1 00:00:00,440 --> 00:00:02,840 How's Gunner 1? Today we have a story time of 2 00:00:02,840 --> 00:00:07,120 probably the cringes kid in the world, and I can say that for a 3 00:00:07,120 --> 00:00:12,760 fact because he is me. Yes, finally long-awaited. 4 00:00:13,360 --> 00:00:17,720 I'm telling you guys one of my most cringey stories of all 5 00:00:17,720 --> 00:00:21,000 time. And also this is a Spotify 6 00:00:21,000 --> 00:00:23,360 exclusive video. You cannot find this on my 7 00:00:23,360 --> 00:00:25,840 YouTube. So hello Spotify listeners. 8 00:00:25,840 --> 00:00:27,600 Thank you guys so much for supporting me. 9 00:00:27,840 --> 00:00:31,760 Make sure to follow the podcast, rate it five stars, and then 10 00:00:31,760 --> 00:00:35,080 drop a comment telling me your favorite story time on this 11 00:00:35,080 --> 00:00:36,800 channel. And with that being said, 12 00:00:36,800 --> 00:00:39,400 Spotify and I can finally just talk to you guys. 13 00:00:39,680 --> 00:00:42,000 Let's get into this story. We're going to call the 14 00:00:42,000 --> 00:00:44,600 subscriber who submit. Wait a minute, we're going to 15 00:00:44,600 --> 00:00:49,040 call this guy in the story me. And I can finally say it from 16 00:00:49,040 --> 00:00:52,520 the first person's perspective. So this was back when I was in 17 00:00:52,520 --> 00:00:55,040 fifth grade. I was going to a tennis camp 18 00:00:55,040 --> 00:00:58,120 because I played a lot of tennis and I'm actually still pretty 19 00:00:58,120 --> 00:01:00,440 good. I just never got good enough to 20 00:01:00,440 --> 00:01:02,560 be the college level, but I was pretty close. 21 00:01:03,160 --> 00:01:05,680 Anyways, I was going to this college, to this tennis camp. 22 00:01:05,880 --> 00:01:09,760 It was primarily an overnight camp, but I live close enough 23 00:01:09,760 --> 00:01:11,520 that I was one of the day students at the camp. 24 00:01:12,200 --> 00:01:15,960 So anyways, we get there. You know, I'm in fifth grade. 25 00:01:15,960 --> 00:01:18,480 I don't know if I've ever shown on the Internet photos of me in 26 00:01:18,480 --> 00:01:20,200 fifth grade. It was a mess. 27 00:01:21,080 --> 00:01:24,760 My hair looked terrible. I was inspired by like tennis 28 00:01:24,760 --> 00:01:28,240 players, like European tennis players with their long hair for 29 00:01:28,240 --> 00:01:30,160 me to have long hair. But it's terrible. 30 00:01:30,160 --> 00:01:32,240 Looked terrible. I had this long stray greasy 31 00:01:32,240 --> 00:01:33,200 hair. It sucked. 32 00:01:34,840 --> 00:01:37,120 Nothing wrong with long hair. In fact I kind of like rocking 33 00:01:37,120 --> 00:01:40,400 my hair a little longer now too. I think I look good but I played 34 00:01:40,400 --> 00:01:42,880 it very differently than back then when when I just had it 35 00:01:42,880 --> 00:01:47,160 straight like 2 crazy bangs. I basically look like the remake 36 00:01:47,160 --> 00:01:51,480 Rodrick in the new Diary of a Wimpy Kid version movie. 37 00:01:51,480 --> 00:01:53,680 But not like the good version. Not the original but like the 38 00:01:53,680 --> 00:01:55,280 remake that they kept trashing on. 39 00:01:55,720 --> 00:01:57,440 Basically look like him but blonde hair. 40 00:01:58,000 --> 00:02:01,440 So to Needless to say I was I was not going in hot. 41 00:02:01,920 --> 00:02:05,560 Anyways, I get there and I've always been through my entire 42 00:02:05,560 --> 00:02:07,800 life pretty much a hopeless romantic. 