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It's the Awake Space podcast, 
and I'm Lori Rivers, your host 

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here to help you with some 
inspiration to get those 

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aspirations out into the world. 
And you know I record on 

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Sundays, right? 
I am, I'm leaving on Tuesday. 

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Going to be an amazing work 
trip. 

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I'm going to meet up with my 
daughter and we are going to 

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record like the wind in London. 
We're going to do some day trips

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in between. 
Got to get that B roll right? 

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One of the things I've been 
trying to teach over the last 

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5-6 years is when we're doing 
things that enliven us, good 

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things happen and we can 
integrate our work and our play 

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and create meaningful work. 
I'm feeling really good today. 

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I've been telling people for six
years we need to collectivize, 

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not collectivize in the burn it 
all down kind of way. 

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Like when people hear 
collectivism, they're like, ah, 

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they think of the Russian 
Revolution. 

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They think of, you know, the 
Chinese Cultural Revolution, all

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those things. 
No, no, no. 

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But if there's things we want to
see in the world, maybe if we 

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each get in and pitch in a 
little bit and we run things 

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like a cooperative. 
If you go to a grocery Co-op, 

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guess what? 
That's collectivism. 

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Go to the farmers Co-op, that's 
collectivism. 

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I have never understood how 
farmers can be so afraid of 

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communism when they have co-ops.
Because that's all it is. 

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People have conflated political 
systems with economics and 

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political systems and economic 
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Just like people keep talking 
about capitalism is the problem.

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We haven't had capitalism in 
years. 

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And you're like Laurie, I didn't
tune into a spiritual podcast 

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for this. 
Well, may I quote the Pope? 

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Everything is politics. 
What? 

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We've also conflated the 
difference between partisanship 

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and politics. 
Politics is how people 

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negotiate, come together and run
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Partisanship is belonging to a 
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It's belonging to this party or 
that party, and it's where an 

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identity forms. 
And it's like sectarianism 

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because people begin to believe 
who's the good guys, who's the 

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bad guys. 
These people are like minded, 

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which is why I never tell you 
the Awake Space community is 

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like minded. 
That just gets into, and I'm 

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being polite because I'm sure 
children are listening, but that

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just gets into this nodding of 
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yeah, we want change, but 
nobody's defined the change. 

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Nobody's defined the words, 
right? 

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You're just coming in like a 
hive mind, right? 

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Versus coming from the heart. 
You might have very different 

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ideas about how things need to 
be done, but you know something 

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needs to be done. 
If you're coming from a heart 

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center, then you're able to 
listen and not have cognitive 

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bias and you're able to 
negotiate and come to a middle 

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ground because there isn't just 
one right way to do anything. 

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So if we come from the heart 
space, and I'm not saying, you 

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know, give peas a chance, I'm 
saying it's an old joke. 

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If you're young, you may not 
have gotten that one. 

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It's OK. 
I am displaying my agedness. 

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But when we come together and we
say this thing is out of 

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balance, let's bring it back to 
balance. 

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You can't do that. 
By my way is the right way. 

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No, my way is the right way. 
And anybody who doesn't believe 

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like me, they're the bad guy. 
You're like, but you're an 

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astrologer. 
What do you know? 

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To be a good astrologer, you 
need to be a polymath and that 

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means you specialize in more 
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I have some good news and that's
why I'm talking about this. 

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One of our members in the Awake 
space is down in the Lone Star 

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State and reported that in their
city, which is a small city, 

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they were able to keep the 
people they didn't want in 

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office out. 
They managed to hold the school 

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board and the City Council. 
Now, if you've been listening to

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me since 2021, I've been telling
you you got to organize. 

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You got to be involved. 
You got to show up at town 

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meetings. 
You've got to show up for school

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board meetings and not just show
up, participate, run for office,

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or support other people running 
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Doesn't matter if you like apple
pie and they like blueberry pie.

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If you believe that kids deserve
to eat at school, if you believe

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that kids need a decent 
education that isn't mired in 

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dogma, then you show up. 
And if you don't care, then go 

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to something you do care about 
in oh gosh, it might have been 

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almost 20 years ago now. 
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Northwest Washington, Walmart 
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but we had a super Walmart down,
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and another one about 35 minutes
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To push our local. 
Businesses out of business. 

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We had three grocery stores, we 
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and we had a lot of little 
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It wasn't a big area on the 
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There was like 20,000 people on 
a good day and in town there was

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like 8000 people we knew who 
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These were our neighbors. 
You had everything from the most

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conservative of conservative 
people and the most hippy, dippy

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people who might have been on 
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They might have just been 
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Everybody showed up at the 
planning meetings to keep them 

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out. 
And I'm very proud to say we 

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kept Walmart out of that area. 
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to stay in business. 
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This was in the mid 2000s during
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before 2008. 
Because 2008 is when it hit 

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people with money before it hit 
people with money and it hit the

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working class, the Canaries in 
the coal mine, right? 

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You can be involved. 
Your local government is your 

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last stand. 
It is what protects you. 

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You can't make any rules that 
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sure as hell can interpret them.
And you can keep your 

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community's water as safe as 
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You can keep your, again, your 
school district in shape, right?

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You can make sure that you pay 
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Most sheriffs are elected, so if
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you need to find candidates you 
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Those are all important things, 
and I'm talking about that 

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because nothing is separate. 
If you don't believe you have 

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power in your own life and you 
don't believe you have power in 

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your community, how do you think
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enlightenment? 
Because it's understanding your 

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power and we. 
Talked a little bit about that 

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last week. 
Instead of being despondent, 

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find something, anything you 
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You could sign postcards for 
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You could go pick up trash. 
I've been telling people to do 

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that for a long time. 
If it's polluted around where 

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you live, dude, safely pick 
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Doesn't matter that it's not 
your job, doesn't matter that 

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you didn't throw that wrapper 
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Pick it up, give a hoot, don't 
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If you've heard about the Spirit
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used to rag on Spirit Airlines, 
but they had a perfect safety 

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record, not one fatality 
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were flying and someone who was 
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Let's buy it. 
And now their website has 

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crashed because. 
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interested in pledging support 
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That's collectivism. 
We want this thing enough. 

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We're going to put our money 
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And if enough people come 
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millions of dollars by an 
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It takes 5, it takes 20 would be
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And if enough people come 
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If enough people come together, 
they can help out a local farm 

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and support a local farm. 
I'm not talking about a giant, 

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you know, 100,000 acre 
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I'm talking about somebody with 
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sure everybody gets cucumbers 
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It could also be you all decide 
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and you have a collective table 
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just come get food, take food 
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the table. 
I used to belong to a spiritual 

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community. 
We did that. 

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We called it the Aloha Table, 
and let me tell you, there was 

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often a lot of zucchini there. 
Anyway, I'm on a roll today 

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because I'm leaving on a jet 
plane and oh, what about the jet

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fuel? 
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If I get stuck there, I don't I,
I can still, I can still stream 

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again. 
I might have to eat beans on 

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toast, but I could still do my 
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I I mean my hope would be I'd 
get stuck in France so I can 

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have baguettes and stinky 
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Anyway, I hope you're getting 
fired up too if you. 

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Haven't felt into the energy and
you know, how do you not feel 

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that the tide is turning? 
It's not going to fix it 

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overnight. 
It's not going to make great 

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sweeping changes. 
But hope is in front of us. 

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So get your tea, get your 
coffee, get your Red Bull, get 

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your matcha, get. 
Your. 

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And whether we're driving to 
work, whether we're packing a 

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suitcase, doing our whole 
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I like it when I'm in a good 
mood today, and I hope you are 

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too. 
Let's get this day done 

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together. 
Can you feel the? 

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Shift. 
The energy is shifting just a 

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little bit. 
That Uranus in Gemini is like 

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kind of clearing the clouds that
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was shaking up the ground and 
all that dust in the air. 

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Oh, my Lord, It doesn't mean 
crappy things won't happen. 

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We can't really blame the 
planets anyway because I mean, 

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we say so facetiously, but 
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We're causing this. 
We 'cause it. 

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You can say no, those bad guys 
are causing it. 

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Nah, we're all causing it, 
whether it's through inaction, 

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feeling like we're not big 
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not willing to go meet our 
neighbors, you know, and maybe 

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we don't like our neighbors. 
Maybe we have to go a couple 

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blocks down. 
Maybe we need to go to a 

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different side of town to meet 
people we're going to get along 

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with. 
But yeah, it's it's not the 

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planets. 
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potential of the consciousness 
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And it's up to us to manage our 
consciousness because it does 

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not take a majority to shift the
energy. 

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It doesn't take a majority to 
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It takes a small group. 
Of people who can align in 

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frequency to make an influence. 
Now it doesn't, you know, 

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magically change timelines. 
I know people. 

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Have that magically changes 
timelines? 

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No it doesn't. 
It's slow, it's incremental. 

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You can be faster than we think 
it'll be, but it's never an 

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instant thing. 
But you can see as this tide 

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shifts, we're actually 
resonating in a little different

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way. 
We have a little potential to 

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collectively shift our 
attention. 

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And Speaking of collectively, 
look at what's going on with 

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this push to buy Spirit 
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It started as kind of a joke and
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And it was light. 
Nobody was holding on to it 

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heavy. 
Everybody was like, yeah, sure. 

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All pledge and the website 
crashed and that's cool. 

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I've been talking about this 
time period for a long time here

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on the podcast, and one of the 
things I've been saying is we 

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need to get more collective. 
It is not communism in the way 

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people think of communism. 
People have been misusing words.

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I feel like Inigo Montoya from 
Princess Bride, you keep using 

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that word. 
I don't think it means what you 

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think it means. 
Communism is not what collective

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action is. 
It was mentioned in the 

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Communist Manifesto by Marx, 
which even a lot of leftists 

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haven't read because I can tell 
by the way they talk about 

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things. 
I'm like, you haven't read it. 

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I know you haven't read it. 
I know you haven't read it 

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because never once did he say 
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He was saying if there is a 
profit making enterprise, the 

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people who do the work deserve a
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It's not really a hard concept. 
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working need to get together to 
purchase things, have employee 

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owned operations, have 
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Well the thing that gets me is 
farmers especially can be very, 

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very conservative. 
Not all of them OK, but they can

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be like communism is bad. 
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Farmers Co-op and I'm like, you 
know that that's a collective. 

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It's farmers Co-op. 
You're a member of it, it's 

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member owned. 
That's communism. 

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Anyway, as I said in the 
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politics. 
And nothing's without. 

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Economics. 
You know, you can hate 

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capitalism all you want, but 
it's been dead for a long time. 

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We have monopolies, oligarchies.
That's not part of it. 

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It's not part of it, not part of
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But when the people understand 
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Pluto and Aquarius, and it can 
be people power. 

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It can also be authoritarianism.
It can also be forced 

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conformity. 
And if you've been listening to 

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me, what was I warning about? 
And I was just as concerned 

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because we've so divided and 
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left and right. 
And by the way, nobody's meeting

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any of the actual definitions. 
And I'm telling you this as 

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somebody who is trained as a 
political analyst. 

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Nobody's using anything, right. 
I try not to you and listen to 

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people talk about it anymore 
because it drives me crazy. 

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But there is just reason to be 
partisan. 

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No reason. 
So with Pluto and I was worried 

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about forced conformity. 
Forced conformity. 

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From any side. 
Because they were shutting down 

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people having conversations, 
whether it's Democrats, whether 

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it's Republicans, whether it's 
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democratic socialist, whatever. 
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Lack of discourse. 
And it's like you can't, you 

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can't talk about these things. 
They're outside of our narrative

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and we can't control that. 
That's. 

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A problem. 
So again, I will always be 

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political. 
I couldn't give. 

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Two rubs of two. 
Quarters. 

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See, I caught myself. 
I caught myself. 

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I'll give two rubs of two 
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parties. 
And the reason they're beholden 

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to the same interests. 
Go to opensecrets.org. 

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Look at where people getting 
their money from. 

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It's been around for a long 
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You can look up what your 
candidates are getting. 

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And where their money's coming 
from. 

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Hey, you will notice, oh, look, 
this one got it from Boeing and 

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this one got it from Boeing, 
this one got it from AT&T and 

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this one got it from AT&T. 
Oh, look, they're playing both 

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sides because all they want all 
those corporations, why is 

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influence? 
And that's where you guys should

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be like where can we influence? 
And I got great news. 

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I think I talked about it in the
opening, but one of our members,

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Becca Lynn, was talking about in
her area, they managed to keep 

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the people they didn't want off 
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council. 
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But people organized. 
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collectivism, it's about 
organization coming from like 

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heartedness. 
OK, we've got Pluto and 

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Aquarius, we got Uranus and 
Gemini and they're really kind 

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of doing a tango right now. 
They're not they're Uranus isn't

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an approaching trying to. 
Pluto, which is pretty cool. 

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And it's all about shaking up 
that energy, shaking up how we 

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think because people just repeat
the same old oppressive memes. 

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I'm not, it's, I'm just one 
person. 

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What can I do? 
A lot one person can do a lot. 

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Ask me how the magazine will 
come out soon. 

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I'm almost done, but I got your 
predictions and your horoscopes 

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up. 
OK, Go check the Patreon. 

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Go check the awake 
spacepodcast.com. 

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The horoscopes are up. 
They're giving you your marching

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orders. 
You can do a lot, and you could 

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do what you can. 
If you can't do a lot, you can 

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do a little. 
Well, right, We all have 

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limitations. 
We're physical beings. 

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We're physical beings. 
We are spirit made matter. 

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We are spiritualizing the 
material, not the other way. 

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Around I'm excited that people 
are seeing that if we each pull 

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in a little bit, we can build 
something magnificent. 

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And that means we also need to 
do that at our local and state 

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level politically, because they 
keep talking about the federal 

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level. 
But guess who takes the court, 

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the cases to the Supreme Court 
and erodes any legislation? 

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We just saw this last week. 
If you do not get involved and 

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band together, and I'm not 
talking about chanting in a 

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Rotunda, that's one form. 
That's one form, but you can 

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write legislation and find 
someone to sponsor it. 

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Did You Know? 
Actually, at the state level, 

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representatives don't cost much.
That would be unethical. 

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Yeah, yeah. 
They don't care about ethics. 

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They don't care about your 
groundwater. 

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They don't care about your air 
quality. 

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They care about what they're 
getting, and that's not always 

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at the state level. 
You got good people at the state

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level, but some of them aren't 
depending on what Texas, I mean 

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what state you're in, or 
Louisiana, what I mean what 

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state you're in. 
Why am I mean what state you're 

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in? 
State reps are cheap. 

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Just saying. 
Pull together by one or better 

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yet become one. 
Run for office. 

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If not this year, in two years, 
you know, build your base. 

