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It's the awake space Astrology 
podcast. 

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I'm Lori Rivers, your host here 
to help you with some 

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inspiration to get those 
aspirations out in the world. 

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Well, happy Mercury direct. 
Mercury has stationed. 

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It is Monday, April 7th. 
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that, just know that today, 
Monday, April 7th, Mercury has 

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stationed direct. 
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Well, it can be a little wibbly 
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Whenever Mercury stations or any
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tends to be kind of a burst of 
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And we'll go through what to 
expect in the headlines this 

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week, and we'll talk a little 
bit how to make the most of the 

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energy, as we always do. 
I'm also going to talk a little 

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bit about the Moon and the 
Mother Wound here on the Awake 

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Space. 
Been saying a lot of content 

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about that on the Ticky Tacky 
lately, and I thought I'd 

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clarify a few things because I 
think it's really important that

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we do everything we can to 
empower ourselves versus 

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disempower ourselves. 
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the route to healing is versus 
always having to dive into the 

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wounds, OK. 
It's not about bypassing it. 

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It's really about the healing 
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And that's something I've 
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That's something I've dedicated 
myself to for far longer than 

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I've been an astrologer. 
So I'll be glad to give you some

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insights on that. 
And, well, it's an interesting 

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week because it's 2025 S Grab 
your coffee, grab your tea, get 

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your matcha, get your iced 
coffee, get your iced tea, 

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whatever you're drinking, your 
hot cocoa. 

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And whether we're doing the 
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hot girl or hot guy walk, taking
the pooch out or feeding the 

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kittens, driving to work and 
finding perfect parking every 

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time, I'm glad I get to do it 
with you. 

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So let's get on with the show. 
Hey, if you're a patron, then 

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you know that I put out the 
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We did the Awake Space revealed 
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which was super fun. 
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and well, took me a minute to 
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And so it's up now. 
It went out on Sunday. 

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If you want to find out the 
results of the survey, I'm going

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to do another one for the 
Spotify listeners and it and 

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first I was going to just do the
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questions. 
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the presentation. 
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almost like a mini astrology 
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And that's what's going to come 
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or two. 
We'll see what I get done in the

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studio. 
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my Internet tomorrow. 
How perfect is that? 

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Well, I'm recording this Sunday 
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Mercury is direct is when the 
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studio. 
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Malcolm loves it. 
I've been putting up pictures in

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the Patreon chat and it's been 
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So yeah, there's that. 
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while. 
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retrograde. 
Speaking of the magazine is on 

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the way. 
Hold tight, hold tight. 

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Your predictions and your 
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horoscopes are up. 
Those, those are the edited 

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So if you are a magazine 
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in the Patreon. 
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can purchase those. 
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with the iOS fee. 
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it's 10 bucks with the iOS V, if
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not on your phone, you know, or 
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you save 30%. 
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exciting. 
I'll be doing those every month 

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in an audio format. 
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way. 
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to you guys is about how to hold
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your consciousness. 
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I was playing around with using 
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So the grammar, you know, I 
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I know there's still some stuff 
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because I was doing it on my 
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I wanted to get across the idea 
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of 1987, as the markets are 
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And if you've been listening to 
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year, but years, I've been 
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own food as much as you can. 
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also grow food. 
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whatever you can in your budget.
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there. 
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instability, OK. 
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of it is weather and climate. 
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unpredictability. 
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in Taurus and it'll pop out into
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So we're still looking at 
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it's easy to panic. 
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I have moments where I'm like, 
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But that doesn't help it. 
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with the crash of 1987. 
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me that was taken not long after
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that was the year I graduated. 
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to work so I could afford my 
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when I went to England because 
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did it kind of on my own. 
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But all my friends went off to 
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could buy my ticket and I never 
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You know, I was very dramatic 
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at 18, right? 
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I took a one way ticket. 
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was going to spend Christmas 
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an exchange student and it cost 
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Let let's Google that shall we? 
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It was $600 in 1987. 
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refundable. 
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of overtime. 
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ticket. 
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OK, It made me rich. 
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You know, rent was like, I don't
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apartment, you know, that was a 
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and I really knew that was where
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newspaper because she got, you 
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So grandma would get The 
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her paper, right? 
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rate every single day after 
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November. 
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It wasn't, you know, I didn't 
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It was, Oh my God, my, my poor 
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with histrionics or drama at 
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going on? 
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has ended, you know? 
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She was not a fluffy grandma. 
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grandma. 
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manage employees, Grandma, which
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And anyway, I wrote about it in 
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If you want to take a look at 
it, I've linked the post it it's

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free, you know, it's free for 
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alike. 
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that day, that woman who was 14 
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father died of pneumonia and she
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Her older brothers had jobs, you
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and, and her older sister was 
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working, but she had to both go 
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And the, you know, I, I remember
the stories of them coming 

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together every single week and 
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in the center of the table and 
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It was a needs based meeting, 
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it was 1930 and you know, then 
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was taking needs based 
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Who needs what, whether it was 
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know, and this was after the 
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food, the heating, etcetera. 
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and she worked very hard to get 
where she was and she still held

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a lot of compassion. 
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cookies grandma, but she created
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Oregon that helped people find 
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funds when they didn't exist. 
She hired single mothers when no

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one else would. 
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everybody an opportunity was 
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people to rise into their 
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So she was a good example. 
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faith did not mean just having 
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going my way and saying, oh, 
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It was when things were most 
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And she said, is this very, 
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And I said, yes, I know it in my
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And she said, then you shouldn't
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And I have run my life that way.
If it's that important, there is

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a way to make it happen. 
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way you want it. 
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you want it. 
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derail you from something that 
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deep level is admitting defeat. 
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And that is why they try to stir
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I will always tell you, hold 
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adversity. 
I'm not saying don't be afraid. 

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Remember, bravery isn't the 
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Bravery is feeling the fear and 
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And don't think I wasn't 
terrified to leave the country 

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with a one way ticket. 
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I was ready for adventure. 
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Never say never. 
I brought it up because I know 

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they're driving fear and panic 
right now, right? 

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Because as the people come 
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power is within them, the other 
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you are weak. 
And here is how we have the 

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power over you. 
You don't have to buy the story.

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People have the power we grant 
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We have the power we grant 
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Now, I'm not saying if you're in
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you're not at risk. 
That is not. 

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I am not bypassing that. 
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about to see some interesting 
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These I won't necessarily speak 
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I will talk about any patron 
only podcast, things that I 

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think are possible. 
I'm not saying they're happening

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100%. 
Don't put words in my mouth. 

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Gosh darn it. 
With Mercury now stationed 

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direct, now we're looking at 
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the 12th. 
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And so we're going to talk about
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segment after patron shout outs.
Remember, without patrons, there

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is no podcast. 
I know the economy sucks. 

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I know it does. 
I've been writing some articles 

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to put in for free. 
You get your patron spotlight as

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a free member, you get to hang 
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Last week's was intellectual 
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intellectual property is. 
We had the wonderful Illora. 

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ourselves and our energy through
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reactions is part of being human
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turning fast, turning into 
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Let's see before we get to the 
next segment and patron shout 

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outs. 
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I do not in the new studio. 
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I'm having to cry uncle and have
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get certain things put together.
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but I'm also impatient and like 
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last me. 
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you know, So my poor little 
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So you just said, baby, you got 
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his dog bed, what does my little
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Get so much, you get the chats. 
It's an amazing community. 

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I really urge you to come in and
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Come in be a part of things. 
It was super, super fun to see 

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all of the photos from the hands
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I had a recording to do, but my 
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representation for this 
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as I informed my father said, 
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So super excited about that. 
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the Carolinas. 
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I'm so sorry. 
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flooding in 2025 was going to 
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It's going to happen at the end 
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I know Australia got hit and we 
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from all over the world. 
I know it's crunchy times, my 

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I am going to be creating a lot 
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office and a studio. 
Finally. 

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I wrote a post about that. 
It was called I Defeated Mercury

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Retrograde because I did. 
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Monday if I went or not. 
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the podcast. 
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get going in the podcast studio.
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to create and I'm working on all
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It's been it's been a time, it's
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So all righty, let's do some 
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talk about the full moon coming 
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Moronic Kate. 
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We've got the Libra Full Moon 
coming up this week on April 

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12th, and Venus is stationing 
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I think it's going to be a 
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let me tell you why. 
At least it will be in these 

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parts because it's right after 
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We're building energy as we move
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Now the the full moon is always 
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So as we move through this week,
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up. 
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they're feeling the full moon 
before the full moon, right? 

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I used to think the same thing 
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We don't feel the full moon 
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The full moon is an actual 
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What you're feeling is the moon 
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strength, right? 
The pressure is building ahead 

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of the release. 
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part happens right before in the
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moon waxes full, right? 
So wax full Wayne, new little 

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little karate kid for you Gen. 
Xers will get it and your kids, 

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because you were forced to 
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gentier, if your parents made 
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But anyway, I digress. 
So this full moon is a bit nuts 

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and I don't know what's going on
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those days where like you wash 
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anything with it. 
Do you like the skunk stripe, 

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though? 
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like, oh, that's aesthetic. 
But anyway, I did, Chris. 

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There's probably going to be 
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outer world, OK, We'll talk 
about what's up in the headlines

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later, OK? 
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feeling this. 
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illuminating. 
Where we seek justice, where we 

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seek mutuality, where we seek 
fairness. 

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We're seeking. 
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We're seeking partnership, 
social contracts, social 

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contracts, contracts of all 
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And I think we'll see a big cry 
for social justice. 

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And it's kind of obvious as to 
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Yeah. 
When we watch the news and we 

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see what's happening and we see 
that, you know, civil liberties 

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are at stake, Our Constitution 
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we're seeing who is and is not 
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And the people are beginning to 
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And so we'll be seeing that in 
the outer world. 

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But in our own lives, we will be
looking for mutuality. 

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In our own lives, we're going to
be weighing and measuring that 

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which matters greatly to us. 
Now, the thing I want to talk to

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you about, and this kind of 
weaves in with talking about the

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mother wound, is most of us 
haven't deconstructed enough or 

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done enough healing work, true 
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Not just being able to tell your
story because too many people 

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live in the story. 
They live in the peen story, 

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They live in the identity of the
trauma. 

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It's very different than 
actually being in the healing 

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path. 
OK, identifying your trauma is 

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the first step, but we don't 
stop there. 

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That is that is a pit stop on 
the road to healing. 