43 00:02:09,120 --> 00:02:12,440 Right now I'm a slightly hopeful romantic, but I've always been a 44 00:02:12,440 --> 00:02:13,920 hopeless romantic my entire life. 45 00:02:14,480 --> 00:02:16,920 It's always been fun. I've always had a fun life in 46 00:02:16,920 --> 00:02:20,080 that regard that I'm always failing but I'm failing and 47 00:02:20,080 --> 00:02:22,800 having a good time failing. I mean, the moment I might be 48 00:02:22,800 --> 00:02:26,520 sad, but anyways, I get there and there's this girl and we'll 49 00:02:26,520 --> 00:02:29,520 call her, we'll call her Maddie for the sake of this video that 50 00:02:29,520 --> 00:02:31,320 may or may not have actually been her name. 51 00:02:31,720 --> 00:02:34,240 I might just be lazy and be using her real name, but I'm not 52 00:02:34,240 --> 00:02:37,160 going to give like Social Security full first and last 53 00:02:37,160 --> 00:02:40,080 name or anything like that. But anyways, so there's this 54 00:02:40,080 --> 00:02:42,280 girl Maddie. She's like, you know, we're all 55 00:02:42,280 --> 00:02:43,400 sitting at the beginning at camp. 56 00:02:43,400 --> 00:02:46,080 They're doing the introductions and I see her from across the 57 00:02:46,080 --> 00:02:51,520 room and I'm just like, Oh my God, Oh my God, I, I, I got to 58 00:02:51,520 --> 00:02:55,280 talk to this girl. Anyways, so the day goes on, 59 00:02:56,040 --> 00:02:58,600 it's Sunday night. So the the camp is you get there 60 00:02:58,600 --> 00:03:02,520 Sunday night and then Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday and 61 00:03:02,520 --> 00:03:04,720 you leave Friday morning. It's 1/2 day. 62 00:03:05,240 --> 00:03:07,640 So it's a week, it's six days long or whatever. 63 00:03:08,000 --> 00:03:10,400 And she's an over overnight camper. 64 00:03:10,400 --> 00:03:12,920 I'm not. So throughout the week, you 65 00:03:12,920 --> 00:03:16,280 know, I'm playing tennis, I'm doing whatever and I'm like, 66 00:03:16,480 --> 00:03:18,280 still thinking about this girl. I'm thinking about this girl 67 00:03:18,280 --> 00:03:20,200 24/7. She's the only thing I'm 68 00:03:20,200 --> 00:03:22,520 thinking about during this time. I'm like, Oh my God, I got, I 69 00:03:22,520 --> 00:03:24,440 got to do something. I got to do something here. 70 00:03:25,400 --> 00:03:29,680 So my first plan, which thank God I didn't do this, but in my 71 00:03:29,680 --> 00:03:33,200 head, guys, I need you to like brace yourself for the cringe 72 00:03:33,520 --> 00:03:37,120 because it's about to be bad. Brace yourself for the cringe. 73 00:03:37,800 --> 00:03:43,040 But my first plan, right, my first plan to go about this was 74 00:03:43,160 --> 00:03:47,400 I was going to while she was walking with her friends to the 75 00:03:47,400 --> 00:03:49,400 tennis courts or back to the dining halls. 76 00:03:50,040 --> 00:03:55,360 I was going to go run up to her and say, oh, my God, I think 77 00:03:55,360 --> 00:03:56,680 you're so beautiful and run away. 78 00:03:56,680 --> 00:03:58,760 And in my head, I was like, that's a genius. 79 00:03:59,120 --> 00:04:02,920 How could that go wrong? And I know you think about it 80 00:04:02,920 --> 00:04:05,000 now and you think to yourself, Connor, how could that have gone 81 00:04:05,000 --> 00:04:08,120 right? And that is a great point. 82 00:04:08,480 --> 00:04:11,680 And thankfully, I never mustered up the courage to do that. 83 00:04:12,280 --> 00:04:16,480 And also about Wednesday, so we're getting more than halfway 84 00:04:16,480 --> 00:04:20,839 through the camp at this point, I discovered that she is 2 years 85 00:04:20,839 --> 00:04:23,800 older than me. I was 12 at the time and she was 86 00:04:23,800 --> 00:04:27,680 14. So I did the most copium cope of 87 00:04:27,680 --> 00:04:30,200 all time. I literally remember sitting 88 00:04:30,200 --> 00:04:33,760 somewhere and thinking, OK, that's not good. 89 00:04:33,880 --> 00:04:39,160 But think of it like this. I'm 12, which means I'm 90 00:04:39,160 --> 00:04:42,600 basically 13. You know, I'm I'm less than 12 91 00:04:42,600 --> 00:04:48,040 months away from that. On the flip side, she's 14, but 92 00:04:48,040 --> 00:04:53,680 she's not 15, so she's almost 13 and 13 = 13 and I'm basically 93 00:04:53,680 --> 00:04:54,800 13. She's basically 13. 