1 00:00:01,200 --> 00:00:03,320 Hello folks. This is Princess. 2 00:00:03,360 --> 00:00:06,520 You are listening to the Millennial Mustard Seed Podcast. 3 00:00:06,600 --> 00:00:09,040 Thanks for listening. Don't forget to share with your 4 00:00:09,040 --> 00:00:11,640 friends. That's tough. 5 00:00:11,640 --> 00:00:15,120 We're in a very tough spot. I think that what we're doing 6 00:00:15,120 --> 00:00:19,520 right now is a great benefit in virtue because it's an end 7 00:00:19,520 --> 00:00:23,720 around between this whole corrupt informational system, 8 00:00:23,720 --> 00:00:27,080 media system. We claim to believe in a God who 9 00:00:27,080 --> 00:00:28,680 spoke the universe into existence. 10 00:00:29,280 --> 00:00:31,800 And literally raised himself from the dead. 11 00:00:32,920 --> 00:00:35,720 And yet we're not going to believe that anything else 12 00:00:35,720 --> 00:00:38,800 exists in the spirit realm, even though his word tells us that 13 00:00:38,800 --> 00:00:41,560 they do. Their bodies weren't permitted 14 00:00:41,560 --> 00:00:45,840 to go to sleep like humans do, and they weren't permitted to go 15 00:00:45,840 --> 00:00:48,200 to heaven. So they wander the earth. 16 00:00:49,320 --> 00:00:52,840 You know, I've seen the eyes turn black to the numb tongues 17 00:00:52,840 --> 00:00:56,920 being spoken. These giants were way up in the 18 00:00:56,920 --> 00:00:59,350 island. The young Braves, the young men 19 00:00:59,470 --> 00:01:02,310 would hide them in the trees. They wait for one of these 12 20 00:01:02,310 --> 00:01:05,430 footers to come walking down the bath, and they would jump on 21 00:01:05,430 --> 00:01:07,950 them and kill them and drag them back to the village. 22 00:01:07,950 --> 00:01:09,670 And the village would feast on the body. 23 00:01:15,270 --> 00:01:16,990 Then people start to get weapons. 24 00:01:16,990 --> 00:01:18,790 They start to get armor. They start to build cities. 25 00:01:18,790 --> 00:01:20,110 They start to fortify their cities. 26 00:01:20,500 --> 00:01:22,940 Now God lets. Down and there's violence 27 00:01:22,980 --> 00:01:26,340 everywhere. The battle, this war that we are 28 00:01:26,340 --> 00:01:29,300 at is not against each other. It's against these 29 00:01:29,300 --> 00:01:31,860 principalities and these rulers and these archons In the high 30 00:01:31,860 --> 00:01:34,420 places, it's. Really worthwhile to read the 31 00:01:34,420 --> 00:01:37,740 Bible yourself. Fear is one of the primary 32 00:01:37,740 --> 00:01:42,140 drivers of mind control because we have to take every thought 33 00:01:42,140 --> 00:01:48,060 captive and resist fear. You're going to have a 34 00:01:48,060 --> 00:01:51,880 testimony. That is a justice case against 35 00:01:52,080 --> 00:02:06,350 the Kingdom of darkness. Welcome back to the Millennial 36 00:02:06,350 --> 00:02:09,430 Mustard Seed Podcast. I'm your host, Rod and thank you 37 00:02:09,430 --> 00:02:12,470 for being here with me. I have a great episode in store 38 00:02:12,470 --> 00:02:14,990 for you guys. I am joined by Carly. 39 00:02:15,150 --> 00:02:16,990 She is a disciple of Dan de Balls. 40 00:02:16,990 --> 00:02:19,270 She reached out to me. She wanted to share her 41 00:02:19,270 --> 00:02:20,910 testimony. This is powerful. 42 00:02:21,230 --> 00:02:22,510 It's an emotional roller coaster. 43 00:02:22,510 --> 00:02:26,470 We barely get into Carly's full story, but we just this is an 44 00:02:26,470 --> 00:02:30,790 introduction and we jump around some amazing topics about how 45 00:02:30,790 --> 00:02:33,830 God has been healing her, some of the traumas that she has been 46 00:02:33,830 --> 00:02:34,750 through. Her life. 47 00:02:34,750 --> 00:02:38,950 And then there's some surprise cliffhangers for towards the end 48 00:02:38,950 --> 00:02:42,190 of this episode about her Bigfoot encounter that she had. 49 00:02:42,390 --> 00:02:44,470 Yeah, you heard me right, Sasquatch. 50 00:02:45,150 --> 00:02:47,990 And it's just an edifying and encouraging story. 51 00:02:47,990 --> 00:02:50,990 Overall, it's it needs to be talked about. 52 00:02:50,990 --> 00:02:52,350 And I know other people out there. 53 00:02:52,710 --> 00:02:54,990 You guys have a story. You got something you need to 54 00:02:54,990 --> 00:02:57,990 get off your chest. This is the place to do it. 55 00:02:58,380 --> 00:03:00,980 Reach out to me. Read the show notes you guys. 56 00:03:01,220 --> 00:03:04,860 You're able to get my e-mail address there and find all kinds 57 00:03:04,860 --> 00:03:08,660 of recommendations that I have there, like Dan de Balls, Bride 58 00:03:08,660 --> 00:03:11,930 ministry. Website which you can go to to 59 00:03:11,970 --> 00:03:15,450 get prayer or counseling if you need counseling in this space 60 00:03:15,450 --> 00:03:17,690 for any of the traumas that you've been through in this life 61 00:03:18,090 --> 00:03:20,890 or just to help you along your journey. 62 00:03:21,330 --> 00:03:25,210 You can also find my website for the podcast in the show notes. 63 00:03:25,410 --> 00:03:28,050 You guys leave me that five star rating and review. 64 00:03:28,050 --> 00:03:30,570 That's how you help the show grow. 65 00:03:30,570 --> 00:03:33,130 You help me reach more people just like me and you. 66 00:03:33,780 --> 00:03:35,460 And you guys, please consider donating. 67 00:03:35,460 --> 00:03:38,740 Shout out to Isaiah who came back and donated again. 68 00:03:38,740 --> 00:03:40,900 My brother. We cover your prayers. 69 00:03:40,900 --> 00:03:43,900 We thank you guys for the encouragement and for helping 70 00:03:43,900 --> 00:03:46,580 this podcast to grow. We could not do it without you. 71 00:03:47,540 --> 00:03:52,420 But with all that being said, I am ready to jump into this 72 00:03:52,460 --> 00:03:54,420 episode. You guys ready? 73 00:03:55,980 --> 00:03:58,500 Let's go. Let's go. 74 00:04:10,320 --> 00:04:12,440 My name is Carly. I'm from Minnesota. 75 00:04:12,440 --> 00:04:15,360 We're going to be talking about my life story and the 76 00:04:15,360 --> 00:04:19,480 faithfulness of God today. Welcome to the Millennial Must 77 00:04:19,519 --> 00:04:25,260 Receive podcast. Carly, that was an awesome 78 00:04:25,260 --> 00:04:27,740 introduction and I'm happy to be with you. 79 00:04:28,620 --> 00:04:32,100 This is going to be a really awesome conversation, so I just 80 00:04:32,100 --> 00:04:34,700 want to start off with asking you how did you find the 81 00:04:34,700 --> 00:04:38,220 podcast? My pastor is Dan Duvall, who you 82 00:04:38,220 --> 00:04:40,820 have interviewed, so that's why I found it. 83 00:04:41,940 --> 00:04:45,780 That's so awesome. Yeah, Dan is a really awesome 84 00:04:45,780 --> 00:04:46,340 guy. I. 85 00:04:47,390 --> 00:04:50,310 I think very highly of him and the work that he's done, 86 00:04:50,310 --> 00:04:53,110 especially with the prayers. I always tell people my personal 87 00:04:53,110 --> 00:04:58,550 life, his prayers are powerful. I believe in strategic prayer, 88 00:04:58,990 --> 00:05:03,030 and God also talks about precatory prayer in the word. 89 00:05:03,030 --> 00:05:05,950 I mean, that's, you know, the prayer that David was using 90 00:05:05,950 --> 00:05:08,310 against hordes of enemies that were after him. 91 00:05:08,830 --> 00:05:11,470 And I think it's something that's that the church doesn't 92 00:05:11,470 --> 00:05:14,150 really put a lot of focus on. So that's so cool that Dan 93 00:05:14,150 --> 00:05:17,520 Duvall is your pastor. He's he's an awesome guy. 94 00:05:17,520 --> 00:05:18,760 Yeah, he's been on the show twice. 95 00:05:19,720 --> 00:05:23,480 We've talked a couple times off air and there's nobody quite 96 00:05:23,480 --> 00:05:26,160 like him. Indeed, it's really true. 97 00:05:26,920 --> 00:05:30,800 I've also to piggyback on what you said about the strategic 98 00:05:30,800 --> 00:05:34,160 prayers. I've definitely believe that in 99 00:05:34,160 --> 00:05:37,960 this season, in this generation, it's becoming more and more 100 00:05:37,960 --> 00:05:42,320 about praying with wisdom. I think generations before got 101 00:05:42,320 --> 00:05:46,110 by for a long time with Lord. Please help such and such. 102 00:05:46,110 --> 00:05:51,670 Lord, fix our government. You know, very vanilla prayers. 103 00:05:52,590 --> 00:05:59,070 But the way that the enemy is operating, when you compare that 104 00:05:59,070 --> 00:06:02,550 to the revelation of our identity in Christ and how 105 00:06:02,630 --> 00:06:06,030 intentionally and intensely the Lord is unpacking who and what 106 00:06:06,030 --> 00:06:11,670 we really are, it's like you can see that these things are rising 107 00:06:11,670 --> 00:06:15,110 in intensity together. So the more the enemy is 108 00:06:15,110 --> 00:06:19,870 utilizing wicked constructs in the Asheville realm or utilizing 109 00:06:19,870 --> 00:06:23,750 inequities and bloodlines to get whatever he wants get to get 110 00:06:23,750 --> 00:06:28,310 going On the contrary, the revelation of who and what we 111 00:06:28,310 --> 00:06:32,670 really are is becoming more solid and people, I tell you, 112 00:06:32,670 --> 00:06:36,390 there's, I don't know anybody in my circle who isn't asking that 113 00:06:36,390 --> 00:06:37,550 question. Who am I? 114 00:06:38,540 --> 00:06:42,300 What is my identity in Christ? What did he mean when he said 115 00:06:42,300 --> 00:06:43,940 greater things? Will you do? 116 00:06:45,460 --> 00:06:49,620 What did he say in John 17 when he asked us to be one with him 117 00:06:50,580 --> 00:06:53,860 as he is one with the Father? And I think that these the 118 00:06:53,860 --> 00:06:59,860 importance of our identity is playing a lot into how effective 119 00:06:59,900 --> 00:07:03,980 our strategic warfare is, because it's no longer that 120 00:07:03,980 --> 00:07:07,510 vague vanilla prayer. We're going for the constructs 121 00:07:07,510 --> 00:07:11,670 of the enemy now with the weapons of of not seeking 122 00:07:11,670 --> 00:07:14,590 victory as if it's something that's beyond us, but fighting 123 00:07:14,590 --> 00:07:17,230 from the place of victory. Because the essence that has 124 00:07:17,230 --> 00:07:23,110 made me is victory. I don't strive to be something. 125 00:07:23,750 --> 00:07:28,550 The essence of Yahweh is in my DNA, you understand. 126 00:07:28,550 --> 00:07:32,550 So it's like no longer fighting for victory, but from victory. 127 00:07:32,550 --> 00:07:35,800 Because I am victory. You are victory. 128 00:07:35,800 --> 00:07:39,440 It's not something you seek to aspire to achieve someday down 129 00:07:39,440 --> 00:07:41,120 the road. It's an expression of your 130 00:07:41,120 --> 00:07:43,680 identity. And so when we talk about dance 131 00:07:43,680 --> 00:07:50,120 prayers, what he's expressing is the truth of who he is and the. 132 00:07:50,120 --> 00:07:53,720 Reason why I think it rings so strong with you and with other 133 00:07:53,720 --> 00:07:57,120 people is because it's like we've been like the Bible talks 134 00:07:57,120 --> 00:08:01,640 about the deer panting for the water of life and now in that 135 00:08:01,640 --> 00:08:05,230 water of life is our identity because he is in us. 136 00:08:05,750 --> 00:08:08,670 What else is there like? The revelation of Christ is the 137 00:08:08,670 --> 00:08:11,670 revelation of us as He made us to be. 138 00:08:12,590 --> 00:08:16,190 It is him who works in us and through us to cause his will to 139 00:08:16,190 --> 00:08:18,310 come about. And you're hitting on so many 140 00:08:18,310 --> 00:08:23,310 important points and this podcast, this is the space for 141 00:08:23,310 --> 00:08:24,990 that. This is the Millennium Mustard 142 00:08:24,990 --> 00:08:26,230 Seed. Literally. 143 00:08:26,230 --> 00:08:29,830 It's just funny that. There's so many churches out 144 00:08:29,830 --> 00:08:32,510 there on every corner in every neighborhood in America. 145 00:08:32,750 --> 00:08:34,630 And a lot of people have these questions. 146 00:08:34,630 --> 00:08:36,429 They've been systematically desensitized. 147 00:08:36,429 --> 00:08:38,990 They've been dealing with SRA. They've been dealing with all 148 00:08:38,990 --> 00:08:41,750 types of different damaging effects from the enemy. 149 00:08:41,909 --> 00:08:45,030 Some willing participants, some unwilling participants are maybe 150 00:08:45,030 --> 00:08:46,750 they some people are being used by the enemy. 