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The road to healing is much 
longer than going ah, that 

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happened or oh, this label is 
there. 

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This is the consequence of 
whatever trauma I experienced. 

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OK, I will also say the over 
idealization of what a mother is

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when we say a mother should, is 
supposed to blah blah blah. 

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Those are archetypes. 
And those are archetypes that 

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are not based on nature. 
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expectations which are at the 
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This idea of this virtuous 
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conceived you and isn't supposed
to have any hopes, dreams, 

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desires, once they have 
children, their life is over. 

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They might as well be an octopus
and just keel over once they 

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have offspring because they 
cease to have an identity other 

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than mom. 
Even though they have their own 

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name, they probably forget their
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OK, now not every woman or birth
parent is going to be a natural 

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addict. 
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parenting is a taught behavior. 
There are some things that might

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be somewhat instinctual, but we 
have been domesticated for so 

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very long. 
We have subdued those instincts.

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And I'm a Cancerian. 
I had a lot of instinct, but I 

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still needed better tools to 
parent my children to the point 

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I studied with an expert, H 
Stephen Glenn, PhD, and I taught

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his work for 14 years and 
incorporated it into everything 

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I do, whether I'm working with 
adults or children. 

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Because we can always expand our
knowledge of of nurturing and 

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fostering resiliency. 
The mother wound narrative is 

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often patriarchy infused and 
misogynistically infused even 

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when women use it too. 
Period. 

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And I'm not saying all mothers 
are good mothers, but the idea 

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that a mother is supposed to 
automatically be good without 

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any training or help is also 
misogynistic. 

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All those people are like, Oh 
my, I had a single mom and she 

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wasn't available because she was
always working to pay the rent 

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and put clothes on your back. 
Yeah, yeah. 

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Why isn't anybody blaming the 
dad? 

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What about the father wound? 
Nobody. 

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It's harping on that wing. 
Notice how it's always mom's 

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fault? 
Why is it always mom's fault? 

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And why is it a belief that 
every woman is going to be a 

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good parent or every human is 
going to be a good parent? 

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There are going to be people who
are not good. 

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Now, that doesn't diminish 
abuse. 

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It doesn't give a pass at all. 
But I'm saying before we jump 

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00:30:47,160 --> 00:30:52,200
onto a bandwagon and say yes I 
feel that way, be always 

448
00:30:52,200 --> 00:30:56,320
skeptical of things that 
resonate so clearly because it's

449
00:30:56,320 --> 00:31:03,440
called cognitive bias. 
If you are in an echo Chamber of

450
00:31:03,440 --> 00:31:06,640
agreement, it is a dangerous 
space because it is probably not

451
00:31:06,640 --> 00:31:08,680
a space of healing. 
I don't know if you guys 

452
00:31:08,680 --> 00:31:11,720
listened to last week's podcast 
or not, but my daughter Sara 

453
00:31:12,040 --> 00:31:15,800
talked about the most useful and
productive therapy session she 

454
00:31:15,800 --> 00:31:20,320
was ever in. 
And in her own words is pissed 

455
00:31:20,320 --> 00:31:24,320
her off because she kept going 
to her therapist with the same 

456
00:31:24,320 --> 00:31:28,560
problem every single week. 
And I'm just going to paraphrase

457
00:31:28,560 --> 00:31:30,400
her. 
And the therapist eventually 

458
00:31:30,400 --> 00:31:32,080
said, what are you going to do 
about it? 

459
00:31:33,360 --> 00:31:34,680
You keep coming to me every 
week. 

460
00:31:34,680 --> 00:31:37,080
I've given you tools, I've given
you homework and you're coming 

461
00:31:37,080 --> 00:31:39,120
to me with the same story. 
What are you going to do about 

462
00:31:39,120 --> 00:31:42,960
it? 
And whatever that was, in that 

463
00:31:42,960 --> 00:31:47,160
time frame, it clicked for her 
that it was up to her. 

464
00:31:48,720 --> 00:31:54,000
And in the words of a good 
friend from years ago, I like to

465
00:31:54,000 --> 00:31:57,560
have a clean house. 
I don't always make the mess, 

466
00:31:57,560 --> 00:32:00,600
but if I like a clean house, I 
damn well better clean it up. 

467
00:32:00,920 --> 00:32:02,840
And she was referring to her 
life. 

468
00:32:03,720 --> 00:32:08,240
She had been the victim of 
childhood trauma and she could 

469
00:32:08,240 --> 00:32:11,920
not get the people who committed
the trauma to admit where they 

470
00:32:11,920 --> 00:32:16,480
were wrong and nor could they 
fix the problem that she wanted 

471
00:32:16,480 --> 00:32:18,440
a good life, so she was going to
have to make a good life. 

472
00:32:18,760 --> 00:32:24,680
And likewise here we can know 
the root of the problem all day 

473
00:32:24,680 --> 00:32:27,920
long. 
If we are not active 

474
00:32:27,920 --> 00:32:30,920
participants in our healing 
process, it is not enough to 

475
00:32:30,920 --> 00:32:34,280
know the story. 
And this is so important with 

476
00:32:34,280 --> 00:32:37,840
this full moon coming up, 
because people want to assign 

477
00:32:37,960 --> 00:32:40,560
blame. 
It is the most human thing in 

478
00:32:40,560 --> 00:32:43,920
the world. 
And I remember it oh so well. 

479
00:32:43,920 --> 00:32:47,640
Because there's this stage in 
healing where you're raw and 

480
00:32:47,640 --> 00:32:50,840
gritty and the rage is there. 
And if you haven't got to that 

481
00:32:50,840 --> 00:32:54,200
place, that's fine. 
And not sometimes it's a short 

482
00:32:54,200 --> 00:32:55,960
visit, sometimes it's a long 
trip. 

483
00:32:56,640 --> 00:33:00,360
But there's this welling of 
rage, and you want retribution 

484
00:33:00,360 --> 00:33:03,160
and you want to get even, and 
you want to see them get their 

485
00:33:03,160 --> 00:33:05,920
karma and see them get their 
consequences. 

486
00:33:06,320 --> 00:33:08,240
And you know what you don't 
always get to? 

487
00:33:09,160 --> 00:33:13,320
Because that's not justice. 
Justice is you healing yourself 

488
00:33:13,320 --> 00:33:18,280
and living a damn good life. 
And I wish I would have figured 

489
00:33:18,280 --> 00:33:20,160
that out about 10 years before I
did. 

490
00:33:22,680 --> 00:33:26,160
I'll take what I got now. 
But if I could go back in time 

491
00:33:27,480 --> 00:33:32,520
and talk to a younger version of
self and say, honey, I know 

492
00:33:32,840 --> 00:33:36,080
that's what you want, but you're
not going to get it. 

493
00:33:36,680 --> 00:33:41,880
And what you need is to work on 
you and how you live your life. 

494
00:33:42,400 --> 00:33:46,480
Because if you're waiting to see
consequences on them, if you're 

495
00:33:46,480 --> 00:33:50,840
stocking their Facebook looking 
for misfortune, If you are 

496
00:33:50,840 --> 00:33:55,520
waiting to hear about them 
getting attacked by a pack of 

497
00:33:55,520 --> 00:33:59,880
baboons or a man eating lion, 
you're going to wait a long 

498
00:33:59,880 --> 00:34:01,280
time. 
You know, if you're waiting for 

499
00:34:01,280 --> 00:34:04,080
them to drive off a Cliff and 
die in a fiery car crash, it's 

500
00:34:04,080 --> 00:34:06,880
probably not going to happen. 
And you can want all that and 

501
00:34:06,880 --> 00:34:09,400
you can be justified in wanting 
all of that. 

502
00:34:09,400 --> 00:34:12,000
They could have done that much 
harm to you. 

503
00:34:13,199 --> 00:34:16,560
OK? 
They could have done that much 

504
00:34:16,760 --> 00:34:22,320
harm to you. 
And I have walked that walk. 

505
00:34:24,480 --> 00:34:29,080
But when we look at this big 
full moon in Libra, when we look

506
00:34:29,080 --> 00:34:35,040
at this big full moon, it is 
going to illuminate what justice

507
00:34:35,040 --> 00:34:39,280
actually is, and that is partly 
in how you live your life. 

508
00:34:40,120 --> 00:34:44,239
It is one thing to know the 
wound and it is another to take 

509
00:34:44,239 --> 00:34:52,600
it head on and to have the 
bravery to be honest and 

510
00:34:52,600 --> 00:34:56,600
accountable with ourselves. 
Because if it's everybody else's

511
00:34:56,600 --> 00:35:02,720
fault all the time, if everybody
does you dirty all the time, 

512
00:35:04,480 --> 00:35:07,880
it's usually called clue that 
you need to change something. 

513
00:35:07,880 --> 00:35:11,960
Doesn't mean you deserve it, but
there might be something that 

514
00:35:11,960 --> 00:35:14,880
needs calibrating in your life. 
Sometimes you don't need the 

515
00:35:14,880 --> 00:35:17,160
good story to get your free 
drinks at the bar. 

516
00:35:17,480 --> 00:35:20,160
Wouldn't it be nice to be able 
to buy them on your own, right? 

517
00:35:20,160 --> 00:35:22,560
If you don't? 
I, I no longer a lot of young 

518
00:35:22,560 --> 00:35:26,040
people don't drink, but it, it 
used to be you'd go to a bar and

519
00:35:26,040 --> 00:35:29,240
somebody'd have this great sob 
story and they'd, they'd rack up

520
00:35:29,240 --> 00:35:33,720
free drinks with it. 
You know, you know, they, they, 

521
00:35:33,840 --> 00:35:36,560
their wife walked out on them 
and took the dog and the pickup 

522
00:35:36,560 --> 00:35:40,360
truck and, and their guitar and 
their favorite guitar pick even,

523
00:35:41,000 --> 00:35:51,920
you know, and have a round of 
beers instead of questioning why

524
00:35:51,920 --> 00:35:56,200
was this the third time, the 
third truck, the third dog, the 

525
00:35:56,200 --> 00:36:01,920
third guitar, the third wife, 
right, or husband, right? 

526
00:36:02,000 --> 00:36:07,160
We have patterns and they can be
broken and they are broken by 

527
00:36:07,160 --> 00:36:10,240
building new habits, not sitting
and looking at the broken 

528
00:36:11,640 --> 00:36:14,280
pattern, right? 
I've talked about that in 

529
00:36:14,280 --> 00:36:16,720
healing the Money wounds so many
times. 

