It's the Awake Space podcast, and I'm Lori Rivers, your host
here to help you with some inspiration to get those
aspirations out into the world. And you know I record on
Sundays, right? I am, I'm leaving on Tuesday.
Going to be an amazing work trip.
I'm going to meet up with my daughter and we are going to
record like the wind in London. We're going to do some day trips
in between. Got to get that B roll right?
One of the things I've been trying to teach over the last
5-6 years is when we're doing things that enliven us, good
things happen and we can integrate our work and our play
and create meaningful work. I'm feeling really good today.
I've been telling people for six years we need to collectivize,
not collectivize in the burn it all down kind of way.
Like when people hear collectivism, they're like, ah,
they think of the Russian Revolution.
They think of, you know, the Chinese Cultural Revolution, all
those things. No, no, no.
But if there's things we want to see in the world, maybe if we
each get in and pitch in a little bit and we run things
like a cooperative. If you go to a grocery Co-op,
guess what? That's collectivism.
Go to the farmers Co-op, that's collectivism.
I have never understood how farmers can be so afraid of
communism when they have co-ops. Because that's all it is.
People have conflated political systems with economics and
political systems and economic systems are not the same thing.
Just like people keep talking about capitalism is the problem.
We haven't had capitalism in years.
And you're like Laurie, I didn't tune into a spiritual podcast
for this. Well, may I quote the Pope?
Everything is politics. What?
We've also conflated the difference between partisanship
and politics. Politics is how people
negotiate, come together and run things as as a group.
Partisanship is belonging to a team.
It's belonging to this party or that party, and it's where an
identity forms. And it's like sectarianism
because people begin to believe who's the good guys, who's the
bad guys. These people are like minded,
which is why I never tell you the Awake Space community is
like minded. That just gets into, and I'm
being polite because I'm sure children are listening, but that
just gets into this nodding of heads and everybody's like,
yeah, we want change, but nobody's defined the change.
Nobody's defined the words, right?
You're just coming in like a hive mind, right?
Versus coming from the heart. You might have very different
ideas about how things need to be done, but you know something
needs to be done. If you're coming from a heart
center, then you're able to listen and not have cognitive
bias and you're able to negotiate and come to a middle
ground because there isn't just one right way to do anything.
So if we come from the heart space, and I'm not saying, you
know, give peas a chance, I'm saying it's an old joke.
If you're young, you may not have gotten that one.
It's OK. I am displaying my agedness.
But when we come together and we say this thing is out of
balance, let's bring it back to balance.
You can't do that. By my way is the right way.
No, my way is the right way. And anybody who doesn't believe
like me, they're the bad guy. You're like, but you're an
astrologer. What do you know?
To be a good astrologer, you need to be a polymath and that
means you specialize in more than one subject.
I have some good news and that's why I'm talking about this.
One of our members in the Awake space is down in the Lone Star
State and reported that in their city, which is a small city,
they were able to keep the people they didn't want in
office out. They managed to hold the school
board and the City Council. Now, if you've been listening to
me since 2021, I've been telling you you got to organize.
You got to be involved. You got to show up at town
meetings. You've got to show up for school
board meetings and not just show up, participate, run for office,
or support other people running for office.
Doesn't matter if you like apple pie and they like blueberry pie.
If you believe that kids deserve to eat at school, if you believe
that kids need a decent education that isn't mired in
dogma, then you show up. And if you don't care, then go
to something you do care about in oh gosh, it might have been
almost 20 years ago now. And the area I lived in
Northwest Washington, Walmart wanted to put in another store,
but we had a super Walmart down, you know, 45 minutes away South
and another one about 35 minutes N there was no reason.
To push our local. Businesses out of business.
We had three grocery stores, we had multiple hardware stores,
and we had a lot of little boutiques.
It wasn't a big area on the island.
There was like 20,000 people on a good day and in town there was
like 8000 people we knew who owned the businesses.
These were our neighbors. You had everything from the most
conservative of conservative people and the most hippy, dippy
people who might have been on the left.
They might have just been independents.
Everybody showed up at the planning meetings to keep them
out. And I'm very proud to say we
kept Walmart out of that area. We wanted our small businesses
to stay in business. And it was challenging times.
This was in the mid 2000s during the Great Recession, right
before 2008. Because 2008 is when it hit
people with money before it hit people with money and it hit the
working class, the Canaries in the coal mine, right?
You can be involved. Your local government is your
last stand. It is what protects you.
You can't make any rules that supersede federal law, but you
sure as hell can interpret them. And you can keep your
community's water as safe as possible.
You can keep your, again, your school district in shape, right?
You can make sure that you pay attention to who is sheriff.
Most sheriffs are elected, so if you want better law enforcement,
you need to find candidates you can support.
Those are all important things, and I'm talking about that
because nothing is separate. If you don't believe you have
power in your own life and you don't believe you have power in
your community, how do you think you're going to find
enlightenment? Because it's understanding your
power and we. Talked a little bit about that
last week. Instead of being despondent,
find something, anything you could do.
You could sign postcards for somebody.
You could go pick up trash. I've been telling people to do
that for a long time. If it's polluted around where
you live, dude, safely pick things up.
Doesn't matter that it's not your job, doesn't matter that
you didn't throw that wrapper out of the car.
Pick it up, give a hoot, don't pollute.
If you've heard about the Spirit Airlines situation, most people
used to rag on Spirit Airlines, but they had a perfect safety
record, not one fatality accident and all the time they
were flying and someone who was interested in airplanes said.
Let's buy it. And now their website has
crashed because. So many people have been
interested in pledging support for that.
That's collectivism. We want this thing enough.
We're going to put our money where our mouth is.
And if enough people come together, it doesn't take
millions of dollars by an individual.
It takes 5, it takes 20 would be 30, a hundred.
And if enough people come together, they can open a store.
If enough people come together, they can help out a local farm
and support a local farm. I'm not talking about a giant,
you know, 100,000 acre enterprise.
I'm talking about somebody with a hobby farm who wants to make
sure everybody gets cucumbers and tomatoes and onions.
It could also be you all decide to grow a little Victory garden
and you have a collective table out where people, anyone can
just come get food, take food for yourself, put the extra on
the table. I used to belong to a spiritual
community. We did that.
We called it the Aloha Table, and let me tell you, there was
often a lot of zucchini there. Anyway, I'm on a roll today
because I'm leaving on a jet plane and oh, what about the jet
fuel? I don't know.
If I get stuck there, I don't I, I can still, I can still stream
again. I might have to eat beans on
toast, but I could still do my job.
I I mean my hope would be I'd get stuck in France so I can
have baguettes and stinky cheese.
Anyway, I hope you're getting fired up too if you.
