00:54:53,920 He's just like relaxed and raw and yeah, raw dog dialogue. 1141 00:54:53,920 --> 00:54:56,320 That's that's how I want to, that's how I want to chat. 1142 00:54:56,320 --> 00:54:58,560 That's a good swag shirt. Raw dog dialogue. 1143 00:54:59,480 --> 00:55:01,120 Is it on Spotify? Yeah. 1144 00:55:01,520 --> 00:55:03,640 And YouTube, Yeah. Is it once a week? 1145 00:55:04,720 --> 00:55:07,160 No, probably once a month. OK, once a month. 1146 00:55:07,200 --> 00:55:10,000 Right now, just because I did my first one and then I just did my 1147 00:55:10,000 --> 00:55:12,920 second one, but I feel like it's feel like it's getting more 1148 00:55:12,920 --> 00:55:14,640 activated. Like when I have like, there's 1149 00:55:14,640 --> 00:55:16,760 some people that want to be guests and so now I'm like, OK, 1150 00:55:17,080 --> 00:55:18,680 I feel like it's getting the ball rolling. 1151 00:55:19,080 --> 00:55:23,040 That's cool. Do are they like short, long or 1152 00:55:23,560 --> 00:55:25,000 what? What like what's your? 1153 00:55:25,160 --> 00:55:27,640 I mean, it's only been two. The first one was like 15 1154 00:55:27,640 --> 00:55:30,880 minutes. Second one was like 30 minutes. 1155 00:55:31,120 --> 00:55:32,720 Yeah. But it's just been me, you know, 1156 00:55:32,880 --> 00:55:34,480 to bring on other people. I want to. 1157 00:55:35,120 --> 00:55:37,200 It'll be longer probably. I want to really go like, my 1158 00:55:37,200 --> 00:55:39,800 mission is, I want to find like the bougiest baths in Austin and 1159 00:55:39,800 --> 00:55:42,840 talk to the coolest people. So yeah, let me know. 1160 00:55:43,280 --> 00:55:47,360 Well, if anybody knows of Bougie baths in Austin, hit her up. 1161 00:55:47,800 --> 00:55:49,960 Hit up Lola, we're looking for. Bougie baths. 1162 00:55:49,960 --> 00:55:52,760 I'm manifesting. My dream is a a like a Chris, 1163 00:55:52,760 --> 00:55:54,560 like a rose quartz crystal bath. Yeah. 1164 00:55:54,760 --> 00:55:56,480 That would be it. Somebody has that in Austin, 1165 00:55:56,960 --> 00:56:01,840 there's 100% someone who has a rose quartz claw foot bathtub, I 1166 00:56:01,840 --> 00:56:03,640 guarantee. It send this video please make 1167 00:56:03,640 --> 00:56:05,000 this. Make this go viral so we. 1168 00:56:05,000 --> 00:56:07,680 Can find it so we can find this bath is my dream and if and we 1169 00:56:07,680 --> 00:56:10,160 could like I mean my ultimate dream would be like a bath and 1170 00:56:10,160 --> 00:56:13,600 like being in cacao in a bath. A bath. 1171 00:56:13,720 --> 00:56:16,920 Of cacao, yeah, yeah, I just feel like that's like the most 1172 00:56:16,920 --> 00:56:21,200 feminine emerged experience. I was just like, I mean, I'm 1173 00:56:21,200 --> 00:56:23,560 like a cow kingster, you know, That's like, that does it for 1174 00:56:23,560 --> 00:56:25,840 me. Probably feel really good to be 1175 00:56:25,840 --> 00:56:28,160 in a bath of cacao. Yeah, you just like slump down 1176 00:56:28,160 --> 00:56:30,240 and. Yeah, slurp it up a little bit. 1177 00:56:30,240 --> 00:56:31,560 Strong just. Really. 1178 00:56:31,600 --> 00:56:34,720 Oh yeah, it's like, and it's like, I feel like my highest joy 1179 00:56:34,720 --> 00:56:37,000 is like, I want to be naked in the mud, you know, like when I 1180 00:56:37,000 --> 00:56:38,840 was in Hawaii, I was just like naked in the sand. 1181 00:56:38,840 --> 00:56:42,040 It's just like, and my, my actually my only post, my second 1182 00:56:42,040 --> 00:56:45,520 post after the one that was sober bullied, second ever post 1183 00:56:45,520 --> 00:56:49,080 to go viral was a photo, a carousel of me and my 2 1184 00:56:49,080 --> 00:56:52,880 girlfriends in Hawaii, like covered in mud and on the beach. 1185 00:56:53,080 --> 00:56:54,800 And it was like, and that's like my highest joy. 1186 00:56:54,800 --> 00:56:57,440 And it's funny that that's something that went viral. 1187 00:56:57,720 --> 00:57:00,640 It's like when your highest alignment is the most resonant. 1188 00:57:01,160 --> 00:57:03,120 So I need more of that. Hell yeah. 1189 00:57:03,120 --> 00:57:07,040 Yeah, well, this was super fun. Thanks for coming and hanging 1190 00:57:07,040 --> 00:57:08,000 out with us. It was awesome. 1191 00:57:09,080 --> 00:57:12,160 This was so fun. I love where the conversation 1192 00:57:12,160 --> 00:57:15,640 flowed and went with the the pranks and all the things. 1193 00:57:15,640 --> 00:57:18,160 Where can people find you and get more of you in their life? 1194 00:57:18,640 --> 00:57:22,960 Yay, Everything is Lola Love. My Instagram is I am Lola dot 1195 00:57:22,960 --> 00:57:24,960 Love. YouTube is Lola Love. 1196 00:57:25,240 --> 00:57:29,640 Website is I am Lola dot Love. So that's me everywhere, yeah. 1197 00:57:30,880 --> 00:57:33,080 I love it. Any parting words of advice you 1198 00:57:33,080 --> 00:57:37,400 have for people or brands that want to just be more themselves? 1199 00:57:39,800 --> 00:57:47,120 Yeah, just finding, finding like people and places and 1200 00:57:47,120 --> 00:57:50,960 environments that allow you to explore the edges of your 1201 00:57:50,960 --> 00:57:55,040 expression and, and play and let's just have more fun and be 1202 00:57:55,040 --> 00:57:58,280 human and be wild. Yeah. 1203 00:57:58,320 --> 00:58:00,600 I just want everyone to express their colors. 1204 00:58:00,600 --> 00:58:04,600 And I'm excited to amplify and activate whoever wants it. 1205 00:58:04,600 --> 00:58:06,360 Brands, people, groups of people. 1206 00:58:06,800 --> 00:58:08,160 Yeah. Cool. 1207 00:58:08,160 --> 00:58:10,000 Amazing. We look forward to more bath 1208 00:58:10,000 --> 00:58:11,160 casts. I think that's a really good 1209 00:58:11,160 --> 00:58:13,600 idea. I think just keep pumping those 1210 00:58:13,600 --> 00:58:15,600 out. Guests would be super cool, too. 1211 00:58:15,600 --> 00:58:18,080 And yeah, I look forward to it. Just keep taking off of that. 1212 00:58:18,800 --> 00:58:20,080 Yeah. Thanks so much for being here. 1213 00:58:20,080 --> 00:58:20,680 Thank you, Lola.