It's the awake space Astrology podcast.
I'm Lori Rivers, your host here to help you with some
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Well, happy Mercury direct. Mercury has stationed.
It is Monday, April 7th. If you were tuning in after
that, just know that today, Monday, April 7th, Mercury has
stationed direct. What does that mean?
Well, it can be a little wibbly wobbly.
Whenever Mercury stations or any other planet stations, there
tends to be kind of a burst of energy on the scene.
And we'll go through what to expect in the headlines this
week, and we'll talk a little bit how to make the most of the
energy, as we always do. I'm also going to talk a little
bit about the Moon and the Mother Wound here on the Awake
Space. Been saying a lot of content
about that on the Ticky Tacky lately, and I thought I'd
clarify a few things because I think it's really important that
we do everything we can to empower ourselves versus
disempower ourselves. And understanding always where
the route to healing is versus always having to dive into the
wounds, OK. It's not about bypassing it.
It's really about the healing path.
And that's something I've dedicated to myself.
That's something I've dedicated myself to for far longer than
I've been an astrologer. So I'll be glad to give you some
insights on that. And, well, it's an interesting
week because it's 2025 S Grab your coffee, grab your tea, get
your matcha, get your iced coffee, get your iced tea,
whatever you're drinking, your hot cocoa.
And whether we're doing the laundry or we're walking on the
hot girl or hot guy walk, taking the pooch out or feeding the
kittens, driving to work and finding perfect parking every
time, I'm glad I get to do it with you.
So let's get on with the show. Hey, if you're a patron, then
you know that I put out the survey results.
We did the Awake Space revealed event on Friday, April 4th,
which was super fun. And then Mercury retrograde hit
and well, took me a minute to get the file up because I
couldn't get the file to process in the editing.
And so it's up now. It went out on Sunday.
If you want to find out the results of the survey, I'm going
to do another one for the Spotify listeners and it and
first I was going to just do the same thing.
And then after looking at the results, I have a couple of
questions. And I talked about that during
the presentation. So imagine a survey that's
almost like a mini astrology lesson.
And that's what's going to come out to you guys in maybe a week
or two. We'll see what I get done in the
studio. And Speaking of studios, I get
my Internet tomorrow. How perfect is that?
Well, I'm recording this Sunday night, but April 7th, when
Mercury is direct is when the Internet arrives at the podcast
studio. And I'm super, super excited.
Malcolm loves it. I've been putting up pictures in
the Patreon chat and it's been super fun.
So yeah, there's that. It's been a little bit of a
while. Normally time with Mercury
retrograde. Speaking of the magazine is on
the way. Hold tight, hold tight.
Your predictions and your horoscopes are up and the audio
horoscopes are up. Those, those are the edited
versions of the horoscopes for April.
So if you are a magazine subscriber, go check those out
in the Patreon. If you're not a subscriber, you
can purchase those. They're like I think 6 bucks
with the iOS fee. I don't, I don't remember, maybe
it's 10 bucks with the iOS V, if you purchase it on a browser and
not on your phone, you know, or through the iOS, the App Store,
you save 30%. So there's a that that's
exciting. I'll be doing those every month
in an audio format. So there's lots coming on the
way. One of the things I want to talk
to you guys is about how to hold the line, which is like holding
your consciousness. OK, I wrote a post yesterday and
I was playing around with using the voice to text.
So the grammar, you know, I edited it like 15 times.
I know there's still some stuff in there that needs fixing, but
because I was doing it on my phone, right?
Yeah. And it's Mercury retrograde, but
I wanted to get across the idea of, as they bring up the crash
of 1987, as the markets are unstable.
And if you've been listening to me for years, not just last
year, but years, I've been saying grow your own, grow your
own food as much as you can. Make friends with people who
also grow food. Keep emergency cash on hand,
whatever you can in your budget. There were reasons for this
there. There has been economic
instability, OK. Some of it is supply chain, some
of it is weather and climate. Some of it is just
unpredictability. You know, we've got Uranus still
in Taurus and it'll pop out into Gemini in a couple months, but
it's going to slide back into Taurus again.
So we're still looking at economic instability for right
now. And it's easy to get scared and
it's easy to panic. I'm, I'm there with you.
I have moments where I'm like, oh crap, what am I going to do?
But that doesn't help it. So I wrote about my experience
with the crash of 1987. And you get to see a picture of
me that was taken not long after I graduated high school 'cause
that was the year I graduated. And I deferred going to college
to work so I could afford my ticket and living expenses for
when I went to England because nobody wanted me to go.
And so everybody was trying to stop me except my grandma.
And it was a whole saga. And I already had 22 transfer
credits when I graduated from high school.
They didn't have the blended high school college thing, but I
did it kind of on my own. And so I wasn't worried about
being behind because I was already ahead.
But all my friends went off to college and I was working so I
could buy my ticket and I never wanted to come back.
You know, I was very dramatic when I was young, but who isn't
at 18, right? And I was never coming back.
I took a one way ticket. I bought it to Belgium because I
was going to spend Christmas with my host mom from when I was
an exchange student and it cost 600 dollars, $600 in 1987.
Let let's Google that shall we? It was a lot of money.
It was $600 in 1987. Today would be $16177.84.
It was an extraordinary amount of money and it was non
refundable. And I was working every minute
of overtime. I'd save $1200 besides the
ticket. And that that made me rich.
OK, It made me rich. That was a lot of money.
You know, rent was like, I don't know, 253 hundred a month for an
apartment, you know, that was a lot of money.
And I was kind of fighting to go to the school I was going to,
and I really knew that was where I needed to go.
And I, after work, I went to my grandma's house to read the
newspaper because she got, you know, we lived next door.