Haven't felt into the energy and you know, how do you not feel
that the tide is turning? It's not going to fix it
overnight. It's not going to make great
sweeping changes. But hope is in front of us.
So get your tea, get your coffee, get your Red Bull, get
your matcha, get. Your.
And whether we're driving to work, whether we're packing a
suitcase, doing our whole laundry, taking a shower.
I like it when I'm in a good mood today, and I hope you are
too. Let's get this day done
together. Can you feel the?
Shift. The energy is shifting just a
little bit. That Uranus in Gemini is like
kind of clearing the clouds that we had because Uranus in Taurus
was shaking up the ground and all that dust in the air.
Oh, my Lord, It doesn't mean crappy things won't happen.
We can't really blame the planets anyway because I mean,
we say so facetiously, but they're not causing this.
We're causing this. We 'cause it.
You can say no, those bad guys are causing it.
Nah, we're all causing it, whether it's through inaction,
feeling like we're not big enough, not strong enough, not,
not willing to go meet our neighbors, you know, and maybe
we don't like our neighbors. Maybe we have to go a couple
blocks down. Maybe we need to go to a
different side of town to meet people we're going to get along
with. But yeah, it's it's not the
planets. The planets reflect the
potential of the consciousness being expressed on the planet.
And it's up to us to manage our consciousness because it does
not take a majority to shift the energy.
It doesn't take a majority to shift the energy.
It takes a small group. Of people who can align in
frequency to make an influence. Now it doesn't, you know,
magically change timelines. I know people.
Have that magically changes timelines?
No it doesn't. It's slow, it's incremental.
You can be faster than we think it'll be, but it's never an
instant thing. But you can see as this tide
shifts, we're actually resonating in a little different
way. We have a little potential to
collectively shift our attention.
And Speaking of collectively, look at what's going on with
this push to buy Spirit Airlines.
It started as kind of a joke and kind of a desire.
And it was light. Nobody was holding on to it
heavy. Everybody was like, yeah, sure.
All pledge and the website crashed and that's cool.
I've been talking about this time period for a long time here
on the podcast, and one of the things I've been saying is we
need to get more collective. It is not communism in the way
people think of communism. People have been misusing words.
I feel like Inigo Montoya from Princess Bride, you keep using
that word. I don't think it means what you
think it means. Communism is not what collective
action is. It was mentioned in the
Communist Manifesto by Marx, which even a lot of leftists
haven't read because I can tell by the way they talk about
things. I'm like, you haven't read it.
I know you haven't read it. I know you haven't read it
because never once did he say don't make money.
He was saying if there is a profit making enterprise, the
people who do the work deserve a stake of the profit.
It's not really a hard concept. But also the people who are
working need to get together to purchase things, have employee
owned operations, have cooperatives.
Well the thing that gets me is farmers especially can be very,
very conservative. Not all of them OK, but they can
be like communism is bad. And then they go to the.
Farmers Co-op and I'm like, you know that that's a collective.
It's farmers Co-op. You're a member of it, it's
member owned. That's communism.
Anyway, as I said in the beginning, nothing is without
politics. And nothing's without.
Economics. You know, you can hate
capitalism all you want, but it's been dead for a long time.
We have monopolies, oligarchies. That's not part of it.
It's not part of it, not part of it.
But when the people understand their power and we are with
Pluto and Aquarius, and it can be people power.
It can also be authoritarianism. It can also be forced
conformity. And if you've been listening to
me, what was I warning about? And I was just as concerned
because we've so divided and polarized in this country to
left and right. And by the way, nobody's meeting
any of the actual definitions. And I'm telling you this as
somebody who is trained as a political analyst.
Nobody's using anything, right. I try not to you and listen to
people talk about it anymore because it drives me crazy.
But there is just reason to be partisan.
No reason. So with Pluto and I was worried
about forced conformity. Forced conformity.
From any side. Because they were shutting down
people having conversations, whether it's Democrats, whether
it's Republicans, whether it's Green Party, whether it's
democratic socialist, whatever. There is this.
Lack of discourse. And it's like you can't, you
can't talk about these things. They're outside of our narrative
and we can't control that. That's.
A problem. So again, I will always be
political. I couldn't give.
Two rubs of two. Quarters.
See, I caught myself. I caught myself.
I'll give two rubs of two quarters about the actual
parties. And the reason they're beholden
to the same interests. Go to opensecrets.org.
Look at where people getting their money from.
It's been around for a long time.
You can look up what your candidates are getting.
And where their money's coming from.
Hey, you will notice, oh, look, this one got it from Boeing and
this one got it from Boeing, this one got it from AT&T and
this one got it from AT&T. Oh, look, they're playing both
sides because all they want all those corporations, why is
influence? And that's where you guys should
be like where can we influence? And I got great news.
I think I talked about it in the opening, but one of our members,
Becca Lynn, was talking about in her area, they managed to keep
the people they didn't want off the school board, off the town
council. And it was a close race.
But people organized. And when we look at
collectivism, it's about organization coming from like
heartedness. OK, we've got Pluto and
Aquarius, we got Uranus and Gemini and they're really kind
of doing a tango right now. They're not they're Uranus isn't
an approaching trying to. Pluto, which is pretty cool.
And it's all about shaking up that energy, shaking up how we
think because people just repeat the same old oppressive memes.
I'm not, it's, I'm just one person.
What can I do? A lot one person can do a lot.
Ask me how the magazine will come out soon.
I'm almost done, but I got your predictions and your horoscopes
up. OK, Go check the Patreon.
Go check the awake spacepodcast.com.
The horoscopes are up. They're giving you your marching
orders. You can do a lot, and you could
do what you can. If you can't do a lot, you can
do a little. Well, right, We all have
limitations. We're physical beings.
We are spirit made matter.
We are spiritualizing the material, not the other way.
Around I'm excited that people are seeing that if we each pull
in a little bit, we can build something magnificent.
And that means we also need to do that at our local and state
level politically, because they keep talking about the federal
level. But guess who takes the court,
the cases to the Supreme Court and erodes any legislation?
We just saw this last week. If you do not get involved and
band together, and I'm not talking about chanting in a
Rotunda, that's one form. That's one form, but you can
write legislation and find someone to sponsor it.
Did You Know? Actually, at the state level,
representatives don't cost much. That would be unethical.
Yeah, yeah. They don't care about ethics.
They don't care about your groundwater.
They don't care about your air quality.
They care about what they're getting, and that's not always
at the state level. You got good people at the state
level, but some of them aren't depending on what Texas, I mean
what state you're in, or Louisiana, what I mean what
state you're in. Why am I mean what state you're
in? State reps are cheap.
