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It's you like space with Lori 
Rivers, and I'm here to give you

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some inspiration to get those 
aspirations out in the world. 

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Remember, it's time for action. 
We've got Mars in Aries. 

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Did you feel it? 
Did you feel the energy change? 

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I feel like I'm boosted. 
Of course, I have Mars in 

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Sagittarius, so I'm like, bring 
it home, baby. 

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The training for me is happening
right now. 

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How cool is that? 
How about Artemis 2? 

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That mission, That mission gave 
all of the energy I've been 

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talking about about what happens
in the future that we get to a 

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Star Trek like reality. 
And remember, Star Trek wasn't 

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perfect. 
It wasn't a utopia. 

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There was an underbelly. 
Humans are humaning and other 

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aliens are aliening. 
Does that mean that we will have

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alien disclosure? 
To me, that's not the point. 

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The point was we realized we 
live on a floating rock in space

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and this is it. 
This is this is what we got. 

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This is our home. 
This is what we got. 

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We better damn well learn how to
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annihilating each other, because
that's an unacceptable use of 

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our consciousness. 
It has been part of our 

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evolution. 
It's been part of how we've 

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learned, but we kind of have 
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If you look at how the rest of 
the world, including many people

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here in this country, are 
responding to the use of 

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excessive force, we're not. 
We're like, hey, dudes, not not 

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cool. 
And going so far as to mock 

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people who behave like out of 
control children, Although I 

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hate to use children as the 
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blaming things on kids and 
dehumanizing children is part of

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the problem. 
But yeah, so we're going to talk

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about the moon today in general 
and talk about how it is an 

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activating force, an activating 
force and why I use the moon 

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changes as kind of my anchor 
point in my predictions. 

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As for what's going to happen in
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and 1/2 is it's, it's very 
interesting as we move into just

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before the 23rd and then the 
23rd being an uncommonly good 

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day. 
And again, I'm not saying it's 

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it. 
Stop telling people I said that.

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I just said it's a really good 
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Now I know you think that that 
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That must be what's really good.
It could be a lot of things. 

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And there's no promises on my 
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So if people come for me, I'm 
just going to lose my temper. 

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Don't expect me to be taking the
High Road when my Mars is 

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activated right now. 
But anyway, we have uncommonly 

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good energy for ourselves as 
individuals who are members of 

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the collective to show U for 
ourselves, not just for the 

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people we love, not sacrificing 
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a good person, but to truly show
up for ourselves. 

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All right, get your coffee, get 
your tea, get your matcha, get 

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your Red Bull, get your H2O. 
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taking the kids to school, going
on holiday, hitting the road, 

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working from home, folding the 
laundry, doing the dishes, all 

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good activities to bring 
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disrupt the crazy patterns in 
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Or taking a hot girl, hot guy 
walk, taking the dogs to the dog

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park, doing whatever we're 
doing, let's do it together. 

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The Artemis 2 mission, I think a
lot of us had a hard time 

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keeping dry eyes as they spoke 
with such hope and dedication to

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a better and more attuned 
reality. 

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I know there's people who don't 
think it was real. 

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It takes that kind of peak 
experience often to open 

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people's consciousness to that 
understanding of we are 

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connected to the all that is. 
Sometimes it happens through 

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traumatic events, sometimes it 
happens through again peak 

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experiences. 
Standing on the top of a 

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mountain and watching a sunrise 
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from something that seemed 
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Those miracle moments in life I 
for when am not going to say it 

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wasn't real. 
I was born the day the men were 

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leaving the moon and coming back
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I was born that day. 
They used to call me the Moon 

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Baby long before I ever thought 
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raised with the enthusiasm of 
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I would spy at the stars and the
moon nightly, wishing on them 

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with all my might. 
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came true. 
In astrology, the Moon is an 

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activating force. 
It's the closest to Earth. 

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It's large to our vision, yet 
it's 200,000 miles away. 

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It is not made of green cheese. 
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as a child because even as a 
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We have often relegated the moon
to pure emotion and this is 

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moods and moodiness and too 
emotional and and the moon and 

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this moon has no feelings and 
this is the moon that has all 

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the feelings and none of that is
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It's a very small minded point 
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patriarchal system that takes 
anything that is relegated 

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feminine and renders it flighty,
Moody, overly emotional and not 

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as important as the actions we 
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And that's ridiculous. 
Look at all the excuses and how 

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it's translated into day-to-day 
life for women to be held back 

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because they're too emotional, 
and yet a man screaming or 

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yelling or shutting down and 
giving the silent treatment 

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isn't seen in the same light. 
I bring this up in relationship 

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to astrology because our 
cultural beliefs and constructs 

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filter into our interpretation 
and that is why the moon has 

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been relegated to it's just 
emotion. 

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But it's so much more than that.
Emotions are important and yet 

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we need to use emotions not as a
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I am angry, therefore I will hit
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I am sad, so I will make 
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I'm in pain and the whole world 
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and waste away. 
That is information. 

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Those emotions are information. 
Emotions are information. 

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Information. 
I'm going to say it again. 

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Emotions are information. 
They are not determinants. 

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And we have not been taught that
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in the problem it is in today is
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said, our technology has 
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We did not learn how to 
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without violence, without 
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codependency. 
And I'm not blaming you or you 

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or you or you or the thousands 
of people who listen to the 

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show. 
It is a collective experience 

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and there have been people who 
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without violence, learning to 
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manipulation, learning to 
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each other. 
There's a big difference between

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codependency and Co regulation. 
The fact that we would ever 

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expect a small child to regulate
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understand how to do it in 
adulthood is ridiculous. 

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To vilify strong feelings, 
strong emotions is a problem. 

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Big feelings happen. 
Some people put them into action

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in productive ways. 
I was telling my father back in 

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2016, 2017, 2018 and 2019. 
Every time I got angry, I 

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donated to a project that was 
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it was $5, sometimes it was $10,
sometimes it was $20.00. 

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I was rebuilding my life. 
I didn't have a lot extra, but 

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every time I got pissed off at 
the administration, I would 

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donate money and I would say 
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He pissed me off again and I 
told my dad I need to do that 

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again and I know I have another 
project I'm going to donate 

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money to. 
I'm like, I got to have my 

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donation. 
Every time I get pissed off, I'm

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going to donate to that project.
Taking that anger and 

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transmuting it into something 
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That is the deliberate act. 
Now, I've talked a lot about our

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consciousness over the last 
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Well, actually the last as long 
as I've had the podcast, we have

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our instinctual consciousness, 
which isn't worse. 

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We need our instinctual 
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We are mammals, but when we've 
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consistently, we often have a 
lower quality of life, right? 

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We tend to it. 
That's the facts. 

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Been there, done that. 
Then we have our social cultural

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programming, what I call our 
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OK. 
And this is where we do our 

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getting along in the world, 
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We do our getting along in the 
world, meaning we have a job, we

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have a role or multiple roles, 
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And we make decisions based on 
those roles, a little bit like a

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default setting. 
I remember when it dawned on me 

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that I didn't have to get up at 
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somebody else. 
I was rattled by that because I 

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was used to that routine. 
And then I had to let go of the 

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idea of work being part of my 
identity because of life 

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circumstances. 
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that what I was doing at home 
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I just did worked on that in a 
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which is a coaching and support 
for people not recognizing that 

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what we do at home is work. 
And if you have to go pay for 

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all of that, whether it's 
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laundry services, child caring, 
event management, personal 

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assistant, you know, Add all 
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valuable, but we don't see it 
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our identity to a John that's 
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societal beliefs. 
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consciousness. 
I used to call it transcendent 

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because we're transcending the 
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But people kind of took that to 
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That's not what it is. 
It is being deliberate, like, 

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oh, this is my default. 
I need to do this other thing 

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right. 
I need to behave in a different 

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I need to choose for myself. 

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It can be scary to be deliberate
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It isn't screw down. 
It's normally when I get cut off

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in traffic, I'm like, screw you.
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Even though I'm in my 
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all your friends are going to be
like, well, yeah, you should 

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have flipped them off. 
But there might be a day where 

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you're like, I'm tired of being 
stressed out. 

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Well, that person decided to do 
something rude and I could have 

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had an accident, but I didn't. 
And you focus on what you did, 

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which is I stayed calm. 
Traffic opened up and wow, 5 

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miles later, that guy got pulled
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I guess he got what was coming 
to him and it's OK to have a 

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little shot in Freda. 
It's not about perfection. 

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It's about understanding that we
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the information from our 
emotions. 

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When we're overwhelmed, over 
stimulated, it might take a 

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second to adjust and it might 
mean mean that we need to go to 

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bed and wake up and start the 
next day deliberately. 

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We might go to bed deliberately.
It doesn't mean you're going to 

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be a paragon of virtue. 
I think that's a very dangerous 

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concept. 
But we need examples, Laurie. 

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Well, yeah. 
Watch a human being be a human 

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being who's a human being on 
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That's what this one does. 
I'm a human on purpose in 

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purpose, being and doing at the 
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aspirations, fears and 
limitations. 

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This is how we don't start a 
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Somebody who empowers you back 
and says no, you can do this. 

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You can find your answers. 
Here's the framework to get you 

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started right. 
The Moon, not just in your Natal

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chart, but as a transiting, 
activating force, gives you the 

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best predictive tool for 
day-to-day events I know of 

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because the moon is governing 
the day-to-day. 

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Those things, these guys in 
their power suits with their 

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silly little neck decorations 
called ties, they don't think 

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it's important. 
They see it as lowly, these 

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everyday things that they're 
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themselves and they wouldn't be 
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the world without them. 
Somebody to bring you water, 

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someone to cook for you, someone
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Those day-to-day things that we 
look at as lowly and beneath us,

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are they, are they lowly and 
beneath us or do we need that so

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we don't live in a pigsty? 
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Or is that something that keeps 
the day-to-day functioning so 

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that they can do their brunch or
their lunch or their power 

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meeting, whatever they want to 
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The moon governs the day-to-day.
If you've been with me for a 

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long time, you know I had a 
program called Living by Luna 

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and I learned a lot 5 years ago.
It was one of my very first 

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deliver the information because 
I was coming from it as somebody

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who'd done astrology for, you 
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But I'm an academian, right? 

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approachable, more relevant, not
dumb it down. 

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I'm not insulting anyone's 
intelligence. 

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But not everybody is a geek. 
I know Shaka. 

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Shucks. 
Not everybody likes to build 

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their own computers. 
Not everybody likes gaming. 

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Not everybody likes experimental
math. 

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Not everybody likes to do the 
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The things I find fun, most 
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Some people do. 
I'm always excited when I meet 

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other people who like all the 
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And so I learned to make it more
approachable, More approachable.

