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Welcome to Something positive 
for Positive People. 

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I'm Courtney Brain. 
Something positive for positive 

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people is A5O1C3 nonprofit 
organization supporting people 

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who are navigating herpes 
stigma. 

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And let me tell you all this, I 
just updated the website 

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tremendously. 
There is now a men's herpes 

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support group. 
There are, if you go there and 

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you're interested in that, like 
you'll see a link that directs 

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you to the additional resources 
for men. 

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This includes some of the stuff 
that I used to do when I made 

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Self a nonprofit, which was 
dedicated to men's emotional 

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Wellness resources. 
And those men's emotional 

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Wellness resources are now 
directed on the Something 

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Positive for Positive People 
website. 

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So if you're looking for men's 
groups, men's resources, you'll 

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be able to find that on the 
website. 

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So just go to the website. 
It's going to be super easy to 

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navigate. 
Now my graphic designer who 

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shitted on me recently in a 7 
minute voice message, she won't 

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hear this because y'all don't 
think she listens to the 

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podcast, but she, she lit a fire
into my ass and I got all my 

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shit together. 
So the website is a lot easier 

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to navigate. 
It'll be much easier to find 

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what it is that you're looking 
for. 

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I think that we did a real good 
job of stripping down things. 

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I got really hyped up and 
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about atomic language, which 
I'll still use. 

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I'll use that personally and 
I'll let my podcast self be 

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where I'm more so speak out loud
and practice using that language

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and exploring that. 
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with my yoga therapy clients, 
using that framework as it 

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applies to yoga in order to 
support people and get them to a

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better place with their 
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And a lot of times what it is 
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support calls to support groups 
to yoga therapy, is really 

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getting people to understand 
what their baseline is, the 

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connection, the relationship to 
the nervous system and how that 

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expresses itself in behaviors in
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And I know a lot of people don't
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but I believe that the nervous 
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spirit. 
What this regulates us, what 

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heights us up, what slows us 
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stagnant and stuck. 
And everything is about balance.

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And that's one of the things 
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therapy, which I'll be done with
my training in 2026. 

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So I just went through and I 
checked in with my instructor to

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make sure that I was on track to
get everything squared away for 

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2026. 
So I'll be fully licensed, 

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assuming I passed a test, which 
there's no reason I shouldn't 

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pass the test. 
Yeah, I'll be fully ready to go 

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come the end of 2026, going into
2027. 

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So yeah, be on the lookout for 
that. 

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So what that means is that there
will be more of a connection to 

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yoga in the presentations that I
create and talking about like 

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this as a support resource. 
And I think I might have found 

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the longevity of my career in 
utilizing yoga practices and 

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yoga therapy specifically as a 
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their herpes diagnosis. 
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symptoms of outbreaks or 
expressions of the virus and 

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transmission, but also how 
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the emotional Wellness, the 
mental health piece. 

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I want to shout out to all my 
practice clients that had let me

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work with them, and then the 
clients that decided to stick 

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with me because they found value
in it. 

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The ones who've left and come 
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So yeah, it's real validating 
that I'm doing what I'm supposed

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to be doing. 
Yesterday I did a workshop with 

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Project Safe and this workshop 
was with a shout out to Tara 

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Jones. 
Tara Tara Jones of the Youth Sex

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Spurt program. 
It's found out she was 25. 

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I didn't know she was 25, but 
she came in with me to Project 

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Safe here in Brooklyn, which is 
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educates people, young people, 
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as ambassadors for the program 
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And the overall goal was to go 
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stigma. 
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requirements for what they 
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bit more expansion on SC is like
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it. 
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not doing that by myself. 
So I reached out to her and I've

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been seeing her work for a while
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every time that I'd want to do 
some type of a fundraising 

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thing, the event which is not 
sale or I had a lot of stuff 

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that happened in the first half 
of this year, so I wasn't able 

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to produce what I thought I 
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So it was nice to be able to 
reach out to her and invite her 

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along to present with me and be 
able to pay her directly for 

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what she brought in because Lord
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presentations. 
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conducting the presentation, it 
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I'm glad that Project Safe, you 
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have me come in and do this. 
So I thought about recording it,

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but I don't know, that didn't 
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So what I'll do here then is 
instead just recap. 

