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It's your girls Sapphire. Man oh man, I feel like I have
not, you know, been with you earbuds in quite a while and a
lot has changed. First things first, you guys may
have noticed if you're watching this interview, not only do I
have a beautiful guest with me, but also we're in a new studio
layout. Yes, the Sir and I, we have
finally moved. We're settling into our new home
together and there's so much with that, but we're not going
to talk about that today. Today I am so pleased to
announce my guest who is revealing themselves.
Yes. Now some people may have seen
the name of the episode with our guest who is Gal Mariah.
So I would love to bring you in Miss Gal and I want to explain
to people why they are now seeing you for the first time.
But First things first, I think we have to bring in those rowdy
motherfucking frat boys of Sapphire's Earplace.
So come on boys, we had a delayed cause on that Gal.
Thank you, gal Mariah. Let me just let me please say it
in full. Gal Mariah, thank you so much
for joining us today. Thank you.
It's so nice to be here. And so just to clarify, my name
is pronounced Gal Maria. Oh my gosh.
But no worries I guess, mispronounced all kinds of
different ways. Well, Gal Maria, Yeah, Gal
Maria, please, if you have any dominant bone in your body, you
know, just just slug it to me, you know, during this whole
episode, please. I'm so happy to be here and
congratulations on your new place.
That's just such an exciting transition and I know that also
means that you have been working so hard, so I hope you can take
a little breather and enjoy your new space.
You know, it's great. It's like now this episode is
being released on 4th of July weekend.
So yes, I am definitely resting myself and this is actually a
big weekend for you that we are, you know, unveiling, if you
will, yourself. Now a lot of people who may be
familiar with you, you have never shown your face.
Now let's explain that to people.
You are a Would you say you are an artist of some sorts?
I would say artist is probably one of my main things I would
now describe myself as. You know what's funny?
I got into it on social media. It's funny.
Every time Pride season comes up, it seems like my topics from
before, they seem to just resurface.
And so there was an episode in which I had a content creator
who was an Only fans content creator who was on a 2B show.
And last year we had a very, you know, big question about only
fans, artistry and all that. And then all of a sudden a year
later, leading up to our discussion, the there was a
person online that said, basically, can we stop saying
that erotica artists are artists?
And I'm like, wait, hold up. How is this not a formal
artistry? Because in the history of
erotica and in more especially when we talk about nudity,
nudity has always been around in art, and it has been seen in
particular as art. Now, one may, you know, try to
go into this whole debate and say, well, no, there's nudity
and then there's erotica. There's erotica and tasteful
nudity, but we can't call it art.
So I'm glad that you're standing on that point and saying you are
an artist. So what qualifies you as an
artist, Gal Maria? Yeah, it's, it's a great
question. And I think that, you know, I
wouldn't necessarily call all erotica art.
I think it really depends on how you do it.
And there are people who are making nudes or raunchy content
where they're literally just pointing their camera at their
body with, you know, and you know, And honestly, art is so
broadly defined that it may be I'm wrong to even say that's not
art because that's form of art as well.
But for me, I'm an artist both in my adult content and outside
of it. So I actually started realizing
that I am a very artistic, creative person when I started
getting naked on the Internet. And when people ask me so people
in my regular life, they now know that I'm super into art.
It's just very obvious. It comes up all the time.
A lot of the stuff I wear or like, not this one, but some of
my a lot of my hair, flowers I make myself.
There's all kinds of different things.
And when they ask me, how did you get into art?
And very often I am not totally honest about how I got into art.
What, you mean you're not totally honest?
There's always ways of answering the question while still
omitting, you know, we all do that all time in life.
And I absolutely can answer the question without this.
But the truth is like the real truth of how I experienced this
is that I never thought I was a creative person.
I was, I used to, I was in a very technical job, very like
technical kind of mindset, very what I would say maybe rigid
thinking, critical thinking, that kind of thing, which still
totally characterizes a lot of what I do.
And when I started posting news to the Internet in 2015, I
started noticing that a lot of the choices that I was making
were actually very creative. So I would think about what
angles do I want to do, where do I want to set myself up in the
shot? How do I want to play with the
lighting? What caption do I want to add?
All kinds of things. And that I don't really, I don't
remember it as a light bulb moment, but I do remember
starting to notice these things. And in this decade now, since
then, art has become part of my life in so many different ways
and beyond just my adult content.
I, I, I have to cut in and say, you know, it's very interesting
at the way that you are presenting this because again,
for the longest, those who have stood by you, you know, they've
only seen tibbets of your body. And it's almost like you've
given, you know, that that reclamation of a tease of a
erotic tease, if you will. And what I thought was really
fascinating as you reached out to me, This is what I love about
sapphires, your play. You know, I, I get a lot of
requests of people to come onto the show.
But what I, what stood out to me was that you look at yourself
and people who are watching this episode right now, you don't
look like the typical nude model.
You don't look like the typical, you know, erotic artist or adult
content creator. Now I'm saying all these
different words because in future, in previous episodes, a
lot of people will come up to me and say, Oh, I'm not a porn
star. I'm a adult content creator.
Oh, I'm not this. I'm, you know, even though I'm
selling my, my nudes, I'm not a porn star or I'm not doing porn.
This is tasteful erotica. And here you are, you know, full
bodied and I mean full body in every respectable way.
You got curves for days. You look like just this fresh
faced woman who could be a teacher, who could be, you know,
a library, anything but the typical norm of an erotica
artist. And I've been noticing this
trend that has been happening that more people after a certain
age, I would say probably in about their 30s and late 40s,
they have this transition. And whether it be because their
parents have passed away, family, you know, has kind of
dissipated from their lives or whatever.
