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Hello and welcome to the let it 
flow podcast hosted by your 

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spiritual besties Alexis and 
Carly. 

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We're tries to humans figuring 
things out and we're here to 

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share this community with you as
an outlet for self-discovery and

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spiritual growth, this podcast 
is designed to open your mind 

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with conversations. 
That encourage you to ask bigger

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questions about mindset, 
spirituality personal growth and

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everything in between. 
Are passionate about gaining 

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different perspectives on what 
the universe has to offer. 

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And the one thing we found to be
100% true, is that life is meant

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to flow. 
We're not here to tell you how 

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to live your life. 
But to provide you with the 

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tools and knowledge, you need to
create an experience that feels 

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uniquely. 
You tune in every week to awaken

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your potential, and deepen, your
Evolution. 

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Whether you're all in on your 
personal growth Journey or just 

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starting out, let's flow 
together. 

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Hello, hello and welcome to this
episode of Let it Flow. 

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I'm Carly. 
And this is my first ever solo 

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episode. 
I'm a little bit nervous, not 

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going to lie, I don't really 
know where I'm going to take 

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this. 
No, I know where I'm starting 

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with this but I don't know where
it's gonna go. 

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So, come on this ride with me 
and get to know me a little bit 

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better. 
I'm going to share. 

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Bits and pieces of my personal 
Journey, the past, and two 

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years. 
Now that have really taught me a

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lot. 
And have helped me come to this 

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place that I am physically 
emotionally, mentally, and 

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spiritually, all of that in this
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So come on hop on board and and 
that's flow. 

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Yay. 
So it is currently Thursday 

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April 6th. 
I'm saying this because I'm 

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laughing at myself and probably 
a little X's has been thinking 

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because tomorrow I leave for 
India. 

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Oh, talk about waiting to last 
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She's probably just like when 
he's Carly going to do this. 

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Please Lord, help her remember 
and get it done. 

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But I'm doing it and we're here 
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And then I'm also excited for 
this month to come which I 

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wanted to touch on very quickly.
So for those of you who maybe 

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have missed the past episodes 
where I've mentioned this 

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tomorrow, I am going to India to
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I'm going to finally get my 
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My first level, my mom is also 
coming, but she is doing the 

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second level. 
She's already completed her 

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first level of teacher training.
I Sure, I will have a whole 

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episode about my experience. 
What I've learned, what I have 

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discovered about myself through 
this process, but I will say, 

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just now, just in case you guys 
want to look it up before I come

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back at all, I'm going to 
rishikesh to satisfy yogic at 

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me. 
This is a yoga. 

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It's a lineage of yoga called 
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yoga. 
Scusa and that has been created 

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by this man are not and it's 
really a unique situation 

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because he is still living. 
It was quite young actually in 

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his 40s. 
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And it's just oh, I am 
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It's a mixture of all the 
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No. 
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We'll get into this when I 
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more information but anyway so 
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And so today, I just want to 
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check in, on most of what I'm 
feeling right now. 

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What I've learned leading up to 
this and kind of the things that

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are most relevant to me at this 
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always important to share those 
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And then also share how those 
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what's relevant for me. 
Now, what's relevant for you 

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now? 
Won't probably be relevant. 

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To you even tomorrow. 
Sometimes even an hour from now.

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That's one thing I've learned 
about myself is I hmm. 

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How do I even want to say this? 
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Alexis, and I both did, and I'll
pee in your linguistic 

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programming. 
I've just been more aware of my 

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words that I use. 
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I've been teaching English for a
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made me what more aware of the 
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And I realized that for me, I 
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completion with defining 
anything about myself or where I

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am or where I think I'm going. 
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know if it's just don't. 
This might be kind of a, I don't

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A little sabotage. 

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Anything maybe not. 
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know. 
We'll find out. 

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But I've noticed that the moment
that I say something is certain.

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It's like I don't know if you 
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But it says though, my soul or 
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Whatever you want to say even my
mind, my soul is just like that.

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No, no, no, no. 
You're just gonna keep as well. 