151 00:08:46,750 --> 00:08:50,470 They don't even know it. And we have a generation of 152 00:08:50,470 --> 00:08:53,360 people. That are looking for better 153 00:08:53,360 --> 00:08:54,800 answers. Where can I go? 154 00:08:54,920 --> 00:08:56,880 What does God really say about me, man? 155 00:08:56,880 --> 00:08:58,280 I feel it right now. Wow. 156 00:08:58,280 --> 00:09:01,080 I'm excited for this interview. This is the first time we 157 00:09:01,080 --> 00:09:04,640 talked, Carly and I can tell you're a disciple of Dan Duvall. 158 00:09:07,200 --> 00:09:08,560 Yeah, here's that. I can tell. 159 00:09:08,800 --> 00:09:12,280 Yeah, it's so cool. Well, listen, let's start 160 00:09:12,280 --> 00:09:13,960 jumping into your story a little bit. 161 00:09:15,760 --> 00:09:19,970 You know, just give us, like. A 30,000 foot overview, if you 162 00:09:19,970 --> 00:09:24,410 will, about who you are. You know how you grew up, and 163 00:09:24,410 --> 00:09:25,850 let's just start diving in your story. 164 00:09:25,850 --> 00:09:27,850 I'm just going to ask you questions as we go along. 165 00:09:27,850 --> 00:09:30,570 There's a bunch of topics I really like to cover with you, 166 00:09:30,570 --> 00:09:33,050 so let's go. Yeah. 167 00:09:33,410 --> 00:09:38,130 The 30,000 foot view of my story is a story of coming into 168 00:09:38,130 --> 00:09:42,810 wholeness, and there's something about trauma at a young age that 169 00:09:42,810 --> 00:09:45,570 causes you to become many different people. 170 00:09:45,810 --> 00:09:50,140 It's like, I will be different depending on the situation so 171 00:09:50,140 --> 00:09:53,740 that I feel safe. And sometimes the identities 172 00:09:53,740 --> 00:09:57,980 that I have found in my trauma have been not quite me. 173 00:09:59,140 --> 00:10:06,060 And so it's been a it's been a healing journey, it's been a 174 00:10:06,060 --> 00:10:10,260 broken journey. And I can't say like my parents 175 00:10:10,260 --> 00:10:12,420 were maliciously trying to hurt me. 176 00:10:12,420 --> 00:10:15,300 I wouldn't go that far. And I know for a lot of people, 177 00:10:15,300 --> 00:10:19,360 that's their story. But that wasn't the case for me. 178 00:10:19,360 --> 00:10:27,840 I I found myself victim as a young child to sexual 179 00:10:27,840 --> 00:10:30,520 perversion, and I can go more into that. 180 00:10:30,680 --> 00:10:34,480 And then again as a teenager. And I lost my dad at the age of 181 00:10:34,480 --> 00:10:36,120 10. My parents were divorced. 182 00:10:36,120 --> 00:10:39,920 My mom was remarried to a man that was just not cool, not 183 00:10:39,920 --> 00:10:45,380 safe. And when my dad died, I knew he 184 00:10:45,380 --> 00:10:49,940 wasn't gone, and I sought him, but I saw him in the wrong ways. 185 00:10:51,500 --> 00:10:56,940 And as I grew up, my mom then had separated from my stepdad, 186 00:10:56,940 --> 00:11:01,700 and I was doing a lot of drugs, like it was my escape. 187 00:11:02,780 --> 00:11:09,820 It made me feel like I might have joy or companionship, just 188 00:11:09,820 --> 00:11:13,020 freedom from the darkness that was in my heart. 189 00:11:15,320 --> 00:11:20,440 And I moved to Chicago and got brutally sexually assaulted, 190 00:11:22,040 --> 00:11:27,400 Came back to Minnesota. I wanted to get my life right, 191 00:11:27,640 --> 00:11:33,480 but I just couldn't do it. And I ended up getting married. 192 00:11:33,760 --> 00:11:35,600 I met and married a man in three months. 193 00:11:35,600 --> 00:11:39,320 I met him at the bar, married him, married him three months 194 00:11:39,320 --> 00:11:41,760 later. He gave me two beautiful sons. 195 00:11:41,960 --> 00:11:46,260 The marriage wasn't safe and it dissolved. 196 00:11:47,140 --> 00:11:53,620 And I went back into the witchcraft stuff, and I came to 197 00:11:53,700 --> 00:11:58,420 a point in my life that it was I needed something else, and there 198 00:11:58,420 --> 00:12:04,560 was someone else. I want to ask you, were your 199 00:12:04,560 --> 00:12:10,080 parents involved in witchcraft, or was it a satanic occult or 200 00:12:10,080 --> 00:12:12,760 anything that you're aware of? I mean, how did you really kind 201 00:12:12,760 --> 00:12:15,160 of find yourself in these situations at a young age? 202 00:12:17,240 --> 00:12:20,800 Not overtly, but as I've grown up, I've learned that there's 203 00:12:20,800 --> 00:12:25,080 not a lot of room between Catholicism and witchcraft. 204 00:12:26,120 --> 00:12:28,120 There's no conflict in the spirit there. 205 00:12:28,750 --> 00:12:31,510 And that's not to say that our Catholic brothers and sisters 206 00:12:31,510 --> 00:12:33,870 who go to Mass and do these things are practicing 207 00:12:33,870 --> 00:12:36,950 witchcraft. But it's to say that you can go 208 00:12:37,790 --> 00:12:42,670 to Catholic Church on one day and go practice witchcraft on 209 00:12:42,670 --> 00:12:47,230 another day and not feel that condemnation, that that what's 210 00:12:47,230 --> 00:12:51,470 the word, conviction. Thank you, Holy Spirit, that 211 00:12:51,470 --> 00:12:54,350 that a person who was really walking with the Lord would feel 212 00:12:55,420 --> 00:12:57,020 there's not a lot of conflict there. 213 00:12:57,020 --> 00:13:00,540 So no, they weren't, you know? And I don't know because the 214 00:13:00,540 --> 00:13:02,420 weirdness started when I was really young. 215 00:13:02,420 --> 00:13:05,780 My first memory of life, I was 18 months old, and I've 216 00:13:05,780 --> 00:13:07,980 confirmed this with my mom. I was like, mom, do you remember 217 00:13:07,980 --> 00:13:11,140 that time I was sitting on your bed and you gave me like a pile 218 00:13:11,140 --> 00:13:13,180 of raisins to eat? But you also had emptied your 219 00:13:13,180 --> 00:13:14,540 purse. So there was like change and 220 00:13:14,540 --> 00:13:17,300 stuff on the bed. And I was, I was eating the 221 00:13:17,300 --> 00:13:20,060 raisins and then I stuck a Raisin up my nose and I got 222 00:13:20,060 --> 00:13:21,660 really scared because I couldn't get it out. 223 00:13:21,660 --> 00:13:23,180 And then you came in the room and started panicky. 224 00:13:23,180 --> 00:13:28,670 She was like, Carly, you were like 18 months old when that 225 00:13:28,670 --> 00:13:29,870 happened. You remember that? 226 00:13:29,910 --> 00:13:34,870 I was like, yeah, I can remember dreams from being a year old, 227 00:13:36,110 --> 00:13:40,630 just strange. And you know, I, as I got older, 228 00:13:41,350 --> 00:13:46,230 my mom and my dad, they didn't, they really struggled. 229 00:13:46,230 --> 00:13:48,070 They were young parents. They married right out of high 230 00:13:48,070 --> 00:13:51,590 school. They had my brother and they 231 00:13:51,590 --> 00:13:53,590 were really struggling financially when I was growing 232 00:13:53,590 --> 00:13:55,490 up. They had an airplane because my 233 00:13:55,490 --> 00:13:58,290 dad was a pilot and two bikes, no car. 234 00:13:58,850 --> 00:14:02,290 So they were biking places and then flying places and then 235 00:14:02,290 --> 00:14:04,570 Superior, WI. That's a different kind of cold 236 00:14:04,570 --> 00:14:06,090 people. If you're from anywhere other 237 00:14:06,090 --> 00:14:09,930 than northern Minnesota, Wisconsin, you just don't know 238 00:14:09,930 --> 00:14:12,370 cold, like we know cold. It's a different, it's 239 00:14:12,370 --> 00:14:14,770 offensive, it is a disrespectful kind of cold. 240 00:14:15,090 --> 00:14:17,650 So they would live, they would live their lives like this, 241 00:14:17,690 --> 00:14:22,530 right? And and my dad chose to be be 242 00:14:22,530 --> 00:14:24,530 really mean to my mom. I don't. 243 00:14:24,890 --> 00:14:29,330 I don't have memories of some of the things that she has said to 244 00:14:29,330 --> 00:14:31,290 me. And not to downplay my dad but 245 00:14:31,290 --> 00:14:33,450 just as I've asked questions as I've gotten older. 246 00:14:33,450 --> 00:14:36,210 But I can remember them arguing. And I remember one particular 247 00:14:36,210 --> 00:14:38,810 argument. I was maybe two and they were 248 00:14:38,810 --> 00:14:42,930 going back and forth and I remember standing in the kitchen 249 00:14:42,970 --> 00:14:47,090 crying for peanut butter. But I can remember thinking in 250 00:14:47,090 --> 00:14:50,850 my little tiny brain, if I can just get them to focus on me, 251 00:14:50,850 --> 00:14:57,610 they'll stop hurting each other. And this is this is how trauma 252 00:14:57,610 --> 00:15:01,890 starts. When a child has to be the one 253 00:15:01,890 --> 00:15:09,650 to save their parents from destruction, whether that's 254 00:15:09,650 --> 00:15:16,810 perceived or actual, it does something to a child that it it 255 00:15:16,810 --> 00:15:22,570 breaks their heart. And and as I got older, you 256 00:15:22,570 --> 00:15:26,410 know, my parents divorced and my mom remarried. 257 00:15:27,770 --> 00:15:30,210 But in that time, like I remember I was about four years 258 00:15:30,210 --> 00:15:34,650 old and I remembered being able to put my fingertips together 259 00:15:35,050 --> 00:15:39,970 and pull them apart and see lightning in between my fingers. 260 00:15:40,570 --> 00:15:42,890 But I could never do it when other people are around. 261 00:15:42,890 --> 00:15:44,450 Or like I remember being able to. 262 00:15:45,730 --> 00:15:49,450 I used to call it in my mind, making space under my feet, but 263 00:15:49,450 --> 00:15:54,050 I was levitating. But I could never do it when 264 00:15:54,050 --> 00:15:57,770 other people were around. So it begs the question, how? 265 00:15:58,010 --> 00:16:03,050 What's where? Where did I learn that? 266 00:16:05,970 --> 00:16:07,930 I I don't have a real answer for that. 267 00:16:07,930 --> 00:16:11,730 I mean, through prayer and the revelations that the Holy 268 00:16:11,730 --> 00:16:14,740 Spirit's given me, I've I've just come to accept that these 269 00:16:14,740 --> 00:16:20,340 are bloodline things, like druidism in my bloodline and for 270 00:16:20,340 --> 00:16:22,540 some reason it just manifested in me. 271 00:16:22,540 --> 00:16:24,020 Maybe because I was more curious. 272 00:16:24,020 --> 00:16:28,340 I I really don't know. But it made me aware. 273 00:16:28,460 --> 00:16:31,780 And the other thing I could see energies like around flowers and 274 00:16:31,780 --> 00:16:35,580 around people colors. It looked like almost like a 275 00:16:35,580 --> 00:16:40,620 colorful smoke coming off of people. 276 00:16:42,050 --> 00:16:44,450 Yeah, like being able to see the OR aura. 277 00:16:45,170 --> 00:16:51,170 Yeah, yeah, Yeah. So my mom married my stepdad. 278 00:16:51,330 --> 00:16:55,010 It was terrible, folks. Lord Jesus, it was really. 279 00:16:55,010 --> 00:17:01,890 He was very mean to my mom. I remember one night in 280 00:17:01,890 --> 00:17:05,170 particular, I thought he was going to kill her. 281 00:17:06,970 --> 00:17:09,839 He came in looking for. He came in. 282 00:17:09,839 --> 00:17:14,839 My mom said I'm going to hide. I was probably 15 or so don't 283 00:17:14,839 --> 00:17:20,079 tell him where I am. And and I knew where the shotgun 284 00:17:20,079 --> 00:17:22,760 was. And he when he came in he looked 285 00:17:23,880 --> 00:17:28,280 evil like his eyes were bloodshot and red and he was 286 00:17:28,280 --> 00:17:31,240 storming around the house and some of this isn't that unusual. 287 00:17:31,240 --> 00:17:37,550 But this night it was a particularly dangerous thing was 288 00:17:37,550 --> 00:17:40,110 going on and my mom was hiding and I was hearing him run 289 00:17:40,110 --> 00:17:42,630 imaging through the closet but I had moved it. 290 00:17:45,830 --> 00:17:49,910 I had an instinct about it and I had moved it and he stormed 291 00:17:49,910 --> 00:17:52,310 around and swore and was swearing and he ended up leaving 292 00:17:52,310 --> 00:17:53,990 the house. But it wasn't that much longer 293 00:17:53,990 --> 00:17:57,070 after that. My mom was like, I'm my mom, A 294 00:17:57,070 --> 00:18:01,070 good Catholic girl said I'm leaving my husband, and that was 295 00:18:01,070 --> 00:18:05,560 her end of her second marriage. But it was a very volatile 296 00:18:05,560 --> 00:18:07,760 situation, and of course it wasn't all bad. 297 00:18:07,880 --> 00:18:11,320 The Lord is. This is the thing about telling 298 00:18:11,320 --> 00:18:14,600 hard stories that I never want to gloss over. 299 00:18:15,040 --> 00:18:21,440 God had ways of showing me his love, even though things were 300 00:18:23,360 --> 00:18:28,200 not safe at home. He gave me a friend named Keisha 301 00:18:28,200 --> 00:18:31,840 when I was 8 years old. She lived across the street and 302 00:18:31,840 --> 00:18:33,880 her family was very functional and healthy. 