1 00:00:00,040 --> 00:00:02,200 Driving in the passenger seat in my car. 2 00:00:02,760 --> 00:00:05,480 So I wasn't driving. I was in the passenger seat of 3 00:00:05,480 --> 00:00:11,680 my car and the sun was setting. We were, I think we were on the 4 00:00:11,680 --> 00:00:15,480 M25, which is the big motorway that goes round of London if 5 00:00:15,480 --> 00:00:20,000 you're not around the UK. And I remember being in a 6 00:00:20,000 --> 00:00:25,160 Daydream, a Daydream that took me to all of the possibilities 7 00:00:25,160 --> 00:00:27,280 of what I could do with my business. 8 00:00:27,840 --> 00:00:31,000 And I just asked a really simple question. 9 00:00:32,040 --> 00:00:36,000 What do the people that I want to help, what do they want? 10 00:00:36,760 --> 00:00:41,520 And as soon as I asked that question out loud, I took myself 11 00:00:41,520 --> 00:00:45,560 back to those moments when I first started my business, 12 00:00:45,560 --> 00:00:51,600 before even my business, Vivid Wire, back to 2010 when I 13 00:00:51,600 --> 00:00:56,520 started my business, Violet and May, and thinking about her and 14 00:00:56,520 --> 00:01:02,120 what she wanted at that moment. And it was all about belonging 15 00:01:02,120 --> 00:01:08,160 somewhere and not feeling alone. And so I created the Vivid 16 00:01:08,160 --> 00:01:11,360 Business Club. And today, if you're listening 17 00:01:11,360 --> 00:01:15,600 to this on the day that it is published, today is the Vivid 18 00:01:15,600 --> 00:01:20,160 Business Club's third birthday. Happy birthday to me, happy 19 00:01:20,160 --> 00:01:22,680 birthday to Vivid Club. Happy birthday to the Vivid 20 00:01:22,680 --> 00:01:24,560 Club. Even though you're called Vivid 21 00:01:24,560 --> 00:01:28,200 Business Club now, you were born the Vivid Club. 22 00:01:28,400 --> 00:01:34,120 There you go. I absolutely love that place so 23 00:01:34,120 --> 00:01:36,720 freaking much. But I want to take you on a 24 00:01:36,720 --> 00:01:40,360 little journey, a journey I want to take you on a little story 25 00:01:41,200 --> 00:01:46,560 about where I was when I started the Vivid Business Club and the 26 00:01:46,680 --> 00:01:53,800 version of me were 14 years ago that needed it, that really 27 00:01:53,800 --> 00:01:56,160 needed it. We were in 2025 now, aren't we? 28 00:01:57,480 --> 00:02:01,360 15 years ago, the version of me 15 years ago that really, really 29 00:02:01,360 --> 00:02:04,560 needed it. Welcome back to No Rest for the 30 00:02:04,560 --> 00:02:07,000 BB podcast. If you have just discovered me, 31 00:02:07,240 --> 00:02:10,479 my name is Claire Hill. I am a business coach and I'm an 32 00:02:10,479 --> 00:02:13,280 expert in self belief and productivity. 33 00:02:13,520 --> 00:02:17,920 I am here to support you, to get out of your own way and remove 34 00:02:17,960 --> 00:02:20,640 all of the barriers to making your dreams happen. 35 00:02:21,000 --> 00:02:23,800 That is what I am about and my podcast, No Rest for the Video 36 00:02:23,800 --> 00:02:26,040 podcast. This one is all about sharing 37 00:02:26,040 --> 00:02:29,240 those stories. Sharing what will help you to 38 00:02:29,240 --> 00:02:33,200 get out of your own way. Whether that is stories from 39 00:02:33,320 --> 00:02:36,760 people just like you who are doing the business themselves in 40 00:02:36,760 --> 00:02:40,000 the messy middle, or from stories from like me. 41 00:02:40,000 --> 00:02:45,240 From people like me, like me. Stories from me about tips of 42 00:02:45,280 --> 00:02:50,080 ways to grow your business, make your mindset really robust and 43 00:02:50,080 --> 00:02:53,680 overcome those doubts, as well as help you to be consistent and 44 00:02:53,680 --> 00:02:55,960 productive. This is what this podcast is 45 00:02:55,960 --> 00:02:58,320 for. So if that all sounds like a bit 46 00:02:58,320 --> 00:03:02,760 of you, hit that subscribe and follow button so that you don't 47 00:03:02,760 --> 00:03:06,920 miss a single episode. OK, so I'm going to take you 48 00:03:07,280 --> 00:03:12,480 back, take you back, take you back, lean back that song. 49 00:03:13,080 --> 00:03:15,720 I'm obsessed. Sorry to interrupt myself. 50 00:03:15,720 --> 00:03:21,400 I'm obsessed with naughties radio heart, naughties 51 00:03:21,400 --> 00:03:26,200 specifically and naughties music and I know that he is 20 years 52 00:03:26,200 --> 00:03:33,880 old, but every single time I hear Mystique or Westlife or 53 00:03:34,600 --> 00:03:39,560 Christina Aguilera and Ricky Martin, I'm just transported 54 00:03:39,560 --> 00:03:43,240 back to this younger version of me and it just gives me such a 55 00:03:43,240 --> 00:03:44,880 boost. And I remember being a kid and 56 00:03:44,880 --> 00:03:49,400 my mum listening to like 70s music, thinking why is she 57 00:03:49,400 --> 00:03:51,280 listening to that? It's so rubbish. 