But it seems like there are more adults like you and I who are
very just like distinctive, normalized human beings with
beautiful, fresh faces, not really, Donna, who are
reclaiming their nudes, if you will, in the form of erotica.
And I have to applaud you on that because there's still this,
like, stigma that we have when it comes to erotica and adult
content. You know, once it's out there,
it's out there and you're tainted.
Do you feel jaded now that you are now putting yourself out
there? Do you feel a little bit more
jaded? Or do you feel like this weight
has been lifted off your shoulders that now you can fully
like be yourself and allow people to just embrace you full
heartedly? How do you feel about that?
Well, OK, let me see. There's just 1000 different
things. I can say about this, yeah.
My my decade of doing this, of being nude and sometimes raunchy
on the Internet. And I say sometimes because some
of my nudes are raunchy, some of my videos are raunchy, and some
of them are more like here's just sharing my body or sharing
myself doing a normal life thing.
Or every once in a while, I even show myself fully clothed, you
know? And in a way, I would say that
this decade has made me jaded, not just because of this
particular work, but just in general growing up in a way, you
know, I've I've had so many interactions with so many
people. And sometimes when you see the
same kind of interaction in your inbox over and over and over
again, or you see how the same things are happening over social
media, or you see how only fans creators are talked about and
how extremely stark the contrast is.
Like, for example, the premise that the idea that somebody just
throws up a few feet pictures or butt pictures and they're going
to make millions of dollars and contrast that with the reality
that this is entrepreneurship in a stigmatized, challenging field
that includes your body. All of that in a way I would say
has made me jaded. As for the showing my face part,
well, since we're recording this, you know, a few weeks in
advance and so I haven't actually posted my my face, am I
allowed to say that? We we can say that yes, y'all,
this is kind of Evergreen. And I say this because normally
I don't like to like unveil and say to people like, oh, this is
so recorded in advance, but we did this for a reason.
And why did we do this? For a reason, Gal Mariah.
So my face reveal is on July 4th, 2025.
And so after a decade of being nude on the Internet, I'm
finally showing my full face. So I have been increasingly
showing my face, increasingly showing myself over the course
of this time. So I used to hide my face
completely, and I don't remember exactly when, but for a long
time now, probably at least six years or something like that,
maybe more, I've basically been showing my nose down sometimes,
like my eyebrows up. So really, I've just been
keeping my eyes out of it. And I've been ready to show my
face for a long time. I almost showed my face in 2020
and then I just basically adjusted my plan and now it is
time. And so I'm really excited
because when the audience is seeing this at the same time on
my only fans, on my social media, just in general online, I
am releasing content that has my face.
And so I'm, I'm just incredibly excited for it.
It's, it's kind of a funny thing for me because many, many people
online have their face posted. You go through life and you have
your face posted, whether or not you're in adult content or not.
But for me, I have shown parts of my body and really intimate
actions that most people are not having online.
And so the fact that the one thing that I have been keeping
back is these just very innocent eyes, you know, that's an
unusual kind of experience. But honestly, I would say I'm
living a pretty unusual kind of life, so it's very fitting.
I'm just going to say this right now.
I am really encouraging everybody who does listen to the
show. I want y'all to see this because
again, Miguel Maria is not your typical content creator.
And it almost gives me like a sense of a like comfort that,
you know, you are stepping out as just this beautiful, you
know, normalized normal face. And I don't want people to under
like when when I say normal face, this is not me judging
you. This is not me saying like
you're ugly because you are a beautiful woman.
I'm saying normal face because you have no body modifications
to yourself. You don't have this bimbo look
to you. You know, these typical content
creator faces you don't have, you know, the sausage duck lips
and all that. You have a beautiful fresh,
clean face and again, you are reclaiming your body.
Do you feel in a sense that you're like reclaiming your body
not just to the public but for yourself?
Do you think in your private life this is going to be that
extra boost, if you will, to, to, you know, show your face to
show, you know, your full body, your body, as you say, still in
metamorphosis, which is, you know, the, the act of change you
are, you know, morphing into this beautiful butterfly.
I, I could see it on your face. Every time you talk about
something, your, your face kind of lights up.
And I love that. I really love that for you.
And it's a powerful thing to take back something that you
already give to people. You and I kind of connected on
this thing, the way that you reveal your your whole body,
your whole face, and brings me back to when I was just starting
out my radio career. And for the longest, I never
said my name. Everybody knew me as Sapphire.
They didn't really know me as Megan Sapphire.
And a lot of people ask me over the years, like, what led you to
say your name, you know, Megan Safire?
And it was honestly, it came down to unfortunately a stalker.
It came down to someone who harassed me online.
They knew my full name. And they were basically in a
sense they were like, well, I'm just going to throw your name
out there and you know, and I'm like, OK, well then fuck you.
We 2 can play that game fine. Miss Megan Safire.
That's it. That was it.
And on top of that, it's like, you know, getting into saga
after I was like, that's my name, period.
It it's it's mine. And you know, it's someone tried
to weaponize that. And I don't want to say that
hopefully it's no one weaponized your body, but I get that sense.
It's like when you are out there and you're putting your heart
and soul into a craft. And sometimes people have that,
that, you know, that moment of, OK, do I go with my real name
and, and shame my family? Or do I make a faux name and
make this faux personality? Some people can't live those two
different lives. So I'm glad that you are able to
embrace that and reclaim your body and reclaim your face and
reclaim erotica in the way that you want it.