303 00:18:34,600 --> 00:18:37,360 I loved being over there. Mom loved her dad or dad loved 304 00:18:37,360 --> 00:18:41,200 her mom. There were no step people and 305 00:18:41,240 --> 00:18:44,120 and I got to see what that looks like and I got to have a a 306 00:18:44,120 --> 00:18:46,240 sister who loved me into this day. 307 00:18:47,160 --> 00:18:50,800 She's still my best friend and 43 now almost. 308 00:18:52,640 --> 00:18:57,680 But there were. It was like God gave me the 309 00:18:57,680 --> 00:19:02,640 ability to find fun. It was almost like that was his 310 00:19:04,240 --> 00:19:07,840 his relief Ave. for me. I could find fun anywhere. 311 00:19:07,840 --> 00:19:11,480 And I did do some not so great things as a child. 312 00:19:11,760 --> 00:19:14,960 We were pretty naughty, right? And I'm not going to give glory 313 00:19:14,960 --> 00:19:18,720 to God for that. But I will say that there's 314 00:19:18,800 --> 00:19:21,680 always relief. The Lord said to me one time, 315 00:19:21,680 --> 00:19:25,910 Carly, there's always more. It's like sometimes we get to 316 00:19:25,910 --> 00:19:29,110 places in our lives where we just feel as though what we're 317 00:19:29,110 --> 00:19:31,830 experiencing now is, is what we'll always experience. 318 00:19:32,230 --> 00:19:35,510 It can be very hopeless, right? But even in the worst times of 319 00:19:35,510 --> 00:19:38,830 life, he's like, But there's always more, there's more joy. 320 00:19:38,910 --> 00:19:42,510 It might not be here now, but that's not to say it's not 321 00:19:42,510 --> 00:19:45,990 coming in the morning. You don't have money, but 322 00:19:45,990 --> 00:19:48,310 there's more money. You don't have a friendship, but 323 00:19:48,310 --> 00:19:54,020 there are friends. And he's providing always for 324 00:19:54,020 --> 00:19:55,460 us. And what we're experiencing now 325 00:19:55,460 --> 00:19:57,540 is not going to be our eternal experience. 326 00:19:57,540 --> 00:20:00,820 It's not we're not damned to what we're having going on in 327 00:20:00,820 --> 00:20:03,300 our life right now. There's always more. 328 00:20:03,660 --> 00:20:12,060 The Lord is abundant. So Carly, let me ask you, let me 329 00:20:12,060 --> 00:20:14,420 ask you this. I want to backtrack just a 330 00:20:14,420 --> 00:20:17,380 little bit. Now when you said you could see 331 00:20:17,380 --> 00:20:21,540 the electricity between your fingers and you could levitate 332 00:20:21,540 --> 00:20:31,680 off the ground, do you remember ever having like any sleep 333 00:20:31,680 --> 00:20:33,480 paralysis during this period in time? 334 00:20:33,480 --> 00:20:36,560 Was there anything activating that or do you think that was 335 00:20:37,040 --> 00:20:39,840 literally like you were saying a bloodline thing? 336 00:20:39,840 --> 00:20:42,800 Or do you think that this was some type of disturbance from 337 00:20:43,240 --> 00:20:47,120 the dark side? How do you help me understand 338 00:20:47,120 --> 00:20:55,900 maybe why that was happening? To tell you the truth, I I don't 339 00:20:56,020 --> 00:20:59,220 I don't know exactly why that was happening. 340 00:20:59,220 --> 00:21:03,980 I do know that I've just always been very sensitive and I think 341 00:21:04,900 --> 00:21:08,620 it's a gift. But you know the Lord, the the 342 00:21:08,620 --> 00:21:11,900 Lord gives us gifts and it's a beautiful gift and I I 343 00:21:11,900 --> 00:21:16,660 appreciate it and but the but the enemy can has an inkling 344 00:21:16,660 --> 00:21:19,710 about these things too. And every time God does the 345 00:21:19,710 --> 00:21:22,190 thing there, the enemy is right on his heels trying to 346 00:21:22,190 --> 00:21:25,550 counterfeit that thing and try to pervert that thing and twist 347 00:21:25,550 --> 00:21:27,710 that thing and make it a problem. 348 00:21:27,710 --> 00:21:32,430 And I mean literally everything he counterfeits. 349 00:21:33,030 --> 00:21:35,150 Well, and that's what I was thinking like that's why I kind 350 00:21:35,150 --> 00:21:37,670 of asked like, is there, was there sleep paralysis at the 351 00:21:37,670 --> 00:21:40,750 time or? But I would have weird dreams. 352 00:21:40,750 --> 00:21:42,670 I can remember having weird dreams. 353 00:21:42,670 --> 00:21:46,510 Like I can remember having dreams of being hung by my neck 354 00:21:46,510 --> 00:21:50,550 and swung down a staircase. Or like, I remember as a 355 00:21:50,550 --> 00:21:53,390 teenager, I had this dream. This was a terrifying dream. 356 00:21:53,390 --> 00:21:58,590 I was changed to a bed, and there was a demon that was like, 357 00:21:58,990 --> 00:22:01,590 intimidating and antagonizing and threatening me. 358 00:22:02,110 --> 00:22:04,670 And then Satan shows up, but he doesn't look pretty. 359 00:22:04,670 --> 00:22:06,510 He's in his form. That's not attractive. 360 00:22:07,550 --> 00:22:12,450 And he was. He was threatening to, he was 361 00:22:12,450 --> 00:22:14,890 threatening to rape me. And he said in my dream, how 362 00:22:14,890 --> 00:22:17,290 does it feel to be raped by a demon? 363 00:22:18,450 --> 00:22:21,330 And I could remember waking up from that dream and having 364 00:22:21,650 --> 00:22:25,130 physical like I felt it on my body. 365 00:22:26,450 --> 00:22:28,810 Like if you've, if of course you're married and you have 366 00:22:28,810 --> 00:22:31,530 children, so you know you can feel the effects of physical 367 00:22:31,530 --> 00:22:36,050 intimacy even after it's passed. And it was like that. 368 00:22:39,600 --> 00:22:40,920 Wow. Yeah, Wow. 369 00:22:41,560 --> 00:22:42,560 Yeah. So I don't know that. 370 00:22:42,560 --> 00:22:45,320 It's like they were accessing me from the astral round. 371 00:22:45,320 --> 00:22:47,280 Why I was targeted, I don't know. 372 00:22:47,280 --> 00:22:50,120 Maybe it was. I think you're spot on with that 373 00:22:50,120 --> 00:22:52,840 because, all right, so I said it this way to people. 374 00:22:53,000 --> 00:22:57,560 I think the enemy sees our light that's in us sometimes long 375 00:22:57,560 --> 00:23:00,040 before we see the darkness, right? 376 00:23:00,040 --> 00:23:03,240 So I think the enemy can see that God has put his mark on us. 377 00:23:03,480 --> 00:23:06,360 He has a calling on our life that literally there's an 378 00:23:06,360 --> 00:23:09,840 anointing for what is written in the book of life for you to 379 00:23:09,840 --> 00:23:11,920 complete. Like you said that in the 380 00:23:11,920 --> 00:23:16,840 beginning here, that state of victory, that is where we are. 381 00:23:17,120 --> 00:23:20,720 The enemy is defeated. We do have the high priest who's 382 00:23:20,720 --> 00:23:25,160 interceding for us but the enemy sometimes, especially through 383 00:23:25,160 --> 00:23:28,160 people, especially through circumstances when we have our 384 00:23:28,160 --> 00:23:30,720 innocence when we're growing young and and some people turn 385 00:23:30,720 --> 00:23:33,900 to be calloused over. But some people, they just, they 386 00:23:33,900 --> 00:23:37,060 never quite let themselves get so cold that that they can't be 387 00:23:37,060 --> 00:23:39,260 jump started by what God has planned for. 388 00:23:39,660 --> 00:23:42,220 Actually, I've heard a little bit of both, but that's why I 389 00:23:42,220 --> 00:23:45,020 was asking like was there something that you can remember 390 00:23:45,020 --> 00:23:48,740 during that time that was significant where the enemy was 391 00:23:48,740 --> 00:23:52,420 trying to pervert possibly a gift that you were given or 392 00:23:52,900 --> 00:23:55,780 maybe it was a bloodline thing, but I mean we can kind of move 393 00:23:55,780 --> 00:24:00,340 on from that. So I want to ask you, have you 394 00:24:00,340 --> 00:24:04,190 had prophetic dreams at all? Yeah, I have. 395 00:24:04,190 --> 00:24:09,630 I have my whole life. So one significant one was about 396 00:24:09,630 --> 00:24:16,830 9/11. It was 1996, maybe 95, right in 397 00:24:16,830 --> 00:24:19,590 there. And I had a dream that I was in 398 00:24:19,590 --> 00:24:24,670 New York City in the dream, and all of a sudden there was this 399 00:24:24,670 --> 00:24:31,590 loud bang and this, this like, grayish brown, thick. 400 00:24:33,290 --> 00:24:35,130 Ash or smoke? I couldn't tell in the dream, 401 00:24:35,130 --> 00:24:38,970 but it was like coming at us through the city streets. 402 00:24:39,010 --> 00:24:41,530 I had been to New York before at that point, so I was. 403 00:24:41,570 --> 00:24:43,010 I had physically been to New York. 404 00:24:43,010 --> 00:24:44,010 You know, what? Was that what I'm saying? 405 00:24:44,450 --> 00:24:46,410 But I I could see it in the dream coming. 406 00:24:46,410 --> 00:24:48,850 And then everything just went. You couldn't see your hand in 407 00:24:48,850 --> 00:24:52,450 front of your face. It was so thick and terrible. 408 00:24:52,690 --> 00:24:54,530 And I woke up from that dream shook. 409 00:24:54,970 --> 00:24:57,340 I've had dreams about. And then prayed. 410 00:24:57,340 --> 00:24:59,180 Now, after I got saved, I would have dreams. 411 00:24:59,180 --> 00:25:01,260 Like there was this one time I had this dream that someone was 412 00:25:01,260 --> 00:25:04,180 trying to plant a bomb in Millennial Park in Chicago. 413 00:25:04,740 --> 00:25:07,700 And I woke up from that dream and I pray, pray, prayed, and 414 00:25:07,700 --> 00:25:10,020 like a week or two later they had caught some guy who was 415 00:25:10,020 --> 00:25:14,780 planning to do a bomb attack. I have had other dreams where 416 00:25:14,780 --> 00:25:17,780 things get exposed to me. One, recently things get exposed 417 00:25:17,780 --> 00:25:22,060 to me about people around me that I that I love and I care 418 00:25:22,060 --> 00:25:25,390 about. In inbound attacks and I'll tell 419 00:25:25,390 --> 00:25:29,110 them and then we thwart them or hey, the Lord is giving you a 420 00:25:29,110 --> 00:25:32,070 word for this thing. I've had dreams about famous 421 00:25:32,070 --> 00:25:37,550 people. Madonna, Eminem, Fauci, Joe 422 00:25:37,550 --> 00:25:42,390 Manchin, Trump Scavino, whatever his first name is. 423 00:25:44,390 --> 00:25:48,390 Weird stuff. And so the prophetic dreams have 424 00:25:48,390 --> 00:25:52,900 always been a thing and. I would have prophetic insights 425 00:25:52,900 --> 00:25:54,740 as well. One time we were driving up to 426 00:25:54,740 --> 00:25:57,300 Duluth. My dad lived up in Superior till 427 00:25:57,300 --> 00:26:01,580 he died in 91. And my my inlaws, Not my inlaws. 428 00:26:01,580 --> 00:26:05,740 My mom's husband's family also lived up there, so we were up 429 00:26:05,740 --> 00:26:10,140 and down 35 W at least 3-4 times a month. 430 00:26:10,140 --> 00:26:11,420 Like all the time going up there. 431 00:26:12,220 --> 00:26:14,700 And one time I was like, mommy, watch out for deer. 432 00:26:15,060 --> 00:26:20,500 We're driving up at night and within 30 minutes or so spap, we 433 00:26:20,500 --> 00:26:23,950 hit a deer. And my mom was like, how would 434 00:26:23,950 --> 00:26:25,190 you know? I'm like, I don't know. 435 00:26:25,190 --> 00:26:28,790 I just know some stuff. Sometimes I would just know. 436 00:26:30,870 --> 00:26:36,590 I don't know. It's man, the old, I don't know 437 00:26:36,590 --> 00:26:40,710 about you, Carly, but the older I get, the more I remember stuff 438 00:26:40,710 --> 00:26:43,950 from when I was younger, right? And I'll venture out and ask 439 00:26:43,950 --> 00:26:47,750 questions and in a lot of ways, I've said it on the show many 440 00:26:47,750 --> 00:26:51,560 times but I'm still peace and a lot of my my journey together, 441 00:26:52,600 --> 00:26:54,240 right. That's the purpose of the the 442 00:26:54,240 --> 00:26:56,480 podcast here is I get to talk with other people. 443 00:26:56,720 --> 00:27:00,680 I get to sharpen. I get to be sharpened and really 444 00:27:00,680 --> 00:27:03,480 bear each other's burdens in a way and fulfill the law of just 445 00:27:03,480 --> 00:27:06,960 like, hey, like I'm here like I'm listening like I'll pray for 446 00:27:06,960 --> 00:27:10,320 you like we're we're not alone. That's that's super important 447 00:27:10,320 --> 00:27:12,800 for me. But just certain things that 448 00:27:12,800 --> 00:27:15,990 you're saying, you know, I've had the conversation with my 449 00:27:15,990 --> 00:27:18,550 mother where she was like when you were younger, you would say 450 00:27:18,550 --> 00:27:20,550 things. I mean, I had trouble talking 451 00:27:21,070 --> 00:27:25,430 for years and you know, kindergarten didn't didn't go so 452 00:27:25,430 --> 00:27:26,950 well for me because I wouldn't talk. 453 00:27:26,950 --> 00:27:30,230 I wouldn't talk to anybody. But she would say that I had 454 00:27:30,310 --> 00:27:32,510 insight. I would tell her about things 455 00:27:32,990 --> 00:27:35,710 that would then it would happen like a week later or hours 456 00:27:35,710 --> 00:27:37,990 later. And it's just, it's interesting 457 00:27:37,990 --> 00:27:42,270 to hear you say that there there's something about that 458 00:27:42,270 --> 00:27:46,370 these, this generation, this generation of people, I think 459 00:27:46,370 --> 00:27:52,250 God really has something up his sleeve for the enemy. 