So grandma would get The Oregonian and we'd all go read
her paper, right? And I would check the exchange
rate every single day after work.
And then the dollar was really, really strong until that day in
November. And I kept saying October, but
it was November because it was weeks before I left.
It wasn't, you know, I didn't have months to prepare for this.
And the dollar crash. Everything I'd worked for was
cut in half. Cut in half, I tell you.
And I let out a howl. It was the pit of despair.
It was, Oh my God, my, my poor grandmother who did not deal
with histrionics or drama at all, was like, what on earth is
going on? And I was like, my whole world
has ended, you know? And I was sobbing and she just
made me go wash my face and blow my nose.
And when I could be reasonable, we'd have a conversation.
She was not a fluffy grandma. She was not a milk and cookies
grandma. She was they teach you how to
manage employees, Grandma, which I am forever grateful.
And anyway, I wrote about it in the Patreon.
If you want to take a look at it, I've linked the post it it's
free, you know, it's free for free members and paid members
alike. But the the lecture she gave me
that day, that woman who was 14 years old in 1933 when her
father died of pneumonia and she was the youngest of five.
Her older brothers had jobs, you know, but we're going to college
and, and her older sister was out of high school and, and
working, but she had to both go to high school and work.
And the, you know, I, I remember the stories of them coming
together every single week and putting the money they'd earned
in the center of the table and then going over who needed what.
It was a needs based meeting, which I think is is great given
it was 1930 and you know, then many years later in the 2000s I
was taking needs based facilitation training.
Who needs what, whether it was shoes or handkerchief or you
know, and this was after the basics were taken care of, the
food, the heating, etcetera. So I grew up knowing her story
and she worked very hard to get where she was and she still held
a lot of compassion. She may not have been a milk and
cookies grandma, but she created social programs in the state of
Oregon that helped people find work that dealt with disaster
funds when they didn't exist. She hired single mothers when no
one else would. Back in the 60s, giving
everybody an opportunity was something she believed in for
people to rise into their capabilities.
So she was a good example. And her lecture to me to have
faith did not mean just having faith when things were easy and
going my way and saying, oh, look, I'm being favored.
It was when things were most uncertain that faith was needed.
And she said, is this very, very, very important to you?
And I said, yes, I know it in my soul.
And she said, then you shouldn't let anything stop you.
And I have run my life that way. If it's that important, there is
a way to make it happen. It may not happen exactly the
way you want it. It may not happen in the time
you want it. But allowing circumstances to
derail you from something that really, really matters at a soul
deep level is admitting defeat. It's giving in in advance.
And that is why they try to stir the panic and the terror.
I will always tell you, hold firm, especially in the face of
adversity. I'm not saying don't be afraid.
Remember, bravery isn't the absence of fear.
Bravery is feeling the fear and doing it anyway.
And don't think I wasn't terrified to leave the country
with a one way ticket. I was.
I was ready for adventure. But it was scary.
And funny enough, I ended up coming back.
Never say never. I brought it up because I know
they're driving fear and panic right now, right?
Because as the people come together, as people realize the
power is within them, the other side is going to say, oh, but
you are weak. And here is how we have the
power over you. You don't have to buy the story.
People have the power we grant them.
We have the power we grant ourselves.
Now, I'm not saying if you're in a marginalized community that
you're not at risk. That is not.
I am not bypassing that. And I believe firmly that we're
about to see some interesting happenings.
These I won't necessarily speak about on my public podcast, but
I will talk about any patron only podcast, things that I
think are possible. I'm not saying they're happening
100%. Don't put words in my mouth.
Gosh darn it. With Mercury now stationed
direct, now we're looking at moving towards the full moon on
the 12th. And so the 12th being Saturday.
And so we're going to talk about that full moon in the next
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outs. This should be the last podcast.
I do not in the new studio. Next week should be in the new
studio because tomorrow or Monday I get my Internet in
there. The sets are almost finished.
I'm having to cry uncle and have dad come help me because some of
the stuff I need help with. It's been frustrating trying to
get certain things put together. Normally I'm pretty mechanical,
but I'm also impatient and like many people, I had a headache on
Sunday. I have a bad neck.
I had some injuries in my youth and I driving to Billings last
Tuesday, which is quite a long ways from where we're at.
It's a 2 hour drive. I hadn't driven that far in a
long time and it was very windy and we were driving my mom's
van, which is heavy and yeah, just kind of messed my neck up
and which is already messed up. And today was just oof.
And then I looked at my transits kids who looks at her transits
last me. And I'm like, oh, This is why,
you know, So my poor little Saturn is getting tweaked and in
the 6th house and the moon was in Leo squaring it while it's
opposing Pluto, which is squaring it.
So you just said, baby, you got to take care of you, so fine,
I'll do it. But.
But yeah, so I was not the most patient today as I was trying to
put things down. I will say Malcolm loves the
studio and is also part cat because instead of sitting in
his dog bed, what does my little torn dog do?
Yeah, he lays on the curtains. Yeah.
I'll put a picture in the In the Wakespace Lounge chat in the
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I know we have quite a few members in Tennessee, Kentucky,
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I'm so sorry. As I was saying, a lot of
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It's going to happen at the end of the year as well.
I know Australia got hit and we do have listeners and patrons
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I wrote a post about that. It was called I Defeated Mercury
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We've got the Libra Full Moon coming up this week on April
12th, and Venus is stationing direct that day.
I think it's going to be a pretty significant full moon and
let me tell you why. At least it will be in these
parts because it's right after my lunar return.
We're building energy as we move through this month.
Now the the full moon is always a release of energy.
So as we move through this week, you're going to fill the build
up. And a lot of times people think
they're feeling the full moon before the full moon, right?
I used to think the same thing until I became an astrologer.