I really, really think that people need to reconsider when
they do erotica. Yeah, you're giving yourself to
the world, but you still need to find yourself and keep yourself
and protect yourself in any way possible.
So I love that you are are being able to do this and, you know,
embrace everything that's going to be, you know, coming with it.
Yeah, I feel like this whole experience of making nudes and
the whole path that I've gone through with it really has been
about reclaiming who I am and exploring myself.
I first got into posting nudes because I felt terrible about
myself. Wow.
I had a really awful body image, and what's funny slash sad is
that at the time when I first started posting nudes, my body
actually conformed a lot more to like traditional or standard
societal expectations. Oh, let's talk about that.
Yeah, so when I first posted nudes in 2015, I was actually
the thinnest I'd ever been. My weight has fluctuated a lot
in my life. So at the time, in my mid 20s, I
had lost a lot of weight and I still felt terrible about
myself. And there's so much to unpack
there. But in general, what what I have
seen in myself is that my conforming to societal
expectations in things like having lost a lot of weight,
which I've since regained, I felt absolutely awful about
myself. Another way in which I conformed
a lot more there is that the first time I ever posted nudes
onto, in this case it was Reddit.
It was the subreddit called Normal Nudes, which is a place
for sharing non sexual just normal bodies and sharing about
your experience for your body as well.
For me, when I decided that I was ready to post on there, I'd
already made some progress on how I felt about myself just by
lurking in there and seeing how often how people looked was so
mismatched from how they talked about themselves.
But I was still really struggling.
And so I'm a person who grows a lot of body hair.
In retrospect, now I know I have PCOS.
I was diagnosed with that relatively recently.
Didn't know that at the time, and I remember before I posted
on normal news for the first time, I basically scrubbed my
body hair like it was all gone. And so from that first time of
posting it was like I had to make my.
It felt like I was so scared to show myself I was posting
because I felt so terrible about myself that it wouldn't have
even felt possible if I hadn't made myself feel a little bit
closer to what I'm supposed to look like.
But very quickly I could see I enjoyed taking pictures and
videos and posting them. I enjoy doing it any day that I
wanted to. And The thing is, my body hair
grows back very quickly and so I just quickly had to recognize
that either I am going to take fewer pictures and videos.
Or I'm just going to say, oh, a little bit of hair is growing
back on my thighs, for example. Oh, well.
And then over time, I've actually found out there's a lot
of people who actually love hairy women or a lot of people
who love fat women or a lot of people who love women or people
in general, anything who don't wear makeup.
Like right now I'm wearing absolutely no makeup.
I, I actually was going to put on some just like glitter
eyeshadow as I've been playing with recently, but I just kind
of ran out of time. But in general I've, you know, I
wear makeup every once in a while and, but hardly ever.
And when I do, it's mostly just the eyeliner and mascara.
It's not anything that's like to cover my face or that.
And I've thought about that also with this face reveal is I think
a lot of people would say, well, I'm going to be showing my eyes
for the first time. Maybe I should, you know, put on
extra makeup and maybe maybe I might sometime this month I
might put on some makeup and do a photo shoot like that as well.
But I'm certainly not going to do that like in.
Everything you got to do what's best for you, you know, And it's
very interesting because you, you hit so many topics like one.
Let's talk about body hair. I'm I'm going to out my own self
now. This is what I like to do on
sapphires. Your place.
Sometimes I'd like to go back in the archives and say I'm sorry I
done fucked up. I was one of those women as a
woman. I mean it's the the more you get
to know me in person. A lot of people know to notice
two things about me. First, it's my voice and it's my
skin. They touch my skin.
They're like, Oh my God, your skin is so smooth.
Then they look at my arms. They're like, bitch, what?
Where's your hair? You're not hairy.
But I'm like, yeah, I for the longest, I used to be envious of
the girls who had to shave because it took me the longest.
And then once I started shaving, it became like, frustrating
because my hair grows back very short and thin.
So, you know, I can go 4 weeks and it will still look like a
little boy stubble, you know, and a lot of people are not
blessed with that. However, as a queer woman who
loves, loves the ladies, y'all, you know, I love the ladies.
I was so particular about the women.
I would go down on to the point where it's like body hair.
I, I didn't care how fine she was if she did not take care of
herself down there if a vulva because I've been with trans
folks and non binary folks. If someone's body hair was too
long for my liking, I'd get the ick.
You know, I couldn't just get over that ick.
And in fact, I don't even think my girlfriend knows this until I
started dating her. And, you know, she started
embracing her body hair. I became more attractive to her
body hair. It's kind of weird to see her if
she's not, you know, having a little stubble, you know,
underneath her arms or like, growing it out or she has like,
a nice, beautiful Bush. That's like, now I embrace that.
However, do I want that for all my partners?
No, and and that's just my hang up, but I am now seeing the body
hair acceptance being seen not just in porn, but also in the
mainstream media. We're seeing more women and
more, you know, bodies of the female anatomy and those who
are, you know, queer, non binary, showing their body hair.
And you know, I, I love the dyeing of the armpits or the
dyeing of the the bushes. I'm like, yes, free that hair
bitches. Like come on, let her fly, you
know, make you're purple like my pube, like no, and people have
asked me like, oh, what about your pubes?
I'm like, I ain't got no pubes. There's no there's no purple
pussy hair down there, But I really do.
I really am for this whole new change of normalizing the news.
I, I did check out that Reddit feed that you were talking
about, you know, normalized nudity.
And I love how it's, it's, it's more of like a body positivity
and uplifting kind of form and not this, you know, the Reddit
fuckery that we see where it's only horny in cells and, you
know, adult entertainers just trying to catfish for more nudes
and you know, and all that. But it's beyond me.