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This will be something that's 
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professionals, healthcare 
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educators. 
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consistently come up when it 
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minimization training or how do 
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vocabulary and from our 
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materials is the the language. 
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something that people are 
confused by and we want to use 

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the information that's out 
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But a lot of the data and 
information that exists, 

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especially regarding herpes and 
herpes stigma, it doesn't make 

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sense and it's inconsistent. 
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Organization or the NIH or the 
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Association, you'll see 
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And even if you go to something 
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like I always tell people, my 
disclaimer is that the people 

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who take our surveys, the people
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people who are generally not 
doing well because of their 

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diagnosis. 
So we're not really able to get 

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a reflection of the entire 
population of people who have 

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herpes and know that they have 
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OK. 
So a lot of what I try and stick

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to are the psychological mental 
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effects, and anything that can 
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If they can report the frequency
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outbreak, if they know that they
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on to a partner, this is the 
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get that we can report on and we
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But beyond that, like I don't 
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us to quantify transmission 
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it does depend on so many 
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And I'm learning from my yoga 
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with me their experiences with 
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with them around the outbreaks 
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Like that's really all we got to
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And you really got to follow 
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and like track over the course 
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year, but I don't know, man. 
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the time a person receives their
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seek out support, that that 
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inconsistent that we can't 
really, you know, find out, OK, 

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if this number of people were 
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had outbreaks or symptoms at 
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down the list of what it is that
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I don't think that it we can get
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At least I can't, not without a 
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hands and a significant amount 
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just do this because I am 
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But at the same time, I also 
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People ask me all the time about
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Oh, well, you know, if I wear a 
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medication, does that bring the 
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Yeah, maybe. 
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bringing the transmission rate 
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one cause for outbreaks, what 
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And also, like I always tell 
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have herpes, they have to like 
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herpes. 
And also like for you, if that's

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something that you're 
consistently worrying about and 

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stressing over, then that is 
going to increase the likelihood

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of you passing Murphys on to 
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because again, this is one of 
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invites outbreaks. 
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talking to educators and like, 
explain that the information 

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that people want a doesn't exist
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to prevent transmission. 
There is no preventing herpes 

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transmission. 
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really left with is how do we 
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How do we do so in a way that 
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without inviting any stigma? 
Words like protection because, 

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you know, that implies an 
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pleasurable, as fun, as 
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Words like disease, you know, 
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ain't no different. 
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to STI and an infection is more 
accurate because you can have an

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infection, you can have a virus 
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whereas if the disease has the 
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So I get that, I understand 
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But there's a lot to be said for
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but it's also the words that we 
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And it's very situational. 
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from the the language we use 
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sexual health, when we talk 
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destroying stigma or eradicating
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The words that we use are things
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weight tool. 
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like to do is a simple 
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explore what stigma feels like 
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difference role. 
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life are different identities, 
and then we throw stigma in 

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there, but we kind of move 
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what that feels like and not be 
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the weight of those identities 
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be stigmatized. 
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gives an idea of what stigma 
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experiencing it and the way out 
of it being to validate their 

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identity outside of stigma, 
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reminding them that they are a 
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maybe a parent, someone who has 
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They're a colleague, they're 
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right? 
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things that we do in the 
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that's really expensive to do, 
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I'm hoping to hear back about 
this grant that I applied for, 

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which will be at the end of this
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Fingers crossed because this 
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wanted to do, which is hiring 
sex educators to be patient 

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actors so that we can go into 
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practices, and I'll give them a 
script for us to prepare, like a

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back story. 
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consult with us and communicate 
with us, delivering the 

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diagnosis. 
Answering our questions about SC

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is maybe we're newly diagnosed 
and we just want to know what 

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our options are in terms of 
being able to practice sex that 

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is more safe, safer with our 
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So I think that that is that is,
I don't want to say I think that

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is the next step of what this 
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got to be, I got to strip things
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So when you go to the website, 
you'll see that you might not 

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even notice, but a lot of stuff 
has been stripped down from the 

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website and organized in a way 
where it's much easier to 

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navigate. 
We got the home page. 

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If you want to learn about 
something positive, if you want 

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to learn about Courtney, you can
do that. 