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And I just finished the 
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There's still some of the golden
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and I wrote it in the 
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that, you know, serious 
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And it was like as we sit upon 
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change in human history since 
the Bronze Age. 

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And it is the fall of 2019 when 
I wrote that knowing 2020 was 

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going to be the start of the 
change of everything. 

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everything change. 

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What I am excited about in that 
everything changing is that we 

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get to have a say in how things 
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Maybe not in the macro, not in 
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day-to-day, how we raise our 
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As Gloria Sinem said, don't 
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their fathers. 
Raise your sons to be like their

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mothers, right? 
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that. 
Maybe we didn't have a good mom.

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Not every mom is good. 
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And if your dad and you're 
thinking I'm going to do this 

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differently, well, it's hard to 
do it differently when we're 

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just rebelling and doing the 
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formation, right? 
That's why I've got the 

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astrology of the child lectures.
And yes, that sounds a lot to do

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with the moon, including 
astrology and child development 

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and how the they sequence. 
But that's a three-part lecture.

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I'm so excited about it. 
I caught it last year. 

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And so you guys will be able to 
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it at your own pace. 
Just all good stuff. 

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We have to start looking at life
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role we play in it because we 
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greater collective. 
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collective. 
Our personal energy is impacted 

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by the collective energy, and 
yet we are transmitters as much 

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as we are receivers. 
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record this with Mars conjunct 
Neptune, Now is the time to 

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switch the frequency and to pour
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the world instead of lamenting 
what we lost, fearing what we 

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don't understand. 
That doesn't. 

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That doesn't help, doesn't mean 
it's not normal and natural, but

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it doesn't help if we can learn 
to tune our energy and build 

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more of what we want to see in 
the world, maybe be a little 

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more generous, maybe be and, and
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but with time, with resources, 
learning to share a little more,

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learning to care a little more, 
learning to appreciate the 

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efforts other people make. 
Because I think a lot of times I

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know in my case, if you're 
really good at something, people

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don't see the effort because you
make a look easy, right? 

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They don't see the time, they 
don't see the energy, they don't

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see the dedication and the years
of practice. 

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They, they see you're good at 
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Now we live in an extraordinary 
time of change and we get to be 

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part of that. 
And that is a privilege, just 

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like it's a privilege to be part
of spaceship Earth. 

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You know, I know we feel like 
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The neck bone is connected to 
the shoulder bone, the hip bones

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connected to the thigh bone. 
Everything on this planet is 

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interconnected. 
And we are children of Gaia. 

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We are children of the Earth. 
You look outside of us, people 

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talk about all the different 
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and I'm not saying they're not 
possible. 

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I mean, anything is possible, 
but the reality you're living 

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now in the body you're in now is
for this moment. 

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The moon is an activating force,
and how we wield our 

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consciousness determines on how 
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I'm really excited about Living 
by Luna, really excited about 

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it. 
Jessica will be done with it and

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I found a way that you guys will
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demand. 
I am not going to deal with 

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shipping. 
I do not play those games. 

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I do not. 
That is not my grind. 

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But I found a way to do that 
because it's a journaling 

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process and there is nothing 
that I know works more because 

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this is something I used and 
developed myself because I was 

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just starting to learn about 
transits, the movie, you know, 

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and, and transits are the moving
celestial bodies and they 

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operate outside of the chart. 
And I was like, well, since I'm 

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at Cancer, should I look at 
lunar transits? 

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And he was like, whatever floats
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And I came up with this process 
and at first I saw it more 

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deterministic because I was in 
my 20s, right? 

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And we don't like to make 
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We want sometimes to be told 
what to do, even if we claim we 

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don't. 
I'm an independent thinker. 

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I don't need to be told what to 
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And yet when we think of a deity
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charge of us instead of a Co 
creative experience where we're 

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working with all of creation, we
still make ourselves 

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subordinate. 
And when people are saying don't

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be egotistical, that's not what 
they're talking about. 

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They're not saying you shouldn't
be a Co creator. 

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When they say don't be 
egotistical, it says don't fight

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for your survival. 
There's a big difference between

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being an egomaniac and 
understanding you have a role to

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play in the universe. 
Just understand that other 

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people do too and you're part of
a great collective action. 

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But so many people feel 
overburdened by decision. 

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So many people feel overburdened
and fear what happens when they 

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make the wrong move. 
Because maybe as a child they 

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grew up with a lot of 
punishment, whether it was 

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physical and corporal punishment
or somebody just had a 

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manipulative parent who would 
say, I'm disappointed in you, 

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you made a choice. 
We have so weaponized that 

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language and it doesn't help 
anyone, it doesn't help you, it 

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doesn't help your kids, it 
doesn't help me, it doesn't help

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my kids. 
None of that language is useful 

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or constructive. 
When we understand that we are 

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Co creating with our guidance, 
our higher self, our soul self, 

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our source self, our creator, 
whatever you want to name it, 

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then that agency and ability to 
make a decision no longer 

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becomes an ego triggering event.
Because sometimes we feel like 

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we're going to die if we make 
the wrong decision. 

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And sometimes we do die. 
What if we make the wrong 

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decision? 
What's over that hip? 

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I was talking to a friend the 
other day and they feel 

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overburdened with decisions 
because they had always had help

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in making those decisions or got
to defer those decisions to a 

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spouse and the idea of having it
all on their shoulders feels 

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like an immense amount of 
pressure. 

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And when I left my second 
marriage I felt exactly like 

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that. 
Oh my God, it's all on me. 

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What if I screw it up? 
What if I screw it up even 

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though that particular person I 
had left had screwed it up 

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plenty when I either deferred to
them, deferred my agency to 

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theirs, because we all do it. 
Because guess what? 

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If you don't make the decision, 
you get to blame the other guy. 

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And you got to be really honest 
with yourself to say that. 

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And I remember I was driving 
down Hwy. 101 through Oregon 

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into the redwoods in California,
one of my favorite drives. 

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And I remember having this oh 
shit moment, Like if I screwed 

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up the car, it was on me. 
There was no one else. 

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I can say, well, why didn't you 
get the oil change? 

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Why do I have to do it all the 
time? 

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Guess what? 
I get to do it all the time now.

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Guess whose job it is? 
Guess whose job it is to, you 

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know, go to the grocery store? 
Guess whose job it is to take 

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care of daily living things? 
Guess whose job it is in their 

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business to make all those 
decisions? 

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I don't get to blame anybody. 
Buck stops here and it can be 

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overwhelming, especially when 
you love to tell people what 

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they're doing wrong or doing 
right. 

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And I will say that was less of 
an issue for me. 

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I was not a nitpicker or control
freak in that way. 

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I was afraid to make decisions, 
though. 

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I was scared of that because 
what if, what if it goes wrong? 

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So I started deliberately making
bad decisions or what other 

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people thought were bad 
decisions. 

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They already thought me leaving 
my second marriage was a bad 

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decision. 
I was like Oh no, this is the 

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best decision In 2019. 
I needed a new car. 

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My car had been totaled. 
No, not in an accident, but it 

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had been totaled. 
And I had the settlement check 

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and I needed a car because I 
wasn't going to Uber to work 

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every day. 
And it even though my work 

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wasn't that far, but still I 
needed a car. 

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So I took myself to a local 
dealership to look for a 

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previously owned car and found a
little Prius C I'm not going to 

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lie, it had the worst handling 
of any car I've ever driven. 

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But it was in my price range, 
and it was the one in my price 

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range that I felt most 
comfortable driving and it had a

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decent safety record. 
I'd done my research. 

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I purposely did not take any of 
my guy friends who all knew 

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about cars. 
I was 50 years old. 

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I'd never done this before. 
I'd always deferred the decision

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I made. 
Put a word in on a color or the 

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handling of the carcass skin. 
I like to drive, so I don't, I 

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don't care what brand it is. 
I don't care as long as it 

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handles well because I like to 
drive, you know? 

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Is it smooth in transition? 
Is it easy to park? 

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That's all I care about. 
Does get good gas mileage. 

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But those are the things I care 
about when it comes to cars. 

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I don't care what other people 
think of me as I drive my car. 

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I don't think oh I want AG wagon
so other people are jealous. 

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I don't care. 
And if you do believe for you, 

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that's awesome for you. 
I'm just not that person. 

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So anyway, I decided that if I 
made a mistake in negotiating 

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the car, it was my mistake and I
would own that mistake and I 

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would own it like a badge of 
honor. 

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Now, women traditionally get 
really screwed over at car 

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dealerships. 
And this young man who was 

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pretty much the epitome of a 
young Carl's car salesman, and I

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took a look at the lot and I 
said, well, I already kind of 

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know what I want and this is 
what I can afford. 

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And I want you to know I do not 
have credit. 

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He's like, oh, bad credit. 
I'm like, no, no, I do not have 

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bad credit. 
I have no credit. 

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What? 
I've been cash basis because I 

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was married. 
He had credit. 

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I hated banks. 
I deferred, and you're like, are

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you kidding? 
Nope. 

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It was living my principles. 
Well, one of those principles 

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ended up being like, cutting off
my nose to spite my face. 

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And this kid who was truly, I 
mean, he was a man, but he could

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have been my child, OK? 
He was in my youngest age group.

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Spent two hours finding the best
rate for me. 

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Look, I make a mistake. 
I make a mistake, I'll own it 

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and I, I know this will build 
credit. 

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And it did. 
It did. 

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And it was a decent car until I 
got my next one, which is the 

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one I have now that I love. 
And then I did take a friend to 

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negotiate. 
At the end I knew what I wanted 

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and it was a whole thing, the 
freedom I experienced when I 

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finally surrendered. 
The fear. 

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The fear which builds up like 
armor against the world and 

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living well. 
When I surrendered the fear and 

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embraced self accountability and
said if I make a mistake I will 

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own that and I did. 
And it wasn't really a mistake. 

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He got me a great great interest
rate that liberated. 

450
00:31:53,520 --> 00:32:00,680
It liberates us, the moon and 
our emotions, whether it's fear,

451
00:32:00,880 --> 00:32:09,560
worry, doubt, insecurity, anger,
jealousy, hope, liberation, the 

452
00:32:09,600 --> 00:32:15,960
elation, the exuberance, the 
joy, the love, the sorrow, the 

453
00:32:15,960 --> 00:32:22,080
grief. 
All of that is part of life and 

454
00:32:22,080 --> 00:32:24,760
it's information that allows us 
to make decisions. 

455
00:32:24,760 --> 00:32:28,120
But if we're deferring our 
decisions, if we're deferring 

456
00:32:28,120 --> 00:32:34,520
them to a partner, a friend, a 
lover, a deity, our guidance 

457
00:32:34,800 --> 00:32:38,840
when we separate ourselves from 
spirit and do not realize we are

458
00:32:38,840 --> 00:32:42,040
spirit made manifest, that's 
ego. 