58 00:03:51,880 --> 00:03:55,440 And I understand now. I understand why she did it 59 00:03:56,160 --> 00:03:59,120 because there's actually some research about how you connect 60 00:03:59,120 --> 00:04:02,320 to songs in your roof in your teenage years and your early 61 00:04:02,320 --> 00:04:06,720 20s, how you connect to those songs and how they, like, become 62 00:04:06,720 --> 00:04:09,920 you. So yeah, I was just thinking 63 00:04:09,920 --> 00:04:15,200 about Beyoncé when I was saying that sentence because I got 64 00:04:15,200 --> 00:04:20,480 tickets to see Beyoncé in June. Cowboy Carter is literally I 65 00:04:20,480 --> 00:04:25,600 think my the my favorite album ever, ever, ever. 66 00:04:27,280 --> 00:04:29,520 I just love it so much. I listened to it from the 67 00:04:29,520 --> 00:04:33,000 beginning to the end and I must listen to it now. 68 00:04:33,000 --> 00:04:35,160 It's only probably once a week. I listened to the whole thing, 69 00:04:35,360 --> 00:04:39,520 but it was every day when it came out, maybe twice. 70 00:04:39,520 --> 00:04:41,720 I just listened to it on repeat. I love it so much. 71 00:04:42,720 --> 00:04:46,080 I'm seeing her. I've got shit seats, but then am 72 00:04:46,080 --> 00:04:48,680 I going to get the good seat or am I just there for the energy? 73 00:04:49,080 --> 00:04:51,760 That's how powerful she is. Her energy fills a stadium. 74 00:04:53,440 --> 00:04:55,880 That's what I want. I want to fill a stadium with my 75 00:04:56,160 --> 00:04:57,960 inspirational talks. You wait. 76 00:04:58,240 --> 00:05:02,160 One day this will be this reel. This will become a piece of 77 00:05:02,160 --> 00:05:05,480 content that that moment where it's like, that's what I want to 78 00:05:05,480 --> 00:05:07,520 do. I want to fill a stadium with 79 00:05:07,560 --> 00:05:13,200 people and help them to strut out of there as their most vivid 80 00:05:13,200 --> 00:05:17,360 selves and just say yes to themselves, yes to what they 81 00:05:17,360 --> 00:05:19,840 want. Oh my God, that would be the 82 00:05:19,840 --> 00:05:22,880 best day ever. God, I can just feel it now. 83 00:05:23,920 --> 00:05:26,880 Just being in that room would be amazing. 84 00:05:27,800 --> 00:05:32,200 So that's my big dream. So I'm going to take you back to 85 00:05:32,200 --> 00:05:36,520 the moment where I started my first business, Violet May, 86 00:05:36,520 --> 00:05:40,920 which was in 2010. And I had, it's all. 87 00:05:41,160 --> 00:05:44,440 I always feel like the most magical things come out of the 88 00:05:44,440 --> 00:05:47,800 most traumatic. I was in a relationship with 89 00:05:47,800 --> 00:05:51,640 this guy and I thought we were going to get married. 90 00:05:51,920 --> 00:05:55,120 I was convinced. I was convinced we were going to 91 00:05:55,120 --> 00:05:58,840 get married. We spoke about it like all of 92 00:05:58,840 --> 00:06:05,360 the time. But he arrived at my flat that 93 00:06:05,360 --> 00:06:10,560 I'd bought and he arrived at my flat and oh, it was the most 94 00:06:10,560 --> 00:06:16,720 embarrassing thing. Well, oh, yeah, I was going to. 95 00:06:16,720 --> 00:06:23,000 I was ready, ready to say hello in a nice piece of a lingerie. 96 00:06:24,640 --> 00:06:26,560 I don't think I've dressed up like that since. 97 00:06:28,040 --> 00:06:32,880 Terrified. He walks in and he's like, I'm, 98 00:06:33,000 --> 00:06:36,440 I'm breaking up with you. And I was like, it will a what? 99 00:06:36,840 --> 00:06:41,520 I had no idea it was going to happen, no idea whatsoever what 100 00:06:42,480 --> 00:06:45,680 ensured ensued. No, what what happened after 101 00:06:45,680 --> 00:06:50,840 that was I just distraught. I think I feel like I destroyed 102 00:06:50,840 --> 00:06:54,200 myself, which is quite a dramatic thing to say, isn't it? 103 00:06:54,200 --> 00:06:57,480 But I think I did. I mean, I was 2425 when it 104 00:06:57,480 --> 00:07:02,880 happened and I was very much in victim mode, very much in. 105 00:07:03,240 --> 00:07:06,480 So much bad stuff has happened to me already. 106 00:07:07,080 --> 00:07:10,240 How can more bad stuff happen? Does this mean that I'm 107 00:07:10,240 --> 00:07:13,160 literally going to have bad stuff happen to me for the rest 108 00:07:13,160 --> 00:07:15,760 of my life? That was totally in victim mode. 109 00:07:16,280 --> 00:07:21,160 But at that point I'd only just got a like my, I bought my flat 110 00:07:21,160 --> 00:07:23,120 and I felt really safe in that flat. 111 00:07:23,120 --> 00:07:27,360 That was like, oh, I'm home now. I'd never knew what homesickness 112 00:07:27,360 --> 00:07:30,240 was. I never, I never missed home 113 00:07:30,280 --> 00:07:34,280 when I unless I was a really young kid, but I never wanted to 114 00:07:34,280 --> 00:07:36,040 be there, so I didn't want to. I didn't miss it. 115 00:07:36,280 --> 00:07:38,640 And then I went to university, lived with my girls. 