1 00:00:00,360 --> 00:00:03,600 Warning, the following program is not for the weak hearted, 2 00:00:04,320 --> 00:00:07,800 those who are close minded or in general you're scared to learn 3 00:00:07,800 --> 00:00:10,720 what's behind closed doors. Here at Sapphires Airplay. 4 00:00:10,720 --> 00:00:13,840 I want you to pour the wine, grab somebody that you want to 5 00:00:13,840 --> 00:00:17,880 hold on to, or better yet, get the vibration stimulated through 6 00:00:17,880 --> 00:00:19,960 your body. Get ready for one Hal of an 7 00:00:19,960 --> 00:00:28,640 orgasm in 54321. What is up all my sexy mother 8 00:00:28,640 --> 00:00:31,080 fuckers out there on radio land. It's your girl Sapphire. 9 00:00:31,080 --> 00:00:33,920 Back at it again. And I got to say my next guest. 10 00:00:34,240 --> 00:00:37,000 She is the most relatable whore on the Internet. 11 00:00:37,080 --> 00:00:40,920 Two time X Biz Europa award nominations. 12 00:00:41,040 --> 00:00:44,120 It's coming up in September. I'm so excited. 13 00:00:44,320 --> 00:00:47,360 I I don't think like this introduction can do any more 14 00:00:47,360 --> 00:00:52,000 justice just by being that bitch, that girl, that girl in 15 00:00:52,000 --> 00:00:54,160 the industry. I'm talking about Miss Addis. 16 00:00:54,360 --> 00:00:57,760 Fuche rowdy fat boys. You know what to do. 17 00:00:57,920 --> 00:00:59,760 Let's give our girl a warm welcome. 18 00:00:59,760 --> 00:01:03,480 There we go. Honestly, I know that sounds 19 00:01:03,480 --> 00:01:05,840 very well. I've had many a front boy cheer 20 00:01:05,840 --> 00:01:09,640 me on to do many things, so I love that sound very well. 21 00:01:09,800 --> 00:01:12,240 I actually remember it was one time when I was in college, I 22 00:01:12,240 --> 00:01:14,880 was looking at a picture of the entire soccer team just on 23 00:01:14,880 --> 00:01:17,280 Facebook at the end of their season. 24 00:01:17,280 --> 00:01:20,040 They took a photo and I was like, oh, I'm fuck you and you 25 00:01:20,120 --> 00:01:22,880 and you and I, And there were more people that I had fucked on 26 00:01:22,880 --> 00:01:24,920 the roster than people I hadn't fucked on the roster. 27 00:01:26,440 --> 00:01:28,200 Addis, are you living? Are you like in my 28 00:01:28,200 --> 00:01:30,400 conversations? Because why did I just have this 29 00:01:30,400 --> 00:01:33,720 conversation about a couple of days ago with some of my Poly 30 00:01:33,720 --> 00:01:37,440 tribe and same thing. I was like, you know, I kind of 31 00:01:37,440 --> 00:01:40,720 missed out on the college football experience, but other 32 00:01:40,720 --> 00:01:43,200 all all the other college teams, the girls basketball team, the 33 00:01:43,200 --> 00:01:46,840 guys basketball team. Same thing I was booking the 34 00:01:46,840 --> 00:01:50,240 football team, the lacrosse team, the basketball team, I 35 00:01:50,240 --> 00:01:52,120 mean even the swim team and the squash team. 36 00:01:52,120 --> 00:01:55,720 I discriminate get all the rugby team, the baseball team. 37 00:01:55,960 --> 00:01:58,920 I used to actually write down, I had a physical list of everyone 38 00:01:58,920 --> 00:02:02,400 that I had sex with and I kept it in my old advertising 39 00:02:02,400 --> 00:02:06,400 internship notebook from when I worked at Digitas LBI and I was 40 00:02:06,400 --> 00:02:09,000 on the American Express team. For some reason I felt like I 41 00:02:09,000 --> 00:02:12,280 needed to keep this in my notebook and I lost the book and 42 00:02:12,280 --> 00:02:13,320 I was like, Oh my God, what am I gonna do? 43 00:02:13,320 --> 00:02:15,480 Like I, what am I gonna do? I love my list. 44 00:02:15,480 --> 00:02:19,200 And then I remember Addis. You only fuck athletes. 45 00:02:19,200 --> 00:02:21,840 Just go look at the rosters. You could make it again. 46 00:02:21,920 --> 00:02:28,160 And that I did, and that I did. So the list was intact. 47 00:02:28,280 --> 00:02:30,280 I've since stopped keeping a list. 48 00:02:30,680 --> 00:02:32,160 Damn. I'm sorry, let's ask. 49 00:02:32,520 --> 00:02:34,640 You know, if I were to estimate, my body count is somewhere 50 00:02:34,640 --> 00:02:37,440 between 500 and 600. If I was yes, I. 51 00:02:38,600 --> 00:02:40,480 Love it. You know what, I think this is a 52 00:02:40,480 --> 00:02:42,960 great opening because wine body count. 53 00:02:42,960 --> 00:02:45,920 It seems like it's been like resurfacing on a lot of 54 00:02:45,920 --> 00:02:48,600 platforms as of late. And like, I don't know about 55 00:02:48,600 --> 00:02:52,240 you, I found body count just like test driving cars. 56 00:02:52,240 --> 00:02:54,800 We don't buy cars off the lot, OK? 57 00:02:55,680 --> 00:02:57,360 So why? And sometimes you just want to 58 00:02:57,360 --> 00:02:59,640 go for a joyride. Exactly. 59 00:02:59,880 --> 00:03:03,400 Sometimes it's one time, sometimes it's multiple times, 60 00:03:03,880 --> 00:03:06,360 so you know. Sometimes you have a certain car 61 00:03:06,360 --> 00:03:08,960 for the winter and sometimes you have a certain one that's more 62 00:03:08,960 --> 00:03:10,680 of a convertible for the next weather. 63 00:03:10,920 --> 00:03:13,480 There you go. Some have SUVs, some have 64 00:03:13,480 --> 00:03:16,360 sedans, some have the hatchback, some don't. 65 00:03:16,800 --> 00:03:18,360 But you know what? It's all the same. 66 00:03:18,600 --> 00:03:20,720 It's all the same. Sometimes I just like to take an 67 00:03:20,720 --> 00:03:23,200 Uber Black. Yes, I. 68 00:03:24,440 --> 00:03:26,040 Did we just become best friends? I think we. 69 00:03:26,040 --> 00:03:27,640 Became like some more friends. I think we did. 70 00:03:28,000 --> 00:03:32,360 And you know what, I am not surprised that this is how my 71 00:03:32,360 --> 00:03:34,400 career ended up. One of my friends from college 72 00:03:34,400 --> 00:03:37,240 said, you know, honest, it makes sense why you know your life is 73 00:03:37,240 --> 00:03:40,840 the way it is now because every crazy sex story college was 74 00:03:40,840 --> 00:03:42,960 about you and also you love to speak your mind. 75 00:03:42,960 --> 00:03:46,520 So having sex and media, that's basically what you were meant to 76 00:03:46,520 --> 00:03:48,000 do. So he's totally right. 77 00:03:48,560 --> 00:03:51,720 And to go off of what you said about the X Biz 0 awards, I'm 78 00:03:51,720 --> 00:03:55,640 really excited to be nominated for both best day and best group 79 00:03:55,640 --> 00:03:58,160 scene. It is the same scene that got me 80 00:03:58,160 --> 00:04:01,200 both nominations. So this is scene called the Lust 81 00:04:01,200 --> 00:04:03,520 Games and it's an Erica Lust film. 82 00:04:03,920 --> 00:04:06,440 It is one of her only films. I think it might be the only 83 00:04:06,440 --> 00:04:10,040 film that she plays an actual character in the scene. 84 00:04:10,040 --> 00:04:12,960 So she's the game show host. She's not in sex with us, but 85 00:04:12,960 --> 00:04:14,800 she's the host of the game show. Instead of just being like 86 00:04:15,040 --> 00:04:19,399 somebody who has a cameo or you know, is an extra hand in, you 87 00:04:19,399 --> 00:04:22,920 know, a reaching scene, she plays an actual character. 88 00:04:22,920 --> 00:04:25,560 So massive, massive honor. There's also another scene of 89 00:04:25,560 --> 00:04:29,600 hers that is coming out that I'm in I guess sometime this year. 90 00:04:29,600 --> 00:04:32,720 But there's another Erica Les 1st that I am in. 91 00:04:33,040 --> 00:04:37,440 I'm also presenting her Vanguard Award with Kazumi and Kalita 92 00:04:37,440 --> 00:04:38,720 Fire at. Oh my God. 93 00:04:39,000 --> 00:04:40,200 Award. So it's about to be a really 94 00:04:40,200 --> 00:04:42,720 huge month for me. There's so much going on for me 95 00:04:42,720 --> 00:04:43,560 this month. Yeah, it. 96 00:04:43,560 --> 00:04:46,600 Sounds like, OK, so first of all, you're going to Europe. 97 00:04:46,600 --> 00:04:50,680 And I got to say, I feel like the sex scene, especially out 98 00:04:50,680 --> 00:04:53,520 there for porn stars, is a little bit different. 99 00:04:53,760 --> 00:04:56,960 I feel like people have been saying like Prague is the new 100 00:04:56,960 --> 00:05:01,360 California of porn. So like I'd say like a lot of 101 00:05:01,360 --> 00:05:05,120 porn in Europe is shot in Prague or Budapest or Barcelona. 102 00:05:05,360 --> 00:05:09,200 There are some that's shot in in the UK, like there's fake taxi 103 00:05:09,200 --> 00:05:10,920 and there's the Browsers team has a team there. 104 00:05:10,920 --> 00:05:13,120 I love the Browsers team in the UK. 105 00:05:13,120 --> 00:05:16,000 Shout out to all of you guys. And Danny DI did shoot a scene 106 00:05:16,000 --> 00:05:18,200 with Danny D that was really, really great. 107 00:05:18,280 --> 00:05:21,200 He's also nominated for the for best acting too, which is great. 108 00:05:22,280 --> 00:05:24,760 Who else is out there at dorsal shoots in Paris? 109 00:05:24,960 --> 00:05:27,240 There's a couple of other random places, but if those are the I'd 110 00:05:27,240 --> 00:05:29,080 say the three bigger cities and and Berlin. 111 00:05:29,080 --> 00:05:30,080 There's stuff that John Berlin too. 112 00:05:30,400 --> 00:05:33,440 Yeah, I was going to say, like Berlin, I felt that for a while 113 00:05:33,440 --> 00:05:35,840 was the spot. But then all of a sudden again, 114 00:05:35,840 --> 00:05:40,400 hearing that Prague out of all places is becoming porno valley. 115 00:05:40,480 --> 00:05:43,200 Like, walk us through it. Because I know that you have 116 00:05:43,200 --> 00:05:46,640 talked about, you know, the euro sex scene in different social 117 00:05:46,640 --> 00:05:49,160 media platforms. And I think you even said, like, 118 00:05:49,160 --> 00:05:51,480 don't ask me about it, but you know, I'm going to go there. 119 00:05:52,280 --> 00:05:55,840 I got to say, like, what is like, what is it about porn 120 00:05:55,840 --> 00:05:58,880 stars flocking to Europe, saying fuck the US? 121 00:05:59,200 --> 00:06:01,200 Like, layout the scene, if you will. 122 00:06:01,400 --> 00:06:03,080 Like what? What makes people go back? 123 00:06:03,560 --> 00:06:05,520 I think it's similar to like modeling, right? 124 00:06:05,520 --> 00:06:07,640 Like, you know, you can model and which I also do. 125 00:06:07,640 --> 00:06:10,480 I also do commercial modeling. You can model in the United 126 00:06:10,480 --> 00:06:16,120 States, in LA and Miami and Chicago and New York, and that's 127 00:06:16,120 --> 00:06:17,920 great. But there's also Milan fashion. 128 00:06:17,920 --> 00:06:20,840 We can also get jobs in London, in Paris. 129 00:06:20,840 --> 00:06:22,200 So it's kind of a very similar thing. 130 00:06:22,320 --> 00:06:24,760 I actually have two different agents, one for Europe and one 131 00:06:24,760 --> 00:06:26,640 for the United States. However, my United States one 132 00:06:26,640 --> 00:06:28,680 Ken still book worked in Europe and vice versa. 133 00:06:28,680 --> 00:06:34,480 But primarily I, I guess I'm now kind of growing my career in two 134 00:06:34,480 --> 00:06:35,640 continents, which is really cool. 135 00:06:35,880 --> 00:06:39,560 And I hope to add a third. I hope to add Asia in 2026. 136 00:06:39,600 --> 00:06:41,520 I do speak Chinese, so I think that makes sense for me. 137 00:06:41,520 --> 00:06:44,560 There's a huge scene in Taiwan and a scene in Japan. 138 00:06:44,560 --> 00:06:45,960 I think that would be really, really joke. 139 00:06:46,200 --> 00:06:48,440 Yeah, it's the world is actually just opening up for me. 140 00:06:48,440 --> 00:06:52,000 I didn't even know that I was nominated for an exquisite 141 00:06:52,000 --> 00:06:55,840 Europe award until my friend GG Max texted me and was like, hey, 142 00:06:56,560 --> 00:06:59,280 Congrats on your nom. And I was like, oh, for what? 143 00:06:59,520 --> 00:07:01,560 And she was like, for best acting, you're nominated for 144 00:07:01,560 --> 00:07:02,840 best acting. And I was like, Oh my God, 145 00:07:02,840 --> 00:07:04,880 that's crazy. Well, I didn't even check the 146 00:07:04,880 --> 00:07:07,880 nominations because I only started shooting in Europe. 147 00:07:09,240 --> 00:07:11,520 What is this, August? I also started shooting in 148 00:07:11,520 --> 00:07:14,600 Europe six months ago. OK, I thought so because I'm 149 00:07:14,600 --> 00:07:16,520 late. Yeah, I've heard your work, 150 00:07:16,880 --> 00:07:20,000 obviously out here in the States, your advocacy. 151 00:07:20,000 --> 00:07:24,560 I mean, again, I love how you are one of the few in this 152 00:07:24,560 --> 00:07:28,240 industry that can go from both the adult industry to the 153 00:07:28,240 --> 00:07:31,160 mainstream industry with not that much Flack. 154 00:07:31,200 --> 00:07:34,040 And it's kind of like how I am too in the radio industry. 