We don't feel the full moon until it's full.
The full moon is an actual event.
What you're feeling is the moon waxing and building the its
strength, right? The pressure is building ahead
of the release. So a lot of times the crunchy
part happens right before in the waxing Gibba's face because the
moon waxes full, right? So wax full Wayne, new little
little karate kid for you Gen. Xers will get it and your kids,
because you were forced to probably watch that if you're a
gentier, if your parents made you do that.
But anyway, I digress. So this full moon is a bit nuts
and I don't know what's going on with my hair if this is one of
those days where like you wash your hair and you can't do
anything with it. Do you like the skunk stripe,
though? Speaking of Moon and Libra, I'm
like, oh, that's aesthetic. But anyway, I did, Chris.
There's probably going to be more shenanigans out in the
outer world, OK, We'll talk about what's up in the headlines
later, OK? But we're all going to be
feeling this. So this full moon is going to be
illuminating. Where we seek justice, where we
seek mutuality, where we seek fairness.
We're seeking. OK.
We're seeking partnership, social contracts, social
contracts, contracts of all kinds, agreements, right?
And I think we'll see a big cry for social justice.
And it's kind of obvious as to why, right?
Yeah. When we watch the news and we
see what's happening and we see that, you know, civil liberties
are at stake, Our Constitution is being misinterpreted, and
we're seeing who is and is not on the side of the people.
And the people are beginning to get a little itchy.
And so we'll be seeing that in the outer world.
But in our own lives, we will be looking for mutuality.
In our own lives, we're going to be weighing and measuring that
which matters greatly to us. Now, the thing I want to talk to
you about, and this kind of weaves in with talking about the
mother wound, is most of us haven't deconstructed enough or
done enough healing work, true healing work.
Not just being able to tell your story because too many people
live in the story. They live in the peen story,
They live in the identity of the trauma.
It's very different than actually being in the healing
path. OK, identifying your trauma is
the first step, but we don't stop there.
That is that is a pit stop on the road to healing.
The road to healing is much longer than going ah, that
happened or oh, this label is there.
This is the consequence of whatever trauma I experienced.
OK, I will also say the over idealization of what a mother is
when we say a mother should, is supposed to blah blah blah.
Those are archetypes. And those are archetypes that
are not based on nature. They are based on social
expectations which are at the root patriarchal.
This idea of this virtuous virgin who somehow immaculately
conceived you and isn't supposed to have any hopes, dreams,
desires, once they have children, their life is over.
They might as well be an octopus and just keel over once they
have offspring because they cease to have an identity other
than mom. Even though they have their own
name, they probably forget their own name at times.
OK, now not every woman or birth parent is going to be a natural
addict. In fact, I will argue that
parenting is a taught behavior. There are some things that might
be somewhat instinctual, but we have been domesticated for so
very long. We have subdued those instincts.
And I'm a Cancerian. I had a lot of instinct, but I
still needed better tools to parent my children to the point
I studied with an expert, H Stephen Glenn, PhD, and I taught
his work for 14 years and incorporated it into everything
I do, whether I'm working with adults or children.
Because we can always expand our knowledge of of nurturing and
fostering resiliency. The mother wound narrative is
often patriarchy infused and misogynistically infused even
when women use it too. Period.
And I'm not saying all mothers are good mothers, but the idea
that a mother is supposed to automatically be good without
any training or help is also misogynistic.
All those people are like, Oh my, I had a single mom and she
wasn't available because she was always working to pay the rent
and put clothes on your back. Yeah, yeah.
Why isn't anybody blaming the dad?
What about the father wound? Nobody.
It's harping on that wing. Notice how it's always mom's
fault? Why is it always mom's fault?
And why is it a belief that every woman is going to be a
good parent or every human is going to be a good parent?
There are going to be people who are not good.
Now, that doesn't diminish abuse.
It doesn't give a pass at all. But I'm saying before we jump
onto a bandwagon and say yes I feel that way, be always
skeptical of things that resonate so clearly because it's
called cognitive bias. If you are in an echo Chamber of
agreement, it is a dangerous space because it is probably not
a space of healing. I don't know if you guys
listened to last week's podcast or not, but my daughter Sara
talked about the most useful and productive therapy session she
was ever in. And in her own words is pissed
her off because she kept going to her therapist with the same
problem every single week. And I'm just going to paraphrase
her. And the therapist eventually
said, what are you going to do about it?
You keep coming to me every week.
I've given you tools, I've given you homework and you're coming
to me with the same story. What are you going to do about
it? And whatever that was, in that
time frame, it clicked for her that it was up to her.
And in the words of a good friend from years ago, I like to
have a clean house. I don't always make the mess,
but if I like a clean house, I damn well better clean it up.
And she was referring to her life.
She had been the victim of childhood trauma and she could
not get the people who committed the trauma to admit where they
were wrong and nor could they fix the problem that she wanted
a good life, so she was going to have to make a good life.
And likewise here we can know the root of the problem all day
long. If we are not active
participants in our healing process, it is not enough to
know the story. And this is so important with
this full moon coming up, because people want to assign
blame. It is the most human thing in
the world. And I remember it oh so well.
Because there's this stage in healing where you're raw and
gritty and the rage is there. And if you haven't got to that
place, that's fine. And not sometimes it's a short
visit, sometimes it's a long trip.
But there's this welling of rage, and you want retribution
and you want to get even, and you want to see them get their
karma and see them get their consequences.
And you know what you don't always get to?
Because that's not justice. Justice is you healing yourself
and living a damn good life. And I wish I would have figured
that out about 10 years before I did.
I'll take what I got now. But if I could go back in time
and talk to a younger version of self and say, honey, I know
that's what you want, but you're not going to get it.