530
00:36:18,000 --> 00:36:20,240
Because the money wound is about
self worth, right? 

531
00:36:21,640 --> 00:36:25,240
Healing the money wound, healing
the mother wound, healing the 

532
00:36:25,240 --> 00:36:30,280
father wound, Healing any wound 
means you take on your own 

533
00:36:30,280 --> 00:36:34,920
healing deliberately and there 
is no pursing that can heal you 

534
00:36:35,040 --> 00:36:37,040
other than you. 
There are people who can be 

535
00:36:37,040 --> 00:36:42,040
shepherds and guides on the way,
but no therapist can heal you. 

536
00:36:42,480 --> 00:36:48,360
No energy healer can heal you. 
They are creating conditions 

537
00:36:48,360 --> 00:36:56,200
that make healing more possible.
They facilitate healing. 

538
00:36:58,280 --> 00:37:00,760
But as somebody who studied a 
lot of healing techniques 

539
00:37:00,760 --> 00:37:04,000
because I was mistakenly under 
the impression I was supposed to

540
00:37:04,000 --> 00:37:10,560
be a healer, like a energy 
healer when I was young and I 

541
00:37:10,560 --> 00:37:13,480
needed all those skills to keep 
me alive. 

542
00:37:14,360 --> 00:37:16,320
And I occasionally use them with
clients. 

543
00:37:17,120 --> 00:37:21,480
But that's that's not my modus 
operandi, nor is it my calling. 

544
00:37:21,840 --> 00:37:23,960
It's just I've got a lot of 
skills. 

545
00:37:28,120 --> 00:37:32,200
You don't ever heal the patient.
They heal them. 

546
00:37:32,760 --> 00:37:36,520
You create conditions that make 
it a little easier. 

547
00:37:40,040 --> 00:37:44,800
OK, so waiting around for 
rescue, it isn't comfy. 

548
00:37:45,680 --> 00:37:48,240
And that's part of why I wasn't 
on TikTok for a while. 

549
00:37:48,240 --> 00:37:51,760
I was like, I'm done warning. 
I've been warning since 1997. 

550
00:37:53,800 --> 00:37:58,280
You know, I'm sorry people had 
to get this uncomfortable. 

551
00:37:58,960 --> 00:38:00,520
And I'm not just talking about 
politics. 

552
00:38:00,520 --> 00:38:05,280
I'm talking about the ecology, 
the economics. 

553
00:38:05,800 --> 00:38:09,240
We needed to be working on 
sustainability back in the 90s, 

554
00:38:09,240 --> 00:38:11,920
folks, and there were movements 
to do that. 

555
00:38:12,240 --> 00:38:15,520
There's so much information 
about building sustainably, 

556
00:38:17,080 --> 00:38:20,040
sustainable agriculture, 
sustainable architecture, 

557
00:38:20,240 --> 00:38:31,280
sustainable economies, conscious
capitalism, all concepts that 

558
00:38:31,280 --> 00:38:40,760
got quashed by 2008, all 
concepts that you should look up

559
00:38:41,040 --> 00:38:45,120
and work on. 
It's so, so important right now.

560
00:38:45,680 --> 00:38:49,560
Instead of capitulating, instead
of giving in, instead of giving 

561
00:38:49,560 --> 00:38:51,440
up. 
I know it's scary. 

562
00:38:51,840 --> 00:38:55,160
I know you're tired. 
Who the hell isn't right now? 

563
00:38:56,720 --> 00:39:01,160
I, I really, who isn't? 
I say these things because it's 

564
00:39:01,160 --> 00:39:05,480
important because with this 
chaos there is opportunity. 

565
00:39:05,960 --> 00:39:09,440
There's opportunity for personal
growth, self-awareness, self 

566
00:39:09,440 --> 00:39:14,160
actualization, financial growth,
but you got to think outside of 

567
00:39:14,160 --> 00:39:17,720
the box. 
You can't think and do things in

568
00:39:17,720 --> 00:39:21,400
the old way and make it work. 
If you've always done something 

569
00:39:21,400 --> 00:39:25,480
a certain way and it's not 
working, it's time to change up 

570
00:39:25,480 --> 00:39:28,680
what you do and you are capable 
of it. 

571
00:39:30,400 --> 00:39:32,240
And I'm going to hear it from 
the neuro spicy. 

572
00:39:32,320 --> 00:39:38,400
Well, I'm neuro spicy. 
Me too, me too. 

573
00:39:39,880 --> 00:39:44,760
And you can still build new 
pathways and new habits, it just

574
00:39:44,760 --> 00:39:51,840
might take a little longer. 
I'm terrible about once I have a

575
00:39:51,840 --> 00:39:56,040
habit built or a routine built, 
shifting it up makes it very, 

576
00:39:56,040 --> 00:39:59,480
very difficult. 
It's why I don't like taking 

577
00:39:59,480 --> 00:40:03,800
time off, because if I'm in a 
rhythm, switching the rhythm up.

578
00:40:05,200 --> 00:40:07,440
Messes up my productivity and my
flow. 

579
00:40:07,880 --> 00:40:14,160
But sometimes my body gets sick.
Sometimes an emergency happens 

580
00:40:14,160 --> 00:40:20,800
in my family and guess what? 
I have to be a grown up and deal

581
00:40:20,800 --> 00:40:25,280
with the shift. 
Being neuro spicy does not 

582
00:40:25,600 --> 00:40:30,160
alleviate me from my 
obligations. 

583
00:40:30,480 --> 00:40:36,520
It just means I need to manage 
them better and some of us are 

584
00:40:36,520 --> 00:40:38,400
better able to do that than 
others. 

585
00:40:38,400 --> 00:40:40,400
Some of us need a little more 
help with that. 

586
00:40:42,280 --> 00:40:48,520
This full moon in Libra, that 
energy is going to be sharp like

587
00:40:48,520 --> 00:40:52,960
a spearhead. 
It's it's a piercing energy. 

588
00:40:52,960 --> 00:41:00,440
So the full moon in Libra will 
be at 23° and 20 some minutes of

589
00:41:00,440 --> 00:41:03,560
Libra. 
Remember that the full Moon is 

590
00:41:03,560 --> 00:41:05,800
when it's in opposition to the 
Sun. 

591
00:41:05,800 --> 00:41:11,880
So the Moon is in Libra, the Sun
is in Aries, Venus will be 

592
00:41:11,880 --> 00:41:17,080
stationed, Venus will be 
stationed. 

593
00:41:17,080 --> 00:41:21,160
So in, you know, late afternoon,
early evening in the United 

594
00:41:21,160 --> 00:41:27,800
States into the late night in 
the UK, early morning of the 

595
00:41:27,800 --> 00:41:35,840
13th, we have Venus stationed. 
So she's not direct yet. 

596
00:41:35,840 --> 00:41:39,440
She's stationed. 
She'll be direct the next day. 

597
00:41:40,160 --> 00:41:42,200
This is a very powerful moment 
in time. 

598
00:41:44,160 --> 00:41:52,320
We have Mercury and Mars, Saturn
and Venus in a trine. 

599
00:41:52,840 --> 00:42:00,760
So Mercury, Saturn and Venus are
trying Mars in Cancer and the 

600
00:42:00,760 --> 00:42:03,520
moon. 
The full moon is square. 

601
00:42:03,720 --> 00:42:08,840
Mars and this and that is AT 
square because the full moon is 

602
00:42:08,840 --> 00:42:13,440
the sun and moon in opposition 
and they are both square Mars 

603
00:42:13,440 --> 00:42:18,800
and Cancer at 27°. 
It's spicy. 

604
00:42:21,520 --> 00:42:26,040
There will probably be some 
interesting events that come up 

605
00:42:26,040 --> 00:42:32,840
in the outer world. 
We have Jupiter trying the moon,

606
00:42:34,480 --> 00:42:39,840
We have Jupiter trying the moon 
and Jupiter in a sextile 

607
00:42:43,240 --> 00:42:50,240
actually in a square with 
Jupiter in a square with Venus. 

608
00:42:51,040 --> 00:42:57,920
And it's going to be sharp. 
It's going to be real sharp and 

609
00:42:57,920 --> 00:43:00,320
again, we'll talk about what's 
going to be up in the headlines.

610
00:43:00,600 --> 00:43:04,000
What does this mean for you? 
Well, Uranus is going to be in a

611
00:43:04,000 --> 00:43:07,520
sex style with Venus and Saturn 
as well. 

612
00:43:07,800 --> 00:43:12,560
This can be a really big 
illuminating time in the 

613
00:43:12,560 --> 00:43:17,280
frustration, in the injustice, 
in where things don't seem fair 

614
00:43:18,880 --> 00:43:22,400
is where illumination and ideas 
can show up. 

615
00:43:22,400 --> 00:43:25,200
You might get an idea for a 
story, you might get an idea for

616
00:43:25,200 --> 00:43:29,200
a business, you might get an 
idea for your next moves. 

617
00:43:30,400 --> 00:43:34,360
Don't let that frustration 
debilitate you when it's not 

618
00:43:34,360 --> 00:43:36,440
working. 
Then you say what next? 

619
00:43:36,960 --> 00:43:40,040
What next? 
Not why me? 

620
00:43:41,400 --> 00:43:44,680
What's next? 
What's the next logical step I 

621
00:43:44,680 --> 00:43:47,520
can do right now? 
If you can't do anything except 

622
00:43:47,520 --> 00:43:49,640
make a cup of coffee, go make 
the coffee. 

623
00:43:50,920 --> 00:43:54,200
If you need to just take a time 
out, go for a drive. 

624
00:43:54,200 --> 00:43:57,520
Go for a drive, OK? 
If you need. 

625
00:43:57,560 --> 00:44:00,840
If you if you need a doughnut, 
get a doughnut, OK? 

626
00:44:03,080 --> 00:44:06,240
Stop banging your head against 
the wall on things you cannot 

627
00:44:06,240 --> 00:44:10,640
take any control over. 
There's nothing you can do about

628
00:44:10,640 --> 00:44:14,840
things you can do nothing about.
But there is always something 

629
00:44:14,840 --> 00:44:17,000
you can do. 
And that, remember I brought up 

630
00:44:17,000 --> 00:44:20,360
my grandmother. 
My grandmother always, always 

631
00:44:20,360 --> 00:44:23,200
told me there's always something
you can do. 

