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Hello and welcome to the Let It 
Flow podcast, hosted by your 

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spiritual besties Alexis and 
Carly. 

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We're just two humans figuring 
things out, and we're here to 

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share this community with you. 
As an outlet for self discovery 

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and spiritual growth, this 
podcast is designed to open your

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mind with conversations that 
encourage you to ask bigger 

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questions about mindset, 
spirituality, personal growth, 

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and everything in between. 
We're passionate about gaining 

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different perspectives on what 
the universe has to offer, and 

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the one thing we found to be 
100% true is that life is meant 

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to flow. 
We're not here to tell you how 

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to live your life, but to 
provide you with the tools and 

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knowledge you need to create an 
experience that feels uniquely 

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you. 
TuneIn every week to awaken your

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potential and deepen your 
evolution. 

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Whether you're all in on your 
personal growth journey or just 

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starting out, Let's flow 
Together. 

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Welcome back to another riveting
episode of the Let It Flow 

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podcast, where Carly and I riff 
on whatever topic we decide is 

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important that day and see where
it goes. 

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No, actually, we kind of prepped
this one. 

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This is new for us. 
We haven't. 

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Literally like 10 minutes ago, 
yes. 

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Not super far in advance, but we
did prep and I have things 

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written down in a notebook. 
So this is different because we 

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really wanted to focus on 
something that we've been 

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reflecting on recently. 
But signs that you've outgrown, 

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that you're outgrowing where 
you're currently at slash signs 

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that you've grown because it can
go either way. 

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I feel like nobody's ever on one
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It's always in flux. 
It's always in progress and. 

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So like your perspective that? 
I think sometimes it's more more

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beneficial to look at it from 
the respect perspective of, oh, 

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I've grown in these ways. 
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push the next step, I think it's
useful to be like, look at your 

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situation and be like, OK, the 
fact of the matter is this isn't

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serving me as as much as it did 
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And that's OK. 
But like, I've outgrown this and

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now I use the things that I have
grown with and become and 

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learned and all of that to, like
go to the. 

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Next step of your life, I guess.
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One of the first things that 
came up for us and making this 

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list was that like, you want to 
spend your time differently 

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because you can be really happy 
in a space and just feel 

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abundant and happy and you're 
like, yeah, this is it. 

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And then all of a sudden it 
becomes repetitive and you 

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almost get bored. 
This is all speaking from my 

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personal experience, but I got, 
I got bored and it's like, OK, 

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what's next? 
And also the things that I was 

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doing suddenly weren't quite as 
fun anymore. 

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Like for example, going out to 
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Like maybe that served me in 
College in some messed up way 

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that, I don't know. 
I learned a lot of lessons 

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there, but. 
It was a passageway. 

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It was a passageway that got me 
to somewhere, but that just 

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didn't serve me anymore. 
I was like, so sick of feeling 

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hung over and like the next few 
days afterwards, just feeling 

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like I didn't go to the gym, 
like I was slacking on my goals 

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because of that. 
It's like that pattern wasn't 

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serving me anymore and I wanted 
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But then it's like, OK, well, 
what do I do at that time? 

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Like, how do I want to spend my 
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And it really leads you to 
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Yeah, I think because it's 
possible to move forward just 

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naturally, you know, without 
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Sometimes those cyclical 
patterns that we have created 

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for ourselves are really strong.
And this includes like habitual 

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things like actions outside of 
yourself or things that you're 

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doing during the day. 
Or like a big theme for me right

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now, which I might get into a 
little bit further in this 

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episode, is just like even 
mental habits, mental cycles, 

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thoughts that you keep 
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And so, to really be clear, 
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motivation to. 
Like, yeah, the clarity to help 

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yourself move out of them, Yeah.
And wanting to spend your time 

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differently. 
A lot of times that has to do 

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with the cycles and the 
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And seeing the patterns and also
seeing other people's and 

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realizing that you don't have to
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But that can be challenging, 
especially if it's if you're in 

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a friend group that spends time 
a certain way, and then suddenly

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you don't really want to do 
those things anymore, but you 

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want to hang out with them and 
they're perfectly fine spending 

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their time that way. 
That can cause definitely some 

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internal or maybe external 
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realize that in this line of 
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think this is definitely 
sometimes where it's natural to 

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feel very lonely and. 
For a while, I think both of us 

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could say that we've kind of 
fought that, you know, no one 

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likes to feel lonely. 
Like it's not a pleasant thing 

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to feel. 
But I really think it's our 

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natural inclination to go and 
figure out, like, who the hell 

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we are and like what we do want.
And it's just when things become

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a distraction and you realize 
that you're doing the same 

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things you were doing. 
This is something I had 

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experienced in college like. 
But a few times I did go out, a 

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couple of them. 
With Alexis, I realized that I 

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was surrounded by people, but I 
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I was sitting at home alone. 
And just admitting that to 

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ourselves is really important. 
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alone, particularly traveling. 
I was traveling alone, talked 

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about that a lot, some big part 
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But I never really felt lonely 
until I got really in my head 

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about, like, what am I doing? 
This doesn't even make sense. 

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Like people are confused at like
how I'm wasting all this time 

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and I'm not using this time in 
my life to make money or build 

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my career. 
And then I would feel really 

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lonely because it was that 
nobody understands me mindset 

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that made me feel lonely. 
But in the like reality I was 

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having, the time of my life, I 
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like I should be. 
I should be doing or like that I

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wanted to do. 
And there were people around me 

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all the time. 
I was meeting new people every 

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day and it was fulfilling me. 
But it was whatever my mind got 

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in there that it really made me 
feel lonely to think of doing 

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things differently just because 
when we don't have people to 

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relate to, sometimes it's like, 
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to. 
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But there's always somebody 
like, it's really your mind 

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blocking out and limiting and 
like you pushing people away. 

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Usually because to reinforce 
that idea that you're lonely and

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that you're alone. 
Because if you open up like your

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peripherals and like, really pay
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you, you do have that support. 
You just need to not push it 

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away to reinforce that idea that
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Absolutely. 
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always, always, always our 
biggest support. 

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This is such a cliche thing to 
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It's always our own self. 
Like nobody will ever know you 

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as well as you know yourself. 
Even if, like sometimes, there's

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times where I literally am still
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Who? 
Who the rickety frack am I? 

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Like what am I even doing here? 
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But I still when I take a moment
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I realized that yeah, I'm, I'm 
my best friend and all of that 

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stuff first before anybody else 
because nobody has access to my 

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inner being, you know, Nobody 
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So to, like, really get to know 
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all have within us and then to 
not, yeah, like Alexis said, not

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be afraid to. 
Share what's valuable and true 

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to yourself with others, even if
it's just like little feelers, 

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you know, because it's also not 
worth it to, like, go and share 

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yourself with people who aren't 
just who are going to look at 

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you like you're crazy. 
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this idea that like, Oh yeah, 
I'm crazy, I'm alone, I'm all of

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this. 
But just like little feelers 

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like, oh, I'm interested in 
human design, They're like, oh, 

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what's that? 
Or or they're like, oh cool. 

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OK, that's going to be very 
informative with like what you 

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can talk about with that person.
This leads perfectly into the 

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next one that we were going to 
share is that you stop asking 

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for people's opinions quite as 
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OK, if you're outgrowing 
something, you maybe stop 

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asking. 
Or if you've grown, you just 

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don't feel the need to ask 
anymore. 

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To make decisions like it's one 
thing to ask and share your 

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ideas and and thoughts with 
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To mastermind to see maybe. 
Where like you're not seeing 

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something and you're gaining 
information and research and 

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insight versus asking for the 
sake of someone else to validate

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what you're doing and someone 
else to push you over the edge. 

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I think that even just our own 
relationship, we've seen that. 

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Go from, like, us both kind of 
leaning on each other and asking

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for like, what do you think 
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Like, oh, is this OK? 
Can you help me with this? 

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And it's funny because we still 
say the same things to each 

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other. 
Like, you still have me look at 

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some of the things you're 
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And I'll like tell you my 
thoughts, but it feels so 

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different. 
It's. 

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Like yes, exactly like it's like
oh tell me your thoughts have 

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how I can improve, not like I 
need you to help me. 

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Do this or create this. 
It's it's really, yeah, it's 

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really empowering, I think, and 
really fun. 

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I know I've had thought about 
that, but it's so true. 

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Yeah, I feel like we come to 
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I have this idea and I'm doing 
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to it. 
Like I don't need you to tell me

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to do it. 
I'm doing it. 

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And I just would like outside 
eyes to say like, like, it's 

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good for research wise. 
When I'm writing things, I want 

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someone else to read it and see,
does this make sense from a 

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beginner's mindset or am I 
writing it at too high of a 

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level? 
That's something that, like you 

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can't necessarily see yourself. 
So it's very different when you 

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come into conversations asking 
opinions from a research mind 

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and like you make the decision 
within yourself versus, yeah, 

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asking. 
People, or even like I know 

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sometimes. 
I'll send you a voice note. 

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Or, like, talk to you about 
like, something that's relevant 

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for me that maybe I'm struggling
with internally, but I've never 

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like, it's become not this 
question of like, what should I 

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do, But it's more of like, I 
sent you a voice message just a 

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few days ago, I think. 
And I was like, this is kind of 

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like a personal diary entry. 
But, like, I'm imagining talking

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to you about it. 
And by the end of that message, 

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it was like, oh, everything's 
clear. 