460 00:27:52,290 --> 00:27:58,000 And I think the enemy thought it was going to be a weapon for him 461 00:27:58,000 --> 00:28:01,520 to use for defeat. But but God's going to turn the 462 00:28:01,520 --> 00:28:02,960 table. I'm sorry, I don't mean to 463 00:28:03,000 --> 00:28:06,280 digress here, but no, let me ask you some more questions. 464 00:28:06,360 --> 00:28:08,120 You just like triggered some stuff or I'm? 465 00:28:08,640 --> 00:28:11,480 Like nostalgia. I just went back in my own story 466 00:28:11,840 --> 00:28:13,960 by hearing a piece of yours. I'm like, this is good. 467 00:28:15,160 --> 00:28:18,230 So talk to me a little bit about like seeing energy. 468 00:28:18,230 --> 00:28:22,470 So you talked about being able to see like the aura of things 469 00:28:22,470 --> 00:28:25,230 right now. Was that limited to just people? 470 00:28:25,470 --> 00:28:28,990 Did you see that in animals? Is that in objects? 471 00:28:28,990 --> 00:28:31,910 Just dive into that. Help me help me out here. 472 00:28:32,110 --> 00:28:35,950 All of that. It was actually most poignant in 473 00:28:35,950 --> 00:28:39,870 things in nature. Trees, flowers, rocks, places, 474 00:28:40,310 --> 00:28:45,270 you know, I grew up a lot of the time in Superior, WI, which is 475 00:28:45,270 --> 00:28:48,230 very beautiful. With Duluth is very beautiful 476 00:28:48,230 --> 00:28:52,950 place, There's lots of rivers and wonderful nature places to 477 00:28:52,950 --> 00:28:56,390 check out and my dad was big on outdoor sports, so he was a 478 00:28:56,390 --> 00:28:58,190 pilot. So we had his own aircraft and 479 00:28:58,190 --> 00:29:01,630 we skied and we went to the beach and he worked for KQDS 480 00:29:01,630 --> 00:29:03,230 which is up there at the radio station. 481 00:29:03,790 --> 00:29:05,910 We were always out and about. He's a very popular guy. 482 00:29:06,870 --> 00:29:09,510 But my point in saying that is we spent a lot of time in nature 483 00:29:09,510 --> 00:29:14,470 and I would see it there, but as I grew older, well into my 20s 484 00:29:14,470 --> 00:29:18,810 really until I got saved. And then I had to shut down my 485 00:29:18,810 --> 00:29:21,410 third eye because that's what was being utilized. 486 00:29:23,130 --> 00:29:25,410 I could see energy in people. So I remember one time I was 487 00:29:25,410 --> 00:29:28,290 walking down the path behind our apartment at the time, and 488 00:29:28,290 --> 00:29:31,690 there's this woman, she was walking towards me and I just, I 489 00:29:31,690 --> 00:29:34,970 had to tell her because I could see her aura. 490 00:29:35,330 --> 00:29:38,370 But then there was this like dark mass that emanated from 491 00:29:38,370 --> 00:29:41,730 somewhere around her abdomen. And I I knew that something was 492 00:29:41,930 --> 00:29:45,570 wrong with her, like she was sick or. 493 00:29:46,060 --> 00:29:48,380 She either knew it or she didn't know it, but it was looking 494 00:29:48,380 --> 00:29:51,980 dark, right? And so I told her and I didn't 495 00:29:51,980 --> 00:29:53,500 pray for her. I wasn't saved at the time. 496 00:29:53,500 --> 00:29:58,060 I just dropped this thing on her, just crazy 20 year old 497 00:29:58,060 --> 00:30:00,460 coming out of the woods talking about black auras. 498 00:30:01,060 --> 00:30:05,860 Like I'm sure she was a little whoops, you know, but your aura 499 00:30:05,860 --> 00:30:08,060 is super purple, you know? It was just, it was. 500 00:30:08,100 --> 00:30:11,860 I'm sure it was weird for her, but I told her what I was seeing 501 00:30:11,860 --> 00:30:14,190 and she. And she put her hand on her 502 00:30:14,190 --> 00:30:15,550 stomach. She's like, yeah, I was just 503 00:30:15,550 --> 00:30:18,910 diagnosed with, I don't even remember to be honest with you, 504 00:30:18,910 --> 00:30:22,310 but she had admitted that there was something wrong in her 505 00:30:22,310 --> 00:30:26,150 abdomen. So I was just always very 506 00:30:26,150 --> 00:30:32,230 sensitive and and really that lended itself well to being 507 00:30:32,230 --> 00:30:36,070 curious about the supernatural, right. 508 00:30:36,230 --> 00:30:40,110 And when you combine a natural inclination to be curious about 509 00:30:40,110 --> 00:30:45,110 what's beyond the veil. With with experiences of trauma, 510 00:30:46,070 --> 00:30:51,990 it ends up being that there's an Ave. in for the enemy to kind of 511 00:30:51,990 --> 00:30:54,630 twist these things and make it something else. 512 00:30:54,630 --> 00:31:00,270 And so like it's it's just it's so slick, you know, it's like 513 00:31:00,270 --> 00:31:03,150 when you're dealing with the enemy is so slick and then when 514 00:31:03,150 --> 00:31:05,950 you take a step back like you had just said about. 515 00:31:06,420 --> 00:31:08,900 He he, he thinks he's going to use this generation for some 516 00:31:08,900 --> 00:31:10,460 things, but he's got another thing coming. 517 00:31:10,460 --> 00:31:13,220 Yes, that's always true too, right? 518 00:31:13,620 --> 00:31:17,980 So when I was 6, around the age of 6, I was molested by my 519 00:31:17,980 --> 00:31:21,100 friend's grandfather who lived down the street from my dad's 520 00:31:21,100 --> 00:31:26,220 house. He was he, he would like, sit me 521 00:31:26,220 --> 00:31:28,300 on his lap and bounce me on his lap. 522 00:31:28,300 --> 00:31:32,340 And I always made me feel very uncomfortable because he would 523 00:31:33,100 --> 00:31:36,130 he his body would react. Let's just put it like that. 524 00:31:36,930 --> 00:31:40,130 And then one day he asked me to, to come upstairs to show me 525 00:31:40,170 --> 00:31:42,410 whatever I was six. I just agreed. 526 00:31:42,490 --> 00:31:44,010 He was like, let me show you something cool. 527 00:31:44,010 --> 00:31:47,130 I was like, alright, great. I'm not thinking about it, 528 00:31:47,570 --> 00:31:49,370 right? All I knew was that he made me 529 00:31:49,370 --> 00:31:51,730 uncomfortable, but I didn't put all the pieces together. 530 00:31:52,210 --> 00:31:53,970 And then he he came out of the bathroom. 531 00:31:53,970 --> 00:31:56,850 He was naked. This man tried to get me to 532 00:31:56,850 --> 00:31:59,810 touch him. I ran away, but it was it was 533 00:31:59,810 --> 00:32:07,060 jarring to my person. It was so jarring and it just it 534 00:32:07,060 --> 00:32:11,780 triggered this hypersexuality in me and it from a young age. 535 00:32:12,300 --> 00:32:16,380 And I I want to be candid with that because there's so much 536 00:32:16,380 --> 00:32:21,380 shame that comes with that experience of sexuality at a 537 00:32:21,380 --> 00:32:23,780 young age. You, you, you know it's not 538 00:32:23,780 --> 00:32:26,140 right. It's almost like your body 539 00:32:26,660 --> 00:32:30,260 betrays you because your mind, your heart, your soul, your 540 00:32:30,260 --> 00:32:34,360 spirit, even it knows. This is not good. 541 00:32:34,440 --> 00:32:36,640 But your body's like this is so good. 542 00:32:37,240 --> 00:32:43,080 And it starts to sow this division of self very at a very 543 00:32:43,080 --> 00:32:47,960 early age. And so on the heels of that 544 00:32:47,960 --> 00:32:51,040 comes a lot of condemnation. Gosh, I should have known 545 00:32:51,040 --> 00:32:52,200 better. I knew better. 546 00:32:52,480 --> 00:32:55,960 I just didn't. I wish I would have La La La La 547 00:32:55,960 --> 00:32:58,120 la and you start to blame yourself. 548 00:32:59,140 --> 00:33:01,860 But the truth is, is that your body is built to respond to 549 00:33:01,860 --> 00:33:04,220 these things. When it gets triggered early, 550 00:33:04,220 --> 00:33:07,900 it's a problem. But it doesn't make you dirty. 551 00:33:07,900 --> 00:33:11,620 It doesn't make you beyond redemption. 552 00:33:12,220 --> 00:33:16,940 It doesn't make sexuality beyond redemption, but it but it does 553 00:33:17,660 --> 00:33:20,380 require a real close walk with the Lord when it comes to 554 00:33:20,380 --> 00:33:22,260 intimacy. They're on forward because 555 00:33:22,740 --> 00:33:24,980 there's so much that has to be restored. 556 00:33:27,620 --> 00:33:29,980 Wow. And it just makes me think, you 557 00:33:29,980 --> 00:33:32,780 know, as I'm taking this journey with you, I'm sitting back 558 00:33:32,780 --> 00:33:38,460 listening to your story. I can't help but now think about 559 00:33:38,460 --> 00:33:43,140 the over sexualization of every generation, but especially the 560 00:33:43,140 --> 00:33:46,900 youth who don't really have the parameters set in place because 561 00:33:46,900 --> 00:33:49,380 not many parents are raising children in the way of the Lord 562 00:33:49,540 --> 00:33:51,380 that when they grow, they won't depart from it. 563 00:33:51,660 --> 00:33:56,520 That that's just not happening. But for example, even you put on 564 00:33:56,520 --> 00:33:59,320 YouTube, you know, I put on like super book, which is like a 565 00:33:59,320 --> 00:34:04,080 Christian cartoon for my 6 year old and a couple times and this 566 00:34:04,080 --> 00:34:06,120 is through YouTube. I don't do cable. 567 00:34:06,120 --> 00:34:07,800 I don't, I don't watch TV like that. 568 00:34:07,800 --> 00:34:11,480 I have the TV for pretty much walking watching documentaries 569 00:34:11,840 --> 00:34:15,120 on YouTube of different people but commercials that pop up. 570 00:34:15,679 --> 00:34:17,760 I mean over sexualization of commercials. 571 00:34:17,920 --> 00:34:21,280 I I literally walked in it was probably a couple weeks back and 572 00:34:21,280 --> 00:34:24,159 there was like a demonic advertisement for some creepy 573 00:34:24,159 --> 00:34:27,120 movie coming out. And my son physically he's 574 00:34:27,120 --> 00:34:29,639 scared. I like had to run grab the 575 00:34:29,920 --> 00:34:32,880 remote dive and and be like Oh my gosh Skip. 576 00:34:32,880 --> 00:34:34,840 Like I turned it off. After that I'm like Nope, we're 577 00:34:34,840 --> 00:34:37,600 going back to the books because I try to balance, you know he's 578 00:34:37,600 --> 00:34:41,520 got he's got a a good collection of books that you know we try to 579 00:34:41,520 --> 00:34:44,800 get him interested in. But it but it's it's everywhere. 580 00:34:45,429 --> 00:34:47,750 It's everywhere. And so just the way you 581 00:34:47,750 --> 00:34:51,790 described what happened to you at six years old about how, like 582 00:34:51,790 --> 00:34:54,670 your body almost felt like it was betraying itself, Because I 583 00:34:54,670 --> 00:34:59,970 believe, you know, kids especially pure of heart, yet I 584 00:34:59,970 --> 00:35:01,730 mean just the corruption's not there. 585 00:35:01,730 --> 00:35:04,050 What does the word say? The word has the final 586 00:35:04,050 --> 00:35:06,490 authority. It says if you were to make one 587 00:35:06,490 --> 00:35:10,090 of these little ones go astray, it is better you tie a meal 588 00:35:10,090 --> 00:35:13,050 stone around your neck, which is a really big stone. 589 00:35:13,050 --> 00:35:16,290 It's not something small and be cast to the bottom of the ocean. 590 00:35:16,650 --> 00:35:19,170 And it's like that is happening on numbers that we can't even 591 00:35:19,370 --> 00:35:21,210 imagine today all around the world. 592 00:35:22,080 --> 00:35:24,200 But that that's what. Sorry, I didn't mean to go on 593 00:35:24,200 --> 00:35:27,400 another rent, but you got me so emotionally involved just from 594 00:35:27,400 --> 00:35:28,880 listening to you. Oh my goodness. 595 00:35:28,880 --> 00:35:31,240 And it goes so much farther than that nowadays. 596 00:35:31,240 --> 00:35:35,080 Because, you know, it used to be that in order to traumatize a 597 00:35:35,080 --> 00:35:37,800 child you would have to physically interact with them. 598 00:35:38,960 --> 00:35:44,720 But now, the way they do it in the spirit, they can access our 599 00:35:44,720 --> 00:35:49,400 children astrally and affect their souls. 