459
00:32:42,320 --> 00:32:45,240
Oh, I'm just too little. 
Something bigger than me is in 

460
00:32:45,240 --> 00:32:47,600
charge. 
No, that's your ego. 

461
00:32:48,160 --> 00:32:52,000
And that is your ego trying to 
keep you safe because it is so 

462
00:32:52,000 --> 00:32:53,920
big. 
When we look at the vastness of 

463
00:32:54,240 --> 00:32:59,000
all that is and the smallness of
being physical on Earth, as the 

464
00:32:59,080 --> 00:33:06,200
Artemis crew found out, because 
it's overwhelming to realize the

465
00:33:06,200 --> 00:33:09,480
truth of it. 
It's got, there's got to be 

466
00:33:09,480 --> 00:33:12,360
something bigger than me. 
I can't be this fool making all 

467
00:33:12,360 --> 00:33:16,280
these decisions. 
But what if you are Co creating 

468
00:33:16,280 --> 00:33:19,240
with all that is? 
What if you are working in 

469
00:33:19,240 --> 00:33:23,560
tandem with spirit because you 
are spirit made manifest, you 

470
00:33:23,560 --> 00:33:28,560
are spirit made physical and it 
is hard to be like a genie 

471
00:33:28,560 --> 00:33:33,160
shoved in a bottle with the 
vastness of all that is and who 

472
00:33:33,160 --> 00:33:37,400
you are in your Co creative 
nature into this little itty 

473
00:33:37,400 --> 00:33:42,000
bitty tiny living space. 
All right, I'm going to do some 

474
00:33:42,000 --> 00:33:45,760
community news because I got 
some fun updates about what's 

475
00:33:45,760 --> 00:33:50,160
happening in the Awake space and
remember to thank a patron 

476
00:33:50,160 --> 00:33:53,840
because of them. 
This podcast is ad free and 

477
00:33:53,840 --> 00:33:57,840
sponsor free. 
We are 100% independent because 

478
00:33:57,840 --> 00:34:00,720
of listeners and I'm really 
proud of that. 

479
00:34:00,920 --> 00:34:03,600
So got some community news 
that's coming up next. 

480
00:34:22,800 --> 00:34:24,560
All right, we've got some 
community news. 

481
00:34:24,560 --> 00:34:28,120
The memes are packed. 
We can post photos again. 

482
00:34:31,560 --> 00:34:37,280
I did not know how universal 
that experience was for 

483
00:34:37,280 --> 00:34:40,000
everybody. 
Some people reached out, some 

484
00:34:40,000 --> 00:34:42,639
people didn't. 
I know a lot of people know I'm 

485
00:34:42,639 --> 00:34:46,880
busy, but you know, if you're 
having problems in the community

486
00:34:46,880 --> 00:34:49,280
as far as like with the 
technical stuff and me not 

487
00:34:49,280 --> 00:34:51,760
knowing, I can't reach out to 
support and get it fixed. 

488
00:34:52,120 --> 00:34:57,440
So enough people, enough people 
had reported to me that they 

489
00:34:57,440 --> 00:35:02,920
were having problems that I 
decided and and trust me, I have

490
00:35:02,920 --> 00:35:08,640
been fighting with support for 
like 6 months, six months 

491
00:35:08,640 --> 00:35:10,840
reporting issues and they'd be 
like, which members? 

492
00:35:10,840 --> 00:35:12,560
I mean, I don't know, like 5 
different people. 

493
00:35:12,560 --> 00:35:16,640
I don't remember who they are. 
Because again, when you're 

494
00:35:17,120 --> 00:35:21,200
running things on your own with 
limited help, and I do, the help

495
00:35:21,200 --> 00:35:26,280
I have is amazing, amazing. 
Don't think I don't appreciate 

496
00:35:26,280 --> 00:35:29,280
it, but it's still everything 
else is on me. 

497
00:35:29,840 --> 00:35:32,880
So I'd get a hold of support and
I'm like, you figure it out. 

498
00:35:32,880 --> 00:35:40,840
OK, that's your job. 
So I have now a, a Rep from 

499
00:35:40,840 --> 00:35:45,760
Patreon who, who is an advisor 
and is there to help. 

500
00:35:46,160 --> 00:35:50,080
And I reached out to them and I 
was like, look, I'm making this 

501
00:35:50,080 --> 00:35:53,920
feedback form and a survey to 
find out how many people are 

502
00:35:53,920 --> 00:35:58,840
having problems. 
And I put it up and almost 300 

503
00:35:58,840 --> 00:36:01,320
of you have answered, which is 
great. 

504
00:36:01,320 --> 00:36:06,000
I would love more because what 
Amanda at Patreon is doing is if

505
00:36:06,000 --> 00:36:08,480
you are actually like, if you're
locked out of your account, if 

506
00:36:08,480 --> 00:36:12,560
you can't get in, she's getting 
that to the right teams. 

507
00:36:13,240 --> 00:36:18,440
OK, so that's happened and I 
fixed the meme problem. 

508
00:36:18,440 --> 00:36:22,280
It wasn't support, it wasn't 
Patreon, it was me because I've 

509
00:36:22,280 --> 00:36:25,600
been waiting for them to make it
so we can get our memes back as 

510
00:36:25,600 --> 00:36:29,280
a meme action in the awake space
is pretty funny because we're a 

511
00:36:29,280 --> 00:36:30,600
community. 
We're not. 

512
00:36:30,600 --> 00:36:33,520
It's not just, you know, me 
lecturing all the time. 

513
00:36:34,120 --> 00:36:36,600
It is also a really fun 
community. 

514
00:36:36,600 --> 00:36:40,760
I missed all the memes. 
I'm not I'm my meme game is not 

515
00:36:40,760 --> 00:36:43,880
always the strongest, but I 
enjoy other people who have a 

516
00:36:43,880 --> 00:36:47,880
strong meme game. 
And so I had this epiphany like 

517
00:36:47,880 --> 00:36:50,480
last week was all epiphanies all
over the place. 

518
00:36:50,920 --> 00:36:56,480
And I had an epiphany and I was 
like, what if I just delete the 

519
00:36:56,480 --> 00:37:06,760
chats and we start over? 
And so, so it worked. 

520
00:37:07,440 --> 00:37:11,680
And then I sent the information 
to tech support who now tries to

521
00:37:11,680 --> 00:37:12,960
claim, oh, we fixed that for 
you. 

522
00:37:12,960 --> 00:37:15,680
I'm like, no, no, no, no, I 
fixed it. 

523
00:37:17,560 --> 00:37:20,240
So it was like clearing the 
cache or something, I don't 

524
00:37:20,240 --> 00:37:24,680
know. 
So anywho, meme action is back. 

525
00:37:25,120 --> 00:37:29,800
You can have fun in the in the 
chats and Oh my God, it was the 

526
00:37:29,880 --> 00:37:33,640
best when I was like, try, try 
the meme, I had Alicia try 

527
00:37:33,640 --> 00:37:37,240
first. 
We did, we did a test run and 

528
00:37:37,240 --> 00:37:40,560
then found out how many people 
couldn't even get into chats. 

529
00:37:40,960 --> 00:37:45,360
I had no idea about 30% of our 
respondents have had trouble 

530
00:37:45,720 --> 00:37:49,600
accessing so, but that is 
getting fixed. 

531
00:37:49,920 --> 00:37:51,600
OK. 
And if you personally have had a

532
00:37:51,600 --> 00:37:54,440
problem with your account, 
please fill out the form so 

533
00:37:54,440 --> 00:37:58,800
Amanda can get this to the right
team to get it fixed because 

534
00:37:58,800 --> 00:38:00,680
yeah, Amanda. 
And the one thing I will tell 

535
00:38:00,680 --> 00:38:04,520
I'm not mad at Patreon. 
They are the real deal as a 

536
00:38:04,520 --> 00:38:08,320
company goes, OK? 
I've worked with all of the 

537
00:38:08,320 --> 00:38:10,880
teams as an ambassador. 
I've been an ambassador with 

538
00:38:10,880 --> 00:38:15,640
Patreon for what, five years now
from when the program first 

539
00:38:15,640 --> 00:38:18,840
started. 
I have tested a lot of new 

540
00:38:18,840 --> 00:38:22,280
features and I know some people 
don't like the new update. 

541
00:38:23,480 --> 00:38:26,240
It just takes time to get used 
to and it might have another 

542
00:38:26,240 --> 00:38:29,240
change, I don't know. 
Put your feedback in. 

543
00:38:29,240 --> 00:38:31,640
They appreciated it. 
It's gone to the product 

544
00:38:31,640 --> 00:38:34,360
development team, which deals 
with the user interface. 

545
00:38:35,440 --> 00:38:39,560
It's gone all, every team that 
needs it, from engineering to, 

546
00:38:40,480 --> 00:38:45,640
you know, the accounts, all, all
of that to get it fixed. 

547
00:38:45,680 --> 00:38:49,040
Nobody's mad. 
We just needed to get it fixed. 

548
00:38:49,040 --> 00:38:51,360
There was a gap in 
communication, right? 

549
00:38:51,360 --> 00:38:53,480
And that's what do I do. 
I'm the communicator. 

550
00:38:53,800 --> 00:38:59,200
So it's fixed. 
And I made sure Matilda got 

551
00:38:59,200 --> 00:39:04,520
taken care of too. 
So because I'm like, she's my 

552
00:39:04,520 --> 00:39:06,560
colleague. 
She wouldn't even be here if I 

553
00:39:06,560 --> 00:39:11,360
hadn't said, hey, come on to 
Patreon, you know, hey, come on,

554
00:39:11,520 --> 00:39:15,640
you know, So anyway, so that's 
good news. 

555
00:39:15,880 --> 00:39:21,680
I'm excited about that. 
If you're in the $15 level and 

556
00:39:21,680 --> 00:39:31,040
up, your special savings are up.
You also got advanced, advanced 

557
00:39:31,040 --> 00:39:34,560
notice of ticket sales for 
charts and channelling, which is

558
00:39:34,560 --> 00:39:39,920
a medium Matilda in my event. 
That happens on May 17th. 

559
00:39:40,480 --> 00:39:42,880
We've priced this very 
affordably. 

560
00:39:42,880 --> 00:39:47,320
So we are not discounting, but 
we did give our members. 

561
00:39:47,720 --> 00:39:50,000
For me, it's magazine 
subscribers and up. 

562
00:39:50,320 --> 00:39:54,040
I don't remember what tier hers 
is called, but it's a $15 tier 

563
00:39:54,040 --> 00:39:57,280
and up the first dibs on those 
tickets. 