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Build your base. 
Oh, she's on one. 

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Gloria, I came here to listen to
spiritual things. 

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She will listen to the end. 
We'll talk about resistance. 

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By the way, if this is bothering
you, pay attention to what part 

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of your body is getting tense, 
OK? 

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Because we'll talk about that 
later. 

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OK. 
I hope it's not your butt 

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cheeks. 
But if it is your butt cheeks, 

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we'll talk about that too. 
I'm excited because I get to go 

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to London and I think on the 
flight I'm going to bring one of

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the French. 
Books that I was sent by Nina 

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and I'm going to make flash 
cards if I can't sleep. 

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Hopefully I can sleep because 
I'm very sleep deprived, which 

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is also why I'm silly. 
But you guys can follow along on

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my French vocabulary improvement
when it comes to astrology. 

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I love that I can read the books
and understand them because you 

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require context to understand 
language. 

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I'm not reading the French books
to be better at astrology. 

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Although language, every 
language has nuance and when you

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speak other languages, you 
actually can have a personality 

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change between the languages. 
That's a psychological fact. 

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And I realized as I was reading 
in French and I, I would, first 

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of all, I got, I had to get over
being really excited. 

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I could still do it because it's
been a while and I was fluent. 

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But, you know, don't use it, you
lose it, right? 

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So I'm like, oh, I haven't lost 
all of it. 

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That's cool, you know. 
And so as I was reading, I 

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realized just the way the verbs 
are conjugated, the gendered 

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nouns and pronouns and all of 
that in the language, because 

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French is a very gendered 
language. 

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The, the way things are 
described provoked insight 

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because there's always something
you can learn. 

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I don't care that I'm a master 
astrologer. 

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There's always something new I 
can gain. 

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It might not be a lot of 
technique anymore. 

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It may be an exploration and 
understanding of how to 

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communicate it and the French is
giving me. 

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Like I can't even put words to 
how it changed my understanding 

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of things because it's not like.
Profound. 

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It's just maybe when I speak in 
French, I'm more poetic, you 

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know? 
So it gave more artistry. 

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Like I have the accuracy and 
here's a little bit of the 

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artistry. 
It's a little softer. 

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It's a little different 
understanding of the energy. 

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It's not different, you know, 
And I interpret a lot more and 

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do astrology a lot more like the
British or the people on the 

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continent because Americans do 
it a little bit differently here

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because of who my teachers were 
in the beginning, right? 

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So it's very fascinating. 
So I'll take you on that journey

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when I'm off to parts unknown. 
What am I going to do first? 

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I can almost hear you. 
What am I going to do first? 

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I actually have high tea 
scheduled for Sarah and I. 

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We haven't seen each other in 
two years. 

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We need to get this done. 
This is the best way to get it 

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done and see each other at the 
same time. 

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And so we're going to have high 
tea the day after I arrive. 

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How fun is that? 
How fun is that? 

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Which is why I have to get my 
nails done tomorrow because I 

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was like, oh, I'll skip. 
Doing my nails And I was like, 

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no, I can't skip my nails. 
I'm doing tea because there's 

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like a nail place near where 
we're staying. 

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But I probably won't be able to 
get in on time. 

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So with a million things and 12 
billion tea others to do 

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tomorrow, I will sit down and 
get my hands done. 

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But anywho, crazy days, So much 
to do, so little time. 

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I'm having to drop a few balls 
to make this happen. 

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I'm like, OK, I can do this or I
can do this. 

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So we'll get the magazine 
finished up and we'll have that 

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out probably by next weekend. 
Jessica's on it as the editor. 

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Your predictions and your 
horoscopes are indeed up. 

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Make sure you don't don't worry 
about grammar or anything. 

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Jessica actually edits those for
the magazines. 

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Those are unedited and fresh. 
They're your sneak peek and 

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they're just to to keep you 
satiated while we're finishing 

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up. 
Sorry. 

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And I have some ideas for making
that easier on me. 

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And we're going to sit down and 
plan. 

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We kind of need to sit down 
together to do it. 

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We're we're, we're always 
planning on the phone and 

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things, but I think if we just 
sit down and eat some stinky 

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cheese. 
We'll get everything figured 

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out. 
All right, It's time for some 

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community news. 
You can check that out. 

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And then after that, I'll be 
talking about resistance and how

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to deal with it and when things 
are bypassing and when it's not.

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And then people were asking me 
questions. 

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Like if, what is the one piece 
of advice I would give the world

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if people could listen? 
And I'm like, I do a podcast. 

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I do that every week. 
But I I will think of something 

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profound to say because I just 
shout into the ether. 

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Like I'm always excited when you
guys drop me comments because I 

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don't know where this is landing
or who it's landing to. 

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I'm just talking into a mic in 
my little studio with my little 

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Buddha and my little Buddha dog.
My mom painted that for me. 

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I've got another one, but it's 
like behind me. 

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And then, you know, birth of the
bear, the skull up there. 

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Yeah. 
Yeah. 

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Oh wait, there's the other one. 
That's a little. 

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Bunny Buddha, The Bunny Buddha 
my mom painted for me too. 

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Such a Cancerian. 
But anyway, yeah, I'll answer 

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some questions at the end, and I
think you guys will, if you 

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don't learn a lot, you'll learn 
a lot about my perspective. 

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And maybe that's worth forecast.
I don't know. 

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You got to know your own 
perspective. 

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All righty, let's check out 
what's happening in the Awake 

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space in May. 
All right, what's up in May at 

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the Awake space? 
Well, I'm travelling and that 

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doesn't mean things aren't 
happening. 

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So I'm not sure what days or 
what times or where I'll because

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I'm a little tired already. 
But my my daughter and I are 

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going to go live together a 
bunch both on Tiktok, Instagram,

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YouTube will probably multi 
stream and in the Patreon I will

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be doing. 
Our Natal aspects class with 

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Saturn, talking about Saturn, 
and then I think I'll round it 

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up. 
With Uranus, Neptune and Pluto 

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kind of in one class because 
because it's always the faster 

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planet that makes the aspect so.
So we'll probably. 

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Do two more of those and then 
we'll go back to doing Q&A's 

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because there's so much material
in astrology crew and yeah, 

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let's see what else did we got 
going on. 

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I always forget besides the live
streams I go, I didn't go. 

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As live as much in April because
I was teaching and I was doing a

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lot of readings. 
It's just there's only so much 

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time in the day and so. 
We'll probably be doing more 

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teaching. 
Oh, I remember Mattalva and I 

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May 17th, May 17th, we're doing 
charts and channeling. 

452
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It's 50 bucks. 
It's 50 bucks for at least 2-3 

453
00:28:32,000 --> 00:28:39,400
hours of of astrology and 
psychic mediumship where we dial

454
00:28:39,400 --> 00:28:42,680
into June, July, and August of 
2026. 

455
00:28:42,680 --> 00:28:45,480
We both have our separate year 
aheads, but. 

456
00:28:45,720 --> 00:28:49,320
When we come together, man, it's
like a fire hose. 

457
00:28:49,800 --> 00:28:53,520
It's crazy. 
We just nail things. 

458
00:28:53,520 --> 00:28:58,920
You can see clips of our October
event last year where we got 

459
00:28:58,920 --> 00:29:06,040
everything from glacial melt to,
you know, ski resorts to rising 

460
00:29:06,040 --> 00:29:09,520
sea levels that weren't 
expected, things like that. 

461
00:29:09,520 --> 00:29:11,720
These are not no brainers. 
Well, everybody knows that. 

462
00:29:11,720 --> 00:29:13,240
No, you didn't. 
They didn't. 

463
00:29:13,240 --> 00:29:14,960
Or the saying just wouldn't have
been surprised. 

464
00:29:15,520 --> 00:29:19,840
But anyway, so we're doing that 
May 17th, there's still time to 

465
00:29:19,840 --> 00:29:22,640
sign up. 
Please check the show notes. 

466
00:29:22,640 --> 00:29:24,920
And we are not giving discounts 
this time. 

467
00:29:25,200 --> 00:29:30,080
We gave early access for the 
tickets to our supporters 

468
00:29:30,080 --> 00:29:33,920
because we are 100% listener 
supported. 

469
00:29:33,920 --> 00:29:37,400
Both of us. 
I'm really proud that we are 

470
00:29:37,400 --> 00:29:43,680
one. 100% listener supported, no
ads, no sponsors. 

471
00:29:44,040 --> 00:29:47,120
We are 100% independent, which 
is why I get to be a chaos. 

472
00:29:47,120 --> 00:29:48,480
Goblin, thank you. 
Love you. 

473
00:29:50,240 --> 00:29:54,200
What else is going on? 
Oh, P Trains, this week I'm 

474
00:29:54,200 --> 00:29:59,920
going to release your discount 
for 2027's preparation and 

475
00:29:59,920 --> 00:30:04,600
predictions and everybody who 
signs up for that. 

476
00:30:05,120 --> 00:30:09,360
Whether you're a supporting 
member or not, you know that 

477
00:30:09,360 --> 00:30:12,360
that's the discount depending on
on where you're at. 

478
00:30:12,360 --> 00:30:17,000
My upper tiers got theirs at 50%
off. 

479
00:30:18,800 --> 00:30:24,000
You'll find out what yours is 
when I release it to the Hounds.

480
00:30:25,640 --> 00:30:29,840
Release the Hounds when I 
released the discount this week 

481
00:30:29,840 --> 00:30:34,800
for our other supporting tiers. 
Everybody, regardless of what 

482
00:30:34,800 --> 00:30:38,640
you're paying. 
Gets the 2027 is astrological 

483
00:30:38,640 --> 00:30:43,480
planner thanks to Alicia the 
cynical or the diabolical or the

484
00:30:43,480 --> 00:30:46,320
vampire, I don't know. 
She's Alicia, the and then she. 

485
00:30:46,600 --> 00:30:49,000
Decides who she's going to be 
anyway. 

486
00:30:49,000 --> 00:30:53,400
Much love to you my gal. 
Watch watch the refritos in the 

487
00:30:53,560 --> 00:31:00,360
office anyway. 
But thanks to her asking and I 

488
00:31:00,360 --> 00:31:04,440
said no, no, I don't have time 
to do one more thing, but 

489
00:31:04,440 --> 00:31:08,480
actually I do. 
So we're going to have that go 

490
00:31:08,480 --> 00:31:11,520
out. 
So once the event is over later 

491
00:31:11,520 --> 00:31:15,000
that week, everybody will get 
access to streaming the original

492
00:31:15,000 --> 00:31:20,440
recording and the Q&A. 
And only people who sign up for 

493
00:31:20,440 --> 00:31:24,200
that event get the Q&A. 
I never put that out to the 

494
00:31:24,200 --> 00:31:26,600
public. 
Like that's your special like 

495
00:31:27,760 --> 00:31:31,640
goodie. 
And then you'll also get, as 

496
00:31:31,640 --> 00:31:33,480
part of your ticket, you'll get 
the planner. 

497
00:31:33,480 --> 00:31:35,480
Will the planner be available to
the public? 

498
00:31:35,480 --> 00:31:37,920
Yeah, it will. 
In the fall, you'll be able to 

499
00:31:37,920 --> 00:31:41,720
get that as a print on demand 
planner. 

500
00:31:43,280 --> 00:31:49,360
But the PDF version, the digital
version will go out to everybody

501
00:31:49,360 --> 00:31:55,160
who signs up and you'll get, you
know, first access to the print 

502
00:31:55,160 --> 00:31:57,160
on demand. 
I can't include that in the 

503
00:31:57,160 --> 00:32:00,120
ticket. 
It's just not going to. 

504
00:32:00,280 --> 00:32:03,680
It doesn't financially work out,
but you'll get first dibs on the

505
00:32:03,680 --> 00:32:08,480
physical one. 
So if you want to sign up, check

506
00:32:08,480 --> 00:32:14,880
out the link in the show notes. 
Well we had some new people join

507
00:32:14,880 --> 00:32:18,920
today and I'm going to put out a
new member offer. 

508
00:32:18,920 --> 00:32:20,640
I haven't decided what it's 
going to be. 

509
00:32:20,640 --> 00:32:24,400
I don't know if I'll even have 
it done before I fly out because

510
00:32:24,400 --> 00:32:27,040
I have to. 
I have a 2 hour drive to get to 

511
00:32:27,040 --> 00:32:30,840
the airport. 
It's not even in the same state.

512
00:32:31,960 --> 00:32:36,400
Yeah. 
And I'm facing a fear, which is 

513
00:32:36,400 --> 00:32:40,000
Denver. 
I have avoided Denver's airport.

514
00:32:41,400 --> 00:32:46,400
Oh my God for. 40 years of 
flying and I'm finally having to

515
00:32:46,400 --> 00:32:49,320
fly through there. 
So wish me luck and godspeed. 

516
00:32:49,400 --> 00:32:52,960
Let's go here. 
All right, here's our newest 

517
00:32:53,680 --> 00:32:58,160
supporters. 
Jasmine unbothered Hand Joey. 

518
00:32:58,880 --> 00:33:06,920
Leslie, Shira, Amelia, Mary, 
Deborah, Jen, Sarah or Sarah, 

519
00:33:07,440 --> 00:33:14,720
Katie Beautiful scars We Lydia 
Jen Hippie Mystic, Wendy, 

520
00:33:14,720 --> 00:33:17,960
Amanda, Joanna or. 
Joanna. 

521
00:33:18,880 --> 00:33:20,600
Joanna. 
Joanna. 

522
00:33:21,160 --> 00:33:25,440
I think it's Joanna. 
We have a lot of Joanna's and we

523
00:33:25,440 --> 00:33:28,040
have so many people. 
If I butcher your name, let me 

524
00:33:28,040 --> 00:33:30,920
know. 
Molly, April. 

525
00:33:30,920 --> 00:33:37,760
Amanda, Denise, Ash Innovid, 
Tiffany Illyria, Debbie Cora, 

526
00:33:37,760 --> 00:33:45,040
Lucy, Annie, Gabriella, Shunya, 
Kathy, Jackie, Kelsey, Annie, 

527
00:33:46,720 --> 00:33:56,160
Claudia, Miranda, Jen, Lauren, 
Tara, Alicia, Olivia, Marie 

528
00:33:56,160 --> 00:34:02,640
Shea, Tori, Alexia, Brittany 
Sherry, Karen, Amanda, Joyce S, 

529
00:34:03,080 --> 00:34:09,600
Sue, Meredith, Sarah, Lilith, 
Jackie, Brandy and Anna Carey. 

530
00:34:09,920 --> 00:34:12,400
Big thank you. 
For being supporters, there's 

531
00:34:12,400 --> 00:34:19,400
2000 plus supporting members. 
I know you see that 7300 number.