Just saying. Pull together by one or better
yet become one. Run for office.
If not this year, in two years, you know, build your base.
Build your base. Oh, she's on one.
Gloria, I came here to listen to spiritual things.
She will listen to the end. We'll talk about resistance.
By the way, if this is bothering you, pay attention to what part
of your body is getting tense, OK?
Because we'll talk about that later.
OK. I hope it's not your butt
cheeks. But if it is your butt cheeks,
we'll talk about that too. I'm excited because I get to go
to London and I think on the flight I'm going to bring one of
the French. Books that I was sent by Nina
and I'm going to make flash cards if I can't sleep.
Hopefully I can sleep because I'm very sleep deprived, which
is also why I'm silly. But you guys can follow along on
my French vocabulary improvement when it comes to astrology.
I love that I can read the books and understand them because you
require context to understand language.
I'm not reading the French books to be better at astrology.
Although language, every language has nuance and when you
speak other languages, you actually can have a personality
change between the languages. That's a psychological fact.
And I realized as I was reading in French and I, I would, first
of all, I got, I had to get over being really excited.
I could still do it because it's been a while and I was fluent.
But, you know, don't use it, you lose it, right?
So I'm like, oh, I haven't lost all of it.
That's cool, you know. And so as I was reading, I
realized just the way the verbs are conjugated, the gendered
nouns and pronouns and all of that in the language, because
French is a very gendered language.
The, the way things are described provoked insight
because there's always something you can learn.
I don't care that I'm a master astrologer.
There's always something new I can gain.
It might not be a lot of technique anymore.
It may be an exploration and understanding of how to
communicate it and the French is giving me.
Like I can't even put words to how it changed my understanding
of things because it's not like. Profound.
It's just maybe when I speak in French, I'm more poetic, you
know? So it gave more artistry.
Like I have the accuracy and here's a little bit of the
artistry. It's a little softer.
It's a little different understanding of the energy.
It's not different, you know, And I interpret a lot more and
do astrology a lot more like the British or the people on the
continent because Americans do it a little bit differently here
because of who my teachers were in the beginning, right?
So it's very fascinating. So I'll take you on that journey
when I'm off to parts unknown. What am I going to do first?
I can almost hear you. What am I going to do first?
I actually have high tea scheduled for Sarah and I.
We haven't seen each other in two years.
We need to get this done. This is the best way to get it
done and see each other at the same time.
And so we're going to have high tea the day after I arrive.
How fun is that? How fun is that?
Which is why I have to get my nails done tomorrow because I
was like, oh, I'll skip. Doing my nails And I was like,
no, I can't skip my nails. I'm doing tea because there's
like a nail place near where we're staying.
But I probably won't be able to get in on time.
So with a million things and 12 billion tea others to do
tomorrow, I will sit down and get my hands done.
But anywho, crazy days, So much to do, so little time.
I'm having to drop a few balls to make this happen.
I'm like, OK, I can do this or I can do this.
So we'll get the magazine finished up and we'll have that
out probably by next weekend. Jessica's on it as the editor.
Your predictions and your horoscopes are indeed up.
Make sure you don't don't worry about grammar or anything.
Jessica actually edits those for the magazines.
Those are unedited and fresh. They're your sneak peek and
they're just to to keep you satiated while we're finishing
up. Sorry.
And I have some ideas for making that easier on me.
And we're going to sit down and plan.
We kind of need to sit down together to do it.
We're we're, we're always planning on the phone and
things, but I think if we just sit down and eat some stinky
cheese. We'll get everything figured
out. All right, It's time for some
community news. You can check that out.
And then after that, I'll be talking about resistance and how
to deal with it and when things are bypassing and when it's not.
And then people were asking me questions.
Like if, what is the one piece of advice I would give the world
if people could listen? And I'm like, I do a podcast.
I do that every week. But I I will think of something
profound to say because I just shout into the ether.
Like I'm always excited when you guys drop me comments because I
don't know where this is landing or who it's landing to.
I'm just talking into a mic in my little studio with my little
Buddha and my little Buddha dog. My mom painted that for me.
I've got another one, but it's like behind me.
And then, you know, birth of the bear, the skull up there.
Yeah. Yeah.
Oh wait, there's the other one. That's a little.
Bunny Buddha, The Bunny Buddha my mom painted for me too.
Such a Cancerian. But anyway, yeah, I'll answer
some questions at the end, and I think you guys will, if you
don't learn a lot, you'll learn a lot about my perspective.
And maybe that's worth forecast. I don't know.
You got to know your own perspective.
All righty, let's check out what's happening in the Awake
space in May. All right, what's up in May at
the Awake space? Well, I'm travelling and that
doesn't mean things aren't happening.
So I'm not sure what days or what times or where I'll because
I'm a little tired already. But my my daughter and I are
going to go live together a bunch both on Tiktok, Instagram,
YouTube will probably multi stream and in the Patreon I will
be doing. Our Natal aspects class with
Saturn, talking about Saturn, and then I think I'll round it
up. With Uranus, Neptune and Pluto
kind of in one class because because it's always the faster
planet that makes the aspect so. So we'll probably.
Do two more of those and then we'll go back to doing Q&A's
because there's so much material in astrology crew and yeah,
let's see what else did we got going on.
I always forget besides the live streams I go, I didn't go.
As live as much in April because I was teaching and I was doing a
lot of readings. It's just there's only so much
time in the day and so. We'll probably be doing more
teaching. Oh, I remember Mattalva and I
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We both have our separate year aheads, but.
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You can see clips of our October event last year where we got
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These are not no brainers. Well, everybody knows that.
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Yeah. And I'm facing a fear, which is
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Oh my God for. 40 years of flying and I'm finally having to
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All right, let's see soul music asks or says, and this is long,
so hold with me curious about bypassing.
Like I'm pretty resilient and have equally strong tendencies
to ruminate with my rising moon, Virgo Pisces axis, but also so
much fire in my solar and inner planets that I can just burn it
down and be planting my garden the day after while everyone
else is wondering how to process what happened.
Is this a cut? Is there a cognitive frame, a
sensory or discernment process that can help me fine tune when
we're supposed to take our time or hang on when it's OK to flip
our awareness? I suppose the nuance and my
question delves into the metaphysics and esoteric
interpretation coming from seeing how sometimes when I move
into aligned action, I almost always always want to get upset
with myself for holding on to situations, people,
relationships, and stories that were long done.
This also leads to wondering about bypassing backlash,
whiplash we can sometimes experience if we're emotionally
and spiritually bypassing, we're just telling ourselves to focus
on positive things can make a situation reoccur.
So as a deeply thoughtful person.
