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Hello, hello and welcome to this episode of Let it Flow.
I'm Carly. And this is my first ever solo
episode. I'm a little bit nervous, not
going to lie, I don't really know where I'm going to take
this. No, I know where I'm starting
with this but I don't know where it's gonna go.
So, come on this ride with me and get to know me a little bit
better. I'm going to share.
Bits and pieces of my personal Journey, the past, and two
years. Now that have really taught me a
lot. And have helped me come to this
place that I am physically emotionally, mentally, and
spiritually, all of that in this moment.
So come on hop on board and and that's flow.
Yay. So it is currently Thursday
April 6th. I'm saying this because I'm
laughing at myself and probably a little X's has been thinking
because tomorrow I leave for India.
Oh, talk about waiting to last minute.
She's probably just like when he's Carly going to do this.
Please Lord, help her remember and get it done.
But I'm doing it and we're here and I'm so excited to be here.
And then I'm also excited for this month to come which I
wanted to touch on very quickly. So for those of you who maybe
have missed the past episodes where I've mentioned this
tomorrow, I am going to India to study yoga for a month.
I'm going to finally get my teacher training.
My first level, my mom is also coming, but she is doing the
second level. She's already completed her
first level of teacher training. I Sure, I will have a whole
episode about my experience. What I've learned, what I have
discovered about myself through this process, but I will say,
just now, just in case you guys want to look it up before I come
back at all, I'm going to rishikesh to satisfy yogic at
me. This is a yoga.
It's a lineage of yoga called satva that has been certified
yoga. Scusa and that has been created
by this man are not and it's really a unique situation
because he is still living. It was quite young actually in
his 40s. I believe.
And it's just oh, I am absolutely in love with it.
It's a mixture of all the different yoga so okay.
No. Sorry.
We'll get into this when I return because I will also have
more information but anyway so I'm going on that Journey.
And so today, I just want to kind of, yeah, give a little
check in, on most of what I'm feeling right now.
What I've learned leading up to this and kind of the things that
are most relevant to me at this moment because I think it's
always important to share those things.
And then also share how those things change over time and
what's relevant for me. Now, what's relevant for you
now? Won't probably be relevant.
To you even tomorrow. Sometimes even an hour from now.
That's one thing I've learned about myself is I hmm.
How do I even want to say this? I think through the training
Alexis, and I both did, and I'll pee in your linguistic
programming. I've just been more aware of my
words that I use. And then also, on top of that,
I've been teaching English for a couple years now, which is even
made me what more aware of the words I use.
And I realized that for me, I Have really come to this
completion with defining anything about myself or where I
am or where I think I'm going. yeah, it's I've realized I don't
know if it's just don't. This might be kind of a, I don't
know. A little sabotage.
Anything maybe not. Now I don't think so, I don't
know. We'll find out.
But I've noticed that the moment that I say something is certain.
It's like I don't know if you guys can relate to this.
But it says though, my soul or whatever.
Whatever you want to say even my mind, my soul is just like that.
No, no, no, no. You're just gonna keep as well.
Loving and the moment you think you're there?
No, no. We're gonna throw something else
at you. So this lesson was learned has
been being learned for years now.
I mean, any time I thought I had the plan, I thought I had the
path, and I thought I knew for sure, life has always Inspired
me to change course and the real realization of this was when I
was working with my business coach so I was on the path
similar to Alexis in terms of like wanting to be a life coach,
we're both doing the NLP training and kind of on this
street to go towards this direction.
We were even working with the same.
Business coach and just like creating similar things by, in
our own very, very different and unique ways.
And one thing I've mentioned on this podcast, a few times, is
the, I've just become utterly fascinated with this journey
because as I've let go of this expectation of myself that I put
on myself, to become this life, coach to become this certain
thing. I've realized that the messages
I was sharing my social media, you can go back if you're
interested and look at some of the real, there's not that many
but there's quite a few of just sharing.
How to like re wild yourself. Let go of all these expectations
that other people that you've placed on yourself because of
other people or society's expectations.
All of these things that you think you should be let go of
all of that. Let your creativity connect with
your creativity and let your unique creativity flow.
Whoa and however that looks like and it will guide you.