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I was about to literally, like 
not even send it because I was 

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like, oh, OK. 
I'm pretty sure that I just 

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hearted the message to. 
I don't think I even responded 

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to it. 
I was like, I was here, I 

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listened to it and I love the 
life update, but you got this. 

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You figured it out exactly. 
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So we anybody listening to this 
knows this now about us. 

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But we don't talk like regular 
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We don't have conversation. 
Not regular. 

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I don't want to say that most 
people do not have conversations

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the way that we have 
conversations. 

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And that just has become clearer
and clearer to me as I make new 

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friends, or as I'm in different 
friend groups or meeting new 

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people through my job and 
whatever. 

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So many people stay on surface 
level and then you could know 

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somebody for years and really 
find out that you don't actually

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know much about them, like don't
even know if they have siblings 

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or don't even know actually the 
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And you're like, wait, even that
is small talk and you don't even

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know that much about them. 
Now just imagine asking like 

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what do they actually want out 
of life or what is the intention

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behind the career that they're 
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So craving deeper conversations 
versus the small talk and the 

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gossip and that's just increased
over time. 

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I made the intentional choice a 
while back to try to limit the 

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the amount that I engage with 
the gossip as in like me giving 

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my opinion on it. 
It's so hard to do because 

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that's literally pop culture and
media is all gossip about other 

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people like. 
The drama of life, other 

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people's lives. 
Yeah, and I think. 

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I can definitely look back at my
stuff and even like high school 

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or like through college, getting
the deets about like people that

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I graduated with or like family 
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excited at times. 

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You know, like it's so 
sometimes, you know you get 

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caught up at it and it's like, 
Oh my God, did you this is not 

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say. 
This is not to say that we do 

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not gossip like. 
We definitely do. 

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It comes about, but you realize 
how many of your relationships 

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like Carly will share her 
insight on this, but how many 

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relationships are based solely 
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Like this person comes over and 
you realize that you spent the 

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whole couple hours hanging out 
with this friend and didn't even

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talk about her or you or what 
you want. 

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And it was all gossip about 
other friends or celebrities or 

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things that just don't have any 
impact on your life. 

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Yeah, or like a big one with 
some people in my life, that. 

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And now it's funny, I don't know
when this will come out with 

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them in regards to like the 
episode we just recorded with my

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mom. 
But it kind of has to do with 

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this. 
Like, you know, we can hold this

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space and love for people in our
lives that we don't want to 

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like, excommunicate from. 
You know, it's like there's 

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still a big part and you know 
you love them and you can just 

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hold that space for them, even 
if they're still like in the 

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same. 
What we view from our 

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perspective, the same cycle or 
the same thing, it eventually 

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like, you know, everything is 
always growing all the time. 

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time allows for it to be more 

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natural and without as much like
force and like frustration. 

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years ago or like, or friends 
or, you know, whatever, I 

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started to realize how sometimes
it can be. 

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People are having the same 
discussion over and over again. 

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Sometimes it's gossip, but like 
a big thing with I've seen not 

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only my family but other people,
if they have a time in their 

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life where, you know, they 
really felt they loved it and 

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and it's like, you know, the 
best time of my life was this 

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time And like they talk about 
the same things over and over 

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and over again, that's obviously
feeding something. 

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They're getting something out of
it still. 

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Or so they they think. 
And when you start to realize 

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that that can be really hard to 
engage with. 

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And and I had a really hard 
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Even sometimes they still do, 
like connecting with knowing how

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to meet another person when 
they're still just like that's 

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their world and that's what's 
important to them. 

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So that's where, like a sign of 
growth that like you, you 

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struggle. 
Maybe it's not pleasant to 

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experience that, but you you 
struggle connecting in the same 

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ways that you did. 
And the biggest thing that I've 

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learned is because we're aware 
of that. 

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Like if you're aware of that in 
a situation right now in your 

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life, you and you alone, I and 
myself alone have the 

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responsibility to, if I desire 
that to be. 

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Changed I have to only I can 
only change myself and how I 

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interact with that. 
So the kind of what Alexis was 

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saying you know we we need to 
like you know maybe not not 

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engage quite as much in that 
conversation or maybe bring up 

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something else and and let them 
be them. 

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You know allow them to live in 
in their world like that. 

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But this is kind of going back 
around to one of the points we 

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made earlier. 
You don't have to play that role

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in their life anymore. 
And you just like taking 

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yourself out of that role of who
who you were playing in their 

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own play. 
Because, you know, our entire 

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life is each our own play, and 
we're the main character in it, 

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and we assign roles to people in
our lives. 

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The moment that someone takes 
themselves out of that role, 

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even if it's like a fight for a 
while, eventually it has to give

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and things evolve and it opens 
up space for either someone else

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to take that same role in their 
life or for a little bit of 

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like, oh. 
Wow. 

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OK, This is a new perspective. 
Or this is a new way of seeing 

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things or or doing things. 
And yeah, it just takes 

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sometimes time. 
So that was I'm tangent. 

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It doesn't mean that you have to
push those people away. 

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I think that's something really 
important to mention because 

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when you feel like you're 
growing and you're outgrowing 

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other people, sometimes there 
can be this attitude of I'm 

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better than them or I'm I've 
just outgrown that or I'm just 

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not in that space anymore. 
And like that also doesn't make 

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them feel good. 
You know, like speaking from in 

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the mindset of a friend group 
per se that still likes to go 

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out on the weekends and wants to
go to the bars and the clubs and

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whatever. 
This is just, this is just me, 

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like describing a potential 
situation. 

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But then you're feeling maybe 
that you don't want to go do 

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that anymore. 
And you used to be the friend 

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that they could rely on to text 
and like, want to go out and 

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party, and suddenly you're not 
meeting their expectations of 

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who they think you are. 
You don't have to meet those 

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expectations, but you also don't
have to cut out those friends 

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either. 
Like, you can transition to it. 

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Maybe you'll go out for dinner 
with them and then they'll go to

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the bar If you don't want to go,
or you just make different plans

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with these people, or even even 
if you were to keep everything 

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the same, just know and be more 
intentional at the time that 

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you're spending with them. 
Like, say you do have those 

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friends that want to go out to 
the bar. 

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Maybe you plan one Saturday a 
month. 

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You're going out with them and 
you know you're going to have a 

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great time. 
You're going to get that fill 

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with those people and you 
intentionally spend that time 

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with them instead of just 
passively making that a part of 

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your life. 
Same with maybe a friend that 

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gossips and loves like social 
media and celebrities and that 

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you don't. 
You don't get past the surface 

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level with this person. 
Maybe you still love them and 

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you want to hang out with them, 
and you just know that when they

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come over, that's the 
conversation we're going to 

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have. 
And maybe you ask a few deeper 

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questions to try to facilitate 
that deeper conversation, but 

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you don't have to keep engaging 
in the same way. 

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You can kind of ease them into 
your change as well. 

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And then also there's always 
that alternative of like. 

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Okay. 
You just don't connect in the 

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same ways that you once did. 
And like then that opens for a 

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really natural and loving 
separation. 

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I guess I feel like there's a 
better word to use for that. 

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But I feel like the moment that 
you were, you would start that 

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we would start to force, you 
know that family member or we 

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both experienced this or that 
friend or or that person into. 

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Behaving, thinking, believing 
like you do. 

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That's what creates the riff and
that's what creates like, 

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bridges being burnt and like, 
not even being able to have a 

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civilized conversation without a
fight brewing or without words 

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being said that just like 
weren't even met in the 1st 

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place. 
Just by, like, releasing this 

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idea that, like, people need to 
live like you are or do the 

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things that you do, It's just 
like, yeah, opens up for this 

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natural flow which could be. 
Kind of them transitioning in a 

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way that you connect, you guys 
connect even at a deeper level 

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or just moving on and going into
the sea of life. 

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Exactly, Exactly. 
People constantly come and go 

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from your life, and I think 
that's hard to remember when 

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you're so in it. 
And a lot of times I see this 

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happen with relationships and 
from personal experience. 

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You think I've invested X amount
of time with this person and in 

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this relationship and letting it
go is failing in some way, even 

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though it's just the end of a 
cycle and maybe it's come to 

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completion and that's totally 
okay and it's more fair to you 

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and the other person. 
To maybe let go of that, if 

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you're going in different 
directions and like touch base 

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in the future and if they're 
meant to come back into your 

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life, they will and just truly 
believe that you don't need to 

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force it and that's okay. 
Yeah. 

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Like even Alexis and I, I mean, 
I don't see this happening, but 

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there's always a potentiality 
that years down the road, who 

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knows what will happen. 
And I think, Oh my God, this is 

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this. 
I feel like this conversation is

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heavily influenced by the one we
just had with my mom. 

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But we talked about how it's so 
important to keep the end in 

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mind. 
Like that is always a 

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potentiality, like the end of 
things is always there. 

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And that allows us to, yeah, 
like appreciate the time that we

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do have even more. 
Another one we came up with was 

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not explaining yourself. 
So this also kind of goes with 

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the not feeling the need to ask 
opinions quite as much, but also

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not. 
Feeling the need to explain the 

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decisions that you're making for
quite some time, especially when

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I decided to travel and people 
were questioning this my safety 

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and like projecting their fears 
onto me, I felt like I had to 

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explain myself and with moving 
to back to Minneapolis and the 

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job I'm getting, I. 
I kept explaining to people, 

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well, I'm doing this because I 
feel like this is the right 

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decision for this reason and 
it's going to lead to this. 