But I do love that there's the normalizing nudity and not like
making it a sex thing. It's just reclaiming body
positivity, gaining you that confidence.
How is that confidence made you in the bedroom in your private
life, if you don't mind me prying into that?
Yeah, so I would say that my private sex life and also my
public sex life as I've been sharing, showing myself
masturbating for all this time have definitely affected each
other. Oh, in fact, I can remember, I
can remember sort of similar parallels of getting comfy with
beings seen as hairy in my personal life.
So I remember in 2017 I was dating several people.
I'm polyamorous and so also date, you know.
However, many people make sense based on attraction.
I'm polyamorous too. So Polly knows Polly baby?
Yeah. And I remember when I was
starting to date, I was dating these two people, mostly these
two people at the same time. And that year particularly was
just a really big year in terms of self exploration and dating
and just many, many things. And I remember feeling
self-conscious about the fact that my leg hair have grown out,
I think. And I remember one time, or I
remember a few times, I'm actually, I'm having a little
trouble remembering which of these was with which person.
But I remember there were instances in which, for example,
I told one person I was dating that I hadn't removed my leg
hair. And he was just like, oh, who
cares? It doesn't matter.
And just seeing how he just absolutely didn't care was
really helpful for me. And I also want to say that as
you talked about, some people really do have preferences.
And I don't assume much about if somebody does have preferences,
it doesn't bother me if somebody does prefer less body hair, but
it's we're probably just not going to be a match.
And so like, as I've been in the body hair world a little bit
more, I hear how people talk about these things.
And so for example, I've heard some people mentioned that I
know some people prefer no body hair or very little body hair
because the body hair covers what's there and they want to
see more of what's there. That makes sense to me.
Or for some people, hair, like hair in your mouth or hair on
your hands cannot feel very good.
Or maybe if you know a little bit of the pubic hair is left in
your mouth. Now, for some people that is
their dream. For other people it's a
nightmare. And including, I also have heard
people talk about this from a like a sensory perspective.
I'm also autistic, diagnosed a few years ago.
Or I mean, also just in the sense of one more thing about
me. And so when I hear other
autistic people talk about sensory things and their own
body hair, body hair of other people, these can all be really,
really intense. Absolutely.
One incident that stands out to me is one time I hooked up with
a person who was into me, but I think in kind of a mixed
feelings kind of way. It.
Wasn't his usual type. OK.
Complex thing to know. Girl, how much time do we got?
Because we all have been in these situations where it's just
like, I like you, but there's like there's some, you know?
Yeah, I've, I've actually had quite a few fans reach out and
tell me something like, I'm not usually attracted to somebody
who looks like you, but I am. And I have mixed feelings about
it. On the one hand, it's one more
time of somebody saying I don't find people like you attractive.
On the other hand, they're saying but you are so attractive
to me that you overcame all of that.
And in many cases what they're really saying and what people
have told me is that I've actually opened their eyes to
being attracted to a wider range of people.
It's exciting. I.
Remember 1. I love that.
Thank.
You. Yeah, me too.
And I have on my website I have I have a like a fan mail slash
hate mail page and I have some comments on there like that and
I love it. So this this this guy I was
talking about that I hooked up with, I remember I it was one of
those days where I could have removed my body hair and I
probably figured it was more likely he'd be into me if I did
and I wasn't at the moment that I was getting ready for my day.
I knew I liked him. I wasn't even sure if he liked
me. I didn't know if we were hanging
out as just friends or more. Don't you love those moments?
And I remember I needed more sleep that day.
And so I just chose. I was like, Nope, I'm just going
to go as is. And I remember when my shirt
came off, he looked at my chest And just the way my body hair
manifests is I just, it's kind of hidden, right?
But it's like somewhere right around here, I have a patch of
hair. And it's interesting because it
turns out it's something that actually quite a few people are
fans of. And I've kind of, I've actually
come to like it. I'm like over here looking, I
have like a little strands in my cleave line and a lot of people
don't notice it. Like it's my biggest insecurity
and we'll talk about that in a second, but go on.
I I'm like I feel scene without showing titty.
And he looked at me like he just stared with this almost
disgusted look on his face right there.
And I, it was such a wild moment because I remember telling him,
don't look at somebody who you've asked, like he asked to
see me topless. He he while I did a sort of hit
on him. It was very clear he wanted
things to keep moving. And so I told him, don't look at
somebody who you've asked to see topless like like that would
discuss. You you were telling him mid in
the moment, like mid top. Yeah, I love that.
I think so. Yeah, because I recently, I
recently rewatched a 5 minute story that I told about this at
an open mic. And yeah, that's, that's what I
said. And I, it was such a wild
experience because when I saw that look of disgust on his
face, or at least what I proceeded to disgust, he might
have just been being stunned. Obviously, he wasn't used to
seeing a hairy woman. You know.
He just wasn't used to it and and I'm sure also my
insecurities are flooding in and affecting how I interpreted it,
but I absolutely assumed that the moment was over.
I thought he wasn't into me and that would have been fine.
You can stop at any moment. However, he was still into me
and we hooked up. Was it good?
Was it worth a call back? You know, it was an interesting
experience we both got off. But interestingly, I've never
had this happen before. I think we both asked each
other, did you come? And neither of us realized it.
And so I think we were just really like not synced up.
And so one reason, one reason I could I wasn't positive that he
had come is because I almost always use condoms for oral sex.
And so, you know, when you come in a in a condom, it's just a
different experience. It is.