It will guide you to places. You might not even be able to
imagine right now but following your creativity and following
our own unique expression of that creativity has nowhere to
go. But in a place that's in
alignment with our soul with our true beings and you can probably
hear my voice that is like very near and dear to my heart and
it's something that I've learned.
Learned a lot about actually is in so many words in my human
design, and now that I've been diving into the gene Keys, it's
like, freaking blowing my mind, but I digress.
So, this lesson came because I started I Let Go I have this
Vision. This particular idea that I was
guess I was going to become this life coach and I was going to be
successful in these ways and help people do these things and
all the sudden, I just reached a complete and utter burnout like
I was just I could not bring myself to do anything else
because anything else with this business because I realized in
sharing this message in the way I was sharing this message, I
was completely unbeknownst to myself at the time blocking off
parts of myself. These parts of myself that
desire to be expressed in all of these different ways in ways
that don't make sense to pay me less, let alone other people,
and I was literally, Coach like, okay.
How do I say this? Literally passed Carly in those
videos, was coaching current Carly with almost like future,
Carly's knowledge. It was like a complete and utter
like timeline collapse. It was absolutely incredible.
And so I was listening to myself, say these words and
being so moved by my own words. It was absolutely fascinating
and And that kind of sparked, this realization of like I don't
need to know when I'm going to do because also nobody knows
what they're doing. So if you are in a situation
right now where you know, maybe you're going to a nine-to-five,
are you just making it buyer? You're doing random work.
So, you're trying to express yourself, but there's parts of
you that feels blocked because it's like, okay, if I express
myself, where does this lead? How does this turn into a
business? How do I get from this point?
now, where I want to be, I feel you and if I can give you any
advice, if I may give you any words of wisdom, I guess that I
have. Come to embody Within Myself.
Is you don't need to know. Our logical.
Brain, are you going brain? It plays a wonderful role.
It helps keep us safe in the moment.
And oftentimes, almost always this question of, what am I
going to do with my career? How am I going to support
myself? How am I going to support those
around me that I want desire to support or or all of those
questions that come around having a career in a business or
doing doing the thing, you know? Oui.
We can't expect for our brain to figure that out in a way that is
going to feel good to us. Because we have so much
conditioning, so many, you know, ideas that Society in our family
and our friends and our surroundings have taught us that
bring us to that point and this past these Last book.
Sidhu 6 months, probably know. I have gone through this again
and again and again, it's like, It's like a flower opening up.
And then closing, I have moments where I feel so free and I'm
like, I don't need to know because I trust Foley that these
creative ideas, and, and expressions are leading me
somewhere. Absolutely, incredibly
beautiful. That I can't even begin to
imagine. Like, like, it's going to bring
me somewhere that I would never have thunk before.
That it would. So I would have these moments of
feeling this utter freedom in this like just expressing these
ideas and creating things like getting into all these different
projects and just this flow of creation and then usually it
would come when I would see something online or be talking
to somebody here, locally that would ask me, what I'm doing or
I would see somebody doing something that seemed a little
bit more. Grounded in kind of that logical
structural way that our society functions, which there's nothing
wrong with that because there are people that are built for
that and that fulfills them. I hope but that's just not not
right now anyway and I don't foresee it ever but never say
never I that's not how I work. So it would be when this
question would come to me of like, what are you doing or
seeing somebody feel seemingly being very supportive?
Ported by what they were doing, financially, physically,
mentally emotionally, all of those things that I would, then
it would like, I would close up again and start to swirl around
in my own brain, and question, like, oh my God, but like, what
am I doing? None of this makes sense.
And during this time, actually, when this was at its height,
when I was just kind of, Spinning out of control, 9 and
outward way. But kind of in an inner way like
just losing a lot of the trust that in a way.
I had built in kind of going along this path of being a coach
and seeing how like, oh my God yeah I couldn't, I can focus on
things, I can get things done. I can move towards a certain
goal. It was almost like that was all.
Kind of dropping away from me. I was losing that confidence
because that confidence was being built at me working
towards reaching. A goal outside of myself.
It was like I had chosen, I'm sure people can relate to this.