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If you want to understand the 
the training like I'm describing

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here, you can do that. 
We've got a blog I need to start

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adding more to. 
I've blogged about the main 

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questions that people have about
discording, dating and then 

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transmission rates. 
But I I can probably post more 

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there and I'm going to invest a 
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than I have been on Instagram 
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Instagram ain't been cool with 
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but it's been consistently just 
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It's not been showing my content
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And so I'm better off just 
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So I put a little bit of money 
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Shout out to Jenny for making 
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easier to navigate, and giving 
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order to light that fire into my
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for positive people. 
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opportunities are being created.
This is how we're able to keep 

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things going. 
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works at a clinic, some sort of 
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health, sexual health, mental 
health education, if you provide

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any training, please reach out. 
If you know of any conferences 

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that would make sense for 
something positive, for positive

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people to be represented at, 
please reach out. 

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Let me know. 
Like it is, I'm doing this by 

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myself and I reach out for help 
when I can. 

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When I can pay people to do 
things, I reach out to them to 

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help me do the things. 
But I'm doing everything I can. 

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I don't see myself burning out. 
I don't see myself stepping away

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from this. 
So please don't like feeling any

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kind of sense of urgency or 
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It's a lot that I do. 
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she was like, So what are the 
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for positive people? 
Yeah, I'm in yoga therapy 

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training. 
I do have my 500 hour yoga 

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teacher certification, which is 
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It fuels the approach I take to 
the support offerings that I 

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have. 
And I also have the stigma free 

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training with the patient 
actors, which is a whole program

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to manage off. 
I host the support calls. 

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There's now a weekly support 
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women. 
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Eastern Time. 
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to be in the group, you have to 
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the group. 
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group, it's required that you 
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ones that you attend. 
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want you to, I want commitment. 
I need commitment. 

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I'm tired of people not showing 
up today. 

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I'm tired of people telling me, 
oh, you should do this and 

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they're not doing it. 
I am the person who's 

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facilitating the men's group as 
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These are separate just because 
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to other people, we've noticed 
the same things where we'll have

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a support group for everybody, 
but then men don't show up. 

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We'll have a support group for 
men and then women will be like,

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why? 
We ain't got what so Well, 

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that's my experience. 
I can't say that that's the case

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for everybody, but there's 
alternatives. 

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If you are a woman who doesn't 
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group because I'm a man, cool. 
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that as well. 
So, yeah, this, this episode 

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really feels more like an update
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But I also really just like, if 
you are somebody who wants to 

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help out, can help out, tell me 
who to talk to. 

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Just give me give me the name. 
You ain't got to do nothing 

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else. 
If you can make a warm 

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introduction to one of these 
healthcare organizations, one of

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these public health 
organizations. 

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I'm connected to the National 
Coalition of STD Directors. 

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I'm connected to the National 
Coalition for a Second Sexual 

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Health. 
I'm connected to the American 

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Sexual Health Association, like 
all of the acronyms as far as I 

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know, I'm connected to, I'm 
applying to speak at conferences

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and presented these places. 
I have my first HBCU that I'm 

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talking to historically Black 
College in Baltimore coming up 

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next month. 
And I'm I'm doing more of these 

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things. 
I'm looking for more of these 

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things because he's he's what's 
keeping the lights on. 

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He's a progressing mission. 
And the more of those things I 

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do, the less shit that I got to 
look for is looking for. 

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This shit is really what's 
kicking my ass, to be completely

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honest. 
And I want to shout out to 

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Doctor Ina Park, who's a former 
board member of Something 

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Positive for Positive People. 
She had to step down, 

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unfortunately, to have like a 
lot of other obligations, and 

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with her obligations, she was 
still able to support me 

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personally, inviting me as well 
as Jolene, who created the No 

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Shame in This Game film 
documentary out to Montreal, 

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Canada this past July. 
I think it was July and we got 

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the present and that's what 
turned into a couple of really 

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nice opportunities for me. 
So I'm very fortunate and 

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blessed to have people who do 
just point me in the directions 

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of things. 
Shout out to I think it's Amari 

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sex Ed. 
She's like a sex education 

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administrator of some sort, 
admin by Amari on Instagram who 

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connected me to someone who 
writes for Cosmo. 

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I want to say I think it's 
Cosmo, she said. 

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And giving me the opportunity to
share my experience with 

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somebody who's living with 
herpes. 