632
00:44:23,480 --> 00:44:28,120
It may not be what you want to 
do, but you can still do it. 

633
00:44:29,240 --> 00:44:33,320
So just like people who want to 
start a business, it's very hard

634
00:44:33,320 --> 00:44:37,000
to start a business without an 
income, OK? 

635
00:44:37,320 --> 00:44:40,760
Because if you're starting from 
desperation, it doesn't help, 

636
00:44:41,040 --> 00:44:42,760
right? 
And people can smell your 

637
00:44:42,760 --> 00:44:47,040
desperation. 
So what you want to do sometimes

638
00:44:47,080 --> 00:44:53,240
is take a part time job or a 
flexible job that you call your 

639
00:44:53,240 --> 00:44:56,440
Angel investor. 
It doesn't make you a failure at

640
00:44:56,440 --> 00:44:58,280
business to have income coming 
in. 

641
00:44:58,280 --> 00:45:04,040
So your rent is paid. 
Nothing's worse than failing all

642
00:45:04,040 --> 00:45:06,800
the way and not being able to 
pay the bills. 

643
00:45:09,840 --> 00:45:11,720
We have Neptune in Aries. 
Guess what? 

644
00:45:11,720 --> 00:45:18,040
The great illusion is over, and 
it is time at our own, at our 

645
00:45:18,040 --> 00:45:21,000
own alignment. 
And as much as things may not 

646
00:45:21,000 --> 00:45:24,240
look fair in the outer world or 
inner agreements with our 

647
00:45:24,240 --> 00:45:29,960
friends, our colleagues, our 
work arrangements, what whatever

648
00:45:29,960 --> 00:45:36,160
it is where we're looking for 
mutuality, ask yourself not just

649
00:45:36,320 --> 00:45:40,080
where is it fair to me? 
How am I showing up? 

650
00:45:41,480 --> 00:45:48,080
Because a lot of times what I 
hear from people is deflection. 

651
00:45:49,360 --> 00:45:52,520
I hear people not necessarily 
taking accountability. 

652
00:45:52,520 --> 00:45:53,680
I'm not talking about my 
clients. 

653
00:45:53,680 --> 00:45:56,720
I'm talking about like on social
media, right? 

654
00:45:57,000 --> 00:46:00,240
This person did me bad. 
The people who are stirring the 

655
00:46:00,240 --> 00:46:07,000
pot, stirring the drama, needing
to tell their story and make 

656
00:46:07,000 --> 00:46:09,640
sure they get there first. 
Words mean nothing. 

657
00:46:10,280 --> 00:46:18,120
Actions are every period. 
And with this full moon in 

658
00:46:18,120 --> 00:46:21,960
Libra, you have to be 
accountable to yourself too. 

659
00:46:22,520 --> 00:46:25,920
If you're a people pleaser, stop
using it like a badge of honor. 

660
00:46:26,320 --> 00:46:33,680
It's not OK if it, if you have 
this full moon illuminate where 

661
00:46:33,680 --> 00:46:38,160
you're codependent, great, then 
you get to stop it. 

662
00:46:38,160 --> 00:46:41,480
The reason we identify the 
problem is so we can move into 

663
00:46:41,480 --> 00:46:45,680
solution thinking. 
It's so important, guys. 

664
00:46:45,680 --> 00:46:49,360
This can be a very empowering 
full moon, a very empowering 

665
00:46:49,400 --> 00:46:53,600
full moon. 
And you do that by being honest 

666
00:46:53,600 --> 00:46:55,280
with yourself without beating 
yourself up. 

667
00:46:55,280 --> 00:46:58,240
We can be honest and accountable
to ourselves, Say yeah, I did 

668
00:46:58,240 --> 00:47:01,360
that and now what am I going to 
do about it? 

669
00:47:01,880 --> 00:47:05,480
Remember the powers in the 
noticing, the perfections in the

670
00:47:05,480 --> 00:47:08,160
correction. 
But I can tell you we do not 

671
00:47:08,160 --> 00:47:11,240
have time for games. 
We do not have time for drama. 

672
00:47:11,520 --> 00:47:13,120
We do not have time for, he 
said. 

673
00:47:13,120 --> 00:47:18,200
She said we do not have time for
the stories over and over and 

674
00:47:18,200 --> 00:47:21,160
over and over and over. 
We do not have time for it's 

675
00:47:21,160 --> 00:47:23,480
hard. 
We do not have time for I'm 

676
00:47:23,480 --> 00:47:25,680
tired. 
We have time to roll up our 

677
00:47:25,680 --> 00:47:29,160
sleeves and move into action. 
That is what we have time for 

678
00:47:29,160 --> 00:47:32,240
right now because Mars is going 
to move into Leo. 

679
00:47:33,120 --> 00:47:36,600
Not this week, next week. 
And that's where the big kabooms

680
00:47:36,600 --> 00:47:38,840
happen. 
You need to be emotionally, 

681
00:47:38,840 --> 00:47:42,800
mentally, and physically 
prepared, and that means own 

682
00:47:42,800 --> 00:47:47,080
your shit. 
You cannot put your hope in 

683
00:47:47,080 --> 00:47:49,560
other people. 
You cannot look for a savior. 

684
00:47:49,560 --> 00:47:53,640
You cannot look for a Messiah. 
You cannot look for someone to 

685
00:47:53,640 --> 00:47:56,200
come to your rescue. 
We are it. 

686
00:47:56,240 --> 00:47:59,360
We rescue ourselves and we link 
arms together. 

687
00:48:02,640 --> 00:48:06,120
But if you're going to panic, if
you're going to freak out, if 

688
00:48:06,120 --> 00:48:12,360
you're going to idealize the 
trauma or the pain story, you're

689
00:48:12,360 --> 00:48:16,240
the weakest link. 
And I hate to say it, but I've 

690
00:48:16,240 --> 00:48:18,040
been far too nice for far too 
long. 

691
00:48:19,400 --> 00:48:28,320
Far too nice for far too long. 
We cannot afford people who 

692
00:48:28,320 --> 00:48:31,920
panic right now. 
We need people to hold steady. 

693
00:48:33,480 --> 00:48:36,760
And as an energy worker, if 
you've actually done anything 

694
00:48:36,760 --> 00:48:43,680
like an exorcism or a major 
healing, then you know, if you 

695
00:48:43,680 --> 00:48:52,280
flinch, you lose. 
And I've done those things, I've

696
00:48:52,280 --> 00:48:56,520
had to hold it steady. 
And it's not because I'm 

697
00:48:56,520 --> 00:49:00,720
special. 
I have training, the learning to

698
00:49:00,720 --> 00:49:08,400
hold your consciousness, 
learning to stop inviting the 

699
00:49:08,400 --> 00:49:12,560
exhaustion by repeatedly saying 
it's hard, I'm tired, it's hard,

700
00:49:12,560 --> 00:49:14,840
I'm tired, it's hard. 
I'm tired, I'm hot, I'm tired, 

701
00:49:15,160 --> 00:49:16,240
I'm cold, I'm tired. 
I'm. 

702
00:49:17,960 --> 00:49:24,720
Are you not exhausted by it? 
There isn't a teacher, a healer 

703
00:49:24,720 --> 00:49:28,640
on this planet who has not 
walked through the bowels of 

704
00:49:28,640 --> 00:49:30,280
hell and moved through the other
side. 

705
00:49:33,680 --> 00:49:39,800
You don't get to teach from the 
bowels because you have nothing 

706
00:49:39,800 --> 00:49:48,280
to teach until you're through it
and you realise the illusion of 

707
00:49:48,280 --> 00:49:50,600
what it actually is. 
It's very real while you're 

708
00:49:50,600 --> 00:49:53,840
walking through it. 
But once you get to the other 

709
00:49:53,840 --> 00:49:58,360
side, you go, oh, I see. 
In Theosophy we call that 

710
00:49:58,360 --> 00:50:00,160
dealing with the dweller on the 
threshold. 

711
00:50:00,160 --> 00:50:05,560
And that is our personality 
untrain, our shadow self fully 

712
00:50:06,000 --> 00:50:09,160
emboldened instead of 
integrated. 

713
00:50:10,000 --> 00:50:15,760
We're not supposed to defeat it.
We're supposed to integrate it. 

714
00:50:16,120 --> 00:50:20,280
And this Libra Full moon is 
giving us the opportunity to 

715
00:50:20,400 --> 00:50:27,040
integrate. 
And if you're a patron, I'll be 

716
00:50:27,040 --> 00:50:29,840
talking about that in this 
week's Patron Only podcast. 

717
00:50:31,200 --> 00:50:35,200
All righty, let's take a look at
what's in the headlines. 

718
00:50:35,200 --> 00:50:38,440
And then we're going to talk a 
little bit more about the moon 

719
00:50:39,120 --> 00:50:42,440
and the healing path in dealing 
with the mother wound. 

720
00:50:44,640 --> 00:50:46,560
All right, what's up in the 
headlines? 

721
00:50:47,120 --> 00:50:49,600
You can Fast forward this part 
if you don't want to hear it. 

722
00:50:49,960 --> 00:50:54,360
It's a spicy, spicy month. 
It's a spicy, spicy month. 

723
00:50:54,400 --> 00:50:56,240
And again, I'm still working on 
the magazine. 

724
00:50:56,240 --> 00:50:58,720
Sorry about that. 
Magazine subscribers, it is well

725
00:50:58,720 --> 00:51:02,120
worth the wait. 
It'll be out this week. 

726
00:51:02,640 --> 00:51:04,800
I might just have to get down 
and dirty. 

727
00:51:04,800 --> 00:51:08,360
Mom breaking her arm did not 
help. 

728
00:51:08,360 --> 00:51:11,080
Did I tell you about that last 
week that my mother broke her 

729
00:51:11,080 --> 00:51:12,640
wrist? 
Yes. 

730
00:51:12,640 --> 00:51:18,080
She goes to the orthopedic 
surgeon on Monday and we'll find

731
00:51:18,080 --> 00:51:24,280
out more about that. 
For a little Gemini anyway, if 

732
00:51:24,280 --> 00:51:29,360
you're a magazine subscriber, I 
read the horoscope so you can 

733
00:51:29,360 --> 00:51:33,440
check that out, but you also 
have the hot off the press 

734
00:51:33,440 --> 00:51:37,120
unedited version in there. 
The version I read is the edited

735
00:51:37,120 --> 00:51:38,920
version after Jessica got a hold
of it. 