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And you know, this is a 
potential career and I can do 

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blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. 
And it's like they literally 

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just asked how are you? 
And you're suddenly saying what 

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you're doing and they're really 
explaining it because you don't 

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feel solid in the decision and 
yourself. 

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And then that comes with asking 
the opinions to like does this 

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the right thing? 
Like does this seems like 

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responsible but. 
When you've grown into the place

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that you've decided to go and 
into even the titles, we've 

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talked about this whether you're
an influencer, A podcaster, a 

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doctor, a teacher, whatever you 
decide to be, you don't have to 

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subscribe to labels. 
But when you're talking to 

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somebody and you can fully step 
into, yeah, I'm a podcaster and 

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whatever, I just threw my. 
I just threw my highlighter 

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across the room. 
I'm talking with my hands. 

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Oh my God. 
But you don't feel that 

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resistance in your body anymore 
because you know that feeling. 

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And if you don't know that 
feeling, say something. 

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That's a lie and see how your 
body feels. 

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It's the craziest thing. 
Even lie by your age. 

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Like say I'm 15 years old or 
something like that. 

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Maybe you are 15, Say a 
different age, but like, say it.

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Your body will be like, no, 
you're not. 

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Like you know when you're lying.
Yeah. 

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So once that doesn't feel like a
lie in your body anymore and you

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you've really integrated where 
you're going and what you stand 

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for, you don't feel the need to 
explain yourself quite as much. 

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It's just like this is me. 
I think it's like Speaking of 

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like we we we've used the word 
role a couple of times in this, 

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like that role in the play or 
whatever. 

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When you feel like totally adept
and comfortable at playing that 

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role, like you feel like it is 
like this balance of it being 

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like one with your own self. 
But also understanding that 

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like, we're always more than 
that role or that identity we're

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taking on. 
And at that time it's like one 

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small aspect of like the 
abundance of our entire being. 

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But when we feel like 
comfortable with it, like yeah, 

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I am, I'm this coach person or I
am Carly even even saying like I

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am me. 
You know that it can be 

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uncomfortable for people. 
But it's like when you feel like

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you are adept and capable and 
able to be that role even if, 

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you know, like, yeah, there's 
times I'm going to screw up. 

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There's times it's not going to 
all go perfectly. 

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Like that's the nature of life. 
But you're we're confident in 

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like the fact that we can handle
that and that's always 

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fluctuating and growing as well.
So there's never a period where 

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you're like, yes, I finally 
become the person that I meant 

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to be like. 
It just, it will continue to 

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grow from that point. 
This is a deeper, more 

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shadowworky one, but it's very 
very important and that's that 

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you're aware of your triggers 
and anytime you feel one, 

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question it and. 
Reflect back on it, like, oh, 

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that's an interesting feeling. 
Like what they just said made me

449
00:25:55,670 --> 00:25:58,070
very angry. 
Like, what was that? 

450
00:25:58,750 --> 00:26:03,830
Because if you think about it, 
everybody responds to things 

451
00:26:03,830 --> 00:26:06,390
differently. 
Something that makes me angry 

452
00:26:06,670 --> 00:26:09,150
might not make Carly angry. 
She might be like, oh, what? 

453
00:26:09,150 --> 00:26:12,430
What's your problem with that? 
I don't like that statement 

454
00:26:12,430 --> 00:26:14,990
doesn't affect me at all, 
whereas it affects me deeply. 

455
00:26:15,550 --> 00:26:19,870
So there's some type of wounding
inside that that just strikes 

456
00:26:19,870 --> 00:26:23,750
you and just paying attention to
what it is the person. 

457
00:26:24,390 --> 00:26:28,510
Usually it's a person said or 
did or what they wore or how 

458
00:26:28,510 --> 00:26:32,550
they chose to present themselves
online or how they choose to 

459
00:26:32,550 --> 00:26:34,990
live their life, The career 
somebody chose, like if 

460
00:26:34,990 --> 00:26:39,310
something triggers you or even 
triggers like that jealousy, 

461
00:26:39,310 --> 00:26:41,550
that envy doesn't have to be 
anger. 

462
00:26:42,310 --> 00:26:45,030
Reflecting on whoa, that's a 
strong emotion. 

463
00:26:45,540 --> 00:26:48,660
What's making me feel this way? 
What is it telling me? 

464
00:26:48,660 --> 00:26:53,220
Because it's all your body 
communicating with you and it's 

465
00:26:53,220 --> 00:26:56,820
worth reflecting on. 
Yeah, and I want to bring up 

466
00:26:57,660 --> 00:27:00,620
another thing with this, because
I think this aspect, at least 

467
00:27:00,620 --> 00:27:05,860
for me, can be even sneakier. 
But where we have those like 

468
00:27:06,620 --> 00:27:13,140
triggers from a place of what we
view as love, like I have a 

469
00:27:13,140 --> 00:27:20,500
couple people in my life who 
could be from my perspective 

470
00:27:20,540 --> 00:27:26,660
living a much healthier and just
have a higher quality of life. 

471
00:27:27,540 --> 00:27:31,140
Clarity of whether they will 
choose that or not is upping the

472
00:27:31,140 --> 00:27:37,550
air still. 
And for years I've, you know, I 

473
00:27:37,550 --> 00:27:39,710
like didn't even realize that 
this was a trigger because again

474
00:27:39,710 --> 00:27:41,990
it's from this place of like you
care for this person. 

475
00:27:41,990 --> 00:27:45,790
Like you know, you see how they 
could they could turn the life 

476
00:27:45,790 --> 00:27:48,990
around or they could really help
themselves by just doing these 

477
00:27:48,990 --> 00:27:52,670
few things or really change 
change their perspective on 

478
00:27:52,670 --> 00:27:55,270
things. 
So it's out of love, but it is a

479
00:27:55,270 --> 00:27:58,070
trigger like when you get 
passionate and like you start to

480
00:27:59,110 --> 00:28:01,790
like throw your views and 
beliefs in their face. 

481
00:28:01,830 --> 00:28:06,350
It's kind of like that spiritual
what's called activism. 

482
00:28:06,550 --> 00:28:09,070
It's like, I know this and I 
know it will help you. 

483
00:28:09,070 --> 00:28:12,790
You need to do it now. 
That is a definitely a type of 

484
00:28:12,790 --> 00:28:15,550
trigger, and it's a trigger that
seems to come from like a place 

485
00:28:15,550 --> 00:28:17,670
of love. 
But it's again, we're 

486
00:28:18,550 --> 00:28:22,510
envisioning how we desire that 
person to be. 

487
00:28:23,070 --> 00:28:27,830
And I've realized for myself, I 
I have tried to appreciate more 

488
00:28:28,030 --> 00:28:31,430
the person that they are because
everyone of us are living our 

489
00:28:31,430 --> 00:28:33,750
own lives. 
We're all here to experience 

490
00:28:33,830 --> 00:28:38,490
what we are experiencing, and 
only each and every one of us 

491
00:28:38,490 --> 00:28:42,610
can choose to to do something or
not do something. 

492
00:28:44,690 --> 00:28:49,450
Yeah, that was. 
I feel this a specific trigger 

493
00:28:49,730 --> 00:28:55,090
that I reflected on or that I've
come to terms with again in 

494
00:28:55,090 --> 00:28:57,450
that, like everybody is living 
their own life, you cannot 

495
00:28:57,450 --> 00:29:01,570
change them. 
Because I've wanted to and it's 

496
00:29:01,570 --> 00:29:05,170
it was years and years of me 
wanting to and trying to force 

497
00:29:05,730 --> 00:29:10,050
and but then like what was it is
so it has to do with health for 

498
00:29:10,050 --> 00:29:11,810
me. 
I love health and Wellness and 

499
00:29:11,810 --> 00:29:14,050
fitness and same with like 
spiritual things. 

500
00:29:14,090 --> 00:29:17,250
Anything to make your life 
easier and like just be kind to 

501
00:29:17,250 --> 00:29:22,850
your body and there's so there's
specific people in my life. 

502
00:29:22,850 --> 00:29:26,690
As Carly said, there's always 
like certain people that. 

503
00:29:27,900 --> 00:29:31,660
I really care for them and like 
love them with all my heart and 

504
00:29:31,660 --> 00:29:34,220
like want them to live a healthy
and happy life. 

505
00:29:34,540 --> 00:29:37,420
And the way they choose to live 
is not necessarily what I would 

506
00:29:37,420 --> 00:29:42,300
recommend. 
And it's not their healthiest, 

507
00:29:42,300 --> 00:29:44,740
happiest life. 
And that's not me projecting. 

508
00:29:44,740 --> 00:29:48,500
It's like a doctor would agree. 
And like it's not the 

509
00:29:48,540 --> 00:29:50,540
healthiest, happiest thing that 
they could be doing for 

510
00:29:50,540 --> 00:29:53,220
themselves. 
But like, what is deeper under 

511
00:29:53,220 --> 00:29:55,820
there? 
Like why do I want them to be so

512
00:29:55,820 --> 00:29:59,640
happy and healthy and it? 
Like deep to the core comes down

513
00:29:59,640 --> 00:30:04,320
to like the way they're living 
is impacting probably their life

514
00:30:04,320 --> 00:30:07,720
expectancy and I want them to be
with me for a long time. 