And what you need is to work on you and how you live your life.
Because if you're waiting to see consequences on them, if you're
stocking their Facebook looking for misfortune, If you are
waiting to hear about them getting attacked by a pack of
baboons or a man eating lion, you're going to wait a long
time. You know, if you're waiting for
them to drive off a Cliff and die in a fiery car crash, it's
probably not going to happen. And you can want all that and
you can be justified in wanting all of that.
They could have done that much harm to you.
OK? They could have done that much
harm to you. And I have walked that walk.
But when we look at this big full moon in Libra, when we look
at this big full moon, it is going to illuminate what justice
actually is, and that is partly in how you live your life.
It is one thing to know the wound and it is another to take
it head on and to have the bravery to be honest and
accountable with ourselves. Because if it's everybody else's
fault all the time, if everybody does you dirty all the time,
it's usually called clue that you need to change something.
Doesn't mean you deserve it, but there might be something that
needs calibrating in your life. Sometimes you don't need the
good story to get your free drinks at the bar.
Wouldn't it be nice to be able to buy them on your own, right?
If you don't? I, I no longer a lot of young
people don't drink, but it, it used to be you'd go to a bar and
somebody'd have this great sob story and they'd, they'd rack up
free drinks with it. You know, you know, they, they,
their wife walked out on them and took the dog and the pickup
truck and, and their guitar and their favorite guitar pick even,
you know, and have a round of beers instead of questioning why
was this the third time, the third truck, the third dog, the
third guitar, the third wife, right, or husband, right?
We have patterns and they can be broken and they are broken by
building new habits, not sitting and looking at the broken
pattern, right? I've talked about that in
healing the Money wounds so many times.
Because the money wound is about self worth, right?
Healing the money wound, healing the mother wound, healing the
father wound, Healing any wound means you take on your own
healing deliberately and there is no pursing that can heal you
other than you. There are people who can be
shepherds and guides on the way, but no therapist can heal you.
No energy healer can heal you. They are creating conditions
that make healing more possible. They facilitate healing.
But as somebody who studied a lot of healing techniques
because I was mistakenly under the impression I was supposed to
be a healer, like a energy healer when I was young and I
needed all those skills to keep me alive.
And I occasionally use them with clients.
But that's that's not my modus operandi, nor is it my calling.
It's just I've got a lot of skills.
You don't ever heal the patient. They heal them.
You create conditions that make it a little easier.
OK, so waiting around for rescue, it isn't comfy.
And that's part of why I wasn't on TikTok for a while.
I was like, I'm done warning. I've been warning since 1997.
You know, I'm sorry people had to get this uncomfortable.
And I'm not just talking about politics.
I'm talking about the ecology, the economics.
We needed to be working on sustainability back in the 90s,
folks, and there were movements to do that.
There's so much information about building sustainably,
sustainable agriculture, sustainable architecture,
sustainable economies, conscious capitalism, all concepts that
got quashed by 2008, all concepts that you should look up
and work on. It's so, so important right now.
Instead of capitulating, instead of giving in, instead of giving
up. I know it's scary.
I know you're tired. Who the hell isn't right now?
I, I really, who isn't? I say these things because it's
important because with this chaos there is opportunity.
There's opportunity for personal growth, self-awareness, self
actualization, financial growth, but you got to think outside of
the box. You can't think and do things in
the old way and make it work. If you've always done something
a certain way and it's not working, it's time to change up
what you do and you are capable of it.
And I'm going to hear it from the neuro spicy.
Well, I'm neuro spicy. Me too, me too.
And you can still build new pathways and new habits, it just
might take a little longer. I'm terrible about once I have a
habit built or a routine built, shifting it up makes it very,
very difficult. It's why I don't like taking
time off, because if I'm in a rhythm, switching the rhythm up.
Messes up my productivity and my flow.
But sometimes my body gets sick. Sometimes an emergency happens
in my family and guess what? I have to be a grown up and deal
with the shift. Being neuro spicy does not
alleviate me from my obligations.
It just means I need to manage them better and some of us are
better able to do that than others.
Some of us need a little more help with that.
This full moon in Libra, that energy is going to be sharp like
a spearhead. It's it's a piercing energy.
So the full moon in Libra will be at 23° and 20 some minutes of
Libra. Remember that the full Moon is
when it's in opposition to the Sun.
So the Moon is in Libra, the Sun is in Aries, Venus will be
stationed, Venus will be stationed.
So in, you know, late afternoon, early evening in the United
States into the late night in the UK, early morning of the
13th, we have Venus stationed. So she's not direct yet.
She's stationed. She'll be direct the next day.
This is a very powerful moment in time.
We have Mercury and Mars, Saturn and Venus in a trine.
So Mercury, Saturn and Venus are trying Mars in Cancer and the
moon. The full moon is square.
Mars and this and that is AT square because the full moon is
the sun and moon in opposition and they are both square Mars
and Cancer at 27°. It's spicy.
There will probably be some interesting events that come up
in the outer world. We have Jupiter trying the moon,
We have Jupiter trying the moon and Jupiter in a sextile
actually in a square with Jupiter in a square with Venus.
And it's going to be sharp. It's going to be real sharp and
again, we'll talk about what's going to be up in the headlines.
What does this mean for you? Well, Uranus is going to be in a
sex style with Venus and Saturn as well.
This can be a really big illuminating time in the
frustration, in the injustice, in where things don't seem fair
is where illumination and ideas can show up.
You might get an idea for a story, you might get an idea for
a business, you might get an idea for your next moves.
Don't let that frustration debilitate you when it's not
working. Then you say what next?
What next? Not why me?
What's next? What's the next logical step I
can do right now? If you can't do anything except
make a cup of coffee, go make the coffee.