736
00:51:38,920 --> 00:51:44,400
Jessica is my handy dandy editor
who puts up with me. 

737
00:51:46,200 --> 00:51:50,960
And here we go, just moving so I
can see and read. 

738
00:51:51,000 --> 00:51:56,760
All right, April 5th through the
8th, the Moon in Leo roars and 

739
00:51:56,760 --> 00:52:00,280
fizzles and sparks. 
Do we or don't we? 

740
00:52:00,280 --> 00:52:02,560
That's the energy of the Moon in
Leo. 

741
00:52:02,560 --> 00:52:05,560
Remember, the Moon moves signs 
every 2 1/2 days. 

742
00:52:06,680 --> 00:52:10,040
We could see warehouse 
manufacturing a chemical or a 

743
00:52:10,040 --> 00:52:12,800
chemical plant. 
It could be an AND or or both. 

744
00:52:13,000 --> 00:52:17,520
Has a big fire or explosion. 
This is global unseasonable 

745
00:52:17,520 --> 00:52:21,480
humid weather or high temps 
tensions erupt in the Straits of

746
00:52:21,480 --> 00:52:25,880
Taiwan or territorial waters of 
the Philippines. the US could 

747
00:52:25,880 --> 00:52:29,840
bomb Iran or Iranian backed 
forces could hit AUS target 

748
00:52:29,840 --> 00:52:33,440
exploding tensions or there 
could be the threat of war 

749
00:52:33,800 --> 00:52:37,640
that's been heating up now. 
I wrote this before the threats 

750
00:52:38,160 --> 00:52:42,440
and some of this is from my 2025
year ahead as well. 

751
00:52:43,480 --> 00:52:47,800
I think that could be more 
towards the evening of the 7th 

752
00:52:47,800 --> 00:52:52,400
or into the early morning of the
eighth issues in the Levant, 

753
00:52:52,400 --> 00:52:56,080
that's Israel, Jordan, Syria, 
Lebanon and northern Iraq. 

754
00:52:56,800 --> 00:52:59,000
US foreign policy change could 
be announced. 

755
00:52:59,000 --> 00:53:02,240
We could see surprise attacks on
military installations, Navy 

756
00:53:02,240 --> 00:53:06,640
ships and or military commands. 
This is global issues with 

757
00:53:06,640 --> 00:53:08,960
drones, missiles and incendiary 
devices. 

758
00:53:08,960 --> 00:53:12,200
Leaks of sensitive material or 
documents, incriminating 

759
00:53:12,200 --> 00:53:16,560
politician or politicians. 
All financial markets are under 

760
00:53:16,560 --> 00:53:18,120
strain. 
Violent rhetoric. 

761
00:53:18,280 --> 00:53:21,440
Rhetoric incites physical 
violence, either resistance or 

762
00:53:21,440 --> 00:53:24,440
acting on orders. 
And that's in quotations. 

763
00:53:25,640 --> 00:53:29,520
Internet outages, power outages 
and issues with communications, 

764
00:53:29,520 --> 00:53:33,480
chemical weapons, incendiary 
devices and torpedoes. 

765
00:53:33,480 --> 00:53:37,880
All of those could be in the 
headlines in any way, shape or 

766
00:53:37,880 --> 00:53:40,120
form. 
OK, so it doesn't just mean 

767
00:53:40,120 --> 00:53:43,040
they'll be used, but it could be
something's found or something's

768
00:53:43,040 --> 00:53:46,000
discussed. 
Tornadoes, hail, lightning, 

769
00:53:46,000 --> 00:53:49,480
drought threats, big storm 
systems that cycle. 

770
00:53:49,720 --> 00:53:52,840
So it depends on where you live.
Hacking, server failures, 

771
00:53:52,840 --> 00:53:57,000
ransomware, and issues with 
ATMATMS, payment gateways, or 

772
00:53:57,000 --> 00:54:00,760
popular Internet services could 
see big lightning, tornado, 

773
00:54:00,760 --> 00:54:04,080
hail, and storms that start 
fires in rural areas. 

774
00:54:04,080 --> 00:54:09,200
That's global, so looking at you
Australia, maybe South Africa as

775
00:54:09,200 --> 00:54:13,600
well, Argentina, Chile, issues 
in the tech sector, servers go 

776
00:54:13,600 --> 00:54:17,120
down or there's an event that 
takes a large company offline. 

777
00:54:17,760 --> 00:54:21,560
A brand has scandal or big name 
celebrity has a scandal. 

778
00:54:21,680 --> 00:54:27,760
Mining accident, collapse, 
accident and or collapse or 

779
00:54:27,760 --> 00:54:31,240
issue with minerals, mineral 
rights and mining. 

780
00:54:31,600 --> 00:54:34,000
Vehicular fire or exploding 
vehicle. 

781
00:54:34,000 --> 00:54:38,160
Solar flare or solar form storm 
which could also mean Aurora 

782
00:54:38,160 --> 00:54:43,520
borealis, typhoons, cyclones, 
winds, fires of all kinds, big 

783
00:54:43,520 --> 00:54:47,360
tornadoes possible. 
The moon moves into Virgo April 

784
00:54:47,360 --> 00:54:51,960
8th through the 10th and what I 
have here is moon and Virgo is 

785
00:54:51,960 --> 00:54:56,400
showing holds in the process and
methodology is flawed. 

786
00:54:56,600 --> 00:55:00,520
OK, so the process isn't really 
moving forward things the the 

787
00:55:00,520 --> 00:55:04,080
gaps in the process. 
Erosion causing events, big 

788
00:55:04,080 --> 00:55:07,800
waves, potential tsunami. 
Increased possibility of seismic

789
00:55:07,800 --> 00:55:10,840
activity over A5 point O in all 
active regions. 

790
00:55:10,840 --> 00:55:13,120
Looking at Pacific Coast of 
Mexico. 

791
00:55:13,760 --> 00:55:17,600
Big rain causing large amounts 
of damage on the ground. 

792
00:55:17,600 --> 00:55:22,160
Erosion events, landslides, rock
slides, sinkholes, tornadoes, 

793
00:55:22,160 --> 00:55:28,560
hail, snow, ice, big waves, air,
water and foodborne diseases. 

794
00:55:28,560 --> 00:55:30,760
Measles and shingles hit the 
headlines. 

795
00:55:31,400 --> 00:55:35,760
Issues with harbors, estuaries 
and canals Could be Panama, Suez

796
00:55:35,760 --> 00:55:39,440
or Straits of Gibraltar or the 
Straits of Hormuz. 

797
00:55:39,480 --> 00:55:44,800
Straits of Taiwan issue with the
cruise ships or a cruise ship 

798
00:55:44,800 --> 00:55:50,200
and it could be anything from 
rotavirus to an accident or 

799
00:55:50,200 --> 00:55:54,040
dealing with the weather, 
missile, drone or rocket launch 

800
00:55:54,040 --> 00:55:57,200
goes wrong. 
Voting irregularities, issues 

801
00:55:57,200 --> 00:55:59,840
with voting regulation or 
manipulation. 

802
00:56:00,120 --> 00:56:03,080
This global systems grind to a 
halt. 

803
00:56:03,360 --> 00:56:07,440
Things have trouble working and 
that would be schools, states, 

804
00:56:07,440 --> 00:56:13,080
governments or mechanical. 
So any kind of system is under 

805
00:56:13,080 --> 00:56:17,360
strain, laws suspended, impeded,
or system failures. 

806
00:56:18,240 --> 00:56:22,200
Expect issues with supply chain,
trucking vehicles and trains. 

807
00:56:22,520 --> 00:56:25,720
Deals and negotiations go 
sideways, fall apart or get 

808
00:56:25,720 --> 00:56:27,800
delayed. 
International and domestic 

809
00:56:27,800 --> 00:56:32,000
political and business 
instability in the Middle East, 

810
00:56:32,000 --> 00:56:36,160
Eastern Europe, NATO and other 
international organizations make

811
00:56:36,160 --> 00:56:39,280
announcements. 
Offshore earthquakes over a six 

812
00:56:39,280 --> 00:56:43,240
point O or on land could see up 
to A-65. 

813
00:56:43,240 --> 00:56:46,960
Any seismic region. 
Am looking at Mexico, Chile and 

814
00:56:46,960 --> 00:56:51,000
the Mid-Atlantic. 
Issues with US, Mexico border 

815
00:56:51,560 --> 00:56:55,360
border crossings, issues with 
mountains and summits and that 

816
00:56:55,360 --> 00:56:59,400
could be Canada but it could 
also be in Europe or between 

817
00:56:59,400 --> 00:57:02,400
like in the Hindu Kush region in
the Himalayas. 

818
00:57:02,400 --> 00:57:05,240
Things like that. 
Attacks on judges and civil 

819
00:57:05,240 --> 00:57:10,720
servants, global immigration and
custom matters, global poison, 

820
00:57:10,720 --> 00:57:13,040
food poisoning or issues with 
tainted food. 

821
00:57:13,040 --> 00:57:16,920
Assassination attempts global 
and potential disruption or 

822
00:57:16,920 --> 00:57:21,600
illness of a major world leader 
or leaders. 

823
00:57:21,640 --> 00:57:25,480
So we shall see what happens 
with that moon in Virgo. 

824
00:57:25,480 --> 00:57:27,240
Remember that the transits are 
global. 

825
00:57:27,360 --> 00:57:31,440
Accidents or political upheaval 
can also show up as big storms 

826
00:57:31,440 --> 00:57:33,400
or natural events and vice 
versa. 

827
00:57:34,600 --> 00:57:37,800
And then April 10th through the 
13th, which on the 12th we have 

828
00:57:37,800 --> 00:57:40,920
that big old full moon. 
And this is what I said about 

829
00:57:40,920 --> 00:57:44,400
the moon in Libra. 
It has zero chill and is highly 

830
00:57:44,400 --> 00:57:46,800
decisive. 
It's not indecisive. 

831
00:57:47,160 --> 00:57:49,720
It's a little kill bill ish 
energy. 

832
00:57:50,440 --> 00:57:53,760
We can see big protest, global 
things get out of hand and 

833
00:57:53,760 --> 00:57:57,520
violence could escalate. 
Big wind, temperature changes, 

834
00:57:57,800 --> 00:57:59,920
issues with air and ocean 
currents. 