155 00:07:34,040 --> 00:07:36,120 I've made my way in the mainstream. 156 00:07:36,360 --> 00:07:40,600 And then porn was really what kind of got me the Miz Radio 157 00:07:40,600 --> 00:07:43,320 Sapphire name. You know, I never forget my my 158 00:07:43,320 --> 00:07:45,800 stomping grounds with Playboy and with Vivid. 159 00:07:45,800 --> 00:07:49,560 So it's very cool to know somebody like yourself who is in 160 00:07:49,560 --> 00:07:52,560 front of the camera doing the action, doing the work, and can 161 00:07:52,560 --> 00:07:56,600 go from these spaces. And so do you ever feel that you 162 00:07:56,600 --> 00:08:00,440 almost have like, this other advantage to, you know, some of 163 00:08:00,440 --> 00:08:02,560 your peers? Do you ever feel that way? 164 00:08:03,720 --> 00:08:08,680 I do feel that way. I think this disadvantage does 165 00:08:08,680 --> 00:08:11,280 come from having such a multifaceted life. 166 00:08:11,800 --> 00:08:14,840 I went to boarding school in Connecticut, so I essentially 167 00:08:14,840 --> 00:08:19,240 moved out of New York City when I was 13, and I was at boarding 168 00:08:19,240 --> 00:08:24,360 school from 13 to 17. So I was 17 when I started 169 00:08:24,360 --> 00:08:26,960 college. Actually, I was not 18, and then 170 00:08:26,960 --> 00:08:29,520 I turned 18 a couple weeks into college. 171 00:08:29,520 --> 00:08:31,840 My birthday's in September so we were coming up on my birthday. 172 00:08:32,000 --> 00:08:34,200 Nice. Happy early birthday. 173 00:08:34,480 --> 00:08:39,240 Happy Virgo season. Yes, and I Then I went to 174 00:08:39,240 --> 00:08:40,400 college. I thought it was only really 175 00:08:40,400 --> 00:08:43,960 home for summers and holidays, which really taught me to 176 00:08:44,200 --> 00:08:47,320 appreciate the process of discovering my personhood. 177 00:08:47,840 --> 00:08:50,640 I speak Chinese. I'm a runner. 178 00:08:50,640 --> 00:08:53,440 I was undefeated for two straight years in high school. 179 00:08:53,600 --> 00:08:57,440 This is what we talk in Track. Run a long distance and track. 180 00:08:57,440 --> 00:09:00,760 So my mile time in college was 5 minutes and 17 seconds. 181 00:09:00,920 --> 00:09:05,160 That's not a slow time at all. Yeah, yeah. 182 00:09:05,160 --> 00:09:07,160 No, no. So I'm, you know, involved in 183 00:09:07,160 --> 00:09:09,920 the New York City running community, but I also was really 184 00:09:09,920 --> 00:09:12,200 involved in the radio station. And in college I was the 185 00:09:12,200 --> 00:09:14,360 business manager and also the hip hop genre manager. 186 00:09:14,360 --> 00:09:16,720 So I volunteer a lot. And actually volunteering is how 187 00:09:16,720 --> 00:09:20,040 I got into the adult industry. I started in the sex industry 188 00:09:20,040 --> 00:09:22,920 when I was 19 because I was like, I would be such a good 189 00:09:22,920 --> 00:09:25,840 sugar baby. Like I was working 2 unpaid 190 00:09:25,840 --> 00:09:29,520 internships and advertising just trying to make my way into this 191 00:09:29,520 --> 00:09:33,080 world that I was really just deeply trying to discover. 192 00:09:33,600 --> 00:09:35,520 I was an economics and Chinese double major. 193 00:09:35,520 --> 00:09:39,120 So I really just kind of learned advertising from reading and 194 00:09:39,120 --> 00:09:41,120 from the Internet and from practice. 195 00:09:41,840 --> 00:09:45,320 And I was making no money. So I worked on shop Gene. 196 00:09:45,320 --> 00:09:47,200 I don't know if you remember that like online company. 197 00:09:47,200 --> 00:09:50,560 So I was working for that. Yeah, it was very, it was very 198 00:09:50,560 --> 00:09:54,640 like it like very Internet, very meme culture of 26 years. 199 00:09:54,640 --> 00:09:58,680 But I, I interned for them. And I also Internet another 200 00:09:58,680 --> 00:10:01,640 company where my client was product of the year. 201 00:10:01,640 --> 00:10:06,200 So very, very different, different veins, but I was 202 00:10:06,200 --> 00:10:08,440 working them at the same time making zero money. 203 00:10:08,480 --> 00:10:11,520 And that was when Seeking Arrangements was popping off. 204 00:10:11,640 --> 00:10:13,600 And so I was like, oh, I'd be very good at this. 205 00:10:13,640 --> 00:10:17,520 And of course, in that type of work, you don't really have any 206 00:10:17,520 --> 00:10:19,440 friends, right? Like in the industry, there's 207 00:10:19,440 --> 00:10:22,520 not people that you can even point to because you can't even 208 00:10:22,520 --> 00:10:24,840 see other girls profiles. You don't even know who's out 209 00:10:24,920 --> 00:10:27,160 there unless you have been talking to somebody. 210 00:10:27,280 --> 00:10:28,280 And they're like, Oh my God, wait too. 211 00:10:28,280 --> 00:10:31,800 I'm like, wow, thank God I have to explain myself around you. 212 00:10:32,200 --> 00:10:35,160 And so during lockdown, I realized that I actually did not 213 00:10:35,360 --> 00:10:38,400 enjoy advertising despite working at two of the top 214 00:10:38,440 --> 00:10:40,640 agencies in the world. I worked at Wyden and Kennedy, 215 00:10:40,640 --> 00:10:43,240 straight out of the college. They invented the like all of 216 00:10:43,240 --> 00:10:46,120 the McDonald's meals that you see meeting Cardi B, the Colin 217 00:10:46,120 --> 00:10:49,280 Capronic Nike ads and while I was there I worked on Equinox 218 00:10:49,280 --> 00:10:52,360 commit to something and I worked on the Bud Light Dilly Dilly 219 00:10:52,360 --> 00:10:53,320 campaign. I also. 220 00:10:53,320 --> 00:10:56,400 Oh my goodness. And Sprite and Duracell and I 221 00:10:56,400 --> 00:11:00,560 left and I went to work at RGA to help launch bubbly seltzers. 222 00:11:00,720 --> 00:11:04,600 I also worked on Life Water, Planned Parenthood, Soul Cycle, 223 00:11:04,600 --> 00:11:08,520 Baidu, and MCM Bags. Can we just call you the label? 224 00:11:08,520 --> 00:11:12,280 Like not not just the most relatable, but the label whore. 225 00:11:12,360 --> 00:11:14,760 Literally. Actually, Yeah, Yeah, I think 226 00:11:14,760 --> 00:11:16,720 you should actually. Yeah, Yeah, we get that in my 227 00:11:16,720 --> 00:11:17,640 chest. Yeah. 228 00:11:17,640 --> 00:11:18,320 You. Got to and. 229 00:11:18,600 --> 00:11:21,800 You know, and then the monster happened and I realized I do not 230 00:11:21,800 --> 00:11:24,320 like advertising. I just liked hanging out in the 231 00:11:24,320 --> 00:11:27,200 office with my friends. I did not notice that because I 232 00:11:27,200 --> 00:11:30,400 just had so much fun at work that I thought that this was a 233 00:11:30,400 --> 00:11:34,200 career that I was so passionate about and it is a dream of mine 234 00:11:34,200 --> 00:11:38,120 one day to open a full service agency that takes on high risk 235 00:11:38,120 --> 00:11:41,520 clients. So stuck alcohol brands like 236 00:11:41,520 --> 00:11:44,200 that that are considered just too high risk but that need 237 00:11:44,200 --> 00:11:47,960 comms planning, they need media buying, they need strategy, they 238 00:11:47,960 --> 00:11:50,200 need like a full service creative director. 239 00:11:50,320 --> 00:11:53,120 But I digress. So I ended up starting Only Fans 240 00:11:53,120 --> 00:11:56,800 because me and one of my, my, my dual partners were like, made 241 00:11:56,800 --> 00:11:58,200 this video for a client. And I was like, well, now we 242 00:11:58,200 --> 00:11:59,680 have this video, what do we do with it? 243 00:11:59,880 --> 00:12:01,600 And she said, oh, we're just starting Only Fans. 244 00:12:01,600 --> 00:12:04,120 It might do well, I don't know. And so then I start to gain a 245 00:12:04,120 --> 00:12:05,880 little bit of traction, which was really cool. 246 00:12:06,240 --> 00:12:09,040 And I still missed the volunteer aspect of my life. 247 00:12:09,040 --> 00:12:14,640 It's a huge part of my life. Every two weeks for the last 10 248 00:12:14,640 --> 00:12:18,200 or so years, I've taken a hotline shift, a 24 hour hotline 249 00:12:18,200 --> 00:12:20,480 shift for a domestic abuse sexual assault nonprofit. 250 00:12:20,480 --> 00:12:24,200 So you can call me or I guess anybody who's on duty and I will 251 00:12:24,200 --> 00:12:25,360 help you with whatever you're going through. 252 00:12:25,360 --> 00:12:28,600 Whether that's explaining what a relief from abuse order is and 253 00:12:28,600 --> 00:12:30,560 how that is different from a restraining order. 254 00:12:30,800 --> 00:12:33,840 Whether that is because you need to be literally talked off the 255 00:12:33,840 --> 00:12:37,360 ledge or if you just have a bunch of questions, or if you're 256 00:12:37,360 --> 00:12:39,600 like, I think my friend is going through something and I don't 257 00:12:39,600 --> 00:12:42,560 know what to do, you can call me and I will help through that. 258 00:12:42,840 --> 00:12:45,800 And I just didn't have that type of thing within the sex 259 00:12:45,800 --> 00:12:47,600 industry. I feel like there is so much 260 00:12:47,600 --> 00:12:50,040 more phobia even within the different sectors of the sex 261 00:12:50,040 --> 00:12:51,520 industry. Like, you know, like the doms 262 00:12:51,520 --> 00:12:53,080 think that they're better because they don't often don't 263 00:12:53,080 --> 00:12:55,240 actually have sex with their clients and their fans. 264 00:12:55,400 --> 00:12:57,720 Then the only fans, girls think that they're better because, you 265 00:12:57,720 --> 00:13:00,440 know, they own all their content and they can make their work 266 00:13:00,440 --> 00:13:02,360 work for them. And the porn stars, mainstream 267 00:13:02,360 --> 00:13:04,520 porn stars think they're better because, you know, they're 268 00:13:04,560 --> 00:13:06,840 they're the actual stars being cast by big studios. 269 00:13:07,000 --> 00:13:08,880 I ask whores think they're better because there are steps 270 00:13:08,880 --> 00:13:11,120 behind closed doors and it's like, guys, we all suck a Dick 271 00:13:11,120 --> 00:13:13,400 for money. And that doesn't even include 272 00:13:13,400 --> 00:13:16,360 the fact that there are people of different races and genders 273 00:13:16,360 --> 00:13:19,280 and sizes and location. So where none of us are going to 274 00:13:19,280 --> 00:13:21,480 be free unless we all put our heads together. 275 00:13:21,480 --> 00:13:23,360 And so I was like, I need to volunteer in the sex industry. 276 00:13:23,480 --> 00:13:26,320 So I started volunteering with Sex Workers Outreach Project, 277 00:13:26,520 --> 00:13:28,720 which is a grassroots organization where you have to 278 00:13:28,720 --> 00:13:30,600 be a current or former sex worker to be involved. 279 00:13:31,280 --> 00:13:32,920 And there are many different ways to volunteer. 280 00:13:32,920 --> 00:13:36,280 But what I did was I helped put together the Wellness kits for 281 00:13:36,280 --> 00:13:38,640 the street workers in East New York, and we'd pass them out on 282 00:13:38,640 --> 00:13:40,200 Fridays. So that was what I did every 283 00:13:40,200 --> 00:13:42,080 Friday. And we would make dental kits 284 00:13:42,080 --> 00:13:45,320 and menstrual kits and safe sex kits, safe drug use kits. 285 00:13:45,400 --> 00:13:48,240 And for anybody who's a drug user that is listening to this, 286 00:13:48,520 --> 00:13:52,560 if you need a makeshift filter for any pipe, you can actually 287 00:13:52,560 --> 00:13:56,640 cut those copper scrubby things for your dishes and roll it up 288 00:13:56,640 --> 00:13:59,360 into a ball and that will be a makeshift filter. 289 00:13:59,440 --> 00:14:00,880 So it's a little bit safer for you. 290 00:14:01,560 --> 00:14:06,160 I my hands got so tender from rubbing them so many times and 291 00:14:06,160 --> 00:14:08,160 putting them in the kit. So I know this very well. 292 00:14:08,960 --> 00:14:11,240 I actually got to know so many people in the industry got to 293 00:14:11,240 --> 00:14:14,160 know more doms and more dancers and other people. 294 00:14:14,240 --> 00:14:16,840 This platform of mine was growing and I was already on 295 00:14:16,840 --> 00:14:20,200 TikTok talking about how like being a sugar baby is like 296 00:14:20,200 --> 00:14:22,760 putting pussy on layaway. It's like being an escort on a 297 00:14:22,760 --> 00:14:25,280 payment plan. Because why am I bargaining with 298 00:14:25,280 --> 00:14:27,120 you? This is not a fucking flea 299 00:14:27,120 --> 00:14:30,920 market, right, right. Like, like, Oh my God, does this 300 00:14:30,920 --> 00:14:34,800 look like like fucking Bj's? So, you know, it started my club 301 00:14:34,800 --> 00:14:36,200 start to grow, making more friends. 