515
00:30:07,720 --> 00:30:12,200
So it's like that fear of loss 
and that fear of, yeah, fear of 

516
00:30:12,280 --> 00:30:14,240
lot. 
Losing that person is like the 

517
00:30:14,240 --> 00:30:18,160
deeper core, heavy thing. 
It always comes back to that 

518
00:30:18,160 --> 00:30:22,960
like personal, like relationship
like kind of that it is selfish 

519
00:30:23,000 --> 00:30:26,190
in a way. 
Oh yeah, but it's like a it's 

520
00:30:26,190 --> 00:30:29,190
like a sneakier version of 
selfishness, because it's like a

521
00:30:29,190 --> 00:30:32,830
selfishness from like, you know,
wanting the best, but really 

522
00:30:32,910 --> 00:30:35,510
you're wanting the best. 
We're wanting the best for 

523
00:30:35,990 --> 00:30:39,350
ourselves. 
Which second comes also, 

524
00:30:39,710 --> 00:30:42,910
hopefully the best for them. 
But it's like the question of 

525
00:30:42,910 --> 00:30:46,030
like, again, wrapping it around,
Sorry if I interrupted you also 

526
00:30:46,030 --> 00:30:50,950
from your thought, but what's 
best for each and every one of 

527
00:30:50,950 --> 00:30:55,470
us does not look the same. 
And some people we're all here 

528
00:30:55,850 --> 00:30:58,330
for. 
I I believe we're all here for 

529
00:30:58,330 --> 00:31:03,290
specific life lessons to be 
learnt and how we learn those 

530
00:31:03,290 --> 00:31:05,690
things is anyone's guess, you 
know? 

531
00:31:07,250 --> 00:31:10,730
So just like fighting the reins 
a little bit and still be there 

532
00:31:10,730 --> 00:31:13,130
to support. 
Like with these people I'm 

533
00:31:13,130 --> 00:31:16,850
talking about, you know, they 
know I have the tools. 

534
00:31:17,010 --> 00:31:22,730
They know, like if if they ever 
want anything from me, like and 

535
00:31:22,730 --> 00:31:25,570
in that sense I am here with 
open arms. 

536
00:31:26,320 --> 00:31:27,960
But like with love, it's just 
OK. 

537
00:31:27,960 --> 00:31:33,480
You're free to do what you will.
And just appreciate the time 

538
00:31:33,480 --> 00:31:36,760
that you have with them. 
Like, that's a message for me 

539
00:31:36,760 --> 00:31:39,920
personally with this one. 
It's just like enjoy the time 

540
00:31:39,920 --> 00:31:42,280
you have with them instead of 
every time you hang out with 

541
00:31:42,280 --> 00:31:44,720
this these people or you're 
around them, that you're trying 

542
00:31:44,720 --> 00:31:46,760
to change them and you're 
choosing to be frustrated with 

543
00:31:46,760 --> 00:31:49,920
how they're living and you're 
not really enjoying your time 

544
00:31:49,920 --> 00:31:52,080
with them, even though they're 
the people that you love the 

545
00:31:52,080 --> 00:31:53,320
most. 
That's usually the people that 

546
00:31:53,320 --> 00:31:56,510
you want to change. 
Which seems counterintuitive 

547
00:31:56,510 --> 00:31:58,510
because if you love them, you 
shouldn't want to change them 

548
00:31:58,510 --> 00:32:00,350
and it's just a whole learning 
curve. 

549
00:32:00,910 --> 00:32:06,670
But just enjoying the time and 
just again knowing same this is 

550
00:32:06,670 --> 00:32:09,670
like the same as hanging out 
with your friend that you know 

551
00:32:09,670 --> 00:32:11,430
you're probably going to have a 
gossipy conversation because 

552
00:32:11,430 --> 00:32:13,990
that's just who they are and 
like you love them and it is 

553
00:32:13,990 --> 00:32:15,990
what it is. 
But just knowing that when you 

554
00:32:15,990 --> 00:32:19,510
hang out with these people, like
you're aware that how they're 

555
00:32:19,510 --> 00:32:22,670
living is not how you would want
to live, and that's okay. 

556
00:32:23,100 --> 00:32:26,340
And you don't have to be 
triggered by it, and you can be 

557
00:32:26,340 --> 00:32:28,620
aware that it's there, but like,
understand where that's coming 

558
00:32:28,620 --> 00:32:31,020
from. 
It just makes a world of 

559
00:32:31,020 --> 00:32:34,220
difference. 
And yeah, we could go on about 

560
00:32:34,220 --> 00:32:37,700
triggers forever, because 
they're in everything. 

561
00:32:38,260 --> 00:32:42,060
Anything that brings up a very 
powerful emotion in you is a 

562
00:32:42,060 --> 00:32:43,860
trigger in some way. 
Like, there's happy triggers 

563
00:32:43,860 --> 00:32:46,500
too. 
Yeah, I think that's another 

564
00:32:46,500 --> 00:32:49,100
thing with this word I like, 
almost don't even like to use it

565
00:32:49,620 --> 00:32:54,790
because it's been so over. 
People say activated if you feel

566
00:32:54,790 --> 00:32:57,350
activated by something, but 
sometimes that's confusing too. 

567
00:32:57,350 --> 00:32:59,870
Oh yeah, you know, like what 
does activated mean? 

568
00:33:00,870 --> 00:33:03,710
It's it's the same thing like 
having an emotion because 

569
00:33:03,710 --> 00:33:07,550
everything has its own, like 
little meaning, like words have 

570
00:33:07,550 --> 00:33:11,150
their own. 
I don't know, but you get what 

571
00:33:11,150 --> 00:33:14,630
we're saying hopefully. 
Yes, we've talked about a lot of

572
00:33:15,070 --> 00:33:18,030
internal things, but there's a 
couple external ones that we 

573
00:33:18,030 --> 00:33:20,910
wrote down like. 
You've grown. 

574
00:33:20,910 --> 00:33:23,590
If you feel or you're 
outgrowing, depends. 

575
00:33:23,590 --> 00:33:26,190
You're outgrowing if you feel 
like your environment is not 

576
00:33:26,190 --> 00:33:30,510
serving you or you're maybe your
home doesn't even feel like you 

577
00:33:30,550 --> 00:33:32,110
anymore. 
It feels like a different 

578
00:33:32,110 --> 00:33:35,630
chapter of you, and you're 
feeling like you want to get rid

579
00:33:35,630 --> 00:33:38,710
of things or you've grown. 
If you have done that, like 

580
00:33:38,710 --> 00:33:42,430
you've purged things from your 
life that feel like, OK, we're 

581
00:33:42,430 --> 00:33:46,670
starting fresh, or you can just 
envision yourself in a new 

582
00:33:46,670 --> 00:33:49,030
space. 
And you just feel that antsy 

583
00:33:49,030 --> 00:33:51,670
feeling of like, this is not it 
anymore. 

584
00:33:51,990 --> 00:33:55,110
Yeah. 
So environment changes can be 

585
00:33:55,110 --> 00:33:58,150
big. 
I just remember like all the 

586
00:33:58,150 --> 00:34:02,750
time was growing up where I 
would rearrange my room and I 

587
00:34:02,750 --> 00:34:05,510
never really knew why. 
But now it makes sense. 

588
00:34:05,510 --> 00:34:08,350
Like it would how I wish I would
have like marked on a calendar 

589
00:34:08,350 --> 00:34:10,790
or something like when I would 
because I bet it was quite 

590
00:34:10,790 --> 00:34:15,620
cyclical like everything here 
school I probably like read in 

591
00:34:15,620 --> 00:34:22,020
my room didn't even realize it. 
But I think also like moving 

592
00:34:22,060 --> 00:34:24,699
moving things around is another 
way to like move the energy. 

593
00:34:24,739 --> 00:34:29,139
And when we feeling like we've 
outgrown something it can feel 

594
00:34:29,139 --> 00:34:33,460
like I, I in my body will get 
this like a little bit heavy 

595
00:34:33,460 --> 00:34:36,980
feeling like like stagnant like 
kind of what Alexis was saying. 

596
00:34:36,980 --> 00:34:39,100
Just like antsiness for 
something to change and just 

597
00:34:39,100 --> 00:34:40,699
feeling a could feel a bit 
stuck. 

598
00:34:41,400 --> 00:34:43,800
And I think that's one of the 
simplest things to do, actually.

599
00:34:43,800 --> 00:34:45,960
If you're experiencing this 
right now and you don't quite 

600
00:34:45,960 --> 00:34:51,320
know where to go yet, just start
by like moving some furniture 

601
00:34:51,320 --> 00:34:54,880
around, redecorating a shelf, 
like cleaning up your desk and 

602
00:34:54,880 --> 00:34:58,440
like, you know, whatever it. 
And it's incredible how it just 

603
00:34:58,440 --> 00:35:04,160
is like, OK, wow, OK. 
I had to really fight my mind on

604
00:35:04,160 --> 00:35:12,990
this little bit and to not feel.
Like, is this superficial? 