94 00:04:54,800 --> 00:04:58,680 We're essentially the same age, which is nonsense. 95 00:04:59,800 --> 00:05:01,800 Guys. You got to realize that I was so 96 00:05:02,480 --> 00:05:05,320 just wanting this to work, that I just so desperately wanted 97 00:05:05,320 --> 00:05:08,400 this to work that I, I was throwing all logic or reason 98 00:05:08,400 --> 00:05:11,360 aside. Anyways, on the Thursday, it's 99 00:05:11,360 --> 00:05:14,360 the last full day that we had, there was like some kind of like 100 00:05:14,360 --> 00:05:18,840 camp. There's like a a camp dance 101 00:05:18,840 --> 00:05:21,160 thing at night that I wanted to stay for that. 102 00:05:21,480 --> 00:05:24,200 And of course, it would have been like, it would have been 103 00:05:24,200 --> 00:05:28,120 the time, like, hey, you know, for me to to do something would 104 00:05:28,120 --> 00:05:30,920 have been at that dance. Like, ideally you gotta dance 105 00:05:30,920 --> 00:05:33,720 with her. And then maybe you go out 106 00:05:33,720 --> 00:05:37,880 outside, you're looking at the stars in the night and oh, she 107 00:05:37,880 --> 00:05:40,360 leans over and kisses you because you're the gig of Chad, 108 00:05:40,360 --> 00:05:43,280 who she wants. You're definitely not a greasy 109 00:05:43,280 --> 00:05:46,800 haired, weird kid who is 2 years old, younger than her. 110 00:05:47,960 --> 00:05:49,480 Yeah, that's definitely not the case at all. 111 00:05:49,480 --> 00:05:52,960 Let's be real, I was clearly a winner in this situation and it 112 00:05:52,960 --> 00:05:56,080 was obvious that she liked me, let alone knew who I was, right? 113 00:05:56,960 --> 00:06:00,920 So during that dance, I kind of did the whole thing, like I'll 114 00:06:00,920 --> 00:06:02,640 make a move next dance, but I make a move. 115 00:06:02,640 --> 00:06:06,400 I mean, potentially ask her to dance even that would be a lot. 116 00:06:06,800 --> 00:06:08,880 And I was like, you know what, I really like this song. 117 00:06:09,360 --> 00:06:10,640 I'm just going to dance for a second. 118 00:06:10,640 --> 00:06:12,320 I'm going to make a move in the next song. 119 00:06:12,920 --> 00:06:15,240 They'd be like, oh, I kind of have to go pee, lie. 120 00:06:15,520 --> 00:06:17,880 I'm going to go to the bathroom. I don't want to, you know, come 121 00:06:17,880 --> 00:06:20,000 in mid song. You know, I leave from the 122 00:06:20,000 --> 00:06:21,200 bathroom. It's mid song. 123 00:06:21,240 --> 00:06:23,120 Oh, mid song, get away till the end of this. 124 00:06:23,720 --> 00:06:28,600 And sure enough, eventually after a million next songs, it 125 00:06:28,600 --> 00:06:32,080 was the last song and I was like, wait a minute, where'd the 126 00:06:32,080 --> 00:06:33,800 dance go? Like what? 127 00:06:34,160 --> 00:06:36,600 What happened? So I was picked up by my mom. 128 00:06:36,680 --> 00:06:38,440 We're driving back to my house, 'cause we're going to drive 129 00:06:38,440 --> 00:06:39,840 there Friday. And I would. 