600 00:35:50,500 --> 00:35:55,740 In ways that have a very similar bent as physical sexual assault 601 00:35:56,620 --> 00:35:59,660 and it and it can come through the IT can come through the 602 00:35:59,660 --> 00:36:02,780 wavelengths that come out of the TV, the tablet they access 603 00:36:02,780 --> 00:36:07,820 children in their dreams like it's So it's so important that 604 00:36:07,820 --> 00:36:12,580 we recognize that the way that the enemy operated 100 years 605 00:36:12,580 --> 00:36:16,060 ago, even 50 years ago, they advance in technology too. 606 00:36:16,660 --> 00:36:21,680 OK, so. Yeshua overcame all of it at the 607 00:36:21,680 --> 00:36:23,600 cross. Everything that enemy was going 608 00:36:23,600 --> 00:36:27,480 to advance and learn how to do, you know, crazy new stuff, La La 609 00:36:27,480 --> 00:36:28,760 la. He already defeated it. 610 00:36:28,760 --> 00:36:31,040 It's not a thing. It's not a thing of fear, but it 611 00:36:31,040 --> 00:36:34,600 is a it is a thing of understanding, because the 612 00:36:34,600 --> 00:36:36,720 weapons of our warfare advance too. 613 00:36:37,120 --> 00:36:39,840 And they're but they're always the blood, the word, the 614 00:36:39,840 --> 00:36:44,960 testimony, the Holy Spirit. And one thing I remember is you 615 00:36:44,960 --> 00:36:49,750 have to keep your mind sober. We can't allow our children to 616 00:36:49,750 --> 00:36:52,790 become afraid. The first thing in my life that 617 00:36:52,790 --> 00:36:57,750 caught me was that fear. It was that fear, that moment I 618 00:36:57,750 --> 00:37:00,110 thought I had to protect my parents from each other. 619 00:37:02,470 --> 00:37:06,070 I had repressed memories come back to me from even before then 620 00:37:06,070 --> 00:37:10,430 of things that would happen in the daycares that we're also 621 00:37:10,430 --> 00:37:16,110 very traumatizing it and it it all led to just a very. 622 00:37:16,680 --> 00:37:22,360 Broken understanding of people and self. 623 00:37:24,240 --> 00:37:28,480 But the thing about it is that the Lord is present in all of 624 00:37:28,480 --> 00:37:31,120 it. And I have heard people say, 625 00:37:31,600 --> 00:37:33,640 well, God, if you were real, where were you? 626 00:37:33,640 --> 00:37:39,520 And I'll tell you where he was. He was right there holding you 627 00:37:40,600 --> 00:37:44,440 and crying. I had a vision one time of 628 00:37:44,440 --> 00:37:48,500 something that happened to me. It's a new memory and I just, I 629 00:37:48,500 --> 00:37:51,460 hesitate to tell this story but I think the important part is 630 00:37:51,460 --> 00:37:54,580 this. I had a memory of of a trauma 631 00:37:54,580 --> 00:38:00,220 that occurred in in the daycare when I was like 2 and the Lord 632 00:38:00,220 --> 00:38:05,580 opened my eyes and it he was had me on his lap with his arms 633 00:38:05,580 --> 00:38:09,660 wrapped around me and his chin rested on my shoulder and I 634 00:38:09,660 --> 00:38:12,820 could feel his tears running down the front of my shirt. 635 00:38:13,290 --> 00:38:15,690 And he was weeping. And he was saying, not this one 636 00:38:15,690 --> 00:38:19,930 too. And this is the risk of free 637 00:38:19,930 --> 00:38:22,730 will. This is the greatest risk the 638 00:38:22,730 --> 00:38:25,250 Lord ever took, was giving people free will. 639 00:38:25,690 --> 00:38:29,170 But he never wanted robots. But in giving people free will, 640 00:38:30,210 --> 00:38:32,290 people can choose to abuse other people. 641 00:38:32,290 --> 00:38:37,970 That doesn't make God not real. The purpose that you must find 642 00:38:37,970 --> 00:38:40,090 in those traumas is where was he? 643 00:38:41,070 --> 00:38:42,990 Because I promise you he was there. 644 00:38:42,990 --> 00:38:47,870 I promise you he was weeping. I promise you he he guarded your 645 00:38:47,870 --> 00:38:50,910 heart. That doesn't mean it didn't have 646 00:38:50,910 --> 00:38:55,230 an effect, but it means that he is never absent. 647 00:38:56,110 --> 00:39:02,110 And he weeps over our pain. Wow. 648 00:39:05,150 --> 00:39:07,270 Yeah, that's that's amazingly deep. 649 00:39:09,150 --> 00:39:14,950 I've heard it, said Carly, that some people have considered the 650 00:39:15,070 --> 00:39:19,190 the loss of memory of certain things that have taken place, 651 00:39:19,190 --> 00:39:21,310 especially in the younger portion of life. 652 00:39:21,590 --> 00:39:26,990 It almost is a gift at times from God because like he, I 653 00:39:26,990 --> 00:39:31,230 think also, well, he of all would know that there's these 654 00:39:31,230 --> 00:39:36,150 breaking points and that there's trauma that that layers and it 655 00:39:36,150 --> 00:39:38,350 compounds and you know, it builds up. 656 00:39:40,320 --> 00:39:43,280 And I think in some ways, like I I feel that way. 657 00:39:43,280 --> 00:39:45,440 The reason I say it is because I even feel that way about my 658 00:39:45,440 --> 00:39:47,240 past. I think there's certain things 659 00:39:47,240 --> 00:39:49,840 where God was like, we're not going to go there and deal with 660 00:39:49,840 --> 00:39:54,120 that yet until you're looking at me and when you're focused on me 661 00:39:54,400 --> 00:39:57,560 and you know who I am and you know the victory, but you know 662 00:39:57,560 --> 00:40:01,600 that we and we all suffer. Read the psalms. 663 00:40:01,720 --> 00:40:04,040 Read the psalms alone. For anybody out there who's 664 00:40:04,040 --> 00:40:06,240 like, what are the, what is Rodney and Carly talking about? 665 00:40:06,240 --> 00:40:08,640 Listen. There's the good, the bad, the 666 00:40:08,640 --> 00:40:10,640 ugly, the beautiful and everything in between. 667 00:40:11,400 --> 00:40:13,560 When you read the songs and see what David went through, 668 00:40:13,880 --> 00:40:17,080 literally one point in time he is he's crying out and saying, 669 00:40:17,080 --> 00:40:20,160 God, my enemies encompass me, Lord, they're they're here to 670 00:40:20,160 --> 00:40:24,000 literally take me down into the pit, hear my cries, don't turn 671 00:40:24,000 --> 00:40:26,800 your face from me and you go a couple verses later and he is 672 00:40:26,800 --> 00:40:31,700 literally bold statements. My God is just and his fury has 673 00:40:31,820 --> 00:40:34,460 consumed the enemy who has set their foot against me. 674 00:40:34,620 --> 00:40:37,700 They have fallen by the way of the sword they drew to my neck, 675 00:40:37,700 --> 00:40:38,940 right. I mean, we see, I'm, I'm 676 00:40:39,100 --> 00:40:42,820 paraphrasing here, but but we see that with God's people. 677 00:40:43,940 --> 00:40:48,220 So anybody out there listening right now, if if you're getting 678 00:40:48,220 --> 00:40:51,140 triggered, if you're having memories, if you're dealing with 679 00:40:51,140 --> 00:40:53,060 something, it's okay to go there. 680 00:40:53,060 --> 00:40:57,470 But I want to tell you, go there with a godly person, pray and 681 00:40:57,470 --> 00:41:00,550 and and and find somebody. Go reach out to Dan Duvall. 682 00:41:00,590 --> 00:41:04,630 Every episode since I had him on, I put his website there. 683 00:41:04,630 --> 00:41:07,830 So you guys have access to the prayers and you guys have access 684 00:41:07,830 --> 00:41:11,710 to to go find a coach and get some help because that's 685 00:41:11,710 --> 00:41:13,150 important to me. That's important. 686 00:41:13,150 --> 00:41:14,870 It is important. It is important. 687 00:41:14,870 --> 00:41:18,830 And the number one thing you can ask is is literally Jesus. 688 00:41:18,830 --> 00:41:22,030 Where were you? Not Jesus, where were you? 689 00:41:22,390 --> 00:41:24,650 No, he was there. Where was he? 690 00:41:24,810 --> 00:41:27,250 Let him show you where he was because he was there. 691 00:41:28,570 --> 00:41:30,050 He would Where would else would he be? 692 00:41:30,050 --> 00:41:32,170 If your child was hurting where Where would you be? 693 00:41:32,890 --> 00:41:35,210 You would be there. And how much better of a father 694 00:41:35,210 --> 00:41:38,050 is he? And to go back to what you were 695 00:41:38,050 --> 00:41:43,370 saying about memories does you know it's a whole journey like 696 00:41:43,370 --> 00:41:46,850 what you said about No Rod. You're not ready to go there 697 00:41:46,850 --> 00:41:48,290 until you're looking at me. Yes. 698 00:41:48,690 --> 00:41:51,410 Yes. Because there's a testimony in 699 00:41:51,450 --> 00:41:54,260 our memories and. When I got some of these 700 00:41:54,260 --> 00:42:01,780 memories back, I saw them again. But I wasn't retraumatized by 701 00:42:01,780 --> 00:42:05,580 them because I was looking at them through Jesus. 702 00:42:05,580 --> 00:42:10,660 It was like he shielded me from being retraumatized by 703 00:42:10,660 --> 00:42:13,660 remembering things. But you know what I got out of 704 00:42:13,660 --> 00:42:16,740 it. For one, I saw him there, and 705 00:42:16,740 --> 00:42:23,070 for two my testimony is written. In Heaven. 706 00:42:23,070 --> 00:42:26,510 And it is a testimony to the condemnation of our enemy. 707 00:42:26,630 --> 00:42:30,390 And it affects more than me. My testimony affects more than 708 00:42:30,390 --> 00:42:32,550 me. It's not just about how good God 709 00:42:32,550 --> 00:42:36,150 has been to Carly. This is about every piece of my 710 00:42:36,150 --> 00:42:39,750 soul that the enemy has trafficked and tortured and 711 00:42:39,750 --> 00:42:43,390 utilized for evil agendas being taken back from His Kingdom 712 00:42:43,590 --> 00:42:45,910 cleanse and given back to me. You know why? 713 00:42:46,750 --> 00:42:48,710 You know why that affects everybody else, too? 714 00:42:48,710 --> 00:42:51,950 Because we are one body. Go in a room with some crabby, 715 00:42:51,950 --> 00:42:54,270 energetic vampire you. You will feel drained. 716 00:42:54,750 --> 00:42:57,710 So how much more? When I am whole, does that not 717 00:42:57,710 --> 00:43:00,550 affect the people around me? Does that not affect the body of 718 00:43:00,550 --> 00:43:03,070 Christ? Not only that, but he's sewing 719 00:43:03,070 --> 00:43:07,830 into his own condemnation. Every memory I get back, it's 720 00:43:07,910 --> 00:43:10,710 it's a nail in his coffin. Yes, and Amen. 721 00:43:10,710 --> 00:43:14,270 Because I'll tell you what, if I got one skin cell in the camp of 722 00:43:14,270 --> 00:43:17,180 the enemy, I'm coming for it. You don't get anything of mine 723 00:43:17,180 --> 00:43:20,860 because you know what they do, they utilize we. 724 00:43:20,860 --> 00:43:24,220 There is nothing more powerful in this world than Yahweh 725 00:43:24,220 --> 00:43:28,060 himself and he lives in us. So any fragment of us that is 726 00:43:28,060 --> 00:43:30,100 utilized by the camp, it's coveted. 727 00:43:30,380 --> 00:43:33,980 And there's, you know, people would love to find oil on their 728 00:43:33,980 --> 00:43:36,140 property, right? Because bam, now they're rich 729 00:43:36,580 --> 00:43:39,580 because it's utilized to to energize the world. 730 00:43:39,580 --> 00:43:43,110 It runs economies, right? And if that's true for something 731 00:43:43,110 --> 00:43:45,990 as simple as oil, imagine what you are energetically. 732 00:43:46,110 --> 00:43:50,270 You are the image and likeness of Yahweh, and the energy that 733 00:43:50,270 --> 00:43:56,190 he is, is you. He he took his essence and made 734 00:43:56,190 --> 00:44:01,190 you that energy can power a lot more than cities, folks. 735 00:44:01,470 --> 00:44:03,910 And if even the little bit it's of it, it's in the camp of the 736 00:44:03,950 --> 00:44:06,390 enemy. It's a problem not only because 737 00:44:06,390 --> 00:44:11,070 it's it's inevitably tethered to your life experiences, but it's 738 00:44:11,070 --> 00:44:14,240 giving. Energy to an evil agenda. 739 00:44:15,360 --> 00:44:19,360 And so my point in saying all that is to say yes, getting the 740 00:44:19,360 --> 00:44:23,240 memory back is scary. Yes, there's times and seasons. 741 00:44:23,240 --> 00:44:24,960 We have to be looking at the Lord. 742 00:44:25,320 --> 00:44:27,360 We have to be looking at it with the Lord. 743 00:44:27,600 --> 00:44:29,720 It's not all at once. That wouldn't be merciful. 744 00:44:30,290 --> 00:44:33,370 But it's important to remember because you can't convict 745 00:44:33,370 --> 00:44:35,450 somebody of a crime if there's no witnesses. 746 00:44:35,450 --> 00:44:39,930 And I stole that from Dan because it was really hard to 747 00:44:39,970 --> 00:44:42,010 understand. Like, how do we do? 748 00:44:42,090 --> 00:44:45,770 Why do I have to remember this? And then he said that in one 749 00:44:45,770 --> 00:44:47,610 sermon somewhere. Y'all better just check it out 750 00:44:48,010 --> 00:44:50,690 because you'll find you'll find the gems for yourself in season. 