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Loving and the moment you think 
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No, no. 
We're gonna throw something else

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at you. 
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been being learned for years 
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I mean, any time I thought I had
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path, and I thought I knew for 
sure, life has always Inspired 

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me to change course and the real
realization of this was when I 

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was working with my business 
coach so I was on the path 

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similar to Alexis in terms of 
like wanting to be a life coach,

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we're both doing the NLP 
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street to go towards this 
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We were even working with the 
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Business coach and just like 
creating similar things by, in 

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our own very, very different and
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And one thing I've mentioned on 
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the, I've just become utterly 
fascinated with this journey 

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because as I've let go of this 
expectation of myself that I put

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on myself, to become this life, 
coach to become this certain 

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thing. 
I've realized that the messages 

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I was sharing my social media, 
you can go back if you're 

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interested and look at some of 
the real, there's not that many 

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but there's quite a few of just 
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How to like re wild yourself. 
Let go of all these expectations

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that other people that you've 
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other people or society's 
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All of these things that you 
think you should be let go of 

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all of that. 
Let your creativity connect with

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your creativity and let your 
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Whoa and however that looks like
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It will guide you to places. 
You might not even be able to 

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imagine right now but following 
your creativity and following 

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our own unique expression of 
that creativity has nowhere to 

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go. 
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alignment with our soul with our
true beings and you can probably

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hear my voice that is like very 
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it's something that I've 
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Learned a lot about actually is 
in so many words in my human 

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design, and now that I've been 
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like, freaking blowing my mind, 
but I digress. 

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So, this lesson came because I 
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Vision. 
This particular idea that I was 

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guess I was going to become this
life coach and I was going to be

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successful in these ways and 
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all the sudden, I just reached a
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I was just I could not bring 
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because anything else with this 
business because I realized in 

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sharing this message in the way 
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was completely unbeknownst to 
myself at the time blocking off 

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parts of myself. 
These parts of myself that 

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desire to be expressed in all of
these different ways in ways 

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that don't make sense to pay me 
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and I was literally, Coach like,
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How do I say this? 
Literally passed Carly in those 

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videos, was coaching current 
Carly with almost like future, 

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Carly's knowledge. 
It was like a complete and utter

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like timeline collapse. 
It was absolutely incredible. 

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And so I was listening to 
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being so moved by my own words. 
It was absolutely fascinating 

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and And that kind of sparked, 
this realization of like I don't

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need to know when I'm going to 
do because also nobody knows 

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what they're doing. 
So if you are in a situation 

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right now where you know, maybe 
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are you just making it buyer? 
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So, you're trying to express 
yourself, but there's parts of 

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you that feels blocked because 
it's like, okay, if I express 

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myself, where does this lead? 
How does this turn into a 

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business? 
How do I get from this point? 

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now, where I want to be, I feel 
you and if I can give you any 

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advice, if I may give you any 
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have. 
Come to embody Within Myself. 

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Is you don't need to know. 
Our logical. 

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Brain, are you going brain? 
It plays a wonderful role. 

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It helps keep us safe in the 
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And oftentimes, almost always 
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going to do with my career? 
How am I going to support 

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myself? 
How am I going to support those 

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around me that I want desire to 
support or or all of those 

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questions that come around 
having a career in a business or

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doing doing the thing, you know?
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We can't expect for our brain to
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going to feel good to us. 
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conditioning, so many, you know,
ideas that Society in our family

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and our friends and our 
surroundings have taught us that

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bring us to that point and this 
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Sidhu 6 months, probably know. 
I have gone through this again 

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and again and again, it's like, 
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And then closing, I have moments
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like, I don't need to know 
because I trust Foley that these

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creative ideas, and, and 
expressions are leading me 

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somewhere. 
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beautiful. 
That I can't even begin to 

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imagine. 
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me somewhere that I would never 
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That it would. 
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feeling this utter freedom in 
this like just expressing these 

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ideas and creating things like 
getting into all these different

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projects and just this flow of 
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would come when I would see 
something online or be talking 

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to somebody here, locally that 
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I would see somebody doing 
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bit more. 
Grounded in kind of that logical

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structural way that our society 
functions, which there's nothing

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wrong with that because there 
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that and that fulfills them. 
I hope but that's just not not 

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right now anyway and I don't 
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never I that's not how I work. 
So it would be when this 

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question would come to me of 
like, what are you doing or 

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seeing somebody feel seemingly 
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Ported by what they were doing, 
financially, physically, 

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mentally emotionally, all of 
those things that I would, then 

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it would like, I would close up 
again and start to swirl around 

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in my own brain, and question, 
like, oh my God, but like, what 

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am I doing? 
None of this makes sense. 

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And during this time, actually, 
when this was at its height, 

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when I was just kind of, 
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outward way. 
But kind of in an inner way like

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just losing a lot of the trust 
that in a way. 