532
00:34:19,600 --> 00:34:24,000
That's all told, both Vibin are 
free supporters as well as our 

533
00:34:24,000 --> 00:34:27,440
financial financially supporting
patrons that help us stay ad 

534
00:34:27,440 --> 00:34:33,960
free, sponsor sponsorship free, 
uncorruptible, uncorruptible. 

535
00:34:33,960 --> 00:34:35,880
We're not bolding to anybody 
else. 

536
00:34:37,280 --> 00:34:42,239
And for that I thank you. 
All righty, let's talk about 

537
00:34:42,239 --> 00:34:46,800
resistance and and the different
forms it takes and how we can 

538
00:34:46,800 --> 00:34:49,000
deal with it. 
And I have a couple of other 

539
00:34:49,000 --> 00:34:53,239
patrons submitted questions. 
I asked everybody in the Q&A and

540
00:34:53,239 --> 00:34:59,880
magazine tier that's in the 
Patreon chat, it says Q&A 

541
00:34:59,880 --> 00:35:02,840
magazine, etcetera. 
And you guys, you guys asked me 

542
00:35:02,840 --> 00:35:06,000
some questions that I'll answer 
here on the podcast. 

543
00:35:06,000 --> 00:35:10,080
One of those was about 
resistance, bypassing, etcetera,

544
00:35:10,200 --> 00:35:15,200
and we'll answer that one first 
and then we'll answer some of 

545
00:35:15,200 --> 00:35:28,920
the other ones as well. 
So we have over 2000 paying 

546
00:35:28,920 --> 00:35:34,320
members and we have over 5000 
free members. 

547
00:35:34,320 --> 00:35:37,440
And I know, I know, I know. 
I don't go, I go. 

548
00:35:37,480 --> 00:35:40,880
I try to go live at least once a
month for all patrons. 

549
00:35:40,920 --> 00:35:45,120
There's some glitches in there. 
I might try streaming in, 

550
00:35:45,760 --> 00:35:47,880
there's a little difference 
between me picking up my phone 

551
00:35:47,880 --> 00:35:52,320
and using the app and if I use 
the streaming key like from my I

552
00:35:52,320 --> 00:35:55,360
have softwares and it might make
a difference. 

553
00:35:55,360 --> 00:35:57,360
We'll see. 
I know sometimes people get 

554
00:35:57,360 --> 00:36:00,800
frustrated because things get 
glitchy, but Patreon is working 

555
00:36:00,800 --> 00:36:05,680
as fast as they can. 
I'll put that form out again in 

556
00:36:05,680 --> 00:36:09,000
the Patreon that you can fill 
out and let people know if 

557
00:36:09,000 --> 00:36:12,040
you've been able to have access,
if you've had any glitches. 

558
00:36:12,400 --> 00:36:17,360
Because my account, she's not 
really an account manager, but 

559
00:36:17,360 --> 00:36:19,360
she's like my liaison with 
Patreon. 

560
00:36:19,880 --> 00:36:22,920
She will, if you're having 
problems, she will directly put 

561
00:36:22,920 --> 00:36:25,360
your account in for help to get 
it fixed. 

562
00:36:25,720 --> 00:36:28,880
OK, why? 
Because I'm an ambassador. 

563
00:36:29,440 --> 00:36:33,880
I help make cool things happen 
with Patreon so. 

564
00:36:34,120 --> 00:36:38,880
There we go. 
Alrighty, so I asked what are 

565
00:36:38,880 --> 00:36:41,760
your questions this week? 
Recording the podcast tomorrow 

566
00:36:41,760 --> 00:36:44,600
so hit me. 
And here we go. 

567
00:36:45,120 --> 00:36:51,520
All right, let's see soul music 
asks or says, and this is long, 

568
00:36:51,520 --> 00:36:54,560
so hold with me curious about 
bypassing. 

569
00:36:54,680 --> 00:36:57,720
Like I'm pretty resilient and 
have equally strong tendencies 

570
00:36:57,720 --> 00:37:04,160
to ruminate with my rising moon,
Virgo Pisces axis, but also so 

571
00:37:04,160 --> 00:37:08,200
much fire in my solar and inner 
planets that I can just burn it 

572
00:37:08,200 --> 00:37:11,360
down and be planting my garden 
the day after while everyone 

573
00:37:11,360 --> 00:37:13,600
else is wondering how to process
what happened. 

574
00:37:14,040 --> 00:37:16,480
Is this a cut? 
Is there a cognitive frame, a 

575
00:37:16,480 --> 00:37:20,200
sensory or discernment process 
that can help me fine tune when 

576
00:37:20,200 --> 00:37:24,000
we're supposed to take our time 
or hang on when it's OK to flip 

577
00:37:24,000 --> 00:37:26,720
our awareness? 
I suppose the nuance and my 

578
00:37:26,720 --> 00:37:29,240
question delves into the 
metaphysics and esoteric 

579
00:37:29,240 --> 00:37:33,160
interpretation coming from 
seeing how sometimes when I move

580
00:37:33,160 --> 00:37:37,640
into aligned action, I almost 
always always want to get upset 

581
00:37:37,640 --> 00:37:40,200
with myself for holding on to 
situations, people, 

582
00:37:40,440 --> 00:37:42,720
relationships, and stories that 
were long done. 

583
00:37:43,280 --> 00:37:46,000
This also leads to wondering 
about bypassing backlash, 

584
00:37:46,000 --> 00:37:48,760
whiplash we can sometimes 
experience if we're emotionally 

585
00:37:48,760 --> 00:37:52,800
and spiritually bypassing, we're
just telling ourselves to focus 

586
00:37:52,800 --> 00:37:55,040
on positive things can make a 
situation reoccur. 

587
00:37:55,280 --> 00:37:57,120
So as a deeply thoughtful 
person. 

588
00:37:57,120 --> 00:38:03,560
OK so I stopped that question. 
So first of all, understanding 

589
00:38:03,560 --> 00:38:10,560
the range in which your 
placements can express from, as 

590
00:38:10,560 --> 00:38:13,800
I teach the three layers of 
consciousness, OK, we have our 

591
00:38:13,800 --> 00:38:17,800
instinctual, we have our 
transactional or social, that's 

592
00:38:17,800 --> 00:38:21,000
our social cultural program. 
Now we have our deliberate, 

593
00:38:21,240 --> 00:38:25,880
which is deconstructed and 
renovated consciousness, making 

594
00:38:25,880 --> 00:38:29,240
deliberate choices. 
Not a knee jerk reaction, not a 

595
00:38:29,240 --> 00:38:32,360
socially expected reaction, but 
really tinning in and saying how

596
00:38:32,360 --> 00:38:35,880
do I want to react? 
And you can choose to be angry. 

597
00:38:36,920 --> 00:38:41,440
You can have a deliberate 
consciousness of an instinctual 

598
00:38:41,440 --> 00:38:43,720
feeling, right? 
That person insulted me. 

599
00:38:43,720 --> 00:38:45,120
Do I want to? 
Be mad about it? 

600
00:38:46,320 --> 00:38:50,080
Well, first ask myself, how do I
feel about it? 

601
00:38:51,360 --> 00:38:54,240
How do I feel about it? 
Am I actually angry about it? 

602
00:38:54,840 --> 00:38:59,680
Do I want to be angry about it? 
Would it be fun to be angry 

603
00:38:59,680 --> 00:39:02,880
about it? 
What would I get out of being 

604
00:39:02,880 --> 00:39:05,600
angry? 
About it this is this is where 

605
00:39:05,600 --> 00:39:09,800
you get to make a choice, and 
the more you practice, the 

606
00:39:09,800 --> 00:39:12,040
better you get out of it. 
It's not about whether it's good

607
00:39:12,040 --> 00:39:16,960
or bad. 
Alignment isn't about being good

608
00:39:17,000 --> 00:39:18,920
or bad. 
Some of the very best 

609
00:39:18,920 --> 00:39:21,680
manifesters on the planet are 
assholes. 

610
00:39:22,440 --> 00:39:27,520
Because it's not about being 
morally good, it is about being 

611
00:39:27,520 --> 00:39:30,600
aligned. 
And alignment is as simple as 

612
00:39:30,600 --> 00:39:35,840
you if you drive a car. 
You get your tires aligned, 

613
00:39:35,840 --> 00:39:38,080
They're straight once you get 
your tires aligned. 

614
00:39:38,080 --> 00:39:40,080
Have you ever done this? 
You go to the garage, you get 

615
00:39:40,080 --> 00:39:43,280
the tires aligned and then you 
go drive and you take your hands

616
00:39:43,280 --> 00:39:44,560
off the. 
Steering wheel because it can go

617
00:39:44,560 --> 00:39:45,720
straight. 
Just me. 

618
00:39:46,360 --> 00:39:48,360
No it's not just me because my 
dad does it too. 

619
00:39:49,000 --> 00:39:50,640
Only now he has a self driving 
car. 

620
00:39:51,080 --> 00:39:54,600
It's very it's a little 
concerning to me, but when 

621
00:39:54,600 --> 00:39:57,120
you're in alignment it just 
means it's all lined up. 

622
00:39:57,120 --> 00:40:03,080
What you want and your ability 
to be receptive are not Askew. 

623
00:40:04,200 --> 00:40:08,120
You don't go, wow, I'd really 
love to own a restaurant one day

624
00:40:08,360 --> 00:40:10,960
and then think, oh, but 
restaurants go out of business 

625
00:40:10,960 --> 00:40:16,880
really fast because they have a 
lot of overhead, whereas. 

626
00:40:17,120 --> 00:40:18,520
I'd really love to own a 
business. 

627
00:40:18,520 --> 00:40:22,120
I wonder. 
I wonder like I I think I want 

628
00:40:22,120 --> 00:40:25,440
to own a restaurant. 
I wonder what would be a a 

629
00:40:25,440 --> 00:40:30,240
different way to do it? 
So I minimize my risk that's a 

630
00:40:30,240 --> 00:40:37,760
little more aligned. 
I know I'm risk averse, but 

631
00:40:37,760 --> 00:40:43,120
there's ways to make that less 
scary, see? 

632
00:40:43,400 --> 00:40:48,000
You can have alignment if you're
listening to this, you're like, 

633
00:40:48,000 --> 00:40:49,760
what the hell is she doing on 
camera? 

634
00:40:54,400 --> 00:40:57,480
And so let's tear it apart. 
First of all, don't over 

635
00:40:57,480 --> 00:41:00,760
intellectualize your placements.
That's that's not part of the 

636
00:41:00,760 --> 00:41:04,240
game. 
Let's say you have a Pisces 

637
00:41:04,240 --> 00:41:09,640
moon, OK, a Pisces moon has a 
spectrum of expression. 

638
00:41:10,440 --> 00:41:12,960
What's more important than 
intellectualizing it is 

639
00:41:12,960 --> 00:41:17,120
understanding the physical 
sensations in the body when you 

640
00:41:17,120 --> 00:41:21,680
are in instinctual 
consciousness, when you are in 

641
00:41:21,680 --> 00:41:26,400
social consciousness or 
transactional consciousness, and

642
00:41:26,400 --> 00:41:28,400
when you're in deliberate 
consciousness. 

643
00:41:28,920 --> 00:41:32,240
When I'm in instinctual 
consciousness, there's a 

644
00:41:32,240 --> 00:41:37,320
constriction, there's muscle 
tension, my vision might change.

645
00:41:39,480 --> 00:41:44,440
And instinctual can be anything 
that really focuses on our 

646
00:41:44,440 --> 00:41:47,280
survival. 
It it's not thinking, it's our, 

647
00:41:47,280 --> 00:41:50,120
it's when our amygdala is 
driving the show. 

648
00:41:50,440 --> 00:41:56,800
OK, so we could have a spike of 
fear, a spike of anger, a spike 

649
00:41:56,880 --> 00:42:05,760
of libido. 
That's right, libido. 

650
00:42:06,640 --> 00:42:10,480
Maybe we just are running body 
to body. 

651
00:42:11,160 --> 00:42:15,920
That's instinctual. 
That's instinctual can. 

652
00:42:15,960 --> 00:42:18,800
And then there's the 
transactional, which is the 

653
00:42:18,800 --> 00:42:21,560
social cultural programming, 
which I like to think of as kind

654
00:42:21,560 --> 00:42:25,600
of like high level instinctual. 
And these are none of these are 

655
00:42:25,680 --> 00:42:29,160
we're not grading papers here. 
This isn't instinctual as fail. 

656
00:42:29,680 --> 00:42:34,320
Transactional is average, 
deliberate is exceptional and 

657
00:42:34,320 --> 00:42:36,520
exceeds expectations. 
That's not it. 

658
00:42:36,520 --> 00:42:38,560
It's just one feels better than 
the other one. 

659
00:42:38,720 --> 00:42:42,440
One gives you more agency and 
you can do what seemed 

660
00:42:42,440 --> 00:42:48,640
impossible to you because when 
you're deliberate, you see more 

661
00:42:48,760 --> 00:42:52,360
options and you'd be like, wow, 
that looks really cool. 

662
00:42:52,600 --> 00:42:55,520
I don't know how to do that. 
I wonder what it takes to learn 

663
00:42:55,520 --> 00:42:56,800
that. 
I'm going to Google that. 

664
00:42:57,200 --> 00:42:58,640
That's a deliberate. 
Action. 

665
00:42:59,480 --> 00:43:02,640
And it can also be deliberate to
be like. 

666
00:43:02,640 --> 00:43:03,960
Screwed out. 
I don't like doing that. 

667
00:43:03,960 --> 00:43:07,160
I don't want to do that. 
I know everybody else wants me 

668
00:43:07,160 --> 00:43:17,520
to social, I don't want to. 
Paid not going to do it That 

669
00:43:17,720 --> 00:43:20,320
that's fine. 
And you can feel free in that 

670
00:43:21,320 --> 00:43:23,480
not everything is going to be 
comfortable. 

671
00:43:23,720 --> 00:43:29,600
The goal of spirituality is not 
to feel good every second of the

672
00:43:29,600 --> 00:43:34,280
day. 
We are so afraid. 

673
00:43:34,320 --> 00:43:42,120
Of pain in our society we are so
afraid of discomfort in our 

674
00:43:42,120 --> 00:43:47,200
society that we will. 
Sit in a pile of steaming shit 

675
00:43:47,880 --> 00:43:51,960
in our lives because we. 
Fear the discomfort of the 

676
00:43:52,000 --> 00:43:55,720
unknown. 
Ask me how I know I've done it. 

677
00:43:56,440 --> 00:44:00,520
Everybody's afraid of change. 
Everybody is afraid of doing it 

678
00:44:00,520 --> 00:44:02,560
differently. 
Everybody asks what if it 

679
00:44:02,560 --> 00:44:05,360
doesn't work? 
What if it does? 