751 00:44:51,210 --> 00:44:53,570 It's like you can't convict someone of a crime without a 752 00:44:53,570 --> 00:44:57,850 testimony without a witness. You're the witness and every 753 00:44:57,850 --> 00:44:59,690 part of ourselves that we get back. 754 00:45:00,240 --> 00:45:04,480 We that's our inheritance. It's it's not just about being 755 00:45:04,480 --> 00:45:06,360 able to, you know, live your life a little better. 756 00:45:06,360 --> 00:45:10,800 This, our personhood, is his inheritance, he said. 757 00:45:10,800 --> 00:45:13,080 We are his inheritance. What? 758 00:45:14,840 --> 00:45:18,480 The one who was uncreated, who made all things, who was 759 00:45:18,480 --> 00:45:20,920 complete and holy and perfect in all his ways. 760 00:45:21,000 --> 00:45:25,440 I'm his inheritance. Oh, that makes me really 761 00:45:25,440 --> 00:45:27,080 important. And that makes you. 762 00:45:27,720 --> 00:45:30,800 Really important and all those things about you that the enemy 763 00:45:30,800 --> 00:45:34,720 has tried to harness for his fuen fuen stuff he does. 764 00:45:34,880 --> 00:45:37,800 It's not okay. We got to go for it. 765 00:45:37,800 --> 00:45:40,560 And this is where strategic prayer comes in because we have 766 00:45:40,560 --> 00:45:43,000 to go get what is his, what is ours. 767 00:45:43,000 --> 00:45:47,360 And we already have the victory. So pony up. 768 00:45:47,360 --> 00:45:50,840 I don't know what else to say. You just got a ride out. 769 00:45:50,840 --> 00:45:53,320 Get your music that you love, get your scriptures that you 770 00:45:53,320 --> 00:45:54,680 love. Find a group of people. 771 00:45:55,020 --> 00:46:00,060 Who you can trust and pray with and pray and pray smart and wise 772 00:46:00,060 --> 00:46:04,020 prayers, Strategic prayers. Because you will avail so much. 773 00:46:04,660 --> 00:46:06,580 You will. I tell you, when I started this 774 00:46:06,580 --> 00:46:10,940 journey, when I got saved in 2009, was it nine or seven? 775 00:46:10,940 --> 00:46:14,140 I can't remember. My life has been radically 776 00:46:14,140 --> 00:46:18,620 changed, but it wasn't me. I'm just walking with the Lord 777 00:46:18,740 --> 00:46:24,780 like he's a faithful one. Wow. 778 00:46:27,660 --> 00:46:29,580 Yeah. OKOK, so you're speaking my 779 00:46:29,580 --> 00:46:33,460 language now that this is where I live, in this, this place. 780 00:46:35,340 --> 00:46:41,860 I love hearing the testimony because we know it is only by 781 00:46:41,860 --> 00:46:45,540 the blood of the lamb and through our testimonies that we 782 00:46:45,540 --> 00:46:49,540 overcome. And here's another another line 783 00:46:49,540 --> 00:46:52,990 from Dan. You're going to have a testimony 784 00:46:53,110 --> 00:46:56,470 that is a justice case against the Kingdom of Darkness. 785 00:46:56,710 --> 00:46:59,430 That's actually in the intro of the podcast. 786 00:47:00,510 --> 00:47:04,030 Now, I I know that just speaking with with Dan personally because 787 00:47:04,230 --> 00:47:10,310 this, this is the thing Carly God has people in the Kingdom, 788 00:47:10,350 --> 00:47:13,870 in the body that he wants us to connect with for one reason or 789 00:47:13,870 --> 00:47:15,070 another. It doesn't always need to make 790 00:47:15,070 --> 00:47:17,470 sense in the moment. There's things that I've heard. 791 00:47:18,190 --> 00:47:21,050 I've listened to people talk for hours years ago when it first 792 00:47:21,050 --> 00:47:23,370 started to show and they'll be like one or two things that just 793 00:47:23,770 --> 00:47:27,050 stick with me, right? It's like that never left me and 794 00:47:27,050 --> 00:47:32,210 then I'll find, oh, that was a tool that that God was using to 795 00:47:32,210 --> 00:47:36,290 give me from somebody else that I was to pull out and use for 796 00:47:36,290 --> 00:47:37,810 this job, right. It was like that. 797 00:47:38,050 --> 00:47:39,810 It's just right there on the back burner. 798 00:47:39,810 --> 00:47:42,250 At any point in time, turn around and grab it and use it. 799 00:47:42,570 --> 00:47:44,890 And I and I think that's interesting and we need more 800 00:47:44,890 --> 00:47:49,060 people to speak up, to talk about their testimonies, to not 801 00:47:49,060 --> 00:47:52,140 be afraid to go there. But we got to be strong in the 802 00:47:52,140 --> 00:47:53,860 Lord. So like, there's this balance of 803 00:47:53,860 --> 00:47:57,700 like we need to disciple people and and love people. 804 00:47:58,260 --> 00:48:00,820 Like literally love them. Like just be there with them. 805 00:48:00,820 --> 00:48:02,580 Like it. I was reading the scripture the 806 00:48:02,580 --> 00:48:05,180 other day and it was like cry with who's crying and laugh with 807 00:48:05,180 --> 00:48:09,660 who's laughing. Like anybody joyful, sing a song 808 00:48:09,660 --> 00:48:11,260 to the Lord. Is anybody sick? 809 00:48:11,260 --> 00:48:13,820 You need prayer, prayer and intercede, right? 810 00:48:14,340 --> 00:48:16,860 And it's like we need to see more of that as well, because 811 00:48:16,860 --> 00:48:20,350 there's there's plenty of like YouTube cool Christian. 812 00:48:20,350 --> 00:48:23,190 I feel like Christianity is like kind of cool right now in the 813 00:48:23,190 --> 00:48:26,070 public's eye in a way, because it's kind of the rebel, like the 814 00:48:26,070 --> 00:48:27,870 whole world is like opposed to it. 815 00:48:27,870 --> 00:48:30,830 So people think it's cool to be a Christian rapper, a Christian 816 00:48:30,830 --> 00:48:32,190 musician. And I believe there's some real 817 00:48:32,190 --> 00:48:34,590 ones out there. I believe there's some real ones 818 00:48:34,590 --> 00:48:37,990 out there, but not all of them, you guys, not all of them. 819 00:48:38,270 --> 00:48:41,630 The battles that take place behind closed doors, most people 820 00:48:41,630 --> 00:48:44,430 never see that stuff. So you got to have people you 821 00:48:44,430 --> 00:48:47,740 can pray with that you trust. And we need more Dan the balls 822 00:48:47,740 --> 00:48:50,580 out there. We need more Carly's out there 823 00:48:50,580 --> 00:48:53,140 at this point in time. Oh man, so. 824 00:48:53,460 --> 00:48:56,860 Yeah, we need to wake up to who we are and, and and I think 825 00:48:56,860 --> 00:49:00,820 that's where the rubber meets the road is when you're moving 826 00:49:00,820 --> 00:49:05,020 in your identity and you're not living a life of watered down 827 00:49:05,020 --> 00:49:07,540 identity. It's not, it's not a theological 828 00:49:07,540 --> 00:49:13,180 exercise of personality, right? It's if you punch me in the face 829 00:49:13,180 --> 00:49:15,700 and wake me up and ask me who I am, I'm going to know my name. 830 00:49:16,210 --> 00:49:17,250 It doesn't matter what's going on. 831 00:49:17,250 --> 00:49:19,290 Like I'm going to know my own name, right? 832 00:49:19,290 --> 00:49:22,490 Because it has been with me. It is who I am, frankly. 833 00:49:22,530 --> 00:49:23,730 Right? This name. 834 00:49:23,970 --> 00:49:25,330 And the Lord has a different name for me. 835 00:49:25,330 --> 00:49:28,250 But my point is, is that it's got to be so in us. 836 00:49:28,930 --> 00:49:32,210 And how does this come? This comes by fellowship, time 837 00:49:32,210 --> 00:49:35,090 and the Word. Realizing that God is with you 838 00:49:36,050 --> 00:49:39,410 all the time and he will speak to you through little things. 839 00:49:39,410 --> 00:49:42,770 Just like you said. That moment you, you cross paths 840 00:49:42,770 --> 00:49:43,930 to somebody. They said a thing. 841 00:49:43,930 --> 00:49:45,490 It's stuck with you. That's the Lord. 842 00:49:46,440 --> 00:49:49,360 That's the Lord right there, and it's learning to recognize those 843 00:49:49,360 --> 00:49:51,360 little moments. I tell you, I've had the Lord 844 00:49:51,360 --> 00:49:54,120 show up and talk to me through the silliest things. 845 00:49:57,160 --> 00:50:00,360 It's so simple. Because he it's not always this 846 00:50:00,760 --> 00:50:04,280 deep esoteric searching. There's that too, right? 847 00:50:04,600 --> 00:50:08,000 There's that, too. But there's also that time you 848 00:50:08,000 --> 00:50:11,560 see a flower budding. And he talks to you about the 849 00:50:11,560 --> 00:50:15,200 cycles of life and how you'll always be born again and again. 850 00:50:15,200 --> 00:50:18,400 And there's always hope and there's always newness of life 851 00:50:18,400 --> 00:50:21,400 in him. It's it's just that simple. 852 00:50:21,400 --> 00:50:23,840 But we have to choose to, to look for it. 853 00:50:24,480 --> 00:50:28,160 Expect the Lord to show up in the every day Ness of your life. 854 00:50:28,160 --> 00:50:30,440 He will talk to you when you're folding your laundry. 855 00:50:30,960 --> 00:50:34,960 He will show you how to be grateful in the mundane things 856 00:50:34,960 --> 00:50:39,630 of life, because he's there too. God isn't just there to be met 857 00:50:39,630 --> 00:50:41,030 when you're in your prayer closet. 858 00:50:41,030 --> 00:50:43,430 He's there to be met when you're tying your shoes and you're 859 00:50:43,430 --> 00:50:45,630 running your kids to this place and that place and you're 860 00:50:45,630 --> 00:50:48,910 vacuuming your carpet. It's all the Bible says. 861 00:50:48,910 --> 00:50:54,070 Do all things unto the Lord, Yeah, and and that's a 862 00:50:54,070 --> 00:50:55,990 relationship. But we're talking about, we're 863 00:50:55,990 --> 00:50:59,870 literally talking about a relationship, how we are 864 00:50:59,870 --> 00:51:02,710 relating to God, because clearly he is there. 865 00:51:02,710 --> 00:51:05,430 Whether somebody out there is listening to this or like, I 866 00:51:05,430 --> 00:51:07,190 don't see him, though I don't feel him. 867 00:51:07,740 --> 00:51:09,860 We can't always base it on on feelings. 868 00:51:09,860 --> 00:51:15,380 Faith is is not by sight. It's not by sight, you guys. 869 00:51:16,460 --> 00:51:19,340 Your faith can increase, grow if you whether you have a blindfold 870 00:51:19,340 --> 00:51:21,980 on or not. You know faith is the substance 871 00:51:21,980 --> 00:51:24,820 of things hoped for, the evidence of the unseen. 872 00:51:25,020 --> 00:51:27,780 And I love what you said, Carly. I love what you said about 873 00:51:28,060 --> 00:51:32,300 looking at the everyday things because I get distracted on. 874 00:51:32,340 --> 00:51:35,580 I work in a factory 4050 hours a week, right? 875 00:51:36,100 --> 00:51:37,860 You know, I have a young kid, right? 876 00:51:37,900 --> 00:51:41,460 I got land, I got chickens here. And I'm like, I'm trying to get 877 00:51:41,460 --> 00:51:43,140 all this stuff done. And a lot of times I'll be like, 878 00:51:43,980 --> 00:51:46,220 I'll just have to laugh at myself and be like, man, I 879 00:51:46,220 --> 00:51:49,940 cannot take myself too serious. God, I am like, go, go, go, 880 00:51:49,940 --> 00:51:51,420 right. I got veins popping out. 881 00:51:51,420 --> 00:51:53,700 I'm sweating out here and I haven't talked to you all day. 882 00:51:53,700 --> 00:51:56,140 Lord, like, what am I doing? Like, what is going on around 883 00:51:56,180 --> 00:51:56,660 here? Right? 884 00:51:57,100 --> 00:51:59,700 And then I'll just start to soak it up with him for a minute. 885 00:51:59,700 --> 00:52:04,540 But I wish that literally I had more of the training to see that 886 00:52:04,940 --> 00:52:07,340 just by models, by examples, Carly. 887 00:52:07,670 --> 00:52:11,470 Lord knows this is the thing. Next time you're shoveling 888 00:52:11,470 --> 00:52:13,830 chicken poop, ask the Lord to be there with you. 889 00:52:13,830 --> 00:52:15,510 When you're shoveling the chicken poop. 890 00:52:16,470 --> 00:52:19,350 When you're when you're sweating and you're running around and 891 00:52:19,350 --> 00:52:22,270 you're, you know, your frazzle. Lord, just be here with me 892 00:52:22,630 --> 00:52:27,030 because it's learning to walk in the mundane things, right? 893 00:52:27,070 --> 00:52:30,350 And and like if my husband were to leave my house and go be in a 894 00:52:30,350 --> 00:52:32,630 different country for a month, if I didn't see him, let's say 895 00:52:32,630 --> 00:52:34,990 our phones are broken and we couldn't talk, would he be any 896 00:52:34,990 --> 00:52:36,470 less my husband because he's over there? 897 00:52:37,590 --> 00:52:41,190 He wouldn't. It isn't the IT isn't. 898 00:52:41,350 --> 00:52:46,990 If we've base our faith purely on our experiential, sensual 899 00:52:46,990 --> 00:52:49,430 aspects of of our relationship with God, we're going to be 900 00:52:49,430 --> 00:52:54,670 disappointed in seasons because. Sometimes you just have to trust 901 00:52:54,910 --> 00:52:57,870 Lords. I'm struggling the chicken poop 902 00:52:59,190 --> 00:53:02,110 and you're here with me because I got to shovel it. 903 00:53:02,350 --> 00:53:04,350 You've you've made me Stewart, right? 