835
00:57:59,920 --> 00:58:03,360
Winds could be extreme and hot 
in some places. 

836
00:58:03,760 --> 00:58:07,400
Air traffic disruptions due to 
labor strikes and contract 

837
00:58:07,400 --> 00:58:11,120
negotiations. 
Massive transportation failures,

838
00:58:11,120 --> 00:58:13,760
Air Accidents or planes 
grounded. 

839
00:58:13,760 --> 00:58:16,240
Airspace could be closed this 
global. 

840
00:58:17,200 --> 00:58:20,160
Public protests continue. 
Issues outside of courts and 

841
00:58:20,160 --> 00:58:22,520
public offices. 
Satellites and communication 

842
00:58:22,520 --> 00:58:25,480
disruption. 
Internet failures and technical 

843
00:58:25,480 --> 00:58:29,680
issues in general. 
Terrorist attack this global. 

844
00:58:30,320 --> 00:58:32,200
Noted. 
Violence in urban centers, 

845
00:58:32,200 --> 00:58:35,520
Global international 
organizations have crisis, 

846
00:58:35,520 --> 00:58:39,240
threats of war, threats of 
nukes, and that's in quotations,

847
00:58:39,440 --> 00:58:42,560
worrying words. 
Military units go rogue, or 

848
00:58:42,560 --> 00:58:45,640
there could be sabotage of 
military equipments or violence 

849
00:58:45,640 --> 00:58:47,600
at a base. 
I'm thinking Eastern Europe on 

850
00:58:47,600 --> 00:58:51,600
this one or in NATO countries 
but could be in the United 

851
00:58:51,600 --> 00:58:54,920
States. 
Elon Musk under scrutiny, under 

852
00:58:54,920 --> 00:58:57,520
scrutiny. 
Elon Musk under scrutiny could 

853
00:58:57,520 --> 00:59:00,960
face a deep investigation. 
Supreme Court or other High 

854
00:59:00,960 --> 00:59:03,960
Court judges, global or 
international court in the news,

855
00:59:04,280 --> 00:59:08,080
ICC or ICJ mentioned or make 
declarations. 

856
00:59:08,480 --> 00:59:11,480
Lawyers under attack, under 
threat or could see actual 

857
00:59:11,480 --> 00:59:14,520
physical harm to legal 
professional or professionals 

858
00:59:14,760 --> 00:59:18,920
including judges and justices. 
New information leaked about 

859
00:59:18,960 --> 00:59:22,240
U.S. officials and or financial 
matters to do with an elected 

860
00:59:22,240 --> 00:59:25,920
official and this could be that 
specifically in the United 

861
00:59:25,920 --> 00:59:27,520
States, but it could also be 
Canada. 

862
00:59:28,680 --> 00:59:31,840
Public violence, mass shooting, 
stabbing, or issue with domestic

863
00:59:31,840 --> 00:59:34,320
violence. 
We can see war like behavior 

864
00:59:34,320 --> 00:59:37,360
bombing attacks, ceasefires 
fail, extreme violence on 

865
00:59:37,360 --> 00:59:40,480
borders or missile launch to a 
serious target. 

866
00:59:40,480 --> 00:59:45,640
Global politician unseated, 
deposed or removed Global 

867
00:59:46,920 --> 00:59:50,160
popular uprisings increase in 
numbers. 

868
00:59:50,560 --> 00:59:56,720
And that is what we've got for 
the week because that gets us 

869
00:59:56,720 --> 00:59:59,760
through the end of this week. 
So here's the deal. 

870
00:59:59,760 --> 01:00:04,080
I I had a comment that I I just 
blocked and deleted the guy, but

871
01:00:04,080 --> 01:00:05,560
on TikTok and they were like 
you. 

872
01:00:05,600 --> 01:00:08,920
She just gives general stuff on 
her podcast. 

873
01:00:09,520 --> 01:00:10,840
Yeah. 
If you want something more 

874
01:00:10,840 --> 01:00:13,680
specific, pop into the Awake 
Space chat, which means you have

875
01:00:13,680 --> 01:00:19,280
to be a supporting member. 
This is this public podcast. 

876
01:00:19,400 --> 01:00:23,200
You're getting themes and that's
what mundane astrology does. 

877
01:00:23,280 --> 01:00:26,080
It's themes. 
And I'm not just giving very, 

878
01:00:26,080 --> 01:00:28,960
very, if you look and you can 
critically think, which 

879
01:00:28,960 --> 01:00:32,800
obviously that gentleman could 
not do, you're not noticing 

880
01:00:32,800 --> 01:00:36,400
there's a theme in those 
predictions. 

881
01:00:36,400 --> 01:00:40,640
So it's a little stabby stabby 
out there this week. 

882
01:00:42,640 --> 01:00:47,200
Like I've been saying, don't 
rage quit, rage apply, you know,

883
01:00:47,200 --> 01:00:51,440
don't jump on impulse. 
It's going to be a little dicey.

884
01:00:52,080 --> 01:00:58,000
All righty, let's talk about the
moon and its role in healing the

885
01:00:58,000 --> 01:00:59,560
mother wound. 
All right, so let's talk about 

886
01:00:59,560 --> 01:01:03,600
the moon in astrology. 
It does represent the biological

887
01:01:03,680 --> 01:01:08,400
mother in all cases, and yet it 
also in the modern era 

888
01:01:08,400 --> 01:01:12,160
represents the more nurturing 
parent, which could be the 

889
01:01:12,160 --> 01:01:15,040
father, the grandmother, the 
auntie, whoever was the 

890
01:01:15,040 --> 01:01:21,640
caretaker of the child. 
It also shows how we process 

891
01:01:21,640 --> 01:01:24,640
emotions. 
There isn't a single sign that 

892
01:01:24,640 --> 01:01:30,720
does not process emotions. 
OK, every single moon has a way 

893
01:01:30,760 --> 01:01:39,320
it emotes, but we have this 
idea, this ideal about what is 

894
01:01:40,160 --> 01:01:43,880
emotive and why isn't. 
So someone who appears stoic, 

895
01:01:44,240 --> 01:01:48,320
who gets insular and quiet, is 
considered unemotional. 

896
01:01:48,800 --> 01:01:52,000
What you're not seeing is them 
crying their eyes out in 

897
01:01:52,000 --> 01:01:55,560
private. 
Every single moon sign is 

898
01:01:55,560 --> 01:02:03,800
emotional in their own way. 
I've had Aquarius moons cry in 

899
01:02:03,800 --> 01:02:06,480
my sessions because it's safe to
do so. 

900
01:02:07,600 --> 01:02:12,280
Always an honor. 
I have had Virgo moons cry in a 

901
01:02:12,280 --> 01:02:15,720
session because it's safe to do 
so. 

902
01:02:18,560 --> 01:02:26,160
We need to understand that there
is more than one way to sense 

903
01:02:26,200 --> 01:02:29,840
and feel, express and process 
emotion. 

904
01:02:30,840 --> 01:02:37,600
So for those of you who emote in
public, whether you want to or 

905
01:02:37,600 --> 01:02:44,240
not as part of your nature, 
don't judge the people who 

906
01:02:44,240 --> 01:02:52,480
don't, OK? 
Not everyone wants to talk about

907
01:02:52,480 --> 01:02:57,400
their feelings all the time. 
Not everyone is a verbal 

908
01:02:57,400 --> 01:03:02,040
processor. 
Some people are very internal. 

909
01:03:02,680 --> 01:03:06,720
Other people need to process 
their emotions with someone 

910
01:03:06,720 --> 01:03:09,520
else. 
The important thing is picking 

911
01:03:09,520 --> 01:03:14,640
the people to do it with. 
Now let's go back to the mother.

912
01:03:16,560 --> 01:03:21,000
Your moon sign does show and the
house placement as well does 

913
01:03:21,000 --> 01:03:27,160
show. 
Your perception of the nurturing

914
01:03:27,160 --> 01:03:33,840
parent. 
OK, your perception of the 

915
01:03:33,840 --> 01:03:40,840
nurturing parent. 
Not everybody is going to be of 

916
01:03:40,840 --> 01:03:45,000
the same makeup emotionally, and
sometimes being of the same 

917
01:03:45,000 --> 01:03:47,400
makeup doesn't help. 
Sometimes having exactly the 

918
01:03:47,400 --> 01:03:50,880
same makeup is a lot of energy 
in all one place because you're 

919
01:03:50,880 --> 01:03:52,560
getting hit by the same 
transits. 

920
01:03:53,320 --> 01:03:57,920
Anybody who has a lunar return 
child or parent who had you at 

921
01:03:57,920 --> 01:04:00,320
their lunar return is going to 
know that if you're getting 

922
01:04:00,600 --> 01:04:05,240
major planetary transits to that
moon of yours, well, so is your 

923
01:04:05,240 --> 01:04:10,880
child or so is your parent. 
And it's intense, OK, We're not 

924
01:04:10,880 --> 01:04:14,840
all supposed to be the same. 
And depending on when someone 

925
01:04:14,840 --> 01:04:20,280
was born and the awareness 
around parenting and the role a 

926
01:04:20,280 --> 01:04:23,600
parent plays in a child's 
development, we're going to see 

927
01:04:23,600 --> 01:04:26,760
different things. 
So someone born in the 1930s and

928
01:04:26,760 --> 01:04:31,480
the 1940s would have a very 
different story of a parent who 

929
01:04:31,480 --> 01:04:37,800
had no reproductive choice, by 
the way, and an expectation of 

930
01:04:37,800 --> 01:04:40,440
bearing children, even if, you 
know, they didn't want them. 

931
01:04:41,960 --> 01:04:44,280
If they were married, they 
didn't really have a choice. 