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And yeah, this, this, this life 
of mine is fueled by community. 

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I don't do this shit for money. 
Like I, I need the money. 

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Yes, the donations that come in 
awesome. 

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The paid opportunities make it a
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me, 'cause the less I got to 
worry about, the more this I can

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do. 
So that I, I got friends who 

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were like Gordon, yeah, yo, you 
should do this. 

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This is how you can make more 
money, get into the stock 

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market. 
I, I honestly don't give a fuck 

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about that as long as I can. 
My living expenses are about 

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$1500 a month. 
That's it like I just me $1500 a

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month and I don't know how the 
fuck I'm able to do that. 

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And a lot of the stuff that I 
want to do off of $1500 a month.

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And I just accredited to just 
alignment and being connected to

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what I perceive as to be God, as
to be the universe. 

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You know, whatever language it 
is that you want to use quantum 

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mechanics physics. 
But in aligning myself with the 

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nature of the flow of what my 
life experiences and has has 

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formed me into and what's been 
formed in terms of my 

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personality, my identity, I find
that a lot more stuff has been 

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happening just more fluidly for 
me. 

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So yeah man, that's that's it. 
Like if y'all know of 

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opportunities, please send them 
my way so that I can do more of 

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what I've done yesterday and I'm
getting better at it to where I 

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don't need to bring somebody in 
with me. 

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I'm used to bringing in people 
just because I like connecting. 

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Like connecting is more 
important to me than how much 

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money I'm getting. 
I ain't got no problem with 

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splitting whatever the cost, 
whatever the money coming in is 

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in order to give somebody else 
the opportunity to share the 

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spotlight stage speaking 
opportunity, whatever it is, I 

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ain't got no problem with that. 
So that's what I'm looking for. 

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I'm looking for more of these. 
I'm looking for more of these 

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opportunities. 
If you find them, if you know 

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them, let me know. 
All right? 

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And what this includes is a lot 
of just speaking to the lived 

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experiences of people who are 
struggling with and navigating 

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herpes stigma, teaching people 
how to talk about it, and the 

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people who are in the 
educational or clinical 

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settings. 
How do you talk about this with 

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patients? 
A lot of people always get like,

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unique questions. 
There was someone who said 

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someone that they knew had 
gotten herpes on his foot from 

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like walking around the resort, 
went to the doctor, and the 

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doctor told him, no, that's 
herpes. 

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But they were able to freeze it 
off. 

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I was like, all right, you know,
I, I hear about the, like, 

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wrestlers getting herpes from 
the yoga mask, but that, that 

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didn't sound right to me. 
So I asked. 

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I was like, you sure it was HSV,
not HPV? 

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And then some time went past and
she checked and she was like, 

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oh, yeah, it was HPV. 
It was HPV. 

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I was like, cool. 
So, you know, there's no telling

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how long this kind of 
experience, this, this story can

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exist and then grow and evolve 
over time. 

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And then, you know, we, we think
these things, that's really how 

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stigma works. 
It's often times that we don't 

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have accurate or the, the right 
information to be able to call 

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something what it is. 
So now we've got this ripple 

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effect because the information 
that I was given is what I'm 

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using and sharing as lived 
experience, as I'm talking to 

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people, as I'm telling them, oh,
hey, you know, this is what I 

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heard. 
And this is where that cycle of 

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stigma continues. 
It continues to perpetuate and 

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it's not intentionally, it's not
out of malice, it's just out of 

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not really knowing the most 
accurate bit of information or 

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not having all of the 
information I have and the right

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information. 
And a lot of what I'm learning, 

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my role is is to really like 
clean that up, to just clean up 

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that space of misinformation and
stigmatization and to do so 

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through my own lived 
experiences. 

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Like I don't, I ain't got no 
problem telling the story about 

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how I got herpes, when I got 
herpes, how I went through that 

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process. 
And you know, even most recently

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I shared my own experience, my 
story, whatever a recent episode

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that was, and I got some good 
feedback from that. 

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Just like being real and being 
honest about what my experience 

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has been speaking about that, 
that four years between my 

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diagnosis and then discovering 
the, discovering something 

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positive for positive people, or
I'm sorry, not something 

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positive. 
But discovering positive singles

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and learning that there's this 
resource out there that despite 

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how good it is at connecting 
people with herpes, still fuels 

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and perpetuates stigma. 
And it does. 