564
00:39:57,360 --> 00:39:58,920
OK. 
And we're going to release these

565
00:39:58,920 --> 00:40:04,680
to the public on the 18th of 
April, OK of 2026, we're going 

566
00:40:04,680 --> 00:40:10,600
to go through. 
June, July and August in a deep 

567
00:40:10,800 --> 00:40:16,040
dive last night on Saturday 
night, because this is Monday, I

568
00:40:16,040 --> 00:40:17,640
always forget I record on 
Sundays. 

569
00:40:18,280 --> 00:40:24,960
On Saturday night we did a sassy
Sears episode live for, well, 

570
00:40:24,960 --> 00:40:28,240
for me, for magazine 
subscribers, and Up Magazine 

571
00:40:28,240 --> 00:40:31,720
will be out. 
I was finishing Living by Luna 

572
00:40:31,720 --> 00:40:35,560
because I got to write that last
article, and dear Jessica, my 

573
00:40:35,560 --> 00:40:38,720
wonderful editor, had other 
stuff she needed to do this 

574
00:40:38,720 --> 00:40:41,720
week, so she'll finish that and 
then we'll get it out this week.

575
00:40:41,720 --> 00:40:43,760
You already have the 
predictions, you already have 

576
00:40:43,760 --> 00:40:46,360
the horoscopes. 
I already fixed some of the 

577
00:40:46,360 --> 00:40:52,240
issues that were there, so those
have been refreshed so you can 

578
00:40:52,240 --> 00:40:56,000
check those out. 
So there's that. 

579
00:40:56,000 --> 00:40:59,040
Once again, I want to thank 
everybody for their support. 

580
00:40:59,040 --> 00:41:02,760
Whether you're a free member and
you're giving us vibes, do 

581
00:41:02,760 --> 00:41:04,400
check. 
If you're a free member, please 

582
00:41:04,400 --> 00:41:06,600
check the post that I made for 
you. 

583
00:41:06,600 --> 00:41:10,400
I'll make another one. 
There's the special savings for 

584
00:41:10,400 --> 00:41:18,000
you this month and when you join
at the magazine or astrology 

585
00:41:18,000 --> 00:41:22,400
crew level. 
That's pretty cool and let's 

586
00:41:22,400 --> 00:41:27,640
see, Living by Luna is done. 
So it just needs a final edit 

587
00:41:28,120 --> 00:41:31,080
and then we'll look at the POD 
on the journal. 

588
00:41:31,080 --> 00:41:35,000
POD is print on demand. 
I'm not a big fan of doing big 

589
00:41:35,000 --> 00:41:38,320
print runs. 
I love trees, but if people want

590
00:41:38,320 --> 00:41:40,760
to get a hard copy, that will 
soon be available. 

591
00:41:40,760 --> 00:41:44,440
And if you're in the astrology 
crew, you will know about that 

592
00:41:44,440 --> 00:41:46,680
first. 
I'll be talking about that here 

593
00:41:46,680 --> 00:41:49,280
at the end of the podcast. 
A little bit more about what 

594
00:41:49,280 --> 00:41:54,600
Living by Luna is and how it 
works with our everyday life and

595
00:41:54,600 --> 00:41:58,000
becoming more aware of how we 
operate. 

596
00:41:58,480 --> 00:42:04,280
So before I get into that, let's
do a big shout out. 

597
00:42:04,880 --> 00:42:11,080
A big shout out to our newest 
patrons, some of whom I believe 

598
00:42:11,080 --> 00:42:15,200
took advantage of the special 
deal that I put out to our free 

599
00:42:15,200 --> 00:42:19,880
members. 
So we've got Joanna, Molly, 

600
00:42:19,880 --> 00:42:27,920
April, Grace, Amanda, Denise, 
Ash, Enov, Enoved, Tiffany, 

601
00:42:28,240 --> 00:42:37,320
Illyria, Debbie, Cora, Lucy, 
Emily, Marissa, Sabnam, GNGN. 

602
00:42:37,720 --> 00:42:45,840
Unless it's Sin. 
Sin B Ava, Christina, Sarah 

603
00:42:46,120 --> 00:42:54,560
Teresa MH Kelly, Siobhan Ronica,
Marcy Christie Zin, Jenny. 

604
00:42:54,920 --> 00:42:59,400
Black Cat, Lori Annie Jocelyn 
Janelle. 

605
00:42:59,680 --> 00:43:00,960
No Way. 
Jose. 

606
00:43:00,960 --> 00:43:06,400
Joanna Jen. 
Jewelsphere, Sonya, Tiffany, 

607
00:43:06,600 --> 00:43:15,520
Kathy, Jackie, Kelsey C Another 
Chelsea G, Maggie, Ciara, 

608
00:43:15,880 --> 00:43:23,320
Lauren, Selena, Ariana, Lupa, 
Reptile Girl, Ash, Oren, Jen, 

609
00:43:23,760 --> 00:43:31,680
Olivia, Marie, Shay, Tory, Mark,
Brittany, Sherry, Sue, Sarah, 

610
00:43:31,800 --> 00:43:37,200
Debbie, Brandy, LP and Becca. 
And when you join as a 

611
00:43:37,240 --> 00:43:43,160
supporting member, you join over
2000 supporting members. 

612
00:43:43,160 --> 00:43:48,920
I'm very very proud of that. 
I know it says it's 7.3 K 2000 

613
00:43:48,920 --> 00:43:53,120
of you are supporting members. 
The rest are vibing and trust 

614
00:43:53,120 --> 00:43:55,280
me, I'll take all the vibes I 
can get. 

615
00:43:55,800 --> 00:43:59,880
All right, let's talk about 
living by Luna and why life is 

616
00:43:59,880 --> 00:44:16,320
cyclical and how to see that for
ourselves, Cycles, everything. 

617
00:44:16,320 --> 00:44:19,920
We say full circle a lot, and 
I've been having a lot of full 

618
00:44:19,920 --> 00:44:23,720
circle moments lately and it's 
kind of exciting. 

619
00:44:24,240 --> 00:44:28,640
It's kind of exciting to have 
these full circle moments years 

620
00:44:28,640 --> 00:44:34,440
ago, and I just said that in the
break between at the end of the 

621
00:44:34,440 --> 00:44:40,360
last segment before the 
community news, I came up with 

622
00:44:40,360 --> 00:44:43,160
this way of looking at lunar 
transits because I was a 

623
00:44:43,160 --> 00:44:45,720
Cancerian, I was a baby 
astrologer, and I was like, 

624
00:44:45,720 --> 00:44:48,560
well, maybe I should know this 
because the moon rolls my sun, 

625
00:44:48,840 --> 00:44:54,760
OK. 
And so one of the things I 

626
00:44:54,760 --> 00:44:58,480
noticed was there was this 
repetition that happened month 

627
00:44:58,480 --> 00:45:01,760
by month. 
And I started being able to kind

628
00:45:01,760 --> 00:45:06,800
of anticipate my ups and my 
downs and things like that. 

629
00:45:07,840 --> 00:45:13,160
And over the years, I developed 
more method to it because you 

630
00:45:13,160 --> 00:45:16,160
can observe like, and if you're 
not a trained observer and most 

631
00:45:16,160 --> 00:45:20,080
people aren't, I was a trained 
observer because of my academic 

632
00:45:20,080 --> 00:45:25,960
training, learning how to step 
back out of my beliefs, my 

633
00:45:26,280 --> 00:45:30,240
biases as much as possible. 
It's, it's impossible to step 

634
00:45:30,240 --> 00:45:38,080
out of it all and look at life 
and look at what was going on 

635
00:45:38,080 --> 00:45:42,360
and, and just writing down the 
information I saw. 

636
00:45:43,280 --> 00:45:46,520
And as a young astrologer, I 
made the mistakes most young 

637
00:45:46,520 --> 00:45:50,720
astrologers make. 
You know, if I saw, you know, an

638
00:45:50,720 --> 00:45:53,160
eighth house transit, I'd be 
like, oh, no, those two days are

639
00:45:53,160 --> 00:45:55,280
going to be shit. 
And they usually were because 

640
00:45:55,280 --> 00:45:56,800
that's where my consciousness 
was at. 

641
00:45:56,800 --> 00:46:01,200
And if I saw the day that, you 
know, I was having a first house

642
00:46:01,200 --> 00:46:03,480
transit, oh, I'll have all the 
energy in the world. 

643
00:46:03,880 --> 00:46:06,880
And sometimes I did, you know, 
sometimes you usually do. 

644
00:46:07,040 --> 00:46:08,800
But there's other things that go
on. 

645
00:46:08,840 --> 00:46:16,480
Living by Luna was one of my 
very first Patreon tears, and we

646
00:46:16,480 --> 00:46:20,000
were using the manuscript I 
wrote, which was far more 

647
00:46:20,000 --> 00:46:23,560
academic. 
And in fact, good old Eli, my 

648
00:46:23,560 --> 00:46:27,080
mentee was saying, but it's one 
of the best books I've ever 

649
00:46:27,080 --> 00:46:29,400
read. 
And I said yeah. 

650
00:46:29,400 --> 00:46:31,560
And it's a little heady. 
You like it because you're a 

651
00:46:31,560 --> 00:46:36,960
geek like me and other people 
liked it, but it was harder to 

652
00:46:36,960 --> 00:46:40,480
grab onto. 
And So what I I'm always 

653
00:46:40,840 --> 00:46:45,640
distilling information to make 
it more and more practical 

654
00:46:45,640 --> 00:46:50,240
because knowledge isn't power 
unless you know what to do with 

655
00:46:50,240 --> 00:46:52,920
it. 
You can have tons of information

656
00:46:52,920 --> 00:46:57,080
in your head, tons of knowledge,
and if you don't know what to do

657
00:46:57,080 --> 00:47:00,160
with it, it's wasted. 
It's just taking up space. 

658
00:47:00,720 --> 00:47:03,440
So I'm always like, we have this
knowledge. 

659
00:47:03,440 --> 00:47:06,520
How do we apply it? 
OK. 

660
00:47:07,120 --> 00:47:11,040
And that's what I developed. 
And so it's it's I'm very 

661
00:47:11,040 --> 00:47:13,640
excited about it. 
So let's talk about the premise 

662
00:47:13,680 --> 00:47:16,720
of life being cyclical. 
Full circle, right? 

663
00:47:17,200 --> 00:47:20,960
Except it's more like a spiral. 
It's more like the Nautilus 

664
00:47:20,960 --> 00:47:26,200
shell. 
And a Nautilus is like a, a sea 

665
00:47:26,200 --> 00:47:29,040
creature and it's got the spiral
shell. 