680
00:44:06,760 --> 00:44:09,320
We stay in relationships. 
That are past our prime, we stay

681
00:44:09,320 --> 00:44:11,800
in jobs that are past our 
primes, we stay in houses that 

682
00:44:11,800 --> 00:44:16,520
are past our prime because. 
We don't know what's next. 

683
00:44:16,520 --> 00:44:20,520
What does it look like next? 
I had a lot of that in readings 

684
00:44:20,520 --> 00:44:23,800
this week and I'm not judging a 
lot. 

685
00:44:25,160 --> 00:44:26,800
Because there were a lot of 
people asking. 

686
00:44:26,800 --> 00:44:32,240
Me and it do not go from not 
reading for a couple minutes 

687
00:44:32,240 --> 00:44:34,720
into a full schedule. 
I just I just want you to know 

688
00:44:34,720 --> 00:44:37,000
that don't don't do that in any 
discipline. 

689
00:44:38,040 --> 00:44:39,040
Can you do it? 
Yes. 

690
00:44:39,040 --> 00:44:41,160
Do you want to No makes your 
brain very tired. 

691
00:44:41,680 --> 00:44:47,000
But anyway there was I would say
you need to trust the process. 

692
00:44:47,000 --> 00:44:50,760
This is what's up on deck. 
You need to just trust to take 

693
00:44:50,760 --> 00:44:52,400
the next step. 
And they're like, yeah, but I 

694
00:44:52,400 --> 00:44:54,280
just wonder what it turns out 
like. 

695
00:44:56,520 --> 00:44:59,560
And I'm like you, you're not 
going to know right now. 

696
00:45:00,040 --> 00:45:04,280
You just need to take the step. 
You're not going to know. 

697
00:45:05,080 --> 00:45:08,760
And trying to arrange all the 
conditions is attaching to the 

698
00:45:08,760 --> 00:45:12,360
outcome. 
And so I'd do a little Gimme. 

699
00:45:12,360 --> 00:45:17,920
And I'd be like, well, the way 
you will be successful is just 

700
00:45:17,920 --> 00:45:20,320
taking it a step at a time. 
You want to take this as a 

701
00:45:20,320 --> 00:45:23,560
process. 
It will help to know what kind 

702
00:45:23,560 --> 00:45:28,400
of outcome you would like to 
see, but don't over detail it. 

703
00:45:28,400 --> 00:45:30,720
Can you tell I had a lot of 
Virgo mercuries this week? 

704
00:45:31,120 --> 00:45:33,240
It's always fun to see what's up
on deck. 

705
00:45:33,240 --> 00:45:37,960
I'm like, oh, they're getting 
squared by the Uranus and Gemini

706
00:45:38,120 --> 00:45:41,760
it. 
Was early Virgo mercuries. 

707
00:45:41,800 --> 00:45:45,520
So you're not going to know it 
all before you start. 

708
00:45:45,520 --> 00:45:49,480
You can have an idea like I 
wanted to. 

709
00:45:50,440 --> 00:45:53,400
I wanted to be a supporter in a 
world I knew was drastically 

710
00:45:53,400 --> 00:45:55,520
changing. 
That is the only reason I 

711
00:45:55,520 --> 00:46:00,880
decided to talk about astrology 
on woke astrology and in this 

712
00:46:00,880 --> 00:46:06,080
podcast and on the Ticky talky. 
And I didn't even start on 

713
00:46:06,080 --> 00:46:10,480
TikTok to do that. 
I went to protest wanting to ban

714
00:46:10,480 --> 00:46:12,880
that app because I believe in 
free speech. 

715
00:46:13,560 --> 00:46:19,280
And then I was like, oh. 
Wow, I only need 1000 people and

716
00:46:19,280 --> 00:46:21,920
I can talk about astrology and 
maybe help the people who are 

717
00:46:21,920 --> 00:46:24,200
attracted to what I do. 
That's cool. 

718
00:46:26,160 --> 00:46:28,640
Well let's see. 
It might take me a year, but 

719
00:46:28,640 --> 00:46:31,920
I'll try it. 
Everything blew up. 

720
00:46:32,160 --> 00:46:33,560
Why? 
I wasn't holding on, I wasn't 

721
00:46:33,560 --> 00:46:35,400
trying. 
I wasn't forcing my agenda. 

722
00:46:35,680 --> 00:46:37,920
Like people found it, they liked
it, they joined, they didn't 

723
00:46:37,920 --> 00:46:41,000
like it, they said fuck you, 
they moved, right? 

724
00:46:41,520 --> 00:46:44,160
Right. 
That's simple. 

725
00:46:45,400 --> 00:46:49,920
When you let go of the outcome, 
whether it's relationship, you 

726
00:46:49,920 --> 00:46:52,120
don't have to know the how. 
Right. 

727
00:46:52,120 --> 00:46:53,880
You hear that in in business all
the time. 

728
00:46:53,880 --> 00:46:55,920
You don't need to know the how, 
You need to know the what. 

729
00:46:55,920 --> 00:46:57,600
You need to know the where, 
right? 

730
00:46:57,600 --> 00:47:00,920
Where am I going? 
What do I want? 

731
00:47:01,320 --> 00:47:04,040
How? 
Figures itself out over time. 

732
00:47:05,040 --> 00:47:07,680
It's not great to invest a ton 
of money when you don't have 

733
00:47:07,680 --> 00:47:10,920
clarity if you're foggy. 
Maybe it's time to invest some 

734
00:47:10,920 --> 00:47:13,960
time into learning some skills 
like what do I know how to do? 

735
00:47:13,960 --> 00:47:16,720
What do I need to learn? 
Well, you'll find out some of 

736
00:47:16,720 --> 00:47:20,360
that along the way, but you 
might know right now that well, 

737
00:47:20,360 --> 00:47:22,160
I'm not very good at this, this 
and this. 

738
00:47:22,440 --> 00:47:25,280
Great. 
Well, where can I learn those 

739
00:47:25,280 --> 00:47:27,560
skills instead of like, well, I 
don't know, I'm going to quit. 

740
00:47:28,440 --> 00:47:31,080
That's all resistance and it's 
all oppressive thinking. 

741
00:47:31,840 --> 00:47:36,360
So back to soul music, you don't
want to over intellectualize it.

742
00:47:36,360 --> 00:47:43,800
It's too easy when you are in 
alignment and if you are aligned

743
00:47:43,800 --> 00:47:46,680
in a spiritual way like so, if 
you're aligned to your higher 

744
00:47:46,680 --> 00:47:52,600
guidance, your soul yourself. 
There's no judgement to be had. 

745
00:47:52,600 --> 00:47:55,440
It is I did what I did. 
I learned what I learned. 

746
00:47:56,240 --> 00:47:58,400
This will be valuable in some 
way. 

747
00:47:58,920 --> 00:48:05,560
That's it. 
Move on when we're aligned in a 

748
00:48:05,560 --> 00:48:09,640
more transactional way. 
Which we can, because it's not 

749
00:48:09,640 --> 00:48:12,360
that our spirit or soul is ever 
disconnected. 

750
00:48:12,360 --> 00:48:16,120
We're not it's it's our ability 
to tune to it is already here. 

751
00:48:16,120 --> 00:48:19,680
Our guidance is always around. 
No one is judging you, but you. 

752
00:48:19,800 --> 00:48:25,800
The 3 ghosts that came to 
Ebenezer Scrooge were. 

753
00:48:26,320 --> 00:48:33,080
Apparitions of his own soul I 
know may not be a literary 

754
00:48:33,080 --> 00:48:35,400
interpretation, but it is 
definitely a metaphysical 

755
00:48:35,400 --> 00:48:37,640
interpretation. 
It's all us. 

756
00:48:38,280 --> 00:48:40,560
It's all us. 
It's all us. 

757
00:48:40,560 --> 00:48:44,560
It's all us. 
So what do you do? 

758
00:48:45,840 --> 00:48:48,840
You know, line in, you're like, 
OK, I feel hurt. 

759
00:48:48,840 --> 00:48:51,240
You have to be, you know, you 
can't do anything about anybody 

760
00:48:51,240 --> 00:48:55,040
else's experience except your 
own, because if you manage your 

761
00:48:55,040 --> 00:49:00,720
own, you're going. 
To be a Dick to other people. 

762
00:49:01,160 --> 00:49:03,480
I'm sorry. 
When my my son's birthday is 

763
00:49:03,480 --> 00:49:05,720
coming up in June and when he 
was a teenager. 

764
00:49:05,720 --> 00:49:11,520
He'll be 30 when he was a 
teenager and he was easy, OK? 

765
00:49:11,520 --> 00:49:14,360
He was just easy. 
But he was getting grumpy for 

766
00:49:14,360 --> 00:49:18,840
him, OK, not anybody else, but 
just for him. 

767
00:49:19,680 --> 00:49:23,480
And I would be like, just 
because you have one doesn't 

768
00:49:23,480 --> 00:49:25,280
mean you need to be 1 anyway. 
What? 

769
00:49:25,600 --> 00:49:29,280
And I'm like, think about it. 
And he's got 5 planets, personal

770
00:49:29,280 --> 00:49:33,000
planets in Gemini. 
He innuendo did not go over his 

771
00:49:33,000 --> 00:49:36,920
head. 
He'd be like, oh, hey, mom, but 

772
00:49:36,920 --> 00:49:39,760
just because you have one 
doesn't mean you need to be 1, 

773
00:49:43,360 --> 00:49:51,520
five Deez Nuts. 
But when, when it comes to 

774
00:49:51,520 --> 00:50:00,000
bypassing Speaking of five Deez 
Nuts, it is the abnegation of 

775
00:50:00,000 --> 00:50:02,760
responsibility. 
It's like, well, I meditated, I 

776
00:50:02,760 --> 00:50:05,200
prayed, I wrote these things 
down. 

777
00:50:06,080 --> 00:50:09,040
Yeah. 
While not looking at all the 

778
00:50:09,040 --> 00:50:12,560
things you need to do or taking 
up accountability. 

779
00:50:13,160 --> 00:50:15,840
You know, you see a lot of times
like people will say, and you 

780
00:50:15,840 --> 00:50:17,480
can see this in any message 
part. 

781
00:50:17,480 --> 00:50:19,880
It doesn't matter if somebody be
like, well, I would never do 

782
00:50:19,880 --> 00:50:24,920
that. 
They in fact have done that. 

783
00:50:26,040 --> 00:50:30,200
Yeah, I would never. 
And and even if you never did 

784
00:50:30,200 --> 00:50:33,160
those things, whatever it is 
like, you know, well, I would 

785
00:50:33,160 --> 00:50:36,680
never be so rude to my 
mother-in-law or I would never 

786
00:50:37,720 --> 00:50:42,600
send my child with just baloney 
and cheese in their sandwich box

787
00:50:42,600 --> 00:50:44,880
or whatever. 
And maybe you wouldn't. 

788
00:50:45,840 --> 00:50:47,960
But are you doing that because 
it's a core believer? 

789
00:50:47,960 --> 00:50:50,160
Are you doing that because 
you're afraid of what people are

790
00:50:50,160 --> 00:50:54,200
going to think about you? 
Is it about the social 

791
00:50:54,200 --> 00:50:56,240
conditioning? 
You know, there's so many 

792
00:50:56,240 --> 00:50:58,880
variables and when it comes to 
astrology and it is the 

793
00:50:58,880 --> 00:51:02,840
esoteric. 
Because the esoteric and the 

794
00:51:02,840 --> 00:51:06,560
exoteric work hand in hand. 
We are spiritualizing matter. 

795
00:51:07,720 --> 00:51:11,200
Spirit actually does give a fuck
about what we do on this planet 

796
00:51:11,200 --> 00:51:14,480
because it informs our physical 
experience that informs the 

797
00:51:14,480 --> 00:51:17,000
universe. 
But it's not sitting in 

798
00:51:17,000 --> 00:51:19,120
judgement. 
It's like, oh, they'll get it 

799
00:51:19,120 --> 00:51:22,520
eventually. 
The volume will get turned up 

800
00:51:22,520 --> 00:51:26,760
until they can actually hear. 
Yeah, they keep poisoning their 

801
00:51:26,760 --> 00:51:28,600
water supply. 
Enough of them die, they'll 

802
00:51:28,600 --> 00:51:31,440
figure it out. 
Oh, they haven't yet? 

803
00:51:31,440 --> 00:51:33,040
Well, dial up the. 
Volume some more. 

804
00:51:33,280 --> 00:51:35,960
It's not punish me, it's about 
awareness. 

805
00:51:38,520 --> 00:51:40,880
Some of the. 
Best manners manifesters on the 

806
00:51:40,880 --> 00:51:43,800
planet are assholes because they
are able to hold their 

807
00:51:43,800 --> 00:51:46,880
consciousness. 
Consciousness is not good. 

808
00:51:47,440 --> 00:51:52,640
Consciousness is the moralizing 
is our definition of it. 

809
00:51:52,840 --> 00:51:57,440
But they can hold steady. 
They can hold their focus, They 

810
00:51:57,440 --> 00:52:00,040
can hold their focus. 
Sometimes they use a lot of 

811
00:52:00,040 --> 00:52:02,680
drugs to do it, but they still 
can. 

812
00:52:04,680 --> 00:52:09,000
Because it's not about good and 
bad, that is. 

813
00:52:09,000 --> 00:52:12,720
Part of oppression. 
It's mental and spiritual 

814
00:52:12,880 --> 00:52:15,760
oppression to believe. 
I've told you over and over and 

815
00:52:15,760 --> 00:52:17,920
over, one of your greatest 
shadows is virtue. 

816
00:52:19,080 --> 00:52:21,640
If people think I'm really good,
I'll be safe. 

817
00:52:22,680 --> 00:52:27,400
I won't go to hell. 
I won't be called a bad girl. 

818
00:52:27,880 --> 00:52:33,880
I won't be shamed and blamed and
victimized, right? 

819
00:52:35,320 --> 00:52:38,200
We don't want to see that, 
right? 

820
00:52:39,480 --> 00:52:41,680
Shamed and blamed and 
victimized. 

821
00:52:41,680 --> 00:52:45,760
So if I'm good and I stay on the
narrow path, if I support these 

822
00:52:45,760 --> 00:52:52,920
people that have power and I toe
the line, I'll be safe. 

823
00:52:56,040 --> 00:53:01,240
No judgement because there's no 
thinking involved in this 

824
00:53:01,240 --> 00:53:03,600
process. 
If you ask people, they wouldn't

825
00:53:03,840 --> 00:53:07,240
be consciously aware of That's 
why they do what they do. 