302 00:14:36,200 --> 00:14:38,800 And then somebody tweeted at me. It's like, I just would you ever 303 00:14:38,800 --> 00:14:40,880 consider shooting mainstream porn? 304 00:14:40,960 --> 00:14:44,200 And I thought, you know what, actually, I would consider that 305 00:14:44,200 --> 00:14:46,920 because if I'm already, you know, seeing people, I'm 306 00:14:46,960 --> 00:14:50,120 already, you know, putting stuff on my own. 307 00:14:50,120 --> 00:14:52,480 Only fans. Why not and? 308 00:14:52,480 --> 00:14:55,240 Luckily this person was mutuals with a lot of my volunteer 309 00:14:55,240 --> 00:14:58,240 friends so I was able to ask if he was normal or going to kidnap 310 00:14:58,240 --> 00:15:00,320 me. And you know, here we are three 311 00:15:00,320 --> 00:15:03,240 years later. You know, I love this journey. 312 00:15:03,240 --> 00:15:07,240 And again, for those that don't know you, thank you for running 313 00:15:07,240 --> 00:15:11,120 this all down because I feel like you just cannot be put in a 314 00:15:11,120 --> 00:15:12,640 box. And I think the, the most thing 315 00:15:12,640 --> 00:15:17,320 that I feel myself drawn to you is just this openness and this 316 00:15:17,320 --> 00:15:21,800 readiness to, you know, just be out there and advocate something 317 00:15:21,800 --> 00:15:24,160 that you don't normally see in the adult industry. 318 00:15:24,160 --> 00:15:27,120 And I talk about it a lot, mental health being the most 319 00:15:27,120 --> 00:15:29,760 important thing. Also just the racial identity 320 00:15:30,000 --> 00:15:33,320 part of the industry. And I feel that you really do 321 00:15:33,320 --> 00:15:37,080 break the mold when it comes to black queer folks like us in 322 00:15:37,080 --> 00:15:39,440 this industry. And then not to mention, you 323 00:15:39,560 --> 00:15:43,040 also have this other side of you being very openly about sober, 324 00:15:43,160 --> 00:15:45,400 you know, being sober. And I love that. 325 00:15:45,400 --> 00:15:49,560 Thank you. Yes, I think, yeah. 326 00:15:49,600 --> 00:15:54,040 I was just going to say, yeah, I just, you know, being sober in 327 00:15:54,040 --> 00:15:56,600 this industry, you don't hear it about, you know, you don't hear 328 00:15:56,600 --> 00:15:59,960 a lot about it, a lot about it. And I was just having a little X 329 00:15:59,960 --> 00:16:04,440 biz special and I was talking with Go Go Zombie and Santana 330 00:16:04,760 --> 00:16:08,880 XXL and a couple others. And it is, you know, we always 331 00:16:08,880 --> 00:16:13,960 hear about the ugly side of porn and we hear about, you know, how 332 00:16:13,960 --> 00:16:16,960 much usage is on set. No matter how many times we hear 333 00:16:16,960 --> 00:16:20,120 people say, well, on set, we got to stay sober. 334 00:16:20,240 --> 00:16:22,840 Let's be honest, not everybody is always sober. 335 00:16:22,840 --> 00:16:26,560 And sometimes there are those questionable moments for you now 336 00:16:26,560 --> 00:16:30,520 that you've turned sobriety into this thing for you on camera. 337 00:16:30,600 --> 00:16:34,360 Have you noticed a difference of the sober sex versus the non 338 00:16:34,360 --> 00:16:38,320 sober sex that you may be having on camera or even off camera? 339 00:16:38,320 --> 00:16:41,160 So much of a difference. I'm way more present. 340 00:16:41,160 --> 00:16:43,200 I remember one time I was having sex with this guy and I was 341 00:16:43,200 --> 00:16:45,600 calling him a different guys name and just 'cause I was 342 00:16:45,600 --> 00:16:47,400 drunk. I like actually I'm damn, Oh my 343 00:16:47,400 --> 00:16:48,720 God. I was like Teddy. 344 00:16:48,720 --> 00:16:49,840 And he's like, why do you want me Teddy? 345 00:16:49,840 --> 00:16:52,520 And I was like, right, You're Danny ever, ever. 346 00:16:53,600 --> 00:16:56,840 They did look alike though, so it was an honest mistake, but 347 00:16:56,840 --> 00:16:57,480 it. Happens. 348 00:16:57,480 --> 00:16:58,640 It happens. It happens. 349 00:16:58,640 --> 00:16:59,560 It happens. And you know what? 350 00:16:59,760 --> 00:17:02,920 I actually, there was another, another performer who got asked 351 00:17:02,920 --> 00:17:05,839 this question on her Ask me anything the other day. 352 00:17:06,200 --> 00:17:09,040 And she's a friend of mine. But you know, to your point, 353 00:17:09,240 --> 00:17:12,079 yeah, if you get caught, technically you can be 354 00:17:12,079 --> 00:17:13,480 blacklisted or asked not to come back. 355 00:17:13,560 --> 00:17:16,400 Then you also have cases like Dakota Skye where people were 356 00:17:16,400 --> 00:17:19,920 still booking her knowing that she was an addict and she died 357 00:17:20,079 --> 00:17:23,079 an addict, right. And so like, you know, sometimes 358 00:17:23,440 --> 00:17:25,839 yes, but other times no. I think it just depends on 359 00:17:25,839 --> 00:17:27,800 politics. It depends on how much people 360 00:17:27,839 --> 00:17:30,280 feel like they need you or how much people feel like they can 361 00:17:30,280 --> 00:17:32,240 use you. Because if they don't really 362 00:17:32,240 --> 00:17:33,680 need you that bad, they're not going to book you. 363 00:17:33,840 --> 00:17:38,080 Because how are you knowing that you're going to give an active 364 00:17:38,200 --> 00:17:43,360 addict at her lowest point $1000 plus to shoot a scene? 365 00:17:43,360 --> 00:17:45,120 You know what she's going to use that for, right? 366 00:17:45,480 --> 00:17:48,640 Absolutely. So I think, you know, we would 367 00:17:48,640 --> 00:17:50,640 all like to think that people abide by the rules. 368 00:17:50,640 --> 00:17:53,800 But then again, you know, I when I worked in advertising, people 369 00:17:53,800 --> 00:17:55,800 were doing lines before pitch meetings. 370 00:17:56,320 --> 00:17:58,480 It happens. This is a regular job dressed 371 00:17:58,480 --> 00:18:01,120 like everywhere else. I noticed that I have so much 372 00:18:01,120 --> 00:18:04,640 more fun when I have sex and also too when I'm not fucked up. 373 00:18:04,640 --> 00:18:06,920 My blow jobs are better because my mouth isn't dry. 374 00:18:07,560 --> 00:18:11,440 There you go. Yeah, so I actually have a way 375 00:18:11,520 --> 00:18:13,000 better time. I have a way better time. 376 00:18:13,240 --> 00:18:16,360 Actually last night, this guy that I was seeing for a bit, 377 00:18:16,480 --> 00:18:19,080 see, we only stopped seeing each other because his mom had had 378 00:18:19,080 --> 00:18:21,840 surgery and so he needed to go back home to take care of her 379 00:18:21,840 --> 00:18:23,640 for a while. So it was more it was on great 380 00:18:23,640 --> 00:18:26,400 terms that we had to things and we we text here and there. 381 00:18:26,880 --> 00:18:29,040 Anyway, I think we both were like spinning the block a little 382 00:18:29,040 --> 00:18:31,040 bit on each other. And I like really wanted him to 383 00:18:31,040 --> 00:18:34,160 come over because I was totally sober and horny. 384 00:18:34,160 --> 00:18:36,040 And I was like, this is going to be so much more fun if you just, 385 00:18:36,040 --> 00:18:38,880 like, bust through the door and just, like, push me here, you 386 00:18:38,880 --> 00:18:40,200 know? Yeah, exactly. 387 00:18:40,200 --> 00:18:41,600 Exactly. But he's going to the Oasis 388 00:18:41,600 --> 00:18:43,120 concert tonight, so I have to see him afterwards. 389 00:18:43,400 --> 00:18:47,920 Oh my God, Everybody I know has been going to the Oasis concert. 390 00:18:47,920 --> 00:18:52,080 I've seemed like, and I'm like, I was telling my fiance because 391 00:18:52,080 --> 00:18:54,600 he runs like he works for a ticketing company, right? 392 00:18:55,000 --> 00:18:58,000 And so I was talking to him about it and he's like, yeah, 393 00:18:58,000 --> 00:19:00,120 who the fuck is Oasis? I was like, wait a second, you? 394 00:19:00,120 --> 00:19:01,120 Don't know who. Oasis. 395 00:19:01,480 --> 00:19:01,800 Yeah. Yeah. 396 00:19:01,800 --> 00:19:03,760 Now or now you're just doing a little too much. 397 00:19:03,760 --> 00:19:06,560 Not like, not too much now, not who is Oasis? 398 00:19:07,040 --> 00:19:11,400 And that's actually that scene in Girls where Lena Dunham is in 399 00:19:11,400 --> 00:19:15,160 the bathtub and she's singing Wonderwall is actually that's 400 00:19:15,520 --> 00:19:18,160 etched into my mind like an Etch of Sketch. 401 00:19:18,600 --> 00:19:21,040 I had to tell him I was like, you don't know Wonderwall? 402 00:19:21,040 --> 00:19:23,400 He's like, yeah, but who the fuck is Oasis? 403 00:19:23,400 --> 00:19:26,280 I was like, listen, you either get to see them in concert or 404 00:19:26,280 --> 00:19:29,360 you see them fight on stage. That's literally what this band 405 00:19:29,360 --> 00:19:31,480 has been for the past 20-30 fucking years. 406 00:19:31,720 --> 00:19:32,920 No, because why would he say that? 407 00:19:32,920 --> 00:19:34,240 Because first of all, who are you, Sir? 408 00:19:35,280 --> 00:19:37,040 Who are you? You're asking? 409 00:19:37,040 --> 00:19:38,200 Who's Oasis? Who are you? 410 00:19:38,560 --> 00:19:40,560 Honestly, honestly, you would love him. 411 00:19:40,560 --> 00:19:43,520 He's a cool, he's a cool white man, but he is a white man of a 412 00:19:43,520 --> 00:19:45,960 different time. I love a cool white man. 413 00:19:45,960 --> 00:19:48,840 I have a big crush on Jack Harlow, actually. 414 00:19:49,560 --> 00:19:53,160 Like if he's if Jack Harlow said jump, I would be on the Empire 415 00:19:53,160 --> 00:19:54,680 State Building. Do you understand? 416 00:19:54,680 --> 00:19:58,440 I'd be on the Burj Burj Khalifa. I'd be on the Burj Khalifa if he 417 00:19:58,440 --> 00:20:01,920 said jump, I mean. Like that, so I understand. 418 00:20:01,920 --> 00:20:04,160 I love a cool white boy. I like to say that I like a guy 419 00:20:04,160 --> 00:20:06,840 who looks like he's never finished a book. 420 00:20:06,880 --> 00:20:09,400 That is my time. Just like just kind of a just a 421 00:20:09,400 --> 00:20:12,120 ditzy man. Like all of his homework in 422 00:20:12,120 --> 00:20:15,080 elementary school was never in folder, just loose papers in the 423 00:20:15,080 --> 00:20:16,560 backpack. That's my type like. 424 00:20:16,880 --> 00:20:20,080 I'm dead, I'm dead, she said. Like that, like no pencil that 425 00:20:20,080 --> 00:20:21,880 he's right. And the pencil he's using, he 426 00:20:21,880 --> 00:20:24,120 found it in the hallway and it has no eraser. 427 00:20:25,160 --> 00:20:27,480 This man just has no goals of finishing shit. 428 00:20:27,480 --> 00:20:29,360 Just Jack shit. No dying. 429 00:20:29,360 --> 00:20:31,040 No goals of finishing shit but me. 430 00:20:31,200 --> 00:20:33,080 OK, OK. That's what you say. 431 00:20:33,400 --> 00:20:35,320 There you go y'all, there you go. 432 00:20:35,320 --> 00:20:37,480 Sign up with that is boom. Just say. 433 00:20:37,480 --> 00:20:40,120 No, I know. I think it's honestly because I 434 00:20:40,120 --> 00:20:43,480 like guys who can't outsmart me or like I can't like see through 435 00:20:43,480 --> 00:20:45,720 their manipulation. That is what I really like about 436 00:20:45,720 --> 00:20:46,520 it. It's like, yeah, you're silly 437 00:20:46,520 --> 00:20:49,200 when you're gonna have like a Kiki little time, but I really 438 00:20:49,200 --> 00:20:51,040 like that you cannot outsmart me. 439 00:20:52,080 --> 00:20:55,200 So would you say your superpower is to see past the bullshit? 440 00:20:55,200 --> 00:20:58,920 Like, what would be your like dating superpower now that we're 441 00:20:58,920 --> 00:21:03,720 going to. Like my dating superpower is 442 00:21:03,960 --> 00:21:06,680 that I can get anybody out of their shell, whatever that shell 443 00:21:06,680 --> 00:21:08,440 is. My manager likes to say that I 444 00:21:08,440 --> 00:21:11,480 have this skill of being able to see people even when they don't 445 00:21:11,480 --> 00:21:14,280 see themselves. I can have a fully fruitful 446 00:21:14,280 --> 00:21:17,600 conversation with a remote me, and this remote can have a great 447 00:21:17,600 --> 00:21:19,760 conversation. I can have a conversation with 448 00:21:19,760 --> 00:21:22,880 literally anybody. But I think to that point 449 00:21:22,880 --> 00:21:26,720 though, because I've been through so much in my life, I 450 00:21:26,720 --> 00:21:30,000 often give people a lot of empty and a lot of benefits of the 451 00:21:30,000 --> 00:21:35,560 doubt because I have changed so much even in just four years, 452 00:21:35,800 --> 00:21:40,200 five years. Around this time four years ago, 453 00:21:40,200 --> 00:21:45,320 I had to cancel my own birthday party day of because I was too 454 00:21:46,000 --> 00:21:49,720 fucked up and hungover and dope and dope sick to go to my own 455 00:21:49,720 --> 00:21:53,280 birthday party, you know, And so I had to cancel a day of and I'm 456 00:21:53,280 --> 00:21:57,000 literally looking at my room and there's empty bottles, old 457 00:21:57,000 --> 00:22:00,320 foods, there's like three kinds of insects living in my room, 458 00:22:00,520 --> 00:22:02,960 right? Like I just, it was nasty old 459 00:22:02,960 --> 00:22:06,080 clothes like the Addis that you see today that is so put 460 00:22:06,080 --> 00:22:08,960 together. And so boys, it was a very, very 461 00:22:08,960 --> 00:22:12,640 hard road to get here. And even when I got out of rehab 462 00:22:12,640 --> 00:22:16,880 for the second time, I didn't even start from Ground Zero. 463 00:22:16,880 --> 00:22:20,760 I started from like ground -3 I would focus on one thing to do 464 00:22:20,760 --> 00:22:23,000 every day. And if that was brushing my 465 00:22:23,000 --> 00:22:27,200 teeth or drinking water or going outside, that was my one thing. 