OK so I stopped that question. So first of all, understanding
the range in which your placements can express from, as
I teach the three layers of consciousness, OK, we have our
instinctual, we have our transactional or social, that's
our social cultural program. Now we have our deliberate,
which is deconstructed and renovated consciousness, making
deliberate choices. Not a knee jerk reaction, not a
socially expected reaction, but really tinning in and saying how
do I want to react? And you can choose to be angry.
You can have a deliberate consciousness of an instinctual
feeling, right? That person insulted me.
Do I want to? Be mad about it?
Well, first ask myself, how do I feel about it?
How do I feel about it? Am I actually angry about it?
Do I want to be angry about it? Would it be fun to be angry
about it? What would I get out of being
angry? About it this is this is where
you get to make a choice, and the more you practice, the
better you get out of it. It's not about whether it's good
or bad. Alignment isn't about being good
or bad. Some of the very best
manifesters on the planet are assholes.
Because it's not about being morally good, it is about being
aligned. And alignment is as simple as
you if you drive a car. You get your tires aligned,
They're straight once you get your tires aligned.
Have you ever done this? You go to the garage, you get
the tires aligned and then you go drive and you take your hands
off the. Steering wheel because it can go
straight. Just me.
No it's not just me because my dad does it too.
Only now he has a self driving car.
It's very it's a little concerning to me, but when
you're in alignment it just means it's all lined up.
What you want and your ability to be receptive are not Askew.
You don't go, wow, I'd really love to own a restaurant one day
and then think, oh, but restaurants go out of business
really fast because they have a lot of overhead, whereas.
I'd really love to own a business.
I wonder. I wonder like I I think I want
to own a restaurant. I wonder what would be a a
different way to do it? So I minimize my risk that's a
little more aligned. I know I'm risk averse, but
there's ways to make that less scary, see?
You can have alignment if you're listening to this, you're like,
what the hell is she doing on camera?
And so let's tear it apart. First of all, don't over
intellectualize your placements. That's that's not part of the
game. Let's say you have a Pisces
moon, OK, a Pisces moon has a spectrum of expression.
What's more important than intellectualizing it is
understanding the physical sensations in the body when you
are in instinctual consciousness, when you are in
social consciousness or transactional consciousness, and
when you're in deliberate consciousness.
When I'm in instinctual consciousness, there's a
constriction, there's muscle tension, my vision might change.
And instinctual can be anything that really focuses on our
survival. It it's not thinking, it's our,
it's when our amygdala is driving the show.
OK, so we could have a spike of fear, a spike of anger, a spike
of libido. That's right, libido.
Maybe we just are running body to body.
That's instinctual. That's instinctual can.
And then there's the transactional, which is the
social cultural programming, which I like to think of as kind
of like high level instinctual. And these are none of these are
we're not grading papers here. This isn't instinctual as fail.
Transactional is average, deliberate is exceptional and
exceeds expectations. That's not it.
It's just one feels better than the other one.
One gives you more agency and you can do what seemed
impossible to you because when you're deliberate, you see more
options and you'd be like, wow, that looks really cool.
I don't know how to do that. I wonder what it takes to learn
that. I'm going to Google that.
That's a deliberate. Action.
And it can also be deliberate to be like.
Screwed out. I don't like doing that.
I don't want to do that. I know everybody else wants me
to social, I don't want to. Paid not going to do it That
that's fine. And you can feel free in that
not everything is going to be comfortable.
The goal of spirituality is not to feel good every second of the
day. We are so afraid.
Of pain in our society we are so afraid of discomfort in our
society that we will. Sit in a pile of steaming shit
in our lives because we. Fear the discomfort of the
unknown. Ask me how I know I've done it.
Everybody's afraid of change. Everybody is afraid of doing it
differently. Everybody asks what if it
doesn't work? What if it does?
We stay in relationships. That are past our prime, we stay
in jobs that are past our primes, we stay in houses that
are past our prime because. We don't know what's next.
What does it look like next? I had a lot of that in readings
this week and I'm not judging a lot.
Because there were a lot of people asking.
Me and it do not go from not reading for a couple minutes
into a full schedule. I just I just want you to know
that don't don't do that in any discipline.
Can you do it? Yes.
Do you want to No makes your brain very tired.
But anyway there was I would say you need to trust the process.
This is what's up on deck. You need to just trust to take
the next step. And they're like, yeah, but I
just wonder what it turns out like.
And I'm like you, you're not going to know right now.
You just need to take the step. You're not going to know.
And trying to arrange all the conditions is attaching to the
outcome. And so I'd do a little Gimme.
And I'd be like, well, the way you will be successful is just
taking it a step at a time. You want to take this as a
process. It will help to know what kind
of outcome you would like to see, but don't over detail it.
Can you tell I had a lot of Virgo mercuries this week?
It's always fun to see what's up on deck.
I'm like, oh, they're getting squared by the Uranus and Gemini
it. Was early Virgo mercuries.
So you're not going to know it all before you start.
You can have an idea like I wanted to.
I wanted to be a supporter in a world I knew was drastically
changing. That is the only reason I
decided to talk about astrology on woke astrology and in this
podcast and on the Ticky talky. And I didn't even start on
TikTok to do that. I went to protest wanting to ban
that app because I believe in free speech.
And then I was like, oh. Wow, I only need 1000 people and
I can talk about astrology and maybe help the people who are
attracted to what I do. That's cool.
Well let's see. It might take me a year, but
I'll try it. Everything blew up.
Why? I wasn't holding on, I wasn't
trying. I wasn't forcing my agenda.
Like people found it, they liked it, they joined, they didn't
like it, they said fuck you, they moved, right?
Right. That's simple.
When you let go of the outcome, whether it's relationship, you
don't have to know the how. Right.
You hear that in in business all the time.
You don't need to know the how, You need to know the what.
You need to know the where, right?
Where am I going? What do I want?
How? Figures itself out over time.
It's not great to invest a ton of money when you don't have
clarity if you're foggy. Maybe it's time to invest some
time into learning some skills like what do I know how to do?
What do I need to learn? Well, you'll find out some of
that along the way, but you might know right now that well,
I'm not very good at this, this and this.
Great. Well, where can I learn those
skills instead of like, well, I don't know, I'm going to quit.
That's all resistance and it's all oppressive thinking.
So back to soul music, you don't want to over intellectualize it.
It's too easy when you are in alignment and if you are aligned
in a spiritual way like so, if you're aligned to your higher
guidance, your soul yourself. There's no judgement to be had.
It is I did what I did. I learned what I learned.
This will be valuable in some way.
That's it. Move on when we're aligned in a
more transactional way. Which we can, because it's not
that our spirit or soul is ever disconnected.