And so like, I just couldn't feel that.
But yeah, he so apparently he was really, in fact, at one
moment he looked up or maybe looked down on me while I was
going down, something like that. And he said, you are so hot.
And it was in a way like validating.
And also it was just a real, it was just everything all at once.
And I don't, I don't think we would ever hook up again.
We've seen each other since then.
But it was an interesting experience.
But I think while I like the fact that, you know, I'm, I like
the fact that we had a good time.
I like the fact that I opened his mind about who he could be
attracted to. I also realized that, you know,
he probably wasn't as into me as I mean, he certainly wasn't as
into me as pretty much everyone else I've ever hooked up with.
And I don't really want to hook up with people who aren't super
into me. Like, I'm fine with it if they
have. I don't know, It's like I'm
still trying to make sense of all of it.
But what I like now is that because I am increasingly open
about who I am and I dress more authentically, I speak more
authentically. People kind of know what they're
getting into. I love wearing dresses and my
hairy legs are very visible under my dresses.
And so when somebody is into me, I know that they are either
specifically into me exactly as I am, like maybe they're into
body hair, or maybe they're just into me and they're neutral on
body hair. If they have issues with body
hair, that's totally fine. I'm just not going to be the
person that they should be hooking up with or flirting
with. Exactly.
And you know what it's it's, I'm glad that you said that because
again, I and I could hear the hesitancy and it sounds like
you're like, I shouldn't have standards.
No, fuck that in 2025. And I've been telling people be
in your selfish era and it is, it is fine to have standards.
It is OK to have and like what you like.
It's the way that you present what you like, what you like
with another person or anybody that you're in a, a situation
with. And you know, I dare I say
polyamory is kind of one of the reasons why I have been more
accepting of the body types that I hook up with.
And I would say that you're you're nodding your head too,
that maybe this is also opened a way to know what you like
because again, we are so presented in a mainstream
society what a sexual attraction should be.
The person has to be fit. The person has to be full faced
makeup. They got to be clean.
First of all. Yes, you got to be clean.
I don't want somebody to be funky and nasty.
And there's a difference between being clean and being testing
negative and positively. Notice how I didn't incorporate
that y'all, because that's a big thing.
But we are told in society that you have to be clean, you have
to be STDSTI free, you have to be, you know, under £150, small
waist, big breast, blonde or a brunette or spicy Latina or, you
know, a quick hood rat bitch. As we all know, in some of
these, you know, porns, and that's not the case.
There are people like you and I, normal folks or, you know,
normal folks who are trying to normalize what adult content is
out there in society and, and saying like, Hey, I like you,
you like me. We, we are not, you know, Met
Gala material. But hey, if our bodies are
colliding and we're having a good time, who the fuck cares?
I think that's really what it comes down to.
You know, even like with dating apps, I I fuck in love that I'm
not on dating apps anymore because I found it being such as
toxic society. Look at how the origins of
Facebook started. That was, you know, the flip of
hot or not. You know, remember we had those
games, hot or not all the time and again, it shouldn't be that
way. It shouldn't matter if you're
hot or not to a body standard. If your body is calling to
another person's body or bodies, explore it.
Explore it consensually explore it.
Please, I just I, I don't know, it's just over the years as I'm
now progressing into my seriously almost one 40s I'm I'm
36 y'all God damn been doing this for a long time and I've
definitely have changed, You know, the way that I perceive
women's bodies. I embrace a full figure woman as
a full figure woman myself. You were talking about weight,
you know, fluctuating. I used to be an athlete and I,
you know, sometimes I don't like to look at old pictures of
myself because I know back then, even in my sports culture, I
thought I was fat. I was told I was fat, you know,
being muscular and big harmed. And my biggest insecurities are
my arms and my gut. And yet as I got into more of
the adult industry, even behind the scenes, there were more
women and men that were like, no stuff like you're a good looking
woman. You need to own that.
Own and embrace your sexuality in whichever way possible.
And showing news doesn't always have to be the way to reclaim
your sexuality. And I love bringing it back to
you, you gal Mariah, I love again how you have embraced the
old school culture of like a little ankle, a little wrist.
That's an attraction. And I'm talking about the way
that you showed your eyes. I've seen you in a lot of your
pictures. And I have to say it takes a
strong woman in today's society and right now where we are
battling our bodies, it takes a strong woman like yourself to
fully say fuck society standards.
This is me. You're either going to love me
or you're not going to love me, but I'm going to still love me.
And there's going to be somebody out there for me.
So I love that you stand on that business.
I think that for those people who want somebody who looks like
the people who usually you see in porn, that's great.
There's plenty of them. I have nothing against that.
But there's also the rest of us who are existing.
And at least for me, I I think I like to make content that just
feels authentic and I also can experience viscerally for myself
that just for myself, my type in people is not usually the Super
conventional like conventionally attractive people like I.
One thing that I've actually been recognizing for myself is
that if I had only met very feminine looking women, and only
feminine looking women who didn't have.
Much body hair. I don't even think I would have
realized that I am queer. I'm definitely queer.
I'm. Attracted to I'm pansexual
attracted to people regardless of gender, but my type in women
is not generally very feminine women.
And so while I I wouldn't say that Harry is specifically my
type, I have noticed that it does sometimes spark my
attraction. Like the first moment that I
realized that I was not straight is I was in a it happened to be
a women's studies class, which for some reason, I think it's
kind of just a funny. Little bit actually.
As someone who like similar, it's like yes it's either you
took a sexuality class in college, you had a lesbian
experience, or you took a women's studies class.
