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So the Lord's been working on my
heart about realizing the 

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circumstances in life that cause
us pain. 

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It's always an act of Him to get
deeper inside of our hearts, to 

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show us what's inside of our 
hearts. 

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The Bible says the issues of 
life, they flow from the heart. 

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And oftentimes when we 
experience trouble and trials 

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and tribulations and struggles 
and all these things, we 

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automatically go to fixing the 
circumstances that are causing 

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our pain. 
What is it outside of me that's 

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the problem that I need to stop,
that that needs to be abated. 

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Cease and desist these issues, 
these people, these problems, 

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this, this, all these things 
outside here that we're going to

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be able to fix how we feel if we
fix these things out here. 

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And while that might work for a 
season, it doesn't solve the 

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root of the issue. 
Every time we run up against 

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problems, struggles, stripes, 
the Lord is showing us something

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that's inside of our hearts that
he's trying to touch, that he's 

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trying to deliver us from a 
wrong identity. 

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He's trying to make right a 
shadowy place in our hearts. 

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He's trying to light up 
something we're holding on to, 

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that we need to let go of, 
something we're letting go of, 

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that we need to hold on to. 
But it's, it's rarely ever about

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the circumstances outside of 
ourselves. 

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It's always about our hearts. 
Our God is a very, very intimate

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God. 
And intimacy doesn't always feel

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good. 
It's not always roses and 

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butterflies and all those woo 
woo good, good feelings. 

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And it's not sometimes there's 
tears and brokenness and 

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lamentations and crying yourself
to sleep and waking up in tears.

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Sometimes that's what intimacy 
is. 

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Sometimes intimacy is showing 
your darkest, darkest things you

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believe, and that's the kind of 
intimacy that the Lord wants to 

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partake with you in. 
Because in those dark places, 

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when His love comes in, when His
goodness comes in, it doesn't 

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matter anymore what the 
circumstances outside of you 

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are. 
Something inside of your heart 

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has been touched by His love, 
and that has a greater impact 

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than than altering the external 
circumstances of life. 

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Whenever something comes up, 
whenever something, as they say,

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triggers you, instead of trying 
to get that thing outside of you

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to stop, pick up that thing that
is being triggered. 

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Hold it up to the Lord and say, 
look at this, Jesus. 

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Look at this thing that's coming
up in me. 

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Look at this rage that's coming 
up in me, this bitterness that's

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coming up at me. 
Focus on this with me, Lord. 

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I want to. 
I choose to take my eyes off of 

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what's happening around outside 
of me. 

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I refuse to give Satan any of my
energy, any of my pain, any of 

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my sorrow, any of my 
frustration. 

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I'm not giving him credit for 
nothing. 

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I'm like, look at this bundle of
bitterness, Jesus. 

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Look at it with me. 
Tell me what it is. 

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Speak to it man. 
When we do that and we start 

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seeing that the things that 
trigger us in our lives are 

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really about us and not about 
the circumstance or the trigger 

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itself, it revolutionizes your 
person because you can't live 

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from the outside in. 
You have to live from the inside

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out. 
And it really is self deception 

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to think we live from the 
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We cannot. 
We cannot live that way. 

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And so next time some strong 
emotion comes up, instead of 

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pointing outside of yourself, 
instead of trying to solve the 

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problem by changing the 
circumstances, look at it with 

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the Lord. 
Be honest with Him about it. 

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Tell Him exactly how you feel. 
He's not easily offended. 

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Ask His love to come in and 
touch those places. 

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Surrender it to Him. 
You know it doesn't always 

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change the circumstance, but it 
does change your heart and 

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little by little, that change of
the heart changes your 

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circumstances of life. 
The issues of life flow from 

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your heart and when your heart 
changes, the issues in your life

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change. 
See, I have found in life over 

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the years that He sows his best 
seeds in the darkest soil, those

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ancient paths that build 
humility into the soul where you

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really get broken. 
You get so deeply broken when 

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you let the Lord into those 
places and follow Him in the 

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day-to-day, moment to moment of 
your life. 

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Being real honest with Him, 
really, really honest and giving

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him every thought and every 
feeling. 

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Not blaming the enemy, not 
blaming your spouse, not blaming

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your Mama, not blaming your kids
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or the woo woo weirdo stuff 
that's out there. 

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When you start getting in there 
with the Lord and taking 

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everything that is happening 
inside of you and giving it to 

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the Lord, all that pain, that is
an ancient path of deep 

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humility. 
Deep humility that cannot. 

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It is incorruptible. 
It's that place that Jesus's 

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heart is. 
It's incorruptible because 

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that's what He did. 
That's who He is. 

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That's who He was when He was 
here. 

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It's what He demonstrated. 
It's literally taking the heart 

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of the Lord and living from that
place. 

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He sows His richest seeds in the
darkest places. 

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It doesn't feel like it when 
you're going through it. 

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It does not feel fruitful when 
you're going through it, but 

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trust and believe that if you 
hold on to the Lord in those 

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dark and dreary and depressing 
and destitute and desolate 

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places, if you look to Him day 
by day, little by little you are

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growing into a mighty oak of 
righteousness. 

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And the day will come where you 
will look at where you are. 

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And you'll be like, I don't know
how I got over. 

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I don't know how it happened. 
Because he sews in darkness. 

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Darkness was under his feet. 
Thunderings and lightnings and 

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hailstones and coals of fire. 
Which one of those things is 

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pleasant? 
Which one of those things feels 

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good? 
None of those, none of those 

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things feel good. 
OK, but in that spot, probably 

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where some of you are right now,
they hold the highest potential 

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for growth. 
It holds the highest potential 

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for your betterment. 
It holds the most potential for 

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your deep and unwavering loyalty
to the King of Kings. 

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It is our soul that does that 
work. 

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It is our heart that does that 
work. 

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That's the that is the the place
of his, of his interest, of his 

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being. 
Where he sews the most is in 

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that broken. 
He doesn't despise that. 

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He does not despise it. 
Don't think, oh, I got to get 

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this right so that I can be 
close to Jesus. 

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I can be a good Christian. 
No, no, no, no, no. 

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If you're in a dark place, 
that's OK. 

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Make it a productive dark place 
by leaning into the Lord and 

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giving him your everything 
moment by moment. 

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Give it all to him. 
Don't blame Satan. 

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Don't do don't do that stuff. 
He doesn't get any credit. 

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He's a he is. 
He is a open show. 

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We shake our head at him and say
wow, this was the one that 

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deceived the world. 
No, no, no, no, no. 

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All those adversarial 
circumstances, they are here for

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your betterment. 
They are here to drive you into 

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the cross. 
They are here to take out the 

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the weak places of your 
foundation. 

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They are here to deliver you, to
deliver your heart from having 

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mixed loyalties. 
It is deliverance. 

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It doesn't feel good, but that's
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That's OK. 
You can be honest about those 

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things with him. 
The path of humility is an 

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ancient path and it comes with 
lamentation. 

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It comes with trembling and fear
and not seeing the whole 

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picture. 
But that's OK. 

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The Lord never gives up. 
He's not a quitter. 

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It's us who quits. 
And if you just hold on, you are

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going to see miracles. 
So don't give up. 

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Keep going, keep trusting Him, 
keep listening to His voice, 

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keep holding on to the hem of 
His garment, because you will 

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overcome, because He has already
overcome. 

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Music. 
Music.