130 00:06:40,080 --> 00:06:42,480 We had a little tennis tournament in the morning and 131 00:06:42,480 --> 00:06:46,080 then we had like a ceremony where they give out rewards or 132 00:06:46,720 --> 00:06:48,720 awards. Not rewards, they give out 133 00:06:48,720 --> 00:06:52,080 awards, which I realized after going to that camp for many 134 00:06:52,080 --> 00:06:55,800 years, they would give them to first time campers who are not 135 00:06:55,800 --> 00:06:58,840 recurring to try and make them come back. 136 00:06:59,080 --> 00:07:02,520 Which was actually pretty smart 'cause I remember once, like my 137 00:07:02,520 --> 00:07:05,280 first time there, I was a massive hot head and I was like 138 00:07:05,280 --> 00:07:07,040 smashed my test racket. That was the worst, right? 139 00:07:08,080 --> 00:07:12,200 And I got like the sportsmanship award and I was like, what the 140 00:07:12,200 --> 00:07:13,000 hell. Like what? 141 00:07:13,520 --> 00:07:17,600 Like I was I, I, I should not be, you know, I, I'm not a 142 00:07:17,600 --> 00:07:21,000 contender for this. And then later years where I was 143 00:07:21,000 --> 00:07:23,280 a lot better and I was cool. I didn't win a single award. 144 00:07:23,280 --> 00:07:26,720 And I started to realize that everyone who got an award was a 145 00:07:26,720 --> 00:07:29,240 first time camper 'cause they wanted them to come back next 146 00:07:29,240 --> 00:07:33,080 summer to fill the slots. Game is game, don't get me 147 00:07:33,080 --> 00:07:36,240 wrong, It makes a genuinely didn't make a lot of sense 148 00:07:36,720 --> 00:07:40,080 anyways though. So on my way back, I'm in the 149 00:07:40,080 --> 00:07:44,160 car and I'm just saying to myself, I'm like I have to do 150 00:07:44,160 --> 00:07:47,240 something. So that's when I get the bright, 151 00:07:47,840 --> 00:07:52,760 the genius, the insanely high IQ decision, the play. 152 00:07:52,760 --> 00:07:56,760 I know exactly what to do. I'm going to write her a love 153 00:07:56,760 --> 00:07:59,280 letter. Yeah, you heard me right. 154 00:07:59,960 --> 00:08:02,920 Super quick To the Spotify listeners, you might have 155 00:08:02,920 --> 00:08:06,160 noticed, but a couple days I opened up memberships on 156 00:08:06,160 --> 00:08:09,920 Spotify. It is 299 a month to be. 157 00:08:09,920 --> 00:08:12,800 I forgot the exact word. It's like you can subscribe or 158 00:08:12,800 --> 00:08:16,440 something. I will be posting several videos 159 00:08:16,440 --> 00:08:19,120 a month like this. 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Finally, if you do do that and 171 00:08:51,880 --> 00:08:54,880 you want to be in a private chat with me, take a photo, a 172 00:08:54,880 --> 00:08:58,520 screenshot of you joining as a Spotify paid member. 173 00:08:58,920 --> 00:09:01,080 DM that message to me on Instagram. 174 00:09:01,120 --> 00:09:03,320 I will follow you, which I have over a billion followers on 175 00:09:03,320 --> 00:09:05,920 there, and then add you to a group chat of other paid 176 00:09:05,920 --> 00:09:08,680 subscribers, including YouTube channel members. 177 00:09:08,680 --> 00:09:10,320 That's a similar type of thing over there. 178 00:09:10,600 --> 00:09:14,520 Anyways, with that being said, let's get back to the story 179 00:09:14,520 --> 00:09:16,560 'cause you're about to cringe even harder than you've already 180 00:09:16,560 --> 00:09:21,040 cringed. So I write this letter and I 181 00:09:21,040 --> 00:09:26,320 basically say you, I don't have the letter obviously. 182 00:09:26,320 --> 00:09:27,840 Well, not obviously, but you'll see. 183 00:09:27,840 --> 00:09:30,320 I don't have the letter anymore and I can only remember bits and 184 00:09:30,320 --> 00:09:32,120 pieces, but I remember two major things. 185 00:09:32,600 --> 00:09:35,320 The first major thing is somewhere in that letter I said 186 00:09:35,880 --> 00:09:40,800 the corniest line of all time. I might be king corny CEO of 187 00:09:40,800 --> 00:09:43,800 corny king of the corn. So I, I really don't know, but I 188 00:09:43,800 --> 00:09:47,800 said you were the most beautiful girl in the entire world. 