605
00:35:13,070 --> 00:35:19,870
Is this is, is it even important
for me to buy the poster that I 

606
00:35:19,870 --> 00:35:23,510
want on my wall? 
Or is it important for me to buy

607
00:35:23,510 --> 00:35:26,310
the tshirt at the mall that I 
think is cute. 

608
00:35:26,310 --> 00:35:30,310
You know, because we were both 
in fashion school and learned so

609
00:35:30,310 --> 00:35:34,670
much about fast fashion and the 
waist and that really, like, hit

610
00:35:34,670 --> 00:35:37,390
me And like, I'm still concerned
about it, but also. 

611
00:35:38,350 --> 00:35:43,110
To a point, I like internalized 
it for a while and was like, Oh 

612
00:35:43,110 --> 00:35:45,110
my gosh, I can't contribute to 
any of this. 

613
00:35:45,110 --> 00:35:50,070
But and it matters so much like 
our sense of sight is what we 

614
00:35:50,070 --> 00:35:53,950
rely on the most day-to-day. 
It's most people's main sense 

615
00:35:54,070 --> 00:35:58,350
when you think of things. 
So having the space that 

616
00:35:58,350 --> 00:36:01,750
reflects who you are or who you 
want to be. 

617
00:36:02,400 --> 00:36:05,080
That's a really easy way to 
like, start stepping there. 

618
00:36:05,080 --> 00:36:09,640
If you have a vision board or a 
mood board or like an idea of 

619
00:36:09,640 --> 00:36:12,720
the type of person you're going 
into, what type of space would 

620
00:36:12,720 --> 00:36:14,720
she live in? 
Because even if you don't have 

621
00:36:14,720 --> 00:36:18,080
the job yet, or you can't move 
yet or anything like that, you 

622
00:36:18,080 --> 00:36:22,160
always have control of your 
space and you can always donate.

623
00:36:22,160 --> 00:36:27,040
You can thrift you can do it in 
your own way, but it's. 

624
00:36:27,620 --> 00:36:31,300
The It's the easiest thing to 
change to get you one step 

625
00:36:31,300 --> 00:36:33,980
closer to maybe that lifestyle 
that you want to be living. 

626
00:36:33,980 --> 00:36:36,860
Like, change what you're looking
at every day, even if it's your 

627
00:36:36,860 --> 00:36:38,420
phone wallpaper. 
Yeah. 

628
00:36:39,140 --> 00:36:42,140
Oh my God, that is even. 
That's such a good thing to say 

629
00:36:42,820 --> 00:36:45,540
because our. 
I know we've said this many 

630
00:36:45,540 --> 00:36:49,860
times, probably before, but our 
outer world is a direct 

631
00:36:49,980 --> 00:36:53,100
reflection of our inner world. 
Like even things that are 

632
00:36:53,100 --> 00:36:59,610
seemingly out of your control, 
they are all a reflection of 

633
00:36:59,690 --> 00:37:03,250
your what's going on inside, 
because it's our perspective of 

634
00:37:03,770 --> 00:37:07,290
the world. 
So like anytime that something 

635
00:37:07,290 --> 00:37:10,830
is, you know, not feeling as 
good or like maybe somebody is 

636
00:37:10,830 --> 00:37:14,350
just like said something. 
Oh, great example of like, oh, 

637
00:37:14,790 --> 00:37:17,470
Italian. 
Sometimes I can talk to them or 

638
00:37:17,510 --> 00:37:20,470
I can witness something. 
And sometimes this very similar 

639
00:37:20,470 --> 00:37:22,750
thing I could take as being 
like, Oh my God, that person was

640
00:37:22,750 --> 00:37:24,510
so rude. 
Like, what the heck? 

641
00:37:24,510 --> 00:37:27,030
They were so upset, like just 
stupid. 

642
00:37:27,550 --> 00:37:30,350
And then I could the next day be
in a very similar interaction 

643
00:37:30,350 --> 00:37:33,310
and like not think anything of 
it. 

644
00:37:33,310 --> 00:37:35,430
But it's all based on like where
my perspective is. 

645
00:37:35,430 --> 00:37:40,920
So like what you're seeing as 
needing to maybe what you're 

646
00:37:40,920 --> 00:37:43,720
seeing is not connecting with as
much anymore. 

647
00:37:43,760 --> 00:37:48,160
That's like a sign that like you
actually have the power to to if

648
00:37:48,160 --> 00:37:52,000
it's in your surroundings, 
change it and you know shift it 

649
00:37:52,000 --> 00:37:56,720
up a bit or even like okay. 
What is this situation 

650
00:37:56,720 --> 00:38:00,760
reflecting within me, within me,
emotionally or or spiritually, 

651
00:38:00,760 --> 00:38:04,800
that is desiring to evolve and 
grow and change and doing that 

652
00:38:04,800 --> 00:38:10,130
work within can often? 
I've experienced this many 

653
00:38:10,130 --> 00:38:12,970
times, and I'm kind of in this 
situation of experiencing it 

654
00:38:12,970 --> 00:38:18,850
right now. 
Can make that outer thing go a 

655
00:38:18,850 --> 00:38:22,050
little bit more smoothly, or 
like maybe change a bit faster? 

656
00:38:23,810 --> 00:38:29,250
Another thing with external 
changes has to do with like 

657
00:38:29,250 --> 00:38:31,330
watching and consuming different
stuff too. 

658
00:38:31,890 --> 00:38:35,090
I know we've talked about this 
and I've noticed differences. 

659
00:38:35,990 --> 00:38:39,590
In myself because a while back I
never really have been into like

660
00:38:39,590 --> 00:38:45,670
the crime shows or crime 
podcasts or murder mystery is I 

661
00:38:45,670 --> 00:38:49,830
love like, but this is OKI will 
watch like mystical things. 

662
00:38:49,830 --> 00:38:53,790
I will watch Game of Thrones and
like there's a lot of blood and 

663
00:38:53,790 --> 00:38:57,950
killing in that, but like 
made-up things I don't like. 

664
00:38:58,860 --> 00:39:02,020
The realistic crime things, 
because I would never have 

665
00:39:02,020 --> 00:39:04,940
traveled the country by myself 
if I had the fears that there 

666
00:39:04,940 --> 00:39:06,540
was someone lurking around every
corner. 

667
00:39:06,740 --> 00:39:10,580
I mean, I took precautions of 
course, like I had my own things

668
00:39:10,580 --> 00:39:13,860
to protect myself. 
But what you consume on the 

669
00:39:13,860 --> 00:39:18,540
regular affects you so much and 
I notice it in conversations. 

670
00:39:18,540 --> 00:39:22,340
I can tell if somebody listens 
to Crime Junkie religiously and 

671
00:39:22,340 --> 00:39:26,100
watches CSI in law and order, 
like you can tell when when 

672
00:39:26,100 --> 00:39:28,220
you're talking to somebody that 
consumes that stuff. 

673
00:39:28,630 --> 00:39:31,910
Because there's so much more 
paranoid and like the lens that 

674
00:39:31,910 --> 00:39:33,630
they're viewing the entire world
with. 

675
00:39:34,110 --> 00:39:36,070
Yeah, it's crazy. 
You'll talk about traveling to a

676
00:39:36,070 --> 00:39:37,750
different country and they're 
just like, yeah, but blah blah, 

677
00:39:37,750 --> 00:39:39,430
blah, blah, blah blah blah, and 
they'll spit out all these 

678
00:39:39,430 --> 00:39:41,510
things and you're like, just 
read this or it just all this 

679
00:39:41,510 --> 00:39:45,750
happened to this girl. 
Yeah, you watch a little bit too

680
00:39:45,750 --> 00:39:49,710
much of the news or listen to 
too many horror stories, but 

681
00:39:50,870 --> 00:39:55,590
like watching what you consume 
and like outgrowing that or 

682
00:39:55,590 --> 00:39:58,240
you've. 
You feel more drawn to learning 

683
00:39:58,240 --> 00:40:01,800
about things, or, you know, 
listening to podcasts that teach

684
00:40:01,800 --> 00:40:05,400
you about a topic that you're 
interested in, rather than 

685
00:40:05,400 --> 00:40:08,400
listening to Barstool Gossip 
Podcast. 

686
00:40:10,720 --> 00:40:12,760
Which, again, there's nothing 
wrong with that. 

687
00:40:13,600 --> 00:40:16,280
But it comes to time in 
everyone's life where again, 

688
00:40:16,320 --> 00:40:20,680
yeah, it's no longer spilling 
the cup as much as it once was. 

689
00:40:21,400 --> 00:40:24,320
Yeah, instead of the gossipy 
ones, I've started listening to 

690
00:40:24,320 --> 00:40:28,280
more of the interviews and. 
Like, I listened to call her 

691
00:40:28,280 --> 00:40:32,320
daddy religiously back in 
college, and that was way more 

692
00:40:32,320 --> 00:40:35,160
just like raunchy and gossip, 
whatever. 

693
00:40:35,160 --> 00:40:39,360
But now Alex has changed it into
interviews with celebrities. 

694
00:40:39,360 --> 00:40:42,240
So, like, you get that dose of, 
you know, getting out of your 

695
00:40:42,280 --> 00:40:45,280
world and out of your mind 
because sometimes I just can't 

696
00:40:45,280 --> 00:40:47,080
absorb other people's ideas 
anymore. 