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So by I, I'm, I'm shitting on 
them now because they kicked me 

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off the website and they won't 
return my e-mail and I know why 

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they kicked me off. 
I'm fucking up their money. 

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They ain't making no money off 
of me because I'm literally 

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telling people, Hey, you don't 
need to only date people with 

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herpes. 
So y'all can kick rocks like I, 

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I'm, I'm over it. 
I'm done trying to like work 

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with y'all and work together. 
Y'all ain't got no desire to 

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minimizing the impacts of 
statement. 

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Like everything y'all doing is 
just to save face and keep 

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people in this cycle. 
Like screw y'all. 

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And yeah, I was going to get 
back on there for my own selfish

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intentions, I ain't going to lie
to you. 

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But I was also going to talk 
about the usefulness of 

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something positive for positive 
people. 

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So yeah, that's, that's it. 
I don't want to come here and 

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just like be bitching about 
anything. 

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But it, this is important work 
to me. 

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This is important to me. 
And it, it doesn't even always 

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feel like work when it's a line.
It just feels like I'm showing 

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up and just being myself. 
And you know, maybe that's how 

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some of the past influencer 
influencers have felt throughout

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history or the people who've LED
movements. 

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But like, all I really want to 
do is just empower people with 

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choice. 
You can, once you learn that 

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it's a choice of I'm going to 
continue to be stigmatized and 

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let stigma run my life or I am 
not going to, then that's it. 

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That's all I want to do. 
That that's what I feel like my 

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work is, is to just live in a 
way that empowers people with 

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choice to live out loud in such 
a way that people also feel 

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inspired to live out loud in 
their own way. 

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And the return on investment in 
that is it's it's I can't put a 

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dollar value to that. 
I can't And it's it's been this 

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nurturing of my own nature that 
I'm finding whoa, that thing was

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scary. 
These Lantern bugs. 

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All right, so there's these 
things in New York called 

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lanternflies. 
They're like pretty red like 

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when they jump and fly they're 
bright red. 

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But apparently they're like an 
invasive species that like 

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eliminates or endangers some 
type of trees or something, so 

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people see him and it just 
maliciously kill them. 

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Whenever I think about that, I 
think about that episode of 

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Black Mirror where the soldiers 
like were brainwashed into 

451
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believing that the people of 
this culture in these villages 

452
00:27:09,680 --> 00:27:11,480
were Ant people, like aliens and
shit. 

453
00:27:11,800 --> 00:27:14,600
One of the soldiers, his brain 
short circuited and he was 

454
00:27:14,600 --> 00:27:17,560
getting his cognition back and 
he saw real people, but 

455
00:27:17,560 --> 00:27:20,160
everybody else was seeing like 
alien bug people. 

456
00:27:20,480 --> 00:27:22,800
And so he was like, whoa, these 
are fucking people. 

457
00:27:22,800 --> 00:27:26,600
They're just poor. 
They're just like not, you know,

458
00:27:26,600 --> 00:27:28,920
modernized. 
They're just in this land living

459
00:27:28,920 --> 00:27:32,240
in huts and shit or like broken 
down buildings, but like they 

460
00:27:32,240 --> 00:27:33,960
got families and shit. 
So he's not killing these 

461
00:27:34,040 --> 00:27:37,440
people. 
And so Fast forward and they try

462
00:27:37,440 --> 00:27:41,720
and like fix him or whatever. 
And yeah, basically that's it. 

463
00:27:42,080 --> 00:27:46,000
So I'm like looking at these 
things, I'm like, yo, what is 

464
00:27:46,000 --> 00:27:48,360
this misinformation? 
Like, have I been given 

465
00:27:48,360 --> 00:27:51,240
misinformation about 
lanternflies? 

466
00:27:51,240 --> 00:27:53,320
Because it's never felt right to
like, kill him. 

467
00:27:53,320 --> 00:27:58,880
And it scares me how much like, 
adrenaline kicks in people and 

468
00:27:58,880 --> 00:28:02,960
they feel like rewarded, like 
they did some good in the world 

469
00:28:03,240 --> 00:28:06,040
for stomping on these fucking 
lanternflies. 