466 00:22:27,200 --> 00:22:30,800 And it didn't matter what time I did it, it just mattered that I 467 00:22:30,800 --> 00:22:32,640 did it. And sometimes that would lead me 468 00:22:32,640 --> 00:22:34,480 to doing 2, very rarely 3 things. 469 00:22:34,480 --> 00:22:37,240 And even sometimes it was zero. That is where I started from, 470 00:22:37,320 --> 00:22:38,840 right? Being like, you have to brush 471 00:22:38,840 --> 00:22:41,200 your teeth that night. That like is literally where I 472 00:22:41,200 --> 00:22:43,560 started from. So because I have had such a 473 00:22:43,560 --> 00:22:47,320 massive monumental change in who I am, how I communicate 474 00:22:47,360 --> 00:22:50,600 everything, and I don't think I'm unique in that. 475 00:22:50,880 --> 00:22:53,600 I think that there's so many people who are able to make this 476 00:22:53,600 --> 00:22:58,520 change and or greater. So sometimes I like to give 477 00:22:58,520 --> 00:23:01,040 people the benefit of the doubt. And what I'm learning now is 478 00:23:01,040 --> 00:23:04,160 that it's, even though you're not the only one who can make 479 00:23:04,160 --> 00:23:07,120 changes like this, not a lot of people can. 480 00:23:07,400 --> 00:23:10,040 And so I have to stop giving people benefit of the doubt, you 481 00:23:10,040 --> 00:23:11,600 know, because sometimes I'm like, maybe sometimes people 482 00:23:11,600 --> 00:23:14,920 aren't showing up for me because they don't care or they're dumb 483 00:23:14,920 --> 00:23:18,640 or they've never been asked to do this kind of care for 484 00:23:18,640 --> 00:23:20,800 somebody before and they're out of practice and you just have to 485 00:23:20,800 --> 00:23:21,440 let them. Oh. 486 00:23:22,640 --> 00:23:24,680 Wow, goodness, you're taking again. 487 00:23:24,680 --> 00:23:27,800 I'm seeing myself a lot through you on just like taking the 488 00:23:27,800 --> 00:23:30,440 benefit of the doubt. I'm very harsh on my own self. 489 00:23:30,480 --> 00:23:33,360 I think even before like we did this interview, we were having 490 00:23:33,360 --> 00:23:36,160 some technical difficulties and I was just like, I am so sorry. 491 00:23:36,200 --> 00:23:38,400 And it was nice that you're like, no, I don't think this is 492 00:23:38,400 --> 00:23:41,800 a reflection of you. Shit happens, but like, how many 493 00:23:41,800 --> 00:23:46,760 times do we give ourselves the grace when shit happens to say 494 00:23:46,760 --> 00:23:49,520 sorry and actually mean it? Or, you know, I'm a, I'm a 495 00:23:49,520 --> 00:23:52,760 person who's more intuitive with time and I don't know if that's 496 00:23:52,760 --> 00:23:56,560 because I became polyamorous and time is of value in my 497 00:23:56,560 --> 00:24:00,040 relationships, but also it's just like I value other people's 498 00:24:00,040 --> 00:24:02,000 time too. It's like if we're giving each 499 00:24:02,000 --> 00:24:05,320 other a certain time block, I want to make sure that 500 00:24:05,320 --> 00:24:07,760 somebody's feeling comfortable. You know, I want to make sure 501 00:24:07,760 --> 00:24:11,000 that we're vibing and sinking on the same level because I never I 502 00:24:11,000 --> 00:24:12,480 want to be a waste of person's time. 503 00:24:12,480 --> 00:24:15,240 And I hope that, you know, another person wouldn't want to 504 00:24:15,240 --> 00:24:17,600 do that to me either. So when you're incorporating 505 00:24:17,600 --> 00:24:20,760 that with our relationships, especially, you know, dating, 506 00:24:20,760 --> 00:24:23,720 sex, giving ourselves to other people, I think that's the 507 00:24:23,720 --> 00:24:27,720 biggest problem now is coming out of the pandemic and like 508 00:24:27,840 --> 00:24:33,160 relearning the value of time, revaluing people's emotions. 509 00:24:33,160 --> 00:24:38,400 I feel like I don't know about you, but I was such an an 510 00:24:38,400 --> 00:24:42,400 introvert, not an introvert. I was an extrovert for the 511 00:24:42,400 --> 00:24:44,520 longest. And then the pandemic happened 512 00:24:44,520 --> 00:24:47,240 and I became introverted and people started noticing that 513 00:24:47,240 --> 00:24:48,360 change. And I don't know if that was 514 00:24:48,360 --> 00:24:51,160 because depression kicked in for me and I had to go on 515 00:24:51,160 --> 00:24:53,880 medication. I don't know for you, like the 516 00:24:53,880 --> 00:24:57,240 same thing. It's like things change and I 517 00:24:57,240 --> 00:25:00,080 love how you're like, I can look at myself four or five years ago 518 00:25:00,080 --> 00:25:02,960 canceling my birthday and realizing this is not what I 519 00:25:02,960 --> 00:25:06,000 want for the rest of my life. That's not something people can 520 00:25:06,000 --> 00:25:10,600 take for advantage all the time. And you know, my, my, my sober 521 00:25:10,600 --> 00:25:12,800 birthday is very close to my actual birthday. 522 00:25:12,800 --> 00:25:16,240 It's like just because, and the reason why is because me and my 523 00:25:16,440 --> 00:25:18,160 brother, we don't get along very well. 524 00:25:18,160 --> 00:25:20,520 We've never really gone very well, but he called me for my 525 00:25:20,520 --> 00:25:23,640 birthday, that same birthday and was like, Hey, what's up? 526 00:25:23,640 --> 00:25:24,800 How are you doing? And I was like, you know, 527 00:25:24,800 --> 00:25:26,320 honestly, I'm not not doing very well. 528 00:25:26,440 --> 00:25:28,920 And he asked me, do you want to be happy? 529 00:25:28,920 --> 00:25:32,640 And I said, I don't care. And saying that so casually and 530 00:25:33,280 --> 00:25:35,960 the tongue to my younger brother really scared me. 531 00:25:36,480 --> 00:25:38,640 And so he asked me, well, what kind of person do you want? 532 00:25:38,640 --> 00:25:41,000 What kind of daughter? What kind of parent? 533 00:25:41,000 --> 00:25:43,800 What kind of friend, right? What type of girlfriend, right? 534 00:25:44,120 --> 00:25:46,480 And he was like, just dream big, you know, think, think big. 535 00:25:46,960 --> 00:25:49,960 It doesn't matter if it sounds believable or not, possible or 536 00:25:49,960 --> 00:25:51,520 not. And so we just started talking 537 00:25:51,520 --> 00:25:53,800 about the wildest possibilities, right? 538 00:25:54,360 --> 00:25:57,120 And the next day, he sent me a photo of his notebook. 539 00:25:57,160 --> 00:25:59,480 And he'd taken notes on our entire conversation. 540 00:25:59,760 --> 00:26:01,400 And he said, so you don't forget. 541 00:26:02,440 --> 00:26:04,880 And after that day, that is when I started trying to get sober. 542 00:26:05,480 --> 00:26:08,320 Wow. And did I have to finish my 543 00:26:08,320 --> 00:26:11,080 whole stash? Obviously, but that's why it is 544 00:26:11,080 --> 00:26:14,440 I'm just a few weeks after my sober after my after my actual 545 00:26:14,440 --> 00:26:17,720 birthday is because that was the catalyst for me being like, wow, 546 00:26:17,720 --> 00:26:19,040 there's so much out there for me. 547 00:26:19,040 --> 00:26:23,560 And I think when I started thinking of my life as look at 548 00:26:23,560 --> 00:26:26,280 all these things you get to do if you don't do this one thing 549 00:26:26,320 --> 00:26:28,480 versus sitting around and thinking about this one thing 550 00:26:28,480 --> 00:26:31,200 that I don't get to do, that is when my life actually became 551 00:26:31,200 --> 00:26:34,880 full, I start and thought, you know, I want to go to Soul Cycle 552 00:26:34,880 --> 00:26:37,840 more. I want to read more, I want to 553 00:26:38,160 --> 00:26:40,200 be bicoastal. And now I've actually achieved 554 00:26:40,200 --> 00:26:42,400 that goal, right? So I live between Brooklyn and 555 00:26:42,400 --> 00:26:45,480 Studio City in Lai was like, wow, like these are all the 556 00:26:45,480 --> 00:26:48,680 things I want to do. And that has nothing to do with 557 00:26:48,960 --> 00:26:51,240 getting fucked up like I was before, right? 558 00:26:51,320 --> 00:26:52,960 Right. So that is when things really 559 00:26:52,960 --> 00:26:55,080 started change for me. Instead I just sitting in my 560 00:26:55,080 --> 00:26:57,240 room twitting my thumbs being like, Oh my God, as you cannot 561 00:26:57,240 --> 00:26:58,840 get fucked up, you cannot get fucked up, right? 562 00:26:58,960 --> 00:27:00,760 That is where it really started changing me. 563 00:27:00,760 --> 00:27:03,360 But you're right, there is a threshold at which people are 564 00:27:03,360 --> 00:27:04,880 willing to accept. And. 565 00:27:05,560 --> 00:27:07,840 It doesn't mean that they don't love you, it just means it's not 566 00:27:07,840 --> 00:27:10,040 working. And because I have learned that 567 00:27:10,040 --> 00:27:14,000 so deeply, it makes being a porn star, an international porn 568 00:27:14,000 --> 00:27:18,600 star, that much easier. Because learning that and also 569 00:27:18,600 --> 00:27:21,880 being in the modeling world, if it's just not for you, it's not 570 00:27:21,880 --> 00:27:23,680 for you. And I say that as somebody who's 571 00:27:23,920 --> 00:27:28,640 left and been left. That is, again, powerful. 572 00:27:28,800 --> 00:27:31,200 That is a powerful thing to say because not a lot of us get that 573 00:27:31,200 --> 00:27:35,480 chance, like you said, to go and come back and get something back 574 00:27:35,480 --> 00:27:37,560 from it. Not to mention going through the 575 00:27:37,560 --> 00:27:41,520 thresholds of teeter tottering between sobriety and alcoholism 576 00:27:41,520 --> 00:27:43,560 or whatever demons you are battling. 577 00:27:43,560 --> 00:27:48,200 That's not an easy thing to say, especially in an industry that 578 00:27:48,200 --> 00:27:52,440 is so ostracized and full of outcasts, full of people who are 579 00:27:52,440 --> 00:27:56,920 literally dealing with things in front of the camera and already 580 00:27:56,920 --> 00:28:00,280 dealing with that stigma of being naked or doing whatever 581 00:28:00,280 --> 00:28:03,560 disgusting possibly possible thing that people do not 582 00:28:03,560 --> 00:28:05,160 understand past the social norms. 583 00:28:05,160 --> 00:28:09,400 So I can only imagine just looking at you now versus then. 584 00:28:09,600 --> 00:28:13,760 And I have seen the journey just as someone who has followed you 585 00:28:13,760 --> 00:28:15,880 for a while. It is a beautiful thing. 586 00:28:15,880 --> 00:28:19,680 I see that happiness. I do you see it that you know, 587 00:28:19,680 --> 00:28:21,800 again, on the surface, I've never met you in person, but 588 00:28:21,800 --> 00:28:25,520 it's like you can sense somebody of what they've gone through and 589 00:28:25,520 --> 00:28:28,640 seeing the changes of somebody in this industry, not to mention 590 00:28:28,640 --> 00:28:33,520 again, international sex superstar like come on. 591 00:28:34,280 --> 00:28:36,800 No, it's been, like, in four years, in four years this 592 00:28:36,800 --> 00:28:39,120 happened. You know, I'm the only person to 593 00:28:39,120 --> 00:28:42,080 shoot 2 back-to-back Hustler magazine covers. 594 00:28:42,160 --> 00:28:44,960 And when my publicist told me that, I was, like, really like 595 00:28:44,960 --> 00:28:46,560 me. Like, they didn't choose Pamela 596 00:28:46,560 --> 00:28:49,080 Anderson. They didn't choose Anna Nicole 597 00:28:49,080 --> 00:28:49,920 Smith. Yeah. 598 00:28:50,000 --> 00:28:51,400 You know, a different black person. 599 00:28:51,440 --> 00:28:54,280 Right. They chose me and being the 600 00:28:54,280 --> 00:28:57,800 first person to ever do this, like period ever, regardless of 601 00:28:58,120 --> 00:29:00,080 demographic is a huge, huge honor. 602 00:29:00,200 --> 00:29:03,640 And this has been my journey. Just four years later and I'm 603 00:29:03,640 --> 00:29:06,960 really proud to be where I am so that I can end up branching off 604 00:29:06,960 --> 00:29:10,280 into public speaking and into fashion modeling. 