We're not it's it's our ability to tune to it is already here.
Our guidance is always around. No one is judging you, but you.
The 3 ghosts that came to Ebenezer Scrooge were.
Apparitions of his own soul I know may not be a literary
interpretation, but it is definitely a metaphysical
interpretation. It's all us.
It's all us.
So what do you do?
You know, line in, you're like, OK, I feel hurt.
You have to be, you know, you can't do anything about anybody
else's experience except your own, because if you manage your
own, you're going. To be a Dick to other people.
I'm sorry. When my my son's birthday is
coming up in June and when he was a teenager.
He'll be 30 when he was a teenager and he was easy, OK?
He was just easy. But he was getting grumpy for
him, OK, not anybody else, but just for him.
And I would be like, just because you have one doesn't
mean you need to be 1 anyway. What?
And I'm like, think about it. And he's got 5 planets, personal
planets in Gemini. He innuendo did not go over his
head. He'd be like, oh, hey, mom, but
just because you have one doesn't mean you need to be 1,
five Deez Nuts. But when, when it comes to
bypassing Speaking of five Deez Nuts, it is the abnegation of
responsibility. It's like, well, I meditated, I
prayed, I wrote these things down.
Yeah. While not looking at all the
things you need to do or taking up accountability.
You know, you see a lot of times like people will say, and you
can see this in any message part.
It doesn't matter if somebody be like, well, I would never do
that. They in fact have done that.
Yeah, I would never. And and even if you never did
those things, whatever it is like, you know, well, I would
never be so rude to my mother-in-law or I would never
send my child with just baloney and cheese in their sandwich box
or whatever. And maybe you wouldn't.
But are you doing that because it's a core believer?
Are you doing that because you're afraid of what people are
going to think about you? Is it about the social
conditioning? You know, there's so many
variables and when it comes to astrology and it is the
esoteric. Because the esoteric and the
exoteric work hand in hand. We are spiritualizing matter.
Spirit actually does give a fuck about what we do on this planet
because it informs our physical experience that informs the
universe. But it's not sitting in
judgement. It's like, oh, they'll get it
eventually. The volume will get turned up
until they can actually hear. Yeah, they keep poisoning their
water supply. Enough of them die, they'll
figure it out. Oh, they haven't yet?
Well, dial up the. Volume some more.
It's not punish me, it's about awareness.
Some of the. Best manners manifesters on the
planet are assholes because they are able to hold their
consciousness. Consciousness is not good.
Consciousness is the moralizing is our definition of it.
But they can hold steady. They can hold their focus, They
can hold their focus. Sometimes they use a lot of
drugs to do it, but they still can.
Because it's not about good and bad, that is.
Part of oppression. It's mental and spiritual
oppression to believe. I've told you over and over and
over, one of your greatest shadows is virtue.
If people think I'm really good, I'll be safe.
I won't go to hell. I won't be called a bad girl.
I won't be shamed and blamed and victimized, right?
We don't want to see that, right?
Shamed and blamed and victimized.
So if I'm good and I stay on the narrow path, if I support these
people that have power and I toe the line, I'll be safe.
No judgement because there's no thinking involved in this
process. If you ask people, they wouldn't
be consciously aware of That's why they do what they do.
It is a program ingrained. From infancy and generational.
That's why in the work and the ANI process, which I'm retooling
in London, in London with my daughter who grew up with all of
this and we're going to make it more fun.
I don't think it's fun enough. I get very serious because I, I
build the mechanism. I'm, I'm kind of like that crazy
inventor and the absent minded professor.
And so it's make it like get it to work once I get it to work.
Then we can do what we want with them with the piece of
mechanism. So, Josh, soul music.
It doesn't have to be a big deal.
Beating yourself up is just a form of oppression.
You learned, What did you learn? What did you learn?
I'll look back at the question and see if I can give a shorter
answer. Because people, if you're as
lost as I am, well, we'll be lost together.
Resiliency is the ability to bounce back after challenging
circumstances. Holding your consciousness plays
a role in that. But there are 7.
And this is from H Stephen Glenn, pH, DS work that he
started in the 1960s and I was lucky enough to be mentored and
trained by him. So resiliency has seven factors
to it. And there are three concepts and
four skills that if you have a low score in any of them, it
reduces resiliency. But the great news is this 3
perceptions and four skills can be inoculated or learned.
So you're never wholly screwed, guys.
So the three principles, I am capable, I have significance,
meaning I matter, and I have influence and influence over my
own life, right? So I matter.
I have influence over my life and what happens to me.
Some people call that the locus of control, right?
And I am. Capable, like even if I don't
know stuff, I'm capable of learning or capable of finding
somebody who does. OK, that's it.
That's what those concepts mean. And then the four skills that
are being built, which I am constantly teaching,
interpersonal skills, that's you and me having a conversation,
intrapersonal skills, my relationship with myself, my
inner narrative. Third skill is systemic.
And I think this one is probably one of the most important to
understand because if you don't understand the systems you're
working with and whether it's an internal system or an external
system, you cannot succeed until you learn the system.
So for a lot of. Parents like education has
changed, right? Like, since you like, you have a
kid, you're in your 20s or 30s and you go to enroll.
Your toddler into whatever program and things have changed.
You know, when my kids started going to college, I did not
understand the FAFSA because I was not the same.
In 1987. It was a whole new world, a
whole new world. So if you don't know the system,
you can't work the system. The there are tons of loopholes
in the tax codes. The people who have a lot of
money can hire the experts to find the loopholes.
You might qualify for some of those loopholes, but you're not
an expert and you got to learn it.
You have a choice. Save up your money.
Hire an expert. Or.
Find or find somebody who's an expert who likes to help the
little guy or three, learn the loopholes, right.
Systemic skills. It can be that simple.
Not everything has to deep be a deep interior dive.
I am a very profound person. I'm not a shallow mud puddle.
The most important thing I've learned in the last 20 years is
it's yes, it is that deep and you don't have to dive.
Yes, it is that deep and you don't have to dive.
Is this helping you thrive or is it ceasing oxygen from going to
your brain? Yes, it is that deep and you do
not have to dive. Dive into what helps you thrive
if you're deep diving to find a Pearl.
Grate Don't get the bends on the way up. 4th Skill Judgmental The
ability to make decisions. If you've never been taught how
to make decisions that benefit you, and you have only learned
how to make decisions that are punitive or get you in trouble,
and you think screw it, doesn't matter anyway.
You're host Learning how to make good decisions, which are things
I teach every single day. Knowing how to make decisions
that are right for you or that benefit you.
Sometimes you have to hang on to shitty relationships.
For a heartbeat. Because it benefits you in some
way. And you'd be like, that's
mercenary. No, that's life.
