1 00:00:14,840 --> 00:00:17,520 You don't have to be behind the microphone, you you could quite 2 00:00:17,520 --> 00:00:21,800 literally where where the. Fuck, I'd be wanting to be at. 3 00:00:21,840 --> 00:00:26,400 Behind the scenes and sadly. I do great in both. 4 00:00:26,440 --> 00:00:28,800 Faces you seems and that friend when I tell. 5 00:00:28,840 --> 00:00:32,680 You everybody can't be multi like faceted like everybody. 6 00:00:32,680 --> 00:00:37,200 Else the neuro divergent pays off in a way where I'm now 7 00:00:37,200 --> 00:00:41,040 learning that Michael Jackson has had to have had ADHD and 8 00:00:41,040 --> 00:00:43,240 look at how. Singing and doing his mother 9 00:00:43,240 --> 00:00:44,960 fucker. If you watch that movie and just 10 00:00:44,960 --> 00:00:47,120 see the way that like they depicted his life, the way that 11 00:00:47,120 --> 00:00:50,560 he was hyper focused on animals, the way that he just like gave a 12 00:00:51,160 --> 00:00:53,640 fuck, the way Shane would be thrown at him and he would just 13 00:00:53,640 --> 00:00:56,280 be like, you're silly. Like he didn't give a fuck. 14 00:00:56,480 --> 00:00:57,720 He didn't give a fuck. These are just. 15 00:00:57,720 --> 00:01:00,360 Words you're not and then it. Got to a point where he got so 16 00:01:00,360 --> 00:01:02,800 fucking famous where he was just like, oh, this is my normal. 17 00:01:02,920 --> 00:01:04,599 I have to accept this no matter what. 18 00:01:04,840 --> 00:01:07,200 Joseph's just me. Like you said what I'm saying, 19 00:01:08,000 --> 00:01:10,040 Joseph's just me, but I I know who the fuck with. 20 00:01:10,040 --> 00:01:11,800 I know who not the fuck with and I got my monkey like that's all 21 00:01:11,880 --> 00:01:13,640 he. And at the end of the day, I 22 00:01:13,640 --> 00:01:16,880 feel like at least from the movie, like that's how it was 23 00:01:16,880 --> 00:01:18,360 carried. And I feel like we all know 24 00:01:18,360 --> 00:01:21,360 enough about Michael Jackson to know like that *** didn't even 25 00:01:21,360 --> 00:01:22,960 really understand his level of fame. 26 00:01:22,960 --> 00:01:26,120 No, cuz it happened so quickly. He stood still for two minutes 27 00:01:26,120 --> 00:01:29,400 and *** was passing the fuck out. *** was passing out. 28 00:01:29,800 --> 00:01:32,840 You don't, you don't know the type of impact you have until 29 00:01:33,160 --> 00:01:36,840 some shit like that happening. And so it, it makes me think 30 00:01:36,840 --> 00:01:41,800 about when your brain is not how everybody else brain run, you 31 00:01:41,800 --> 00:01:44,040 don't even understand how great you really are. 32 00:01:44,040 --> 00:01:47,440 That's overwhelming as fuck. That's overwhelming as fuck when 33 00:01:47,440 --> 00:01:49,600 you're super fucking talented and everybody else around you is 34 00:01:49,600 --> 00:01:51,600 trying to tell you oh, like you need to chill. 35 00:01:52,640 --> 00:01:54,920 Oh, you're trying to stifle my greatness. 36 00:01:55,000 --> 00:01:57,360 I get it now. I get it now. 37 00:01:57,760 --> 00:02:00,920 And like we was just talking all before we turn the mics on. 38 00:02:01,520 --> 00:02:04,840 Truly don't understand how somebody could not like us just 39 00:02:05,360 --> 00:02:07,720 because of how we. Literally just being us. 40 00:02:08,400 --> 00:02:09,840 I don't. Have to pull this out my ass. 41 00:02:10,400 --> 00:02:16,000 We are too goofy as bitches. I'm not pulling this on my ass. 42 00:02:16,000 --> 00:02:17,600 I don't wake up every day and have to put this. 43 00:02:17,760 --> 00:02:20,440 On I'm me for real. That and that's it and that's 44 00:02:20,520 --> 00:02:23,760 it. And I've noticed how some people 45 00:02:24,160 --> 00:02:25,800 have not put them comfortable with that. 46 00:02:26,120 --> 00:02:26,880 They did. They are. 47 00:02:26,920 --> 00:02:29,160 Oh, other people showing up. Other people. 48 00:02:29,400 --> 00:02:33,600 And it when a light walks into a really dark room, the Roach is 49 00:02:33,600 --> 00:02:35,680 scattered. The Roach is scattered. 50 00:02:35,840 --> 00:02:38,160 You see what I'm saying? The Roach is scattered. 51 00:02:38,160 --> 00:02:39,760 The Nets get close. Yeah. 52 00:02:39,760 --> 00:02:41,600 The irritation, the things in your ear. 53 00:02:41,600 --> 00:02:42,920 You see what I'm saying? Like that shit. 54 00:02:45,320 --> 00:02:50,960 And so it, it's, I'm getting it now because at first they felt 55 00:02:50,960 --> 00:02:52,840 like, like I said, they felt like an attack at first, like 56 00:02:52,840 --> 00:02:56,000 like I said, really trying to grow from cussing people to fuck 57 00:02:56,000 --> 00:02:58,120 out and being like, yo, the fuck is your problem? 58 00:02:59,040 --> 00:03:01,400 Do we have a problem? Do you not like me or something? 59 00:03:01,400 --> 00:03:05,560 From the first step. Do you not like me? 60 00:03:05,560 --> 00:03:08,520 Did I do something? Friend on some spiritual shit. 61 00:03:10,360 --> 00:03:15,640 I walked in. I was just like, OK, walk right 62 00:03:15,640 --> 00:03:18,920 through and I just felt like ice, ice. 63 00:03:19,240 --> 00:03:22,680 It wasn't the IT thing. And I was just like where my 64 00:03:22,680 --> 00:03:25,640 friend is right where my. Friend is it. 65 00:03:25,800 --> 00:03:27,680 Automatically made it feel like this. 66 00:03:27,960 --> 00:03:30,120 I know that she feels like that as well. 67 00:03:30,120 --> 00:03:32,840 I know that she feels like it's so hard. 68 00:03:32,840 --> 00:03:38,360 Being a light in A room with other people who are really in 69 00:03:38,520 --> 00:03:41,200 like they're impostors. It's one thing to have impostor 70 00:03:41,200 --> 00:03:44,040 syndrome, it's another thing to actually be the impostor. 71 00:03:44,040 --> 00:03:47,480 But to be fake as fuck. But to truly. 72 00:03:47,480 --> 00:03:53,760 Realize that 'cause you told me this from the outside looking 73 00:03:53,760 --> 00:03:57,560 in, and I've never I've thought about it before like that. 74 00:03:57,560 --> 00:03:59,800 My light intimidates people. It does. 75 00:04:00,280 --> 00:04:03,760 And I'm just like, no, I'm like what you talking about exactly. 76 00:04:03,840 --> 00:04:09,600 It was just like exactly. You don't even know me. 77 00:04:10,440 --> 00:04:14,840 You think I'm playing. I read it on you like. 78 00:04:14,920 --> 00:04:19,240 I I see it. You're trying to read me. 79 00:04:19,240 --> 00:04:21,720 You've already been read. You're new to this. 80 00:04:22,240 --> 00:04:24,800 I'm so true to this. I've been doing this just since 81 00:04:24,840 --> 00:04:28,120 a little girl cooling I since a little girl. 82 00:04:28,360 --> 00:04:31,640 This has been me. Just because at some point 83 00:04:31,640 --> 00:04:33,840 somebody told you to shut the fuck up and you did. 84 00:04:34,160 --> 00:04:36,720 We are not the same. We are not the same. 85 00:04:36,880 --> 00:04:39,680 People have tried to dim this light, but they never cut this 86 00:04:39,680 --> 00:04:41,760 bitch off. And even though I've been in 87 00:04:41,760 --> 00:04:44,400 predicaments where people have told me to shut the fuck up and 88 00:04:44,400 --> 00:04:47,800 I did let them, I'm at a point where I'm like, what the fuck? 89 00:04:47,800 --> 00:04:49,080 You going to hit me in my mouth bro? 90 00:04:49,160 --> 00:04:51,120 I'm having a great. Time is that the point Was who 91 00:04:51,120 --> 00:04:55,040 you talking to bitch, you're so you have to be so unserious 92 00:04:55,200 --> 00:04:57,960 because there's no way that you could come to me with this type 93 00:04:57,960 --> 00:05:00,960 of energy and when I match it, you have nothing for me. 94 00:05:01,200 --> 00:05:03,920 You've used it's like it's like a Pokémon move like for real. 95 00:05:03,920 --> 00:05:06,160 It's like I ain't even pull all my shit out yet. 96 00:05:06,160 --> 00:05:07,960 I ain't even fully evolved into my true. 97 00:05:07,960 --> 00:05:10,040 Self because you truly don't know me. 98 00:05:10,080 --> 00:05:13,280 Also, I am a little sister. I'm petty as fuck. 99 00:05:13,280 --> 00:05:16,560 I'm going to get the fuck on your nerves now 'cause I'm gonna 100 00:05:16,560 --> 00:05:19,560 find multiple. Like the fact multiple that 101 00:05:19,640 --> 00:05:23,440 you're because me being me is irritating you. 102 00:05:24,000 --> 00:05:27,560 Oh my God, let's turn the amps up on this motherfucker. 103 00:05:27,560 --> 00:05:29,960 You should've let me leave 'cause now I'm. 104 00:05:30,280 --> 00:05:31,800 You should've. Let me you should've left me 105 00:05:31,800 --> 00:05:33,720 alone. I'm having a great ass time now. 106 00:05:33,720 --> 00:05:35,880 Oh my God, you don't like it before? 107 00:05:35,880 --> 00:05:38,720 I was just feeling it. Now I'm feeling it, Mr. Krabs. 108 00:05:38,800 --> 00:05:41,640 Now I'm feeling it. I would twerk on your 109 00:05:41,640 --> 00:05:44,080 motherfucking fool. If I didn't feel like. 110 00:05:45,040 --> 00:05:48,720 And and still in all of this, right, Still very generous, very 111 00:05:48,720 --> 00:05:50,880 charitable, very giving, very understanding. 112 00:05:50,920 --> 00:05:57,120 Yeah, I can understand how now. Now, right now, I'm 113 00:05:57,200 --> 00:05:59,520 understanding how that can be a lot for some people. 114 00:05:59,520 --> 00:06:03,480 Yeah, it's not a lot for me. It's a lot for me in a different 115 00:06:03,480 --> 00:06:06,400 dynamic because I'm I'm. I'm hosting this. 116 00:06:06,480 --> 00:06:08,480 You trying to play it who I am? You see what I'm saying? 117 00:06:08,480 --> 00:06:10,440 Like I'm, I'm, I'm hosting this energy. 118 00:06:10,440 --> 00:06:13,080 This is this is who I am on a daily basis. 119 00:06:13,200 --> 00:06:15,640 I understand that I'm a lot to deal with because imagine being 120 00:06:15,720 --> 00:06:17,280 being the person who has to deal with it. 121 00:06:17,960 --> 00:06:22,720 But imagine not even not. Accepting that this is who I am, 122 00:06:22,720 --> 00:06:25,000 That's I understand. I'm not. 123 00:06:25,000 --> 00:06:28,560 Even talking about seeing it with outside. 124 00:06:28,600 --> 00:06:30,440 No, I'm talking internally, internally. 125 00:06:30,440 --> 00:06:34,200 Internally being a bit. Realizing that you might have 126 00:06:34,200 --> 00:06:37,240 that in you, or you saw it in somebody else and you. 127 00:06:37,240 --> 00:06:40,880 Wanted that, you wanted that. You can't have it. 128 00:06:40,880 --> 00:06:42,640 That's not for you. That's. 129 00:06:43,200 --> 00:06:46,480 At least not in this way, because this is you, this is me, 130 00:06:46,480 --> 00:06:49,480 This Is Us. Like we're doing our thing. 131 00:06:49,480 --> 00:06:53,480 You can't head it. And this it took a lot and and 132 00:06:53,480 --> 00:06:55,600 they ain't even take a lot it. Somebody. 133 00:06:56,040 --> 00:07:00,320 Somebody doing it, somebody doing it and giving you that 134 00:07:00,320 --> 00:07:05,320 favor and me doing this because it is my favor is different. 135 00:07:05,960 --> 00:07:09,000 This is again, this is on me. I live this everyday. 136 00:07:09,240 --> 00:07:13,240 This is being done as a favor to you to to gift you something 137 00:07:13,240 --> 00:07:16,000 that either again, you saw somebody else, like you said you 138 00:07:16,000 --> 00:07:19,720 saw somebody else and you wanted that or you thought that that 139 00:07:19,720 --> 00:07:21,920 was for you. It's OK to desire things and not 140 00:07:21,920 --> 00:07:23,440 get it right. Because like I think that's 141 00:07:23,440 --> 00:07:25,680 something that we've learned even in this podcast thing like 142 00:07:25,680 --> 00:07:28,640 we've won things, gone after certain sponsorships or gone 143 00:07:28,640 --> 00:07:30,440 that, you know, like one a link with certain people have been 144 00:07:30,440 --> 00:07:32,960 ignored, left and read. Whatever the case may be fine, 145 00:07:33,040 --> 00:07:37,520 but the blessings that are coming make way more sense based 146 00:07:37,520 --> 00:07:41,720 on the true feeling of desire rather than what I thought I saw 147 00:07:41,720 --> 00:07:43,640 in desire. You said I'm saying like what I 148 00:07:43,640 --> 00:07:47,120 want and what is being depicted and what I'm really going to get 149 00:07:47,440 --> 00:07:49,800 is it is always going to be better because that actually is 150 00:07:49,800 --> 00:07:52,160 for me versus me trying to make something for me. 151 00:07:52,560 --> 00:07:55,440 And now I under now, like I said, now I understand. 152 00:07:55,480 --> 00:07:58,600 I I've said it on this podcast before and we both agree that 153 00:07:58,760 --> 00:08:00,680 truly can't understand how somebody could hate us. 154 00:08:01,320 --> 00:08:05,520 Like to to be to have a hater is insane for me to say like, Oh 155 00:08:05,520 --> 00:08:07,520 yeah, I have haters that would never come out my fucking mouth 156 00:08:07,520 --> 00:08:09,760 one because I don't focus on people like that and I. 157 00:08:09,920 --> 00:08:11,240 Don't even be thinking about that. 158 00:08:11,320 --> 00:08:12,960 Shit, I don't think. About shit like the No 159 00:08:12,960 --> 00:08:18,000 Divergent, I have so many other motherfucking things to worry 160 00:08:18,000 --> 00:08:24,480 about and think about. To think about, then a *** then 161 00:08:24,480 --> 00:08:27,560 this whole confusing aspect that you got fucking going. 