697
00:40:47,080 --> 00:40:50,870
It's like I go to work all day. 
And then I'm listening to music 

698
00:40:50,870 --> 00:40:53,630
and then I'm listening to 
spiritual podcasts or research 

699
00:40:53,630 --> 00:40:57,310
podcasts and it's just too much.
My mind needs a break, but I 

700
00:40:57,310 --> 00:40:59,070
will listen to interviews with 
people. 

701
00:40:59,070 --> 00:41:01,590
So it's like you are learning 
from that person, but it's not 

702
00:41:01,590 --> 00:41:05,270
so like research heavy. 
So I guess that's kind of what I

703
00:41:05,270 --> 00:41:08,190
go towards. 
I go toward, towards armchair 

704
00:41:08,230 --> 00:41:12,670
expert Jay Shetty, call her 
daddy once in a while. 

705
00:41:12,670 --> 00:41:15,270
Really depends on the person. 
I don't really listen to it much

706
00:41:15,270 --> 00:41:17,150
anymore, but it's interview 
style now. 

707
00:41:19,170 --> 00:41:21,170
But yeah, so that's why I feel 
drawn too. 

708
00:41:21,570 --> 00:41:24,010
But that changed over the years.
I used to watch horror movies. 

709
00:41:24,490 --> 00:41:29,890
I don't do that as much anymore.
Oh, because it sticks in your 

710
00:41:29,890 --> 00:41:33,450
subconscious mind, like, once I 
learned about that and how your 

711
00:41:33,450 --> 00:41:35,690
mind holds on to things in that 
way. 

712
00:41:35,690 --> 00:41:39,130
And like, your mind doesn't know
what's made-up and what's not. 

713
00:41:39,130 --> 00:41:42,490
So when you're watching a horror
movie and you feel your emotions

714
00:41:42,490 --> 00:41:45,620
spike and like. 
Those that's even like chemical 

715
00:41:45,620 --> 00:41:48,780
levels in your body, spiking 
from the anxiety and feeling 

716
00:41:48,780 --> 00:41:52,420
like you need to run your body 
is experiencing that in real 

717
00:41:52,420 --> 00:41:56,820
life as if you are there. 
And that's not very healthy, no?

718
00:41:57,620 --> 00:42:02,780
So even like, I know for me one 
of the things that I have 

719
00:42:02,780 --> 00:42:05,260
noticed change is just another 
example. 

720
00:42:05,260 --> 00:42:09,990
Like I used to, I was telling 
Alexis, I used to love, love 

721
00:42:09,990 --> 00:42:12,390
Marvel. 
Like my dream was to design 

722
00:42:12,390 --> 00:42:15,110
costumes for a Marvel movie one 
day. 

723
00:42:15,230 --> 00:42:18,910
And I just loved that. 
And then I loved also like the 

724
00:42:18,910 --> 00:42:23,350
more classical, like drama, love
story movies. 

725
00:42:23,590 --> 00:42:28,390
And when I really noticed about 
a year ago, I was watching a 

726
00:42:28,390 --> 00:42:32,350
movie and I was like, OK, so 
it's fine and all, but like, 

727
00:42:32,390 --> 00:42:38,950
it's the same thing that's being
created for literally decades. 

728
00:42:38,950 --> 00:42:41,470
Like, can we think of something 
new? 

729
00:42:42,110 --> 00:42:43,790
And that was. 
Like a villain. 

730
00:42:44,430 --> 00:42:47,030
Yeah, it's just like feeling 
that speeding, this thing that 

731
00:42:47,030 --> 00:42:49,390
it was bringing me so much joy. 
Like there's part of me that 

732
00:42:49,430 --> 00:42:52,230
knew obviously that like, Oh 
yeah, this was a very similar 

733
00:42:52,230 --> 00:42:54,270
story. 
But the moment that it's like 

734
00:42:54,790 --> 00:42:58,310
the light bulb comes on and it's
like, do I really need to watch 

735
00:42:58,310 --> 00:43:01,590
another one of these things or 
am I like, what am I what am I 

736
00:43:01,590 --> 00:43:02,550
focusing on? 
What? 

737
00:43:02,550 --> 00:43:04,230
What am I putting my energy 
towards? 

738
00:43:04,230 --> 00:43:11,510
Like because time is precious. 
Like we experience it for a 

739
00:43:11,510 --> 00:43:15,510
reason. 
And in that time is how we we 

740
00:43:15,510 --> 00:43:18,990
spend our energy and energy is 
even more precious. 

741
00:43:19,430 --> 00:43:24,270
And once we start to see that, 
then we start to realize too, 

742
00:43:24,270 --> 00:43:28,670
like how powerful we are to 
command, how we are spending our

743
00:43:28,670 --> 00:43:31,390
time and our energy here. 
And it's like, whoa. 

744
00:43:34,060 --> 00:43:38,260
The last one then that we wanted
to focus on and then we can wrap

745
00:43:38,260 --> 00:43:45,940
this up, But you have grown, if 
you look back on past versions 

746
00:43:45,940 --> 00:43:50,300
of yourself with love instead of
embarrassment or shame or 

747
00:43:50,380 --> 00:43:53,020
regret. 
I definitely. 

748
00:43:55,020 --> 00:44:01,220
I used to really get triggered 
when Snapchat would say remember

749
00:44:01,220 --> 00:44:06,900
this seven years ago today. 
And it would bring up memories 

750
00:44:06,900 --> 00:44:10,220
that I don't necessarily want to
remember because I was like, Oh 

751
00:44:10,220 --> 00:44:11,780
my God, I can't believe I did 
that. 

752
00:44:11,780 --> 00:44:14,860
Like, so embarrassing. 
Or then it would bring up 

753
00:44:14,860 --> 00:44:17,780
thoughts of, like, the rest of 
the event that aren't on camera.

754
00:44:17,780 --> 00:44:20,220
But it's like old memories. 
And you're like, God, like, that

755
00:44:20,220 --> 00:44:21,900
was so dumb. 
Like, I can't believe I talked 

756
00:44:21,900 --> 00:44:23,460
to that person. 
I can't believe I did this or 

757
00:44:23,460 --> 00:44:25,660
that. 
And it was very much that 

758
00:44:25,860 --> 00:44:29,540
shameful, regretful energy. 
And like, oh, what do people 

759
00:44:29,540 --> 00:44:31,020
think of me? 
Like, do other people remember 

760
00:44:31,020 --> 00:44:33,540
that I did that at that party? 
Like, probably not like. 

761
00:44:33,870 --> 00:44:36,070
People care about themselves way
more than they care about what 

762
00:44:36,070 --> 00:44:39,550
you did. 
But I would look back on things 

763
00:44:39,550 --> 00:44:42,670
and feel embarrassed for that 
version of myself. 

764
00:44:42,670 --> 00:44:45,230
I would look back on elementary 
photos of me and think that I 

765
00:44:45,230 --> 00:44:49,750
was just like, not a cute kid, 
like like just And I would like 

766
00:44:49,950 --> 00:44:52,870
shit on myself. 
And I'm like, why am I doing 

767
00:44:52,870 --> 00:44:55,410
that? 
Like. 12 year old me couldn't 

768
00:44:55,410 --> 00:44:56,970
help it. 
Like I looked how I looked. 

769
00:44:56,970 --> 00:45:00,290
She's kind of cute. 
We all have a duckling face. 

770
00:45:00,650 --> 00:45:04,330
You know, it comes to pass. 
And now I look at her. 

771
00:45:04,330 --> 00:45:05,890
It's one of my favorite photos 
ever. 

772
00:45:06,090 --> 00:45:08,810
I show people so we can have a 
good laugh, but it's me laughing

773
00:45:08,810 --> 00:45:12,570
with myself instead of at myself
and being like, Oh my God, 

774
00:45:12,570 --> 00:45:14,050
that's such an embarrassing 
photo. 

775
00:45:14,050 --> 00:45:16,090
It's it's like, look at this 
photo. 

776
00:45:16,090 --> 00:45:18,970
This is so like, isn't she funny
like? 

777
00:45:19,380 --> 00:45:24,060
We all start somewhere, but you 
look back on those memories with

778
00:45:24,060 --> 00:45:26,700
more of a wow, I actually went 
through that. 

779
00:45:26,700 --> 00:45:30,060
I made it through. 
We learned something and you can

780
00:45:30,060 --> 00:45:34,180
kind of connect the dots rather 
than, you know, explaining it 

781
00:45:34,180 --> 00:45:36,700
away or trying to not look at 
those photos or deleting the 

782
00:45:36,700 --> 00:45:40,020
whole album on your phone. 
I've thought about doing that, 

783
00:45:40,020 --> 00:45:41,460
deleting a bunch of college 
things. 

784
00:45:41,460 --> 00:45:43,700
And I'm like, you know what? 
I'm going to regret that? 

785
00:45:43,700 --> 00:45:46,260
I'm going to regret not being 
able to look back and see how 

786
00:45:46,260 --> 00:45:53,320
far I've come so true. 
Every single thing has been a 

787
00:45:53,320 --> 00:45:55,840
part of what's made us who we 
are today. 

788
00:45:57,840 --> 00:46:02,520
And like, deleting photos like 
that is such a great example of 

789
00:46:02,520 --> 00:46:05,960
like deleting that memory or 
like trying to push it down. 