That's life. Sometimes you got to stay in a
job with a shitty boss until you can get a better job.
It doesn't mean you will always. Be in that shitty job, but being
jobless is a worse outcome. So you stay in relationship.
Relationship doesn't mean love, it means you're having to
interact. And now am I on one today or
what? I must be excited.
All right, you guys are coming with me though.
I'm cool stuff. So I hope that worked out.
So thank you for giving me the opportunity to teach if you are.
Bypassing No, here's something interesting.
While I was developing what is now called the work by Lori
Rivers and the ANI process, which I think I'm going to
change all of that. But anyway, we might just call
it Annie after Granny Annie, my dear friend who was 30 years
older than me, and we talked about drug, sex and rock'n'roll.
We might. We might just do it that way.
I don't know. We'll see.
But anyway, one of the things when I was developing that
process as a coach, I had clients that were testing with
me and I I'd be able to build them up, you know, get them
their resonance moving a little faster, get into a more.
I hate to say elevated because we're judging at that point, but
getting them into a more positive state, let's put it
that way, just a positive state, not high vibing all the way.
Sometimes they would and they'd be like.
Woo. And within hours they'd crash
because they didn't have the mechanism to hold that concerts
in the steady. It's like, that's why I talk
about scaffolding, right? And so they balance like a
rubber band. They'd be like, they were
building the tools to elevate, but they had no tools to stay
steady. And I was feeling terrible
because I was like, oh man, I have contributed to this.
I better figure out some other mechanisms.
And that's why I created scaffolding to go with it
because. When we override when we fly too
close to the sun. And kind of think of like Robin
Williams, OK, my birthday twin, my birthday twin, we have some
interesting similarities. But a lot.
Different besides me being a coil and younger, but he spun
high and then he could get very serious.
It's imagine there was a discomfort in his inside of him.
There was a struggle inside of him because he'd Zing and he
could feel all of connection and then back into the body.
And I see him as kind of like a forerunner in consciousness.
There were there are rafts of souls that Incarnate.
They can even Incarnate in multiple bodies.
It's your soul. Is not just your soul attached
to your personality, your packed personalities, your personality
and the soul, especially if you look at the work by Seth.
Seth speaks by Jane. I can't remember the last name.
Anyway, the book Seth Seeks came out in the 70s and it talks
about the oversoul and how that kind of then splits up.
But we're all part of the same thing, OK?
And to me, that makes as much sense as anything else because
no one has all the real answers until it's been empirically
studied, right? But he would ping up and down.
So one of the things that's really important is
understanding your physicality. So when I'm buzzing and overly
stimulated in either direction, the potential for crashing is
high, right? Especially as a neurodivergent
person, when I can stay even and steady, I have more wiggle room,
which is why I talk about becoming reasonably content.
The power isn't reasonably content because you can go in
any direction you go. Too high, there's only crashing.
You go. Too low, it's hard to pull
yourself up. So you need a scaffolding.
All right? And you need to stop judging
yourself. We're humane.
None of us has this together. Nobody has their act together.
Not one person on this planet is Lily white.
Perfection. We are humans.
It's not an excuse to be an asshole either.
We are humans. We are spiritual beings having a
human experience. As Doctor Wayne Dyer used to
say, we are spiritualizing matter.
We are spirit made matter. Do you know where the word
Spirit comes from? The Latin espree spirit.
When you talk about spirit, it is the.
Breath in all if we want to believe in ancient texts, which
is really funny. All the people who want to make
a rule about what women do in their reproductive and and
health choices, they all want to use this Bible thing except they
always forget Genesis. Genesis, the beginning, their
creator breathed life into things.
Life starts with the first breath.
It must be viable. It could be assisted breath
because sure. So you know, if you want to
believe in that text, there was assisted breath from the
beginning. So if you're worried about your,
your preemies, no minute. They got oxygen in.
That's when life begins. Oh, she's on one.
OK. I just want you to know that my
daughter's going to make me look really cute because.
I mean, I get my makeup on, I think it's looking pretty good,
and I have my lighting set to make sure I look better.
But my daughter. Always makes me look pretty and
I'm very blind and I can't put my makeup on like fancy anymore
so I'm very excited. Although I do prefer a natural
look. More natural.
I mean, I can do wild looks, but I just can't see to do it.
So it'll be really nice to have her style me and make me all
party. Resistance, Resistance.
Let's talk about resistance. Because in fact, Speaking of my
daughter, we were talking about something and it's a topic I
tend to have a reaction to. It's a topic I tend to have a
reaction to. And it comes from old stuff,
some of it like family patterns, like we don't know where it
started and like it goes back a long way.
And for the very. First time because normally I'll
just have a reaction to it and and I will stop my reaction say
hey, I know you want to talk about this.
I'm going to try my best, but there's just I just it it it
it's not you. It's literally in me.
And she's like, I know get over it.
Shut up. But I ended up feeling literally
in my frontal lobe and then it travelled.
It was like a worm. It was like, it was like an
inclusion in a gem, like it was an impurity.
Like if you're looking at a diamond or something, there was
a flaw there. But it was more like, more like
a computer virus. Just, you know, it had to do
with programming. And I felt like it hurt in my
frontal lobe. And then it kind of trailed
through, up through my brain and I went whoa.
Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa. I've never felt this before.
I'm becoming conscious of it. It's not just a reaction.
I think I found the pattern. It's just like, OK, I still want
to talk about this stuff. I'm like, can you give me two
seconds so I can feel into it and adjust because.
And don't try this at home folks, because I am very well
trained in doing these things. I've been doing them since 1999.
Where you feel into the discomfort, you intensify it.
If it's pain, you intensify it without story, without
judgement. You feel it for release because
the more you intensify it and then accept it as is.
No story. And this is the part where
everybody gets stuck. Everybody wants the fucking
story. I hurt this bad because no, no,
no, just I hurt. I hurt.
I hurt because you'll feel it in the butt.
Wherever I hurt, I have discomfort.
There's a numbness, there's something.
There will be a physical sensation.
And please don't try this at home if you've never done it,
OK? Please don't because it can be a
lot. I had a lot of training and
guidance. But what you do, you feel into
things and then you accept them. It's radical acceptance.
I had that happen in a therapy session about a month into
working with my therapist. Who if you're?
Listening, I love you and I hit a.
Big. Big owie where my whole chest
constricted and I took a breath and I told my therapist, I said
I know it's not a heart attack but if I don't take care of it,
it could become one. And I said I need a second.
Let me just move this through. And I took a deep breath and I
did the process and she while I was doing it, and I'm breathing
and I'm moving the energy through and I feel things
lightning and how do I know the difference?