162 00:08:27,600 --> 00:08:30,400 That you're projecting. That you're projecting. 163 00:08:30,400 --> 00:08:33,360 And it may sound like I'm bothered, but it's just like 164 00:08:34,039 --> 00:08:37,000 yes, because I am realizing I'm. Confused. 165 00:08:37,039 --> 00:08:38,520 I'm confused as to why this is happening. 166 00:08:38,520 --> 00:08:41,520 Why are you not fucking with me? And it's not even like I want 167 00:08:41,520 --> 00:08:43,799 everybody to like me. It's in the I ain't even do. 168 00:08:43,799 --> 00:08:48,920 You shit to you yo-yo yo. So now it's like, where the fuck 169 00:08:48,920 --> 00:08:51,560 is the bad? What did I do? 170 00:08:51,560 --> 00:08:53,080 Where the fuck is the bad? What did I? 171 00:08:53,120 --> 00:08:57,720 Do is my over soul God damn like that that you like are you over 172 00:08:57,720 --> 00:08:59,760 there fighting your mother? You taking it by yourself? 173 00:09:01,120 --> 00:09:03,520 I'm sorry that I was born. I'm not sorry, but I'm sorry I 174 00:09:03,520 --> 00:09:05,920 was born like this. I'm sorry that I was born with 175 00:09:05,920 --> 00:09:07,720 more favor. It's just it's on me. 176 00:09:07,800 --> 00:09:10,080 It's in me. It's me, it's me. 177 00:09:10,080 --> 00:09:11,520 Hi, I'm the favorite. It's me. 178 00:09:11,520 --> 00:09:12,840 Like what? I can't help that. 179 00:09:13,120 --> 00:09:17,840 I can't the more I come into focus of how air quotes bad of a 180 00:09:17,840 --> 00:09:22,000 bitch I am. Being a bad bitch takes a lot of 181 00:09:22,040 --> 00:09:24,880 effort and responsibility. And I'm not talking about like 182 00:09:24,880 --> 00:09:26,960 just the physical effort. Like don't get me wrong to be a 183 00:09:26,960 --> 00:09:29,040 bad bitch and aesthetic. I know that take a lot girl. 184 00:09:29,200 --> 00:09:32,080 They be having the veneers and they be getting the BBLS and 185 00:09:32,080 --> 00:09:35,120 they be getting the the the ABS and the titty plates and all 186 00:09:35,120 --> 00:09:36,840 that shit they be having. Personal trainers. 187 00:09:36,880 --> 00:09:39,880 You know that healing, that healing process when you decide 188 00:09:39,880 --> 00:09:42,360 to make those physical changes. Because remember, we love a bad 189 00:09:42,360 --> 00:09:44,880 bitch over here like we, we love a Ari. 190 00:09:45,040 --> 00:09:47,040 We love a anybody with a BBL for real. 191 00:09:47,040 --> 00:09:49,920 Like we we, as long as it look good 'cause you know, we be 192 00:09:49,920 --> 00:09:51,960 talking about the other ones. But you feel me? 193 00:09:51,960 --> 00:09:53,880 If that's what you decide to do with your body, that's your body 194 00:09:53,880 --> 00:09:56,520 again, your body, your choice. That's not my level of bad 195 00:09:56,520 --> 00:09:57,960 bitch. My level of bad bitch. 196 00:09:58,400 --> 00:10:00,080 Because they're in my mind. There are different levels. 197 00:10:00,080 --> 00:10:02,800 Doesn't mean that the levels are any better than the other 'cause 198 00:10:02,800 --> 00:10:05,080 you know, people get hemorrhoids and shit and be flipping the 199 00:10:05,080 --> 00:10:06,960 fuck out the gene and upset and whatever. 200 00:10:09,760 --> 00:10:14,000 An educated bad bitch who cares more about her internal beauty 201 00:10:14,840 --> 00:10:18,360 and her spirit being clean. Because I'm not chasing nothing. 202 00:10:18,560 --> 00:10:19,760 I'm. Not and I don't really want to 203 00:10:19,760 --> 00:10:21,600 be chasing to be. I don't want to be. 204 00:10:21,680 --> 00:10:23,000 I don't like the idea of being chased. 205 00:10:23,160 --> 00:10:25,080 I can't run fast enough in my mother fucking dreams. 206 00:10:25,080 --> 00:10:27,280 And to be honest with you, I'm still low key running in place. 207 00:10:27,480 --> 00:10:30,120 Like as I'm learning how to jog and run and be on my fitness 208 00:10:30,120 --> 00:10:32,360 journey. I'm still not going far fast. 209 00:10:32,440 --> 00:10:33,960 You're not. Still learning how to look 210 00:10:33,960 --> 00:10:35,280 people in the eye when they talk to. 211 00:10:35,360 --> 00:10:36,200 Me. You see what I'm saying? 212 00:10:36,280 --> 00:10:39,160 I really like. And so for you to not like me, 213 00:10:39,160 --> 00:10:43,840 knowing all that it's taking for me to get here, oh, you really 214 00:10:43,840 --> 00:10:45,880 stink on the inside. Your pussy stink like real shit. 215 00:10:45,880 --> 00:10:47,840 You're giving like your pussy stink energy. 216 00:10:47,960 --> 00:10:51,000 And I'm actually showing up in my full list. 217 00:10:52,240 --> 00:10:54,600 And I didn't have to do much. I just had to put, I just had to 218 00:10:54,600 --> 00:10:56,720 get the outside together. I just had to get the outside 219 00:10:56,720 --> 00:10:58,360 together because I've been walking around looking crazy. 220 00:10:58,360 --> 00:10:59,520 I look crazy right now as we talking. 221 00:10:59,520 --> 00:11:00,400 You don't. Look crazy? 222 00:11:00,840 --> 00:11:03,080 I feel like I look crazy, you see, I'm saying like that. 223 00:11:03,080 --> 00:11:04,760 That's. Just I pluck your fro a little 224 00:11:04,760 --> 00:11:07,200 bit, but that it's. It's really stuck to my head, 225 00:11:07,200 --> 00:11:08,280 like the sweat. Yeah. 226 00:11:08,280 --> 00:11:11,000 It's like I look like Frederick Douglass, 'cause that's how I 227 00:11:11,040 --> 00:11:12,400 feel. You don't look like Frederick. 228 00:11:12,720 --> 00:11:15,760 I'm gonna go home, blow dry my hair and braid it down. 229 00:11:16,200 --> 00:11:18,720 Yeah 'cause like. And then I'll ask my sister. 230 00:11:18,800 --> 00:11:20,760 Make you see how. Quickly we got over that shit 231 00:11:20,960 --> 00:11:24,520 like *** Make sure that y'all book your hair appointments with 232 00:11:24,520 --> 00:11:26,440 my sister, my sister's in the Baltimore area. 233 00:11:26,440 --> 00:11:28,760 She will come to y'all. The hair wash is included. 234 00:11:28,760 --> 00:11:31,200 Who you know coming to your house and washing your hair and 235 00:11:31,200 --> 00:11:33,280 she bring her own products if you want the hair to be 236 00:11:33,280 --> 00:11:35,880 included. The styles are a different price 237 00:11:36,160 --> 00:11:39,280 but who you know bring your hair for $95 right now and they look 238 00:11:39,280 --> 00:11:40,680 great. She just did some braids over 239 00:11:40,680 --> 00:11:41,880 some locks. They was amazing. 240 00:11:42,160 --> 00:11:44,160 She's the one who do my full locks all the time, every time. 241 00:11:44,160 --> 00:11:45,480 You're like Oh my God your locks look so good. 242 00:11:45,480 --> 00:11:48,280 How long you been growing them? Since Janaya put them in my head 243 00:11:48,800 --> 00:11:51,400 like a week ago. So y'all always complimenting 244 00:11:51,400 --> 00:11:52,640 me. I'm finally giving you all the 245 00:11:52,640 --> 00:11:54,600 information. She's in the Baltimore area but 246 00:11:54,600 --> 00:11:56,840 she got a license. She can come to you if you're in 247 00:11:56,840 --> 00:11:58,400 the Maryland area and you want her to come out. 248 00:11:58,440 --> 00:12:01,160 You know a little for this. She's very professional, she is 249 00:12:01,240 --> 00:12:03,800 a a chatterbox. She loves to get and her 250 00:12:03,800 --> 00:12:07,440 personality and her just charisma is gonna be highly 251 00:12:07,440 --> 00:12:09,280 recommend her. I'm not just saying that because 252 00:12:09,280 --> 00:12:10,920 she my little sister, I'm really saying that she's a great soul 253 00:12:11,360 --> 00:12:13,280 and she's bought her money. She bought her business. 254 00:12:13,800 --> 00:12:15,880 So if y'all need your hair, then please make sure that y'all book 255 00:12:15,880 --> 00:12:17,720 with her. I'm gonna put her information on 256 00:12:17,720 --> 00:12:20,080 our beacons and that way you could just go over there and 257 00:12:20,080 --> 00:12:21,520 book with her. So you're not right. 258 00:12:21,520 --> 00:12:23,760 Because remember, we have one stop shop for all of the world. 259 00:12:23,760 --> 00:12:28,160 I want y'all to, you know, Yeah, really, really be in there. 260 00:12:28,880 --> 00:12:30,720 Also, make sure you join Bloom Festival. 261 00:12:30,840 --> 00:12:33,160 Welcome to the episode I was. Thinking that the whole time you 262 00:12:33,160 --> 00:12:35,520 were talking, I was just like, it's the middle of the goddamn 263 00:12:35,520 --> 00:12:37,720 thing. And we just now introducing 264 00:12:37,720 --> 00:12:40,200 ourselves. Welcome to Yeah. 265 00:12:40,320 --> 00:12:42,160 Because yeah, we had to just get that out. 266 00:12:42,240 --> 00:12:44,760 Like we were in a flow state with that shit because we were 267 00:12:44,760 --> 00:12:49,600 really like in depth. Because again, when we debrief, 268 00:12:52,160 --> 00:12:54,280 we be seeing it our way. Yeah. 269 00:12:54,680 --> 00:12:58,560 But then we see it like, OK, because we do see what each 270 00:12:58,560 --> 00:13:01,040 other is seeing, but in a little bit of difference. 271 00:13:01,040 --> 00:13:03,200 Yeah. And then it's just like us just 272 00:13:03,200 --> 00:13:05,640 really being best friends. Like, no, because like, for 273 00:13:05,640 --> 00:13:06,280 real. Yeah. 274 00:13:06,280 --> 00:13:10,280 Like it's girl talk too. So like, yeah, we just had to 275 00:13:10,280 --> 00:13:11,080 get that off. We had to get. 276 00:13:11,080 --> 00:13:13,400 That out Speaking of girl talk, make sure that you're doing 277 00:13:13,400 --> 00:13:15,120 bloom house. Y'all been real quiet in there 278 00:13:15,120 --> 00:13:17,840 lately, but I get that life is like, so we are going to do like 279 00:13:17,920 --> 00:13:21,160 a like a smoke session soon just to kind of see what everybody 280 00:13:21,160 --> 00:13:23,360 got going on. I think that we also might just 281 00:13:23,360 --> 00:13:25,880 do better of just linking up that way instead of trying to 282 00:13:25,880 --> 00:13:28,040 just talk through text all the time because we all suck at 283 00:13:28,040 --> 00:13:31,000 that. So but in Bloom House, we are 284 00:13:31,000 --> 00:13:34,160 going to start sharing a lot of tips and tricks and skills 285 00:13:34,560 --> 00:13:37,240 because we don't really want to run a business anymore. 286 00:13:37,240 --> 00:13:40,720 Guys like we'll be honest with you not not for y'all as far as 287 00:13:40,720 --> 00:13:44,840 like wanting to do services. Some of y'all really suck. 288 00:13:45,000 --> 00:13:47,160 Like, I'll be honest with you as a business owner, as an 289 00:13:47,160 --> 00:13:50,440 entrepreneur, having done business with a couple people in 290 00:13:50,440 --> 00:13:52,160 the past. And you know, we talked to 291 00:13:52,160 --> 00:13:55,080 Patreon about the different grant programs and the different 292 00:13:55,080 --> 00:13:58,080 types of things that we've tried to do and just right now. 293 00:13:58,080 --> 00:13:59,600 It's our people, too. Yeah. 294 00:13:59,880 --> 00:14:02,120 And and so right now, it's just not the time for us to keep 295 00:14:02,120 --> 00:14:04,680 pursuing that. Because you're not about to keep 296 00:14:04,680 --> 00:14:07,080 pissing me off. And I really just want to have 297 00:14:07,080 --> 00:14:08,840 my own. I want to really run my own 298 00:14:08,840 --> 00:14:11,240 shit. And it's going to come to 299 00:14:11,240 --> 00:14:15,280 fruition, but not like this. Because again, you're pissing me 300 00:14:15,280 --> 00:14:16,560 off. Because this will be the shit 301 00:14:16,560 --> 00:14:21,240 that we've run like this. I've I've learned that because 302 00:14:21,240 --> 00:14:24,080 we tend to care about people's projects more than they do, 303 00:14:24,320 --> 00:14:26,080 that's where the frustration comes from. 304 00:14:26,480 --> 00:14:31,200 And so instead of trying to break that passion out, give it 305 00:14:31,200 --> 00:14:35,000 to jaded and evolving. I can't force you to want to do 306 00:14:35,000 --> 00:14:36,280 your own shit. I can't. 307 00:14:36,280 --> 00:14:38,880 I can't. I'm sitting up here thinking 308 00:14:39,520 --> 00:14:43,200 because again, the neurodivergence, I got a million 309 00:14:43,200 --> 00:14:45,840 and one thoughts about your shit and I got shit to get to. 310 00:14:45,840 --> 00:14:48,400 Yeah, that's not fair. That's not fair. 311 00:14:48,400 --> 00:14:49,960 I'm tired of doing that for people. 312 00:14:50,000 --> 00:14:56,280 Yeah, because it's like, where the fuck was your antennas when 313 00:14:56,280 --> 00:14:59,080 you thought about the idea? You came up with the thought but 314 00:14:59,080 --> 00:15:02,400 didn't do *** When I come up with thought I got a whole pitch 315 00:15:02,400 --> 00:15:05,480 decks in this bitch, literally because when I want to pull that 316 00:15:05,480 --> 00:15:08,800 shit back out my ass, Yeah. It's almost there. 