116 00:07:38,640 --> 00:07:40,840 Actually, to be fair, I probably got a little bit of homesick 117 00:07:40,840 --> 00:07:43,080 there, but I knew it wasn't permanent because we were, we 118 00:07:43,080 --> 00:07:44,840 moved every year while we were at uni. 119 00:07:45,480 --> 00:07:48,720 And then I lived some two other places and I was made homeless 120 00:07:48,720 --> 00:07:50,200 and I was like, I can't do this anymore. 121 00:07:50,840 --> 00:07:52,680 I I've got to just buy somewhere. 122 00:07:53,400 --> 00:07:56,480 And this was before, this was the period of time, this was 123 00:07:56,480 --> 00:08:00,840 2007, you know, when you could literally buy, you could, you 124 00:08:00,840 --> 00:08:03,240 could get like 110% mortgage or something. 125 00:08:03,240 --> 00:08:06,480 They don't do that anymore. So I've got a mortgage and got 126 00:08:06,480 --> 00:08:09,800 my flat and I remember closing the door for the first time just 127 00:08:09,800 --> 00:08:12,520 thinking, I'm home. Kiss me goosebumps. 128 00:08:13,200 --> 00:08:15,120 I'm home. Oh, it's the best thing ever. 129 00:08:16,280 --> 00:08:21,160 And then I met this guy and I just thought he was just so much 130 00:08:21,160 --> 00:08:22,880 fun. He was just so much fun. 131 00:08:23,280 --> 00:08:26,040 But I wasn't for him. I wasn't for him. 132 00:08:26,040 --> 00:08:27,720 And I'm really glad that we split up now. 133 00:08:27,720 --> 00:08:30,200 But at the time, Oh my God. And I destroyed myself because I 134 00:08:30,200 --> 00:08:33,400 was just in this victim mode of I thought everything was going 135 00:08:33,400 --> 00:08:38,840 to be OK. I thought that I had, I'd, I'd 136 00:08:38,840 --> 00:08:45,720 found that moment of, you know, I think I, I thought I, I was 137 00:08:45,720 --> 00:08:47,320 just done. I was like, right, I'm done. 138 00:08:47,600 --> 00:08:50,440 I've found him now. Let's just settle as needed to 139 00:08:50,440 --> 00:08:52,440 settle. Really, really wanted to settle, 140 00:08:52,600 --> 00:08:58,640 but he wasn't, it wasn't to be. But as a result, after I, I 141 00:08:58,680 --> 00:09:02,040 mean, Oh my God, I was, it was horrific, the break like how I 142 00:09:02,040 --> 00:09:05,760 was with the breakup. I lost so much weight. 143 00:09:06,280 --> 00:09:10,080 Oh God, I was like a skeleton. It was awful, awful. 144 00:09:10,360 --> 00:09:12,640 But I didn't have I had my friends were looking after me, 145 00:09:12,640 --> 00:09:14,960 but I probably needed and my sister. 146 00:09:14,960 --> 00:09:16,880 I went to stay with my sister for a bit as well. 147 00:09:16,880 --> 00:09:18,320 No, I didn't. No, I did. 148 00:09:18,360 --> 00:09:20,120 I did. I saved for a little bit, but I 149 00:09:20,120 --> 00:09:24,800 think the I needed to look after myself, but I didn't need like I 150 00:09:24,800 --> 00:09:27,360 probably should have gone somewhere for like a retreat. 151 00:09:27,440 --> 00:09:29,000 They didn't have retreats back then. 152 00:09:29,200 --> 00:09:33,280 I would have probably helped but yeah, Oh my God, I felt 153 00:09:33,680 --> 00:09:40,160 horrendous from that. I started sewing again now when 154 00:09:40,160 --> 00:09:41,800 I was at university and when I was. 155 00:09:41,840 --> 00:09:46,400 So when I was really young, when I was like 4-5, I started 156 00:09:46,400 --> 00:09:48,000 sewing. I started doing cross stitch 157 00:09:48,000 --> 00:09:50,200 maybe 6. I was really young anyway, 158 00:09:50,480 --> 00:09:53,600 started doing cross stitch and then I just started to do more 159 00:09:53,600 --> 00:09:56,240 and more and more of it. And I loved having a needle in 160 00:09:56,240 --> 00:09:59,240 my hands. And then my mum taught me how to 161 00:09:59,240 --> 00:10:02,000 use a sewing machine, which I'm really grateful to her for. 162 00:10:03,280 --> 00:10:05,640 And then I started making my own stuff. 163 00:10:05,640 --> 00:10:11,120 So I started making bags. And my very, very first, my 164 00:10:11,120 --> 00:10:15,080 very, very first business, I made bags for my friends at 165 00:10:15,080 --> 00:10:17,920 school. I'm sure if you've listened to 166 00:10:17,920 --> 00:10:19,600 the podcast for a while, you know that already. 