It was like I had chosen this imaginary version of myself that
I felt connected to. And I still feel connected to
that. I don't doubt that the things I
was doing before I going to come around again, because they
always do, but it was As though I had.
Yeah it picked up this like potential version of Carly
future Kylie which what is feature but that's not the
discussion future Kylie and been like I am working to reach you
you and I thought that I wasn't doing that, you know, because I
really felt I felt those parts of me in, in myself at the time.
But it was like, I even though I was trying not to and I was
aware of the fact that this is something.
We do we put our success outside of who we are in the moment and
and put it towards something outside of yourself.
I was really trying not to do that but I was because and I
feel it, now I can relate now and some of the times we have to
accept the fact that these lessons that were meant to
learn, they're meant to be learnt.
After the fact, you know, I do think we can avoid a lot of
suffering and a lot of painful experiences through working on
ourselves. Elves, which I'm going to get
into that point, but some things you just, you have to go through
it. And there's no shame.
Like, I had it sometime of this where I realized all of this
stuff that I was just sharing about myself and my
realizations. And I was like, oh my God, like
why couldn't a someone told me that, you know, why couldn't I
have seen that, but I didn't, but it's so beautiful the
nonetheless because it got me here.
Mmm. Pretty crazy live. so, It's a
backtrack a bit because I got off topic now off topic but
they're intended to did around this time.
We're kind of that A bit false confidence that was connected to
this outward. Goal was kind of falling away
and I was just shaken big time. I found South by yoga and how I
did is quite the story and of itself and it goes to show how
important it is to Let yourself allow yourself to be vulnerable,
first and foremost to yourself because that is how you open the
door to being honest and communicating with yourself,
which I am still working on. Honestly, for those of you who
may be struggle with this, like literally I this has been
something that has my relationship with Francesco has
taught me a lot about the fact that a really takes me time to,
even like, I feel it, I feel it. All I feel so much, I don't know
if it's also this, like Pisces energy because I'm a Pisces, if
you didn't know but I just feel so much I've realized really all
the time. I'm feeling so much that when
something comes up that I would benefit myself and also others
from, you know, sharing. It's really hard for me to tune
into that singular thing. You know, that singular emotion.
That's going to help me express myself in a positive and helpful
way. And one thing that's really
helped me doing, this is just kind of oh gosh, what's it
called? There's a word obviously the
people call it but where you just Journal And you just let it
all flow out, like, word vomit on the page, basically, and I've
written many a page that doesn't really make a lot of sense, but
by the end, I am very clear with what's going on within me.
So, I had done kind of one of these prior to this connection,
and I basically realized that I was really lonely, really
lonely. I, you know, I have my partner
and I have my mom here, which has been wonderful and I have
Alexis and a couple of our other friends, but I realized that I
had been for so long trying to create this thing, like in the
Ethereal Realm of the internet and Instagram, which is so
amazing. And, you know, I know that's
there for me too in the future and even right now, like, I've
met beautiful, wonderful people, even through this podcast that
have created this sense of community.
But I started to realize that I need to be more present.
I need that grounding sensation of my feet on the ground,
creating a community meeting people in the physical that
helps that connection between all of my ideas and my Visions
to actually creating in the world.
And I, yeah, I admitted that to myself and through a third-party
connection. I met this girl Alicia, who I
feel will We end up on this podcast because she is such a
Wise Wise, beautiful soul. And so she was on this call and
we connected basically because I cried in front of everyone and
shared what I just told you, and she commented on the zoom call,
like, oh, like let's connect, I'm in Rome.
So then I crept on her after the call.
Like like a crazy person. I found her contact through her
Instagram, through this third party girl Jana.
Actually, I can tell you her name because she's amazing to
Jana her Instagram will be in the show notes, but it's, oh,
kind kind matters. I believe she does beautiful
like women circles and oh, she's a lovely Soul as well.
So we connected through her and then yes, like a creeper, I
found her and she invited me to this retreat called sattva, Yoga
Retreat. And I just thought it was the
name, I thought it was the name of the people who were doing it.
So we came I brought my mom obviously and we did this yoga
and it was like, what was that? And so this is the beginning of
like really, really letting go of all of those things that I
was just sharing about all those visions and expectations.