317 00:15:08,960 --> 00:15:12,040 I just have to push it out to people, *** And you can't keep 318 00:15:12,040 --> 00:15:15,440 thinking that because you think about it one time and has you 319 00:15:15,440 --> 00:15:18,720 say it to somebody that it's going to happen that way. 320 00:15:19,120 --> 00:15:22,400 And don't expect somebody to pick up the passion for you and 321 00:15:22,400 --> 00:15:24,720 keep your shit right? Sure shit bro. 322 00:15:24,720 --> 00:15:27,160 Specifically when it comes to a service based business. 323 00:15:27,160 --> 00:15:29,280 Now when it comes to goods, usually once you've passed off 324 00:15:29,280 --> 00:15:31,680 whatever they've purchased, you're usually done right. 325 00:15:31,680 --> 00:15:33,880 You're just looking for a review, whatever the case may 326 00:15:33,880 --> 00:15:34,960 be. But when is it when it's a 327 00:15:34,960 --> 00:15:37,400 service based business and there's an onboarding process 328 00:15:37,640 --> 00:15:39,640 and there's contracts and there's questions. 329 00:15:40,280 --> 00:15:43,200 Now people who don't have answers are overwhelmed, but 330 00:15:43,200 --> 00:15:45,600 it's because you didn't think that far into your business. 331 00:15:45,600 --> 00:15:48,080 I need follow. Through you just had an idea and 332 00:15:48,080 --> 00:15:50,880 you started to run with it and then you thought, OK, I want to 333 00:15:50,880 --> 00:15:52,400 collaborate and work with other people. 334 00:15:52,400 --> 00:15:54,400 That's great. But you have to understand that 335 00:15:54,400 --> 00:15:56,520 some people really give a fuck about the things that they 336 00:15:56,520 --> 00:15:58,320 doing. And I understand that you might 337 00:15:58,320 --> 00:16:01,920 not know, but what I can't do is, is excuse that because we 338 00:16:01,920 --> 00:16:05,880 didn't know even before I had a degree, I, I, I didn't know. 339 00:16:06,200 --> 00:16:08,760 And after the degree, I had no excuse not to know. 340 00:16:09,080 --> 00:16:10,840 And then I had no excuse not to use it. 341 00:16:11,120 --> 00:16:14,160 So that's what I'm saying. Natasha had no excuse not to use 342 00:16:14,160 --> 00:16:15,560 it. So that's why we put the skills 343 00:16:15,560 --> 00:16:19,160 to use and then to try to start a service to try to help other 344 00:16:19,160 --> 00:16:20,560 people. And this is not us complaining. 345 00:16:20,720 --> 00:16:23,440 This is the reality of life right now, that there are a lot 346 00:16:23,440 --> 00:16:27,360 of black people in business and they don't know what the fuck to 347 00:16:27,360 --> 00:16:29,880 do in business because it should be a hobby. 348 00:16:30,680 --> 00:16:33,280 It shouldn't be no fucking LLC. You should have never registered 349 00:16:33,280 --> 00:16:36,320 that LLC you got caught up in. Letting these people tell you 350 00:16:36,320 --> 00:16:39,240 what the fuck to do with these great ideas that you have. 351 00:16:39,240 --> 00:16:43,480 They are great ideas, but work on it a little bit. 352 00:16:43,480 --> 00:16:45,040 You ain't gotta jump right into this. 353 00:16:45,200 --> 00:16:47,240 You can monetize it once and then you don't have to do it 354 00:16:47,240 --> 00:16:48,760 again just just for the experience. 355 00:16:49,000 --> 00:16:51,240 But please understand that if you want something from it, 356 00:16:51,400 --> 00:16:53,000 you're gonna have to give it something too. 357 00:16:53,000 --> 00:16:56,120 Yeah, You have to keep getting you exactly. 358 00:16:56,120 --> 00:16:59,960 You have to do it because Y. EW *** You will lock in with 359 00:16:59,960 --> 00:17:02,600 your home girl when you be like, yeah, for instance, we got 360 00:17:02,600 --> 00:17:04,079 something that's coming up for y'all right? 361 00:17:04,079 --> 00:17:05,920 Going to be a great fucking time. 362 00:17:06,640 --> 00:17:10,079 When we started talking to the other two people on the team now 363 00:17:10,160 --> 00:17:13,720 about what we were intended to do, they started throwing out 364 00:17:13,720 --> 00:17:16,440 all these amazing ideas. We wrote them down. 365 00:17:16,920 --> 00:17:19,920 There's a strategy in place. It is going through the approval 366 00:17:19,920 --> 00:17:22,119 process between us two. Yes. 367 00:17:22,160 --> 00:17:25,240 And then we're going to send it out to them, show them how they 368 00:17:25,240 --> 00:17:28,359 fit into this, what those responsibilities are, and make 369 00:17:28,359 --> 00:17:30,160 them solely responsible for that. 370 00:17:30,200 --> 00:17:31,640 Yes. We're not putting anything 371 00:17:31,640 --> 00:17:34,080 additional on anybody's plate because we don't expect for them 372 00:17:34,080 --> 00:17:37,240 to give a fuck about what we want in a hole when the thing 373 00:17:37,240 --> 00:17:38,920 that they care the most about is what they. 374 00:17:38,920 --> 00:17:41,120 Intend to offer. That's it, That's it. 375 00:17:41,400 --> 00:17:44,080 So, because that's all you should be worried about is your 376 00:17:44,080 --> 00:17:45,520 part. So when you don't, when you and 377 00:17:45,520 --> 00:17:48,680 y'all are thinking past the thought that matters, you got to 378 00:17:48,680 --> 00:17:52,200 go back to that you, you have to again, y'all follow through, but 379 00:17:52,200 --> 00:17:56,120 also y'all real like y'all don't even from a like a hustler's 380 00:17:56,120 --> 00:18:00,120 perspective executed you. You don't have that like, and 381 00:18:00,120 --> 00:18:03,440 it's not that you can't have it. You think it's too hard. 382 00:18:04,360 --> 00:18:06,640 It's not. You just don't like to do hard 383 00:18:06,640 --> 00:18:09,840 shit and that's OK. Whether it be like the ADHD, 384 00:18:09,960 --> 00:18:12,840 whether it be that you got a trauma, whether it be you the 385 00:18:12,840 --> 00:18:15,600 big R word, like something really, you feel me like fucking 386 00:18:15,600 --> 00:18:17,080 wrong with you. Like want some real shit, like 387 00:18:17,080 --> 00:18:19,320 no funny shit, but want some real shit like maybe that's the 388 00:18:19,320 --> 00:18:21,280 fucking case. At the end of the day, what do I 389 00:18:21,280 --> 00:18:22,880 always tell you? I don't give a fuck. 390 00:18:23,080 --> 00:18:25,080 It's bitches out here sucking Dick who's never been taught how 391 00:18:25,080 --> 00:18:28,080 to suck Dick before. It's *** out here with AK47 392 00:18:28,120 --> 00:18:29,880 shooting. You learn how to fuck. 393 00:18:30,040 --> 00:18:31,320 You learn how to roll that blunt. 394 00:18:31,480 --> 00:18:33,000 You learn how to show that wig in. 395 00:18:33,120 --> 00:18:34,840 You learn how to fucking steal *** cars. 396 00:18:34,840 --> 00:18:37,080 You learn how to get into that *** phone bitch, you should be 397 00:18:37,080 --> 00:18:39,440 in. You said put them skills to use. 398 00:18:39,920 --> 00:18:42,280 Put the fucking skills to use. And like I said, you don't have 399 00:18:42,280 --> 00:18:45,040 to 100% go to Rotolae. We go get a certification, even 400 00:18:45,040 --> 00:18:47,960 though I recommend that you do. Once you want to be really 401 00:18:47,960 --> 00:18:51,440 serious about once you start making a little couple $1000. 402 00:18:51,440 --> 00:18:54,520 Not even making a couple in my opinion, once you recognize 403 00:18:54,520 --> 00:18:57,760 that, for instance, you had to work the law doing this, that 404 00:18:57,760 --> 00:19:01,040 you would do it, you need to go certify that When I knew that I 405 00:19:01,040 --> 00:19:03,960 could balance and Recon like reconcile accounts, like to the 406 00:19:03,960 --> 00:19:06,360 point where if somebody let me in their money, I could have to 407 00:19:06,440 --> 00:19:08,720 ask. I needed to go talk to somebody. 408 00:19:08,720 --> 00:19:10,840 I went and took my ass and started working in the council 409 00:19:10,840 --> 00:19:13,880 receivables. I love to solve problems. 410 00:19:13,880 --> 00:19:16,040 I love to solve numbers. I like to see where shit is. 411 00:19:16,320 --> 00:19:18,760 I took that shit and I ran with it. 412 00:19:18,920 --> 00:19:22,000 A lot of y'all are doing data analytics and I want to I want 413 00:19:22,000 --> 00:19:24,920 to get into risk analysis as well, because I see gaps and 414 00:19:24,920 --> 00:19:28,520 shit. That's what you I told y'all 415 00:19:28,520 --> 00:19:32,160 this story about the man, his ass had stole the subway so many 416 00:19:32,160 --> 00:19:34,000 fucking times. They locked his ass up for when 417 00:19:34,000 --> 00:19:36,320 he got out of jail. They said, hey, maybe we 418 00:19:36,320 --> 00:19:37,720 shouldn't have locked him the fuck up. 419 00:19:37,720 --> 00:19:40,000 Maybe we should have made him the director of the subway 420 00:19:40,000 --> 00:19:42,360 stations down in New York City because this *** know this shit 421 00:19:42,560 --> 00:19:44,120 back and forth. That's what they also found out 422 00:19:44,120 --> 00:19:46,520 his ass was autistic. This is what I'm talking about. 423 00:19:46,640 --> 00:19:48,640 He didn't decide, hey, I'm gonna keep stealing. 424 00:19:48,760 --> 00:19:50,800 He said, hey, let me go try to get a fucking job. 425 00:19:50,800 --> 00:19:52,720 When they told him that he couldn't get a job, that *** 426 00:19:52,720 --> 00:19:54,720 started stealing it again. Again. 427 00:19:54,760 --> 00:19:57,640 You try you. Tried, but half of y'all ain't 428 00:19:57,640 --> 00:19:59,880 even fucking tried. You ain't even honed it on the 429 00:19:59,880 --> 00:20:01,680 skill yet. And then y'all try to pass the 430 00:20:01,680 --> 00:20:03,720 shit off to somebody with more emotion than y'all. 431 00:20:03,880 --> 00:20:06,400 And then you wonder why somebody starts to resent you. 432 00:20:06,440 --> 00:20:08,040 And I don't like. That shit. 433 00:20:08,040 --> 00:20:11,200 And I did learn today because I was like, what's up with the 434 00:20:11,200 --> 00:20:17,000 execution of like things, right? I did learn today that sometimes 435 00:20:17,000 --> 00:20:19,440 telling people about it makes you feel like you've done it, 436 00:20:20,080 --> 00:20:23,040 even just in Word. It's like, Yep, well, I've done 437 00:20:23,040 --> 00:20:24,640 that thing. No, you've thought about it and 438 00:20:24,640 --> 00:20:26,320 you. Told somebody now you have to 439 00:20:26,320 --> 00:20:29,520 keep doing it and don't get upset when somebody comes back 440 00:20:29,520 --> 00:20:31,120 to ask you what's. Been going on with. 441 00:20:31,160 --> 00:20:33,600 That thing what about don't be like well what the fuck you 442 00:20:33,600 --> 00:20:36,360 asking about bitch all in my business you put them in your. 443 00:20:36,360 --> 00:20:38,440 Business. That's why I stopped telling 444 00:20:38,440 --> 00:20:40,760 people shit. I tell people as much as I need 445 00:20:40,760 --> 00:20:43,280 to let them know. Or I start saying shit out my 446 00:20:43,280 --> 00:20:44,920 mouth. Hey, can you want me accountable 447 00:20:44,920 --> 00:20:45,600 for this? Yeah. 448 00:20:46,240 --> 00:20:47,720 Literally and I. Understand that that's a big 449 00:20:47,720 --> 00:20:51,480 word for some of y'all Elmo's, but like I just know for real. 450 00:20:51,520 --> 00:20:57,960 Again, I feel like it's an excuse oftentimes given because 451 00:20:58,040 --> 00:21:01,760 y'all can find a way to do everything the fuck else. 452 00:21:01,760 --> 00:21:05,240 I don't get that. I don't get it as and I think it 453 00:21:05,240 --> 00:21:08,080 comes from never being able to be incompetent when I was 454 00:21:08,080 --> 00:21:10,920 younger that I can't empathize with that with like with people 455 00:21:11,200 --> 00:21:14,600 when people don't fucking try, Like when people don't try, I 456 00:21:14,600 --> 00:21:17,560 just be looking at like, how the fuck are you OK with not trying 457 00:21:17,560 --> 00:21:20,080 when all the fuck I ever had to do was keep going. 458 00:21:20,080 --> 00:21:22,080 I used to ask my Mama with certain words made do you know 459 00:21:22,080 --> 00:21:24,320 she's making write papers? I used to be like, Mama, just 460 00:21:24,320 --> 00:21:25,720 write me. Go look it up and I want you to 461 00:21:25,720 --> 00:21:31,080 write me a one page paper on the definition, the order they said 462 00:21:31,080 --> 00:21:33,320 the watch shows and I'd be like, I don't understand why such and 463 00:21:33,320 --> 00:21:34,480 such. Go look at the history and bring 464 00:21:34,480 --> 00:21:37,640 it back to me. I didn't have I didn't have an 465 00:21:37,680 --> 00:21:39,480 opportunity to be. I didn't have an opportunity to 466 00:21:39,480 --> 00:21:42,160 be uneducated. I had to sound the words out. 467 00:21:42,360 --> 00:21:45,840 I didn't have the opportunity to be incompetent. *** I'm the 468 00:21:45,880 --> 00:21:48,400 youngest person in the fucking house and I'm spelling words for 469 00:21:48,400 --> 00:21:49,720 your ass. And I didn't have the 470 00:21:49,720 --> 00:21:53,960 opportunity to be irresponsible. Everybody else could could get 471 00:21:53,960 --> 00:21:55,440 the check. They would be chastised. 