666
00:47:29,680 --> 00:47:32,440
And you'll notice in a lot of 
traditions, spiritual 

667
00:47:32,440 --> 00:47:35,760
traditions, indigenous 
traditions, the spiral 

668
00:47:35,760 --> 00:47:39,720
represents creativity. 
It's not a full revolution. 

669
00:47:39,720 --> 00:47:41,640
That's why I always say we don't
want a revolution because you 

670
00:47:41,640 --> 00:47:44,560
end up in the same place because
it just, it just goes around 

671
00:47:44,560 --> 00:47:49,000
full circle. 
Spirals advance our 

672
00:47:49,000 --> 00:47:53,160
understanding. 
So like in healing work, when we

673
00:47:53,160 --> 00:47:58,360
do energy healing, when we do 
deep therapeutic processes, we 

674
00:47:58,360 --> 00:48:01,840
have a spiral of healing where 
we see the issue from many 

675
00:48:01,840 --> 00:48:05,520
different points of view within.
Same with light. 

676
00:48:06,160 --> 00:48:10,240
Yeah, the moon changes signs 
every 54 hours, every 

677
00:48:10,520 --> 00:48:13,720
effectively 2 1/2 days on the 
calendar. 

678
00:48:13,720 --> 00:48:15,320
It might look like a three day 
period. 

679
00:48:15,320 --> 00:48:19,960
So like when you hear my 
predictions right, sometimes it 

680
00:48:19,960 --> 00:48:22,560
sounds like a 2 day period, 
sometimes it sounds like a three

681
00:48:22,560 --> 00:48:27,640
day period, but it is always 54 
hours before it changes signs 

682
00:48:27,640 --> 00:48:31,800
again. 
I talk about energy expressing 

683
00:48:31,800 --> 00:48:36,200
in a spectrum. 
So with Aries you have a 

684
00:48:36,240 --> 00:48:40,720
spectrum of expression. 
It is not always war, it is not 

685
00:48:40,720 --> 00:48:45,360
always aggressive, it could be 
assertion, it is not always 

686
00:48:45,360 --> 00:48:48,080
selfish, but it is self 
oriented. 

687
00:48:48,440 --> 00:48:51,520
So you have people who are 
selfish and do not know how to 

688
00:48:51,520 --> 00:48:55,120
play well with others, and you 
have those who understand that 

689
00:48:55,120 --> 00:48:59,520
they benefit by playing well 
with others, right? 

690
00:49:01,040 --> 00:49:08,920
So when we're looking at the 
moon's transit through the sign,

691
00:49:08,920 --> 00:49:11,600
in transit just means to move, 
OK? 

692
00:49:11,680 --> 00:49:14,440
Like mass transit, right? 
It's moving vehicles. 

693
00:49:16,000 --> 00:49:22,760
You have your Natal chart and 
the moon and everything else as 

694
00:49:22,760 --> 00:49:26,760
it's transiting activates 
different parts of your chart. 

695
00:49:26,800 --> 00:49:30,040
And while that moon is 
activating those parts of the 

696
00:49:30,040 --> 00:49:34,160
chart, you're seeing different 
parts of life, both interior 

697
00:49:34,320 --> 00:49:41,120
yourself and exterior happening.
That's that's the premise and 

698
00:49:41,120 --> 00:49:46,040
observing, learning to observe 
the danger zone. 

699
00:49:46,840 --> 00:49:49,200
And I'm going to talk about this
in the Patron only podcast and 

700
00:49:49,200 --> 00:49:54,960
the Part 2 on this. 
The danger zone is when you use 

701
00:49:54,960 --> 00:50:00,880
it predictively without an 
understanding of growth, when 

702
00:50:00,880 --> 00:50:04,120
you use it to be like up, that's
those are the days I have to 

703
00:50:04,120 --> 00:50:05,800
stay in bed. 
A better plan for it. 

704
00:50:06,160 --> 00:50:09,080
You limit yourself. 
You're giving it a determinist 

705
00:50:09,280 --> 00:50:12,040
action, just like I talked 
about, Like when we give our 

706
00:50:12,040 --> 00:50:14,880
power away because we don't want
to make decisions, because we're

707
00:50:14,880 --> 00:50:19,840
tired and we fear failing. 
We fear making a mistake. 

708
00:50:20,120 --> 00:50:23,000
It could be costly. 
It might cost us more money. 

709
00:50:23,000 --> 00:50:25,120
Don't you know it's a bad 
economy? 

710
00:50:26,280 --> 00:50:31,200
Instead of saying, well, if I 
learn from that, I can avoid 

711
00:50:31,200 --> 00:50:33,320
other costly mistakes later down
the line. 

712
00:50:33,320 --> 00:50:36,320
If you only do things right, you
never learn. 

713
00:50:37,520 --> 00:50:40,360
If you only do things the right 
way, you never learn. 

714
00:50:40,720 --> 00:50:44,480
And you live in a very narrow 
lane. 

715
00:50:45,680 --> 00:50:48,880
Life is abundant. 
Life is abundant. 

716
00:50:48,880 --> 00:50:51,960
And you're like, Oh yeah, sure, 
Lori, we have a shitty economy. 

717
00:50:52,000 --> 00:50:55,280
Yeah. 
Not the first one, not the first

718
00:50:55,280 --> 00:50:56,960
one, not the first shitty 
economy. 

719
00:50:57,520 --> 00:51:00,680
And it is still abundant because
abundance isn't just money. 

720
00:51:00,920 --> 00:51:06,200
Abundance isn't just what you're
exchanging goods and and 

721
00:51:06,520 --> 00:51:11,120
services. 
It's not just that abundance is 

722
00:51:11,520 --> 00:51:17,600
is is living, appreciating the 
moment, taking time to look at 

723
00:51:17,600 --> 00:51:24,240
the sky in the cloud formations,
taking a chance to feel the air 

724
00:51:24,240 --> 00:51:29,160
against your skin. 
Life is a sensual experience, 

725
00:51:29,880 --> 00:51:33,000
but when we're up in our head 
all the time and we're trying to

726
00:51:33,000 --> 00:51:36,760
play it safe because we're 
scared, we don't really live. 

727
00:51:37,040 --> 00:51:42,560
We live within limitation. 
And yes, we have limits because 

728
00:51:42,560 --> 00:51:44,440
we're physical. 
We're not going to be able to 

729
00:51:44,440 --> 00:51:51,520
flap our arms and fly. 
But there's good things we can 

730
00:51:51,520 --> 00:51:57,800
do. 
We can find our creativity and 

731
00:51:57,800 --> 00:52:03,240
and how we choose to use our 
perceptual lens, which includes 

732
00:52:03,240 --> 00:52:08,560
in the Natal chart, the Moon in 
our sensing, feeling capacity to

733
00:52:08,560 --> 00:52:10,320
observe the information we're 
getting. 

734
00:52:10,600 --> 00:52:14,920
I feel sad, I feel angry, I feel
blank. 

735
00:52:15,160 --> 00:52:18,440
This is how I feel today. 
I feel hopeless. 

736
00:52:18,960 --> 00:52:23,240
It's information. 
It's information. 

737
00:52:24,080 --> 00:52:27,320
It is not determining the 
outcome unless you choose to 

738
00:52:27,320 --> 00:52:30,160
make it so. 
And in Living by Luna, there's a

739
00:52:30,160 --> 00:52:36,400
whole process that helps you not
make those errors as far as like

740
00:52:36,440 --> 00:52:39,760
damning yourself to these six 
days a month are going to be 

741
00:52:39,760 --> 00:52:42,160
shitty for me. 
And these the rest of them are 

742
00:52:42,160 --> 00:52:44,240
going to be great or at least 
neutral. 

743
00:52:44,920 --> 00:52:48,720
It doesn't have to be that way. 
And I know that's a different 

744
00:52:48,720 --> 00:52:54,440
way of thinking about life. 
I know we we over focus on the 

745
00:52:54,440 --> 00:52:58,280
negative and the older you are 
with the more habits you have in

746
00:52:58,280 --> 00:53:02,800
your thinking, the the more 
challenging it can be to shift 

747
00:53:02,800 --> 00:53:05,200
the perspective. 
But not impossible. 

748
00:53:06,720 --> 00:53:14,360
Not impossible. 
I remember back in my 30s, a 

749
00:53:14,360 --> 00:53:20,560
long time ago, I remember having
the awareness that I wasn't 

750
00:53:20,560 --> 00:53:23,840
stuck, that I had to make 
decisions. 

751
00:53:25,240 --> 00:53:29,960
And some of those were awkward. 
I made mistakes and I was 

752
00:53:29,960 --> 00:53:33,440
terrified of making mistakes. 
I have Pluto on my S node in 

753
00:53:33,440 --> 00:53:37,200
Virgo. 
Ask me how well I managed 

754
00:53:37,560 --> 00:53:40,960
mistakes. 
Now I do so much in public that 

755
00:53:40,960 --> 00:53:47,480
I make mistakes all the time. 
Roll with it, move on, move on. 

756
00:53:47,480 --> 00:53:50,840
Just because some people can't 
move on doesn't mean I can't 

757
00:53:50,840 --> 00:53:53,160
move on. 
Because unless it puts you in 

758
00:53:53,160 --> 00:53:57,840
the ground, it's not a fatal 
error, and it's only fatal to 

759
00:53:57,840 --> 00:54:01,760
the physical. 
Energy is energy. 

760
00:54:02,120 --> 00:54:06,080
Our souls are energy, Our spirit
is energy. 

761
00:54:06,880 --> 00:54:09,240
It doesn't end. 
Energy can neither be created 

762
00:54:09,240 --> 00:54:11,440
nor destroyed. 
Physical body is another matter.

763
00:54:11,440 --> 00:54:13,680
So we probably want to do a 
little something about those 

764
00:54:13,680 --> 00:54:18,080
physicals, right? 
Take care of them, which, by the

765
00:54:18,080 --> 00:54:22,520
way, they don't hurt as much. 
Wiggling my thumbs to those of 

766
00:54:22,520 --> 00:54:27,600
you listening a little bit. 
And I got a phone number for a 

767
00:54:27,600 --> 00:54:30,960
massage therapist locally. 
Trust me, I couldn't find one 

768
00:54:30,960 --> 00:54:34,440
within 70 miles, but somebody 
had an in and they gave me the 

769
00:54:35,080 --> 00:54:37,120
the secret knock. 
Don't go get one. 

770
00:54:37,440 --> 00:54:42,240
The moon by transit represents 
our cyclical life. 

771
00:54:42,240 --> 00:54:44,800
Now. 
It is not the same cycle every 

772
00:54:44,800 --> 00:54:48,000
single 30 day period or 29 1/2 
day period. 