826
00:53:07,240 --> 00:53:12,160
It is a program ingrained. 
From infancy and generational. 

827
00:53:12,360 --> 00:53:16,640
That's why in the work and the 
ANI process, which I'm retooling

828
00:53:16,640 --> 00:53:23,480
in London, in London with my 
daughter who grew up with all of

829
00:53:23,480 --> 00:53:26,720
this and we're going to make it 
more fun. 

830
00:53:27,480 --> 00:53:29,960
I don't think it's fun enough. 
I get very serious because I, I 

831
00:53:29,960 --> 00:53:32,520
build the mechanism. 
I'm, I'm kind of like that crazy

832
00:53:32,520 --> 00:53:35,280
inventor and the absent minded 
professor. 

833
00:53:35,640 --> 00:53:39,480
And so it's make it like get it 
to work once I get it to work. 

834
00:53:39,840 --> 00:53:43,960
Then we can do what we want with
them with the piece of 

835
00:53:43,960 --> 00:53:47,320
mechanism. 
So, Josh, soul music. 

836
00:53:51,080 --> 00:53:52,320
It doesn't have to be a big 
deal. 

837
00:53:54,760 --> 00:53:57,840
Beating yourself up is just a 
form of oppression. 

838
00:53:59,080 --> 00:54:02,000
You learned, What did you learn?
What did you learn? 

839
00:54:02,000 --> 00:54:04,040
I'll look back at the question 
and see if I can give a shorter 

840
00:54:04,080 --> 00:54:05,760
answer. 
Because people, if you're as 

841
00:54:05,760 --> 00:54:07,760
lost as I am, well, we'll be 
lost together. 

842
00:54:07,800 --> 00:54:11,840
Resiliency is the ability to 
bounce back after challenging 

843
00:54:11,840 --> 00:54:14,800
circumstances. 
Holding your consciousness plays

844
00:54:14,800 --> 00:54:18,080
a role in that. 
But there are 7. 

845
00:54:18,080 --> 00:54:22,360
And this is from H Stephen 
Glenn, pH, DS work that he 

846
00:54:22,360 --> 00:54:28,040
started in the 1960s and I was 
lucky enough to be mentored and 

847
00:54:28,040 --> 00:54:33,680
trained by him. 
So resiliency has seven factors 

848
00:54:33,680 --> 00:54:36,680
to it. 
And there are three concepts and

849
00:54:36,680 --> 00:54:43,160
four skills that if you have a 
low score in any of them, it 

850
00:54:43,160 --> 00:54:48,080
reduces resiliency. 
But the great news is this 3 

851
00:54:48,080 --> 00:54:53,360
perceptions and four skills can 
be inoculated or learned. 

852
00:54:54,320 --> 00:54:56,560
So you're never wholly screwed, 
guys. 

853
00:54:57,120 --> 00:55:03,600
So the three principles, I am 
capable, I have significance, 

854
00:55:03,760 --> 00:55:09,560
meaning I matter, and I have 
influence and influence over my 

855
00:55:09,560 --> 00:55:11,800
own life, right? 
So I matter. 

856
00:55:11,920 --> 00:55:14,320
I have influence over my life 
and what happens to me. 

857
00:55:15,200 --> 00:55:17,640
Some people call that the locus 
of control, right? 

858
00:55:18,200 --> 00:55:20,000
And I am. 
Capable, like even if I don't 

859
00:55:20,000 --> 00:55:23,480
know stuff, I'm capable of 
learning or capable of finding 

860
00:55:23,480 --> 00:55:26,280
somebody who does. 
OK, that's it. 

861
00:55:26,280 --> 00:55:29,920
That's what those concepts mean.
And then the four skills that 

862
00:55:29,920 --> 00:55:33,320
are being built, which I am 
constantly teaching, 

863
00:55:34,920 --> 00:55:38,280
interpersonal skills, that's you
and me having a conversation, 

864
00:55:38,600 --> 00:55:42,560
intrapersonal skills, my 
relationship with myself, my 

865
00:55:42,720 --> 00:55:47,000
inner narrative. 
Third skill is systemic. 

866
00:55:47,840 --> 00:55:52,080
And I think this one is probably
one of the most important to 

867
00:55:52,080 --> 00:55:56,880
understand because if you don't 
understand the systems you're 

868
00:55:56,880 --> 00:56:01,000
working with and whether it's an
internal system or an external 

869
00:56:01,000 --> 00:56:05,440
system, you cannot succeed until
you learn the system. 

870
00:56:05,800 --> 00:56:08,720
So for a lot of. 
Parents like education has 

871
00:56:08,720 --> 00:56:11,040
changed, right? 
Like, since you like, you have a

872
00:56:11,040 --> 00:56:16,160
kid, you're in your 20s or 30s 
and you go to enroll. 

873
00:56:16,160 --> 00:56:20,000
Your toddler into whatever 
program and things have changed.

874
00:56:21,320 --> 00:56:25,040
You know, when my kids started 
going to college, I did not 

875
00:56:25,080 --> 00:56:28,880
understand the FAFSA because I 
was not the same. 

876
00:56:28,880 --> 00:56:31,960
In 1987. 
It was a whole new world, a 

877
00:56:31,960 --> 00:56:39,160
whole new world. 
So if you don't know the system,

878
00:56:39,240 --> 00:56:43,040
you can't work the system. 
The there are tons of loopholes 

879
00:56:43,040 --> 00:56:46,880
in the tax codes. 
The people who have a lot of 

880
00:56:46,880 --> 00:56:50,880
money can hire the experts to 
find the loopholes. 

881
00:56:52,320 --> 00:56:55,240
You might qualify for some of 
those loopholes, but you're not 

882
00:56:55,240 --> 00:56:56,800
an expert and you got to learn 
it. 

883
00:56:57,040 --> 00:56:58,800
You have a choice. 
Save up your money. 

884
00:56:58,800 --> 00:57:00,480
Hire an expert. 
Or. 

885
00:57:00,560 --> 00:57:03,680
Find or find somebody who's an 
expert who likes to help the 

886
00:57:03,680 --> 00:57:08,480
little guy or three, learn the 
loopholes, right. 

887
00:57:08,680 --> 00:57:15,240
Systemic skills. 
It can be that simple. 

888
00:57:15,240 --> 00:57:18,560
Not everything has to deep be a 
deep interior dive. 

889
00:57:18,560 --> 00:57:23,000
I am a very profound person. 
I'm not a shallow mud puddle. 

890
00:57:23,880 --> 00:57:27,080
The most important thing I've 
learned in the last 20 years is 

891
00:57:27,080 --> 00:57:30,560
it's yes, it is that deep and 
you don't have to dive. 

892
00:57:31,480 --> 00:57:34,200
Yes, it is that deep and you 
don't have to dive. 

893
00:57:34,480 --> 00:57:39,480
Is this helping you thrive or is
it ceasing oxygen from going to 

894
00:57:39,480 --> 00:57:42,920
your brain? 
Yes, it is that deep and you do 

895
00:57:42,920 --> 00:57:46,480
not have to dive. 
Dive into what helps you thrive 

896
00:57:46,720 --> 00:57:48,760
if you're deep diving to find a 
Pearl. 

897
00:57:48,760 --> 00:57:55,360
Grate Don't get the bends on the
way up. 4th Skill Judgmental The

898
00:57:55,360 --> 00:57:58,960
ability to make decisions. 
If you've never been taught how 

899
00:57:58,960 --> 00:58:05,200
to make decisions that benefit 
you, and you have only learned 

900
00:58:05,200 --> 00:58:09,320
how to make decisions that are 
punitive or get you in trouble, 

901
00:58:10,800 --> 00:58:12,680
and you think screw it, doesn't 
matter anyway. 

902
00:58:13,440 --> 00:58:17,840
You're host Learning how to make
good decisions, which are things

903
00:58:17,840 --> 00:58:21,800
I teach every single day. 
Knowing how to make decisions 

904
00:58:21,800 --> 00:58:26,280
that are right for you or that 
benefit you. 

905
00:58:26,720 --> 00:58:29,520
Sometimes you have to hang on to
shitty relationships. 

906
00:58:29,520 --> 00:58:34,240
For a heartbeat. 
Because it benefits you in some 

907
00:58:34,240 --> 00:58:35,120
way. 
And you'd be like, that's 

908
00:58:35,120 --> 00:58:37,120
mercenary. 
No, that's life. 

909
00:58:38,320 --> 00:58:39,800
That's life. 
Sometimes you got to stay in a 

910
00:58:39,800 --> 00:58:42,920
job with a shitty boss until you
can get a better job. 

911
00:58:42,920 --> 00:58:46,080
It doesn't mean you will always.
Be in that shitty job, but being

912
00:58:46,080 --> 00:58:51,560
jobless is a worse outcome. 
So you stay in relationship. 

913
00:58:51,560 --> 00:58:54,920
Relationship doesn't mean love, 
it means you're having to 

914
00:58:54,920 --> 00:59:00,160
interact. 
And now am I on one today or 

915
00:59:00,160 --> 00:59:01,640
what? 
I must be excited. 

916
00:59:01,640 --> 00:59:04,800
All right, you guys are coming 
with me though. 

917
00:59:04,800 --> 00:59:08,520
I'm cool stuff. 
So I hope that worked out. 

918
00:59:08,760 --> 00:59:11,880
So thank you for giving me the 
opportunity to teach if you are.

919
00:59:11,880 --> 00:59:13,720
Bypassing No, here's something 
interesting. 

920
00:59:13,720 --> 00:59:17,160
While I was developing what is 
now called the work by Lori 

921
00:59:17,160 --> 00:59:21,280
Rivers and the ANI process, 
which I think I'm going to 

922
00:59:21,400 --> 00:59:24,320
change all of that. 
But anyway, we might just call 

923
00:59:24,320 --> 00:59:28,840
it Annie after Granny Annie, my 
dear friend who was 30 years 

924
00:59:28,840 --> 00:59:31,640
older than me, and we talked 
about drug, sex and rock'n'roll.

925
00:59:32,360 --> 00:59:33,960
We might. 
We might just do it that way. 

926
00:59:34,400 --> 00:59:35,560
I don't know. 
We'll see. 

927
00:59:37,000 --> 00:59:43,800
But anyway, one of the things 
when I was developing that 

928
00:59:43,800 --> 00:59:49,880
process as a coach, I had 
clients that were testing with 

929
00:59:49,880 --> 00:59:55,680
me and I I'd be able to build 
them up, you know, get them 

930
00:59:55,680 --> 01:00:00,400
their resonance moving a little 
faster, get into a more. 

931
01:00:01,560 --> 01:00:04,760
I hate to say elevated because 
we're judging at that point, but

932
01:00:04,760 --> 01:00:07,120
getting them into a more 
positive state, let's put it 

933
01:00:07,120 --> 01:00:10,320
that way, just a positive state,
not high vibing all the way. 

934
01:00:10,520 --> 01:00:13,160
Sometimes they would and they'd 
be like. 

935
01:00:13,160 --> 01:00:17,040
Woo. 
And within hours they'd crash 

936
01:00:17,240 --> 01:00:20,720
because they didn't have the 
mechanism to hold that concerts 

937
01:00:20,720 --> 01:00:22,680
in the steady. 
It's like, that's why I talk 

938
01:00:22,680 --> 01:00:26,720
about scaffolding, right? 
And so they balance like a 

939
01:00:26,720 --> 01:00:28,920
rubber band. 
They'd be like, they were 

940
01:00:28,920 --> 01:00:32,120
building the tools to elevate, 
but they had no tools to stay 

941
01:00:32,120 --> 01:00:35,160
steady. 
And I was feeling terrible 

942
01:00:35,160 --> 01:00:38,320
because I was like, oh man, I 
have contributed to this. 

943
01:00:38,840 --> 01:00:40,800
I better figure out some other 
mechanisms. 

944
01:00:41,320 --> 01:00:45,040
And that's why I created 
scaffolding to go with it 

945
01:00:45,040 --> 01:00:49,800
because. 
When we override when we fly too

946
01:00:49,800 --> 01:00:53,560
close to the sun. 
And kind of think of like Robin 

947
01:00:53,560 --> 01:01:00,840
Williams, OK, my birthday twin, 
my birthday twin, we have some 

948
01:01:00,840 --> 01:01:04,680
interesting similarities. 
But a lot. 

949
01:01:04,680 --> 01:01:11,160
Different besides me being a 
coil and younger, but he spun 

950
01:01:11,240 --> 01:01:14,160
high and then he could get very 
serious. 

951
01:01:14,160 --> 01:01:18,400
It's imagine there was a 
discomfort in his inside of him.

952
01:01:20,040 --> 01:01:23,440
There was a struggle inside of 
him because he'd Zing and he 

953
01:01:23,440 --> 01:01:28,240
could feel all of connection and
then back into the body. 

954
01:01:29,680 --> 01:01:34,240
And I see him as kind of like a 
forerunner in consciousness. 

955
01:01:35,360 --> 01:01:38,680
There were there are rafts of 
souls that Incarnate. 

956
01:01:38,680 --> 01:01:40,800
They can even Incarnate in 
multiple bodies. 

957
01:01:40,800 --> 01:01:43,240
It's your soul. 
Is not just your soul attached 

958
01:01:43,240 --> 01:01:45,720
to your personality, your packed
personalities, your personality 

959
01:01:45,720 --> 01:01:49,360
and the soul, especially if you 
look at the work by Seth. 

960
01:01:49,880 --> 01:01:54,640
Seth speaks by Jane. 
I can't remember the last name. 

961
01:01:54,840 --> 01:01:58,120
Anyway, the book Seth Seeks came
out in the 70s and it talks 

962
01:01:58,120 --> 01:02:02,360
about the oversoul and how that 
kind of then splits up. 

963
01:02:02,520 --> 01:02:04,880
But we're all part of the same 
thing, OK? 

964
01:02:05,560 --> 01:02:08,160
And to me, that makes as much 
sense as anything else because 

965
01:02:08,160 --> 01:02:12,200
no one has all the real answers 
until it's been empirically 

966
01:02:12,200 --> 01:02:18,400
studied, right? 
But he would ping up and down. 

967
01:02:19,520 --> 01:02:22,360
So one of the things that's 
really important is 

968
01:02:22,360 --> 01:02:29,720
understanding your physicality. 
So when I'm buzzing and overly 

969
01:02:29,720 --> 01:02:34,920
stimulated in either direction, 
the potential for crashing is 

970
01:02:34,920 --> 01:02:39,120
high, right? 
Especially as a neurodivergent 

971
01:02:39,120 --> 01:02:46,240
person, when I can stay even and
steady, I have more wiggle room,

972
01:02:46,240 --> 01:02:49,880
which is why I talk about 
becoming reasonably content. 