I do because I've had training. Please don't do it at home.
She said, Oh my God, this is radical exception, acceptance in
action. And I said, I took a breath and
I said, yes, it is. I trained with some very, very,
very good teachers and experts, and a lot of people would start
the training and go and run the other way.
Because it is unpleasant. Because in looking at the
resistance to life, whether it's the resistance to looking at our
own rejection, our grief, our loss, our abandonment, whatever
feeling it is, we can resist joy.
When we cry because we're happy is because we're resisting the
joy, because we're being soul filled and we haven't widened
our channels of reception. And sometimes love can make your
and I'm talking about real love. I'm not talking about, oh, I
want to bang you. That's my love.
That's chemistry. But real love, being accepted,
having somebody look you in the eyes and say I love you.
It's huge. And sometimes it's a little bit
much to receive. We can hold ourselves without
judgement. We can learn to stop telling the
stories that either reinforce the wound or the resistance.
There are things we naturally resist.
Breakups are hard. You feel rejected or you feel
oppressed. Nobody wants to say go, Yeah.
I had a breakup, now getting to the point where you make the
decision to leave. Can be hard if you're not happy.
I remember years ago when I was leaving my second marriage,
where I had not been happy mostly from the beginning.
I also didn't have very good boundaries from the beginning,
and I didn't really know how to say no and hold it.
I didn't know, and that's nobody else's fault.
I had to build those skills. But a lot of what held me back
was what will these people think of me?
They're going to think I'm an asshole.
They're going to think I'm greedy.
They're going to think I'm ungrateful.
They're going to think I'm a bad woman.
I'm already been divorced. This is a twice divorced.
Woman, what does that make me? What kind of whore?
When he said what I had done is when I wasn't safe the first
time, so I left to keep my children safe the second time,
it was because I wanted to live wholly as myself and that looked
selfish. You're damn right it was.
I was not willing. To sacrifice myself on the altar
of society's expectations. And it was a hard decision to
make, especially for a Libra moon.
And I lost a lot of friends, an extended family because of it.
And at the time it was very difficult.
Now I couldn't be happier that I did it, but there was big
resistance leaving it, like my arms would burn.
It was all the old social. Programs and hundreds upon
hundreds of years of no, you need to be a good woman.
You need to stay. It's OK if you die.
You've been a good woman. You'll go to heaven.
Wow, I wasn't willing to die on the altar of society's
expectations. What a horrible human being.
That. Resistance is the discomfort,
the tension patterns, etcetera, and we can breathe into them
without story and allow them to release.
It does take time and practice. Of course we're going to grieve
and resist the death of a loved one because we love them.
There's no judgement on grief there, but there's no judgement
on anger either. There's no judgement I'm feeling
rejected. There's no judgement.
I'm not feeling up to the task. There's no judgement on any of
the emotions we have. It is the judgement that is the
resistance and produces the greatest reaction.
It is the story where there is judgment because judgment isn't
condemnation. Judgment moralizes, but it is
not condemnation. When we condemn ourselves with
shame, blaming guilt, that is also resentment, and we can
release these out of the body. But one of the reasons people
intellectualize, you'll learn all the knowledge.
I could teach you everything. I could verbally tell you
everything, and you still wouldn't be able to practice it
because you don't put it into action.
Because we've been taught to have knowledge.
Knowledge is power. Knowledge is not power unless
you know what to do with it. There are a lot of people who've
gone to Ivy League schools who are unemployed, and that is
because they didn't know how to operate in the system.
They weren't good at making decisions for themselves,
judgement calls. They didn't know how to make
networks. They have a head full of facts
and no ability to apply them. Knowledge is not power unless
you know what to do with it. I can't count when I when I was
being. Charitable and I charged a lot
less for readings on a TikTok special and it's so funny
because the people who didn't knew me before TikTok like.
Well, you got famous on TikTok and then you raised your prices.
No, no, no, no, no. I got famous on.
TikTok lowered my prices to be of service during a global
pandemic, and then I brought them back up to where they
belonged and had been. Mama ain't cheap, nor should I
be. Because when I had them.
Very low priced, trying to help as many young people, especially
as I could, people who, you know, maybe worked in food
service and couldn't work at their jobs or etcetera,
etcetera, etcetera, right. Because I'm a mom, I'm a mom and
my kids were in that age group. And I thought, I want to, I want
to be able to help these babies. And I got a lot of.
Clients. Oh, I know about my chart.
I know about my chart. I've read this book, I know
about my chart and they weren't absolutely unreceptive to
hearing how to use their chart. And I had the saying that I
would say as I'm dealing out well, I know, I know astrology,
I've been into it. I read this book when I was like
10. That is like a 14 year old
telling you you you're immature and they are mature, especially
when you're dealing with somebody who's a master at what
they do. I would be like, really?
I didn't always correct people. I'd be like, wow, you're really
committed to that. I'm just going to let you sit
there. Go on.
If you won't be receptive. I'm not asking you to do agree
with everything I have to say, but if you know everything, why
are you here? Well, I know all my placements.
That's great, and I'm glad you do.
But I if do you know how to synthesize it.
And then I'll watch people write about their placements and I'll
be like, maybe you don't know because you haven't dedicated
your life to a subject. I don't know everything there is
to know about eyeballs, even though I've been going to
optometrists and ophthalmologists my whole life.
I know enough to explain what's wrong with me and make sure the
doctor can deal with me. And then I'm open to new
information because guess what? I have not dedicated my life to
being an ophthalmologist or an optometrist.
When it comes to fashion, I know what I like, but I do not design
clothes. I would not presume to tell.
Someone who is a master cutter. How to cut the fabric.
Same goes for astrology. And you do it in anything.
Oh, I know all about that. I when I teach business.
Oh, I know all about marketing. Really.
Why are your numbers so low? Oh, I know what to do.
OK, why aren't you doing it? And I am not judging or blaming,
but I am saying that's what's in the way.
Knowledge is not power unless you know what to do with it.
You can study all day long and. Gain more and more and more.
Facts until your head is this big.
But if you do not know how to apply it, it does nothing for
your life. It's just random facts.
And you're great at a cocktail party or you're good at
jeopardy. But knowledge is not power
unless you know what to do with it.
What advice, wisdom, message would you share with every
single person in the whole world if you could communicate them
and they receive the message as intended?
You are precious. You are precious, every single
one of you, and your life will change immensely the more you
begin to understand how very precious you are in the whole
scheme of the universe. That's what I'm going to say.
That and knowledge isn't power unless you know how to use it.
Andy is asking not particularly a question, but I'd love to know
more about your experiences with Spirit or how you connect to
your guys when you need hope or leaning unto faith.