I had placed on myself well saying to others and sharing
this message of do Don't listen to those expectations, let them
go just be who you are. Oh my God, life is a funny
thing. So yeah, I basically threw satva
and through finally just like really going with in like I
don't know if any of you have even seen my Instagram because I
am not active right now. I'm active, when I post things
in tandem with Let It Flow podcast.
But But I just realized, I had been spending all of this energy
expressing outside of myself. Like, what I thought I needed
to, to then become this thing and I know so many people can
relate to this. Like I think the majority of
society spend so much more time on doing rather than being and
that was a huge realization actually had.
During this time this introduction to satva and then
this letting go is like I have to allow myself to be just be
The fact that it's so difficult to just allow ourselves to be
blows me away and by allowing yourself to be, I just mean,
just be who you are, and every single moment and Let Go piano
piano. This is going to be phrase.
We're getting us a lot on this because it just means like
slowly, but surely, but I'd love it because in Italian, they use
it all the time. It's like, step by step slowly.
yeah, but surely, let go of this need to do because if doing
Comes before being it's like, this is what I've experienced
for myself. It's like, Doing just to do,
like, it's doing, just to feel like you're doing something, it
runs flat, it doesn't fulfill because there's no deeper
knowledge, of the reason why you're doing those things.
And to be clear, I thought I had a reason why I was doing those
things, but the reason I was doing those things was still out
of the feeling of just needing a reason to do them.
Like it wasn't, the reason that was within my soul like the
depths of my true Nature. And so really this journey and
also even his podcast Lexus and I have mentioned this in
different ways but it's kind of this expressed this mode of
expression to allow us to just be and see where it goes.
And that's what I'm doing right now.
I'm really Allowing myself to get to know myself so well.
And just be in every moment. Do based on that action of being
how. I feel, what I feel is coming up
for me. So if one morning I wake up and
I say, you know what, I just feel like I need to go on a long
walk in nature and not do anything that I think I need to
do great. If I wake up and I'm like I want
to paint then I'm going to paint if I wake up and I think I'm
going to make something in clay today, then I'm going to make
something and Clay today. If I wake up and say, I want to
go eat sushi, then I'm going to eat sushi like it's that doesn't
always that sometimes it happens.
But I'm trying to get the point across of Whatever you are
feeling. That you have a desire to do
because you hmm because it's an expression of your being please
follow it. Please follow it because if
there's one thing I am 100% certain of and I'm truly
starting to see this happen. There's been some incredible
things that have taken place over the last week's, which I'm
not going to share yet because they're still in flux.
But I'm sure when I return, I will have more information about
this to kind of show as an example.
This phenomena of when we allow ourselves to be and Trust.
So so so so so much trust that even if we can't logically see
it, which normally we can't. And honestly, I don't want to
anymore. I'm so tongue.
I'm so tired. I'm so complete with my logical
brain. Honestly, every time she pops up
there and it's like, well, why don't you do this?
You should do this, why doesn't it doesn't make sense bubble.
I'm like, hmm. Okay, let's focus on something
else. It just gets exhausting right?
When you're just so full of thoughts and you're just going
around and around and around and around, oh my God exhausting.
But anyway, just to allow yourself to be in every moment
and if you want to cook something cooking, if you want
to go call a friend and express an idea, you have call that
friend and express your idea if you want to just spend time.
I'm freaking I don't even know writing just right and trust
that those desires that are coming up within you.
Are there for a reason? They're not random.
They are there because that's what you are here to express,
which isn't even, even even that specific thing that you're
expressing, its the how you express it in that being in that
authenticity of this. is what's present for me at the moment and
maybe two days from now, two weeks, five months to years from
now, you're not going to be expressing in that way anymore,
but it doesn't matter. It's not about what we do.
It's How We Do It. And how freeing is that?
Because we're not here to do. We're here to be, we're here to
experience life. Like that's the gift of life is
to experience it, not to do it to experience it and witness it
and just have freaking fun. So I don't know how long I've
been talking. Literally no idea.
And I hope that this made sense a more I wanted to share and
some I didn't expect to share but I'm trusting that. whatever
lands with you lands, and whatever doesn't you're just
going to let go of and Yeah. Thank you for being here and I
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