If you need to just take a time out, go for a drive.
Go for a drive, OK? If you need.
If you if you need a doughnut, get a doughnut, OK?
Stop banging your head against the wall on things you cannot
take any control over. There's nothing you can do about
things you can do nothing about. But there is always something
you can do. And that, remember I brought up
my grandmother. My grandmother always, always
told me there's always something you can do.
It may not be what you want to do, but you can still do it.
So just like people who want to start a business, it's very hard
to start a business without an income, OK?
Because if you're starting from desperation, it doesn't help,
right? And people can smell your
desperation. So what you want to do sometimes
is take a part time job or a flexible job that you call your
Angel investor. It doesn't make you a failure at
business to have income coming in.
So your rent is paid. Nothing's worse than failing all
the way and not being able to pay the bills.
We have Neptune in Aries. Guess what?
The great illusion is over, and it is time at our own, at our
own alignment. And as much as things may not
look fair in the outer world or inner agreements with our
friends, our colleagues, our work arrangements, what whatever
it is where we're looking for mutuality, ask yourself not just
where is it fair to me? How am I showing up?
Because a lot of times what I hear from people is deflection.
I hear people not necessarily taking accountability.
I'm not talking about my clients.
I'm talking about like on social media, right?
This person did me bad. The people who are stirring the
pot, stirring the drama, needing to tell their story and make
sure they get there first. Words mean nothing.
Actions are every period. And with this full moon in
Libra, you have to be accountable to yourself too.
If you're a people pleaser, stop using it like a badge of honor.
It's not OK if it, if you have this full moon illuminate where
you're codependent, great, then you get to stop it.
The reason we identify the problem is so we can move into
solution thinking. It's so important, guys.
This can be a very empowering full moon, a very empowering
full moon. And you do that by being honest
with yourself without beating yourself up.
We can be honest and accountable to ourselves, Say yeah, I did
that and now what am I going to do about it?
Remember the powers in the noticing, the perfections in the
correction. But I can tell you we do not
have time for games. We do not have time for drama.
We do not have time for, he said.
She said we do not have time for the stories over and over and
over and over and over. We do not have time for it's
hard. We do not have time for I'm
tired. We have time to roll up our
sleeves and move into action. That is what we have time for
right now because Mars is going to move into Leo.
Not this week, next week. And that's where the big kabooms
happen. You need to be emotionally,
mentally, and physically prepared, and that means own
your shit. You cannot put your hope in
other people. You cannot look for a savior.
You cannot look for a Messiah. You cannot look for someone to
come to your rescue. We are it.
We rescue ourselves and we link arms together.
But if you're going to panic, if you're going to freak out, if
you're going to idealize the trauma or the pain story, you're
the weakest link. And I hate to say it, but I've
been far too nice for far too long.
Far too nice for far too long. We cannot afford people who
panic right now. We need people to hold steady.
And as an energy worker, if you've actually done anything
like an exorcism or a major healing, then you know, if you
flinch, you lose. And I've done those things, I've
had to hold it steady. And it's not because I'm
special. I have training, the learning to
hold your consciousness, learning to stop inviting the
exhaustion by repeatedly saying it's hard, I'm tired, it's hard,
I'm tired, it's hard. I'm tired, I'm hot, I'm tired,
I'm cold, I'm tired. I'm.
Are you not exhausted by it? There isn't a teacher, a healer
on this planet who has not walked through the bowels of
hell and moved through the other side.
You don't get to teach from the bowels because you have nothing
to teach until you're through it and you realise the illusion of
what it actually is. It's very real while you're
walking through it. But once you get to the other
side, you go, oh, I see. In Theosophy we call that
dealing with the dweller on the threshold.
And that is our personality untrain, our shadow self fully
emboldened instead of integrated.
We're not supposed to defeat it. We're supposed to integrate it.
And this Libra Full moon is giving us the opportunity to
integrate. And if you're a patron, I'll be
talking about that in this week's Patron Only podcast.
All righty, let's take a look at what's in the headlines.
And then we're going to talk a little bit more about the moon
and the healing path in dealing with the mother wound.
All right, what's up in the headlines?
You can Fast forward this part if you don't want to hear it.
It's a spicy, spicy month. It's a spicy, spicy month.
And again, I'm still working on the magazine.
Sorry about that. Magazine subscribers, it is well
worth the wait. It'll be out this week.
I might just have to get down and dirty.
Mom breaking her arm did not help.
Did I tell you about that last week that my mother broke her
wrist? Yes.
She goes to the orthopedic surgeon on Monday and we'll find
out more about that. For a little Gemini anyway, if
you're a magazine subscriber, I read the horoscope so you can
check that out, but you also have the hot off the press
unedited version in there. The version I read is the edited
version after Jessica got a hold of it.
Jessica is my handy dandy editor who puts up with me.
And here we go, just moving so I can see and read.
All right, April 5th through the 8th, the Moon in Leo roars and
fizzles and sparks. Do we or don't we?
That's the energy of the Moon in Leo.
Remember, the Moon moves signs every 2 1/2 days.
We could see warehouse manufacturing a chemical or a
chemical plant. It could be an AND or or both.
Has a big fire or explosion. This is global unseasonable
humid weather or high temps tensions erupt in the Straits of
Taiwan or territorial waters of the Philippines. the US could
bomb Iran or Iranian backed forces could hit AUS target
exploding tensions or there could be the threat of war
that's been heating up now. I wrote this before the threats
and some of this is from my 2025 year ahead as well.
I think that could be more towards the evening of the 7th
or into the early morning of the eighth issues in the Levant,
that's Israel, Jordan, Syria, Lebanon and northern Iraq.
US foreign policy change could be announced.