All of the above. Right.
So I looked over at one of my classmates who is gorgeous, like
absolutely gorgeous. And in fact, actually this
particular classmate is really classically attractive.
And I looked over and I noticed that her her the hair on her leg
or that her legs were very hairy.
And in that moment, I swear I thought to myself, oh, I think
that I'm bisexual. Hey, you'd like what you like.
The moment I knew, that's the moment I knew.
And I think it's because I am attracted to, I think I'm
attracted to masculinity, not like extreme masculinity, but it
seems that especially in women and AFAB people, I do like
masculinity or maybe also androgyny.
And so there have been several times there was somebody else
who another person way later, way more than one of the most
attractive women I've ever seen in my life.
And as I was talking to her, I realized that she had a kind of
a faint mustache and something about all of that together, just
that raw gorgeousness. I mean I could barely even talk,
like I'm so into her. I love that.
For me, because even though sometimes I'm still struggling
with unwinding all these things, I still sometimes will.
I still often have insecure thoughts.
But the fact that not only have I had a decade of having people
both on the Internet and in real life engage with me as a sexy
person, but also because I can viscerally feel that I am
attracted to people who growing up, I was told aren't the kind
of people that one is attracted to.
And in fact, on the rare occasions that I am attracted to
somebody who does look more classically attractive, I find
myself shocked actually. I mean, the people I'm attracted
to, I, I end up with a lot of crushes and many of them are
like really are truly attractive people.
But even if you look at it just as like objectively, but I
remember one time I met somebody, actually I met them at
a sex party and this person looks like an Adonis, just like
literally movie star appearance. And I remember thinking like, I
was so attracted to them, to, to him and finding myself thinking,
wow, this is absolutely not my type.
Yeah. And so, you know, it's like I
can surprise myself in many different directions.
And so. Yeah.
Do you find yourself like even surprising yourself, especially
at a sex party or any type of like queer event where
attraction could be like on the menu?
Have you ever found yourself in those situations where you're
like, damn, that person is so attractive but like there is no
way in hell they're interested in me.
And then all of a sudden it's like conversation or something
happens and they sound their own to you and you're like, oh,
fuck, OK, this, this is the moment.
Like, oh, oh, you want me? You want me?
Have you ever had those moments? I've had moments like that and
so that actually reminds me that this particular anecdote is not
about a party, but not about in real life, but it reminds me I
want to share about the one type of message that I will sometimes
get is people reaching out and telling me essentially they're
really into me, even though I they are way out of my leak.
I've had people actually tell me this on like for example.
The ones I'm thinking about are messages on Reddit.
Oh my God, you should have pulled some of those good ones
up and like us just just psyched.
I psyched that. Oh my God, that's.
Yeah, I help to check to see if I have those.
I think I might have a few one or two messages like that on my
fan mail, right? And also I haven't updated my
fan mail page in year so I need to scour for more comments.
Y'all need to check. I'll put the website in the link
of the bio. But I mean of this episode.
But that is hilarious to me because it's just like on Tinder
too. The same things would happen,
like, oh, normally you're not the type I go for, but like,
there's just something about you.
I just got to have like, OK, yeah, I think.
I think that kind of comment about leagues, it's fascinating
because first of all, they're being rude.
It's a backhanded compliment, yeah.
It's very rude to say this like they're like by objective
standards, I am much more attractive attractive than you.
OK, thanks. But second of all, the the
entire premise of leagues says that there's something about
that we can assess people based on numbers.
And I've thought about this sometimes because I've thought
about as I'm going doing this media tour, I've thought about
maybe going on some on some shows that are less friendly.
And when I watch, I don't. Usually.
Watch things too many but too often, but some of these shows
they'll have people on and they'll have women on and say
and ask how would you rate yourself?
And so I thought about that and on some sort of objective or
like not objective, but like what they would call the
objective is I would rate relatively low, like at a
maximum medium. I don't know.
I don't know how to do it, but it's fascinating because to
people who are into me, if they consider what they find hot, I'm
like melting off the page hot, you know, they like, there's
some people who I've experienced this to some extent in real
life, but I think also if I were ever to meet like fans in real
life, you know, they'd be so into me they wouldn't be able to
even form words, that kind of thing, you know, and.
And they are there. They are there, yeah.
And yet, and so those numbers don't really make sense.
And the leagues thing, I do think it's true that probably on
average, people who are more classically attractive tend to
be attracted to people who are more classically attractive.
I suspect that's true for a wide variety of reasons.
But the idea that leagues are this impenetrable thing where if
somebody is looks, you know, fits into the upper part of the
section, you know, upper part of the scale, then they're not
going to be attracted to people who are in the lower or middle
still part of the scale. Well, this person reaching out
to me is clearly attracted to me.
Why else would they be reaching out to?
Me. Why would they be?
Looking at my pictures, why would they care enough to reach
out? And like I said, this happened
multiple times and so clearly it's not these separate leagues.
So these messages, oh man, it's like.
The it's the mixed messages. It's the mixed messages.
And like you said, it's the numbers game and dare I say
because I mean in so culture is still very new to me.
I just call them what they are. Y'all are fuck boys and there's
fuck girls that are just the same way.
It's just I don't understand how somebody who hates themselves so
much that they want to just go out and terrorize everybody else
because they're getting pleasure.
I don't understand that culture at all.
And I don't understand how, you know, people hide behind
screens, for instance, and they will say whatever the fuck they
want to say, knowing that when you are a woman, they were
brought in this world by a woman.