470
00:28:06,040 --> 00:28:10,360
Like, I don't know, bro. 
And my whole atomic living 

471
00:28:10,880 --> 00:28:12,840
language. 
And what I'm learning when you 

472
00:28:12,840 --> 00:28:15,480
fuse that with yoga is that 
everything does have a purpose, 

473
00:28:15,840 --> 00:28:17,840
you know, even if its purpose is
destruction. 

474
00:28:17,840 --> 00:28:20,480
Like even with getting sick, 
even with getting a parasite, 

475
00:28:20,480 --> 00:28:22,880
right? 
It's a sign that something has 

476
00:28:22,880 --> 00:28:24,280
to change. 
You have to do something 

477
00:28:24,280 --> 00:28:27,000
different. 
So the invitation of things that

478
00:28:27,000 --> 00:28:31,200
are seemingly purposeless, 
illness, disease, disruption of 

479
00:28:31,200 --> 00:28:35,160
rhythm, that's all it does. 
It's it's designed to redirect 

480
00:28:35,160 --> 00:28:39,120
you to whatever your rhythm is. 
So I don't know if killing these

481
00:28:39,120 --> 00:28:44,000
things is the the way that we, 
you know, take care of nature, 

482
00:28:44,000 --> 00:28:46,200
but it's something ain't right 
about it. 

483
00:28:46,200 --> 00:28:49,280
I'm asking questions. 
And I shout out to the Black 

484
00:28:49,280 --> 00:28:52,240
Mirror creator for that episode 
because it made me look at shit 

485
00:28:52,240 --> 00:28:54,280
a lot different than I would 
before. 

486
00:28:55,080 --> 00:28:57,960
So yeah, I just ask questions. 
That's it. 

487
00:28:58,040 --> 00:29:02,280
And a lot of my teaching is it 
comes from a lens of curiosity. 

488
00:29:03,400 --> 00:29:07,200
So I yeah, if you're somebody 
who's looking for somebody to 

489
00:29:07,200 --> 00:29:10,160
come in and talk to your 
organization about how to be 

490
00:29:10,160 --> 00:29:13,720
stable, free or how to minimize 
stable in your practice or with 

491
00:29:13,720 --> 00:29:16,280
your patients, your clients, I'm
in a much better place than I 

492
00:29:16,280 --> 00:29:18,720
was several months ago when 
people were reaching out to me 

493
00:29:18,720 --> 00:29:21,480
and ask me about this. 
So I can like, I can, I can 

494
00:29:21,480 --> 00:29:23,960
speak to this a lot better. 
Now look at this guy. 

495
00:29:23,960 --> 00:29:25,920
See, there's one right here just
chilling. 

496
00:29:26,000 --> 00:29:28,560
Where are you going, though? 
Like, why do you walk on the 

497
00:29:28,560 --> 00:29:33,600
sidewalk when you see what are 
you looking for, What do you see

498
00:29:33,600 --> 00:29:36,840
over there, 'cause then like if 
I try and raise my foot to stomp

499
00:29:36,840 --> 00:29:42,480
on it, it jumps. 
I don't know, I just let me see.

500
00:29:42,480 --> 00:29:45,400
I'm gonna follow it for a little
bit while I finish this podcast 

501
00:29:45,400 --> 00:29:48,200
episode recording and see what 
it does. 

502
00:29:48,480 --> 00:29:53,360
But yeah, it's kind of big 
though, so I don't know. 

503
00:29:53,480 --> 00:30:01,200
Anyways, yeah, I very much just 
like appreciate everybody's who 

504
00:30:01,520 --> 00:30:04,640
everybody's involvement, the 
community that this has been, 

505
00:30:04,880 --> 00:30:07,760
this is really giving me a sense
of purpose, is giving an outlet 

506
00:30:07,760 --> 00:30:10,480
for my anger. 
While I'm not like an angry 

507
00:30:10,480 --> 00:30:16,640
person, the anger that I have 
toward suicide that I have 

508
00:30:16,640 --> 00:30:24,400
toward people, not people 
feeling like they don't have a 

509
00:30:24,400 --> 00:30:27,880
choice, like that anger that I 
feel is directed towards 

510
00:30:27,880 --> 00:30:29,880
something. 
And it wouldn't be, it wouldn't 

511
00:30:29,880 --> 00:30:33,480
be as focused, it wouldn't be as
aligned as it is. 