773
00:54:48,000 --> 00:54:50,360
If you want to be more exact. 
It's not. 

774
00:54:51,400 --> 00:54:56,400
It's not because the it's making
contact with other things. 

775
00:54:56,400 --> 00:55:00,320
So when the moon goes into Aries
later this week, it's going to 

776
00:55:00,320 --> 00:55:03,400
connect with transiting Mars. 
Now, we don't cover that to 

777
00:55:03,400 --> 00:55:05,320
start with. 
That's a little more advanced, 

778
00:55:05,840 --> 00:55:09,160
but you'll notice the changes. 
You'll be able to have 

779
00:55:09,160 --> 00:55:11,880
observable record where you can 
review. 

780
00:55:12,920 --> 00:55:15,560
I was talking with somebody who 
studied with me for a long time 

781
00:55:15,560 --> 00:55:19,360
and they're like, my God, in the
last five years, I was reviewing

782
00:55:19,360 --> 00:55:22,120
my notes from five years ago to 
where I am today. 

783
00:55:22,720 --> 00:55:27,280
I am nowhere near the same 
person in so many good ways 

784
00:55:29,080 --> 00:55:32,240
because I've learned to see 
things differently, I've learned

785
00:55:32,240 --> 00:55:37,320
to observe differently. 
I've learned to let go of 

786
00:55:37,320 --> 00:55:41,440
needing something to be 
determinate and gave myself more

787
00:55:41,440 --> 00:55:46,400
agency. 
That's really exciting. 

788
00:55:46,880 --> 00:55:49,920
I love hearing that. 
That's why I love to teach, 

789
00:55:50,520 --> 00:55:52,600
right? 
So. 

790
00:56:10,040 --> 00:56:13,520
So the biggest problem most 
people have is they see 

791
00:56:13,520 --> 00:56:16,720
themselves as meeting and 
requiring to be consistent. 

792
00:56:17,480 --> 00:56:20,000
None of us is consistent all the
time. 

793
00:56:20,720 --> 00:56:26,080
We ebb, we flow, we are 
energized, we are depleted. 

794
00:56:26,080 --> 00:56:27,840
There are days we are just 
tired. 

795
00:56:27,840 --> 00:56:31,920
Sometimes there's weeks where 
we're tired or under the weather

796
00:56:32,960 --> 00:56:37,680
or experiencing what feels like 
unnecessary obstacles. 

797
00:56:37,840 --> 00:56:41,400
Sometimes those are always 
information. 

798
00:56:42,200 --> 00:56:45,600
It's not a declaration of this 
is how it will always be. 

799
00:56:47,080 --> 00:56:49,920
There are questions. 
In fact, learning to ask 

800
00:56:49,920 --> 00:56:52,920
yourself questions and powerful 
questions not why me? 

801
00:56:53,800 --> 00:56:55,440
Because the answer is why not 
you. 

802
00:56:56,640 --> 00:57:06,320
OK, but what can I do with this 
energy that feels so slow since 

803
00:57:06,320 --> 00:57:10,800
I'm under the weather or not 
feeling well or injured? 

804
00:57:11,160 --> 00:57:16,040
She says with a grin. 
What is maybe one of the 

805
00:57:16,040 --> 00:57:24,480
messages I need to receive? 
What am I not hearing from my 

806
00:57:24,480 --> 00:57:26,800
guidance? 
What can I listen for? 

807
00:57:28,720 --> 00:57:32,200
Maybe I need to shut up. 
Maybe I need to stop asking my 

808
00:57:32,200 --> 00:57:35,880
guidance questions and I need to
be open and receive the 

809
00:57:35,880 --> 00:57:42,880
information because we can. 
Yes, I am an astrologer. 

810
00:57:42,920 --> 00:57:47,520
Yes, I was born psychic and I am
a well trained meta physician 

811
00:57:49,600 --> 00:57:55,800
magic user. 
It's a gaming reference and yet 

812
00:57:55,800 --> 00:57:57,960
I never play a magic user. 
Not really. 

813
00:57:58,240 --> 00:58:01,920
When I play, D and DI usually 
play a barbarian because it's 

814
00:58:01,920 --> 00:58:04,600
fun. 
People think they're supposed to

815
00:58:04,600 --> 00:58:08,360
be consistent like a machine, 
but we're not machines. 

816
00:58:08,360 --> 00:58:12,080
That's one of the problems with 
medical science, which is now 

817
00:58:12,080 --> 00:58:13,840
expanding from that 
understanding. 

818
00:58:13,840 --> 00:58:16,840
But when I was growing up, we 
were treated like machines. 

819
00:58:16,840 --> 00:58:19,480
Oh, this part broke. 
We've got to fix that part. 

820
00:58:19,480 --> 00:58:25,080
Not recognizing that my wrist is
connected to my neck. 

821
00:58:25,560 --> 00:58:27,920
There's connective tissue, 
right? 

822
00:58:27,920 --> 00:58:31,400
That's why we're just now 
learning about connective tissue

823
00:58:31,400 --> 00:58:35,200
disorders, right? 
Because we were only thinking 

824
00:58:35,200 --> 00:58:39,640
about the individual parts 
instead of the integrated 

825
00:58:39,640 --> 00:58:41,400
system, right? 
Right. 

826
00:58:42,320 --> 00:58:47,400
So when you think you're 
supposed to be Steady Eddie all 

827
00:58:47,400 --> 00:58:50,360
the time and that you're not 
going to have peaks and valleys 

828
00:58:51,440 --> 00:58:54,600
and I there's going to be times 
where you're go, go, go, go, go.

829
00:58:54,600 --> 00:58:56,680
And then there's going to be 
times where you're rest, rest, 

830
00:58:56,680 --> 00:58:58,480
rest, rest, rest. 
And then everything in the 

831
00:58:58,480 --> 00:59:02,560
middle where it's just neutral, 
like it's just a, just a day. 

832
00:59:03,520 --> 00:59:08,520
Nothing stands out. 
And then we take, and I talked 

833
00:59:08,520 --> 00:59:13,200
about this earlier, we take the 
day-to-day for granted because 

834
00:59:13,280 --> 00:59:17,080
we only look for the big stuff. 
We look for the dramatic stuff. 

835
00:59:17,080 --> 00:59:20,920
We look for the explosions and 
the missiles and the conflict 

836
00:59:20,960 --> 00:59:23,480
and the drama. 
Look how many people are 

837
00:59:23,480 --> 00:59:26,760
invested in celebrity gossip. 
There's like an entire industry 

838
00:59:26,760 --> 00:59:32,560
around it that's not even your 
life that you're busy looking at

839
00:59:32,560 --> 00:59:34,920
everybody else's life except 
your own. 

840
00:59:35,040 --> 00:59:37,520
Oh, this person shouldn't have 
done those bad things. 

841
00:59:37,520 --> 00:59:42,120
Agreed. 
Agreed, but maybe if I look at 

842
00:59:42,120 --> 00:59:47,240
my life I can go live it instead
of passing my power over to 

843
00:59:47,240 --> 00:59:49,560
everything else. 
And part of passing my power is 

844
00:59:49,560 --> 00:59:55,320
passing my attention, right? 
When you learn how to observe 

845
00:59:55,320 --> 00:59:58,800
what's going on on your 
day-to-day, and you appreciate 

846
00:59:58,800 --> 01:00:04,840
those small, seemingly 
inconsequential things, life 

847
01:00:04,840 --> 01:00:09,040
gets a lot more interesting. 
I mean, hell, think about it. 

848
01:00:09,040 --> 01:00:13,360
If you bake bread and you bake 
bread every day for 30 days and 

849
01:00:13,360 --> 01:00:15,640
you pay attention to lunar 
transits, you could be like, Oh 

850
01:00:15,640 --> 01:00:19,120
my God, this time my bread 
turned out here, here and here. 

851
01:00:19,120 --> 01:00:22,280
And these are the days I did the
same thing, but it didn't rise 

852
01:00:23,560 --> 01:00:27,840
or it was a little more dense or
for some reason I had to bake it

853
01:00:27,840 --> 01:00:31,080
longer. 
Or or or or or right thing could

854
01:00:31,080 --> 01:00:39,520
go for crafting art, music, 
podcast recordings, coding, 

855
01:00:39,520 --> 01:00:43,480
computer stuff, taking the kids 
to school, observing traffic 

856
01:00:43,480 --> 01:00:46,920
patterns, you know, pardon me, 
This is my idea of a good time. 

857
01:00:47,360 --> 01:00:50,400
I I love just watching mundane 
life. 

858
01:00:52,240 --> 01:00:55,080
When I was in university, you 
know, a lot of my degree had a 

859
01:00:55,080 --> 01:00:58,560
lot of history to it. 
And so, you know, we're studying

860
01:00:58,560 --> 01:01:01,880
the important dates in history, 
the treaties, the wars, the 

861
01:01:03,120 --> 01:01:06,760
disasters, the economic impacts,
all of that. 

862
01:01:06,760 --> 01:01:09,200
And I'd be like, but but what 
happened on everyday? 

863
01:01:09,760 --> 01:01:14,560
What did they eat? 
So if the depletion of wheat 

864
01:01:15,320 --> 01:01:19,120
that year was bad, what what did
they what else did they eat? 

865
01:01:19,560 --> 01:01:23,120
Sure, there was a problem, but 
but did they forage? 

866
01:01:23,120 --> 01:01:25,800
What did they forage? 
I mean, once you get into 

867
01:01:25,800 --> 01:01:28,680
history and you start looking at
day-to-day life and cultural 

868
01:01:28,680 --> 01:01:31,960
life, you know, you Start 
learning things that more words 

869
01:01:31,960 --> 01:01:36,880
were fought over fabric. 
Then there were spices. 

870
01:01:37,320 --> 01:01:39,720
OK, we always get taught where 
the the words were fought over 

871
01:01:39,720 --> 01:01:48,880
spices, but linen was a deal. 
You look it up when you look at 

872
01:01:48,880 --> 01:01:53,280
the date day because that's 
where you're living. 

873
01:01:53,280 --> 01:01:56,640
Instead of chasing the peak 
experience, chasing the dopamine

874
01:01:56,640 --> 01:02:00,760
head, chasing, chasing, chasing,
always chasing, never there, 

875
01:02:01,680 --> 01:02:07,520
always chasing, never there. 
Life feels incomplete from that 

876
01:02:07,520 --> 01:02:10,120
space. 
But when you learn to live the 

877
01:02:10,120 --> 01:02:16,960
day-to-day, savor the moment, we
only get so many breaths in this

878
01:02:16,960 --> 01:02:19,840
life. 
What if we savored as many as we

879
01:02:19,840 --> 01:02:21,400
could? 
We're not going to savor all of 

880
01:02:21,400 --> 01:02:23,640
them, and we're not going to be 
100% conscious of everything 

881
01:02:23,640 --> 01:02:27,240
every day. 
But the more aware we can be, 

882
01:02:27,920 --> 01:02:32,080
and the more we learn how to 
tune our awareness, the more 

883
01:02:32,080 --> 01:02:34,640
gratifying life can be. 
Regardless of economy, 

884
01:02:34,920 --> 01:02:39,760
regardless of our economic 
status, regardless of our social

885
01:02:39,760 --> 01:02:44,440
status, all of that is construct
but the day-to-day breathing in 

886
01:02:44,440 --> 01:02:48,000
and out, that's the reality of 
being human. 