973
01:02:50,080 --> 01:02:52,560
The power isn't reasonably 
content because you can go in 

974
01:02:52,560 --> 01:02:54,880
any direction you go. 
Too high, there's only crashing.

975
01:02:55,200 --> 01:02:56,560
You go. 
Too low, it's hard to pull 

976
01:02:56,560 --> 01:02:59,800
yourself up. 
So you need a scaffolding. 

977
01:03:01,000 --> 01:03:03,760
All right? 
And you need to stop judging 

978
01:03:03,760 --> 01:03:05,040
yourself. 
We're humane. 

979
01:03:05,040 --> 01:03:08,360
None of us has this together. 
Nobody has their act together. 

980
01:03:08,600 --> 01:03:12,960
Not one person on this planet is
Lily white. 

981
01:03:12,960 --> 01:03:16,440
Perfection. 
We are humans. 

982
01:03:18,560 --> 01:03:20,800
It's not an excuse to be an 
asshole either. 

983
01:03:22,960 --> 01:03:25,760
We are humans. 
We are spiritual beings having a

984
01:03:25,760 --> 01:03:28,400
human experience. 
As Doctor Wayne Dyer used to 

985
01:03:28,400 --> 01:03:32,080
say, we are spiritualizing 
matter. 

986
01:03:32,320 --> 01:03:36,840
We are spirit made matter. 
Do you know where the word 

987
01:03:36,840 --> 01:03:43,480
Spirit comes from? 
The Latin espree spirit. 

988
01:03:44,240 --> 01:03:46,160
When you talk about spirit, it 
is the. 

989
01:03:46,160 --> 01:03:52,520
Breath in all if we want to 
believe in ancient texts, which 

990
01:03:52,520 --> 01:03:54,160
is really funny. 
All the people who want to make 

991
01:03:54,160 --> 01:03:57,880
a rule about what women do in 
their reproductive and and 

992
01:03:57,880 --> 01:04:01,840
health choices, they all want to
use this Bible thing except they

993
01:04:01,840 --> 01:04:09,120
always forget Genesis. 
Genesis, the beginning, their 

994
01:04:09,120 --> 01:04:13,120
creator breathed life into 
things. 

995
01:04:13,360 --> 01:04:15,640
Life starts with the first 
breath. 

996
01:04:17,080 --> 01:04:22,360
It must be viable. 
It could be assisted breath 

997
01:04:22,360 --> 01:04:23,960
because sure. 
So you know, if you want to 

998
01:04:23,960 --> 01:04:29,840
believe in that text, there was 
assisted breath from the 

999
01:04:29,840 --> 01:04:32,680
beginning. 
So if you're worried about your,

1000
01:04:32,720 --> 01:04:37,280
your preemies, no minute. 
They got oxygen in. 

1001
01:04:39,560 --> 01:04:44,480
That's when life begins. 
Oh, she's on one. 

1002
01:04:44,960 --> 01:04:49,800
OK. 
I just want you to know that my 

1003
01:04:49,800 --> 01:04:51,560
daughter's going to make me look
really cute because. 

1004
01:04:52,000 --> 01:04:54,760
I mean, I get my makeup on, I 
think it's looking pretty good, 

1005
01:04:54,760 --> 01:04:57,240
and I have my lighting set to 
make sure I look better. 

1006
01:04:58,480 --> 01:05:00,640
But my daughter. 
Always makes me look pretty and 

1007
01:05:00,640 --> 01:05:04,400
I'm very blind and I can't put 
my makeup on like fancy anymore 

1008
01:05:04,400 --> 01:05:07,400
so I'm very excited. 
Although I do prefer a natural 

1009
01:05:07,400 --> 01:05:09,240
look. 
More natural. 

1010
01:05:09,240 --> 01:05:13,360
I mean, I can do wild looks, but
I just can't see to do it. 

1011
01:05:13,360 --> 01:05:17,480
So it'll be really nice to have 
her style me and make me all 

1012
01:05:17,480 --> 01:05:23,680
party. 
Resistance, Resistance. 

1013
01:05:23,680 --> 01:05:29,680
Let's talk about resistance. 
Because in fact, Speaking of my 

1014
01:05:29,680 --> 01:05:32,400
daughter, we were talking about 
something and it's a topic I 

1015
01:05:32,400 --> 01:05:35,600
tend to have a reaction to. 
It's a topic I tend to have a 

1016
01:05:35,600 --> 01:05:38,960
reaction to. 
And it comes from old stuff, 

1017
01:05:38,960 --> 01:05:43,160
some of it like family patterns,
like we don't know where it 

1018
01:05:43,160 --> 01:05:49,120
started and like it goes back a 
long way. 

1019
01:05:50,240 --> 01:05:53,480
And for the very. 
First time because normally I'll

1020
01:05:53,480 --> 01:05:57,200
just have a reaction to it and 
and I will stop my reaction say 

1021
01:05:57,200 --> 01:06:00,480
hey, I know you want to talk 
about this. 

1022
01:06:00,640 --> 01:06:05,480
I'm going to try my best, but 
there's just I just it it it 

1023
01:06:05,680 --> 01:06:07,920
it's not you. 
It's literally in me. 

1024
01:06:07,920 --> 01:06:09,240
And she's like, I know get over 
it. 

1025
01:06:10,280 --> 01:06:16,200
Shut up. 
But I ended up feeling literally

1026
01:06:16,200 --> 01:06:19,320
in my frontal lobe and then it 
travelled. 

1027
01:06:19,320 --> 01:06:24,040
It was like a worm. 
It was like, it was like an 

1028
01:06:24,040 --> 01:06:27,960
inclusion in a gem, like it was 
an impurity. 

1029
01:06:29,760 --> 01:06:32,000
Like if you're looking at a 
diamond or something, there was 

1030
01:06:32,000 --> 01:06:35,400
a flaw there. 
But it was more like, more like 

1031
01:06:35,400 --> 01:06:38,120
a computer virus. 
Just, you know, it had to do 

1032
01:06:38,120 --> 01:06:41,640
with programming. 
And I felt like it hurt in my 

1033
01:06:41,640 --> 01:06:44,360
frontal lobe. 
And then it kind of trailed 

1034
01:06:44,400 --> 01:06:46,680
through, up through my brain and
I went whoa. 

1035
01:06:46,680 --> 01:06:49,280
Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa. 
I've never felt this before. 

1036
01:06:49,320 --> 01:06:52,120
I'm becoming conscious of it. 
It's not just a reaction. 

1037
01:06:52,400 --> 01:06:55,960
I think I found the pattern. 
It's just like, OK, I still want

1038
01:06:55,960 --> 01:06:57,800
to talk about this stuff. 
I'm like, can you give me two 

1039
01:06:57,800 --> 01:07:04,400
seconds so I can feel into it 
and adjust because. 

1040
01:07:05,360 --> 01:07:08,080
And don't try this at home 
folks, because I am very well 

1041
01:07:08,080 --> 01:07:12,800
trained in doing these things. 
I've been doing them since 1999.

1042
01:07:13,080 --> 01:07:18,640
Where you feel into the 
discomfort, you intensify it. 

1043
01:07:18,640 --> 01:07:23,960
If it's pain, you intensify it 
without story, without 

1044
01:07:23,960 --> 01:07:29,240
judgement. 
You feel it for release because 

1045
01:07:29,280 --> 01:07:32,600
the more you intensify it and 
then accept it as is. 

1046
01:07:33,160 --> 01:07:35,600
No story. 
And this is the part where 

1047
01:07:35,600 --> 01:07:38,440
everybody gets stuck. 
Everybody wants the fucking 

1048
01:07:38,480 --> 01:07:42,840
story. 
I hurt this bad because no, no, 

1049
01:07:42,840 --> 01:07:45,840
no, just I hurt. 
I hurt. 

1050
01:07:46,800 --> 01:07:50,760
I hurt because you'll feel it in
the butt. 

1051
01:07:50,760 --> 01:07:53,000
Wherever I hurt, I have 
discomfort. 

1052
01:07:53,000 --> 01:07:54,400
There's a numbness, there's 
something. 

1053
01:07:54,400 --> 01:07:56,120
There will be a physical 
sensation. 

1054
01:07:56,480 --> 01:07:59,120
And please don't try this at 
home if you've never done it, 

1055
01:07:59,160 --> 01:08:01,720
OK? 
Please don't because it can be a

1056
01:08:01,720 --> 01:08:04,720
lot. 
I had a lot of training and 

1057
01:08:04,720 --> 01:08:07,280
guidance. 
But what you do, you feel into 

1058
01:08:07,280 --> 01:08:10,520
things and then you accept them.
It's radical acceptance. 

1059
01:08:11,000 --> 01:08:14,360
I had that happen in a therapy 
session about a month into 

1060
01:08:14,360 --> 01:08:16,880
working with my therapist. 
Who if you're? 

1061
01:08:16,880 --> 01:08:24,319
Listening, I love you and I hit 
a. 

1062
01:08:24,319 --> 01:08:30,560
Big. 
Big owie where my whole chest 

1063
01:08:30,600 --> 01:08:35,040
constricted and I took a breath 
and I told my therapist, I said 

1064
01:08:35,160 --> 01:08:38,800
I know it's not a heart attack 
but if I don't take care of it, 

1065
01:08:38,800 --> 01:08:44,840
it could become one. 
And I said I need a second. 

1066
01:08:45,000 --> 01:08:49,960
Let me just move this through. 
And I took a deep breath and I 

1067
01:08:49,960 --> 01:08:57,319
did the process and she while I 
was doing it, and I'm breathing 

1068
01:08:57,319 --> 01:09:00,399
and I'm moving the energy 
through and I feel things 

1069
01:09:00,399 --> 01:09:02,479
lightning and how do I know the 
difference? 

1070
01:09:02,479 --> 01:09:05,640
I do because I've had training. 
Please don't do it at home. 

1071
01:09:08,479 --> 01:09:12,960
She said, Oh my God, this is 
radical exception, acceptance in

1072
01:09:12,960 --> 01:09:15,080
action. 
And I said, I took a breath and 

1073
01:09:15,080 --> 01:09:20,200
I said, yes, it is. 
I trained with some very, very, 

1074
01:09:20,200 --> 01:09:26,720
very good teachers and experts, 
and a lot of people would start 

1075
01:09:26,720 --> 01:09:29,359
the training and go and run the 
other way. 

1076
01:09:29,359 --> 01:09:34,240
Because it is unpleasant. 
Because in looking at the 

1077
01:09:34,240 --> 01:09:39,319
resistance to life, whether it's
the resistance to looking at our

1078
01:09:39,319 --> 01:09:48,479
own rejection, our grief, our 
loss, our abandonment, whatever 

1079
01:09:49,080 --> 01:09:51,000
feeling it is, we can resist 
joy. 

1080
01:09:51,760 --> 01:09:56,520
When we cry because we're happy 
is because we're resisting the 

1081
01:09:56,520 --> 01:10:02,840
joy, because we're being soul 
filled and we haven't widened 

1082
01:10:02,840 --> 01:10:10,440
our channels of reception. 
And sometimes love can make your

1083
01:10:10,800 --> 01:10:13,560
and I'm talking about real love.
I'm not talking about, oh, I 

1084
01:10:13,560 --> 01:10:15,160
want to bang you. 
That's my love. 

1085
01:10:15,160 --> 01:10:17,880
That's chemistry. 
But real love, being accepted, 

1086
01:10:17,880 --> 01:10:20,760
having somebody look you in the 
eyes and say I love you. 

1087
01:10:22,880 --> 01:10:25,440
It's huge. 
And sometimes it's a little bit 

1088
01:10:25,440 --> 01:10:35,840
much to receive. 
We can hold ourselves without 

1089
01:10:35,840 --> 01:10:39,880
judgement. 
We can learn to stop telling the

1090
01:10:39,880 --> 01:10:46,200
stories that either reinforce 
the wound or the resistance. 

1091
01:10:46,320 --> 01:10:49,160
There are things we naturally 
resist. 

1092
01:10:50,200 --> 01:10:52,240
There are things we naturally 
resist. 

1093
01:10:52,680 --> 01:10:55,800
Breakups are hard. 
You feel rejected or you feel 

1094
01:10:55,800 --> 01:10:59,640
oppressed. 
Nobody wants to say go, Yeah. 

1095
01:10:59,640 --> 01:11:05,960
I had a breakup, now getting to 
the point where you make the 

1096
01:11:05,960 --> 01:11:08,320
decision to leave. 
Can be hard if you're not happy.

1097
01:11:09,600 --> 01:11:13,280
I remember years ago when I was 
leaving my second marriage, 

1098
01:11:13,280 --> 01:11:16,560
where I had not been happy 
mostly from the beginning. 

1099
01:11:19,360 --> 01:11:22,280
I also didn't have very good 
boundaries from the beginning, 

1100
01:11:22,520 --> 01:11:26,360
and I didn't really know how to 
say no and hold it. 

1101
01:11:26,920 --> 01:11:30,480
I didn't know, and that's nobody
else's fault. 

1102
01:11:30,480 --> 01:11:36,160
I had to build those skills. 
But a lot of what held me back 

1103
01:11:36,160 --> 01:11:39,600
was what will these people think
of me? 

1104
01:11:41,280 --> 01:11:42,560
They're going to think I'm an 
asshole. 

1105
01:11:42,560 --> 01:11:43,840
They're going to think I'm 
greedy. 

1106
01:11:43,840 --> 01:11:46,760
They're going to think I'm 
ungrateful. 

1107
01:11:46,760 --> 01:11:49,560
They're going to think I'm a bad
woman. 

1108
01:11:50,200 --> 01:11:53,240
I'm already been divorced. 
This is a twice divorced. 

1109
01:11:53,240 --> 01:11:58,440
Woman, what does that make me? 
What kind of whore? 

1110
01:11:59,840 --> 01:12:05,280
When he said what I had done is 
when I wasn't safe the first 

1111
01:12:05,280 --> 01:12:10,040
time, so I left to keep my 
children safe the second time, 

1112
01:12:11,440 --> 01:12:14,800
it was because I wanted to live 
wholly as myself and that looked

1113
01:12:14,800 --> 01:12:19,480
selfish. 
You're damn right it was. 

1114
01:12:20,120 --> 01:12:23,760
I was not willing. 
To sacrifice myself on the altar

1115
01:12:23,760 --> 01:12:27,720
of society's expectations. 
And it was a hard decision to 

1116
01:12:27,720 --> 01:12:29,480
make, especially for a Libra 
moon. 

1117
01:12:31,440 --> 01:12:35,760
And I lost a lot of friends, an 
extended family because of it. 