472 00:21:55,440 --> 00:21:56,720 They would be headache consequence. 473 00:21:56,720 --> 00:21:58,760 And then they would turn around and do the exact same thing. 474 00:21:59,320 --> 00:22:02,080 Somebody would yell at me and I would shut the fuck down and be 475 00:22:02,080 --> 00:22:03,400 like, you know what? I'm a horrible fucking person. 476 00:22:03,400 --> 00:22:04,600 I would never do that. Why are you? 477 00:22:04,600 --> 00:22:06,160 Yelling at me? Why are you yelling at me? 478 00:22:06,920 --> 00:22:08,240 I don't even understand what people yell. 479 00:22:08,400 --> 00:22:10,920 And I understand some people have it worse in that aspect 480 00:22:10,920 --> 00:22:12,200 because some people get their ass. 481 00:22:12,200 --> 00:22:15,200 Well, oh for sure. But like *** Again, you, but 482 00:22:15,200 --> 00:22:18,680 again, the same way that you found ways to cope with it that 483 00:22:18,680 --> 00:22:22,760 probably don't positively impact you is the same way you can make 484 00:22:22,760 --> 00:22:25,240 the change to positive. And then I'm not telling you 485 00:22:25,240 --> 00:22:26,960 this for the sake of just telling you this. 486 00:22:26,960 --> 00:22:29,320 I'm telling you this because I've gone the fuck through. 487 00:22:29,320 --> 00:22:32,200 I'm going through it right now. This shit is not a joke. 488 00:22:32,840 --> 00:22:34,440 Life is not a fuck. I know I feel like a fucking 489 00:22:34,440 --> 00:22:36,120 joke right now with all the shit that's going on in the world. 490 00:22:36,120 --> 00:22:39,560 I get it yo, I truly get it. But the fact that that's the 491 00:22:39,560 --> 00:22:42,160 reason why you not trying is nuts to me. 492 00:22:42,480 --> 00:22:45,240 When you tired but you can sit and scroll on your fucking phone 493 00:22:45,240 --> 00:22:49,360 all day when you tired, but you could go RIP and run the streets 494 00:22:49,360 --> 00:22:52,200 when you tired but you could figure out a new hairstyle when 495 00:22:52,200 --> 00:22:53,720 you tired but you could book that trip. 496 00:22:53,960 --> 00:22:55,320 And then it's all these goals and shit. 497 00:22:55,320 --> 00:22:58,960 Sit and the time it's gonna go by anyway, do something with it. 498 00:22:59,120 --> 00:23:00,680 I'm tired of ending off the year looking. 499 00:23:00,680 --> 00:23:02,480 Back, bro, looking back, what the fuck I could have did 500 00:23:02,480 --> 00:23:04,280 instead of what I should have done or what I had the 501 00:23:04,320 --> 00:23:06,760 opportunity. I really want to be able to 502 00:23:06,760 --> 00:23:10,080 reflect on when I had the opportunity to do something and 503 00:23:10,080 --> 00:23:13,640 because of fear or pure fucking intimidation or whatever the 504 00:23:13,640 --> 00:23:15,760 case may be, I didn't do it. That's some bitch ass shit. 505 00:23:15,960 --> 00:23:18,240 Eventually you got to be like, yo, the same way I'll walk 506 00:23:18,240 --> 00:23:20,120 around being like, oh, I'm so confident, I'm so confident, I'm 507 00:23:20,120 --> 00:23:21,640 so confident. Eventually you have to act in 508 00:23:21,640 --> 00:23:23,280 that. And going back to our original 509 00:23:23,280 --> 00:23:25,800 point, that's why sometimes people don't like you because 510 00:23:25,800 --> 00:23:29,680 eventually you stop fitting in with the idea of something and 511 00:23:29,680 --> 00:23:32,480 you actually become the thing. There's a lot of *** out here 512 00:23:32,480 --> 00:23:34,120 who are just the idea of something. 513 00:23:34,120 --> 00:23:37,080 They love being the idea. It's a facade in them *** When 514 00:23:37,080 --> 00:23:39,160 you built for it tough and that shit really on you. 515 00:23:39,320 --> 00:23:40,880 That shit is different and that shit don't sit. 516 00:23:40,880 --> 00:23:43,280 Well, it intimidate *** 'cause they like, oh shit, they 517 00:23:43,280 --> 00:23:45,480 actually did the shit. And guess what the fuck? 518 00:23:45,520 --> 00:23:47,440 Well, well, now your name is Intimidation. 519 00:23:47,440 --> 00:23:48,720 My name is Christian. What the fuck is up? 520 00:23:48,720 --> 00:23:49,800 What's up? What's up? 521 00:23:49,800 --> 00:23:51,840 Let's get acquainted. Intimidated. 522 00:23:52,400 --> 00:23:53,680 What the fuck? No for room. 523 00:23:53,760 --> 00:23:55,320 I don't understand that. I don't get it. 524 00:23:55,320 --> 00:23:58,240 I don't don't get me wrong, I get it because I was there. 525 00:23:58,240 --> 00:24:00,960 But as somebody who also worked damn near on her own. 526 00:24:00,960 --> 00:24:03,160 And when I say on her own, it's not that I didn't have help. 527 00:24:03,360 --> 00:24:05,240 It's not like I don't appreciate my friendships and the 528 00:24:05,240 --> 00:24:07,360 encouragement. But when you in that moment, I 529 00:24:07,360 --> 00:24:10,120 think we all can agree that that feels like such a lonely space 530 00:24:10,120 --> 00:24:12,200 to be in. So while I had it around me, I 531 00:24:12,200 --> 00:24:15,400 was not appreciating it when I had it, nor was I probably 532 00:24:15,400 --> 00:24:18,200 taking proper advantage of it. Or sometimes maybe we took too 533 00:24:18,200 --> 00:24:20,720 much of an advantage of it and still was able to be forgiven 534 00:24:20,960 --> 00:24:23,360 and still was able to correct the behavior in order to keep 535 00:24:23,360 --> 00:24:25,600 those relationships. So again, it's a cop out. 536 00:24:25,600 --> 00:24:27,400 At the end of the day, it's a cop out. 537 00:24:27,560 --> 00:24:29,000 If you lose people, then you lose them. 538 00:24:29,000 --> 00:24:30,840 But the people that you get to keep are the people that you get 539 00:24:30,840 --> 00:24:33,360 to keep absolutely throughout your growth process. 540 00:24:33,360 --> 00:24:35,760 That's what the fuck growth is, is deciding I don't want to do 541 00:24:35,760 --> 00:24:37,040 that shit anymore, I want to do something else. 542 00:24:37,040 --> 00:24:38,200 Alright, you're growing the fuck up. 543 00:24:38,240 --> 00:24:40,880 Grow up, grow the fuck up. Y'all are weird. 544 00:24:41,160 --> 00:24:43,240 You're weird when you sit around and be like, you know what? 545 00:24:43,840 --> 00:24:46,200 I don't fuck it, it just must not be for me. 546 00:24:46,200 --> 00:24:47,520 Then you ain't even fucking try yet. 547 00:24:47,560 --> 00:24:48,480 So shut. Up for you. 548 00:24:48,840 --> 00:24:50,120 That's not for you, because what can it? 549 00:24:50,200 --> 00:24:53,880 Be for you if it was, If it happened for that bitch over 550 00:24:53,880 --> 00:24:56,040 there in her ponytail, that fucking little, it can happen. 551 00:24:56,160 --> 00:24:59,200 For you sometimes the shit be hard like you wouldn't 552 00:24:59,200 --> 00:25:02,400 appreciate it if. It was easy and I'm learning 553 00:25:02,400 --> 00:25:04,960 that. I'm like because when shit come, 554 00:25:05,240 --> 00:25:07,680 something recently came to us so easy. 555 00:25:07,680 --> 00:25:11,240 We wanted something and we were not specific about it came to 556 00:25:11,240 --> 00:25:13,840 us. We had the experience, 0 out of 557 00:25:13,840 --> 00:25:16,400 10 don't want to do it no more, 0 out of 10 don't want to do it 558 00:25:16,400 --> 00:25:20,840 anymore over. Also had another opportunity, 559 00:25:21,360 --> 00:25:24,760 was not fully specific about it, didn't jump into it, really took 560 00:25:24,760 --> 00:25:29,040 the time this time, was patient about it, experienced it. 0 out 561 00:25:29,040 --> 00:25:32,520 of 10 don't want to do it again, don't want to do it again, 562 00:25:32,520 --> 00:25:34,120 certain. Certain people, certain things 563 00:25:34,120 --> 00:25:37,800 that haven't even come into fruition but just have been 564 00:25:37,800 --> 00:25:40,880 conversation. We see it, we think about it, we 565 00:25:40,880 --> 00:25:44,000 talk about it, we're honest with each other about it. 566 00:25:44,000 --> 00:25:45,640 We're like, we don't want to do that. 567 00:25:45,640 --> 00:25:49,760 No, because why am I confused? Why am I confused? 568 00:25:49,760 --> 00:25:52,320 I should not be confused about something that you feel like you 569 00:25:52,320 --> 00:25:54,640 told me about or that I should be in on. 570 00:25:54,760 --> 00:25:56,720 And the fact that you make it it seem like I'm just supposed to 571 00:25:56,720 --> 00:25:59,880 know everything immediately is the problem. 572 00:25:59,960 --> 00:26:02,920 Because what about that last conversation made you feel so 573 00:26:02,920 --> 00:26:05,880 confident that we were that we were prepared to move forward? 574 00:26:07,960 --> 00:26:09,520 When nothing was even being said. 575 00:26:09,600 --> 00:26:12,920 When everything at that time was pretty much chaotic and just 576 00:26:12,960 --> 00:26:16,480 constantly in motion. And that's why specifically, and 577 00:26:16,480 --> 00:26:19,080 I'll say this like publicly, just so y'all know, if there's 578 00:26:19,080 --> 00:26:21,960 ever an opportunity where we decide to collaborate and you 579 00:26:21,960 --> 00:26:24,000 decide that you want to be doing something else while we in a 580 00:26:24,000 --> 00:26:26,600 meeting, I promise you I'm going to reschedule that meeting. 581 00:26:27,160 --> 00:26:29,800 I would be like, hey, you seem busy, let's reschedule this when 582 00:26:29,800 --> 00:26:32,440 you have time to sit still. Because I'm noticing how much 583 00:26:32,440 --> 00:26:35,480 that affects a conversation as well as somebody who's also 584 00:26:35,480 --> 00:26:38,160 taking meetings from the car. I'll take a 15 minute meeting 585 00:26:38,160 --> 00:26:40,800 from the car about maybe like a quick update or somebody needs 586 00:26:40,800 --> 00:26:43,160 to update from me. But if it's like like 587 00:26:43,160 --> 00:26:45,600 strategizing or really like starting to bring something 588 00:26:45,600 --> 00:26:46,960 together, you got to sit the fuck still. 589 00:26:47,120 --> 00:26:49,280 You got to. You have to be sitting the fuck 590 00:26:49,280 --> 00:26:50,240 still. Because now I feel like you're 591 00:26:50,240 --> 00:26:51,800 not taking what I'm saying seriously. 592 00:26:52,160 --> 00:26:53,280 Or you just throwing shit out there. 593 00:26:53,560 --> 00:26:56,280 Yeah, you just throwing this you just because you talk about some 594 00:26:57,320 --> 00:27:01,800 Oh, absolutely fucking not. No, no, no, no. 595 00:27:03,080 --> 00:27:07,920 No, no bueno, *** if your favorite celebrity was on the 596 00:27:07,920 --> 00:27:09,960 fucking phone right now, would you be talking like this? 597 00:27:10,400 --> 00:27:12,640 No, you'd be dicky and you're being weird. 598 00:27:12,680 --> 00:27:14,880 Stop and my favorite celebrity on the phone. 599 00:27:14,880 --> 00:27:18,920 I'm asking for a job. Fuck I love your work. 600 00:27:19,280 --> 00:27:20,920 Love your work Miss Pete you hiring? 601 00:27:20,920 --> 00:27:23,360 You need to buy collect some more invoices or something. 602 00:27:23,360 --> 00:27:25,200 Girl you need to buy each ass like what you need. 603 00:27:25,360 --> 00:27:28,920 You need social media you. Need social media I don't want 604 00:27:28,920 --> 00:27:30,480 nobody to see. I don't want to buy even though 605 00:27:30,480 --> 00:27:33,120 I work for you girl like. No, I'm not talking about me. 606 00:27:33,120 --> 00:27:34,520 I'm recording her. Oh yeah, her. 607 00:27:34,600 --> 00:27:36,440 Only fries chicken don't need to buy out work. 608 00:27:36,440 --> 00:27:38,880 You can pay me on the table. No, for real shit. 609 00:27:39,560 --> 00:27:41,800 I'm just trying to get in where I fit in *** Like that's that's 610 00:27:41,800 --> 00:27:44,120 where I am with you. Need a consultant like when a 611 00:27:44,120 --> 00:27:46,040 *** play with you? Just do you need somebody to 612 00:27:46,080 --> 00:27:48,760 listen to you? She needs she needs your 613 00:27:48,760 --> 00:27:51,440 services. She needs you to go cuss these 614 00:27:51,440 --> 00:27:55,440 *** out for her. She needs call me, get the, get 615 00:27:55,440 --> 00:27:57,600 the, you know, really get the get back. 616 00:27:57,840 --> 00:27:59,680 Megan call me. I got and then. 617 00:27:59,680 --> 00:28:01,400 She needs you to cleanse her. Afterwards. 618 00:28:01,400 --> 00:28:03,120 Oh my God. Megan, Pete, y'all, please 619 00:28:03,120 --> 00:28:04,560 somebody get me in. Touch with Megan. 620 00:28:04,560 --> 00:28:07,840 'S team. I just need, I just need that. 621 00:28:07,840 --> 00:28:10,240 That's what I need and not gonna work that from there. 