189 00:09:48,720 --> 00:09:50,600 I don't know. I did that in a quasi Trump 190 00:09:50,600 --> 00:09:52,960 impression, but the most beautiful girl in the entire 191 00:09:52,960 --> 00:09:54,760 world, blah, blah, blah. Some other gibberish. 192 00:09:54,800 --> 00:10:01,200 I said please e-mail me. At that time, I didn't have a 193 00:10:01,200 --> 00:10:02,360 phone number. I didn't have a phone. 194 00:10:02,360 --> 00:10:04,280 I actually didn't have a phone for a really long time. 195 00:10:04,280 --> 00:10:08,800 I had an iPad mini which had an e-mail and before I had iCloud 196 00:10:08,800 --> 00:10:11,160 for texting. The only thing I had was an 197 00:10:11,160 --> 00:10:13,160 e-mail address. And I'm not going to tell you 198 00:10:13,160 --> 00:10:16,680 that e-mail address, but let me just say it was some combination 199 00:10:17,040 --> 00:10:30,040 of a word similar to mynameandithad.pugprobablytheleastsexyemailofallthetimewhichyoudontreallyhaveasexyemailitsusuallyjustfirstlastname@gmail.com 200 00:10:30,040 --> 00:10:33,160 or something. But not only did I try and slide 201 00:10:33,160 --> 00:10:38,120 this girl my e-mail, but it was a corn dog e-mail as well. 202 00:10:38,120 --> 00:10:40,320 I mean, I like the e-mail, but it's just like it's not a great 203 00:10:40,320 --> 00:10:43,280 first impression type e-mail. I have a different e-mail now. 204 00:10:43,480 --> 00:10:46,080 I still check it sometimes because maybe she'll maybe 205 00:10:46,080 --> 00:10:48,000 she'll e-mail me back. Who knows 10 years later. 206 00:10:48,360 --> 00:10:50,240 Just kidding. Anyways, though, I write this 207 00:10:50,240 --> 00:10:53,440 letter and the next thing comes around because writing the 208 00:10:53,440 --> 00:10:56,880 letter is only half of it. If you write the letter, great, 209 00:10:57,360 --> 00:10:59,000 you still got to deliver it to her. 210 00:10:59,680 --> 00:11:01,920 Anyways, the next thing comes around. 211 00:11:01,920 --> 00:11:03,880 We have the tennis tournament in the morning. 212 00:11:04,160 --> 00:11:06,320 I was thinking about I was going to hand it to her breakfast. 213 00:11:06,320 --> 00:11:07,960 Breakfast passes. I don't do it. 214 00:11:08,360 --> 00:11:11,040 OK, well, in between the tennis tournament when she's not 215 00:11:11,040 --> 00:11:14,160 playing or taking a break and then walk over, be like, hello, 216 00:11:14,160 --> 00:11:16,000 you don't know me, but I, you know, I want you to have this 217 00:11:16,000 --> 00:11:18,080 letter and, you know, maybe we'll speak again. 218 00:11:19,000 --> 00:11:21,240 No, I didn't do it then either. And then there's the ceremony, 219 00:11:21,240 --> 00:11:24,360 the awards, whatever. Maybe I do it then. 220 00:11:24,680 --> 00:11:28,600 No. She walks up to her dorm room to 221 00:11:28,600 --> 00:11:30,160 pack up her stuff with her parents. 222 00:11:30,480 --> 00:11:34,280 It is the final moments that I could possibly do this. 223 00:11:34,520 --> 00:11:39,280 And I stand there 'cause there's two like staircases coming down, 224 00:11:39,280 --> 00:11:40,800 'cause there's like a second floor dorm. 225 00:11:40,800 --> 00:11:42,640 And then there's the first floor that I was on. 226 00:11:43,000 --> 00:11:45,040 And I was looking at the two staircases, 'cause I'm like, I 227 00:11:45,040 --> 00:11:47,880 need to intercept her. I need to go and make sure that 228 00:11:47,880 --> 00:11:51,160 she has this ladder. So I'm staring at a staircase. 229 00:11:51,480 --> 00:11:53,760 And for some reason I decided to turn around and look at the 230 00:11:53,760 --> 00:11:57,360 other staircase. And I see her walking out the 231 00:11:57,360 --> 00:12:00,200 door with a big bag full of her stuff with her parents. 