1118
01:12:37,600 --> 01:12:39,560
And at the time it was very 
difficult. 

1119
01:12:39,560 --> 01:12:43,400
Now I couldn't be happier that I
did it, but there was big 

1120
01:12:43,400 --> 01:12:46,440
resistance leaving it, like my 
arms would burn. 

1121
01:12:49,000 --> 01:12:53,000
It was all the old social. 
Programs and hundreds upon 

1122
01:12:53,000 --> 01:12:57,280
hundreds of years of no, you 
need to be a good woman. 

1123
01:12:57,280 --> 01:12:59,400
You need to stay. 
It's OK if you die. 

1124
01:13:00,400 --> 01:13:02,560
You've been a good woman. 
You'll go to heaven. 

1125
01:13:06,520 --> 01:13:11,920
Wow, I wasn't willing to die on 
the altar of society's 

1126
01:13:11,920 --> 01:13:16,600
expectations. 
What a horrible human being. 

1127
01:13:18,680 --> 01:13:22,120
That. 
Resistance is the discomfort, 

1128
01:13:22,120 --> 01:13:25,040
the tension patterns, etcetera, 
and we can breathe into them 

1129
01:13:25,040 --> 01:13:27,320
without story and allow them to 
release. 

1130
01:13:27,320 --> 01:13:32,880
It does take time and practice. 
Of course we're going to grieve 

1131
01:13:32,920 --> 01:13:40,800
and resist the death of a loved 
one because we love them. 

1132
01:13:42,240 --> 01:13:46,400
There's no judgement on grief 
there, but there's no judgement 

1133
01:13:46,400 --> 01:13:51,920
on anger either. 
There's no judgement I'm feeling

1134
01:13:51,920 --> 01:13:53,880
rejected. 
There's no judgement. 

1135
01:13:53,920 --> 01:13:58,000
I'm not feeling up to the task. 
There's no judgement on any of 

1136
01:13:58,000 --> 01:14:00,520
the emotions we have. 
It is the judgement that is the 

1137
01:14:00,520 --> 01:14:02,920
resistance and produces the 
greatest reaction. 

1138
01:14:03,360 --> 01:14:07,400
It is the story where there is 
judgment because judgment isn't 

1139
01:14:07,400 --> 01:14:09,720
condemnation. 
Judgment moralizes, but it is 

1140
01:14:09,720 --> 01:14:12,320
not condemnation. 
When we condemn ourselves with 

1141
01:14:12,320 --> 01:14:16,400
shame, blaming guilt, that is 
also resentment, and we can 

1142
01:14:16,400 --> 01:14:21,120
release these out of the body. 
But one of the reasons people 

1143
01:14:21,520 --> 01:14:24,840
intellectualize, you'll learn 
all the knowledge. 

1144
01:14:24,840 --> 01:14:27,080
I could teach you everything. 
I could verbally tell you 

1145
01:14:27,080 --> 01:14:29,440
everything, and you still 
wouldn't be able to practice it 

1146
01:14:29,440 --> 01:14:30,920
because you don't put it into 
action. 

1147
01:14:30,920 --> 01:14:32,560
Because we've been taught to 
have knowledge. 

1148
01:14:32,560 --> 01:14:36,040
Knowledge is power. 
Knowledge is not power unless 

1149
01:14:36,040 --> 01:14:39,320
you know what to do with it. 
There are a lot of people who've

1150
01:14:39,320 --> 01:14:41,680
gone to Ivy League schools who 
are unemployed, and that is 

1151
01:14:41,680 --> 01:14:45,520
because they didn't know how to 
operate in the system. 

1152
01:14:45,800 --> 01:14:48,720
They weren't good at making 
decisions for themselves, 

1153
01:14:48,720 --> 01:14:51,120
judgement calls. 
They didn't know how to make 

1154
01:14:51,120 --> 01:14:54,160
networks. 
They have a head full of facts 

1155
01:14:55,320 --> 01:15:00,800
and no ability to apply them. 
Knowledge is not power unless 

1156
01:15:01,320 --> 01:15:10,400
you know what to do with it. 
I can't count when I when I was 

1157
01:15:10,400 --> 01:15:12,600
being. 
Charitable and I charged a lot 

1158
01:15:12,600 --> 01:15:15,720
less for readings on a TikTok 
special and it's so funny 

1159
01:15:15,720 --> 01:15:18,120
because the people who didn't 
knew me before TikTok like. 

1160
01:15:18,640 --> 01:15:21,200
Well, you got famous on TikTok 
and then you raised your prices.

1161
01:15:21,200 --> 01:15:24,320
No, no, no, no, no. 
I got famous on. 

1162
01:15:24,320 --> 01:15:30,080
TikTok lowered my prices to be 
of service during a global 

1163
01:15:30,080 --> 01:15:33,960
pandemic, and then I brought 
them back up to where they 

1164
01:15:33,960 --> 01:15:39,480
belonged and had been. 
Mama ain't cheap, nor should I 

1165
01:15:39,480 --> 01:15:42,120
be. 
Because when I had them. 

1166
01:15:42,160 --> 01:15:45,720
Very low priced, trying to help 
as many young people, especially

1167
01:15:45,720 --> 01:15:49,000
as I could, people who, you 
know, maybe worked in food 

1168
01:15:49,000 --> 01:15:52,040
service and couldn't work at 
their jobs or etcetera, 

1169
01:15:52,040 --> 01:15:55,560
etcetera, etcetera, right. 
Because I'm a mom, I'm a mom and

1170
01:15:55,560 --> 01:15:58,880
my kids were in that age group. 
And I thought, I want to, I want

1171
01:15:58,880 --> 01:16:03,320
to be able to help these babies.
And I got a lot of. 

1172
01:16:03,320 --> 01:16:05,040
Clients. 
Oh, I know about my chart. 

1173
01:16:05,160 --> 01:16:07,880
I know about my chart. 
I've read this book, I know 

1174
01:16:07,880 --> 01:16:10,720
about my chart and they weren't 
absolutely unreceptive to 

1175
01:16:10,720 --> 01:16:15,360
hearing how to use their chart. 
And I had the saying that I 

1176
01:16:15,360 --> 01:16:18,080
would say as I'm dealing out 
well, I know, I know astrology, 

1177
01:16:18,080 --> 01:16:20,640
I've been into it. 
I read this book when I was like

1178
01:16:20,640 --> 01:16:25,520
10. 
That is like a 14 year old 

1179
01:16:25,520 --> 01:16:31,040
telling you you you're immature 
and they are mature, especially 

1180
01:16:31,040 --> 01:16:33,040
when you're dealing with 
somebody who's a master at what 

1181
01:16:33,040 --> 01:16:35,840
they do. 
I would be like, really? 

1182
01:16:37,000 --> 01:16:39,080
I didn't always correct people. 
I'd be like, wow, you're really 

1183
01:16:39,080 --> 01:16:41,080
committed to that. 
I'm just going to let you sit 

1184
01:16:41,080 --> 01:16:44,080
there. 
Go on. 

1185
01:16:44,800 --> 01:16:48,000
If you won't be receptive. 
I'm not asking you to do agree 

1186
01:16:48,000 --> 01:16:50,320
with everything I have to say, 
but if you know everything, why 

1187
01:16:50,320 --> 01:16:57,840
are you here? 
Well, I know all my placements. 

1188
01:16:57,840 --> 01:16:59,120
That's great, and I'm glad you 
do. 

1189
01:16:59,120 --> 01:17:02,000
But I if do you know how to 
synthesize it. 

1190
01:17:03,840 --> 01:17:07,000
And then I'll watch people write
about their placements and I'll 

1191
01:17:07,000 --> 01:17:14,400
be like, maybe you don't know 
because you haven't dedicated 

1192
01:17:14,400 --> 01:17:18,560
your life to a subject. 
I don't know everything there is

1193
01:17:18,560 --> 01:17:21,120
to know about eyeballs, even 
though I've been going to 

1194
01:17:21,120 --> 01:17:23,840
optometrists and 
ophthalmologists my whole life. 

1195
01:17:25,080 --> 01:17:28,280
I know enough to explain what's 
wrong with me and make sure the 

1196
01:17:28,280 --> 01:17:31,760
doctor can deal with me. 
And then I'm open to new 

1197
01:17:31,760 --> 01:17:36,240
information because guess what? 
I have not dedicated my life to 

1198
01:17:36,240 --> 01:17:38,480
being an ophthalmologist or an 
optometrist. 

1199
01:17:41,360 --> 01:17:46,160
When it comes to fashion, I know
what I like, but I do not design

1200
01:17:46,160 --> 01:17:50,760
clothes. 
I would not presume to tell. 

1201
01:17:50,800 --> 01:17:54,240
Someone who is a master cutter. 
How to cut the fabric. 

1202
01:17:57,080 --> 01:18:06,470
Same goes for astrology. 
And you do it in anything. 

1203
01:18:06,830 --> 01:18:09,190
Oh, I know all about that. 
I when I teach business. 

1204
01:18:09,190 --> 01:18:10,830
Oh, I know all about marketing. 
Really. 

1205
01:18:13,350 --> 01:18:16,310
Why are your numbers so low? 
Oh, I know what to do. 

1206
01:18:16,310 --> 01:18:24,990
OK, why aren't you doing it? 
And I am not judging or blaming,

1207
01:18:25,230 --> 01:18:27,350
but I am saying that's what's in
the way. 

1208
01:18:27,960 --> 01:18:33,200
Knowledge is not power unless 
you know what to do with it. 

1209
01:18:33,720 --> 01:18:39,040
You can study all day long and. 
Gain more and more and more. 

1210
01:18:39,040 --> 01:18:43,920
Facts until your head is this 
big. 

1211
01:18:46,520 --> 01:18:49,480
But if you do not know how to 
apply it, it does nothing for 

1212
01:18:49,480 --> 01:18:51,480
your life. 
It's just random facts. 

1213
01:18:51,480 --> 01:18:54,360
And you're great at a cocktail 
party or you're good at 

1214
01:18:54,360 --> 01:18:56,320
jeopardy. 
But knowledge is not power 

1215
01:18:56,320 --> 01:18:57,720
unless you know what to do with 
it. 

1216
01:18:57,720 --> 01:19:00,440
What advice, wisdom, message 
would you share with every 

1217
01:19:00,440 --> 01:19:03,880
single person in the whole world
if you could communicate them 

1218
01:19:04,240 --> 01:19:06,720
and they receive the message as 
intended? 

1219
01:19:09,520 --> 01:19:15,960
You are precious. 
You are precious, every single 

1220
01:19:15,960 --> 01:19:23,240
one of you, and your life will 
change immensely the more you 

1221
01:19:23,240 --> 01:19:30,400
begin to understand how very 
precious you are in the whole 

1222
01:19:30,400 --> 01:19:35,400
scheme of the universe. 
That's what I'm going to say. 

1223
01:19:35,520 --> 01:19:37,880
That and knowledge isn't power 
unless you know how to use it. 

1224
01:19:42,200 --> 01:19:46,240
Andy is asking not particularly 
a question, but I'd love to know

1225
01:19:46,240 --> 01:19:50,320
more about your experiences with
Spirit or how you connect to 

1226
01:19:50,320 --> 01:19:52,760
your guys when you need hope or 
leaning unto faith. 

1227
01:19:52,800 --> 01:20:02,120
OK so I was born weird Andy. 
I was. 

1228
01:20:02,240 --> 01:20:07,120
I was seeing stuff as a kid. 
By the way, I've been tested. 

1229
01:20:07,120 --> 01:20:13,120
I have 0 clinical markers. 
Even when I was like 3 years 

1230
01:20:13,120 --> 01:20:15,600
old, I would beg my mom to take 
me to the Portland Japanese 

1231
01:20:15,600 --> 01:20:19,600
gardens and she would take me 
and I would bolt. 

1232
01:20:19,680 --> 01:20:22,360
Like I was usually a very 
cautious child. 

1233
01:20:22,360 --> 01:20:24,680
Like I would hold on to my mom. 
I was afraid of getting into 

1234
01:20:24,680 --> 01:20:26,480
trouble. 
Like my mom never yelled. 

1235
01:20:26,480 --> 01:20:31,240
It's just I was really obedient 
and but I would bolt the minute 

1236
01:20:31,240 --> 01:20:33,480
we got there. 
And I would run as fast as I 

1237
01:20:33,480 --> 01:20:36,680
could to get to the sand garden,
the Zen garden. 

1238
01:20:36,680 --> 01:20:38,360
And that's where the monks would
come. 

1239
01:20:40,000 --> 01:20:43,160
And I would run, run, run, run, 
run as fast as they could. 

1240
01:20:43,400 --> 01:20:45,440
And I would wait. 
I wouldn't let my mom take me 

1241
01:20:45,440 --> 01:20:47,960
until they showed up. 
Except like, they there would be

1242
01:20:47,960 --> 01:20:50,240
signs or something saying when 
they wouldn't be there. 

1243
01:20:50,720 --> 01:20:54,120
But they, they mostly showed up 
every time we were there, at 

1244
01:20:54,120 --> 01:20:56,320
least in my memory, because I 
was three. 

1245
01:20:56,320 --> 01:20:59,080
OK, I have a cancer, Mercury. 
I can remember a lot. 

1246
01:20:59,360 --> 01:21:02,080
However, am I gonna remember 
everything from when I was 

1247
01:21:02,080 --> 01:21:04,840
three? 
I mean, like, that's 53 years 

1248
01:21:04,840 --> 01:21:08,480
ago. 
But what I do have a very clear 

1249
01:21:08,480 --> 01:21:12,880
visual of is sitting in 
meditation in the Lotus 

1250
01:21:12,880 --> 01:21:17,480
position. 
I'm being very, very connected. 

1251
01:21:17,480 --> 01:21:19,800
Like, I have always had a sense 
of connection. 

1252
01:21:21,400 --> 01:21:25,920
And when the monks would come 
by, I'd really like brothers. 

1253
01:21:26,480 --> 01:21:29,000
Hello. 
Brothers and they would be like,

1254
01:21:30,600 --> 01:21:33,760
you know, like we're not 
shouting now, but I was be just 

1255
01:21:33,840 --> 01:21:38,520
joy filled and I can still feel 
that burst from the heart. 

1256
01:21:38,920 --> 01:21:42,840
So I must have been a monkey in 
a monastery at some time. 

1257
01:21:44,960 --> 01:21:49,400
At least once. 
I've always been connected, but 

1258
01:21:49,400 --> 01:21:54,880
I have also been disconnected 
through pain, rage, anger and 

1259
01:21:54,880 --> 01:22:00,520
fear. 
Usually not for a ton of time 

1260
01:22:00,520 --> 01:22:10,040
like, but there were times I was
very, very angry in my teens, 

1261
01:22:10,040 --> 01:22:21,040
which is normal, but I don't I 
wouldn't be alive if I didn't 

1262
01:22:21,040 --> 01:22:24,840
have a sense of hope. 
I always believed life could get

1263
01:22:24,840 --> 01:22:28,680
better because any and and 
honestly my guidance. 