605 00:29:10,280 --> 00:29:12,920 I completed Cocoroche's Model Camp and I'll be walking my 606 00:29:12,920 --> 00:29:15,920 first New Year Fashion Week. This this one is a huge one for 607 00:29:15,920 --> 00:29:18,800 me. I'm also getting to film 2 608 00:29:18,800 --> 00:29:22,280 scenes directed by Rocco's to Freddie for Eagle Angel in 609 00:29:22,320 --> 00:29:24,840 Budapest. Now that's big. 610 00:29:24,880 --> 00:29:27,800 I used to work for Evil Angel and now I'm kind of upset that I 611 00:29:27,800 --> 00:29:30,080 won't be cute seeing the material on this one but. 612 00:29:30,840 --> 00:29:33,320 I know, is that huge? I so excited, excited. 613 00:29:33,520 --> 00:29:36,240 I've never even met him before. But yeah, it's about to be a 614 00:29:36,240 --> 00:29:37,800 huge month. I'm performing at. 615 00:29:38,600 --> 00:29:41,240 I don't know if I can say this. So if so, if I can't, if I can't 616 00:29:41,240 --> 00:29:43,040 see this, please cut it out. But we will come. 617 00:29:43,720 --> 00:29:46,080 OK, I'm performing at. That's big. 618 00:29:46,800 --> 00:29:48,440 That's big. Yeah, that's big. 619 00:29:48,680 --> 00:29:51,760 This is all within the same month and also is doing a a 620 00:29:51,800 --> 00:29:58,040 documentary about creators and only fans so that I guess 621 00:29:58,480 --> 00:30:00,440 probably won't be out by the time I'm. 622 00:30:00,440 --> 00:30:02,200 Releasing this out, yeah. Yeah. 623 00:30:02,200 --> 00:30:05,040 So maybe if so, we can bleep the blue the part if. 624 00:30:05,040 --> 00:30:07,920 We can bleep, blue bloop, Basically everybody with the 625 00:30:07,920 --> 00:30:10,920 bleeps and the bloops, it's big shit happening and it's going to 626 00:30:10,920 --> 00:30:12,480 happen and you're going to hear about it. 627 00:30:12,480 --> 00:30:14,840 You're going to hear about it. But if you're like, what was the 628 00:30:14,840 --> 00:30:16,840 bleep bloops? That's that's just shit that we 629 00:30:16,840 --> 00:30:18,080 can't say shit. We can't. 630 00:30:18,080 --> 00:30:19,840 Say it's just to be continued but they're doing this 631 00:30:19,840 --> 00:30:22,600 documentary so they will be following me while I'm at Xmas 632 00:30:22,640 --> 00:30:24,920 Amsterdam and also nice for 40 year Fashion Week. 633 00:30:25,160 --> 00:30:26,600 So it's about you can make your time. 634 00:30:26,600 --> 00:30:29,840 And when I come back from shooting with Rocco, I will be 635 00:30:30,000 --> 00:30:33,480 having a very big investor meeting for my brand's Bitter 636 00:30:33,480 --> 00:30:36,520 Blush and The Lust Files. So The Lust Files is my speaker 637 00:30:36,520 --> 00:30:39,560 series where it's a space to talk about sex and what I like 638 00:30:39,560 --> 00:30:41,760 to describe as a curiously empathetic way. 639 00:30:41,960 --> 00:30:45,480 It's not a slapstick comedy, it's not about trauma, and it's 640 00:30:45,480 --> 00:30:48,680 not truly instructional. So we've had all kinds of groups 641 00:30:48,680 --> 00:30:50,320 and gatherings and it's been really great. 642 00:30:50,320 --> 00:30:52,400 But what we are essentially trying to get into is like 643 00:30:52,400 --> 00:30:55,200 Mackenzie, but for sex. So a lot of people do not do 644 00:30:55,200 --> 00:30:57,800 research on sex, right? So this ends up becoming 645 00:30:57,800 --> 00:31:00,760 something where people, we can find like minded people and we 646 00:31:00,760 --> 00:31:03,760 can actually be a data aggregator so that brands are 647 00:31:03,760 --> 00:31:06,760 better able to help the various kinds of people that people 648 00:31:06,760 --> 00:31:09,160 don't even take any interest to do research on anyway. 649 00:31:09,520 --> 00:31:11,320 Why is most hormone research about men? 650 00:31:11,600 --> 00:31:14,040 Because we know so much about keto diet and how great it is, 651 00:31:14,040 --> 00:31:17,160 but keto's actually really good for not a lot of women's bodies, 652 00:31:17,160 --> 00:31:20,440 you know? So that really bothers me a lot, 653 00:31:20,440 --> 00:31:21,800 right? It really bothers me. 654 00:31:21,840 --> 00:31:25,240 Honestly it bothers me like I'm in this new journey myself. 655 00:31:26,040 --> 00:31:29,400 I'm about to go on my own sobriety journey because I'm 656 00:31:29,400 --> 00:31:32,040 trying to prep for a baby. This this house is about to be 657 00:31:32,040 --> 00:31:35,480 like full mommy mode. And I never have been like so 658 00:31:35,480 --> 00:31:38,400 excited to like really be a mom. Actually speaking about it, I 659 00:31:38,400 --> 00:31:40,760 think this is the first time I've spoken about this on my 660 00:31:40,760 --> 00:31:43,000 platform. So yes, bitches, you brought it 661 00:31:43,080 --> 00:31:44,840 out of me. You brought it out of me. 662 00:31:45,560 --> 00:31:48,440 But yeah, my my. I told you I can draw things out 663 00:31:48,480 --> 00:31:50,120 of people, I told. You I'm the same way. 664 00:31:50,120 --> 00:31:53,520 I'm the same way. I'm like we got deep out is no, 665 00:31:53,520 --> 00:31:55,160 we didn't. That's true. 666 00:31:55,520 --> 00:31:57,560 Yeah. You know, it's just like I'm 667 00:31:57,560 --> 00:31:59,720 very excited myself. I'm a little nervous because I 668 00:31:59,720 --> 00:32:04,000 am a a weed smoker and it's like I'm not trying to put weed in my 669 00:32:04,000 --> 00:32:06,480 body for the babies and I'm trying and mention I'm saying 670 00:32:06,480 --> 00:32:08,600 babies. I'm trying to conjure twins the 671 00:32:08,600 --> 00:32:10,920 right. I was, I was like, OK, we're 672 00:32:10,920 --> 00:32:12,840 going multiples. I was like, OK, we're going. 673 00:32:12,840 --> 00:32:14,720 John and Kate +8. Amazing. 674 00:32:14,800 --> 00:32:18,360 Fuck no, no, no. John and Kate +8 and no, no, 675 00:32:18,400 --> 00:32:20,080 fuck no. It's. 676 00:32:20,120 --> 00:32:23,600 Just being out like. Hell no. 677 00:32:24,280 --> 00:32:26,080 I feel like, I feel like I'm playing a steel. 678 00:32:26,080 --> 00:32:28,480 Pan every day. I already, it's like I already 679 00:32:28,480 --> 00:32:30,440 have, like I'm already a thicky thick chick. 680 00:32:30,720 --> 00:32:33,520 I don't need to be any bigger where I can't even fit in the 681 00:32:33,520 --> 00:32:37,400 plane seat or something like no thank you, no thank you. 682 00:32:37,480 --> 00:32:40,120 Speaking of a play seat, I was watching, you know that girl on 683 00:32:40,120 --> 00:32:41,800 Onlyfans? I can't remember what her name 684 00:32:41,800 --> 00:32:43,960 is, but she's the one who has a gigantic ass. 685 00:32:43,960 --> 00:32:47,000 Like it's just massive. She's like. 686 00:32:47,600 --> 00:32:49,560 She's like. The Latino girl. 687 00:32:50,160 --> 00:32:53,160 No, I don't know this one. It's it's like really massive. 688 00:32:54,160 --> 00:32:56,680 Am I allowed to show it on the? Am I allowed to show it in the 689 00:32:56,680 --> 00:32:59,200 camera? If it's not naked, if it's not 690 00:32:59,200 --> 00:33:01,760 naked, it's not OK, then yeah, show the booty. 691 00:33:02,120 --> 00:33:07,880 Show the booty to everybody. But yeah, so she I was like 692 00:33:07,880 --> 00:33:10,840 literally watching one of her, her only fans, her videos on 693 00:33:10,840 --> 00:33:14,160 TikTok the other day and then and I, I just could not figure 694 00:33:14,160 --> 00:33:21,080 out does she have to buy 2 plane tickets or does she not? 695 00:33:21,840 --> 00:33:24,840 You know that that is a real, you know what I think? 696 00:33:25,080 --> 00:33:27,320 Planes. I understand that they're trying 697 00:33:27,320 --> 00:33:29,600 to fit more bodies on these planes and they're getting 698 00:33:29,600 --> 00:33:32,160 smaller and smaller no matter where the fuck you're sitting. 699 00:33:32,160 --> 00:33:35,000 I'm sorry, but we do need to have some empathy for the big 700 00:33:35,000 --> 00:33:36,840 booties out there. Yes. 701 00:33:36,840 --> 00:33:38,600 No, we actually really do. We. 702 00:33:38,840 --> 00:33:40,360 Need. We need more space. 703 00:33:40,680 --> 00:33:43,040 We need more space. We actually do really need more 704 00:33:43,040 --> 00:33:44,360 space. And I was like, wow, this girl 705 00:33:44,360 --> 00:33:46,360 is like, her ass is like really big. 706 00:33:46,480 --> 00:33:49,840 I'm trying to find her. I was going to say, while you're 707 00:33:49,840 --> 00:33:53,320 finding the ass, is there a such thing as too much ass? 708 00:33:53,360 --> 00:33:57,680 As someone who is bisexual and are queer, is there too much ass 709 00:33:57,800 --> 00:34:01,200 for Addis? Well, I'm glad that you came to 710 00:34:01,200 --> 00:34:04,160 the master first question. I don't think so. 711 00:34:04,360 --> 00:34:09,400 I mean, for me, I, I've never encountered anybody that has too 712 00:34:09,400 --> 00:34:12,560 much ass. So for me, I'm like, well, I 713 00:34:12,560 --> 00:34:14,679 would like to see it, you know, I'll be the judge of that. 714 00:34:14,679 --> 00:34:16,239 But when I see it, you know what I mean? 715 00:34:16,639 --> 00:34:20,760 That's how I feel about it. I'm the same and like I don't 716 00:34:20,760 --> 00:34:24,600 know, I feel like I can handle all the titty in the world but 717 00:34:24,600 --> 00:34:28,040 so much at like too much ass. I mean, I've seen ass. 718 00:34:28,159 --> 00:34:30,040 You're like, you're like. It gets to a point. 719 00:34:30,280 --> 00:34:33,040 It gets to the point where I'm like, fuck, I can't even put my 720 00:34:33,040 --> 00:34:34,280 palms. It's going to have to be my 721 00:34:34,280 --> 00:34:37,760 whole arms and then my legs and then some to hug that ass. 722 00:34:38,199 --> 00:34:42,280 I'm like, yes, there's just too. Much I cannot find this girl's 723 00:34:42,280 --> 00:34:43,920 ass that's actually really going to bother me I'm. 724 00:34:43,920 --> 00:34:46,159 Going to have to find like, what's the girl's name? 725 00:34:46,800 --> 00:34:50,040 It starts with an A and I just, I remember that because I was 726 00:34:50,040 --> 00:34:53,400 looking at her yesterday because she came up on my feet and not. 727 00:34:53,400 --> 00:34:58,040 Me not me checking only fans girl with name with A and ass. 728 00:34:58,040 --> 00:34:59,960 If that shit was a big ass, Yeah. 729 00:35:00,360 --> 00:35:06,520 Only fans girl with big ass. Yes, yes, yes, her. 730 00:35:06,520 --> 00:35:08,960 Got to love this. We're doing a live search all 731 00:35:08,960 --> 00:35:11,200 for the biggest ass. We actually are. 732 00:35:12,840 --> 00:35:15,040 And I'm like, no, no, she definitely, definitely has 733 00:35:15,120 --> 00:35:16,160 really big ass. I was like, Oh my. 734 00:35:17,040 --> 00:35:20,240 God, OK, no, these are all white girls, I said big ass. 735 00:35:20,480 --> 00:35:23,720 No offense to white girls. No, that's not it. 736 00:35:24,120 --> 00:35:27,480 Like I. I know there's like some fat ass 737 00:35:27,480 --> 00:35:30,960 white girls, that's fine, but we looking for thick Latina chicks. 738 00:35:31,320 --> 00:35:34,000 There we go. 10 thick Latina only fizz. 739 00:35:34,040 --> 00:35:35,360 Here we go. Addis Addison. 740 00:35:35,360 --> 00:35:37,400 I really do. Like crazy. 741 00:35:37,760 --> 00:35:40,400 She has like a crazy ass. Like it's like, not like I've 742 00:35:40,400 --> 00:35:43,480 never seen any anything like it. God damn. 743 00:35:43,760 --> 00:35:47,720 Yeah, no girls with a I'm seeing Martina, Valentina, Ella, Bella, 744 00:35:48,040 --> 00:35:53,520 Valeria, Lisa Dare, Lisa, Andra, Lisandra, Lucy. 745 00:35:53,600 --> 00:35:55,840 Damn. Is her name Ariana? 746 00:35:56,840 --> 00:35:58,680 Wait, I think it is it Wait, is it Ariana? 747 00:35:58,880 --> 00:36:00,760 Hold on. Because this girl, it's it's 748 00:36:00,760 --> 00:36:03,160 actually just not a normal ass. I've never seen an ass like this 749 00:36:03,160 --> 00:36:04,640 in my life. It it like literally. 750 00:36:05,720 --> 00:36:08,320 If anybody's wondering how girl time goes, this is usually how 751 00:36:08,320 --> 00:36:09,880 it is. If we're not stalking boys, we 752 00:36:09,880 --> 00:36:11,480 stalking girls with big ass titties. 753 00:36:11,720 --> 00:36:13,960 Big ass titties. No, like seriously, this. 754 00:36:15,120 --> 00:36:17,320 Is how it goes. You know, everybody's like, oh, 755 00:36:17,320 --> 00:36:19,240 what do you do with porn stars on the girls night? 756 00:36:19,240 --> 00:36:23,360 I'm like stalking your ad. This is This is exactly what 757 00:36:23,360 --> 00:36:25,120 goes on. Like this is exactly it. 758 00:36:25,280 --> 00:36:27,640 Goes on like this. It's like an acid. 759 00:36:27,640 --> 00:36:29,760 I've never seen anything like it in my life. 760 00:36:30,040 --> 00:36:32,040 I'm just going to DM you. I'm going to flood your DMS 761 00:36:32,040 --> 00:36:34,480 being like where that girl's ass where the ass you're going? 762 00:36:34,800 --> 00:36:36,400 To be like, is it this one? Is it this one? 763 00:36:36,400 --> 00:36:38,120 Is it this one? I think that's actually what you 764 00:36:38,120 --> 00:36:39,960 should do. I think that's I do. 765 00:36:40,480 --> 00:36:43,120 Just yeah, you know, just tell me to shut up until it comes. 