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I had built in kind of going 
along this path of being a coach

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and seeing how like, oh my God 
yeah I couldn't, I can focus on 

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things, I can get things done. 
I can move towards a certain 

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goal. 
It was almost like that was all.

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Kind of dropping away from me. 
I was losing that confidence 

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because that confidence was 
being built at me working 

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towards reaching. 
A goal outside of myself. 

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It was like I had chosen, I'm 
sure people can relate to this. 

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It was like I had chosen this 
imaginary version of myself that

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I felt connected to. 
And I still feel connected to 

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that. 
I don't doubt that the things I 

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was doing before I going to come
around again, because they 

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always do, but it was As though 
I had. 

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Yeah it picked up this like 
potential version of Carly 

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future Kylie which what is 
feature but that's not the 

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discussion future Kylie and been
like I am working to reach you 

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you and I thought that I wasn't 
doing that, you know, because I 

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really felt I felt those parts 
of me in, in myself at the time.

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But it was like, I even though I
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feel it, now I can relate now 
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suffering and a lot of painful 
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ourselves. 
Elves, which I'm going to get 

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into that point, but some things
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about myself and my 

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realizations. 
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why couldn't a someone told me 
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have seen that, but I didn't, 
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Mmm. 
Pretty crazy live. so, It's a 

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they're intended to did around 
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this outward. 
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important it is to Let yourself 
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first and foremost to yourself 
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which I am still working on. 
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may be struggle with this, like 
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something that has my 
relationship with Francesco has 

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taught me a lot about the fact 
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even like, I feel it, I feel it.
All I feel so much, I don't know

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if it's also this, like Pisces 
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you didn't know but I just feel 
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the time. 
I'm feeling so much that when 

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something comes up that I would 
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from, you know, sharing. 
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into that singular thing. 
You know, that singular emotion.

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That's going to help me express 
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helped me doing, this is just 
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called? 
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people call it but where you 
just Journal And you just let it

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all flow out, like, word vomit 
on the page, basically, and I've

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written many a page that doesn't
really make a lot of sense, but 

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by the end, I am very clear with
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and I basically realized that I 
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lonely. 
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and I have my mom here, which 
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Alexis and a couple of our other
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had been for so long trying to 
create this thing, like in the 

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Ethereal Realm of the internet 
and Instagram, which is so 

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amazing. 
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there for me too in the future 
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met beautiful, wonderful people,
even through this podcast that 

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have created this sense of 
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I need that grounding sensation 
of my feet on the ground, 

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creating a community meeting 
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helps that connection between 
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to actually creating in the 
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connection. 
I met this girl Alicia, who I 

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feel will We end up on this 
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Wise Wise, beautiful soul. 
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we connected basically because I
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shared what I just told you, and
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like, oh, like let's connect, 
I'm in Rome. 

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Instagram, through this third 
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Actually, I can tell you her 
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Jana her Instagram will be in 
the show notes, but it's, oh, 

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kind kind matters. 
I believe she does beautiful 

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like women circles and oh, she's
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found her and she invited me to 
this retreat called sattva, Yoga

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Retreat. 
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name, I thought it was the name 
of the people who were doing it.

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So we came I brought my mom 
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and it was like, what was that? 
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like really, really letting go 
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was just sharing about all those
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I had placed on myself well 
saying to others and sharing 

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this message of do Don't listen 
to those expectations, let them 

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go just be who you are. 
Oh my God, life is a funny 

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thing. 
So yeah, I basically threw satva

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and through finally just like 
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don't know if any of you have 
even seen my Instagram because I

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am not active right now. 
I'm active, when I post things 

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in tandem with Let It Flow 
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But But I just realized, I had 
been spending all of this energy

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expressing outside of myself. 
Like, what I thought I needed 

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to, to then become this thing 
and I know so many people can 

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relate to this. 
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society spend so much more time 
on doing rather than being and 

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that was a huge realization 
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this letting go is like I have 
to allow myself to be just be 

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The fact that it's so difficult 
to just allow ourselves to be 

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blows me away and by allowing 
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just be who you are, and every 
single moment and Let Go piano 

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piano. 
This is going to be phrase. 

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We're getting us a lot on this 
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slowly, but surely, but I'd love
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it all the time. 
It's like, step by step slowly. 