790
00:46:06,000 --> 00:46:10,800
But really, I still have things 
that have happened in my life or

791
00:46:11,200 --> 00:46:13,560
things that I did or said that 
I'm like, Oh my God, it's so 

792
00:46:13,560 --> 00:46:15,960
embarrassing, whatever. 
But it's also, it's becoming 

793
00:46:15,960 --> 00:46:19,980
less and less because I'm like, 
wow, like I learned this from 

794
00:46:19,980 --> 00:46:21,580
this. 
So like this brought me to this 

795
00:46:21,580 --> 00:46:23,980
person who introduced me to the 
like, what? 

796
00:46:24,140 --> 00:46:28,380
How incredible. 
And if we didn't have those 

797
00:46:28,380 --> 00:46:31,980
times, then it's so true we 
wouldn't really be able to 

798
00:46:31,980 --> 00:46:36,060
appreciate how far we've come or
like the really beautiful times 

799
00:46:36,140 --> 00:46:38,420
either. 
So it's all just part of the 

800
00:46:38,420 --> 00:46:42,260
part of the journey and part of 
like, the growing pains of of 

801
00:46:42,980 --> 00:46:46,780
being humans. 
I guess the. 

802
00:46:47,310 --> 00:46:50,790
Truly, last thing, we can wrap 
this up with a little bow. 

803
00:46:51,830 --> 00:46:55,230
You trust that everything is 
falling into place as it's as 

804
00:46:55,230 --> 00:46:58,030
it's meant to. 
Like literally nothing is a 

805
00:46:58,030 --> 00:47:00,470
coincidence. 
I don't believe in coincidences 

806
00:47:00,550 --> 00:47:04,030
and I've been blown away with 
what's been but on my path and 

807
00:47:04,030 --> 00:47:06,970
I'm just like, wait. 
I will say things like, Oh my 

808
00:47:06,970 --> 00:47:08,370
gosh, the craziest thing just 
happened. 

809
00:47:08,370 --> 00:47:10,250
But actually I'm not even 
surprised because things like 

810
00:47:10,250 --> 00:47:12,970
this happen all the time. 
But every time, every time it 

811
00:47:12,970 --> 00:47:14,930
happens, I'm like, Oh my God, 
Carly, the craziest thing 

812
00:47:14,930 --> 00:47:16,250
happened. 
I ran into this person and 

813
00:47:16,250 --> 00:47:18,610
honestly, not even surprised 
because this happens all the 

814
00:47:18,610 --> 00:47:21,130
time, which is also 
manifestation. 

815
00:47:21,130 --> 00:47:24,730
Like good things come to me 
always whatever that type of 

816
00:47:24,730 --> 00:47:27,370
stuff, but just everything's 
falling into place. 

817
00:47:27,370 --> 00:47:31,130
I don't know how, when, why or 
what's going to happen, but. 

818
00:47:32,210 --> 00:47:35,290
I've stopped asking opinions 
because when I think, when I've 

819
00:47:35,290 --> 00:47:39,450
told people that I am probably 
going to move, move out of this 

820
00:47:39,450 --> 00:47:42,130
apartment in March, but I don't 
know if I'm going to move, move 

821
00:47:42,130 --> 00:47:44,770
or whatever. 
And people keep asking me now 

822
00:47:44,970 --> 00:47:47,330
This is why I'm careful with 
when I share and how I share and

823
00:47:47,330 --> 00:47:50,090
with who I share because they're
like, Oh well, what's your plan?

824
00:47:51,530 --> 00:47:53,530
I'm like, I don't, I don't have 
a plan. 

825
00:47:53,770 --> 00:47:56,570
You know, I feel like people 
have known me long enough now 

826
00:47:56,570 --> 00:48:00,050
that it's like, stop asking me 
about my plan it. 

827
00:48:00,250 --> 00:48:03,250
It's a surprise. 
I don't know. 

828
00:48:03,250 --> 00:48:05,250
I think so much can happen 
between now and then. 

829
00:48:05,250 --> 00:48:08,370
And I'm not going to try to 
figure it out because for some 

830
00:48:08,370 --> 00:48:11,010
reason everything seems to 
happen for me. 

831
00:48:12,210 --> 00:48:14,050
And I don't think I'm going to 
have to make that decision. 

832
00:48:14,050 --> 00:48:15,650
I think something's going to 
happen and it's going to be 

833
00:48:15,650 --> 00:48:17,970
like, Oh yeah, that makes sense.
Let's go. 

834
00:48:19,410 --> 00:48:23,410
So I think one thing that even 
human design and and the gene 

835
00:48:23,410 --> 00:48:28,360
keys or whatever can teach us 
and from like even more of the 

836
00:48:28,360 --> 00:48:31,120
Eastern perspective that now 
I've gained from going to India 

837
00:48:31,120 --> 00:48:36,360
and just my own like my own life
experience and just taking that 

838
00:48:36,360 --> 00:48:43,000
time to be still, it really 
shows us that yes, oh, this is 

839
00:48:43,000 --> 00:48:47,080
going to be a good example. 
Our teacher Nanji in India, he 

840
00:48:47,080 --> 00:48:55,080
talked about free will and how a
lot of people we think that free

841
00:48:55,080 --> 00:48:58,240
will is, being able to choose 
like what you're going to eat 

842
00:48:58,240 --> 00:49:00,360
today, what you're going to do 
with your life, all of this 

843
00:49:00,360 --> 00:49:01,640
stuff, blah blah, blah, blah, 
blah. 

844
00:49:02,480 --> 00:49:06,480
And I really, just really spoke 
to me and it might not speak to 

845
00:49:06,480 --> 00:49:09,600
everyone right at this point. 
So just take it if you will, 

846
00:49:09,600 --> 00:49:14,000
leave it if you don't. 
But it's like the true free will

847
00:49:14,080 --> 00:49:19,880
that we have is are we going to 
willingly jump on board with 

848
00:49:19,880 --> 00:49:24,000
life and what life has to offer 
us and what we have to offer 

849
00:49:24,000 --> 00:49:28,720
life back in return? 
We we have the free will to say 

850
00:49:28,720 --> 00:49:32,720
yes to like what we are here, to
do what the universe already has

851
00:49:32,720 --> 00:49:38,720
planned or to not do that that 
is the free will. 

852
00:49:39,040 --> 00:49:42,560
The free will is to say yes to 
what we're here to do or to say 

853
00:49:42,560 --> 00:49:45,560
like, no, I'm going to try to do
this and do this and do this and

854
00:49:45,680 --> 00:49:49,120
and go against myself here and 
there and like, try to be this 

855
00:49:49,120 --> 00:49:54,720
person that society thinks I'm 
going to be or to say this yes, 

856
00:49:54,720 --> 00:49:58,720
I'm going to flow with life. 
That's the only free will that 

857
00:49:58,720 --> 00:50:01,240
we have. 
And that just like, again, some 

858
00:50:01,240 --> 00:50:02,680
people might not ready to be 
ready to hear that. 

859
00:50:02,680 --> 00:50:05,960
And like a year ago I would not 
have been ready to hear that, 

860
00:50:06,400 --> 00:50:09,520
but like that just instantly, 
I'm glad I'm remembering this 

861
00:50:09,520 --> 00:50:11,480
because wow, I needed to hear 
that myself. 

862
00:50:11,960 --> 00:50:16,450
It's like takes the pressure off
and it's like we're all here for

863
00:50:16,450 --> 00:50:20,010
a reason and just say yes to 
that reason, even if you don't 

864
00:50:20,010 --> 00:50:24,850
know what it is. 
Life is designed to show you 

865
00:50:24,850 --> 00:50:28,290
that reason. 
And that's it's simple. 

866
00:50:30,090 --> 00:50:33,530
Hearing you say that makes me 
think of sharing human design 

867
00:50:33,530 --> 00:50:38,650
with people, and the coolest 
thing that I see on almost 

868
00:50:38,650 --> 00:50:41,570
everybody's face is just a sigh 
of relief. 

869
00:50:42,230 --> 00:50:44,470
Yeah. 
It's like I don't have to have 

870
00:50:44,470 --> 00:50:47,230
whatever mask it is they have on
anymore. 

871
00:50:47,990 --> 00:50:50,870
Like, whoa, like, you're right. 
Or this is me. 

872
00:50:50,870 --> 00:50:54,270
Or I feel so seen. 
Or wow, this has shown up and 

873
00:50:54,270 --> 00:50:57,590
it's just such a sense of relief
that you're just here to be you 

874
00:50:57,590 --> 00:51:00,950
and just stop trying to be 
anything else. 

875
00:51:01,550 --> 00:51:04,790
And what's beautiful about this 
though too is like to have 

876
00:51:04,790 --> 00:51:09,150
somebody, like, let's say you go
to Alexis for a reading. 

877
00:51:09,620 --> 00:51:12,580
Maybe me Alexis is doing more of
that right now than I am. 