They were probably raised by a woman and they probably are
protecting the women. I just never understood any of
that, how somebody can just be so cruel and thinking like, let
me just go to this girl's site, tell her I'm this studly man who
would probably never fuck her on site.
However, there's something very minuscule about you that makes
me sexually aroused. Send I I don't understand that
culture at all. I don't understand it at all
because you would never say it to a woman's face.
You, I mean, if you are saying these to people's faces, good
riddance. Because if you say that to me,
honey, yeah, arrest me on site. Actually, no, fuck the cops.
Don't arrest me on site. I have every right to beat your
ass for whatever you said about me because I I didn't wake up
today thinking I was an ugly person, but you wanted to just
make it a part of your agenda to make me feel ugly.
Get the fuck out of my way. Like, no, you deserve to be
castrated, beaten, all that without repercussions, period.
You deserve that. There's a special place for you,
You deserve that. Sorry, that got me on my little
sapphire soapbox for a second. You just reminded me of another
mean comment that I wanted to share.
About OH. This one was more recent.
I was in my Reddit inbox and I saw somebody had reached out and
then just said hi. And I think it was at a time
when I was responding and I was just kind of like, oh, hey,
check out my other. Link I don't.
Usually respond to other inboxes but I did their next their their
next message response to me was your teeth look like shark teeth
or something like I forgot what it was but it was clearly like
an insult on my teeth and. I'm looking at your teeth.
I'm like, I watch shark week. You don't got shark teeth.
You got good teeth. OK, You got a good mouth.
As someone who will literally fixate on like someone's flaw
for the longest, like I I won't be that guy in Austin Powers.
It's like mole, mole. But I'm like, no, your teeth
look fine. You got good teeth.
Yeah, they, I don't know if I know that in some photos you can
see they have a little of discoloration.
So I don't know if that's what he was.
But that's normal. But yeah, but, and again, I
don't usually respond to these things, but I just, I guess I
just did. And so I just responded.
I saw this message like a while after he had sent.
So I responded back and I said something like, I hope you're in
therapy for whatever LED you to feel that that was a reasonable
thing to message somebody. And then he responded to me and
said, don't worry, I am. So apparently this person is in
therapy because he realizes that something has gone wrong.
Well, at least he admitted it. Like thank you for for admitting
you're getting help, but like you still took time out of your
day to talk about my teeth to make yourself feel better.
You know, I just remember why it was that I even responded about
the I hope you, you know, see therapy.
I think it's because I didn't respond.
Actually, I didn't respond after he had said the thing about the
shark teeth. That's why would I.
Right. And then maybe weeks or months
later he sent me another message out of nowhere and said I'm
sorry for the rude message I sent.
You were the only one whoever responded to me anyway, so it
was something like maybe. A message.
And so it was so weird, like why is he messaging me?
Clearly when he first reached down the 1st place, I'm guessing
he was into me. So clearly there's something and
then I don't really know what happened, but for some reason at
some point he's insulting me with something about shark
teeth, which by the way, I, I don't even know.
Like what is the, are there some sort of stereotypes about shark
teeth? And I don't even know.
What I I've heard the one like you look like your your your
teeth like you two rocks all day.
But I've never heard shark tooth.
So if somebody, if there's the shark tooth theory, please slide
into Gal Mariah and I's emails, OK?
Please, like, debunk this shit right now, yeah.
Let us know. But seriously, it's crazy how
you know people are just so late.
That's why I really hate social media.
I really host. I really hate social media.
I hate the culture. Excuse me, I'm still coming off
of this like bronchitis, but it's the fact that you just it
it the fact that people just sit around on the screen all day
long and some people will pay for these services.
Someone might have paid for your services for your pictures and
wait. Instead of embracing these
pictures, you want to mark every flaw.
Like what the fuck is wrong with y'all?
Like if that's because if if that's what gets you off, like
fine, keep it to yourself. But if you're like paying
somebody and they're not asking you to degrade them, don't
degrade their pictures, OK? Don't degrade them.
Luckily, I don't think I think everybody who's actually paid
for my content, like everybody behind my Only Fans or Fans
leave paywall. I don't think I've ever had
anything mean there. Everyone's been super nice.
Good makes. Sense even just, you know, a
small fee per month and it like cuts a lot of that.
And that's partly why people say that if you have certain sites,
people can pay you on then and turn off the inboxes on the rest
or just don't look at them for many reasons.
But yeah, it's there is something about anonymity that
makes it so that people feel like they can just say anything
or maybe they're just desensitized.
They see us as just numbers or something.
And for me, I find it kind of mind boggling because I'm a
person who's sharing vulnerably online.
A lot of my content is doesn't mention the body image stuff,
but still body image things, they come up or some some of my
captions, we'll be honest about it.
Or the fact that I have come to this because of originally and
honestly still struggling with body image things.
And so the fact that somebody would insult somebody, not even
just a random person, but somebody who's being honest
about the fact that they have struggled with body image issues
is just. It's sad.
Terrible behavior. It's sad and it's terrible and
in imagine this y'all, some of the people that you may think
have all the self body confidence in the world are the
most insecure people. I myself, you know, come off as
a very confident individual, but that's something that I'm
personally working on. I, I told you about, you know,
my insecurity with my arms and my gut.
But I do have a lot of insecurities where it's hard for
me to validate myself. So I seek validity in others and
the people that I surround myself to say, OK, I guess I am
worth it. And that's something that I'm
working on personally. We're all working on something.
And that's why I'm so glad, Gal Mariah, you came on here because
it is not easy to do what you do.