1264
01:22:30,120 --> 01:22:38,640
My guidance explained to me that
one of the reasons I have 

1265
01:22:38,840 --> 01:22:48,280
obvious ability and obvious to 
me connection was to help keep 

1266
01:22:48,280 --> 01:22:55,120
me in mostly one piece as I went
through resistance to my 

1267
01:22:55,120 --> 01:22:58,520
presence on this planet to be of
service. 

1268
01:23:00,480 --> 01:23:12,600
Gravity is heavy and there are 
conflicting agendas that might 

1269
01:23:13,000 --> 01:23:15,360
be resistant. 
Sometimes we have to deal with 

1270
01:23:15,360 --> 01:23:16,920
other people's resistance, 
right? 

1271
01:23:18,760 --> 01:23:22,880
And this was to keep me where I 
could navigate and hope. 

1272
01:23:22,880 --> 01:23:28,640
So I was blessed with a natural 
ability to connect and to have 

1273
01:23:28,640 --> 01:23:30,520
faith. 
Now, did I always understand 

1274
01:23:30,520 --> 01:23:33,400
stuff? 
So as I got older and I want 

1275
01:23:33,400 --> 01:23:38,440
didn't want to be a weirdo 
because I didn't. 

1276
01:23:39,880 --> 01:23:41,840
Like, I don't want people to 
know I do this stuff. 

1277
01:23:41,920 --> 01:23:43,720
This is weird. 
And people are going to think 

1278
01:23:43,720 --> 01:23:45,160
I'm a witch. 
They're going to think I'm a 

1279
01:23:45,160 --> 01:23:47,880
weirdo. 
They're going to want. 

1280
01:23:49,800 --> 01:24:00,530
I still kind of feel that way. 
I didn't have names for what I 

1281
01:24:00,530 --> 01:24:05,040
did. 
So I just did stuff, you know, 

1282
01:24:05,040 --> 01:24:12,080
whether it was energy work, 
healing work, I didn't, I didn't

1283
01:24:12,080 --> 01:24:15,440
have names for the things I 
could see or do. 

1284
01:24:16,200 --> 01:24:21,160
And so I got training later and 
they showed up like my guidance 

1285
01:24:21,160 --> 01:24:23,280
as always. 
And this is when I say I'm a 

1286
01:24:23,280 --> 01:24:26,280
world server. 
Doesn't make me better than 

1287
01:24:26,280 --> 01:24:34,920
anybody else, but my soul's 
intent is to be of service in 

1288
01:24:34,920 --> 01:24:38,920
this lifetime, in this body, and
some of that service was 

1289
01:24:38,920 --> 01:24:43,080
learning through experience how 
to manage through resistance. 

1290
01:24:43,440 --> 01:24:44,360
How? 
To. 

1291
01:24:45,160 --> 01:24:48,280
Manage through the resistance to
my presence on the planet? 

1292
01:24:49,200 --> 01:24:54,840
How to manage through resisting 
my own presence on the planet. 

1293
01:24:55,880 --> 01:24:57,680
There was a lot of time I didn't
want to be here. 

1294
01:24:57,920 --> 01:25:00,560
I was like what do I need to do 
to fulfill this so I can leave 

1295
01:25:01,520 --> 01:25:03,680
because I'm done. 
I it hurt. 

1296
01:25:05,160 --> 01:25:09,200
I don't share the whole of my 
story, not because I am ashamed,

1297
01:25:11,880 --> 01:25:22,240
but because it is so extreme 
that I do not wish to add to 

1298
01:25:22,240 --> 01:25:25,480
those who have yet to heals 
experience. 

1299
01:25:31,480 --> 01:25:36,680
It is enough to know there are 
people who'd be very shocked to 

1300
01:25:36,680 --> 01:25:45,800
see where I am today, not 
because of things I did to me, 

1301
01:25:46,680 --> 01:25:50,040
but because of what had been 
done to me. 

1302
01:25:52,560 --> 01:26:01,040
I bend and I do not break. 
Learning how to cease that 

1303
01:26:01,040 --> 01:26:03,840
narrative being the main part of
my story. 

1304
01:26:03,840 --> 01:26:08,480
So I focus on service and I 
focus on teaching and I focus on

1305
01:26:08,480 --> 01:26:13,040
empowering you. 
And I'm sure I piss people off. 

1306
01:26:13,040 --> 01:26:22,760
I'm OK with that. 
I no longer fear as long as I 

1307
01:26:22,760 --> 01:26:27,200
can be of service. 
I'm OK with being a weirdo. 

1308
01:26:32,520 --> 01:26:37,040
But yeah, so how do I connect? 
One of those is I can take in a 

1309
01:26:37,040 --> 01:26:39,160
deep breath. 
The breath is important. 

1310
01:26:39,160 --> 01:26:42,000
And I just take anymore. 
I just take 1 short breath and 

1311
01:26:42,000 --> 01:26:45,560
we're there. 
So I have a mantra that I use. 

1312
01:26:45,560 --> 01:26:48,520
I have a mantra. 
It's very quick. 

1313
01:26:54,840 --> 01:27:00,160
I talk to my guys all the time. 
It's hard, Andy, when you're 

1314
01:27:00,160 --> 01:27:03,960
younger because the hormones are
going off. 

1315
01:27:04,120 --> 01:27:06,680
Your amygdala is still very 
active. 

1316
01:27:06,960 --> 01:27:11,360
And as we both know, your Saturn
return and mine happen at the 

1317
01:27:11,360 --> 01:27:13,640
same time. 
We will be Saturn return. 

1318
01:27:13,640 --> 01:27:18,040
Betty's. 
You're just in that last walk 

1319
01:27:18,040 --> 01:27:22,320
before that and and that's 
honestly it. 

1320
01:27:22,360 --> 01:27:27,720
I was just as dramatic when I 
was young, and I was very angry 

1321
01:27:27,720 --> 01:27:31,920
and I was very sad and I was 
very hurt and I didn't have the 

1322
01:27:31,920 --> 01:27:35,960
mentors just yet. 
The mentors started coming. 

1323
01:27:36,800 --> 01:27:38,560
I. 
Don't know, maybe when I was 25,

1324
01:27:38,560 --> 01:27:40,440
but I thought a lot of them were
full of bullshit. 

1325
01:27:40,600 --> 01:27:45,280
So that's why I don't ever 
expect the young people to be 

1326
01:27:45,280 --> 01:27:47,440
totally into this room like 
she's full of shit. 

1327
01:27:48,040 --> 01:27:51,400
She doesn't get it. 
This is what my life has been 

1328
01:27:51,400 --> 01:27:53,560
like. 
It was different for you. 

1329
01:27:55,400 --> 01:27:59,400
I'm like, Oh yeah, I never said 
that when I was young, not at 

1330
01:27:59,400 --> 01:28:00,800
all. 
And it was different. 

1331
01:28:01,000 --> 01:28:02,600
There were different 
circumstances. 

1332
01:28:02,600 --> 01:28:04,120
You're right, we are where we 
are now. 

1333
01:28:04,800 --> 01:28:08,440
But it doesn't mean there isn't 
process and technique that can 

1334
01:28:08,440 --> 01:28:11,160
help you move through even the 
most difficult of times. 

1335
01:28:11,720 --> 01:28:17,520
So Andy, I would say, I say you 
have a lot of belief. 

1336
01:28:17,520 --> 01:28:21,680
I don't think you don't. 
I think, you know, you're 

1337
01:28:21,680 --> 01:28:24,160
connected to your guides. 
I think for you maybe doing a 

1338
01:28:24,160 --> 01:28:26,560
ritual would be good. 
I think everybody has a way to 

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tune in. 
You know, when I was younger, if

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I lit a candle and I watched it 
burn, that would help me with my

1341
01:28:34,440 --> 01:28:39,880
I had a lot of rage justifiably,
and burning candles helped me do

1342
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that. 
I was not a pyro. 

1343
01:28:41,200 --> 01:28:43,240
I, in fact, I was afraid of 
burning my house down. 

1344
01:28:43,240 --> 01:28:47,200
So there was always a lot of 
safety that helped. 

1345
01:28:50,280 --> 01:28:57,920
I never wanted to do any kind of
erasure of my memory. 

1346
01:28:59,680 --> 01:29:02,000
I know there was a lot of that. 
Like, my friend's mom was a 

1347
01:29:02,000 --> 01:29:06,080
therapist back when I was like, 
29, and she told me to try this 

1348
01:29:06,080 --> 01:29:08,680
technique. 
It erases the trauma from your 

1349
01:29:08,680 --> 01:29:14,400
mind. 
And I was like, I don't know, do

1350
01:29:14,440 --> 01:29:17,480
I really want to erase it? 
Well, you don't want to remember

1351
01:29:17,480 --> 01:29:19,160
it. 
Like there's a lot of things I 

1352
01:29:19,160 --> 01:29:21,440
don't want to remember, but I. 
Do I can remember good stuff 

1353
01:29:21,440 --> 01:29:24,600
too? 
But I was like but isn't that 

1354
01:29:24,600 --> 01:29:28,640
denial? 
Isn't that not acknowledging 

1355
01:29:28,640 --> 01:29:32,240
that experience is part of my 
walk? 

1356
01:29:33,360 --> 01:29:39,120
And can't I heal from the 
traumatic parts of that while 

1357
01:29:39,120 --> 01:29:44,320
understanding it is still part 
of my walk, you know? 

1358
01:29:44,360 --> 01:29:47,320
No, I don't want the triggers. 
No, I don't want the cortisol 

1359
01:29:47,320 --> 01:29:49,680
spikes. 
No, I don't want these heavy 

1360
01:29:49,680 --> 01:29:54,240
things. 
But if IA recent isn't that, I 

1361
01:29:54,240 --> 01:29:56,600
don't see that as having been 
healed, I don't think. 

1362
01:29:56,760 --> 01:29:59,560
And this is me personally, guys,
I'm not judging you if you 

1363
01:29:59,560 --> 01:30:04,920
believe differently, but to me 
it wasn't really healing unless 

1364
01:30:04,920 --> 01:30:06,920
I could look it straight in the 
face and I wasn't triggered 

1365
01:30:06,920 --> 01:30:11,840
anymore. 
That took a very long time, so 

1366
01:30:11,840 --> 01:30:13,120
I'm not telling you to do it 
now. 

1367
01:30:13,120 --> 01:30:16,800
Don't jump in with both feet. 
A lot of times people do so with

1368
01:30:16,800 --> 01:30:21,480
enthusiasm and jump in with both
feet and that is that high to 

1369
01:30:21,480 --> 01:30:25,880
low rubber ball of consciousness
that I talked about that will 

1370
01:30:25,880 --> 01:30:32,120
just that is stress you. 
It's better to go chunk chunk. 

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01:30:32,520 --> 01:30:34,440
Oops. 
I keep hitting my mic, chunk, 

1372
01:30:34,440 --> 01:30:37,400
chunk, chunk, chunk, chunk, 
chunk, chunk, chunk, step by 

1373
01:30:37,400 --> 01:30:41,080
step by step. 
And in the healing, the money 

1374
01:30:41,080 --> 01:30:42,960
wound work. 
Believe it or not, it's a 

1375
01:30:42,960 --> 01:30:46,440
framework far beyond money, far 
beyond money. 

1376
01:30:47,280 --> 01:30:49,760
It is about creating stability 
in the system. 

1377
01:30:49,760 --> 01:30:53,080
So you create stability, you 
integrate, you go to the next 

1378
01:30:53,080 --> 01:30:56,520
step, stability, integrate, go 
to the next step. 

1379
01:30:56,760 --> 01:31:00,760
That's how you learn language. 
That is how you learn math. 

1380
01:31:01,080 --> 01:31:03,760
That is how you learn to 
function in a job. 

1381
01:31:04,000 --> 01:31:06,960
That is how you master any 
subject and that is how you 

1382
01:31:06,960 --> 01:31:12,400
master yourself. 
So it's coming is my answer. 

1383
01:31:12,800 --> 01:31:15,440
All right, I went all over the 
place with that man. 

1384
01:31:15,440 --> 01:31:18,440
This segment's almost an hour. 
I hope you really enjoy this 

1385
01:31:19,200 --> 01:31:21,320
because it was actually really 
fun to do. 

1386
01:31:21,920 --> 01:31:25,600
There's going to be more fun 
content coming out. 

1387
01:31:25,600 --> 01:31:30,760
Just going to be a while before 
you see this set again because 

1388
01:31:30,760 --> 01:31:33,960
I'm going to be eating stinky 
cheese. 

1389
01:31:35,400 --> 01:31:37,920
I will still be active all over 
the place. 

1390
01:31:38,000 --> 01:31:39,400
I know I've been quiet in the 
test lab. 

1391
01:31:39,400 --> 01:31:42,040
Guys, I'm really, really sorry. 
But good stuff is coming, so 

1392
01:31:42,040 --> 01:31:45,680
hold tight. 
You guys want to check out the 

1393
01:31:45,680 --> 01:31:47,880
show notes. 
You'll see the links to the 

1394
01:31:47,880 --> 01:31:49,800
different events. 
Make sure you sign up. 

1395
01:31:50,200 --> 01:31:52,480
For. 
Charts and channeling with 

1396
01:31:52,480 --> 01:31:55,280
Matilda and I. 
We are the sassy Sears and we 

1397
01:31:55,280 --> 01:31:58,280
are hilarious if we do so say so
ourselves. 

1398
01:31:58,280 --> 01:32:01,720
And we do often. 
But it's 50 bucks. 

1399
01:32:01,720 --> 01:32:05,800
We tried to keep it in reach so 
that as many people as possible.

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01:32:05,800 --> 01:32:08,520
There's still tickets left. 
You can access those to the link

1401
01:32:08,520 --> 01:32:12,320
in the show notes. 
And just if you're patron, God 

1402
01:32:12,320 --> 01:32:14,520
bless you. 
If you're a new, like if you're 

1403
01:32:14,520 --> 01:32:18,800
a free patron and you've been 
thinking about joining as a 

1404
01:32:18,800 --> 01:32:22,040
supporting member, hold tight. 
I've got discounts coming for 

1405
01:32:22,040 --> 01:32:25,680
you for all people signing up 
with a new membership. 

1406
01:32:26,120 --> 01:32:30,360
I'm Lori Rivers, and I'll see 
you from across the pond next 

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01:32:30,360 --> 01:32:30,600
week.