766 00:36:43,280 --> 00:36:45,640 Through or like or like until I find it. 767 00:36:45,640 --> 00:36:50,240 When I find her, I'm going to be like, I found yes, yes, Oh my 768 00:36:50,240 --> 00:36:52,760 God, like I like it's going to. I'm going to feel like Paul 769 00:36:52,760 --> 00:36:56,400 Revere and telling everybody the ass is here, the ass is here. 770 00:36:56,560 --> 00:36:59,320 To clip this I have to clip this for that because this is 771 00:36:59,400 --> 00:37:03,440 hilarious see guys I don't know somebody's like been saying as 772 00:37:03,440 --> 00:37:06,600 of late they're like saff, why can't you have any serious 773 00:37:06,600 --> 00:37:09,560 conversations with these people stop making me laugh so hard 774 00:37:09,560 --> 00:37:12,320 then stop listening I'm. Sorry if you care, like sorry 775 00:37:12,360 --> 00:37:13,680 I've never I've never been serious. 776 00:37:13,680 --> 00:37:16,840 One second of my life, literally when I found out that I had my 777 00:37:16,840 --> 00:37:19,200 second ex was your Oprah nomination. 778 00:37:19,200 --> 00:37:22,120 I was like, a second plane has hit the tower. 779 00:37:22,320 --> 00:37:23,960 No this. Is what light hit it for saying 780 00:37:23,960 --> 00:37:25,960 the dough? Not like yelling it, no, but 781 00:37:25,960 --> 00:37:28,680 damn it. That I know, I know I'm not. 782 00:37:28,680 --> 00:37:31,080 I'm not a show person. Never one's been that never 783 00:37:31,080 --> 00:37:33,320 understood. That please don't ever, please 784 00:37:33,320 --> 00:37:36,880 don't ever change. So OK, I'm like, fuck, there's 785 00:37:36,880 --> 00:37:38,920 so much I want, there's so much I can talk to you about. 786 00:37:38,920 --> 00:37:42,080 OK, please fuck it. Let's get into blackness because 787 00:37:42,080 --> 00:37:45,280 I this is sapphires their play. We we have to get into this. 788 00:37:45,280 --> 00:37:49,720 So of course you said a comment in social media, I want to say 789 00:37:49,720 --> 00:37:51,920 about a month or two ago or maybe a month ago. 790 00:37:52,000 --> 00:37:56,680 And it felt real. I was like, finally somebody 791 00:37:56,680 --> 00:37:58,240 said it in the best way possible. 792 00:37:58,240 --> 00:38:00,360 And I believe, and I don't want to misquote you, but you were 793 00:38:00,360 --> 00:38:03,480 like, for those that say that they have black friends, why are 794 00:38:03,480 --> 00:38:06,520 we not invited to the wedding? And I'm like, it's a fact. 795 00:38:06,520 --> 00:38:09,680 Don't tell me we have black friends and we look at your 796 00:38:09,680 --> 00:38:12,400 wedding photos. Ain't nobody in the party black, 797 00:38:12,640 --> 00:38:14,520 not even somebody at the party black. 798 00:38:14,800 --> 00:38:16,960 Oh, but you have a black server that don't count. 799 00:38:17,200 --> 00:38:18,600 That is right. Exactly. 800 00:38:19,160 --> 00:38:22,800 And I have even less empathy for people who live in large cities 801 00:38:23,000 --> 00:38:25,880 because I'm like, you could in theory meet anybody you want 802 00:38:26,360 --> 00:38:29,520 anybody want in theory. And you are choosing to have 803 00:38:29,520 --> 00:38:30,680 people who look exactly like you. 804 00:38:30,680 --> 00:38:33,280 But you posted that black square in 2020 with pride. 805 00:38:33,440 --> 00:38:38,240 So Oh my God, thank you. Even to this day, even to this 806 00:38:38,240 --> 00:38:42,600 day, I'm just like, don't try anything to say I have black, I 807 00:38:42,600 --> 00:38:45,280 have POC front where where they at? 808 00:38:45,280 --> 00:38:47,520 Because they, they're not a part of your friend list. 809 00:38:48,160 --> 00:38:49,640 They're not a part of your friend party. 810 00:38:49,800 --> 00:38:51,440 You're not getting drunk with them on the weekends. 811 00:38:51,440 --> 00:38:54,160 You're not going out to the book clubs on, you know, a weekday or 812 00:38:54,160 --> 00:38:55,240 whatever. I don't see it. 813 00:38:55,240 --> 00:38:56,640 They're not. Even in your close friends 814 00:38:56,640 --> 00:38:58,160 story, they don't know anything about you. 815 00:38:58,400 --> 00:39:02,520 Nothing, nothing at all. And that's why I hate about 816 00:39:02,520 --> 00:39:04,760 social media. And when it comes to like 817 00:39:05,040 --> 00:39:08,160 calling for attention of social justice, it's only when it's 818 00:39:08,160 --> 00:39:11,400 conveniently A fad for you. Like I can't even tell you how 819 00:39:11,400 --> 00:39:15,560 many times during, you know, the blackout of 2020. 820 00:39:15,600 --> 00:39:18,000 And I'm talking not blackout literally, but I'm talking about 821 00:39:18,160 --> 00:39:21,680 everybody wanted to talk about their black friends struggle or 822 00:39:21,680 --> 00:39:25,000 people are D Ming me saying I'm sorry, what can I do to? 823 00:39:25,000 --> 00:39:27,480 Help and that was actually really weird as fuck. 824 00:39:27,760 --> 00:39:30,160 That was weird as fuck. I actually was just kind of 825 00:39:30,160 --> 00:39:33,000 like. Does this look like the Make a 826 00:39:33,000 --> 00:39:34,440 Wish foundation black? Thank. 827 00:39:34,440 --> 00:39:39,200 You thank you like it is not my. No interest in hearing that. 828 00:39:39,280 --> 00:39:42,040 Yeah, no, this one, this one girl from boarding school when I 829 00:39:42,040 --> 00:39:44,880 was actually was 2 girls from boarding school when we were 830 00:39:44,880 --> 00:39:48,280 sitting at lunch, I was a freshman and they were like, I 831 00:39:48,280 --> 00:39:51,120 just can we touch your hair? And I was like, no, and they 832 00:39:51,120 --> 00:39:52,640 touched it anyway. They're like, EW, it feels like 833 00:39:52,640 --> 00:39:53,760 worms. It's so weird. 834 00:39:53,760 --> 00:39:56,560 Your hair's so weird. And I remember just like being 835 00:39:56,560 --> 00:40:01,800 like, oh, and like I didn't have like the language to explain how 836 00:40:01,800 --> 00:40:05,520 that was fucking crazy. And I never, me and this girl 837 00:40:05,520 --> 00:40:07,280 never developed a French obviously, because why would I 838 00:40:07,280 --> 00:40:08,640 do that? But also she was just like kind 839 00:40:08,640 --> 00:40:11,120 of an annoying person. One of those kids I would just 840 00:40:11,120 --> 00:40:13,600 like make noise to get attention like you know what I mean? 841 00:40:13,600 --> 00:40:16,320 Just like sit on the floor in class and just like be generally 842 00:40:16,320 --> 00:40:21,360 disruptive and just kind of like a gross in all forms of the 843 00:40:21,360 --> 00:40:24,080 word. And she sent me this DM and was 844 00:40:24,080 --> 00:40:27,520 like, I apologize for this. We had no DM history prior, 845 00:40:27,920 --> 00:40:29,840 never spoke. So just came out of the blue. 846 00:40:30,960 --> 00:40:33,840 Right and I I left that shit on Red because I was like what 847 00:40:33,840 --> 00:40:35,240 relationship are you trying to salvage now? 848 00:40:35,240 --> 00:40:39,320 Her twin brother stays in my DMS and I would fuck the shit out of 849 00:40:39,320 --> 00:40:41,320 him. Would you like revenge? 850 00:40:41,400 --> 00:40:42,960 Would you just say like, fuck that bitch? 851 00:40:42,960 --> 00:40:44,320 But her brother. Her brother. 852 00:40:44,320 --> 00:40:45,640 Fine though. Her brother. 853 00:40:45,640 --> 00:40:46,920 Fine honestly. And you know what? 854 00:40:46,920 --> 00:40:51,520 He's crazy because she is like a mask lesbian and they look the 855 00:40:51,520 --> 00:40:56,080 same but he's hotter. OK, I was about to say like I. 856 00:40:56,200 --> 00:40:58,440 Was going to say, I was going to say it doesn't work on her, but 857 00:40:58,440 --> 00:41:00,240 it works on him. On him. 858 00:41:00,480 --> 00:41:03,480 It works on him and, like, doing his, like, like his outdoorsy 859 00:41:03,480 --> 00:41:04,320 thing. Yeah. 860 00:41:04,560 --> 00:41:05,960 And I've always thought that he was hot. 861 00:41:06,000 --> 00:41:09,960 And so, like, that man stays in my DMS more than she does, I 862 00:41:10,000 --> 00:41:12,280 think. I don't really want to do it 863 00:41:12,280 --> 00:41:14,080 actually. You should just fuck with her 864 00:41:14,080 --> 00:41:17,160 and just yeah I think you should and maybe send a video. 865 00:41:17,720 --> 00:41:19,440 I'm so bad. Yeah, Nick, Nick, if you're 866 00:41:19,440 --> 00:41:22,080 listening to this. Sliding neck. 867 00:41:22,080 --> 00:41:24,800 We should neck, neck. We should fuck. 868 00:41:24,960 --> 00:41:27,600 Yeah. I like, I feel like he looks 869 00:41:27,600 --> 00:41:30,400 like the kind of guy who would like be really bad at fingering, 870 00:41:30,520 --> 00:41:36,000 but the back shots would go crazy, you know what I mean? 871 00:41:36,320 --> 00:41:39,240 But I also I'm like at the same time I'm like I love being 872 00:41:39,240 --> 00:41:42,960 fingered like can we bring can we re normalize fingering like 873 00:41:42,960 --> 00:41:43,920 sometimes we. Should. 874 00:41:44,240 --> 00:41:47,240 Like fingering sometimes feels a little bit better than the Dick 875 00:41:47,240 --> 00:41:49,000 sometimes. Sometimes it. 876 00:41:49,000 --> 00:41:51,600 Does sometimes. I can only really squirt or I've 877 00:41:51,640 --> 00:41:54,600 only learned to squirt from fingering like that. 878 00:41:54,600 --> 00:41:56,560 I don't squirt from from vibrators. 879 00:41:56,560 --> 00:41:58,240 I don't squirt from guys. I squirt from fingering. 880 00:41:58,720 --> 00:42:02,600 I'm the same way. My partner, well, my fiance is 881 00:42:02,600 --> 00:42:05,960 probably one of the only men that can do it simultaneously 882 00:42:05,960 --> 00:42:08,200 like fuck me and finger me with skirting. 883 00:42:08,920 --> 00:42:12,040 But like, yeah, it's a lovely combination. 884 00:42:12,040 --> 00:42:16,480 It's a lovely combination, but like I'm the same way, you know, 885 00:42:16,520 --> 00:42:19,960 I just, I live my best life, but I'm like, I'm also like, you 886 00:42:19,960 --> 00:42:22,600 know, it's just something about the fingers. 887 00:42:22,600 --> 00:42:25,560 Even if I'm like with my girlfriend and he's with us or 888 00:42:25,560 --> 00:42:28,760 we're just all in a group, it's like I have to have some fingers 889 00:42:29,080 --> 00:42:32,320 around my clit somewhere. Like I'm just never complete. 890 00:42:32,520 --> 00:42:33,960 I'm never complete. So, people. 891 00:42:34,320 --> 00:42:37,720 That guy that I was telling you about going at the concert, he, 892 00:42:37,720 --> 00:42:40,200 he fingered me in the back of an Uber and I think about it 893 00:42:40,400 --> 00:42:43,440 constantly. Oh my God, let me. 894 00:42:43,440 --> 00:42:47,560 Just like, oh God, there's something about Uber sex too. 895 00:42:48,400 --> 00:42:52,000 Just like if you can't like full on fuck, you know, taxi cab 896 00:42:52,000 --> 00:42:55,120 confession style, a little finger, a little sucking on the 897 00:42:55,120 --> 00:42:56,960 nipple. If the drivers like, fuck it, I 898 00:42:56,960 --> 00:42:59,120 don't care. I'm all for it. 899 00:42:59,800 --> 00:43:01,840 I know, that's why, that's why I always have to sit behind the 900 00:43:01,840 --> 00:43:03,400 driver so he doesn't get too much of a show. 901 00:43:03,680 --> 00:43:05,520 Boom, there you go. But then he's like, I know that 902 00:43:05,520 --> 00:43:07,160 smell smells. Right, I know, I know. 903 00:43:07,240 --> 00:43:09,320 Can you put the windows down and can we play music? 904 00:43:09,560 --> 00:43:12,840 I will always do that before I'm friend pretend I'm like I'm like 905 00:43:12,840 --> 00:43:14,480 setting Uber. I hope you're not listening to 906 00:43:14,480 --> 00:43:15,200 this. Please don't. 907 00:43:15,280 --> 00:43:17,720 Oh my God. For for purposes, I'm joking, 908 00:43:19,760 --> 00:43:21,480 but for purpose, I'm for purpose. 909 00:43:22,560 --> 00:43:24,920 Yeah, I know. But I, I feel like, you know, 910 00:43:24,920 --> 00:43:28,240 since I've become, you know, much more public with being a 911 00:43:28,240 --> 00:43:31,360 sex worker in all forms of the word, you know, with my public 912 00:43:31,360 --> 00:43:33,680 speaking, with modeling, with actually being on camera, with 913 00:43:33,720 --> 00:43:35,160 writing. I just actually finished writing 914 00:43:35,160 --> 00:43:38,280 something for Cosmo that I owe them for a really long time. 915 00:43:38,320 --> 00:43:40,280 Congrats. I thank you. 916 00:43:40,280 --> 00:43:43,000 Thank you. I feel like I'm having the best 917 00:43:43,000 --> 00:43:45,960 sex in my life because I've had to practice having so much sex. 918 00:43:46,040 --> 00:43:47,880 And you know what? There's like 1. 