167 00:10:20,480 --> 00:10:24,480 So I had that business and I just sewed all of the time. 168 00:10:24,720 --> 00:10:29,680 Like any, any moment that I wasn't doing all of the young 169 00:10:29,680 --> 00:10:32,560 carer things, I would try and sew. 170 00:10:32,960 --> 00:10:36,680 And what I really, really loved and what what I still love and I 171 00:10:36,680 --> 00:10:42,320 need to do more of is what I want to do more of is actually 172 00:10:42,320 --> 00:10:47,120 hand sewing. What I really love is sewing on 173 00:10:47,200 --> 00:10:49,880 sequins and gems and beads and stuff like that. 174 00:10:49,880 --> 00:10:53,240 Really, really love it. Little shout out to Shamma. 175 00:10:53,240 --> 00:10:57,600 Everybody who knows this podcast knows Shamma love you. 176 00:10:58,320 --> 00:11:02,120 She gave me some of her mum's. Her mum sadly passed away when 177 00:11:02,120 --> 00:11:07,440 she was 17 and her mum used to soloed and she had all these 178 00:11:07,600 --> 00:11:10,320 beautiful beads that were just sitting there because Shama 179 00:11:10,320 --> 00:11:12,680 didn't use them. And I remember her giving them 180 00:11:12,680 --> 00:11:14,040 all to me. I've still got some. 181 00:11:14,360 --> 00:11:16,520 I used to love just sitting there just sewing these beads 182 00:11:16,520 --> 00:11:19,840 onto things. But I came up with this design 183 00:11:20,160 --> 00:11:26,000 to make a ribbon rose and I'd seen it somewhere or I'd seen 184 00:11:26,240 --> 00:11:30,000 this was before YouTube, so or maybe YouTube was just starting. 185 00:11:30,000 --> 00:11:33,560 But I, I just discovered this way that you can make a rose out 186 00:11:33,560 --> 00:11:38,680 of this ribbon. And I started making jewellery 187 00:11:38,960 --> 00:11:42,880 and I worked out how to make a ring from why I'm ribbon. 188 00:11:43,840 --> 00:11:46,040 I then worked, I've got some chains. 189 00:11:46,040 --> 00:11:49,440 So I made necklaces, I sewed them onto head headbands and 190 00:11:49,440 --> 00:11:51,240 made these great big fascinators. 191 00:11:51,600 --> 00:11:56,280 I did tiny tiny little roses and massive, massive roses and the 192 00:11:56,280 --> 00:12:00,280 roses I I made I did some for a shoe designer and they ended up 193 00:12:00,280 --> 00:12:03,640 on Beyoncé's feet. I am anking Kardashian's and 194 00:12:03,640 --> 00:12:05,840 Oprah Winfrey, which is really cool. 195 00:12:06,800 --> 00:12:13,040 I made so much for the I'm just thinking to myself now I've told 196 00:12:13,040 --> 00:12:14,840 this story on here, but bear with me. 197 00:12:15,000 --> 00:12:16,160 But I just made and made and may. 198 00:12:16,640 --> 00:12:19,440 But the the the reason I'm talking about Violet and may 199 00:12:19,440 --> 00:12:22,360 again named after my Nana. By the way, who was Violet May? 200 00:12:23,200 --> 00:12:28,080 Violet and May was such a fantastic learning curve for me 201 00:12:28,080 --> 00:12:33,000 because I was on my own so much. So when we'd split up, I was 202 00:12:33,000 --> 00:12:34,680 then single. Then I met somebody else, but 203 00:12:34,680 --> 00:12:38,120 that's another story. But I was, and he didn't live 204 00:12:38,120 --> 00:12:41,600 around here, right around here, but he didn't live near me. 205 00:12:41,920 --> 00:12:46,640 So I was just in my flat, living on my own, working on my own 206 00:12:46,640 --> 00:12:49,440 because I got to the point where I gave up my job and I was doing 207 00:12:49,440 --> 00:12:54,920 Viola and made self-employed. I had nobody, nobody. 208 00:12:54,920 --> 00:12:58,400 And I remember going to, well, nobody on my wavelength was 209 00:12:58,400 --> 00:13:02,880 running a business anyway. I can remember now I had no I 210 00:13:02,880 --> 00:13:04,880 wasn't part of a membership. I didn't know what a business 211 00:13:04,880 --> 00:13:07,840 coach was. Instagram didn't exist. 212 00:13:08,080 --> 00:13:12,200 It was just Facebook. I would do some posts and maybe 213 00:13:12,200 --> 00:13:15,960 get out there in Facebook, but Facebook groups weren't really a 214 00:13:15,960 --> 00:13:20,680 thing either. And I remember a moment when me 215 00:13:20,680 --> 00:13:24,640 and my sister went up to London to see, I think it was Jersey 216 00:13:24,640 --> 00:13:28,480 Boys. And I remember trying to talk to 217 00:13:28,480 --> 00:13:30,240 her going, I'm just not well, Jen. 218 00:13:30,240 --> 00:13:34,880 Like I, I don't feel well, like my brain and my energy, I just 219 00:13:34,880 --> 00:13:37,040 do not feel well. Like I'm not talking to people. 