622 00:28:10,240 --> 00:28:14,640 Just get me in touch. Think about like two or three of 623 00:28:14,640 --> 00:28:16,720 them. All of what? 624 00:28:17,960 --> 00:28:19,880 And I'm thinking about for one time, I'm gonna call my daddy 625 00:28:19,880 --> 00:28:21,120 for one. I'm specifically gonna call my 626 00:28:21,120 --> 00:28:24,040 dad for the other two. I think I could go to Petco and 627 00:28:24,040 --> 00:28:27,040 handle that shit myself. Cause what the fuck you gonna do 628 00:28:27,040 --> 00:28:28,760 when it's a bunch of grasshoppers jumping around your 629 00:28:28,760 --> 00:28:30,280 Lantern? *** what you gonna do? 630 00:28:30,320 --> 00:28:34,040 I'm buying a Petco the fuck out. I'm buying all the little, what 631 00:28:34,040 --> 00:28:36,080 they call it the little. The little jumping. 632 00:28:36,080 --> 00:28:38,400 Yeah, the little grasshoppers, the crickets, whatever the fuck 633 00:28:38,400 --> 00:28:40,480 they sell and they be selling them and they be jumping around 634 00:28:40,480 --> 00:28:41,800 in the little shit. I'm gonna just tell them, you 635 00:28:41,800 --> 00:28:44,400 know what? Give me the box, unhook the 636 00:28:44,400 --> 00:28:46,640 bitch from the display and I'm gonna take the What you about to 637 00:28:46,640 --> 00:28:47,320 do with it? Mind your. 638 00:28:47,320 --> 00:28:49,280 Business. Actually, I do want them in 639 00:28:49,280 --> 00:28:51,840 individual containers. Yeah, I do want them. 640 00:28:52,000 --> 00:28:54,920 Give me 6 individual containers. That's how many I need. 641 00:28:56,120 --> 00:28:58,920 I'd rather like that because now I'm just like like. 642 00:28:59,920 --> 00:29:03,000 I'm I'm gonna open the thing and start sprinkling that shit like 643 00:29:03,000 --> 00:29:06,120 seasonal, like that's how I'm trying to get you, said Megan 644 00:29:06,120 --> 00:29:13,800 called me and beekeeper when I tell you it would be like a 645 00:29:13,800 --> 00:29:16,560 production, how petty I would get. 646 00:29:16,560 --> 00:29:19,000 I'm going in that *** house. I'm taking all the stoppers out 647 00:29:19,120 --> 00:29:20,680 the back of the toilet. That shit just running. 648 00:29:20,680 --> 00:29:22,080 You don't. Even all the batteries out the 649 00:29:22,080 --> 00:29:24,360 remote. I'm taking a Roku remote and I'm 650 00:29:24,360 --> 00:29:27,680 turning all this I'm I'm running around the perimeter of his 651 00:29:27,680 --> 00:29:30,400 house cutting all the all the. Boxes for your chargers and if 652 00:29:30,400 --> 00:29:32,920 you got them, smart plugs with the USB in it. 653 00:29:32,920 --> 00:29:34,800 I'm just taking the charger. Don't even worry about it. 654 00:29:34,800 --> 00:29:37,840 You ain't never got a charger. I'm getting a lighter and I'm 655 00:29:37,880 --> 00:29:39,720 burning a hole in the bottom of all your shoes. 656 00:29:39,720 --> 00:29:41,560 No, that's all petty. I am like. 657 00:29:41,800 --> 00:29:44,320 People I'm even think that's. All your pants people don't even 658 00:29:44,320 --> 00:29:45,720 think they. Now you got random ass. 659 00:29:45,720 --> 00:29:47,960 Bleach. I'm going to take a bit quick 660 00:29:47,960 --> 00:29:52,000 dry clay and stick it up in the fucking drain like the, what's 661 00:29:52,000 --> 00:29:53,560 it called, the faucet or all your sinks. 662 00:29:53,920 --> 00:29:56,920 Fuck you, fuck you. And I'm taking caulk and I'm 663 00:29:56,920 --> 00:29:58,440 pouring it in the toilet and flushing it. 664 00:29:58,800 --> 00:30:00,800 Yeah, fuck you. Megan, call me. 665 00:30:01,120 --> 00:30:04,640 Call me all that's alleged, but Megan, call me. 666 00:30:05,040 --> 00:30:07,480 I'm taking your favorite juice out the fridge. 667 00:30:08,120 --> 00:30:09,080 And I'm putting it in the freezer. 668 00:30:09,720 --> 00:30:11,480 I'm just inconveniencing you at that point because they go in 669 00:30:11,480 --> 00:30:12,480 for the I'm. Gonna put milk. 670 00:30:12,520 --> 00:30:13,680 And it's never going to taste the same. 671 00:30:13,680 --> 00:30:15,400 I'm putting milk in it. I'm. 672 00:30:15,400 --> 00:30:19,600 Putting ice cubes in your milk. And then I'm putting that milk 673 00:30:19,760 --> 00:30:21,640 in the deep freeze because I know you got deep freezer. 674 00:30:22,320 --> 00:30:23,800 Every famous *** got like a freezer. 675 00:30:23,800 --> 00:30:25,640 That's not the freezer. And I'm putting it in that 676 00:30:25,640 --> 00:30:27,440 freezer and now you can't find your milk and now you're going 677 00:30:27,440 --> 00:30:29,040 crazy because you could have swore you just bought milk. 678 00:30:29,240 --> 00:30:31,760 I'm bringing in your house every week and stealing one thing and 679 00:30:31,760 --> 00:30:33,800 moving it around the house. So when you go buy that thing 680 00:30:33,800 --> 00:30:36,280 again, you find it. I see. 681 00:30:36,280 --> 00:30:38,640 I like to fuck with *** psychologically because they 682 00:30:38,640 --> 00:30:40,920 don't think that far. They don't think, for instance, 683 00:30:40,920 --> 00:30:43,960 you buy lemon pepper season. I bring your house every day. 684 00:30:44,840 --> 00:30:47,560 Every time you buy lemon pepper seasoning, I'm stealing lemon 685 00:30:47,560 --> 00:30:50,440 pepper seasoning. You know for sure that you buy 686 00:30:50,600 --> 00:30:52,200 so much. So to the point where you got 687 00:30:52,200 --> 00:30:54,960 the receipt on your phone, you said I've just bought the lemon 688 00:30:54,960 --> 00:30:57,200 pepper seasoning yesterday. Where the fuck? 689 00:30:57,440 --> 00:30:59,560 Lemon pepper or your room with all your friends. 690 00:30:59,720 --> 00:31:03,880 I have a satchel full of lemon pepper seasoning that I have 691 00:31:03,880 --> 00:31:06,840 stolen from your home. Megan, call me. 692 00:31:07,920 --> 00:31:10,160 I got some dude that Popeye's grease from the one you own 693 00:31:10,160 --> 00:31:13,880 girl, call me, call me his pool ain't never going to be the 694 00:31:13,880 --> 00:31:15,720 same. Come that shit was smell like 695 00:31:15,720 --> 00:31:21,000 motherfucking motherfucking a six piece hot forever, but ever 696 00:31:21,640 --> 00:31:24,440 every time you get to drain six I'm taking allegedly I'm taking 697 00:31:24,440 --> 00:31:26,000 over the Popeyes and put it in there. 698 00:31:26,400 --> 00:31:28,120 I'm taking the cleaner one of the cleanest. 699 00:31:28,120 --> 00:31:30,120 I'm taking the hot pepper juice. I'm putting in his Cologne. 700 00:31:31,400 --> 00:31:33,200 Never make a itch. He just itching. 701 00:31:33,480 --> 00:31:36,920 I'm putting it in a toothpaste. I know all kinds of shit. 702 00:31:36,920 --> 00:31:38,280 That is my fucking hygiene products. 703 00:31:38,280 --> 00:31:40,240 I'm putting the toothpaste in the shampoo container, putting 704 00:31:40,240 --> 00:31:42,480 the shampoo, putting the shampoo in the toothpaste container. 705 00:31:42,720 --> 00:31:44,680 I'm taking the in the shampoo. Fuck that. 706 00:31:44,840 --> 00:31:46,680 See, See, you want him to go ball? 707 00:31:46,760 --> 00:31:50,040 I want to fuck with his psyche. I'm playing blue dye in the shit 708 00:31:50,040 --> 00:31:51,400 now. It's dripping down your face and 709 00:31:51,400 --> 00:31:52,880 you all fucked up. You said. 710 00:31:52,880 --> 00:31:55,360 I'm saying fuck you going ball. You know how long we'll take to 711 00:31:55,360 --> 00:31:58,760 get this shit out. You have a game tomorrow, see 712 00:31:58,760 --> 00:32:01,400 Ball for instance, let's use the bitch ass *** Clay with the 713 00:32:01,400 --> 00:32:03,480 funky face. Little squirt word shaped face 714 00:32:03,480 --> 00:32:06,640 *** bitch right. Let's use him for example. 715 00:32:07,320 --> 00:32:10,840 He go bowl, you feel me and start playing basketball. 716 00:32:10,840 --> 00:32:12,560 They will be like we like the new ball of clay. 717 00:32:13,040 --> 00:32:16,680 Clay has to call out if there's green dot dripping from his 718 00:32:16,680 --> 00:32:19,720 fucking head and now his ears all fucking green and then it's 719 00:32:19,720 --> 00:32:22,040 down there in his beard and it's dripping and it's a little 720 00:32:22,040 --> 00:32:24,840 phallic shape 'cause I really I thought about the the 721 00:32:24,840 --> 00:32:28,680 circumference on his head in the way that the the viscosity See 722 00:32:28,800 --> 00:32:31,640 that's also a big word for your Elmo's how that would affect his 723 00:32:31,640 --> 00:32:33,920 beard. Y'all not petty like me. 724 00:32:34,400 --> 00:32:37,080 Y'all are and not. So you'll have to leave well 725 00:32:37,080 --> 00:32:38,240 enough. Enough alone. 726 00:32:38,440 --> 00:32:40,840 Megan, call me. See, you're not petty. 727 00:32:40,840 --> 00:32:43,360 You don't need to be. That's not on you. 728 00:32:43,520 --> 00:32:45,960 Keep being a precious baby. You just keep being the 729 00:32:45,960 --> 00:32:48,400 precious, beautiful, talented woman that you are. 730 00:32:49,080 --> 00:32:51,760 I'm going to take my skills and work them in ways that you've 731 00:32:51,760 --> 00:32:54,880 never seen. I would also like to put that 732 00:32:54,880 --> 00:32:56,680 partisan Fontaine in the freezer. 733 00:32:57,320 --> 00:32:59,400 Not him specifically, but him and Jed. 734 00:32:59,400 --> 00:33:03,120 Like shake him up as in a jar of piss, spit in it and then bury 735 00:33:03,120 --> 00:33:05,440 the jar 'cause I don't like what he did. 736 00:33:05,440 --> 00:33:06,960 You're not getting your Dicks up there, my mother. 737 00:33:06,960 --> 00:33:10,480 Fucking bad *** Hello. *** Y'all act like y'all too calm about 738 00:33:10,480 --> 00:33:15,160 that, Y'all too calm about that. Speaking of combo shit, y'all 739 00:33:15,160 --> 00:33:18,640 too mother fucking calm about what's going on in the world. 740 00:33:18,760 --> 00:33:21,040 Like let me just be real clear about something then I'm just. 741 00:33:21,160 --> 00:33:24,360 Did you send me the list? It was just the hygiene part on 742 00:33:24,400 --> 00:33:27,160 it. I I'm talking about the Dome. 743 00:33:27,160 --> 00:33:30,400 You feel like no forever. Yeah, I don't like how. 744 00:33:30,520 --> 00:33:32,480 How how calm y'all about everything? 745 00:33:32,760 --> 00:33:35,480 Going on. As somebody who really loves 746 00:33:35,560 --> 00:33:38,160 politics now, did not know that this would be my Jewish but it 747 00:33:38,160 --> 00:33:39,560 took for Donald Trump to piss me off. 748 00:33:39,560 --> 00:33:41,480 This fucking bed for me to be like, you feel me and it's 749 00:33:41,600 --> 00:33:44,440 giving you anxiety and I wish you would stop, but I can't 750 00:33:44,560 --> 00:33:48,360 because I recently found out that this man now has a $1.7 751 00:33:48,360 --> 00:33:51,240 billion slush fund. Slush funds? 752 00:33:51,240 --> 00:33:53,200 I looked at the definition this morning. 753 00:33:53,360 --> 00:33:56,960 Slush funds are illicit money that they use for things like 754 00:33:56,960 --> 00:34:00,560 lobbying, paying off people to do things for them that they 755 00:34:00,560 --> 00:34:03,760 should not be doing, and all kinds of other illicit 756 00:34:03,760 --> 00:34:05,560 behaviors. Donald Trump? 757 00:34:05,840 --> 00:34:07,760 No, not money laundering. He's not laundering because 758 00:34:07,760 --> 00:34:08,960 they're paid. They're actually paying the 759 00:34:08,960 --> 00:34:10,800 people. Yeah, no, he's going to. 760 00:34:10,800 --> 00:34:15,760 He, he took the $1.7 billion, right, because he sued the IRS 761 00:34:16,000 --> 00:34:19,000 when they realized what it would take to actually sue the IRS and 762 00:34:19,000 --> 00:34:21,159 what they would dig into. He said that's going to take too 763 00:34:21,159 --> 00:34:23,080 long. I don't want that no more. 764 00:34:23,320 --> 00:34:28,719 So the government same 1. He you know that going said, OK, 765 00:34:28,880 --> 00:34:32,520 well let's just settle. Let's give you 1.7 billion in 766 00:34:32,520 --> 00:34:33,600 the slush fund. Guess what? 767 00:34:33,600 --> 00:34:36,239 He's going to pay the January Sixers. 768 00:34:37,520 --> 00:34:40,320 Y'all to come, Y'all white people. 769 00:34:40,320 --> 00:34:42,719 Y'all know that's that's what I'm talking to you specifically. 770 00:34:42,920 --> 00:34:46,000 Y'all are to come. Y'all rights are being snatched 771 00:34:46,000 --> 00:34:50,360 away from y'all left and right. Y'all Medicare recipients food. 772 00:34:50,360 --> 00:34:52,639 Stamps fucking Elon Musk and Taco. 773 00:34:53,040 --> 00:34:57,760 That man isn't even an American. Why can't he touch shit? 774 00:34:57,800 --> 00:35:01,000 Because it's this is your problem, this is your problem, 775 00:35:01,040 --> 00:35:02,760 and this won't sound real problematic. 776 00:35:03,040 --> 00:35:08,160 It's OK, but I don't give a fuck anymore 'cause I saw a video. 777 00:35:08,560 --> 00:35:11,440 I saw a video. The man was talking about how 778 00:35:12,560 --> 00:35:18,960 basically immigrants come over here and open liquor stores and 779 00:35:19,040 --> 00:35:22,600 sell their food, you know, and stuff, and they get all these 780 00:35:22,600 --> 00:35:25,800 funds, grants and to get these things built, but they would 781 00:35:25,800 --> 00:35:28,400 never put that shit in their white communities. 