919 00:43:47,960 --> 00:43:50,000 There's one thing that people ask me all the time, which is 920 00:43:50,000 --> 00:43:52,240 like, does this affect your personal sex life in a negative 921 00:43:52,240 --> 00:43:54,240 way? And my answer is like, not 922 00:43:54,240 --> 00:43:56,520 really, because everybody knows that I'm a sex worker. 923 00:43:56,680 --> 00:43:59,080 My grandpa knew, everybody knows, right? 924 00:43:59,240 --> 00:44:01,960 If you know, if you know me a little bit from online, you know 925 00:44:01,960 --> 00:44:03,280 that I'm a sex worker and that I don't drink. 926 00:44:03,280 --> 00:44:05,640 Those are bare minimum things that you would know about me 927 00:44:05,800 --> 00:44:08,000 just from the Internet. And both of those things are in 928 00:44:08,000 --> 00:44:11,400 my Instagram bio. So if you decide to get into it 929 00:44:11,400 --> 00:44:15,000 with me and one or both of those things are not OK with you, 930 00:44:15,080 --> 00:44:17,960 that's kind of your problem. That's kind of your problem 931 00:44:17,960 --> 00:44:20,600 because you would know either of those things from from even 932 00:44:20,600 --> 00:44:24,080 before the first date. So it kind of filters out many 933 00:44:24,080 --> 00:44:26,280 more people. I reject people constantly. 934 00:44:26,760 --> 00:44:29,160 Constantly. How often do you find yourself 935 00:44:29,160 --> 00:44:32,880 like OK woman to woman? Because we can like we can talk 936 00:44:32,880 --> 00:44:35,320 about this shit for days, but I feel like people don't 937 00:44:35,320 --> 00:44:39,160 understand like being queer. Sometimes it hurts to have like 938 00:44:39,440 --> 00:44:44,360 double triple the denies like the behind nose. 939 00:44:45,160 --> 00:44:48,240 Seriously. Do you like dive a little inside 940 00:44:48,240 --> 00:44:52,080 when it's especially late female adjacent? 941 00:44:52,520 --> 00:44:56,080 The ones that are rejecting. I think I'm much more of a sub 942 00:44:56,080 --> 00:44:59,560 when it comes to girls, so I actually don't really approach 943 00:44:59,560 --> 00:45:01,440 any girls. Like literally I would go to the 944 00:45:01,600 --> 00:45:03,800 SO my roommate from boarding school is like queen of the 945 00:45:03,800 --> 00:45:05,200 lesbians. Like we were out to dinner once 946 00:45:05,200 --> 00:45:06,600 and she's like, oh, my ex is calling me. 947 00:45:06,600 --> 00:45:07,560 I was like, oh, do you want to take that? 948 00:45:07,560 --> 00:45:09,760 And she's like, no, no, she keeps getting this, this call. 949 00:45:09,760 --> 00:45:11,000 And I was like, oh, who's it? She's like, it's my ex. 950 00:45:11,000 --> 00:45:12,600 And I was like, do you really want to take that, Francis? 951 00:45:12,600 --> 00:45:14,320 It's like, no, it's my other ex. And I was like, oh, fuck you. 952 00:45:14,640 --> 00:45:16,640 But like, I'm telling you, Queen of the lesbians. 953 00:45:16,880 --> 00:45:19,400 And I was like, Francis, how come when I go to the woods on a 954 00:45:19,400 --> 00:45:22,360 Wednesday, no one of the girls like nobody approaches me. 955 00:45:22,360 --> 00:45:24,160 And she was like, oh, it's because they think you're a fem 956 00:45:24,160 --> 00:45:26,040 top and you're actually a fem bottom and they think you're 957 00:45:26,040 --> 00:45:28,880 going to approach them. And I was like, wow, any girls 958 00:45:28,880 --> 00:45:31,160 that are listening to this? I have a fem bottom. 959 00:45:31,560 --> 00:45:33,760 Please don't make me go over there. 960 00:45:34,160 --> 00:45:35,880 Go to her. Go to her. 961 00:45:37,760 --> 00:45:40,160 Please come to me. Oh, my God. 962 00:45:40,160 --> 00:45:43,320 The same thing happened with Anna Fox and I We went out for 963 00:45:43,320 --> 00:45:48,760 drinks, and we were literally trying to hint to the bartender, 964 00:45:48,960 --> 00:45:50,400 like, you know, you're really pretty. 965 00:45:50,400 --> 00:45:53,960 Like, take us home. Yeah. 966 00:45:54,040 --> 00:45:54,680 Right. Yeah. 967 00:45:55,360 --> 00:45:58,360 Just wait over the head and we're like, OK, fine, all right, 968 00:45:58,360 --> 00:46:01,640 we'll just go back to our just quiet women. 969 00:46:01,640 --> 00:46:05,920 Just we're just going to Ogle. OK, She people people think all 970 00:46:05,920 --> 00:46:07,200 the time. They're like, damn, Saff, you 971 00:46:07,200 --> 00:46:09,880 probably have like the world's and I was like, no, I am not the 972 00:46:09,880 --> 00:46:13,120 closer. OK, it's either my lovely fiance 973 00:46:13,120 --> 00:46:16,880 that's going and telling girls like yo, you should go hit up my 974 00:46:17,000 --> 00:46:20,920 my girl, like you should go and talk to her or even my 975 00:46:20,920 --> 00:46:22,280 girlfriend. She'll be like, oh, you want to 976 00:46:22,280 --> 00:46:23,200 talk to her? You should. 977 00:46:23,480 --> 00:46:26,400 But then we gay panic together. So it's just like, I'm cool with 978 00:46:26,400 --> 00:46:28,400 you. You're hot enough like. 979 00:46:28,400 --> 00:46:32,360 Literally I, there's like one girl that I like have in my, my 980 00:46:32,440 --> 00:46:37,080 little rotation right now and still I get nervous every time. 981 00:46:37,560 --> 00:46:38,760 So you know. Fun. 982 00:46:38,960 --> 00:46:40,640 But it's fun. It's like, especially if they're 983 00:46:40,640 --> 00:46:43,200 in the rotation and you have that little panic, it's like, 984 00:46:43,400 --> 00:46:44,320 who's going to bring it out first? 985 00:46:44,800 --> 00:46:47,160 Who's topping who? I know. 986 00:46:47,320 --> 00:46:49,000 Honestly, it's it's her topping me. 987 00:46:49,000 --> 00:46:50,000 Who are we? Who are we kidding? 988 00:46:50,000 --> 00:46:51,360 Who are we? Love it. 989 00:46:51,400 --> 00:46:55,160 I love it. And yet, OK, so yeah, you don't 990 00:46:55,160 --> 00:46:57,760 want to explore polyamory, you know. 991 00:46:57,760 --> 00:47:01,280 What I like open relationships, and that is what I've learned 992 00:47:01,280 --> 00:47:05,400 before, But I don't think I'm like against actual polyamory. 993 00:47:05,400 --> 00:47:09,000 I think my thing is just that I have so much going on. 994 00:47:09,000 --> 00:47:11,160 I worry about being able to allocate enough time for 995 00:47:11,160 --> 00:47:12,760 everybody. That is my only thing. 996 00:47:13,520 --> 00:47:16,400 I don't like. I don't like to have us 997 00:47:16,440 --> 00:47:17,720 relationships. And I don't mean that I have to 998 00:47:17,720 --> 00:47:20,640 be everybody's best friend, but like I'm going to be in the 999 00:47:20,640 --> 00:47:22,520 relationship with you that I want to be, and I want to be 1000 00:47:22,520 --> 00:47:24,440 able to do that. I love that. 1001 00:47:24,520 --> 00:47:28,040 Honestly, it's like for me too, I'm probably saturated, but I 1002 00:47:28,040 --> 00:47:31,080 like to have my fun, but I don't have enough time to have fun, 1003 00:47:31,120 --> 00:47:32,960 you know? So that's why for me, like the 1004 00:47:32,960 --> 00:47:35,800 relationships that I have, like I live with my fiance, my 1005 00:47:35,800 --> 00:47:38,600 girlfriend, she lives by herself, has a boyfriend who 1006 00:47:38,760 --> 00:47:42,480 also dates another girl. And it's like when we see each 1007 00:47:42,480 --> 00:47:46,040 other, it's like no time past. So it can be like months that I 1008 00:47:46,040 --> 00:47:49,240 never see my girlfriend and or like we like months. 1009 00:47:49,360 --> 00:47:54,080 Honestly, last year was like a solid like execution in our 1010 00:47:54,080 --> 00:47:57,000 relationship that we saw each other more than five days in a 1011 00:47:57,000 --> 00:48:00,800 year, which is like crazy. She's she's busy, she's a boss 1012 00:48:00,800 --> 00:48:03,120 bitch and I love her. I love her to death, but it's 1013 00:48:03,120 --> 00:48:05,400 like, I truly feel the way that you said that. 1014 00:48:05,400 --> 00:48:08,480 It's like when you're in these Poly relationships, even just in 1015 00:48:08,480 --> 00:48:11,720 any relationship monogamously, time, it is a thing. 1016 00:48:11,720 --> 00:48:15,440 Time is very sacred. So for us, anytime that we get 1017 00:48:15,440 --> 00:48:19,840 those dates, it's like phones off, no interactions besides 1018 00:48:19,840 --> 00:48:22,520 like her and I in the morning because we don't get those 1019 00:48:22,520 --> 00:48:26,080 moments a lot. And again, it's like it's a 1020 00:48:26,080 --> 00:48:27,720 learn thing. It's a train thing. 1021 00:48:27,720 --> 00:48:31,480 But also, I really don't think that, you know, Poly 1022 00:48:31,480 --> 00:48:36,080 relationships have to have like that one rule where, you know, 1023 00:48:36,080 --> 00:48:37,880 you have to see somebody every day. 1024 00:48:37,880 --> 00:48:41,360 Like, no, you, no, you are your own person, you know? 1025 00:48:41,720 --> 00:48:45,560 But I get it. Also like I also feel like as 1026 00:48:45,560 --> 00:48:49,200 somebody who has experienced a lot of loss in my life, I'd say 1027 00:48:49,200 --> 00:48:52,040 the most significant relationship for me romantically 1028 00:48:52,240 --> 00:48:54,680 was my first open relationship and that person unfortunately 1029 00:48:54,680 --> 00:48:55,840 passed. I'm about 9. 1030 00:48:55,840 --> 00:48:56,640 Years. Oh my goodness. 1031 00:48:58,200 --> 00:49:01,000 Very lucky that I had that kind of love so young because I know 1032 00:49:01,000 --> 00:49:03,560 that it is real. But also to that it didn't feel 1033 00:49:03,560 --> 00:49:07,720 like we were forcing each other to be with each other like the 1034 00:49:07,720 --> 00:49:10,520 old ball and chain. I feel like I chose to be with 1035 00:49:10,520 --> 00:49:12,240 him and also, you know, other people. 1036 00:49:12,240 --> 00:49:14,840 And it felt like that much more of a natural connection because 1037 00:49:14,840 --> 00:49:17,680 it wasn't something that we felt forced into that we felt 1038 00:49:17,680 --> 00:49:21,880 slightly pressured by. It was a natural love and I'm 1039 00:49:21,880 --> 00:49:23,800 very glad that I got to experience that so young. 1040 00:49:23,800 --> 00:49:27,320 But it was truly like processing his passing that led me to 1041 00:49:27,320 --> 00:49:32,560 realize I was way too deep in my addiction, way more than I 1042 00:49:32,560 --> 00:49:34,360 realized. I was talking to one of his best 1043 00:49:34,360 --> 00:49:39,040 friends a couple of years ago. And I'm, I'm close with his best 1044 00:49:39,040 --> 00:49:40,840 friend. And I was like, yeah, you know, 1045 00:49:41,480 --> 00:49:44,960 or I guess Patrick goes, I think about him every day. 1046 00:49:44,960 --> 00:49:47,320 I have for the last four or five years. 1047 00:49:47,360 --> 00:49:49,520 And that is when I realized that I never thought about him. 1048 00:49:49,520 --> 00:49:51,960 And I hadn't thought about him actually in a very long time. 1049 00:49:52,200 --> 00:49:55,360 And I was like, OK, something is wrong, but something is very 1050 00:49:55,360 --> 00:49:56,840 wrong because I never think about him. 1051 00:49:57,240 --> 00:50:02,120 So I like to think about it as like, you know, like I said 1052 00:50:02,120 --> 00:50:04,960 before, the choice to be with people and having that be an 1053 00:50:04,960 --> 00:50:08,200 active choice, I think that goes hand in hand with my choosing to 1054 00:50:08,200 --> 00:50:11,080 be in the sex industry, right? And why I don't hide it from 1055 00:50:11,080 --> 00:50:14,360 anybody because just as I choose to do this work, if I hide it or 1056 00:50:14,360 --> 00:50:18,120 hide any aspect of, about it, that takes that person's choice 1057 00:50:18,120 --> 00:50:20,920 to be with me away. And I wouldn't want to do that. 1058 00:50:21,120 --> 00:50:24,360 So absolutely. But I, I also feel like, you 1059 00:50:24,360 --> 00:50:26,120 know, so you can't be everything for everybody. 1060 00:50:26,760 --> 00:50:29,440 Like if you want someone to help edit your resume, if you want to 1061 00:50:29,440 --> 00:50:32,120 talk to somebody about something that you know they will not 1062 00:50:32,120 --> 00:50:34,080 judge you for. If you want to go vintage 1063 00:50:34,080 --> 00:50:37,040 shopping, if you want to go on a run, you can come to me. 1064 00:50:37,360 --> 00:50:41,200 If you would like to go to electric Daisy, do not come to 1065 00:50:41,200 --> 00:50:42,320 me. If you would like someone to 1066 00:50:42,320 --> 00:50:45,120 sugarcoat some shit for you, do not come to me, right. 1067 00:50:45,240 --> 00:50:47,160 You know, if you want to go to AI, don't know. 1068 00:50:47,160 --> 00:50:50,880 If you want to go eat trail mix, do not come to me. 1069 00:50:50,880 --> 00:50:52,800 I'm not going to share a bag of trail mix with you, right? 