We could see surprise attacks on military installations, Navy
ships and or military commands. This is global issues with
drones, missiles and incendiary devices.
Leaks of sensitive material or documents, incriminating
politician or politicians. All financial markets are under
strain. Violent rhetoric.
Rhetoric incites physical violence, either resistance or
acting on orders. And that's in quotations.
Internet outages, power outages and issues with communications,
chemical weapons, incendiary devices and torpedoes.
All of those could be in the headlines in any way, shape or
form. OK, so it doesn't just mean
they'll be used, but it could be something's found or something's
discussed. Tornadoes, hail, lightning,
drought threats, big storm systems that cycle.
So it depends on where you live. Hacking, server failures,
ransomware, and issues with ATMATMS, payment gateways, or
popular Internet services could see big lightning, tornado,
hail, and storms that start fires in rural areas.
That's global, so looking at you Australia, maybe South Africa as
well, Argentina, Chile, issues in the tech sector, servers go
down or there's an event that takes a large company offline.
A brand has scandal or big name celebrity has a scandal.
Mining accident, collapse, accident and or collapse or
issue with minerals, mineral rights and mining.
Vehicular fire or exploding vehicle.
Solar flare or solar form storm which could also mean Aurora
borealis, typhoons, cyclones, winds, fires of all kinds, big
tornadoes possible. The moon moves into Virgo April
8th through the 10th and what I have here is moon and Virgo is
showing holds in the process and methodology is flawed.
OK, so the process isn't really moving forward things the the
gaps in the process. Erosion causing events, big
waves, potential tsunami. Increased possibility of seismic
activity over A5 point O in all active regions.
Looking at Pacific Coast of Mexico.
Big rain causing large amounts of damage on the ground.
Erosion events, landslides, rock slides, sinkholes, tornadoes,
hail, snow, ice, big waves, air, water and foodborne diseases.
Measles and shingles hit the headlines.
Issues with harbors, estuaries and canals Could be Panama, Suez
or Straits of Gibraltar or the Straits of Hormuz.
Straits of Taiwan issue with the cruise ships or a cruise ship
and it could be anything from rotavirus to an accident or
dealing with the weather, missile, drone or rocket launch
goes wrong. Voting irregularities, issues
with voting regulation or manipulation.
This global systems grind to a halt.
Things have trouble working and that would be schools, states,
governments or mechanical. So any kind of system is under
strain, laws suspended, impeded, or system failures.
Expect issues with supply chain, trucking vehicles and trains.
Deals and negotiations go sideways, fall apart or get
delayed. International and domestic
political and business instability in the Middle East,
Eastern Europe, NATO and other international organizations make
announcements. Offshore earthquakes over a six
point O or on land could see up to A-65.
Any seismic region. Am looking at Mexico, Chile and
the Mid-Atlantic. Issues with US, Mexico border
border crossings, issues with mountains and summits and that
could be Canada but it could also be in Europe or between
like in the Hindu Kush region in the Himalayas.
Things like that. Attacks on judges and civil
servants, global immigration and custom matters, global poison,
food poisoning or issues with tainted food.
Assassination attempts global and potential disruption or
illness of a major world leader or leaders.
So we shall see what happens with that moon in Virgo.
Remember that the transits are global.
Accidents or political upheaval can also show up as big storms
or natural events and vice versa.
And then April 10th through the 13th, which on the 12th we have
that big old full moon. And this is what I said about
the moon in Libra. It has zero chill and is highly
decisive. It's not indecisive.
It's a little kill bill ish energy.
We can see big protest, global things get out of hand and
violence could escalate. Big wind, temperature changes,
issues with air and ocean currents.
Winds could be extreme and hot in some places.
Air traffic disruptions due to labor strikes and contract
negotiations. Massive transportation failures,
Air Accidents or planes grounded.
Airspace could be closed this global.
Public protests continue. Issues outside of courts and
public offices. Satellites and communication
disruption. Internet failures and technical
issues in general. Terrorist attack this global.
Noted. Violence in urban centers,
Global international organizations have crisis,
threats of war, threats of nukes, and that's in quotations,
worrying words. Military units go rogue, or
there could be sabotage of military equipments or violence
at a base. I'm thinking Eastern Europe on
this one or in NATO countries but could be in the United
States. Elon Musk under scrutiny, under
scrutiny. Elon Musk under scrutiny could
face a deep investigation. Supreme Court or other High
Court judges, global or international court in the news,
ICC or ICJ mentioned or make declarations.
Lawyers under attack, under threat or could see actual
physical harm to legal professional or professionals
including judges and justices. New information leaked about
U.S. officials and or financial matters to do with an elected
official and this could be that specifically in the United
States, but it could also be Canada.
Public violence, mass shooting, stabbing, or issue with domestic
violence. We can see war like behavior
bombing attacks, ceasefires fail, extreme violence on
borders or missile launch to a serious target.
Global politician unseated, deposed or removed Global
popular uprisings increase in numbers.
And that is what we've got for the week because that gets us
through the end of this week. So here's the deal.
I I had a comment that I I just blocked and deleted the guy, but
on TikTok and they were like you.
She just gives general stuff on her podcast.
Yeah. If you want something more
specific, pop into the Awake Space chat, which means you have
to be a supporting member. This is this public podcast.
You're getting themes and that's what mundane astrology does.
It's themes. And I'm not just giving very,
very, if you look and you can critically think, which
obviously that gentleman could not do, you're not noticing
there's a theme in those predictions.
So it's a little stabby stabby out there this week.
Like I've been saying, don't rage quit, rage apply, you know,
don't jump on impulse. It's going to be a little dicey.