887
01:02:48,280 --> 01:02:56,520
The moon shows us our humanity. 
The moon shows us our humanity. 

888
01:02:57,320 --> 01:03:01,800
We live with cycles and we don't
want them to be deterministic. 

889
01:03:02,120 --> 01:03:06,120
We just don't sometimes and you 
can leverage the times where 

890
01:03:06,120 --> 01:03:09,640
you're more decisive, you're 
more emotional, maybe a little 

891
01:03:09,640 --> 01:03:11,560
more sensitive. 
I wouldn't say an emotional, I'd

892
01:03:11,560 --> 01:03:13,280
say sensitive. 
Like there's going to be days 

893
01:03:13,280 --> 01:03:16,520
from more sensitive. 
You'll find if you are still 

894
01:03:16,520 --> 01:03:20,680
menstruating that very much the 
lunar cycle and your menstrual 

895
01:03:20,680 --> 01:03:25,080
cycle sync up. 
There were studies done in the 

896
01:03:25,080 --> 01:03:28,800
late 70s and early 80s and I 
cannot remember them. 

897
01:03:28,800 --> 01:03:34,480
I will have to Google it. 
That showed about 70% of healthy

898
01:03:34,520 --> 01:03:41,360
fertile uterus owners 
menstruated with the full moon 

899
01:03:41,600 --> 01:03:45,520
and ovulated with the new moon. 
It doesn't mean you don't have a

900
01:03:45,520 --> 01:03:50,000
healthy uterus and ovulation 
cycle if it's switched. 

901
01:03:50,000 --> 01:03:55,360
It just it showed about 70 to 
80% of people had their their 

902
01:03:55,360 --> 01:03:59,960
periods linked to the full moon.
That used to be common 

903
01:03:59,960 --> 01:04:02,080
knowledge. 
People used to call it moon time

904
01:04:02,760 --> 01:04:05,440
like that. 
That's we heard that when I was 

905
01:04:05,440 --> 01:04:08,480
growing up. 
So we have so sanitized our 

906
01:04:08,480 --> 01:04:13,160
society that people don't talk 
about these things anymore, even

907
01:04:13,160 --> 01:04:19,480
in gendered quarters, right. 
So there might be times we want 

908
01:04:19,480 --> 01:04:22,520
to isolate and we avoid people 
in the mind. 

909
01:04:22,600 --> 01:04:26,640
Even an extrovert might have a 
quiet downtime, and there might 

910
01:04:26,640 --> 01:04:29,160
be times we feel more 
boisterous, creative, ready to 

911
01:04:29,160 --> 01:04:31,720
play, ready to have fun. 
And there's times where we're, 

912
01:04:32,000 --> 01:04:35,080
you know, head down these two 
days, my head is down, you know,

913
01:04:35,520 --> 01:04:37,760
and we might see a pattern with 
that. 

914
01:04:39,320 --> 01:04:42,240
And it doesn't have to be the 
only way that expresses, but it 

915
01:04:42,240 --> 01:04:50,760
will express within a theme. 
All right, so I've written down 

916
01:04:50,760 --> 01:04:54,640
some examples in my notes, so 
bear with me. 

917
01:04:55,480 --> 01:05:04,120
So let's talk about some of the 
the ways this energy can express

918
01:05:04,120 --> 01:05:05,520
itself. 
So let's say you're in a 

919
01:05:05,520 --> 01:05:09,520
business and you sit down to 
work and everything feels heavy.

920
01:05:10,200 --> 01:05:14,040
Everything feels heavy. 
You're like slogging through and

921
01:05:14,040 --> 01:05:15,800
you assume you're 
procrastinating. 

922
01:05:15,800 --> 01:05:18,960
You're beating yourself up. 
I'm lazy, I'm procrastinating. 

923
01:05:18,960 --> 01:05:22,440
It's this, it's that. 
But in reality, your system is 

924
01:05:22,440 --> 01:05:26,600
in intake mode, not output mode.
Like this would be the better 

925
01:05:26,600 --> 01:05:29,760
time to do your research. 
This would be a better time to 

926
01:05:29,760 --> 01:05:34,000
do some organizational things. 
This could be more of a time to 

927
01:05:34,000 --> 01:05:37,920
listen, get feedback, do a 
survey, that kind of thing. 

928
01:05:38,280 --> 01:05:43,240
Versus trying to create in that 
energy, emotional. 

929
01:05:43,920 --> 01:05:47,720
You suddenly feel sensitive or 
reactive, like you're really, 

930
01:05:47,720 --> 01:05:49,880
really sensitive. 
Like somebody looks at you and 

931
01:05:49,880 --> 01:05:54,840
they say, oh, nice hair, and you
think they're being sarcastic or

932
01:05:55,200 --> 01:05:58,520
you say something and you state 
an opinion and somebody else 

933
01:05:58,520 --> 01:06:00,560
says, yeah, and I see it this 
way. 

934
01:06:00,560 --> 01:06:02,240
And you're like, yeah, but 
that's my opinion. 

935
01:06:02,240 --> 01:06:03,640
Well, great, that's your 
opinion. 

936
01:06:03,640 --> 01:06:05,440
The other person has an opinion 
too, right? 

937
01:06:05,720 --> 01:06:07,920
You think something is wrong 
with you. 

938
01:06:07,920 --> 01:06:09,600
Like, why am I so emotional 
today? 

939
01:06:09,600 --> 01:06:14,800
I can't stop crying. 
Or why am I feeling like 

940
01:06:14,880 --> 01:06:16,600
everybody's out to get mean 
today? 

941
01:06:16,600 --> 01:06:18,560
And. 
And maybe they are, but maybe 

942
01:06:18,560 --> 01:06:23,920
they're not. 
It just happens that there's 

943
01:06:23,920 --> 01:06:27,440
nothing wrong with you. 
It's maybe things are up to be 

944
01:06:27,440 --> 01:06:29,440
examined. 
It's just that part of the 

945
01:06:29,440 --> 01:06:31,040
cycle. 
And it's time to be a little 

946
01:06:31,040 --> 01:06:35,840
more aware of the trigger points
and it's maybe a little and how 

947
01:06:35,840 --> 01:06:40,440
to disarm your triggers, OK, or 
disfuse them. 

948
01:06:40,880 --> 01:06:42,920
Because that's actually in our 
power. 

949
01:06:43,480 --> 01:06:45,760
It really is. 
I promise you, I've done it. 

950
01:06:46,520 --> 01:06:49,600
And then maybe on decision 
makings, because we talked a lot

951
01:06:49,600 --> 01:06:53,480
about decision making today. 
Some days decisions are obvious 

952
01:06:53,480 --> 01:06:56,520
and you can be really decisive. 
Everything is clear, it's clear 

953
01:06:56,520 --> 01:06:59,560
cut. 
And then other days you might as

954
01:06:59,560 --> 01:07:02,360
well be walking in a fog. 
You might as well be walking in 

955
01:07:02,360 --> 01:07:05,280
a fog. 
That's not inconsistency, it's 

956
01:07:05,280 --> 01:07:07,480
timing. 
Maybe it's not the day to make 

957
01:07:07,480 --> 01:07:09,680
decisions. 
Maybe you need to defer decision

958
01:07:09,680 --> 01:07:13,440
making. 
Maybe you need more information.

959
01:07:14,160 --> 01:07:17,640
I might set an arbitrary 
deadline, not even looking at my

960
01:07:17,640 --> 01:07:20,760
astrology because I like to live
dangerously and maybe there's a 

961
01:07:20,760 --> 01:07:23,320
slowdown like healing the money 
when my buck. 

962
01:07:23,560 --> 01:07:27,240
I thought I'd have it done by 
now, which it was written, but 

963
01:07:27,280 --> 01:07:29,440
we just finished second round of
revisions. 

964
01:07:29,800 --> 01:07:35,080
OK, that's OK. 
I mean, the only person who's in

965
01:07:35,080 --> 01:07:37,160
charge of putting it out in the 
world is me. 

966
01:07:37,800 --> 01:07:42,320
It was an arbitrary decision on 
the dates I wanted to have it 

967
01:07:42,320 --> 01:07:45,000
out and I didn't make them 
public because I, I had a 

968
01:07:45,000 --> 01:07:47,760
feeling, because I when I did 
look at my astrology, I was 

969
01:07:47,760 --> 01:07:50,720
like, it's probably going to 
happen more out here. 

970
01:07:51,440 --> 01:07:55,360
I can be frustrated with that 
and beat myself up with that and

971
01:07:55,360 --> 01:07:58,360
that's fine. 
It gives me more time to get 

972
01:07:58,480 --> 01:08:02,720
websites finished and emails 
finished and all the other 

973
01:08:02,720 --> 01:08:06,600
things that go on with putting 
out information into the world. 

974
01:08:07,560 --> 01:08:10,720
I knew I should have living by 
Luna done and complete first. 

975
01:08:10,720 --> 01:08:13,080
Guess what's done and complete 
first Living by Luna. 

976
01:08:13,280 --> 01:08:15,320
It happened. 
It rolled out naturally. 

977
01:08:16,319 --> 01:08:19,399
Instead of beating myself up of 
I only have a few pages left, 

978
01:08:19,399 --> 01:08:20,720
why haven't I finished it? 
I didn't. 

979
01:08:21,359 --> 01:08:24,800
I just gave myself an arbitrary 
looking at the astrology and 

980
01:08:24,800 --> 01:08:27,160
arbitrary time in April to have 
it done. 

981
01:08:27,479 --> 01:08:32,080
And it's great book slash 
journal process with journal 

982
01:08:32,080 --> 01:08:34,200
pages that help walk you 
through. 

983
01:08:34,200 --> 01:08:37,760
It's a little more prescriptive 
than my original version, giving

984
01:08:37,760 --> 01:08:41,359
you a more of a place to start 
instead of saying, well, just 

985
01:08:41,359 --> 01:08:43,319
observe. 
That doesn't help. 

986
01:08:43,520 --> 01:08:46,200
So giving you a place to start 
seed. 