232 00:12:00,600 --> 00:12:02,360 I was looking at the wrong staircase. 233 00:12:03,080 --> 00:12:06,480 And in that moment, I needed to. I needed to make a decision. 234 00:12:07,320 --> 00:12:11,280 I could either sit there with this sense of disappointment, 235 00:12:12,400 --> 00:12:16,920 with this sense of what could have been, with the sense of 236 00:12:17,640 --> 00:12:20,840 nothing you've never learned because you didn't try. 237 00:12:21,560 --> 00:12:26,720 Or I could risk it all and I could race after her. 238 00:12:26,720 --> 00:12:28,760 And at least I knew I tried at that time. 239 00:12:29,480 --> 00:12:33,120 And I was a timid kid. If you couldn't tell throughout 240 00:12:33,120 --> 00:12:36,640 the story, I was not about to make my intentions known. 241 00:12:36,840 --> 00:12:40,800 But I think at that moment I knew that if, if I didn't try, I 242 00:12:40,800 --> 00:12:43,240 would have been disappointed myself for a very long time. 243 00:12:44,240 --> 00:12:47,960 So I start running after this girl, which it wasn't like, you 244 00:12:47,960 --> 00:12:50,080 know it, it sounds worse. I'm some like 5th grader with 245 00:12:50,080 --> 00:12:51,320 floppy hair. Who cares, right? 246 00:12:51,840 --> 00:12:54,920 Running after this girl run up, she's about to get in her car, 247 00:12:54,920 --> 00:12:58,600 she's about to load her bag into her car and I run up to her and 248 00:12:58,600 --> 00:13:00,840 she kind of looks at me like what the hell? 249 00:13:00,840 --> 00:13:02,040 Oh my God. And then her parents are like 250 00:13:02,040 --> 00:13:03,840 what? And I just take my letter. 251 00:13:03,840 --> 00:13:07,960 I don't even hand it to her. I just throw it in her bag, 252 00:13:08,520 --> 00:13:11,880 obviously, like I obviously throw in her bag and I turn 253 00:13:11,880 --> 00:13:17,080 around and run away. So not really Mr. Confident 254 00:13:17,080 --> 00:13:21,920 smooth, chill AF gentleman giga chat over here, but it's what I 255 00:13:21,920 --> 00:13:23,080 did. I'm not going to lie to you 256 00:13:23,080 --> 00:13:24,160 guys. I'm just going to tell you the 257 00:13:24,160 --> 00:13:27,440 story. So anyways, I tell my mom about 258 00:13:27,440 --> 00:13:28,720 it. I think I'm so cool and she's 259 00:13:28,720 --> 00:13:35,440 like, OK buddy, that's cool. Anyways, I have my e-mail and in 260 00:13:35,440 --> 00:13:37,680 the next day I'm like, you know, she's she's not going to e-mail 261 00:13:37,680 --> 00:13:39,600 me today. Like she's not going to e-mail, 262 00:13:39,600 --> 00:13:42,560 e-mail me in 24 hours, but you know, 'cause she wants to 263 00:13:42,560 --> 00:13:44,920 compose your e-mail back. Like she's, she's going to want 264 00:13:44,920 --> 00:13:46,560 to write up something nice for me, right? 265 00:13:46,760 --> 00:13:49,040 She's going to want to want to write up something nice. 266 00:13:50,880 --> 00:13:53,440 A couple days passed by. I'm like, OK, well, it's looking 267 00:13:53,440 --> 00:13:55,840 a little, you know, she's really taking her time with this 268 00:13:55,840 --> 00:13:58,720 e-mail. Like she is taking her sweet 269 00:13:58,720 --> 00:14:00,960 time putting this together. And, you know, I respect that. 270 00:14:00,960 --> 00:14:02,680 You know, she wants to give me a good e-mail. 271 00:14:03,320 --> 00:14:06,440 OK, I'm cool with that. She's cool with that. 272 00:14:06,440 --> 00:14:07,440 I'm cool with that. We're cool. 273 00:14:08,320 --> 00:14:11,360 About a month goes by, so I started telling my mom my 274 00:14:11,360 --> 00:14:14,000 theories. And like, mom, I need to find 275 00:14:14,000 --> 00:14:18,400 her contact information because I must have put my e-mail down 276 00:14:18,400 --> 00:14:20,840 wrong. Yeah, it definitely wasn't 277 00:14:20,840 --> 00:14:23,280 because she just didn't want to e-mail you, little bro. 278 00:14:24,400 --> 00:14:26,200 It's because you put your e-mail down wrong. 