OK so I was born weird Andy. I was.
I was seeing stuff as a kid. By the way, I've been tested.
I have 0 clinical markers. Even when I was like 3 years
old, I would beg my mom to take me to the Portland Japanese
gardens and she would take me and I would bolt.
Like I was usually a very cautious child.
Like I would hold on to my mom. I was afraid of getting into
trouble. Like my mom never yelled.
It's just I was really obedient and but I would bolt the minute
we got there. And I would run as fast as I
could to get to the sand garden, the Zen garden.
And that's where the monks would come.
And I would run, run, run, run, run as fast as they could.
And I would wait. I wouldn't let my mom take me
until they showed up. Except like, they there would be
signs or something saying when they wouldn't be there.
But they, they mostly showed up every time we were there, at
least in my memory, because I was three.
OK, I have a cancer, Mercury. I can remember a lot.
However, am I gonna remember everything from when I was
three? I mean, like, that's 53 years
ago. But what I do have a very clear
visual of is sitting in meditation in the Lotus
position. I'm being very, very connected.
Like, I have always had a sense of connection.
And when the monks would come by, I'd really like brothers.
Hello. Brothers and they would be like,
you know, like we're not shouting now, but I was be just
joy filled and I can still feel that burst from the heart.
So I must have been a monkey in a monastery at some time.
At least once. I've always been connected, but
I have also been disconnected through pain, rage, anger and
fear. Usually not for a ton of time
like, but there were times I was very, very angry in my teens,
which is normal, but I don't I wouldn't be alive if I didn't
have a sense of hope. I always believed life could get
better because any and and honestly my guidance.
My guidance explained to me that one of the reasons I have
obvious ability and obvious to me connection was to help keep
me in mostly one piece as I went through resistance to my
presence on this planet to be of service.
Gravity is heavy and there are conflicting agendas that might
be resistant. Sometimes we have to deal with
other people's resistance, right?
And this was to keep me where I could navigate and hope.
So I was blessed with a natural ability to connect and to have
faith. Now, did I always understand
stuff? So as I got older and I want
didn't want to be a weirdo because I didn't.
Like, I don't want people to know I do this stuff.
This is weird. And people are going to think
I'm a witch. They're going to think I'm a
weirdo. They're going to want.
I still kind of feel that way. I didn't have names for what I
did. So I just did stuff, you know,
whether it was energy work, healing work, I didn't, I didn't
have names for the things I could see or do.
And so I got training later and they showed up like my guidance
as always. And this is when I say I'm a
world server. Doesn't make me better than
anybody else, but my soul's intent is to be of service in
this lifetime, in this body, and some of that service was
learning through experience how to manage through resistance.
How? To.
Manage through the resistance to my presence on the planet?
How to manage through resisting my own presence on the planet.
There was a lot of time I didn't want to be here.
I was like what do I need to do to fulfill this so I can leave
because I'm done. I it hurt.
I don't share the whole of my story, not because I am ashamed,
but because it is so extreme that I do not wish to add to
those who have yet to heals experience.
It is enough to know there are people who'd be very shocked to
see where I am today, not because of things I did to me,
but because of what had been done to me.
I bend and I do not break. Learning how to cease that
narrative being the main part of my story.
So I focus on service and I focus on teaching and I focus on
empowering you. And I'm sure I piss people off.
I'm OK with that. I no longer fear as long as I
can be of service. I'm OK with being a weirdo.
But yeah, so how do I connect? One of those is I can take in a
deep breath. The breath is important.
And I just take anymore. I just take 1 short breath and
we're there. So I have a mantra that I use.
I have a mantra. It's very quick.
I talk to my guys all the time. It's hard, Andy, when you're
younger because the hormones are going off.
Your amygdala is still very active.
And as we both know, your Saturn return and mine happen at the
same time. We will be Saturn return.
Betty's. You're just in that last walk
before that and and that's honestly it.
I was just as dramatic when I was young, and I was very angry
and I was very sad and I was very hurt and I didn't have the
mentors just yet. The mentors started coming.
I. Don't know, maybe when I was 25,
but I thought a lot of them were full of bullshit.
So that's why I don't ever expect the young people to be
totally into this room like she's full of shit.
She doesn't get it. This is what my life has been
like. It was different for you.
I'm like, Oh yeah, I never said that when I was young, not at
all. And it was different.
There were different circumstances.
You're right, we are where we are now.
But it doesn't mean there isn't process and technique that can
help you move through even the most difficult of times.
So Andy, I would say, I say you have a lot of belief.
I don't think you don't. I think, you know, you're
connected to your guides. I think for you maybe doing a
ritual would be good. I think everybody has a way to
tune in. You know, when I was younger, if
I lit a candle and I watched it burn, that would help me with my
I had a lot of rage justifiably, and burning candles helped me do
that. I was not a pyro.
I, in fact, I was afraid of burning my house down.
So there was always a lot of safety that helped.
I never wanted to do any kind of erasure of my memory.
I know there was a lot of that. Like, my friend's mom was a
therapist back when I was like, 29, and she told me to try this
technique. It erases the trauma from your
mind. And I was like, I don't know, do
I really want to erase it? Well, you don't want to remember
it. Like there's a lot of things I
don't want to remember, but I. Do I can remember good stuff
too? But I was like but isn't that
denial? Isn't that not acknowledging
that experience is part of my walk?
And can't I heal from the traumatic parts of that while
understanding it is still part of my walk, you know?
No, I don't want the triggers. No, I don't want the cortisol
spikes. No, I don't want these heavy
things. But if IA recent isn't that, I
don't see that as having been healed, I don't think.
And this is me personally, guys, I'm not judging you if you
believe differently, but to me it wasn't really healing unless
I could look it straight in the face and I wasn't triggered
anymore. That took a very long time, so
I'm not telling you to do it now.
Don't jump in with both feet. A lot of times people do so with
enthusiasm and jump in with both feet and that is that high to
low rubber ball of consciousness that I talked about that will
just that is stress you. It's better to go chunk chunk.
Oops. I keep hitting my mic, chunk,
chunk, chunk, chunk, chunk, chunk, chunk, chunk, step by
step by step. And in the healing, the money
wound work. Believe it or not, it's a
framework far beyond money, far beyond money.
It is about creating stability in the system.
So you create stability, you integrate, you go to the next
step, stability, integrate, go to the next step.
That's how you learn language. That is how you learn math.
That is how you learn to function in a job.
That is how you master any subject and that is how you
master yourself. So it's coming is my answer.
All right, I went all over the place with that man.
This segment's almost an hour. I hope you really enjoy this
because it was actually really fun to do.
There's going to be more fun content coming out.
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I will still be active all over the place.
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