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yeah, but surely, let go of this
need to do because if doing 

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Comes before being it's like, 
this is what I've experienced 

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for myself. 
It's like, Doing just to do, 

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like, it's doing, just to feel 
like you're doing something, it 

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runs flat, it doesn't fulfill 
because there's no deeper 

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knowledge, of the reason why 
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And to be clear, I thought I had
a reason why I was doing those 

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things, but the reason I was 
doing those things was still out

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of the feeling of just needing a
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Like it wasn't, the reason that 
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depths of my true Nature. 
And so really this journey and 

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also even his podcast Lexus and 
I have mentioned this in 

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different ways but it's kind of 
this expressed this mode of 

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expression to allow us to just 
be and see where it goes. 

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And that's what I'm doing right 
now. 

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I'm really Allowing myself to 
get to know myself so well. 

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And just be in every moment. 
Do based on that action of being

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how. 
I feel, what I feel is coming up

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for me. 
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I say, you know what, I just 
feel like I need to go on a long

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walk in nature and not do 
anything that I think I need to 

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do great. 
If I wake up and I'm like I want

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to paint then I'm going to paint
if I wake up and I think I'm 

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going to make something in clay 
today, then I'm going to make 

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something and Clay today. 
If I wake up and say, I want to 

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go eat sushi, then I'm going to 
eat sushi like it's that doesn't

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always that sometimes it 
happens. 

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But I'm trying to get the point 
across of Whatever you are 

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feeling. 
That you have a desire to do 

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because you hmm because it's an 
expression of your being please 

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follow it. 
Please follow it because if 

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there's one thing I am 100% 
certain of and I'm truly 

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starting to see this happen. 
There's been some incredible 

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things that have taken place 
over the last week's, which I'm 

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not going to share yet because 
they're still in flux. 

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But I'm sure when I return, I 
will have more information about

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this to kind of show as an 
example. 

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This phenomena of when we allow 
ourselves to be and Trust. 

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So so so so so much trust that 
even if we can't logically see 

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it, which normally we can't. 
And honestly, I don't want to 

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anymore. 
I'm so tongue. 

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I'm so tired. 
I'm so complete with my logical 

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brain. 
Honestly, every time she pops up

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there and it's like, well, why 
don't you do this? 

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You should do this, why doesn't 
it doesn't make sense bubble. 

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I'm like, hmm. 
Okay, let's focus on something 

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else. 
It just gets exhausting right? 

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When you're just so full of 
thoughts and you're just going 

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around and around and around and
around, oh my God exhausting. 

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But anyway, just to allow 
yourself to be in every moment 

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and if you want to cook 
something cooking, if you want 

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to go call a friend and express 
an idea, you have call that 

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friend and express your idea if 
you want to just spend time. 

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I'm freaking I don't even know 
writing just right and trust 

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that those desires that are 
coming up within you. 

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Are there for a reason? 
They're not random. 

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They are there because that's 
what you are here to express, 

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which isn't even, even even that
specific thing that you're 

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expressing, its the how you 
express it in that being in that

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authenticity of this. is what's 
present for me at the moment and

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maybe two days from now, two 
weeks, five months to years from

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now, you're not going to be 
expressing in that way anymore, 

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but it doesn't matter. 
It's not about what we do. 

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It's How We Do It. 
And how freeing is that? 

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Because we're not here to do. 
We're here to be, we're here to 

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experience life. 
Like that's the gift of life is 

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to experience it, not to do it 
to experience it and witness it 

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and just have freaking fun. 
So I don't know how long I've 

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been talking. 
Literally no idea. 

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And I hope that this made sense 
a more I wanted to share and 

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some I didn't expect to share 
but I'm trusting that. whatever 

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lands with you lands, and 
whatever doesn't you're just 

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going to let go of and Yeah. 
Thank you for being here and I 

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think that's about all bye to 
show our appreciation for you 

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leaving us a review Carly and I 
thought it would be so much fun 

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to give away free mini readings.
And all you have to do is leave 

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And Commit to either Carly or 

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me, whoever you want to receive 
your mini reading from and get 

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your body graph on the website. 
And we will voice note, you back

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and forth in the DMS. 
Obviously, this is going to be 

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more of a basic reading to help 
you get to know your energy type

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in your profile and answer a few
of your questions. 

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If you would like a deeper 
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to know all the details or to 
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life and really analyze those 
from the perspective of your 

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human design chart. 
And maybe the steps you can take

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in your life that is something 
we can cover in a full reading. 

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So my booking link will be in 
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So please reach out and DM her 

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as well with that. 
Thanks again, so much for 

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hanging out with us and we will 
see you in the next one. 

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Bye bye.