782 00:35:28,400 --> 00:35:29,840 Nope. Nope. 783 00:35:32,440 --> 00:35:33,240 You have to call them. Why? 784 00:35:33,240 --> 00:35:39,000 The fuck do y'all keep letting people that's not American touch 785 00:35:39,080 --> 00:35:40,560 it? As long as they're not black, 786 00:35:40,560 --> 00:35:44,080 it's fun. And all we want to do is live 787 00:35:44,120 --> 00:35:47,840 our motherfucking lives. I learned recently one I learned 788 00:35:47,840 --> 00:35:49,400 the cost of melanin. Go look it up. 789 00:35:49,400 --> 00:35:50,880 I'm not even going to give you all that number. 790 00:35:50,880 --> 00:35:53,560 I want y'all to go look up. I know it's a lot the cost of 791 00:35:53,560 --> 00:35:54,960 melanin. When they were sitting there 792 00:35:54,960 --> 00:35:58,000 talking to them, women at the table, them two white men were 793 00:35:58,000 --> 00:36:01,160 talking about, yeah, 'cause you know, their melanin is just so 794 00:36:01,160 --> 00:36:03,000 rich. And it's delicious, he said. 795 00:36:03,000 --> 00:36:10,520 Delicious cause 'cause so do with that what you will also 796 00:36:10,520 --> 00:36:13,160 understand, which I also recently found out that what 797 00:36:13,160 --> 00:36:22,880 they do is they continue to destroy Black Joy 9 to 12 months 798 00:36:22,960 --> 00:36:26,720 after we receive it. Black Wall Street opens or not 799 00:36:26,720 --> 00:36:28,000 Black Wall Street. There was something that 800 00:36:28,000 --> 00:36:29,600 happened, like the Million Man March. 801 00:36:29,600 --> 00:36:33,120 Because if you do it for a year, it's like an established thing 802 00:36:33,120 --> 00:36:34,800 or something, right? Something like that. 803 00:36:34,800 --> 00:36:37,000 I'm not sure what the full terminology was behind it. 804 00:36:37,000 --> 00:36:38,440 This. These were the timelines based 805 00:36:38,440 --> 00:36:40,720 on a little bit of research that I was able to do. 806 00:36:41,640 --> 00:36:43,840 This is what I was finding out that for instance, like I think 807 00:36:43,840 --> 00:36:46,320 it was like the Million Man March or whatever the the 808 00:36:46,320 --> 00:36:48,160 specific event was turned around. 809 00:36:48,160 --> 00:36:49,720 There's the assassination of Martin Luther King. 810 00:36:50,440 --> 00:36:53,080 And So what they do is they give us the opportunity to Congress 811 00:36:53,280 --> 00:36:55,080 and to do things, and then they study it. 812 00:36:55,400 --> 00:36:57,480 And then after they study it and they get all the information 813 00:36:57,480 --> 00:37:00,680 that it is OK, Now we have to shut this down and so. 814 00:37:00,680 --> 00:37:02,800 Because it's like they're getting way too ahead. 815 00:37:03,400 --> 00:37:05,480 So when I'm. Discussing for their. 816 00:37:05,680 --> 00:37:10,040 Bridges, So when I'm saying liberation, I'm not telling you 817 00:37:10,040 --> 00:37:12,800 to go open an LLC, I'm not telling you to do that. 818 00:37:13,800 --> 00:37:16,160 I'm telling you to go home that skill. 819 00:37:16,560 --> 00:37:19,240 I'm telling you to go monetize it one or two times. 820 00:37:19,240 --> 00:37:23,160 I'm telling you this because your follow through has to be 821 00:37:23,160 --> 00:37:26,280 there because they're taking advantage of all of us in our 822 00:37:26,280 --> 00:37:29,800 face. And the more complicit you 823 00:37:29,800 --> 00:37:34,200 become by doing nothing, the worst off it's going to be I. 824 00:37:34,280 --> 00:37:36,760 And I do not consent. I do not consent have. 825 00:37:36,760 --> 00:37:37,880 You seen that video? No. 826 00:37:38,080 --> 00:37:42,600 The girl was talking about how she's just like, because we 827 00:37:42,640 --> 00:37:49,480 aren't, because we aren't like, not in a sense verbally saying 828 00:37:49,640 --> 00:37:52,880 yeah, that we don't consent. Yeah, it's like they'll 829 00:37:52,880 --> 00:37:54,800 continuously feed us whatever they. 830 00:37:55,080 --> 00:37:57,360 So it's. Like sometimes you really got to 831 00:37:57,360 --> 00:37:59,080 say that shit. I I do not consent. 832 00:37:59,080 --> 00:38:01,200 To this I do not consent. To that, she took it on a 833 00:38:01,200 --> 00:38:03,160 spiritual level. But I'm just like, no, like that 834 00:38:03,400 --> 00:38:06,800 sometimes it's really like, because you, when I go on 835 00:38:06,800 --> 00:38:08,880 websites now, I'd be denying all the cookies. 836 00:38:09,520 --> 00:38:12,440 I'd be like, 'cause why? I'm in iti know what the fuck 837 00:38:12,440 --> 00:38:14,600 that means. Y'all taking my data and sharing 838 00:38:14,600 --> 00:38:15,960 it. You're selling it. 839 00:38:16,040 --> 00:38:17,800 You're selling it. And then I really don't be 840 00:38:17,800 --> 00:38:20,120 thinking about it cause of course it's a website that I 841 00:38:20,120 --> 00:38:22,080 have to put my e-mail, my name and all this. 842 00:38:22,080 --> 00:38:27,320 Other shit, yeah, yeah, it's a it's a scheme set up by time for 843 00:38:27,320 --> 00:38:29,880 the bullshit, for sure. To the bullshit. 844 00:38:30,000 --> 00:38:35,120 However, comma what I need for y'all to understand is that the 845 00:38:35,120 --> 00:38:38,000 reason why things are the way that they are is because y'all 846 00:38:38,000 --> 00:38:40,320 keep doing stupid ass shit. And the reason why I say y'all 847 00:38:40,320 --> 00:38:43,360 is because me and my folks like the people around me. 848 00:38:43,360 --> 00:38:44,960 We. We chilling for for. 849 00:38:45,440 --> 00:38:49,920 And so this idea that y'all have to have behind why you hate 850 00:38:49,920 --> 00:38:53,040 people, that level of imposter syndrome, you ain't dealt with 851 00:38:53,520 --> 00:38:57,000 the the whole feeling of somebody being more favored 852 00:38:57,000 --> 00:38:58,440 than. You you need to check that. 853 00:38:58,440 --> 00:39:01,040 You need to check that shit. Because it's not getting you 854 00:39:01,040 --> 00:39:02,280 anywhere. It's not going to get you 855 00:39:02,280 --> 00:39:05,520 anywhere anytime soon or ever in your fucking life. 856 00:39:05,520 --> 00:39:07,920 You're going to be on your motherfuking deathbed. 857 00:39:07,920 --> 00:39:10,480 Like damn, I really hated some bitches till the day that I 858 00:39:10,480 --> 00:39:12,520 died. It's not doing shit for you. 859 00:39:12,680 --> 00:39:15,240 No matter how many LLC's you apply for, no matter how much 860 00:39:15,240 --> 00:39:18,040 money you ever make, no matter how big your net worth or your 861 00:39:18,040 --> 00:39:21,640 network gets, if you're a miserable ass person internally, 862 00:39:22,240 --> 00:39:25,480 nothing, nothing can combat that. 863 00:39:25,560 --> 00:39:28,240 There's not a dollar out here because one day you going to 864 00:39:28,240 --> 00:39:30,720 come across the right motherfucker at the right 865 00:39:30,720 --> 00:39:34,240 motherfucking time and they go and handle you in the most wrong 866 00:39:34,240 --> 00:39:37,480 of ways. And so I need for y'all to 867 00:39:37,480 --> 00:39:42,120 understand that people are not going to keep to your point 868 00:39:42,120 --> 00:39:46,560 consenting to being played with and to being talked to any kind 869 00:39:46,560 --> 00:39:49,960 of way or having their hobbies and their thoughts and these 870 00:39:49,960 --> 00:39:53,320 things shitted on constantly or being taken advantage of in any 871 00:39:53,320 --> 00:39:55,520 type of motherfuking way. You being because. 872 00:39:55,560 --> 00:39:57,960 That person is also working on themselves. 873 00:39:59,160 --> 00:40:01,560 So what's happening here? You being dipped enough by 874 00:40:01,560 --> 00:40:03,960 society you won't turn around and do that shit to somebody 875 00:40:03,960 --> 00:40:06,160 else. 'Cause really just trying to 876 00:40:06,160 --> 00:40:08,360 live their lives. I'm lots of shit going on too. 877 00:40:08,360 --> 00:40:09,960 You don't see me treat people like shit. 878 00:40:10,280 --> 00:40:13,480 No, for real, if anything I go out my way to make sure that 879 00:40:13,480 --> 00:40:15,880 people are really good 'cause I don't have to say shit. 880 00:40:15,960 --> 00:40:17,520 And this is not about people pleasing. 881 00:40:17,520 --> 00:40:20,760 This is not the end of the day. If I want to be respected, I 882 00:40:20,760 --> 00:40:24,240 have to give respect and treat. People the way that you want to 883 00:40:24,240 --> 00:40:25,880 be mother. And it goes so much. 884 00:40:25,880 --> 00:40:30,360 That's one of the first things that we learned is a like person 885 00:40:30,760 --> 00:40:32,880 growing up. Treat people the way that you 886 00:40:32,880 --> 00:40:34,560 want to be treated. I understand that you've 887 00:40:34,560 --> 00:40:37,880 probably, we treated people that way and they fucked you over and 888 00:40:37,880 --> 00:40:39,560 all that other shit, but that's not me, bitch. 889 00:40:39,560 --> 00:40:40,800 Talk about it. That's not. 890 00:40:40,800 --> 00:40:42,800 Me. Nor is that everybody, and I'm 891 00:40:42,840 --> 00:40:44,560 not that. About you keep putting that on 892 00:40:44,560 --> 00:40:46,960 everybody else because that's literally. 893 00:40:47,280 --> 00:40:50,520 Opportunity that's gonna fuck. Up the relationships that I can 894 00:40:50,520 --> 00:40:52,520 build and that can make me better. 895 00:40:52,520 --> 00:40:54,840 Yep. Just because we not call Jaden 896 00:40:54,840 --> 00:40:58,200 an evolving for nothing reason. What the fuck is going on? 897 00:40:58,200 --> 00:41:01,720 Yeah, but we also understand that where we want to fucking 898 00:41:01,720 --> 00:41:03,200 be. It's not here. 899 00:41:03,480 --> 00:41:05,160 It's not fucking here. And don't stand. 900 00:41:05,160 --> 00:41:10,320 It's gonna take some time, so when them triggers come up, I 901 00:41:10,320 --> 00:41:12,840 can either do this. Yep, actually it's three 902 00:41:12,840 --> 00:41:18,280 choices. Ignore, react and give grace. 903 00:41:18,280 --> 00:41:20,800 That's it. And be And because I've been 904 00:41:20,800 --> 00:41:24,480 ignorant before, I'm going to keep giving motherfuckers grace. 905 00:41:24,480 --> 00:41:27,480 And that's it. And that's it. 906 00:41:27,480 --> 00:41:31,640 Even when I feel like you should know better because you're older 907 00:41:31,640 --> 00:41:34,440 than me and I'm looking up to you Maybe. 908 00:41:34,800 --> 00:41:37,240 Maybe. Yep, come on with the word. 909 00:41:37,240 --> 00:41:38,360 Maybe. Come on with the. 910 00:41:38,360 --> 00:41:41,200 Word and I'm looking up to you to see oh hey what's up? 911 00:41:41,200 --> 00:41:46,640 Like how you look and you trying shit on me Girl, I got my big 912 00:41:46,640 --> 00:41:48,440 girl panties on. Stop playing with me. 913 00:41:48,440 --> 00:41:50,680 I know what the fuck I'm doing. I'm just trying to make 914 00:41:50,680 --> 00:41:52,760 conversation 'cause I'm not trying to be a Dick head. 915 00:41:53,680 --> 00:41:55,560 Because I can be a Dickie like I think I. 916 00:41:55,560 --> 00:41:57,880 Think because I was about to. I think that because again, the 917 00:41:57,880 --> 00:42:00,360 energy. I think that people take for 918 00:42:00,360 --> 00:42:07,120 granted how people who are healing are actually feeling. 919 00:42:07,360 --> 00:42:09,800 Because what I need for y'all to understand is that the keyword 920 00:42:09,800 --> 00:42:12,920 in that is that I'm healing, not that I'm healing. 921 00:42:13,000 --> 00:42:16,320 It's the fact that one, I'm moving towards something. 922 00:42:16,320 --> 00:42:18,400 But let's not forget where I'm coming from. 923 00:42:18,720 --> 00:42:23,320 I grew up in West Baltimore. My Mama is crazy as fuck. 924 00:42:23,560 --> 00:42:26,360 I think my daddy might be a tad bit crazier. 925 00:42:26,920 --> 00:42:29,880 I come from some shit. Everybody, everybody got a 926 00:42:29,880 --> 00:42:31,720 story. Everybody got a story. 927 00:42:32,000 --> 00:42:35,240 My story is, is a big ghetto fabulous, honey, it's a big 928 00:42:35,240 --> 00:42:37,840 ghetto fabulous. So when, when I tell y'all I 929 00:42:37,840 --> 00:42:41,400 will beat you to fuck up, I'm not telling you that because 930 00:42:41,400 --> 00:42:42,920 I've never beaten somebody to fuck up. 931 00:42:43,040 --> 00:42:46,520 I fought men. I don't play because I'm not 932 00:42:46,520 --> 00:42:48,840 going to let nobody play with me because people have played with 933 00:42:48,840 --> 00:42:51,280 me before. So while I'm granting you grace, 934 00:42:51,440 --> 00:42:54,520 don't get fucked up. Don't, don't play with me. 935 00:42:54,600 --> 00:42:57,040 Me granting you grace does not give you the opportunity to play 936 00:42:57,040 --> 00:42:58,880 with me. It gives you the opportunity to 937 00:42:59,000 --> 00:43:02,240 to get to know me. It gives you the opportunity to 938 00:43:02,320 --> 00:43:04,200 to have an opportunity to be around me. 939 00:43:04,480 --> 00:43:06,960 And it also gives you the opportunity to be a part of of 940 00:43:06,960 --> 00:43:09,280 where I'm going. But the minute that you play 941 00:43:09,280 --> 00:43:11,720 with me, that shit stops right then and there. 