All righty, let's talk about the moon and its role in healing the
mother wound. All right, so let's talk about
the moon in astrology. It does represent the biological
mother in all cases, and yet it also in the modern era
represents the more nurturing parent, which could be the
father, the grandmother, the auntie, whoever was the
caretaker of the child. It also shows how we process
emotions. There isn't a single sign that
does not process emotions. OK, every single moon has a way
it emotes, but we have this idea, this ideal about what is
emotive and why isn't. So someone who appears stoic,
who gets insular and quiet, is considered unemotional.
What you're not seeing is them crying their eyes out in
private. Every single moon sign is
emotional in their own way. I've had Aquarius moons cry in
my sessions because it's safe to do so.
Always an honor. I have had Virgo moons cry in a
session because it's safe to do so.
We need to understand that there is more than one way to sense
and feel, express and process emotion.
So for those of you who emote in public, whether you want to or
not as part of your nature, don't judge the people who
don't, OK? Not everyone wants to talk about
their feelings all the time. Not everyone is a verbal
processor. Some people are very internal.
Other people need to process their emotions with someone
else. The important thing is picking
the people to do it with. Now let's go back to the mother.
Your moon sign does show and the house placement as well does
show. Your perception of the nurturing
parent. OK, your perception of the
nurturing parent. Not everybody is going to be of
the same makeup emotionally, and sometimes being of the same
makeup doesn't help. Sometimes having exactly the
same makeup is a lot of energy in all one place because you're
getting hit by the same transits.
Anybody who has a lunar return child or parent who had you at
their lunar return is going to know that if you're getting
major planetary transits to that moon of yours, well, so is your
child or so is your parent. And it's intense, OK, We're not
all supposed to be the same. And depending on when someone
was born and the awareness around parenting and the role a
parent plays in a child's development, we're going to see
different things. So someone born in the 1930s and
the 1940s would have a very different story of a parent who
had no reproductive choice, by the way, and an expectation of
bearing children, even if, you know, they didn't want them.
If they were married, they didn't really have a choice.
They had no real options. There's going to be different
experiences to people who were raised at a time where people
had more options, whether they exercised the option or not, and
had more tools around parenting, more information, more knowledge
of childhood development, right? You're going to see different
things. I know because I've read for
people born in the 20s, actually the teens when I was a young
astrologer, I got people born in the teens, the 20's, the 30's,
the 40s. And then at this end I'm reading
people who even some teenagers now, right, their parents will
book a reading. And there's a very big
difference in how these things express and the experience of
the child in having been parented by the nurturing
parent. OK, as I said earlier in the
podcast, I take offense at the mother wound as an overemphasis
because there's this expectation or an idealization of what the
role of mother actually means. Now, if you were left neglected,
which means you were in dirty clothes, no good food for no
good reason, there was plenty for everybody except you, You
weren't. You were left unnourished.
You were locked out of the house.
That's one thing. But not speaking the same
emotional language means there was a broken down communication
system and a lack of tools. This expectation of being able
to intuit your needs is a little much because it we're not
understanding that mother is not a universal skill set, OK?
What kind of mother, right? Likewise with father.
But we're not talking about father right now.
We're talking about mother, OK? There is a big difference
between being left to fend for yourself and being taught skills
around autonomy. So if you were made to do your
own laundry, or made to walk school, or made to be
accountable for your own homework or your own employment,
there is another story. If a parent is siphoning your
resources and demanding you pay for things when they're fully
able, demanding you pay rent as a child, let's say 1415161718.
Little different story once you're an adult.
Because contributing to the household is a good thing
depending on the social and economic status of the family,
right? Being asked to participate in
household chores is part of being in a family.
Being made to do everything while a parent sits with
addiction might be another story.
Having an abandonment wound would be more from being
untended versus having a parent who had to work all the time.
It still produces A wound, but how else were things going to
get paid for, right? I am not excusing abusive
behavior, but I think sometimes when I look at what's being
talked about on social media itself, I see things being
stretched a little and not understanding reality.
No one is offered a perfect Life.
OK, When I do parent child readings, which is where I help
parents understand their children and what their
children's needs are and how to communicate best with the child.
And let's say a parent has a more verbally or demonstrative
way of processing emotions, and their child perhaps has a more
private or analytical approach to dealing with their emotions.
I talk about how to best work with the child because it's
never the child's job to understand the parent as a
child, as a small child, once you come to adulthood, I highly
suggest you look at your parents as human beings and not as
archetypal figures like gods and goddesses, you know, that fall
off their pillars. You know, because they are human
with no real manual on how to do life.
They're figuring it out the same as you.
And it's usually when you get to your mid 30s, you take a look
and you're like, Oh yeah, what did they know?
Right? I'm trying to figure out my
life. Look at what they were dealing
with. Doesn't give them a pass for,
again, any abusive behavior. But one of the things I learned
in my own healing journey was to separate what was parenting and
what was abuse, What was parenting and what was
dysfunction. Sometimes it was parenting and I
just didn't like it when I was young because I didn't have the
perspective or the understanding.
And sometimes it was abuse or dysfunction.
Learning how to separate that out is very, very important.
So when we look to our moon sign, it shows how we sense and
feel and process. It's our, it's, it's how we
navigate the world as an instinctual being.
And it shows, yes, some of the connection to our parent, the
nurturing parent and the healing route isn't really focusing on
the parent. It's focusing on how to meet our
emotional needs. So if you need to talk through
your feelings or get a hug and have demonstrative affection, or
if you need things to be orderly and in process and tidy and
categorized, or if you need a sounding board, or if you need
private and quiet to process, it's very, very important.
We can see if there is potential for dysfunction or support, and
sometimes both because life usually isn't either or.
Very few people get lucky enough for a perfect batting average
when it comes to their experience with their parents.