987
01:08:46,399 --> 01:08:49,520
So it's important to understand 
you're not here to push through 

988
01:08:49,520 --> 01:08:51,640
your system. 
You know, you're not scared to 

989
01:08:52,000 --> 01:08:54,840
run in OverDrive. 
You're not here to just rot in 

990
01:08:54,840 --> 01:08:59,319
bed, you're here to understand 
your system and to work with it.

991
01:08:59,319 --> 01:09:01,240
And I know, I know. 
It's work. 

992
01:09:01,760 --> 01:09:05,160
That's a reward. 
It's the one kind of work you 

993
01:09:05,160 --> 01:09:07,920
want to do. 
It's not a dirty 4 letter word. 

994
01:09:08,479 --> 01:09:11,760
It's the type of work that makes
life more fulfilling. 

995
01:09:12,800 --> 01:09:21,279
It's why Alexa said it wasn't 
just her business growing 3 * 1 

996
01:09:21,279 --> 01:09:23,279
month and three times that the 
next. 

997
01:09:23,279 --> 01:09:26,640
That was the most rewarding part
is that everything changed. 

998
01:09:26,880 --> 01:09:30,880
Her sense of self changed and 
Living by Luna has the 

999
01:09:30,880 --> 01:09:34,000
foundational concepts that I 
teach and everything else that I

1000
01:09:34,000 --> 01:09:37,359
do. 
Once you can recognize patterns,

1001
01:09:37,359 --> 01:09:39,479
you can do something with them, 
right? 

1002
01:09:39,479 --> 01:09:42,080
Once you recognize the pattern, 
you can change it. 

1003
01:09:42,319 --> 01:09:44,520
You can, you can adapt in a 
different way. 

1004
01:09:44,520 --> 01:09:46,880
You adapted. 
Once you're not broken, you 

1005
01:09:46,880 --> 01:09:50,399
adapted and you can adapt again,
and it takes time. 

1006
01:09:50,399 --> 01:09:52,439
In practice, you're not going to
get it right the first time. 

1007
01:09:52,439 --> 01:09:59,160
There's nothing wrong with you. 
I swear people are addicted to 

1008
01:09:59,160 --> 01:10:02,760
abusing themselves. 
That's a strong statement, but 

1009
01:10:02,760 --> 01:10:11,520
it's true because you may have 
left the origin of of oppression

1010
01:10:11,960 --> 01:10:14,440
long ago and then you do it to 
you. 

1011
01:10:16,000 --> 01:10:17,640
Well, I should have done that 
better. 

1012
01:10:17,880 --> 01:10:21,360
I was really hard on myself. 
I can't do this by myself. 

1013
01:10:21,360 --> 01:10:25,680
I don't know. 
I you can be OK with not knowing

1014
01:10:25,680 --> 01:10:29,880
and not beat yourself up. 
I'm not making fun of you. 

1015
01:10:30,360 --> 01:10:37,200
I'm concerned because the reason
why despots and authoritarians 

1016
01:10:37,200 --> 01:10:41,720
get away with stuff is we do 
half of their job for them by 

1017
01:10:41,720 --> 01:10:47,240
thinking we're incapable, by 
thinking we have no power, by 

1018
01:10:47,240 --> 01:10:51,000
assuming we're not good enough 
that will never make the grade 

1019
01:10:51,320 --> 01:10:54,160
or we're we can only get just so
far. 

1020
01:10:54,720 --> 01:10:57,240
And everybody's going to have 
different roles to play in life.

1021
01:10:57,960 --> 01:11:02,880
But if you see your role as less
valuable than someone else's, if

1022
01:11:02,880 --> 01:11:06,680
you do not see your inherent 
value, the fact you had a one 

1023
01:11:07,240 --> 01:11:11,400
one in 400 trillion chance of 
being human, you have better 

1024
01:11:11,400 --> 01:11:15,200
odds of winning the lottery. 
And actually I am. 

1025
01:11:15,720 --> 01:11:18,360
I don't know what the exact 
number is, but recently I saw 

1026
01:11:18,360 --> 01:11:21,040
that the number is actually 
greater than 400 trillion. 

1027
01:11:22,280 --> 01:11:27,240
That makes you special in a vast
universe. 

1028
01:11:27,760 --> 01:11:30,640
So I'm going to just give you a 
little exercise to play with, 

1029
01:11:30,640 --> 01:11:32,120
even if you're not in the 
Patreon. 

1030
01:11:32,120 --> 01:11:35,680
OK, so here's what I want you to
do until next week, and we'll 

1031
01:11:35,680 --> 01:11:38,920
reconvene next week. 
If you're in the Patreon, your 

1032
01:11:38,920 --> 01:11:42,480
Patreon only episode is going to
go a little deeper into all of 

1033
01:11:42,480 --> 01:11:45,240
us. 
But what I want you to do is I 

1034
01:11:45,240 --> 01:11:47,720
want you to pay attention this 
week to when you have the most 

1035
01:11:47,720 --> 01:11:49,320
clarity. 
OK? 

1036
01:11:49,320 --> 01:11:50,680
When do you have the most 
clarity? 

1037
01:11:51,320 --> 01:11:53,640
You don't even have to know 
where the moon's at, but just 

1038
01:11:53,640 --> 01:11:55,760
pay attention to the days you 
have the most clarity. 

1039
01:11:55,760 --> 01:11:57,080
What does it feel like? 
What is it? 

1040
01:11:57,280 --> 01:11:59,120
What does your energy feel like 
in your body? 

1041
01:11:59,600 --> 01:12:03,120
You know, things like that. 
When do you feel resistant? 

1042
01:12:03,120 --> 01:12:05,320
Like no, I can't, I don't want 
to. 

1043
01:12:05,320 --> 01:12:06,600
Screw that. 
Fuck that. 

1044
01:12:06,800 --> 01:12:09,640
I don't want to. 
Everything sucks. 

1045
01:12:10,080 --> 01:12:13,240
The world sucks, people suck. 
I don't want to get out of bed. 

1046
01:12:15,520 --> 01:12:19,200
Don't make me. 
And then what? 

1047
01:12:19,200 --> 01:12:20,800
Do you start you a little more 
sensitive? 

1048
01:12:20,800 --> 01:12:23,640
Pay attention to that. 
Like maybe you feel a little 

1049
01:12:23,640 --> 01:12:25,160
more emotional. 
Maybe you're teary. 

1050
01:12:25,680 --> 01:12:29,280
We had a lot of tears over 
Artemis, but they were joyful, 

1051
01:12:29,280 --> 01:12:32,360
they were hopeful. 
And I think we all had a little 

1052
01:12:32,360 --> 01:12:38,000
bit of grief, not because they 
went and they came back safely, 

1053
01:12:38,680 --> 01:12:42,880
but because it seems like it's 
been so long since we had such 

1054
01:12:43,040 --> 01:12:47,600
good news collectively. 
By the way, there's a lot of 

1055
01:12:47,600 --> 01:12:49,520
good things that happen every 
single day. 

1056
01:12:50,960 --> 01:12:53,080
Now, here's what I want you to 
understand. 

1057
01:12:53,480 --> 01:12:57,200
Do those exercises. 
And we reconvene next Monday. 

1058
01:12:57,800 --> 01:13:00,440
I'm going to set some 
expectations. 

1059
01:13:01,040 --> 01:13:03,000
Here's the problem. 
You're going to notice some of 

1060
01:13:03,000 --> 01:13:05,080
the stuff. 
You're going to notice a few 

1061
01:13:05,080 --> 01:13:08,440
things. 
But most times, most people only

1062
01:13:08,440 --> 01:13:12,320
notice a scant little bit and 
then they don't know what to do 

1063
01:13:12,320 --> 01:13:16,520
with the information, right? 
So a lot of times people in an 

1064
01:13:16,520 --> 01:13:21,960
observation, and trust me, I 
teach this all the time, people 

1065
01:13:21,960 --> 01:13:24,640
will make an observation and 
consider it gospel. 

1066
01:13:25,400 --> 01:13:28,000
They will notice a pattern and 
think, well, that's just how it 

1067
01:13:28,000 --> 01:13:30,240
is. 
And it's not Patterns can be 

1068
01:13:30,240 --> 01:13:35,280
disrupted, patterns can be 
interrupted, patterns can be 

1069
01:13:35,280 --> 01:13:39,800
repatterned. 
OK, and that's the methodologies

1070
01:13:39,960 --> 01:13:44,400
I've created. 
Help disrupt a pattern and build

1071
01:13:44,400 --> 01:13:55,160
a new pathway around it. 
OK, so in the Patron only 

1072
01:13:55,160 --> 01:14:02,200
podcast, I'm going to show you a
little bit about tracking and 

1073
01:14:02,200 --> 01:14:04,880
what it means to observe. 
And 

1074
01:14:16,370 --> 01:14:20,250
so in Part 2 or the patron only 
episode in the awake space, 

1075
01:14:20,330 --> 01:14:23,400
right? 
Or member only episode that goes

1076
01:14:23,400 --> 01:14:26,320
out to all supporting members $5
level and up. 

1077
01:14:27,280 --> 01:14:30,360
We learn how to track your 
cycle. 

1078
01:14:30,600 --> 01:14:35,240
OK, so really paying attention, 
and I'll give you some app 

1079
01:14:35,240 --> 01:14:39,320
suggestions of how to notice 
where the moon's at, what the 

1080
01:14:39,320 --> 01:14:43,480
patterns actually mean, OK, 
Instead of making them gospel. 

1081
01:14:44,200 --> 01:14:49,320
And then how to start using the 
timing to make decisions and how

1082
01:14:49,320 --> 01:14:51,560
to use the energy to your 
advantage. 

1083
01:14:51,560 --> 01:14:54,200
There's going to be days that 
are better for taking action 

1084
01:14:54,200 --> 01:15:01,320
than others. 
OK, so that's up in Part 2 for 

1085
01:15:01,440 --> 01:15:04,680
the Awake Space community, which
is exciting. 

1086
01:15:06,160 --> 01:15:10,480
I think I'm going to wrap it up 
because got to get this out to 

1087
01:15:10,480 --> 01:15:14,840
everybody. 
The what's in the headlines will

1088
01:15:14,840 --> 01:15:20,960
be up tonight or Sunday night 
for and all through Monday for 

1089
01:15:20,960 --> 01:15:25,840
magazine subscribers. 
They come out Tuesday for the 

1090
01:15:25,840 --> 01:15:28,920
Stargazer tier, which is our $5 
tier. 

1091
01:15:29,680 --> 01:15:35,680
And I hope you have a beautiful 
week and that you find some 

1092
01:15:35,680 --> 01:15:40,680
fulfillment and some awareness. 
And I'll talk to you next week.