942 00:43:12,080 --> 00:43:13,800 I'm doing and I'm doing my best, right? 943 00:43:13,800 --> 00:43:16,200 Because I'm still growing. I'm still evolving in that 944 00:43:16,200 --> 00:43:19,320 aspect because often times people will play with me and I 945 00:43:19,320 --> 00:43:21,600 still grant a certain level of grace where maybe I'm not 946 00:43:21,600 --> 00:43:24,520 carrying them the entire time, but I still think about them 947 00:43:24,520 --> 00:43:28,320 when I get to that next space. It's not even that people can't 948 00:43:28,320 --> 00:43:30,680 come with you, it's that even when you get to certain places, 949 00:43:30,680 --> 00:43:32,080 you don't go back and grab. Certain. 950 00:43:32,080 --> 00:43:33,680 I was about to say. You remember? 951 00:43:33,680 --> 00:43:34,960 Yeah. You remember that shit. 952 00:43:34,960 --> 00:43:38,240 You have to. Sometimes they say forgive and 953 00:43:38,240 --> 00:43:39,440 forget. No, I have to. 954 00:43:39,680 --> 00:43:43,040 I have. I can forgive you, but I do have 955 00:43:43,040 --> 00:43:44,840 to remember because you play with me. 956 00:43:44,840 --> 00:43:46,320 Yeah, well, I got to forget you all together. 957 00:43:46,360 --> 00:43:48,760 Remember, and I have to remember how that felt. 958 00:43:49,240 --> 00:43:52,040 It's a pattern recognition thing, you know, sometimes you. 959 00:43:52,400 --> 00:43:56,240 And when you got ADHD, so to do a lot longer to, to discover 960 00:43:56,240 --> 00:43:59,080 those patterns because oftentimes your mind is a out of 961 00:43:59,080 --> 00:44:00,400 sight, out of mind type of brain. 962 00:44:00,720 --> 00:44:03,360 Or you have one of those things where you become so compulsive 963 00:44:03,400 --> 00:44:05,400 it it becomes a compulsive thought to the point where it 964 00:44:05,400 --> 00:44:08,280 starts to control you and then you obsess and that's all it 965 00:44:08,280 --> 00:44:10,560 ever is. And so you could be on either 966 00:44:10,560 --> 00:44:12,560 part of that spectrum at some point. 967 00:44:12,560 --> 00:44:15,080 You either say enough is enough, I'm not doing this anymore. 968 00:44:15,240 --> 00:44:17,600 That's it. It's either I'm not going to do 969 00:44:17,600 --> 00:44:20,000 it and allow it or I'm not going to obsess over it anymore. 970 00:44:20,000 --> 00:44:22,080 I'm going to grow from it. But either fucking way, growth 971 00:44:22,080 --> 00:44:24,160 is going to happen. Y'all *** are not taking the 972 00:44:24,160 --> 00:44:26,480 opportunity to really grow. You're not taking the 973 00:44:26,480 --> 00:44:28,320 opportunity. And it's not even like y'all are 974 00:44:28,320 --> 00:44:31,000 trying to rush the process. For some of us, we are trying to 975 00:44:31,000 --> 00:44:32,480 rush it. But rushing, it sounds like this 976 00:44:32,480 --> 00:44:34,800 conversation here, I'm not having these conversations with 977 00:44:34,800 --> 00:44:36,800 certain people because they're not rushing shit. 978 00:44:37,320 --> 00:44:40,720 They actually not doing much. And that's the fucking problem. 979 00:44:41,400 --> 00:44:44,600 But when that is said to to to people, some people take that a 980 00:44:44,600 --> 00:44:45,600 certain type of way. Guess what? 981 00:44:45,600 --> 00:44:48,680 That's not my fucking problem. Either get on or get left. 982 00:44:48,680 --> 00:44:50,240 And I'm not even a motherfucker leaving you. 983 00:44:50,240 --> 00:44:53,640 You gonna leave you behind and you won't wonder why you don't 984 00:44:53,640 --> 00:44:55,160 have no fucking body. The reason why you don't have no 985 00:44:55,160 --> 00:44:57,440 more fucking friends is because *** is tired of your shit. 986 00:44:58,240 --> 00:45:00,440 The reason why you can't never find a good fucking partner is 987 00:45:00,440 --> 00:45:01,840 because *** is tired of your shit. 988 00:45:02,040 --> 00:45:03,880 Every time you turn around, the only thing that's. 989 00:45:03,880 --> 00:45:05,880 Changed this department. *** is she you? 990 00:45:06,520 --> 00:45:08,480 Every time you turn around, the only thing that's changed is the 991 00:45:08,480 --> 00:45:10,200 job. But the way that you feel about 992 00:45:10,200 --> 00:45:12,400 these jobs, the way that you feel about your friends, what 993 00:45:12,400 --> 00:45:14,240 you feel about your partners, my actual favorite, the way that 994 00:45:14,240 --> 00:45:16,800 you feel about yourself is because there is a consistent 995 00:45:16,800 --> 00:45:19,920 behavior happening. And I'm not a fucking therapist. 996 00:45:19,960 --> 00:45:21,840 What I am is a self aware ass bitch. 997 00:45:23,120 --> 00:45:25,840 So if you don't have that level of self-awareness the same way 998 00:45:25,840 --> 00:45:27,760 you learn to suck Dick in the same way you learn to eat 999 00:45:27,760 --> 00:45:31,400 coochie, go learn that skill. That shit is dumb as fuck to me. 1000 00:45:31,400 --> 00:45:32,880 Like y'all be saying shit and then. 1001 00:45:32,880 --> 00:45:35,680 You think the people, but then what are you doing with 1002 00:45:35,680 --> 00:45:37,600 yourself? Because like you say, it's going 1003 00:45:37,600 --> 00:45:39,240 to be another partner. And then you want. 1004 00:45:39,240 --> 00:45:42,600 You're upset about OK, cool, I'm not going to hang with them 1005 00:45:42,600 --> 00:45:44,800 people, but you still that same and then you want not have that 1006 00:45:44,800 --> 00:45:47,200 one you want. Me as your friend or as your 1007 00:45:47,200 --> 00:45:50,760 your cousin, whomever to be OK whatever role to excuse that or 1008 00:45:50,760 --> 00:45:53,040 enable that behavior because you're comfortable with it. 1009 00:45:53,200 --> 00:45:55,680 I don't even like being around you bitch because of it. 1010 00:45:55,800 --> 00:45:59,200 I'm not comforting. I can I love when I can kick it 1011 00:45:59,200 --> 00:46:01,320 with a motherfucker, but I hate it when I can when I kick it 1012 00:46:01,320 --> 00:46:03,520 with a motherfucker. And then the very reason why a 1013 00:46:03,520 --> 00:46:07,720 person irritate the fuck on me. I then who mind you, it's like 1014 00:46:07,720 --> 00:46:10,400 you go to the bar and you kicking it with like 4-5 homies 1015 00:46:10,400 --> 00:46:12,480 and it's like something about this bitch I don't like. 1016 00:46:12,480 --> 00:46:14,800 And then she start getting drunk and you realize why you don't 1017 00:46:14,800 --> 00:46:17,120 like that bitch that is that it's bad. 1018 00:46:17,720 --> 00:46:20,120 But imagine that in life when you got a hunger that's like 1019 00:46:20,200 --> 00:46:22,160 girl won't constantly lose weight, but every time you turn 1020 00:46:22,160 --> 00:46:25,120 around, she going back to the doctor and her sugar levels 1021 00:46:25,120 --> 00:46:27,440 getting high and high and like what the fuck is you doing, 1022 00:46:27,960 --> 00:46:29,040 Gary? Don't be worried about what the 1023 00:46:29,040 --> 00:46:30,400 fuck I'm doing. And then you go to our house to 1024 00:46:30,400 --> 00:46:33,360 eat one night and the bitch in there tapping on a pack of honey 1025 00:46:33,360 --> 00:46:35,920 buns and you like, what's going on, bitch, I sweater. 1026 00:46:35,920 --> 00:46:38,480 And because I got to my fucking munchies, all right, Well, girl, 1027 00:46:38,480 --> 00:46:40,120 I bought some Chipotle. Girl, I want that shit. 1028 00:46:40,120 --> 00:46:41,840 I want something sweet. That's the problem. 1029 00:46:41,960 --> 00:46:43,560 You becoming something sweet. Stop. 1030 00:46:44,120 --> 00:46:46,160 Stop. You need real motherfucking. 1031 00:46:46,240 --> 00:46:49,560 Food, bitch, You got 14 baby fathers and you wonder why you 1032 00:46:49,560 --> 00:46:53,000 can't stay with all 14 of them? *** look at all your baby 1033 00:46:53,000 --> 00:46:53,760 fathers. Line them up. 1034 00:46:53,800 --> 00:46:56,360 Line all 14 of them up, and the common denominator? 1035 00:46:56,360 --> 00:46:57,800 I promise you it ain't in the way they look. 1036 00:46:58,720 --> 00:47:00,360 I promise you it ain't in the way they look. 1037 00:47:01,000 --> 00:47:03,320 They might have some similar features physically, but 1038 00:47:03,440 --> 00:47:06,320 emotionally, mentally, internally, it's some shit with 1039 00:47:06,320 --> 00:47:08,720 them. Go line up all your baby mothers 1040 00:47:08,960 --> 00:47:10,280 and see why them bitches don't like you. 1041 00:47:12,440 --> 00:47:15,200 See why you don't like them? See why you can't never see your 1042 00:47:15,200 --> 00:47:19,160 kids? What about that one people? 1043 00:47:19,360 --> 00:47:21,280 Don't be wanting to change. Sign up for college and 1044 00:47:21,280 --> 00:47:22,800 recognize why your ass won't graduate. 1045 00:47:23,880 --> 00:47:26,640 Why you keep dropping the fuck out, huh? 1046 00:47:27,680 --> 00:47:30,200 Alright see that's the thing. Like y'all, it's like it's not 1047 00:47:30,200 --> 00:47:32,840 even about accountability at any point is y'all don't like when 1048 00:47:32,840 --> 00:47:36,040 people talk to you and and call you out on your shortcomings. 1049 00:47:36,160 --> 00:47:38,640 When I try to say and I should be like girl you. 1050 00:47:38,640 --> 00:47:40,120 Say I'm like. Figure it out. 1051 00:47:40,240 --> 00:47:43,480 Like when I talk to you nice about it, you're just like, Oh 1052 00:47:43,480 --> 00:47:45,880 well, yeah, I'm OK, I'm going to get back to it. 1053 00:47:46,240 --> 00:47:49,520 But when I start dogging you the fuck out, that's when you want 1054 00:47:49,520 --> 00:47:51,080 to be upset. Bitch, we don't talk. 1055 00:47:51,080 --> 00:47:54,800 About that on your neck, like you hate that, but how how I'm 1056 00:47:54,800 --> 00:47:57,000 supposed to be your down bitch, your best bitch, your best 1057 00:47:57,000 --> 00:47:59,040 friend, and I'm like, you can't be on your neck. 1058 00:47:59,040 --> 00:48:01,080 Like what if my best friend was not on my neck? 1059 00:48:01,080 --> 00:48:02,000 I would think something was wrong. 1060 00:48:02,400 --> 00:48:03,480 I would think the bitch hated me. 1061 00:48:03,560 --> 00:48:05,480 I would think, you know what? I've done something to her and 1062 00:48:05,480 --> 00:48:07,200 she's at the point where she's keeping it corporate. 1063 00:48:07,840 --> 00:48:09,560 I fucked up. That's what that's how I would 1064 00:48:09,560 --> 00:48:11,640 look at it. I fucked up somebody somehow 1065 00:48:12,080 --> 00:48:16,040 because our dynamic has changed. My friend don't do that to me. 1066 00:48:16,040 --> 00:48:17,640 I don't do that to my. It's just like yesterday because 1067 00:48:17,640 --> 00:48:21,000 I was just like *** Shane text me back about recording. *** is 1068 00:48:21,000 --> 00:48:21,920 we recording today? Go. 1069 00:48:23,720 --> 00:48:28,160 I'm just like when I love you. My evening to I'm I'm like I'm 1070 00:48:28,160 --> 00:48:30,760 getting my shit together. I was even like thinking about 1071 00:48:30,760 --> 00:48:32,880 like ideas or whatever. You feel me get ready, make the 1072 00:48:32,880 --> 00:48:33,920 note my motherfucking phone ring. 1073 00:48:33,920 --> 00:48:40,440 My whole day went and it and the crazy part about it is it was 1074 00:48:40,440 --> 00:48:46,440 done correctly and it still went Hey, how you doing Good? 1075 00:48:46,440 --> 00:48:48,560 How you doing good? Remember I said I was going to 1076 00:48:48,560 --> 00:48:51,640 update you on Yes, You, you, you good. 1077 00:48:51,720 --> 00:48:53,040 You, you alright? Yeah, I'm cool. 1078 00:48:53,120 --> 00:48:54,880 I'm I'm cool. Enough for that to me, if I'm 1079 00:48:54,880 --> 00:48:56,080 OK. You find me. 1080 00:48:56,080 --> 00:48:57,800 I'm cool enough for that. What's going on? 1081 00:48:58,000 --> 00:49:03,160 Oh girl, immediately then my Mama had the nerve to call me 1082 00:49:03,160 --> 00:49:04,760 right as they don't. Like hers, they can't leave the. 1083 00:49:05,040 --> 00:49:10,480 How you doing? Everything Fucking damn. 1084 00:49:10,560 --> 00:49:15,240 And my mother like Christian, I'm like my I'm fucking I'm 1085 00:49:15,240 --> 00:49:18,440 literally talking about my phone like my I'm fucking die. 1086 00:49:18,600 --> 00:49:21,520 I'm just like, I feel like I'm dying Every day I wake up I'm 1087 00:49:21,520 --> 00:49:24,040 gonna say this and I'm getting on my soapbox about just like or 1088 00:49:24,280 --> 00:49:25,520 getting out of this health update. 1089 00:49:26,040 --> 00:49:29,720 I like to keep you all informed, 'cause I feel like, remember 1090 00:49:29,720 --> 00:49:31,160 when I told you my hormones was trying to kill me? 1091 00:49:31,160 --> 00:49:33,000 My hormones are actually low key trying to kill me. 1092 00:49:33,000 --> 00:49:35,120 Like I know I'd be joking about that shit, but it's really 1093 00:49:35,120 --> 00:49:38,360 becoming a problem and I'm glad that I peaked it right. 