OK, we can see where you idolize a parent or where you were never
really going to job. I think before we dive into the
pain story and and swim in that deep sea and take it again with
a grain of salt because I've done this and and I've done it
every way you can, including swimming in the deep end of the
pool down into the depths, into The Cave.
Hold my breath that we really, really, really take a look at it
and say, what about this path is integrating me?
How can I find emotional alignment?
What do I need to feel secure? Because if you're 35, if you're
45, if you're 55, if you're 25, and you're seeking your
appearance to own up to what you think they need to own up to as
the basis of your healing, you can wait a lifetime.
You may never see things eye to eye, but if you can look at your
moon and understand that how you process is how you process, then
you're on the route to healing. Then find the ways to do that.
For some people it's writing it all out and journaling.
For some people it is an opportunity to find that quiet
inner space. For some people, it's learning
to trust enough to share. I find in the personal growth
space there's a lot of emotional voyeurism, people wanting you to
tell your story, people needing you to express the pain and own
the label because it makes them money.
That's the motivation. Some people cry as a release
vowel. Other people don't want to cry
because if they get started it's hard to stop and then they get a
sinus headache. Some people have a hard time
cognifying their feelings and need to do things like make
music or listen to music or do art or craft or clean or tidy or
garden or run it off. None of those are wrong if
you're not harming yourself in it where you take it
consciously. Remember, the moon has no light
of its own. It sheds the light of the sun.
So understanding the role your moon plays in your life is
important because your life force needs to be shining upon
that moon. Instead, what we do is we put
our moon out there and expect everybody else to shine their
light on it. And nobody can have you in their
full attention 100% of the time. And that's why we get mad at
Mama. Because Mama, supposedly he's
supposed to hold us and nurture us and gaze at us and talk to us
and guide us and lead us. And yet in this society, many
infants are put into child care at less than six weeks old.
And then we blame Mom. But Mom had to work or nobody
had somewhere to live or eat, food to eat.
That's important. Clothes to wear, educational
supplies, the Internet you're using, right?
So as an adult, I'm not talking about it as a child, but as an
adult, it's up to you to shine your light on your moon and to
give yourself that. So some people call that inner
child work. I don't believe in having an
inner child because I believe that the child self and the
adult self are the same person with more light, one has more
life experience. But you don't you're not a
Pokémon and you don't evolve from one form to the next if you
and it's also not true if you don't.
You know that the only people who don't have childhood
memories have trauma. That's that's not true because
you can have very clear childhood memories of trauma,
OK, depends on the person. There's not one way to do this
life. There's not one way to
experience trauma and there is more than one way to heal from
it. OK, we are not stuck, but it
does take the liberation and it does take commitment.
OK, but it let's call it, you know, attending our younger self
and nurturing yourself and giving yourself what you wish
your parent would have given you.
OK, instead of repatterning by treating yourself poorly,
whether it's through negative self talk, obsessive thinking,
intrusive thoughts, letting them run wild, we can't stop them.
It's, it's not always easy. It does take effort, but those
are all processes. We could look at our habits.
Are we consuming things in to fill an emotional void in
exchange for what we think are our needs instead of giving
ourselves the space, the respect as a person.
Because yes, we can respect our children as human beings and see
them as human beings. Not extensions of self, not
little mini me's right. Not putting too much of A load
on them, but giving them support and boundaries and rules.
Some kids don't like rules. Oh, that's OK.
Rules are there to keep us safe. I used to have.
I used to have to tell Sarah when she was growing up.
I don't like being your boss, but I have to be 1 day.
You'll be my equal and I will be the first to let you know.
That was especially when she was a teenager.
You know, well, I really don't want to have to do this.
But, you know, it's my job. My job is to keep you alive.
My job is to teach you social skills.
My job is to help you be a functioning member of society so
that you can function and live a good, healthy life.
And you may not like them right now, and that's OK.
You don't have to like me. You don't even have to love me,
but this is my job and I will be the first to let you know when
you are my adult equal. And what was very funny is the
day I said, you know what? You're you've been an adult for
quite a long time. Honey, this is on you now.
She was like no, no, no, no, no, no.
And then came the oh wow, I know I was raised.
You know, just because your kids are mad at you growing up
doesn't mean they're entirely wounded.
It's OK for people to be angry with each other, and it's OK to
have people be frustrated with each other.
And those are healthy things. It's how we deal with them.
And we can see when parents are disconnected from their kids,
and that is a wounding. But that means you have to
double down and connect with yourself because you can't make
people be what you want them to be.
You can work on you and make you into the you you want to be, but
if you require their healing as a condition of your own, you are
self limiting regardless of the nurturing period.
I'll be talking more about this in the Patreon, but just know
that healing is possible, it just requires commitment.
And I ask you, how many more burdens do you want to carry?
How many open wounds do you need?
Sad farming and over identification in the pain story
is very, very dangerous. And I am not diminishing those
who have walked through hell, I'm not.
But wouldn't it be nice to know you don't have to forever walk
on coals or deal with deprivation?
Wouldn't it be nice to know you can have a reasonably contented
life? Because it's possible when you
give yourself the nurturing and it's done in baby steps.
Again, I'll talk about this more in the Patreon.
This full moon it's going to be building things up a lot.
So deep breaths, deep breaths, no hyperventilating.
And make sure you check into the Awake Space Lounge.
I'll be chatting it up with you this week and hopefully show you
more pictures from the studio. So fingers crossed.
Next week the podcast will come from the studio and you'll see
more of the new chair. I showed it on Blue Sky, which
by the way, I'm on Skylight and Blue Sky.
I'll put that link in the show notes as well.
Thank you everybody, and I hope you have a wonderful week.
See you in the Patreon.