220 00:13:37,040 --> 00:13:40,320 There's like 5 days where I'm not talking to anybody at all. 221 00:13:40,520 --> 00:13:44,960 I'm not leaving the flat. I became like a recluse because 222 00:13:44,960 --> 00:13:46,520 there was no need for me to move. 223 00:13:46,800 --> 00:13:51,600 Like I ordered stuff for the business on eBay, so it came in 224 00:13:51,600 --> 00:13:55,040 a letterbox. I was sending stuff online or 225 00:13:55,240 --> 00:13:58,240 you know, I did do fairs and stuff, but they weren't, there 226 00:13:58,240 --> 00:14:01,160 were few and far between. So people were making orders 227 00:14:01,160 --> 00:14:04,440 through Facebook to me or through messages or, you know, 228 00:14:04,440 --> 00:14:07,600 like, and I just would pack them up and send them it. 229 00:14:07,600 --> 00:14:13,040 There wasn't, there wasn't enough people and Oh my God, it 230 00:14:13,040 --> 00:14:15,640 destroyed. And The thing is as well, I, I 231 00:14:15,640 --> 00:14:21,320 didn't have a family, so I would sit and so for sometimes 14 232 00:14:21,320 --> 00:14:26,000 hours a day non-stop, just sitting in the same spot with 233 00:14:26,000 --> 00:14:28,120 the poor light literally ruined my eyes. 234 00:14:28,680 --> 00:14:32,800 Same spot, sewing, sewing, sewing, sewing, not having any 235 00:14:32,800 --> 00:14:36,720 conversation. I was miserable, miserable. 236 00:14:37,560 --> 00:14:40,920 So then when I got offered a job to go because I was then I, I 237 00:14:40,960 --> 00:14:43,680 did start working again a little bit because by the way, I wasn't 238 00:14:43,680 --> 00:14:47,040 making any money because I was just sitting on my own all day. 239 00:14:47,040 --> 00:14:50,800 Of course, it wasn't making me any money and I had a mortgage 240 00:14:50,800 --> 00:14:52,800 to pay. So I went back and did personal 241 00:14:52,800 --> 00:14:56,800 care, worked in a homeless shelter, did some actual care 242 00:14:56,800 --> 00:14:58,680 for adults with learning disabilities. 243 00:14:58,680 --> 00:15:01,840 So personal care. And then I got offered a job and 244 00:15:01,840 --> 00:15:04,680 my old job and they said, can you come back as a temp? 245 00:15:05,280 --> 00:15:08,480 And that was working in the communities with homeless 246 00:15:08,480 --> 00:15:09,880 families and homeless individuals. 247 00:15:09,880 --> 00:15:11,880 I was like, yeah, brilliant. That'll do me for a little 248 00:15:11,880 --> 00:15:14,280 while. First day back then my phone got 249 00:15:14,280 --> 00:15:16,800 stolen. That was another story, sort of 250 00:15:16,800 --> 00:15:19,200 a story. I carried on doing Violet and 251 00:15:19,200 --> 00:15:21,480 May and I would. I wasn't paid for my lunch 252 00:15:21,480 --> 00:15:25,760 breaks there, so I would take sitting at my desk one hour a 253 00:15:25,760 --> 00:15:31,640 day out of my day and I would sew at the desk, which I thought 254 00:15:31,640 --> 00:15:33,720 was pretty clever. Even when I got to manager, I 255 00:15:33,720 --> 00:15:36,720 did that. And then we were faced with 256 00:15:36,720 --> 00:15:42,200 redundancy and because I had left and come back, I wasn't, I 257 00:15:42,320 --> 00:15:44,480 didn't qualify for any redundancy, which that was a 258 00:15:44,480 --> 00:15:47,160 bloody kick in the teeth. But anyway, these things 259 00:15:47,160 --> 00:15:49,760 happened to shape us. So I thought, right, I'm going 260 00:15:49,760 --> 00:15:53,440 to go and be a teacher right to 40 schools became a teacher. 261 00:15:53,560 --> 00:15:55,560 The rest of that bit is rest is history. 262 00:15:55,560 --> 00:15:58,440 Because what happened is I carried on Violet in May for 263 00:15:58,440 --> 00:16:04,760 another year or so. So it was about 2013 to 14 that 264 00:16:04,760 --> 00:16:08,680 I, I stopped doing Violet in May as it went for about 3 1/2, four 265 00:16:08,680 --> 00:16:11,520 years. But being a teacher, you haven't 266 00:16:11,520 --> 00:16:15,560 got time at that point when I was training, I did not know how 267 00:16:15,560 --> 00:16:18,200 I was going to make any money. So I just did dribs and drabs. 268 00:16:19,640 --> 00:16:22,880 But that version of me that's sitting on that sofa on her own 269 00:16:22,880 --> 00:16:25,440 in a flat just sewing, I just felt so bad for her. 270 00:16:25,440 --> 00:16:29,880 And then when I started Vivid Wire, what, three or four years 271 00:16:29,880 --> 00:16:33,640 later, so that started 2019. So five years later. 272 00:16:34,080 --> 00:16:37,160 So Violet and Vivid Wire is 6 years old now. 273 00:16:37,480 --> 00:16:40,200 When I started Vivid Wire, I was ahead of the game. 274 00:16:40,520 --> 00:16:44,600 I knew where my challenges were going to be. 275 00:16:44,720 --> 00:16:48,160 I knew where my my struggles were going to be. 276 00:16:48,280 --> 00:16:52,760 I knew what not to do. So when I started Vivid Wire, I 277 00:16:52,760 --> 00:16:55,000 really felt like I was ahead of the game. 278 00:16:55,600 --> 00:17:00,080 And so very quickly, once I'd saw I had Vivid Wire for 15 279 00:17:00,080 --> 00:17:04,480 months and then I left school, left teaching, I very quickly 280 00:17:04,480 --> 00:17:08,680 found a community. I I knew that that the tsunami 281 00:17:08,680 --> 00:17:10,839 of negative thoughts and everything that I was trying to 282 00:17:10,839 --> 00:17:14,520 run away from arrived. It's another thing while why it 283 00:17:14,520 --> 00:17:18,800 was so difficult when I was doing Violet and May that the 284 00:17:18,800 --> 00:17:21,920 negative thoughts are just the doubt and the unworthiness. 