And for you being the person that you are and, and being so
vulnerable with your body and yourself, I cannot wait to see
what blossoms for you. You know, now that everything is
out in the open, I really want to like touch back with you in
like 6 months or a year and see like where you've gone.
I want to see you just continuing this, this
flourishing body positivity movement that you are bringing
to your art. Bringing it back to that, You
know what we were saying in the beginning, Is there anything
that you want people to take away from this?
Any final words like a final climax you want to give people?
One thing that I really want people to know is that making
content online or any, in any case, it's a job.
It takes a lot of effort. And so people need to recognize,
I hope that if there is somebody whose content that you've been
enjoying, especially you've been enjoying it for years, if it's
giving you pleasure or relief, then if you want to increase the
odds that they will continue and that they'll be other people
like them who continue. It really, really helps if you
support them ideally financially, but also by
spreading their links, telling them how helpful it's been.
And I just whatever we can do to quash the idea that content
creation or being an influencer or, you know, only fans creator,
all of that, that it's easy. There's 1000 different things
that are wrong with that premise.
It is very challenging. And by the time somebody, by the
time you have found somebody, whether it is a random product
or a only fans creator or anything like that, they have
already put in so much effort just for you to, to even find
your for that, for you to find them.
That is the essentially invisible nature of marketing.
And so when people say, oh, why, why should I, why should I pay,
you know, good money for custom videos or anything like that,
Well, there's so much that goes into it.
And if people value the pleasure they get or the entertainment,
the camaraderie, if it's the case where you can actually chat
with the person, then just really consider that like
understand that there is value to that.
Well said. And the frat boys agree.
Gal Mariah. Oh, yes, yes, yes.
Yeah. I just want to share one more
thing. Yeah, which is that in my
experience, in many cases, we can make a lot of progress by
sharing what we're most insecure about.
And so for me, that's really what I've done is when there is
something that I'm insecure about, when I'm in situations
where I feel safe doing it, I will share that about myself.
So posting my nudes online is a, you know, prime example or other
cases in which I've dealt with imposter syndrome.
Like I used to be a grad student and I made enormous strides and
feeling better about myself when I started opening up to other
people about how I was feeling and realizing that, oh, actually
most of us are having imposter syndrome.
And so I think that of course there's there are risks when
somebody shares something they're insecure about.
It's not the right thing for every single setting, but if we
can find safe people or safe websites or little steps and
share what we're insecure about, and we can do it in ways that do
have harm reduction. So, for example, because I
posted online for a full decade without showing my eyes, that
provided me a lot of safety, privacy in all kinds of
different ways. It gave me time to explore and
to share myself and to figure out, is this actually something
that I want to be doing and putting my face on?
And even if I'd never shared my face, even if I'd only posted
the one time on normal news and not done this for the whole
decade after that, there would have been value to all of this.
So I just really want to encourage people that if there's
something that might support their goals, to look at it.
Consider the pros and cons, consider how they can help
themselves while still prioritizing whatever is most
important to them. And help ourselves continue
growing. And the last thing I wanted to
show is just this is just we're talking about art.
So recently a loved 1 gave me this cup which you can actually
open this up and just put paper in here.
So this is a little cartoon. Version of me.
So this is with basically hiding my eyes and it says I actually I
don't know if it's mirrored but it says I can't wait for you to.
See, I see that. Yeah.
And then one thing about this is I do like drawing cartoons.
It's something that I do and this version of my cartoon where
the eyes aren't hidden. The way I do it is like I
basically cut a whole strip and don't put any of that.
And what's interesting to me is that by doing that, by hiding my
eyes, what also is invisible in the cartoon is other ways I
express myself. For example, my daily hair
flower. And I have these magnetic
glasses. So I changed them out.
And so while it's totally fine that I've been hiding my eyes
and, you know, expressing just what I feel comfy with, by doing
that, I've also been keeping a lot more hidden.
And of course, the glasses, the colorful glasses and hair
flower, they're just one thing. But I think it's a symbol of the
fact that because I have had to hide myself and protect myself
in these ways all this time, there's also a lot else that
I've been hiding. And so I'm just so excited for
this next step and I'm so excited for this weekend and
this day. And thank you so much for for
being part of it. No, thank you.
Thank you again. I'm just like, let's give you
your fucking roses already, you know, I, I cannot wait to see
what happens. So with that said, where can the
people follow you? Where can they get more of that
Gal Mariah action? You can find me at still in
metamorphosis.com. There's my bio, an artist
statement about how all this got started, a gallery of nudes.
Other podcasts are the shows that I've been on.
And there you can also find my links to my only Fans and my
fans. And since you did tell me to be
more dominant, so it's pronounced Gal Maria.
Gal Maria, See, I'm telling y'all I fucked up.
I'm fucked up. I'm usually professional with
this. I'm so no, no, I'm so I'm so
sorry. I feel like I'm going to have to
like dub this episode and be like Gal Maria Maria Maria
Maria. Yeah, Gal Maria.
So I have, I've had many different like I've complex
experience with my real name, which I don't share on here, and
also my pseudonym. And in both cases they're easily
mispronounced, misspelled everything.
So I do try to let people know because I know that people want
to do it right. You don't have to dub, it's not
a big deal, it's up to you, but might as well end on that
dominant note. I love it and you don't.
We want to see more of that. So Gal Maria, thank you so, so
much. Still in Metamorphosis and
continuing on. And I cannot wait to see what's
going to happen because girl, this, this factor, this glow, I
see it and I want everybody else to recognize it.
So please, please, please go and support this beautiful woman in
Metamorphosis. And with that said, I'm Miss
Radio Sapphire. Remember that safe sex is the
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