932
01:04:44,960 --> 01:04:50,800
They had no real options. 
There's going to be different 

933
01:04:50,800 --> 01:04:55,120
experiences to people who were 
raised at a time where people 

934
01:04:55,160 --> 01:05:00,880
had more options, whether they 
exercised the option or not, and

935
01:05:00,880 --> 01:05:05,760
had more tools around parenting,
more information, more knowledge

936
01:05:05,760 --> 01:05:09,920
of childhood development, right?
You're going to see different 

937
01:05:09,920 --> 01:05:12,040
things. 
I know because I've read for 

938
01:05:12,040 --> 01:05:17,080
people born in the 20s, actually
the teens when I was a young 

939
01:05:17,240 --> 01:05:21,160
astrologer, I got people born in
the teens, the 20's, the 30's, 

940
01:05:21,160 --> 01:05:25,360
the 40s. 
And then at this end I'm reading

941
01:05:25,360 --> 01:05:30,720
people who even some teenagers 
now, right, their parents will 

942
01:05:30,720 --> 01:05:35,600
book a reading. 
And there's a very big 

943
01:05:35,600 --> 01:05:40,840
difference in how these things 
express and the experience of 

944
01:05:40,840 --> 01:05:45,600
the child in having been 
parented by the nurturing 

945
01:05:45,600 --> 01:05:52,560
parent. 
OK, as I said earlier in the 

946
01:05:52,560 --> 01:06:02,160
podcast, I take offense at the 
mother wound as an overemphasis 

947
01:06:02,160 --> 01:06:08,640
because there's this expectation
or an idealization of what the 

948
01:06:08,640 --> 01:06:18,280
role of mother actually means. 
Now, if you were left neglected,

949
01:06:18,960 --> 01:06:25,200
which means you were in dirty 
clothes, no good food for no 

950
01:06:25,200 --> 01:06:29,280
good reason, there was plenty 
for everybody except you, You 

951
01:06:29,280 --> 01:06:31,160
weren't. 
You were left unnourished. 

952
01:06:31,840 --> 01:06:33,280
You were locked out of the 
house. 

953
01:06:34,800 --> 01:06:42,680
That's one thing. 
But not speaking the same 

954
01:06:42,680 --> 01:06:49,160
emotional language means there 
was a broken down communication 

955
01:06:50,040 --> 01:06:56,760
system and a lack of tools. 
This expectation of being able 

956
01:06:56,760 --> 01:07:04,920
to intuit your needs is a little
much because it we're not 

957
01:07:04,920 --> 01:07:12,520
understanding that mother is not
a universal skill set, OK? 

958
01:07:12,640 --> 01:07:24,080
What kind of mother, right? 
Likewise with father. 

959
01:07:24,080 --> 01:07:25,560
But we're not talking about 
father right now. 

960
01:07:25,560 --> 01:07:33,400
We're talking about mother, OK? 
There is a big difference 

961
01:07:33,400 --> 01:07:37,880
between being left to fend for 
yourself and being taught skills

962
01:07:37,880 --> 01:07:41,360
around autonomy. 
So if you were made to do your 

963
01:07:41,360 --> 01:07:49,120
own laundry, or made to walk 
school, or made to be 

964
01:07:49,120 --> 01:07:52,960
accountable for your own 
homework or your own employment,

965
01:07:56,000 --> 01:08:00,600
there is another story. 
If a parent is siphoning your 

966
01:08:00,600 --> 01:08:04,960
resources and demanding you pay 
for things when they're fully 

967
01:08:04,960 --> 01:08:13,120
able, demanding you pay rent as 
a child, let's say 1415161718. 

968
01:08:13,960 --> 01:08:15,880
Little different story once 
you're an adult. 

969
01:08:17,680 --> 01:08:20,080
Because contributing to the 
household is a good thing 

970
01:08:23,279 --> 01:08:26,640
depending on the social and 
economic status of the family, 

971
01:08:26,640 --> 01:08:32,319
right? 
Being asked to participate in 

972
01:08:32,319 --> 01:08:36,359
household chores is part of 
being in a family. 

973
01:08:38,600 --> 01:08:43,479
Being made to do everything 
while a parent sits with 

974
01:08:43,479 --> 01:08:47,200
addiction might be another 
story. 

975
01:08:52,520 --> 01:09:01,920
Having an abandonment wound 
would be more from being 

976
01:09:01,920 --> 01:09:08,319
untended versus having a parent 
who had to work all the time. 

977
01:09:08,319 --> 01:09:12,600
It still produces A wound, but 
how else were things going to 

978
01:09:12,600 --> 01:09:22,439
get paid for, right? 
I am not excusing abusive 

979
01:09:22,439 --> 01:09:31,920
behavior, but I think sometimes 
when I look at what's being 

980
01:09:31,920 --> 01:09:37,680
talked about on social media 
itself, I see things being 

981
01:09:37,680 --> 01:09:43,479
stretched a little and not 
understanding reality. 

982
01:09:45,520 --> 01:09:48,399
No one is offered a perfect 
Life. 

983
01:09:49,479 --> 01:09:55,800
OK, When I do parent child 
readings, which is where I help 

984
01:09:55,800 --> 01:09:59,320
parents understand their 
children and what their 

985
01:09:59,320 --> 01:10:03,680
children's needs are and how to 
communicate best with the child.

986
01:10:04,440 --> 01:10:11,080
And let's say a parent has a 
more verbally or demonstrative 

987
01:10:11,600 --> 01:10:16,080
way of processing emotions, and 
their child perhaps has a more 

988
01:10:16,080 --> 01:10:22,880
private or analytical approach 
to dealing with their emotions. 

989
01:10:24,680 --> 01:10:29,600
I talk about how to best work 
with the child because it's 

990
01:10:29,600 --> 01:10:32,680
never the child's job to 
understand the parent as a 

991
01:10:32,720 --> 01:10:37,720
child, as a small child, once 
you come to adulthood, I highly 

992
01:10:37,720 --> 01:10:42,320
suggest you look at your parents
as human beings and not as 

993
01:10:42,320 --> 01:10:46,280
archetypal figures like gods and
goddesses, you know, that fall 

994
01:10:46,280 --> 01:10:51,120
off their pillars. 
You know, because they are human

995
01:10:52,800 --> 01:10:55,440
with no real manual on how to do
life. 

996
01:10:55,440 --> 01:10:57,400
They're figuring it out the same
as you. 

997
01:10:57,400 --> 01:10:59,840
And it's usually when you get to
your mid 30s, you take a look 

998
01:10:59,840 --> 01:11:03,880
and you're like, Oh yeah, what 
did they know? 

999
01:11:05,360 --> 01:11:07,480
Right? 
I'm trying to figure out my 

1000
01:11:07,480 --> 01:11:09,360
life. 
Look at what they were dealing 

1001
01:11:09,360 --> 01:11:11,280
with. 
Doesn't give them a pass for, 

1002
01:11:11,280 --> 01:11:15,400
again, any abusive behavior. 
But one of the things I learned 

1003
01:11:15,400 --> 01:11:18,680
in my own healing journey was to
separate what was parenting and 

1004
01:11:18,680 --> 01:11:24,240
what was abuse, What was 
parenting and what was 

1005
01:11:24,240 --> 01:11:27,800
dysfunction. 
Sometimes it was parenting and I

1006
01:11:27,800 --> 01:11:32,560
just didn't like it when I was 
young because I didn't have the 

1007
01:11:32,560 --> 01:11:34,680
perspective or the 
understanding. 

1008
01:11:35,480 --> 01:11:38,320
And sometimes it was abuse or 
dysfunction. 

1009
01:11:40,840 --> 01:11:44,160
Learning how to separate that 
out is very, very important. 

1010
01:11:44,760 --> 01:11:53,080
So when we look to our moon 
sign, it shows how we sense and 

1011
01:11:53,080 --> 01:11:58,200
feel and process. 
It's our, it's, it's how we 

1012
01:11:58,200 --> 01:12:01,480
navigate the world as an 
instinctual being. 

1013
01:12:01,800 --> 01:12:08,120
And it shows, yes, some of the 
connection to our parent, the 

1014
01:12:08,120 --> 01:12:16,480
nurturing parent and the healing
route isn't really focusing on 

1015
01:12:16,480 --> 01:12:20,800
the parent. 
It's focusing on how to meet our

1016
01:12:20,800 --> 01:12:26,200
emotional needs. 
So if you need to talk through 

1017
01:12:26,200 --> 01:12:34,160
your feelings or get a hug and 
have demonstrative affection, or

1018
01:12:34,160 --> 01:12:41,280
if you need things to be orderly
and in process and tidy and 

1019
01:12:41,280 --> 01:12:50,720
categorized, or if you need a 
sounding board, or if you need 

1020
01:12:50,720 --> 01:12:58,960
private and quiet to process, 
it's very, very important. 

1021
01:13:00,600 --> 01:13:14,160
We can see if there is potential
for dysfunction or support, and 

1022
01:13:14,160 --> 01:13:17,840
sometimes both because life 
usually isn't either or. 

1023
01:13:17,840 --> 01:13:20,880
Very few people get lucky enough
for a perfect batting average 

1024
01:13:20,880 --> 01:13:23,640
when it comes to their 
experience with their parents. 

1025
01:13:25,440 --> 01:13:32,080
OK, we can see where you idolize
a parent or where you were never

1026
01:13:32,080 --> 01:13:35,320
really going to job. 
I think before we dive into the 

1027
01:13:35,320 --> 01:13:44,240
pain story and and swim in that 
deep sea and take it again with 

1028
01:13:44,240 --> 01:13:47,600
a grain of salt because I've 
done this and and I've done it 

1029
01:13:48,280 --> 01:13:52,400
every way you can, including 
swimming in the deep end of the 

1030
01:13:52,400 --> 01:13:55,800
pool down into the depths, into 
The Cave. 

1031
01:13:57,320 --> 01:14:01,120
Hold my breath that we really, 
really, really take a look at it

1032
01:14:02,200 --> 01:14:09,560
and say, what about this path is
integrating me? 

1033
01:14:11,600 --> 01:14:16,840
How can I find emotional 
alignment? 

1034
01:14:19,520 --> 01:14:25,920
What do I need to feel secure? 
Because if you're 35, if you're 

1035
01:14:25,920 --> 01:14:32,320
45, if you're 55, if you're 25, 
and you're seeking your 

1036
01:14:32,320 --> 01:14:37,760
appearance to own up to what you
think they need to own up to as 

1037
01:14:37,760 --> 01:14:41,080
the basis of your healing, you 
can wait a lifetime. 

1038
01:14:41,080 --> 01:14:44,200
You may never see things eye to 
eye, but if you can look at your

1039
01:14:44,200 --> 01:14:52,880
moon and understand that how you
process is how you process, then

1040
01:14:53,720 --> 01:14:58,600
you're on the route to healing. 
Then find the ways to do that. 

1041
01:14:58,600 --> 01:15:01,080
For some people it's writing it 
all out and journaling. 