279 00:14:26,240 --> 00:14:28,040 Or my handwriting wasn't clear enough. 280 00:14:28,040 --> 00:14:29,360 Mom. That's why she didn't e-mail me. 281 00:14:30,280 --> 00:14:34,480 And I in that moment, my mom was like, Connor, I'm, I'm, it's 282 00:14:34,480 --> 00:14:39,400 great that you did all that. I just don't think she wants to 283 00:14:39,400 --> 00:14:42,520 e-mail you. And I wasn't even heartbroken in 284 00:14:42,520 --> 00:14:45,160 that moment. It was more so just like, I, I 285 00:14:45,160 --> 00:14:46,840 wasn't even really sad when she said that. 286 00:14:46,840 --> 00:14:49,400 I think, 'cause I knew. And I was in such denial. 287 00:14:49,400 --> 00:14:51,760 But it was such cognitive dissonance where I knew I was 288 00:14:51,760 --> 00:14:54,440 wrong, but I wanted to push forward with this idea. 289 00:14:54,680 --> 00:14:58,000 There was almost like, you know, it, her saying that allowed me 290 00:14:58,000 --> 00:15:00,520 to realize the truth. And I was like, yeah. 291 00:15:01,160 --> 00:15:05,640 And I, I still try to like, find a way to contact her, whatever. 292 00:15:05,640 --> 00:15:09,080 But with no social media, no number and just an e-mail and I 293 00:15:09,080 --> 00:15:10,480 barely even knew what her name was. 294 00:15:10,480 --> 00:15:12,840 That was a, that was a fruitless attempt. 295 00:15:13,400 --> 00:15:16,280 I went to the camp next year and the year after that and the year 296 00:15:16,280 --> 00:15:18,960 after that because I enjoyed it. I genuinely enjoyed this camp. 297 00:15:19,320 --> 00:15:21,840 But for the first year and a little bit the second year, but 298 00:15:21,840 --> 00:15:24,920 really the first year, I really wanted to go there. 299 00:15:24,920 --> 00:15:28,440 And there she was when I get there, looking around on the 300 00:15:28,440 --> 00:15:31,680 orientation day and she wasn't there. 301 00:15:32,720 --> 00:15:35,760 Her little brother was. And I don't think he even knew 302 00:15:35,760 --> 00:15:37,040 about it. We never talked about it or 303 00:15:37,040 --> 00:15:39,280 anything. But So when I saw her little 304 00:15:39,280 --> 00:15:40,760 brother, I had this burst of hope. 305 00:15:40,760 --> 00:15:42,120 Oh, my God, she's gonna be here too. 306 00:15:42,360 --> 00:15:45,720 She's gonna be here too. But now and I still a great 307 00:15:45,720 --> 00:15:50,320 year, great fun that year, you know, I'd talk to more girls. 308 00:15:50,320 --> 00:15:53,280 Life would go on. But I remember when I would go 309 00:15:53,280 --> 00:15:57,120 back, I would be like, she didn't come back, man. 310 00:15:58,280 --> 00:16:01,520 I guess that's it. But reflecting on the story, it 311 00:16:01,520 --> 00:16:04,280 is cringe. Do not go about it like the way 312 00:16:04,280 --> 00:16:05,880 I did. I tell that as a cautionary 313 00:16:05,880 --> 00:16:09,000 tale, but I tale. But I will say I'm still 314 00:16:09,000 --> 00:16:11,840 surprised looking back that I had the courage to actually do 315 00:16:11,840 --> 00:16:14,160 that. It was ridiculous, it was goofy, 316 00:16:14,160 --> 00:16:16,440 it was a losing move and it was a terrible idea. 317 00:16:16,880 --> 00:16:20,440 But it in the raw courage there. I'm so proud of the courage. 318 00:16:20,440 --> 00:16:24,680 I am not proud of anything else I did there, but I am so proud 319 00:16:24,680 --> 00:16:26,320 of the raw courage in that moment.