512
00:30:33,680 --> 00:30:39,240
It wouldn't be what it is had it
not been for people's 

513
00:30:39,240 --> 00:30:41,000
willingness to share their 
experiences with me. 

514
00:30:41,320 --> 00:30:44,840
So I appreciate y'all. 
I appreciate the people who come

515
00:30:44,840 --> 00:30:47,760
here and you listen to the 
podcast, you support the 

516
00:30:47,760 --> 00:30:49,360
podcast. 
Maybe you reach out for a 

517
00:30:49,360 --> 00:30:53,000
support call, maybe you join the
support group, maybe you share 

518
00:30:53,000 --> 00:30:55,840
the resources. 
Maybe you introduce me to 

519
00:30:55,840 --> 00:30:58,760
somebody who later brings me in 
to speak. 

520
00:31:00,360 --> 00:31:01,920
And I, I like I said, I 
appreciate that. 

521
00:31:01,920 --> 00:31:06,120
Thank you for that. 
And I'm, I'm doing what I'm, I'm

522
00:31:06,120 --> 00:31:09,080
doing, I'm supposed to do. 
And yeah, I feel, I feel 

523
00:31:09,080 --> 00:31:11,040
different. 
I feel lighter. 

524
00:31:11,040 --> 00:31:15,880
I feel like I got some some 
personal validation as well from

525
00:31:16,200 --> 00:31:20,840
just yesterday and being able to
do the presenting that I've done

526
00:31:20,840 --> 00:31:24,320
and maintaining the connections,
relationships that I have. 

527
00:31:24,560 --> 00:31:28,600
It's it's fucking beautiful. 
It's fucking beautiful. 

528
00:31:29,920 --> 00:31:36,280
So yeah, presentation yesterday 
went well, we want more of this 

529
00:31:36,280 --> 00:31:38,400
that I guess that's it. 
I just don't really feel like a 

530
00:31:38,400 --> 00:31:42,480
podcast episode, Like I ain't, I
don't know if I'm like running 

531
00:31:42,480 --> 00:31:44,840
out of shit to say, which I've 
thought about before, like I'm 

532
00:31:44,840 --> 00:31:47,520
running out of things to say. 
So if you somebody that wants to

533
00:31:47,520 --> 00:31:50,080
be interviewed on the podcast 
and you are ready to share your 

534
00:31:50,080 --> 00:31:52,680
experience, know that you can do
it anonymously. 

535
00:31:52,960 --> 00:31:57,280
You don't have to be anonymous 
if you don't want to, but I 

536
00:31:57,280 --> 00:32:01,240
invite you to talk to me. 
Reach out, go to 

537
00:32:01,240 --> 00:32:07,600
spfpp.org/podcast, Scroll down 
to the guest intake form, fill 

538
00:32:07,600 --> 00:32:12,560
that in for me and we can get 
things set up to where you can 

539
00:32:12,560 --> 00:32:14,560
be a guest on the Something 
Positive Positive People 

540
00:32:14,560 --> 00:32:16,560
podcast. 
I'm looking for people to share 

541
00:32:16,640 --> 00:32:20,560
their experiences. 
If you are someone who is living

542
00:32:20,560 --> 00:32:25,040
with herpes. 
If you are someone who is dating

543
00:32:25,040 --> 00:32:29,840
someone living with herpes, if 
you are somebody who works with 

544
00:32:30,040 --> 00:32:36,040
people living with herpes, any 
aspect or Ave. of herpes stigma 

545
00:32:36,040 --> 00:32:38,120
education. 
If you got anything to 

546
00:32:38,400 --> 00:32:42,320
contribute or if you got any 
input for us, please don't 

547
00:32:42,320 --> 00:32:45,080
hesitate to reach out. 
I need guests or otherwise we 

548
00:32:45,080 --> 00:32:47,000
don't get more of these. 
I'm going to just talk about 

549
00:32:47,000 --> 00:32:50,800
something that's been going on 
and that'll be podcast episode. 

550
00:32:50,800 --> 00:32:53,960
So if y'all want to see this 
thing contribute or continue 

551
00:32:54,160 --> 00:32:57,960
contribute all right till next 
time stay present.