285 00:17:22,520 --> 00:17:24,040 I was just so horrible to myself. 286 00:17:25,680 --> 00:17:28,520 So when when it started to happen with Vivid Wire, I had 287 00:17:28,520 --> 00:17:31,280 enough self-awareness to say that I think that there's a way 288 00:17:31,320 --> 00:17:34,840 out of this. I don't have to struggle on my 289 00:17:34,840 --> 00:17:37,360 own. And I found a membership which I 290 00:17:37,360 --> 00:17:43,560 won't name, but I felt very grateful for that membership. 291 00:17:44,080 --> 00:17:51,400 And a very specific reason was that once a week where I clicked 292 00:17:51,720 --> 00:17:57,160 on a box in an e-mail and I was transported into an online room 293 00:17:57,520 --> 00:18:00,760 where there were other business owners like me, There was a 294 00:18:00,760 --> 00:18:03,720 Facebook group, there was learning same as mine. 295 00:18:04,120 --> 00:18:08,160 But it was that that just that something to look forward to, 296 00:18:08,400 --> 00:18:12,720 something to like structure my day around. 297 00:18:12,720 --> 00:18:15,520 I loved it. I loved Wednesdays. 298 00:18:15,520 --> 00:18:18,960 It was Wednesdays at 1:00 I remember, or 12:00 I remember 299 00:18:18,960 --> 00:18:21,560 Wednesday afternoon, favorite day of the week, because I could 300 00:18:21,560 --> 00:18:25,840 structure my whole day around going to that online session. 301 00:18:27,080 --> 00:18:37,960 I loved it until I didn't, and I felt incredibly stupid in there. 302 00:18:38,080 --> 00:18:45,520 I was made to feel stupid, insignificant, inadequate, and 303 00:18:45,520 --> 00:18:47,480 small. Incredibly small. 304 00:18:47,880 --> 00:18:51,480 It wasn't a very nice place to be. 305 00:18:52,200 --> 00:18:55,680 And those of you who listen to the podcast, who you know, who 306 00:18:55,680 --> 00:18:58,720 you are, who I've spoken to about it, you know what that 307 00:18:58,720 --> 00:19:04,000 membership, and I think a lot of people left that membership 308 00:19:05,200 --> 00:19:08,320 thinking that that's it, I'm done. 309 00:19:08,320 --> 00:19:11,040 I don't, I don't want to be part of online communities because 310 00:19:11,040 --> 00:19:14,280 that was too bad and I don't, it used to be really good. 311 00:19:14,280 --> 00:19:19,280 And I don't know what happened to the founder for it to change 312 00:19:19,280 --> 00:19:21,640 in the way it did, but something changed. 313 00:19:21,920 --> 00:19:24,320 Maybe it didn't. Maybe it was the growth and 314 00:19:24,320 --> 00:19:28,600 development and actually maybe I had outgrown it, or maybe it was 315 00:19:28,600 --> 00:19:33,600 because the founder had to do that to help different people. 316 00:19:34,040 --> 00:19:36,240 So no judgement there. Actually, I'm going to take that 317 00:19:36,240 --> 00:19:39,120 little back, big back. But I did feel really small in 318 00:19:39,120 --> 00:19:40,400 there. And that's a fact because I'm 319 00:19:40,400 --> 00:19:42,840 going to validate my own emotions there. 320 00:19:43,200 --> 00:19:45,720 I was made to feel small. And there was one conversation 321 00:19:46,440 --> 00:19:50,000 that happened where I witnessed. It wasn't even me. 322 00:19:50,000 --> 00:19:54,440 I witnessed the conversation thinking I don't want to be in a 323 00:19:54,440 --> 00:19:59,680 space where I'm made to feel like I can't achieve my dreams. 324 00:20:00,640 --> 00:20:02,560 But where? Where are people lifting me up? 325 00:20:02,560 --> 00:20:05,600 There's lifting me up in here. I used to put things in the 326 00:20:05,600 --> 00:20:09,800 Facebook group and people wouldn't like answer me, and 327 00:20:09,800 --> 00:20:11,880 then someone else would comment and loads of people would. 328 00:20:11,880 --> 00:20:14,120 It was like there was these clicks in there. 329 00:20:14,400 --> 00:20:19,400 I felt so lonely because I was paying for something and this is 330 00:20:19,400 --> 00:20:22,000 the thing. I was tired into it because I'd 331 00:20:22,000 --> 00:20:27,040 paid for like 3 months at a time and when I choose chose to 332 00:20:27,040 --> 00:20:30,160 cancel even though I had time leftover, I was kicked out 333 00:20:30,160 --> 00:20:32,240 immediately. How rude is that? 334 00:20:34,520 --> 00:20:40,320 Disgusting, disgusting. So I, I, I just, I didn't 335 00:20:40,320 --> 00:20:44,040 understand how you could be part of a community and still feel 336 00:20:44,040 --> 00:20:46,880 lonely. It just wasn't it. 337 00:20:47,040 --> 00:20:50,640 It just became something that just made me feel worse than I 338 00:20:50,640 --> 00:20:52,520 already did. So I was that right. 