1094 00:49:38,360 --> 00:49:42,560 So this whole PCOSPMOS thing, I am one of them people that's now 1095 00:49:42,560 --> 00:49:47,600 in that PMOS like situation where I'm waiting for a 1096 00:49:47,600 --> 00:49:51,160 diagnosis, but hormone levels are very weird. 1097 00:49:51,160 --> 00:49:53,360 I might have to, you know, take something to kind of even my 1098 00:49:53,360 --> 00:49:56,120 hormones out, which in turn is affecting my weight and all 1099 00:49:56,120 --> 00:49:59,240 these other things. In turn that is giving me, it's 1100 00:49:59,240 --> 00:50:03,240 providing me with depression. I am not the type of person who 1101 00:50:03,240 --> 00:50:06,240 likes to claim those things, but based on like the GE DS and the 1102 00:50:06,240 --> 00:50:09,400 PPHQ nines or whatever those are based on those testing and how 1103 00:50:09,400 --> 00:50:12,200 I'm scoring, I am depressed. I have severe anxiety. 1104 00:50:12,480 --> 00:50:13,800 Eventually we have to accept those things. 1105 00:50:13,800 --> 00:50:15,520 You just got to be like, you know what it is what it is. 1106 00:50:15,720 --> 00:50:17,560 That also explained the excessive drinking. 1107 00:50:17,560 --> 00:50:21,440 It explained a lot when it finally all came in to, you 1108 00:50:21,440 --> 00:50:23,440 know, This is why you can't lie to your providers. 1109 00:50:23,440 --> 00:50:25,720 This is why you got to talk to. People for real tell them the 1110 00:50:25,800 --> 00:50:26,400 truth. Yeah. 1111 00:50:26,400 --> 00:50:30,200 So Fast forward I get to a point where I'm now again waiting for 1112 00:50:30,200 --> 00:50:32,240 a diagnosis. But this is what I mean when I'm 1113 00:50:32,240 --> 00:50:35,080 just like bitches like we we be going through shit and be like 1114 00:50:35,080 --> 00:50:37,200 shit is is heavy and hard enough. 1115 00:50:37,800 --> 00:50:41,200 I don't have the opportunity to just be like, OK, you feel me 1116 00:50:41,200 --> 00:50:43,520 like let me just go on with my day. 1117 00:50:43,520 --> 00:50:46,160 Like my body is not even yo I wake up in the morning and I 1118 00:50:46,160 --> 00:50:48,960 have to shuffle to the bathroom like I have no energy. 1119 00:50:48,960 --> 00:50:53,240 I am dead in the morning, dead to the world and haven't done 1120 00:50:53,240 --> 00:50:56,240 shit for the day. I can't work out in the way that 1121 00:50:56,240 --> 00:50:58,160 I want to work out because I wake up in the morning. 1122 00:50:58,160 --> 00:51:00,480 They feel like I've been hit by a truck, like my nervous system. 1123 00:51:00,760 --> 00:51:05,160 I wake up in the form of like, existential dread sweeps over my 1124 00:51:05,160 --> 00:51:08,800 body. And so immediately I said that 1125 00:51:08,800 --> 00:51:12,880 to my providers. Oh yeah, girl, that's a clear 1126 00:51:12,880 --> 00:51:15,200 sign that something is the fuck off. 1127 00:51:15,720 --> 00:51:17,760 What are you on again? We go through that. 1128 00:51:17,840 --> 00:51:19,760 That ain't enough. We got to get you on something 1129 00:51:19,760 --> 00:51:21,800 else. So now your girl, I think I said 1130 00:51:21,800 --> 00:51:24,280 this on last episode. I need some form of like AGLP 1131 00:51:24,280 --> 00:51:27,880 one or whatever the case may be because that hormone is off. 1132 00:51:29,840 --> 00:51:34,720 I need probably some form of hormone therapy or whatever the 1133 00:51:34,720 --> 00:51:36,880 fuck that is. I don't fuck they want maybe 1134 00:51:36,880 --> 00:51:38,920 take some progesterone a show. I hope it gave me some titties 1135 00:51:38,920 --> 00:51:40,960 or something, because I I got like a little bit of titties. 1136 00:51:41,080 --> 00:51:43,000 She having boobies. Yeah, well, like, you know, I 1137 00:51:43,000 --> 00:51:46,480 hope it like fat, like fat out my ass like God, like I take the 1138 00:51:46,480 --> 00:51:47,720 GOP want to get the hormones and shit. 1139 00:51:48,000 --> 00:51:50,080 You're not bitches be like that shit ain't fair and I'm like 1140 00:51:50,080 --> 00:51:52,280 bitch, I don't care. I got issues. 1141 00:51:52,720 --> 00:51:54,600 I'm a dead. Ass look at you and be like you 1142 00:51:54,600 --> 00:51:58,800 already had. I want a tight stomach and you 1143 00:51:58,800 --> 00:52:01,080 had a kid. I want a cabin on my back. 1144 00:52:01,080 --> 00:52:02,520 Suck a wagon. I want a cabin. 1145 00:52:02,520 --> 00:52:05,440 I want a wheelbarrow on it back. I'm like, can they take some of 1146 00:52:05,440 --> 00:52:07,280 that off you and put it on my head? 1147 00:52:07,640 --> 00:52:09,120 OK. I feel like that's what's coming 1148 00:52:09,120 --> 00:52:09,960 in though. I feel it. 1149 00:52:10,200 --> 00:52:11,240 I feel it. I feel like. 1150 00:52:11,520 --> 00:52:14,080 Could you get you? Get you can't think you want you 1151 00:52:14,080 --> 00:52:17,120 from you getting that 30s. I saw women. 1152 00:52:17,680 --> 00:52:21,160 Somebody was just like, what did y'all think looking like in your 1153 00:52:21,160 --> 00:52:23,960 30s? And women were like 3233. 1154 00:52:23,960 --> 00:52:26,520 I was like, OK, I got two more. Yeah, you got time, You got 1155 00:52:26,640 --> 00:52:28,000 time. And I'm doing right, I'm doing 1156 00:52:28,800 --> 00:52:31,720 right. You got coin, You got coin, but. 1157 00:52:31,720 --> 00:52:34,320 Having the big ass on your bank, I'm be looking at you like 1158 00:52:34,400 --> 00:52:39,240 bitch. Yeah, yeah, but right now my 1159 00:52:39,240 --> 00:52:42,240 wagon is like one of the wagons you buy at the store after it's 1160 00:52:42,240 --> 00:52:45,000 been used. Like that's what my shit look 1161 00:52:45,000 --> 00:52:46,800 like right now. I wouldn't want a big fucking 1162 00:52:46,800 --> 00:52:48,680 wagon that you buy that shit real big. 1163 00:52:48,680 --> 00:52:50,160 You feel like 3 kids and that bitch. 1164 00:52:50,800 --> 00:52:53,200 That's what I want with my back. I don't care about what y'all 1165 00:52:53,200 --> 00:52:54,880 want for me, that's what I want for me. 1166 00:52:55,600 --> 00:52:57,240 Fuck. And I want a low ass tummy. 1167 00:52:57,600 --> 00:52:59,840 Like I still want a low pudge because like I want to stay 1168 00:52:59,840 --> 00:53:05,280 thick and I want a nice chunky strong arm with a nasty ass on 1169 00:53:05,280 --> 00:53:07,840 my back to the point where like that's just so nasty. 1170 00:53:07,840 --> 00:53:09,800 You could see from inside the truck, you know, how do you got 1171 00:53:09,800 --> 00:53:12,800 the 18 Wheelers and then the 18 Wheeler could see into the car. 1172 00:53:12,800 --> 00:53:14,520 I want that motherfucker to be looking like that. 1173 00:53:14,520 --> 00:53:16,680 I'm gonna speed up my back now to my we. 1174 00:53:16,760 --> 00:53:18,200 Don't have to go to the gym for that. 1175 00:53:18,960 --> 00:53:22,520 That's what I'm about to start picking up the people in my 1176 00:53:22,520 --> 00:53:23,960 house. Know for you might. 1177 00:53:24,000 --> 00:53:25,560 As well. Might as well get on my back 1178 00:53:25,560 --> 00:53:27,560 pick. Up the 9 and start doing squats 1179 00:53:27,560 --> 00:53:28,680 with. It I'm about to put her on my 1180 00:53:28,680 --> 00:53:30,440 back and run up and down the steps, I'm telling you she's 1181 00:53:30,520 --> 00:53:32,840 like perfect. She's perfect. 1182 00:53:36,240 --> 00:53:37,400 Stop pissing us off. That's all I'm asking. 1183 00:53:37,400 --> 00:53:39,240 What again? Yeah, I think he's going through 1184 00:53:39,240 --> 00:53:41,360 enough. What the fuck the fuck? 1185 00:53:41,360 --> 00:53:42,880 And you're telling me to be fucking weird? 1186 00:53:42,880 --> 00:53:46,000 I can't have nothing. You. 1187 00:53:46,560 --> 00:53:48,960 Really can't have shit. It's cool though. 1188 00:53:49,360 --> 00:53:52,320 Y'all can't have shit. I can't 'cause I'm going have 1189 00:53:52,360 --> 00:53:54,560 shit and be having shit. I just can't have shit with you 1190 00:53:54,680 --> 00:53:57,080 and it's totally fine. It's all trial and error at the 1191 00:53:57,080 --> 00:53:59,160 end of the fucking day. I ain't too worried about it. 1192 00:53:59,480 --> 00:54:02,080 But I was going to speak with my mother fucking piece cause what 1193 00:54:02,080 --> 00:54:07,280 the fuck bitch. Always there forever beach. 1194 00:54:07,280 --> 00:54:12,480 Don't play with whole period. You won't read the informations 1195 00:54:14,360 --> 00:54:17,120 the affinimation. Oh my God, real quick on 1196 00:54:17,120 --> 00:54:19,320 affirmations. I just want y'all to know that 1197 00:54:19,680 --> 00:54:22,920 Tony Jones, the lady who be doing the affirmations and she 1198 00:54:22,920 --> 00:54:24,600 don't like, you know, the presence is woman. 1199 00:54:24,880 --> 00:54:28,640 She commented on this threads post that I had commented on and 1200 00:54:28,640 --> 00:54:31,160 that she had commented on. And then we was like, you know, 1201 00:54:31,160 --> 00:54:33,080 talking to each other. It wasn't a real talk. 1202 00:54:33,200 --> 00:54:35,280 It was just like, Oh my God, the affirmations down with me since 1203 00:54:35,280 --> 00:54:36,920 2021. And she was like, I can't I can 1204 00:54:36,920 --> 00:54:39,560 never get over on how much affirmation be helping us all. 1205 00:54:39,680 --> 00:54:41,480 And I was like, Oh my God, we were saying and then she said we 1206 00:54:41,480 --> 00:54:42,360 don't hold back. And I said yeah. 1207 00:54:44,560 --> 00:54:46,040 You don't want me. I'm gonna be at, you know. 1208 00:54:46,160 --> 00:54:48,800 Social relationship yeah, I was the fan here and for like 13 1209 00:54:48,800 --> 00:54:50,960 seconds I'll be doing that too, you know, nothing big. 1210 00:54:50,960 --> 00:54:52,960 Calm the fuck down. Now if Duran Bernard say 1211 00:54:52,960 --> 00:54:54,480 something to me, y'all know I keep. 1212 00:54:54,480 --> 00:54:55,640 Trying to get him to say something. 1213 00:54:56,200 --> 00:54:59,640 Y'all know how I feel y'all know how I feel about that one right 1214 00:54:59,640 --> 00:55:02,720 there Fuck that's my that's my bad Bay. 1215 00:55:02,720 --> 00:55:08,760 What what him I do I want him call me you like big beaches. 1216 00:55:08,960 --> 00:55:12,320 I know I said that one time before but like I'm I saw a 1217 00:55:12,320 --> 00:55:14,360 little clip of him on the jail by podcast. 1218 00:55:14,760 --> 00:55:16,840 Yes. So she was. 1219 00:55:16,920 --> 00:55:20,440 Just like who said I was gay. You look educated. 1220 00:55:20,440 --> 00:55:23,200 When she stop saying that he's gay, he's not gay. 1221 00:55:23,960 --> 00:55:26,080 The male threads, the three. No, for real. 1222 00:55:27,960 --> 00:55:29,840 Alright, let's get to the information 'cause I'm now like. 1223 00:55:30,680 --> 00:55:33,800 God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot 1224 00:55:33,800 --> 00:55:37,280 change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom 1225 00:55:37,280 --> 00:55:39,960 to know the difference. Show me how good life can get 1226 00:55:40,240 --> 00:55:42,760 and prepare me for the goodness I Shay. 1227 00:55:43,720 --> 00:55:46,000 You're just not positive this week on my beach all the fuck 1228 00:55:46,000 --> 00:55:47,080 up. Sorry you. 1229 00:55:47,400 --> 00:55:50,000 Don't want me to put my hands on y'all cause y'all won't be near 1230 00:55:50,000 --> 00:55:51,920 death. That's how much aggression I be 1231 00:55:51,920 --> 00:55:58,160 in, so I hope she hit the shit. Next person I hit, they've been 1232 00:55:58,160 --> 00:55:58,880 the seagull. I can't. 1233 00:55:59,240 --> 00:56:01,800 Wait, I can't wait. If I ever see my friend getting 1234 00:56:01,800 --> 00:56:05,600 a fight, I'm gonna wait like 13 seconds then I'm gonna jump in. 1235 00:56:06,000 --> 00:56:08,480 Yeah, the minute she start winning I'm gonna jump in just 1236 00:56:08,480 --> 00:56:10,560 'cause I feel like now you deserve to get banged 'cause why 1237 00:56:10,560 --> 00:56:12,920 the fuck you make my friend fight, you know, for real? 1238 00:56:12,920 --> 00:56:15,360 And I know she could be making weird noises 'cause she over 1239 00:56:15,360 --> 00:56:17,160 fucking her adrenaline through the fucking roof. 1240 00:56:17,160 --> 00:56:18,360 And if. They won't sound like I'm in a 1241 00:56:18,360 --> 00:56:28,280 boxing match for real. And then I got something fucking 1242 00:56:28,280 --> 00:56:30,000 'cause why y'all make my friend do that? 1243 00:56:30,520 --> 00:56:33,080 I'm beating you up, 'cause it's the fact that she had to beat 1244 00:56:33,080 --> 00:56:35,400 you up to begin with. This little retarded girl. 1245 00:56:35,960 --> 00:56:38,280 I mean, whooping y'all I'm talking about, she would be 1246 00:56:38,360 --> 00:56:42,000 whooping y'all ass, man. That's gonna be a paper new 1247 00:56:42,000 --> 00:56:43,600 fight. That's world star. 1248 00:56:43,600 --> 00:56:47,160 World star. So don't. 1249 00:56:47,160 --> 00:56:49,280 Piss me off. I really got it in me. 1250 00:56:49,280 --> 00:56:52,200 I don't, you know, don't do that. 1251 00:57:14,240 --> 00:57:14,360 None.