904 00:53:04,850 --> 00:53:06,970 You you you told me to tend and keep the garden. 905 00:53:06,970 --> 00:53:10,370 I got these chickens now I got to bless them in Jesus name. 906 00:53:10,370 --> 00:53:11,650 Maybe they'll poop a little less. 907 00:53:11,650 --> 00:53:13,690 I don't know. But you know what I mean? 908 00:53:14,850 --> 00:53:17,250 Give me more eggs, less poop in Jesus name. 909 00:53:17,250 --> 00:53:19,690 Amen. You know But you got to in All 910 00:53:19,690 --> 00:53:21,650 in all things pray without ceasing. 911 00:53:21,650 --> 00:53:24,970 Do all things unto the Lord that mean what that is, is just an 912 00:53:25,010 --> 00:53:27,850 invitation Lord invites. There's seasons in my life where 913 00:53:27,850 --> 00:53:33,050 I like I'm a spiritual warrior, but there are seasons in my life 914 00:53:33,050 --> 00:53:36,200 when I'm like I cannot. I'm just in my turtle shell, 915 00:53:36,640 --> 00:53:41,480 like peeking out going Lord, I ain't going, no, Sir, I'm not 916 00:53:41,480 --> 00:53:43,200 going out there. You're going to have to come in 917 00:53:43,200 --> 00:53:45,160 here with me. And he does. 918 00:53:45,160 --> 00:53:49,320 And it doesn't change the things that's happening in my life 919 00:53:49,320 --> 00:53:53,680 necessarily in the moment. But I know I've invited into 920 00:53:53,680 --> 00:54:00,000 him, into a place, and that's meaningful because every time we 921 00:54:00,000 --> 00:54:03,570 give the Lord our yes. Every time we open a door for 922 00:54:03,570 --> 00:54:06,930 him to come in, he's faithful to Sup with us. 923 00:54:08,330 --> 00:54:10,770 And you know what? His presence gives us strength. 924 00:54:10,770 --> 00:54:14,330 His presence gives us peace. And next thing we know, we look 925 00:54:14,330 --> 00:54:17,250 back and we go. I don't know how I got over, but 926 00:54:17,250 --> 00:54:23,450 I know one day I said Jesus yes. And that's all it takes, is it's 927 00:54:23,450 --> 00:54:27,210 not always complicated. It's not always taking time 928 00:54:27,210 --> 00:54:29,610 aside and stopping what you're doing, and that's great too. 929 00:54:29,610 --> 00:54:32,370 But if you're in a seasonal life that you can't do that, there's 930 00:54:32,370 --> 00:54:35,650 grace for that. Invite him when you're cleaning 931 00:54:35,650 --> 00:54:37,250 the toilet. Like, just do it. 932 00:54:37,250 --> 00:54:41,410 He's not afraid. He's not a he's not so uppity 933 00:54:41,410 --> 00:54:44,570 that he can't be in the shower talking to you while you're 934 00:54:44,570 --> 00:54:50,050 crying like he's got big shoulders and he's not easily 935 00:54:50,050 --> 00:54:51,290 offended. So. 936 00:54:51,620 --> 00:54:53,340 You know, talk to Jesus when you're on the toilet. 937 00:54:53,380 --> 00:54:55,900 He don't mind. I promise he doesn't. 938 00:54:56,260 --> 00:54:59,100 He just wants to be invited in. Yeah. 939 00:55:00,580 --> 00:55:04,100 You know, I'm really happy that I love when the episode just 940 00:55:04,100 --> 00:55:06,940 goes organic organically, just flows. 941 00:55:06,980 --> 00:55:10,900 And this is, this is a reminder for me and for everybody 942 00:55:10,900 --> 00:55:16,220 listening, just to include the Lord and more of what we're 943 00:55:16,220 --> 00:55:17,620 doing. Cuz he's there anyway. 944 00:55:18,180 --> 00:55:22,260 He's already there and so including him in that is really 945 00:55:22,260 --> 00:55:27,940 you saying yes to God. I know that you're there and it 946 00:55:27,940 --> 00:55:29,900 reminds me of what repentance is. 947 00:55:30,140 --> 00:55:34,180 Repentance is a change of mind. It's changing our mind. 948 00:55:34,900 --> 00:55:38,860 We we can change our mind about how we are dealing with things 949 00:55:38,860 --> 00:55:41,660 about what's going on on our day-to-day. 950 00:55:42,180 --> 00:55:45,300 It's just it's such a great a great place to come to. 951 00:55:45,300 --> 00:55:49,840 Now we have, we have a close here in about 10 minutes. 952 00:55:49,840 --> 00:55:52,040 So I'm going to say this right now, you're you got to come back 953 00:55:52,040 --> 00:55:55,040 for Part 2 because we we have so much more to get through. 954 00:55:55,600 --> 00:56:00,200 Yes, but I want it. I just wanted to say something. 955 00:56:00,200 --> 00:56:03,280 I don't mean to butt in, but I want to say one more thing. 956 00:56:04,440 --> 00:56:06,840 After I got saved, it wasn't all roses. 957 00:56:09,960 --> 00:56:15,080 I ended up in a a church where the pastor was predatory, 958 00:56:15,080 --> 00:56:18,880 sexually predatory towards me and. 959 00:56:19,270 --> 00:56:23,710 In the light of a lifetime of brokenness and self betrayal and 960 00:56:23,750 --> 00:56:28,230 condemnation, I was so vulnerable, even though I was an 961 00:56:28,230 --> 00:56:31,670 adult and a mother of two sons like I should have, quote UN 962 00:56:31,670 --> 00:56:33,670 quote, known better. And I think that's the thing 963 00:56:33,670 --> 00:56:38,030 that Enemy often says to people who are agewise adults, but 964 00:56:38,190 --> 00:56:40,350 they're not. We're not there yet because of 965 00:56:40,590 --> 00:56:46,550 unresolved trauma and hurts and I really want to speak to. 966 00:56:48,310 --> 00:56:51,990 I want to share my testimony in this place, and it's it's very 967 00:56:51,990 --> 00:56:55,510 vulnerable and raw. It's not pretty to listen to. 968 00:56:55,590 --> 00:56:59,510 Some people might not even like me when we're done, like, right? 969 00:56:59,870 --> 00:57:02,230 But the truth of the matter is these things happen. 970 00:57:02,590 --> 00:57:04,710 Church hurts. Go beyond being disappointed 971 00:57:04,710 --> 00:57:07,070 that you didn't get crowned to Deacon, OK? 972 00:57:08,070 --> 00:57:12,150 They they can become a rending of the soul. 973 00:57:12,150 --> 00:57:14,990 That makes you question if he's even real. 974 00:57:17,220 --> 00:57:20,140 And there's people out there who have lived that, like I have 975 00:57:20,140 --> 00:57:22,940 lived that. And there was a point in my life 976 00:57:23,020 --> 00:57:27,580 after I, after I finally admitted to my husband what had 977 00:57:27,580 --> 00:57:32,020 happened to me, that I said to the Lord, Look, I don't know 978 00:57:32,220 --> 00:57:33,740 anything. Nothing. 979 00:57:34,300 --> 00:57:38,500 The sky might not even be blue. I might not even be me. 980 00:57:38,900 --> 00:57:42,820 The seasons might not be real. Yo, I know two things. 981 00:57:42,820 --> 00:57:43,820 That's it. Two things. 982 00:57:45,060 --> 00:57:48,490 God is good. Jesus is Lord, and so help me 983 00:57:48,490 --> 00:57:50,530 God, you're going to have to build everything else back. 984 00:57:50,530 --> 00:57:57,010 Because it broke me so deeply, was like the culmination of all 985 00:57:57,010 --> 00:57:59,530 my worst traumas took place in the church. 986 00:57:59,530 --> 00:58:05,250 And it shouldn't be like that, but it was. 987 00:58:05,850 --> 00:58:09,570 And there's a way through and there's an overcoming that's 988 00:58:09,570 --> 00:58:12,690 available and it's not time to give up and it's not time to 989 00:58:12,690 --> 00:58:14,610 pack up and go to the new age, no. 990 00:58:15,340 --> 00:58:18,940 Because sometimes the people who are call themselves Christians, 991 00:58:19,260 --> 00:58:21,980 they may be well meaning, but they got their own unresolved 992 00:58:21,980 --> 00:58:26,860 stuff. This is facts. 993 00:58:27,260 --> 00:58:27,940 This. Facts. 994 00:58:28,340 --> 00:58:30,220 Wow. And it and it took a toll. 995 00:58:30,220 --> 00:58:32,060 It took, it affected my marriage. 996 00:58:32,740 --> 00:58:35,820 It it, and we've had to be building back ever since. 997 00:58:36,500 --> 00:58:40,820 It affected my new family when I got married again and I had that 998 00:58:40,820 --> 00:58:43,580 courage to get married again. But the Lord was in it. 999 00:58:44,220 --> 00:58:47,780 Every step of the way. Not every day and not every 1000 00:58:47,780 --> 00:58:50,780 moment could I see it. But he has been faithfully 1001 00:58:51,780 --> 00:58:56,060 putting me back together since the moment I confessed to my 1002 00:58:56,060 --> 00:58:59,820 husband what had happened to me. He's been building us back, but 1003 00:58:59,820 --> 00:59:04,180 it's been a very difficult Rd. But this is where the Lord calls 1004 00:59:04,180 --> 00:59:07,020 people overcomers. Overcomers have overcome some 1005 00:59:07,020 --> 00:59:09,860 stuff. They didn't just arrive on a a 1006 00:59:10,420 --> 00:59:14,040 valet of roses. You have to fight for stuff. 1007 00:59:14,080 --> 00:59:16,680 If it matters to you, you have to buckle down and do it. 1008 00:59:16,680 --> 00:59:20,480 And if you can't do it, you invite Jesus into your I can't 1009 00:59:20,480 --> 00:59:24,480 do this right now. And I I would just love to come 1010 00:59:24,480 --> 00:59:28,360 back and talk about the truth of what happened to me and just 1011 00:59:28,760 --> 00:59:33,280 pray that it allows other people who've been through similar 1012 00:59:33,280 --> 00:59:38,960 situations to say to Jesus, yes, again, because he's faithful. 1013 00:59:41,150 --> 00:59:43,230 Absolutely. And you're definitely going to 1014 00:59:43,230 --> 00:59:47,550 come back. I know you just for a sneak peek 1015 00:59:47,550 --> 00:59:52,670 for the listeners you have some information or possibly is an 1016 00:59:52,670 --> 00:59:56,190 experience with Sasquatch and different hauntings of sort. 1017 00:59:57,230 --> 01:00:01,750 Quick left, yeah. Yeah, we're. 1018 01:00:02,310 --> 01:00:03,710 Want me to touch on that a little bit? 1019 01:00:03,710 --> 01:00:06,910 Little Sasquatch sprinkles. Just a little glimmer of 1020 01:00:06,910 --> 01:00:09,990 Sasquatch. Because I love Bigfoot and 1021 01:00:10,030 --> 01:00:14,430 crickets in general, yeah, yeah, I just, I have to go there and 1022 01:00:14,430 --> 01:00:18,270 we're going to do this as as literally because the audience 1023 01:00:18,270 --> 01:00:20,910 is going to expect us to talk about this when you come back. 1024 01:00:20,910 --> 01:00:23,310 And and I think that that's going to be a lot of fun. 1025 01:00:23,310 --> 01:00:27,110 But give us a couple little glimmers here of Sasquatch. 1026 01:00:27,710 --> 01:00:30,070 What's going on there? What's going on? 1027 01:00:30,550 --> 01:00:32,750 With Sasquatch soup? Okay so. 1028 01:00:33,930 --> 01:00:37,250 My grandparents of my mom's mom's house was haunted and 1029 01:00:37,330 --> 01:00:41,130 crazy and weird and at night my this was out by the Shaquanmaga 1030 01:00:41,130 --> 01:00:43,450 National Forest out in Wisconsin, North Central, 1031 01:00:43,450 --> 01:00:46,410 Wisconsin, little town, middle of nowhere. 1032 01:00:46,730 --> 01:00:49,690 You can see the whole Milky Way in the sky at night, legit 1033 01:00:50,250 --> 01:00:54,330 nowhere'sville. And so there was always my 1034 01:00:54,330 --> 01:00:56,170 grandma would call them poltergeist and they'd move 1035 01:00:56,170 --> 01:00:59,410 things around the house and and there'd be there's this one room 1036 01:00:59,410 --> 01:01:01,890 that there were shadow people and dark. 1037 01:01:02,300 --> 01:01:03,700 Cold. It was always cold. 1038 01:01:03,700 --> 01:01:05,300 It was. It was strange. 1039 01:01:05,300 --> 01:01:08,700 But the Sasquatch thing was my grandma would always shut the 1040 01:01:08,700 --> 01:01:11,860 curtains at night. Because that's funny, because 1041 01:01:11,860 --> 01:01:14,740 not everybody in my family is sensitive to it, but there was a 1042 01:01:14,740 --> 01:01:17,060 handful of us that were and it just felt like someone was 1043 01:01:17,060 --> 01:01:21,750 watching us through the window. So nobody would want to look out 1044 01:01:21,750 --> 01:01:24,630 the window at night. My grandma actually went so far 1045 01:01:24,790 --> 01:01:27,230 as to have a history of the land, to see, like where they're 1046 01:01:27,230 --> 01:01:29,670 at Native American burial grounds or something, because 1047 01:01:29,670 --> 01:01:32,630 the place was just weird. But one night, this is the 1048 01:01:32,630 --> 01:01:36,190 Sasquatch encounter. You won't find me on Sasquatch 1049 01:01:36,190 --> 01:01:38,990 Chronicles because it's too short of a story, but it's 1050 01:01:38,990 --> 01:01:42,750 perfect for this timing. So my grandma had just passed 1051 01:01:42,750 --> 01:01:45,870 away and my whole family was at the house. 