339 00:20:53,680 --> 00:20:58,440 I'm getting out of there. And then I started and then that 340 00:20:58,440 --> 00:21:01,440 was the moment where I went. People were asking how do you, 341 00:21:01,440 --> 00:21:03,560 how do you grow Vivid Wire? How do you do this? 342 00:21:03,560 --> 00:21:07,120 How do you do that? I thought I could just become a 343 00:21:07,120 --> 00:21:08,600 business mentor or a business coach. 344 00:21:09,240 --> 00:21:12,640 I've been, I've got like 20 years experience helping people. 345 00:21:13,160 --> 00:21:14,520 I do know what I'm talking about. 346 00:21:14,520 --> 00:21:16,400 It's not like this is my first business. 347 00:21:17,360 --> 00:21:21,640 I'm doing pretty well. I could, I could, you know, I've 348 00:21:21,640 --> 00:21:23,520 got a story to tell and I've got experience. 349 00:21:23,800 --> 00:21:27,560 I could help other people. And that's when I started. 350 00:21:27,760 --> 00:21:32,200 That's when I became a business coach and I put out, I remember 351 00:21:32,320 --> 00:21:35,320 emailing my list for Vivid Wire saying I'm going to offer some 352 00:21:35,320 --> 00:21:37,200 free sessions, does anyone want them? 353 00:21:37,520 --> 00:21:41,240 And I got all these emails back. It was so exciting. 354 00:21:41,280 --> 00:21:44,680 And how many people actually I ended up coaching after that? 355 00:21:45,080 --> 00:21:47,600 Amazing. Why don't we be suing the river 356 00:21:47,600 --> 00:21:52,800 Business Club, which is so cool and just then that moment when 357 00:21:52,800 --> 00:21:56,240 I'm in that car, my my husband's driving we're driving away from 358 00:21:56,240 --> 00:21:59,600 a holiday, I'm looking at the sunset and going I can create my 359 00:21:59,600 --> 00:22:03,200 own membership. I can do that and that was three 360 00:22:03,200 --> 00:22:08,320 years ago. I think the the, the number of 361 00:22:08,320 --> 00:22:10,800 people now that have come through the River Business Club 362 00:22:11,320 --> 00:22:15,520 that that it's changed their lives because it's changed what 363 00:22:15,520 --> 00:22:17,000 they can see as possible for them. 364 00:22:17,360 --> 00:22:20,440 That's what is different about the Vivid Business Club. 365 00:22:21,200 --> 00:22:25,160 You get in a room where you feel that possibility. 366 00:22:25,440 --> 00:22:29,520 You can feel that actually it might not be bullshit. 367 00:22:29,520 --> 00:22:33,480 It might actually be a dream, might actually be something that 368 00:22:33,480 --> 00:22:39,600 you can create and make happen. No matter what, no matter what 369 00:22:39,600 --> 00:22:44,600 story you've been told before, you can decide that for 370 00:22:44,600 --> 00:22:47,520 yourself. How powerful is that? 371 00:22:49,840 --> 00:22:53,320 So the Vivid Business Club was born and the day that you are 372 00:22:53,320 --> 00:22:55,160 listening, if you're listening to this on the 24th of 373 00:22:55,160 --> 00:22:57,560 September, it's around the birthday. 374 00:22:57,560 --> 00:22:59,320 I think the birthday is actually the 23rd. 375 00:22:59,680 --> 00:23:01,800 But if you're, if you're listening to this right now, 376 00:23:02,480 --> 00:23:07,120 today is the Vivid Business Club birthday event in London. 377 00:23:07,720 --> 00:23:10,240 So right now, as you're listening to this, I'm preparing 378 00:23:10,240 --> 00:23:12,360 and going up there and I'm very excited. 379 00:23:12,880 --> 00:23:15,920 We've got, I think it's 20 people in a room with it. 380 00:23:18,800 --> 00:23:22,720 Oh my God, I can't wait. I'm already so excited because 381 00:23:23,200 --> 00:23:27,840 the magic that happens in that room, the way that I and I there 382 00:23:27,840 --> 00:23:30,440 is a teacher thing. I can hold that space for people 383 00:23:30,800 --> 00:23:34,200 to explore what's really possible for them to get to know 384 00:23:34,640 --> 00:23:40,680 something about themselves that makes everything make sense so 385 00:23:40,680 --> 00:23:43,200 that they move forward with their business with more 386 00:23:43,200 --> 00:23:48,800 clarity, more courage, more confidence, and even more 387 00:23:48,800 --> 00:23:52,640 importantly, more consistency. So they've always got their own 388 00:23:52,640 --> 00:23:54,240 back. They trust that what they're 389 00:23:54,240 --> 00:23:58,240 saying is going to happen because they've got the evidence 390 00:23:58,240 --> 00:24:00,280 to support it. They say yes to themselves. 