1042
01:15:03,760 --> 01:15:11,760
For some people it is an 
opportunity to find that quiet 

1043
01:15:11,760 --> 01:15:15,720
inner space. 
For some people, it's learning 

1044
01:15:15,720 --> 01:15:24,000
to trust enough to share. 
I find in the personal growth 

1045
01:15:24,000 --> 01:15:28,160
space there's a lot of emotional
voyeurism, people wanting you to

1046
01:15:28,160 --> 01:15:32,160
tell your story, people needing 
you to express the pain and own 

1047
01:15:32,160 --> 01:15:34,400
the label because it makes them 
money. 

1048
01:15:34,440 --> 01:15:37,960
That's the motivation. 
Some people cry as a release 

1049
01:15:37,960 --> 01:15:41,280
vowel. 
Other people don't want to cry 

1050
01:15:41,280 --> 01:15:44,640
because if they get started it's
hard to stop and then they get a

1051
01:15:44,640 --> 01:15:47,280
sinus headache. 
Some people have a hard time 

1052
01:15:47,280 --> 01:15:50,920
cognifying their feelings and 
need to do things like make 

1053
01:15:50,920 --> 01:15:57,880
music or listen to music or do 
art or craft or clean or tidy or

1054
01:15:57,880 --> 01:16:04,120
garden or run it off. 
None of those are wrong if 

1055
01:16:04,120 --> 01:16:08,040
you're not harming yourself in 
it where you take it 

1056
01:16:08,040 --> 01:16:12,560
consciously. 
Remember, the moon has no light 

1057
01:16:12,560 --> 01:16:16,200
of its own. 
It sheds the light of the sun. 

1058
01:16:16,560 --> 01:16:23,240
So understanding the role your 
moon plays in your life is 

1059
01:16:23,240 --> 01:16:27,280
important because your life 
force needs to be shining upon 

1060
01:16:27,280 --> 01:16:29,840
that moon. 
Instead, what we do is we put 

1061
01:16:29,840 --> 01:16:32,880
our moon out there and expect 
everybody else to shine their 

1062
01:16:32,880 --> 01:16:35,680
light on it. 
And nobody can have you in their

1063
01:16:35,680 --> 01:16:40,640
full attention 100% of the time.
And that's why we get mad at 

1064
01:16:40,640 --> 01:16:43,960
Mama. 
Because Mama, supposedly he's 

1065
01:16:43,960 --> 01:16:48,280
supposed to hold us and nurture 
us and gaze at us and talk to us

1066
01:16:48,600 --> 01:16:53,640
and guide us and lead us. 
And yet in this society, many 

1067
01:16:53,640 --> 01:16:59,240
infants are put into child care 
at less than six weeks old. 

1068
01:17:01,400 --> 01:17:05,080
And then we blame Mom. 
But Mom had to work or nobody 

1069
01:17:05,080 --> 01:17:09,240
had somewhere to live or eat, 
food to eat. 

1070
01:17:09,240 --> 01:17:11,680
That's important. 
Clothes to wear, educational 

1071
01:17:11,680 --> 01:17:16,200
supplies, the Internet you're 
using, right? 

1072
01:17:16,200 --> 01:17:19,840
So as an adult, I'm not talking 
about it as a child, but as an 

1073
01:17:19,840 --> 01:17:26,680
adult, it's up to you to shine 
your light on your moon and to 

1074
01:17:26,680 --> 01:17:29,400
give yourself that. 
So some people call that inner 

1075
01:17:29,400 --> 01:17:32,920
child work. 
I don't believe in having an 

1076
01:17:32,920 --> 01:17:36,400
inner child because I believe 
that the child self and the 

1077
01:17:36,400 --> 01:17:39,360
adult self are the same person 
with more light, one has more 

1078
01:17:39,360 --> 01:17:42,200
life experience. 
But you don't you're not a 

1079
01:17:42,200 --> 01:17:47,920
Pokémon and you don't evolve 
from one form to the next if you

1080
01:17:48,040 --> 01:17:49,440
and it's also not true if you 
don't. 

1081
01:17:49,520 --> 01:17:51,720
You know that the only people 
who don't have childhood 

1082
01:17:51,720 --> 01:17:59,320
memories have trauma. 
That's that's not true because 

1083
01:17:59,320 --> 01:18:03,160
you can have very clear 
childhood memories of trauma, 

1084
01:18:03,760 --> 01:18:08,760
OK, depends on the person. 
There's not one way to do this 

1085
01:18:08,760 --> 01:18:10,040
life. 
There's not one way to 

1086
01:18:10,040 --> 01:18:13,480
experience trauma and there is 
more than one way to heal from 

1087
01:18:13,480 --> 01:18:17,000
it. 
OK, we are not stuck, but it 

1088
01:18:17,000 --> 01:18:19,680
does take the liberation and it 
does take commitment. 

1089
01:18:20,440 --> 01:18:26,480
OK, but it let's call it, you 
know, attending our younger self

1090
01:18:26,720 --> 01:18:30,200
and nurturing yourself and 
giving yourself what you wish 

1091
01:18:30,200 --> 01:18:31,680
your parent would have given 
you. 

1092
01:18:33,440 --> 01:18:37,480
OK, instead of repatterning by 
treating yourself poorly, 

1093
01:18:38,120 --> 01:18:41,600
whether it's through negative 
self talk, obsessive thinking, 

1094
01:18:42,960 --> 01:18:46,280
intrusive thoughts, letting them
run wild, we can't stop them. 

1095
01:18:46,280 --> 01:18:51,600
It's, it's not always easy. 
It does take effort, but those 

1096
01:18:51,600 --> 01:18:58,840
are all processes. 
We could look at our habits. 

1097
01:18:58,840 --> 01:19:03,240
Are we consuming things in to 
fill an emotional void in 

1098
01:19:03,240 --> 01:19:09,280
exchange for what we think are 
our needs instead of giving 

1099
01:19:09,280 --> 01:19:15,360
ourselves the space, the respect
as a person. 

1100
01:19:15,360 --> 01:19:19,560
Because yes, we can respect our 
children as human beings and see

1101
01:19:19,560 --> 01:19:23,320
them as human beings. 
Not extensions of self, not 

1102
01:19:23,360 --> 01:19:34,760
little mini me's right. 
Not putting too much of A load 

1103
01:19:34,760 --> 01:19:50,770
on them, but giving them support
and boundaries and rules. 

1104
01:19:51,560 --> 01:19:54,280
Some kids don't like rules. 
Oh, that's OK. 

1105
01:19:55,520 --> 01:19:59,760
Rules are there to keep us safe.
I used to have. 

1106
01:20:01,680 --> 01:20:04,480
I used to have to tell Sarah 
when she was growing up. 

1107
01:20:07,160 --> 01:20:11,760
I don't like being your boss, 
but I have to be 1 day. 

1108
01:20:11,760 --> 01:20:15,160
You'll be my equal and I will be
the first to let you know. 

1109
01:20:16,640 --> 01:20:18,720
That was especially when she was
a teenager. 

1110
01:20:18,800 --> 01:20:21,240
You know, well, I really don't 
want to have to do this. 

1111
01:20:21,240 --> 01:20:26,400
But, you know, it's my job. 
My job is to keep you alive. 

1112
01:20:27,000 --> 01:20:29,480
My job is to teach you social 
skills. 

1113
01:20:29,480 --> 01:20:34,840
My job is to help you be a 
functioning member of society so

1114
01:20:34,840 --> 01:20:37,160
that you can function and live a
good, healthy life. 

1115
01:20:38,000 --> 01:20:42,280
And you may not like them right 
now, and that's OK. 

1116
01:20:42,840 --> 01:20:45,800
You don't have to like me. 
You don't even have to love me, 

1117
01:20:48,160 --> 01:20:52,000
but this is my job and I will be
the first to let you know when 

1118
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you are my adult equal. 
And what was very funny is the 

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day I said, you know what? 
You're you've been an adult for 

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quite a long time. 
Honey, this is on you now. 

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She was like no, no, no, no, no,
no. 

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And then came the oh wow, I know
I was raised. 

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You know, just because your kids
are mad at you growing up 

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doesn't mean they're entirely 
wounded. 

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It's OK for people to be angry 
with each other, and it's OK to 

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have people be frustrated with 
each other. 

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And those are healthy things. 
It's how we deal with them. 

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And we can see when parents are 
disconnected from their kids, 

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and that is a wounding. 
But that means you have to 

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double down and connect with 
yourself because you can't make 

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people be what you want them to 
be. 

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You can work on you and make you
into the you you want to be, but

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if you require their healing as 
a condition of your own, you are

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self limiting regardless of the 
nurturing period. 

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I'll be talking more about this 
in the Patreon, but just know 

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that healing is possible, it 
just requires commitment. 

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And I ask you, how many more 
burdens do you want to carry? 

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How many open wounds do you 
need? 

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01:22:25,640 --> 01:22:30,200
Sad farming and over 
identification in the pain story

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01:22:30,520 --> 01:22:33,960
is very, very dangerous. 
And I am not diminishing those 

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01:22:33,960 --> 01:22:37,280
who have walked through hell, 
I'm not. 

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But wouldn't it be nice to know 
you don't have to forever walk 

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on coals or deal with 
deprivation? 

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01:22:47,240 --> 01:22:52,280
Wouldn't it be nice to know you 
can have a reasonably contented 

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life? 
Because it's possible when you 

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01:22:54,480 --> 01:23:00,840
give yourself the nurturing and 
it's done in baby steps. 

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01:23:05,720 --> 01:23:07,880
Again, I'll talk about this more
in the Patreon. 

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This full moon it's going to be 
building things up a lot. 

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01:23:13,600 --> 01:23:19,440
So deep breaths, deep breaths, 
no hyperventilating. 

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01:23:21,120 --> 01:23:25,440
And make sure you check into the
Awake Space Lounge. 

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01:23:25,880 --> 01:23:29,360
I'll be chatting it up with you 
this week and hopefully show you

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01:23:29,360 --> 01:23:34,160
more pictures from the studio. 
So fingers crossed. 

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01:23:34,160 --> 01:23:38,200
Next week the podcast will come 
from the studio and you'll see 

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more of the new chair. 
I showed it on Blue Sky, which 

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01:23:42,000 --> 01:23:44,280
by the way, I'm on Skylight and 
Blue Sky. 

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01:23:45,240 --> 01:23:48,440
I'll put that link in the show 
notes as well. 

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01:23:49,120 --> 01:23:51,680
Thank you everybody, and I hope 
you have a wonderful week. 

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See you in the Patreon.