1070 00:50:52,960 --> 00:50:55,840 There's all kinds of things, but I would never want anybody that 1071 00:50:55,840 --> 00:51:00,880 I share any part of life with to feel like a need that they have 1072 00:51:01,000 --> 00:51:03,280 I can't or won't meet. And that means they'll never get 1073 00:51:03,280 --> 00:51:05,000 it. That's a powerful thing. 1074 00:51:05,360 --> 00:51:08,360 That is a powerful thing. Even just again, any 1075 00:51:08,360 --> 00:51:12,160 relationship that you have with yourself, it's just, it's good 1076 00:51:12,160 --> 00:51:15,800 to know your limitations. It's good to know your 1077 00:51:15,800 --> 00:51:21,280 limitations because not all of us can, you know, pinpoint that 1078 00:51:21,360 --> 00:51:23,480 in life. I think it really does take like 1079 00:51:23,800 --> 00:51:26,960 a special person in your life that's really like can sit you 1080 00:51:26,960 --> 00:51:31,520 down in a sense and be like, look, it's okay to have these 1081 00:51:31,520 --> 00:51:34,560 limits. It's OK to have boundaries. 1082 00:51:34,600 --> 00:51:37,560 I don't know why people are so afraid of the word boundaries, 1083 00:51:37,560 --> 00:51:39,400 but you need to be accustomed to it. 1084 00:51:39,440 --> 00:51:42,800 And not just in your dating relationship, but in yourself. 1085 00:51:42,800 --> 00:51:45,200 You have to be. Because a lot of people think of 1086 00:51:45,200 --> 00:51:47,680 the word boundaries as something that's a consequence when it's 1087 00:51:47,680 --> 00:51:49,360 really just a rule that you make with yourself. 1088 00:51:49,680 --> 00:51:50,960 Thank you. What a boundary is? 1089 00:51:51,440 --> 00:51:54,960 It is. If X happens I will do Y. 1090 00:51:56,200 --> 00:51:58,480 Exactly. Exactly, and it doesn't make you 1091 00:51:58,480 --> 00:52:00,360 a prude. It doesn't make you a prude at 1092 00:52:00,360 --> 00:52:02,840 all. It's OK to have standards. 1093 00:52:03,000 --> 00:52:05,400 Standards and boundaries go together hand in hand. 1094 00:52:05,400 --> 00:52:07,120 I don't care what people say even. 1095 00:52:07,120 --> 00:52:09,760 Like how do you feel about the word compromise in wrapping I? 1096 00:52:09,800 --> 00:52:15,800 Think the word compromise suggests that you're not getting 1097 00:52:15,800 --> 00:52:18,920 what you want and it is a failure, right? 1098 00:52:18,920 --> 00:52:20,920 And it is like a, a negative thing, right? 1099 00:52:20,920 --> 00:52:24,360 It's like, oh, I guess we'll compromise versus like we can 1100 00:52:24,360 --> 00:52:26,600 meet together on this issue. And I don't know if there's a 1101 00:52:26,600 --> 00:52:29,240 word yet, but you know, I think the word compromise means like 1102 00:52:29,480 --> 00:52:31,760 you're not getting what you want and therefore that's lacking. 1103 00:52:31,920 --> 00:52:33,960 I don't think the word compromise is ever used in a 1104 00:52:33,960 --> 00:52:36,000 positive context. Never. 1105 00:52:36,360 --> 00:52:39,160 I don't know, like I cringe when I hear about couples and they 1106 00:52:39,160 --> 00:52:41,760 say, well, we compromise to this decision. 1107 00:52:41,760 --> 00:52:46,880 It's like why I'm? Like did you right? 1108 00:52:47,560 --> 00:52:49,680 It could change. It could so change, I don't 1109 00:52:49,680 --> 00:52:52,400 know. So people, just just to say, you 1110 00:52:52,400 --> 00:52:54,960 know, food for thought, maybe you want to reconsider those, 1111 00:52:57,160 --> 00:53:00,520 you know, compromisations. Maybe you need to have better 1112 00:53:00,520 --> 00:53:01,560 standards. Yeah. 1113 00:53:01,720 --> 00:53:03,800 I know what are you compromising on because I'm sure that man can 1114 00:53:03,800 --> 00:53:06,680 wipe his ass himself. I didn't say it, but she said 1115 00:53:06,680 --> 00:53:07,480 it. She did. 1116 00:53:07,480 --> 00:53:09,400 Yeah, yeah, I did. And it's true. 1117 00:53:09,400 --> 00:53:10,880 It is true. It is true. 1118 00:53:11,800 --> 00:53:14,040 So ladies, stop saying the word compromise. 1119 00:53:14,200 --> 00:53:17,480 There is no it's either meet in the middle or don't at all. 1120 00:53:17,800 --> 00:53:21,040 OK, Like that's it. The compromising. 1121 00:53:21,040 --> 00:53:22,720 Fuck that. Yeah. 1122 00:53:22,880 --> 00:53:26,080 And and I'm truly like honestly Speaking of being multifaceted, 1123 00:53:26,080 --> 00:53:28,680 I think, you know, having that type of multifacetedness in my 1124 00:53:28,680 --> 00:53:32,080 friendships, in my dating life and also in my work makes me a 1125 00:53:32,080 --> 00:53:35,280 much better person if for whatever reason I can't or don't 1126 00:53:35,280 --> 00:53:38,200 want to be shooting poor and for amount of time, right, whether 1127 00:53:38,360 --> 00:53:41,840 maybe I've caught a antibacterial or not. 1128 00:53:41,840 --> 00:53:44,880 Antibacterial, antibacterial, antibiotic. 1129 00:53:44,880 --> 00:53:47,160 Oh my God. Antibiotic resistant strain of 1130 00:53:47,560 --> 00:53:49,840 gonorrhea, right. And you know, I am out of work 1131 00:53:49,840 --> 00:53:52,280 for a couple of weeks, right? Or let's just say I'm just not 1132 00:53:52,280 --> 00:53:55,880 feeling it or whatever. I can lean into other sides of 1133 00:53:55,880 --> 00:53:58,600 my work and not feel like I'm at a deficit. 1134 00:53:58,760 --> 00:54:01,000 Like I'm stressed about money and but I'm also getting to flex 1135 00:54:01,000 --> 00:54:03,800 other muscles that then also help me when I return back. 1136 00:54:04,080 --> 00:54:07,200 So it's really, really helpful to be able to be like, yeah, you 1137 00:54:07,200 --> 00:54:10,920 know, I love being able to shoot porn so that when I am in front 1138 00:54:10,920 --> 00:54:14,320 of a camera or in front of stage, I can go and present to 1139 00:54:14,320 --> 00:54:16,480 be my best self. But then I also have really 1140 00:54:16,480 --> 00:54:19,240 relevant, interesting things to talk about when I'm on stage. 1141 00:54:19,440 --> 00:54:22,760 But that helps me with my Lost Files company. 1142 00:54:22,760 --> 00:54:25,800 But my other company, Bitter Blush, is like Duolingo for 1143 00:54:25,800 --> 00:54:27,680 social addresses. So you can learn about whatever 1144 00:54:27,680 --> 00:54:30,040 issue you'd like to learn about. It doesn't feel like homework 1145 00:54:30,040 --> 00:54:32,840 and it doesn't feel like one of those fake corporate trainings. 1146 00:54:32,840 --> 00:54:36,600 I think coming off the backs of book bands and coming off the 1147 00:54:36,600 --> 00:54:39,960 backs of the fall of traditional media and coming off the backs 1148 00:54:40,040 --> 00:54:42,480 of the media literacy going down. 1149 00:54:42,800 --> 00:54:45,360 And also just the fact that people feel like they want to 1150 00:54:45,360 --> 00:54:46,800 learn things. They don't feel like there's a 1151 00:54:46,800 --> 00:54:49,760 space for them to learn it in a way that's not judgmental. 1152 00:54:49,880 --> 00:54:52,120 And they feel like there's a woke barometer that you have to 1153 00:54:52,120 --> 00:54:54,800 reach up to instead of just learning what appeals to you and 1154 00:54:54,800 --> 00:54:58,840 learning in your own pace or, and also just, I also feel like 1155 00:54:58,840 --> 00:55:02,080 the whole like looking, taking out whatever infographics from 1156 00:55:02,080 --> 00:55:04,920 across your way on social media thing doesn't always help if you 1157 00:55:04,920 --> 00:55:07,040 have less than baseline knowledge, right? 1158 00:55:07,320 --> 00:55:10,440 And then you're feeling bad that you don't know what you don't 1159 00:55:10,440 --> 00:55:12,240 know. So that is why I created this 1160 00:55:12,240 --> 00:55:14,720 company. But we are in the process of 1161 00:55:14,720 --> 00:55:16,200 fundraising, which is so exciting. 1162 00:55:16,200 --> 00:55:20,480 We are, we are planning for a, a full tour in 2026, which I'm 1163 00:55:20,480 --> 00:55:22,640 very excited about. And we are doing some events in 1164 00:55:22,640 --> 00:55:24,240 Houston at the end of this year. So if you. 1165 00:55:24,240 --> 00:55:26,400 Are awesome and. You would like to come see us. 1166 00:55:26,600 --> 00:55:30,040 I am so excited about that. Where can people get in touch 1167 00:55:30,040 --> 00:55:34,400 for that, by the way? Working late for you can send me 1168 00:55:34,400 --> 00:55:38,160 an e-mail to addisbouchersocial@gmail.com. 1169 00:55:38,360 --> 00:55:40,440 Send me an e-mail there. It's just my name, the word 1170 00:55:40,440 --> 00:55:44,120 social at Gmail and please get in touch with me for that. 1171 00:55:44,120 --> 00:55:46,520 If there's anything fundraising related, if there's anything 1172 00:55:46,520 --> 00:55:48,600 collaborated, if there's anything that you would like to 1173 00:55:48,600 --> 00:55:50,800 interview me for, I would absolutely love that. 1174 00:55:51,720 --> 00:55:53,760 I'm going to make sure that we put this in the bio of the 1175 00:55:53,760 --> 00:55:57,520 episode because again, I love how you have these multiple 1176 00:55:57,520 --> 00:55:59,520 outlets that people can reach out to you. 1177 00:55:59,680 --> 00:56:04,200 But again, I think it is very, very true, y'all, She's not, 1178 00:56:04,200 --> 00:56:05,840 she's not normal, she's not normal. 1179 00:56:05,840 --> 00:56:08,720 And that's fine. She she is just like there's 1180 00:56:08,720 --> 00:56:12,560 only going to be 1 Addis Fouche and we got her and I'm so 1181 00:56:12,560 --> 00:56:14,680 excited. I'm so excited for you. 1182 00:56:14,680 --> 00:56:16,760 What's going to come? I'm very excited for these 1183 00:56:16,760 --> 00:56:21,040 awards for you happening on September 4th, the X Biz Europa 1184 00:56:21,040 --> 00:56:25,440 awards, all the best safe flight because seriously, like I'm 1185 00:56:25,440 --> 00:56:29,080 already like saying in my head, Laney, in about a month I'm 1186 00:56:29,080 --> 00:56:31,120 going to need her back period. I was about to. 1187 00:56:31,440 --> 00:56:33,680 Say I was like, I feel like there's still so much that we 1188 00:56:33,680 --> 00:56:37,240 can discuss and I hope that your fans love having me on so that 1189 00:56:37,240 --> 00:56:40,840 like I can come back highly anticipated. 1190 00:56:41,200 --> 00:56:45,760 Hi guys, I hope you enjoy this. No, seriously, I want people to 1191 00:56:45,760 --> 00:56:48,160 really like, let's get Addis back in Addis. 1192 00:56:48,160 --> 00:56:51,360 Where can the people find you? Where can they get in touch? 1193 00:56:51,360 --> 00:56:54,440 Like, let the earbuds know, of course. 1194 00:56:54,520 --> 00:56:57,080 Hi, earbuds. Luckily for you, I used to work 1195 00:56:57,080 --> 00:56:59,920 in advertising, so I know how important it is to be very easy 1196 00:57:00,080 --> 00:57:03,520 for people to find you. So my handles on Instagram, on 1197 00:57:03,520 --> 00:57:06,960 Tiktok, on Twitter, which is where all the spicy stuff is, my 1198 00:57:07,000 --> 00:57:10,400 only fans, my sex Panther, all of the important things are 1199 00:57:10,400 --> 00:57:12,200 literally just under the handle. Addis Fuche. 1200 00:57:12,200 --> 00:57:14,040 It is just my name at Addis Fuche. 1201 00:57:14,040 --> 00:57:16,120 It is so easy to find me. And if you'd like to go to my 1202 00:57:16,120 --> 00:57:19,640 website for any reason, either to send me an e-mail or to take 1203 00:57:19,640 --> 00:57:21,640 a look at any of the writing that I've written for Glamour or 1204 00:57:21,640 --> 00:57:24,400 Refinery or anything else, it's Addis fuche.com. 1205 00:57:24,520 --> 00:57:26,400 It is so easy to find me as long as you can spell. 1206 00:57:27,520 --> 00:57:29,440 Y'all better know how to spell? Come on now, right? 1207 00:57:29,600 --> 00:57:30,600 Right, right. Exactly. 1208 00:57:30,760 --> 00:57:32,720 OK, we're not going to spell it out for you, but I am going to 1209 00:57:32,720 --> 00:57:34,960 say you can follow me at Miss Radio Sapphire at 1210 00:57:34,960 --> 00:57:41,600 MSRADIOSAPPHIRE on Instagram. No Twitter, no TikTok because 1211 00:57:41,600 --> 00:57:43,200 they don't like me, but that's OK. 1212 00:57:43,200 --> 00:57:45,720 And there's also Miss Radio sapphire.com. 1213 00:57:45,760 --> 00:57:50,160 Now remember everybody, safe sex is the best hot sex. 1214 00:57:50,520 --> 00:57:52,800 Till next time. And you know what Lil Wayne 1215 00:57:52,840 --> 00:57:54,880 says? He says safe sex is great sex. 1216 00:57:54,880 --> 00:57:57,040 You better wear that late text so you don't. 1217 00:57:57,960 --> 00:58:01,280 I think I'm late text, right? Boom, period. 1218 00:58:07,240 --> 00:58:09,320 That was the show. All you sexy motherfuckers out 1219 00:58:09,320 --> 00:58:12,760 there, remember to follow at Miz Radio, Sapphire and Sapphire's 1220 00:58:12,760 --> 00:58:15,360 Airplay on Instagram. Want some eargasms of the past 1221 00:58:15,360 --> 00:58:17,120 and future? 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