1052 01:01:46,460 --> 01:01:48,940 And it was old farmhouse. You walk out the door and you 1053 01:01:48,940 --> 01:01:51,180 got to walk a little ways to the car. 1054 01:01:51,180 --> 01:01:54,140 Ever the people who are sensitive to these things, we we 1055 01:01:54,140 --> 01:01:56,740 did not go outside at night by ourselves because it just was 1056 01:01:56,740 --> 01:01:59,220 freaky. It was freaky. 1057 01:01:59,540 --> 01:02:00,700 But this time I'm like, you know what? 1058 01:02:00,700 --> 01:02:02,540 I'm saved. I got Jesus, me and Jesus, we're 1059 01:02:02,540 --> 01:02:03,580 going to the car. Hey. 1060 01:02:04,380 --> 01:02:07,180 So I it's night. I walk out and I go to my car to 1061 01:02:07,180 --> 01:02:11,220 get whatever I was going to get. And I looked down the driveway 1062 01:02:11,340 --> 01:02:14,500 between the garage and the barn, and there was like this. 1063 01:02:15,390 --> 01:02:18,270 It's hard to tell but I would say about 8 or 9 feet tall based 1064 01:02:18,270 --> 01:02:22,150 on a tree that it was standing next to hulking black figure. 1065 01:02:23,070 --> 01:02:26,150 And the reason why I say was Sasquatch is because the build 1066 01:02:26,150 --> 01:02:33,190 it was like the head of the thing was my God, it was like 2 1067 01:02:33,190 --> 01:02:38,910 huge watermelons and there was probably 4 1/2 feet wide and it 1068 01:02:38,910 --> 01:02:42,590 was because there was a light down that way down the hill it 1069 01:02:42,590 --> 01:02:43,830 was in relief. So. 1070 01:02:44,860 --> 01:02:48,020 I couldn't see features because the light was behind the thing 1071 01:02:48,340 --> 01:02:53,020 down the yard, probably 25 yards, based on me eyeballing a 1072 01:02:53,020 --> 01:02:57,700 football field in my brain, OK, And and I just looked at it and 1073 01:02:57,700 --> 01:02:59,260 I stopped and look and I'm like frozen. 1074 01:02:59,540 --> 01:03:03,980 And this thing's looking at me. And I just grabbed my stuff, 1075 01:03:03,980 --> 01:03:08,740 shut the door. I was like, Lord, this devil 1076 01:03:09,100 --> 01:03:11,380 Sasquatch thing is not going to see me running. 1077 01:03:11,580 --> 01:03:14,760 So I'm not running. Right. 1078 01:03:14,920 --> 01:03:18,560 So I start to, like, walk quickly controlled way back to 1079 01:03:18,560 --> 01:03:22,160 the house and went inside and I told my mom, she's like, you 1080 01:03:22,160 --> 01:03:24,680 shouldn't even be going outside at night by yourself. 1081 01:03:26,240 --> 01:03:27,480 Wow. But that was The thing is, is 1082 01:03:27,480 --> 01:03:29,720 between always feeling like someone's looking through the 1083 01:03:29,720 --> 01:03:32,120 window and then this one occurrence, you know, and I've 1084 01:03:32,120 --> 01:03:36,170 seen spirits before. I've that's a whole nother 1085 01:03:36,170 --> 01:03:37,530 thing. That's another podcast for 1086 01:03:37,530 --> 01:03:39,410 another day. But between the Ouija board and 1087 01:03:39,410 --> 01:03:43,290 my own seances and channeling and trying to resurrect the soul 1088 01:03:43,290 --> 01:03:46,730 of my dead father, I've seen a lot of spiritual stuff. 1089 01:03:46,970 --> 01:03:50,530 And this was not that. This was a very physical 1090 01:03:50,530 --> 01:03:55,170 something. So you see the silhouette of of 1091 01:03:55,170 --> 01:03:59,290 the Bigfoot, right? And and now let's end it with 1092 01:03:59,290 --> 01:04:03,010 this Okay, what do you think it was? 1093 01:04:03,050 --> 01:04:06,340 A physical creature? Completely physical? 1094 01:04:06,980 --> 01:04:10,660 Or do you think it was a spiritual being that manifested 1095 01:04:11,220 --> 01:04:13,780 into the physical? What do you think Sasquatch is? 1096 01:04:14,180 --> 01:04:15,580 Yeah, but that's that's a loaded question. 1097 01:04:16,020 --> 01:04:18,780 The reason why I think this was a the reason why I think it's 1098 01:04:18,780 --> 01:04:22,380 both. I think just like all creation, 1099 01:04:22,540 --> 01:04:26,900 it's sentient. It has self-awareness, it has 1100 01:04:27,140 --> 01:04:30,740 spiritual stuff about it. It's a it was a physical thing, 1101 01:04:30,740 --> 01:04:37,130 so it's physically there, but. You know you can't feel the 1102 01:04:37,170 --> 01:04:39,570 energy of something that isn't alive. 1103 01:04:39,850 --> 01:04:42,890 If you take a dead flower and put it on the table, you're not 1104 01:04:42,890 --> 01:04:45,650 really going to be able to feel the energy of it is not an 1105 01:04:45,650 --> 01:04:49,850 animate object, right? Only the things that are alive 1106 01:04:49,850 --> 01:04:54,250 and have an energetic feel. The soul, if you will. 1107 01:04:54,330 --> 01:04:58,570 I hesitate to use that term technically, but then you can 1108 01:04:58,570 --> 01:05:02,900 feel it, so I think. As far as the whole Sasquatch 1109 01:05:02,900 --> 01:05:07,860 conversation goes, I think they are, they're different. 1110 01:05:07,860 --> 01:05:10,420 There's there's different ones that can do different things. 1111 01:05:10,420 --> 01:05:13,260 Just like people, we have different gifts, we have 1112 01:05:13,260 --> 01:05:16,020 different abilities and and maybe some of us are lumped 1113 01:05:16,020 --> 01:05:18,740 into, you know, having a prophetic bent or some of us are 1114 01:05:18,740 --> 01:05:21,140 lumped into this. I think Sasquatch is the same 1115 01:05:21,140 --> 01:05:23,460 way. It's the it's a physical entity 1116 01:05:23,740 --> 01:05:27,500 that has supernatural expressions and abilities. 1117 01:05:27,500 --> 01:05:29,420 So people have talked about it cloaking. 1118 01:05:30,650 --> 01:05:34,250 Or disappearing or. Or its energy, like debilitating 1119 01:05:34,250 --> 01:05:36,650 you. The frequency of its voice. 1120 01:05:37,210 --> 01:05:42,930 I think all of these things lend to believing that it has a 1121 01:05:42,970 --> 01:05:47,650 spiritual ability that is different than our own. 1122 01:05:49,490 --> 01:05:53,790 So I would say it's both. And yeah, I really like, I 1123 01:05:53,790 --> 01:05:57,350 really like your answer. I I feel very, very similar. 1124 01:05:58,030 --> 01:06:01,190 I still haven't made my mind up 100%, but I know it's not just 1125 01:06:01,670 --> 01:06:04,030 an ape man running around out in the woods. 1126 01:06:04,030 --> 01:06:06,790 It's so much more than that. And I've never had an encounter 1127 01:06:06,790 --> 01:06:13,270 with one but but I've, you know dealt with some other cryptids 1128 01:06:13,270 --> 01:06:17,910 if you will. And from what I hear it sounds 1129 01:06:17,910 --> 01:06:21,560 very similar, the way that these things make you feel and the 1130 01:06:21,560 --> 01:06:25,560 presence that they carry. And it's a battle we we're in a 1131 01:06:25,560 --> 01:06:28,920 battlefield that all of this is it's a battlefield. 1132 01:06:29,360 --> 01:06:32,600 And Carly, it was it was a pleasure to have you on and we 1133 01:06:32,600 --> 01:06:36,000 didn't get into enough of your story. 1134 01:06:36,000 --> 01:06:40,320 So a Part 2 is guaranteed and I just want to I just want to give 1135 01:06:40,320 --> 01:06:42,720 you a real quick space. If if you have some kind of 1136 01:06:42,720 --> 01:06:47,360 winding down words for us here and if you have anything where 1137 01:06:47,750 --> 01:06:49,710 if a listener wants to reach out to you, if you have like a 1138 01:06:49,710 --> 01:06:52,430 social media site or just anything at all, feel free to 1139 01:06:52,430 --> 01:06:57,310 plug that and give us some closing thoughts and words just 1140 01:06:58,310 --> 01:07:00,590 on your experience here this far and. 1141 01:07:02,790 --> 01:07:04,430 I think you could put it in the show notes. 1142 01:07:04,430 --> 01:07:06,710 You could just share my Gmail account. 1143 01:07:06,710 --> 01:07:08,390 I'm not big on social media like. 1144 01:07:08,990 --> 01:07:12,070 You know, China's watching us, Facebook censoring us. 1145 01:07:12,070 --> 01:07:16,350 So what are we going to say? My face, my social media is not 1146 01:07:16,350 --> 01:07:19,030 very interesting, folks. So if you do want to reach out 1147 01:07:19,030 --> 01:07:21,070 to me for some other reason, just e-mail me. 1148 01:07:21,070 --> 01:07:25,870 I'll give Rod that information, as in, in closing thoughts. 1149 01:07:28,790 --> 01:07:32,590 You're not disqualified because of the things that you've been 1150 01:07:32,590 --> 01:07:35,830 through. God. 1151 01:07:36,990 --> 01:07:38,950 God can love you back into wholeness. 1152 01:07:40,630 --> 01:07:43,430 It's not a snap of a finger. It's not an easy Rd. 1153 01:07:44,670 --> 01:07:48,670 But you get closer every time you give him your yes. 1154 01:07:51,710 --> 01:07:56,870 And there's hope. There's hope for people who 1155 01:07:56,870 --> 01:08:01,430 maybe don't know him know Jesus, it's not another moral code to 1156 01:08:01,430 --> 01:08:04,950 live by. You could pick a moral code from 1157 01:08:04,950 --> 01:08:11,240 any religions of the world. Jesus is the embodiment of all 1158 01:08:11,240 --> 01:08:18,319 of creation, including you. It's it's not about learning to 1159 01:08:18,319 --> 01:08:20,120 not do this and to start doing that. 1160 01:08:20,120 --> 01:08:26,600 It's about learning truly who you are in Him because you're 1161 01:08:26,600 --> 01:08:29,520 not separate. And if you've spent your life 1162 01:08:29,520 --> 01:08:31,960 feeling separate from something that's bigger than you, I 1163 01:08:31,960 --> 01:08:34,720 promise you. If you genuinely seek truth in 1164 01:08:34,720 --> 01:08:36,479 your life, you will land at Jesus. 1165 01:08:37,960 --> 01:08:41,720 You will land at Jesus. I I took a long, windy crazy Rd. 1166 01:08:41,720 --> 01:08:48,200 but I got there too, and if he could bring me there, his hand 1167 01:08:48,200 --> 01:08:51,720 isn't far from you. And so I hope you come back for 1168 01:08:51,720 --> 01:08:56,040 Part 2, because we're going to talk about some of the harder 1169 01:08:56,040 --> 01:09:02,359 things, some of the testimonies, cosmic justice cases. 1170 01:09:03,899 --> 01:09:07,380 As Daniel says, and and we're going to stomp the devil in the 1171 01:09:07,380 --> 01:09:10,180 face, because you know what, that's what he's got coming. 1172 01:09:10,300 --> 01:09:12,460 So I'm going to tell my testimony and it's going to be 1173 01:09:12,460 --> 01:09:15,540 vulnerable and real, but I'm not ashamed and I don't think 1174 01:09:15,540 --> 01:09:18,060 anybody else should be either. Because the truth be told is 1175 01:09:18,060 --> 01:09:21,380 that vulnerability is a weapon of the Lord as well. 1176 01:09:22,300 --> 01:09:25,260 Because you know what? Nobody can hurt me. 1177 01:09:26,140 --> 01:09:28,920 They can't hurt me. I can tell you the dark and 1178 01:09:28,920 --> 01:09:32,240 crazy horrible things, the terrible decisions I've made, as 1179 01:09:32,240 --> 01:09:39,520 ugly as I've been, and who can take something, Who can take 1180 01:09:39,520 --> 01:09:41,880 something from me without the Lord say so? 1181 01:09:42,720 --> 01:09:44,560 I better. I'd be vulnerable and honest 1182 01:09:44,560 --> 01:09:48,200 with the things that I've been through and help somebody else 1183 01:09:48,359 --> 01:09:50,840 than to be afraid of what somebody else might think. 1184 01:09:51,240 --> 01:09:54,480 God forbid. Psalms 106. 1185 01:09:55,120 --> 01:09:59,070 Praise ye the Lord, Oh give thanks unto the Lord, for he is 1186 01:09:59,070 --> 01:10:04,390 good for his mercy. Endureth forever, who can utter 1187 01:10:04,390 --> 01:10:07,790 the mighty acts of the Lord? Who can show forth all of his 1188 01:10:07,790 --> 01:10:10,870 praise? Blessed are they that keep 1189 01:10:10,870 --> 01:10:13,830 judgment, and he that do with righteousness. 1190 01:10:13,870 --> 01:10:18,230 At all times. Remember Me, Lord, with thy 1191 01:10:18,230 --> 01:10:21,350 favor that thou bearest unto their people. 1192 01:10:22,070 --> 01:10:27,460 Oh, visit me with thy salvation, that I might see the good of 1193 01:10:27,460 --> 01:10:31,460 that chosen, that I may rejoice in the gladness of thy nation, 1194 01:10:32,300 --> 01:10:34,940 that I may glory with thine inheritance. 1195 01:10:36,500 --> 01:10:40,980 Carly, it was an honor to have you here and to hear your story. 1196 01:10:41,220 --> 01:10:44,140 I know that this one was an emotional roller coaster, and we 1197 01:10:44,140 --> 01:10:46,780 didn't even get into the meat of her story yet. 1198 01:10:46,780 --> 01:10:50,380 This is just an introduction, so share this one with your 1199 01:10:50,380 --> 01:10:52,300 friends, family members, with your coworker. 1200 01:10:52,780 --> 01:10:54,220 Thank you. That's all man. 1201 01:10:55,060 --> 01:10:57,100 God bless. And goodbye.