878
00:51:13,820 --> 00:51:17,700
And because I I've experienced 
this, it was like, Oh my gosh, 

879
00:51:17,700 --> 00:51:22,020
the permission I never needed. 
I never knew I needed to just be

880
00:51:22,020 --> 00:51:25,140
who I am. 
But then the growing pains of 

881
00:51:25,140 --> 00:51:27,700
that too, because you realize, 
Oh my God, I've been like 

882
00:51:29,020 --> 00:51:32,220
putting this mask on for years. 
And the mask like, even though 

883
00:51:32,220 --> 00:51:34,220
it didn't feel good all the 
time, I'm like used to trying to

884
00:51:34,220 --> 00:51:37,180
fit into that role. 
And then that time period of 

885
00:51:37,180 --> 00:51:40,800
like, I know I've, I've had 
moments where I'm like, I don't 

886
00:51:40,800 --> 00:51:44,080
want to be a fucking manifester.
I don't want to be a three, six 

887
00:51:44,600 --> 00:51:47,240
profile. 
Like that's fucking difficult 

888
00:51:47,240 --> 00:51:49,840
because I've been not trying to 
be that my entire life. 

889
00:51:49,840 --> 00:51:52,440
And so you have this, I've had 
this like back and forth of like

890
00:51:53,920 --> 00:51:57,040
feeling so liberated by that 
knowledge. 

891
00:51:57,520 --> 00:52:00,920
But also that, yeah, the growing
pains of like, OK, we have to 

892
00:52:00,920 --> 00:52:04,040
like shed. 
I have to shed this, this skin, 

893
00:52:04,080 --> 00:52:06,120
this mask that I've been trying 
to fit into. 

894
00:52:06,120 --> 00:52:08,240
And it's stuck. 
You know, it's like it didn't 

895
00:52:08,240 --> 00:52:10,830
fit me. 
So it's like stuck on my head, 

896
00:52:10,830 --> 00:52:13,630
like a tight neckline of a 
sweater that you're trying to 

897
00:52:13,630 --> 00:52:16,790
get off and you want it off. 
But then like, also it's cozy 

898
00:52:16,790 --> 00:52:19,710
kind of when it's on. 
But like, it needs to come off 

899
00:52:19,790 --> 00:52:25,390
for you to be yourself and to 
like, let yourself just be in 

900
00:52:25,390 --> 00:52:28,310
your own liberation. 
But it's hard to like having the

901
00:52:28,310 --> 00:52:31,990
whole point in this is having 
someone like say, Alexis or 

902
00:52:31,990 --> 00:52:35,470
another human design reader or 
anybody in your life to kind of 

903
00:52:36,770 --> 00:52:40,370
to keep that perspective there 
and to help us through these 

904
00:52:40,370 --> 00:52:45,810
times of growth and outgrowing. 
Because with that growth comes 

905
00:52:45,810 --> 00:52:50,090
those growing pains is so 
important because humans are 

906
00:52:50,090 --> 00:52:52,930
habitual creatures. 
And even if a habit doesn't feel

907
00:52:52,930 --> 00:52:56,170
good, even if a habit isn't 
really in your highest good, 

908
00:52:56,170 --> 00:52:57,730
it's still something that is 
known. 

909
00:52:57,730 --> 00:53:00,690
It feels safe to our nervous 
system. 

910
00:53:01,330 --> 00:53:04,330
So just to have that, yeah, that
support to get you through that 

911
00:53:04,410 --> 00:53:09,330
is priceless. 
This was a fun episode. 

912
00:53:09,850 --> 00:53:12,250
I'm glad we did one that was 
more topic based. 

913
00:53:12,250 --> 00:53:16,210
We still free flow and get on 
tangents, but this is really 

914
00:53:16,210 --> 00:53:21,450
good reflection honestly to just
chat through how we have grown 

915
00:53:21,450 --> 00:53:23,970
because I feel like I had 
visions throughout talking about

916
00:53:23,970 --> 00:53:27,690
this, about the past things and 
I'm like well. 

917
00:53:28,010 --> 00:53:31,330
Actually, we have actually come 
a long way even in reflecting on

918
00:53:31,330 --> 00:53:34,650
how this is going to be episode 
like 35 or something like that. 

919
00:53:36,270 --> 00:53:41,150
How much we've changed just from
episode one to now is crazy. 

920
00:53:42,550 --> 00:53:44,590
Just like, listen to episode one
again. 

921
00:53:45,070 --> 00:53:49,790
Oh my gosh, that's wild. 
We should do, we should do that 

922
00:53:49,790 --> 00:53:51,870
one of these times. 
Like listen to episode one and 

923
00:53:51,870 --> 00:53:54,750
then come and reflect on it. 
I think that would be really 

924
00:53:54,910 --> 00:54:02,670
funny because that was November 
of last year, which it really 

925
00:54:02,670 --> 00:54:06,240
hasn't been that long, but 
wholly that feels like lifetimes

926
00:54:06,240 --> 00:54:09,200
ago. 
I was living in my parents house

927
00:54:09,960 --> 00:54:13,520
and like no idea I was going to 
move here at all. 

928
00:54:15,280 --> 00:54:16,880
Crazy. 
So much has happened. 

929
00:54:16,880 --> 00:54:19,520
So much has changed. 
So much has changed. 

930
00:54:19,520 --> 00:54:23,800
I feel like my big thing that I 
can say is like, I was realizing

931
00:54:23,800 --> 00:54:26,280
that what I thought I wanted to 
do wasn't really what, and so I 

932
00:54:26,280 --> 00:54:29,760
had no idea. 
And I still don't have a clear, 

933
00:54:29,760 --> 00:54:33,080
clear, clear idea of like what I
will be doing, which, you know, 

934
00:54:33,080 --> 00:54:35,380
I've gotten. 
I'm more OK with that. 

935
00:54:35,380 --> 00:54:37,860
Because really, no one knows. 
Nobody knows. 

936
00:54:39,220 --> 00:54:42,420
We have ideas, but like ideas 
and dreams, they evolve and 

937
00:54:42,420 --> 00:54:43,660
change. 
But. 

938
00:54:44,900 --> 00:54:48,380
Yeah, but to close this out, I 
did want to mention that yes, 

939
00:54:48,380 --> 00:54:50,620
Carly and I both do human design
readings. 

940
00:54:50,620 --> 00:54:56,380
So if you are interested at all 
in hearing about yours, I will 

941
00:54:56,380 --> 00:55:00,540
put the link to look up your 
chart in the in the caption of 

942
00:55:00,540 --> 00:55:04,020
this episode and. 
It's just so fun to even look 

943
00:55:04,020 --> 00:55:07,300
at, but it's very overwhelming. 
I'm going to forewarn you, if 

944
00:55:07,300 --> 00:55:10,300
you look up your chart, you're 
going to be like, what the heck 

945
00:55:10,340 --> 00:55:15,460
does this mean? 
So please reach out DM Carly, DM

946
00:55:15,460 --> 00:55:17,860
me, or click the link in my 
Instagram bio. 

947
00:55:17,860 --> 00:55:22,780
I have my calendar link also in 
the caption below this episode, 

948
00:55:23,060 --> 00:55:24,900
but I would love to chat with 
you about it. 

949
00:55:25,140 --> 00:55:28,700
I'm starting to do some in 
person workshops in Minneapolis.

950
00:55:28,740 --> 00:55:31,450
And then? 
I'm trying to get some guides 

951
00:55:31,530 --> 00:55:35,050
up, like some free digital 
download guides, because once I 

952
00:55:35,050 --> 00:55:37,410
looked at mine I really wanted 
to share it with friends and 

953
00:55:37,410 --> 00:55:39,530
family and then also understand 
theirs. 

954
00:55:39,570 --> 00:55:42,450
And it just takes so much 
Googling to try to find 

955
00:55:42,450 --> 00:55:46,170
information about human design. 
It's still not super widespread 

956
00:55:46,250 --> 00:55:50,570
and accessible yet, so I'm 
working on getting some of those

957
00:55:50,570 --> 00:55:52,490
up and then they're really 
beautiful. 

958
00:55:53,530 --> 00:55:55,890
Carly. 
OK, yeah, Carly. 

959
00:55:56,170 --> 00:56:00,750
They passed the Carly test so. 
I have those that I'm working 

960
00:56:00,750 --> 00:56:03,430
on. 
I'm also doing human design 

961
00:56:03,430 --> 00:56:05,230
guidebooks. 
So if you want every part of 

962
00:56:05,230 --> 00:56:08,190
your chart broken down into more
of something that you can just 

963
00:56:08,190 --> 00:56:12,270
have all the time to read. 
It's a digital PDF that goes 

964
00:56:12,270 --> 00:56:14,830
into like your energy type, feel
like your centers, whether 

965
00:56:14,830 --> 00:56:17,270
they're defined or undefined, 
all your gates, your channels 

966
00:56:17,990 --> 00:56:20,630
into detail. 
So you have, you would have all 

967
00:56:20,630 --> 00:56:22,430
of that. 
So I have those as well. 

968
00:56:24,190 --> 00:56:26,230
Yeah, please message if you're 
interested. 

969
00:56:26,230 --> 00:56:32,370
I love talking about it. 
And yeah, that is the end of 

970
00:56:32,370 --> 00:56:34,290
this upset. 
That's all folks. 

971
00:56:34,690 --> 00:56:36,450
I hope you're having a great 
day. 

972
00:56:36,450 --> 00:56:40,930
Wherever you're listening, we're
grateful for you guys and we'll 

973
00:56:40,930 --> 00:56:42,810
see you in the next one. 
Bye.