391 00:24:00,560 --> 00:24:04,440 They say yes to being in a room with people that lift them up. 392 00:24:04,600 --> 00:24:06,160 But it's more than just lifting up. 393 00:24:06,520 --> 00:24:13,000 It's being in A room with people where you feel safe enough to be 394 00:24:13,000 --> 00:24:16,760 vulnerable enough to make the magic happen. 395 00:24:18,800 --> 00:24:23,000 That is really where it's at. If you're not in an online space 396 00:24:23,000 --> 00:24:28,600 or a physical space where you feel so safe that you can be 397 00:24:28,600 --> 00:24:32,520 vulnerable in order to feel that magic can rebuild, because that 398 00:24:32,520 --> 00:24:36,520 is what happens when you want that magic to boost your 399 00:24:36,520 --> 00:24:40,000 business, to boost you, to believe that what you want to 400 00:24:40,000 --> 00:24:43,440 believe is possible, you need to get vulnerable. 401 00:24:43,720 --> 00:24:46,680 But if you're not in a safe space, if you're not in a room 402 00:24:47,200 --> 00:24:50,400 where people aren't judging you or that they're just there to 403 00:24:50,400 --> 00:24:57,400 support you, it's all about wanting you to win too, then 404 00:24:57,400 --> 00:24:59,480 that is where the magic is missing. 405 00:25:01,440 --> 00:25:08,320 That is it not being in a safe enough space to be vulnerable to 406 00:25:08,320 --> 00:25:10,400 make that magic happen. And that's what the Vivid 407 00:25:10,400 --> 00:25:12,880 Business Club, what the Vivid Business Club is. 408 00:25:13,120 --> 00:25:18,960 And I think that that's really where that's really the 409 00:25:18,960 --> 00:25:21,600 opportunity that the Vivid Business Club provides better 410 00:25:21,600 --> 00:25:24,280 than anybody else. And what I am able to do for you 411 00:25:24,280 --> 00:25:29,240 too, because I didn't feel like that. 412 00:25:29,320 --> 00:25:33,480 I know how it feels. I know how it feels to be in a 413 00:25:33,480 --> 00:25:37,800 space where you constantly feel like you are judged or made to 414 00:25:37,800 --> 00:25:42,240 feel small. And I, I refuse for that to 415 00:25:42,240 --> 00:25:45,400 happen for you. And you have the opportunity to 416 00:25:45,400 --> 00:25:49,600 join the very business club because the doors are open and 417 00:25:49,600 --> 00:25:51,640 they will be open for the foreseeable. 418 00:25:52,520 --> 00:25:55,520 So if you're listening to this podcast, whenever you listen to 419 00:25:55,520 --> 00:25:59,000 this episode and something within this podcast episode has 420 00:25:59,000 --> 00:26:02,360 resonated and you feel like it's like clicked into place for you. 421 00:26:03,640 --> 00:26:06,840 I really encourage you to go and start that 7 day free trial 422 00:26:07,200 --> 00:26:11,600 completely on me. Test drive us for free so that 423 00:26:11,600 --> 00:26:14,400 you can see if we are the right fit for you. 424 00:26:15,440 --> 00:26:20,200 If you can see that what you want to believe is possible can 425 00:26:20,200 --> 00:26:22,800 actually happen by being in that room. 426 00:26:25,200 --> 00:26:28,520 The I do have a song that I have written. 427 00:26:28,520 --> 00:26:31,640 I do and I really want to write it if I really want to sing it. 428 00:26:32,160 --> 00:26:35,120 I know it's cringy and geeky, but I read somewhere like, if 429 00:26:35,120 --> 00:26:36,720 you're not cringy enough, then you're not. 430 00:26:37,400 --> 00:26:40,240 I can't remember the rest of it, but I'm I want to get out of my 431 00:26:40,240 --> 00:26:44,080 comfort zone and pee my pants about singing on a reel. 432 00:26:46,240 --> 00:26:52,520 I might even get my guitar be like, what is it when you sing 433 00:26:52,520 --> 00:26:54,080 all around the campfire? I don't know. 434 00:26:54,440 --> 00:26:56,960 Anyway, then I'm going to leave that note. 435 00:26:57,000 --> 00:26:59,400 Now I feel really vulnerable, but obviously, I'll create a 436 00:26:59,400 --> 00:27:02,520 safe space on this podcast. Whatever you're doing for the 437 00:27:02,520 --> 00:27:06,080 rest of the day, I hope it's a productive and glorious one for 438 00:27:06,080 --> 00:27:07,560 you. Don't forget to subscribe and 439 00:27:07,560 --> 00:27:09,560 follow. If this was the first episode 440 00:27:09,840 --> 00:27:13,480 and you've just found me and if you want to learn more about the 441 00:27:13,480 --> 00:27:16,560 Vivid Business Club or all of the other things that I can do 442 00:27:16,560 --> 00:27:19,960 for you, then check the notes. No, Yep. 443 00:27:20,040 --> 00:27:22,080 Check the links in the notes. OK. 444 00:27:22,440 --> 00:27:24,480 Have a wonderful rest of your day, babe Speeches. 445 00:27:26,320 --> 00:27:29,360 Thank you so much for listening to the No Rest for the Vivid 446 00:27:29,360 --> 00:27:30,000 podcast.